This program me contains strong language
Hands by your side. Sit.
For the select few, this process might make them,
but for the majority of these celebrities...
Guards!
...it will completely break them.
Hands. Walk.
Move! Incoming, let's go!
In this series...
Squeeze it in! ..16 celebrity recruits...
Crawl! Zip it!
...will leave their glamorous lives behind.
Lay down on the ground!
Get in there!
They will be put through the most gruelling stages
of SAS selection...
Down!
...by an elite team of ex-special forces soldiers.
Honesty, integrity, trust -
everything we've installed in you from day one.
Everything!
No allowances or exceptions will be made.
Get on your stomach!
I'm not scared of getting dirty,
but I'm going to have to change these.
I can just about open my car door.
Go! Wow, wow, wow! Whoa, whoa!
My mum does not want me to do this.
She's scared I'm going to get injured.
I think she's really not looking forward to that.
Get into it!
I've seen pressure...
I need support now!
...so what I'm going to face on this course
is water off a duck's back.
Take him down!
Ow! Like an injured slug.
Lift up your boat!
No other test asks as much...
Ah! Ah! Ah! You've got it. Let's go.
Well done, Zo-Zo.
...or means as much...
HE SOBS
Well done. ..to the few who make it through.
Welcome to your worst nightmare.
Oh, my God, the sun.
Of the 16 celebrity recruits who began...
The sun is out.
...just 12 remain.
Give me that sun, please. I'm soaked.
It's going to be sunny today,
so for those of us who need it, suntan lotion.
I will definitely need it.
Today's going to be a hard day.
It feels so nice.
You won't be saying that after about ten minutes of walking in it.
Get on parade!
Let's do it. Let's go. Let's go.
After four days of rain, the weather has taken a turn,
with the temperature already over 40 degrees.
It is hot!
SHE EXHALES SHARPLY This heat is brutal.
I don't care whether you want water. Everybody down water, OK?
ALL: Yes, staff.
When you're working alongside comrades on the battlefield,
it is absolutely paramount.
You trust that person with your life.
We're all on the same page, we've all got the same focus.
That's what we're trying to put into your head.
Honesty, integrity, trust, belief - it all wraps into one.
What I'm going to do now is put you into two teams.
Team Alpha, Number 9, team leader, put your hand up.
HE CHUCKLES The one you got. Good lad.
Come to the front, number 5,
Number 2, 8, 6, and 1.
You're in Team Alpha.
Team Bravo, team leader is 14.
3,13,10, 7, 11.
Look around. That's your team.
Go!
Stay in formation! Let's go!
In the Special Forces, we are just a group of individuals
that can work together very well as a team.
In here.
It is so important to understand everyone's strengths
and weaknesses.
You have to work together as a strong unit
because ultimately,
when you're on a mission and chaos is reigning all around,
you have to be able to trust your team-mates to get a job done.
I want two ranks in front of me.
Not files. You're in files, I want ranks.
Cos if you don't, people will end up dying.
This task is all about resupply.
It's about moving equipment over difficult terrain
to a point that requires it.
We have all been involved in these sort of operations.
You've got to dig deep cos it's hard work.
You have got a minute to chat through
what your preferred method of moving this shit is.
Go.
Test the weight of them tins.
INDISTINCT CHATTER
In one of the most physically demanding tasks yet,
both teams will go head-to-head in a race
to move 200kg of equipment over 6km.
That will be two-man. Two-man.
Team Alpha is led by Number 9,
ex-RAF technician and Paralympian Jon-Allan Butterworth.
That's full of sand.
Full of sand. That'll be two people.
Back when I was in the RAF,
I definitely kind of learnt some leadership skills.
I think if people are generally struggling
I'LL be the first one to help anybody.
Can the box be opened? Yes.
Can you put something in it?
You know, I'll want to volunteer
to kind of carry the most weight or do what I can
to help best for the good of the team.
Right, let's move. Let's go.
Move. Move. Roll the tyres. Roll them.
Speed is of the essence.
We come back for the boxes. Yeah.
We move forward, come back for the boxes.
Can you run in that? Yeah. Go and run.
Team Bravo is led by Number 14, singer Siva Kaneswaran.
I'm not a great problem-solver... HE LAUGHS
...which is not great for this.
Leave them here for now,
and we'll go back for the rest of the stuff.
OK. Yes? Go.
I live a very peaceful life.
I chill out at home,
I've got my missus and my two little cute dogs,
and it's a very comfortable life.
Go. Go.
So, I don't create problems to solve them.
Teddy, get ahead. Get ahead, Teddy.
Let's not have too much separation within your teams.
Which way? Go... On me, on me.
HE GRUNTS
Come on. Move!
Let's go! Move yourself!
In an attempt to get ahead, Number 14, Siva...
Come on now. Really, really dig deep.
...has left team-mates Number 7, Gareth Gates,
and Number 13, Zoe Lyons, behind.
Hurry up!
Team Bravo, we need help at the back.
Bravo!
Fuck's sake.
You're pulling ahead, Alpha!
I said next way point.
Under Number 9 Jon-Allan's leadership,
Team Alpha move into the lead.
Good effort.
Keep pushing up.
Come on, Alpha!
Right, push forward.
I think I can be as good as most people in a lot of things,
and a lot of time, better.
Keep going.
I do feel like every challenge can be solved.
Things like Ikea and all it says two people, four hands,
and I manage to do it with one hand,
and it's just because it's use your head,
use anything you can that you've got.
Good. Good work.
Let's go.
Ready to go again?
Let's do this. Come on. Come on. This is it.
HE GRUNTS
When you're carrying heavy equipment to the front line,
it is brutal.
You can feel the sun beating down on you
and you can feel the energy being sapped from your body.
This ain't Supermarket Sweep. Let's go!
You've got to keep pushing on, no matter how exhausted you are,
because ultimately everyone's lives are in your hands.
Get in there, Alpha!
You need to be able to trust your leader
to keep that team moving,
as they have to trust you to get the job done.
Bravo, you're miles behind.
Start commanding this team, Number 14.
You've got no system in place, and yous are like a bag of shit.
One, two, three, go.
Come on now. Take it easy. Take it easy.
Despite Number 7, Gareth, and Number 13, Zoe, catching up...
Let's work a system and let's close these gaps.
...Team Bravo are still behind.
Get a grip of this team. You're in charge.
Teddy!
You do not want to be the last team.
Ready? Come on. Let's go.
One... Hold on. ..two, three. Deep breaths, Siva. Deep breaths.
Let's go.
We have to catch that box. It's got to be like a conveyor belt.
Love Island was, you know, a romantic holiday.
It's completely different
to what I'm going to be putting myself through in this course.
The whole reason why I'm doing this is to finally
put to rest the need for validation.
I really do need a reset.
I really need to kind of find myself again.
One of the heavy ones, Siva. Do not touch that light can.
Three, two, one, go!
Let's go, Siva. You've got it in you.
HE GRUNTS LOUDLY
Hurry up! Come on, Alpha!
We're going to win this! Let's not lose it now!
Jermaine. Head up.
That's it, 5.
Being a footballer, you know,
you get put through intense training,
but this...it's on a different scale.
I have no idea what I'm letting myself in for...
...and that's scary.
Come on, 10! Come on, mate!
Number 9, Jon-Allan,
leads Team Alpha to the drop zone first.
On top of the tyres. On top of the tyres.
Argh!
Get some water. Water. Water now.
Get water inside them.
Ah!
Let your lungs heave in and out.
Good effort. Good effort.
We're almost up the hill.
Block out the pain and let's get it up there.
Right to the top, mate. The very top, come on.
SHE PANTS
Two minutes later, Team Bravo arrive.
Stand up. Get some water on.
After one hour,
with temperatures reaching 42 degrees,
the recruits think the task is over.
Be prepared to go again.
Right, to the next DS as quick as you can. Go! Go!
Let's move!
In the second phase of the task...
Get the kit in the boat and get across to the left-hand bank.
...the recruits must now race across a lake.
Bergens in the middle. Bergens at the back. Bergens in the back at the middle.
Let's go.
OK, two on each side.
That's fine.
Here we go. Come on. Off, off, off! Come on! That's it. Nice and quick.
| thought I did pretty well in Pop Idol, made the final,
but I stumbled on the last hurdle, unfortunately.
I'll go. I'll go. I'll go.
I found that hard,
and so my main drive for this is to prove to the British public
that I am a winner.
Right, come on. We're going again.
This is not Weekend At Bernie's! Push left!
TEAM-MATES: One, two...
Team Alpha are the first to arrive at the bank.
Get the boat and everything out the water. Follow me.
One, two, three, go.
Come on. Come on. That's it.
Team Bravo follow closely behind.
Right, we're not going to get through these trees. On the side.
Both teams must now carry their 80kg boat
half a kilometre to the finish line.
Go! Ready?
Come on, up!
One, two. One, two. We can get past them now.
Team Alpha, lead by recruit Number 9, Jon-Allan,
battle their way to the front.
They're getting away! Go!
That's it. World-class.
Are you happy with where you are?
Guys, stop. Stop.
Guys, this isn't working! What the fuck are we doing?
Swap with me, Siva. Swap with me. Get at the back.
At the back!
Right. Come on, guys. Siva, hurry up.
Can he not do the front?
No, because he's struggling at the front.
Can you not, and I go here? Three, two, one, off we go!
March forward!
With Number 14, Siva, struggling,
Number 7, Gareth, takes over as leader.
March forward. One, two. One, two.
It takes a lot for me to lose my temper.
However, sometimes that helps my speech impediment.
One, two. Come on now.
If I'm really pushed to my limits,
I seem to then be able to speak fluently
through shouting at people.
One, two. One, two. One, two.
Hopefully they'll push me to my limits.
Let's go!
Slide! Slide!
Team Alpha...
Put it down.
...are the first to reach the finish line, winning the task.
Stand up and look proud.
Look what we've fucking done.
All the way in. Do not drop that boat again.
Team Bravo finish three minutes behind.
THEY PANT
Take some breaths, get focused.
Bergens on, two ranks in front of me.
This day is long, long from over.
Let's go. Team Alpha, on me.
Team Bravo, follow on.
Pain is temporary, pride is forever. Stay tight, 2.
Get up to your accommodations.
Come on, then. Let's catch up. Get up there.
Having pushed themselves to their limits...
That was tough.
...the 12 remaining recruits must now recover.
That was a be a sting.
Ohh! Fuck!
Honestly, that's the hardest thing I ever done in my life.
Jermaine, are you OK?
I'm just fucked, bro.
Guys, I need a bit of help.
Are you overheating? I think you need some water over your head.
Get a medic now. What's hurting you?
Everything. Everything.
My arm, can't pick it up.
Leg, I can't pick it up. I'm fucking hot.
Deep breaths.
In through your nose, out through your mouth.
The medic has been called for Number 9, Jon-Allan.
Just don't move. where's Number 97 Number 9's here.
I'd like you guys to move away.
All right, Number 9. Feeling dizzy, light-headed?
Have you passed out at all, Number 97
No. OK. Stayed with it.
What we're going to do, we're going to cool you down, OK? Yes.
Let's get him some sugar. His eyes are going.
Do you need a doctor, mate?
I feel like we need a medic. Medic!
Also suffering is Number 5, Jermaine...
I want you on the floor, OK?
I've got you. Now lie yourself down.
Breathe in. Breathe out.
Doctor, we've got a problem down here as well.
...and Number 14, Siva.
Come down, come down. We've got a problem.
We went too hard.
Slowly. Nice and slowly.
We've got three coming down with severe heat injury.
OK. Breathe. Just to cool you down.
HE TAKES DEEP BREATHS
That was a wipe-out, that round, wasn't it?
That was harsh.
So, 5, 9, and 14,
they're going to have to go to hospital,
get their bloods checked.
We've literally lost three of our fucking strongest people.
Listen, that is part of the game, innit?
We all got beasted, everyone got beasted,
but if you end up ill, then...
You can't carry on if you're ill, can you?
Following the ammo resupply task, Number 5, Jermaine,
Number 9, Jon-Allan, and Number 14, Siva,
have been medically withdrawn from the course.
Oh, can't believe it. Number 9, yeah. God.
It's time to step up now, Ted.
This is the time to step up.
This is it, man. This is where it turns on its head.
Feel like my feet have been broken. Hmm?
Feel like the tops of my feet have been smashed with a baseball bat.
Right, so, this morning was the ammo resupply and bulk carry.
With nine recruits now remaining, the DS meet to discuss today's task.
To be honest, that was abysmal.
Yeah.
Fucking morning of PT and everything's gone to shit, innit?
Obviously, we came back to camp and then we had Number 5,
Number 9, and Number 14 all medical withdrew
from the course.
Over to you, Foxy.
Yeah, briefed the teams up,
left up the fucking way they were going to do it,
the tactics behind how they were going to move the kit
completely up to them, and then they cracked on.
Quite frankly, from the get-go,
Team Alpha were leaps and bounds ahead of Team Bravo.
HE CHUCKLES
I was going to say under the command of 14,
but let's say under the lack of command from 14,
it fell to an absolute shower of shite.
Number 7, he took control of the situation,
and he did get a grip of them as they approached the hill
underneath the temple and they've closed the gap,
but they were miles behind from the other team, to be honest.
Number 7, his name is popping up...
Yeah. ..on every one of our radars now.
He's really coming along, all for the right things.
That's right. He really is.
He's all ears. He wants to learn.
Yeah, I think he's here for the right reasons.
Worth a chat tonight, you think? Yeah, definitely. Yeah.
Shall we bring him in?
SING-SONGY: I am losing my mind in this accommodation.
I feel like we're all going delirious.
We're all going a bit...
We're all losing our fucking marbles.
Recruit Number 7!
Oh. Number 7. Number 7.
Jesus, what's happening?
Sugar.
Right over here, 7.
Hands by your side.
Sit.
How are you feeling?
Um...
I mean, I'm battered and bruised everywhere,
my feet are really, really sore,
but it's all part of it, I guess.
Is it as tough as you thought?
Oh, it's much, much harder.
You've been quite quiet, almost a grey man,
but I'm seeing a change,
and then watching you confidently go about your business...
Yep. ..it was impressive to see.
Just tell us a little bit about yourself. I don't know a lot about you.
I'm from, um, uh, Bradford in Yorkshire.
I know Bradford.
For me, um, um, um, um...
...growing up was hard.
Um... Uh...
What, family life, you mean?
No, at school.
You know, having a stammer, school was hard.
HE SNIFFLES
Come on. Oh, God.
Just...
...um, verbally abused, physically...
Oh, come on.
During your school days?
Yeah, just lads kind of...
HE EXHALES SHARPLY
Honest, I don't do this.
Lads just holding me down and just, you know,
kind of shouting out things, you know,
"Let's... Let's beat the words out of him."
And, um...
Uh...
I think that's why I'm here,
to kind of show myself this time that I'm stronger
and, um...and that I'm not...
...hopefully this time, I won't break.
I think that's why I'm here.
Well, you know, from what you're saying,
you know, it's made you who you are today.
Yeah.
How...?
How did you pick yourself up to then put yourself forward
for the TV show?
Mum actually forced me to do it.
You know, she kind of saw that I had a voice and was like,
"Look, son, you know, you need to, you know,
"from somewhere find the courage, you know,
"to kind of force yourself into that situation,” and...
Thank God for your mother, pushing you into that.
Yeah, I'm thankful that she did that,
because, you know, there's lots of other people I know
that had the same issue as me but don't find their outlet.
And I think, you know, it's the same with the gym now.
You know, I go to the gym
because the frustration
that I live with every day,
if I'm not going to get my words out,
you know...
...I then thrash it out in the gym,
and that kind of keeps my mind set.
Gives you focus. Yeah. Yeah. In the right place.
You're capable. That's the truth.
Don't fucking have any doubts in your mind.
No.
If I'm honest, you're quite close to front running,
so you've got potential.
You've got a good fucking chance. Yeah.
So, hang in there.
The longer you're here,
the better you'll feel and get out of this. Sure.
We're just going to turn up the heat.
I'm...
The last thing I want to do is kind of, um, give up.
Guard!
Stand.
The bullying at school,
you know, became just unbearably bad.
That was short and sweet.
Yeah, just a little chat about how I'm finding things,
and that's it.
Oh, God.
I've got those, you know, kind of horrendous scars there still.
HE EXHALES SHARPLY
I think if I can get through this course,
it would just prove to myself that I am strong.
HE WHISTLES
And I really, really want to feel I've grown, and I've learned,
and I can handle anything.
No, I don't prefer Will Young.
I love Gareth as well, but I'm a big Will Young fan.
But you don't need to compare the two.
There's no comparison. Gareth's better.
HE LAUGHS Chalk and cheese.
I second that.
I can't even think about... Bleugh. I can't even talk.
Worse than me?
THEY LAUGH
You got that out quickly.
THEY LAUGH
Having tested the recruits as a team, for the next part of the Trust phase,
the DS want to focus on them individually.
The brief was all about trust,
so let's just do a basic sort of integrity test.
Yeah. Yeah.
And obviously the emphasis being on them giving 100% -
trust, integrity, honesty, all the ethos that we abide by.
That's a good shout.
I do actually miss home now.
I wasn't really thinking about it at the start.
I'd definitely have a glass of champagne now, I would.
Oh, my God. Amazing.
A nice cheese butty with Branston pickle.
Cheese butty.
SHE SIGHS
Everybody on parade in fatigues!
Fucking run!
So, what we're going to do next is a physical assessment.
So, it's a combat physical assessment.
It's timed so we can gauge where you are all at
in relation to each other.
Is everyone understood so far?
ALL: Yes, staff.
Right, dress back into your comm until you're called forward.
Go.
The timed circuit is composed of six exercises
in six different locations.
Number 6, stand by.
Go!
The recruits must complete 20 reps at each station.
Crunches next.
Let's go!
Big effort.
Fucking move on.
Two of the positions are out of vision of the DS,
but what the recruits don't know is that they are being secretly filmed
to test their trustworthiness.
Trust is paramount for special forces mission success.
Whenever we are suffering through,
what makes us strong is that we suffer together.
If we cut corners,
that destroys the ethos of everything that we stand for.
Come on. Smash it out the park.
Without that honesty and integrity, without that trust,
there's nothing.
Go!
Next up is Number 1, Matt Hancock.
The thing about politics
is you are criticised in public a lot.
Come on, Number 1. Smash it out.
I've had my integrity attacked
on grounds that are totally unreasonable,
probably more than is fair.
Get your backside down. Get your big, fat arse down.
So, if I'm not trusted, I find that frustrating,
cos I've always tried to do my best.
All the way, Number 1. All the way.
17,18, 19.
HE PANTS
Right, stand by, Number 3.
Next to take on the circuit is Number 3,
Teddy Soares.
Go!
I've kind of grown up with the need
to constantly question my...
...almost my self-worth.
Next station. Squats.
It goes hand in hand with the expectation to win.
If I lost, like, at district sports, I was upset. I was devastated.
Everything you got.
The competitive nature in me kind of allows me to understand,
"All right, I'm a little bit of a sore loser.
"I don't like losing."
All the way. Big push.
Run, Number 3.
That's a good effort.
HE PANTS
I find it hard to believe she did 40. That was motoring.
Them fucking top jumps were the hardest thing.
I'm surprised there was no-one there watching us doing each one.
Right, listen in, course.
You've got three minutes to get some water down you,
we'll go again.
You've got to beat the time you did the first time.
Oh, God.
Dig deep everyone. Dig fucking deep.
Stand by.
Go!
Already fatigued by the first round...
Max effort, 7.
Smash it out.
...the recruits must complete the circuit again.
My biggest inspiration in life is my mum.
She's a very, very strong woman. A very honest person.
Everything you've got.
Her work ethic is I think why I work so hard now,
and you know, always wanting to achieve more and be more.
Go on, 7. All the way.
Five. Good effort. Come on.
Get it, 20 reps.
I'm healthy, I'm fit, I go to the gym, I play sports,
but I'm not used to pushing myself to my absolute limit.
I never do it.
Let's go, 8.
I like to just stay within my remit and what I feel comfortable doing,
and I also like doing things I know that I'm good at.
And I won't do things that I know I'm not good at
cos I don't like failing.
Finish strong.
Come on, Number 6.
On this course, as an athlete, my type of training
that I've done in the past will help me.
I've trained through pain.
I feel like I've done the hardest event.
I'm kind of a "get on with it, let's get stuck in" kind of girl.
Well done.
Well done, everyone.
I didn't think I'd be able to do that. I bashed my...
I bashed myself again.
Those burpees, fucking hell.
HE EXHALES SLOWLY
Let's have a look. One...
...two...
Following the task, the DS review the hidden footage...
...SiX...
...seven...
...to check the recruits have completed every repetition.
.Ten. Ten. Ten and a half.
And you know what's interesting? Yeah?
He was a stand-out on the reps where he could be seen.
That's not a tired miscount, right?
No.
Let's have a look. What else have we got?
Oh, my God. Who's this?
I'll count.
One. Two-ish.
Nine.
Ten. 11. CONTESTANT COUNTS ON FOOTAGE
She's even counting them. Hang on a minute. Do you hear that?
So, less than half and a complete verbal bluff.
That's fucking bad.
They're going to get dragged in now and fucking exposed to this.
Yeah. Let's do it.
Imagine if you'd been asked to do that on, like, day two.
No way. You never would have got there.
You would have been like, "Fuck this."
What a day.
Number 8, on the double. Foot on the gas. Let's go.
Having reviewed the footage,
the DS want to confront two recruits who cheated on the task.
Sit.
I'm going to show you something and I want you to explain.
Just explain how many reps you were asked to do
on the circuit this morning. 20.
Count out loud how many physical exercises you count.
WHISPERS: Three, four... Out loud.
Four.
Ten.
11.
You think we're two idiots?
No, staff.
Can you be trusted? Yes, staff.
Bullshit. Bullshit.
Yeah, I didn't do it to the best of my ability,
and I didn't listen to instructions with the amount we were given.
Why?
Just my body was hurting.
So, you blatantly lied, then. Is that what you're saying?
Yes, staff.
You've fucking disappointed me, big style.
Sorry, staff.
Sit.
What is the ethos we're smashing home here?
Believe in yourself
and trust in your judgment and your instincts.
Absolutely. I'm going to show you something.
Eight.
Nine.
You have just sat in front of me,
regurgitated everything we've fucking instilled in you
from day one! Everything!
How fucking dare you!
Go on, explain it.
I-1-1... Explain it.
I just... I fucked up. I thought...
No shit, Sherlock.
I genuinely thought I did all the reps.
I sound like a fucking parrot, we all do.
Trust -
how fucking important that is in our world.
I am shit when I'm counting reps.
Bullshit. Guard!
I am. I am.
Everyone on parade.
You all right? Yeah.
Stand still.
I told you right from the word go, we don't care where you came from,
we don't care who follows you,
we don't care who blows smoke up your arse.
I asked 100%.
Remember?
ALL: Yes, staff. All the time.
Number 3, stand out here and face.
Number 8, stand out here and face.
Explain to everybody
why I've just had to regurgitate day one.
I didn't finish the burpees,
and I may have been short as well on the tuck jumps.
Tell them what you did.
You cheated. You lied.
I miscounted with my breathing being crap.
Fuck off, Number 3. Stop. Just stop right there.
Own it. Just own it.
That's what happened. This is how we grow.
Don't fucking argue with me. This is how you grow.
In your words, Number 8.
I let you guys down.
I also fell short on the burpees and the tuck jumps.
We all make mistakes, but be accountable.
Stop bullshitting.
So, I start... This is not our world.
Shut up.
You've said your fucking piece.
Number 3, Number 8, follow me.
Go. Disappear.
As Number 3, Teddy, refuses to accept responsibility...
Number 3, dress in, up to your neck.
Number 8, same detail.
...both he and Montana will be punished.
Just walk in until it's up to your neck.
Stand up.
When I say "go," out the parade square,
up to your room.
Go!
Didn't I say they're watching us? Of course they were.
There's no way you can cheat on that.
Even if we weren't being filmed, we should have done it. 100%.
I wondered how Montana was getting round the course so quick.
HE LAUGHS She was rapid!
And this is why they're talking about trust, honesty, integrity.
Trust, that's right.
And they want to instil shame.
It's embarrassing. It's humiliating.
Number 3, Teddy, and Number 8, Montana,
are being punished for cheating on the previous task.
All right, 8, 3, on me.
Stand here.
We have a saying in recon.
Shame retains, so take this on board,
learn from it, right?
Thank you. Come on over here.
Hi, guys.
Sorry, guys.
Sorry about that. Absolutely sorry about that.
I thought you'd lost your head cos you kept talking back.
I couldn't even back-chat. I was just like, "I've messed up."
How short were you, out of interest?
Mine was 11.
HE LAUGHS I got to nine.
That's fucking taking the piss, bruv!
Yeah.
The integrity sigma, most people were competitive,
they gave it 100%, but some of them, basically,
they're just not putting in the effort.
Yeah. Both Number 3 and Number 8, they were fucking cheating.
Number 8, she owned it,
I'll give her that.
She admitted to it.
Number 3 went down the route of, "I didn't know.
"I miscounted.” He's bluffing us.
But he's still here, by the skin of his teeth.
I think we need to find out where his head's at
and what fucking purpose he's got of being here.
Yeah. Good to go. Right, let's roll it.
Number 3!
Number 3. Oh, shit.
Let's go, 3.
Coming, staff.
Right over here, Number 3.
Hands by your side.
Sit.
How do you think it's all going, Number 37
Tough. Really tough.
I was quite shocked today, actually.
We judge everybody on their 100%.
You're not giving us 100%, and you know you're not.
You right now should be fucking flying
right at the front, and you ain't.
Something else is bothering you.
Anyway, tell me something about yourself.
Go back to growing up. What was that all about?
How was it?
Um, so, I'm originally a half-sibling.
I'm a step-son to my mum who I call my real mum.
My blood mother, I don't know the true story -
if she gave me up, she just wasn't bothered with me -
but I was always under the care of my dad and my step-mum.
And she did amazing to not make me feel
like an abandoned son.
When I was 13 my dad passed away with cancer.
My mum made it so I didn't feel abandoned, at all.
Um, so...
Take a breath. Get yourself together.
Yeah, and I think I've always doubted myself
where people have said,
"You're doing a good job.
"Why don't you believe in yourself?"
And I've never really had an answer.
And then, yeah, I mean, I went on Love Island,
I come out with a million followers,
and there's loads of people
telling me that I'm a good guy
and this, that, and the other, and...
Bar one person.
My real mum didn't reach out.
There's no, "Wow, son, I can see you."
No phone call, no nothing.
And initially, I didn't care.
I thought, "Why would I...?
"Why would I have any contact?" Mm.
She let me go years ago. I've never heard from her since.
You know, the time has taken a toll on me.
I've just thought, "Who am I?"
Everyone is just, "Teddy from Love Island,"
and I just feel lost.
I can see a lot of fucking trauma and emotion on your face.
You think this uncertainty, or whatever you want to call it,
comes from not having answers of growing up?
I think it's because, yeah,
there's...there's...
...there's answers that my step-mum just can't answer.
Of course.
It's hard, because if you asked me two, three years ago,
"Do you need any contact from your own mum?"
I would have told you, "No, I don't care.
"There's my answer. No." But...
.| think I'm just sick of not knowing... Mm-hm.
...that part of who I am. Yeah.
Have you reached out to your mum?
No. I just haven't. I haven't really been brave enough.
And I think it's literally the only thing
that's stopping me is me.
It's all about having the courage in your own convictions.
You'll learn that on this course.
You're strong, you're capable -
you just need to believe it yourself.
That's what you're seeking now.
You've got to now fucking grab that bull by the horns
and go, "Fuck this, here I go."
Get every fucking second out of this for you.
Don't waste it.
Yes, staff.
Guard!
Head up.
He needs to go and talk to his mother.
That's what he wants to do and he doesn't know how to do it
cos he's scared of upsetting his step-mother.
But that'd be life-changing for him. Yeah. I fucking hope so.
Listen up, Number 3.
We don't pull any punches, and you can take it.
Thank you, staff.
I've always fooled myself into thinking that I was OK
with the fact that my real mum wasn't there,
or wanted to be there.
Mark just flings his shit everywhere and I'm like,
"I refuse to pick it up.”
Try having four boys coming in with football boots
that have been on Astroturf.
Those black seeds.
Fuck me, my mum used to go schitz with me for that.
Why wouldn't a mother, of all people in a family,
not want to stick around?
Why am I not good enough?
That question to me was just not necessarily processed at all.
I think this course needs to build up my mental toughness,
my mental resilience.
In the moments where I feel lost,
I'm going to feel like there is a light
at the end of the tunnel.
HE EXHALES
Next time...
It's not over. Keep going.
On your belly! Stay low!
Come on, then! Suck it up and let's move again!
When the chips are down and everything's going wrong...
Ow. Ow. Wait.
...only the ones with grit and determination survive.
SHE SCREAMS
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