Ano'ng pinag-usapan n'yo ni Katie?
-Ano lang… -Di mo lang alam?
Nag-usap lang kami tungkol sa mga bagay na nangyari.
Tulad ng ano?
Pwede mo bang ipaliwanag?
May inaalala ka ba doon?
Well, oo, kasi nag-uusap 'yong best friend saka fiancé ko,
tapos parang ang saya-saya n'yo lang.
Nakakainis 'to.
Wala 'yon sa akin.
Sabi mo, kailangan mo ng closure kay Katie.
-Hindi. -Sinab mo 'yon.
-Di ko sinabi 'yon. -Ano'ng sinabi mo?
Sabi ko, "Kung may gusto akong makausap, si Katie 'yon."
-Nakuha mo ang gusto mo. -Tama. Lalaki ako.
Kaya dito ako frustrated. Ipapaliwanag ko.
Si Katie, best friend ko sa buong mundo.
Ngayon, noong sinabi mo sa aking si Katie 'yong naiintriga kang makita…
Di ako naiintriga.
Gusto ko siyang makausap para itanong,
"Noong unang tatlong araw, top one natin pareho."
"Bakit wala ka na noong fourth day?"
Sabi niya, "Tulad mo 'yong ibang lalaking naka-date ko dati."
Okay, naiintindihan ko na. Di mo na ako gustong makausap pa.
Ayos lang 'yon. Masaya ako kay Hannah. Tapos 'yon na.
Three seconds mo lang napaliwanag. Bakit 40 minutes ang usapan n'yo?
-Cool siya. -Best friend ko siya.
Kung kaibigan mo siya, bakit di siya 'yong tanungin mo?
-Bakit ako ang tinatanong mo? -Fiancée kita. Nakakairita 'to.
Nag-usap ba kayo kung gaano ako kahanga-hanga o tungkol sa past n'yo?
-Mature na ba tayo sa edad… -Mature ka na ba?
Tinuro ko lahat sa 'yo. Nagpakalalaki ka mula sa pagkabinata dahil sa 'kin.
-Ginawa ko lahat para sa 'yo. -Nagpakalalaki ako dahil sa 'yo?
Tingin ko, sobrang kahanga-hanga kang tao.
Kanina, literal kong kinakausap si Ashley kung paano ako sa pods…
Pagpaliwanagin mo muna ako. Nag-usap kami ni Ashley.
Kinukuwento ko kay Ashley na di ko pa napapakita sa iyo 'yong fun side ko.
Sa pods, masayahin ako. Sobrang masayahin.
-Sige. -Sa 'yo, wala nang saya.
Parang, sobra akong masayahing tao.
Di ko pa napapakita 'yon sa 'yo kasi sobra ko 'tong sineseryoso.
Stressed out ako.
Sinabi rin 'yon ng parents ko. Kaya kami nag-usap ni Ashley.
Ako, "Tama, dapat ipakita ko kay Nick 'yong fun side ko. Mahal ko si Nick."
"Ngayon ko ipapakita sa kanya 'yon."
-Oo. -"Pwede kaming magsaya pareho," tama?
Pero kasabay no'n, tatlong beses lumapit si Katie sa 'kin ngayong gabi.
Sinabi ng best friend ko kung gaano ka ka-attractive.
-Ano'ng kinalaman ko doon? -Pagpaliwanagin mo ako!
"Ang hot niya. Gusto ko siya." Tatlong beses niyang sinabi.
Sa parehong araw, sinabi mong gusto mong kausapin si Katie.
-Ano'ng kinalaman ko doon? -Tapos nagsama kayo.
Di ko alam kung ano 'yong lintik n'yong pinag-usapan, tama?
Sa 'kin, masakit 'yon, kasi fiancé saka best friend ko 'yon.
Nasaktan ako no'n.
Parang, "Best friend ko ba talaga 'yon kung binabastos niya ako nang gano'n?"
"Fiancé ko ba talaga 'yon kung binabastos ako?"
So, hindi ka sigurado dito. Di ka nagtitiwala.
-Doon 'to lahat papunta. -Hindi gano'n.
-Tungkol 'to sa respeto. -Nagtitiwala ka ba?
Di ko alam kung may tiwala ako sa 'yo, pero gano'n din kay Katie.
Di ko alam kung bakit natin 'to pinag-uusapan.
Magkasama tayo. Papakasalan kita.
-Alam ko. -Kung wala kang tiwala…
-Pero nauunawaan mo 'yong frustration ko? -Hindi talaga.
Naalala mo noong nag-away tayo? Sabi ko, "Tungkol 'to sa respeto"?
Respeto, Nick.
Matutulog na ako.
Nirespeto kita.
Sabi ko, "Sobrang ayos namin ni Hannah."
-Di na ako makapaghintay na magpakasal… -Talaga?
Kung di ako pwedeng makipag-usap sa isa sa best friends mo,
siguro di ka lang nagtitiwala.
Gusto ko lang maunawaan mo pag nag-aalala ko.
Wala akong kaalam-alam sa pinag-usapan n'yo!
Di ko kasalanang limang beses siyang lumapit sa 'yo at sinabing hot ako.
Mahal kita at binibigay ko ang mundo ko sa 'yo.
"Nag-usap kayo ni Katie ng 40 minutes." Sino'ng may pakialam?
-Ako. -Wala akong pakialam.
-Pero 'yon… -Makinig ka sa 'kin. Gusto kita.
Sobrang gusto ko 'to. Kaya sino'ng may pakialam sa iniisip ni Katie?
Sobrang excited akong ipakita sa 'yo 'yong fun side ko at magsaya ngayong gabi.
-Tapos, nangyari itong lintik na 'to. -Pero sino'ng sumira no'n? Hindi ako.
Tingnan mo 'yong paa ko. Mukhang psychotic. Nakakadiri.
Di 'ko ito naiintindihan. Ganito din mismo sa pods.
"Ang flirt ni Nick sa mga babae. Siya si Rico Suave."
E, sa gano'n talaga ako.
-Pag sinabi kong mahal kita… -Tingin ko, hindi ka gano'n.
Magtiwala ka. Okay.
Ang hot mo ngayon.
Tingin ko, handa na akong matulog.
Oo, ako rin.
Naiinis lang akong 'yong walang kuwentang usapan namin
ng isa sa best friends mo…
Kung isa 'yon sa best friends mo, bakit ako ang ginigiling mo tungkol dito?
Okay.
Di ba, 'yan mismo 'yong iniisip ko.
Di ako gumawa ng mali.
Siguro, di ako pwedeng maging ako. Di ako pwedeng magdamit nang maayos.
Dapat mukha lang akong tanga.
Na-realize ko 'yong taong mahal ko. Mature akong lalaki.
Di ko alam 'yong mali kong nagawa, kaya…
Naririnig mo ako, Hannah?
Hannah, naririnig mo ako?
Lagi namang okay makipag-usap.
Pero kasi ngayon, 1:30 na ng umaga.
Gusto ko nang matulog. Pwedeng bukas na natin pag-usapan.
Bago tayo matulog, meron ka bang ikinagalit dahil sa 'kin?
Na sana mas maayos kong nagawa?
Wala.
Kailangan ko lang malaman kasi ramdam kong wala akong ginawang masama.
Ramdam ko na mature 'yong usapan namin noong tao.
-Sinabi ko 'yong pakiramdam ko sa 'yo. -Uy.
Uy.
-Kaya… -Uy. Matulog na lang tayo.
-Halika. Halika na. -Okay.
-Okay, 'yan… -Okay?
Sige, parang…
Sige. 'Yon na 'yon.
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Welcome sa San Diego.
Sa wakas, makikita ko na 'yong hometown niya.
Inaasahan kong ituturo niya ang mga bagay, pero hindi.
So far, 'yong tour, medyo…
-Saktong lang? -Medyo alanganin.
Parang tingin sa 'kin ni Taylor noong nakita niya ako.
Baka mas okay ang tour pag mas maraming caffeine at tulog.
Parang ang gaan talaga ng gabi namin o kung anuman.
Di ko sure kung naaalala ko 'yong nangyari.
Okay.
Di kami nakatulog buong gabi.
Grabe ang iyak ko.
Matagal kaming nag-usap. Ang sama ng pakiramdam niya.
Pero, alam n'yo, 'yong reaction niya sa ex niya
talagang sobrang friendly kaysa sa inaakala kong reaksiyon niya.
Sobrang sama ng pakiramdam ko dito.
At naiinis akong nangayari 'to nang isang linggo bago 'yong kasal namin.
Mahal namin ni Garrett ang isa't isa,
tapos plano naming makita 'yong parents saka family ko ngayon.
Isang bagay 'yon na sobrang halaga para sa akin.
Ginagawa ko ang best ko para siguraduhing mapag-usapan 'yon, mag-enjoy ngayon,
tapos makita nila si Garrett, at di 'yon maapektuhan nito
na di naman niya ginawa nang may malisya.
-Excited na akong makita 'yong parents ko. -Oo.
Saka magugustuhan nila si Garrett.
-Ano'ng tingin natin sa neigborhood? -Gusto ko.
Pwede akong tumira dito.
Gusto kong 'yong araw na 'to… maging masaya,
saka maging tungkol sa pagse-celebrate sa amin,
saka kung ano 'yong meron 12, 24 hours ago na isang masaya saka inaabangang kasal.
At, alam n'yo 'yon, di ako 100% ngayon.
At tingin ko, naiintindihan 'yon ni Garrett.
Tingin ko, sobrang pasensiyoso siya.
Saka… Para lang akong…
sobrang nasaktan.
Sa wakas, nakita na ni Garrett 'yong pamilya saka mga kaibigan ko.
Nakakatuwa sila. Special character 'yong bawat isa.
Saka masaya akong makilala kayo, guys.
Kaya, gusto ko lang ipakita 'yong suporta saka pagmamahal na nakuha namin.
-Yes. -Totoo silang mga tao.
-May totoong pamlya si Taylor. -Totoo sila.
May totoong pamilya talaga ako.
-Officially, Padres fan na ako kaya… -Padres fan na, officially.
Yehey, Garrett!
Nakilala na ni Garrett 'yong posibleng maging…
magiging lolo't lola ng mga magiging anak niya.
Ang perfect nito.
Tingin ko, nakita nila 'yong saya ko saka na malalim namin 'tong pinag-isipan.
Saka mapara ma-describe 'yong experiment
saka lahat ng halaga na naibigay nito para sa dalawang sobrang lohikal na tao
para pagtagpuin 'yong buhay nila bilang life partners,
isang bagay 'yon na ikinagulat nila katulad ng kung paano kami nagulat.
Oo.
Pero nagtitiwala sila sa 'king magdesisyon para sa sarili ko.
At tignin ko, si Garrett 'yong best decision para sa 'kin.
Masaya akong nakilala mo ang lahat.
Oo. Looking forward na ako sa kasal.
Di pwedeng lumamang si Tyler.
Di ko hahayaang mangyari 'yon.
Wag mo akong lagpasan.
Baba!
Ganyan! Galingan mo mag-drive!
'Yong kamay at braso ko. Para akong nag-exercise.
Oo, pero ang lakas mo.
Patingin nga.
Tingnan mo?
-Ramdam mo 'yan? -Para kang bata.
-Alam mo, nag-sorry na ako. -Oo.
Sorry ulit.
Lumipas na 'yong pagkabigla ko.
Kaya mas napag-isipan ko na 'yong ilang bagay
saka naisip ko na kung ano'ng magiging hitsura
kung, papasok sa buhay natin 'yong mga bata in five years.
Para, paano… Magiging okay ba sa 'kin 'yon?
Pakiramdam ko, gusto kita sa buhay ko kahit ano pa ang mangyari.
Di ito 'yong inasahan ko para sa sarili ko,
pero ramdam kong sulit 'yong kapalit, na ikaw, kaya…
Makukuha mo ako.
-'Yon 'yon. -Talaga?
'Yon 'yong palagay ko.
Gusto ko 'yon.
Ikakasal tayo.
Wala nang sekretong bigla-biglang lalabas… Di ko na kayang mangako.
Ayos?
Sige, ito na 'yong isa mong card. Kunin mo na 'to.
-Wala nang sekretong lalabas. -Okay, mabuti.
Gusto mong subukan 'yong batter?
May hilaw na itlog 'yan, di ba?
Babe, ayos lang kumain ng hilaw na itlog.
Kinakain nila 'yan dati…
Dati, ikinakamatay ng mga tao 'yong paper cut.
Pero pwede kang uminom ng hilaw na itlog.
-Namamatay 'yong mga tao sa paper cut? -Dati!
-Walang papel para ikamatay nila. -Sige.
Sige, papasok na 'yong first batch.
Kailangan nang sagutan 'yong marriage license certificate.
-So… -Sige na, babe.
Nakakaloka!
Kailangan ko ng beer para dito.
-Bakit kailangan mo ng beer? -Kasi importanteng moment 'to.
'Yong sa iyo ba muna 'yong sasagutan ko? Sagutan muna natin 'yong sa iyo.
Date of birth…
April… Teka.
-April ano? -Teka lang. Ano…
-Hindi! -Hindi, April 'to… Hindi, teka lang.
-April 3, 1992. -Okay.
Grabe, kailangan ko pang sabihin.
-I-confirm mo na lang. -Oo.
Bakit pinaparamdam mong ang sama ko? Ano'ng phone number mo?
Alam mo ba 'yong pangalan ko?
Darling, mag-focus tayo.
Okay, sorry.
Kinasal na ba dati? Oo.
Malalalaman na natin.
-Malalaman na natin? Teka! -Malalaman na natin.
-Natatakot ako. -Meron ka bang…
Hindi, wala. Wala akong pagdududa.
Sabay nating pindutin 'yong next button?
-Saan ako magki-click? -Dito.
-One, two, three. -Ready? One, two, three.
-'Yon na. -Ito na nga.
Magpapakasal na tayo.
8 ARAW BAGO ANG KASAL
Maraming lalaking di deserve makita 'yong friends ko. Masuwerte ka.
Nagpakahirap ako. Ginawa mo akong responsableng lalaki.
-Tingin mo, naresolba na natin ang issue? -Tingin ko, naresolba na.
Minsan, mukha akong malandi, pero mali 'yong dating na 'yon.
Kaya, adjustment din na subukan kong, alam mo 'yon, magbago para sa iyo.
Binabago mo 'yong paglalandi mo para sa akin?
Binabago ko 'yong personality ko para sa 'yo, oo.
'Yong sinabi kong wag kang makipaglandian, binabago kita?
-Di ako lumalandi… -Okay.
Pero gano'n 'yong dating sa 'yo.
Sa experiment na 'to, minsan may tests,
at tingin ko, ito 'yong test na bumagsak ka, pero…
Di man lang D? Bumagsak ako?
Basta di ka na babagsak ulit.
'Yon 'yong… Ayokong mabigo kita.
-Sana di ako bumagsak dito. -Makikita natin, Nick.
Dapat may kumpiyansa ka sa akin.
-May kumpiyansa ako. -'Yon lang ang kailangan ko.
-Hello! -Kumusta, guys?
Hi!
-Kumusta ka? Ako si Hannah. -Kumusta? Nice to meet you.
Nice to meet you.
-Ang bango mo. -Ikaw din.
Nasa hot seat ako.
-Ang tagal na kitang di nakikita. -Oo nga.
-Sobrang tagal. -Naisip mo bang magpapakasal ako?
Naiisip kong magpapakasal ka, pero hindi…
Ito, parang, sobrang iba nito.
Magkuwento ka. Ano'ng hilig mong gawin?
Lumaki akong maraming sports na nilalaro. Mahilig sa sports 'yong pamilya ko.
Naglaro ako ng college football, konting pro.
Nasa real estate na ako. Di naging priority ang mga babae sa akin.
Lagi akong nasa trabaho o football.
Dahil di 'to naging priority, bakit ka pumasok sa ganito?
Tama na 'yong panahon. Invested ako sa football.
Binigay ko lahat doon.
Pagkatapos noon, naisip ko na 'yong eksaktong gusto kong gawin sa buhay,
gusto kong magsimula ng pamilya, at magpakasal.
Bago kay Hannah, wala pa akong minamahal.
Alam mo pag nakilala mo 'yong tamang tao.
Tingin mo, handa kang magpakasal?
-Tingin ko. -Talaga?
-Oo! Tingin, mo handa ka na? -"Tingin ko"?
-Teka lang. -Tingin mo, handa ka nang pakasalan ako?
-Gusto kitang pakasalan. -Oo.
Sobrang gusto ko. Minsan kinukuwestiyon ko 'yong mga bagay.
Napapaisip ako kung dapat ba tayong magpakasal.
-Alam 'yong sinasabi ko? -Oo. May mga flaws akong aayusin.
Di ibig sabihing di ako handa. Di ibig sabihing di kita mahal.
Pero may mga sitwasyon tayong pakiramdam ko harmless 'yong usapan,
tapos sa punto de bista mo, mas malala kaysa sa gano'n.
Alam kong minsan, mali ako sa sobra kong pagiging prangka
na pwedeng magdating na masama o bastos.
Kung kilala mo ako,
alam mong galing 'yon sa pinakamabuting parte ng puso ko.
-At masakit ang katotohanan. Aminin natin. -Masakit nga.
Lahat gusto ng katotohanan hanggang andiyan na 'to.
Salamat.
So, may sinakyang duck si Nick.
Ako parang, "ikakairita ko 'yan."
"Tatawagin kitang Icky-Nicky."
"Pero sige, sakyan mo 'yong duck." Tapos sinakyan niya…
Mukhang masaya.
Tapos may babaeng sumabay sa kanya. Tiningnan ako noong babae.
Tapos siya, "Tingnan mo ang girlfriend mo. Sobrang nagseselos."
Tapos ako, parang…
Tapos si Nick parang… "Sobrang nakakatawa 'yon."
Ako, parang, "A…"
-Di ko maiisip na nakakatawa 'yon. -Di 'yon nakakatawa, Audriana.
Mahirap sa 'kin kasi ramdam kong parang
marami akong kailangang baguhin tungkol sa klase ng pagkatao ko.
Tapos ngayon, para 'tong, "Grabe."
Baka di ako gano'n ka-mature, tama? Na tingin ko oo naman, para sa kasal.
Kinukuwestiyon ko 'yong sarili ko.
Iniisip mong binabago kita, di ko 'to gusto.
Pag nagpakasal ka, may mga babaguhin ka kasi iba na 'yong dynamic.
Malandi 'yong kung paano ka,
pero pag may tao na sa buhay mo, meron ka nang isasaalang-alang.
Kung di mo kaya, wag mong iparamdam na kaya mo pero di mo kaya.
Di 'yan ang sinasabi mo kagabi.
Ano'ng sabi ko kagabi? Ayokong magkuwento ng
bagay na di ka komportable, pero, pwede kang magkuwento ng pakiramdam mo.
Sige lang. Karapatan mong magsalita.
Tingin ko, minsan, di siya totoo saka tapat sa akin,
kasi tingin ko, iniisip niyang kung totoo saka tapat siya,
tapos di siya handa para dito, mawawala ako sa kaniya.
Kasi mahal namin 'yong isa't isa.
Pero pag pinili niyang humindi sa akin, maghihiwalay na kami nang tuluyan.
Ano'ng pakiramdam mo sa sinabi niya?
'Yong sinabi ko sa 'yo kagabi, parang, may mga tanong ka sa maturity ko,
social awareness, kung maaalagaan kita,
kung maaalagaan ko si Luna, kung kaya kong tumira kasama ka,
paano maghahalo 'yong routines natin,
kaya ko bang baguhin 'yong dati kong kinagawian para sa relasyon na 'to?
Anim lang 'yon na simula pa lang, malalaki mo nang reserbasyon, tama?
Pero madali lang ayusin 'yong mga 'yon.
-Oo. -Ilakad ang aso, madali 'yon.
-Oo naman. -E, di, gawin mo.
'Yong mga sinasabi niya, mga gagawin mo lang,
di 'yon 'yong pagkatao mo.
Babaguhin mo lang ang routine mo at kung ano'ng kinagawian mong gawin
para maging nasa relasyon kumpara sa kung single ka.
At handa ako para sa mga sugal saka pagsubok na 'yon, pero…
-Sugal at pagsubok na 'yon? -Ano?
'Yong characteristics para maging nasa relasyon?
-Hindi, handa akong gawin. Walang duda. -Oo.
Di ko hinihinging maging ibang tao ka.
Hinihingi kong irespeto mo ako. Hinihingi kong wag kang lumandi.
-Hinihingi kong… -Pakiramdam ko, nirerespeto kita.
-gawin mo rin 'yong mga ginagawa ko. -Oo.
Di ko hinihinging baguhin mo 'yong personality mo, hobbies mo.
Di 'yon ang hinihingi ko.
Maliit na bagay ang mga hinihingi ko na malaki na sa 'yo. Alam mo 'yon?
Sinasabi mo, "Yong mga pagsubok…"
Tunog malaki 'to para sa 'yo.
It's a lot of work, and all this stuff, when it's really not.
Simple at madali lang 'tong mga bagay.
"Irespeto mo ako. Ilakad 'yong aso. Maglinis sa bahay."
Umaarte kang parang malaking bagay 'yong mga gagawin mo.
At hindi.
Tingin ko, di malaking bagay ang magbago. Handa akong gawin 'yon.
Pero bakit sobrang hirap sa 'yong makapunta doon?
'Yon ang sasabihin ko. Sabi mo, di 'yon malaking bagay.
Tapos, ikaw, "May mga duda ako tungkol sa kasal,"
dahil sa anim na bagay na pinangalanan mo, tama?
Di niya gustong baguhin kung sino ka.
Sobra kitang mahal saka di ko kinuwestiyon 'yong pagmamahal mo sa akin.
Ang tanong ko lang, kung handa ka nang mag-commit nang buo sa akin,
pakasalan ako, maging asawang deserve ko, alam mo 'yon?
Naririnig ko si mama!
-Hi! -Hi, Ma!
-Hi. Good to see you. -Good to see you rin.
Upo po kayo. Samahan n'yo kami.
So, ganito ba talaga kalala 'yong traffic pag Sabado?
-DC ito. Laging malala. -Di ito tumitigil.
Laging malala.
-Susubok ba tayo ng dresses bukas? -Diyos ko.
Handa ka nang makita ako sa wedding dress?
Hindi, mag…
Ako, "Tingin ko, susuportahan ako ng mga magulang ko."
"Pero kung hindi, di ko alam kung gagawin ko ito."
Di ko 'yon kasal kung wala kayo doon.
Alam mo, lahat nag-iisip agad ng worst-case scenario.
Kailangan kong pigilan 'yong tatay mo, saka sabihing,
"Di na sila mga bata. Mga matatanda na sila."
Saka…
"Iniimbita nila tayo sa kabaliwang 'to
at gusto nilang makasali tayo rito."
"Kaya, alam mo 'yon, kalma ka lang."
Ma!
Ma…
Pwede n'yong isipin 'to intellectually, na bagay kayo,
pero, alam n'yo, minsan kailangan n'yo lang maramdaman.
Alam ko. At Ma, naramdaman ko.
-Okay. -Totoo.
Nakita ko na ang para sa akin.
-Welcome sa pamilya. -Salamat.
-Cheers? -Cheers.
Sigurado kang ayaw mong tumakbo? Tumakbo nang mabilis?
-Pati si Papa, sinabing tumakbo siya. -Excited akong maging parte ng family.
-Love you. -I love you too.
7 ARAW BAGO ANG KASAL
Ngayon namin susukatin 'yong wedding dresses.
Ikaw… Ano'ng sinulat mo? Nagsulat ka ng speech?
Gusto kong alam ko 'yong sasabihin ko
pag nakita mo na 'yong pangarap mong dress.
Malaking araw 'to sa pagitan ng nanay at anak.
Gusto ko, maging special ito.
Dapat special day nga ito.
Pero parang di ako matapatan ni Nick intellectually.
Di tugma 'yong humor namin.
Di niya ako matapatan creatively, financially.
Di niya ako matapatan kahit saan.
Noong nakilala niya 'yong mga kaibigan ko, di nila siya nagustuhan.
Di 'yon mahalaga kung mahal n'yo ang isa't isa.
Di 'yon mahalaga.
Mahal ko siya. Kaya andito pa ako.
Siguro iniisip mo lang na
nakikita mo 'yong posible, tapos sobrang gusto mo 'to.
Alam ko.
Parang tinuturuan ko siyang magmahal,
at kung paano maging nasa relasyon, di 'yon patas para sa akin.
Kung may gusto kang pakasalan, alam mo. Walang kuwestiyon.
Oo.
Magandang makita kang may kasama at masaya.
Gusto namin 'yong magpapasaya sa 'yo.
Gusto naming maging masaya ka
at di maapektuhan 'yong desisyon mo ng palagay namin.
-Desisyon mo 'to lahat. -Oo.
Tingin ko, parating na si Nick.
I love you.
Oo.
Diyos ko! Tingnan n'yo 'yong mga dress!
Nakakaloka to.
Obsessed ako.
Ayos. Masususkatan na tayo.
Magiging maporma tayo.
-Gentlemen. -Itong taong 'to.
Uy! Kumusta, pare?
Yes, sir!
-Sino'ng gustong sumukat ng suits? -Ako.
-Wala si Hannah dito? -Sadya ba?
Tingin ko, sinadya.
Oo.
Kinausap ko siya kahapon tungkol sa friend meeting,
tapos tingin ko, di naging maayos.
'Yong mga kaibigan niya. Di ko alam kung siya…
Tinanong ko kung ika-cancel niya 'yong kasal. Di niya sinabi…
Hi.
Hi!
-Nakakaistorbo ba ako? -Hindi, welcome.
-Hindi, never. -Never.
Nag-uusap lang kami tungkol kay Hannah, isa sa girls, na wala rito.
-Hannah at Nick. -Oo.
Baka natulungan si Hannah ng mga kaibigan niyang malaman
'yong gusto niyang gawin sa relasyon, pero di niya na-confirm.
Sorry na dumating ako nang ganito, pero sasabihin kong,
umusad na tayo kasi andito tayo para mag-shopping kayo ng dress.
May isang linggo na lang kayo hanggang sa araw ng kasal n'yo.
Thank you.
Magsisimula ako kay Taylor. Sino'ng kasama mo?
-So, dinalo ko si Mama. -Hi, Ma.
At ang pinsan ko, Cheryl.
Hi, Cheryl. Nice to meet you pareho. Ano'ng unang impression mo kay Garrett?
Di 'yon ang type niya.
-Parang, 'yong hitsura? -Tama.
Pero pag nagsalita na, tumitingin sa kanya, pag may sinasabi,
parang, "Mahal niya nga siya."
Sang-ayon ka bang di siya 'yong type mo?
Oo.
Di ba nakakatuwa 'yon?
Oo. Pero 'yon 'yong buong punto ng experiment na 'to.
Tingin ko siya 'yong pinaka-hot na lalaki sa mundo.
-Tingin mo, bulag talaga ang pag-ibig? -Oo.
Marissa, sino ang dala mo?
Dala ko ang nanay ko, at best friend noong high school, Brenda.
Nice to meet you.
Gusto niya talagang makahanap ng true love.
'Yong may malaking puso, kasinglaki ng kanya,
at ramdam kong, nang nakita ko si Ramses, may malaki siyang puso.
Saka sobrang saya kong nakatagpo siya ng taong kakaiba.
'Yon ang kailangan niya.
At tingin ko, pareho silang 'yong isa't isa lang ang kailangan.
Ang una at nag-iisang kasal para sa kanya.
Oo. Napapaiyak niya ako.
Sweet girl.
Saka sobrang deserve niya ito.
Hi, Ma. Ano'ng pakiramdam mo?
Oo, mabuti, tingin ko.
Masyado lang siyang…
hippie, parang…
-Masyadong creative. -Oo, di ko alam.
-Di sobrang macho. Perfect siya. -Hindi, di talaga.
Gagawin ni Marissa 'yong gusto niya, kaya…
Binalaan ko na si Ramses, kaya alam na niya.
-Oo. -Sabi ko, puputulan ko siya ng bayag.
Pag ginawa niya ang?
Pag sinaktan niya siya.
Kasi sobrang bait niya. Sobrang mabuti siyang tao.
Pero may kumpiyansa akong tama 'yong naging desisyon niya.
Parang okay naman siya. Ewan, nagiging emosyonal na ako.
Sige, Ashley. Sino'ng dinala mo ngayon?
'Yong nanay ko at kinakapatid, Brittany.
Nice to meet you.
Actually, parang matagal ko nang kilala si Tyler.
Mabuting lalaki.
-Gusto ko 'yan. -Masaya ako.
Masaya ako para sa kanya.
I'm excited for you. And to have your moms here is so special.
Here we are at your tux fitting, your suit fitting.
I mean, it's a suit, right? But it's more than just a suit.
It's also a reflection of who you are, your personality, your style.
It's a reflection of the love and commitment you have for your fiancée.
So this is a big day, fellas.
I want you to appreciate that, but have fun.
I want to take a minute to get to know who you guys have with you.
Tyler, let's start with you.
I got my buddy Jake right here.
That's my friend Tevon. He's been in my life since 17.
High school.
I had my doubts.
I know Tyler pretty well,
but whatever went into those pods clearly worked.
He was talking about Ashley.
He goes, "She's the greatest girl in the world."
I said, "What did you just say?" He goes, "Oh! I don't know."
"They must be putting something in my food."
"I don't know what's going on, but I'm in love."
Once he said that, I was like, "This is for real."
-Yeah. -You know, I'm excited for you.
-Garrett, how you feeling? -I'm good, man.
-Who you got with you? -Trevor and Brandon.
Two of my best friends from high school.
Any thoughts? Have you had a chance to meet Taylor?
I did. She's great.
She seems like somebody that's gonna be able to keep up with this maniac.
Garrett's a very efficient, and targeted, and focused person.
If he's willing to open up his life to someone else,
then that's it.
-It sounds like you trust his instincts. -Yeah, 100%.
-Ramses, who you got with you? -My friend David.
He's like a brother to me. Known him for over ten years.
We've been through a lot in life. Really similar journeys.
He's someone who I feel really understands me.
One thing that stuck with me about our initial meeting,
you saying you were perceived a certain way in the dating world.
Do you feel because of the uniqueness of this experience
that you were able to be seen for who you truly are?
Yeah, with Marissa, every time I see her,
any doubts or any concerns I may have, everything just melts away.
And every day I'm learning and growing with her.
This morning, I told her, "Every day I'm falling more in love with you
because I'm discovering little details here and there."
I'm just excited to be on the altar and see her walking down the aisle.
To look into the three of your eyes today and see the joy, the passion,
the love that you clearly all feel, it's very cool for me.
-I want to say congrats to all of you… -Thank you.
…on being here, and like I said earlier,
pretty soon you're gonna be standing at that altar
looking into the eyes of your beautiful bride.
And you'll have to make the most important decision of your life.
Do you say "I do" to the person you fell in love with sight unseen
or will you walk away from him forever?
Is love truly blind?
We hope it is.
Cheers to you all finding the dress that you will get married in
and start the journey for the rest of your life.
I'm so happy for you.
Thank you.
Hell yeah, boys.
Appreciate y'all boys coming.
I feel like I can say anything to Ashley. She knows insecurities, vulnerabilities.
I've cried. She's taken me as I am.
I don't have to put on this tough face all the time.
-I can show emotions. -I'm excited for you.
See? Damn…
Look, he's getting emotional.
You better not.
He had to take a walk.
-It's been a long time coming. -Come on. You're good.
-It's been a long time coming. Come on. -Relax.
-You grew up in a different scene. -This is crazy.
We never get to see Tyler like this. You good?
You'll be all right. If she got you like this, then oh my God.
-You good? -I'm good.
This is like… It's not a sad cry. It's a happy cry.
Ashley!
Princess Ashley!
-How do you feel in it? -I like it.
I'm just wondering if it's too much.
You can never do too much on your wedding day.
That's a fact.
That's good.
I love how the veil really adds.
-Oh shit! -Yeah!
The veil!
I feel like… I knew you'd get here, girl.
At some point!
There was a time where I didn't feel that way.
Yeah.
I knew you would get there.
I want to try on the other one to see if I'm sold on this dress.
I have a good feeling.
You good going up?
I like the way it fits.
I feel like this is how it's supposed to feel…
I really like the other one, but…
-Trust your gut. -This is like… yeah.
Yeah.
It is beautiful.
She's such a beautiful girl.
She's Barbie!
-You think? -Holy shit, yeah.
-You look beautiful, princess. -Thank you.
Just like you always imagined. You look amazing.
Tyler's so lucky.
-He's so lucky. -You look…
You look like a bride. He certainly is lucky.
Can you imagine Tyler standing beside you?
Yeah.
I can.
-Yeah. -You're glowing.
You look like you're about to go down the aisle right now.
-You look perfect. -Thank you.
-You're supposed to not be crying. -I'm starting to be more emotional.
It was really dark days
in past situations where you start to feel undeserving.
So to be here now and to know that someone chose me without…
anything else is just a very overwhelming feeling.
But I'm really happy, so I love that for me.
-Let me get my hug. -Yeah.
-I love you so much. -I love you too.
You're gonna be a beautiful bride and a beautiful wife.
-You ready to get fitted for a tuxedo? -Yes, sir.
-When's the last time you wore a tuxedo? -I was married once before.
But I feel like maybe I filled in a tiny bit since then.
-Let me take a couple measurements. -Go for it.
All righty here.
Got long arms too.
Where do you wear your pants? About right here?
-That's perfect. -Listen.
-You like your sock to show? -A little bit, yeah.
There's a term for that. It's called "ankle cleavage."
-Ankle cleavage. -Ankle cleavage.
-We want to show a little ankle cleavage. -Okay, I'm gonna--
-I support ankle cleavage. -I support some ankle cleavage.
-Okay. -Second time around.
Second time around.
I've learned from the ways I wasn't the best husband in my first marriage.
-Right. -I feel so confident in Marissa.
It's just like, "We got this."
Yeah, you do.
We really do have such a great connection, such a great bond.
I feel like we can overcome anything, so…
Okay, you doing it! I'm very excited.
-Yeah. -This is beautiful.
It's amazing.
Oh my God, a little princess.
It is very princess-y. I don't know how to feel about it.
It's definitely very beautiful.
I feel like it looks too girly, if that makes sense.
-It does. -Yeah.
Too little girl-y.
-Yeah. -It's not, like, sophisticated.
Yeah.
I actually think it's so pretty.
This is Marissa as a little girl with her tutus and her little clog shoes
parading around with her little clickety-clackety
because she wanted to be the princess.
I know y'all see her one way, but this is the Marissa I see
in her fairy tale dress,
and her little girly girl wearing that little tutu dress, it is.
That's probably why it's not the dress 'cause she's not the little girl anymore.
-She's a woman. -I know. But I see why she picked it.
-Yeah. -It's obvious that you don't love it.
I don't.
Next.
All right.
How are you feeling?
How are you feeling that your high school friend is getting married?
I'm excited for her.
All the guys that she's ever dated are…
So it's nice that she's finally…
She called him today for something, and he got it to Taylor really quick.
He hurried up, went, and did it. She says, "If you can't, you can't."
And he just dropped everything and did it for her.
You know, it was just… He seems really genuine.
-All right, guys. I'm coming out. -Okay.
-Yes. -Yes.
I'm already crying.
I love it, Mama!
Your booty looks poppin'!
-It fits so good. -It does.
I love it. It does fit beautifully, Mama.
-You actually like it? -I love it.
I'm such a crybaby.
It's okay, Mama.
I think I would like some up-do fashion.
It looks beautiful up and it shows your face.
Yeah.
-Yeah. -Wow, Marissa.
There you go.
Beautiful.
You look absolutely stunning.
Okay, no, this is…
This is perfect.
-It's the one. Yeah, I… -Yeah, it's the one.
-Look at her. -You're glowing.
-Yeah? -More than normal.
I'm bright as hell right now.
I know it sounds weird.
-I feel like an adult. -Yeah.
I think I'm so playful
and so young at heart at times that I forget that I'm 31.
And looking at this, I'm like, "I look like a grown woman…"
-Yeah. -"…who's about to get married."
You can always cry on Mommy's shoulder.
Yes, Mom. Remember when I was a kid, you said,
"What do you want to be when you grow up?" I said, "A wife"?
She said, "No."
"You will be a lawyer, a doctor, you will not be a wife!"
So that's what I grew up with.
Di sa kontra ako. Gusto kong magkaroon din siya ng kanya.
Oo, ginawa ko. Abogado ako.
Oo.
Alam kong gusto kong magpakasal kasi romantic ako, na alam n'yo.
Oo.
Sobrang gusto ko ng love.
Gusto rin ni Ramses ng love. Nahanap ko 'yong perfect match ko.
Nagawa niya. Ang ganda niya saka masaya akong masaya siya.
Oo.
-Excited na akong ikasal. -Oo.
-Excite na siya. -Oo.
Isusuot ko 'to buong gabi. Di ako magpapalit.
Oo.
Meron ka bang takot na kakakilala mo lang sa taong 'to,
ng ano, isang buwan?
-Wala kayong idea. -Ang dami n'yong inaayos.
Sigurado akong may malalim kayong usapan kung paano harapin 'yong finances n'yo,
at iba pang bagay sa totoong buhay,
pero ang dami n'yo pang di alam…
Oo. May mga usapan kami sa araw-araw.
Isang buwan na 'to. Umuusad ka base sa pakiramdam.
Ano'ng pakiramdam pag andun na ako? Ano'ng pakiramdam ko ngayon?
Lahat sa akin nagsasabing katangahang humindi.
Siya ang tamang tao para sa akin.
Hanggang nararamdaman mo 'yan bawat araw…
Oo, pwede mong maisip na ang aga pa. Baka premature.
-Pero ayoko siyang mawala. -Oo.
Meron bang makakapagpahindi sa kanya?
Di mo malalaman. Baka may katangahan akong magawa.
Pwedeng bigla siyang may maisip.
Pwedeng may masabi 'yong nanay niya na ikaduda niya.
-Malaking impluwensiya? -Malaking impluwensiya ang parents niya.
I would imagine both of you guys, yeah.
My parents are upset, but they're still supportive.
They're just upset about the idea of me moving to San Diego.
I've never been in a situation where I've not had
all the power in a relationship, so it's weird, but…
I want to be with this girl.
So pretty.
I love it. I think it's very flattering.
I like that it's simple but has detail.
So pretty.
It also has pockets.
I know you guys were really worried.
It's gorgeous.
I'm excited to just think about how Garrett's gonna see me in this.
Yeah.
Envisioning him at the end and what his reaction's gonna be.
Mom, what do you think?
It's pretty.
Okay, well…
It's pretty. I didn't finish.
It's a beautiful dress.
I love the color.
But I'm not 100% sold on it.
-Honest feedback. We love it, Fong. -Yeah.
-You know when you know. -True.
When you know, you know. I don't know about this dress.
So, next one?
Today's a big day for my mom, because she's also been
the mom that's made every Halloween costume for me,
the mom who helped tailor outfits.
So to see me in my wedding dress is just a really special moment.
Okie-dokie, ladies.
All right!
Yes!
Taylor, I love that on you.
Is this the one, ladies? I haven't even seen it.
Look at yourself!
It's beautiful.
-The color, the style… -The color is beautiful.
I love that one. I want to wear it.
-This is 100%. This is the one. -I agree.
Stunning, Taylor.
Oh my God.
I love everything about this dress.
You look gorgeous.
Taylor.
You look like a bride.
Taylor, you're getting married.
It's so her, as far as "understated."
And it has pops of uniqueness to it.
It's beautiful. And the buttons in the back…
It's all in the details.
Very pretty.
Thank you, Mama.
You always think about,
"My little girl, she's gonna get married." And here we are.
It's really happening.
You look beautiful.
Thank you, Mom. It's not the way that we thought, but…
that's kind of me.
It's never the way we thought.
Like, the dress is beautiful,
but having you here and doing this is all that I care about.
This is it.
Yep.
I just feel very special that I'm able to
actually be able to participate in these little moments of your life
that you get to treasure forever.
I wouldn't want it any other way.
Love you.
-Garrett's gonna be blown away. -Yeah!
You look amazing.
-Hey. -Hey.
-Let me put this down real quick. -Okay.
In the pods, you said you wanted someone that could push you.
-Yeah. -And help you grow.
Yeah.
-Do you think I've done that at all? -Yeah.
Is it too much, though?
At times, maybe.
When I think back of the very first little incident we had
with that woman, and like, I wrote notes.
This was my list. It was…
"Respect, delusional, social awareness…"
"Maturity, confidence versus something."
"Maturity, confidence versus ego."
Those five concerns are still there. They never went away.
-Yeah. -You kept repeating the same actions.
Social awareness, I do not see. Respect, you have none.
Ego versus confidence.
I feel like I need to stroke your ego for you to be happy.
I feel like you say you're a confident person
and I make you unconfident when I think it's just ego.
And it's delusion.
It's like you just can't see how I feel.
I'm sorry you feel that way.
I don't understand you.
I don't, like-- I don't get it.
For instance, the Katie situation.
I can use specific examples. I don't know if you can, but I can.
Because I remember things. I know you don't--
You're just throwing shade for no reason.
-It's the truth. -It's not the truth.
It's my truth.
You see how you're always demeaning? You're always talking down on me.
We're not equals here.
It doesn't feel that way at all.
You think I can't take care of myself for some reason.
You think I can't take care of you, can't take care of anything.
What are your responsibilities in life?
-Payments, myself-- -What are your payments?
-We talked about it. -What are they?
My car, my gas, my insurance.
-That's pretty much it right now. -Okay.
Nakatira ako sa bahay, kaya di kailangan magbayad ng rent.
'Yong mga responsabilidad ko, alagaan 'yong sarili ko,
ayusin 'yong trabaho,
siguraduhing secure 'yong mga tao sa paligid ko.
May pusa ako.
-Di ito gaya ng pag-aalaga sa aso… -Sino'ng nagpapakain?
Gumigising 'yong tatay ko ng 6:30 a.m. at pinapakain 'yong pusa.
-Responsabilidad mo 'yong pusa? -Oo.
Responsabilidad kong linisin 'yong litter.
Punuan 'yong tubig at pagkain niya. Madali lang 'yong mga pusa, di ba?
Dapat may pagkain lang buong araw.
Dapat punuan mo lang 'yong tubig. 'Yon na 'yon.
Iparamdam mo lang na mahal mo.
Simpleng lalaki lang ako. Ano'ng mga responsabilidad ko?
Walang maraming responsabilidad pag simple.
Responsabilidad kong maging pinakamabuting anak saka kaibigan.
Gawin 'yong lahat para maging successful sa real estate.
Sinusubukan kong magkaroon ng initiative, at…
Kailan mo ginawa 'yong initiative?
Di ko pa nakita 'to sa 'yo.
Lagi mo akong nilalait at sinasabing, "Ginawa mo akong responsableng lalaki."
Parang sobrang nagiging mahigpit ka lang sa akin.
Di ako 'yong tipo ng lalaking andito
tapos may notebook na puro listahan ng panalalait sa 'yo.
-Di ito gagana… -Tingin mo, nilalait kita?
-Medyo sobra na, para maging totoo sa 'yo. -Alam mo kung bakit?
Para mailista mo sa papel at di sila malimutan?
Yeah. I want to make sure if this is the last conversation we ever have…
I would like to be able to get all my feelings out.
I have been trying, and I have been trying,
because I love you, and I want this so freaking bad.
It's just like…
When do I take off the rose-colored glasses
and just see this for what it is?
Today is the day where you try on your tux and I try on my wedding dresses.
I realized I can't do this. This is not fair to me.
This is not fair to you for us to put on your tux
and for me to put on a wedding dress and come here.
So what did I do?
I call you and I say, "Nick, I don't want to blindside you."
I love you. I would not do that to you.
Then you try to make a plan of how we're gonna do this
'cause you don't want to look bad.
"I don't want you to make me look bad." That's what you said, Nick.
Because I knew this was gonna be a grill sesh, right?
-I'm like, "Damn--" -Why do you think you're gonna look bad?
Because you're saying you didn't know me at all.
I don't know who the fuck you are. I can't read your mind. You're not being…
I don't understand you.
Well, this is…
Like, this is me right now.
This is me.
Nick's good at telling people what they want to hear.
And I feel very manipulated. And I feel very weak.
I feel like he was worried about how his friends, his family,
and everybody views him, and how bad he was gonna look
instead of trying to focus on being with me, being open and honest.
I don't know if he's even real.
I think sometimes you have to be real,
and have to be honest, and I'm so real and honest.
Right now, you know that this is not gonna work.
We are not gonna get married.
How do you feel?
Feels like probably one of the worst feelings of my life.
I don't know. Maybe I could've done a better job of it.
Yeah.
Did you love me? Do you care about me? I don't know.
I thought I was good enough for you, and I was wrong the whole time.
I thought you understood me. I was wrong the whole time.
I thought you were ready to get married, and--
-You think I'm not ready to get married? -To me.
I love you, you know?
So it's gonna suck.
It's gonna be one of the hardest times of my life.
-You know? That we couldn't get there. -Yeah.
And for that to be gone like that, it's…
I'll never not think about you. You'll always be in my heart.
I didn't have ulterior motives coming into this
other than getting married and finding love.
I wish we could have experienced these next couple days.
One week together.
I was willing to give it my all to the last possible second
and then make that decision.
But she felt that if she kept going I would say no at the altar.
I would never have done that.
I didn't come this far just to come this far.
You know, Kim K. Kim K is in that Drake song.
"I didn't come this far just to come this far."
So… me either, man.
Like, I came this far to get married.
And it makes me feel shitty that I lost a person
that I could potentially have loved for the rest of my life.
I think I'm done trying.
I do love you.
-I love you too. -Okay, you wanna give me a hug?
4 ARAW BAGO ANG KASAL
-Gorgeous out here. -Yeah.
Today is our last big day we have together before the big day, the wedding.
It feels amazing!
Oh my God. This is glorious.
I'm never gonna leave.
I'm a romantic.
I'm really looking forward to that day,
and seeing Marissa in her dress walking down the aisle.
-Cheers. -Okay.
Are any of your Guyanese family gonna be at the wedding?
You didn't invite them?
-Yeah, no, I didn't… -I can't get out.
I haven't really kept up with them as much as I would like to.
I don't know that very many of them… Well, they probably know, but…
-How would they know? -They follow my ex-wife on Facebook.
Oh yeah.
They were there for my first wedding.
Starting fresh.
Starting…
Hopefully your frigging last.
No, it's definitely my last.
-Well, this is my first and only. -Yeah?
I don't want to follow the footsteps of my family and get a divorce.
Is that something you're scared about?
I think about it because it's such an option in my family.
-Yeah. -I know it's an option for us too.
-I don't really want it to be. -Yeah.
I would be willing to be unhappy
for probably five to seven years before I go for a divorce.
-Five to seven years? Babe! -I know that's a long time, but, like…
There's gonna be periods of your life where you're unhappy.
Five to seven years of being unhappy? That's a long time.
Obviously, I've been divorced once, so…
Yeah, so it's scary, because you could easily do it again.
But now it's gonna be completely different.
I understand where your heart is, you want to work through whatever.
But not, like, straight to divorce.
In my family, none of the dads really stuck around.
Yeah.
How are you feeling when you talk to my mom?
Do you feel like she's warming up to you?
She does have a good heart.
I think she's just…
It's just so quick, and out of nowhere,
so she's gonna have her…
hesitations and all that.
But once we get married, I think she'll warm up.
I'm already thinking, "I've gotta get flowers for your mom."
I want to present her with the present we got her in Mexico.
Are you thinking about those things with my mom or do I have to remind you?
You know? I don't want to have to remind you.
Yeah. That's fair.
-You don't have to get a gift for my mom. -That's not the thing.
I want to get a gift for your mom, but my thing is
since you're thinking a thousand miles an hour,
you're shifting from, "We're gonna do something at the wedding."
"Now, we're not. We're gonna do something when we meet."
You're jumping from--
We're still gonna do something at the wedding.
So now we're--
A gift for your mom at the dinner is what you want to do?
You should probably bring her flowers because we didn't the first time.
Okay. Yeah.
I'm just-- I need clarity on just where your head is at though.
I don't know. You do what you want to do.
I'm not gonna tell you to bring something for my mom.
I think you should do what you think you should do in this situation.
Yeah.
You're not telling me to get a gift for your mom.
I'm doing it because I think that's the right thing to do and I want to.
I get what you're saying in terms of
you shouldn't have to be telling me what to do.
And I don't want to overwhelm you 'cause I know you're feeling overwhelmed.
But at the same time, I'm also having to think about these things.
You saw me in that week where I was having a really rough week,
my PMS week and stuff,
but it's just like… even though I'm really stressed,
I'm trying to pass law school, and I'm commuting,
and I'm doing homework, and papers, and mock trials,
and also everything else we're doing, plus the wedding stuff.
It's like…
I just think…
It's just, like…
-You can say it. I could do more. -Okay.
Or even the registry, or the email about the song,
and the lineup.
If I didn't bring it up, would you have thought about it?
Those things are important, but, like…
I don't want to sound like I don't care, but I'm so focused on right now,
just making sure, like… us, we're good,
And we're, like, everything is working between us.
I guess in my head I'm prioritizing what's important,
where does my energy need to go, and it is important,
but it's hard to find the energy
to focus on stuff that
maybe in the moment right now isn't as important.
I hate when you say it's not important
because I don't want to feel like I'm doing it by myself.
No, I get that. Yeah. Maybe it is me falling into that, like…
It is. It's totally you falling into the men thing of, like…
And that's my biggest fear, in just life, not just the wedding stuff,
but having children with a man who I have to carry the mental load.
I don't want-- We talked about that in the pods.
I'm not looking for that in a relationship.
I do apologize if you feel like you've been having to take everything,
you know, and handle everything.
-But I hear you though. -Okay.
-As long as you hear me. -No, I hear you.
I understand where you're coming from.
I will keep that in mind, baby.
-Yeah, okay. -I will do better.
Tracking.
-I know, like, you… -I do worry.
-…have your concerns. -Yeah.
-I do think we're good for each other. -I do too.
-How are you feeling? -I'm feeling pretty good.
-Yeah? -Yeah.
-I love you. -Love you too.
What am I doing?
You agreed to this. Remember that. On your way down, say, "I agreed to this."
We don't go super high, do we?
About two miles.
I don't even know what that means in airplane language.
So how long do you free fall?
About 40 seconds.
-Okay. -Or the rest of your life.
I'm terrified, honestly.
Skydiving, it's always something I wanted to do prior to getting married.
I just like the idea of taking an actual leap of faith,
metaphorically and actually.
And I think that if me and my significant other can do that together,
then we can tackle anything.
-I'm nervous too. Don't think… -You seem cool, calm, collected.
That's because I'm not on the plane getting ready to leap out.
When I do, he's gonna have to take me.
I'm not gonna be able to do it myself.
-Ready? -Ready!
-This is it. We're about to take off. -Let's go.
-You want to get out? -This is what love gets you.
We're airborne!
-I'm gonna open the door. You ready? -No.
I'm scared.
Oh my God.
What a view.
-Thank you, Jesus. You're the dopest. -Good job.
Up.
Yeah, girl!
Yes!
-Go check on her. -Yep.
That was…
Oh my God! How do you feel?
How do you feel?
-I would do it again. -I told you.
Oh my God!
That was probably the most thrilling thing I've ever done.
Probably the best thing I've ever experienced.
-Would you go again now? -I would go back up.
-I would go. -Yeah.
I 100% would go back up. That float was the best float ever.
-Thanks for making me do that. Love you. -I love you.
Damn, that was fun.
Chocolate-covered strawberries.
So cute!
I'm so proud of you. You don't even know.
No other person can get me to come out of a plane.
Not my mama.
I'm telling you, none of my friends, family could've gotten me to do this.
Unless Jesus was like, "I'm gonna take you." That's the only way.
Now you see where I… not my whole life, but probably since…
-You want one of these? -Middle school. Yeah.
I always said, "I'm gonna jump out of a plane with my husband
the day before my wedding."
My mom used to be like, "Why? In case y'all don't make it!"
I'm like, "We're gonna make it."
Yeah, to be that high up, float down, and look at everything,
I was like, "This is the best experience of my life."
Seriously. Until next week.
See? I wasn't lying in the pods.
-Yeah. -Told you I'd do it.
That was, like, the biggest fear ever.
For me, jumping out, it was like letting go of a lot of things.
I'm jumping into this life with Ashley.
I just feel like, anything now, we could tackle, like giving birth.
I don't think it's a fear of mine.
It's not for you, but I have to give birth and push a baby out of my vagina.
That is very nerve-racking for me.
-The scariest thing I'll ever do. -I'll hold your hand like you held mine.
It's less risk for you.
All you gotta do is shoot the club up, and then…
-Literally. -That's the fun part.
Donate your stuff and then help me through the process--
-I'm not donating. We're married. -Not "donate."
-Yeah. -Let's not use those…
-All right, now. -Babe!
-All right, wrong choice of words! -You ain't even wanna…
Wrong choice of words.
All right, all you have to do is, like, you know, give your stuff.
-To your wife! -I'm not giving-- We're sharing.
-We are, but I'm saying-- -"Give your stuff."
You don't have to bear the child. That's a big deal.
No, it is.
For me, that would be the scariest thing I ever do.
But if you're there to support me, I feel like we could do it.
I'll be there.
If I could have you, and know you're gonna support me,
and know you're gonna take risks with me, I feel like we could do anything.
-Love you. -I love you.
-Thank you. -Welcome.
Oh my God.
-Okay. This is so trippy. -This is cool.
This is so trippy.
I feel like I'm in a movie.
Yeah, this is pretty crazy.
Walking in here, it's this mental explosion.
Colors and lights and-- It's science and art combined in there.
It's perfect because Taylor and I both have science backgrounds.
And as scientists, and also this art side of us…
We both appreciate this entire gallery. Very cool.
-Oh my-- Look. -Light of your life?
-Yeah. It's a sign. -Middle of your universe?
The wedding being days away,
it brings the weight of the decision into perspective.
It feels very real, very heavy-hitting, but it's this beautiful thing.
It's not scary anymore. It's beautiful.
There's Fredericksburg.
It's just beautiful. I'm so excited, so happy.
It's so great.
What? Why are you laughing at me?
You make me happy. I don't know what to tell you.
Nice. Thank you.
We're not gonna see each other for a couple days.
Who's gonna tape your mouth shut at night?
I'll have to hire somebody.
It's part of the wedding experience.
Do you think you're gonna cry when you see me?
Not a chance.
-Not a chance? -Not a chance.
No, I'm trying to convince myself.
-There's definitely a chance. -What's the p-value?
P win feels pretty high.
The P cry feels pretty low, but not zero.
It'll be a very beautiful end to a wonderfully chaotic, and amazing,
unique, at times stressful experience.
Do you feel you've been more stressed than happy in this experience?
More stressful than happy? Impossible.
Some of the happiest days of my life.
Knowing I found the person I want to spend my life with
is a beautiful feeling.
And you?
Definitely not super stressful
having someone like you be my best friend during this whole thing.
It's been cool.
-Or you love me or something? -You know that--
Yes, I love you. I'm crazy about you.
Any last minute things to confront me about?
Yeah. I've been waiting for this moment, in fact.
Mustard stays in the pantry.
-Not in the fridge. -So weird.
It's not.
Brown mustard, yes, there's sugar in it.
Standard yellow mustard is just ground mustard seed.
-Does anyone possibly… -Standard yellow mustard.
…keep their open mustard not in the fridge?
It's ground mustard seed and vinegar.
We're gonna have separate bathrooms and separate mustards.
-Do you want more of this? -No, I'm good.
Isn't that funny? You're done taking girls out on dates.
-Just a wife to take out on dates. -Thank God.
"Thank God"?
I'm happy to leave all that bullshit behind.
I mean, the goal was to find you, right?
So now I'm here. It feels…
I feel very relaxed.
Don't get comfortable.
"Don't get too comfortable." That was the advice your dad told me.
Smart man.
It's like he knows me well or something.
I think we actually are following our guts for the first time
on a really big decision.
And so I'm really sure, and certain, and incredibly happy,
and excited for everything that's gonna come when it's just us.
Me too.
You're trying to make me cry.
-I love you. -Love you too. To life.
2 ARAW BAGO ANG KASAL
Ano'ng iniisip mo?
Di ko alam. Ang dami lang.
'Yong totoo, ayokong bigla-biglang magdesisyon na lang.
Nagawa nating ayusin 'yong issues natin. Napag-usapan natin 'yong mga bagay.
Pero isa ito sa mga bagay na, parang…
kung tungkol sa pagranas…
alam mo 'yon, kung paano maging magkasama, tumirang magkasama at lahat ng 'yon.
Para lang 'tong…
Magiging iba kung issue 'to na matagal nang meron sa atin, pero…
Parang…
Sabi ko sa 'yo, walang tanong kung mahal kita o hindi.
Ayokong mawala ka, pero di lang ito, parang kasal.
Di lang 'to tungkol sa pag-ibig. Mahalaga 'yon.
Sobrang mahalaga 'yon.
Pero di lang 'to 'yon. May iba pang bagay na dapat umubra.
Di ko alam…
Di ko alam kung saang direksiyon pupunta.
Di mo ba nakikitang, parang… nakipag-usap ka sa iba
tapos nagsimula ka nang mag-isip ng kung ano-ano?
Alam kong normal na makaramdam ng kaba,
pero minsan 'yong impluwensiya ng iba, parang, di nakakatulong.
Baka ang pagpapapasok mo sa kanila sa 'yo… di natin sila kasama.
Di nila naranasan 'yong naranasan natin.
Sugal 'yong ma-in love. Pag kasal na tayo, ito na 'yon.
Ayoko na 'tong gawin ulit. Di ko na 'to gagawin ulit.
Ito na 'yon. Kung hindi ito 'yon, wala na.
Natatakot ako kasi mo gusto 'yong divorce.
Ayokong mapunta sa sitwasyong kukuha tayo ng divorce.
May maganda tayong future na haharapin.
Gusto kitang pakasalan.
'Yong sugal, 'yong ibibigay natin lahat, at maging sobrang vulnerable,
at maghuhubad ako ng kaluluwa sa 'yo, gano'n ka rin,
tapos di ito uubra.
'Yon ang sugal pag mai-in love ka.
Takot tayong lahat doon.
Pero 'yon 'yong literal na sugal pag na-in love ka, Ramses.
SUSUNOD NA
ANG FINALE NG LOVE IS BLIND
Tumayo ang lahat.
Ngayon na ang oras para magdesisyon kung bulag ang pag-ibig.
Nagsalin ng subtitle: Kez Evangelista