1 00:00:05,922 --> 00:00:07,841 -[pop music playing] -[shouts] ♪ We crank it up ♪ 2 00:00:07,924 --> 00:00:10,635 ♪ Crank it up Crank it up, crank it up, crank it up ♪ 3 00:00:10,719 --> 00:00:11,886 [Brittany] Taylor has a game. 4 00:00:11,970 --> 00:00:15,098 Perfect husband, but… he doesn't wear shoes anywhere. 5 00:00:15,181 --> 00:00:16,683 -Would you marry him? -No. 6 00:00:16,766 --> 00:00:18,643 [laughing] 7 00:00:18,727 --> 00:00:19,561 [Ashley W] No. 8 00:00:19,644 --> 00:00:21,229 -I would do it. -You would do it? 9 00:00:21,312 --> 00:00:23,314 -We're like dirty hippies. -Not wearing shoes? 10 00:00:23,398 --> 00:00:26,109 -I would think about it. -[laughing] 11 00:00:26,192 --> 00:00:28,278 Perfect husband, but, like, he can't read. 12 00:00:28,361 --> 00:00:30,280 I'd be like, "I can read the menu for both of us." 13 00:00:30,363 --> 00:00:31,865 [laughing] 14 00:00:31,948 --> 00:00:36,369 Perfect husband, but you're his fifth wife. 15 00:00:36,453 --> 00:00:37,287 [Ashley W] Oh! 16 00:00:37,370 --> 00:00:39,539 -He's learned a lot of lessons. -[laughing] 17 00:00:39,622 --> 00:00:41,124 [Ashley W] Yes, Taylor! 18 00:00:41,207 --> 00:00:44,044 How have the marriages ended, in divorce or death? 19 00:00:44,127 --> 00:00:45,503 Yeah. [laughs] 20 00:00:45,587 --> 00:00:47,297 [Ashley W] That is the question. 21 00:00:47,922 --> 00:00:51,468 Okay, yeah, they all have to be alive. Yeah, I have boundaries. 22 00:00:51,551 --> 00:00:53,053 [laughing] 23 00:00:53,136 --> 00:00:57,015 -["Feelin' Like" by Ms. Triniti playing] -[vocalizing] 24 00:00:57,098 --> 00:00:58,850 ♪ We're feeling like ♪ 25 00:00:59,476 --> 00:01:00,894 ♪ We're feelin' like ooh! ♪ 26 00:01:00,977 --> 00:01:03,605 It takes a lot for me to really like a guy. 27 00:01:04,147 --> 00:01:06,941 And every guy I fall for, every single time, 28 00:01:07,025 --> 00:01:10,278 it was like, oh, the first date, we just had this crazy chemistry. 29 00:01:10,361 --> 00:01:12,697 I felt like I knew him. Oh, my-- There was so much chemistry. 30 00:01:12,781 --> 00:01:15,825 Then I get into it after a few months. I'm like, "We are not compatible." 31 00:01:15,909 --> 00:01:16,743 [laughs] 32 00:01:16,826 --> 00:01:19,662 Like, this, it's leading with compatibility. 33 00:01:19,746 --> 00:01:21,998 I do have a typical type when it comes to men. 34 00:01:22,082 --> 00:01:23,083 Like, they're all hot. 35 00:01:23,166 --> 00:01:24,876 ["Night Drive" playing] 36 00:01:24,959 --> 00:01:26,920 [Stephen] Ray, you look like a celebrity. 37 00:01:27,003 --> 00:01:29,422 -Step aside, Nick Lachey. -[Ray] It's the chin. It's the chin. 38 00:01:29,506 --> 00:01:32,634 ♪ Let's take a picture You're looking fine… ♪ 39 00:01:32,717 --> 00:01:36,346 [Monica] Arms tend to, like, make me feel a little hot and bothered. 40 00:01:36,429 --> 00:01:37,680 There is a pattern there. 41 00:01:37,764 --> 00:01:41,768 Everything is outside first. 42 00:01:41,851 --> 00:01:45,105 I'm here to, like, not judge a book by its cover. 43 00:01:45,772 --> 00:01:47,107 Hello. 44 00:01:47,190 --> 00:01:50,110 -[Stephen] Who's this? -This is Monica. Who's this? 45 00:01:50,193 --> 00:01:51,361 [Stephen] It's Stephen. 46 00:01:51,945 --> 00:01:54,197 -It's Stephen! -[Stephen] Hi! 47 00:01:54,280 --> 00:01:57,909 I didn't actually ever ask you, when was your last serious relationship? 48 00:01:57,992 --> 00:01:59,410 [Stephen] Two and a half years ago. 49 00:01:59,494 --> 00:02:00,870 How long did you date for? 50 00:02:00,954 --> 00:02:02,622 -Two years. -[Monica] Two years. 51 00:02:02,705 --> 00:02:05,458 I can honestly say it was also my most healthy, 52 00:02:05,542 --> 00:02:07,168 communicative relationship I've been in. 53 00:02:07,252 --> 00:02:08,378 -[Monica] I love that. -Yeah. 54 00:02:08,461 --> 00:02:09,921 I'm huge on communication. 55 00:02:10,004 --> 00:02:11,881 -And emotional intelligence. -Me too. 56 00:02:12,549 --> 00:02:15,176 [Stephen] Even if it's, "How are you?" You're like, "I'm fine." 57 00:02:15,260 --> 00:02:18,471 -"No, you're not. How are you feeling?" -[Monica] Oh, I love that. 58 00:02:18,555 --> 00:02:20,890 [Stephen] We're gonna talk about this until we figure it out. 59 00:02:20,974 --> 00:02:23,852 Whether it's a relationship, a marriage, a job, 60 00:02:23,935 --> 00:02:25,854 you have to talk about how you're feeling. 61 00:02:25,937 --> 00:02:28,523 When I think about marriage, and what I've learned 62 00:02:28,606 --> 00:02:32,110 and what I'm looking for, it's like being confident enough to know 63 00:02:32,193 --> 00:02:35,530 that, like, it's okay and very normal to have a bad day 64 00:02:35,613 --> 00:02:39,826 and wanting someone that's not expecting perfection, 65 00:02:39,909 --> 00:02:42,036 'cause it's fucking exhausting. 66 00:02:42,120 --> 00:02:44,497 -[Stephen] Can I just tell you this now? -Yeah. 67 00:02:44,581 --> 00:02:46,833 [Stephen] I want somebody who's not afraid to be imperfect 68 00:02:46,916 --> 00:02:49,586 and who's not afraid to call me out on being imperfect. 69 00:02:49,669 --> 00:02:52,505 -That's what makes things beautiful. -[Monica] I agree. 70 00:02:52,589 --> 00:02:53,965 [Stephen] Here's what I believe. 71 00:02:54,048 --> 00:02:57,385 You like someone for their qualities, 72 00:02:57,468 --> 00:02:59,679 but you love someone for their flaws. 73 00:02:59,762 --> 00:03:03,766 I've always been drawn to… flaws. 74 00:03:03,850 --> 00:03:06,936 -Believe me, I've been the same way. -[Monica] Mentally. Yeah. 75 00:03:07,020 --> 00:03:09,522 Actually, my most recent relationship, 76 00:03:09,606 --> 00:03:11,524 since, you know, we're already getting into this. 77 00:03:11,608 --> 00:03:12,483 [Monica] Let's do it. 78 00:03:12,567 --> 00:03:16,029 I will divulge something that I am not very proud of at all. 79 00:03:16,112 --> 00:03:17,530 -But I wear this brand. -Yeah. 80 00:03:17,614 --> 00:03:20,617 And I think it's very important to be honest about it. 81 00:03:20,700 --> 00:03:21,576 [Monica] Yeah. 82 00:03:22,243 --> 00:03:23,161 So… [sighs] 83 00:03:23,244 --> 00:03:24,787 …we're gonna talk about cheating. 84 00:03:24,871 --> 00:03:25,705 [Monica] Yep. 85 00:03:25,788 --> 00:03:29,375 [Stephen] I technically hold the title of being a cheater. 86 00:03:29,459 --> 00:03:32,128 I've been cheated on multiple times as well. 87 00:03:32,212 --> 00:03:35,673 I believed that this person that I was dating at the time, 88 00:03:35,757 --> 00:03:37,675 I believed I didn't deserve her. 89 00:03:38,718 --> 00:03:40,720 Everyone has a different concept of cheating. 90 00:03:40,803 --> 00:03:44,349 One person's could be, you know, looking at someone. 91 00:03:44,432 --> 00:03:48,061 You know, someone else's could be an actual physical act. 92 00:03:48,144 --> 00:03:52,065 I basically slid into a girl's DMs like a dumbass, 93 00:03:52,148 --> 00:03:55,151 and we were flirting with intention. 94 00:03:55,235 --> 00:03:57,403 You're emotionally cheating at that point. 95 00:03:57,487 --> 00:04:01,616 I got caught, which I knew I would. I was very disappointed with myself. 96 00:04:01,699 --> 00:04:05,578 -I'm so sorry. [groans] -I mean, we went through therapy. 97 00:04:05,662 --> 00:04:09,582 We figured it out, 'cause I'm actively in therapy to talk about these things. 98 00:04:09,666 --> 00:04:12,710 [Monica] And by the way, I really appreciate you sharing with me. 99 00:04:12,794 --> 00:04:15,171 I want you to feel like you can tell me anything. 100 00:04:15,255 --> 00:04:16,714 Like, we're all human. 101 00:04:16,798 --> 00:04:20,802 I'm 36 years old. Like, it's not so black and white. 102 00:04:20,885 --> 00:04:21,844 [Stephen] Right. 103 00:04:21,928 --> 00:04:26,182 The experiences that I've had to deal with from cheating are… 104 00:04:26,266 --> 00:04:27,183 [exhales] 105 00:04:27,267 --> 00:04:31,229 They are, like, really gross and very, very bad. 106 00:04:31,312 --> 00:04:35,566 And even in those situations, I've always found a path to forgiveness. 107 00:04:35,650 --> 00:04:38,444 -"This feels so shitty and terrible." -Yes. 108 00:04:38,528 --> 00:04:40,697 But, like, something good will come from it." 109 00:04:40,780 --> 00:04:42,615 -Like, look at where you are now. -Yes. 110 00:04:42,699 --> 00:04:46,202 I can tell, even the way you described how upset you were with yourself, 111 00:04:46,286 --> 00:04:49,122 I really appreciate it, and I think you were, like, too hard on yourself. 112 00:04:49,205 --> 00:04:51,457 It was, uh, yeah, it sucked. 113 00:04:51,541 --> 00:04:54,085 Also, I'm gonna stop you for a second, 114 00:04:54,168 --> 00:04:56,296 because I really wanna take you on a date tonight. 115 00:04:56,879 --> 00:04:58,840 -You do? -[Stephen] Yes, yes, I do. 116 00:04:58,923 --> 00:05:02,510 [Monica] Aww, thank you for saying that. I wanna go on a date with you too. 117 00:05:02,593 --> 00:05:06,264 [laughing] 118 00:05:06,347 --> 00:05:08,391 [Monica] God, this is gonna be hard. 119 00:05:08,474 --> 00:05:11,894 -[pop music playing] -♪ I can never let you go ♪ 120 00:05:12,603 --> 00:05:13,980 I'm in love. 121 00:05:15,189 --> 00:05:18,359 [Marissa] What, are you feeling bad 'cause of what you had to do, 122 00:05:18,443 --> 00:05:20,153 or are you regretting what you did? 123 00:05:20,236 --> 00:05:24,073 I don't know. I think I'm regretting it a little bit. 124 00:05:24,157 --> 00:05:28,119 Nick was like, "You are my person. I envisioned you being my wife." 125 00:05:28,202 --> 00:05:31,080 Like, "I like-- you are so friggin' special." 126 00:05:31,164 --> 00:05:33,791 "If you have stronger connections with other people, like, 127 00:05:33,875 --> 00:05:35,501 you are gonna find someone so special. 128 00:05:35,585 --> 00:05:38,296 "You're beautiful inside and out, I would do anything to be with you, 129 00:05:38,379 --> 00:05:39,839 but it's not mutual." 130 00:05:39,922 --> 00:05:42,508 -[Katie] What did I miss? -[Hannah] He was like, "I'm gonna leave." 131 00:05:42,592 --> 00:05:44,177 -He left. -[Marissa] Oh, he left? 132 00:05:44,260 --> 00:05:47,138 He was like, "I have nothing else to say." And I didn't say anything. 133 00:05:47,221 --> 00:05:49,724 I didn't know what to say. I feel like I didn't do it right. 134 00:05:49,807 --> 00:05:52,518 Then Brittany came in. She goes, "I just got out of my date with Leo." 135 00:05:52,602 --> 00:05:53,686 I'm gonna kill myself. 136 00:05:53,770 --> 00:05:56,564 She was upset because she had just broken up with Nick D. 137 00:05:56,647 --> 00:05:58,274 -Oh. -[Hannah] You know what? 138 00:05:58,358 --> 00:06:01,069 Nick's gonna get home today, and the first thing he's gonna do? 139 00:06:01,152 --> 00:06:03,654 -Look us upon Instagram. -[Marissa and Katie] Facts. 140 00:06:03,738 --> 00:06:06,574 Sexting mad bitches. He's got nudes in his phone. 141 00:06:06,657 --> 00:06:09,369 -[laughing] -Probably. He's fine. 142 00:06:09,452 --> 00:06:12,413 [Hannah] I don't even know if Nick is gone, but, um, 143 00:06:12,497 --> 00:06:14,248 I already requested a date with him. 144 00:06:14,332 --> 00:06:15,750 -[pop music playing] -[vocalizing] 145 00:06:18,419 --> 00:06:21,464 Whew! It's been a really stressful day. 146 00:06:21,547 --> 00:06:25,676 I think everyone's had a little emotional meltdown today. 147 00:06:25,760 --> 00:06:30,014 -What happened? -Everyone has learned who's dating who. 148 00:06:30,515 --> 00:06:31,849 It was really bad. 149 00:06:32,517 --> 00:06:33,518 [Leo] What? 150 00:06:34,143 --> 00:06:36,979 [Brittany] I said your fucking name. 151 00:06:37,855 --> 00:06:42,402 Then, apparently, someone else on your list was in-- like, heard that. 152 00:06:43,027 --> 00:06:44,862 This was… [grunts] 153 00:06:44,946 --> 00:06:47,240 -Uh… -[Brittany] Right after our date today. 154 00:06:48,199 --> 00:06:49,242 Damn. 155 00:06:49,325 --> 00:06:54,872 Like, I would never ever, ever, ever, ever say that. 156 00:06:54,956 --> 00:06:58,960 Mostly because I so strongly believe in negative energy. 157 00:06:59,043 --> 00:07:01,671 -Evil eyes and jealousy. [clears throat] -[Leo] Yeah. 158 00:07:01,754 --> 00:07:03,923 And I don't want any of that 159 00:07:04,006 --> 00:07:07,093 projected on to what I'm doing in here, you know? 160 00:07:07,176 --> 00:07:10,555 -Yeah, I'm into evil eyes too. -[Brittany] Mm-hmm. 161 00:07:11,139 --> 00:07:15,810 [Leo] And I'm not at all mad at you. Like, you're really honest with me. 162 00:07:15,893 --> 00:07:18,396 Like, I really appreciate that. [exhales] 163 00:07:19,105 --> 00:07:23,025 It's inevitable once we get to this point that people will probably start knowing. 164 00:07:24,360 --> 00:07:25,361 [Brittany] Yeah. 165 00:07:26,112 --> 00:07:29,949 Honestly, like, I just wanna focus on you and I. 166 00:07:30,533 --> 00:07:31,659 -[Brittany] Mm-hmm. -Like… 167 00:07:31,742 --> 00:07:33,828 I kind of have, like, a crush on you. 168 00:07:34,787 --> 00:07:37,748 Like, I really do. 169 00:07:39,250 --> 00:07:40,668 [Brittany] Well, good. 170 00:07:41,586 --> 00:07:42,962 Sorry, I'm like… 171 00:07:43,463 --> 00:07:46,299 Maybe I should have went home. I'm kind of in a sad mood. 172 00:07:47,049 --> 00:07:47,884 Why? 173 00:07:48,468 --> 00:07:49,677 [Brittany] I don't know. 174 00:07:52,180 --> 00:07:53,181 It's fine. 175 00:07:55,850 --> 00:07:58,561 [Leo] Like, Brittany, like, I'm not gonna lie. 176 00:07:58,644 --> 00:07:59,854 [clears throat] 177 00:07:59,937 --> 00:08:02,106 Like, using the L word is something that's, 178 00:08:02,190 --> 00:08:04,192 like, so sacred and scary for me, but like, 179 00:08:04,984 --> 00:08:07,945 like, I'm falling for you so fucking hard. 180 00:08:08,029 --> 00:08:10,823 I'm afraid to use it, like, now, 181 00:08:10,907 --> 00:08:12,867 but I feel like I'm, like, going to. 182 00:08:12,950 --> 00:08:15,328 I'm kind of in the sense in the lucky position of, 183 00:08:15,411 --> 00:08:17,705 like, "Oh, my God, I have two connections." 184 00:08:18,331 --> 00:08:22,293 Like, I'm not trying to say "woe is me." Like, it's harder for you. 185 00:08:22,376 --> 00:08:23,794 [Brittany] It is what it is. 186 00:08:23,878 --> 00:08:25,087 I'll be fine. 187 00:08:25,838 --> 00:08:29,133 I'm not gonna ever beg someone to be with me. 188 00:08:29,217 --> 00:08:32,011 -[Leo] I know. -That would just never happen. 189 00:08:32,595 --> 00:08:34,680 So it's just your decision to make. 190 00:08:34,764 --> 00:08:36,265 -It just sucks. -[clears throat] 191 00:08:36,349 --> 00:08:39,435 But I will either be happy or sad. 192 00:08:39,519 --> 00:08:41,938 -[Leo exhales] -It's on you there, buddy. 193 00:08:42,021 --> 00:08:42,855 [Leo] I know. 194 00:08:43,981 --> 00:08:45,608 I really don't know what to say, Brittany. 195 00:08:46,400 --> 00:08:50,279 I'm, like, never gonna forget our date today. 196 00:08:52,198 --> 00:08:53,074 [Brittany] Why? 197 00:08:54,283 --> 00:08:58,079 Like, what you said was, like, so brave and vulnerable. 198 00:08:58,579 --> 00:09:01,624 I love that about you, that you're just, like, so open with me. 199 00:09:01,707 --> 00:09:04,669 Like, I want you to feel like you can cry around me and everything. 200 00:09:05,461 --> 00:09:07,838 Like, you'll be, like, forever seared into my memory. 201 00:09:08,422 --> 00:09:10,174 -Like, forever. -[Brittany sniffles] 202 00:09:11,425 --> 00:09:13,094 What if I just ghosted you? 203 00:09:13,177 --> 00:09:14,595 [Leo] Oh, my God. 204 00:09:14,679 --> 00:09:17,765 -I would fucking be so heartbroken. -[laughs] Good. 205 00:09:17,848 --> 00:09:20,059 I wanna say, like, and I really mean this, 206 00:09:20,142 --> 00:09:22,228 when I'm with you, you're the only girl. 207 00:09:22,311 --> 00:09:24,397 I, like, hate feeling like a player. 208 00:09:24,480 --> 00:09:27,233 -That's so not what I'm trying to do. -But it also doesn't surpr-- 209 00:09:27,316 --> 00:09:28,693 Like, I knew. 210 00:09:28,776 --> 00:09:33,489 I'm telling-- I'm very intuitive. I just already knew. [sighs] 211 00:09:34,240 --> 00:09:36,993 And then it was just confirmed today. 212 00:09:37,493 --> 00:09:40,538 Because I already knew and then knowing your personality, 213 00:09:40,621 --> 00:09:43,457 I know you would be… 214 00:09:44,458 --> 00:09:46,961 with a pros and cons list on each person. 215 00:09:47,044 --> 00:09:47,962 [Leo] Mm. 216 00:09:48,045 --> 00:09:50,798 Because I knew you would never just have one. 217 00:09:50,881 --> 00:09:53,092 You're right. You're really smart. 218 00:09:53,843 --> 00:09:55,011 I'm very smart. 219 00:09:55,094 --> 00:09:58,848 [Leo] You are. You know what? I bet that you… 220 00:10:00,391 --> 00:10:03,019 Because of, like, your voice, 221 00:10:03,102 --> 00:10:06,105 and what I feel like your vibe is, 222 00:10:06,772 --> 00:10:09,025 I feel like people assume that you're not smart, 223 00:10:09,108 --> 00:10:11,068 but I think, like, people underestimate you. 224 00:10:11,152 --> 00:10:13,738 -[Brittany] Oh, 100%. -Which is a low-key superpower. 225 00:10:13,821 --> 00:10:16,032 And I feel like that's, like, actually extra smart, 226 00:10:16,115 --> 00:10:19,243 "I'm okay with people thinking I'm dumb. Because now, I have an advantage." 227 00:10:19,327 --> 00:10:20,161 Yeah. 228 00:10:21,370 --> 00:10:22,788 [Leo] I'll tell you one thing. 229 00:10:22,872 --> 00:10:24,373 Before our date today, like, 230 00:10:25,833 --> 00:10:27,084 I'll be honest, like, 231 00:10:28,252 --> 00:10:31,922 you were, like, a really, really, 232 00:10:32,006 --> 00:10:34,008 like, you were number two. 233 00:10:34,508 --> 00:10:39,055 And after our date today, like, honest to God, you're, like… 234 00:10:39,597 --> 00:10:42,016 I swear to God, you're, like, both number one. 235 00:10:42,600 --> 00:10:44,810 -We're both number one? -[Leo] Yes. 236 00:10:45,519 --> 00:10:48,064 [exhales] I don't know if that makes you feel good or shitty. 237 00:10:48,147 --> 00:10:49,774 I don't know if I should've said that. 238 00:10:51,108 --> 00:10:55,071 I guess I can't take it back, but it's true. 239 00:10:55,655 --> 00:10:57,156 And it's really scary. 240 00:10:59,909 --> 00:11:01,035 Like, I-- [exhales] 241 00:11:02,328 --> 00:11:03,621 Like, I have two connections, 242 00:11:03,704 --> 00:11:06,415 and I don't, like, wanna be talking about that, 243 00:11:06,499 --> 00:11:09,377 but, obviously, you know, when you bring that up, like, it's-- 244 00:11:09,460 --> 00:11:11,754 it is like an elephant in the room, you know, like, 245 00:11:12,254 --> 00:11:13,798 I'm not just dating you, you know? 246 00:11:14,382 --> 00:11:15,257 Yeah. 247 00:11:15,758 --> 00:11:17,343 [Leo] Like, if someone told me, like, 248 00:11:18,135 --> 00:11:20,262 you and me are getting engaged and married tomorrow, 249 00:11:20,346 --> 00:11:23,516 I'd, like... I'd be, like, fucking overjoyed. 250 00:11:23,599 --> 00:11:24,517 I mean that shit. 251 00:11:24,600 --> 00:11:27,478 Like, I could totally see myself, like, being married to you, 252 00:11:27,561 --> 00:11:29,271 and, like, being engaged to you 253 00:11:29,355 --> 00:11:31,774 and, like, having such a fucking amazing life. 254 00:11:32,274 --> 00:11:34,443 And I'm, like, falling for you, like… 255 00:11:37,154 --> 00:11:39,490 But then there's also someone else. 256 00:11:39,573 --> 00:11:42,284 -[Leo] It's unfortunate that, like-- yeah. -It's fine. 257 00:11:44,412 --> 00:11:46,330 [Leo] I'm here for you, like, really. 258 00:11:50,960 --> 00:11:53,504 I'm, like, holding a pillow, like, pretending it's you. 259 00:11:55,923 --> 00:11:57,883 I appreciate that, but 260 00:11:59,552 --> 00:12:00,594 I don't know. 261 00:12:06,475 --> 00:12:08,352 [Leo] Can you see yourself being married to me? 262 00:12:14,024 --> 00:12:14,984 [Brittany] Yeah. 263 00:12:16,360 --> 00:12:19,238 [pop music playing] 264 00:12:24,160 --> 00:12:25,870 Fuck. I know. Me too. 265 00:12:25,953 --> 00:12:31,041 ♪ Oh, you gotta be going crazy Oh, baby… ♪ 266 00:12:31,125 --> 00:12:34,086 [sniffles] Fuck. 267 00:12:34,712 --> 00:12:36,213 I don't even know what to say either. 268 00:12:36,297 --> 00:12:39,008 I'm just, like, sitting here with my face in my hands. 269 00:12:43,804 --> 00:12:45,598 It just fucking sucks, like… 270 00:12:46,599 --> 00:12:47,558 I'm, like… [exhales] 271 00:12:47,641 --> 00:12:50,352 [sobbing] I knew this was gonna happen. 272 00:12:50,436 --> 00:12:51,437 [Leo] I know. 273 00:12:51,520 --> 00:12:53,522 [vocalizing] 274 00:13:07,077 --> 00:13:08,829 [panting] Oh, God. 275 00:13:08,913 --> 00:13:10,414 [exhales] 276 00:13:12,833 --> 00:13:14,168 Hello. 277 00:13:20,758 --> 00:13:21,801 [grunts] 278 00:13:22,468 --> 00:13:23,928 [Hannah] I think I'm going crazy. 279 00:13:24,011 --> 00:13:25,513 You and me both. [laughs] 280 00:13:27,264 --> 00:13:29,892 [Hannah] I just want you to know, I, like, have not been okay today. 281 00:13:29,975 --> 00:13:30,810 Why's that? 282 00:13:30,893 --> 00:13:33,646 -[Hannah] Because of what I did! -What you did with us? 283 00:13:33,729 --> 00:13:34,647 [Hannah] Yes. 284 00:13:35,940 --> 00:13:37,817 You think you made the wrong decision? 285 00:13:38,484 --> 00:13:41,862 Of course I did. I'm, like, going insane. I don't know up from down. 286 00:13:43,030 --> 00:13:44,865 I thought we were very sure about each other. 287 00:13:44,949 --> 00:13:47,701 Then this morning, you made your decision, and it was pretty clear. 288 00:13:47,785 --> 00:13:50,246 You're like, "Yeah, like, I don't know if this is gonna work." 289 00:13:51,288 --> 00:13:54,834 And I get it. You know, you're fantastic. 290 00:13:54,917 --> 00:13:58,254 You're gonna be a great wife to whoever that is, 291 00:13:58,337 --> 00:14:00,714 but, um, I was hurt. 292 00:14:02,341 --> 00:14:04,552 You know, I... I felt really hurt. 293 00:14:04,635 --> 00:14:07,096 I know you did, and I'm sorry. 294 00:14:07,596 --> 00:14:10,599 I think I hurt you because I didn't want you to hurt me, 295 00:14:11,433 --> 00:14:12,852 which is very selfish. 296 00:14:12,935 --> 00:14:15,604 Everyone was like, "Hannah, you should end it with Nick." 297 00:14:15,688 --> 00:14:17,565 And I was like, "Okay, that's what I'll do." 298 00:14:17,648 --> 00:14:20,359 So people were telling you to end it with me? 299 00:14:21,569 --> 00:14:23,195 And that's what you listened to? 300 00:14:25,531 --> 00:14:26,740 Yeah, kind of. 301 00:14:28,242 --> 00:14:30,035 I don't know what I'm doing. 302 00:14:30,119 --> 00:14:32,496 I don't know how I feel about anything. [sighs] 303 00:14:33,163 --> 00:14:34,915 You still don't know how you feel about us? 304 00:14:34,999 --> 00:14:37,585 I think I'm scared you're gonna be disappointed in me or something. 305 00:14:37,668 --> 00:14:38,544 I don't know. 306 00:14:39,670 --> 00:14:41,505 You're a very confident person. 307 00:14:41,589 --> 00:14:43,757 I'm scared, I don't know, how confident you are and stuff 308 00:14:43,841 --> 00:14:47,011 is gonna make me less confident in myself. I don't know. 309 00:14:47,094 --> 00:14:49,096 -You know what actually it is? -[Nick D] What's that? 310 00:14:49,179 --> 00:14:50,848 I think, I don't know why. 311 00:14:50,931 --> 00:14:52,933 I just think, like, 312 00:14:53,017 --> 00:14:55,269 like, you will break my fucking heart, I think. 313 00:14:55,352 --> 00:14:57,980 -Why do-- [sighs] -[Hannah] Don't know. That's the problem. 314 00:14:58,063 --> 00:15:00,900 Because you say everything right, but I feel like you're gonna hurt me. 315 00:15:00,983 --> 00:15:03,485 I don't say everything right. I'm not perfect. I told you that. 316 00:15:03,569 --> 00:15:04,862 I'm not perfect. 317 00:15:04,945 --> 00:15:06,405 You feel perfect, I think. 318 00:15:06,488 --> 00:15:09,283 [Nick D] Maybe I sound confident, and maybe I'm saying the right things, 319 00:15:09,366 --> 00:15:12,411 but I'd be lying if I said I wasn't scared too. 320 00:15:12,995 --> 00:15:14,747 At the reveal, you don't like what you see? 321 00:15:14,830 --> 00:15:16,832 What if you don't like what you see? 322 00:15:20,210 --> 00:15:21,378 I have doubts too. 323 00:15:23,130 --> 00:15:25,007 -It goes both ways. -I know. 324 00:15:25,090 --> 00:15:28,802 It goes both ways. Like, I told you, I'm cool with the person you are. 325 00:15:28,886 --> 00:15:30,596 Like, that's honestly how I feel. 326 00:15:32,389 --> 00:15:34,516 ["Edge of Forever" by Allebasi playing] 327 00:15:35,893 --> 00:15:38,812 [sighs] I want you. I want you really bad. 328 00:15:40,564 --> 00:15:43,651 -You gotta give me a chance. -[Hannah] I know. 329 00:15:43,734 --> 00:15:45,402 I know. [exhales] 330 00:15:45,486 --> 00:15:47,529 -Do you wanna continue to talk to me? -[Hannah] Yes! 331 00:15:47,613 --> 00:15:49,531 -That's why I'm here. -Well, I'm here. 332 00:15:49,615 --> 00:15:52,660 ♪ I was standing on the edge of forever ♪ 333 00:15:52,743 --> 00:15:56,205 ♪ Now I'm right here Standing next to you ♪ 334 00:15:57,998 --> 00:16:00,751 ♪ I was standing on the edge of forever ♪ 335 00:16:00,834 --> 00:16:03,545 ♪ Now I'm right here Standing next to you ♪ 336 00:16:03,629 --> 00:16:05,839 -[Leo] It's getting pretty intense. -[Hannah] Yeah. 337 00:16:05,923 --> 00:16:08,968 I'm gonna assume that you know who my other connection is. 338 00:16:09,051 --> 00:16:11,762 Yeah, trust me. It was a total accident. She didn't mean to. 339 00:16:11,845 --> 00:16:12,846 [sighs] 340 00:16:13,597 --> 00:16:16,517 Inevitably, y'all were gonna find out. I don't know. 341 00:16:17,017 --> 00:16:18,769 It's freakin' tough, like… 342 00:16:20,312 --> 00:16:23,065 -I have such a strong connection with you. -[Hannah] Yeah. 343 00:16:24,316 --> 00:16:28,070 It's like, I'd be lying if I said I didn't also have a strong connection with her. 344 00:16:28,153 --> 00:16:31,907 -Yeah. -And, like, both of y'all are amazing. 345 00:16:31,991 --> 00:16:33,784 And, um, 346 00:16:35,285 --> 00:16:38,038 I would think that if I was in this position right now… 347 00:16:38,122 --> 00:16:40,958 -Yeah. -…I would be, "Leo, look at you." 348 00:16:41,041 --> 00:16:44,044 "You dawg. You player." Like, I don't feel like that at all. 349 00:16:44,128 --> 00:16:47,881 [clears throat] It's tough 'cause I wanna explore both of them to the end. 350 00:16:47,965 --> 00:16:49,633 That's what this is for. 351 00:16:49,717 --> 00:16:52,052 That's what you're supposed to do. You're to figure it out. 352 00:16:53,137 --> 00:16:54,847 [Leo] You're really understanding of this. 353 00:16:54,930 --> 00:16:58,017 We gotta figure out everything about each other if we're gonna get married. 354 00:16:58,100 --> 00:17:00,436 I'll never figure out everything about you. 355 00:17:00,519 --> 00:17:03,230 That's one thing that excites me the most about you. 356 00:17:03,772 --> 00:17:04,690 [Hannah sighs] 357 00:17:04,773 --> 00:17:08,569 [Leo] It's still wild to me, like, that you're on the other side of that wall. 358 00:17:08,652 --> 00:17:09,486 [Hannah] I know. 359 00:17:09,570 --> 00:17:14,408 And I'm just surprised how well we know each other. 360 00:17:15,409 --> 00:17:17,494 -And haven't seen each other. -I know. 361 00:17:17,578 --> 00:17:20,247 [Leo] I truly don't care what you look like. 362 00:17:20,330 --> 00:17:22,708 I just wanna, like, be with you. 363 00:17:22,791 --> 00:17:24,209 -You know? -[Hannah] Yes. 364 00:17:24,293 --> 00:17:27,671 I just wanna hang out with you, snuggle you and, like, have sex with you 365 00:17:27,755 --> 00:17:29,882 and kiss you and, like, have fun with you 366 00:17:29,965 --> 00:17:31,175 and go swim with you. [laughs] 367 00:17:31,258 --> 00:17:34,094 You know what I mean? I just wanna do things with you. 368 00:17:35,429 --> 00:17:37,264 -Yeah. -[Hannah] It's real, I know. 369 00:17:37,347 --> 00:17:40,434 It's exactly what you said. We're twin flames, I think. Like, truly. 370 00:17:40,517 --> 00:17:42,478 Look at us, a little lovey-dovey. 371 00:17:42,561 --> 00:17:45,147 -[pop music playing] -♪ I got a taste for this adventure… ♪ 372 00:17:45,230 --> 00:17:47,858 -I'm excited to see you tomorrow. -I'll dream about you. 373 00:17:47,941 --> 00:17:49,318 [Leo chuckles] I hope so. 374 00:17:49,401 --> 00:17:52,196 ♪ There's so much left to discover ♪ 375 00:17:57,159 --> 00:17:59,161 -[Garrett] Hey, babe. -Hello-hello. 376 00:17:59,244 --> 00:18:02,289 -How are you? Oh, my gosh. Look at this. -[Taylor laughing] 377 00:18:02,998 --> 00:18:03,999 Look at this! 378 00:18:04,083 --> 00:18:06,168 [both laughing] 379 00:18:06,251 --> 00:18:08,045 -You got me a plant? -Yeah! 380 00:18:08,128 --> 00:18:09,755 -What? -[Taylor] It's an avocado. 381 00:18:09,838 --> 00:18:11,715 -No way. Look at this. -[Taylor] Mm-hmm. 382 00:18:11,799 --> 00:18:14,134 [Garrett] I've never grown avocado like this. This is cool. 383 00:18:14,218 --> 00:18:15,719 [Taylor chuckles] Glad you liked it. 384 00:18:15,803 --> 00:18:19,973 I remember, like, on one of our dates, we literally talked about 385 00:18:20,057 --> 00:18:23,227 wanting, like, plants and trees. 386 00:18:23,310 --> 00:18:27,523 It'd be easy to go get, like, some houseplant, but I really wanted, like, 387 00:18:28,107 --> 00:18:31,735 a plant that's, like, you know, I think, more me. 388 00:18:31,819 --> 00:18:35,030 I thought it'd be cute, like, in five to seven years, like, 389 00:18:35,114 --> 00:18:37,324 then avocados start providing other avocados. 390 00:18:37,407 --> 00:18:40,077 And that's, like, the timeline of when I want kids. 391 00:18:41,662 --> 00:18:44,373 And so, like, who doesn't like avocados? 392 00:18:44,456 --> 00:18:46,834 -No one that I trust. -[both laugh] 393 00:18:46,917 --> 00:18:49,378 -This is cool as hell. -Okay, I have some honey. 394 00:18:49,461 --> 00:18:52,965 [Garrett] Oh, yeah. That is my dad's, Randy's world-famous honey. 395 00:18:53,048 --> 00:18:56,260 -[gasps] -[Garrett] That's his bees from the farm. 396 00:18:56,343 --> 00:18:59,471 I use the honey as my secret ingredient for my spicy margaritas. 397 00:18:59,555 --> 00:19:02,975 -Mm! Nice. I wanna get one of those. -[Taylor laughs] 398 00:19:03,058 --> 00:19:05,644 -I feel very good about us, so… -That's good. 399 00:19:05,727 --> 00:19:08,939 [Taylor] I'm excited to talk more about all the things that we need to talk about. 400 00:19:09,022 --> 00:19:11,942 Did you have, like, anything specific you wanted to-- 401 00:19:12,025 --> 00:19:14,862 Questions? Yeah, sure. I had some stuff I was thinking about. 402 00:19:14,945 --> 00:19:18,740 You said something about this tree providing fruit in five to ten years. 403 00:19:18,824 --> 00:19:20,951 That's kind of your timeline for children. 404 00:19:21,034 --> 00:19:25,247 Five to ten years is a very long time in my head, like, my initial reaction. 405 00:19:25,330 --> 00:19:26,874 I was definitely thinking sooner. 406 00:19:26,957 --> 00:19:29,251 -I said five to seven. [chuckles] -[Garrett] All right. 407 00:19:29,334 --> 00:19:31,336 That's a long time, but… 408 00:19:31,420 --> 00:19:34,756 It's not a deal-breaker, but I would love to talk to you about compromising. 409 00:19:34,840 --> 00:19:37,759 Yeah, but I don't think it's something that we have to compromise on. 410 00:19:37,843 --> 00:19:39,845 I always thought that 411 00:19:40,971 --> 00:19:43,432 maybe, like, marriage and, like, falling in love, 412 00:19:43,515 --> 00:19:46,185 and, like, doing the whole kids thing was something that 413 00:19:46,268 --> 00:19:48,312 I was kind of, like, I would say, 414 00:19:48,395 --> 00:19:51,982 like, dragging my feet on because I was worried that it was going to, like, 415 00:19:53,317 --> 00:19:55,736 make me rush into some-- 416 00:19:55,819 --> 00:19:57,905 like, I had to compromise on time, 417 00:19:58,405 --> 00:20:01,658 or, like, I had to compromise on my independence in some ways. 418 00:20:02,618 --> 00:20:05,954 But, like, I feel like with you, 419 00:20:06,038 --> 00:20:08,957 it's, like, something that I'm excited about. 420 00:20:10,000 --> 00:20:12,628 I feel like I live a great life now. 421 00:20:12,711 --> 00:20:16,965 It's not that I can't see it evolving, 422 00:20:17,049 --> 00:20:20,135 but, like, I just think you're gonna add a lot more meaning to it. 423 00:20:20,219 --> 00:20:23,847 I think we're going to, 424 00:20:23,931 --> 00:20:26,975 together, experience things that 425 00:20:27,059 --> 00:20:28,936 we kind of always, like, dreamed of. 426 00:20:29,019 --> 00:20:30,646 It feels super cliché to, like, say, 427 00:20:30,729 --> 00:20:33,565 but it's like I actually genuinely mean it. 428 00:20:35,984 --> 00:20:37,236 [Garrett] A good life. 429 00:20:37,319 --> 00:20:39,446 So when are you asking me to be your girlfriend? 430 00:20:39,529 --> 00:20:40,697 [Garrett chuckles] 431 00:20:41,406 --> 00:20:45,577 Taylor, would you be my girlfriend? 432 00:20:45,661 --> 00:20:46,995 -[Taylor] No. -No? 433 00:20:47,079 --> 00:20:48,705 [Taylor] You have two hours to convince me. 434 00:20:48,789 --> 00:20:51,124 [both laughing] 435 00:20:53,627 --> 00:20:56,380 If I haven't convinced you by now, we are in trouble. 436 00:20:56,463 --> 00:20:57,381 [laughs] 437 00:20:58,548 --> 00:21:00,175 [sighs] I'm still a little salty 438 00:21:00,259 --> 00:21:02,678 that the movie that makes you think of me is Shrek. 439 00:21:02,761 --> 00:21:04,471 [laughing] 440 00:21:04,554 --> 00:21:08,350 We're supposed to be getting engaged and, like, you're playing hard to get. 441 00:21:09,810 --> 00:21:12,604 -Hard to earn. Let's be very clear. -[Garrett laughing] 442 00:21:12,688 --> 00:21:14,314 -Very clear. -[Garrett] I stand corrected. 443 00:21:14,398 --> 00:21:16,733 I don't wanna end this date without you being my girlfriend. 444 00:21:16,817 --> 00:21:18,235 I'm not walking out without that. 445 00:21:18,318 --> 00:21:20,904 -We're in a situationship right now. -[both laugh] 446 00:21:22,698 --> 00:21:24,992 [Garrett] It's not friends with benefits. That's for sure. 447 00:21:25,075 --> 00:21:27,286 [Taylor laughing] Hear that, Nick Lachey? 448 00:21:28,203 --> 00:21:31,456 First ever pod situationship. 449 00:21:31,540 --> 00:21:34,584 -[laughing] -[Garrett] Oh. 450 00:21:35,294 --> 00:21:37,879 -I am really enjoying this though. -I am too. 451 00:21:37,963 --> 00:21:41,508 I really respect you and can see you as, like, my life partner. 452 00:21:43,051 --> 00:21:43,885 [Garrett] Same. 453 00:21:43,969 --> 00:21:45,345 [both laugh] 454 00:21:45,429 --> 00:21:49,016 What do you think it's gonna feel like when you see me for the first time? 455 00:21:52,227 --> 00:21:55,939 [laughing] Well, it's gonna be a shock, 'cause I have no idea what you look like. 456 00:21:56,023 --> 00:21:59,693 I'm probably gonna be smiling like a friggin'-- cheesing like an idiot. 457 00:22:00,610 --> 00:22:02,529 I'm gonna probably kiss you right away. 458 00:22:02,612 --> 00:22:04,531 -I can agree to that. -[Garrett] Okay. 459 00:22:04,614 --> 00:22:07,075 If I decide to be your girlfriend. [laughing] 460 00:22:07,159 --> 00:22:08,452 Oh, my God. 461 00:22:08,535 --> 00:22:10,329 Are you worried about… 462 00:22:11,330 --> 00:22:13,707 Are you worried about, like, how I look at all? Like, just… 463 00:22:14,333 --> 00:22:16,043 -Nope. -[Garrett laughs] 464 00:22:16,126 --> 00:22:18,837 [Taylor] I just really hope that I'm taller than you, honestly. 465 00:22:18,920 --> 00:22:19,796 [laughing] 466 00:22:19,880 --> 00:22:23,383 Yeah. That'd be such a strangely unique experience. 467 00:22:24,134 --> 00:22:25,677 If I found you super ugly? 468 00:22:26,178 --> 00:22:28,430 -No. Well, I'm not sure. That'll be… -[Taylor laughing] 469 00:22:28,513 --> 00:22:30,515 I'm kidding. I'm kidding. 470 00:22:30,599 --> 00:22:32,434 [Garrett] Well, no, it's only concerning 471 00:22:32,517 --> 00:22:36,438 because the truth of it is people do care about looks. 472 00:22:36,521 --> 00:22:38,523 Like, it just-- we do. 473 00:22:38,607 --> 00:22:40,901 Especially on the dating apps. It's just all pictures. 474 00:22:40,984 --> 00:22:44,112 And when you're talking to one of them, my friends are like, 475 00:22:44,196 --> 00:22:47,199 when you talk to them about that person, their first question is, like, 476 00:22:47,282 --> 00:22:48,867 "What does she look like?" 477 00:22:48,950 --> 00:22:51,745 So I just feel like society, like, trains us to think this way, 478 00:22:51,828 --> 00:22:53,580 whether it's, like, right or not. 479 00:22:53,663 --> 00:22:59,461 And me, personally, like, I want my partner to find me attractive. 480 00:22:59,544 --> 00:23:02,506 That's something I desire. There's a reason why, like, I work out. 481 00:23:02,589 --> 00:23:04,549 You want them to, like, find you attractive. 482 00:23:04,633 --> 00:23:06,802 Some people, just chemically, like, it may not be there. 483 00:23:06,885 --> 00:23:09,012 This is the whole "love is blind" question. 484 00:23:09,096 --> 00:23:12,766 And so this is a huge, like, risk for both of us. 485 00:23:13,266 --> 00:23:16,436 But I want this with you. 486 00:23:16,520 --> 00:23:19,064 I just feel like that's a risk that we are accepting. 487 00:23:20,732 --> 00:23:24,903 Also trying to figure out how the hell I'm gonna ask you to be my girlfriend. 488 00:23:24,986 --> 00:23:28,323 [laughing] 489 00:23:28,407 --> 00:23:30,200 [Garrett] What are your favorite flowers? 490 00:23:30,992 --> 00:23:33,370 I'm sure I'd love any flower you got me, so I'm not-- 491 00:23:33,453 --> 00:23:35,705 -[Garrett] You don't have favorites? -They're sunflowers. 492 00:23:35,789 --> 00:23:37,165 -Aww. -[Taylor chuckles] 493 00:23:37,249 --> 00:23:40,419 That's what honestly I thought, for real. That's my mom's favorite flowers. 494 00:23:41,128 --> 00:23:42,379 I like sunflowers. 495 00:23:42,879 --> 00:23:45,257 I guess we haven't said we love each other yet, have we? 496 00:23:45,340 --> 00:23:49,803 Uh, I've been very much on the cusp here, but, uh, 497 00:23:51,221 --> 00:23:54,099 I don't know. I'm not sure how I will react if you don't say it back. 498 00:23:54,182 --> 00:23:58,061 This vulnerability thing again, right? So, I like you a lot, babe. 499 00:24:01,690 --> 00:24:02,566 [sighs] 500 00:24:02,649 --> 00:24:03,859 -[Taylor] G? -Yeah. 501 00:24:05,026 --> 00:24:07,028 -It's been okay. -Shut up. 502 00:24:07,112 --> 00:24:09,156 [laughing] 503 00:24:09,239 --> 00:24:11,408 -Can't wait to see you. -I can't wait to see you too. 504 00:24:11,491 --> 00:24:12,826 -[Garrett] Have a good night. -Bye. 505 00:24:13,326 --> 00:24:17,372 -[pop music playing] -♪ We are connecting ♪ 506 00:24:17,456 --> 00:24:22,043 ♪ We are, we are, we are connecting ♪ 507 00:24:22,544 --> 00:24:23,670 [Marissa] Hello. 508 00:24:23,753 --> 00:24:26,006 -[man] Hey, who do we have? -Marissa. 509 00:24:26,089 --> 00:24:29,009 -Marissa! [laughs] -[Marissa laughs] Bohdan! 510 00:24:29,092 --> 00:24:30,051 Yes! 511 00:24:30,135 --> 00:24:32,262 Oh, I love it! I love it. 512 00:24:32,345 --> 00:24:35,390 In the real world, people have definitely made judgments about me. 513 00:24:35,474 --> 00:24:37,726 I look like a white bread kid. 514 00:24:37,809 --> 00:24:42,689 So they just think, like, just probably some frat boy who got a job 515 00:24:42,772 --> 00:24:46,067 because his parents did something and had connections. 516 00:24:46,151 --> 00:24:48,487 Doesn't necessarily have the depth to him. 517 00:24:48,570 --> 00:24:50,572 But that's not the case. 518 00:24:50,655 --> 00:24:52,157 I was born in Ukraine. 519 00:24:52,240 --> 00:24:54,576 I came to the States young, when I was about two years old. 520 00:24:54,659 --> 00:24:58,830 Uh, my biological father passed away shortly thereafter. 521 00:24:58,914 --> 00:25:01,458 And my dad who raised me is Filipino. 522 00:25:01,541 --> 00:25:02,792 He is my hero. 523 00:25:02,876 --> 00:25:06,254 He's the inspiration for who I try to be as a person. 524 00:25:06,338 --> 00:25:09,424 I'm like an onion. I have a lot of layers to me. 525 00:25:09,508 --> 00:25:12,260 So to judge off one layer, I think is ridiculous. 526 00:25:12,344 --> 00:25:13,678 [Marissa] Oh! How's it going? 527 00:25:13,762 --> 00:25:15,722 [Bohdan] Looking forward to this conversation. 528 00:25:15,805 --> 00:25:18,308 I had an incredible time with you last night. 529 00:25:18,391 --> 00:25:19,768 [Marissa] Yeah! Me too! 530 00:25:19,851 --> 00:25:21,478 Incredible time with you during the day. 531 00:25:21,561 --> 00:25:23,730 I read for a little bit and then went to bed. 532 00:25:23,813 --> 00:25:25,732 Wait! [laughing] 533 00:25:25,815 --> 00:25:28,902 I was literally about to say I read for a bit then went to bed. 534 00:25:28,985 --> 00:25:30,612 -[Bohdan] Twinsies. -What are you reading? 535 00:25:30,695 --> 00:25:34,741 Uh, I'm reading, like, this kind of nerdy book. 536 00:25:34,824 --> 00:25:36,284 It's, like, a fantasy thing. 537 00:25:36,368 --> 00:25:38,286 -Did we talk about this? -[Bohdan] No. 538 00:25:38,370 --> 00:25:41,373 -[Marissa] Fantasy! That's all I read. -Oh, really? 539 00:25:41,456 --> 00:25:43,875 -Have you read Lord of the Rings? -[Bohdan] Yeah. 540 00:25:43,959 --> 00:25:46,503 [Marissa] I have a Harry Potter tattoo. Do you read Harry Potter? 541 00:25:46,586 --> 00:25:49,005 I love that you have a Harry-- I've read all of them. 542 00:25:49,089 --> 00:25:51,258 I wanna, like, escape into these worlds. 543 00:25:51,341 --> 00:25:53,051 Escape? Wow. Okay. 544 00:25:53,134 --> 00:25:56,888 If you went to a party with friends, what's your go-to party story? 545 00:25:56,972 --> 00:25:58,390 And if you want, I can go first. 546 00:25:58,473 --> 00:26:00,350 -I want you to go first. -[Bohdan] No problem. 547 00:26:00,433 --> 00:26:03,270 Okay, in 2010, I was in the Marine Corps, 548 00:26:03,353 --> 00:26:04,771 and we were in Kuwait. 549 00:26:04,854 --> 00:26:08,233 And we were doing, like, this training thing 550 00:26:08,316 --> 00:26:11,319 in the middle of the desert for, like, 30 to 40 days. 551 00:26:11,403 --> 00:26:13,655 We were sleeping, like, underneath the stars and tents. 552 00:26:13,738 --> 00:26:15,532 Can't see anything. Just desert everywhere. 553 00:26:15,615 --> 00:26:19,202 We see a ton of camels on the horizon, like, hundreds of them. 554 00:26:19,286 --> 00:26:22,789 Like, "I'm in the middle of the desert. I want some cool camel pictures." 555 00:26:22,872 --> 00:26:24,958 -[Marissa laughs] Okay. -And one of my friends, like… 556 00:26:25,584 --> 00:26:27,168 He was, like, super nervous about it. 557 00:26:27,252 --> 00:26:29,588 He's like, "No, dude, no. He's like, "They're dangerous." 558 00:26:29,671 --> 00:26:31,423 Like, "What's dangerous about camels?" 559 00:26:31,506 --> 00:26:34,050 "He's gonna spit on me? That's a funny story. Who cares?" 560 00:26:34,134 --> 00:26:36,761 Of course, I pick out the biggest one, and I walk towards that one. 561 00:26:36,845 --> 00:26:39,848 It's, like, hump was probably at, like, eight, nine feet. 562 00:26:39,931 --> 00:26:42,559 Yeah, it was literally the biggest camel I could see. 563 00:26:42,642 --> 00:26:45,645 And I bring out my camera, take a picture of it. 564 00:26:45,729 --> 00:26:47,188 And I look up from my camera, 565 00:26:47,272 --> 00:26:51,151 and the camel is staring at me in my eyes. 566 00:26:51,234 --> 00:26:53,695 -Oh. -I make solid eye contact with it. 567 00:26:53,778 --> 00:26:55,530 And I don't wanna break eye contact. 568 00:26:55,614 --> 00:26:58,575 -If I break it now, then I'm like-- -[chuckles] You're the weak one. 569 00:26:58,658 --> 00:27:03,204 Right, so it takes a step forward, and I take a step back. 570 00:27:03,288 --> 00:27:07,000 It takes another step forward, and it starts, like, hissing. 571 00:27:07,083 --> 00:27:10,003 Just demonic sounds is, like, the best way I can describe it. 572 00:27:10,086 --> 00:27:11,588 And it just starts running. 573 00:27:11,671 --> 00:27:14,466 And of course, I turn around and just run as fast as I can. 574 00:27:14,549 --> 00:27:16,092 The next thing I know, 575 00:27:16,176 --> 00:27:18,970 I feel something hit me in the back of my head. 576 00:27:19,804 --> 00:27:21,514 And I fall face down. 577 00:27:21,598 --> 00:27:24,100 I immediately, like, roll over and look up. 578 00:27:24,601 --> 00:27:26,144 The camel is on its hind legs 579 00:27:26,227 --> 00:27:28,688 with its front legs up in the air coming down on to me. 580 00:27:28,772 --> 00:27:32,317 -[gasps] Oh, my God! -[Bohdan] Trying to stomp me out. 581 00:27:32,400 --> 00:27:34,486 And I'm thinking, "Oh, fuck. I'm dead." 582 00:27:34,569 --> 00:27:39,282 I'm in the Marine Corps during two wars, and my mom's gonna get a letter 583 00:27:39,366 --> 00:27:42,243 or a phone call that I died from a fucking camel. 584 00:27:42,327 --> 00:27:44,829 I can feel the vibration of its hooves. That's how close it was. 585 00:27:44,913 --> 00:27:46,039 [Marissa] Oh. 586 00:27:46,122 --> 00:27:49,709 [Bohdan] And then just huffs, makes crazy sounds and, like, leaves us alone. 587 00:27:50,502 --> 00:27:52,504 For the rest of the time, I was like, "Holy shit." 588 00:27:52,587 --> 00:27:55,131 "That's what it feels like to know you're gonna die, for sure." 589 00:27:55,215 --> 00:27:57,092 -You were gonna die! -[Bohdan] Yeah, for sure. 590 00:27:57,175 --> 00:28:00,095 I didn't feel that way again until Ukraine, 591 00:28:00,178 --> 00:28:02,514 where, like, I also felt like I was gonna die. 592 00:28:02,597 --> 00:28:04,224 It's the exact same feeling. 593 00:28:04,307 --> 00:28:07,811 Can you tell me a bit about your, like, Ukraine story? 594 00:28:07,894 --> 00:28:13,316 Sure, when the war in Ukraine started, if you remember, I said I was born there. 595 00:28:13,400 --> 00:28:15,402 I knew, like, "I have to go." 596 00:28:15,485 --> 00:28:19,406 And so I told my work. I was like, "Hey, I'm leaving. I'm going to Ukraine." 597 00:28:19,906 --> 00:28:21,116 My whole thing was… 598 00:28:21,199 --> 00:28:23,702 [inhales] …I am Ukrainian. 599 00:28:23,785 --> 00:28:25,328 I have Ukrainian family. 600 00:28:25,412 --> 00:28:27,539 Don't have a wife or kids. I have a military background. 601 00:28:27,622 --> 00:28:29,874 -Like, who else should go help but me? -[Marissa] Mm-hmm. 602 00:28:30,500 --> 00:28:33,294 [Bohdan] So my work was phenomenal. 603 00:28:33,378 --> 00:28:35,755 They, like, said, "Don't quit." 604 00:28:35,839 --> 00:28:38,758 "If you need to take time to do anything you need to do, go do it." 605 00:28:38,842 --> 00:28:41,469 I had friends fly in and help me get ready for it. 606 00:28:41,553 --> 00:28:44,431 My work ended up raising a bunch of money for me 607 00:28:44,514 --> 00:28:46,057 and paid for all my gear and stuff. 608 00:28:46,141 --> 00:28:49,978 My parents, I thought it was gonna be, like, the toughest phone call I made. 609 00:28:51,020 --> 00:28:53,732 Um, they said… 610 00:28:54,399 --> 00:28:57,068 Like, "We were just waiting for you to call us." 611 00:28:57,152 --> 00:28:59,988 "We knew you were gonna do this," and I… 612 00:29:01,906 --> 00:29:05,577 I was, like, very honored that they would think so highly-- 613 00:29:06,911 --> 00:29:09,664 -[Marissa] Yeah. -…think so highly of me that they-- 614 00:29:11,040 --> 00:29:13,418 -Give me a second. -[Marissa] It's okay. Now take your time. 615 00:29:13,501 --> 00:29:16,004 [Bohdan] It was like it really touched me that… 616 00:29:17,756 --> 00:29:19,257 they would think that. 617 00:29:20,717 --> 00:29:23,928 [sniffles] How many people helped me, and I just didn't-- 618 00:29:24,846 --> 00:29:27,766 I didn't feel like I deserved… 619 00:29:31,060 --> 00:29:33,772 -[Marissa] You did deserve it. -…deserved so much help. 620 00:29:33,855 --> 00:29:37,984 You deserved all the support. I mean, that's a huge deal. 621 00:29:38,067 --> 00:29:39,986 First of all, it's, like, terrifying. 622 00:29:40,069 --> 00:29:43,740 I mean, yeah, it was for sure scary, um, a million percent. 623 00:29:43,823 --> 00:29:46,326 And then being my age, I was 33 when I left, 624 00:29:46,409 --> 00:29:48,036 because I knew what I was, like… 625 00:29:48,119 --> 00:29:50,580 I wasn't going in there thinking, "Oh, I'm gonna be Rambo." 626 00:29:50,663 --> 00:29:54,000 "I'm gonna win this war." I knew this was a super shitty situation. 627 00:29:54,083 --> 00:29:57,378 But, like, all I can think about was there's 19-year-old kids 628 00:29:57,462 --> 00:29:59,589 or maybe even younger kids, 629 00:29:59,672 --> 00:30:03,885 who would have, like, no training, and they're being… [sighs] 630 00:30:03,968 --> 00:30:04,928 [chuckles] 631 00:30:05,011 --> 00:30:06,346 Yeah, it was a no-brainer. 632 00:30:06,429 --> 00:30:08,139 I know I had a choice. 633 00:30:08,223 --> 00:30:11,351 I didn't have to go, but internally, I had no choice. 634 00:30:17,857 --> 00:30:19,943 Obviously, as someone who was in the military, 635 00:30:20,026 --> 00:30:22,987 like, I understand the honor, the commitment and the integrity. 636 00:30:23,071 --> 00:30:26,866 And I think you obviously have very good people in your life 637 00:30:26,950 --> 00:30:28,993 who clearly love you and support you, 638 00:30:29,077 --> 00:30:31,496 'cause you seem to be like a really good person. 639 00:30:31,579 --> 00:30:34,749 [blowing nose] Thank you. I appreciate that. 640 00:30:34,833 --> 00:30:37,752 -I'm sorry. -[both laugh] 641 00:30:38,795 --> 00:30:39,629 Okay. 642 00:30:39,712 --> 00:30:42,340 What's your party story, Marissa? 643 00:30:42,423 --> 00:30:44,717 I don't know. How am I supposed to follow that up? 644 00:30:45,301 --> 00:30:46,845 With something lighthearted hopefully? 645 00:30:46,928 --> 00:30:49,848 Okay, I'll try to think of one that's just, like, not stupid. 646 00:30:49,931 --> 00:30:51,599 -It can be stupid. -[Marissa] No! 647 00:30:51,683 --> 00:30:54,978 -I don't want you to know anything stupid. -Oh, why not, Marissa? 648 00:30:55,061 --> 00:30:57,772 [Marissa] Because I don't want you to think I'm stupid! 649 00:30:57,856 --> 00:31:00,775 You're in law school. I don't think you're stupid. 650 00:31:00,859 --> 00:31:03,069 Okay, I have homework. I'm gonna come back. 651 00:31:03,152 --> 00:31:06,698 And I'm gonna tell you a good story like your camel story. 652 00:31:06,781 --> 00:31:09,450 -But it's gonna be my own. -[Bohdan] Okay. I'm writing down "HW." 653 00:31:09,534 --> 00:31:13,288 -Oh, God! What are you, my professor? -[Bohdan] "Owes me…" 654 00:31:13,371 --> 00:31:14,914 [Marissa] All right. Homework. 655 00:31:14,998 --> 00:31:18,710 -We'll talk tomorrow, for sure? 100%? -[Marissa] Yes, yes, 100%. 656 00:31:18,793 --> 00:31:20,086 -[Bohdan] 100%. -100%. 657 00:31:20,169 --> 00:31:21,421 -Bye. -[Marissa] Bye. 658 00:31:21,504 --> 00:31:22,463 Whoo! 659 00:31:22,547 --> 00:31:25,466 [laughs] Whoo! 660 00:31:25,550 --> 00:31:28,553 -[pop music playing] -♪ Am I the one you wanted? ♪ 661 00:31:28,636 --> 00:31:29,971 ♪ Am I the one? ♪ 662 00:31:30,054 --> 00:31:33,182 I haven't had this much excitement dating and getting to know people 663 00:31:33,266 --> 00:31:35,226 in a long-ass time. 664 00:31:35,310 --> 00:31:37,812 -I'm ready to, like, find my love, so… -Right. 665 00:31:37,896 --> 00:31:40,398 Which I was very skeptical until… [laughs] 666 00:31:40,481 --> 00:31:41,399 Here we are. 667 00:31:41,482 --> 00:31:45,278 -Damn, bro. -Just can't stop debating in my head. 668 00:31:45,361 --> 00:31:47,155 [Ramses] Bro, I can't even sleep. 669 00:31:47,238 --> 00:31:51,451 I close my eyes at night, all my dreams are of being in here, like, on dates. 670 00:31:51,534 --> 00:31:53,453 -Yeah. -I just wanna get on another date. 671 00:31:53,536 --> 00:31:54,954 -I wanna see what happens. -Yeah. 672 00:31:55,038 --> 00:31:57,498 I feel like there's gonna be love triangles at a certain point. 673 00:31:57,582 --> 00:32:00,084 As we, like, start winding down, there's gonna be, like, 674 00:32:00,168 --> 00:32:02,629 girls who are maybe, like, stuck between two guys. 675 00:32:02,712 --> 00:32:05,381 -Somebody's gonna leave heartbroken. -Oh, yeah. 676 00:32:05,465 --> 00:32:07,008 -For sure. -You know what I'm saying? 677 00:32:08,426 --> 00:32:09,677 Like, that would be tough, man. 678 00:32:09,761 --> 00:32:10,678 Yeah. 679 00:32:10,762 --> 00:32:14,098 ["Silence" by Bantug playing] 680 00:32:21,439 --> 00:32:22,774 [Ramses] Hello. 681 00:32:22,857 --> 00:32:23,858 [Marissa] Hello. 682 00:32:23,942 --> 00:32:25,276 [speaking Spanish] 683 00:32:25,360 --> 00:32:28,655 [Marissa] Oh, Ramses! 684 00:32:29,238 --> 00:32:31,574 -It's Marissa, right? -[Marissa] Sho' is! 685 00:32:31,658 --> 00:32:33,242 -[Ramses] Sho' nuff is, girl. -[laughing] 686 00:32:33,743 --> 00:32:37,121 -How's your night? -[Ramses] It's good! I was doing push-ups. 687 00:32:37,205 --> 00:32:38,623 -[Marissa] Push-ups? -Yeah! 688 00:32:38,706 --> 00:32:41,084 -[Marissa] My God. -We were out there doing a little workout. 689 00:32:41,167 --> 00:32:42,961 -So… -Of course y'all were. 690 00:32:43,044 --> 00:32:45,964 So yeah, I did some push-ups, and now I'm wide awake, honestly. 691 00:32:46,047 --> 00:32:48,883 Okay. So, first off, I wanted to say "thanks." 692 00:32:48,967 --> 00:32:49,968 "Thanks"? 693 00:32:50,051 --> 00:32:52,804 -[Marissa] Thank you for our date earlier. -To me? 694 00:32:52,887 --> 00:32:55,890 It made me feel comfortable. Like, "I'll talk to him about anything." 695 00:32:55,974 --> 00:32:57,767 Aw, I'm glad you feel comfortable with me. 696 00:32:57,850 --> 00:33:00,061 Yeah, I do. I feel comfortable. 697 00:33:00,144 --> 00:33:02,188 [Ramses] I know we're at a point now where it's like 698 00:33:02,271 --> 00:33:05,066 we're starting to dwindle in terms of, like, our choices. 699 00:33:05,149 --> 00:33:07,276 Yeah! We're whittling it down. 700 00:33:07,360 --> 00:33:09,946 [Ramses] There's still more time left in this, but, um, 701 00:33:10,905 --> 00:33:12,865 I wanted to let you know I think about you a lot, 702 00:33:12,949 --> 00:33:15,243 and you've been, like, 703 00:33:15,326 --> 00:33:18,413 probably, like, my top one for, like, a while now. 704 00:33:20,456 --> 00:33:23,626 -Where's your head at? -[Marissa] Oh, I'm excited to talk to you. 705 00:33:23,710 --> 00:33:27,505 And, yeah, I'm being open with other connections as well. 706 00:33:27,588 --> 00:33:28,423 Of course, yeah. 707 00:33:28,506 --> 00:33:31,676 But I would say there's only two of you guys that I'm connecting with. 708 00:33:31,759 --> 00:33:33,428 -[Ramses] Yeah. -Like, on another level. 709 00:33:33,511 --> 00:33:35,596 But it's kind of scary to think that, like, 710 00:33:35,680 --> 00:33:38,099 let's say we're connecting with two people. 711 00:33:38,182 --> 00:33:41,602 -And then you end up picking one. -[Ramses] You have to pick one. Right. 712 00:33:41,686 --> 00:33:43,187 I might end up in a love triangle. 713 00:33:43,271 --> 00:33:44,981 -Oh, God! -[Ramses laughing] 714 00:33:45,064 --> 00:33:48,568 -I better not be the second girl! -[Ramses] No, no! 715 00:33:48,651 --> 00:33:51,863 I mean, there's gonna be probably, like, two guys after you. 716 00:33:51,946 --> 00:33:53,364 [Marissa] I don't know. 717 00:33:53,448 --> 00:33:56,284 [Ramses] I told myself I wouldn't really care if someone else was feeling 718 00:33:56,367 --> 00:33:57,410 someone I was feeling. 719 00:33:57,493 --> 00:34:00,830 -[Marissa] Yeah, but that's not-- -I still don't. I wouldn't care. 720 00:34:00,913 --> 00:34:03,207 At the end of the day, if we both like the same person, 721 00:34:03,291 --> 00:34:05,668 it's up to, you know, that person to decide for themselves 722 00:34:05,752 --> 00:34:07,462 what they want and what works best for them. 723 00:34:07,545 --> 00:34:09,505 -Yeah. -I told you I was previously married? 724 00:34:09,589 --> 00:34:12,050 -Yeah. -She was my high school sweetheart. 725 00:34:12,133 --> 00:34:13,718 I grew up in a very religious home. 726 00:34:13,801 --> 00:34:16,596 That was one thing that really brought us together. 727 00:34:16,679 --> 00:34:20,224 I was married four and a half years, and I was moving away from Christianity 728 00:34:20,308 --> 00:34:21,434 and just religion in general. 729 00:34:21,517 --> 00:34:25,229 We tried to figure things out, but ultimately, it didn't work out for us. 730 00:34:25,313 --> 00:34:27,857 -Do you still talk to your ex? -No. 731 00:34:27,940 --> 00:34:31,027 I can be so empathetic, but then with myself, like, 732 00:34:31,110 --> 00:34:34,781 I'm just, like, terrible in terms of, like, how I critique myself. 733 00:34:34,864 --> 00:34:37,075 -Okay. -Like, I never feel like it's enough. 734 00:34:37,158 --> 00:34:40,328 I think it, like, it comes from my dad was just, like, very critical. 735 00:34:40,411 --> 00:34:42,789 I felt like whatever I did was never good enough for him. 736 00:34:42,872 --> 00:34:45,124 I think that was something that sort of, like, 737 00:34:45,208 --> 00:34:47,794 just kind of creeped into my adulthood. 738 00:34:47,877 --> 00:34:48,711 Yeah. 739 00:34:48,795 --> 00:34:52,507 When my parents divorced, my dad, like, left and didn't help at all. 740 00:34:52,590 --> 00:34:55,051 -It was just my mom with us four kids. -Yeah. 741 00:34:55,134 --> 00:34:58,638 We were, like, on welfare and really poor for a couple years. 742 00:34:58,721 --> 00:35:01,641 I had a lot of people come into my life 743 00:35:01,724 --> 00:35:05,812 that were really helpful in shaping how I view the world 744 00:35:05,895 --> 00:35:08,064 and, like, introducing me to experiences 745 00:35:08,147 --> 00:35:11,234 that I don't think people in that socioeconomic… 746 00:35:11,818 --> 00:35:13,986 -Sort of demographic, yeah. -[Marissa] Yeah, world. 747 00:35:14,070 --> 00:35:15,488 Yeah, like, experience. 748 00:35:15,571 --> 00:35:18,699 Something as simple as, like, I had a volleyball coach, 749 00:35:19,283 --> 00:35:22,078 and they, like, took me down to Disney. 750 00:35:22,161 --> 00:35:25,248 -I know it sounds so silly. -No, that's, like, incredible. 751 00:35:25,331 --> 00:35:29,502 -And that really makes me grateful. -[Ramses] Yeah. 752 00:35:29,585 --> 00:35:31,295 I'm a giver. I give back. 753 00:35:31,379 --> 00:35:34,215 I give to homeless people. I know some people don't like that. 754 00:35:34,298 --> 00:35:35,133 I give. 755 00:35:35,216 --> 00:35:38,302 [Ramses] One thing I'm just really grateful for is sort of, 756 00:35:38,386 --> 00:35:42,014 like, my real, like, close-knit group of friends. 757 00:35:42,098 --> 00:35:43,307 They're like family to me. 758 00:35:43,391 --> 00:35:47,061 And, like, they've really, like, been great examples 759 00:35:47,145 --> 00:35:50,731 of, like, healthy masculinity for me. 760 00:35:50,815 --> 00:35:54,986 And, like, what it looks like to be a fucking good-ass guy 761 00:35:55,069 --> 00:35:58,197 and, like, express your emotions and be in touch with who you are 762 00:35:58,281 --> 00:36:01,534 and not have to worry about what anyone else thinks about me 763 00:36:01,617 --> 00:36:04,328 or what, you know, conclusions they wanna arrive at. 764 00:36:04,412 --> 00:36:08,082 I feel like men have, like, such wild expectations placed on them 765 00:36:08,166 --> 00:36:10,543 about what's expected of, like, men in society. 766 00:36:10,626 --> 00:36:12,753 I'm just really grateful that I have that example. 767 00:36:12,837 --> 00:36:16,299 Wow. You sound like you have a great, like, group of friends. 768 00:36:16,382 --> 00:36:19,635 Something I will say about you that I find so attractive 769 00:36:19,719 --> 00:36:23,264 is how comfortable you are talking about gender roles, 770 00:36:23,347 --> 00:36:27,977 how there is toxic masculinity and how you lean away from that. 771 00:36:28,060 --> 00:36:29,812 I think that's, like, so attractive. 772 00:36:29,896 --> 00:36:33,274 Yeah, I just don't really care to try to follow traditional expectations 773 00:36:33,357 --> 00:36:35,234 of what, like, masculinity should look like. 774 00:36:35,318 --> 00:36:37,028 Masculinity is, like, what I make it. 775 00:36:37,111 --> 00:36:42,074 I absolutely love that more than you might realize. 776 00:36:42,158 --> 00:36:45,203 'Cause I'm used to military masculine men. 777 00:36:45,286 --> 00:36:46,871 Got you. Yeah, yeah, that makes sense. 778 00:36:46,954 --> 00:36:50,416 Which is interesting because it's still something that I… 779 00:36:50,499 --> 00:36:52,877 I'm obviously still attracted to because I've dated them. 780 00:36:52,960 --> 00:36:55,087 So what is your type, typically? 781 00:36:55,171 --> 00:36:56,964 -I don't have a physical type. -[Ramses] Okay. 782 00:36:57,048 --> 00:37:00,676 So, what if I am, like, 5'5", 5'6"? 783 00:37:00,760 --> 00:37:02,970 -That's fine. That's fine. -Really? 784 00:37:03,054 --> 00:37:06,140 I'm not gonna friggin' say no to some guy because of his height. 785 00:37:06,224 --> 00:37:08,768 -Okay. No, no, no, I was just curious. -[Marissa] Like… 786 00:37:08,851 --> 00:37:10,853 I never really cared much about the physical. 787 00:37:10,937 --> 00:37:13,814 I'm more, like, how they make me feel and how I get along with them. 788 00:37:13,898 --> 00:37:15,900 I usually date guys who are pretty smart. 789 00:37:15,983 --> 00:37:18,653 I dated a conservative Trump supporter for three years. 790 00:37:18,736 --> 00:37:19,654 Oh, shit. 791 00:37:19,737 --> 00:37:22,365 But then I dated a progressive liberal guy. 792 00:37:22,448 --> 00:37:25,159 Like, I date people for who they are. 793 00:37:25,243 --> 00:37:27,078 Let's say I propose to you. 794 00:37:28,246 --> 00:37:29,664 -But, like-- -Oh, my God. 795 00:37:29,747 --> 00:37:31,749 -[laughing] -I need more time. 796 00:37:32,833 --> 00:37:34,252 -[Ramses] More time. -More time. 797 00:37:35,044 --> 00:37:38,381 Um, we'll let it be like a little a slow burn. 798 00:37:38,464 --> 00:37:40,925 -Not too slow though. -Yeah. [laughs] 799 00:37:41,008 --> 00:37:41,842 [pop music playing] 800 00:37:41,926 --> 00:37:45,221 ♪ But tomorrow we'll have to Take back something we say ♪ 801 00:37:46,847 --> 00:37:50,559 I feel like with Garrett, we keep using the word, like, "serendipitous." 802 00:37:50,643 --> 00:37:53,354 It's just like a magnetic feeling that you can't really describe. 803 00:37:53,437 --> 00:37:54,397 [Monica] Taylor. 804 00:37:55,273 --> 00:37:56,565 [Taylor] If I had a script… 805 00:37:57,525 --> 00:37:59,527 Oh. [laughing] 806 00:38:01,988 --> 00:38:03,614 -Are those yours? -Uh-huh. 807 00:38:04,198 --> 00:38:06,867 -How do you know? -'Cause they're my favorite flower. 808 00:38:06,951 --> 00:38:09,745 I told him, like, if you want to ask me to be your girlfriend… 809 00:38:09,829 --> 00:38:12,665 Yeah, you did say that. You told him to do something for you. 810 00:38:12,748 --> 00:38:14,375 Look at him actually listening. 811 00:38:19,839 --> 00:38:22,925 "Taylor Morgan Krause, since we first met in Pod Two, 812 00:38:23,009 --> 00:38:24,719 and we've just…" 813 00:38:24,802 --> 00:38:28,639 -Of course he knows what pod we were in. -Of course. Of course. 814 00:38:28,723 --> 00:38:30,808 [Taylor] "It feels like we've been dating for months." 815 00:38:30,891 --> 00:38:33,936 "We continue to do this on our own unique way, 816 00:38:34,020 --> 00:38:36,480 and I can't wait to continue this journey with you." 817 00:38:36,564 --> 00:38:40,693 "Your boo thing, Garrett. P.S. Will you be my girlfriend?" 818 00:38:40,776 --> 00:38:43,946 "Will you be my girlfriend? Check yes or no!" 819 00:38:44,030 --> 00:38:46,824 I love it! It's so sweet! 820 00:38:48,242 --> 00:38:50,202 -Maybe. [laughing] -Let me get you a pen. 821 00:38:50,286 --> 00:38:53,539 Let me get you a pen. Put him out of his misery. 822 00:38:53,622 --> 00:38:54,540 Okay, okay. 823 00:38:54,623 --> 00:38:56,584 Garrett really surprises me. 824 00:38:56,667 --> 00:38:57,668 It's so sweet. 825 00:38:57,752 --> 00:39:00,212 -This is so incredibly sweet. -So thoughtful. 826 00:39:00,296 --> 00:39:02,298 He gets me all giddy, 827 00:39:02,381 --> 00:39:06,052 and I think we're definitely not just friends. [laughs] 828 00:39:06,635 --> 00:39:08,804 I feel like he wants me to follow instructions. 829 00:39:08,888 --> 00:39:11,557 [Monica] I think it was really, really, really, really sweet. 830 00:39:11,640 --> 00:39:12,725 [Taylor] It's amazing. 831 00:39:15,353 --> 00:39:18,397 -Let me smell. -Yeah. It's also… mm-hmm. 832 00:39:19,398 --> 00:39:21,484 -Ooh! Is that lip gloss? -Ooh. 833 00:39:21,567 --> 00:39:23,361 -[Monica] Or perfume? -It's perfume. 834 00:39:23,444 --> 00:39:24,945 Let me see? Wow, I love that. 835 00:39:25,029 --> 00:39:26,947 It's also pheromones. [laughs] 836 00:39:27,031 --> 00:39:29,575 "Pheromone unisex perfume oil." 837 00:39:29,658 --> 00:39:32,328 -You dirty, dirty dog. -[laughing] 838 00:39:33,454 --> 00:39:37,083 -I told you I always come prepared. -[Monica] You do. You have all the things. 839 00:39:37,166 --> 00:39:38,167 All the things. 840 00:39:38,250 --> 00:39:39,835 -[pop music playing] -♪ I'm ready to go ♪ 841 00:39:39,919 --> 00:39:40,920 [Tim] Hello. 842 00:39:41,420 --> 00:39:43,214 -[Alex] Yay! -Oh, yay. 843 00:39:43,297 --> 00:39:45,800 -I've been so excited to talk to you. -[Tim] Yeah, me too. 844 00:39:45,883 --> 00:39:48,052 I told I look forward to talking to you every time. 845 00:39:48,135 --> 00:39:50,971 [Alex] Yeah. When our date ended yesterday, 846 00:39:51,055 --> 00:39:55,351 you had something to talk about, like, with Norfolk State, why you applied there, 847 00:39:55,434 --> 00:39:57,144 and, like, only applied there. 848 00:39:57,228 --> 00:39:59,688 I wanted to go to Norfolk State literally to be in a band. 849 00:39:59,772 --> 00:40:03,150 I grew up singing a lot in church 'cause my mom made me. 850 00:40:03,234 --> 00:40:04,568 [laughs] 851 00:40:04,652 --> 00:40:08,572 But also, like, me and my sisters played a lot of instruments. 852 00:40:08,656 --> 00:40:12,451 My middle sister was a wonderful singer and a wonderful songwriter. 853 00:40:12,535 --> 00:40:15,830 We had pianos in the house. I played horns. My sister played trumpet. 854 00:40:15,913 --> 00:40:19,333 I went there on a music scholarship, but college, it felt very directionless. 855 00:40:20,334 --> 00:40:24,046 I was not the straight-A student. I was not the honor roll student, 856 00:40:24,130 --> 00:40:26,215 but funny enough, I always tested really high. 857 00:40:27,007 --> 00:40:29,301 -Yeah. -I've always looked at, like, 858 00:40:29,385 --> 00:40:33,222 this education system and, like, my education experience 859 00:40:33,305 --> 00:40:34,390 with a little bit of spite, 860 00:40:34,473 --> 00:40:37,184 because I remember what it felt like to feel stupid. 861 00:40:37,268 --> 00:40:39,311 -Yeah. -[Tim] I've always hated school. 862 00:40:39,395 --> 00:40:41,272 But I love learning. 863 00:40:41,772 --> 00:40:43,524 And I ended up joining the Navy. 864 00:40:43,607 --> 00:40:45,317 -Which I have told you, right? -Yes. 865 00:40:45,401 --> 00:40:49,613 Okay. To this day, joining the Navy was the best decision of my life. 866 00:40:50,197 --> 00:40:51,949 And getting out was the second best. [laughs] 867 00:40:52,032 --> 00:40:55,494 Though I loved the Navy and the things it gave to me, 868 00:40:55,578 --> 00:40:57,997 I assumed that that's all I ever could be. 869 00:40:58,080 --> 00:41:01,417 Since then, I've been in a lot of rooms and at a lot of tables 870 00:41:01,500 --> 00:41:04,253 that I would have never imagined myself in 871 00:41:04,336 --> 00:41:06,422 and looked a lot of people in the eyes that, 872 00:41:06,505 --> 00:41:09,592 at certain points in my life and career, didn't feel like real people to me, 873 00:41:09,675 --> 00:41:11,010 'cause they were so out of reach. 874 00:41:11,093 --> 00:41:13,262 And, like, I don't know where I'm going from here, 875 00:41:13,345 --> 00:41:15,347 but there's nothing that I can't do, 876 00:41:15,431 --> 00:41:17,099 and there's nobody I can't look in the eye. 877 00:41:17,183 --> 00:41:18,017 [Alex] Mm-hmm. 878 00:41:18,100 --> 00:41:21,770 My grandfather. Are you familiar with the Nation of Islam? 879 00:41:21,854 --> 00:41:22,688 Absolutely. 880 00:41:22,771 --> 00:41:25,024 He was the National Secretary for the Nation of Islam. 881 00:41:25,107 --> 00:41:27,151 -Oh, okay. -[Alex] And he was very close. 882 00:41:27,234 --> 00:41:29,778 And worked with Elijah Muhammad. 883 00:41:29,862 --> 00:41:31,864 And there's a photo 884 00:41:31,947 --> 00:41:35,117 in my dad's house of, like, him and Muhammad Ali. 885 00:41:35,201 --> 00:41:38,245 -Muhammad Ali is, like, one of my heroes. -[Alex] Really? Yes! 886 00:41:38,329 --> 00:41:42,208 I have-- there's four photos of Muhammad Ali in my house. 887 00:41:42,291 --> 00:41:45,669 [Alex] My grandfather, he was really big on not going to college. 888 00:41:45,753 --> 00:41:48,756 But I did it because my parents were like, 889 00:41:48,839 --> 00:41:51,050 "Hey, you get the grades, you go to college." 890 00:41:51,133 --> 00:41:54,178 But when it was time for me to go, there was no money. 891 00:41:54,261 --> 00:41:57,640 And I'm, like, all for people getting an education. 892 00:41:57,723 --> 00:42:01,268 But don't also think that you have to do it to be successful. 893 00:42:01,352 --> 00:42:03,771 -[Tim] Talking about the Nation of Islam. -Yeah. 894 00:42:03,854 --> 00:42:05,523 [Tim] And talking about the Navy, 895 00:42:05,606 --> 00:42:10,277 on one of my last deployments, I remember I was in the Atlantic Ocean. 896 00:42:10,361 --> 00:42:11,195 [Alex] Mm-hmm. 897 00:42:11,278 --> 00:42:13,989 On my way from Norfolk, Virginia, to Senegal. 898 00:42:14,073 --> 00:42:16,909 First time I ever touched the continent of Africa. 899 00:42:16,992 --> 00:42:20,663 And I happened to have been reading The Autobiography of Malcolm X. 900 00:42:21,247 --> 00:42:24,375 And it, like, struck me where I first started thinking, like… 901 00:42:24,458 --> 00:42:26,877 -"Yo, I could do and be more." -Yeah. 902 00:42:26,961 --> 00:42:29,129 I wasn't raised Muslim. 903 00:42:29,213 --> 00:42:31,840 My dad grew up Catholic, but then his dad, 904 00:42:31,924 --> 00:42:34,301 you know, was part of the Nation. 905 00:42:34,385 --> 00:42:38,222 I asked him, "What is your religion?" He was like, "I just believe in God." 906 00:42:38,305 --> 00:42:42,601 [chuckles] I love that just because if you take a look at all religion, 907 00:42:42,685 --> 00:42:45,688 you'll find a lot of common themes about love. 908 00:42:46,355 --> 00:42:47,356 Absolutely. 909 00:42:47,439 --> 00:42:49,942 So I would like to tell you more about me. 910 00:42:50,025 --> 00:42:52,778 -[Alex] Yeah. Yeah. -And, like, my family story. 911 00:42:53,362 --> 00:42:56,740 For me, it's, like, oddly personal, particularly with my sisters, 912 00:42:56,824 --> 00:43:00,119 because whatever children I have will never know their aunts. 913 00:43:00,202 --> 00:43:01,036 [Alex] Mm-hmm. 914 00:43:01,120 --> 00:43:04,540 So I want to be able to be like, "This is what your aunt was like." 915 00:43:04,623 --> 00:43:05,457 [Alex] Mm-hmm. 916 00:43:05,541 --> 00:43:09,795 "This is what me and your aunt did when we were six and seven years old." 917 00:43:09,878 --> 00:43:12,423 But I'll never forget the night my older sister died. 918 00:43:12,923 --> 00:43:14,842 You never told me exactly what happened. 919 00:43:15,426 --> 00:43:16,719 She had lupus. 920 00:43:16,802 --> 00:43:19,513 One day, she checked in the hospital and never checked out. 921 00:43:19,597 --> 00:43:21,515 I remember I was at my grandmother's house, 922 00:43:21,599 --> 00:43:25,728 and, like, I was waiting on my parents. I knew she was at the hospital. 923 00:43:25,811 --> 00:43:29,815 Then my grandmother told me that one of my cousins was gonna pick me up. 924 00:43:29,898 --> 00:43:32,359 And I got to the hospital. I saw tears in my dad's eyes. 925 00:43:32,443 --> 00:43:35,112 That was my first sign of like, "Oh, something's wrong." 926 00:43:35,696 --> 00:43:36,530 Yeah. 927 00:43:36,614 --> 00:43:40,326 [Tim] The big thing I will always remember from that night is 928 00:43:40,826 --> 00:43:43,954 knowing that she was gone before anybody told me, 929 00:43:44,038 --> 00:43:48,250 because I heard my mother make a noise that I've never heard her make again. 930 00:43:48,334 --> 00:43:50,127 It was primal and animalistic. 931 00:43:50,210 --> 00:43:51,712 And that's my mother, you know? 932 00:43:52,421 --> 00:43:55,174 -Like, it was almost out of body. -Yeah. 933 00:43:55,257 --> 00:43:59,470 After she passed, me and my other sister were in there with her alone. 934 00:43:59,553 --> 00:44:00,763 And she had her class ring on, 935 00:44:00,846 --> 00:44:03,891 and my other sister was trying to tug her class ring off her finger, 936 00:44:03,974 --> 00:44:07,144 but her finger was so swollen, she couldn't get it off, and I remember… 937 00:44:07,227 --> 00:44:10,606 Like, I was like, "Can you do that? Come on, don't do that." You know? 938 00:44:10,689 --> 00:44:12,941 It was a lot going on, but I remember, like, 939 00:44:13,025 --> 00:44:15,027 I'm glad she did it. I'm glad I have that memory, 940 00:44:15,110 --> 00:44:18,405 'cause, like, I'm literally wearing that ring around my neck right now. 941 00:44:18,489 --> 00:44:19,490 -[Alex] Really? -Yeah. 942 00:44:19,573 --> 00:44:22,910 I wear both of my sisters' high school class rings on my necklace. 943 00:44:22,993 --> 00:44:27,539 -["The Weight" by Dylan Dunlap playing] -♪ I feel like ♪ 944 00:44:27,623 --> 00:44:31,418 ♪ The world is falling down on me… ♪ 945 00:44:32,419 --> 00:44:35,547 But my most cherished memories are the exact opposite. 946 00:44:36,465 --> 00:44:40,552 To where up to that point, most of my life was like a sitcom. 947 00:44:40,636 --> 00:44:44,515 ♪ Finding comfort in a dream… ♪ 948 00:44:46,809 --> 00:44:48,852 My parents, like, they did… [chuckles] 949 00:44:48,936 --> 00:44:51,647 Like, I could not have asked more from them. 950 00:44:51,730 --> 00:44:55,484 Like, if you look at photos of us, it don't even look real. 951 00:44:56,360 --> 00:44:58,862 Like, it was just so beautiful and innocent. 952 00:44:58,946 --> 00:45:00,572 I wouldn't change a thing. 953 00:45:00,656 --> 00:45:02,908 Just stupid brother-sister shit, like… 954 00:45:02,991 --> 00:45:05,077 -[Alex] Yeah. -I think about… 955 00:45:06,036 --> 00:45:07,454 [chuckles] It's funny. 956 00:45:07,538 --> 00:45:10,833 I think about my sisters used to lock me out of the house in my underwear. 957 00:45:10,916 --> 00:45:12,292 -[sniffles] -[Tim chuckles] 958 00:45:12,376 --> 00:45:16,296 ♪ I know ♪ 959 00:45:16,380 --> 00:45:20,759 ♪ There are things I can't explain ♪ 960 00:45:21,635 --> 00:45:24,346 -Just a beautiful childhood, man. -Yeah. 961 00:45:24,430 --> 00:45:27,933 It really was. And I wouldn't trade it for the world. [sobbing] 962 00:45:28,016 --> 00:45:29,685 [Alex sniffles] Yeah. 963 00:45:31,562 --> 00:45:35,357 -Um, thank you for sharing. -Yeah, thank you for listening. 964 00:45:38,819 --> 00:45:39,987 [Alex sniffles] 965 00:45:40,070 --> 00:45:42,364 [Tim] I'm gonna say something that I have been thinking, 966 00:45:42,448 --> 00:45:44,658 but I have not said out loud to anyone. 967 00:45:44,742 --> 00:45:45,993 [Alex] What? 968 00:45:46,076 --> 00:45:48,662 [Tim] I get to give my parents one more daughter. 969 00:45:50,664 --> 00:45:52,249 And I love that. 970 00:45:52,332 --> 00:45:53,876 I love that so much. 971 00:45:53,959 --> 00:45:57,004 And I can already see our lives coming together in a lot of ways. 972 00:45:57,087 --> 00:45:57,963 Yeah. 973 00:45:58,464 --> 00:46:01,800 I don't take it lightly how close I feel to you 974 00:46:01,884 --> 00:46:04,470 and how grateful I am to have met you, 975 00:46:05,095 --> 00:46:06,221 even though we've never met. 976 00:46:06,305 --> 00:46:08,932 And, like, honestly, that's beautiful. 977 00:46:09,516 --> 00:46:12,436 ♪ The weight… ♪ 978 00:46:12,519 --> 00:46:13,562 [laughs] 979 00:46:14,188 --> 00:46:18,275 ♪ The weight on me ♪ 980 00:46:18,358 --> 00:46:19,485 [Garrett] Hi, baby. 981 00:46:19,568 --> 00:46:21,570 [Taylor] More flowers from my boyfriend? 982 00:46:21,653 --> 00:46:23,989 -[laughing] -[Garrett] Oh! 983 00:46:24,072 --> 00:46:26,700 [Taylor] I have some things that I'd like to say. 984 00:46:26,784 --> 00:46:28,702 What do you see in front of you? 985 00:46:29,286 --> 00:46:31,497 -[Garrett] I have a ton of notes. -[chuckles] 986 00:46:32,080 --> 00:46:34,666 -I'm kind of nervous if you can't tell. -All right. 987 00:46:35,334 --> 00:46:37,669 -I'm gonna start reading. [laughs] -[Garrett] Okay. 988 00:46:38,504 --> 00:46:39,338 [Taylor] Well, G. 989 00:46:39,421 --> 00:46:40,839 [chuckles] 990 00:46:40,923 --> 00:46:43,300 I've always considered myself great with words, 991 00:46:43,383 --> 00:46:45,260 but it's clear with you, I need my notes. 992 00:46:45,344 --> 00:46:47,846 [both laughing] 993 00:46:47,930 --> 00:46:49,848 [Taylor] I thought it was cute and kind of cheesy, 994 00:46:49,932 --> 00:46:52,184 my dad gave me my grandparents' love letters. 995 00:46:52,851 --> 00:46:54,978 But last night I found this one letter 996 00:46:55,062 --> 00:46:58,232 my grandparents wrote on November 13, 1953. 997 00:46:59,900 --> 00:47:02,778 They're no longer… here, 998 00:47:05,364 --> 00:47:06,698 but they are kind of here. 999 00:47:07,783 --> 00:47:09,868 -Here goes. [laughs] -[Garrett] Doing great, babe. 1000 00:47:11,203 --> 00:47:14,414 "Dear Kathleen, I certainly didn't mean to say or write 1001 00:47:14,498 --> 00:47:16,959 things that would make you speechless." 1002 00:47:17,042 --> 00:47:18,252 [clears throat] 1003 00:47:21,880 --> 00:47:25,217 "All I wanted to do was tell you what I've been thinking about 1004 00:47:25,884 --> 00:47:27,344 and hoping and praying for." 1005 00:47:29,847 --> 00:47:32,224 "I just can't imagine that what I would have to say 1006 00:47:32,307 --> 00:47:33,976 would make anyone speechless." 1007 00:47:34,476 --> 00:47:38,272 "I'm very flattered that you should think that my letters are so nice." 1008 00:47:38,772 --> 00:47:42,651 "I don't want to leave you so speechless that you can't say yes." 1009 00:47:44,152 --> 00:47:47,281 -"That would indeed be very bad." -[both chuckle] 1010 00:47:47,364 --> 00:47:50,951 "I also am very happy if my letters do make you feel good and happy." 1011 00:47:51,034 --> 00:47:52,661 "At least they are doing in a small way 1012 00:47:52,744 --> 00:47:55,163 what I would very much like to do myself personally." 1013 00:47:55,247 --> 00:47:58,876 "I hope they convey my deep and sincere feeling toward you." 1014 00:47:59,793 --> 00:48:03,088 "As far as to what you can say, I would be perfectly happy 1015 00:48:03,171 --> 00:48:06,008 just to have you say that you would marry me." 1016 00:48:06,800 --> 00:48:10,178 "Of course, I realize that that is asking for a great deal from you, 1017 00:48:10,262 --> 00:48:13,181 but I assure you that I would spend the rest of my life 1018 00:48:13,265 --> 00:48:15,601 trying to show you that this is what I really want." 1019 00:48:17,436 --> 00:48:20,480 "So really all you have to say is yes." 1020 00:48:21,440 --> 00:48:24,067 "It would be much better, of course, if you were here 1021 00:48:24,151 --> 00:48:25,777 so that you didn't have to write." 1022 00:48:26,403 --> 00:48:30,574 "I think that it should be obvious to you by now that this is my intention, 1023 00:48:30,657 --> 00:48:33,577 that is to have you here with me, as my wife." 1024 00:48:40,417 --> 00:48:43,587 "Um, so, G, 1025 00:48:43,670 --> 00:48:46,381 we started this experiment… [inhales] 1026 00:48:46,465 --> 00:48:48,508 …inherently very skeptical, 1027 00:48:49,009 --> 00:48:53,180 but discovered we're excited to problem-solve this uncertainty together 1028 00:48:53,263 --> 00:48:55,641 on our own time and pace, 1029 00:48:56,141 --> 00:48:58,352 some might even say velocity." 1030 00:48:58,435 --> 00:49:01,521 -Shout out, Heisenberg. -[laughing] 1031 00:49:03,857 --> 00:49:05,734 [Taylor] "You've really been the perfect husband… 1032 00:49:05,817 --> 00:49:07,778 [laughs] …I've been looking for 1033 00:49:07,861 --> 00:49:11,239 with all the words of affirmation I didn't know I needed." 1034 00:49:11,323 --> 00:49:14,576 "So thank you for being vulnerable and persistent with me." 1035 00:49:15,077 --> 00:49:16,870 "Our connection is magnetic." 1036 00:49:16,954 --> 00:49:19,748 "You've been my number one for nine days running, 1037 00:49:19,831 --> 00:49:22,125 and I can't wait to lose count for the rest." 1038 00:49:24,378 --> 00:49:25,379 [sniffles] 1039 00:49:27,464 --> 00:49:29,508 -Hello? -[both laughing] 1040 00:49:29,591 --> 00:49:30,509 Sorry. 1041 00:49:30,592 --> 00:49:31,468 [laughs] 1042 00:49:31,551 --> 00:49:34,262 [Garrett laughs] Everything's running through me right now. 1043 00:49:36,223 --> 00:49:39,351 Yeah. This is, um, these letters are incredible too. 1044 00:49:39,434 --> 00:49:42,729 -[Taylor] They're pretty cool, huh? -It's beautiful, honestly. It's so cool. 1045 00:49:42,813 --> 00:49:44,147 It's just tough to… [sniffles] 1046 00:49:45,148 --> 00:49:47,234 …um, form words right now. 1047 00:49:47,317 --> 00:49:48,151 [sighs] 1048 00:49:49,611 --> 00:49:52,823 [Taylor] I know we would've done all the things that we wanted to do, 1049 00:49:52,906 --> 00:49:54,992 but it's gonna be 1050 00:49:55,075 --> 00:49:59,371 so much more than we could have imagined doing it together, and I'm so excited. 1051 00:49:59,955 --> 00:50:01,748 [Garrett laughing] 1052 00:50:01,832 --> 00:50:03,750 [sniffles, clears throat] 1053 00:50:04,292 --> 00:50:05,460 Yeah… [chuckles] 1054 00:50:05,544 --> 00:50:07,504 So I was a mess for the first, like, three days. 1055 00:50:07,587 --> 00:50:08,755 I didn't know what to do. 1056 00:50:08,839 --> 00:50:11,633 I'm trying to follow my heart, and hadn't done it in so long. 1057 00:50:12,467 --> 00:50:15,429 And it was tough, but that fire started with us, 1058 00:50:15,512 --> 00:50:17,639 and it just started to grow and grow. 1059 00:50:18,140 --> 00:50:19,766 There was nothing else I could think about. 1060 00:50:19,850 --> 00:50:21,393 I knew the answer was there all along. 1061 00:50:23,103 --> 00:50:27,399 I wasn't coming in here expecting or really even hoping. 1062 00:50:27,482 --> 00:50:29,526 Like, I just didn't expect it at all. 1063 00:50:29,609 --> 00:50:32,696 And you weren't in here, like, dying 1064 00:50:32,779 --> 00:50:35,073 to just get engaged with anyone. 1065 00:50:35,157 --> 00:50:37,284 You know, you were looking for me. 1066 00:50:39,119 --> 00:50:40,370 [Taylor] Mm-hmm. 1067 00:50:40,454 --> 00:50:42,539 [voice breaking] When it comes to you, Garrett, 1068 00:50:42,622 --> 00:50:44,374 I really think we could have it all. 1069 00:50:45,208 --> 00:50:47,836 And I didn't think that was possible before coming in here. 1070 00:50:50,756 --> 00:50:51,798 [Garrett] Taylor, 1071 00:50:53,008 --> 00:50:55,594 I love everything about you. 1072 00:50:55,677 --> 00:50:57,721 I think you're an incredible person. 1073 00:50:57,804 --> 00:50:59,723 I think you're intelligent. 1074 00:51:00,474 --> 00:51:03,310 You are very caring, kind. You're authentic. 1075 00:51:03,393 --> 00:51:04,728 You're passionate. 1076 00:51:06,021 --> 00:51:06,855 [exhales] 1077 00:51:07,355 --> 00:51:12,152 [hesitates] In here, I've fallen in love with the person that you are. 1078 00:51:13,236 --> 00:51:14,738 I've fallen in love with your quirks. 1079 00:51:14,821 --> 00:51:16,615 I'm looking forward to seeing more of them. 1080 00:51:16,698 --> 00:51:19,993 I love finding out things about you you're not even telling me, picking up on them. 1081 00:51:20,077 --> 00:51:20,952 [chuckles] 1082 00:51:21,036 --> 00:51:23,121 [Garrett] The more and more I peel back these layers, 1083 00:51:23,205 --> 00:51:26,333 I'm just loving the person that's underneath. 1084 00:51:26,416 --> 00:51:30,128 It's been an incredible experience just getting to know you. 1085 00:51:30,212 --> 00:51:33,423 Our connection too, you talked about it, the magnetic feeling, it's crazy. 1086 00:51:33,507 --> 00:51:36,510 It's electric. Like, it's a very visceral experience. 1087 00:51:36,593 --> 00:51:38,470 It's like every molecule of me 1088 00:51:38,553 --> 00:51:42,766 just wants to come through this wall and to be with you. 1089 00:51:42,849 --> 00:51:46,645 Our bodies are telling us that we're meant to be together, 1090 00:51:46,728 --> 00:51:49,981 and we just had to make sure our heads didn't get in the way. 1091 00:51:51,399 --> 00:51:52,776 [chuckles] 1092 00:51:52,859 --> 00:51:54,569 Taylor Morgan Krause. 1093 00:51:58,532 --> 00:51:59,491 [sighs] 1094 00:52:02,744 --> 00:52:03,954 Will you marry me? 1095 00:52:08,250 --> 00:52:09,167 Absolutely. 1096 00:52:09,251 --> 00:52:11,253 [laughing] 1097 00:52:11,336 --> 00:52:13,588 -["Crushing on You" playing] -♪ There's nothing I can do… ♪ 1098 00:52:13,672 --> 00:52:14,506 [Garrett] Oh, my God! 1099 00:52:14,589 --> 00:52:16,258 [both laugh] 1100 00:52:16,341 --> 00:52:19,427 Oh, my God, I'm shaking. I can't even get up right now. 1101 00:52:19,511 --> 00:52:21,721 -[laughing] -[Garrett sighs] 1102 00:52:21,805 --> 00:52:23,265 [both laughing] 1103 00:52:23,974 --> 00:52:26,810 -I'm so freaking excited. -[both laughing] 1104 00:52:29,479 --> 00:52:30,939 Just gotta soak this in. 1105 00:52:31,022 --> 00:52:34,442 ♪ I never dreamed What I've been missing… ♪ 1106 00:52:34,526 --> 00:52:36,653 This is not how I imagined it, but honestly, it's, like, 1107 00:52:37,237 --> 00:52:39,156 the most amazing feeling in the world. 1108 00:52:39,239 --> 00:52:42,117 -We're very, very, very lucky. -Yeah, we are. 1109 00:52:43,660 --> 00:52:44,995 [both laugh] 1110 00:52:45,078 --> 00:52:46,413 [Garrett] Can't wait to see you. 1111 00:52:46,997 --> 00:52:49,291 -I'm wearing blue tomorrow. -Blue? 1112 00:52:49,374 --> 00:52:52,586 -I am. Just a heads-up. -[Garrett] Wow. I'm not gonna tell you. 1113 00:52:52,669 --> 00:52:54,796 I want you to be just as confused as I am in there. 1114 00:52:54,880 --> 00:52:56,882 [laughing] 1115 00:52:57,674 --> 00:52:59,843 Equally as excited. I'll see you soon. 1116 00:52:59,926 --> 00:53:01,678 -[Taylor] See you soon, babe. -[both laugh] 1117 00:53:01,761 --> 00:53:05,432 ♪ I never dreamed What I've been missing… ♪ 1118 00:53:05,515 --> 00:53:07,726 Wow. [laughs] 1119 00:53:07,809 --> 00:53:09,853 ♪ I'm so crushin' on you… ♪ 1120 00:53:09,936 --> 00:53:11,563 This is awesome. [laughs] 1121 00:53:11,646 --> 00:53:15,275 ♪ Yeah, there's nothing I can do There's nothing I can do… ♪ 1122 00:53:17,402 --> 00:53:18,528 Whoo! 1123 00:53:20,739 --> 00:53:22,199 -[women shouting] -[laughing] 1124 00:53:22,282 --> 00:53:24,075 -[woman] Oh, my God! -[woman 2] Flowers! 1125 00:53:24,659 --> 00:53:27,412 -Look at her! -[Marissa] Are you a fiancée? 1126 00:53:27,495 --> 00:53:28,955 I'm a fiancée. 1127 00:53:29,039 --> 00:53:29,915 [woman 3] Taylor! 1128 00:53:29,998 --> 00:53:33,919 He's really, like, taking me being a plant mom to the entire next level. 1129 00:53:34,002 --> 00:53:35,086 -[laughing] -[squealing] 1130 00:53:35,170 --> 00:53:37,672 -[shouting] -[laughing] 1131 00:53:37,756 --> 00:53:39,216 Oh, my God, dude. 1132 00:53:39,299 --> 00:53:41,885 [Tyler] Dawg! Took a while, son. 1133 00:53:41,968 --> 00:53:43,053 Yeah. 1134 00:53:44,304 --> 00:53:47,807 -[indistinct chattering] -[laughing] 1135 00:53:47,891 --> 00:53:51,937 Dude, what? What? I'm engaged? 1136 00:53:52,896 --> 00:53:54,105 I'm engaged! 1137 00:53:54,189 --> 00:53:55,523 ♪ I'm so crushin' on you ♪ 1138 00:53:55,607 --> 00:53:59,611 ♪ Yeah, there's nothing I can do There's nothing I can do… ♪ 1139 00:53:59,694 --> 00:54:02,072 [Monica] How do I ask? I don't even know what I wanna ask, 1140 00:54:02,155 --> 00:54:04,241 but okay, let's start with this. 1141 00:54:05,408 --> 00:54:09,496 Did you vote in the last presidential election and the election before that? 1142 00:54:09,579 --> 00:54:10,580 [Stephen] Yes, I did. 1143 00:54:10,664 --> 00:54:11,998 It is-- I mean, 1144 00:54:12,082 --> 00:54:15,335 both as a veteran and an American, it's kind of my responsibility. 1145 00:54:15,418 --> 00:54:16,419 -Yeah. -[Stephen] To do so. 1146 00:54:16,503 --> 00:54:19,214 Thank you again for your service. I don't know if I said that. 1147 00:54:19,297 --> 00:54:22,259 Yeah, you have. You don't have to do it anymore. I get it. Thank you. 1148 00:54:22,342 --> 00:54:24,511 -[Monica] I really mean it though. -I appreciate it. 1149 00:54:24,594 --> 00:54:26,388 -Grateful for people like you. -[Stephen] Yes. 1150 00:54:27,430 --> 00:54:30,308 Whether I liked the candidates or not is a different story. 1151 00:54:30,392 --> 00:54:34,271 -Yeah. -But I did vote, and it was rough. 1152 00:54:34,354 --> 00:54:35,188 Yeah. 1153 00:54:35,272 --> 00:54:38,692 [Stephen] It was rough for both the last election and this election, 1154 00:54:38,775 --> 00:54:41,486 because, I mean, since we're already on this topic, 1155 00:54:41,569 --> 00:54:43,405 my dad is a Republican. 1156 00:54:43,488 --> 00:54:45,615 He'll vote Republican because he's a Republican, 1157 00:54:45,699 --> 00:54:47,367 and I don't agree with that concept. 1158 00:54:47,450 --> 00:54:51,913 It's always mind-blowing to me when people aren't okay with changing their mind. 1159 00:54:51,997 --> 00:54:54,040 -'Cause that says a lot about them. -Yeah. 1160 00:54:54,624 --> 00:54:56,501 -I agree. -I'm very much a centrist. 1161 00:54:56,584 --> 00:55:01,464 I want to vote for my candidate because I believe in what they're selling. 1162 00:55:01,548 --> 00:55:02,716 I'll be completely honest. 1163 00:55:02,799 --> 00:55:06,344 I voted for President Trump because I didn't like Hillary. 1164 00:55:07,345 --> 00:55:09,097 -In the first election. -Mm-hmm. 1165 00:55:09,180 --> 00:55:13,560 But I despise the way that Trump handled his time in office. 1166 00:55:13,643 --> 00:55:16,271 -[Monica] Mm-hmm -And I voted for Biden. 1167 00:55:16,354 --> 00:55:19,482 And I can honestly say I put a lot more thought 1168 00:55:19,566 --> 00:55:22,777 and passion into that second vote than I did the first. 1169 00:55:22,861 --> 00:55:27,532 I will happily admit that my first vote wasn't the most educated vote. 1170 00:55:28,908 --> 00:55:32,912 You know, I'm-- my background's actually a little interesting. 1171 00:55:32,996 --> 00:55:33,997 [Monica] Tell me. 1172 00:55:34,664 --> 00:55:37,792 [Stephen] For the most part, I identify as white. 1173 00:55:37,876 --> 00:55:38,877 But my dad… 1174 00:55:38,960 --> 00:55:39,878 [Monica] Mm-hmm. 1175 00:55:39,961 --> 00:55:41,880 So this is an interesting story. 1176 00:55:42,380 --> 00:55:47,177 For years, on my dad's side, my grandmother on my dad's side, 1177 00:55:47,260 --> 00:55:48,261 she is German, 1178 00:55:48,345 --> 00:55:52,599 and she told us for years that my dad's side of the family 1179 00:55:52,682 --> 00:55:55,185 and my grandfather's was Italian. 1180 00:55:55,268 --> 00:55:59,064 So I grew up thinking, "Okay, I got some flavor here." 1181 00:55:59,147 --> 00:56:00,815 -"I'm Italian!" You know? -[chuckles] 1182 00:56:00,899 --> 00:56:02,776 My class ring when I bought it in high school 1183 00:56:02,859 --> 00:56:05,945 had the Italian flag on it. I was so proud to be Italian. 1184 00:56:06,029 --> 00:56:10,617 Fast-forward, three years ago, my sister does an ancestry.com. 1185 00:56:10,700 --> 00:56:13,161 I knew that this is where we were headed. I'm so excited. 1186 00:56:13,244 --> 00:56:16,748 And it turns out the closest we have 1187 00:56:16,831 --> 00:56:20,794 is 0.3% broadly European. 1188 00:56:20,877 --> 00:56:22,921 -Shut up! -[Stephen] It's not even Italian. 1189 00:56:23,004 --> 00:56:24,631 It's not even 0.3% Italian? 1190 00:56:24,714 --> 00:56:30,053 Most of it is Nigerian, Congolese, Sierra Leonean 1191 00:56:30,136 --> 00:56:33,223 and primarily a lot of West Africa. 1192 00:56:33,306 --> 00:56:37,435 So it turns out that my dad is actually, like… 1193 00:56:37,936 --> 00:56:39,687 three-fifths or half black. 1194 00:56:39,771 --> 00:56:40,605 [Monica] Wow. 1195 00:56:40,688 --> 00:56:43,691 [Stephen] I have identified as white my whole life. 1196 00:56:43,775 --> 00:56:46,569 -Yeah. -I pretty much thought I was, you know. 1197 00:56:46,653 --> 00:56:48,571 -Yeah. -Turns out I'm not even Italian. 1198 00:56:48,655 --> 00:56:51,533 It's a really good story. And of course, you wanna understand it. 1199 00:56:51,616 --> 00:56:52,742 -That's cool. -[Stephen] Yeah. 1200 00:56:52,826 --> 00:56:55,495 Once I found out, of course, I immediately found some books, 1201 00:56:55,578 --> 00:56:59,207 and started looking into Ghanaian and Nigerian cultures. 1202 00:56:59,290 --> 00:57:00,333 That's really cool. 1203 00:57:00,417 --> 00:57:03,378 This is, like, a lot of West Africa that I'm mixed with. 1204 00:57:03,461 --> 00:57:05,839 There's a lot of different cultures here that now I get 1205 00:57:05,922 --> 00:57:09,008 to learn about on a more personal level. 1206 00:57:09,092 --> 00:57:11,302 -Yeah. -I find it fascinating. 1207 00:57:11,386 --> 00:57:12,554 -That's so cool. -Right? 1208 00:57:12,637 --> 00:57:14,681 A cool experience for you to, like, really dive in. 1209 00:57:14,764 --> 00:57:17,434 And I'm really glad we're having this conversation 1210 00:57:17,517 --> 00:57:19,853 because the world is changing, and I can't wait 1211 00:57:19,936 --> 00:57:22,355 for it to evolve even further, but, like, 1212 00:57:22,939 --> 00:57:27,694 we have been somewhat forced to think that we had to fit in one box. 1213 00:57:27,777 --> 00:57:28,653 Yeah. 1214 00:57:28,736 --> 00:57:30,321 [Monica] Growing up, in my childhood… 1215 00:57:30,405 --> 00:57:31,322 [Stephen] Mm-hmm. 1216 00:57:31,406 --> 00:57:35,368 …I would be given, the, like, standardized tests 1217 00:57:35,452 --> 00:57:39,038 that said, "What is your race? Ethnicity?" 1218 00:57:39,122 --> 00:57:41,166 -[Stephen] Yes. -And I was always confused. 1219 00:57:41,249 --> 00:57:42,208 Oh, really? 1220 00:57:42,292 --> 00:57:45,086 I'm mixed, right? So my mom is from Honduras. 1221 00:57:45,170 --> 00:57:46,004 Okay. 1222 00:57:46,087 --> 00:57:50,341 Her parents are Honduran, but they are an interracial couple. 1223 00:57:50,425 --> 00:57:54,471 And then my dad is African-American Black. 1224 00:57:54,554 --> 00:57:57,474 He has, like, some Cherokee ancestry that goes… 1225 00:57:57,557 --> 00:58:00,852 -Okay, so you really are a mutt, girl. -I'm a fucking mutt. 1226 00:58:00,935 --> 00:58:05,148 I believe that you date or marry somebody for selfish reasons. 1227 00:58:05,231 --> 00:58:08,026 You do it because they're gonna make you a better person, 1228 00:58:08,109 --> 00:58:10,778 and that comes from pushing you to look into new ideas. 1229 00:58:10,862 --> 00:58:13,239 Because in turn, if somebody's making you better, 1230 00:58:13,323 --> 00:58:14,657 you're gonna do the same to them. 1231 00:58:14,741 --> 00:58:17,494 You're gonna force them to be a better version of themselves. 1232 00:58:17,577 --> 00:58:20,079 I don't wanna settle for anything less. 1233 00:58:20,997 --> 00:58:22,081 [Monica] I agree. 1234 00:58:22,165 --> 00:58:25,001 Like, you make me feel super confident 1235 00:58:25,084 --> 00:58:29,422 in being here was the right thing for me and for you. 1236 00:58:29,506 --> 00:58:32,175 Like, you make me feel really special. 1237 00:58:32,258 --> 00:58:35,428 And you give me butterflies. You're incredibly sweet. 1238 00:58:35,512 --> 00:58:37,722 You're just such a good guy. 1239 00:58:38,515 --> 00:58:41,059 [Stephen] There's a difference between having a good conversation 1240 00:58:41,142 --> 00:58:42,936 and feeling something through the pods. 1241 00:58:43,019 --> 00:58:44,854 -Yeah. -[Stephen] Let's just say… 1242 00:58:46,356 --> 00:58:48,942 [sighs] How can I put it? Uh… 1243 00:58:49,567 --> 00:58:52,362 I know where my feelings lie, and I know what my gut says, 1244 00:58:52,445 --> 00:58:55,240 and I'm gonna follow that because you just know. 1245 00:58:55,323 --> 00:58:58,326 When I get down on one knee and I say, "You know, I choose you," 1246 00:58:58,409 --> 00:59:00,912 I want you to know without a shadow of a doubt 1247 00:59:00,995 --> 00:59:02,705 that it's me as well. 1248 00:59:02,789 --> 00:59:04,999 -["Prove It" playing] -♪ We can make it through… ♪ 1249 00:59:05,083 --> 00:59:06,417 [laughs] 1250 00:59:07,085 --> 00:59:09,587 ♪ We can make it through ♪ 1251 00:59:11,256 --> 00:59:12,966 -[Bohdan] Whoo! -[Tim] Yes! 1252 00:59:13,049 --> 00:59:14,425 -There it is! -Hey! 1253 00:59:15,051 --> 00:59:16,761 [laughing] 1254 00:59:16,844 --> 00:59:20,640 -[Bohdan] That's what I'm talkin' about! -[Tyler] Hey, Bohdi! Hey, Tim! 1255 00:59:20,723 --> 00:59:22,392 I'm floating. I get butterflies. 1256 00:59:24,185 --> 00:59:25,895 [Ashley A] Hello? Ooh, food. 1257 00:59:25,979 --> 00:59:27,564 -[Tyler] I got your blanket. -Same. 1258 00:59:27,647 --> 00:59:29,315 [Tyler] I'm going home night with it. 1259 00:59:29,399 --> 00:59:34,070 It's funny. I was playing pool just now, like, before I came in here. 1260 00:59:34,153 --> 00:59:37,740 My blanket was sitting, I turn around, and Bohdi was sniffing hard as shit. 1261 00:59:37,824 --> 00:59:41,244 I was like, "Hey, man, keep my wife's blanket out your fucking nose." 1262 00:59:41,327 --> 00:59:43,162 [both laugh] 1263 00:59:43,246 --> 00:59:44,872 -[Ashley A] Mm-hmm. -Yeah. 1264 00:59:44,956 --> 00:59:46,374 -I love this. -[Tyler] Me too. 1265 00:59:46,457 --> 00:59:48,835 -[Ashley A] I'm so excited. -So we're gonna eat, right? 1266 00:59:48,918 --> 00:59:51,045 -[Ashley A] We should. -I did write a prayer for us. 1267 00:59:51,129 --> 00:59:53,298 -[gasps] -[Tyler] So, um… 1268 00:59:53,381 --> 00:59:55,550 -Tyler, shut up. -[Tyler] I'm dead serious. 1269 00:59:55,633 --> 00:59:56,843 -I wrote something. -Okay. 1270 00:59:56,926 --> 00:59:59,804 "Dear God, thank you for allowing this food 1271 00:59:59,887 --> 01:00:01,306 and being healthy enough to eat it." 1272 01:00:01,389 --> 01:00:04,809 "Thank you for waking us up today, allowing us to see each other right now." 1273 01:00:04,892 --> 01:00:07,562 "Thank you for bringing us together in this unique experience." 1274 01:00:07,645 --> 01:00:09,397 "I thank you, God, for the blessing 1275 01:00:09,480 --> 01:00:11,774 with someone who is such a soft and kind spirit." 1276 01:00:12,483 --> 01:00:15,069 "I thank you for allowing me to feel so safe with Ashley." 1277 01:00:15,153 --> 01:00:16,904 "I ask that you watch over us 1278 01:00:16,988 --> 01:00:19,490 as we continue to grow and create an unbreakable bond." 1279 01:00:19,574 --> 01:00:22,076 "And thank you for showing me what love can truly feel like." 1280 01:00:22,160 --> 01:00:25,330 "I am truly blessed, and I just wanna say thank you." 1281 01:00:25,413 --> 01:00:27,540 -"In your precious name, I pray. Amen." -[Ashley A] Oof! 1282 01:00:29,292 --> 01:00:30,918 Amen. Oh, my gosh. 1283 01:00:31,002 --> 01:00:32,170 That's so sweet. 1284 01:00:32,253 --> 01:00:33,755 Yeah, I was, you know… 1285 01:00:33,838 --> 01:00:35,381 So sweet. Oh, my gosh. 1286 01:00:35,465 --> 01:00:38,801 So, yeah, we can eat. Let's eat this food. It looks good. 1287 01:00:38,885 --> 01:00:40,386 I'm, like, emotional. I'm sorry. Ooh! 1288 01:00:42,138 --> 01:00:43,723 [Tyler] There's no right way to pray, 1289 01:00:43,806 --> 01:00:46,184 but I've always been scared to, like, pray out loud. 1290 01:00:46,267 --> 01:00:49,020 I just wanna, like, have a relationship moving forward 1291 01:00:49,103 --> 01:00:51,606 where we're able to comfortably talk and pray with each other. 1292 01:00:51,689 --> 01:00:53,066 [Ashley A] Mm-mm-mm! 1293 01:00:53,149 --> 01:00:54,776 -Here we go. Mm-hmm. -[Ashley A laughs] 1294 01:00:54,859 --> 01:00:58,404 My faith has gotten me through so many different things that, like… 1295 01:00:58,488 --> 01:01:00,615 I've never really had someone that I could pray with. 1296 01:01:00,698 --> 01:01:02,992 [Tyler] I never experienced this feeling ever. 1297 01:01:03,076 --> 01:01:05,870 Before I got here, I never needed to feel safe. 1298 01:01:05,953 --> 01:01:09,999 Then after, like, being here with you, like, I feel safe that I can talk to you, 1299 01:01:10,500 --> 01:01:13,211 express my past, and not feel judged. 1300 01:01:14,587 --> 01:01:18,049 That we can, like, have a conversation and it not be an argument. 1301 01:01:18,132 --> 01:01:20,468 Like, I feel comfortable doing that moving forward. 1302 01:01:20,551 --> 01:01:23,388 I love that you're consistent. You felt sincere right away. 1303 01:01:23,471 --> 01:01:25,014 You didn't show up as anyone else. 1304 01:01:25,098 --> 01:01:27,183 You just showed up, like, "Hey, I'm sorry." 1305 01:01:27,266 --> 01:01:29,644 "Like, I'm fucking nervous. This is who I am." 1306 01:01:29,727 --> 01:01:33,523 I was telling the guys too. I was like, "I have no clue what she looks like." 1307 01:01:33,606 --> 01:01:36,192 -Nope, sure don't. -[Tyler] Yeah, and I do not give a fuck. 1308 01:01:36,275 --> 01:01:37,985 Like, I know how I feel. 1309 01:01:38,069 --> 01:01:43,032 And whoever I end up seeing, that's gonna be my roll dog from now on. 1310 01:01:43,116 --> 01:01:44,283 [chuckles] Love that. 1311 01:01:44,367 --> 01:01:46,160 [Tyler] You ready to listen to some music? 1312 01:01:46,244 --> 01:01:47,578 -I am. -[Tyler] Yeah. 1313 01:01:47,662 --> 01:01:49,455 [Ashley A] I have an eclectic musical palate. 1314 01:01:49,539 --> 01:01:52,333 Listen to a little country, a little alternative. 1315 01:01:52,417 --> 01:01:56,045 '90s and early 2000s R&B is my favorite. 1316 01:01:56,129 --> 01:01:58,548 This is, like, when people weren't afraid to talk about love. 1317 01:01:58,631 --> 01:02:01,634 I love that. But just know this, some of my songs are embarrassing. 1318 01:02:01,718 --> 01:02:03,469 -[Tyler] No, me too. -All right, I'm ready. 1319 01:02:03,553 --> 01:02:05,012 Okay, here we go. 1320 01:02:05,096 --> 01:02:07,765 ["Steep" by Jordyn playing] 1321 01:02:08,474 --> 01:02:12,687 ♪ They say to find somebody That'll fill your cup ♪ 1322 01:02:14,939 --> 01:02:19,318 ♪ My heart's spilled over Now, my mind's made up ♪ 1323 01:02:20,069 --> 01:02:24,824 ♪ It's how I know How I know, how I know it's us… ♪ 1324 01:02:25,366 --> 01:02:27,785 [Ashley A] Oh, my God, I love this song! 1325 01:02:31,456 --> 01:02:33,499 -Are you listening? -Yeah. 1326 01:02:36,210 --> 01:02:37,295 I really love you. 1327 01:02:38,588 --> 01:02:40,757 I want you to know you're safe, and you're protected. 1328 01:02:40,840 --> 01:02:44,010 [music continues] 1329 01:02:46,053 --> 01:02:47,722 No matter what happens here… 1330 01:02:50,850 --> 01:02:52,560 I'm going to always have you. 1331 01:02:53,561 --> 01:02:55,313 I got your back for life. 1332 01:02:55,396 --> 01:02:58,524 ♪ Sometimes when hearts are healing ♪ 1333 01:02:58,608 --> 01:03:01,986 ♪ You go slow, can't rush the feeling ♪ 1334 01:03:02,653 --> 01:03:04,822 ♪ Are you ready? ♪ 1335 01:03:07,784 --> 01:03:10,369 ♪ It's a ladder, steep ♪ 1336 01:03:11,871 --> 01:03:13,372 -You okay? -[Ashley A] Yeah. 1337 01:03:13,998 --> 01:03:16,542 [sniffles] Oh, man. 1338 01:03:18,002 --> 01:03:20,296 Crazy, crazy, crazy, crazy. 1339 01:03:20,880 --> 01:03:22,048 Smell the blanket. 1340 01:03:22,131 --> 01:03:24,133 -[laughs, sniffles] -[Tyler] That's me hugging you. 1341 01:03:25,301 --> 01:03:26,511 [exhales] 1342 01:03:27,261 --> 01:03:29,680 -Wipe the tears up with my blanket. -[both laugh] 1343 01:03:30,807 --> 01:03:33,434 And I'm, like, not a crier at all. I just, like… 1344 01:03:33,518 --> 01:03:35,228 No, I can tell. Trust me. 1345 01:03:35,311 --> 01:03:36,938 [laughs] 1346 01:03:37,522 --> 01:03:38,731 What's going through your head? 1347 01:03:38,815 --> 01:03:39,982 [exhales] 1348 01:03:40,733 --> 01:03:44,320 It's just everything I want long-term, you know, 1349 01:03:44,403 --> 01:03:46,405 that I feel I could have here. 1350 01:03:47,114 --> 01:03:47,949 [sniffles] 1351 01:03:48,032 --> 01:03:51,369 You can have it. You see that little blue moving wall? 1352 01:03:51,452 --> 01:03:53,162 [Ashley A sighs] 1353 01:03:53,246 --> 01:03:54,956 It's on the other side. 1354 01:03:55,039 --> 01:03:56,666 [Ashley A] Mm-mm-mm. 1355 01:03:57,416 --> 01:03:59,210 Oh, Tyler, Tyler, Tyler. 1356 01:03:59,293 --> 01:04:01,462 [Tyler] Ashley, Ashley, Ashley. 1357 01:04:01,963 --> 01:04:05,341 Who knew? Ooh! Who knew that would happen today? 1358 01:04:05,424 --> 01:04:06,551 I didn't. 1359 01:04:06,634 --> 01:04:07,593 [Ashley A] Mm-hmm. 1360 01:04:07,677 --> 01:04:11,347 [Tyler] I promise you, I don't care what's on the other side of that wall. 1361 01:04:11,430 --> 01:04:13,724 -[sniffles] -[Tyler] Like, 100%. 1362 01:04:14,225 --> 01:04:16,352 'Cause we gettin' married. [laughs] 1363 01:04:16,435 --> 01:04:17,311 [laughs] 1364 01:04:17,395 --> 01:04:18,604 ["Rich with Love" playing] 1365 01:04:19,188 --> 01:04:20,147 [laughs] 1366 01:04:24,235 --> 01:04:26,279 I'm, like, so emotional. I'm about to cry. 1367 01:04:26,362 --> 01:04:27,530 In a good way. 1368 01:04:27,613 --> 01:04:31,576 He literally wrote down a prayer, like a blessing over our dynamic. 1369 01:04:31,659 --> 01:04:35,162 -He loves you. -And our future and, like, trust. 1370 01:04:35,246 --> 01:04:36,998 -And, like… -[chuckles] 1371 01:04:37,081 --> 01:04:39,292 And I'm in there, like, "Is this a dream or something?" 1372 01:04:39,375 --> 01:04:41,627 -What's happening? -"This has got to be a dream." 1373 01:04:42,587 --> 01:04:44,881 -He's a good man. He loves you. -[Ashley A] God. 1374 01:04:44,964 --> 01:04:47,425 -I'm so happy for you! -This is, like, nuts! 1375 01:04:47,508 --> 01:04:49,343 ♪ I'm rich with love… ♪ 1376 01:04:49,427 --> 01:04:51,053 Oh, God. 1377 01:04:51,137 --> 01:04:52,847 Stroll of a man in love. 1378 01:04:52,930 --> 01:04:54,265 ♪ You gotta pick me up ♪ 1379 01:04:54,348 --> 01:04:57,727 [vocalizing] 1380 01:04:57,810 --> 01:05:00,146 ♪ I'm rich with love ♪ 1381 01:05:07,737 --> 01:05:12,450 The desire to be loved on the inside was something that I really wanted, 1382 01:05:12,533 --> 01:05:14,911 but I didn't want a potential husband. 1383 01:05:15,953 --> 01:05:21,751 I didn't need a husband, but what I really wanted was a soulmate. 1384 01:05:24,587 --> 01:05:26,881 [Garrett] I've never felt this way in my entire life. 1385 01:05:26,964 --> 01:05:29,175 It's… [laughs] 1386 01:05:29,258 --> 01:05:31,886 It's indescribable and unprecedented. 1387 01:05:31,969 --> 01:05:33,304 It's amazing. It's… 1388 01:05:33,387 --> 01:05:37,975 [laughs] I mean, I melt every time I hear her voice, and it's just-- I just… 1389 01:05:39,352 --> 01:05:40,227 [exhales] 1390 01:05:40,895 --> 01:05:45,858 It's really hard to describe how incredible I feel when I'm with her. 1391 01:05:46,817 --> 01:05:50,446 [exhales] Taylor is brilliant. She's caring. 1392 01:05:50,529 --> 01:05:53,282 She's thoughtful. She's passionate. 1393 01:05:53,366 --> 01:05:54,325 Um… 1394 01:05:55,993 --> 01:05:59,413 She's very, very sweet, and she's very… 1395 01:06:00,122 --> 01:06:01,040 [exhales] 1396 01:06:01,123 --> 01:06:04,919 Everything that she's saying just feels very real to me. 1397 01:06:06,170 --> 01:06:07,338 This is so wild. 1398 01:06:07,838 --> 01:06:10,299 To know the person that Taylor is 1399 01:06:10,925 --> 01:06:12,802 and how amazing she is 1400 01:06:13,970 --> 01:06:16,806 and feeling that she feels the same way for me is just… 1401 01:06:18,307 --> 01:06:19,600 it's-- it's incredible. 1402 01:06:22,061 --> 01:06:23,980 [Taylor] I've been very diligent 1403 01:06:24,063 --> 01:06:27,441 about making sure that I don't share anything about how I look. 1404 01:06:29,026 --> 01:06:33,489 [laughing] I'm obviously very excited to see what he thinks I look like. 1405 01:06:33,572 --> 01:06:35,866 I keep forgetting that's a bit, a part of it. 1406 01:06:35,950 --> 01:06:38,953 Last night, I started being like, "Oh, my God." 1407 01:06:39,036 --> 01:06:42,456 Today, I'm starting to get the nerves. 1408 01:06:44,792 --> 01:06:46,919 But I'm really excited about seeing him. 1409 01:06:47,003 --> 01:06:49,588 And I don't think it matters what we look like. 1410 01:06:49,672 --> 01:06:53,634 When I made the decision to not share my mom's name, 1411 01:06:53,718 --> 01:06:57,596 because that gave away a bit of my ethnicity, 1412 01:06:57,680 --> 01:07:00,891 to then have Garrett reach a point where he feels that 1413 01:07:00,975 --> 01:07:05,646 the inside parts of me and what makes Taylor is more than enough. 1414 01:07:05,730 --> 01:07:10,401 To have Garrett make me feel the way that I do is incredible. 1415 01:07:11,068 --> 01:07:12,778 And I'm so excited. [laughs] 1416 01:07:16,407 --> 01:07:19,493 [Garrett] Nobody gets engaged this way. There's no way to replicate it. 1417 01:07:19,577 --> 01:07:21,704 Before coming here, I was at a point in my life 1418 01:07:21,787 --> 01:07:26,876 where I didn't think that I was ever going to find the one for me. 1419 01:07:26,959 --> 01:07:28,878 I wasn't able to find someone 1420 01:07:28,961 --> 01:07:31,964 that I connected with so deeply and so passionately. 1421 01:07:32,048 --> 01:07:33,174 And 1422 01:07:34,967 --> 01:07:36,010 now I have. 1423 01:07:36,719 --> 01:07:37,720 [clears throat] 1424 01:07:37,803 --> 01:07:41,515 Taylor and I have remained very strict in not talking about appearances. 1425 01:07:41,599 --> 01:07:43,392 So, uh, she knows I'm white. 1426 01:07:43,476 --> 01:07:46,687 She has nothing else on me other than that, and I have nothing on her. 1427 01:07:47,396 --> 01:07:49,440 I hadn't thought about it until this moment, 1428 01:07:49,523 --> 01:07:52,985 but not knowing Taylor's ethnicity doesn't concern me. 1429 01:07:53,069 --> 01:07:57,406 It's as if this experiment forces us to do exactly what marriage is intended for. 1430 01:07:57,490 --> 01:08:01,744 It's for us to marry one another for the people that we are, not how we look. 1431 01:08:01,827 --> 01:08:03,412 And I believe that 1432 01:08:04,371 --> 01:08:06,165 my love for Taylor 1433 01:08:06,248 --> 01:08:09,085 is so strong that it won't matter what she looks like. 1434 01:08:09,168 --> 01:08:10,961 [dramatic music playing] 1435 01:08:25,101 --> 01:08:27,853 -["Will You Catch Me" playing] -♪ Oh, no, I can't control this feeling ♪ 1436 01:08:27,937 --> 01:08:31,357 ♪ Yeah, it's like I'm suffocating breathing ♪ 1437 01:08:31,440 --> 01:08:33,859 ♪ I just wanna know-oh-oh-oh! ♪ 1438 01:08:33,943 --> 01:08:38,614 ♪ Oh-oh-oh-oh-oh-oh-oh-oh! ♪ 1439 01:08:38,697 --> 01:08:40,866 ♪ So intoxicating ♪ 1440 01:08:40,950 --> 01:08:43,869 ♪ Think I am addicted to your favor ♪ 1441 01:08:43,953 --> 01:08:46,872 ♪ I just wanna know-oh-oh-oh! ♪ 1442 01:08:46,956 --> 01:08:51,293 ♪ Oh-oh-oh-oh-oh-oh-oh-oh! ♪ 1443 01:08:51,377 --> 01:08:53,879 ♪ So intoxicating ♪ 1444 01:08:53,963 --> 01:08:57,883 ♪ I just wanna know-oh-oh-oh-oh-oh… ♪ 1445 01:08:57,967 --> 01:08:59,885 ♪ Oh-oh-oh-oh! ♪ 1446 01:08:59,969 --> 01:09:01,512 ♪ Will you catch me ♪