1 00:00:06,005 --> 00:00:08,717 {\an8}♪ You look good Yeah, I see you in the paper ♪ 2 00:00:08,717 --> 00:00:10,593 {\an8}♪ So fire Keep impressing all the neighbors ♪ 3 00:00:10,593 --> 00:00:12,887 {\an8}♪ Bang, bang, bang, like a freighter ♪ 4 00:00:16,683 --> 00:00:20,186 {\an8}Today, we are going to see each other's places. 5 00:00:20,186 --> 00:00:21,771 Okay. This is me. 6 00:00:21,771 --> 00:00:23,189 - Is this you? - It's me. 7 00:00:23,189 --> 00:00:25,442 For him to see my place, I'm like, 8 00:00:25,442 --> 00:00:29,154 "Oh, my gosh, he's gonna, like, see my closet." It's very clean. 9 00:00:29,154 --> 00:00:30,780 I'm super clean, 10 00:00:30,780 --> 00:00:33,241 but also I haven't been there in three weeks. 11 00:00:33,241 --> 00:00:37,954 So if there's a little dust bunny, like, is he gonna call off the wedding? 12 00:00:37,954 --> 00:00:39,581 Like, what? 13 00:00:40,165 --> 00:00:42,667 {\an8}- Isn't it cute? - I like it. It's really homey. 14 00:00:42,667 --> 00:00:43,752 Look in my room! 15 00:00:43,752 --> 00:00:47,881 Okay, you're clean and organized, but you have stuff in random spots. 16 00:00:49,090 --> 00:00:51,885 {\an8}Hello! 17 00:00:52,802 --> 00:00:55,180 - Hello! - Hello, I'm Jimmy. Nice to meet you. 18 00:00:55,180 --> 00:00:57,891 I'm Tiffany. Nice to meet you guys! 19 00:00:57,891 --> 00:00:59,559 I got some cham-pag-ne. 20 00:00:59,559 --> 00:01:01,269 {\an8}Should we pop it or what? 21 00:01:01,269 --> 00:01:03,313 {\an8}- Yeah! - Yeah! Let's do it! 22 00:01:03,313 --> 00:01:05,231 Okay, ready? 23 00:01:07,442 --> 00:01:10,779 Yay! Cheers to you! New family! 24 00:01:11,946 --> 00:01:14,574 So now what? Are you moving in? 25 00:01:15,492 --> 00:01:18,286 Are you gonna be the third best friend? 26 00:01:18,870 --> 00:01:22,165 I live through Chelsea, so I'm married too, you guys. 27 00:01:22,165 --> 00:01:24,626 {\an8}Her roommate might be a little too much. 28 00:01:24,626 --> 00:01:26,127 I could not live here. 29 00:01:27,420 --> 00:01:29,297 Not a chance. 30 00:01:29,798 --> 00:01:32,801 {\an8}- This is nice, babe! - This is my spot. 31 00:01:32,801 --> 00:01:34,094 It smells good. 32 00:01:34,094 --> 00:01:35,678 Look at you! 33 00:01:35,678 --> 00:01:37,764 - Dive in. - Babe, you said it was small. 34 00:01:37,764 --> 00:01:39,140 This is huge! 35 00:01:39,140 --> 00:01:41,935 I mean... small for two people. 36 00:01:41,935 --> 00:01:44,062 Oh, my God! 37 00:01:44,062 --> 00:01:46,731 You have laundry in your closet? 38 00:01:47,524 --> 00:01:48,858 I am shocked. 39 00:01:50,110 --> 00:01:52,153 You gotta understand that when I have meetings, 40 00:01:52,153 --> 00:01:53,446 we don't have another room. 41 00:01:53,446 --> 00:01:55,824 I would love for you to live here, but that's an obstacle. 42 00:01:55,824 --> 00:01:58,910 You would just have to go on a walk every time I have a meeting. 43 00:01:59,494 --> 00:02:01,538 I'm gonna be so fit. 44 00:02:02,163 --> 00:02:03,957 You like my place though? 45 00:02:03,957 --> 00:02:07,043 I love it. I really like it. You can't live with me. 46 00:02:07,043 --> 00:02:10,380 We could just tell my roommate to kick rocks, but... 47 00:02:10,380 --> 00:02:12,173 I guess we're moving in here. 48 00:02:12,173 --> 00:02:13,842 Hell yeah! 49 00:02:14,467 --> 00:02:16,886 I love you. - Love you. 50 00:02:16,886 --> 00:02:20,390 ♪ You got me with my head in the clouds ♪ 51 00:02:20,390 --> 00:02:22,142 ♪ Can't stop me, can't stop me ♪ 52 00:02:22,142 --> 00:02:27,021 ♪ I... I... I won't stop grooving to it ♪ 53 00:02:27,021 --> 00:02:30,942 {\an8}♪ We are cruisin' ♪ 54 00:02:31,526 --> 00:02:32,944 {\an8}- This is it? - This is it! 55 00:02:32,944 --> 00:02:36,990 Oh, not you covering the code. Wow! Okay. Excuse me. 56 00:02:36,990 --> 00:02:38,908 - You can see it. - I won't look. 57 00:02:38,908 --> 00:02:40,743 I got this home in 2021. 58 00:02:40,743 --> 00:02:44,414 {\an8}I really love it. Uh, it's my sanctuary. It's my place where it's my peace. 59 00:02:44,414 --> 00:02:46,958 This is spacious. 60 00:02:46,958 --> 00:02:50,461 {\an8}- This is where I'm always at watching TV. - You love some TV. 61 00:02:50,461 --> 00:02:52,463 You know what I mean? - Uh-huh. 62 00:02:52,463 --> 00:02:56,176 I like the quietness of it, but it would be nice to have someone in the house. 63 00:02:56,176 --> 00:02:57,719 And I think it's family-ready. 64 00:02:57,719 --> 00:03:01,097 So, you know, I definitely see a future where she's moved in. 65 00:03:01,097 --> 00:03:04,642 I think that would be a beautiful thing. So hopefully, she's open to it. 66 00:03:04,642 --> 00:03:06,769 Oh, my gosh, is this your vision... 67 00:03:06,769 --> 00:03:08,897 That's my vision board, yeah. 68 00:03:09,522 --> 00:03:11,816 I have to show you mine! Yeah? Yeah? 69 00:03:11,816 --> 00:03:13,860 Yeah, it's actually on my phone. 70 00:03:13,860 --> 00:03:16,529 - Really? Yep, yep, yep. - Oh, my gosh. 71 00:03:16,529 --> 00:03:17,947 Yeah, got a little jet ski stuff. 72 00:03:17,947 --> 00:03:20,909 You know, spend time with people who are good for your mental health, 73 00:03:20,909 --> 00:03:22,660 which I'm all about, you know. 74 00:03:23,578 --> 00:03:26,372 You know, I got a little love in there. Yep. Know what I mean? 75 00:03:26,372 --> 00:03:29,417 - Boy manifested it! I ain't even know it. - Period! Yes! 76 00:03:29,417 --> 00:03:32,128 Some books. Yeah, some books, yeah. 77 00:03:32,128 --> 00:03:33,046 - Yeah. - Mm-hmm. 78 00:03:33,046 --> 00:03:35,256 Did you read all these or these are decorations? 79 00:03:35,256 --> 00:03:37,383 No, no, I read some of 'em. Yeah. - Okay. 80 00:03:37,383 --> 00:03:38,760 This is my bedroom. 81 00:03:38,760 --> 00:03:39,761 Okay. 82 00:03:39,761 --> 00:03:40,887 Yeah, this. 83 00:03:42,096 --> 00:03:43,264 - Okay. - What you think? 84 00:03:43,264 --> 00:03:45,850 - Comfortable. Cozy. - Comfortable. Okay. Yep, yep, yep. 85 00:03:46,434 --> 00:03:49,646 - The pillow game needs some work. - The pillow game needs some work. 86 00:03:49,646 --> 00:03:53,024 - Mm-hmm. Yeah. Yep, yeah. - That's okay. That's easy to work with. 87 00:03:53,024 --> 00:03:56,069 You got a silk pillowcase, so I'm impressed. 88 00:03:56,069 --> 00:03:58,321 Mm-hmm. Mm-hmm. I'll put it on your side, for sure. 89 00:03:58,321 --> 00:04:00,198 I'm impressed. I'll take the L. 90 00:04:00,198 --> 00:04:03,451 - What's this one? "All American." - That's my jersey. 91 00:04:03,451 --> 00:04:06,287 Hall of fame jersey after I graduated, yep, yep, made All-American. 92 00:04:06,287 --> 00:04:08,831 - Okay! I see you. - Oh, yeah. 93 00:04:08,831 --> 00:04:11,334 Hell yeah. I mean, yeah. 94 00:04:12,502 --> 00:04:14,462 Look at you. Look at me, man. 95 00:04:14,462 --> 00:04:17,632 I still feel like I could beat you in a race. Yeah. 96 00:04:17,632 --> 00:04:19,968 I want somebody to bet on it. I would take the money. 97 00:04:19,968 --> 00:04:20,885 I'll bet on it. 98 00:04:20,885 --> 00:04:24,597 Oh, cute! Oh, my gosh! 99 00:04:24,597 --> 00:04:26,599 - Color coordinated. - I can wear your clothes! 100 00:04:26,599 --> 00:04:28,726 I love your style. 101 00:04:28,726 --> 00:04:32,105 It's like a vintage store in here. Yeah, yeah, so what you think? 102 00:04:32,105 --> 00:04:33,272 I mean, I'm impressed. 103 00:04:33,272 --> 00:04:35,525 - You're impressed? - I am impressed. 104 00:04:36,359 --> 00:04:37,485 It's definitely... 105 00:04:37,485 --> 00:04:40,196 - Needs a woman's touch. - Yeah, yeah, yeah. 106 00:04:40,196 --> 00:04:44,033 Glad I don't see a woman's touch. - So what you thinking? 107 00:04:44,033 --> 00:04:45,910 Like, "I could fit the bill"? 108 00:04:45,910 --> 00:04:48,454 At the end of the day, I'm already paying for this mortgage. 109 00:04:48,454 --> 00:04:50,415 So you just hop right in. 110 00:04:50,415 --> 00:04:52,458 I think could see myself in here. 111 00:04:52,458 --> 00:04:54,502 - Ain't gotta tell me twice. - Ain't gotta tell you? 112 00:04:54,502 --> 00:04:55,420 Nope. 113 00:04:55,420 --> 00:04:57,380 I'm so proud of him in this house. 114 00:04:57,380 --> 00:05:00,842 {\an8}I can definitely see myself raising a family here and having kids 115 00:05:00,842 --> 00:05:04,595 and cooking breakfast and making it work, for sure. 116 00:05:05,096 --> 00:05:07,265 - You'd want me to move in here? - Oh, of course. 117 00:05:07,265 --> 00:05:08,808 - Really? - Of course. Hell yeah. 118 00:05:08,808 --> 00:05:11,019 Like, I need your woman's touch. That's what I'm saying. 119 00:05:11,019 --> 00:05:13,438 Like, kind of let me know what you see. 120 00:05:13,438 --> 00:05:15,982 Like, tell me where you could add your little splash to it. 121 00:05:15,982 --> 00:05:19,360 We definitely gotta, you know, make it kid-friendly, you know. 122 00:05:19,360 --> 00:05:23,114 Honestly, if we have a kid, like, you know, we definitely got room. 123 00:05:23,114 --> 00:05:25,908 I could see myself in here. 124 00:05:25,908 --> 00:05:27,327 - Yeah? - Yeah. 125 00:05:27,994 --> 00:05:29,203 Fun! 126 00:05:29,203 --> 00:05:32,373 Oh, yeah. Of course, of course. Come here. 127 00:05:32,373 --> 00:05:33,750 - Okay. - Come cuddle with me. 128 00:05:38,796 --> 00:05:39,797 That's crazy. 129 00:05:39,797 --> 00:05:44,552 ♪ Okay, all right, we'll be just fine ♪ 130 00:05:48,931 --> 00:05:50,600 Are you terrified to see my house? 131 00:05:51,517 --> 00:05:53,895 {\an8}- I'm sure it'll be very tidy. - It is very tidy. 132 00:05:54,562 --> 00:05:57,607 All right, moment of truth. So you can judge me on my living situation. 133 00:05:57,607 --> 00:06:02,195 Of course, you have a whole-ass... 134 00:06:02,195 --> 00:06:04,447 Why not? This is why I wanted to have a house. 135 00:06:04,447 --> 00:06:06,657 - How much time do you spend here? - Every day. 136 00:06:06,783 --> 00:06:08,242 - Every day? - Literally every day. 137 00:06:08,242 --> 00:06:10,578 What do you do in winter? Out here. 138 00:06:10,578 --> 00:06:11,954 Oh, what is this? Cute! 139 00:06:11,954 --> 00:06:15,041 I don't know. In the pods, we talked about, I didn't go to college. 140 00:06:15,041 --> 00:06:17,585 I kind of just went the business route instead. 141 00:06:17,585 --> 00:06:20,838 So back home, our local newspaper did, like, 142 00:06:20,838 --> 00:06:23,174 a newspaper article about me on my first places. 143 00:06:23,966 --> 00:06:25,301 I talked about my dad. 144 00:06:25,301 --> 00:06:28,179 I didn't realize that was gonna be, like, the last picture we took. 145 00:06:28,971 --> 00:06:31,015 - I told you I used to have long hair. - Yeah. 146 00:06:31,015 --> 00:06:33,601 It's like down to my shoulders. It is really long. 147 00:06:33,601 --> 00:06:36,020 - You don't want me to grow it back out? - I mean... 148 00:06:36,020 --> 00:06:38,356 I'm gonna hold back my comments. 149 00:06:38,356 --> 00:06:41,484 I can... Oh, why? You're such-- you're such a good roaster. 150 00:06:41,484 --> 00:06:42,777 That's cute. 151 00:06:42,777 --> 00:06:44,195 - Can I open? - Open the door. 152 00:06:44,779 --> 00:06:47,782 So, first impressions, it is very clean. 153 00:06:49,117 --> 00:06:51,702 I'm not kidding how, like, OCD I am about things. 154 00:06:51,702 --> 00:06:53,830 Is this from your mom? - It is. 155 00:06:54,414 --> 00:06:56,416 Wait, why is she so cute? 156 00:06:58,126 --> 00:07:00,461 "I am so happy for you both." 157 00:07:00,461 --> 00:07:02,755 Not the heart for an "O"! 158 00:07:02,755 --> 00:07:06,843 "Isn't it amazing how one little word can be the start of something so wonderful?" 159 00:07:06,843 --> 00:07:12,431 "Congrats on your engagement. Much love and merry, happy days ahead." 160 00:07:13,015 --> 00:07:14,100 "Many happy days." 161 00:07:14,100 --> 00:07:15,435 "Many." 162 00:07:16,102 --> 00:07:17,228 Cute kitchen. 163 00:07:17,228 --> 00:07:19,772 This is really cute silverware. Yeah. 164 00:07:19,772 --> 00:07:21,774 Should I be concerned? No! 165 00:07:21,774 --> 00:07:24,777 I've never met a guy that would pick out cute silverware. 166 00:07:24,777 --> 00:07:27,947 I even keep up with, like, the matching, like, kitchen utensils. 167 00:07:29,448 --> 00:07:30,867 It looks staged. 168 00:07:30,867 --> 00:07:34,078 I live very minimally. Sorry! 169 00:07:34,078 --> 00:07:38,040 {\an8}In the pods, Jeramey and I did talk quite a bit about, like, cleanliness, 170 00:07:38,040 --> 00:07:39,208 {\an8}living styles. 171 00:07:39,208 --> 00:07:40,877 {\an8}He said his house was immaculate. 172 00:07:40,877 --> 00:07:42,587 I kind of just laughed it off as like, 173 00:07:42,587 --> 00:07:45,214 "Yeah, right. Every guy kind of says that." 174 00:07:45,798 --> 00:07:51,679 Now that I've seen Jeramey's house, I feel surprised and, like, relieved. 175 00:07:52,388 --> 00:07:54,390 - I mean, it's a really nice kitchen. - Yeah. 176 00:07:54,390 --> 00:07:55,516 It's cute. 177 00:07:55,516 --> 00:07:58,311 I didn't know guys like this existed. 178 00:07:58,311 --> 00:08:01,647 A lot of guys say that "they're clean" or say that "they're tidy." 179 00:08:02,565 --> 00:08:04,317 He's, like, next level. 180 00:08:04,317 --> 00:08:06,569 - Why is it all so, like, oddly... - Organized? 181 00:08:06,569 --> 00:08:08,362 ...like, brought up to the front? 182 00:08:08,362 --> 00:08:11,282 Because I make sure all the labels are turned out when I open my doors. 183 00:08:11,282 --> 00:08:13,784 You win. You're gonna win for sure. 184 00:08:13,784 --> 00:08:18,289 You're putting my, like, organization stuff to shame. 185 00:08:18,873 --> 00:08:22,126 Yeah. Yeah. Christ, this is really clean. 186 00:08:22,126 --> 00:08:26,380 Wow, it's kind of serial killer a little bit, giving serial killer vibes, 187 00:08:26,380 --> 00:08:29,175 but, like, in a good way. 188 00:08:29,175 --> 00:08:31,928 You've gotta test the bed. That is important. You gotta lay down. 189 00:08:31,928 --> 00:08:33,012 Tell me what you think. 190 00:08:33,012 --> 00:08:34,722 - Should I jump on it, like...? - Yeah! 191 00:08:36,557 --> 00:08:37,850 Yeah, this is great. 192 00:08:39,810 --> 00:08:41,687 And my CPAP! 193 00:08:42,980 --> 00:08:44,649 Let me see how it works. 194 00:08:44,649 --> 00:08:47,235 So you, like, slip it on. 195 00:08:47,235 --> 00:08:48,986 - Wow. - Yeah. 196 00:08:48,986 --> 00:08:50,321 Hey. 197 00:08:50,321 --> 00:08:53,032 But you'll-- but you don't make any sound? 198 00:08:53,032 --> 00:08:55,409 - No, it's done. - Confirmed by other people? 199 00:08:55,409 --> 00:08:56,827 - Yeah. - Okay. 200 00:08:56,827 --> 00:08:59,247 It's like a big elephant's trunk. 201 00:08:59,247 --> 00:09:01,874 I'll just go to bed before you for the rest of our lives. 202 00:09:01,874 --> 00:09:03,584 So you don't see it? 203 00:09:03,584 --> 00:09:04,627 It's okay. 204 00:09:04,627 --> 00:09:05,836 I love it. 205 00:09:05,836 --> 00:09:08,172 Lay down. Let's see what it would be like. 206 00:09:08,172 --> 00:09:09,549 So we're gonna lay down. 207 00:09:10,550 --> 00:09:13,344 I love that you, like, sound like Squidward with it on. 208 00:09:16,013 --> 00:09:18,224 - Sexy, right? Love it? - Yeah, it's hot. 209 00:09:18,224 --> 00:09:22,895 ♪ Come on and move in closer now ♪ 210 00:09:22,895 --> 00:09:27,191 ♪ Risking and hoping for it all ♪ 211 00:09:27,191 --> 00:09:28,401 Refrigerator. 212 00:09:31,696 --> 00:09:33,155 {\an8}Oh, my God! 213 00:09:33,864 --> 00:09:36,242 How do you survive? 214 00:09:36,242 --> 00:09:39,912 {\an8}Baby, you need somebody to cook for you. 215 00:09:39,912 --> 00:09:42,790 {\an8}- And you see, I have a whole... - We need some meal preps in here. 216 00:09:42,790 --> 00:09:45,793 ...air fryer. Never used it before. 217 00:09:45,793 --> 00:09:48,421 Is there any-- okay, this is a little better. 218 00:09:48,421 --> 00:09:52,258 Yep. Yeah. Oh, my God. Such a dude. 219 00:09:52,258 --> 00:09:56,429 {\an8}Although, yes, we had an emotional and spiritual connection within the pods, 220 00:09:56,429 --> 00:09:58,431 like, I could not see his body language. 221 00:09:58,431 --> 00:10:04,395 Granted, I have only been with Ken in person for a few days now. 222 00:10:04,395 --> 00:10:06,856 This is my spice cabinet. 223 00:10:08,649 --> 00:10:10,901 It's just, you know, he has his introverted moments. 224 00:10:10,901 --> 00:10:13,195 - Oh, it's so big. - Yeah. 225 00:10:13,696 --> 00:10:17,033 I don't know. Maybe I could be reading into it too much. 226 00:10:17,033 --> 00:10:20,578 Um, you know, we did talk about, like, how I have a tendency of overanalyzing, 227 00:10:20,578 --> 00:10:23,122 and that is something that I have noticed. 228 00:10:23,122 --> 00:10:26,584 And I think over time, like, I'll better understand that, like, 229 00:10:26,584 --> 00:10:30,004 when he is taking his moment, like, maybe he just needs that time, 230 00:10:30,004 --> 00:10:32,256 but, like, he's not upset, like, everything's okay. 231 00:10:33,758 --> 00:10:35,593 So you've seen everything. 232 00:10:35,593 --> 00:10:36,719 I like it. 233 00:10:36,719 --> 00:10:39,388 - I'm impressed. Yeah. - Thank you, babe. 234 00:10:43,934 --> 00:10:45,645 Um, how you feeling? 235 00:10:46,729 --> 00:10:49,815 - 'Cause I'm ecstatic, but how are you? - Um... 236 00:10:51,651 --> 00:10:52,651 I'm excited. 237 00:10:52,651 --> 00:10:55,071 I'm excited for the real world. 238 00:10:55,071 --> 00:10:58,699 I believe that there, always in life, has to be a balance. 239 00:11:01,827 --> 00:11:04,455 When we were in the Dominican Republic, like, 240 00:11:04,455 --> 00:11:09,377 you still had a sense of, like, peace and happiness overlaying you. 241 00:11:09,377 --> 00:11:10,336 Mm-hmm. 242 00:11:10,336 --> 00:11:15,966 Whereas, truthfully, here it seems like a distance, 243 00:11:16,675 --> 00:11:18,052 which is fine. 244 00:11:18,052 --> 00:11:19,553 However, it does not-- 245 00:11:19,553 --> 00:11:24,642 you do not have that sense of, like, peace and, like, just relaxation over you. 246 00:11:25,226 --> 00:11:27,103 Like this morning when we woke up. 247 00:11:27,103 --> 00:11:29,480 - And I'm, like, super excited. - Mm-hmm. Mm-hmm. 248 00:11:29,480 --> 00:11:31,023 And I smile at you, and I'm like, 249 00:11:31,023 --> 00:11:34,527 "Good morning, baby!" And you rolled over, you're like, "Hey." 250 00:11:34,527 --> 00:11:35,903 Mm-hmm. 251 00:11:36,695 --> 00:11:38,823 And I was like, "Damn." - Here's the thing. 252 00:11:38,823 --> 00:11:41,701 That's why I say it's very overly analyzed, 253 00:11:41,701 --> 00:11:44,954 because every night that we spent together, 254 00:11:44,954 --> 00:11:46,455 I haven't been that way. 255 00:11:46,455 --> 00:11:49,125 When I have these moments that are not, like, the "big personality" 256 00:11:49,125 --> 00:11:51,585 or just, like, the really just overly, like... 257 00:11:52,378 --> 00:11:54,004 What is gonna be the grace that I'm given? 258 00:11:54,004 --> 00:11:56,966 Because you're not gonna always show up when... 259 00:11:56,966 --> 00:12:01,220 How, like, speeches and "Good morning!" That's not always gonna be you. 260 00:12:01,220 --> 00:12:04,181 So do I get a chance? Am I supposed to just be like... 261 00:12:04,181 --> 00:12:06,726 - Right, right, right. -"Oh, for real?" 262 00:12:06,726 --> 00:12:09,186 -"That's how you're gonna be?" - Know what I'm saying? 263 00:12:09,186 --> 00:12:11,564 "That's how you feel?" Asking all the questions. 264 00:12:11,564 --> 00:12:14,358 You know? Um... 265 00:12:15,484 --> 00:12:19,405 That's kind of where I am with it. I want there to be a level of, like... 266 00:12:20,531 --> 00:12:21,699 Grace. Yeah. 267 00:12:21,699 --> 00:12:23,200 What are you gonna do when I'm like... 268 00:12:23,200 --> 00:12:25,286 when I have moments where 269 00:12:25,286 --> 00:12:29,290 it is completely just not who I normally am on a day-to-day basis? 270 00:12:29,290 --> 00:12:31,250 Like, is it gonna be something where you're like, 271 00:12:31,250 --> 00:12:33,252 "Are you still happy with me?" 272 00:12:33,252 --> 00:12:35,129 - Yeah. -"Do you still want me?" 273 00:12:35,129 --> 00:12:36,714 "Do you wanna be here?" 274 00:12:38,674 --> 00:12:41,177 I'm ready to be normal. 275 00:12:41,177 --> 00:12:45,097 Go to work, you go to work, and then we come home to each other. 276 00:12:46,807 --> 00:12:48,559 I understand completely. 277 00:12:48,559 --> 00:12:53,522 I don't have questions, if you are feeling me. 278 00:12:53,522 --> 00:12:55,608 Mm-hmm. That's good to hear. 279 00:12:58,194 --> 00:12:59,945 We have exactly what it takes 280 00:12:59,945 --> 00:13:03,032 because we are two very strong-willed individuals 281 00:13:03,032 --> 00:13:05,534 that will do kind of, like, whatever it takes. 282 00:13:05,534 --> 00:13:07,620 For sure. 283 00:13:14,168 --> 00:13:17,546 Should've just turned my head... 284 00:13:18,798 --> 00:13:21,717 ♪ You'll know it tonight ♪ 285 00:13:23,844 --> 00:13:24,762 ♪ Oh! ♪ 286 00:13:28,682 --> 00:13:29,517 Oh, my God. 287 00:13:31,602 --> 00:13:34,271 {\an8}Chelsea! 288 00:13:35,064 --> 00:13:36,148 {\an8}Oh, my God! 289 00:13:36,690 --> 00:13:38,317 Jenna, come here! Come here! 290 00:13:39,902 --> 00:13:41,195 {\an8}- Hi! - Hello! 291 00:13:42,863 --> 00:13:44,573 Hi! I love that shirt. 292 00:13:44,573 --> 00:13:45,658 I'm gonna cry. 293 00:13:45,658 --> 00:13:48,494 Don't cry. Don't cry. I brought wine. 294 00:13:48,494 --> 00:13:50,621 - Your hair looks so good. - You look so good. 295 00:13:50,621 --> 00:13:52,540 Um, he's working upstairs. 296 00:13:52,540 --> 00:13:55,584 - What time does he have to work till? - He'll be done at, like, 5:00. 297 00:13:55,584 --> 00:13:58,337 - Where do you want this? - Let's put 'em on the counter. 298 00:13:58,337 --> 00:13:59,797 Hold on, come here. 299 00:14:00,714 --> 00:14:01,966 It's so shiny. 300 00:14:01,966 --> 00:14:03,926 - Oh, my God. - Oh, my God. 301 00:14:03,926 --> 00:14:06,345 I'm sweating. Your nails look good. 302 00:14:06,345 --> 00:14:07,429 That's huge! 303 00:14:07,429 --> 00:14:10,474 He did so stinking good. 304 00:14:10,474 --> 00:14:12,351 How was the experiment itself? 305 00:14:12,351 --> 00:14:14,228 So freakin' cool. Yeah. 306 00:14:14,228 --> 00:14:17,898 I'm excited for you to meet him. All right. Chelsea, cheers. 307 00:14:17,898 --> 00:14:20,109 - Cheers! - I need ice, but that's fine. 308 00:14:21,068 --> 00:14:23,696 Do you guys wanna go sit outside? Yeah, let's do it. 309 00:14:23,696 --> 00:14:26,282 Were you interested in him the whole time? 310 00:14:26,282 --> 00:14:29,243 Were there other people-- Everyone was interested in him. 311 00:14:29,243 --> 00:14:30,160 Girl. 312 00:14:30,744 --> 00:14:32,496 So he was the hot commodity. 313 00:14:32,496 --> 00:14:34,665 Oh, for sure. He was dating a bunch of girls. 314 00:14:34,665 --> 00:14:36,166 I was dating a bunch of guys. 315 00:14:36,166 --> 00:14:41,380 One guy who-- it was either him or, um, Jimmy. 316 00:14:41,380 --> 00:14:43,257 Okay. His name was Trevor. 317 00:14:43,257 --> 00:14:46,468 We literally just laughed. 318 00:14:46,468 --> 00:14:49,722 - So I definitely put him number one. - Wait. Trevor or Jimmy? 319 00:14:49,722 --> 00:14:50,806 Trevor. Trevor. 320 00:14:50,806 --> 00:14:52,433 He told me he loved me. 321 00:14:52,433 --> 00:14:57,980 And then Trevor didn't date anyone but me. 322 00:14:58,939 --> 00:15:00,858 He went in to propose. 323 00:15:00,858 --> 00:15:02,735 Chelsea! Oh, no! 324 00:15:02,735 --> 00:15:05,237 - Oh, my God! How was that? - It was not good! 325 00:15:05,237 --> 00:15:07,990 But why was he so into it, and you were just like "no"? 326 00:15:07,990 --> 00:15:10,951 I was into it though. He had... Oh, gosh. 327 00:15:10,951 --> 00:15:12,870 What? - Stop! 328 00:15:12,870 --> 00:15:15,873 You guys are gonna die 'cause it's so on par for me. 329 00:15:15,873 --> 00:15:17,666 Oh, my God. He plays video games. 330 00:15:18,751 --> 00:15:20,294 Trevor had a mullet. 331 00:15:20,294 --> 00:15:21,879 - And I guessed it. - Oh, my God. 332 00:15:21,879 --> 00:15:23,213 And I guessed! 333 00:15:23,213 --> 00:15:26,175 And he freakin' did. Anyway... 334 00:15:26,175 --> 00:15:28,719 How was it seeing him for, like, the first time? 335 00:15:28,719 --> 00:15:30,554 I haven't seen him. Oh! 336 00:15:30,554 --> 00:15:32,264 You did really care about him? 337 00:15:32,264 --> 00:15:34,475 Yeah, I loved him. 338 00:15:34,475 --> 00:15:40,356 Like, it was really hard to, you know, just see who fit better. 339 00:15:40,356 --> 00:15:43,150 But you know what? Everything worked out how it should have. 340 00:15:43,150 --> 00:15:45,986 Yeah. It's meant to be. You met a really great guy. 341 00:15:45,986 --> 00:15:49,740 - And you're engaged! - I know! You found your person! 342 00:15:49,740 --> 00:15:50,658 I did. 343 00:15:51,158 --> 00:15:54,203 My first question is, "Does he look like you thought he'd look?" 344 00:15:54,203 --> 00:15:55,287 No! 345 00:15:56,372 --> 00:15:58,958 Does he snore? No, he's the quietest sleeper. 346 00:15:58,958 --> 00:16:02,294 I love that. That's good. What about physical, physical touch? 347 00:16:02,294 --> 00:16:06,006 - It's not one of his love languages? - No, it is. That's why it's really weird. 348 00:16:06,006 --> 00:16:07,675 I'm, like, making dinner. 349 00:16:07,675 --> 00:16:09,760 Like, I wanna enjoy being around you 350 00:16:09,760 --> 00:16:12,221 and, like, being silly with you, and he's just... 351 00:16:13,263 --> 00:16:16,141 Ooh. Well... 352 00:16:16,141 --> 00:16:17,977 He hasn't kissed me once today. 353 00:16:17,977 --> 00:16:19,269 What? Mm-hmm. 354 00:16:19,978 --> 00:16:20,938 What? 355 00:16:20,938 --> 00:16:25,275 - It might just be me. - No. Are you kidding me? Stop. 356 00:16:26,193 --> 00:16:30,823 He saw a picture of the girl that he almost picked yesterday. 357 00:16:30,823 --> 00:16:32,825 And she's stunning. 358 00:16:34,034 --> 00:16:36,870 Jimmy wasn't sure if he was gonna pick her or me. 359 00:16:36,870 --> 00:16:41,500 Same situation I was in, but he's not saying, "Oh, I miss her." 360 00:16:41,500 --> 00:16:42,584 They ended really bad. 361 00:16:42,584 --> 00:16:45,921 But if that's what helped him come to the decision that she wasn't for him, 362 00:16:45,921 --> 00:16:47,297 then it's probably for the best. 363 00:16:47,297 --> 00:16:49,758 Yeah, yeah. He did just go back to work. 364 00:16:50,259 --> 00:16:52,678 He has meetings, and, like, he's on the phone a lot. 365 00:16:52,678 --> 00:16:54,513 I know he loves me, and he, like, tells me, 366 00:16:54,513 --> 00:16:58,600 but I don't know if that's kind of messing with his mind a little bit. 367 00:16:58,600 --> 00:16:59,768 I don't know. 368 00:17:01,020 --> 00:17:03,772 Does anyone need wine? We're in there. It's gonna explode. 369 00:17:03,772 --> 00:17:05,858 What does that even mean? 370 00:17:05,858 --> 00:17:07,317 Give me ice! 371 00:17:07,818 --> 00:17:09,028 Oh, gosh. 372 00:17:10,195 --> 00:17:12,990 So you said that y'all haven't kissed yet? 373 00:17:12,990 --> 00:17:14,408 Oh, no, just today. 374 00:17:14,408 --> 00:17:18,078 Oh, my God. I was like, "What?" You kissed him before. 375 00:17:18,078 --> 00:17:21,540 I don't wanna talk about things that your mom's gonna be upset we talked about, but... 376 00:17:23,625 --> 00:17:25,669 I mean, his shoes are really big. 377 00:17:25,669 --> 00:17:27,755 I mean... 378 00:17:27,755 --> 00:17:31,258 We had a lovely time. 379 00:17:31,258 --> 00:17:33,761 Okay. He's very sweet. 380 00:17:33,761 --> 00:17:36,597 Okay. 381 00:17:37,181 --> 00:17:38,557 {\an8}What's up? Hi! 382 00:17:38,557 --> 00:17:40,726 {\an8}What's up, friends? This is Jenna. 383 00:17:40,726 --> 00:17:42,603 {\an8}- Nice to meet you. - Jimmy. Nice to meet you. 384 00:17:42,603 --> 00:17:44,396 Morgan. I'll stand up. 385 00:17:44,396 --> 00:17:46,023 Jimmy. - Nice to meet you. 386 00:17:46,023 --> 00:17:48,942 - I'm Kathrine. Nice to meet you. - Nice to meet you, Kathrine. 387 00:17:48,942 --> 00:17:52,529 My boss told me that I was irreplaceable today. 388 00:17:52,529 --> 00:17:54,490 - I was like-- I was like... - That's nice, babe! 389 00:17:54,490 --> 00:17:57,951 Yeah, that's the first time I've talked to her, getting back to work. 390 00:17:58,494 --> 00:18:01,371 - Babe, they loved it. - They love it? 391 00:18:01,371 --> 00:18:02,790 Yeah! It's a good pick. 392 00:18:02,790 --> 00:18:04,124 Aww. 393 00:18:04,124 --> 00:18:09,046 What was, like, the number one thing that made you fall in love with Chelsea? 394 00:18:09,046 --> 00:18:12,800 I mean, I got a bunch. You were popular, I hear. 395 00:18:12,800 --> 00:18:15,010 That's what we hear! 396 00:18:15,010 --> 00:18:18,138 I had two really strong relationships pretty deep into it. 397 00:18:18,138 --> 00:18:19,098 Mm-hmm. 398 00:18:19,098 --> 00:18:22,101 I had a really tough decision to make. 399 00:18:22,684 --> 00:18:23,811 One girl... 400 00:18:23,811 --> 00:18:27,689 Not to talk about another person, but-- Babe, you can say whatever. 401 00:18:28,565 --> 00:18:29,608 I don't know. 402 00:18:29,608 --> 00:18:32,069 She was the only person I was really, really considering, 403 00:18:32,069 --> 00:18:34,238 and I had strong feelings about her. 404 00:18:34,738 --> 00:18:38,700 And it ended poorly, and I went in there with her. 405 00:18:38,700 --> 00:18:41,954 And she could tell by my tone of voice I was sad from how the last date ended. 406 00:18:41,954 --> 00:18:45,415 And she just picked me up, and, like... She does that. 407 00:18:45,415 --> 00:18:47,417 - Every-- - I thought he was gonna dump me. 408 00:18:47,417 --> 00:18:49,920 Wait, did you really? Mm-hmm. 409 00:18:49,920 --> 00:18:52,673 And that was when he told me he loved me. 410 00:18:52,673 --> 00:18:55,509 Basically, it was like, "Damn it, I love you, Chelsea." 411 00:18:55,509 --> 00:18:58,262 And I just fell to the floor 412 00:18:58,262 --> 00:19:00,305 because I was just shocked. 413 00:19:00,305 --> 00:19:03,725 You just sounded so sure. 414 00:19:04,935 --> 00:19:05,769 I was. 415 00:19:05,769 --> 00:19:07,646 - And she didn't believe me. - No! 416 00:19:07,646 --> 00:19:10,732 - So did you say "I love you" back? Okay. - Yeah, I did. I did. 417 00:19:10,732 --> 00:19:14,486 Like, is marriage, like, something you've always thought about? 418 00:19:14,486 --> 00:19:16,321 I'm a relationship person. Right. 419 00:19:16,321 --> 00:19:21,618 So, if you both say yes and get married, what are, like, the next steps afterwards? 420 00:19:21,618 --> 00:19:23,120 We're moving into my apartment. 421 00:19:23,120 --> 00:19:26,456 It's so small, but-- So you would move into his place? 422 00:19:26,456 --> 00:19:28,917 He has a studio, but his studio is so nice. 423 00:19:28,917 --> 00:19:30,919 If he is working from home and has meetings, 424 00:19:30,919 --> 00:19:34,131 - I can go to a coffee shop and hang out. - You like doing that. 425 00:19:34,131 --> 00:19:36,675 - You do. - And the spot he lives in... 426 00:19:37,176 --> 00:19:38,010 Girl. 427 00:19:38,594 --> 00:19:41,179 So do you want kids? I want a big family. 428 00:19:41,179 --> 00:19:43,056 - I want a bunch of kids. - How many kids? 429 00:19:43,056 --> 00:19:45,851 I can negotiate, but at least three. 430 00:19:45,851 --> 00:19:48,437 I thought you were gonna say "six!" I was like, all right. 431 00:19:48,437 --> 00:19:52,107 - I thought he was gonna say six too. - I would like, like, three to five kids. 432 00:19:52,107 --> 00:19:53,192 But that changes. 433 00:19:53,192 --> 00:19:56,945 It changes when your lady is 30 years old. That's what changes. 434 00:19:56,945 --> 00:19:57,946 Oh, stop! 435 00:19:57,946 --> 00:20:02,618 My brother said he wanted three kids, and he had one kid, and was like, 436 00:20:02,618 --> 00:20:05,954 "I'm not having any more kids." So you're flexible. 437 00:20:05,954 --> 00:20:08,498 Do you believe in going to bed angry? 438 00:20:08,498 --> 00:20:10,959 Damn! 439 00:20:10,959 --> 00:20:12,878 No, she-- So what happened? 440 00:20:12,878 --> 00:20:15,756 Wait! I've only had-- 441 00:20:15,756 --> 00:20:17,674 Yeah, they want the tea. 442 00:20:18,175 --> 00:20:19,801 We want the tea! 443 00:20:19,801 --> 00:20:21,595 We've had one argument. 444 00:20:21,595 --> 00:20:22,930 Mm-hmm. - One. 445 00:20:22,930 --> 00:20:24,139 One. 446 00:20:25,057 --> 00:20:30,812 And it went well because she understood where I was at, and I said sorry. 447 00:20:31,355 --> 00:20:33,106 Happy wife, happy life. 448 00:20:33,106 --> 00:20:34,816 "And I said sorry." 449 00:20:34,816 --> 00:20:39,821 I will say sorry 100% of the time if you can understand where I'm at. 450 00:20:39,821 --> 00:20:42,783 He communicates so stinking well, so... 451 00:20:42,783 --> 00:20:45,244 Like, our relationship started with hours of talking 452 00:20:45,244 --> 00:20:47,079 and hours of getting to know each other, 453 00:20:47,079 --> 00:20:49,957 and I really didn't care what she looked like. 454 00:20:49,957 --> 00:20:52,542 That's easy to say 'cause she's gorgeous. 455 00:20:52,542 --> 00:20:55,170 - It is easy to say 'cause she's gorgeous. - Wow! 456 00:20:55,170 --> 00:20:59,007 How much different am I than Chelsea's typical type? 457 00:20:59,758 --> 00:21:01,510 Um, a little bit. 458 00:21:01,510 --> 00:21:03,845 You look nothing like her typical type. 459 00:21:03,845 --> 00:21:05,347 I was trying to be nice. 460 00:21:05,347 --> 00:21:08,141 She described what she-- okay, I gotta tell them this. 461 00:21:08,141 --> 00:21:10,602 Oh, they know. They know. 462 00:21:10,602 --> 00:21:14,690 - She described what she looked like. - Who do I always get on the plane? 463 00:21:14,690 --> 00:21:17,901 Oh, Carrie Underwood? Carrie Underwood, I can see. 464 00:21:17,901 --> 00:21:19,695 Megan Fox? Yeah. Yes! 465 00:21:21,321 --> 00:21:23,740 You thought I was lying! I have dark hair, blue eyes. 466 00:21:23,740 --> 00:21:26,743 - Oh, and big boobs. - Yeah. 467 00:21:26,743 --> 00:21:28,036 Hell yeah, brother! 468 00:21:28,036 --> 00:21:29,663 I can't! 469 00:21:29,663 --> 00:21:31,999 That's the only thing I don't like about her. 470 00:21:31,999 --> 00:21:35,585 - He hates it. Yeah. - The "hell yeah, brother"? 471 00:21:35,585 --> 00:21:38,213 It was a major selling point for me. Why? 472 00:21:38,213 --> 00:21:41,049 Like, I just don't want the girl I-- 473 00:21:41,049 --> 00:21:42,884 the girl I make love to to call me "brother." 474 00:21:42,884 --> 00:21:46,096 Babe, I did it to be funny. I did it to be funny. 475 00:21:46,096 --> 00:21:48,015 Something you learn with Chelsea. 476 00:21:48,015 --> 00:21:51,018 If you tell her not to do something, she's gonna start doing it every day. 477 00:21:51,018 --> 00:21:52,102 Yeah. 478 00:21:52,102 --> 00:21:54,646 Chelsea. - Whatever. 479 00:21:54,646 --> 00:21:57,107 Is Chelsea not your type? 480 00:21:57,107 --> 00:21:59,443 Chelsea is my type. 481 00:21:59,443 --> 00:22:01,778 I think that Chelsea's perfect. 482 00:22:02,279 --> 00:22:04,948 Aww! - Babe! 483 00:22:04,948 --> 00:22:09,745 - - ♪ Don't need much when I have you ♪ 484 00:22:11,371 --> 00:22:16,710 ♪ Don't need much when I have us ♪ 485 00:22:22,424 --> 00:22:24,259 I can't wait to see your place. 486 00:22:24,259 --> 00:22:26,970 - I'm excited! - I wonder what it smells like. 487 00:22:26,970 --> 00:22:29,806 That's a huge thing to me, is the smell. 488 00:22:29,806 --> 00:22:33,602 Ooh! Actually, you know what? This is a nice place! 489 00:22:33,602 --> 00:22:35,354 Do you like it? I see you! 490 00:22:35,354 --> 00:22:37,898 {\an8}Yeah! You have a nice big kitchen. 491 00:22:37,898 --> 00:22:40,275 I'm looking at just these little things. 492 00:22:40,275 --> 00:22:43,361 And I put my crystals around it. It's supposed to light up and be a waterfall. 493 00:22:43,361 --> 00:22:45,113 - Wait. You're a crystal girl? - I am. 494 00:22:45,113 --> 00:22:46,907 Ever since I was a kid. 495 00:22:47,491 --> 00:22:49,618 - What? - Oh, no! 496 00:22:49,618 --> 00:22:50,786 Is that a bad thing? 497 00:22:51,411 --> 00:22:54,081 Throwing the flag! What? Why? 498 00:22:54,081 --> 00:22:56,333 What, is that a bad thing? 499 00:22:56,333 --> 00:22:59,586 - I've heard a lot about crystal girls. - Like what? 500 00:22:59,586 --> 00:23:03,340 - I don't know. - I love my crystals. No shame about it. 501 00:23:03,340 --> 00:23:06,051 You're gonna like it too. Um, this is my grandpa. 502 00:23:06,051 --> 00:23:08,261 - That's your grandpa? - Yes, um... 503 00:23:08,261 --> 00:23:10,180 This is, like, the best picture. 504 00:23:10,180 --> 00:23:13,767 It's not the most ideal picture, but, um, that's my grandpa. 505 00:23:13,767 --> 00:23:16,603 I like to think of it that he was, like, guiding me 506 00:23:16,603 --> 00:23:18,647 in taking the trash out of my life constantly. 507 00:23:20,107 --> 00:23:22,984 - I love his hat. Looks like a cool dude. - I know! 508 00:23:22,984 --> 00:23:26,863 He was just, like, an entity of peace. 509 00:23:26,863 --> 00:23:28,907 Genuinely a great man. 510 00:23:28,907 --> 00:23:33,495 And I just can't believe it's been two years since his passing. 511 00:23:39,501 --> 00:23:42,337 So I think I am, in my opinion, ready to get a house. 512 00:23:42,337 --> 00:23:44,339 Like, I'm over trying to pay a crazy amount 513 00:23:44,339 --> 00:23:46,383 for, like, rent in an apartment like this. 514 00:23:46,383 --> 00:23:48,635 It's just making the move and actually getting a place. 515 00:23:49,219 --> 00:23:52,973 My dad has been trying. Like, he has been on my case. 516 00:23:52,973 --> 00:23:55,809 - He is like, "With your finances..." - Yeah. 517 00:23:55,809 --> 00:24:00,021 I was so used to living a lifestyle where it was just kind of unpredictable, 518 00:24:00,021 --> 00:24:02,107 and I still have that, like, part of me 519 00:24:02,107 --> 00:24:04,109 that definitely wants to go out and explore, 520 00:24:04,109 --> 00:24:06,027 but I was, like, right there with you. 521 00:24:06,027 --> 00:24:10,031 That was gonna be my next move after my lease ended next year. 522 00:24:10,031 --> 00:24:14,202 So I think it's perfect 'cause it seems like both of us are financially ready. 523 00:24:14,786 --> 00:24:16,955 - Obviously, yes, get a house right away. - Mm-hmm. 524 00:24:16,955 --> 00:24:18,915 The other thing I wanna do is retire early. 525 00:24:18,915 --> 00:24:21,918 So I do wanna live frugally as possible. Put as much money away. 526 00:24:21,918 --> 00:24:25,630 Like, cutting back on certain things. Would you be okay with that too? 527 00:24:25,630 --> 00:24:30,051 I feel like I could definitely get to that. 528 00:24:31,261 --> 00:24:34,723 I don't know. I feel like we live in such crazy times 529 00:24:34,723 --> 00:24:36,600 that my mindset is about living in the moment. 530 00:24:36,600 --> 00:24:39,728 It's obviously very, very crucial to think about the future, 531 00:24:39,728 --> 00:24:42,606 but I'm more about living in the present, enjoying what you have, 532 00:24:42,606 --> 00:24:45,775 like, you know, living it up while you can because you really never know. 533 00:24:45,775 --> 00:24:48,195 In a sense, it's a good thing to kind of rub off on you 534 00:24:48,195 --> 00:24:49,946 'cause I feel like you're way more frugal, 535 00:24:49,946 --> 00:24:52,532 but, like, I feel like you should, you know, live it up. 536 00:24:52,532 --> 00:24:55,952 It is nice to enjoy, like, some of the good things in life. 537 00:24:55,952 --> 00:24:58,413 - I'm not saying never do anything. - Yeah, yeah, yeah. 538 00:24:58,413 --> 00:25:01,124 - I still wanna travel and do trips too. - Oh, 100%. 539 00:25:01,124 --> 00:25:02,667 I really want to just be able to say, 540 00:25:02,667 --> 00:25:05,545 like, "Hey, at, like, 50 years old, like, that's it." 541 00:25:05,545 --> 00:25:08,340 Then, like, actually be there for the kids and, like, enjoy that time. 542 00:25:08,340 --> 00:25:10,759 That's one of the big things I'm, like, looking for. 543 00:25:10,759 --> 00:25:14,137 Make sure that I'm financially secure before I ever have kids. 544 00:25:15,055 --> 00:25:18,934 I feel like we're on the same page in terms of our timeline, 545 00:25:18,934 --> 00:25:22,771 'cause I told you it's not happening for, like, another five years. 546 00:25:22,771 --> 00:25:25,065 Yes. Mm-hmm. - That's the goal. 547 00:25:25,732 --> 00:25:29,569 Um, the birth control thing is like, 548 00:25:29,569 --> 00:25:33,865 you know, still a thing that I feel like we have to figure out, like, a plan for. 549 00:25:33,865 --> 00:25:37,410 The next big jump for us really right now would be, like, to buy a house. 550 00:25:37,410 --> 00:25:38,495 Yeah, yeah, yeah. 551 00:25:38,495 --> 00:25:40,789 But not to, like, support a child too. 552 00:25:40,789 --> 00:25:42,791 If we do actually have, like, an accident... 553 00:25:43,375 --> 00:25:48,838 There was like a-- you do get pregnant or somehow that happens, like... I dunno. 554 00:25:48,838 --> 00:25:52,133 I wanna make sure I'm financially secure first before doing that. 555 00:25:52,133 --> 00:25:55,011 Every year, we'd have to get them basically a brand-new wardrobe. 556 00:25:55,011 --> 00:25:56,263 They're gonna grow out of it. 557 00:25:56,263 --> 00:25:59,641 - Their food, little things, it's... - Yeah. It's a lot. 558 00:26:00,141 --> 00:26:01,142 It's scary. 559 00:26:01,810 --> 00:26:05,230 Like, I don't want something like that because that's the way I grew up. 560 00:26:05,230 --> 00:26:07,274 I wanna make sure it's a little different for them. 561 00:26:07,274 --> 00:26:10,485 And I mean, like, I feel like we come from very similar upbringings, 562 00:26:10,485 --> 00:26:12,404 so I'm the same way. 563 00:26:13,029 --> 00:26:14,364 Could happen any time. 564 00:26:14,364 --> 00:26:16,241 Nine months from now, 565 00:26:16,241 --> 00:26:19,160 we got a little, you know, Amy Jr., John Jr. coming through. 566 00:26:19,160 --> 00:26:20,078 Yeah. 567 00:26:20,078 --> 00:26:21,997 That's something I'd be terrified of. 568 00:26:21,997 --> 00:26:26,001 Like, let's say, hypothetically, in one year, we get pregnant accidentally. 569 00:26:26,001 --> 00:26:27,252 Mm-hmm. 570 00:26:27,252 --> 00:26:30,964 I feel like, yeah, it would be a lot. 571 00:26:30,964 --> 00:26:32,173 Mm-hmm. 572 00:26:32,173 --> 00:26:34,551 But, like, we still would have a home. 573 00:26:34,551 --> 00:26:38,054 - Yeah. Yeah. - Like, we could take care of a child. 574 00:26:38,054 --> 00:26:41,641 It just wouldn't be in the best, ideal financial situation. 575 00:26:41,641 --> 00:26:44,853 That's what I was telling you in the pods. Like, I don't want that, period. 576 00:26:45,812 --> 00:26:48,565 Someone I was, like, in love with or a relationship with 577 00:26:48,565 --> 00:26:50,066 was almost always on birth control. 578 00:26:50,066 --> 00:26:54,404 - Like, that's how it was in the past. - I think that's honestly our roadblock. 579 00:26:54,404 --> 00:26:59,451 I don't know if I wanna get on birth control just yet. Um... 580 00:27:00,243 --> 00:27:03,246 - I know I mentioned a vasectomy to you. - I know. I know. 581 00:27:03,246 --> 00:27:06,833 It's always, like, an option too. Like, it's not just the girl's job to. 582 00:27:06,833 --> 00:27:11,004 So I don't want to, like, make it seem like I'm saying, like, "Do this," 583 00:27:11,004 --> 00:27:14,674 or it's the only way to do things, because it's not. 584 00:27:15,342 --> 00:27:19,721 {\an8}I feel like Johnny's fear about the whole kids situation 585 00:27:19,721 --> 00:27:22,432 {\an8}is, like, the biggest roadblock to intimacy. 586 00:27:22,432 --> 00:27:25,518 Are you guys sexually intimate? - No. 587 00:27:25,518 --> 00:27:29,314 I don't think we're gonna-- I don't think we're gonna wait until marriage. 588 00:27:29,314 --> 00:27:32,108 I'm just-- I feel like Johnny's really scared. 589 00:27:32,108 --> 00:27:35,278 I don't know. I feel using protection, like, that's not enough for him. 590 00:27:35,278 --> 00:27:38,490 I've never been on birth control. I've had talks with my gynecologist. 591 00:27:38,490 --> 00:27:42,452 It is ideal to be on birth control because I have to constantly get infusions. 592 00:27:42,452 --> 00:27:45,205 I am anemic. It would be ideal to do that. 593 00:27:45,830 --> 00:27:49,751 But I like how regular everything is with my system. 594 00:27:49,751 --> 00:27:52,253 I don't want to alter anything and so... 595 00:27:52,253 --> 00:27:55,715 It is a lot as a woman to, like, make these decisions. 596 00:27:55,715 --> 00:27:57,175 And I've talked to Johnny. 597 00:27:57,175 --> 00:27:59,969 I was like, you know, "Men can also get vasectomies." 598 00:27:59,969 --> 00:28:04,849 And there is a risk there, but I aspire to be a mom. 599 00:28:04,849 --> 00:28:06,226 Johnny aspires to be a dad. 600 00:28:06,226 --> 00:28:09,145 I feel like we would be amazing parents together. 601 00:28:09,145 --> 00:28:10,605 I totally see it. 602 00:28:10,605 --> 00:28:14,776 Um, we are just fearful of it happening too soon. 603 00:28:14,776 --> 00:28:17,487 I think that's, like, our main roadblock right now. 604 00:28:17,487 --> 00:28:20,156 And I think that's something, like, we have to... 605 00:28:20,156 --> 00:28:22,117 Here. I'm gonna sit down too. You know... 606 00:28:23,493 --> 00:28:28,248 I didn't think it was this big of a deal to him. 607 00:28:28,248 --> 00:28:31,543 There's a lot of fears. There's a lot of fears that exist. 608 00:28:31,543 --> 00:28:35,004 Um... I don't know. 609 00:28:35,004 --> 00:28:38,508 I think it's one of those things that we have to, like, research 610 00:28:38,508 --> 00:28:42,220 and kind of figure out a solution pretty soon. 611 00:28:42,220 --> 00:28:43,888 - Yes. - Before the wedding. 612 00:28:43,888 --> 00:28:46,307 - I think so too. - No pressure. 613 00:28:46,307 --> 00:28:50,478 But we need to figure out something before we, you know, 614 00:28:50,478 --> 00:28:51,730 go into that next step. 615 00:28:51,730 --> 00:28:55,984 Because if we don't have it, then, like, it's a big part of our lives. 616 00:28:55,984 --> 00:28:58,695 We can't just, like... "We'll figure out after we're married." 617 00:28:58,695 --> 00:29:01,239 This could be a make-or-break between, like, us too. 618 00:29:01,239 --> 00:29:02,949 - Yeah, I know. - I don't want it to be. 619 00:29:02,949 --> 00:29:07,871 ♪ This is not the end ♪ 620 00:29:08,455 --> 00:29:12,584 ♪ The end ♪ 621 00:29:16,212 --> 00:29:17,589 You didn't see my nails. 622 00:29:18,506 --> 00:29:20,800 - Remember I got them done yesterday? - You went with blue. 623 00:29:20,800 --> 00:29:25,221 {\an8}- Yeah. My toes. - I can dig it. 624 00:29:25,805 --> 00:29:28,683 {\an8}Oh, oh, let's talk about you waking me up last night. 625 00:29:28,683 --> 00:29:31,144 {\an8}- Oh. - Let's-- let's speak on that. 626 00:29:31,144 --> 00:29:33,772 - At 1:30 a.m. in the morning. - I did. 627 00:29:33,772 --> 00:29:35,440 With all the lights on. 628 00:29:35,440 --> 00:29:36,608 I did wake you up. 629 00:29:36,608 --> 00:29:40,236 Correct. When I had to get up at 5:00 a.m. in the morning. 630 00:29:40,236 --> 00:29:42,280 You did. I hesitated a little bit at first, 631 00:29:42,280 --> 00:29:45,033 but I was like, "At least I'll get to say good night." 632 00:29:45,033 --> 00:29:47,368 You said, "Baby." And I turned around. 633 00:29:47,368 --> 00:29:49,704 I was like, "I know good and well 634 00:29:49,704 --> 00:29:52,123 this man is not making me get up right now." 635 00:29:52,123 --> 00:29:54,209 - At least say good night. That's all. - Yeah? 636 00:29:54,209 --> 00:29:55,627 Just a little good night. 637 00:29:55,627 --> 00:29:58,963 - I let you go back to sleep, you know. - With all the lights on? 638 00:29:58,963 --> 00:30:02,383 I wake you up because, you know, I'm trying to be like, you know, "Hey." 639 00:30:03,051 --> 00:30:04,594 I was like, "Who is this?" 640 00:30:06,346 --> 00:30:09,808 - What do you mean? - You haven't been home any, silly goose. 641 00:30:09,808 --> 00:30:11,893 Let's clarify, okay... 642 00:30:12,769 --> 00:30:15,605 Don't be acting like I'm just out here just not trying to be home. 643 00:30:16,314 --> 00:30:18,149 I went to get my hair twisted. 644 00:30:19,651 --> 00:30:21,110 I went to lunch with my mentor. 645 00:30:21,110 --> 00:30:24,781 And I called you between each transition of what I was doing. 646 00:30:24,781 --> 00:30:25,949 Yes. - Yeah. 647 00:30:26,616 --> 00:30:28,159 Baby, you get home very late. 648 00:30:28,159 --> 00:30:30,662 I hear you. 649 00:30:30,662 --> 00:30:33,039 - Right? Like, I hear your perspective. - Mm-hmm. 650 00:30:33,039 --> 00:30:36,543 Only thing I'm asking, transparently, is that 651 00:30:36,543 --> 00:30:40,672 you don't allow for me to have gotten home late one night... 652 00:30:41,339 --> 00:30:42,173 Yeah. 653 00:30:42,173 --> 00:30:45,176 ...to be the thing that shifts your mindset about me. 654 00:30:45,176 --> 00:30:49,222 Right? Like, I just don't want one day of me getting home late-- 655 00:30:49,222 --> 00:30:50,306 It's not. 656 00:30:50,306 --> 00:30:53,476 I don't know, like, how to pinpoint it, Ken. I really don't. 657 00:30:53,476 --> 00:30:57,939 And I wish I did, but I feel like, you know, when we do talk about us, 658 00:30:58,523 --> 00:31:01,985 our minds and our heads are, like, right there with one another. 659 00:31:01,985 --> 00:31:02,902 Mm-hmm. 660 00:31:02,902 --> 00:31:06,406 Like, what we want out of a marriage is there. 661 00:31:06,406 --> 00:31:10,577 But, like, where's, like, the intimate feeling between, like, us 662 00:31:10,577 --> 00:31:14,789 and, like, the crave of, like, us having what we want in a marriage? 663 00:31:14,789 --> 00:31:20,420 Or, like, the desire to have it between us. 664 00:31:21,004 --> 00:31:24,340 Like, I feel like that desire and crave between you and I 665 00:31:24,340 --> 00:31:26,009 is, like, the missing piece. 666 00:31:26,009 --> 00:31:28,887 - For you. - Because everything else is aligned. 667 00:31:28,887 --> 00:31:30,054 For you. 668 00:31:32,015 --> 00:31:34,559 'Cause for me, that isn't-- that's not true for me. 669 00:31:36,436 --> 00:31:41,399 So if you feel like you don't have a crave for me, thank you for telling me that, 670 00:31:41,399 --> 00:31:45,695 but I don't feel like I'm missing the crave for you. 671 00:31:45,695 --> 00:31:47,655 I feel like I work a lot. 672 00:31:47,655 --> 00:31:51,701 There are times where I am trying to be affectionate to you, 673 00:31:51,701 --> 00:31:54,621 and you may feel like you don't want it at the moment. 674 00:31:55,914 --> 00:31:58,708 Normally, like, when I kiss you, it's, like, a kiss and you just go back. 675 00:31:58,708 --> 00:31:59,751 Mm-hmm. 676 00:31:59,751 --> 00:32:02,253 So, cool, I'm a respectful man. 677 00:32:02,253 --> 00:32:05,214 I'm not gonna force myself or push myself up on you. 678 00:32:05,798 --> 00:32:07,383 I'm gonna take what I see to be something 679 00:32:07,383 --> 00:32:10,511 that you are comfortable with or aware you are comfortable with proceeding. 680 00:32:10,511 --> 00:32:11,429 Yeah. 681 00:32:11,429 --> 00:32:13,806 Last night when I woke you, I was trying to be affectionate. 682 00:32:13,806 --> 00:32:16,059 Mm-hmm. You pushed me off of you. 683 00:32:16,059 --> 00:32:18,144 I was in that mode, and you weren't. 684 00:32:18,978 --> 00:32:22,023 So when we talk about, like, "Why are certain things not progressing?" 685 00:32:22,023 --> 00:32:27,236 We gotta be introspective about the parts we are playing too in that role. 686 00:32:27,904 --> 00:32:29,989 And right now, being transparent, 687 00:32:29,989 --> 00:32:32,575 I don't feel as if you are being introspective 688 00:32:32,575 --> 00:32:35,703 about the role that you have played for me, as a man, 689 00:32:35,703 --> 00:32:37,997 in regards to that level of intimacy. 690 00:32:39,457 --> 00:32:42,919 Because, like, last night, I did want to. I did wanna-- 691 00:32:42,919 --> 00:32:46,005 not to do anything, like, sexually, 'cause we have been 692 00:32:46,005 --> 00:32:49,717 going true with this vow that we made to each other and to God. 693 00:32:49,717 --> 00:32:51,803 Mm-hmm. But I definitely came to you. 694 00:32:51,803 --> 00:32:54,055 And just wanted to, like, love on you. 695 00:32:54,055 --> 00:32:57,350 I did get home, you were sleeping, before you went back to sleep. 696 00:32:57,350 --> 00:32:58,976 And you wasn't in that mindset. 697 00:33:00,478 --> 00:33:03,439 - I didn't take it personal. I accepted it. - Yeah. 698 00:33:03,439 --> 00:33:05,900 If you're in the zone, like, if you're business, 699 00:33:05,900 --> 00:33:07,944 if you're in, like, "I gotta make this happen," 700 00:33:07,944 --> 00:33:10,488 that doesn't really give, like, "I want intimacy." 701 00:33:10,488 --> 00:33:13,199 - Right. - That doesn't give "I wanna be held." 702 00:33:13,199 --> 00:33:16,035 That gives, like, "Stay out of my way. Let me get this stuff done." 703 00:33:16,035 --> 00:33:18,079 - You're gonna hurt your watch. - Okay, I'm good. 704 00:33:18,079 --> 00:33:21,374 But that's the thing. That is how you show up often. 705 00:33:21,374 --> 00:33:24,460 And I've had to accept that because I chose you. 706 00:33:26,295 --> 00:33:28,923 I think where I am getting the most concerned about is 707 00:33:28,923 --> 00:33:33,386 when you start to question the status of our relationship. 708 00:33:34,887 --> 00:33:38,599 And to me, I wonder, when life continues to happen... 709 00:33:38,599 --> 00:33:39,517 Yeah. 710 00:33:39,517 --> 00:33:42,020 ...is it gonna always be a question about how I feel about you? 711 00:33:42,020 --> 00:33:43,146 Mm-hmm. 712 00:33:43,146 --> 00:33:45,565 I can't talk about the crave. - Wasn't saying yes. 713 00:33:45,565 --> 00:33:49,026 'Cause, like, only, like, I can show up as me. 714 00:33:49,026 --> 00:33:52,447 But, like, if you don't have a crave for me or us, 715 00:33:52,447 --> 00:33:53,865 if that's true, then that's you. 716 00:33:54,365 --> 00:33:56,993 I've never been engaged before. I chose you. 717 00:33:56,993 --> 00:34:01,581 I can't just allow moments or a day to be a thing that makes me say... 718 00:34:01,581 --> 00:34:04,042 Right. -"I wonder how Brittany feels." 719 00:34:04,042 --> 00:34:05,793 "I wonder if she's still locked in with me." 720 00:34:05,793 --> 00:34:06,711 Mm-hmm. 721 00:34:06,711 --> 00:34:10,923 Now the craving thing, that is a feeling you should have that... 722 00:34:10,923 --> 00:34:14,010 If you don't have that, that's a valid concern. 723 00:34:14,010 --> 00:34:16,512 Yeah, I am very affectionate. 724 00:34:16,512 --> 00:34:18,097 Mm-hmm. - Very affectionate. 725 00:34:19,766 --> 00:34:23,060 We barely kiss. Mm-hmm. 726 00:34:23,060 --> 00:34:26,731 And, like, haven't made out. Mm-hmm. 727 00:34:26,731 --> 00:34:29,400 And for some reason, that just seems really awkward to me. 728 00:34:29,400 --> 00:34:30,443 Mm-hmm. 729 00:34:31,986 --> 00:34:34,280 I just... 730 00:34:37,492 --> 00:34:41,078 I think that-- I'm getting friggin' emotional, um... 731 00:34:49,045 --> 00:34:51,047 I think it upsets me so much 732 00:34:51,047 --> 00:34:54,550 because I want so badly 733 00:34:56,302 --> 00:34:58,888 to be able to experience, like, 734 00:34:58,888 --> 00:35:02,433 so much of that crave that I had with you in the pods. 735 00:35:02,433 --> 00:35:03,643 Mm-hmm. 736 00:35:03,768 --> 00:35:06,729 But it's just scaring me that I don't, like-- 737 00:35:06,729 --> 00:35:09,190 that I'm not feeling like that consistently. 738 00:35:17,949 --> 00:35:19,867 Even with the promise that we made, 739 00:35:19,867 --> 00:35:23,871 I would have still enjoyed that temptation of being like, 740 00:35:23,871 --> 00:35:27,416 "No! Like, oh, my God, like, I can't. Holy cow." 741 00:35:27,416 --> 00:35:30,586 "The desire is almost, like, eating at me." 742 00:35:30,586 --> 00:35:31,504 Mm-hmm. 743 00:35:31,504 --> 00:35:36,008 And so that's where I'm like, "What's-- what's the missing piece?" 744 00:35:36,592 --> 00:35:38,553 And I think that's why I hate this so much, 745 00:35:38,553 --> 00:35:41,180 because, like, you've been such a good person to me. 746 00:35:41,180 --> 00:35:42,181 Mm-hmm. 747 00:35:42,765 --> 00:35:44,100 Ken, I think the world of you. 748 00:35:48,229 --> 00:35:50,189 What I'm hearing from you in this moment is, 749 00:35:50,189 --> 00:35:53,901 "The caliber of a man that you are is what I need." 750 00:35:54,610 --> 00:35:56,863 "These things about you are what I need." 751 00:35:56,863 --> 00:36:00,324 "But I don't feel X-Y-Z for you." 752 00:36:00,324 --> 00:36:02,577 That's a thing. That's not enough for us to get married. 753 00:36:02,577 --> 00:36:05,955 That's not enough for us to be like, "Well, we'll work it out." 754 00:36:05,955 --> 00:36:07,373 No, that's not enough. 755 00:36:12,545 --> 00:36:15,631 And we have to be okay and honest about that. 756 00:36:15,631 --> 00:36:20,052 - - ♪ Another lonely night ♪ 757 00:36:20,052 --> 00:36:24,056 ♪ Missing my paradise... ♪ 758 00:36:24,056 --> 00:36:26,183 I'm so confident that 759 00:36:27,435 --> 00:36:30,146 spiritually what is supposed to be for me will be. 760 00:36:30,146 --> 00:36:31,063 Yeah. 761 00:36:31,981 --> 00:36:34,066 I mean, that's just how God operates with me. 762 00:36:34,066 --> 00:36:37,820 But, in this situation, like, I am confident that 763 00:36:38,613 --> 00:36:40,907 what is before me God has already prepared me for. 764 00:36:41,657 --> 00:36:44,994 And even though I have so much love for you, and I care about you so much, 765 00:36:45,828 --> 00:36:47,997 if it's not there for you and I, 766 00:36:48,664 --> 00:36:51,417 he's gonna prepare me for that, prepare you for that and us for that. 767 00:36:51,417 --> 00:36:52,335 Yeah. 768 00:36:52,335 --> 00:36:56,422 I will still be the biggest supporter of you and believer in you. 769 00:36:57,340 --> 00:37:01,219 But I also love myself too much, and I've also overcome so much, 770 00:37:01,219 --> 00:37:03,554 just to force something just because. 771 00:37:04,680 --> 00:37:05,723 It's not fair to me or you. 772 00:37:14,148 --> 00:37:16,817 I'm too emotional for this. 773 00:37:16,817 --> 00:37:18,945 ♪ It's me without you ♪ 774 00:37:18,945 --> 00:37:21,280 ♪ It's covered in gray ♪ 775 00:37:21,280 --> 00:37:25,576 ♪ Sometimes the good ones They just get away ♪ 776 00:37:25,576 --> 00:37:28,162 ♪ Want you to stay ♪ 777 00:37:30,206 --> 00:37:36,879 ♪ I want you to stay ♪ 778 00:37:39,006 --> 00:37:41,884 ♪ Want you to stay ♪ 779 00:37:45,763 --> 00:37:47,431 This is not going to work. 780 00:37:49,433 --> 00:37:53,020 But I do want you to find the person you were actually supposed to be with. 781 00:37:53,020 --> 00:37:54,855 Even though it's not me, and I thought it was. 782 00:37:56,524 --> 00:37:57,942 Thank you. Yeah. 783 00:37:58,442 --> 00:38:00,861 Give me a hug so you know it's no beef. 784 00:38:06,367 --> 00:38:09,120 I don't wanna let go. 785 00:38:12,540 --> 00:38:14,959 You're all right. 786 00:38:19,922 --> 00:38:22,967 You all right? Okay. 787 00:38:24,760 --> 00:38:28,097 ♪ We've been here before ♪ 788 00:38:28,097 --> 00:38:33,019 ♪ But this time feels like You're really walking out the door ♪ 789 00:38:34,562 --> 00:38:37,440 ♪ Running away ♪ 790 00:38:38,065 --> 00:38:40,651 ♪ And I guess there's nothing I can do... ♪ 791 00:38:43,696 --> 00:38:45,990 ♪ So if you're really gone... ♪ 792 00:38:48,909 --> 00:38:54,248 ♪ There's nothing left to say... ♪ 793 00:38:56,292 --> 00:38:58,711 ♪ There's nothing left to say... ♪ 794 00:39:02,840 --> 00:39:05,134 ♪ Oh, there's nothing left to... ♪ 795 00:39:09,930 --> 00:39:11,348 Hey, what's going on, bro? 796 00:39:11,849 --> 00:39:15,644 {\an8}Yeah, I'm about to get my stuff here. I'm about to be over there. All right. 797 00:39:25,363 --> 00:39:29,158 ♪ If you're really gone ♪ 798 00:39:30,368 --> 00:39:32,912 ♪ There's nothing left to say ♪ 799 00:39:32,912 --> 00:39:35,247 Feel better? After meeting the friends? 800 00:39:35,247 --> 00:39:38,626 {\an8}Yeah, I want all the tea. How do you feel about them? 801 00:39:38,626 --> 00:39:40,419 I liked them a lot. - Yeah? 802 00:39:40,419 --> 00:39:43,339 {\an8}Your friends and who you hang out with says a lot about you. 803 00:39:43,339 --> 00:39:45,383 Mm-hmm. - They were sweet and welcoming. 804 00:39:45,383 --> 00:39:48,511 {\an8}It felt like they left here excited that-- 805 00:39:48,511 --> 00:39:51,305 {\an8}- They all told me they really liked you. - Good! Yeah! 806 00:39:51,305 --> 00:39:52,932 We love that! 807 00:39:55,059 --> 00:39:57,770 That makes me happy 'cause today, I was worried about you, babe. 808 00:39:57,770 --> 00:39:58,979 You had me really worried. 809 00:40:00,147 --> 00:40:02,817 - Why were you worried? - You were kind of just, like, in a mood. 810 00:40:02,817 --> 00:40:05,861 - I did ask you twice, "Are you good?" - Mm-hmm. 811 00:40:06,904 --> 00:40:09,406 And you kept saying, "Oh, my lip hurts really bad." 812 00:40:09,406 --> 00:40:11,200 My lip does hurt bad. - I know. 813 00:40:11,200 --> 00:40:14,495 And I'm really sorry, but I got back after being gone all day. 814 00:40:14,495 --> 00:40:18,207 You, like, walked in, and you were like, "'Sup?" 815 00:40:19,125 --> 00:40:22,920 I want you to be like, "Hey, babe, how are your eyebrows?" 816 00:40:22,920 --> 00:40:25,256 Yeah. I didn't get that from you, so... 817 00:40:25,256 --> 00:40:30,678 And then you didn't really, like, acknowledge me being here at all, really. 818 00:40:30,678 --> 00:40:31,637 I... 819 00:40:33,180 --> 00:40:34,515 I want to take care of you, um... 820 00:40:35,307 --> 00:40:39,854 Our first day back here, I, like, really wanted to, you know, pay for your dinner. 821 00:40:39,854 --> 00:40:43,190 And so, like, I-- that was me taking care of you. 822 00:40:43,190 --> 00:40:45,609 I don't need you to take care of me financially. 823 00:40:45,609 --> 00:40:46,902 Just, like, emotionally. 824 00:40:46,902 --> 00:40:49,572 Like coming up to me and, like, grabbing my face to kiss me. 825 00:40:49,572 --> 00:40:50,739 Telling me I'm pretty 826 00:40:50,739 --> 00:40:53,701 or, like, telling me, like, "Good morning." 827 00:40:53,701 --> 00:40:56,036 "I'm so excited to spend the day with you today." 828 00:40:56,036 --> 00:40:58,330 Like, I haven't really gotten that from you. 829 00:40:59,415 --> 00:41:01,500 Well, this morning, I rolled straight out of bed, 830 00:41:01,500 --> 00:41:03,210 went to the shower, went straight to work. 831 00:41:03,210 --> 00:41:06,130 You didn't kiss me one time today. 832 00:41:06,130 --> 00:41:07,423 Oh, my goodness. 833 00:41:07,923 --> 00:41:10,634 - Oh, it made me sad. - I'm gonna kiss you right now. 834 00:41:10,634 --> 00:41:11,677 Mm. 835 00:41:14,180 --> 00:41:16,599 - I was working! - I know, but... 836 00:41:17,349 --> 00:41:20,227 - I was concerned. - I did-- I did kiss you today though. 837 00:41:21,187 --> 00:41:22,188 This morning? 838 00:41:22,188 --> 00:41:25,482 I kissed you when you were in the bathroom getting ready. 839 00:41:25,482 --> 00:41:27,067 Did you? - Mm-hmm. 840 00:41:29,528 --> 00:41:31,113 - I'm sorry. - Kissed you on your cheek. 841 00:41:31,113 --> 00:41:33,657 And then before your friends came over. 842 00:41:34,533 --> 00:41:37,161 - And before my last meeting of the day. - Mm-hmm. 843 00:41:37,161 --> 00:41:39,121 I kissed you, like, right here. 844 00:41:39,121 --> 00:41:41,665 Right after you got done getting ready. Mm-hmm. 845 00:41:42,750 --> 00:41:46,962 You communicated to me that you want me to love on you. 846 00:41:46,962 --> 00:41:50,090 I'm aware I didn't do that today. It wasn't intentional, um... 847 00:41:50,591 --> 00:41:53,969 I'll work on kissing you a bit more. No, babe! That's not it. 848 00:41:53,969 --> 00:41:58,015 I did feel like, especially after our conversation about Jess... 849 00:41:59,016 --> 00:41:59,850 Yeah. 850 00:41:59,850 --> 00:42:03,437 I think just you seeing a picture of her, 851 00:42:03,437 --> 00:42:06,023 I was like, "Man, maybe he's just, like, wondering, 852 00:42:06,023 --> 00:42:08,692 'What would life be like with Jess?'" 853 00:42:08,692 --> 00:42:12,780 I didn't bring her up because I was picturing a life with her. 854 00:42:12,780 --> 00:42:15,950 I brought her up because Jeramey brought it up to me. 855 00:42:15,950 --> 00:42:19,662 - He asked if I saw Jess, and I haven't. - Mm-hmm. 856 00:42:19,662 --> 00:42:21,080 And he showed me her Instagram, 857 00:42:21,080 --> 00:42:24,542 and basically was like, "She looks like a Kardashian!" 858 00:42:24,542 --> 00:42:27,086 And I only say that because it was brought up, 859 00:42:27,086 --> 00:42:29,713 and I just wanted to fill you in on the conversation I had. 860 00:42:29,713 --> 00:42:34,677 And I know, and I love that, but in my head, I think, like, "Oh, shit." 861 00:42:34,677 --> 00:42:37,763 Not "shit," but, like, "He saw a picture of her." 862 00:42:37,763 --> 00:42:40,349 "Now, he's, like, thinking, like, 'Damn it, I fucked up,'" 863 00:42:40,349 --> 00:42:42,393 which is not right for me to think. 864 00:42:42,393 --> 00:42:44,186 That wasn't what came across my mind. 865 00:42:44,186 --> 00:42:48,482 I made my decision with you, and I am 100% on my decision with you. 866 00:42:49,817 --> 00:42:51,860 I'm sorry that I, uh, 867 00:42:51,860 --> 00:42:53,612 you know, I got a little busy today. 868 00:42:53,612 --> 00:42:55,489 - And I'm glad you're talking to me. - Mm-hmm. 869 00:42:55,489 --> 00:42:57,491 I want you to feel loved. Also... 870 00:42:57,491 --> 00:43:01,120 I don't mean to interrupt you, but I'm a huge nurturer, 871 00:43:01,120 --> 00:43:04,665 and my main concern is, like, when you do say "I love you," 872 00:43:04,665 --> 00:43:06,709 you don't really, like, say it. You say, like-- 873 00:43:06,709 --> 00:43:08,919 My tone? I bit the shit out of my lip! 874 00:43:08,919 --> 00:43:11,213 - I know, baby, but I love you. - You're not gonna get any-- 875 00:43:11,213 --> 00:43:13,257 And I give you so much of me, 876 00:43:13,257 --> 00:43:17,303 and I, like, I want you to give me all of you. 877 00:43:17,803 --> 00:43:21,724 And when you tell me you love me, it's just kind of like, "Hmm, love you." 878 00:43:22,391 --> 00:43:26,854 And I know you don't want me just to go through the motions just to say it 879 00:43:26,854 --> 00:43:28,981 or just kiss you just because I know you want it. 880 00:43:28,981 --> 00:43:32,985 I just want you to want me. I do want you, and I... 881 00:43:32,985 --> 00:43:35,821 I'm over here, like, really trying. 882 00:43:35,821 --> 00:43:39,533 - Yeah. - Really throwing out everything to you. 883 00:43:39,533 --> 00:43:42,620 For you to see, like, how I am as a person 884 00:43:42,620 --> 00:43:44,788 and how I will be as a wife. 885 00:43:45,372 --> 00:43:46,999 And I'm just kind of... 886 00:43:48,667 --> 00:43:51,879 - Yeah. - ...not really getting a glimpse of you. 887 00:43:53,881 --> 00:43:55,966 But just today or was it yesterday too? 888 00:43:56,550 --> 00:43:58,218 - It was yesterday. - Really? 889 00:44:03,098 --> 00:44:08,103 I asked you to marry me because I am 100% invested 890 00:44:08,103 --> 00:44:12,608 and going to do everything in my power to make you my wife. 891 00:44:13,108 --> 00:44:16,362 And I want to have a life with you. 892 00:44:16,362 --> 00:44:17,738 I want that more than anything. 893 00:44:17,738 --> 00:44:19,448 You gave me this. 894 00:44:19,448 --> 00:44:21,241 I know I did. I do love you. 895 00:44:21,241 --> 00:44:25,120 And I wanna feel it, and I don't really feel it right now. 896 00:44:25,120 --> 00:44:29,041 Today and yesterday, I didn't really feel any love from you. 897 00:44:32,044 --> 00:44:33,504 Okay. Well, I mean... 898 00:44:38,175 --> 00:44:39,843 I'm not gonna be able to tell you I love you 899 00:44:39,843 --> 00:44:42,554 every single hour of the day just because I'm working from home. 900 00:44:43,514 --> 00:44:45,432 I love you, and I really wanna make things work, 901 00:44:45,432 --> 00:44:48,602 but, honestly, I bit the living shit out of my lip, 902 00:44:48,602 --> 00:44:50,938 and it freakin'... it hurts to talk. 903 00:44:50,938 --> 00:44:55,359 You know, I love you to death, and I really do care about you, 904 00:44:55,359 --> 00:44:59,863 but... truthfully, you've been a little clingy. 905 00:45:04,660 --> 00:45:05,869 Clingy? 906 00:45:07,871 --> 00:45:10,290 You're saying you want me to give you more love and affection. 907 00:45:10,290 --> 00:45:12,334 And I feel like you're giving me too much. 908 00:45:12,334 --> 00:45:13,335 Clingy? 909 00:45:13,335 --> 00:45:15,379 I felt like-- - Are you fucking kidding me? 910 00:45:15,379 --> 00:45:19,049 You're calling me clingy? That was fucking rude. 911 00:45:19,717 --> 00:45:22,511 I have told you I love you more than any of the guys told their fiancées. 912 00:45:22,511 --> 00:45:24,221 I don't give a shit about them! 913 00:45:24,221 --> 00:45:26,807 I'm saying I have told you an excessive amount, in my opinion. 914 00:45:28,267 --> 00:45:29,309 I have told you a lot. 915 00:45:29,893 --> 00:45:30,978 Okay. 916 00:45:30,978 --> 00:45:33,564 And I have meant it every time I told you. I-- 917 00:45:33,564 --> 00:45:35,482 - Okay. - I really do love you. 918 00:45:40,904 --> 00:45:42,364 I have given... 919 00:45:43,115 --> 00:45:45,409 - I know you have given. - No, I don't wanna hear from you. 920 00:45:45,409 --> 00:45:50,789 I have given 100% to every single person I've ever been with. 921 00:45:50,789 --> 00:45:53,709 That's why I chose you. I know you give 100%-- 922 00:45:53,709 --> 00:45:55,335 I'm not done talking. 923 00:45:55,335 --> 00:45:57,588 I feel like shit. 924 00:45:58,756 --> 00:46:00,048 For you to say I'm clingy 925 00:46:00,048 --> 00:46:04,303 when I'm trying to do things for you to prove to you, like, "Hey, I love you." 926 00:46:04,303 --> 00:46:07,514 I'm telling you how I feel. - Okay, well, then that says a lot. 927 00:46:08,015 --> 00:46:09,391 If that's how you feel. 928 00:46:09,391 --> 00:46:12,436 I do not ever wanna be with someone who says I'm "too clingy," 929 00:46:12,436 --> 00:46:15,606 especially someone who put a fucking ring on my finger. 930 00:46:15,606 --> 00:46:17,232 That's not your whole personality now. 931 00:46:17,232 --> 00:46:21,945 I'm saying the last few days... you have been a little clingy. 932 00:46:21,945 --> 00:46:25,032 All right. Well, expect a lot less from me now, 933 00:46:25,032 --> 00:46:26,325 'cause that's fucking bullshit. 934 00:46:26,325 --> 00:46:30,329 Maybe I should stay at my place tonight, because this is-- this is not cool. 935 00:46:30,329 --> 00:46:32,706 I love you and want to be with you. I want a life with you. 936 00:46:32,706 --> 00:46:35,501 You didn't kiss me once today. I did. 937 00:46:35,501 --> 00:46:38,170 - You never tell me you love me. - I kissed you twice. 938 00:46:38,170 --> 00:46:39,296 Okay. 939 00:46:39,296 --> 00:46:41,965 I rolled out of bed late this morning. I went straight to work. 940 00:46:41,965 --> 00:46:45,093 And as soon as I get out of work, I come down here and meet your friends. 941 00:46:46,136 --> 00:46:48,847 And the first thing out of your mouth is "I'm clingy." 942 00:46:51,266 --> 00:46:54,478 You started causing these problems and digging for shit 943 00:46:54,478 --> 00:46:56,647 the second you saw Jess' picture. 944 00:46:57,439 --> 00:46:59,817 It's not about Jess at all. 945 00:46:59,817 --> 00:47:02,236 I'm about to marry you. Yeah. 946 00:47:02,236 --> 00:47:05,531 Okay? This is a huge, huge deal for me. 947 00:47:05,531 --> 00:47:08,242 - It's a huge deal for me too! - Because I'm clingy? 948 00:47:09,201 --> 00:47:12,329 - I cooked you dinner by myself. - I am thankful you cooked me dinner. 949 00:47:12,329 --> 00:47:14,998 Then I sat and watched your fucking show with you. 950 00:47:14,998 --> 00:47:17,668 You say I'm too clingy? And then went upstairs and had sex with you. 951 00:47:18,377 --> 00:47:19,753 And I'm too clingy? 952 00:47:19,753 --> 00:47:22,089 No. This is bullshit. This is fucking bullshit. 953 00:47:22,089 --> 00:47:24,550 That's fucking rude. That's so fucking rude. 954 00:47:24,550 --> 00:47:27,928 If you're gonna bring up the sex, you're the one that wanted to have sex. 955 00:47:27,928 --> 00:47:30,347 - Yeah, I did. - I also wanted a breather from that too. 956 00:47:38,063 --> 00:47:40,107 God! It's just, like... 957 00:47:40,107 --> 00:47:44,319 Like, I'm so disrespect-- like, I'm so fucking tired of this shit, like... 958 00:47:44,319 --> 00:47:46,905 God! 959 00:47:51,326 --> 00:47:54,913 ♪ That it's all worth the risk... ♪ 960 00:47:58,875 --> 00:48:00,377 ♪ ...caught in the fire ♪ 961 00:48:00,377 --> 00:48:02,629 ♪ Too many times, gone up in smoke ♪ 962 00:48:02,629 --> 00:48:04,339 ♪ Another turn ♪ 963 00:48:05,173 --> 00:48:07,009 ♪ Crash and burn ♪ 964 00:48:12,139 --> 00:48:14,433 I'm gonna go to my apartment. I need space. 965 00:48:14,433 --> 00:48:16,226 ♪ Crash and burn ♪ 966 00:48:17,311 --> 00:48:19,771 ♪ My heart's expired ♪ 967 00:48:19,771 --> 00:48:21,857 ♪ Been caught in the fire ♪ 968 00:48:21,857 --> 00:48:25,527 ♪ Too many times, gone up in smoke Another turn ♪ 969 00:48:26,612 --> 00:48:28,488 ♪ Crash and burn ♪ 970 00:48:28,488 --> 00:48:32,701 ♪ My mind, I'm losing my mind now... ♪ 971 00:48:44,838 --> 00:48:46,548 ♪ Crash and burn ♪ 972 00:48:48,216 --> 00:48:51,470 {\an8}♪ If I fall for you ♪ 973 00:48:51,470 --> 00:48:53,555 ♪ Caught in the fire ♪ 974 00:48:53,555 --> 00:48:55,682 ♪ I'll crash and burn ♪ 975 00:49:05,317 --> 00:49:06,944 Um, not us matching! 976 00:49:06,944 --> 00:49:08,695 Are you kidding me? 977 00:49:08,695 --> 00:49:11,865 Are you kidding me? Not us wearing the same shirt! 978 00:49:11,865 --> 00:49:13,825 I missed you! 979 00:49:13,825 --> 00:49:15,535 Oh, my God. I'm obsessed. I'm obsessed. 980 00:49:15,535 --> 00:49:17,371 {\an8}- You look amazing. - You look so cute, baby! 981 00:49:17,371 --> 00:49:19,456 {\an8}- No, you do. - So we have a lot to talk about. 982 00:49:19,456 --> 00:49:20,791 - I know. - Oh, yeah! 983 00:49:20,791 --> 00:49:23,085 Oh, my God! Oh, my God. Oh, my God. 984 00:49:23,085 --> 00:49:25,295 - He did so good. - Isn't that pretty? 985 00:49:25,295 --> 00:49:26,797 - You obsessed? - Yeah, I'm obsessed. 986 00:49:27,756 --> 00:49:29,508 Okay, so wait, tell me all about Autumn. 987 00:49:29,508 --> 00:49:31,927 - Did she just die? - She did. 988 00:49:31,927 --> 00:49:34,680 - I took, like, two days to myself. - Good for you. 989 00:49:34,680 --> 00:49:37,099 And then I texted Autumn and told her that I was home. 990 00:49:37,099 --> 00:49:42,062 And she was like, "So are we getting married? Or..." 991 00:49:42,062 --> 00:49:44,564 And I was like, "No, we're not." 992 00:49:44,564 --> 00:49:46,566 - Not right now. Yeah. - Not right now. 993 00:49:46,566 --> 00:49:49,486 I just told her that, like, I fell in love with someone. 994 00:49:49,486 --> 00:49:50,529 Yeah. 995 00:49:50,529 --> 00:49:54,825 And he ended up falling in love with someone else, and she was like, 996 00:49:55,701 --> 00:49:58,829 "He fell in love with someone else, and it wasn't you? Is he well?" 997 00:49:58,829 --> 00:50:01,665 With Jimmy, have you looked him up on social media? 998 00:50:01,665 --> 00:50:03,667 Has he looked you up on social media? 999 00:50:03,667 --> 00:50:06,044 Whenever you guys got back, the day after, 1000 00:50:06,044 --> 00:50:07,921 he sends me a friend request. 1001 00:50:08,755 --> 00:50:10,966 And I see it come through immediately, and I'm like... 1002 00:50:12,926 --> 00:50:15,011 I'm like, "Hang on, what do I do? What do I do?" 1003 00:50:15,011 --> 00:50:16,596 Eight hours go by. 1004 00:50:16,596 --> 00:50:18,015 And I go back and check. 1005 00:50:18,015 --> 00:50:20,058 And he withdrew the friend request. 1006 00:50:20,058 --> 00:50:22,019 And then put his profile on private. 1007 00:50:22,019 --> 00:50:24,229 And I was like, "I already saw what you look like." 1008 00:50:24,229 --> 00:50:26,565 You're just mad 'cause you can't see what I look like now, 1009 00:50:26,565 --> 00:50:27,566 so you're being petty. 1010 00:50:27,566 --> 00:50:29,151 That's interesting. 1011 00:50:29,735 --> 00:50:32,487 So I'm like, "Ooh. He must be thinking about me." 1012 00:50:33,405 --> 00:50:34,990 You're not repulsed by him. 1013 00:50:34,990 --> 00:50:37,451 - No. - Okay, fair enough. 1014 00:50:37,451 --> 00:50:39,411 No. 1015 00:50:39,411 --> 00:50:43,373 Even if he was, like, butt ugly, I think if I had married him, 1016 00:50:43,373 --> 00:50:46,460 I would just, like, close my eyes and let him talk. That would do it for me. 1017 00:50:46,460 --> 00:50:48,086 He has a good voice. Yeah. 1018 00:50:48,086 --> 00:50:53,467 If you were to see Jimmy, do you have things that you would say? 1019 00:50:53,467 --> 00:50:55,051 - I do have questions. - Okay. 1020 00:50:55,051 --> 00:50:58,722 And I don't even know if the opportunity will ever present itself. 1021 00:50:58,722 --> 00:51:01,725 But if we were in person and I heard his voice, 1022 00:51:01,725 --> 00:51:03,643 I'm like, "What would that do to me?" 1023 00:51:03,643 --> 00:51:08,023 I've spent almost the entire time I've been back, like, trying to heal. 1024 00:51:08,023 --> 00:51:11,359 - Yeah. - I don't want to see him and be set back. 1025 00:51:11,359 --> 00:51:14,738 'Cause, like, our first initial conversation was, like, so electric. 1026 00:51:14,738 --> 00:51:16,948 I'm like, "We're gonna, like, electrocute each other..." 1027 00:51:16,948 --> 00:51:19,117 - Yeah! -"...when we actually touch." 1028 00:51:19,910 --> 00:51:22,120 - Are they in love? Do you think? - I think so. 1029 00:51:22,913 --> 00:51:24,456 - I think so. - I hope so. 1030 00:51:24,456 --> 00:51:26,374 - For her sake, I hope so. - Yeah. 1031 00:51:26,875 --> 00:51:31,004 Jeramey was in a bit of a love triangle. Probably leaping to conclusions as I do, 1032 00:51:31,004 --> 00:51:35,008 I'm not sure if he shut things down with Sarah Ann. She DM'd him. 1033 00:51:37,094 --> 00:51:39,930 - Do you wanna read the DM? - You have it? 1034 00:51:39,930 --> 00:51:41,932 - I took a picture of his phone. - Oh, my God. 1035 00:51:41,932 --> 00:51:44,100 - Your girl was heated. - The tea is piping hot. 1036 00:51:44,100 --> 00:51:45,268 "Glad to see you're home. 1037 00:51:45,268 --> 00:51:48,021 I wanted to thank you for the experience we shared together." 1038 00:51:48,021 --> 00:51:50,315 "Getting to know you, opening up to you meant so much." 1039 00:51:50,315 --> 00:51:52,234 At this point, I'm like, "This is so sweet." 1040 00:51:52,234 --> 00:51:54,736 "I genuinely hope you're happy." I'm like, "This is adorable." 1041 00:51:54,736 --> 00:51:58,323 "If there's ever a chance your mind is shifting in your choice, 1042 00:51:58,323 --> 00:52:02,911 I would love the opportunity to meet you, regardless of whatever way you go." 1043 00:52:02,911 --> 00:52:06,289 Like he hasn't already chosen which way he's going. 1044 00:52:07,958 --> 00:52:11,002 Where would she get the audacity to send a message like that? 1045 00:52:11,002 --> 00:52:13,213 She knows we're engaged, knows we're living together. 1046 00:52:13,213 --> 00:52:15,590 Did he say anything back? - No. 1047 00:52:16,091 --> 00:52:19,261 But he, like, liked it. Like, acknowledged it. 1048 00:52:19,261 --> 00:52:22,556 He has been forthcoming with all of it, and I don't think he's in the wrong. 1049 00:52:22,556 --> 00:52:26,643 He's not done anything wrong, so we're Team Jimmy at this point. 1050 00:52:26,643 --> 00:52:28,395 Yeah. 1051 00:52:28,395 --> 00:52:31,606 What? Not Jimmy! Ah! Oh, my God! 1052 00:52:31,606 --> 00:52:34,317 - Are we? - We're not. I didn't mean to say Jimmy. 1053 00:52:34,317 --> 00:52:37,279 I wasn't thinking about him. Oh, my God, I hate myself. Ugh! 1054 00:52:37,279 --> 00:52:38,738 {\an8}Like, no, I'm not over Jimmy. 1055 00:52:38,738 --> 00:52:41,158 {\an8}Like, I don't know if anyone in my position would be. 1056 00:52:41,158 --> 00:52:46,246 Like, he will forever hold a part of me that nobody else does, 1057 00:52:46,246 --> 00:52:48,915 and I'd be lying if I say I didn't still get butterflies. 1058 00:52:48,915 --> 00:52:51,001 I mean, I'm a human being. I keep... 1059 00:52:51,001 --> 00:52:54,671 I've replayed and I have dreams often about, like, conversations we had, 1060 00:52:54,671 --> 00:52:58,717 and, like, plans we made and, like, experiences we had, like, in the pods. 1061 00:52:58,717 --> 00:53:00,093 Chelsea is stunning. 1062 00:53:00,093 --> 00:53:02,178 She's perfect in every way. Mm-hmm. 1063 00:53:02,178 --> 00:53:04,222 But, like, I've done my own digging, 1064 00:53:04,222 --> 00:53:07,767 and all of his exes look like me. 1065 00:53:07,767 --> 00:53:08,685 Yeah. 1066 00:53:08,685 --> 00:53:12,022 Chelsea is like the end-all, be-all. Everything. 1067 00:53:12,022 --> 00:53:14,149 But Jimmy's a man. 1068 00:53:14,149 --> 00:53:17,485 And, like, we knew without seeing each other that the attraction was there. 1069 00:53:17,485 --> 00:53:18,945 So, like, bringing it to life, 1070 00:53:18,945 --> 00:53:21,281 like, I don't know where he's at, but I have a feeling, 1071 00:53:21,281 --> 00:53:23,450 like, if I were to see Jimmy again, 1072 00:53:23,450 --> 00:53:27,412 it's gonna be like dangling temptation, like, right in front of his face. 1073 00:53:28,955 --> 00:53:31,041 It's the truth, and you know it is. 1074 00:53:32,250 --> 00:53:35,962 Everybody knows it is. Don't look at me like I'm wrong. 1075 00:53:35,962 --> 00:53:37,839 I think you meant a lot to him. 1076 00:53:37,839 --> 00:53:39,966 Do you think that he would wanna see me? 1077 00:53:42,093 --> 00:53:42,928 Yeah. 1078 00:53:42,928 --> 00:53:44,888 ♪ Haunted by... ♪ 1079 00:53:44,888 --> 00:53:46,014 Oh. 1080 00:53:54,064 --> 00:53:55,982 ♪ Haunted, haunted ♪ 1081 00:53:58,068 --> 00:53:58,902 ♪ Haunted ♪ 1082 00:53:58,902 --> 00:54:05,992 ♪ Haunted by you ♪ 1083 00:54:05,992 --> 00:54:07,994 ♪ Haunted, haunted ♪ 1084 00:54:10,080 --> 00:54:11,998 ♪ Haunted, haunted ♪ 1085 00:54:14,084 --> 00:54:14,960 ♪ Haunted ♪ 1086 00:54:14,960 --> 00:54:21,967 ♪ Haunted by you ♪ 1087 00:54:23,051 --> 00:54:29,975 {\an8}♪ Haunted by you ♪