1 00:00:18,893 --> 00:00:20,853 ["Girl" playing] 2 00:00:20,937 --> 00:00:21,897 ♪ Girl ♪ 3 00:00:24,274 --> 00:00:26,484 ♪ Perfectly her ♪ 4 00:00:27,068 --> 00:00:27,938 [grunts] 5 00:00:28,570 --> 00:00:31,490 ♪ Broken and hurt ♪ 6 00:00:32,323 --> 00:00:33,783 [Paula laughing] 7 00:00:33,867 --> 00:00:38,247 ♪ Soft and asleep in the morning gray ♪ 8 00:00:38,329 --> 00:00:42,459 ♪ Shake off the night And don't hide your face ♪ 9 00:00:42,542 --> 00:00:46,962 ♪ The sun lights the world With a single flame ♪ 10 00:00:49,007 --> 00:00:51,087 ♪ I want you to see this ♪ 11 00:00:53,428 --> 00:00:55,428 ♪ I want you to see this ♪ 12 00:01:02,228 --> 00:01:03,478 [engine starting] 13 00:01:09,861 --> 00:01:10,951 ♪ Today ♪ 14 00:01:12,864 --> 00:01:15,954 ♪ And all of your days ♪ 15 00:01:17,619 --> 00:01:20,209 ♪ I'll wear your pain ♪ 16 00:01:23,083 --> 00:01:27,133 ♪ Heal what I can in your troubled mind ♪ 17 00:01:27,212 --> 00:01:31,672 ♪ Sometimes our bodies Will hurt for some time ♪ 18 00:01:31,758 --> 00:01:35,718 ♪ And the beauty in that Can be hard to find ♪ 19 00:01:37,013 --> 00:01:39,273 ♪ I want you to know this ♪ 20 00:01:41,726 --> 00:01:44,936 I'm Denise. I'm a survivor of domestic violence. 21 00:01:45,021 --> 00:01:45,981 [all] Hi, Denise. 22 00:01:46,064 --> 00:01:47,154 Hi, Denise. 23 00:01:47,232 --> 00:01:52,322 Does anyone want to share anything today before we start with our special activity? 24 00:01:54,114 --> 00:01:57,414 Okay. Then I'll turn this over to Alex. 25 00:01:57,492 --> 00:01:58,702 Let's give her a warm welcome. 26 00:01:58,785 --> 00:02:00,995 [all snapping fingers] 27 00:02:01,079 --> 00:02:02,119 Thanks, guys. 28 00:02:02,205 --> 00:02:06,625 I'm Alex and I am a survivor of domestic violence. 29 00:02:06,709 --> 00:02:08,879 [all] Hi, Alex. 30 00:02:08,962 --> 00:02:12,972 I asked Denise if I could do some volunteer work and... 31 00:02:13,550 --> 00:02:16,090 I meant cleaning the toilets, but... 32 00:02:16,177 --> 00:02:18,137 Denise said that I should do this instead 33 00:02:18,221 --> 00:02:23,351 and I said "no," and she said "yes," and here we are. 34 00:02:23,434 --> 00:02:25,654 Show them your serial-killer notebook. 35 00:02:25,728 --> 00:02:28,398 She says my writing looks like a serial killer's, so... 36 00:02:28,481 --> 00:02:30,191 Damn, you wrote all that? 37 00:02:30,275 --> 00:02:34,315 I did. Yes. I wrote this just since I've been at McMullen House. 38 00:02:35,655 --> 00:02:39,615 Do any of you guys write for fun? 39 00:02:42,370 --> 00:02:44,910 Brandi, you do not need to raise your hand. 40 00:02:45,582 --> 00:02:49,712 I had a diary in 5th grade. It was furry and pink. 41 00:02:49,794 --> 00:02:52,054 It had a little lock on it. 42 00:02:52,130 --> 00:02:54,590 -Yeah. Me too. I had one of those. -Mm. 43 00:02:56,092 --> 00:02:57,722 [Alex] Here's the hard question. 44 00:02:57,802 --> 00:03:01,222 Who were you writing to when you wrote? 45 00:03:01,306 --> 00:03:03,846 Nobody. Just myself. 46 00:03:03,933 --> 00:03:05,273 Yeah, same. 47 00:03:06,269 --> 00:03:10,269 Writing is where I go to be honest about how I feel. 48 00:03:11,149 --> 00:03:14,859 Sometimes it's really the only way for me to know what it is that I'm feeling. 49 00:03:14,944 --> 00:03:18,364 Like I have to write in order to see what I'm gonna write. 50 00:03:18,448 --> 00:03:20,238 If that makes any sense. 51 00:03:21,075 --> 00:03:21,905 But... 52 00:03:22,911 --> 00:03:27,501 I find that it's a lot easier to write the truth than it is to say it out loud. 53 00:03:29,334 --> 00:03:31,634 Nobody can take writing away from you. 54 00:03:32,211 --> 00:03:36,631 Nobody can tell you that you're wrong, or your words are wrong. 55 00:03:36,716 --> 00:03:38,046 Because they're not. 56 00:03:38,134 --> 00:03:40,854 You're right, and your words are fucking right. 57 00:03:42,597 --> 00:03:43,927 Because they're yours. 58 00:03:45,558 --> 00:03:49,058 Anyway, we all have notebooks and pens. 59 00:03:49,145 --> 00:03:52,605 Are we gonna read this out loud? 60 00:03:52,690 --> 00:03:56,190 You can if you want to, but you definitely don't have to if you don't want to. 61 00:03:57,028 --> 00:03:59,948 Okay, so I brought some writing prompts 62 00:04:00,031 --> 00:04:03,531 that I got from a real professor from the Internet 63 00:04:03,618 --> 00:04:06,408 that is qualified to be teaching things. 64 00:04:06,496 --> 00:04:10,166 Okay. Describe a day in your life that you were really happy. 65 00:04:10,250 --> 00:04:13,130 It can be a real day that actually happened. 66 00:04:13,211 --> 00:04:16,421 Or an imagined day that you wish would happen. 67 00:04:19,509 --> 00:04:21,389 I'm gonna put ten minutes on... 68 00:04:22,553 --> 00:04:23,853 the clock. 69 00:04:23,930 --> 00:04:27,770 There's no pressure, we're just writing for the sake of writing. 70 00:04:33,731 --> 00:04:35,151 [Denise] That was great. 71 00:04:35,233 --> 00:04:38,243 -Can I ask something? You have a minute? -Of course. 72 00:04:38,319 --> 00:04:40,569 I know the answer to this already, 73 00:04:40,655 --> 00:04:43,655 but we're not allowed to have any visitors at the shelter, are we? 74 00:04:43,741 --> 00:04:46,121 No. I'm sorry, baby girl. 75 00:04:46,202 --> 00:04:49,292 We can only have individual victims and their children in shelter. 76 00:04:49,956 --> 00:04:51,576 -Figured. -Why? 77 00:04:52,875 --> 00:04:56,875 Um, I just found out that my mom's living in a car. 78 00:04:56,963 --> 00:04:58,303 Sorry to hear that. 79 00:04:58,381 --> 00:04:59,591 Thanks. 80 00:04:59,674 --> 00:05:01,134 Is she a victim of DV? 81 00:05:02,135 --> 00:05:06,925 She's a chronic victim of DV, but she's also in complete denial 82 00:05:07,015 --> 00:05:09,845 and delusional and unmedicated, so... 83 00:05:10,601 --> 00:05:12,561 Is she over 55? 84 00:05:12,645 --> 00:05:13,895 Mm-hm. 85 00:05:13,980 --> 00:05:17,530 They have a program called SHARE that puts homeless folks at senior centers, 86 00:05:17,608 --> 00:05:19,778 but she has to enroll. 87 00:05:19,861 --> 00:05:21,571 Yeah. Ah... 88 00:05:21,654 --> 00:05:24,784 She really hates everything government-oriented 89 00:05:24,866 --> 00:05:28,996 and she's on the lam from a psych ward, so that's not gonna work out. 90 00:05:29,495 --> 00:05:30,325 Thank you. 91 00:05:30,997 --> 00:05:33,287 Is there anyone else that can look after your mom? 92 00:05:34,083 --> 00:05:37,003 No, I've been taking care of her since I was 6. 93 00:05:38,338 --> 00:05:41,298 What would happen if you didn't? 94 00:05:50,600 --> 00:05:53,270 [Paula] I think I'll do something, I don't know, 95 00:05:53,352 --> 00:05:55,312 something spectacular when I walk in. 96 00:06:01,486 --> 00:06:06,696 They come in really strong. [laughs] Yeah, that's a good idea, so... 97 00:06:09,160 --> 00:06:10,580 Oh, shit, man. 98 00:06:10,661 --> 00:06:13,291 -Hey, Mom. -Alex, hey. 99 00:06:13,372 --> 00:06:18,712 I thought that was you, I was just driving home from a clean and I saw your car. 100 00:06:18,795 --> 00:06:20,415 She's hard to miss. 101 00:06:20,505 --> 00:06:24,965 -What are you up to out here? -Oh, well, look at Her Majesty. 102 00:06:25,051 --> 00:06:26,841 Spring has sprung. 103 00:06:26,928 --> 00:06:29,718 It's gonna be a cotton-candy sunset, 104 00:06:29,806 --> 00:06:33,306 and I'm gonna watch every sugar-coated moment of her. 105 00:06:33,392 --> 00:06:36,022 Looks like you were talking to the birds. 106 00:06:36,104 --> 00:06:37,774 Oh, no, honey. 107 00:06:38,397 --> 00:06:43,897 I downloaded that dictation app onto my phone. 108 00:06:43,986 --> 00:06:48,826 Because I'm giving a lecture on the Neolithic concept 109 00:06:48,908 --> 00:06:50,738 of the solar barge to the collective. 110 00:06:50,827 --> 00:06:54,907 And, um, I would write this one, but I can't. 111 00:06:54,997 --> 00:06:56,827 Because my fucking arm's killing me. 112 00:06:56,916 --> 00:06:59,166 Oh, where's your cast, Mom? 113 00:07:00,253 --> 00:07:01,633 Where did your cast go? 114 00:07:01,712 --> 00:07:03,382 Oh. [chuckles] 115 00:07:03,464 --> 00:07:06,184 It was plastered to your wrist. Where did it go? 116 00:07:06,259 --> 00:07:07,139 Uh... 117 00:07:07,885 --> 00:07:11,215 I had a terrible itch, so I had Micah saw it off. 118 00:07:11,305 --> 00:07:14,305 I have to say, it was oddly erotic. 119 00:07:14,392 --> 00:07:17,652 Are you kidding me? The cast has to be on for six more weeks. 120 00:07:17,728 --> 00:07:19,688 -It's fine. -No, that's not fine. 121 00:07:19,772 --> 00:07:22,692 You have a severed tendon and now your tendon is not gonna heal. 122 00:07:23,526 --> 00:07:27,236 If you're gonna ruin the cotton candy, you're gonna have to go. 123 00:07:32,285 --> 00:07:33,115 I'm, um... 124 00:07:34,203 --> 00:07:35,913 I'm glad that I ran into you. 125 00:07:36,539 --> 00:07:40,539 I know that you have a great living situation in your loft 126 00:07:40,626 --> 00:07:43,046 with your collective, but, um... 127 00:07:44,589 --> 00:07:47,339 I told you I'm moving to Montana. 128 00:07:49,719 --> 00:07:50,929 What if you came with me? 129 00:07:52,889 --> 00:07:55,139 I've got a place on campus. 130 00:07:55,224 --> 00:07:56,934 You could hang with Maddy 131 00:07:57,018 --> 00:08:01,648 and you could go on walks and you could paint all day. 132 00:08:02,398 --> 00:08:04,398 Watch Maddy start kindergarten. 133 00:08:07,445 --> 00:08:09,815 Oh, babe, that's not me. 134 00:08:11,741 --> 00:08:13,121 Why not? 135 00:08:13,201 --> 00:08:14,621 Because I'm not boring. 136 00:08:17,121 --> 00:08:18,871 I've got a big life. 137 00:08:18,956 --> 00:08:21,746 I can't be galloping off behind you, being a tag along. 138 00:08:21,834 --> 00:08:25,004 No, Mom. I'm really serious. I'm inviting you. 139 00:08:26,380 --> 00:08:28,420 My blood's here, honey. 140 00:08:28,508 --> 00:08:31,338 My mama's buried here. Her mama's buried here. 141 00:08:31,427 --> 00:08:33,257 The Langley women are here. 142 00:08:35,014 --> 00:08:38,184 I am a Langley woman and I am going. 143 00:08:38,684 --> 00:08:40,604 I know, baby, and that's you. 144 00:08:41,437 --> 00:08:42,307 But, uh... 145 00:08:44,857 --> 00:08:46,067 I can't leave. 146 00:08:49,529 --> 00:08:50,359 Okay. 147 00:08:52,949 --> 00:08:55,369 Go to some appointments before I leave. 148 00:08:55,451 --> 00:08:58,201 -Like the wrist doctor. -Hard pass. 149 00:08:58,287 --> 00:09:01,117 I'm making you an appointment for tomorrow, okay? 150 00:09:01,207 --> 00:09:04,087 You're gonna meet me there. Nod that you hear me. 151 00:09:08,589 --> 00:09:11,179 I don't wanna have to worry about you when I'm gone, Mom. 152 00:09:16,013 --> 00:09:18,773 [Paula] Look at that. Cotton candy. 153 00:09:20,810 --> 00:09:24,610 We're starting here, and then we're gonna go over some mountains. 154 00:09:25,189 --> 00:09:28,479 We're gonna go to Spokane, which is a really big city. 155 00:09:28,568 --> 00:09:31,028 Then we're gonna go over more mountains. 156 00:09:31,696 --> 00:09:33,526 Then over some more mountains. 157 00:09:34,282 --> 00:09:36,492 All the way to Missoula. 158 00:09:37,118 --> 00:09:38,998 -Mm-hm. -Right there. 159 00:09:39,078 --> 00:09:40,618 Missoula. 160 00:09:40,705 --> 00:09:41,535 Missoula. 161 00:09:43,416 --> 00:09:45,666 It's gonna take us this many hours. 162 00:09:45,751 --> 00:09:51,761 Two. Three. Four. Five. Six. Seven. Eight. Nine. 163 00:09:51,841 --> 00:09:52,681 Nine hours. 164 00:09:53,551 --> 00:09:56,051 -[Maddy] And "Shoop." -Exactly. 165 00:09:56,137 --> 00:09:57,597 ["Hello Hello Hello" playing] 166 00:09:58,973 --> 00:10:02,813 ♪ There he go, my baby Never answers in the room ♪ 167 00:10:03,436 --> 00:10:06,306 ♪ Steps outside or puts it on snooze ♪ 168 00:10:06,397 --> 00:10:09,027 ♪ He just do whatever he do ♪ 169 00:10:09,108 --> 00:10:11,688 ♪ Like, "Hello, hello, hello? ♪ 170 00:10:11,777 --> 00:10:14,357 ♪ How's my little lady In the New York snow?" ♪ 171 00:10:14,447 --> 00:10:16,907 ♪ Yeah, he says "I love you, I love you loads" ♪ 172 00:10:16,991 --> 00:10:20,701 ♪ We got a certified gambler Messin' with me ♪ 173 00:10:20,786 --> 00:10:23,076 ♪ Hello, hello, hello ♪ 174 00:10:23,164 --> 00:10:25,424 ♪ I got one foot in and one out the door ♪ 175 00:10:25,499 --> 00:10:28,209 ♪ I think it's 'bout time That I take control ♪ 176 00:10:28,294 --> 00:10:31,594 ♪ 'Cause I'm a certified gambler Fuckin' with three ♪ 177 00:10:31,672 --> 00:10:33,382 No! 178 00:10:34,759 --> 00:10:36,179 ♪ Hello, hello, hello ♪ 179 00:10:36,260 --> 00:10:37,640 [groans] 180 00:10:37,720 --> 00:10:42,180 ♪ But my baby miss me more Than he misses his job ♪ 181 00:10:42,266 --> 00:10:45,016 ♪ Makin' pizza in the Bronx ♪ 182 00:10:45,102 --> 00:10:48,112 ♪ He just has to call me up ♪ 183 00:10:48,189 --> 00:10:50,649 ♪ Like, "Hello, hello, hello? ♪ 184 00:10:50,733 --> 00:10:53,363 ♪ How's my little lady Playin' rock 'n' roll? ♪ 185 00:10:53,444 --> 00:10:56,164 ♪ Or maybe these days You like pop and soul?" ♪ 186 00:10:56,238 --> 00:10:58,948 ♪ He's a certified gambler Messin' with me ♪ 187 00:10:59,033 --> 00:11:05,543 Hi, I'd like to place an order for English 102, Block 5, textbook. 188 00:11:08,876 --> 00:11:09,876 For books? 189 00:11:11,295 --> 00:11:13,545 Do you have any used copies? 190 00:11:16,759 --> 00:11:19,799 Great, um, would you mind setting one of those aside? 191 00:11:19,887 --> 00:11:21,467 I can be there on Tuesday. 192 00:11:24,100 --> 00:11:24,930 Thank you. 193 00:11:25,017 --> 00:11:26,097 [cell phone buzzing] 194 00:11:29,188 --> 00:11:30,688 -Hey, Tara. -[Tara] Oh, good, hi. 195 00:11:30,773 --> 00:11:33,233 Just a quick update for you. 196 00:11:33,317 --> 00:11:35,237 I just got back from the clerk's office. 197 00:11:35,319 --> 00:11:36,859 -Uh-oh. -No, it's fine. 198 00:11:36,946 --> 00:11:39,566 They objected to the notice of relocation, which we knew, 199 00:11:39,657 --> 00:11:43,407 but the motion for the ex parte emergency custody order 200 00:11:43,494 --> 00:11:46,964 has been filed and I also slapped him with a temporary no-contact order, 201 00:11:47,039 --> 00:11:49,209 so that ought to make a point. 202 00:11:49,291 --> 00:11:51,381 -So he can't contact me? -Correct. 203 00:11:51,460 --> 00:11:54,380 The sheriff should be serving him with the restraining order 204 00:11:54,463 --> 00:11:56,673 and the ex parte motion this morning. 205 00:11:56,757 --> 00:11:58,337 Okay. Uh... 206 00:11:58,426 --> 00:12:01,006 -So, what happens now? -We wait. 207 00:12:01,095 --> 00:12:03,885 I left word for Sean's attorney. We should know more soon. 208 00:12:04,390 --> 00:12:06,100 Okay, thank you so much. 209 00:12:06,183 --> 00:12:07,563 Yeah, no problem, bye. 210 00:12:08,853 --> 00:12:11,403 Brandi, I think you were next, right? 211 00:12:13,190 --> 00:12:16,570 I don't know if this is my happiest day ever, 212 00:12:16,652 --> 00:12:18,612 but it's what came to my mind during then. 213 00:12:18,696 --> 00:12:19,946 Perfect. 214 00:12:21,657 --> 00:12:25,077 "I used to go on these walks with my dad as a kid. 215 00:12:25,744 --> 00:12:28,964 We'd go in June before the sticky late-summer heat. 216 00:12:30,791 --> 00:12:35,341 I'd get one of those Flintstone orange popsicles from 7-Eleven. 217 00:12:36,338 --> 00:12:39,468 The kind you have to use all your might to push up. 218 00:12:39,550 --> 00:12:43,970 We'd walk along the ocean looking at the Virgo constellations, 219 00:12:44,054 --> 00:12:47,434 since my birthday is four days before his. 220 00:12:48,309 --> 00:12:50,639 My dad would point to the sky and tell me 221 00:12:50,728 --> 00:12:54,228 he was the Big Dipper and I was the Little Dipper. 222 00:12:55,065 --> 00:13:00,445 [voice breaking] We stopped going on our walks when my dad got sick. 223 00:13:02,490 --> 00:13:04,830 But I went back recently with my son. 224 00:13:06,994 --> 00:13:09,414 Got him a Flintstone orange popsicle. 225 00:13:12,625 --> 00:13:14,705 They're much easier to push up now. 226 00:13:16,420 --> 00:13:20,470 I looked up at the night sky, and there it was... 227 00:13:21,258 --> 00:13:23,588 as if zero time had passed. 228 00:13:24,803 --> 00:13:26,433 The Big and Little Dipper." 229 00:13:34,021 --> 00:13:34,941 That's it. 230 00:13:35,523 --> 00:13:36,903 [all snapping fingers] 231 00:13:40,819 --> 00:13:43,989 So of course we wanna keep everything that we say positive, 232 00:13:44,073 --> 00:13:48,833 but I was hoping that we could say some of the images 233 00:13:48,911 --> 00:13:53,671 that are gonna stay with us from Brandi's story. 234 00:13:53,749 --> 00:13:55,879 "Sticky late-summer heat." 235 00:13:57,503 --> 00:13:59,263 "They're much easier to push up now." 236 00:13:59,880 --> 00:14:01,130 [all laughing] 237 00:14:02,424 --> 00:14:03,974 "Zero time had passed." 238 00:14:05,511 --> 00:14:07,181 "Big and Little Dipper." 239 00:14:08,681 --> 00:14:10,981 Does anybody else wanna share? 240 00:14:20,317 --> 00:14:21,527 [line ringing] 241 00:14:26,323 --> 00:14:28,623 [automated voice] Please leave a message after the tone. 242 00:14:28,701 --> 00:14:29,791 [voicemail beeps] 243 00:14:48,971 --> 00:14:50,181 [people chattering] 244 00:14:53,559 --> 00:14:54,389 Mom. 245 00:14:54,476 --> 00:14:55,306 Mom! 246 00:14:55,895 --> 00:14:57,055 Hey, honey. 247 00:14:57,146 --> 00:14:59,226 Don't. We're going to the doctor. 248 00:14:59,315 --> 00:15:01,855 -What doctor? -The doctor that you just stood up. 249 00:15:01,942 --> 00:15:04,402 She can see you at 4:00, but we have to leave right now. 250 00:15:04,486 --> 00:15:06,446 It's Thursday. I didn't say I was going. 251 00:15:06,530 --> 00:15:08,990 We have the booth on Tuesdays, Thursdays and Saturdays. 252 00:15:09,074 --> 00:15:10,784 And I'm not abandoning Micah. 253 00:15:10,868 --> 00:15:13,868 -Come meet my daughter. -We met the other day. 254 00:15:13,954 --> 00:15:14,794 Oh. 255 00:15:14,872 --> 00:15:17,042 Mom. Please, can we go? 256 00:15:17,124 --> 00:15:20,924 Uh, why have you got glitter all over? Did you go to a rave? 257 00:15:21,003 --> 00:15:23,423 -I cleaned a playroom. -[Paula] You know what glitter is? 258 00:15:23,505 --> 00:15:26,835 -It is the lice of the art room. -You gave me your word. Come on. 259 00:15:26,926 --> 00:15:29,506 -You spread it wherever you go. -Would you grow up? 260 00:15:29,595 --> 00:15:31,385 -We gotta go. -You're the one with glitter. 261 00:15:31,472 --> 00:15:34,102 Get in my car and I'm gonna drive you to the doctor. 262 00:15:34,183 --> 00:15:36,563 You're not the boss of me. Okay? 263 00:15:36,644 --> 00:15:38,064 It's my arm that hurts. 264 00:15:38,145 --> 00:15:41,975 I'll take CBD or go to the doctor or I'll cut the fucker off. 265 00:15:42,066 --> 00:15:44,606 Just because you're on some timer because you're leaving, 266 00:15:44,693 --> 00:15:46,743 doesn't mean I am. I am fantastic. 267 00:15:46,820 --> 00:15:49,530 For God's sake, just worry about somebody else. Please. 268 00:15:49,615 --> 00:15:51,365 -[Micah] Babe. -Oh, sorry, honey. 269 00:15:51,450 --> 00:15:54,160 I'm working. I've got a job here, okay? 270 00:15:54,828 --> 00:15:55,788 Hi there. 271 00:15:55,871 --> 00:15:57,081 [cell phone buzzing] 272 00:15:57,164 --> 00:16:00,384 You got a nice smile. Look at your smile. 273 00:16:01,043 --> 00:16:02,883 -Tara? -[Tara] Uh, change of plans. 274 00:16:02,962 --> 00:16:05,512 Do you think you could meet me near my office on Whitby? 275 00:16:05,589 --> 00:16:06,839 Is everything okay? 276 00:16:08,050 --> 00:16:09,680 I spoke to Sean's attorney. 277 00:16:09,760 --> 00:16:13,100 They are moving to reject the ex parte motion altogether, 278 00:16:13,180 --> 00:16:15,140 citing lack of evidence of abuse. 279 00:16:15,224 --> 00:16:18,394 And Sean is unwilling to revise the parenting plan 280 00:16:18,477 --> 00:16:20,807 or give up any of his custodial rights. 281 00:16:22,856 --> 00:16:24,566 Okay. 282 00:16:24,650 --> 00:16:25,780 Thanks. 283 00:16:25,859 --> 00:16:28,779 I'm sorry. So, what does that mean? 284 00:16:28,862 --> 00:16:31,662 It means that he says you're lying about being abused. 285 00:16:31,740 --> 00:16:34,830 So there will be an adequate-cause hearing in 14 days 286 00:16:34,910 --> 00:16:38,040 to determine the validity of your claims and appropriate custody. 287 00:16:38,122 --> 00:16:41,962 And it's gonna be what we call a win-loss case. 288 00:16:42,710 --> 00:16:45,710 If you lose, you can't take Maddy anywhere. 289 00:16:47,965 --> 00:16:49,045 Uh, ever? 290 00:16:49,133 --> 00:16:51,553 Washington makes it very hard for victims of DV. 291 00:16:51,635 --> 00:16:53,295 Particularly in cases of emotional-- 292 00:16:53,387 --> 00:16:56,887 I'm aware, I've been through this and lost because I didn't have any bruises. 293 00:16:56,974 --> 00:16:58,564 You're not gonna lose. 294 00:16:58,642 --> 00:17:00,942 We have 14 days to make a solid case. 295 00:17:01,020 --> 00:17:03,730 Someone must have seen this guy emotionally abuse you. 296 00:17:03,814 --> 00:17:06,234 I don't have 14 days. I leave for Montana on Monday. 297 00:17:06,316 --> 00:17:09,026 Legally, you can't go anywhere with Maddy. 298 00:17:09,111 --> 00:17:10,491 Not before the hearing. 299 00:17:14,783 --> 00:17:20,293 I am gonna lose my family housing and my spot in school. I'm... 300 00:17:20,372 --> 00:17:22,542 -Yes. -Another one. 301 00:17:23,417 --> 00:17:25,997 I have to leave the shelter this weekend. 302 00:17:26,086 --> 00:17:29,626 What do you think that I should do? I don't have a backup plan here. 303 00:17:29,715 --> 00:17:31,125 We're gonna fight this. 304 00:17:31,216 --> 00:17:33,836 I'm gonna get you there by fall semester. 305 00:17:33,927 --> 00:17:37,557 I just took out a $9000 student loan, $9000. 306 00:17:37,639 --> 00:17:40,179 I don't know if you realize, but this is my fucking life. 307 00:17:40,267 --> 00:17:42,687 I'm not rich like you and Regina. I can't repay this. 308 00:17:42,770 --> 00:17:43,900 There's more. 309 00:17:43,979 --> 00:17:46,569 Sean is demanding visitation with Maddy. 310 00:17:48,150 --> 00:17:51,070 No. We have a restraining order, so, no. 311 00:17:51,153 --> 00:17:53,033 It only applies to you, not to Maddy. 312 00:17:53,113 --> 00:17:55,783 The court has approved a four-hour visitation. 313 00:17:57,534 --> 00:17:58,664 When? 314 00:17:58,744 --> 00:17:59,584 Tomorrow. 315 00:18:00,245 --> 00:18:03,285 They will appoint a third party, neutral supervisor, 316 00:18:03,373 --> 00:18:05,633 unless you have someone you could use? 317 00:18:05,709 --> 00:18:07,209 -A grandparent? -Not doing that. 318 00:18:07,294 --> 00:18:08,674 I can't do that to her. 319 00:18:08,754 --> 00:18:11,924 If you don't comply, you will be in violation of your parenting plan, 320 00:18:12,007 --> 00:18:16,347 which will not look good for the hearing in 14 days. 321 00:18:16,428 --> 00:18:18,718 Alex, I'm sorry that this is happening, but... 322 00:18:20,099 --> 00:18:21,179 it's not over. 323 00:18:21,266 --> 00:18:22,636 It's just a speed bump. 324 00:18:27,981 --> 00:18:29,981 [emotional music playing] 325 00:19:09,106 --> 00:19:11,226 -Oh. -It's just me. 326 00:19:11,316 --> 00:19:14,026 Alex. Shit. Good God. 327 00:19:16,738 --> 00:19:18,528 You scared the shit out of me. 328 00:19:18,615 --> 00:19:20,235 What are you doing here? 329 00:19:21,285 --> 00:19:23,075 I need your help. 330 00:19:23,162 --> 00:19:24,412 What are you doing here? 331 00:19:24,496 --> 00:19:30,086 Oh, I had one too many margaritas and I just pulled over here to... 332 00:19:31,253 --> 00:19:33,173 sleep it off on the way home. 333 00:19:34,089 --> 00:19:36,879 -Mom. -I know this doesn't look good. 334 00:19:36,967 --> 00:19:37,887 It's just, um... 335 00:19:39,011 --> 00:19:43,101 the collective gets noisy and I come here... 336 00:19:43,932 --> 00:19:44,852 to nap. 337 00:19:46,101 --> 00:19:48,691 I know you sleep here, you spend all day in the park alone, 338 00:19:48,770 --> 00:19:50,690 and that there's no collective. 339 00:19:56,320 --> 00:19:57,320 Well... 340 00:20:00,240 --> 00:20:03,040 maybe "collective" isn't the right word. 341 00:20:04,828 --> 00:20:10,328 You know, we've really got a nice group of people here. 342 00:20:10,417 --> 00:20:11,457 Honestly... 343 00:20:12,085 --> 00:20:15,415 We've got the Flores family over here, in the van. 344 00:20:15,505 --> 00:20:17,965 Billy and Anna. I just love them. 345 00:20:18,050 --> 00:20:21,850 You know, we look out for each other and it's like a-- 346 00:20:21,929 --> 00:20:26,349 I don't know, a big sleep-out or a drive-in movie theater. 347 00:20:26,433 --> 00:20:27,943 We just need popcorn. 348 00:20:29,603 --> 00:20:31,273 Why can't you take care of yourself? 349 00:20:32,022 --> 00:20:35,362 What do you mean? You know, I've got my cooler in here. 350 00:20:35,442 --> 00:20:37,822 I've got my vitamins, baby. 351 00:20:37,903 --> 00:20:40,203 Cozy blanket and my fucking good weed. 352 00:20:40,280 --> 00:20:42,070 -I'm fine. -You're homeless. 353 00:20:42,157 --> 00:20:43,697 You're living in your car. 354 00:20:43,784 --> 00:20:46,044 -Would you just stop? -No. Please. 355 00:20:47,204 --> 00:20:48,624 I love my car! 356 00:20:49,456 --> 00:20:51,376 She's my cobalt bitch. 357 00:20:51,458 --> 00:20:53,458 -We're like family. -You're homeless, mom. 358 00:20:53,543 --> 00:20:56,593 -Would you please just stop! -You're homeless. 359 00:20:56,672 --> 00:20:58,882 I'm under the stars. I'm independent. 360 00:21:01,510 --> 00:21:03,680 And it's not all the time. I mean... 361 00:21:04,221 --> 00:21:06,271 sometimes I stay with Micah. 362 00:21:07,641 --> 00:21:09,311 When Alaina-May's not there. 363 00:21:09,393 --> 00:21:13,983 -Who the fuck is Alaina-May? -I told you. His wife. 364 00:21:14,064 --> 00:21:19,824 They broke up, but she still stays there because she's a feral dumpster fire. 365 00:21:19,903 --> 00:21:21,823 The point is, honey, I... 366 00:21:23,240 --> 00:21:28,370 You know, I like being a gypsy. I like being mobile. Okay? 367 00:21:28,453 --> 00:21:29,963 You know me. I'm scrappy. 368 00:21:30,038 --> 00:21:33,918 I don't know. I can't afford to put you in a motel or bring you to the shelter. 369 00:21:34,001 --> 00:21:35,171 I don't know. 370 00:21:35,252 --> 00:21:37,842 I am not your problem, Alexandra. 371 00:21:37,921 --> 00:21:40,261 -Yes, you are. -No, I am not. 372 00:21:40,340 --> 00:21:42,090 -I'm your mother. -You're not. 373 00:21:42,175 --> 00:21:43,255 Yes, I am! 374 00:21:44,219 --> 00:21:45,719 I am! 375 00:21:45,804 --> 00:21:48,854 You said you needed my help. 376 00:21:48,932 --> 00:21:49,772 I do. 377 00:21:49,850 --> 00:21:51,890 So how can I help you, madam? 378 00:21:52,602 --> 00:21:54,982 Can you supervise a playdate between Sean and Maddy? 379 00:21:55,063 --> 00:21:58,153 He gets visitation and a third party needs to be present. 380 00:21:58,233 --> 00:21:59,533 Can you do that? 381 00:21:59,609 --> 00:22:01,279 Yes, I can. 382 00:22:01,987 --> 00:22:05,237 -At what time should I be there? -12:30. 383 00:22:05,324 --> 00:22:06,784 Don't you worry. 384 00:22:07,409 --> 00:22:09,199 I will take care of your girl. 385 00:22:12,998 --> 00:22:15,788 -You're going to the doctor. -Over my dead body. 386 00:22:15,876 --> 00:22:17,746 You're going. Everything isn't all right. 387 00:22:17,836 --> 00:22:21,206 Everything is fucking shit and you need to be a goddamn adult. 388 00:22:21,298 --> 00:22:23,678 Your hand looks terrible. You're going! 389 00:22:26,261 --> 00:22:27,891 Do I get a lollipop? 390 00:22:31,516 --> 00:22:32,926 [Maddy giggling] 391 00:22:38,356 --> 00:22:40,776 Jesus Christ! [laughs] 392 00:22:41,443 --> 00:22:43,823 What's that smell coming from your car? 393 00:22:43,904 --> 00:22:46,494 -It smells like burnt turds. -You went to the doctor. 394 00:22:46,573 --> 00:22:49,283 Yeah, look. My finger still works. 395 00:22:49,367 --> 00:22:50,447 Hey, pumpkin pie. 396 00:22:50,535 --> 00:22:53,535 You ready for a playdate with me and your daddy? 397 00:22:54,247 --> 00:22:55,457 We're gonna have fun. 398 00:22:55,540 --> 00:22:58,840 I've packed a snack and a change of clothes and she's had lunch already. 399 00:22:58,919 --> 00:23:01,549 We've got this. Hi, pumpkin. 400 00:23:04,049 --> 00:23:05,679 Oh, I know. 401 00:23:05,759 --> 00:23:08,639 I guess I'll wait here, because I have to. 402 00:23:09,513 --> 00:23:12,103 Okay, Maddy. So you're gonna be with Dad for four hours. 403 00:23:12,182 --> 00:23:14,182 Thanks for sending the cops! 404 00:23:14,267 --> 00:23:15,227 Very classy! 405 00:23:15,811 --> 00:23:16,651 And then... 406 00:23:17,521 --> 00:23:21,111 [whispering] we'll go and get an ice cream together. Does that sound good? 407 00:23:21,191 --> 00:23:23,321 Do you want to get ice cream? Okay. 408 00:23:25,529 --> 00:23:27,409 -I love you so much. -Oh! 409 00:23:28,073 --> 00:23:30,583 -Thanks, Mom. -Yeah, we're gonna have fun. 410 00:23:34,746 --> 00:23:39,206 Get your Mad-dog. You're about to see your daddy. 411 00:23:39,292 --> 00:23:40,132 Hey! 412 00:23:40,210 --> 00:23:44,130 Sean-y, you've got your Mad-dog girl here. [laughs] 413 00:23:44,214 --> 00:23:46,174 -[Sean] Oh! -[Paula] Hey, Sean-y boy. 414 00:23:46,341 --> 00:23:48,551 -She's heavy. -[Sean] You're getting big. 415 00:23:48,635 --> 00:23:50,135 [Paula] She's getting so big. 416 00:23:51,596 --> 00:23:55,016 We've been swinging and she can go so high. 417 00:23:55,100 --> 00:23:56,060 Mad-dog! 418 00:23:56,852 --> 00:23:58,852 [pensive music playing] 419 00:24:02,023 --> 00:24:03,323 Thank you for coming. 420 00:24:03,942 --> 00:24:04,782 Of course. 421 00:24:06,236 --> 00:24:10,366 I was worried about you falling off the face of the earth like you did. 422 00:24:12,117 --> 00:24:13,027 You look okay. 423 00:24:14,995 --> 00:24:16,195 I am okay. 424 00:24:17,205 --> 00:24:20,535 Good. Where's Maddy? 425 00:24:20,625 --> 00:24:22,745 I thought maybe I'd get to see her. 426 00:24:24,838 --> 00:24:29,258 She is at the domestic violence shelter where I'm living. 427 00:24:30,468 --> 00:24:32,638 They have a daycare for their victims, so... 428 00:24:32,721 --> 00:24:33,931 Oh, okay. 429 00:24:34,014 --> 00:24:38,024 Well, did you, um--? Did you order anything yet? 430 00:24:40,520 --> 00:24:44,520 This is my second time at an emergency shelter for abused women this year. 431 00:24:48,153 --> 00:24:51,033 It's the second time that Sean sent me there. 432 00:24:55,577 --> 00:24:56,577 [clears throat] 433 00:24:59,289 --> 00:25:01,499 Do you hear the words coming out of my mouth? 434 00:25:02,125 --> 00:25:03,455 Yes, I hear them. 435 00:25:06,755 --> 00:25:07,585 And? 436 00:25:10,967 --> 00:25:13,387 I wish you would have reached out to me. 437 00:25:14,304 --> 00:25:17,314 Before taking my granddaughter to a place like that. 438 00:25:17,390 --> 00:25:19,180 You guys have a place to live. 439 00:25:21,144 --> 00:25:23,104 I would do anything to help, you know that. 440 00:25:23,188 --> 00:25:26,188 I'd give you the shirt off my back, all right? 441 00:25:26,274 --> 00:25:27,694 But instead you make me worry. 442 00:25:29,236 --> 00:25:30,606 You make Sean worry. 443 00:25:32,113 --> 00:25:34,873 I've been searching the ferry station floor 444 00:25:34,950 --> 00:25:36,120 for you guys, Alex. 445 00:25:36,952 --> 00:25:37,792 Okay. 446 00:25:39,329 --> 00:25:40,579 Maybe you can help me now. 447 00:25:42,040 --> 00:25:44,080 Because I do. I need your help. 448 00:25:45,335 --> 00:25:46,165 Okay. 449 00:25:48,755 --> 00:25:51,585 I filed for full custody of Maddy 450 00:25:51,675 --> 00:25:53,885 so that I can take her to Missoula with me. 451 00:25:53,969 --> 00:25:55,929 And Sean is objecting to it. 452 00:25:56,429 --> 00:25:57,809 Yeah, I know. 453 00:25:58,765 --> 00:25:59,845 Sean told me. 454 00:26:00,767 --> 00:26:01,597 You know... 455 00:26:02,811 --> 00:26:04,941 Sean's not doing too good right now. 456 00:26:05,021 --> 00:26:06,821 I don't care how Sean's doing, Dad. 457 00:26:07,607 --> 00:26:12,067 My lawyer is building a case to prove that Sean emotionally abused me. 458 00:26:13,822 --> 00:26:18,452 And I have to provide evidence, testimony from people that have seen it. 459 00:26:21,329 --> 00:26:22,159 Dad... 460 00:26:23,999 --> 00:26:27,209 will you testify that you saw Sean emotionally abuse me? 461 00:26:28,920 --> 00:26:31,010 -When would I have seen that? -At the trailer. 462 00:26:31,715 --> 00:26:34,545 -No. That's not what I saw. -I saw you see it. 463 00:26:34,634 --> 00:26:37,854 -No, Alex, that's not what I saw. -You sat there and didn't do a thing. 464 00:26:37,929 --> 00:26:40,849 If I saw anything, what I saw was a young couple 465 00:26:40,932 --> 00:26:42,682 going through a rough patch. 466 00:26:43,852 --> 00:26:46,692 Sean is struggling with his sobriety right now, 467 00:26:46,771 --> 00:26:49,191 and what he needs is empathy. 468 00:26:49,983 --> 00:26:52,443 You're walking away from him at the exact wrong moment. 469 00:26:52,527 --> 00:26:54,567 I can't be responsible for Sean any more, Dad. 470 00:26:56,281 --> 00:26:59,531 I have to do what's best for me, and I have to do what's best for Maddy. 471 00:27:00,618 --> 00:27:01,788 He's an alcoholic. 472 00:27:02,912 --> 00:27:04,252 Okay? He's-- 473 00:27:04,748 --> 00:27:08,878 He's got a disease that turns him into a monster. 474 00:27:09,502 --> 00:27:12,052 It's the booze that's the enemy, not him. 475 00:27:12,130 --> 00:27:14,090 Okay, is it the booze that hit Mom, then? 476 00:27:19,054 --> 00:27:20,064 -Okay. -Don't walk out. 477 00:27:20,138 --> 00:27:21,558 Are you fucking kidding me? No! 478 00:27:21,639 --> 00:27:23,599 Alex, what do you want me to say? 479 00:27:23,683 --> 00:27:25,193 I want you to say, "Yes." 480 00:27:25,268 --> 00:27:28,358 I want you to say, "Yes, I did hit Mom. I'm sorry." 481 00:27:29,898 --> 00:27:31,318 I don't remember that. 482 00:27:35,028 --> 00:27:37,738 You've never been here for me once in my entire life. 483 00:27:40,200 --> 00:27:42,200 But I'm asking for you to be, right now. 484 00:27:49,918 --> 00:27:52,708 I'm always there for you. For you and Maddy. 485 00:27:52,796 --> 00:27:53,756 It's just it's... 486 00:27:54,923 --> 00:27:56,133 Then do this for me. 487 00:27:57,300 --> 00:27:58,510 Stand up for me. 488 00:28:00,053 --> 00:28:01,473 Help me protect Maddy. 489 00:28:05,350 --> 00:28:06,850 Write a testimonial. 490 00:28:15,151 --> 00:28:16,571 I can't do that. 491 00:28:18,530 --> 00:28:20,530 [emotional music playing] 492 00:28:33,294 --> 00:28:35,674 Then I guess we don't have much to say to each other. 493 00:28:39,175 --> 00:28:40,085 Can you just--? 494 00:28:47,100 --> 00:28:52,110 [Denise] "My happiest day is the day my daughter touched me for the first time. 495 00:28:52,814 --> 00:28:54,944 I remember it like it was yesterday. 496 00:28:55,608 --> 00:28:57,238 She was nine weeks old. 497 00:28:57,902 --> 00:28:59,862 She didn't know I was in hell, 498 00:28:59,946 --> 00:29:02,946 terrorized day and night by her father. 499 00:29:04,200 --> 00:29:08,500 To her, I was just the warm, nice milk lady. 500 00:29:09,581 --> 00:29:13,041 But this one morning, when she was nine weeks old, 501 00:29:13,543 --> 00:29:17,173 we were napping on the floor and I woke up 502 00:29:17,255 --> 00:29:19,255 because someone was touching me. 503 00:29:19,799 --> 00:29:20,969 It was her. 504 00:29:22,260 --> 00:29:26,390 This tiny baby hand was holding onto my arm. 505 00:29:26,931 --> 00:29:28,981 She was looking at me, 506 00:29:29,726 --> 00:29:33,396 expressing unfiltered affection for me. 507 00:29:33,938 --> 00:29:36,728 This look of trust on her face... 508 00:29:38,359 --> 00:29:41,949 she saw me and loved me. 509 00:29:44,449 --> 00:29:46,909 It was the happiest moment of my life. 510 00:29:47,952 --> 00:29:51,462 That I could be that for someone." 511 00:30:00,590 --> 00:30:01,970 [all snapping fingers] 512 00:30:10,558 --> 00:30:11,728 Thank you, Denise. 513 00:30:13,186 --> 00:30:16,186 You guys want to say what images stood out to you? 514 00:30:16,731 --> 00:30:18,111 "Unfiltered affection." 515 00:30:18,817 --> 00:30:20,857 "Warm, nice milk lady." 516 00:30:23,571 --> 00:30:25,281 "Terrorized day and night." 517 00:30:30,286 --> 00:30:31,786 "Tiny hands." 518 00:30:35,875 --> 00:30:37,995 Does anybody else want to share? 519 00:30:41,005 --> 00:30:41,835 Trina. 520 00:30:41,923 --> 00:30:44,973 Mine's about a girl's night out. Is that weird? 521 00:30:45,051 --> 00:30:47,301 -It's-- No. -[all laughing] 522 00:30:47,387 --> 00:30:50,217 I didn't write about my kids like you guys did. 523 00:30:50,306 --> 00:30:53,056 It's your happy day. You can write about whatever you want. 524 00:30:53,685 --> 00:30:54,515 Okay. 525 00:30:57,230 --> 00:30:59,940 "I was at the bar with my usual wrecking crew. 526 00:31:00,024 --> 00:31:01,824 [all laughing] 527 00:31:01,901 --> 00:31:04,071 Liv, Amanda and Davina. 528 00:31:04,153 --> 00:31:07,413 We were slamming drinks, celebrating something, 529 00:31:07,490 --> 00:31:08,950 I can't remember what. 530 00:31:10,201 --> 00:31:14,121 But I'll admit it, I wasn't mad about how I was looking that night. 531 00:31:14,998 --> 00:31:19,588 Then this incredibly hot man came up from behind. His--" 532 00:31:19,669 --> 00:31:21,919 I'm sorry, I just have to step out for a second. 533 00:31:22,005 --> 00:31:23,875 -Keep reading. Thank you so much. -[Denise] Okay. 534 00:31:24,632 --> 00:31:27,142 [Trina] "His name was Neil. He was dressed very nice..." 535 00:31:27,218 --> 00:31:29,888 It's okay. It's okay. 536 00:31:29,971 --> 00:31:31,931 Are you okay? What's going on? 537 00:31:32,015 --> 00:31:34,385 She just got a little upset, that's all. 538 00:31:34,475 --> 00:31:38,305 She had a little meltdown and couldn't recover. 539 00:31:38,396 --> 00:31:39,936 Isn't that right, pumpkin? 540 00:31:40,023 --> 00:31:42,283 She just really wanted her mommy. 541 00:31:43,276 --> 00:31:48,276 Um, Alex, Sean-y dropped us off, and he wants to talk to you. 542 00:31:53,161 --> 00:31:54,501 I'm in the middle of class. 543 00:31:54,579 --> 00:31:57,329 Honey, you need to go talk to him. 544 00:31:57,415 --> 00:31:59,125 Things did not go well. 545 00:32:04,714 --> 00:32:05,554 What happened? 546 00:32:06,966 --> 00:32:10,466 When I told her to get off the swing, she had a tantrum. She was screaming. 547 00:32:12,889 --> 00:32:16,559 -She never wants to get off the swings. -I know, but I fucking couldn't handle it. 548 00:32:17,310 --> 00:32:19,940 I-- I lost my temper, and I yelled at her. 549 00:32:28,947 --> 00:32:30,487 I haven't had a drink in 24 hours. 550 00:32:30,573 --> 00:32:33,833 I was trying to be straight for Maddy, and, uh... 551 00:32:37,997 --> 00:32:39,327 I'm irritable. 552 00:32:40,416 --> 00:32:42,086 My skin fucking crawls. 553 00:32:43,419 --> 00:32:44,589 The sun hurts. 554 00:32:45,088 --> 00:32:46,548 I'm just rubbed raw. 555 00:32:49,717 --> 00:32:53,637 I was pushing Maddy on the swings. She kept saying, "Higher, Daddy, higher." 556 00:32:56,015 --> 00:32:57,225 And it was nice. 557 00:32:58,768 --> 00:32:59,978 She was giggling. 558 00:33:01,896 --> 00:33:04,516 But even then, I was still planning my next fucking drink. 559 00:33:04,607 --> 00:33:08,187 I was trying to find some... relief. 560 00:33:08,903 --> 00:33:12,623 And she had the tantrum, and I knew that if Paula wasn't there, 561 00:33:12,699 --> 00:33:15,199 I'd have found a drink with Maddy in tow. 562 00:33:18,913 --> 00:33:20,423 Just like my fucking mom. 563 00:33:26,254 --> 00:33:28,094 I don't wanna do that to Maddy. 564 00:33:32,760 --> 00:33:34,970 I'm signing over full custody to you. 565 00:33:37,223 --> 00:33:38,643 I just called my lawyer. 566 00:33:46,607 --> 00:33:48,567 Sorry I'm such a piece of shit. 567 00:33:51,696 --> 00:33:53,236 You're doing right by her. 568 00:33:56,576 --> 00:34:00,246 You can come whenever you want, and get her stuff. I'll box it up for you. 569 00:34:04,042 --> 00:34:04,962 Thanks. 570 00:34:05,043 --> 00:34:07,053 [emotional music playing] 571 00:34:18,222 --> 00:34:20,482 Do I have the DTs, or are you sparkly? 572 00:34:24,729 --> 00:34:25,689 I'm sparkly. 573 00:34:39,118 --> 00:34:40,408 [cell phone buzzing] 574 00:34:49,962 --> 00:34:52,222 [Denise] Nice. Thanks for sharing. 575 00:34:52,298 --> 00:34:53,468 [all snapping fingers] 576 00:34:57,762 --> 00:34:59,312 That was so awesome. 577 00:34:59,388 --> 00:35:02,178 "Fuck Murphy's Law." I like that line. 578 00:35:03,518 --> 00:35:06,688 "Punched him like a boxer." That stood out to me. 579 00:35:06,771 --> 00:35:08,361 [Kyla] "The cracked nightlight." 580 00:35:09,357 --> 00:35:10,977 Black, not blue. 581 00:35:11,067 --> 00:35:12,897 I just loved the whole thing. 582 00:35:12,985 --> 00:35:15,355 You're a great writer, Edith. 583 00:35:15,446 --> 00:35:17,026 -Esther. -[Paula] Oh. Yeah. 584 00:35:17,115 --> 00:35:19,445 Well, I'm next, right? 585 00:35:19,534 --> 00:35:21,374 Mom, you didn't write anything. 586 00:35:21,452 --> 00:35:22,952 Well, I can recite it. 587 00:35:23,037 --> 00:35:25,707 I'm a great-- I'm just great at oration. 588 00:35:25,790 --> 00:35:26,710 Mother. 589 00:35:28,376 --> 00:35:29,336 Aww... 590 00:35:29,961 --> 00:35:31,631 Oh, well. Okay. 591 00:35:33,714 --> 00:35:36,514 -Will you wait outside? I'm almost done. -Okay. 592 00:35:36,592 --> 00:35:39,142 -Bye, ladies. -Bye. 593 00:35:39,220 --> 00:35:42,180 -Peace out. -You're welcome back any time, Paula. 594 00:35:42,265 --> 00:35:43,765 Oh, thank you so much. 595 00:35:43,850 --> 00:35:44,980 [all snapping fingers] 596 00:35:45,059 --> 00:35:46,389 [Paula] Oh! [chuckling] 597 00:35:46,477 --> 00:35:47,307 Yeah. 598 00:35:49,480 --> 00:35:50,730 [Paula] Oh, man. 599 00:35:51,274 --> 00:35:53,154 Here's to getting out of Dodge. 600 00:35:53,234 --> 00:35:54,494 [Paula chuckles] 601 00:35:55,945 --> 00:35:58,065 My man Sean-y looked like shit. 602 00:36:00,825 --> 00:36:02,865 Your dad shook a lot like that. 603 00:36:06,831 --> 00:36:08,881 Do you want to tell me your happiest day? 604 00:36:10,960 --> 00:36:11,790 What? 605 00:36:12,753 --> 00:36:14,263 The thing we were doing in group. 606 00:36:14,922 --> 00:36:17,802 You have a day you remember where you were happy? 607 00:36:18,759 --> 00:36:19,759 Oh. 608 00:36:21,971 --> 00:36:25,771 Hands down, our first morning in Alaska. 609 00:36:27,226 --> 00:36:29,436 We got into Anchorage in the middle of the night, 610 00:36:29,520 --> 00:36:33,570 and you were freezing because I forgot your coat. 611 00:36:35,109 --> 00:36:37,739 We left your dad's in such a panic. 612 00:36:40,740 --> 00:36:44,120 I had this cabin for us, and it didn't have any furniture. 613 00:36:44,869 --> 00:36:46,079 So, uh... 614 00:36:47,079 --> 00:36:50,329 I just dumped all the clothes from the suitcase 615 00:36:50,416 --> 00:36:53,376 in the middle of the floor and made us a bed. 616 00:36:54,212 --> 00:36:56,672 And we slept there, snuggled up. 617 00:36:59,342 --> 00:37:02,762 The next morning, while you were still sleeping, 618 00:37:02,845 --> 00:37:04,715 I tiptoed outside, 619 00:37:04,805 --> 00:37:07,015 and I just dove into the snow. 620 00:37:08,226 --> 00:37:09,386 And I lay there, 621 00:37:10,269 --> 00:37:13,149 and made a snow angel. [chuckles] 622 00:37:13,231 --> 00:37:16,281 Because nobody was there to tell me I was crazy 623 00:37:17,360 --> 00:37:19,200 or suddenly explode on me. 624 00:37:19,946 --> 00:37:21,656 It was just me... 625 00:37:23,199 --> 00:37:24,779 the sun and the snow. 626 00:37:29,664 --> 00:37:33,004 Anyway, in less than a year, we were back here, 627 00:37:33,084 --> 00:37:35,424 and I was broke as shit. 628 00:37:35,503 --> 00:37:38,173 The whole trip was just dumb. 629 00:37:39,173 --> 00:37:40,173 No, it wasn't. 630 00:37:40,258 --> 00:37:41,548 It wasn't dumb. 631 00:37:42,260 --> 00:37:45,010 You got me away from Dad, and you never went back to him. 632 00:38:01,529 --> 00:38:02,529 Uh... 633 00:38:03,864 --> 00:38:04,744 So, uh... 634 00:38:09,453 --> 00:38:11,543 So am I still invited to Montana? 635 00:38:13,249 --> 00:38:14,289 You want to come? 636 00:38:15,918 --> 00:38:16,788 Yeah. 637 00:38:19,714 --> 00:38:21,514 Hell yeah, why not? 638 00:38:22,133 --> 00:38:25,973 I can get a job painting murals, 639 00:38:26,595 --> 00:38:28,505 find me a mountain man. 640 00:38:28,597 --> 00:38:30,347 [Paula laughing] 641 00:38:30,433 --> 00:38:31,933 Plus, Maddy needs me. 642 00:38:32,018 --> 00:38:33,848 She's an artist like me. 643 00:38:33,936 --> 00:38:35,976 Can you be ready by Monday? 644 00:38:36,814 --> 00:38:38,944 [laughing] I'm ready. 645 00:38:39,025 --> 00:38:40,525 I'm packed, baby. 646 00:38:40,609 --> 00:38:43,399 That's the nice thing about living in your car, you're packed. 647 00:38:43,487 --> 00:38:45,737 I don't know if she's going to make it to Montana, 648 00:38:45,823 --> 00:38:48,083 I might have to sell her for parts... 649 00:38:49,952 --> 00:38:52,332 but I could hitch a ride with you, yeah? 650 00:38:53,331 --> 00:38:54,251 Yeah. 651 00:38:54,332 --> 00:38:55,832 -Yeah? -Yes. 652 00:38:55,916 --> 00:38:57,496 -Really? -Of course. 653 00:38:57,585 --> 00:38:59,455 Oh, my gosh. Yes? 654 00:39:00,504 --> 00:39:01,464 Maddy! 655 00:39:01,547 --> 00:39:03,217 Maddy girl, guess what. 656 00:39:03,299 --> 00:39:05,299 We're going on a road trip! 657 00:39:05,801 --> 00:39:08,221 Do you want to go on a road trip with Grammy? 658 00:39:08,804 --> 00:39:10,564 We're going to go on a road trip! 659 00:39:10,639 --> 00:39:14,309 Oh, my goodness, we're going to go on a road trip! 660 00:39:14,393 --> 00:39:15,733 ["We Get By" playing] 661 00:39:15,811 --> 00:39:17,401 ♪ On love and faith ♪ 662 00:39:19,690 --> 00:39:24,900 ♪ We get by with a smile on our face ♪ 663 00:39:27,114 --> 00:39:32,084 ♪ We get by with help from our kin ♪ 664 00:39:34,205 --> 00:39:39,035 ♪ We get by Through thick and through thin ♪ 665 00:39:41,295 --> 00:39:42,665 ♪ We get by ♪ 666 00:39:44,840 --> 00:39:46,300 ♪ We get by ♪ 667 00:39:47,176 --> 00:39:50,966 ♪ No matter what happens I'll be there for you ♪ 668 00:39:51,055 --> 00:39:53,345 ♪ We get by ♪ 669 00:39:55,184 --> 00:39:56,814 ♪ We get by ♪ 670 00:39:59,063 --> 00:40:00,193 ♪ We get by ♪ 671 00:40:01,148 --> 00:40:04,988 ♪ No matter how long I'll be waiting here for you ♪ 672 00:40:05,069 --> 00:40:07,659 ♪ We get by ♪ 673 00:40:08,155 --> 00:40:11,865 ♪ No matter how long, I'll come running ♪ 674 00:40:11,951 --> 00:40:14,581 -♪ We get by ♪ -♪ I'll be waiting ♪ 675 00:40:14,662 --> 00:40:15,622 ♪ Oh ♪ 676 00:40:15,704 --> 00:40:18,794 ♪ No matter what happens I'll be there for you ♪ 677 00:40:18,874 --> 00:40:22,294 -♪ I'll be there for you ♪ -♪ Oh ♪ 678 00:40:22,378 --> 00:40:25,088 ♪ Oh, oh, yeah ♪ 679 00:40:25,172 --> 00:40:26,632 -Is that it? -That's it. 680 00:40:38,894 --> 00:40:41,024 You can come see her as much as you want. 681 00:40:43,023 --> 00:40:44,903 Yeah, I'm going to get myself cleaned up. 682 00:40:48,863 --> 00:40:51,123 And then I'll come visit all the time. 683 00:41:00,666 --> 00:41:02,416 I'm really going to miss her. 684 00:41:25,441 --> 00:41:26,651 Good luck, Alaska. 685 00:41:29,653 --> 00:41:30,993 [engine starting] 686 00:41:32,656 --> 00:41:34,656 [upbeat music playing] 687 00:42:01,227 --> 00:42:04,097 -[Maddy] Save the black ones. -Yes... 688 00:42:04,188 --> 00:42:06,648 Yeah, and black ones are nice. 689 00:42:07,316 --> 00:42:08,276 Come on, Maddy. 690 00:42:35,469 --> 00:42:36,299 This way. 691 00:43:15,926 --> 00:43:17,046 All right, honey... 692 00:43:18,929 --> 00:43:20,059 I'll be right back. 693 00:43:22,474 --> 00:43:23,774 [doorbell rings] 694 00:43:28,939 --> 00:43:31,069 I didn't know you were coming by. Come on in. 695 00:43:31,150 --> 00:43:32,900 I can't, I've got Maddy back there. 696 00:43:34,028 --> 00:43:35,898 I just wanted to come say goodbye. 697 00:43:36,488 --> 00:43:38,698 I also have been meaning to give you this. 698 00:43:38,782 --> 00:43:43,162 I'm not sure if I stole it or what happened, but I had it, so... 699 00:43:44,246 --> 00:43:46,916 I saw you had it on. Thanksgiving, right? 700 00:43:46,999 --> 00:43:48,129 I'm really sorry. 701 00:43:48,208 --> 00:43:50,788 Nah, can't blame a girl for putting on a little cashmere. 702 00:43:53,339 --> 00:43:55,759 -So next stop Montana? -I'm, uh... 703 00:43:56,800 --> 00:44:00,300 going to pick my mom up in Port Winslow and get on the I-90. 704 00:44:02,514 --> 00:44:05,984 -Thank you for being such a good friend. -You too. 705 00:44:09,480 --> 00:44:13,190 -Keep the sweater. -No, no, I'm going to buy my own one day. 706 00:44:13,734 --> 00:44:15,574 It was $1400. 707 00:44:16,612 --> 00:44:17,532 I'm keeping it. 708 00:44:20,616 --> 00:44:22,696 [emotional music playing] 709 00:44:59,947 --> 00:45:01,777 -Mother? -Oh! 710 00:45:02,408 --> 00:45:03,988 Hi. Hi, hi. 711 00:45:04,576 --> 00:45:05,446 Oh! 712 00:45:07,871 --> 00:45:10,331 Oh, honey, you must be so excited. 713 00:45:11,250 --> 00:45:14,960 -You said you were going to sell your car. -I was. I mean... 714 00:45:15,045 --> 00:45:17,205 I am. But, baby, honey, 715 00:45:17,297 --> 00:45:21,087 I just have the most incredible news. 716 00:45:23,971 --> 00:45:24,931 What? 717 00:45:25,013 --> 00:45:28,023 Micah threw Alaina-May out. 718 00:45:28,100 --> 00:45:30,810 He threw that feral bitch to the curb for me. 719 00:45:30,894 --> 00:45:34,234 And I slept in his bed last night, in his arms. 720 00:45:34,314 --> 00:45:37,034 And I'm telling you, honey, there's sex and then there's... 721 00:45:37,109 --> 00:45:39,739 Oh, my God, this was on a whole new level. 722 00:45:39,820 --> 00:45:41,410 Even for me. 723 00:45:43,866 --> 00:45:45,276 Are you not coming? 724 00:45:45,909 --> 00:45:48,659 Sweetie, you know, just not right now. 725 00:45:48,745 --> 00:45:51,535 I mean, I-- I can't leave Micah right now, 726 00:45:51,623 --> 00:45:53,963 I mean, what's going on between us, you know, baby, 727 00:45:54,042 --> 00:45:56,252 it's just so powerful and... 728 00:45:57,296 --> 00:45:58,166 It's just really... 729 00:46:00,048 --> 00:46:01,718 I can't wait on you, Mom. 730 00:46:01,800 --> 00:46:04,430 No, you're not. Of course you're not going to wait on me. 731 00:46:04,511 --> 00:46:05,721 This is your moment. 732 00:46:05,804 --> 00:46:10,354 You go, baby doll, and I'll tell you what, give me the address, 733 00:46:10,434 --> 00:46:13,064 and I'll be right behind. 734 00:46:13,145 --> 00:46:15,185 I just-- I'll follow you, okay? 735 00:46:16,273 --> 00:46:19,153 -I don't want to leave you here. -I know. 736 00:46:19,234 --> 00:46:21,114 Isn't it funny how these things work out? 737 00:46:21,195 --> 00:46:24,195 I mean, as soon as I told Micah I was leaving, 738 00:46:24,281 --> 00:46:26,371 he realized he had feelings for me. 739 00:46:26,450 --> 00:46:28,200 I mean, baby, it was, "Boom!" 740 00:46:28,285 --> 00:46:31,495 And he told Alaina-May about me and everything. 741 00:46:33,123 --> 00:46:34,003 Just... 742 00:46:34,833 --> 00:46:36,133 be happy for me. 743 00:46:40,506 --> 00:46:41,666 I'm gonna go without you. 744 00:46:41,757 --> 00:46:44,217 Yes, you're going to go. Of course you're going to go. 745 00:46:46,929 --> 00:46:49,849 Sweetheart, this is your adventure. It's not mine. 746 00:46:54,895 --> 00:46:56,185 You going to be okay? 747 00:46:58,440 --> 00:47:01,110 -Come on, you know you love me. -I do love you. 748 00:47:01,193 --> 00:47:04,663 -I know you do. Give me a really good hug. -Okay. 749 00:47:04,738 --> 00:47:05,818 [Paula laughing] 750 00:47:05,906 --> 00:47:07,316 Oh, God. 751 00:47:07,407 --> 00:47:08,737 Oh, sweetie. 752 00:47:08,825 --> 00:47:11,115 -I love you, Mom. -Yeah, I know, baby. 753 00:47:15,374 --> 00:47:16,634 [engine starting] 754 00:47:16,708 --> 00:47:18,708 [pensive music playing] 755 00:47:48,782 --> 00:47:51,372 [upbeat music playing] 756 00:48:10,053 --> 00:48:13,103 [Alex] Do you guys want to do a round of snaps for everybody? 757 00:48:13,181 --> 00:48:14,561 [all snapping fingers] 758 00:48:21,398 --> 00:48:24,278 I just want to thank you guys so much for doing this with me. 759 00:48:25,027 --> 00:48:26,237 It's been a real honor. 760 00:48:27,779 --> 00:48:29,029 Thank you. 761 00:48:29,114 --> 00:48:30,624 Thank you, Alex. 762 00:48:30,699 --> 00:48:33,409 Wait, we didn't hear your happiest day. 763 00:48:33,493 --> 00:48:34,753 [laughs] 764 00:48:34,828 --> 00:48:36,078 [all snapping fingers] 765 00:48:39,666 --> 00:48:42,286 "My happiest day hasn't happened yet. 766 00:48:43,629 --> 00:48:45,299 But it's about to. 767 00:48:45,380 --> 00:48:46,800 ["Let Go" playing] 768 00:48:47,841 --> 00:48:52,141 On that day, I'm going to get in my car 769 00:48:52,220 --> 00:48:54,390 that smells like old tuna... 770 00:48:55,349 --> 00:48:58,059 which will be packed with all of my belongings 771 00:48:58,143 --> 00:49:00,313 and my amazing daughter. 772 00:49:00,979 --> 00:49:04,979 And I'm going to drive the fuck out of this town. [chuckles] 773 00:49:05,067 --> 00:49:07,607 I'm going to drive nine hours, 774 00:49:08,612 --> 00:49:13,832 566 miles to Missoula, Montana... 775 00:49:15,202 --> 00:49:18,502 where I'm going to spend the next four years... 776 00:49:19,289 --> 00:49:21,039 learning to be a writer. 777 00:49:22,417 --> 00:49:26,507 Hopefully, there will be a lot of happy days during that time. 778 00:49:28,173 --> 00:49:30,763 And I know there will be some hard ones. 779 00:49:33,637 --> 00:49:37,927 Most people would bet against a single mom putting herself through college. 780 00:49:40,185 --> 00:49:42,395 But they don't know what it took to get here. 781 00:49:45,357 --> 00:49:48,397 Three hundred and thirty-eight toilets cleaned... 782 00:49:50,987 --> 00:49:53,407 seven types of government assistance... 783 00:49:55,075 --> 00:49:57,035 nine separate moves... 784 00:49:58,995 --> 00:50:01,325 one night on the ferry-station floor... 785 00:50:02,708 --> 00:50:06,838 and the entire third year of my daughter's life. 786 00:50:09,005 --> 00:50:11,295 But, when we get to Missoula... 787 00:50:12,551 --> 00:50:14,851 I'm going to take Maddy up Sentinel Mountain... 788 00:50:16,054 --> 00:50:19,524 which looks over the town, and show her our new home. 789 00:50:19,599 --> 00:50:23,399 ♪ Ripped apart by albatross ♪ 790 00:50:23,478 --> 00:50:25,978 [Alex] I've been telling her all about the giant M 791 00:50:26,064 --> 00:50:27,904 that's at the tippy-top of the mountain. 792 00:50:33,989 --> 00:50:37,739 That the trail up there is long and zig-zaggy. 793 00:50:37,826 --> 00:50:41,116 ♪ What's in a name? ♪ 794 00:50:41,204 --> 00:50:42,254 The hike will be hard. 795 00:50:44,958 --> 00:50:46,878 But we're going to make it to the top. 796 00:50:49,254 --> 00:50:50,594 And when we do... 797 00:50:52,799 --> 00:50:55,929 I'm going to tell her that the M stands for 'Maddy.' 798 00:50:59,097 --> 00:51:01,557 That this whole new world is for her." 799 00:51:01,641 --> 00:51:07,021 ♪ Down on the other side ♪ 800 00:51:08,231 --> 00:51:13,491 [both] Whoo! 801 00:51:18,950 --> 00:51:23,870 ♪ Looking up to let go ♪ 802 00:51:27,417 --> 00:51:33,337 ♪ Now I'm letting go ♪ 803 00:51:37,761 --> 00:51:43,601 ♪ Now I'm letting go ♪ 804 00:51:46,394 --> 00:51:53,364 ♪ Now I'm letting go ♪ 805 00:51:54,528 --> 00:52:01,538 ♪ Now I'm letting go ♪ 806 00:52:06,289 --> 00:52:11,089 -♪ Let it go ♪ -♪ Let him go, let him go ♪ 807 00:52:11,169 --> 00:52:14,629 ♪ Let him go, let him go ♪ 808 00:52:14,714 --> 00:52:17,304 ♪ Let it go ♪ 809 00:52:17,384 --> 00:52:20,974 ♪ Let him go, let him go ♪