1 00:00:11,678 --> 00:00:14,848 [music plays] 2 00:00:36,578 --> 00:00:39,331 [pastor, distant] "My Father's house has many rooms. 3 00:00:39,414 --> 00:00:41,083 If that were not so, 4 00:00:41,166 --> 00:00:45,170 would I have told you that I am going there to prepare a place for you? 5 00:00:47,589 --> 00:00:50,425 And if I go and prepare a place for you, 6 00:00:50,509 --> 00:00:53,720 I will come back and take you to be with me… 7 00:00:55,305 --> 00:00:59,017 so you also may be where I am." 8 00:01:03,564 --> 00:01:06,608 "Do not let your hearts be troubled." 9 00:01:06,692 --> 00:01:08,527 -[woman] No one came. -No. 10 00:01:08,610 --> 00:01:11,989 Just-- I thought more people would come. 11 00:01:12,072 --> 00:01:13,407 People loved him, didn't they? 12 00:01:13,490 --> 00:01:16,869 Yeah. No, of course. It's, you know-- It's the flight and everything. Just-- 13 00:01:16,952 --> 00:01:19,329 Got food for fucking a hundred people. [chuckles] 14 00:01:19,413 --> 00:01:22,416 Oh. [chuckles] I'm-- I'm sure it'll all get eaten at some point. 15 00:01:22,499 --> 00:01:23,500 Yeah, thanks. 16 00:01:27,087 --> 00:01:31,258 I know that he's gone, but it feels like he's here. 17 00:01:32,134 --> 00:01:34,386 Like, why wouldn't he be here right now? 18 00:01:35,721 --> 00:01:37,598 But no, I keep looking for him. 19 00:01:39,433 --> 00:01:40,976 That makes sense. 20 00:01:41,059 --> 00:01:42,060 Mmm. 21 00:01:44,521 --> 00:01:49,484 Was his last night… happy? 22 00:01:51,570 --> 00:01:53,030 Sure. 23 00:01:53,113 --> 00:01:54,114 Hmm. 24 00:01:56,783 --> 00:01:57,784 Um, 25 00:01:57,868 --> 00:02:00,829 at the end of the night, a-after, uh… 26 00:02:01,496 --> 00:02:04,041 -After the fight. That's what you mean? -[woman] Yeah, right, the fight. 27 00:02:04,124 --> 00:02:07,794 But a-- But after that, um, you know, we got some food, 28 00:02:07,878 --> 00:02:10,380 and he was making jokes, and, uh, yeah, he-- he-- 29 00:02:11,256 --> 00:02:12,925 He really did seem happy. 30 00:02:14,009 --> 00:02:17,930 But at the-- the party, was he happy? Was he enjoying his life? 31 00:02:19,848 --> 00:02:20,849 Yes. 32 00:02:24,728 --> 00:02:28,899 Who-- Who-- Who did he talk to at the party? 33 00:02:33,362 --> 00:02:34,488 Um… 34 00:02:35,572 --> 00:02:38,659 -He landed some punches though? -Yes, he did. 35 00:02:39,826 --> 00:02:42,579 -And he fell down and hit his head? -Right. 36 00:02:42,663 --> 00:02:44,915 -How long was he on the ground? -Honey. 37 00:02:44,998 --> 00:02:47,501 It wasn't that long. He got right back up. 38 00:02:47,584 --> 00:02:50,379 -And he didn't seem any different? -No. 39 00:02:50,921 --> 00:02:52,714 Did his pupils look different? 40 00:02:53,715 --> 00:02:55,759 -I didn't notice. -Stop. 41 00:02:55,843 --> 00:02:59,763 -I just wanna understand what happened. -I don't think we can understand. 42 00:03:01,431 --> 00:03:02,474 [sighs] 43 00:03:07,938 --> 00:03:12,192 [Megan] And, uh, I don't know how much longer he's gonna be alive. [chuckles] 44 00:03:12,276 --> 00:03:13,861 Maybe we should come and visit. 45 00:03:13,944 --> 00:03:15,529 [Megan] Parents were there. 46 00:03:15,612 --> 00:03:18,699 He was sitting with them watching TV. 47 00:03:18,782 --> 00:03:21,910 He told me that he wanted to go to a Tony Robbins seminar 48 00:03:21,994 --> 00:03:23,328 once he moved to California. 49 00:03:23,412 --> 00:03:24,413 -Oh, yeah? -Yeah. 50 00:03:24,496 --> 00:03:26,665 Wonder if he ever made it to a Tony Robbins seminar. 51 00:03:26,748 --> 00:03:29,001 I don't know. He never mentioned it. 52 00:03:29,084 --> 00:03:31,962 Oh, right. Well, I-- I guess he would have if he did. 53 00:03:32,045 --> 00:03:35,465 Yeah, I guess. Tony Robbins people bring up Tony Robbins a lot. 54 00:03:35,549 --> 00:03:37,009 Mm-hmm. 55 00:03:37,092 --> 00:03:41,597 He always wanted to go to Tony Robbins, and… now he never will. 56 00:03:42,848 --> 00:03:46,560 Tony Robbins is a very large man. 57 00:03:47,978 --> 00:03:49,980 I know. [chuckles] 58 00:03:51,648 --> 00:03:53,275 [chord plays] 59 00:03:53,358 --> 00:03:55,861 I can tell he was really lucky to have you as a friend. 60 00:03:58,780 --> 00:04:04,161 -So, uh, how long have you-- -I'm sorry, um… I just, uh… 61 00:04:04,244 --> 00:04:05,662 Oh, sure. Sure. 62 00:04:06,163 --> 00:04:07,331 [rumbling] 63 00:04:07,414 --> 00:04:08,582 So sorry. 64 00:04:10,542 --> 00:04:11,543 Sorry. 65 00:04:13,712 --> 00:04:16,214 [rumbling] 66 00:04:18,425 --> 00:04:19,676 [Megan] Hey. 67 00:04:21,970 --> 00:04:22,971 Hey. 68 00:04:26,308 --> 00:04:27,392 This is weird. 69 00:04:28,519 --> 00:04:29,937 [chuckles] Yeah. 70 00:04:32,564 --> 00:04:34,525 I don't wanna go back in there. 71 00:04:34,608 --> 00:04:35,609 Me neither. 72 00:04:38,695 --> 00:04:40,239 I'm really gonna miss him. 73 00:04:40,864 --> 00:04:43,867 Yeah, me too. [sniffs] 74 00:04:45,035 --> 00:04:47,329 -He was my only verified friend. -[laughs] 75 00:04:49,456 --> 00:04:51,291 [Megan] Were you avoiding me in there? 76 00:04:53,126 --> 00:04:55,838 [Josh] I just didn't know if you'd wanna talk. 77 00:04:55,921 --> 00:04:59,633 I think you didn't know if you wanted to talk and you're putting that on me. 78 00:05:00,384 --> 00:05:01,593 Okay, sorry. 79 00:05:01,677 --> 00:05:06,515 It's fine. Actually, I'm sorry. I don't need to be-- I-- 80 00:05:06,598 --> 00:05:07,599 -God. -It's okay. 81 00:05:07,683 --> 00:05:09,434 No. Today is a really fucked-up day. 82 00:05:09,518 --> 00:05:10,644 It is. 83 00:05:12,020 --> 00:05:14,898 -How did he really die? -He hit his head. 84 00:05:14,982 --> 00:05:17,484 -You really think that's what happened? -What do you mean? 85 00:05:17,568 --> 00:05:19,570 You don't think he killed himself? 86 00:05:22,030 --> 00:05:23,407 Why would you say that? 87 00:05:23,490 --> 00:05:27,369 I don't know. I'm sorry. I-- It's just so random. 88 00:05:27,452 --> 00:05:28,579 What are the odds? 89 00:05:28,662 --> 00:05:30,873 -No, that kind of head trauma, it happens. -No. 90 00:05:30,956 --> 00:05:32,958 I'm talking about the whole thing. 91 00:05:33,041 --> 00:05:34,626 He and I weren't even friends in high school, 92 00:05:34,710 --> 00:05:36,670 then we both happened to move to LA at the same time. 93 00:05:36,753 --> 00:05:38,297 He happens to meet you out there. 94 00:05:38,380 --> 00:05:42,050 Then he introduces the two of us and we become whatever it was that we were. 95 00:05:42,134 --> 00:05:44,845 And all because of what? Him? Dax Peterson? 96 00:05:44,928 --> 00:05:46,096 From Algebra 2? 97 00:05:46,180 --> 00:05:47,848 And now, I'm at his funeral? 98 00:05:50,142 --> 00:05:51,602 What the fuck? 99 00:05:51,685 --> 00:05:54,313 That has gotta mean something. That cannot just be random. 100 00:05:55,939 --> 00:05:56,982 No, I think it is. 101 00:06:00,277 --> 00:06:01,278 Right. 102 00:06:03,280 --> 00:06:05,657 -Sun came out. -Thank God. 103 00:06:17,878 --> 00:06:19,463 -What are you looking at? -Nothing. 104 00:06:20,172 --> 00:06:21,882 -Yeah, what are you looking at? -You just-- 105 00:06:21,965 --> 00:06:23,675 You don't usually wear your hair up. 106 00:06:24,676 --> 00:06:26,637 No. Was it a good thing? 107 00:06:27,554 --> 00:06:28,931 It's just an observation. 108 00:06:32,976 --> 00:06:33,977 How's teaching? 109 00:06:34,978 --> 00:06:35,979 It's good. 110 00:06:37,189 --> 00:06:39,149 -And? -[sighs] What? 111 00:06:39,233 --> 00:06:41,068 -I mean, I-- -Why do you ask? 112 00:06:42,194 --> 00:06:43,862 Because I'm asking. I'm interested. 113 00:06:47,407 --> 00:06:48,408 -Okay. -[both chuckle] 114 00:06:48,492 --> 00:06:50,869 I mean, honestly, I love it. 115 00:06:50,953 --> 00:06:53,997 It's frustrating sometimes, but, you know, I wake up every day, 116 00:06:54,081 --> 00:06:57,084 and I know what I'm doing and why I'm doing it. 117 00:06:57,793 --> 00:06:59,294 It feels good. 118 00:06:59,378 --> 00:07:03,340 Wow, that's great. I'm-- I'm really happy to hear that. 119 00:07:03,423 --> 00:07:04,883 -You are? -Yeah. 120 00:07:04,967 --> 00:07:07,761 -Why did you have to say that? -What? 121 00:07:07,845 --> 00:07:09,471 That makes me sound like a horrible person. 122 00:07:09,555 --> 00:07:11,348 -I didn't mean it-- [chuckles] -Josh, 123 00:07:12,099 --> 00:07:14,977 of course I'm happy for you. I want you to be happy. 124 00:07:20,315 --> 00:07:21,358 Sorry. 125 00:07:23,485 --> 00:07:26,446 -Are you flying back tonight? -Yeah, on the 10:00. 126 00:07:27,114 --> 00:07:30,117 -Fun, I know that flight. -Yeah, how about you? 127 00:07:30,200 --> 00:07:31,493 No, tomorrow. 128 00:07:31,577 --> 00:07:33,620 I figured I'm here. I should see my parents. 129 00:07:33,704 --> 00:07:34,705 Mmm. 130 00:07:34,788 --> 00:07:36,498 Speaking of, I should, uh-- I should go. 131 00:07:36,582 --> 00:07:39,042 I said I'd pick some stuff up for my mom. [chuckles] 132 00:07:39,126 --> 00:07:41,587 Okay. Mmm, say hi for me. 133 00:07:42,421 --> 00:07:43,755 If you're not busy, you could come. 134 00:07:43,839 --> 00:07:47,634 I think I should, um, just go to the airport. See if there's an earlier flight. 135 00:07:48,343 --> 00:07:49,386 There isn't. 136 00:07:52,639 --> 00:07:53,807 Yeah, I know. 137 00:07:56,018 --> 00:07:58,687 Honestly, this past year has been really intense. 138 00:07:58,770 --> 00:08:01,064 Cosmo, like, almost died four times, 139 00:08:01,148 --> 00:08:03,275 and each time she makes him get another surgery, 140 00:08:03,358 --> 00:08:04,443 and then he's alive again. 141 00:08:04,526 --> 00:08:06,820 -Isn't that kind of cruel? -No, she needs him. 142 00:08:06,904 --> 00:08:09,364 Wouldn't it be nicer to the cat if you just let him-- 143 00:08:09,448 --> 00:08:13,535 I get it. But he is her whole world. 144 00:08:14,161 --> 00:08:15,704 He means everything to her. 145 00:08:15,787 --> 00:08:16,830 What about Frank? 146 00:08:17,372 --> 00:08:18,999 [scoffs] 147 00:08:20,083 --> 00:08:21,668 I feel bad for her. 148 00:08:22,586 --> 00:08:25,464 I mean, she is a sad, sad woman. She really is. 149 00:08:26,298 --> 00:08:28,842 She loves that cat so much. 150 00:08:28,926 --> 00:08:32,596 Just the thought of her waking up and Cosmo-- 151 00:08:32,679 --> 00:08:38,352 [cries] 152 00:08:46,360 --> 00:08:48,570 -Oh, my God. [crying] -It's okay. 153 00:08:51,490 --> 00:08:54,076 -[gasps] Sorry. [crying] -It's okay. 154 00:08:54,743 --> 00:09:01,416 [crying, gasping] 155 00:09:08,048 --> 00:09:10,551 Whoa. [chuckles, gasping] 156 00:09:14,429 --> 00:09:16,390 Wow, that felt really good. [chuckles] 157 00:09:17,057 --> 00:09:18,684 You should do that. Have a cry. 158 00:09:18,767 --> 00:09:20,102 I'm-- I'm good. 159 00:09:20,185 --> 00:09:21,854 Come on. It would be good for you. 160 00:09:21,937 --> 00:09:24,189 I don't think I could do that if I wanted to. 161 00:09:24,273 --> 00:09:26,316 Excuse me. Um, I just saw what happened. 162 00:09:26,400 --> 00:09:28,569 Are you okay? Is he bothering you at all? 163 00:09:31,154 --> 00:09:32,489 Yeah, he is. 164 00:09:33,031 --> 00:09:34,825 You need me to call someone? 165 00:09:35,409 --> 00:09:36,785 Maybe. 166 00:09:41,498 --> 00:09:44,501 [laughs] 167 00:09:45,544 --> 00:09:47,004 That's not funny. 168 00:09:47,087 --> 00:09:50,841 [laughs] Obviously it is. Come on. 169 00:09:59,433 --> 00:10:02,603 -[chuckles] -[laughing] 170 00:10:02,686 --> 00:10:09,568 Oh my-- Your face. [laughing] 171 00:10:13,947 --> 00:10:15,991 That's why I was always dying to get out of here. 172 00:10:16,074 --> 00:10:18,243 -No one has a sense of humor. -[chuckles] 173 00:10:18,327 --> 00:10:21,580 I don't think that would have landed any better in LA. 174 00:10:22,206 --> 00:10:25,334 Um, well, you liked it. So… 175 00:10:33,926 --> 00:10:36,678 -Are you dating anyone? -I don't wanna talk about dating with you. 176 00:10:36,762 --> 00:10:38,263 Come on. We were both thinking about it. 177 00:10:38,347 --> 00:10:42,267 I'm happy to think about it and not talk about it. 178 00:10:42,351 --> 00:10:43,519 Where are we going? 179 00:10:43,602 --> 00:10:47,022 It's the last stop. It's my mom's special fruit place. [sniffs] 180 00:10:47,105 --> 00:10:49,816 I'm actually kinda hungry. Should have eaten more before. 181 00:10:49,900 --> 00:10:52,653 -Mmm. -There was food for a hundred people. 182 00:10:52,736 --> 00:10:53,737 I know. I heard. 183 00:10:54,321 --> 00:10:55,948 -You talked to his mom? -Yeah. 184 00:10:56,031 --> 00:10:57,449 Sad. 185 00:10:57,533 --> 00:10:58,534 Mm-hmm. 186 00:11:00,118 --> 00:11:03,247 Oh, there's Ritz in the back. 'Cause Cheryl's gotta have her Ritz. 187 00:11:03,330 --> 00:11:04,748 -Can I have some? -Yeah. 188 00:11:05,624 --> 00:11:08,418 There's a lot of sad moms today, huh? What does that mean? 189 00:11:11,296 --> 00:11:12,464 Doesn't mean anything. 190 00:11:13,048 --> 00:11:15,509 [rustling] 191 00:11:15,592 --> 00:11:16,593 How's Ruth? 192 00:11:16,677 --> 00:11:19,429 She's good. And, um, 193 00:11:20,973 --> 00:11:21,974 withheld. 194 00:11:23,058 --> 00:11:24,059 Withheld? 195 00:11:27,688 --> 00:11:29,147 Oh, shit. 196 00:11:29,857 --> 00:11:32,442 -Want one? -[chuckles] Making a mess, huh? 197 00:11:32,526 --> 00:11:34,403 -I'll pick those up. -[chuckles] 198 00:11:38,949 --> 00:11:41,660 [muffled] I'm not dating anyone. [chuckles] 199 00:11:42,911 --> 00:11:46,164 -You what? -[muffled] I'm not dating anyone. 200 00:11:46,248 --> 00:11:48,417 Oh, okay. 201 00:11:49,334 --> 00:11:51,879 I mean, there's been some almost dating people. 202 00:11:54,298 --> 00:11:56,592 Yeah. [sighs] 203 00:11:57,676 --> 00:12:00,262 I've had that too. 204 00:12:00,345 --> 00:12:03,223 -It's pathetic. No one likes me. -[chuckles] 205 00:12:03,849 --> 00:12:06,476 I thought you'd be killing it on the apps. You're so nonthreatening. 206 00:12:06,560 --> 00:12:07,936 -Thanks. -You're welx. 207 00:12:08,020 --> 00:12:09,938 -I actually do get a lot of matches. -See? 208 00:12:10,022 --> 00:12:12,733 Yeah, it's just, most people I match with don't ever respond. 209 00:12:12,816 --> 00:12:14,193 What's wrong with that one? 210 00:12:14,276 --> 00:12:16,695 Oh, it's no good. What do you mean "people"? 211 00:12:16,778 --> 00:12:18,864 -The women. -I was just checking. 212 00:12:18,947 --> 00:12:21,408 Yeah. I don't know if it helps to have endless options. 213 00:12:21,491 --> 00:12:23,202 -What's wrong with that one? -Which one? 214 00:12:23,285 --> 00:12:25,996 -The one you just had. -Oh, no. No. 215 00:12:26,914 --> 00:12:28,665 [Josh] Seriously? That's fucking exciting. 216 00:12:28,749 --> 00:12:31,585 Yeah. I'm super stoked. I've had some really good feedback. 217 00:12:31,668 --> 00:12:34,171 Gonna take a few months off Covell and go tour with it. 218 00:12:34,254 --> 00:12:36,215 -Wow! -I bought a shitty van and everything. 219 00:12:36,298 --> 00:12:38,884 -[chuckles] -It has working windshield wipers. 220 00:12:38,967 --> 00:12:41,345 [chuckles] We could've used those. 221 00:12:41,428 --> 00:12:44,348 Oh, yeah. Well, then we wouldn't have spent that weekend in Austin 222 00:12:44,431 --> 00:12:45,974 with Gabriel and Elena. 223 00:12:46,058 --> 00:12:49,061 -Gabriel and Elena. -Yeah, those freaks. [chuckles] 224 00:12:50,062 --> 00:12:53,023 In hindsight, I don't think those two even really liked our music. 225 00:12:53,106 --> 00:12:54,399 Oh, I think they did. 226 00:12:54,483 --> 00:12:56,944 -They just also really liked our bodies. -Mm-hmm. 227 00:12:57,027 --> 00:12:58,487 You still think we should've done that. 228 00:12:58,570 --> 00:13:00,364 -I do. Yes. -I couldn't have. 229 00:13:00,447 --> 00:13:01,448 You're homophobic. 230 00:13:01,532 --> 00:13:04,952 It's not homophobic to not wanna have sex with a guy. 231 00:13:05,035 --> 00:13:07,996 -You weren't gonna have sex with him. -I think that's what he had in mind. 232 00:13:08,080 --> 00:13:10,374 -No, he wanted to watch. -What, watch you and me? 233 00:13:10,457 --> 00:13:11,458 And her. 234 00:13:12,292 --> 00:13:14,002 Oh. Really? 235 00:13:14,086 --> 00:13:15,879 -Yeah, I thought so. -Fuck. 236 00:13:15,963 --> 00:13:16,964 [chuckles] 237 00:13:17,047 --> 00:13:20,717 -That was not clear to me. -[laughs] Wow, you blew it, bro. 238 00:13:20,801 --> 00:13:22,636 [chuckles] 239 00:13:28,058 --> 00:13:30,561 But congrats on the album though. It's great. 240 00:13:31,270 --> 00:13:32,479 Thank you. 241 00:13:32,563 --> 00:13:35,148 Yeah, it's taken me a minute, but I-- [inhales] 242 00:13:35,983 --> 00:13:41,864 I think I found a sound that, um, is just my own, you know? 243 00:13:43,615 --> 00:13:46,118 I'll have to come see you when you play out in town. 244 00:13:47,119 --> 00:13:48,495 Definitely. Please. 245 00:13:50,539 --> 00:13:52,165 What about you? Are you playing? 246 00:13:53,834 --> 00:13:54,835 Um… 247 00:13:54,918 --> 00:13:58,046 -We don't have to talk about it. -No, no, no. It's fine. Yeah, I'm playing. 248 00:13:58,589 --> 00:14:02,301 -Yeah? -You know I'm-- I-- I'll always play. 249 00:14:02,384 --> 00:14:03,385 Yeah, no. I know. 250 00:14:03,468 --> 00:14:06,889 Um, sorry, it's just you said that you hadn't been playing. 251 00:14:06,972 --> 00:14:10,350 That was a long time ago. That was, like, right after we broke up. 252 00:14:11,018 --> 00:14:12,019 Okay. 253 00:14:12,978 --> 00:14:14,563 Yeah, I've been, um… 254 00:14:16,648 --> 00:14:18,775 been, like, m-making, uh, something. 255 00:14:20,652 --> 00:14:23,530 -Yeah? What's it like? -[chord plays] 256 00:14:27,367 --> 00:14:29,077 Hey. You okay? 257 00:14:30,245 --> 00:14:31,997 Yeah, sorry. [chuckles] 258 00:14:32,623 --> 00:14:35,042 -It's just a stressful few days. -Yeah. 259 00:14:41,423 --> 00:14:44,927 [sighs] Look, I'm sorry. I've been, um… 260 00:14:47,429 --> 00:14:49,014 having some anxiety. 261 00:14:49,097 --> 00:14:50,140 Hey, that's okay. 262 00:14:51,850 --> 00:14:52,851 [sighs] 263 00:14:55,145 --> 00:14:58,106 [chord plays] 264 00:14:59,399 --> 00:15:02,027 Sorry. I'm just gonna-- I'm gonna, um… 265 00:15:02,861 --> 00:15:04,613 -go walk this off. -Okay. 266 00:15:23,257 --> 00:15:25,384 We'll unload this stuff, and I'll drive you to the airport. 267 00:15:25,467 --> 00:15:27,553 Oh, no, you don't-- You don't have to do that. 268 00:15:27,636 --> 00:15:28,679 I want to. 269 00:15:30,639 --> 00:15:32,015 It's good to see you. 270 00:15:36,478 --> 00:15:39,231 Yeah. It's good to see you too. 271 00:15:39,314 --> 00:15:40,440 [Cheryl] Josh? 272 00:15:41,108 --> 00:15:43,068 Oh, my God. Is that you? 273 00:15:43,151 --> 00:15:44,152 [Josh] Hi, Cheryl. 274 00:15:44,653 --> 00:15:46,196 Get out of there and give me a hug! 275 00:15:46,280 --> 00:15:48,782 No. Mom, we're just gonna unload this stuff 276 00:15:48,866 --> 00:15:51,451 -and I'm driving Josh to the airport. -No. 277 00:15:51,535 --> 00:15:52,953 Frank! Josh is here! 278 00:15:53,036 --> 00:15:55,455 [sighs] You guys, these apples are terrible. 279 00:15:55,539 --> 00:15:57,207 You gotta check 'em before you put 'em in a bag. 280 00:15:57,291 --> 00:15:58,584 -Stop. -Don't listen to her. 281 00:15:58,667 --> 00:16:00,252 -It's great to see you. -Good to see you. 282 00:16:00,335 --> 00:16:02,671 -Look at you. You finally got old. -Oh, shut up. 283 00:16:02,754 --> 00:16:05,591 What? He knows what I mean. You're not really old. 284 00:16:05,674 --> 00:16:07,718 You still got the rest of your life ahead of you. Not like me. 285 00:16:07,801 --> 00:16:09,636 -[female reporter] Breaking news. -Now what? 286 00:16:09,720 --> 00:16:11,513 See, that's what I'm talking about. 287 00:16:11,597 --> 00:16:14,433 The world's burning down and we're all living our stupid lives. 288 00:16:14,516 --> 00:16:15,642 You hear what I put up with? 289 00:16:15,726 --> 00:16:18,061 [whispering] Can you smell that? It's so bad. 290 00:16:18,145 --> 00:16:19,855 [Cheryl] 24-7, 365. 291 00:16:19,938 --> 00:16:20,939 How's Cosmo? 292 00:16:21,023 --> 00:16:22,774 -[glass bangs] -[Megan laughs] 293 00:16:22,858 --> 00:16:26,445 He's not well. But he's hanging in there 'cause he's a trouper. 294 00:16:26,528 --> 00:16:28,488 And thank you for asking. 295 00:16:28,989 --> 00:16:30,073 God, I miss you. 296 00:16:30,866 --> 00:16:31,909 Mom. 297 00:16:31,992 --> 00:16:33,577 -I miss you too, Cheryl. -Oh. [sighs] 298 00:16:33,660 --> 00:16:36,330 -Mom. -No, I really do. 299 00:16:36,413 --> 00:16:39,249 I only wish it hadn't come to this to see you again. 300 00:16:39,333 --> 00:16:41,585 God, so terrible. I keep thinking about his mother. 301 00:16:41,668 --> 00:16:42,711 Yeah. 302 00:16:43,295 --> 00:16:45,172 -What can I fix you? -No, we should go. 303 00:16:45,255 --> 00:16:48,383 Hey, Josh is not coming all this way without me giving him something. 304 00:16:48,467 --> 00:16:49,801 Now, what do you want? 305 00:16:51,261 --> 00:16:52,804 -Got any fruit dip? -Oh, come on. 306 00:16:52,888 --> 00:16:54,181 -You know me. Always. -[chuckles] 307 00:16:54,264 --> 00:16:55,682 -You don't want fruit dip. -I definitely do. 308 00:16:55,766 --> 00:16:57,434 Josh always loved my fruit dip. 309 00:17:06,443 --> 00:17:08,319 Mmm, that is so good. 310 00:17:08,403 --> 00:17:09,988 [Cheryl] Sometimes I just eat it with a spoon. 311 00:17:10,070 --> 00:17:12,199 -Don't I, Frank? -[Frank] She does. 312 00:17:12,281 --> 00:17:13,909 Remember when you learned the ingredients? 313 00:17:13,992 --> 00:17:15,410 -Mmm. -Are we doing this again? 314 00:17:15,492 --> 00:17:17,162 Yeah, it's funny. What'd you say? 315 00:17:18,664 --> 00:17:21,375 Velveeta and Cool Whip. How can two wrongs feel so right? 316 00:17:23,252 --> 00:17:24,545 I'm gonna need more wine. 317 00:17:25,337 --> 00:17:28,632 [Cheryl] I don't miss working. I just miss the community. [sighs] 318 00:17:28,715 --> 00:17:32,094 It can get lonely. And the news is just sad, sad, sad. 319 00:17:32,970 --> 00:17:36,598 You know, we gotta hold on to each other 'cause it's all we've got. 320 00:17:36,682 --> 00:17:38,433 If we let go, we're lost. 321 00:17:38,517 --> 00:17:40,769 It's like that song of yours. It was so sweet. 322 00:17:40,853 --> 00:17:43,313 -What was that song, Meg? The one I liked. -"The one" she liked. 323 00:17:43,397 --> 00:17:44,982 Hmm. Why don't we listen to it? 324 00:17:45,065 --> 00:17:47,818 -No. No, we shouldn't listen to it. -Yeah. Come on. It's great. 325 00:17:47,901 --> 00:17:49,236 It should've done more for you. 326 00:17:49,319 --> 00:17:50,320 Mom. No. 327 00:17:51,321 --> 00:17:53,031 -Oh, here it is. -Mom. Please. 328 00:17:53,115 --> 00:17:54,867 What number was it, Josh? 329 00:18:00,455 --> 00:18:02,416 It's track seven. But Megan's right. 330 00:18:02,499 --> 00:18:04,418 We really shouldn't listen. 331 00:18:07,129 --> 00:18:11,884 [music plays] 332 00:18:12,759 --> 00:18:16,430 [sighs] I just love this song. It just sucks you right in. 333 00:18:19,558 --> 00:18:21,351 [singing with CD] ♪ Another day slips away ♪ 334 00:18:21,435 --> 00:18:23,145 [Megan, Josh] ♪ And you're fading ♪ 335 00:18:23,228 --> 00:18:27,441 [sighs] Your voice is so beautiful, Meggie. Ever since you were little. 336 00:18:30,444 --> 00:18:35,657 ♪ They say love takes time But why'd you waste mine, baby? ♪ 337 00:18:35,741 --> 00:18:37,534 ♪ Be honest now ♪ 338 00:18:37,618 --> 00:18:39,494 Why couldn't you two have figured it out? 339 00:18:39,578 --> 00:18:41,038 Mom, Jesus fucking Christ! 340 00:18:42,331 --> 00:18:45,042 I cannot believe you're doing this right now. 341 00:18:46,627 --> 00:18:47,669 I don't understand her. 342 00:18:47,753 --> 00:18:49,338 -[door slams] -[sniffs] 343 00:18:49,421 --> 00:18:51,006 Yeah, it's always hard to hear yourself. 344 00:18:51,089 --> 00:18:54,593 Mmm. She always says that I'm not supportive enough of her career, 345 00:18:54,676 --> 00:18:57,429 and then when I play her music, she gets upset. 346 00:18:57,513 --> 00:18:58,805 That's her old music. 347 00:19:00,307 --> 00:19:01,767 Well, that's all she's got. 348 00:19:01,850 --> 00:19:03,143 I mean… [chuckles] 349 00:19:03,227 --> 00:19:05,229 She's always talking about this new album. 350 00:19:05,312 --> 00:19:08,273 Like, oh, she's working on it and then, oh, it's finished. 351 00:19:08,357 --> 00:19:10,817 Then, oh, it's not really finished. Oh, you can listen to it soon. 352 00:19:10,901 --> 00:19:13,320 But I never get to hear it. And how long has it been? 353 00:19:13,403 --> 00:19:15,656 I don't even know. 354 00:19:18,116 --> 00:19:21,119 I mean, I worry about her. 355 00:19:21,203 --> 00:19:23,997 'Cause she's 31, and that's-- [sighs] 356 00:19:24,081 --> 00:19:25,624 For a woman… 357 00:19:26,583 --> 00:19:28,919 You can't bartend forever, right? 358 00:19:29,002 --> 00:19:30,712 Now, you were reasonable. 359 00:19:30,796 --> 00:19:33,465 And I told her she should just marry you already. 360 00:19:34,049 --> 00:19:35,467 You can't stay engaged forever. 361 00:19:35,551 --> 00:19:38,303 And you guys were just so good together. It's-- 362 00:19:40,055 --> 00:19:41,473 Shit. Cheryl, are you okay? 363 00:19:41,557 --> 00:19:43,517 [vomits, grunts] 364 00:19:44,601 --> 00:19:46,103 I'm gonna get something to clean that. 365 00:19:46,186 --> 00:19:47,813 [Frank] Jesus Christ. What is wrong with you? 366 00:19:47,896 --> 00:19:49,898 -It's not my fault. -Whose fucking fault is it? 367 00:19:49,982 --> 00:19:51,859 -[Josh] Here we go. -You don't need to do this. 368 00:19:51,942 --> 00:19:53,193 Frank and I will do this. 369 00:19:53,277 --> 00:19:55,153 [Frank] What the hell did you have for lunch? 370 00:19:55,237 --> 00:19:56,238 Just help me! 371 00:19:56,321 --> 00:19:57,698 -Josh, stop. -I don't mind. 372 00:19:57,781 --> 00:19:59,366 I don't want you to. It's disgusting. 373 00:19:59,449 --> 00:20:01,076 [Frank] Fucking right. Makes me wanna puke too. 374 00:20:01,159 --> 00:20:02,578 Oh, shut up! 375 00:20:05,080 --> 00:20:06,081 [sighs] 376 00:20:08,709 --> 00:20:09,751 [knocks] 377 00:20:09,835 --> 00:20:11,128 [Megan] Yeah? 378 00:20:11,211 --> 00:20:12,921 [door opens] 379 00:20:13,005 --> 00:20:14,047 Hey. 380 00:20:15,257 --> 00:20:16,258 Hey. 381 00:20:23,473 --> 00:20:30,022 So, your mom, uh, just vomited fruit dip. 382 00:20:31,398 --> 00:20:34,443 -What? -[laughs] Sorry. It's not funny. 383 00:20:34,526 --> 00:20:36,570 -[chuckles] -Um, yeah. 384 00:20:37,863 --> 00:20:40,699 Like, not in the toilet. She vomited, um, like, all over herself 385 00:20:40,782 --> 00:20:42,993 and the table and the floor and everything. 386 00:20:43,076 --> 00:20:44,995 -Oh, my God. -Yeah. 387 00:20:45,078 --> 00:20:47,247 -Oh, my God. -Good news is your dad's awake now. 388 00:20:47,331 --> 00:20:48,582 [chuckles] 389 00:20:51,752 --> 00:20:53,086 [quietly] Yeah, that's good. 390 00:21:01,428 --> 00:21:04,806 [sighs, chuckles] 391 00:21:08,101 --> 00:21:09,102 No. 392 00:21:11,813 --> 00:21:13,524 Dax died. 393 00:21:14,107 --> 00:21:16,276 I just don't think we should get confused. 394 00:21:16,360 --> 00:21:17,611 What if we're not? 395 00:21:17,694 --> 00:21:20,864 [sighs] I can't go back. 396 00:21:24,076 --> 00:21:25,118 Okay. 397 00:21:27,996 --> 00:21:29,081 [sighs] 398 00:21:37,840 --> 00:21:38,966 Why'd you leave? 399 00:21:39,716 --> 00:21:41,051 Let's not do this right now. 400 00:21:41,134 --> 00:21:42,845 No, you should have to say it to my face. 401 00:21:42,928 --> 00:21:46,265 I have said it to your face. Many times, Josh. 402 00:21:47,057 --> 00:21:49,560 -You left me way before I left you. -[scoffs] 403 00:21:49,643 --> 00:21:52,396 You did. You were the one that decided to just give up 404 00:21:52,479 --> 00:21:55,440 on everything that we had been building together for six years. 405 00:21:55,524 --> 00:21:57,901 -You didn't talk to me about it. -What are you saying? 406 00:21:57,985 --> 00:22:01,029 All we ever did was talk about what we're building together. 407 00:22:01,113 --> 00:22:02,990 Yeah, and then you stopped. 408 00:22:03,073 --> 00:22:05,284 I was just told that's it. We don't have a band anymore. 409 00:22:05,367 --> 00:22:06,869 -That's over. -It was over. 410 00:22:06,952 --> 00:22:09,872 If you think that that band was going anywhere or something, 411 00:22:09,955 --> 00:22:11,039 that's delusional. 412 00:22:11,123 --> 00:22:13,000 [Megan scoffs] Right. 413 00:22:13,083 --> 00:22:15,127 I'm sorry. Trust me. I didn't want that either. 414 00:22:15,210 --> 00:22:17,004 But at a certain point, you know-- 415 00:22:17,087 --> 00:22:19,798 I mean, we said it was time to be grown-ups. 416 00:22:20,632 --> 00:22:22,467 We said we wanted a family. 417 00:22:24,178 --> 00:22:27,598 I was just doing what I thought I had to do to make that happen. 418 00:22:27,681 --> 00:22:29,057 And then when I did… 419 00:22:32,644 --> 00:22:34,229 you didn't want me anymore. 420 00:22:35,230 --> 00:22:38,400 You-- You didn't wanna be with some, like, normal guy with a job. 421 00:22:39,776 --> 00:22:42,487 Don't do that. 422 00:22:42,571 --> 00:22:46,867 Don't make me out to be some superficial asshole. 423 00:22:46,950 --> 00:22:49,244 I didn't leave you because you became a teacher. 424 00:22:50,579 --> 00:22:54,291 I left because I thought I was doing what I love with the man I love. 425 00:22:55,209 --> 00:22:56,877 Loved. 426 00:22:58,212 --> 00:23:00,255 But yeah, evidently, I was having fucking delusions. 427 00:23:00,339 --> 00:23:01,840 That's not what I meant. I didn't-- 428 00:23:01,924 --> 00:23:04,051 I was trying to do what was best for us. 429 00:23:04,134 --> 00:23:06,637 No, you weren't. You were doing what was best for you. 430 00:23:06,720 --> 00:23:10,057 And then when I kept going and I tried to do it alone, 431 00:23:10,140 --> 00:23:13,894 by myself, you made me feel so small. 432 00:23:14,394 --> 00:23:18,774 Like I was this idiotic little girl that 433 00:23:19,733 --> 00:23:21,735 couldn't see the writing on the wall like the man could. 434 00:23:21,818 --> 00:23:23,654 I didn't say that. I never said you were idiotic. 435 00:23:23,737 --> 00:23:25,239 -No. I know. -I never said that. 436 00:23:25,322 --> 00:23:27,824 You were so sure that you were right. 437 00:23:29,326 --> 00:23:30,869 God, the way you see the world, Josh, 438 00:23:30,953 --> 00:23:33,205 is the only way it could possibly ever exist. 439 00:23:35,165 --> 00:23:37,543 You still think you're right. Look at you. 440 00:23:38,210 --> 00:23:39,795 You're thinking it right now. 441 00:23:40,629 --> 00:23:42,256 [scoffs] 442 00:23:44,383 --> 00:23:45,926 [sighs] 443 00:23:46,009 --> 00:23:48,095 Do you know how much that hurts? 444 00:23:50,389 --> 00:23:51,390 [sobs] 445 00:23:51,473 --> 00:23:55,143 The person that you love is supposed to believe in you. 446 00:23:57,020 --> 00:24:00,315 And you never believed in me. You never thought I could do it. 447 00:24:05,821 --> 00:24:08,240 I don't think anyone can do it. [sighs] 448 00:24:08,323 --> 00:24:09,783 [cries] 449 00:24:13,495 --> 00:24:14,913 -[sighs] -[sobs] 450 00:24:19,793 --> 00:24:23,547 [crying] 451 00:24:33,640 --> 00:24:35,767 [sniffles, sighs]