1 00:01:20,998 --> 00:01:21,999 Josh. 2 00:01:23,625 --> 00:01:24,626 Yes? 3 00:01:26,003 --> 00:01:27,462 What are you doing out here? 4 00:01:28,213 --> 00:01:29,381 I'm here for my mother. 5 00:01:30,090 --> 00:01:32,718 I know. I mean, come on in. 6 00:01:36,638 --> 00:01:37,890 We haven't met. 7 00:01:39,183 --> 00:01:41,810 No. I mean, I know you from the pictures, 8 00:01:41,894 --> 00:01:43,270 and your mom's told me all about you. 9 00:01:43,353 --> 00:01:44,980 -You want some coffee? -No, thanks. 10 00:01:45,063 --> 00:01:46,190 Well, sit down. 11 00:01:46,690 --> 00:01:48,734 But don't sit in that one. That's the broken one. 12 00:01:48,817 --> 00:01:51,069 I know which one is the broken one, thanks. 13 00:01:53,405 --> 00:01:56,867 There's one for my heart and one for my prostate cancer. 14 00:01:59,036 --> 00:02:00,329 I'm sorry. 15 00:02:01,038 --> 00:02:03,332 It's fine. I barely have it. 16 00:02:03,916 --> 00:02:05,334 Doesn't affect my sex life. 17 00:02:06,001 --> 00:02:07,002 That's great. 18 00:02:07,628 --> 00:02:09,253 It's great to finally meet you. 19 00:02:10,047 --> 00:02:11,381 What's Ruth told you about me? 20 00:02:12,090 --> 00:02:13,467 Nothing. 21 00:02:16,386 --> 00:02:18,514 That's hilarious. That's so her. 22 00:02:18,597 --> 00:02:20,474 It's not really. 23 00:02:20,557 --> 00:02:22,434 Sure it is. You know her. 24 00:02:22,518 --> 00:02:23,560 I thought I did. 25 00:02:24,978 --> 00:02:26,605 Why are you so early? 26 00:02:26,688 --> 00:02:28,982 I just didn't wanna hit traffic. 27 00:02:29,566 --> 00:02:31,985 All right. Well, I'll go get myself together. 28 00:02:34,446 --> 00:02:36,031 Look at her go. 29 00:02:45,123 --> 00:02:47,334 Why are you driving so slowly? 30 00:02:50,170 --> 00:02:53,966 I told you I had a few panic attacks. 31 00:02:54,049 --> 00:02:55,217 I thought you were better. 32 00:02:55,300 --> 00:02:57,469 I am. This is me better. But I just-- 33 00:02:57,553 --> 00:02:59,596 Some things make me a little extra anxious. 34 00:02:59,680 --> 00:03:00,931 Like driving on the freeway, 35 00:03:01,014 --> 00:03:02,724 which, by the way, is a legitimately dangerous thing. 36 00:03:02,808 --> 00:03:04,685 Everybody should be anxious driving on the freeway. 37 00:03:04,768 --> 00:03:06,603 -It's just we're all used to it. -Right. 38 00:03:07,980 --> 00:03:10,983 Well, guess it doesn't matter how slowly you drive 39 00:03:11,066 --> 00:03:13,694 because you showed up at my house so early. 40 00:03:16,238 --> 00:03:20,075 So, how did you and Larry meet? 41 00:03:20,158 --> 00:03:23,370 Well, it's nothing serious if that's what you're asking. 42 00:03:23,453 --> 00:03:25,455 But how long have you been dating? 43 00:03:27,249 --> 00:03:28,250 About a year. 44 00:03:28,333 --> 00:03:29,334 What? 45 00:03:29,877 --> 00:03:31,545 Don't make a big deal out of this. 46 00:03:32,296 --> 00:03:35,549 That's crazy. We usually tell each other things. 47 00:03:35,632 --> 00:03:37,301 You don't tell me everything. 48 00:03:37,384 --> 00:03:38,594 I tell you a lot. 49 00:03:39,636 --> 00:03:41,138 A year. 50 00:03:41,221 --> 00:03:44,516 So, what, you started seeing him last October? 51 00:03:44,600 --> 00:03:46,727 -Yes. You had just broken up with Megan… -Right. 52 00:03:46,810 --> 00:03:48,395 …so you were feeling delicate. 53 00:03:48,478 --> 00:03:51,148 I just decided to wait until you got a little stronger. 54 00:03:51,231 --> 00:03:53,358 Well, it's been a year. Have I gotten a little stronger? 55 00:03:53,942 --> 00:03:57,362 You know you don't do well when other people are happy. 56 00:03:57,446 --> 00:03:58,864 I don't know that. 57 00:03:59,615 --> 00:04:03,827 Well, none of us do, but you just have it worse than the rest of us. 58 00:04:05,329 --> 00:04:06,330 Wow. 59 00:04:08,332 --> 00:04:10,876 Look, how were you when your sister married Aaron? 60 00:04:10,959 --> 00:04:13,670 -I was very happy for her. -No, you thought she could do better. 61 00:04:13,754 --> 00:04:14,922 Well… 62 00:04:15,005 --> 00:04:17,382 But I don't know why you hate Aaron so much. 63 00:04:17,466 --> 00:04:18,884 I don't hate Aaron. He's fine. 64 00:04:18,966 --> 00:04:20,844 And what's wrong with being fine? 65 00:04:20,928 --> 00:04:21,928 Nothing. 66 00:04:22,971 --> 00:04:25,807 I think it's because he's so religious. You're anti-Semitic. 67 00:04:26,934 --> 00:04:28,018 I'm half Jewish. 68 00:04:28,101 --> 00:04:29,353 You're half anti-Semitic. 69 00:04:29,436 --> 00:04:31,396 That's a serious accusation to make. 70 00:04:31,480 --> 00:04:34,024 -Don't be overly sensitive. -I'm not being overly sensitive. 71 00:04:34,107 --> 00:04:38,946 I can be critical of organized religion without being labeled an anti-Semite. 72 00:04:40,322 --> 00:04:43,492 Yeah, I'm proud of being a Jew. 73 00:04:44,117 --> 00:04:45,285 -Really? -Yeah. 74 00:04:45,369 --> 00:04:46,370 How so? 75 00:04:46,870 --> 00:04:49,164 -"How so"? -Yeah. I'd like to hear this. 76 00:04:49,248 --> 00:04:51,124 How are you proud of being Jewish? 77 00:04:51,208 --> 00:04:52,626 I'm proud of… 78 00:04:54,169 --> 00:04:58,924 Bob Dylan, and the Coen brothers, and Ruth Bader Ginsburg, 79 00:04:59,007 --> 00:05:00,843 -and brisket and tzimmes. -You should stop. 80 00:05:00,926 --> 00:05:02,928 -You sound ridiculous. -Fine, but it's not the point. 81 00:05:03,011 --> 00:05:05,055 My problem with Beth isn't that she's religious, 82 00:05:05,138 --> 00:05:06,765 it's that she's a control freak. 83 00:05:06,849 --> 00:05:08,141 I've said this many times. 84 00:05:08,225 --> 00:05:09,935 She married a religious man 85 00:05:10,018 --> 00:05:12,437 because she thinks it will help her stay in control. 86 00:05:12,521 --> 00:05:14,940 But the truth is, you can't control everything, 87 00:05:15,023 --> 00:05:18,861 and that's why she's-- That's why she's always unhappy. 88 00:05:20,445 --> 00:05:22,865 Are you sure she's the unhappy one? 89 00:05:25,909 --> 00:05:28,245 Could we pull over somewhere? I have to pee now. 90 00:05:28,328 --> 00:05:30,831 -Can you wait until we get there? -We're only halfway there. 91 00:05:30,914 --> 00:05:32,541 That's 'cause Aaron had the great idea to move 92 00:05:32,624 --> 00:05:34,459 -all the way out to Valencia. -Oh, God. 93 00:05:34,543 --> 00:05:37,129 If you were driving faster, we'd be there by now. 94 00:06:16,126 --> 00:06:18,045 Well, I feel a million times better. 95 00:06:18,128 --> 00:06:19,129 Good. 96 00:06:20,923 --> 00:06:23,383 Did Elizabeth tell you what to get for Sara? 97 00:06:23,467 --> 00:06:24,468 Yeah. 98 00:06:25,135 --> 00:06:28,347 Me too, yeah. She even told me where to buy it. 99 00:06:28,430 --> 00:06:30,807 I thought part of the fun was picking the gift out. 100 00:06:30,891 --> 00:06:33,227 Yeah, well, that's what I'm saying. She's a control freak. 101 00:06:33,310 --> 00:06:35,854 Well, you're not wrong about that. 102 00:06:41,902 --> 00:06:43,529 Look, I'm happy you met someone. 103 00:06:44,446 --> 00:06:45,614 Well, thank you. 104 00:06:45,697 --> 00:06:47,115 It's been a while. 105 00:06:47,950 --> 00:06:49,785 Hasn't been that long a while. 106 00:06:49,868 --> 00:06:51,870 It has. But so what? 107 00:06:53,247 --> 00:06:54,665 I guess you're right. 108 00:06:56,959 --> 00:06:58,585 I've been very unlucky with men. 109 00:06:59,878 --> 00:07:00,879 I didn't say that. 110 00:07:01,588 --> 00:07:04,091 No, I have been. Very unlucky. 111 00:07:06,468 --> 00:07:09,680 I have been. What is that supposed to mean? 112 00:07:09,763 --> 00:07:13,141 I don't know. Was it luck or was it your choices? 113 00:07:16,395 --> 00:07:18,939 Your father was very different when I met him. 114 00:07:19,022 --> 00:07:20,983 He didn't have all the problems he had later. 115 00:07:21,066 --> 00:07:23,861 Or he did, and you just chose not to see them. 116 00:07:23,944 --> 00:07:26,405 I think you remember him as worse than he really was. 117 00:07:26,488 --> 00:07:27,739 Okay. 118 00:07:28,699 --> 00:07:30,033 He never hit you. 119 00:07:30,117 --> 00:07:32,744 That depends on your definition of hitting. 120 00:07:32,828 --> 00:07:34,454 You were never in any danger. 121 00:07:34,538 --> 00:07:37,082 -We were absolutely in danger. -When? 122 00:07:37,165 --> 00:07:38,750 How about anytime he drove a car? 123 00:07:38,834 --> 00:07:40,460 Why do you think I'm such a nervous driver? 124 00:07:40,544 --> 00:07:42,546 You're just talking about that one time when-- 125 00:07:42,629 --> 00:07:44,173 No. Many, many times. 126 00:07:44,256 --> 00:07:46,258 Or how about the time he almost burned the house down? 127 00:07:46,341 --> 00:07:48,886 -He didn't almost burn the house down. -A fire truck came. 128 00:07:48,969 --> 00:07:51,013 They used their hoses and things. 129 00:07:52,556 --> 00:07:53,557 I'm just saying. 130 00:07:54,391 --> 00:07:56,310 You got to choose Dad, I didn't. 131 00:07:56,393 --> 00:07:59,229 So, you know, maybe I'm the unlucky one. 132 00:08:03,066 --> 00:08:05,444 Well, that's a very hurtful thing to say to me. 133 00:08:09,364 --> 00:08:10,824 How do you think it feels 134 00:08:10,908 --> 00:08:13,827 to know that your son blames you for his miserable life? 135 00:08:13,911 --> 00:08:17,247 I'm not miserable. I didn't say that. 136 00:08:17,331 --> 00:08:19,541 You might not have meant to, but you did. 137 00:08:41,063 --> 00:08:43,023 -Do you want me to-- -No, I'm fine. 138 00:08:46,443 --> 00:08:47,528 Hello? 139 00:08:50,739 --> 00:08:52,324 Hello? 140 00:08:52,407 --> 00:08:54,243 -Mom? -Hello. 141 00:08:54,326 --> 00:08:56,495 -Hey! -Hi. 142 00:08:56,578 --> 00:08:57,746 Here you go. 143 00:08:58,830 --> 00:09:00,666 -Here you go. -Thank you. 144 00:09:00,749 --> 00:09:01,750 Thank you. 145 00:09:01,834 --> 00:09:04,670 You both got Sara exactly what I asked. 146 00:09:04,753 --> 00:09:05,754 Yeah, you told us to. 147 00:09:05,838 --> 00:09:08,924 Yeah. You know, sometimes people resent being asked what to get. 148 00:09:09,007 --> 00:09:10,008 -Really? -No. 149 00:09:10,092 --> 00:09:11,927 We enjoyed getting you just what you asked for-- 150 00:09:12,010 --> 00:09:13,053 -Punch buggy! -Okay. 151 00:09:13,136 --> 00:09:14,888 -David! -What's punch buggy? 152 00:09:15,556 --> 00:09:17,140 It's a game he's been playing. 153 00:09:17,224 --> 00:09:18,433 -Is it a game? -Yeah. 154 00:09:18,517 --> 00:09:22,104 I have no idea what the rules are, but he thinks it's hilarious. 155 00:09:22,187 --> 00:09:23,689 -It is something. -Okay. 156 00:09:23,772 --> 00:09:24,898 -It's not nothing. -Okay. 157 00:09:24,982 --> 00:09:26,233 -Hey, guys. -Hey. 158 00:09:26,316 --> 00:09:27,818 -Hello. -Hey. Hi. 159 00:09:28,610 --> 00:09:30,404 -I love what you did with your hair. -Hey. 160 00:09:30,487 --> 00:09:31,488 Mrs. Nover? 161 00:09:31,572 --> 00:09:33,949 -Same haircut I always get. -Someone's crying outside. 162 00:09:34,032 --> 00:09:36,201 -Maybe they lost at punch buggy. -Oh, shit. Fuck. 163 00:09:37,160 --> 00:09:38,495 Sorry, Abby. 164 00:09:38,579 --> 00:09:41,039 Mom, if maybe you could plate the crudités, 165 00:09:41,123 --> 00:09:43,083 that would be a big help, yeah? 166 00:09:44,209 --> 00:09:45,627 Can you show me? 167 00:09:46,712 --> 00:09:49,047 -So, how you doing? -Good, man. What's going on with you? 168 00:09:49,131 --> 00:09:50,299 Not much, not much. 169 00:09:50,382 --> 00:09:54,386 Just got the new car. You probably saw it when you came in. 170 00:09:56,054 --> 00:09:58,182 It's in the driveway. It's a green Subaru. 171 00:09:58,265 --> 00:10:02,186 Right on. Sorry, yeah, I'm just bad at noticing cars. 172 00:10:02,269 --> 00:10:04,021 I notice them when I'm driving, but… 173 00:10:04,605 --> 00:10:07,191 Yeah. You wanna come see it? 174 00:10:07,774 --> 00:10:10,068 -Yeah, sure. -Sure? I mean, you don't have to. 175 00:10:10,152 --> 00:10:12,029 -No, I could see it. -Nah, it's fine. 176 00:10:13,197 --> 00:10:14,990 -I'll see it on the way out then. -Great. 177 00:10:15,073 --> 00:10:17,326 -Let me know if you want me to open it up. -Yeah, cool. 178 00:10:17,409 --> 00:10:18,827 Cool. Good. 179 00:10:18,911 --> 00:10:20,204 Aaron! 180 00:10:21,288 --> 00:10:22,456 -I gotta go. -Yep. 181 00:10:28,253 --> 00:10:29,421 I love Costco hummus. 182 00:10:29,505 --> 00:10:31,882 -Josh. -What? I do. 183 00:10:35,427 --> 00:10:38,972 Do you see how much time they let him have on that thing? It's not okay. 184 00:10:39,056 --> 00:10:41,517 Did you see his eyes? It's scary. 185 00:10:41,600 --> 00:10:44,811 You played just as many video games when you were his age. 186 00:10:44,895 --> 00:10:47,648 I mean, for hours you would sit in front of that screen. 187 00:10:48,232 --> 00:10:49,525 And you turned out fine. 188 00:10:49,608 --> 00:10:50,609 Did I? 189 00:10:50,692 --> 00:10:52,569 -Are you done? -What? I'm just concerned for him. 190 00:10:52,653 --> 00:10:54,279 -No, you are not. -What makes you say that? 191 00:10:54,363 --> 00:10:56,031 You have always had something against David. 192 00:10:56,114 --> 00:10:57,366 I don't have anything against David. 193 00:10:57,449 --> 00:10:59,159 -He's just a bad person. -He's seven! 194 00:10:59,243 --> 00:11:01,411 Yeah, but you can be a bad person when you're seven. 195 00:11:01,495 --> 00:11:03,372 Doesn't mean you'll stay a bad person. 196 00:11:03,455 --> 00:11:06,542 Although I wouldn't really bet on David, especially if they-- 197 00:11:06,625 --> 00:11:08,961 -They keep letting him play-- -These tomatoes are bad. 198 00:11:28,063 --> 00:11:29,857 Is there an owl in the backyard? 199 00:11:29,940 --> 00:11:30,941 -Yes! -There is. 200 00:11:31,024 --> 00:11:32,901 -We have to do something about this owl. -Yes. 201 00:11:32,985 --> 00:11:35,904 I'm awake in the daytime even though I have daytime in the nighttime. 202 00:11:35,988 --> 00:11:39,616 I know, yeah. Last time we had that conversation about owls, 203 00:11:39,700 --> 00:11:42,786 and in the daytime, they're asleep, but in the nighttime, they hunt. 204 00:11:43,412 --> 00:11:44,705 Yes, 205 00:11:44,788 --> 00:11:47,958 But I wanna hunt. 206 00:11:48,041 --> 00:11:50,794 So I wanna fly, and I wanna hunt for a mouse for my dinner. 207 00:11:50,878 --> 00:11:52,296 -You wanna fly right now? -Yeah. 208 00:11:52,379 --> 00:11:53,755 Okay. Ready? Let's go. 209 00:11:54,339 --> 00:11:56,800 Okay. She's flying. 210 00:11:56,884 --> 00:12:01,847 She's flying over the prairie. She's looking for a mouse. 211 00:12:01,930 --> 00:12:03,432 -There's one! That way! -Which way? 212 00:12:03,515 --> 00:12:05,517 -Inside. -Inside. Okay, here we go. 213 00:12:06,393 --> 00:12:07,394 Okay. Which way? 214 00:12:07,477 --> 00:12:08,937 -Upstairs. -Up here? 215 00:12:09,021 --> 00:12:10,063 -Yeah. -Okay. 216 00:12:11,648 --> 00:12:14,234 And she landed. 217 00:12:15,819 --> 00:12:17,279 You gonna catch the mouse? 218 00:12:17,362 --> 00:12:18,488 Got it. 219 00:12:18,572 --> 00:12:20,949 Now it's time to eat the mouse for dinner. 220 00:12:21,033 --> 00:12:22,534 Okay, it's dinnertime. 221 00:12:25,370 --> 00:12:26,371 How was it? 222 00:12:26,872 --> 00:12:30,042 Good, but why does the owl eat the mouse? 223 00:12:30,125 --> 00:12:31,585 I guess 'cause she was hungry. 224 00:12:31,668 --> 00:12:32,920 Why? 225 00:12:33,003 --> 00:12:34,963 Well, same reason you get hungry. 226 00:12:35,047 --> 00:12:37,799 You gotta eat to keep living. Your body's built out of food. 227 00:12:37,883 --> 00:12:39,092 Why? 228 00:12:39,176 --> 00:12:44,348 Because food has all kinds of nutrients and proteins. 229 00:12:44,431 --> 00:12:45,724 -Why? -Why? 230 00:12:46,600 --> 00:12:47,976 That's a good question. 231 00:12:48,060 --> 00:12:50,687 Is it because that's just how God made the world? 232 00:12:54,650 --> 00:12:55,776 Where'd you hear that? 233 00:12:55,859 --> 00:12:56,860 Is it? 234 00:12:57,903 --> 00:13:01,240 Was someone telling you the story about how God created the world in seven days? 235 00:13:01,323 --> 00:13:02,950 It's not a story. 236 00:13:03,534 --> 00:13:05,118 -It's not? -No! 237 00:13:05,202 --> 00:13:07,162 -Is that funny? -Yeah. 238 00:13:07,246 --> 00:13:09,540 Okay, can I ask you a question? Have you ever seen God? 239 00:13:09,623 --> 00:13:10,707 -Yeah. -You have? 240 00:13:10,791 --> 00:13:12,167 Yeah. Have you ever seen him? 241 00:13:12,668 --> 00:13:13,794 No. 242 00:13:13,877 --> 00:13:14,878 Why? 243 00:13:17,256 --> 00:13:19,091 Well, I haven't seen him in real life, 244 00:13:19,174 --> 00:13:21,969 but that doesn't mean that you can't still see him. 245 00:13:22,678 --> 00:13:23,762 Why? 246 00:13:26,139 --> 00:13:27,224 Why? 247 00:13:27,307 --> 00:13:32,354 Because… Well, God is sort of like the mouse you just ate for dinner. 248 00:13:32,437 --> 00:13:34,857 -It's pretend, but it can feel real. -Josh. 249 00:13:36,191 --> 00:13:37,234 Hi. 250 00:13:37,317 --> 00:13:38,569 Hey. 251 00:13:38,652 --> 00:13:40,821 Sweetie, your friends are all looking for you outside. 252 00:13:40,904 --> 00:13:42,531 Why don't you say goodbye to Uncle Josh? 253 00:13:42,614 --> 00:13:44,825 Okay. Bye, Uncle Josh. 254 00:13:44,908 --> 00:13:46,076 Bye, darling. 255 00:13:57,796 --> 00:13:59,673 -Go away. -Can we just talk for a second? 256 00:13:59,756 --> 00:14:01,216 No, not now. 257 00:14:05,846 --> 00:14:08,265 You ever see that blog, Things Organized Neatly? 258 00:14:09,641 --> 00:14:10,642 Nope. 259 00:14:13,645 --> 00:14:14,813 What are you looking for? 260 00:14:18,942 --> 00:14:20,152 Birthday napkins. 261 00:14:20,903 --> 00:14:22,029 I don't need help. 262 00:14:22,112 --> 00:14:23,363 "Miscellaneous"? 263 00:14:23,947 --> 00:14:25,449 Goddamn it. 264 00:14:31,788 --> 00:14:34,374 -Look, I'm sorry. -No, you're not, Josh. 265 00:14:34,875 --> 00:14:37,503 If you were sorry, you wouldn't have done it in the first place. 266 00:14:37,586 --> 00:14:39,296 We were just having a conversation. 267 00:14:40,047 --> 00:14:43,550 Telling a five-year-old that God isn't real is not a conversation. 268 00:14:43,634 --> 00:14:46,178 That's you imposing your ideas on my daughter. 269 00:14:46,261 --> 00:14:49,306 She asked me if I had ever seen him. What, was I supposed to lie? 270 00:14:49,389 --> 00:14:50,933 It's not a lie. 271 00:14:51,016 --> 00:14:52,434 It would be if I said it. 272 00:14:53,227 --> 00:14:55,604 You can tell a child a story and let them believe it 273 00:14:55,687 --> 00:14:57,189 without it having to be true. 274 00:14:57,272 --> 00:14:59,399 So you don't even think it's true that God is real, 275 00:14:59,483 --> 00:15:00,984 but you want me to tell Sara-- 276 00:15:01,068 --> 00:15:02,277 Of course I believe in God. 277 00:15:02,361 --> 00:15:04,571 I'm trying to be respectful of the fact that you don't. 278 00:15:04,655 --> 00:15:07,032 No one else is here. You can tell me what you really think. 279 00:15:10,244 --> 00:15:11,870 That is what I really think. 280 00:15:13,288 --> 00:15:15,958 -And if you hadn't married Aaron, then-- -But I did. 281 00:15:17,209 --> 00:15:18,919 You can be so dumb sometimes. 282 00:15:19,002 --> 00:15:21,547 -Honestly, you think you know everything. -I don't think I know everything. 283 00:15:21,630 --> 00:15:23,590 -You think you know everything. -I think I know everything? 284 00:15:23,674 --> 00:15:25,050 Yeah. You think you have it all figured out. 285 00:15:25,133 --> 00:15:28,428 There's this old man up in the sky, and as long as you follow his rules, 286 00:15:28,512 --> 00:15:30,514 then everything just stays under control. 287 00:15:30,597 --> 00:15:32,266 Yeah. I guess, you know, 288 00:15:32,349 --> 00:15:35,477 it's easier if things were out of control, because then nothing's your fault. 289 00:15:38,313 --> 00:15:43,277 You think the entire world is chaos because our lives were chaos. 290 00:15:44,278 --> 00:15:45,487 And yours still is. 291 00:15:47,281 --> 00:15:51,493 Happy birthday to you 292 00:15:52,035 --> 00:15:55,956 Happy birthday to you 293 00:15:56,456 --> 00:16:01,086 Happy birthday, dear Sara 294 00:16:01,628 --> 00:16:06,175 Happy birthday to you 295 00:16:10,179 --> 00:16:11,180 Bye, honey. 296 00:16:11,930 --> 00:16:13,765 -Happy birthday. -Thanks. 297 00:16:13,849 --> 00:16:15,851 Goodbye, young man. Behave. 298 00:16:15,934 --> 00:16:17,686 -Thanks, Ruth. -Night, Aaron. 299 00:16:18,604 --> 00:16:20,981 -All right. Bye, sweetie. -Love you. 300 00:16:21,481 --> 00:16:23,859 -I love you. -Love you too. Don't worry. 301 00:16:23,942 --> 00:16:24,943 Thanks. 302 00:16:37,539 --> 00:16:38,874 What's wrong with you? 303 00:16:53,305 --> 00:16:54,306 Look, I'm sorry. 304 00:16:55,349 --> 00:16:57,184 You're not sorry, okay? 305 00:16:57,267 --> 00:16:59,686 'Cause if you were sorry, you wouldn't be this way. 306 00:16:59,770 --> 00:17:03,190 -I'm not trying to be any kind of way. -Well, you're not trying not to be. 307 00:17:03,273 --> 00:17:06,484 -Sara asked me if I-- -It's Sara's fault now? 308 00:17:07,109 --> 00:17:09,738 You're gonna blame your five-year-old niece for everything? 309 00:17:09,820 --> 00:17:13,575 Because earlier, everything that was wrong with your life was my fault. 310 00:17:13,659 --> 00:17:15,868 -I didn't say that. -You pretty much did. 311 00:17:21,750 --> 00:17:25,002 Do you know how many stupid books I read on how to be a good parent? 312 00:17:27,089 --> 00:17:28,674 Yes. I remember the shelf. 313 00:17:28,757 --> 00:17:30,133 It was two shelves. 314 00:17:34,805 --> 00:17:36,348 Do you know how scared I was? 315 00:17:43,772 --> 00:17:47,276 But then you grew up, right? You seemed okay. 316 00:17:47,818 --> 00:17:50,487 You acted like somebody who had a good childhood. 317 00:17:51,697 --> 00:17:55,701 So I thought, well, maybe it was a good childhood. 318 00:17:56,910 --> 00:17:58,787 I mean, it could have been better, I understand. 319 00:17:58,871 --> 00:18:00,664 But it certainly could have been worse. 320 00:18:02,040 --> 00:18:05,043 I guess I just started letting myself believe that… 321 00:18:07,671 --> 00:18:08,755 maybe I did it. 322 00:18:10,757 --> 00:18:15,429 Maybe that was the one thing in my life I did that was truly worth something. 323 00:18:15,512 --> 00:18:17,556 I was a good mom to my kids. 324 00:18:19,933 --> 00:18:24,479 I guess I was just kidding myself 'cause I fucked that up too, evidently. 325 00:18:24,563 --> 00:18:25,898 Mom, I had a good childhood. 326 00:18:25,981 --> 00:18:28,400 Please don't say that to make me feel better 327 00:18:28,483 --> 00:18:30,694 -because it just makes it worse. -You're-- 328 00:18:32,613 --> 00:18:33,864 You're a wonderful mom. 329 00:18:33,947 --> 00:18:36,491 -You always were. -Please, stop. Please, just stop it. 330 00:18:43,165 --> 00:18:44,166 Look. 331 00:18:46,084 --> 00:18:47,085 I have to pee. 332 00:18:50,380 --> 00:18:51,381 Okay. 333 00:19:51,817 --> 00:19:53,318 What are you looking at? 334 00:19:56,738 --> 00:19:57,739 Nothing. 335 00:20:15,924 --> 00:20:20,262 When we met I was younger 336 00:20:20,345 --> 00:20:23,807 Than a young thing can be 337 00:20:35,861 --> 00:20:39,781 You were wet You were hungry 338 00:20:40,282 --> 00:20:43,118 You still needed me 339 00:20:43,994 --> 00:20:50,459 You said I could fly And I flew 340 00:20:51,043 --> 00:20:54,087 I remember before you knew 341 00:20:54,171 --> 00:20:56,089 -You taught me to talk -How to talk 342 00:20:57,966 --> 00:21:00,260 Now I talk like you do 343 00:21:01,803 --> 00:21:03,555 You taught me to see 344 00:21:03,639 --> 00:21:07,643 Not to see But to really look deeper like you do 345 00:21:07,726 --> 00:21:12,189 I already knew you'd Leave me someday 346 00:21:12,272 --> 00:21:15,150 With no cure For the love that I had 347 00:21:15,234 --> 00:21:17,277 From the moment I heard 348 00:21:17,361 --> 00:21:21,615 -And from my first word, Mama -Your first word, Mama 349 00:21:22,366 --> 00:21:25,661 You shaped the boy I'd become 350 00:21:26,370 --> 00:21:32,167 But the boy disappeared Lost to the years 351 00:21:32,251 --> 00:21:36,463 And the man you became Is a beautiful one 352 00:21:36,547 --> 00:21:42,302 Every bit still the same Every bit still my son 353 00:21:43,428 --> 00:21:47,516 But, oh, here we go with our words 354 00:21:47,599 --> 00:21:51,144 And the battle's begun 355 00:21:51,228 --> 00:21:58,151 And when the dust settles I'm sick as I see what I've done 356 00:21:58,861 --> 00:22:01,280 If I could just tell you that 357 00:22:01,363 --> 00:22:08,203 You more than deserve Those three little words I can't find 358 00:22:08,996 --> 00:22:13,083 There is no other one 359 00:22:13,166 --> 00:22:17,087 -You are my mother -You are my son 360 00:22:17,171 --> 00:22:19,214 You are mine 361 00:22:27,598 --> 00:22:30,434 At times you rile me up 362 00:22:31,268 --> 00:22:35,022 Just a little bit more than most do 363 00:22:36,273 --> 00:22:40,527 You get on my nerves And I'm sure that I get on yours 364 00:22:40,611 --> 00:22:42,446 Surely we both do 365 00:22:42,529 --> 00:22:46,909 Aren't we supposed to Say what we're feeling 366 00:22:46,992 --> 00:22:52,581 Instead, I'm concealing my heart And just offering guile 367 00:22:53,999 --> 00:22:57,920 And when you smile It's my reflection 368 00:22:59,379 --> 00:23:02,299 Mixed with everything I feel 369 00:23:02,382 --> 00:23:08,222 All of my flaws Look what I've caused to appear 370 00:23:10,224 --> 00:23:15,020 Why can't I say What you most need to hear? 371 00:23:15,687 --> 00:23:20,567 Don't leave me stuck in the dark, dear 372 00:23:31,036 --> 00:23:34,706 Oh, here we go with our words 373 00:23:34,790 --> 00:23:38,252 And the battle's begun 374 00:23:38,335 --> 00:23:45,300 And when the dust settles I'm sick as I see what I've done 375 00:23:46,093 --> 00:23:48,345 If I could just tell you that 376 00:23:48,428 --> 00:23:52,057 You more than deserve 377 00:23:52,140 --> 00:23:56,854 Those three little words I can't find 378 00:23:57,437 --> 00:24:01,525 There is no other one 379 00:24:01,608 --> 00:24:05,320 -You are my mother -You are my son 380 00:24:05,404 --> 00:24:08,115 You are mine 381 00:24:08,198 --> 00:24:10,284 If I could just tell you that--