1 00:00:01,700 --> 00:00:03,367 It was so clean when I got back. 2 00:00:03,368 --> 00:00:05,470 I felt like you hadn't been home once all weekend. 3 00:00:05,471 --> 00:00:07,205 I'm Theo. I'm a doctor here. 4 00:00:07,206 --> 00:00:09,472 Hey Theo Doctor Here, I'm Siobhan, patient here. 5 00:00:09,473 --> 00:00:11,308 Siobhan Carlyle, 14-year-old lupus patient, 6 00:00:11,309 --> 00:00:13,510 she's waiting on an experimental bone marrow transplant. 7 00:00:13,511 --> 00:00:15,478 I found a way to get you to Ottawa. 8 00:00:15,479 --> 00:00:17,581 Just have a good time up there, okay? 9 00:00:17,582 --> 00:00:19,316 - I'm going to Turkey. - What's gonna happen 10 00:00:19,317 --> 00:00:21,451 - while you're gone? - Rotating attendings to cover 11 00:00:21,452 --> 00:00:23,120 and then you figure out all the rest. 12 00:00:23,121 --> 00:00:25,555 - You're dropping out. - No! No, I-I don't... 13 00:00:25,556 --> 00:00:27,757 - I don't know! - So, that's going well. 14 00:00:27,758 --> 00:00:29,860 Our FX board approval says anything that develops 15 00:00:29,861 --> 00:00:31,829 during the course of our study has to be included. 16 00:00:31,830 --> 00:00:33,563 I don't like being backed into a corner. 17 00:00:33,564 --> 00:00:38,335 What if I just... I don't know how to feel anymore. 18 00:00:38,336 --> 00:00:41,070 I want us rethinking our entire approach 19 00:00:41,071 --> 00:00:43,673 to patient interaction. I'm sorry, Bashir, but for you, 20 00:00:43,674 --> 00:00:46,175 that means not training as a surgeon. 21 00:00:51,382 --> 00:00:53,950 I'm serious, Saleh, say yes! 22 00:00:53,951 --> 00:00:55,918 Amira wants to sing at my wedding. 23 00:00:55,919 --> 00:00:58,888 You should be lucky to get this kind of entertainment. 24 00:00:58,889 --> 00:01:01,123 What are you? Her manager? 25 00:01:01,992 --> 00:01:03,560 - Good workout? - Hey. 26 00:01:03,561 --> 00:01:06,963 Amira and I made plans to walk her to school. 27 00:01:06,964 --> 00:01:08,632 So I brought Timbits. 28 00:01:08,633 --> 00:01:10,534 Thank you. Good thing I worked up an appetite. 29 00:01:10,535 --> 00:01:12,535 I told Saleh I'd perform at his wedding. 30 00:01:12,536 --> 00:01:14,103 The Worst Pies in London. 31 00:01:14,104 --> 00:01:15,405 If he moves it to Turkey, 32 00:01:15,406 --> 00:01:17,040 we'll be citizens and can travel. 33 00:01:17,041 --> 00:01:18,775 We can't do that! 34 00:01:18,776 --> 00:01:20,844 Yeah, you can't sing about cutting up people 35 00:01:20,845 --> 00:01:22,549 and putting them into pies at a wedding, Amira. 36 00:01:22,550 --> 00:01:25,151 Oh, come on! It's a crowd-pleaser. 37 00:01:25,152 --> 00:01:26,820 And it's my school audition song. 38 00:01:26,821 --> 00:01:28,951 Oh, yeah, Amira thinks that if she keeps saying 39 00:01:28,952 --> 00:01:31,455 "audition" it will actually happen. Here, I'll take that. 40 00:01:31,456 --> 00:01:32,789 You see my life? 41 00:01:32,790 --> 00:01:35,487 - Yeah. Okay, say bye! - We'll work on him together. 42 00:01:56,379 --> 00:01:58,480 What, you're leaving? 43 00:01:58,481 --> 00:02:00,177 Now, after all this time? 44 00:02:10,235 --> 00:02:11,969 But the border with your work, 45 00:02:11,970 --> 00:02:14,672 it will be dangerous. You need to think this through. 46 00:02:14,673 --> 00:02:16,840 I am. We are. 47 00:02:18,034 --> 00:02:19,301 Like you did, Bashir. 48 00:02:19,302 --> 00:02:21,236 The only reason I'm where I am 49 00:02:21,237 --> 00:02:24,505 is because a truck crashed and I saved a man's life. 50 00:02:24,506 --> 00:02:27,375 Okay, right place, right time. I was lucky, Saleh. 51 00:02:27,376 --> 00:02:29,977 Do you hear yourself? Lucky? 52 00:02:30,646 --> 00:02:32,447 You've just always been lucky? 53 00:02:32,448 --> 00:02:34,614 Tell me you don't actually believe that. 54 00:02:39,385 --> 00:02:40,615 Bashir... 55 00:02:41,625 --> 00:02:43,727 That's not why I told you. 56 00:02:43,728 --> 00:02:46,295 You know why I have to leave. 57 00:02:54,570 --> 00:02:57,439 Tell Amira I'll, uh, meet her outside. 58 00:02:57,440 --> 00:02:59,007 Wait, you can wait in the house. 59 00:02:59,008 --> 00:03:00,607 No, I'm good. 60 00:03:00,608 --> 00:03:04,178 I'm gonna spare you the lecture on her school, 61 00:03:04,179 --> 00:03:05,612 but if she asks... 62 00:03:05,613 --> 00:03:07,680 - I'll tell her you tried. - Thanks. 63 00:03:09,017 --> 00:03:10,316 Hey, Rania. 64 00:03:11,586 --> 00:03:14,288 Amira told Saleh that we're becoming citizens? 65 00:03:14,289 --> 00:03:15,722 Yeah? 66 00:03:15,723 --> 00:03:17,458 That's why he doesn't want me sending money, 67 00:03:17,459 --> 00:03:19,259 because it would violate sanctions. 68 00:03:19,260 --> 00:03:23,063 I know it's hard, being here while he's there. 69 00:03:23,064 --> 00:03:26,099 But he wouldn't want you hiding your good news, Bashir. 70 00:03:27,035 --> 00:03:28,969 Which is why I, uh... 71 00:03:28,970 --> 00:03:30,937 I should tell you. 72 00:03:31,973 --> 00:03:33,573 I'm seeing someone new. 73 00:03:34,376 --> 00:03:36,672 - Yeah! - Rania, that's great! 74 00:03:39,214 --> 00:03:41,247 I'm seeing someone too, so... 75 00:03:42,183 --> 00:03:43,383 Wow. 76 00:03:44,218 --> 00:03:45,584 I'm happy for you. 77 00:03:45,585 --> 00:03:49,587 And you're allowed to be happy for yourself too. 78 00:04:10,944 --> 00:04:12,711 How many patients do they have you balancing 79 00:04:12,712 --> 00:04:13,913 at once in cardiology? 80 00:04:13,914 --> 00:04:16,082 As many as I can carry. Actually, could you... 81 00:04:16,083 --> 00:04:17,550 - Yeah. - Thank you. 82 00:04:17,551 --> 00:04:19,585 So uh, this thing with Bash, 83 00:04:19,586 --> 00:04:22,188 how are you managing to fit him into your usual metric 84 00:04:22,189 --> 00:04:23,589 of giving 200 percent? 85 00:04:23,590 --> 00:04:26,225 By downgrading to a 75-75 split? 86 00:04:26,226 --> 00:04:27,559 You? As if. 87 00:04:27,560 --> 00:04:28,760 Shut up. 88 00:04:28,761 --> 00:04:30,762 - Theo? - Siobhan? 89 00:04:30,763 --> 00:04:32,297 What happened to your face? 90 00:04:32,298 --> 00:04:34,966 Uh, I see they're letting you charter your own flights now. 91 00:04:34,967 --> 00:04:36,668 For business, not pleasure. 92 00:04:36,669 --> 00:04:39,037 Theo, my foster mom, Gloria. Gloria, this is... 93 00:04:39,038 --> 00:04:41,506 - The famous Dr. Hunter. - Oh. Hello. 94 00:04:41,507 --> 00:04:43,808 I'm guessing you're not here 95 00:04:43,809 --> 00:04:46,211 - just to visit me. - Transplant surgery. 96 00:04:46,212 --> 00:04:48,380 I thought you already had a bone marrow transplant. 97 00:04:48,381 --> 00:04:51,983 - She did. It went well, but... - My kidney didn't get the memo. 98 00:04:51,984 --> 00:04:54,586 Nine lives currently down to one. 99 00:04:54,587 --> 00:04:56,588 And we have a kidney here for you? 100 00:04:56,589 --> 00:04:58,356 Uh, my colleague, Dr. Leblanc. 101 00:04:58,357 --> 00:05:01,025 On its way, so we'd better motor. Nice meeting you. 102 00:05:01,026 --> 00:05:03,294 I'll see you before the surgery. 103 00:05:04,330 --> 00:05:05,629 How are you, Theo? 104 00:05:06,399 --> 00:05:09,967 John's memorial go okay? I was still home recovering. 105 00:05:09,968 --> 00:05:12,036 It was rough. 106 00:05:12,037 --> 00:05:13,204 Glad you're on your feet. 107 00:05:13,205 --> 00:05:15,272 His widow was hoping to meet you. 108 00:05:15,273 --> 00:05:16,840 Maybe give her a call? 109 00:05:22,147 --> 00:05:24,547 John's the pilot who died in the crash? 110 00:05:25,250 --> 00:05:27,785 - Are you gonna reach out? - You think I should? 111 00:05:27,786 --> 00:05:30,822 I mean, you're the last one who saw him alive 112 00:05:30,823 --> 00:05:32,924 and she's gonna want closure. 113 00:05:32,925 --> 00:05:34,888 You know, you've always known how to take care 114 00:05:34,889 --> 00:05:36,193 of people like that. 115 00:05:36,194 --> 00:05:38,262 Yeah except lately, my radar's been a little off, 116 00:05:38,263 --> 00:05:39,931 I just wouldn't wanna make her uncomfortable. 117 00:05:39,932 --> 00:05:41,561 I'm sure that's not true with you. 118 00:05:43,401 --> 00:05:46,403 Oh, my chart! Thank you. Sorry. 119 00:06:09,160 --> 00:06:11,394 I need help! 120 00:06:11,395 --> 00:06:13,730 I could use a little help! 121 00:06:13,731 --> 00:06:16,399 If you could, uh, hold these. 122 00:06:16,400 --> 00:06:17,868 Excuse me, are you alright? 123 00:06:17,869 --> 00:06:20,302 So I can figure out what hurts. 124 00:06:22,239 --> 00:06:23,940 Is someone with you? 125 00:06:23,941 --> 00:06:26,242 Ari. Arianna. 126 00:06:26,243 --> 00:06:27,443 Now she's gone. 127 00:06:30,114 --> 00:06:32,347 Take these. 128 00:06:38,421 --> 00:06:40,990 I told security to stand down. 129 00:06:40,991 --> 00:06:43,058 Okay. Um... 130 00:06:43,059 --> 00:06:45,227 - Can you go find a gown or a... - Blanket. 131 00:06:45,228 --> 00:06:46,695 - Yeah. - Yeah. 132 00:06:54,638 --> 00:06:56,739 Hi, I'm Bashir, I'm a doctor. 133 00:06:56,740 --> 00:07:00,776 Uh, can you tell me your name and maybe why you're here? 134 00:07:00,777 --> 00:07:02,310 Well, I... 135 00:07:03,379 --> 00:07:05,314 I think I was wondering if it's okay 136 00:07:05,315 --> 00:07:07,917 that my heart is beating so fast? And um... 137 00:07:07,918 --> 00:07:09,885 why it hurts my stomach? 138 00:07:09,886 --> 00:07:11,920 Well, I'd have to listen to be sure. 139 00:07:11,921 --> 00:07:13,487 Well, then listen. 140 00:07:14,390 --> 00:07:15,956 Okay. Deep breath. 141 00:07:17,559 --> 00:07:20,962 Ari would love this book. Can we keep it? 142 00:07:20,963 --> 00:07:22,864 Uh, may I? 143 00:07:22,865 --> 00:07:24,832 I am a bit frosty. 144 00:07:26,936 --> 00:07:28,303 Her pupils are dilated. 145 00:07:28,304 --> 00:07:29,539 Is there something in her system? 146 00:07:29,540 --> 00:07:31,673 - Let's do a tox screen. - Yeah. 147 00:07:32,642 --> 00:07:34,675 Um, what's Ari's last name? 148 00:07:34,676 --> 00:07:38,446 - We can get someone to page... - It's the same as mine. 149 00:07:38,447 --> 00:07:40,215 Actually... 150 00:07:40,216 --> 00:07:43,118 I have her phone in here somewhere. 151 00:07:43,119 --> 00:07:45,319 Um, maybe you can tell me 152 00:07:45,320 --> 00:07:48,156 what you've taken that's making you feel this good? 153 00:07:48,157 --> 00:07:50,525 Maybe I could. 154 00:07:50,526 --> 00:07:51,726 Oh. 155 00:07:52,593 --> 00:07:54,326 Battery's dead. 156 00:07:56,064 --> 00:07:58,464 Maybe you could resuscitate it. 157 00:08:01,169 --> 00:08:02,669 So you said you passed out? 158 00:08:02,670 --> 00:08:04,737 Yeah. On my way to the bathroom at two AM. 159 00:08:04,738 --> 00:08:06,573 Which also makes no sense 160 00:08:06,574 --> 00:08:08,742 because I had my last tea at eight PM. 161 00:08:08,743 --> 00:08:11,945 And them bam, the thing in my chest shook me awake. 162 00:08:11,946 --> 00:08:13,545 You're sure it wasn't just the fluttering 163 00:08:13,546 --> 00:08:15,782 from your Long QT syndrome we talked about last time? 164 00:08:15,783 --> 00:08:17,117 Uh, more like an earthquake. 165 00:08:17,118 --> 00:08:19,448 If I wanted one of those, I'd live on the west coast. 166 00:08:23,324 --> 00:08:26,994 Oh so we move directly to crazy lady imagining things. 167 00:08:26,995 --> 00:08:29,096 No, no, of course not. It's just... 168 00:08:29,097 --> 00:08:31,498 Part of the ICD study is data feedback and we didn't... 169 00:08:31,499 --> 00:08:33,633 The system shows no indication it went off. 170 00:08:33,634 --> 00:08:35,835 Or that you had any change in your rhythm at all. 171 00:08:35,836 --> 00:08:38,404 Then your system doesn't work. I know what I felt. 172 00:08:39,840 --> 00:08:42,409 Okay well, we'll run a few labs and confirm what happened. 173 00:08:42,410 --> 00:08:43,809 You do that. 174 00:08:44,745 --> 00:08:46,513 Long QT can cause fainting. 175 00:08:46,514 --> 00:08:48,681 But almost always with an accompanying arrhythmia 176 00:08:48,682 --> 00:08:51,450 - which would've been logged. - You think she's lying? 177 00:08:51,451 --> 00:08:54,287 I believe she felt something. Do an echo. 178 00:08:54,288 --> 00:08:56,289 But don't let her suck you in. 179 00:08:56,290 --> 00:08:58,524 Lily's been my patient for years and she's a malingerer. 180 00:08:58,525 --> 00:09:00,359 I'll also run diagnostics on her ICD 181 00:09:00,360 --> 00:09:01,694 to make sure it's still working. 182 00:09:01,695 --> 00:09:04,562 Yes, let's log it as a potential glitch either way. 183 00:09:09,870 --> 00:09:11,838 I thought we shared a preference for texting? 184 00:09:11,839 --> 00:09:13,939 It's harder to say no to a face. 185 00:09:15,008 --> 00:09:16,242 What's the ask? 186 00:09:16,243 --> 00:09:18,278 I went to pay tuition with the cheque you gave me. 187 00:09:18,279 --> 00:09:21,080 But financial services says I need a fancy bank draft. 188 00:09:21,081 --> 00:09:24,383 Even if I knew what that was, she says I can't do it online. 189 00:09:24,384 --> 00:09:26,517 So you're saying that YouTube doesn't teach you 190 00:09:26,518 --> 00:09:27,785 how to do that? That's weird. 191 00:09:27,786 --> 00:09:29,520 Ha. Since you're Dad's executor, 192 00:09:29,521 --> 00:09:30,555 you need to do it. 193 00:09:30,556 --> 00:09:32,390 But I was hoping you could show me how. 194 00:09:32,391 --> 00:09:33,825 Why is it that every time you call, 195 00:09:33,826 --> 00:09:35,730 you have some kind of jam I need to pull you out of? 196 00:09:35,731 --> 00:09:37,933 Why is it no matter what I do, you're disappointed in me? 197 00:09:37,934 --> 00:09:39,831 Is it my fault they use ancient technology? 198 00:09:39,832 --> 00:09:42,200 Might as well ask for an IOU on a stone tablet. 199 00:09:42,201 --> 00:09:44,002 Shay. When do you need it by? 200 00:09:44,003 --> 00:09:45,603 Today or I lose courses. 201 00:09:45,604 --> 00:09:47,438 I can meet you at the bank whenever's good. 202 00:09:47,439 --> 00:09:50,141 No, it's just easier if I do it myself. 203 00:09:50,142 --> 00:09:52,110 At least tell me something I can do in return. 204 00:09:52,111 --> 00:09:54,679 Make us dinner? I saw a video about deep-frying chickpeas. 205 00:09:54,680 --> 00:09:56,982 No, the last thing I need is my kitchen on fire. 206 00:09:56,983 --> 00:09:58,749 I gotta go. 207 00:09:59,418 --> 00:10:01,352 - Isn't Novak back from Turkey? - Next week. 208 00:10:01,353 --> 00:10:04,288 Which means a random surgeon correcting me at every turn. 209 00:10:04,289 --> 00:10:05,522 You're half-right. 210 00:10:05,523 --> 00:10:06,891 Dr. Singh, are you covering today? 211 00:10:06,892 --> 00:10:08,125 Don't look so excited. 212 00:10:08,126 --> 00:10:11,095 Okay well I, uh, will page you if there's any action. 213 00:10:11,096 --> 00:10:12,429 I cleared my schedule. 214 00:10:12,430 --> 00:10:14,064 Thought I'd go take a look and make sure 215 00:10:14,065 --> 00:10:15,732 we're properly set up. 216 00:10:15,733 --> 00:10:17,567 Dr. Singh. I'll walk with you. 217 00:10:18,503 --> 00:10:21,571 You weren't at the staff meeting this morning. 218 00:10:21,572 --> 00:10:23,107 I thought that was tomorrow. 219 00:10:23,108 --> 00:10:24,741 Last minute a change. 220 00:10:24,742 --> 00:10:27,211 The e-mails sometimes go to Spam. 221 00:10:27,212 --> 00:10:30,347 Gave everyone a chance to talk about me behind my back? 222 00:10:30,348 --> 00:10:32,082 Uh, general consensus is, 223 00:10:32,083 --> 00:10:33,816 they don't know what to make of you. 224 00:10:34,784 --> 00:10:37,153 Thank you for covering in Trauma OR today. 225 00:10:37,154 --> 00:10:39,722 There's been some uh, growing pains... 226 00:10:39,723 --> 00:10:41,290 - Ha! - And I'd like to get another 227 00:10:41,291 --> 00:10:42,458 surgeon's take. 228 00:10:42,459 --> 00:10:45,295 Someone less opaque than Mark Novak, you mean? 229 00:10:45,296 --> 00:10:48,798 That. Plus, I understand that you've been a critic 230 00:10:48,799 --> 00:10:50,166 of the incentive from the start. 231 00:10:50,167 --> 00:10:52,202 Your sources are correct. 232 00:10:52,203 --> 00:10:54,703 Good. Then you won't pull any punches with your feedback. 233 00:11:00,177 --> 00:11:01,476 Hello? 234 00:11:03,247 --> 00:11:04,748 Make any sense of that teenaged brain 235 00:11:04,749 --> 00:11:06,016 you've living with? 236 00:11:06,017 --> 00:11:07,783 I think I'm starting to get what you're balancing. 237 00:11:07,784 --> 00:11:09,818 Oh, that wasn't about Amira. 238 00:11:09,819 --> 00:11:11,619 Oh. So it's just me then. 239 00:11:11,620 --> 00:11:14,589 No. I'm sorry, it's just... you remember my friend Saleh? 240 00:11:14,590 --> 00:11:16,791 Yeah, the white helmet guy from Syria. Is he okay? 241 00:11:16,792 --> 00:11:19,027 Yeah, I'm trying to send him money but Canada 242 00:11:19,028 --> 00:11:21,063 has sanctions that can make it frustrating. 243 00:11:21,064 --> 00:11:22,231 So no e-transfers? 244 00:11:22,232 --> 00:11:24,966 The point of these rules is to stop funds 245 00:11:24,967 --> 00:11:27,635 from getting to the Regime or opposition forces, 246 00:11:27,636 --> 00:11:30,138 but they cast a wide net so personal transfers 247 00:11:30,139 --> 00:11:32,975 - are blocked too. - Money in a birthday card? 248 00:11:32,976 --> 00:11:35,110 It's a good way to get it stolen. 249 00:11:35,111 --> 00:11:36,778 - They open our mail. - Oh. 250 00:11:36,779 --> 00:11:39,181 There are couriers who can help get cash overseas 251 00:11:39,182 --> 00:11:40,782 through random networks. 252 00:11:40,783 --> 00:11:42,984 - Is that dangerous? - Not for everyone. 253 00:11:42,985 --> 00:11:45,118 Plenty of us still use them to help our families 254 00:11:45,119 --> 00:11:48,255 back home but now, if it got connected it back to me... 255 00:11:48,256 --> 00:11:50,157 You're still applying to be a citizen. 256 00:11:50,158 --> 00:11:52,460 Yeah, you gotta be careful. 257 00:11:52,461 --> 00:11:53,994 What if I did it? 258 00:11:55,297 --> 00:11:56,630 June, uh... 259 00:11:56,631 --> 00:11:59,135 I have to go out anyways. Plus, Singh is in Trauma OR 260 00:11:59,136 --> 00:12:01,102 and he's just making a whole long list of grievances. 261 00:12:01,103 --> 00:12:03,670 I have no idea what I've gotten myself... 262 00:12:03,671 --> 00:12:06,073 into. Sorry, I know that's a sore spot. 263 00:12:06,074 --> 00:12:09,043 Just uh, let me know how to do the money thing. 264 00:12:09,044 --> 00:12:11,244 - Okay. Thank you. - Yeah. 265 00:12:29,463 --> 00:12:30,663 Hello? 266 00:12:30,664 --> 00:12:32,065 How did you get this phone? 267 00:12:32,066 --> 00:12:35,235 I'm sorry, it belongs to someone named Ari, I'm just... 268 00:12:35,236 --> 00:12:36,269 Who are you? 269 00:12:36,270 --> 00:12:38,271 I'm a doctor at York Memorial Hospital. 270 00:12:38,272 --> 00:12:40,540 Oh God. Is it Krista? Is she okay? 271 00:12:40,541 --> 00:12:42,909 She called from this number last night then didn't answer. 272 00:12:42,910 --> 00:12:44,444 I've been scared to try hospitals... 273 00:12:44,445 --> 00:12:47,147 I'm sorry, I can't divulge any patient information. 274 00:12:47,148 --> 00:12:48,848 Is she alive? 275 00:12:48,849 --> 00:12:50,016 Yes. 276 00:12:50,017 --> 00:12:51,617 Thank you. What department? 277 00:12:51,618 --> 00:12:53,520 Emergency. Ask for Dr. Hamed. 278 00:12:53,521 --> 00:12:54,986 I think her name's Krista. 279 00:12:54,987 --> 00:12:56,988 Blood came back. Full of ketamine. 280 00:12:56,989 --> 00:12:59,491 That explains her high BP and heart rate... 281 00:12:59,492 --> 00:13:01,627 Things people put in their body these days... 282 00:13:01,628 --> 00:13:03,529 I mean, some guy came in last week after licking 283 00:13:03,530 --> 00:13:04,663 a poisonous toad. So... 284 00:13:04,664 --> 00:13:06,832 Well, let me know if anybody comes looking for her. 285 00:13:06,833 --> 00:13:08,033 Yep. 286 00:13:08,868 --> 00:13:10,735 Meet at the place by the thing in an hour? 287 00:13:11,538 --> 00:13:13,405 Claire, could you find Lily a bed 288 00:13:13,406 --> 00:13:15,840 until all her bloods are in? She had a rough night. 289 00:13:15,841 --> 00:13:18,110 It's bedlam down here. Can you get her in upstairs? 290 00:13:18,111 --> 00:13:20,078 Oh, no go. Her boss kicked me out, 291 00:13:20,079 --> 00:13:22,281 but Dr. Leblanc is a renegade. 292 00:13:22,282 --> 00:13:24,083 Yeah, Dr. Fisher doesn't think she suffered 293 00:13:24,084 --> 00:13:26,150 - from a cardiac event. - Even though I did. 294 00:13:26,151 --> 00:13:28,019 Which is why I want to run a wider set of labs 295 00:13:28,020 --> 00:13:29,588 and need a spot for her while we wait. 296 00:13:29,589 --> 00:13:31,390 It's really a madhouse today. 297 00:13:31,391 --> 00:13:34,095 Um, the best I can do is hallway gurney. 298 00:13:34,096 --> 00:13:35,700 That's perfect! It's great. Stay here, 299 00:13:35,701 --> 00:13:37,428 we'll get you settled. 300 00:13:37,429 --> 00:13:38,930 I promise it won't be long. 301 00:13:38,931 --> 00:13:40,866 Okay, and when the new labs come in, 302 00:13:40,867 --> 00:13:42,066 are we looping in Dr. Fisher? 303 00:13:42,067 --> 00:13:43,835 She doesn't really think they're necessary 304 00:13:43,836 --> 00:13:45,903 - so just me for now? - Yep. 305 00:13:47,540 --> 00:13:48,907 What happened? 306 00:13:48,908 --> 00:13:51,576 The transplant kidney has a bacterial infection. 307 00:13:51,577 --> 00:13:54,546 My guess is someone put their lunch in the wrong cooler. 308 00:13:54,547 --> 00:13:56,747 I'm so sorry, guys. 309 00:13:57,316 --> 00:14:00,317 Um... another one could come up. 310 00:14:00,986 --> 00:14:03,654 They said I could hold out a few more weeks on dialysis... 311 00:14:03,655 --> 00:14:05,656 Definitely not enough time to finish my memoir... 312 00:14:05,657 --> 00:14:07,324 I'll be right back. 313 00:14:09,794 --> 00:14:11,795 Please tell me you're not gonna run off to cry 314 00:14:11,796 --> 00:14:12,897 in the hallway too. 315 00:14:12,898 --> 00:14:15,733 For better or worse, I am comfortably numb, so... 316 00:14:15,734 --> 00:14:17,267 Apparently not. 317 00:14:18,337 --> 00:14:20,538 How else can I be of use to you? 318 00:14:20,539 --> 00:14:22,806 By discussing anything 319 00:14:22,807 --> 00:14:24,841 but kidneys or my lack thereof? 320 00:14:25,477 --> 00:14:26,944 Well, you're writing a memoir? 321 00:14:26,945 --> 00:14:29,413 I'm thinking of calling it Shades of Beige... 322 00:14:29,414 --> 00:14:32,350 in honour of hideous hospital walls. Thoughts? 323 00:14:32,351 --> 00:14:34,484 Could use some work. 324 00:14:38,789 --> 00:14:40,789 I'm scared, Theo. 325 00:14:41,425 --> 00:14:42,891 I know. 326 00:14:45,196 --> 00:14:46,859 But we'll think of a better title. 327 00:14:54,200 --> 00:14:56,267 Right behind you, Bash. 328 00:14:57,736 --> 00:14:59,070 Matt Ellis, 34! 329 00:14:59,071 --> 00:15:00,638 A truck hit his motorcycle. 330 00:15:00,639 --> 00:15:02,107 Skull fracture, collapsed lung, 331 00:15:02,108 --> 00:15:04,242 abdo shredded. We had to pack and seal. 332 00:15:04,243 --> 00:15:06,445 He was a block away from our house! Please help him! 333 00:15:06,446 --> 00:15:09,213 Our surgeons have it, ma'am. What do you need, Dr. Curtis? 334 00:15:09,214 --> 00:15:10,981 Uh, O-neg blood and I'll take him straight 335 00:15:10,982 --> 00:15:12,415 to trauma OR. Page Singh. 336 00:15:13,151 --> 00:15:14,852 June's got this, Dr. Hamed. 337 00:15:14,853 --> 00:15:16,353 What's going to happen to him? 338 00:15:16,354 --> 00:15:17,922 Let our surgeons do their job, ma'am. 339 00:15:17,923 --> 00:15:19,456 They'll take care of him. 340 00:15:22,794 --> 00:15:25,796 Right pupil's blown. Page Neurosurg, 341 00:15:25,797 --> 00:15:27,631 interventional radiology. 342 00:15:27,632 --> 00:15:30,467 Chest tube's in. Dammit, his liver's exposed. 343 00:15:30,468 --> 00:15:33,037 - I'm gonna need suction. - I've got blood. 344 00:15:33,038 --> 00:15:34,939 New porter took it to Trauma Bay instead. 345 00:15:34,940 --> 00:15:36,173 Claire, prep to transfuse. 346 00:15:36,174 --> 00:15:37,807 Theo since you're here, intubate? 347 00:15:37,808 --> 00:15:39,008 Got it. 348 00:15:39,477 --> 00:15:41,644 Massive abdominal hemorrhage. 349 00:15:42,213 --> 00:15:44,781 I'm guessing from more than one spot. 350 00:15:44,782 --> 00:15:47,082 - He's bleeding out. - Get a clamp in there. 351 00:15:47,083 --> 00:15:48,585 - I've got it, Kelly. - Claire, there is no point. 352 00:15:48,586 --> 00:15:50,820 I can't see anything. I'm suctioning and sponging 353 00:15:50,821 --> 00:15:51,825 as fast as I can. 354 00:15:51,826 --> 00:15:54,095 I've got a difficult airway here. 355 00:15:54,096 --> 00:15:55,661 So much blood. 356 00:15:56,827 --> 00:15:58,062 I'm in... 357 00:15:58,063 --> 00:16:00,398 but he's hypovolemic. I don't think we're gonna be able 358 00:16:00,399 --> 00:16:01,862 to transfuse fast enough. 359 00:16:03,835 --> 00:16:05,302 Pressure's tanking. 360 00:16:06,036 --> 00:16:08,305 Dr. Curtis what do you need? 361 00:16:08,306 --> 00:16:09,506 June! 362 00:16:12,877 --> 00:16:14,440 June! 363 00:16:14,441 --> 00:16:16,510 There is too much blood, we're not keeping up. 364 00:16:16,511 --> 00:16:18,995 I see that. Make a plan to deal with it, or I will. 365 00:16:18,996 --> 00:16:21,550 Alright, abdo's the priority. I'm gonna use a VAC, Claire. 366 00:16:21,551 --> 00:16:22,784 On the backup cart. 367 00:16:22,785 --> 00:16:24,319 You don't know what negative pressure 368 00:16:24,320 --> 00:16:26,027 - will do to the liver. - Well, Dr. Novak taught me 369 00:16:26,028 --> 00:16:27,657 how to pack properly, so unless you have a better idea? 370 00:16:27,658 --> 00:16:28,858 Extra hands! 371 00:16:30,094 --> 00:16:31,627 Pack thoroughly. 372 00:16:40,937 --> 00:16:43,671 - Pressure's ticking up. - That's a good sign. 373 00:16:45,475 --> 00:16:47,476 Just about ready for the patch. 374 00:16:52,482 --> 00:16:54,382 One twenty-five Milli continuous. 375 00:17:02,326 --> 00:17:04,026 So, is that always like this in here? 376 00:17:04,027 --> 00:17:05,627 Only on days that end in Y. 377 00:17:05,628 --> 00:17:07,262 We should get an ETA on Neurosurg. 378 00:17:07,263 --> 00:17:08,698 There's no point in moving heaven and earth 379 00:17:08,699 --> 00:17:10,265 if there's no brain function. 380 00:17:12,668 --> 00:17:14,335 You think he's gonna pull through? 381 00:17:18,073 --> 00:17:20,141 Krista, I was panicking! You said you're with friends 382 00:17:20,142 --> 00:17:22,344 then stay out all night in some k-hole?! 383 00:17:22,345 --> 00:17:24,546 That's not at all what it was! 384 00:17:24,547 --> 00:17:26,214 - It's therapeutic. - Oh, come... 385 00:17:26,215 --> 00:17:28,249 Controlled dosage by a psychiatrist 386 00:17:28,250 --> 00:17:30,485 and it's completely legal. 387 00:17:30,486 --> 00:17:32,420 When I left the clinic, I was fine. 388 00:17:32,421 --> 00:17:35,523 I... I've never rebounded like this before. 389 00:17:35,524 --> 00:17:37,525 And how are you feeling now? 390 00:17:38,361 --> 00:17:42,563 Just tired and embarrassed. 391 00:17:42,564 --> 00:17:45,766 I thought I... I called you? 392 00:17:45,767 --> 00:17:47,334 Yeah, in the middle of the night, 393 00:17:47,335 --> 00:17:49,737 from her phone, which apparently you kept active? 394 00:17:49,738 --> 00:17:51,405 And then I have to come back here, 395 00:17:51,406 --> 00:17:54,173 - to the place they brought her... - She has a name, Tavi! 396 00:17:55,377 --> 00:17:57,677 And you're allowed to think about her. 397 00:18:02,917 --> 00:18:05,619 Our daughter Arianna died two years ago. 398 00:18:05,620 --> 00:18:06,852 She was 17. 399 00:18:07,555 --> 00:18:10,122 I'm very sorry for your loss. 400 00:18:11,125 --> 00:18:13,761 Anyway, I think that's why I came here. 401 00:18:13,762 --> 00:18:16,396 To feel connected to her again. 402 00:18:16,397 --> 00:18:17,464 Hmm. 403 00:18:17,465 --> 00:18:19,532 I thought you came in because of your symptoms. 404 00:18:19,533 --> 00:18:21,733 Symptoms? What symptoms? 405 00:18:22,969 --> 00:18:25,671 A racing heart, which makes sense 406 00:18:25,672 --> 00:18:27,373 considering your high blood pressure. 407 00:18:27,374 --> 00:18:28,741 And stomach pain? 408 00:18:28,742 --> 00:18:30,843 Yeah, uh... 409 00:18:30,844 --> 00:18:34,179 Now that I'm officially back in my body, 410 00:18:34,180 --> 00:18:36,382 I do feel that. 411 00:18:36,383 --> 00:18:38,417 The symptoms started a few days ago. 412 00:18:38,418 --> 00:18:40,720 Lie back for me, please. If they're administering 413 00:18:40,721 --> 00:18:43,288 controlled substances, they should be checking vitals. 414 00:18:43,289 --> 00:18:45,289 They do! Always! I was fine when... 415 00:18:45,290 --> 00:18:46,726 When you took a bunch of ketamine?! 416 00:18:46,727 --> 00:18:50,162 Okay, I hear you're angry, Tavi, but it helps me! 417 00:18:50,163 --> 00:18:52,198 It breaks down barriers. 418 00:18:53,333 --> 00:18:55,500 - And Ari even talks to me. - Okay... 419 00:18:55,501 --> 00:18:58,637 No, she does! And she says we're allowed to move on. 420 00:18:58,638 --> 00:19:01,139 - She wants us to move on! - I don't wanna hear that crap! 421 00:19:04,411 --> 00:19:06,477 Um, you have a pulse here. 422 00:19:08,214 --> 00:19:09,614 Isn't that a good thing? 423 00:19:09,615 --> 00:19:11,417 Not when it's in your abdomen. 424 00:19:11,418 --> 00:19:13,618 We can run some tests to see what's causing it. 425 00:19:15,721 --> 00:19:16,921 Okay. 426 00:19:24,831 --> 00:19:26,831 The fiction that we are somehow 427 00:19:26,832 --> 00:19:28,867 at our best after a 12 hours on the floor. 428 00:19:28,868 --> 00:19:32,337 So... all my years of pulling 12-to-16 was what? 429 00:19:32,338 --> 00:19:33,472 Wasted effort? 430 00:19:33,473 --> 00:19:35,674 Still four weeks on, one week off, right? 431 00:19:35,675 --> 00:19:37,442 'Cause I live for that week. 432 00:19:37,443 --> 00:19:38,877 This way you wouldn't have to. 433 00:19:38,878 --> 00:19:41,445 Around the corner, Mags. You can't miss her! 434 00:19:45,585 --> 00:19:46,918 You settled in. 435 00:19:46,919 --> 00:19:48,787 I like to be comfortable. 436 00:19:48,788 --> 00:19:50,555 Do we know what happened last night? 437 00:19:50,556 --> 00:19:52,824 All your labs came back normal. 438 00:19:52,825 --> 00:19:54,459 So maybe you were just lightheaded. 439 00:19:54,460 --> 00:19:56,027 You're on team 440 00:19:56,028 --> 00:19:57,395 "it's all in her head"? 441 00:19:57,396 --> 00:19:58,896 Thought you were a renegade. 442 00:19:58,897 --> 00:20:01,266 Lily, is there a reason you don't want to go home? 443 00:20:01,267 --> 00:20:02,766 Living alone with a heart condition 444 00:20:02,767 --> 00:20:04,702 means choosing between locking the deadbolt 445 00:20:04,703 --> 00:20:07,003 and the paramedics being able to get to me in time. 446 00:20:07,706 --> 00:20:09,573 No, I'm not asking for pity. 447 00:20:09,574 --> 00:20:11,309 I like my life. 448 00:20:11,310 --> 00:20:13,144 But all I have is how I feel 449 00:20:13,145 --> 00:20:14,912 and I won't be made invisible. 450 00:20:15,881 --> 00:20:18,916 Well... I mean, if we were going to look wider 451 00:20:18,917 --> 00:20:21,218 than Long QT, any family history of stroke 452 00:20:21,219 --> 00:20:22,918 - or high blood pressure? - I went through all that 453 00:20:22,919 --> 00:20:24,854 with your boss's previous lackey when I signed up 454 00:20:24,855 --> 00:20:26,690 - for this study last year. - Well, the only other thing 455 00:20:26,691 --> 00:20:28,826 I can do is collect your tropes. They'd give us a definitive 456 00:20:28,827 --> 00:20:30,361 answer on a coronary event. 457 00:20:30,362 --> 00:20:33,096 Can I be there when you tell Dr. Fisher I was right? 458 00:20:33,097 --> 00:20:34,464 If we find something. 459 00:20:34,465 --> 00:20:37,735 Her insistence on the infallibility of a device 460 00:20:37,736 --> 00:20:39,670 over a human being? 461 00:20:39,671 --> 00:20:41,972 Must be a pretty lucrative hunk of metal. 462 00:20:41,973 --> 00:20:44,474 What, does she get some kind of cut? 463 00:20:46,812 --> 00:20:48,277 It's a fire hazard. 464 00:20:56,320 --> 00:20:58,255 Before you say anything, 465 00:20:58,256 --> 00:21:00,357 I know I lost control. It was just for a second. 466 00:21:00,358 --> 00:21:02,125 A second is all it takes. 467 00:21:02,126 --> 00:21:04,528 - If the chaos is getting to you... - Yeah, you know... 468 00:21:04,529 --> 00:21:06,963 there's a woman out there who's going to find out 469 00:21:06,964 --> 00:21:09,231 that her husband is hanging on by a thread, 470 00:21:09,232 --> 00:21:11,734 so it is not just the chaos. 471 00:21:11,735 --> 00:21:13,402 It's everything, and it's all on me, 472 00:21:13,403 --> 00:21:15,171 so that's why I wanted you covering. 473 00:21:15,172 --> 00:21:17,539 So, did I bite off more than I can chew? 474 00:21:19,543 --> 00:21:22,544 You had structure and a clear path, and you left it. 475 00:21:23,781 --> 00:21:27,816 I can't answer for you, June. You chose this. 476 00:21:30,854 --> 00:21:34,157 June Curtis? I've been easing her into being friends 477 00:21:34,158 --> 00:21:36,092 for the past two years and you reap the dividends? 478 00:21:36,093 --> 00:21:38,561 - That's so annoying! - She insisted. 479 00:21:38,562 --> 00:21:40,630 But she can still be traced back to you though, right? 480 00:21:40,631 --> 00:21:42,231 I mean, if anyone followed the money, 481 00:21:42,232 --> 00:21:43,799 wouldn't she still be breaking the rule? 482 00:21:43,800 --> 00:21:46,768 Saleh's like my brother, Mags. I have to help. 483 00:21:46,769 --> 00:21:48,737 Even though he told you not to? 484 00:21:48,738 --> 00:21:51,773 Anyway, we were talking about your conflict of interest. 485 00:21:51,774 --> 00:21:54,409 Oh, so we're just done with you now? Okay. 486 00:21:54,410 --> 00:21:56,744 I mean, I don't know how 487 00:21:56,745 --> 00:21:58,513 it didn't occur to me that Fisher 488 00:21:58,514 --> 00:22:00,381 stands to profit from the ICD. 489 00:22:00,382 --> 00:22:02,818 That doesn't mean she doesn't care about her patients. 490 00:22:02,819 --> 00:22:04,052 She's your cardiologist. 491 00:22:04,053 --> 00:22:05,721 Yeah, and she always wants me to do less! 492 00:22:05,722 --> 00:22:07,155 And I walked away from a career in Emerg 493 00:22:07,156 --> 00:22:09,157 I'd been building forever because it didn't feel right. 494 00:22:09,158 --> 00:22:11,092 What if cardiology is wrong too? 495 00:22:12,028 --> 00:22:14,429 - Um... Kind of spiralling here. - Yeah, I'm thinking. 496 00:22:14,430 --> 00:22:16,297 Can I think for one second? Please. 497 00:22:17,566 --> 00:22:20,401 Okay, you know your patient who's spread out in the hallway? 498 00:22:20,402 --> 00:22:22,237 You do that too... morally. 499 00:22:22,238 --> 00:22:25,138 That's what you came up with? My morals take too much space? 500 00:22:25,139 --> 00:22:26,906 What? Do you think I'm naive because I want to be happy? 501 00:22:26,907 --> 00:22:28,809 No, I think you burn things down when they don't match 502 00:22:28,810 --> 00:22:30,644 - your impossible standards. - And I think you're risking 503 00:22:30,645 --> 00:22:32,380 your citizenship to help Saleh for the same reason 504 00:22:32,381 --> 00:22:33,950 you won't fight for Trauma OR, you think you don't 505 00:22:33,951 --> 00:22:35,151 deserve things. 506 00:22:40,289 --> 00:22:41,822 Same time tomorrow? 507 00:22:54,002 --> 00:22:56,303 Dr. Hunter, I've been paging you. 508 00:22:56,304 --> 00:22:58,205 That chart you requested came back. 509 00:22:58,206 --> 00:22:59,472 Thank you. 510 00:23:00,842 --> 00:23:02,409 Hey! 511 00:23:02,410 --> 00:23:03,778 Any updates on Matt? 512 00:23:03,779 --> 00:23:05,479 Still too much swelling on the brain to see 513 00:23:05,480 --> 00:23:07,081 if there's any executive function. Why? 514 00:23:07,082 --> 00:23:09,917 I have a kid who lost a kidney and Matt's a partial match. 515 00:23:09,918 --> 00:23:11,919 - You screened without consent? - No. 516 00:23:11,920 --> 00:23:13,487 Surgeons prescreened for transfusions. 517 00:23:13,488 --> 00:23:15,089 - I just looked. - Okay. Well, 518 00:23:15,090 --> 00:23:16,990 Matt's still alive. And his very worried wife 519 00:23:16,991 --> 00:23:18,324 doesn't really need you floating this right now. 520 00:23:18,325 --> 00:23:20,426 I know, it's just he's not a registered donor. 521 00:23:20,427 --> 00:23:22,227 All it would take is the transplant nurse to go in 522 00:23:22,228 --> 00:23:23,829 and ask if she'd be willing to put him on the list. 523 00:23:23,830 --> 00:23:25,499 There are really good reasons why we don't do that, 524 00:23:25,500 --> 00:23:27,133 like not wanting patients thinking that we make less 525 00:23:27,134 --> 00:23:29,269 - of an effort with organ donors. - I know you'll do everything 526 00:23:29,270 --> 00:23:32,105 - you can to save Matt. - Yeah, and if I'm unsuccessful, 527 00:23:32,106 --> 00:23:34,007 then we can ask. 528 00:23:34,008 --> 00:23:36,076 There won't be enough time to organize by then! 529 00:23:36,077 --> 00:23:37,644 A kid's life is at stake here! 530 00:23:37,645 --> 00:23:39,211 Look, I know I'm skirting the line, 531 00:23:39,212 --> 00:23:41,415 but as supervising doctor, if I want us to look into this, 532 00:23:41,416 --> 00:23:43,783 - we look into this! - Seniority or not, doctor, 533 00:23:43,784 --> 00:23:45,852 you are way over the line! 534 00:23:45,853 --> 00:23:48,120 And I shouldn't have to explain that to you, Theo. 535 00:23:52,760 --> 00:23:55,695 They said that the ketamine's mostly out of my system 536 00:23:55,696 --> 00:23:58,698 but that my blood pressure's still high. 537 00:23:58,699 --> 00:24:01,034 That's because in the part of your aorta that runs 538 00:24:01,035 --> 00:24:02,969 through your abdomen, those walls have weakened. 539 00:24:02,970 --> 00:24:05,438 It's an abdominal aortic aneurysm. 540 00:24:05,439 --> 00:24:07,974 Ketamine raises blood pressure. I looked it up. 541 00:24:07,975 --> 00:24:09,876 - Did it cause this? - Not necessarily, 542 00:24:09,877 --> 00:24:11,911 but it may have exacerbated the aneurysm. 543 00:24:11,912 --> 00:24:13,312 Aren't aneurysms deadly? 544 00:24:13,313 --> 00:24:14,948 They can be if they rupture. 545 00:24:14,949 --> 00:24:18,151 But many of them remain stable for years with regular imaging. 546 00:24:18,152 --> 00:24:20,886 Some patients have opted for a surgical intervention. 547 00:24:20,887 --> 00:24:23,622 It's a more definitive solution but not without its own risks. 548 00:24:23,623 --> 00:24:25,458 What kind of risks? 549 00:24:25,459 --> 00:24:28,392 Heart attack, kidney damage, clots. 550 00:24:31,164 --> 00:24:33,132 Well, I... 551 00:24:33,133 --> 00:24:34,999 I'd vote for surgery. 552 00:24:36,069 --> 00:24:38,503 Why go straight to the riskiest option? 553 00:24:38,504 --> 00:24:40,739 - We should wait and see. - Why pretend it's not there 554 00:24:40,740 --> 00:24:42,274 when I can face it right now? 555 00:24:42,275 --> 00:24:43,842 He said they'd monitor it, 556 00:24:43,843 --> 00:24:45,978 you could be okay for a long time! 557 00:24:45,979 --> 00:24:47,479 Tavi... 558 00:24:47,480 --> 00:24:49,915 - Fine. Do what you want. - Don't! Don't disappear! 559 00:24:49,916 --> 00:24:51,850 Stay here and fight with me! 560 00:24:51,851 --> 00:24:55,154 If I do this now, I can move on! 561 00:24:55,155 --> 00:24:56,621 Live my life! 562 00:24:58,258 --> 00:25:00,225 Why won't you stop punishing yourself 563 00:25:00,226 --> 00:25:01,958 and learn to want that too? 564 00:25:03,495 --> 00:25:06,030 It's not true I never think of her. 565 00:25:06,031 --> 00:25:08,532 Her body on that gurney... 566 00:25:08,533 --> 00:25:10,133 it's burned in my mind. 567 00:25:11,937 --> 00:25:15,138 And I will not survive if it happens to you too. 568 00:25:17,276 --> 00:25:19,109 Sorry, I need some air. 569 00:25:22,080 --> 00:25:26,316 Um, I can read you the options again if you like. 570 00:25:27,886 --> 00:25:29,086 Yes, please. 571 00:25:37,909 --> 00:25:39,943 How much time does she have left? 572 00:25:40,445 --> 00:25:42,346 On the... on the machine. 573 00:25:42,347 --> 00:25:45,399 Two more hours. I've arranged for transport home. 574 00:25:45,400 --> 00:25:46,534 She wouldn't want to... 575 00:25:46,535 --> 00:25:48,631 To go out surrounded by hospital beige? 576 00:25:49,837 --> 00:25:52,071 Yeah she's uh, she's mentioned that. 577 00:25:53,140 --> 00:25:54,740 Have you ever fostered before? 578 00:25:54,741 --> 00:25:57,177 A few times. I've never really bought into the whole 579 00:25:57,178 --> 00:25:59,546 biological imperative, you know? 580 00:25:59,547 --> 00:26:01,681 You always love them. But I told myself 581 00:26:01,682 --> 00:26:02,949 I could keep up the barrier, 582 00:26:02,950 --> 00:26:05,618 and that I was good at saying goodbye, but... 583 00:26:05,619 --> 00:26:07,520 Not like this. 584 00:26:07,521 --> 00:26:09,088 Not like this. 585 00:26:09,990 --> 00:26:11,891 Can you delay transport? 586 00:26:11,892 --> 00:26:13,326 Have you found another kidney? 587 00:26:13,327 --> 00:26:16,262 It's just... a lead, it's... 588 00:26:16,263 --> 00:26:18,398 Don't get your hopes up. 589 00:26:18,399 --> 00:26:20,433 Ah! I'm, uh... 590 00:26:20,434 --> 00:26:23,069 If this works, we're gonna need a giant cardboard cutout of you 591 00:26:23,070 --> 00:26:24,804 with a cape for the living room. 592 00:26:24,805 --> 00:26:27,539 You guys need to get out more or find a... 593 00:26:28,442 --> 00:26:32,644 Just don't tell Siobhan, okay? This could still be nothing. 594 00:26:33,346 --> 00:26:35,581 - Okay. - Okay? 595 00:26:35,582 --> 00:26:36,815 Okay. 596 00:26:40,020 --> 00:26:41,721 - The favour has to go. - Yeah, I know, 597 00:26:41,722 --> 00:26:43,788 I'm on my way to tell her her tropes are negative. 598 00:26:44,290 --> 00:26:46,625 So, we were just talking about you. 599 00:26:46,626 --> 00:26:48,226 We'll be right back. 600 00:26:49,329 --> 00:26:51,764 There is nothing medically wrong with that woman. 601 00:26:51,765 --> 00:26:54,066 Yeah, I know, Dr. Devi, but she was scared to go home 602 00:26:54,067 --> 00:26:55,668 and I needed to make sure she was okay 603 00:26:55,669 --> 00:26:58,470 - because I tend to kind of want... - Fear is its own sickness. 604 00:26:58,471 --> 00:27:00,506 The one that our system sucks at making room for. 605 00:27:00,507 --> 00:27:03,475 Okay, but we already have a four-hour backlog of patients 606 00:27:03,476 --> 00:27:04,710 with physical symptoms. 607 00:27:04,711 --> 00:27:06,012 Has anyone been updating her? 608 00:27:06,013 --> 00:27:07,912 Because that can add to her anxiety. 609 00:27:07,913 --> 00:27:09,448 Well, she's not even an Emerg patient. 610 00:27:09,449 --> 00:27:11,383 I'll talk to her. And um, maybe we can move her 611 00:27:11,384 --> 00:27:13,053 to the waiting room until she's ready to go? 612 00:27:13,054 --> 00:27:14,453 Great. 613 00:27:15,688 --> 00:27:17,689 Hey. Your courier called. 614 00:27:17,690 --> 00:27:19,591 - He asked a lot of questions. - Like what? 615 00:27:19,592 --> 00:27:20,960 Like where I work, how I know Saleh, 616 00:27:20,961 --> 00:27:23,015 what the money's for... I didn't say anything about you 617 00:27:23,016 --> 00:27:24,563 but are you sure you wanna do this? 618 00:27:24,564 --> 00:27:26,865 Hey! Hey! Something's wrong with Krista! 619 00:27:26,866 --> 00:27:29,134 She started wailing in pain then passed out! 620 00:27:29,135 --> 00:27:31,402 - Wanna catch me up? - Low-grade triple A. 621 00:27:32,939 --> 00:27:34,338 Pressure's 60 systolic. 622 00:27:34,339 --> 00:27:36,807 She's not low-grade anymore, she's full of fluid. 623 00:27:36,808 --> 00:27:38,943 - Maybe it's dissected? - Whoa does that mean ruptured? 624 00:27:38,944 --> 00:27:41,112 - You said that was unlikely! - Okay, we need to act now. 625 00:27:41,113 --> 00:27:42,681 We need to stop the bleeding. 626 00:27:42,682 --> 00:27:44,849 - Is she gonna be okay? - Move aside, Tavi. 627 00:28:00,900 --> 00:28:02,933 We've been packing all month. 628 00:28:03,569 --> 00:28:06,904 I took a job in Denver, and Matt dropped everything else 629 00:28:06,905 --> 00:28:09,773 just to come. Just to support me. 630 00:28:09,774 --> 00:28:12,810 Now it's my turn to be there. 631 00:28:12,811 --> 00:28:14,812 To get him healthy. 632 00:28:14,813 --> 00:28:17,414 There are resources here to help you, Jenny. 633 00:28:19,751 --> 00:28:21,384 But I came to ask... 634 00:28:23,722 --> 00:28:26,322 Matt isn't a registered organ donor. 635 00:28:27,325 --> 00:28:29,793 Oh my God, did you come to tell me that he died?! 636 00:28:29,794 --> 00:28:32,128 No. No. Um... 637 00:28:32,831 --> 00:28:34,364 But if he did, 638 00:28:34,365 --> 00:28:37,000 if you, on his behalf, would like to donate an organ 639 00:28:37,001 --> 00:28:40,204 to a patient in need, we can bypass the list. 640 00:28:40,205 --> 00:28:42,339 Are you trying to harvest one of Matt's organs? 641 00:28:42,340 --> 00:28:44,473 - He is still alive! - And his surgeons are doing 642 00:28:44,474 --> 00:28:45,909 everything they can to keep it that way. 643 00:28:45,910 --> 00:28:47,578 But if you thought he had a chance, you... 644 00:28:47,579 --> 00:28:49,147 wouldn't be asking me this, right? 645 00:28:49,148 --> 00:28:51,082 I am not on Matt's team, okay? 646 00:28:51,083 --> 00:28:52,618 I can't tell you what's going to happen. 647 00:28:52,619 --> 00:28:54,486 All I know is that there is a young girl 648 00:28:54,487 --> 00:28:57,089 who is clinging to life right now, just like Matt. 649 00:28:57,090 --> 00:28:59,021 No! No! 650 00:28:59,022 --> 00:29:01,257 No! It is my turn to be there, 651 00:29:01,258 --> 00:29:04,592 and Matt is gonna live no matter what you say! 652 00:29:12,136 --> 00:29:13,369 Continue MTP. 653 00:29:13,370 --> 00:29:15,537 - Call the blood bank. - I'm gonna need suction. 654 00:29:15,538 --> 00:29:17,406 Ah, good thing this happened here. 655 00:29:17,407 --> 00:29:19,240 Eight times out of ten a rupture will kill you 656 00:29:19,241 --> 00:29:20,742 before you get to the hospital. 657 00:29:22,511 --> 00:29:23,912 She's in hemorrhagic shock. 658 00:29:23,913 --> 00:29:25,512 Go higher, June. 659 00:29:27,750 --> 00:29:29,550 We need superphilia control. 660 00:29:30,019 --> 00:29:31,086 He's not wrong. 661 00:29:31,087 --> 00:29:32,622 Thanks for the sign-off, Dr. Hamed. 662 00:29:32,623 --> 00:29:34,891 I'm gonna compress the aorta and stop the bleed. 663 00:29:34,892 --> 00:29:36,626 In a more orderly fashion this time? 664 00:29:36,627 --> 00:29:38,760 Crossed clamp. I'm gonna need retraction. 665 00:29:39,729 --> 00:29:41,830 Dr. Hamed can retract. 666 00:29:41,831 --> 00:29:43,431 You've lost interest? 667 00:29:43,432 --> 00:29:45,100 As per Dr. Devi, I'm not meant to assist 668 00:29:45,101 --> 00:29:47,135 - on trauma surgeries. - As per Dr. Curtis, 669 00:29:47,136 --> 00:29:49,404 we need help and I agree, so... 670 00:29:49,405 --> 00:29:51,038 Up to you. In or out? 671 00:30:00,316 --> 00:30:01,782 Retracting. 672 00:30:01,783 --> 00:30:02,983 That's it. 673 00:30:03,952 --> 00:30:05,185 Yeah. 674 00:30:10,100 --> 00:30:12,434 Need me to hire movers for that woman? 675 00:30:12,435 --> 00:30:15,070 Oh, Lily? No, that's okay, I'll take care of it. 676 00:30:15,071 --> 00:30:18,673 Um, what you said about fear being a sickness, 677 00:30:18,674 --> 00:30:20,708 I completely agree. 678 00:30:21,511 --> 00:30:24,813 Also I read all your academic papers, so... 679 00:30:24,814 --> 00:30:26,882 Always nice to meet a fan. 680 00:30:26,883 --> 00:30:28,784 Is something a person who publishes 681 00:30:28,785 --> 00:30:30,649 medical research papers says, never. 682 00:30:32,555 --> 00:30:34,289 Can I ask some advice? 683 00:30:34,290 --> 00:30:36,724 I mean, I'm not your supervising doctor, 684 00:30:36,725 --> 00:30:38,426 but... shoot. 685 00:30:38,427 --> 00:30:40,828 Is it a conflict of interest 686 00:30:40,829 --> 00:30:43,564 if a physician stands to personally gain 687 00:30:43,565 --> 00:30:45,200 financially from her research? 688 00:30:45,201 --> 00:30:46,600 Yes. 689 00:30:46,601 --> 00:30:48,436 That happens all the time. 690 00:30:48,437 --> 00:30:50,371 But I do think it's wrong. 691 00:30:50,372 --> 00:30:53,274 My advice, however, is ask to yourself 692 00:30:53,275 --> 00:30:55,608 why you're not asking the physician in question. 693 00:30:59,581 --> 00:31:02,283 We heard from Neuro on Matt Ellis. 694 00:31:02,284 --> 00:31:05,353 Cognitive function are negative. Nothing more they can do. 695 00:31:05,354 --> 00:31:07,454 I'm sorry to hear that. 696 00:31:08,290 --> 00:31:10,123 If your patient still needs a kidney, 697 00:31:10,124 --> 00:31:11,658 I'm about to inform the wife. 698 00:31:12,928 --> 00:31:15,329 Don't tell us the girl didn't make it? 699 00:31:15,330 --> 00:31:16,896 Uh, no, um... 700 00:31:18,132 --> 00:31:19,900 Jenny already said no. 701 00:31:19,901 --> 00:31:21,969 You spoke to her after I asked you not to? 702 00:31:21,970 --> 00:31:23,204 - Dr. Hunter! - I know! 703 00:31:23,205 --> 00:31:25,536 It was a stupid mistake. 704 00:31:25,941 --> 00:31:27,307 One Siobhan's gonna pay for. 705 00:31:27,308 --> 00:31:30,343 Look, just... Where are the donor forms? 706 00:31:31,112 --> 00:31:32,847 - June. - Well, I doubt she's gonna 707 00:31:32,848 --> 00:31:34,815 change her mind, but I'll ask again. 708 00:31:34,816 --> 00:31:38,651 Hey. Not for you, for your patient. 709 00:31:39,187 --> 00:31:41,120 - Right. Thank you. - Yeah. 710 00:31:42,223 --> 00:31:43,890 Tell me what else you need. 711 00:31:45,826 --> 00:31:47,894 To make Trauma OR work for you. 712 00:31:48,829 --> 00:31:52,766 Okay. But earlier you said that I made the wrong choice. 713 00:31:52,767 --> 00:31:56,269 You did. But I still want you to succeed, June. 714 00:31:56,270 --> 00:31:58,971 And this shouldn't be all on you. 715 00:31:59,773 --> 00:32:01,574 Plus I look bad if you fail. 716 00:32:01,575 --> 00:32:03,310 Personally, I think you should start 717 00:32:03,311 --> 00:32:06,079 with your surgical cart workflow, but think about 718 00:32:06,080 --> 00:32:07,580 what else you need. 719 00:32:15,454 --> 00:32:18,388 Hey, I can ask someone from janitorial to do this. 720 00:32:18,389 --> 00:32:20,593 Oh, so a patient waits another 20 minutes 721 00:32:20,594 --> 00:32:22,429 when it takes me five? 722 00:32:22,430 --> 00:32:24,898 You've heard I'm looking to change nursing shift hours? 723 00:32:24,899 --> 00:32:25,965 Mm-hmm. 724 00:32:25,966 --> 00:32:27,245 I was hoping I could count on you 725 00:32:27,246 --> 00:32:29,135 - to sell it to your team. - Mm... 726 00:32:29,136 --> 00:32:31,270 Then why don't you tell me what's behind it? 727 00:32:31,271 --> 00:32:33,573 To improve overall patient experience, 728 00:32:33,574 --> 00:32:36,843 we're revamping waiting times and communication. 729 00:32:36,844 --> 00:32:40,078 I'm aware that a lot of that burden will fall on nurses. 730 00:32:41,015 --> 00:32:42,815 And, uh... 731 00:32:42,816 --> 00:32:45,351 you think shorter shifts will make up for that? 732 00:32:45,352 --> 00:32:47,787 I know. Change is anarchic. 733 00:32:47,788 --> 00:32:51,457 But I'm willing to be unpopular if it improves things long term. 734 00:32:51,458 --> 00:32:52,891 I think this will, Claire. 735 00:32:52,892 --> 00:32:54,493 Well, doctors make decisions 736 00:32:54,494 --> 00:32:56,295 and the nurses eat the consequences. 737 00:32:56,296 --> 00:32:58,296 That's always the way it's been. 738 00:33:04,104 --> 00:33:05,304 Tavi. 739 00:33:05,838 --> 00:33:07,506 Hi. How is she? 740 00:33:07,507 --> 00:33:10,342 So we clamped the bleed but Krista needs another surgery 741 00:33:10,343 --> 00:33:11,676 to repair her artery. 742 00:33:13,213 --> 00:33:15,114 This is my fault. 743 00:33:15,115 --> 00:33:17,183 I said no to surgery before. 744 00:33:17,184 --> 00:33:18,884 This is not your fault. Okay? 745 00:33:18,885 --> 00:33:21,719 We would've had to deal with this before we started anyway. 746 00:33:23,823 --> 00:33:25,455 Krista's right, you know. 747 00:33:26,358 --> 00:33:29,994 I haven't let myself move on. 748 00:33:29,995 --> 00:33:32,897 Even the little things we used to do as a couple... 749 00:33:32,898 --> 00:33:36,667 Watching dumb TV, going for walks, I... 750 00:33:36,668 --> 00:33:38,303 I can't. 751 00:33:38,304 --> 00:33:41,339 She believes she can beat it one day, you know, the grief. 752 00:33:41,340 --> 00:33:44,142 She talks about moving on like there's a finish line. 753 00:33:44,143 --> 00:33:46,143 If she works hard enough... 754 00:33:49,148 --> 00:33:50,747 Arianna's. 755 00:33:51,550 --> 00:33:54,319 Krista's called it a thousand times. 756 00:33:54,320 --> 00:33:56,187 Leaving messages, uh... 757 00:33:56,188 --> 00:33:58,856 "Hey, I baked your favourite cookies today". 758 00:33:58,857 --> 00:34:01,726 "I read this book, you would've loved it". 759 00:34:01,727 --> 00:34:04,127 Things about her day. 760 00:34:07,232 --> 00:34:10,600 I found the text message Ari sent me that night. 761 00:34:12,538 --> 00:34:14,871 "See you tomorrow, old man". 762 00:34:16,008 --> 00:34:18,609 I forgot she used to call me that. 763 00:34:18,610 --> 00:34:21,712 It used to make me laugh, but when I read now, I... 764 00:34:21,713 --> 00:34:23,247 It hurts. 765 00:34:24,816 --> 00:34:26,479 It's torture. 766 00:34:28,319 --> 00:34:31,388 Even letting the good memories in, I... 767 00:34:35,392 --> 00:34:38,394 Krista's still here and she... she needs to me try. 768 00:34:42,900 --> 00:34:44,967 You should go be with her. 769 00:37:41,187 --> 00:37:43,889 Today's trauma log for your review. 770 00:37:43,890 --> 00:37:47,592 Thanks again for stepping in. If you've got any feedback... 771 00:37:49,128 --> 00:37:51,462 Novak isn't your problem. You are. 772 00:37:52,029 --> 00:37:55,264 You've got big ideas and that's why they hired you. 773 00:37:55,265 --> 00:37:58,469 But... if you also want allies, 774 00:37:58,470 --> 00:38:00,137 I've got a suggestion. 775 00:38:00,138 --> 00:38:01,972 I want to hear it. 776 00:38:07,947 --> 00:38:09,512 Hey. 777 00:38:10,883 --> 00:38:12,316 Go straight there, 778 00:38:12,317 --> 00:38:14,318 if you lose this, I can't get another until Monday. 779 00:38:14,319 --> 00:38:16,454 - What's this? - That fancy pressed sushi 780 00:38:16,455 --> 00:38:18,922 you like. You don't want me to cook, so... 781 00:38:20,603 --> 00:38:23,404 Hey, you were right. I should've brought you with me 782 00:38:23,405 --> 00:38:25,707 and showed you how to do it, but I... 783 00:38:25,708 --> 00:38:27,809 Whoa! It's supposed to be a cheque! 784 00:38:27,810 --> 00:38:29,778 No, no, that's not for you. This is for you. 785 00:38:29,779 --> 00:38:31,411 You're not moonlighting as some backdoor. 786 00:38:31,412 --> 00:38:32,643 Craigslist doctor, are you? 787 00:38:36,752 --> 00:38:39,053 Thanks for the sushi! 788 00:38:39,054 --> 00:38:40,287 Uh... 789 00:38:40,288 --> 00:38:41,722 I have the cash... 790 00:38:41,723 --> 00:38:43,891 Ms. Tang is out of a-fib, and we can probably discharge 791 00:38:43,892 --> 00:38:45,259 Mr. Londra in the morning. 792 00:38:45,260 --> 00:38:47,361 Good. Mr. Coel in four? 793 00:38:47,362 --> 00:38:48,929 Dilated cardiomyopathy? 794 00:38:48,930 --> 00:38:50,898 He fills an age gap we're light on. 795 00:38:50,899 --> 00:38:53,033 Do an intake and see if he's interested in the study. 796 00:38:53,034 --> 00:38:54,969 Also, you should know that I kept Lily Jameson 797 00:38:54,970 --> 00:38:57,103 in Emerg until all her tests came back negative. 798 00:38:57,104 --> 00:38:59,106 I understand you wanted her discharged but did you know 799 00:38:59,107 --> 00:39:01,175 that her father had a fatal coronary embolism 800 00:39:01,176 --> 00:39:02,475 when she was 15? 801 00:39:02,476 --> 00:39:04,410 Lily came back from school and found him. 802 00:39:04,411 --> 00:39:07,280 - She told you that? - It was in her intake form. 803 00:39:07,281 --> 00:39:08,580 Extended patient history. 804 00:39:09,650 --> 00:39:13,052 Anyway, she needed to stay long enough to feel safe, so... 805 00:39:13,053 --> 00:39:16,789 Well, I'm glad she's okay. Thanks for letting me know. 806 00:39:35,408 --> 00:39:37,508 She looks so happy here. 807 00:39:42,255 --> 00:39:44,589 You'll have to do two rounds of plasmapheresis 808 00:39:44,590 --> 00:39:46,158 because it's a half-match. 809 00:39:46,159 --> 00:39:48,493 They'll clean your blood so your antigens 810 00:39:48,494 --> 00:39:50,895 don't do Battle Royale against the donor's. 811 00:39:52,632 --> 00:39:55,367 It's okay to be optimistic, Siobhan. 812 00:39:55,368 --> 00:39:57,469 This kind of transplant has good odds. 813 00:39:57,470 --> 00:40:00,304 Odds someone else had to die to give me. 814 00:40:01,341 --> 00:40:02,541 That's true. 815 00:40:03,977 --> 00:40:05,811 But you didn't cause that to happen. 816 00:40:05,812 --> 00:40:07,878 But I was happy. 817 00:40:08,614 --> 00:40:10,282 When you told me. Doesn't that make me 818 00:40:10,283 --> 00:40:11,850 some kind of monster? 819 00:40:12,985 --> 00:40:14,685 It makes you human. 820 00:40:15,588 --> 00:40:18,021 We are wired for survival. 821 00:40:20,092 --> 00:40:23,160 You get to be happy this is happening. You hear me? 822 00:40:23,696 --> 00:40:25,497 What about next week? 823 00:40:25,498 --> 00:40:28,131 Or next year? How will I feel about it then? 824 00:40:29,735 --> 00:40:31,234 I don't know. 825 00:40:32,371 --> 00:40:35,005 But you're gonna be around to figure it all out. 826 00:40:39,779 --> 00:40:41,411 Don't tell Gloria I cried. 827 00:40:42,414 --> 00:40:45,182 'Cause I'd hate to have to write you out of my memoir. 828 00:40:46,285 --> 00:40:47,848 I swear on hospital beige. 829 00:40:59,038 --> 00:41:02,441 If you're gonna tell me to leave, we've done that dance. 830 00:41:02,442 --> 00:41:03,842 No, I'm not. 831 00:41:03,843 --> 00:41:06,478 But there's a decent chance that someone might. 832 00:41:07,247 --> 00:41:09,613 Let them try. 833 00:41:10,383 --> 00:41:13,986 I was 50-50 on whether you'd order and camp out. 834 00:41:13,987 --> 00:41:17,189 I'm trying to take some advice and moderate. 835 00:41:17,190 --> 00:41:18,623 Just a little. 836 00:41:18,624 --> 00:41:21,193 Why do I still feel like you gave her your cell phone number? 837 00:41:21,194 --> 00:41:23,361 - 'Cause I'm still me. - I did the thing. 838 00:41:23,362 --> 00:41:24,897 With the money. 839 00:41:24,898 --> 00:41:26,698 And you're still you too. 840 00:41:28,734 --> 00:41:29,835 Everything okay? 841 00:41:29,836 --> 00:41:32,070 I think so. It's easier than doing a bank draft. 842 00:41:32,071 --> 00:41:33,672 But the woman didn't give me a receipt so how do I know 843 00:41:33,673 --> 00:41:35,908 - if it went through? - You just hope for the best 844 00:41:35,909 --> 00:41:37,976 and wait. Thank you so much, June. 845 00:41:37,977 --> 00:41:39,724 - I really owe you one. - No, we're even, okay? 846 00:41:39,725 --> 00:41:41,279 You clamping that bleed in Trauma OR 847 00:41:41,280 --> 00:41:42,547 was the only sane part of my day, 848 00:41:42,548 --> 00:41:44,381 but you should know, though... 849 00:41:45,184 --> 00:41:47,218 There were some consequences to that. 850 00:41:55,294 --> 00:41:57,662 Hi. I'm sorry to interrupt 851 00:41:57,663 --> 00:42:00,264 but um, I heard Dr. Singh 852 00:42:00,265 --> 00:42:01,899 wants me training as a trauma surgeon? 853 00:42:01,900 --> 00:42:04,569 To support Dr. Curtis. 854 00:42:04,570 --> 00:42:08,239 As long as you're willing to start from the bottom. Again. 855 00:42:10,309 --> 00:42:11,876 He also said that he was the one 856 00:42:11,877 --> 00:42:13,811 who pulled you into Trauma OR today? 857 00:42:13,812 --> 00:42:15,679 I could tell you I was in the right place 858 00:42:15,680 --> 00:42:17,814 at the right time, but I did choose to stay. 859 00:42:17,815 --> 00:42:20,516 Well, I still think you should focus on other skills. 860 00:42:21,486 --> 00:42:24,521 But if you want this... it's up to you. 861 00:42:31,929 --> 00:42:33,930 Yes! 862 00:42:53,075 --> 00:42:55,079 - Welcome back Chief. - Thank you. 863 00:42:55,080 --> 00:42:58,054 I will do everything in my power to assist in your return. 864 00:42:58,055 --> 00:42:59,555 But that might not include surgeries. 865 00:42:59,556 --> 00:43:02,988 I can do all the duties of Chief Surgeon.