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(IN ARABIC)
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- Thanks for taking her on.
- You can do it with me.
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What if instead of looking
for a job, I open a clinic.
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Cleveland?
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I figured Mark Novak
could easily step in...
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- That's not an option.
- You're too damaged
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to be a mother, June.
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I just know that you're resisting us.
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I've lost sight of all of it, Liz.
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I can't keep waiting.
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(IN ARABIC)
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To go through all this just
to be here, it's...
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I believe in you. And you can
do whatever you want.
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I just wanted to tell you
how sorry I am.
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Why was she working?
You should've stopped her.
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- Don't blame yourself.
- I didn't deserve her.
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I'm just here to clear up my locker.
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What if you didn't?
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(♪♪)
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(UPBEAT, PIANO MUSIC)
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(THUMPING)
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(SIZZLING)
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(OPENING THEME)
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(GENTLE MUSIC)
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(SPEAKING IN ARABIC)
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(SIGHING)
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It was basically like any
other big loud city.
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The dorm they put us in
was super cramped,
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and the girl I was sharing
a room with snored all night.
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You don't have to make it seem
like you didn't have any fun
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in London for my sake, Amira.
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Must have been exciting, the adventure.
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I'm sorry it got cut shorter.
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It's part of the reason
I waited to tell you.
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Don't be sorry. I wanted to come home.
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I miss her, too.
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Um, this open house with your school?
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Tomorrow. Are you coming?
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No, I'm working, but...
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- You don't have to if you can't.
- If you want me to, I will.
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Bashir...
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Ten micrograms per kilo per hour.
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Use a calculator if you're
not 100 on the math.
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Guess I'm gonna have
to get used to feeling
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like a first year all over again.
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Just finished my last shift.
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Ah.
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Have you looked up who else
is on your surgical team?
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Yeah, mostly dudes.
Uh, a lot of pictures of hiking.
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So, I mean, I'm not doing
this to make friends.
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My first surgical attending
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thought my name was Ajax for two years.
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- And you didn't correct him?
- If I could go back,
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I'd do it on rounds
in front of everyone.
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- Prove I had the stones.
- So you're suggesting
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I pick a fight with the biggest
bully in the prison yard.
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Hey, if you don't want
my wisdom, that's on you.
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(DRAMATIC MUSIC)
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Okay, go,
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before my resident comes back
and thinks I'm a softie.
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(SINGH SNIFFLES)
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It's a letter of intent
saying you'll take over
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in good faith and purchase
my practice when you're ready.
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Right, and time wise,
you were thinking?
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Six weeks. Enough time to make sure
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your CPSO licence covers
independent family medicine.
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While we're waiting for paperwork,
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we can inform patients and staff
and make a handover plan.
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You wanna start that already?
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Well, if we're expecting people to
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make this major change in their lives,
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it's a message we have to
project soon and with confidence.
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Okay, but I was thinking
maybe three months.
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Theo, if you're having
second thoughts, tell me now.
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Before my wife starts pricing cruises.
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No, that's not what, um...
Just give me one second.
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- (BARRY GROANING)
- Barry.
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- Why aren't you in your room?
- Hey, Theo.
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- I think it's out again.
- Barry, I reduced
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your kneecap 20 minutes ago.
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How could you already be
imaged and discharged?
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Well, it felt so much better
once it popped in.
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- I decided not to wait.
- So you walked on it.
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- Barry, we talked about this.
- I know.
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But it hurts, man, so much
worse than the last time.
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Look, I have a patella to reset.
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I'll give you a call later, okay, Mac?
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We're gonna get you back
in your room, okay?
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(PHONE VIBRATING AND RINGING)
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Hi, Muriel.
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The things of hers that you sent...
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Thank you.
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I finally started to, um, sift through.
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It's not easy, but it's necessary.
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I don't know if this helps.
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No, no, it does.
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I wanted to see how you were.
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I'm, uh...
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You know?
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I do.
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Thank you for calling.
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(INDISTINCT CHATTER)
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Okay, next week.
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Oh, Neeta, did you have
the room booked?
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Because we're just finishing up here.
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I just heard through the grapevine
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that Mark Novak is back
in emerg as co-chief.
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Tell me that isn't true, Neil,
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because I know how
false rumours can spread.
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He came to me last week
after your overture.
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It took a few days to negotiate, but...
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My overture.
I didn't offer him co-chief.
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Well, those were his terms
and we need him in Trauma OR.
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And you agreed to that
without even talking to me?
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Well, with Curtis leaving so suddenly,
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I just solved a problem you couldn't.
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We both know Mark lacks
patience required for management.
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Well, maybe he wants to learn.
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So did you when you took this job.
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Is this constructive dismissal?
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Are you suggesting
that I want you to quit?
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Let's not overreact here.
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All you've done is set me up to fail.
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You have had one chance after
another to prove yourself.
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I'm not quitting.
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If you want me out,
you'll have to fire me.
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Did one of you text me, "911"?
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Emergency farewell session.
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There's only a few people
I'm not ghosting, so.
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Well, what is this?
Like a group hug situation or?
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- (BOTH): No.
- Well, are you excited, June?
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Have you ever known me to be
excited about anything, Theo?
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Okay, so we're gonna be caustically mean
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to each other right to the bitter end.
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Okay, it's just that the ceiling at
this hospital in Cleveland is high.
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You know, it's gonna feel good
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to be challenged, but I'm nervous.
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It's not too late to change your mind.
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- I signed a contract.
- Well, you're going bigger,
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- I'm going smaller.
- That family practice
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you're taking over,
is that still happening?
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And before one of you can
caustically make the point,
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I realize that I am right
back where I started
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taking over for
a retiring pediatrician.
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This just isn't the right place for me.
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And I'm good at that kind of work.
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Are you trying
to convince us or yourself?
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After everything that
happened, I'm trying to just
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trust that I'm making
the right call this time.
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So I finally get offered
a permanent position,
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and you two can't leave fast enough.
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Did you tell Devi that
you're officially taking it?
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Not yet, but she'll want
an answer soon.
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Makes sense. You're feeling weird?
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Taking her job?
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(DRAMATIC MUSIC)
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If she was here, she...
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- I mean, she'd want you to do it.
- We don't know what she'd say.
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(CAR HONKING)
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The map always takes you
to Niagra Falls,
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but it's easier to cross
the border in Buffalo.
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And Erie, Pennsylvania is half
way between here and Cleveland.
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- I got Henry on weekends.
- Right.
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We'll make it work.
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- What happened?
- I don't know.
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He was wide awake a minute ago.
Mr. Evans?
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Responding to stimuli but he's out.
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- Did you give him anything?
- Just fluids.
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Bashir?
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(IN ARABIC)
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Claire, are you, uh...
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He's stable, I'm gonna call cardiology.
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(IN ARABIC)
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Madiha? Madiha?
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(MUFFLED BREATHING)
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Hamed?
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(ALARM RINGING) Is that the fire alarm?
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No, um, it's gas.
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We need to get everyone
out of curtains right now.
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You think the hospital gas is leaking?
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Get everyone to triage
until we can confirm.
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Yeah, there's only one of me, Mark.
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Okay, relax, we'll rally.
Hamed, you okay?
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Yeah, I need help here.
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(INDISTINCT PA ANNOUNCEMENT)
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Four cases of sudden loss of
consciousness in five minutes.
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Have you ever seen a hospital
leak anesthetic gas?
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The pressure on our delivery
system is haywire.
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It's probably a hairline
fracture in a pipe somewhere.
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Emerg has isolated ventilation
so hopefully, it's contained.
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To which part of ED?
Do they know where it's leaking?
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Definitely the curtain rooms.
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I started feeling something there.
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I was 10 feet away, and I didn't.
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We had a patient affected
near Trauma, too.
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- Maybe it's seeping.
- We're gonna have to evacuate
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the entire department. We're
gonna get everyone upstairs
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until we can figure out
where the risk is.
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How? Bed spacing is a huge issue.
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Even if we twist every arm.
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Why don't you just
let me handle that, Neeta,
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- and you can go do other things.
- Actually, Mark, why don't you
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- just worry about Trauma OR?
- I can set up a temporary unit outside.
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We'll use portable monitors
and trauma bags.
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It's something I'm trained to do.
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Do you want to say yes to
that, Dr. Devi? Or should I?
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Tell us what you need, Bashir.
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Admit anyone unstable, the rest
stay on gurneys near the tents.
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If they're ambulatory, divert them
to walk-in clinics or urgent care.
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This patient needs a monitor
and high flow of O2.
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Arnold has a list, communicate
your supply needs now
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and not when they're running low.
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Come find me if you have any questions.
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(SIRENS WAILING)
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(INDISTINCT CHATTER)
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(INDISTINCT PA ANNOUNCEMENT)
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Everyone will be accommodated outside.
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My knee dislocation, do we know
if he ever made his imaging?
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Uh, last I saw, he was refusing
a wheelchair saying he could walk.
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- Haven't seen him since.
- We lost Barry?
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... shoving a pen at me, but I'm
not signing that consent form.
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Ma'am, I know it's an unpleasant topic,
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but you need to understand the risks.
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And you need to understand
that I don't want you
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swiftly disposing
of my uterus as you put it.
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That was a poor choice of words,
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and it would only be if necessary.
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But you do need surgery. Trust me.
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Ma'am.
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Come with me.
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Hemorrhaging uterine fibroid.
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- Is Trauma OR even safe?
- No, I booked an OR upstairs.
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But as soon as I flagged
hysterectomy as a risk, she flipped.
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Well, yeah, she's, what, mid-30s max.
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You can't just drop a bomb like that.
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Okay, so, you don't
even work here anymore,
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so let's mark this as the last time
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you get to tell me
how wrong I am, okay?
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Bye, June.
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Keep me posted if anything changes.
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Madiha.
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(IN ARABIC)
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(MYSTERIOUS MUSIC)
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Hello?
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Hey, hey!
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That's mine.
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Actually, it's mine.
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I have patients who need
that to survive.
250
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I need it to survive. I live here.
251
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And you people are in my way.
252
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Look, I'm sorry about that.
253
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I'm Bashir. What's your name?
254
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Luke. (HEAVY COUGHING)
255
00:13:17,739 --> 00:13:20,608
You have emphysema, Luke? Or COPD?
256
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I always go inside that hospital
to charge my phone at this time.
257
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And today, they say I can't.
258
00:13:26,082 --> 00:13:30,330
Well, if there's somebody
that you need to contact then, please.
259
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It wants you to watch this.
260
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- Is it on?
- Yeah, why am I filming this again?
261
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Because I want this one on record.
262
00:13:45,418 --> 00:13:47,019
Well, okay...
263
00:13:47,121 --> 00:13:50,157
Okay, uh, she is a dancer
264
00:13:50,345 --> 00:13:52,481
who quit performing to teach,
265
00:13:52,547 --> 00:13:56,118
and he curates a fancy cheese shop.
266
00:13:56,545 --> 00:13:59,421
- Okay.
- So does that mean they settled
267
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or are they living their best life?
268
00:14:01,611 --> 00:14:04,081
Well, we're about to find out
because I'm gonna ask them.
269
00:14:04,092 --> 00:14:05,727
- Yeah, right.
- Why not?
270
00:14:05,738 --> 00:14:08,885
- Don't you wanna know how good we are?
- Well, asking would be ridiculous.
271
00:14:09,351 --> 00:14:11,122
What are you afraid of?
272
00:14:11,133 --> 00:14:13,068
(DRAMATIC MUSIC)
273
00:14:16,103 --> 00:14:19,140
You need help breathing.
I'll be right back.
274
00:14:35,157 --> 00:14:36,658
Ruth.
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Hi, Dr. Curtis.
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June.
277
00:14:40,295 --> 00:14:43,198
Look, I know when Dr. Novak
had to explain
278
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why they have to do open surgery,
279
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he handled it like an idiot.
280
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And sent you to apologize for him?
281
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No, I wanna make sure
that you're not making
282
00:14:49,571 --> 00:14:51,446
a bad decision because
he said something stupid.
283
00:14:51,457 --> 00:14:53,842
Was he right? The surgery
means I could lose my uterus?
284
00:14:54,340 --> 00:14:55,995
Some of the fibroids are too connected
285
00:14:56,005 --> 00:14:57,811
to other tissues to
remove independently.
286
00:14:57,822 --> 00:15:00,482
- Yeah, so, it's possible.
- Then, no.
287
00:15:00,605 --> 00:15:02,306
Is this thing done? I wanna go.
288
00:15:02,317 --> 00:15:06,036
Hey, listen, look, I know
this is a lot to take in, okay?
289
00:15:06,047 --> 00:15:08,056
But if you keep bleeding inside,
290
00:15:08,123 --> 00:15:09,858
you're gonna go into shock and die.
291
00:15:09,869 --> 00:15:12,538
I've wanted to get pregnant
and be a mom my whole life.
292
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There are other ways to do that.
293
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I know that. And I get
how this sounds, trust me, I do.
294
00:15:19,020 --> 00:15:20,955
But if I can't...
295
00:15:22,122 --> 00:15:23,991
I understand.
296
00:15:25,429 --> 00:15:27,298
But you need to let them help you.
297
00:15:27,309 --> 00:15:29,644
(INDISTINCT CHATTER)
298
00:15:30,784 --> 00:15:32,786
If you're a doctor here, too, June,
299
00:15:32,899 --> 00:15:35,135
why do you keep saying "them"?
300
00:15:38,545 --> 00:15:40,915
(ALARM RINGING)
301
00:15:47,141 --> 00:15:48,542
Barry?
302
00:15:52,534 --> 00:15:54,302
Barry, are you back here?
303
00:16:07,574 --> 00:16:10,608
- Oh, Theo. Thank God.
- You're awake.
304
00:16:10,619 --> 00:16:12,420
What the hell, man?
I've been looking everywhere.
305
00:16:12,431 --> 00:16:14,500
Five steps in and it gave out again.
306
00:16:14,679 --> 00:16:16,714
I know, I'm an idiot, okay?
307
00:16:16,725 --> 00:16:18,226
Help me understand why you'd walk on it
308
00:16:18,293 --> 00:16:19,561
after it already popped out twice.
309
00:16:19,628 --> 00:16:23,265
Oh, more like ten times
over the last year, maybe.
310
00:16:23,674 --> 00:16:26,094
Ten and you didn't do
anything about it?
311
00:16:26,105 --> 00:16:28,486
Okay, stay here and hold this, okay?
312
00:16:28,583 --> 00:16:30,652
(BARRY MOANING)
313
00:16:31,618 --> 00:16:33,253
I'm gonna lift you into this, okay?
314
00:16:33,264 --> 00:16:34,838
I don't think I can, Theo, it hurts.
315
00:16:34,849 --> 00:16:36,946
Put your arm around me,
c'mon, c'mon, c'mon.
316
00:16:37,078 --> 00:16:38,847
(GRUNTING)
317
00:16:39,714 --> 00:16:41,483
(SCREAMING IN PAIN)
318
00:16:42,308 --> 00:16:43,384
Did I hit you?
319
00:16:43,395 --> 00:16:45,964
No, my... my shoulder popped out.
320
00:16:45,975 --> 00:16:48,607
Out? What, as in dislocated?
321
00:16:48,618 --> 00:16:50,759
Like my knee? What are the odds?
322
00:16:50,954 --> 00:16:52,489
Ah, it's too painful to stand.
323
00:16:52,500 --> 00:16:54,802
- I'm gonna try and text for help.
- (BOTH GROANING)
324
00:16:55,685 --> 00:16:57,454
You know, the first time it happened,
325
00:16:57,465 --> 00:16:59,868
they referred me to a surgeon.
326
00:17:00,541 --> 00:17:02,743
Lots of pain, and a long recovery
327
00:17:02,904 --> 00:17:04,806
with no guarantee it would even work.
328
00:17:04,873 --> 00:17:07,042
- (THEO GROANING)
- Look, I freaked out.
329
00:17:07,740 --> 00:17:09,383
Are we gonna die from this leak?
330
00:17:09,394 --> 00:17:11,569
(BREATHES HEAVILY)
The fact you're still awake,
331
00:17:11,635 --> 00:17:14,004
that means it probably
isn't circulating back here.
332
00:17:14,015 --> 00:17:15,083
Okay.
333
00:17:15,722 --> 00:17:17,390
Well, then this could be worse.
334
00:17:17,541 --> 00:17:21,245
Barry, this is gonna keep
happening until you wise up.
335
00:17:21,256 --> 00:17:23,091
(BARRY HEAVY BREATHING)
336
00:17:27,659 --> 00:17:29,327
How long do I got to do this?
337
00:17:29,338 --> 00:17:31,733
The O2 therapy will
make a big difference.
338
00:17:31,856 --> 00:17:33,591
After that, we should go
to the hospital
339
00:17:33,602 --> 00:17:35,190
and get a chest X-ray just to see the
340
00:17:35,200 --> 00:17:36,824
extent of the damage on your lungs.
341
00:17:36,835 --> 00:17:39,129
Well, at two, there's a drop-in lunch
342
00:17:39,140 --> 00:17:41,476
at St-James that I go to every day.
343
00:17:41,487 --> 00:17:43,122
And then, I have to buy
enough cigarettes
344
00:17:43,245 --> 00:17:44,613
to last me through the night.
345
00:17:44,735 --> 00:17:46,904
We can find you food at the hospital
346
00:17:46,915 --> 00:17:48,450
and you shouldn't smoke.
347
00:17:49,831 --> 00:17:52,899
At 3:30, I call my brother,
and then I have work.
348
00:17:52,910 --> 00:17:55,579
You don't want me asking you
what you do for work.
349
00:17:56,561 --> 00:17:59,183
Look, the BIPAP machine
is good for now,
350
00:17:59,194 --> 00:18:01,029
but long-term we should...
351
00:18:01,040 --> 00:18:04,210
I can do this breathing thing
until one and that's it.
352
00:18:09,638 --> 00:18:12,807
A potential stroke
went to imaging, and, uh,
353
00:18:12,874 --> 00:18:15,777
we diverted three more
ambulatory patients to St-Agnes.
354
00:18:15,788 --> 00:18:17,223
Where are we on blood work?
355
00:18:17,234 --> 00:18:18,736
Well, your call
to Public Health helped.
356
00:18:18,747 --> 00:18:20,904
Um, access to their lab
has cleared our bottleneck.
357
00:18:20,915 --> 00:18:22,984
Madiha Wasef, I heard stridor.
358
00:18:23,051 --> 00:18:25,153
(MONITOR BEEPING)
359
00:18:25,276 --> 00:18:29,225
BP is 140 over 110,
SpO2 90% and falling.
360
00:18:29,236 --> 00:18:31,526
She's cyanotic and hypoxic.
We need to intubate.
361
00:18:31,593 --> 00:18:33,461
(MONITOR BEEPING)
362
00:18:36,998 --> 00:18:39,602
(IN ARABIC)
363
00:18:42,697 --> 00:18:46,031
There's, uh, propofol and
rocuronium in the trauma bag.
364
00:18:50,840 --> 00:18:51,935
(SIGHING)
365
00:18:51,946 --> 00:18:54,282
(DRAMATIC MUSIC)
366
00:18:56,524 --> 00:19:00,695
(IN ARABIC)
367
00:19:04,526 --> 00:19:06,828
(♪♪)
368
00:19:08,642 --> 00:19:12,746
CT shows a 14 by 19 by 10
centimetre uterine fibroid.
369
00:19:12,757 --> 00:19:15,025
I'm gonna make a four-inch
transverse incision.
370
00:19:15,036 --> 00:19:17,138
We're gonna do everything
we can to protect her uterus.
371
00:19:17,205 --> 00:19:19,790
Dr. June Curtis, as I live and breathe,
372
00:19:19,801 --> 00:19:22,700
what are you doing
operating on my patient?
373
00:19:22,711 --> 00:19:24,446
Protecting her from you, apparently.
374
00:19:24,512 --> 00:19:25,847
Transverse incision?
375
00:19:25,970 --> 00:19:28,439
Vertical minimizes risk if
there's a history of adhesions.
376
00:19:28,450 --> 00:19:30,418
Well, if you had taken
the time to review her chart,
377
00:19:30,485 --> 00:19:32,776
you'd know that she's
never had surgery.
378
00:19:32,787 --> 00:19:34,033
So there's no risk of adhesions.
379
00:19:34,044 --> 00:19:36,680
Who is gonna do my homework
for me when you're gonna, June?
380
00:19:36,889 --> 00:19:38,215
Did you want me to retract?
381
00:19:38,226 --> 00:19:40,217
This is Becky,
she's a resident from OB.
382
00:19:40,228 --> 00:19:42,597
- Good for Becky.
- Go ahead, Becky, retract.
383
00:19:42,664 --> 00:19:44,299
(MONITORS BEEPING)
384
00:19:44,310 --> 00:19:45,711
You know, I'm pretty sure
homework doesn't include
385
00:19:45,722 --> 00:19:48,091
triaging the emotional damage
you inflict on people.
386
00:19:49,049 --> 00:19:50,951
Give me the retractor, Becky.
387
00:19:52,950 --> 00:19:55,999
That doesn't seem like it's
infiltrated the uterine wall. Tenaculum?
388
00:19:56,010 --> 00:19:57,579
(MONITORS BEEPING)
389
00:19:58,947 --> 00:20:00,281
Man, this thing's gargantuan.
390
00:20:00,348 --> 00:20:01,916
You know, I'm gonna
expand the incision.
391
00:20:02,095 --> 00:20:04,852
- Aren't you worried about the blood?
- You know these gestures are less selfless
392
00:20:04,863 --> 00:20:06,777
when you throw them in my face?
393
00:20:06,788 --> 00:20:08,490
Well, maybe if you acknowledged them
394
00:20:08,501 --> 00:20:09,986
even one time, I wouldn't have to.
395
00:20:09,997 --> 00:20:12,514
I think you're jealous because
I went after the job I wanted,
396
00:20:12,525 --> 00:20:14,194
and you downgraded
to middling shift surgeon.
397
00:20:14,205 --> 00:20:15,607
Don't tell me how I feel.
398
00:20:17,771 --> 00:20:19,873
Okay, June and I want the room.
399
00:20:19,884 --> 00:20:21,531
- Everybody out.
- Everybody stays.
400
00:20:21,542 --> 00:20:23,160
- We need the support.
- Fine then.
401
00:20:23,171 --> 00:20:25,453
I'll bring them up to speed
so they can follow.
402
00:20:25,464 --> 00:20:27,675
I recruited June for Trauma OR,
403
00:20:27,742 --> 00:20:29,984
and then I got myself
summarily dismissed
404
00:20:29,995 --> 00:20:32,349
for yelling at a resident.
Do you know Ryan, by the way?
405
00:20:32,360 --> 00:20:34,594
An incompetent little troll.
406
00:20:34,605 --> 00:20:36,273
But anyway, now that I'm back,
407
00:20:36,284 --> 00:20:39,454
June is acting like
her thousands of emotional pleas
408
00:20:39,465 --> 00:20:41,200
to me that our work together
were meaningful
409
00:20:41,211 --> 00:20:42,479
and important never happened.
410
00:20:42,536 --> 00:20:44,071
That's because you only came back
411
00:20:44,082 --> 00:20:45,550
after I decided that I was leaving.
412
00:20:45,561 --> 00:20:47,384
So it's too late, Mark, it's too late.
413
00:20:47,395 --> 00:20:48,696
- (MONITOR BEEPING)
- She's hypovolemic.
414
00:20:48,763 --> 00:20:50,298
I told you she's lost too much blood.
415
00:20:50,365 --> 00:20:52,951
What Becky is saying
is that my patient is unstable
416
00:20:52,962 --> 00:20:54,958
and a reproductive fire sale
is her only option.
417
00:20:54,969 --> 00:20:56,938
We're gonna do everything
we can to avoid hysterectomy.
418
00:20:56,949 --> 00:20:58,715
It's her life we're talking
about here, June.
419
00:20:58,726 --> 00:21:00,695
And she doesn't wanna
live it feeling damaged.
420
00:21:00,706 --> 00:21:02,608
(MONITORS BEEPING)
421
00:21:04,161 --> 00:21:05,583
I should've never have said that you
422
00:21:05,593 --> 00:21:06,770
were too damaged to be a mother, June.
423
00:21:06,781 --> 00:21:08,338
Guys, her pressure is still dropping.
424
00:21:08,349 --> 00:21:10,084
(BOTH): Shut up, Becky.
425
00:21:11,140 --> 00:21:12,728
It was never just about motherhood,
426
00:21:12,739 --> 00:21:15,810
it was about feeling like
I don't deserve anything.
427
00:21:19,099 --> 00:21:20,434
What?
428
00:21:20,801 --> 00:21:22,719
Get Dr. Curtis her surgical loops.
429
00:21:22,730 --> 00:21:25,595
We're gonna go in there and
help her find where it's attached.
430
00:21:25,605 --> 00:21:27,373
We'll do it her way.
431
00:21:28,132 --> 00:21:30,427
- Becky, take this over.
- Yeah, got it.
432
00:21:30,438 --> 00:21:32,640
(MONITOR BEEPING)
433
00:21:34,175 --> 00:21:35,710
(TENSE MUSIC)
434
00:21:37,525 --> 00:21:39,493
Okay...
435
00:21:40,868 --> 00:21:42,336
Do you see it?
436
00:21:44,191 --> 00:21:46,026
Yeah, I see it.
437
00:21:47,514 --> 00:21:48,848
Clamping now.
438
00:21:57,458 --> 00:21:59,193
Luke.
439
00:22:00,113 --> 00:22:01,481
Luke?
440
00:22:06,253 --> 00:22:08,655
And you took the BIPAP.
441
00:22:11,111 --> 00:22:12,813
Thank you.
442
00:22:13,871 --> 00:22:17,214
- Just got out of surgery.
- Corroded valve located.
443
00:22:17,225 --> 00:22:19,576
They shut off a gas line and diverted,
444
00:22:19,587 --> 00:22:22,590
so we are clear to go back in.
Spread word?
445
00:22:23,037 --> 00:22:24,670
Looks like we weathered the storm.
446
00:22:24,681 --> 00:22:28,585
Until today's stats explode
our weekly wait time averages...
447
00:22:28,989 --> 00:22:30,824
Not your problem.
448
00:22:31,021 --> 00:22:34,258
Let me know if you get any
pushback from Dr. Olsen.
449
00:22:34,269 --> 00:22:36,237
I'll handle it if I do.
450
00:22:36,970 --> 00:22:39,072
I could back you up, Neeta.
451
00:22:39,659 --> 00:22:43,763
How could you possibly
expect me to trust you, Mark?
452
00:22:44,312 --> 00:22:47,582
Just call me finally motivated
to find some common ground.
453
00:22:50,051 --> 00:22:52,287
(INDISTINCT CHATTER)
454
00:22:52,353 --> 00:22:53,588
Bashir.
455
00:22:54,470 --> 00:22:56,502
Hey, I got your text.
456
00:22:56,513 --> 00:22:58,649
Yeah, that patient I was asking about.
457
00:22:58,660 --> 00:23:00,461
Um, he took off.
458
00:23:00,639 --> 00:23:02,875
I think with a very expensive
piece of equipment.
459
00:23:02,886 --> 00:23:05,410
You said maybe he was
unregistered and needed a consul?
460
00:23:05,421 --> 00:23:08,314
I mean, he's had COPD
that's been ignored for years.
461
00:23:08,325 --> 00:23:10,979
I offered him long-term help,
and he just seemed fixated
462
00:23:10,990 --> 00:23:12,558
on getting through today.
463
00:23:12,774 --> 00:23:14,175
I recognized the look on his face,
464
00:23:14,186 --> 00:23:15,287
he's stuck in survival mode.
465
00:23:15,298 --> 00:23:17,133
Well, if he comes back,
I'm happy to talk.
466
00:23:17,144 --> 00:23:18,175
Great.
467
00:23:18,342 --> 00:23:20,661
This whole setup, it's impressive.
468
00:23:20,672 --> 00:23:22,817
What if it's just my own version
of getting through the day?
469
00:23:22,940 --> 00:23:24,927
You know, another
sinkhole to distract me.
470
00:23:24,938 --> 00:23:26,907
Well, it makes sense to think that.
471
00:23:27,408 --> 00:23:30,010
What happened to Mags is awful.
472
00:23:30,297 --> 00:23:32,165
And so unfair.
473
00:23:32,407 --> 00:23:33,561
To her.
474
00:23:34,085 --> 00:23:35,763
And also to you.
475
00:23:35,830 --> 00:23:38,299
After everything that
you've been through.
476
00:23:38,533 --> 00:23:41,069
But you're doing the work,
you're not stuck anywhere.
477
00:23:41,761 --> 00:23:44,339
Every time I try to think
about my future
478
00:23:44,405 --> 00:23:46,541
or what I want, it just seems wrong.
479
00:23:46,608 --> 00:23:48,142
It isn't.
480
00:23:48,876 --> 00:23:50,478
You know, it could be so easy
481
00:23:50,545 --> 00:23:52,180
to just disappear into myself again.
482
00:23:52,246 --> 00:23:54,015
You're not gonna do that.
483
00:23:54,235 --> 00:23:56,437
You will get through this, Bashir.
484
00:23:57,496 --> 00:23:59,098
How, Karim?
485
00:23:59,109 --> 00:24:00,744
You know what to do.
486
00:24:00,755 --> 00:24:02,824
(DRAMATIC MUSIC)
487
00:24:06,506 --> 00:24:09,108
(BASHIR): What are you afraid of?
488
00:24:09,710 --> 00:24:12,580
It should be you, not them.
489
00:24:13,147 --> 00:24:15,316
It should be you, not her.
490
00:24:15,917 --> 00:24:18,820
The past is best left where it was.
491
00:24:19,305 --> 00:24:21,975
I just need to get her somewhere safe.
492
00:24:22,476 --> 00:24:26,380
Every time I think I built
something, that feeling fades.
493
00:24:29,751 --> 00:24:31,486
Don't look away.
494
00:24:35,376 --> 00:24:36,859
Okay, Liz, your angle feels off.
495
00:24:36,870 --> 00:24:39,691
- You're too tense, just try and relax.
- I am trying. It hurts.
496
00:24:39,702 --> 00:24:41,691
Okay, remind me how much
hydromorphone he's had?
497
00:24:41,702 --> 00:24:43,804
Two mgs, and one of ativan.
498
00:24:43,911 --> 00:24:45,680
I think you should let us use ketamine.
499
00:24:45,833 --> 00:24:47,702
We can wait for ortho
and RT if you're nervous.
500
00:24:47,713 --> 00:24:49,848
No, don't wait. Just ketamine,
propofol if you need it.
501
00:24:50,237 --> 00:24:53,007
Rhoda can watch my breathing,
I just want it back in.
502
00:24:53,074 --> 00:24:55,076
Okay, push 50 ketamine, Rhoda.
503
00:24:55,329 --> 00:24:57,798
(THEO MOANS)
504
00:24:58,238 --> 00:25:00,341
Okay, it's gonna come on fast.
505
00:25:01,188 --> 00:25:02,923
(SIGHING)
506
00:25:03,031 --> 00:25:05,119
Are you there, Theo? Can you hear me?
507
00:25:06,796 --> 00:25:08,831
Okay, ready when you are, Liz.
508
00:25:08,842 --> 00:25:10,010
Okay.
509
00:25:10,643 --> 00:25:12,816
He's moving a little bit easier now.
510
00:25:12,827 --> 00:25:15,596
- Ow.
- I hate it when they're still in pain, though.
511
00:25:15,607 --> 00:25:17,873
Yeah, at least he doesn't
know where he is.
512
00:25:17,884 --> 00:25:20,387
Okay, Theo, you're still resisting.
513
00:25:20,462 --> 00:25:23,504
I just need you to let go,
why can't you do that?
514
00:25:24,324 --> 00:25:26,193
Because I'm scared.
515
00:25:27,714 --> 00:25:30,611
- Should we keep...
- Yeah, yeah, yeah, I think if I just...
516
00:25:31,064 --> 00:25:32,913
- (CRACKING)
- (THEO EXHALING IN RELIEF)
517
00:25:32,924 --> 00:25:34,325
Got it.
518
00:25:34,728 --> 00:25:36,997
Okay, I'll put him in a stabilizer.
519
00:25:40,394 --> 00:25:41,662
Hi.
520
00:25:42,416 --> 00:25:44,051
Welcome back.
521
00:25:46,967 --> 00:25:49,903
(SIRENS WAILING)
522
00:25:50,953 --> 00:25:53,255
- What is this?
- Aren't you gone?
523
00:25:53,341 --> 00:25:55,792
Yet, you're still texting me
on our group thread.
524
00:25:55,914 --> 00:25:57,718
You texted "911" again, but I wasn't
525
00:25:57,728 --> 00:25:59,218
sure whether it was real this time.
526
00:25:59,229 --> 00:26:01,031
- June.
- Why is your arm in a sling?
527
00:26:01,042 --> 00:26:02,889
I thought I was just texting Theo.
528
00:26:02,900 --> 00:26:04,565
- Did you come back because of me?
- Yes.
529
00:26:04,576 --> 00:26:06,970
I turned around on
the highway, ran back here,
530
00:26:06,981 --> 00:26:08,661
changed into my scrubs.
I was in surgery.
531
00:26:08,672 --> 00:26:10,874
Why were you in surgery when
you no longer work here, June?
532
00:26:10,885 --> 00:26:11,980
What happened to your arm, Theo?
533
00:26:11,991 --> 00:26:14,478
Look, not to diminish,
whatever's going on with you,
534
00:26:14,489 --> 00:26:16,157
but I need help. This is Madiha.
535
00:26:16,168 --> 00:26:18,748
- Crohn's, mid-flare.
- Why would Chron's lead to intubation?
536
00:26:18,759 --> 00:26:20,294
Was she here during the anesthetic leak?
537
00:26:20,305 --> 00:26:21,840
Yes. It sent her into rest distress,
538
00:26:21,851 --> 00:26:23,776
but she was already
struggling to breathe.
539
00:26:23,787 --> 00:26:26,690
Imaging showed pulmonary edema,
but no underlying causes.
540
00:26:26,701 --> 00:26:28,169
When did her symptoms present?
541
00:26:28,180 --> 00:26:30,082
A few days ago when
she got here from Turkey.
542
00:26:30,093 --> 00:26:32,350
I did a screening for possible
infections she could've picked up,
543
00:26:32,361 --> 00:26:35,665
but nothing. There must be a
complication that I'm missing.
544
00:26:35,676 --> 00:26:37,278
Blood clot maybe?
545
00:26:37,289 --> 00:26:39,624
IBD inflammation
and VTE aren't uncommon.
546
00:26:39,635 --> 00:26:42,038
Except there's no clot.
We did a CT to make sure.
547
00:26:42,049 --> 00:26:43,686
Nothing cardiogenic underlying?
548
00:26:43,697 --> 00:26:45,263
EKG, bloods, echo.
549
00:26:45,274 --> 00:26:48,314
- And you're treating the fluid in her lungs?
- Obviously, diuretics.
550
00:26:48,325 --> 00:26:50,547
Okay, so why did you call us here?
551
00:26:50,558 --> 00:26:52,360
Just treat the edema, send her home,
552
00:26:52,371 --> 00:26:55,541
- and follow-up with primary care.
- No, I am her primary care.
553
00:26:58,078 --> 00:27:00,881
And it's not us you wanted to ask.
554
00:27:02,742 --> 00:27:06,746
You're right, we don't know
what she'd say.
555
00:27:07,527 --> 00:27:10,497
But we do know we pale in comparison.
556
00:27:11,961 --> 00:27:15,038
Madiha just got to
Canada with her family.
557
00:27:15,049 --> 00:27:16,524
She's shaken from her journey
558
00:27:16,535 --> 00:27:19,105
and this huge change
in her life, and...
559
00:27:20,333 --> 00:27:22,469
Look, if I'm honest, she's me.
560
00:27:22,814 --> 00:27:25,526
She's me seven years ago,
and she's me right now,
561
00:27:25,537 --> 00:27:28,340
wondering if everything I went
through was for nothing.
562
00:27:29,929 --> 00:27:32,966
- (PHONE VIBRATING AND BEEPING)
- And...
563
00:27:33,801 --> 00:27:35,434
Um, I'm sorry.
564
00:27:35,445 --> 00:27:36,846
That was, uh...
565
00:27:36,857 --> 00:27:39,727
I have to account for a
missing BIPAP machine now.
566
00:27:41,320 --> 00:27:44,090
You're not alone with any
of what you just said, Bash.
567
00:27:47,467 --> 00:27:49,502
Why do you keep brining her up?
568
00:27:49,772 --> 00:27:52,008
He clearly doesn't want
to talk about this.
569
00:27:52,019 --> 00:27:53,187
Well, I think he does.
570
00:27:53,198 --> 00:27:55,586
I can feel him trying
to make sense of it.
571
00:27:55,597 --> 00:27:57,291
What does it even mean, Theo?
572
00:27:57,302 --> 00:27:58,670
I don't know.
573
00:27:58,681 --> 00:28:00,716
Someone we loved died.
574
00:28:01,796 --> 00:28:03,731
We have to make sense of it, too.
575
00:28:04,665 --> 00:28:07,702
When you say you lost it,
that machine is worth
576
00:28:07,768 --> 00:28:09,604
more than you make in a year.
577
00:28:09,670 --> 00:28:14,275
I lent it to an unregistered
patient who took it.
578
00:28:15,095 --> 00:28:17,044
He needed help breathing,
and at least now,
579
00:28:17,111 --> 00:28:18,913
we know he'll make it through the day.
580
00:28:18,924 --> 00:28:22,127
Well, that's a good way
to get yourself fired.
581
00:28:23,489 --> 00:28:25,358
- Hey.
- Hey.
582
00:28:25,478 --> 00:28:27,944
- Is that the family?
- Husband and two boys from Aleppo.
583
00:28:28,204 --> 00:28:30,725
The husband should know
there's nothing to worry about.
584
00:28:30,736 --> 00:28:33,372
- Except, is that even true?
- Doctors, where we're from,
585
00:28:33,383 --> 00:28:35,952
we don't give bad news
the same way you do here.
586
00:28:35,963 --> 00:28:39,166
Right, I always forget that.
It's impolite to tell the truth.
587
00:28:39,288 --> 00:28:42,425
When I'd watch my parents
talk to patients or loved ones,
588
00:28:42,436 --> 00:28:43,965
it just made so much sense.
589
00:28:43,976 --> 00:28:45,436
Yeah, so there's nothing
they can do but worry.
590
00:28:45,447 --> 00:28:47,065
- What's the point?
- Exactly, yeah.
591
00:28:47,076 --> 00:28:48,643
- I'll go talk to them.
- Let me.
592
00:28:48,654 --> 00:28:50,747
We agreed to take Madiha
on together anyway.
593
00:28:50,758 --> 00:28:54,715
Oh, ah, by the way, I checked
out that office space.
594
00:28:55,042 --> 00:28:57,011
You're right, it can work.
595
00:28:57,229 --> 00:29:00,266
But, hey, if the timing's wrong,
596
00:29:00,487 --> 00:29:03,389
staying at Memorial is
a good option for you, Bash.
597
00:29:06,072 --> 00:29:09,575
I just stared at those pills.
598
00:29:09,723 --> 00:29:11,057
Okay.
599
00:29:11,265 --> 00:29:14,460
The tension of this huge evac,
600
00:29:14,471 --> 00:29:18,481
and, I mean, how we're only ever
one hairline fracture
601
00:29:18,492 --> 00:29:20,094
from collapse, and...
602
00:29:21,409 --> 00:29:24,679
- You don't need to hear this.
- Yes, I do, Claire.
603
00:29:25,138 --> 00:29:27,448
Because I can't imagine
this was easy for you.
604
00:29:28,103 --> 00:29:30,451
I'll admit for a minute,
605
00:29:30,892 --> 00:29:32,509
taking them and numbing myself
606
00:29:32,520 --> 00:29:35,456
felt like the only way to deal with it.
607
00:29:36,784 --> 00:29:39,702
That doesn't mean though
the next time I won't stumble.
608
00:29:39,713 --> 00:29:43,116
But it does mean
that this time, you didn't.
609
00:29:44,644 --> 00:29:47,280
So what if small wins are all we get.
610
00:29:47,635 --> 00:29:49,470
(DRAMATIC MUSIC)
611
00:29:57,537 --> 00:29:59,106
Neeta.
612
00:30:01,294 --> 00:30:04,397
I wanted to thank you
for fighting for this place.
613
00:30:05,658 --> 00:30:07,860
And for not giving up on me.
614
00:30:09,290 --> 00:30:11,392
(♪♪)
615
00:30:19,006 --> 00:30:20,407
(ELEVATOR DINGS)
616
00:30:23,670 --> 00:30:25,251
What if it wasn't too late?
617
00:30:25,262 --> 00:30:27,330
I'm too tired to keep
doing this with you.
618
00:30:27,341 --> 00:30:29,610
What if Devi could get
the hospital lawyers
619
00:30:29,621 --> 00:30:31,423
to get you out of your contract
in Cleveland?
620
00:30:31,434 --> 00:30:33,803
And eat whatever penalty
you might be on the hook for?
621
00:30:33,981 --> 00:30:37,069
- Why would she do that?
- Because I asked her to.
622
00:30:37,080 --> 00:30:39,342
She rightfully loathes you, Mark.
623
00:30:39,353 --> 00:30:40,721
Ergo we made a trade.
624
00:30:40,788 --> 00:30:42,591
I agreed to relinquish co-chief.
625
00:30:42,602 --> 00:30:44,837
So you give up your power for me.
626
00:30:45,049 --> 00:30:46,648
She'd rather I be
your problems than hers.
627
00:30:46,659 --> 00:30:48,127
And let's face it, I'm not interested
628
00:30:48,138 --> 00:30:50,825
in the soul-crushing
mundanity of her job.
629
00:30:51,265 --> 00:30:52,900
What is it that you are proposing?
630
00:30:53,131 --> 00:30:55,166
That we go back to running
Traum OR together.
631
00:30:55,177 --> 00:30:57,327
- Mark...
- You'd have to take a pay cut.
632
00:30:57,338 --> 00:30:59,040
There's no way we can mash
the money you'd be making
633
00:30:59,051 --> 00:31:02,855
in the US, but if you wanted to,
to try for a kid again.
634
00:31:03,330 --> 00:31:07,048
Or whatever else it is
that you might end up wanting,
635
00:31:07,114 --> 00:31:09,183
you'd have stability at work.
636
00:31:09,743 --> 00:31:14,781
And I'd have a partner
who makes me... better.
637
00:31:16,477 --> 00:31:19,149
Anyway, think about it.
While you're thinking about it,
638
00:31:19,160 --> 00:31:21,762
would you please tell Ruth
that she won the uterus lottery?
639
00:31:21,773 --> 00:31:24,175
I don't think she's gonna
want to hear it from me.
640
00:31:24,932 --> 00:31:26,867
(DRAMATIC MUSIC)
641
00:31:28,502 --> 00:31:30,037
- (SIRENS WAILING)
- (CARS HONKING)
642
00:31:30,048 --> 00:31:32,417
You didn't have to leave work
to come to this, you know?
643
00:31:32,540 --> 00:31:34,809
No, it's okay. I had help there.
644
00:31:35,100 --> 00:31:37,138
Um, that's Mrs. Butterfield.
645
00:31:37,149 --> 00:31:40,986
I don't think she likes me,
so let's not talk to her.
646
00:31:41,704 --> 00:31:43,506
Amira, I'm sure that's not true.
647
00:31:43,517 --> 00:31:45,619
She only had the nicest things
to say about you
648
00:31:45,630 --> 00:31:47,410
- on your report card.
- Whatever.
649
00:31:47,421 --> 00:31:49,741
- They have to say that.
- No, they actually don't.
650
00:31:49,752 --> 00:31:51,754
Fine, but this isn't
parent-teacher interviews.
651
00:31:51,765 --> 00:31:53,716
Let's not talk about Amira
in front of her
652
00:31:53,727 --> 00:31:55,563
because that makes her uncomfortable.
653
00:31:55,574 --> 00:31:56,976
Okay.
654
00:31:56,987 --> 00:31:59,322
This is social studies.
655
00:32:00,901 --> 00:32:03,737
(INDISTINCT CHATTER)
656
00:32:03,949 --> 00:32:06,252
You want to show me some of your work?
657
00:32:06,636 --> 00:32:10,344
There's just this one thing,
but it's embarrassing.
658
00:32:10,467 --> 00:32:12,402
Only if you want to, huh?
659
00:32:12,413 --> 00:32:14,181
Just, here.
660
00:32:15,555 --> 00:32:17,833
- What is it?
- It's a mind map.
661
00:32:17,844 --> 00:32:20,634
You define yourselves with the
words that are important to you.
662
00:32:20,787 --> 00:32:22,823
Mine is kind of messy.
663
00:32:25,292 --> 00:32:27,416
You don't have to stare
at it for hours.
664
00:32:27,427 --> 00:32:29,362
It's just...
665
00:32:29,570 --> 00:32:31,644
You know, you fought so hard
666
00:32:31,655 --> 00:32:33,590
to come here for the theatre program.
667
00:32:33,601 --> 00:32:37,972
But looking at this, math and
science are just as important to you.
668
00:32:37,983 --> 00:32:41,153
I like them, too. I don't know, Bashir.
669
00:32:41,444 --> 00:32:43,980
Maybe I'd make a better
doctor than singer.
670
00:32:43,991 --> 00:32:45,859
It does run in the family.
671
00:32:46,790 --> 00:32:49,016
My teachers think if my
grades stay high enough,
672
00:32:49,083 --> 00:32:52,653
I could get into McGill,
or Queens, or UofT.
673
00:32:52,786 --> 00:32:55,444
Look, you don't have
to follow anyone's path.
674
00:32:55,455 --> 00:32:57,857
Amira, you can be whatever you want.
675
00:33:00,324 --> 00:33:01,729
It's true, you know?
676
00:33:02,484 --> 00:33:06,689
I know. And maybe
I'll change my mind again.
677
00:33:06,756 --> 00:33:09,859
But I like knowing
that I was going one way,
678
00:33:10,435 --> 00:33:12,072
and now I can go another.
679
00:33:12,139 --> 00:33:14,808
(SOFT MUSIC)
680
00:33:16,596 --> 00:33:19,766
I'm trying not
to embarrass you by crying.
681
00:33:27,754 --> 00:33:29,590
Hey, um...
682
00:33:30,729 --> 00:33:32,293
I think I have to go back to work.
683
00:33:32,359 --> 00:33:33,961
You said you were done.
684
00:33:34,028 --> 00:33:36,030
And you said we could change our minds.
685
00:33:41,168 --> 00:33:42,870
We'll be okay.
686
00:33:43,496 --> 00:33:45,598
I know we will.
687
00:33:48,261 --> 00:33:50,800
***
688
00:33:50,811 --> 00:33:52,980
Haven't I done the last
10 of those in a row?
689
00:33:53,047 --> 00:33:54,848
Well, we want to make sure
that you don't lose
690
00:33:54,915 --> 00:33:57,885
your sense of humility,
future Dr. Wong.
691
00:33:59,342 --> 00:34:00,910
I was gonna tell you I got in,
692
00:34:00,921 --> 00:34:02,957
I was just worried that you'd
think I was abandoning you.
693
00:34:02,968 --> 00:34:05,971
An old friend who teaches at the
medical school, he let it slip.
694
00:34:06,093 --> 00:34:07,962
I'm proud of you, kid.
695
00:34:08,028 --> 00:34:09,530
Anyone know if ortho has seen
696
00:34:09,597 --> 00:34:10,798
my knee dislocation patient, yet?
697
00:34:10,864 --> 00:34:12,566
Are you even supposed to be working?
698
00:34:12,633 --> 00:34:15,196
I just wanna make sure
he knows I didn't bail on him.
699
00:34:15,207 --> 00:34:16,848
Challenging circumstances today.
700
00:34:16,859 --> 00:34:19,395
But you people killed yourselves.
701
00:34:19,406 --> 00:34:20,908
Some of us killed each other.
702
00:34:20,919 --> 00:34:23,154
Rhoda, don't think I'll forget
you wrenching at me like that.
703
00:34:23,277 --> 00:34:24,778
The pleasure was all mine.
704
00:34:24,845 --> 00:34:28,215
And some of us lost some very
expensive hospital equipment.
705
00:34:28,749 --> 00:34:32,558
Dr. Hamed, you want to rip off
the bandage as it would?
706
00:34:32,569 --> 00:34:35,489
Um, an unregistered patient
707
00:34:35,556 --> 00:34:39,293
with untreated COPD
needed O2 treatment so...
708
00:34:39,590 --> 00:34:42,885
So Bashir and I lent him
a portable BIPAP machine
709
00:34:42,896 --> 00:34:45,699
which he may have purloined.
710
00:34:47,357 --> 00:34:49,359
Did you get a phone number
or a health card?
711
00:34:49,370 --> 00:34:52,039
No, but it's possible he comes back.
712
00:34:52,315 --> 00:34:54,784
But that's what
insurance is for, right?
713
00:34:54,795 --> 00:34:59,533
We'll see, but it's not lost on
me how far you're willing to go.
714
00:35:00,493 --> 00:35:02,194
All of you.
715
00:35:02,205 --> 00:35:05,041
And since wait times
are skyrocketing again,
716
00:35:05,052 --> 00:35:07,521
let's get back to work. Shall we?
717
00:35:07,774 --> 00:35:10,043
Bashir, did you need something?
718
00:35:13,206 --> 00:35:15,175
Liz, um...
719
00:35:16,404 --> 00:35:18,573
You were right about me
resisting who I am.
720
00:35:18,584 --> 00:35:21,687
So I'm taking over Max's practice.
721
00:35:24,089 --> 00:35:25,257
Good.
722
00:35:26,299 --> 00:35:28,301
When I came out of sedation,
723
00:35:28,976 --> 00:35:31,645
I was just happy to see your face.
724
00:35:32,832 --> 00:35:34,934
I wanna trust that feeling, Liz.
725
00:35:35,622 --> 00:35:38,291
And if you still feel
the same way about me,
726
00:35:39,847 --> 00:35:41,715
I wanna trust it.
727
00:35:43,289 --> 00:35:46,659
(IN ARABIC)
728
00:36:13,187 --> 00:36:15,255
(GENTLE MUSIC)
729
00:36:23,831 --> 00:36:26,900
(MAGS): Well, we're about to.
730
00:36:27,246 --> 00:36:28,447
Why not?
731
00:36:28,492 --> 00:36:30,070
Don't you want to know
how good we are at this?
732
00:36:30,081 --> 00:36:31,716
(BASHIR): Asking would be ridiculous.
733
00:36:32,246 --> 00:36:34,548
What are you afraid of?
734
00:36:34,559 --> 00:36:37,125
- Let me show you how it's done.
- Mags, wait.
735
00:36:44,985 --> 00:36:47,187
(LAUGHING) Thank you.
736
00:36:50,570 --> 00:36:52,805
Um, well...
737
00:36:53,086 --> 00:36:54,821
- So were we close?
- Nope.
738
00:36:55,499 --> 00:36:59,433
So she's an HR, and he just
lost his restaurant job.
739
00:36:59,820 --> 00:37:01,680
And he admitted that to a stranger?
740
00:37:01,691 --> 00:37:03,159
Uh-huh, yeah.
741
00:37:04,090 --> 00:37:05,925
He also said he wanted
to go back to school
742
00:37:05,936 --> 00:37:08,506
- and try something new.
- And what did you tell him?
743
00:37:09,414 --> 00:37:12,751
Uh, that it's never
too late to start again.
744
00:37:12,999 --> 00:37:15,001
(GENTLE MUSIC)
745
00:37:22,042 --> 00:37:24,680
Seriously, did you honestly text
us "911" for the third time today?
746
00:37:24,691 --> 00:37:26,584
Is this about the
pulmonary edema patient?
747
00:37:26,595 --> 00:37:28,962
Thanks for watching her.
She's responding well to meds.
748
00:37:28,973 --> 00:37:30,185
But still no answer as to why?
749
00:37:30,196 --> 00:37:31,664
And sometimes,
there isn't one, you know?
750
00:37:31,675 --> 00:37:33,629
You just gotta live with it.
It's hard, but...
751
00:37:33,640 --> 00:37:36,577
No, we work our way
through the differentials slowly
752
00:37:36,703 --> 00:37:38,872
and get it wrong until we get it right.
753
00:37:39,112 --> 00:37:42,072
But thank you for,
754
00:37:42,082 --> 00:37:43,371
Thank you.
755
00:37:43,382 --> 00:37:44,631
You are welcome.
756
00:37:44,642 --> 00:37:47,269
But why'd you pick this room,
it's the site of my trauma?
757
00:37:47,280 --> 00:37:49,248
You gonna tell us what
happened to your arm, Theo?
758
00:37:49,259 --> 00:37:51,395
My reward for trying to help a patient
759
00:37:51,406 --> 00:37:53,709
who very much did not want to be helped.
760
00:37:53,720 --> 00:37:55,722
- Did he assault you?
- Not quite.
761
00:37:55,789 --> 00:37:57,357
Tried to get him into a wheelchair
762
00:37:57,368 --> 00:37:58,905
and my shoulder popped out.
763
00:37:58,916 --> 00:38:00,850
Ah, so is that better or worse
764
00:38:00,861 --> 00:38:02,902
than the guy who punched you in
the face a couple of years ago?
765
00:38:02,913 --> 00:38:04,915
Well, your turn, June,
what are you still doing here?
766
00:38:04,926 --> 00:38:07,529
I am staying to partner
with Novak in Trauma OR.
767
00:38:07,991 --> 00:38:09,394
Can you trust him?
768
00:38:09,405 --> 00:38:13,327
No, but I do love the work
we're doing together so,
769
00:38:13,672 --> 00:38:15,707
I don't know, I guess
I was just running.
770
00:38:16,254 --> 00:38:18,150
You know, after I got
punched in the face,
771
00:38:18,161 --> 00:38:21,320
I think that's when I lost
faith in who I was.
772
00:38:21,560 --> 00:38:23,896
You were the guy who took in
me and my sister
773
00:38:23,907 --> 00:38:25,743
when you barely knew who we were
because we needed help, Theo.
774
00:38:26,500 --> 00:38:28,822
Oh, you know, I once had a patient
who got punched in the face.
775
00:38:28,833 --> 00:38:30,535
Left AMA. Comes back three years later
776
00:38:30,546 --> 00:38:32,081
with a brain bleed, dies on the table.
777
00:38:32,931 --> 00:38:34,274
Okay. (SIGHING)
778
00:38:34,467 --> 00:38:35,896
You good?
779
00:38:35,907 --> 00:38:38,409
Yeah, I can dress myself, thanks.
780
00:38:40,272 --> 00:38:42,408
What do you think
you were running from?
781
00:38:43,896 --> 00:38:45,798
Oh, um...
782
00:38:47,036 --> 00:38:48,837
you know, there are people here
783
00:38:48,848 --> 00:38:52,385
who I care about
and who also care about me.
784
00:38:53,480 --> 00:38:56,517
And I think I deserve that.
785
00:38:57,122 --> 00:38:59,158
You do.
786
00:38:59,279 --> 00:39:03,750
Yeah, I can't do this
without help so...
787
00:39:04,758 --> 00:39:07,494
(UPLIFTING MUSIC)
788
00:39:22,316 --> 00:39:24,252
I turned down the job.
789
00:39:24,263 --> 00:39:26,599
What? Why?
790
00:39:26,813 --> 00:39:28,715
Bash, if you're doing this
because you feel guilty.
791
00:39:28,782 --> 00:39:31,718
I'm starting my own clinic. (CHUCKLING)
792
00:39:31,785 --> 00:39:35,222
She knew, actually.
She wanted me to do it.
793
00:39:35,748 --> 00:39:37,449
That's what she would have said.
794
00:39:37,680 --> 00:39:39,715
What kind of clinic?
795
00:39:39,781 --> 00:39:42,084
Community medicine and public health.
796
00:39:42,095 --> 00:39:43,664
It's what my parents did.
797
00:39:43,730 --> 00:39:45,365
The doctor who sponsored me to Canada,
798
00:39:45,432 --> 00:39:47,034
he'll bring some patients.
799
00:39:47,100 --> 00:39:50,037
I'm actually seeing
a place later tonight.
800
00:39:50,536 --> 00:39:53,874
I'll get a business loan,
a grant maybe.
801
00:39:53,941 --> 00:39:57,411
I know it's a huge risk,
but it's what I want.
802
00:39:58,512 --> 00:40:00,047
Get it wrong until we get it right.
803
00:40:00,113 --> 00:40:01,882
Rulebreaker makes his own rule.
804
00:40:02,321 --> 00:40:04,585
- Let me know how I can help.
- Yeah, same.
805
00:40:05,163 --> 00:40:06,731
(PAGER BEEPING)
806
00:40:08,114 --> 00:40:10,182
Go if you need to.
807
00:40:12,912 --> 00:40:15,147
Uh, I'll see you guys soon.
808
00:40:15,387 --> 00:40:16,652
- Yeah.
- Yeah.
809
00:40:16,663 --> 00:40:18,065
Okay.
810
00:40:21,468 --> 00:40:24,504
(GENTLE MUSIC)
811
00:40:40,478 --> 00:40:43,882
(INDISTINCT CHATTER)
812
00:40:44,891 --> 00:40:47,094
(♪♪)
813
00:41:57,857 --> 00:42:00,893
(HIP-HOP MUSIC)
814
00:42:07,374 --> 00:42:11,645
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815
00:42:17,992 --> 00:42:22,992
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