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  - So you got a basic kitchen, 
     bathroom. The TV works.    

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 There's two or three positions 
            each year           

3
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    where practising surgeons   
  will take on foreign doctors. 

4
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 - Disappearing from your life, 
    that was me being scared    

5
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     that I'd never be able     
       to build anything.       

6
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      - I'm thinking about      
          having a kid.         

7
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      And if I do something     
      that crazy by myself,     

8
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   I need to know that my work  
     environment is stable.     

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    - It's been decided that    
   he's gonna be transitioning  
        out of Trauma OR        

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     and no longer connected    
  to the emergency department.  

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    - Dr. Devi, I appreciate    
      your faith in me, and     
       I plan to earn it.       

12
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        - Hydromorphone?        
       Mags, what is this?      

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  - If you have plain, Claire,  
  that pain should be managed.  

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     - They'll be retrieving    
  the donor heart late tonight. 

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  - First thing in the morning, 
        we'll get going.        

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     - I can't see a future     
      unless you're in it.      

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       This is real, Mags.      

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         (opening theme)        

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            (honking)           

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          (door opens)          

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          (door shuts)          

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            - Hey...            
         (Bashir moans)         

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           It's 6:30.           

24
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   How long have you been out?  

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            (sighing)           
        - About an hour.        

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 Was Amira awake when you left? 

27
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   - No, but I left her a note  
       and made her lunch.      

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       It's weirdly quiet       
     out there for a Monday.    

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        Oh, and I brought       
       your fancy clothes.      

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          - Thank you.          

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       - Are you nervous?       

32
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 - Dr. Robitaille says he wants 
   me to meet the whole team.   

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      Whatever that means.      

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       - It means he wants      
      to make you an offer.     

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     Just make sure it's got    
        extended medical.       

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   It'd cover Amira's braces.   

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   Me saying that doesn't mean  
     it's not gonna happen.     

38
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            (sighing)           

39
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 The broker came back with some 
       options, but also,       

40
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  June says I can keep my room  
     if we want a slow burn.    

41
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     - Just tell the broker     
      we need two bathrooms     

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  because you and Amira refuse  
     to hang up your towels.    

43
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    - Hey, we have a system,    
            alright?            

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           (chuckling)          

45
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     - Hey, remember when HR    
   called me as I was working   

46
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  into the hospital to tell me  
  the position had been filled? 

47
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  - That happened only one time 
     at a different house...    

48
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           (rumbling)           

49
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        - The bed shook!        

50
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     Every time my arm moves    
     even an inch, it kills.    

51
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      - Yeah, I don't know      
         what that was.         

52
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  Anyway, I... think it's over. 

53
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  (indistinct PA announcement)  
           Um... Okay.          

54
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       Charlotte, tell me       
        about your elbow.       

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     - I fell off the curb.     
    It was 5:30 this morning    
     and I was fast-walking.    

56
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          - Exercising?         
    Can you bend it a little?   

57
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 - While studying for midterms. 

58
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     University applications    
            are soon.           

59
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   Yes, I know my skin is dry.  

60
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     - You know which school    
       you want to go to?       

61
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    - There's five on my list   
    with good pre-med tracks.   

62
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 Not like when you were applying
       and every nice guy       

63
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    with a B average got in.    

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    - "Nice guy, B average."    
    Charlotte, I don't think    

65
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    I've ever been summed up    
          so astutely.          

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      - I didn't mean to...     
      It's just stressful.      

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             - Okay.            

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         Were you dizzy?        

69
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    Alright, well, I'm gonna    
      get you on IV fluids      

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         because you are        
        a bit dehydrated.       

71
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   When was your last period?   
             - Why?             

72
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  - Well, it's just one of the  
   standard questions we ask.   

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     And you'll probably get    
      asked again at X-ray.     

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  - I don't... really get them. 

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       - Do you know why?       

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    Because sometimes stress    
        or change in diet       

77
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        can cause cycles        
      to stop for a while.      

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   - Actually, can you go now?  

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     If I have to wait here,    
         I should study.        

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    - Earthquakes in Toronto?   
      Is that even a thing?     

81
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    - Closest fault lines are   
  Quebec and western New York,  
     but we do get tremors.     

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     Just... nobody usually     
           feels them.          

83
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  - Well, apparently, this one  
  was big enough to shake loose 

84
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     one of those giant lit     
     billboards over Yonge.     

85
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  - That's "act of God" scary.  

86
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     - More like "we ruined     
       the planet" scary.       

87
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     - Actually, earthquakes    
       are not influenced       

88
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      by climate change...      
   "Shut up, Arnold," got it.   

89
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     - Hey, Claire, remember    
        a few years back        

90
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         when a chunk of        
     the overpass collapsed?    

91
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     People were more scared    
          than injured          

92
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      so you got that place     
       to send free pizza?      

93
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     - Set up for worst-case    
  scenario, clear the curtains. 

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      Anything non-urgent,      
     boot it to the hallway.    

95
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   - Alright, let's make sure   
     we're ready with fresh     
         frozen plasma.         

96
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     - And packed red cells     
         and platelets.         

97
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     I'll meet you in there.    

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          (June sighs)          

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         June, let's go!        

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       - Yeah, I'm coming.      

101
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        - What'd he say?        
             - Who?             

102
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    - Singh, about staying on   
    in Trauma OR, full-time?    

103
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            - Mags...           
     - You said if the line     

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     was still there today,     
          you'd ask him         

105
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   because the random rotation  
  of bosses you're saddled with 

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     won't work with getting    
      your life organized.      

107
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     - Yeah, just chill out.    
 I've been here for two minutes.

108
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   - 22, and you're stalling.   
 - Oh, my God, I'm not stalling.

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     It's just, like, being     
      a few weeks... late.      

110
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      It's not a big deal.      
    Remember two months ago?    

111
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         Do you remember        
     two months before that?    

112
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  - Yeah, those times you were  
  only late three or four days. 

113
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   - Oh, look, my abdo trauma.  
            - June...           

114
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    - Natalia Bury, 51. BP's    
     holding at 105 over 75,    
        heart rate's 170.       

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    Left upper quadrant pain.   
   She was right underneath it  
          when it fell.         

116
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     - When the cloud fell.     
  - Okay, Natalia, look at me.  

117
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 Can you tell me where it hurts?
      - Please, find Danny.     

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     - Is Danny a loved one?    

119
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       - Did she just say       
     the cloud fell on her?     

120
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   - She means the billboard.   
   The mechanical sky diorama   
    thing around the corner.    

121
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 - It's okay, Natalia, I'll get 
     somebody to find Danny.    

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            - Bashir?           

123
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       - I can reschedule       
     if you need all hands.     

124
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   - We'll be fine. But I got   
   a call from public health.   

125
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   Out of province this time.   
  Some kind of chemical spill,  

126
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  and they asked if you'd call  
        the doctor there        

127
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      since there's overlap     
      with your experience.     

128
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   - Okay, I'll get in touch.   

129
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 - Good luck at St. Agnes today.

130
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       - Three lacerations      
      from shattered glass,     
         four fractures,        

131
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       and the guy in five      
      has electrical burns.     

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     - Hopefully, this ends     
    as quickly as it started.   

133
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   - Uh, displaced elbow needs  
   imaging and fluids, Rhoda.   

134
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       If you're swamped,       
         I can do both.         

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         - Thanks, Theo.        
 - Fluids for a displaced elbow?

136
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        - Well, she's 17,       
     and I think struggling     
    with an eating disorder.    

137
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       - And you want her       
        admitted for it?        

138
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  - Hard to know. I saw lanugo, 
  dry skin, her cycle stopped.  

139
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  I tried getting her talking,  
but she stonewalled pretty hard.

140
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       - Maybe send in the      
    adolescence psychiatrist.   

141
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       Someone more suited      
   to tactfully break through   
        that stone wall.        

142
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       - Uh, sure, if you       
       think that's best.       

143
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            - Great!            

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     - Dr. Hamed? Jay Penney.   

145
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    I'm a doctor in the north   
           of Labrador,         

146
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        and the provincial      
   health officer said you have 
       some expertise here?     

147
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 - Dr. Penney, are you alright? 
    - Thing is, I don't know.   

148
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    We had a truck crash about  
      four hours ago, okay?     

149
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       The driver was dead.     
       At first, we figured     
       it was just trauma,      

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   but eventually, we realized  
    he was hauling pesticides   

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     which shared properties    
           with sarin.          

152
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        Is that something       
         you know about?        

153
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 - I have experience there, yes.

154
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        Uh, how large is        
       the exposure area?       

155
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      Are you seeing people     
         with symptoms?         

156
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   - I started seeing patients  

157
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    with respiratory problems.  

158
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        - Okay, you need        
     a decontamination team.    

159
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    Um, do you know the exact   
      name of the chemical?     

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       - Uh, I'll find out.     

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     I'm told they're coming,   
                             bu.

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      And I'm two years out     
    of residency and the only   
    doctor for 500 kilometres.  

163
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    I need somebody to talk me  
                              t.

164
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          - He's dead!          
       I think he's dead!       

165
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  - Carmen, grab a crash cart.  

166
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     - Oh, my God, Dad, no!     
     - What happened, ma'am?    

167
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  - We've been here all night.  
     I just left for an hour    
    to take my kid to school.   

168
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  No, no, he didn't want that.  

169
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            Is he...            

170
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    - I'm very sorry, ma'am.    

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   - He came to you for help.   
    How could you let him die   

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    in the hall like a piece    
    of garbage? Shame on you!   

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   - All the guy has up there   
      is a part-time nurse      
      and some volunteers.      

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 He needs mitigation strategies.

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      - I'm away for what,      
        like a fortnight?       

176
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      And already the guy's     
       got a side hustle?       

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 - Dr. Novak, you left Trauma OR

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        to go back to ICU       
         six months ago.        

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    - Has it been that long?    
   No wonder I'm so charmingly  
           refreshed.           

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 - How many people were exposed?
       - They don't know.       

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   The truck crashed downwind   
        of a small town.        

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     Houses, local business,    
   and a K through 12 school.   

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     It's blocking the only     
        road out of town.       

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  - Organophosphate pesticides  
   cause everything from resp   
     distress to paralysis.     

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  - I'd recommend a full-scale  
    evacuation of half a mile   
       in every direction,      

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      but they're so remote     
that medevac and decontamination
   teams are still hours away.  

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     - A vapour is gonna get    
     into the low-line areas    
   so higher ground is better.  

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     - Yeah, large exposure,    
     it'll start interacting    

189
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     with the nervous system    
       within 10 minutes.       

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       - If it's inhaled,       
     I told them to look out    

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   for pin-point pupils, runny  
  nose, broncho-constrictions-- 

192
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   - Fluid accumulation in the  
 airways of the lungs. Dyspnea. 

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 - Do they have any pralidoxime?

194
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      - And a small amount      
          of atropine.          

195
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    Theo, for pediatric dose?   

196
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     - I can get you a crib     
        sheet by weight.        

197
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     - Can you both compile     
   some detailed instructions   

198
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 and text them to me? I'll call 
them on the way to my interview.

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             - Sure.            
        - What interview?       

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          - St. Agnes.          
 - When does your residency end?

201
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         - Three weeks.         
             - Huh.             

202
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  That place is barely a notch  
       above urgent care.       

203
00:08:42,688 --> 00:08:45,458
   It's not really your tempo.  
      Is it... Is it really     
         what you want?         

204
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  - Of the EDs looking, they're 
 the ones I found traction with.

205
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    - Oh. Whatever, just go,    
      and then when it gets     
      intolerable, move on.     

206
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       - No, not everyone       
     is as comfortable with     
    that kind of transience.    

207
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       - Coming from a man      
      whose content to work     

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   for a chief who loathes him  
        and always will.        

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  I mean, welcome to the club,  

210
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       the loathing part,       
      but the content part?     

211
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         That's all you.        
    - Yeah, well, we may have   
   started off a little rocky,  

212
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     but you know, at least     
      I'm trying to fix it.     

213
00:09:10,116 --> 00:09:12,718
 - Aw, denial looks good on ya. 

214
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     - Text me those dosing     
   instructions when you can.   

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            - Yeah...           

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 - He was in late-stage cancer. 
Admitting was trying to find him

217
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   and move him to palliative.  
   And his daughter was upset   
      because he was alone.     

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    - Which nurse found him?    
            - Rhoda.            

219
00:09:26,566 --> 00:09:28,701
  Carmen said she needed five.  
            - Rhoda?            

220
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Needed more than five. She quit.
       - Because of this?       

221
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  - Because nothing works here  
        and she's fed up.       

222
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       - That isn't fair.       
  You know I've made the point  

223
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  our nurses need more support  
         so many times.         

224
00:09:39,712 --> 00:09:42,114
       Admin doesn't even       
        hear it anymore.        

225
00:09:42,848 --> 00:09:45,718
  - You didn't return my texts. 
     - What's there to say?     

226
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  The doctor you referred me to 
    while you were away says    
      I need to taper off.      

227
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          That's fine.          
      - Well, if you're not     

228
00:09:51,524 --> 00:09:53,626
  and you need help doing that  
       or aren't ready to,      

229
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      I still want to help.     
       - I said I'm fine.       

230
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     - Well, we talked about    
        accountability...       

231
00:09:57,730 --> 00:10:00,600
   - Oh, Bishop used to laugh   
   at wide-eyed idealist Mags.  

232
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   He said, one of these days,  
       we're all gonna be       

233
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        working for you.        
            (scoffs)            

234
00:10:04,870 --> 00:10:06,973
        After everything        
      you've been through,      

235
00:10:07,039 --> 00:10:10,142
       I don't understand       
    why'd you even come back    
         to this place.         

236
00:10:12,144 --> 00:10:15,147
  - Natalia Bury, 51 years old, 
       earthquake victim.       

237
00:10:15,214 --> 00:10:17,617
     - They're saying it was    
       a magnitude of 4.1.      

238
00:10:17,683 --> 00:10:19,752
      - CT's saying grade 5     
        shattered spleen.       

239
00:10:19,819 --> 00:10:23,022
       So it's coming out.      
- Laparoscopic for blunt trauma?

240
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 Bold. How'd she take the news? 

241
00:10:24,991 --> 00:10:28,094
   - By the time we were done   
  imagining, she wasn't cogent  
       enough to consent.       

242
00:10:28,160 --> 00:10:31,163
    She was asking for Danny,   
      but Danny's not here.     

243
00:10:31,230 --> 00:10:32,765
   So... If we don't go now...  

244
00:10:32,832 --> 00:10:36,002
- There won't be anywhere to go.
         - Exactly. Pen.        

245
00:10:38,237 --> 00:10:41,073
          (June winces)         
- She been tacky the whole time?

246
00:10:41,140 --> 00:10:43,776
- Just a couple of fluctuations.
            Scalpel.            

247
00:10:43,843 --> 00:10:46,312
- Uh, I don't think I see sinus.

248
00:10:47,179 --> 00:10:50,016
   - You... think she's having  
  a heart attack on the table?  

249
00:10:50,082 --> 00:10:51,884
   Have you seen that before?   
             - Once.            

250
00:10:51,951 --> 00:10:55,788
      We draped and echoed      
     to assess it was truly     
   a wall-motion abnormality.   

251
00:10:55,855 --> 00:10:57,990
     Which is how I suggest     
     we play this one, too.     

252
00:10:58,057 --> 00:11:01,527
      - I, uh... Dr. Singh,     
          I don't know.         

253
00:11:01,594 --> 00:11:03,863
  - June, what are you saying?  

254
00:11:03,929 --> 00:11:07,967
   - I, uh... Okay, I'll just   
     finish with the ports,     
      and then we can stop.     

255
00:11:08,034 --> 00:11:09,769
  - You don't sound convinced.  

256
00:11:09,835 --> 00:11:11,804
       - I'm worried about      
        her hemorrhaging.       

257
00:11:11,871 --> 00:11:13,839
 I would prioritize the spleen. 

258
00:11:13,906 --> 00:11:15,408
        If this is an MI,       
      there's a good chance     

259
00:11:15,474 --> 00:11:16,742
they would treat conservatively.

260
00:11:17,910 --> 00:11:21,947
     - What Dr. Curtis said.    
    Then put her on a 12-lead   
       ECG for visibility.      

261
00:11:22,014 --> 00:11:23,716
     - Dr. Singh, that's not    
          what I meant.         

262
00:11:23,783 --> 00:11:25,451
       I was just trying--      
       - Oh, c'mon, June.       

263
00:11:25,518 --> 00:11:27,053
    As soon as the words were   
       out of your mouth,       

264
00:11:27,119 --> 00:11:30,022
 we both knew I'd been schooled.
  Five millimetres trocar here. 

265
00:11:32,825 --> 00:11:34,760
         (June exhales)         
 Since when do you not speak up 

266
00:11:34,827 --> 00:11:37,096
when you disagree with me, June?

267
00:11:38,297 --> 00:11:43,669
  - I, uh... think I'm gonna go 
    loop cardiology in myself   
        just to be sure.        

268
00:11:44,370 --> 00:11:46,439
          You got this?         
             - I do.            

269
00:11:46,505 --> 00:11:49,909
   I'd like heart rate updates  
      every minute, please.     

270
00:11:49,975 --> 00:11:52,111
            (groans)            

271
00:12:02,855 --> 00:12:06,759
  - You said "no milk," right?  
     - Yes, yes. Thank you.     

272
00:12:06,826 --> 00:12:12,064
      - So... You've toured     
      the department again.     

273
00:12:12,131 --> 00:12:14,100
       Met our whole team.      

274
00:12:14,166 --> 00:12:18,404
            Thoughts?           
- It seems great. And efficient.

275
00:12:18,471 --> 00:12:22,541
        - I know it's not       
   the level one trauma centre  
      that you're used to,      

276
00:12:22,608 --> 00:12:25,344
      but most docs prefer      
         our saner pace.        

277
00:12:25,411 --> 00:12:28,647
 Everyone is very excited about 
   your skills and experience.  

278
00:12:28,714 --> 00:12:30,950
 You're exactly what we've been 
     looking for, Dr. Hamed.    

279
00:12:31,016 --> 00:12:34,386
   And you know how hard it is  
     to get doctors to agree    
          on anything.          

280
00:12:34,453 --> 00:12:36,255
         - I do. Yes...         

281
00:12:36,322 --> 00:12:39,458
  - On that note, I am thrilled 

282
00:12:39,525 --> 00:12:43,429
    to offer you a four-year    
   contract here at St. Agnes.  

283
00:12:43,496 --> 00:12:46,665
        Starting as soon        
     as your residency ends.    

284
00:12:50,669 --> 00:12:53,472
          (soft music)          

285
00:12:57,977 --> 00:13:02,281
  - I'm sorry, Dr. Robitaille,  
       but I can't accept.      

286
00:13:06,018 --> 00:13:08,354
iling)                          

287
00:13:09,755 --> 00:13:11,824
        (phone vibrating)       

288
00:13:12,792 --> 00:13:14,627
            (sighing)           

289
00:13:24,570 --> 00:13:26,672
      - Uh, Dr. Curtis, hi!     

290
00:13:26,739 --> 00:13:29,441
        They said you're        
          the doctor...         

291
00:13:29,508 --> 00:13:31,043
         surgeon-person         
      responsible for her.      

292
00:13:31,110 --> 00:13:33,546
      - One of them, yeah,      
      but what do you need?     

293
00:13:33,612 --> 00:13:35,281
     - Well, I need to know     
     what the hell happened?    

294
00:13:35,347 --> 00:13:37,516
   I mean, I get out of class   
   to find out she had surgery  

295
00:13:37,583 --> 00:13:40,286
       and a heart attack.      
       - Oh, you're Danny.      

296
00:13:40,352 --> 00:13:45,257
  Right, uh... Our cardiac team 
  is assessing how much damage, 

297
00:13:45,324 --> 00:13:48,928
  if any, was caused by the MI. 
     - Okay, and her spleen?    

298
00:13:48,994 --> 00:13:51,931
    Like, does she even know?   
  Aren't you supposed to check  

299
00:13:51,997 --> 00:13:53,432
         before you rip         
      something out of a...     

300
00:13:53,499 --> 00:13:55,768
       Is that her stuff?       
            - No, no.           

301
00:13:55,835 --> 00:13:59,972
   Look, a billboard collapsed  
    on your mother triggering   
      this chain of events.     

302
00:14:00,039 --> 00:14:03,542
     - She's my girlfriend!     
         Not my mother.         

303
00:14:03,609 --> 00:14:06,078
     You should know better     
         than to assume.        

304
00:14:06,145 --> 00:14:07,813
          - I gotta go.         

305
00:14:13,219 --> 00:14:14,687
            (sighing)           

306
00:14:14,753 --> 00:14:17,823
     - How did this happen?     
   - Hold on, I'm almost done.  

307
00:14:17,890 --> 00:14:21,627
    - He said it was a small    
 explosion in a shed or a garage
     during the earthquake.     

308
00:14:21,694 --> 00:14:25,297
     Paramedics said he was     
 hemo unstable so they gave him 
        a bolus of fluid.       

309
00:14:25,364 --> 00:14:27,533
      (indistinct chatter)      

310
00:14:28,567 --> 00:14:30,669
            (wincing)           

311
00:14:32,371 --> 00:14:34,773
    - Okay, how many fingers?   
           - No idea!           

312
00:14:34,840 --> 00:14:36,842
   Take this, it's everything   
   you need to find the girl.   

313
00:14:36,909 --> 00:14:39,745
        - BPs 90 over 60.       
          - What girl?          

314
00:14:39,812 --> 00:14:41,714
 - Uh, I was looking for my cat.

315
00:14:41,780 --> 00:14:45,451
     He got out when I heard    
     a rattling in a laneway    
      garage so I went in.      

316
00:14:45,517 --> 00:14:48,687
     Then the ground started    
   shaking, rumbling, then...   

317
00:14:48,754 --> 00:14:50,823
        I think there was       
      an explosion, but...      

318
00:14:50,890 --> 00:14:53,092
    But before I blacked out,   
           I saw her.           

319
00:14:53,158 --> 00:14:54,426
           - Your cat?          
              - No!             

320
00:14:54,493 --> 00:14:58,998
  A girl, she looked about 16,  
      tied to a drain pipe.     

321
00:14:59,064 --> 00:15:01,433
 I remember thinking, "Why would
     a shed have plumbing?"     

322
00:15:01,500 --> 00:15:03,869
  - Arnold, let's start another 
    line. Let's get it fast!    

323
00:15:03,936 --> 00:15:07,006
     And, uh, 50 milligrams     
         dimenhydrinate.        

324
00:15:07,072 --> 00:15:09,909
 - You need to find her. I tried
 telling the paramedics, but... 

325
00:15:09,975 --> 00:15:11,677
        - Gauze, Carmen.        
             - Yup.             

326
00:15:11,744 --> 00:15:14,413
  - There's internal bleeding,  
      then there's risk of      
          losing more.          

327
00:15:14,480 --> 00:15:16,015
             - Yeah.            
      - She was terrified.      

328
00:15:16,081 --> 00:15:18,684
    - You have to move faster   
       than that, Carmen.       

329
00:15:18,751 --> 00:15:22,855
       - Yeah, I'm trying!      
   - Arnold, we need morphine,  
    tetanus, and ceftriaxone.   

330
00:15:22,922 --> 00:15:24,423
     - Got it, and I already    
          paged optho.          

331
00:15:24,490 --> 00:15:26,492
          - Thank you.          
  - Hey! The girl is in danger, 

332
00:15:26,558 --> 00:15:29,762
 you need to call the cops! Now!
    - BPs down to 65 over 35.   

333
00:15:29,828 --> 00:15:32,398
  - He's in hypovolemic shock.  
          Activate MTP.         

334
00:15:32,464 --> 00:15:34,400
    - Prep two rounds of EPI.   
          - No, no epi.         

335
00:15:34,466 --> 00:15:37,870
     Let me call it, Carmen.    
    We need two milligrams of   
  lorazepam, two grams of TXA.  

336
00:15:37,937 --> 00:15:40,506
        - Blood's ready.        
 - What if the seizure dislodges

337
00:15:40,572 --> 00:15:43,042
      the thing in his eye?     
- We just need to get him stable

338
00:15:43,108 --> 00:15:44,510
     and hope for the best.     

339
00:15:49,248 --> 00:15:50,549
            (sighing)           

340
00:15:50,616 --> 00:15:52,918
  - Pressure's coming back up.  
         - OR for a lap?        

341
00:15:52,985 --> 00:15:56,588
    - No, CT. We need to see    
   how deep his eye injury is.  

342
00:15:58,057 --> 00:16:01,360
     - Um, Dr. Hamed, I get     
     that maybe a code isn't    
         the best time,         

343
00:16:01,427 --> 00:16:04,229
      but I need to learn.      
   So anytime there's anything  
      you need me to do...      

344
00:16:04,296 --> 00:16:06,198
 - Yeah, I'll keep that in mind,
         Carmen, thanks.        

345
00:16:06,265 --> 00:16:09,768
           Hey, Shawn,          
    I'll call about the girl.   
        Okay? I promise.        

346
00:16:09,835 --> 00:16:12,538
   - I just need to make sure   
           she's okay.          

347
00:16:17,609 --> 00:16:20,612
          (tense music)         

348
00:16:24,083 --> 00:16:26,151
         (kids playing)         

349
00:16:26,218 --> 00:16:27,653
            - Amira!            

350
00:16:29,154 --> 00:16:31,156
             Amira!             
           (in Arabic)          

351
00:16:44,503 --> 00:16:47,573
      - Are you the father?     
  You can't leave a kid her age 
       in the park alone.       

352
00:16:47,639 --> 00:16:49,575
      - I understand that,      
       I just got held up.      

353
00:16:49,641 --> 00:16:52,378
      Anyway, I'm here now.     
   Thank you for your concern.  

354
00:16:52,444 --> 00:16:54,146
        - You can tell me       
        if you need help.       

355
00:16:54,213 --> 00:16:55,981
      Are you okay, honey?      

356
00:16:56,048 --> 00:16:57,616
       - I think I'm gonna      
        call the police.        

357
00:16:57,683 --> 00:16:59,351
          - No, no, no.         
 Please, please, don't do that. 

358
00:16:59,418 --> 00:17:01,353
 Look, I work at the restaurant 
      just down the street.     

359
00:17:01,420 --> 00:17:04,123
      You can go ask them.      
     I had a phone interview    
        for another job.        

360
00:17:04,189 --> 00:17:08,127
      I'm really a doctor.      
   My shift ran late so I had   
   to take the call from work.  

361
00:17:08,193 --> 00:17:09,962
             Please.            

362
00:17:10,029 --> 00:17:12,331
       - He's my brother.       

363
00:17:14,266 --> 00:17:17,736
           (in Arabic)          

364
00:17:25,411 --> 00:17:27,980
  - But did they tell you that  
 I am 43 and that my father died

365
00:17:28,047 --> 00:17:30,816
    of a stroke at that age,    
    and his father did, too?    

366
00:17:30,883 --> 00:17:34,319
  - Well, with a family history 
    like that, it makes sense   
   that you would be worried.   

367
00:17:34,386 --> 00:17:36,688
       But can you please       
        sit down, Harper?       

368
00:17:37,823 --> 00:17:40,125
  - I eat healthy, I exercise.  

369
00:17:40,192 --> 00:17:41,627
  I don't smoke like they did.  

370
00:17:41,693 --> 00:17:44,029
 I have done everything I could 
      to avoid their fate.      

371
00:17:44,096 --> 00:17:47,266
           - Harper--           
    - But it's just been like   
   this cloud on the horizon.   

372
00:17:47,332 --> 00:17:49,668
     And, you know, I guess     
      there's just nothing      
   I could've done to stop it.  

373
00:17:49,735 --> 00:17:51,837
            - Harper!           
  You are not having a stroke.  

374
00:17:51,904 --> 00:17:54,239
     - How do you know that?    
    - Well, the night doctor    

375
00:17:54,306 --> 00:17:56,642
     sent you for a CT-angio    
        as a code stroke,       

376
00:17:56,708 --> 00:17:58,577
      and there is no clot      
   or bleeding in your brain.   

377
00:17:58,644 --> 00:18:00,546
        We had an influx        
 of urgent patients this morning

378
00:18:00,612 --> 00:18:03,415
   because of the earthquake.   
      So it took a while to     
  get your results back, but--  

379
00:18:03,482 --> 00:18:06,151
      - That stuff, though,     
  it rules out a stroke? 100%?  

380
00:18:06,218 --> 00:18:09,154
  - Together with the clinical  
   exam and the negative CTA,   

381
00:18:09,221 --> 00:18:10,956
     it's the tool we have,     
         I'm confident.         

382
00:18:11,023 --> 00:18:13,025
    - That's not good enough,   
    my arm is still tingling.   

383
00:18:13,092 --> 00:18:15,194
  - That could be for a number  
        of minor reasons.       

384
00:18:15,260 --> 00:18:17,129
 Viral, stress, a pinched nerve.

385
00:18:17,196 --> 00:18:19,398
       - What gets us the       
        rest of the way?        

386
00:18:19,465 --> 00:18:22,067
    - I could ask for an MRI    
  or have neurology come down,  

387
00:18:22,134 --> 00:18:24,670
       but I'm telling you      
    it's gonna be non-urgent.   

388
00:18:24,736 --> 00:18:27,106
  - Please, it's been too long  
     thinking this is coming    

389
00:18:27,172 --> 00:18:30,075
  to just accept that it isn't  
    without doing everything    

390
00:18:30,142 --> 00:18:32,010
     that I can to make sure    
         that it's not.         

391
00:18:32,077 --> 00:18:34,513
 - Okay, Harper. Just settle in 
     for that wait, alright?    

392
00:18:36,215 --> 00:18:38,383
    I texted like five times,   
         what the hell?         

393
00:18:38,450 --> 00:18:41,320
     - Yeah, I know, I just,    
          uh... Thanks.         

394
00:18:41,386 --> 00:18:43,489
     They made me an offer.     
             - Okay.            

395
00:18:43,555 --> 00:18:45,357
       - I turned it down.      
             - What?            

396
00:18:45,424 --> 00:18:48,794
      - I know. Obviously,      
     it was stupid, but I...    

397
00:18:48,861 --> 00:18:50,529
          I don't know          
      what I was thinking.      

398
00:18:50,596 --> 00:18:52,498
    I'm trying to understand    
          why I did it.         

399
00:18:52,564 --> 00:18:56,335
        - Okay, hold on.        
   I... just was not expecting  
     you to say that, but--     

400
00:18:56,401 --> 00:18:58,504
     - Bash? They took Shawn    
       to image his head,       

401
00:18:58,570 --> 00:19:01,773
     but you'll want to hear    
    what the cops said about    
       the girl he found.       

402
00:19:01,840 --> 00:19:03,342
             - Okay.            

403
00:19:03,408 --> 00:19:05,844
              - Go.             
            - Thanks.           

404
00:19:05,911 --> 00:19:07,346
          - I wanna know        
       what you're gonna do     

405
00:19:07,412 --> 00:19:09,581
    to make sure no one else    
  ever has to go through this.  

406
00:19:09,648 --> 00:19:11,550
    And if you can't tell me,   
     I'm going to the press,    

407
00:19:11,617 --> 00:19:13,519
     so people can find out     
      what kind of tragic,      

408
00:19:13,585 --> 00:19:17,556
 irresponsible operation you're 
 running and something changes. 

409
00:19:20,592 --> 00:19:22,294
         - Are you okay?        

410
00:19:22,361 --> 00:19:24,129
    - Did you need something?   

411
00:19:24,196 --> 00:19:28,167
   - Uh, actually, I just came  
    to check in on how things   
        have been going,        

412
00:19:28,233 --> 00:19:30,669
        but it seems like       
        a bad time, I...        

413
00:19:32,938 --> 00:19:34,473
              Um...             

414
00:19:35,741 --> 00:19:40,979
     Look, I have personally    
    felt that my performance    
         has been solid.        

415
00:19:41,046 --> 00:19:42,614
            - Uh-huh.           
             - Good.            

416
00:19:42,681 --> 00:19:48,587
      And, um, I'm aware of     
 the ground I had to cover to...

417
00:19:48,654 --> 00:19:50,389
   to build trust between us.   

418
00:19:50,455 --> 00:19:52,891
 - You've certainly been making 
       a concerted effort.      

419
00:19:53,592 --> 00:19:55,827
         - Okay, just...        

420
00:19:55,894 --> 00:19:59,097
      I mean, you say that,     
      but it sounds like...     

421
00:20:00,065 --> 00:20:02,701
   For example, earlier today,  
   you suggested that I bring   

422
00:20:02,768 --> 00:20:05,304
      psych in on my eating     
        disorder patient?       

423
00:20:05,370 --> 00:20:07,005
          - You agreed          
      that was a good idea.     

424
00:20:07,072 --> 00:20:10,142
 - Except, I am actually capable
    of talking to my patients   

425
00:20:10,209 --> 00:20:13,512
 about sensitive issues. I have 
   been doing it successfully   

426
00:20:13,579 --> 00:20:15,080
        for a long time.        

427
00:20:15,147 --> 00:20:18,550
    - You want to hear me say   
 that I am aware of that, Theo? 

428
00:20:18,617 --> 00:20:22,721
        Fine. I'm aware.        
   - I'm a nice guy, Dr. Devi.  

429
00:20:23,455 --> 00:20:28,360
     If you can't see that,     
    maybe the problem is you.   

430
00:20:29,027 --> 00:20:31,029
         - Maybe it is.         

431
00:20:35,534 --> 00:20:37,936
             - Huh.             
       Took an earthquake       

432
00:20:38,003 --> 00:20:40,405
  for everyone in ED to realize 
     that they miss me, eh?     

433
00:20:40,472 --> 00:20:41,873
         - Can we talk?         

434
00:20:44,343 --> 00:20:45,877
             - Yeah.            

435
00:20:46,945 --> 00:20:49,081
       So I noticed Singh       
       covering Trauma OR.      

436
00:20:49,147 --> 00:20:52,050
 I'm guessing you're wanting him
 to take over for me full-time. 

437
00:20:52,117 --> 00:20:54,286
          - Yeah. I do.         

438
00:20:54,353 --> 00:20:57,289
- He's a reliable choice, that's
    what you said you needed.   

439
00:20:57,356 --> 00:21:00,192
    - What I need is for you    
      to write me a script      
        for misoprostol.        

440
00:21:00,259 --> 00:21:04,696
  - Oh. Ulcer prevention or...? 

441
00:21:04,763 --> 00:21:07,432
       - The other thing.       
   - Did you change your mind   
       about having a kid?      

442
00:21:07,499 --> 00:21:11,203
   Uh, just that circumstance   
         affects dosage.        

443
00:21:11,270 --> 00:21:16,308
  - My body changed it for me.  
       So I think 600 mcg.      

444
00:21:16,375 --> 00:21:19,378
    I wasn't that far along.    
     Already self-assessed.     

445
00:21:19,444 --> 00:21:21,680
       I don't want to do       
   the watchful waiting thing.  

446
00:21:21,747 --> 00:21:24,283
 I just wanna put it behind me. 

447
00:21:25,050 --> 00:21:27,419
            - June...           
        - Please, don't.        

448
00:21:27,486 --> 00:21:31,690
      I came to you because     
      you're the one person     
   who won't make me do that.   

449
00:21:33,625 --> 00:21:35,360
             - Okay.            

450
00:21:36,161 --> 00:21:39,164
       I'll put it through      
       for you right away.      

451
00:21:45,704 --> 00:21:49,007
       I'm told evac teams      
    are navigating their way    
    around highway closures,    

452
00:21:49,074 --> 00:21:52,844
   but they are on their way.   
    Call me or text me if you   
     need anything, alright?    

453
00:21:55,681 --> 00:21:58,817
           Hey, Shawn.          
     So how are you feeling?    

454
00:21:58,884 --> 00:22:02,154
         - It's getting         
     a little uncomfortable,    
      not turning my head.      

455
00:22:02,220 --> 00:22:05,691
   - I bet. But they needed to  
 make sure that you're bleeding 

456
00:22:05,757 --> 00:22:08,327
        was stable before       
     operating on your eye.     

457
00:22:08,393 --> 00:22:10,962
      - Did they find her?      
            The girl?           

458
00:22:11,029 --> 00:22:15,167
        - Uh, about that,       
     we spoke to the police,    
  they checked out the garage.  

459
00:22:15,233 --> 00:22:20,572
  Uh, Shawn, there is no girl.  

460
00:22:20,639 --> 00:22:22,808
       - What do you mean?      
          She escaped?          

461
00:22:22,874 --> 00:22:24,576
   - No, there never was one.   

462
00:22:24,643 --> 00:22:27,779
   The garage that you went to  
 was owned by an elderly couple,

463
00:22:27,846 --> 00:22:30,916
        who feel terrible       
      about the compressor      
    which had been rattling.    

464
00:22:30,982 --> 00:22:33,051
           The husband          
      is a handyman, and--      

465
00:22:33,118 --> 00:22:35,687
  - Because they're an elderly  
    couple, there's no girl?    

466
00:22:36,455 --> 00:22:38,724
      Maybe they moved her      
      from the drain pipe.      

467
00:22:38,790 --> 00:22:41,360
    - They checked. There are   
     no pipes in this place.    

468
00:22:41,426 --> 00:22:43,395
     And the security camera    
         confirms this.         

469
00:22:43,462 --> 00:22:45,097
          - I saw her.          

470
00:22:45,163 --> 00:22:47,632
    I can see her so clearly,   

471
00:22:47,699 --> 00:22:50,168
      right now in my mind.     

472
00:22:50,802 --> 00:22:54,005
          You're saying         
       this is a delusion?      

473
00:22:54,072 --> 00:22:56,575
    - Likely a hallucination    
      due to brain injury.      

474
00:22:56,641 --> 00:22:59,745
   - Why would my mind even...  

475
00:22:59,811 --> 00:23:01,780
     - Sometimes we project.    

476
00:23:01,847 --> 00:23:04,483
   I mean, do you think there   
     could be anything else     
          that might...         

477
00:23:04,549 --> 00:23:06,084
   You said you lost your cat.  

478
00:23:06,151 --> 00:23:08,854
     - Yeah, but he gets out    
          all the time.         

479
00:23:08,920 --> 00:23:12,124
         I'm home a lot,        
   in between jobs right now.   

480
00:23:12,190 --> 00:23:14,659
   I think he kind of hates me  
        and needs space.        

481
00:23:14,726 --> 00:23:18,430
       Wait... I invented       
         a girl to save         

482
00:23:18,497 --> 00:23:20,298
 because my cat doesn't need me?

483
00:23:20,365 --> 00:23:23,668
 - The good news is you can now 
  focus on the things you need. 

484
00:23:23,735 --> 00:23:27,038
  Which means letting your body 
     heal from this trauma.     

485
00:23:28,573 --> 00:23:31,877
- Heard you were looking for me.
        How's the elbow?        

486
00:23:31,943 --> 00:23:34,646
     - Why'd you pawn me off    
       on a psychiatrist?       

487
00:23:34,713 --> 00:23:36,415
        - You brought me        
        here to complain.       

488
00:23:36,481 --> 00:23:39,084
 Yet, you didn't seem to really 
   want to talk to me earlier.  

489
00:23:39,151 --> 00:23:41,119
 - I don't wanna talk to anyone.

490
00:23:41,186 --> 00:23:43,822
        Now I'm admitted        
        and trapped here.       

491
00:23:43,889 --> 00:23:46,892
 I'll miss exams and everything 
   I'm working for is ruined.   

492
00:23:46,958 --> 00:23:49,428
      - I get you're upset.     
    But Charlotte, this isn't   
    something you can ignore.   

493
00:23:49,494 --> 00:23:53,064
    - I worked out a system.    
    Restrict to stay focused,   

494
00:23:53,131 --> 00:23:56,935
     then after every exam,     
  eat enough to start all over. 

495
00:23:57,002 --> 00:23:59,738
         - And what did         
      the psychiatrist say?     

496
00:23:59,805 --> 00:24:02,974
   - That it's perfectionism,   
       or anxiety, or OCD,      

497
00:24:03,041 --> 00:24:06,678
     and I suck at dealing.     
    That's all they ever say.   

498
00:24:06,745 --> 00:24:10,649
       This is why I want       
    to be a doctor, to think    
     outside the stupid box.    

499
00:24:10,715 --> 00:24:13,218
    - Well, then, start now.    
       What do you think?       

500
00:24:13,285 --> 00:24:17,189
  - I think... you guys always  
     need something to fix.     

501
00:24:17,255 --> 00:24:22,828
       And when you can't       
   or I can't or there isn't,   
    the cycle just restarts.    

502
00:24:22,894 --> 00:24:26,298
   - And do your parents know?  
        - Since I was 12.       

503
00:24:26,364 --> 00:24:29,034
        They watch me get       
       better then worse.       

504
00:24:29,100 --> 00:24:32,204
     It kills me every time     
        I let them down.        

505
00:24:32,270 --> 00:24:35,941
 I was hoping you'd call for me.

506
00:24:36,007 --> 00:24:39,911
     - So I'm not only here     
     for you to yell at me.     

507
00:24:39,978 --> 00:24:42,481
          - I just like         
      how you didn't push.      

508
00:24:42,547 --> 00:24:44,983
      - Have you ever heard     
   of family-based treatment?   

509
00:24:45,050 --> 00:24:47,385
    It means your mom and dad   
      keep you accountable,     

510
00:24:47,452 --> 00:24:50,655
        and it decouples        
      eating disorders from     
      psychological causes.     

511
00:24:50,722 --> 00:24:52,524
       - Why hasn't anyone      
          suggested it?         

512
00:24:52,591 --> 00:24:54,593
     - Because not everyone     
        subscribes to it.       

513
00:24:54,659 --> 00:24:58,263
     And your family really     
   has to want to be an active  
      part of the process.      

514
00:24:58,330 --> 00:25:04,436
       - They do. Only...       
   it's kind of too late since  
  I'm stuck in inpatient jail.  

515
00:25:05,670 --> 00:25:07,839
      - How often are they      
        checking on you?        

516
00:25:07,906 --> 00:25:11,343
    - Maybe it was something    
 that Novak said about St. Agnes

517
00:25:11,409 --> 00:25:14,112
     being low stakes that's    
      just rattling in my--     

518
00:25:14,179 --> 00:25:16,882
       - Okay, just pause.      
 Just... Tell me what happened. 

519
00:25:16,948 --> 00:25:18,984
  - They offered me everything. 

520
00:25:19,050 --> 00:25:21,686
     Everything I've worked     
     for since I came here.     

521
00:25:21,753 --> 00:25:23,021
        Just here you go.       

522
00:25:23,088 --> 00:25:27,058
 And... then I got this feeling 
     that it wasn't for me.     

523
00:25:27,125 --> 00:25:29,828
  And I should know better than 
  to listen to these impulses.  

524
00:25:29,895 --> 00:25:34,332
 It was selfish and, and stupid.
     - No, so what, though?     

525
00:25:34,399 --> 00:25:37,068
         Why do you keep        
       punishing yourse--       

526
00:25:37,135 --> 00:25:40,972
      - Hey, guys! Mags...      
             - Yes.             

527
00:25:41,039 --> 00:25:43,975
       - Echo looks good,       
        bloods are good.        

528
00:25:44,042 --> 00:25:46,177
        Stress test, too.       
            - Great.            

529
00:25:46,244 --> 00:25:49,347
   Great because I feel good.   
   Energy levels, everything.   

530
00:25:49,414 --> 00:25:51,550
             - Nice.            
   - Did you still want to do   

531
00:25:51,616 --> 00:25:54,653
the endomyocardial biopsy today?
 - What time is your shift over?

532
00:25:54,719 --> 00:25:56,922
           - At seven.          
        - But if you can        
     squeeze it in earlier,     

533
00:25:56,988 --> 00:25:59,758
  I'll take over her patients.  
    - I love the way you two    

534
00:25:59,824 --> 00:26:01,560
     attack this as a team.     

535
00:26:01,626 --> 00:26:03,795
         All my post-ops        
       should be so lucky.      

536
00:26:03,862 --> 00:26:07,499
  Let's do it after your shift. 
    I can have you out fast.    

537
00:26:07,566 --> 00:26:09,834
             - Okay.            
          - Dr. Zhang.          

538
00:26:09,901 --> 00:26:12,170
     She's had four biopsies    
         in six months.         

539
00:26:12,237 --> 00:26:14,806
    At what point can we stop   
    worrying about rejection?   

540
00:26:14,873 --> 00:26:18,176
     - Now, at every point.     

541
00:26:18,243 --> 00:26:20,345
     Easier said than done.     

542
00:26:20,412 --> 00:26:22,881
   But try not to worry about   
  something you can't control.  

543
00:26:29,354 --> 00:26:32,991
        - Is that even--        
   - I'm trying, I really am.   

544
00:26:33,058 --> 00:26:36,094
       - You were saying?       
       - I was asking you       

545
00:26:36,161 --> 00:26:37,796
why you keep punishing yourself.

546
00:26:39,064 --> 00:26:42,701
        - Five years ago,       
    I made us leave Elliot's    

547
00:26:42,767 --> 00:26:45,704
    because I was frustrated    
     and acted impulsively.     

548
00:26:45,770 --> 00:26:47,439
     We were between places.    

549
00:26:47,505 --> 00:26:51,476
   - Where were you sleeping?   
   - Khaled lent us his couch.  

550
00:26:52,310 --> 00:26:55,113
    Amira was at a playground   
             one day            

551
00:26:55,180 --> 00:26:57,682
       and a job interview      
        ran long, and...        

552
00:26:57,749 --> 00:27:01,453
      a stranger accused me     
  of being a negligent parent.  

553
00:27:01,519 --> 00:27:05,123
    - That is the last thing    
    you could ever be called.   

554
00:27:05,190 --> 00:27:09,160
  - It was that day I realized  
      I couldn't requalify      

555
00:27:09,227 --> 00:27:11,896
 and keep a roof over our heads 
       so I went full-time      

556
00:27:11,963 --> 00:27:16,167
        at the restaurant       
      and gave up any hopes     
    of being a doctor again.    

557
00:27:32,684 --> 00:27:36,287
       you'll feel tired,       
      shortness of breath.      

558
00:27:36,354 --> 00:27:37,856
  She's gonna need help, Danny. 

559
00:27:37,922 --> 00:27:40,091
        - How long until        
     she's her regular self?    

560
00:27:40,158 --> 00:27:42,794
       - Couple of months.      
      Post-surgery, you'll      
      want to take it easy.     

561
00:27:42,861 --> 00:27:46,264
  You said shortness of breath, 
     is that why I'm having     
     trouble breathing now?     

562
00:27:46,331 --> 00:27:50,001
     - Uh, can you just turn    
   your head... the other way?  

563
00:27:50,869 --> 00:27:55,206
      It looks like, uh...      
        Are those hives?        

564
00:27:55,273 --> 00:27:56,841
      - She may be reacting     
       to the medication?       

565
00:27:56,908 --> 00:28:00,145
 - When you say she needs help, 
  like, uh... getting dressed?  

566
00:28:00,211 --> 00:28:01,746
  Like, she, I mean, she can... 

567
00:28:01,813 --> 00:28:03,615
       go to the bathroom       
     by herself, I imagine.     

568
00:28:03,682 --> 00:28:06,551
       - She's barely 50,       
       nobody's suggesting      
     she'll be incontinent.     

569
00:28:06,618 --> 00:28:08,253
      - I look out for you      
      all the time, Danny.      

570
00:28:08,319 --> 00:28:10,655
   Is it really that horrific   
    to have to look after me    
          for a month?          

571
00:28:10,722 --> 00:28:12,157
       - Didn't say that.       
      Don't get mad at me.      

572
00:28:12,223 --> 00:28:14,759
  - Yeah, did you know you were 
     allergic to bee stings?    

573
00:28:14,826 --> 00:28:17,328
          - Yeah, why?          
           Is that...           

574
00:28:17,395 --> 00:28:19,497
    - It's like, how did you    
      not feel the stinger?     

575
00:28:19,564 --> 00:28:21,032
       This is why you had      
        the heart attack.       

576
00:28:21,099 --> 00:28:22,267
        - Are you saying        
        this is my fault?       

577
00:28:22,333 --> 00:28:24,736
      - Uh, what June means     
     is that in rare cases,     

578
00:28:24,803 --> 00:28:26,805
     these things can cause     
         Kounis syndrome        

579
00:28:26,871 --> 00:28:29,708
   which leads to the release   
    of inflammatory cytokines   

580
00:28:29,774 --> 00:28:32,544
     and can cause coronary     
        artery vasospasm.       

581
00:28:32,610 --> 00:28:36,381
 - So while the billboard fell, 
      a bee also stung me?      

582
00:28:36,448 --> 00:28:39,350
   - I mean, like, whoa, what?  

583
00:28:39,417 --> 00:28:41,453
           So weird...          
     - Just get out, Danny.     

584
00:28:41,519 --> 00:28:44,255
      - No, I didn't do it.     
   Nah, I didn't do anything.   

585
00:28:44,322 --> 00:28:47,292
      - Leave! Just... go.      
            - C'mon.            

586
00:28:47,358 --> 00:28:49,661
   You don't have to do this.   

587
00:28:52,263 --> 00:28:55,467
   - Hey, I figured you bailed  
        right after you--       

588
00:28:55,533 --> 00:28:57,569
     - Quit in a fiery rage?    

589
00:28:57,635 --> 00:29:00,772
 I hope I didn't screw you guys 
  with the earthquake fallout.  

590
00:29:00,839 --> 00:29:03,141
       - No, it blew over       
     pretty quickly, but...     

591
00:29:03,208 --> 00:29:07,445
     Look, I know it sucks.     
       The man who died...      

592
00:29:07,512 --> 00:29:10,915
        - It's not that.        
    I quit because of Claire.   

593
00:29:10,982 --> 00:29:15,687
     Look, every few months,    
 this place gets to be too much 
     and I say I'm leaving.     

594
00:29:15,754 --> 00:29:18,490
And Claire always talks me down.

595
00:29:18,556 --> 00:29:20,525
           This time,           
     she didn't even blink.     

596
00:29:20,592 --> 00:29:23,328
       - I know she hasn't      
      been herself lately.      

597
00:29:24,896 --> 00:29:27,165
         - It's because         
       of the drugs, Mags.      

598
00:29:27,232 --> 00:29:29,901
      I hate to betray her,     
      but you should know.      

599
00:29:29,968 --> 00:29:33,071
            - I did.            
    Right before my surgery,    

600
00:29:33,138 --> 00:29:35,273
        I offered to help       
      with pain management.     

601
00:29:35,340 --> 00:29:37,308
       - Well, right now,       
      it's out of control.      

602
00:29:37,375 --> 00:29:39,177
    - I'm really sorry, Mags.   

603
00:29:39,244 --> 00:29:40,678
  Harper's MRI came back clean  

604
00:29:40,745 --> 00:29:42,914
       and I know you said      
     to prep for discharge.     

605
00:29:42,981 --> 00:29:45,583
   - My arm is still tingling.  
      So if you can't redo      

606
00:29:45,650 --> 00:29:47,385
      those tests tonight,      
    I can come back tomorrow.   

607
00:29:47,452 --> 00:29:51,055
  - Or you could refer me, I--  
   - No. It's a pinched nerve.  

608
00:29:51,122 --> 00:29:54,259
    If you want a follow-up,    
          ask your GP.          

609
00:29:54,325 --> 00:29:57,428
        I know it's hard,       
  but you have to try to accept 

610
00:29:57,495 --> 00:30:00,965
 the fact that there is no cloud
     on the horizon, Harper.    

611
00:30:09,207 --> 00:30:11,442
  - So... what's going on here? 

612
00:30:11,509 --> 00:30:14,412
   - Mags knows about Claire.   
              - Oh.             

613
00:30:14,479 --> 00:30:16,848
     - The thing is, is that    
   she never actually told us.  

614
00:30:16,915 --> 00:30:20,819
 She has this witness medication
   wastage a few times a week.  

615
00:30:20,885 --> 00:30:24,422
       But in the morning,      
   the count is always wrong.   

616
00:30:24,989 --> 00:30:28,426
- So she's stealing painkillers?
- It's not like we've caught her

617
00:30:28,493 --> 00:30:30,028
      high or messing with      
        patients, but...        

618
00:30:30,094 --> 00:30:33,531
        - She's so lost.        
          - Okay, um...         

619
00:30:34,199 --> 00:30:36,100
        Well, if there's        
       any good news here       

620
00:30:36,167 --> 00:30:38,336
    is that you don't really    
       wanna quit, right?       

621
00:30:38,403 --> 00:30:40,271
          - No. But...          

622
00:30:40,338 --> 00:30:43,675
      If Claire is prepared     
           to let me,           

623
00:30:43,741 --> 00:30:46,644
   what's that say about where  
    this place is right now?    

624
00:30:47,512 --> 00:30:49,447
         (phone chiming)        
   - Hey, Jay, how's it going?  

625
00:30:49,514 --> 00:30:52,250
     - A makeshift quarantine   
  in the church has 14 patients 

626
00:30:52,317 --> 00:30:54,519
     using all the rebreather   
         masks I've got.        

627
00:30:54,586 --> 00:30:57,388
  - Oh, uh, last time we spoke, 
   18 people needed your help.  

628
00:30:57,455 --> 00:31:00,525
    - Well, a few stabilized.   
                             Vos

629
00:31:00,592 --> 00:31:02,493
     and I'm hoping that's it   
          for new cases.        

630
00:31:02,560 --> 00:31:05,296
   But also, because we've used 
    all the atropine we have.   

631
00:31:05,363 --> 00:31:07,165
     - Okay, but you haven't    
          lost anyone?          

632
00:31:07,232 --> 00:31:08,666
          (indistinct)          
              Jay?              

633
00:31:08,733 --> 00:31:10,702
      - This 14-year-old boy    
           has dyspnea,         

634
00:31:10,768 --> 00:31:12,370
          then suddenly         
      pericardial effusion,     

635
00:31:12,437 --> 00:31:14,405
        just not in a way       
      I've ever seen before.    

636
00:31:14,472 --> 00:31:15,974
        Meds didn't work.       

637
00:31:16,040 --> 00:31:18,443
       - Okay, so effusion      
 didn't connect to the antidote 

638
00:31:18,509 --> 00:31:20,879
   or the toxin, but if you're  
   worried about tamponade...   

639
00:31:20,945 --> 00:31:25,183
- The thing is, Bash, his heart 
    isn't where it should be.   

640
00:31:25,250 --> 00:31:27,252
 - What's that supposed to mean?
         - I don't know--       

641
00:31:27,318 --> 00:31:30,054
         (call dropping)        
 - Now! Now! I want it out now! 

642
00:31:30,121 --> 00:31:32,257
         Turn that off!         
     - Hey, what's going on?    

643
00:31:32,323 --> 00:31:34,058
     Get him some lorazepam.    
 - Don't come closer, Dr. Hamed.

644
00:31:34,125 --> 00:31:36,094
  - Shawn, what are you doing?  
      - No, they're saying      

645
00:31:36,160 --> 00:31:38,129
  it could be all night before  
 I'm stable enough for surgery. 

646
00:31:38,196 --> 00:31:40,164
   - They're still monitoring   
    your abdominal bleeding.    

647
00:31:40,231 --> 00:31:41,900
        - No, I need this       
       out of my eye now!       

648
00:31:41,966 --> 00:31:43,768
      - Look, I understand      
       it's uncomfortable,      

649
00:31:43,835 --> 00:31:46,070
  but if you could just hold on 
     a little bit longer...     

650
00:31:46,137 --> 00:31:47,538
      - No, it's not that,      
         it's the girl!         

651
00:31:47,605 --> 00:31:50,708
  - Shawn, we've talked about-- 
       - No! I'm serious.       

652
00:31:50,775 --> 00:31:52,911
     No, I get you're saying    
    she's not real, and I...    

653
00:31:52,977 --> 00:31:55,113
     I believe you or I want    
         to believe you.        

654
00:31:55,179 --> 00:31:59,550
      But it feels so real.     
And that feeling is more intense
 than any pain I've ever known. 

655
00:31:59,617 --> 00:32:01,786
 - Look, Shawn, if you do this, 
     honestly, I don't know     

656
00:32:01,853 --> 00:32:04,389
     what's going to happen     
  medically, but there will be  
       a lot of bleeding,       

657
00:32:04,455 --> 00:32:05,857
     possibly in your brain     
        which could lead        

658
00:32:05,924 --> 00:32:08,893
     to hemorrhagic stroke,     
   shock infection, blindness.  

659
00:32:08,960 --> 00:32:11,496
    - Every second's torture.   
  I can see her terrified face. 

660
00:32:11,562 --> 00:32:13,765
      I need it to go away.     
     - There's no guarantee     

661
00:32:13,831 --> 00:32:15,300
   that removing it will take   
       that feeling away.       

662
00:32:15,366 --> 00:32:17,201
           - It will.           
      I know it, it has to.     

663
00:32:17,268 --> 00:32:18,870
       - You have a brain       
         injury, Shawn.         

664
00:32:18,937 --> 00:32:20,805
  You're not thinking clearly.  

665
00:32:20,872 --> 00:32:22,373
        Just... please...       

666
00:32:22,440 --> 00:32:23,875
            (sighing)           

667
00:32:28,713 --> 00:32:30,815
 Thank you, I'll find the nurse.

668
00:32:30,882 --> 00:32:33,217
         (Shawn screams)        
          Hey, no, no!          

669
00:32:33,284 --> 00:32:35,086
       Hey, Shawn, Shawn!       

670
00:32:35,153 --> 00:32:36,988
            Hey, hey!           

671
00:32:38,323 --> 00:32:39,891
g)                              

672
00:32:39,958 --> 00:32:41,826
  - I'm so glad you're sticking 
          around, Rhoda.        

673
00:32:41,893 --> 00:32:44,929
       What happened today      
      was not fair to you.      

674
00:32:44,996 --> 00:32:48,633
   - Hey, it's not your fault.  
      I know you're trying.     

675
00:32:48,700 --> 00:32:51,736
   - I don't want to hide from  
    reality or make excuses.    

676
00:32:51,803 --> 00:32:56,541
     Wait times are the same    
   as they were two years ago   
    when I started this job.    

677
00:32:56,607 --> 00:32:59,010
    Staff to patient ratios,    
           same deal.           

678
00:32:59,077 --> 00:33:03,548
 This isn't self-pity, it's just
   a dose of radical honesty.   

679
00:33:04,115 --> 00:33:07,518
  Claire, thank you for coming. 
          Take a seat.          

680
00:33:07,585 --> 00:33:10,655
         - What is this?        
       - I'm sorry, okay,       

681
00:33:10,722 --> 00:33:12,523
     but we're just worried     
           about you.           

682
00:33:12,590 --> 00:33:15,059
     - We love you, Claire.     
         You know we do.        

683
00:33:15,126 --> 00:33:16,227
           It's just--          
             - Stop.            

684
00:33:16,294 --> 00:33:18,730
            - Claire!           
     - Dr. Devi, let me try.    

685
00:33:19,397 --> 00:33:21,099
             Claire!            
             (sighs)            

686
00:33:21,165 --> 00:33:22,367
     - How could you, Mags?     

687
00:33:22,433 --> 00:33:25,069
      - They knew already.      
    Or Arnold and Rhoda did.    

688
00:33:25,136 --> 00:33:27,972
     - Yeah, so you decided     
    to blindside me with some   
     pointless intervention.    

689
00:33:28,039 --> 00:33:30,641
 - I promised that I'd be there 
for you, and then I disappeared.

690
00:33:30,708 --> 00:33:32,910
     But we can work on this    
   and get you back on track.   

691
00:33:32,977 --> 00:33:35,747
           - For what?          
    You are still that naive    

692
00:33:35,813 --> 00:33:39,517
 little girl clinging to a lie. 
      - Alright, then quit!     

693
00:33:39,584 --> 00:33:41,419
      If you believe that,      
      then you should quit      

694
00:33:41,486 --> 00:33:42,987
      instead of poisoning      
     the people around you.     

695
00:33:43,054 --> 00:33:44,856
         But I don't...         
      I don't think you do.     

696
00:33:45,790 --> 00:33:48,092
   If you keep stealing pills,  
      Devi will alert legal     

697
00:33:48,159 --> 00:33:50,695
      and you won't be able     
        to see patients.        

698
00:33:50,762 --> 00:33:53,498
       That's what I came       
        out here to say.        

699
00:34:04,108 --> 00:34:06,377
         (Singh knocks)         

700
00:34:08,446 --> 00:34:11,883
     - I think we just broke    
         that couple up.        

701
00:34:11,949 --> 00:34:14,585
       - I blame the bee.       
        (Singh chuckles)        

702
00:34:14,652 --> 00:34:19,123
   - Uh, I know you're looking  
 for a full-time Trauma OR body.

703
00:34:19,190 --> 00:34:21,426
      - Uh, yeah, I wanted      
     to talk to you about--     

704
00:34:21,492 --> 00:34:23,027
   - I'm going back upstairs.   

705
00:34:24,028 --> 00:34:26,831
   - Did I do something wrong?  
              - No.             

706
00:34:26,898 --> 00:34:30,334
   One, it's not what I want.   

707
00:34:30,401 --> 00:34:33,104
      I'm a general surgeon     
     and that's what I love.    

708
00:34:33,171 --> 00:34:38,109
  And two, you don't need some  
   blowhard lording over you.   

709
00:34:38,176 --> 00:34:40,144
      - That's not the way      
  management's going to see it. 

710
00:34:40,211 --> 00:34:43,047
  - Which is why I'm gonna make 
   the case that they should.   

711
00:34:43,114 --> 00:34:45,149
      You earned it, June.      

712
00:34:46,050 --> 00:34:48,152
            - Thanks.           

713
00:34:50,421 --> 00:34:51,989
            - Okay...           

714
00:34:56,227 --> 00:34:57,662
            You good?           

715
00:34:59,964 --> 00:35:01,432
             - Yeah.            

716
00:35:07,538 --> 00:35:09,340
       - Hey, you paged me      
        about Jay Penney?       

717
00:35:09,407 --> 00:35:11,576
         How's he doing?        
 - Save one more coronal image, 

718
00:35:11,642 --> 00:35:13,845
      and then we're good.      
   - What happened to Carmen?   

719
00:35:13,911 --> 00:35:16,848
    - Nothing, I'm a lab rat.   
 - Technically, she volunteered.

720
00:35:16,914 --> 00:35:19,317
    - But now I know what a CT  
    with contrast feels like,   

721
00:35:19,383 --> 00:35:21,786
    which can only be an asset  
   to my level of patient care. 

722
00:35:21,853 --> 00:35:23,221
     - What's the deal here?    

723
00:35:23,287 --> 00:35:25,056
      - Have you ever heard     
       of situs inversus?       

724
00:35:25,123 --> 00:35:27,725
      - Uh, when organs are     
  in the mirror image position  
      where they should be.     

725
00:35:27,792 --> 00:35:31,629
    - Your doctor in Labrador   
       has a kid who needs      
       pericardiocentesis,      

726
00:35:31,696 --> 00:35:34,665
        but they found out      
  the hard way that his heart's 
       in the wrong place.      

727
00:35:34,732 --> 00:35:36,634
    Since they don't have much  
        access to imaging,      

728
00:35:36,701 --> 00:35:38,536
   they'll need you to talk him 
       through what to do.      

729
00:35:38,603 --> 00:35:40,872
 - And your organs are the map? 
     - The software inverts     

730
00:35:40,938 --> 00:35:43,474
 the image, and then we can help
    Jay visualize the anatomy   

731
00:35:43,541 --> 00:35:45,409
   to make sure his landmarks   
          are correct.          

732
00:35:45,476 --> 00:35:47,044
         Thanks, Carmen.        
             - Yeah.            

733
00:35:47,111 --> 00:35:49,147
    - Right, so Jay can drain   
the fluid around the kid's heart

734
00:35:49,213 --> 00:35:50,414
         before he dies.        
         (phone ringing)        

735
00:35:50,481 --> 00:35:51,816
        - Okay, let's go.       

736
00:35:55,953 --> 00:35:59,257
        Okay, you'll need       
 a 30cc syringe, spinal needle, 

737
00:35:59,323 --> 00:36:02,527
      a guide wire, pigtail     
    or closest you can find.    

738
00:36:02,593 --> 00:36:03,895
       - I'm set up, Bash.      

739
00:36:03,961 --> 00:36:05,897
      - Okay, you're gonna      
       to run your fingers      

740
00:36:05,963 --> 00:36:07,999
        down his sternum        
   until you hit a bony notch.  

741
00:36:08,065 --> 00:36:09,500
      - How old did you say     
        this patient is?        

742
00:36:09,567 --> 00:36:12,136
      - 14, male, 50 kilos.     
   - Alright, with no imaging,  

743
00:36:12,203 --> 00:36:15,473
 he should be going subxiphoidal
       with a 7F pigtail.       

744
00:36:15,540 --> 00:36:17,642
    That way you can aspirate   
       even clotted blood.      

745
00:36:17,708 --> 00:36:19,677
        And then aim for        
       the right shoulder.      

746
00:36:19,744 --> 00:36:21,145
      - The right shoulder?     

747
00:36:21,212 --> 00:36:22,613
  - Jay, does that make sense?  

748
00:36:22,680 --> 00:36:24,615
     - Hang in there, buddy.    
     - Jay, do you hear us?     

749
00:36:24,682 --> 00:36:26,250
        Talk to us, man,        
        what's going on?        

750
00:36:26,317 --> 00:36:28,886
     - Sorry, trying to mark    
       the puncture point.      

751
00:36:28,953 --> 00:36:31,222
             How far?           
   If I miss, I pierce a lung.  

752
00:36:31,289 --> 00:36:34,859
  - I'd say about the width of  
  one finger on a kid this age. 

753
00:36:34,926 --> 00:36:37,328
       - And make sure you      
  continuously check pressure.  

754
00:36:37,395 --> 00:36:39,330
         Jay, you good?         

755
00:36:39,397 --> 00:36:41,432
   - Little guy's name is Paul. 

756
00:36:41,499 --> 00:36:44,435
    I don't... I don't know if  
  I'm doing this right, guys... 

757
00:36:44,502 --> 00:36:48,773
        - Hey, it's okay.       
     How many of these have     
     you done the easy way?     

758
00:36:48,839 --> 00:36:50,341
     - One. Since residency.    

759
00:36:50,408 --> 00:36:53,010
      Paul's mom didn't have    
       an ultrasound while      
         she was pregnant       

760
00:36:53,077 --> 00:36:56,414
     so we didn't know about    
  his irregular anatomy. Crap...

761
00:36:56,480 --> 00:36:58,182
         - What's wrong?        
         What happened?         

762
00:36:58,249 --> 00:36:59,984
       - No breath sounds.      
    - What's his heart rate?    

763
00:37:00,051 --> 00:37:01,986
         - I don't know.        
                        You wan?

764
00:37:02,053 --> 00:37:04,855
          - No, no, no!         
You need to puncture right away.

765
00:37:04,922 --> 00:37:08,359
       Okay, don't think.       
  Just go hard so you perforate 
        the pericardium.        

766
00:37:08,426 --> 00:37:10,328
             - Okay.            

767
00:37:10,394 --> 00:37:11,562
          (hanging up)          

768
00:37:11,629 --> 00:37:13,598
           - Damn it.           
       I'll get him back.       

769
00:37:13,664 --> 00:37:16,133
         - Theo, our guy        
     from adolescence psych     
      wants to talk to you.     

770
00:37:16,200 --> 00:37:19,237
 - Uh, yeah, leave that with me,
       Arnold. Thank you.       

771
00:37:22,006 --> 00:37:24,308
   I did something, uh, risky.  

772
00:37:24,375 --> 00:37:27,645
      I busted this patient     
  out of here before confirming 
        with her doctors.       

773
00:37:27,712 --> 00:37:29,347
       I mean, her parents      
          were relieved         

774
00:37:29,413 --> 00:37:31,816
   when they came and got her.  
   And I got her a great team,  

775
00:37:31,882 --> 00:37:34,518
  it's just... somewhere else.  

776
00:37:34,585 --> 00:37:36,754
       You know, Novak was      
        right about Devi.       

777
00:37:36,821 --> 00:37:38,422
     - C'mon, Jay, pick up.     

778
00:37:38,489 --> 00:37:40,458
       - Bash, I'm trying       
     to tell you something.     

779
00:37:40,524 --> 00:37:43,294
      - Theo, are you okay?     
              - No!             

780
00:37:43,361 --> 00:37:47,398
    No, I haven't been for...   
          a long while.         

781
00:37:47,465 --> 00:37:48,833
    - Because you discharged    
            someone--           

782
00:37:48,899 --> 00:37:50,835
   - No, because I keep doing   
 some version of the same thing 

783
00:37:50,901 --> 00:37:54,405
      over and over, and...     
  and making the same mistakes. 

784
00:37:54,472 --> 00:37:56,607
 I know you have a lot going on.

785
00:37:56,674 --> 00:38:01,946
 Alright, with residency ending,
     and Mags, and... Amira.    

786
00:38:02,013 --> 00:38:05,249
    - She's going to England    
    for a month on this STEM    
      exchange trip, but--      

787
00:38:05,316 --> 00:38:07,351
     - But you still see her    
       as a nine-year-old.      

788
00:38:07,418 --> 00:38:09,587
    Well, you know I get this   
      kind of thing, right?     

789
00:38:09,654 --> 00:38:12,857
  - It's just that my therapist 
   told me that I keep putting  

790
00:38:12,923 --> 00:38:15,226
    this pressure on the men    
           in my life.          

791
00:38:15,293 --> 00:38:19,263
 You know, expecting them to be 
   fathers or brothers, and...  

792
00:38:19,330 --> 00:38:22,333
         Maybe I reacted        
     by pulling away and...     

793
00:38:22,400 --> 00:38:24,101
        (phone vibrates)        

794
00:38:25,236 --> 00:38:26,837
   "No signal for voice call.   

795
00:38:26,904 --> 00:38:29,307
       Got the needle in,       
     seems to be draining."     

796
00:38:29,373 --> 00:38:32,543
    - This was... impressive.   

797
00:38:33,477 --> 00:38:34,912
          - Hey, Theo.          

798
00:38:34,979 --> 00:38:38,616
  What if there's an infection  
       or a complication?       

799
00:38:38,683 --> 00:38:41,118
        How will we know        
      if we can't see him?      

800
00:38:41,185 --> 00:38:43,954
      - Bash... he's okay.      

801
00:38:58,336 --> 00:39:00,371
        - Can I come in?        

802
00:39:00,438 --> 00:39:03,908
         So I just spoke        
     with cardiology again.     

803
00:39:03,974 --> 00:39:06,677
    And they said that you're   
     recovering really well.    

804
00:39:06,744 --> 00:39:09,680
    There's no reason for you   
    not to be home tomorrow.    

805
00:39:10,781 --> 00:39:12,650
        - You must think        
     I'm an absolute idiot.     

806
00:39:12,717 --> 00:39:15,853
     - Uh, don't... I mean,     
    a billboard fell on you.    

807
00:39:15,920 --> 00:39:19,023
 - Danny, and that whole thing. 

808
00:39:20,024 --> 00:39:21,792
       I thought he was...      

809
00:39:23,994 --> 00:39:28,099
      It is just... so hard     
         to meet people.        

810
00:39:32,470 --> 00:39:34,905
             (sighs)            
      What was I thinking?      

811
00:39:37,408 --> 00:39:39,877
    - That you don't deserve    
          to be alone.          

812
00:39:41,412 --> 00:39:44,248
      - Didn't they ask you     
       to stay lying back?      

813
00:39:44,315 --> 00:39:45,950
         - Hey... Yeah.         

814
00:39:46,016 --> 00:39:48,753
   I wanted to see if I could   
    sit up on my own, though.   

815
00:39:48,819 --> 00:39:50,988
         - Your internal        
       bleeding's managed.      

816
00:39:51,055 --> 00:39:54,592
      Your ophthalmologist      
     says there's no medical    
        precedent for it,       

817
00:39:54,658 --> 00:39:59,263
   but your vision is starting  
 to return and if it continues, 
    you should recover fully.   

818
00:39:59,330 --> 00:40:00,831
         - So I'm told.         

819
00:40:01,665 --> 00:40:03,033
         - And the girl?        

820
00:40:03,934 --> 00:40:07,438
   - Soon as I woke up, it was  
   like she was a dream, man.   

821
00:40:07,505 --> 00:40:09,707
 - So you just forgot about her?

822
00:40:09,774 --> 00:40:12,743
  - Now she's a fading memory.  

823
00:40:12,810 --> 00:40:16,147
   You have no idea what kind   
       of relief that is.       

824
00:40:17,715 --> 00:40:19,316
 - I've got to be honest, Shawn,

825
00:40:19,383 --> 00:40:21,819
       I was not expecting      
    this one to go smoothly.    

826
00:40:21,886 --> 00:40:23,954
            - Right?            

827
00:40:24,021 --> 00:40:25,723
   Also, my neighbour called,   

828
00:40:25,790 --> 00:40:28,859
      my cat's been waiting     
       at my door all day.      

829
00:40:28,926 --> 00:40:31,462
        (Bashir exhales)        

830
00:40:34,732 --> 00:40:36,367
          (door shuts)          

831
00:40:39,770 --> 00:40:42,640
              - Hi.             
            - Hey...            

832
00:40:50,581 --> 00:40:52,149
            (sighing)           

833
00:40:53,117 --> 00:40:55,052
            (sighing)           

834
00:40:56,654 --> 00:41:01,659
 I'm sorry I missed your biopsy.
    - It's okay. It was fine.   

835
00:41:03,360 --> 00:41:06,497
         How's the kid?         
          - Which one?          

836
00:41:06,564 --> 00:41:12,036
    The kid who never existed   
     or the kid whose organs    
     were on the wrong side?    

837
00:41:13,904 --> 00:41:18,108
  They're both fine, actually.  
             - Good.            

838
00:41:18,876 --> 00:41:21,979
      Have you seen Claire      
   since our little throwdown?  

839
00:41:24,281 --> 00:41:26,884
        - Maybe she just        
        needs some time.        

840
00:41:28,452 --> 00:41:31,422
  - I'm coming off sedatives or 
 maybe I'd feel worse about it. 

841
00:41:31,489 --> 00:41:32,756
        (Bashir chuckles)       

842
00:41:37,728 --> 00:41:41,665
          I'm glad that         
    you didn't take that job    
   if it's not right for you.   

843
00:41:42,533 --> 00:41:44,902
    - What kind of sedatives    
      do they have you on?      

844
00:41:44,969 --> 00:41:46,604
         - It's just...         

845
00:41:46,670 --> 00:41:50,374
   You said that it was stupid  
       and selfish and...       

846
00:41:50,441 --> 00:41:55,045
        I understand that       
     you've trained yourself    
    to feel that way, but...    

847
00:41:55,112 --> 00:41:57,915
      maybe you're allowed      
       to be those things.      

848
00:41:57,982 --> 00:42:00,451
    Just like the rest of us.   

849
00:42:01,585 --> 00:42:03,420
        (Bashir exhales)        

850
00:42:03,487 --> 00:42:05,322
          - I'm trying.         

851
00:42:05,389 --> 00:42:07,124
            - I know.           

852
00:42:11,996 --> 00:42:14,164
             - What?            

853
00:42:14,231 --> 00:42:17,067
           - Nothing.           
             - Liar.            

854
00:42:20,437 --> 00:42:24,108
    - Claire told me that she   
   and Bishop used to mock me   

855
00:42:24,174 --> 00:42:27,545
 for being a naive little idiot.

856
00:42:28,479 --> 00:42:31,715
     - Well, I fell in love     
        with that idiot.        

857
00:42:31,782 --> 00:42:34,752
    - I guess that makes you    
         an idiot, too.         

858
00:42:35,452 --> 00:42:37,121
          - I guess so.         

859
00:42:41,792 --> 00:42:43,928
         (gentle music)         

860
00:43:01,111 --> 00:43:03,948
              (♪♪)              

861
00:43:22,032 --> 00:43:25,169
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