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 - I'm taking a hormone therapy 

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     to stimulate ovulation.    
   - You're trying for a baby?  

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      - Thinking about it.      
      I guess that's on me.     

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       Actually, about how      
          I've managed          

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        to screw up most        
      of my relationships.      

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   - I hear that you proposed   
           a reshuffle          

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       in which you report      
      to her instead of me.     

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  - You're the one who told me  
     to build a relationship    

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     with her, earn capital.    
  - I heard Novak's gone AWOL.  

10
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   I think we should use this   
     as a reason to move him    
        out of Trauma OR.       

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  - He's, like, unpredictable.  
      - He is toxic chaos.      

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        - Theo, it's okay       
   that you wanted this life.   

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      - This is part where      
 you tell me you and Mom are... 

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     you're praying for me?     

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     - Every patient I see,     

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  I think, "Is this the person  
        who stabbed me?"        

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      - We're going to make     
     an accountability plan     
      for the painkillers.      

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  I just matched with a heart.  

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    - It sounds like you got    
    walloped with some pretty   

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     intense news yesterday.    
- I want to be here for you now.

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   However you need me to be.   

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          (tense music)         

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         (door sliding)         

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       - You ready, Mags?       

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           It's time.           

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 Your heart is in the building. 

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       Prepped and ready.       

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 - All systems go, Dr. Leblanc. 

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          At the behest         
     of our anesthesiologist    

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 whose eyes are on the monitor, 

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   I'm gonna ask you to count   
       backwards from 10.       

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             - Okay.            

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             10, 9,             

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             8, 7...            

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         (opening theme)        

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          - Hi, Amira.          

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         No, it's 1963.         

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              Yeah.             

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     Okay, just put it back     
        when you're done.       

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        Okay. Yalla. Bye.       

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       It's the spare key       
         security code.         

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   I mean, how difficult is it  
     to just know the things    

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 that you need to take with you 
   and to take them with you.   

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 I sound exactly like my father.

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           (chuckling)          
        - Was he strict?        

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        - He was more of        
    a spiritual philosopher.    

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      My mother was strict.     
   My father would have called  

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 Mags' surgery a second chance. 

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          - Do you miss         
      that kind of outlook?     

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    - I wonder if Mags' heart   
    is in the hospital yet...   

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  I know I should focus, but... 

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          - Thank you.          

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     Do you feel comfortable    

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       about your strategy      
       for managing today?      

55
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        - As best I can.        
          Why, do you?          

56
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  - Well, I was thinking about  
    what you said last month    

57
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        about that ordeal       
        in the sinkhole.        

58
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  The trapped man. You told me  
     that jumping in blindly    

59
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   is what you know how to do,  
    even when you shouldn't.    

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    - Mags' family is making    
    all the decisions today.    

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     Talking to the doctors,    
      I'm just waiting for      
       news above ground.       

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           It's, uh...          

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It's my father's birthday today.

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   1963, the year he was born.  
          - Seriously?          

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   - How weird is that, right?  

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    Do you do, uh, do you do    
      anything to mark it?      

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        - This is, uh...        

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    Okay, he loved Snickers.    

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 And it's one of the few candies

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        that you can get        
      both here and there.      

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And usually, Amira and I, but...

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     nobody's brought it up     
           this year.           

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- My brother died when I was 20.

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    Car accident, he was 17.    

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          - Oh, Karim.          
          I'm so sorry.         

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       - The ways we grief      
   and adapt as we... move on.  

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       - Thanks, brother.       

78
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       I'll see you soon.       

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      (indistinct chatter)      

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             - Mark?            

81
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 Dr. Novak, where have you been?

82
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    - I woke up, made coffee,   
       ran 10k, came here.      

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   - You know full well I mean  
      "Where have you been      
     for the last two days?"    

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   You've been on the schedule  
     but decidedly not here!    

85
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            (sighing)           
        - My mother died.       

86
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- Oh, I'm so sorry to hear that.

87
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      If you'd let us know,     
  we would have been able to--  

88
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   - She didn't actually die.   
      I just wanted to see      

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     if you'd still give me     
    a hard time after hearing   
        that news, and...       

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     apparently, you would.     

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   - You gonna let Pops go on   
  the rides at Centreville too? 

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       I mean, he did come      
     a long way to take you.    

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- She's going to make him do it.
     She always gets scared.    

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      - Nothing wrong with      
      being afraid, Gracie.     

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  Theo, I can do the sunscreen  
          on the ferry.         

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       - Why is everything      
        you say a lesson?       

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           (chuckling)          
 - Welcome to my childhood, kid.

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   - Dr. Hunter, your patient   
  in six is back from imaging.  

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       I can relay results      
      if you need a minute.     

100
00:05:01,134 --> 00:05:03,836
      - Ah, no, thank you,      
     Dr. Bergeron. I'm good.    

101
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    Okay, girls, take it easy   
        on Pops, alright?       

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          Thanks, Dad.          

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          - Have a seat         
      for one second, okay?     

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00:05:14,681 --> 00:05:15,748
           Uh, Theo...          

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       - Forget something?      
        - No, just, uh...       

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           Was that...          
   Was that lady your friend?   

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00:05:21,054 --> 00:05:25,058
    You know, it just seemed    
  like there was, uh, you know, 
      like, she knows you.      

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00:05:25,124 --> 00:05:26,726
           - No, Dad.           

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          I don't know,         
    why would you even think    
      something like that?      

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  - Alright, I was just asking. 

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              Okay.             
             - Okay.            

112
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 - Alright, girls, we're ready. 

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  (indistinct PA announcement)  

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     - So sweet of your dad     
          to help out.          

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      - Liz, what the hell?     
 - I wanted to meet your family.

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        Even undercover.        
    - My head is killing me.    

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  You know, he pulled me aside  

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       and basically asked      
   if you were my girlfriend.   

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 - Wow, impressive dad insight. 

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         Okay, so fine.         
I accidentally forced the issue.

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        - No, you didn't        
      because I denied it.      

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           - You lied?          

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      Why, because me being     
      sort of still married     

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  makes you a bad pastor's son? 

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       - Another sick dog?      

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    - This is Esther Danbury.   
  Seriously compromised airway. 

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             - Whoa.            
  - Try to stay still, Esther.  

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- Where's Judah? Where's Bertie?
        I can't see them.       

129
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  - They're right here, Esther. 
          They're okay.         

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     Are you breathing okay?    
    - We were in the ravine,    

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      the coyote leaped out     
         of the bushes.         

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  - Esther, I need you to save  
      your breath, alright?     

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       Two units of O-neg.      
             - Yeah.            

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   Heart Rate's 105, RESP rate  
      24, BP's 88 over 58.      

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     - Yeah, two grams TXA,     
       start ceftriaxone.       

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   - Bertie, is our dog okay?   
     - Might hurt a little.     

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        (Esther moaning)        

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     Alright, I'm gonna need    
   to secure her airway before  
   I can handle the bleeding.   

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      - Bertie was on leash     
  when the coyote lunged at us. 

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 Esther threw herself in front. 

141
00:06:52,345 --> 00:06:54,981
 - Okay, our nurse is gonna take
 you to your room, okay, Judas? 

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    - Here, Esther needs him.   
             - Okay.            

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              Oh...             

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   - Theo, get that dog out of  
here, this is an operating room.

145
00:07:01,687 --> 00:07:03,589
   - She needs her dog, June.   

146
00:07:03,656 --> 00:07:05,324
        - Can you tell me       
     what you feel, Esther?     

147
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      - How's church, Jim?      

148
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     - Where have you been?     

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   - It's... hard to breathe.   

150
00:07:13,966 --> 00:07:16,335
      - Being able to talk      
    is impressive. But, uh...   

151
00:07:16,402 --> 00:07:18,237
      These kinds of trauma     
   usually create what we call  

152
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      a "difficult airway".     
         Options, June?         

153
00:07:22,809 --> 00:07:24,710
   - First, intubation, but...  

154
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    - You think we're dealing   
     with a tracheal injury?    

155
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    - I'm having a hard time    
      getting a good look.      

156
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          It seems like         
       it's mostly facial,      

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        but then she has        
      intra-oral bleeding,      

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    some loose teeth tissue,    
            swelling.           

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- Blind nasotracheal intubation?

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       - Nobody does that       
         anymore, okay?         

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    If this is a last resort,   

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       then it's gonna be       
       an emergency cric.       

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Theo, why is the dog still here?

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      - June, Bertie stays.     
      - Are you saying you      

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 that you can't get me breathing
  because the parts of my face  
  aren't where they should be?  

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 - Esther, Esther, listen to me!

167
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          Look, I know          
      you're scared, okay?      

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  But I promise you everything  
      is gonna be alright.      

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    - Can you just stay back    
      from her open wounds?     

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    - 02 SAT's 86 now guys--    
      - Actually, I forgot.     

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         I got us this.         
         - What is that?        

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00:08:04,684 --> 00:08:06,285
     - A video laryngoscope     
         with a stylet.         

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        Means we can see        
    what we're doing, and...    

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   muscle through the debris.   
             - What?            

175
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    - Nah, keep the emergency   
       cric, just in case.      

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   Call that a double-double.   
    - When did you get this?    

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      - 50 mg of etomidate      
        and 70 of sux...        

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          I don't know,         
      couple of months ago.     

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       Am I supposed to...      
         ask permission?        

180
00:08:22,168 --> 00:08:23,769
      - Well, at least tell     
       someone you did it.      

181
00:08:23,836 --> 00:08:25,838
    - Hi, kiddo, we're going    
      to sedate you, okay?      

182
00:08:25,905 --> 00:08:28,407
   And now we're going to use   
       that very good tool      

183
00:08:28,474 --> 00:08:31,143
        to put a tube in,       
   and then when you wake up,   

184
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    you'll be able to breathe   
     way more easily, okay?     

185
00:08:33,112 --> 00:08:35,181
  - You know these things need  
    special approval, right?    

186
00:08:35,248 --> 00:08:36,682
        Devi doesn't need       
      any more reasons to--     

187
00:08:36,749 --> 00:08:38,050
           - To what?           
    - You know, you could've    

188
00:08:38,117 --> 00:08:40,186
   at least answered my texts   
       the last few days.       

189
00:08:40,253 --> 00:08:42,221
     - Okay then, let's get     
       this kid breathing.      

190
00:08:42,288 --> 00:08:43,856
            Alright.            

191
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      - Okay, on your side.     

192
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           Thank you.           

193
00:08:48,461 --> 00:08:49,795
            Alright.            

194
00:08:49,862 --> 00:08:51,864
      Sorry, tender there?      

195
00:08:51,931 --> 00:08:53,833
            - Uh-huh.           
  - Appendix, bet ya anything.  

196
00:08:53,900 --> 00:08:55,635
   - I lost that one as a kid.  

197
00:08:55,701 --> 00:08:57,637
     This pain's definitely     
          my pancreas.          

198
00:08:57,703 --> 00:08:59,438
   - What makes you say that?   

199
00:08:59,505 --> 00:09:02,174
     - Uh, a few years ago,     
        my immune system        
       declared war on it.      

200
00:09:02,241 --> 00:09:03,776
        I've had chronic        
       pancreatitis since.      

201
00:09:03,843 --> 00:09:06,946
      - My uncle had that.      
 Man was in constant discomfort.

202
00:09:07,013 --> 00:09:09,715
 Of course, he was also a weasel
      who drank a 40 a day.     

203
00:09:09,782 --> 00:09:13,619
     - Except, I wasn't much    
of a drinker before this came on
 and barely at all after either.

204
00:09:13,686 --> 00:09:15,454
          - Your loss!          
           (laughing)           

205
00:09:15,521 --> 00:09:17,990
           (coughing)           
         Hey, hey, hey!         

206
00:09:18,057 --> 00:09:20,026
  Time to wake up, nurse lady.  

207
00:09:21,561 --> 00:09:24,063
      - 100 over 70, Kathy.     

208
00:09:24,130 --> 00:09:25,898
      (indistinct chatter)      

209
00:09:25,965 --> 00:09:27,466
           (coughing)           

210
00:09:28,434 --> 00:09:29,769
    - Okay, this'll be cold.    

211
00:09:29,835 --> 00:09:32,238
         (Paige inhales)        

212
00:09:34,874 --> 00:09:38,110
 This is to rule out gallstones 
          or bleeding.          

213
00:09:38,177 --> 00:09:39,979
            (moaning)           

214
00:09:40,046 --> 00:09:42,181
   Are you on any medication?   

215
00:09:42,782 --> 00:09:44,684
       - Pancrelipase and       
       Rabeprazole daily.       

216
00:09:44,750 --> 00:09:47,920
        Tylenol at home.        
     When it gets like this,    
    I always have to come in.   

217
00:09:47,987 --> 00:09:51,157
 - And... what do we usually do?

218
00:09:51,223 --> 00:09:53,225
        - On a good day,        
      listen to what works,     

219
00:09:53,292 --> 00:09:54,860
but mostly tell me why it won't.

220
00:09:54,927 --> 00:09:56,462
   I'm hoping it's a good day.  

221
00:09:56,529 --> 00:09:58,698
 - I like this one, she's fiery.

222
00:09:58,764 --> 00:10:00,466
     - What are you in for?     

223
00:10:00,533 --> 00:10:02,935
   - Congestive heart failure.  
      - Sorry to hear that.     

224
00:10:03,002 --> 00:10:05,638
          - No, no, no.         
 I'll live to fight another day.

225
00:10:05,705 --> 00:10:07,807
         (Kathy coughs)         
      - I'll start fluids.      

226
00:10:07,873 --> 00:10:11,043
  - Thanks. Um... Tell me what  
      usually works, Paige.     

227
00:10:11,110 --> 00:10:13,245
         - Three rounds         
     of intravenous Toradol,    

228
00:10:13,312 --> 00:10:15,815
   aggressive fluids and cipro  
        to avoid abscess.       

229
00:10:15,881 --> 00:10:17,950
 - High-dose anti-inflammatories
        are controversial       

230
00:10:18,017 --> 00:10:20,019
 when it comes to pancreatitis--
        - I know, but...        

231
00:10:20,086 --> 00:10:22,088
    - I think the best thing    
      that we can do is see     

232
00:10:22,154 --> 00:10:24,156
  how you respond to the fluids 
     and manage pain orally.    

233
00:10:24,223 --> 00:10:26,726
- Won't work. I don't metabolize
         well by mouth!         

234
00:10:26,792 --> 00:10:30,997
  The thing is, you guys always 
   make me sit in agony until   
    my body proves me right.    

235
00:10:31,063 --> 00:10:33,099
     Can we please just skip    
      that step this once?      

236
00:10:33,165 --> 00:10:34,834
    - Look, I get you've been   
      through this before,      

237
00:10:34,900 --> 00:10:36,802
but there's a treatment protocol
     that we need to follow,    

238
00:10:36,869 --> 00:10:40,640
         and IV and seds        
    risk anti-platelet effect   
     or acute kidney injury.    

239
00:10:40,706 --> 00:10:44,710
      - But if I'm willing      
    to take that risk to stop   
     my pain, why can't you?    

240
00:10:44,777 --> 00:10:47,647
      - Yeah, why can't ya?     
  I mean, it's her body, right? 

241
00:10:47,713 --> 00:10:49,348
           - Kathy...           

242
00:10:52,118 --> 00:10:55,855
   - Look, I want to help you,  
     Paige, of course, I do.    

243
00:10:55,921 --> 00:10:58,391
      But... I need to look     
   before jumping in blindly,   

244
00:10:58,457 --> 00:11:01,360
    so we're going to do some   
   blood work first, alright?   

245
00:11:05,931 --> 00:11:07,366
        (elevator dings)        

246
00:11:08,234 --> 00:11:09,935
         That was weird.        

247
00:11:10,002 --> 00:11:11,904
 - Zero boundaries, that woman. 

248
00:11:11,971 --> 00:11:15,241
 Let me try to load her up with 
 diuretics and hope that works. 

249
00:11:15,307 --> 00:11:17,209
   - Uh, no, not Kathy. Paige.  

250
00:11:17,276 --> 00:11:20,112
   I just saw her move easily   
    like she wasn't in pain.    

251
00:11:20,179 --> 00:11:22,114
Do you think she's drug seeking?

252
00:11:22,181 --> 00:11:23,616
      - Asking for NSAIDs?      

253
00:11:23,683 --> 00:11:25,251
           They're not          
     a controlled substance.    

254
00:11:25,317 --> 00:11:26,986
       - I know, but some       
      patients lay a track.     

255
00:11:27,053 --> 00:11:29,889
    - Oh, you know the deal.    
     Hiding is second nature    
       with chronic pain.       

256
00:11:29,955 --> 00:11:32,591
       It's when you need       
     somebody to really know    
     what's going on inside,    

257
00:11:32,658 --> 00:11:34,393
           that's when          
      you gotta work at it.     

258
00:11:34,460 --> 00:11:35,761
            - Huh...            

259
00:11:36,662 --> 00:11:38,264
        - No Mags today?        

260
00:11:39,198 --> 00:11:41,267
    - I, uh, took her shift.    

261
00:11:42,368 --> 00:11:45,237
   - People are saying there's  
  something going on with her.  

262
00:11:49,208 --> 00:11:51,844
     - She's having a heart     
      transplant right now.     

263
00:11:51,911 --> 00:11:54,013
     She's been on the table    
        about four hours,       

264
00:11:54,080 --> 00:11:55,781
      about four more to...     

265
00:11:56,348 --> 00:11:58,718
- I didn't know it was that bad.

266
00:11:59,318 --> 00:12:00,886
        - None of us did.       

267
00:12:01,654 --> 00:12:03,222
        - Is she gonna...       

268
00:12:04,824 --> 00:12:07,526
      Is she gonna be able      
      to come back to work?     

269
00:12:07,960 --> 00:12:11,063
- I think the drugs she's asking
      for are a real risk.      

270
00:12:11,130 --> 00:12:12,498
             Paige.             

271
00:12:12,565 --> 00:12:14,033
            - Maybe.            

272
00:12:14,934 --> 00:12:17,069
     But she's the one alone    
         with the pain.         

273
00:12:20,272 --> 00:12:21,607
        - Dr. Devi, sorry.      

274
00:12:21,674 --> 00:12:23,976
  Uh, I imagine you heard about 
     Trauma OR this morning.    

275
00:12:24,043 --> 00:12:26,011
       I know you've been       
       auditing the logs,       

276
00:12:26,078 --> 00:12:28,447
  so if you have any questions  
         about the fancy        

277
00:12:28,514 --> 00:12:29,648
       piece of equipment       
       Dr. Novak ordered--      

278
00:12:29,715 --> 00:12:31,517
       - Oh, I have a lot       
     of questions for Mark.     

279
00:12:31,584 --> 00:12:33,853
     All of which I'd prefer    
    to ask without a buffer.    

280
00:12:33,919 --> 00:12:36,856
        - Yeah, I, uh...        
          - Dr. Curtis?         

281
00:12:36,922 --> 00:12:38,290
This is Murray, Esther's father.

282
00:12:38,357 --> 00:12:40,593
      - I just saw my son,      
 but they said you could tell me

283
00:12:40,659 --> 00:12:41,927
        what's happening        
        with my daughter.       

284
00:12:41,994 --> 00:12:43,662
       - Yes, we were able      
   to secure Esther's airway.   

285
00:12:43,729 --> 00:12:45,264
    She's gonna need several    
    reconstructive surgeries    

286
00:12:45,331 --> 00:12:47,633
 over the next couple of days-- 
     - Well, can I see her?     

287
00:12:47,700 --> 00:12:49,001
       (dog barks lightly)      
          (June sighs)          

288
00:12:49,068 --> 00:12:51,103
   - You need to be prepared.   
     Her face and her airway    

289
00:12:51,170 --> 00:12:52,738
    were damaged extensively.   

290
00:12:52,805 --> 00:12:54,373
       - Well, she's gonna      
         recover, right?        

291
00:12:54,440 --> 00:12:56,408
         She's starting         
      university soon and--     

292
00:12:56,475 --> 00:12:58,878
         - Functionally,        
     her prognosis is good.     

293
00:12:58,944 --> 00:13:01,247
        But she may have        
    some trouble swallowing,    

294
00:13:01,313 --> 00:13:02,915
         she might need         
       a speech therapist.      

295
00:13:02,982 --> 00:13:05,084
         And they'll be         
      some scaring, but...      

296
00:13:06,619 --> 00:13:10,222
     - This dog, we got him     
    the week their mom left.    

297
00:13:10,723 --> 00:13:15,227
  Anytime one of them was sick  
 or sad, he'd be by their side. 

298
00:13:15,294 --> 00:13:17,863
Like, their pain is his to bear.

299
00:13:18,931 --> 00:13:21,467
  - Well, you can come see her  

300
00:13:21,534 --> 00:13:23,469
    in the ICU, I just, uh...   
         (pager beeping)        

301
00:13:24,470 --> 00:13:26,472
        Sorry, you just,        
     you can't take the dog.    

302
00:13:27,573 --> 00:13:30,042
         (dog whimpers)         
    No, I can't, you can't...   

303
00:13:31,544 --> 00:13:32,812
          (dog groans)          

304
00:13:34,413 --> 00:13:36,415
     I got your page, Bash.     
    - You ever held a living    

305
00:13:36,482 --> 00:13:38,918
   creature before because you  
look completely unnatural, June.

306
00:13:38,984 --> 00:13:40,719
     - Then maybe you should    
     take him since you made    

307
00:13:40,786 --> 00:13:42,688
     such a big deal of him     
       staying in Trauma.       

308
00:13:42,755 --> 00:13:44,790
         - Okay... Geez.        

309
00:13:45,224 --> 00:13:46,959
       - What are you guys      
   even doing here? I told you  

310
00:13:47,026 --> 00:13:48,894
    I'd fill you in if I had    
    any news on her surgery.    

311
00:13:48,961 --> 00:13:52,064
    - We were just discussing   
 that while Mags is in recovery,

312
00:13:52,131 --> 00:13:54,667
     if we split her shift,     
     they won't need to hire    
       a temp replacement.      

313
00:13:54,733 --> 00:13:57,303
        - I already have        
  my hands full trying to keep  
     my job from imploding.     

314
00:13:57,369 --> 00:13:58,737
  - What, June, you won't help? 

315
00:13:58,804 --> 00:14:01,006
     - Did she even ask you     
           to do this?          

316
00:14:01,073 --> 00:14:02,908
           Wait here.           

317
00:14:02,975 --> 00:14:04,310
            - June...           

318
00:14:06,679 --> 00:14:11,483
  - I mean, Mags does work at,  
 like, three times the capacity 
       of a normal person.      

319
00:14:11,550 --> 00:14:13,385
 Are we even gonna make a dent? 

320
00:14:14,119 --> 00:14:16,155
    - She coded on the table.   
             - What?            

321
00:14:16,222 --> 00:14:18,190
        - June, did she--       
- They were able to get her back

322
00:14:18,257 --> 00:14:21,427
     but it's not looking...    
     That's all I could get.    

323
00:14:21,493 --> 00:14:23,429
        - Okay, then I'll       
        find out myself.        

324
00:14:23,495 --> 00:14:24,663
             - Bash!            
     What are you gonna do?     

325
00:14:24,730 --> 00:14:26,599
    - I have to talk to them,   
        maybe I can help!       

326
00:14:26,665 --> 00:14:29,602
      - Hey, hey! You can't     
     just storm into the OR     
        with zero context       

327
00:14:29,668 --> 00:14:32,738
     and distract the people    
   who can actually help her.   

328
00:14:36,175 --> 00:14:37,576
            - Bash...           

329
00:14:46,485 --> 00:14:48,954
wailing)                        

330
00:15:07,706 --> 00:15:09,008
         (Paige weeping)        

331
00:15:09,074 --> 00:15:11,744
       - It's about time!       
   The poor girl's dying here.  

332
00:15:12,278 --> 00:15:13,445
      - Your labs are back.     

333
00:15:13,512 --> 00:15:15,581
   - You're not gonna give me   
      the meds I asked for.     

334
00:15:15,648 --> 00:15:17,650
     - The risk of straining    
    your kidneys is too high.   

335
00:15:17,716 --> 00:15:20,786
 We're managing your pancreatic 
    inflammation with fluids.   

336
00:15:20,853 --> 00:15:23,622
    I know it's not the news    
        you wanted but...       

337
00:15:23,689 --> 00:15:25,424
      - I own a restaurant.     

338
00:15:25,491 --> 00:15:28,060
          And you know,         
 it's my job to taste our food. 

339
00:15:28,127 --> 00:15:30,796
   Fatty foods being the exact  
  thing I'm supposed to avoid.  

340
00:15:30,863 --> 00:15:33,532
 - Well, isn't that a sick joke.
            - Right?            

341
00:15:33,599 --> 00:15:35,467
And usually I just have a taste.

342
00:15:35,534 --> 00:15:37,169
Only last night we were slammed.

343
00:15:37,236 --> 00:15:41,807
 And after close, these 18-hour 
 short ribs were calling to me. 

344
00:15:41,874 --> 00:15:44,009
    - Why won't you help her?   

345
00:15:44,076 --> 00:15:45,945
         - I understand         
      this is frustrating.      

346
00:15:46,011 --> 00:15:48,080
I can give you other suggestions
      for pain management.      

347
00:15:48,147 --> 00:15:50,215
   It's just that we see a lot  
        of people come in       

348
00:15:50,282 --> 00:15:52,451
   with pancreatitis and based  
   on my personal experience--  

349
00:15:52,518 --> 00:15:54,353
    - That's really what it's   
    about, though, isn't it?    

350
00:15:54,420 --> 00:15:57,256
        Your experience.        
   The day that you're having   

351
00:15:57,323 --> 00:15:58,791
   when you walk in the room.   

352
00:15:58,857 --> 00:16:01,827
   - Once, a doctor at another  
         hospital seemed        

353
00:16:01,894 --> 00:16:04,463
so personally offended that none
 of his solutions were working, 

354
00:16:04,530 --> 00:16:06,966
      he suggested I apply      
  for medically assisted death. 

355
00:16:07,032 --> 00:16:09,868
     - Jesus. What is wrong     
        with you people?        

356
00:16:09,935 --> 00:16:13,372
    - At least I know I have    
   a fall-back option in case   
    no one can help me here.    

357
00:16:13,439 --> 00:16:14,873
   - This is your life, Paige.  

358
00:16:14,940 --> 00:16:17,576
   That's not some idle threat  
        to waive around.        

359
00:16:21,146 --> 00:16:26,385
    Someone else will come in   
 and offer you other suggestions
      for pain management.      

360
00:16:34,960 --> 00:16:36,295
       - Heard about your       
         friend Leblanc.        

361
00:16:36,362 --> 00:16:40,432
   - You bought $11,000 worth   
   of unsanctioned equipment.   

362
00:16:40,499 --> 00:16:43,469
    - Life-saving equipment.    
  - "Get you fired" equipment.  

363
00:16:43,535 --> 00:16:45,304
          I'm serious.          
      While you were AWOL,      

364
00:16:45,371 --> 00:16:48,240
 Devi was trying to convince me 
      to help her find ways     
       of moving you out.       

365
00:16:48,307 --> 00:16:50,075
         - Well, did ya?        
              - No!             

366
00:16:50,142 --> 00:16:53,445
  - Short-sighted on your part. 
     It could've been a good    
      career move for you.      

367
00:16:53,512 --> 00:16:55,414
      - Why do you not care     
           about this?          

368
00:16:55,481 --> 00:16:57,116
      - C'mon, what's wrong     
        with these doors?       

369
00:16:57,182 --> 00:16:59,251
   - When we started Trauma OR  
     together, you loved it     

370
00:16:59,318 --> 00:17:01,120
 because building and making up 
       the rules as you go      

371
00:17:01,186 --> 00:17:03,455
   works for you, but actually  
  following them, not so much.  

372
00:17:03,522 --> 00:17:05,691
         - Wow, that is         
   so insightful of you, June.  

373
00:17:05,758 --> 00:17:08,894
  - You know what I don't get?  
   If you don't like your job,  
     why are you still here,    

374
00:17:08,961 --> 00:17:11,830
   when you could just leave?   
    Why are you trying to get   
      Devi to push you out?     

375
00:17:11,897 --> 00:17:13,465
   - Because you won't let me!  

376
00:17:13,532 --> 00:17:16,635
      You keep dragging me      
into conversations like this one

377
00:17:16,702 --> 00:17:21,073
     in which you remind me     
 about important how our working
     relationship is to you.    

378
00:17:22,508 --> 00:17:24,977
             (sighs)            
    I never wanted a partner.   

379
00:17:25,044 --> 00:17:27,179
 - Then why did you recruit me? 

380
00:17:27,246 --> 00:17:29,782
         - That was one         
      of my many mistakes.      

381
00:17:32,151 --> 00:17:34,920
      Okay, I'm pretty sure     
 this counts as harassment now. 

382
00:17:34,987 --> 00:17:37,790
    - Well, we're gonna have    
   this conversations because   
  I'm not just gonna walk away. 

383
00:17:37,856 --> 00:17:42,094
      - Really? You should      
    try it sometimes because    
      it really feels good.     

384
00:17:42,161 --> 00:17:43,896
           - I can't.           

385
00:17:43,962 --> 00:17:46,665
       I'm thinking about       
       having a kid, okay?      

386
00:17:46,732 --> 00:17:50,102
  There. And if I do something  
  that's that crazy by myself,  

387
00:17:50,169 --> 00:17:52,805
   I need to know that my work  
     environment is stable.     

388
00:17:52,871 --> 00:17:55,274
      And I know you don't      
  want me putting my emotional  
        stability on you.       

389
00:17:55,340 --> 00:17:58,811
       - Guilt tripping me      
 because you're suddenly nesting
    is the opposite of that.    

390
00:17:58,877 --> 00:18:01,013
 - It's not why I'm saying this.

391
00:18:01,080 --> 00:18:03,148
      I actually like being     
          your partner.         

392
00:18:03,215 --> 00:18:05,350
  And I know you like it, too.  
     Like, you would miss it    

393
00:18:05,417 --> 00:18:09,021
   if you got run out of here   
   for being a stubborn idiot!  

394
00:18:09,088 --> 00:18:10,756
      - Oh, how magnanimous     
          of you, June.         

395
00:18:10,823 --> 00:18:12,958
         - I care about         
   what happens to you, Mark!   

396
00:18:13,025 --> 00:18:15,194
        - The only reason       
     our partnership exists     

397
00:18:15,260 --> 00:18:18,163
 is because you stepped over me 
     to get yourself power.     

398
00:18:18,230 --> 00:18:20,032
        - That happened,        
        like, months ago.       

399
00:18:20,099 --> 00:18:22,801
     - You could've told me     
something instead of burning me!

400
00:18:22,868 --> 00:18:24,603
    - That actually hurt you?   

401
00:18:24,670 --> 00:18:25,904
        (Novak chuckles)        

402
00:18:25,971 --> 00:18:27,873
      That proves my point.     

403
00:18:27,940 --> 00:18:29,141
            You care.           

404
00:18:29,208 --> 00:18:32,444
      - You're too damaged      
      to be a mother, June.     

405
00:18:38,851 --> 00:18:40,719
        - Where's Paige?        

406
00:18:41,487 --> 00:18:42,721
           What the...          

407
00:18:44,389 --> 00:18:45,557
             Kathy?             

408
00:18:46,859 --> 00:18:48,260
           Seriously?           

409
00:18:48,327 --> 00:18:50,262
       - Figured what harm      
     could it do now, right?    

410
00:18:50,329 --> 00:18:52,898
    - But this is a hospital,   
    you're in heart failure,    

411
00:18:52,965 --> 00:18:54,900
  and you have a sick roommate! 

412
00:18:54,967 --> 00:18:57,236
   - Not anymore, Paige left!   

413
00:18:57,302 --> 00:18:59,371
- Left, what do you mean "left"?

414
00:18:59,438 --> 00:19:01,140
       - Well, the details      
     are between me and her,    

415
00:19:01,206 --> 00:19:04,710
  but I will tell you that this 
   place failed her big time!   

416
00:19:04,776 --> 00:19:06,078
   - Do you know where she is?  

417
00:19:06,145 --> 00:19:07,746
        Because she still       
        needs treatment.        

418
00:19:07,813 --> 00:19:10,182
        She needs fluids        
        and pain control.       

419
00:19:10,249 --> 00:19:11,650
 - Is that what these are? Nice!

420
00:19:11,717 --> 00:19:13,685
        - Hey, those are        
       basically morphine!      

421
00:19:13,752 --> 00:19:16,855
        - Oh! Beautiful!        
          Anyway, why?          

422
00:19:16,922 --> 00:19:20,058
     Paige already told you     
   that the good stuff doesn't  
        even work on her.       

423
00:19:20,125 --> 00:19:22,928
 - Those were not meant for you!

424
00:19:22,995 --> 00:19:28,834
 - Well, screw me for wanting to
 feel good, you uncaring bitch! 

425
00:19:29,434 --> 00:19:31,737
        (Kathy coughing)        

426
00:19:39,711 --> 00:19:41,380
     - Where have you been?     

427
00:19:41,446 --> 00:19:45,050
    I mean, you weren't here    
   to stop Paige from leaving.  

428
00:19:45,117 --> 00:19:46,952
         - To go where?         

429
00:19:51,156 --> 00:19:54,726
   - Of course, Abby swore she  
 wanted to go on the drop ride, 

430
00:19:54,793 --> 00:19:58,130
    but as soon as we got to    
the top, she panicked, poor kid.

431
00:19:58,197 --> 00:20:01,600
- Just give it a couple of days,
     she'll remember it like    
        she conquered it.       

432
00:20:01,667 --> 00:20:04,870
     - Uh, hey, do you mind     
           if we sit?           

433
00:20:04,937 --> 00:20:06,405
             - Sure.            

434
00:20:07,206 --> 00:20:11,143
  - Uh, look, I don't want you  

435
00:20:11,210 --> 00:20:14,213
      to feel like you need     
      to hide from me, son.     

436
00:20:14,279 --> 00:20:17,616
 You know, whether you're, well,
   dating that person or not--  

437
00:20:17,683 --> 00:20:18,884
            - Dad...            
          - No, no, no.         

438
00:20:18,951 --> 00:20:21,053
    I should not have pried,    
         that wasn't...         

439
00:20:21,119 --> 00:20:22,688
        Not my business.        

440
00:20:22,754 --> 00:20:24,890
     And to set an example,     

441
00:20:24,957 --> 00:20:30,362
    you should know that I am   
   no longer with the church.   

442
00:20:30,996 --> 00:20:32,531
         - You retired,         
        Dad, that's big--       

443
00:20:32,598 --> 00:20:36,468
   - No, no, no, not retired.   
         Uh... resigned.        

444
00:20:38,237 --> 00:20:41,974
    I wanted to tell you, but   
you're always so busy and, uh...

445
00:20:42,040 --> 00:20:46,044
 - Okay, but... So you and Mom, 
      you still go, right?      

446
00:20:46,111 --> 00:20:50,115
        - Uh, well, yeah,       
 your mother, from time to time.

447
00:20:50,182 --> 00:20:53,118
         But it would be        
        too weird for me.       

448
00:20:54,253 --> 00:20:57,122
          And actually,         
       I work Sundays now.      

449
00:20:57,189 --> 00:20:59,925
        Yeah, for a small       
       landscaping outfit.      

450
00:20:59,992 --> 00:21:01,560
      You know, it's, uh...     

451
00:21:01,627 --> 00:21:06,331
       - Dad, you gave up       
     a lead pastor to, what?    

452
00:21:06,398 --> 00:21:10,168
 Trim hedges? You've been doing 
   that job for 30 years, Dad!  

453
00:21:10,235 --> 00:21:12,938
     - The church has stayed    
        exactly the same.       

454
00:21:13,005 --> 00:21:18,744
    And there are just things   
     about that that I can't    
       reconcile anymore.       

455
00:21:19,411 --> 00:21:21,847
        - You used to say       
    that wrestling with doubt   
        was a good thing.       

456
00:21:21,913 --> 00:21:23,849
             - Yeah.            
      - Right, that, uh...      

457
00:21:23,915 --> 00:21:26,785
   faith grows with the fight.  
       You would say that.      

458
00:21:26,852 --> 00:21:28,287
     - I still believe that.    

459
00:21:28,353 --> 00:21:30,622
     You know what, I also,     
  I sometimes wonder, perhaps,  

460
00:21:30,689 --> 00:21:33,225
  I pushed you too far towards  
   something that I believed.   

461
00:21:33,292 --> 00:21:34,726
         You know, maybe        
      that's why you left.      

462
00:21:34,793 --> 00:21:36,662
   - Oh, so now it's my fault   
    that you're throwing away   

463
00:21:36,728 --> 00:21:38,597
everything we grew up believing?
      Dad, that's unhinged.     

464
00:21:38,664 --> 00:21:40,766
            That's...           
   - It's not, it's not, Theo.  

465
00:21:40,832 --> 00:21:43,135
    No, I think it's so brave   
          what you did.         

466
00:21:43,201 --> 00:21:48,106
       It is. Recognizing       
     that you weren't happy,    
  and then changing your life.  

467
00:21:48,173 --> 00:21:50,375
   The path that you were on.   

468
00:21:50,442 --> 00:21:52,978
     No. Look, if anything,     
        that inspired me.       

469
00:21:53,045 --> 00:21:54,446
             - Oh...            

470
00:21:55,213 --> 00:21:59,685
   Do not rethink your calling  
     because of me, please.     

471
00:22:13,699 --> 00:22:14,866
             - Hey.             

472
00:22:15,267 --> 00:22:16,702
         Still no news.         

473
00:22:17,102 --> 00:22:18,370
         How you doing?         

474
00:22:18,904 --> 00:22:20,572
      - Don't really know.      

475
00:22:24,176 --> 00:22:27,546
     - Think I was a little     
         harsh earlier.         

476
00:22:28,046 --> 00:22:31,216
       Just don't know how      
   to deal with these things.   

477
00:22:32,284 --> 00:22:34,119
     - You're asking me how?    

478
00:22:35,220 --> 00:22:36,988
      I was gonna go pray.      

479
00:22:37,055 --> 00:22:38,757
- Does that really work for you?

480
00:22:39,324 --> 00:22:40,592
            - Uh-huh.           

481
00:22:41,893 --> 00:22:44,763
      Also, it just gets me     
         out of my head,        

482
00:22:44,830 --> 00:22:46,565
          so I don't do         
        something like...       

483
00:22:46,631 --> 00:22:48,700
 - Barge into an operating room.

484
00:22:48,767 --> 00:22:50,068
            - Yeah...           

485
00:22:50,602 --> 00:22:52,637
      Look, if Mags, uh...      

486
00:22:56,174 --> 00:22:58,810
     If she doesn't make it,    
            I just...           

487
00:22:59,845 --> 00:23:02,047
 I think that's it for me, June.

488
00:23:03,582 --> 00:23:05,250
       - What do you mean?      

489
00:23:05,784 --> 00:23:07,119
             - No...            

490
00:23:07,185 --> 00:23:09,221
            Not that.           

491
00:23:09,287 --> 00:23:10,956
            I just...           

492
00:23:14,726 --> 00:23:18,330
     I just know I won't be     
       able to start over.      

493
00:23:19,164 --> 00:23:21,166
         No, not again.         

494
00:23:27,272 --> 00:23:29,474
laying)                         

495
00:23:46,324 --> 00:23:47,759
        (birds chirping)        

496
00:23:54,966 --> 00:23:56,568
        (pills rattling)        

497
00:24:16,988 --> 00:24:19,357
           (in French)          

498
00:24:25,030 --> 00:24:26,398
       - How do you feel?       

499
00:24:27,299 --> 00:24:29,634
        - I was dreaming        
      about the anesthetic.     

500
00:24:29,701 --> 00:24:31,770
     That sleep is so heavy.    

501
00:24:31,837 --> 00:24:35,474
    Every time I wake up now,   
  I feel a huge wave of relief  

502
00:24:35,540 --> 00:24:39,411
 washing over me when I realize 
 how lucky I am to have made it.

503
00:24:40,512 --> 00:24:42,547
  - I'm making vegetable soup.  

504
00:24:42,614 --> 00:24:45,217
  Think you'll be hungry later? 

505
00:24:45,717 --> 00:24:47,452
            - Maybe.            

506
00:24:51,623 --> 00:24:53,258
            Hey, Dad.           

507
00:24:58,129 --> 00:24:59,931
           (in French)          

508
00:25:03,435 --> 00:25:05,437
         (music playing)        

509
00:25:06,004 --> 00:25:07,572
           - Who died?          

510
00:25:18,717 --> 00:25:19,851
          - Hi, Paige.          

511
00:25:19,918 --> 00:25:22,621
       It's Dr. Hamed from      
      York Memorial, again.     

512
00:25:22,687 --> 00:25:25,790
      You haven't returned      
      any of my calls so...     

513
00:25:25,857 --> 00:25:28,126
          just checking         
      if everything's okay.     

514
00:25:29,461 --> 00:25:30,862
       - You're on my bed.      

515
00:25:30,929 --> 00:25:33,865
      - Yeah, you asked me      
      to lie here earlier.      

516
00:25:33,932 --> 00:25:35,934
            - I did?            
             - Hmm.             

517
00:25:37,002 --> 00:25:40,305
   - These immunosuppressants   
       are messing me up.       

518
00:25:40,372 --> 00:25:42,674
      I feel so spaced out.     

519
00:25:43,742 --> 00:25:46,478
       And is that a rash?      
          I feel itchy.         

520
00:25:47,212 --> 00:25:51,182
   - No, I don't see anything,  
  but let's keep an eye on it.  

521
00:25:52,551 --> 00:25:54,219
   - Who were you talking to?   

522
00:25:54,286 --> 00:25:56,855
         - Uh, a patient        
       with pancreatitis.       

523
00:25:56,922 --> 00:26:01,126
  She left AMA and things ended 
    sort of weird between us.   

524
00:26:01,192 --> 00:26:03,828
        - Mmm, maybe she        
        just needs space.       

525
00:26:03,895 --> 00:26:07,198
    - What if she needs help?   
         - She can ask.         

526
00:26:07,265 --> 00:26:09,367
      You know, it's gotta      
         come from her.         

527
00:26:11,469 --> 00:26:13,038
            (sighing)           

528
00:26:13,104 --> 00:26:15,874
      I wish I didn't need      
       all the drugs that       
     they're putting me on.     

529
00:26:16,341 --> 00:26:19,978
   - Hey, look, you and I both  
 know that the immune system... 

530
00:26:20,045 --> 00:26:24,282
   attacks foreign substances.  
  In this case, that's organs.  

531
00:26:24,349 --> 00:26:26,718
     - Will it be the heart     
    that rejects the patient    

532
00:26:26,785 --> 00:26:29,154
         or the patient         
     that rejects the heart?    

533
00:26:29,220 --> 00:26:32,591
     - Both of those options    
        end in rejection.       

534
00:26:34,759 --> 00:26:38,930
   - Because it was never mine  
    to begin with, the heart.   

535
00:26:39,397 --> 00:26:44,035
 And now, part of another human 
   being is braiding with me.   

536
00:26:46,471 --> 00:26:49,040
        Should I be happy       
    that that's all behind me   

537
00:26:49,107 --> 00:26:50,508
  or afraid about what's ahead? 

538
00:26:50,575 --> 00:26:52,177
          - Bash called         
      while you were asleep.    

539
00:26:54,980 --> 00:26:58,750
  - If you want me to tell him  
to lay off a bit, I can do that.

540
00:26:58,817 --> 00:27:00,518
             Gently.            

541
00:27:02,954 --> 00:27:04,456
        How do you feel?        
            (sighing)           

542
00:27:04,522 --> 00:27:07,692
   - I would love it if people  
   would stop asking me that.   

543
00:27:09,694 --> 00:27:11,663
      - Mum's making soup.      

544
00:27:12,631 --> 00:27:15,667
    - Well, if you must know,   
      I feel like a zombie.     

545
00:27:15,734 --> 00:27:18,370
     Like the Walking Dead.     
           (chuckling)          

546
00:27:19,037 --> 00:27:20,872
         - Oh, how long         
      it's been like that?      

547
00:27:20,939 --> 00:27:24,142
   - I think it just came on.   
   - Is it time for your meds?  

548
00:27:25,076 --> 00:27:28,213
 - What if they're not working? 
        - Magalie, don't.       

549
00:27:28,279 --> 00:27:30,649
 Your doctor's checked in every 
    day, he says you're good.   

550
00:27:30,715 --> 00:27:34,586
      - I can feel it, Cam.     
  I can feel it trying to fight 
       its way out of me.       

551
00:27:34,653 --> 00:27:36,655
      - The funny thing is      
       she fought so hard       

552
00:27:36,721 --> 00:27:38,356
  to get into this art school,  

553
00:27:38,423 --> 00:27:40,992
  and now, the thing she likes  
        the most is math.       

554
00:27:41,059 --> 00:27:43,361
           (laughing)           
        - Well, you know,       

555
00:27:43,428 --> 00:27:45,463
      not knowing what path     
 they're on is part of the fun. 

556
00:27:45,530 --> 00:27:47,832
        - This feels like       
       a horrible memory.       

557
00:27:48,400 --> 00:27:51,703
 Being 12 years old and you guys
    were so worried about me.   

558
00:27:51,770 --> 00:27:55,040
           (in French)          

559
00:27:55,106 --> 00:27:57,575
- Never too late to start again.

560
00:27:57,642 --> 00:27:59,544
     - What were you saying     
       about your sister?       

561
00:27:59,611 --> 00:28:03,915
      - Oh, she got invited     
  to the STEM exchange program  
    at this school in England   

562
00:28:03,982 --> 00:28:06,017
   for kids who excel at math,  

563
00:28:06,084 --> 00:28:07,952
       and I can't decide       
     whether to let her go.     

564
00:28:08,019 --> 00:28:10,055
 - Mmm, they all go eventually. 

565
00:28:10,555 --> 00:28:12,657
           Bon appétit.         
         (Magalie gasps)        

566
00:28:13,258 --> 00:28:15,093
     - Something went wrong.    
         We've lost her.        

567
00:28:15,160 --> 00:28:17,028
       (monitors beeping)       

568
00:28:19,764 --> 00:28:21,199
       - You'll never work      
        again after this.       

569
00:28:21,966 --> 00:28:24,202
    - No! There's a bad rash,   
           Dr. Zhang.           

570
00:28:24,269 --> 00:28:25,503
       And her fever won't      
         come down now!         

571
00:28:25,570 --> 00:28:27,272
    - We need to get it out.    

572
00:28:27,839 --> 00:28:29,040
             Please!            

573
00:28:29,107 --> 00:28:30,575
- Magalie, you're only dreaming.

574
00:28:30,642 --> 00:28:32,444
            - Please!           

575
00:28:33,712 --> 00:28:35,213
       You need to get it       
         out of me now!         

576
00:28:35,280 --> 00:28:36,681
         (Magalie gasps)        

577
00:28:36,748 --> 00:28:39,084
        (heavy breathing)       

578
00:28:39,150 --> 00:28:40,985
         (music playing)        

579
00:28:42,353 --> 00:28:44,355
          ♪ Memories ♪          

580
00:28:45,757 --> 00:28:48,693
   ♪ Feel like a disease... ♪♪  

581
00:28:50,729 --> 00:28:52,464
           (knocking)           

582
00:28:54,199 --> 00:28:55,667
           - Come in.           

583
00:28:56,501 --> 00:29:00,171
    - Hey, Cam said you need    
       to be awake anyway.      

584
00:29:00,238 --> 00:29:03,141
        - Yeah, come sit.       

585
00:29:04,509 --> 00:29:06,945
            (sighing)           
           Tell me...           

586
00:29:07,746 --> 00:29:10,014
     What's the panic level     
        out there really?       

587
00:29:10,081 --> 00:29:12,283
             - Um...            
           (chuckling)          

588
00:29:12,350 --> 00:29:15,220
    Well, your mother thinks    
    that her soup will solve    

589
00:29:15,286 --> 00:29:18,656
      all of your problems      
        and I assured her       
       you would be fine.       

590
00:29:19,390 --> 00:29:22,393
   - I love that I don't have   
      to pretend with you.      

591
00:29:23,361 --> 00:29:26,765
         - It does seem         
      like you're adjusting     
    to your meds better now.    

592
00:29:26,831 --> 00:29:31,402
 I know it's been a rocky couple
     of weeks in this place.    

593
00:29:31,469 --> 00:29:32,837
            - Yeah...           

594
00:29:35,473 --> 00:29:37,342
            - Mags--            
          - What is it?         

595
00:29:37,408 --> 00:29:40,645
         I had a thought        
       during your surgery      

596
00:29:40,712 --> 00:29:44,682
   when I got scared that you   
weren't going to come out of it.

597
00:29:44,749 --> 00:29:46,584
 - Every time I fall asleep now,

598
00:29:46,651 --> 00:29:48,686
       I'm afraid I'm not       
         gonna wake up.         

599
00:29:50,054 --> 00:29:52,323
  It's been really unsettling.  

600
00:29:52,390 --> 00:29:55,560
        - That's normal,        
        it'll take time.        

601
00:29:56,327 --> 00:29:57,862
         - What thought?        

602
00:29:59,030 --> 00:30:02,667
       - Look, I know when      
    you and I were together,    

603
00:30:02,734 --> 00:30:04,269
        we had our issues       
         on figuring out        

604
00:30:04,335 --> 00:30:06,037
        how we were going       
         to move forward        

605
00:30:06,104 --> 00:30:08,239
 or if we were going to at all. 

606
00:30:08,306 --> 00:30:12,644
  And I know a lot of that was  
     me and my fears, but...    

607
00:30:15,213 --> 00:30:17,916
      I can't see a future      
      unless you're in it.      

608
00:30:19,083 --> 00:30:22,787
       This is real, Mags.      
     I want this to be real.    

609
00:30:35,600 --> 00:30:39,304
   - Did you... make this when  
   you thought Mags might die?  

610
00:30:39,370 --> 00:30:41,206
             - Um...            

611
00:30:41,906 --> 00:30:44,843
       It was like the day      
         of her surgery,        

612
00:30:44,909 --> 00:30:49,280
      but it's not usually,     
     like, about one thing.     

613
00:30:49,347 --> 00:30:51,216
     It's about everything.     

614
00:30:53,117 --> 00:30:55,520
    - When we were together,    

615
00:30:55,587 --> 00:30:58,957
          I had no idea         
     this was a part of you.    

616
00:30:59,824 --> 00:31:02,961
     - I've never been good     
   at letting people know me.   

617
00:31:03,027 --> 00:31:05,930
 - Not sure that's true anymore.

618
00:31:11,336 --> 00:31:13,238
        (sirens wailing)        

619
00:31:32,156 --> 00:31:34,859
          - Hey, Karim.         
         - Hey, Bashir.         

620
00:31:34,926 --> 00:31:37,228
  I got your call this morning, 
        I was just, uh--        

621
00:31:37,295 --> 00:31:39,063
         - I put it all         
     on the line with Mags.     

622
00:31:39,130 --> 00:31:41,733
    I told her that I want us   
         to be together         

623
00:31:41,799 --> 00:31:44,602
 and she has to think about it. 

624
00:31:44,669 --> 00:31:47,205
  - How's she doing these days? 
        - It's been, uh,        

625
00:31:47,272 --> 00:31:49,674
   it's been a couple of weeks  
       since her surgery.       

626
00:31:49,741 --> 00:31:51,676
       She's moving around      
         the apartment,         

627
00:31:51,743 --> 00:31:54,279
        but there's also        
   the psychological component  

628
00:31:54,345 --> 00:31:56,981
        of when do I get        
    to believe I've survived,   

629
00:31:57,048 --> 00:31:58,917
 and I get that because it's... 

630
00:31:58,983 --> 00:32:00,385
      - Can we go in here?      

631
00:32:00,451 --> 00:32:02,620
        - Uh, yeah, sure.       

632
00:32:09,494 --> 00:32:11,329
       Bashir, do you know      
      what transference is?     

633
00:32:11,396 --> 00:32:15,300
   - Uh, it's when an emotion   
      gets redirected to...     

634
00:32:15,366 --> 00:32:16,868
    where it doesn't belong.    

635
00:32:17,635 --> 00:32:19,537
      You think that's what     
      I'm doing with Mags.      

636
00:32:19,604 --> 00:32:21,306
           - Actually,          
      I'm talking about us.     

637
00:32:21,372 --> 00:32:23,942
 You call or text with thoughts 

638
00:32:24,008 --> 00:32:27,211
 and ask questions like a friend
     or family member would.    

639
00:32:27,278 --> 00:32:28,746
            - Yeah--            
          - Just wait.          

640
00:32:28,813 --> 00:32:31,049
   I'm gonna get through this.  
    I think because you and I   

641
00:32:31,115 --> 00:32:34,686
  are similar in so many ways,  
    culturally, in part, yes,   

642
00:32:34,752 --> 00:32:36,721
 but also just personality-wise,

643
00:32:36,788 --> 00:32:39,857
  that it's been easier for me  
    to let my boundaries lax.   

644
00:32:39,924 --> 00:32:43,061
     And you have this need     
         for a brother,         

645
00:32:43,127 --> 00:32:45,263
        or father figure,       
        or role model...        

646
00:32:46,197 --> 00:32:47,799
    And it pulls at me, man.    

647
00:32:48,333 --> 00:32:50,768
      So as your therapist,     
     I've let my guard down.    

648
00:32:50,835 --> 00:32:53,705
  I also should never have told 
 you about my brother who died. 

649
00:32:53,771 --> 00:32:56,507
             - Bu--             
      - That was about me.      

650
00:32:56,574 --> 00:32:59,010
      And it crossed a line     
  I have never crossed before.  

651
00:32:59,077 --> 00:33:01,112
  Is any of this making sense?  

652
00:33:02,480 --> 00:33:04,449
     - The work we're doing,    
          it's helping.         

653
00:33:04,515 --> 00:33:07,352
      - I know, but I need      
      to keep a firm grasp      

654
00:33:07,418 --> 00:33:09,721
   on professional boundaries.  
            I just...           

655
00:33:10,755 --> 00:33:12,590
    ...can't be your brother.   

656
00:33:16,894 --> 00:33:19,530
       - Are you firing me      
        as your patient?        

657
00:33:19,597 --> 00:33:23,835
       - No, but I do hope      
       that we can reset.       

658
00:33:24,502 --> 00:33:27,438
     So book an appointment     
      and we'll talk then.      

659
00:33:39,617 --> 00:33:41,786
         - Hey, Esther.         
             - Hey!             

660
00:33:41,853 --> 00:33:44,155
     - Your dad hanging in?     

661
00:33:44,222 --> 00:33:46,657
      I don't know, he kind     
      of looked tired or...     

662
00:33:46,724 --> 00:33:50,461
            - Crazy?            
  Yo, he murdered that coyote.  

663
00:33:50,528 --> 00:33:53,664
          - What, why?          
       - Revenge, he said.      

664
00:33:53,731 --> 00:33:56,167
    Like, we don't even know    
     if it was the same one.    

665
00:33:56,234 --> 00:33:58,403
     - Killed it with what?     
       - A hunting rifle.       

666
00:33:58,469 --> 00:34:04,609
 After the attack, he went out, 
   looking every night just...  

667
00:34:04,675 --> 00:34:06,277
        (mimics gunshot)        

668
00:34:07,445 --> 00:34:09,680
     I'm worried about him.     

669
00:34:09,747 --> 00:34:11,282
       - Yeah, I guess so.      

670
00:34:11,349 --> 00:34:15,286
 - And he raised us on his own, 
     that's a lot to carry.     

671
00:34:15,353 --> 00:34:17,055
    And even Bertie's upset.    

672
00:34:17,121 --> 00:34:20,491
    I mean, this is a trauma    
          on all of us.         

673
00:34:20,558 --> 00:34:22,393
    - Look, I checked back in   
         with Plastics,         

674
00:34:22,460 --> 00:34:24,529
    and they said your second   
       surgery went well.       

675
00:34:24,595 --> 00:34:28,232
  - Yeah, I mean, I can swallow 
better, if that's what you mean.

676
00:34:28,299 --> 00:34:31,069
 Do you think after the next one
      though I can go home,     

677
00:34:31,135 --> 00:34:35,039
 maybe help my dad, even make it
     back for Fall semester?    

678
00:34:35,106 --> 00:34:37,275
        - Look, Esther...       

679
00:34:39,777 --> 00:34:42,613
        About a year ago,       
  I was in a helicopter crash.  

680
00:34:42,680 --> 00:34:45,616
  Pilot died and I got stranded 
          in the woods.         

681
00:34:46,217 --> 00:34:49,353
      - Okay? I mean, wow!      

682
00:34:49,420 --> 00:34:51,622
              But--             
  - Why am I telling you this?  

683
00:34:52,557 --> 00:34:54,926
   I know I promised you that   
    everything would be fine.   

684
00:34:54,992 --> 00:34:57,762
 - Are you saying that it's not?
              - No.             

685
00:34:57,829 --> 00:35:00,331
      I'm just saying tha--     
 - Because you seem okay to me. 

686
00:35:00,398 --> 00:35:01,999
        - And am I. I am.       

687
00:35:02,066 --> 00:35:05,470
     And I barely even think    
        about it anymore.       

688
00:35:05,937 --> 00:35:08,339
    But I'm just now starting   
          to understand         

689
00:35:08,406 --> 00:35:09,707
 the effects that it had on me. 

690
00:35:09,774 --> 00:35:13,144
   - I don't really know what   
     to do with any of that.    

691
00:35:13,211 --> 00:35:16,147
            - I know.           
   Which is kind of my point.   

692
00:35:16,214 --> 00:35:20,318
       Okay, how you react      
 to all of this, just trust me, 

693
00:35:20,384 --> 00:35:23,187
  and just try to take it slow. 

694
00:35:23,921 --> 00:35:26,390
 I'm gonna go check on your dad.

695
00:35:29,260 --> 00:35:30,695
     - I need help out here!    

696
00:35:30,761 --> 00:35:32,497
    Need some help down here!   

697
00:35:35,032 --> 00:35:37,301
        (Kathy coughing)        
     - Arnold, what is this?    

698
00:35:37,368 --> 00:35:38,870
       - I just found her       
         collapsed here.        

699
00:35:38,936 --> 00:35:41,105
  Her O2 SAT's brutal, Claire.  
        - This is Kathy,        

700
00:35:41,172 --> 00:35:42,740
   she's been in and out with   
    congestive heart failure.   

701
00:35:42,807 --> 00:35:44,442
   - I heard a tonne of fluid.  

702
00:35:44,509 --> 00:35:46,410
         - Prep trauma.         
             - Yeah!            

703
00:35:46,477 --> 00:35:48,946
         (Kathy moaning)        

704
00:35:49,013 --> 00:35:51,182
           Kathy, hey!          
         Hang in there.         

705
00:35:51,249 --> 00:35:53,784
   Hang in there, we're gonna   
     help you breathe, okay?    

706
00:35:53,851 --> 00:35:56,521
            - No. No!           

707
00:35:56,587 --> 00:35:58,589
          No, not you!          

708
00:35:58,656 --> 00:36:00,558
        (Kathy coughing)        

709
00:36:00,625 --> 00:36:02,660
     - Mr. Danbury, Murray.     

710
00:36:02,727 --> 00:36:06,097
  I know it's been a tough few  
 weeks, but I just wanted to... 

711
00:36:06,631 --> 00:36:08,866
             - What?            
             - Uh...            

712
00:36:08,933 --> 00:36:10,501
       Am I crying blood?       

713
00:36:10,968 --> 00:36:13,171
 - Uh, June. Have you seen this?
             - Yeah?            

714
00:36:13,237 --> 00:36:15,306
   (PA emergency announcement)  

715
00:36:15,373 --> 00:36:17,275
 - I'll get that, you get this. 
          - Yeah, okay.         

716
00:36:17,341 --> 00:36:20,745
            Hi, sir.            
        Just look at me.        

717
00:36:21,279 --> 00:36:23,281
            (sighing)           

718
00:36:25,750 --> 00:36:28,019
       (breathing heavily)      

719
00:36:28,085 --> 00:36:29,554
        (monitor beeping)       

720
00:36:29,620 --> 00:36:31,222
           - Claire...          

721
00:36:31,756 --> 00:36:33,090
             Claire.            

722
00:36:33,457 --> 00:36:34,825
           It's over.           

723
00:36:39,997 --> 00:36:41,666
 - She wouldn't let me tube her.

724
00:36:41,732 --> 00:36:45,603
      By the time help came     
     and got her on the bed,    
    she deteriorated so fast.   

725
00:36:45,670 --> 00:36:47,471
   I did three rounds of CPR.   

726
00:36:47,538 --> 00:36:50,174
  I don't even know how she got 
    here, who brought her in.   

727
00:36:50,241 --> 00:36:51,442
            - I did.            

728
00:37:01,586 --> 00:37:03,988
my street                       
  knew where that thing slept.  

729
00:37:04,055 --> 00:37:06,591
  This city wasn't going to do  
     anything about it so...    

730
00:37:06,657 --> 00:37:09,694
    - But did you physically    
       handle the animal?       

731
00:37:09,760 --> 00:37:11,629
      - After I shot it...      

732
00:37:11,696 --> 00:37:15,166
      I used to go hunting      
     with my uncle, I still     
       have my old rifle.       

733
00:37:15,766 --> 00:37:17,501
 Anyway, I did the right thing. 

734
00:37:17,568 --> 00:37:20,938
    I made sure it was dead,    
        not in any pain.        

735
00:37:21,539 --> 00:37:22,773
              Why?              

736
00:37:22,840 --> 00:37:25,209
- Uh, coyotes can carry bacteria

737
00:37:25,276 --> 00:37:26,677
   that is harmful to humans.   

738
00:37:26,744 --> 00:37:28,546
      - What, like rabies?      

739
00:37:28,613 --> 00:37:30,014
            - Hmm...            

740
00:37:30,081 --> 00:37:31,449
   - Because I've been feeling  
         kind of fluish.        

741
00:37:31,515 --> 00:37:33,017
     - It could be something    
        called tularemia.       

742
00:37:33,084 --> 00:37:34,385
When Esther came in, we gave her

743
00:37:34,452 --> 00:37:35,686
 some precautionary antibiotics,

744
00:37:35,753 --> 00:37:37,555
but if you had it on your hands,

745
00:37:37,622 --> 00:37:39,323
      and then you touched      
           your eye...          

746
00:37:39,957 --> 00:37:42,560
 Okay, so Murray, I'm gonna have
     to cut into the tissue     

747
00:37:42,627 --> 00:37:45,429
  in order to drain the abscess 
   or else you might go blind,  

748
00:37:45,496 --> 00:37:48,866
but, I am gonna numb your first.

749
00:37:55,973 --> 00:37:58,442
     - I know it was stupid.    
        - Just one more.        

750
00:37:59,176 --> 00:38:02,246
 - I just couldn't sleep knowing
 that thing was still out there.

751
00:38:02,313 --> 00:38:03,547
            - Yeah...           

752
00:38:04,515 --> 00:38:06,484
  - I know you think I'm crazy. 

753
00:38:09,520 --> 00:38:13,224
   - Actually, I was wondering  
   if it made you feel better?  

754
00:38:14,091 --> 00:38:16,694
  - I love those kids so much.  

755
00:38:17,295 --> 00:38:19,163
      It's worth the pain.      

756
00:38:32,376 --> 00:38:35,179
      - She texted me after     
        I left that day.        

757
00:38:35,946 --> 00:38:39,150
I invited her to the restaurant,
       cooked her a steak.      

758
00:38:39,216 --> 00:38:40,985
 We've both been feeling lousy. 

759
00:38:41,052 --> 00:38:43,087
         Ended up making        
       friends over that.       

760
00:38:43,154 --> 00:38:44,855
          Sick friends.         

761
00:38:45,323 --> 00:38:48,459
       - I'm sorry, Paige.      
     - You called me a lot.     

762
00:38:48,526 --> 00:38:50,528
 - Yeah, are you still in pain? 

763
00:38:50,594 --> 00:38:52,530
            (scoffs)            
   We'll get you into a room,   

764
00:38:52,596 --> 00:38:55,266
 I'll give you an IV of Toradol.
  - Now you'll do what I want.  

765
00:38:55,333 --> 00:38:57,735
    Two weeks ago it was such   
  a big risk, but now it's not? 

766
00:38:57,802 --> 00:38:59,570
      - It's still a risk.      
    - Then why did my friend    

767
00:38:59,637 --> 00:39:01,505
 have to die for you to take it?

768
00:39:03,741 --> 00:39:07,078
 - Look, I am the kind of doctor
        that takes risks.       

769
00:39:07,144 --> 00:39:10,815
       It's just that day,      
  I was trying not to overreact 

770
00:39:10,881 --> 00:39:13,217
      to something that was     
      happening in my life.     

771
00:39:13,284 --> 00:39:15,853
    Kathy was right about me    
       making it personal.      

772
00:39:16,887 --> 00:39:18,789
      Let me help you now.      

773
00:39:28,866 --> 00:39:30,234
         - What is this?        

774
00:39:30,301 --> 00:39:32,336
     - Dr. Novak and I have     
         been discussing        

775
00:39:32,403 --> 00:39:35,239
     our working situation,     
       and we've decided--      

776
00:39:35,306 --> 00:39:38,008
        - You've decided.       
       - It's been decided      

777
00:39:38,075 --> 00:39:41,846
that he's gonna be transitioning
        out of Trauma OR        

778
00:39:41,912 --> 00:39:45,015
     and no longer connected    
  to the emergency department.  

779
00:39:45,082 --> 00:39:48,219
  - "Banished". That's the word 
       she's looking for.       

780
00:39:48,285 --> 00:39:52,022
   - We wanted you to hear it,  
officially, from the both of us.

781
00:39:52,089 --> 00:39:53,457
            - Heard.            

782
00:39:54,024 --> 00:39:55,393
             - June?            

783
00:39:56,193 --> 00:39:57,228
              June!             

784
00:39:57,995 --> 00:40:01,031
   Yeah, I guess you're right.  
  I'm a starter, not a stayer.  

785
00:40:01,098 --> 00:40:02,633
       - So you're leaving      
          the hospital?         

786
00:40:02,700 --> 00:40:04,602
        - No, no. I have        
   some friends still upstairs  

787
00:40:04,668 --> 00:40:06,137
        that are willing        
         to slot me in.         

788
00:40:06,203 --> 00:40:07,938
      - Maybe I'd ask what      
    this means for me, but...   

789
00:40:08,005 --> 00:40:09,840
         I wouldn't want        
      to sound too damaged.     

790
00:40:09,907 --> 00:40:12,510
       - Yeah, June, uh...      

791
00:40:13,911 --> 00:40:17,114
     When I said that, look,    
       it wasn't about...       

792
00:40:33,631 --> 00:40:36,100
         - Hey, how was         
   your follow-up appointment?  

793
00:40:36,167 --> 00:40:37,935
   - I'm on my way there now.   
             - Okay.            

794
00:40:38,002 --> 00:40:39,437
          - But Bash...         

795
00:40:41,272 --> 00:40:43,774
   I want it to be real, too.   

796
00:40:46,177 --> 00:40:47,344
            - You do?           

797
00:40:55,586 --> 00:40:57,621
        (dramatic music)        

798
00:41:09,400 --> 00:41:11,936
- Sasha and her mom have already
    been waiting 10 minutes.    

799
00:41:12,002 --> 00:41:14,238
     - Uh, I thought it was     
    in my bag, but it isn't.    

800
00:41:14,305 --> 00:41:16,674
            My math.            
  - Where did you see it last?  

801
00:41:16,740 --> 00:41:18,642
   - I don't know, but I have   
      to study on the way.      

802
00:41:18,709 --> 00:41:23,047
      Mr. Redican said that     
   if we don't pass this test,  
    we can't go on the trip.    

803
00:41:23,113 --> 00:41:24,648
           - Found it!          

804
00:41:24,715 --> 00:41:26,717
       - Oh, my God, Mags,      
       you saved my life.       

805
00:41:26,784 --> 00:41:27,918
           (chuckling)          

806
00:41:27,985 --> 00:41:29,453
      (speaking in Arabic)      

807
00:41:29,520 --> 00:41:30,821
       - Okay, one second!      

808
00:41:30,888 --> 00:41:32,122
 - I'm doing nine to two today. 

809
00:41:32,189 --> 00:41:33,624
        - I'll crossover        
        with you at one.        

810
00:41:33,691 --> 00:41:36,494
   - Yesterday, I stayed until  
  four without hitting a wall.  

811
00:41:36,560 --> 00:41:39,029
 - That's great, just don't push
    yourself too hard, okay?    

812
00:41:39,096 --> 00:41:40,631
        The whole reason        
    I'm covering for you is--   

813
00:41:40,698 --> 00:41:43,000
  - Bash, you're picking me up  
  from rehearsal later, right?  

814
00:41:43,067 --> 00:41:45,069
      - I work until nine.      
          - I'll do it!         

815
00:41:45,135 --> 00:41:46,537
      And then we can grab      
         a late dinner.         

816
00:41:46,604 --> 00:41:48,038
            - Great.            
    - Okay, just not burgers.   

817
00:41:48,105 --> 00:41:50,441
    I can't do burgers ever.    
         - Amira, lunch.        

818
00:41:53,210 --> 00:41:54,211
            (sighing)           

819
00:41:54,278 --> 00:41:56,280
 - That is never not exhausting.

820
00:41:56,347 --> 00:41:59,817
   Mmm, their student exchange  
          trip is in...         

821
00:41:59,884 --> 00:42:01,151
          - Two weeks.          

822
00:42:01,218 --> 00:42:02,453
 She used the word "nerve-cited"

823
00:42:02,520 --> 00:42:04,788
  to describe how she's feeling 
          about living          

824
00:42:04,855 --> 00:42:06,824
     in a foreign continent     
          for a month.          

825
00:42:06,891 --> 00:42:08,659
            You, too?           
             - Um...            

826
00:42:08,726 --> 00:42:10,995
       I can still stop it      
         from happening,        

827
00:42:11,061 --> 00:42:13,964
          it's just...          
if that feeling's more about me,

828
00:42:14,031 --> 00:42:16,867
     then I should probably     
    just stay out of her way.   

829
00:42:16,934 --> 00:42:18,502
    - Makes sense, it's hard.   

830
00:42:18,569 --> 00:42:19,770
             - Mmm.             

831
00:42:20,771 --> 00:42:22,206
     Tell me what you think.    

832
00:42:22,273 --> 00:42:23,707
    - I think she should go.    

833
00:42:27,511 --> 00:42:30,114
 - Are you staying over tonight?
             - Yes.             

834
00:42:30,180 --> 00:42:32,216
    But I'll see you at one!    

835
00:42:33,117 --> 00:42:34,818
         (door opening)         

836
00:42:35,686 --> 00:42:36,954
         (door closing)         

837
00:42:37,021 --> 00:42:39,156
          (soft music)          

838
00:42:39,857 --> 00:42:41,659
          ♪ Memories ♪          

839
00:42:43,561 --> 00:42:45,896
      ♪ Forgive me please ♪     

840
00:42:48,499 --> 00:42:51,869
  ♪ I'm lonesome without you ♪  

841
00:42:52,636 --> 00:42:56,707
        ♪ But I'm a wreck       
      thinking about you ♪      

842
00:42:56,774 --> 00:42:59,076
        ♪ Just memories ♪       

843
00:43:01,512 --> 00:43:04,782
  ♪ As far as my mind can see ♪ 

844
00:43:06,450 --> 00:43:12,122
 ♪ It's too sad looking back ♪♪ 

845
00:43:14,758 --> 00:43:17,127
        (music continues)       

846
00:43:22,866 --> 00:43:26,003
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