1 00:00:06,360 --> 00:00:07,960 ["Dive" by Olivia Dean playing] 2 00:00:10,200 --> 00:00:12,080 ♪ It isn't working ♪ 3 00:00:13,520 --> 00:00:15,880 ♪ I'm a tidal wave of question marks ♪ 4 00:00:15,880 --> 00:00:17,600 ♪ And you're just surfing ♪ 5 00:00:18,760 --> 00:00:21,280 {\an8}♪ Leaning into me like it's an art ♪ 6 00:00:21,280 --> 00:00:23,560 {\an8}-♪ It's so crazy... ♪ - [fireworks squealing] 7 00:00:23,560 --> 00:00:24,760 ♪ Lately ♪ 8 00:00:25,360 --> 00:00:28,800 ♪ You just understand my feelings ♪ 9 00:00:29,400 --> 00:00:30,440 ♪ Lately ♪ 10 00:00:30,440 --> 00:00:34,520 ♪ See, I'm capable and fine ♪ 11 00:00:35,120 --> 00:00:38,920 - ♪ And feeling beautified tonight ♪ - [fireworks squealing, banging] 12 00:00:38,920 --> 00:00:41,240 ♪ I'm ready to dive ♪ 13 00:00:42,000 --> 00:00:44,480 ♪ Maybe it's the lovin' in your eyes ♪ 14 00:00:44,480 --> 00:00:46,400 ♪ I'm here, see through ♪ 15 00:00:47,360 --> 00:00:49,360 {\an8}♪ Maybe it's the magic in the wine ♪ 16 00:00:49,360 --> 00:00:52,000 {\an8}♪ Right into you ♪ 17 00:00:52,000 --> 00:00:54,200 ♪ I'm ready to dive ♪ 18 00:00:54,200 --> 00:00:57,760 ♪ Right into you ♪ 19 00:00:57,760 --> 00:01:00,920 ♪ Maybe it's the fact That every time I fall ♪ 20 00:01:00,920 --> 00:01:03,880 ♪ I lose it all ♪ 21 00:01:03,880 --> 00:01:07,640 ♪ But you got me From my head to my feet... ♪ 22 00:01:07,640 --> 00:01:11,920 - [breathing heavily] - ♪ And I'm ready to dive ♪ 23 00:01:11,920 --> 00:01:13,920 [fireworks whizzing, exploding] 24 00:01:15,720 --> 00:01:16,560 [Charlie] Nick? 25 00:01:19,000 --> 00:01:21,360 Why are you looking at me like that? [chuckles] 26 00:01:29,280 --> 00:01:33,000 - [Tara chuckles] - I told you. Dog cuddles solve everything. 27 00:01:33,000 --> 00:01:36,400 Yeah, this is exactly what I needed. Hello. 28 00:01:36,400 --> 00:01:38,400 You have seemed a bit stressed lately. 29 00:01:39,080 --> 00:01:41,160 I've been a bit stressed all year. 30 00:01:41,680 --> 00:01:44,120 I just have way too much on my plate. 31 00:01:44,120 --> 00:01:45,760 I love my ballet classes, 32 00:01:45,760 --> 00:01:48,320 but I've got to get three buses to get there, and... 33 00:01:49,560 --> 00:01:51,120 I could drive you to ballet. 34 00:01:51,120 --> 00:01:53,840 I'm not doing anything most Saturdays anyway, so... 35 00:01:53,840 --> 00:01:56,280 - Nick, you don't have to. - No, I want to. 36 00:01:57,280 --> 00:01:58,880 All right. Well, maybe. 37 00:01:59,600 --> 00:02:02,040 Anyway, what's going on with you? 38 00:02:02,720 --> 00:02:05,160 I feel like we haven't had a catch-up in ages. 39 00:02:05,160 --> 00:02:06,440 How are you and Charlie? 40 00:02:07,160 --> 00:02:08,480 Good. Yeah. 41 00:02:09,440 --> 00:02:11,560 Charlie's been a lot better these days, so... 42 00:02:12,640 --> 00:02:15,240 - And how's Nick doing these days? - Fine. 43 00:02:15,840 --> 00:02:16,960 Yeah, I'm all good. 44 00:02:18,080 --> 00:02:20,240 Haven't really got much going on, to be honest. 45 00:02:21,000 --> 00:02:23,640 That's because you've been focused on helping Charlie. 46 00:02:24,640 --> 00:02:25,560 I get it. 47 00:02:26,600 --> 00:02:29,320 I've been focused on Darcy and all their stuff with their mum. 48 00:02:29,840 --> 00:02:33,120 You just need to remember to look after yourself too. 49 00:02:34,120 --> 00:02:36,480 I still think journaling is really beneficial. 50 00:02:36,480 --> 00:02:38,120 - [Nick chuckles] - [Henry whines] 51 00:02:38,120 --> 00:02:40,800 [Tara] Yeah, journaling is beneficial. 52 00:02:41,720 --> 00:02:43,600 [school bell ringing] 53 00:02:43,600 --> 00:02:47,400 Okay, class, it is the moment you've all been waiting for. 54 00:02:47,400 --> 00:02:50,120 - Cucumbers and condoms. - [class snickering] 55 00:02:50,120 --> 00:02:53,360 We wanna take things further, but I don't wanna make things awkward, 56 00:02:53,360 --> 00:02:56,240 and, honestly, I don't even know what the hell I'm doing. 57 00:02:56,240 --> 00:02:58,520 I don't want our first time to be bad and embarrassing. 58 00:02:58,520 --> 00:03:01,680 Maybe if I'm this nervous, I'm not actually ready to do anything. 59 00:03:01,680 --> 00:03:04,200 - Calm down. - It's a good thing we're in sex ed. 60 00:03:04,200 --> 00:03:06,600 I mean, maybe you'll get some good advice. 61 00:03:08,400 --> 00:03:09,560 Or maybe not. 62 00:03:10,520 --> 00:03:13,840 You clearly are ready. You literally won't shut up about it. 63 00:03:13,840 --> 00:03:17,440 And it's not exactly rocket science. I mean, how bad can it really be? 64 00:03:17,440 --> 00:03:19,600 I don't know. I feel like I don't know anything. 65 00:03:19,600 --> 00:03:21,400 Just have sex with him, please, 66 00:03:21,400 --> 00:03:23,280 so we can stop hearing about it. 67 00:03:24,280 --> 00:03:27,800 [teacher] Come on. It's only a cucumber. Don't do that. Focus. 68 00:03:27,800 --> 00:03:29,280 [boys snickering] 69 00:03:29,760 --> 00:03:30,960 [Tao] Ugh. So slimy. 70 00:03:32,720 --> 00:03:35,720 [teacher] That is not an appropriate question for this class. 71 00:03:35,720 --> 00:03:38,040 We're here to talk about contraception. 72 00:03:38,720 --> 00:03:40,360 I've got it the wrong way round. 73 00:03:40,360 --> 00:03:42,320 [gentle music playing] 74 00:03:44,760 --> 00:03:45,920 [cell phone vibrates] 75 00:03:47,080 --> 00:03:48,320 [Otis] Aspirations. 76 00:03:49,640 --> 00:03:51,440 [indistinct whispering] 77 00:03:51,440 --> 00:03:53,600 [keypad clicking] 78 00:03:58,800 --> 00:04:02,960 She was proper decent, to be fair. Like, she was just feeling it all night. 79 00:04:02,960 --> 00:04:04,560 You could tell she wanted it, 80 00:04:04,560 --> 00:04:07,400 and it got to a point I just thought, "Why not, really?" 81 00:04:07,400 --> 00:04:09,240 [boys snickering] 82 00:04:09,800 --> 00:04:12,000 - [boy] I don't... - He was boasting about it yesterday. 83 00:04:12,000 --> 00:04:15,200 I just don't think losing your virginity is that big of a deal. 84 00:04:15,200 --> 00:04:17,320 Like, it's probably gonna be bad anyway. 85 00:04:17,320 --> 00:04:20,680 It's a big deal because it's the first time you're having sex. 86 00:04:20,680 --> 00:04:23,280 - [cell phone vibrates] - Like, that is a big deal. 87 00:04:23,280 --> 00:04:28,360 I mean, I know the concept of virginity is bullshit, but, like, I'm still nervous. 88 00:04:28,360 --> 00:04:30,840 - [Sai] Yeah. - [Otis] Just wait till marriage. 89 00:04:30,840 --> 00:04:33,200 - [Christian] Nah. - [Otis] It's only five years. 90 00:04:33,200 --> 00:04:34,120 [Christian] Five? 91 00:04:34,120 --> 00:04:35,280 [cell phone vibrates] 92 00:04:37,480 --> 00:04:38,320 [chuckles] 93 00:04:38,320 --> 00:04:40,400 [indistinct chattering, snickering] 94 00:04:45,120 --> 00:04:49,000 - [teacher] Condoms prevent pregnancy... - The way you guys flirt is so weird. 95 00:04:49,000 --> 00:04:51,200 - Don't read my texts. - [teacher] ...protect against STIs. 96 00:04:51,200 --> 00:04:54,680 We are now going to look at some images of STIs. 97 00:04:55,960 --> 00:04:57,760 [disgusted gasping, groaning] 98 00:04:57,760 --> 00:05:00,200 - [teacher] Students, look and learn. - [giggling] 99 00:05:01,120 --> 00:05:02,360 [teacher] Calm down. 100 00:05:02,360 --> 00:05:04,800 I don't blame you for being nervous. That's normal. 101 00:05:04,800 --> 00:05:06,240 Easy for you to say. 102 00:05:06,240 --> 00:05:09,120 - You were so confident when you and Elle-- - I wasn't. 103 00:05:09,120 --> 00:05:12,640 I just enjoyed making it sound like the most cinematic night of my life. 104 00:05:14,040 --> 00:05:16,640 We were in some random bedroom at a house party. 105 00:05:16,640 --> 00:05:18,360 We had no idea what we were doing, 106 00:05:18,360 --> 00:05:21,680 and even after that, we still had a lot to learn about each other 107 00:05:21,680 --> 00:05:23,040 and what feels good. 108 00:05:23,840 --> 00:05:26,880 Maybe we get things wrong, you know, but... 109 00:05:27,840 --> 00:05:30,360 You know, it's not some perfect, effortless thing. 110 00:05:31,120 --> 00:05:34,040 But it's me and Elle, and we love each other. 111 00:05:34,680 --> 00:05:37,480 And if it's awkward, we can just laugh about it. 112 00:05:38,600 --> 00:05:40,720 I mean, it's supposed to be fun, isn't it? 113 00:05:41,640 --> 00:05:42,800 - Isn't it? - [chuckles] 114 00:05:46,640 --> 00:05:47,760 [Tao clicks tongue] 115 00:05:48,520 --> 00:05:51,240 [teacher] And one last thing to remember, folks. 116 00:05:53,520 --> 00:05:55,320 I should be running this sex-ed lesson. 117 00:05:56,480 --> 00:05:59,560 How was Elle's interview? She didn't really mention it on the chat. 118 00:06:00,120 --> 00:06:02,320 Oh, yeah, it was, um... 119 00:06:03,160 --> 00:06:05,440 I think they decided not to air it, actually. 120 00:06:05,960 --> 00:06:07,680 - That sucks. - Yeah. 121 00:06:10,680 --> 00:06:12,440 - [Felix] God, stop! - [Naomi] Steve. 122 00:06:12,440 --> 00:06:14,560 - Just get it out. - [Felix] Go away. 123 00:06:14,560 --> 00:06:16,760 {\an8}Literally bullying. 124 00:06:17,520 --> 00:06:18,840 {\an8}[indistinct chattering] 125 00:06:21,440 --> 00:06:22,320 [puts phone down] 126 00:06:27,680 --> 00:06:29,400 Looks like you've almost finished. 127 00:06:30,720 --> 00:06:33,440 - I don't think I like it anymore. - Why not? 128 00:06:36,160 --> 00:06:40,120 I'm sorry about the interview, Elle. Your mother and I had a chat. 129 00:06:40,120 --> 00:06:43,320 - I should have expected it. - No. No, you shouldn't. 130 00:06:43,320 --> 00:06:46,000 Doesn't matter. I don't wanna talk about it anymore. 131 00:06:50,680 --> 00:06:51,640 [teacher sighs] 132 00:07:00,200 --> 00:07:01,440 [gentle music playing] 133 00:07:01,440 --> 00:07:03,080 - Charlie, come on. - Slow down! 134 00:07:22,360 --> 00:07:23,400 [door creaks open] 135 00:07:23,400 --> 00:07:24,840 - Have you-- - [Nick] Don't come in! 136 00:07:24,840 --> 00:07:27,720 - [David] Christ! Sorry. - Fuck off! [breathing heavily] 137 00:07:30,000 --> 00:07:32,760 Sorry. I... I, uh... I... I didn't know he was here. 138 00:07:33,360 --> 00:07:36,360 [chuckles] It's all right. I'm just glad it wasn't your mum. 139 00:07:36,360 --> 00:07:37,720 [both chuckle] 140 00:07:41,320 --> 00:07:42,720 [Nick] Ooh. [exhales deeply] 141 00:07:43,720 --> 00:07:44,560 [sighs] 142 00:07:44,560 --> 00:07:46,000 [distant drumming] 143 00:07:48,040 --> 00:07:49,240 [cell phone dings] 144 00:07:53,120 --> 00:07:54,160 [whoosh] 145 00:07:54,160 --> 00:07:55,760 [pensive music playing] 146 00:07:55,760 --> 00:07:56,920 [chuckles softly] 147 00:07:58,560 --> 00:07:59,440 [whoosh] 148 00:08:00,480 --> 00:08:01,400 [chuckles softly] 149 00:08:02,040 --> 00:08:02,920 [whoosh] 150 00:08:06,120 --> 00:08:07,120 [chuckling] 151 00:08:08,960 --> 00:08:09,920 {\an8}[whoosh] 152 00:08:10,760 --> 00:08:12,480 {\an8}- [Nick chuckles] - [keypad clicking] 153 00:08:12,480 --> 00:08:13,400 {\an8}[whoosh] 154 00:08:13,400 --> 00:08:16,880 {\an8}- [keypad clicking] - [whoosh] 155 00:08:32,240 --> 00:08:33,800 [pensive music continues] 156 00:08:36,880 --> 00:08:39,480 I think this is the best drawing I've done so far. 157 00:08:40,600 --> 00:08:42,200 [chuckles softly] Look. 158 00:08:42,800 --> 00:08:44,600 [high-pitched] I'm improving! 159 00:08:44,600 --> 00:08:45,920 [both chuckle] 160 00:08:46,600 --> 00:08:48,000 Reckon I could be the next... 161 00:08:49,160 --> 00:08:50,960 - The next someone. - [Elle chuckles] 162 00:08:52,000 --> 00:08:55,000 Tao Xu, artist of goldfish. 163 00:08:55,000 --> 00:08:56,720 [Elle laughs] 164 00:09:04,040 --> 00:09:05,720 Can I sleep over tonight? 165 00:09:06,320 --> 00:09:08,640 [sighs] You know how my mum is about it. 166 00:09:09,680 --> 00:09:10,680 She loves you. 167 00:09:11,560 --> 00:09:13,680 But, yeah, she'd say no. 168 00:09:16,120 --> 00:09:17,600 We can watch a movie though. 169 00:09:20,520 --> 00:09:23,800 What about Moonrise Kingdom, hmm? 170 00:09:24,600 --> 00:09:26,320 [Elle sighs deeply] 171 00:09:28,600 --> 00:09:30,120 Do you wanna talk about it? 172 00:09:31,280 --> 00:09:32,120 [Elle sighs] 173 00:09:32,120 --> 00:09:34,600 Is there anything I could do to make you feel better? 174 00:09:41,600 --> 00:09:42,680 [Tao sighs] 175 00:09:46,160 --> 00:09:49,160 ["Pegasus" by Arlo Parks feat. Phoebe Bridgers playing softly] 176 00:09:49,160 --> 00:09:53,360 - It's been so long since you stayed over. - I know. It's my fault. 177 00:09:53,360 --> 00:09:56,680 [Darcy] No, I get it. You've had extra schoolwork and stuff. 178 00:09:56,680 --> 00:09:58,680 I have. It's been too much. 179 00:09:58,680 --> 00:10:01,280 [Darcy] Yeah. I'm worried about you. 180 00:10:01,280 --> 00:10:02,360 Don't worry. 181 00:10:02,360 --> 00:10:04,760 I've just decided 182 00:10:04,760 --> 00:10:07,400 I'm gonna look after myself and do what I want. 183 00:10:08,920 --> 00:10:09,920 And that includes 184 00:10:10,640 --> 00:10:11,680 doing me? 185 00:10:11,680 --> 00:10:12,880 [Darcy chuckles] 186 00:10:12,880 --> 00:10:14,120 Obviously. 187 00:10:15,360 --> 00:10:19,080 ♪ Blue jewels 'round your neck ♪ 188 00:10:19,880 --> 00:10:22,800 ♪ You cool my distress ♪ 189 00:10:22,800 --> 00:10:24,280 ♪ Ooh, ooh, ooh ♪ 190 00:10:24,280 --> 00:10:27,560 ♪ Loose cherries, hard breath ♪ 191 00:10:27,560 --> 00:10:29,400 ♪ I'm overwhelmed... ♪ 192 00:10:31,200 --> 00:10:32,680 [both giggling] 193 00:10:33,640 --> 00:10:38,440 ♪ I spun 'round and screamed "I feel elated when you..." ♪ 194 00:10:38,440 --> 00:10:40,720 [Nick] Just move a little bit that way. Yeah. 195 00:10:40,720 --> 00:10:43,040 No, that's perfect. Now everyone knows how much I love you. 196 00:10:43,040 --> 00:10:43,960 [school bell rings] 197 00:10:43,960 --> 00:10:46,320 - And how much you love me. - Mm-hmm. 198 00:10:46,320 --> 00:10:49,240 All right. All right! Pipe down! 199 00:10:49,240 --> 00:10:53,640 Yeah, I know, it's Year 11's last day before study hall, but guess what? 200 00:10:53,640 --> 00:10:57,560 That's still one more day. Do you get it? 201 00:10:58,440 --> 00:11:00,880 Uh, Charlie, can I have a quick word before you go? 202 00:11:02,840 --> 00:11:04,000 I'll see you at rugby. 203 00:11:04,000 --> 00:11:05,720 [indistinct chatter] 204 00:11:07,560 --> 00:11:09,920 You're staying at Truham for sixth form, right? 205 00:11:09,920 --> 00:11:12,040 - Yeah. - [Ajayi] Good. 206 00:11:12,040 --> 00:11:13,840 I wanted to give you this. 207 00:11:15,960 --> 00:11:18,920 Campaigning starts in the autumn. I think you should apply. 208 00:11:19,680 --> 00:11:20,720 Really? Why? 209 00:11:21,520 --> 00:11:24,920 Well, you're smart, you're a strong person, 210 00:11:24,920 --> 00:11:28,960 and I think you could do a lot of good for the kids at this school. 211 00:11:31,480 --> 00:11:34,440 [hesitates] Just something to think about over the summer. 212 00:11:34,440 --> 00:11:35,480 [chuckles softly] 213 00:11:37,040 --> 00:11:38,840 Okay. Thanks. 214 00:11:41,040 --> 00:11:42,800 - [gentle music playing] - Charlie. 215 00:11:44,280 --> 00:11:47,080 There are a lot of, um, younger students 216 00:11:47,080 --> 00:11:49,520 who would find it inspiring to see you as head boy. 217 00:11:50,600 --> 00:11:51,600 That's all. 218 00:11:52,600 --> 00:11:55,480 I'll think about it. I promise. 219 00:12:04,400 --> 00:12:06,400 Shall we, uh, go for lunch? 220 00:12:07,760 --> 00:12:08,680 Yeah. 221 00:12:14,360 --> 00:12:16,120 [Naomi] I think it might be finished. 222 00:12:16,760 --> 00:12:19,560 [Felix] Post it on Instagram. Your followers will love it. 223 00:12:22,960 --> 00:12:27,160 Elle, we know you've been really down since that interview. 224 00:12:27,680 --> 00:12:28,760 [Elle sighs] 225 00:12:30,760 --> 00:12:34,040 It's not like this radio woman was a raging bigot or anything. 226 00:12:34,040 --> 00:12:36,600 She probably thinks of herself as an ally. 227 00:12:38,280 --> 00:12:40,480 But I was there to talk about my art. 228 00:12:41,040 --> 00:12:43,040 Have you spoken to anyone about it? 229 00:12:43,040 --> 00:12:44,200 Tao maybe? 230 00:12:46,400 --> 00:12:47,520 [Elle inhales deeply] 231 00:12:48,760 --> 00:12:50,400 I love Tao... [chuckles] 232 00:12:50,920 --> 00:12:54,360 ...and he would fight the world for me, but... 233 00:12:57,960 --> 00:13:00,000 he just can't properly understand. 234 00:13:02,040 --> 00:13:03,040 We're here. 235 00:13:05,320 --> 00:13:06,520 We might understand. 236 00:13:08,920 --> 00:13:10,760 ["Heartbreaker" by Birdy playing] 237 00:13:15,760 --> 00:13:18,240 ♪ Feel like I've been reading you wrong ♪ 238 00:13:19,200 --> 00:13:22,920 ♪ And we've tilted from where we started ♪ 239 00:13:22,920 --> 00:13:25,440 ♪ If someone's gonna let go ♪ 240 00:13:25,440 --> 00:13:27,520 ♪ It's me that's gotta let go ♪ 241 00:13:27,520 --> 00:13:31,800 ♪ I'm damned if I do Gonna be damned if I don't, oh ♪ 242 00:13:31,800 --> 00:13:33,560 ♪ Ay, no ♪ 243 00:13:33,560 --> 00:13:35,800 ♪ Ay, no, oh ♪ 244 00:13:35,800 --> 00:13:37,320 ♪ Ay, no ♪ 245 00:13:37,320 --> 00:13:39,640 ♪ Ay, no, oh ♪ 246 00:13:39,640 --> 00:13:41,600 ♪ You say, "One more dance..." ♪ 247 00:13:41,600 --> 00:13:42,840 You trying to peek? 248 00:13:42,840 --> 00:13:43,760 No. 249 00:13:44,640 --> 00:13:46,800 It's allowed. We're in love. 250 00:13:47,480 --> 00:13:48,520 ♪ I'm fallin'... ♪ 251 00:13:48,520 --> 00:13:51,640 - Stop. I'm not. I'm not trying to peek. - [Charlie chuckles] 252 00:13:52,480 --> 00:13:55,560 ♪ I don't know what I'm doing I don't know what I'm doing ♪ 253 00:13:55,560 --> 00:14:00,320 ♪ You say, "One more dance" And I always give in ♪ 254 00:14:00,320 --> 00:14:03,440 ♪ I don't know what I'm doing I don't know what I'm doing ♪ 255 00:14:03,440 --> 00:14:04,560 ♪ I'm fallin'... ♪ 256 00:14:04,560 --> 00:14:06,200 [Singh] Come on, use that ball! 257 00:14:06,920 --> 00:14:07,920 I had an idea. 258 00:14:07,920 --> 00:14:09,440 - Yeah? - Mm-hmm. 259 00:14:10,160 --> 00:14:14,320 Maybe, uh, one night, you could stay round mine? Just us. 260 00:14:16,240 --> 00:14:19,720 Think your parents would let you? I know my mum would be fine with it. 261 00:14:20,280 --> 00:14:22,080 - I'll ask. - [Singh] Nick and Charlie! 262 00:14:22,760 --> 00:14:26,080 Pay attention, please. It's the last practice of the year. 263 00:14:26,920 --> 00:14:28,000 [Charlie chuckles] 264 00:14:29,520 --> 00:14:33,480 Yeah, good luck getting Mum to agree to a boyfriend sleepover. 265 00:14:33,480 --> 00:14:36,600 She will. I'll ask her when she's in a good mood. 266 00:14:36,600 --> 00:14:37,880 That doesn't happen very often. 267 00:14:37,880 --> 00:14:40,480 [Michael] There's not really much point in her banning sleepovers. 268 00:14:40,480 --> 00:14:43,040 If you and Nick want to have sex, you'll have sex. 269 00:14:43,040 --> 00:14:44,600 You don't need a sleepover. 270 00:14:44,600 --> 00:14:47,120 If you don't have any good advice, I'm gonna go upstairs. 271 00:14:47,120 --> 00:14:48,640 My advice is to sneak out. 272 00:14:48,640 --> 00:14:50,880 My advice is that a sleepover is unnecessary 273 00:14:50,880 --> 00:14:52,440 for the activity in question. 274 00:14:54,520 --> 00:14:55,440 Good luck. 275 00:14:55,960 --> 00:14:58,200 I hope you do get to have your sex sleepover. 276 00:14:58,200 --> 00:15:00,600 - [Tori sighs] - Thank you. 277 00:15:01,720 --> 00:15:05,160 Michael, can you stop talking about my brother having sex? Please. 278 00:15:06,600 --> 00:15:08,440 - Sorry. [chuckles] - [door opens] 279 00:15:08,440 --> 00:15:09,840 - [Tori] Ugh. - [door closes] 280 00:15:09,840 --> 00:15:11,240 [pensive music playing] 281 00:15:23,480 --> 00:15:24,440 [chuckles softly] 282 00:15:39,160 --> 00:15:40,480 [music fades] 283 00:15:40,480 --> 00:15:43,280 Me and Darcy wait till we have a free house. 284 00:15:43,280 --> 00:15:46,280 Or until everyone's asleep if they're staying over. 285 00:15:46,280 --> 00:15:49,320 [chuckles] There was one time that we, uh... 286 00:15:50,480 --> 00:15:51,400 [clicks tongue] 287 00:15:51,400 --> 00:15:52,360 What? 288 00:15:53,400 --> 00:15:54,240 I mean, 289 00:15:55,720 --> 00:15:57,080 school is an option. 290 00:15:58,000 --> 00:15:59,320 You had sex at school? 291 00:15:59,320 --> 00:16:01,160 Yeah, it was... it was only once... 292 00:16:01,160 --> 00:16:03,720 [giggling] ...and it was a really bad idea. 293 00:16:04,240 --> 00:16:05,400 [snickering] 294 00:16:05,400 --> 00:16:08,600 Oh. Yeah, I don't... I don't think we're quite there yet. 295 00:16:09,240 --> 00:16:12,040 And also we have a... a history of getting walked in on. 296 00:16:12,040 --> 00:16:14,840 Yeah. You guys have been waiting a long time. 297 00:16:15,600 --> 00:16:16,480 Yeah. 298 00:16:18,560 --> 00:16:19,840 That's not a bad thing. 299 00:16:20,920 --> 00:16:22,960 There's so much pressure to have sex at our age, 300 00:16:22,960 --> 00:16:26,040 but people should just take as long as they need. 301 00:16:28,480 --> 00:16:30,880 Yeah, Charlie's been through a lot. 302 00:16:32,080 --> 00:16:34,880 You've been through a lot too, Nick. Don't forget that. 303 00:16:36,040 --> 00:16:37,440 Yeah, well... [sighs] 304 00:16:37,440 --> 00:16:38,640 ...not really though. 305 00:16:40,800 --> 00:16:44,280 It's okay to admit that Charlie being ill was tough for you. 306 00:16:45,640 --> 00:16:47,520 You don't have to be the strong one all the time. 307 00:16:48,040 --> 00:16:50,760 Trust me, I learned that the hard way. 308 00:16:52,800 --> 00:16:55,120 - Why do you have to be so smart? - [chuckles] 309 00:16:59,560 --> 00:17:03,720 So, uh, do you have any advice about that kind of stuff? 310 00:17:03,720 --> 00:17:05,480 Oh, Nick... 311 00:17:05,480 --> 00:17:08,880 [chuckles] ...I'm not really the person to ask about sex between guys. 312 00:17:08,880 --> 00:17:10,600 Yeah... Yeah, yeah, fair enough. 313 00:17:10,600 --> 00:17:13,000 - [clears throat] Yeah. - [giggling] 314 00:17:13,760 --> 00:17:16,160 - [giggling] - Sorry. [chuckles, clears throat] 315 00:17:16,160 --> 00:17:17,120 [man] Here we go. 316 00:17:17,120 --> 00:17:19,560 One, two, three, four. 317 00:17:19,560 --> 00:17:27,000 One, two, three, a four. 318 00:17:27,000 --> 00:17:29,720 - [mouthing] - [man] One, two, three, a four. 319 00:17:29,720 --> 00:17:34,600 One, two, three, a four. 320 00:17:34,600 --> 00:17:37,840 - Did you get the bus all the way here? - Yep. All three of them. 321 00:17:37,840 --> 00:17:41,200 - Why? - I just wanted to see you dancing. 322 00:17:41,200 --> 00:17:43,040 You always look so happy when you're dancing. 323 00:17:43,040 --> 00:17:44,240 You're so ridiculous. 324 00:17:44,240 --> 00:17:46,760 It's nothing compared to what you've done for me this year. 325 00:17:47,360 --> 00:17:50,040 Letting me stay at your house. Helping me move to my gran's. 326 00:17:50,040 --> 00:17:51,760 Taking me clothes shopping. 327 00:17:51,760 --> 00:17:54,680 Convincing me to cut my hair when I kept backing out. 328 00:17:55,480 --> 00:17:58,400 Those are, like, very low-bar things, Darce. 329 00:17:59,920 --> 00:18:00,760 I... 330 00:18:01,720 --> 00:18:04,120 I just don't think I would've had the courage 331 00:18:04,120 --> 00:18:09,240 to... explore being nonbinary if it weren't for you. 332 00:18:09,960 --> 00:18:12,560 I mean, I probably would've got around to it eventually, 333 00:18:12,560 --> 00:18:16,320 but you made it feel so easy and... 334 00:18:17,200 --> 00:18:18,320 and joyful. 335 00:18:19,160 --> 00:18:20,040 Nonbinary? 336 00:18:21,920 --> 00:18:22,800 Yeah. 337 00:18:24,320 --> 00:18:26,600 I know we haven't talked about it properly or anything. 338 00:18:27,720 --> 00:18:31,000 It's just a huge deal, and... 339 00:18:33,000 --> 00:18:36,680 I didn't wanna overload you with that, like, bomb drop. 340 00:18:36,680 --> 00:18:40,120 [sighs] But you've seemed calmer recently. 341 00:18:41,800 --> 00:18:43,280 It's not a huge deal. 342 00:18:43,880 --> 00:18:45,720 It's... Unless you want it to be? 343 00:18:46,520 --> 00:18:47,560 It's just you. 344 00:18:48,600 --> 00:18:50,640 It's just me and you. 345 00:18:51,760 --> 00:18:53,200 [gentle music playing] 346 00:18:58,440 --> 00:18:59,560 [Darcy groans happily] 347 00:18:59,560 --> 00:19:02,720 - I think... Here we are. - I don't even know anymore. 348 00:19:02,720 --> 00:19:05,000 Okay. You choose. It's up to you. 349 00:19:05,000 --> 00:19:06,120 Um... 350 00:19:06,120 --> 00:19:07,080 Let me check. 351 00:19:09,160 --> 00:19:10,640 Okay, are we... I found it. 352 00:19:11,360 --> 00:19:12,920 Okay. I just want to see... 353 00:19:13,760 --> 00:19:14,800 - Is this rosemary? - [laughs] 354 00:19:15,760 --> 00:19:16,800 - Wow. - Just be careful. 355 00:19:18,560 --> 00:19:21,560 - Okay. I wanna tap that would... boiling... - That would do for everything. 356 00:19:21,560 --> 00:19:22,800 This is madness. 357 00:19:22,800 --> 00:19:24,720 Know my way around this kitchen as well. 358 00:19:28,320 --> 00:19:29,680 [Charlie's mum] Thank you. 359 00:19:31,080 --> 00:19:32,280 I really liked that one. 360 00:19:33,320 --> 00:19:36,480 Yeah, me too. We should try it again sometime. 361 00:19:43,320 --> 00:19:44,640 - Mum... - [mum] Mm-hmm? 362 00:19:45,520 --> 00:19:49,200 Me and Nick were wondering if I could stay round his one night? 363 00:19:50,840 --> 00:19:54,320 Oh, uh... Well, yes, at some point. [chuckles softly] 364 00:19:56,640 --> 00:19:57,960 We were thinking soon. 365 00:19:59,840 --> 00:20:01,240 [sighs] Um... 366 00:20:01,240 --> 00:20:03,840 I... I... I'm not sure, Charlie. I'm not saying no. 367 00:20:03,840 --> 00:20:05,360 It's... it's just... 368 00:20:05,360 --> 00:20:07,920 [sighs] ...you have your GCSE exams coming up, 369 00:20:08,800 --> 00:20:10,120 and this is quite a big step. 370 00:20:10,120 --> 00:20:11,760 And I'm mentally ill, so I can't. 371 00:20:11,760 --> 00:20:14,400 - That's not what I said. - [Charlie] That's what you were thinking. 372 00:20:14,400 --> 00:20:16,080 It's what you're always thinking. 373 00:20:16,080 --> 00:20:18,200 You think I'm a child who can't make my own decisions. 374 00:20:18,200 --> 00:20:19,480 That's not fair. 375 00:20:20,000 --> 00:20:22,520 Mr. Ajayi nominated me to be head boy on Friday. 376 00:20:23,400 --> 00:20:25,440 - That... that's great, Charlie. - [scoffs] 377 00:20:25,440 --> 00:20:29,600 I... It's just... you're only 16, and you've been very ill. 378 00:20:29,600 --> 00:20:32,040 Mum, seriously, what are you so worried about? 379 00:20:32,040 --> 00:20:33,120 We all love Nick. 380 00:20:33,120 --> 00:20:35,120 Okay, Tori, I'm not... You know what? 381 00:20:35,120 --> 00:20:37,640 We'll talk about this once your exams are over. 382 00:20:37,640 --> 00:20:38,720 I'm not a child. 383 00:20:40,000 --> 00:20:42,760 If wanna see my boyfriend, I will. You can't stop me. 384 00:20:43,280 --> 00:20:44,800 [mum] Charlie, I... [sighs] 385 00:20:46,120 --> 00:20:47,360 Charlie! [sighs] 386 00:20:49,960 --> 00:20:50,800 [Charlie sighs] 387 00:20:50,800 --> 00:20:51,880 - [dad] Just-- - [mum] Just... 388 00:20:51,880 --> 00:20:53,560 [front door opens, slams] 389 00:20:55,360 --> 00:20:56,240 [sighs] 390 00:21:00,640 --> 00:21:02,520 - You okay? - [inhales deeply] 391 00:21:03,160 --> 00:21:04,480 - [sighs] - Yeah. 392 00:21:06,280 --> 00:21:08,640 - Are your eyes shut as well? - Yes, they're shut. 393 00:21:08,640 --> 00:21:10,280 - Forward. - Tao, what... [chuckles] 394 00:21:10,280 --> 00:21:12,440 - What's going on? - Three, two, one. 395 00:21:12,440 --> 00:21:13,720 Movie night! 396 00:21:15,520 --> 00:21:17,000 [Elle gasps, chuckles] 397 00:21:18,000 --> 00:21:20,120 Tao, you do not have to do all this. 398 00:21:20,120 --> 00:21:22,560 Oh, but I do. It's a special one tonight. 399 00:21:23,320 --> 00:21:24,800 Okay, let's sit down. 400 00:21:25,480 --> 00:21:27,320 Ah. Ooh. 401 00:21:30,160 --> 00:21:32,840 Okay, so before we begin, 402 00:21:32,840 --> 00:21:34,120 I wanna say something. 403 00:21:36,440 --> 00:21:40,600 I know you've been really down lately and uninspired about your art. 404 00:21:42,120 --> 00:21:44,040 It made me think about when Charlie was really ill 405 00:21:44,040 --> 00:21:45,560 and I made him that video. 406 00:21:47,040 --> 00:21:50,040 It was the first time I felt like I could create something 407 00:21:50,040 --> 00:21:51,760 that put joy into the world. 408 00:21:53,480 --> 00:21:57,080 I guess I never really thought of myself as a creative person before that, 409 00:21:57,080 --> 00:22:00,520 but I love making these little videos to cheer up the people I love. 410 00:22:01,600 --> 00:22:03,920 So... I made you one. 411 00:22:06,080 --> 00:22:08,800 ["The Most Beautiful thing" by Thomas Headon playing] 412 00:22:08,800 --> 00:22:11,640 ♪ She lays her head on me 413 00:22:13,920 --> 00:22:16,440 ♪ While she falls asleep ♪ 414 00:22:18,800 --> 00:22:21,840 ♪ She gently closes her eyes ♪ 415 00:22:21,840 --> 00:22:24,160 ♪ In the night, she's perfect... ♪ 416 00:22:24,160 --> 00:22:26,520 - [inaudible] - ♪ Though I can't even see ♪ 417 00:22:28,880 --> 00:22:32,080 ♪ I wouldn't change her at all ♪ 418 00:22:34,240 --> 00:22:36,320 ♪ No matter how much we fight ♪ 419 00:22:39,360 --> 00:22:46,360 ♪ I think I could stare into her eyes And fall in love again every time ♪ 420 00:22:50,760 --> 00:22:54,040 ♪ 'Cause she remains to be... ♪ 421 00:22:55,400 --> 00:22:58,720 - [chuckles] - ♪ The most beautiful thing ♪ 422 00:22:59,520 --> 00:23:01,120 ♪ I've ever seen ♪ 423 00:23:02,480 --> 00:23:04,200 [inaudible] 424 00:23:08,680 --> 00:23:12,040 - ♪ 'Cause she will always be... ♪ - [sniffles] 425 00:23:13,120 --> 00:23:16,760 ♪ The most beautiful thing ♪ 426 00:23:17,280 --> 00:23:19,080 ♪ I've ever seen ♪ 427 00:23:20,560 --> 00:23:22,160 [breathes shakily, sniffles] 428 00:23:22,160 --> 00:23:23,400 [music fades] 429 00:23:24,760 --> 00:23:25,720 I guess... 430 00:23:27,720 --> 00:23:29,160 that's how I see you. 431 00:23:29,160 --> 00:23:30,720 [Elle chuckles, sniffles] 432 00:23:31,880 --> 00:23:33,880 [tranquil music playing] 433 00:23:35,160 --> 00:23:36,480 {\an8}[fluttering] 434 00:23:42,160 --> 00:23:44,480 [Elle] It feels like the whole world is against me. 435 00:23:45,080 --> 00:23:46,880 You can always talk to me about it. 436 00:23:47,840 --> 00:23:49,040 - Yeah? - [sniffles] 437 00:23:50,120 --> 00:23:52,280 I'm just scared you won't get it. [sniffles] 438 00:23:52,280 --> 00:23:53,480 But I'll try. 439 00:23:54,320 --> 00:23:56,160 - [exhales shakily] - I'll always try. 440 00:23:58,640 --> 00:24:00,160 [Elle sniffles, chuckles] 441 00:24:05,480 --> 00:24:06,680 [music fades] 442 00:24:07,760 --> 00:24:09,320 [pensive music playing] 443 00:24:36,360 --> 00:24:38,040 [sighs] 444 00:24:39,640 --> 00:24:40,480 [Charlie] Nick. 445 00:24:40,480 --> 00:24:42,200 [tinkling] 446 00:24:42,200 --> 00:24:43,800 Need a distraction? 447 00:24:44,280 --> 00:24:45,360 Yeah. 448 00:24:45,360 --> 00:24:46,880 [electricity fizzing] 449 00:24:48,320 --> 00:24:49,880 Please don't leave me behind. 450 00:24:49,880 --> 00:24:50,960 [gasps] 451 00:24:56,760 --> 00:24:57,880 [doorbell rings] 452 00:25:04,440 --> 00:25:05,280 Hi. 453 00:25:07,000 --> 00:25:07,840 Hi. 454 00:25:11,800 --> 00:25:14,280 I should've texted. Sorry. 455 00:25:15,520 --> 00:25:16,400 It's fine. 456 00:25:18,000 --> 00:25:19,600 Are you okay? What's wrong? 457 00:25:21,640 --> 00:25:23,920 She was like, "You're only 16, and you've been ill." 458 00:25:23,920 --> 00:25:27,040 Okay. What has that got to do with me spending time with my boyfriend? 459 00:25:27,040 --> 00:25:28,520 She never listens to me. 460 00:25:28,520 --> 00:25:31,360 I'm just sick of everyone treading on eggshells around me. 461 00:25:31,880 --> 00:25:33,400 Like, yeah, I've been ill, 462 00:25:33,400 --> 00:25:37,000 but that doesn't mean that I can't do fun things and be a teenager. 463 00:25:37,000 --> 00:25:38,040 I'm not fragile. 464 00:25:38,600 --> 00:25:41,760 And I wanna have sex with you. What's wrong with that? 465 00:25:42,640 --> 00:25:44,080 [tender music playing] 466 00:25:45,880 --> 00:25:46,920 [chuckles] 467 00:25:46,920 --> 00:25:48,800 [fireworks crackling, popping] 468 00:25:49,880 --> 00:25:50,840 [Nick chuckles] 469 00:25:52,560 --> 00:25:55,600 - You don't think I'm fragile, do you? - No! No. I... 470 00:25:56,800 --> 00:26:00,400 Charlie, you're, like, the strongest person I've ever met. 471 00:26:02,280 --> 00:26:06,720 You know exactly who you are and... and what you want. 472 00:26:07,320 --> 00:26:08,320 I think, um... 473 00:26:10,920 --> 00:26:13,240 I think... I think I'm more fragile than you are. 474 00:26:14,640 --> 00:26:15,960 What? Why? 475 00:26:15,960 --> 00:26:17,840 [fireworks squealing, banging] 476 00:26:18,360 --> 00:26:20,120 You give me so much confidence. 477 00:26:20,640 --> 00:26:23,000 But when you're not around, I, um... 478 00:26:27,280 --> 00:26:29,640 I don't know. I guess I feel a bit lost. 479 00:26:31,520 --> 00:26:33,640 - Nick... - It's... it's nothing. 480 00:26:33,640 --> 00:26:36,280 No. What do you mean? 481 00:26:40,120 --> 00:26:41,240 I... [sighs] 482 00:26:45,120 --> 00:26:47,840 I can't talk to anyone else like I talk to you. 483 00:26:58,720 --> 00:27:01,640 I think, when I realized I was bi... 484 00:27:05,120 --> 00:27:06,320 I feel like I woke up. 485 00:27:07,640 --> 00:27:10,760 Because I was repressing so much of myself before then. 486 00:27:10,760 --> 00:27:14,520 You know, not just my sexuality, but my thoughts and feelings. 487 00:27:14,520 --> 00:27:15,800 My personality. 488 00:27:16,880 --> 00:27:20,880 I still hide behind that mask sometimes. 489 00:27:22,920 --> 00:27:27,360 Just laughing and joking with my mates, but never really opening up to anyone, 490 00:27:27,360 --> 00:27:31,840 and now I'm thinking about uni and my future and... 491 00:27:33,360 --> 00:27:34,280 [sighs] 492 00:27:36,200 --> 00:27:37,320 [sighs heavily] 493 00:27:40,400 --> 00:27:42,080 Basically, I'm just freaking out. 494 00:27:45,800 --> 00:27:46,880 [Charlie chuckles softly] 495 00:28:03,120 --> 00:28:05,520 - That didn't make any sense. - [chuckles] It did. 496 00:28:06,440 --> 00:28:08,520 You're allowed to be a mess sometimes. 497 00:28:09,160 --> 00:28:11,200 - Oh, I'm a mess now, am I? - [chuckles] 498 00:28:11,720 --> 00:28:13,840 - I think we're both a bit of a mess. - Hmm. 499 00:28:13,840 --> 00:28:15,400 [tender music intensifies] 500 00:28:18,520 --> 00:28:20,160 [electricity crackling, fizzing] 501 00:28:20,160 --> 00:28:21,920 [fireworks squealing] 502 00:28:31,840 --> 00:28:32,920 [Nick sighs] 503 00:28:33,800 --> 00:28:37,640 You came here all upset, and I made it all about me. 504 00:28:37,640 --> 00:28:38,720 {\an8}- Oh, shut up. - Yeah, but-- 505 00:28:38,720 --> 00:28:40,480 {\an8}Nick, shut up. 506 00:28:42,960 --> 00:28:45,960 ["Ode to a Conversation Stuck in Your Throat" playing] 507 00:28:45,960 --> 00:28:48,760 - Is anyone else home? - Uh... no. 508 00:28:50,280 --> 00:28:53,560 ♪ I do not want to fight this anymore ♪ 509 00:28:53,560 --> 00:28:55,600 ♪ I just want to lay back ♪ 510 00:28:55,600 --> 00:28:59,000 ♪ And watch you pin me to the bed... ♪ 511 00:29:01,120 --> 00:29:03,920 - [fireworks squealing, popping] - ♪ I used to call you my best friend ♪ 512 00:29:03,920 --> 00:29:06,480 ♪ Way back before You were my everything... ♪ 513 00:29:06,480 --> 00:29:10,240 Do you wanna carry on? We don't have to if you don't want to. 514 00:29:10,240 --> 00:29:14,320 Char, this is literally the only thing I've been able to think about. 515 00:29:14,320 --> 00:29:15,280 [chuckles softly] 516 00:29:16,560 --> 00:29:17,400 Me too. 517 00:29:17,400 --> 00:29:22,480 ♪ I do not know the words to it yet, oh ♪ 518 00:29:22,480 --> 00:29:25,200 ♪ And it hits me ♪ 519 00:29:25,200 --> 00:29:28,640 ♪ I don't want anybody else Touching you like I do... ♪ 520 00:29:28,640 --> 00:29:30,640 - Do you want mine off? - Yeah. 521 00:29:30,640 --> 00:29:31,840 [Nick chuckles] 522 00:29:33,600 --> 00:29:35,960 {\an8}♪ Is it okay ♪ 523 00:29:35,960 --> 00:29:40,120 {\an8}♪ That I don't want anybody else Touching you like I do? ♪ 524 00:29:40,120 --> 00:29:41,480 {\an8}♪ Like I do ♪ 525 00:29:41,480 --> 00:29:44,640 {\an8}♪ Like me, yeah ♪ 526 00:29:44,640 --> 00:29:48,480 ♪ Tell me that nobody else Touches you like I do... 527 00:29:48,480 --> 00:29:50,400 - Is this okay? - Yeah. 528 00:29:50,400 --> 00:29:53,480 ♪ Tell me that nobody else Touches you like me ♪ 529 00:29:54,080 --> 00:29:55,280 ♪ Oh ♪ 530 00:29:55,280 --> 00:29:58,000 ♪ And it hits me ♪ 531 00:29:58,000 --> 00:30:00,000 - ♪ I don't want anybody else... ♪ - [both chuckling] 532 00:30:00,000 --> 00:30:01,920 ♪ Touching you like I do ♪ 533 00:30:01,920 --> 00:30:03,480 ♪ Like I do ♪ 534 00:30:03,480 --> 00:30:06,200 ♪ Like me ♪ 535 00:30:06,200 --> 00:30:08,920 ♪ Is it okay ♪ 536 00:30:08,920 --> 00:30:13,120 ♪ That I don't want anybody else Touching you like I do? ♪ 537 00:30:13,120 --> 00:30:14,520 ♪ Like I do ♪ 538 00:30:14,520 --> 00:30:17,720 ♪ Like me ♪ 539 00:30:17,720 --> 00:30:24,800 ♪ You're in his living room ♪ 540 00:30:25,480 --> 00:30:27,800 ♪ And it may not mean much to you ♪ 541 00:30:27,800 --> 00:30:30,800 ♪ But your plates are in his sink ♪ 542 00:30:30,800 --> 00:30:33,200 ♪ And your sweater's on his bed ♪ 543 00:30:33,200 --> 00:30:35,600 ♪ Won't you text me when you're home? ♪ 544 00:30:35,600 --> 00:30:38,680 ♪ My baby, spare me all the rest ♪ 545 00:30:38,680 --> 00:30:42,800 ♪ Please just tell me That nobody else touches you like I do ♪ 546 00:30:44,600 --> 00:30:48,800 ♪ Oh, tell me that nobody else Touches you like me ♪ 547 00:30:50,080 --> 00:30:53,000 ♪ And it hits me ♪ 548 00:30:53,000 --> 00:30:57,200 ♪ I don't want anybody else Touching you like I do ♪ 549 00:30:57,200 --> 00:30:58,400 ♪ Like I do ♪ 550 00:30:58,400 --> 00:31:00,800 ♪ Like me ♪ 551 00:31:05,680 --> 00:31:07,480 [music fades out]