1 00:00:11,360 --> 00:00:14,320 [Geoff] It's been four months since you left inpatient. 2 00:00:14,320 --> 00:00:17,040 [chuckles] Yeah, I should bake a cake or something. 3 00:00:17,840 --> 00:00:21,080 I know you're being sarcastic, but that's actually a lovely idea. 4 00:00:21,080 --> 00:00:22,760 Too bad I was being sarcastic, then. 5 00:00:22,760 --> 00:00:26,240 But it'd be nice to mark the occasion. You've come a long way. 6 00:00:27,680 --> 00:00:28,960 What, you don't agree? 7 00:00:30,520 --> 00:00:32,640 - I don't know. - Ah, let's try something. 8 00:00:32,640 --> 00:00:38,080 I want you to name three bits of progress you've made over the past four months. 9 00:00:38,080 --> 00:00:40,160 - [sighs] - [Geoff] Come on, humor me. 10 00:00:40,920 --> 00:00:43,120 You know I like my thought exercises. 11 00:00:43,920 --> 00:00:45,040 Progress how? 12 00:00:45,040 --> 00:00:46,440 Well, how about I start? 13 00:00:46,440 --> 00:00:50,320 So you settled back in at school in January. 14 00:00:51,440 --> 00:00:55,000 I'm here if you want any extra support, okay? Whatever you need. 15 00:00:55,000 --> 00:00:56,560 [uplifting music playing] 16 00:00:57,240 --> 00:00:58,080 Thanks. 17 00:01:00,160 --> 00:01:02,000 - [chuckles softly] - Go get 'em. 18 00:01:04,000 --> 00:01:05,120 [Sai] Obviously-- 19 00:01:05,120 --> 00:01:07,040 - Hey, Charlie! - [Christian] Charlie! 20 00:01:07,040 --> 00:01:08,080 - Hey! - How you doing? 21 00:01:08,080 --> 00:01:09,520 - Charlie! - Welcome back. 22 00:01:13,720 --> 00:01:14,680 [whistle blows] 23 00:01:16,440 --> 00:01:19,280 [Coach Singh] Take a five-minute break, all right, Charlie? 24 00:01:19,280 --> 00:01:20,880 Don't push yourself too hard. 25 00:01:25,080 --> 00:01:25,920 You okay? 26 00:01:26,880 --> 00:01:27,720 Yeah. 27 00:01:28,600 --> 00:01:29,800 [music fades out] 28 00:01:29,800 --> 00:01:31,600 Yeah, I mean, I had a lot of help. 29 00:01:32,200 --> 00:01:34,080 I still relapsed two weeks after. 30 00:01:34,840 --> 00:01:37,720 I know. It happens. It's normal. We've talked about it. 31 00:01:37,720 --> 00:01:40,160 But you continue to criticize yourself about it. 32 00:01:41,440 --> 00:01:44,120 - Does it weigh on you? - [disquieting music playing] 33 00:01:44,120 --> 00:01:46,800 - Can you just eat half? - I said I can't! 34 00:01:46,800 --> 00:01:49,120 - You're not even trying. - You're making me feel like shit. 35 00:01:49,120 --> 00:01:51,480 If you're gonna make me feel insane, just fuck off! 36 00:01:53,640 --> 00:01:54,840 [music intensifies] 37 00:01:54,840 --> 00:01:56,760 [disorientating rumbling] 38 00:02:01,120 --> 00:02:01,960 [door opens] 39 00:02:02,560 --> 00:02:03,800 [Nick panting] 40 00:02:05,840 --> 00:02:06,840 [Nick] I'm sorry. 41 00:02:07,520 --> 00:02:10,080 [Charlie] Sorry. I didn't mean to. 42 00:02:10,640 --> 00:02:14,280 [Geoff] Self-harm relapses are normal. They don't negate any progress you-- 43 00:02:14,280 --> 00:02:17,200 - I know. - You are three months clean. 44 00:02:17,200 --> 00:02:19,560 That's our second bit of progress, isn't it? 45 00:02:20,680 --> 00:02:22,720 [sighs] Okay. Fine. 46 00:02:23,280 --> 00:02:24,160 Happy? 47 00:02:24,160 --> 00:02:27,800 Yeah, I'm delighted. So progress number three. Let's hear it. 48 00:02:28,360 --> 00:02:30,000 I've done the first two for you. 49 00:02:34,360 --> 00:02:35,280 [Charlie] Me and Nick. 50 00:02:37,080 --> 00:02:38,200 I don't know. 51 00:02:38,720 --> 00:02:39,800 No, no, that's great. 52 00:02:39,800 --> 00:02:43,440 So you feel you and Nick have progressed in your relationship? 53 00:02:45,800 --> 00:02:49,120 Yeah. I... Probably since that night of the argument. 54 00:02:50,320 --> 00:02:52,680 I guess we feel a lot closer. 55 00:02:54,320 --> 00:02:56,880 [sighs] I mean, he's seen me at my absolute rock bottom 56 00:02:56,880 --> 00:02:58,560 and hasn't run away screaming. 57 00:02:59,640 --> 00:03:02,160 Now I feel like I'm in relationship therapy or something. 58 00:03:02,160 --> 00:03:05,160 Save that until you're ten years in and having marital problems. 59 00:03:05,160 --> 00:03:06,560 [Charlie chuckles] 60 00:03:06,560 --> 00:03:10,480 But I expect your progress has allowed you to deepen your connection with him. 61 00:03:11,480 --> 00:03:13,720 If your intrusive thoughts have lessened, 62 00:03:13,720 --> 00:03:16,040 you've more energy to give to your relationship. 63 00:03:16,040 --> 00:03:18,360 [suspenseful music playing] 64 00:03:18,360 --> 00:03:19,880 [passionate music playing] 65 00:03:25,280 --> 00:03:26,600 [music fades out] 66 00:03:26,600 --> 00:03:28,800 More energy? Yeah. 67 00:03:31,480 --> 00:03:33,720 I still feel like I've got a long way to go. 68 00:03:34,720 --> 00:03:36,280 Still have a lot of bad days. 69 00:03:36,280 --> 00:03:38,920 Well, you've experienced trauma, Charlie. 70 00:03:38,920 --> 00:03:41,720 Yeah, but I really don't want to be defined by the fact 71 00:03:41,720 --> 00:03:45,120 that I was bullied at 14 and had one toxic ex-boyfriend. 72 00:03:45,120 --> 00:03:46,800 Trauma doesn't define you. 73 00:03:47,320 --> 00:03:49,920 But it also doesn't vanish in five minutes, so... 74 00:03:50,440 --> 00:03:52,000 so give yourself some grace. 75 00:03:53,280 --> 00:03:57,080 And you've got people around you who love and care for you, so enjoy them. 76 00:03:58,600 --> 00:04:02,440 Do you practice motivational pep talks, or do they just come to you in the moment? 77 00:04:02,440 --> 00:04:03,880 Oh... 78 00:04:03,880 --> 00:04:06,640 You know, they just come to me. I'm just a talented person. 79 00:04:06,640 --> 00:04:08,360 [both chuckling] 80 00:04:09,200 --> 00:04:12,360 Yeah, I think we're out of time here, so I'll see you next week. 81 00:04:12,360 --> 00:04:15,760 Oh, and enjoy your birthday, and party hard. 82 00:04:16,600 --> 00:04:18,120 Sixteen's one of the big ones. 83 00:04:18,120 --> 00:04:19,440 [pensive music playing] 84 00:04:20,800 --> 00:04:22,840 {\an8}[disorientating fluttering] 85 00:04:24,520 --> 00:04:26,840 [Naomi] How long have you been working on that? 86 00:04:26,840 --> 00:04:28,080 [Felix] None of your... 87 00:04:28,080 --> 00:04:32,840 [woman] Elle, wow, this captures your spirit as well as your likeness. 88 00:04:32,840 --> 00:04:35,960 Miss, how come you never compliment my work like that? 89 00:04:35,960 --> 00:04:38,160 Felix, I'd compliment your work 90 00:04:38,160 --> 00:04:41,000 if you could actually show me a completed piece. 91 00:04:41,720 --> 00:04:42,560 She has a point. 92 00:04:42,560 --> 00:04:45,320 Elle, I wanted to talk to you about something. 93 00:04:45,320 --> 00:04:48,000 We've had contact from a local radio station about you. 94 00:04:48,000 --> 00:04:48,920 - What? - [tutor] Yeah. 95 00:04:48,920 --> 00:04:51,720 They heard about your social media and want to interview you. 96 00:04:51,720 --> 00:04:54,360 "Local young artist achieves Internet fame." 97 00:04:55,680 --> 00:04:56,800 Okay. 98 00:04:56,800 --> 00:04:59,320 [tutor] Now, it's completely up to you, 99 00:04:59,320 --> 00:05:03,320 but I want you to think about whether it's something you feel comfortable with. 100 00:05:04,120 --> 00:05:06,440 - I'll email you the details. - Thank you. 101 00:05:08,120 --> 00:05:11,520 Elle, that's so exciting. You're literally famous. 102 00:05:11,520 --> 00:05:12,720 - I'm not famous. - You are. 103 00:05:12,720 --> 00:05:13,760 - I am not. - [chuckles] 104 00:05:13,760 --> 00:05:15,760 Finish your painting. [chuckles] 105 00:05:16,280 --> 00:05:19,600 [Headmaster Barnes] Welcome back from the Easter holidays, everyone. 106 00:05:19,600 --> 00:05:21,640 Spring is in full bloom 107 00:05:21,640 --> 00:05:23,840 while summer peeps out from the horizon 108 00:05:23,840 --> 00:05:26,560 with all its endless possibilities. 109 00:05:26,560 --> 00:05:31,040 So knuckle down, work hard, and... and don't forget to have some fun. 110 00:05:31,040 --> 00:05:33,680 - [hopeful music playing] - [distant drumming] 111 00:05:36,320 --> 00:05:37,280 [chuckles softly] 112 00:05:40,080 --> 00:05:41,200 [drumming continues] 113 00:05:48,280 --> 00:05:49,760 - Happy birthday. - [chuckles] 114 00:05:50,320 --> 00:05:52,520 - Happy birthday! - Oh! Nick! 115 00:05:52,520 --> 00:05:53,720 [Nick grunting] 116 00:05:54,840 --> 00:05:56,760 Are you ever gonna get tired of doing that? 117 00:05:56,760 --> 00:06:00,480 Absolutely not, no, but I did get you a present. 118 00:06:00,480 --> 00:06:01,760 Okay. 119 00:06:01,760 --> 00:06:03,400 [gentle music playing] 120 00:06:04,360 --> 00:06:08,040 [Nick] It's that Instagram-famous historian you like, Jack Maddox. 121 00:06:08,040 --> 00:06:11,880 He's doing a book signing on Sunday. Maybe we could go after the sleepover? 122 00:06:11,880 --> 00:06:14,720 - Wait. We get to meet him? - Yeah. 123 00:06:15,920 --> 00:06:17,600 [Charlie] I love you so much! 124 00:06:17,600 --> 00:06:21,720 Well, clearly not as much as Jack Maddox, but I'll take it. 125 00:06:22,320 --> 00:06:25,640 Do I also get a birthday kiss? 126 00:06:27,600 --> 00:06:28,840 Yeah. [chuckles softly] 127 00:06:34,640 --> 00:06:36,240 [electricity fizzing, crackling] 128 00:06:37,320 --> 00:06:38,480 [fireworks exploding] 129 00:06:39,200 --> 00:06:40,120 [Nick gasps] 130 00:06:48,360 --> 00:06:50,160 We should... we should probably... 131 00:06:51,800 --> 00:06:53,520 Uh, yeah, yeah. Not at school. 132 00:06:53,520 --> 00:06:55,800 [awkward instrumental music playing] 133 00:06:55,800 --> 00:06:57,880 It's almost form time anyway, so... 134 00:07:02,320 --> 00:07:03,840 Sleepover on Saturday though. 135 00:07:06,920 --> 00:07:08,000 Yeah. 136 00:07:10,400 --> 00:07:11,560 [door opens] 137 00:07:12,560 --> 00:07:13,520 [door closes] 138 00:07:13,520 --> 00:07:15,120 - [crunching] - [Tao] Mm. 139 00:07:16,880 --> 00:07:18,480 - [Charlie] It happened again. - When? 140 00:07:18,480 --> 00:07:20,720 - Yesterday before form. - What happened? 141 00:07:20,720 --> 00:07:24,840 Me and Nick were making out, and it got really intense really quickly. 142 00:07:24,840 --> 00:07:28,160 Then it stopped, and it was kind of awkward and overwhelming. 143 00:07:28,160 --> 00:07:32,000 - Do you wanna say it? Or shall I? - No, I think he's nearly worked it out. 144 00:07:32,000 --> 00:07:34,400 Charlie, have you considered the idea 145 00:07:34,960 --> 00:07:37,960 that you and Nick are ready to take things further? 146 00:07:39,120 --> 00:07:40,800 - [chuckles] - [Isaac] He's talking about sex. 147 00:07:40,800 --> 00:07:42,480 Yeah, I know. I know. 148 00:07:42,480 --> 00:07:45,600 And I know it's obvious we both want to. It's not like we've done nothing. 149 00:07:45,600 --> 00:07:49,560 I mean, it's all been over the clothes, but sometimes when we're making out, we-- 150 00:07:49,560 --> 00:07:51,040 - [Tao] Ugh! - [Isaac snickers] 151 00:07:51,680 --> 00:07:54,360 - Spare us the details. - What? I want all the details. 152 00:07:54,360 --> 00:07:58,120 I'm just scared that he's not ready to... do anything more. 153 00:07:58,120 --> 00:08:00,440 I'm scared I'm not gonna know what I'm doing. 154 00:08:00,440 --> 00:08:03,080 And I'm scared he's gonna take one look at me and... 155 00:08:03,080 --> 00:08:07,920 Well, when me and Elle started having sex, it was in the spur of the moment. 156 00:08:07,920 --> 00:08:11,480 An outburst of fiery passion in the light of the New Year's fireworks. 157 00:08:11,480 --> 00:08:13,560 Yes, we've all heard this story before. 158 00:08:13,560 --> 00:08:15,680 Why you interested in Charlie's sex life, not mine? 159 00:08:15,680 --> 00:08:17,560 [Charlie] Get out. I need to change. 160 00:08:17,560 --> 00:08:21,400 - What? We're talking about sexy time. - I wanna talk about it! Charlie, why-- 161 00:08:21,400 --> 00:08:24,040 - [Tao] We know you like sexy time. - [Isaac giggles] 162 00:08:38,400 --> 00:08:39,360 [sighs] 163 00:08:40,840 --> 00:08:42,600 [disquieting music playing] 164 00:08:57,720 --> 00:08:58,840 [sighs] 165 00:09:09,400 --> 00:09:12,080 - [pop music playing] - [indistinct chattering] 166 00:09:12,080 --> 00:09:14,640 Everyone, uh, my parents are out, 167 00:09:14,640 --> 00:09:17,840 but please don't break anything or be sick anywhere, please. 168 00:09:17,840 --> 00:09:19,240 - [Tao] Fine. - [Darcy] Yes, sir! 169 00:09:19,240 --> 00:09:22,840 - [Isaac] Sounds like a note for Imogen. - [Imogen] How have I got this reputation? 170 00:09:22,840 --> 00:09:25,160 - [Isaac] Drink that, you'll be sick. - Careful. 171 00:09:25,160 --> 00:09:27,320 - We'll have another vomit situation. - Shh. 172 00:09:27,320 --> 00:09:29,320 Just need a night off from everything. 173 00:09:29,320 --> 00:09:31,960 [Darcy] Ew! - [Tara] What are you guys doing? 174 00:09:31,960 --> 00:09:34,640 We're making a potion that the loser has to drink. 175 00:09:34,640 --> 00:09:37,320 - Oh, Darcy, not crisps. That's so gross. - [Tao] Ugh! 176 00:09:37,320 --> 00:09:39,120 - [Tara] Darcy! - [Isaac] You guys are gross. 177 00:09:39,120 --> 00:09:41,960 Things have been awkward between me and Sahar since New Year's. 178 00:09:41,960 --> 00:09:43,480 Like, we're still friends. 179 00:09:44,200 --> 00:09:46,040 - I... I think. - [Tara] Ooh! 180 00:09:46,560 --> 00:09:47,600 I... I dunno. 181 00:09:48,400 --> 00:09:49,280 Um... 182 00:09:49,800 --> 00:09:51,960 Sounds like you should probably talk to her. 183 00:09:51,960 --> 00:09:53,160 [group] Oh! 184 00:09:53,160 --> 00:09:55,600 - Right. - [Isaac] I am not drinking that. No way! 185 00:09:55,600 --> 00:09:58,040 That looks so gross! 186 00:09:58,040 --> 00:09:59,720 - [Elle] Try it! - [laughter] 187 00:10:00,400 --> 00:10:03,360 Charlie, we need a drummer for our summer-fête slot. 188 00:10:03,360 --> 00:10:05,520 You're literally the only person we know! 189 00:10:05,520 --> 00:10:09,320 I... I don't know. I don't really like performing in front of people. 190 00:10:09,920 --> 00:10:11,280 Well, think about it. 191 00:10:11,280 --> 00:10:13,360 [Imogen] That smells disgusting. 192 00:10:13,360 --> 00:10:14,560 - Cheers? - Cheers. 193 00:10:14,560 --> 00:10:15,560 [Sahar chuckles] 194 00:10:17,400 --> 00:10:19,160 - Ugh! - Oh, I'm so sorry. 195 00:10:19,160 --> 00:10:21,560 - What is in that? - [coughing] Everything! 196 00:10:21,560 --> 00:10:27,200 ♪ Happy birthday to you ♪ 197 00:10:27,200 --> 00:10:30,560 - ♪ Happy birthday, dear Charlie... ♪ - [Tao] Charlie Spring! 198 00:10:30,560 --> 00:10:33,280 ♪ Happy birthday to you! ♪ 199 00:10:33,280 --> 00:10:36,160 [cheering, whooping] 200 00:10:36,160 --> 00:10:40,640 - [Tara] Happy birthday, Charlie! Yes! - [Sahar] Happy birthday. 201 00:10:40,640 --> 00:10:42,000 [Darcy] We love you. 202 00:10:42,000 --> 00:10:44,240 - [Elle] Who made this cake? - [Imogen] I did. 203 00:10:44,240 --> 00:10:47,120 - Guys, do you like it? I made it. - [Tao] Best day ever! 204 00:10:47,120 --> 00:10:48,520 [laughter] 205 00:10:48,520 --> 00:10:50,560 I can do it. I wanna try. 206 00:10:50,560 --> 00:10:53,080 - [Tara] We need a game. - [Darcy] Oh, yeah, games! 207 00:10:53,080 --> 00:10:55,520 [indistinct chatter] 208 00:10:56,240 --> 00:10:58,280 - [doorbell rings] - [Imogen] I have a really good idea! 209 00:10:58,280 --> 00:11:00,720 - Would you like to play Never Have I Ever? - Hello. 210 00:11:02,000 --> 00:11:03,000 Charlie! 211 00:11:04,600 --> 00:11:06,320 Do you have a friend we don't know about? 212 00:11:06,840 --> 00:11:08,400 [chuckles] Hi, Michael. 213 00:11:08,400 --> 00:11:09,600 Happy birthday. 214 00:11:10,320 --> 00:11:11,160 Um... 215 00:11:11,760 --> 00:11:14,600 Sixteen is when everything starts to make sense. 216 00:11:16,520 --> 00:11:19,120 Or when nothing makes any sense anymore. 217 00:11:20,840 --> 00:11:23,440 Kind of the same feeling either way. Beautiful chaos. 218 00:11:24,880 --> 00:11:26,160 Yeah. Thanks. 219 00:11:26,800 --> 00:11:30,640 [Michael] Uh, this is for you. I found him at a charity shop, 220 00:11:30,640 --> 00:11:34,080 and he just had your energy, so I figured he belonged with you. 221 00:11:35,080 --> 00:11:37,640 Also, it made me sad seeing him sitting on a shelf on his own, so-- 222 00:11:37,640 --> 00:11:40,640 Uh, okay. Well, um, bye, everyone. 223 00:11:40,640 --> 00:11:41,920 Have a fun time! 224 00:11:41,920 --> 00:11:43,600 Whoo! Bee-boo-bee-boo. 225 00:11:43,600 --> 00:11:45,520 [distant door opens, closes] 226 00:11:45,520 --> 00:11:47,720 - So who's that? - It's Michael. 227 00:11:48,240 --> 00:11:50,120 It's... Met Tori a few months ago. 228 00:11:50,120 --> 00:11:52,880 [chuckles softly] Is he Tori's boyfriend? 229 00:11:52,880 --> 00:11:55,120 She won't confirm whether they're dating. 230 00:11:56,080 --> 00:11:57,080 - Meow. - Meow. 231 00:11:57,080 --> 00:11:58,000 Meow! 232 00:11:58,520 --> 00:12:00,600 ♪ ...by the open road... ♪ 233 00:12:01,880 --> 00:12:04,720 [Elle] Here goes. You're so tiny. You'll fit right in. 234 00:12:05,480 --> 00:12:07,880 - [whooping, laughter] - ♪ You've lost control... ♪ 235 00:12:08,480 --> 00:12:10,600 - This is big. [chuckles] - [Tao] I know. 236 00:12:10,600 --> 00:12:11,600 It's nice. 237 00:12:12,360 --> 00:12:14,320 - Very nice. - You'd better put that down. 238 00:12:14,320 --> 00:12:16,600 'Cause this needs to be Tao and Elle time. 239 00:12:16,600 --> 00:12:19,560 [Tao] Have you decided about the radio interview tomorrow? 240 00:12:21,640 --> 00:12:22,800 I think I should do it. 241 00:12:22,800 --> 00:12:25,280 It's a really cool opportunity. 242 00:12:25,280 --> 00:12:27,160 I think so too. You're so talented. 243 00:12:27,160 --> 00:12:28,640 - The world needs to know. - Stop. 244 00:12:28,640 --> 00:12:31,840 It's gonna be a whole chapter of my Elle documentary. 245 00:12:33,080 --> 00:12:36,440 Elle Argent, how are you feeling about your radio interview? 246 00:12:36,440 --> 00:12:39,160 - I will pour my drink on you. I will. - No, no, no! 247 00:12:46,680 --> 00:12:48,680 Things have been really awkward with us. 248 00:12:49,920 --> 00:12:50,760 Yeah. 249 00:12:50,760 --> 00:12:52,600 [pensive music playing] 250 00:12:53,960 --> 00:12:56,920 I've been doing a lot of thinking and reflecting recently. 251 00:12:59,200 --> 00:13:00,640 I have no idea who I am. 252 00:13:02,880 --> 00:13:05,720 I don't know much about anything at the moment, actually. 253 00:13:08,760 --> 00:13:09,840 But what I do know... 254 00:13:11,840 --> 00:13:13,960 is I don't wanna keep hurting you. 255 00:13:15,600 --> 00:13:16,440 [Sahar sighs] 256 00:13:17,960 --> 00:13:19,200 Do you hate me? 257 00:13:20,560 --> 00:13:21,440 [chuckles softly] 258 00:13:21,960 --> 00:13:22,840 No. 259 00:13:24,560 --> 00:13:26,520 I don't think I could ever hate you. 260 00:13:28,360 --> 00:13:31,360 You helped me realize something pretty big about myself. 261 00:13:35,240 --> 00:13:36,080 I mean... 262 00:13:38,680 --> 00:13:40,680 I guess I could say the same about you. 263 00:13:46,040 --> 00:13:48,640 But you know we'd be awful together, right? 264 00:13:48,640 --> 00:13:49,880 [laughs] 265 00:13:49,880 --> 00:13:51,400 Yeah. I know. 266 00:13:57,440 --> 00:13:59,360 - I like us better as friends. - Mm. 267 00:14:00,120 --> 00:14:01,720 [both whispering, giggling] 268 00:14:01,720 --> 00:14:04,520 - Can we go get crazy drunk now? - [giggling] Yeah, let's go. 269 00:14:04,520 --> 00:14:07,640 - Yes! - But let's start right here. 270 00:14:08,240 --> 00:14:10,920 - Wine? - Yeah. That's your drink of choice. 271 00:14:10,920 --> 00:14:13,160 Is it sustainable? I'm trying to do my bit. 272 00:14:13,680 --> 00:14:15,360 Just drink it, Imogen. 273 00:14:15,360 --> 00:14:16,960 [upbeat music playing] 274 00:14:16,960 --> 00:14:19,320 - Happy birthday! - [cheering] 275 00:14:19,320 --> 00:14:20,760 [Isaac] La-la-la! 276 00:14:21,440 --> 00:14:22,600 [Nick] Whoo! 277 00:14:22,600 --> 00:14:24,000 [playful squealing] 278 00:14:24,000 --> 00:14:26,120 - [Sahar] Amazing! - [Imogen] That's the ticket! 279 00:14:26,120 --> 00:14:28,360 [Darcy] It's Charlie's birthday! 280 00:14:29,320 --> 00:14:31,360 Charlie Spring! Yay! 281 00:14:31,360 --> 00:14:32,560 [cheering] 282 00:14:37,040 --> 00:14:39,960 I'm sure you're lovely in other ways. How is it? 283 00:14:39,960 --> 00:14:41,440 [all laughing] 284 00:14:41,440 --> 00:14:43,040 [Isaac] Aww! 285 00:14:46,360 --> 00:14:47,240 [chuckles] 286 00:14:47,240 --> 00:14:48,600 - Hello. - Hello. 287 00:14:50,880 --> 00:14:53,880 ♪ Well, good for you You look happy and healthy ♪ 288 00:14:53,880 --> 00:14:57,000 ♪ Not me, if you ever cared to ask ♪ 289 00:14:57,000 --> 00:14:57,920 ♪ Good for you ♪ 290 00:14:57,920 --> 00:15:00,360 ♪ You're doing great Out there without me, baby ♪ 291 00:15:00,360 --> 00:15:02,240 ♪ God, I wish that I could do that ♪ 292 00:15:02,240 --> 00:15:03,600 ♪ I've lost my mind ♪ 293 00:15:03,600 --> 00:15:05,080 ♪ I've spent the night... ♪ 294 00:15:05,080 --> 00:15:06,200 [both slurping] 295 00:15:06,200 --> 00:15:08,200 ♪ Crying on the floor of my bathroom ♪ 296 00:15:08,200 --> 00:15:11,160 ♪ But you're so unaffected I really don't get it ♪ 297 00:15:11,160 --> 00:15:14,200 - ♪ But, I guess, good for you ♪ - Drink, drink, drink! 298 00:15:14,200 --> 00:15:15,640 [pop music playing quietly] 299 00:15:15,640 --> 00:15:17,880 [Imogen] Have you started thinking about uni options? 300 00:15:17,880 --> 00:15:21,280 [Darcy] Mm. Gap year for sure. I love staying at my gran's. 301 00:15:21,280 --> 00:15:26,040 I think I wanna go to a super old university and study history. 302 00:15:26,040 --> 00:15:28,360 Like, dark-academia vibes. 303 00:15:28,360 --> 00:15:30,040 - Yeah, totally. - [Sahar] Mm. 304 00:15:30,040 --> 00:15:32,920 I'm thinking of doing, like, business or politics. 305 00:15:33,440 --> 00:15:34,400 Tara, what about you? 306 00:15:34,400 --> 00:15:36,040 - [tense music playing] - Uh-huh. 307 00:15:36,840 --> 00:15:37,680 I dunno. 308 00:15:38,600 --> 00:15:39,720 - Nick? - [Nick] Uh... 309 00:15:39,720 --> 00:15:43,240 I'll probably just try and get in somewhere local so I can stay here. 310 00:15:43,840 --> 00:15:45,520 [Darcy] You want to stay close to Charlie! 311 00:15:45,520 --> 00:15:47,520 Can we not talk about uni stuff right now? 312 00:15:47,520 --> 00:15:51,040 - [Sahar] Think you could do long distance? - [Nick] I hadn't really thought about it. 313 00:15:51,040 --> 00:15:52,880 You're going to Oxford, aren't you? 314 00:15:52,880 --> 00:15:55,960 [Imogen] You're doing all that Oxbridge prep stuff. 315 00:15:55,960 --> 00:15:57,320 You're so smart. You'll get in. 316 00:15:57,320 --> 00:15:59,040 - [Tara panting] - Tara? 317 00:15:59,680 --> 00:16:02,560 - [Tao] That was a good shot. - [panicked breathing] 318 00:16:05,200 --> 00:16:06,400 - Tara? - [Tara whimpers] 319 00:16:07,320 --> 00:16:08,160 [Charlie] Hey. 320 00:16:09,280 --> 00:16:10,720 [panicked breathing] 321 00:16:11,640 --> 00:16:15,040 Oh, okay. I think... I think you're having a panic attack. 322 00:16:15,640 --> 00:16:20,360 It's okay. My... my therapist gave me some exercises to help clear my brain 323 00:16:20,360 --> 00:16:23,080 whenever I'm having thoughts that I can't control. 324 00:16:24,000 --> 00:16:25,560 Let's do deep breaths together. 325 00:16:27,680 --> 00:16:28,960 Breathe in for three. 326 00:16:28,960 --> 00:16:31,000 [inhaling shakily] 327 00:16:31,000 --> 00:16:33,200 - [Charlie] And breathe out. - [exhales] 328 00:16:34,040 --> 00:16:35,280 And breathe in. 329 00:16:37,160 --> 00:16:38,880 - And breathe out. - [exhales slowly] 330 00:16:38,880 --> 00:16:42,440 - [Charlie] Let's do it one more time. - [Tara inhales slowly] 331 00:16:43,960 --> 00:16:45,600 [exhales slowly] 332 00:16:45,600 --> 00:16:47,240 [chuckles softly] Okay? 333 00:16:47,760 --> 00:16:51,720 We're in my house. We're chilling. We've had a few drinks. 334 00:16:51,720 --> 00:16:54,280 But everything's fine. Everything's good. 335 00:16:54,280 --> 00:16:56,280 - Hey, Tara. - [pensive music playing] 336 00:16:57,280 --> 00:16:58,200 - Hey. - [sniffles] 337 00:16:59,000 --> 00:17:00,000 Are you okay? 338 00:17:00,920 --> 00:17:02,200 Sorry. I was just... 339 00:17:03,480 --> 00:17:05,960 Just stressed about everything right now. 340 00:17:06,440 --> 00:17:07,680 Charlie was helping. 341 00:17:08,240 --> 00:17:10,760 - [chuckles softly] - [Tara] I'm fine. I'll be fine. 342 00:17:13,640 --> 00:17:14,800 [Tara whimpers] 343 00:17:16,360 --> 00:17:17,920 [Tara sniffles] 344 00:17:21,360 --> 00:17:22,480 That was amazing. 345 00:17:23,240 --> 00:17:25,400 - I'm so drunk right now. - [chuckles] 346 00:17:26,520 --> 00:17:27,560 [music fades out] 347 00:17:34,400 --> 00:17:35,960 - [Charlie grunts] - [snickers] 348 00:17:35,960 --> 00:17:37,000 [Charlie chuckles] 349 00:17:37,720 --> 00:17:39,520 [Nick] Maybe you've had enough now? 350 00:17:42,320 --> 00:17:43,720 I really like you. 351 00:17:44,600 --> 00:17:45,880 I like you too. 352 00:17:46,760 --> 00:17:47,960 Don't ever leave me. 353 00:17:49,160 --> 00:17:50,800 [Nick chuckles] 354 00:17:52,000 --> 00:17:53,440 I wasn't planning on it. 355 00:17:54,000 --> 00:17:54,880 Let's, um... 356 00:17:55,600 --> 00:17:57,520 let's get you some water. Okay? 357 00:18:02,160 --> 00:18:03,480 [faucet running] 358 00:18:04,160 --> 00:18:05,840 - Come here. - [faucet stops] 359 00:18:10,000 --> 00:18:12,280 [group chattering indistinctly outside] 360 00:18:17,920 --> 00:18:18,840 [Charlie chuckles] 361 00:18:20,400 --> 00:18:22,680 - I've been thinking about something. - Mm-hmm? 362 00:18:22,680 --> 00:18:24,280 [gentle music playing] 363 00:18:24,280 --> 00:18:25,200 What's that? 364 00:18:26,680 --> 00:18:27,720 You and me. 365 00:18:29,840 --> 00:18:33,120 - We could... do things. - [Nick chuckles softly] 366 00:18:34,760 --> 00:18:35,760 What kind of things? 367 00:18:37,560 --> 00:18:38,400 We could... 368 00:18:40,680 --> 00:18:41,800 have sex. [chuckles] 369 00:18:44,560 --> 00:18:45,480 I, uh... 370 00:18:46,440 --> 00:18:48,040 I think about it all the time. 371 00:18:49,560 --> 00:18:50,440 Yeah. 372 00:18:52,320 --> 00:18:53,640 Yeah. So do I. 373 00:18:54,480 --> 00:18:57,200 [chuckles softly] Do you? 374 00:18:57,200 --> 00:18:58,120 [Nick] Yeah. 375 00:18:59,920 --> 00:19:02,680 I know I wasn't ready in Paris, but... 376 00:19:05,520 --> 00:19:06,720 that was a long time ago. 377 00:19:10,080 --> 00:19:12,440 - We can go upstairs. - [Nick chuckles] 378 00:19:13,640 --> 00:19:14,560 Char... 379 00:19:17,880 --> 00:19:19,520 you... you're incredibly drunk. 380 00:19:20,080 --> 00:19:22,240 When I'm sober, I'm scared that... 381 00:19:24,680 --> 00:19:25,800 that you might just... 382 00:19:29,080 --> 00:19:30,680 that you'll look at me and... 383 00:19:36,320 --> 00:19:38,720 [heaves] I... I think... I think I'm gonna be sick. 384 00:19:38,720 --> 00:19:41,520 Oh. Oh shit. Um... Let's go to the toilet. Come on! 385 00:19:42,360 --> 00:19:43,360 [music fades out] 386 00:19:44,440 --> 00:19:46,360 - [leaves rustling] - [birds singing] 387 00:19:48,920 --> 00:19:50,200 [heaving] 388 00:19:50,840 --> 00:19:52,600 Wait! I'll hold your hair back! 389 00:19:54,040 --> 00:19:55,920 Oh, I feel so ill. 390 00:19:58,920 --> 00:20:00,280 Do you remember last night? 391 00:20:02,400 --> 00:20:05,560 I remember running around in the garden, 392 00:20:06,200 --> 00:20:08,640 and then we were in the kitchen. 393 00:20:09,880 --> 00:20:10,720 And then... 394 00:20:14,680 --> 00:20:17,120 Oh my God, I'm so embarrassing! 395 00:20:17,120 --> 00:20:20,240 No. No, I'm... I'm glad you brought it up. 396 00:20:22,920 --> 00:20:23,760 Yeah? 397 00:20:25,680 --> 00:20:26,840 [zipper opening] 398 00:20:28,240 --> 00:20:29,360 Morning, campers. 399 00:20:30,400 --> 00:20:33,400 Mum and Dad will be back in half an hour. Just so you know. 400 00:20:33,400 --> 00:20:34,320 Oh God. 401 00:20:34,320 --> 00:20:37,440 [Tori] Clear up before going to see that historian you're obsessed with. 402 00:20:37,440 --> 00:20:39,200 [Michael] I could make egg on toast. 403 00:20:39,200 --> 00:20:41,560 I feel like you guys need the egg on toast. 404 00:20:44,280 --> 00:20:45,560 Did he stay over? 405 00:20:45,560 --> 00:20:46,560 Yeah. 406 00:20:47,200 --> 00:20:49,600 So? I can have friends over too. 407 00:20:49,600 --> 00:20:51,680 Mm. Friends. 408 00:20:52,320 --> 00:20:53,160 [Nick chuckles] 409 00:20:59,760 --> 00:21:02,800 - [Elle sighs] I'm nervous. [chuckles] - [woman] It's all right. 410 00:21:02,800 --> 00:21:04,560 - [Tao] Where are we going? - [chuckling] 411 00:21:04,560 --> 00:21:05,840 [quietly] How do you feel? 412 00:21:05,840 --> 00:21:08,880 I'd feel less nervous if you got that camera out of my face. 413 00:21:08,880 --> 00:21:10,960 [Tao] But this is history in the making. 414 00:21:10,960 --> 00:21:14,280 Famous artist Elle Argent for her big first interview. 415 00:21:14,280 --> 00:21:18,920 And if you're lost for words, you can just talk about what great parents we are 416 00:21:18,920 --> 00:21:21,720 and how everything you've achieved is thanks to us. 417 00:21:21,720 --> 00:21:24,000 - Stop! Thanks, Dad. - [laughing] 418 00:21:25,000 --> 00:21:26,360 All right. Come on. 419 00:21:29,200 --> 00:21:33,000 Your parents and your boyfriend will have to wait out here, if that's all right. 420 00:21:33,000 --> 00:21:36,760 Um, you'll be great. Katy knows exactly how to keep the conversation going. 421 00:21:37,280 --> 00:21:39,000 And, uh, we're just through here. 422 00:21:41,760 --> 00:21:44,000 It'll be great. You're amazing. 423 00:21:46,720 --> 00:21:48,000 - Yeah. - Okay. 424 00:21:48,000 --> 00:21:49,040 Here we go. 425 00:21:50,280 --> 00:21:51,840 [indistinct chattering] 426 00:21:54,480 --> 00:21:55,720 Through here. 427 00:21:57,160 --> 00:21:58,240 Sorry. We're just here. 428 00:22:00,600 --> 00:22:03,920 - Ready to meet the love of your life? - You're so jealous right now. 429 00:22:04,600 --> 00:22:08,720 - I'm allowed a crush on a celebrity. - I can't believe I'm about to be replaced. 430 00:22:08,720 --> 00:22:10,560 Oh! [chuckling] 431 00:22:12,160 --> 00:22:13,240 [applause] 432 00:22:13,240 --> 00:22:15,280 [cheering, whooping] 433 00:22:15,280 --> 00:22:16,200 Hello. 434 00:22:16,200 --> 00:22:18,200 - [applause, cheering continue] - Hi. Hi. 435 00:22:18,880 --> 00:22:20,200 Oh my God, he's so hot. 436 00:22:20,720 --> 00:22:23,960 So good to see so many of us united in our love of classical art. 437 00:22:23,960 --> 00:22:29,320 Of history, philosophy, and of literature. 438 00:22:29,320 --> 00:22:33,280 Just make sure you speak nice and clearly, Elle. Shall we get started? 439 00:22:34,280 --> 00:22:35,120 Okay. 440 00:22:36,080 --> 00:22:38,440 [intermittent beeping] 441 00:22:39,280 --> 00:22:40,120 [steady beep] 442 00:22:40,120 --> 00:22:42,240 [soothing piano intro playing] 443 00:22:43,120 --> 00:22:46,280 Hello and welcome to Local Voices with me, Katy Newnham. 444 00:22:46,280 --> 00:22:48,800 I'm here this afternoon with Elle Argent, 445 00:22:48,800 --> 00:22:51,720 a sixth-form student of the Lambert School of Art 446 00:22:51,720 --> 00:22:55,000 whose art has skyrocketed to popularity on social media. 447 00:22:55,000 --> 00:22:56,360 Tell us about that, Elle. 448 00:22:56,360 --> 00:22:59,800 Um, well, I just started to post my art to my social media, 449 00:22:59,800 --> 00:23:02,760 um, just wanting to share it with my friends and family. 450 00:23:02,760 --> 00:23:05,440 But it just started to get more and more likes, 451 00:23:05,440 --> 00:23:08,000 and now I have over 50,000 followers. 452 00:23:08,000 --> 00:23:10,840 That's amazing. Is the attention at all overwhelming? 453 00:23:10,840 --> 00:23:14,760 Maybe a bit. I mean, that... that's a lot of people. [chuckles] 454 00:23:14,760 --> 00:23:18,560 [Katy] Now, much of your art explores your identity as a young trans woman. 455 00:23:18,560 --> 00:23:20,000 Why is that your focus? 456 00:23:20,680 --> 00:23:24,640 Um, I'm very, very proud to be trans. It's a big part of who I am, 457 00:23:24,640 --> 00:23:28,680 so I like to explore and express that in the art that I create. 458 00:23:28,680 --> 00:23:31,160 And that's so important right now, isn't it? 459 00:23:35,480 --> 00:23:36,360 Yeah. 460 00:23:36,360 --> 00:23:39,160 Trans identities are the hot topic of the moment. 461 00:23:39,160 --> 00:23:41,200 Some call it a culture war. 462 00:23:41,200 --> 00:23:44,400 Feminists versus trans activists and so on. 463 00:23:44,400 --> 00:23:47,320 Last week, we had a feminist speaker on the show 464 00:23:47,320 --> 00:23:50,480 who talked to us about the importance of same-sex spaces. 465 00:23:51,000 --> 00:23:53,880 I think it's so important we hear all voices and opinions, 466 00:23:53,880 --> 00:23:56,680 so I'd love to hear your thoughts on the debate. 467 00:23:56,680 --> 00:23:58,800 [tense music playing] 468 00:23:58,800 --> 00:24:01,000 Trans people aren't a debate. 469 00:24:01,000 --> 00:24:02,720 We're human beings. 470 00:24:03,520 --> 00:24:06,720 - Well, I mean, our speaker last week... - [inaudible] 471 00:24:06,720 --> 00:24:09,560 ...believed that the presence of gender-neutral bathrooms 472 00:24:09,560 --> 00:24:12,320 will increase cases of sexual assault against women. 473 00:24:12,320 --> 00:24:15,120 I'm very interested to get your thoughts about that. 474 00:24:16,320 --> 00:24:19,480 Well, your speaker last week was transphobic, then. 475 00:24:21,040 --> 00:24:25,520 [Katy] It's a bit of a heavy topic, isn't it? Let's move on to something else. 476 00:24:26,760 --> 00:24:27,600 Okay. 477 00:24:28,120 --> 00:24:29,520 [Katy] Now, there've been rumors... 478 00:24:29,520 --> 00:24:33,080 - We were told she was here to discuss art. - Should we go in? Stop it? 479 00:24:33,080 --> 00:24:36,200 ...which states that teachers must inform parents 480 00:24:36,200 --> 00:24:38,440 about students changing their pronouns. 481 00:24:38,440 --> 00:24:41,040 Now, as someone who transitioned very young, 482 00:24:41,040 --> 00:24:45,160 I'd love to know how you feel about the potential new law, 483 00:24:45,160 --> 00:24:47,280 which could come in as soon as-- 484 00:24:47,280 --> 00:24:51,280 - Um, I... I think I need to go. - [Katy] I'm sorry if I offended you. 485 00:24:51,280 --> 00:24:53,560 She's a teenager. This is not what we agreed. 486 00:24:53,560 --> 00:24:56,160 It is inappropriate, and it is manipulative, and... 487 00:24:56,160 --> 00:24:57,760 [melancholy music playing] 488 00:24:58,800 --> 00:24:59,760 [door closes] 489 00:25:00,720 --> 00:25:01,720 [Elle sniffles] 490 00:25:01,720 --> 00:25:04,840 - [mum] You should be-- - It's okay, baby. Come on. 491 00:25:04,840 --> 00:25:07,520 - Come on, let's go. - Let's go. Let's go home. 492 00:25:08,200 --> 00:25:10,240 - [Elle sobs] - You'll be hearing from me. 493 00:25:17,360 --> 00:25:19,040 [music fades out] 494 00:25:19,040 --> 00:25:23,080 You know you can't trust a Mesopotamian to source your copper ingot. 495 00:25:23,080 --> 00:25:24,760 [laughter] 496 00:25:25,880 --> 00:25:27,760 Okay, who's got another question? 497 00:25:30,120 --> 00:25:31,320 [Jack] Uh... 498 00:25:31,320 --> 00:25:33,480 Yes. Young man in the denim jacket. 499 00:25:36,000 --> 00:25:37,000 I was just wondering 500 00:25:37,000 --> 00:25:41,000 if you had any book recommendations about queerness in Ancient Greece? 501 00:25:41,600 --> 00:25:44,080 Now, that is a wonderful question. 502 00:25:44,080 --> 00:25:47,400 That's a wonderful question because I have just finished reading 503 00:25:47,400 --> 00:25:51,320 the most enthralling book last week while I was in Milan. 504 00:25:51,320 --> 00:25:52,680 [indistinct chattering] 505 00:25:53,200 --> 00:25:55,520 - There. Thanks for coming. - [man] Thank you so much. 506 00:25:57,120 --> 00:25:57,960 [Charlie] Um... 507 00:25:58,720 --> 00:26:01,080 Hi. Uh, I'm a really big fan. 508 00:26:01,080 --> 00:26:04,840 I probably wanna do classics at uni, so you're a big inspiration to me. 509 00:26:04,840 --> 00:26:08,720 Ah! That is so lovely to hear. Classics was my favorite at school. 510 00:26:09,240 --> 00:26:10,560 - What's your name? - Charlie. 511 00:26:11,080 --> 00:26:13,000 Well, Charlie, 512 00:26:13,680 --> 00:26:16,120 study hard, and... 513 00:26:18,840 --> 00:26:20,560 don't ignore your Latin vocab. 514 00:26:20,560 --> 00:26:21,720 [Charlie chuckles] 515 00:26:21,720 --> 00:26:24,080 - Thanks. - [Jack] Uh, what can I do for you? 516 00:26:26,320 --> 00:26:27,840 Uh... m... Uh, me? 517 00:26:27,840 --> 00:26:30,120 No. Um, nothing. It's... 518 00:26:31,160 --> 00:26:33,480 Um, really... really interesting talk. 519 00:26:33,480 --> 00:26:37,040 Really fun. The "Mesopotome" joke was... 520 00:26:37,760 --> 00:26:40,400 - Yeah. Thanks. - You're very welcome. 521 00:26:40,400 --> 00:26:42,320 - Nice to meet you. - [Jack chuckles] 522 00:26:42,320 --> 00:26:44,120 Uh, shall we... Yeah. Nice to meet you. 523 00:26:44,120 --> 00:26:45,240 Oh! Um... 524 00:26:46,280 --> 00:26:48,040 - Sorry. Um... - [Jack] Hello. 525 00:26:48,880 --> 00:26:51,160 - What would you like? - [jaunty music playing] 526 00:26:52,120 --> 00:26:54,200 - Yeah, he's... he's really hot - Oh my God! 527 00:26:54,200 --> 00:26:55,280 [Nick chuckles] 528 00:26:55,280 --> 00:26:57,760 - [tranquil music playing] - [door opens] 529 00:27:02,640 --> 00:27:03,480 [chuckles] 530 00:27:04,120 --> 00:27:05,400 [music fades] 531 00:27:05,400 --> 00:27:06,960 [passionate music playing] 532 00:27:11,880 --> 00:27:12,840 [chuckling] 533 00:27:17,600 --> 00:27:19,000 [fireworks exploding] 534 00:27:19,000 --> 00:27:21,040 [electricity fizzing, crackling] 535 00:27:21,840 --> 00:27:23,200 [disorientating rumbling] 536 00:27:26,400 --> 00:27:27,720 {\an8}- [Charlie hesitates] - Oh. 537 00:27:27,720 --> 00:27:29,320 {\an8}- [music fades] - Should we stop? 538 00:27:29,320 --> 00:27:31,920 {\an8}No. I... Do you... do you want to? 539 00:27:31,920 --> 00:27:33,200 {\an8}No. No. 540 00:27:35,240 --> 00:27:37,720 - [music resumes] - [electricity fizzing, crackling] 541 00:27:38,360 --> 00:27:40,160 [disorientating rumbling] 542 00:27:43,520 --> 00:27:44,960 [rumbling intensifies] 543 00:27:46,760 --> 00:27:48,920 {\an8}- Can I take this off? - [music stops] 544 00:27:48,920 --> 00:27:50,320 {\an8}[hesitates] Oh... 545 00:27:50,320 --> 00:27:51,280 {\an8}[sniffs] 546 00:27:51,880 --> 00:27:53,960 {\an8}- All right, we should stop. - No, no. Wait. 547 00:27:53,960 --> 00:27:55,400 - I... I-- - [knocking on door] 548 00:27:55,400 --> 00:27:57,800 - [mum] Door open, please, Charlie. - Yeah. 549 00:28:00,720 --> 00:28:01,560 Ah. 550 00:28:02,360 --> 00:28:03,640 Had a nice time today? 551 00:28:03,640 --> 00:28:04,640 Yeah. 552 00:28:06,880 --> 00:28:07,720 Okay. 553 00:28:09,480 --> 00:28:11,000 [footsteps retreating] 554 00:28:16,840 --> 00:28:19,040 I'm nervous about taking my shirt off. 555 00:28:20,760 --> 00:28:24,960 I... I don't look like... Jack Maddox or anything. 556 00:28:28,160 --> 00:28:29,840 - Charlie... - [Charlie] And... 557 00:28:32,120 --> 00:28:34,080 And you know that I've got scars. 558 00:28:35,320 --> 00:28:36,160 I know. 559 00:28:39,160 --> 00:28:40,840 You know I really fancy you. 560 00:28:42,000 --> 00:28:44,920 - [chuckles softly] - Like, infinitely more than Jack Maddox. 561 00:28:45,960 --> 00:28:47,600 Even though he's got a six-pack? 562 00:28:47,600 --> 00:28:48,560 [chuckles softly] 563 00:28:50,280 --> 00:28:51,520 I don't care about that. 564 00:28:52,560 --> 00:28:53,680 I like you 565 00:28:55,120 --> 00:28:56,560 so much. I... I love you. 566 00:28:56,560 --> 00:28:57,560 [Charlie chuckles] 567 00:28:58,720 --> 00:28:59,760 I want you. 568 00:29:04,480 --> 00:29:08,120 I... I really did wanna carry on. I really want-- 569 00:29:08,120 --> 00:29:10,160 Mum, have you seen my laptop charger? 570 00:29:10,160 --> 00:29:13,840 - [mum] Looked under the sofa cushions? - [Tori] Don't worry. It was... 571 00:29:13,840 --> 00:29:15,640 Maybe just not at your house, eh? 572 00:29:16,200 --> 00:29:17,480 [both chuckle] 573 00:29:17,480 --> 00:29:19,400 - Yeah. - [both chuckle] 574 00:29:20,880 --> 00:29:22,280 [Charlie] I get into this headspace 575 00:29:22,280 --> 00:29:25,240 where all I can think about is how disgusting he'll think I look 576 00:29:25,240 --> 00:29:27,200 'cause I'm skinny and I've got scars. 577 00:29:27,720 --> 00:29:30,240 Being skinny and having scars isn't disgusting. 578 00:29:30,240 --> 00:29:33,440 I know, and I don't actually think I do look disgusting, 579 00:29:33,440 --> 00:29:35,720 and I know that Nick won't think that either. 580 00:29:35,720 --> 00:29:38,240 I love him, and he loves me. 581 00:29:39,520 --> 00:29:41,760 I don't understand why I get so anxious. 582 00:29:41,760 --> 00:29:45,920 We've talked about how you get anxious when you feel like you don't have control. 583 00:29:46,840 --> 00:29:49,680 Part of intimacy is trusting someone enough 584 00:29:49,680 --> 00:29:51,720 to let go of some control, 585 00:29:51,720 --> 00:29:53,080 and that's scary. 586 00:29:53,080 --> 00:29:56,680 {\an8}But as long as you and Nick respect and trust each other 587 00:29:56,680 --> 00:30:00,160 and you communicate and listen to each other, then you're safe. 588 00:30:00,760 --> 00:30:04,080 And as long as you practice safe sex. 589 00:30:04,720 --> 00:30:06,600 You can get some free condoms from the reception. 590 00:30:06,600 --> 00:30:09,160 Oh, I-- Obviously we will. 591 00:30:09,680 --> 00:30:11,520 [hopeful music playing] 592 00:30:13,200 --> 00:30:14,760 Just wish I was more confident. 593 00:30:14,760 --> 00:30:18,000 Charlie, I think you have a lot of confidence. 594 00:30:18,600 --> 00:30:21,560 Aren't you the one who confessed your feelings to Nick first 595 00:30:21,560 --> 00:30:24,400 when you didn't even know whether he liked you back? 596 00:30:26,280 --> 00:30:27,880 [electricity fizzing, crackling] 597 00:30:29,000 --> 00:30:29,960 [sighs softly] 598 00:30:30,960 --> 00:30:32,160 I don't feel confident. 599 00:30:32,160 --> 00:30:34,760 [Geoff] That's just a challenge you're gonna have to face. 600 00:30:35,440 --> 00:30:38,400 And not just with Nick, but with every aspect of your life. 601 00:30:39,240 --> 00:30:41,280 But I know you have it in you, Charlie. 602 00:30:42,080 --> 00:30:43,200 I really do. 603 00:30:43,200 --> 00:30:44,760 [hopeful music continues] 604 00:30:44,760 --> 00:30:47,560 - [birds singing sweetly] - [female singers vocalizing] 605 00:30:56,760 --> 00:30:58,360 [hopeful music continues] 606 00:31:21,240 --> 00:31:22,360 [hopeful music fades] 607 00:31:22,360 --> 00:31:24,160 [pensive music playing] 608 00:31:44,040 --> 00:31:45,160 [music fades out]