1 00:00:36,543 --> 00:00:39,293 Two nights in a row. We should talk to him. 2 00:00:40,001 --> 00:00:42,084 I just don't like not knowing what he's… 3 00:00:43,918 --> 00:00:46,959 Rumor is he's been spending a lot of time with Miss Greene. 4 00:00:50,251 --> 00:00:51,376 Well, good for him. 5 00:00:53,334 --> 00:00:56,834 He's an adult. If he can find just a little comfort in his… 6 00:00:58,584 --> 00:00:59,584 Good for him. 7 00:01:01,126 --> 00:01:02,001 [Ed chuckles] 8 00:01:06,043 --> 00:01:09,376 Late start this morning. Looks like it'll just be us. 9 00:01:10,876 --> 00:01:11,751 [Warren] We can handle it. 10 00:01:16,043 --> 00:01:16,959 [sighs] 11 00:01:22,001 --> 00:01:23,209 [vibrating] 12 00:01:30,001 --> 00:01:31,043 [Mildred] Mornin', you. 13 00:01:36,251 --> 00:01:37,584 Wow, you look… 14 00:01:37,668 --> 00:01:42,334 Do you like it? I dug it out of that footlocker in the closet upstairs. 15 00:01:43,418 --> 00:01:46,543 I mean, most of those haven't seen the light of day in decades, 16 00:01:46,626 --> 00:01:48,293 but then again, neither have I. 17 00:01:49,459 --> 00:01:53,084 Still, I think it fits pretty well, don't you think? 18 00:01:54,959 --> 00:01:55,793 Shall we? 19 00:01:57,334 --> 00:01:59,501 [Joanie] I know he's a troubled boy. 20 00:02:00,709 --> 00:02:01,709 Always has been. 21 00:02:03,418 --> 00:02:06,251 His daddy never did right by him and me, well… 22 00:02:07,793 --> 00:02:09,668 I did my best. 23 00:02:11,376 --> 00:02:13,876 I did what I could, but I ain't perfect. 24 00:02:17,668 --> 00:02:18,959 I work two jobs. 25 00:02:20,251 --> 00:02:24,001 Mainland jobs, and still that don't provide enough for his sisters. 26 00:02:25,293 --> 00:02:27,793 Which is why he does what he does. 27 00:02:29,168 --> 00:02:33,709 Money's gotta come from somewhere, and he puts food on the table. 28 00:02:36,334 --> 00:02:38,959 Not that that much matters to you, does it, Sheriff? Hmm? 29 00:02:39,751 --> 00:02:42,709 Law's the law, no matter the circumstance, ain't that right? 30 00:02:43,251 --> 00:02:46,626 I'm not judging, Joanie, I only said it's not unheard of. 31 00:02:46,709 --> 00:02:48,584 -Bowl takin' off for a few-- -Bill! 32 00:02:49,126 --> 00:02:51,251 His name is Bill. 33 00:02:52,626 --> 00:02:56,834 His so-called friends called him Bowl when he started selling the weed, and… 34 00:02:58,209 --> 00:03:01,501 [sighs] Well, at least they didn't call him Bong. 35 00:03:02,168 --> 00:03:06,876 Look, if you and these folks here on the island 36 00:03:06,959 --> 00:03:09,376 don't give two shits about a missing boy, 37 00:03:09,459 --> 00:03:12,376 well, then, I don't know why you all keep lining up at church, 38 00:03:12,459 --> 00:03:16,834 making a big show of how pious you are because you sure as shit ain't Christians. 39 00:03:16,918 --> 00:03:19,543 -Ma'am, I'm not Christian. -You know what I'm getting at. 40 00:03:21,209 --> 00:03:23,834 [clicks tongue] I've been in touch with my counterparts on the mainland, 41 00:03:23,918 --> 00:03:25,376 and they've been in touch with Bowl… 42 00:03:26,376 --> 00:03:29,668 Bill's employers and known acquaintances. We'll find him. 43 00:03:30,626 --> 00:03:34,001 What about these folks here on the island, you talking to them? 44 00:03:34,084 --> 00:03:37,126 'Cause mainlanders are one thing, but islanders know. 45 00:03:37,209 --> 00:03:39,293 Islanders always know. 46 00:03:39,376 --> 00:03:40,709 I had a word with Joe Collie. 47 00:03:41,376 --> 00:03:44,001 Best I can tell, he was the last person to see him on the island. 48 00:03:44,084 --> 00:03:45,834 -Was he sober? -Ma'am? 49 00:03:45,918 --> 00:03:47,959 When you talked to him, was he sober? 50 00:03:48,043 --> 00:03:51,043 Well, can't say for certain with Joe. 51 00:03:51,543 --> 00:03:53,834 -You never can, but he-- -Talk to him again. 52 00:03:54,584 --> 00:03:57,501 -Look, I don't think Joe-- -You talk to him again! 53 00:03:57,584 --> 00:03:59,126 You didn't know him! 54 00:03:59,834 --> 00:04:01,418 These people here really didn't know him, 55 00:04:01,501 --> 00:04:03,084 and if they did, they didn't give two shits, 56 00:04:03,168 --> 00:04:05,126 but that's not supposed to matter. 57 00:04:06,251 --> 00:04:12,376 When something like this happens, we are all supposed to be the same. 58 00:04:18,043 --> 00:04:22,418 Wait, you're saying every night? No morning masses at all? 59 00:04:23,251 --> 00:04:24,334 [Sturge] Time bein', yeah. 60 00:04:25,168 --> 00:04:28,043 Father Paul probably just needs another morning or two 61 00:04:28,126 --> 00:04:29,751 to recover from that head cold, 62 00:04:29,834 --> 00:04:33,376 but he should be up and about tonight. Isn't that right, Sturge? 63 00:04:34,501 --> 00:04:36,293 [Sturge] Yes, sir. Um… [clears throat] 64 00:04:36,376 --> 00:04:41,126 I spoke to him myself in the morning, and, uh, he's doin' much better. 65 00:04:41,209 --> 00:04:43,751 That's right, and Dolly spoke to him, too. 66 00:04:43,834 --> 00:04:46,001 And he's got a few things to say about Good Friday. 67 00:04:46,084 --> 00:04:47,293 Isn't that right, honey? 68 00:04:48,876 --> 00:04:50,751 Dolly? You… 69 00:04:53,084 --> 00:04:54,209 [indistinct chatter] 70 00:05:02,751 --> 00:05:04,626 Millie. Is that you? 71 00:05:06,001 --> 00:05:07,334 The last time I checked. 72 00:05:08,251 --> 00:05:11,876 Is there no morning mass today? I was so looking forward. 73 00:05:12,709 --> 00:05:14,334 No, it's… 74 00:05:15,751 --> 00:05:17,959 Wow! Look at you. 75 00:05:18,043 --> 00:05:21,959 [Leeza] Oh, my God. Miss Gunning looks so much… Mom? 76 00:05:24,543 --> 00:05:26,001 [voice breaking] I'm sorry, sweetie. 77 00:05:27,293 --> 00:05:28,334 It's just, um… 78 00:05:30,001 --> 00:05:31,918 What a time to be alive. 79 00:05:34,543 --> 00:05:35,543 [knocks on door] 80 00:05:39,043 --> 00:05:39,959 [Annie] Oh. 81 00:05:40,043 --> 00:05:42,334 -[Erin] Hi, Mrs. Flynn. -[Annie] Oh, darling. Oh. 82 00:05:43,751 --> 00:05:47,043 Honey, hi. I heard about… 83 00:05:47,626 --> 00:05:51,001 Riley told us. You aren't alone. 84 00:05:51,668 --> 00:05:52,668 [Erin] Is he here? 85 00:05:53,293 --> 00:05:58,084 [Annie] Uh… no. No, he's not. To be honest, I thought he was with you. 86 00:05:59,418 --> 00:06:00,584 [knocks on door] 87 00:06:00,668 --> 00:06:01,543 [Hassan] Joe? 88 00:06:11,168 --> 00:06:12,084 -[Ed] Got it? -[Warren] Yep. 89 00:06:14,209 --> 00:06:15,251 [crate thuds] 90 00:06:33,209 --> 00:06:34,376 [Erin] Have you seen Riley? 91 00:06:34,459 --> 00:06:36,168 [inaudible conversation] 92 00:06:48,834 --> 00:06:49,834 [Ed] Everything okay? 93 00:06:50,709 --> 00:06:53,668 [Warren] Yeah, Riley's, uh, just MIA, I guess. 94 00:06:53,751 --> 00:06:54,584 Huh? 95 00:06:55,626 --> 00:06:56,959 He's not with Erin Greene then? 96 00:06:58,251 --> 00:06:59,168 I guess not. 97 00:07:04,459 --> 00:07:06,084 God damn it, Riley. 98 00:07:09,001 --> 00:07:11,751 He's just gonna piss it all away? Even after all the… 99 00:07:12,334 --> 00:07:13,209 God. 100 00:07:14,418 --> 00:07:16,043 What the hell's the matter with him? 101 00:07:17,043 --> 00:07:18,543 Just let him. Let him. 102 00:07:20,209 --> 00:07:24,251 What the hell can we even do? If he's not even gonna… God damn it! 103 00:07:24,834 --> 00:07:26,751 I'm sorry. I'm sorry, Warren. 104 00:07:28,959 --> 00:07:30,376 Sorry. Here. 105 00:07:36,918 --> 00:07:41,376 Yeah, C-O-double-L-I-E. Joseph. 106 00:07:42,876 --> 00:07:44,334 Four, twenty-two, sixty-nine. 107 00:07:45,834 --> 00:07:47,126 Great. I'd appreciate that. 108 00:07:47,876 --> 00:07:49,584 All right, thanks. Thanks, Mike. 109 00:07:52,126 --> 00:07:53,084 Sorry to interrupt. 110 00:07:53,168 --> 00:07:55,459 Oh. No, no. I was just tracking, uh… 111 00:07:57,251 --> 00:07:58,793 What can I do for you, Miss Greene? 112 00:08:00,168 --> 00:08:03,043 -Yeah… It's probably nothing. -Most things are. 113 00:08:03,959 --> 00:08:05,876 It could be, I don't know. 114 00:08:07,668 --> 00:08:11,793 I don't know what this could be. Um, and it's not an official report, 115 00:08:11,876 --> 00:08:14,709 because it hasn't been 24 or 48 hours. 116 00:08:14,793 --> 00:08:17,751 I don't know how long to wait. And you're gonna laugh at me. 117 00:08:18,751 --> 00:08:21,626 But I need to report a missing person. 118 00:08:25,709 --> 00:08:26,584 Who? 119 00:08:27,251 --> 00:08:28,418 Riley Flynn. 120 00:08:30,126 --> 00:08:32,834 He was supposed to come to my house last night, but he didn't. 121 00:08:33,626 --> 00:08:35,459 And I checked with his family and… 122 00:08:35,543 --> 00:08:37,709 This morning and this afternoon, and they haven't seen him. 123 00:08:38,293 --> 00:08:39,543 Your house… Are you two-- 124 00:08:39,626 --> 00:08:43,626 No. I mean, not really. We've been spending time together, but… 125 00:08:45,209 --> 00:08:48,626 He wasn't on the ferry, I checked. So he's not on the mainland. 126 00:08:48,709 --> 00:08:50,876 And his phone just rings and rings and rings. 127 00:08:50,959 --> 00:08:52,709 Mmm-hmm. Did he say anything? 128 00:08:52,793 --> 00:08:56,668 Anything that you, uh, look at now thinking back that's off, or-- 129 00:08:56,751 --> 00:08:59,876 No, nothing. He said he would come to my house. 130 00:09:00,709 --> 00:09:03,626 -Well, sure, but maybe he just got-- -He said he would come to my house. 131 00:09:06,793 --> 00:09:07,668 All right. 132 00:09:10,543 --> 00:09:11,543 [clears throat] 133 00:09:12,501 --> 00:09:14,334 -[pen clicks] -All right, last time you saw him? 134 00:09:15,126 --> 00:09:17,168 Yesterday morning when we woke up. 135 00:09:17,251 --> 00:09:20,126 He went to AA at St. Patrick's with Joe Collie-- 136 00:09:20,209 --> 00:09:22,084 Joe was there? You sure? 137 00:09:22,168 --> 00:09:25,751 I don't know. I just assume so because he's going to those meetings. 138 00:09:25,834 --> 00:09:29,334 And then he went [inhales deeply] home for dinner. 139 00:09:29,418 --> 00:09:34,543 His parents said so. And then he said he was going to meet me, and then nothing. 140 00:09:34,626 --> 00:09:37,293 All right, and what did you talk about yesterday morning? 141 00:09:37,376 --> 00:09:40,626 You know, plans for the day, a dream that he had last night. 142 00:09:40,709 --> 00:09:42,709 And what did you talk about the night before? 143 00:09:47,668 --> 00:09:50,751 Okay, listen. I believe you. 144 00:09:51,334 --> 00:09:53,251 All right. I'm not trying to pry. 145 00:09:54,084 --> 00:09:57,084 I'm hoping he said something, anything that might tell us where he went. 146 00:09:57,168 --> 00:10:00,001 All right? It could be something little. Something he forgot. 147 00:10:00,084 --> 00:10:01,709 His state of mind is important, 148 00:10:02,293 --> 00:10:05,376 because when I go shaking trees, and I will… 149 00:10:06,834 --> 00:10:09,793 If it turns out he's on some bender in a mainland hotel, 150 00:10:10,459 --> 00:10:14,626 he might have hinted. That's all. All right? So that's all I'm looking for. 151 00:10:16,084 --> 00:10:16,959 Okay? 152 00:10:19,168 --> 00:10:20,418 What did you two talk about? 153 00:10:22,959 --> 00:10:23,876 Death. 154 00:10:24,751 --> 00:10:26,168 We talked about what happens 155 00:10:27,334 --> 00:10:28,876 when you die. 156 00:10:31,126 --> 00:10:34,126 Well, um, see, that's what I'm talking about. 157 00:10:35,876 --> 00:10:37,543 Yes, that's why I'm here. 158 00:10:37,626 --> 00:10:40,168 All right. Did you bring up the topic or did he? 159 00:10:41,459 --> 00:10:43,834 I've been asking myself that all day, I don't… 160 00:10:44,584 --> 00:10:48,293 I think it was on both of our minds because I had lost… 161 00:10:52,209 --> 00:10:53,418 I miscarried. 162 00:10:58,168 --> 00:10:59,168 I'm sorry, I… 163 00:11:03,626 --> 00:11:06,459 I am pretty sure that he brought up the idea, 164 00:11:06,543 --> 00:11:08,918 and I leaned into it pretty hard. 165 00:11:10,084 --> 00:11:12,959 -And what did he say about it? -What do you mean? 166 00:11:13,876 --> 00:11:14,751 Death. 167 00:11:15,251 --> 00:11:18,584 Was he afraid of it? Intrigued by it? Or… 168 00:11:20,376 --> 00:11:21,459 He seemed fine. 169 00:11:23,834 --> 00:11:28,751 But that's what they say. People who aren't okay, people who… 170 00:11:31,418 --> 00:11:33,751 They say that about people who kill themselves. 171 00:11:34,501 --> 00:11:36,459 That they seemed fine. 172 00:11:39,543 --> 00:11:41,209 They do say that sometimes, yeah. 173 00:11:42,834 --> 00:11:44,376 [choir music playing] 174 00:11:52,001 --> 00:11:53,418 [inaudible conversation] 175 00:12:00,376 --> 00:12:01,543 [Ed sighs] 176 00:12:05,126 --> 00:12:08,418 -[sighs] I don't know what to do. -He'll be here. 177 00:12:16,459 --> 00:12:18,168 -Boys. -[Ooker] Father. 178 00:12:18,251 --> 00:12:19,418 [Warren] Feelin' better, Father? 179 00:12:19,501 --> 00:12:23,959 [sighs] Special night, boys. Eyes up. Ears open. 180 00:12:31,334 --> 00:12:33,209 You know, I heard about it. 181 00:12:33,959 --> 00:12:37,209 I did. But seeing is believing, isn't it? 182 00:12:38,251 --> 00:12:41,751 Mildred Gunning, as I live and breathe. 183 00:12:43,293 --> 00:12:44,834 Beverly Keane. 184 00:12:45,709 --> 00:12:46,668 Oh. 185 00:12:47,959 --> 00:12:52,793 God gave you back to us. And I am so glad that He did. 186 00:12:52,876 --> 00:12:55,668 And that you'll be with us for what comes next. 187 00:12:57,501 --> 00:13:00,459 Well, thank you. I'm very happy to be here. 188 00:13:00,543 --> 00:13:03,209 Not alone. Sarah Gunning. 189 00:13:03,793 --> 00:13:07,459 I'm so happy that you're here. I can't possibly tell you. 190 00:13:07,543 --> 00:13:11,209 Thank you. Mom, let's get you inside and get you off your feet. 191 00:13:11,293 --> 00:13:12,251 Of course. 192 00:13:16,543 --> 00:13:18,543 [Dolly] "They took the body of Jesus, 193 00:13:18,626 --> 00:13:22,209 and bound it with the burial cloths along with the spices, 194 00:13:22,293 --> 00:13:24,501 according to the Jewish burial custom." 195 00:13:24,584 --> 00:13:26,751 "Now in the place where he had been crucified, 196 00:13:26,834 --> 00:13:28,793 there was a garden, and in the garden, 197 00:13:28,876 --> 00:13:31,584 a new tomb in which no one had yet been buried." 198 00:13:31,668 --> 00:13:35,626 "So, they laid Jesus there because of the Jewish preparation day." 199 00:13:35,709 --> 00:13:37,709 "For the tomb was close by." 200 00:13:38,418 --> 00:13:41,793 -The Gospel of the Lord. -[all] Praise to you, Lord Jesus Christ. 201 00:13:49,043 --> 00:13:50,418 [Father Paul clears throat] 202 00:13:51,418 --> 00:13:52,501 Good Friday. 203 00:13:53,418 --> 00:13:57,334 This is one of my favorite days of the year. The passion of our Lord. 204 00:13:58,584 --> 00:14:00,626 Just that word, "passion." 205 00:14:01,209 --> 00:14:06,834 The word "passion," it means a strong and barely controllable emotion. 206 00:14:06,918 --> 00:14:08,084 Barely controllable. 207 00:14:08,168 --> 00:14:12,001 That's what Jesus felt when he gave his life for us, 208 00:14:12,084 --> 00:14:14,959 so that we might have life eternal. 209 00:14:15,668 --> 00:14:20,626 What a gift, told so beautifully in the Gospel of John. 210 00:14:21,251 --> 00:14:27,293 "Gospel" means good news! Good news on Good Friday. 211 00:14:28,001 --> 00:14:33,043 And yet, it's a story of such profound suffering. 212 00:14:33,751 --> 00:14:35,418 What's so good about that? 213 00:14:35,501 --> 00:14:41,543 Jesus's suffering in this story, it isn't simply necessary. 214 00:14:41,626 --> 00:14:43,084 It is good. 215 00:14:44,959 --> 00:14:47,418 It is the price of eternal life. 216 00:14:47,918 --> 00:14:51,501 That suffering, he endures alone. 217 00:14:51,584 --> 00:14:56,501 At the Resurrection, he is alone. And then… Well… 218 00:14:57,668 --> 00:15:00,834 Ah, he has a few allies. And then more. 219 00:15:01,584 --> 00:15:02,709 A congregation. 220 00:15:03,293 --> 00:15:06,876 And then more and more people spread that good news. 221 00:15:06,959 --> 00:15:11,709 Tell that good story. And then, God has an army. 222 00:15:13,084 --> 00:15:15,251 What do they say in that commercial? 223 00:15:15,334 --> 00:15:17,709 Uh, "Be all that you can be." 224 00:15:17,793 --> 00:15:20,376 Well, I mean no offense to the armed services, 225 00:15:20,459 --> 00:15:24,293 which are necessary and of course honorable, 226 00:15:24,376 --> 00:15:27,251 but that's not all that you can be. 227 00:15:28,459 --> 00:15:31,209 In the Army, you're fighting for God and country. 228 00:15:31,293 --> 00:15:35,126 Now, I am going to offend you now, but it is the truth. 229 00:15:35,209 --> 00:15:38,709 God does not want you to fight for this country. 230 00:15:40,251 --> 00:15:43,084 The arrogance… of that. 231 00:15:44,793 --> 00:15:46,251 God has no country. 232 00:15:47,709 --> 00:15:49,959 There is one God for the world. 233 00:15:50,834 --> 00:15:53,751 And the lines we draw, and the treaties we draft, 234 00:15:53,834 --> 00:15:57,418 and the borders we close mean nothing to Him. 235 00:15:57,501 --> 00:16:01,501 No, don't fight for a country. You fight for God's kingdom. 236 00:16:02,168 --> 00:16:07,959 A kingdom which Jesus tells us has no flags or borders. 237 00:16:08,043 --> 00:16:14,543 God's army. Now make no mistake. It is a war. That's what an army is for. 238 00:16:15,209 --> 00:16:21,168 So, as a congregation, as God's army, how do we know how the fight is going? 239 00:16:21,251 --> 00:16:24,876 We can't see it. We can't radio HQ for a status report. 240 00:16:24,959 --> 00:16:29,501 All we have, all God gives us, is right here. 241 00:16:30,209 --> 00:16:35,793 How we feel. That moral compass inside each one of us 242 00:16:35,876 --> 00:16:38,876 pointing due north to the Holy Spirit. 243 00:16:38,959 --> 00:16:43,876 Conscience. In the army of God, conscience is standard issue. 244 00:16:43,959 --> 00:16:47,709 There are many like it, but this one is mine. 245 00:16:49,001 --> 00:16:52,126 You may think that that's a line from a war movie, but it isn't. 246 00:16:52,209 --> 00:16:54,459 That's actually the Rifleman's Creed. 247 00:16:54,543 --> 00:16:57,209 And a creed is, by definition, 248 00:16:57,293 --> 00:17:00,043 not just a belief, but it is a religious one. 249 00:17:00,126 --> 00:17:04,793 So, it is a war, and there will be casualties. 250 00:17:06,418 --> 00:17:08,168 And we must be soldiers. 251 00:17:09,293 --> 00:17:12,418 That is what Good Friday is about. 252 00:17:12,501 --> 00:17:17,251 God will ask horrible things of you. Horrible. 253 00:17:17,334 --> 00:17:19,209 Just look at what He asked of His own son. 254 00:17:19,293 --> 00:17:22,001 Just look at what Jesus had to endure today. 255 00:17:22,084 --> 00:17:24,251 We had to call it the "New Covenant," 256 00:17:24,334 --> 00:17:28,293 because God's will, while perfect, changes. 257 00:17:28,376 --> 00:17:30,418 God's will dictates morality, 258 00:17:30,501 --> 00:17:33,876 and as God's will changes, so does morality change. 259 00:17:33,959 --> 00:17:37,126 It changed with the New Covenant. It changed when Jesus came, 260 00:17:37,209 --> 00:17:41,501 and we must, as his army, shed the Old Covenant 261 00:17:42,751 --> 00:17:43,959 and listen only to that. 262 00:17:44,543 --> 00:17:47,251 You rely on that compass. 263 00:17:48,001 --> 00:17:51,168 Good Friday is only good. 264 00:17:51,793 --> 00:17:57,584 The Gospel of the Lord, so full of horror, is only good, 265 00:17:57,668 --> 00:18:00,293 because of where it is headed. 266 00:18:01,084 --> 00:18:02,209 The Resurrection. 267 00:18:02,293 --> 00:18:08,459 Today is only good because of what's coming Easter, this Sunday. 268 00:18:08,543 --> 00:18:13,084 When Jesus is risen, and death itself is lain dead. 269 00:18:14,626 --> 00:18:18,626 What is otherwise horrible is good because of where it's headed. 270 00:18:19,918 --> 00:18:22,084 Welcome to God's army. 271 00:18:23,209 --> 00:18:25,043 Yeah, we're gonna do great things. 272 00:18:36,084 --> 00:18:38,876 [Sarah] Mom. Mom, wait. 273 00:18:39,459 --> 00:18:42,126 What's wrong? Mom, stop. 274 00:18:44,168 --> 00:18:47,251 I don't want you going back there ever again. 275 00:18:47,334 --> 00:18:48,293 What? 276 00:18:48,376 --> 00:18:52,876 That is not my church. That is not the man I knew. 277 00:18:58,459 --> 00:18:59,626 [knocking at door] 278 00:19:10,793 --> 00:19:11,959 [knocking continues] 279 00:19:17,668 --> 00:19:20,876 Where the hell have you been? I have been calling you all day. 280 00:19:20,959 --> 00:19:23,834 -I'm sorry. -Don't do that. Where were you? 281 00:19:24,668 --> 00:19:25,501 Where were you? 282 00:19:28,334 --> 00:19:30,751 Do you remember a few days before you left town, 283 00:19:31,793 --> 00:19:35,126 you crawled in my window, woke me up, scared the shit out of me? 284 00:19:36,376 --> 00:19:37,876 You wanted to take a boat out? 285 00:19:37,959 --> 00:19:41,043 You wouldn't take no for an answer, so we grabbed a rowboat and we rowed out 286 00:19:42,459 --> 00:19:46,209 far, smoked a pack of cigarettes and watched the sun come up? 287 00:19:49,168 --> 00:19:50,751 Will you do that with me now? 288 00:19:52,626 --> 00:19:54,001 Can we go for a ride? 289 00:20:56,668 --> 00:20:58,918 You know, I'm pretty good about trust. 290 00:21:00,084 --> 00:21:01,918 Which is funny, considering my marriage. 291 00:21:03,376 --> 00:21:05,376 It was important to me that I came out of that 292 00:21:06,084 --> 00:21:08,251 situation with trust in my heart. 293 00:21:09,334 --> 00:21:12,251 And I haven't pressed because you never did. 294 00:21:12,918 --> 00:21:14,543 Not once. Not ever. 295 00:21:16,209 --> 00:21:17,751 You let me come to you. 296 00:21:20,543 --> 00:21:22,001 I'm trying to give that back. 297 00:21:23,709 --> 00:21:25,293 But here we are. 298 00:21:27,876 --> 00:21:29,959 And I've got to ask, you know. 299 00:21:33,126 --> 00:21:34,793 What's this about, Riley? 300 00:21:37,918 --> 00:21:39,834 It's where it all came from in the first place. 301 00:21:40,918 --> 00:21:41,834 Stars. 302 00:21:42,959 --> 00:21:46,584 Primitive man, they were hunting and gathering and stuff all day long, 303 00:21:46,668 --> 00:21:47,918 but at night they just 304 00:21:49,668 --> 00:21:55,459 sit around campfires tryin' to stay warm, stay safe from predators. 305 00:21:56,418 --> 00:22:02,043 And they look out across the valleys, and they see other campfires, 306 00:22:02,126 --> 00:22:07,293 just little spots of light in the landscape, 307 00:22:07,376 --> 00:22:11,043 and they know that other people are out there, in the dark. 308 00:22:12,418 --> 00:22:16,334 And then, they see these spots of light in the sky. 309 00:22:17,543 --> 00:22:18,501 They don't know what they are. 310 00:22:18,584 --> 00:22:21,918 They don't have a clue about space or stars or light waves. 311 00:22:22,001 --> 00:22:25,668 They just figure they look a hell of a lot like campfires. 312 00:22:27,084 --> 00:22:29,293 "Who must those people be," they wonder. 313 00:22:31,126 --> 00:22:33,293 "Lightin' their campfires way up there?" 314 00:22:34,126 --> 00:22:36,251 They start telling each other stories. 315 00:22:36,876 --> 00:22:37,959 "Those people?" 316 00:22:39,876 --> 00:22:41,626 "They must be incredible." 317 00:22:42,543 --> 00:22:44,584 "Those campfires, they belong to people 318 00:22:44,668 --> 00:22:47,918 way more powerful than we ever even imagined, so…" 319 00:22:50,376 --> 00:22:51,293 All of it. 320 00:22:52,959 --> 00:22:53,959 Every god. 321 00:22:55,876 --> 00:22:59,959 Every goddess, every religion, every holy war. All of it. 322 00:23:02,418 --> 00:23:03,793 Started right up there. 323 00:23:05,501 --> 00:23:08,626 Just wondering who the hell could've lit those campfires in the sky. 324 00:23:12,959 --> 00:23:15,459 I'm gonna tell you a story, but you're not gonna believe it. 325 00:23:16,584 --> 00:23:19,376 I just need you to listen. Can you promise me that? 326 00:23:21,209 --> 00:23:22,459 Yeah. I can. 327 00:23:24,709 --> 00:23:28,334 Okay. 328 00:23:32,501 --> 00:23:33,959 [cell phone vibrating] 329 00:23:50,168 --> 00:23:51,043 [Riley groans] 330 00:23:51,126 --> 00:23:54,418 [softly] Hey, hey. You're okay. You're okay. 331 00:23:54,501 --> 00:23:59,834 Don't try to talk, you just relax, here, focus on breathing, okay? 332 00:23:59,918 --> 00:24:01,584 [inhales and exhales sharply] 333 00:24:02,834 --> 00:24:04,043 -You're doing great. -[Riley gasps] 334 00:24:04,126 --> 00:24:06,418 [Father Paul] No. Okay. Hey. You're fine. 335 00:24:06,501 --> 00:24:12,126 I… I had a sister. Did I ever tell you that? Named Alice. 336 00:24:12,209 --> 00:24:16,793 She was older than me, but she was much smaller. 337 00:24:16,876 --> 00:24:21,251 I was eight when she died. It was polio. 338 00:24:21,334 --> 00:24:24,001 It was awful to watch that. 339 00:24:25,251 --> 00:24:27,001 I was scared too, Riley. 340 00:24:27,084 --> 00:24:28,584 I was terrified of death, 341 00:24:28,668 --> 00:24:30,959 and that's actually what brought me to God. 342 00:24:31,626 --> 00:24:35,209 Trying to understand how death, 343 00:24:35,293 --> 00:24:39,501 um, her death, specifically, could be part of God's plan. 344 00:24:39,584 --> 00:24:43,001 That question, that brought me all the way to the priesthood, actually… 345 00:24:43,084 --> 00:24:44,459 -[bones crunch] -[Riley grunts] 346 00:24:45,668 --> 00:24:48,584 [shushes] Hey. You're okay. 347 00:24:49,709 --> 00:24:52,418 See, God still has a plan, 348 00:24:52,501 --> 00:24:55,709 and death isn't part of it anymore. 349 00:24:55,793 --> 00:24:57,126 Not for all of us. 350 00:24:58,584 --> 00:25:01,876 And we don't have to be afraid ever again. 351 00:25:28,334 --> 00:25:29,543 [Father Paul] How are you feeling? 352 00:25:31,209 --> 00:25:32,501 You look a lot better. 353 00:25:34,334 --> 00:25:35,918 Here, please, have a seat. 354 00:25:40,501 --> 00:25:42,709 No, I wouldn't do that. 355 00:25:45,209 --> 00:25:46,834 [Riley groans] 356 00:25:51,834 --> 00:25:52,876 I can, ah… 357 00:25:53,918 --> 00:25:57,584 Well, I can't exactly explain, but I can give it a good try. 358 00:25:57,668 --> 00:26:00,584 The important thing is not to go outside right now. 359 00:26:02,293 --> 00:26:04,626 I'm sorry, I was hoping to warn you before. Well… 360 00:26:04,709 --> 00:26:08,209 [chuckles] It's not a mistake you make twice, right? 361 00:26:10,084 --> 00:26:14,251 Don't worry, it took your neck less than six hours to heal completely. 362 00:26:14,334 --> 00:26:17,418 Those burns will be no problem. Here. Have a seat. 363 00:26:18,584 --> 00:26:22,293 I promise, I'll explain everything that I can to you, 364 00:26:22,376 --> 00:26:24,459 and you will feel better when I do. 365 00:26:25,543 --> 00:26:29,501 Sit. Give your skin a chance to heal, at the very least. 366 00:26:29,584 --> 00:26:30,876 We're having a meeting? 367 00:26:31,584 --> 00:26:32,959 We're having the meeting. 368 00:26:35,043 --> 00:26:38,668 I promise, it's okay. You've had a long night, long journey. 369 00:26:39,459 --> 00:26:40,376 Sit. 370 00:26:42,126 --> 00:26:43,543 You'll be glad you did. 371 00:26:49,418 --> 00:26:52,959 -[inhales] Let's start with Serenity. -Are you fucking kidding? 372 00:26:53,584 --> 00:26:55,751 Not at all. I am not. 373 00:26:55,834 --> 00:26:59,334 Today you get complete and total honesty from me, 374 00:26:59,418 --> 00:27:05,001 and this prayer, today, it applies to me and you, profoundly. 375 00:27:07,043 --> 00:27:10,709 Lord, grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change, 376 00:27:10,793 --> 00:27:12,959 the courage to change the things I can, 377 00:27:13,043 --> 00:27:16,334 and the wisdom to know the difference. Amen. 378 00:27:17,418 --> 00:27:19,918 Let's start in order. The things we cannot change. 379 00:27:20,959 --> 00:27:24,168 When I was younger, 380 00:27:24,251 --> 00:27:28,709 I was a pastor at a small church in a very small community. 381 00:27:28,793 --> 00:27:30,709 And one day this altar boy, 382 00:27:30,793 --> 00:27:34,959 he was a brand-new altar boy… He was maybe nine or ten, smart kid. 383 00:27:35,501 --> 00:27:36,918 It's around Easter, 384 00:27:37,001 --> 00:27:40,418 so I'd been talking about the Resurrection for a couple of weeks. Anyway. 385 00:27:40,501 --> 00:27:43,251 One day, this altar boy, he brings me a shoebox. 386 00:27:44,376 --> 00:27:48,001 Inside this box, there's a mouse that he's caught in a trap. 387 00:27:48,084 --> 00:27:52,043 It's in bad shape, the tail's clipped off, leg barely attached. 388 00:27:52,126 --> 00:27:56,293 It's suffering. And the boy hands me this box, 389 00:27:56,376 --> 00:27:58,293 and he asks me, you know, 390 00:27:59,126 --> 00:28:01,876 if God will resurrect it like he resurrected Jesus. 391 00:28:02,793 --> 00:28:05,376 If he could do that, then he can do this. 392 00:28:05,459 --> 00:28:09,334 So I take this box, and we pray over it, 393 00:28:09,876 --> 00:28:13,501 and I send the boy home and tell him to come back in three days. 394 00:28:13,584 --> 00:28:16,334 So three days pass, the boy returns, and… 395 00:28:16,418 --> 00:28:18,001 And it was better. 396 00:28:18,084 --> 00:28:20,918 Yeah. It was runnin' around that little box as right as rain. 397 00:28:21,001 --> 00:28:25,709 And I help the boy let the mouse go behind the church before mass. 398 00:28:25,793 --> 00:28:26,793 He's amazed. 399 00:28:27,626 --> 00:28:29,834 His belief is confirmed. He believes. 400 00:28:30,709 --> 00:28:34,584 This moment, it sustained him for what? 401 00:28:35,959 --> 00:28:37,918 Almost a decade? 402 00:28:38,001 --> 00:28:40,251 Faith enough for almost a decade off that one little mouse? 403 00:28:40,334 --> 00:28:41,918 That wasn't an act of God. 404 00:28:42,668 --> 00:28:43,751 Wasn't it? 405 00:28:44,334 --> 00:28:46,043 True, I had to put the mouse out of its misery 406 00:28:46,126 --> 00:28:48,418 and true, it took me almost three days 407 00:28:48,501 --> 00:28:50,293 to find another mouse that looked just like it, 408 00:28:50,376 --> 00:28:54,084 but what it gave this boy, you think that wasn't an act of God? 409 00:28:54,168 --> 00:28:57,459 That because he's acting through us at times, he isn't acting at all? 410 00:28:57,543 --> 00:28:58,918 How do you know that story? 411 00:29:01,084 --> 00:29:02,001 Who are you? 412 00:29:04,168 --> 00:29:05,418 You know who I am. 413 00:29:07,543 --> 00:29:08,834 Come on. 414 00:29:09,959 --> 00:29:11,001 Really look. 415 00:29:12,418 --> 00:29:14,751 Listen to yourself, you know who I am. 416 00:29:16,418 --> 00:29:18,584 Really? You need to see the marks on my hands? 417 00:29:18,668 --> 00:29:21,376 -Put your hands into my side-- -That's not possible. 418 00:29:21,459 --> 00:29:23,126 Come on, we're past that now. 419 00:29:23,209 --> 00:29:25,709 "He said to Thomas, 'Put your fingers here, 420 00:29:25,793 --> 00:29:28,209 see my hands, reach out your hand, put them into my side.'" 421 00:29:28,293 --> 00:29:31,751 -We're past that now. You're past that. -Okay, then. 422 00:29:34,001 --> 00:29:34,876 Then how? 423 00:29:35,876 --> 00:29:39,459 Well, same as you, basically. 424 00:29:39,543 --> 00:29:43,459 You've been taken back as well, taken back to your best self. 425 00:29:44,418 --> 00:29:47,626 Your peak self, your perfect self as God wanted you. 426 00:29:47,709 --> 00:29:50,376 [chuckling] I just had a lot further to go than you did. 427 00:29:50,459 --> 00:29:52,209 It was a lot further to go. 428 00:29:52,793 --> 00:29:54,418 Hey, why did you come back here? 429 00:29:56,084 --> 00:29:57,043 Last night. 430 00:29:58,168 --> 00:30:00,793 I've been wondering that for most of… most of today. 431 00:30:00,876 --> 00:30:03,126 I've known you your whole life, 432 00:30:03,209 --> 00:30:06,584 never once have you just shown up in the night, 433 00:30:06,668 --> 00:30:10,043 and then last night at that specific moment, why? 434 00:30:10,959 --> 00:30:14,084 -Did you feel a calling? Vocation? -[scoffs] 435 00:30:16,126 --> 00:30:17,751 Joe Collie's sister. 436 00:30:22,418 --> 00:30:25,834 I lied to you about that. I apologize. 437 00:30:27,168 --> 00:30:30,168 And I ask you for your forgiveness for that lie. 438 00:30:32,668 --> 00:30:34,001 That's why you came back. 439 00:30:37,459 --> 00:30:41,001 Complete and total honesty. That's my vow to you today. 440 00:30:41,084 --> 00:30:44,959 So, okay, Joe was suffering, and he was suffering for no reason. 441 00:30:45,584 --> 00:30:49,876 The accident, then what the community put him through, he was beyond repair-- 442 00:30:49,959 --> 00:30:50,793 Says who? 443 00:30:50,876 --> 00:30:54,418 Well, it's a cliché to say that the Lord works in mysterious ways, but he does. 444 00:30:54,501 --> 00:30:58,334 I can testify to that, and, well, he worked through me. 445 00:30:58,418 --> 00:31:00,709 And Joe Collie was called home. 446 00:31:00,793 --> 00:31:02,626 -You killed him. -It's not as simple as that. 447 00:31:02,709 --> 00:31:05,543 No. You fucking killed him. You, and that thing. 448 00:31:05,626 --> 00:31:08,334 It cannot be changed. It's done and cannot be undone, 449 00:31:08,418 --> 00:31:10,626 just like what's happened to you cannot be undone. 450 00:31:11,209 --> 00:31:13,418 These are two things that cannot be changed, 451 00:31:13,501 --> 00:31:16,834 and we must accept them with serenity together right now. 452 00:31:16,918 --> 00:31:18,543 -What happened to me?! -Riley-- 453 00:31:18,626 --> 00:31:20,418 -What was that fucking thing? -You have to calm down. 454 00:31:20,501 --> 00:31:23,709 -What the fuck was that thing?! -An angel. 455 00:31:24,918 --> 00:31:25,959 [door opens] 456 00:31:26,043 --> 00:31:29,209 -Oh, good. He's up. -[Father Paul] Little worse for wear. 457 00:31:30,043 --> 00:31:32,793 Well, you weren't exactly pink in the cheeks yourself, Monsignor. 458 00:31:32,876 --> 00:31:34,043 Not at first. 459 00:31:34,668 --> 00:31:37,293 Uh, I just wanted to see if everything was going to plan, 460 00:31:37,376 --> 00:31:38,918 and if you wanted Sturge to clean up-- 461 00:31:39,001 --> 00:31:41,626 No, not yet. We're still in the weeds of it. But… 462 00:31:43,293 --> 00:31:46,834 Uh, I'm glad you're here, Beverly. Right when you're needed, God bless. 463 00:31:47,959 --> 00:31:51,334 Come over here. Please stand here. Stand… 464 00:31:51,418 --> 00:31:52,709 Stand right here. 465 00:31:53,334 --> 00:31:55,251 -Are you sure? -[Father Paul] Yeah. 466 00:31:56,834 --> 00:31:58,001 Good and close. 467 00:31:59,126 --> 00:32:02,126 -Are you certain that's a good idea? -Yeah. I'll stop him. 468 00:32:02,209 --> 00:32:04,376 -Stop me? -All right then. 469 00:32:05,418 --> 00:32:08,168 -[Riley] Stop me from what? -[Father Paul] Yeah. Okay. 470 00:32:08,251 --> 00:32:10,543 Look, just… Let me go. I just wanna go home. 471 00:32:10,626 --> 00:32:13,918 -I just wanna fucking… go home. -[Father Paul shushes] 472 00:32:14,001 --> 00:32:15,376 [heart beating faintly] 473 00:32:16,251 --> 00:32:17,626 [Father Paul] Right there, that's… 474 00:32:18,376 --> 00:32:19,626 You feel that, right? 475 00:32:20,543 --> 00:32:23,584 There it is. All right, a little closer. 476 00:32:24,918 --> 00:32:25,918 [heart beating louder] 477 00:32:26,001 --> 00:32:26,918 [Father Paul] Yeah. 478 00:32:28,418 --> 00:32:32,418 Mmm-hmm. Yeah. Just a little bit closer. Don't worry. 479 00:32:32,959 --> 00:32:34,959 -[Riley] What the-- -It's okay. I got him. 480 00:32:36,918 --> 00:32:37,793 Okay. 481 00:32:37,876 --> 00:32:39,043 [heart beating loudly] 482 00:32:42,376 --> 00:32:43,293 [Father Paul] You feel that? 483 00:32:46,043 --> 00:32:46,959 Yeah. 484 00:32:51,293 --> 00:32:53,293 [Riley grunts] 485 00:32:54,126 --> 00:32:55,168 [Father Paul] That's all right. 486 00:32:55,251 --> 00:32:57,793 God and Heavenly Father, grant us the serenity 487 00:32:57,876 --> 00:33:00,793 to accept that which we cannot change. 488 00:33:00,876 --> 00:33:02,584 -Thank you, Beverly. -[Bev] Of course. 489 00:33:03,376 --> 00:33:05,834 Riley, I'm pleased to see you up and around. 490 00:33:05,918 --> 00:33:06,751 [Father Paul] Okay. Yeah. 491 00:33:06,834 --> 00:33:09,293 Sturge and I will be in the rectory when you're ready for the next part. 492 00:33:09,376 --> 00:33:11,418 Yeah, I'll draw back the curtain when we're done. 493 00:33:12,376 --> 00:33:14,584 -[Riley grunts] -[Father Paul shushes] 494 00:33:15,584 --> 00:33:16,543 Hey. 495 00:33:18,126 --> 00:33:19,751 It's powerful stuff, isn't it? 496 00:33:19,834 --> 00:33:20,918 [Riley groans] 497 00:33:23,834 --> 00:33:25,084 I'm sorry it hurts. 498 00:33:26,834 --> 00:33:27,709 I really am. 499 00:33:28,834 --> 00:33:31,876 But it… it will pass. 500 00:33:33,043 --> 00:33:33,918 It will pass. 501 00:33:34,001 --> 00:33:35,334 [Riley grunts] 502 00:33:37,084 --> 00:33:40,626 So, what did you feel when she was close to you? 503 00:33:43,501 --> 00:33:45,709 I know the answer, you don't have to pretend. 504 00:33:48,668 --> 00:33:51,918 You felt hungry. Painfully hungry. 505 00:33:53,751 --> 00:33:55,293 Saw things too. 506 00:33:55,376 --> 00:34:00,959 Saw yourself pull her closer, closer. And everything went red, didn't it? 507 00:34:02,001 --> 00:34:04,084 Something started to change in you. 508 00:34:05,126 --> 00:34:07,668 It's almost like you go to sleep, isn't it? 509 00:34:08,918 --> 00:34:11,876 I mean, you were aware of yourself as you lunged at her. 510 00:34:11,959 --> 00:34:13,084 I don't know what happened. 511 00:34:13,168 --> 00:34:18,334 I do. You were aware of yourself, but it was involuntary, wasn't it? 512 00:34:18,418 --> 00:34:22,584 It… It's as if your body were acting under some other will. It was. 513 00:34:22,668 --> 00:34:26,126 It will again, and this is the thing. This is where we need to listen. 514 00:34:26,209 --> 00:34:29,418 Listen to the Holy Spirit, listen to our conscience. 515 00:34:30,001 --> 00:34:32,918 Because, you see, I was there, too. 516 00:34:33,001 --> 00:34:33,876 [hesitates] 517 00:34:34,584 --> 00:34:37,001 Well, I had been restored. 518 00:34:37,084 --> 00:34:40,834 I had been made young again. I had been made pure again. 519 00:34:40,918 --> 00:34:44,084 And then, like Jesus before me, I died. 520 00:34:45,584 --> 00:34:50,876 I died on the floor, just across the way there. 521 00:34:51,709 --> 00:34:55,709 And then I was resurrected, but I was scared and confused, 522 00:34:55,793 --> 00:35:01,001 and this drive inside, this powerful will, 523 00:35:01,084 --> 00:35:04,293 and I felt the same way you did. 524 00:35:04,376 --> 00:35:07,793 My will became His will, and He moved through me, 525 00:35:07,876 --> 00:35:12,459 and Joe was taken, and I was sustained. I was nourished. 526 00:35:12,543 --> 00:35:15,751 -Murderer. -Well, I suppose so, but here's the thing. 527 00:35:15,834 --> 00:35:18,543 I had no guilt. None. 528 00:35:19,168 --> 00:35:24,668 And knowing that I should feel guilt, but accepting that I did not, 529 00:35:24,751 --> 00:35:29,584 finding grace where the guilt should be, I wrestled with that. 530 00:35:29,668 --> 00:35:34,334 I prayed on it. But then Bev Keane, actually, she showed me this. 531 00:35:34,418 --> 00:35:36,876 Hebrews 9:14. 532 00:35:36,959 --> 00:35:40,001 "How much more, then, will the blood of Christ, 533 00:35:40,084 --> 00:35:43,709 who through the eternal spirit offered himself unblemished to God, 534 00:35:43,793 --> 00:35:47,543 cleanse our consciences from acts that lead to death 535 00:35:47,626 --> 00:35:50,751 so that we may serve the living God." 536 00:35:50,834 --> 00:35:54,293 "Cleanse our consciences so that we may serve the living God." 537 00:35:54,376 --> 00:35:59,293 I read this passage and the graces of the Holy Spirit rained down on me. 538 00:35:59,918 --> 00:36:01,501 He had taken that guilt. 539 00:36:01,584 --> 00:36:05,584 He cleansed my conscience, for I had simply done His will. 540 00:36:05,668 --> 00:36:10,126 Been His vessel. A murderer, maybe. So is Moses. 541 00:36:11,043 --> 00:36:13,543 Joseph. Paul, my namesake. 542 00:36:13,626 --> 00:36:15,751 I'm hardly unique as a soldier of the Lord. 543 00:36:15,834 --> 00:36:21,459 I'm hardly unique in this room either. Am I? I mean, you've killed someone. 544 00:36:27,001 --> 00:36:28,293 I don't remember it. 545 00:36:29,209 --> 00:36:31,043 You were drunk, and you don't remember. 546 00:36:31,793 --> 00:36:35,834 I was drunk. I was at a party, it was a party, and I drank too much. 547 00:36:35,918 --> 00:36:38,543 -Yeah, come on. Don't do that. -That's what happened. 548 00:36:38,626 --> 00:36:40,751 Well, there is meaning here. 549 00:36:40,834 --> 00:36:43,918 There is purpose here that you are willfully ignoring. 550 00:36:44,001 --> 00:36:47,209 It was fucking ordinary what happened. 551 00:36:50,626 --> 00:36:53,918 There weren't even skid marks on my side of the road. 552 00:36:54,001 --> 00:36:55,376 I never hit the brakes. 553 00:36:56,751 --> 00:36:57,626 [scoffs] 554 00:36:59,251 --> 00:37:01,084 I didn't even tap the brakes. 555 00:37:01,168 --> 00:37:05,459 I was literally asleep at the wheel. That is what happened. 556 00:37:07,751 --> 00:37:12,043 So, don't talk to me about God moving through you, or doing His will. 557 00:37:12,126 --> 00:37:15,626 You don't know a fucking thing about me. And our stories are not the same. 558 00:37:15,709 --> 00:37:17,501 -The guilt you feel. The remorse-- -Yeah. 559 00:37:17,584 --> 00:37:19,043 -You feel that every day? -Yes. 560 00:37:19,126 --> 00:37:21,001 -Even though you didn't mean to do it? -Yes. 561 00:37:21,084 --> 00:37:26,293 See, I killed Joe. I watched myself do it with my own hands, and I have no guilt. 562 00:37:26,376 --> 00:37:30,918 None. No remorse. I have been spared all of that. 563 00:37:31,001 --> 00:37:32,959 -How does that make you feel? -Disgusted. 564 00:37:33,043 --> 00:37:34,834 -How does it make you feel? -Angry. 565 00:37:34,918 --> 00:37:37,084 -Nope. How does that make you feel? -Fuckin' angry. 566 00:37:37,168 --> 00:37:38,168 No! 567 00:37:39,543 --> 00:37:42,501 I promised you complete honesty and I'm giving that to you, 568 00:37:42,584 --> 00:37:45,709 and I'm tired of you lying to me, Riley Flynn! 569 00:37:45,793 --> 00:37:49,334 I've forgiven it time and again, but today is critical for us, 570 00:37:49,418 --> 00:37:54,209 and I am finished! Complete honesty! How does it make you feel?! 571 00:38:00,626 --> 00:38:01,626 Jealous. 572 00:38:03,293 --> 00:38:05,001 God and Heavenly Father, 573 00:38:05,084 --> 00:38:08,084 grant us the serenity to accept that which we cannot change, 574 00:38:08,168 --> 00:38:11,918 and the courage to change that which we can. 575 00:38:12,001 --> 00:38:16,626 Courage, Riley Flynn. Courage. Let's find that now. The courage. 576 00:38:17,793 --> 00:38:19,793 To change that, which we can. 577 00:38:20,709 --> 00:38:24,918 God brought you back. Okay? For a reason. 578 00:38:25,709 --> 00:38:27,668 Your accident, that moment of hell on Earth, 579 00:38:27,751 --> 00:38:30,501 you say it didn't do anyone any good, but it did, didn't it? 580 00:38:30,584 --> 00:38:32,501 Because it put you here on this island right now, 581 00:38:32,584 --> 00:38:36,376 at one of the most crucial moments in the history of our world. 582 00:38:37,251 --> 00:38:40,251 Have some courage. God chose you. 583 00:38:42,418 --> 00:38:45,251 And that guilt that you're clinging to, you can let it go. 584 00:38:46,876 --> 00:38:52,834 God's changed you already. Now it's just on you to have courage. 585 00:38:53,543 --> 00:38:56,376 So let's have some courage now. Okay? 586 00:38:58,501 --> 00:38:59,543 Courage. 587 00:39:02,793 --> 00:39:03,751 [exhales sharply] 588 00:39:06,043 --> 00:39:09,043 I am sorry, by the way, that you were frightened 589 00:39:10,043 --> 00:39:10,918 last night. 590 00:39:11,001 --> 00:39:13,876 I… I was frightened, too, when it happened to me. 591 00:39:13,959 --> 00:39:15,584 Just about everyone, 592 00:39:15,668 --> 00:39:20,459 when they encounter an angel in the Bible, they are frightened. 593 00:39:20,543 --> 00:39:26,043 Ah, Mary was afraid of Gabriel, and he came to bring her great news. 594 00:39:28,584 --> 00:39:31,459 Angels always have to say, "Be don't afraid, fear not," 595 00:39:31,543 --> 00:39:34,876 because over and over and over again, 596 00:39:35,543 --> 00:39:37,709 people are terrified. 597 00:39:37,793 --> 00:39:41,834 Right? Moses was frightened when he beheld the burning bush. 598 00:39:41,918 --> 00:39:44,959 Jesus was frightened of his own fate. 599 00:39:45,043 --> 00:39:48,126 He fell to his knees in Gethsemane and prayed… 600 00:39:48,209 --> 00:39:50,293 He prayed to be spared. 601 00:39:51,126 --> 00:39:54,793 All the people at the tomb when they rolled away the rock, 602 00:39:55,668 --> 00:39:56,709 they were all frightened. 603 00:39:56,793 --> 00:40:01,043 All of them. Miracles. True power of the Lord. 604 00:40:02,459 --> 00:40:03,543 Scary. 605 00:40:04,543 --> 00:40:07,334 But still, I am sorry that you were afraid. 606 00:40:08,084 --> 00:40:09,126 Did you feed? 607 00:40:11,084 --> 00:40:14,459 When that angel was ripping into my neck 608 00:40:14,543 --> 00:40:16,751 and my blood was pouring out onto the floor. 609 00:40:16,834 --> 00:40:19,918 Did you… join in? 610 00:40:22,543 --> 00:40:24,168 Complete and total honesty, you said. 611 00:40:24,251 --> 00:40:25,126 Yes. 612 00:40:30,751 --> 00:40:34,626 How are things going in here? I mean, I can only imagine. 613 00:40:35,501 --> 00:40:40,001 That's not exactly true. I don't have to imagine, not all of it. 614 00:40:40,876 --> 00:40:41,709 I've seen it. 615 00:40:41,793 --> 00:40:43,959 Let me tell you, Monsignor was scared. 616 00:40:44,043 --> 00:40:50,418 We were all tested, but for some reason, Riley Flynn, God has chosen you. 617 00:40:52,126 --> 00:40:55,876 You, to receive this blessing, and we will not question His will. 618 00:40:55,959 --> 00:40:57,793 That's all that's important right now. 619 00:40:57,876 --> 00:41:03,084 You are being tested, as he was, as we all were. 620 00:41:04,209 --> 00:41:05,501 And we are here for you. 621 00:41:06,376 --> 00:41:09,793 We are here for you, for just as the body is one, 622 00:41:09,876 --> 00:41:13,126 and has many members in all of the members of the body, 623 00:41:13,209 --> 00:41:16,001 though many are one. So is it with Christ. 624 00:41:16,709 --> 00:41:21,751 We are here to bless you. To keep you. As is God's will. 625 00:41:21,834 --> 00:41:23,959 -God's will? -Yeah. 626 00:41:25,918 --> 00:41:30,126 Yes. And don't mock, Riley. 627 00:41:30,793 --> 00:41:33,584 Do not mock God's will. 628 00:41:34,251 --> 00:41:36,209 We know it from His own word, don't we, Sturge? 629 00:41:37,001 --> 00:41:38,334 [Sturge clears throat] 630 00:41:38,418 --> 00:41:43,168 "Whoever eats my flesh and drinks my blood has eternal life." 631 00:41:46,168 --> 00:41:52,168 -And? -And, um… And "I will…" Um… 632 00:41:53,001 --> 00:41:55,126 "I will raise them up on the last day, 633 00:41:55,209 --> 00:41:58,668 for my flesh is real food, and my blood is real drink." 634 00:41:58,751 --> 00:42:01,668 "And whomever eats my flesh and drinks my blood 635 00:42:01,751 --> 00:42:04,459 will remain in me and I in them." Gospel of John. 636 00:42:04,543 --> 00:42:07,293 And it's pretty specific, isn't it? 637 00:42:08,126 --> 00:42:10,668 I mean, he's not really mincing words, is he? 638 00:42:10,751 --> 00:42:11,626 And this? 639 00:42:12,709 --> 00:42:13,876 Is this in the Gospel? 640 00:42:14,751 --> 00:42:15,793 [Bev] Why no, dear. 641 00:42:16,793 --> 00:42:18,043 That's Revelation. 642 00:42:18,668 --> 00:42:21,376 "The fourth Angel poured his bowl upon the sun 643 00:42:21,459 --> 00:42:24,126 and it was allowed to scorch men with fire." 644 00:42:24,209 --> 00:42:25,584 Chapter 16, verse 8. 645 00:42:25,668 --> 00:42:29,209 That is the thing about Jesus coming back to us. 646 00:42:29,293 --> 00:42:32,126 They told us from the start that it wouldn't be pretty. 647 00:42:33,376 --> 00:42:35,043 Monsignor Pruitt was shaken. 648 00:42:35,959 --> 00:42:36,959 Even him. 649 00:42:37,751 --> 00:42:38,876 But it is… 650 00:42:40,084 --> 00:42:42,834 It's all right there in the book, Riley. 651 00:42:42,918 --> 00:42:45,959 The seven bowls of God's wrath poured out on the second coming. 652 00:42:46,043 --> 00:42:47,126 The end of days. 653 00:42:47,209 --> 00:42:50,501 The fourth bowl upon the sun, the fifth bowl, since you asked, 654 00:42:50,584 --> 00:42:54,168 the fifth bowl of God's wrath plunges the world into darkness, 655 00:42:54,251 --> 00:42:58,626 which won't be an issue for you. Or for Monsignor. Will it? 656 00:42:59,584 --> 00:43:04,418 Why, it is almost as if He is preparing you for that. 657 00:43:05,668 --> 00:43:10,876 You sit there, blessed among men, smirking when I say "God's will." 658 00:43:10,959 --> 00:43:12,709 I… [sighs] 659 00:43:15,501 --> 00:43:16,626 I'm frustrated. 660 00:43:17,709 --> 00:43:18,668 I know. 661 00:43:18,751 --> 00:43:23,376 He doesn't even recognize what he is being given, and I find it offensive. 662 00:43:23,459 --> 00:43:24,668 It's immaterial, Bev. 663 00:43:26,168 --> 00:43:27,293 I know. 664 00:43:29,001 --> 00:43:30,001 I know, okay. 665 00:43:32,168 --> 00:43:34,293 [Father Paul] "When supper was ended, he took the cup." 666 00:43:34,376 --> 00:43:37,251 "Again, he gave you thanks and praise." 667 00:43:37,334 --> 00:43:39,751 "Gave the cup to his disciples and said, 668 00:43:40,626 --> 00:43:43,251 'Take this, all of you, and drink from it.' 669 00:43:43,334 --> 00:43:46,876 'This is the cup of my blood, the blood of the new, and everlasting covenant, 670 00:43:46,959 --> 00:43:51,543 shed for you and for all so that sins may be forgiven.' 671 00:43:51,626 --> 00:43:54,709 'Do this in remembrance of me.'" 672 00:43:54,793 --> 00:43:55,668 Amen. 673 00:44:00,209 --> 00:44:02,626 -No, no, no. -Don't be obtuse. 674 00:44:02,709 --> 00:44:05,126 "He who drinks from the cup of the Lord in an unworthy manner 675 00:44:05,209 --> 00:44:08,209 is guilty of sinning against the body and the blood of the Lord, 676 00:44:08,293 --> 00:44:12,001 for those who eat and drink without discerning the body of Christ, 677 00:44:12,084 --> 00:44:14,876 eat and drink judgment upon themselves." 678 00:44:16,293 --> 00:44:18,501 [Father Paul] It's okay, Riley. It's gonna happen. 679 00:44:19,043 --> 00:44:22,001 This is one of those things that cannot be changed. 680 00:44:22,584 --> 00:44:26,709 Accept it, with serenity and grace. 681 00:44:33,334 --> 00:44:34,251 Amen. 682 00:44:43,668 --> 00:44:44,793 [Father Paul sighs] 683 00:44:46,001 --> 00:44:46,959 Wisdom. 684 00:44:47,543 --> 00:44:51,876 The wisdom to know the difference between the things we can change, 685 00:44:51,959 --> 00:44:57,084 the things we can't, and the things we shouldn't. 686 00:44:58,334 --> 00:45:00,376 How are you feeling? You feel better, don't you? 687 00:45:03,084 --> 00:45:05,959 Wisdom. You and I, Riley, we're just the first. 688 00:45:06,043 --> 00:45:08,376 We know, we've seen. We've been blessed. 689 00:45:08,459 --> 00:45:12,876 But so many others on this island right now, 690 00:45:13,418 --> 00:45:15,043 they're being blessed as well, 691 00:45:15,126 --> 00:45:17,668 but they don't even know. They don't even know it. 692 00:45:20,084 --> 00:45:24,251 It is good, what we're doing. What we have to do. It's good. 693 00:45:25,793 --> 00:45:29,209 Even the things we may not think we want to do. [hesitates] 694 00:45:30,084 --> 00:45:33,084 The hunger, that thirst is good. 695 00:45:33,168 --> 00:45:36,501 And that's why we don't feel guilt when we surrender to it. 696 00:45:36,584 --> 00:45:43,084 That's why we feel better after. And that's why we share this gift. 697 00:45:44,376 --> 00:45:45,501 Look at what it's done already. 698 00:45:46,251 --> 00:45:49,626 Just what a little of the blood of the angel has done for all of us. 699 00:45:49,709 --> 00:45:54,168 For your parents, for Leeza, for you, for so many in this community, 700 00:45:54,251 --> 00:45:57,501 look at the good it has wrought. Look on that. 701 00:45:57,584 --> 00:46:00,001 Think on that warm feeling you have here right now. 702 00:46:00,084 --> 00:46:04,293 Think on that and just answer me this. Do you feel at peace? 703 00:46:05,543 --> 00:46:06,793 Your stomach full? 704 00:46:07,418 --> 00:46:09,209 Your purpose clear? 705 00:46:09,293 --> 00:46:15,168 Your will given over to a higher power? Do you feel at peace? 706 00:46:27,168 --> 00:46:28,959 Praise be. Praise be. 707 00:46:29,626 --> 00:46:30,626 "And the peace of God, 708 00:46:30,709 --> 00:46:34,876 which transcends all understanding will guard your hearts and your minds." 709 00:46:35,626 --> 00:46:37,043 Bless you, my boy. 710 00:46:40,543 --> 00:46:41,918 You always were blessed. 711 00:46:44,168 --> 00:46:47,126 So smart. And you always listened. 712 00:46:47,209 --> 00:46:50,626 Thank you for listening today when it's never been so important. 713 00:46:51,418 --> 00:46:52,668 [door opens] 714 00:46:54,251 --> 00:46:56,293 -I'm sorry to interrupt. -[Father Paul] That's quite all right. 715 00:46:56,376 --> 00:46:58,918 [Bev] The sun is down. People will start arriving soon. 716 00:46:59,001 --> 00:47:01,793 [sighs] Excellent. Well… 717 00:47:03,793 --> 00:47:05,084 I believe that's it. 718 00:47:06,251 --> 00:47:07,126 That's it? 719 00:47:07,918 --> 00:47:12,251 -[Father Paul] Yeah. That's the meeting. -What happens now? 720 00:47:12,334 --> 00:47:15,001 -Now you can go. -[Riley] Just like that? 721 00:47:15,084 --> 00:47:16,834 [Father Paul chuckling] Just like that. 722 00:47:18,959 --> 00:47:21,626 The wonders that you will experience out there, 723 00:47:21,709 --> 00:47:25,209 you'll see things you never saw before. 724 00:47:25,918 --> 00:47:28,959 Colors, lights. You'll hear things, smell things. 725 00:47:29,543 --> 00:47:32,709 The world, it burns brighter. 726 00:47:33,459 --> 00:47:38,751 It hums, Riley, with His glory. You'll see. 727 00:47:39,334 --> 00:47:42,418 Monsignor, I thought we agreed, he should stay inside the rec center-- 728 00:47:42,501 --> 00:47:44,418 [Father Paul] It's all right, Beverly. 729 00:47:44,501 --> 00:47:47,168 Not everyone is ready for the Lord's revelation, Riley. 730 00:47:47,751 --> 00:47:50,584 Jesus took care to show them enough, but not too much. 731 00:47:50,668 --> 00:47:53,668 -Beverly and Sturge, Wade and Dolly-- -The mayor? 732 00:47:53,751 --> 00:47:57,751 That's right. They've been blessed as well, chosen as well. 733 00:47:57,834 --> 00:48:00,501 They think you should be made to stay here, but I think no. 734 00:48:00,584 --> 00:48:06,501 I think free will. That's the ball game, wasn't it? That is the whole thing. 735 00:48:07,376 --> 00:48:08,751 I have faith in you. 736 00:48:09,584 --> 00:48:14,751 In their hearts, humans plan their course, but the Lord establishes their steps. 737 00:48:19,043 --> 00:48:21,751 I hope you come to mass tonight. Please, come to mass. 738 00:48:21,834 --> 00:48:23,168 Come to be with us. 739 00:48:23,251 --> 00:48:25,501 Come be with your family, of which we all are. 740 00:48:25,584 --> 00:48:29,793 Your redemption, Riley, it's profound. 741 00:48:30,459 --> 00:48:33,501 It'd be an inspiration to all of us, to so many in those pews 742 00:48:33,584 --> 00:48:37,126 who will struggle with the same fears that you've struggled with. 743 00:48:37,209 --> 00:48:39,876 Are you certain it isn't best he just stay here? 744 00:48:39,959 --> 00:48:41,001 You know now, son. 745 00:48:41,084 --> 00:48:42,793 [Bev] Maybe just for another night or two. 746 00:48:43,959 --> 00:48:46,834 You are the bearer of the good news, and think on this. 747 00:48:48,001 --> 00:48:50,751 That hunger will return when God wills it, 748 00:48:50,834 --> 00:48:54,501 and shortly after, you will give yourself over to it, 749 00:48:54,584 --> 00:48:57,501 to His will, and you will hear it in your head, 750 00:48:57,584 --> 00:49:00,834 the voice of His angel, like your own thoughts at first, 751 00:49:00,918 --> 00:49:03,918 but then louder and louder. And he will whisper to you of God's plan. 752 00:49:04,001 --> 00:49:08,168 I hear him more clearly every day. The more I give myself over to God, 753 00:49:08,251 --> 00:49:11,751 the more I hear the voice of His angel and you will, too. 754 00:49:11,834 --> 00:49:13,584 That's okay, that's good. 755 00:49:13,668 --> 00:49:15,418 Know you will be moved to act 756 00:49:15,501 --> 00:49:17,918 and there will be things you cannot change. 757 00:49:22,918 --> 00:49:25,709 But whoever you choose to enter communion with, 758 00:49:25,793 --> 00:49:28,543 whoever serves God's purpose for you, 759 00:49:29,543 --> 00:49:31,709 as you give of yourself for them to drink, 760 00:49:32,418 --> 00:49:35,709 as they eat of your body and drink of your blood and you of theirs, 761 00:49:36,793 --> 00:49:40,668 and you are in the communion of saints, remember… 762 00:49:43,001 --> 00:49:44,626 that it's a gift. 763 00:49:46,834 --> 00:49:48,959 And God will tell you who to share it with. 764 00:50:06,918 --> 00:50:11,418 I worry. I worry about that one. He's hardly the reliable sort. 765 00:50:12,209 --> 00:50:15,168 [Father Paul] Well, God chooses his vessels, Beverly. 766 00:50:15,251 --> 00:50:16,668 [Bev] What if he tells people? 767 00:50:16,751 --> 00:50:19,918 What of it? That's what apostles are for. 768 00:50:20,876 --> 00:50:23,834 The doors stay open as the gates are always open. 769 00:50:25,209 --> 00:50:26,751 How else does gospel spread? 770 00:50:47,959 --> 00:50:49,418 [inaudible conversation] 771 00:51:28,376 --> 00:51:31,959 [Father Paul] What is otherwise horrible is good because of where it's headed. 772 00:51:32,793 --> 00:51:34,918 Welcome to God's army. 773 00:51:36,168 --> 00:51:38,001 Yeah, we're gonna do great things. 774 00:51:45,668 --> 00:51:48,501 [Sarah] Mom. Mom, wait. 775 00:51:49,168 --> 00:51:52,001 What's wrong? Mom, stop. 776 00:51:53,709 --> 00:51:57,001 [Mildred] I don't want you going back there ever again. 777 00:51:57,084 --> 00:51:58,251 [Sarah] What? 778 00:51:58,334 --> 00:52:02,709 [Mildred] That is not my church. That is not the man I knew. 779 00:52:22,793 --> 00:52:24,293 [groans softly] 780 00:52:53,209 --> 00:52:55,209 [hearts beating] 781 00:53:27,709 --> 00:53:29,001 [Erin] That's quite a story. 782 00:53:30,709 --> 00:53:37,418 And let's just say that any of that is true. 783 00:53:39,584 --> 00:53:40,501 [Riley] Let's. 784 00:53:44,126 --> 00:53:47,168 So, you've told me that story, you… 785 00:53:51,959 --> 00:53:53,751 brought me out here, you… 786 00:53:55,376 --> 00:54:01,959 have brought us out here where there is nowhere for me to go. 787 00:54:07,084 --> 00:54:07,959 Because? 788 00:54:08,043 --> 00:54:09,168 [heart beating] 789 00:54:10,918 --> 00:54:14,001 I mean, you brought me out here 790 00:54:14,084 --> 00:54:17,584 where there is nowhere for me to go, to what, exactly? 791 00:54:21,584 --> 00:54:23,251 To tell me you need help? 792 00:54:26,001 --> 00:54:27,001 To scare me? 793 00:54:28,668 --> 00:54:32,126 See, I can't believe… I can't believe you'd want to scare me. 794 00:54:33,334 --> 00:54:34,501 I don't believe that. 795 00:54:37,209 --> 00:54:39,084 And even if you did, well… 796 00:54:41,376 --> 00:54:45,209 I've been scared much worse by much worse, and I don't… 797 00:54:47,168 --> 00:54:49,043 I don't let that happen anymore. 798 00:54:52,834 --> 00:54:53,876 I'm not scared. 799 00:54:57,543 --> 00:54:58,459 Not of you. 800 00:55:02,293 --> 00:55:05,168 My dear, dear you. 801 00:55:07,001 --> 00:55:12,126 If you are sick or if you need help, I'm not scared of that. 802 00:55:14,251 --> 00:55:15,584 I'd get you the help you need. 803 00:55:15,668 --> 00:55:18,876 I'd do that with you, without judgment and without fear. 804 00:55:23,959 --> 00:55:26,418 Just tell me what you need. 805 00:55:30,084 --> 00:55:32,084 Tell me why we're out here. 806 00:55:34,834 --> 00:55:36,084 Tell me what you want. 807 00:55:40,959 --> 00:55:41,793 You weren't… 808 00:55:44,709 --> 00:55:48,084 quite right, what you said about why I brought us out here. I didn't… 809 00:55:50,293 --> 00:55:53,043 bring you out here to scare you or to isolate you. 810 00:56:00,334 --> 00:56:02,584 I brought you out here so I'd have nowhere to go. 811 00:56:08,751 --> 00:56:10,084 I'm not as strong as you. 812 00:56:12,084 --> 00:56:13,168 I never was. 813 00:56:17,959 --> 00:56:19,001 [inhales] 814 00:56:26,918 --> 00:56:28,043 What do I want? 815 00:56:30,709 --> 00:56:33,001 I want you to take this boat and row to the mainland 816 00:56:33,084 --> 00:56:35,043 and leave this place and never look back. 817 00:56:37,626 --> 00:56:39,293 But I knew you wouldn't do that. 818 00:56:41,251 --> 00:56:43,751 I knew you wouldn't believe any of this unless you saw. 819 00:56:46,543 --> 00:56:49,418 I want you… to run. 820 00:56:51,043 --> 00:56:52,959 But I believe you're gonna row back there 821 00:56:53,043 --> 00:56:54,959 and do everything you can to try and save them. 822 00:56:57,876 --> 00:56:59,876 I'm just so sorry you have to see this. 823 00:57:05,793 --> 00:57:07,043 I love you, Erin Greene. 824 00:57:10,418 --> 00:57:11,876 I've loved you my whole life. 825 00:57:13,084 --> 00:57:14,209 One way or another. 826 00:57:20,668 --> 00:57:21,959 I love you, too. 827 00:57:24,043 --> 00:57:25,126 I did my best. 828 00:57:30,876 --> 00:57:31,793 [sniffles] 829 00:57:35,501 --> 00:57:36,709 I did my best. 830 00:58:12,459 --> 00:58:14,168 [screams] 831 00:58:27,668 --> 00:58:29,001 [sobbing]