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[tense music plays]

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[tapping keys]

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[upbeat pop music plays]

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♪ I used to think maybe you loved me… ♪

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-Yo!
-Hey, look who's here!

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Welcome the fuck back!

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Whoo!

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♪ And I just can't wait till the day
When you knock on my door… ♪

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Yo, Slater, Zack, huh?

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You're my fucking girl, Kelly Kapowski.

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What the fuck happened to Screech here?

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-I never said I was doing that.
-Bro, you are no fun. Seriously, man.

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Yo, watch the fit, bro!

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Uh…

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I'm gonna grab my shit.

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[Anna] Hey. Hey!

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Don't worry, OK?

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She's gonna regret all of this.
It's not on you.

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Seriously.

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[tense music plays]

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With the results of the rape kit
being inconclusive

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and the boys staying consistent
with their version of events,

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I'm sorry,
it becomes one word against three.

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I'm supposed to forget
that this ever happened?

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[prosecutor] Of course not.

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However,

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without anyone
to corroborate your side of the story,

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it becomes extremely difficult for me
to present a case that we can win.

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If I had no say in how this would go,
why didn't you tell me in the first place?

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[prosecutor] I apologize if I wasn't clear
about the process.

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[Rebecca] And the cab driver?

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We discussed that maybe he saw something.
So can you find him?

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The cab driver
was impossible to track down

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without a detailed physical description,
or a license plate, or an ID number--

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Do any of the boys seem
even slightly willing

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-to reconsider their statement?
-[prosecutor] No.

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So what are they saying exactly?

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They said it was consensual?

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And that you initiated it.

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What the fuck? They're lying!

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How could it be consensual
when my underwear was ripped?

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Mom!

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Unfortunately, ripped underwear,
even with a bit of blood,

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does not prove rape.

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It may indicate aggressive
sexual activity, but that is not--

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That's fucking bullshit. That's bullshit!

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I hear you, Joey.

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I want you to know that.

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There are some resources.

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You are supposed to be the resource.

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You can't possibly know
that I'm gonna lose.

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So le… let's just keep going.
Let's let a jury decide.

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In my experience, we do not have enough.

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And the last thing any of us want is
to put you through the stress and trauma--

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I'm already dealing with trauma.

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This is how I fight back.

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The defense

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will not just use
the lack of physical evidence against you.

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They will weave a narrative
surrounding the optics around that night.

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Optics?

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How about the optics
of George and Luke pulling my legs apart?

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Jamming their dirty fucking fingers--

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So, you're telling me
those optics don't matter?

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There are videos

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of you from that night

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prodding the boys with sex toys.

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-We were just fooling around.
-[Luke] Fooling around.

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[tense music plays]

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[Luke] I think…

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she feels embarrassed

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that she hooked up with us.

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[George] She was sitting on my lap.

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And she kissed me.

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In…

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In the video, you can see it.

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She…

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in a way,

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kind of forced it on us.

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[Luke chuckles]

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Look, this is the girl
that sends group texts of her nipple ring.

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[George] She…

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doesn't wear any underwear
and posts about it for attention.

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Doesn't have a ton of self-respect.

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[George] All of us in the cab,
including Joey,

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were totally clear

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on what was going down.

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I just still…

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do not understand…

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[with Luke] …why she's doing this to us.

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[Tim] I was there the whole night.

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It was just Joey being Joey.

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[man] You had a great showing,

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and, uh, if it was up to us,
we'd be seeing you in the fall.

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But keep in mind
that no matter how this shakes out,

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you've got a very bright future
ahead of you, Mr. Pakam.

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So enjoy the rest of your senior year,

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and, uh, the very best of luck to you.

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[tense music plays]

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[dad in Hindi] Manny called in sick again.
We are short in the kitchen.

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[mom in English] Sick? Lazy.

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-I'm free.
-[mom sighs]

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[mom in Hindi]
I'll work in the back tonight.

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[dad in Hindi] Reema will host.

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Saag paneer for the buffet.

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I can host.

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[in Hindi] We have the leftover dal.

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[dad] Call Reema.

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-[in English] Are you gonna pretend that--
-[dad] Look at your face.

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Host?

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What will people think?

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I don't think it's my face
you're worried about.

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Siddhartha!

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[jazz music plays]

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Oh my God, that part kills me every time.

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[teacher] You're getting better,
but you're initiating the air wrong.

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You gotta keep the breath hot.

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Start with a "tee" sound, and then
keep replenishing. [pats stomach] Here.

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Posture.

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[clicks tongue] I need a second. I can't…

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[Jay sighs]

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Have you given any thought to…

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what you wanna sound like?

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I wanna sound great.

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Who's your favorite player?

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Coltrane.

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[teacher] Why?

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Be descriptive.

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I don't know.

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I guess it's like…

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It feels like it's coming
from somewhere deep, you know?

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Especially his later stuff.

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When he started
to get real spiritual with it.

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He studied Eastern
and Western music, and religion.

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And then he used that
to create this, like, hybrid sound.

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Something about that blend
just speaks to me.

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It comes from somewhere deep.

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I think you need to ask yourself,
what is your sound?

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And where does it come from in you?

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Whatever's going on in your head
is blocking you

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from connecting somewhere deep.

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Literally, the entire school is dressed up
today like it's fucking 1985.

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You're telling me
they won't care about this sit-in?

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Did you?

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Up until like…

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yesterday?

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We're all narcissists.
We don't care about shit but ourselves.

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Bro, they care,
but most of them don't know about Owen.

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-Yeah, but that's why we gotta do this.
-It can't just be about Owen, Jay.

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It needs to be about the bigger picture.
Like--

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Students of color are not safe on campus.

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Can you stop saying
"students of color," please?

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Dommo, I get that you're stressed,
but can you--

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But it's Black kids.
Let's be fuckin' honest.

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And Latinx kids. How many people
you see like us in this damn place?

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[Dom] Fuck!

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I completely forgot about APUSH.

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I'm gonna try to cram.
I'll catch you guys later.

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[John] Baby, hold up.

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I'm so sorry.
I know I was being rude in there.

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Can we stop for a second?

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Um…

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OK.

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I've been thinking about last night.

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He's just a family friend.

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Yeah.

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OK.

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I wanna say that, like,

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I heard what you were saying

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about your sister
and the financial stresses on you.

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Yeah, I…

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shouldn't have said all that.

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'Cause we're fine. Because--

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[John] You have a lot on your plate.
I didn't know.

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I respect your hustle.

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I'm making it work.

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What's this?

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Look.

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[John] Three hundred dollars.

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Not much,

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but hopefully it helps
with everything at home.

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What are you doing?

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I don't want this.

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-OK, I… I just thought that I could--
-What did you think?

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No, really, tell me.

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That…

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you'd, what, come and save me?

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With your fucking Target money?

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-You don't gotta be like that.
-How did you imagine this would go?

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I'd be happy?

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Oh, great, $300.

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I don't gotta worry about shit no more.

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I just wanted to help.

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I don't need your help, OK?

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Just fucking take this.

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Great.

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Good luck.

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And please, do not worry about
making time for me in your busy schedule

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'cause I definitely don't need this shit.

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[tense music plays]

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[teacher] Books away, Dominique.

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Ready to show me what you got?

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[Dom exhales slowly]

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[phone vibrates]

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[teacher] Hey, hey, hey. Hey.

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Away. Now, please.

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All right, my history scholars,

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you may begin.

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[whispers] "The history of mankind
is a history of repeated injuries..."

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[tense music plays]

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[teacher clears throat]

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Wait outside.

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[door opens]

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Mr. Phillips, please,
I can't fail this test.

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Fail?

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[Phillips sighs]

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This is grounds for immediate expulsion.

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GA has a… a zero-tolerance policy
when it comes to cheating.

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-I shouldn't have to tell you that.
-I'll do anything to…

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I've never cheated before in my life.

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This is bad, Dominique.
We have to go see Metta. Grab your things.

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Please. Please, you know me.

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You know this isn't me.

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What's going on with you?

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[sighs]

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[Phillips exhales slowly]

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[clicks tongue] I have to fail you.

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I'm so sorry.

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It's either an "F" or expulsion.

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It's up to you.

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[girl in Mandarin]
Wendi, it's not actually funny…

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He's absolutely a rapist.

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Leila?

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Does it feel weird to know

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you were stupid enough
to hook up with a predator?

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[in English] I was saying,
"Are you excited your boyfriend's back?"

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What?

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George Wright.

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He's back in school today.
Isn't he your boyfriend?

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No, he's not.

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[teacher] Really lovely work, Wendi.
I'm so excited for that presentation.

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A check-minus?

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[bell rings]

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Uh, you know what? Why don't you stay?
We'll just talk for a minute, OK?

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All right. Everybody, have a great day.

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Remember, final presentations next week.

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Let's really do what we can to just
raise the level on them, all right?

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[students chatter indistinctly]

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Was there something
I was supposed to do differently?

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I did a lot of research.
I picked an underrepresented group--

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[teacher] You put a lot of hard work in,
that is clear,

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but what you're missing
is the personal connection.

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-OK.
-Why the Kaifeng Jews? Why you?

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Well, I'm Chinese technically,
but my parents are Jewish.

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[teacher] Great! But you don't write
about that in your paper.

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Do you have family in China?
What about calling a grandparent

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or another relative
and getting their perspective?

257
00:15:37,478 --> 00:15:38,478
I'm not sure.

258
00:15:39,313 --> 00:15:41,773
OK, I'm trying to help you come up
with creative ways

259
00:15:41,857 --> 00:15:44,277
of bringing your own story
into the project,

260
00:15:44,360 --> 00:15:45,690
which was the assignment.

261
00:15:45,778 --> 00:15:48,448
Otherwise, this is where you're headed
in terms of a grade.

262
00:15:55,287 --> 00:15:56,457
[phone vibrates]

263
00:16:04,463 --> 00:16:05,593
[sighs happily]

264
00:16:10,052 --> 00:16:11,142
He's like,

265
00:16:11,845 --> 00:16:13,005
"Hey, girl,

266
00:16:13,514 --> 00:16:15,684
why aren't you moaning,

267
00:16:16,600 --> 00:16:17,770
screaming,

268
00:16:18,644 --> 00:16:20,064
saying my name?"

269
00:16:21,522 --> 00:16:22,482
I'm like,

270
00:16:23,524 --> 00:16:24,734
"Hey, boy,

271
00:16:25,317 --> 00:16:27,987
you don't know
what real pleasure sounds like."

272
00:16:29,029 --> 00:16:30,069
He's like,

273
00:16:30,823 --> 00:16:33,413
"Show me what it sounds like, baby."

274
00:16:35,619 --> 00:16:36,749
I'm like,

275
00:16:36,829 --> 00:16:39,749
"You haven't earned my sounds."

276
00:16:41,750 --> 00:16:42,580
[Meera] Leila,

277
00:16:42,668 --> 00:16:44,798
you have an emotional wall up.

278
00:16:44,878 --> 00:16:46,628
Lay yourself on the line.

279
00:16:48,173 --> 00:16:49,553
But I feel like I am.

280
00:17:01,395 --> 00:17:03,225
When will he realize

281
00:17:03,564 --> 00:17:06,864
that the only pleasure sound
that really matters

282
00:17:06,942 --> 00:17:08,742
is the word "yes"?

283
00:17:17,286 --> 00:17:18,406
You're pretending.

284
00:17:19,663 --> 00:17:22,253
You don't actually know
who you really are up there.

285
00:17:24,585 --> 00:17:26,125
And your ASL is off.

286
00:17:31,133 --> 00:17:32,973
[whispers] This isn't going to work.

287
00:17:33,594 --> 00:17:36,064
We need to use someone else.
She isn't strong.

288
00:17:40,059 --> 00:17:41,519
[disconcerting music plays]

289
00:18:00,204 --> 00:18:01,874
[mouths] Fuck you!

290
00:18:22,810 --> 00:18:24,850
[therapist, muffled]
I don't wanna diminish that.

291
00:18:24,937 --> 00:18:28,477
I do think, however, it's important for us
to focus on looking ahead.

292
00:18:28,565 --> 00:18:30,525
There's a lot of healing that can happen

293
00:18:30,609 --> 00:18:34,239
outside of our very imperfect
justice system.

294
00:18:36,281 --> 00:18:37,161
Joey?

295
00:18:40,285 --> 00:18:41,155
Sorry.

296
00:18:42,037 --> 00:18:43,997
[therapist] Let's talk about what's…

297
00:18:44,081 --> 00:18:45,871
going on in your body right now,

298
00:18:46,416 --> 00:18:48,786
and how you're processing the trauma.

299
00:18:50,546 --> 00:18:52,006
Which one? [chuckles lightly]

300
00:18:53,882 --> 00:18:55,512
The rape that never happened?

301
00:18:57,719 --> 00:19:00,009
Or the rape kit
I stupidly put myself through,

302
00:19:00,097 --> 00:19:02,637
even though everybody told me
it would turn up nothing?

303
00:19:03,809 --> 00:19:06,229
[sighs] Or maybe the fact that I've…

304
00:19:06,311 --> 00:19:08,811
fucked my entire life over
for no good reason?

305
00:19:11,942 --> 00:19:13,612
Which one do you wanna talk about?

306
00:19:14,903 --> 00:19:15,953
[chuckles lightly]

307
00:19:19,283 --> 00:19:21,033
[therapist] When do you start
Sacred Heart?

308
00:19:21,910 --> 00:19:23,080
I start next week.

309
00:19:23,912 --> 00:19:25,542
[therapist] How are you feeling about it?

310
00:19:26,582 --> 00:19:29,502
Like I can't believe
that I have to start over at a new school

311
00:19:29,585 --> 00:19:30,915
at the end of junior year…

312
00:19:31,712 --> 00:19:32,802
and live with my dad.

313
00:19:33,797 --> 00:19:35,667
[therapist] How is it going at your dad's?

314
00:19:37,301 --> 00:19:38,551
It's only been one night.

315
00:19:41,972 --> 00:19:43,892
I don't know. I know he's trying, but…

316
00:19:46,185 --> 00:19:47,345
it's just really weird.

317
00:19:49,271 --> 00:19:50,481
[therapist] Tell me about that.

318
00:19:57,404 --> 00:19:58,664
When… [sighs]

319
00:20:00,324 --> 00:20:02,034
…he came to my mom's place…

320
00:20:04,036 --> 00:20:05,286
[sighs]

321
00:20:05,370 --> 00:20:07,080
…after she told him what happened,

322
00:20:08,498 --> 00:20:12,378
it's the first time that he'd been inside
of our apartment since he moved out,

323
00:20:12,753 --> 00:20:15,553
and not just, like, in the doorway
or by the elevator.

324
00:20:16,548 --> 00:20:18,718
And he stayed the whole night, and…

325
00:20:20,886 --> 00:20:22,466
I hated having him there.

326
00:20:23,931 --> 00:20:25,101
But then it was like,

327
00:20:26,225 --> 00:20:27,885
"You should fucking live here."

328
00:20:30,687 --> 00:20:33,687
And I've been so fucking mad at him
for cheating on my mom.

329
00:20:37,653 --> 00:20:40,453
But then that night,
he was, like, sitting on our couch…

330
00:20:44,660 --> 00:20:45,700
and he cried.

331
00:20:48,080 --> 00:20:51,670
It was the first time we hugged like that
in a really long time.

332
00:20:55,963 --> 00:20:57,093
And I was like…

333
00:21:00,008 --> 00:21:01,298
this is still my dad.

334
00:21:02,177 --> 00:21:03,637
And I'm still his little kid.

335
00:21:03,720 --> 00:21:06,010
And now he can probably picture it,
you know?

336
00:21:09,226 --> 00:21:10,266
[clicks tongue]

337
00:21:12,688 --> 00:21:14,228
And I'm responsible for that.

338
00:21:16,024 --> 00:21:17,654
I'm fucking things up for everyone,

339
00:21:17,734 --> 00:21:20,994
and I wish that my family wouldn't
have to be impacted by this bullshit.

340
00:21:21,071 --> 00:21:21,991
[therapist] Joey…

341
00:21:23,198 --> 00:21:24,568
you are not responsible.

342
00:21:27,369 --> 00:21:28,449
Yeah, I am though.

343
00:21:30,497 --> 00:21:34,037
Like, no matter what everybody's saying,
I actually am.

344
00:21:36,753 --> 00:21:38,213
I chose to go with them.

345
00:21:38,922 --> 00:21:40,262
I hailed the cab.

346
00:21:41,675 --> 00:21:42,835
I got fucked up.

347
00:21:45,012 --> 00:21:48,022
But I still feel like I'm doing everything
that I'm supposed to be doing.

348
00:21:49,391 --> 00:21:52,521
But I've lost so much in all of this,
and they've lost nothing.

349
00:21:55,230 --> 00:21:56,610
[knocking on door]

350
00:22:04,823 --> 00:22:05,873
Fuck me!

351
00:22:08,201 --> 00:22:09,491
[sighs]

352
00:22:12,873 --> 00:22:15,333
So I'm trying to understand,
but I have questions.

353
00:22:16,710 --> 00:22:17,710
OK.

354
00:22:18,587 --> 00:22:22,127
All the stuff about next year
and the taking the bus to come to see me,

355
00:22:22,215 --> 00:22:24,425
and you don't wanna be away from me.
Was any of that real?

356
00:22:24,509 --> 00:22:25,429
Yeah.

357
00:22:26,803 --> 00:22:28,263
I… I wanted it to be.

358
00:22:29,598 --> 00:22:31,848
So you were just gonna date me,
even though you knew that--

359
00:22:31,933 --> 00:22:33,103
[Sid] I didn't know.

360
00:22:34,186 --> 00:22:35,556
I mean, I knew, but…

361
00:22:37,439 --> 00:22:40,279
I thought if I could keep focusing on you,
things could be different.

362
00:22:40,359 --> 00:22:41,489
[Flora] But it wasn't?

363
00:22:45,197 --> 00:22:46,487
We had sex.

364
00:22:47,199 --> 00:22:51,079
-I never meant to hurt you or use you--
-Yeah, I know, but you did use me.

365
00:22:51,745 --> 00:22:53,075
And I'm fucking pissed.

366
00:22:53,163 --> 00:22:56,753
And it makes me angry because I know
it's not your fault, not all of it.

367
00:22:58,001 --> 00:23:00,171
I wanna be there for you
because I love you.

368
00:23:00,253 --> 00:23:02,803
Saying that makes me feel
like a fucking idiot.

369
00:23:02,881 --> 00:23:04,171
You're not an idiot.

370
00:23:05,509 --> 00:23:07,929
-[Flora] Did you think I would judge you?
-No!

371
00:23:08,303 --> 00:23:09,303
Then what then?

372
00:23:16,395 --> 00:23:17,845
Being with you made me feel…

373
00:23:19,064 --> 00:23:19,904
normal.

374
00:23:22,401 --> 00:23:23,531
It made me feel like…

375
00:23:24,611 --> 00:23:26,741
the son
my parents always wanted me to be.

376
00:23:28,073 --> 00:23:30,163
The guy the team always needed me to be.

377
00:23:33,620 --> 00:23:34,830
You made me feel…

378
00:23:36,706 --> 00:23:38,536
like who I wanted to be, instead of…

379
00:23:41,086 --> 00:23:42,206
[exhales sharply]

380
00:23:43,004 --> 00:23:43,964
And I love you.

381
00:23:44,423 --> 00:23:45,513
Don't say that.

382
00:23:46,007 --> 00:23:47,547
I do love you. It's just…

383
00:23:47,634 --> 00:23:48,934
[inhales shakily]

384
00:23:49,010 --> 00:23:50,010
Oh fuck.

385
00:23:51,680 --> 00:23:54,060
Have you tried anything? With guys?

386
00:23:56,184 --> 00:23:57,354
While we were together?

387
00:24:00,772 --> 00:24:03,402
-Did you use fucking condoms?
-I never fully…

388
00:24:05,610 --> 00:24:06,820
I'm such a stupid idiot.

389
00:24:08,822 --> 00:24:10,072
I really thought that…

390
00:24:11,992 --> 00:24:13,542
What am I even doing here?

391
00:24:14,995 --> 00:24:17,075
-I don't know if you want me to…
-[scoffs]

392
00:24:19,749 --> 00:24:20,749
I'm sorry.

393
00:24:22,419 --> 00:24:23,999
I'm really fucking sorry.

394
00:24:36,600 --> 00:24:38,640
I apologized to everyone,

395
00:24:38,727 --> 00:24:41,727
and no one's accepted my apology.

396
00:24:42,522 --> 00:24:43,862
No one's texted me back.

397
00:24:43,940 --> 00:24:47,650
Rachel basically doesn't talk to me,
and what did I really even do?

398
00:24:48,320 --> 00:24:51,450
Did you tell Rachel you're going through
a lot of changes and--

399
00:24:51,531 --> 00:24:53,201
Yes, and she was dismissive.

400
00:24:54,117 --> 00:24:57,157
So, how can she say
I'm being a bad friend when she just…

401
00:25:03,126 --> 00:25:04,626
And also, can I just say…

402
00:25:05,879 --> 00:25:09,469
why is it so wrong
that I've changed a little?

403
00:25:10,634 --> 00:25:13,894
Like, why won't she just accept my apology
and move on?

404
00:25:14,596 --> 00:25:15,716
[phone vibrates]

405
00:25:16,431 --> 00:25:17,641
[vibrations continue]

406
00:25:18,225 --> 00:25:21,895
I think it might help
to think about this a little differently.

407
00:25:22,521 --> 00:25:24,401
All of this is a practice.

408
00:25:25,315 --> 00:25:27,935
Atonement, for example, it's a lifestyle.

409
00:25:28,485 --> 00:25:30,145
A value system, right?

410
00:25:31,780 --> 00:25:34,780
Apologies are part of that, sure,
but… [sighs]

411
00:25:35,283 --> 00:25:36,493
…it's a longer road.

412
00:25:37,160 --> 00:25:38,290
Yeah, I get that.

413
00:25:39,204 --> 00:25:42,544
It's just, I'm really upset,
and I need to find a way that--

414
00:25:42,624 --> 00:25:45,754
Leila, why don't you and your family
come to services tomorrow?

415
00:25:46,503 --> 00:25:49,673
I think you might really respond
to the sense of community here.

416
00:25:49,756 --> 00:25:51,376
My parents aren't religious.

417
00:25:52,509 --> 00:25:53,429
So…

418
00:25:56,304 --> 00:26:00,314
Is there really nothing else
you can think of that I can do right now?

419
00:26:00,392 --> 00:26:01,482
[chuckles lightly]

420
00:26:01,560 --> 00:26:03,480
I wish Judaism worked like that, but…

421
00:26:04,604 --> 00:26:05,864
unfortunately,

422
00:26:05,939 --> 00:26:07,819
no quick fixes in the Torah.

423
00:26:09,234 --> 00:26:11,824
I'm happy
to have these conversations with you.

424
00:26:14,072 --> 00:26:16,072
I do wanna make sure you know…

425
00:26:16,783 --> 00:26:19,873
there is a difference
between a spiritual adviser…

426
00:26:20,620 --> 00:26:21,790
and a therapist.

427
00:26:23,039 --> 00:26:24,079
[phone vibrates]

428
00:26:24,874 --> 00:26:26,254
[vibrations continue]

429
00:26:27,043 --> 00:26:30,013
If you feel like you might wanna
talk to someone, we have resources here.

430
00:26:30,088 --> 00:26:31,968
I can get some recommendations.

431
00:26:32,048 --> 00:26:33,378
No, thanks. I'm fine.

432
00:26:35,176 --> 00:26:36,296
[vibrations continue]

433
00:26:38,346 --> 00:26:39,636
Do you have to get that?

434
00:26:40,307 --> 00:26:41,137
Yeah, I should.

435
00:26:41,975 --> 00:26:43,475
Just give me a second, OK?

436
00:26:46,146 --> 00:26:47,516
Hi, baby. What's going on?

437
00:26:48,273 --> 00:26:49,273
You OK?

438
00:26:50,317 --> 00:26:51,357
[door opens]

439
00:26:52,193 --> 00:26:53,193
[door closes]

440
00:26:57,073 --> 00:26:59,123
[tense music plays]

441
00:27:33,276 --> 00:27:34,316
Look, Dom.

442
00:27:35,320 --> 00:27:36,700
[Sonia giggles]

443
00:27:40,992 --> 00:27:42,952
How could I be so fucking dumb?

444
00:27:43,870 --> 00:27:47,250
Hey. Remember how you always tell us
not to be so hard on ourselves?

445
00:27:47,332 --> 00:27:49,172
I could have been expelled, Sonny.

446
00:27:49,834 --> 00:27:52,844
All that I'm working for,
everything… gone.

447
00:27:52,921 --> 00:27:54,551
Yeah, but that didn't happen.

448
00:27:55,465 --> 00:27:57,835
So maybe you just need
to give yourself a break.

449
00:27:59,552 --> 00:28:00,512
[Tamika] Oh man…

450
00:28:00,595 --> 00:28:01,465
[giggling]

451
00:28:01,554 --> 00:28:03,774
Can you guys for real stop?

452
00:28:05,308 --> 00:28:07,518
They don't like
if you're trying on the wigs.

453
00:28:07,602 --> 00:28:09,692
[snickering] Oh yeah, fuck. Sorry.

454
00:28:10,146 --> 00:28:12,316
I buy from here almost,
like, every damn day.

455
00:28:12,399 --> 00:28:14,939
I don't need her thinking
me and my friends are disrespectful.

456
00:28:15,026 --> 00:28:16,986
[Tor] Want me
to hunt down product for you?

457
00:28:17,070 --> 00:28:19,990
Yo, I know today's been shit,
but it's gonna be good, bro.

458
00:28:20,073 --> 00:28:23,413
Just let it go. And we're here for you
to support you, and--

459
00:28:23,493 --> 00:28:24,833
Did I ask you to do that?

460
00:28:25,328 --> 00:28:26,158
What?

461
00:28:26,246 --> 00:28:28,116
Y'all didn't need to come here.

462
00:28:28,206 --> 00:28:29,706
Like you said, I'll be good.

463
00:28:30,208 --> 00:28:31,578
-[Tor] Yeah?
-Yes.

464
00:28:39,884 --> 00:28:40,974
[scanner beeps]

465
00:28:50,270 --> 00:28:53,230
I know you see me a lot.
I've been here, like, four times a week.

466
00:28:53,314 --> 00:28:54,824
I was wondering if you guys have,

467
00:28:54,899 --> 00:28:57,739
like, a frequent shopper discount
I can get, or, like…

468
00:28:57,819 --> 00:28:58,699
No.

469
00:28:59,237 --> 00:29:00,407
I spend a lot of money here.

470
00:29:00,488 --> 00:29:02,698
I don't wanna
have to take my business elsewhere.

471
00:29:02,782 --> 00:29:05,832
-'Cause you know there's like--
-So, you have no money to pay?

472
00:29:05,910 --> 00:29:07,160
Next customer, please.

473
00:29:07,245 --> 00:29:08,745
I have the money!

474
00:29:09,497 --> 00:29:12,327
What does this look like to you?
I just know you're up-pricing.

475
00:29:12,417 --> 00:29:15,087
How are you charging $45 for this hair?

476
00:29:15,170 --> 00:29:16,420
This is cheap shit!

477
00:29:16,504 --> 00:29:17,634
You know what?

478
00:29:17,714 --> 00:29:18,764
Forget this.

479
00:29:18,840 --> 00:29:22,140
I gotta spend all my money
to make fucking money? Fuck this shit!

480
00:29:23,303 --> 00:29:25,053
[alarms wail]

481
00:29:25,138 --> 00:29:26,468
[inhales sharply]

482
00:29:29,642 --> 00:29:30,812
[whimpers]

483
00:29:34,230 --> 00:29:35,110
[Sonia] Dom!

484
00:29:36,483 --> 00:29:37,693
[Tamika] Dommo, what's wrong?

485
00:29:38,443 --> 00:29:39,493
I'm good.

486
00:29:40,904 --> 00:29:42,114
[Dom sniffles]

487
00:29:48,703 --> 00:29:50,163
I can't keep doing this.

488
00:29:51,664 --> 00:29:52,674
I can't.

489
00:29:55,752 --> 00:29:59,012
[sobs] There's never a break.
I can't fucking catch up.

490
00:29:59,088 --> 00:30:01,378
-[Tamika] It's gonna be OK.
-[Sonia] Just relax.

491
00:30:01,466 --> 00:30:02,466
[Dom sighs]

492
00:30:03,092 --> 00:30:04,142
No, it's not.

493
00:30:11,392 --> 00:30:13,272
My mom's friend has this nephew.

494
00:30:17,148 --> 00:30:18,438
He needs his green card.

495
00:30:18,525 --> 00:30:19,565
[inhales shakily]

496
00:30:21,569 --> 00:30:23,239
He'll pay us $10,000.

497
00:30:25,365 --> 00:30:26,365
For what?

498
00:30:26,950 --> 00:30:28,240
If I… [inhales sharply]

499
00:30:31,412 --> 00:30:34,252
…just go to City Hall
and we'd get married,

500
00:30:34,332 --> 00:30:36,922
-and I would just have to start--
-[Sonia] What? No.

501
00:30:37,919 --> 00:30:40,049
-What?
-Dom, you're not gonna do that.

502
00:30:41,214 --> 00:30:42,594
I mean, I can.

503
00:30:43,174 --> 00:30:45,094
People do it all the time.
It's not a big deal.

504
00:30:45,176 --> 00:30:47,096
-Yes, it is.
-It's a piece of paper.

505
00:30:47,178 --> 00:30:50,218
With, like, a whole bunch of real shit
that goes along with it.

506
00:30:50,306 --> 00:30:52,726
-Look, I know stuff's been tight.
-No, you don't know!

507
00:30:52,809 --> 00:30:55,019
-OK, fine, but what I'm saying--
-But what?

508
00:30:55,687 --> 00:30:56,687
[scoffs]

509
00:30:57,647 --> 00:31:00,527
There's no better option.
Trust me, I've tried everything.

510
00:31:00,608 --> 00:31:02,028
Well, not this.

511
00:31:03,611 --> 00:31:05,281
That's really easy for you to say.

512
00:31:06,906 --> 00:31:09,736
-Your mom can't really want--
-Don't even make it like that.

513
00:31:11,411 --> 00:31:13,251
Like we're ignorant, or… [sniffles]

514
00:31:13,329 --> 00:31:15,289
…or we're fucked up.
It's not like that.

515
00:31:16,541 --> 00:31:17,631
[Dom sighs]

516
00:31:21,462 --> 00:31:22,462
[Tor sighs]

517
00:31:33,641 --> 00:31:35,271
[jazz music plays]

518
00:31:45,820 --> 00:31:48,160
[plays out of tune]

519
00:31:48,239 --> 00:31:50,199
Oh, yo! It supposed to sound like that?

520
00:31:50,658 --> 00:31:51,658
All right, man.

521
00:31:53,369 --> 00:31:55,039
[plays jazz smoothly]

522
00:32:00,335 --> 00:32:02,085
[chuckling, murmurs of approval]

523
00:32:04,255 --> 00:32:07,215
OK. OK. All right. All right. You legit.

524
00:32:07,300 --> 00:32:09,140
-You legit, man.
-Word. You're looking up.

525
00:32:09,218 --> 00:32:11,758
I know you!
You go to Harlem Renaissance, right?

526
00:32:11,846 --> 00:32:13,256
Nah, man, I go to Grand Army.

527
00:32:13,348 --> 00:32:16,018
You know, um…
anyone who died in that bomb?

528
00:32:16,601 --> 00:32:17,561
Nah.

529
00:32:18,603 --> 00:32:21,733
You know, every time
I see an Arab Muslim dude now,

530
00:32:21,814 --> 00:32:22,904
I'm like, "All right…

531
00:32:23,316 --> 00:32:24,816
what's in that backpack, motherfucker?"

532
00:32:24,901 --> 00:32:26,781
-Yo, that's fucked up, man.
-[boy 1] For real.

533
00:32:26,861 --> 00:32:29,111
So wait. Why you up here if you a BK boy?

534
00:32:29,739 --> 00:32:33,079
-Bro, you mad stupid, son!
-I live up here, bro.

535
00:32:33,159 --> 00:32:37,159
-[chuckling] I just go to school there.
-Wait, you play ball at Marcus Garvey?

536
00:32:39,874 --> 00:32:40,884
[Jay] Yo, um…

537
00:32:41,751 --> 00:32:43,881
I couldn't possibly
buy off you guys, could I?

538
00:32:43,962 --> 00:32:44,802
Oh!

539
00:32:45,254 --> 00:32:48,054
-We look like dealers to you?
-Nah. I mean, but y'all smoking.

540
00:32:48,132 --> 00:32:50,392
-I thought y'all might have…
-That's kind of fucked up.

541
00:32:50,468 --> 00:32:53,258
Nah, man, that's--
Look, I'm just desperate right now.

542
00:32:53,346 --> 00:32:55,596
And this piece of music
is a fucking beast.

543
00:32:55,682 --> 00:32:58,892
I'm not the one that's supposed to be
playing it. I didn't mean it like that.

544
00:32:58,977 --> 00:33:00,767
[snickering]

545
00:33:01,312 --> 00:33:03,862
Look, look, look, man.
We don't sell, but we do share, man.

546
00:33:03,940 --> 00:33:06,230
Go ahead, hit that shit, bro. You're cool.

547
00:33:08,778 --> 00:33:10,488
[boy 2] What's the song for though?

548
00:33:12,240 --> 00:33:13,240
A performance.

549
00:33:13,992 --> 00:33:14,832
Big?

550
00:33:15,201 --> 00:33:16,411
Yeah, very.

551
00:33:16,953 --> 00:33:19,293
I'm about to fuck it up
in front of 500 people.

552
00:33:19,372 --> 00:33:21,212
[exhales sharply] Five hundred?

553
00:33:21,708 --> 00:33:23,748
-Who it belong to?
-My boy, Owen.

554
00:33:24,210 --> 00:33:25,040
My best friend.

555
00:33:25,128 --> 00:33:26,418
Why he not playing?

556
00:33:26,504 --> 00:33:28,594
He got suspended. Sixty days.

557
00:33:28,673 --> 00:33:30,053
[boy 1] Damn!

558
00:33:30,133 --> 00:33:33,183
Shit, bro, I got suspended so many times,
I just dropped out.

559
00:33:33,720 --> 00:33:35,640
-It's fucked up.
-[boy 1] Your boy cool with you

560
00:33:35,722 --> 00:33:36,812
jacking his look?

561
00:33:37,974 --> 00:33:40,854
-He doesn't know.
-Yo, you cold, bro. You cold as hell.

562
00:33:40,935 --> 00:33:43,595
-It's not like that.
-[boy 1] You gotta tell your friend, man.

563
00:33:44,147 --> 00:33:46,017
[boys snickering]

564
00:33:46,107 --> 00:33:48,437
-I gotta dip, y'all.
-[boy 1] We was just playing with you.

565
00:33:48,526 --> 00:33:50,526
Nah, nah, nah, it's all good.
I know that. Um…

566
00:33:50,611 --> 00:33:52,281
I just gotta meet my pops anyway.

567
00:33:53,156 --> 00:33:54,656
[boy 2] All right, man. Cool.

568
00:33:55,199 --> 00:33:56,279
Peace, bro.

569
00:33:56,367 --> 00:33:58,657
-[Jay] Hey. Good lookin' out.
-[boy 2] Mm-hmm.

570
00:33:59,287 --> 00:34:01,457
Hey, yo, come smoke up with us sometime.

571
00:34:01,539 --> 00:34:03,919
Come through, chill,
we'll smoke you up good.

572
00:34:04,000 --> 00:34:05,420
-Yes, sir.
-[Jay] Good lookin' out.

573
00:34:05,501 --> 00:34:07,001
-Y'all be easy.
-[boy 3] All right, bro.

574
00:34:08,755 --> 00:34:10,545
[jazz music plays]

575
00:34:26,606 --> 00:34:28,226
That's gonna be you up there one day.

576
00:34:30,318 --> 00:34:31,528
[audience applauds]

577
00:34:32,111 --> 00:34:33,111
[cheering]

578
00:34:37,658 --> 00:34:39,288
[dad] The way they listen to each other,

579
00:34:39,368 --> 00:34:41,908
just building and building
and creating something…

580
00:34:41,996 --> 00:34:43,406
organic and alive.

581
00:34:44,040 --> 00:34:45,830
-Oh! It's amazing!
-[Jay chuckles]

582
00:34:47,293 --> 00:34:49,213
You're gonna inspire people like that.

583
00:34:50,004 --> 00:34:51,014
You got that gift.

584
00:34:51,422 --> 00:34:53,382
There are other ways to inspire people.

585
00:34:54,550 --> 00:34:55,510
Is that right?

586
00:34:56,511 --> 00:34:57,391
Yeah.

587
00:34:58,054 --> 00:34:59,644
I'm doing this thing at school.

588
00:35:01,307 --> 00:35:03,017
What, a concert or something?

589
00:35:03,935 --> 00:35:04,805
No.

590
00:35:06,437 --> 00:35:07,267
A sit-in.

591
00:35:08,106 --> 00:35:10,066
You know,
to protest what happened to Owen.

592
00:35:10,149 --> 00:35:12,569
We got a line of speakers,
we're gonna get the admin to listen,

593
00:35:12,652 --> 00:35:14,362
and I think we can get Owen back early.

594
00:35:14,445 --> 00:35:15,775
When do you plan on doing this?

595
00:35:16,155 --> 00:35:16,985
Next week.

596
00:35:17,448 --> 00:35:18,278
Thursday.

597
00:35:21,619 --> 00:35:23,119
That's the day before All-State.

598
00:35:25,164 --> 00:35:26,004
Jay…

599
00:35:27,542 --> 00:35:30,552
you'll create more change in the world
if you make it to Julliard

600
00:35:30,628 --> 00:35:32,258
than if you paint a target on your back.

601
00:35:32,338 --> 00:35:35,718
But it's not just me. We got a group
dedicated to helping out Owen.

602
00:35:35,800 --> 00:35:37,180
But I'm talking about you.

603
00:35:38,928 --> 00:35:39,758
All right?

604
00:35:40,179 --> 00:35:41,849
You didn't make it this far
with your music

605
00:35:41,931 --> 00:35:43,431
-to thro--
-I didn't make it.

606
00:35:44,642 --> 00:35:45,692
What?

607
00:35:45,768 --> 00:35:46,938
It was Owen's seat.

608
00:35:49,772 --> 00:35:50,862
I was an alternate.

609
00:35:57,780 --> 00:35:58,870
So what, Jay?

610
00:36:02,160 --> 00:36:04,450
Hey, whatever happened to Owen
disgusts me,

611
00:36:05,371 --> 00:36:06,331
but…

612
00:36:06,414 --> 00:36:07,294
it's life.

613
00:36:07,373 --> 00:36:09,793
It's only life
if we keep lettin' it happen.

614
00:36:09,876 --> 00:36:11,336
This sit-in actually matters.

615
00:36:11,419 --> 00:36:12,879
-So does All-State.
-Does it?

616
00:36:12,962 --> 00:36:15,342
-It's your future, Jay.
-What about Owen's future?

617
00:36:15,798 --> 00:36:18,508
Throwing away this opportunity
doesn't put Owen back in that seat.

618
00:36:19,760 --> 00:36:21,510
[dad sighs] Jay…

619
00:36:22,180 --> 00:36:23,390
this shot is yours.

620
00:36:24,515 --> 00:36:26,345
What matters now is what you do with it.

621
00:36:26,434 --> 00:36:27,484
[dad sighs]

622
00:36:28,394 --> 00:36:30,774
Now listen, you wanna honor your friend?

623
00:36:32,398 --> 00:36:33,938
You give it everything in you.

624
00:36:35,151 --> 00:36:35,991
Huh?

625
00:36:36,319 --> 00:36:39,449
Most parents would kill for their kid
to be involved in school stuff.

626
00:36:39,530 --> 00:36:41,530
Most parents don't have a prodigy.

627
00:36:45,453 --> 00:36:48,623
Oh. Hey, Mr. Prodigy, you got sauce
on your face. Clean that up.

628
00:36:50,208 --> 00:36:51,288
No, up.

629
00:36:51,792 --> 00:36:52,882
I'm pointing right at it.

630
00:36:52,960 --> 00:36:55,170
-What you talkin' 'bout?
-[dad] It's on this side now.

631
00:36:55,254 --> 00:36:56,554
-[clicks tongue]
-[dad snickers]

632
00:36:56,631 --> 00:36:58,261
OK, funny man. I see you.

633
00:37:01,135 --> 00:37:02,795
[upbeat music plays]

634
00:37:02,887 --> 00:37:04,637
[indistinct chattering]

635
00:37:28,496 --> 00:37:29,746
[in Hindi] What are you doing?

636
00:37:29,830 --> 00:37:30,920
[Sid in English] Helping.

637
00:37:37,505 --> 00:37:39,125
[in Hindi] What's going on?

638
00:37:39,215 --> 00:37:41,465
I thought we told him to stay home.

639
00:37:42,051 --> 00:37:43,681
I don't know. He just showed up.

640
00:37:44,512 --> 00:37:45,512
[in English] Go home.

641
00:37:46,138 --> 00:37:48,638
Look at this place.
You're backed up. You need help.

642
00:37:49,225 --> 00:37:50,425
We're taking care of this.

643
00:37:50,518 --> 00:37:53,098
[Sid] Yeah, by pretending everything's OK
when it's not?

644
00:37:54,814 --> 00:37:56,364
I don't wanna be by myself.

645
00:38:00,444 --> 00:38:02,664
And I don't want
people seeing you like this.

646
00:38:03,406 --> 00:38:04,406
People will talk.

647
00:38:06,075 --> 00:38:07,115
Let them talk.

648
00:38:07,785 --> 00:38:09,445
Talk about me? Yes.

649
00:38:10,246 --> 00:38:11,746
But about you? No.

650
00:38:13,457 --> 00:38:14,497
What will I say?

651
00:38:15,793 --> 00:38:17,463
That you fight boys at parties?

652
00:38:18,713 --> 00:38:21,223
-That you do other things?
-We'll talk about this later.

653
00:38:21,632 --> 00:38:24,092
[Sid] Talk about it?
You can't even say the words.

654
00:38:27,638 --> 00:38:28,508
Say it.

655
00:38:31,684 --> 00:38:32,734
I'm staying.

656
00:38:38,482 --> 00:38:39,482
If you want to help,

657
00:38:40,151 --> 00:38:41,491
then stop all of this.

658
00:38:42,069 --> 00:38:45,109
You don't think I tried?
It's not something I can stop. It's me.

659
00:38:45,197 --> 00:38:46,567
No, it's not.

660
00:38:46,657 --> 00:38:47,697
I am your father.

661
00:38:48,326 --> 00:38:50,486
I know who you are. Better than you.

662
00:38:54,123 --> 00:38:55,123
I'm gay.

663
00:38:57,376 --> 00:38:58,786
And that's not going away.

664
00:39:01,213 --> 00:39:02,593
We can talk about this…

665
00:39:04,717 --> 00:39:05,887
actually talk…

666
00:39:09,680 --> 00:39:11,060
or I can do the dishes.

667
00:39:14,185 --> 00:39:15,345
But I'm not going.

668
00:39:20,191 --> 00:39:22,611
-[water runs]
-Babe, use the hand soap.

669
00:39:23,444 --> 00:39:25,614
I can't fucking believe
this happened at Dad's.

670
00:39:25,696 --> 00:39:26,696
[Joey snickers]

671
00:39:26,781 --> 00:39:28,911
-Yeah.
-It's not funny.

672
00:39:29,617 --> 00:39:31,787
[Joey] Yeah, I know,
nothing's funny anymore.

673
00:39:34,538 --> 00:39:36,248
Just let me do it. Stop it. Stop.

674
00:39:37,291 --> 00:39:38,961
Just do the toilet paper for now.

675
00:39:41,754 --> 00:39:42,844
[Nina sighs]

676
00:39:48,386 --> 00:39:49,296
Like this?

677
00:39:52,848 --> 00:39:53,928
Are you serious?

678
00:39:55,059 --> 00:39:55,979
[Joey] No.

679
00:40:08,739 --> 00:40:09,949
[Joey] You're welcome?

680
00:40:10,032 --> 00:40:11,032
[Nina] Thank you.

681
00:40:16,705 --> 00:40:19,875
-Feel like I'm wearing a diaper.
-You can have one of my tampons.

682
00:40:19,959 --> 00:40:22,249
I don't want one
of your extra-super-large tampons.

683
00:40:22,336 --> 00:40:23,916
-[Joey] Excuse me?
-[Matt] Girls?

684
00:40:24,213 --> 00:40:27,803
Nina, just text me a picture
of what you need, OK? It's not a big deal.

685
00:40:29,135 --> 00:40:31,595
-OK?
-I'll send it, Dad. Thank you.

686
00:40:32,138 --> 00:40:33,258
-[Matt] Bye.
-Bye.

687
00:40:37,101 --> 00:40:38,771
-[Nina] Jesus Christ.
-[snickers]

688
00:40:51,699 --> 00:40:54,199
It's gonna take over a year
for your hair to grow back.

689
00:40:56,454 --> 00:40:57,544
[Joey] Oh yeah?

690
00:41:02,460 --> 00:41:03,750
Does it feel good to do?

691
00:41:07,840 --> 00:41:08,760
[Joey sighs]

692
00:41:13,179 --> 00:41:15,509
That uniform is pretty unattractive.
[chuckles]

693
00:41:16,807 --> 00:41:19,477
-Thank you. I'm aware.
-The polo shirt? What a look.

694
00:41:24,523 --> 00:41:25,523
[Joey sighs]

695
00:41:28,360 --> 00:41:29,490
[Nina inhales deeply]

696
00:41:32,031 --> 00:41:34,741
This piece of shit at school was like,

697
00:41:36,327 --> 00:41:38,407
"Probably like it rough,
like your sister."

698
00:41:44,084 --> 00:41:46,054
I'm so sorry, Nina. That's not OK.

699
00:41:46,128 --> 00:41:48,168
-They can't--
-I feel like you're letting them win.

700
00:41:49,256 --> 00:41:51,506
-What else do you want me to do?
-Say, "Fuck you.

701
00:41:51,967 --> 00:41:54,547
-You don't get to push me out of my life."
-They won, Nina!

702
00:42:01,560 --> 00:42:02,900
[Nina] I need to show you.

703
00:42:09,318 --> 00:42:11,278
[Joey]
Why are you screenshotting this shit?

704
00:42:11,779 --> 00:42:12,859
[Nina] Look at them.

705
00:42:14,281 --> 00:42:15,281
It's like…

706
00:42:15,991 --> 00:42:17,871
you can tell they know what they did.

707
00:42:20,788 --> 00:42:22,958
[Joey] I'm gonna text Dad what to get you.

708
00:42:24,542 --> 00:42:26,672
I wish you'd stop
letting them destroy you.

709
00:42:32,925 --> 00:42:34,715
[metal creaking]

710
00:42:35,386 --> 00:42:36,426
[Leila] What?

711
00:42:36,512 --> 00:42:37,972
-[snarling]
-Go away. Go away.

712
00:42:38,055 --> 00:42:39,265
Please, just go away.

713
00:42:42,601 --> 00:42:43,811
[snarling]

714
00:42:45,271 --> 00:42:46,271
[gasps]

715
00:42:46,939 --> 00:42:48,189
[horn honks, alarm wails]

716
00:42:49,608 --> 00:42:51,188
[breathing heavily]

717
00:42:52,194 --> 00:42:55,824
♪ We spark together
Like we're made of flint ♪

718
00:42:56,282 --> 00:43:00,292
♪ I thought you could take a hint ♪

719
00:43:00,369 --> 00:43:03,869
♪ I tell lies, I feel stuck inside… ♪

720
00:43:04,290 --> 00:43:05,120
[Leila] Mom?

721
00:43:05,958 --> 00:43:06,878
Dad?

722
00:43:08,877 --> 00:43:09,707
Mom!

723
00:43:11,046 --> 00:43:12,716
-Mom, it's me.
-[snarling]

724
00:43:12,798 --> 00:43:14,128
No!

725
00:43:15,551 --> 00:43:17,721
[snarling]

726
00:43:18,721 --> 00:43:20,971
Who's Daddy's little girl?

727
00:43:21,390 --> 00:43:22,770
No, you're hurting me!

728
00:43:23,809 --> 00:43:27,229
Mommy loves you so much,

729
00:43:27,646 --> 00:43:30,816
I could fucking eat you!

730
00:43:30,899 --> 00:43:32,279
[Leila screams]

731
00:43:33,027 --> 00:43:34,107
[screaming]

732
00:43:35,946 --> 00:43:36,816
[screaming]

733
00:43:36,905 --> 00:43:38,195
[snarling]

734
00:43:40,492 --> 00:43:41,412
Mom?

735
00:43:42,578 --> 00:43:43,788
[whimpers]

736
00:43:47,041 --> 00:43:49,211
Oh, I'm sorry. I didn't see you there.

737
00:43:49,293 --> 00:43:50,503
[mom chuckles]

738
00:43:51,629 --> 00:43:52,799
What's so funny?

739
00:43:52,880 --> 00:43:53,840
Nothing.

740
00:43:54,256 --> 00:43:55,466
So why are you laughing?

741
00:43:56,300 --> 00:43:58,720
-I mean, I didn't mean it.
-Am I a joke to you?

742
00:44:00,179 --> 00:44:01,929
Honey, where is this coming from?

743
00:44:02,765 --> 00:44:03,715
Everywhere?

744
00:44:04,725 --> 00:44:06,685
It's like everyone's laughing at me.

745
00:44:06,769 --> 00:44:08,559
No one's laughing at you, Leila.

746
00:44:09,355 --> 00:44:11,475
That's not my real name.

747
00:44:13,567 --> 00:44:16,067
Have you ever met
a real Chinese girl named Leila?

748
00:44:17,196 --> 00:44:19,236
You couldn't just let me
keep my real name?

749
00:44:19,657 --> 00:44:21,027
And everyone's like,

750
00:44:21,116 --> 00:44:23,906
"Be the real you."
So, can you tell me who that is?

751
00:44:23,994 --> 00:44:27,124
You are our daughter,
and your dad and I love you very much.

752
00:44:27,206 --> 00:44:29,036
No, you love who you created, not--

753
00:44:29,124 --> 00:44:32,134
No, we were very happy to find you.

754
00:44:32,628 --> 00:44:34,798
Honey, let's just get home. OK?

755
00:44:34,880 --> 00:44:37,380
You just… flew over and took me.

756
00:44:38,801 --> 00:44:40,591
You brought me to this foreign country,

757
00:44:40,678 --> 00:44:42,808
never thinking
of how that would affect me.

758
00:44:44,556 --> 00:44:46,886
And I'm basically living
someone else's life,

759
00:44:46,975 --> 00:44:48,595
the kid you couldn't have.

760
00:44:49,269 --> 00:44:51,019
I don't know how I'm supposed to…

761
00:44:52,314 --> 00:44:53,864
OK, I don't know myself.

762
00:44:55,067 --> 00:44:56,607
[sniffles] Do you get that?

763
00:44:57,403 --> 00:44:59,993
And you're laughing at that woman
like it's nothing.

764
00:45:03,409 --> 00:45:05,489
[hip-hop music plays in distance]

765
00:45:16,880 --> 00:45:18,380
[distant laughter]

766
00:45:24,847 --> 00:45:27,017
-[woman on TV] I never used one of these.
-[chuckling]

767
00:45:27,099 --> 00:45:30,189
[woman on TV]
OK. First, I need one cup of water.

768
00:45:30,269 --> 00:45:31,479
I have four children.

769
00:45:31,562 --> 00:45:33,022
I'm used to distractions

770
00:45:33,105 --> 00:45:36,015
but I still have not learned
to tune it all out.

771
00:45:36,108 --> 00:45:37,608
I can't get the wrapper…

772
00:45:40,362 --> 00:45:42,362
[inaudible]

773
00:46:08,432 --> 00:46:09,392
[sniffles]

774
00:46:10,100 --> 00:46:11,100
I'll do it.

775
00:46:13,729 --> 00:46:15,109
[in Creole] Do what, baby?

776
00:46:17,775 --> 00:46:19,185
[in English] The marriage thing.

777
00:46:27,659 --> 00:46:30,199
[in Creole]
But I'm not doing it just for the family.

778
00:46:30,871 --> 00:46:33,791
If I do this,
some of the money goes towards college.

779
00:46:35,125 --> 00:46:36,995
That's my condition.

780
00:46:59,525 --> 00:47:01,935
[tapping keys]

781
00:47:11,495 --> 00:47:14,365
[tense music plays]