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For far too long, Darby had ignored
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the details of her past,
not appreciating
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that they might be puzzle pieces
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in her quest for connection.
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But now, suddenly, she found herself
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feeling the impulse to look inward.
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Darby?
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Yeah.
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Wanna come on in?
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- Yeah.
- Okay.
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Real-life therapy couch.
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I'm not actually supposed
to lay down, right?
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Whatever makes you feel comfortable.
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So do I just start talking, or...
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Yeah, why don't you talk about
what brought you in here?
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On the phone, you mentioned
that you were having...
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trouble with a relationship?
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Uh, yeah.
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Uh, well, yeah, broadly speaking,
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but I think it's just me.
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I'm really not good
at expressing myself,
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and that's hurting my relationship,
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so I would love to just,
um, fix that, you know?
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Could you maybe give me an example?
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Yeah, so um, recently,
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he wanted to buy this $2,000 couch,
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and we just don't need it,
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and I started out saying I didn't think
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that we should spend that
much money on a couch,
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and we couldn't even afford it,
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and he was so disappointed by that,
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um, so I ended up saying...
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we should get the matching
ottoman and everything, and...
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So you're, like, a real pleaser.
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Um, y...
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But now I'm angry, so...
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It sounds to me like
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he didn't really respect your desires.
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He... kind of steamrolled you.
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But what would happen if you said,
"Hey, look.
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"That really made me angry
that you steamrolled me
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into buying that $2,000 couch"?
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He would be mad,
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and...
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we would get in a fight, and...
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he would break up with me.
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So you're really afraid of rejection?
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- Isn't everyone?
- Of course.
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Because it's painful,
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and it's shame-inducing.
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But it's really not about you, Darby.
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Rejection is not personal.
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It's obviously personal.
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Rejection couldn't be more personal.
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I can see this is a
really sensitive area.
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Let's dig a little deeper.
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I want you to tell me
about the first time
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you ever experienced a major rejection.
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I want you to describe to
me what that felt like.
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I want you to close your eyes
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and just describe away.
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Do I have to close my eyes?
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Yeah.
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Okay.
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So...
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I guess it was... Luke.
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- _
- Um, I was 15,
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and I was getting shuttled, uh,
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back and forth between my parents,
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and I didn't, like, belong anywhere,
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so I did this kind of crazy thing.
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I applied to boarding school.
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At first, I just wanted to see
if my parents would stop me.
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Like, maybe I was too
integral a part of the family
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for them to let me go, but, uh, no.
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They were totally cool with their child
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moving across the country.
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So I went, and honestly,
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I thought it would look like Hogwarts...
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But no.
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Uh, the pictures on
the website were... misleading.
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This honestly sucks.
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I didn't know you wanted to come.
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No, I don't want to go
on a Disney cruise.
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Why would I want to go on a
Disney cruise with you guys?
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Walt Disney was a Nazi.
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Mom, I just want to be home.
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If you wanna be home,
maybe you should've
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stayed here in the first place
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instead of running away
to boarding school.
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Okay. Okay, fine.
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Then I'll just have
Thanksgiving by myself.
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What about your father's?
I'm sure they'd love to have you too.
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No, Nancy's mom lives there now,
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so I'd just have to be
on an Aerobed again.
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Wow, Larry's really caving over there.
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Is that even comfortable?
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It's not supposed to be.
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Oh, is that Grace?
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Can't you go home with
her for Thanksgiving?
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No, she's going to her boyfriend's.
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But I'll be fine.
There's a Hardee's in town.
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Don't be dramatic, sweetheart.
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I'll call you from the ship.
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Hey, do you think I could
go to Colby's with you?
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Or would that be weird?
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Only if you wanna watch us fuck.
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_
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Hey, Ashton. Hey, Kaelin.
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I didn't know you guys were
staying in town for the break.
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Either that or go to our fucking
dumbass stupid grandma's house.
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- I'm Sophie.
- Hey. I'm Darby.
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So anyway...
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yeah, I've pretty much
spent the whole break so far
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playing "San Andreas."
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I heard the tank is tight. Whew!
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Have you gotten to
the level with the tank?
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No, but I got the cheat code for it.
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Tight.
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Yo!
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Sorry.
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What up, pimps?
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- What's up?
- Aren't you cold?
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No. Why? We're inside.
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We...
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Well, I mean, you're just...
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You're dressed like the Big Lebowski.
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Well, I guess I just run warm.
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- Hmm.
- Yeah.
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And what's up? I'm Luke.
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I sit next to you in Chem.
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Oh! Shit. Yes, no.
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Okay. No, I know you. I'm sorry.
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You want some water?
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It's not water. It's Popov.
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But keep it low-key.
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How's "Cats" going?
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Yeah, sounding pretty good over there,
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frickin' musical guy.
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I'm playing Rum Tum Tugger, so...
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- Ooh.
- Yeah.
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Yo.
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Hi.
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What's up?
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I hate Thanksgiving.
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Yeah, I know. Same.
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And it's ridiculous, 'cause "The O.C."
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isn't even on tonight, which...
Which makes no sense to me,
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'cause I feel like if there
were a night for "The O.C."
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to be on, it would be tonight.
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I know. I know.
That's what I was thinking.
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I went to the AV room
to try to watch it, and...
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- Yeah?
- I'm actually from California.
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Wait, no way. Sick.
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So it reminds me of home.
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- Yeah?
- Yeah.
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Cool.
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Wait, did you inhale it?
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Yeah.
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I... I think I did.
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- Are you sure?
- I don't know.
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There you go. Nice.
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Um, so why didn't you go home?
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Just civil disobedience.
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What do you mean?
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No, my parents are just fuckin' Repubs,
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and my dad's a drunk and a hypocrite.
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Where are you from again?
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Corpus Christi, Texas.
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- That's wild.
- Yeah.
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What, are you, uh, like, an oil baron?
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No, no.
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My dad's a lobbyist.
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- Hmm.
- Yeah.
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He knows the dude that
Cheney shot in the face.
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Yeah, I know. He's boys with my grandpa.
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Hmm.
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Yeah, my dad's a recovering alcoholic.
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Mm. Is that why you stayed here?
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No. I mean, kind of.
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I don't know. Um...
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No, my parents are just in Jackson Hole,
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and I didn't feel like going this year.
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That was my first real kiss.
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In the moment, it was... It was magic,
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I mean, now I realize
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he was using his tongue
like a prison shank.
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- You don't use your door?
- No.
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Even the Domino's guy
knows to use the window
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at Casa Ducharme.
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- Here. Here.
- Yeah.
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- Thanks.
- Mm-hmm.
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Go, go!
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All right, ready?
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Oh, wow.
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That one's cute.
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That was good.
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- We got this.
- Yeah, yeah, yeah.
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What kind of music do you like?
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I like mellow shit.
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Like this.
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Know this one?
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You like John Mayer?
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I love John Mayer. John Mayer shreds.
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Hey, I lied before.
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Yeah? About what?
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My family isn't in Jackson Hole.
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I... like, I really don't
know why I said that.
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Okay.
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It's all good.
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♪ No, I'm not the man
I used to be lately ♪
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♪ See, you met me at
an interesting time ♪
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♪ And if my past is any
sign of your future ♪
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You're amazing.
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You're amazing.
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♪ Hold on to whatever you find, baby ♪
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♪ Hold on to whatever
will get you through ♪
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♪ Hold on to whatever you find, baby ♪
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♪ I don't trust myself with lovin' you ♪
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So clearly, you really liked this guy.
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But the question is, Darby,
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what did you do with those feelings?
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Nothing, really.
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Um... yeah, I mean, it was high school,
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so we barely knew each other, and...
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it just wasn't...
It wasn't that big a deal.
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Darby, therapy really only works
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if you're willing to open up to me.
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I'm here, aren't I?
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Yes, and that's the first step.
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I'm sorry, it's just...
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you're basically a stranger.
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Maybe that makes it easier.
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Okay.
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♪ I will beg my way into your garden ♪
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Hey.
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How was Colby's?
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His cousin walked in on us,
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but otherwise, it was fine.
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Okay, you won't believe
what happened over break.
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I hooked up with Luke.
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Luke Ducharme?
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Yeah.
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Yeah, it was kind of magical.
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Wow, I didn't know you had it in you.
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Yeah, I mean,
just like, the first night,
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we met up at the dining hall,
and then...
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it just kind of happened, you know.
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Okay, but what do
you mean you hooked up?
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Like, we just kissed.
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But we spent literally
the whole time together.
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It was like we were in love.
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So what's your guys' deal now?
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Are you, like, dating or something?
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No, I mean, I'm...
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Yeah, I'm not really sure.
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I mean, not officially, anyway.
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We haven't had the talk yet, you know.
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I have Pre-Calc with him.
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You know he's, like, a total player.
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Yeah.
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Yeah.
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We're just keeping it casual, you know.
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It's no big deal, really.
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00:14:15,469 --> 00:14:17,344
Hey.
267
00:14:17,583 --> 00:14:19,292
- Oh, hey.
- Nice game.
268
00:14:19,317 --> 00:14:20,980
Yeah, thanks.
269
00:14:23,349 --> 00:14:25,266
What's up?
270
00:14:25,479 --> 00:14:27,159
Not much.
271
00:14:28,016 --> 00:14:29,886
- Okay.
- Well, um, hey.
272
00:14:29,911 --> 00:14:32,327
I was actually thinking
about staging a walkout
273
00:14:32,352 --> 00:14:35,560
against the Iraq war,
if you felt like joining.
274
00:14:35,585 --> 00:14:37,487
Oh, um, maybe.
275
00:14:37,512 --> 00:14:38,995
Yeah, maybe.
276
00:14:39,367 --> 00:14:41,575
Or... or we could just smoke weed
277
00:14:41,600 --> 00:14:43,725
and watch the new "O.C."
278
00:14:44,620 --> 00:14:46,448
I can't.
279
00:14:46,473 --> 00:14:48,233
I'm... I'm just...
I'm really screwed in Chem
280
00:14:48,258 --> 00:14:50,503
'cause I fucked off, like, all break.
281
00:14:50,528 --> 00:14:52,986
Mm, yeah. No, I remember.
282
00:14:54,777 --> 00:14:56,409
It was worth it, though, right?
283
00:14:56,434 --> 00:14:57,839
Yeah, for sure. Yeah.
284
00:14:57,864 --> 00:14:59,698
Yes.
285
00:14:59,805 --> 00:15:01,887
Uh, but I sh... I sh...
I need to get back to the game.
286
00:15:01,911 --> 00:15:03,955
Oh, yeah. Yeah. Go ahead.
287
00:15:04,230 --> 00:15:06,521
- Bye.
- All right, let's do it.
288
00:15:11,328 --> 00:15:13,862
Honestly, things got worse from there.
289
00:15:13,887 --> 00:15:16,053
Um, I would see him around campus,
290
00:15:16,078 --> 00:15:19,026
but it was just like nothing
ever happened between us.
291
00:15:19,051 --> 00:15:21,401
Just classic kid shit.
292
00:15:21,515 --> 00:15:24,136
And I did the opposite of
what I should have done.
293
00:15:24,161 --> 00:15:25,972
I literally auditioned for "Cats"
294
00:15:25,997 --> 00:15:27,872
just to be close to him.
295
00:15:36,219 --> 00:15:39,345
Oh, my God. Luke, that was amazing.
296
00:15:39,618 --> 00:15:42,110
Like, I seriously had tears in
my eyes when you were singing.
297
00:15:42,135 --> 00:15:44,218
Thank you.
298
00:15:47,544 --> 00:15:49,376
Look...
299
00:15:50,019 --> 00:15:51,935
I think we need to talk.
300
00:15:52,237 --> 00:15:53,907
You've just been acting really weird.
301
00:15:54,455 --> 00:15:55,455
No.
302
00:15:55,480 --> 00:15:57,212
I haven't been ignoring you, I promise.
303
00:15:57,237 --> 00:16:00,265
Seriously, things have been
so crazy with classes,
304
00:16:00,290 --> 00:16:02,687
and then, you know,
I've got this, and I just...
305
00:16:29,146 --> 00:16:31,466
You like that, Rum Tum?
306
00:16:38,606 --> 00:16:40,856
- Hey, Dad.
- Hey.
307
00:16:41,011 --> 00:16:43,330
How's it going over there, East-Coaster?
308
00:16:43,355 --> 00:16:45,413
It's fine. I'm just studying. What's up?
309
00:16:45,438 --> 00:16:47,938
Well, we missed you
at Thanksgiving, kiddo.
310
00:16:48,289 --> 00:16:50,664
Yeah. I missed you too.
311
00:16:50,927 --> 00:16:54,177
Hey, so um, some news, actually.
312
00:16:54,479 --> 00:16:56,354
Nancy's pregnant again.
313
00:16:59,107 --> 00:17:00,421
Darby?
314
00:17:01,625 --> 00:17:04,167
Darby, are you there? Hello?
315
00:17:05,013 --> 00:17:06,388
Look, I don't know what to say.
316
00:17:06,413 --> 00:17:07,921
I'm sorry.
317
00:17:09,945 --> 00:17:12,523
No, it's... it's great.
It's great. Congratulations.
318
00:17:48,394 --> 00:17:49,977
Oh, hey.
319
00:17:52,586 --> 00:17:54,124
Um...
320
00:17:56,559 --> 00:17:58,413
What are those? Gummy bears?
321
00:17:58,438 --> 00:17:59,979
Worms.
322
00:18:00,331 --> 00:18:01,497
What?
323
00:18:03,674 --> 00:18:05,424
They're gummy worms.
324
00:18:05,500 --> 00:18:06,667
Oh.
325
00:18:06,692 --> 00:18:08,067
Nice.
326
00:18:27,387 --> 00:18:29,507
I'm sorry.
327
00:18:29,937 --> 00:18:31,145
It just happened.
328
00:18:31,170 --> 00:18:32,921
He rolled us a joint, and then...
329
00:18:33,098 --> 00:18:35,570
It didn't mean anything. I promise.
330
00:18:35,595 --> 00:18:37,141
Colby and I just broke up, and I figured
331
00:18:37,165 --> 00:18:39,453
since you and Luke
were just hanging out...
332
00:18:39,478 --> 00:18:41,046
Oh, don't cry.
333
00:18:41,071 --> 00:18:42,612
You're gonna find somebody else.
334
00:18:42,637 --> 00:18:43,803
Stop, I've... I've...
335
00:18:43,828 --> 00:18:45,710
I don't even care about this, okay?
336
00:18:45,735 --> 00:18:48,485
I have way bigger shit going on!
337
00:18:49,450 --> 00:18:52,101
- Oh, so you're not mad?
- No! No!
338
00:18:52,126 --> 00:18:53,546
I ju...
339
00:18:54,914 --> 00:18:58,038
I... I just found out
that I have cancer!
340
00:19:00,230 --> 00:19:01,859
Fuck.
341
00:19:03,430 --> 00:19:05,484
Wow, okay.
342
00:19:05,509 --> 00:19:07,134
Let's unpack that.
343
00:19:07,159 --> 00:19:08,743
Why do you think you did it?
344
00:19:08,868 --> 00:19:11,234
God, I know. I don't know.
345
00:19:11,259 --> 00:19:12,842
Just, um...
346
00:19:13,011 --> 00:19:16,307
like, being a dumb high-schooler,
I guess?
347
00:19:16,332 --> 00:19:17,707
I know, but the thing is, Darby,
348
00:19:17,732 --> 00:19:19,011
that a lot of kids get broken up with,
349
00:19:19,035 --> 00:19:21,557
but they don't go around
telling people they had cancer.
350
00:19:27,457 --> 00:19:29,248
I heard the news.
351
00:19:29,273 --> 00:19:31,557
I'm so sorry.
352
00:19:31,582 --> 00:19:34,291
Yeah, I have to get
a couple more tests done,
353
00:19:34,316 --> 00:19:36,667
but it's not looking good.
354
00:19:36,692 --> 00:19:38,260
If you need any help,
355
00:19:38,285 --> 00:19:41,284
my uncle is an oncologist
at Sloan Kettering.
356
00:19:42,055 --> 00:19:43,338
Thanks.
357
00:19:45,023 --> 00:19:46,370
Hey.
358
00:19:46,395 --> 00:19:48,010
Thank you.
359
00:19:49,292 --> 00:19:51,581
How you doing? You okay?
360
00:19:51,606 --> 00:19:53,106
Get well soon.
361
00:19:53,597 --> 00:19:55,175
His name is Courage.
362
00:19:55,200 --> 00:19:56,913
- Not that you need it.
- She's so sweet.
363
00:19:56,938 --> 00:19:58,823
You're obviously already brave.
364
00:19:59,040 --> 00:20:01,799
- Oh, my God. That's so sweet.
- Thank you.
365
00:20:06,165 --> 00:20:07,457
I don't know why
366
00:20:07,482 --> 00:20:09,524
I told the lie in the first place,
367
00:20:09,938 --> 00:20:12,917
but once I did, I just got scared
368
00:20:12,942 --> 00:20:15,784
that all this love,
369
00:20:15,809 --> 00:20:17,995
and everyone fawning over me,
370
00:20:18,020 --> 00:20:21,112
- _
- would just go away if I came clean.
371
00:20:21,304 --> 00:20:24,354
Darby, I'm so sorry to hear.
372
00:20:24,379 --> 00:20:29,229
Any accommodations the school
can make now or during finals,
373
00:20:29,254 --> 00:20:31,254
please let me know.
374
00:20:31,622 --> 00:20:33,979
My office door is always open.
375
00:20:34,553 --> 00:20:39,317
_
376
00:20:52,464 --> 00:20:53,964
Hey.
377
00:20:56,073 --> 00:20:57,896
Do you have a minute?
378
00:21:08,023 --> 00:21:10,052
So did you hear that they hung Saddam?
379
00:21:10,077 --> 00:21:12,513
Why didn't you tell me
you had cancer over break?
380
00:21:15,086 --> 00:21:17,378
Look, I just... I didn't...
381
00:21:17,625 --> 00:21:19,875
I didn't want to worry you.
382
00:21:20,052 --> 00:21:22,146
You had so much going on with the play.
383
00:21:22,171 --> 00:21:25,481
Don't... don't worry about me.
384
00:21:27,797 --> 00:21:29,411
I love you.
385
00:21:30,044 --> 00:21:31,677
What?
386
00:21:34,258 --> 00:21:36,450
- You actually love me?
- Yes.
387
00:21:40,934 --> 00:21:42,996
Well, what about the whole Grace thing?
388
00:21:43,021 --> 00:21:45,771
That... listen. Grace was a mistake.
389
00:21:47,622 --> 00:21:50,039
I'm just... I'm sorry I hurt you.
390
00:21:55,165 --> 00:21:56,700
It's okay.
391
00:22:08,598 --> 00:22:11,411
_
392
00:22:27,708 --> 00:22:29,755
I know what you did.
393
00:22:30,503 --> 00:22:34,880
♪ Hold on to whatever you find, baby ♪
394
00:22:42,172 --> 00:22:47,008
♪ Hold on to whatever you find, baby ♪
395
00:22:47,130 --> 00:22:51,371
♪ I don't trust myself with lovin' you ♪
396
00:22:53,630 --> 00:22:57,507
♪ Who do you love? ♪
397
00:22:57,532 --> 00:23:02,046
Um, after that,
I withdrew from school, so...
398
00:23:02,802 --> 00:23:05,594
Yep. Fuckin' embarrassing.
399
00:23:05,619 --> 00:23:07,994
It sounds more than
fuckin' embarrassing.
400
00:23:08,339 --> 00:23:10,546
It sounds fuckin' traumatizing.
401
00:23:12,651 --> 00:23:14,187
Yeah.
402
00:23:14,212 --> 00:23:17,254
Well, it was a pretty
stupid thing to do.
403
00:23:19,659 --> 00:23:21,538
How'd your parents react?
404
00:23:21,563 --> 00:23:23,824
Uh, well, they...
405
00:23:25,037 --> 00:23:27,121
they came to get me.
406
00:23:27,547 --> 00:23:31,457
They came together,
actually, which was crazy,
407
00:23:31,687 --> 00:23:33,062
'cause they'd been divorced
408
00:23:33,087 --> 00:23:35,296
for over a decade at that point.
409
00:23:36,739 --> 00:23:39,636
- Come on.
- Okay. Let's go.
410
00:23:47,230 --> 00:23:48,918
Well, at least you still have your hair.
411
00:23:48,943 --> 00:23:50,193
Oh, seriously, Larry?
412
00:23:50,218 --> 00:23:52,050
Does this seem like a
good time for a joke?
413
00:23:52,075 --> 00:23:53,863
Wocka-wocka.
414
00:23:54,730 --> 00:23:58,066
I'm wondering how this is
gonna look on your transcript.
415
00:23:58,323 --> 00:23:59,972
Claud, we need to be sensitive.
416
00:23:59,997 --> 00:24:01,308
Clearly, this is about something else
417
00:24:01,332 --> 00:24:02,457
we have to deal with.
418
00:24:02,482 --> 00:24:03,684
How are we gonna get all your stuff?
419
00:24:03,708 --> 00:24:05,933
All those things we bought
at the Container Store.
420
00:24:05,958 --> 00:24:07,791
Mom, can we please
just not do this here?
421
00:24:07,816 --> 00:24:08,950
Can we please go? Like, I can't...
422
00:24:08,974 --> 00:24:10,724
I can't be here right now.
423
00:24:10,979 --> 00:24:12,496
Please.
424
00:24:14,966 --> 00:24:16,955
It was a lot of stuff we bought.
425
00:24:38,294 --> 00:24:40,112
You know, Darby,
426
00:24:40,137 --> 00:24:42,112
sometimes we think
we're chasing one thing,
427
00:24:42,137 --> 00:24:43,839
and we're actually chasing another.
428
00:24:44,349 --> 00:24:45,909
Oh, God.
429
00:24:46,383 --> 00:24:48,050
Time's up.
430
00:24:49,508 --> 00:24:50,633
Um, right.
431
00:24:50,658 --> 00:24:51,964
Uh, how much did you say it was?
432
00:24:51,989 --> 00:24:53,788
Uh, it's 175.
433
00:24:53,980 --> 00:24:55,511
I have this new little thing here.
434
00:24:55,536 --> 00:24:57,013
And I'll see you next Tuesday, right?
435
00:24:57,037 --> 00:24:59,628
Um, uh, I'll let you know, yeah.
436
00:24:59,653 --> 00:25:01,445
I don't know how in the hell.
437
00:25:01,470 --> 00:25:02,870
- It's this side and that...
- Down.
438
00:25:02,895 --> 00:25:04,770
- Down, down, down, down, down.
- Yep.
439
00:25:04,875 --> 00:25:07,125
Oh, my God. Look at that. There we go.
440
00:25:07,396 --> 00:25:11,355
You know, Darby, um,
between now and next week,
441
00:25:11,380 --> 00:25:14,172
I want you to reflect on what it is
442
00:25:14,197 --> 00:25:17,925
that makes you feel like
you don't deserve to be loved.
443
00:25:18,789 --> 00:25:20,997
I didn't say that.
444
00:25:40,432 --> 00:25:42,890
So why'd you do it, sweetheart?
445
00:25:45,776 --> 00:25:48,222
Clearly, this is about something else.
446
00:25:48,247 --> 00:25:50,792
Oh, it's... it's nothing.
It was just a...
447
00:25:50,817 --> 00:25:52,917
It was just a funny joke, really.
448
00:25:52,942 --> 00:25:55,609
It was stupid,
but it was just a stupid joke.
449
00:25:55,692 --> 00:25:57,284
Darby...
450
00:25:57,762 --> 00:26:00,230
you know we love you very much,
451
00:26:00,255 --> 00:26:02,255
but that is unacceptable.
452
00:26:02,389 --> 00:26:03,973
Claudia, that's not gonna help.
453
00:26:03,998 --> 00:26:05,790
Please don't undermine me.
454
00:26:06,312 --> 00:26:09,312
Is it our fault? Is it my fault?
455
00:26:12,195 --> 00:26:14,808
I'm just so sad.
456
00:26:19,325 --> 00:26:23,117
But I'm glad we're going home,
'cause I just...
457
00:26:24,818 --> 00:26:27,136
I just want to be home with you guys,
458
00:26:27,161 --> 00:26:29,011
even if you don't want me there.
459
00:26:29,036 --> 00:26:30,578
Oh.
460
00:26:30,603 --> 00:26:32,728
Of course we want you there.
461
00:26:32,753 --> 00:26:34,261
We love you.
462
00:26:35,906 --> 00:26:37,972
You haven't been here that long.
463
00:26:37,997 --> 00:26:40,122
I bet no one will even remember you.
464
00:26:47,606 --> 00:26:50,573
Darby did not return
to therapy after that,
465
00:26:50,800 --> 00:26:52,862
for she sensed that digging deeper
466
00:26:52,887 --> 00:26:56,053
would require her to
upend her entire life,
467
00:26:56,078 --> 00:26:59,119
which was built on the carefully
constructed fantasy
468
00:26:59,144 --> 00:27:01,955
that getting married
was some sort of proof,
469
00:27:01,980 --> 00:27:05,730
once and for all, that she was lovable.
470
00:27:07,387 --> 00:27:10,120
Babes, what are you doing?
471
00:27:10,672 --> 00:27:12,172
Let's go.
472
00:27:12,197 --> 00:27:13,489
Okay.