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Subtitles by explosiveskull
M_I_SForEver
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I wanna tell you about
my best friend in the world.
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That's a Canon C 300.
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It's being operated by Arsene,
our first camera operator.
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They concurrently are being shot
by Alvira Lynne,
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our B camera operator.
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I'm an actress.
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I mean, I'm acting right now.
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Normally, I'm a dancer
and a choreographer.
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I'm acting in this
because given all the dancing
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that's going to be happening,
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we thought it'd be more viable
for the dancers to pull off
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the acting required,
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than vice versa.
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I didn't write these words.
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They are written
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by what we as species
commonly refer to as a man.
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And the part I'll be playing,
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or playing the part of,
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is also,
for purposes of identification,
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a man.
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My name is Eden.
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That's me on the bed.
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And that...
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is Aviva,
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who wasn't aware all
these cameras would be here
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when we were introduced
by our common friend Nissan.
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Nissan is a man about town in
about a dozen different towns,
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New York, London,
Berlin, Barcelona, Paris.
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He speaks seven
or eight languages fluently,
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and each one of them,
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with whatever a loosh affected
accent is in that language.
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He's flamboyant,
though straight, and that heart,
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kind of a yenta who's always
looking to play matchmaker.
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He was living in
Paris at the time
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and was friends with Aviva,
who was a native there.
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I'm a dancer, too.
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Not exactly French, but...
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an accent is an accent.
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Nissan tried
to set Aviva up
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with some of his friends there.
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For whatever reason,
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nothing clicked.
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Then he thought of me.
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Living in New York,
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still reeling from
a devastating break up,
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to which my suicidal response
had led me to understand
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that I was dealing with
a deep and abiding depression
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I had been carrying
my entire life.
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And there's nothing
more depressing or lonely
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than being alone
in New York City.
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Nissan told me about
this amazing creature
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I had to meet right away.
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I was reluctant at first,
but after some convincing,
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I sent an email off
in to the Ether.
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It went like this:
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"Hey there Aviva
across the ocean,
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Eden here.
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I'm a friend of Nissan's.
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He told me I absolutely
must email you,
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which I'm very happy to do.
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I'm not sure what to say,
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but Nissan, I don't know
what you did to him,
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but it must have been something,
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was so emphatic
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that he almost got me
to get on a plane
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and come to Paris for some
event or I don't know what,
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this weekend.
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Unfortunately, I have to finish
this project I'm working on.
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I'm on a deadline so I really
can't do it right now.
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However, one of these days
I'll be out there.
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Do you ever leave Paris?
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What are you up to anyway?
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What do you do?
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Who are you actually?
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I'm a poor 76-year-old
Satmar Yeshiva student
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with a dead wife
and 14 children.
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The oldest of which
is already a grandfather.
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I live in Ustedalen, Krakow,
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if you are interested in
pursuing a correspondence,
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please email me back, E."
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And Aviva responded,
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"Dear E,
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Sounds good.
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I'm a 60-year-old virgin.
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Blind as a bat from a horrible
accident I had last year
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while cleaning my cat's claws.
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I have 61 cats.
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One for every year
of disappointment.
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I have a voice of a bird,
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one great boob,
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lost the other one
to cancer, and...
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got two cats that year
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and an appetite
for new experiences.
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Nissan kindly offered his help
in ending my curiosity
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and I guess you are his idea
of a perfect man for this job.
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Unfortunately,
with every moment that passes,
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my heart loses a little
bit of innocence,
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so I cannot offer you the love
I had in me on Wednesday.
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But
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I think I'll still be
happy to meet you,
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and your children.
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And who knows,
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maybe we'll fall in love
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and learn that life
is full of surprises.
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Waiting to hear more about you,
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A."
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♪ And oh ♪
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♪ Baby I love you ♪
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♪ I said oh ♪
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♪ Baby I love you ♪
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♪ Said oh ♪
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♪ Baby I love you ♪
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♪ I said oh ♪
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♪ Baby I love you ♪
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We quickly recognized
one another as kindred spirits
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and our desire to explore
and express our deepest selves.
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At least in words.
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And so we created an
imaginary space together.
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A space outside of time
and space, shared only by us.
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Like two shipwrecked survivors
on a desert island,
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in old-fashioned letter
writing romance,
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propelled in to hyper speed by
the actuality of the internet.
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After a few months
of correspondence
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we graduated
to phone conversations.
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These were somewhat
more problematic,
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as elements of our personalities
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that had been hidden
under the disguise
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provided by the written word,
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were exposed by the demands
of spoken communication.
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Aviva's assertiveness
and impatience took me aback.
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And my pessimism
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and need to denigrate myself
in relationships in general
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forced their way through
my better judgment
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and on to my tongue.
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But for all that
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our digital romance
ran hot and strong
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and Aviva decided
to pack a suitcase
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and venture forth
to visit me for a week
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and see what it would
be like to connect in person.
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There we go.
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Good, sweetie.
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Aviva.
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Oh, hi.
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Yeah, baby. Oh!
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Oh, that's it. Yes. Yes, oh.
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Come on, Eden.
You're a big boy.
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You can do it, come on.
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Come on, give a small pee-pee.
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You can do it.
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Aviva!
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No.
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Well,
it's just frustrating...
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Oh, my God.
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Aviva!
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Close the door Eden, come on.
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Hello?
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Hey.
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Uh, it's Eden.
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I know.
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Well, hello.
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You sound so different.
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Than what?
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Than I expected.
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How so?
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You sound so American.
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I am so American,
what did you expect?
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I don't know...
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do I sound different?
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You sound pretty
much the way I expected.
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Is it a good
moment to talk?
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Always a good
moment to talk to you.
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The time difference
is killing me.
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You have to meet my father.
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I never get along
with fathers.
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You will love him,
he's the smartest and funniest.
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- I'm a romanticist.
- Yeah until now.
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I think I'm a realist,
at least so far as...
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Neither is
a philosophy, just an emotion.
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I don't think
it's always smart
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to talk about everything,
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especially love,
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or past lovers.
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Why is that off limits?
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It's just better
to start new things, new.
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Tired of talking,
we need to meet.
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Yeah, so I'm coming.
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I already
bought the tickets.
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You did?
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Yes, I did.
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- You're really coming?
- I'm coming,
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I'm really coming.
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Sweet Aviva
across the ocean,
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I'm so excited to finally
see you face to face.
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Though I admit
to equally being afraid of it.
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It's all fun and games until
I actually have to be there.
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Is this your usual place?
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I don't know.
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You don't know?
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If I say it is,
and you're asking
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because you don't like it,
then I lose points.
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If you like it and I say
it isn't, I lose points.
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If you like it and I say yes,
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- I gain points...
- You're over thinking this.
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You know,
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I'm in town only for a few days
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and I know that we've known
each other for a while
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well, from across
the ocean anyway, but...
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I think it's best if we
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let the physical
take its own course.
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Not to push things right away.
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Where are you?
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Why don't you look at me?
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I'm looking at you.
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You're not looking at me.
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I'm looking at you.
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Look at me, in my eyes.
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Your eyes?
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Can't you make eye contact?
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Yeah, I mean...
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sure.
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Can I blink?
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Forget it.
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What?
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I can't do it if you're
going to make fun of me.
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I'm looking at your eyes.
That's what you asked me to do.
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- Not like that.
- Not like what?
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There's only one way to
look into someone's eyes.
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No, there's not.
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You think I don't see
what you're doing?
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What am I doing?
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I don't know.
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Taking a little look
at me here, my shoulder
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my neck, my foot maybe.
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Taking pictures of
things that turn you on.
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Fit in to some type of
pre-programmed sequence
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of triggers you're used
to responding to,
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making a pornographic
movie in your head
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and playing it even when
I'm right here, with you.
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Hey.
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Take it easy, okay?
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This is that moment when I
wonder
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what really happened to you
when you were a child.
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You know everything there
is to know about my childhood
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and it has nothing
to do with this.
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We really shouldn't have
written to each other so much
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before meeting in person.
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Do you regret getting
to know each other?
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I regret that all those words
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made us think we know
each other,
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when we really don't.
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So tell me I'm wrong.
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That's what I'm saying.
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No, look me in the eyes and...
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Jesus, with the eyes, already.
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Something I
never told Aviva,
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once when I was a child,
maybe four years old,
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my mother took me
to play in the park.
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And in those days, you know,
the park was perfect.
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A golden realm,
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suspended between
innocence and knowledge.
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A perfect place.
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I met another kid there,
about my age.
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We both had bikes
and we bonded instantly.
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00:18:30,627 --> 00:18:32,764
We made a connection
stronger than anything
266
00:18:32,797 --> 00:18:35,499
I normally experienced
with someone I just met.
267
00:18:37,334 --> 00:18:38,836
Our parents
must have sensed this,
268
00:18:38,870 --> 00:18:41,038
because my mother,
who was usually in a rush,
269
00:18:41,072 --> 00:18:43,406
let us play together
for a long time.
270
00:18:45,843 --> 00:18:47,577
It was heaven.
271
00:18:48,946 --> 00:18:50,715
But then, at some point,
272
00:18:51,548 --> 00:18:54,351
I noticed something
that struck me as strange.
273
00:19:02,059 --> 00:19:03,728
Your shoes are red.
274
00:19:04,361 --> 00:19:05,029
Yeah.
275
00:19:05,797 --> 00:19:07,665
Pretty weird for a boy.
276
00:19:07,999 --> 00:19:10,534
I'm not a boy, I'm a girl.
277
00:19:11,635 --> 00:19:13,370
I was stunned,
278
00:19:13,403 --> 00:19:14,071
betrayed.
279
00:19:14,939 --> 00:19:15,572
I felt like the bedrock
of reality
280
00:19:15,605 --> 00:19:17,842
had shifted under my feet.
281
00:19:25,582 --> 00:19:26,717
And that was that.
282
00:19:28,786 --> 00:19:29,921
Paradise lost.
283
00:19:31,621 --> 00:19:32,890
When will you be back?
284
00:19:34,058 --> 00:19:35,827
I don't know, not too late.
285
00:19:37,061 --> 00:19:39,130
I don't understand
why I can't come.
286
00:19:39,163 --> 00:19:41,565
It's not that you can't,
it's just...
287
00:19:42,432 --> 00:19:43,633
Aviva.
288
00:19:45,937 --> 00:19:48,471
I moved here three months ago.
289
00:19:48,940 --> 00:19:51,676
When I flew back to Paris
after my first visit,
290
00:19:52,143 --> 00:19:53,811
I wasn't sure about things
291
00:19:54,544 --> 00:19:57,347
but as soon as the space
between us opened up
292
00:19:57,782 --> 00:20:01,351
our love poured back in
and filled it up.
293
00:20:01,786 --> 00:20:03,486
So I closed my apartment
294
00:20:03,955 --> 00:20:06,356
and moved to America, for love.
295
00:20:06,924 --> 00:20:09,760
I feel the need to clarify that,
because, you know,
296
00:20:09,794 --> 00:20:12,129
my friends at home
and people here, they're like,
297
00:20:12,163 --> 00:20:15,398
"If you make it work
with Eden for three years
298
00:20:15,800 --> 00:20:17,168
you'll get a green card."
299
00:20:17,201 --> 00:20:18,468
And I'm like,
300
00:20:19,569 --> 00:20:21,138
"I don't give a fuck about
the fucking green card!
301
00:20:21,172 --> 00:20:23,975
I don't give a fuck about
this disgusting country,
302
00:20:24,008 --> 00:20:26,978
I don't give a fuck about
becoming a fucking American."
303
00:20:27,011 --> 00:20:28,445
I came here
304
00:20:28,478 --> 00:20:29,546
for only one reason.
305
00:20:29,579 --> 00:20:30,580
Aviva,
306
00:20:31,716 --> 00:20:34,517
you know all my friends
and they all think you're great,
307
00:20:34,785 --> 00:20:37,487
I just need some time out
with the guys sometimes.
308
00:20:37,722 --> 00:20:38,689
Know what I mean?
309
00:20:38,723 --> 00:20:39,657
No.
310
00:20:39,991 --> 00:20:41,591
What do you mean, no?
311
00:20:41,625 --> 00:20:43,761
I mean what can you talk about
with your friends alone,
312
00:20:43,794 --> 00:20:45,997
that you can't talk
about with me there?
313
00:20:46,030 --> 00:20:47,530
You, for starters.
314
00:20:48,065 --> 00:20:50,034
What are you going
to say about me?
315
00:20:50,500 --> 00:20:51,736
I'm not...
316
00:20:52,937 --> 00:20:55,006
It's not like I have
anything planned.
317
00:20:55,039 --> 00:20:57,540
I just need some
perspective sometimes.
318
00:21:01,879 --> 00:21:03,580
Who's going to be there?
319
00:21:04,248 --> 00:21:05,582
I don't know.
320
00:21:06,851 --> 00:21:08,886
Mason, for sure.
321
00:21:09,586 --> 00:21:12,589
Dave Mazolla, Aaron Butts,
322
00:21:12,622 --> 00:21:14,959
Kieren, Tony Takata,
323
00:21:15,726 --> 00:21:17,161
you know, Mason's usual gang.
324
00:21:18,763 --> 00:21:20,965
You just don't want me
to come because you're in love
325
00:21:20,998 --> 00:21:22,099
with Mason.
326
00:21:22,733 --> 00:21:24,534
I'm not in love
with Mason,
327
00:21:24,567 --> 00:21:26,103
he's my best friend
328
00:21:26,137 --> 00:21:28,806
and sometimes I just need
some alone time with him.
329
00:21:29,206 --> 00:21:30,808
Is that okay with you?
330
00:21:32,143 --> 00:21:34,178
Go. Have fun.
331
00:21:34,812 --> 00:21:36,881
Be gay with Mason
and your usual gang,
332
00:21:36,914 --> 00:21:39,449
I'll stay home and watch
something on TV.
333
00:21:40,718 --> 00:21:43,054
- Where's Mason at?
- Ah, fuck Mason.
334
00:21:43,087 --> 00:21:46,556
You think Eden would hang
with us if Mason wasn't here?
335
00:21:48,125 --> 00:21:50,728
Girl's got him
under lock and keys.
336
00:21:50,761 --> 00:21:52,229
She's fine though.
337
00:21:56,667 --> 00:21:58,601
Super powers.
338
00:22:00,071 --> 00:22:03,207
X-Men, F.F.
were hit by cosmic rays.
339
00:22:03,908 --> 00:22:06,077
- Mason!
- Mason!
340
00:24:52,743 --> 00:24:55,079
♪ I love you ♪
341
00:24:55,479 --> 00:24:57,748
♪ Like chisel and stone ♪
342
00:25:00,351 --> 00:25:03,220
♪ I love you ♪
343
00:25:03,254 --> 00:25:05,189
♪ Like needle and bone ♪
344
00:25:08,058 --> 00:25:10,027
♪ I love you ♪
345
00:25:10,761 --> 00:25:13,697
♪ Like a God loves his son ♪
346
00:25:15,266 --> 00:25:16,901
♪ And I love you ♪
347
00:25:18,102 --> 00:25:20,371
♪ Like my hand on a gun ♪
348
00:25:22,740 --> 00:25:27,111
♪ I go bang, bang
Bang, bang, bang ♪
349
00:25:27,444 --> 00:25:30,014
♪ Bang, bang, I'm back ♪
350
00:25:30,047 --> 00:25:32,082
♪ Back again ♪
351
00:25:33,417 --> 00:25:34,919
♪ I love you ♪
352
00:25:41,325 --> 00:25:44,995
♪ Bang, bang, bang Bang, bang. ♪
353
00:25:45,462 --> 00:25:47,831
♪ Bang shebang I'm back ♪
354
00:25:48,232 --> 00:25:50,000
♪ Back again ♪
355
00:25:57,241 --> 00:26:01,178
♪ I can't think about
Anything but you ♪
356
00:26:04,982 --> 00:26:09,253
♪ That's how I love, love, love
Love, love, love, love ♪
357
00:27:00,871 --> 00:27:02,006
Aviva?
358
00:27:04,141 --> 00:27:05,409
I'm home.
359
00:27:17,454 --> 00:27:18,455
Hey.
360
00:27:19,189 --> 00:27:20,958
I was just about to go to sleep.
361
00:27:20,991 --> 00:27:23,294
Aviva, I'm sorry you could've
come, it's just the guys...
362
00:27:23,327 --> 00:27:24,295
It's all right.
363
00:27:25,529 --> 00:27:27,931
I'm sorry, too. I know you need
to breathe once in a while.
364
00:27:27,965 --> 00:27:29,600
I actually got a lot done.
365
00:27:29,633 --> 00:27:32,836
I made a lot of phone calls, set
up some things for this week.
366
00:27:33,103 --> 00:27:34,605
I've been sitting
on my ass too long.
367
00:27:34,638 --> 00:27:36,073
Waiting for things to happen.
368
00:27:36,106 --> 00:27:37,241
You've been adjusting.
369
00:27:37,274 --> 00:27:38,542
No, that's not it.
370
00:27:39,043 --> 00:27:40,944
You don't know, you never
really saw me at home.
371
00:27:40,978 --> 00:27:43,314
I'm always making things happen,
almost too much.
372
00:27:43,347 --> 00:27:44,815
Go, go, go all the time.
373
00:27:45,382 --> 00:27:47,518
You know my friends wouldn't
even recognize me.
374
00:27:49,153 --> 00:27:51,188
Something happened
when I came here.
375
00:27:54,058 --> 00:27:56,026
But enough is enough, no?
376
00:27:58,062 --> 00:27:59,296
I'm back.
377
00:28:13,110 --> 00:28:15,312
Pull me, pull me like this hard.
378
00:28:21,518 --> 00:28:22,453
Coming.
379
00:28:34,598 --> 00:28:36,100
That was fast.
380
00:28:36,400 --> 00:28:37,534
Yeah.
381
00:28:37,568 --> 00:28:39,536
That's how I am normally
when I'm happy.
382
00:28:40,204 --> 00:28:41,438
It's amazing.
383
00:28:48,245 --> 00:28:49,513
- Come on.
- What?
384
00:28:50,247 --> 00:28:52,483
I want you to finish, too.
Come on.
385
00:28:52,516 --> 00:28:53,550
Okay.
386
00:28:54,017 --> 00:28:55,619
What are you doing?
387
00:28:56,420 --> 00:28:58,188
- Can I get on top again?
- Why?
388
00:28:58,222 --> 00:28:59,123
I...
389
00:28:59,957 --> 00:29:02,426
- I just don't finish like this.
- Like what?
390
00:29:03,193 --> 00:29:04,328
When I'm...
391
00:29:04,361 --> 00:29:06,163
when I'm on the bottom.
392
00:29:06,196 --> 00:29:07,498
You don't?
393
00:29:07,531 --> 00:29:09,166
You can't or you don't want to?
394
00:29:09,199 --> 00:29:10,934
Just, I won't, okay?
395
00:29:11,235 --> 00:29:12,469
How do you know?
396
00:29:13,303 --> 00:29:14,905
'Cos I know myself.
397
00:29:15,372 --> 00:29:17,474
- You know yourself?
- Yeah.
398
00:29:18,008 --> 00:29:19,376
Doesn't seem so to me.
399
00:29:20,745 --> 00:29:23,180
You know for someone
who just had a nice orgasm
400
00:29:23,213 --> 00:29:25,983
in record time and expressed
the desire to return the favor,
401
00:29:26,016 --> 00:29:27,618
you have an odd
way of showing it.
402
00:29:27,651 --> 00:29:30,521
- I'm sorry. You're right.
- No you're not.
403
00:29:30,554 --> 00:29:31,989
I'm sorry, come here.
404
00:29:32,022 --> 00:29:33,658
- Forget it.
- Come on, I'm sorry.
405
00:29:33,691 --> 00:29:36,160
Look, it's not gonna happen,
okay?
406
00:29:37,662 --> 00:29:38,595
Forget it.
407
00:29:54,344 --> 00:29:56,013
I had
a perfect place once, too.
408
00:29:56,046 --> 00:29:57,281
And not so long ago.
409
00:30:01,285 --> 00:30:02,519
It was a room.
410
00:30:03,187 --> 00:30:04,388
A white room.
411
00:30:04,421 --> 00:30:05,956
Everything was white.
412
00:30:07,124 --> 00:30:08,425
The walls, the bed,
413
00:30:09,526 --> 00:30:11,128
the covering on the furniture.
414
00:30:11,763 --> 00:30:13,564
The shades were white
415
00:30:13,597 --> 00:30:16,066
and the light that came in
through the window was white.
416
00:30:16,768 --> 00:30:18,569
The reason it
was perfect, though,
417
00:30:19,169 --> 00:30:20,705
was that Phillippe was in it.
418
00:30:22,473 --> 00:30:24,074
I met him in the Marais.
419
00:30:26,376 --> 00:30:29,213
He was serving falafel
at this place called Che Habib.
420
00:30:29,613 --> 00:30:31,615
People stand
in line for an hour.
421
00:30:34,218 --> 00:30:35,419
He was so beautiful.
422
00:30:36,453 --> 00:30:38,555
Black hair, black eyes.
423
00:30:39,089 --> 00:30:40,624
He had just come from Morocco.
424
00:30:41,158 --> 00:30:43,060
A Jew, like me.
425
00:30:47,732 --> 00:30:50,334
I never thought he
would be interested in me,
426
00:30:50,367 --> 00:30:51,435
but he was.
427
00:30:52,569 --> 00:30:54,371
It's true, we didn't have
very much to talk about,
428
00:30:54,571 --> 00:30:56,373
but we didn't need to talk.
429
00:31:13,290 --> 00:31:14,792
He lived with his family
430
00:31:14,826 --> 00:31:17,060
and I lived with a few
girlfriends in the Tenth.
431
00:31:17,094 --> 00:31:19,363
So I found us
an apartment of our own,
432
00:31:19,396 --> 00:31:20,597
just a room, really.
433
00:31:20,631 --> 00:31:21,766
But it was ours,
434
00:31:22,466 --> 00:31:23,567
our white room.
435
00:31:52,329 --> 00:31:53,630
I had been hurting myself.
436
00:31:54,531 --> 00:31:56,466
Cutting myself, for years.
437
00:31:57,601 --> 00:31:59,136
And when he kissed me,
438
00:31:59,737 --> 00:32:01,673
the scars in my flesh remained,
439
00:32:02,439 --> 00:32:04,842
but the wounds in my heart
and soul were healed.
440
00:32:05,442 --> 00:32:08,178
And I was filled with
a light more pure and white
441
00:32:08,478 --> 00:32:10,715
than the light filling
our perfect room.
442
00:32:13,885 --> 00:32:16,520
We lived for each other,
or at least
443
00:32:16,921 --> 00:32:18,322
I lived for him.
444
00:32:18,856 --> 00:32:20,457
I stopped almost everything.
445
00:32:20,758 --> 00:32:22,459
I hardly saw my family,
446
00:32:22,894 --> 00:32:24,127
my friends,
447
00:32:25,095 --> 00:32:27,364
I worked just enough
to help us get by.
448
00:32:28,298 --> 00:32:30,267
I cooked, I cleaned,
449
00:32:30,300 --> 00:32:32,369
I made sure our
room was spotless.
450
00:32:40,177 --> 00:32:41,244
I guess I lied,
451
00:32:42,512 --> 00:32:45,449
when I say my friends wouldn't
recognize me here in New York.
452
00:32:48,185 --> 00:32:50,220
They would recognize
me very well.
453
00:32:51,221 --> 00:32:52,824
How I am when I'm trying to...
454
00:32:53,323 --> 00:32:54,324
Trying to what?
455
00:32:56,193 --> 00:32:57,394
Experience love.
456
00:32:58,930 --> 00:33:02,366
You feel like you have to give
up who you are in order to love?
457
00:33:04,568 --> 00:33:07,337
In order to experience
love in return, yeah.
458
00:33:08,773 --> 00:33:12,275
You think no-one will love you,
if they know who you are?
459
00:33:13,577 --> 00:33:14,645
I don't know.
460
00:33:20,250 --> 00:33:21,351
Do you love me?
461
00:33:26,289 --> 00:33:27,357
Aviva.
462
00:33:29,593 --> 00:33:30,695
You okay?
463
00:33:31,328 --> 00:33:32,596
I should be asking you that.
464
00:33:32,629 --> 00:33:33,497
Me?
465
00:33:35,232 --> 00:33:36,466
You were angry.
466
00:33:37,334 --> 00:33:39,369
It's okay. Everything's back to
normal.
467
00:33:39,403 --> 00:33:40,972
Sorry, I should open a window.
468
00:33:41,005 --> 00:33:42,539
What are you thinking about?
469
00:33:44,307 --> 00:33:46,878
Nothing, everything, you know?
470
00:33:47,845 --> 00:33:49,714
I was thinking about Phillippe.
471
00:33:53,483 --> 00:33:54,584
What about him?
472
00:33:55,619 --> 00:33:57,955
Actually, I was thinking
more about me with him.
473
00:33:58,622 --> 00:34:00,624
Why I'm always
the same when I'm...
474
00:34:00,958 --> 00:34:03,326
- When you're what?
- In a relationship.
475
00:34:03,360 --> 00:34:05,763
- Everything's a relationship.
- With men.
476
00:34:07,699 --> 00:34:09,801
I'm glad to know I
inspire a generalized
477
00:34:09,834 --> 00:34:12,602
Pavlovian reaction
to an entire gender.
478
00:34:12,636 --> 00:34:14,604
And you think you're
different with me
479
00:34:14,638 --> 00:34:16,640
than you are with any
other woman you attract?
480
00:34:17,942 --> 00:34:20,610
You never said why you
and Phillippe broke up.
481
00:34:20,644 --> 00:34:21,511
I told you.
482
00:34:22,345 --> 00:34:23,613
No, you said you
were heartbroken,
483
00:34:23,881 --> 00:34:25,582
you moved back
with your parents,
484
00:34:25,615 --> 00:34:27,484
that you couldn't get out
of bed for more than a year,
485
00:34:27,517 --> 00:34:30,253
but you never said why
the relationship ended.
486
00:34:30,788 --> 00:34:33,223
It ended because he
became religious.
487
00:34:33,691 --> 00:34:34,692
You're joking.
488
00:34:35,459 --> 00:34:37,561
And he wanted me to be the same.
489
00:34:37,594 --> 00:34:38,930
And I tried, too.
490
00:34:39,529 --> 00:34:41,331
I tried to learn all the laws
491
00:34:41,364 --> 00:34:43,567
and lit the candles on Shabbat,
492
00:34:43,600 --> 00:34:45,402
and cooked only Kosher food...
493
00:34:46,503 --> 00:34:47,537
What?
494
00:34:49,539 --> 00:34:50,540
It's funny.
495
00:34:53,477 --> 00:34:54,979
Did he grow payots?
496
00:34:55,479 --> 00:34:56,546
Actually, he did.
497
00:34:57,014 --> 00:34:58,448
Was he sexy?
498
00:34:59,649 --> 00:35:02,720
Did he look hot?
Naked, with his payots?
499
00:35:03,654 --> 00:35:05,957
Better than you do,
without them.
500
00:35:07,759 --> 00:35:08,726
I tried.
501
00:35:09,060 --> 00:35:10,360
But I couldn't.
502
00:35:11,662 --> 00:35:12,596
I felt like a
503
00:35:12,830 --> 00:35:14,297
terrible person.
504
00:35:14,665 --> 00:35:15,867
A sinner.
505
00:35:16,533 --> 00:35:17,668
I didn't eat,
506
00:35:17,969 --> 00:35:19,302
I didn't sleep, I...
507
00:35:19,636 --> 00:35:22,673
I was thin like this,
maybe 40 kilos.
508
00:35:25,076 --> 00:35:27,879
Finally my friends had
to make an intervention
509
00:35:28,578 --> 00:35:30,782
and they told me I was
going crazy
510
00:35:31,414 --> 00:35:32,717
and I saw I was.
511
00:35:36,788 --> 00:35:37,789
So I left him.
512
00:35:38,956 --> 00:35:40,557
You left him?
513
00:35:41,926 --> 00:35:42,794
I packed my
suitcase when he was at work
514
00:35:42,827 --> 00:35:44,796
and went back to
my parents' house.
515
00:35:45,730 --> 00:35:48,065
And I never saw
our white room again.
516
00:35:48,900 --> 00:35:50,500
Your white room?
517
00:35:51,401 --> 00:35:52,837
My own perfect place.
518
00:35:53,570 --> 00:35:55,873
Like the park you
never told me about.
519
00:35:56,674 --> 00:35:57,909
You see,
520
00:35:58,475 --> 00:36:00,044
I lost paradise, too.
521
00:36:14,859 --> 00:36:16,593
And now you're here.
522
00:36:16,626 --> 00:36:17,895
Now I'm here.
523
00:36:18,562 --> 00:36:19,429
But?
524
00:36:20,397 --> 00:36:21,732
I'm happy
I'm here, but...
525
00:36:21,766 --> 00:36:23,533
I hate this apartment.
526
00:36:23,567 --> 00:36:24,501
So?
527
00:36:25,002 --> 00:36:26,369
We'll move.
528
00:36:26,403 --> 00:36:28,005
This is a great space.
529
00:36:28,438 --> 00:36:30,373
and it's in a great
neighborhood.
530
00:36:30,407 --> 00:36:31,108
Is it?
531
00:36:31,142 --> 00:36:32,710
The best. Where are you from?
532
00:36:33,010 --> 00:36:34,846
- Paris.
- Oh, Paris.
533
00:36:34,879 --> 00:36:37,982
- What a beautiful city.
- Have you been there?
534
00:36:38,015 --> 00:36:40,117
No, but I plan
on visiting someday.
535
00:36:40,151 --> 00:36:43,553
These windows have a rare view
for this part of town.
536
00:36:43,587 --> 00:36:45,455
Which I'm sure
your husband can tell you.
537
00:36:45,488 --> 00:36:46,991
Oh, Eden's not my husband.
538
00:36:47,024 --> 00:36:48,793
We're together, but not married.
539
00:36:48,826 --> 00:36:50,161
- Not yet.
- Not yet.
540
00:36:50,194 --> 00:36:51,996
You like
this neighborhood, baby?
541
00:36:52,029 --> 00:36:53,430
Sure.
542
00:36:53,463 --> 00:36:55,099
This apartment
is an absolute steal.
543
00:36:55,132 --> 00:36:57,902
Now, it's a little cozy
but the light is fantastic,
544
00:36:57,935 --> 00:36:59,402
southern exposure,
545
00:36:59,436 --> 00:37:01,105
which you rarely get
in a place this cheap,
546
00:37:01,138 --> 00:37:02,673
especially in the bedrooms.
547
00:37:02,707 --> 00:37:04,474
Did you see the bedrooms, baby?
548
00:37:07,544 --> 00:37:10,114
All the units in this building
are brand new.
549
00:37:10,513 --> 00:37:12,850
Central heat and air,
550
00:37:12,884 --> 00:37:14,451
all the appliances.
551
00:37:14,752 --> 00:37:15,987
It's a great size,
552
00:37:16,020 --> 00:37:17,922
it doesn't have
much character, but...
553
00:37:18,521 --> 00:37:20,858
Eden likes things simple,
right baby?
554
00:37:21,659 --> 00:37:22,927
Whatever.
555
00:37:25,528 --> 00:37:26,496
Eden?
556
00:37:27,564 --> 00:37:29,800
I'm sick of the way
you're acting, you hear me?
557
00:37:29,834 --> 00:37:30,968
How am I acting?
558
00:37:31,202 --> 00:37:33,137
Like you want to be
anywhere but here.
559
00:37:33,570 --> 00:37:35,973
I didn't like the place,
what am I supposed to do?
560
00:37:36,007 --> 00:37:39,643
Jump up and down and grin like a
fool until we walk out the door?
561
00:37:39,677 --> 00:37:40,610
You know what?
562
00:37:40,878 --> 00:37:42,046
You stay home,
563
00:37:42,079 --> 00:37:43,647
I'll do it alone.
564
00:37:43,681 --> 00:37:47,151
I'll talk to the realtors,
I'll make the appointments,
565
00:37:47,184 --> 00:37:50,520
I'll go see all the places
until I find something amazing
566
00:37:50,553 --> 00:37:51,488
to show you.
567
00:37:51,722 --> 00:37:53,024
Think that might work?
568
00:38:02,133 --> 00:38:03,668
Proud of yourself?
569
00:38:05,903 --> 00:38:07,004
You talking to me?
570
00:38:08,039 --> 00:38:10,507
Well, I'm the only one here,
you talking to me?
571
00:38:11,541 --> 00:38:12,810
But you ain't in gay Paris.
572
00:38:12,843 --> 00:38:14,544
Go grab a crepe
and your Suzette,
573
00:38:14,577 --> 00:38:16,747
get your ass up
'cos it's about to get gritty.
574
00:38:16,781 --> 00:38:19,050
I'm gonna remind you,
in case you forget,
575
00:38:19,083 --> 00:38:21,518
this boy came up
in New York City.
576
00:38:21,551 --> 00:38:23,586
Yeah boy, you're
in or house now,
577
00:38:23,620 --> 00:38:25,823
so watch where you beef my dog,
know what I'm sayin'?
578
00:38:25,856 --> 00:38:27,258
Mark Gold in the house.
579
00:38:27,291 --> 00:38:29,260
Ran with this bad boy
from when we were six
580
00:38:29,293 --> 00:38:30,627
'till we turned 13.
581
00:38:30,661 --> 00:38:31,963
Dropped out
of each other's lives.
582
00:38:31,996 --> 00:38:33,264
You know how it is,
583
00:38:33,297 --> 00:38:34,966
but he's in my mind
and these streets are his.
584
00:38:34,999 --> 00:38:37,567
Hey, yo guys
Left yo shit in the lunch room.
585
00:38:37,600 --> 00:38:39,170
Get off me.
586
00:38:39,203 --> 00:38:41,072
Adam Fink,
world's nerdiest, yet.
587
00:38:41,105 --> 00:38:44,607
Not saying a lot, bust a move
kid, show 'em what you've got.
588
00:38:50,314 --> 00:38:52,615
I thought you moved
out of town, to the country.
589
00:38:52,649 --> 00:38:54,151
Man, you can take
the boy out of the city,
590
00:38:54,185 --> 00:38:55,953
but you can't take
the city out of the boy.
591
00:38:55,987 --> 00:38:57,188
That's what I'm saying.
592
00:38:57,221 --> 00:38:58,923
That's what he's been sayin' yo.
593
00:38:58,956 --> 00:39:01,524
- Shorty comes in my house,
- In your house!
594
00:39:01,558 --> 00:39:03,861
Starts throwing her weight
around like I'm her bitch.
595
00:39:03,894 --> 00:39:05,663
Man, she don't know
who she's fucking with.
596
00:39:05,696 --> 00:39:07,264
Been taking the deed
and combing with crew
597
00:39:07,298 --> 00:39:09,100
since I was like 10
years old, dog.
598
00:39:09,133 --> 00:39:11,002
Been mugged on every
corner on the Upper West Side
599
00:39:11,035 --> 00:39:13,070
between Central Park West
and Riverside drive.
600
00:39:13,104 --> 00:39:16,173
Stole candy and comic books from
every news stand in the hood
601
00:39:16,207 --> 00:39:18,575
since the day I started
whacking off, son.
602
00:39:20,277 --> 00:39:22,179
And she gonna tell
you what to do?
603
00:39:22,213 --> 00:39:25,548
- Man, show her how we do, dog.
- Man, show her how we do.
604
00:39:26,616 --> 00:39:27,718
Let's go.
605
00:39:32,023 --> 00:39:33,824
Oh yeah, Mark. Okay. Slow mo'.
606
00:39:33,858 --> 00:39:36,160
Yeah. Get it Mark. Get it.
607
00:39:36,193 --> 00:39:37,228
Get it.
608
00:39:39,330 --> 00:39:40,630
Pass it, my turn.
609
00:39:41,198 --> 00:39:42,233
Go Adam.
610
00:39:44,935 --> 00:39:46,003
Oh!
611
00:39:50,307 --> 00:39:51,608
Coney Island, baby.
612
00:41:12,423 --> 00:41:13,623
You won't regret it.
613
00:41:17,061 --> 00:41:20,764
It's by far the best place in
the entire city, for the price.
614
00:41:20,798 --> 00:41:22,733
It's a done deal, Aviva.
615
00:41:22,766 --> 00:41:24,869
Signed, sealed and delivered.
616
00:41:25,936 --> 00:41:27,771
You sure you'll be all right?
617
00:41:28,839 --> 00:41:29,974
I will be.
618
00:41:30,274 --> 00:41:32,009
Things are just moving fast.
619
00:41:33,277 --> 00:41:35,779
I've been here for
nearly half a year.
620
00:41:40,451 --> 00:41:41,719
I'll be fine.
621
00:41:42,720 --> 00:41:45,222
I just need things
to slow down, for a beat.
622
00:41:45,856 --> 00:41:48,092
Marriage
is your only option.
623
00:41:48,459 --> 00:41:50,861
I mean, if you want to
stay in the country
624
00:41:50,895 --> 00:41:52,196
legally, of course.
625
00:41:52,863 --> 00:41:55,032
I thought it was only
if I have to fly
626
00:41:55,065 --> 00:41:57,334
out and back
until I get my green card.
627
00:41:57,968 --> 00:42:00,171
New immigration
laws are in place.
628
00:42:00,905 --> 00:42:04,975
If you want to stay here
legally, and work here legally,
629
00:42:05,009 --> 00:42:07,211
you need a special dispensation
630
00:42:07,244 --> 00:42:09,313
which takes months to file for
631
00:42:09,346 --> 00:42:11,715
and might take years
to go through,
632
00:42:11,749 --> 00:42:14,018
with no guarantee of success.
633
00:42:15,753 --> 00:42:17,254
I can't do that.
634
00:42:17,288 --> 00:42:19,924
I can only present the options
available to you.
635
00:42:21,425 --> 00:42:24,361
Six months
ago, before I moved here,
636
00:42:24,395 --> 00:42:26,063
Eden sent me an email that said
637
00:42:26,297 --> 00:42:28,699
"My sweet Aviva
across the ocean,
638
00:42:29,533 --> 00:42:32,236
I can't believe this thing
we're having between us.
639
00:42:32,903 --> 00:42:35,272
Are you really leaving Paris
to be with me?
640
00:42:36,173 --> 00:42:39,743
I never, ever expected
something like this to happen.
641
00:42:39,777 --> 00:42:40,911
Not the way it has.
642
00:42:42,413 --> 00:42:44,014
Not with someone like you.
643
00:42:46,417 --> 00:42:48,219
I feel like a leaf in the wind,
644
00:42:48,485 --> 00:42:50,421
like my life is a strange dream.
645
00:42:51,555 --> 00:42:53,757
I'm the same actor
that I've always been,
646
00:42:53,791 --> 00:42:54,992
playing the same role,
647
00:42:55,359 --> 00:42:56,894
but there's no script anymore.
648
00:42:57,294 --> 00:43:00,064
The play doesn't
have a structure I understand.
649
00:43:00,097 --> 00:43:02,199
The way I fit into
the totality of it
650
00:43:02,233 --> 00:43:03,934
is a complete mystery to me.
651
00:43:05,002 --> 00:43:06,203
And I'm lost.
652
00:43:06,570 --> 00:43:07,938
I'm totally lost.
653
00:43:11,008 --> 00:43:13,444
I'm so grateful to you
for feeling for me.
654
00:43:15,079 --> 00:43:17,248
But I can't believe that you're
willing to anchor yourself
655
00:43:17,281 --> 00:43:18,849
to someone so lost
656
00:43:18,882 --> 00:43:20,985
and blindly wandering
through the fog.
657
00:43:24,021 --> 00:43:26,924
If there's anything that scares
me about our relationship,
658
00:43:27,124 --> 00:43:28,926
is that I'm going
to have to adjust
659
00:43:28,959 --> 00:43:30,527
to being a real person again,
660
00:43:30,561 --> 00:43:32,329
if that makes any sense at all.
661
00:43:32,863 --> 00:43:34,398
I'm trying not to allow my fear
662
00:43:34,431 --> 00:43:37,067
to fuck up the most incredible
thing in my life,
663
00:43:37,534 --> 00:43:38,869
which is you.
664
00:43:39,403 --> 00:43:40,504
You are amazing.
665
00:43:41,772 --> 00:43:44,375
You're wise and challenging and
open to adjusting and changing.
666
00:43:44,608 --> 00:43:48,178
And you never fail to step up
when the situation calls for it.
667
00:43:49,046 --> 00:43:50,314
I'm lucky to know you.
668
00:43:51,148 --> 00:43:52,182
I want you in my life.
669
00:43:53,484 --> 00:43:56,487
I'm on my knees,
begging you to be in my life.
670
00:43:59,456 --> 00:44:00,524
You are life.
671
00:44:02,960 --> 00:44:04,495
That's
what he said then.
672
00:44:05,029 --> 00:44:07,298
- Now he's saying...
- I'm sorry.
673
00:44:08,165 --> 00:44:10,834
- It's just papers Eden.
- Yeah, it's papers,
674
00:44:10,868 --> 00:44:14,138
it's marriage and commitment.
It's marriage, Aviva.
675
00:44:14,171 --> 00:44:17,941
It's marriage so that we can see
if we want to be married.
676
00:44:18,542 --> 00:44:20,577
Are you saying that you
don't want to be with me?
677
00:44:20,611 --> 00:44:22,112
No, that's not what I'm saying.
678
00:44:22,146 --> 00:44:23,447
Then what are you saying?
679
00:44:24,615 --> 00:44:27,384
Just that I'm not ready
to get married so fast.
680
00:44:28,285 --> 00:44:31,322
Are you ready to come to
Paris to live with me there?
681
00:44:31,355 --> 00:44:32,556
You know I can't do that.
682
00:44:33,758 --> 00:44:36,060
You know, I didn't know
you were so fucking bourgeois
683
00:44:36,093 --> 00:44:38,195
that you make such a
big deal out of marriage.
684
00:44:38,629 --> 00:44:40,431
It's a legal exercise,
something that
685
00:44:40,464 --> 00:44:43,567
allows us to be together so
that we can explore our love!
686
00:44:44,234 --> 00:44:46,970
I can't believe you would allow
everything to end over
687
00:44:47,004 --> 00:44:49,306
some bureaucratic bullshit,
you know.
688
00:44:49,340 --> 00:44:50,341
Fuck it!
689
00:45:08,359 --> 00:45:09,960
Hey, baby.
690
00:45:12,296 --> 00:45:13,364
You're right.
691
00:45:13,630 --> 00:45:15,265
Baby.
692
00:45:17,468 --> 00:45:18,902
Let's do it.
693
00:45:21,105 --> 00:45:22,373
Stop crying.
694
00:45:23,407 --> 00:45:26,377
It's just papers. You're right.
695
00:45:31,281 --> 00:45:33,450
Thank you.
I love you so much.
696
00:45:35,619 --> 00:45:38,656
- I love you, too.
- Thank you.
697
00:45:40,290 --> 00:45:42,126
Of course.
698
00:45:49,500 --> 00:45:51,368
It's a beautiful night
in your city.
699
00:45:51,402 --> 00:45:52,236
Hmm.
700
00:45:54,037 --> 00:45:55,439
Want to take a walk in it?
701
00:45:55,673 --> 00:45:57,007
Uh-huh.
702
00:45:59,042 --> 00:46:00,144
Uhm...
703
00:46:00,177 --> 00:46:02,045
Give me a moment
to recompose myself.
704
00:46:02,079 --> 00:46:03,013
Of course.
705
00:46:38,081 --> 00:46:39,684
Dear God, thank you.
706
00:46:41,084 --> 00:46:43,454
Thank you for bringing
Aviva in to my life.
707
00:46:44,188 --> 00:46:45,690
I know I've been so cut off
708
00:46:45,723 --> 00:46:49,159
and how hard it's been for me to
connect to the gift of this life
709
00:46:49,193 --> 00:46:50,227
in the present moment...
710
00:46:50,260 --> 00:46:51,328
Stop.
711
00:46:54,031 --> 00:46:55,399
I've been cut off from myself
for so long
712
00:46:55,432 --> 00:46:57,167
that I've forgotten
what it's like to make
713
00:46:57,201 --> 00:47:00,204
choices based on a positive
connection to this life...
714
00:47:00,237 --> 00:47:01,104
Stop.
715
00:47:02,039 --> 00:47:04,408
Aviva is so strong and alive
716
00:47:04,441 --> 00:47:06,711
and brave... Please, stop!
717
00:47:07,812 --> 00:47:10,647
She's brave and she' a fighter
and I thank you for this
718
00:47:10,682 --> 00:47:13,183
opportunity, so that I
can move in the direction
719
00:47:13,217 --> 00:47:16,353
that I wouldn't have been able
to if I was on... Just stop it!
720
00:47:16,721 --> 00:47:19,056
Aviva is an example of courage
721
00:47:19,089 --> 00:47:21,358
and spirit and I thank you
for this opportunity
722
00:47:21,391 --> 00:47:22,727
to learn from her.
723
00:47:22,760 --> 00:47:24,428
Thank you for presenting me
with constant beauty
724
00:47:24,461 --> 00:47:26,798
when all I've done
is cast a pall of my own making
725
00:47:26,831 --> 00:47:29,132
over the shimmering beauty
of creation.
726
00:47:29,166 --> 00:47:31,468
Thank you for giving me a chance
so that I can have
727
00:47:31,502 --> 00:47:34,238
love and connection
and growth and joy,
728
00:47:34,271 --> 00:47:36,173
even when my every thought has
been turned against you
729
00:47:36,206 --> 00:47:38,075
in anger and ingratitude.
730
00:47:38,108 --> 00:47:40,611
Thank you for bringing Aviva
in to my life.
731
00:47:40,644 --> 00:47:44,114
Thank you for giving me a chance
to say yes rather than no.
732
00:47:44,147 --> 00:47:46,049
Thank you for someone
who'll actually
733
00:47:46,083 --> 00:47:48,151
fight for me, someone who I
734
00:47:48,185 --> 00:47:49,520
can fight for a yes.
735
00:47:49,553 --> 00:47:51,723
Thank you for someone
who will fight for me...
736
00:47:51,756 --> 00:47:52,790
Just stop it!
737
00:47:53,791 --> 00:47:55,526
Thank you for someone who will
fight me for g...
738
00:47:55,559 --> 00:47:57,027
Just stop it already!
739
00:47:57,427 --> 00:47:59,463
Fucking shit! Just stop it.
740
00:47:59,831 --> 00:48:03,300
For one God damn second!
Can you just sit still?
741
00:48:03,868 --> 00:48:06,136
Put your fucking clothes on.
742
00:48:06,470 --> 00:48:07,638
Please.
743
00:48:28,525 --> 00:48:29,626
You ready?
744
00:48:35,700 --> 00:48:36,734
Just go.
745
00:48:37,334 --> 00:48:38,569
You go.
746
00:48:58,288 --> 00:48:59,724
Dear mom,
747
00:48:59,757 --> 00:49:02,259
we decided to have a real
New York City wedding.
748
00:49:03,360 --> 00:49:05,362
We bought rings on 47th Street,
749
00:49:05,697 --> 00:49:08,432
and then took the Metro
down to the City Hall.
750
00:49:11,468 --> 00:49:14,538
Eden's friend Mason
was our first witness,
751
00:49:14,571 --> 00:49:17,374
and Nissan flew from Berlin
to be our second,
752
00:49:17,407 --> 00:49:20,210
because it was him
who introduced us after all.
753
00:49:21,211 --> 00:49:23,580
The judge was
a strange little woman
754
00:49:23,614 --> 00:49:25,917
- who reminded me of Nana.
- I, Eden.
755
00:49:25,950 --> 00:49:28,853
- If Nana was insane.
- Take Aviva to be my wife.
756
00:49:29,721 --> 00:49:32,189
I Eden,
take Aviva to be my wife...
757
00:49:32,222 --> 00:49:34,391
But she
seemed really happy for us.
758
00:49:34,424 --> 00:49:36,894
She must do this
100 times a week.
759
00:49:36,928 --> 00:49:39,363
So maybe it's just my fantasy.
760
00:49:39,396 --> 00:49:40,631
But when she married us,
761
00:49:40,665 --> 00:49:42,566
I thought I saw
tears in her eyes.
762
00:49:42,599 --> 00:49:45,903
- And I promise my love to you.
- And I promise my love to you.
763
00:49:45,937 --> 00:49:50,240
- With this ring, I thee wed.
- With this ring, I thee wed.
764
00:49:52,342 --> 00:49:53,644
I Aviva,
765
00:49:53,945 --> 00:49:55,913
take Eden to be my husband.
766
00:49:55,947 --> 00:49:57,180
I, Aviva,
767
00:49:57,214 --> 00:49:59,516
take Eden to be my husband.
768
00:49:59,549 --> 00:50:01,218
To have and to hold.
769
00:50:01,251 --> 00:50:02,486
To have and to hold...
770
00:50:02,519 --> 00:50:04,254
In sickness
and in health.
771
00:50:04,454 --> 00:50:06,323
In sickness and in health,
772
00:50:06,356 --> 00:50:08,425
For richer
and for poorer.
773
00:50:08,458 --> 00:50:10,360
For richer and for poorer.
774
00:50:10,394 --> 00:50:12,730
and I promise
my love to you.
775
00:50:12,764 --> 00:50:15,198
And I promise my love to you.
776
00:50:15,232 --> 00:50:17,601
With this ring,
I thee wed.
777
00:50:17,634 --> 00:50:19,269
With this ring...
778
00:50:19,302 --> 00:50:22,439
Just as two threads
woven in opposite directions,
779
00:50:22,472 --> 00:50:24,307
can form a beautify tapestry,
780
00:50:24,341 --> 00:50:26,610
so can your two lives
merge together
781
00:50:26,643 --> 00:50:28,345
to form a beautify marriage.
782
00:50:28,746 --> 00:50:30,782
Love is the reason you are here.
783
00:50:31,381 --> 00:50:33,718
But it will
take trust to...
784
00:50:45,930 --> 00:50:50,968
By these vows, I now
declare you husband and wife.
785
00:50:51,836 --> 00:50:54,706
You may kiss your bride.
786
00:50:59,777 --> 00:51:01,946
And that
was that.
787
00:51:02,747 --> 00:51:04,247
Afterward Mason
organized a party
788
00:51:04,281 --> 00:51:07,284
for our friends
at the restaurant he owns.
789
00:51:07,317 --> 00:51:09,987
And we talked
and laughed all night.
790
00:51:10,655 --> 00:51:12,255
It was beautiful.
791
00:51:45,757 --> 00:51:47,925
♪ Don't you think ♪
792
00:51:48,993 --> 00:51:53,497
♪ It's time you get
On over that? ♪
793
00:51:54,899 --> 00:51:56,968
♪ Don't you think
You had enough? ♪
794
00:51:57,001 --> 00:51:59,737
♪ I mean
I know you had it rough ♪
795
00:51:59,771 --> 00:52:02,840
♪ But the pansy-fancy way
Of looking grim ♪
796
00:52:02,874 --> 00:52:06,510
♪ All through
The day and night ♪
797
00:52:06,878 --> 00:52:09,379
♪ Is something wrong my dear? ♪
798
00:52:09,714 --> 00:52:12,049
♪ Have I said it
Way too clear? ♪
799
00:52:12,083 --> 00:52:14,018
♪ Then let me whisper
In your ear ♪
800
00:52:14,051 --> 00:52:17,021
♪ All these words
I know are wrong ♪
801
00:52:17,054 --> 00:52:19,824
♪ But for the sake
Of writing song ♪
802
00:52:19,857 --> 00:52:23,493
♪ Here is what I guess
You wanna hear ♪
803
00:52:25,495 --> 00:52:28,632
♪ Somewhere up there ♪
804
00:52:29,000 --> 00:52:31,368
♪ The sky is blue ♪
805
00:52:32,103 --> 00:52:34,038
♪ For you ♪
806
00:52:34,739 --> 00:52:38,075
♪ Somewhere out there ♪
807
00:52:38,743 --> 00:52:42,880
♪ There's something New to do ♪
808
00:52:43,513 --> 00:52:45,950
♪ Somebody loves you ♪
809
00:52:48,418 --> 00:52:51,856
♪ Somebody loves you ♪
810
00:53:11,142 --> 00:53:15,645
♪ Tell me do you think
You have some exclusivity ♪
811
00:53:15,680 --> 00:53:20,483
♪ On every shadow of regret
That's lurking in proximity ♪
812
00:53:20,517 --> 00:53:22,787
♪ To what you think
Your life should be ♪
813
00:53:22,820 --> 00:53:25,790
♪ But if you close
Your eyes you'll see ♪
814
00:53:25,823 --> 00:53:28,125
♪ That there is nothing
For you here still ♪
815
00:53:28,159 --> 00:53:30,493
♪ The only words you hear ♪
816
00:53:30,527 --> 00:53:34,598
♪ Are somewhere up there ♪
817
00:53:35,066 --> 00:53:37,467
♪ The sky is blue ♪
818
00:53:38,169 --> 00:53:40,503
♪ For you ♪
819
00:53:41,538 --> 00:53:44,108
♪ Somewhere out there ♪
820
00:53:44,809 --> 00:53:48,980
♪ There is something New to do ♪
821
00:53:49,780 --> 00:53:52,083
♪ Somebody loves you ♪
822
00:53:54,484 --> 00:53:57,688
♪ Somebody loves you ♪
823
00:54:19,810 --> 00:54:21,812
- Hey, what's wrong?
- Nothing.
824
00:54:21,846 --> 00:54:23,214
Why aren't you dancing?
825
00:54:23,247 --> 00:54:25,149
- Are you having a good time?
- I'm trying to.
826
00:54:25,182 --> 00:54:27,919
Go and have fun and stop
worrying about me, okay?
827
00:54:27,952 --> 00:54:29,987
No, I can't when I see you
standing like this.
828
00:54:30,021 --> 00:54:31,621
Sure you can.
829
00:54:31,656 --> 00:54:32,857
You know I can't.
830
00:54:32,890 --> 00:54:34,524
That's your choice.
831
00:54:34,557 --> 00:54:36,060
If you want to make
my experience your experience
832
00:54:36,093 --> 00:54:37,594
that's your responsibility.
833
00:54:37,627 --> 00:54:39,096
I don't understand why
you're doing this right now.
834
00:54:39,130 --> 00:54:41,631
These are your friends,
they're here for you.
835
00:54:41,666 --> 00:54:42,800
They're happy for you.
836
00:54:42,833 --> 00:54:44,769
You're doing fine without me.
837
00:54:45,036 --> 00:54:47,104
In fact you're doing
a lot better without me.
838
00:54:47,138 --> 00:54:49,206
I'm just ruining your night.
I'm gonna go.
839
00:54:49,240 --> 00:54:53,010
- You're acting like a child.
- Hey. Let's not fight, okay?
840
00:54:53,044 --> 00:54:55,012
I'm sorry I'm ruining your time.
841
00:54:55,046 --> 00:54:56,613
You're better off
without me here.
842
00:54:56,646 --> 00:54:57,982
I'll come with you.
843
00:54:58,615 --> 00:54:59,984
Are you crazy?
844
00:55:00,617 --> 00:55:01,719
That'll be a disaster.
845
00:55:01,752 --> 00:55:03,254
It'll break Aviva's heart.
846
00:55:03,287 --> 00:55:06,223
Just stay here
and have fun, okay?
847
00:55:06,924 --> 00:55:09,592
No-one will notice a God damn
thing when I'm gone.
848
00:55:09,626 --> 00:55:10,895
The whole party
will just liven up,
849
00:55:10,928 --> 00:55:12,529
and no-one will even know why.
850
00:55:12,562 --> 00:55:15,132
Somehow everything
will just have gotten better.
851
00:55:16,901 --> 00:55:17,902
Hey.
852
00:55:18,568 --> 00:55:19,770
You know what?
853
00:55:20,271 --> 00:55:21,706
I'll see you later.
854
00:55:27,577 --> 00:55:28,980
Hey.
855
00:55:30,281 --> 00:55:31,782
- You okay?
- Yeah.
856
00:55:32,817 --> 00:55:33,918
Hey?
857
00:55:34,819 --> 00:55:35,987
No, it's...
858
00:55:36,954 --> 00:55:39,824
seeing everyone here
for me, for us.
859
00:55:40,091 --> 00:55:42,492
- It's...
- I know, I know.
860
00:55:43,560 --> 00:55:44,795
I love you.
861
00:55:45,997 --> 00:55:47,131
I love you.
862
00:55:47,898 --> 00:55:49,900
Whoo whoo!
863
00:56:23,034 --> 00:56:24,769
- I'm coming.
- Come.
864
00:56:25,302 --> 00:56:26,704
Come.
865
00:56:45,723 --> 00:56:46,791
My love,
866
00:56:52,997 --> 00:56:54,231
sorry.
867
00:56:54,265 --> 00:56:56,333
- No.
- So fast.
868
00:56:57,201 --> 00:56:58,202
You're perfect.
869
00:57:16,921 --> 00:57:18,756
Come here. Come here.
870
00:57:20,825 --> 00:57:21,792
No.
871
00:57:22,093 --> 00:57:23,794
- I want you to.
- Come here.
872
00:57:25,096 --> 00:57:27,832
- I want you to be...
- Keep doing what you doing.
873
00:57:27,865 --> 00:57:28,933
Are you sure?
874
00:58:04,301 --> 00:58:07,238
I was thinking of trying out
a song at this juncture.
875
00:58:08,005 --> 00:58:10,174
I know this isn't
really a musical,
876
00:58:10,708 --> 00:58:11,976
I love musicals.
877
00:58:12,409 --> 00:58:15,379
I love it when people
start to dance, but...
878
00:58:15,412 --> 00:58:16,380
I kinda hate it
879
00:58:16,413 --> 00:58:18,282
when people break out into song.
880
00:58:18,983 --> 00:58:20,417
I thought it'd
be fun to have the kids
881
00:58:20,451 --> 00:58:22,086
bust in to rap back there,
882
00:58:22,119 --> 00:58:24,255
even if it's way outside of
the style of everything
883
00:58:24,288 --> 00:58:25,923
that we're doing here, but...
884
00:58:25,956 --> 00:58:30,394
I mean, fuck consistency
and tone, we did it.
885
00:58:30,427 --> 00:58:31,896
I'm talking about when some
886
00:58:31,929 --> 00:58:33,931
happy guy or some
melancholy guy with his
887
00:58:33,964 --> 00:58:36,100
hands in his pocket suddenly
gets that faraway look
888
00:58:36,133 --> 00:58:37,334
in his eye,
889
00:58:37,368 --> 00:58:39,103
he looks somewhere
right above camera
890
00:58:39,136 --> 00:58:41,338
or down at his shoes and
it's like it's coming to him.
891
00:58:41,372 --> 00:58:44,041
This song that took
20 people months to create,
892
00:58:44,074 --> 00:58:46,277
he's making it up right now.
893
00:58:47,311 --> 00:58:48,445
He'll look up and...
894
00:58:50,314 --> 00:58:53,918
well like I said, I hate it,
so I'm not gonna do it.
895
00:58:55,953 --> 00:58:58,489
What I am gonna do is talk about
what I've been avoiding
896
00:58:58,522 --> 00:58:59,924
talking about.
897
00:58:59,957 --> 00:59:01,725
Which is Isadora.
898
00:59:05,462 --> 00:59:08,732
Neither Aviva or I
have been here in a while.
899
00:59:09,366 --> 00:59:11,101
But it's our space.
900
00:59:11,368 --> 00:59:12,870
And ours alone.
901
00:59:14,205 --> 00:59:16,040
I'm gonna talk about Isadora in
it, which is way fucked up, but
902
00:59:17,274 --> 00:59:20,377
life is fucked up that way.
903
00:59:20,411 --> 00:59:22,513
I'll meet Isadora
at a party which
904
00:59:22,546 --> 00:59:24,148
I'm never gonna show here.
905
00:59:25,449 --> 00:59:28,285
Because there are some things I
don't feel I can show correctly.
906
00:59:29,220 --> 00:59:31,288
It's a birthday party
for Dave Mazolla
907
00:59:31,322 --> 00:59:33,190
that I attend solo
908
00:59:33,224 --> 00:59:35,292
during the brief period when
Aviva and I are back together.
909
00:59:35,859 --> 00:59:38,495
Trying to work things
out after our first break up.
910
00:59:38,529 --> 00:59:41,265
Kind of which has come to pass
in linear time.
911
00:59:42,533 --> 00:59:44,201
I'm solo because
after everything
912
00:59:44,235 --> 00:59:46,503
we will have gone through,
Aviva is comfortable
913
00:59:46,537 --> 00:59:48,138
enough to generously allow me
914
00:59:48,172 --> 00:59:51,475
some alone time with my friends
without kicking up a fuss.
915
00:59:52,943 --> 00:59:55,479
That's the impression
I'm under, anyways.
916
00:59:57,348 --> 00:59:58,382
I'm a little drunk.
917
00:59:58,949 --> 01:00:00,451
A little more
forward than usual.
918
01:00:01,185 --> 01:00:05,122
And Dave introduces me to his
friend, this young woman named
919
01:00:05,923 --> 01:00:06,957
Isadora.
920
01:00:08,325 --> 01:00:09,493
It's like...
921
01:00:12,196 --> 01:00:15,466
electricity
is an inadequate word.
922
01:00:16,300 --> 01:00:19,069
When her eyes look in to mine,
it's like I can see myself
923
01:00:19,103 --> 01:00:20,904
reflected back at me, only...
924
01:00:21,272 --> 01:00:22,406
more open,
925
01:00:22,840 --> 01:00:24,108
more curious,
926
01:00:24,141 --> 01:00:26,310
more... alive,
927
01:00:26,343 --> 01:00:28,479
more... everything.
928
01:00:31,048 --> 01:00:32,116
Recognition,
929
01:00:35,886 --> 01:00:38,155
during this brief
chat that spans
930
01:00:38,856 --> 01:00:39,957
an eternity.
931
01:00:41,191 --> 01:00:43,427
She mentioned she's going to
Berlin to study for a semester.
932
01:00:43,460 --> 01:00:45,896
So I tell her to call
Nissan while she's there,
933
01:00:45,929 --> 01:00:48,832
making up for all the time
he's played matchmaker to me
934
01:00:49,133 --> 01:00:52,269
with Aviva,
so I feel proud for doing this
935
01:00:53,504 --> 01:00:55,939
and with Aviva so I feel sick,
936
01:00:55,973 --> 01:00:57,007
for doing this.
937
01:00:58,342 --> 01:01:00,210
Just as I expect,
Nissan falls hard for her
938
01:01:00,244 --> 01:01:03,213
but she blows him off
after a week, I mean,
939
01:01:03,447 --> 01:01:05,549
he's not for her.
940
01:01:06,250 --> 01:01:07,484
I'm for her.
941
01:01:10,087 --> 01:01:12,356
She calls or texts
me every few months
942
01:01:12,956 --> 01:01:14,391
lets me know that she's done
with Berlin,
943
01:01:14,425 --> 01:01:16,360
she's moved to Los Angeles.
944
01:01:16,927 --> 01:01:18,495
I always respond cordially
945
01:01:18,529 --> 01:01:21,832
without excess warmth because
I know if I open this door
946
01:01:22,399 --> 01:01:24,101
there is no turning back.
947
01:01:26,070 --> 01:01:28,505
None of this
has happened yet, but...
948
01:01:31,175 --> 01:01:32,443
it will.
949
01:01:33,977 --> 01:01:36,347
Hey this is Zeke,
you found me.
950
01:01:36,980 --> 01:01:38,148
Express yourself.
951
01:01:39,550 --> 01:01:41,085
Hey there Zeke,
952
01:01:41,118 --> 01:01:43,253
your manager passed
me your number,
953
01:01:43,287 --> 01:01:44,521
my name is Aviva Le Grange
954
01:01:44,955 --> 01:01:48,025
I'm a video artist and
director from Paris,
955
01:01:48,392 --> 01:01:49,960
I love your music,
956
01:01:49,993 --> 01:01:52,496
especially your new song
"Love it or Leave it".
957
01:01:52,529 --> 01:01:54,264
I think it's got magic.
958
01:01:54,998 --> 01:01:56,900
I have an idea
for a video for it
959
01:01:56,934 --> 01:01:59,203
that could be something
really special.
960
01:02:38,475 --> 01:02:42,112
♪ Long are the days when
You're turning away ♪
961
01:02:42,146 --> 01:02:44,648
♪ From the reasons You strung ♪
962
01:02:46,383 --> 01:02:50,020
♪ Long is the way
When you're aching to say ♪
963
01:02:50,053 --> 01:02:52,956
♪ But your teeth
Bite your tongue ♪
964
01:02:54,391 --> 01:02:58,162
♪ Loud is the wind in your ears
When you spin ♪
965
01:02:58,195 --> 01:03:00,931
♪ As you look for the sun ♪
966
01:03:02,466 --> 01:03:06,370
♪ Loud are the skies as
You thunder your cries ♪
967
01:03:06,403 --> 01:03:08,939
♪ When your prayers are sung ♪
968
01:03:11,442 --> 01:03:14,344
♪ Hard is the floor
As the waves pound... ♪
969
01:03:14,378 --> 01:03:16,180
- She's brilliant.
- Yeah?
970
01:03:16,213 --> 01:03:18,716
Why didn't you
show me her work before?
971
01:03:18,750 --> 01:03:19,684
Why hide it?
972
01:03:20,184 --> 01:03:21,485
I wasn't hiding it,
973
01:03:22,319 --> 01:03:24,689
I wanted to focus this thing
on our relationship,
974
01:03:24,722 --> 01:03:26,590
on who we are
to each other first.
975
01:03:26,623 --> 01:03:28,992
Or maybe you're just
intimidated by her.
976
01:03:29,026 --> 01:03:29,727
I'm not.
977
01:03:30,160 --> 01:03:31,161
I would be.
978
01:03:31,528 --> 01:03:32,463
She's a genius.
979
01:03:33,564 --> 01:03:34,732
I'm not intimidated.
980
01:03:35,499 --> 01:03:36,567
I'm inspired.
981
01:03:36,600 --> 01:03:39,369
♪ My oh my It hurts sometimes ♪
982
01:03:39,403 --> 01:03:43,173
♪ Oh my oh my!
It hurts sometimes ♪
983
01:03:43,207 --> 01:03:47,311
♪ I think I'm running
Out of time ♪
984
01:03:47,344 --> 01:03:51,215
♪ Before I'm gonna
Lose my mind ♪
985
01:03:51,515 --> 01:03:54,585
♪ My oh my! It hurts sometimes ♪
986
01:03:54,618 --> 01:03:56,420
I finished my first record.
987
01:03:57,421 --> 01:03:59,423
I'm surprised you
found the time.
988
01:04:00,825 --> 01:04:03,761
Listen man, I'd love for her
to do something with me, too.
989
01:04:03,795 --> 01:04:08,098
♪ Before I'm gonna
Lose my mind... ♪
990
01:04:08,131 --> 01:04:09,032
So ask her.
991
01:04:10,133 --> 01:04:13,604
It's just, you know, I don't
want your feelings hurt.
992
01:04:13,637 --> 01:04:14,471
I'm fine.
993
01:04:15,272 --> 01:04:16,373
Just ask her.
994
01:04:17,241 --> 01:04:19,409
If she wants to do it,
she'll do it.
995
01:04:23,113 --> 01:04:25,215
So what are you thinking?
996
01:04:25,249 --> 01:04:26,316
I dunno,
997
01:04:26,818 --> 01:04:28,185
it could be strange.
998
01:04:28,218 --> 01:04:29,386
Do you like
Mason's music?
999
01:04:29,787 --> 01:04:32,657
I do. I actually think
it's very special.
1000
01:04:34,324 --> 01:04:35,592
Then you should do it.
1001
01:04:54,444 --> 01:04:56,179
What do you think of this edit?
1002
01:04:57,147 --> 01:04:58,783
It's beautiful.
1003
01:04:58,816 --> 01:05:01,385
Yeah, but I think this
angle is better for him, no?
1004
01:05:01,418 --> 01:05:03,086
The other one's perfect though.
1005
01:05:03,353 --> 01:05:06,256
Captures something grounded
and spiritual at the same time.
1006
01:05:06,290 --> 01:05:08,760
Jesus Christ,
take it easy over there.
1007
01:05:08,793 --> 01:05:11,161
What are
you talking about?
1008
01:05:11,194 --> 01:05:13,397
- Just it's embarrassing okay?
- What is?
1009
01:05:13,430 --> 01:05:14,699
You know what I'm talking about.
1010
01:05:14,732 --> 01:05:16,300
Spell it out for me.
1011
01:05:16,333 --> 01:05:17,735
Aviva was right,
1012
01:05:17,769 --> 01:05:19,871
it's pathetic how you are
about anything to do with Mason.
1013
01:05:19,904 --> 01:05:22,606
He proposed the idea,
you could have said no.
1014
01:05:22,639 --> 01:05:24,776
Right. Like I was
gonna be the bad guy.
1015
01:05:24,809 --> 01:05:26,243
Great position to put me in.
1016
01:05:26,276 --> 01:05:27,644
What position?
1017
01:05:27,679 --> 01:05:29,446
Aviva doing something
nice for your friend
1018
01:05:29,479 --> 01:05:32,449
after moving here entire life
here for you? Is that so bad?
1019
01:05:33,250 --> 01:05:34,284
Nope.
1020
01:05:34,318 --> 01:05:36,119
I did it, see?
1021
01:05:36,153 --> 01:05:37,588
I'm nice. Mr. nice guy.
1022
01:05:37,621 --> 01:05:39,590
No, you've been an asshole
ever since...
1023
01:05:39,623 --> 01:05:40,490
Since what?
1024
01:05:41,659 --> 01:05:44,595
You're gone even when you're
here, which is hardly ever.
1025
01:05:44,628 --> 01:05:47,197
You're always off to the side,
angry all the time...
1026
01:05:47,230 --> 01:05:49,299
When you do say
something, it's mean.
1027
01:05:49,333 --> 01:05:51,301
Maybe because you've
acted like a total jealous
1028
01:05:51,335 --> 01:05:53,403
bitch since the moment
you saw me with Mason.
1029
01:05:53,437 --> 01:05:55,272
That's what you like to think.
1030
01:05:55,305 --> 01:05:56,473
But you're the one
who is jealous.
1031
01:05:56,506 --> 01:05:59,376
Me? Maybe she is.
I don't give a fuck.
1032
01:05:59,409 --> 01:06:00,812
I'm not jealous
of either of you.
1033
01:06:00,845 --> 01:06:03,280
You're the one telling people
where they can go,
1034
01:06:03,313 --> 01:06:04,749
when they should be there.
1035
01:06:04,782 --> 01:06:06,751
It's true, you've been jealous
1036
01:06:06,784 --> 01:06:08,518
and controlling
since the day I got here.
1037
01:06:08,552 --> 01:06:10,454
If you had any sense of
boundaries,
1038
01:06:10,487 --> 01:06:12,289
I wouldn't need to control you.
1039
01:06:12,322 --> 01:06:13,825
Maybe you should figure
out your own boundaries,
1040
01:06:13,858 --> 01:06:16,460
before you worry about
how others handle theirs.
1041
01:06:16,493 --> 01:06:18,663
You stay the fuck
out of this okay?
1042
01:06:18,696 --> 01:06:20,263
No-one asked you to
be here in the first place.
1043
01:06:20,297 --> 01:06:22,466
Shall I quote some of
those emails you sent me?
1044
01:06:22,499 --> 01:06:25,369
I never wrote you
a single fucking email.
1045
01:06:25,402 --> 01:06:26,503
No?
1046
01:06:27,337 --> 01:06:28,505
Who do you think all those
emails
1047
01:06:28,538 --> 01:06:29,774
you fell so in love with
were from?
1048
01:06:29,807 --> 01:06:32,175
I was reading letters from her.
1049
01:06:32,209 --> 01:06:33,610
You were reading
letters from me,
1050
01:06:33,644 --> 01:06:34,912
you idiot.
1051
01:06:35,379 --> 01:06:36,546
She barely has the patience
1052
01:06:36,580 --> 01:06:38,248
to put a coherent
sentence together.
1053
01:06:38,281 --> 01:06:40,852
Hey, you can go fuck
yourself too. I don't need
1054
01:06:40,885 --> 01:06:43,655
your fucking help, if you're
going to help me like this!
1055
01:06:43,688 --> 01:06:46,623
You know he didn't want
anything to do with you,
1056
01:06:46,658 --> 01:06:48,726
- I don't blame him.
- So now you're on his side?
1057
01:06:48,760 --> 01:06:51,294
- I'm not on anyone's side.
- You're taking his side.
1058
01:06:51,328 --> 01:06:52,930
You always take his side,
I'm fucking sick of it.
1059
01:06:52,964 --> 01:06:54,264
- Sick of it?
- Sick of it.
1060
01:06:54,297 --> 01:06:55,632
We've never fought about it.
1061
01:06:55,667 --> 01:06:57,267
Don't be stupid.
These fights, other fights,
1062
01:06:57,300 --> 01:06:58,970
if there's another side
available, you'll take it.
1063
01:06:59,003 --> 01:07:00,337
Hey calm down.
1064
01:07:00,370 --> 01:07:01,706
Don't fucking tell me
to calm down.
1065
01:07:01,739 --> 01:07:03,507
Chill out. Okay?
1066
01:07:03,540 --> 01:07:06,711
I talk how I fucking
want to talk, all right?
1067
01:07:06,744 --> 01:07:08,311
Don't tell me what to do.
1068
01:07:08,345 --> 01:07:09,747
I don't even know who
I am anymore
1069
01:07:09,781 --> 01:07:11,648
in this stupid fucking country.
1070
01:07:11,683 --> 01:07:13,718
Acting like some kind of
polite American all the time.
1071
01:07:13,751 --> 01:07:14,886
This is you polite?
1072
01:07:15,953 --> 01:07:18,255
Jesus, I'd hate to see
you in your native habitat.
1073
01:07:18,288 --> 01:07:19,189
Fuck you!
1074
01:07:20,190 --> 01:07:22,827
This is who I am now,
if you don't like it...
1075
01:07:24,494 --> 01:07:25,629
I can go home.
1076
01:07:26,363 --> 01:07:27,732
Come one, don't say that.
1077
01:07:28,265 --> 01:07:29,566
Do you even want me here?
1078
01:07:29,599 --> 01:07:30,935
Of course I want you here.
1079
01:07:31,368 --> 01:07:32,670
I'm not talking to you,
1080
01:07:33,303 --> 01:07:34,371
talking to him.
1081
01:07:36,874 --> 01:07:38,341
Do you even want me here?
1082
01:07:41,478 --> 01:07:43,647
Don't put your choices on me.
1083
01:07:47,819 --> 01:07:49,854
You're gonna
fuck this up.
1084
01:07:50,755 --> 01:07:52,824
You're gonna fuck everything up,
1085
01:07:52,857 --> 01:07:53,991
you always do.
1086
01:07:54,025 --> 01:07:55,827
Maybe if you didn't
keep getting me
1087
01:07:55,860 --> 01:07:57,662
into shit that
I don't want to be in,
1088
01:07:57,695 --> 01:07:59,964
I wouldn't have to
fuck anything up.
1089
01:08:00,798 --> 01:08:01,699
I see.
1090
01:08:02,299 --> 01:08:03,835
You don't want to be in this?
1091
01:08:06,070 --> 01:08:07,071
Come on, man.
1092
01:08:08,472 --> 01:08:10,640
Don't say things you
won't be able to take back.
1093
01:08:12,476 --> 01:08:15,512
Aviva's here, I'm here.
1094
01:08:16,413 --> 01:08:19,349
You're the one who needs
to decide what he wants to do.
1095
01:08:20,985 --> 01:08:24,554
This is the best thing that's
ever happened to me in my life.
1096
01:08:25,455 --> 01:08:27,357
You wanna take it away from me,
1097
01:08:28,492 --> 01:08:29,459
go ahead.
1098
01:08:30,695 --> 01:08:31,829
I can't stop you,
1099
01:08:31,863 --> 01:08:33,396
I never could.
1100
01:08:37,467 --> 01:08:38,970
I'm doing
something wrong.
1101
01:08:39,003 --> 01:08:40,437
You're not doing anything wrong.
1102
01:08:40,470 --> 01:08:41,739
Yes, I am.
1103
01:08:47,577 --> 01:08:48,713
You brought us all together,
1104
01:08:49,346 --> 01:08:51,314
you're not doing anything wrong.
1105
01:09:02,760 --> 01:09:05,663
I know I said earlier
that there's nothing more lonely
1106
01:09:05,696 --> 01:09:07,999
or more depressing than
being alone in New York City,
1107
01:09:08,032 --> 01:09:11,434
but that's not
empirically speaking, correct.
1108
01:09:11,969 --> 01:09:13,637
There's nothing more lonely
1109
01:09:13,671 --> 01:09:15,740
than being alone in Los Angeles.
1110
01:09:15,773 --> 01:09:18,308
- It's left, turn left.
- I got it.
1111
01:09:25,482 --> 01:09:27,617
- "Dear Aviva."
- "Dear?"
1112
01:09:27,651 --> 01:09:29,519
Are you seriously
letting go of sweet?
1113
01:09:29,553 --> 01:09:32,723
Is that really what you want
me to be focusing on right now?
1114
01:09:35,059 --> 01:09:36,493
I'll just write sweet.
1115
01:09:37,662 --> 01:09:39,496
"Dear Aviva,
1116
01:09:40,530 --> 01:09:42,900
I heard you were in
the desert somewhere.
1117
01:09:48,172 --> 01:09:49,807
I remember I promised myself
1118
01:09:50,107 --> 01:09:52,576
or you, that I would write
to you at least something
1119
01:09:52,609 --> 01:09:55,512
once a day for all the time
we would know each other.
1120
01:09:57,715 --> 01:10:01,052
I guess it took us breaking
up for me to honor it again.
1121
01:10:02,053 --> 01:10:03,688
You're an amazing person.
1122
01:10:04,121 --> 01:10:05,790
You always surprised me,
1123
01:10:06,423 --> 01:10:08,860
even though I'm so jaded
and often unengaged,
1124
01:10:09,827 --> 01:10:12,163
you told me I don't
know how to live,
1125
01:10:12,196 --> 01:10:13,097
it's true.
1126
01:10:14,332 --> 01:10:16,801
I don't know how to make
the most out of a simple day.
1127
01:10:17,467 --> 01:10:19,837
I don't know how to get
the most out of breakfast,
1128
01:10:19,871 --> 01:10:21,504
to enjoy a simple walk.
1129
01:10:21,538 --> 01:10:23,074
To get the most out
of work or creativity
1130
01:10:23,107 --> 01:10:25,508
in anything other
than sporadic bursts.
1131
01:10:34,051 --> 01:10:36,053
I don't know how to move
through time and space
1132
01:10:36,087 --> 01:10:39,456
with a sense of accepting that
I'm the vessel doing the moving.
1133
01:10:39,757 --> 01:10:41,826
Even as I understand
I'm doing myself
1134
01:10:41,859 --> 01:10:43,928
and God and injustice
by directing
1135
01:10:43,961 --> 01:10:47,098
such negativity toward a life
that I should be grateful for.
1136
01:10:54,105 --> 01:10:56,674
I imagine it's very confusing
being in a relationship
1137
01:10:56,707 --> 01:10:57,975
with someone like me.
1138
01:10:58,175 --> 01:11:00,711
I get angry sometimes
when I see how real
1139
01:11:01,045 --> 01:11:03,147
you are, how substantial.
1140
01:11:03,714 --> 01:11:05,883
And I'm in this stupid,
ugly place
1141
01:11:05,917 --> 01:11:07,550
floating around like a ghost.
1142
01:11:11,055 --> 01:11:13,658
But then I realize that
I'd rather be this way
1143
01:11:13,691 --> 01:11:15,927
or I wouldn't be here
doing what I'm doing.
1144
01:11:16,559 --> 01:11:18,561
Making one reality
after another and then
1145
01:11:18,595 --> 01:11:21,666
abandoning it, so that others
can inhabit it without me.
1146
01:11:29,273 --> 01:11:30,507
I'm running,
1147
01:11:31,776 --> 01:11:34,679
I don't ever wanna get caught
but I am tired of running.
1148
01:11:38,282 --> 01:11:40,084
Sorry I've been going
on and on here,
1149
01:11:40,117 --> 01:11:42,619
but you wanted to know
where I'm at.
1150
01:11:42,920 --> 01:11:44,088
So here you have it.
1151
01:11:44,956 --> 01:11:46,223
I admire you
1152
01:11:47,191 --> 01:11:48,491
and I love you.
1153
01:11:49,126 --> 01:11:50,493
E."
1154
01:11:50,828 --> 01:11:51,829
"Dear E,
1155
01:11:52,930 --> 01:11:54,999
it's both painful and moving
to read your words."
1156
01:11:56,901 --> 01:11:58,836
- Don't do that.
- What?
1157
01:11:58,869 --> 01:12:02,907
That stupid bopping to the music
in the car, sort of thing.
1158
01:12:03,741 --> 01:12:06,243
It's cutesy and ingratiating
and I fucking hate it.
1159
01:12:06,277 --> 01:12:08,879
If you wanna dance,
pull over, stop the car,
1160
01:12:08,913 --> 01:12:11,015
get out and make
a proper fucking dance.
1161
01:12:11,048 --> 01:12:13,684
- Who's cut off and mean now?
- I am.
1162
01:12:14,118 --> 01:12:15,186
Deal with it.
1163
01:12:19,890 --> 01:12:21,624
You wanna hear the rest of it?
1164
01:12:24,161 --> 01:12:25,262
Sure.
1165
01:12:27,298 --> 01:12:30,600
"It was so strange for me
to be alone in the city,
1166
01:12:31,902 --> 01:12:35,039
hard to go meet people for work
and put myself out there.
1167
01:12:36,606 --> 01:12:39,110
So confusing meeting men,
and the world in general,
1168
01:12:39,677 --> 01:12:41,812
with the knowledge
that we're separated.
1169
01:12:42,579 --> 01:12:45,615
So I got myself out of there
and headed in to the desert,
1170
01:12:45,983 --> 01:12:47,184
in New Mexico.
1171
01:12:48,052 --> 01:12:50,021
Spent a lot of time
there by myself,
1172
01:12:51,856 --> 01:12:53,523
one day I got kinda lost.
1173
01:12:53,958 --> 01:12:55,126
It was scary,
1174
01:12:55,659 --> 01:12:56,894
a story for another day.
1175
01:12:58,029 --> 01:13:00,530
Then I met these two people
who really saved my ass.
1176
01:13:01,766 --> 01:13:04,668
They were this couple who travel
to the most dangerous places
1177
01:13:04,702 --> 01:13:05,635
in the world
1178
01:13:06,037 --> 01:13:07,772
and they dance together there.
1179
01:13:08,873 --> 01:13:10,307
And they're not the only ones,
1180
01:13:10,741 --> 01:13:12,009
it's a thing.
1181
01:13:13,744 --> 01:13:16,047
Gave me an idea to make
a movie out of it.
1182
01:13:16,680 --> 01:13:19,350
Started filming them and
I'm putting together a teaser
1183
01:13:19,383 --> 01:13:20,885
to raise money
for the rest of it.
1184
01:13:20,918 --> 01:13:23,187
I'm DJ'ing for Zeke's club shows
1185
01:13:23,220 --> 01:13:25,322
and she's gonna do
the music for it.
1186
01:13:25,356 --> 01:13:26,724
It's a trip.
1187
01:13:28,993 --> 01:13:30,961
I'm lonelier than
I've ever been,
1188
01:13:31,328 --> 01:13:34,065
sadder and happier
than I've ever been all at once.
1189
01:13:35,632 --> 01:13:36,834
I love you
1190
01:13:37,368 --> 01:13:38,469
and I have no regrets,
1191
01:13:39,837 --> 01:13:42,907
but I don't wanna go through
something like this again.
1192
01:13:43,841 --> 01:13:46,677
I wanna be with somebody
who wants to be with me.
1193
01:13:47,778 --> 01:13:48,846
The way I am,
1194
01:13:50,014 --> 01:13:51,782
not the way he wants me to be.
1195
01:13:53,650 --> 01:13:55,820
I have so much love and passion
in me
1196
01:13:55,853 --> 01:13:58,022
and I don't want to feel
guilty about it.
1197
01:13:59,790 --> 01:14:02,359
Still, I miss us and I miss you.
1198
01:14:04,128 --> 01:14:05,162
A."
1199
01:14:06,831 --> 01:14:08,065
Nicole just texted you.
1200
01:14:08,899 --> 01:14:11,268
- Nicole?
- Yeah, from high school.
1201
01:14:11,302 --> 01:14:12,703
I know who she is.
1202
01:14:13,938 --> 01:14:15,840
Just surprised
to hear from here.
1203
01:14:15,873 --> 01:14:16,907
Well, she's here.
1204
01:14:17,308 --> 01:14:18,275
You mean in LA?
1205
01:14:19,276 --> 01:14:21,378
No, I mean in this car,
stashed in the trunk.
1206
01:14:23,414 --> 01:14:24,748
I always liked her.
1207
01:14:25,883 --> 01:14:28,152
I have nothing
to talk with her about.
1208
01:14:28,185 --> 01:14:30,121
- I do.
- We have no shared interests.
1209
01:14:30,154 --> 01:14:31,355
Nothing in common,
1210
01:14:31,856 --> 01:14:32,590
nothing.
1211
01:14:33,057 --> 01:14:35,392
Daredevil,
that's my guy.
1212
01:14:35,426 --> 01:14:38,963
Smart and blind,
just how I like my men.
1213
01:14:39,396 --> 01:14:42,900
I don't know,
I was strictly Kirby style.
1214
01:14:42,933 --> 01:14:46,003
Cosmic stuff,
worlds beyond imagination,
1215
01:14:46,036 --> 01:14:48,139
shit that actually
opens your mind.
1216
01:14:49,006 --> 01:14:53,010
Thor, F.F.,
The Eternals, The New Gods.
1217
01:14:53,043 --> 01:14:56,680
It was all street level for me.
Someone I could identify with.
1218
01:14:56,981 --> 01:14:59,917
Like, if I looked into an alley
1219
01:14:59,950 --> 01:15:01,252
on the way to school,
1220
01:15:01,285 --> 01:15:03,354
I might just catch a glimpse
in the shadows.
1221
01:15:03,387 --> 01:15:05,990
Punisher, Daredevil, Spiderman,
1222
01:15:06,023 --> 01:15:07,958
Spiderman is street level?
1223
01:15:07,992 --> 01:15:09,827
Compared to the New Gods, he is.
1224
01:15:09,860 --> 01:15:12,363
Look,
I liked those guys growing up,
1225
01:15:12,396 --> 01:15:14,999
it was fine if I couldn't get
my hands on anything else
1226
01:15:15,032 --> 01:15:18,369
but where is the imagination,
the aspiration?
1227
01:15:18,402 --> 01:15:21,071
Sometimes putting your fist
through some jerk's face,
1228
01:15:21,105 --> 01:15:22,973
is all the aspiration you need.
1229
01:15:24,842 --> 01:15:25,876
Good to know.
1230
01:15:26,143 --> 01:15:28,345
Can I refresh
anybody's drink?
1231
01:15:29,446 --> 01:15:30,915
We've already had thee.
1232
01:15:31,282 --> 01:15:34,051
One more and I'll be
at maximum suggestibility.
1233
01:15:34,351 --> 01:15:35,819
She'll have another one.
1234
01:15:36,220 --> 01:15:37,321
What about you?
1235
01:15:37,821 --> 01:15:39,690
I still have work to do tonight.
1236
01:15:40,758 --> 01:15:41,959
Really?
1237
01:15:45,996 --> 01:15:47,998
- You okay?
- I'm great.
1238
01:15:48,299 --> 01:15:50,134
But how can I make you,
you know?
1239
01:15:50,167 --> 01:15:52,403
You don't have to do anything,
I'm great.
1240
01:15:54,004 --> 01:15:57,074
- I want you to be happy.
- I'm happy.
1241
01:15:57,107 --> 01:15:59,310
I mean, really happy.
1242
01:15:59,343 --> 01:16:01,946
- I'm really happy.
- Jesus.
1243
01:16:05,482 --> 01:16:06,984
Come on, move over.
1244
01:16:08,519 --> 01:16:09,954
Where are you going?
1245
01:16:36,914 --> 01:16:38,182
Do it hard.
1246
01:16:41,452 --> 01:16:42,953
You can do it harder.
1247
01:16:43,287 --> 01:16:44,521
She said do it harder.
1248
01:16:47,424 --> 01:16:49,860
Yes. Yes.
1249
01:16:49,893 --> 01:16:51,528
Oh yes. Yes.
1250
01:17:01,605 --> 01:17:02,940
Oh, my gosh.
1251
01:17:04,108 --> 01:17:05,209
Unbelievable.
1252
01:17:09,313 --> 01:17:12,449
I'm gonna go make some coffee,
you guys want anything?
1253
01:17:12,483 --> 01:17:14,485
No, thank you.
1254
01:17:14,518 --> 01:17:15,486
I'm good.
1255
01:17:16,020 --> 01:17:17,221
Milk, two sugars.
1256
01:17:34,271 --> 01:17:38,275
♪ What I say when I
Say that I miss you ♪
1257
01:17:38,309 --> 01:17:42,446
♪ Is that I will
Always love me more ♪
1258
01:17:42,479 --> 01:17:46,050
♪ What I need when I bleed
Just to drown you ♪
1259
01:17:46,450 --> 01:17:50,220
♪ Is that some day
You'll become a shore ♪
1260
01:17:50,888 --> 01:17:54,224
♪ It's my wave that will
Crave and will pull you ♪
1261
01:17:54,525 --> 01:17:58,329
♪ And another that
Will push you back ♪
1262
01:17:58,896 --> 01:18:02,900
♪ We will be just a sea
They can sail through ♪
1263
01:18:02,933 --> 01:18:07,171
♪ They can split us
But we never crack ♪
1264
01:18:23,220 --> 01:18:27,157
♪ On occasions our
Sea will swallow ♪
1265
01:18:27,191 --> 01:18:31,028
♪ 613 shades of sad ♪
1266
01:18:31,362 --> 01:18:35,232
♪ And occasionally
We will be just shallow ♪
1267
01:18:35,265 --> 01:18:38,902
♪ Enough for them
To see the things we had... ♪
1268
01:19:15,506 --> 01:19:17,908
- Can you get it?
- Uh-huh.
1269
01:19:36,393 --> 01:19:38,295
- Hey?
- Hey.
1270
01:19:40,097 --> 01:19:42,667
- How are you?
- Good, I'm good.
1271
01:19:43,634 --> 01:19:44,669
Are you?
1272
01:19:45,202 --> 01:19:46,603
Yeah.
1273
01:19:47,037 --> 01:19:48,939
Better than I've
been in a while.
1274
01:19:50,174 --> 01:19:51,709
How are the shows going?
1275
01:19:52,376 --> 01:19:54,044
Uh, they're going.
1276
01:19:55,279 --> 01:19:57,481
I'm signing with Dream Shot.
1277
01:19:59,316 --> 01:20:00,752
That's a great agency.
1278
01:20:00,785 --> 01:20:03,053
Yeah, they just got me
the rest of the budget
1279
01:20:03,086 --> 01:20:04,388
to make my feature.
1280
01:20:06,256 --> 01:20:07,659
- Jesus.
- Yeah.
1281
01:20:09,059 --> 01:20:09,960
That's amazing.
1282
01:20:11,796 --> 01:20:14,364
Everyone I know
is talking about your work.
1283
01:20:17,134 --> 01:20:19,970
You know, I'm here in town.
1284
01:20:20,805 --> 01:20:22,072
Here?
1285
01:20:23,106 --> 01:20:24,742
Yeah,
it was a last minute thing.
1286
01:20:25,810 --> 01:20:27,644
I was going to tell you but...
1287
01:20:28,612 --> 01:20:30,280
I wasn't sure I should call.
1288
01:20:30,547 --> 01:20:31,683
Why wouldn't you call?
1289
01:20:33,650 --> 01:20:35,385
I don't know.
1290
01:20:36,220 --> 01:20:38,522
I'm editing this thing
after screening it here,
1291
01:20:38,555 --> 01:20:39,724
in a few days.
1292
01:20:39,757 --> 01:20:41,659
I was hoping you could
check it out,
1293
01:20:41,693 --> 01:20:43,494
maybe do a few things to it.
1294
01:20:44,495 --> 01:20:46,096
- but...
- I'll be there.
1295
01:20:46,129 --> 01:20:47,665
If it's not
a good time for you...
1296
01:20:47,699 --> 01:20:49,500
No, I'll be there,
I'll be there.
1297
01:21:18,128 --> 01:21:19,463
This is not a work place.
1298
01:21:20,130 --> 01:21:21,431
It's our space.
1299
01:21:21,866 --> 01:21:23,100
It was.
1300
01:21:27,772 --> 01:21:29,039
I miss you.
1301
01:21:30,374 --> 01:21:31,642
I missed you too.
1302
01:21:33,577 --> 01:21:35,212
We should get back together.
1303
01:21:39,751 --> 01:21:40,785
What?
1304
01:21:41,485 --> 01:21:42,720
Your timing is just...
1305
01:21:43,955 --> 01:21:47,491
After so many sleepless nights,
so many broken hearted days,
1306
01:21:47,524 --> 01:21:50,193
finally I get myself to a place
when I can...
1307
01:21:51,595 --> 01:21:52,664
And now...
1308
01:21:56,567 --> 01:21:58,268
I'm sorry, I...
1309
01:22:00,404 --> 01:22:01,505
I'm sorry.
1310
01:22:06,878 --> 01:22:08,612
It's exactly what we needed,
1311
01:22:10,147 --> 01:22:12,349
to get to a better
place that we couldn't
1312
01:22:12,382 --> 01:22:14,351
get to when
we were still together,
1313
01:22:14,384 --> 01:22:15,687
because of all the pressure
1314
01:22:15,720 --> 01:22:18,121
of long distance,
of constantly being rushed,
1315
01:22:18,155 --> 01:22:19,724
we can restart this
the right way now.
1316
01:22:19,757 --> 01:22:22,092
I don't think
this is the right time.
1317
01:22:22,894 --> 01:22:25,863
Please. Please come back.
1318
01:22:27,531 --> 01:22:28,599
I love you.
1319
01:22:30,167 --> 01:22:31,602
I don't wanna let you go.
1320
01:22:33,236 --> 01:22:34,304
Please come back.
1321
01:22:35,539 --> 01:22:36,607
Please come back.
1322
01:22:41,746 --> 01:22:42,847
I love you, too.
1323
01:22:44,214 --> 01:22:45,449
I'm here.
1324
01:22:46,784 --> 01:22:50,320
Let's do what we
came here to do. Okay.
1325
01:22:55,960 --> 01:22:57,829
Is it just the three of us?
1326
01:22:58,462 --> 01:22:59,630
She'll be back soon.
1327
01:23:04,836 --> 01:23:05,870
Hey, come on.
1328
01:23:06,804 --> 01:23:08,840
You do what you have
to do, I'm...
1329
01:23:08,873 --> 01:23:11,575
gonna sit here and wait for her
for a minute, okay?
1330
01:26:38,049 --> 01:26:39,616
He waited.
1331
01:26:40,450 --> 01:26:42,552
He had done what I
had asked him to do.
1332
01:26:42,854 --> 01:26:44,121
I have to give him that.
1333
01:26:46,057 --> 01:26:46,991
And he waited.
1334
01:26:48,025 --> 01:26:50,393
He waited for a lot
more than a minute.
1335
01:26:51,128 --> 01:26:53,563
There was no reason
to be in Los Angeles anymore
1336
01:26:53,597 --> 01:26:55,733
so it was back to
the New York apartment,
1337
01:26:55,766 --> 01:26:57,034
our old white room.
1338
01:26:57,668 --> 01:26:59,369
Only it wasn't so white anymore,
1339
01:26:59,670 --> 01:27:01,538
Aviva had decorated
the hell out of it
1340
01:27:01,571 --> 01:27:03,040
in the time we were apart.
1341
01:27:03,074 --> 01:27:04,641
New furniture everywhere,
1342
01:27:04,675 --> 01:27:07,544
posters, and even
paintings on the walls.
1343
01:27:07,577 --> 01:27:09,881
Bizarre chachkas on every shelf,
1344
01:27:10,214 --> 01:27:12,116
I hardly recognized it anymore.
1345
01:27:18,555 --> 01:27:19,657
But I was happy.
1346
01:27:20,191 --> 01:27:22,860
I mean, really happy.
1347
01:27:23,493 --> 01:27:25,730
Maybe for the first
time in my life.
1348
01:27:30,801 --> 01:27:31,903
And he waited.
1349
01:27:33,070 --> 01:27:35,072
But she had found something
he had never given her.
1350
01:27:36,640 --> 01:27:38,175
Something that
in her heart of hearts
1351
01:27:38,209 --> 01:27:41,511
she didn't believe he ever
would, or could give her.
1352
01:27:44,581 --> 01:27:46,017
And once having found it,
1353
01:27:46,650 --> 01:27:48,686
she was not about to
easily let it go.
1354
01:27:49,253 --> 01:27:51,621
No matter how good
everything else was.
1355
01:27:52,189 --> 01:27:53,490
And it was good,
1356
01:27:55,059 --> 01:27:56,694
as good as good can be.
1357
01:28:09,807 --> 01:28:11,742
And maybe she
would've come back,
1358
01:28:11,776 --> 01:28:12,877
eventually,
1359
01:28:15,880 --> 01:28:17,480
maybe she did come back.
1360
01:28:24,255 --> 01:28:25,690
I don't really know,
1361
01:28:28,059 --> 01:28:29,193
because by then...
1362
01:28:36,901 --> 01:28:38,169
there was no-one home.
1363
01:28:44,942 --> 01:28:46,476
You can do it harder.
1364
01:28:51,015 --> 01:28:52,582
You can do it much harder.
1365
01:28:52,615 --> 01:28:53,784
How much harder?
1366
01:28:53,818 --> 01:28:55,086
As hard as you want to.
1367
01:28:55,652 --> 01:28:56,854
We need a safe word.
1368
01:28:57,221 --> 01:28:58,856
I don't need a safe word.
1369
01:28:59,056 --> 01:29:00,825
Maybe I need a safe word.
1370
01:29:00,858 --> 01:29:03,493
We don't have to do it
if you don't want to.
1371
01:29:03,861 --> 01:29:05,162
Do you want me to do it?
1372
01:29:05,196 --> 01:29:07,264
I want you to want to do it.
1373
01:29:23,314 --> 01:29:24,581
Ow.
1374
01:29:25,850 --> 01:29:26,851
Come on.
1375
01:29:57,982 --> 01:29:59,016
Did you...
1376
01:29:59,683 --> 01:30:00,751
It was great.
1377
01:30:02,186 --> 01:30:03,854
Yeah, but you didn't...
1378
01:30:04,889 --> 01:30:06,223
There's always next time.
1379
01:30:12,029 --> 01:30:14,597
- Hey.
- Hey. Give me two seconds, okay?
1380
01:30:15,299 --> 01:30:17,301
Hey, can I
talk to you for a minute?
1381
01:30:17,334 --> 01:30:18,869
It can't wait, okay.
1382
01:30:18,903 --> 01:30:20,738
One camera please.
1383
01:30:22,239 --> 01:30:23,841
I just need a minute, okay?
1384
01:30:37,888 --> 01:30:39,323
I can't do this by myself.
1385
01:30:39,890 --> 01:30:41,092
No-one said you had to.
1386
01:30:41,325 --> 01:30:43,360
I don't wanna have to
rely on you anymore.
1387
01:30:43,394 --> 01:30:45,595
I have to be able to
do this on my own.
1388
01:30:45,896 --> 01:30:49,233
Do you have any idea how fucked
up and wrong you are? Do you?
1389
01:30:49,266 --> 01:30:50,868
You don't know how it feels.
1390
01:30:50,901 --> 01:30:53,904
To have never been able to
make one woman for one single
1391
01:30:53,938 --> 01:30:55,206
moment in your life.
1392
01:30:55,239 --> 01:30:57,775
- They like your jokes.
- Fuck you.
1393
01:30:58,943 --> 01:31:02,012
They're only pretending to laugh
to kill time, until you show up.
1394
01:31:02,913 --> 01:31:05,149
I've never even given
a woman an orgasm.
1395
01:31:05,182 --> 01:31:06,984
Not one single orgasm.
1396
01:31:07,017 --> 01:31:08,319
Not one, ever.
1397
01:31:09,854 --> 01:31:10,988
I'm over this.
1398
01:31:11,922 --> 01:31:13,090
Over your fear,
1399
01:31:13,124 --> 01:31:14,358
over your anger.
1400
01:31:15,059 --> 01:31:16,861
Go find someone who doesn't know
any better
1401
01:31:16,894 --> 01:31:17,962
and take the credit for it.
1402
01:31:17,995 --> 01:31:19,697
I can't and I don't want to.
1403
01:31:19,730 --> 01:31:22,933
I wanna be with someone who
I want, for once in my life.
1404
01:31:22,967 --> 01:31:26,904
Not who you want, who I want
and who wants me. Not you, me.
1405
01:31:26,937 --> 01:31:28,839
How the fuck is anyone
supposed to want you,
1406
01:31:28,873 --> 01:31:30,207
when you hate you
so God damn much?
1407
01:31:30,241 --> 01:31:31,809
I don't hate me.
1408
01:31:32,042 --> 01:31:35,246
I hate you. I've always
hated you, ever since...
1409
01:31:37,915 --> 01:31:40,317
Every single problem,
every issue I was having
1410
01:31:40,351 --> 01:31:42,920
with Aviva, was a problem
I was having with you.
1411
01:31:43,454 --> 01:31:45,923
I don't have
a problem with Aviva.
1412
01:31:47,057 --> 01:31:48,392
It's you.
1413
01:31:49,627 --> 01:31:52,696
So are you gonna get back on
your little bike and ride away?
1414
01:31:52,730 --> 01:31:55,232
Or are you gonna do
something about it?
1415
01:31:56,901 --> 01:31:57,968
Socks.
1416
01:31:58,002 --> 01:31:59,303
Thermal stuff is good.
1417
01:31:59,336 --> 01:32:00,771
I have thermal stuff.
1418
01:32:00,804 --> 01:32:02,106
I know how to pack.
1419
01:32:03,240 --> 01:32:04,441
Did you order a taxi?
1420
01:32:04,475 --> 01:32:07,378
I thought you...
I'll order, I got it.
1421
01:32:09,046 --> 01:32:10,114
Give me that.
1422
01:32:12,917 --> 01:32:14,151
Make sure you're with someone
1423
01:32:14,185 --> 01:32:15,819
who really
knows what they're doing.
1424
01:32:15,853 --> 01:32:16,754
I'll be fine.
1425
01:32:18,422 --> 01:32:19,757
Right.
1426
01:32:20,457 --> 01:32:22,393
You're about to go
follow some lunatics
1427
01:32:22,426 --> 01:32:24,395
up the side of
a mountain in Alaska.
1428
01:32:25,062 --> 01:32:27,331
Look, I'm making
a movie about couples
1429
01:32:27,364 --> 01:32:29,300
who inspire each other
to go to the edge.
1430
01:32:30,367 --> 01:32:32,736
Doesn't mean you have to
go there with them.
1431
01:32:33,070 --> 01:32:35,139
People are opening up
their lives to me.
1432
01:32:35,172 --> 01:32:37,408
If they're going there,
I've gotta go there too.
1433
01:32:40,411 --> 01:32:42,980
You gonna back me up here
or you just gonna sit there
1434
01:32:43,013 --> 01:32:44,281
staring at the door?
1435
01:32:44,782 --> 01:32:46,951
I'm not
staring at the door.
1436
01:32:46,984 --> 01:32:48,319
I'm making flight plans.
1437
01:32:58,229 --> 01:32:59,363
Flight plans?
1438
01:33:00,364 --> 01:33:02,166
I'm going to LA for a week.
1439
01:33:03,901 --> 01:33:05,135
This is news.
1440
01:33:05,169 --> 01:33:06,403
It's a last minute meeting.
1441
01:33:09,073 --> 01:33:11,242
Oh, before I go to Alaska?
1442
01:33:12,943 --> 01:33:14,078
Next morning.
1443
01:33:51,215 --> 01:33:52,883
Door closes.
1444
01:33:52,916 --> 01:33:55,152
Down three flights.
Picks up bag.
1445
01:33:55,185 --> 01:33:57,354
Goes outside. Looks for a taxi.
1446
01:33:57,388 --> 01:34:00,858
Taxi. Taxi. Taxi. Whoo.
1447
01:34:00,891 --> 01:34:04,194
Picks up bag.
"The airport please."
1448
01:34:06,230 --> 01:34:07,264
It's hot.
1449
01:34:09,633 --> 01:34:11,602
Ooh.
1450
01:34:11,635 --> 01:34:15,406
Gets money out. Pays. Kicks
the door open. Gets the bag.
1451
01:34:16,340 --> 01:34:17,441
Passport.
1452
01:34:23,147 --> 01:34:25,316
Security. Computer.
1453
01:34:25,649 --> 01:34:27,418
Beep. Shoes.
1454
01:34:28,218 --> 01:34:29,586
Beep, beep, beep.
1455
01:34:30,621 --> 01:34:31,855
Shoes.
1456
01:34:31,889 --> 01:34:32,890
Computer.
1457
01:34:32,923 --> 01:34:35,125
Bag. On the plane.
1458
01:34:35,626 --> 01:34:36,927
Looks for the seat.
1459
01:34:37,361 --> 01:34:38,362
32B.
1460
01:34:45,402 --> 01:34:47,538
Seat belt. Looks out the window.
1461
01:34:49,106 --> 01:34:50,407
Time for takeoff.
1462
01:34:58,415 --> 01:35:02,386
Cruising altitude is
30 thousand hundred feet.
1463
01:35:03,654 --> 01:35:04,988
Drink please.
1464
01:35:05,022 --> 01:35:06,156
Click.
1465
01:35:26,678 --> 01:35:27,945
Another drink.
1466
01:35:31,982 --> 01:35:33,250
Time for landing.
1467
01:35:37,388 --> 01:35:41,525
"Welcome to LA where the weather
is perfect all the time."
1468
01:35:50,100 --> 01:35:51,435
Catches the car keys.
1469
01:35:52,403 --> 01:35:53,437
Good day.
1470
01:36:00,144 --> 01:36:02,680
Picks up the phone. Ding. Ding.
1471
01:36:08,385 --> 01:36:09,420
"Hey."
1472
01:36:11,355 --> 01:36:13,691
"Isadora. It's Eden."
1473
01:36:15,092 --> 01:36:17,528
"Wow, what a surprise."
1474
01:36:18,362 --> 01:36:22,399
"Yeah. Even more of a surprise,
I'm in LA."
1475
01:36:23,200 --> 01:36:24,301
"Really?"
1476
01:36:24,769 --> 01:36:26,136
"Yeah."
1477
01:36:26,403 --> 01:36:27,337
"Wow."
1478
01:36:27,371 --> 01:36:29,640
"Uh, any chance you're around?"
1479
01:36:29,674 --> 01:36:30,974
"I'm around."
1480
01:36:31,308 --> 01:36:33,544
"Well, uh, can I see you?"
1481
01:36:33,577 --> 01:36:35,379
"You can see me."
1482
01:36:35,680 --> 01:36:36,547
"When?"
1483
01:36:37,047 --> 01:36:39,016
"How about... now?"
1484
01:36:39,416 --> 01:36:41,318
"Okay, where's your address?"
1485
01:36:41,351 --> 01:36:43,654
"I'll text you it.
It's a five story walk-up.
1486
01:36:43,688 --> 01:36:45,222
Think you can make it up?"
1487
01:36:45,522 --> 01:36:47,157
"I can make it up."
1488
01:36:48,091 --> 01:36:49,661
What is this feeling?
1489
01:36:50,260 --> 01:36:52,229
This feeling that he's
never had before
1490
01:36:52,664 --> 01:36:56,433
This feeling, this,
even before it happens,
1491
01:36:56,467 --> 01:36:59,269
he knows that there's
no going back.
1492
01:36:59,303 --> 01:37:02,539
Either this is gonna
be complete bullshit
1493
01:37:02,573 --> 01:37:05,642
or this is it.
1494
01:37:13,083 --> 01:37:14,284
Ping.
1495
01:37:49,821 --> 01:37:51,388
Found the edge, huh?
1496
01:37:55,727 --> 01:37:57,294
I guess I went over it.
1497
01:37:58,562 --> 01:38:00,030
I guess so.
1498
01:38:02,466 --> 01:38:05,536
I hope I didn't fuck up
your business trip too much.
1499
01:38:05,569 --> 01:38:06,637
Don't be stupid.
1500
01:38:10,574 --> 01:38:11,709
What's the damage?
1501
01:38:15,612 --> 01:38:17,047
I fractured
1502
01:38:17,682 --> 01:38:20,083
three vertebras in my spine.
1503
01:38:23,287 --> 01:38:24,789
The doctor said that...
1504
01:38:25,790 --> 01:38:28,091
I might be all right,
eventually.
1505
01:38:30,561 --> 01:38:34,097
But it's going to take
a lot of time and patience.
1506
01:38:46,811 --> 01:38:48,178
Can we go home now?
1507
01:38:54,819 --> 01:38:56,821
"What
unbelievable timing,"
1508
01:38:56,854 --> 01:38:58,322
he thinks to himself.
1509
01:38:58,355 --> 01:38:59,489
A joke.
1510
01:38:59,523 --> 01:39:01,458
A test too monstrous
even for a cruel
1511
01:39:01,491 --> 01:39:03,160
and capricious God to invent.
1512
01:39:03,695 --> 01:39:06,430
Leaving Aviva now
would be unforgivable.
1513
01:39:07,464 --> 01:39:09,834
He's gonna be like a character
in a Russian novel.
1514
01:39:10,601 --> 01:39:13,370
It
was said in his later days,
1515
01:39:13,805 --> 01:39:14,772
he could be seen
1516
01:39:15,740 --> 01:39:20,110
walking arm in arm
with his frail wife
1517
01:39:20,510 --> 01:39:21,645
in the park
1518
01:39:22,479 --> 01:39:23,547
of a Sunday,
1519
01:39:24,782 --> 01:39:26,149
taking in the air.
1520
01:39:26,918 --> 01:39:29,887
A faraway look in
his hollow eyes.
1521
01:39:31,421 --> 01:39:33,223
Like two ghosts.
1522
01:39:33,791 --> 01:39:35,392
Without purpose
1523
01:39:35,793 --> 01:39:37,427
or destination.
1524
01:39:39,396 --> 01:39:42,299
They've wondered
through the land of the living...
1525
01:39:42,332 --> 01:39:43,433
Please!
1526
01:40:18,002 --> 01:40:20,437
I can't do this anymore.
1527
01:40:26,576 --> 01:40:27,611
I know.
1528
01:40:31,816 --> 01:40:33,383
Did you meet someone?
1529
01:40:36,520 --> 01:40:37,621
Yes.
1530
01:40:41,358 --> 01:40:42,459
In Los Angeles?
1531
01:40:46,530 --> 01:40:47,631
Yes.
1532
01:40:57,441 --> 01:40:59,409
Will you stay with
me long enough
1533
01:40:59,977 --> 01:41:03,480
to help me go through some
of the doctor's appointments?
1534
01:41:05,883 --> 01:41:07,885
So I can figure out what's what?
1535
01:41:10,922 --> 01:41:14,424
He stays for
six weeks before he takes off.
1536
01:41:15,559 --> 01:41:17,461
As for his thing with Isadora,
1537
01:41:18,462 --> 01:41:19,396
pfft.
1538
01:41:19,697 --> 01:41:20,865
I end it in five.
1539
01:41:23,567 --> 01:41:24,836
Payback's a bitch!
1540
01:41:26,771 --> 01:41:28,673
He'll never forgive me for it.
1541
01:41:29,473 --> 01:41:30,808
Fuck him!
1542
01:41:30,842 --> 01:41:32,542
What's he ever
really done for me?
1543
01:41:32,944 --> 01:41:35,312
Other than a few brief misfires.
1544
01:41:35,847 --> 01:41:37,682
He and I are
in a relationship now.
1545
01:41:37,715 --> 01:41:38,883
Only with each other.
1546
01:41:39,516 --> 01:41:40,918
Not much of a relationship.
1547
01:41:42,519 --> 01:41:43,821
More like a détente,
1548
01:41:45,388 --> 01:41:46,456
a cold war.
1549
01:41:46,891 --> 01:41:48,358
No major blow ups
1550
01:41:49,559 --> 01:41:52,429
without any outside forces
to instigate discord or strife,
1551
01:41:53,765 --> 01:41:55,499
but a lot of lonely nights
1552
01:41:55,800 --> 01:41:56,901
and internet porn,
1553
01:41:57,668 --> 01:41:58,870
which weirdly enough,
1554
01:41:59,402 --> 01:42:01,271
I think I'm more
into than he is.
1555
01:42:03,540 --> 01:42:04,776
As for Aviva...
1556
01:42:14,752 --> 01:42:16,087
She finished her movie
1557
01:42:16,120 --> 01:42:18,288
after a slow and painful
year of rehab.
1558
01:42:18,555 --> 01:42:20,858
Achieved with an iron
will and courage,
1559
01:42:21,092 --> 01:42:23,661
and an immense tolerance
for suffering.
1560
01:42:30,500 --> 01:42:32,069
I've seen it a hundred times.
1561
01:42:35,372 --> 01:42:38,642
And Aviva's capacity for
acceptance and forgiveness
1562
01:42:39,043 --> 01:42:42,013
is as vast as the ocean
she once crossed
1563
01:42:42,046 --> 01:42:43,781
in order to share
her life with me.
1564
01:42:46,449 --> 01:42:49,921
And not a day will pass without
a message or a call between us.
1565
01:42:50,453 --> 01:42:52,890
And we will work together
and play together
1566
01:42:54,926 --> 01:42:56,794
and grow closer
than ever before.
1567
01:43:14,846 --> 01:43:15,980
And one day...
1568
01:43:17,514 --> 01:43:18,615
Where is she?
1569
01:43:19,183 --> 01:43:21,651
My girlfriend's
out there tonight.
1570
01:43:21,686 --> 01:43:22,787
Where?
1571
01:43:23,587 --> 01:43:24,856
There she is.
1572
01:43:24,889 --> 01:43:26,724
Bon jour, mon amour.
1573
01:43:26,757 --> 01:43:28,993
- Bonsoir.
- Bonsoir.
1574
01:43:29,026 --> 01:43:30,061
What?
1575
01:43:30,094 --> 01:43:32,163
Don't nothing rhyme
with soir, baby.
1576
01:43:32,196 --> 01:43:34,732
I don't know
what to call you now.
1577
01:43:34,765 --> 01:43:37,034
My girl is French. Crazy, too.
1578
01:43:37,068 --> 01:43:39,436
Got me dancing under
active volcanos
1579
01:43:39,469 --> 01:43:41,438
and all type of bridges
and whatnot...
1580
01:43:41,471 --> 01:43:43,908
She's charming as hell though,
got my heart like
1581
01:43:50,181 --> 01:43:51,816
She's complicated.
1582
01:43:51,849 --> 01:43:54,051
Not only is she French, she's
Jewish, got an attitude
1583
01:43:54,085 --> 01:43:55,753
and she feels guilty about it.
1584
01:43:55,786 --> 01:43:57,487
And I feel guilty too,
1585
01:43:57,520 --> 01:43:58,990
I drive a German car.
1586
01:43:59,623 --> 01:44:01,625
The Jewish and German people
have a history
1587
01:44:01,659 --> 01:44:02,894
I don't fully understand.
1588
01:44:02,927 --> 01:44:05,029
All I know is that
when she's in the car
1589
01:44:05,062 --> 01:44:06,764
I can't turn the heat on
without hearing shit
1590
01:44:06,797 --> 01:44:08,766
about her grandmother.
1591
01:44:08,799 --> 01:44:10,134
She gives me this look like...
1592
01:44:10,167 --> 01:44:13,204
And I'm like, "Sorry,
I didn't kill your family!
1593
01:44:13,237 --> 01:44:15,940
I'm just enjoying the
precision and cold-blooded
1594
01:44:15,973 --> 01:44:18,109
technical efficiency
of those who did."
1595
01:44:18,776 --> 01:44:19,810
Is that so wrong?
1596
01:44:22,713 --> 01:44:25,917
When she laughs at a guy's
jokes, she's not pretending.
1597
01:44:26,684 --> 01:44:28,485
Oh, he's amazing, right?
1598
01:44:29,519 --> 01:44:30,788
He loves you.
1599
01:44:33,124 --> 01:44:34,125
He does.
1600
01:44:35,492 --> 01:44:36,661
And he's the best.
1601
01:44:42,900 --> 01:44:44,769
It was a great show.
1602
01:44:55,713 --> 01:44:57,614
I need to tell you something.
1603
01:44:58,749 --> 01:44:59,817
Excuse me.
1604
01:45:12,997 --> 01:45:14,699
I'm going to have a baby.
1605
01:45:24,541 --> 01:45:25,743
When?
1606
01:45:28,245 --> 01:45:29,747
Seven months.
1607
01:45:42,625 --> 01:45:44,128
Everything's gonna change.
1608
01:45:47,164 --> 01:45:49,233
Everything is always changing.
1609
01:45:56,040 --> 01:45:56,974
Hello.
1610
01:45:57,274 --> 01:45:58,809
Hello.
1611
01:49:11,969 --> 01:49:13,837
You are my best friend
1612
01:49:14,205 --> 01:49:15,472
in the world.
1613
01:50:22,668 --> 01:50:27,668
Subtitles by explosiveskull
1614
01:50:30,614 --> 01:50:35,085
♪ Tears are clouding
Up a sunny day ♪
1615
01:50:38,389 --> 01:50:40,958
♪ And I wish I'd turn up ♪
1616
01:50:41,292 --> 01:50:44,194
♪ Any other way ♪
1617
01:50:46,330 --> 01:50:48,966
♪ But I don't think
That you'd care ♪
1618
01:50:50,401 --> 01:50:53,070
♪ If I stepped out
Of your hair ♪
1619
01:50:54,071 --> 01:51:00,244
♪ And you'd find me
Anywhere but here ♪
1620
01:51:01,078 --> 01:51:05,082
♪ I wish it wasn't so ♪
1621
01:51:07,885 --> 01:51:14,425
♪ I'll say it again I
Wish it wasn't so ♪
1622
01:51:16,126 --> 01:51:18,562
♪ But I don't think
That you'd mind ♪
1623
01:51:20,264 --> 01:51:22,966
♪ If I left this room behind ♪
1624
01:51:24,134 --> 01:51:27,504
♪ And I'd step outside to find ♪
1625
01:51:28,639 --> 01:51:31,442
♪ Some other place ♪
1626
01:51:38,282 --> 01:51:44,588
♪ Let's say that it's okay ♪
1627
01:51:44,621 --> 01:51:51,395
♪ And just leave it at that ♪
1628
01:51:58,001 --> 01:52:03,340
♪ Things are different
Than they seem ♪
1629
01:52:05,509 --> 01:52:08,178
♪ Everybody's looking
From the outside ♪
1630
01:52:08,212 --> 01:52:12,249
♪ But we're both Stuck within ♪
1631
01:52:13,718 --> 01:52:16,286
♪ And I wish that
You would say ♪
1632
01:52:17,421 --> 01:52:20,124
♪ That you wanted me to stay ♪
1633
01:52:21,492 --> 01:52:25,629
♪ And we'll find
Some other way ♪
1634
01:52:27,264 --> 01:52:29,333
♪ But this ♪
1635
01:52:31,468 --> 01:52:38,375
♪ Let's say that it's okay ♪
1636
01:52:38,409 --> 01:52:45,149
♪ And just leave it at that ♪
1637
01:53:06,003 --> 01:53:08,439
♪ Maybe I could wait ♪
1638
01:53:09,473 --> 01:53:12,109
♪ But I think that
It's too late ♪
1639
01:53:13,510 --> 01:53:17,147
♪ So let's just call it fate ♪
1640
01:53:19,183 --> 01:53:20,951
♪ From here ♪