1 00:00:02,000 --> 00:00:03,920 Did they tell you how long? - Six months. At most. 2 00:00:03,920 --> 00:00:05,880 Probably. - And where is Maya? 3 00:00:05,880 --> 00:00:07,280 - I told ya I was seeing Kat tonight. 4 00:00:07,280 --> 00:00:09,280 - Well, you can't be here. I'm busy. - Handyman? 5 00:00:09,280 --> 00:00:13,400 - I wanted sex. It's just not worth all the... 6 00:00:13,400 --> 00:00:14,560 - Sorry. 7 00:00:14,560 --> 00:00:17,080 - I've been driven out of my flat, and I know that if I stay here, 8 00:00:17,080 --> 00:00:18,920 I am going to drink some of that wine. 9 00:00:18,920 --> 00:00:22,880 - 20 years ago, I had an affair...with Helen, 10 00:00:22,880 --> 00:00:25,680 and I thought, "What good would it do to tell you?" 11 00:00:25,680 --> 00:00:28,480 - You haven't noticed the ring, have you? Just step back completely, 12 00:00:28,480 --> 00:00:30,840 and when you do, I'll persuade Hannah it's for the best, 13 00:00:30,840 --> 00:00:32,680 get her to make no more demands on you ever. 14 00:00:32,680 --> 00:00:34,640 - I'm her dad. - Mate, she's got a dad. 15 00:00:34,640 --> 00:00:36,400 - This is Gaby. - I'm his girlfriend. 16 00:00:36,400 --> 00:00:37,720 - Right! 17 00:00:37,720 --> 00:00:40,360 - Don't fall off the wagon, because Maya needs you. 18 00:00:40,360 --> 00:00:42,960 - I can't imagine what problem your wife has with me, but... 19 00:00:42,960 --> 00:00:45,960 - She's dead. - I beg your pardon? 20 00:00:45,960 --> 00:00:48,480 - Someone told me about your wife. I'm sorry. 21 00:00:48,480 --> 00:00:51,000 - Everyone makes mistakes. Right? 22 00:00:51,000 --> 00:00:52,600 - We should go out. 23 00:00:52,600 --> 00:00:55,280 Give it a go, like exposure therapy. 24 00:00:55,280 --> 00:00:55,280 - HE LAUGHS 25 00:00:55,280 --> 00:00:57,400 - You're my student. 26 00:00:57,400 --> 00:00:59,520 - Yeah, I know. I mean as a mate. 27 00:00:59,520 --> 00:01:03,080 - HENRY: - I deserve some love, some kindness. 28 00:01:03,080 --> 00:01:04,720 We love each other! 29 00:01:04,720 --> 00:01:05,960 Don't we? 30 00:01:10,320 --> 00:01:12,240 - I don't know if I do any more. 31 00:01:16,200 --> 00:01:18,120 I don't know if I do. 32 00:01:22,080 --> 00:01:23,800 - You don't love me? 33 00:01:29,240 --> 00:01:31,240 Because of Helen? - No. 34 00:01:31,240 --> 00:01:33,120 - It was a long time ago, and I didn't tell you 35 00:01:33,120 --> 00:01:34,800 because it meant nothing! 36 00:01:34,800 --> 00:01:36,560 I was trying to protect you... - Stop it. 37 00:01:36,560 --> 00:01:39,080 - I've never done anything like that before or since... 38 00:01:39,080 --> 00:01:41,560 - Henry, please listen to me. - ..and despite all that, 39 00:01:41,560 --> 00:01:42,720 all our time together, 40 00:01:42,720 --> 00:01:45,480 you've just now decided you don't love me any more?! 41 00:01:45,480 --> 00:01:47,400 - Look, I'm just trying to... - Interesting! 42 00:01:47,400 --> 00:01:48,800 Really interesting. 43 00:01:48,800 --> 00:01:52,240 Yes, it's hard for both of us, but we do love each other, 44 00:01:52,240 --> 00:01:53,680 and whatever happens, 45 00:01:53,680 --> 00:01:56,480 we are going to do it together, all right?! 46 00:01:56,480 --> 00:02:01,240 - That's exactly what I want, that we work through this together. 47 00:02:10,080 --> 00:02:11,800 - I don't want to hear it. 48 00:02:16,520 --> 00:02:18,920 - DOOR SLAMS 49 00:02:18,920 --> 00:02:21,760 GAIL: You can understand my difficulty. 50 00:02:21,760 --> 00:02:24,360 That's why I came to you. 51 00:02:24,360 --> 00:02:27,320 It's a moral question. - Indeed. 52 00:02:29,080 --> 00:02:32,200 - I told him maybe I didn't love him any more, 53 00:02:32,200 --> 00:02:34,240 but he just stopped me talking. 54 00:02:34,240 --> 00:02:36,000 Said he didn't want to hear it. 55 00:02:36,000 --> 00:02:38,000 Just walked away. 56 00:02:38,000 --> 00:02:41,800 And given what's going on, maybe he's right. 57 00:02:43,000 --> 00:02:45,000 Maybe it's selfish. 58 00:02:46,120 --> 00:02:47,320 - Six months? 59 00:02:48,440 --> 00:02:50,240 - Apparently. 60 00:02:50,240 --> 00:02:51,560 DOOR CLOSES 61 00:02:53,080 --> 00:02:58,520 Maybe I should keep my feelings to myself, but I hoped, 62 00:02:58,520 --> 00:03:00,000 if we talked, 63 00:03:00,000 --> 00:03:01,840 that he'd understand, 64 00:03:01,840 --> 00:03:05,800 that we could work it out somehow and things could change. 65 00:03:05,800 --> 00:03:09,120 - I conduct a lot of weddings here. 66 00:03:09,120 --> 00:03:12,000 I talk to the couples about the commitment 67 00:03:12,000 --> 00:03:14,080 they're making to each other. 68 00:03:14,080 --> 00:03:17,360 We discuss the qualities that might be important. 69 00:03:17,360 --> 00:03:20,960 Support, honesty, respect. 70 00:03:20,960 --> 00:03:24,280 We talk about the flexibility a lifetime together requires. 71 00:03:25,840 --> 00:03:29,840 As we seek to live authentic lives, 72 00:03:29,840 --> 00:03:34,040 we must allow the space for authenticity in others. 73 00:03:34,040 --> 00:03:36,160 But it won't be perfect. 74 00:03:36,160 --> 00:03:38,320 Our lives are a process. 75 00:03:40,360 --> 00:03:41,840 - LAPTOP BEEPS 76 00:03:41,840 --> 00:03:44,680 - Please...don't. 77 00:03:46,280 --> 00:03:47,640 - You try. 78 00:03:47,640 --> 00:03:48,920 Fail. 79 00:03:48,920 --> 00:03:50,640 Fail again. 80 00:03:50,640 --> 00:03:50,640 - LAPTOP BEEPS 81 00:03:50,640 --> 00:03:53,440 - Fail better. 82 00:03:53,440 --> 00:03:55,480 People change. 83 00:03:55,480 --> 00:03:57,400 And grow. 84 00:03:57,400 --> 00:04:00,760 A good marriage will allow for that. 85 00:04:02,120 --> 00:04:04,360 - Maybe you could talk to him. 86 00:04:04,360 --> 00:04:05,400 - No. 87 00:04:06,680 --> 00:04:10,280 I think that's something you have to do yourself. 88 00:04:10,280 --> 00:04:13,080 All he has to do is...listen. 89 00:04:14,280 --> 00:04:15,920 - Yes. 90 00:04:15,920 --> 00:04:17,120 Well... 91 00:04:21,360 --> 00:04:22,960 Thank you. 92 00:04:22,960 --> 00:04:22,960 - Of course. 93 00:04:22,960 --> 00:04:24,560 - CLEARS HIS THROAT 94 00:04:27,400 --> 00:04:29,320 - Storm tonight. 95 00:04:29,320 --> 00:04:30,360 - What? 96 00:04:31,440 --> 00:04:32,920 - On the weather forecast. 97 00:04:34,040 --> 00:04:35,760 They said there'll be a storm. 98 00:04:45,560 --> 00:04:49,440 - # I'll stand outside his window 99 00:04:49,440 --> 00:04:54,240 # Till I'm furniture for birds 100 00:04:55,680 --> 00:04:59,640 # Just tell me what you heard 101 00:05:00,640 --> 00:05:02,120 # Life 102 00:05:02,120 --> 00:05:05,840 # The sun will rise again for us 103 00:05:05,840 --> 00:05:09,560 # Each day as if the first 104 00:05:11,840 --> 00:05:15,680 # If I can only find the words 105 00:05:16,800 --> 00:05:17,960 # Life 106 00:05:19,160 --> 00:05:21,040 # My angel. # 107 00:05:22,040 --> 00:05:24,440 - I want to talk about Personal Independence Payment. - PIP? 108 00:05:24,440 --> 00:05:28,480 - Yes, PIP. I tried calling, but... - PIP isn't anything to do with me. - Yeah, I know, but I thought... 109 00:05:28,480 --> 00:05:30,240 - I agreed to meet about your benefits... 110 00:05:30,240 --> 00:05:33,240 - Look, they said I needed an assessment, so I go all the way there 111 00:05:33,240 --> 00:05:35,760 to this room, in front of this man, who seems friendly, but... 112 00:05:35,760 --> 00:05:37,480 - There's nothing I can do. - Listen, 113 00:05:37,480 --> 00:05:39,800 I've put together all my medical notes, 114 00:05:39,800 --> 00:05:42,200 and I don't think he's even looked at them. 115 00:05:42,200 --> 00:05:45,560 Right? And I'm telling him about all the things that I can and can't do, 116 00:05:45,560 --> 00:05:48,840 and he makes me feel like I'm lying, but I'm not. I'm telling the truth 117 00:05:48,840 --> 00:05:52,200 about needing help with food and personal care and... 118 00:05:52,200 --> 00:05:54,720 And by the end of it, I've lost my money. 119 00:05:54,720 --> 00:05:56,200 The money that I've had for years... 120 00:05:56,200 --> 00:05:58,240 - Criteria have changed. - I haven't changed! 121 00:05:58,240 --> 00:06:00,440 - The criteria... - Actually, I have. 122 00:06:00,440 --> 00:06:03,240 Right? It's got worse. I get loads of bad days recently. 123 00:06:03,240 --> 00:06:05,520 And I've got arthritis in my hand from using it too much, 124 00:06:05,520 --> 00:06:06,880 which gets worse and worse. 125 00:06:06,880 --> 00:06:09,960 So, yeah, the criteria have changed, and I want to know why. 126 00:06:09,960 --> 00:06:11,040 - That's not my... 127 00:06:11,040 --> 00:06:13,360 - It's those without any voice that have been hit 128 00:06:13,360 --> 00:06:14,720 by the brunt of austerity! 129 00:06:14,720 --> 00:06:18,560 Poor people, disabled people... - Hannah, I think maybe that's enough... - It hurts! 130 00:06:20,320 --> 00:06:22,280 It's not just my arm. 131 00:06:23,280 --> 00:06:27,560 Right? It affects the whole side of my body. 132 00:06:27,560 --> 00:06:30,960 It affects the way I walk and the way I sleep. 133 00:06:34,360 --> 00:06:36,360 I just need to speak to a human being. 134 00:06:39,000 --> 00:06:40,560 I'm not begging. 135 00:06:42,160 --> 00:06:44,880 That is my money that I'm entitled to, 136 00:06:44,880 --> 00:06:47,160 to allow me to live my life like anyone else... 137 00:06:47,160 --> 00:06:49,880 - If you don't leave, I'll have to call someone. 138 00:06:58,120 --> 00:06:59,840 - Uh, what are you doing? 139 00:07:06,680 --> 00:07:08,360 - Why didn't you back me up? 140 00:07:08,360 --> 00:07:10,120 - I didn't have a problem with the pencils. 141 00:07:10,120 --> 00:07:12,760 - I'm being serious! You were on her side. 142 00:07:12,760 --> 00:07:16,040 A hand on my lap, trying to silence me! 143 00:07:16,040 --> 00:07:17,480 - I just didn't think it would help. 144 00:07:17,480 --> 00:07:20,000 - "Hannah, maybe that's enough." It's not nearly enough! 145 00:07:20,000 --> 00:07:22,240 This isn't activism, this is my life! 146 00:07:22,240 --> 00:07:24,720 We're getting married, and I need you to understand this, 147 00:07:24,720 --> 00:07:26,760 and more than that, I need you to share it with me. 148 00:07:26,760 --> 00:07:28,400 Right, you're not. 149 00:07:28,400 --> 00:07:32,160 I want passion and outrage, not embarrassment! 150 00:07:32,160 --> 00:07:33,600 - It's not my fault. 151 00:07:35,080 --> 00:07:36,320 Come on, let's just... 152 00:07:36,320 --> 00:07:38,040 - Don't come home. 153 00:07:39,440 --> 00:07:40,920 - What? 154 00:07:40,920 --> 00:07:42,440 - Stay at your parents'. 155 00:07:43,600 --> 00:07:45,920 We haven't had any time apart since the baby arrived, 156 00:07:45,920 --> 00:07:48,760 and I used to get it, but now you're always around, for some reason. 157 00:07:48,760 --> 00:07:50,000 - Paternity leave? 158 00:07:51,360 --> 00:07:53,520 Are we OK? 159 00:07:53,520 --> 00:07:56,200 You still want to...? - What? 160 00:07:56,200 --> 00:07:58,560 God, yes, Liam! I still want to get married. 161 00:07:58,560 --> 00:08:00,240 I just need some space, OK? 162 00:08:01,280 --> 00:08:02,640 Just say yes! 163 00:08:05,040 --> 00:08:06,960 - Two pillars. - What? 164 00:08:06,960 --> 00:08:08,720 - It's what they say a good relationship is - 165 00:08:08,720 --> 00:08:10,840 two pillars holding up a roof, 166 00:08:10,840 --> 00:08:14,640 and if they're too far apart, the roof falls down... 167 00:08:16,040 --> 00:08:18,640 ...but it's the same if they're too close together. 168 00:08:18,640 --> 00:08:19,840 Bang. 169 00:08:22,160 --> 00:08:23,600 - Just say yes. 170 00:08:25,520 --> 00:08:26,920 - Yes. 171 00:08:40,720 --> 00:08:44,120 - Get what you needed? - Just extra clothes. 172 00:08:44,120 --> 00:08:46,960 So, it's my birthday tomorrow. 173 00:08:46,960 --> 00:08:49,480 - I know. - I'll be 16. 174 00:08:49,480 --> 00:08:50,840 - I'm aware of that. 175 00:08:50,840 --> 00:08:52,720 - I thought I might have a party? 176 00:08:52,720 --> 00:08:53,880 - Here? 177 00:08:53,880 --> 00:08:54,920 - Yeah. 178 00:08:57,600 --> 00:08:57,600 - CLEARS HER THROAT 179 00:08:57,600 --> 00:08:59,360 Right. 180 00:09:00,720 --> 00:09:04,200 Well, firstly, well done for asking. 181 00:09:04,200 --> 00:09:06,200 That's considerate. - Patronising. 182 00:09:07,640 --> 00:09:11,000 - But I'm afraid, since you arrived, 183 00:09:11,000 --> 00:09:14,880 I'm forever tidying this flat 184 00:09:14,880 --> 00:09:18,240 and I don't want a bunch... - Wouldn't be a bunch. 185 00:09:18,240 --> 00:09:22,000 - Maybe you wouldn't invite a bunch, but you put it on Insta-thing... 186 00:09:22,000 --> 00:09:24,840 - Instagram. It's called Instagram. That's not a thing you can't know. 187 00:09:24,840 --> 00:09:26,920 - You put it on there, anyone could turn up. 188 00:09:26,920 --> 00:09:28,960 - My Instagram's private. 189 00:09:30,480 --> 00:09:32,760 - We'll do something else. 190 00:09:32,760 --> 00:09:33,880 - Like what? 191 00:09:36,080 --> 00:09:37,440 - I don't know. 192 00:09:37,440 --> 00:09:39,360 Uh... A cake! 193 00:09:42,280 --> 00:09:45,040 - OK, I'll go out instead, then. Tonight. 194 00:09:45,040 --> 00:09:47,720 Kat offered, so... - Out? 195 00:09:47,720 --> 00:09:49,400 - Yeah, you know what going out is, right? 196 00:09:49,400 --> 00:09:51,400 You've at least seen other people do it. 197 00:09:53,960 --> 00:09:55,880 - You're not old enough. 198 00:09:55,880 --> 00:09:57,920 - That's my problem. 199 00:09:57,920 --> 00:10:01,160 If I really can't have a party, I've got no choice. 200 00:10:01,160 --> 00:10:02,280 - Fine. 201 00:10:03,800 --> 00:10:04,960 Go out. 202 00:10:06,560 --> 00:10:07,920 Have fun. 203 00:10:20,120 --> 00:10:22,760 HENRY: - Private medicine's a different world, isn't it? 204 00:10:22,760 --> 00:10:24,640 - Yes, well, let's not get into all that. 205 00:10:24,640 --> 00:10:28,480 I have to pay the bills, and I'm not charging you. 206 00:10:28,480 --> 00:10:29,880 It's none of your business. 207 00:10:31,680 --> 00:10:35,520 You know, when I told this man the bad news, 208 00:10:35,520 --> 00:10:37,960 his first thought was of you. 209 00:10:37,960 --> 00:10:40,160 He said, "What about Gail? 210 00:10:40,160 --> 00:10:43,320 "We won't tell Gail until we have all the facts. 211 00:10:43,320 --> 00:10:44,720 "Not fair otherwise." 212 00:10:44,720 --> 00:10:46,360 - But you have the facts now? 213 00:10:46,360 --> 00:10:49,360 - Gail, take it from me, 214 00:10:49,360 --> 00:10:52,440 I've never seen anyone handle it so well... 215 00:10:52,440 --> 00:10:55,040 - Robert, stop being so damn sentimental and tell her what she 216 00:10:55,040 --> 00:10:58,360 needs to know. - His spirit's not dimmed, then? 217 00:10:58,360 --> 00:11:00,840 Thought that might be a silver lining. 218 00:11:00,840 --> 00:11:03,920 Well, we'll need to gather how far it's spread. 219 00:11:03,920 --> 00:11:06,480 That will give us a sense of what treatment we should use 220 00:11:06,480 --> 00:11:08,440 going forward, and the prognosis... 221 00:11:08,440 --> 00:11:10,120 - Henry said six months. 222 00:11:10,120 --> 00:11:12,120 - Yes, it's not resectable, which 223 00:11:12,120 --> 00:11:15,080 means certain options are no longer possible. 224 00:11:15,080 --> 00:11:17,840 So, we'll be looking at a course of chemotherapy. 225 00:11:17,840 --> 00:11:21,160 - But it won't go into remission? - Unlikely. 226 00:11:22,480 --> 00:11:25,280 Chemotherapy can be hard, of course, 227 00:11:25,280 --> 00:11:27,800 but, with luck, there will be a longer survival. 228 00:11:27,800 --> 00:11:29,400 A year maybe. 229 00:11:29,400 --> 00:11:32,840 - And when it takes over, 230 00:11:32,840 --> 00:11:34,600 what happens then? 231 00:11:34,600 --> 00:11:36,520 - Well, it depends... 232 00:11:36,520 --> 00:11:40,280 - Vomiting, pain, weight loss, fatigue, depression. 233 00:11:40,280 --> 00:11:43,040 I'll become very weak indeed. 234 00:11:43,040 --> 00:11:44,960 We'll get someone in to help. 235 00:11:44,960 --> 00:11:47,520 I'm sure the children will do a bit. 236 00:11:47,520 --> 00:11:49,960 It doesn't need to all be down to you. 237 00:11:49,960 --> 00:11:51,400 - But most of it will be. 238 00:11:51,400 --> 00:11:54,440 - Well, yes, probably. 239 00:11:54,440 --> 00:11:56,200 But I mean... Well... 240 00:11:57,920 --> 00:12:01,240 I mean, that's what we signed up for, isn't it? 241 00:12:01,240 --> 00:12:02,880 When we got married. 242 00:12:05,000 --> 00:12:07,160 Sickness and health. 243 00:12:07,160 --> 00:12:08,440 Yes? 244 00:12:16,920 --> 00:12:21,200 - You don't know how lucky you are to have each other. 245 00:12:21,200 --> 00:12:25,560 Going through something like this, it...it's everything. 246 00:12:28,160 --> 00:12:31,840 - I suppose, essentially, it's about duplicity. 247 00:12:31,840 --> 00:12:35,040 Everybody is duplicitous for Shakespeare. 248 00:12:35,040 --> 00:12:40,520 Er, God or kings. Peasants. Men. Women. 249 00:12:40,520 --> 00:12:43,200 As the witches say in Macbeth, 250 00:12:43,200 --> 00:12:44,640 "Fair is foul, 251 00:12:44,640 --> 00:12:47,600 "and foul is fair." And that idea drives them... 252 00:12:47,600 --> 00:12:50,000 - Stop. - ..to commit the... 253 00:12:50,000 --> 00:12:51,040 Sorry? 254 00:12:52,080 --> 00:12:54,000 - We're going to finish there for today. 255 00:12:58,080 --> 00:12:59,240 Thank you. 256 00:13:01,600 --> 00:13:02,800 - 10. 257 00:13:02,800 --> 00:13:04,480 11. 12. 258 00:13:04,480 --> 00:13:06,600 13. 14. 259 00:13:06,600 --> 00:13:08,560 15. 16. 260 00:13:08,560 --> 00:13:10,600 17. 18. 261 00:13:10,600 --> 00:13:12,840 19. 20. 262 00:13:12,840 --> 00:13:14,520 LAUGHTER AND CHATTER 263 00:13:14,520 --> 00:13:17,360 - ...booked for half seven, but we'll start with cocktails. 264 00:13:17,360 --> 00:13:19,880 So, as soon as the kids are vaguely asleep 265 00:13:19,880 --> 00:13:23,280 and you're sure your man's not going to have a breakdown being on 266 00:13:23,280 --> 00:13:25,720 his own, get over there. 267 00:13:25,720 --> 00:13:27,720 - Good session today. 268 00:13:27,720 --> 00:13:30,520 - Yeah, you work us hard. That's why we're here! 269 00:13:30,520 --> 00:13:33,360 - You, um... You going out tonight? 270 00:13:33,360 --> 00:13:35,240 - Er, yeah. 271 00:13:35,240 --> 00:13:38,640 Dinner, drinks... - Cos I've got a spare night tonight. 272 00:13:39,760 --> 00:13:42,400 Perhaps... Could I come along? 273 00:13:42,400 --> 00:13:42,400 - Of course! 274 00:13:42,400 --> 00:13:44,680 - MURMURS OF AGREEMENT 275 00:13:44,680 --> 00:13:46,080 - We'd love that! 276 00:13:46,080 --> 00:13:49,880 It's Gallini's at seven. - All right, then. 277 00:13:49,880 --> 00:13:51,720 See you there. 278 00:13:51,720 --> 00:13:53,000 - See you there! 279 00:13:53,000 --> 00:13:55,120 - Bye. - See you later! 280 00:13:55,120 --> 00:13:57,080 - LAUGHTER AND GIGGLING 281 00:14:03,640 --> 00:14:05,320 PHONE BEEPS 282 00:14:23,160 --> 00:14:24,920 - So, come, come. 283 00:14:24,920 --> 00:14:26,200 - Thanks. 284 00:14:29,200 --> 00:14:30,600 - Erm... 285 00:14:31,840 --> 00:14:33,280 Time. 286 00:14:34,600 --> 00:14:36,440 It's all we've got. 287 00:14:36,440 --> 00:14:39,200 It heals...eventually. 288 00:14:40,800 --> 00:14:44,160 I'm sure it doesn't feel like that at the moment, but... 289 00:14:44,160 --> 00:14:45,400 Anyway... 290 00:14:45,400 --> 00:14:47,200 Oh, sit, sit, sit, please. 291 00:14:47,200 --> 00:14:49,760 Things are ticking over nicely here. 292 00:14:49,760 --> 00:14:53,320 The upshot of attention to Kelly after her death, you know, it's 293 00:14:53,320 --> 00:14:55,080 really, uh... Er... 294 00:14:56,120 --> 00:14:59,800 I mean the fact it meant more readers are discovering her work. 295 00:15:00,960 --> 00:15:03,720 - I'm... I'm not here about any of that. 296 00:15:04,760 --> 00:15:06,400 Look, it's her laptop. 297 00:15:07,400 --> 00:15:08,600 Her... 298 00:15:09,600 --> 00:15:11,440 Her work laptop. 299 00:15:11,440 --> 00:15:13,360 - Oh, right. 300 00:15:13,360 --> 00:15:18,160 - See, after she died, you took it to make sure you had everything 301 00:15:18,160 --> 00:15:20,800 that she'd done, that it was complete. 302 00:15:20,800 --> 00:15:22,400 - Er, yes. 303 00:15:22,400 --> 00:15:28,200 - Um...and I...I wanted to have a look myself, but I couldn't get in. 304 00:15:28,200 --> 00:15:28,200 - LAUGHS NERVOUSLY 305 00:15:28,200 --> 00:15:31,840 - There's a... There's a password. 306 00:15:31,840 --> 00:15:35,640 So, presumably you must have it, if you took the work off. 307 00:15:36,720 --> 00:15:39,680 - In terms of anything unfinished, I'm really happy to send it over. 308 00:15:39,680 --> 00:15:41,840 I mean, there's nothing... 309 00:15:41,840 --> 00:15:45,240 - Do you...? Do you have the password? 310 00:15:45,240 --> 00:15:47,640 - We-we, erm... Yes. 311 00:15:48,960 --> 00:15:50,440 - What is it? 312 00:15:52,800 --> 00:15:54,640 - David... 313 00:15:56,040 --> 00:15:58,520 ...this is awkward. - What? 314 00:16:03,040 --> 00:16:05,360 - Kelly worked very closely with us. 315 00:16:05,360 --> 00:16:08,160 We, erm... We picked up her first submission. 316 00:16:08,160 --> 00:16:10,160 There...there was a lot of trust there. 317 00:16:11,200 --> 00:16:12,560 As with many writers, she left 318 00:16:12,560 --> 00:16:15,440 instructions as to what should happen in the event of her death, 319 00:16:15,440 --> 00:16:18,200 and that included that we remove all the work off her laptop, 320 00:16:18,200 --> 00:16:20,640 but, er, not give anyone the password. 321 00:16:22,240 --> 00:16:23,960 - Even me? 322 00:16:23,960 --> 00:16:27,440 - I'm afraid we can't go against her wishes. 323 00:16:30,320 --> 00:16:32,320 - What didn't she want me to see? 324 00:16:33,600 --> 00:16:35,800 - We got the relevant files. Anything else wasn't... 325 00:16:35,800 --> 00:16:37,520 - Wait, wait. What else? 326 00:16:43,360 --> 00:16:46,640 - She was loved by everyone here 327 00:16:46,640 --> 00:16:48,200 and her readers. 328 00:16:49,480 --> 00:16:50,680 David... 329 00:16:53,600 --> 00:16:56,200 ...she adored you, I promise. 330 00:16:58,880 --> 00:17:01,280 Maybe just... 331 00:17:02,640 --> 00:17:03,920 ..trust her. 332 00:17:06,040 --> 00:17:07,680 David... 333 00:17:19,680 --> 00:17:21,480 - DOOR ENTRY BUZZES 334 00:17:27,240 --> 00:17:29,080 Hello. - It's Kat. 335 00:17:32,320 --> 00:17:34,480 Hi. - You don't have to take your shoes off. 336 00:17:34,480 --> 00:17:37,280 - Oh, right, thanks. - Just stay there, on the mat. 337 00:17:37,280 --> 00:17:38,560 It's Kat! 338 00:17:40,840 --> 00:17:43,840 - You want to know where we're going? - No. 339 00:17:43,840 --> 00:17:46,200 - Vanilla. Maya's never been there before. 340 00:17:46,200 --> 00:17:48,560 - Is, er... Is Vanilla a club? 341 00:17:48,560 --> 00:17:50,800 - It's for girls, you know? 342 00:17:50,800 --> 00:17:52,560 - Not really. 343 00:17:52,560 --> 00:17:53,800 - Are you going out, too? 344 00:17:54,960 --> 00:17:56,400 - No. - You're dressed up. 345 00:17:56,400 --> 00:17:57,480 - No, I'm not. 346 00:17:57,480 --> 00:17:59,760 - Why are you dressed up? - Oh, very funny. 347 00:17:59,760 --> 00:18:01,200 Wait there, please. 348 00:18:05,760 --> 00:18:08,040 - Do you want me to open that now? 349 00:18:08,040 --> 00:18:09,760 - Up to you. 350 00:18:09,760 --> 00:18:11,160 - Right, then. 351 00:18:11,160 --> 00:18:12,920 - But it would be polite. 352 00:18:29,240 --> 00:18:31,000 - Mum? 353 00:18:31,000 --> 00:18:32,800 Has she even texted, or anything? 354 00:18:34,040 --> 00:18:35,840 - Open the present. 355 00:18:48,840 --> 00:18:51,000 - Oh, wow! Oh, my God, mate. 356 00:18:51,000 --> 00:18:53,680 That's really expensive. 357 00:18:55,920 --> 00:18:58,880 - It was my mother's. Your grandmother's. 358 00:18:58,880 --> 00:18:58,880 LAUGHS 359 00:18:58,880 --> 00:19:02,560 - Thanks, yeah? 360 00:19:03,840 --> 00:19:05,280 - Look... 361 00:19:06,720 --> 00:19:08,120 You'll lose it. 362 00:19:08,120 --> 00:19:10,840 Give it to me and you can have it to look at when you like. 363 00:19:22,760 --> 00:19:24,480 - Bye. 364 00:19:24,480 --> 00:19:24,480 - DOOR CLOSES 365 00:19:24,480 --> 00:19:26,480 - # Happy birthday to you... # 366 00:19:26,480 --> 00:19:27,920 - Yeah, thanks. 367 00:19:27,920 --> 00:19:30,000 - MUFFLED SPEECH FADES 368 00:19:30,000 --> 00:19:31,600 DOOR CLOSES 369 00:19:31,600 --> 00:19:34,000 KEYBOARD TAPS 370 00:20:31,800 --> 00:20:33,480 DOOR ENTRY BUZZES 371 00:20:38,280 --> 00:20:41,640 How was it? - Yeah, good. We went to the park. 372 00:20:41,640 --> 00:20:45,280 We looked at some squirrels, and I told her how cars work. 373 00:20:45,280 --> 00:20:47,160 You all right? 374 00:20:47,160 --> 00:20:51,120 - Yeah! Just a weird email from the guy upstairs. 375 00:20:52,160 --> 00:20:53,840 His... His wife died. 376 00:20:55,920 --> 00:20:57,200 - Liam not back? 377 00:20:57,200 --> 00:20:58,960 - He's at work. 378 00:21:00,240 --> 00:21:03,840 Actually, no. He's, erm... He's at his parents'. 379 00:21:03,840 --> 00:21:06,160 I needed some space, if I'm honest. 380 00:21:06,160 --> 00:21:08,240 - Hmm. Doghouse. What happened? 381 00:21:08,240 --> 00:21:10,280 - No, no, nothing. 382 00:21:10,280 --> 00:21:13,680 I'm just not used to him being around all the time, so it's... 383 00:21:13,680 --> 00:21:15,800 - Yeah, my mum and dad argue a lot. 384 00:21:15,800 --> 00:21:18,560 They love each other, but it's Vietnam half the time. 385 00:21:18,560 --> 00:21:21,840 Me and my sister are like, "Duck for cover! Napalm! Pfft!" 386 00:21:21,840 --> 00:21:23,600 - GIGGLES 387 00:21:23,600 --> 00:21:25,360 Napalm? 388 00:21:26,840 --> 00:21:29,040 - She's been hitting herself in the face. 389 00:21:29,040 --> 00:21:30,560 Is that normal? 390 00:21:30,560 --> 00:21:34,200 - She can't believe her dad does napalm jokes. 391 00:21:34,200 --> 00:21:36,120 - Well, she better get used to it. 392 00:21:40,400 --> 00:21:44,520 - Do you...want to stay for a cup of tea or whatever? 393 00:21:44,520 --> 00:21:47,160 - Oh, I don't drink tea. - Whatever, then. 394 00:21:49,120 --> 00:21:52,560 It's not Mastermind, Andy. You don't have to. 395 00:21:52,560 --> 00:21:56,040 I was just being polite. - Yeah. Er, Coke? 396 00:21:56,040 --> 00:21:57,360 - Sure. 397 00:21:59,320 --> 00:22:01,040 - That's it. 398 00:22:01,040 --> 00:22:02,760 - HANNAH LAUGHS 399 00:22:04,040 --> 00:22:05,720 Coke. - Thanks. 400 00:22:05,720 --> 00:22:07,200 - You're lucky. 401 00:22:07,200 --> 00:22:09,760 I hate fizzy drinks, but... 402 00:22:09,760 --> 00:22:14,040 ..Liam says they're his guilty pleasure. 403 00:22:14,040 --> 00:22:17,360 VEHICLE PULLS UP OUTSIDE 404 00:22:17,360 --> 00:22:18,920 - I like your flat. 405 00:22:19,920 --> 00:22:23,040 - Landlady keeps the rent low, for some reason. 406 00:22:23,040 --> 00:22:25,640 - Yeah, she's all right, your landlady. - You met her? 407 00:22:25,640 --> 00:22:27,360 - Yeah, we got talking one time. 408 00:22:27,360 --> 00:22:32,440 She's nice, but, I don't know, something's not right, is it? 409 00:22:44,640 --> 00:22:46,160 - WOMAN: - Thank you. 410 00:22:54,000 --> 00:22:56,320 - Hi! - Oh, shit! What are you...? 411 00:22:56,320 --> 00:22:58,600 - You're wearing your best shirt! 412 00:22:58,600 --> 00:23:01,000 Very nice. Just one question. 413 00:23:01,000 --> 00:23:03,520 What are you hoping will happen tonight? 414 00:23:03,520 --> 00:23:07,000 That this girl will jump into bed with you and do things? 415 00:23:07,000 --> 00:23:11,640 Cos, look, I love you, but you are not experienced, to put it mildly, 416 00:23:11,640 --> 00:23:15,160 and we both know that you are missing me and using her. 417 00:23:15,160 --> 00:23:16,520 Not good at all. 418 00:23:16,520 --> 00:23:18,640 - What's on the laptop? 419 00:23:18,640 --> 00:23:21,360 - Good evening. - Yeah, I'm meeting a friend. 420 00:23:21,360 --> 00:23:24,480 Oh, he's right there. - Yes, right over there. 421 00:23:29,400 --> 00:23:31,360 - Hey! - Hi. 422 00:23:31,360 --> 00:23:33,440 - Um... 423 00:23:33,440 --> 00:23:33,440 Please... 424 00:23:33,440 --> 00:23:36,040 CLEARS HIS THROAT 425 00:23:36,040 --> 00:23:40,600 This... Is this, er, too formal? - No, no, it's great. 426 00:23:40,600 --> 00:23:44,280 - I'm paying anyway, so I didn't want you to have to worry about... 427 00:23:44,280 --> 00:23:46,480 - I wasn't. 428 00:23:46,480 --> 00:23:47,880 - Right, good. 429 00:23:47,880 --> 00:23:49,760 - Look, I might not have much money, 430 00:23:49,760 --> 00:23:52,480 but it's a point of principle for me. Pay my way. 431 00:23:52,480 --> 00:23:54,040 - Yes. Quite right. 432 00:23:54,040 --> 00:23:57,680 - Anything to drink? - Ah, yes, yes. Would you like to...? 433 00:23:57,680 --> 00:23:57,680 GLASS SHATTERS 434 00:23:57,680 --> 00:23:59,480 - Oh! Oh! 435 00:23:59,480 --> 00:24:01,000 - Sorry! Um... 436 00:24:01,000 --> 00:24:02,840 - Don't worry about it. It's fine. - All right. 437 00:24:02,840 --> 00:24:04,160 - Um... 438 00:24:04,160 --> 00:24:05,480 I'm very clumsy. 439 00:24:05,480 --> 00:24:07,000 Erm, yes, please. 440 00:24:07,000 --> 00:24:10,200 Yes, we would definitely like some drinks. 441 00:24:10,200 --> 00:24:11,600 Yes? - Yeah. 442 00:24:16,560 --> 00:24:18,520 - RUSTLING 443 00:24:20,560 --> 00:24:23,600 FOOTSTEPS 444 00:24:26,200 --> 00:24:27,560 - What are you doing? 445 00:24:27,560 --> 00:24:29,920 - Moving my stuff into the spare room. 446 00:24:29,920 --> 00:24:31,000 - Where? 447 00:24:31,000 --> 00:24:32,400 Why? 448 00:24:36,680 --> 00:24:38,880 You're not sleeping in here any more? 449 00:24:38,880 --> 00:24:40,320 - That's right. 450 00:24:40,320 --> 00:24:40,320 HE SIGHS 451 00:24:40,320 --> 00:24:42,000 - OK. 452 00:24:42,000 --> 00:24:44,320 - Throwing a few things away, too. 453 00:24:44,320 --> 00:24:46,120 - I gave you this. 454 00:24:46,120 --> 00:24:47,600 - I know. 455 00:24:47,600 --> 00:24:51,000 - No, no, no, I'm not playing games! 456 00:24:51,000 --> 00:24:52,520 - Neither am I. 457 00:24:52,520 --> 00:24:55,280 I tried to talk to you, you didn't want to hear it. 458 00:24:55,280 --> 00:24:57,560 - Well, all right, let's talk now. - All right. 459 00:24:57,560 --> 00:24:59,840 I'll tell you everything, on one condition. 460 00:24:59,840 --> 00:25:02,000 - So complicated! - That when I'm talking, 461 00:25:02,000 --> 00:25:03,480 you don't. You listen... 462 00:25:03,480 --> 00:25:05,320 - Listening was my job, really. 463 00:25:05,320 --> 00:25:07,840 - The right answer is just to say, "Of course. 464 00:25:07,840 --> 00:25:09,400 "Of course I'll listen." 465 00:25:09,400 --> 00:25:11,640 If you can't give me that reassurance... 466 00:25:11,640 --> 00:25:13,240 - Of course I'll listen. 467 00:25:16,160 --> 00:25:17,800 - Right. 468 00:25:23,760 --> 00:25:27,160 You know I crashed into Dawn and we went for lunch. 469 00:25:27,160 --> 00:25:30,400 - Dawn, yes. - Well, she'd last seen me so long ago, 470 00:25:30,400 --> 00:25:32,960 and she was surprised. 471 00:25:32,960 --> 00:25:35,520 And eventually she told me 472 00:25:35,520 --> 00:25:39,000 that I seemed like a shadow of the person she knew at school. 473 00:25:39,000 --> 00:25:43,520 - I see. - That at school I'd been very extrovert, 474 00:25:43,520 --> 00:25:46,280 and now, well... 475 00:25:46,280 --> 00:25:49,040 She also watched us together 476 00:25:49,040 --> 00:25:52,400 and noticed how much you talked over me. 477 00:25:52,400 --> 00:25:54,160 How you didn't listen. 478 00:25:54,160 --> 00:25:56,280 How you mocked me. - Mocked you? 479 00:25:56,280 --> 00:25:59,120 - Made fun of me all the time - yes, in a way that's funny, 480 00:25:59,120 --> 00:26:01,520 but that undermines me. - Not sure what gave her the right... 481 00:26:01,520 --> 00:26:04,000 - I know, and I'm not... 482 00:26:04,000 --> 00:26:06,120 I'm not saying she's right about everything... 483 00:26:06,120 --> 00:26:09,280 - Good! - ..but the problem was that once she'd said it... 484 00:26:10,280 --> 00:26:12,320 ..I realised it was true. 485 00:26:13,560 --> 00:26:16,680 You do do those things...all the time. 486 00:26:16,680 --> 00:26:18,000 - I see. 487 00:26:18,000 --> 00:26:20,040 - And it went further. 488 00:26:20,040 --> 00:26:22,520 She reminded me of the ambition I had. 489 00:26:22,520 --> 00:26:24,000 The things I wanted to do. 490 00:26:24,000 --> 00:26:25,960 - No-one's stopped you. - She said, at school, 491 00:26:25,960 --> 00:26:28,720 everyone looked up to me because I was funny. 492 00:26:28,720 --> 00:26:30,360 She said extrovert. 493 00:26:30,360 --> 00:26:32,040 Outrageous. 494 00:26:32,040 --> 00:26:33,960 You'd hardly call me that now. 495 00:26:35,280 --> 00:26:36,880 - Well, you were young. 496 00:26:38,440 --> 00:26:41,440 - Yes, but what I've realised is 497 00:26:41,440 --> 00:26:44,040 I met you at that time and... - We got on fantastically. 498 00:26:44,040 --> 00:26:45,400 - Henry... - Love at first sight. 499 00:26:45,400 --> 00:26:47,320 - ..I don't want to be cruel in any of this... 500 00:26:47,320 --> 00:26:49,320 - Right, because it's feeling cruel. 501 00:26:49,320 --> 00:26:51,360 - ..but I have to be honest with you. 502 00:26:51,360 --> 00:26:55,120 Yes, we got on, we fell in love or whatever you want to call it... 503 00:26:56,480 --> 00:27:00,880 ..but I was 22, and now I'm wondering whether I made a mistake. 504 00:27:00,880 --> 00:27:04,680 Whether you weren't supposed to be "the one"... 505 00:27:04,680 --> 00:27:07,440 ..you were supposed to be "the first". 506 00:27:11,720 --> 00:27:14,280 I'm sorry. I'm sorry. I-I... 507 00:27:14,280 --> 00:27:16,480 - I'm going to die, Gail. 508 00:27:16,480 --> 00:27:19,040 I'm dying. - I know. Of course. 509 00:27:19,040 --> 00:27:21,600 - Then stop talking. Stop saying all of this. 510 00:27:21,600 --> 00:27:23,960 - Yes, I was going to do that, to not say anything, 511 00:27:23,960 --> 00:27:27,160 but then you told me you slept with another woman for two years 512 00:27:27,160 --> 00:27:30,960 and kept it from me, and told our children and did what you liked, 513 00:27:30,960 --> 00:27:32,720 and I realised, Henry, 514 00:27:32,720 --> 00:27:36,520 you've always done what you liked our whole lives, and I haven't! 515 00:27:36,520 --> 00:27:39,840 I haven't, Henry, and you never noticed! 516 00:27:39,840 --> 00:27:42,200 So maybe now I'm allowed to say it 517 00:27:42,200 --> 00:27:45,680 and maybe it's up to you to find a way to handle it! 518 00:27:46,800 --> 00:27:48,040 - Be sure. 519 00:27:49,880 --> 00:27:54,480 - What? - Be sure of what you're doing, saying. 520 00:27:54,480 --> 00:27:57,120 Because already you've said things you can't undo. 521 00:27:57,120 --> 00:28:00,200 I have a feeling there's no going back from some of this. 522 00:28:00,200 --> 00:28:01,520 - I know. 523 00:28:03,160 --> 00:28:06,560 There's a whole part of me you've never seen. 524 00:28:11,040 --> 00:28:12,680 SAIRA: - So, what's on the laptop? 525 00:28:12,680 --> 00:28:14,840 You're thinking she was seeing someone else? 526 00:28:14,840 --> 00:28:14,840 - Well, we were... 527 00:28:14,840 --> 00:28:16,840 PHONE VIBRATES 528 00:28:16,840 --> 00:28:19,480 Sorry. 529 00:28:19,480 --> 00:28:21,840 - Can you imagine her doing something like that? 530 00:28:29,080 --> 00:28:31,600 - Er, let's not... Let's not talk about her. 531 00:28:31,600 --> 00:28:33,520 - Well, look, you can if you want. 532 00:28:34,600 --> 00:28:38,120 We can't pretend it's not what you're thinking about all the time. 533 00:28:38,120 --> 00:28:39,720 It's OK. 534 00:28:39,720 --> 00:28:40,920 Go on. 535 00:28:40,920 --> 00:28:42,400 You met at school. 536 00:28:42,400 --> 00:28:44,000 - You... 537 00:28:44,000 --> 00:28:45,440 You're kind. 538 00:28:46,920 --> 00:28:50,200 Yes, we met at school. 539 00:28:50,200 --> 00:28:53,840 No, you know, we just stayed together. 540 00:28:53,840 --> 00:28:58,200 In her 20s, she taught and wrote a novel, 541 00:28:58,200 --> 00:29:00,360 and then two more. 542 00:29:00,360 --> 00:29:06,080 And they weren't...bestsellers, but, you know, they were good. 543 00:29:06,080 --> 00:29:09,560 And then sometimes, recently, she taught creative writing 544 00:29:09,560 --> 00:29:11,840 at the university. 545 00:29:11,840 --> 00:29:15,120 And, I don't know, we were just... 546 00:29:15,120 --> 00:29:17,200 ..we were just happy, you know? 547 00:29:25,400 --> 00:29:29,560 - Sob story leading to physical contact. Good! 548 00:29:31,320 --> 00:29:33,680 - You said... 549 00:29:33,680 --> 00:29:36,520 I got the impression that you'd lost someone. 550 00:29:38,160 --> 00:29:39,920 - My mum, when I was a kid. 551 00:29:39,920 --> 00:29:43,000 And then my dad, three years ago now. 552 00:29:43,000 --> 00:29:46,040 - I'm really sorry. 553 00:29:46,040 --> 00:29:47,800 - Yeah. 554 00:29:47,800 --> 00:29:51,040 Good thing is, now I can do what I want. 555 00:29:51,040 --> 00:29:52,680 No disapproval. 556 00:29:52,680 --> 00:29:54,160 I'm free. 557 00:29:57,640 --> 00:30:00,000 - Why are you interested in me? 558 00:30:00,000 --> 00:30:00,000 LAUGHS 559 00:30:00,000 --> 00:30:02,040 - What? 560 00:30:02,040 --> 00:30:04,720 - Well, I'm in mourning for my wife. 561 00:30:04,720 --> 00:30:07,160 I can't imagine I'm the ideal partner... 562 00:30:07,160 --> 00:30:08,640 - Who said I was interested? 563 00:30:10,000 --> 00:30:11,520 - Well, you are here. 564 00:30:13,280 --> 00:30:15,120 PHONE VIBRATES 565 00:30:16,840 --> 00:30:18,960 - Right, what is going on with these emails? 566 00:30:18,960 --> 00:30:20,600 Are you organising something? 567 00:30:20,600 --> 00:30:23,160 - No. Since I couldn't get into her laptop, 568 00:30:23,160 --> 00:30:26,400 I emailed everyone and asked them about it. 569 00:30:26,400 --> 00:30:28,280 - Everyone? 570 00:30:28,280 --> 00:30:31,680 - I told them that Kelly had another phone, 571 00:30:31,680 --> 00:30:34,240 that she'd had been hiding something from me, 572 00:30:34,240 --> 00:30:35,600 and I want to know what it is. 573 00:30:35,600 --> 00:30:38,200 - And...and what are they saying? 574 00:30:38,200 --> 00:30:39,640 - Nothing. 575 00:30:40,960 --> 00:30:40,960 Just that they're sorry, you know? 576 00:30:40,960 --> 00:30:43,400 PHONE VIBRATES 577 00:30:43,400 --> 00:30:44,960 It's all pity. 578 00:30:46,120 --> 00:30:47,600 Always pity. 579 00:30:49,560 --> 00:30:51,120 And I don't... 580 00:30:54,560 --> 00:30:56,200 - What? 581 00:31:13,360 --> 00:31:15,800 - ANIMATED CHATTER 582 00:31:20,800 --> 00:31:22,520 No... 583 00:31:22,520 --> 00:31:23,840 - Just in case. 584 00:31:26,000 --> 00:31:27,600 Enjoy! 585 00:31:27,600 --> 00:31:29,720 - CHATTER CONTINUES 586 00:31:31,360 --> 00:31:34,000 CHATTER FADES 587 00:32:01,320 --> 00:32:02,840 - Anna! 588 00:32:06,760 --> 00:32:08,400 - Belle, actually. 589 00:32:09,480 --> 00:32:10,840 - Yes, so I gather. 590 00:32:13,520 --> 00:32:15,000 What's that about, then? 591 00:32:15,000 --> 00:32:17,880 - It's my name. - Yeah, but not for years. Not since... 592 00:32:17,880 --> 00:32:21,760 - Not since you - exactly! Think of it as my maiden name. 593 00:32:21,760 --> 00:32:25,440 Well, this is an unwelcome coincidence. 594 00:32:25,440 --> 00:32:25,440 HE CHUCKLES 595 00:32:25,440 --> 00:32:28,640 - Not for me. 596 00:32:28,640 --> 00:32:32,000 So, you're out, then, with... 597 00:32:32,000 --> 00:32:33,800 - With friends. 598 00:32:33,800 --> 00:32:36,080 Having fun. 599 00:32:36,080 --> 00:32:38,400 - Well, speaking of which, 600 00:32:38,400 --> 00:32:41,520 Kayleigh, can I get another one of those, please, and, erm, 601 00:32:41,520 --> 00:32:43,240 what do you want? 602 00:32:43,240 --> 00:32:44,840 I don't know why I'm asking! 603 00:32:44,840 --> 00:32:47,120 And a large glass of Pinot, please. 604 00:32:47,120 --> 00:32:48,520 - Yes, of course. 605 00:32:48,520 --> 00:32:49,800 - Thank you. 606 00:32:53,200 --> 00:32:55,320 So... 607 00:32:55,320 --> 00:32:57,680 ...we need to talk. 608 00:32:57,680 --> 00:32:59,160 - What about? 609 00:32:59,160 --> 00:33:02,120 - Well, it's a proper conversation. 610 00:33:11,640 --> 00:33:13,680 Won't bite. 611 00:33:22,240 --> 00:33:23,760 Cheers. 612 00:33:37,480 --> 00:33:39,440 You look better than ever. 613 00:33:41,280 --> 00:33:43,000 I've missed you. 614 00:33:47,760 --> 00:33:49,880 - PHONE VIBRATES 615 00:33:49,880 --> 00:33:51,040 Sorry. 616 00:33:51,040 --> 00:33:52,800 - Oh... 617 00:33:54,360 --> 00:33:55,600 - Maya? 618 00:33:55,600 --> 00:33:57,760 - Hey, I need picking up! It's just... - What? 619 00:33:57,760 --> 00:33:59,640 - I need you to come and get me from... 620 00:33:59,640 --> 00:34:00,800 - CALL BREAKS UP 621 00:34:00,800 --> 00:34:02,000 Maya? 622 00:34:05,040 --> 00:34:06,640 I need to go. 623 00:34:06,640 --> 00:34:10,240 - Sure, but what about our chat? - Fine. 624 00:34:10,240 --> 00:34:12,400 We'll meet Friday. Here. Ten o'clock. 625 00:34:12,400 --> 00:34:13,880 - Good. 626 00:34:19,560 --> 00:34:21,120 - I have two questions 627 00:34:21,120 --> 00:34:23,360 to ask you about all of this. - Oh, well, thank you 628 00:34:23,360 --> 00:34:25,640 for structuring this conversation in advance. 629 00:34:25,640 --> 00:34:27,640 - Do you want to talk or not? 630 00:34:30,080 --> 00:34:32,880 Firstly, even if everything you're saying is true, 631 00:34:32,880 --> 00:34:34,880 do you think that would have been my intention? 632 00:34:34,880 --> 00:34:38,320 To do whatever you're saying, to limit you, to not listen? 633 00:34:38,320 --> 00:34:41,240 That would never have been what I wanted. Yes? 634 00:34:41,240 --> 00:34:43,400 - Perhaps you weren't consciously aware of it, no. 635 00:34:43,400 --> 00:34:45,680 - All right. Good. That's a start. 636 00:34:45,680 --> 00:34:48,320 Which brings us on to the second question. 637 00:34:48,320 --> 00:34:50,960 You could have raised this at any point in the last 50 years. 638 00:34:50,960 --> 00:34:53,920 Instead, you're doing it when I've got six months to live. 639 00:34:53,920 --> 00:34:55,680 You're saying it's my fault, 640 00:34:55,680 --> 00:34:58,560 but if you never told me, how can I know?! 641 00:34:58,560 --> 00:35:00,240 I often ask if you're happy, 642 00:35:00,240 --> 00:35:04,120 and you've always, until yesterday, said yes. 643 00:35:04,120 --> 00:35:07,680 So, to put this entirely on me, out of the blue, is unfair. 644 00:35:07,680 --> 00:35:10,120 Do you accept even a little bit of that? 645 00:35:10,120 --> 00:35:14,280 - I understand what you're saying. It's true, I didn't know until now. 646 00:35:23,680 --> 00:35:25,800 - You're right. 647 00:35:25,800 --> 00:35:30,040 When I first met you, you were out there! 648 00:35:30,040 --> 00:35:32,040 Protesting, outspoken. 649 00:35:33,520 --> 00:35:36,280 Those hippy dresses. 650 00:35:36,280 --> 00:35:38,280 When I came in through the French windows 651 00:35:38,280 --> 00:35:40,880 and saw you for the first time, I was speechless! 652 00:35:40,880 --> 00:35:43,120 And since then, I have never asked 653 00:35:43,120 --> 00:35:45,760 you to be anyone other than yourself. 654 00:35:45,760 --> 00:35:47,200 Have I? 655 00:35:51,520 --> 00:35:55,000 I used to see this a lot with my patients, when there was a couple 656 00:35:55,000 --> 00:35:57,720 and they were facing something - cancer, disease - 657 00:35:57,720 --> 00:36:00,240 the one who was going to do the caring would often look, 658 00:36:00,240 --> 00:36:02,560 subconsciously, for an escape route... 659 00:36:02,560 --> 00:36:06,040 - No! It's got nothing to do with that! 660 00:36:06,040 --> 00:36:07,520 I... 661 00:36:07,520 --> 00:36:09,560 You've said it wasn't your intention, 662 00:36:09,560 --> 00:36:11,040 that I should have told you. 663 00:36:11,040 --> 00:36:13,080 But you still did it, Henry! 664 00:36:13,080 --> 00:36:15,560 You laughed at me, lessened me. 665 00:36:15,560 --> 00:36:17,280 All the time! 666 00:36:19,320 --> 00:36:21,440 - What do you want, then? 667 00:36:21,440 --> 00:36:23,320 Me to be completely different? 668 00:36:23,320 --> 00:36:25,480 To stop making jokes? 669 00:36:25,480 --> 00:36:27,360 To stop being the person I am? 670 00:36:27,360 --> 00:36:29,120 - Yes, exactly! 671 00:36:29,120 --> 00:36:31,000 You have to change. 672 00:36:47,520 --> 00:36:50,720 - Can't you speak on the phone? - He said he'd rather talk in person. 673 00:36:52,120 --> 00:36:53,880 - Do you want me to come in with you? 674 00:36:54,880 --> 00:36:56,840 - No. 675 00:36:56,840 --> 00:36:59,000 Can you wait? 676 00:36:59,000 --> 00:37:01,000 - Yeah. Yeah, course. 677 00:37:23,560 --> 00:37:26,040 - Yeah, eventually, I want to start my own business, 678 00:37:26,040 --> 00:37:28,160 doing events, weddings, birthday parties. 679 00:37:28,160 --> 00:37:29,840 - What would it be called, your business? 680 00:37:29,840 --> 00:37:32,440 - Oh, I don't... It doesn't matter. - No, it does, I mean... 681 00:37:32,440 --> 00:37:35,080 - Taylor Made. - Taylor Made? - Yes, because Taylor's my surname. 682 00:37:35,080 --> 00:37:37,880 - But, obviously, you'll be taking his name after you get married? 683 00:37:37,880 --> 00:37:39,800 - No way! His surname's Banner! 684 00:37:39,800 --> 00:37:41,240 - So? - Hannah Banner? 685 00:37:41,240 --> 00:37:42,920 - Hannah Banner! 686 00:37:42,920 --> 00:37:44,520 - BOTH LAUGH 687 00:37:44,520 --> 00:37:45,760 What about you? 688 00:37:45,760 --> 00:37:47,640 - Yeah, I mean, you can marry me if you want. 689 00:37:47,640 --> 00:37:49,600 Hannah Danso - much better. 690 00:37:50,600 --> 00:37:52,600 - I mean, what do you want to do? 691 00:37:52,600 --> 00:37:55,280 - Oh! Right! 692 00:37:55,280 --> 00:37:56,480 Oh, I don't know. 693 00:37:56,480 --> 00:37:59,800 I just don't want to feel like I'm stuck with anything. 694 00:37:59,800 --> 00:38:01,720 Be free. 695 00:38:01,720 --> 00:38:03,720 - You're stuck to one thing. 696 00:38:03,720 --> 00:38:05,120 Gaby? 697 00:38:05,120 --> 00:38:07,320 - Oh, no, me and Gaby, we're... 698 00:38:07,320 --> 00:38:10,320 - Not serious? - No, we... 699 00:38:10,320 --> 00:38:12,360 We've known each other since college, 700 00:38:12,360 --> 00:38:15,200 and when I got back, we started seeing each other. 701 00:38:15,200 --> 00:38:17,720 - Why did she come to the pub? 702 00:38:17,720 --> 00:38:19,280 - Honestly? 703 00:38:19,280 --> 00:38:21,440 She was jealous, I think. 704 00:38:22,520 --> 00:38:24,680 She says I talk about you too much. - Do you? 705 00:38:24,680 --> 00:38:27,760 - No. Why would I? - Why would you? 706 00:38:27,760 --> 00:38:30,600 - Gaby's moving away, actually. 707 00:38:30,600 --> 00:38:32,240 - Far away, or...? - Leeds. 708 00:38:32,240 --> 00:38:33,880 She's got a job there. 709 00:38:33,880 --> 00:38:36,120 She wants me to come, too. 710 00:38:36,120 --> 00:38:38,080 I'm thinking about it. 711 00:38:38,080 --> 00:38:39,600 - Right. 712 00:38:39,600 --> 00:38:42,320 - It's not far. I'll still visit Evie, no problem. 713 00:38:42,320 --> 00:38:43,600 - Yeah. No. Completely. 714 00:38:49,360 --> 00:38:50,800 Can I ask you a question? 715 00:38:54,360 --> 00:38:56,240 What did you see in me that night? 716 00:38:57,800 --> 00:38:59,000 I just wondered. 717 00:38:59,000 --> 00:39:00,520 WHISPERS: - Really good hair. 718 00:39:00,520 --> 00:39:02,760 - What else? 719 00:39:02,760 --> 00:39:06,200 - You were wearing these killer boots. - They're really good boots. 720 00:39:06,200 --> 00:39:09,080 - And when I first spoke to you, you laughed 721 00:39:09,080 --> 00:39:10,760 and put your hand on me. 722 00:39:10,760 --> 00:39:12,440 Not on my arm or shoulder. 723 00:39:12,440 --> 00:39:18,600 You reached over and touched me on my side, like this. 724 00:39:19,920 --> 00:39:21,320 It was really close. 725 00:39:23,360 --> 00:39:25,400 And you made me laugh. 726 00:39:25,400 --> 00:39:26,760 You still do. 727 00:39:26,760 --> 00:39:27,880 - I'm very funny. 728 00:39:28,880 --> 00:39:30,320 - What about me? 729 00:39:31,920 --> 00:39:33,640 - You were hot. 730 00:39:33,640 --> 00:39:35,320 - Is that it? 731 00:39:35,320 --> 00:39:38,840 - Well, yeah. I mean, I didn't know you then. 732 00:39:38,840 --> 00:39:40,480 - You know me now. 733 00:39:48,520 --> 00:39:50,720 - I'm just going to go and check on Evie. 734 00:39:56,520 --> 00:39:58,520 MUSIC POUNDS 735 00:40:02,800 --> 00:40:04,720 I want to come in. 736 00:40:04,720 --> 00:40:06,920 - 10:50. 737 00:40:10,040 --> 00:40:12,400 - I'm... I'm not gay. 738 00:40:12,400 --> 00:40:14,280 I'm not gay. 739 00:40:14,280 --> 00:40:16,480 Does it matter? - Not to me. 740 00:40:17,800 --> 00:40:19,120 - Right. Good. 741 00:40:54,160 --> 00:40:55,480 Hi. 742 00:40:55,480 --> 00:40:57,160 - Oh. Hi. 743 00:40:57,160 --> 00:40:59,960 Well, you don't in any way look like you should be here. 744 00:40:59,960 --> 00:41:01,680 - Where's Maya? 745 00:41:01,680 --> 00:41:04,960 - Yeah. She's, erm... Look, I don't know! She got all pissy. 746 00:41:04,960 --> 00:41:06,800 Thought I was dancing with someone else, 747 00:41:06,800 --> 00:41:08,880 but it's like, "Calm down, yeah? I really wasn't." 748 00:41:08,880 --> 00:41:11,360 - Right, so where is she now? - She went. 749 00:41:11,360 --> 00:41:12,840 Look, I tried to stop her, 750 00:41:12,840 --> 00:41:15,280 but you know what she's like when she gets an idea in her head. 751 00:41:15,280 --> 00:41:17,680 She told me not to follow, so I'm like, "Fine!" 752 00:41:30,840 --> 00:41:33,360 - I can't believe you're going to throw this away. 753 00:41:33,360 --> 00:41:34,920 It's our honeymoon. 754 00:41:34,920 --> 00:41:36,480 - You said she looked like me. 755 00:41:36,480 --> 00:41:37,720 - What? 756 00:41:37,720 --> 00:41:39,760 - We were sitting drinking hot chocolate, 757 00:41:39,760 --> 00:41:43,200 and you went and found it on the counter and you bought it. 758 00:41:43,200 --> 00:41:47,400 And you said that woman standing there, she looked like me. 759 00:41:47,400 --> 00:41:48,840 - Well, she did. Exactly. 760 00:41:48,840 --> 00:41:51,560 - Even then, when I think about it... 761 00:41:52,720 --> 00:41:55,680 ..when you said she looked like me, you were laughing. 762 00:41:57,160 --> 00:42:00,800 You said she looked like me because she had a red face. 763 00:42:00,800 --> 00:42:04,160 And you were laughing at me because I had a red face then. 764 00:42:04,160 --> 00:42:05,880 - You did. It was funny. 765 00:42:05,880 --> 00:42:09,160 - Yes, but, Henry, don't you see that's the difference? 766 00:42:09,160 --> 00:42:12,240 This thing that you think is romantic, 767 00:42:12,240 --> 00:42:16,360 that signifies our marriage, is in fact a token, 768 00:42:16,360 --> 00:42:20,000 a perfect illustration of a moment when you were laughing at me, 769 00:42:20,000 --> 00:42:22,680 making me ridiculous! 770 00:42:22,680 --> 00:42:24,440 - Well, you're not throwing it away. 771 00:42:26,760 --> 00:42:29,160 So, given complete freedom, what would you do? 772 00:42:29,160 --> 00:42:31,640 - I don't know! - Oh, come on, imagine I'm not here, 773 00:42:31,640 --> 00:42:33,800 which will be a reality very soon, what then? 774 00:42:33,800 --> 00:42:36,080 What do you want to do that you feel you can't? 775 00:42:36,080 --> 00:42:38,040 - I've just told you! - But surely that's the point. 776 00:42:38,040 --> 00:42:39,560 We can't change the past, 777 00:42:39,560 --> 00:42:41,960 so unless this is an exercise in making me feel guilty, 778 00:42:41,960 --> 00:42:44,920 what we are surely talking about is what we do now. Yes? 779 00:42:44,920 --> 00:42:47,440 - Sometimes you don't seem to have any love for me at all. 780 00:42:47,440 --> 00:42:50,080 - What?! - Even the way you just phrased that question sounded 781 00:42:50,080 --> 00:42:51,680 more like an accusation. 782 00:42:51,680 --> 00:42:54,160 - Well, I'm sorry the way I speak doesn't match your standard. 783 00:42:54,160 --> 00:42:55,520 - Don't get defensive. 784 00:42:55,520 --> 00:42:57,360 - Well, how do you expect me to behave? 785 00:42:57,360 --> 00:42:57,360 - HE SIGHS 786 00:42:57,360 --> 00:42:57,360 - Actually, I think I've done 787 00:42:57,360 --> 00:43:00,200 rather well tonight. 788 00:43:00,200 --> 00:43:02,280 I haven't walked out, I haven't got angry, 789 00:43:02,280 --> 00:43:04,320 even though you've destroyed our past, 790 00:43:04,320 --> 00:43:06,960 our marriage, my personality... - I'm just telling you the truth. 791 00:43:06,960 --> 00:43:09,200 What do you want me to do when I'm feeling this? 792 00:43:09,200 --> 00:43:10,600 - I want you to think, Gail. 793 00:43:10,600 --> 00:43:12,560 I want you to put our whole lives in perspective, 794 00:43:12,560 --> 00:43:13,960 and then, if you're not happy now, 795 00:43:13,960 --> 00:43:16,480 all I'm asking is that you decide what you do want instead. 796 00:43:16,480 --> 00:43:20,080 - How can I, when I don't know who I am? - Stop making excuses! 797 00:43:20,080 --> 00:43:22,600 Be practical about it. We've already established 798 00:43:22,600 --> 00:43:24,840 it would never be my intention to do what you're saying. 799 00:43:24,840 --> 00:43:28,040 - Yes, but I think subconsciously... - Subconsciously! - ...it absolutely was. 800 00:43:28,040 --> 00:43:31,440 - Well, that's very hard to prove either way and very hard to blame me for, I'd say. 801 00:43:31,440 --> 00:43:33,920 - Yes, using me to prop you up, serving you your whole life - 802 00:43:33,920 --> 00:43:37,240 a servant, a pet, a slave to your ego - 803 00:43:37,240 --> 00:43:40,400 rather than, for a second, thinking about how you might find out 804 00:43:40,400 --> 00:43:42,840 what I want! - I don't mean this to sound 805 00:43:42,840 --> 00:43:44,600 as critical as it undoubtedly will, 806 00:43:44,600 --> 00:43:47,960 but this whole conversation reminds me of talking to Jon or Rachel 807 00:43:47,960 --> 00:43:50,880 when they were 15 years old and going round in circles and... 808 00:44:02,080 --> 00:44:03,800 - I think you did know, Henry. 809 00:44:03,800 --> 00:44:05,600 On some level, I think you did. 810 00:44:05,600 --> 00:44:08,280 And when you had the affair with Helen, 811 00:44:08,280 --> 00:44:10,400 you did it because she was exciting 812 00:44:10,400 --> 00:44:12,640 and I was not, and you knew that. 813 00:44:12,640 --> 00:44:15,160 And instead of talking to me about it, 814 00:44:15,160 --> 00:44:17,200 you just found it elsewhere, 815 00:44:17,200 --> 00:44:19,800 because you wanted me to stay small 816 00:44:19,800 --> 00:44:21,840 and predictable and Mum 817 00:44:21,840 --> 00:44:24,920 and good old, funny old Gail! 818 00:44:24,920 --> 00:44:26,800 Henry... 819 00:44:26,800 --> 00:44:30,320 ..you knew exactly what you were doing. 820 00:44:35,840 --> 00:44:37,960 - I don't believe a word of it. 821 00:44:42,320 --> 00:44:44,120 Where are you going now? 822 00:44:52,760 --> 00:44:55,960 - All the information you need is in the files. 823 00:44:55,960 --> 00:44:59,080 Bills, contact numbers. - What are you talking about? 824 00:44:59,080 --> 00:45:02,720 - I'll take my phone, I'll be fine, but I won't tell you where I am. 825 00:45:02,720 --> 00:45:05,720 - You're leaving? - What does it look like? 826 00:45:05,720 --> 00:45:09,040 - You're making yourself look completely ridiculous. 827 00:45:17,120 --> 00:45:19,280 - FOOTSTEPS APPROACH 828 00:45:23,280 --> 00:45:25,320 Oh, thank God! 829 00:45:26,560 --> 00:45:28,800 I thought you might have gone home to bed! 830 00:45:28,800 --> 00:45:30,640 I've been searching Manchester all night. 831 00:45:30,640 --> 00:45:33,080 - What are you doing here? - You called me. 832 00:45:33,080 --> 00:45:34,640 - Yeah, I wanted a lift. 833 00:45:34,640 --> 00:45:36,000 - You hung up! 834 00:45:36,000 --> 00:45:38,080 - My phone ran out of credit. 835 00:45:38,080 --> 00:45:40,440 I don't have any money or savings left. 836 00:45:42,080 --> 00:45:43,760 How did you find me? 837 00:45:44,800 --> 00:45:46,040 - With effort. 838 00:45:47,400 --> 00:45:49,200 And asking people. 839 00:45:49,200 --> 00:45:51,440 I went to your club. 840 00:45:51,440 --> 00:45:54,920 Met your friends. They said you got angry with them. 841 00:45:54,920 --> 00:45:56,560 They didn't know why. 842 00:45:58,160 --> 00:46:00,680 - When I went home today, it wasn't for clothes. 843 00:46:01,720 --> 00:46:04,160 I thought there might be some change in the sofa. 844 00:46:05,240 --> 00:46:06,880 But I'd forgotten. 845 00:46:07,960 --> 00:46:10,920 I hadn't thought that it'd still be there, on the carpet. 846 00:46:12,680 --> 00:46:14,120 - What? You mean the... 847 00:46:14,120 --> 00:46:16,560 - About ten minutes before it happened, she called me. 848 00:46:16,560 --> 00:46:17,840 She was like, "Maya?" 849 00:46:19,360 --> 00:46:21,760 Then she called me again and she was angry. 850 00:46:23,240 --> 00:46:25,600 I'd always ignore it cos it just meant that she was drunk 851 00:46:25,600 --> 00:46:27,320 and wanted someone to shout at. 852 00:46:29,160 --> 00:46:31,320 She blamed me for everything. - I know. 853 00:46:33,320 --> 00:46:37,320 - Then, about ten minutes later, there was this...screaming. 854 00:46:38,520 --> 00:46:40,960 But I still didn't go out. 855 00:46:40,960 --> 00:46:43,680 Just stayed in my room, put my headphones on. 856 00:46:45,320 --> 00:46:47,400 Then the screaming stopped. 857 00:46:48,480 --> 00:46:50,480 Like, suddenly. 858 00:46:52,640 --> 00:46:54,360 That's when I went to go see. 859 00:46:54,360 --> 00:46:57,000 - Maya... - She was sat there on the floor, 860 00:46:57,000 --> 00:46:58,920 staring at me, 861 00:46:58,920 --> 00:47:00,640 blood everywhere. 862 00:47:00,640 --> 00:47:02,040 This smashed glass. 863 00:47:03,640 --> 00:47:05,280 She'd cut her arm, maybe twice. 864 00:47:08,320 --> 00:47:09,880 Then she saw me... 865 00:47:11,560 --> 00:47:13,280 ..and she cut her arm again. 866 00:47:15,320 --> 00:47:17,960 Just...looking at me. 867 00:47:21,960 --> 00:47:24,240 I got my phone and called the ambulance. 868 00:47:24,240 --> 00:47:26,360 They were amazed by how calm I was. 869 00:47:26,360 --> 00:47:27,920 - She's ill. 870 00:47:27,920 --> 00:47:30,520 - She's feeling what she's feeling, and she hates me. 871 00:47:35,880 --> 00:47:38,200 Yeah, she's ill. You don't have an excuse. 872 00:47:40,400 --> 00:47:42,200 - What do you...? I don't hate you! 873 00:47:42,200 --> 00:47:44,400 - Then why have you been so fucking horrible? 874 00:47:47,440 --> 00:47:49,480 - You could've asked me for money. 875 00:47:49,480 --> 00:47:51,200 - You could've offered. 876 00:47:55,600 --> 00:47:58,080 - I just... I didn't think that you'd... 877 00:48:01,320 --> 00:48:03,640 I don't mean to be... 878 00:48:05,600 --> 00:48:07,520 BELLE SIGHS 879 00:48:16,280 --> 00:48:18,000 I've got problems of my own, 880 00:48:18,000 --> 00:48:19,600 but I know... 881 00:48:19,600 --> 00:48:21,600 ..I know I'm the grown-up. 882 00:48:24,240 --> 00:48:25,960 - You have to promise me. 883 00:48:28,800 --> 00:48:30,360 - What? 884 00:48:30,360 --> 00:48:34,720 - Whatever happens, whatever I do, you'll be there to look after me, 885 00:48:34,720 --> 00:48:37,480 to fucking...love me, 886 00:48:37,480 --> 00:48:40,720 because I don't have anyone else. Literally no-one. 887 00:48:40,720 --> 00:48:43,280 - MAYA SNIFFS 888 00:48:43,280 --> 00:48:46,320 - I might be 16, but that's still a child, 889 00:48:46,320 --> 00:48:48,440 so you have to promise me, 890 00:48:48,440 --> 00:48:50,240 from now on, I come first. 891 00:48:55,280 --> 00:48:57,680 Jesus, what are you staring at? It's a simple... 892 00:48:57,680 --> 00:48:59,520 - I promise. 893 00:49:04,960 --> 00:49:06,280 - OK. 894 00:49:12,320 --> 00:49:13,360 OK. 895 00:49:19,440 --> 00:49:22,000 - Where are you going? - Home. 896 00:49:23,640 --> 00:49:24,960 - Home? 897 00:49:24,960 --> 00:49:26,160 - It's late. 898 00:49:26,160 --> 00:49:27,200 - I know. 899 00:49:30,480 --> 00:49:32,320 But it's your birthday. 900 00:49:59,040 --> 00:50:00,720 It, er... It wasn't him. 901 00:50:01,760 --> 00:50:04,240 He was just someone she contacted 902 00:50:04,240 --> 00:50:05,840 for research. Uh... 903 00:50:07,640 --> 00:50:10,520 As someone who'd been cheating on their partner, 904 00:50:10,520 --> 00:50:12,920 for a book she was writing. 905 00:50:12,920 --> 00:50:16,800 While they were talking, Kelly admitted that she'd done it. 906 00:50:18,760 --> 00:50:20,720 Been unfaithful. 907 00:50:22,800 --> 00:50:24,800 And that's all he knew. 908 00:50:31,240 --> 00:50:33,240 - I'm sorry. 909 00:50:35,880 --> 00:50:38,360 - So it, erm... 910 00:50:38,360 --> 00:50:40,800 Our marriage was just... 911 00:50:45,480 --> 00:50:47,360 She was in Liverpool, right? 912 00:50:47,360 --> 00:50:51,160 And there was this man, he rushed past her 913 00:50:51,160 --> 00:50:54,720 and he knocked her and she fell to the ground 914 00:50:54,720 --> 00:50:56,280 and she hit her head. 915 00:50:57,960 --> 00:51:01,520 And then, within five minutes, she died. 916 00:51:01,520 --> 00:51:05,640 And I...I couldn't understand why she was there in the first place. 917 00:51:08,200 --> 00:51:10,320 And now I know. 918 00:51:13,440 --> 00:51:15,280 HE SIGHS 919 00:51:17,320 --> 00:51:21,840 I know that this might sound, er, strange, 920 00:51:21,840 --> 00:51:25,960 but...I really don't care any more. 921 00:51:40,080 --> 00:51:43,640 - I remember this wonderful production of Doll's House at the Exchange. 922 00:51:43,640 --> 00:51:46,600 - Stop it. - The big exit of the persecuted woman. 923 00:51:46,600 --> 00:51:48,760 It wasn't bad apart from the costumes, 924 00:51:48,760 --> 00:51:50,680 but I think this is more dramatic. 925 00:51:50,680 --> 00:51:52,560 Amazing performance, Gail! 926 00:51:52,560 --> 00:51:53,880 A grand gesture! 927 00:51:53,880 --> 00:51:55,720 I get it. 928 00:51:55,720 --> 00:51:57,280 You're really going to go? 929 00:51:57,280 --> 00:52:00,400 - It feels like I've been in the dark so long. 930 00:52:00,400 --> 00:52:02,120 - I've no idea what that means. 931 00:52:06,000 --> 00:52:07,880 Go on, then. 932 00:52:07,880 --> 00:52:09,440 I'm not chasing after you. 933 00:52:12,400 --> 00:52:13,960 - Good. 934 00:52:21,040 --> 00:52:23,640 DOOR SLAMS HE SCOFFS 935 00:52:23,640 --> 00:52:26,720 - Hope everything's OK with Gaby in Leeds. - Yeah, thanks. 936 00:52:26,720 --> 00:52:28,840 - You really think you'll go? 937 00:52:28,840 --> 00:52:31,640 - Yeah, yeah... I don't know. 938 00:52:35,440 --> 00:52:37,120 - It's good you stayed tonight. 939 00:52:37,120 --> 00:52:39,880 - Yeah. Yeah, it's been fun. - Yeah. Yeah. 940 00:52:39,880 --> 00:52:41,880 Look, I was... I was wondering, erm... 941 00:52:43,080 --> 00:52:44,640 - Oh! Hi. 942 00:52:44,640 --> 00:52:46,360 Going on holiday? 943 00:52:46,360 --> 00:52:48,200 - GAIL: Well, not exactly, but away. 944 00:52:48,200 --> 00:52:49,440 - I told him I needed space. 945 00:52:49,440 --> 00:52:49,440 He can't know you're here! 946 00:52:49,440 --> 00:52:52,000 - DOOR SLAMS 947 00:52:52,000 --> 00:52:53,440 HENRY: - Gail! 948 00:52:58,040 --> 00:52:59,400 - Hi? 949 00:53:02,160 --> 00:53:03,840 - I just put the bins out. 950 00:53:03,840 --> 00:53:08,520 - I know you said you wanted to be alone, but... Here. 951 00:53:11,840 --> 00:53:13,880 Sorry, I... 952 00:53:13,880 --> 00:53:16,720 I can be passionate. 953 00:53:16,720 --> 00:53:18,120 - That's sweet. 954 00:53:18,120 --> 00:53:19,760 - HENRY: - Gail? 955 00:53:24,720 --> 00:53:24,720 - THUNDER RUMBLES 956 00:53:24,720 --> 00:53:28,120 - It's not fair, Gail! 957 00:53:47,960 --> 00:53:49,760 Please. 958 00:55:21,560 --> 00:55:23,920 - THUNDER ROLLS 959 00:56:55,440 --> 00:56:56,920 Night-night. Night-night. 960 00:57:59,640 --> 00:58:01,400 - Please. 961 00:58:32,720 --> 00:58:36,520 - # I'll stand outside this window 962 00:58:36,520 --> 00:58:40,400 # Till I'm furniture for birds 963 00:58:42,400 --> 00:58:46,040 # Just tell me what you heard 964 00:58:47,120 --> 00:58:48,440 # Life 965 00:58:50,200 --> 00:58:53,720 # If I can only find the words 966 00:58:54,960 --> 00:58:56,000 # Life 967 00:58:57,120 --> 00:58:58,960 # My angel. #