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I like you being here.

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Hey, my mum wants us to go
to this falconry class

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before you guys go to your meeting.

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What?

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I said my mum wants us to go
to a falconry class.

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Oh, um...

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Yeah, I think I'm just gonna stay
in tonight.

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I don't really want to see anyone,
because I am dying.

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-You're not dying.
-Oh yeah, I'm dying.

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Mae, it's been, like, two weeks.

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George is probably on a date right now.

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I...

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-Can I ask you something?
-Yes.

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Are you ever gonna have sex with me,

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or are you just gonna sleep
in my bed indefinitely?

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Uh... oh man.

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Yeah, um...

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I'm really sorry.

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Okay, I think I do want
to have sex with you.

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Wow, okay. Great, thanks.

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-Jesus.
-No, look, I just--

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I really don't know
how it would make me feel.

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[stammers] Why don't you find out?

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Okay.

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[Mae] I still haven't met her parents,

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and we live together.

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-She's practically still in the closet.
-Hey, man.

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-And I know they're gonna come over--
-It's me, Phil.

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I know who you are.

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How you doing?

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You wanna talk?

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If I wanted to talk,
I'd talk to my friends.

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Okay, that hurts,

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but I'm going to let it slide.

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I got you something.

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Check it out.

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-What is that?
-[Phil] Okay, don't freak out,

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but I wanted you to have someone
to process your feelings with,

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so I went to get you a therapy dog.

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Is there a dog in that tub?

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No, basically all the puppies
looked like Mae,

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so I got you these instead.

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Oh my God, Christ, Phil!

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-[Phil] They're worms.
-Yes.

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I-- Can you please leave me alone?

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All I want is to be left alone.

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George, you're not an island, man.

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Well, I was an island before I met Mae,

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and I can be again, okay?
That's how I operate.

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Maybe you don't know me very well, Phil.

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Maybe you don't know you very well, Phil.

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Please leave me alone.

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Please leave the worms.

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Thank you.

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-I have to get to a meeting.
-[Laura] I'll pick you and Maggie up.

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I'm trying to be more open with her,

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include her.

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Do you think I should tell her
I sat on your face?

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Um, maybe don't tell her you sat
on my--

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Actually, maybe don't tell her anything?

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Like, about what happened?

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Like, does she really need
to know about that?

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What?

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I just feel like she'll make a big deal
out of it,

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and she won't get
that it was just like

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a casual...

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mistake.

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Right.

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Yeah, okay.

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Excuse me, I have to go
clean up this mess.

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What mess?

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That one.

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-Morning, darling.
-Hi.

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What did you and Lava
get up to last night?

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Nothing. Absolutely nothing.

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Just braised a beef.

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Braised a big beef. Brenda?

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Uh, I'm gonna catch up with Brenda,
'cause, uh...

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Have you seen any films lately?

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Have you seen Hereditary?

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Mae, Maggie tells us
you've had a difficult week.

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Would you like to share with the group?

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No, thank you.

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We are at our most vulnerable
in times of crisis.

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Now more than ever, Mae,

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I would urge you to do the work.
Sit with the pain.

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Think of it like, um...

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-boiling an egg.
-[Mae] I don't want to.

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I don't want to. I'm not an egg.

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I don't want to do the work. I'm tired.

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Aren't you guys tired?

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From trying to do the right thing
all the time?

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When was the last time
that any of us felt any joy?

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I felt joy last night over dinner
with George Clooney.

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-[Mae scoffs]
-He was telling a funny anecdote

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about pranking Brad Pitt.

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I mean, I want to be more like Karen.

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She just does whatever the hell she wants.

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She obviously has never done drugs,
but she comes here three times a week

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to the meetings
because it makes her happy.

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Excuse me, I've literally done every drug.

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-Name a drug.
-[Karen] Okay.

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Well, maybe there's a small round one,

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or one shaped like a cone.

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Oh my God.

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You've never done drugs.

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[Mae] Obviously.

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But she just comes here
because she's lonely and weird.

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-Mae.
-[Mae] I feel exactly

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the same as I did before I ever started
coming to these meetings

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Actually, I feel worse.
I don't-- I feel nothing.

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I can't even taste food anymore. I tried
having sex with someone last night,

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and it made me feel lonelier.

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Who did you have sex with?

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Peter... Piper. You don't know him.

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I'm leaving.

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And for the record,
I think Karen should run these meetings.

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Hang on a minute.

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Yeah, I'm on it.

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[door closes]

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Hey, wait.

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Ellen DeGeneres. [chuckles]

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Listen, I like what you said in there.

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About finding joy and how
we're the masters of our destinies,

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like James Bond.

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I don't think I mentioned James Bond.

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Wait, what are you doing today?

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Wanna hang?

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Kevin, I hate everything
that you represent.

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I know.

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You find my masculinity intimidating,

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because it makes you feel inadequate.

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But I'm actually a pretty woke guy.

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I loved Call Me By Your Name.

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Look, I'm bored, Mae.

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I'm so fucking bored.

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Let me find joy with you, huh?

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I don't want to have sex with you.

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Oh, ditto, peewee.

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-Fine, forget it. It doesn't matter.
-[phone ringing]

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Okay, wait.

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Do you want to get drunk?

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[laughs]

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Yes, queen.

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Okay.

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Okay, so at the beginning of act two,

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we have the soliloquy about the dagger.

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Can anyone tell me what a soliloquy is--

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Whoa, Deepa, what are you doing?

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She's pouring my fucking bag
out the window!

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[girl] Yeah, I fucking am,

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and when I'm done, I'm going to punch you
in your fucking head.

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-Deepa, what--
-Daisy said I'm a fag.

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You said what?

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Who cares if I called her a fag,
look what she did.

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Well, I care, Daisy. Maybe I fucking care
what you called her.

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Hey! Don't laugh. I'm talking to you.

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Maybe I'm a fag.
Do you have a problem with that?

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Do you want to try calling me a fag,
you little rat?

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Try it!

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Okay, you're both in deep shit,
and I'm sorry for swearing.

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[panting]

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I'm sorry, Joyce, but I just can't
keep quiet about this anymore.

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Okay, Daisy James just called Deepa a fag,
and it's unacceptable.

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-What?
-Sorry if it makes people uncomfortable,

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but I've decided I'm going
to be teaching LGBT issues

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in PSHE.

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Sorry, I'm confused, George.

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You are supposed to be teaching them
all about LGBTQIA issues.

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-What?
-Sexual health?

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LGBT history, human rights.

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Have you not been teaching that?

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I mean, two of your students are trans.

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[whispers] Are they?

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If you've not been teaching this,
it's a problem.

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No, I have.

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I mean, obviously.

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But what I'm saying to you
is that I am teaching them,

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and I don't care

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if it makes people uncomfortable, okay?
So there.

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Yes, thank you. Thanks, Joyce.

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Um... what should I do about Deepa?

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Because she sort of... snapped.

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Oh, well, I'll leave that up to you,
George.

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You're good with her. She likes you.

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-Does she?
-Well, I can only assume so.

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You're the only teacher she hasn't tried
to stab or called a cunt.

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Oh, right.

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Thanks.

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Can you leave my office now, please,
because I've got a fart coming.

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-[rock music playing]
-To joy.

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Ah.

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-[tool buzzing]
-Help, help.

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You know, I don't even know this band.

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[all laughing]

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[Mae] Dude, why's it so busy?

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They're here for you, Mae.

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What do you mean?

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Have you not seen?

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Seen what?

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[clicks teeth]

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Arnie Rivers posted your set
from the other week.

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You've had close to a million hits.

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No, that's insane.

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A million? That's a big number.
That's a very big number,

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-and I know numbers. [chuckles]
-[Mae chatting on video]

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All right, look. I gotta start.

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Um... you're headlining.

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-Headlining?
-[Kevin] Oh, yeah.

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Whoa.

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[audience cheering, applauding]

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Oh, well, I know why you're here.

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Give it up for your headliner,

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Mae Martin!

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-[audience cheering, applauding]
-[rock music playing]

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The difference between my dick
and Jared's dick

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is that I have a ferocious tiger dick,
and Jared's got a quail's egg.

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Why are we talking
about Hugh's dick again?

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Because I've got the dick of a jungle cat,
and it needs to be discussed.

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-He really does.
-I can't. I actually-- I can't do--

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When was the last time
we had an actual proper conversation?

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You know that I broke up with Mae,
and none of you have asked me about it.

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Hey, I've got a question.

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From now on, are you gonna be
dating chicks or dudes? [laughs]

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Yeah, hopefully dudes,
because I have a plus-one

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for my uncle's podcast recording.

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What kind of fucking friendship is this?

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Ooh. [laughing]

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Harsh much?

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Babe, if you wanted to talk to me
about your feelings,

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then why didn't you?

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What, like in...

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year eight when I told you I was sad about
my eczema, and you just laughed at me?

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Are you still holding onto that?

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No.

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Look, we didn't say anything
about that girl,

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because you didn't seem that bothered.

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We thought she's just some random chick
you're fucking for jokes.

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Well, she's not some chick.
I'm in love with her.

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Well, how were we meant to know that?

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And anyway, if you're in love with her,
then why did you dump her, you psycho?

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George, where are you going?

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-Hey!
-Hey.

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-[applauding]
-That was fucking awesome.

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-[Mae] Thanks.
-I would've ended it

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with "Jizz you later, cunts."

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-[Kevin] Classic.
-Next time, Pete.

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You, waiter. Get drinks, and crisps,
and more drinks, hmm?

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Come on, I was just onstage.
You saw my set.

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So, you've got joy, huh?

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-You got it?
-Yeah, I think I have

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-like a spark of joy for one second.
-You're on the magic bus now.

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There's an angry woman here to see you.

254
00:10:20,520 --> 00:10:21,760
Oh, no, no. Don't let her in.

255
00:10:21,840 --> 00:10:22,880
Um... too late.

256
00:10:23,360 --> 00:10:25,640
-You!
-Shit.

257
00:10:26,400 --> 00:10:27,240
Kevin.

258
00:10:27,320 --> 00:10:29,560
-Oh, hey, Maggie.
-You, you...

259
00:10:29,640 --> 00:10:31,360
had sex with my daughter!

260
00:10:32,000 --> 00:10:33,080
Double-O-seven.

261
00:10:33,160 --> 00:10:34,400
Stop it. Stop it, Mae.

262
00:10:34,480 --> 00:10:36,800
Look, it was just casual.

263
00:10:36,880 --> 00:10:38,080
It just happened.

264
00:10:38,160 --> 00:10:40,480
Lava rang me in floods of tears.

265
00:10:41,560 --> 00:10:42,400
Lava can cry?

266
00:10:42,480 --> 00:10:45,360
Well, she may be blunt,
odd, even... well, really strange,

267
00:10:45,440 --> 00:10:47,640
but that girl is an absolute angel,

268
00:10:47,720 --> 00:10:49,800
and she's spent her whole life
being abandoned

269
00:10:49,880 --> 00:10:52,880
by addicts who she cared for,
and I shouldn't have let you near her,

270
00:10:52,960 --> 00:10:54,720
because you used her, Mae.

271
00:10:54,800 --> 00:10:56,480
Oh, maybe you used me.

272
00:10:56,560 --> 00:10:58,720
'Cause you were filling your time
until you got her back.

273
00:10:58,800 --> 00:11:01,360
She says she doesn't want
to see either of us again,

274
00:11:01,440 --> 00:11:04,240
and I'm going to have to rebuild
my entire relationship with her

275
00:11:04,320 --> 00:11:06,560
from scratch again!

276
00:11:06,640 --> 00:11:07,760
Okay, well...

277
00:11:08,560 --> 00:11:10,560
where am I going to stay?

278
00:11:11,440 --> 00:11:12,680
[gasps]

279
00:11:12,760 --> 00:11:14,280
I don't know.

280
00:11:14,560 --> 00:11:17,880
And I'm sorry to say,
but I don't fucking care!

281
00:11:18,360 --> 00:11:19,480
And another thing.

282
00:11:19,560 --> 00:11:20,960
I am not your sponsor anymore.

283
00:11:21,040 --> 00:11:23,840
I'm just a really angry older woman
who you used to know!

284
00:11:24,920 --> 00:11:27,080
Fucking out of my way. Fucking shithole!

285
00:11:27,160 --> 00:11:28,600
[gasps]

286
00:11:30,560 --> 00:11:31,400
[groans]

287
00:11:31,480 --> 00:11:32,920
-Hey.
-Oh my God, hi.

288
00:11:33,520 --> 00:11:36,040
-Look, I have to go. I feel fucking awful.
-Hear me now.

289
00:11:36,600 --> 00:11:40,200
You're James Bond,
and Maggie is a Dementor,

290
00:11:40,480 --> 00:11:42,440
who's determined to suck your joy away.

291
00:11:46,040 --> 00:11:51,800
[high-pitched feedback ringing]

292
00:11:51,880 --> 00:11:52,760
Kev.

293
00:11:53,560 --> 00:11:54,760
One huge night.

294
00:11:56,240 --> 00:11:57,320
Whoa tiger, not now.

295
00:11:59,000 --> 00:11:59,920
I am a tiger.

296
00:12:05,440 --> 00:12:06,800
You want your card back?

297
00:12:06,880 --> 00:12:08,600
-[keys jangle]
-Are we sure about this?

298
00:12:08,680 --> 00:12:11,160
Kevin, we're the best members
of the NA group.

299
00:12:16,400 --> 00:12:17,480
Watch this.

300
00:12:20,160 --> 00:12:21,000
Oh.

301
00:12:21,080 --> 00:12:25,520
[high-pitched feedback ringing]

302
00:12:33,160 --> 00:12:35,000
-[ringing stops]
-[snorts]

303
00:12:37,560 --> 00:12:38,560
How do you feel?

304
00:12:38,680 --> 00:12:40,200
Don't say anything, please.

305
00:12:41,800 --> 00:12:42,680
Kevin.

306
00:12:44,200 --> 00:12:45,240
This is us, right?

307
00:12:47,040 --> 00:12:48,800
-Has anyone seen my rucksack?
-Um...

308
00:12:50,840 --> 00:12:51,680
Mae.

309
00:12:52,440 --> 00:12:54,160
-He's so nice. [laughing]
-Shut up.

310
00:12:55,320 --> 00:12:56,400
Sorry, mate. Sorry.

311
00:12:56,480 --> 00:12:58,200
-Sorry, man.
-Mae, Mae. Come back.

312
00:12:58,280 --> 00:12:59,960
[rock music playing]

313
00:13:00,040 --> 00:13:04,440
[chattering, laughing]

314
00:13:08,120 --> 00:13:10,840
[snorting]

315
00:13:12,800 --> 00:13:15,520
Whoo! I like it. Papa feels feisty.

316
00:13:16,040 --> 00:13:18,960
-You know, I was engaged once.
-I don't think I'll do comedy anymore.

317
00:13:19,040 --> 00:13:20,680
I think I just wanna be a vagabond poet.

318
00:13:20,760 --> 00:13:22,440
She was a siren calling me to my death.

319
00:13:22,520 --> 00:13:23,800
When I was around her,

320
00:13:23,880 --> 00:13:25,480
-my hand would shake.
-[Mae] Jazz?

321
00:13:25,560 --> 00:13:28,120
Jack Kerouac, River Phoenix.

322
00:13:28,200 --> 00:13:29,360
The Viper Lounge.

323
00:13:29,440 --> 00:13:31,360
How do you spell swamp of despondency?

324
00:13:31,440 --> 00:13:33,280
I haven't thought about her in years.

325
00:13:33,360 --> 00:13:35,080
Right now, even though I'm talking
about her,

326
00:13:35,160 --> 00:13:36,560
I'm not actually thinking about her.

327
00:13:36,640 --> 00:13:38,400
What are you thinking about right now?

328
00:13:39,480 --> 00:13:40,560
Fine Italian leather.

329
00:13:42,040 --> 00:13:43,080
[chuckles, sniffs]

330
00:13:44,760 --> 00:13:46,320
Do we have any more coke?

331
00:13:47,120 --> 00:13:48,920
Um... no.

332
00:13:50,520 --> 00:13:51,760
We're out. That's it.

333
00:13:52,800 --> 00:13:55,760
Yeah... fine. Okay.

334
00:14:00,280 --> 00:14:01,560
Okay, do you wanna have sex?

335
00:14:03,080 --> 00:14:03,920
Okay.

336
00:14:04,720 --> 00:14:05,560
-Yeah?
-Yeah.

337
00:14:05,840 --> 00:14:06,760
-Yeah.
-Okay.

338
00:14:07,240 --> 00:14:08,600
Um... okay. No, you...

339
00:14:08,680 --> 00:14:10,400
[chuckles] Right, yeah sure, okay.

340
00:14:10,480 --> 00:14:12,080
[alternative rock music playing]

341
00:14:12,160 --> 00:14:14,000
No, not that. Turn it off.

342
00:14:14,080 --> 00:14:16,000
-Why?
-Turn it off, Mae. Turn it off.

343
00:14:17,160 --> 00:14:18,840
-[music stops]
-What the fuck, man?

344
00:14:19,360 --> 00:14:21,480
You used to sing that song
to your fiancée or something?

345
00:14:21,560 --> 00:14:22,760
[laughs] Shut up.

346
00:14:27,040 --> 00:14:29,720
-I think you should order more coke.
-Yes, definitely.

347
00:14:30,280 --> 00:14:31,480
I'm gonna be right back.

348
00:14:39,640 --> 00:14:40,640
[sighs]

349
00:14:50,520 --> 00:14:52,400
[doorbell ringing]

350
00:14:52,480 --> 00:14:54,120
Kevin, your guy's here.

351
00:14:59,080 --> 00:15:00,280
[Mae] Brenda?

352
00:15:00,360 --> 00:15:02,240
-Brenda's your coke dealer?
-[door closes]

353
00:15:02,320 --> 00:15:04,840
Out of my way, please.
I need to see Kevin.

354
00:15:05,440 --> 00:15:08,480
-Brenda's my sponsor.
-You called your sponsor?

355
00:15:09,440 --> 00:15:11,880
Kevin, I thought we were having
a good, fun time.

356
00:15:11,960 --> 00:15:13,720
No, we aren't having a good, fun time.

357
00:15:13,800 --> 00:15:15,640
-I'm in hell. I'm sorry.
-It's all right, Kevin.

358
00:15:15,720 --> 00:15:17,480
How is Brenda your sponsor?

359
00:15:17,560 --> 00:15:19,400
I've never even seen you speak
in the meetings.

360
00:15:19,480 --> 00:15:21,520
'Cause I'm embarrassed. Brenda's lame.

361
00:15:21,600 --> 00:15:22,840
I'm sorry, Brenda.

362
00:15:22,920 --> 00:15:25,240
First of all, are there any drugs
in this house?

363
00:15:25,960 --> 00:15:27,160
-No.
-[Brenda] Good.

364
00:15:27,240 --> 00:15:29,760
Second of all, I want you to listen to me.

365
00:15:29,840 --> 00:15:31,240
It's not your fault.

366
00:15:31,320 --> 00:15:33,880
[Mae scoffs] Oh... come on.

367
00:15:34,200 --> 00:15:35,760
Kevin, you are loved.

368
00:15:36,720 --> 00:15:38,320
I don't know. It doesn't matter.

369
00:15:38,400 --> 00:15:39,400
You are loved.

370
00:15:40,040 --> 00:15:41,000
Say it with me.

371
00:15:41,560 --> 00:15:42,400
You are loved.

372
00:15:42,960 --> 00:15:43,920
I don't want to.

373
00:15:44,440 --> 00:15:46,400
-I'm human garbage.
-[alternative rock playing]

374
00:15:46,480 --> 00:15:48,440
Say it. You are loved.

375
00:15:49,400 --> 00:15:50,400
[crying] I am loved.

376
00:15:55,800 --> 00:15:56,640
I'm loved.

377
00:15:59,720 --> 00:16:03,000
♪ Stay out super late tonight ♪

378
00:16:03,080 --> 00:16:06,560
♪ Picking apples, making pies ♪

379
00:16:06,960 --> 00:16:10,800
♪ Put a little something in our lemonade ♪

380
00:16:11,200 --> 00:16:12,640
♪ And take it with us ♪

381
00:16:12,720 --> 00:16:18,160
♪ We're half awake in a fake empire ♪

382
00:16:19,720 --> 00:16:24,640
♪ We're half awake in a fake empire ♪

383
00:16:28,080 --> 00:16:31,000
♪ Tiptoe through our shiny city ♪

384
00:16:31,680 --> 00:16:33,920
♪ With our diamond slippers on ♪

385
00:16:34,880 --> 00:16:38,000
♪ Do our gay ballet on ice ♪

386
00:16:38,640 --> 00:16:40,840
♪ Bluebirds on our shoulders ♪

387
00:16:40,920 --> 00:16:45,840
♪ We're half awake in a fake empire ♪

388
00:16:47,920 --> 00:16:53,040
♪ We're half awake in a fake empire ♪

389
00:16:55,720 --> 00:16:56,600
[music stops]

390
00:17:01,560 --> 00:17:03,440
Mae, hi. You're early.

391
00:17:04,840 --> 00:17:07,040
No, that's fine. Bye.

392
00:17:07,640 --> 00:17:08,520
I rang Maggie.

393
00:17:08,600 --> 00:17:11,080
She says she'll be attending
another group moving forward.

394
00:17:11,160 --> 00:17:13,560
Karen sent a message saying
she's going back to her job

395
00:17:13,640 --> 00:17:14,760
as a lieutenant in the army.

396
00:17:15,600 --> 00:17:17,880
I'm not sure where Brenda
and Kevin are, so...

397
00:17:18,840 --> 00:17:20,440
it looks like it's just us.

398
00:17:21,440 --> 00:17:23,160
I thought you didn't like me very much.

399
00:17:25,080 --> 00:17:26,040
[sighs]

400
00:17:29,360 --> 00:17:30,240
I don't like you.

401
00:17:31,720 --> 00:17:33,120
I really, really don't like you.

402
00:17:33,200 --> 00:17:34,480
I find you entitled,

403
00:17:34,560 --> 00:17:37,320
and I think you endanger
the sobriety of others.

404
00:17:37,600 --> 00:17:39,760
But I don't have to like you to help you.

405
00:17:42,920 --> 00:17:44,440
I don't really like you either.

406
00:17:46,000 --> 00:17:48,120
Okay, moving on. Um...

407
00:17:48,920 --> 00:17:51,320
I don't suppose there's any point
in doing the readings today.

408
00:17:53,200 --> 00:17:54,040
Mae?

409
00:17:54,680 --> 00:17:55,600
Ah.

410
00:17:56,040 --> 00:17:58,880
Sorry, I didn't realize we'd had
a sobriety birthday today.

411
00:17:58,960 --> 00:18:01,800
Congratulations, I think you said
it'd been two years.

412
00:18:06,160 --> 00:18:07,440
Ah, I see.

413
00:18:12,040 --> 00:18:14,240
I'm sorry. I don't know why.

414
00:18:15,320 --> 00:18:17,680
When the present moment is intolerable,
Mae,

415
00:18:18,640 --> 00:18:21,240
we contort ourselves into pretzels
to get away from it.

416
00:18:21,760 --> 00:18:25,240
But the question I would encourage you
to ask is not, "Why did I use?"

417
00:18:25,600 --> 00:18:27,400
We all know why we use. Pain relief.

418
00:18:28,440 --> 00:18:32,080
Instead, ask yourself, "Why the pain?"

419
00:18:34,880 --> 00:18:38,000
-[plucking one chord]
-[footsteps approach]

420
00:18:38,080 --> 00:18:40,680
Oh, sorry, I'll keep it down. Whoa!

421
00:18:41,800 --> 00:18:42,720
Awesome.

422
00:18:42,800 --> 00:18:43,640
Phil.

423
00:18:44,040 --> 00:18:46,120
I want you to feel like
this is your home.

424
00:18:46,560 --> 00:18:47,440
I made you this.

425
00:18:48,080 --> 00:18:49,200
-What? Oh, my God.
-Yeah.

426
00:18:49,280 --> 00:18:50,680
Well, I had to photoshop myself in,

427
00:18:50,760 --> 00:18:52,640
because we've never actually
hung out one-on-one.

428
00:18:52,720 --> 00:18:54,520
Oh my God, it really is you.

429
00:18:54,600 --> 00:18:55,480
[George laughs]

430
00:18:55,560 --> 00:18:57,280
[Phil laughs]

431
00:18:57,840 --> 00:18:59,680
Well, keep talking. I'm loving this.

432
00:18:59,760 --> 00:19:02,120
I fucked up. You're my friend.

433
00:19:02,440 --> 00:19:03,880
You really are,

434
00:19:04,360 --> 00:19:07,440
and I want you to teach me the harp,

435
00:19:07,520 --> 00:19:11,000
and, uh, I need you to help me
keep my worms alive.

436
00:19:11,080 --> 00:19:12,560
Like, if they ever look hungry,

437
00:19:12,640 --> 00:19:15,240
I want you to remind me to feed them.

438
00:19:16,120 --> 00:19:17,080
[clicks teeth] Mmm.

439
00:19:17,160 --> 00:19:19,880
Wait, Phil, come on.
I just did a really big speech.

440
00:19:20,480 --> 00:19:23,520
I'm sorry, man. I just thought you
were gonna say something about Mae

441
00:19:23,600 --> 00:19:25,640
and how you're gonna do
some big, romantic gesture

442
00:19:25,720 --> 00:19:28,280
for her, but... this is mostly
just about the worms.

443
00:19:28,800 --> 00:19:30,240
Yeah, but Mae won't--

444
00:19:31,160 --> 00:19:34,320
It's-- it's too late.
No, she's just getting on with her life.

445
00:19:34,880 --> 00:19:35,720
It's just...

446
00:19:36,240 --> 00:19:37,080
you and me now.

447
00:19:37,960 --> 00:19:39,760
Okay, if you say so.

448
00:19:40,720 --> 00:19:43,000
Then I guess it's just you, me,
and the worms...

449
00:19:43,560 --> 00:19:44,680
for eternity.

450
00:19:53,560 --> 00:19:55,280
-[sniffles]
-[phone beeps]

451
00:19:55,360 --> 00:19:57,800
[Linda] Mae? Oh, Malcolm?

452
00:19:58,000 --> 00:19:59,440
Mae's on the machine.

453
00:20:00,560 --> 00:20:02,840
Your father's in the garden
counting sparrows.

454
00:20:02,920 --> 00:20:04,680
-I mean, I ask you.
-Hi, Mom.

455
00:20:05,920 --> 00:20:06,880
Wait, what's wrong?

456
00:20:07,480 --> 00:20:09,600
Oh my God, whose toilet are you in?

457
00:20:10,320 --> 00:20:11,280
Can I come home?

458
00:20:11,960 --> 00:20:13,720
[crying] I think I wanna come home.

459
00:20:14,240 --> 00:20:15,400
I'll book you a flight.

460
00:20:15,960 --> 00:20:17,280
Where's my credit card?

461
00:20:18,160 --> 00:20:19,280
I'm booking it now.

462
00:20:19,760 --> 00:20:22,120
Do you have money to get to the airport?

463
00:20:22,200 --> 00:20:23,600
I don't know. I don't think so.

464
00:20:23,680 --> 00:20:25,600
Okay, we'll send you money,

465
00:20:25,920 --> 00:20:27,880
and-- and get you on a flight.

466
00:20:27,960 --> 00:20:29,480
Just get back here,

467
00:20:29,560 --> 00:20:30,920
and we'll make you some soup.

468
00:20:31,000 --> 00:20:34,640
Malcolm, start boiling down some bones
for stock.

469
00:20:35,520 --> 00:20:36,800
I'm not joking!

470
00:20:38,640 --> 00:20:40,360
Um, so I will call you back.

471
00:20:41,680 --> 00:20:43,200
-Mom?
-[Linda] What is it?

472
00:20:44,960 --> 00:20:45,920
Are you mad at me?

473
00:20:47,080 --> 00:20:48,560
I was never mad at you.

474
00:20:51,320 --> 00:20:52,240
Okay, thanks.

475
00:20:52,320 --> 00:20:53,360
We'll see you soon.

476
00:21:06,360 --> 00:21:09,200
Hi. Are you okay?

477
00:21:10,200 --> 00:21:11,920
I was wondering, um...

478
00:21:13,240 --> 00:21:16,560
Would you come over later, at like 3:00,
for a coffee?

479
00:21:16,640 --> 00:21:19,640
I just want to say something,
and I want to show you something.

480
00:21:19,720 --> 00:21:21,880
And I'm not expecting anything at all.

481
00:21:21,960 --> 00:21:23,640
-I just-- I just--
-I love coffee.

482
00:21:24,960 --> 00:21:27,400
I find it so weird that it comes
from beans.

483
00:21:30,960 --> 00:21:32,320
What's that?

484
00:21:32,400 --> 00:21:33,560
Uh, worms.

485
00:21:33,800 --> 00:21:35,680
-Um, I want to say--
-I need to say some--

486
00:21:35,760 --> 00:21:37,000
-Do you wanna--
-No, you go.

487
00:21:37,080 --> 00:21:38,480
-Okay, sorry.
-Yeah.

488
00:21:39,040 --> 00:21:42,800
I want to say that I thought
I was doing the right thing, ending it.

489
00:21:42,880 --> 00:21:44,960
But I think I was just doing
the easy thing,

490
00:21:45,040 --> 00:21:47,520
and I should've carried your bags.

491
00:21:47,600 --> 00:21:48,880
What bags?

492
00:21:49,600 --> 00:21:52,920
I don't know. Like, if you had bags,
I just should've carried them.

493
00:21:53,000 --> 00:21:54,720
I'm confused about the bags,

494
00:21:54,800 --> 00:21:57,360
-'cause I don't know--
-Forget the bags. They're just symbolic.

495
00:21:57,440 --> 00:21:59,280
I should have taken care of you.

496
00:22:00,320 --> 00:22:03,280
-And if I could go back, I would.
-I'm going to Canada.

497
00:22:03,360 --> 00:22:04,520
In a couple of days.

498
00:22:05,480 --> 00:22:06,320
What?

499
00:22:06,400 --> 00:22:09,440
I'm going to Canada, because my parents
booked me a flight, so I'm gonna go...

500
00:22:09,520 --> 00:22:10,880
Wh-- No, but...

501
00:22:12,080 --> 00:22:13,040
Wait, for how long?

502
00:22:13,120 --> 00:22:14,200
I don't know, like...

503
00:22:15,480 --> 00:22:16,440
Like a while, I think.

504
00:22:16,760 --> 00:22:18,400
[clattering]

505
00:22:18,480 --> 00:22:19,320
[George] Oh, fuck.

506
00:22:19,920 --> 00:22:20,880
[Mae] Oh, my God.

507
00:22:22,000 --> 00:22:22,960
Can I come out now?

508
00:22:23,040 --> 00:22:24,240
Yeah.

509
00:22:24,320 --> 00:22:26,520
Um, Mae, this is my mum.

510
00:22:26,600 --> 00:22:27,840
Mum, this is Mae.

511
00:22:27,920 --> 00:22:29,800
-Oh, God.
-Hello.

512
00:22:30,840 --> 00:22:33,200
This has all gone rather badly,
hasn't it, darling?

513
00:22:33,280 --> 00:22:34,400
Shall I do the speech?

514
00:22:34,480 --> 00:22:35,800
-Well...
-[mother] Mae,

515
00:22:35,880 --> 00:22:38,440
I wish I'd met you sooner,
but my daughter's been a dunce.

516
00:22:38,520 --> 00:22:41,080
-She didn't realize how important--
-[George] Mum, it's okay.

517
00:22:41,160 --> 00:22:43,600
Please, stop it. I think it's too late.

518
00:22:43,680 --> 00:22:46,680
Mae's made up her mind, so you can go.

519
00:22:47,680 --> 00:22:48,520
Sorry.

520
00:22:49,400 --> 00:22:52,080
-It's nice to meet you.
-Hmm, yes.

521
00:22:52,160 --> 00:22:53,640
-You-- you look the same.
-Do we?

522
00:22:53,720 --> 00:22:55,240
[both chuckle]

523
00:22:55,320 --> 00:22:56,600
-Not to worry.
-Thank you.

524
00:22:56,680 --> 00:22:58,240
-You'll message?
-Yes.

525
00:22:58,800 --> 00:23:01,080
-[mother] Bye.
-[George] Thank you, Mum. Bye.

526
00:23:02,440 --> 00:23:04,360
-[door closes]
-I'm really sorry.

527
00:23:04,440 --> 00:23:06,320
-No, I'm sorry. It's just--
-[Mae] I didn't know.

528
00:23:06,400 --> 00:23:08,080
It's not enough, sorry.

529
00:23:08,160 --> 00:23:10,120
No, it's not you, it's, um...

530
00:23:10,240 --> 00:23:12,000
You were right about what you said.

531
00:23:12,480 --> 00:23:13,840
That I need to be okay on my own.

532
00:23:13,920 --> 00:23:14,760
Yeah.

533
00:23:14,840 --> 00:23:17,360
Because what I'm doing is just jumping
from thing to thing,

534
00:23:17,880 --> 00:23:19,360
and that's not healthy.

535
00:23:19,440 --> 00:23:21,920
And that's what I do.
I just jump from thing to thing.

536
00:23:22,000 --> 00:23:24,080
-I'm not a thing.
-What?

537
00:23:24,600 --> 00:23:25,680
I'm-- I'm a person.

538
00:23:26,480 --> 00:23:27,480
I'm not a thing.

539
00:23:27,560 --> 00:23:29,280
-I know.
-And what--

540
00:23:29,360 --> 00:23:31,000
And what if I'm a person, and...

541
00:23:31,480 --> 00:23:32,560
I'm in love with you?

542
00:23:34,000 --> 00:23:35,040
What am I gonna do?

543
00:23:36,080 --> 00:23:38,760
I don't know what to do without you.
What am I meant to do now?

544
00:23:39,680 --> 00:23:41,360
I need you now.

545
00:23:43,480 --> 00:23:44,600
Oh, God.

546
00:23:50,040 --> 00:23:52,400
[alternative pop music playing]

547
00:23:52,480 --> 00:23:56,240
♪ Everything goes right ♪

548
00:23:56,920 --> 00:24:00,360
♪ Everything goes right ♪

549
00:24:01,280 --> 00:24:02,960
♪ Everything goes right... ♪

550
00:24:03,040 --> 00:24:04,600
Oh, my God! What have you done?

551
00:24:05,600 --> 00:24:06,560
♪ Everything... ♪

552
00:24:06,640 --> 00:24:07,720
I've always had that.

553
00:24:08,320 --> 00:24:09,760
Okay... whatever.

554
00:24:14,360 --> 00:24:15,720
Your heart is pounding.

555
00:24:19,000 --> 00:24:20,920
Is there anything you need to tell me?

556
00:24:23,040 --> 00:24:25,760
[man vocalizing]

557
00:24:25,840 --> 00:24:28,520
[high-pitched feedback ringing]