1
00:00:34,748 --> 00:00:36,750
Evan: Dear Evan Hansen...

2
00:00:48,845 --> 00:00:52,015
Today is going to be
an amazing day,

3
00:00:52,099 --> 00:00:53,850
and here's why.

4
00:00:57,396 --> 00:01:01,525
Because today, all you have
to do is just be yourself.

5
00:01:03,360 --> 00:01:06,113
But also confident.
That's-that's important.

6
00:01:06,196 --> 00:01:08,115
And interesting.
Easy to talk to.

7
00:01:08,198 --> 00:01:09,838
Approachable.
But mostly just be yourself.

8
00:01:09,908 --> 00:01:11,553
You know, that's number one,
obviously. Be yourself.

9
00:01:11,577 --> 00:01:13,495
But, like, a confident version
of yourself,

10
00:01:13,579 --> 00:01:15,789
like, approachable
and interesting

11
00:01:15,872 --> 00:01:17,374
and not weird or anxious
or depressed.

12
00:01:17,457 --> 00:01:18,851
But you're not weird
or anxious or depressed.

13
00:01:18,875 --> 00:01:20,186
I don't even know
why you're bringing it up.

14
00:01:20,210 --> 00:01:21,521
You can't be scared
to talk to other people.

15
00:01:21,545 --> 00:01:22,754
You said that you'd be better.

16
00:01:22,838 --> 00:01:23,856
You said this year
would be different.

17
00:01:23,880 --> 00:01:25,048
You're overthinking it.

18
00:01:25,132 --> 00:01:26,633
Do you like having no friends?

19
00:01:26,717 --> 00:01:28,343
All you have to do
is just be yourself.

20
00:01:28,427 --> 00:01:31,638
J' I've learned
to slam on the brake j'

21
00:01:31,722 --> 00:01:35,267
j' before I even turn the key I

22
00:01:35,350 --> 00:01:38,353
j' before I make the mistake I

23
00:01:38,437 --> 00:01:41,732
j' before I lead
with the worst of me I

24
00:01:41,815 --> 00:01:44,985
I give them no reason to stare j'

25
00:01:45,068 --> 00:01:48,488
j' no slipping up
if you slip away I

26
00:01:48,572 --> 00:01:50,741
I so I got nothing to share I

27
00:01:51,908 --> 00:01:55,037
j' no, I got nothing to say I

28
00:01:55,120 --> 00:01:57,289
I step out,
step out of the sun I

29
00:01:57,372 --> 00:02:00,000
I if you keep getting burned j'

30
00:02:01,918 --> 00:02:06,381
I step out, step out of the sun
because you've learned j'

31
00:02:06,465 --> 00:02:10,260
j' because you've learned j'

32
00:02:10,344 --> 00:02:12,888
j' on the outside
always looking in j'

33
00:02:12,971 --> 00:02:16,141
I will I ever be more
than I've always been? I

34
00:02:16,224 --> 00:02:19,770
j' 'cause I'm tap, tap,
tapping on the glass j'

35
00:02:19,853 --> 00:02:22,481
I I'm waving through a window I

36
00:02:22,564 --> 00:02:25,817
j' oh, I try to speak,
but nobody can hear I

37
00:02:25,901 --> 00:02:30,113
I so I wait around
for an answer to appear I

38
00:02:30,197 --> 00:02:33,033
j' while I'm watch, watch,
watching people pass I

39
00:02:33,116 --> 00:02:35,744
I I'm waving through a window I

40
00:02:35,827 --> 00:02:37,245
j'ohj'

41
00:02:38,246 --> 00:02:40,582
j' can anybody see? I

42
00:02:40,666 --> 00:02:45,379
j' is anybody waving
back at me? I

43
00:02:55,722 --> 00:02:57,391
So you just didn't eat
last night?

44
00:02:57,474 --> 00:02:59,226
I wasn't hungry.

45
00:02:59,309 --> 00:03:00,602
You're a senior in high school.

46
00:03:00,686 --> 00:03:02,497
You need to be able
to order dinner for yourself.

47
00:03:02,521 --> 00:03:03,647
You can do it all online.

48
00:03:03,730 --> 00:03:05,190
You don't have to talk
to anybody.

49
00:03:05,273 --> 00:03:06,876
Okay, well, that's not, that's
not true, actually, though,

50
00:03:06,900 --> 00:03:09,212
because, um, the credit card's
expired, so you have to meet

51
00:03:09,236 --> 00:03:11,113
the delivery person
at the door, you know?

52
00:03:11,196 --> 00:03:12,423
You have to pay them
with cash at the door.

53
00:03:12,447 --> 00:03:13,573
You have to greet them.

54
00:03:13,657 --> 00:03:14,884
You know, you have
to figure out the right,

55
00:03:14,908 --> 00:03:17,244
the right, um...
The-the proper greeting.

56
00:03:17,327 --> 00:03:18,328
Okay.

57
00:03:19,746 --> 00:03:21,724
This is what you're supposed
to be working on, sweetheart,

58
00:03:21,748 --> 00:03:23,041
with Dr. Sherman.

59
00:03:23,125 --> 00:03:25,585
Have you been doing those
letters he wants you to do?

60
00:03:25,669 --> 00:03:26,920
"Dear Evan Hansen."

61
00:03:27,003 --> 00:03:30,382
I mean, I've definitely...
I-I've been trying to.

62
00:03:30,465 --> 00:03:31,609
Those letters are important,
honey.

63
00:03:31,633 --> 00:03:33,009
You have to keep working.

64
00:03:33,093 --> 00:03:35,804
We can't go back to where
you were last year, right?

65
00:03:35,887 --> 00:03:37,597
Um, you have an appointment
this afternoon.

66
00:03:37,681 --> 00:03:39,141
I'm working till 6:00,

67
00:03:39,224 --> 00:03:41,560
so you're gonna
have to take the bus.

68
00:03:41,643 --> 00:03:43,103
Hey.

69
00:03:43,186 --> 00:03:44,354
I thought you could go around

70
00:03:44,438 --> 00:03:47,190
and ask all the other kids
to sign your cast.

71
00:03:47,274 --> 00:03:48,608
Perfect icebreaker, right?

72
00:03:50,694 --> 00:03:53,363
- What happened to your shirt?
- There was a stain on it.

73
00:03:53,447 --> 00:03:55,365
- Wha... but it's brand-new.
- Yes, I know.

74
00:03:55,449 --> 00:03:57,534
I was... I'm so mad.

75
00:03:57,617 --> 00:03:59,995
I we start with stars
in our eyes I

76
00:04:01,204 --> 00:04:04,332
I we start believing
that we belong j'

77
00:04:04,416 --> 00:04:07,586
I but every sun doesn't rise j'

78
00:04:07,669 --> 00:04:11,006
I and no one tells you
where you went wrong I

79
00:04:11,089 --> 00:04:13,508
I step out,
step out of the sun I

80
00:04:13,592 --> 00:04:15,635
I if you keep getting burned j'

81
00:04:17,637 --> 00:04:21,641
I step out, step out of the sun
because you've learned j'

82
00:04:21,725 --> 00:04:24,019
j' because you've learned j'

83
00:04:24,102 --> 00:04:26,855
j' on the outside
always looking in j'

84
00:04:26,938 --> 00:04:29,649
I will I ever be more
than I've always been? I

85
00:04:29,733 --> 00:04:33,820
j' 'cause I'm tap, tap,
tapping on the glass j'

86
00:04:33,904 --> 00:04:36,114
j' waving through a window I

87
00:04:36,198 --> 00:04:39,951
j' oh, I try to speak,
but nobody can hear I

88
00:04:40,035 --> 00:04:43,079
I so I wait around
for an answer to appear I

89
00:04:43,163 --> 00:04:46,958
j' while I'm watch, watch,
watching people pass I

90
00:04:47,042 --> 00:04:49,252
j' waving through a window I

91
00:04:49,336 --> 00:04:50,712
j'ohj'

92
00:04:51,713 --> 00:04:53,965
j' can anybody see? I

93
00:04:54,049 --> 00:04:56,468
j' is anybody waving? J'

94
00:04:56,551 --> 00:04:57,904
j' when you're falling
in a forest I

95
00:04:57,928 --> 00:04:59,930
I and there's nobody around I

96
00:05:00,013 --> 00:05:03,016
I do you ever really crash
or even make a sound? I

97
00:05:03,099 --> 00:05:04,559
j' when you're falling
in a forest I

98
00:05:04,643 --> 00:05:06,436
I and there's nobody around I

99
00:05:06,520 --> 00:05:09,648
I do you ever really crash
or even make a sound? I

100
00:05:09,731 --> 00:05:11,274
j' when you're falling
in a forest I

101
00:05:11,358 --> 00:05:12,901
I and there's nobody around I

102
00:05:12,984 --> 00:05:15,904
I do you ever really crash
or even make a sound? I

103
00:05:15,987 --> 00:05:17,948
j' when you're falling
in a forest I

104
00:05:18,031 --> 00:05:19,491
I and there's nobody around I

105
00:05:19,574 --> 00:05:23,119
I do you ever really crash
or even make a sound? I

106
00:05:23,203 --> 00:05:26,122
I did I even make a sound?
Did I even make a sound? I

107
00:05:26,206 --> 00:05:27,582
j' it's like
I never made a sound I

108
00:05:27,666 --> 00:05:30,752
I will I ever make a sound? I

109
00:05:30,836 --> 00:05:33,421
j' on the outside
always looking in j'

110
00:05:33,505 --> 00:05:36,675
I will I ever be more
than I've always been? I

111
00:05:36,758 --> 00:05:40,262
j' 'cause I'm tap, tap,
tapping on the glass j'

112
00:05:40,345 --> 00:05:42,347
j' waving through a window I

113
00:05:42,430 --> 00:05:46,268
j' oh, I try to speak,
but nobody can hear I

114
00:05:46,351 --> 00:05:49,646
I so I wait around
for an answer to appear I

115
00:05:49,729 --> 00:05:53,650
j' while I'm watch, watch,
watching people pass I

116
00:05:53,733 --> 00:05:55,944
j' waving through a window I

117
00:05:56,027 --> 00:05:57,362
j'ohj'

118
00:05:58,488 --> 00:06:00,824
j' can anybody see? I

119
00:06:00,907 --> 00:06:06,413
j' is anybody waving
back at me? I

120
00:06:06,496 --> 00:06:09,833
j' is anybody waving? J'

121
00:06:09,916 --> 00:06:13,253
j' waving, waving j'

122
00:06:13,336 --> 00:06:15,589
j' whoa... j'

123
00:06:15,672 --> 00:06:21,553
j' whoa. J'

124
00:06:21,636 --> 00:06:23,197
J' let's go,
bobcats, let's go... I

125
00:06:25,223 --> 00:06:26,308
Jared: Evan.

126
00:06:27,893 --> 00:06:29,060
What?

127
00:06:29,144 --> 00:06:30,520
It's Zoe Murphy

128
00:06:30,604 --> 00:06:33,231
in that hot band shirt
you love so much.

129
00:06:33,315 --> 00:06:34,715
Can you just...
Can you please stop?

130
00:06:34,774 --> 00:06:36,234
Well, hey,
maybe she's into you, too.

131
00:06:36,318 --> 00:06:37,962
Maybe you should talk to her,
tell her how you feel.

132
00:06:37,986 --> 00:06:39,738
I've tried talking to her.

133
00:06:39,821 --> 00:06:41,197
Really?

134
00:06:41,281 --> 00:06:43,533
Yes. Yeah, I...

135
00:06:43,617 --> 00:06:45,160
I stayed afterwards,
um, last year

136
00:06:45,243 --> 00:06:46,953
after the spring
jazz band concert,

137
00:06:47,037 --> 00:06:48,580
but, um, I didn't go up to her

138
00:06:48,663 --> 00:06:50,582
because I was worried
that my hands were sweaty.

139
00:06:50,665 --> 00:06:51,934
Which they weren't even,
they weren't even that sweaty.

140
00:06:51,958 --> 00:06:53,603
I just... I was worried
that they were sweaty,

141
00:06:53,627 --> 00:06:54,937
and sometimes
worrying that they're sweaty

142
00:06:54,961 --> 00:06:56,689
makes them sweaty,
so I just went to the bathroom

143
00:06:56,713 --> 00:06:58,441
and I put 'em under, like,
the hand dryer thing,

144
00:06:58,465 --> 00:06:59,966
but then they were still sweaty.

145
00:07:00,050 --> 00:07:02,218
They were just, um...
They were just also warm.

146
00:07:03,887 --> 00:07:05,722
I was kidding.

147
00:07:05,805 --> 00:07:07,265
You obviously should not
talk to her.

148
00:07:07,349 --> 00:07:08,683
You are a literal disaster.

149
00:07:16,691 --> 00:07:18,652
Go, bobcats!

150
00:07:24,199 --> 00:07:26,117
Go, bobcats.

151
00:07:26,201 --> 00:07:27,202
So awesome.

152
00:07:27,285 --> 00:07:28,954
So awesome, everyone.

153
00:07:29,037 --> 00:07:30,330
Phenomenal, really.

154
00:07:30,413 --> 00:07:32,791
You know what's not phenomenal?

155
00:07:32,874 --> 00:07:34,209
Deforestation.

156
00:07:34,292 --> 00:07:36,503
So, what happened
to your arm exactly?

157
00:07:36,586 --> 00:07:39,172
Um, I was climbing a tree,
and ifell.

158
00:07:39,255 --> 00:07:40,423
It was stupid.

159
00:07:40,507 --> 00:07:42,801
You fell out of a tree?
What are you, five?

160
00:07:42,884 --> 00:07:44,719
Well, um...

161
00:07:44,803 --> 00:07:46,596
So, actually,
I-I worked this summer

162
00:07:46,680 --> 00:07:49,516
as an apprentice park ranger
at Ellison state park.

163
00:07:51,559 --> 00:07:53,770
It's a funny story,
though, because...

164
00:07:53,853 --> 00:07:55,748
There was, like, this solid
ten minutes after I fell

165
00:07:55,772 --> 00:07:57,440
where I just lay there
on the ground,

166
00:07:57,524 --> 00:07:59,734
um, waiting for someone
to come get me, you know?

167
00:07:59,818 --> 00:08:01,444
I was like, "any second now."
You know?

168
00:08:01,528 --> 00:08:02,922
I just kept... I, like...
I was saying to myself,

169
00:08:02,946 --> 00:08:04,531
"any second now.
Here they come." So...

170
00:08:04,614 --> 00:08:05,824
Did they?

171
00:08:05,907 --> 00:08:06,908
No, nobody came.

172
00:08:06,992 --> 00:08:09,911
That's the, um...
That's what's funny.

173
00:08:09,995 --> 00:08:11,246
That's not funny.

174
00:08:11,329 --> 00:08:12,497
Model u.N...

175
00:08:12,580 --> 00:08:15,166
Well, anyways, um, how was...
Did you, um...

176
00:08:15,250 --> 00:08:16,626
How was camp?

177
00:08:16,710 --> 00:08:20,338
Well, I put on 13 pounds
of pure muscle.

178
00:08:20,422 --> 00:08:23,133
Also, I hooked up
with this Brazilian dude

179
00:08:23,216 --> 00:08:26,052
who is literally a supermodel.

180
00:08:27,303 --> 00:08:29,305
So, yeah, hope that answers
your question.

181
00:08:29,389 --> 00:08:33,476
So let's have mother nature's
back so that she'll have ours.

182
00:08:41,484 --> 00:08:43,445
Yeah! Yeah!

183
00:08:43,528 --> 00:08:45,822
All right, thank you, Alana.
Very inspirational.

184
00:08:45,905 --> 00:08:47,657
All right,
so let's have a great year,

185
00:08:47,741 --> 00:08:49,951
and, uh, go, bobcats!

186
00:08:59,586 --> 00:09:02,547
Hey, um...

187
00:09:02,630 --> 00:09:04,090
Would you want to sign my cast?

188
00:09:04,174 --> 00:09:05,759
Uh, you could,
you could be the first.

189
00:09:05,842 --> 00:09:07,594
Why would I do that?

190
00:09:08,636 --> 00:09:11,639
Well, I just... I thought, um,
because we're friends and...

191
00:09:11,723 --> 00:09:13,349
We're family friends, Evan.

192
00:09:13,433 --> 00:09:14,785
That's an entirely
different thing.

193
00:09:14,809 --> 00:09:16,227
Please respect that.

194
00:09:27,739 --> 00:09:29,616
Connor, I'm loving
this manicure.

195
00:09:29,699 --> 00:09:32,118
- Very school shooter chic.
- You're such an idiot.

196
00:09:32,202 --> 00:09:33,328
Leila: That is so not...

197
00:09:34,746 --> 00:09:36,790
Students: I here we go,
bobcats, here we go. I

198
00:09:43,546 --> 00:09:45,673
You think that's funny?

199
00:09:45,757 --> 00:09:47,967
What? No. Not-not at all.

200
00:09:50,011 --> 00:09:51,930
Then stop laughing!

201
00:10:02,315 --> 00:10:03,733
Zoe: Hey.

202
00:10:07,445 --> 00:10:08,988
I'm sorry about my brother.

203
00:10:09,072 --> 00:10:10,782
He's a psycho.

204
00:10:12,492 --> 00:10:14,327
Evan, right?

205
00:10:15,370 --> 00:10:16,454
Evan?

206
00:10:17,455 --> 00:10:20,667
That-that's your,
that's your name?

207
00:10:20,750 --> 00:10:22,293
Y-Yeah, it is. It is. Sorry.

208
00:10:22,377 --> 00:10:24,337
It's Evan. It's Evan. I'm sorry.

209
00:10:24,420 --> 00:10:26,005
Why are you sorry?

210
00:10:26,089 --> 00:10:29,008
'Cause you s-s... you said Evan,
and then I said it, you know?

211
00:10:29,092 --> 00:10:31,261
I just repeated it,
which is, um...

212
00:10:31,344 --> 00:10:33,930
That's just really annoying
when people do that, so...

213
00:10:35,932 --> 00:10:37,308
I'm Zoe.

214
00:10:45,024 --> 00:10:47,735
Sorry.
I should... I think... sorry.

215
00:11:07,046 --> 00:11:08,882
Evan: Dear Evan Hansen,

216
00:11:08,965 --> 00:11:12,010
turns out this wasn't
an amazing day after all.

217
00:11:13,052 --> 00:11:15,972
This isn't gonna be an
amazing week or an amazing year

218
00:11:16,055 --> 00:11:18,266
because why would it be?

219
00:11:22,770 --> 00:11:24,814
Oh, I know. Because there's Zoe.

220
00:11:24,898 --> 00:11:29,027
Who I don't even know
and who doesn't know me, but...

221
00:11:31,237 --> 00:11:33,615
Maybe if I did, maybe if
I could just talk to her,

222
00:11:33,698 --> 00:11:35,909
maybe things would be better.

223
00:11:40,663 --> 00:11:42,665
Maybe nothing would be
different at all.

224
00:11:44,918 --> 00:11:47,337
I wish everything was different.

225
00:11:47,420 --> 00:11:49,130
I wish I was different.

226
00:11:49,214 --> 00:11:50,673
I wish I was part of something.

227
00:11:50,757 --> 00:11:54,969
I wish that anything isaid
mattered to anyone.

228
00:11:56,429 --> 00:11:59,265
But it doesn't,
and it never did.

229
00:12:01,267 --> 00:12:03,102
And it never will.

230
00:12:05,521 --> 00:12:10,818
I mean, face it, would anyone
even notice if I just...

231
00:12:10,902 --> 00:12:13,029
Disappeared tomorrow?

232
00:12:13,112 --> 00:12:16,741
Sincerely, your best
and most dearest friend,

233
00:12:25,667 --> 00:12:27,126
Connor: Hey.

234
00:12:27,210 --> 00:12:28,670
What happened to your arm?

235
00:12:34,634 --> 00:12:36,386
I was climbing a tree,
and ifell.

236
00:12:36,469 --> 00:12:38,513
You fell out of a tree?

237
00:12:40,848 --> 00:12:43,142
That's the saddest thing
I've ever heard.

238
00:12:44,894 --> 00:12:46,312
I know.

239
00:12:54,153 --> 00:12:57,365
S-Sorry, um, I think I
accidentally printed something.

240
00:12:57,448 --> 00:12:59,367
Yeah, we're all waiting.

241
00:13:00,910 --> 00:13:02,745
Um, no one signed your cast.

242
00:13:04,038 --> 00:13:05,373
No, I-I know.

243
00:13:05,456 --> 00:13:06,666
I'll sign it.

244
00:13:07,709 --> 00:13:09,311
Oh, you don't...
You really don't have to...

245
00:13:09,335 --> 00:13:10,586
Do you have a sharpie?

246
00:13:10,670 --> 00:13:13,339
Oh, um, I don't. Shoot.

247
00:13:13,423 --> 00:13:15,049
Oh, here's one.

248
00:13:17,593 --> 00:13:18,970
Nice.

249
00:13:33,651 --> 00:13:36,446
Wow, that's great.

250
00:13:36,529 --> 00:13:39,365
Now we can both pretend
we have friends.

251
00:13:45,747 --> 00:13:47,540
Uh, "dear Evan Hansen."
Here you go.

252
00:13:47,623 --> 00:13:49,000
Y-Yeah, that's mine.
That's mine.

253
00:13:49,083 --> 00:13:51,502
- I'll... I can take it, sorry.
- "Because there's Zoe..."

254
00:13:52,712 --> 00:13:54,130
Is this about my sister?

255
00:13:54,213 --> 00:13:56,924
What? No, no.
Who's-who's your sister?

256
00:13:57,008 --> 00:13:59,844
- You wanted me to find this?
- What?

257
00:13:59,927 --> 00:14:02,847
You saw I was here,
so you started writing this

258
00:14:02,930 --> 00:14:04,366
- and you started talking to me.
- No.

259
00:14:04,390 --> 00:14:05,492
No, you started talking to me.

260
00:14:05,516 --> 00:14:06,744
So that I would read
some creepy shit

261
00:14:06,768 --> 00:14:09,020
about my sister
and freak out, right?

262
00:14:09,103 --> 00:14:10,748
- Why would I do that?
- So then you can tell everyone

263
00:14:10,772 --> 00:14:12,899
that I'm crazy. Right?

264
00:14:12,982 --> 00:14:15,651
- Right?!
- Gentlemen! -

265
00:14:17,153 --> 00:14:18,905
Evan: No, I really...

266
00:14:18,988 --> 00:14:21,657
Look, I really need that back,
so can...

267
00:14:21,741 --> 00:14:23,534
Look, can you please
just give it back?

268
00:14:30,249 --> 00:14:32,126
Just-just please don't
show it to anyone.

269
00:14:32,210 --> 00:14:33,378
Connofl

270
00:14:44,972 --> 00:14:46,682
Come on.

271
00:14:48,226 --> 00:14:50,478
Shit, shit.

272
00:15:27,432 --> 00:15:28,599
Hi.

273
00:15:28,683 --> 00:15:30,160
Heidi: Hi, honey. I'm so sorry.

274
00:15:30,184 --> 00:15:32,204
Erica called in at the
last minute with a stomach bug,

275
00:15:32,228 --> 00:15:34,605
and there's only
one other nurse on tonight,

276
00:15:34,689 --> 00:15:36,732
so I-I volunteered
to take her shift.

277
00:15:36,816 --> 00:15:38,443
I hope you weren't
waiting for me to eat.

278
00:15:38,526 --> 00:15:41,112
- No, I already ate.
- Um, it's just they, uh,

279
00:15:41,195 --> 00:15:42,881
they announced
more budget cuts this morning,

280
00:15:42,905 --> 00:15:44,157
so anything I can do to show

281
00:15:44,240 --> 00:15:45,467
that I'm a team player,
you know?

282
00:15:45,491 --> 00:15:47,452
- How was your day?
- Fine.

283
00:15:47,535 --> 00:15:48,995
It was, it was pretty good.

284
00:15:49,078 --> 00:15:51,622
Yeah? You know, I-I texted
with meera this morning,

285
00:15:51,706 --> 00:15:53,166
and she said that Jared was

286
00:15:53,249 --> 00:15:55,501
really looking forward
to seeing you and reconnecting.

287
00:15:55,585 --> 00:15:57,086
I thought that was nice.

288
00:15:57,170 --> 00:15:59,547
Yeah, he's so nice.

289
00:15:59,630 --> 00:16:01,316
- Heidi: How was Dr. Sherman?
- Pretty good.

290
00:16:01,340 --> 00:16:03,050
Any change to your meds?

291
00:16:04,635 --> 00:16:06,220
Evan: Um, no.

292
00:16:06,304 --> 00:16:08,514
Oh, god, here he comes.
Um, all right, i-i-i...

293
00:16:08,598 --> 00:16:09,974
All right, love you. Bye.

294
00:16:10,057 --> 00:16:12,351
Okay, I love you...

295
00:16:12,435 --> 00:16:13,769
Too.

296
00:16:16,814 --> 00:16:18,625
Jared: A letter to yourself.
I mean, what is that,

297
00:16:18,649 --> 00:16:20,318
like some kind of sex thing?

298
00:16:20,401 --> 00:16:22,111
No. No, it's not a sex thing.

299
00:16:22,195 --> 00:16:23,839
It's... it was an assignment
from my therapist.

300
00:16:23,863 --> 00:16:25,656
Ew. Why-why are you
telling me this?

301
00:16:25,740 --> 00:16:27,092
Well, I didn't know
who else to tell.

302
00:16:27,116 --> 00:16:29,160
You're my only f...
Family friend.

303
00:16:29,243 --> 00:16:30,620
Oh, that's sad.

304
00:16:30,703 --> 00:16:32,413
Look, Connor isn't here
again today.

305
00:16:32,497 --> 00:16:34,207
That's-that's
three days in a row.

306
00:16:34,290 --> 00:16:36,143
And h-he hasn't done anything
with it yet, you know,

307
00:16:36,167 --> 00:16:37,407
like put it online or whatever,

308
00:16:37,460 --> 00:16:38,836
because I've-I've been checking.

309
00:16:38,920 --> 00:16:41,672
So, you know, maybe he just...
Maybe he forgot, right?

310
00:16:41,756 --> 00:16:43,549
Right. Right.

311
00:16:43,633 --> 00:16:44,842
Or maybe he didn't,

312
00:16:44,926 --> 00:16:46,677
because he's definitely
gonna put it online.

313
00:16:46,761 --> 00:16:48,763
Dude, Connor Murphy is batshit.

314
00:16:48,846 --> 00:16:50,890
Don't you remember when
he threw a printer at Mrs. g

315
00:16:50,973 --> 00:16:53,434
in the second grade because
he couldn't be line leader?

316
00:16:53,518 --> 00:16:55,102
Like, he was seven.

317
00:16:55,186 --> 00:16:57,313
Just imagine
what he's capable of now.

318
00:16:57,396 --> 00:16:59,232
Woman:
Evan Hansen, please report

319
00:16:59,315 --> 00:17:00,566
to Mr. Howard's office.

320
00:17:00,650 --> 00:17:02,401
Oh, damn.

321
00:17:07,907 --> 00:17:09,825
Evan.

322
00:17:13,246 --> 00:17:16,624
Connor Murphy's mother and
stepfather are here to see you.

323
00:17:16,707 --> 00:17:18,292
They want to speak in private.

324
00:17:40,815 --> 00:17:42,483
Hi.

325
00:17:44,402 --> 00:17:45,486
Hello.

326
00:17:47,488 --> 00:17:49,240
Why don't you go ahead, honey.

327
00:17:49,323 --> 00:17:51,158
I'm going as fast as I can.

328
00:17:51,242 --> 00:17:54,161
Well, that's not
what I said, is it?

329
00:17:56,998 --> 00:17:58,624
This is...

330
00:18:00,668 --> 00:18:03,588
Connor wanted you to have this.

331
00:18:16,934 --> 00:18:19,312
Larry: Yeah, we didn't know
you were friends.

332
00:18:19,395 --> 00:18:20,855
Oh, well, we didn't think

333
00:18:20,938 --> 00:18:23,733
Connor had any friends,
frankly, and...

334
00:18:23,816 --> 00:18:26,485
And then we see this note,
and it seems to suggest

335
00:18:26,569 --> 00:18:28,946
pretty clearly that
you and Connor were, uh...

336
00:18:29,030 --> 00:18:31,699
Or at least for Connor...

337
00:18:31,782 --> 00:18:33,576
"Dear Evan Hansen."
He addressed it to you.

338
00:18:33,659 --> 00:18:35,828
He wrote it to you.

339
00:18:35,911 --> 00:18:38,497
These are the words that
he wanted to share with you.

340
00:18:41,542 --> 00:18:44,170
His last words.

341
00:18:46,422 --> 00:18:48,633
Connor took his own life.

342
00:18:52,887 --> 00:18:54,096
He what?

343
00:18:55,139 --> 00:18:57,516
This is all we found with him.

344
00:18:57,600 --> 00:19:00,645
He had it folded up
in his pocket.

345
00:19:05,149 --> 00:19:07,485
But this is...

346
00:19:07,568 --> 00:19:09,612
I'm sorry, Connor didn't...
He...

347
00:19:09,695 --> 00:19:10,696
He didn't write this.

348
00:19:10,780 --> 00:19:13,366
Connor didn't,
Connor didn't write this.

349
00:19:13,449 --> 00:19:15,660
What-what does that mean?

350
00:19:15,743 --> 00:19:17,453
Well, he's obviously in shock.

351
00:19:17,536 --> 00:19:19,556
-I mean, if Connor didn't write
this... -Evan: I'm so sorry.

352
00:19:19,580 --> 00:19:21,457
Can I just...
I should probably go, please.

353
00:19:21,540 --> 00:19:23,060
No, you don't understand.
This is all that we have.

354
00:19:23,084 --> 00:19:25,920
This is the only thing
that we have left.

355
00:19:26,003 --> 00:19:28,547
- Larry: Cynthia, listen to me.
- No. No. Don't-don't go.

356
00:19:28,631 --> 00:19:30,359
Okay, then you take it.
Please take it, okay?

357
00:19:30,383 --> 00:19:31,401
Cynthia: No. No, don't go.

358
00:19:31,425 --> 00:19:33,761
Don't. Please stay. Please.

359
00:19:39,517 --> 00:19:42,228
His best
and most dearest friend.

360
00:19:56,158 --> 00:19:58,619
That's-that's Connor.

361
00:19:58,703 --> 00:19:59,829
Connor Murphy.

362
00:20:02,123 --> 00:20:03,541
Holy shit.

363
00:20:03,624 --> 00:20:05,000
They invited me for dinner.

364
00:20:05,084 --> 00:20:06,978
They want to know more stuff
about Connor and me,

365
00:20:07,002 --> 00:20:09,046
about our... friendship.

366
00:20:09,130 --> 00:20:11,006
- A-And you said yes?
- I froze.

367
00:20:11,090 --> 00:20:13,718
Well... what are you
gonna tell them?

368
00:20:13,801 --> 00:20:15,177
I mean, the truth.

369
00:20:15,261 --> 00:20:16,470
I-I don't know, man.

370
00:20:16,554 --> 00:20:17,948
I mean, are you really
gonna tell these people

371
00:20:17,972 --> 00:20:19,741
that the only thing
they have left of their son

372
00:20:19,765 --> 00:20:22,226
is a sex letter
that you wrote to yourself?

373
00:20:22,309 --> 00:20:23,519
Alana: Hey.

374
00:20:23,602 --> 00:20:25,896
I'm so sorry.

375
00:20:25,980 --> 00:20:27,815
What the hell was that?

376
00:20:27,898 --> 00:20:30,317
I don't know.

377
00:20:30,401 --> 00:20:32,111
Oh, my god,
they were so sad, his parents.

378
00:20:32,194 --> 00:20:35,489
I mean, his-his mom was just...

379
00:20:36,949 --> 00:20:39,076
I've never seen anyone
so sad before.

380
00:20:46,709 --> 00:20:48,711
I have to tell them.

381
00:21:05,728 --> 00:21:06,937
You're early.

382
00:21:07,980 --> 00:21:10,191
Oh. S-Sorry.

383
00:21:22,244 --> 00:21:23,871
Sit.

384
00:21:28,918 --> 00:21:30,920
I hope you're hungry.

385
00:21:47,603 --> 00:21:48,938
Cynthia: So...

386
00:21:50,606 --> 00:21:52,233
You and Connor.

387
00:21:52,316 --> 00:21:54,401
You probably spent
a lot of time together, I bet.

388
00:21:56,570 --> 00:21:59,073
So, um, not...

389
00:21:59,156 --> 00:22:01,033
Not really, actually.

390
00:22:01,116 --> 00:22:03,953
- Uh, the thing is that I...
- We looked through his phone.

391
00:22:05,120 --> 00:22:08,040
His texts, emails.

392
00:22:08,123 --> 00:22:09,458
We didn't find anything
from you.

393
00:22:09,542 --> 00:22:10,542
Yeah, no, I know.

394
00:22:10,584 --> 00:22:12,103
- I know.
- He set up different accounts,

395
00:22:12,127 --> 00:22:13,838
ones we couldn't find.

396
00:22:13,921 --> 00:22:15,506
He knew you read his emails.

397
00:22:15,589 --> 00:22:17,842
Well, somebody had to be
the bad guy.

398
00:22:17,925 --> 00:22:20,511
Cynthia:
Well, if you did have any

399
00:22:20,594 --> 00:22:23,639
emails or conversations
between the two of you,

400
00:22:23,722 --> 00:22:26,642
we'd love to see anything.

401
00:22:26,725 --> 00:22:28,727
- Well...
- Yeah, it's-it's weird.

402
00:22:28,811 --> 00:22:30,855
Th-the only time
I saw you two together was

403
00:22:30,938 --> 00:22:33,607
when he was screaming in
your face at school last week.

404
00:22:33,691 --> 00:22:34,900
He was screaming at you?

405
00:22:34,984 --> 00:22:36,277
Yeah, yeah, um...

406
00:22:36,360 --> 00:22:37,903
Well, that wasn't very nice.

407
00:22:37,987 --> 00:22:41,240
Well, Connor wasn't very nice,
so that actually makes sense.

408
00:22:44,034 --> 00:22:46,161
I think that everybody
at this table can agree

409
00:22:46,245 --> 00:22:48,080
that Connor was, um...

410
00:22:49,498 --> 00:22:51,792
A complicated person.

411
00:22:51,876 --> 00:22:54,003
No, he was a bad person.

412
00:22:54,086 --> 00:22:56,964
-Zoe, please. -Don't pretend
like you don't agree with me.

413
00:22:57,047 --> 00:22:59,508
Cynthia: You refuse to remember
any of the good things.

414
00:22:59,592 --> 00:23:02,845
Because there were
no good things.

415
00:23:02,928 --> 00:23:05,598
What-what were the good things?

416
00:23:05,681 --> 00:23:07,141
I'm not having this conversation

417
00:23:07,224 --> 00:23:10,394
- in front of our guest.
- No, tell us the good things.

418
00:23:10,477 --> 00:23:12,146
What were the good things?

419
00:23:12,229 --> 00:23:14,023
- Family day at sunny Glen?
- Larry: Zoe!

420
00:23:14,106 --> 00:23:15,482
This is not the time.

421
00:23:15,566 --> 00:23:16,984
Who knew rehab
could be so much fun?

422
00:23:17,067 --> 00:23:18,360
There were good things.

423
00:23:19,236 --> 00:23:22,114
I'm not the only one.

424
00:23:22,197 --> 00:23:23,407
You remember, right?

425
00:23:27,411 --> 00:23:28,454
Right.

426
00:23:28,537 --> 00:23:29,580
Of course.

427
00:23:29,663 --> 00:23:31,540
Yes, of course
there were good things.

428
00:23:31,624 --> 00:23:34,376
Tell us something.

429
00:23:34,460 --> 00:23:35,628
Please, Evan.

430
00:23:39,590 --> 00:23:41,508
Right, um...

431
00:23:41,592 --> 00:23:43,385
S... uh, Connor and I...

432
00:23:44,970 --> 00:23:47,181
Uh, I d... I don't know, um...

433
00:23:49,266 --> 00:23:51,018
We had a really great...

434
00:23:51,101 --> 00:23:54,063
We had a really great time
together, um...

435
00:23:54,146 --> 00:23:55,940
This one day recently.

436
00:23:56,023 --> 00:23:59,985
That's something good,
um, that I remember.

437
00:24:00,069 --> 00:24:01,487
That day.

438
00:24:03,280 --> 00:24:05,491
Yeah, that awesome day at the...

439
00:24:06,492 --> 00:24:08,285
Um, trees.

440
00:24:10,412 --> 00:24:12,539
- Trees?
- Never mind, never mind.

441
00:24:12,623 --> 00:24:15,376
I'm sorry, I don't, I don't...
I shouldn't have said anything,

442
00:24:15,459 --> 00:24:17,086
and h knew it was stupid,
so I'm sorry...

443
00:24:17,169 --> 00:24:18,529
You don't mean the orchard,
do you?

444
00:24:21,799 --> 00:24:24,176
He took you to the apple
orchard? -

445
00:24:24,259 --> 00:24:26,261
- When?
- Uh, once.

446
00:24:26,345 --> 00:24:27,554
Just-just once. That once.

447
00:24:27,638 --> 00:24:30,307
I thought that place closed
years ago.

448
00:24:30,391 --> 00:24:32,410
Well, the hiking trails are
still open though, aren't they?

449
00:24:32,434 --> 00:24:34,937
We used to go to the orchard
all of the time.

450
00:24:35,020 --> 00:24:36,772
We'd do picnics there.

451
00:24:36,855 --> 00:24:38,565
Do you remember that, Zoe?

452
00:24:38,649 --> 00:24:40,025
Yeah, I do.

453
00:24:40,109 --> 00:24:42,778
And you and Connor would fly
that little toy plane

454
00:24:42,861 --> 00:24:44,863
Until you crashed it
into the creek.

455
00:24:46,532 --> 00:24:48,075
That was an emergency landing.

456
00:24:48,158 --> 00:24:51,036
I can't believe
that he took you there.

457
00:24:51,120 --> 00:24:53,038
I bet you had fun.

458
00:24:53,122 --> 00:24:56,083
I bet the two of you... I...

459
00:24:56,166 --> 00:24:58,043
I bet that was fun.

460
00:24:59,086 --> 00:25:01,422
Yeah.

461
00:25:01,505 --> 00:25:03,298
We did. We did.

462
00:25:03,382 --> 00:25:04,299
The whole day.

463
00:25:04,383 --> 00:25:07,302
Uh, it-it was just...

464
00:25:09,972 --> 00:25:12,099
J' end of may or early June I

465
00:25:12,182 --> 00:25:16,770
j' this picture-perfect
afternoon we share I

466
00:25:18,355 --> 00:25:21,066
what was the name of that
ice cream place that we loved?

467
00:25:21,150 --> 00:25:22,151
Gifford's?

468
00:25:23,444 --> 00:25:24,444
A la mode.

469
00:25:24,486 --> 00:25:26,363
Cynthia: That's it. A la mode.

470
00:25:26,447 --> 00:25:28,574
And they had
this homemade hot fudge.

471
00:25:28,657 --> 00:25:32,036
J' drive the winding
country road I

472
00:25:32,119 --> 00:25:34,621
j' grab a scoop at a la mode j'

473
00:25:34,705 --> 00:25:36,290
I and then we're there I

474
00:25:36,373 --> 00:25:39,209
and we'd sit in that Meadow
by the pine trees,

475
00:25:39,293 --> 00:25:42,379
and you and your brother would
look for four-leaf clovers.

476
00:25:42,463 --> 00:25:45,090
I an open field
that's framed with trees I

477
00:25:45,174 --> 00:25:48,177
I we pick a spot and... j'

478
00:25:48,260 --> 00:25:51,055
j' shoot the breeze
like buddies do I

479
00:25:51,138 --> 00:25:54,266
j' uh, quoting songs
by our favorite bands I

480
00:25:54,349 --> 00:25:57,019
j' telling jokes
no one understands j'

481
00:25:57,102 --> 00:25:59,688
J' except us two I

482
00:25:59,772 --> 00:26:04,401
I and we talk
and take in the view I

483
00:26:06,820 --> 00:26:11,492
I all we see is sky
for forever I

484
00:26:11,575 --> 00:26:17,331
I we let the world
pass by for forever I

485
00:26:17,414 --> 00:26:22,961
j' feels like we could go on
for forever this way I

486
00:26:24,671 --> 00:26:28,175
j' two friends on a perfect day I

487
00:26:30,469 --> 00:26:33,222
I'd completely forgotten
about that place.

488
00:26:33,305 --> 00:26:36,433
Well, I guess Connor didn't,
did he?

489
00:26:37,476 --> 00:26:40,062
I we walk a while
and talk about I

490
00:26:40,145 --> 00:26:44,441
j' the things we'll do
when we get out of school I

491
00:26:44,525 --> 00:26:47,236
j' um...
Bike the appalachian trail j'

492
00:26:47,319 --> 00:26:49,905
j' or write a book
or learn to sail j'

493
00:26:49,988 --> 00:26:52,282
j' wouldn't that be cool? I

494
00:26:52,366 --> 00:26:54,743
j' there's nothing
that we can't discuss j'

495
00:26:54,827 --> 00:26:57,621
I like girls
we wish would notice us I

496
00:26:57,704 --> 00:26:59,706
I but never do I

497
00:26:59,790 --> 00:27:02,251
j' he looks around
and says to me I

498
00:27:02,334 --> 00:27:04,628
j' "there's nowhere else
I'd rather be" I

499
00:27:04,711 --> 00:27:06,338
I and I say, "me, too" I

500
00:27:06,421 --> 00:27:10,759
I and we talk
and take in the view I

501
00:27:12,177 --> 00:27:16,473
I we just talk
and take in the view I

502
00:27:17,850 --> 00:27:21,436
I all we see is sky
for forever I

503
00:27:21,520 --> 00:27:27,484
I we let the world
pass by for forever I

504
00:27:27,568 --> 00:27:33,615
j' feels like we could go on
for forever this way I

505
00:27:33,699 --> 00:27:37,870
j' this way I

506
00:27:37,953 --> 00:27:42,833
I all we see is light
for forever I

507
00:27:42,916 --> 00:27:47,880
j' 'cause the sun
shines bright for forever I

508
00:27:47,963 --> 00:27:54,469
I like we'll be all right
for forever this way I

509
00:27:54,553 --> 00:27:59,975
j' two friends on a perfect day I

510
00:28:00,058 --> 00:28:01,935
I and there he goes I

511
00:28:02,019 --> 00:28:04,605
j' racing toward
the tallest tree I

512
00:28:04,688 --> 00:28:06,940
I from far across
a yellow field I

513
00:28:07,024 --> 00:28:09,735
j' I hear him calling,
"follow me" I

514
00:28:09,818 --> 00:28:11,612
j' there we go I

515
00:28:11,695 --> 00:28:14,740
j' wondering how the world
might look from up so high I

516
00:28:14,823 --> 00:28:17,409
j' one foot after the other I

517
00:28:17,492 --> 00:28:19,661
j' one branch then to another I

518
00:28:19,745 --> 00:28:21,788
j' I climb higher and higher I

519
00:28:21,872 --> 00:28:24,875
j' I climb till the entire sun I

520
00:28:24,958 --> 00:28:30,964
j' shines on my face I

521
00:28:33,300 --> 00:28:38,764
I and I suddenly feel
the branch give way I

522
00:28:42,809 --> 00:28:44,645
I I'm on the ground I

523
00:28:46,396 --> 00:28:48,398
I my arm goes numb j'

524
00:28:50,734 --> 00:28:52,486
j' I look around I

525
00:28:52,569 --> 00:28:55,322
I and I see him come to get me I

526
00:28:57,574 --> 00:28:59,952
he's come to get me.

527
00:29:02,287 --> 00:29:04,831
I and everything's okay I

528
00:29:07,960 --> 00:29:12,714
I all we see is sky
for forever I

529
00:29:12,798 --> 00:29:17,928
I we let the world
pass by for forever I

530
00:29:19,513 --> 00:29:25,936
j' buddy, you and I
for forever this way I

531
00:29:26,019 --> 00:29:29,147
j' this way I

532
00:29:29,231 --> 00:29:34,736
I all we see is light I

533
00:29:34,820 --> 00:29:39,491
j' 'cause the sun burns bright j'

534
00:29:39,574 --> 00:29:43,704
I we could be all right
for forever I

535
00:29:43,787 --> 00:29:48,875
j' this way I

536
00:29:48,959 --> 00:29:51,169
j' two friends I

537
00:29:53,171 --> 00:29:55,007
j' true friends I

538
00:29:55,090 --> 00:29:58,010
j' on a perfect I

539
00:29:59,261 --> 00:30:05,100
j' day. I

540
00:30:06,476 --> 00:30:09,104
thank you, Evan.

541
00:30:09,187 --> 00:30:12,149
Thank you, thank you,
thank you, thank you.

542
00:30:15,694 --> 00:30:17,446
I mean,
they think you were lovers.

543
00:30:17,529 --> 00:30:19,448
- You realize that, right?
- Oh, my god.

544
00:30:19,531 --> 00:30:21,050
I thought you were gonna
tell them the truth.

545
00:30:21,074 --> 00:30:22,659
I-I-I tried, but then I just...

546
00:30:22,743 --> 00:30:24,244
I got nervous
and I started talking.

547
00:30:24,328 --> 00:30:25,787
And then once I started,
I just...

548
00:30:25,871 --> 00:30:27,664
Couldn't stop.

549
00:30:27,748 --> 00:30:29,291
They didn't want me to stop.

550
00:30:29,374 --> 00:30:31,293
What else did you say to them?

551
00:30:31,376 --> 00:30:33,271
Uh, his mom thinks that
we wrote emails to each other.

552
00:30:33,295 --> 00:30:34,546
Oh, perfect.

553
00:30:34,629 --> 00:30:36,715
Sh-she thinks he had,
like, secret accounts.

554
00:30:36,798 --> 00:30:38,675
Ha, yes. Secret email accounts.

555
00:30:38,759 --> 00:30:40,528
That's what all the cool kids
are doing. -

556
00:30:40,552 --> 00:30:42,012
Hansen! Kalwani!

557
00:30:42,095 --> 00:30:43,138
Pick it up!

558
00:30:43,221 --> 00:30:45,599
- No, thank you.
- What was that?

559
00:30:45,682 --> 00:30:48,643
I said thank you
for the encouragement!

560
00:30:48,727 --> 00:30:49,770
Fascist.

561
00:30:49,853 --> 00:30:51,355
She wants to see the emails.

562
00:30:51,438 --> 00:30:53,982
And now you want me to make
a bunch of fake emails for you.

563
00:30:54,066 --> 00:30:55,609
- Classic.
- You know how to do that?

564
00:30:55,692 --> 00:30:57,986
- It's simple coding.
- But you failed coding.

565
00:30:58,070 --> 00:30:59,946
If you consider
a d-minus failing.

566
00:31:00,030 --> 00:31:01,156
Just so we're clear,

567
00:31:01,239 --> 00:31:02,633
I charge a minimum
of two grand per email,

568
00:31:02,657 --> 00:31:04,017
and that is a floor,
not a ceiling.

569
00:31:04,076 --> 00:31:05,702
- $2,000?
- 500.

570
00:31:05,786 --> 00:31:06,971
I didn't even ask for your help.

571
00:31:06,995 --> 00:31:08,580
250, bottom line.
Take it or leave it.

572
00:31:08,663 --> 00:31:09,974
I could probably
give you 20 bucks.

573
00:31:09,998 --> 00:31:12,125
Fine, but I'm not gonna act
like I'm happy about it.

574
00:31:14,419 --> 00:31:16,004
J' dear Evan Hansen j'

575
00:31:16,088 --> 00:31:19,299
j' we've been
way too out of touch I

576
00:31:19,383 --> 00:31:20,884
j' things have been crazy I

577
00:31:20,967 --> 00:31:24,262
I and it sucks
that we don't talk that much I

578
00:31:24,346 --> 00:31:29,101
I but I should tell you that
I think of you each night I

579
00:31:29,184 --> 00:31:33,105
j' I rub my nipples and
start moaning with delight j'

580
00:31:33,188 --> 00:31:34,189
why would you write that?

581
00:31:34,272 --> 00:31:35,857
I'm just trying
to make it erotic.

582
00:31:35,941 --> 00:31:37,168
Look, if you can't
take this seriously, then...

583
00:31:37,192 --> 00:31:38,318
Ugh, calm yourself, honey.

584
00:31:38,402 --> 00:31:39,820
I just want to get this
over with.

585
00:31:39,903 --> 00:31:41,905
J' I gotta tell you I

586
00:31:41,988 --> 00:31:44,282
j' life without you
has been hard I

587
00:31:44,366 --> 00:31:45,492
- "hard“?
- J' has been bad I

588
00:31:45,575 --> 00:31:46,827
- “bad“?
- Has been rough.

589
00:31:46,910 --> 00:31:48,078
- Kinky.
- Please stop.

590
00:31:48,161 --> 00:31:50,288
I and I miss
talking about life I

591
00:31:50,372 --> 00:31:51,706
I and other stuff I

592
00:31:51,790 --> 00:31:53,875
- very specific.
- Shut up.

593
00:31:53,959 --> 00:31:56,044
-J' I like my parents I
-who says that?

594
00:31:56,128 --> 00:31:58,004
J' I love my parents I

595
00:31:58,088 --> 00:32:00,215
I but each day's another fight I

596
00:32:01,258 --> 00:32:03,051
I if I stop smoking drugs I

597
00:32:03,135 --> 00:32:05,637
I then everything
might be all right I

598
00:32:05,720 --> 00:32:07,013
"smoking drugs“?

599
00:32:07,097 --> 00:32:08,640
Just fix it!

600
00:32:08,723 --> 00:32:11,101
-J' if I stop smoking crack I
- "crack"?

601
00:32:11,184 --> 00:32:13,019
I if I stop smoking pot j'

602
00:32:13,103 --> 00:32:16,022
I then everything
might be all right I

603
00:32:16,106 --> 00:32:18,316
I I'll take your advice I

604
00:32:18,400 --> 00:32:21,194
j' I'll try to be more nice I

605
00:32:21,278 --> 00:32:22,446
I I'll turn it around I

606
00:32:22,529 --> 00:32:26,116
I wait and see I

607
00:32:26,199 --> 00:32:30,871
j' 'cause all that it takes
is a little reinvention j'

608
00:32:30,954 --> 00:32:35,625
j' it's easy to change
if you give it your attention I

609
00:32:35,709 --> 00:32:38,086
I all you got to do
is just believe I

610
00:32:38,170 --> 00:32:40,839
I you can be
who you want to be I

611
00:32:40,922 --> 00:32:43,216
j' sincerely, me I

612
00:32:43,300 --> 00:32:44,509
are we done?

613
00:32:44,593 --> 00:32:46,237
Well, I mean, I can't
just show them one email.

614
00:32:46,261 --> 00:32:48,346
I want to show that I was,
like, a good friend.

615
00:32:48,430 --> 00:32:50,474
That I was trying
to help him, you know?

616
00:32:50,557 --> 00:32:52,058
Oh, my god.

617
00:32:52,142 --> 00:32:54,186
J' dear Connor Murphy j'

618
00:32:54,269 --> 00:32:57,606
I yes, I also miss our talks I

619
00:32:57,689 --> 00:32:59,024
j' stop doing drugs I

620
00:32:59,107 --> 00:33:01,943
I just try to take deep breaths
and go on walks j'

621
00:33:02,027 --> 00:33:04,070
- no.
- J' I'm sending pictures I

622
00:33:04,154 --> 00:33:06,072
j' of the most amazing trees I

623
00:33:06,156 --> 00:33:07,491
no.

624
00:33:07,574 --> 00:33:09,075
J' you'll be obsessed with j'

625
00:33:09,159 --> 00:33:11,912
-j' all my forest expertise I
-what?

626
00:33:11,995 --> 00:33:14,873
J' dude, I'm proud of you I

627
00:33:14,956 --> 00:33:17,876
I just keep pushing through I

628
00:33:17,959 --> 00:33:19,836
j' you're turning around,
I can see I

629
00:33:19,920 --> 00:33:21,922
I just wait and see I

630
00:33:22,005 --> 00:33:27,344
j' 'cause all that it takes
is a little reinvention j'

631
00:33:27,427 --> 00:33:32,015
j' it's easy to change
if you give it your attention I

632
00:33:32,098 --> 00:33:34,643
I all you got to do
is just believe I

633
00:33:34,726 --> 00:33:37,312
I you can be
who you want to be I

634
00:33:37,395 --> 00:33:39,189
j' sincerely, me I

635
00:33:39,272 --> 00:33:40,398
I my sister's hot I

636
00:33:40,482 --> 00:33:42,108
- what the hell?
- My bad.

637
00:33:42,192 --> 00:33:43,735
J' dear Evan Hansen j'

638
00:33:43,818 --> 00:33:47,280
j' thanks for every note
you send j'

639
00:33:47,364 --> 00:33:48,532
j' dear Connor Murphy j'

640
00:33:48,615 --> 00:33:51,993
I I'm just glad
to be your friend I

641
00:33:52,077 --> 00:33:54,496
j' our friendship goes beyond I

642
00:33:54,579 --> 00:33:56,915
j' your average kind of bond j'

643
00:33:56,998 --> 00:33:59,292
I but not because they're gay I

644
00:33:59,376 --> 00:34:00,794
j' no, not because... I

645
00:34:00,877 --> 00:34:02,003
j' well, anyway I

646
00:34:02,087 --> 00:34:04,506
j' you're getting better
every day I

647
00:34:04,589 --> 00:34:06,800
I I'm getting better every day I

648
00:34:06,883 --> 00:34:07,923
-j' keep j' -j' getting j'

649
00:34:07,968 --> 00:34:08,885
-j' better j' -j' every j'

650
00:34:08,969 --> 00:34:10,053
j'dayj'

651
00:34:10,136 --> 00:34:11,555
j' hey, hey, hey, hey I

652
00:34:11,638 --> 00:34:16,768
j' 'cause all that it takes
is a little reinvention j'

653
00:34:16,851 --> 00:34:21,565
j' it's easy to change
if you give it your attention I

654
00:34:21,648 --> 00:34:24,150
I all you got to do
is just believe I

655
00:34:24,234 --> 00:34:26,778
I you can be
who you want to be I

656
00:34:26,861 --> 00:34:28,863
j' sincerely j'

657
00:34:28,947 --> 00:34:31,741
I miss you dearly j'

658
00:34:31,825 --> 00:34:34,244
j' sincerely, me I

659
00:34:35,245 --> 00:34:36,705
j' sincerely, me I

660
00:34:37,706 --> 00:34:41,126
J' sincerely, me I

661
00:34:41,209 --> 00:34:42,836
j' sincerely, me. I

662
00:34:46,715 --> 00:34:49,342
I can't remember the last time
that I heard him laugh,

663
00:34:49,426 --> 00:34:51,344
but the two of them,
if you read these...

664
00:34:51,428 --> 00:34:53,263
I think if you could take
ten minutes

665
00:34:53,346 --> 00:34:55,140
and actually read
these emails...

666
00:34:55,223 --> 00:34:57,392
I'm looking at them right now.

667
00:34:59,644 --> 00:35:02,188
Zoe. Look what Evan sent us.

668
00:35:02,272 --> 00:35:04,608
They're emails
from your brother.

669
00:35:04,691 --> 00:35:05,900
I printed them out.

670
00:35:05,984 --> 00:35:08,236
Oh. Take that, trees.

671
00:35:08,320 --> 00:35:09,988
- How was school?
- Terrific.

672
00:35:10,071 --> 00:35:11,948
All of a sudden,
people I've never met

673
00:35:12,032 --> 00:35:13,533
want to be my best friend.

674
00:35:13,617 --> 00:35:15,994
I'm the dead kid's sister,
didn't you know?

675
00:35:17,037 --> 00:35:18,371
I'm sure they mean well.

676
00:35:18,455 --> 00:35:20,457
I'm sure they don't.

677
00:35:27,130 --> 00:35:28,923
She needs time.

678
00:35:29,966 --> 00:35:32,594
No, Larry,
she needs her parents.

679
00:35:32,677 --> 00:35:34,763
Enjoy the game.

680
00:35:42,228 --> 00:35:43,521
Can I come in?

681
00:35:48,109 --> 00:35:50,528
You don't have to stop playing.

682
00:35:51,571 --> 00:35:53,406
How was band?

683
00:35:56,326 --> 00:35:59,371
You know, he-he talks about
you playing guitar,

684
00:35:59,454 --> 00:36:02,999
in one of his emails, at
the spring concert last year.

685
00:36:03,083 --> 00:36:04,834
Really?

686
00:36:04,918 --> 00:36:05,918
Yeah.

687
00:36:05,960 --> 00:36:09,714
Does he, does he talk about

688
00:36:09,798 --> 00:36:12,050
when he disappeared
for two days?

689
00:36:12,133 --> 00:36:14,886
But then he called me and
asked me to come pick him up.

690
00:36:14,969 --> 00:36:16,096
He wanted to come home,

691
00:36:16,179 --> 00:36:17,573
but he wasn't ready
to talk to you yet,

692
00:36:17,597 --> 00:36:21,059
so I took the bus all the way
downtown to get him,

693
00:36:21,142 --> 00:36:23,603
and guess what.

694
00:36:26,648 --> 00:36:29,192
All he really wanted was money.

695
00:36:32,070 --> 00:36:36,074
And I gave it to him
because I was 12.

696
00:36:38,785 --> 00:36:40,745
He was struggling.

697
00:36:43,164 --> 00:36:45,500
How about the time he tried
to punch through my door,

698
00:36:45,583 --> 00:36:47,127
screaming at
the top of his lungs,

699
00:36:47,210 --> 00:36:50,004
saying he was gonna kill me
for no reason?

700
00:36:50,088 --> 00:36:52,132
Is that email in there?

701
00:36:53,967 --> 00:36:56,010
We're all grieving
in our own way.

702
00:37:03,268 --> 00:37:06,896
You might consider reading
these when you're ready.

703
00:37:08,273 --> 00:37:10,483
They might help
more than you think.

704
00:37:28,001 --> 00:37:31,045
J' why should I play
this game of pretend? J'

705
00:37:32,505 --> 00:37:37,093
j' remembering through
a secondhand sorrow j'

706
00:37:37,177 --> 00:37:41,097
j' such a great son
and wonderful friend I

707
00:37:41,181 --> 00:37:45,268
j' oh, don't the tears
just pour j'

708
00:37:46,394 --> 00:37:49,647
j' I could curl up
and hide in my room I

709
00:37:51,024 --> 00:37:55,487
I here in my bed
still sobbing tomorrow I

710
00:37:55,570 --> 00:37:59,616
j' I could give in
to all of the gloom j'

711
00:37:59,699 --> 00:38:04,621
I but tell me,
tell me what for j'

712
00:38:04,704 --> 00:38:07,707
j' why should I have
a heavy heart? I

713
00:38:07,791 --> 00:38:10,668
j' why should I start
to break in pieces? I

714
00:38:10,752 --> 00:38:14,798
j' why should I go
and fall apart for you? I

715
00:38:16,841 --> 00:38:22,180
j' why should I play
the grieving girl I

716
00:38:22,263 --> 00:38:25,266
I and lie I

717
00:38:25,350 --> 00:38:30,188
j' saying that I miss you
and that my world I

718
00:38:30,271 --> 00:38:35,318
I has gone dark
without your light? I

719
00:38:37,111 --> 00:38:40,114
j' I will sing no requiem j'

720
00:38:41,991 --> 00:38:43,326
j' tonight I

721
00:38:51,376 --> 00:38:54,420
I we gave you the world,
you threw it away I

722
00:38:56,005 --> 00:39:00,385
j' leaving these broken pieces
behind you I

723
00:39:00,468 --> 00:39:04,597
j' everything wasted,
nothing to say I

724
00:39:04,681 --> 00:39:07,517
I so I can sing no requiem j'

725
00:39:07,600 --> 00:39:12,021
j' I hear your voice
and feel you near j'

726
00:39:12,105 --> 00:39:16,860
j' within these words
I finally find you I

727
00:39:16,943 --> 00:39:21,364
I and now that I know
that you are still here I

728
00:39:21,447 --> 00:39:24,409
j' I will sing
no requiem tonight I

729
00:39:24,492 --> 00:39:27,412
j' why should I have
a heavy heart? I

730
00:39:27,495 --> 00:39:30,290
j' why should I say
I'll keep you with me? I

731
00:39:30,373 --> 00:39:36,045
j' why should I go
and fall apart for you? I

732
00:39:36,129 --> 00:39:38,840
j' why I -

733
00:39:38,923 --> 00:39:40,967
I should I play
the grieving girl I

734
00:39:41,050 --> 00:39:44,345
I and lie I

735
00:39:44,429 --> 00:39:47,015
j' saying that I miss you
and that j'

736
00:39:47,098 --> 00:39:50,894
Larry and Zoe: I my world has
gone dark without your light? I

737
00:39:50,977 --> 00:39:55,356
Cynthia:
J' I can see your light I

738
00:39:55,440 --> 00:39:58,860
Zoe:
J' I will sing no requiem j'

739
00:39:58,943 --> 00:40:00,945
j' tonight I

740
00:40:01,029 --> 00:40:03,489
j' 'cause when
the villains fall I

741
00:40:03,573 --> 00:40:06,367
j' the kingdoms never weep j'

742
00:40:06,451 --> 00:40:11,080
j' no one lights a candle
to remember I

743
00:40:11,164 --> 00:40:14,334
j' no, no one mourns at all I

744
00:40:14,417 --> 00:40:17,503
j' when they lay them down
to sleep I -

745
00:40:17,587 --> 00:40:24,469
I so don't tell me
that I didn't have it right I

746
00:40:24,552 --> 00:40:29,223
I don't tell me that
it wasn't black and white I

747
00:40:29,307 --> 00:40:31,935
j' after all you put me through I

748
00:40:32,018 --> 00:40:35,229
I don't say it wasn't true I

749
00:40:35,313 --> 00:40:38,983
I that you were not
the monster j'

750
00:40:47,533 --> 00:40:49,535
J' that I knew I

751
00:40:52,830 --> 00:40:56,000
J' 'cause I j'

752
00:40:56,084 --> 00:41:01,422
I cannot play
the grieving girl and lie I

753
00:41:01,506 --> 00:41:06,427
j' saying that I miss you
and that my world I

754
00:41:06,511 --> 00:41:08,513
I has gone dark I

755
00:41:12,934 --> 00:41:16,521
j' I will sing no requiem j'

756
00:41:17,689 --> 00:41:21,234
j' I will sing no requiem j'

757
00:41:22,360 --> 00:41:25,363
j' I will sing no requiem j'

758
00:41:27,573 --> 00:41:29,200
j' tonight I

759
00:41:29,283 --> 00:41:31,619
Larry and Cynthia: J' oh, oh I

760
00:41:31,703 --> 00:41:33,997
j'oh, oh I

761
00:41:34,080 --> 00:41:36,457
Zoe: J' oh, oh I

762
00:41:36,541 --> 00:41:41,671
all: J' oh, oh. I

763
00:41:43,423 --> 00:41:45,442
Heidi: They did a whole thing
about them on npr yesterday,

764
00:41:45,466 --> 00:41:46,801
these-these essay contests.

765
00:41:46,884 --> 00:41:48,302
And if you win,

766
00:41:48,386 --> 00:41:49,863
it doesn't count against
any financial aid.

767
00:41:49,887 --> 00:41:54,726
You know, so $5,000 here
or $3,000 there.

768
00:41:54,809 --> 00:41:56,978
It adds up, and we're gonna need

769
00:41:57,061 --> 00:41:59,272
all the help we can get
with college.

770
00:41:59,355 --> 00:42:02,734
I mean, unless your stepmother
has some trust fund for you

771
00:42:02,817 --> 00:42:04,986
that I don't know about
with all those fabulous tips

772
00:42:05,069 --> 00:42:06,547
- she made cocktail waitressing.
- Huh.

773
00:42:06,571 --> 00:42:08,489
Right?

774
00:42:14,996 --> 00:42:16,539
I got a...

775
00:42:16,622 --> 00:42:19,375
I got an email
from your school yesterday,

776
00:42:19,459 --> 00:42:23,254
um, about that boy
that-that killed himself.

777
00:42:23,337 --> 00:42:24,589
Connor Murphy?

778
00:42:24,672 --> 00:42:26,299
Yeah.

779
00:42:26,382 --> 00:42:28,092
I didn't really know him, so...

780
00:42:28,176 --> 00:42:32,764
You know, if you ever
want to talk about anything...

781
00:42:32,847 --> 00:42:34,766
You know, I mean, I mean,
I know that lately

782
00:42:34,849 --> 00:42:36,289
it feels like
I'm-I'm always working.

783
00:42:36,350 --> 00:42:38,102
- It's fine.
- But I'm-i'm-I'm here,

784
00:42:38,186 --> 00:42:40,646
and if I... if I'm not here,
I'm just a phone call away

785
00:42:40,730 --> 00:42:42,370
or an email or a text,
you know, whatever.

786
00:42:42,398 --> 00:42:43,733
I know.

787
00:42:44,734 --> 00:42:47,570
It says "Connor" on your cast.

788
00:42:49,864 --> 00:42:51,407
No, no, yeah. Um...

789
00:42:51,491 --> 00:42:53,618
- You said you didn't know him.
- Sorry, I didn't.

790
00:42:55,453 --> 00:42:58,331
It's in memory, so, like...

791
00:42:58,414 --> 00:43:00,458
Y-You know,
kids are, like, um...

792
00:43:00,541 --> 00:43:02,251
They're writing
his name on-on...

793
00:43:02,335 --> 00:43:05,213
Lockers and stuff like that.

794
00:43:05,296 --> 00:43:06,589
Oh.

795
00:43:12,804 --> 00:43:15,973
That's lovely.
You know, in memory.

796
00:43:16,057 --> 00:43:17,266
Hmm.

797
00:43:19,977 --> 00:43:21,020
Hey.

798
00:43:21,104 --> 00:43:22,688
Tuesday. What are you doing?

799
00:43:24,065 --> 00:43:26,567
When's the last time
we did taco Tuesday?

800
00:43:26,651 --> 00:43:28,236
That'd be great.

801
00:43:28,319 --> 00:43:30,279
Really?

802
00:43:30,363 --> 00:43:31,906
Yeah.

803
00:43:31,989 --> 00:43:33,967
Alana: So the memorial's
really just an opportunity

804
00:43:33,991 --> 00:43:35,785
for all of us to come together
as a community

805
00:43:35,868 --> 00:43:39,080
and to remember Connor
and celebrate who he was.

806
00:43:40,331 --> 00:43:41,707
Would you want to speak
or perform?

807
00:43:41,791 --> 00:43:43,584
I didn't really know him.
I'm sorry.

808
00:43:43,668 --> 00:43:45,545
- That's okay.
- Bye.

809
00:43:57,974 --> 00:43:59,100
Want a wristband?

810
00:43:59,183 --> 00:44:01,602
Oh, yes. Yeah. Okay.

811
00:44:01,686 --> 00:44:02,854
Thank you.

812
00:44:05,898 --> 00:44:07,400
You were friends
with him, right?

813
00:44:09,110 --> 00:44:11,028
I saw him sign your cast
in the library,

814
00:44:11,112 --> 00:44:13,531
and you started arguing
about something.

815
00:44:14,657 --> 00:44:17,326
- Were you friends with him?
- We weren't close.

816
00:44:17,410 --> 00:44:20,079
We presented together o-on
huck Finn in the tenth grade,

817
00:44:20,163 --> 00:44:22,999
but he probably didn't
tell you that.

818
00:44:23,082 --> 00:44:24,834
Um, no, no, I didn't know.

819
00:44:24,917 --> 00:44:27,044
I always really liked him.

820
00:44:27,128 --> 00:44:28,671
It seemed like
he didn't really care

821
00:44:28,754 --> 00:44:30,882
what anyone else thought, and...

822
00:44:30,965 --> 00:44:32,568
I thought
that was pretty remarkable.

823
00:44:36,470 --> 00:44:38,764
Well, I'm putting together
a memorial for him

824
00:44:38,848 --> 00:44:40,975
at school on Friday.

825
00:44:41,058 --> 00:44:42,393
If you wanted to do something...

826
00:44:42,476 --> 00:44:44,937
Oh. Um...

827
00:44:45,021 --> 00:44:47,190
Sorry, i-i...

828
00:44:47,273 --> 00:44:50,776
I-I probably w-would
rather not, if that's okay.

829
00:44:50,860 --> 00:44:51,903
Yeah, sure.

830
00:44:51,986 --> 00:44:54,363
If you change your mind...

831
00:44:54,447 --> 00:44:55,698
Just text me.

832
00:44:59,619 --> 00:45:01,495
Evan: Okay.

833
00:45:08,336 --> 00:45:09,545
Mom.

834
00:45:48,042 --> 00:45:50,169
My mom realized
we were out of ice cream,

835
00:45:50,253 --> 00:45:52,088
so they went to go get more.

836
00:45:53,089 --> 00:45:55,007
Did you park in the driveway?

837
00:45:55,091 --> 00:45:57,551
'Cause if you park on the
street, they'll ticket you.

838
00:45:57,635 --> 00:45:59,470
The people in this neighborhood
are monsters.

839
00:45:59,553 --> 00:46:01,681
Um, no, I didn't,
I didn't, um...

840
00:46:01,764 --> 00:46:03,683
I took the bus.
My mom needed the car for work.

841
00:46:03,766 --> 00:46:05,768
- What about your dad?
- My dad.

842
00:46:05,851 --> 00:46:08,396
Um, he lives in Colorado, so...

843
00:46:08,479 --> 00:46:10,481
He left when I was seven.

844
00:46:13,192 --> 00:46:14,610
That sucks.

845
00:46:15,903 --> 00:46:19,323
Mine died when I was one, so...

846
00:46:19,407 --> 00:46:20,700
I sort of win.

847
00:46:21,784 --> 00:46:23,744
- Sorry.
- Thanks.

848
00:46:23,828 --> 00:46:25,162
It's fine.

849
00:46:25,246 --> 00:46:28,457
I-I don't even really
remember him, to be honest.

850
00:46:28,541 --> 00:46:31,335
Connor did, though, a little.

851
00:46:31,419 --> 00:46:33,296
That's terrible.

852
00:46:33,379 --> 00:46:34,839
Yeah.

853
00:46:34,922 --> 00:46:38,509
And then Larry showed up,
fixed everything.

854
00:46:40,011 --> 00:46:42,013
For a while, at least.

855
00:46:42,096 --> 00:46:43,848
Yeah.

856
00:46:43,931 --> 00:46:46,517
Most people, with Connor,
they just would've been like,

857
00:46:46,600 --> 00:46:50,980
"see ya," but he's the only dad
we ever really knew, so...

858
00:46:52,690 --> 00:46:54,692
Wow, your mom...
I didn't, I didn't realize.

859
00:46:54,775 --> 00:46:56,277
Yeah, well.

860
00:46:56,360 --> 00:46:58,654
She's in total denial now.

861
00:46:58,738 --> 00:46:59,864
So is Larry.

862
00:46:59,947 --> 00:47:01,699
I mean, he didn't even cry
at the funeral.

863
00:47:01,782 --> 00:47:02,825
I'm sorry.

864
00:47:04,076 --> 00:47:06,495
Not as sorry as you're gonna be.

865
00:47:08,456 --> 00:47:10,458
- Oh, is-is that the...
- Mm-hmm.

866
00:47:10,541 --> 00:47:13,836
Gluten-free apple pie? You bet.

867
00:47:13,919 --> 00:47:15,338
It-it looks...

868
00:47:17,048 --> 00:47:18,799
Inedible?

869
00:47:18,883 --> 00:47:20,301
It is.

870
00:47:21,427 --> 00:47:24,347
Just be glad we get to have
real ice cream.

871
00:47:24,430 --> 00:47:26,349
My mom was Buddhist last year,

872
00:47:26,432 --> 00:47:28,100
so we couldn't have
any animal products.

873
00:47:28,184 --> 00:47:30,686
She was b... um, Buddhist
last year but not this year?

874
00:47:30,770 --> 00:47:33,022
Yep.
That's sort of what she does.

875
00:47:33,105 --> 00:47:34,857
She gets into
a lot of different things.

876
00:47:34,940 --> 00:47:38,110
- Mm.
- For a while, it was pilates.

877
00:47:38,194 --> 00:47:39,945
The secret.

878
00:47:40,029 --> 00:47:42,073
Buddhism. Et cetera.

879
00:47:42,156 --> 00:47:44,301
It's cool that she's interested
in so much different stuff.

880
00:47:44,325 --> 00:47:45,659
Yeah, she's not, though.

881
00:47:45,743 --> 00:47:47,661
That's just what happens
when you're rich

882
00:47:47,745 --> 00:47:48,746
and you don't have a job.

883
00:47:48,829 --> 00:47:49,872
You get a little crazy.

884
00:47:49,955 --> 00:47:51,224
Well, my mom always says

885
00:47:51,248 --> 00:47:52,768
it's better to be rich
than poor, so...

886
00:47:52,833 --> 00:47:54,728
Yeah, well, your mom's
probably never been rich, then.

887
00:47:54,752 --> 00:47:56,295
Yeah, you've probably
never been poor.

888
00:47:58,672 --> 00:48:00,025
Oh, my god, I can't believe
I just said that.

889
00:48:00,049 --> 00:48:01,384
I'm so sorry.

890
00:48:01,467 --> 00:48:03,469
Wow. I didn't realize

891
00:48:03,552 --> 00:48:05,846
you were capable of saying
something that wasn't nice.

892
00:48:05,930 --> 00:48:07,640
I'm n... I'm not.
I'm really sorry.

893
00:48:07,723 --> 00:48:10,101
You really don't
have to keep saying that.

894
00:48:10,184 --> 00:48:12,061
Okay.

895
00:48:12,144 --> 00:48:14,313
You want to say it again.

896
00:48:14,397 --> 00:48:15,731
Yeah, very much so, I do.

897
00:48:22,696 --> 00:48:25,199
Why did he write that...

898
00:48:25,282 --> 00:48:26,575
In his note?

899
00:48:26,659 --> 00:48:28,869
"Because there's Zoe.

900
00:48:28,953 --> 00:48:32,248
And I don't even know her, but
if I could just talk to her..."

901
00:48:34,917 --> 00:48:37,086
Honestly, I really don't know.

902
00:48:37,169 --> 00:48:39,713
What does any of that
even mean? I mean...

903
00:48:39,797 --> 00:48:42,007
We weren't close at all.

904
00:48:42,091 --> 00:48:44,468
Not since we were kids.

905
00:48:44,552 --> 00:48:46,554
He never noticed anything
about me.

906
00:48:46,637 --> 00:48:49,098
That's not true.
That's not true.

907
00:48:49,181 --> 00:48:51,308
He-he-he noticed
a lot of things about you.

908
00:48:51,392 --> 00:48:52,977
Like what things?

909
00:49:03,154 --> 00:49:04,280
Right.

910
00:49:04,363 --> 00:49:05,281
No, no, no.

911
00:49:05,364 --> 00:49:07,408
That's, um...

912
00:49:07,491 --> 00:49:08,617
Well...

913
00:49:08,701 --> 00:49:10,494
Okay, w... okay.

914
00:49:10,578 --> 00:49:12,913
Here's something. Um...

915
00:49:12,997 --> 00:49:16,584
Whenever you have, uh,
a solo in-in jazz band,

916
00:49:16,667 --> 00:49:18,836
you just... You close your e...

917
00:49:18,919 --> 00:49:20,230
You probably don't even know
you're doing this,

918
00:49:20,254 --> 00:49:22,923
but you close your eyes,
um, and you get, like...

919
00:49:23,007 --> 00:49:24,401
I don't know,
it's like a half smile,

920
00:49:24,425 --> 00:49:26,027
like you just heard the
funniest thing in the world,

921
00:49:26,051 --> 00:49:27,863
but it's a secret and
you can't tell anyone about it.

922
00:49:27,887 --> 00:49:29,305
But then...

923
00:49:29,388 --> 00:49:31,599
Uh, the way that you smile,
it's sort of like you are...

924
00:49:31,682 --> 00:49:34,393
You're letting us in
on the secret, too.

925
00:49:34,477 --> 00:49:36,187
-J'j'

926
00:49:36,270 --> 00:49:38,522
j' he said j'

927
00:49:38,606 --> 00:49:40,399
j' there's nothing like
your smile I

928
00:49:40,483 --> 00:49:44,278
j' sort of subtle
and perfect and real I

929
00:49:45,654 --> 00:49:50,743
j' he said you never knew
how wonderful I

930
00:49:50,826 --> 00:49:54,580
I that smile
could make someone feel I

931
00:49:56,123 --> 00:50:00,169
I and he knew
whenever you get bored I

932
00:50:00,252 --> 00:50:04,757
I you scribble stars
on the cuffs of your jeans j'

933
00:50:06,300 --> 00:50:10,596
I and he noticed that you still
fill out the quizzes j'

934
00:50:10,679 --> 00:50:13,474
I that they put
in those teen magazines I

935
00:50:13,557 --> 00:50:15,434
I-I do that ironically.

936
00:50:15,518 --> 00:50:20,773
I but he kept it all
inside his head I

937
00:50:20,856 --> 00:50:25,444
I what he saw he left unsaid j'

938
00:50:25,528 --> 00:50:28,197
I and though he wanted to j'

939
00:50:28,280 --> 00:50:29,823
j' he couldn't talk to you I

940
00:50:29,907 --> 00:50:33,118
j' he couldn't find a way I

941
00:50:34,912 --> 00:50:39,583
I but he would always say I

942
00:50:39,667 --> 00:50:43,254
I if I could tell her I

943
00:50:43,337 --> 00:50:45,339
I tell her everything I see I

944
00:50:45,422 --> 00:50:48,050
I if I could tell her I

945
00:50:48,133 --> 00:50:51,303
I how she's everything to me I

946
00:50:51,387 --> 00:50:55,933
I but we're
a million worlds apart I

947
00:50:57,351 --> 00:51:01,564
I and I don't know
how I would even start I

948
00:51:01,647 --> 00:51:05,609
I if I could tell her I

949
00:51:06,610 --> 00:51:11,824
I if I could tell her I

950
00:51:13,450 --> 00:51:15,828
did he say anything else?

951
00:51:15,911 --> 00:51:17,162
About you?

952
00:51:17,246 --> 00:51:18,926
N-Never mind.
I don't even care, all right?

953
00:51:18,998 --> 00:51:20,517
Oh, no, no, no, no, no.
He said so many things.

954
00:51:20,541 --> 00:51:21,709
I'm trying to... I'm just...

955
00:51:21,792 --> 00:51:23,627
I'm trying to remember
the best ones, so...

956
00:51:25,087 --> 00:51:29,049
J' he thought
it looked pretty cool I

957
00:51:29,133 --> 00:51:32,553
j' when you put indigo streaks
in your hair I

958
00:51:32,636 --> 00:51:34,763
no fucking way.

959
00:51:34,847 --> 00:51:38,517
I and he wondered
how you learned to dance I

960
00:51:38,601 --> 00:51:44,398
I like all the rest
of the world isn't there I

961
00:51:44,481 --> 00:51:49,445
I but he kept it all
inside his head I

962
00:51:49,528 --> 00:51:54,158
I what he saw he left unsaid j'

963
00:51:54,241 --> 00:51:57,202
I if I could tell her I

964
00:51:57,286 --> 00:51:59,121
I tell her everything I see I

965
00:51:59,204 --> 00:52:01,790
I if I could tell her I

966
00:52:01,874 --> 00:52:04,251
I how she's everything to me I

967
00:52:04,335 --> 00:52:09,381
I but we're
a million worlds apart I

968
00:52:11,383 --> 00:52:15,429
I and I don't know
how I would even start I

969
00:52:15,512 --> 00:52:19,600
I if I could tell her I

970
00:52:20,601 --> 00:52:22,895
I if I could tell her I

971
00:52:22,978 --> 00:52:27,983
I but what do you do when
there's this great divide? J'

972
00:52:28,067 --> 00:52:32,863
j' he just seemed so far away I

973
00:52:32,946 --> 00:52:37,117
I and what do you do when
the distance is too wide? I

974
00:52:37,201 --> 00:52:38,428
j' it's like
I don't know anything I

975
00:52:38,452 --> 00:52:40,579
I how do you say I

976
00:52:40,663 --> 00:52:44,583
j' I love you? I

977
00:52:45,584 --> 00:52:49,213
j' I love you I

978
00:52:50,214 --> 00:52:54,802
j' I love you I

979
00:52:55,844 --> 00:53:00,057
j' I love you I

980
00:53:03,435 --> 00:53:10,442
I but we're
a million worlds apart I

981
00:53:12,611 --> 00:53:16,031
I and I don't know
how I would even start I

982
00:53:17,950 --> 00:53:23,831
I if I could tell her I

983
00:53:23,914 --> 00:53:28,460
I if I could. I

984
00:53:33,173 --> 00:53:35,467
Cynthia: Hello.

985
00:53:35,551 --> 00:53:37,386
- Evan: Oh, sorry.
- Zoe: Uh...

986
00:53:37,469 --> 00:53:39,722
Oh, you beat us.

987
00:53:39,805 --> 00:53:41,306
Um, Zoe, can you help serve?

988
00:53:41,390 --> 00:53:42,850
- Zoe: Yeah.
- Larry, get the plates.

989
00:53:42,933 --> 00:53:44,101
Can I do anything?

990
00:53:44,184 --> 00:53:45,864
No, no, no.
You're the guest. You sit down.

991
00:53:45,936 --> 00:53:48,063
We asked if they had
any soy ice cream,

992
00:53:48,147 --> 00:53:52,234
but the guy at the store said
there was just no “whey," so...

993
00:53:52,317 --> 00:53:53,861
When are you gonna
give up that joke?

994
00:53:53,944 --> 00:53:55,320
Larry: I think never, actually.

995
00:53:55,404 --> 00:53:56,881
Cynthia: You don't have to
laugh at that. Please don't.

996
00:53:56,905 --> 00:53:58,240
Oh.

997
00:53:58,323 --> 00:54:00,909
I'm sorry, but there's no way

998
00:54:00,993 --> 00:54:03,245
You'd ever be able
to tell in a million years

999
00:54:03,328 --> 00:54:04,580
that this was gluten-free.

1000
00:54:04,663 --> 00:54:06,457
Mom, come on. Look at it.

1001
00:54:06,540 --> 00:54:09,251
A million years is, uh...
That's a lot of years.

1002
00:54:09,334 --> 00:54:11,754
Do you see
what I have to deal with?

1003
00:54:12,880 --> 00:54:14,047
I'm glad you're here.

1004
00:54:42,618 --> 00:54:44,620
Evan: "The Connor project."

1005
00:54:44,703 --> 00:54:46,497
So, it's a student group
dedicated to

1006
00:54:46,580 --> 00:54:49,583
mental health awareness,
outreach and education.

1007
00:54:50,709 --> 00:54:52,920
Uh, great. This is... it's great.

1008
00:54:54,880 --> 00:54:56,423
You know the Murphys, right?

1009
00:54:56,507 --> 00:54:58,717
- Mm-hmm.
- I was wondering if

1010
00:54:58,801 --> 00:55:00,612
you would reach out to them
and get their blessing.

1011
00:55:00,636 --> 00:55:03,597
Oh, well, I don't...
I-I don't, I don't, um...

1012
00:55:03,680 --> 00:55:05,307
You want to help the Murphys?

1013
00:55:05,390 --> 00:55:08,477
And all the other people
who might need it,

1014
00:55:08,560 --> 00:55:09,895
like people like Connor.

1015
00:55:11,980 --> 00:55:13,482
People like us.

1016
00:55:13,565 --> 00:55:15,400
"People like us"?

1017
00:55:17,486 --> 00:55:20,197
Yes, right, because
we have so much in common.

1018
00:55:20,280 --> 00:55:21,323
What?

1019
00:55:22,366 --> 00:55:24,159
Well, you're, like,
the president

1020
00:55:24,243 --> 00:55:26,036
of a m-million different groups
atschool

1021
00:55:26,119 --> 00:55:28,038
and you're, like,
part of every single activity.

1022
00:55:28,121 --> 00:55:31,500
And you're, you know, and I'm...

1023
00:55:31,583 --> 00:55:33,335
Um, I am not.

1024
00:55:34,586 --> 00:55:36,004
What do you take?

1025
00:55:39,925 --> 00:55:42,219
Okay, I'll go first.

1026
00:55:42,302 --> 00:55:44,263
I'm on Lexapro, ten milligrams.

1027
00:55:49,685 --> 00:55:53,105
Well, I'm-I'm on Zoloft.

1028
00:55:53,188 --> 00:55:54,815
Uh, and Wellbutrin.

1029
00:55:56,900 --> 00:55:58,735
And, um...

1030
00:55:58,819 --> 00:56:00,529
Ativan as needed.

1031
00:56:01,530 --> 00:56:04,408
Depression? Anxiety?

1032
00:56:05,868 --> 00:56:07,077
Yeah.

1033
00:56:08,078 --> 00:56:10,080
Yeah, me, too.

1034
00:56:12,165 --> 00:56:14,042
Some days, it's just like, um...

1035
00:56:15,544 --> 00:56:17,254
It's like, um...

1036
00:56:17,337 --> 00:56:18,338
Impossible?

1037
00:56:18,422 --> 00:56:20,799
- Yeah.
- Yeah.

1038
00:56:22,509 --> 00:56:25,053
You know, you don't
really act like a...

1039
00:56:26,305 --> 00:56:28,056
Depressed sort of person.

1040
00:56:28,140 --> 00:56:31,977
I'm just good
at staying anonymous.

1041
00:56:34,271 --> 00:56:35,480
Same as you.

1042
00:56:38,358 --> 00:56:41,528
There are a lot of people
who feel like us.

1043
00:56:43,614 --> 00:56:46,033
People that you wouldn't think.

1044
00:56:49,745 --> 00:56:51,663
I you ever look
at all the people I

1045
00:56:51,747 --> 00:56:55,375
j' who seem to know
exactly how to be? I

1046
00:56:58,629 --> 00:57:02,299
I you think, "they don't need
piles of prescriptions j'

1047
00:57:02,382 --> 00:57:03,926
I to function naturally" I

1048
00:57:06,386 --> 00:57:09,473
j' well, look again
and you might catch it I

1049
00:57:09,556 --> 00:57:11,767
I just stay a minute more I

1050
00:57:13,352 --> 00:57:17,564
j' there's this little moment
after the sunny smile I

1051
00:57:17,648 --> 00:57:22,027
I as their eyes fall
to the floor I

1052
00:57:22,110 --> 00:57:25,280
j' the anonymous ones I

1053
00:57:25,364 --> 00:57:30,410
j' who never let you see
the ache they carry j'

1054
00:57:31,578 --> 00:57:34,873
I all of those anonymous ones I

1055
00:57:34,957 --> 00:57:39,544
j' who never name
that quiet pain they Bury j'

1056
00:57:41,088 --> 00:57:43,924
I so they keep on
keeping secrets j'

1057
00:57:44,007 --> 00:57:46,677
I that they think
they have to hide j'

1058
00:57:46,760 --> 00:57:48,679
I but what if
everybody's secret I

1059
00:57:48,762 --> 00:57:51,014
j' is they have
that secret side? I

1060
00:57:51,098 --> 00:57:55,310
I and to know
they're somehow not alone I

1061
00:57:55,394 --> 00:57:58,689
j' well, that's all
they're hoping for j'

1062
00:57:58,772 --> 00:58:01,191
I what if they I

1063
00:58:01,274 --> 00:58:04,027
I didn't have to stay I

1064
00:58:05,237 --> 00:58:07,114
j' anonymous anymore? I

1065
00:58:14,413 --> 00:58:18,083
J' spot the girl
who stays in motion j'

1066
00:58:18,166 --> 00:58:21,461
j' she spins so fast
so she won't fall I

1067
00:58:21,545 --> 00:58:24,464
j' she's built a wall
with her achievements j'

1068
00:58:24,548 --> 00:58:26,466
I to keep out the question I

1069
00:58:26,550 --> 00:58:30,846
j' without it, is she worth
anything at all? I

1070
00:58:30,929 --> 00:58:34,516
I so nobody can know I

1071
00:58:35,600 --> 00:58:39,771
I just what the cracks
might show I

1072
00:58:39,855 --> 00:58:46,111
I how deep and dark they go I

1073
00:58:46,194 --> 00:58:49,322
j' there are
those anonymous ones I

1074
00:58:49,406 --> 00:58:53,285
j' stuck inside the
perfect frame they're faking j'

1075
00:58:55,078 --> 00:58:57,998
I all of us anonymous ones I

1076
00:58:58,081 --> 00:59:02,836
j' who pick themselves apart
till they start breaking j'

1077
00:59:04,087 --> 00:59:06,506
I and we keep on
keeping secrets j'

1078
00:59:06,590 --> 00:59:08,717
I that we think
we have to hide j'

1079
00:59:08,800 --> 00:59:11,219
I but what we really need
is somebody I

1080
00:59:11,303 --> 00:59:13,305
I to see that secret side I

1081
00:59:13,388 --> 00:59:16,892
I and to know
we're somehow not alone I

1082
00:59:16,975 --> 00:59:19,770
j' is all we're hoping for j'

1083
00:59:19,853 --> 00:59:24,024
I and then
we wouldn't have to be I

1084
00:59:24,107 --> 00:59:25,942
j' anonymous anymore I

1085
00:59:32,532 --> 00:59:34,701
J' the parts we can't tell,
we carry them well I

1086
00:59:34,785 --> 00:59:37,245
I but that doesn't mean
they're not heavy I

1087
00:59:37,329 --> 00:59:39,664
j' the parts we can't tell,
we carry them well I

1088
00:59:39,748 --> 00:59:42,167
I but that doesn't mean
they're not heavy I

1089
00:59:42,250 --> 00:59:44,961
j' the anonymous one I

1090
00:59:45,045 --> 00:59:47,339
j' noticed by none I

1091
00:59:49,424 --> 00:59:51,301
go, bobcats!

1092
00:59:51,384 --> 00:59:54,971
J' the parts we can't tell,
we carry them well I

1093
00:59:55,055 --> 00:59:58,475
I but that doesn't mean
they're not heavy. I

1094
01:00:17,953 --> 01:00:19,287
Cynthia: "The Connor project"?

1095
01:00:19,371 --> 01:00:20,872
Yeah, so it's a student group

1096
01:00:20,956 --> 01:00:24,042
dedicated to
keeping Connor's memory alive.

1097
01:00:24,126 --> 01:00:26,378
Um, making sure
people that need help,

1098
01:00:26,461 --> 01:00:27,796
they have somewhere they can go.

1099
01:00:27,879 --> 01:00:31,466
I didn't realize Connor meant
this much to people.

1100
01:00:31,550 --> 01:00:33,552
Well, it's all... I mean,
it was all Alana's idea.

1101
01:00:33,635 --> 01:00:34,821
She thought of the whole thing.

1102
01:00:34,845 --> 01:00:36,221
That's the young woman

1103
01:00:36,304 --> 01:00:38,348
who organized
the memorial tomorrow.

1104
01:00:38,431 --> 01:00:40,892
- Mm-hmm.
- Well, she seems like...

1105
01:00:40,976 --> 01:00:42,811
- Quite a force.
- Yeah.

1106
01:00:42,894 --> 01:00:45,188
Um, anyways, um...

1107
01:00:45,272 --> 01:00:47,023
We just wanted to do something.

1108
01:00:47,107 --> 01:00:49,818
It's-it's r-really cool.

1109
01:00:54,573 --> 01:00:56,408
There's something
I want to show you.

1110
01:00:57,450 --> 01:00:58,493
Sure.

1111
01:01:00,787 --> 01:01:02,622
Cynthia: Oh, here we go.

1112
01:01:04,249 --> 01:01:06,418
It's a bit of a mess, I know.

1113
01:01:06,501 --> 01:01:11,256
We still haven't decided what
to do with, um, everything.

1114
01:01:13,717 --> 01:01:17,220
Oh, um...
He used to write songs.

1115
01:01:17,304 --> 01:01:18,847
Or at least he told us he did.

1116
01:01:18,930 --> 01:01:20,932
He refused to play for us,
so who knows?

1117
01:01:22,392 --> 01:01:25,312
He never played any for you?

1118
01:01:26,354 --> 01:01:28,023
No, he di... he didn't.

1119
01:01:28,106 --> 01:01:30,108
He... no. I'm sorry.

1120
01:01:33,236 --> 01:01:34,404
Cynthia: Um...

1121
01:01:44,998 --> 01:01:46,625
Here it is.

1122
01:01:48,335 --> 01:01:50,712
It's a...

1123
01:01:50,795 --> 01:01:53,798
When Connor entered
seventh grade,

1124
01:01:53,882 --> 01:01:56,218
all of my girlfriends said,

1125
01:01:56,301 --> 01:01:58,178
"here it comes,
bar mitzvah season.

1126
01:01:58,261 --> 01:02:02,140
He's gonna have a different
party every Saturday."

1127
01:02:02,224 --> 01:02:04,309
And Larry was so excited
to take him shopping.

1128
01:02:04,392 --> 01:02:06,061
He dragged him
to Brooks brothers,

1129
01:02:06,144 --> 01:02:09,314
and they picked out a suit,
some shirts and this tie.

1130
01:02:09,397 --> 01:02:13,693
He looked... just like his dad.

1131
01:02:19,074 --> 01:02:21,493
He never got invited
to a single party.

1132
01:02:26,998 --> 01:02:30,502
He was such a sweet boy
underneath it all.

1133
01:02:32,379 --> 01:02:35,298
Everything just hurt too much.

1134
01:02:38,385 --> 01:02:41,930
I thought that, uh, you could
wear this to the memorial.

1135
01:02:42,013 --> 01:02:43,556
For your speech.

1136
01:02:45,642 --> 01:02:48,478
Oh, I'm not... h...

1137
01:02:48,561 --> 01:02:50,438
I wasn't... i'm-I'm not speaking.

1138
01:02:50,522 --> 01:02:52,107
Why not?

1139
01:02:52,190 --> 01:02:55,568
Well, I...
I just don't think, um...

1140
01:02:57,862 --> 01:02:59,864
I mean, most people
think that I'm...

1141
01:03:00,949 --> 01:03:02,367
Not that cool of a person,

1142
01:03:02,450 --> 01:03:05,120
so nobody wants to hear from me.

1143
01:03:07,872 --> 01:03:10,208
Well, if...

1144
01:03:10,292 --> 01:03:13,253
That's what most people think...

1145
01:03:14,462 --> 01:03:17,007
It sounds like most people
don't know you very well.

1146
01:03:19,092 --> 01:03:20,760
They didn't know Connor either.

1147
01:03:22,095 --> 01:03:24,222
They never bothered.

1148
01:03:24,306 --> 01:03:25,724
Hmm.

1149
01:03:28,601 --> 01:03:30,603
You can tell them
what they missed.

1150
01:03:38,194 --> 01:03:39,863
You're so handsome.

1151
01:04:16,566 --> 01:04:19,569
I'm so glad
you changed your mind.

1152
01:04:30,246 --> 01:04:34,793
Today is a day of remembrance
and reflection.

1153
01:04:34,876 --> 01:04:36,878
It sucks he isn't here
to see this.

1154
01:04:36,961 --> 01:04:38,922
The first person
we'll hear from this morning

1155
01:04:39,005 --> 01:04:41,091
is Evan Hansen.

1156
01:04:59,150 --> 01:05:01,236
Uh, good morning, s...

1157
01:05:01,319 --> 01:05:03,613
Student: Holy shit.

1158
01:05:05,990 --> 01:05:07,450
Sorry.

1159
01:05:07,534 --> 01:05:09,160
Sorry.

1160
01:05:11,663 --> 01:05:15,041
Good morning,
students and faculty.

1161
01:05:15,125 --> 01:05:18,253
I would like to say
a few words to you today...

1162
01:05:20,338 --> 01:05:21,798
About my friend...

1163
01:05:23,550 --> 01:05:26,886
My best friend, Connor Murphy.

1164
01:05:26,970 --> 01:05:28,096
Holy shit.

1165
01:05:29,639 --> 01:05:31,826
I would like to tell you
about the day that Connor and I

1166
01:05:31,850 --> 01:05:35,270
went hiking behind the old
Autumn smile apple orchard.

1167
01:05:35,353 --> 01:05:37,939
We found a huge oak tree.

1168
01:05:38,022 --> 01:05:40,167
Connor said that he wondered
what the world would look like

1169
01:05:40,191 --> 01:05:43,945
from all the way up there,
so we decided to find out.

1170
01:05:47,198 --> 01:05:49,492
We started climbing slowly.

1171
01:05:49,576 --> 01:05:51,453
And then,
when I finally looked back,

1172
01:05:51,536 --> 01:05:53,371
we were already
30 feet off the ground.

1173
01:05:53,455 --> 01:05:55,457
Um, connorjust looked at me...

1174
01:05:57,333 --> 01:05:59,752
And smiled
that way he always did.

1175
01:05:59,836 --> 01:06:01,921
Um, and then...

1176
01:06:13,725 --> 01:06:15,185
Sorry. Then I fell.

1177
01:06:15,268 --> 01:06:17,395
I-I lay there
on the ground and...

1178
01:06:17,479 --> 01:06:20,815
Good morning,
students and f-f... faculty.

1179
01:06:23,026 --> 01:06:25,320
Sorry, that...

1180
01:06:25,403 --> 01:06:26,613
Sorry, that's the wrong...

1181
01:07:24,671 --> 01:07:29,092
I have you ever felt like
nobody was there? I

1182
01:07:31,511 --> 01:07:37,559
I have you ever felt forgotten
in the middle of nowhere? I

1183
01:07:38,810 --> 01:07:42,564
I have you ever felt like
you could disappear? J'

1184
01:07:44,524 --> 01:07:46,109
I like you could fall I

1185
01:07:47,485 --> 01:07:49,571
I and no one would hear I

1186
01:07:52,490 --> 01:07:55,326
but, see, the thing is, when
I looked up, Connor was there.

1187
01:07:57,745 --> 01:07:59,706
That's the gift he gave me.

1188
01:08:00,748 --> 01:08:02,584
To show me
th-that I wasn't alone.

1189
01:08:02,667 --> 01:08:03,876
Um, nobody is.

1190
01:08:03,960 --> 01:08:07,255
That's-that's the gift
that he gave all of us.

1191
01:08:07,338 --> 01:08:09,340
I just wish...

1192
01:08:11,342 --> 01:08:12,969
I wish we could've
given that to him.

1193
01:08:17,223 --> 01:08:21,644
I let that lonely feeling
wash away I

1194
01:08:23,313 --> 01:08:29,027
j' maybe there's a reason
to believe you'll be okay I

1195
01:08:29,110 --> 01:08:34,449
j' 'cause when you don't feel
strong enough to stand I

1196
01:08:34,532 --> 01:08:40,121
I you can reach,
reach out your hand I

1197
01:08:41,539 --> 01:08:47,003
I and, oh,
someone will come running I

1198
01:08:47,086 --> 01:08:52,675
I and I know
they'll take you home I

1199
01:08:55,511 --> 01:08:58,681
j' even when the dark
comes crashing through I

1200
01:08:58,765 --> 01:09:01,976
j' when you need a friend
to carry you I

1201
01:09:02,060 --> 01:09:05,980
I and when you're broken
on the ground I

1202
01:09:06,064 --> 01:09:08,650
I you will be found I

1203
01:09:08,733 --> 01:09:11,319
I so let the sun
come streaming in j'

1204
01:09:11,402 --> 01:09:14,614
j' 'cause you'll reach up
and you'll rise again I

1205
01:09:14,697 --> 01:09:17,325
j' lift your head
and look around I

1206
01:09:18,618 --> 01:09:23,247
I you will be found I

1207
01:09:24,248 --> 01:09:28,628
I you will be found I

1208
01:09:29,629 --> 01:09:34,050
I you will be found I

1209
01:09:35,051 --> 01:09:39,681
I you will be found I

1210
01:09:40,682 --> 01:09:42,850
I you will be found I

1211
01:09:53,736 --> 01:09:55,238
Alana: Have you seen this?

1212
01:09:55,321 --> 01:09:56,823
Jared:
People started sharing it,

1213
01:09:56,906 --> 01:09:58,616
and now, I mean,
it's everywhere.

1214
01:09:58,700 --> 01:10:00,368
This morning, it only had,
like, 30 views.

1215
01:10:00,451 --> 01:10:01,994
Well, how many does it have now?

1216
01:10:02,078 --> 01:10:04,247
723.

1217
01:10:04,330 --> 01:10:07,333
2,326 views.

1218
01:10:07,417 --> 01:10:09,919
14,359.

1219
01:10:10,002 --> 01:10:12,880
I don't understand
what happened.

1220
01:10:12,964 --> 01:10:14,382
You did.

1221
01:10:16,509 --> 01:10:19,846
J' there's a place where
we don't have to feel unknown j'

1222
01:10:19,929 --> 01:10:21,013
oh, my god.

1223
01:10:21,097 --> 01:10:22,515
Everybody needs to see this.

1224
01:10:22,598 --> 01:10:24,517
I and every time
that you call out I

1225
01:10:24,600 --> 01:10:26,561
j' you're a little less alone I

1226
01:10:26,644 --> 01:10:28,497
-I can't stop watching
this video. -...17 years old.

1227
01:10:28,521 --> 01:10:30,690
I if you only say the word I

1228
01:10:30,773 --> 01:10:32,525
- take five minutes.
- It'll make your day.

1229
01:10:32,608 --> 01:10:38,114
I from across the silence,
your voice is heard I

1230
01:10:38,197 --> 01:10:39,365
j'ohj'

1231
01:10:39,449 --> 01:10:40,676
person: Share it
with the people you love.

1232
01:10:40,700 --> 01:10:43,077
- Girl: Repost.
- The world needs to hear this.

1233
01:10:43,161 --> 01:10:44,495
Beautiful tribute.

1234
01:10:44,579 --> 01:10:46,831
I know someone who really
needed to hear this today.

1235
01:10:46,914 --> 01:10:49,500
So thank you, Evan Hansen,
for doing what you're doing.

1236
01:10:49,584 --> 01:10:52,503
I never met you, Connor,
but coming on here,

1237
01:10:52,587 --> 01:10:53,880
reading everyone's posts...

1238
01:10:53,963 --> 01:10:55,673
Evan is exactly right.
We are not alone.

1239
01:10:55,757 --> 01:10:57,216
We are not alone.

1240
01:10:57,300 --> 01:10:58,426
None of us.

1241
01:10:58,509 --> 01:10:59,594
None of us are alone.

1242
01:10:59,677 --> 01:11:01,179
- Like. -Forward.
- Especially now,

1243
01:11:01,262 --> 01:11:02,702
with everything you hear
on the news.

1244
01:11:02,764 --> 01:11:04,124
- Like. -Share.
- Repost. -Forward.

1245
01:11:04,182 --> 01:11:05,433
Thank you, Evan Hansen,

1246
01:11:05,516 --> 01:11:07,035
for giving us a space
to remember Connor.

1247
01:11:07,059 --> 01:11:08,519
- Thanks to Evan.
- To be together.

1248
01:11:08,603 --> 01:11:09,663
- Thanks for helping my mom.
- Thank you for helping my mom.

1249
01:11:09,687 --> 01:11:10,813
Thank you, Evan Hansen.

1250
01:11:10,897 --> 01:11:11,957
-J' to take you home... I
-Vermont. -Tampa.

1251
01:11:11,981 --> 01:11:13,232
- Sacramento.
- Michigan.

1252
01:11:13,316 --> 01:11:14,835
-J' someone will come... I
-just reach out.

1253
01:11:14,859 --> 01:11:15,943
Thank you, Evan.

1254
01:11:16,027 --> 01:11:17,421
This is about community
and friendship.

1255
01:11:17,445 --> 01:11:18,645
- Thank you, Evan.
- Thank you.

1256
01:11:19,489 --> 01:11:21,032
Thank you, Evan Hansen.

1257
01:11:21,115 --> 01:11:24,285
J' even when the dark
comes crashing through I

1258
01:11:24,368 --> 01:11:27,497
j' when you need a friend
to carry you I

1259
01:11:27,580 --> 01:11:30,541
j' when you're broken
on the ground I

1260
01:11:30,625 --> 01:11:32,835
I you will be found I

1261
01:11:32,919 --> 01:11:35,213
I so let the sun
come streaming in j'

1262
01:11:35,296 --> 01:11:38,466
j' 'cause you'll reach up
and you'll rise again I

1263
01:11:38,549 --> 01:11:41,552
I if you only look around I

1264
01:11:41,636 --> 01:11:46,974
I you will be found,
you will be found I

1265
01:11:47,058 --> 01:11:48,643
I you will be found I

1266
01:11:48,726 --> 01:11:53,898
I you will be found,
you will be found I

1267
01:11:53,981 --> 01:11:58,778
j' out of the shadows,
the morning is breaking j'

1268
01:11:58,861 --> 01:12:02,114
I and all is new I

1269
01:12:02,198 --> 01:12:04,992
I all is new I

1270
01:12:05,076 --> 01:12:07,954
j' it's filling up the empty I

1271
01:12:08,037 --> 01:12:10,581
I and suddenly I see I

1272
01:12:10,665 --> 01:12:12,625
I that all is new I

1273
01:12:12,708 --> 01:12:15,795
I all is new I

1274
01:12:15,878 --> 01:12:20,591
I you are not alone,
you are not alone I

1275
01:12:20,675 --> 01:12:23,845
I you are not alone I

1276
01:12:23,928 --> 01:12:28,266
I you are not alone,
you are not alone I

1277
01:12:28,349 --> 01:12:30,226
-j' you are not alone I
-j' you are not alone I

1278
01:12:30,309 --> 01:12:31,561
I you are not alone I

1279
01:12:31,644 --> 01:12:33,145
I you are not I

1280
01:12:33,229 --> 01:12:37,775
-j' you are not alone I
-j' you are not alone I

1281
01:12:37,859 --> 01:12:40,528
j' even when the dark
comes crashing through I

1282
01:12:40,611 --> 01:12:43,656
j' when you need someone
to carry you I

1283
01:12:43,739 --> 01:12:46,534
j' when you're broken
on the ground I

1284
01:12:46,617 --> 01:12:48,911
I you will be found I

1285
01:12:48,995 --> 01:12:51,372
I so let the sun
come streaming in j'

1286
01:12:51,455 --> 01:12:54,458
j' 'cause you'll reach up
and you'll rise again I

1287
01:12:54,542 --> 01:12:57,712
I if you only look around I

1288
01:12:57,795 --> 01:12:59,922
I you will be found I

1289
01:13:00,006 --> 01:13:03,676
j' even when the dark
comes crashing through I

1290
01:13:03,759 --> 01:13:05,303
I you will be found I

1291
01:13:05,386 --> 01:13:08,222
j' when you need someone
to carry you I

1292
01:13:08,306 --> 01:13:12,894
I you will be found I

1293
01:13:13,895 --> 01:13:17,815
I you will be found. I

1294
01:13:27,074 --> 01:13:28,451
Hey.

1295
01:13:28,534 --> 01:13:30,161
What's wrong?

1296
01:13:32,580 --> 01:13:35,082
Everything you said
in your speech.

1297
01:13:35,166 --> 01:13:37,793
Everything you've done.

1298
01:13:37,877 --> 01:13:40,504
You don't know how much...

1299
01:13:40,588 --> 01:13:43,382
You've given all of us.

1300
01:13:43,466 --> 01:13:44,675
My family.

1301
01:13:46,552 --> 01:13:48,137
No.

1302
01:13:48,220 --> 01:13:49,889
No, I...

1303
01:13:49,972 --> 01:13:52,725
You've given me my brother back.

1304
01:14:41,649 --> 01:14:43,651
Alana: Welcome to the first
official meeting

1305
01:14:43,734 --> 01:14:45,403
of the Connor project.

1306
01:14:49,699 --> 01:14:51,075
Right?

1307
01:14:52,034 --> 01:14:55,830
Um, now, as you all know
from Evan's speech,

1308
01:14:55,913 --> 01:14:58,499
uh, Connor's favorite place
in the entire world

1309
01:14:58,582 --> 01:15:00,501
was the Autumn smile
apple orchard.

1310
01:15:00,584 --> 01:15:03,337
I am beyond excited
to announce that,

1311
01:15:03,421 --> 01:15:05,798
in addition to our support
groups, we will be launching

1312
01:15:05,881 --> 01:15:10,886
a kickstarter campaign to raise
$100,000 to reopen and redesign

1313
01:15:10,970 --> 01:15:13,973
Autumn smile as the
Connor Murphy memorial orchard.

1314
01:15:16,767 --> 01:15:20,396
Um, so to explain what we're
going to be asking of you,

1315
01:15:20,479 --> 01:15:21,897
I'm gonna turn things over

1316
01:15:21,981 --> 01:15:25,067
to our director
of global communications.

1317
01:15:25,151 --> 01:15:26,694
Thanks, Alana.

1318
01:15:26,777 --> 01:15:28,154
So great.

1319
01:15:28,237 --> 01:15:30,573
Our new website is now live.

1320
01:15:30,656 --> 01:15:32,491
If you have not yet read

1321
01:15:32,575 --> 01:15:35,619
the emails
between Evan and Connor...

1322
01:15:35,703 --> 01:15:38,330
Oh, you're gonna want
to grab some tissues.

1323
01:15:42,126 --> 01:15:46,380
Larry: I swear, I've got
a Cal ripken here somewhere.

1324
01:15:46,464 --> 01:15:48,549
Look at that, hmm?

1325
01:15:49,592 --> 01:15:51,677
The entire '96 team.

1326
01:15:51,761 --> 01:15:53,238
There's three hall of famers
on there.

1327
01:15:53,262 --> 01:15:54,764
- Wow.
- You get the right people,

1328
01:15:54,847 --> 01:15:57,266
baseball fans,
uh, you could raise

1329
01:15:57,349 --> 01:15:59,518
at least a few hundred bucks
for the orchard,

1330
01:15:59,602 --> 01:16:01,062
maybe a couple thousand.

1331
01:16:01,145 --> 01:16:03,022
Yeah, but...

1332
01:16:03,105 --> 01:16:06,650
I mean, you should, you should
probably keep all this stuff.

1333
01:16:06,734 --> 01:16:09,487
Oh, uh, it's just gonna
sit here gathering dust.

1334
01:16:12,656 --> 01:16:14,700
Uh, stiff as a board, isn't it?

1335
01:16:14,784 --> 01:16:16,619
Yeah.

1336
01:16:16,702 --> 01:16:17,828
Well, it's never been used.

1337
01:16:17,912 --> 01:16:19,246
Connon“

1338
01:16:20,498 --> 01:16:22,541
he loved baseball.

1339
01:16:22,625 --> 01:16:24,960
When he was little.

1340
01:16:25,044 --> 01:16:27,129
First time I met him, uh...

1341
01:16:27,213 --> 01:16:29,191
Cynthia wasn't sure how the
kids would react, all right?

1342
01:16:29,215 --> 01:16:30,466
She was terrified.

1343
01:16:30,549 --> 01:16:33,385
And I was terrified.

1344
01:16:33,469 --> 01:16:35,387
I mean...

1345
01:16:35,471 --> 01:16:37,098
Five minutes in...

1346
01:16:39,100 --> 01:16:42,812
Connor's,
like, pulling my arm, uh...

1347
01:16:44,021 --> 01:16:46,273
"Come on, let's go play catch."

1348
01:16:47,858 --> 01:16:49,485
He...

1349
01:16:53,447 --> 01:16:55,950
I bought that... I don't know...
Two years ago.

1350
01:16:56,033 --> 01:16:59,120
I thought, you know,
maybe we could...

1351
01:17:05,918 --> 01:17:07,086
So stupid.

1352
01:17:07,169 --> 01:17:10,756
He was really lucky
to have a step...

1353
01:17:13,134 --> 01:17:14,969
To have a dad like you.

1354
01:17:16,929 --> 01:17:20,432
Your dad must feel
pretty lucky to...

1355
01:17:21,767 --> 01:17:23,435
Have a son like you.

1356
01:17:26,397 --> 01:17:28,274
Yeah, he does.

1357
01:18:04,101 --> 01:18:07,146
You know, I-I saw
the strangest thing

1358
01:18:07,229 --> 01:18:09,481
- on-on Facebook yesterday.
- Really?

1359
01:18:09,565 --> 01:18:14,153
Um, somebody had a video
of you doing a speech.

1360
01:18:15,196 --> 01:18:19,700
About that boy, Connor Murphy.

1361
01:18:19,783 --> 01:18:23,370
How the two of you
climbed a tree together

1362
01:18:23,454 --> 01:18:25,122
at an orchard.

1363
01:18:27,124 --> 01:18:29,585
You told me that you didn't
know him, but in the speech,

1364
01:18:29,668 --> 01:18:31,420
you said that
he was your best friend.

1365
01:18:31,503 --> 01:18:32,588
Right, well...

1366
01:18:33,881 --> 01:18:35,382
'Cause that wasn't true.

1367
01:18:39,720 --> 01:18:41,263
When I said I didn't know him.

1368
01:18:43,015 --> 01:18:46,602
I thought that
you broke your arm at-at work.

1369
01:18:46,685 --> 01:18:48,938
Okay, well, who do you think
drove me to urgent care

1370
01:18:49,021 --> 01:18:50,606
and-and waited there with me?

1371
01:18:50,689 --> 01:18:52,191
You were at work. You remember?

1372
01:18:52,274 --> 01:18:53,793
I couldn't even... you didn't,
you didn't answer your phone.

1373
01:18:53,817 --> 01:18:55,569
You-you told me
that your boss took you.

1374
01:18:55,653 --> 01:18:56,946
Well, so I lied, obviously.

1375
01:18:57,029 --> 01:18:59,823
So when were you planning
on telling me any of this?

1376
01:18:59,907 --> 01:19:01,551
When would I tell you exactly?
When are you even here?

1377
01:19:01,575 --> 01:19:03,869
- I'm here now.
- Okay.

1378
01:19:05,246 --> 01:19:08,290
You know, I-I-I talked
to Dr. Sherman, and he told me

1379
01:19:08,374 --> 01:19:09,851
-you've been skipping
appointments. -I missed one.

1380
01:19:09,875 --> 01:19:11,794
You know those aren't free.

1381
01:19:17,299 --> 01:19:19,426
Sorry. I'm sorry.

1382
01:19:20,469 --> 01:19:22,805
I'm...

1383
01:19:24,473 --> 01:19:27,142
I'm so happy
you had a friend, sweetheart.

1384
01:19:28,686 --> 01:19:30,396
I'm sorry he's gone.

1385
01:19:30,479 --> 01:19:32,314
I just wish I'd known.

1386
01:19:36,360 --> 01:19:38,362
That speech you gave, it...

1387
01:19:40,990 --> 01:19:43,200
I don't even know what to say.
I'm...

1388
01:19:44,660 --> 01:19:46,453
I'm proud of you.

1389
01:19:49,415 --> 01:19:50,791
Thanks.

1390
01:20:06,265 --> 01:20:07,266
Hi.

1391
01:20:09,143 --> 01:20:11,061
This is a cool surprise.

1392
01:20:14,940 --> 01:20:16,984
Can I get you anything or...?

1393
01:20:17,067 --> 01:20:18,694
Just water.

1394
01:20:19,737 --> 01:20:22,156
- Just water? You're sure?
- Yeah. That's perfect.

1395
01:20:23,198 --> 01:20:24,241
Coming up.

1396
01:20:28,829 --> 01:20:29,955
Zoe: Where's your mom?

1397
01:20:30,039 --> 01:20:32,833
She works late on Fridays.

1398
01:20:32,916 --> 01:20:35,127
Oh. I wanted to meet her.

1399
01:20:35,210 --> 01:20:37,629
Yeah, that would've been great.

1400
01:20:41,342 --> 01:20:42,593
What's this?

1401
01:20:42,676 --> 01:20:44,470
Oh, it's just my mom is obsessed

1402
01:20:44,553 --> 01:20:46,597
with these college scholarship
essay contests.

1403
01:20:46,680 --> 01:20:48,867
I mean, I'd-i'd-I'd have to win
probably, like, all of them

1404
01:20:48,891 --> 01:20:52,603
to actually pay
for college, so...

1405
01:20:54,313 --> 01:20:56,357
Your parents,
they-they can't...?

1406
01:20:56,440 --> 01:20:58,359
Uh, not really.

1407
01:20:59,902 --> 01:21:01,111
I'm sorry.

1408
01:21:09,995 --> 01:21:12,081
Is your room upstairs?

1409
01:21:16,710 --> 01:21:18,379
Yeah. It's, um...

1410
01:21:21,006 --> 01:21:22,216
Yeah.

1411
01:21:29,848 --> 01:21:32,393
Yeah, so it's, like, a pretty
standard sort of room, I guess.

1412
01:21:33,894 --> 01:21:35,729
Hey. Oh, um...

1413
01:21:35,813 --> 01:21:37,564
Actually, I meant
to tell you this before.

1414
01:21:37,648 --> 01:21:40,150
Um, so Alana and I
had a really good...

1415
01:21:41,568 --> 01:21:44,196
Um, we had a really good
meeting this morning,

1416
01:21:44,279 --> 01:21:46,323
and I think that...
Y-You probably noticed,

1417
01:21:46,407 --> 01:21:49,159
um, that, uh, you know,
a lot of people were giving,

1418
01:21:49,243 --> 01:21:51,912
uh, during that first week,
which is definitely great,

1419
01:21:51,995 --> 01:21:54,373
but, um, it sort of slowed down
a bit, obviously.

1420
01:21:54,456 --> 01:21:55,809
But Alana and I
are really confident

1421
01:21:55,833 --> 01:21:57,143
that it's gonna
pick right back up.

1422
01:21:57,167 --> 01:21:59,503
I think it's just a m...
A matter of...

1423
01:22:00,504 --> 01:22:02,798
Can I talk to you
about something?

1424
01:22:06,468 --> 01:22:07,886
Yes.

1425
01:22:12,266 --> 01:22:14,017
Uh...

1426
01:22:14,101 --> 01:22:16,520
The Connor project is...
Awesome.

1427
01:22:16,603 --> 01:22:19,398
It's-it's really, really cool.

1428
01:22:21,900 --> 01:22:24,278
- Thank you.
- It's just that, my whole life,

1429
01:22:24,361 --> 01:22:25,904
everything has been about him.

1430
01:22:25,988 --> 01:22:29,450
And maybe the two of us...

1431
01:22:30,951 --> 01:22:33,495
Maybe we don't have to talk
about my brother all the time.

1432
01:22:33,579 --> 01:22:35,831
Maybe we can...

1433
01:22:35,914 --> 01:22:39,251
Talk about other things.

1434
01:22:47,384 --> 01:22:48,802
I like you.

1435
01:22:51,346 --> 01:22:55,017
And it's not because you were
friends with my brother

1436
01:22:55,100 --> 01:22:57,019
or because of
the Connor project.

1437
01:22:59,813 --> 01:23:02,441
I like you 'cause...

1438
01:23:02,524 --> 01:23:04,443
You.

1439
01:23:04,526 --> 01:23:08,739
J' I don't need you to sell me
on reasons to want you I

1440
01:23:11,366 --> 01:23:15,412
j' I don't need you to search
for the proof that I should I

1441
01:23:18,207 --> 01:23:21,835
I you don't
have to convince me I

1442
01:23:21,919 --> 01:23:25,756
I you don't have to be scared
you're not enough I

1443
01:23:25,839 --> 01:23:28,759
j' 'cause what we've got going I

1444
01:23:28,842 --> 01:23:31,011
J' is good I

1445
01:23:32,054 --> 01:23:36,350
j' I don't need more reminders
of all that's been broken I

1446
01:23:38,810 --> 01:23:43,524
j' I don't need you to fix
what I'd rather forget I

1447
01:23:45,275 --> 01:23:49,029
j' clear the slate
and start over I

1448
01:23:49,112 --> 01:23:53,617
I try to quiet
the noises in your head I

1449
01:23:53,700 --> 01:23:56,703
I we can't compete
with all that j'

1450
01:23:59,331 --> 01:24:01,458
I so what if it's us? I

1451
01:24:01,542 --> 01:24:06,296
I what if it's us and only us I

1452
01:24:06,380 --> 01:24:11,343
I and what came before won't
count anymore or matter? I

1453
01:24:11,426 --> 01:24:13,595
j' can we try that? J'

1454
01:24:13,679 --> 01:24:16,974
I what if it's you,
what if it's me I

1455
01:24:17,057 --> 01:24:20,936
I and what if that's all
that we need it to be I

1456
01:24:21,019 --> 01:24:24,314
I and the rest of the world
falls away? I

1457
01:24:25,524 --> 01:24:26,733
I what do you say? I

1458
01:24:26,817 --> 01:24:28,527
j' I never thought there'd be I

1459
01:24:28,610 --> 01:24:31,446
j' someone like you
who would want me I

1460
01:24:31,530 --> 01:24:32,781
well...

1461
01:24:32,864 --> 01:24:36,034
I so I give you 10,000 reasons I

1462
01:24:36,118 --> 01:24:38,120
I to not let me go I

1463
01:24:40,539 --> 01:24:44,626
I but if you really see me I

1464
01:24:44,710 --> 01:24:48,964
I if you like me for me
and nothing else I

1465
01:24:49,047 --> 01:24:50,799
j' well, that's all
that I've wanted I

1466
01:24:50,882 --> 01:24:55,012
j' for longer than
you could possibly know I

1467
01:24:55,095 --> 01:24:57,014
j'so it can be usj'

1468
01:24:57,097 --> 01:25:02,019
I it can be us and only us I

1469
01:25:02,102 --> 01:25:07,107
I and what came before
won't count anymore or matter I

1470
01:25:07,190 --> 01:25:09,067
I we can try that j'

1471
01:25:09,151 --> 01:25:12,821
J' it's not so impossible I

1472
01:25:12,904 --> 01:25:15,657
j' nobody else
but the two of us here I

1473
01:25:15,741 --> 01:25:19,620
j' 'cause you're saying
it's possible I

1474
01:25:19,703 --> 01:25:22,998
I we can just watch
the whole world disappear j'

1475
01:25:23,081 --> 01:25:28,378
j' till you're the only one I

1476
01:25:28,462 --> 01:25:35,093
j' I still know how to see I

1477
01:25:38,555 --> 01:25:40,223
Evan: J' it's just you and me I

1478
01:25:40,307 --> 01:25:42,643
Zoe: J' it'll be us I

1479
01:25:42,726 --> 01:25:47,648
j' it'll be us and only us I

1480
01:25:47,731 --> 01:25:52,361
I and what came before
won't count anymore I

1481
01:25:52,444 --> 01:25:54,988
I we can try that j'

1482
01:25:55,072 --> 01:25:58,617
I you and me I

1483
01:25:58,700 --> 01:26:01,912
j' that's all that
we need it to be I

1484
01:26:01,995 --> 01:26:05,457
I and the rest of the world
falls away I

1485
01:26:05,540 --> 01:26:11,505
I and the rest
of the world falls away I

1486
01:26:13,548 --> 01:26:16,134
j' the world falls away I

1487
01:26:17,344 --> 01:26:20,305
j' the world falls away I

1488
01:26:26,395 --> 01:26:28,397
J' the world falls away I

1489
01:26:29,773 --> 01:26:32,484
j' the world falls away I

1490
01:26:33,485 --> 01:26:36,238
j' the world falls away I

1491
01:26:37,406 --> 01:26:40,283
j' the world falls away I

1492
01:26:48,041 --> 01:26:49,501
J' the world falls away I

1493
01:26:49,584 --> 01:26:51,628
all right,
let's just start without him.

1494
01:26:51,712 --> 01:26:55,340
J' the world falls away I

1495
01:26:55,424 --> 01:27:01,221
I and it's only us. I

1496
01:27:17,487 --> 01:27:18,405
No.

1497
01:27:18,488 --> 01:27:19,528
I'm famous for doing that.

1498
01:27:19,573 --> 01:27:20,967
Cynthia:
I've been told that many times.

1499
01:27:20,991 --> 01:27:21,908
Heidi: Mmmmm.

1500
01:27:21,992 --> 01:27:22,909
Hi, honey.

1501
01:27:22,993 --> 01:27:24,369
Cynthia: Come join us.

1502
01:27:24,453 --> 01:27:26,663
- I just put dinner in the oven.
- Hi.

1503
01:27:28,874 --> 01:27:30,459
She made me swear
to keep it a surprise.

1504
01:27:30,542 --> 01:27:31,835
I'm surprised.

1505
01:27:31,918 --> 01:27:32,918
Hi.

1506
01:27:32,961 --> 01:27:34,755
It's so nice
to finally meet you.

1507
01:27:34,838 --> 01:27:36,339
-Oh, hi.

1508
01:27:36,423 --> 01:27:38,008
Yeah, uh, great.

1509
01:27:38,091 --> 01:27:40,010
It's great.

1510
01:27:40,093 --> 01:27:41,595
Come on, Evan. Sit.

1511
01:27:43,597 --> 01:27:45,599
I-I thought that you were
working tonight.

1512
01:27:45,682 --> 01:27:47,809
Heidi: Cynthia called
and invited me for dinner,

1513
01:27:47,893 --> 01:27:49,686
so, you know, I'm playing hooky.

1514
01:27:49,770 --> 01:27:51,938
We were just discussing
how sneaky you and Connor were.

1515
01:27:52,022 --> 01:27:54,566
Heidi: I had no idea that he
and Connor were even friends.

1516
01:27:54,649 --> 01:27:56,067
Larry: Oh, we were the same.

1517
01:27:56,151 --> 01:27:57,670
Cynthia: You know,
boys love their secrets.

1518
01:27:57,694 --> 01:27:59,613
Something smells good.
What's for dinner?

1519
01:27:59,696 --> 01:28:01,448
Oh, it's chicken milanese,
your favorite.

1520
01:28:01,531 --> 01:28:03,408
Oh, actually his favorite is

1521
01:28:03,492 --> 01:28:04,844
my great-grandmother's
black beans.

1522
01:28:04,868 --> 01:28:05,786
Really?

1523
01:28:05,869 --> 01:28:07,329
Cynthia: Well, he's the only one

1524
01:28:07,412 --> 01:28:08,556
that appreciates
my cooking, so...

1525
01:28:08,580 --> 01:28:10,165
- That's not true.
- Uh, another drop?

1526
01:28:10,248 --> 01:28:12,292
Oh, no, no. I'm-I'm fine.
Thank you.

1527
01:28:12,375 --> 01:28:14,753
Oh, um, fascinating story
about the wine.

1528
01:28:14,836 --> 01:28:17,464
It's from a vineyard in napa,

1529
01:28:17,547 --> 01:28:20,550
and the entire growing process
from start to finish,

1530
01:28:20,634 --> 01:28:22,469
100% sustainable.

1531
01:28:22,552 --> 01:28:23,929
Is that right?

1532
01:28:24,012 --> 01:28:26,389
Not to mention,
it tastes good, too.

1533
01:28:26,473 --> 01:28:27,641
- Mm-hmm. It does.
- Mm.

1534
01:28:27,724 --> 01:28:30,018
You know,
I-I didn't realize, uh...

1535
01:28:30,101 --> 01:28:31,394
Cynthia and Larry
were telling me

1536
01:28:31,478 --> 01:28:33,063
that you spend
so much time here.

1537
01:28:33,146 --> 01:28:34,856
Yeah, I... you've been
working a lot, so...

1538
01:28:34,940 --> 01:28:36,900
Why did I think
you were at Jared's?

1539
01:28:36,983 --> 01:28:38,401
I-I don't know.

1540
01:28:38,485 --> 01:28:39,611
Zoe: Evan was showing me

1541
01:28:39,694 --> 01:28:43,114
all of those scholarship
contests that you found.

1542
01:28:43,198 --> 01:28:44,282
It's really impressive.

1543
01:28:44,366 --> 01:28:47,077
Well, Evan is a great writer.

1544
01:28:47,160 --> 01:28:48,703
Cynthia: Well, that does not

1545
01:28:48,787 --> 01:28:50,163
surprise me at all.

1546
01:28:51,164 --> 01:28:53,625
His English teacher last year
told me that he wrote

1547
01:28:53,708 --> 01:28:56,086
one of the best papers
she'd ever read on sulu.

1548
01:28:56,169 --> 01:28:57,170
Is that right?

1549
01:28:57,254 --> 01:28:59,548
- It's sula.
- What?

1550
01:28:59,631 --> 01:29:01,049
You said "sulu." It's sula.

1551
01:29:01,132 --> 01:29:03,134
Larry: Yeah, I believe sulu's

1552
01:29:03,218 --> 01:29:05,053
a character on Star Trek.

1553
01:29:08,640 --> 01:29:09,975
My mistake.

1554
01:29:11,726 --> 01:29:14,896
So, speaking of scholarships...

1555
01:29:15,897 --> 01:29:17,315
Oh, right, uh...

1556
01:29:17,399 --> 01:29:19,609
Yeah, well, I guess...

1557
01:29:19,693 --> 01:29:22,988
Now's as good a time as any.

1558
01:29:25,282 --> 01:29:27,534
Cynthia, do you want to...?

1559
01:29:27,617 --> 01:29:28,535
Hmm.

1560
01:29:28,618 --> 01:29:30,620
Well, um...

1561
01:29:30,704 --> 01:29:34,249
Zoe happened to mention that
Evan was having some difficulty

1562
01:29:34,332 --> 01:29:38,044
in terms of the
financial burden of college.

1563
01:29:38,128 --> 01:29:41,464
And Larry and I
started thinking,

1564
01:29:41,548 --> 01:29:43,300
and we've been fortunate enough

1565
01:29:43,383 --> 01:29:45,552
to set some money aside
for Connor.

1566
01:29:49,139 --> 01:29:50,807
Um, I'm good.

1567
01:29:50,891 --> 01:29:52,601
- I'm okay.
- Yeah.

1568
01:29:52,684 --> 01:29:55,061
Heidi, with your blessing,
we would like to give Evan

1569
01:29:55,145 --> 01:29:56,813
the money that we set aside
for our son

1570
01:29:56,897 --> 01:30:00,775
so he can fulfill his dreams.

1571
01:30:06,489 --> 01:30:08,950
Thank you so much...

1572
01:30:09,034 --> 01:30:10,702
But we're gonna be fine.

1573
01:30:10,785 --> 01:30:13,121
I don't have a lot of money,
but I-I do have some.

1574
01:30:14,706 --> 01:30:16,517
No, no, no, no, no.
I didn't mean to intimate...

1575
01:30:16,541 --> 01:30:18,960
No, no, I understand,
but, um, we do have money,

1576
01:30:19,044 --> 01:30:22,547
so I'm sorry you were under
the impression that we didn't.

1577
01:30:22,631 --> 01:30:24,799
And whatever money
we don't have,

1578
01:30:24,883 --> 01:30:27,802
Evan will either
make up for with a job

1579
01:30:27,886 --> 01:30:29,179
or he'll get a scholarship.

1580
01:30:29,262 --> 01:30:32,390
I don't want my son
to get the idea that it's okay

1581
01:30:32,474 --> 01:30:33,934
to rely on other people
for favors.

1582
01:30:34,017 --> 01:30:35,852
- Well, it's not a favor.
- No.

1583
01:30:35,936 --> 01:30:38,146
But as his mother,
I need to set that example.

1584
01:30:38,229 --> 01:30:40,190
You can't expect things
from strangers.

1585
01:30:40,273 --> 01:30:42,150
Oh, we're not strangers.

1586
01:30:42,233 --> 01:30:44,444
No, of course not.

1587
01:30:45,487 --> 01:30:47,322
But you're not family either.

1588
01:30:54,955 --> 01:30:56,498
Mom, just hold on.

1589
01:30:56,581 --> 01:30:58,333
No, I think
I better get to work,

1590
01:30:58,416 --> 01:31:00,126
see if I can grab a shift
now that I know

1591
01:31:00,210 --> 01:31:02,170
how concerned you are
about our finances.

1592
01:31:02,253 --> 01:31:03,648
Mom, will you please
come back inside?

1593
01:31:03,672 --> 01:31:05,632
Oh, my god. Are you kidding me?

1594
01:31:05,715 --> 01:31:07,884
Will you just
come back inside, please?

1595
01:31:07,968 --> 01:31:09,844
They think you're their son,
these people.

1596
01:31:10,887 --> 01:31:11,972
They're not "these people."

1597
01:31:12,055 --> 01:31:13,431
They don't really know you.

1598
01:31:13,515 --> 01:31:15,475
Well, they like me.
They like me.

1599
01:31:15,558 --> 01:31:17,161
I know that that's very hard
for you to believe,

1600
01:31:17,185 --> 01:31:18,395
that they don't think I'm...

1601
01:31:18,478 --> 01:31:19,830
You know, that there's
something wrong with me,

1602
01:31:19,854 --> 01:31:21,248
that I need to be,
like, fixed, like you do.

1603
01:31:21,272 --> 01:31:23,441
- When have I ever said that?
- Oh, my god.

1604
01:31:23,525 --> 01:31:24,627
Mom, I-I have to go
to therapy, right?

1605
01:31:24,651 --> 01:31:25,711
I have to take drugs.
I have to...

1606
01:31:25,735 --> 01:31:27,088
There's-there's nothing
wrong with that.

1607
01:31:27,112 --> 01:31:28,339
There-there's nothing wrong
with needing help, honey.

1608
01:31:28,363 --> 01:31:29,698
Just stop. I know that there is,

1609
01:31:29,781 --> 01:31:30,991
and I know that I'm a burden,

1610
01:31:31,074 --> 01:31:32,343
that I'm the worst thing
that ever happened to you,

1611
01:31:32,367 --> 01:31:34,095
and I just... well, I just
ruined your life, okay?!

1612
01:31:34,119 --> 01:31:37,372
No. You are the best thing.

1613
01:31:37,455 --> 01:31:39,666
You're the best thing
that's ever happened to me.

1614
01:31:41,167 --> 01:31:43,167
I'm sorry I can't give you
anything more than that.

1615
01:31:44,587 --> 01:31:46,673
It's not my fault
if other people can.

1616
01:31:54,055 --> 01:31:55,055
I'll see you at home.

1617
01:32:06,526 --> 01:32:08,069
Hi.

1618
01:32:08,153 --> 01:32:09,839
I'm so sorry.
I meant to be there yesterday.

1619
01:32:09,863 --> 01:32:13,199
Okay, well, we have two days
left, and we're $25,000 short.

1620
01:32:13,283 --> 01:32:15,201
Yeah, I just... everything...

1621
01:32:15,285 --> 01:32:16,828
You're right. I know. I'm sorry.

1622
01:32:16,911 --> 01:32:18,455
Things have been
really busy, so...

1623
01:32:20,832 --> 01:32:22,333
I've been wondering something.

1624
01:32:22,417 --> 01:32:24,127
Mmmmm?

1625
01:32:25,170 --> 01:32:26,880
Were you ever actually
friends with him?

1626
01:32:28,715 --> 01:32:30,050
What are you talking about?

1627
01:32:30,133 --> 01:32:32,927
Well, the thing about
the emails, it's just that,

1628
01:32:33,011 --> 01:32:34,888
like, you and Connor
keep talking about

1629
01:32:34,971 --> 01:32:36,598
climbing this tree together
in June.

1630
01:32:36,681 --> 01:32:37,682
Mmmmm?

1631
01:32:37,766 --> 01:32:39,934
We were in school in June.

1632
01:32:40,977 --> 01:32:43,188
You didn't have a cast
until September.

1633
01:32:43,271 --> 01:32:44,689
Well, uh, you know what?

1634
01:32:44,773 --> 01:32:46,917
We probably just wrote down
the wrong date or something.

1635
01:32:46,941 --> 01:32:50,403
It's not just the emails, Evan.

1636
01:32:50,487 --> 01:32:52,864
You've missed, like,
three meetings in a row.

1637
01:32:52,947 --> 01:32:54,783
If I were his best friend,

1638
01:32:54,866 --> 01:32:56,635
I would be doing
everything I could to make sure

1639
01:32:56,659 --> 01:32:58,262
his dream of rebuilding
the orchard came true.

1640
01:32:58,286 --> 01:32:59,954
Okay.

1641
01:33:00,038 --> 01:33:01,766
Look, it's terrible
that people aren't giving

1642
01:33:01,790 --> 01:33:03,458
as much money
as we hoped they would.

1643
01:33:03,541 --> 01:33:05,835
It is, but-but it's not like
it's him.

1644
01:33:05,919 --> 01:33:06,920
You know what I mean?

1645
01:33:07,003 --> 01:33:09,255
It's-it's just...
It's an orchard, Alana.

1646
01:33:13,259 --> 01:33:16,304
We have people watching us,

1647
01:33:16,387 --> 01:33:18,598
hoping...

1648
01:33:18,681 --> 01:33:21,726
Praying that we can
prove Connor wrong.

1649
01:33:21,810 --> 01:33:25,021
And if the orchard is
just an empty promise,

1650
01:33:25,105 --> 01:33:28,108
all of those people will know
that Connor was right.

1651
01:33:29,818 --> 01:33:31,236
That no one cares.

1652
01:33:34,322 --> 01:33:36,282
Did you lie to me?

1653
01:33:40,620 --> 01:33:42,664
Did I lie to all these people?

1654
01:33:49,379 --> 01:33:51,256
Just go to your email.

1655
01:33:51,339 --> 01:33:52,632
Another email?

1656
01:33:52,715 --> 01:33:54,717
It's not...

1657
01:33:54,801 --> 01:33:56,803
It's not another email.

1658
01:34:04,769 --> 01:34:06,855
"Dear Evan Hansen..."

1659
01:34:08,857 --> 01:34:10,859
If we weren't friends,
then he wouldn't...

1660
01:34:12,902 --> 01:34:15,321
He wouldn't have written
his note to me.

1661
01:34:18,408 --> 01:34:21,202
Look, only his family
have seen this, okay?

1662
01:34:21,286 --> 01:34:24,956
You can't, you can't show it
to anybody else, okay?

1663
01:34:25,039 --> 01:34:26,916
Alana.

1664
01:34:27,000 --> 01:34:28,334
Okay.

1665
01:34:37,969 --> 01:34:39,596
He wasn't right.

1666
01:34:41,014 --> 01:34:42,724
You know that, don't you?

1667
01:35:02,911 --> 01:35:05,496
J' the parts we can't tell,
we carry them well I

1668
01:35:05,580 --> 01:35:08,166
I but that doesn't mean
they're not heavy I

1669
01:35:08,249 --> 01:35:11,002
j' the parts we can't tell,
we carry them well I

1670
01:35:11,085 --> 01:35:13,463
I but that doesn't mean
they're not heavy I

1671
01:35:13,546 --> 01:35:16,299
j' the anonymous one I

1672
01:35:16,382 --> 01:35:18,676
j' noticed by none I

1673
01:35:18,760 --> 01:35:21,221
j' the parts we can't tell,
we carry them well I

1674
01:35:21,304 --> 01:35:24,432
I but that doesn't mean
they're not heavy I

1675
01:35:28,019 --> 01:35:30,772
j' the parts we can't tell I

1676
01:35:30,855 --> 01:35:33,316
I we carry them well I

1677
01:35:33,399 --> 01:35:37,862
I but that doesn't mean
they're not heavy I

1678
01:35:37,946 --> 01:35:40,281
j' the parts we can't tell I

1679
01:35:40,365 --> 01:35:42,492
I we carry them well I

1680
01:35:42,575 --> 01:35:49,123
I but that doesn't mean
they're not heavy I

1681
01:35:59,884 --> 01:36:02,887
J' the anonymous ones I

1682
01:36:02,971 --> 01:36:06,933
j' who might just need
this moment to remind them I

1683
01:36:08,977 --> 01:36:12,689
I that there are
more anonymous ones I

1684
01:36:12,772 --> 01:36:17,068
j' they're out there if you take
the time to find them I

1685
01:36:24,909 --> 01:36:30,456
I just to know
we're somehow not alone I

1686
01:36:30,540 --> 01:36:36,963
j' isn't that all we're ever
really looking for? J'

1687
01:36:59,652 --> 01:37:02,447
J' maybe we I

1688
01:37:02,530 --> 01:37:05,033
I we don't have to be I

1689
01:37:08,786 --> 01:37:10,872
j' anonymous anymore. I

1690
01:37:46,866 --> 01:37:48,510
Girl: Can you imagine?

1691
01:38:06,302 --> 01:38:08,137
Wh-what's wrong?

1692
01:38:13,768 --> 01:38:15,686
Yep.

1693
01:38:49,178 --> 01:38:50,304
Hi.

1694
01:38:50,388 --> 01:38:52,306
Alana, you have to
take it down, okay?

1695
01:38:52,390 --> 01:38:53,683
They've been through enough.

1696
01:38:53,766 --> 01:38:55,828
I took it down already, Evan,
but it-it doesn't matter

1697
01:38:55,852 --> 01:38:57,061
because it's everywhere.

1698
01:39:05,278 --> 01:39:06,362
Zoe, it's me.

1699
01:39:06,446 --> 01:39:07,613
Please call me back, okay?

1700
01:39:07,697 --> 01:39:09,323
I'm worried about you.

1701
01:39:09,407 --> 01:39:11,075
They have pictures of us now.

1702
01:39:11,159 --> 01:39:12,493
Just put it away.

1703
01:39:12,577 --> 01:39:14,454
"His parents act like
they are bereft,

1704
01:39:14,537 --> 01:39:17,165
but where were they when
their son was actually alive?"

1705
01:39:17,248 --> 01:39:19,250
Please stop reading them.

1706
01:39:21,752 --> 01:39:24,005
- Hey. Is Zoe here?
- She went home.

1707
01:39:40,229 --> 01:39:41,469
Things really aren't good here.

1708
01:39:41,522 --> 01:39:43,816
I know. I just... I had to come.

1709
01:39:45,026 --> 01:39:46,962
Cynthia: Where did they even...
How did they get Connor's note?

1710
01:39:46,986 --> 01:39:48,196
Larry: I don't know.

1711
01:39:48,279 --> 01:39:49,715
Cynthia: Like, did they hack
our computers?

1712
01:39:49,739 --> 01:39:51,899
They hacked our emails?
Did... these people are adults.

1713
01:39:51,949 --> 01:39:53,451
Did you see their pictures?

1714
01:39:53,534 --> 01:39:54,761
These people are adults.

1715
01:39:54,785 --> 01:39:56,329
Larry: Look, maybe let it ring.

1716
01:39:56,412 --> 01:39:58,623
Zoe: I'm sick of hiding. Hello?

1717
01:39:58,706 --> 01:40:00,225
Yeah, have-have fun
with your miserable life.

1718
01:40:00,249 --> 01:40:01,969
Larry: What did they say?
What's the number?

1719
01:40:02,043 --> 01:40:03,085
It's blocked.

1720
01:40:03,169 --> 01:40:04,563
It doesn't...
No, it doesn't matter.

1721
01:40:04,587 --> 01:40:06,023
Cynthia: That's it.
I'm calling the police.

1722
01:40:06,047 --> 01:40:07,566
Larry: No, look, right now,
maybe the best thing to do

1723
01:40:07,590 --> 01:40:09,091
is to just stay calm, all right?

1724
01:40:09,175 --> 01:40:11,361
-And sit... -Cynthia: That's
always your solution, isn't it?

1725
01:40:11,385 --> 01:40:12,779
Wait and see. Let's just
wait and see, right, Larry?

1726
01:40:12,803 --> 01:40:13,947
Larry:
What are the police going to do?

1727
01:40:13,971 --> 01:40:14,971
It's the Internet. Wh...

1728
01:40:15,014 --> 01:40:16,325
Are they gonna
arrest the Internet?

1729
01:40:16,349 --> 01:40:17,826
Cynthia: I had to beg you,
every step of the way,

1730
01:40:17,850 --> 01:40:19,090
for-for therapy, for-for rehab.

1731
01:40:19,143 --> 01:40:20,520
Larry: What? N-No, no.

1732
01:40:20,603 --> 01:40:22,664
You went lurching from
one miracle cure to the next...

1733
01:40:22,688 --> 01:40:24,148
Cynthia: Oh, you're... really?

1734
01:40:24,232 --> 01:40:26,275
Larry: Because all he needed
was another $20,000

1735
01:40:26,359 --> 01:40:27,360
weekend yoga retreat.

1736
01:40:27,443 --> 01:40:28,778
What was your alternative,

1737
01:40:28,861 --> 01:40:30,380
other than picking apart
everything that I did?

1738
01:40:30,404 --> 01:40:32,365
Larry: How about putting him on

1739
01:40:32,448 --> 01:40:34,116
one program and sticking to it?

1740
01:40:34,200 --> 01:40:36,035
Cynthia: Remember what he said

1741
01:40:36,118 --> 01:40:38,120
the first time that Connor
tried to kill himself?

1742
01:40:38,204 --> 01:40:39,765
-That he's just looking for
attention. -For Christ's sake.

1743
01:40:39,789 --> 01:40:41,069
Cynthia:
He just wants attention!

1744
01:40:41,123 --> 01:40:43,042
Larry: I'm not gonna sit here
and defend myself!

1745
01:40:43,125 --> 01:40:44,269
Cynthia:
You couldn't understand him.

1746
01:40:44,293 --> 01:40:47,588
You never understood him
because he wasn't yours!

1747
01:40:47,672 --> 01:40:49,757
Mom, what the hell?

1748
01:40:49,840 --> 01:40:51,360
I raised him from the time
he was three years old.

1749
01:40:51,384 --> 01:40:53,278
He was getting better, and you
refused to see it. Ask Evan.

1750
01:40:53,302 --> 01:40:55,179
Tell them, Evan.

1751
01:40:55,263 --> 01:40:56,973
Evan did everything
that he could.

1752
01:40:57,056 --> 01:40:59,892
Evan? Evan was in denial
of what was happening.

1753
01:40:59,976 --> 01:41:01,686
Zoe: Do not bring him into this.

1754
01:41:01,769 --> 01:41:02,955
Cynthia: Read the note, Larry.

1755
01:41:02,979 --> 01:41:04,438
Read what he said.

1756
01:41:04,522 --> 01:41:06,566
"I just wish that everything
was different."

1757
01:41:06,649 --> 01:41:08,484
Larry: I tried.

1758
01:41:08,568 --> 01:41:10,087
-But he was my son! -He wanted
to be better! -Zoe: Please.

1759
01:41:10,111 --> 01:41:11,129
Larry: I-I tried everything!

1760
01:41:11,153 --> 01:41:12,655
Zoe: Stop it! Just please stop!

1761
01:41:12,738 --> 01:41:15,366
- Please stop fighting!
- He was trying to be better!

1762
01:41:15,449 --> 01:41:16,367
He was trying!

1763
01:41:16,450 --> 01:41:17,910
And he was failing.

1764
01:41:17,994 --> 01:41:20,121
We failed him.

1765
01:41:21,163 --> 01:41:22,623
No, you didn't. No, you didn't.

1766
01:41:22,707 --> 01:41:23,791
You didn't fail him.

1767
01:41:26,043 --> 01:41:27,253
Read the note.

1768
01:41:29,130 --> 01:41:30,756
He didn't write it.

1769
01:41:36,596 --> 01:41:37,930
I wrote it.

1770
01:41:38,014 --> 01:41:41,350
You didn't write
Connor's suicide note.

1771
01:41:42,351 --> 01:41:46,147
Um, it was an assignment
from my therapist.

1772
01:41:46,230 --> 01:41:48,190
Write a letter to yourself,
um, a pep talk.

1773
01:41:48,274 --> 01:41:50,294
"Evan Hansen, dear Evan Hansen,
today's gonna be a good day.

1774
01:41:50,318 --> 01:41:51,712
-Here's why." -I-I don't,
I don't think that...

1775
01:41:51,736 --> 01:41:53,755
I was supposed to bring it
to my appointment with me,

1776
01:41:53,779 --> 01:41:55,979
but Connor took it, and then
I guess he must have had it

1777
01:41:56,032 --> 01:41:57,867
with him, um...

1778
01:42:00,077 --> 01:42:02,413
When you found him, so...

1779
01:42:07,251 --> 01:42:08,669
What are you saying?

1780
01:42:10,463 --> 01:42:12,048
We weren't friends.

1781
01:42:12,131 --> 01:42:13,549
No.

1782
01:42:13,633 --> 01:42:14,759
No, no, no, no.

1783
01:42:14,842 --> 01:42:17,511
J' I never meant
to make it such a mess I

1784
01:42:19,513 --> 01:42:22,308
J' I never thought
that it would go this far I

1785
01:42:22,391 --> 01:42:24,810
there were emails.
You showed us emails.

1786
01:42:24,894 --> 01:42:29,106
I so I just stand here sorry I

1787
01:42:29,190 --> 01:42:31,734
j' searching for
something to say I

1788
01:42:33,027 --> 01:42:34,445
j' something to say I

1789
01:42:34,528 --> 01:42:36,864
y-y-you knew about the orchard.

1790
01:42:36,947 --> 01:42:39,075
He-he took you to the orchard.

1791
01:42:39,158 --> 01:42:40,868
That's where you broke your arm.

1792
01:42:40,951 --> 01:42:44,538
I broke my arm in Ellison park,
um, by myself.

1793
01:42:44,622 --> 01:42:46,957
But that day at the orchard...

1794
01:42:48,751 --> 01:42:50,711
You and Connor at the orchard.

1795
01:42:54,965 --> 01:42:56,967
J' words fail I

1796
01:42:58,094 --> 01:43:00,096
j' words fail I

1797
01:43:01,597 --> 01:43:04,308
j' there's nothing I can say I

1798
01:43:04,392 --> 01:43:05,810
oh, god.

1799
01:43:07,812 --> 01:43:10,272
But you said that you guys
would talk about me.

1800
01:43:10,356 --> 01:43:12,274
He would...

1801
01:43:12,358 --> 01:43:13,567
How could you do this?

1802
01:43:13,651 --> 01:43:16,487
J' I guess I thought
I could be part of this j'

1803
01:43:17,905 --> 01:43:20,741
j' I never had
this kind of thing before I

1804
01:43:22,159 --> 01:43:25,329
j' I never had
that perfect girl I

1805
01:43:25,413 --> 01:43:30,501
j' who somehow could see
the good part of me I

1806
01:43:32,044 --> 01:43:34,463
j' I never had the dad
who stuck it out I

1807
01:43:36,006 --> 01:43:39,844
j' no corny jokes
or baseball gloves j'

1808
01:43:39,927 --> 01:43:42,346
j' no mom who just was there I

1809
01:43:42,430 --> 01:43:47,852
j' 'cause mom was all
that she had to be I

1810
01:43:47,935 --> 01:43:51,814
j' that's not
a worthy explanation I

1811
01:43:51,897 --> 01:43:54,775
j' I know there is none I

1812
01:43:56,777 --> 01:44:02,241
J' nothing can make sense
of all these things I've done I

1813
01:44:04,243 --> 01:44:08,998
j' words fail, words fail I

1814
01:44:09,081 --> 01:44:12,585
j' there's nothing I can say I

1815
01:44:12,668 --> 01:44:16,172
j' except sometimes you see
everything you wanted I

1816
01:44:16,255 --> 01:44:18,382
I and sometimes I

1817
01:44:18,466 --> 01:44:20,843
I you see
everything you wish you had I

1818
01:44:20,926 --> 01:44:25,931
I and it's right there,
right there, right there I

1819
01:44:26,015 --> 01:44:28,184
j' in front of you I

1820
01:44:33,105 --> 01:44:36,192
I and you want to believe
it's true I

1821
01:44:42,281 --> 01:44:45,201
I so you make it true I

1822
01:44:48,954 --> 01:44:52,666
I and you think maybe I

1823
01:44:52,750 --> 01:44:58,172
j' everybody wants it I

1824
01:45:00,841 --> 01:45:02,468
I and needs it I

1825
01:45:04,428 --> 01:45:07,973
j' a little bit, too. I

1826
01:45:24,490 --> 01:45:25,699
Larry: Zoe.

1827
01:45:35,000 --> 01:45:37,795
I think it's time for you to go.

1828
01:46:09,994 --> 01:46:11,203
Go away, Evan.

1829
01:46:11,287 --> 01:46:12,746
It isn't fair, okay?

1830
01:46:12,830 --> 01:46:14,164
You can't, you can't let people

1831
01:46:14,248 --> 01:46:16,333
just blame you and your parents.

1832
01:46:16,417 --> 01:46:17,727
They need to know
it was me, okay?

1833
01:46:17,751 --> 01:46:18,854
I'm the one people should hate.

1834
01:46:18,878 --> 01:46:21,589
Yeah, well,
we're not telling anyone.

1835
01:46:21,672 --> 01:46:23,173
Well, that's... I...

1836
01:46:23,257 --> 01:46:26,176
You can't... you have to.

1837
01:46:26,260 --> 01:46:28,345
It's not my decision.

1838
01:46:28,429 --> 01:46:30,055
It's my mom's.

1839
01:46:30,139 --> 01:46:31,640
She doesn't want
to ruin your life.

1840
01:46:31,724 --> 01:46:34,143
She's afraid
you'll do something stupid.

1841
01:46:34,226 --> 01:46:36,228
Like hurt yourself.

1842
01:46:40,274 --> 01:46:42,818
She said
they already lost one son.

1843
01:46:47,281 --> 01:46:49,783
Can you just...

1844
01:46:49,867 --> 01:46:52,286
Leave my family alone, okay?

1845
01:47:19,813 --> 01:47:23,943
J' this was just
a sad invention j'

1846
01:47:25,361 --> 01:47:28,030
I it wasn't real, I know I

1847
01:47:29,865 --> 01:47:31,700
I but we were happy I

1848
01:47:33,452 --> 01:47:36,830
j' I guess
I couldn't let that go I

1849
01:47:38,916 --> 01:47:41,627
j' I guess
I couldn't give that up I

1850
01:47:43,253 --> 01:47:45,965
j' I guess I wanted to believe I

1851
01:47:46,048 --> 01:47:48,634
j' 'cause if I just believe I

1852
01:47:48,717 --> 01:47:51,512
I then I don't have to see I

1853
01:47:51,595 --> 01:47:53,806
j' what's really there I

1854
01:47:55,724 --> 01:47:57,643
j' no, I'd rather pretend j'

1855
01:47:57,726 --> 01:48:00,813
I I'm something better
than these broken parts I

1856
01:48:00,896 --> 01:48:03,732
j' pretend I'm something
other than I

1857
01:48:03,816 --> 01:48:05,776
j' this mess that I am I

1858
01:48:05,859 --> 01:48:08,696
j' 'cause then I don't
have to look at it I

1859
01:48:08,779 --> 01:48:11,073
I and no one gets
to look at it I

1860
01:48:11,156 --> 01:48:16,036
j' no, no one can really see I

1861
01:48:16,120 --> 01:48:20,249
j' 'cause I've learned
to slam on the brake j'

1862
01:48:20,332 --> 01:48:24,837
j' before I even turn the key I

1863
01:48:24,920 --> 01:48:29,216
j' before I make the mistake I

1864
01:48:29,299 --> 01:48:33,053
j' before I lead with
the worst of me I

1865
01:48:33,137 --> 01:48:35,264
j' I never let them see I

1866
01:48:35,347 --> 01:48:42,354
j' the worst of me I

1867
01:48:53,532 --> 01:48:55,242
J' 'cause what if everyone saw? I

1868
01:48:59,455 --> 01:49:01,915
I what if everyone knew? I

1869
01:49:04,084 --> 01:49:06,420
I would they like
what they saw? I

1870
01:49:08,630 --> 01:49:11,592
j' or would they hate it, too? I

1871
01:49:22,853 --> 01:49:27,191
I will I just keep on
running away I

1872
01:49:27,274 --> 01:49:31,236
I from what's true? I

1873
01:49:34,323 --> 01:49:39,745
I all I ever do is run I

1874
01:49:43,123 --> 01:49:47,544
I so how do I step in j'

1875
01:49:52,257 --> 01:49:59,264
I step into the sun? I

1876
01:50:01,975 --> 01:50:08,607
I step into the sun. I

1877
01:50:43,225 --> 01:50:44,434
Evan?

1878
01:50:45,435 --> 01:50:47,020
Evan?

1879
01:50:55,696 --> 01:50:56,905
Evan?

1880
01:51:13,672 --> 01:51:15,090
Oh, honey.

1881
01:51:20,971 --> 01:51:22,806
"Dear Evan Hansen..."

1882
01:51:24,975 --> 01:51:27,186
You wrote this? Connor's note?

1883
01:51:30,898 --> 01:51:32,357
I didn't know.

1884
01:51:32,441 --> 01:51:34,067
No one did.

1885
01:51:34,151 --> 01:51:35,986
No, honey, that's...

1886
01:51:37,446 --> 01:51:39,448
That's not what I meant.

1887
01:51:41,366 --> 01:51:43,368
I didn't know that you were...

1888
01:51:44,578 --> 01:51:46,830
That you were hurting like that.

1889
01:51:46,914 --> 01:51:49,208
That you felt...

1890
01:51:49,291 --> 01:51:50,918
I didn't know.

1891
01:51:53,462 --> 01:51:55,088
I lied.

1892
01:51:59,092 --> 01:52:01,303
I lied about so many things.

1893
01:52:04,014 --> 01:52:06,016
Not just Connor. Um...

1894
01:52:10,854 --> 01:52:13,065
So, last summer, um...

1895
01:52:15,901 --> 01:52:17,319
I just...

1896
01:52:19,905 --> 01:52:22,449
I just felt so alone. Um...

1897
01:52:25,577 --> 01:52:26,995
You can tell me.

1898
01:52:30,207 --> 01:52:31,833
The tree.

1899
01:52:34,920 --> 01:52:36,880
I didn't fall.

1900
01:52:40,008 --> 01:52:41,218
I let go.

1901
01:52:45,472 --> 01:52:47,683
- Oh, Evan.
- Do you hate me now?

1902
01:52:50,102 --> 01:52:53,647
You should. You should.

1903
01:52:53,730 --> 01:52:58,068
If you knew who I am,
just howjust broken I am.

1904
01:52:59,111 --> 01:53:00,946
I already know you.

1905
01:53:02,489 --> 01:53:03,699
And I love you.

1906
01:53:09,788 --> 01:53:11,790
I can promise you that...

1907
01:53:14,251 --> 01:53:15,669
Someday...

1908
01:53:16,878 --> 01:53:20,215
All of this is gonna feel
like a very long time ago.

1909
01:53:24,386 --> 01:53:26,221
Ah.

1910
01:53:27,723 --> 01:53:29,725
Your dad, um...

1911
01:53:32,769 --> 01:53:35,147
Do you remember when
he drove by to get his things?

1912
01:53:40,652 --> 01:53:43,280
It was a few weeks
after he moved out.

1913
01:53:45,032 --> 01:53:47,034
Temporarily, we said.

1914
01:53:48,452 --> 01:53:50,954
I it was a February day I

1915
01:53:52,706 --> 01:53:57,669
j' when your dad came by
before going away I

1916
01:53:59,087 --> 01:54:02,382
j' a u-haul truck
in the driveway j'

1917
01:54:04,092 --> 01:54:08,930
j' the day it was suddenly real I

1918
01:54:10,390 --> 01:54:13,310
j' I told you
not to come outside I

1919
01:54:14,478 --> 01:54:20,067
I but you saw that truck,
and you smiled so wide I

1920
01:54:21,485 --> 01:54:26,114
J' a real live truck
in your driveway j'

1921
01:54:27,157 --> 01:54:31,161
I we let you sit
behind the wheel I

1922
01:54:33,914 --> 01:54:38,585
j' goodbye, goodbye I

1923
01:54:39,628 --> 01:54:43,298
I now it's just me I

1924
01:54:43,382 --> 01:54:46,301
I and my little guy I

1925
01:54:48,678 --> 01:54:53,100
I and the house felt so big I

1926
01:54:55,143 --> 01:55:00,023
I and I felt so small I

1927
01:55:01,358 --> 01:55:05,821
j' the house felt so big I

1928
01:55:07,364 --> 01:55:11,910
I and I felt so small I

1929
01:55:14,037 --> 01:55:16,832
I that night,
I tucked you into bed I

1930
01:55:18,250 --> 01:55:23,755
j' I will never forget
how you sat up and said j'

1931
01:55:23,839 --> 01:55:27,884
j' "is there another truck
coming to our driveway? J'

1932
01:55:29,219 --> 01:55:34,683
j' a truck that will
take mommy away?" I

1933
01:55:36,560 --> 01:55:41,731
I and the house felt so big I

1934
01:55:42,774 --> 01:55:48,238
I and I felt so small I

1935
01:55:49,281 --> 01:55:54,369
j' the house felt so big I

1936
01:55:54,453 --> 01:55:57,456
j'andlj'

1937
01:55:57,539 --> 01:56:01,334
I and I knew there would be I

1938
01:56:01,418 --> 01:56:04,296
j' moments that I'd miss I

1939
01:56:04,379 --> 01:56:07,632
I and I knew there would be I

1940
01:56:07,716 --> 01:56:10,177
j' space I couldn't fill j'

1941
01:56:10,260 --> 01:56:13,680
I and I knew I'd come up short I

1942
01:56:13,763 --> 01:56:18,185
j' a million different ways I

1943
01:56:18,268 --> 01:56:20,729
j'and I did I

1944
01:56:22,647 --> 01:56:26,359
j'andldoj'

1945
01:56:27,944 --> 01:56:30,405
I and I will I

1946
01:56:32,657 --> 01:56:35,285
I but like that February day I

1947
01:56:36,953 --> 01:56:39,080
j' I will take your hand I

1948
01:56:39,164 --> 01:56:42,709
j' squeeze it tightly and say I

1949
01:56:42,792 --> 01:56:46,254
j' "there's not another truck
in the driveway j'

1950
01:56:47,797 --> 01:56:50,342
j' "your mom
isn't going anywhere I

1951
01:56:50,425 --> 01:56:53,261
j' "your mom is
staying right here I

1952
01:56:53,345 --> 01:56:56,014
j' "your mom
isn't going anywhere I

1953
01:56:56,097 --> 01:56:59,309
j' your mom is
staying right here" I

1954
01:57:00,310 --> 01:57:02,354
j' no matter what I

1955
01:57:04,731 --> 01:57:09,110
I I'll be here I

1956
01:57:10,153 --> 01:57:15,158
j' when it all feels so big I

1957
01:57:16,451 --> 01:57:21,414
j' till it all feels so small I

1958
01:57:22,415 --> 01:57:27,003
j' when it all feels so big I

1959
01:57:28,380 --> 01:57:31,508
j' till it all feels j'

1960
01:57:31,591 --> 01:57:37,806
I so small I

1961
01:57:40,267 --> 01:57:46,815
j' till it all feels so small. I

1962
01:57:55,198 --> 01:57:57,701
It's gonna get better,
I promise.

1963
01:58:12,340 --> 01:58:14,551
I was never friends
with Connor Murphy.

1964
01:58:16,052 --> 01:58:18,388
I lied,

1965
01:58:18,471 --> 01:58:20,140
repeatedly,

1966
01:58:20,223 --> 01:58:23,059
to his family,

1967
01:58:23,143 --> 01:58:25,645
to Alana,

1968
01:58:25,729 --> 01:58:27,564
to all of you.

1969
01:58:29,232 --> 01:58:30,817
I'm not asking
for your forgiveness.

1970
01:58:30,900 --> 01:58:31,943
I don't deserve it.

1971
01:58:32,027 --> 01:58:34,529
But, um, please...

1972
01:58:36,197 --> 01:58:38,617
Connor's family
doesn't deserve your hatred.

1973
01:58:40,327 --> 01:58:41,745
I do.

1974
01:58:44,122 --> 01:58:45,540
I'm sorry.

1975
01:59:58,238 --> 02:00:00,865
Connor:
J' spent so many seasons j'

1976
02:00:00,949 --> 02:00:04,202
I lost inside my mind I

1977
02:00:04,285 --> 02:00:08,581
I lost inside my mind I

1978
02:00:10,291 --> 02:00:12,544
I like a message in a bottle I

1979
02:00:12,627 --> 02:00:15,505
j' I thought nobody would find I

1980
02:00:15,588 --> 02:00:19,759
j' that nobody would find I

1981
02:00:21,553 --> 02:00:24,764
J' I've been drifting,
I've been dreaming I

1982
02:00:24,848 --> 02:00:27,684
j' I would land upon the shore j'

1983
02:00:27,767 --> 02:00:31,104
I to a haven, to a harbor j'

1984
02:00:31,187 --> 02:00:35,567
I that felt so far before I

1985
02:00:36,985 --> 02:00:39,863
j' well, today I

1986
02:00:39,946 --> 02:00:42,907
j' today I

1987
02:00:42,991 --> 02:00:45,452
I what felt so far away I

1988
02:00:45,535 --> 02:00:48,955
j' feels a little closer I

1989
02:00:49,038 --> 02:00:55,253
j' for today, today I

1990
02:00:55,336 --> 02:00:57,464
j' today I

1991
02:00:59,632 --> 02:01:04,345
I it feels a little closer I

1992
02:01:07,557 --> 02:01:09,851
I how long
these days of darkness I

1993
02:01:09,934 --> 02:01:13,271
I at the bottom of a well I

1994
02:01:13,354 --> 02:01:17,692
I that old, familiar well I

1995
02:01:19,611 --> 02:01:23,072
j' sitting heavy
with these secrets j'

1996
02:01:23,156 --> 02:01:25,533
I with nobody to tell I

1997
02:01:25,617 --> 02:01:29,412
j' nobody to tell I

1998
02:01:30,455 --> 02:01:32,540
- okay, your turn. Come on.
- J' high above I

1999
02:01:32,624 --> 02:01:34,209
j' a streak of sunlight j'

2000
02:01:34,292 --> 02:01:37,003
I and a wall too tall to climb j'

2001
02:01:37,086 --> 02:01:40,882
I all the reaching,
all the wanting j'

2002
02:01:40,965 --> 02:01:44,385
I just to tumble every time I

2003
02:01:44,469 --> 02:01:45,654
I think we got it.

2004
02:01:45,678 --> 02:01:47,305
All right.

2005
02:01:47,388 --> 02:01:50,350
I but today I

2006
02:01:50,433 --> 02:01:52,977
j' today I

2007
02:01:53,061 --> 02:01:55,355
I what felt so far away I

2008
02:01:55,438 --> 02:01:58,900
j' feels a little closer I

2009
02:01:58,983 --> 02:02:05,365
j' for today, today I

2010
02:02:05,448 --> 02:02:07,742
j' today I

2011
02:02:10,620 --> 02:02:13,581
I it feels a little closer I

2012
02:02:22,966 --> 02:02:29,389
I and the days carry on j'

2013
02:02:29,472 --> 02:02:31,349
j' the clouds come rolling in j'

2014
02:02:31,432 --> 02:02:34,811
I and then they're gone I

2015
02:02:34,894 --> 02:02:41,818
I as the days keep coming on j'

2016
02:02:41,901 --> 02:02:46,114
j' the midnight sky
turns to dawn j'

2017
02:02:56,332 --> 02:03:02,380
I today, today I

2018
02:03:02,463 --> 02:03:04,966
I what felt so far away I

2019
02:03:05,049 --> 02:03:08,803
j' feels a little closer I

2020
02:03:08,887 --> 02:03:15,059
j' today, today I

2021
02:03:15,143 --> 02:03:17,437
I what felt so far away I

2022
02:03:17,520 --> 02:03:21,900
j' feels a little closer I

2023
02:03:21,983 --> 02:03:27,697
j' for today, today I

2024
02:03:27,780 --> 02:03:30,617
j' today I

2025
02:03:33,286 --> 02:03:36,414
I it feels a little closer I

2026
02:03:36,497 --> 02:03:39,083
j' a little closer I

2027
02:03:39,167 --> 02:03:42,629
I it feels a little closer I

2028
02:03:42,712 --> 02:03:45,798
j' a little closer I

2029
02:03:48,551 --> 02:03:52,764
I it feels a little closer. I

2030
02:04:34,555 --> 02:04:37,433
You must start school
pretty soon.

2031
02:04:37,517 --> 02:04:39,352
Two more weeks.

2032
02:04:41,396 --> 02:04:43,815
When do you leave for college?

2033
02:04:43,898 --> 02:04:48,444
Um, actually I decided
to take a year off, so...

2034
02:04:48,528 --> 02:04:50,279
Uh, just try to save some money.

2035
02:04:50,363 --> 02:04:51,990
Get a job.

2036
02:04:52,073 --> 02:04:55,618
Uh... take some time.

2037
02:04:55,702 --> 02:04:58,079
So, I'm taking classes
at the community college.

2038
02:04:58,162 --> 02:05:00,999
I'll have credits to transfer
in the fall, so...

2039
02:05:02,125 --> 02:05:03,251
That's smart.

2040
02:05:03,334 --> 02:05:05,169
Yeah. We'll see.

2041
02:05:08,673 --> 02:05:11,092
I always picture
you and Connor here.

2042
02:05:12,510 --> 02:05:14,137
Even though...

2043
02:05:16,014 --> 02:05:17,849
This is my first time.

2044
02:05:19,392 --> 02:05:21,019
It's nice.

2045
02:05:22,395 --> 02:05:24,022
Peaceful.

2046
02:05:25,273 --> 02:05:28,276
My parents come here
all the time.

2047
02:05:28,359 --> 02:05:31,612
We do picnics, like,
every weekend.

2048
02:05:31,696 --> 02:05:34,615
Lots of gluten-free sandwiches.

2049
02:05:38,411 --> 02:05:40,413
It's helped them a lot,
actually.

2050
02:05:41,873 --> 02:05:43,082
Having this.

2051
02:05:49,172 --> 02:05:50,798
What I did...

2052
02:05:52,717 --> 02:05:54,343
I can't even...

2053
02:05:58,556 --> 02:06:01,684
It's the worst thing
anyone can do.

2054
02:06:09,025 --> 02:06:11,027
I wish we could have met now.

2055
02:06:12,820 --> 02:06:14,947
Today.

2056
02:06:15,031 --> 02:06:16,699
For the first time.

2057
02:06:17,700 --> 02:06:20,036
Me, too.

2058
02:06:24,457 --> 02:06:25,583
I should probably...

2059
02:06:25,666 --> 02:06:27,085
Yeah. Yeah, of course.

2060
02:06:27,168 --> 02:06:29,003
Of course.

2061
02:06:31,506 --> 02:06:33,132
Hey, can I just...

2062
02:06:34,217 --> 02:06:36,219
Can I just ask you...

2063
02:06:38,137 --> 02:06:39,764
Why did you want to meet here?

2064
02:06:46,104 --> 02:06:48,523
I wanted to be sure
that you saw this.

2065
02:06:53,069 --> 02:06:55,488
He really loved it here.

2066
02:07:11,504 --> 02:07:13,631
Evan: Dear Evan Hansen...

2067
02:07:15,049 --> 02:07:18,344
Today is gonna be
a good day, and here's why.

2068
02:07:19,637 --> 02:07:23,474
Because today,
no matter what else,

2069
02:07:23,558 --> 02:07:26,060
today at least you're you.

2070
02:07:26,144 --> 02:07:27,645
No hiding, no lying.

2071
02:07:27,728 --> 02:07:29,730
And that's...

2072
02:07:29,814 --> 02:07:31,315
That's enough.

2073
02:07:31,399 --> 02:07:34,360
So no matter how hard it gets,

2074
02:07:34,443 --> 02:07:38,406
even if it feels... impossible,

2075
02:07:38,489 --> 02:07:40,324
this time you 7! Know.

2076
02:07:41,534 --> 02:07:43,786
Don't let go.

2077
02:07:43,870 --> 02:07:47,290
Just hold on and keep going.

2078
02:07:49,125 --> 02:07:50,668
Just keep going.

2079
02:07:55,298 --> 02:08:02,305
J' today, today I

2080
02:08:04,390 --> 02:08:05,808
j' today I

2081
02:08:09,770 --> 02:08:16,444
I it feels a little closer. I

2082
02:09:03,866 --> 02:09:08,079
I have you ever felt like
nobody was there? I

2083
02:09:09,956 --> 02:09:15,878
I have you ever felt forgotten
in the middle of nowhere? I

2084
02:09:15,962 --> 02:09:20,424
I have you ever felt like
you could disappear? J'

2085
02:09:21,634 --> 02:09:24,345
I like you could fall I

2086
02:09:24,428 --> 02:09:26,806
I and no one would hear? I

2087
02:09:28,182 --> 02:09:32,270
j' well, let that lonely feeling
wash away I

2088
02:09:34,522 --> 02:09:40,111
j' maybe there's a reason
to believe you'll be okay I

2089
02:09:40,194 --> 02:09:44,699
j' 'cause when you don't feel
strong enough to stand I

2090
02:09:46,117 --> 02:09:48,327
I you can reach I

2091
02:09:48,411 --> 02:09:51,872
j' reach out your hand I

2092
02:09:51,956 --> 02:09:57,837
I and, oh,
someone will come running I

2093
02:09:57,920 --> 02:10:04,927
I and I know
they'll take you home I

2094
02:10:05,136 --> 02:10:08,055
j' even when the dark
comes crashing through I

2095
02:10:08,139 --> 02:10:11,225
j' when you need a friend
to carry you I

2096
02:10:11,309 --> 02:10:14,687
I and when you're broken
on the ground I

2097
02:10:14,770 --> 02:10:17,273
I you will be found I

2098
02:10:17,356 --> 02:10:19,984
I so let the sun
come streaming in j'

2099
02:10:20,067 --> 02:10:23,446
j' 'cause you'll reach up
and you'll rise again I

2100
02:10:23,529 --> 02:10:26,657
j' lift your head
and look around I

2101
02:10:26,741 --> 02:10:31,829
I you will be found I

2102
02:10:32,830 --> 02:10:37,668
I you will be found I

2103
02:10:40,046 --> 02:10:44,842
j' there's a place where
we don't have to feel unknown j'

2104
02:10:46,552 --> 02:10:49,055
I and every time you call out I

2105
02:10:49,138 --> 02:10:52,558
j' you're a little less alone I

2106
02:10:52,641 --> 02:10:57,229
j' oh, if you only say the word I

2107
02:10:57,313 --> 02:11:01,484
j' oh, from across the silence j'

2108
02:11:01,567 --> 02:11:06,572
j' your voice is heard I

2109
02:11:06,655 --> 02:11:09,617
j' even when the dark
comes crashing through I

2110
02:11:09,700 --> 02:11:12,828
j' when you need a friend
to carry you I

2111
02:11:12,912 --> 02:11:16,290
I and when you're broken
on the ground I

2112
02:11:16,374 --> 02:11:18,834
I you will be found I

2113
02:11:18,918 --> 02:11:21,379
I so let the sun
come streaming in j'

2114
02:11:21,462 --> 02:11:25,007
j' 'cause you'll reach up
and you'll rise again I

2115
02:11:25,091 --> 02:11:28,386
j' lift your head
and look around I

2116
02:11:28,469 --> 02:11:31,430
I you will be found I

2117
02:11:31,514 --> 02:11:38,521
I you will be found,
you will be found I

2118
02:11:40,439 --> 02:11:43,442
I you will be found I

2119
02:11:43,526 --> 02:11:50,533
I you will be found,
you will be found I

2120
02:11:53,953 --> 02:11:56,580
J' out of the shadows j'

2121
02:11:56,664 --> 02:11:59,250
j' the morning is breaking j'

2122
02:11:59,333 --> 02:12:05,798
I and all is new
and all is new I

2123
02:12:05,881 --> 02:12:08,759
j' it's filling up the empty I

2124
02:12:08,843 --> 02:12:11,137
I and suddenly I see I

2125
02:12:11,220 --> 02:12:14,473
I that all is new I

2126
02:12:14,557 --> 02:12:18,727
I all is new I

2127
02:12:18,811 --> 02:12:21,981
j' even when the dark
comes crashing through I

2128
02:12:22,064 --> 02:12:25,192
j' when you need a friend
to carry you I

2129
02:12:25,276 --> 02:12:28,821
I and when you're broken
on the ground I

2130
02:12:28,904 --> 02:12:31,490
I you will be found I

2131
02:12:31,574 --> 02:12:34,410
I so let the sun
come streaming in j'

2132
02:12:34,493 --> 02:12:37,997
j' 'cause you'll reach up
and you'll rise again I

2133
02:12:38,080 --> 02:12:41,542
j' lift your head
and look around I

2134
02:12:41,625 --> 02:12:46,672
I you will be found. I

2135
02:13:03,856 --> 02:13:05,900
I ever look at all the people I

2136
02:13:05,983 --> 02:13:09,111
j' seem to know
exactly how to be? I

2137
02:13:09,195 --> 02:13:12,656
I how to be,
how to be now, how to be I

2138
02:13:12,740 --> 02:13:16,494
I you think, they don't need
piles of prescriptions j'

2139
02:13:16,577 --> 02:13:19,079
I to function naturally I

2140
02:13:19,163 --> 02:13:22,958
j' functioning natural j'

2141
02:13:23,042 --> 02:13:26,295
I take a look
and you might just catch it I

2142
02:13:26,378 --> 02:13:28,464
I stay a minute more I

2143
02:13:28,547 --> 02:13:31,717
j' minute more, minute more now,
minute more I

2144
02:13:31,800 --> 02:13:35,804
j' there's a little moment
after the sunny smile I

2145
02:13:35,888 --> 02:13:38,015
j' their eyes fall to the floor I

2146
02:13:38,098 --> 02:13:41,143
I to the floor, to the
floor now, to the floorj'

2147
02:13:41,227 --> 02:13:44,605
j' the truth starts
peeking through I

2148
02:13:44,688 --> 02:13:45,856
j' peeking through I

2149
02:13:45,940 --> 02:13:50,611
j' they're a lot
like me and you I

2150
02:13:50,694 --> 02:13:55,616
I they can fake a smile, too I

2151
02:13:58,410 --> 02:14:00,913
j' the anonymous ones I

2152
02:14:00,996 --> 02:14:04,333
I never let you see
the ache they carry j'

2153
02:14:04,416 --> 02:14:07,586
I they carry, they carry,
they carry j'

2154
02:14:07,670 --> 02:14:10,673
I all those anonymous ones I

2155
02:14:10,756 --> 02:14:14,009
I never name the quiet pain
they Bury j'

2156
02:14:14,093 --> 02:14:17,972
I they Bury, they Bury,
they Bury j'

2157
02:14:18,055 --> 02:14:22,101
I keep on keeping secrets that
they think they have to hide j'

2158
02:14:22,184 --> 02:14:26,897
I what if everybody's secret is
they have that secret side? I

2159
02:14:26,981 --> 02:14:31,110
I and to know,
to know we're not alone I

2160
02:14:31,193 --> 02:14:33,654
j' is all we're hoping for j'

2161
02:14:34,863 --> 02:14:37,157
j' I don't wanna be anonymous j'

2162
02:14:37,241 --> 02:14:39,660
j' why you gotta be anonymous? J'

2163
02:14:39,743 --> 02:14:42,955
j' I don't wanna be anonymous
anymore I

2164
02:14:50,713 --> 02:14:54,091
J' anymore j'

2165
02:15:01,348 --> 02:15:03,684
J' spot the girl
who stays in motion j'

2166
02:15:03,767 --> 02:15:07,146
j' spins so fast
so she won't fall I

2167
02:15:07,229 --> 02:15:10,983
j' world spins so fast,
spins so fast I

2168
02:15:11,066 --> 02:15:13,277
j' she's built a wall
of her achievements j'

2169
02:15:13,360 --> 02:15:15,070
I keep out the question I

2170
02:15:15,154 --> 02:15:19,783
j' without it, is she worth
anything at all? I

2171
02:15:19,867 --> 02:15:24,288
I and truth starts
peeking through I

2172
02:15:24,371 --> 02:15:29,126
j' they're a lot
like me and you I

2173
02:15:29,209 --> 02:15:34,131
I they can fake a smile, too I

2174
02:15:37,051 --> 02:15:39,470
j' the anonymous ones I

2175
02:15:39,553 --> 02:15:42,806
I never let you see
the ache they carry j'

2176
02:15:42,890 --> 02:15:46,018
I they carry, they carry,
they carry j'

2177
02:15:46,101 --> 02:15:49,188
I all those anonymous ones I

2178
02:15:49,271 --> 02:15:52,399
I never name the quiet pain
they Bury j'

2179
02:15:52,483 --> 02:15:56,403
I they Bury, they Bury,
they Bury j'

2180
02:15:56,487 --> 02:15:58,822
j' I don't wanna be anonymous j'

2181
02:15:58,906 --> 02:16:01,367
j' why you gotta be anonymous? J'

2182
02:16:01,450 --> 02:16:03,452
j' I don't wanna be anonymous
anymore I

2183
02:16:03,535 --> 02:16:05,829
j' the parts we can't tell,
we carry them well I

2184
02:16:05,913 --> 02:16:08,207
I but that doesn't mean
they're not heavy I

2185
02:16:08,290 --> 02:16:10,626
j' the parts we can't tell,
we carry them well I

2186
02:16:10,709 --> 02:16:12,961
I but that doesn't mean
they're not heavy I

2187
02:16:13,045 --> 02:16:15,339
j' the parts we can't tell,
we carry them well I

2188
02:16:15,422 --> 02:16:20,135
I but that doesn't mean
they're not heavy I

2189
02:16:20,219 --> 02:16:22,596
j' heavy j'

2190
02:16:22,680 --> 02:16:25,182
j' the anonymous ones I

2191
02:16:25,265 --> 02:16:28,560
I never let you see
the ache they carry j'

2192
02:16:28,644 --> 02:16:31,772
I they carry, they carry,
they carry j'

2193
02:16:31,855 --> 02:16:34,817
I all the anonymous ones I

2194
02:16:34,900 --> 02:16:39,905
I never name the quiet pain
they Bury j'

2195
02:16:42,116 --> 02:16:46,412
I keep on keeping secrets that
they think they have to hide j'

2196
02:16:46,495 --> 02:16:51,041
I what if everybody's secret is
they have that secret side? I

2197
02:16:51,125 --> 02:16:55,045
I and to know,
to know we're not alone I

2198
02:16:55,129 --> 02:16:58,841
j' is all we're hoping for j'

2199
02:16:58,924 --> 02:17:01,218
j' I don't wanna be anonymous j'

2200
02:17:01,301 --> 02:17:03,762
j' why you gotta be anonymous? J'

2201
02:17:03,846 --> 02:17:07,683
j' I don't wanna be anonymous
anymore. I