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Previously on
90 Day Fiance:
The Other Way.
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You want me
to go back to the States?
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Uh, yep.
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You lied to me.
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Yohan still has
a long way to go
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when it comes to having
a mature, adult relationship.
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It's really stressing
me out right now
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because I need to tell
her parents that I'm trans.
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I'm very concerned that they
are going to not accept me.
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I still don't know
how to tell Mahmoud
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that I'm questioning my faith
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because I feel like
my marriage will be over.
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The lawyer said that
it is a single-entry visa.
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and I don't know
how long it's gonna be
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before I can come back.
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It's the very worst thing
going in my mind,
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"Do I need to, like,
wait again for years?"
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I'm sorry.
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Leave me
the [bleep] alone right now.
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You know what you [bleep] did.
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I don't want to talk
to you anymore.
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Like, I just want you
to leave me alone.
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I will.
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Hi, sweetheart.
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I was just finishing
my breakfast.
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I'm okay.
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Yeah.
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Last night, when we got back
from Mahmoud's uncle's
house...
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we agreed to just
stop talking about
our problems for now
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because we're exhausted.
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So today we're going
to try and just have
a better day, I guess.
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Are you gonna teach me,
like, what you say
during the prayer
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or, like, the motions
or what you do?
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Yeah, I'd like to learn
how to pray, honey.
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Okay.
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I love you too, honey.
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Though I'm struggling
with my faith right now,
I think that
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actually, maybe prayer is
what I need.
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I haven't taken the time
necessary to fully learn
how to do it...
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and there's a lot
I don't know.
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So, I think it takes
a lifetime to kind of learn
how to practice
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and then the rest
will come later.
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I don't know, right?
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Like, maybe the answer
to this crisis is prayer.
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On the hands?
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What exactly are you doing?
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I know, no.
What are you doing
with your nose?
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Like, in there?
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It's, like, a little bit
hard, actually. Okay.
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You tuck your hair all in?
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You can't show...
Not at all, okay.
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You do?
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He starts saying,
like, the prayer
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in the most beautiful
voice and I've never
heard it before.
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And it was just
moments like these
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that just remind me
how much I love him
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and he's always so full
of surprises.
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I think
it's beautiful to be
that devoted to something.
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I actually feel
really close to him
in this moment.
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Are you thanking God
or are you praying
for something?
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I love you.
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Doing this, it reminds me,
you know, how much
I do appreciate Islam
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and involving God
in your life.
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I'd probably maybe be
further along.
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It's okay. It's okay, honey.
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We both made mistakes.
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Mmm-hmm.
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Okay. That would be good.
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Okay.
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Is there, like,
a special way you have
to fold these carpets?
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Okay.
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It's really hot.
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You want to go swimming?
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Can I wear my bikini?
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I'm just kidding, honey.
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You know how I feel
about that.
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Okay.
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One of
my favorite things
is swimming.
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I really like to be
near the water
and in the water.
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That's really been an issue
because of the swimsuit that...
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Mahmoud makes me wear.
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You know,
you're the only person
I would do this for?
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Okay. Do you have to wear...
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I mean, this is
a weird question.
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Do you have to wear
something under it?
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Do you?
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What?
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You don't know?
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Well, I need to know.
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Mahmoud?
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Mahmoud?
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What did I do now?
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Just get ready?
You seem to be kind of mad.
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Are you sure?
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All right, well...
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Okay.
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I think Mahmoud's mad
because I asked if...
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I need to wear something
under the swimsuit.
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I get so tired of him
always getting so mad at me.
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It's like he really
resents me for being
American, I think.
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But he chose me.
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I'm ready. Let's go.
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Hi, baby.
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Bunuelo?
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- Bunuelo. What is it?
- Yes.
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- It is for cheese.
- Cheese?
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- It tastes like a donut.
- Yes, it's similar.
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- But it's cheese?
- Yeah.
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- It looks like bread.
- It is cheese, yes.
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That's weird.
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- Mmm-hmm.
- How are you feeling?
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I feel better
than I did yesterday.
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Yesterday, baby, you saw me
at probably my worst.
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I... am so grateful
that you were here
to take care of me.
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You know, you forced
me to drink stuff.
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You forced me to eat.
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"Do it!" You know,
regardless, you never
gave up.
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Do you know
anything about the court?
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Star messaged me about court.
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This is what she said.
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"Hey. They are going
to try to do court without
you at the moment."
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Great!
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- This is very good news!
- Yes, baby.
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Nothing is gonna stop us
from going glamping today.
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- Yeah!
- I'm so excite about that.
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It's my fifth day here
in Colombia
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and it just so happens
to be mine and Jeymi's
anniversary.
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A year ago today...
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is when me and Jeymi
started talking
for the first time.
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You need this...
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because it's a long,
long travel.
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This will help me a lot.
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- I like it. It's good.
- It's sexy.
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- Oh, yeah.
- Yeah! So sexy!
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I need to pack it for Zoe.
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- Yes, we've got
to pack Zoe's bag.
- Yeah.
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When I saw
these glamping bubbles...
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outside of Bogota
and I showed a picture
of it to Jeymi
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and she got real excited
about it
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'cause she had
seen them before
and never been.
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- All right!
- Go.
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I knew
immediately that's
where I wanted to go.
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I just wanted it to be
the perfect romantic setting
and spoil her.
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I'm excited for glamping.
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It'll be nice to destress
a little bit and just relax
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- as you deserve
to be pampered.
- Yeah.
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This is the best part.
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Yeah, you being pampered
is the best part. Absolutely.
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We are here, baby.
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Yay!
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Yay!
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So pretty!
I like this!
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So, you check in?
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- Okay. Go Zoe?
- Yeah, I'll take Zoe.
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Let's go. Let's go. Come on.
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Oh, wow.
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I love it!
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Oh, man!
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Oh, wow!
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Oh, it's so perfect.
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Even though I asked Jeymi
to marry me a month after
we started talking,
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that was through the phone.
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I really wanted
a traditional proposal.
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So I asked the people
at the glamping resort
to help me out...
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so that I could pull off
an amazing proposal.
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I'm so excited.
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I'm not so excited about
my heart-making skills
right now.
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I'm nervous
that she won't say yes...
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'cause she's scared
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because I have a very,
very hectic life.
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Now she's seen it all
up close and personal
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within the first few days
of being here.
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Look, guys, so shaky.
So nervous.
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Oh, man.
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That doesn't look like
a question mark at all.
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I don't even know
if she can read it...
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'cause it's not in Spanish.
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Okay, and done!
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Jeymi!
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- Jeymi?
- Yeah?
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I'm around here.
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Yeah.
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Caw-caw!
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- Hi!
- Go get your mama.
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- Hi.
- Be careful.
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It's slick right here.
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Here?
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Yes, you are here.
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- Oh!
- It's so cool.
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Oh, my God!
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What is this?
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- It's all for you, baby.
- Oh!
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Can you read...
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English?
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in English?
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Do you see what it says?
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- Marry me?
- Mmm-hmm.
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Will you marry me?
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Oh, my God!
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It's really...
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- It fits perfect.
- Yes.
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- I love you.
- I love you.
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I have a ring.
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I love everything.
It's perfect.
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I was nervous
that she wouldn't say yes
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because the last few days
were so stressful
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and she could have
said no and I wouldn't have
blamed her for saying no.
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I'm no saying no.
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I'm saying yes all day...
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for my life.
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That's all I want.
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He said he wanted
me to go back to the States.
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It's hard for me to believe
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you misunderstood
my intentions.
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This is a freakin'
nightmare right now.
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My heart
is dropping right now.
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because is she
still gonna be with me,
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or is she just gonna
go with her family's views?
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I have really bad ADD,
so, like, I, like,
start packing a box
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and then I, like,
see something over there
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and I'm like,
"Oh, I don't want
to lose that."
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And then I grab the thing
and I forget about the box
I was packing
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and I, like, start packing
another thing.
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It's really not easy to be me.
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I came back from
the Dominican Republic
a month ago...
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because I had to wait
for the school year to end
before I moved officially...
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and now I am giving up
my entire life
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in the United States
in exactly two days
and I have so much to do.
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I'm definitely stressed
that I'm not gonna get it
done in time.
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I have to hand in my keys
tomorrow by five o'clock,
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which means everything has
to be out of here and, like, clean
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and I don't know
how that's gonna happen.
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It's frustrating. This is
really hard to have to do
all by myself.
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I haven't had time
to, like, stop and, like,
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actually process the fact
that I'm leaving.
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But, I think, you know,
as I'm going through,
like, all the yearbooks,
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that was really impactful
because the thought that,
like, this is gonna be
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the first year in 19 years
that I'm not gonna be
teaching high school.
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So, that was hard.
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But, otherwise, it's been...
It's felt really good
to let go.
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But I'm super excited.
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I don't have to be away
from my husband anymore.
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I don't have to do
95,000 jobs.
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Like, I can just be
at peace for a minute
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and I'm really looking
forward to that.
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Earlier today, me, Isabel
and the kids, we came
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to their hometown of El Carmen
to spend the night
with their family,
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spend the weekend.
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00:21:37,758 --> 00:21:39,827
Honestly, it's the worst
feeling in the world
250
00:21:39,827 --> 00:21:44,241
to feel that somebody
does not like me
just because of who I am...
251
00:21:44,241 --> 00:21:49,413
and right now her dad
genuinely loves me,
her mom genuinely loves me.
252
00:21:49,413 --> 00:21:53,413
So I'm stressing
and I'm afraid that they'll
see me a different way
253
00:21:53,413 --> 00:21:56,000
than how they do now...
254
00:21:56,000 --> 00:21:59,172
especially because I hope
to get their blessing
to marry Isabel.
255
00:22:22,413 --> 00:22:23,413
Hmm.
256
00:23:40,344 --> 00:23:43,655
My heart is dropping
right now because...
257
00:23:43,655 --> 00:23:45,793
she just told me
that she doesn't know
who she would pick,
258
00:23:45,793 --> 00:23:47,448
me or her family.
259
00:23:48,137 --> 00:23:49,103
And...
260
00:23:50,068 --> 00:23:51,896
I did not expect that.
261
00:23:51,896 --> 00:23:53,965
Like, in the back
of my head, I thought
that no matter what
262
00:23:53,965 --> 00:23:55,896
that we were gonna
be together.
263
00:23:55,896 --> 00:24:01,448
It makes me feel like
our relationship isn't
as solid as I thought it was.
264
00:24:02,413 --> 00:24:05,655
So it's like,
if they don't accept me,
265
00:24:05,655 --> 00:24:07,034
is she still gonna be with me?
266
00:24:07,034 --> 00:24:10,103
Or is she just gonna go
with her family's views?
267
00:24:10,103 --> 00:24:13,758
So that's what really
scares me that everything
can be taken away from me
268
00:24:13,758 --> 00:24:16,206
with our relationship
because of somebody else.
269
00:24:48,034 --> 00:24:50,586
Last night,
I arrived in Morocco
270
00:24:50,586 --> 00:24:54,034
and me and Oussama
got in a huge fight.
271
00:24:54,034 --> 00:24:59,379
He said he wanted me
to go back to the States
after a month or two.
272
00:24:59,379 --> 00:25:02,517
This isn't
what I came over here for.
273
00:25:02,517 --> 00:25:06,448
I don't want a fiance
that's not sure if they
want to marry me.
274
00:25:06,448 --> 00:25:10,448
I didn't come over here
to be disrespected
like that.
275
00:25:10,448 --> 00:25:12,241
What about our plans?
276
00:25:12,241 --> 00:25:14,103
What happened to that?
277
00:25:14,103 --> 00:25:16,965
Someone tell me
I'm dreaming...
278
00:25:16,965 --> 00:25:19,517
'cause this is
a freaking nightmare
right now.
279
00:25:21,517 --> 00:25:22,482
That out...
280
00:25:23,758 --> 00:25:25,103
- Who is it?
- It's me.
281
00:25:35,482 --> 00:25:36,586
Okay?
282
00:25:42,103 --> 00:25:43,482
Thank you.
283
00:25:43,482 --> 00:25:46,862
Because of Moroccan law,
we're sleeping in
different rooms,
284
00:25:46,862 --> 00:25:50,517
so I haven't seen him
since our big blowup yesterday.
285
00:25:55,137 --> 00:25:56,793
Not really well.
286
00:25:57,482 --> 00:25:59,482
It was a really tough night.
287
00:26:05,931 --> 00:26:08,758
I still got a lot
to think about, Oussama.
288
00:26:10,551 --> 00:26:15,551
- I know.
- You have to understand
that that was like...
289
00:26:15,551 --> 00:26:18,896
slapping me in the face
with a different Oussama.
290
00:26:31,172 --> 00:26:34,551
Oussama, I was really
freaked out.
291
00:26:34,551 --> 00:26:38,206
Did you not know
I was moving over
here permanently?
292
00:27:06,517 --> 00:27:12,103
It's hard for me
to believe you misunderstood
my intentions
293
00:27:12,103 --> 00:27:13,241
and our plans.
294
00:27:57,896 --> 00:27:59,034
I guess.
295
00:28:02,413 --> 00:28:04,310
Last night, you said...
296
00:28:05,896 --> 00:28:07,000
you said that...
297
00:28:11,413 --> 00:28:13,172
Just say it. It's okay.
298
00:28:13,827 --> 00:28:15,689
Sorry.
299
00:28:15,689 --> 00:28:16,931
- Look at me.
- It's like, I would
have never...
300
00:28:16,931 --> 00:28:18,137
- Look at me.
- I would have never...
301
00:28:19,206 --> 00:28:21,896
had come had you told me that
302
00:28:21,896 --> 00:28:24,137
and you said,
"Well, that's why
I didn't tell you."
303
00:28:24,137 --> 00:28:29,310
And it's like,
you took something away
from me yesterday
304
00:28:29,310 --> 00:28:32,620
and, you know,
I need to feel trust again.
305
00:28:32,620 --> 00:28:34,275
- I know, yeah.
- Okay?
306
00:28:39,931 --> 00:28:42,827
Yeah, 'cause that wasn't
the Oussama I know and love.
307
00:28:44,206 --> 00:28:48,827
But you know I have
to protect myself and my kids
308
00:28:48,827 --> 00:28:51,724
and I want you to be sure
about me.
309
00:29:02,241 --> 00:29:04,689
Yeah, and I respect
your traditions,
310
00:29:04,689 --> 00:29:09,965
but you need to help me
to believe in Oussama again.
311
00:29:15,206 --> 00:29:17,034
And you can prove
that you love me?
312
00:29:29,758 --> 00:29:32,965
Well, let's just take it easy
and slow.
313
00:29:32,965 --> 00:29:36,379
- I want peace and I want
to feel secure.
- I want peace too, yeah.
314
00:29:36,379 --> 00:29:40,172
Okay, good.
That's something
that we can start on.
315
00:29:40,172 --> 00:29:41,241
Yeah.
316
00:29:41,241 --> 00:29:42,620
You know, I want to trust you.
317
00:29:42,620 --> 00:29:44,758
I want to feel
that feeling we had.
318
00:29:45,758 --> 00:29:48,689
I want that security,
that safety.
319
00:29:50,068 --> 00:29:52,827
So, there's no more misunderstandings.
320
00:29:52,827 --> 00:29:54,000
Yeah.
321
00:29:54,000 --> 00:29:56,965
He's being
so apologetic
322
00:29:56,965 --> 00:30:02,103
and you know me, it's like,
I'm thinking, "Okay, you know,
let me cut him some slack.
323
00:30:02,103 --> 00:30:04,862
Maybe it was
miscommunication."
324
00:30:04,862 --> 00:30:08,517
And it's like, you know,
I didn't come all the way here
and then just hurry up
325
00:30:08,517 --> 00:30:09,724
and fly back home.
326
00:30:09,724 --> 00:30:13,206
No, I've got
to see this to fruition,
327
00:30:13,206 --> 00:30:18,068
you know, to see
if he's gonna man-up
and be my Oussama.
328
00:30:18,068 --> 00:30:21,551
But, you know, it's hard work
to rebuild trust.
329
00:30:21,551 --> 00:30:24,620
And, you know,
it's like, "I don't know
if he can or not."
330
00:30:25,586 --> 00:30:26,758
So, you do feel all right now?
331
00:30:26,758 --> 00:30:28,103
- I feel better.
- Yeah.
332
00:30:28,103 --> 00:30:31,068
Lord have mercy,
it's been a lot.
333
00:30:34,758 --> 00:30:36,896
I'm going
back to the U.S.
334
00:30:36,896 --> 00:30:39,379
I don't even know when
I'll be able to come back.
335
00:30:39,379 --> 00:30:41,103
You are committed
to making this work
336
00:30:41,103 --> 00:30:42,586
while I'm gone, right?
337
00:31:06,965 --> 00:31:08,931
My gosh, I have so much stuff!
338
00:31:10,068 --> 00:31:13,862
Today is my final day
on my tourist visa in India
339
00:31:13,862 --> 00:31:15,724
and I'm going back to the US.
340
00:31:22,448 --> 00:31:25,896
The worst part is
that we were just starting
to make progress
341
00:31:25,896 --> 00:31:27,793
on spending time together,
342
00:31:27,793 --> 00:31:31,275
getting closer to telling
his family about
our relationship.
343
00:31:33,655 --> 00:31:36,103
And now I don't even know
when I'll be able
to come back.
344
00:31:36,103 --> 00:31:40,172
I have to apply
for another visa
and just wait.
345
00:31:42,034 --> 00:31:44,000
- Hi.
- Hi.
346
00:31:44,000 --> 00:31:45,689
Wow, you look so pretty.
347
00:31:45,689 --> 00:31:47,103
Thank you.
348
00:32:00,655 --> 00:32:02,517
I know.
349
00:32:02,517 --> 00:32:05,586
Like, you are committed
to making this work
while I'm gone, right?
350
00:32:15,000 --> 00:32:17,448
I know.
I'm gonna apply
as soon as I can.
351
00:32:17,448 --> 00:32:21,310
It's just, everything seems
so unsure.
352
00:32:23,344 --> 00:32:26,172
It really sucks
to be leaving Rishi again
353
00:32:26,172 --> 00:32:28,310
because we've waited
two years.
354
00:32:30,172 --> 00:32:34,413
And now, after 30 days,
we're being ripped apart again.
355
00:32:49,620 --> 00:32:51,482
I just want you back
as soon as possible.
356
00:32:54,172 --> 00:32:56,413
I'm completely heartbroken
right now.
357
00:32:59,275 --> 00:33:03,517
I don't know
when I will see Jen
again in person.
358
00:33:25,517 --> 00:33:27,034
- A surprise?
- Uh-huh.
359
00:33:36,413 --> 00:33:37,413
Will you marry me?
360
00:33:39,931 --> 00:33:41,241
Oh, my gosh!
361
00:33:43,758 --> 00:33:45,413
Yes!
362
00:33:45,413 --> 00:33:47,931
Of course I will! Oh, my gosh!
363
00:33:48,724 --> 00:33:51,689
Oh, look at that!
364
00:33:51,689 --> 00:33:55,034
Oh, my gosh.
365
00:34:05,172 --> 00:34:08,034
I feel really happy
and, like, overwhelmed.
366
00:34:08,034 --> 00:34:09,551
I'm just...
367
00:34:09,551 --> 00:34:11,448
Like, I did not expect this
to happen.
368
00:34:11,448 --> 00:34:12,758
This was a total surprise.
369
00:34:14,413 --> 00:34:15,551
You like?
370
00:34:15,551 --> 00:34:17,448
I love it. I love it!
371
00:34:17,448 --> 00:34:19,586
You cannot lose this one.
372
00:34:19,586 --> 00:34:23,620
I will not lose this one.
I will hold on tightly
to this one.
373
00:34:25,793 --> 00:34:28,103
I just want to propose
again to her,
374
00:34:28,103 --> 00:34:29,931
give or show
my commitment to her.
375
00:34:38,862 --> 00:34:41,896
- This was a great final gift
to leave me with.
- Uh-huh.
376
00:34:51,344 --> 00:34:55,965
It's so bittersweet
to be leaving Rishi
right after he proposes again.
377
00:34:57,689 --> 00:35:01,862
I have all these, like,
happy, excited, wonderful emotions
378
00:35:01,862 --> 00:35:04,275
and then on the other hand,
it's like,
379
00:35:04,275 --> 00:35:07,689
I can't help but feel worried...
380
00:35:07,689 --> 00:35:09,172
that the other shoe is
gonna drop.
381
00:35:11,103 --> 00:35:16,068
Something's gonna happen
to prevent me
from being with Rishi.
382
00:35:16,068 --> 00:35:21,275
There have been
so many roadblocks
with our relationship,
383
00:35:21,275 --> 00:35:24,344
but they say love is
worth fighting for...
384
00:35:25,758 --> 00:35:27,655
and I'm willing to put up
the good fight.
385
00:35:36,448 --> 00:35:39,517
I still have a lot of anxiety
about wearing
the swimsuit today,
386
00:35:39,517 --> 00:35:41,275
but I'm doing this
for Mahmoud.
387
00:35:41,275 --> 00:35:42,448
I don't wear hijab.
388
00:35:42,448 --> 00:35:45,000
I'm not going to wear a hijab
and I won't wear a hijab.
389
00:35:45,000 --> 00:35:46,275
I don't cover my hair.
390
00:37:31,103 --> 00:37:38,068
I don't think I knew exactly
what dressing modestly
actually truly meant
391
00:37:38,068 --> 00:37:40,551
until the first time
that I wore the swimsuit
392
00:37:40,551 --> 00:37:42,517
that I would need to wear.
393
00:37:42,517 --> 00:37:44,517
And it was a very
profound moment for me
394
00:37:44,517 --> 00:37:49,034
because, like, the reality
of it became very clear...
395
00:37:50,620 --> 00:37:51,758
and very fast.
396
00:38:00,724 --> 00:38:02,689
Not long after
I married him...
397
00:38:02,689 --> 00:38:04,758
Mahmoud and I were
at the Red Sea
398
00:38:04,758 --> 00:38:08,448
and there were
a lot of tourists
wearing bikinis
399
00:38:08,448 --> 00:38:10,620
or just like
a one-piece suit, whatever,
just normal.
400
00:38:11,655 --> 00:38:14,137
I remember feeling jealous,
401
00:38:14,137 --> 00:38:15,517
like, that was
how I used to be
402
00:38:15,517 --> 00:38:20,482
and then I've been
kind of taken from
that life and then...
403
00:38:20,482 --> 00:38:24,000
this is my new life
and I'm just not used to it
and I don't like it that much.
404
00:38:24,000 --> 00:38:25,172
You know, I don't like
to wear that.
405
00:38:27,482 --> 00:38:30,000
I still have a lot of anxiety
about wearing
the swimsuit today,
406
00:38:30,000 --> 00:38:31,965
but I'm doing this
for Mahmoud.
407
00:38:42,827 --> 00:38:47,241
I'm choosing not to wear
the hijab part of this
408
00:38:47,241 --> 00:38:50,000
bathing swimsuit because...
409
00:38:51,034 --> 00:38:52,172
I don't wear a hijab.
410
00:38:52,172 --> 00:38:54,724
I'm not going to wear a hijab
and I won't wear a hijab.
411
00:38:54,724 --> 00:38:56,000
I don't cover my hair.
412
00:39:28,344 --> 00:39:29,655
Yeah.
413
00:39:30,551 --> 00:39:31,655
Yeah, it's weird.
414
00:39:31,655 --> 00:39:33,551
And, like, the top
is a little...
415
00:39:35,827 --> 00:39:37,482
I get to look so cute
in everything.
416
00:39:40,379 --> 00:39:42,000
In my hooded bathing suit.
417
00:39:51,310 --> 00:39:52,724
Yeah.
418
00:39:52,724 --> 00:39:55,137
I think you should
try to wear it and see
how it feels, actually.
419
00:39:56,551 --> 00:39:57,724
You can borrow this one.
420
00:40:00,000 --> 00:40:01,172
Okay.
421
00:40:02,413 --> 00:40:03,482
Yeah, just so you know.
422
00:40:09,034 --> 00:40:10,241
Yeah.
423
00:40:13,758 --> 00:40:15,206
My husband is crazy.
424
00:40:22,413 --> 00:40:25,379
I wish I knew.
425
00:40:48,206 --> 00:40:50,241
You think that, like,
a little bit of compromise
426
00:40:50,241 --> 00:40:51,551
will go a long way, and, like,
427
00:40:51,551 --> 00:40:53,034
it doesn't have to be just
428
00:40:53,034 --> 00:40:55,034
your way or just my way,
429
00:40:55,034 --> 00:40:56,413
usually it's just your way.
430
00:41:05,482 --> 00:41:07,000
Right, honey,
but that's what I'm saying
431
00:41:07,000 --> 00:41:09,551
is, like, to compromise means
it, like, it hurts a little,
432
00:41:09,551 --> 00:41:11,310
like, it hurts
a little to do that,
433
00:41:11,310 --> 00:41:12,793
you have to move
434
00:41:12,793 --> 00:41:14,379
a little bit more
towards the center.
435
00:41:24,724 --> 00:41:25,586
Like what things?
436
00:41:27,448 --> 00:41:28,724
Okay, you will think.
437
00:41:32,448 --> 00:41:33,275
Okay.
438
00:41:56,793 --> 00:41:58,103
I'm not sure if...
439
00:41:59,655 --> 00:42:03,206
...Mahmoud will ever
compromise with me,
440
00:42:03,965 --> 00:42:05,931
but I'm not ready to give up
441
00:42:05,931 --> 00:42:07,655
hoping that that will happen.
442
00:42:11,206 --> 00:42:12,517
No, why do you need
to take that off?
443
00:42:15,034 --> 00:42:16,482
Oh, well, if it's not allowed,
444
00:42:16,482 --> 00:42:17,793
then I guess you will have
to take it off,
445
00:42:31,965 --> 00:42:33,862
When we're just
being ourselves
446
00:42:33,862 --> 00:42:36,275
with no criticizing,
no fighting,
447
00:42:36,275 --> 00:42:37,793
just hanging out,
448
00:42:37,793 --> 00:42:39,517
that's when we're really,
really happy.
449
00:42:41,482 --> 00:42:44,482
And that's why I need him
to meet me in the middle,
450
00:42:44,482 --> 00:42:46,103
and not make me
feel bad about it.
451
00:42:50,034 --> 00:42:51,103
Mahmoud.
452
00:42:55,206 --> 00:42:56,965
No, my love.
453
00:42:56,965 --> 00:42:58,827
You started that, okay?
454
00:43:03,586 --> 00:43:07,000
Can you explain to me
what all this is?
455
00:43:10,103 --> 00:43:12,103
- Blood sausage maybe.
- Yes.
456
00:43:13,137 --> 00:43:14,620
I'm not eating that!
457
00:43:14,620 --> 00:43:17,000
I don't know what
it is, it sounds gross.
458
00:43:17,000 --> 00:43:18,551
no [clicks tongue],
not doing it.
459
00:43:21,551 --> 00:43:24,965
I'm really nervous
about living with Yohan.
460
00:43:24,965 --> 00:43:28,896
I think that our life
together might not be as easy
as our vacations together.
461
00:43:28,896 --> 00:43:30,551
But I'm moving towards love.
462
00:43:48,931 --> 00:43:52,620
Now that I have shipped
all of the boxes and handed
in the keys to my apartment,
463
00:43:52,620 --> 00:43:55,310
I slept my last night
in New York in a hotel.
464
00:43:56,862 --> 00:44:02,344
I feel like this is
my entire life in 16 cajas
465
00:44:02,344 --> 00:44:06,068
and 11 suitcases?
466
00:44:06,068 --> 00:44:09,068
How many suitcases
do I have? One, two,
three, four, five, six, seven,
467
00:44:09,068 --> 00:44:13,000
eight, nine, ten.
Ten suitcases.
468
00:44:13,000 --> 00:44:14,862
A lot of suitcases.
469
00:44:14,862 --> 00:44:18,379
This last week, I think,
has been one of the most
stressful weeks of my life.
470
00:44:19,551 --> 00:44:22,275
Help.
471
00:44:22,275 --> 00:44:24,689
It's gonna roll on me.
472
00:44:26,620 --> 00:44:28,034
I'm leaving behind my job
473
00:44:28,034 --> 00:44:30,896
and I'm leaving behind
a really solid community
that I've built.
474
00:44:34,827 --> 00:44:36,689
Teaching is my life,
it's my passion,
475
00:44:36,689 --> 00:44:40,275
and giving up my career
for the last 19 years,
476
00:44:40,275 --> 00:44:42,551
to move to a foreign country
477
00:44:42,551 --> 00:44:44,758
is one of the hardest
things about my move.
478
00:44:47,896 --> 00:44:49,000
But I'm moving towards love,
479
00:44:50,965 --> 00:44:53,965
I'm moving towards, hopefully,
some more peace in my life,
480
00:44:54,793 --> 00:44:56,241
I'm moving towards
a partnership.
481
00:44:58,275 --> 00:45:01,310
So, I'm moving towards
all the things that I know
482
00:45:01,310 --> 00:45:03,137
are going to
make my life better,
483
00:45:03,137 --> 00:45:05,620
but I don't think that
necessarily makes it easy
484
00:45:05,620 --> 00:45:08,965
to leave behind the life
that I've created in New York.
485
00:45:15,517 --> 00:45:17,620
Now that my bags
are all checked
486
00:45:17,620 --> 00:45:19,137
and I'm just sitting at the
gate, waiting for my plane,
487
00:45:19,137 --> 00:45:21,379
I feel like this is the
final moment where
I'm actually like,
488
00:45:21,379 --> 00:45:25,862
"Okay, I'm actually
doing this. I'm moving to
another country. Here we go."
489
00:45:37,517 --> 00:45:40,344
I'm really nervous about
living with Yohan.
490
00:45:40,344 --> 00:45:43,344
I think that a
couple of things
came up on my last trip
491
00:45:43,344 --> 00:45:45,344
that were indicators
that our lives together
492
00:45:45,344 --> 00:45:47,758
might not be as easy
as our vacations together.
493
00:45:50,172 --> 00:45:51,724
I made a huge
amount of sacrifices,
494
00:45:51,724 --> 00:45:53,724
I'm sacrificing my career,
495
00:45:53,724 --> 00:45:55,413
I'm sacrificing my community
496
00:45:55,413 --> 00:45:57,793
of supportive friends.
497
00:45:57,793 --> 00:46:00,482
I'm taking a lot of risk
by moving down there
498
00:46:00,482 --> 00:46:04,000
without fully knowing whether
everything's gonna work out.
499
00:46:23,413 --> 00:46:25,379
Okay, baby,
I think its
500
00:46:26,517 --> 00:46:29,172
good idea for cheers
501
00:46:29,172 --> 00:46:31,482
for us, for the rest
of your life.
502
00:46:35,413 --> 00:46:38,655
- For this amazing day,
thank you so much.
- Thank you.
503
00:46:40,344 --> 00:46:43,827
Tonight, Kris proposed
me marriage,
504
00:46:43,827 --> 00:46:46,241
and said yes.
505
00:46:47,862 --> 00:46:50,965
Okay, so can you explain to me
506
00:46:50,965 --> 00:46:52,862
what all this is?
507
00:46:52,862 --> 00:46:53,965
Okay,
508
00:46:53,965 --> 00:46:57,862
here is very traditional
in Colombia.
509
00:46:58,586 --> 00:46:59,413
Asado.
510
00:47:00,103 --> 00:47:01,965
-"Asalo?"
- Asado.
511
00:47:01,965 --> 00:47:03,931
Is veal, chicken,
512
00:47:03,931 --> 00:47:06,206
and chorizo.
513
00:47:06,206 --> 00:47:07,034
Chorizo.
514
00:47:07,620 --> 00:47:09,206
And here is a fritanga.
515
00:47:10,482 --> 00:47:11,413
What does that mean?
516
00:47:11,931 --> 00:47:12,758
It's...
517
00:47:15,827 --> 00:47:17,896
- Blood sausage maybe.
- Yes.
518
00:47:18,931 --> 00:47:20,448
- Never had it. Yeah.
- It's new?
519
00:47:22,793 --> 00:47:25,103
Our celebratory dinner...
520
00:47:26,344 --> 00:47:29,827
consists of a huge
platter of meats.
521
00:47:30,620 --> 00:47:31,896
I'm a really picky eater,
522
00:47:31,896 --> 00:47:33,862
and I'm like, "Oh, heck no,
523
00:47:33,862 --> 00:47:35,965
I'm not eating that."
524
00:47:35,965 --> 00:47:37,758
I don't know what it is,
it's sounds gross,
525
00:47:37,758 --> 00:47:39,034
no [clicks tongue],
not doing it.
526
00:47:40,344 --> 00:47:41,931
But I'll pretend to eat,
527
00:47:41,931 --> 00:47:43,896
and, and make
the moment perfect.
528
00:47:44,965 --> 00:47:45,793
So...
529
00:47:52,758 --> 00:47:53,724
Yes.
530
00:47:53,724 --> 00:47:56,827
Uh, the wedding planning
call me...
531
00:47:56,827 --> 00:47:59,965
- Yeah?
- ...because I need
ask question maybe.
532
00:48:15,137 --> 00:48:16,862
The wedding,
your family coming?
533
00:48:17,965 --> 00:48:21,448
I think my daughter, Starr,
is going to come.
534
00:48:21,448 --> 00:48:23,862
- Okay.
- What about your family?
535
00:48:23,862 --> 00:48:26,206
Will anybody in your family be
able to come?
536
00:48:32,172 --> 00:48:35,551
You don't think your mom
would want to come
to the wedding?
537
00:48:38,068 --> 00:48:39,172
No.
538
00:48:39,172 --> 00:48:41,034
My mother,
539
00:48:41,034 --> 00:48:43,379
she don't know marry you.
540
00:48:44,724 --> 00:48:47,655
And she don't know
I'm lesbian.
541
00:49:29,758 --> 00:49:33,586
Right now, it is too much
for me, for my family,
542
00:49:33,586 --> 00:49:36,275
and it's no easy to say,
"Hi, I'm lesbian."
543
00:49:37,103 --> 00:49:38,103
I don't feel...
544
00:49:39,275 --> 00:49:41,275
...ready for this, you know.
545
00:49:41,275 --> 00:49:42,793
Why do you think it's too much
546
00:49:43,620 --> 00:49:44,517
to tell your mom?
547
00:50:11,448 --> 00:50:12,275
Okay.
548
00:50:14,034 --> 00:50:15,896
It's sad to me that
549
00:50:15,896 --> 00:50:19,586
she hasn't really sat down
and discuss any of this...
550
00:50:20,896 --> 00:50:22,379
...with her mom.
551
00:50:22,379 --> 00:50:25,172
As a mother, I would be hurt
552
00:50:26,034 --> 00:50:27,931
knowing that
553
00:50:27,931 --> 00:50:30,724
my child isn't feeling
comfortable enough
554
00:50:30,724 --> 00:50:32,896
to come to me and talk to me
about something
555
00:50:32,896 --> 00:50:34,413
and had to lie to me
556
00:50:35,206 --> 00:50:36,344
for a long time.
557
00:50:39,758 --> 00:50:41,965
I just, I would be
devastated by that,
558
00:50:41,965 --> 00:50:45,379
and I worry that her mother
is gonna be devastated
559
00:50:46,310 --> 00:50:47,344
when she finds out.
560
00:50:48,896 --> 00:50:52,241
I waited a long time
to come out because I feared,
561
00:50:52,241 --> 00:50:55,413
you know, mainly,
my mom's reaction, you know,
562
00:50:56,137 --> 00:50:58,344
and she was a lot
563
00:50:58,344 --> 00:51:00,758
cooler about it than
I thought she would be,
564
00:51:00,758 --> 00:51:01,827
you know, it kinda
made me wish
565
00:51:01,827 --> 00:51:02,965
I would've come out sooner.
566
00:51:04,241 --> 00:51:05,310
So,
567
00:51:05,310 --> 00:51:06,137
you know...
568
00:51:07,586 --> 00:51:08,827
...you never really know
569
00:51:08,827 --> 00:51:11,655
how they're gonna react,
you know.
570
00:51:13,862 --> 00:51:16,758
Do you think there will be
any time later that
you will tell your mom?
571
00:51:17,793 --> 00:51:19,344
Maybe few months.
572
00:51:20,206 --> 00:51:21,517
Few years, I don't know.
573
00:51:24,172 --> 00:51:26,413
I wish Jeymi would
say something to her family
574
00:51:26,413 --> 00:51:28,655
before we marry.
575
00:51:31,137 --> 00:51:34,689
But I can't be mad
at Jeymi because...
576
00:51:36,137 --> 00:51:38,103
...took me till now
577
00:51:38,103 --> 00:51:39,758
to say something to my mom.
578
00:51:40,931 --> 00:51:42,413
Only Jeymi's gonna know
579
00:51:42,413 --> 00:51:44,413
when she's ready
to talk to her mom
580
00:51:45,137 --> 00:51:46,965
about us.
581
00:51:47,965 --> 00:51:49,620
But I wish it was different.
582
00:51:52,827 --> 00:51:54,344
I'm happy right now.
583
00:51:54,344 --> 00:51:56,482
I'm so happy,
don't worry for this.
584
00:51:56,482 --> 00:51:59,413
My family is part of me, yes,
585
00:51:59,413 --> 00:52:01,137
but it's my moment,
586
00:52:02,172 --> 00:52:03,827
um, I need happy.
587
00:52:11,448 --> 00:52:13,586
Look at me, I'm on a camel.
588
00:52:13,586 --> 00:52:15,379
- Hey!
- Wait, wait, wait, wait, wait.
589
00:52:15,379 --> 00:52:17,724
When I'm out
in public with Oussama,
590
00:52:17,724 --> 00:52:19,137
you know, we get
a lot of looks.
591
00:52:21,724 --> 00:52:25,793
I'm thinking, "He might
be a little embarrassed
to be seen with me."
592
00:52:29,206 --> 00:52:30,344
He didn't
think to mention that
593
00:52:30,344 --> 00:52:33,655
they were trying to
arrange a marriage for him?
594
00:52:33,655 --> 00:52:35,068
He didn't tell me about that
595
00:52:35,068 --> 00:52:38,206
because he thought
that he might lose me.
596
00:52:38,206 --> 00:52:39,310
And you believe him?
597
00:53:00,137 --> 00:53:02,310
Oh, wow.
598
00:53:02,310 --> 00:53:05,068
- Oh, it is my heaven.
- Yeah.
599
00:53:05,068 --> 00:53:06,758
Look at how beautiful.
600
00:53:08,793 --> 00:53:13,137
Earlier today, Oussama
and I cleared the air,
601
00:53:13,137 --> 00:53:16,931
and this is my first full day
in Morocco.
602
00:53:20,758 --> 00:53:22,793
At this point,
I just wanna hit
603
00:53:22,793 --> 00:53:25,344
the reset button
and start over,
604
00:53:25,344 --> 00:53:27,931
and Oussama said,
"Hey, let's go to the beach."
605
00:53:29,275 --> 00:53:31,896
I claim this beach for Debbie.
606
00:53:31,896 --> 00:53:32,896
Yup.
607
00:53:32,896 --> 00:53:35,172
This is Debbie's beach.
608
00:53:35,172 --> 00:53:38,034
The ocean is just
so healing for me,
609
00:53:38,034 --> 00:53:39,862
and it's exactly what we need.
610
00:53:39,862 --> 00:53:42,172
Maybe this is the start
611
00:53:42,172 --> 00:53:44,034
of everything going right.
612
00:53:45,517 --> 00:53:48,586
Oh, God, it doesn't get
any better than this.
613
00:53:52,275 --> 00:53:55,655
- Look at the sun coming down,
this is beautiful.
- Yup, yup.
614
00:53:57,241 --> 00:53:58,862
- Oh, look, look, look,
look, look, look.
- Ah, yup.
615
00:53:58,862 --> 00:54:00,793
- Oh, my God.
- Gosh.
616
00:54:00,793 --> 00:54:02,896
Hey, hey.
617
00:54:02,896 --> 00:54:04,310
- Do you want to ride a camel?
- Can I touch the camel?
618
00:54:05,241 --> 00:54:07,310
Oh, my God.
619
00:54:07,310 --> 00:54:08,931
I see the camel,
620
00:54:08,931 --> 00:54:11,068
I've always wanted
to ride a camel.
621
00:54:11,655 --> 00:54:13,724
Hi, Mister Camel.
622
00:54:13,724 --> 00:54:15,310
Are you nice, boy?
623
00:54:15,310 --> 00:54:16,586
- Oh.
- Be careful with the camel.
624
00:54:16,586 --> 00:54:19,344
I love you, camel.
625
00:54:19,344 --> 00:54:21,965
- Can I, can we please,
please, please.
- Yup, yup, you can.
626
00:54:21,965 --> 00:54:23,379
Yup, yup, yup, yup.
627
00:54:24,413 --> 00:54:26,034
Do they got
a seat belt?
628
00:54:26,034 --> 00:54:27,241
- What?
- A seat belt?
629
00:54:29,586 --> 00:54:31,413
He's big
and he's thick and,
630
00:54:31,413 --> 00:54:33,034
and he's bend down
on his knees,
631
00:54:33,034 --> 00:54:35,724
and I'm thinking,
"How can I get up over him?"
632
00:54:35,724 --> 00:54:38,241
And so, I'm saying to myself,
I'm willing myself,
633
00:54:38,241 --> 00:54:41,827
"I am getting on this camel
come hell or highwater,
634
00:54:41,827 --> 00:54:45,413
and I'm going for a camel ride
on the beach in Morocco."
635
00:54:49,137 --> 00:54:50,586
- Help me up, Oussama.
- Do it carefully.
636
00:54:50,586 --> 00:54:52,551
Look at me, I'm on a camel.
637
00:54:52,551 --> 00:54:54,413
- Hey!
- Wait, wait, wait, wait, wait.
638
00:54:56,310 --> 00:54:59,103
Oh, Oussama,
you're too skinny
to hold on to,
639
00:55:07,862 --> 00:55:08,793
Don't worry,
don't worry.
640
00:55:14,379 --> 00:55:15,862
Don't let me go nowhere.
641
00:55:15,862 --> 00:55:19,724
- Oh, my Gosh,
look at--
- Don't worry.
642
00:55:19,724 --> 00:55:21,965
Wild camel ride!
643
00:55:21,965 --> 00:55:23,172
Whoo-hoo!
644
00:55:34,344 --> 00:55:36,379
Whoo-hoo. Yee-haw!
645
00:55:36,379 --> 00:55:37,655
Yee-haw!
646
00:55:44,137 --> 00:55:47,793
I'm on a camel!
647
00:55:47,793 --> 00:55:50,965
The camel ride,
I thought it would be
kinda like riding a horse,
648
00:55:51,620 --> 00:55:53,551
but, Lord have mercy,
649
00:55:53,551 --> 00:55:55,586
it's like you're
on a teeter-totter
650
00:55:55,586 --> 00:55:57,517
of something very unstable.
651
00:55:58,241 --> 00:55:59,931
I'm hanging on to Oussama,
652
00:55:59,931 --> 00:56:02,206
who is no, no bigger
than a tooth pick,
653
00:56:02,206 --> 00:56:03,758
I'm clinging to him
for dear life,
654
00:56:03,758 --> 00:56:05,551
but I'm not getting off
the camel, man,
655
00:56:05,551 --> 00:56:08,620
it's, like, "I'm going
on my camel ride."
656
00:56:13,206 --> 00:56:16,241
I'm on the camel
with you, and this is, like,
657
00:56:16,241 --> 00:56:19,034
the most wonderful experience,
658
00:56:19,034 --> 00:56:21,379
I feel my inner child
659
00:56:21,379 --> 00:56:23,206
is finally free.
660
00:56:23,206 --> 00:56:24,689
No, no, no, no,
don't worry, don't worry.
661
00:56:24,689 --> 00:56:26,758
Don't worry, don't worry,
don't worry, don't worry.
662
00:56:28,275 --> 00:56:29,724
Don't worry.
663
00:56:29,724 --> 00:56:32,172
I wanna ride a camel
with you everyday.
664
00:56:34,896 --> 00:56:37,517
Thank you, thank you.
665
00:56:37,517 --> 00:56:40,896
Oh, that was a biggest fun
I've ever had in,
666
00:56:40,896 --> 00:56:42,896
- I don't know how long.
- Yeah.
667
00:56:42,896 --> 00:56:43,827
Whoo!
668
00:56:46,344 --> 00:56:47,379
Oh,
669
00:56:47,379 --> 00:56:49,758
I'm sorry
I was so enthusiastic.
670
00:56:49,758 --> 00:56:51,931
No, no, it doesn't--
No, I want you to be happy.
671
00:56:52,758 --> 00:56:54,448
I just loved it, Oussama.
672
00:56:54,448 --> 00:56:56,482
Thank you
for putting up with me.
673
00:56:56,482 --> 00:56:57,620
Don't worry, I told you,
674
00:56:57,620 --> 00:56:59,103
if you're happy,
I'm happy, too.
675
00:57:00,448 --> 00:57:01,862
Like, when you ride the camel,
676
00:57:10,103 --> 00:57:11,000
But I want you--
677
00:57:13,482 --> 00:57:15,103
- Were you embarrassed by me?
- No.
678
00:57:16,379 --> 00:57:17,689
When I am with you,
679
00:57:22,965 --> 00:57:25,655
You know, when I'm out
in public with Oussama,
680
00:57:25,655 --> 00:57:27,620
you know,
we get a lot of looks.
681
00:57:27,620 --> 00:57:30,137
And even though
he says he doesn't care,
682
00:57:30,137 --> 00:57:33,172
I'm thinking, "He might be
a little self-conscious."
683
00:57:33,172 --> 00:57:35,137
And I don't ever want him
684
00:57:35,137 --> 00:57:38,655
to feel ashamed
or embarrassed.
685
00:57:38,655 --> 00:57:41,931
- So, you, I didn't embarrass
you because--
- No, no, no, you don't.
686
00:57:41,931 --> 00:57:43,344
- I, I don't wanna do that.
- Trust me, you don't,
687
00:57:43,344 --> 00:57:44,793
because I want
to see you happy.
688
00:57:44,793 --> 00:57:48,068
'Cause I wouldn't never,
never want you to be
ashamed of me.
689
00:57:50,413 --> 00:57:51,241
I, I'm--
690
00:57:56,034 --> 00:57:56,931
Thank you.
691
00:58:05,965 --> 00:58:09,310
Thank you for, for being
strong like that. Thank you.
692
00:58:16,551 --> 00:58:17,724
Oussama is telling me that
693
00:58:17,724 --> 00:58:20,000
he loves me and cares for me,
694
00:58:20,000 --> 00:58:24,758
and we're surrounded by
just everything beautiful
and wonderful and,
695
00:58:24,758 --> 00:58:27,413
you know,
I'm feeling hopeful again.
696
00:58:27,413 --> 00:58:31,206
This is my Oussama,
and I wanna move
forward with him.
697
00:58:31,206 --> 00:58:34,586
- I'm gonna get my feet in,
wet in the water.
- Okay, let's go.
698
00:58:34,586 --> 00:58:36,379
And after
the fight last night,
699
00:58:36,379 --> 00:58:40,965
I need to make sure
me and Oussama stay
on the same page
700
00:58:40,965 --> 00:58:42,724
about logistics,
701
00:58:42,724 --> 00:58:43,827
our plans,
702
00:58:43,827 --> 00:58:45,827
so I'm keeping both eyes open.
703
00:59:20,793 --> 00:59:22,275
Wow, such a whirlwind.
704
00:59:23,724 --> 00:59:25,551
After traveling 20 hours,
705
00:59:25,551 --> 00:59:27,620
I finally made it back
to Oklahoma
706
00:59:28,586 --> 00:59:30,275
I feel really defeated.
707
00:59:30,275 --> 00:59:32,551
It's devastating.
708
00:59:32,551 --> 00:59:36,034
I didn't want to be
back here so soon.
709
00:59:39,103 --> 00:59:42,344
I'm nervous to talk
to my family about
710
00:59:42,344 --> 00:59:43,689
just everything,
711
00:59:43,689 --> 00:59:45,689
and I need their support,
712
00:59:45,689 --> 00:59:47,896
but I'm not sure I'll get it.
713
00:59:47,896 --> 00:59:49,827
- Hi. Oh, my gosh.
- Hi.
714
00:59:49,827 --> 00:59:51,758
- You brought me boots.
- You're gonna need these.
715
00:59:53,896 --> 00:59:57,379
- Look, look how super classy
my fashion sense has become.
- Yeah.
716
01:00:00,586 --> 01:00:02,241
- Are you ready? Okay.
- Yeah.
717
01:00:02,896 --> 01:00:03,724
Let's go.
718
01:00:12,310 --> 01:00:15,275
- I didn't expect you
to come home.
- Yeah.
719
01:00:15,275 --> 01:00:18,103
I totally screwed up
on the visa,
I feel so dumb.
720
01:00:18,103 --> 01:00:21,068
I was reluctant to come back
721
01:00:21,068 --> 01:00:24,241
because I was, like,
I'm gonna hear it,
722
01:00:25,172 --> 01:00:27,241
"Like, how dumb are you?"
723
01:00:27,241 --> 01:00:29,896
- You--
- happens.
724
01:00:29,896 --> 01:00:32,896
- happens.
- happens,
and it did happen.
725
01:00:32,896 --> 01:00:34,758
So I'm, like, so glad that
you picked me up
726
01:00:34,758 --> 01:00:36,482
because I wanted
to talk to you first
727
01:00:36,482 --> 01:00:37,862
and I
I didn't wanna--
728
01:00:37,862 --> 01:00:38,896
So how was everything?
729
01:00:38,896 --> 01:00:40,034
I haven't had a chance
to talk to you.
730
01:00:40,034 --> 01:00:41,758
Like, how was it when you
first saw him?
731
01:00:42,344 --> 01:00:43,827
I was really emotional,
732
01:00:43,827 --> 01:00:45,689
and, you know,
I'm always the one
to cry, right?
733
01:00:45,689 --> 01:00:46,931
Did you get emotional?
734
01:00:46,931 --> 01:00:49,793
A little bit, but I think,
not as much because he cried.
735
01:00:49,793 --> 01:00:51,275
- It's--
- Aw.
736
01:00:51,275 --> 01:00:52,275
It was really sweet.
737
01:00:52,275 --> 01:00:53,931
- Aw.
- Yeah.
738
01:00:53,931 --> 01:00:55,551
So I know,
the last time
739
01:00:55,551 --> 01:00:59,068
when you got back from India,
you were talking about
how passionate...
740
01:00:59,068 --> 01:01:01,827
- Yes. Yes.
- ...your lovemaking was.
741
01:01:01,827 --> 01:01:04,034
Was it as good as last time?
742
01:01:04,034 --> 01:01:06,310
Okay, so, like,
when we kissed and stuff,
743
01:01:06,310 --> 01:01:10,206
like, I still felt that same
attraction and all that,
744
01:01:10,206 --> 01:01:12,965
but I, I had a conversation
with him about,
745
01:01:12,965 --> 01:01:14,793
I wanna feel secure
in this relationship,
746
01:01:14,793 --> 01:01:16,724
I wanna feel connected,
747
01:01:16,724 --> 01:01:20,068
so I wanna wait
until we actually get
married to be intimate.
748
01:01:20,068 --> 01:01:22,655
- So you didn't have sex
while you were there?
- No. No.
749
01:01:23,310 --> 01:01:24,620
Did he try?
750
01:01:24,620 --> 01:01:26,000
- No, but--
- He respected it?
751
01:01:26,000 --> 01:01:27,275
He respected it.
752
01:01:27,275 --> 01:01:29,379
So did you guys, like,
spend time cuddling
753
01:01:29,379 --> 01:01:31,034
- and, like, loving
on each other.
- Yeah, we did a little--
754
01:01:31,034 --> 01:01:32,137
Yes, we did.
755
01:01:34,172 --> 01:01:37,344
Did he ever get a
while you guys were cuddling?
756
01:01:37,344 --> 01:01:40,482
- You know,
I'm pretty sure he did.
- Yeah.
757
01:01:52,034 --> 01:01:53,724
The prodigal daughter returns.
758
01:01:53,724 --> 01:01:55,827
We've killed
the fattened calf.
759
01:01:57,862 --> 01:01:59,103
- Hi.
- I love you.
760
01:01:59,103 --> 01:02:01,275
Don't tell
anybody in India.
761
01:02:02,586 --> 01:02:04,172
Well, are you ready to eat?
762
01:02:04,172 --> 01:02:05,758
- Well, I guess you can--
- Yes. Yes.
763
01:02:05,758 --> 01:02:07,103
You can give
your brother a hug.
764
01:02:08,103 --> 01:02:10,689
I guess.
765
01:02:10,689 --> 01:02:12,344
- Yeah, sure you are.
- You look good.
766
01:02:12,344 --> 01:02:14,103
Thank you.
767
01:02:14,103 --> 01:02:16,068
- I loved being cooked for.
- Yeah.
768
01:02:19,344 --> 01:02:21,896
So what have you guys
been talking about me
behind my back?
769
01:02:21,896 --> 01:02:23,103
What have you been saying?
770
01:02:23,103 --> 01:02:25,103
Do you want me to nice
or do you want me to be...
771
01:02:26,448 --> 01:02:28,551
Oh, did he? Is it?
772
01:02:28,551 --> 01:02:29,793
He gave you a ring?
773
01:02:29,793 --> 01:02:32,413
- He reproposed in the street.
- Huh.
774
01:02:32,413 --> 01:02:33,965
Why did we not hear--
Why didn't--
775
01:02:33,965 --> 01:02:35,689
We didn't hear about this
You heard about this?
776
01:02:36,586 --> 01:02:37,758
- Okay.
- No.
777
01:02:37,758 --> 01:02:39,689
- Yeah.
- You renewed
your engagement?
778
01:02:39,689 --> 01:02:42,862
Yeah, we pretty much just
renewed the engagement.
779
01:02:42,862 --> 01:02:44,413
- That's all?
- Did he get down on one knee?
Did he do that?
780
01:02:44,413 --> 01:02:45,965
- Yeah, he did. Yeah.
- Really?
781
01:02:45,965 --> 01:02:48,758
I didn't know they did
things like that in India.
782
01:02:51,551 --> 01:02:52,448
When is the wedding?
783
01:02:55,103 --> 01:02:56,931
- Is it soon?
- Well...
784
01:02:56,931 --> 01:02:58,586
You guys didn't set
a wedding date?
785
01:02:58,586 --> 01:03:01,586
There are still
a lot of issues that
we need to work out.
786
01:03:02,137 --> 01:03:02,965
Okay.
787
01:03:04,448 --> 01:03:06,000
How did
it go with his family?
788
01:03:06,827 --> 01:03:07,655
Um...
789
01:03:08,241 --> 01:03:09,068
Look,
790
01:03:09,620 --> 01:03:10,758
I met the family.
791
01:03:10,758 --> 01:03:12,241
- You did meet
the mother?
- I did.
792
01:03:12,241 --> 01:03:14,655
- He introduced me as a friend.
- What?
793
01:03:14,655 --> 01:03:18,103
And, um, I found out that
they have been
794
01:03:18,103 --> 01:03:20,275
trying to arrange
a marriage for him.
795
01:03:21,206 --> 01:03:22,137
Really?
796
01:03:22,137 --> 01:03:24,862
His mom and aunt and uncle
have been looking
797
01:03:24,862 --> 01:03:28,000
for a wife for him
for the last two years.
798
01:03:29,206 --> 01:03:30,241
Did that make you mad?
799
01:03:31,000 --> 01:03:32,517
It would piss me off
800
01:03:32,517 --> 01:03:34,172
if I was you and I heard that,
801
01:03:34,172 --> 01:03:36,620
or I would say something
to them myself.
802
01:03:36,620 --> 01:03:38,000
I wanted to say something,
and I said,
803
01:03:38,000 --> 01:03:40,241
"No way, he's not getting off
that easy."
804
01:03:40,241 --> 01:03:42,310
Because if I say something
805
01:03:42,310 --> 01:03:45,620
- then he doesn't have
to tell them.
- Mmm-hmm.
806
01:03:45,620 --> 01:03:47,793
I've said it,
I've done it for him.
807
01:03:47,793 --> 01:03:49,172
- So you want him to be
the one to say it.
- Yeah.
808
01:03:50,379 --> 01:03:52,275
He didn't think to mention
that they were trying
809
01:03:52,275 --> 01:03:54,655
to arrange a marriage for him?
810
01:03:54,655 --> 01:03:56,965
And he said that
he didn't tell me about that
811
01:03:56,965 --> 01:03:59,758
because he thought
that he might lose me.
812
01:03:59,758 --> 01:04:00,862
And you believe him?
813
01:04:01,482 --> 01:04:02,517
I do.
814
01:04:03,724 --> 01:04:04,827
I don't believe him.
815
01:04:06,551 --> 01:04:07,931
- You don't
believe him.
- Mmm-mmm.
816
01:04:09,000 --> 01:04:10,896
After Jennifer moved
to India for him,
817
01:04:10,896 --> 01:04:13,206
I would've expected
some type of
818
01:04:13,206 --> 01:04:15,172
plan to the next level
of commitment,
819
01:04:15,172 --> 01:04:17,482
which I see as marriage.
820
01:04:17,482 --> 01:04:19,793
I think Rishi
proposing a second time
821
01:04:19,793 --> 01:04:21,137
without, like,
telling his mother
822
01:04:21,137 --> 01:04:24,896
just looks like a tactic
of, uh, stalling.
823
01:04:24,896 --> 01:04:26,586
He doesn't sound
committed to you,
824
01:04:26,586 --> 01:04:28,000
I'm gonna throw that
out there for you.
825
01:04:29,758 --> 01:04:32,413
I do understand that
you guys have your doubts,
826
01:04:32,413 --> 01:04:35,862
but after we talked
about all these things
827
01:04:35,862 --> 01:04:38,206
that, that he's ready
to compromise on,
828
01:04:38,206 --> 01:04:40,965
he said that, um,
829
01:04:40,965 --> 01:04:44,241
he would move out
of his mother's home,
830
01:04:44,241 --> 01:04:46,827
which is not gonna go
over well at all.
831
01:04:46,827 --> 01:04:49,172
What does that mean?
He's going to move out?
832
01:04:49,172 --> 01:04:50,827
Oh, that we will get
an apartment together,
833
01:04:50,827 --> 01:04:53,000
that we can live separately
from the family,
834
01:04:53,000 --> 01:04:54,379
we don't have to live
in a joint family.
835
01:04:54,379 --> 01:04:56,551
After you married him.
836
01:04:56,551 --> 01:05:00,310
Yeah, and so,
I think he's committed
to this relationship.
837
01:05:00,310 --> 01:05:02,034
I don't believe he's committed
838
01:05:02,034 --> 01:05:06,103
to doing the things that
you really need him to do.
839
01:05:06,103 --> 01:05:10,586
I don't think he's gonna
leave his mother,
840
01:05:10,586 --> 01:05:14,862
'cause you know
that those are traditions
that come out of India
841
01:05:14,862 --> 01:05:17,862
that are pretty hard-core.
You know?
842
01:05:17,862 --> 01:05:20,068
They can still look
for him abroad.
843
01:05:20,068 --> 01:05:21,827
I don't see it.
844
01:05:24,793 --> 01:05:28,034
Hearing my family
say they don't trust Rishi,
845
01:05:28,034 --> 01:05:31,103
it's disappointing
but it's not surprising.
846
01:05:31,103 --> 01:05:33,275
I don't wanna throw
this relationship away
847
01:05:33,275 --> 01:05:35,965
because I feel like
there's something there.
848
01:05:35,965 --> 01:05:38,862
But there's nothing more
that I can do on my end
849
01:05:38,862 --> 01:05:41,413
other than keep in contact
with him
850
01:05:41,413 --> 01:05:43,586
and try to make it work.
851
01:05:43,586 --> 01:05:48,379
I'm really hoping
that Rishi and I can manage
to stay connected
852
01:05:48,379 --> 01:05:51,586
and not lose any of the
momentum that we had going.
853
01:05:51,586 --> 01:05:54,586
I don't think I could handle
any more setbacks.
854
01:05:54,586 --> 01:06:00,482
I think that relationships
require commitment to trust.
855
01:06:00,482 --> 01:06:05,206
And I will support you
in everything you do,
like always,
856
01:06:05,206 --> 01:06:08,034
but I'm concerned
you'll have your heart broken.
857
01:06:11,137 --> 01:06:12,827
- Oh!
- Hi!
858
01:06:16,724 --> 01:06:19,517
I didn't tell Yohan
that I had 10 suitcases.
859
01:07:38,310 --> 01:07:40,724
- Oh!
- Hi!
860
01:07:51,827 --> 01:07:55,000
I'm so excited to be here.
861
01:07:55,000 --> 01:07:59,034
I feel like I'm so excited
to hand off my suitcases.
862
01:07:59,034 --> 01:08:00,965
I'm also very happy
to see my husband
863
01:08:00,965 --> 01:08:04,586
and like I never have to
be away from him again.
864
01:08:06,758 --> 01:08:09,517
Like, this is it.
Like, we're done with that
like back and forth stuff.
865
01:08:09,517 --> 01:08:10,931
So that's really lovely.
866
01:08:22,724 --> 01:08:24,068
No.
867
01:08:35,482 --> 01:08:36,896
Yohan doesn't own a car,
868
01:08:36,896 --> 01:08:38,758
so whenever I come
to the Dominican Republic,
869
01:08:38,758 --> 01:08:40,931
he rents one
from a friend of his.
870
01:08:40,931 --> 01:08:44,758
This is the same car that we
always rent when I come here.
871
01:08:44,758 --> 01:08:47,275
I didn't tell Yohan
that I had ten suitcases,
872
01:08:47,275 --> 01:08:51,068
but I feel like he should
have realized
that I was moving here
873
01:08:51,068 --> 01:08:53,758
and that I probably
had a lot more stuff with me
874
01:08:53,758 --> 01:08:55,931
than I normally do
when I come for two weeks.
875
01:08:55,931 --> 01:08:59,000
So, I'm not surprised that
my bags don't fit in the car.
876
01:08:59,000 --> 01:09:01,068
I'm surprised that
when Yohan picks me up,
877
01:09:01,068 --> 01:09:03,448
he shows up in a four-door,
and not a van.
878
01:09:50,034 --> 01:09:52,517
Yohan has been driving
for less than a year
879
01:09:52,517 --> 01:09:55,137
and he's gotten into
one accident
and gotten one ticket.
880
01:09:55,137 --> 01:09:57,413
He doesn't exactly have
the best track record.
881
01:09:59,034 --> 01:10:00,689
We both know
that I'm a better driver.
882
01:10:00,689 --> 01:10:02,620
It's not like he thinks
he's a better driver.
883
01:10:02,620 --> 01:10:04,172
He knows damn well
that I'm a better driver.
884
01:10:04,172 --> 01:10:07,586
But he feels like if anybody
saw us on the road
885
01:10:07,586 --> 01:10:09,137
with a woman driving
886
01:10:09,137 --> 01:10:11,344
and a man
in the passenger seat
with all these suitcases,
887
01:10:11,344 --> 01:10:13,586
they'd like call him
a [bleep] or something.
888
01:10:25,620 --> 01:10:27,758
Okay.
889
01:10:27,758 --> 01:10:31,172
I'm too tired to
argue with Yohan
about who's driving home.
890
01:10:31,172 --> 01:10:33,482
If he really wants to
fight this battle and win,
891
01:10:33,482 --> 01:10:35,137
I'll let this be
a battle that he wins.
892
01:11:11,310 --> 01:11:16,172
I don't
think having a penis impacts
your ability to do things.
893
01:11:16,172 --> 01:11:20,965
If anything, it prevents you
from being able to do things
894
01:11:20,965 --> 01:11:23,689
with any kind of intelligence
or logic,
895
01:11:23,689 --> 01:11:27,896
because the penis
is a thinking tool,
896
01:11:27,896 --> 01:11:30,034
but not necessarily
an effective one.
897
01:11:46,931 --> 01:11:47,931
Okay.
898
01:11:51,758 --> 01:11:53,379
Growing up in
the Dominican Republic,
899
01:11:53,379 --> 01:11:57,931
Yohan is very attached
to traditional conservative
gender norms.
900
01:11:57,931 --> 01:12:03,896
And he married someone
who is not conforming
to those gender norms.
901
01:12:03,896 --> 01:12:05,896
If Yohan hasn't figured out
at this point
902
01:12:05,896 --> 01:12:08,413
that patriarchy isn't gonna
work with me,
903
01:12:08,413 --> 01:12:14,068
then he's been missing
a lot of elements
of our relationship thus far.
904
01:12:14,068 --> 01:12:18,275
'Cause though
I might be a little bit
tired in this moment,
905
01:12:18,275 --> 01:12:20,586
this isn't something that's
gonna fly long-term.
906
01:12:43,448 --> 01:12:45,068
I was born a woman,
907
01:12:45,068 --> 01:12:46,965
and I've been a man
for ten years
908
01:12:46,965 --> 01:12:48,620
and I am trans.
909
01:13:18,931 --> 01:13:20,275
Today, me and Isabel
910
01:13:20,275 --> 01:13:22,413
are going to take her
parents horseback riding.
911
01:13:23,586 --> 01:13:26,000
Her and her parents do
go horseback riding.
912
01:13:26,000 --> 01:13:29,965
So I think that this is gonna
be a good bonding experience.
913
01:13:29,965 --> 01:13:32,206
And we left the kids
at home today,
914
01:13:32,206 --> 01:13:35,931
because after that, we're just
gonna rip the Band-Aid
915
01:13:35,931 --> 01:13:37,551
and tell her parents
I'm trans.
916
01:15:51,310 --> 01:15:52,793
I'm so dysphoric right now
917
01:15:52,793 --> 01:15:56,344
just because it's like
I'm about to reveal myself
to her family.
918
01:15:56,344 --> 01:15:58,275
So it's like, ugh, like,
are they gonna start
919
01:15:58,275 --> 01:16:00,034
looking at my body parts
a little more
920
01:16:00,034 --> 01:16:02,482
or like-- It's all going
through my head.
921
01:16:17,241 --> 01:16:19,068
I don't even know
what I'm gonna say.
922
01:16:20,206 --> 01:16:22,310
So I have a lot of anxiety
923
01:16:22,310 --> 01:16:24,793
because the whole outcome
of this conversation
924
01:16:24,793 --> 01:16:27,275
is gonna dictate
the way that my life is.
925
01:16:27,275 --> 01:16:29,103
And I gave up a lot
just to be here
926
01:16:29,103 --> 01:16:31,862
and I don't wanna leave
with nothing.
927
01:17:05,965 --> 01:17:08,482
Today was a very good day.
928
01:17:10,241 --> 01:17:12,724
But I have something
very important to tell you.
929
01:17:14,689 --> 01:17:19,655
And I don't want you
to see me any differently
than you do now.
930
01:17:36,965 --> 01:17:39,689
I have to tell
you this because I don't
want to keep a secret
931
01:17:39,689 --> 01:17:41,241
and I don't wanna lie.
932
01:17:42,862 --> 01:17:47,655
And I don't want you
to think that I'm being
deceitful to you.
933
01:18:01,206 --> 01:18:02,931
When I was born,
934
01:18:02,931 --> 01:18:04,758
I was born a woman
935
01:18:04,758 --> 01:18:06,517
and I've been a man
for ten years
936
01:18:06,517 --> 01:18:08,275
and I am trans.
937
01:18:25,448 --> 01:18:26,931
There's just always something.
938
01:18:26,931 --> 01:18:28,310
I'm tired of it.
939
01:18:28,310 --> 01:18:32,413
All day, I've been
working really hard to
make Mahmoud happy.
940
01:18:32,413 --> 01:18:34,965
But then, while
the cameras weren't rolling,
941
01:18:34,965 --> 01:18:38,103
I walked up to Mahmoud
and he was acting funny
942
01:18:38,103 --> 01:18:39,689
And I just-- I'd had enough.
943
01:18:39,689 --> 01:18:41,965
Go find some other [bleep].
944
01:18:44,827 --> 01:18:45,896
Let me go.
945
01:18:45,896 --> 01:18:47,241
I don't wanna
talk to you anymore.
946
01:18:47,241 --> 01:18:48,620
Like, I just want you
to leave me alone.
947
01:19:00,448 --> 01:19:01,758
There's just always something.
948
01:19:01,758 --> 01:19:02,862
I'm tired of it.
949
01:19:18,275 --> 01:19:22,000
All day, I've been
working really hard to
make Mahmoud happy.
950
01:19:22,965 --> 01:19:24,586
He taught me how to pray.
951
01:19:24,586 --> 01:19:26,310
I wore the burkini.
952
01:19:26,310 --> 01:19:29,620
But then, when we went to
change out of our swimsuits,
953
01:19:29,620 --> 01:19:31,827
while the cameras
weren't rolling,
954
01:19:31,827 --> 01:19:35,965
I walked up to Mahmoud
and he was acting funny.
955
01:19:35,965 --> 01:19:37,655
And I asked him what's wrong,
956
01:19:37,655 --> 01:19:39,931
and he said something
passive-aggressive to me,
957
01:19:39,931 --> 01:19:42,758
like, "Like you care anyway."
958
01:19:42,758 --> 01:19:44,413
I don't know why he said it,
959
01:19:44,413 --> 01:19:46,206
but I think it was totally
uncalled for.
960
01:19:50,655 --> 01:19:52,413
And it seems like nothing.
961
01:19:52,413 --> 01:19:55,896
It seems like what he said
was sort of like a nothing,
962
01:19:55,896 --> 01:19:57,758
but he had been building.
963
01:19:57,758 --> 01:20:00,620
And I just-- I'd had enough.
964
01:20:02,000 --> 01:20:03,758
And I just snapped.
965
01:20:06,931 --> 01:20:08,482
Leave me the [bleep] alone,
Mahmoud.
966
01:20:10,448 --> 01:20:11,758
It's just your whole attitude
967
01:20:11,758 --> 01:20:13,310
and like everything about you.
968
01:20:13,310 --> 01:20:14,862
Everything about you.
969
01:20:14,862 --> 01:20:16,827
Everything about you
right now.
970
01:20:19,310 --> 01:20:20,758
You're just always
picking at me
971
01:20:20,758 --> 01:20:22,931
and I'm tired of it, Mahmoud.
972
01:20:22,931 --> 01:20:24,655
Just leave me alone.
973
01:20:25,827 --> 01:20:28,103
Just leave me alone.
974
01:20:28,103 --> 01:20:29,931
You know what you did.
975
01:20:29,931 --> 01:20:31,655
You know what you [bleep] did.
976
01:20:32,310 --> 01:20:33,655
No, I'm not ready right now.
977
01:20:33,655 --> 01:20:35,103
Just leave me
the [bleep] alone.
978
01:20:35,103 --> 01:20:37,137
I'm tired of you.
, I'm tired of it.
979
01:20:46,655 --> 01:20:47,793
Hmm? What?
980
01:20:49,172 --> 01:20:50,448
I don't know. Who cares?
981
01:20:50,448 --> 01:20:52,862
Just leave me alone. I just
need you to leave me alone.
982
01:20:52,862 --> 01:20:53,965
I just need you
to leave me alone.
983
01:20:58,344 --> 01:21:00,896
I-- No. Let me go.
984
01:21:04,965 --> 01:21:06,482
I'm tired that like
every single second,
985
01:21:06,482 --> 01:21:08,379
like, of every day
that I've been here so far,
986
01:21:08,379 --> 01:21:09,551
it's just you picking at me.
987
01:21:09,551 --> 01:21:11,517
Like, pick, pick, pick, pick--
988
01:21:12,724 --> 01:21:15,000
Honestly, nothing's not
good enough for you ever.
989
01:21:15,000 --> 01:21:17,000
Go find some other [bleep].
990
01:21:19,689 --> 01:21:20,827
Just let me go.
991
01:21:22,379 --> 01:21:24,482
Let me-- I don't wanna
talk to you anymore.
992
01:21:24,482 --> 01:21:26,103
Like, I just want you
to leave me alone.
993
01:21:27,000 --> 01:21:28,206
I will.
994
01:21:54,344 --> 01:21:57,724
I'm trapped in this craziness.
995
01:21:57,724 --> 01:22:00,793
Every single [bleep] second,
picking on me.
996
01:22:00,793 --> 01:22:02,586
Picking, picking, picking,
picking at me.
997
01:22:03,827 --> 01:22:05,793
And he says it like
behind the scenes,
998
01:22:05,793 --> 01:22:08,034
like so that like
no one's paying attention.
999
01:22:08,034 --> 01:22:09,862
And nothing's ever
good enough for him.
1000
01:22:09,862 --> 01:22:11,793
Like, I've had it.
1001
01:22:12,793 --> 01:22:13,793
Had it.
1002
01:22:40,551 --> 01:22:42,206
I'm not going anywhere
with you.
1003
01:22:48,103 --> 01:22:48,931
No.
1004
01:22:50,931 --> 01:22:53,448
Uh, I don't wanna be
anywhere near you right now.
1005
01:22:53,448 --> 01:22:56,758
I'm not gonna make any
decisions right now about you.
1006
01:22:56,758 --> 01:22:58,724
You don't get to control me
anymore, Mahmoud.
1007
01:22:58,724 --> 01:23:00,172
I'm tired of
your bull [bleep].
1008
01:23:03,862 --> 01:23:05,655
I don't give a [bleep].
Whatever you wanna do.
1009
01:23:05,655 --> 01:23:06,689
Just go.
1010
01:23:22,137 --> 01:23:24,413
I'm not sure
how I want to move forward
1011
01:23:24,413 --> 01:23:27,310
or if I can move forward
or what "forward" means.
1012
01:23:27,310 --> 01:23:29,413
I don't know right now.
1013
01:23:29,413 --> 01:23:32,137
I mean, until I met him, I was
single for like ten years.
1014
01:23:33,517 --> 01:23:35,275
And I don't answer to anybody.
1015
01:23:35,275 --> 01:23:37,827
So it's really hard for,
all the sudden,
this like...
1016
01:23:37,827 --> 01:23:39,862
He's nine years younger
than me or something
1017
01:23:39,862 --> 01:23:42,172
and he thinks
he can tell me what to do.
1018
01:23:42,172 --> 01:23:43,965
And I let him. I let him.
1019
01:23:46,655 --> 01:23:48,482
He's texting me.
1020
01:23:49,620 --> 01:23:52,896
He says he didn't do
anything to me.
1021
01:23:52,896 --> 01:23:55,413
Uh, he hopes I find someone
right for me.
1022
01:23:57,275 --> 01:24:00,068
And if I didn't go with him
in the Uber,
1023
01:24:00,068 --> 01:24:01,827
then we were gonna
be divorced.
1024
01:24:04,413 --> 01:24:08,655
I just like don't have
anything left in me
at the moment. And...
1025
01:24:21,206 --> 01:24:25,827
Next time,
on 90 Day Fiance:
The Other Way.
1026
01:24:25,827 --> 01:24:28,586
I'm going back to India
in a few weeks.
1027
01:24:28,586 --> 01:24:32,724
Jen, he sent me a photo
of him with his shirt off.
1028
01:24:45,034 --> 01:24:47,241
- I love you.
- I love you.
1029
01:24:47,241 --> 01:24:51,241
So many people
have told us we're
crazy, we're rushing,
1030
01:24:51,241 --> 01:24:53,000
we shouldn't be doing this.
1031
01:24:53,000 --> 01:24:55,758
- Ready. Ready.
- As good as it's gettin'.
1032
01:24:55,758 --> 01:24:59,068
But when you have
something wonderful
1033
01:24:59,068 --> 01:25:00,137
hold on to it.
1034
01:25:00,137 --> 01:25:01,241
Jeymi?
1035
01:25:26,137 --> 01:25:27,551
What would you like to know?