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(audience clapping)

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(audience cheering)

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We loved it.

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(audience cheering)

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(phone ringing)

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[Jill] Got it.

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Hello, Pink Place and Chinese Laundry,

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how may I help you?

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Thank you.

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I'm sure that's very funny,

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but I could be someone important.

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I could be calling about work.

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Is he there?

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[Jill] Yes, hello Mrs. T.

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I'll just get him now.

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Ritchie, it's your mom.

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[Valerie] And how are you?

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How's the show?

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It's nice, yeah.

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I've got a job for life there.

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I'm very lucky.

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Richie, where are you?

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Coming.

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[Jill] Here he comes.

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Here he is, taking his time as always.

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Hi, sorry I was outside.

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It's just a quick call,

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but I was just wondering about Christmas.

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Oh God, it's November.

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Well, that's close enough.

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Didn't see you last year.

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Well, I thought we could
all have a nice time.

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I just don't know.

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I've got an audition

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for this thing on
Scottish TV, police thing.

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Well, that's nice.

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Do we get that?

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[Richie] No, it's only in Scotland.

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I've not got it yet, but I
need to sort of be on standby.

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But it's been ages since we saw you.

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I know.

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That's the job, sorry.

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[Valerie] But just
think about it though.

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Please come home.

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It's been such a long time.

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I'd love to see you.

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I heard Birmingham Rep,

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they're doing a production
of "Hay Fever" next summer.

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I could audition.

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Birmingham, how are
you gonna go up there?

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Well, I can.

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There are trains with toilets.

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I can manage.

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[Ash] Seriously though, what
if you need a piss on stage?

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[Ritchie] I'm not that bad, do you mind?

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No, but the thing is,
you've done "Hay Fever."

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They're not going to cast
the same boy in Birmingham.

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They don't do that, do they?

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Not as a rule, but they might want me.

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When has that ever happened?

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There's gotta be a first time.

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You don't need to make faces.

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I'm not.

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I just think let's get over this bit

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'cause your tum's not very well,

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but you were like this in
July and you got much better.

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So let's wait for that to happen.

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Then we can think about Birmingham.

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Oh, you were brilliant in that show.

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Oh, you were amazing.

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[Rosco] God, you were funny.

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I was good, wasn't I?

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Absolutely brilliant.

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You were, I'm not even kidding,

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you were the best thing I've ever seen.

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(Richie laughs)

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Come on you.

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Bedtime, it's late,
nearly half past seven.

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(upbeat music)

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♪ It didn't hurt me ♪

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♪ You wanna feel how it feels ♪

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♪ You wanna know, know
that it didn't hurt me ♪

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♪ You wanna hear about the deal ♪

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There now, give you a good shake.

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Rattle, rattle, rattle.

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Good night then, darling.

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And we need a word in the
morning about your mom and dad.

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Up your bum.

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Up yours too.

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Good night.

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♪ Be running up that hill ♪

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♪ Be running up that building ♪

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♪ If I only could ♪

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(floor banging)

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(door clicking)

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Oh, look at you, oh no, no, no, no, no.

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I'm okay, I just fell.

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It's all right, I fell, that's all.

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I just feel a bit hot.

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He was on AZT, but he's
been on DDI since August.

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Honestly, I'm going
into hospital on Wednesday

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for the Pentamindine.

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They can look at me then.

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Everything okay?

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Yeah, Richie fell out of bed,

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and he's got a bit of a temperature.

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Tell him God blesses his soul.

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Charity from downstairs
says, "God blesses your soul."

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Oh, I feel better already.

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He's such a beautiful boy,

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but you know what they say, don't you?

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You know what the AIDS stands for?

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[Rosco] What?

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It stands for angels in disguise.

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They are preparing the
way for his eternal life.

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He's very lucky.

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Yeah.

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Well Dr. Sullivan can take
a look at you first thing.

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Till then, no more scares,
thank you very much.

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Now get some sleep, and you too.

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That's telling you.

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Now do what she says.

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I'll come back first thing.

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And you lover boy, night then.

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I'll be home tomorrow,
so don't sell my bed.

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Okay, I know you.

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[Jill] Too late.

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(door thuds)

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[Lorraine] How are you getting home?

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I'll get a taxi, don't worry.

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I think Paul's awake.

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No, I won't bother them now.

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Could be your last chance.

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(dramatic music)

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We've got another lonely Joe, no visitors,

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no parents or sisters or anything.

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He's got to have friends.

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We keep saying, "Can we phone anyone?"

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He says, "No," and he lies
there all day dying of shame.

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Hey, I heard you were in.

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(sobbing) Come and say hello.

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He'd like that.

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Hey, Jill wants to say hello.

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Jill Baxter, she's here.

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Hello Paul.

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Hello sweetheart.

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[Paul] Which one are you?

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[Jill] Jill, friend with Richie.

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[Paul] Can't remember.

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It's okay, nevermind.

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I can go if you want.

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No.

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I love you.

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It's about time.

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(Ash laughs)

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I left it a bit late.

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I was busy.

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I love you too.

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He's got all sorts of complications,

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but my main concern is
the lymphoma in his chest.

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We caught it early, but
the next thing we do

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is to offer chemotherapy,

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but that's gonna make him even weaker.

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So you'd say not?

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It's his decision, but
really let's be sensible.

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Let's say no.

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I'm saying yes.

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[Dr Sullivan] I know, but
Richie you've got to look

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at the overall picture.

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Could the chemo help?

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Yes, yes it could.

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Well, there we are.

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But we're saying the
chemo could make you

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feel even worse.

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Then let's find out.

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I'm not gonna not have treatment, am I?

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Now, shut up and wheel it in.

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Oh, my god, you're impossible.

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You two are murderers and
I'm going to call the police.

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[Jill] Did I tell you he's an actor?

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Oh he knows that.

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He's got my episode of "Tom's
Midnight Garden" on VHS,

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and he pauses it on that bit
where I bend over the barrel,

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and he has a little fiddle.

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Frankly, I look so good in that shot,

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I'd have a wank myself.

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In fact, I have.

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So go and get my chemo.

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Oh, here comes trouble.

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(speaking in foreign language)

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How'd it go with the chemo?

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Oh, he's like Asterix the
Gaul that boy, indomitable.

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He's sitting up, he's had some food.

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Actually, I though I'd pop
in and see Paul, is that okay?

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Oh yeah, he's okay.

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He's rallying.

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We're having a good day.

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Room 703.

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Yep, I know, thanks.

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[Nurse] See ya.

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(woman speaking indistinctly)

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If you've come here
to convert these people,

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I will have you thrown
out onto the street.

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I swear, that man, Reggie Lessips,

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he's from the church, he
asked for me and I came.

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You know he's queer.

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I have blessed him.

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I thought you'd gone.

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They said you'd gone back to Nigeria.

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I was in the west,

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and I saw terrible things.

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Ugh, my heart bleeds.

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I went into hospitals and I saw people,

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locked away with no medicines.

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These doors were locked,
and the people behind them

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were like animals.

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I said, "Who are they?"

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And they said, "They are the devils.

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We let them die."

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People with that disease.

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But men and women, so many
women, and children too.

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Have you got it?

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What if I did?

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Have you got it, Rosco?

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- No.
- Oh God.

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I haven't got it, no.

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Thank you, thank you.

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Don't thank God.

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I just got lucky with who I fucked.

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(Rosco huffs)

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You know, it is so difficult Rosco.

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It is the hardest challenge
the Lord gives us,

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to forgive.

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I don't want your forgiveness.

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No.

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I mean can you forgive me?

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Do you know who I keep thinking about?

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Donald Basset.

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Would we know if he was dead?

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He'd have an obituary in
"The Stage" wouldn't he?

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Might do.

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You don't know that it was him.

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Yes, it was.

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No, but it's kind of a good story.

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He was ill and he infected you,

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but that version's a bit easy.

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It cuts out the hundreds
and hundreds of boys

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you were having sex with at the same time.

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It wasn't just me.

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No, we all did.

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But that's what I mean.

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It's not really fair to blame Donald.

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Just because he's the only boy

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whose name you can remember.

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You cheeky bastard.

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You say what you see.

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Do you think I infected him?

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I wasn't saying that.

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Because I did, with others,

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'cause I knew and I kept having sex.

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I thought I'd stop,

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and I did a lot of times,
I stopped a million times.

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I stopped with you.

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But there were nights with too much booze,

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actually, nights when
I was stone cold sober,

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and if a boy just looked
at me in the right way,

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a boy with that look in
his eye, I'd fuck him.

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I would fuck him hard and
he could fuck me all night,

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00:13:20,700 --> 00:13:22,700
any way he likes.

270
00:13:23,940 --> 00:13:25,539
I wonder how many I killed?

271
00:13:25,540 --> 00:13:27,419
[Jill] Don't say that.

272
00:13:27,420 --> 00:13:31,060
I knew it was wrong
and I kept on doing it.

273
00:13:34,180 --> 00:13:36,139
Do you hate me now?

274
00:13:36,140 --> 00:13:38,780
(shoes tapping)

275
00:13:42,100 --> 00:13:44,180
There you are, at last.

276
00:13:45,260 --> 00:13:46,779
Oh my God, what's wrong with you?

277
00:13:46,780 --> 00:13:48,019
It says infectious diseases.

278
00:13:48,020 --> 00:13:49,059
What the hell's that supposed to mean?

279
00:13:49,060 --> 00:13:50,539
For god's sake, Richie, what is it?

280
00:13:50,540 --> 00:13:52,780
What's happened, what's wrong?

281
00:13:53,660 --> 00:13:54,939
What are you doing here?

282
00:13:54,940 --> 00:13:57,139
We thought, surprise, we turned up,

283
00:13:57,140 --> 00:13:58,379
and then your neighbor,
that woman downstairs,

284
00:13:58,380 --> 00:13:59,259
she said you were here.

285
00:13:59,260 --> 00:14:00,219
Oh, she would.

286
00:14:00,220 --> 00:14:02,219
[Clive] What's wrong, what is it?

287
00:14:02,220 --> 00:14:03,059
Look, it's really nice to see you,

288
00:14:03,060 --> 00:14:05,749
but I think we should all sit
down and have a little chat.

289
00:14:05,750 --> 00:14:06,989
It's a bit complicated to explain.

290
00:14:06,990 --> 00:14:08,509
Well evidently it's so complicated,

291
00:14:08,510 --> 00:14:09,749
you chose not to tell us anything.

292
00:14:09,750 --> 00:14:11,389
Now all I would like - We said to them,

293
00:14:11,390 --> 00:14:12,589
- is a bit of common sense,
- we said, "What was it?"

294
00:14:12,590 --> 00:14:13,429
They said infectious diseases

295
00:14:13,430 --> 00:14:14,269
If that's not - You tell us,

296
00:14:14,270 --> 00:14:15,069
- too much to ask.
- Richie, you tell me

297
00:14:15,070 --> 00:14:19,109
- Clive, Clive, Clive.
- What's that mean?

298
00:14:19,110 --> 00:14:21,869
Richard, what's wrong with you?

299
00:14:21,870 --> 00:14:23,870
I've just got...

300
00:14:25,310 --> 00:14:27,429
He's got some infections

301
00:14:27,430 --> 00:14:30,750
and problems with his gut, and his lungs,

302
00:14:31,750 --> 00:14:35,990
and right now there's a
lymphoma in his chest.

303
00:14:37,750 --> 00:14:39,509
A lymphoma?

304
00:14:39,510 --> 00:14:40,589
[Jill] In his chest.

305
00:14:40,590 --> 00:14:41,389
But that's cancer.

306
00:14:41,390 --> 00:14:43,749
Don't be ridiculous,
that's what lymphoma means,

307
00:14:43,750 --> 00:14:44,909
it means cancer.

308
00:14:44,910 --> 00:14:46,910
Sort of, yeah.

309
00:14:47,510 --> 00:14:49,269
Do you mean?

310
00:14:49,270 --> 00:14:51,549
You've got cancer and you didn't tell me?

311
00:14:51,550 --> 00:14:53,669
It's a sort of cancer.

312
00:14:53,670 --> 00:14:55,670
I only got it 'cause I'm not well.

313
00:15:00,670 --> 00:15:02,670
I've got AIDS.

314
00:15:03,470 --> 00:15:04,869
I'm gay.

315
00:15:04,870 --> 00:15:06,870
I'm homosexual.

316
00:15:07,910 --> 00:15:12,510
I contracted HIV, and I'm
sorry, but now it's AIDS.

317
00:15:20,070 --> 00:15:21,829
Where's your doctor?

318
00:15:21,830 --> 00:15:22,749
It's a Saturday.

319
00:15:22,750 --> 00:15:23,589
I don't think he's in.

320
00:15:23,590 --> 00:15:24,429
He's called Dr. Sullivan, but-

321
00:15:24,430 --> 00:15:26,750
- I wanna speak to a doctor.

322
00:15:27,910 --> 00:15:29,669
Well, I'm quite sure
you believe all this

323
00:15:29,670 --> 00:15:33,070
and this whole thing's got
completely out of control.

324
00:15:33,910 --> 00:15:35,789
We'll get you better.

325
00:15:35,790 --> 00:15:38,430
We'll get you better, all right?

326
00:15:39,510 --> 00:15:42,279
We'll get all the shit, we'll clean it up.

327
00:15:42,280 --> 00:15:44,880
I will scour it out of you, okay?

328
00:15:51,360 --> 00:15:54,600
You really are very young
(laughing), all of you.

329
00:15:56,800 --> 00:15:58,800
You should see your faces.

330
00:16:00,800 --> 00:16:03,759
We thought Christmas,
that's what we thought.

331
00:16:03,760 --> 00:16:04,839
He won't come home for Christmas,

332
00:16:04,840 --> 00:16:07,479
so we'll surprise him in November.

333
00:16:07,480 --> 00:16:08,399
I've brought presents.

334
00:16:08,400 --> 00:16:10,400
That's from Lucy.

335
00:16:11,360 --> 00:16:13,560
Ah, that is from Auntie Elaine.

336
00:16:16,160 --> 00:16:18,559
What on Earth's been going on?

337
00:16:18,560 --> 00:16:19,519
I'm sorry.

338
00:16:19,520 --> 00:16:22,319
Have you got cancer
or have you got AIDS?

339
00:16:22,320 --> 00:16:23,159
[Richie] It's both.

340
00:16:23,160 --> 00:16:24,199
[Jill] One causes the other.

341
00:16:24,200 --> 00:16:25,039
Now, I don't need you-

342
00:16:25,040 --> 00:16:28,640
- AIDS is like an immunity
thing, so you get weak,

343
00:16:29,680 --> 00:16:31,599
and that causes the lymphoma.

344
00:16:31,600 --> 00:16:33,799
My friend, Sarah, you remember Sarah,

345
00:16:33,800 --> 00:16:34,839
how much did I like her, Richie?

346
00:16:34,840 --> 00:16:36,439
I thought she was so wonderful,

347
00:16:36,440 --> 00:16:40,839
and she had breast cancer and she died.

348
00:16:40,840 --> 00:16:43,079
Are you telling me that she was weak,

349
00:16:43,080 --> 00:16:45,519
that you get cancer because you're weak,

350
00:16:45,520 --> 00:16:47,719
that you catch cancer
like catching a cold?

351
00:16:47,720 --> 00:16:49,239
Because let me tell you
that is not how it works.

352
00:16:49,240 --> 00:16:52,679
Okay, look, I know this is terrible,

353
00:16:52,680 --> 00:16:54,999
but really this place
is looking after Richie,

354
00:16:55,000 --> 00:16:57,159
and they're doing the most brilliant job.

355
00:16:57,160 --> 00:16:58,559
Jill's here every day,

356
00:16:58,560 --> 00:17:00,439
and I know we've only
met a couple of times,

357
00:17:00,440 --> 00:17:02,959
but you might as well know
I'm Richie's boyfriend.

358
00:17:02,960 --> 00:17:04,719
Well, no not really.

359
00:17:04,720 --> 00:17:05,559
Well, I'm not not.

360
00:17:05,560 --> 00:17:07,039
I know, but not now.

361
00:17:07,040 --> 00:17:07,879
[Ash] No, but that's who I am.

362
00:17:07,880 --> 00:17:09,239
Ash, just shut up, yeah?

363
00:17:09,240 --> 00:17:10,439
It's not the right time.

364
00:17:10,440 --> 00:17:12,880
If you could hear
yourselves, you sound absurd.

365
00:17:14,520 --> 00:17:17,529
But it's infectious isn't it, AIDS?

366
00:17:17,530 --> 00:17:19,849
It's completely infectious.

367
00:17:19,850 --> 00:17:21,529
It's like smallpox, it's like leprosy,

368
00:17:21,530 --> 00:17:23,409
and it kills you, that's what it does.

369
00:17:23,410 --> 00:17:26,849
So this isn't AIDS, is it?

370
00:17:26,850 --> 00:17:30,130
They let us walk right in,
so it can't be, can it?

371
00:17:37,290 --> 00:17:39,169
[Lorraine] If you could
wait five or 10 minutes,

372
00:17:39,170 --> 00:17:41,129
I'll have a word with the registrar.

373
00:17:41,130 --> 00:17:42,649
- I want to speak to someone
- Yes, if you can wait

374
00:17:42,650 --> 00:17:43,809
who knows my son - five or 10 minutes

375
00:17:43,810 --> 00:17:44,929
who has seen him.

376
00:17:44,930 --> 00:17:46,929
Dr. Lucas knows Richie very well.

377
00:17:46,930 --> 00:17:48,569
[Valerie] We were told Dr. Sullivan.

378
00:17:48,570 --> 00:17:50,369
He's not on today,
but Richie's got quite

379
00:17:50,370 --> 00:17:51,249
a number of doctors.

380
00:17:51,250 --> 00:17:53,089
I don't know how much he's told you,

381
00:17:53,090 --> 00:17:54,329
but Richie's got all sorts
And you never phone

382
00:17:54,330 --> 00:17:55,809
- of different conditions.
- The parents?

383
00:17:55,810 --> 00:17:58,769
My son is on this ward
and you don't phone me.

384
00:17:58,770 --> 00:17:59,849
That's not our decision.

385
00:17:59,850 --> 00:18:04,409
My son is in that room
with cancer and AIDS,

386
00:18:04,410 --> 00:18:06,169
and has got, what did she say?

387
00:18:06,170 --> 00:18:07,649
She say he's got something
wrong with his gut?

388
00:18:07,650 --> 00:18:11,009
And you, you didn't think to phone.

389
00:18:11,010 --> 00:18:12,049
We are not here.

390
00:18:12,050 --> 00:18:14,929
His parents are clearly not here,

391
00:18:14,930 --> 00:18:17,369
and you think that's wise, do you?

392
00:18:17,370 --> 00:18:20,729
Like we aren't good for his health at all.

393
00:18:20,730 --> 00:18:22,809
Is that right?

394
00:18:22,810 --> 00:18:24,969
I'm afraid that's up to Richie.

395
00:18:24,970 --> 00:18:27,729
His doctor is Dr. Sullivan.

396
00:18:27,730 --> 00:18:30,490
Now you get him, get him, get him.

397
00:18:33,610 --> 00:18:35,129
[Lorraine] Hi, it that Suzie?

398
00:18:35,130 --> 00:18:36,009
It's Lorraine.

399
00:18:36,010 --> 00:18:36,849
(door buzzing)

400
00:18:36,850 --> 00:18:38,930
There's a situation here.

401
00:18:41,610 --> 00:18:44,410
(Valerie panting)

402
00:18:49,810 --> 00:18:52,370
(door buzzing)

403
00:18:54,620 --> 00:18:57,460
(people mumbling)

404
00:19:04,940 --> 00:19:06,379
I want a word with you.

405
00:19:06,380 --> 00:19:07,899
Yes, I think we should.

406
00:19:07,900 --> 00:19:09,219
There's a little sort
of kitchen down here.

407
00:19:09,220 --> 00:19:10,219
They've got a room for families,

408
00:19:10,220 --> 00:19:11,339
but there's someone in there.

409
00:19:11,340 --> 00:19:13,340
[Valerie] Oh, okay.

410
00:19:13,940 --> 00:19:17,940
Right, how's Lucy?

411
00:19:21,220 --> 00:19:23,260
I'm really very sorry.

412
00:19:26,700 --> 00:19:28,139
Do you want a tea or a coffee?

413
00:19:28,140 --> 00:19:28,979
[Valerie] No, I don't want anything.

414
00:19:28,980 --> 00:19:30,980
- I can put the kettle on.
- I said no.

415
00:19:37,980 --> 00:19:40,419
I wanna say, and I'm
not criticizing Richie,

416
00:19:40,420 --> 00:19:41,339
I just think you should know,

417
00:19:41,340 --> 00:19:44,019
I told him to tell you 100 times.

418
00:19:44,020 --> 00:19:48,179
See what you don't understand is this.

419
00:19:48,180 --> 00:19:51,419
Boys are terrible, Jill.

420
00:19:51,420 --> 00:19:54,459
They will do anything.

421
00:19:54,460 --> 00:19:58,019
They are randy, they just are.

422
00:19:58,020 --> 00:20:00,659
So when something like gay comes along,

423
00:20:00,660 --> 00:20:05,459
it's just another chance to unload.

424
00:20:05,460 --> 00:20:08,299
And someone like Richie,
he's young and he's pretty

425
00:20:08,300 --> 00:20:10,219
and there'll be lots of those
men paying him attention

426
00:20:10,220 --> 00:20:12,220
and so he goes

427
00:20:13,380 --> 00:20:15,820
rutting once in a while.

428
00:20:16,900 --> 00:20:19,739
But that doesn't make him homosexual.

429
00:20:19,740 --> 00:20:24,100
It's a little bit of fun,
but then you grow up.

430
00:20:26,100 --> 00:20:28,900
I suppose I don't know,
maybe some boys are like that.

431
00:20:30,150 --> 00:20:33,909
But then there's Richie, who's gay,

432
00:20:33,910 --> 00:20:36,189
absolutely definitely gay.

433
00:20:36,190 --> 00:20:38,349
He's beautifully gay (laughs).

434
00:20:38,350 --> 00:20:40,229
I'm sorry, but look at him.

435
00:20:40,230 --> 00:20:43,349
I mean he's an actor, he
sings songs from the musicals,

436
00:20:43,350 --> 00:20:45,350
he's never had a girlfriend.

437
00:20:49,870 --> 00:20:51,910
And now he's got a gay disease.

438
00:20:55,310 --> 00:20:58,110
[Jill] Yes, yes he has.

439
00:21:01,630 --> 00:21:03,829
Oh gosh.

440
00:21:03,830 --> 00:21:05,429
(shoes tapping)

441
00:21:05,430 --> 00:21:07,430
I'm sorry.

442
00:21:09,750 --> 00:21:12,430
(door clicking)

443
00:21:14,310 --> 00:21:15,669
[Sandra] Don't mind me.

444
00:21:15,670 --> 00:21:16,829
[Jill] We're just having a chat.

445
00:21:16,830 --> 00:21:18,789
[Sandra] I'm getting
some squash, two ticks.

446
00:21:18,790 --> 00:21:21,029
Oh, this is a private conversation.

447
00:21:21,030 --> 00:21:22,949
[Sandra] That's all right.

448
00:21:22,950 --> 00:21:24,109
How is he?

449
00:21:24,110 --> 00:21:25,989
[Sandra] Sleeping.

450
00:21:25,990 --> 00:21:28,029
Sandra's got a son,
Derek, down the corridor.

451
00:21:28,030 --> 00:21:29,709
This is Valerie.

452
00:21:29,710 --> 00:21:31,710
[Sandra] I'll be gone in a minute.

453
00:21:35,310 --> 00:21:38,230
Do you think I should have known?

454
00:21:39,790 --> 00:21:41,790
Maybe.

455
00:21:43,510 --> 00:21:48,510
It's like there's this
world of secret little codes.

456
00:21:50,790 --> 00:21:54,470
And they like that,
boys, they like secrets.

457
00:21:55,710 --> 00:21:57,710
Who's this?

458
00:21:58,310 --> 00:22:00,149
It's my son, Richie.

459
00:22:00,150 --> 00:22:03,429
You didn't know Richie was gay? (laughs)

460
00:22:03,430 --> 00:22:05,189
Jill, did you see that charity thing?

461
00:22:05,190 --> 00:22:07,399
Canceled, little bloody idiots,

462
00:22:07,400 --> 00:22:08,999
they couldn't get the
hours extended she said.

463
00:22:09,000 --> 00:22:10,799
Are you implying that's a problem?

464
00:22:10,800 --> 00:22:12,439
I think they're just gonna
move it to the pub next door.

465
00:22:12,440 --> 00:22:13,559
Shall we go back to Richie?

466
00:22:13,560 --> 00:22:16,159
No, excuse me, what do you mean?

467
00:22:16,160 --> 00:22:16,999
What about?

468
00:22:17,000 --> 00:22:18,279
Well you seemed to be surprised

469
00:22:18,280 --> 00:22:20,159
that I didn't know about my son,

470
00:22:20,160 --> 00:22:23,439
like that makes me one of your idiots.

471
00:22:23,440 --> 00:22:24,599
Okay, we should leave this.

472
00:22:24,600 --> 00:22:25,759
That's not what I said.

473
00:22:25,760 --> 00:22:27,039
You implied it.

474
00:22:27,040 --> 00:22:30,719
Oh well, I didn't mean
to imply anything, darling.

475
00:22:30,720 --> 00:22:32,199
Pardon me for implying.

476
00:22:32,200 --> 00:22:33,879
Let me make it clear.

477
00:22:33,880 --> 00:22:36,239
What the hell were you lookin' at?

478
00:22:36,240 --> 00:22:37,239
I beg your pardon?

479
00:22:37,240 --> 00:22:40,559
If you didn't know he
was gay all those years,

480
00:22:40,560 --> 00:22:45,239
what did you see when he
was 11, when he was 15, 16?

481
00:22:45,240 --> 00:22:46,759
How old is he, 30?

482
00:22:46,760 --> 00:22:50,159
All 30 years and every
little speck of him's

483
00:22:50,160 --> 00:22:53,199
bent as a nine bob note
since the day he was born.

484
00:22:53,200 --> 00:22:56,160
I'll ask you again, love,
what were you lookin' at?

485
00:22:57,080 --> 00:22:58,999
You're his mother.

486
00:22:59,000 --> 00:23:01,759
You're supposed to think
about him day and night.

487
00:23:01,760 --> 00:23:03,760
So what the fuck were you doin'?

488
00:23:05,880 --> 00:23:07,880
How dare you.

489
00:23:08,200 --> 00:23:10,200
Get the door.

490
00:23:11,880 --> 00:23:13,639
I didn't know.

491
00:23:13,640 --> 00:23:15,119
It's 'cause I was being lied to.

492
00:23:15,120 --> 00:23:17,280
All right sweetheart, I'm done.

493
00:23:18,320 --> 00:23:20,320
I wasn't, I didn't...

494
00:23:31,720 --> 00:23:33,720
Have I got this right?

495
00:23:35,000 --> 00:23:38,240
I'm being blamed for not knowing my son,

496
00:23:39,880 --> 00:23:41,890
when you conspired

497
00:23:42,650 --> 00:23:45,489
and moved heaven and earth to lie to me.

498
00:23:45,490 --> 00:23:46,529
I wasn't lying.

499
00:23:46,530 --> 00:23:49,689
You sat there next to him, in my house,

500
00:23:49,690 --> 00:23:51,929
time after time after time

501
00:23:51,930 --> 00:23:56,089
with this great big elaborate lie.

502
00:23:56,090 --> 00:23:57,409
I told you, I said every time,

503
00:23:57,410 --> 00:23:58,849
I told you I wasn't his girlfriend.

504
00:23:58,850 --> 00:24:00,169
And then you sat there simpering,

505
00:24:00,170 --> 00:24:03,649
laughing at every word he said,

506
00:24:03,650 --> 00:24:06,089
and you think I'm the one who's deceived.

507
00:24:06,090 --> 00:24:07,369
Never mind about him having a boyfriend.

508
00:24:07,370 --> 00:24:09,049
Where the bloody hell is yours?

509
00:24:09,050 --> 00:24:10,209
I was doing what Richie wanted.

510
00:24:10,210 --> 00:24:13,009
Is this what you are, a chorus girl,

511
00:24:13,010 --> 00:24:15,689
running round after these
boys with no life of your own?

512
00:24:15,690 --> 00:24:17,489
Okay, but I don't really
think this is about me.

513
00:24:17,490 --> 00:24:20,809
But I think this is
absolutely about you.

514
00:24:20,810 --> 00:24:25,569
Because you stood in the
way, you stood in the way.

515
00:24:25,570 --> 00:24:30,409
If I couldn't see it, it's
because you stood in the way,

516
00:24:30,410 --> 00:24:32,850
you monstrous

517
00:24:33,730 --> 00:24:35,730
big bitch.

518
00:24:43,490 --> 00:24:44,689
Have you found him yet?

519
00:24:44,690 --> 00:24:47,369
No, but I'm phoning round.

520
00:24:47,370 --> 00:24:49,169
What's your name?

521
00:24:49,170 --> 00:24:50,369
Lorraine Fletcher.

522
00:24:50,370 --> 00:24:52,449
Noted.

523
00:24:52,450 --> 00:24:53,609
Where's my husband?

524
00:24:53,610 --> 00:24:55,449
That's what I wanted to say.

525
00:24:55,450 --> 00:24:57,729
He's in the TV lounge down there.

526
00:24:57,730 --> 00:24:59,730
- Down where?
- Down there.

527
00:25:07,450 --> 00:25:10,249
(Clive sobbing)

528
00:25:10,250 --> 00:25:12,250
Well, what's the point of this?

529
00:25:14,410 --> 00:25:16,609
He's dying.

530
00:25:16,610 --> 00:25:19,740
For God's sake, is
that supposed to help?

531
00:25:20,940 --> 00:25:22,979
There's no cure, Val.

532
00:25:22,980 --> 00:25:25,099
That's what they say.

533
00:25:25,100 --> 00:25:27,100
That's what those queers

534
00:25:28,420 --> 00:25:31,259
and those women and their doctors all say,

535
00:25:31,260 --> 00:25:32,819
because they all do and they say

536
00:25:32,820 --> 00:25:34,019
and they think the same things.

537
00:25:34,020 --> 00:25:36,779
They all worship the same rubbish.

538
00:25:36,780 --> 00:25:40,020
Now you, you stop it, stop it, stop it.

539
00:25:54,780 --> 00:25:56,780
I don't want you coming in here.

540
00:25:57,860 --> 00:25:59,860
This is private.

541
00:26:04,500 --> 00:26:06,539
I'm sorry.

542
00:26:06,540 --> 00:26:08,540
I really sorry.

543
00:26:11,180 --> 00:26:15,459
I want to know, are you infectious?

544
00:26:15,460 --> 00:26:17,460
Well I could be, yes.

545
00:26:19,260 --> 00:26:20,739
[Valerie] I know it's caught from sex.

546
00:26:20,740 --> 00:26:21,979
Oh don't, Mom.

547
00:26:21,980 --> 00:26:24,179
But how, how do you catch?

548
00:26:24,180 --> 00:26:28,820
It's fluids, like blood and you know,

549
00:26:29,860 --> 00:26:31,860
oh don't do this to me.

550
00:26:33,100 --> 00:26:35,700
And spit, is it in your spit?

551
00:26:37,460 --> 00:26:39,460
[Richie] No one really
knows (sniffling).

552
00:26:43,780 --> 00:26:45,780
You're not infectious,

553
00:26:47,700 --> 00:26:49,700
(sobbing) not to me.

554
00:26:52,860 --> 00:26:55,590
(Richie sobbing)

555
00:26:56,470 --> 00:27:01,709
My boy, oh my boy.

556
00:27:01,710 --> 00:27:04,389
My boy.

557
00:27:04,390 --> 00:27:05,629
I'm sorry, Mom.

558
00:27:05,630 --> 00:27:07,630
Oh, you silly thing.

559
00:27:10,030 --> 00:27:11,749
[Ritchie] I wanted to tell you.

560
00:27:11,750 --> 00:27:13,509
[Valerie] Oh, I know sweetheart.

561
00:27:13,510 --> 00:27:15,869
You are going to be fine.

562
00:27:15,870 --> 00:27:19,910
I'm gonna take you home
and I can make you better.

563
00:27:21,590 --> 00:27:25,949
(gulls screeching) (waves crashing)

564
00:27:25,950 --> 00:27:27,949
Your grandmother
bought me a copy of this.

565
00:27:27,950 --> 00:27:30,469
Do you remember, she had
that great big bookcase?

566
00:27:30,470 --> 00:27:33,789
(phone ringing)

567
00:27:33,790 --> 00:27:35,790
No, no, no, no.

568
00:27:38,150 --> 00:27:39,669
Hi, it's only me.

569
00:27:39,670 --> 00:27:40,909
How is he?

570
00:27:40,910 --> 00:27:42,549
Not bad, thank you.

571
00:27:42,550 --> 00:27:43,949
He's okay.

572
00:27:43,950 --> 00:27:45,069
[Jill] Can I talk to him?

573
00:27:45,070 --> 00:27:47,070
He's fast asleep.

574
00:27:47,550 --> 00:27:49,269
What does the consultant say?

575
00:27:49,270 --> 00:27:51,149
Well, I'm afraid he was shocked

576
00:27:51,150 --> 00:27:52,229
that a boy in Richie's condition

577
00:27:52,230 --> 00:27:53,989
could be given chemotherapy.

578
00:27:53,990 --> 00:27:55,669
[Jill] That was his choice.

579
00:27:55,670 --> 00:27:57,709
So now it's his fault?

580
00:27:57,710 --> 00:28:01,549
Okay, we thought we could get the ferry.

581
00:28:01,550 --> 00:28:02,789
We'd love to see him.

582
00:28:02,790 --> 00:28:04,790
I think it's best to wait.

583
00:28:05,550 --> 00:28:07,629
We could just pop in for
10 minutes, that's all.

584
00:28:07,630 --> 00:28:10,389
I would remind you that
you had an awful lot of time

585
00:28:10,390 --> 00:28:12,390
with him when I didn't.

586
00:28:13,030 --> 00:28:14,269
I'll tell him you called.

587
00:28:14,270 --> 00:28:16,270
Thank you, bye bye.

588
00:28:18,030 --> 00:28:20,030
Oh, Jesus Christ.

589
00:28:22,590 --> 00:28:25,029
I'm reading him "Watership
Down," but I'm rubbish.

590
00:28:25,030 --> 00:28:27,030
I can't do all the voices.

591
00:28:28,110 --> 00:28:30,200
I said to him there's only
one actor in this family.

592
00:28:31,760 --> 00:28:33,479
Do you remember that "Hay Fever?"

593
00:28:33,480 --> 00:28:36,199
Oh, it was brilliant.

594
00:28:36,200 --> 00:28:38,200
You were so good in that.

595
00:28:40,200 --> 00:28:41,479
I bought you some Garibaldi,

596
00:28:41,480 --> 00:28:43,639
'cause I thought if you get
hungry there's fruit in them.

597
00:28:43,640 --> 00:28:45,639
Bit dry.

598
00:28:45,640 --> 00:28:47,640
I've still got that thrush.

599
00:28:48,600 --> 00:28:49,799
Who was that on the phone?

600
00:28:49,800 --> 00:28:51,800
Jill, she sends her love.

601
00:28:52,440 --> 00:28:53,479
Is she gonna come visit?

602
00:28:53,480 --> 00:28:55,480
She says she's very busy with work.

603
00:28:57,360 --> 00:28:59,360
You can have a bit of TV.

604
00:29:04,360 --> 00:29:05,559
I'll nip down the pub.

605
00:29:05,560 --> 00:29:07,439
[Valerie] Oh yes, I thought you would.

606
00:29:07,440 --> 00:29:08,279
[Clive] I'm allowed a drink.

607
00:29:08,280 --> 00:29:09,399
[Valerie] Did I say you couldn't?

608
00:29:09,400 --> 00:29:11,400
Thank you for the permission.

609
00:29:16,240 --> 00:29:20,000
Now, I was thinking how
much you used to love this.

610
00:29:22,760 --> 00:29:23,559
Do you remember?

611
00:29:23,560 --> 00:29:24,679
It's okay, just sit down.

612
00:29:24,680 --> 00:29:27,519
You were 5-years-old,
and you'd dance around

613
00:29:27,520 --> 00:29:28,359
because it was so funny,

614
00:29:28,360 --> 00:29:30,360
and you'd be a little mouse (laughs).

615
00:29:31,880 --> 00:29:33,879
Oh, do you remember?

616
00:29:33,880 --> 00:29:38,399
And you loved the bit where
it says how lucky we am.

617
00:29:38,400 --> 00:29:42,279
(lively upbeat music)

618
00:29:42,280 --> 00:29:43,959
♪ A mouse lived in a windmill ♪

619
00:29:43,960 --> 00:29:46,039
♪ In old Amsterdam ♪

620
00:29:46,040 --> 00:29:47,879
♪ A windmill with a mouse in ♪

621
00:29:47,880 --> 00:29:49,559
- ♪ And he wasn't grousin' ♪
- Do you remember

622
00:29:49,560 --> 00:29:52,199
because it changes the rhyme
to rhyme with Amsterdam?

623
00:29:52,200 --> 00:29:54,319
♪ How lucky I am ♪

624
00:29:54,320 --> 00:29:56,359
♪ Livin' in a windmill in old Amsterdam ♪

625
00:29:56,360 --> 00:29:58,239
How lucky we am.

626
00:29:58,240 --> 00:30:00,039
♪ I saw a mouse ♪

627
00:30:00,040 --> 00:30:01,039
Don't you think?

628
00:30:01,040 --> 00:30:03,319
♪ Where, there on the stair ♪

629
00:30:03,320 --> 00:30:05,159
How lucky we am.

630
00:30:05,160 --> 00:30:06,369
♪ Right there ♪

631
00:30:06,370 --> 00:30:09,369
♪ A little mouse with clogs on ♪

632
00:30:09,370 --> 00:30:11,449
I'm a little late, sorry.

633
00:30:11,450 --> 00:30:13,449
Stopped off for supplies,

634
00:30:13,450 --> 00:30:15,289
although this is far too good for you lot.

635
00:30:15,290 --> 00:30:16,129
Hello darling.

636
00:30:16,130 --> 00:30:16,969
[Jill] Nice to see you.

637
00:30:16,970 --> 00:30:18,329
- You all right?
- Yes.

638
00:30:18,330 --> 00:30:20,890
No, no, I'm not stopping
if you don't mind.

639
00:30:22,650 --> 00:30:24,529
What's news from the Rialto?

640
00:30:24,530 --> 00:30:25,849
We spoke to that solicitor.

641
00:30:25,850 --> 00:30:27,489
He said technically Richie's mom and dad

642
00:30:27,490 --> 00:30:28,489
could be breaking the law.

643
00:30:28,490 --> 00:30:30,689
He said that here's evidence
that Richie could be unsafe.

644
00:30:30,690 --> 00:30:32,249
He said that medical care is definitely

645
00:30:32,250 --> 00:30:33,689
going to be worse on the Isle of Wight.

646
00:30:33,690 --> 00:30:34,529
But so what?

647
00:30:34,530 --> 00:30:35,969
I mean what are we gonna
do, take them to court?

648
00:30:35,970 --> 00:30:36,809
I would.

649
00:30:36,810 --> 00:30:37,649
Fuck them, do it.

650
00:30:37,650 --> 00:30:39,649
[Ash] But the solicitor
said that Richie said yes,

651
00:30:39,650 --> 00:30:40,649
that's the problem.

652
00:30:40,650 --> 00:30:42,289
Right, so I've done my sums,

653
00:30:42,290 --> 00:30:45,289
and I've worked out that
Richie did that voiceover

654
00:30:45,290 --> 00:30:47,289
for that Japanese cartoon.

655
00:30:47,290 --> 00:30:49,209
I guess that sort of thing is repeated

656
00:30:49,210 --> 00:30:51,169
for at least five or six years,

657
00:30:51,170 --> 00:30:54,969
which amounts to £700, minus my 10%.

658
00:30:54,970 --> 00:30:57,969
You should have this as an advance.

659
00:30:57,970 --> 00:30:58,809
[Jill] What for?

660
00:30:58,810 --> 00:31:00,849
Well to go there, to the Isle of Wight,

661
00:31:00,850 --> 00:31:03,889
just move there properly
for as long as it takes.

662
00:31:03,890 --> 00:31:06,249
That should get you a couple
of rooms in a nice little B&B

663
00:31:06,250 --> 00:31:09,049
or whatever they have
on the Isle of Wight.

664
00:31:09,050 --> 00:31:13,689
Just go, lay siege on the
doorstep till they give in.

665
00:31:13,690 --> 00:31:15,369
I can't go, I've got to work.

666
00:31:15,370 --> 00:31:16,569
Well, I'm all right.

667
00:31:16,570 --> 00:31:18,209
If we take the car, we could
get Richie out the house

668
00:31:18,210 --> 00:31:19,369
and drive him back.

669
00:31:19,370 --> 00:31:21,609
No, I wasn't thinking of a rescue.

670
00:31:21,610 --> 00:31:22,529
But we could.

671
00:31:22,530 --> 00:31:23,889
You're goin' there for one reason,

672
00:31:23,890 --> 00:31:27,169
and that's to say goodbye,
because this only ends one way.

673
00:31:27,170 --> 00:31:30,249
No, but he was ill last
July and then he got better.

674
00:31:30,250 --> 00:31:32,129
And one day he won't.

675
00:31:32,130 --> 00:31:35,050
I'm sorry darling, but
that is an absolute fact.

676
00:31:36,610 --> 00:31:38,610
So take the money and fly.

677
00:31:39,610 --> 00:31:41,489
Listen, I've gotta go.

678
00:31:41,490 --> 00:31:43,779
If there's any money left, I'll have it.

679
00:31:43,780 --> 00:31:45,780
Good luck.

680
00:31:48,860 --> 00:31:50,539
Give him my love.

681
00:31:50,540 --> 00:31:53,980
(light electronic music)

682
00:32:04,100 --> 00:32:06,139
That's five nights upfront,
but we might be longer.

683
00:32:06,140 --> 00:32:06,939
Is that a problem?

684
00:32:06,940 --> 00:32:08,139
That's fine for the next three weeks,

685
00:32:08,140 --> 00:32:10,859
but soon as we hit Christmas,
we've got bookings.

686
00:32:10,860 --> 00:32:12,219
I'll let you know as soon as we can.

687
00:32:12,220 --> 00:32:13,539
Have you got a telephone?

688
00:32:13,540 --> 00:32:15,299
It's called the Bay Tree
House on the seafront.

689
00:32:15,300 --> 00:32:17,059
It's just a 20 minute
drive from your house.

690
00:32:17,060 --> 00:32:19,499
What on earth have you done that for?

691
00:32:19,500 --> 00:32:22,979
I told you, I said clearly
he's not well enough.

692
00:32:22,980 --> 00:32:24,939
[Jill] That's okay, we can wait.

693
00:32:24,940 --> 00:32:27,379
We're here for as long as it takes.

694
00:32:27,380 --> 00:32:28,219
You know what I don't understand,

695
00:32:28,220 --> 00:32:30,099
am I supposed to find this intimidating?

696
00:32:30,100 --> 00:32:32,259
Valerie, we're not causing trouble,

697
00:32:32,260 --> 00:32:34,379
we're just here, and we love him.

698
00:32:34,380 --> 00:32:35,739
It's as simple as that.

699
00:32:35,740 --> 00:32:36,579
If you ever want the afternoon off

700
00:32:36,580 --> 00:32:39,019
or just an hour to yourself, we can come.

701
00:32:39,020 --> 00:32:41,020
Are you saying I can't cope?

702
00:32:41,500 --> 00:32:44,059
I'm just saying here we are,

703
00:32:44,060 --> 00:32:47,179
and I will phone every day
until he's ready, okay?

704
00:32:47,180 --> 00:32:49,180
Lots of love.

705
00:32:49,980 --> 00:32:52,019
Okay, well I'll try you again tomorrow.

706
00:32:52,020 --> 00:32:54,020
Give him my love, bye.

707
00:32:54,420 --> 00:32:57,219
Okay, well give him my love,
tell him I said, "Hello."

708
00:32:57,220 --> 00:32:59,220
Thanks Valerie, bye.

709
00:33:01,020 --> 00:33:02,499
Just tell him we'd really love to see him,

710
00:33:02,500 --> 00:33:04,500
and we're waiting, okay.

711
00:33:07,380 --> 00:33:09,380
Let's say another five nights.

712
00:33:10,500 --> 00:33:11,619
I really wanna see him,

713
00:33:11,620 --> 00:33:14,139
and I think if you ask him
I bet he'll say the same.

714
00:33:14,140 --> 00:33:15,099
Will you try?

715
00:33:15,100 --> 00:33:18,989
♪ Roll out the barrel ♪

716
00:33:18,990 --> 00:33:22,749
♪ We'll have a barrel of fun ♪

717
00:33:22,750 --> 00:33:26,669
♪ Roll out the barrel ♪

718
00:33:26,670 --> 00:33:30,469
♪ We've got the blues on the run ♪

719
00:33:30,470 --> 00:33:33,269
So Dr. Clare said if we
can reduce the Phenytoin,

720
00:33:33,270 --> 00:33:36,230
then well that's one less pill,
and that's got to be good.

721
00:33:38,790 --> 00:33:41,829
Now I remember when your
granddad was in hospital,

722
00:33:41,830 --> 00:33:44,069
he said, "If only they'd
stop giving me medicine,

723
00:33:44,070 --> 00:33:46,309
I'd be fine."

724
00:33:46,310 --> 00:33:48,109
You remember him?

725
00:33:48,110 --> 00:33:50,110
Yeah.

726
00:33:50,630 --> 00:33:52,630
He was a terrible man.

727
00:33:54,150 --> 00:33:56,150
What do people know?

728
00:33:56,750 --> 00:33:58,109
In what way?

729
00:33:58,110 --> 00:34:00,110
The neighbors, Auntie Kat?

730
00:34:01,550 --> 00:34:02,869
Do they know what's wrong with me?

731
00:34:02,870 --> 00:34:05,429
[Valerie] It's none of their business.

732
00:34:05,430 --> 00:34:06,789
I don't wanna be a secret.

733
00:34:06,790 --> 00:34:09,549
Now, you just think
about getting better.

734
00:34:09,550 --> 00:34:11,550
Boys die in London,

735
00:34:13,070 --> 00:34:16,350
and they say it's cancer or pneumonia,

736
00:34:17,590 --> 00:34:19,229
and they don't say what it really is.

737
00:34:19,230 --> 00:34:21,669
Look, maybe we should think about tea.

738
00:34:21,670 --> 00:34:24,590
They just lie and I don't want that.

739
00:34:25,790 --> 00:34:27,790
Do you know why?

740
00:34:30,550 --> 00:34:32,550
I had so much fun (laughs).

741
00:34:35,830 --> 00:34:37,830
I had all those boys.

742
00:34:38,590 --> 00:34:39,629
I had hundreds of them.

743
00:34:39,630 --> 00:34:41,029
Oh Richie, don't talk like that.

744
00:34:41,030 --> 00:34:41,829
And do you know what?

745
00:34:41,830 --> 00:34:44,349
I can remember every single one of them.

746
00:34:44,350 --> 00:34:46,430
Some boy's hair or his lips,

747
00:34:47,550 --> 00:34:49,550
the way he laughed at a joke,

748
00:34:50,190 --> 00:34:53,470
his bedroom, the stairs,

749
00:34:55,000 --> 00:34:57,119
his photographs,

750
00:34:57,120 --> 00:34:59,120
his face as he cums.

751
00:35:01,360 --> 00:35:04,599
Seeing him across the club
six years later and thinking,

752
00:35:04,600 --> 00:35:06,600
oh, that's him,

753
00:35:08,040 --> 00:35:11,080
and he's with someone and he looks happy.

754
00:35:13,000 --> 00:35:15,760
And I think, oh that's nice,

755
00:35:17,600 --> 00:35:19,600
'cause they were great.

756
00:35:20,200 --> 00:35:24,480
Some of them are bastards,
but they were all great.

757
00:35:26,960 --> 00:35:31,840
That's what people will forget,
that it was so much fun.

758
00:35:33,560 --> 00:35:36,160
(gentle music)

759
00:35:43,640 --> 00:35:45,640
Do you understand what I mean?

760
00:35:47,600 --> 00:35:49,600
No.

761
00:35:56,440 --> 00:35:59,120
That's why I need to see Jill.

762
00:36:01,520 --> 00:36:04,200
(Valerie sighs)

763
00:36:10,120 --> 00:36:12,120
Will you get her for me, please?

764
00:36:17,440 --> 00:36:20,360
(gulls screeching)

765
00:36:36,810 --> 00:36:38,810
Hi, I got your message.

766
00:36:39,330 --> 00:36:41,330
It wasn't so cold at the time.

767
00:36:41,850 --> 00:36:44,409
I should have said
let's meet in that cafe.

768
00:36:44,410 --> 00:36:46,410
Well, we can go there.

769
00:36:51,090 --> 00:36:55,370
He said he wanted to
see you, so here I am.

770
00:36:57,050 --> 00:36:59,209
I should apologize really.

771
00:36:59,210 --> 00:37:01,369
I haven't handled this very well,

772
00:37:01,370 --> 00:37:04,969
I realize that now, and I'm sorry.

773
00:37:04,970 --> 00:37:07,409
No, I'm sorry too.

774
00:37:07,410 --> 00:37:09,049
It was a bit mad turning up like that.

775
00:37:09,050 --> 00:37:11,009
I just didn't know what else to do.

776
00:37:11,010 --> 00:37:13,010
You made things very difficult.

777
00:37:13,850 --> 00:37:16,849
Okay, and I'm sorry,

778
00:37:16,850 --> 00:37:19,329
but all we wanna do is
see him and say hello

779
00:37:19,330 --> 00:37:21,330
and give him our love.

780
00:37:22,730 --> 00:37:24,730
He died yesterday,

781
00:37:26,770 --> 00:37:28,770
yesterday afternoon.

782
00:37:53,130 --> 00:37:56,210
(Valerie whimpering)

783
00:38:12,180 --> 00:38:14,860
(Clive sobbing)

784
00:38:21,060 --> 00:38:23,060
Yesterday?

785
00:38:25,980 --> 00:38:30,659
They said it was his heart,
pressure from the lymphoma.

786
00:38:30,660 --> 00:38:34,100
No pain they said, before you
start, so it wasn't my fault.

787
00:38:35,500 --> 00:38:37,500
Would have happened wherever he was.

788
00:38:41,100 --> 00:38:43,100
Did he say anything?

789
00:38:44,060 --> 00:38:46,179
Not really.

790
00:38:46,180 --> 00:38:48,180
But what was the last thing he said?

791
00:38:48,980 --> 00:38:50,980
He asked for some water.

792
00:38:53,220 --> 00:38:54,699
Yesterday.

793
00:38:54,700 --> 00:38:57,299
You didn't think, we
were sitting in the B&B.

794
00:38:57,300 --> 00:38:58,659
You couldn't tell us last night?

795
00:38:58,660 --> 00:39:01,300
My son had died, you
weren't top of my list.

796
00:39:04,700 --> 00:39:07,420
But, I really did get this wrong,

797
00:39:12,700 --> 00:39:14,700
and I'm sorry about that.

798
00:39:18,660 --> 00:39:22,260
No, it might be nice
if we found that café.

799
00:39:24,900 --> 00:39:26,900
There's so much I want to ask.

800
00:39:28,540 --> 00:39:31,620
All those years in London, there
must be a thousand stories.

801
00:39:35,260 --> 00:39:37,620
Were you with him, yesterday?

802
00:39:38,740 --> 00:39:39,859
Were you there at the end?

803
00:39:39,860 --> 00:39:41,179
No, I'd gone downstairs.

804
00:39:41,180 --> 00:39:42,669
[Jill] He was on his own?

805
00:39:42,670 --> 00:39:44,429
- Yes.
- There was no one with him.

806
00:39:44,430 --> 00:39:46,109
That's not my fault.

807
00:39:46,110 --> 00:39:50,790
Actually it is your fault, Mrs. Tozer.

808
00:39:52,150 --> 00:39:55,429
All of this is your fault.

809
00:39:55,430 --> 00:39:57,430
Well thank you very much.

810
00:39:58,830 --> 00:40:00,029
That's ridiculous.

811
00:40:00,030 --> 00:40:02,390
But it is, right from the start,

812
00:40:03,350 --> 00:40:06,189
'cause I don't know what happened to you

813
00:40:06,190 --> 00:40:11,069
to make that house so loveless.

814
00:40:11,070 --> 00:40:14,229
But that's why Richie grew
up so ashamed of himself.

815
00:40:14,230 --> 00:40:16,230
I think we're finished.

816
00:40:17,590 --> 00:40:19,590
And then he killed people.

817
00:40:20,190 --> 00:40:21,749
And what is that supposed to mean?

818
00:40:21,750 --> 00:40:24,949
He was ashamed, and he
kept on being ashamed.

819
00:40:24,950 --> 00:40:29,589
He kept the shame going
by having sex with men,

820
00:40:29,590 --> 00:40:32,549
and infecting them and then running away.

821
00:40:32,550 --> 00:40:34,789
'Cause that's what shame does, Valerie.

822
00:40:34,790 --> 00:40:37,309
It makes him think he deserves it.

823
00:40:37,310 --> 00:40:40,230
The wards are full of men
who think they deserve it.

824
00:40:41,830 --> 00:40:46,589
They are dying, and a
little bit of them thinks,

825
00:40:46,590 --> 00:40:49,030
yes, this is right.

826
00:40:50,470 --> 00:40:51,429
I brought this on myself.

827
00:40:51,430 --> 00:40:56,109
It's my fault because the sex
that I love is killing me.

828
00:40:56,110 --> 00:40:58,150
I mean it's astonishing.

829
00:40:59,310 --> 00:41:02,910
The perfect virus came
along to prove you right.

830
00:41:04,310 --> 00:41:07,709
So that's what happened in your house.

831
00:41:07,710 --> 00:41:09,509
He died because of you.

832
00:41:09,510 --> 00:41:13,070
They all die because of you.

833
00:41:19,920 --> 00:41:21,639
[Valerie] I didn't know.

834
00:41:21,640 --> 00:41:24,240
(gentle music)

835
00:41:39,920 --> 00:41:42,600
(Rosco sobbing)

836
00:41:56,080 --> 00:41:59,400
(phone receiver clicks)

837
00:42:07,600 --> 00:42:10,120
(Ash sobbing)

838
00:42:39,160 --> 00:42:42,679
(guests murmuring)

839
00:42:42,680 --> 00:42:46,360
Merry Christmas (laughs).

840
00:42:49,480 --> 00:42:51,480
[Rosco] Jill.

841
00:42:53,040 --> 00:42:55,610
(Jill sobbing)

842
00:43:00,850 --> 00:43:03,690
(guests laughing)

843
00:43:05,490 --> 00:43:09,370
Do you remember when
he thought he'd lost it?

844
00:43:11,850 --> 00:43:16,850
I might have. (guests laughing)

845
00:43:18,250 --> 00:43:19,289
That's your mother.

846
00:43:19,290 --> 00:43:22,130
(guests laughing)

847
00:43:30,010 --> 00:43:32,170
[Guests] Cheers, cheers.

848
00:43:35,410 --> 00:43:37,890
(Ash sobbing)

849
00:43:40,650 --> 00:43:43,970
[Ash] I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry.

850
00:44:41,260 --> 00:44:42,459
Hi, how are you doing?

851
00:44:42,460 --> 00:44:44,460
[Jill] Fine.

852
00:44:46,540 --> 00:44:48,540
- Hi.
- Hi, Jill.

853
00:44:54,380 --> 00:44:57,739
(door knocking)

854
00:44:57,740 --> 00:44:58,979
Hello there.

855
00:44:58,980 --> 00:45:01,780
Hi, do you mind?

856
00:45:04,620 --> 00:45:06,299
I'm Jill.

857
00:45:06,300 --> 00:45:08,300
What's your name?

858
00:45:09,260 --> 00:45:11,260
Marcus.

859
00:45:11,580 --> 00:45:13,219
You okay, Marcus?

860
00:45:13,220 --> 00:45:15,219
Anything I can get for you?

861
00:45:15,220 --> 00:45:17,259
No.

862
00:45:17,260 --> 00:45:19,820
(gentle music)

863
00:45:22,660 --> 00:45:27,500
Well, I might just sit here
for a bit if you don't mind.

864
00:45:40,700 --> 00:45:42,700
Is that okay?

865
00:45:43,220 --> 00:45:45,220
Yeah.

866
00:45:46,420 --> 00:45:48,420
Good.

867
00:46:05,820 --> 00:46:07,589
[Richie] She made good
view of me indeed so much

868
00:46:07,590 --> 00:46:10,229
that sure me thought her
eyes had lost her tongue.

869
00:46:10,230 --> 00:46:11,349
But this is a woman's speech.

870
00:46:11,350 --> 00:46:13,389
So what, I'm being radical.

871
00:46:13,390 --> 00:46:15,109
Now, shut up heathens.

872
00:46:15,110 --> 00:46:15,949
Where was I?

873
00:46:15,950 --> 00:46:16,909
I left no ring with her.

874
00:46:16,910 --> 00:46:18,069
No, I've done that, hold on.

875
00:46:18,070 --> 00:46:19,309
[Rosco] Richie, can
I say you're terrible?

876
00:46:19,310 --> 00:46:21,429
No, you can't, fuck off.

877
00:46:21,430 --> 00:46:24,349
For she did speak in starts distractedly.

878
00:46:24,350 --> 00:46:26,149
She loves me, sure.

879
00:46:26,150 --> 00:46:27,789
The cunning of her passion invites me

880
00:46:27,790 --> 00:46:29,429
in this churlish messenger.

881
00:46:29,430 --> 00:46:30,629
None of my lord's ring?

882
00:46:30,630 --> 00:46:33,189
Why, he sent her none.

883
00:46:33,190 --> 00:46:34,949
I am the man.

884
00:46:34,950 --> 00:46:37,949
(group laughing)

885
00:46:37,950 --> 00:46:41,549
If it be so, as it is, poor lady,

886
00:46:41,550 --> 00:46:43,909
she were better love a dream.

887
00:46:43,910 --> 00:46:45,069
(gull screeching)

888
00:46:45,070 --> 00:46:46,549
(group screaming)

889
00:46:46,550 --> 00:46:49,349
(group laughing)

890
00:46:49,350 --> 00:46:54,350
(group clapping) (group cheering)

891
00:46:59,830 --> 00:47:02,350
(light music)

892
00:47:16,830 --> 00:47:21,830
♪ When your day is long ♪

893
00:47:22,430 --> 00:47:24,749
♪ And the night, ♪

894
00:47:24,750 --> 00:47:29,750
♪ The night is yours alone ♪

895
00:47:32,030 --> 00:47:37,030
♪ When you're sure you've had enough ♪

896
00:47:37,430 --> 00:47:40,030
♪ Of this life ♪