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I thought your story was beautiful.
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Like I'm hearing your most
private, most intimate thoughts.
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This wonderful hidden
life you have access to.
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I'm completely jealous.
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Thanks.
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For reading it.
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What will you do with it?
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Don't know.
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You should submit it to the magazine.
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- They liked the last one.
- I don't know.
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Don't know if it's good enough.
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Ah, you're just fishing now.
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It's brilliant.
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♪ Happy birthday to you ♪
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♪ Happy birthday to you ♪
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♪ Happy birthday dear Marianne ♪
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♪ Happy birthday to you ♪
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Right, make a wish.
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This looks so yummy.
I can't believe you made this.
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It's a perfect essay distraction.
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It's very sweet. Totally unnecessary.
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Shut your face. You have to have a cake.
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Did you get good presents, Marianne?
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Lovely presents. Thank you, Niall.
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And what did you get her, Connell?
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Uh, a book.
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Some Frank O'Hara poems.
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Anyway...
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I love it.
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And what about your family?
They get you anything nice?
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A sports car or a pony?
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What are you implying?
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Well, I'm just going
off my own birthday list.
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Mm, they don't really
go in for birthdays.
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Oh, fair enough.
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Mm, this cake's fuckin' delicious.
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Birthday message?
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Yeah.
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My mother.
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Not exactly "happy birthday".
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What does it say?
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"Send me back the keys to the
Dublin flat as soon as possible".
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So...
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I'm sorry.
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It's okay.
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I'm okay.
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Did you like that?
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Yeah.
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Very much.
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Good.
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... could be described
as bureaucratic inertia.
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Who? Connell?
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Yeah, all right, well,
you're getting better.
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What do you fancy doing tonight?
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- Watch a film.
- Sounds good.
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- Oh, I might go for a swim.
- Another one.
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But I, I could pick up some
food and come to you after.
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Great.
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Did we get married and become
50-years-old without noticing?
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Maybe.
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I actually love it.
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Do you think our first-year selves
would hate what we've become?
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I should have known, to be fair.
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I think first-year me
would have been amazed.
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"Look at her, she's actually content".
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Wow.
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- You all right?
- Mm-hmm, yeah.
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- I just got this email.
- From who?
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Connell, from who?
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It's, uh...
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it's, it's from this
university in New York.
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They're offering me a place in their
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MFA creative writing program.
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Oh.
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I didn't even know you'd applied.
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I mean, congratulations.
I'm, I'm not surprised
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they've offered you a place.
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I'm just a bit surprised
you didn't mention it.
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Well, it was such a long shot.
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I, um, I-I was embarrassed.
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To be honest, I, uh...
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I still look up to
you a lot, and I, uh...
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I wouldn't want you to see me,
I don't know what, deluded, or...
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- Connell.
- And I,
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I don't even know why I applied.
It wasn't even my idea.
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- Whose idea was it?
- Uh, one... one of my tutors.
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It's really brilliant, Connell.
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You can see me in New York, can you?
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Yeah, actually.
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- I can.
- I can't even...
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It's making me feel...
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Now is not the time for me
to go halfway across the world
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and live in a city where
I don't know anyone.
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Like...
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I could barely walk down
the street in Dublin
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a couple of months ago
without having a panic attack.
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How's that gonna work in New York?
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Put it away for a bit.
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It, it's brilliant they
offered you a place.
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Don't think about what
to do with it for now.
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I'm not going.
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Okay.
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And of course, we have to thank Connell.
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For stepping up and turning out to be
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the most naturally fucking
gifted editor of all times.
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Leading me to announce that
our latest brilliant issue
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launches tomorrow, and
we could not be prouder.
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And I made punch, and
it's fucking delicious.
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- And it's fucking lethal.
- Drink up!
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Marianne.
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- Yeah?
- Can I ask you something?
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Mm-hmm.
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Christmas.
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What about it?
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Would you like to come to ours?
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I don't know, Connell.
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- That's kind.
- Lorraine would love to have you.
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You don't know that.
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- What?
- I think I do know that.
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It's her idea.
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- That's kind of her.
- Mm-hmm.
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So?
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So...
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♪ You're all I want ♪
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- Stop.
- Oh, Connell.
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- Yeah?
- It's not funny.
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♪ All I want ♪
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♪ My whole life through ♪
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♪ Each day is just ♪
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♪ Like Christmas ♪
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♪ Anytime that I'm ♪
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♪ With you ♪
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There they are.
Aw, look at the two of you.
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A little Christmas miracle.
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Been cooking for weeks. Get in here.
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- Hi.
- Hello, sweetheart.
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Oh.
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Thanks for having me.
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- Where should I put these, where?
- I'll take them off ya.
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Editor. Well, that's impressive.
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No, well, I'm just really
doing it as a favor.
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I'm sure people edit
newspapers as a favor.
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He's doing brilliantly.
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It's a literary magazine.
It's absolutely not a newspaper.
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Am I, am I involved in politics?
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What?
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Why is that funny?
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Am I Dobby?
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- Do I like me?
- Oh, no.
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No...
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You all right?
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Yeah.
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- Is it too much?
- No.
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It's so nice.
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Proper Christmas.
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It's lovely.
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Well, you have to do something.
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What are your school friends up to?
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Brennan's, like every year.
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I'm just not sure I could see
a New Year's in a Brennan's.
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Hello, Denise. Happy New Year.
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What do people in town think of her?
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I suppose...
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I suppose she'd be considered a bit odd.
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Oh.
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Your cheeks are red.
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It's cold.
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Will you come tonight?
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You should.
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Far be it from me to disobey an order.
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All right, hey, hey, you!
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- How's it going, Gary?
- Good to see you.
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- Good to see you, too.
- Happy New Year to you.
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- Hey!
- Hey!
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So nice to see you.
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- You look amazing.
- So do you.
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You look gorgeous.
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Marianne, how are you getting on?
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Happy New Year, how are you?
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Good to see ya. Good,
good. Get you a drink?
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- Yes, please. Would you like one?
- No, no, no.
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- See you in a second.
- One second.
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- Marianne Sheridan.
- Hi.
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I love you.
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I love you, too.
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You all right?
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Yeah, I am.
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Just never felt like home.
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Didn't feel right to
be here to be honest.
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What?
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I've been thinking about New York.
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The offer.
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What about it?
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I don't know, I just...
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I keep imagining you being there.
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Writing.
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Right.
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- You've been thinking about it.
- Yeah.
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Yeah. A bit.
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Like, obviously, I... I've
thought about it a bit,
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but that doesn't mean that...
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Uh...
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it just feels too hard.
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Everything recently has been
hard or it's been an effort
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and maybe this year
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just needs to be
straightforward, you know?
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There's been a lot of
stuff that's been difficult.
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And painful.
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And this would be difficult and amazing.
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- Potentially, yes.
- It's New York.
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It's writing.
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It'd be fucking amazing, Connell.
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Yeah.
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Yeah, maybe.
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Would you come with me?
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We could be there together, and,
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and you could study or work, and...
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Why?
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I want to stay here.
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I want to live the life I'm living.
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It's quite a thing.
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And I'm getting better at it.
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Yeah.
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I'd miss you too much.
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I'd be sick.
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At first.
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But it would get better.
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Mm-hmm, yeah.
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Yeah, and it's only a year,
and then I'll be back.
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Don't promise that.
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You don't know...
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where either of us will be.
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Or what will happen.
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I wouldn't be here if it wasn't for you.
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No.
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That's true.
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I mean, you'd be
somewhere else entirely.
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You'd be a different person.
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And me, too.
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But we have done so much
good for one another.
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You know I love you.
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And I'm never gonna feel
the same way for anyone else.
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I know.
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I'll go.
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And I'll stay.
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And we'll be okay.
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