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[inspirational music]
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[wind blowing]
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[birds chirping]
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[bell tolling in distance]
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[horse clopping]
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[music continues]
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[Carolyn]
Full disclosure,
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when I charted
the course of my life
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and set off
for the distant horizon,
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this isn't exactly
what I had in mind.
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Aristotle had this idea,
that man is teleological.
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We're driven by a goal, a telos.
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For as long as I could remember,
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my destination
was never in question.
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I knew exactly
where I was going.
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Or so I thought.
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But that was before Oxford.
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That was before
everything changed.
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[woman]
You understand this is a highly coveted program, Carolyn.
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One of the defining
characteristics of our students
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is ambition,
a sense of a higher calling.
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[man]
Tell us, Carolyn, what do you want most in life?
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[young Carolyn]
My teacher says the problem is unsolvable.
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[man]
Well, clearly she doesn't know who she's dealing with.
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But what if I can't do it?
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I don't know any other kid
that read the Iliadat seven.
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Six. The Odysseyat seven.
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[chuckles]
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You've been given a gift, kiddo.
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[chuckles]
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Knowledge is power.
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[gentle music]
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Mark it out.
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- ["Christmas Eve In My Home
Town" by Eddie Fisher] - ♪ And there were carols... ♪
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Okay.
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Okay, ready.
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♪ Laughter everywhere ♪
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♪ Couples kissing
under the mistletoe ♪
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♪ I can't help reminiscing ♪
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- [man talking indistinctly
over the phone] - ♪ Knowing I'll be missing ♪
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- No--
- ♪ Christmas Eve in my hometown ♪
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No. No!
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[loud clatter]
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♪ ...can erase ♪
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♪ Memories I embrace ♪
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♪ Those familiar... ♪
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[Carolyn]
In one moment, my entire world imploded.
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- ♪ There's so much... ♪
- The father I knew,
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- the man I trusted
with my life... - [loud heartbeat]
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...was an elaborate
work of fiction.
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[newscaster]
Local businessman Charles Drake was arraigned today
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on multiple felony charges.
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[Carolyn]
While Mom prayed the rosary,
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I moved on from childish things.
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There was no
mystical intervention. Only knowledge.
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Can you think of a time
when you wanted to click your ruby slippers and go home?
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The slippers are silver,
not ruby.
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They're silver in the book,
ruby in the movie.
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Doesn't matter
what color they are.
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Unless, like the movie,
you want to ignore
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the obvious political allegory
at the heart of the novel.
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It's clearly a debate
with the gold standard, hence the silver slippers.
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It's a fable. Okay?
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- Fantasy.
- About politics in the early 20th century.
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- That's enough. Thank you.
- But we're talking about the book.
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[Carolyn]
So if you asked me about my higher calling,
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what I wanted most in life,
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I could say
with full confidence...
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A doctorate.
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[Carolyn]
I doubled down.
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I was the consummate
overachiever.
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I breezed through high school
without breaking a sweat.
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As Swinburne said,
"Glory to man in the highest for man is master of things."
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That was not a part
of the assigned reading list.
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What do you want me to say?
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With Dad out of the picture
and Mom back to work full-time,
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we were barely scraping by.
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So I picked up the slack.
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And, and a Dr Pepper's.
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The parmesan thing is ours.
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- Yeah--
- Okay. Uh, anything else, guys?
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- Couple of things come to mind.
- [laughter]
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Assholes.
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College came in the form
of a full undergraduate scholarship
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so long as I maintained
straight As in all courses every year for four years.
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[loud pop music]
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[indistinct shouting]
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Cool.
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In short, Donne's Holy Sonnet 14
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is a classic subversion
by the dominant patriarchy,
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whether it be the church
or the male construction of God,
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of the threat posed
by maternal power or the feminine spiritus.
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Thank you.
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Impressive as usual.
You presented
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a thoughtful analysis
of the poem.
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But if I may be so bold,
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it, it struck me
as a grand adventure,
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and you're missing the point.
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Oh, sorry, I'm confused.
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Donne is saying that anything
without eternal significance...
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...uh, is ultimately
doomed to futility.
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The truth i--
is in the paradox. Hmm?
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Everything else is bullshit.
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- Right.
- Carol, what I'm saying to you is your purpose in life...
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...is to discern the,
the real...
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...from the bullshit.
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[gentle music]
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Fortis est veritas.
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The truth is strong.
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Of course, you know your Latin.
You know many things.
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"But he that increaseth
knowledge increaseth sorrow."
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Am I right?
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[chuckles]
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The truth, indeed...
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...is strong, Carol.
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And you will know when you are
properly ravished by it.
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As our friend, Mr. Donne,
so eloquently put it.
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[indistinct chatter on TV]
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[laughter on TV]
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[Carolyn]
This is a letter from the University of Oxford.
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[Carolyn's mom]
What does it say?
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It says I won a scholarship.
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When did you apply
for a scholarship?
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It was Dr. Deveaux's idea.
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But I thought
it was a long shot.
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"Meritorious scholarship
awarded on the basis
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of outstanding academic merit."
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- I need to think.
- "A full ride to Oxford."
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- I--
- What is there to think about?
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I'm just in shock.
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You have every right
to be in shock. This is big.
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[chuckling] I'm so proud of you.
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[Carolyn]
It took me about
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five seconds to decide.
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I was going to Oxford, England,
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- for my postgraduate studies.
- Okay, well, let's start
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with these papers here.
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"Society
and mingling allowance."
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- What does mingling entail?
- [Carolyn] I was on track
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to get my master's degree
in English literature.
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But it was up to me
to decide what period I wanted to focus on.
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I landed
on the Romantic writers,
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known for their poetic feeling
and longing for the infinite.
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[inspirational music]
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The University of Oxford
is not one college.
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It's made up
of 38 self-governing colleges and six private halls.
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I was assigned
to Tirian College,
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which is roughly 400 years
older than America.
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The school year is divided
into three terms.
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Michaelmas, Hilary, and Trinity.
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[deeply exhales]
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[birds chirping]
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[deeply exhales]
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So I set off
into the great unknown...
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...sane and unhaunted...
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...and driven
by a singular desire.
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[inspirational music increases]
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[sheep bleating]
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[man]
Last stop, Oxford.
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- Last stop, Oxford.
- [gasps]
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Oh, sorry.
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[man grunting]
Bloody hell.
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[sighs] What you got
in there? Bricks?
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Books.
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Uh, sorry. Do you know
where Tirian College is?
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Uh, no.
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But you throw
a rock around here,
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and you'll hit a college.
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Right.
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[engines rumbling]
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[inspirational music]
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[bird chirping]
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[bell tolling in distance]
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[indistinct chatter]
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[door opens]
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[grunts]
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[clattering]
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Shit. [sighs]
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Mm. [exhales]
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Those doors, they were built
in the 14th century
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to keep invaders at bay.
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Or at the very least,
to trip them up on the way in.
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[laughs]
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- Name?
- [sighs]
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- Carolyn Drake.
- Oh, Drake!
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Postgrad. English.
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- I'm impressed.
- I'm the porter.
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It's my job to know,
and it's my pleasure to know.
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Mm-mm. Uh, oh.
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[soft clatter]
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Staircase five, room seven.
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- Oh.
- Oh.
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- [both chuckle]
- Welcome to Tirian.
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[soft rattling]
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[wind blowing]
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[sighs and whispers]
All right. Oh!
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Staircase seven, room five.
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No. Staircase five, room seven.
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- [heavily breathing]
- [thudding]
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Bloody hell is Penny?
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Um, sorry.
I... don't know who Penny is.
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She's the accommodation manager.
I've got a faulty showerhead,
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- the most uneven spray--
- I'm really sorry to hear that.
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[sighs]
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Did you... just get here now?
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Yeah. Sorry. Uh, Carolyn.
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- Edward. Sorry, sorry.
[awkwardly chuckles] - Oh, God.
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- Would it be possible to have
a shower in your room? - I really don't think
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- we're at that point
in the relationship. - Hey. Well, neighbors.
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So, um, I'll be sure
to keep you down at night.
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You know,
frequent lodgers... [sighs]
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...at the Edwardian Palace.
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Oh, God. Okay. Yeah, I,
uh, I really appreciate that.
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Thanks so much.
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The more the merrier, I say.
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[door closes]
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[sighs] Lovely.
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[sighs]
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[vice chancellor]
Ladies and gentlemen, it is my great pleasure
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as Vice Chancellor to admit you
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as members
of the University of Oxford.
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I consent to you that
you are now listed as members
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and must observe
the university's statutes in so far as they concern you.
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And if I may impart some advice,
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you have before you
a period of freedom
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- in which to pursue
your chosen... - Linnea.
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- ...field of study.
- Carolyn.
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It is a rare
and coveted privilege.
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So do make the very most
of your time here.
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Good luck to you all.
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[inspirational music]
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[indistinct chatter]
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First time in the UK?
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- What gave it away?
- The stars in your eyes.
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I'm Hannah.
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Carolyn. Caro.
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[soft pouring]
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You can come a little closer.
I'm not gonna bite, love.
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Oh, but I might.
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Oh. O-- okay. [chuckle]
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[chuckles] Pardon me.
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Thanks, guys. [chuckle]
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I'll just take that-- [mumbling]
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You don't happen to have
a spare plate, do you?
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[banging]
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[speaking Latin]
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Regina Knight.
First female provost of Tirian.
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Only took several centuries.
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00:16:19,848 --> 00:16:21,589
- Amen.
- [all] Amen.
256
00:16:21,763 --> 00:16:22,546
Amen.
257
00:16:22,720 --> 00:16:24,722
[indistinct chatter]
258
00:16:28,378 --> 00:16:31,294
So what do you plan to do
with a degree in Indian Religion?
259
00:16:32,252 --> 00:16:34,384
My hope is to open
a charity one day.
260
00:16:34,558 --> 00:16:37,083
But in the meantime,
I plan to go back to Kolkata.
261
00:16:37,257 --> 00:16:39,650
There's a mission there
and they're always looking for help at the orphanage.
262
00:16:39,824 --> 00:16:41,000
What about you?
263
00:16:41,522 --> 00:16:42,523
Well...
264
00:16:43,480 --> 00:16:45,961
...I suppose I'll be braving
the violent waters of academia.
265
00:16:46,135 --> 00:16:49,269
Have your sights set
on the high table, do you, Professor Carolyn?
266
00:16:50,052 --> 00:16:53,055
[choir singing]
267
00:17:32,703 --> 00:17:35,750
[bell tolling]
268
00:17:37,795 --> 00:17:39,667
- [Father] I believe in God...
- ...believe in God...
269
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[all]
...the Father, the Almighty,
270
00:17:41,669 --> 00:17:44,019
Maker of Heaven and Earth,
271
00:17:44,193 --> 00:17:47,675
and in Jesus Christ,
His only Son, Our Lord.
272
00:17:47,849 --> 00:17:50,591
Who was conceived
by the Holy Ghost,
273
00:17:50,765 --> 00:17:55,030
born of the Virgin Mary,
suffered under Pontius Pilate,
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00:17:55,204 --> 00:17:57,859
was crucified, dead, and buried.
275
00:17:59,774 --> 00:18:00,905
[paper rustling]
276
00:18:01,993 --> 00:18:04,126
- [rattling]
- [grunts]
277
00:18:07,129 --> 00:18:10,089
She has a habit
of rearranging things when I'm not looking.
278
00:18:11,220 --> 00:18:14,310
Been doing it for years,
the saucy minx.
279
00:18:16,399 --> 00:18:17,357
Who?
280
00:18:18,358 --> 00:18:19,707
Amelia Kantor.
281
00:18:21,448 --> 00:18:26,105
And the delicate equilibrium
is restored.
282
00:18:26,888 --> 00:18:27,976
Take a seat.
283
00:18:28,977 --> 00:18:30,065
[loudly] Take a seat!
284
00:18:32,981 --> 00:18:36,202
Today begins what I hope will be
an enlightening study
285
00:18:36,767 --> 00:18:39,422
of the women
Romanticist writers.
286
00:18:40,119 --> 00:18:45,950
Good God. Is, is the sun
beating down on your face inside the room?
287
00:18:46,908 --> 00:18:51,652
- [softly chuckles]
- Despite being repressed by a male-dominant society,
288
00:18:52,653 --> 00:18:56,396
these writers produced work
that continues to inspire
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00:18:56,570 --> 00:18:58,572
and provoke today.
290
00:18:59,877 --> 00:19:03,490
Well, Romance isn't
just going to happen
291
00:19:03,664 --> 00:19:05,753
if you keep your books shut.
292
00:19:05,927 --> 00:19:10,497
Open, open, open them,
my little roses, my... thorn.
293
00:19:11,802 --> 00:19:14,109
Frankensteinby Mary Shelley.
294
00:19:15,632 --> 00:19:16,851
Let's begin.
295
00:19:17,025 --> 00:19:19,027
[indistinct chatter]
296
00:19:22,465 --> 00:19:24,206
[horn distantly honking]
297
00:19:26,165 --> 00:19:29,385
[Hannah softly]
Professor Rutledge is infamously superstitious.
298
00:19:29,559 --> 00:19:31,082
Bit of a spiritualist,
I've heard.
299
00:19:31,257 --> 00:19:33,084
Who is Amelia Kantor, anyway?
300
00:19:33,259 --> 00:19:35,348
She was a student here
in the '40s.
301
00:19:35,522 --> 00:19:36,697
In the what?
302
00:19:36,871 --> 00:19:38,568
In the '40s.
303
00:19:39,134 --> 00:19:42,137
No, no, no, no. No, no,
no, no, no. No, no, no.
304
00:19:42,311 --> 00:19:44,792
We have a strict no-ink policy.
305
00:19:44,966 --> 00:19:47,360
- The books must be protected
at all costs. - Oh.
306
00:19:47,534 --> 00:19:50,101
- If you must use ink,
you must use the ink station. - Okay, yeah. I didn't know
307
00:19:50,276 --> 00:19:52,713
- that there was--
- I am assuming that since you've been accepted
308
00:19:52,887 --> 00:19:54,758
into this hallowed
place of learning,
309
00:19:54,932 --> 00:19:57,283
you have managed to master
the basic principles
310
00:19:57,457 --> 00:19:59,067
of reading and writing. Mm?
311
00:19:59,241 --> 00:20:01,548
In which case you will see,
in black and white,
312
00:20:01,722 --> 00:20:03,724
the rules,
which are perfectly clear.
313
00:20:03,898 --> 00:20:06,553
So if you would kindly put
the offensive weapon
314
00:20:06,727 --> 00:20:08,903
back in its holster
and out of harm's way...
315
00:20:09,077 --> 00:20:10,121
[Carolyn]
Right.
316
00:20:12,036 --> 00:20:14,691
We can all live
to write another day.
317
00:20:14,865 --> 00:20:16,824
Yes? Very good.
318
00:20:16,998 --> 00:20:18,695
Thank you. Very good.
319
00:20:21,263 --> 00:20:24,048
[all softly chuckling]
320
00:20:24,223 --> 00:20:26,225
[upbeat music]
321
00:20:31,708 --> 00:20:33,710
[indistinct chatter
and laughter]
322
00:20:39,238 --> 00:20:42,066
- Are you gonna read that
all night? - If I have to.
323
00:20:42,241 --> 00:20:44,808
But you're missing out
on this great party.
324
00:20:46,201 --> 00:20:47,289
[Carolyn]
Yeah, it's a real rager.
325
00:20:48,812 --> 00:20:50,379
Drink up, ladies.
326
00:20:52,947 --> 00:20:55,384
- [Carolyn] What is it?
- Buck's fizz.
327
00:20:55,950 --> 00:20:59,910
- Looks like you're in.
- I think it's about time Dr. Drake loosened up.
328
00:21:00,084 --> 00:21:01,260
I second that notion.
329
00:21:02,043 --> 00:21:03,044
Just one drink.
330
00:21:03,653 --> 00:21:04,698
Cheers, ladies.
331
00:21:06,743 --> 00:21:09,006
[gentle music playing]
332
00:21:09,180 --> 00:21:12,271
[Carolyn]
I guess I do understand, actually, why it's so important,
333
00:21:12,445 --> 00:21:15,839
- because those books
are priceless. - [man] Mm-hmm.
334
00:21:16,013 --> 00:21:19,800
And I-- what if one of them
got damaged, you know?
335
00:21:19,974 --> 00:21:24,674
What, what, what happens then?
And McGrath was a compromise. And there was just thos--
336
00:21:25,371 --> 00:21:26,372
Oh, my God.
337
00:21:29,375 --> 00:21:31,681
Oh, my God,
how long have I been talking?
338
00:21:32,247 --> 00:21:35,119
[chuckles] Uh, a good while now.
339
00:21:35,946 --> 00:21:37,208
Mm.
340
00:21:38,122 --> 00:21:41,038
Oh, your, your friends,
they, um, signaled to you before they left.
341
00:21:41,212 --> 00:21:44,607
Uh, uh... signaled?
342
00:21:44,781 --> 00:21:46,130
Yeah, they went, um--
343
00:21:49,395 --> 00:21:50,570
Like that.
344
00:21:51,310 --> 00:21:54,574
- Oh, God, I gotta go.
Where's my bag? - Uh, your bag...
345
00:21:54,748 --> 00:21:56,271
- Where's my bag?
- ...is right here.
346
00:21:56,445 --> 00:21:57,751
- That, that's my bag.
- [clatters]
347
00:21:57,925 --> 00:21:59,622
- Whoa. Okay.
- No, no, no, no, no. Shit, shit.
348
00:21:59,796 --> 00:22:01,537
- It's fine, it's fine.
I got it. It's fine. - Okay.
349
00:22:01,711 --> 00:22:03,017
- I think we can leave that.
That's fine. - It's fine.
350
00:22:03,191 --> 00:22:04,192
I, I should
walk you back, right?
351
00:22:04,366 --> 00:22:06,412
I... [sighs] I'm fine.
352
00:22:06,586 --> 00:22:07,717
Are you sure?
353
00:22:10,590 --> 00:22:12,113
- I'm gonna get my coat.
- Okay.
354
00:22:12,679 --> 00:22:15,159
[man]
Your mom, have you talked to her since you got here?
355
00:22:15,725 --> 00:22:18,815
- What do you know about my mom?
- Well, quite a bit, actually.
356
00:22:18,989 --> 00:22:21,818
You were going on and on
and on... and on.
357
00:22:21,992 --> 00:22:24,038
Okay. Stupid buck fuzz.
358
00:22:25,126 --> 00:22:28,869
Well, I don't have the...
[hiccups] international...
359
00:22:29,043 --> 00:22:31,219
- ...phone plans. Yeah.
- Y-- you don't have international phone plans.
360
00:22:31,393 --> 00:22:33,917
You have a computer though.
You could probably use that, right?
361
00:22:34,091 --> 00:22:36,267
It's old.
362
00:22:36,442 --> 00:22:37,965
How old?
363
00:22:38,139 --> 00:22:40,533
It's, like, this thick.
364
00:22:41,098 --> 00:22:42,709
That's pretty old.
365
00:22:42,883 --> 00:22:45,494
Yeah. I'm not particularly...
[hiccups] tech-savvy.
366
00:22:45,668 --> 00:22:47,714
- Books are my thing.
- Yeah, mine too.
367
00:22:48,584 --> 00:22:50,760
I could help you out
with your computer if you'd like.
368
00:22:51,413 --> 00:22:52,501
I don't need your help.
369
00:22:53,284 --> 00:22:54,590
Okay. It's optional.
370
00:22:56,157 --> 00:22:57,593
Hmm.
371
00:22:59,029 --> 00:23:01,902
So... this is you.
372
00:23:03,643 --> 00:23:05,384
I'm not inviting you
into my room.
373
00:23:06,210 --> 00:23:08,909
Okay. Um, I guess
I'll see you at breakfast.
374
00:23:12,042 --> 00:23:12,956
I'll see you at lunch.
375
00:23:15,611 --> 00:23:17,004
Who are you, anyway?
376
00:23:19,049 --> 00:23:20,877
[Linnea]
TDH.
377
00:23:21,051 --> 00:23:24,359
- TD what?
- TDH. Tall, dark and handsome.
378
00:23:24,533 --> 00:23:27,144
- [chuckles]
- You left out annoying.
379
00:23:27,318 --> 00:23:30,887
Yes, you seemed very annoyed
at being lost in his eyes. Hmm.
380
00:23:39,896 --> 00:23:40,723
[sighs]
381
00:23:41,768 --> 00:23:42,769
Good afternoon.
382
00:23:43,596 --> 00:23:44,423
Um...
383
00:23:45,554 --> 00:23:46,990
- ...you're Hannah?
- Yes.
384
00:23:47,164 --> 00:23:48,992
- [man] And Linnea, right?
- Yes.
385
00:23:50,646 --> 00:23:52,039
I'm Kent.
386
00:23:52,692 --> 00:23:56,130
Uh, so I found
this copy of Waverly
387
00:23:56,304 --> 00:23:58,654
in a pitcher of buck's fizz.
I've tried to dry it out
388
00:23:58,828 --> 00:24:01,570
as best I could,
but most of the pages, they're still stuck together.
389
00:24:01,744 --> 00:24:03,398
- I'm sorry.
- [sighs]
390
00:24:04,355 --> 00:24:06,227
Also, I am free tomorrow.
391
00:24:08,534 --> 00:24:09,578
Uh...
392
00:24:10,797 --> 00:24:11,667
For your computer.
393
00:24:12,363 --> 00:24:14,496
Right. No, that's,
uh-- I'm fine.
394
00:24:14,670 --> 00:24:15,976
No, that's all right.
I got time.
395
00:24:16,803 --> 00:24:17,891
Say, 11:00?
396
00:24:19,806 --> 00:24:21,590
Uh, I need to,
I need to check my schedule--
397
00:24:21,764 --> 00:24:23,418
- She's free.
- She would love to.
398
00:24:23,984 --> 00:24:27,466
Okay. Great. I'll see you,
chapel quad, 11:00 a.m.
399
00:24:28,858 --> 00:24:30,251
Hmm.
400
00:24:30,425 --> 00:24:32,079
Oh, and it was nice
to see you guys again.
401
00:24:32,253 --> 00:24:33,123
- Bye.
- Bye.
402
00:24:33,297 --> 00:24:34,298
[Kent]
See you.
403
00:24:35,648 --> 00:24:36,518
What is that?
404
00:24:38,912 --> 00:24:41,697
- His room.
- [chuckles] Mm.
405
00:24:41,871 --> 00:24:44,483
Oh, for the love of God,
can somebody just please hand me an aspirin?
406
00:24:46,136 --> 00:24:47,224
[sharply exhales]
407
00:24:48,051 --> 00:24:50,401
[Kent]
So that's how I landed in Political Science.
408
00:24:50,576 --> 00:24:52,578
So strange to think
it's my last year.
409
00:24:54,057 --> 00:24:56,451
What are you reading?
You're reading English, right?
410
00:24:56,625 --> 00:24:57,496
Uh, yeah.
411
00:24:57,670 --> 00:24:59,672
[light rock music playing]
412
00:25:00,237 --> 00:25:01,804
Yeah. You want some more coffee?
413
00:25:02,892 --> 00:25:05,373
Um, okay.
414
00:25:07,157 --> 00:25:09,595
Let me see. Yeah, still warm.
415
00:25:10,596 --> 00:25:12,162
[coffee pouring]
416
00:25:13,555 --> 00:25:15,862
- [sighs]
- [cell phone vibrates]
417
00:25:16,036 --> 00:25:17,994
[Kent]
I don't have any milk, as you know, but...
418
00:25:19,256 --> 00:25:23,434
...um, I really have to go out
and get some cream or milk.
419
00:25:24,435 --> 00:25:25,698
[coffee pouring]
420
00:25:29,310 --> 00:25:30,441
I mean, it's pretty good.
421
00:25:31,051 --> 00:25:33,488
- I don't have a fridge, so...
- [clatters]
422
00:25:34,097 --> 00:25:35,446
Oh. Are you going somewhere?
423
00:25:35,621 --> 00:25:37,405
Um... [clears throat]
yeah, yeah.
424
00:25:37,579 --> 00:25:40,800
I just, you know, I just,
I just remembered that--
425
00:25:41,278 --> 00:25:43,803
I told Linnea I was gonna,
I was gonna, um,
426
00:25:43,977 --> 00:25:45,935
do something
with her today, and I...
427
00:25:46,109 --> 00:25:47,763
- Okay.
- ...completely forgot that it was this, this, this th--
428
00:25:47,937 --> 00:25:49,417
- Are you sure you're okay?
- Yeah, yeah, yeah.
429
00:25:49,591 --> 00:25:52,028
And thank you so much
for your assistance.
430
00:25:54,465 --> 00:25:55,597
[door closes]
431
00:25:55,771 --> 00:25:56,903
My assistance?
432
00:26:05,259 --> 00:26:06,390
Oh, holy shit.
433
00:26:08,088 --> 00:26:09,176
[sighs]
434
00:26:10,090 --> 00:26:11,004
[scoffs]
435
00:26:11,657 --> 00:26:14,790
- Oh!
- Oh, my God. I am so sorry.
436
00:26:14,964 --> 00:26:16,749
You're in an awful hurry,
Miss Drake.
437
00:26:18,228 --> 00:26:19,795
I'm Regina Knight.
438
00:26:20,274 --> 00:26:23,103
I, I-- Yes. Yeah,
I mean, I, I, I know.
439
00:26:23,277 --> 00:26:26,846
I'm so very happy
to have you here at Tirian.
440
00:26:27,890 --> 00:26:30,632
Perhaps we can talk
more at length sometime.
441
00:26:30,806 --> 00:26:32,852
Uh, that would be great.
442
00:26:33,548 --> 00:26:34,375
Until then.
443
00:26:34,549 --> 00:26:36,333
[bird chirping]
444
00:26:37,291 --> 00:26:38,118
Oh, my God.
445
00:26:41,077 --> 00:26:44,080
[footsteps running]
446
00:26:47,823 --> 00:26:51,522
- Three, two, and time.
- ...wait, wait, wait, wait, I--
447
00:26:51,697 --> 00:26:55,875
Of all the antecedents
to the great Romantic writers,
448
00:26:56,049 --> 00:26:59,748
Sir Walter Scott
is perhaps the most renown.
449
00:27:00,357 --> 00:27:04,710
I am a descendant
of this great literary mind,
450
00:27:04,884 --> 00:27:07,277
a fact of which I am most proud.
451
00:27:07,756 --> 00:27:11,020
- Let us look at his poem,
- [sighs and mumbles]
452
00:27:11,804 --> 00:27:14,545
The Lay of the Last Minstrel,
453
00:27:14,720 --> 00:27:20,116
which arguably introduced
Romanticism to the world.
454
00:27:21,901 --> 00:27:25,469
"Breathes there a man
with soul so dead,
455
00:27:26,862 --> 00:27:30,779
but never to himself
hath said, 'This is my own...
456
00:27:31,954 --> 00:27:34,653
...my native land'."
457
00:27:34,827 --> 00:27:36,045
[door closes]
458
00:27:38,526 --> 00:27:41,964
[Professor Nuttham]
Would it be wishful thinking to assume that some of you
459
00:27:42,138 --> 00:27:46,012
have learned the first 83 lines
of Paradise Lostby heart?
460
00:27:50,059 --> 00:27:52,583
You are studying
the Romantics, are you not?
461
00:27:53,976 --> 00:27:57,676
And you cannot hope
to understand them without John Milton.
462
00:27:58,633 --> 00:28:03,638
True, he predates Blake,
Wordsworth and Coleridge by a hundred years,
463
00:28:03,812 --> 00:28:06,728
but his shadow looms over them.
464
00:28:07,860 --> 00:28:09,775
And it is my distinct privilege
465
00:28:09,949 --> 00:28:11,820
to see that you are
fully acquainted with him.
466
00:28:11,994 --> 00:28:13,735
[door opens]
467
00:28:14,431 --> 00:28:16,869
- [panting] I'm so sorry.
- [Professor Nuttham] Mr. Weber.
468
00:28:20,089 --> 00:28:22,091
"Of man's first disobedience...
469
00:28:23,310 --> 00:28:27,836
...and the fruit
of that forbidden tree whose mortal taste brought death
470
00:28:28,010 --> 00:28:30,709
into the world and all our woe."
471
00:28:31,405 --> 00:28:33,450
[indistinct chatter]
472
00:28:34,016 --> 00:28:35,452
Caro. Wait, wait,
wait, wait, wait, wait.
473
00:28:35,626 --> 00:28:37,411
I thought you were studying
Political Science.
474
00:28:37,585 --> 00:28:38,673
I am studying Political Science.
475
00:28:38,847 --> 00:28:40,240
- Milton's an elective.
- [scoffs]
476
00:28:40,414 --> 00:28:43,722
Look, my friend Alex
was trying to help me--
477
00:28:43,896 --> 00:28:47,116
- Get laid? I think that's
the term you're looking for. - No, that's actually pretty fa--
478
00:28:47,290 --> 00:28:49,249
Godly virgin's a bit
of a high standard,
479
00:28:49,423 --> 00:28:51,251
but you know what,
to each their own. I just don't see us
480
00:28:51,425 --> 00:28:53,340
being friends after all,
which is such a shame.
481
00:28:55,385 --> 00:28:56,299
Carolyn--
482
00:28:59,215 --> 00:29:02,131
- Hi. Oh.
- Hi, Mom. Oh, my gosh.
483
00:29:02,305 --> 00:29:04,394
Oh, it's so good to see you.
484
00:29:04,568 --> 00:29:07,441
As you can see, I'm here
in my palatial dwelling.
485
00:29:07,615 --> 00:29:10,052
Are you eating enough?
You look thin. Why do you look so thin?
486
00:29:10,226 --> 00:29:12,968
- Yeah, Mom, I'm fine.
- How is Oxford?
487
00:29:13,142 --> 00:29:14,840
Is it everything
you dreamed it would be?
488
00:29:16,363 --> 00:29:19,105
- Yeah, it's amazing.
- I wanna hear everything.
489
00:29:19,279 --> 00:29:20,584
Start from the beginning.
490
00:29:22,064 --> 00:29:24,284
[porter]
Of course, he intended to rule from Oxford
491
00:29:24,458 --> 00:29:26,460
once he'd conquered
the rest of Europe.
492
00:29:26,634 --> 00:29:28,723
- Mm-hmm.
- Potent image that is.
493
00:29:29,289 --> 00:29:31,726
Imagine the Fuührer
walking down the high street
494
00:29:31,900 --> 00:29:33,467
with his devilish retinue.
495
00:29:34,555 --> 00:29:36,949
Yeah, that is a potent image.
Imagine that.
496
00:29:37,776 --> 00:29:40,779
If you were
just strolling down that way...
497
00:29:42,041 --> 00:29:43,346
- [sighs]
- ...it'd be quite a--
498
00:29:43,520 --> 00:29:45,827
Oh. Good talk.
499
00:30:00,363 --> 00:30:02,365
[light rock music playing]
500
00:30:07,893 --> 00:30:08,807
Wow.
501
00:30:10,896 --> 00:30:12,027
Surprised you showed.
502
00:30:12,201 --> 00:30:13,942
Chalk it up to morbid curiosity.
503
00:30:14,943 --> 00:30:15,814
I'll take it.
504
00:30:18,642 --> 00:30:19,948
I just ordered another pint.
505
00:30:20,514 --> 00:30:22,385
- Would you like to order one?
- Yes. Thanks.
506
00:30:22,559 --> 00:30:24,735
Or you can have mine.
I was about to suggest.
507
00:30:24,910 --> 00:30:26,563
[indistinct chatter]
508
00:30:26,737 --> 00:30:28,348
I feel like
I owe you an explanation.
509
00:30:28,522 --> 00:30:30,219
You don't owe me anything.
We barely know each other.
510
00:30:30,393 --> 00:30:32,265
No, but you think
that I'm on some mission
511
00:30:32,439 --> 00:30:34,789
to bed Godly virgins.
So if you don't mind,
512
00:30:34,963 --> 00:30:36,922
- I'd like to clarify it.
- Okay.
513
00:30:39,098 --> 00:30:40,751
[sharply exhales
and softly slurps]
514
00:30:43,363 --> 00:30:44,755
So what's your faith background?
515
00:30:45,756 --> 00:30:48,150
- I don't see
how that's relevant. - It will provide context--
516
00:30:48,324 --> 00:30:50,631
- I thought you were
providing the context. - I'm trying to provide--
517
00:30:50,805 --> 00:30:52,459
Well, if you must know,
my mom's Catholic.
518
00:30:52,633 --> 00:30:54,635
Or was or--
well, I guess she still is.
519
00:30:54,809 --> 00:30:56,332
So you grew up Catholic?
520
00:30:56,506 --> 00:30:58,291
I didn't grow up Catholic.
My mom's Catholic-ish.
521
00:30:58,465 --> 00:31:01,294
- So I grew up Protestant,
without the "ish." - So less incense
522
00:31:01,468 --> 00:31:03,731
- and more Jerry Falwell.
- Okay. How many of us do you actually know, anyway?
523
00:31:03,905 --> 00:31:05,646
Well, I live in the Western
Hemisphere, so I would say
524
00:31:05,820 --> 00:31:08,257
- roughly 50% of everyone
I've ever met. - 50% of Americans
525
00:31:08,431 --> 00:31:10,564
consider themselves generous,
and they're not all volunteering
526
00:31:10,738 --> 00:31:12,653
- at the Salvation Army.
- So you're one of the true believers.
527
00:31:12,827 --> 00:31:15,264
That's not how I'd phrase it,
but if you mean am I committed,
528
00:31:15,438 --> 00:31:18,572
- then yes. That's one
very small aspect of it. - Committed to virginity.
529
00:31:18,746 --> 00:31:20,356
And I wouldn't have brought
that up at all if it hadn't been
530
00:31:20,530 --> 00:31:22,271
for the fact
that you looked at my phone.
531
00:31:22,445 --> 00:31:24,491
That's a slight invasion
of privacy. But look,
532
00:31:24,665 --> 00:31:26,928
- I'm willing to overlook that.
- How generous of you.
533
00:31:28,321 --> 00:31:29,670
- Just because I'm--
- Sexually inexperienced.
534
00:31:29,844 --> 00:31:30,801
Chaste.
535
00:31:31,411 --> 00:31:32,934
- Gross.
- It doesn't mean
536
00:31:33,108 --> 00:31:35,676
that I'm some weird zealot
living out this joyless,
537
00:31:35,850 --> 00:31:37,460
- pleasure-less existence.
- If you have to say it.
538
00:31:37,634 --> 00:31:39,593
And for the record, chastity...
539
00:31:40,637 --> 00:31:42,596
...it's not at the top
of my list of favorite virtues,
540
00:31:42,770 --> 00:31:44,467
- if you know--
- Wow. You have a list of favorite virtues?
541
00:31:44,641 --> 00:31:46,817
The point I'm trying to make is
there are people out there
542
00:31:46,992 --> 00:31:49,472
who are committed
to their faith, and they're not horrible to be around.
543
00:31:49,646 --> 00:31:51,300
Well, you should definitely
get in touch with them.
544
00:31:51,474 --> 00:31:52,736
And it sounds like
you have a promising lead.
545
00:31:52,911 --> 00:31:54,913
Look, Alex only suggested
that I meet her
546
00:31:55,087 --> 00:31:56,349
because she shares
the same faith as me,
547
00:31:56,523 --> 00:31:57,785
- and she's--
- Undefiled?
548
00:31:57,959 --> 00:31:59,178
[exasperated sigh]
549
00:31:59,352 --> 00:32:00,353
Has anyone ever told you
550
00:32:00,527 --> 00:32:01,789
- that you're incre--
- Bitchy?
551
00:32:03,095 --> 00:32:04,009
Difficult.
552
00:32:07,099 --> 00:32:09,275
- Well, this has been great.
- Oh, come on, you haven't touched your--
553
00:32:09,449 --> 00:32:10,972
- Super fun.
- Don't go. I'll see you
554
00:32:11,146 --> 00:32:13,018
- at Nuttham's tutorial, right?
- Can't wait.
555
00:32:15,803 --> 00:32:19,067
It all seems a bit overruled
and heavy-handed to me.
556
00:32:19,633 --> 00:32:21,417
Like Milton is trying
to weasel his way
557
00:32:21,591 --> 00:32:23,942
into the lineage
of great epic poets.
558
00:32:24,551 --> 00:32:25,421
Oh.
559
00:32:26,379 --> 00:32:29,251
That is a bold theory,
Mr. McCoy.
560
00:32:30,992 --> 00:32:34,343
I think it's quite beautiful,
but not intended
561
00:32:34,517 --> 00:32:37,216
to be taken literally,
of course.
562
00:32:37,390 --> 00:32:40,654
I, I see it as a metaphor
for manmade institutions,
563
00:32:40,828 --> 00:32:43,657
government, organized religion,
and so forth.
564
00:32:43,831 --> 00:32:44,919
[Professor Nuttham]
Mm.
565
00:32:45,920 --> 00:32:48,009
It's a meditation on morality
566
00:32:48,183 --> 00:32:50,272
and the finiteness
of human existence.
567
00:32:50,446 --> 00:32:52,274
After all, we have to remember
Milton's going blind.
568
00:32:52,448 --> 00:32:54,146
So all this talk of God
569
00:32:54,320 --> 00:32:56,844
is his way of wrestling
with his own existential dread.
570
00:32:57,018 --> 00:32:57,932
[scoffs]
571
00:33:00,282 --> 00:33:01,849
Your thoughts, Mr. Weber?
572
00:33:02,415 --> 00:33:03,372
[Kent]
Um--
573
00:33:04,765 --> 00:33:06,897
Look, I'm, I'm just
in awe of Miss Drake
574
00:33:07,072 --> 00:33:09,683
and her ability
to offhandedly dismantle a person's entire worldview.
575
00:33:09,857 --> 00:33:11,206
Oh, I'm sorry.
Am I being difficult?
576
00:33:11,380 --> 00:33:13,730
- You're being assumptive.
- Oh, do tell.
577
00:33:13,904 --> 00:33:15,428
So you're assuming
that Milton's faith
578
00:33:15,602 --> 00:33:17,343
is just a psychological
construct, that it's a,
579
00:33:17,517 --> 00:33:19,649
a mental framework
to better understand reality.
580
00:33:19,823 --> 00:33:21,738
The mind is its own place,
and in itself can make
581
00:33:21,912 --> 00:33:23,697
a heaven of hell
and a hell of heaven.
582
00:33:23,871 --> 00:33:25,829
And to this great argument,
I may assert Eternal Providence
583
00:33:26,004 --> 00:33:27,266
and justify
the ways of God to man.
584
00:33:27,440 --> 00:33:29,355
"Methinks the man
doth protest too much."
585
00:33:29,529 --> 00:33:30,660
Mm. Oh.
586
00:33:32,097 --> 00:33:33,707
More tea, anyone?
587
00:33:37,406 --> 00:33:38,886
[sighs]
588
00:33:39,887 --> 00:33:43,151
How does someone who believes
in talking snakes get into Oxford?
589
00:33:43,325 --> 00:33:46,285
- [Hannah]
You realize I'm religious? - Okay, well, you're different.
590
00:33:46,459 --> 00:33:48,896
He's smug. I'm allergic to smug.
591
00:33:50,463 --> 00:33:53,031
"Say first, for heaven hides
nothing from thy view."
592
00:33:53,205 --> 00:33:55,903
[sighs] If I'm being honest.
I really struggle with William Blake.
593
00:33:56,077 --> 00:33:57,861
How could I have been
so wrong about him?
594
00:33:58,036 --> 00:33:59,428
- Blake?
- Kent.
595
00:33:59,602 --> 00:34:01,343
I've got to wash my hair.
[sniffing]
596
00:34:01,517 --> 00:34:02,823
Oh, fun fact.
597
00:34:03,389 --> 00:34:05,434
India invented shampoo.
598
00:34:05,608 --> 00:34:08,872
Comes from
the Sanskrit word champu, which means to massage.
599
00:34:09,525 --> 00:34:11,310
"One restraint,
lords of the world besides."
600
00:34:11,484 --> 00:34:13,007
"Every harlot
was a virgin once."
601
00:34:13,181 --> 00:34:15,053
Well, what's the problem
with being a virgin, anyway?
602
00:34:15,227 --> 00:34:18,012
Nothing. Unless you are one. Mm.
603
00:34:18,578 --> 00:34:19,448
[cutlery clinking]
604
00:34:20,362 --> 00:34:22,190
- You poor creature.
- [Hannah] The point is,
605
00:34:22,364 --> 00:34:23,670
we're different,
and we're still friends.
606
00:34:23,844 --> 00:34:25,411
Who says I wanna be his friend?
607
00:34:25,585 --> 00:34:27,630
And try Songs Of Experience.
608
00:34:27,804 --> 00:34:30,807
- What?
- By Blake. It has some of his more accessible work.
609
00:34:30,981 --> 00:34:32,635
[light rock music playing]
610
00:34:32,809 --> 00:34:34,507
Speaking of devout virgins,
611
00:34:34,681 --> 00:34:36,726
I've a sudden urge
to go to confession.
612
00:34:37,466 --> 00:34:38,902
- Father Michael.
- Mm. I'd like to visit
613
00:34:39,077 --> 00:34:40,513
his parish
in the cover of night.
614
00:34:40,687 --> 00:34:41,731
- Linnea.
- [Hannah] Linnea.
615
00:34:41,905 --> 00:34:43,603
- [laughs]
- Nobody's safe from you.
616
00:34:43,777 --> 00:34:45,039
He's so dreamy.
617
00:34:45,909 --> 00:34:48,651
["The Christmas I Remember"
by The Craig Gildner Sextet playing]
618
00:34:48,825 --> 00:34:53,003
♪ The Christmas I remember ♪
619
00:34:54,179 --> 00:34:58,096
♪ How everything was warm ♪
620
00:34:58,966 --> 00:35:03,710
♪ The winter chill
on window sills ♪
621
00:35:03,884 --> 00:35:06,191
[indistinct chatter]
622
00:35:06,365 --> 00:35:08,671
Compliments of the season,
you miserable reprobate.
623
00:35:08,845 --> 00:35:13,111
- [coughs]
- ♪ We hadn't much between us ♪
624
00:35:13,285 --> 00:35:17,071
♪ Perhaps two gifts at best ♪
625
00:35:17,854 --> 00:35:23,121
♪ A strand of tinsel
on the treetop ♪
626
00:35:23,860 --> 00:35:24,774
Excuse me.
627
00:35:25,862 --> 00:35:27,168
Hello, my dear.
628
00:35:27,342 --> 00:35:29,475
- Hi.
- You look lovely.
629
00:35:29,649 --> 00:35:32,042
- Let me pour you a sherry.
- Thank you.
630
00:35:32,608 --> 00:35:34,828
'Tis the season to be jolly.
631
00:35:38,092 --> 00:35:40,486
What do you know
about our guest of honor?
632
00:35:41,051 --> 00:35:42,488
- Oh, Dr. Sterling?
- [pouring]
633
00:35:42,662 --> 00:35:45,055
Just that he's
a highly respected scientist.
634
00:35:46,274 --> 00:35:48,711
I'm sure the conversation
635
00:35:48,885 --> 00:35:51,671
will prove to be enlightening
for all of us.
636
00:35:51,845 --> 00:35:53,194
- Cheers.
- Cheers.
637
00:35:53,934 --> 00:35:57,242
- Can I borrow you for a moment?
- Of course. Excuse me.
638
00:35:57,416 --> 00:36:00,419
♪ ...I remember best ♪
639
00:36:00,593 --> 00:36:05,250
♪ Was when you gave
your love... ♪
640
00:36:05,424 --> 00:36:08,078
[indistinct chatter, laughter]
641
00:36:09,558 --> 00:36:13,475
♪ The Christmas I remember ♪
642
00:36:14,737 --> 00:36:18,567
♪ How everything was warm ♪
643
00:36:20,395 --> 00:36:21,483
What are you doing here?
644
00:36:22,441 --> 00:36:23,311
I was invited.
645
00:36:25,400 --> 00:36:26,358
When?
646
00:36:27,010 --> 00:36:27,924
Few days ago.
647
00:36:29,056 --> 00:36:30,188
[sighs]
648
00:36:32,277 --> 00:36:33,539
- By the way, you look--
- Stop.
649
00:36:33,713 --> 00:36:36,063
♪ Perhaps two gifts at best ♪
650
00:36:36,237 --> 00:36:37,760
For the record,
I'm... [chuckles]
651
00:36:37,934 --> 00:36:39,327
...I'm not the perfect picture
of chastity.
652
00:36:39,501 --> 00:36:40,894
Mm, you really have
a way with words.
653
00:36:41,068 --> 00:36:43,070
It's more of a,
a well-intentioned attempt
654
00:36:43,244 --> 00:36:46,116
than a reality,
if I'm being totally honest.
655
00:36:46,291 --> 00:36:47,944
And if you keep showing up
looking like that,
656
00:36:49,119 --> 00:36:50,251
it's not gonna be any easier.
657
00:36:50,425 --> 00:36:52,819
♪ ... to all our friends ♪
658
00:36:53,385 --> 00:36:56,301
♪ Kids caroling outside ♪
659
00:36:56,475 --> 00:36:58,477
It's a bit strange, isn't it?
660
00:36:59,304 --> 00:37:01,654
Being on the other side
of the curtain.
661
00:37:02,220 --> 00:37:04,831
♪ With both arms open... ♪
662
00:37:05,048 --> 00:37:06,398
I guess
somebody up there likes us.
663
00:37:08,965 --> 00:37:09,923
Cheers.
664
00:37:11,185 --> 00:37:13,883
- [indistinct chatter]
- [soft clinking]
665
00:37:15,450 --> 00:37:19,193
The dimension of time
continues to confound us.
666
00:37:19,367 --> 00:37:22,805
It slips through our hands.
667
00:37:22,979 --> 00:37:24,894
Dr. Sterling, I'm curious.
668
00:37:25,895 --> 00:37:28,028
Do you believe
in a higher consciousness?
669
00:37:28,811 --> 00:37:31,510
Something outside
and above the created world.
670
00:37:31,684 --> 00:37:33,338
Oh, for God's sake, Terrence.
671
00:37:33,512 --> 00:37:35,818
- Precisely, Margo.
- [Professor Rutledge chuckles]
672
00:37:35,992 --> 00:37:39,648
Everything that I've witnessed
in the natural world
673
00:37:39,822 --> 00:37:43,522
seems to operate
on a desire to attain...
674
00:37:44,436 --> 00:37:45,915
...equilibrium.
675
00:37:46,481 --> 00:37:48,657
What rises, falls.
676
00:37:48,831 --> 00:37:50,616
What freezes, thaws.
677
00:37:50,790 --> 00:37:53,140
What heats, cools.
678
00:37:53,706 --> 00:37:56,926
If these forces were not
in a relationship
679
00:37:57,100 --> 00:38:00,190
of attraction and repulsion,
680
00:38:00,365 --> 00:38:04,151
the axis of the poles
would simply cease to spin,
681
00:38:04,325 --> 00:38:06,545
the tides would halt,
682
00:38:07,197 --> 00:38:09,069
the sun would cease
to rise and set.
683
00:38:09,678 --> 00:38:10,505
Uh--
684
00:38:12,028 --> 00:38:14,422
Caro, do you want
to add something?
685
00:38:17,033 --> 00:38:18,121
[clears throat] I,
686
00:38:19,166 --> 00:38:20,733
I'm not sure I fully understand.
687
00:38:20,907 --> 00:38:23,518
Are you suggesting
that those things exist
688
00:38:23,692 --> 00:38:24,911
in perfect relationship?
689
00:38:25,564 --> 00:38:28,393
Well, perfect enough
to promote life,
690
00:38:28,567 --> 00:38:31,831
which seems to me to be
awfully genuine. [chuckles]
691
00:38:32,745 --> 00:38:36,096
The more I discovered
the scientific world,
692
00:38:36,662 --> 00:38:38,881
the more convinced I became
693
00:38:39,055 --> 00:38:43,059
of the astonishing
interconnectedness
694
00:38:43,233 --> 00:38:47,194
and brilliancy of its design.
695
00:38:47,368 --> 00:38:50,371
And yet,
death has the final word.
696
00:38:50,545 --> 00:38:51,764
[chuckles]
697
00:38:51,938 --> 00:38:55,202
Oh, well, that is
a momentary crack
698
00:38:55,376 --> 00:38:56,725
in the equilibrium.
699
00:38:57,378 --> 00:39:02,252
But what if we repair
the relationship,
700
00:39:02,427 --> 00:39:04,603
restore the equilibrium?
701
00:39:05,430 --> 00:39:08,607
Because then what lives
continues to live forever.
702
00:39:10,217 --> 00:39:11,305
Precisely.
703
00:39:11,479 --> 00:39:14,700
Eternal quest for immortality.
704
00:39:14,874 --> 00:39:18,268
- [chuckles]
- Uh, something. Not, uh, immortality per se, but...
705
00:39:19,269 --> 00:39:20,401
...healing.
706
00:39:21,968 --> 00:39:23,056
Holiness.
707
00:39:24,362 --> 00:39:28,496
Even you admit some possibility
of life after death, Margo.
708
00:39:31,238 --> 00:39:32,370
[whispering]
I mean, it's probably just
709
00:39:32,544 --> 00:39:33,762
a psychological
construct, right?
710
00:39:35,634 --> 00:39:36,635
Pass the wine.
711
00:39:38,332 --> 00:39:39,289
Okay.
712
00:39:42,336 --> 00:39:43,424
[door opens]
713
00:39:53,652 --> 00:39:56,655
[choir singing]
714
00:40:41,526 --> 00:40:43,049
You should probably
be in bed, Edward.
715
00:40:48,402 --> 00:40:50,056
It's not good
for a man to be alone.
716
00:40:51,405 --> 00:40:52,450
[Carolyn sighs]
717
00:40:53,625 --> 00:40:54,582
Well...
718
00:40:55,496 --> 00:40:58,107
[sighs] ...I don't think
you have a choice tonight.
719
00:40:59,457 --> 00:41:00,370
[softly] Yeah.
720
00:41:03,025 --> 00:41:03,983
You know...
721
00:41:05,332 --> 00:41:08,378
...autonomy does get
damn lonely from time to time.
722
00:41:13,775 --> 00:41:14,950
Happy Christmas, Caro.
723
00:41:16,909 --> 00:41:18,084
Happy Christmas, Edward.
724
00:41:27,180 --> 00:41:28,660
[paper rustling]
725
00:41:34,492 --> 00:41:36,581
- I have such a good idea.
- God.
726
00:41:36,755 --> 00:41:38,626
We just start from scratch.
727
00:41:38,800 --> 00:41:40,759
Nothing ever happened.
Start over. What do you say?
728
00:41:40,933 --> 00:41:42,891
- For what purpose?
- For the purpose of resolving
729
00:41:43,065 --> 00:41:44,937
- that which was left unresolved.
- Oh, but perhaps
730
00:41:45,111 --> 00:41:46,895
that which was left unresolved
need not be resolved.
731
00:41:47,069 --> 00:41:48,593
But you're forgetting
that there's precious little
732
00:41:48,767 --> 00:41:51,160
that cannot be solved
over a hot chocolate.
733
00:41:51,334 --> 00:41:52,205
What do you say?
734
00:41:53,336 --> 00:41:54,207
Where are you going?
735
00:41:55,774 --> 00:41:57,689
Do you want a hot chocolate?
Do you wanna get a hot chocolate with me?
736
00:41:57,863 --> 00:41:59,691
With you?
I'd rather take a cold bath.
737
00:41:59,865 --> 00:42:01,693
You're gonna take
a cold bath with me? Okay.
738
00:42:01,867 --> 00:42:03,390
- Hilarious.
- [laughs mockingly]
739
00:42:03,564 --> 00:42:05,827
- So why are you in such a hurry?
- Well, if you must know,
740
00:42:06,001 --> 00:42:07,612
Provost Knight
invited me to dinner.
741
00:42:08,264 --> 00:42:10,658
Provost Knight
invited you to dinner.
742
00:42:10,832 --> 00:42:12,355
Wow. I didn't know
you guys were so tight.
743
00:42:12,530 --> 00:42:14,314
Mm. Well, there's a lot
you don't know about me.
744
00:42:14,488 --> 00:42:15,924
I know. And it's killing me.
745
00:42:16,098 --> 00:42:17,273
- Come on.
- Uh-huh.
746
00:42:17,447 --> 00:42:19,885
[indistinct chatter]
747
00:42:20,059 --> 00:42:22,061
[crickets chirping]
748
00:42:25,499 --> 00:42:27,240
[footsteps approaching]
749
00:42:29,242 --> 00:42:30,417
[all]
Bill!
750
00:42:30,591 --> 00:42:31,810
- Bill!
- [man] Come on, mate.
751
00:42:31,984 --> 00:42:33,812
- Jenny.
- [woman] Oh, you're joking.
752
00:42:33,986 --> 00:42:36,379
- [people sighing]
- Jenny, you've got to understand.
753
00:42:38,033 --> 00:42:40,253
I believe that God
made me for a purpose.
754
00:42:41,428 --> 00:42:43,386
But he also made me fast.
755
00:42:44,649 --> 00:42:45,606
And when I run...
756
00:42:47,086 --> 00:42:50,611
...I feel His pleasure.
757
00:42:50,785 --> 00:42:52,831
- Okay. How would you
define pleasure? - Whoa!
758
00:42:53,658 --> 00:42:56,574
- Sorry, what?
- Well, you said you don't live a pleasureless life.
759
00:42:56,748 --> 00:42:58,663
- I don't liv--
- And I'm not talking about sex, because, obviously,
760
00:42:58,837 --> 00:43:00,926
- you wouldn't have
much to say on that subject. - Okay, thank you.
761
00:43:01,100 --> 00:43:02,318
I'm more talking about
the kind of pleasure
762
00:43:02,492 --> 00:43:04,233
that Eric Liddell felt
when he ran.
763
00:43:04,407 --> 00:43:06,148
You know, like it was
what he was made to do.
764
00:43:06,322 --> 00:43:07,976
Or the feeling you get
when you're struck
765
00:43:08,150 --> 00:43:10,675
by the beauty of a poem
or the colors of a sunset.
766
00:43:10,849 --> 00:43:12,633
- Okay.
- Or I guess, in your case, some mind-numbing
767
00:43:12,807 --> 00:43:14,548
- theological concept.
- Okay, I see you're on a roll today.
768
00:43:14,722 --> 00:43:16,289
But it did get me thinking.
769
00:43:18,378 --> 00:43:21,163
When have I felt that?
Because I have felt it, or something like it.
770
00:43:22,643 --> 00:43:24,863
But how do you define it?
Because...
771
00:43:26,691 --> 00:43:29,215
...happiness is too shallow.
Pleasure is too fleeting.
772
00:43:30,085 --> 00:43:32,435
Okay. Let it be noted that
a student of the Romantic poets
773
00:43:32,610 --> 00:43:34,176
is struggling to find
the adequate vocabulary
774
00:43:34,350 --> 00:43:36,091
to describe
an emotional experience.
775
00:43:36,265 --> 00:43:38,572
- I never said it was emotional.
- Didn't you?
776
00:43:39,878 --> 00:43:42,097
No, no, it's, it's something
else, something...
777
00:43:44,491 --> 00:43:45,448
...deeper.
778
00:43:49,844 --> 00:43:51,585
Okay. Come with me.
779
00:43:52,586 --> 00:43:53,456
[Carolyn]
Okay.
780
00:43:53,631 --> 00:43:56,634
[upbeat music]
781
00:44:00,246 --> 00:44:02,640
[Kent]
I would agree that happiness is too shallow a word,
782
00:44:02,814 --> 00:44:03,815
and pleasure is...
783
00:44:04,380 --> 00:44:05,251
...is gross, right?
784
00:44:05,860 --> 00:44:07,906
So if I can humbly suggest
an alternative--
785
00:44:08,080 --> 00:44:10,082
[upbeat music playing]
786
00:44:11,518 --> 00:44:12,867
[Carolyn]
Surprised By Joy.
787
00:44:13,346 --> 00:44:15,304
He stole that from Wordsworth.
788
00:44:15,478 --> 00:44:16,784
Well, then you're
in good company.
789
00:44:17,524 --> 00:44:20,222
Well, never associated Lewis
with his children's literature.
790
00:44:20,396 --> 00:44:22,616
Well, he was a fellow
at Maudlin, and he was the chair
791
00:44:22,790 --> 00:44:25,271
of Renaissance
and Medieval Studies at Cambridge.
792
00:44:25,445 --> 00:44:27,795
This is
the closest thing we have to an autobiography by him.
793
00:44:31,059 --> 00:44:32,931
- I'll consider it. Yeah.
- You'll consider it?
794
00:44:33,496 --> 00:44:34,367
You're not gonna--
795
00:44:36,499 --> 00:44:38,980
You were the one who came to me
on a quest for pleasure.
796
00:44:39,154 --> 00:44:41,200
[upbeat instrumental music
playing]
797
00:44:50,905 --> 00:44:52,080
[softly] Can I help you?
798
00:44:55,910 --> 00:44:56,998
[sighs]
799
00:44:57,695 --> 00:44:59,000
Fine. If you insist.
800
00:45:00,785 --> 00:45:02,787
[gentle music]
801
00:45:12,405 --> 00:45:15,016
[bell tolling in distance]
802
00:45:55,796 --> 00:45:57,058
[Carolyn]
It wasn't horrible.
803
00:45:58,451 --> 00:46:00,105
The bits about joy
were interesting.
804
00:46:01,759 --> 00:46:05,066
The idea that joy
is distinct from pleasure
805
00:46:05,240 --> 00:46:08,940
and how sex is often used
as a substitute for joy.
806
00:46:09,767 --> 00:46:11,638
Which obviously, you wouldn't
know anything about that.
807
00:46:11,812 --> 00:46:13,596
But I'm sure you'll learn
when you get older.
808
00:46:13,771 --> 00:46:15,598
Do you have any other jokes
apart from that one?
809
00:46:15,773 --> 00:46:17,949
He has this way of... [sighs]
810
00:46:18,906 --> 00:46:20,952
...describing things
that defy description.
811
00:46:22,257 --> 00:46:24,216
Like his notion
of inconsolable longing.
812
00:46:26,435 --> 00:46:27,785
It's quite beautiful, actually.
813
00:46:29,699 --> 00:46:30,788
Yeah, it is.
814
00:46:32,354 --> 00:46:34,661
This guy probably had some deep,
unfulfilled desire.
815
00:46:35,880 --> 00:46:39,013
No question. There was
yearning in those bones.
816
00:46:39,187 --> 00:46:41,624
["Chopin: Nocturne Op. 9
No. 2" playing]
817
00:46:42,190 --> 00:46:44,714
So when has Carolyn Drake
felt the stab
818
00:46:44,889 --> 00:46:46,107
of inconsolable longing?
819
00:46:47,152 --> 00:46:49,110
[Carolyn]
Um, I don't know.
820
00:46:49,894 --> 00:46:51,069
[Kent]
Okay, I'll go first.
821
00:46:52,200 --> 00:46:54,376
Ten years old, I'm in Kansas
822
00:46:54,550 --> 00:46:56,726
for my,
my great-grandmother's funeral.
823
00:46:57,553 --> 00:47:00,078
After the service,
the stars are coming out.
824
00:47:00,861 --> 00:47:03,255
And I go upstairs,
and I jam open this window,
825
00:47:03,429 --> 00:47:05,431
and I sit out there,
my legs dangling outside.
826
00:47:06,606 --> 00:47:09,000
And there's this vast cornfield,
827
00:47:09,174 --> 00:47:11,741
and the stalks
are blowing in the wind.
828
00:47:11,916 --> 00:47:13,831
And it's like a sea,
it's undulating.
829
00:47:14,832 --> 00:47:15,702
And I can...
830
00:47:17,095 --> 00:47:18,836
...I can hear
this very faint music.
831
00:47:21,795 --> 00:47:24,711
And it's just echoing,
it's very ghostlike, and--
832
00:47:26,626 --> 00:47:28,323
I, I don't know,
it just breaks me.
833
00:47:31,283 --> 00:47:32,501
Well, what was the song?
834
00:47:35,243 --> 00:47:36,375
Pour Some Sugar On Me.
835
00:47:37,419 --> 00:47:39,465
[laughs]
836
00:47:40,770 --> 00:47:42,990
[upbeat music playing]
837
00:47:43,164 --> 00:47:45,514
- ...me a drink?
- [indistinct chatter]
838
00:47:48,517 --> 00:47:49,867
You're not wearing your collar.
839
00:47:50,650 --> 00:47:53,087
[chuckles] Well, sometimes
I like to go undercover.
840
00:47:53,609 --> 00:47:55,568
Mm. Do you?
841
00:47:56,221 --> 00:47:58,788
Well, our... [chuckles]
our Lord didn't walk around in priestly vestments after all.
842
00:47:58,963 --> 00:48:00,878
[loudly clears throat]
843
00:48:02,183 --> 00:48:04,272
Father, care to join me
in blessing the Irish?
844
00:48:04,446 --> 00:48:06,100
That'd be grand.
Thank you, Edward.
845
00:48:10,365 --> 00:48:11,889
[scoffs]
Have I said the wrong thing?
846
00:48:12,846 --> 00:48:14,587
I find casually dropping
the name of Christ
847
00:48:14,761 --> 00:48:16,763
into the conversation
gets an instant reaction.
848
00:48:16,937 --> 00:48:19,505
Mm. And the air
is sucked out of the room.
849
00:48:19,679 --> 00:48:22,377
Well, once upon a time,
the faithful invoked His name,
850
00:48:22,551 --> 00:48:25,119
- and the air rushed in.
- You'll be pleased to know
851
00:48:25,293 --> 00:48:27,469
that Caro is reading C.S. Lewis.
852
00:48:27,643 --> 00:48:29,602
Oh. Take heed.
853
00:48:29,776 --> 00:48:32,387
Some things once read
cannot be unread.
854
00:48:33,258 --> 00:48:35,825
Yeah, well, he's proving
to be quite the distraction.
855
00:48:36,000 --> 00:48:38,828
- He can do that to you.
- Oh, tell me we've ventured out
856
00:48:39,003 --> 00:48:42,136
of the treacherous territory
of politics and religion.
857
00:48:42,789 --> 00:48:46,010
Come now, Sir Edward.
Tell us where you stand on the son of man.
858
00:48:46,184 --> 00:48:49,187
I stand on the side
of a good pint.
859
00:48:49,361 --> 00:48:50,275
Cheers.
860
00:48:50,449 --> 00:48:52,451
"Eat, drink and be merry
861
00:48:52,625 --> 00:48:55,106
- for tomorrow we die."
- Good enough for me.
862
00:48:58,065 --> 00:48:59,023
All well and good.
863
00:48:59,893 --> 00:49:01,286
Unless tomorrow we rise.
864
00:49:01,460 --> 00:49:03,679
[growling] Oh, like zombies.
865
00:49:03,853 --> 00:49:05,812
Like real men.
866
00:49:05,986 --> 00:49:08,249
Fully and splendidly alive.
867
00:49:08,423 --> 00:49:11,165
As your new acquaintance,
Mr. Lewis puts it.
868
00:49:11,992 --> 00:49:13,689
You lose me at life after death.
869
00:49:13,863 --> 00:49:15,256
Not life after death.
870
00:49:15,909 --> 00:49:20,305
Life abundant,
now... and into eternity.
871
00:49:21,219 --> 00:49:22,829
I think we all have
very different ideas
872
00:49:23,003 --> 00:49:24,222
on what constitutes
an abundant life.
873
00:49:25,701 --> 00:49:27,268
[sighs] Yeah. Come around later,
874
00:49:27,442 --> 00:49:28,922
I'll show you
a few of my ideas, love.
875
00:49:29,096 --> 00:49:32,360
Mm. A spiritual experience
I'm sure, Edward.
876
00:49:32,534 --> 00:49:33,622
I think so.
877
00:49:36,147 --> 00:49:40,151
"To whom th'Arch-Enemy,
and thence in Heav'n call'd Satan,
878
00:49:40,325 --> 00:49:44,242
with bold words breaking
the horrid silence thus began."
879
00:49:44,416 --> 00:49:46,113
Oh, excellent enunciation.
880
00:49:46,984 --> 00:49:48,246
On to Mr. McCoy.
881
00:49:50,204 --> 00:49:52,119
[deeply exhales
and clears throat]
882
00:49:52,293 --> 00:49:53,468
[clears throat] Um,
883
00:49:54,295 --> 00:49:57,255
if you must know, sir,
I've fallen behind a bit.
884
00:49:58,256 --> 00:49:59,561
A lot, actually.
885
00:50:02,564 --> 00:50:06,003
You have a very high opinion
of yourself, don't you, Mr. McCoy?
886
00:50:07,526 --> 00:50:11,095
- Well, I--
- Are you perhaps familiar with Pope,
887
00:50:11,269 --> 00:50:13,793
the 18th century English poet?
888
00:50:17,797 --> 00:50:20,452
- I know him.
- That's lovely, Miss Duncan,
889
00:50:20,626 --> 00:50:22,584
but I was talking to Mr. McCoy.
890
00:50:24,108 --> 00:50:26,806
Once upon a time,
Pope sent a gift
891
00:50:26,980 --> 00:50:29,200
to the Prince of Wales
at his house in Kew.
892
00:50:29,939 --> 00:50:33,813
A dog. He wrote a short epigram
for the dog's collar.
893
00:50:33,987 --> 00:50:34,988
Do you know it?
894
00:50:40,689 --> 00:50:42,648
"I'm His Highness' dog at Kew.
895
00:50:42,822 --> 00:50:44,824
Pray tell me, sir,
whose dog are you?"
896
00:50:46,652 --> 00:50:48,001
What did Pope mean?
897
00:50:51,396 --> 00:50:52,527
We all bow to something.
898
00:50:54,181 --> 00:50:55,139
Indeed.
899
00:50:57,097 --> 00:51:00,709
We are not, after all,
masters of our own fate.
900
00:51:02,842 --> 00:51:05,975
We are not all-knowing,
autonomous,
901
00:51:06,846 --> 00:51:08,152
or self-sufficient.
902
00:51:09,414 --> 00:51:12,243
We all, consciously
or unconsciously,
903
00:51:13,026 --> 00:51:16,725
bend the knee to something
greater than ourselves.
904
00:51:19,554 --> 00:51:21,252
Even you, Mr. McCoy.
905
00:51:24,124 --> 00:51:25,299
Miss Drake?
906
00:51:27,910 --> 00:51:28,868
Um...
907
00:51:30,435 --> 00:51:34,091
...I'm so sorry. I, I could
just use a couple more days.
908
00:51:34,265 --> 00:51:35,396
I, I promise
it won't happen again.
909
00:51:35,570 --> 00:51:37,355
Shall we say next Thursday?
910
00:51:37,529 --> 00:51:39,008
[sighs] Thank you.
911
00:51:40,749 --> 00:51:42,099
[professor]
Lewis frequently wrote
912
00:51:42,273 --> 00:51:44,840
of an inconsolable
and infinite longing.
913
00:51:45,014 --> 00:51:46,364
Sehnsuchtin German.
914
00:51:46,973 --> 00:51:50,672
"The longing in the human heart
for we know not what."
915
00:51:51,760 --> 00:51:54,067
In his words,
"The books or the music
916
00:51:54,241 --> 00:51:56,200
in which we thought
the beauty was located
917
00:51:56,374 --> 00:51:58,941
will betray us
if we trust to them.
918
00:51:59,464 --> 00:52:02,467
It was not in them.
It only came through them.
919
00:52:02,641 --> 00:52:05,034
And what came through them
was longing.
920
00:52:05,687 --> 00:52:08,255
For they are not
the thing itself.
921
00:52:08,429 --> 00:52:11,954
They're only the scent
of a flower we have not found,
922
00:52:12,129 --> 00:52:15,044
the echo of a tune
we have not heard,
923
00:52:15,741 --> 00:52:19,484
news from a country
we have never yet visited.
924
00:52:20,615 --> 00:52:23,096
All joy reminds."
925
00:52:23,270 --> 00:52:25,620
[gentle music]
926
00:52:25,794 --> 00:52:28,667
[Carolyn]
I'm realizing there's a strength to believe.
927
00:52:29,494 --> 00:52:31,974
I just-- I don't know
if I have it in me.
928
00:52:34,934 --> 00:52:38,807
Did you know that Lewis
was once a skeptic himself?
929
00:52:40,679 --> 00:52:44,073
He considered his friend
J.R.R. Tolkien's faith
930
00:52:44,248 --> 00:52:46,293
to be superstitious nonsense.
931
00:52:47,033 --> 00:52:48,774
One more myth
932
00:52:48,948 --> 00:52:52,169
in a long history of myths
going back to the ancient world.
933
00:52:54,258 --> 00:52:57,348
One night, uh, they were
walking this very path
934
00:52:58,131 --> 00:53:00,394
when Tolkien said something
that would change
935
00:53:00,568 --> 00:53:02,962
the trajectory of Lewis's life.
936
00:53:04,006 --> 00:53:06,531
He told him he was correct.
937
00:53:07,445 --> 00:53:10,796
The story is a myth,
but it's a true myth.
938
00:53:11,623 --> 00:53:14,103
The thing
all the other old stories
939
00:53:14,278 --> 00:53:16,193
were somehow anticipating.
940
00:53:16,758 --> 00:53:20,240
The thing
they were pointing to unaware.
941
00:53:20,980 --> 00:53:24,375
Desire behind desire.
942
00:53:26,246 --> 00:53:27,116
Oh!
943
00:53:28,074 --> 00:53:30,076
This is one
of my favorite spots.
944
00:53:32,383 --> 00:53:35,560
I often come here
to think and pray.
945
00:53:36,865 --> 00:53:38,519
[softly chuckles] I can see why.
946
00:53:38,693 --> 00:53:41,043
[crickets chirping]
947
00:53:42,958 --> 00:53:44,395
You're a smart girl, Caro.
948
00:53:46,397 --> 00:53:50,705
You work hard,
read ravenously, think deeply.
949
00:53:52,446 --> 00:53:54,753
You're everything
we look for in a student.
950
00:53:57,669 --> 00:54:00,237
But I have known
some brilliant people...
951
00:54:01,934 --> 00:54:04,937
...who have lived lives
of quiet desperation.
952
00:54:08,245 --> 00:54:10,377
The strength you speak of...
953
00:54:11,639 --> 00:54:14,120
...perhaps you're looking
for it in the wrong place.
954
00:54:21,040 --> 00:54:25,871
[Carolyn]
So, about the stab of inconsolable longing.
955
00:54:27,176 --> 00:54:29,527
I was eight years old.
956
00:54:29,701 --> 00:54:30,832
My father was...
957
00:54:32,312 --> 00:54:33,182
...gone.
958
00:54:34,445 --> 00:54:38,187
And I was confused and angry,
and books were an escape.
959
00:54:38,362 --> 00:54:40,538
[gentle music]
960
00:54:41,495 --> 00:54:45,412
I remember exactly where I was
sitting in the corner of my room
961
00:54:45,586 --> 00:54:47,849
when I opened
this big volume of poetry
962
00:54:48,023 --> 00:54:49,503
right to Shelley's Mont Blanc.
963
00:54:50,504 --> 00:54:52,332
"The everlasting universe
of things
964
00:54:52,506 --> 00:54:54,682
flows through the mind
and rolls its rapid waves.
965
00:54:54,856 --> 00:54:58,469
Now dark, now glittering,
now reflecting gloom."
966
00:54:59,644 --> 00:55:00,601
And...
967
00:55:01,950 --> 00:55:05,214
...I don't know, I just, I,
I remember being overwhelmed
968
00:55:05,389 --> 00:55:07,956
with beauty and sadness,
969
00:55:09,175 --> 00:55:10,481
all in the same moment.
970
00:55:13,962 --> 00:55:16,965
[bell tolling faintly]
971
00:55:19,707 --> 00:55:23,363
Meaning cannot be deciphered
in and of itself.
972
00:55:26,366 --> 00:55:29,238
It exists
within a system of signs.
973
00:55:30,239 --> 00:55:33,634
Signs which are constantly
signifying other signs,
974
00:55:33,808 --> 00:55:37,508
but which are themselves
incapable of leading us back
975
00:55:37,682 --> 00:55:39,684
to the source
of the sign itself.
976
00:55:39,858 --> 00:55:41,990
- Who made him the authority?
- [shushes]
977
00:55:42,164 --> 00:55:45,646
This is why truth can only
ever be relative in nature.
978
00:55:47,082 --> 00:55:48,867
We can't know
what we don't know.
979
00:55:50,303 --> 00:55:52,087
We are indeed limited
980
00:55:52,261 --> 00:55:54,612
by our own
self-referentialities.
981
00:55:54,786 --> 00:55:56,570
So then why should we trust him?
982
00:55:57,441 --> 00:55:58,442
Who is that?
983
00:56:00,531 --> 00:56:01,793
Come on. Don't be shy.
Who was it?
984
00:56:05,144 --> 00:56:06,972
Grey cardigan? Yes.
985
00:56:07,886 --> 00:56:08,713
Stand up, please.
986
00:56:11,106 --> 00:56:11,933
[softly sighs]
987
00:56:17,286 --> 00:56:18,549
Would you like
to share your thoughts
988
00:56:18,723 --> 00:56:20,246
with the rest
of the class, Miss--
989
00:56:20,420 --> 00:56:21,682
- Drake.
- Miss Drake.
990
00:56:22,291 --> 00:56:23,162
Please.
991
00:56:24,642 --> 00:56:26,992
Well, you said that truth
can only be relative.
992
00:56:27,166 --> 00:56:29,951
But if that's the case,
how can I trust you?
993
00:56:30,604 --> 00:56:31,475
Hmm.
994
00:56:32,867 --> 00:56:35,870
Tell me, Miss Drake,
are you familiar with the Moro reflex?
995
00:56:39,396 --> 00:56:43,356
The Moro reflex
is an infantile response to the sensation of falling.
996
00:56:44,966 --> 00:56:46,011
Indeed.
997
00:56:47,447 --> 00:56:50,363
The infant opens its arms,
closes them,
998
00:56:51,016 --> 00:56:51,930
begins crying.
999
00:56:53,845 --> 00:56:54,759
What does this tell us?
1000
00:56:56,804 --> 00:57:00,329
- That babies don't like falling.
- [soft chuckling]
1001
00:57:02,331 --> 00:57:04,856
It tells us that humanity
feels the need to cling
1002
00:57:05,030 --> 00:57:07,946
to something tangible
in the face of distress.
1003
00:57:09,382 --> 00:57:12,690
We are, all of us, at the mercy
of a combination of instincts,
1004
00:57:12,864 --> 00:57:15,736
drives, emotions, reflexes.
1005
00:57:16,955 --> 00:57:20,306
Flailing infants
in a deterministic universe.
1006
00:57:22,439 --> 00:57:24,223
That's actually pretty good,
I should write that down.
1007
00:57:24,397 --> 00:57:26,312
[soft chuckling]
1008
00:57:26,486 --> 00:57:28,575
I don't see how our need
to cling to something tangible
1009
00:57:28,749 --> 00:57:30,708
in the face of distress proves
that nothing is tangible.
1010
00:57:30,882 --> 00:57:32,361
- My dear, Miss Drake--
- And maybe you're right.
1011
00:57:32,536 --> 00:57:34,625
Maybe we are limited
by our self-referentiality.
1012
00:57:34,799 --> 00:57:38,063
And if that's the case,
then your truth is as valuable as mine
1013
00:57:38,237 --> 00:57:39,934
and is worthless.
1014
00:57:41,240 --> 00:57:43,024
But... [sighs]
1015
00:57:44,112 --> 00:57:45,331
...maybe you're wrong.
1016
00:57:45,810 --> 00:57:49,117
Maybe we reach
for something or...
1017
00:57:50,075 --> 00:57:53,470
...desire something because
that something is there...
1018
00:57:55,297 --> 00:57:56,690
...beyond us.
1019
00:58:00,302 --> 00:58:01,913
The thing
all our desires point to.
1020
00:58:06,004 --> 00:58:07,701
That's quite enough,
Miss Drake. Sit down.
1021
00:58:12,184 --> 00:58:13,228
[deeply exhales]
1022
00:58:13,402 --> 00:58:14,447
What has gotten into you?
1023
00:58:14,621 --> 00:58:16,623
[inspirational music]
1024
00:58:17,755 --> 00:58:20,148
[indistinct chatter]
1025
00:58:38,558 --> 00:58:39,733
[soft chiming]
1026
00:58:42,649 --> 00:58:43,563
Yeah.
1027
00:58:43,737 --> 00:58:45,522
[indistinct chatter]
1028
00:58:47,219 --> 00:58:50,222
Okay, so the white man is on...
1029
00:58:51,919 --> 00:58:54,139
[laughter]
1030
00:58:54,313 --> 00:58:56,881
[indistinct chatter]
1031
00:59:14,551 --> 00:59:15,421
[chuckles]
1032
00:59:19,164 --> 00:59:19,991
[Kent]
Wow.
1033
00:59:20,731 --> 00:59:22,559
[Carolyn chuckles]
1034
00:59:23,342 --> 00:59:25,474
[upbeat jazz music playing]
1035
00:59:26,214 --> 00:59:28,521
[Kent]
Apparently, you've be spending a lot of time at St. Mary's.
1036
00:59:29,304 --> 00:59:30,741
How in the world
would you know that?
1037
00:59:30,915 --> 00:59:32,743
- I know all things.
- Mm.
1038
00:59:33,308 --> 00:59:34,832
So what do you do in St. Mary's?
1039
00:59:35,354 --> 00:59:37,138
I sit and I read.
1040
00:59:37,312 --> 00:59:38,575
What? Like the plaques?
1041
00:59:44,102 --> 00:59:45,451
[sighs]
1042
00:59:45,625 --> 00:59:46,495
What?
1043
00:59:47,105 --> 00:59:48,497
[woman laughing]
1044
00:59:48,672 --> 00:59:49,586
I--
1045
00:59:52,371 --> 00:59:53,459
You're religious.
1046
00:59:55,287 --> 00:59:56,288
Sure. Okay.
1047
00:59:57,463 --> 00:59:58,333
And I'm not.
1048
00:59:59,857 --> 01:00:04,557
- Yeah.
- So by some secret law of the universe, we can't date.
1049
01:00:05,036 --> 01:00:08,343
All right. I'm gonna need you
to tell me more about this secret law of the universe.
1050
01:00:09,301 --> 01:00:11,912
And... do you
consider this a date?
1051
01:00:15,960 --> 01:00:16,917
I gotta go.
1052
01:00:17,483 --> 01:00:18,571
No, you don't have to go.
1053
01:00:20,573 --> 01:00:21,487
Are you s--
1054
01:00:22,923 --> 01:00:23,794
Every time.
1055
01:00:24,621 --> 01:00:26,623
[engines rumbling]
1056
01:00:27,754 --> 01:00:28,973
[deeply sighs]
1057
01:00:30,583 --> 01:00:33,107
- I'm sorry. What are you doing?
- Nothing.
1058
01:00:33,978 --> 01:00:35,196
You just cut in front of me.
1059
01:00:35,762 --> 01:00:37,155
Well, I'm keeping you safe
from the traffic.
1060
01:00:37,329 --> 01:00:39,548
- Why?
- Well, it's polite.
1061
01:00:40,462 --> 01:00:43,640
- It's weird.
- Look, if a car comes speeding down here,
1062
01:00:43,814 --> 01:00:45,293
- I'm j-- Well, no--
- You'd what? Take the hit for me?
1063
01:00:45,467 --> 01:00:46,730
How heroic of you.
1064
01:00:47,426 --> 01:00:49,428
- I'm just trying
to be courteous-- - Okay, well, your courtesy
1065
01:00:49,602 --> 01:00:52,126
is a patriarchal act
of subordinating assumption.
1066
01:00:52,300 --> 01:00:54,694
Are you serious? No one speaks
like that, not even you.
1067
01:00:54,868 --> 01:00:56,565
Okay, don't push it, TDH.
1068
01:00:56,740 --> 01:00:58,350
TDH? What's a TDH?
1069
01:00:59,568 --> 01:01:01,048
Um... [sighs]
1070
01:01:01,614 --> 01:01:06,401
...tall, d-- uh,
disciple of... holiness.
1071
01:01:06,575 --> 01:01:07,881
- Tall disciple of holiness.
- Yeah.
1072
01:01:08,055 --> 01:01:09,535
- Really? It's weird.
- Mm-hmm.
1073
01:01:10,362 --> 01:01:12,407
Yep. Well, thanks for walking me
down the sidewalk.
1074
01:01:12,581 --> 01:01:14,975
- So nice.
- TDH. I like it.
1075
01:01:16,803 --> 01:01:19,066
Please, please,
please, please, please. Professor McTeague!
1076
01:01:19,240 --> 01:01:21,068
Professor McTeague.
Professor McTeague! Professor McTeague.
1077
01:01:21,242 --> 01:01:23,723
- [door closes]
- Oh, damn it. I'm so sorry.
1078
01:01:23,897 --> 01:01:26,683
I, I, I-- [mumbles] come on,
I got caught in traffic.
1079
01:01:27,901 --> 01:01:28,902
Oh, bloody hell.
1080
01:01:29,860 --> 01:01:30,817
[sighs]
1081
01:01:31,775 --> 01:01:32,863
You all right?
1082
01:01:34,473 --> 01:01:36,301
- Shit!
- Oh.
1083
01:01:36,475 --> 01:01:39,173
Your tutors say that you've
fallen behind with your studies.
1084
01:01:39,913 --> 01:01:42,089
That you seem distracted.
1085
01:01:43,134 --> 01:01:46,050
I've seen students fall in
with the wrong crowd.
1086
01:01:46,224 --> 01:01:47,921
Soon they're partying
more than studying.
1087
01:01:48,095 --> 01:01:50,315
No, no. God, no.
That's, that's not it.
1088
01:01:50,489 --> 01:01:53,884
Well, whatever it is,
I encourage you to distance yourself
1089
01:01:54,058 --> 01:01:57,365
from anything that diverts you
from your original goal.
1090
01:01:57,539 --> 01:01:59,933
If you do not meet
the necessary criteria,
1091
01:02:00,542 --> 01:02:03,067
it is possible to have
the scholarship rescinded.
1092
01:02:04,851 --> 01:02:06,766
[thunder rumbling]
1093
01:02:06,940 --> 01:02:09,203
[rain splattering]
1094
01:02:16,297 --> 01:02:18,343
[deeply inhales and exhales]
1095
01:02:18,996 --> 01:02:20,301
I come in search of milk.
1096
01:02:21,302 --> 01:02:22,216
Do you have any milk?
1097
01:02:23,130 --> 01:02:25,045
Yeah, I--
yeah, it's in the fridge.
1098
01:02:25,219 --> 01:02:26,655
Thank you, thank you, thank you.
1099
01:02:30,181 --> 01:02:31,835
I just didn't really feel
like walking in the rain.
1100
01:02:32,009 --> 01:02:33,619
It's absolutely miserable
out there.
1101
01:02:34,838 --> 01:02:36,927
Hey, what would you say
about a hot chocolate break?
1102
01:02:37,101 --> 01:02:39,320
- I, I really can't.
- Why not?
1103
01:02:39,930 --> 01:02:42,280
I just--
I have a lot to do, okay?
1104
01:02:42,454 --> 01:02:43,760
And I need to stay focused.
1105
01:02:45,674 --> 01:02:47,502
Okay, but I mean,
you also need to take breaks.
1106
01:02:47,676 --> 01:02:48,895
It's important to take breaks.
1107
01:02:49,069 --> 01:02:51,071
I can't afford
to take any more breaks.
1108
01:02:53,508 --> 01:02:55,032
We'll see how you feel
about that tomorrow.
1109
01:02:55,206 --> 01:02:57,208
- Okay, can you not take a hint?
- What?
1110
01:02:57,382 --> 01:03:00,254
This is why I'm here.
To work and earn my doctorate
1111
01:03:00,428 --> 01:03:03,214
and get on with my life,
not to pointless conversations and afternoon tea.
1112
01:03:03,388 --> 01:03:07,609
- Caro, I know you--
- Whatever you think this is, I can assure you you're wrong.
1113
01:03:07,784 --> 01:03:09,611
I let myself get
momentarily distracted,
1114
01:03:09,786 --> 01:03:11,004
and it was obviously a mistake.
1115
01:03:11,178 --> 01:03:13,528
[rain splattering]
1116
01:03:13,702 --> 01:03:15,226
Have you ever considered,
even for one moment,
1117
01:03:15,400 --> 01:03:17,010
that maybe you're not here
just for a doctorate?
1118
01:03:17,184 --> 01:03:19,012
- Listen, you're not--
- Maybe there's other experiences
1119
01:03:19,186 --> 01:03:20,971
- that are impor--
- ...not hearing what I'm saying. Earlier today,
1120
01:03:21,145 --> 01:03:22,755
I had to sit and listen
as someone explained to me
1121
01:03:22,929 --> 01:03:24,757
that I was in danger
of losing my scholarship.
1122
01:03:24,931 --> 01:03:26,498
Do you have any idea
how hard I've worked for this?
1123
01:03:26,672 --> 01:03:28,717
I'm sorry. I never intended
to get in the way--
1124
01:03:28,892 --> 01:03:30,807
Oh, okay.
Because who could deny you?
1125
01:03:30,981 --> 01:03:33,026
The perfect picture
of chivalry, right?
1126
01:03:33,200 --> 01:03:35,159
- Well, guess what. I don't buy
what you're selling. - Caro--
1127
01:03:35,333 --> 01:03:36,769
You act like you're different,
but you're not.
1128
01:03:36,943 --> 01:03:37,944
You'll trick me
into trusting you
1129
01:03:38,118 --> 01:03:39,337
and then make promises
1130
01:03:39,511 --> 01:03:40,817
that you can't keep.
And what then?
1131
01:03:40,991 --> 01:03:42,427
What was it all for?
I'd like to avoid
1132
01:03:42,601 --> 01:03:43,863
that inevitable catastrophe,
if you don't mind.
1133
01:03:44,037 --> 01:03:45,299
Caro, that doesn't have
to be our story.
1134
01:03:45,473 --> 01:03:47,040
[thunder rumbling]
1135
01:03:47,214 --> 01:03:50,565
I can't be whatever it is
you want me to be,
1136
01:03:53,786 --> 01:03:54,787
[softly] Okay.
1137
01:03:56,267 --> 01:03:57,181
Please leave.
1138
01:03:57,746 --> 01:03:59,923
Okay. I'll just go to the store.
1139
01:04:01,446 --> 01:04:02,273
[door closes]
1140
01:04:03,187 --> 01:04:03,970
[sharply exhales]
1141
01:04:04,144 --> 01:04:06,146
[light melancholic music]
1142
01:04:11,369 --> 01:04:13,197
[clattering]
1143
01:04:32,390 --> 01:04:33,957
[paper rustling]
1144
01:04:36,829 --> 01:04:39,832
In closing, Shelley's mastery
of language is a potent reminder
1145
01:04:40,006 --> 01:04:42,487
that women are uniquely equipped
to embody and articulate
1146
01:04:42,661 --> 01:04:44,750
the depths
of emotional experience.
1147
01:04:51,539 --> 01:04:52,540
Who's next?
1148
01:04:54,194 --> 01:04:56,196
[indistinct chatter]
1149
01:04:57,676 --> 01:04:58,546
[Hannah]
Caro.
1150
01:05:02,115 --> 01:05:03,551
Earth to Caro.
1151
01:05:04,509 --> 01:05:06,380
You've been in a funk for weeks.
1152
01:05:08,252 --> 01:05:10,863
[deeply exhales] I'm fine.
1153
01:05:12,343 --> 01:05:13,953
When was the last time
you spoke to Kent?
1154
01:05:17,870 --> 01:05:18,827
Hello, darling.
1155
01:05:20,612 --> 01:05:21,830
How are we this morning?
1156
01:05:24,746 --> 01:05:25,791
So...
1157
01:05:27,184 --> 01:05:28,446
...have we, um...
[clears throat]
1158
01:05:29,490 --> 01:05:31,057
...shared the news? Oh.
1159
01:05:31,231 --> 01:05:32,363
There is no news.
1160
01:05:33,146 --> 01:05:34,365
[Edward]
Oh, come on.
1161
01:05:34,974 --> 01:05:37,107
We can't hide the truth
from these two, can we?
1162
01:05:38,108 --> 01:05:39,544
- Linnea.
- It's nothing.
1163
01:05:39,718 --> 01:05:40,849
[loudly] We shagged.
1164
01:05:44,679 --> 01:05:45,985
It feels good to say that.
1165
01:05:46,681 --> 01:05:47,595
It was really good.
1166
01:05:48,292 --> 01:05:49,989
[deeply exhales]
1167
01:05:52,513 --> 01:05:53,558
[whispers] Shit.
1168
01:05:57,649 --> 01:05:59,303
- Just get out.
- Sorry. Sorry.
1169
01:05:59,825 --> 01:06:01,870
[birds chirping]
1170
01:06:03,176 --> 01:06:06,092
Caro, what is going on with you?
1171
01:06:08,007 --> 01:06:10,314
Nothing. I'm just... [sighs]
1172
01:06:11,880 --> 01:06:12,969
Deeply unhappy?
1173
01:06:14,535 --> 01:06:15,406
Busy.
1174
01:06:16,581 --> 01:06:19,062
You're working yourself sick,
and I'm worried about you.
1175
01:06:20,237 --> 01:06:21,499
- I'm worried that--
- What?
1176
01:06:22,717 --> 01:06:24,458
That you'll get
everything you want
1177
01:06:24,632 --> 01:06:27,244
and be perfectly miserable
in the end.
1178
01:06:31,639 --> 01:06:32,553
Yeah, okay.
1179
01:06:34,251 --> 01:06:35,774
[Hannah]
Kent has a visitor.
1180
01:06:38,472 --> 01:06:40,474
She arrived yesterday
from the States.
1181
01:06:41,388 --> 01:06:44,000
Supposedly, they were introduced
through his friend Alex.
1182
01:06:45,218 --> 01:06:46,089
[scoffs]
1183
01:06:46,915 --> 01:06:48,178
Didn't take him long, did it?
1184
01:06:48,787 --> 01:06:50,180
Talk to him.
1185
01:06:51,485 --> 01:06:53,139
- Why?
- Because you love him.
1186
01:06:54,010 --> 01:06:55,750
- It's ridiculous.
- Is it?
1187
01:07:02,540 --> 01:07:05,108
I've got a lot
of reading to get in, I'll catch up with you later.
1188
01:07:13,203 --> 01:07:14,030
Edward?
1189
01:07:16,641 --> 01:07:18,469
- He actually wasn't that bad.
- I don't wanna know.
1190
01:07:19,122 --> 01:07:21,037
[gentle music]
1191
01:07:21,211 --> 01:07:23,213
[indistinct chatter]
1192
01:07:33,745 --> 01:07:35,355
[soft laughter]
1193
01:07:37,488 --> 01:07:39,838
- I know, I-- I know--
- [indistinct chatter]
1194
01:07:54,809 --> 01:07:56,811
[engines rumbling]
1195
01:08:11,217 --> 01:08:13,219
[music increases]
1196
01:08:47,601 --> 01:08:48,602
[Kent]
Caro?
1197
01:08:52,606 --> 01:08:54,086
- Why are you following me?
- Let go of me!
1198
01:08:54,260 --> 01:08:55,653
I've been trying
to let go of you.
1199
01:08:55,827 --> 01:08:57,176
Well, clearly,
you're not having any trouble.
1200
01:08:57,350 --> 01:08:58,699
What are you talking about?
You were the one
1201
01:08:58,873 --> 01:09:00,310
- who pulled away from me.
- A choice that's looking
1202
01:09:00,484 --> 01:09:02,181
- wiser and wiser by the second.
- I'm sorry.
1203
01:09:02,355 --> 01:09:04,183
Why are you upset? You said
that you wanted to concentrate
1204
01:09:04,357 --> 01:09:06,446
- on your doctorate.
- I do! I'm just marveling
1205
01:09:06,620 --> 01:09:08,187
at how quickly you moved on
to greener pastures.
1206
01:09:08,361 --> 01:09:10,102
Well, that's not fair.
I mean, it's not even accur--
1207
01:09:10,276 --> 01:09:11,625
Oh, please do
mansplain it to me.
1208
01:09:11,799 --> 01:09:14,280
Okay, stop pretending
like you don't care.
1209
01:09:14,454 --> 01:09:15,803
- [chiming]
- I don't care!
1210
01:09:15,977 --> 01:09:17,762
I'm sick and tired
of your bullshit.
1211
01:09:17,936 --> 01:09:19,372
All right?
You wear this brave face,
1212
01:09:19,546 --> 01:09:20,852
but inside,
you're just as scared
1213
01:09:21,026 --> 01:09:22,723
- as everybody else, okay?
- You have no idea
1214
01:09:22,897 --> 01:09:24,638
- what you're talking about.
- [chiming]
1215
01:09:25,509 --> 01:09:27,641
You're afraid
to let yourself be loved
1216
01:09:27,815 --> 01:09:30,035
because it's a step
into the unknown,
1217
01:09:30,209 --> 01:09:33,343
and nothing scares you more
in the world than the unknown.
1218
01:09:33,517 --> 01:09:35,910
You pour over the words
of dead people.
1219
01:09:36,476 --> 01:09:38,565
You, you study them,
and you analyze them.
1220
01:09:38,739 --> 01:09:41,220
But you don't let yourself
feel those same things.
1221
01:09:42,874 --> 01:09:44,745
I'm sorry
your dad abandoned you.
1222
01:09:44,919 --> 01:09:46,921
[melancholic music]
1223
01:09:48,706 --> 01:09:50,098
It doesn't mean
that I would have.
1224
01:09:51,491 --> 01:09:53,363
Don't act like you know
anything about my life!
1225
01:09:53,537 --> 01:09:56,017
- You have no idea.
- I hate to break it to you, Caro.
1226
01:09:56,670 --> 01:09:58,150
You own the market corner
of disappointment.
1227
01:09:58,324 --> 01:09:59,847
You do not know
what I've been through.
1228
01:10:00,021 --> 01:10:01,414
No, you're right. I don't.
1229
01:10:01,588 --> 01:10:04,025
And I know that you have
every reason to be angry.
1230
01:10:04,200 --> 01:10:07,333
You have
every reason to be confused and to push everyone away.
1231
01:10:07,507 --> 01:10:09,074
But is that what you want?
1232
01:10:09,944 --> 01:10:12,512
Is that what you want?
Do you want to be alone?
1233
01:10:13,687 --> 01:10:14,558
Do you?
1234
01:10:16,821 --> 01:10:18,779
You know,
maybe we reach for something
1235
01:10:18,953 --> 01:10:20,477
because that something is there.
1236
01:10:34,882 --> 01:10:37,581
[engine rumbling]
1237
01:10:37,755 --> 01:10:39,757
[crickets chirping]
1238
01:10:50,637 --> 01:10:51,464
[pencil breaks]
1239
01:10:53,640 --> 01:10:55,163
[whispers]
You gotta be kidding me.
1240
01:11:09,221 --> 01:11:10,178
[woman]
You!
1241
01:11:11,963 --> 01:11:15,271
- The rules are perfectly clear.
- I know. I know the rules.
1242
01:11:15,445 --> 01:11:17,664
It's, you know,
no ink around the books. I get it. You know,
1243
01:11:17,838 --> 01:11:20,058
- it's protect the damn books--
- You should kindly keep your voice down--
1244
01:11:20,232 --> 01:11:21,842
Keep your voice down
in the library! You know,
1245
01:11:22,016 --> 01:11:23,322
it's just all about the books.
How precious they are.
1246
01:11:23,496 --> 01:11:24,454
Keep the ink away
from the books.
1247
01:11:24,628 --> 01:11:25,803
And everything's
about the books.
1248
01:11:25,977 --> 01:11:27,587
- The books, the books, the--
- [gasps]
1249
01:11:28,196 --> 01:11:29,546
What have you done?
1250
01:11:31,287 --> 01:11:32,244
[gasps]
1251
01:11:35,900 --> 01:11:36,857
[door opens]
1252
01:11:47,694 --> 01:11:49,392
Can I have a word
with her alone?
1253
01:11:55,093 --> 01:11:56,137
[door closes]
1254
01:11:59,576 --> 01:12:00,490
Hands.
1255
01:12:07,279 --> 01:12:10,021
[laughing]
1256
01:12:14,634 --> 01:12:16,201
Oh, my dear girl.
1257
01:12:18,508 --> 01:12:21,902
I am going to my cottage
in the Cotswolds for the weekend.
1258
01:12:23,774 --> 01:12:25,776
I'd be delighted
if you joined me.
1259
01:12:27,865 --> 01:12:29,823
Unless, of course,
you prefer to stay here.
1260
01:12:30,302 --> 01:12:32,348
[gentle music]
1261
01:12:56,589 --> 01:12:57,634
[door closes]
1262
01:13:03,379 --> 01:13:05,381
[birds chirping]
1263
01:13:14,912 --> 01:13:16,130
Hello, Sammy.
1264
01:13:16,609 --> 01:13:18,176
You the welcoming party?
1265
01:13:18,350 --> 01:13:19,438
[chuckles] Good boy.
1266
01:13:21,484 --> 01:13:22,441
[quack]
1267
01:13:24,530 --> 01:13:25,444
Hi, Sammy.
1268
01:13:31,972 --> 01:13:32,973
[deeply exhales]
1269
01:13:37,891 --> 01:13:39,153
A bit of housekeeping.
1270
01:13:40,067 --> 01:13:42,418
While you're here,
you must call me Regina.
1271
01:13:42,592 --> 01:13:44,115
- Oh, I don't--
- No arguing.
1272
01:13:44,768 --> 01:13:46,378
Come, I'll show you
to your room.
1273
01:13:54,299 --> 01:13:56,780
[sighs]
This was my husband's old study.
1274
01:13:58,129 --> 01:14:01,262
My, how he loved
this room. [chuckles]
1275
01:14:02,046 --> 01:14:05,092
Back in those days,
it was a bustling, busy house.
1276
01:14:05,266 --> 01:14:06,746
This was his refuge.
1277
01:14:11,708 --> 01:14:14,275
He passed away four years ago.
1278
01:14:16,495 --> 01:14:17,888
I'm sorry.
1279
01:14:18,062 --> 01:14:19,193
Life goes on.
1280
01:14:22,849 --> 01:14:25,069
About what happened--
1281
01:14:25,243 --> 01:14:26,853
Don't. You're my guest,
1282
01:14:27,027 --> 01:14:28,725
and you've nothing
to apologize for.
1283
01:14:28,899 --> 01:14:30,030
I'll get you some towels.
1284
01:14:32,598 --> 01:14:33,469
[sighs]
1285
01:14:34,687 --> 01:14:37,342
[gentle music]
1286
01:14:55,839 --> 01:14:58,450
[deeply exhales]
1287
01:15:10,636 --> 01:15:11,811
[knocks on door]
1288
01:15:12,769 --> 01:15:13,987
[door opens]
1289
01:15:17,469 --> 01:15:18,688
I saw your light on.
1290
01:15:20,211 --> 01:15:22,866
- Sorry. I saw it here.
- No, it's all right.
1291
01:15:23,388 --> 01:15:24,389
[sharply exhales]
1292
01:15:25,521 --> 01:15:26,391
[sighs]
1293
01:15:28,349 --> 01:15:29,960
After Henry died...
1294
01:15:31,222 --> 01:15:33,529
...I had my share
of restless nights.
1295
01:15:35,095 --> 01:15:36,619
So many questions,
1296
01:15:37,315 --> 01:15:38,795
so few answers.
1297
01:15:41,798 --> 01:15:43,800
You seem so strong.
1298
01:15:44,496 --> 01:15:45,889
So settled.
1299
01:15:46,063 --> 01:15:49,414
Oh. That's where faith
comes in, I suppose.
1300
01:15:50,546 --> 01:15:55,028
A faith that says
it's somehow going to be all right in the end.
1301
01:15:56,943 --> 01:15:58,945
Doesn't take away
the pain, but...
1302
01:15:59,598 --> 01:16:01,557
...it does make it
more bearable.
1303
01:16:04,647 --> 01:16:06,257
[sighs] You know...
1304
01:16:07,780 --> 01:16:09,695
...you're not at all
what I thought you'd be like.
1305
01:16:11,958 --> 01:16:14,308
- Disappointed?
- [softly chuckles]
1306
01:16:14,482 --> 01:16:15,832
No, it's just...
1307
01:16:18,356 --> 01:16:20,967
...all I've ever wanted
was to be someone...
1308
01:16:22,099 --> 01:16:23,100
...like you.
1309
01:16:24,188 --> 01:16:26,146
Someone who's carved
her own path.
1310
01:16:26,756 --> 01:16:31,195
Who's accomplished
and confident and intelligent.
1311
01:16:32,370 --> 01:16:33,589
But you're so...
1312
01:16:34,633 --> 01:16:37,027
Uh, unimpressed with myself?
1313
01:16:41,771 --> 01:16:46,166
That's Kirk Manor,
near where I grew up in Scotland.
1314
01:16:47,254 --> 01:16:51,171
Beautiful house
with a magnificent hedged maze.
1315
01:16:51,737 --> 01:16:53,173
One of the best in the country.
1316
01:16:53,957 --> 01:16:55,698
Though not
for the faint of heart.
1317
01:16:57,351 --> 01:17:01,007
It was quite common
for visitors to lose their way.
1318
01:17:01,181 --> 01:17:04,750
So the groundskeeper
installed bells at various points throughout.
1319
01:17:04,924 --> 01:17:09,233
So if you were lost,
you simply rang the bell, and help would come.
1320
01:17:10,582 --> 01:17:15,282
As you can imagine,
not everyone had the humility to admit they were lost.
1321
01:17:16,588 --> 01:17:20,070
There was a man from town
who spent two nights out in the cold
1322
01:17:20,244 --> 01:17:22,594
before the bell sounded.
[chuckles]
1323
01:17:22,768 --> 01:17:24,944
Made the front page
of the morning paper.
1324
01:17:28,731 --> 01:17:30,646
You've worked so hard, Caro,
1325
01:17:31,472 --> 01:17:32,517
for so long.
1326
01:17:34,127 --> 01:17:37,522
But all your striving
didn't get you here.
1327
01:17:38,784 --> 01:17:40,786
It took someone
believing in you.
1328
01:17:42,701 --> 01:17:44,485
Deveaux was his name, wasn't it?
1329
01:17:47,271 --> 01:17:48,402
That's a gift.
1330
01:17:49,839 --> 01:17:51,144
That's grace.
1331
01:17:53,407 --> 01:17:56,759
I believe there's grace
all around us all the time.
1332
01:17:57,629 --> 01:18:01,677
If we can only have the humility
to admit that we need it.
1333
01:18:04,288 --> 01:18:06,769
That we can't find
a way out on our own.
1334
01:18:06,943 --> 01:18:08,945
[gentle music]
1335
01:18:29,574 --> 01:18:31,532
[clattering]
1336
01:18:41,412 --> 01:18:43,457
[birds chirping]
1337
01:19:06,480 --> 01:19:08,526
[music continues]
1338
01:19:30,766 --> 01:19:32,768
[bell tolling]
1339
01:19:37,468 --> 01:19:40,210
[Edward]
So, Caro, are the rumors true?
1340
01:19:40,384 --> 01:19:42,342
You've joined
Father Michael's pious flock?
1341
01:19:42,516 --> 01:19:44,257
- [chuckles]
- It's only a matter of time.
1342
01:19:44,431 --> 01:19:46,042
[sighs]
1343
01:19:46,956 --> 01:19:49,610
What can I do to convince you
to join the normal world?
1344
01:19:49,785 --> 01:19:50,698
[sighs]
1345
01:19:51,308 --> 01:19:52,962
What is normal, Edward?
1346
01:19:53,136 --> 01:19:55,965
You don't need religion
to find meaning. Look at me.
1347
01:19:56,139 --> 01:19:58,228
I create my own meaning. Yeah?
1348
01:19:58,837 --> 01:20:00,317
- Do you?
- Isn't that right, Linnea darling?
1349
01:20:00,491 --> 01:20:01,753
- Hmm.
- Get off.
1350
01:20:02,623 --> 01:20:04,756
But don't you ever worry
that you'll get to the end of your life
1351
01:20:04,930 --> 01:20:06,932
and just wonder
what it was all for?
1352
01:20:07,106 --> 01:20:09,413
[grunts] Of course.
1353
01:20:10,109 --> 01:20:12,503
That's why I wanna die
very old and in my sleep,
1354
01:20:13,243 --> 01:20:15,506
- next to this lovely lady,
perhaps. - [Hannah] Yeah.
1355
01:20:16,333 --> 01:20:17,682
To ease into nothingness,
1356
01:20:17,856 --> 01:20:19,684
not to find out
with your dying breath
1357
01:20:19,858 --> 01:20:21,555
that you've been tricked
all along.
1358
01:20:22,513 --> 01:20:24,384
I don't wanna know, see?
1359
01:20:24,994 --> 01:20:29,085
Sometimes it's easier
to just leave after sharing a cigarette.
1360
01:20:30,347 --> 01:20:31,391
I wanna show you something.
1361
01:20:31,565 --> 01:20:33,480
[bird chirping]
1362
01:20:33,654 --> 01:20:35,961
["Ubi Caritas"
by Poor Clare Sisters, Arundel]
1363
01:21:06,600 --> 01:21:07,993
[Hannah]
William Holman Hunt.
1364
01:21:09,473 --> 01:21:10,735
1853.
1365
01:21:15,479 --> 01:21:16,480
Mm.
1366
01:21:17,568 --> 01:21:18,482
It's quite lovely...
1367
01:21:19,918 --> 01:21:21,441
...irrespective
of the subject matter.
1368
01:21:28,666 --> 01:21:29,667
Oh, look.
1369
01:21:30,798 --> 01:21:31,756
There's a mistake.
1370
01:21:33,540 --> 01:21:34,933
There's no handle on the door.
1371
01:21:49,034 --> 01:21:51,254
The door can only be opened
from the inside.
1372
01:21:57,129 --> 01:21:58,043
Don't eat those.
1373
01:22:00,219 --> 01:22:02,047
[fireworks blowing]
1374
01:22:02,221 --> 01:22:04,180
["If Only My Heart Could Speak"
by Cody Fry]
1375
01:22:16,801 --> 01:22:19,717
♪ You're making me confused ♪
1376
01:22:19,891 --> 01:22:22,372
♪ I'm puzzled and bemused ♪
1377
01:22:22,938 --> 01:22:25,723
♪ I'm fuddled
heart's been puddled by... ♪
1378
01:22:25,897 --> 01:22:27,246
Begging your pardon,
Professor McTeague.
1379
01:22:27,420 --> 01:22:29,466
Good God, man.
Where did you spring from?
1380
01:22:29,640 --> 01:22:31,337
Uh, I, I've been meaning
to ask you about your take
1381
01:22:31,511 --> 01:22:33,165
on Scott's The Antiquary.
1382
01:22:33,339 --> 01:22:35,298
Personally, I consider it
his most underrated work.
1383
01:22:35,472 --> 01:22:38,562
Oh, my boy, I had no idea
you're so keen on Scott.
1384
01:22:38,736 --> 01:22:41,869
Well, you must let me show you
some of my first editions someday.
1385
01:22:42,044 --> 01:22:46,048
- Amazing.
- She keeps putting Blue Curaçao on everything.
1386
01:22:46,222 --> 01:22:48,659
- Who?
- Amelia Kantor.
1387
01:22:49,225 --> 01:22:50,400
- [soft clinking]
- [sighs]
1388
01:22:50,574 --> 01:22:51,923
[McCoy]
"To whom th'Arch-Enemy,
1389
01:22:52,097 --> 01:22:53,838
and thence in Heav'n
call'd Satan,
1390
01:22:54,012 --> 01:22:57,668
with bold words breaking
the horrid silence thus began."
1391
01:22:58,277 --> 01:22:59,844
Well done, Mr. McCoy.
1392
01:23:00,888 --> 01:23:03,717
You know what?
I think I've changed my mind about Milton.
1393
01:23:03,891 --> 01:23:06,024
He's actually quite a good one
to give a second read.
1394
01:23:06,198 --> 01:23:08,331
Yes. I think he has a future.
1395
01:23:08,505 --> 01:23:10,507
[indistinct chatter]
1396
01:23:29,830 --> 01:23:32,790
♪ Oh, I didn't have the time ♪
1397
01:23:33,704 --> 01:23:35,097
- ♪ To think of... ♪
- Okay, so I feel
1398
01:23:35,271 --> 01:23:36,707
- like I owe you an expla--
- I'm sorry.
1399
01:23:39,318 --> 01:23:40,232
Me too.
1400
01:23:43,192 --> 01:23:46,021
What do you say we resolve
that which was left unresolved?
1401
01:23:48,458 --> 01:23:50,634
I think that would be
such a great idea.
1402
01:23:56,031 --> 01:23:57,162
Where's your perfect match?
1403
01:23:58,642 --> 01:24:00,035
Turns out she's not my type.
1404
01:24:00,905 --> 01:24:02,037
No?
1405
01:24:02,211 --> 01:24:03,429
No. No, uh,
1406
01:24:03,603 --> 01:24:04,909
she was far too much
of a pushover.
1407
01:24:06,737 --> 01:24:09,174
♪ But I could never teach... ♪
1408
01:24:09,348 --> 01:24:10,567
You seem different.
1409
01:24:12,047 --> 01:24:13,483
Well, I, I washed my hair.
1410
01:24:14,701 --> 01:24:15,572
That must be it.
1411
01:24:15,746 --> 01:24:16,834
[chuckles]
1412
01:24:22,013 --> 01:24:23,971
Do you wanna see
the best view in Oxford?
1413
01:24:24,537 --> 01:24:26,539
[gentle music]
1414
01:24:48,300 --> 01:24:49,258
[softly grunts]
1415
01:24:53,044 --> 01:24:53,914
Wow.
1416
01:24:57,744 --> 01:25:02,793
So, apparently, you were banned
from the Bodleian Library.
1417
01:25:04,273 --> 01:25:05,578
I don't really
wanna talk about it.
1418
01:25:06,318 --> 01:25:07,145
[whispers] Really?
1419
01:25:09,060 --> 01:25:10,061
Wow.
1420
01:25:11,106 --> 01:25:13,151
Oh, my God,
you're an Oxford grad.
1421
01:25:13,325 --> 01:25:14,283
How does that feel?
1422
01:25:18,678 --> 01:25:19,549
Bittersweet.
1423
01:25:25,381 --> 01:25:26,904
I hear Blackwell's is hiring.
1424
01:25:28,862 --> 01:25:31,691
Yeah. The thing is, I actually
already have a job offer.
1425
01:25:32,866 --> 01:25:33,911
It's for a...
1426
01:25:34,694 --> 01:25:36,783
...think tank, which is
basically a consulting firm.
1427
01:25:36,957 --> 01:25:38,698
It's like low-level stuff,
but it's,
1428
01:25:38,872 --> 01:25:40,309
it's got room to grow.
1429
01:25:42,789 --> 01:25:43,790
In the UK?
1430
01:25:47,316 --> 01:25:48,708
In DC, actually.
1431
01:26:00,067 --> 01:26:01,504
How long do you have to decide?
1432
01:26:04,637 --> 01:26:05,986
Well, I've already accepted.
1433
01:26:09,120 --> 01:26:10,295
I leave tonight.
1434
01:26:12,384 --> 01:26:14,386
[gentle music continues]
1435
01:26:18,825 --> 01:26:19,783
Caro.
1436
01:26:29,532 --> 01:26:30,663
What am I to you?
1437
01:26:32,143 --> 01:26:33,231
What are we?
1438
01:26:37,540 --> 01:26:38,802
What do you want us to be?
1439
01:26:55,645 --> 01:26:56,733
[deeply exhales]
1440
01:27:04,828 --> 01:27:06,830
[music increases]
1441
01:27:44,302 --> 01:27:45,738
- [indistinct chatter]
- [whooping]
1442
01:27:45,912 --> 01:27:50,830
♪ I will never leave you
all alone ♪
1443
01:27:52,876 --> 01:27:56,271
♪ I couldn't stay, she's... ♪
1444
01:27:56,445 --> 01:27:57,489
[Kent]
My taxi is waiting.
1445
01:27:59,448 --> 01:28:03,016
[upbeat dance music playing]
1446
01:28:03,190 --> 01:28:04,104
[Carolyn sighs]
1447
01:28:04,975 --> 01:28:06,106
So what happens now?
1448
01:28:10,023 --> 01:28:11,111
That's the question.
1449
01:28:12,112 --> 01:28:12,983
Isn't it?
1450
01:28:13,723 --> 01:28:15,725
[music continues]
1451
01:28:21,948 --> 01:28:23,733
- Caro--
- Don't say goodbye.
1452
01:28:26,649 --> 01:28:28,999
- There he is. Oh, come on, Kent.
- Come on.
1453
01:28:29,173 --> 01:28:31,001
- One more group photo b--
- One more group photo before you leave.
1454
01:28:31,175 --> 01:28:32,655
- [cross talk]
- [softly] I'm sorry.
1455
01:28:32,829 --> 01:28:36,876
♪ I will never leave you
all alone ♪
1456
01:28:39,270 --> 01:28:43,796
♪ When the night gets
dark and cold ♪
1457
01:28:45,189 --> 01:28:47,191
[light suspenseful music]
1458
01:28:57,244 --> 01:29:00,291
[romantic music]
1459
01:29:17,613 --> 01:29:20,616
[music increases]
1460
01:29:44,422 --> 01:29:46,424
[gentle music]
1461
01:29:52,778 --> 01:29:54,780
[rains splattering]
1462
01:30:36,822 --> 01:30:38,824
[horse clopping]
1463
01:30:43,655 --> 01:30:45,657
[music continues]
1464
01:30:49,226 --> 01:30:50,314
You all right, Miss?
1465
01:30:51,794 --> 01:30:53,099
Where are you supposed to be?
1466
01:30:58,061 --> 01:30:59,105
I don't know.
1467
01:31:02,674 --> 01:31:03,501
Hop on.
1468
01:31:04,589 --> 01:31:05,634
I'll give you a ride.
1469
01:31:09,638 --> 01:31:13,468
[Carolyn]
So remember how Aristotle said that man is teleological?
1470
01:31:14,730 --> 01:31:16,079
Well, here's the thing.
1471
01:31:17,820 --> 01:31:21,301
A telos isn't just a goal
or a destination.
1472
01:31:22,259 --> 01:31:23,869
It's the purpose of a thing.
1473
01:31:24,783 --> 01:31:26,568
What it's designed to do.
1474
01:31:29,440 --> 01:31:32,182
For all our striving
and philosophizing,
1475
01:31:33,270 --> 01:31:35,185
knowledge only gets us so far.
1476
01:31:39,319 --> 01:31:41,191
Maybe we're made for longing.
1477
01:31:43,193 --> 01:31:46,022
And we're restless
until we're ravished by the truth.
1478
01:31:46,196 --> 01:31:48,198
[music continues]
1479
01:31:52,158 --> 01:31:53,551
So what happens now...
1480
01:31:57,381 --> 01:31:58,774
...now that the dance is over...
1481
01:32:01,516 --> 01:32:02,647
...the curtain closed?
1482
01:32:32,024 --> 01:32:33,156
That's the question.
1483
01:32:34,461 --> 01:32:35,506
Isn't it?
1484
01:32:41,773 --> 01:32:43,122
[paper rustling]
1485
01:32:48,127 --> 01:32:50,086
[woman]
It's metaphorical, isn't it?
1486
01:32:51,653 --> 01:32:53,611
Donne's using
these religious images
1487
01:32:53,785 --> 01:32:57,746
as a way to comment
on the human striving for ideals.
1488
01:32:57,920 --> 01:32:59,182
[soft clatters]
1489
01:33:01,837 --> 01:33:03,273
I think you misunderstood.
1490
01:33:04,622 --> 01:33:07,407
The truth is in the paradox.
1491
01:33:09,975 --> 01:33:12,282
- Are we still on for Paris?
- [Linnea] Are you kidding? I wouldn't miss it.
1492
01:33:12,456 --> 01:33:14,414
Yes. And then afterwards,
you come straight to India.
1493
01:33:14,589 --> 01:33:18,027
Oh, the kids are adorable, Caro.
I think they're ruining me.
1494
01:33:18,201 --> 01:33:20,290
Well, you better
send me some photos now that I have a real phone.
1495
01:33:20,464 --> 01:33:21,683
Look at her. She's all grown up.
1496
01:33:21,857 --> 01:33:23,554
[door creaks]
1497
01:33:23,728 --> 01:33:25,512
[Hannah]
Really wish you were here, Dr. Drake.
1498
01:33:25,687 --> 01:33:27,384
Hey, can I call you guys
right back?
1499
01:33:27,558 --> 01:33:29,604
- [Linnea] Okay. Bye.
- [Hannah] Okay. Love you. Bye.
1500
01:33:35,784 --> 01:33:37,699
[birds chirping]
1501
01:33:37,873 --> 01:33:39,875
[indistinct chatter]
1502
01:33:53,279 --> 01:33:55,281
[inspirational music]
1503
01:34:06,945 --> 01:34:08,468
[Carolyn]
The truth is in the paradox.
1504
01:34:10,427 --> 01:34:11,428
Death to life.
1505
01:34:12,734 --> 01:34:13,822
Pain to glory.
1506
01:34:15,737 --> 01:34:18,261
Seeds sown in winter
burst forth in spring.
1507
01:34:19,262 --> 01:34:20,176
Hope eternal.
1508
01:34:21,568 --> 01:34:22,613
World without end.
1509
01:34:35,234 --> 01:34:36,801
Just when you think
the story's over,
1510
01:34:37,715 --> 01:34:39,717
there's room
for one more surprise.
1511
01:34:39,891 --> 01:34:44,374
Keep up, please. Keep up.
We're approaching the Bodleian Library.
1512
01:34:44,983 --> 01:34:46,202
Keep coming.
1513
01:34:46,855 --> 01:34:51,642
Okay, stop. This library
is approximately 400...
1514
01:34:51,816 --> 01:34:53,992
[music increases]
1515
01:34:56,038 --> 01:34:57,953
[man]
...do feel free to take photos...
1516
01:34:58,127 --> 01:35:00,129
[indistinct chatter]
1517
01:35:26,764 --> 01:35:28,766
[romantic music]
1518
01:36:30,872 --> 01:36:33,135
[inspirational music]
1519
01:37:30,845 --> 01:37:33,151
[music continues]
1520
01:38:30,905 --> 01:38:32,907
[music continues]
1521
01:39:30,965 --> 01:39:32,967
[music continues]
1522
01:39:45,588 --> 01:39:47,590
[gentle music]
1523
01:40:45,039 --> 01:40:47,041
[music continues]
1524
01:41:45,099 --> 01:41:47,101
[music continues]