1 00:00:00,634 --> 00:00:02,801 your friends in a year... 2 00:00:02,903 --> 00:00:04,003 [cork pops] [both shrieking] 3 00:00:04,105 --> 00:00:05,904 I'm back in LA, bitches! 4 00:00:06,007 --> 00:00:07,873 You never know what to expect. 5 00:00:07,975 --> 00:00:09,441 - Girls night, girls night! 6 00:00:09,543 --> 00:00:10,876 - Whoo! 7 00:00:10,978 --> 00:00:11,910 ♪ ♪ 8 00:00:12,013 --> 00:00:13,312 - Oh, my God! 9 00:00:13,414 --> 00:00:15,247 - We didn't know it would get so complicated. 10 00:00:15,349 --> 00:00:16,915 - There were certain things in our marriage 11 00:00:17,018 --> 00:00:18,784 that were also driving me to drink. 12 00:00:18,886 --> 00:00:21,053 - I know you're the person that I wanna be with. 13 00:00:21,155 --> 00:00:22,688 - Audrina's in the car with you? 14 00:00:22,790 --> 00:00:24,356 - I don't think we got much sleep, to be honest with you. 15 00:00:24,458 --> 00:00:26,058 - Ooh! - Audrina! 16 00:00:26,160 --> 00:00:28,227 - I was waiting for the kiss. - Was I supposed to kiss you? 17 00:00:28,329 --> 00:00:29,661 - I mean, I'm good friends with Brody. 18 00:00:29,764 --> 00:00:30,729 I never kissed him, so... 19 00:00:30,831 --> 00:00:33,165 a little jealous. 20 00:00:33,267 --> 00:00:34,700 - She can do whatever she wants, if she wants. 21 00:00:34,802 --> 00:00:36,402 - You don't know anything about our relationship--nothing. 22 00:00:36,504 --> 00:00:37,703 - He's such an [bleep]. 23 00:00:37,805 --> 00:00:40,272 - Spencer's saying that I'm not sober. 24 00:00:40,374 --> 00:00:41,473 - What the [bleep]? 25 00:00:41,575 --> 00:00:44,043 ♪ ♪ 26 00:00:44,145 --> 00:00:45,778 - What kind of friend are you? 27 00:00:45,880 --> 00:00:47,413 - Her old antics are back. 28 00:00:47,515 --> 00:00:49,014 - I guess if I was dating someone, 29 00:00:49,116 --> 00:00:50,549 I probably would've told you. 30 00:00:50,651 --> 00:00:52,451 - Just really have been wanting to be pregnant. 31 00:00:52,553 --> 00:00:53,819 And I feel like I'm getting older. 32 00:00:53,921 --> 00:00:55,154 - I feel like you have something to tell me. 33 00:00:55,256 --> 00:00:56,321 - ♪ Here we go ♪ 34 00:00:56,424 --> 00:00:57,489 - These people act like I don't have 35 00:00:57,591 --> 00:00:59,425 a pocket full of receipts on them. 36 00:00:59,527 --> 00:01:01,794 - It's not always about Heidi and Spencer. 37 00:01:01,896 --> 00:01:03,062 - Look how angry you are. 38 00:01:03,164 --> 00:01:04,663 - Because you're [bleep] up, dude! 39 00:01:04,765 --> 00:01:06,832 - ♪ Here we go, here we go, here we go ♪ 40 00:01:06,934 --> 00:01:08,534 - Before we lost control. 41 00:01:08,636 --> 00:01:11,603 - Get this mother[bleep] camera out of my [bleep] face! 42 00:01:11,705 --> 00:01:14,006 - It started with a new beginning. 43 00:01:14,108 --> 00:01:17,776 - ♪ It's just begun ♪ 44 00:01:19,580 --> 00:01:20,846 - ♪ Try to silence me ♪ 45 00:01:20,948 --> 00:01:23,148 ♪ I'll scream out as loud as I can ♪ 46 00:01:23,250 --> 00:01:24,450 ♪ ♪ 47 00:01:24,552 --> 00:01:26,752 ♪ Cover my mouth with your hands ♪ 48 00:01:26,854 --> 00:01:30,389 ♪ Try to silence me, I'll scream as loud as I can ♪ 49 00:01:30,491 --> 00:01:32,391 ♪ Shouldn't bite the hand that feeds me ♪ 50 00:01:32,493 --> 00:01:34,026 ♪ But you're not the man ♪ 51 00:01:34,128 --> 00:01:36,328 ♪ ♪ 52 00:01:36,430 --> 00:01:37,696 - Over the past year, 53 00:01:37,798 --> 00:01:39,598 my life got turned upside down 54 00:01:39,700 --> 00:01:41,667 and it gave me so much clarity. 55 00:01:41,769 --> 00:01:45,037 - ♪ Try to silence me, I'll scream out as loud as I can ♪ 56 00:01:45,139 --> 00:01:46,872 - I've been divorced for over a year now. 57 00:01:46,974 --> 00:01:50,976 I just did some really, really good self-reflection. 58 00:01:51,078 --> 00:01:53,745 And there was so many things about myself that I disliked. 59 00:01:53,848 --> 00:01:55,681 Drinking too much and partying. 60 00:01:55,783 --> 00:01:57,216 I looked at myself and just said, 61 00:01:57,318 --> 00:01:58,951 "What are you doing? Like, this is not you. 62 00:01:59,053 --> 00:02:00,052 This is not who you are." 63 00:02:00,154 --> 00:02:07,326 ♪ ♪ 64 00:02:09,230 --> 00:02:12,364 [sizzling] 65 00:02:15,035 --> 00:02:17,870 - This looks amazing. I love it. What do we got? 66 00:02:17,972 --> 00:02:21,607 - There's al pastor. - [chuckling] Oh, God! 67 00:02:21,709 --> 00:02:23,609 - Chicken. - Okay, nice. 68 00:02:23,711 --> 00:02:25,711 - And a salad. - Awesome. 69 00:02:25,813 --> 00:02:27,613 Thank you, brother. That looks delicious. 70 00:02:27,715 --> 00:02:29,848 You're stuck at home for the better part of the year. 71 00:02:29,950 --> 00:02:33,485 I was able to use that time positively, which was great. 72 00:02:33,587 --> 00:02:35,120 But now I want to see my friends. 73 00:02:35,222 --> 00:02:37,422 I want to, you know, have people over. 74 00:02:37,525 --> 00:02:40,125 I'm ready. I've done enough self-reflection. 75 00:02:40,227 --> 00:02:41,793 I'm ready to get back to real life. 76 00:02:41,896 --> 00:02:43,362 Tequila over here. 77 00:02:43,464 --> 00:02:45,464 Pratt Daddy, I'm sure, will be sucking that down. 78 00:02:45,566 --> 00:02:47,866 I got the keg. Cool. 79 00:02:47,968 --> 00:02:49,401 - ♪ Why you moving like checkers? ♪ 80 00:02:49,503 --> 00:02:50,836 ♪ This chess, ain't less ♪ 81 00:02:50,938 --> 00:02:52,738 ♪ Everybody want to be a star these days ♪ 82 00:02:52,840 --> 00:02:54,373 ♪ When you running out the red carpet phase ♪ 83 00:02:54,475 --> 00:02:57,342 - Whoo! Prince of Malibu. 84 00:02:57,444 --> 00:03:00,746 Before COVID happened, life was great. 85 00:03:00,848 --> 00:03:03,682 I mean, we were on such a high, we were making a lot of money, 86 00:03:03,784 --> 00:03:06,118 we were in a great place to have another baby, 87 00:03:06,220 --> 00:03:08,587 and then a lot of things got derailed. 88 00:03:08,689 --> 00:03:09,721 What are you wearing right now? - A cape. 89 00:03:09,823 --> 00:03:10,889 I've got a cape. - Is that a little poncho? 90 00:03:10,991 --> 00:03:11,957 Is that a--wow. 91 00:03:12,059 --> 00:03:13,091 - It's so nice, so good to see you. 92 00:03:13,194 --> 00:03:14,359 - Are you we allowed to do this? 93 00:03:14,461 --> 00:03:16,128 Aren't we supposed to just-- - Oh, my God. 94 00:03:16,230 --> 00:03:17,963 - Yeah! 95 00:03:18,065 --> 00:03:21,233 ♪ ♪ 96 00:03:21,335 --> 00:03:23,235 - You made it! - Hi. 97 00:03:23,337 --> 00:03:25,137 - What up? - Hi, Brody. 98 00:03:25,239 --> 00:03:26,505 - It's the COVID safe line. 99 00:03:26,607 --> 00:03:28,807 - I just opened the champagne. Do you want some? 100 00:03:28,909 --> 00:03:30,609 - Of course she does. - Thank you. 101 00:03:30,711 --> 00:03:31,944 - Cheers. 102 00:03:32,046 --> 00:03:33,579 - I feel like I only drink champagne with you, Heidi. 103 00:03:33,681 --> 00:03:36,348 You're my champagne partner. I love you. So good to see you. 104 00:03:36,450 --> 00:03:38,450 - Ahh! What's going on? 105 00:03:38,552 --> 00:03:40,219 - I've just kind of been on lockdown 106 00:03:40,321 --> 00:03:43,155 and just kind of isolated a little bit. 107 00:03:43,257 --> 00:03:44,423 - Yeah. 108 00:03:44,525 --> 00:03:47,392 - During the pandemic, I got really sick. 109 00:03:47,494 --> 00:03:50,262 And it literally made me think 110 00:03:50,364 --> 00:03:52,864 about what's important in my life. 111 00:03:52,967 --> 00:03:58,337 And it also forced me to listen to my emotions and feelings 112 00:03:58,439 --> 00:04:01,673 because I've really come to terms with myself 113 00:04:01,775 --> 00:04:03,842 and what I want and how I want to be treated 114 00:04:03,944 --> 00:04:05,611 and what I will and won't put up with. 115 00:04:05,713 --> 00:04:07,713 - ♪ Oh, yeah, we're living it up ♪ 116 00:04:07,815 --> 00:04:09,948 ♪ It's like night and day ♪ 117 00:04:10,050 --> 00:04:11,383 - Whoa, Brandon. 118 00:04:11,485 --> 00:04:12,684 - Brandon. - How are you? 119 00:04:12,786 --> 00:04:13,719 Are you and Spencer wearing the same pants? 120 00:04:13,821 --> 00:04:15,320 - Nice to see--I know, right? 121 00:04:15,422 --> 00:04:16,655 I know, we're wearing the same ol' pants. 122 00:04:16,757 --> 00:04:18,123 - Oh, my gosh. I love it. How are you? 123 00:04:18,225 --> 00:04:19,391 - You look great. - Good. 124 00:04:19,493 --> 00:04:21,226 I really haven't been doing [bleep]. 125 00:04:21,328 --> 00:04:23,562 For me, I was just bored and stressed. 126 00:04:23,664 --> 00:04:25,497 Me and my girlfriend are like-- 127 00:04:25,599 --> 00:04:27,866 - Oh, you have a girlfriend? - No. I mean, not really. 128 00:04:27,968 --> 00:04:30,569 We're, like, broken up but figuring it out, so-- 129 00:04:30,671 --> 00:04:33,338 - Ashley. - Hi. 130 00:04:33,440 --> 00:04:36,708 ♪ ♪ 131 00:04:36,810 --> 00:04:37,743 - Dude, I'm so crazy. I want the angle. 132 00:04:37,845 --> 00:04:38,844 - Exactly. 133 00:04:38,946 --> 00:04:40,479 - Do you want a glass of champagne? 134 00:04:40,581 --> 00:04:43,915 ♪ ♪ 135 00:04:44,018 --> 00:04:45,651 - Oh, look at that, standing ovations. 136 00:04:45,753 --> 00:04:47,185 - Oh, oh! - I like it. 137 00:04:47,288 --> 00:04:48,954 Look at all these long hairs. 138 00:04:49,056 --> 00:04:50,522 - He always looks like he just got back from, like, 139 00:04:50,624 --> 00:04:53,659 his own, like, microbrewery. You know what I'm saying? 140 00:04:53,761 --> 00:04:56,261 - I would think moonshine. - I got some moonshine. 141 00:04:56,363 --> 00:04:57,863 - Moonshine. - Yeah. 142 00:04:57,965 --> 00:05:00,432 - The lockdown scared the [bleep] out of me 'cause, 143 00:05:00,534 --> 00:05:02,734 for me, freedom is everything. 144 00:05:02,836 --> 00:05:04,770 So then once I found out, like, you couldn't be free, 145 00:05:04,872 --> 00:05:06,972 you couldn't leave, I found a way out. 146 00:05:07,074 --> 00:05:09,274 I was able to sneak in to Mexico, 147 00:05:09,376 --> 00:05:10,842 posted up on the beach there 148 00:05:10,944 --> 00:05:12,878 and kind of, like, let the world do its thing. 149 00:05:12,980 --> 00:05:15,547 I just did what I did best and split. 150 00:05:15,649 --> 00:05:17,416 - I'll sit on your lap. - Okay. 151 00:05:17,518 --> 00:05:19,184 - That's okay. Hi, guys. - Oh, I saw you. 152 00:05:19,286 --> 00:05:20,986 Hi, sorry. I don't want to be rude and not say hi. 153 00:05:21,088 --> 00:05:24,323 - Sorry, bro. I'm getting all in your-- 154 00:05:24,425 --> 00:05:26,692 - Oh, my gosh. Oh, let's get cozy, guys. 155 00:05:26,794 --> 00:05:29,828 - Hello, guys. How are you? - Oh. 156 00:05:29,930 --> 00:05:32,397 Hello, hello there. Kaitlynn. 157 00:05:32,499 --> 00:05:33,432 - You know, the first few months 158 00:05:33,534 --> 00:05:34,800 after Brody and I split up 159 00:05:34,902 --> 00:05:38,270 were easily the most difficult 160 00:05:38,372 --> 00:05:40,739 and challenging months of my life. 161 00:05:40,841 --> 00:05:43,308 But I think we both accepted 162 00:05:43,410 --> 00:05:45,944 that splitting up was the right choice. 163 00:05:46,046 --> 00:05:48,780 So even though it was very sad on one hand, 164 00:05:48,882 --> 00:05:51,883 it's pretty clear to me that we're better off as friends. 165 00:05:51,985 --> 00:05:54,353 - Yeah, buddy! 166 00:05:54,455 --> 00:05:55,921 [cork pops] - Whoo! 167 00:05:56,023 --> 00:05:58,957 [upbeat music] 168 00:05:59,059 --> 00:06:01,093 ♪ ♪ 169 00:06:01,195 --> 00:06:02,994 - I want to get eat more tacos and nachos 170 00:06:03,097 --> 00:06:04,096 and take another shot, 171 00:06:04,198 --> 00:06:05,931 if somebody wants to join me on the bar? 172 00:06:06,033 --> 00:06:07,099 ♪ ♪ 173 00:06:07,201 --> 00:06:08,900 - Just coming out of corona, trying to fly. 174 00:06:09,002 --> 00:06:11,036 - I feel you, dude. - Trying to fly. 175 00:06:11,138 --> 00:06:12,437 - It's a trippy--it's a trippy time that we're in. 176 00:06:12,539 --> 00:06:14,306 - Spencer has that big ol' blanket. 177 00:06:14,408 --> 00:06:15,841 - It's his cape. - Audrina. 178 00:06:15,943 --> 00:06:16,875 - It's his cape. 179 00:06:16,977 --> 00:06:18,343 - So incredible. 180 00:06:18,445 --> 00:06:20,078 - ♪ I'm gonna roll the dice, don't think twice ♪ 181 00:06:20,180 --> 00:06:22,180 ♪ Gonna stay so cool, feeling so nice ♪ 182 00:06:22,282 --> 00:06:23,582 ♪ 'Cause they got a real thing ♪ 183 00:06:23,684 --> 00:06:24,916 ♪ Just hang tight ♪ 184 00:06:25,018 --> 00:06:28,019 ♪ Double up and meet me on the upside ♪ 185 00:06:28,122 --> 00:06:29,855 - Hi. - Whoa! 186 00:06:29,957 --> 00:06:32,090 - God, I haven't seen you in a minute. 187 00:06:32,192 --> 00:06:34,826 - Look who it is. - I go where the heat is. 188 00:06:34,928 --> 00:06:38,864 God, this is smoking hot. - Okay. Come, scoot closer. 189 00:06:38,966 --> 00:06:40,465 - Maybe I'll get closer to you. 190 00:06:40,567 --> 00:06:41,800 - You look good. 191 00:06:41,902 --> 00:06:43,969 - Ugh, thank you. - You're glowing. 192 00:06:44,071 --> 00:06:45,137 I mean, I know you've been through-- 193 00:06:45,239 --> 00:06:46,505 - Am I glowing right now? - You kind of are. 194 00:06:46,607 --> 00:06:49,040 Like, you look great. 195 00:06:49,143 --> 00:06:50,609 - I haven't really talked to anyone. 196 00:06:50,711 --> 00:06:52,244 I know that you texted me to ask how I was. 197 00:06:52,346 --> 00:06:53,612 - Yeah, I didn't know. 198 00:06:53,714 --> 00:06:55,313 Yeah, I texted you. But I didn't hear back. 199 00:06:55,416 --> 00:06:56,681 - I know. - You ghosted me. 200 00:06:56,784 --> 00:06:58,150 - I was--no. - You ghosted me. 201 00:06:58,252 --> 00:06:59,851 - I didn't ghost you. - You ghosted me, man. 202 00:06:59,953 --> 00:07:01,787 We had a moment, and then you just--and you ghosted me. 203 00:07:01,889 --> 00:07:03,422 - We did have a moment. - We were like--we were-- 204 00:07:03,524 --> 00:07:04,956 - We had fun. - We were hanging. 205 00:07:05,058 --> 00:07:07,292 - Brody and I have always had a flirty relationship. 206 00:07:07,394 --> 00:07:09,227 ♪ ♪ 207 00:07:09,329 --> 00:07:10,529 There's always been something, 208 00:07:10,631 --> 00:07:11,963 some kind of attraction with me and Brody, 209 00:07:12,065 --> 00:07:13,899 but I don't--I've never went there ever. 210 00:07:14,001 --> 00:07:15,801 - Did you just say you did like Brody? 211 00:07:15,903 --> 00:07:17,669 - I'm not gonna lie. I've always had a little crush. 212 00:07:17,771 --> 00:07:19,204 Pre-pandemic, 213 00:07:19,306 --> 00:07:22,073 there was definitely some kissing between Brody and I. 214 00:07:22,176 --> 00:07:24,276 - Where were you? - I was at Brody's. 215 00:07:24,378 --> 00:07:26,745 - You're at Brody's. - You're at Brody's house? 216 00:07:26,847 --> 00:07:29,781 - I had fun. - I had a lot of fun. 217 00:07:29,883 --> 00:07:32,651 I mean, I did stay over at his house. 218 00:07:32,753 --> 00:07:35,754 There was a thought that, 219 00:07:35,856 --> 00:07:39,524 "Okay, maybe me and Brody should just give this a shot. 220 00:07:39,626 --> 00:07:41,159 "You know, all these years, like, why not? 221 00:07:41,261 --> 00:07:42,627 Let's see where this goes." 222 00:07:42,729 --> 00:07:44,229 And once COVID hit, 223 00:07:44,331 --> 00:07:46,264 I just kind of closed off from everyone, 224 00:07:46,366 --> 00:07:49,134 and Brody and I haven't really talked since. 225 00:07:49,236 --> 00:07:51,570 I mean, the thing with you, Brody, like, we've always 226 00:07:51,672 --> 00:07:56,041 had such a connected, honest, real friendship. 227 00:07:56,143 --> 00:07:58,977 - Yeah. - And cutting to now, 228 00:07:59,079 --> 00:08:01,980 it's just reconnecting again... - Yeah. 229 00:08:02,082 --> 00:08:03,448 - And seeing where we're at now. 230 00:08:03,550 --> 00:08:04,983 - I feel like you and I have that type of friendship too, 231 00:08:05,085 --> 00:08:06,852 where it's like, even if we don't talk, 232 00:08:06,954 --> 00:08:09,387 whenever we see each other, it's like... 233 00:08:09,490 --> 00:08:10,489 - Yeah. 234 00:08:10,591 --> 00:08:11,423 - We just pick it right back up. 235 00:08:11,525 --> 00:08:12,491 It's like that. - I know. 236 00:08:12,593 --> 00:08:13,959 - And those are-- 237 00:08:14,061 --> 00:08:15,193 and those are real, genuine friendships, you know? 238 00:08:15,295 --> 00:08:16,728 - Yeah, because you know they're a part of your life 239 00:08:16,830 --> 00:08:18,296 no matter what. 240 00:08:18,398 --> 00:08:20,432 And it doesn't matter when, but when the time is right, 241 00:08:20,534 --> 00:08:21,833 like, you just come back 242 00:08:21,935 --> 00:08:23,502 and it's like no time has passed, so-- 243 00:08:23,604 --> 00:08:25,370 - Yeah, exactly. - That's you. 244 00:08:25,472 --> 00:08:29,241 Brody, he's a great guy. He has the biggest heart. 245 00:08:29,343 --> 00:08:30,742 And he's a great listener. 246 00:08:30,844 --> 00:08:33,445 And, you know, he's very attractive. 247 00:08:33,547 --> 00:08:34,779 It's hard to shake the thought 248 00:08:34,882 --> 00:08:37,148 of what could have been with Brody and I. 249 00:08:37,251 --> 00:08:39,718 You know, but I'm just trying not to live in the past 250 00:08:39,820 --> 00:08:41,353 and move forward. 251 00:08:41,455 --> 00:08:43,755 It's good to see you. - It is. 252 00:08:43,857 --> 00:08:45,824 It's really good to see you. 253 00:08:45,926 --> 00:08:47,359 Really good. Really good. 254 00:08:47,461 --> 00:08:51,630 - ♪ Everywhere I go I keep seeing ghosts ♪ 255 00:08:51,732 --> 00:08:53,131 ♪ And up the stairs ♪ 256 00:08:53,233 --> 00:08:56,134 ♪ I keep playing mind games with myself ♪ 257 00:08:56,236 --> 00:08:58,336 ♪ I think I'm going crazy ♪ 258 00:08:58,438 --> 00:09:00,205 ♪ But you're everywhere, baby ♪ 259 00:09:00,307 --> 00:09:01,873 - Everybody around? Everybody here? 260 00:09:01,975 --> 00:09:04,843 Nice. The whole gang is here. 261 00:09:04,945 --> 00:09:06,945 - We need that sage. 262 00:09:07,047 --> 00:09:08,880 - This is spiritual Brody, Kaitlynn. 263 00:09:08,982 --> 00:09:10,982 - This feels very similar to me. 264 00:09:11,084 --> 00:09:12,651 - You never got to meet spiritual Brody. 265 00:09:12,753 --> 00:09:14,553 He was in there somewhere. 266 00:09:14,655 --> 00:09:17,122 Obviously, it's been a very crazy year. 267 00:09:17,224 --> 00:09:18,723 I've been doing some work on myself. 268 00:09:18,825 --> 00:09:20,025 I've been really enjoying that. 269 00:09:20,127 --> 00:09:21,426 And I've learned a lot of stuff along the way. 270 00:09:21,528 --> 00:09:22,761 And somebody taught me, 271 00:09:22,863 --> 00:09:24,930 when I was on the surf trip down south, 272 00:09:25,032 --> 00:09:28,266 he was a spiritual shaman guru that said, 273 00:09:28,368 --> 00:09:31,336 "To truly be able to get rid of the past or if you're trying 274 00:09:31,438 --> 00:09:33,338 to get rid of something from the past is to bury it." 275 00:09:33,440 --> 00:09:36,575 So that's why I told you all to bring something to bury. 276 00:09:36,677 --> 00:09:38,677 I know you guys all thought I was crazy. 277 00:09:38,779 --> 00:09:40,078 Let's bring whatever it is you guys brought. 278 00:09:40,180 --> 00:09:42,380 Let's go up there. And let's bury this. Bury it. 279 00:09:42,482 --> 00:09:43,548 - Yeah. - Whoo! 280 00:09:43,650 --> 00:09:45,717 - Let's go. - All right. 281 00:09:45,819 --> 00:09:49,321 - ♪ I wonder if I'm being real ♪ 282 00:09:49,423 --> 00:09:52,490 ♪ Do I speak my truth or do I filter how I feel? ♪ 283 00:09:52,593 --> 00:09:56,528 ♪ I wonder, I wonder ♪ 284 00:09:56,630 --> 00:09:57,929 ♪ ♪ 285 00:09:58,031 --> 00:10:00,899 - Okay, well, my item, as you can see, 286 00:10:01,001 --> 00:10:02,934 I see Spencer has been eyeballing it, 287 00:10:03,036 --> 00:10:07,405 he's just been staring at this thing, is alcohol. 288 00:10:07,507 --> 00:10:09,507 This time, I definitely-- 289 00:10:09,610 --> 00:10:11,009 it was the first time in my life 290 00:10:11,111 --> 00:10:14,412 I've had the time to actually take a step back from work 291 00:10:14,514 --> 00:10:17,115 and just the constant hustle and being on the road 292 00:10:17,217 --> 00:10:19,351 and really take in a good look at myself. 293 00:10:19,453 --> 00:10:22,621 And one of the things that I really hated about myself 294 00:10:22,723 --> 00:10:26,224 is how I would behave sometimes when I would drink. 295 00:10:26,326 --> 00:10:28,259 I think you guys have all seen that. 296 00:10:28,362 --> 00:10:32,197 I just remember thinking, like, I'm so sick of apologizing, 297 00:10:32,299 --> 00:10:35,467 you know, for dumb, dumb [bleep] that I do 298 00:10:35,569 --> 00:10:37,268 when I drink to excess. 299 00:10:37,371 --> 00:10:41,773 I came home to a psychopath yelling and screaming at me. 300 00:10:41,875 --> 00:10:43,675 You were a nightmare. 301 00:10:43,777 --> 00:10:46,244 - You don't think that's, like, the rudest thing you could say? 302 00:10:46,346 --> 00:10:48,380 You know I hate when you say stuff like that. 303 00:10:48,482 --> 00:10:51,016 - Hey, don't say that. - Don't come at me like that. 304 00:10:51,118 --> 00:10:53,151 - Shut the [bleep] up, dude. Who the [bleep] are you? 305 00:10:53,253 --> 00:10:54,519 [bleep] you. 306 00:10:54,621 --> 00:10:56,988 - I've hurt a lot of people that I love in my life. 307 00:10:57,090 --> 00:10:59,424 And I think that taking the alcohol away 308 00:10:59,526 --> 00:11:02,327 and really getting to be able to self-reflect, 309 00:11:02,429 --> 00:11:04,262 those relationships will be better. 310 00:11:04,364 --> 00:11:06,464 So, Kaitlynn, I want to apologize to you also 311 00:11:06,566 --> 00:11:08,900 because I've been a nightmare to be around and to deal with. 312 00:11:09,002 --> 00:11:11,136 - That's really sweet. - Yeah. 313 00:11:11,238 --> 00:11:12,871 - But I'm also really proud of you for doing this 314 00:11:12,973 --> 00:11:14,205 'cause I think it's really good. 315 00:11:14,307 --> 00:11:15,507 - Well, thank you very much, so-- 316 00:11:15,609 --> 00:11:16,808 - Good for you, man. - Cheers. 317 00:11:16,910 --> 00:11:17,976 - Absolutely. Yeah. 318 00:11:18,078 --> 00:11:19,144 - Whoo! - Good job. 319 00:11:19,246 --> 00:11:20,612 - Good job. - Proud of you. 320 00:11:20,714 --> 00:11:22,580 - Okay, Brandon. - I'm burying money 321 00:11:22,683 --> 00:11:26,051 because I think that I should spend less time 322 00:11:26,153 --> 00:11:28,753 worrying about it and caring about it so much. 323 00:11:28,855 --> 00:11:31,723 So I will be bearing some money. 324 00:11:31,825 --> 00:11:33,358 - Seriously? - Wow, 100 bucks. 325 00:11:33,460 --> 00:11:34,726 - Oh, my God. 326 00:11:34,828 --> 00:11:36,861 - I don't want to come off as a dick burying money, 327 00:11:36,963 --> 00:11:38,830 but last year was really good for me. 328 00:11:38,932 --> 00:11:40,632 You know, I was working a ton. 329 00:11:40,734 --> 00:11:43,201 And then, you know, COVID hit 330 00:11:43,303 --> 00:11:46,271 and sort of just smacked me in the face. 331 00:11:46,373 --> 00:11:49,774 I feel like that had a direct impact on my relationship. 332 00:11:49,876 --> 00:11:52,410 And I ended up sabotaging it in my own way. 333 00:11:52,512 --> 00:11:54,546 And I realized that life 334 00:11:54,648 --> 00:11:57,348 comes down to a lot larger things than money. 335 00:11:57,451 --> 00:12:00,085 Maybe Jason goes next. - Okay. All right. 336 00:12:00,187 --> 00:12:02,454 Well, as many of you know, 337 00:12:02,556 --> 00:12:04,989 I've struggled with addiction many times. 338 00:12:05,092 --> 00:12:09,561 And 2019 was the last time I took a bunch of Adderall. 339 00:12:09,663 --> 00:12:11,996 I'll be celebrating one year in December. 340 00:12:12,099 --> 00:12:14,365 This year has been very trying. 341 00:12:14,468 --> 00:12:16,367 You know, I'd just gotten over another relapse. 342 00:12:16,470 --> 00:12:20,872 And Ashley and I were in a very, very fragile state. 343 00:12:20,974 --> 00:12:23,141 We didn't know if it was gonna work anymore. 344 00:12:23,243 --> 00:12:26,411 - I wish that I could have been able to talk to you 345 00:12:26,513 --> 00:12:27,645 because, like, I hate it. 346 00:12:27,748 --> 00:12:29,214 - We weren't in a healthy place. 347 00:12:29,316 --> 00:12:30,682 I don't ever want to be in that place ever again. 348 00:12:30,784 --> 00:12:32,050 And I want to be a father to Delilah. 349 00:12:32,152 --> 00:12:33,551 I want to be a husband to you. 350 00:12:33,653 --> 00:12:36,755 Like, I wanna be able to provide and like do that. 351 00:12:36,857 --> 00:12:37,989 But by the grace of God 352 00:12:38,091 --> 00:12:40,258 and through the downtime that we had, 353 00:12:40,360 --> 00:12:42,994 we were really able to focus on our relationship. 354 00:12:43,096 --> 00:12:44,863 We're moving forward. We're doing better. 355 00:12:44,965 --> 00:12:46,297 And I think we're on the right path. 356 00:12:46,399 --> 00:12:48,433 - Nice. I'm proud of you. - Yay! 357 00:12:48,535 --> 00:12:51,803 - Yeah. - There we go. There we go. 358 00:12:51,905 --> 00:12:53,404 - Adderall, a hundo. - Audrina. 359 00:12:53,507 --> 00:12:54,706 - Oh, God, okay. 360 00:12:54,808 --> 00:12:59,010 Well, this is supposed to represent a little black book, 361 00:12:59,112 --> 00:13:01,479 but it's a big white book. [laughter] 362 00:13:01,581 --> 00:13:06,184 And it's representing the past and to move onward and upward 363 00:13:06,286 --> 00:13:08,520 and never look back, never go back. 364 00:13:08,622 --> 00:13:11,656 I guess, for me, it's hard to let people in. 365 00:13:11,758 --> 00:13:14,192 So maybe that's why I always go back to people 366 00:13:14,294 --> 00:13:15,393 that I'm comfortable with. 367 00:13:15,495 --> 00:13:17,762 Moving forward, it's about the future. 368 00:13:17,864 --> 00:13:20,598 - Whoo! - Yeah! 369 00:13:20,700 --> 00:13:22,300 - Whoo! 370 00:13:22,402 --> 00:13:24,102 - I want to know what Justin's getting rid of, so-- 371 00:13:24,204 --> 00:13:26,738 - Yeah, JB. - So when corona happened, 372 00:13:26,840 --> 00:13:29,774 I took off, split to Mexico, got away as far as I could. 373 00:13:29,876 --> 00:13:33,645 If there's ever reason to split and leave, this was it. 374 00:13:33,747 --> 00:13:34,979 Every day was different. 375 00:13:35,081 --> 00:13:36,681 Every day, I had new experiences, 376 00:13:36,783 --> 00:13:38,216 new thoughts, new beliefs, 377 00:13:38,318 --> 00:13:41,653 Waking up and surfing, you know, writing, music, 378 00:13:41,755 --> 00:13:43,421 the stuff that makes me thrive. 379 00:13:43,523 --> 00:13:47,458 Just tried to stay sane in the insane. 380 00:13:47,561 --> 00:13:51,996 I realized that I really enjoy being gone and being a nomad. 381 00:13:52,098 --> 00:13:54,332 And it kind of has this little link as a chain. 382 00:13:54,434 --> 00:13:57,936 So for me to be chained down to too much stuff, 383 00:13:58,038 --> 00:13:59,337 it just not-- doesn't work for me. 384 00:13:59,439 --> 00:14:01,306 So being chained down to all that stuff. 385 00:14:01,408 --> 00:14:04,242 - My man, JB. Good work, bro. 386 00:14:04,344 --> 00:14:05,677 - Nice, buddy. - Seriously. 387 00:14:05,779 --> 00:14:07,412 - Spencer. - Oh, wow. 388 00:14:07,514 --> 00:14:10,748 Pre-COVID, I was 170, and now I'm 215. 389 00:14:10,851 --> 00:14:13,785 And it's 'cause of eating four to five pot pies a day. 390 00:14:13,887 --> 00:14:15,053 - Shut up. 391 00:14:15,155 --> 00:14:17,222 - I got into pattern of eating a lot 392 00:14:17,324 --> 00:14:20,291 'cause I felt, like, end of the world energy. 393 00:14:20,393 --> 00:14:23,728 I would like to get back to the weight I was pre-pandemic, 394 00:14:23,830 --> 00:14:29,000 wear all my designer clothes I purchased, fit that. 395 00:14:29,102 --> 00:14:30,368 No, I know it sounds silly, 396 00:14:30,470 --> 00:14:32,437 but when you spend that much money on something 397 00:14:32,539 --> 00:14:35,506 and you can no longer wear it, that becomes an actual problem. 398 00:14:35,609 --> 00:14:40,478 In excess, nothing is good. [laughter] 399 00:14:40,580 --> 00:14:42,714 - One bite, one bite. - He's like, "What am I doing?" 400 00:14:42,816 --> 00:14:44,382 - "Oh, my God!" [laughter] 401 00:14:44,484 --> 00:14:46,184 - [sighs] That was hard. That was hard. 402 00:14:46,286 --> 00:14:48,219 - He had a last bite. - That was hard. 403 00:14:48,321 --> 00:14:51,689 - I have been feeling very blessed during this coronavirus 404 00:14:51,791 --> 00:14:52,924 to have our family, 405 00:14:53,026 --> 00:14:54,459 and it really prioritizes everything like 406 00:14:54,561 --> 00:14:56,728 we've all been talking about and just health. 407 00:14:56,830 --> 00:15:01,699 And so I have been wanting to have a baby for, 408 00:15:01,801 --> 00:15:03,268 like, a year and a half. 409 00:15:03,370 --> 00:15:06,170 I love my family, and I'm so thankful for you. 410 00:15:06,273 --> 00:15:08,072 And just every day, we have life 411 00:15:08,174 --> 00:15:09,507 is such a blessing. 412 00:15:09,609 --> 00:15:12,043 And on that note, I really want another baby. 413 00:15:12,145 --> 00:15:14,379 So I am ready to give up my birth control. 414 00:15:14,481 --> 00:15:16,281 And I would like to have another baby soon. 415 00:15:16,383 --> 00:15:17,882 [applause] That's what I have. 416 00:15:17,984 --> 00:15:19,317 - Whoo! - Yeah! 417 00:15:19,419 --> 00:15:23,288 - Jesus, bless us with a baby. - Nice. There you go. 418 00:15:23,390 --> 00:15:25,657 - I just feel like a baby is always such a blessing. 419 00:15:25,759 --> 00:15:27,492 And it could be a really good thing for us 420 00:15:27,594 --> 00:15:29,861 and to bring light into our family. 421 00:15:29,963 --> 00:15:31,963 And God forbid if the world is gonna get worse, 422 00:15:32,065 --> 00:15:34,766 I would want to have one sooner and to be able to have Gunner 423 00:15:34,868 --> 00:15:37,435 and a sibling have each other through this and for us too. 424 00:15:37,537 --> 00:15:40,038 So I just feel like a baby could be such a blessing 425 00:15:40,140 --> 00:15:42,440 in such a hard time as well. 426 00:15:42,542 --> 00:15:44,876 - Thank you all for taking this very seriously. 427 00:15:44,978 --> 00:15:46,411 That was--that was dope. 428 00:15:46,513 --> 00:15:48,112 You guys were all-- that was cool. 429 00:15:48,214 --> 00:15:49,347 Thank you for sharing all that. 430 00:15:49,449 --> 00:15:51,749 All right, everybody. Closing this up. 431 00:15:51,851 --> 00:15:53,785 Pratt Daddy, grab the shovel. 432 00:15:53,887 --> 00:15:54,986 - Whoo! - All right. 433 00:15:55,088 --> 00:15:56,554 - ♪ I get knocked down ♪ 434 00:15:56,656 --> 00:15:59,057 ♪ But I just keep my head up high, high, high ♪ 435 00:15:59,159 --> 00:16:02,193 ♪ Oh, high, high, high ♪ 436 00:16:02,295 --> 00:16:03,828 ♪ Stuck on the ground ♪ 437 00:16:03,930 --> 00:16:06,097 ♪ But I just keep my head up high, high, high ♪ 438 00:16:06,199 --> 00:16:08,866 - X marks the spot. 439 00:16:08,969 --> 00:16:12,603 - ♪ Keeping my head up, head up high ♪ 440 00:16:12,706 --> 00:16:16,307 ♪ ♪ 441 00:16:16,409 --> 00:16:20,845 ♪ Keeping my head up, head up ♪ 442 00:16:22,983 --> 00:16:24,983 - ♪ Hey, oh ♪ 443 00:16:25,085 --> 00:16:27,518 ♪ Spendin' all my days just to reach ya ♪ 444 00:16:27,620 --> 00:16:31,823 ♪ ♪ 445 00:16:31,925 --> 00:16:34,292 - Hello. 446 00:16:34,394 --> 00:16:37,395 - Yo, yo, yo. - Hi. 447 00:16:37,497 --> 00:16:42,166 - What are you doing? - Well, Gunner is with Abby-- 448 00:16:42,268 --> 00:16:43,468 - Oh, can't hear you. One sec, honey. 449 00:16:43,570 --> 00:16:46,604 - Oh, okay. [machine whirring] 450 00:16:46,706 --> 00:16:49,741 - Tired. Gunner needs to start sleeping. 451 00:16:49,843 --> 00:16:51,676 - Well, actually he is with Abby right now. 452 00:16:51,778 --> 00:16:56,347 So that's great. - Got some groceries? 453 00:16:56,449 --> 00:17:01,285 - Actually, no, but I did stop to get some pregnancy tests. 454 00:17:01,388 --> 00:17:02,854 - Baby-mode Heidi is, like, 455 00:17:02,956 --> 00:17:08,226 leading the Delta Force A squadron of making babies. 456 00:17:08,328 --> 00:17:11,129 - The good news is I am ovulating. 457 00:17:11,231 --> 00:17:16,000 - Pre-pandemic, she had charts and apps and diagrams 458 00:17:16,102 --> 00:17:19,404 and frickin' timetables. 459 00:17:19,506 --> 00:17:22,473 I mean, this is real deal strike mission that-- 460 00:17:22,575 --> 00:17:27,011 I didn't sign up for this level of, you know, expertise. 461 00:17:27,113 --> 00:17:29,714 What did the person checking you out 462 00:17:29,816 --> 00:17:30,948 think was happening here? 463 00:17:31,051 --> 00:17:33,451 - When I buried that birth control, I meant it. 464 00:17:33,553 --> 00:17:35,420 So here we are. Baby mode. 465 00:17:35,522 --> 00:17:37,155 I've been ready. I've been ready for a year. 466 00:17:37,257 --> 00:17:42,093 - I mean, I am very excited for this clearly very serious 467 00:17:42,195 --> 00:17:43,694 baby-making schedule you got going here. 468 00:17:43,797 --> 00:17:47,532 And I'm matching all of these to the fun part. 469 00:17:47,634 --> 00:17:49,333 So I'm very excited about that. 470 00:17:49,436 --> 00:17:51,469 But I feel like you are just going--[whooshes] 471 00:17:51,571 --> 00:17:52,637 - I hear what you're saying. 472 00:17:52,739 --> 00:17:55,273 I understand what you're saying. 473 00:17:55,375 --> 00:17:57,375 Spencer and I are halfway on the same page 474 00:17:57,477 --> 00:17:59,210 with having another baby. 475 00:17:59,312 --> 00:18:01,679 I mean, I think he's afraid of losing Heidi 476 00:18:01,781 --> 00:18:04,115 and, like, having so much fun with me. 477 00:18:04,217 --> 00:18:06,451 I only have so much time to have a baby, 478 00:18:06,553 --> 00:18:08,653 and I already was putting my plans on hold. 479 00:18:08,755 --> 00:18:11,355 - I'm just so concerned that, once you get back into 480 00:18:11,458 --> 00:18:13,891 mom mode, like, you forget about yourself. 481 00:18:13,993 --> 00:18:17,795 Not even me. We already know I'm forgotten about, I'm gone. 482 00:18:17,897 --> 00:18:20,998 But I think you'd want to worry about yourself a little bit. 483 00:18:21,101 --> 00:18:23,568 But just throwing that out there. 484 00:18:23,670 --> 00:18:26,804 Clearly, you've already made up the plan. 485 00:18:26,906 --> 00:18:28,873 [dramatic music] 486 00:18:28,975 --> 00:18:30,641 ♪ ♪ 487 00:18:30,743 --> 00:18:31,642 [upbeat music] 488 00:18:31,744 --> 00:18:34,145 - ♪ This right here ♪ 489 00:18:34,247 --> 00:18:35,813 ♪ That's just growing pains ♪ 490 00:18:35,915 --> 00:18:39,584 ♪ There ain't much to figure out ♪ 491 00:18:39,686 --> 00:18:43,788 ♪ When you're stuck in your old ways ♪ 492 00:18:43,890 --> 00:18:46,924 ♪ You can't let them drag you down ♪ 493 00:18:47,026 --> 00:18:50,094 ♪ 'Cause we ain't stoppin' the season's changin' ♪ 494 00:18:50,196 --> 00:18:54,532 ♪ Love ain't patient we all come and go ♪ 495 00:18:54,634 --> 00:18:56,267 ♪ Come and go, yeah ♪ 496 00:18:56,369 --> 00:18:57,335 ♪ It might hurt ♪ 497 00:18:57,437 --> 00:18:59,137 ♪ Let it hurt, babe ♪ 498 00:18:59,239 --> 00:19:02,840 ♪ You ain't gotta go through all these growing pains ♪ 499 00:19:02,942 --> 00:19:04,208 - Look who it is. Hi. 500 00:19:04,310 --> 00:19:06,477 - Oh, who's that? Oh! Who's this little guy, Shoey? 501 00:19:06,579 --> 00:19:08,045 - This is Dash. - Who's this little guy? 502 00:19:08,148 --> 00:19:09,447 Get him. Kill him. Kill him. 503 00:19:09,549 --> 00:19:11,849 - Go, go. - Kill him. What's going down? 504 00:19:11,951 --> 00:19:13,184 You look good. Thought we were gonna go hiking. 505 00:19:13,286 --> 00:19:14,752 - Really? 506 00:19:14,854 --> 00:19:15,953 - But you're dressed like you're going to the club. 507 00:19:16,055 --> 00:19:17,955 - Yeah, I'm not going. I'm not going hiking. 508 00:19:18,057 --> 00:19:21,859 - Kaitlynn and I, I think our relationship ran its course. 509 00:19:21,961 --> 00:19:23,694 After we had our split, 510 00:19:23,796 --> 00:19:25,763 it was obviously tough for both of us. 511 00:19:25,865 --> 00:19:27,932 She got into a relationship with somebody. 512 00:19:28,034 --> 00:19:31,235 And I didn't find out until I saw it in the press. 513 00:19:31,337 --> 00:19:33,738 Come here, Dash. [whistles] 514 00:19:33,840 --> 00:19:36,240 But after some time had passed, 515 00:19:36,342 --> 00:19:38,476 I realized this is where our lives are going. 516 00:19:38,578 --> 00:19:40,645 We're gonna be separated and we're not gonna be together. 517 00:19:40,747 --> 00:19:43,548 But let's--let's still be in each other's lives, 518 00:19:43,650 --> 00:19:46,951 and let's still maintain a friendship and a love. 519 00:19:47,053 --> 00:19:48,386 And we've been able to do that. 520 00:19:48,488 --> 00:19:50,087 - The party was actually really fun the other night. 521 00:19:50,190 --> 00:19:51,622 It was nice to see everyone. 522 00:19:51,724 --> 00:19:53,357 And, like, one of the things that I appreciated so much 523 00:19:53,459 --> 00:19:55,326 about you saying that, like apologizing 524 00:19:55,428 --> 00:19:57,295 the other night, was that I feel like, 525 00:19:57,397 --> 00:19:58,696 throughout the course of our breakup, 526 00:19:58,798 --> 00:20:00,498 there has been so much speculation about, 527 00:20:00,600 --> 00:20:02,133 like, why we broke up. 528 00:20:02,235 --> 00:20:04,669 And we've never talked about it publicly other than just, 529 00:20:04,771 --> 00:20:06,003 like, you know, we weren't lining up, 530 00:20:06,105 --> 00:20:07,805 things weren't the right--and 531 00:20:07,907 --> 00:20:10,541 granted you drinking was not the only reason. 532 00:20:10,643 --> 00:20:11,776 - Right. - But I just appreciate it 533 00:20:11,878 --> 00:20:13,544 when you, like, said that the other night 534 00:20:13,646 --> 00:20:14,979 and just took some like responsibility because-- 535 00:20:15,081 --> 00:20:16,547 - Yeah. Of course. - In front of everyone, 536 00:20:16,649 --> 00:20:17,582 because I think it's like, "Okay, cool. 537 00:20:17,684 --> 00:20:18,983 There were two people." 538 00:20:19,085 --> 00:20:20,618 - Well, I think when you're still drinking, 539 00:20:20,720 --> 00:20:21,786 you're in denial, I think you're in denial. 540 00:20:21,888 --> 00:20:23,087 - Yeah. 541 00:20:23,189 --> 00:20:24,589 - I think there were certain things in our marriage 542 00:20:24,691 --> 00:20:26,524 that were also driving me to drink more than normal, 543 00:20:26,626 --> 00:20:29,093 honestly, like, the pressure of having kids 544 00:20:29,195 --> 00:20:30,895 and stuff like that. And so I honestly think 545 00:20:30,997 --> 00:20:33,431 that that was weighing on me heavily. 546 00:20:33,533 --> 00:20:37,001 And it was causing me to drink unhealthy amounts. 547 00:20:37,103 --> 00:20:38,569 - Mm-hmm. 548 00:20:38,671 --> 00:20:42,173 I think that Brody likes to use me pressuring him 549 00:20:42,275 --> 00:20:46,110 as like a little bit of a scapegoat for his drinking. 550 00:20:46,212 --> 00:20:48,613 I would find what Brody's saying more hurtful 551 00:20:48,715 --> 00:20:51,582 if I didn't understand 552 00:20:51,684 --> 00:20:56,020 that he really did love me and love our relationship. 553 00:20:56,122 --> 00:20:59,357 And I think he was committing to having kids 554 00:20:59,459 --> 00:21:00,958 and getting married 555 00:21:01,060 --> 00:21:02,760 because he didn't want me to go anywhere. 556 00:21:02,862 --> 00:21:06,664 - The circumstances of what happened after our split 557 00:21:06,766 --> 00:21:08,065 catered to that negative [bleep]. 558 00:21:08,167 --> 00:21:09,634 - Mm-hmm. 559 00:21:09,736 --> 00:21:11,535 - You know, the whole like, lesbian thing was gnarly 560 00:21:11,638 --> 00:21:13,104 'cause, like, in our entire relationship, 561 00:21:13,206 --> 00:21:14,572 you never expressed 562 00:21:14,674 --> 00:21:16,140 that you had any interest in females whatsoever. 563 00:21:16,242 --> 00:21:17,575 - I don't think that's totally fair, true to say. 564 00:21:17,677 --> 00:21:19,143 - We had some fun. - Yeah. 565 00:21:19,245 --> 00:21:21,912 - But what I'm saying is like--yes, but you--yeah, 566 00:21:22,015 --> 00:21:24,649 but you said to me that you weren't into girls. 567 00:21:24,751 --> 00:21:26,117 - Well, I think I had never just met somebody 568 00:21:26,219 --> 00:21:27,351 that I was into. Like-- 569 00:21:27,453 --> 00:21:28,986 - But it was a shock for me and I think 570 00:21:29,088 --> 00:21:31,088 for a lot of people that saw that. 571 00:21:31,190 --> 00:21:33,758 It gave them an easy way out to be able to say, 572 00:21:33,860 --> 00:21:35,526 "Oh, she's just in it for the fame. 573 00:21:35,628 --> 00:21:37,061 And in it for the money." - Yeah. 574 00:21:37,163 --> 00:21:39,897 I had never really imagined that I would end up 575 00:21:39,999 --> 00:21:44,402 going from one pretty public relationship into another. 576 00:21:44,504 --> 00:21:46,237 But when she and I broke up, 577 00:21:46,339 --> 00:21:48,472 that was the hardest time of my life 578 00:21:48,574 --> 00:21:50,441 because I was really on my own 579 00:21:50,543 --> 00:21:54,045 and kind of in the center of a lot of attention. 580 00:21:54,147 --> 00:21:56,247 And I think being able to rediscover who I am 581 00:21:56,349 --> 00:22:00,484 as a person on my own completely 582 00:22:00,586 --> 00:22:02,687 just gave me a new outlook on everything. 583 00:22:02,789 --> 00:22:04,455 You know, it was just like a cycle 584 00:22:04,557 --> 00:22:07,058 of a number of things that weren't aligning, 585 00:22:07,160 --> 00:22:10,461 which is basically what we eventually realized. 586 00:22:10,563 --> 00:22:12,229 - I don't think it was anybody's fault either. 587 00:22:12,332 --> 00:22:13,497 You know, we still love each other. 588 00:22:13,599 --> 00:22:14,699 It was still so much love there. 589 00:22:14,801 --> 00:22:16,133 But I feel like, at that point, 590 00:22:16,235 --> 00:22:17,735 there was a lot of damage that had been done. 591 00:22:17,837 --> 00:22:19,470 - Just seeing the changes that you've made, 592 00:22:19,572 --> 00:22:21,005 it does make me think like, 593 00:22:21,107 --> 00:22:23,874 what if these changes had happened before we broke up, 594 00:22:23,976 --> 00:22:25,443 what things would have been like. 595 00:22:25,545 --> 00:22:27,244 - I think we were stuck in a rut, you know? 596 00:22:27,347 --> 00:22:31,148 And now our relationship is so much stronger, I think. 597 00:22:31,250 --> 00:22:33,451 - Well, I think that that's the thing that's interesting 598 00:22:33,553 --> 00:22:34,952 'cause I feel like now we're, like, 599 00:22:35,054 --> 00:22:36,587 resolving everything and talking things through 600 00:22:36,689 --> 00:22:38,089 and having these really transparent conversations, 601 00:22:38,191 --> 00:22:42,793 which I guess I wish we could have done back then. 602 00:22:42,895 --> 00:22:44,762 - ♪ I can be steady ♪ 603 00:22:44,864 --> 00:22:47,098 ♪ I can be stronger ♪ 604 00:22:47,200 --> 00:22:49,900 ♪ Without you ♪ 605 00:22:55,241 --> 00:22:56,474 - ♪ Prisoner, prisoner ♪ 606 00:22:56,576 --> 00:22:58,376 ♪ Locked up, can't get you off my mind ♪ 607 00:22:58,478 --> 00:23:00,010 ♪ Off my mind ♪ 608 00:23:00,113 --> 00:23:02,413 ♪ Lord knows I tried a million times ♪ 609 00:23:02,515 --> 00:23:03,647 ♪ Million times ♪ 610 00:23:03,750 --> 00:23:04,849 ♪ Oh, whoa ♪ 611 00:23:04,951 --> 00:23:07,451 ♪ Why can't you, why can't you ♪ 612 00:23:07,553 --> 00:23:08,452 ♪ Just let me go? ♪ 613 00:23:08,554 --> 00:23:11,322 ♪ ♪ 614 00:23:11,424 --> 00:23:13,391 - ♪ Strung out on a feeling ♪ 615 00:23:13,493 --> 00:23:14,458 - Hello. - Hi. 616 00:23:14,560 --> 00:23:16,260 - How are you? - Hi. 617 00:23:16,362 --> 00:23:17,628 - Hey. - You look so beautiful. 618 00:23:17,730 --> 00:23:20,364 - Look at this little one. - This is Rainbow. 619 00:23:20,466 --> 00:23:21,599 - So cute. Hi. - You too. 620 00:23:21,701 --> 00:23:23,234 - I brought a couple options. - Okay. 621 00:23:23,336 --> 00:23:24,635 - I need your help. - Great. 622 00:23:24,737 --> 00:23:26,871 - I have not been on a date in so long. 623 00:23:26,973 --> 00:23:29,140 - Audrina has a little bit of a tendency 624 00:23:29,242 --> 00:23:31,809 to go back to the same guys, so I was excited 625 00:23:31,911 --> 00:23:34,245 to see that she buried her little, black book. 626 00:23:34,347 --> 00:23:36,514 And I like to think of myself as a matchmaker. 627 00:23:36,616 --> 00:23:38,449 Spencer and I have been thinking for a while now 628 00:23:38,551 --> 00:23:41,552 that we should set you up with Sean Stewart. 629 00:23:41,654 --> 00:23:42,887 He's Rod Stewart's son. - Mm-mm. 630 00:23:42,989 --> 00:23:44,588 - You know, the famous rock 'n' roll king. 631 00:23:44,690 --> 00:23:46,090 - I mean, I know Rod Stewart is. 632 00:23:46,192 --> 00:23:47,425 - Okay, all right. 633 00:23:47,527 --> 00:23:49,760 But it occurred to me, I have the perfect guy for her 634 00:23:49,862 --> 00:23:52,863 who isn't Justin Bobby or Ryan Cabrera. 635 00:23:52,965 --> 00:23:54,632 - I don't want to, like, go over the top 636 00:23:54,734 --> 00:23:56,300 and I want to be comfortable. - Yeah. 637 00:23:56,402 --> 00:23:58,169 And you don't want to give off the wrong message like, 638 00:23:58,271 --> 00:24:00,037 "Hey, I'm COVID ready." 639 00:24:00,139 --> 00:24:02,072 - I'm here! - I'm ready to date! 640 00:24:02,175 --> 00:24:03,541 - I think I'm gonna wear this. - Yeah. 641 00:24:03,643 --> 00:24:04,975 - It's kind of effortless. - Super pretty. 642 00:24:05,077 --> 00:24:07,778 - And then just high-waisted jeans with earrings 643 00:24:07,880 --> 00:24:09,480 and like my jewelry and just some heels. 644 00:24:09,582 --> 00:24:10,915 - Totally. - Right? 645 00:24:11,017 --> 00:24:12,616 - Well, I want to propose a toast 646 00:24:12,718 --> 00:24:14,351 to you to going on a date... 647 00:24:14,454 --> 00:24:16,053 - Thank you. 648 00:24:16,155 --> 00:24:20,124 - To put yourself out there and to move forward in your life. 649 00:24:20,226 --> 00:24:21,592 - Yeah. 650 00:24:21,694 --> 00:24:22,993 I promised myself that 651 00:24:23,095 --> 00:24:24,261 I would have a whole new way of dealing with men. 652 00:24:24,363 --> 00:24:26,363 I do have a lot of pressure from all my friends, 653 00:24:26,466 --> 00:24:28,666 my family that never wants to see me 654 00:24:28,768 --> 00:24:31,302 in another toxic relationship ever again. 655 00:24:31,404 --> 00:24:33,337 I'm gonna change. - Okay. 656 00:24:33,439 --> 00:24:35,873 - And then I guess I'll just start touching up. 657 00:24:35,975 --> 00:24:39,243 My biggest priority is to be the best example 658 00:24:39,345 --> 00:24:41,145 for my daughter that I can be. 659 00:24:41,247 --> 00:24:44,882 You know, I'm gonna guide her and show her by actions 660 00:24:44,984 --> 00:24:47,151 of how people should treat you. 661 00:24:47,253 --> 00:24:49,086 And if they don't treat you a certain way, 662 00:24:49,188 --> 00:24:50,387 this is what you do. 663 00:24:50,490 --> 00:24:53,557 You don't just let them do it over and over again. 664 00:24:53,659 --> 00:24:55,526 - Okay, what do you think? - Oh, my gosh. 665 00:24:55,628 --> 00:24:59,363 That's like so slimming, so beautiful. 666 00:24:59,465 --> 00:25:00,931 Just enough rock 'n' roll. 667 00:25:01,033 --> 00:25:02,700 - Did I hear a bottle pop? - Hi. 668 00:25:02,802 --> 00:25:04,802 - Oh, hey. - Oh, honey. 669 00:25:04,904 --> 00:25:06,971 - Oh. - How are you? 670 00:25:07,073 --> 00:25:08,472 - We have to cheers to this. - Hi. 671 00:25:08,574 --> 00:25:10,541 - So good to see you. Oh, my gosh. 672 00:25:10,643 --> 00:25:12,843 - Audrina is going on a date with Sean. 673 00:25:12,945 --> 00:25:15,913 - Sean is always a lot of fun. - I trust you guys. 674 00:25:16,015 --> 00:25:17,481 You've known him, and it's like, 675 00:25:17,583 --> 00:25:19,283 I'm just gonna go out and have fun, see what happens. 676 00:25:19,385 --> 00:25:22,853 - Rewind, rewind, pre-pandemic, what happened to Brody? 677 00:25:22,955 --> 00:25:24,855 I thought that was who we were-- 678 00:25:24,957 --> 00:25:26,790 - Brody and I are just-- we've always been friendly, 679 00:25:26,893 --> 00:25:29,560 but it never went anything more than that. 680 00:25:29,662 --> 00:25:30,995 - I always hear a different version 681 00:25:31,097 --> 00:25:33,831 of that from Brody, so--but-- - What do you hear? 682 00:25:33,933 --> 00:25:36,467 - I don't know. Yeah, Spencer. - No, I'm just saying. 683 00:25:36,569 --> 00:25:38,736 - Give us the guys side. - When he talks about Audrina, 684 00:25:38,838 --> 00:25:41,171 it's not like, "Oh, that's my friend." 685 00:25:41,274 --> 00:25:42,540 - I've heard him say how hot you are. 686 00:25:42,642 --> 00:25:43,874 - Yeah, like-- 687 00:25:43,976 --> 00:25:45,276 - Getting me all hot. - Here you go. 688 00:25:45,378 --> 00:25:47,745 Wait, what are your thoughts on--what are your thoughts 689 00:25:47,847 --> 00:25:48,979 on kissing on the first date? 690 00:25:49,081 --> 00:25:50,447 - No. - Oh, Heidi, settle down. 691 00:25:50,550 --> 00:25:51,715 - No, no, no. - God, Heidi. 692 00:25:51,817 --> 00:25:53,684 - Just wondering. - No, not anymore. 693 00:25:53,786 --> 00:25:54,885 - Heidi! - No way. 694 00:25:54,987 --> 00:25:55,986 - Excuse Heidi. - Especially COVID. 695 00:25:56,088 --> 00:25:57,321 - What about other things? 696 00:25:57,423 --> 00:25:59,523 - Heidi's been watching too much Netflix. 697 00:25:59,625 --> 00:26:01,959 - ♪ I just got the key They let me in, no ID ♪ 698 00:26:02,061 --> 00:26:03,961 ♪ Doors openin' up for me and now I see ♪ 699 00:26:04,063 --> 00:26:06,964 ♪ I've been blind for a while now ♪ 700 00:26:07,066 --> 00:26:09,934 ♪ I've been blind for a while now ♪ 701 00:26:10,036 --> 00:26:11,435 ♪ Let's go! ♪ 702 00:26:11,537 --> 00:26:13,804 ♪ I just got the key they let me in, no ID ♪ 703 00:26:13,906 --> 00:26:16,073 ♪ Doors openin' up for me and now I see ♪ 704 00:26:16,175 --> 00:26:18,342 - Oh, out with the old, in with this new, huh? 705 00:26:18,444 --> 00:26:20,277 - Out with the old, in with the new, my friend. 706 00:26:20,379 --> 00:26:24,348 - Like this. Down to partake. - I actually like painting. 707 00:26:24,450 --> 00:26:27,751 Figure, uh, change it up, maybe just a little-- 708 00:26:27,853 --> 00:26:29,687 - Whoa! Yeah! - Throw up some yellow up here. 709 00:26:29,789 --> 00:26:31,121 - Look at Justin's glasses, man. 710 00:26:31,223 --> 00:26:33,624 [laughter] - That's so sick. 711 00:26:33,726 --> 00:26:35,693 - Of course, Brandon What's up, buddy? 712 00:26:35,795 --> 00:26:37,461 - What's up? Where's the roller? 713 00:26:37,563 --> 00:26:38,796 I'm not gonna lie, dude. 714 00:26:38,898 --> 00:26:39,897 I don't think I've ever painted a wall before. 715 00:26:39,999 --> 00:26:41,231 - Really? - Real work, huh? 716 00:26:41,334 --> 00:26:42,433 - It's actually--it's actually kind of nice. 717 00:26:42,535 --> 00:26:43,667 - Real work, huh? 718 00:26:43,769 --> 00:26:45,836 - Dude, I just pretend for a living. 719 00:26:45,938 --> 00:26:47,638 - Yeah, I don't think Brandon's ever done 720 00:26:47,740 --> 00:26:51,241 manual labor in his life, to be honest. 721 00:26:51,344 --> 00:26:53,444 - So you're done? You're done with drinking now, huh? 722 00:26:53,546 --> 00:26:56,246 - This is, like, been the craziest forced vacation ever, 723 00:26:56,349 --> 00:26:58,048 where you have a lot of time to think. 724 00:26:58,150 --> 00:27:01,318 A lot of it was like, "Dude, I'm sick of, like, 725 00:27:01,420 --> 00:27:03,387 feeling like shit all the time, drinking." 726 00:27:03,489 --> 00:27:04,655 I'm 37 years old. 727 00:27:04,757 --> 00:27:07,091 I need to like really utilize my full potential. 728 00:27:07,193 --> 00:27:08,225 And Kaitlynn would tell me, like, 729 00:27:08,327 --> 00:27:09,593 "Dude, you should stop drinking." 730 00:27:09,695 --> 00:27:12,663 Honestly, throughout our whole relationship, I was like, 731 00:27:12,765 --> 00:27:14,932 "No," 'cause I wasn't ready. 732 00:27:15,034 --> 00:27:17,101 - Well, then who's-- you got a new-new then? 733 00:27:17,203 --> 00:27:18,502 With all the sobriety and-- 734 00:27:18,604 --> 00:27:20,904 - Dude, honestly, women and girls 735 00:27:21,007 --> 00:27:23,507 are like the last thing motivating me right now. 736 00:27:23,609 --> 00:27:24,875 I think like that's-- 737 00:27:24,977 --> 00:27:26,610 all that would do is just make me drink again. 738 00:27:26,712 --> 00:27:27,811 - What about you, Brandon? 739 00:27:27,913 --> 00:27:29,179 I haven't seen you or heard anything. 740 00:27:29,281 --> 00:27:32,116 - It's complicated a little bit. 741 00:27:32,218 --> 00:27:35,786 Before corona, I met this girl Daniella. 742 00:27:35,888 --> 00:27:38,689 Right away, I was like, infatuated with her. 743 00:27:38,791 --> 00:27:41,759 I'm a romantic. I feel like everybody knows this already. 744 00:27:41,861 --> 00:27:44,261 When I like somebody, I'm like, 745 00:27:44,363 --> 00:27:46,897 [bleep] all the bull[bleep]. I'm moving fast. 746 00:27:46,999 --> 00:27:49,333 So we started dating for like two months, right? 747 00:27:49,435 --> 00:27:52,836 And everything was perfect, then corona happened, 748 00:27:52,938 --> 00:27:54,338 the lockdowns happened. 749 00:27:54,440 --> 00:27:56,073 I'm like, this is brutal. So she moved in with me. 750 00:27:56,175 --> 00:27:58,542 - After how long did you know her, you moved her in? 751 00:27:58,644 --> 00:28:00,811 - Three, four months. 752 00:28:00,913 --> 00:28:01,812 - I think it was just like we weren't ready 753 00:28:01,914 --> 00:28:03,313 to live together yet. 754 00:28:03,416 --> 00:28:06,216 It got a little complicated, so we split. 755 00:28:06,318 --> 00:28:07,885 Like ever since then, dude, I've just missed her 756 00:28:07,987 --> 00:28:10,120 so [...] much, like. 757 00:28:10,222 --> 00:28:15,693 During this pandemic, I mean, I've struggled with progress, 758 00:28:15,795 --> 00:28:17,261 personally and professionally. 759 00:28:17,363 --> 00:28:19,596 It made me feel like the universe was making me 760 00:28:19,699 --> 00:28:22,466 take a giant sidestep and a step to the back. 761 00:28:22,568 --> 00:28:24,001 You know, I feel like that's a big reason 762 00:28:24,103 --> 00:28:27,004 why my relationship just got so [bleep] up. 763 00:28:27,106 --> 00:28:30,207 You know, my anxiety is not able to process my worries 764 00:28:30,309 --> 00:28:31,408 and someone else's worries. 765 00:28:31,510 --> 00:28:32,743 - Are you guys still talking right now? 766 00:28:32,845 --> 00:28:35,012 - Yeah, like, we still talk sometimes. 767 00:28:35,114 --> 00:28:37,548 - Do you think, like, if she was with somebody else, 768 00:28:37,650 --> 00:28:39,650 you'd be all right? - No. 769 00:28:39,752 --> 00:28:42,720 I didn't do the best job the first time around showing her 770 00:28:42,822 --> 00:28:46,824 how much I appreciated her and I know I can do that now. 771 00:28:46,926 --> 00:28:49,860 And I want her to feel secure and special 772 00:28:49,962 --> 00:28:51,495 and like she's my girl. 773 00:28:51,597 --> 00:28:53,063 So I've been trying to figure out what to do. 774 00:28:53,165 --> 00:28:54,798 And I think I'm just gonna tell her how I feel, 775 00:28:54,900 --> 00:28:56,333 apologize for everything, 776 00:28:56,435 --> 00:28:59,269 and tell her, like, I think we should be together. 777 00:28:59,371 --> 00:29:01,138 - Well, good luck, man. I hope it works out. 778 00:29:01,240 --> 00:29:03,674 - I don't think I can really just be without her. 779 00:29:03,776 --> 00:29:05,542 - There you go. I'm proud of you. 780 00:29:05,644 --> 00:29:07,478 ♪ ♪ 781 00:29:12,651 --> 00:29:14,818 - ♪ Hey, boy, won't you come, come around town ♪ 782 00:29:14,920 --> 00:29:15,953 ♪ Hey, hey, boy ♪ 783 00:29:16,055 --> 00:29:17,988 ♪ Oh ♪ 784 00:29:18,090 --> 00:29:19,823 ♪ Hey boy, better run, better run now ♪ 785 00:29:19,925 --> 00:29:21,492 ♪ I say hey, boy ♪ 786 00:29:21,594 --> 00:29:22,826 ♪ Oh ♪ 787 00:29:22,928 --> 00:29:24,261 ♪ When you pull up, pull up, pull up ♪ 788 00:29:24,363 --> 00:29:26,630 ♪ In your hoopty ride boy, okay, boy ♪ 789 00:29:26,732 --> 00:29:28,065 ♪ Oh ♪ 790 00:29:28,167 --> 00:29:29,967 ♪ Hey, boy, better run, better run now ♪ 791 00:29:30,069 --> 00:29:32,536 ♪ I say hey, boy ♪ 792 00:29:32,638 --> 00:29:33,637 Hey, boy! 793 00:29:33,739 --> 00:29:34,705 - Sean. 794 00:29:34,807 --> 00:29:36,073 - Hi. - Hi. 795 00:29:36,175 --> 00:29:37,574 - What are we doing, social distancing hugs? 796 00:29:37,676 --> 00:29:39,009 - Get this thing off, right? - Elbows or-- 797 00:29:39,111 --> 00:29:40,244 - I mean, I'm COVID-free. Are you? 798 00:29:40,346 --> 00:29:42,079 - Yes, I am. - Okay. 799 00:29:42,181 --> 00:29:43,413 - Okay, let's hug. - Hugs, okay. 800 00:29:43,516 --> 00:29:45,382 - I got you something. Got you some flowers. 801 00:29:45,484 --> 00:29:47,284 - Oh, thank you so much. - There you go. 802 00:29:47,386 --> 00:29:48,819 - These are beautiful. - No problem. 803 00:29:48,921 --> 00:29:49,987 You look beautiful by the way. 804 00:29:50,089 --> 00:29:51,221 - Thank you. 805 00:29:52,792 --> 00:29:55,559 [sighs] I can breathe now. 806 00:29:55,661 --> 00:29:57,528 - [sighs] - [chuckles] 807 00:29:57,630 --> 00:30:00,230 [soft upbeat music] 808 00:30:00,332 --> 00:30:04,067 I have not been on a date in I don't know how long. 809 00:30:04,170 --> 00:30:05,969 - I haven't been in a date in a long time, either. 810 00:30:06,071 --> 00:30:10,007 ♪ ♪ 811 00:30:10,109 --> 00:30:11,809 - [chuckles] 812 00:30:11,911 --> 00:30:15,179 Yeah, dating in COVID. Here we are. 813 00:30:15,281 --> 00:30:18,415 First dates are very nerve-racking. 814 00:30:18,517 --> 00:30:21,118 It's like I have to remember, this is not an interview 815 00:30:21,220 --> 00:30:22,853 to get married or something. 816 00:30:22,955 --> 00:30:24,988 What's your sign? - Virgo. 817 00:30:25,090 --> 00:30:26,356 - You've got great skin. - Thank you. 818 00:30:26,458 --> 00:30:27,724 I get it from my mom and my dad. 819 00:30:27,827 --> 00:30:28,759 [chuckling] 820 00:30:28,861 --> 00:30:29,860 - I'm just used to like-- [trills] 821 00:30:29,962 --> 00:30:31,061 [chuckles] 822 00:30:31,163 --> 00:30:33,497 This is not me committing to anything. 823 00:30:33,599 --> 00:30:36,900 It's just committing to change and taking that step forward. 824 00:30:37,002 --> 00:30:40,037 - What makes you smile? - My daughter. 825 00:30:40,139 --> 00:30:41,238 - Oh, that's cute. - I know. 826 00:30:41,340 --> 00:30:43,574 I--my little girl is everything to me. 827 00:30:43,676 --> 00:30:46,410 And yeah, it's like a huge priority for me. 828 00:30:46,512 --> 00:30:48,345 - That's awesome. - Just being a mom and-- 829 00:30:48,447 --> 00:30:50,047 I have a niece... - You have a niece? How old? 830 00:30:50,149 --> 00:30:51,081 - That's 8 1/2. - 8 1/2. 831 00:30:51,183 --> 00:30:52,282 - Yeah. - That's a fun age. 832 00:30:52,384 --> 00:30:54,451 Did you grow up in L.A.? - Grew up in Malibu. 833 00:30:54,553 --> 00:30:55,719 My parents got divorced when I was six. 834 00:30:55,821 --> 00:30:56,987 - Okay. 835 00:30:57,089 --> 00:30:58,455 - And then--here, let me get that for you. 836 00:30:58,557 --> 00:30:59,356 - Oh, thank you. 837 00:30:59,458 --> 00:31:00,757 - I'm a gentleman. - Thanks. 838 00:31:00,860 --> 00:31:02,426 - Sorry, I should have offered. - It's okay. 839 00:31:02,528 --> 00:31:05,996 Um, how is that with the divorce and everything? 840 00:31:06,098 --> 00:31:07,464 Was it hard? I'm sure, at six years old. 841 00:31:07,566 --> 00:31:09,700 - It was difficult. It was difficult. 842 00:31:09,802 --> 00:31:13,036 So it's like--for me, it's like I'm a son from divorce. 843 00:31:13,138 --> 00:31:15,172 So it's like, when I have a kid, 844 00:31:15,274 --> 00:31:17,708 no matter what the girl does, I'm not gonna divorce her 845 00:31:17,810 --> 00:31:21,044 'cause I don't want my kid to go through that, you know? 846 00:31:21,146 --> 00:31:22,512 - See, I come from a family 847 00:31:22,615 --> 00:31:25,949 that not one person in my family ever got divorced. 848 00:31:26,051 --> 00:31:27,284 And it was like when you get married, 849 00:31:27,386 --> 00:31:29,019 you stay married no matter what. 850 00:31:29,121 --> 00:31:30,554 - Yeah. 851 00:31:30,656 --> 00:31:32,756 - My parents have been together since they were-- 852 00:31:32,858 --> 00:31:33,924 gosh, they've known each other 853 00:31:34,026 --> 00:31:35,559 since they were in the seventh grade. 854 00:31:35,661 --> 00:31:38,028 And, you know, my dad's my hero. 855 00:31:38,130 --> 00:31:40,464 And it's crazy that, in the past, 856 00:31:40,566 --> 00:31:45,302 I didn't choose someone that was more like my dad. 857 00:31:45,404 --> 00:31:47,905 In my 20s, I just-- I guess I kind of rebelled 858 00:31:48,007 --> 00:31:50,240 and I went for the bad guys all the time. 859 00:31:50,342 --> 00:31:52,743 I went for these guys that treated me so bad. 860 00:31:52,845 --> 00:31:55,379 It's just--I don't know why. 861 00:31:55,481 --> 00:31:57,447 So I was at Heidi and Spencer's earlier, 862 00:31:57,549 --> 00:31:58,982 and that's what he was saying, like, 863 00:31:59,084 --> 00:32:01,451 "I've known Sean for so long. He's such a great guy." 864 00:32:01,553 --> 00:32:03,553 - Their son is so cute. - Gunner is the best. I know. 865 00:32:03,656 --> 00:32:05,022 - Oh, my God. He's such a cute little guy. 866 00:32:05,124 --> 00:32:07,557 - When he's in like that jujitsu and-- 867 00:32:07,660 --> 00:32:09,793 - That's what I want when I have a kid. 868 00:32:09,895 --> 00:32:12,195 I want it in like boxing, UFC. 869 00:32:12,298 --> 00:32:14,364 - When I was 17, my sister and I, 870 00:32:14,466 --> 00:32:17,801 my mom put us in Muay-do, which was like karate, so-- 871 00:32:17,903 --> 00:32:21,571 - So show me your moo-de-poo. 872 00:32:21,674 --> 00:32:22,873 - "Moo-de-poo"? 873 00:32:22,975 --> 00:32:24,107 - Moo-de--what is it called again? 874 00:32:24,209 --> 00:32:27,110 - Muay-do. - Show me your moo-de-do. 875 00:32:27,212 --> 00:32:29,112 - I mean, I remember some stuff, 876 00:32:29,214 --> 00:32:32,316 like the roundhouse, like, hyah! 877 00:32:32,418 --> 00:32:36,186 - Give us a mu-ay-do. Ow! - [laughs] 878 00:32:36,288 --> 00:32:37,921 - This is what I hated in high school. 879 00:32:38,023 --> 00:32:41,024 Okay, here we go. Mu-ay-do! 880 00:32:41,126 --> 00:32:44,161 - Oh, [bleep]. [laughter] 881 00:32:44,263 --> 00:32:45,963 - That was incredible. Honest to God... 882 00:32:46,065 --> 00:32:47,297 - I didn't even get to kick. 883 00:32:47,399 --> 00:32:49,599 - That made my-- that made my night. 884 00:32:49,702 --> 00:32:51,935 - ♪ Thought that I found love before ♪ 885 00:32:52,037 --> 00:32:53,437 ♪ Maybe I was wrong ♪ 886 00:32:53,539 --> 00:32:56,406 - He's nothing like the guys I've dated in the past. 887 00:32:56,508 --> 00:32:58,442 He's very goofy, and he's very quirky. 888 00:32:58,544 --> 00:33:01,111 But I can see there's something charming about Sean, 889 00:33:01,213 --> 00:33:02,679 and I kind of want to know more. 890 00:33:02,781 --> 00:33:05,515 Yeah, you're definitely not like a typical L.A. guy. 891 00:33:05,617 --> 00:33:07,818 - No. We just have a--seems like we have lot in common. 892 00:33:07,920 --> 00:33:09,419 - Yeah, we do. 893 00:33:09,521 --> 00:33:12,789 ♪ Ooh-ooh-ooh-ooh, ooh-ooh-ooh I need love ♪ 894 00:33:12,891 --> 00:33:15,959 ♪ Ooh-ooh-ooh-ooh, ooh-ooh-ooh I need love ♪ 895 00:33:16,061 --> 00:33:19,529 ♪ Ooh-ooh-ooh-ooh, ooh-ooh-ooh I need love ♪ 896 00:33:19,631 --> 00:33:22,566 ["Rise Up" by Nick Kingsley & Daniel Farrant] 897 00:33:22,668 --> 00:33:28,805 ♪ ♪ 898 00:33:28,907 --> 00:33:31,842 - Not having Dani around really makes me miss 899 00:33:31,944 --> 00:33:34,745 taking care of her, just being there for her. 900 00:33:34,847 --> 00:33:38,415 I need to prove to her that I know that I made a mistake. 901 00:33:38,517 --> 00:33:39,816 You know, my anxiety is definitely something 902 00:33:39,918 --> 00:33:43,186 that I'm aware of and constantly working on. 903 00:33:43,288 --> 00:33:48,392 ♪ ♪ 904 00:33:48,494 --> 00:33:50,260 I know that in order to get Dani back, 905 00:33:50,362 --> 00:33:52,396 I have to do something special. 906 00:33:52,498 --> 00:33:55,232 It needs to be one of a kind. It needs to be forever. 907 00:33:55,334 --> 00:33:58,001 - ♪ Rise up and face the demon ♪ 908 00:33:58,103 --> 00:33:59,703 ♪ Rise up ♪ 909 00:33:59,805 --> 00:34:03,507 ♪ Rise up and dry your tears, yeah ♪ 910 00:34:06,845 --> 00:34:09,713 [upbeat music] 911 00:34:09,815 --> 00:34:10,947 ♪ ♪ 912 00:34:11,050 --> 00:34:14,251 - ♪ Ooh-ooh-ooh-ooh-oh ♪ 913 00:34:14,353 --> 00:34:17,621 ♪ Do you remember ♪ 914 00:34:17,723 --> 00:34:21,658 ♪ Ooh-ooh-ooh-ooh-oh ♪ 915 00:34:21,760 --> 00:34:24,261 ♪ Do you remember ♪ 916 00:34:24,363 --> 00:34:26,229 - Hi. - Hello. 917 00:34:26,331 --> 00:34:28,331 - How are you? - Good. How are you? 918 00:34:28,434 --> 00:34:30,100 - I need you to put this blindfold on. 919 00:34:30,202 --> 00:34:31,935 - Okay. 920 00:34:32,037 --> 00:34:35,172 Where are you taking me? - You got to trust me. 921 00:34:35,274 --> 00:34:36,306 ♪ ♪ 922 00:34:36,408 --> 00:34:38,642 - I'm nervous. - Stay right here. 923 00:34:38,744 --> 00:34:45,515 ♪ ♪ 924 00:34:49,288 --> 00:34:50,821 - Don't take it off yet. 925 00:34:50,923 --> 00:34:53,457 Come here. Careful. 926 00:34:53,559 --> 00:34:58,161 ♪ ♪ 927 00:34:58,263 --> 00:35:00,997 All right. This way, this way, this way, this way. Ready? 928 00:35:01,100 --> 00:35:02,866 - Okay. 929 00:35:02,968 --> 00:35:06,036 ♪ ♪ 930 00:35:06,138 --> 00:35:11,208 Oh my--Brandon! Wow. 931 00:35:11,310 --> 00:35:13,143 - You want to have a seat? - Yeah. 932 00:35:13,245 --> 00:35:14,778 - Great. 933 00:35:14,880 --> 00:35:16,947 ♪ ♪ 934 00:35:17,049 --> 00:35:18,682 - Oh, my gosh. 935 00:35:18,784 --> 00:35:20,183 ♪ ♪ 936 00:35:20,285 --> 00:35:21,885 - [sighs] 937 00:35:21,987 --> 00:35:23,787 - This is so beautiful. 938 00:35:23,889 --> 00:35:26,923 - Right? - Yeah, this is crazy. 939 00:35:27,025 --> 00:35:29,860 - I've been thinking about doing this for a while. 940 00:35:29,962 --> 00:35:32,395 During COVID, I was so stressed, like, 941 00:35:32,498 --> 00:35:33,663 "When am I gonna go back to work?" 942 00:35:33,765 --> 00:35:35,098 - Yeah. - "I'm not gonna be able 943 00:35:35,200 --> 00:35:36,666 "to afford my house. 944 00:35:36,768 --> 00:35:39,636 What am I gonna do with Dani? Like, this is brutal." 945 00:35:39,738 --> 00:35:42,405 I felt like I had, like, no space for my problems 946 00:35:42,508 --> 00:35:44,341 to, like, go deal with those 947 00:35:44,443 --> 00:35:46,710 and not have it affect us, you know? 948 00:35:46,812 --> 00:35:49,045 That's not where I ever want to be with you. 949 00:35:49,148 --> 00:35:52,382 You're the most amazing person I've ever met in my life. 950 00:35:52,484 --> 00:35:54,184 Like out here, when I'm alone with you 951 00:35:54,286 --> 00:35:56,920 and when I'm not thinking about anything else in the world, 952 00:35:57,022 --> 00:36:00,423 like, I know you're the person that I want to be with. 953 00:36:00,526 --> 00:36:02,192 - It's just hard because, like, I feel like 954 00:36:02,294 --> 00:36:05,262 every time you get scared or stressed out or something 955 00:36:05,364 --> 00:36:06,630 and your life is stressing you out, 956 00:36:06,732 --> 00:36:09,299 you kind of just close me off and don't want me there. 957 00:36:09,401 --> 00:36:11,067 I just felt kind of like a burden almost 958 00:36:11,170 --> 00:36:14,371 'cause I was like, "He doesn't really even think of me." 959 00:36:14,473 --> 00:36:15,872 And I just like--it's hard 960 00:36:15,974 --> 00:36:18,575 for me to know that you're serious this time. 961 00:36:18,677 --> 00:36:20,410 - Dani means the world to me. 962 00:36:20,512 --> 00:36:22,112 Everything feels so natural with her. 963 00:36:22,214 --> 00:36:23,547 She's very genuine. 964 00:36:23,649 --> 00:36:25,081 During quarantine, 965 00:36:25,184 --> 00:36:26,917 we were going through it for a while. 966 00:36:27,019 --> 00:36:29,386 There were spots, you know, where we, like, 967 00:36:29,488 --> 00:36:31,288 for a couple of days, would take a break. 968 00:36:31,390 --> 00:36:33,356 I think she just wants to know 969 00:36:33,458 --> 00:36:35,725 that I'm not gonna leave her hanging again. 970 00:36:35,827 --> 00:36:37,661 More than anything in the world, 971 00:36:37,763 --> 00:36:39,396 I think if anything deserves a chance, 972 00:36:39,498 --> 00:36:40,530 it's this relationship. 973 00:36:40,632 --> 00:36:43,633 ♪ ♪ 974 00:36:43,735 --> 00:36:45,035 - But you just have to also know that, 975 00:36:45,137 --> 00:36:47,671 like, being together and getting back together 976 00:36:47,773 --> 00:36:49,706 isn't just about doing stuff like this. 977 00:36:49,808 --> 00:36:54,511 It's about putting in the work every single day, you know? 978 00:36:54,613 --> 00:36:57,080 - I know. I know that now. 979 00:36:57,182 --> 00:36:59,516 I kind of have something else to show you. 980 00:36:59,618 --> 00:37:00,684 - What do you have? 981 00:37:00,786 --> 00:37:01,985 - I just wanted to make something 982 00:37:02,087 --> 00:37:04,120 that really kind of showed how I felt. 983 00:37:04,223 --> 00:37:07,057 And whether it's good or not, I don't know. 984 00:37:08,727 --> 00:37:12,429 I wrote a song. [laughter] 985 00:37:12,531 --> 00:37:13,730 - Aw. 986 00:37:13,832 --> 00:37:17,801 - I think it shows how much I love you. 987 00:37:17,903 --> 00:37:19,970 ♪ Is it too late? ♪ - This is you? 988 00:37:20,072 --> 00:37:21,905 - Yeah. - ♪ Should I call you ♪ 989 00:37:22,007 --> 00:37:23,907 ♪ Should I tell you that I miss you? ♪ 990 00:37:24,009 --> 00:37:26,109 - Brandon, I'm actually gonna cry. 991 00:37:26,211 --> 00:37:28,778 - ♪ Feeling heartbroken, stumbling ♪ 992 00:37:28,880 --> 00:37:32,148 ♪ Girl, I need you ♪ 993 00:37:32,251 --> 00:37:37,454 ♪ I know that it's hard, but we'll pull through ♪ 994 00:37:37,556 --> 00:37:38,855 - Baby. 995 00:37:38,957 --> 00:37:39,789 - ♪ 'Cause I've been stuck on you ♪ 996 00:37:39,891 --> 00:37:41,157 ♪ Don't know what to do ♪ 997 00:37:41,260 --> 00:37:44,127 ♪ For the lips that keep me goin' ♪ 998 00:37:44,229 --> 00:37:47,030 ♪ Through the dark, your heart is showin' ♪ 999 00:37:47,132 --> 00:37:49,866 ♪ Warm you up when it gets cold out ♪ 1000 00:37:49,968 --> 00:37:52,802 ♪ Never want to let you go now ♪ 1001 00:37:52,904 --> 00:37:55,705 ♪ For the lips that keep me goin' ♪ 1002 00:37:55,807 --> 00:37:58,608 ♪ Through the dark, your heart is showin' ♪ 1003 00:37:58,710 --> 00:38:00,777 ♪ Warm you up when it gets cold out ♪ 1004 00:38:00,879 --> 00:38:03,113 - I love you. - I love you. 1005 00:38:03,215 --> 00:38:04,948 - ♪ Never want to let you go now ♪ 1006 00:38:09,855 --> 00:38:11,888 - ♪ Can't nothing bring me down ♪ 1007 00:38:11,990 --> 00:38:16,626 ♪ ♪ 1008 00:38:16,728 --> 00:38:18,695 ♪ Can't nothing bring me down ♪ 1009 00:38:18,797 --> 00:38:21,831 ♪ ♪ 1010 00:38:21,933 --> 00:38:23,266 ♪ I need to cool it ♪ 1011 00:38:23,368 --> 00:38:25,235 ♪ Pass me that ice pass me that chain ♪ 1012 00:38:25,337 --> 00:38:26,870 ♪ Trying to bring me down I bet you can't hang ♪ 1013 00:38:26,972 --> 00:38:28,838 ♪ The boy like Teflon ♪ 1014 00:38:28,940 --> 00:38:30,674 ♪ And I'm gassed up like an Exxon ♪ 1015 00:38:30,776 --> 00:38:33,076 ♪ Don't try to strike up a match, the boy like a bomb ♪ 1016 00:38:33,178 --> 00:38:36,680 - Um, can you bring me a wet towel or a bib? 1017 00:38:36,782 --> 00:38:38,715 ♪ ♪ 1018 00:38:38,817 --> 00:38:40,950 Mm. - You're eating a pot pie? 1019 00:38:41,053 --> 00:38:43,086 - ♪ Can't nothing bring me down ♪ 1020 00:38:43,188 --> 00:38:45,488 - What's going on here? I mean, I'm not complaining, 1021 00:38:45,590 --> 00:38:48,591 but what are you holding there, my dear? 1022 00:38:48,694 --> 00:38:50,760 - It's a pregnancy test. 1023 00:38:50,862 --> 00:38:52,429 - Oh, you get pregnant overnight? 1024 00:38:52,531 --> 00:38:55,865 That's--oh, I spilled it all over myself. 1025 00:38:55,967 --> 00:38:59,135 - Says not pregnant. - So... 1026 00:38:59,237 --> 00:39:01,905 [soft tense music] 1027 00:39:02,007 --> 00:39:03,340 - I thought we were getting more serious about trying 1028 00:39:03,442 --> 00:39:05,241 to get pregnant, you know? 1029 00:39:05,344 --> 00:39:07,577 - I thought we were talking about that. 1030 00:39:07,679 --> 00:39:09,579 - No, I thought we had decided that. 1031 00:39:09,681 --> 00:39:12,248 - Last time Heidi got off birth control 1032 00:39:12,351 --> 00:39:15,218 and she said that night, like, "I want to get pregnant," 1033 00:39:15,320 --> 00:39:18,121 I think she was pregnant by the morning time. 1034 00:39:18,223 --> 00:39:20,924 So I think she's trying to manifest that again 1035 00:39:21,026 --> 00:39:23,126 and energetically make that happen. 1036 00:39:23,228 --> 00:39:25,495 From my knowledge, that was probably a fluke, 1037 00:39:25,597 --> 00:39:29,499 that was probably rare, that was probably very special. 1038 00:39:29,601 --> 00:39:31,901 So just so much pressure. 1039 00:39:32,003 --> 00:39:33,737 I think one of the main factors different 1040 00:39:33,839 --> 00:39:36,239 between how easy you got pregnant last time 1041 00:39:36,341 --> 00:39:39,142 and now is, like, you had no stress last time. 1042 00:39:39,244 --> 00:39:41,778 Your life was so relaxing. There was no pandemic. 1043 00:39:41,880 --> 00:39:43,279 You weren't trying to run a business. 1044 00:39:43,382 --> 00:39:47,317 And so now I'm sure--yeah, I'm not a doctor. 1045 00:39:47,419 --> 00:39:50,487 But I'm sure stress has something to factor 1046 00:39:50,589 --> 00:39:54,257 into how your body's working and so-- 1047 00:39:58,263 --> 00:40:00,196 - I don't know why I'm so emotional about it. 1048 00:40:00,298 --> 00:40:01,898 Just really have been wanting to be pregnant 1049 00:40:02,000 --> 00:40:05,835 for, like, a year, you know, or two years. [sobs] 1050 00:40:05,937 --> 00:40:09,572 I just thought it wouldn't, you know, happen. 1051 00:40:09,674 --> 00:40:13,910 I feel like I'm getting older and-- 1052 00:40:14,012 --> 00:40:17,480 [sniffles] What if I want two? 1053 00:40:17,582 --> 00:40:21,618 - Two more you're saying? - Yeah. 1054 00:40:21,720 --> 00:40:26,089 I feel like I might have missed something already, 1055 00:40:26,191 --> 00:40:28,892 like I missed an opportunity to have another kid 1056 00:40:28,994 --> 00:40:32,462 or, you know, I just--and I feel concerned 1057 00:40:32,564 --> 00:40:35,131 that I am stressed out, and we are older, 1058 00:40:35,233 --> 00:40:39,002 and I don't know how long it's gonna take me to get pregnant. 1059 00:40:39,104 --> 00:40:40,637 - Stop being so hard on yourself. 1060 00:40:40,739 --> 00:40:42,839 It's not like--you didn't fail not getting pregnant. 1061 00:40:42,941 --> 00:40:45,942 Like, I thought--what happened to God's timing and like-- 1062 00:40:46,044 --> 00:40:50,280 - I know. I feel like I know that. 1063 00:40:50,382 --> 00:40:54,217 This feels emotional. 1064 00:40:55,620 --> 00:40:57,754 I want us to both just try really hard 1065 00:40:57,856 --> 00:40:59,389 because I'm trying really hard. 1066 00:40:59,491 --> 00:41:01,991 I really care. 1067 00:41:02,093 --> 00:41:06,296 I'm seeing it slip away. And I'm gonna run out of time. 1068 00:41:06,398 --> 00:41:10,133 Like, I just feel like my life is getting so, like, limited. 1069 00:41:10,235 --> 00:41:12,035 And I feel frustrated that Spencer and I 1070 00:41:12,137 --> 00:41:13,870 aren't on the same page right now. 1071 00:41:13,972 --> 00:41:20,944 ♪ ♪ 1072 00:41:23,081 --> 00:41:26,883 - ♪ I'm not givin' up, givin' up ♪ 1073 00:41:26,985 --> 00:41:29,285 ♪ Don't try to pull away ♪ 1074 00:41:29,387 --> 00:41:31,254 ♪ Oh, you think it's love? ♪ 1075 00:41:31,356 --> 00:41:34,724 ♪ I'll crush whatever's in the way ♪ 1076 00:41:34,826 --> 00:41:36,860 ♪ I'm not givin' up ♪ 1077 00:41:37,863 --> 00:41:39,295 - Party's in town, party's in town! 1078 00:41:39,397 --> 00:41:40,363 - Out of control. 1079 00:41:40,465 --> 00:41:41,564 - ♪ Now look who's back ♪ 1080 00:41:41,666 --> 00:41:43,066 [upbeat music] 1081 00:41:43,168 --> 00:41:45,201 ♪ I'm on a roll, I'm on a roll ♪ 1082 00:41:45,303 --> 00:41:46,469 - [trilling] 1083 00:41:46,571 --> 00:41:47,737 - Her boobs are completely out. 1084 00:41:47,839 --> 00:41:48,938 - Do you see the heart. - Pumpin'. 1085 00:41:49,040 --> 00:41:51,107 - We started talking about moving in together. 1086 00:41:51,209 --> 00:41:53,910 - See you back in... - In LA. 1087 00:41:54,012 --> 00:41:55,578 - Who's a better kisser? - [laughs] 1088 00:41:55,680 --> 00:41:58,081 - Ahh! - Oh. 1089 00:41:58,183 --> 00:42:01,251 - ♪ Yeah, this is where we ride ♪ 1090 00:42:01,353 --> 00:42:02,886 - I have feelings for you. 1091 00:42:02,988 --> 00:42:04,454 - You can't say some [bleep] like that 1092 00:42:04,556 --> 00:42:05,922 when you know [bleep] absolutely nothing. 1093 00:42:06,024 --> 00:42:08,057 - Heidi, where are you going? - Please sit down. 1094 00:42:08,159 --> 00:42:09,325 - Compromise. 1095 00:42:09,427 --> 00:42:10,760 I don't know what the [bleep] that is. 1096 00:42:10,862 --> 00:42:12,362 - That's something that you really need to work on. 1097 00:42:12,464 --> 00:42:13,997 - He was definitely insinuating 1098 00:42:14,099 --> 00:42:16,299 that you still take drugs and you still drink. 1099 00:42:16,401 --> 00:42:17,667 - That's [bleep] up. 1100 00:42:17,769 --> 00:42:20,336 - Audrina told me Ashley talks a lot of smack about me. 1101 00:42:20,438 --> 00:42:22,071 - You told her? - I had to. 1102 00:42:22,173 --> 00:42:23,573 - No, you didn't have to! 1103 00:42:23,675 --> 00:42:26,009 - I'm playing Patty Cake. I have not got-- 1104 00:42:26,111 --> 00:42:27,210 - That's why you guys don't have any [bleep] friends. 1105 00:42:27,312 --> 00:42:28,211 - You're a liar, Audrina. 1106 00:42:28,313 --> 00:42:30,046 - Oh, deflect again, you guys. 1107 00:42:30,148 --> 00:42:31,648 - I'm just glad the drama's not about me for once. 1108 00:42:31,750 --> 00:42:32,882 - Right? 1109 00:42:32,984 --> 00:42:36,920 - ♪ Now this is where we rise ♪