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your friends in a year...
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[cork pops]
[both shrieking]
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I'm back in LA, bitches!
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You never know
what to expect.
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- Girls night, girls night!
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- Whoo!
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♪ ♪
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- Oh, my God!
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- We didn't know
it would get so complicated.
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- There were certain things
in our marriage
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that were also driving me
to drink.
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- I know you're the person
that I wanna be with.
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- Audrina's in the car
with you?
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- I don't think we got much
sleep, to be honest with you.
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- Ooh!
- Audrina!
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- I was waiting for the kiss.
- Was I supposed to kiss you?
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- I mean, I'm good friends
with Brody.
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I never kissed him, so...
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a little jealous.
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- She can do whatever
she wants, if she wants.
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- You don't know anything about
our relationship--nothing.
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- He's such an [bleep].
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- Spencer's saying
that I'm not sober.
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- What the [bleep]?
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♪ ♪
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- What kind of friend are you?
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- Her old antics are back.
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- I guess
if I was dating someone,
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I probably would've told you.
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- Just really have been
wanting to be pregnant.
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And I feel like
I'm getting older.
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- I feel like you have
something to tell me.
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- ♪ Here we go ♪
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- These people act
like I don't have
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a pocket full
of receipts on them.
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- It's not always about
Heidi and Spencer.
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- Look how angry you are.
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- Because you're
[bleep] up, dude!
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- ♪ Here we go, here we go,
here we go ♪
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- Before we lost control.
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- Get this mother[bleep] camera
out of my [bleep] face!
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- It started
with a new beginning.
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- ♪ It's just begun ♪
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- ♪ Try to silence me ♪
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♪ I'll scream out
as loud as I can ♪
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♪ ♪
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♪ Cover my mouth
with your hands ♪
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♪ Try to silence me,
I'll scream as loud as I can ♪
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♪ Shouldn't bite the hand
that feeds me ♪
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♪ But you're not the man ♪
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♪ ♪
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- Over the past year,
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my life got turned
upside down
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and it gave me so much clarity.
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- ♪ Try to silence me, I'll
scream out as loud as I can ♪
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- I've been divorced
for over a year now.
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I just did some really,
really good self-reflection.
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And there was so many things
about myself that I disliked.
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Drinking too much
and partying.
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I looked at myself
and just said,
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"What are you doing?
Like, this is not you.
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This is not who you are."
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♪ ♪
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[sizzling]
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- This looks amazing.
I love it. What do we got?
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- There's al pastor.
- [chuckling] Oh, God!
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- Chicken.
- Okay, nice.
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- And a salad.
- Awesome.
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Thank you, brother.
That looks delicious.
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You're stuck at home for
the better part of the year.
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I was able to use that time
positively, which was great.
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But now I want
to see my friends.
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I want to, you know,
have people over.
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I'm ready. I've done enough
self-reflection.
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I'm ready to get back
to real life.
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Tequila over here.
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Pratt Daddy, I'm sure,
will be sucking that down.
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I got the keg.
Cool.
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- ♪ Why you moving like
checkers? ♪
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♪ This chess,
ain't less ♪
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♪ Everybody want to be
a star these days ♪
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♪ When you running out
the red carpet phase ♪
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- Whoo!
Prince of Malibu.
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Before COVID happened,
life was great.
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I mean, we were on such a high,
we were making a lot of money,
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we were in a great place
to have another baby,
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and then a lot of things
got derailed.
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What are you wearing right now?
- A cape.
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I've got a cape.
- Is that a little poncho?
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Is that a--wow.
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- It's so nice,
so good to see you.
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- Are you we allowed
to do this?
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Aren't we supposed to just--
- Oh, my God.
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- Yeah!
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♪ ♪
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- You made it!
- Hi.
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- What up?
- Hi, Brody.
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- It's the COVID safe line.
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- I just opened the champagne.
Do you want some?
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- Of course she does.
- Thank you.
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- Cheers.
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- I feel like I only drink
champagne with you, Heidi.
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You're my champagne partner.
I love you. So good to see you.
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- Ahh!
What's going on?
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- I've just kind of been
on lockdown
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and just kind of isolated
a little bit.
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- Yeah.
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- During the pandemic,
I got really sick.
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And it literally made me think
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about what's important
in my life.
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And it also forced me to listen
to my emotions and feelings
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because I've really
come to terms with myself
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and what I want
and how I want to be treated
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and what I will
and won't put up with.
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- ♪ Oh, yeah,
we're living it up ♪
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♪ It's like night and day ♪
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- Whoa, Brandon.
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- Brandon.
- How are you?
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Are you and Spencer
wearing the same pants?
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- Nice to see--I know, right?
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I know, we're wearing
the same ol' pants.
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- Oh, my gosh. I love it.
How are you?
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- You look great.
- Good.
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I really haven't been
doing [bleep].
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For me, I was just bored
and stressed.
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Me and my girlfriend are like--
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- Oh, you have a girlfriend?
- No. I mean, not really.
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We're, like, broken up
but figuring it out, so--
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- Ashley.
- Hi.
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♪ ♪
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- Dude, I'm so crazy.
I want the angle.
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- Exactly.
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- Do you want a glass
of champagne?
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♪ ♪
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- Oh, look at that,
standing ovations.
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- Oh, oh!
- I like it.
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Look at all these long hairs.
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- He always looks like he just
got back from, like,
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his own, like, microbrewery.
You know what I'm saying?
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- I would think moonshine.
- I got some moonshine.
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- Moonshine.
- Yeah.
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- The lockdown scared
the [bleep] out of me 'cause,
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for me, freedom is everything.
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So then once I found out, like,
you couldn't be free,
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you couldn't leave,
I found a way out.
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I was able to sneak in
to Mexico,
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posted up on the beach there
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and kind of, like,
let the world do its thing.
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I just did what I did best
and split.
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- I'll sit on your lap.
- Okay.
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- That's okay. Hi, guys.
- Oh, I saw you.
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Hi, sorry. I don't want
to be rude and not say hi.
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- Sorry, bro.
I'm getting all in your--
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- Oh, my gosh.
Oh, let's get cozy, guys.
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- Hello, guys. How are you?
- Oh.
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Hello, hello there.
Kaitlynn.
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- You know,
the first few months
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after Brody and I split up
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were easily the most difficult
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and challenging months
of my life.
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But I think we both accepted
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that splitting up
was the right choice.
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So even though it was very sad
on one hand,
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it's pretty clear to me that
we're better off as friends.
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- Yeah, buddy!
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[cork pops]
- Whoo!
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[upbeat music]
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♪ ♪
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- I want to get eat more tacos
and nachos
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and take another shot,
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if somebody wants to join me
on the bar?
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♪ ♪
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- Just coming out of corona,
trying to fly.
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- I feel you, dude.
- Trying to fly.
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- It's a trippy--it's a trippy
time that we're in.
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- Spencer has that
big ol' blanket.
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- It's his cape.
- Audrina.
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- It's his cape.
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- So incredible.
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- ♪ I'm gonna roll the dice,
don't think twice ♪
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♪ Gonna stay so cool,
feeling so nice ♪
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♪ 'Cause they got
a real thing ♪
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♪ Just hang tight ♪
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♪ Double up and meet me
on the upside ♪
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- Hi.
- Whoa!
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- God, I haven't seen you
in a minute.
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- Look who it is.
- I go where the heat is.
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God, this is smoking hot.
- Okay. Come, scoot closer.
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- Maybe I'll get closer to you.
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- You look good.
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- Ugh, thank you.
- You're glowing.
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I mean, I know
you've been through--
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- Am I glowing right now?
- You kind of are.
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Like, you look great.
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- I haven't really talked
to anyone.
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I know that you texted me
to ask how I was.
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- Yeah, I didn't know.
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Yeah, I texted you.
But I didn't hear back.
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- I know.
- You ghosted me.
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- I was--no.
- You ghosted me.
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- I didn't ghost you.
- You ghosted me, man.
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We had a moment, and then
you just--and you ghosted me.
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- We did have a moment.
- We were like--we were--
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- We had fun.
- We were hanging.
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- Brody and I have always had
a flirty relationship.
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♪ ♪
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There's always been something,
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some kind of attraction
with me and Brody,
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but I don't--I've never
went there ever.
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- Did you just say
you did like Brody?
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- I'm not gonna lie.
I've always had a little crush.
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Pre-pandemic,
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there was definitely some
kissing between Brody and I.
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- Where were you?
- I was at Brody's.
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- You're at Brody's.
- You're at Brody's house?
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- I had fun.
- I had a lot of fun.
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I mean, I did stay over
at his house.
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There was a thought that,
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"Okay, maybe me and Brody
should just give this a shot.
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"You know, all these years,
like, why not?
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Let's see where this goes."
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And once COVID hit,
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I just kind of closed off
from everyone,
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and Brody and I
haven't really talked since.
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I mean, the thing with you,
Brody, like, we've always
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had such a connected, honest,
real friendship.
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- Yeah.
- And cutting to now,
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it's just reconnecting again...
- Yeah.
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- And seeing
where we're at now.
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- I feel like you and I have
that type of friendship too,
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where it's like,
even if we don't talk,
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whenever we see each other,
it's like...
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- Yeah.
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- We just pick it
right back up.
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It's like that.
- I know.
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- And those are--
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and those are real, genuine
friendships, you know?
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- Yeah, because you know
they're a part of your life
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no matter what.
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And it doesn't matter when,
but when the time is right,
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like, you just come back
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and it's like
no time has passed, so--
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- Yeah, exactly.
- That's you.
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Brody, he's a great guy.
He has the biggest heart.
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And he's a great listener.
246
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And, you know,
he's very attractive.
247
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It's hard to shake the thought
248
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of what could have been
with Brody and I.
249
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You know, but I'm just trying
not to live in the past
250
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and move forward.
251
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It's good to see you.
- It is.
252
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It's really good to see you.
253
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Really good.
Really good.
254
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- ♪ Everywhere I go
I keep seeing ghosts ♪
255
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♪ And up the stairs ♪
256
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♪ I keep playing mind games
with myself ♪
257
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♪ I think I'm going crazy ♪
258
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♪ But you're everywhere,
baby ♪
259
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- Everybody around?
Everybody here?
260
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Nice.
The whole gang is here.
261
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- We need that sage.
262
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- This is spiritual Brody,
Kaitlynn.
263
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- This feels very similar
to me.
264
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- You never got to meet
spiritual Brody.
265
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He was in there somewhere.
266
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Obviously, it's been
a very crazy year.
267
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I've been doing
some work on myself.
268
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I've been really enjoying that.
269
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And I've learned a lot of stuff
along the way.
270
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And somebody taught me,
271
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when I was on the surf trip
down south,
272
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he was a spiritual shaman guru
that said,
273
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"To truly be able to get rid
of the past or if you're trying
274
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to get rid of something
from the past is to bury it."
275
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So that's why I told you all
to bring something to bury.
276
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I know you guys
all thought I was crazy.
277
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Let's bring whatever
it is you guys brought.
278
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Let's go up there.
And let's bury this. Bury it.
279
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- Yeah.
- Whoo!
280
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- Let's go.
- All right.
281
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- ♪ I wonder
if I'm being real ♪
282
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♪ Do I speak my truth
or do I filter how I feel? ♪
283
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♪ I wonder, I wonder ♪
284
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♪ ♪
285
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- Okay, well, my item,
as you can see,
286
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I see Spencer
has been eyeballing it,
287
00:10:03,036 --> 00:10:07,405
he's just been staring
at this thing, is alcohol.
288
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This time, I definitely--
289
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it was the first time
in my life
290
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I've had the time to actually
take a step back from work
291
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and just the constant hustle
and being on the road
292
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and really take in
a good look at myself.
293
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And one of the things that
I really hated about myself
294
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is how I would behave sometimes
when I would drink.
295
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I think you guys
have all seen that.
296
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I just remember thinking, like,
I'm so sick of apologizing,
297
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you know, for dumb,
dumb [bleep] that I do
298
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when I drink to excess.
299
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I came home to a psychopath
yelling and screaming at me.
300
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You were a nightmare.
301
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- You don't think that's, like,
the rudest thing you could say?
302
00:10:46,346 --> 00:10:48,380
You know I hate when you say
stuff like that.
303
00:10:48,482 --> 00:10:51,016
- Hey, don't say that.
- Don't come at me like that.
304
00:10:51,118 --> 00:10:53,151
- Shut the [bleep] up, dude.
Who the [bleep] are you?
305
00:10:53,253 --> 00:10:54,519
[bleep] you.
306
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- I've hurt a lot of people
that I love in my life.
307
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And I think that taking
the alcohol away
308
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and really getting to be
able to self-reflect,
309
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those relationships
will be better.
310
00:11:04,364 --> 00:11:06,464
So, Kaitlynn,
I want to apologize to you also
311
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because I've been a nightmare
to be around and to deal with.
312
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- That's really sweet.
- Yeah.
313
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- But I'm also really proud
of you for doing this
314
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'cause I think
it's really good.
315
00:11:14,307 --> 00:11:15,507
- Well, thank you
very much, so--
316
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- Good for you, man.
- Cheers.
317
00:11:16,910 --> 00:11:17,976
- Absolutely. Yeah.
318
00:11:18,078 --> 00:11:19,144
- Whoo!
- Good job.
319
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- Good job.
- Proud of you.
320
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- Okay, Brandon.
- I'm burying money
321
00:11:22,683 --> 00:11:26,051
because I think
that I should spend less time
322
00:11:26,153 --> 00:11:28,753
worrying about it
and caring about it so much.
323
00:11:28,855 --> 00:11:31,723
So I will be
bearing some money.
324
00:11:31,825 --> 00:11:33,358
- Seriously?
- Wow, 100 bucks.
325
00:11:33,460 --> 00:11:34,726
- Oh, my God.
326
00:11:34,828 --> 00:11:36,861
- I don't want to come off
as a dick burying money,
327
00:11:36,963 --> 00:11:38,830
but last year
was really good for me.
328
00:11:38,932 --> 00:11:40,632
You know, I was working a ton.
329
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And then, you know, COVID hit
330
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and sort of just smacked me
in the face.
331
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I feel like that had a direct
impact on my relationship.
332
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And I ended up sabotaging it
in my own way.
333
00:11:52,512 --> 00:11:54,546
And I realized that life
334
00:11:54,648 --> 00:11:57,348
comes down to a lot
larger things than money.
335
00:11:57,451 --> 00:12:00,085
Maybe Jason goes next.
- Okay. All right.
336
00:12:00,187 --> 00:12:02,454
Well, as many of you know,
337
00:12:02,556 --> 00:12:04,989
I've struggled with addiction
many times.
338
00:12:05,092 --> 00:12:09,561
And 2019 was the last time
I took a bunch of Adderall.
339
00:12:09,663 --> 00:12:11,996
I'll be celebrating
one year in December.
340
00:12:12,099 --> 00:12:14,365
This year has been very trying.
341
00:12:14,468 --> 00:12:16,367
You know, I'd just
gotten over another relapse.
342
00:12:16,470 --> 00:12:20,872
And Ashley and I were in
a very, very fragile state.
343
00:12:20,974 --> 00:12:23,141
We didn't know
if it was gonna work anymore.
344
00:12:23,243 --> 00:12:26,411
- I wish that I could have been
able to talk to you
345
00:12:26,513 --> 00:12:27,645
because, like, I hate it.
346
00:12:27,748 --> 00:12:29,214
- We weren't in
a healthy place.
347
00:12:29,316 --> 00:12:30,682
I don't ever want to be
in that place ever again.
348
00:12:30,784 --> 00:12:32,050
And I want to be
a father to Delilah.
349
00:12:32,152 --> 00:12:33,551
I want to be a husband to you.
350
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Like, I wanna be able
to provide and like do that.
351
00:12:36,857 --> 00:12:37,989
But by the grace of God
352
00:12:38,091 --> 00:12:40,258
and through the downtime
that we had,
353
00:12:40,360 --> 00:12:42,994
we were really able to focus
on our relationship.
354
00:12:43,096 --> 00:12:44,863
We're moving forward.
We're doing better.
355
00:12:44,965 --> 00:12:46,297
And I think
we're on the right path.
356
00:12:46,399 --> 00:12:48,433
- Nice. I'm proud of you.
- Yay!
357
00:12:48,535 --> 00:12:51,803
- Yeah.
- There we go. There we go.
358
00:12:51,905 --> 00:12:53,404
- Adderall, a hundo.
- Audrina.
359
00:12:53,507 --> 00:12:54,706
- Oh, God, okay.
360
00:12:54,808 --> 00:12:59,010
Well, this is supposed to
represent a little black book,
361
00:12:59,112 --> 00:13:01,479
but it's a big white book.
[laughter]
362
00:13:01,581 --> 00:13:06,184
And it's representing the past
and to move onward and upward
363
00:13:06,286 --> 00:13:08,520
and never look back,
never go back.
364
00:13:08,622 --> 00:13:11,656
I guess, for me,
it's hard to let people in.
365
00:13:11,758 --> 00:13:14,192
So maybe that's why
I always go back to people
366
00:13:14,294 --> 00:13:15,393
that I'm comfortable with.
367
00:13:15,495 --> 00:13:17,762
Moving forward,
it's about the future.
368
00:13:17,864 --> 00:13:20,598
- Whoo!
- Yeah!
369
00:13:20,700 --> 00:13:22,300
- Whoo!
370
00:13:22,402 --> 00:13:24,102
- I want to know what Justin's
getting rid of, so--
371
00:13:24,204 --> 00:13:26,738
- Yeah, JB.
- So when corona happened,
372
00:13:26,840 --> 00:13:29,774
I took off, split to Mexico,
got away as far as I could.
373
00:13:29,876 --> 00:13:33,645
If there's ever reason to split
and leave, this was it.
374
00:13:33,747 --> 00:13:34,979
Every day was different.
375
00:13:35,081 --> 00:13:36,681
Every day,
I had new experiences,
376
00:13:36,783 --> 00:13:38,216
new thoughts, new beliefs,
377
00:13:38,318 --> 00:13:41,653
Waking up and surfing,
you know, writing, music,
378
00:13:41,755 --> 00:13:43,421
the stuff that makes me thrive.
379
00:13:43,523 --> 00:13:47,458
Just tried to stay sane
in the insane.
380
00:13:47,561 --> 00:13:51,996
I realized that I really enjoy
being gone and being a nomad.
381
00:13:52,098 --> 00:13:54,332
And it kind of has
this little link as a chain.
382
00:13:54,434 --> 00:13:57,936
So for me to be chained down
to too much stuff,
383
00:13:58,038 --> 00:13:59,337
it just not--
doesn't work for me.
384
00:13:59,439 --> 00:14:01,306
So being chained down
to all that stuff.
385
00:14:01,408 --> 00:14:04,242
- My man, JB. Good work, bro.
386
00:14:04,344 --> 00:14:05,677
- Nice, buddy.
- Seriously.
387
00:14:05,779 --> 00:14:07,412
- Spencer.
- Oh, wow.
388
00:14:07,514 --> 00:14:10,748
Pre-COVID, I was 170,
and now I'm 215.
389
00:14:10,851 --> 00:14:13,785
And it's 'cause of eating
four to five pot pies a day.
390
00:14:13,887 --> 00:14:15,053
- Shut up.
391
00:14:15,155 --> 00:14:17,222
- I got into pattern
of eating a lot
392
00:14:17,324 --> 00:14:20,291
'cause I felt, like,
end of the world energy.
393
00:14:20,393 --> 00:14:23,728
I would like to get back to
the weight I was pre-pandemic,
394
00:14:23,830 --> 00:14:29,000
wear all my designer clothes
I purchased, fit that.
395
00:14:29,102 --> 00:14:30,368
No, I know it sounds silly,
396
00:14:30,470 --> 00:14:32,437
but when you spend
that much money on something
397
00:14:32,539 --> 00:14:35,506
and you can no longer wear it,
that becomes an actual problem.
398
00:14:35,609 --> 00:14:40,478
In excess, nothing is good.
[laughter]
399
00:14:40,580 --> 00:14:42,714
- One bite, one bite.
- He's like, "What am I doing?"
400
00:14:42,816 --> 00:14:44,382
- "Oh, my God!"
[laughter]
401
00:14:44,484 --> 00:14:46,184
- [sighs]
That was hard. That was hard.
402
00:14:46,286 --> 00:14:48,219
- He had a last bite.
- That was hard.
403
00:14:48,321 --> 00:14:51,689
- I have been feeling very
blessed during this coronavirus
404
00:14:51,791 --> 00:14:52,924
to have our family,
405
00:14:53,026 --> 00:14:54,459
and it really prioritizes
everything like
406
00:14:54,561 --> 00:14:56,728
we've all been talking about
and just health.
407
00:14:56,830 --> 00:15:01,699
And so I have been wanting
to have a baby for,
408
00:15:01,801 --> 00:15:03,268
like, a year and a half.
409
00:15:03,370 --> 00:15:06,170
I love my family,
and I'm so thankful for you.
410
00:15:06,273 --> 00:15:08,072
And just every day,
we have life
411
00:15:08,174 --> 00:15:09,507
is such a blessing.
412
00:15:09,609 --> 00:15:12,043
And on that note,
I really want another baby.
413
00:15:12,145 --> 00:15:14,379
So I am ready to give up
my birth control.
414
00:15:14,481 --> 00:15:16,281
And I would like to have
another baby soon.
415
00:15:16,383 --> 00:15:17,882
[applause]
That's what I have.
416
00:15:17,984 --> 00:15:19,317
- Whoo!
- Yeah!
417
00:15:19,419 --> 00:15:23,288
- Jesus, bless us with a baby.
- Nice. There you go.
418
00:15:23,390 --> 00:15:25,657
- I just feel like a baby
is always such a blessing.
419
00:15:25,759 --> 00:15:27,492
And it could be
a really good thing for us
420
00:15:27,594 --> 00:15:29,861
and to bring light
into our family.
421
00:15:29,963 --> 00:15:31,963
And God forbid if the world
is gonna get worse,
422
00:15:32,065 --> 00:15:34,766
I would want to have one sooner
and to be able to have Gunner
423
00:15:34,868 --> 00:15:37,435
and a sibling have each other
through this and for us too.
424
00:15:37,537 --> 00:15:40,038
So I just feel like a baby
could be such a blessing
425
00:15:40,140 --> 00:15:42,440
in such a hard time as well.
426
00:15:42,542 --> 00:15:44,876
- Thank you all for taking this
very seriously.
427
00:15:44,978 --> 00:15:46,411
That was--that was dope.
428
00:15:46,513 --> 00:15:48,112
You guys were all--
that was cool.
429
00:15:48,214 --> 00:15:49,347
Thank you for sharing all that.
430
00:15:49,449 --> 00:15:51,749
All right, everybody.
Closing this up.
431
00:15:51,851 --> 00:15:53,785
Pratt Daddy, grab the shovel.
432
00:15:53,887 --> 00:15:54,986
- Whoo!
- All right.
433
00:15:55,088 --> 00:15:56,554
- ♪ I get knocked down ♪
434
00:15:56,656 --> 00:15:59,057
♪ But I just keep my head up
high, high, high ♪
435
00:15:59,159 --> 00:16:02,193
♪ Oh, high, high, high ♪
436
00:16:02,295 --> 00:16:03,828
♪ Stuck on the ground ♪
437
00:16:03,930 --> 00:16:06,097
♪ But I just keep my head up
high, high, high ♪
438
00:16:06,199 --> 00:16:08,866
- X marks the spot.
439
00:16:08,969 --> 00:16:12,603
- ♪ Keeping my head up,
head up high ♪
440
00:16:12,706 --> 00:16:16,307
♪ ♪
441
00:16:16,409 --> 00:16:20,845
♪ Keeping my head up, head up ♪
442
00:16:22,983 --> 00:16:24,983
- ♪ Hey, oh ♪
443
00:16:25,085 --> 00:16:27,518
♪ Spendin' all my days
just to reach ya ♪
444
00:16:27,620 --> 00:16:31,823
♪ ♪
445
00:16:31,925 --> 00:16:34,292
- Hello.
446
00:16:34,394 --> 00:16:37,395
- Yo, yo, yo.
- Hi.
447
00:16:37,497 --> 00:16:42,166
- What are you doing?
- Well, Gunner is with Abby--
448
00:16:42,268 --> 00:16:43,468
- Oh, can't hear you.
One sec, honey.
449
00:16:43,570 --> 00:16:46,604
- Oh, okay.
[machine whirring]
450
00:16:46,706 --> 00:16:49,741
- Tired.
Gunner needs to start sleeping.
451
00:16:49,843 --> 00:16:51,676
- Well, actually he is
with Abby right now.
452
00:16:51,778 --> 00:16:56,347
So that's great.
- Got some groceries?
453
00:16:56,449 --> 00:17:01,285
- Actually, no, but I did stop
to get some pregnancy tests.
454
00:17:01,388 --> 00:17:02,854
- Baby-mode Heidi is, like,
455
00:17:02,956 --> 00:17:08,226
leading the Delta Force
A squadron of making babies.
456
00:17:08,328 --> 00:17:11,129
- The good news is
I am ovulating.
457
00:17:11,231 --> 00:17:16,000
- Pre-pandemic, she had charts
and apps and diagrams
458
00:17:16,102 --> 00:17:19,404
and frickin' timetables.
459
00:17:19,506 --> 00:17:22,473
I mean, this is real deal
strike mission that--
460
00:17:22,575 --> 00:17:27,011
I didn't sign up for this level
of, you know, expertise.
461
00:17:27,113 --> 00:17:29,714
What did the person
checking you out
462
00:17:29,816 --> 00:17:30,948
think was happening here?
463
00:17:31,051 --> 00:17:33,451
- When I buried that birth
control, I meant it.
464
00:17:33,553 --> 00:17:35,420
So here we are.
Baby mode.
465
00:17:35,522 --> 00:17:37,155
I've been ready.
I've been ready for a year.
466
00:17:37,257 --> 00:17:42,093
- I mean, I am very excited
for this clearly very serious
467
00:17:42,195 --> 00:17:43,694
baby-making schedule
you got going here.
468
00:17:43,797 --> 00:17:47,532
And I'm matching all of these
to the fun part.
469
00:17:47,634 --> 00:17:49,333
So I'm very excited about that.
470
00:17:49,436 --> 00:17:51,469
But I feel like you
are just going--[whooshes]
471
00:17:51,571 --> 00:17:52,637
- I hear what you're saying.
472
00:17:52,739 --> 00:17:55,273
I understand
what you're saying.
473
00:17:55,375 --> 00:17:57,375
Spencer and I are halfway
on the same page
474
00:17:57,477 --> 00:17:59,210
with having another baby.
475
00:17:59,312 --> 00:18:01,679
I mean, I think he's afraid
of losing Heidi
476
00:18:01,781 --> 00:18:04,115
and, like,
having so much fun with me.
477
00:18:04,217 --> 00:18:06,451
I only have so much time
to have a baby,
478
00:18:06,553 --> 00:18:08,653
and I already was putting
my plans on hold.
479
00:18:08,755 --> 00:18:11,355
- I'm just so concerned that,
once you get back into
480
00:18:11,458 --> 00:18:13,891
mom mode, like,
you forget about yourself.
481
00:18:13,993 --> 00:18:17,795
Not even me. We already know
I'm forgotten about, I'm gone.
482
00:18:17,897 --> 00:18:20,998
But I think you'd want to worry
about yourself a little bit.
483
00:18:21,101 --> 00:18:23,568
But just throwing
that out there.
484
00:18:23,670 --> 00:18:26,804
Clearly, you've already
made up the plan.
485
00:18:26,906 --> 00:18:28,873
[dramatic music]
486
00:18:28,975 --> 00:18:30,641
♪ ♪
487
00:18:30,743 --> 00:18:31,642
[upbeat music]
488
00:18:31,744 --> 00:18:34,145
- ♪ This right here ♪
489
00:18:34,247 --> 00:18:35,813
♪ That's just growing pains ♪
490
00:18:35,915 --> 00:18:39,584
♪ There ain't much
to figure out ♪
491
00:18:39,686 --> 00:18:43,788
♪ When you're stuck
in your old ways ♪
492
00:18:43,890 --> 00:18:46,924
♪ You can't let them
drag you down ♪
493
00:18:47,026 --> 00:18:50,094
♪ 'Cause we ain't stoppin'
the season's changin' ♪
494
00:18:50,196 --> 00:18:54,532
♪ Love ain't patient
we all come and go ♪
495
00:18:54,634 --> 00:18:56,267
♪ Come and go, yeah ♪
496
00:18:56,369 --> 00:18:57,335
♪ It might hurt ♪
497
00:18:57,437 --> 00:18:59,137
♪ Let it hurt, babe ♪
498
00:18:59,239 --> 00:19:02,840
♪ You ain't gotta go through
all these growing pains ♪
499
00:19:02,942 --> 00:19:04,208
- Look who it is.
Hi.
500
00:19:04,310 --> 00:19:06,477
- Oh, who's that? Oh!
Who's this little guy, Shoey?
501
00:19:06,579 --> 00:19:08,045
- This is Dash.
- Who's this little guy?
502
00:19:08,148 --> 00:19:09,447
Get him. Kill him. Kill him.
503
00:19:09,549 --> 00:19:11,849
- Go, go.
- Kill him. What's going down?
504
00:19:11,951 --> 00:19:13,184
You look good. Thought we were
gonna go hiking.
505
00:19:13,286 --> 00:19:14,752
- Really?
506
00:19:14,854 --> 00:19:15,953
- But you're dressed like
you're going to the club.
507
00:19:16,055 --> 00:19:17,955
- Yeah, I'm not going.
I'm not going hiking.
508
00:19:18,057 --> 00:19:21,859
- Kaitlynn and I, I think our
relationship ran its course.
509
00:19:21,961 --> 00:19:23,694
After we had our split,
510
00:19:23,796 --> 00:19:25,763
it was obviously tough
for both of us.
511
00:19:25,865 --> 00:19:27,932
She got into a relationship
with somebody.
512
00:19:28,034 --> 00:19:31,235
And I didn't find out
until I saw it in the press.
513
00:19:31,337 --> 00:19:33,738
Come here, Dash.
[whistles]
514
00:19:33,840 --> 00:19:36,240
But after some time had
passed,
515
00:19:36,342 --> 00:19:38,476
I realized this is where
our lives are going.
516
00:19:38,578 --> 00:19:40,645
We're gonna be separated and
we're not gonna be together.
517
00:19:40,747 --> 00:19:43,548
But let's--let's still be
in each other's lives,
518
00:19:43,650 --> 00:19:46,951
and let's still maintain
a friendship and a love.
519
00:19:47,053 --> 00:19:48,386
And we've been able to do that.
520
00:19:48,488 --> 00:19:50,087
- The party was actually
really fun the other night.
521
00:19:50,190 --> 00:19:51,622
It was nice to see everyone.
522
00:19:51,724 --> 00:19:53,357
And, like, one of the things
that I appreciated so much
523
00:19:53,459 --> 00:19:55,326
about you saying that,
like apologizing
524
00:19:55,428 --> 00:19:57,295
the other night,
was that I feel like,
525
00:19:57,397 --> 00:19:58,696
throughout the course
of our breakup,
526
00:19:58,798 --> 00:20:00,498
there has been
so much speculation about,
527
00:20:00,600 --> 00:20:02,133
like, why we broke up.
528
00:20:02,235 --> 00:20:04,669
And we've never talked about it
publicly other than just,
529
00:20:04,771 --> 00:20:06,003
like, you know,
we weren't lining up,
530
00:20:06,105 --> 00:20:07,805
things weren't the right--and
531
00:20:07,907 --> 00:20:10,541
granted you drinking
was not the only reason.
532
00:20:10,643 --> 00:20:11,776
- Right.
- But I just appreciate it
533
00:20:11,878 --> 00:20:13,544
when you, like,
said that the other night
534
00:20:13,646 --> 00:20:14,979
and just took some
like responsibility because--
535
00:20:15,081 --> 00:20:16,547
- Yeah. Of course.
- In front of everyone,
536
00:20:16,649 --> 00:20:17,582
because I think it's like,
"Okay, cool.
537
00:20:17,684 --> 00:20:18,983
There were two people."
538
00:20:19,085 --> 00:20:20,618
- Well, I think when you're
still drinking,
539
00:20:20,720 --> 00:20:21,786
you're in denial,
I think you're in denial.
540
00:20:21,888 --> 00:20:23,087
- Yeah.
541
00:20:23,189 --> 00:20:24,589
- I think there were certain
things in our marriage
542
00:20:24,691 --> 00:20:26,524
that were also driving me
to drink more than normal,
543
00:20:26,626 --> 00:20:29,093
honestly, like,
the pressure of having kids
544
00:20:29,195 --> 00:20:30,895
and stuff like that.
And so I honestly think
545
00:20:30,997 --> 00:20:33,431
that that was weighing
on me heavily.
546
00:20:33,533 --> 00:20:37,001
And it was causing me
to drink unhealthy amounts.
547
00:20:37,103 --> 00:20:38,569
- Mm-hmm.
548
00:20:38,671 --> 00:20:42,173
I think that Brody likes to use
me pressuring him
549
00:20:42,275 --> 00:20:46,110
as like a little bit of
a scapegoat for his drinking.
550
00:20:46,212 --> 00:20:48,613
I would find what Brody's
saying more hurtful
551
00:20:48,715 --> 00:20:51,582
if I didn't understand
552
00:20:51,684 --> 00:20:56,020
that he really did love me
and love our relationship.
553
00:20:56,122 --> 00:20:59,357
And I think he was committing
to having kids
554
00:20:59,459 --> 00:21:00,958
and getting married
555
00:21:01,060 --> 00:21:02,760
because he didn't want me
to go anywhere.
556
00:21:02,862 --> 00:21:06,664
- The circumstances of what
happened after our split
557
00:21:06,766 --> 00:21:08,065
catered
to that negative [bleep].
558
00:21:08,167 --> 00:21:09,634
- Mm-hmm.
559
00:21:09,736 --> 00:21:11,535
- You know, the whole like,
lesbian thing was gnarly
560
00:21:11,638 --> 00:21:13,104
'cause, like,
in our entire relationship,
561
00:21:13,206 --> 00:21:14,572
you never expressed
562
00:21:14,674 --> 00:21:16,140
that you had any interest
in females whatsoever.
563
00:21:16,242 --> 00:21:17,575
- I don't think that's
totally fair, true to say.
564
00:21:17,677 --> 00:21:19,143
- We had some fun.
- Yeah.
565
00:21:19,245 --> 00:21:21,912
- But what I'm saying
is like--yes, but you--yeah,
566
00:21:22,015 --> 00:21:24,649
but you said to me
that you weren't into girls.
567
00:21:24,751 --> 00:21:26,117
- Well, I think I had never
just met somebody
568
00:21:26,219 --> 00:21:27,351
that I was into. Like--
569
00:21:27,453 --> 00:21:28,986
- But it was a shock for me
and I think
570
00:21:29,088 --> 00:21:31,088
for a lot of people
that saw that.
571
00:21:31,190 --> 00:21:33,758
It gave them an easy way out
to be able to say,
572
00:21:33,860 --> 00:21:35,526
"Oh, she's just in it
for the fame.
573
00:21:35,628 --> 00:21:37,061
And in it for the money."
- Yeah.
574
00:21:37,163 --> 00:21:39,897
I had never really imagined
that I would end up
575
00:21:39,999 --> 00:21:44,402
going from one pretty public
relationship into another.
576
00:21:44,504 --> 00:21:46,237
But when she and I broke up,
577
00:21:46,339 --> 00:21:48,472
that was the hardest time
of my life
578
00:21:48,574 --> 00:21:50,441
because I was really on my own
579
00:21:50,543 --> 00:21:54,045
and kind of in the center
of a lot of attention.
580
00:21:54,147 --> 00:21:56,247
And I think being able
to rediscover who I am
581
00:21:56,349 --> 00:22:00,484
as a person
on my own completely
582
00:22:00,586 --> 00:22:02,687
just gave me a new outlook
on everything.
583
00:22:02,789 --> 00:22:04,455
You know,
it was just like a cycle
584
00:22:04,557 --> 00:22:07,058
of a number of things
that weren't aligning,
585
00:22:07,160 --> 00:22:10,461
which is basically
what we eventually realized.
586
00:22:10,563 --> 00:22:12,229
- I don't think it was
anybody's fault either.
587
00:22:12,332 --> 00:22:13,497
You know,
we still love each other.
588
00:22:13,599 --> 00:22:14,699
It was still
so much love there.
589
00:22:14,801 --> 00:22:16,133
But I feel like, at that point,
590
00:22:16,235 --> 00:22:17,735
there was a lot of damage
that had been done.
591
00:22:17,837 --> 00:22:19,470
- Just seeing the changes
that you've made,
592
00:22:19,572 --> 00:22:21,005
it does make me think like,
593
00:22:21,107 --> 00:22:23,874
what if these changes had
happened before we broke up,
594
00:22:23,976 --> 00:22:25,443
what things
would have been like.
595
00:22:25,545 --> 00:22:27,244
- I think we were stuck
in a rut, you know?
596
00:22:27,347 --> 00:22:31,148
And now our relationship
is so much stronger, I think.
597
00:22:31,250 --> 00:22:33,451
- Well, I think that that's
the thing that's interesting
598
00:22:33,553 --> 00:22:34,952
'cause I feel like now
we're, like,
599
00:22:35,054 --> 00:22:36,587
resolving everything
and talking things through
600
00:22:36,689 --> 00:22:38,089
and having these really
transparent conversations,
601
00:22:38,191 --> 00:22:42,793
which I guess I wish
we could have done back then.
602
00:22:42,895 --> 00:22:44,762
- ♪ I can be steady ♪
603
00:22:44,864 --> 00:22:47,098
♪ I can be stronger ♪
604
00:22:47,200 --> 00:22:49,900
♪ Without you ♪
605
00:22:55,241 --> 00:22:56,474
- ♪ Prisoner, prisoner ♪
606
00:22:56,576 --> 00:22:58,376
♪ Locked up,
can't get you off my mind ♪
607
00:22:58,478 --> 00:23:00,010
♪ Off my mind ♪
608
00:23:00,113 --> 00:23:02,413
♪ Lord knows
I tried a million times ♪
609
00:23:02,515 --> 00:23:03,647
♪ Million times ♪
610
00:23:03,750 --> 00:23:04,849
♪ Oh, whoa ♪
611
00:23:04,951 --> 00:23:07,451
♪ Why can't you,
why can't you ♪
612
00:23:07,553 --> 00:23:08,452
♪ Just let me go? ♪
613
00:23:08,554 --> 00:23:11,322
♪ ♪
614
00:23:11,424 --> 00:23:13,391
- ♪ Strung out on a feeling ♪
615
00:23:13,493 --> 00:23:14,458
- Hello.
- Hi.
616
00:23:14,560 --> 00:23:16,260
- How are you?
- Hi.
617
00:23:16,362 --> 00:23:17,628
- Hey.
- You look so beautiful.
618
00:23:17,730 --> 00:23:20,364
- Look at this little one.
- This is Rainbow.
619
00:23:20,466 --> 00:23:21,599
- So cute. Hi.
- You too.
620
00:23:21,701 --> 00:23:23,234
- I brought a couple options.
- Okay.
621
00:23:23,336 --> 00:23:24,635
- I need your help.
- Great.
622
00:23:24,737 --> 00:23:26,871
- I have not been on a date
in so long.
623
00:23:26,973 --> 00:23:29,140
- Audrina has a little bit
of a tendency
624
00:23:29,242 --> 00:23:31,809
to go back to the same guys,
so I was excited
625
00:23:31,911 --> 00:23:34,245
to see that she buried
her little, black book.
626
00:23:34,347 --> 00:23:36,514
And I like to think of myself
as a matchmaker.
627
00:23:36,616 --> 00:23:38,449
Spencer and I have been
thinking for a while now
628
00:23:38,551 --> 00:23:41,552
that we should set you up
with Sean Stewart.
629
00:23:41,654 --> 00:23:42,887
He's Rod Stewart's son.
- Mm-mm.
630
00:23:42,989 --> 00:23:44,588
- You know, the famous
rock 'n' roll king.
631
00:23:44,690 --> 00:23:46,090
- I mean,
I know Rod Stewart is.
632
00:23:46,192 --> 00:23:47,425
- Okay, all right.
633
00:23:47,527 --> 00:23:49,760
But it occurred to me,
I have the perfect guy for her
634
00:23:49,862 --> 00:23:52,863
who isn't Justin Bobby
or Ryan Cabrera.
635
00:23:52,965 --> 00:23:54,632
- I don't want to, like,
go over the top
636
00:23:54,734 --> 00:23:56,300
and I want to be comfortable.
- Yeah.
637
00:23:56,402 --> 00:23:58,169
And you don't want to give off
the wrong message like,
638
00:23:58,271 --> 00:24:00,037
"Hey, I'm COVID ready."
639
00:24:00,139 --> 00:24:02,072
- I'm here!
- I'm ready to date!
640
00:24:02,175 --> 00:24:03,541
- I think I'm gonna wear this.
- Yeah.
641
00:24:03,643 --> 00:24:04,975
- It's kind of effortless.
- Super pretty.
642
00:24:05,077 --> 00:24:07,778
- And then just high-waisted
jeans with earrings
643
00:24:07,880 --> 00:24:09,480
and like my jewelry
and just some heels.
644
00:24:09,582 --> 00:24:10,915
- Totally.
- Right?
645
00:24:11,017 --> 00:24:12,616
- Well, I want to propose
a toast
646
00:24:12,718 --> 00:24:14,351
to you to going on a date...
647
00:24:14,454 --> 00:24:16,053
- Thank you.
648
00:24:16,155 --> 00:24:20,124
- To put yourself out there and
to move forward in your life.
649
00:24:20,226 --> 00:24:21,592
- Yeah.
650
00:24:21,694 --> 00:24:22,993
I promised myself that
651
00:24:23,095 --> 00:24:24,261
I would have a whole new way
of dealing with men.
652
00:24:24,363 --> 00:24:26,363
I do have a lot of pressure
from all my friends,
653
00:24:26,466 --> 00:24:28,666
my family
that never wants to see me
654
00:24:28,768 --> 00:24:31,302
in another toxic relationship
ever again.
655
00:24:31,404 --> 00:24:33,337
I'm gonna change.
- Okay.
656
00:24:33,439 --> 00:24:35,873
- And then I guess
I'll just start touching up.
657
00:24:35,975 --> 00:24:39,243
My biggest priority
is to be the best example
658
00:24:39,345 --> 00:24:41,145
for my daughter that I can be.
659
00:24:41,247 --> 00:24:44,882
You know, I'm gonna guide her
and show her by actions
660
00:24:44,984 --> 00:24:47,151
of how people should treat you.
661
00:24:47,253 --> 00:24:49,086
And if they don't treat you
a certain way,
662
00:24:49,188 --> 00:24:50,387
this is what you do.
663
00:24:50,490 --> 00:24:53,557
You don't just let them do it
over and over again.
664
00:24:53,659 --> 00:24:55,526
- Okay, what do you think?
- Oh, my gosh.
665
00:24:55,628 --> 00:24:59,363
That's like so slimming,
so beautiful.
666
00:24:59,465 --> 00:25:00,931
Just enough rock 'n' roll.
667
00:25:01,033 --> 00:25:02,700
- Did I hear a bottle pop?
- Hi.
668
00:25:02,802 --> 00:25:04,802
- Oh, hey.
- Oh, honey.
669
00:25:04,904 --> 00:25:06,971
- Oh.
- How are you?
670
00:25:07,073 --> 00:25:08,472
- We have to cheers to this.
- Hi.
671
00:25:08,574 --> 00:25:10,541
- So good to see you.
Oh, my gosh.
672
00:25:10,643 --> 00:25:12,843
- Audrina is going
on a date with Sean.
673
00:25:12,945 --> 00:25:15,913
- Sean is always a lot of fun.
- I trust you guys.
674
00:25:16,015 --> 00:25:17,481
You've known him,
and it's like,
675
00:25:17,583 --> 00:25:19,283
I'm just gonna go out
and have fun, see what happens.
676
00:25:19,385 --> 00:25:22,853
- Rewind, rewind, pre-pandemic,
what happened to Brody?
677
00:25:22,955 --> 00:25:24,855
I thought that was
who we were--
678
00:25:24,957 --> 00:25:26,790
- Brody and I are just--
we've always been friendly,
679
00:25:26,893 --> 00:25:29,560
but it never went anything
more than that.
680
00:25:29,662 --> 00:25:30,995
- I always hear a different
version
681
00:25:31,097 --> 00:25:33,831
of that from Brody, so--but--
- What do you hear?
682
00:25:33,933 --> 00:25:36,467
- I don't know. Yeah, Spencer.
- No, I'm just saying.
683
00:25:36,569 --> 00:25:38,736
- Give us the guys side.
- When he talks about Audrina,
684
00:25:38,838 --> 00:25:41,171
it's not like,
"Oh, that's my friend."
685
00:25:41,274 --> 00:25:42,540
- I've heard him say
how hot you are.
686
00:25:42,642 --> 00:25:43,874
- Yeah, like--
687
00:25:43,976 --> 00:25:45,276
- Getting me all hot.
- Here you go.
688
00:25:45,378 --> 00:25:47,745
Wait, what are your thoughts
on--what are your thoughts
689
00:25:47,847 --> 00:25:48,979
on kissing on the first date?
690
00:25:49,081 --> 00:25:50,447
- No.
- Oh, Heidi, settle down.
691
00:25:50,550 --> 00:25:51,715
- No, no, no.
- God, Heidi.
692
00:25:51,817 --> 00:25:53,684
- Just wondering.
- No, not anymore.
693
00:25:53,786 --> 00:25:54,885
- Heidi!
- No way.
694
00:25:54,987 --> 00:25:55,986
- Excuse Heidi.
- Especially COVID.
695
00:25:56,088 --> 00:25:57,321
- What about other things?
696
00:25:57,423 --> 00:25:59,523
- Heidi's been watching
too much Netflix.
697
00:25:59,625 --> 00:26:01,959
- ♪ I just got the key
They let me in, no ID ♪
698
00:26:02,061 --> 00:26:03,961
♪ Doors openin' up
for me and now I see ♪
699
00:26:04,063 --> 00:26:06,964
♪ I've been blind
for a while now ♪
700
00:26:07,066 --> 00:26:09,934
♪ I've been blind
for a while now ♪
701
00:26:10,036 --> 00:26:11,435
♪ Let's go! ♪
702
00:26:11,537 --> 00:26:13,804
♪ I just got the key
they let me in, no ID ♪
703
00:26:13,906 --> 00:26:16,073
♪ Doors openin' up for me
and now I see ♪
704
00:26:16,175 --> 00:26:18,342
- Oh, out with the old,
in with this new, huh?
705
00:26:18,444 --> 00:26:20,277
- Out with the old,
in with the new, my friend.
706
00:26:20,379 --> 00:26:24,348
- Like this. Down to partake.
- I actually like painting.
707
00:26:24,450 --> 00:26:27,751
Figure, uh, change it up,
maybe just a little--
708
00:26:27,853 --> 00:26:29,687
- Whoa! Yeah!
- Throw up some yellow up here.
709
00:26:29,789 --> 00:26:31,121
- Look at Justin's glasses,
man.
710
00:26:31,223 --> 00:26:33,624
[laughter]
- That's so sick.
711
00:26:33,726 --> 00:26:35,693
- Of course, Brandon
What's up, buddy?
712
00:26:35,795 --> 00:26:37,461
- What's up?
Where's the roller?
713
00:26:37,563 --> 00:26:38,796
I'm not gonna lie, dude.
714
00:26:38,898 --> 00:26:39,897
I don't think I've ever
painted a wall before.
715
00:26:39,999 --> 00:26:41,231
- Really?
- Real work, huh?
716
00:26:41,334 --> 00:26:42,433
- It's actually--it's actually
kind of nice.
717
00:26:42,535 --> 00:26:43,667
- Real work, huh?
718
00:26:43,769 --> 00:26:45,836
- Dude, I just pretend
for a living.
719
00:26:45,938 --> 00:26:47,638
- Yeah, I don't think
Brandon's ever done
720
00:26:47,740 --> 00:26:51,241
manual labor in his life,
to be honest.
721
00:26:51,344 --> 00:26:53,444
- So you're done? You're done
with drinking now, huh?
722
00:26:53,546 --> 00:26:56,246
- This is, like, been the
craziest forced vacation ever,
723
00:26:56,349 --> 00:26:58,048
where you have
a lot of time to think.
724
00:26:58,150 --> 00:27:01,318
A lot of it was like,
"Dude, I'm sick of, like,
725
00:27:01,420 --> 00:27:03,387
feeling like shit
all the time, drinking."
726
00:27:03,489 --> 00:27:04,655
I'm 37 years old.
727
00:27:04,757 --> 00:27:07,091
I need to like really utilize
my full potential.
728
00:27:07,193 --> 00:27:08,225
And Kaitlynn would tell me,
like,
729
00:27:08,327 --> 00:27:09,593
"Dude,
you should stop drinking."
730
00:27:09,695 --> 00:27:12,663
Honestly, throughout our whole
relationship, I was like,
731
00:27:12,765 --> 00:27:14,932
"No," 'cause I wasn't ready.
732
00:27:15,034 --> 00:27:17,101
- Well, then who's--
you got a new-new then?
733
00:27:17,203 --> 00:27:18,502
With all the sobriety and--
734
00:27:18,604 --> 00:27:20,904
- Dude, honestly,
women and girls
735
00:27:21,007 --> 00:27:23,507
are like the last thing
motivating me right now.
736
00:27:23,609 --> 00:27:24,875
I think like that's--
737
00:27:24,977 --> 00:27:26,610
all that would do
is just make me drink again.
738
00:27:26,712 --> 00:27:27,811
- What about you, Brandon?
739
00:27:27,913 --> 00:27:29,179
I haven't seen you
or heard anything.
740
00:27:29,281 --> 00:27:32,116
- It's complicated
a little bit.
741
00:27:32,218 --> 00:27:35,786
Before corona,
I met this girl Daniella.
742
00:27:35,888 --> 00:27:38,689
Right away, I was like,
infatuated with her.
743
00:27:38,791 --> 00:27:41,759
I'm a romantic. I feel like
everybody knows this already.
744
00:27:41,861 --> 00:27:44,261
When I like somebody,
I'm like,
745
00:27:44,363 --> 00:27:46,897
[bleep] all the bull[bleep].
I'm moving fast.
746
00:27:46,999 --> 00:27:49,333
So we started dating
for like two months, right?
747
00:27:49,435 --> 00:27:52,836
And everything was perfect,
then corona happened,
748
00:27:52,938 --> 00:27:54,338
the lockdowns happened.
749
00:27:54,440 --> 00:27:56,073
I'm like, this is brutal.
So she moved in with me.
750
00:27:56,175 --> 00:27:58,542
- After how long did you
know her, you moved her in?
751
00:27:58,644 --> 00:28:00,811
- Three, four months.
752
00:28:00,913 --> 00:28:01,812
- I think it was just like we
weren't ready
753
00:28:01,914 --> 00:28:03,313
to live together yet.
754
00:28:03,416 --> 00:28:06,216
It got a little complicated,
so we split.
755
00:28:06,318 --> 00:28:07,885
Like ever since then, dude,
I've just missed her
756
00:28:07,987 --> 00:28:10,120
so [...] much, like.
757
00:28:10,222 --> 00:28:15,693
During this pandemic, I mean,
I've struggled with progress,
758
00:28:15,795 --> 00:28:17,261
personally and professionally.
759
00:28:17,363 --> 00:28:19,596
It made me feel like
the universe was making me
760
00:28:19,699 --> 00:28:22,466
take a giant sidestep
and a step to the back.
761
00:28:22,568 --> 00:28:24,001
You know, I feel like
that's a big reason
762
00:28:24,103 --> 00:28:27,004
why my relationship
just got so [bleep] up.
763
00:28:27,106 --> 00:28:30,207
You know, my anxiety is not
able to process my worries
764
00:28:30,309 --> 00:28:31,408
and someone else's worries.
765
00:28:31,510 --> 00:28:32,743
- Are you guys still
talking right now?
766
00:28:32,845 --> 00:28:35,012
- Yeah, like,
we still talk sometimes.
767
00:28:35,114 --> 00:28:37,548
- Do you think, like, if she
was with somebody else,
768
00:28:37,650 --> 00:28:39,650
you'd be all right?
- No.
769
00:28:39,752 --> 00:28:42,720
I didn't do the best job the
first time around showing her
770
00:28:42,822 --> 00:28:46,824
how much I appreciated her
and I know I can do that now.
771
00:28:46,926 --> 00:28:49,860
And I want her to feel secure
and special
772
00:28:49,962 --> 00:28:51,495
and like she's my girl.
773
00:28:51,597 --> 00:28:53,063
So I've been trying
to figure out what to do.
774
00:28:53,165 --> 00:28:54,798
And I think I'm just gonna
tell her how I feel,
775
00:28:54,900 --> 00:28:56,333
apologize for everything,
776
00:28:56,435 --> 00:28:59,269
and tell her, like,
I think we should be together.
777
00:28:59,371 --> 00:29:01,138
- Well, good luck, man.
I hope it works out.
778
00:29:01,240 --> 00:29:03,674
- I don't think I can really
just be without her.
779
00:29:03,776 --> 00:29:05,542
- There you go.
I'm proud of you.
780
00:29:05,644 --> 00:29:07,478
♪ ♪
781
00:29:12,651 --> 00:29:14,818
- ♪ Hey, boy, won't you come,
come around town ♪
782
00:29:14,920 --> 00:29:15,953
♪ Hey, hey, boy ♪
783
00:29:16,055 --> 00:29:17,988
♪ Oh ♪
784
00:29:18,090 --> 00:29:19,823
♪ Hey boy, better run,
better run now ♪
785
00:29:19,925 --> 00:29:21,492
♪ I say hey, boy ♪
786
00:29:21,594 --> 00:29:22,826
♪ Oh ♪
787
00:29:22,928 --> 00:29:24,261
♪ When you pull up,
pull up, pull up ♪
788
00:29:24,363 --> 00:29:26,630
♪ In your hoopty ride boy,
okay, boy ♪
789
00:29:26,732 --> 00:29:28,065
♪ Oh ♪
790
00:29:28,167 --> 00:29:29,967
♪ Hey, boy, better run,
better run now ♪
791
00:29:30,069 --> 00:29:32,536
♪ I say hey, boy ♪
792
00:29:32,638 --> 00:29:33,637
Hey, boy!
793
00:29:33,739 --> 00:29:34,705
- Sean.
794
00:29:34,807 --> 00:29:36,073
- Hi.
- Hi.
795
00:29:36,175 --> 00:29:37,574
- What are we doing,
social distancing hugs?
796
00:29:37,676 --> 00:29:39,009
- Get this thing off, right?
- Elbows or--
797
00:29:39,111 --> 00:29:40,244
- I mean, I'm COVID-free.
Are you?
798
00:29:40,346 --> 00:29:42,079
- Yes, I am.
- Okay.
799
00:29:42,181 --> 00:29:43,413
- Okay, let's hug.
- Hugs, okay.
800
00:29:43,516 --> 00:29:45,382
- I got you something.
Got you some flowers.
801
00:29:45,484 --> 00:29:47,284
- Oh, thank you so much.
- There you go.
802
00:29:47,386 --> 00:29:48,819
- These are beautiful.
- No problem.
803
00:29:48,921 --> 00:29:49,987
You look beautiful by the way.
804
00:29:50,089 --> 00:29:51,221
- Thank you.
805
00:29:52,792 --> 00:29:55,559
[sighs]
I can breathe now.
806
00:29:55,661 --> 00:29:57,528
- [sighs]
- [chuckles]
807
00:29:57,630 --> 00:30:00,230
[soft upbeat music]
808
00:30:00,332 --> 00:30:04,067
I have not been on a date
in I don't know how long.
809
00:30:04,170 --> 00:30:05,969
- I haven't been in a date
in a long time, either.
810
00:30:06,071 --> 00:30:10,007
♪ ♪
811
00:30:10,109 --> 00:30:11,809
- [chuckles]
812
00:30:11,911 --> 00:30:15,179
Yeah, dating in COVID.
Here we are.
813
00:30:15,281 --> 00:30:18,415
First dates
are very nerve-racking.
814
00:30:18,517 --> 00:30:21,118
It's like I have to remember,
this is not an interview
815
00:30:21,220 --> 00:30:22,853
to get married or something.
816
00:30:22,955 --> 00:30:24,988
What's your sign?
- Virgo.
817
00:30:25,090 --> 00:30:26,356
- You've got great skin.
- Thank you.
818
00:30:26,458 --> 00:30:27,724
I get it from my mom
and my dad.
819
00:30:27,827 --> 00:30:28,759
[chuckling]
820
00:30:28,861 --> 00:30:29,860
- I'm just used to like--
[trills]
821
00:30:29,962 --> 00:30:31,061
[chuckles]
822
00:30:31,163 --> 00:30:33,497
This is not me committing
to anything.
823
00:30:33,599 --> 00:30:36,900
It's just committing to change
and taking that step forward.
824
00:30:37,002 --> 00:30:40,037
- What makes you smile?
- My daughter.
825
00:30:40,139 --> 00:30:41,238
- Oh, that's cute.
- I know.
826
00:30:41,340 --> 00:30:43,574
I--my little girl
is everything to me.
827
00:30:43,676 --> 00:30:46,410
And yeah, it's like
a huge priority for me.
828
00:30:46,512 --> 00:30:48,345
- That's awesome.
- Just being a mom and--
829
00:30:48,447 --> 00:30:50,047
I have a niece...
- You have a niece? How old?
830
00:30:50,149 --> 00:30:51,081
- That's 8 1/2.
- 8 1/2.
831
00:30:51,183 --> 00:30:52,282
- Yeah.
- That's a fun age.
832
00:30:52,384 --> 00:30:54,451
Did you grow up in L.A.?
- Grew up in Malibu.
833
00:30:54,553 --> 00:30:55,719
My parents got divorced
when I was six.
834
00:30:55,821 --> 00:30:56,987
- Okay.
835
00:30:57,089 --> 00:30:58,455
- And then--here,
let me get that for you.
836
00:30:58,557 --> 00:30:59,356
- Oh, thank you.
837
00:30:59,458 --> 00:31:00,757
- I'm a gentleman.
- Thanks.
838
00:31:00,860 --> 00:31:02,426
- Sorry, I should have offered.
- It's okay.
839
00:31:02,528 --> 00:31:05,996
Um, how is that with
the divorce and everything?
840
00:31:06,098 --> 00:31:07,464
Was it hard?
I'm sure, at six years old.
841
00:31:07,566 --> 00:31:09,700
- It was difficult.
It was difficult.
842
00:31:09,802 --> 00:31:13,036
So it's like--for me, it's like
I'm a son from divorce.
843
00:31:13,138 --> 00:31:15,172
So it's like,
when I have a kid,
844
00:31:15,274 --> 00:31:17,708
no matter what the girl does,
I'm not gonna divorce her
845
00:31:17,810 --> 00:31:21,044
'cause I don't want my kid
to go through that, you know?
846
00:31:21,146 --> 00:31:22,512
- See, I come from a family
847
00:31:22,615 --> 00:31:25,949
that not one person
in my family ever got divorced.
848
00:31:26,051 --> 00:31:27,284
And it was like
when you get married,
849
00:31:27,386 --> 00:31:29,019
you stay married
no matter what.
850
00:31:29,121 --> 00:31:30,554
- Yeah.
851
00:31:30,656 --> 00:31:32,756
- My parents have been
together since they were--
852
00:31:32,858 --> 00:31:33,924
gosh,
they've known each other
853
00:31:34,026 --> 00:31:35,559
since they were in
the seventh grade.
854
00:31:35,661 --> 00:31:38,028
And, you know,
my dad's my hero.
855
00:31:38,130 --> 00:31:40,464
And it's crazy that,
in the past,
856
00:31:40,566 --> 00:31:45,302
I didn't choose someone
that was more like my dad.
857
00:31:45,404 --> 00:31:47,905
In my 20s, I just--
I guess I kind of rebelled
858
00:31:48,007 --> 00:31:50,240
and I went for the bad guys
all the time.
859
00:31:50,342 --> 00:31:52,743
I went for these guys
that treated me so bad.
860
00:31:52,845 --> 00:31:55,379
It's just--I don't know why.
861
00:31:55,481 --> 00:31:57,447
So I was at Heidi
and Spencer's earlier,
862
00:31:57,549 --> 00:31:58,982
and that's what he was saying,
like,
863
00:31:59,084 --> 00:32:01,451
"I've known Sean for so long.
He's such a great guy."
864
00:32:01,553 --> 00:32:03,553
- Their son is so cute.
- Gunner is the best. I know.
865
00:32:03,656 --> 00:32:05,022
- Oh, my God.
He's such a cute little guy.
866
00:32:05,124 --> 00:32:07,557
- When he's in like
that jujitsu and--
867
00:32:07,660 --> 00:32:09,793
- That's what I want
when I have a kid.
868
00:32:09,895 --> 00:32:12,195
I want it in like boxing, UFC.
869
00:32:12,298 --> 00:32:14,364
- When I was 17,
my sister and I,
870
00:32:14,466 --> 00:32:17,801
my mom put us in Muay-do,
which was like karate, so--
871
00:32:17,903 --> 00:32:21,571
- So show me your moo-de-poo.
872
00:32:21,674 --> 00:32:22,873
- "Moo-de-poo"?
873
00:32:22,975 --> 00:32:24,107
- Moo-de--what is
it called again?
874
00:32:24,209 --> 00:32:27,110
- Muay-do.
- Show me your moo-de-do.
875
00:32:27,212 --> 00:32:29,112
- I mean,
I remember some stuff,
876
00:32:29,214 --> 00:32:32,316
like the roundhouse,
like, hyah!
877
00:32:32,418 --> 00:32:36,186
- Give us a mu-ay-do. Ow!
- [laughs]
878
00:32:36,288 --> 00:32:37,921
- This is what I hated
in high school.
879
00:32:38,023 --> 00:32:41,024
Okay, here we go.
Mu-ay-do!
880
00:32:41,126 --> 00:32:44,161
- Oh, [bleep].
[laughter]
881
00:32:44,263 --> 00:32:45,963
- That was incredible.
Honest to God...
882
00:32:46,065 --> 00:32:47,297
- I didn't even get to kick.
883
00:32:47,399 --> 00:32:49,599
- That made my--
that made my night.
884
00:32:49,702 --> 00:32:51,935
- ♪ Thought that I found love
before ♪
885
00:32:52,037 --> 00:32:53,437
♪ Maybe I was wrong ♪
886
00:32:53,539 --> 00:32:56,406
- He's nothing like the guys
I've dated in the past.
887
00:32:56,508 --> 00:32:58,442
He's very goofy,
and he's very quirky.
888
00:32:58,544 --> 00:33:01,111
But I can see there's
something charming about Sean,
889
00:33:01,213 --> 00:33:02,679
and I kind of
want to know more.
890
00:33:02,781 --> 00:33:05,515
Yeah, you're definitely
not like a typical L.A. guy.
891
00:33:05,617 --> 00:33:07,818
- No. We just have a--seems
like we have lot in common.
892
00:33:07,920 --> 00:33:09,419
- Yeah, we do.
893
00:33:09,521 --> 00:33:12,789
♪ Ooh-ooh-ooh-ooh, ooh-ooh-ooh
I need love ♪
894
00:33:12,891 --> 00:33:15,959
♪ Ooh-ooh-ooh-ooh,
ooh-ooh-ooh I need love ♪
895
00:33:16,061 --> 00:33:19,529
♪ Ooh-ooh-ooh-ooh, ooh-ooh-ooh
I need love ♪
896
00:33:19,631 --> 00:33:22,566
["Rise Up" by Nick Kingsley &
Daniel Farrant]
897
00:33:22,668 --> 00:33:28,805
♪ ♪
898
00:33:28,907 --> 00:33:31,842
- Not having Dani around
really makes me miss
899
00:33:31,944 --> 00:33:34,745
taking care of her,
just being there for her.
900
00:33:34,847 --> 00:33:38,415
I need to prove to her that I
know that I made a mistake.
901
00:33:38,517 --> 00:33:39,816
You know, my anxiety
is definitely something
902
00:33:39,918 --> 00:33:43,186
that I'm aware of
and constantly working on.
903
00:33:43,288 --> 00:33:48,392
♪ ♪
904
00:33:48,494 --> 00:33:50,260
I know that
in order to get Dani back,
905
00:33:50,362 --> 00:33:52,396
I have to do
something special.
906
00:33:52,498 --> 00:33:55,232
It needs to be one of a kind.
It needs to be forever.
907
00:33:55,334 --> 00:33:58,001
- ♪ Rise up
and face the demon ♪
908
00:33:58,103 --> 00:33:59,703
♪ Rise up ♪
909
00:33:59,805 --> 00:34:03,507
♪ Rise up and dry your tears,
yeah ♪
910
00:34:06,845 --> 00:34:09,713
[upbeat music]
911
00:34:09,815 --> 00:34:10,947
♪ ♪
912
00:34:11,050 --> 00:34:14,251
- ♪ Ooh-ooh-ooh-ooh-oh ♪
913
00:34:14,353 --> 00:34:17,621
♪ Do you remember ♪
914
00:34:17,723 --> 00:34:21,658
♪ Ooh-ooh-ooh-ooh-oh ♪
915
00:34:21,760 --> 00:34:24,261
♪ Do you remember ♪
916
00:34:24,363 --> 00:34:26,229
- Hi.
- Hello.
917
00:34:26,331 --> 00:34:28,331
- How are you?
- Good. How are you?
918
00:34:28,434 --> 00:34:30,100
- I need you to put this
blindfold on.
919
00:34:30,202 --> 00:34:31,935
- Okay.
920
00:34:32,037 --> 00:34:35,172
Where are you taking me?
- You got to trust me.
921
00:34:35,274 --> 00:34:36,306
♪ ♪
922
00:34:36,408 --> 00:34:38,642
- I'm nervous.
- Stay right here.
923
00:34:38,744 --> 00:34:45,515
♪ ♪
924
00:34:49,288 --> 00:34:50,821
- Don't take it off yet.
925
00:34:50,923 --> 00:34:53,457
Come here. Careful.
926
00:34:53,559 --> 00:34:58,161
♪ ♪
927
00:34:58,263 --> 00:35:00,997
All right. This way, this way,
this way, this way. Ready?
928
00:35:01,100 --> 00:35:02,866
- Okay.
929
00:35:02,968 --> 00:35:06,036
♪ ♪
930
00:35:06,138 --> 00:35:11,208
Oh my--Brandon! Wow.
931
00:35:11,310 --> 00:35:13,143
- You want to have a seat?
- Yeah.
932
00:35:13,245 --> 00:35:14,778
- Great.
933
00:35:14,880 --> 00:35:16,947
♪ ♪
934
00:35:17,049 --> 00:35:18,682
- Oh, my gosh.
935
00:35:18,784 --> 00:35:20,183
♪ ♪
936
00:35:20,285 --> 00:35:21,885
- [sighs]
937
00:35:21,987 --> 00:35:23,787
- This is so beautiful.
938
00:35:23,889 --> 00:35:26,923
- Right?
- Yeah, this is crazy.
939
00:35:27,025 --> 00:35:29,860
- I've been thinking about
doing this for a while.
940
00:35:29,962 --> 00:35:32,395
During COVID,
I was so stressed, like,
941
00:35:32,498 --> 00:35:33,663
"When am I gonna go back
to work?"
942
00:35:33,765 --> 00:35:35,098
- Yeah.
- "I'm not gonna be able
943
00:35:35,200 --> 00:35:36,666
"to afford my house.
944
00:35:36,768 --> 00:35:39,636
What am I gonna do with Dani?
Like, this is brutal."
945
00:35:39,738 --> 00:35:42,405
I felt like I had, like,
no space for my problems
946
00:35:42,508 --> 00:35:44,341
to, like, go deal with those
947
00:35:44,443 --> 00:35:46,710
and not have it affect us,
you know?
948
00:35:46,812 --> 00:35:49,045
That's not where I ever want
to be with you.
949
00:35:49,148 --> 00:35:52,382
You're the most amazing person
I've ever met in my life.
950
00:35:52,484 --> 00:35:54,184
Like out here,
when I'm alone with you
951
00:35:54,286 --> 00:35:56,920
and when I'm not thinking about
anything else in the world,
952
00:35:57,022 --> 00:36:00,423
like, I know you're the person
that I want to be with.
953
00:36:00,526 --> 00:36:02,192
- It's just hard because, like,
I feel like
954
00:36:02,294 --> 00:36:05,262
every time you get scared
or stressed out or something
955
00:36:05,364 --> 00:36:06,630
and your life
is stressing you out,
956
00:36:06,732 --> 00:36:09,299
you kind of just close me off
and don't want me there.
957
00:36:09,401 --> 00:36:11,067
I just felt kind of like
a burden almost
958
00:36:11,170 --> 00:36:14,371
'cause I was like, "He doesn't
really even think of me."
959
00:36:14,473 --> 00:36:15,872
And I just like--it's hard
960
00:36:15,974 --> 00:36:18,575
for me to know
that you're serious this time.
961
00:36:18,677 --> 00:36:20,410
- Dani means the world to me.
962
00:36:20,512 --> 00:36:22,112
Everything feels so natural
with her.
963
00:36:22,214 --> 00:36:23,547
She's very genuine.
964
00:36:23,649 --> 00:36:25,081
During quarantine,
965
00:36:25,184 --> 00:36:26,917
we were going through it
for a while.
966
00:36:27,019 --> 00:36:29,386
There were spots, you know,
where we, like,
967
00:36:29,488 --> 00:36:31,288
for a couple of days,
would take a break.
968
00:36:31,390 --> 00:36:33,356
I think she just wants to know
969
00:36:33,458 --> 00:36:35,725
that I'm not gonna
leave her hanging again.
970
00:36:35,827 --> 00:36:37,661
More than anything
in the world,
971
00:36:37,763 --> 00:36:39,396
I think if anything deserves
a chance,
972
00:36:39,498 --> 00:36:40,530
it's this relationship.
973
00:36:40,632 --> 00:36:43,633
♪ ♪
974
00:36:43,735 --> 00:36:45,035
- But you just have
to also know that,
975
00:36:45,137 --> 00:36:47,671
like, being together
and getting back together
976
00:36:47,773 --> 00:36:49,706
isn't just about
doing stuff like this.
977
00:36:49,808 --> 00:36:54,511
It's about putting in the work
every single day, you know?
978
00:36:54,613 --> 00:36:57,080
- I know.
I know that now.
979
00:36:57,182 --> 00:36:59,516
I kind of have something else
to show you.
980
00:36:59,618 --> 00:37:00,684
- What do you have?
981
00:37:00,786 --> 00:37:01,985
- I just wanted
to make something
982
00:37:02,087 --> 00:37:04,120
that really kind of showed
how I felt.
983
00:37:04,223 --> 00:37:07,057
And whether it's good or not,
I don't know.
984
00:37:08,727 --> 00:37:12,429
I wrote a song.
[laughter]
985
00:37:12,531 --> 00:37:13,730
- Aw.
986
00:37:13,832 --> 00:37:17,801
- I think it shows how much
I love you.
987
00:37:17,903 --> 00:37:19,970
♪ Is it too late? ♪
- This is you?
988
00:37:20,072 --> 00:37:21,905
- Yeah.
- ♪ Should I call you ♪
989
00:37:22,007 --> 00:37:23,907
♪ Should I tell you
that I miss you? ♪
990
00:37:24,009 --> 00:37:26,109
- Brandon,
I'm actually gonna cry.
991
00:37:26,211 --> 00:37:28,778
- ♪ Feeling heartbroken,
stumbling ♪
992
00:37:28,880 --> 00:37:32,148
♪ Girl, I need you ♪
993
00:37:32,251 --> 00:37:37,454
♪ I know that it's hard,
but we'll pull through ♪
994
00:37:37,556 --> 00:37:38,855
- Baby.
995
00:37:38,957 --> 00:37:39,789
- ♪ 'Cause I've been stuck
on you ♪
996
00:37:39,891 --> 00:37:41,157
♪ Don't know what to do ♪
997
00:37:41,260 --> 00:37:44,127
♪ For the lips
that keep me goin' ♪
998
00:37:44,229 --> 00:37:47,030
♪ Through the dark,
your heart is showin' ♪
999
00:37:47,132 --> 00:37:49,866
♪ Warm you up
when it gets cold out ♪
1000
00:37:49,968 --> 00:37:52,802
♪ Never want
to let you go now ♪
1001
00:37:52,904 --> 00:37:55,705
♪ For the lips
that keep me goin' ♪
1002
00:37:55,807 --> 00:37:58,608
♪ Through the dark,
your heart is showin' ♪
1003
00:37:58,710 --> 00:38:00,777
♪ Warm you up
when it gets cold out ♪
1004
00:38:00,879 --> 00:38:03,113
- I love you.
- I love you.
1005
00:38:03,215 --> 00:38:04,948
- ♪ Never want
to let you go now ♪
1006
00:38:09,855 --> 00:38:11,888
- ♪ Can't nothing
bring me down ♪
1007
00:38:11,990 --> 00:38:16,626
♪ ♪
1008
00:38:16,728 --> 00:38:18,695
♪ Can't nothing
bring me down ♪
1009
00:38:18,797 --> 00:38:21,831
♪ ♪
1010
00:38:21,933 --> 00:38:23,266
♪ I need to cool it ♪
1011
00:38:23,368 --> 00:38:25,235
♪ Pass me that ice
pass me that chain ♪
1012
00:38:25,337 --> 00:38:26,870
♪ Trying to bring me down
I bet you can't hang ♪
1013
00:38:26,972 --> 00:38:28,838
♪ The boy like Teflon ♪
1014
00:38:28,940 --> 00:38:30,674
♪ And I'm gassed up
like an Exxon ♪
1015
00:38:30,776 --> 00:38:33,076
♪ Don't try to strike up
a match, the boy like a bomb ♪
1016
00:38:33,178 --> 00:38:36,680
- Um, can you bring me
a wet towel or a bib?
1017
00:38:36,782 --> 00:38:38,715
♪ ♪
1018
00:38:38,817 --> 00:38:40,950
Mm.
- You're eating a pot pie?
1019
00:38:41,053 --> 00:38:43,086
- ♪ Can't nothing
bring me down ♪
1020
00:38:43,188 --> 00:38:45,488
- What's going on here?
I mean, I'm not complaining,
1021
00:38:45,590 --> 00:38:48,591
but what are you
holding there, my dear?
1022
00:38:48,694 --> 00:38:50,760
- It's a pregnancy test.
1023
00:38:50,862 --> 00:38:52,429
- Oh, you get pregnant
overnight?
1024
00:38:52,531 --> 00:38:55,865
That's--oh, I spilled it
all over myself.
1025
00:38:55,967 --> 00:38:59,135
- Says not pregnant.
- So...
1026
00:38:59,237 --> 00:39:01,905
[soft tense music]
1027
00:39:02,007 --> 00:39:03,340
- I thought we were getting
more serious about trying
1028
00:39:03,442 --> 00:39:05,241
to get pregnant, you know?
1029
00:39:05,344 --> 00:39:07,577
- I thought we were
talking about that.
1030
00:39:07,679 --> 00:39:09,579
- No, I thought we
had decided that.
1031
00:39:09,681 --> 00:39:12,248
- Last time
Heidi got off birth control
1032
00:39:12,351 --> 00:39:15,218
and she said that night, like,
"I want to get pregnant,"
1033
00:39:15,320 --> 00:39:18,121
I think she was pregnant
by the morning time.
1034
00:39:18,223 --> 00:39:20,924
So I think she's trying
to manifest that again
1035
00:39:21,026 --> 00:39:23,126
and energetically
make that happen.
1036
00:39:23,228 --> 00:39:25,495
From my knowledge,
that was probably a fluke,
1037
00:39:25,597 --> 00:39:29,499
that was probably rare,
that was probably very special.
1038
00:39:29,601 --> 00:39:31,901
So just so much pressure.
1039
00:39:32,003 --> 00:39:33,737
I think one of
the main factors different
1040
00:39:33,839 --> 00:39:36,239
between how easy
you got pregnant last time
1041
00:39:36,341 --> 00:39:39,142
and now is, like,
you had no stress last time.
1042
00:39:39,244 --> 00:39:41,778
Your life was so relaxing.
There was no pandemic.
1043
00:39:41,880 --> 00:39:43,279
You weren't trying
to run a business.
1044
00:39:43,382 --> 00:39:47,317
And so now I'm sure--yeah,
I'm not a doctor.
1045
00:39:47,419 --> 00:39:50,487
But I'm sure stress
has something to factor
1046
00:39:50,589 --> 00:39:54,257
into how your body's working
and so--
1047
00:39:58,263 --> 00:40:00,196
- I don't know why
I'm so emotional about it.
1048
00:40:00,298 --> 00:40:01,898
Just really have been
wanting to be pregnant
1049
00:40:02,000 --> 00:40:05,835
for, like, a year, you know,
or two years. [sobs]
1050
00:40:05,937 --> 00:40:09,572
I just thought it wouldn't,
you know, happen.
1051
00:40:09,674 --> 00:40:13,910
I feel like I'm getting older
and--
1052
00:40:14,012 --> 00:40:17,480
[sniffles]
What if I want two?
1053
00:40:17,582 --> 00:40:21,618
- Two more you're saying?
- Yeah.
1054
00:40:21,720 --> 00:40:26,089
I feel like I might have missed
something already,
1055
00:40:26,191 --> 00:40:28,892
like I missed an opportunity
to have another kid
1056
00:40:28,994 --> 00:40:32,462
or, you know,
I just--and I feel concerned
1057
00:40:32,564 --> 00:40:35,131
that I am stressed out,
and we are older,
1058
00:40:35,233 --> 00:40:39,002
and I don't know how long it's
gonna take me to get pregnant.
1059
00:40:39,104 --> 00:40:40,637
- Stop being so hard
on yourself.
1060
00:40:40,739 --> 00:40:42,839
It's not like--you didn't fail
not getting pregnant.
1061
00:40:42,941 --> 00:40:45,942
Like, I thought--what happened
to God's timing and like--
1062
00:40:46,044 --> 00:40:50,280
- I know.
I feel like I know that.
1063
00:40:50,382 --> 00:40:54,217
This feels emotional.
1064
00:40:55,620 --> 00:40:57,754
I want us to both
just try really hard
1065
00:40:57,856 --> 00:40:59,389
because I'm trying really hard.
1066
00:40:59,491 --> 00:41:01,991
I really care.
1067
00:41:02,093 --> 00:41:06,296
I'm seeing it slip away.
And I'm gonna run out of time.
1068
00:41:06,398 --> 00:41:10,133
Like, I just feel like my life
is getting so, like, limited.
1069
00:41:10,235 --> 00:41:12,035
And I feel frustrated
that Spencer and I
1070
00:41:12,137 --> 00:41:13,870
aren't on the same page
right now.
1071
00:41:13,972 --> 00:41:20,944
♪ ♪
1072
00:41:23,081 --> 00:41:26,883
- ♪ I'm not givin' up,
givin' up ♪
1073
00:41:26,985 --> 00:41:29,285
♪ Don't try to pull away ♪
1074
00:41:29,387 --> 00:41:31,254
♪ Oh, you think it's love? ♪
1075
00:41:31,356 --> 00:41:34,724
♪ I'll crush
whatever's in the way ♪
1076
00:41:34,826 --> 00:41:36,860
♪ I'm not givin' up ♪
1077
00:41:37,863 --> 00:41:39,295
- Party's in town,
party's in town!
1078
00:41:39,397 --> 00:41:40,363
- Out of control.
1079
00:41:40,465 --> 00:41:41,564
- ♪ Now look who's back ♪
1080
00:41:41,666 --> 00:41:43,066
[upbeat music]
1081
00:41:43,168 --> 00:41:45,201
♪ I'm on a roll,
I'm on a roll ♪
1082
00:41:45,303 --> 00:41:46,469
- [trilling]
1083
00:41:46,571 --> 00:41:47,737
- Her boobs are completely out.
1084
00:41:47,839 --> 00:41:48,938
- Do you see the heart.
- Pumpin'.
1085
00:41:49,040 --> 00:41:51,107
- We started talking
about moving in together.
1086
00:41:51,209 --> 00:41:53,910
- See you back in...
- In LA.
1087
00:41:54,012 --> 00:41:55,578
- Who's a better kisser?
- [laughs]
1088
00:41:55,680 --> 00:41:58,081
- Ahh!
- Oh.
1089
00:41:58,183 --> 00:42:01,251
- ♪ Yeah, this
is where we ride ♪
1090
00:42:01,353 --> 00:42:02,886
- I have feelings for you.
1091
00:42:02,988 --> 00:42:04,454
- You can't say
some [bleep] like that
1092
00:42:04,556 --> 00:42:05,922
when you know
[bleep] absolutely nothing.
1093
00:42:06,024 --> 00:42:08,057
- Heidi, where are you going?
- Please sit down.
1094
00:42:08,159 --> 00:42:09,325
- Compromise.
1095
00:42:09,427 --> 00:42:10,760
I don't know
what the [bleep] that is.
1096
00:42:10,862 --> 00:42:12,362
- That's something that you
really need to work on.
1097
00:42:12,464 --> 00:42:13,997
- He was definitely
insinuating
1098
00:42:14,099 --> 00:42:16,299
that you still take drugs
and you still drink.
1099
00:42:16,401 --> 00:42:17,667
- That's [bleep] up.
1100
00:42:17,769 --> 00:42:20,336
- Audrina told me Ashley
talks a lot of smack about me.
1101
00:42:20,438 --> 00:42:22,071
- You told her?
- I had to.
1102
00:42:22,173 --> 00:42:23,573
- No, you didn't have to!
1103
00:42:23,675 --> 00:42:26,009
- I'm playing Patty Cake.
I have not got--
1104
00:42:26,111 --> 00:42:27,210
- That's why you guys don't
have any [bleep] friends.
1105
00:42:27,312 --> 00:42:28,211
- You're a liar, Audrina.
1106
00:42:28,313 --> 00:42:30,046
- Oh, deflect again, you guys.
1107
00:42:30,148 --> 00:42:31,648
- I'm just glad the drama's
not about me for once.
1108
00:42:31,750 --> 00:42:32,882
- Right?
1109
00:42:32,984 --> 00:42:36,920
- ♪ Now this
is where we rise ♪