1 00:00:08,508 --> 00:00:10,468 Rue: Nate Jacobs was in love. 2 00:00:12,011 --> 00:00:13,555 He didn't know how it happened. 3 00:00:15,014 --> 00:00:16,641 He didn't know why it happened. 4 00:00:19,018 --> 00:00:20,937 But he could just feel it. 5 00:00:21,020 --> 00:00:23,189 And it felt so fucking good. 6 00:00:25,191 --> 00:00:26,484 But it was complicated. 7 00:00:26,568 --> 00:00:29,320 (distorted): We need to get him to a hospital. 8 00:00:32,824 --> 00:00:35,618 -(grunts) He's so heavy. -Are you good? 9 00:00:35,702 --> 00:00:38,371 -Just open the door, bro. -It's unlocked. Just open it. 10 00:00:38,455 --> 00:00:40,665 Bring him to the hospital. Let's go, please. 11 00:00:40,749 --> 00:00:41,875 Open the door! 12 00:00:44,419 --> 00:00:46,713 (vocalizing) 13 00:00:46,796 --> 00:00:48,256 ♪ ♪ 14 00:00:48,339 --> 00:00:50,842 Rue: What was it about Cassie Howard 15 00:00:50,925 --> 00:00:53,636 that allowed Nate to fully surrender himself? 16 00:00:53,720 --> 00:00:56,639 With Maddy, it was always a game. 17 00:00:59,017 --> 00:01:00,894 Cassie was the opposite. 18 00:01:03,062 --> 00:01:04,897 He knew he wasn't perfect. 19 00:01:04,980 --> 00:01:07,066 That he had some issues. 20 00:01:07,150 --> 00:01:09,402 But maybe the reason he had those issues 21 00:01:09,486 --> 00:01:12,405 is because Maddy brought out the worst in him. 22 00:01:12,489 --> 00:01:14,115 And maybe if he met Cassie 23 00:01:14,199 --> 00:01:16,826 when he was a sophomore instead of Maddy... 24 00:01:16,910 --> 00:01:19,454 she would've brought out the best in him. 25 00:01:20,955 --> 00:01:23,291 How could he have ever overlooked her? 26 00:01:24,334 --> 00:01:26,586 Underestimated her? 27 00:01:29,255 --> 00:01:31,883 She was everything you could ever want in a woman. 28 00:01:31,966 --> 00:01:34,886 ♪ ♪ 29 00:01:39,015 --> 00:01:42,393 ("Live or Die" by Lil Xan and Noah Cyrus playing) 30 00:01:42,477 --> 00:01:45,605 (vocalizing) 31 00:01:45,688 --> 00:01:47,982 ♪ ♪ 32 00:01:48,066 --> 00:01:50,151 Rue: He knew it was a little soon to say, 33 00:01:50,235 --> 00:01:53,321 but he could imagine spending life with her. 34 00:01:53,404 --> 00:01:56,991 (in slow motion): I wanna feel you inside of me. 35 00:01:57,075 --> 00:01:59,702 Rue: He was at home... and in love. 36 00:02:01,746 --> 00:02:04,707 ♪ ♪ 37 00:02:07,877 --> 00:02:10,463 She was intuitive and emotional. 38 00:02:10,547 --> 00:02:13,925 ♪ ♪ 39 00:02:14,008 --> 00:02:16,344 She was sensitive and vulnerable. 40 00:02:16,427 --> 00:02:19,472 ♪ ♪ 41 00:02:19,556 --> 00:02:21,933 She was a strong, powerful woman. 42 00:02:22,016 --> 00:02:25,603 ♪ ♪ 43 00:02:34,112 --> 00:02:37,323 Nate: I don't wanna weird you out or anything, 44 00:02:37,407 --> 00:02:41,119 but I can imagine starting a family with you. 45 00:02:41,202 --> 00:02:45,832 ♪ ♪ 46 00:02:45,915 --> 00:02:47,250 (machine beeping) 47 00:02:47,333 --> 00:02:50,086 Rue: Nate began to wonder if he had brain damage. 48 00:02:50,169 --> 00:02:51,754 Cal: Can you hear me? 49 00:02:51,838 --> 00:02:55,091 Rue: How would he know? 50 00:02:55,174 --> 00:02:57,927 Rue: He knew he could do a better job than his dad. 51 00:02:59,971 --> 00:03:03,474 He wouldn't fuck his kid up the way his dad fucked him up. 52 00:03:05,852 --> 00:03:08,980 And the way his granddad fucked his dad up. 53 00:03:09,063 --> 00:03:14,736 Almighty God, you are the only source of health and healing. 54 00:03:14,819 --> 00:03:16,779 Cassie: Does your dad work out every day? 55 00:03:16,863 --> 00:03:20,533 ♪ ♪ 56 00:03:22,035 --> 00:03:24,537 Rue: Except his dad was such a fuckin' idiot. 57 00:03:24,621 --> 00:03:26,623 -He couldn't even control himself. -(moaning) 58 00:03:26,706 --> 00:03:30,627 -I want you to come with my tongue in your ass. -Ah, fuck. 59 00:03:30,710 --> 00:03:33,713 Rue: And had jeopardized everything their family worked for. 60 00:03:33,796 --> 00:03:37,008 Any soon-to-be-Mamas wanna take a dip? 61 00:03:37,091 --> 00:03:39,844 ♪ ♪ 62 00:03:42,055 --> 00:03:45,058 Rue: Sometimes... he just wished that his dad 63 00:03:45,141 --> 00:03:47,685 would drop dead of a heart attack... 64 00:03:47,769 --> 00:03:50,063 (screaming) 65 00:03:50,146 --> 00:03:51,522 and be free of him. 66 00:03:51,606 --> 00:03:53,274 (machine beeping) 67 00:03:53,358 --> 00:03:55,318 But there's no point in fantasizing about a life 68 00:03:55,401 --> 00:03:58,613 with Cassie when he knew that Maddy had that disc. 69 00:04:00,406 --> 00:04:02,784 (shower running) 70 00:04:20,510 --> 00:04:21,928 (screams) Fuck! 71 00:04:23,930 --> 00:04:26,849 Rue: What if he could go back to the beginning? 72 00:04:26,933 --> 00:04:29,978 What would he wish? 73 00:04:30,061 --> 00:04:31,729 Where would things go? 74 00:04:31,813 --> 00:04:33,189 Who would he be? 75 00:04:34,357 --> 00:04:36,275 In you, there is calm. 76 00:04:41,739 --> 00:04:42,865 Hey, man. 77 00:04:42,949 --> 00:04:44,701 -(machine beeping rapidly) -(body thudding) 78 00:04:44,784 --> 00:04:47,120 (yells) Nurse! Nurse! 79 00:04:47,704 --> 00:04:48,871 Nurse! 80 00:04:48,955 --> 00:04:50,873 -(Cassie grunting) -Oh my god! 81 00:04:53,584 --> 00:04:56,170 Cal: You fuckin' whore. Slut. 82 00:04:56,254 --> 00:04:58,131 (moaning) 83 00:04:59,424 --> 00:05:01,843 (grunting, moaning continue) 84 00:05:03,094 --> 00:05:06,431 (discordant, chaotic music playing) 85 00:05:10,143 --> 00:05:12,854 (screaming, moaning) 86 00:05:16,649 --> 00:05:18,234 (music ends) 87 00:05:18,317 --> 00:05:20,403 (baby crying) 88 00:05:23,156 --> 00:05:26,367 ("I've Never Felt So Alone" by Labrinth playing) 89 00:05:26,451 --> 00:05:30,038 ♪ And I've never felt so alone ♪ 90 00:05:30,121 --> 00:05:34,083 ♪ Felt so alone, na-a-no ♪ 91 00:05:34,834 --> 00:05:38,463 ♪ ♪ 92 00:05:42,050 --> 00:05:45,803 ♪ Oh-oh-oh ♪ 93 00:05:47,889 --> 00:05:51,434 ♪ Ah-ah-oh ♪ 94 00:05:51,517 --> 00:05:55,605 Rue: It was the first day of school after the new year. 95 00:05:55,688 --> 00:05:58,858 And I finally had everything I'd ever wished for. 96 00:06:00,234 --> 00:06:03,279 (electronic music playing) 97 00:06:03,362 --> 00:06:05,448 ♪ ♪ 98 00:06:16,334 --> 00:06:18,795 -You know you're like a dream? -(Jules chuckles) 99 00:06:18,878 --> 00:06:21,297 I didn't know you were such a romantic, Rue. 100 00:06:21,380 --> 00:06:22,799 What can I say? 101 00:06:27,970 --> 00:06:31,766 Oh, fuck... I completely forgot he goes to our school. 102 00:06:31,849 --> 00:06:32,934 Jules: I love you. 103 00:06:33,017 --> 00:06:34,310 Rue: If this asshole says 104 00:06:34,393 --> 00:06:35,812 anything about doing drugs, 105 00:06:35,895 --> 00:06:37,980 I will literally slit his throat in the quad. 106 00:06:39,649 --> 00:06:40,900 Rue? 107 00:06:42,068 --> 00:06:43,152 Yeah? 108 00:06:43,236 --> 00:06:45,321 I said, "I love you." 109 00:06:45,404 --> 00:06:49,617 -I love you, too. -You kinda checked out for a second. 110 00:06:49,700 --> 00:06:51,452 Rue: Please, God, do not fuck up my life. 111 00:06:51,536 --> 00:06:53,121 -Elliot: Yo, Rue. -Rue: Hey. 112 00:06:53,204 --> 00:06:54,205 What's goin' on? 113 00:06:54,288 --> 00:06:56,374 -Jules: Hi. -Hi. 114 00:06:56,457 --> 00:06:57,875 Nothin'. 115 00:06:57,959 --> 00:06:59,377 I'm Jules. 116 00:06:59,460 --> 00:07:01,462 Sorry, this is Jules. 117 00:07:01,546 --> 00:07:03,714 Hey, I'm Elliot. Nice to meet you. 118 00:07:03,798 --> 00:07:06,801 Sorry, introductions are, usually, very, um, 119 00:07:06,884 --> 00:07:12,306 overwhelming and... debilitating for me... 120 00:07:12,390 --> 00:07:13,516 at least. 121 00:07:15,434 --> 00:07:18,521 Uh, so, how do you know Elliot? 122 00:07:18,604 --> 00:07:20,064 We met on New Year's. 123 00:07:22,859 --> 00:07:27,405 (chuckles) Oh shit, yeah. 124 00:07:27,488 --> 00:07:29,532 That was it, New Year's. That's... 125 00:07:30,658 --> 00:07:32,326 That's where we met. 126 00:07:34,620 --> 00:07:36,664 Jules is my girlfriend. 127 00:07:36,747 --> 00:07:40,042 Wow... I didn't know you were, um-- 128 00:07:40,126 --> 00:07:41,335 In a relationship? 129 00:07:41,419 --> 00:07:43,462 Rue: The other thing I wish I could mention is 130 00:07:43,546 --> 00:07:46,132 I, sort of, spent the last few days hangin' out with Elliot. 131 00:07:46,215 --> 00:07:49,385 (strumming electric guitar) 132 00:07:49,468 --> 00:07:51,721 Which was cool 'cause he makes a ton of money 133 00:07:51,804 --> 00:07:53,472 selling music stems online, 134 00:07:53,556 --> 00:07:55,600 and we bought a bunch of drugs. 135 00:08:00,104 --> 00:08:06,360 Um... it was nice to meet you, and I'll see you later, Rue. 136 00:08:06,444 --> 00:08:09,238 -Elliot: Nice to meet you. -Rue: I love you. Bye. 137 00:08:11,616 --> 00:08:14,702 Fuck. Was it just me, or was that super awkward? 138 00:08:14,785 --> 00:08:17,038 That was awkward. 139 00:08:20,041 --> 00:08:22,293 -Hey, Cass. -Hey, Jules. 140 00:08:22,376 --> 00:08:24,629 Rue: Since winter formal, Cassie had gone through 141 00:08:24,712 --> 00:08:27,048 a low-grade depression. 142 00:08:27,131 --> 00:08:30,593 (sniffs) When was the last time you showered? 143 00:08:30,676 --> 00:08:33,179 When are you gonna clean your side of the room? 144 00:08:35,514 --> 00:08:38,476 Wait, when have you ever been single? 145 00:08:40,186 --> 00:08:42,230 Cassie: I was reading this article on abstinence, 146 00:08:42,313 --> 00:08:43,731 and how not having sex is 147 00:08:43,813 --> 00:08:46,400 like its own spiritual journey. 148 00:08:46,484 --> 00:08:49,612 -Right. -The writer compared it to how monks take 149 00:08:49,695 --> 00:08:52,657 their vows of silence, and I really feel like 150 00:08:52,740 --> 00:08:54,617 that's my journey next year. 151 00:08:54,700 --> 00:08:59,038 -Bitch, I don't believe a word you're saying. -Why? 152 00:08:59,121 --> 00:09:01,082 Because you love to be loved. 153 00:09:01,165 --> 00:09:02,416 Well... 154 00:09:03,918 --> 00:09:06,796 How do I fix that? 155 00:09:06,879 --> 00:09:09,382 I don't know, when you wanna say yes, 156 00:09:09,465 --> 00:09:11,259 you just say no. 157 00:09:11,342 --> 00:09:13,511 Nate: Would you like a ride to this party? 158 00:09:14,720 --> 00:09:16,347 You wanna go to the bathroom? 159 00:09:17,640 --> 00:09:20,726 You able to do this and not tell anybody? 160 00:09:23,896 --> 00:09:24,814 Yes. 161 00:09:24,897 --> 00:09:28,276 (light music playing) 162 00:09:35,866 --> 00:09:39,870 Rue: But she was drunk. Not super drunk. 163 00:09:39,954 --> 00:09:44,000 But she never would've said yes if Maddy and Nate were still together. 164 00:09:45,418 --> 00:09:47,628 'Cause that would be unforgivable. 165 00:09:49,255 --> 00:09:51,632 Maddy was her best friend. 166 00:10:00,599 --> 00:10:02,810 You just get back from the hospital? 167 00:10:08,733 --> 00:10:09,817 (door slams) 168 00:10:12,445 --> 00:10:14,196 (Cassie sobbing) 169 00:10:14,280 --> 00:10:16,198 Rue: Maddy couldn't sleep. 170 00:10:16,282 --> 00:10:18,993 And if she were being totally honest with herself, 171 00:10:19,076 --> 00:10:21,454 she wanted to be in that hospital bed with Nate. 172 00:10:21,537 --> 00:10:23,622 ♪ ♪ 173 00:10:32,631 --> 00:10:33,758 (phone buzzes) 174 00:10:45,478 --> 00:10:47,855 Lexi, where's the fucking Tylenol? 175 00:10:48,773 --> 00:10:50,733 Is that Nate's blood on your leg? 176 00:10:51,859 --> 00:10:53,611 Why didn't you wash it off? 177 00:10:56,989 --> 00:10:59,033 ♪ ♪ 178 00:11:22,056 --> 00:11:25,768 Nate sent me the most beautiful text message this morning. 179 00:11:29,021 --> 00:11:31,690 Really? What he say? 180 00:11:32,858 --> 00:11:35,820 (melancholy music playing) 181 00:11:37,029 --> 00:11:38,697 That's so sweet. 182 00:11:40,116 --> 00:11:42,159 Yeah, I know he's a horrible person, 183 00:11:42,243 --> 00:11:43,911 but I'm kind of torn. 184 00:11:44,870 --> 00:11:47,081 When are you getting off the phone? 185 00:11:47,164 --> 00:11:48,541 Why do you care? 186 00:11:48,624 --> 00:11:50,709 Because I wanna talk to you. 187 00:11:52,711 --> 00:11:56,340 Hey, Cass, I'm gonna go hang out with my best friend Theo 188 00:11:56,424 --> 00:11:59,760 and I'll call you later. Okay. Okay, bye. 189 00:12:03,514 --> 00:12:06,475 Rue: Babysitting wasn't her first choice of a job. 190 00:12:06,559 --> 00:12:08,102 (cheering) 191 00:12:08,185 --> 00:12:10,688 I'm sorry, but 17-year-olds can't donate eggs. 192 00:12:10,771 --> 00:12:13,607 That's fucking retarded. 193 00:12:13,691 --> 00:12:16,152 Rue: She liked the kid she babysat for. 194 00:12:16,235 --> 00:12:18,320 (reading to Theo) 195 00:12:18,404 --> 00:12:21,323 But what she loved the most was... 196 00:12:21,407 --> 00:12:24,326 ("Come Rain Or Come Shine" by Judy Garland playing) 197 00:12:24,410 --> 00:12:29,498 ♪ I'm gonna love you like nobody's loved you ♪ 198 00:12:29,582 --> 00:12:35,880 ♪ Come rain or come shine ♪ 199 00:12:35,963 --> 00:12:41,010 ♪ I guess when you met me ♪ 200 00:12:41,093 --> 00:12:46,807 ♪ It was just one of those things ♪ 201 00:12:46,891 --> 00:12:48,684 -(camera clicks) - ♪ I'm gonna love you ♪ 202 00:12:48,767 --> 00:12:51,562 ♪ I'm gonna love you ♪ 203 00:12:51,645 --> 00:12:58,152 ♪ I'm gonna love you come rain or come shine ♪ 204 00:12:58,235 --> 00:13:03,532 ♪ High as a mountain and deep as a river ♪ 205 00:13:03,616 --> 00:13:05,493 ♪ Come rain or come shine ♪ 206 00:13:05,576 --> 00:13:08,412 ♪ I'm gonna love you I'm gonna love you ♪ 207 00:13:08,496 --> 00:13:12,374 ♪ I'm gonna love you ♪ 208 00:13:12,458 --> 00:13:14,460 -(alarm beeps) -Fuck. 209 00:13:16,212 --> 00:13:18,464 (tense music playing) 210 00:13:25,095 --> 00:13:26,347 Maddy? 211 00:13:26,430 --> 00:13:27,640 Fuck. 212 00:13:27,723 --> 00:13:30,392 ♪ ♪ 213 00:13:33,354 --> 00:13:34,355 Samantha: Maddy? 214 00:13:34,438 --> 00:13:36,649 ♪ ♪ 215 00:13:52,790 --> 00:13:54,124 -Hey. -Hi. 216 00:13:54,208 --> 00:13:56,502 -Samantha: Hi. -How was your night? 217 00:13:56,585 --> 00:13:57,753 Whew... 218 00:13:59,296 --> 00:14:01,257 it was fun, uh... 219 00:14:02,132 --> 00:14:03,592 it's nice to be drunk. 220 00:14:03,676 --> 00:14:04,843 (chuckles) 221 00:14:11,308 --> 00:14:12,518 Maddy? 222 00:14:13,894 --> 00:14:17,898 -Can you come here for a second? -Sure. 223 00:14:21,819 --> 00:14:24,321 (tense music playing) 224 00:14:37,835 --> 00:14:41,213 Hey... can you help me with this zipper? 225 00:14:41,297 --> 00:14:44,550 -I don't know where my husband is. -Oh, yeah, of course. 226 00:14:45,509 --> 00:14:46,635 Thanks. 227 00:14:56,895 --> 00:14:58,689 Thank you for being so sweet. 228 00:15:01,942 --> 00:15:03,694 (softly): That's all. 229 00:15:05,654 --> 00:15:08,657 -Good night. -Good night. 230 00:15:08,741 --> 00:15:11,118 I feel like I would look so sexy pregnant. 231 00:15:11,201 --> 00:15:12,786 Maddy, please do not get pregnant. 232 00:15:12,870 --> 00:15:15,247 I wouldn't wear any of those nasty maternity clothes. 233 00:15:15,331 --> 00:15:17,625 I would just be me... plus pregnant. 234 00:15:17,708 --> 00:15:19,293 Remember when I got pregnant? 235 00:15:19,376 --> 00:15:22,171 Yes, and it would be nothing like that. 236 00:15:22,254 --> 00:15:23,672 Well, speakin' of baby daddies, 237 00:15:23,756 --> 00:15:26,175 I've seen the photo that Ethan posted of the two of you. 238 00:15:26,258 --> 00:15:28,010 It's cute as fuck. 239 00:15:28,093 --> 00:15:31,347 Yeah, Kat, stop flaunting your healthy, non-abusive, 240 00:15:31,430 --> 00:15:33,474 wonderful relationship. 241 00:15:33,557 --> 00:15:36,310 It's actually triggering. 242 00:15:36,393 --> 00:15:39,438 Yeah, he's, um-- He's really sweet. 243 00:15:41,065 --> 00:15:42,816 Rue: And he was really sweet. 244 00:15:42,900 --> 00:15:45,444 ("Do What You Want, Be What You Are" by Hall & Oates playing) 245 00:15:45,527 --> 00:15:47,696 I just have to go to the bathroom real quick, okay? 246 00:15:48,364 --> 00:15:49,573 Okay. 247 00:15:51,325 --> 00:15:54,912 ♪ There ain't no right or wrong way ♪ 248 00:15:54,995 --> 00:15:58,624 ♪ Just a play from the heart ♪ 249 00:15:58,707 --> 00:16:02,836 ♪ It ain't a sign of weakness, girl ♪ 250 00:16:02,920 --> 00:16:06,256 ♪ To give yourself away ♪ 251 00:16:06,340 --> 00:16:09,968 ♪ Because the strong give up and move on ♪ 252 00:16:10,052 --> 00:16:11,804 (music fades) 253 00:16:15,641 --> 00:16:16,642 (sword scrapes) 254 00:16:19,520 --> 00:16:22,690 (ominous music playing) 255 00:16:29,029 --> 00:16:30,155 Ethan? 256 00:16:31,115 --> 00:16:32,991 (blood squelching, spraying) 257 00:16:38,414 --> 00:16:42,501 (tribal music playing) 258 00:16:52,720 --> 00:16:56,181 (speaking Dothraki) 259 00:16:56,265 --> 00:16:57,641 Ahh. 260 00:16:59,476 --> 00:17:01,061 He was the love of my life. 261 00:17:01,145 --> 00:17:02,604 (speaking Dothraki) 262 00:17:02,688 --> 00:17:05,232 No, no, not totally. 263 00:17:05,315 --> 00:17:07,901 (speaking Dothraki) 264 00:17:07,984 --> 00:17:11,280 (chuckles) Come on. 265 00:17:15,451 --> 00:17:16,367 (gasps) 266 00:17:19,204 --> 00:17:23,709 -What are you doing? -(warrior speaking Dothraki) 267 00:17:23,791 --> 00:17:24,917 Okay. 268 00:17:26,086 --> 00:17:27,296 Ah. 269 00:17:27,378 --> 00:17:29,757 (moaning) 270 00:17:38,557 --> 00:17:41,477 Wait, you're telling me Ethan tore your clothes off 271 00:17:41,560 --> 00:17:43,020 and fucked the shit out of you? 272 00:17:43,103 --> 00:17:45,689 Yeah... it's great. 273 00:17:46,774 --> 00:17:49,651 -Wow. -Go Ethan! 274 00:17:50,569 --> 00:17:51,612 Bye. 275 00:18:00,996 --> 00:18:03,832 Rue: Nate was released from the hospital a few days earlier. 276 00:18:14,384 --> 00:18:16,095 Cal: I have a hard time believing 277 00:18:16,178 --> 00:18:17,971 you don't know who did this to you. 278 00:18:20,015 --> 00:18:23,352 -Dad, just leave it alone. -Well, I'm not going to. 279 00:18:25,062 --> 00:18:26,730 Nate: Yeah, well, you should. 280 00:18:30,025 --> 00:18:33,070 Rue: It's one thing to dislike your parents. 281 00:18:33,153 --> 00:18:35,989 It's not like you have a choice. 282 00:18:36,073 --> 00:18:37,991 But if you dislike your kid... 283 00:18:39,910 --> 00:18:42,329 well, that's sort of your fault. 284 00:18:44,248 --> 00:18:47,543 I just have a hard time believing it was unprovoked. 285 00:18:47,626 --> 00:18:48,961 He's our son. 286 00:18:50,128 --> 00:18:53,382 I know... I know. I'm just sayin'. 287 00:18:55,467 --> 00:18:58,679 (Cassie on phone, crying) ...I just wanna kill myself. 288 00:18:58,762 --> 00:19:02,224 Rue: As soon as Nate had been released from the hospital... 289 00:19:02,307 --> 00:19:04,685 he wished he was back in the hospital. 290 00:19:04,768 --> 00:19:07,104 Just take a deep breath. 291 00:19:07,187 --> 00:19:09,481 Nate, I'm legit going crazy right now. 292 00:19:09,565 --> 00:19:11,316 You can't do this to me. 293 00:19:12,776 --> 00:19:15,654 -Suze: Lex? -What? 294 00:19:15,737 --> 00:19:18,198 What's going on with your sister? 295 00:19:18,282 --> 00:19:20,409 Lexi: I think she's having a nervous breakdown. 296 00:19:20,492 --> 00:19:22,035 About what? 297 00:19:22,119 --> 00:19:24,788 Lexi: I don't know. Being single or something. 298 00:19:26,373 --> 00:19:28,208 No... 299 00:19:28,292 --> 00:19:30,752 those aren't the emotions of a single person. 300 00:19:33,797 --> 00:19:36,300 Rue: The only way Nate was able to calm Cassie down enough 301 00:19:36,383 --> 00:19:39,428 to stop crying was to tell her... 302 00:19:39,511 --> 00:19:43,432 I promise we can meet in person next weekend. 303 00:19:43,515 --> 00:19:46,184 Rue: But then he said something that totally freaked her out. 304 00:19:46,268 --> 00:19:48,937 (dramatic music playing) 305 00:19:49,021 --> 00:19:50,939 Nate (on phone): If Maddy finds out, she's gonna spend 306 00:19:51,023 --> 00:19:53,233 the rest of her life trying to kill me. 307 00:19:53,317 --> 00:19:54,359 I know. 308 00:19:54,443 --> 00:19:56,778 Nate: But she'll actually kill you. 309 00:19:56,862 --> 00:19:59,865 ♪ ♪ 310 00:20:01,825 --> 00:20:03,493 Fucking racist. 311 00:20:03,577 --> 00:20:04,828 Ahh! 312 00:20:06,997 --> 00:20:09,625 -Sorry, I didn't hear you, bitch. What?! -(grunting) 313 00:20:11,835 --> 00:20:15,297 (tense music playing) 314 00:20:15,380 --> 00:20:17,883 ♪ ♪ 315 00:20:22,554 --> 00:20:25,724 (frantic organ playing) 316 00:20:30,979 --> 00:20:33,315 -Jules: Hey, Cass. -Cassie: Hey, Jules. 317 00:20:34,942 --> 00:20:36,777 Rue: Now, at the time, I didn't know how much 318 00:20:36,860 --> 00:20:38,695 the Elliot thing upset Jules. 319 00:20:41,156 --> 00:20:44,159 But I never thought that Jules was like clingy or jealous, 320 00:20:44,242 --> 00:20:47,079 so I didn't think it'd be a big deal. 321 00:20:47,162 --> 00:20:49,623 -It is a big deal. -Why? 322 00:20:49,706 --> 00:20:52,000 The fact that you're even asking me to explain it to you 323 00:20:52,084 --> 00:20:54,503 -is kind of an even bigger deal. -Oh, I don't understand 324 00:20:54,586 --> 00:20:56,588 how such a small fucking thing 325 00:20:56,672 --> 00:21:00,634 has become such a big fucking thing. 326 00:21:00,717 --> 00:21:02,844 -'Cause it hurt my feelings. -Rue: Why? 327 00:21:02,928 --> 00:21:05,013 'Cause I can tell you have a crush on him. 328 00:21:05,097 --> 00:21:07,391 I do not have a fucking crush on him. 329 00:21:07,474 --> 00:21:09,851 Jules: Then why else would you forget meeting him? 330 00:21:09,935 --> 00:21:13,522 -Like, "Oh, that's right. New Year's." -Jules, it's not like that. 331 00:21:13,605 --> 00:21:15,107 -"Silly me." -Rue: It's not like that. 332 00:21:15,190 --> 00:21:18,860 Well, I hope not. That would really suck. 333 00:21:18,944 --> 00:21:21,488 -I'm sorry. -Jules: Um, I gotta be home in 15 minutes, 334 00:21:21,571 --> 00:21:24,491 or else I'm gonna get grounded for another two weeks. 335 00:21:24,574 --> 00:21:26,326 I'll see ya later, Rue. 336 00:21:28,203 --> 00:21:31,331 -I get you in trouble? -Yeah, kinda. 337 00:21:33,583 --> 00:21:35,711 I feel like we should do drugs. 338 00:21:35,794 --> 00:21:39,381 (electronica music playing) 339 00:21:39,464 --> 00:21:41,842 ♪ Hey, y'all know what's up ♪ 340 00:21:51,977 --> 00:21:54,604 Why don't you have a seat, Cassie? 341 00:21:54,688 --> 00:21:58,525 Mr. Jacobs believes you know who assaulted his son. 342 00:21:58,608 --> 00:22:01,069 (tense music playing) 343 00:22:01,153 --> 00:22:02,404 (slurps) 344 00:22:02,487 --> 00:22:04,990 Rue: Meanwhile... 345 00:22:05,073 --> 00:22:07,993 Fezco had a new house guest. 346 00:22:08,076 --> 00:22:11,371 Ashtray was so pissed off he couldn't even speak to Fez. 347 00:22:14,666 --> 00:22:15,876 (sighs) 348 00:22:18,795 --> 00:22:22,466 -Good morning! -Morning. 349 00:22:22,549 --> 00:22:24,676 Rue: Fezco couldn't understand the whole story. 350 00:22:24,760 --> 00:22:25,761 (dog barking) 351 00:22:25,844 --> 00:22:27,054 But apparently Faye had pushed 352 00:22:27,137 --> 00:22:28,680 the motel manager off the balcony. 353 00:22:28,764 --> 00:22:31,558 (manager yelling) 354 00:22:32,934 --> 00:22:35,228 -(dog barking) -(helicopter hovering) 355 00:22:35,312 --> 00:22:37,314 The fucking cops are looking for Faye. 356 00:22:37,397 --> 00:22:38,565 What the fuck! 357 00:22:38,648 --> 00:22:40,734 (cries) I, I didn't do anything. 358 00:22:40,817 --> 00:22:43,278 Rue: Unfortunately, Custer wouldn't leave her. 359 00:22:43,361 --> 00:22:46,573 I know, dude, but she's the love of my life. 360 00:22:48,825 --> 00:22:50,786 Rue: And the last thing Fezco needed 361 00:22:50,869 --> 00:22:52,913 was the cops finding Faye with Custer. 362 00:22:52,996 --> 00:22:55,082 -(whines) -Get in the fucking vent. 363 00:22:55,165 --> 00:22:57,042 -(banging on door) -Faye: Ow. 364 00:22:57,125 --> 00:22:59,252 Officer: I know you're in there. Open up! 365 00:22:59,336 --> 00:23:01,963 -(banging continues) -Custer: Oh my god. Get in the fucking vent! 366 00:23:02,047 --> 00:23:03,757 I love you. 367 00:23:03,840 --> 00:23:05,467 Rue: Custer told Fez he could find her 368 00:23:05,550 --> 00:23:08,178 behind the dumpster of the new Taco Bell. 369 00:23:08,261 --> 00:23:11,765 (rap music playing on car stereo) 370 00:23:16,478 --> 00:23:18,522 Don't look at me like that. 371 00:23:18,605 --> 00:23:20,398 The only reason that I went so crazy 372 00:23:20,482 --> 00:23:25,237 is because the motel manager kept saying such mean things. 373 00:23:25,320 --> 00:23:27,614 I honestly don't give a fuck. 374 00:23:29,616 --> 00:23:31,660 Rue: So Faye came to live with Fez. 375 00:23:31,743 --> 00:23:34,955 Yo, don't touch nothin'. 376 00:23:35,038 --> 00:23:37,249 -Don't talk to Ash. -Okay. 377 00:23:37,332 --> 00:23:40,418 And don't go in my fuckin' room, all right? 378 00:23:41,586 --> 00:23:43,046 I promise. 379 00:23:46,633 --> 00:23:49,970 -Want some of my sandwich? -Faye: Okay. 380 00:23:52,931 --> 00:23:55,350 Cassie, I asked you a question. 381 00:23:55,433 --> 00:23:57,561 Lexi: She didn't see anything. 382 00:23:57,644 --> 00:24:00,647 I'm not asking you. I'm asking her. 383 00:24:03,400 --> 00:24:05,861 I already told Mrs. Jacobs I didn't see anything. 384 00:24:05,944 --> 00:24:08,780 I know. We just don't believe you. 385 00:24:10,365 --> 00:24:12,742 I'm telling the truth. 386 00:24:12,826 --> 00:24:14,661 Look, Cassie, I'm more than happy to get 387 00:24:14,744 --> 00:24:17,664 the Chief of Police, Bill Greenwood, involved. 388 00:24:17,747 --> 00:24:19,666 Old family friend. 389 00:24:19,749 --> 00:24:22,711 Maybe he should have this conversation with you. 390 00:24:23,712 --> 00:24:26,756 With everyone, in fact. You know? 391 00:24:28,592 --> 00:24:31,178 Get everyone's cell phones. 392 00:24:31,261 --> 00:24:33,013 Text histories. 393 00:24:33,972 --> 00:24:36,099 Find out what exactly happened. 394 00:24:37,017 --> 00:24:38,727 Should we do that instead? 395 00:24:40,937 --> 00:24:45,442 Rue: Now, what scared the shit out of Cassie... 396 00:24:45,525 --> 00:24:47,152 was last night she texted Nate. 397 00:24:47,235 --> 00:24:48,653 (text notification) 398 00:24:53,408 --> 00:24:56,077 -(phone ringing) -Hello? 399 00:24:56,161 --> 00:24:58,663 Nate (on phone): Don't ever put that in writing again. 400 00:24:59,956 --> 00:25:01,416 I'm sorry. 401 00:25:04,336 --> 00:25:07,255 Don't look at her. Look at me. 402 00:25:11,176 --> 00:25:13,261 -Why would you say that? -What?! 403 00:25:13,345 --> 00:25:16,097 -What was I supposed to do? -Not say anything. 404 00:25:16,181 --> 00:25:18,099 You heard him! He was going to call the police! 405 00:25:18,183 --> 00:25:19,559 No, he wasn't. He was bluffing, 406 00:25:19,643 --> 00:25:21,436 and you fell for it 'cause you're a fucking idiot! 407 00:25:21,519 --> 00:25:24,898 -Why do you even care?! -Because you just ruined someone's life! 408 00:25:24,981 --> 00:25:28,818 Fezco almost killed Nate! That was his decision. 409 00:25:36,493 --> 00:25:38,828 Rue: Lexi had thought about that night a lot. 410 00:25:38,912 --> 00:25:43,667 How could Fezco be so kind to her, and so violent towards Nate? 411 00:25:43,750 --> 00:25:46,294 She couldn't remember the last time someone her age asked her 412 00:25:46,378 --> 00:25:49,256 so many questions about herself. 413 00:25:49,339 --> 00:25:52,634 He actually cared about what she had to say. 414 00:25:52,717 --> 00:25:54,552 And then, 10 minutes later... 415 00:25:56,012 --> 00:25:59,057 almost beat Nate Jacobs to death. 416 00:26:00,642 --> 00:26:04,354 And even if Nate deserved it, it was a horrible thing to do. 417 00:26:08,233 --> 00:26:10,360 It made her think about her entire life. 418 00:26:13,655 --> 00:26:16,366 How she's always been so passive. 419 00:26:21,037 --> 00:26:23,832 How she never had the courage to say anything. 420 00:26:28,086 --> 00:26:31,840 And even the time when she did get the courage to say something? 421 00:26:31,923 --> 00:26:34,009 Rue, you really need to get help. 422 00:26:35,427 --> 00:26:37,679 What, are you gonna tell my mom or something? 423 00:26:37,762 --> 00:26:40,557 Yeah, if you don't stop. 424 00:26:43,476 --> 00:26:45,020 Okay. 425 00:26:46,688 --> 00:26:48,773 -(snorts) -She backed down. 426 00:26:51,985 --> 00:26:53,570 Suze: Hon... 427 00:26:55,822 --> 00:26:58,158 I don't wanna scare you... 428 00:26:58,241 --> 00:26:59,951 but somethin' happened to Rue. 429 00:27:00,035 --> 00:27:02,871 She's okay. She's okay. 430 00:27:04,247 --> 00:27:06,583 But I think she overdosed. 431 00:27:06,666 --> 00:27:08,960 (somber music playing) 432 00:27:09,044 --> 00:27:10,253 Oh... 433 00:27:11,671 --> 00:27:13,673 Come here. Come here. 434 00:27:17,177 --> 00:27:19,387 (Lexi crying) It's my fault. 435 00:27:22,140 --> 00:27:24,392 Rue: She hated herself for being so weak 436 00:27:24,476 --> 00:27:26,686 and passive and afraid. 437 00:27:26,770 --> 00:27:29,356 So, a couple of days after Cal came over, 438 00:27:29,439 --> 00:27:31,441 she decided to say something. 439 00:27:31,524 --> 00:27:35,820 ("Haunted" by Laura Les playing) 440 00:27:35,904 --> 00:27:38,865 ♪ Yeah, do you think it's cute that I'm so fucking stupid ♪ 441 00:27:38,948 --> 00:27:40,241 ♪ Tired of bein' useless ♪ 442 00:27:40,325 --> 00:27:41,534 ♪ I've been up for three days ♪ 443 00:27:41,618 --> 00:27:44,037 ♪ Everything is haunted, everybody's evil ♪ 444 00:27:44,120 --> 00:27:46,373 ♪ And there's bugs inside the carpet ♪ 445 00:27:46,456 --> 00:27:47,791 ♪ Do you think I'm frightening ♪ 446 00:27:47,874 --> 00:27:50,335 ♪ Organ chords and lightning, if I show my fangs ♪ 447 00:27:50,418 --> 00:27:51,669 ♪ Will you tell me that they're cool ♪ 448 00:27:51,753 --> 00:27:53,505 ♪ Mirrors shatter when I'm passing ♪ 449 00:27:53,588 --> 00:27:54,839 ♪ Broken glass and crashing ♪ 450 00:27:54,923 --> 00:27:57,967 ♪ Little blurry stars scattered all across my room ♪ 451 00:28:03,890 --> 00:28:05,058 (loads gun) 452 00:28:07,018 --> 00:28:08,770 Rue: Now, I didn't know any of this 453 00:28:08,853 --> 00:28:12,023 'cause I was with Elliot smokin' a little bit of weed. 454 00:28:12,107 --> 00:28:14,359 Jules invited me over to her house for dinner. 455 00:28:14,442 --> 00:28:18,071 I guess like to apologize, but I had NA that night 456 00:28:18,154 --> 00:28:20,156 so I went to Elliot's for a bit. 457 00:28:20,240 --> 00:28:23,243 ♪ Long as I've got your love ♪ 458 00:28:23,326 --> 00:28:26,079 ♪ You know that I'll never leave ♪ 459 00:28:27,288 --> 00:28:30,250 ♪ When I wanted you to share my life ♪ 460 00:28:30,333 --> 00:28:33,628 ♪ I had no doubt in my mind ♪ 461 00:28:33,711 --> 00:28:38,049 ♪ And it's been you, woman ♪ 462 00:28:38,133 --> 00:28:41,469 ♪ Right down the line ♪ 463 00:28:44,472 --> 00:28:49,060 ♪ I just wanna say this is my way ♪ 464 00:28:49,144 --> 00:28:52,605 ♪ Of tellin' you everything ♪ 465 00:28:52,689 --> 00:28:56,025 ♪ I could never say before ♪ 466 00:28:56,109 --> 00:28:58,194 ♪ ♪ 467 00:28:59,362 --> 00:29:00,989 (knock on door) 468 00:29:01,072 --> 00:29:04,200 David: Should I just put dinner in the oven till Rue gets here? 469 00:29:04,284 --> 00:29:07,412 Uh, no, she's not coming. She has a meeting. 470 00:29:09,205 --> 00:29:11,332 You sure she's a good influence? 471 00:29:11,416 --> 00:29:14,502 She's part of the reason you decided to get on that train. 472 00:29:14,586 --> 00:29:18,423 Yeah, but she's not the one who got on the train. 473 00:29:18,506 --> 00:29:20,508 It still doesn't answer my question. 474 00:29:25,763 --> 00:29:27,849 You know what I feel like nobody in my life understands? 475 00:29:27,932 --> 00:29:31,352 Is that like drugs are honestly the only way I can be myself. 476 00:29:31,436 --> 00:29:33,980 Yeah, I, I don't think that's true. 477 00:29:34,063 --> 00:29:35,273 Nah, it is true. 478 00:29:35,356 --> 00:29:37,025 Like when I first met you, 479 00:29:37,108 --> 00:29:40,236 I would've never had the balls to just, like, 480 00:29:40,320 --> 00:29:42,739 -come up to you and talk to you. -Why? 481 00:29:42,822 --> 00:29:45,700 Rue: I don't know. I'm just like a deeply shy person. 482 00:29:47,744 --> 00:29:50,580 And like with Jules, right? Like... 483 00:29:51,706 --> 00:29:54,250 when I first met her, I was just... 484 00:29:56,252 --> 00:29:58,379 immediately in love. 485 00:30:00,423 --> 00:30:02,634 -In love? -Rue: Yeah. 486 00:30:03,927 --> 00:30:06,304 When you say it out loud it kind of sounds small. 487 00:30:07,639 --> 00:30:09,682 Elliot: What's a bigger feeling than love? 488 00:30:12,894 --> 00:30:14,187 Loss. 489 00:30:15,605 --> 00:30:17,106 Elliot: You think? 490 00:30:18,274 --> 00:30:19,609 Yeah, I think so. 491 00:30:22,487 --> 00:30:24,697 Yeah. 492 00:30:24,781 --> 00:30:26,574 I don't know. Maybe that's what it was, right? 493 00:30:26,658 --> 00:30:28,409 Like... 494 00:30:28,493 --> 00:30:32,247 as soon as I saw her, I was just immediately afraid to lose her. 495 00:30:33,248 --> 00:30:34,624 Who have you lost? 496 00:30:35,667 --> 00:30:37,752 Uh, my dad. 497 00:30:37,835 --> 00:30:40,296 -Meaning? -Meaning he's dead. 498 00:30:42,048 --> 00:30:44,467 Shit, I'm sorry. 499 00:30:44,551 --> 00:30:46,719 It's fine. You didn't, like, kill him. 500 00:30:46,803 --> 00:30:48,304 How was he killed? 501 00:30:49,597 --> 00:30:51,266 Rue: Oh, he wasn't. 502 00:30:51,349 --> 00:30:53,184 -Are you fucking with me right now? -(Rue laughs) 503 00:30:53,268 --> 00:30:56,062 Uh, no, it was, it was cancer. 504 00:30:57,564 --> 00:30:58,773 Shit. 505 00:30:59,440 --> 00:31:00,650 (Rue sighs) 506 00:31:00,733 --> 00:31:01,818 Yeah. 507 00:31:03,528 --> 00:31:06,573 -How old were you? -Rue: I was 14. 508 00:31:06,656 --> 00:31:09,534 -So recently. -Not really. 509 00:31:10,785 --> 00:31:12,620 Elliot: I feel like that's kind of recent. 510 00:31:13,663 --> 00:31:16,332 I don't know. I guess. 511 00:31:16,416 --> 00:31:18,835 Honestly it feels like fuckin' forever ago. 512 00:31:20,837 --> 00:31:22,630 Is that why you started doing drugs? 513 00:31:22,714 --> 00:31:25,675 (chuckles) That's funny. That's what, uh-- 514 00:31:25,758 --> 00:31:28,261 that's what everybody asks in rehab. 515 00:31:28,344 --> 00:31:30,597 -Elliot: What do you mean? -Uh, just that, you know, like, 516 00:31:30,680 --> 00:31:33,099 I wish it was that simple, you know, like... 517 00:31:33,182 --> 00:31:35,643 "Well, my dad died, so I started doing drugs." 518 00:31:35,727 --> 00:31:37,061 -Elliot: Yeah. -Yeah. 519 00:31:37,145 --> 00:31:39,480 I feel like everyone's looking for like a... 520 00:31:39,564 --> 00:31:41,482 cause and effect. 521 00:31:41,566 --> 00:31:43,985 Sometimes shit's just like is what it is. 522 00:31:44,068 --> 00:31:45,778 Rue: Yeah, exactly. 523 00:31:45,862 --> 00:31:47,488 I don't know. 524 00:31:47,572 --> 00:31:49,449 To be honest, if my dad was still here, 525 00:31:49,532 --> 00:31:51,409 I'd probably still be doin' this shit. 526 00:31:53,077 --> 00:31:55,788 (Rue snorts, grunts) 527 00:31:55,872 --> 00:31:58,291 How does Jules not know that you're doing drugs? 528 00:31:58,374 --> 00:32:01,169 Ugh, 'cause I'm good at my job. 529 00:32:02,587 --> 00:32:05,173 Do you think it's a good thing that we're friends? 530 00:32:06,424 --> 00:32:07,759 Yeah, why? 531 00:32:08,968 --> 00:32:10,762 I just feel like... 532 00:32:10,845 --> 00:32:14,140 we might not bring out the best in each other. 533 00:32:17,101 --> 00:32:19,145 I feel like I'm okay with that. 534 00:32:24,817 --> 00:32:26,194 Ethan (on phone): I love you. 535 00:32:26,277 --> 00:32:28,905 -I love you. -Ethan: I love you more. 536 00:32:28,988 --> 00:32:30,573 I love you more than more. 537 00:32:32,367 --> 00:32:35,745 -(hangs up) -(groans) My god, no. 538 00:32:35,828 --> 00:32:37,664 (video plays on computer) 539 00:32:37,747 --> 00:32:41,000 Rue: Ethan made plans with Kat to go bowling that night. 540 00:32:41,084 --> 00:32:43,252 Kat was depressed because she couldn't figure out why 541 00:32:43,336 --> 00:32:45,380 she didn't love Ethan. 542 00:32:45,463 --> 00:32:49,217 So she decided to make a list of pros and cons. 543 00:33:01,479 --> 00:33:03,940 ♪ ♪ 544 00:33:08,653 --> 00:33:10,488 But she couldn't think of anything, 545 00:33:10,571 --> 00:33:13,408 which made her realize Ethan might not be the problem. 546 00:33:13,491 --> 00:33:15,660 Mmm. (imitates gunshot) 547 00:33:17,328 --> 00:33:18,955 (video playing) 548 00:33:19,038 --> 00:33:21,416 Rue Kat hated herself. 549 00:33:21,499 --> 00:33:24,711 But the problem with hating yourself is you can't really talk about it. 550 00:33:24,794 --> 00:33:26,421 Because at some point recently, 551 00:33:26,504 --> 00:33:28,172 the whole world joined a self-help cult 552 00:33:28,256 --> 00:33:29,799 and won't shut the fuck up about it. 553 00:33:29,882 --> 00:33:32,260 It's not gonna solve all your life problems, 554 00:33:32,343 --> 00:33:33,845 but it is gonna solve... 555 00:33:33,928 --> 00:33:35,638 Influencer: Kat. 556 00:33:35,722 --> 00:33:36,931 You're one of the bravest, 557 00:33:37,014 --> 00:33:38,683 most beautiful human beings 558 00:33:38,766 --> 00:33:40,435 I have ever seen. 559 00:33:40,518 --> 00:33:43,980 -(mouth full) That's not true. -Yes, it is. 560 00:33:44,063 --> 00:33:46,357 I wish I had your confidence. 561 00:33:46,441 --> 00:33:49,402 But I don't, like... feel healthy. 562 00:33:49,485 --> 00:33:50,903 Yes, you are. 563 00:33:50,987 --> 00:33:54,532 No, like... seriously. I'm not. 564 00:33:54,615 --> 00:33:57,160 Kat, you just have to love yourself. 565 00:33:57,243 --> 00:33:59,036 Kat: But that's what I'm trying to tell you! 566 00:33:59,120 --> 00:34:01,414 I fucking hate myself! 567 00:34:01,497 --> 00:34:04,459 Every day you get out of bed... 568 00:34:04,542 --> 00:34:06,043 It's an act of courage. 569 00:34:06,127 --> 00:34:07,211 That's easy for you to say. 570 00:34:07,295 --> 00:34:09,255 You don't have like fucking mental problems. 571 00:34:09,338 --> 00:34:12,717 Yes, I do. Why do you think I look like this? 572 00:34:12,800 --> 00:34:14,135 Are you kidding? 573 00:34:14,217 --> 00:34:16,471 I wish my mental problems made me look like you. 574 00:34:16,554 --> 00:34:18,556 -Trust me, you don't. -Kat: Trust me, I do! 575 00:34:18,639 --> 00:34:20,975 You're like the most beautiful person I've ever fucking seen. 576 00:34:21,058 --> 00:34:24,395 Maybe by a white, cis-male, heteronormative standard. 577 00:34:24,478 --> 00:34:26,938 Oh my god. Are you fucking joking?! 578 00:34:27,023 --> 00:34:28,775 (yells) Kat! Are you fucking serious?! 579 00:34:28,858 --> 00:34:31,152 That's not you fucking talking! It's the patriarchy! 580 00:34:31,235 --> 00:34:34,112 It is me talking! You are not listening! 581 00:34:34,197 --> 00:34:36,282 No! Society puts things into your mind! 582 00:34:36,364 --> 00:34:39,952 I don't care about society! I feel like shit! 583 00:34:40,036 --> 00:34:43,080 Kat, you need to smash all beauty standards. 584 00:34:43,164 --> 00:34:44,998 But I can't even get out of bed! 585 00:34:45,081 --> 00:34:46,458 You have to love yourself. 586 00:34:46,542 --> 00:34:48,210 You need to find your inner fuckin' warrior! 587 00:34:48,293 --> 00:34:51,130 -Become a bad bitch. -Just like you did last year. 588 00:34:51,214 --> 00:34:54,342 -But that wasn't even real. -It looked real. 589 00:34:54,425 --> 00:34:56,803 -Kat: That was the point! -I found it inspiring. 590 00:34:56,886 --> 00:35:01,349 -Shut the fuck up! -Group (chanting): Love yourself! Love yourself! 591 00:35:01,432 --> 00:35:03,851 Love yourself! Love yourself! 592 00:35:03,935 --> 00:35:08,940 (Kat shouts) Leave me alone! Get the fuck out! 593 00:35:09,023 --> 00:35:13,653 (shouting, chanting continue) 594 00:35:13,736 --> 00:35:15,112 (phone chimes) 595 00:35:20,910 --> 00:35:22,370 (chanting stops) 596 00:35:25,540 --> 00:35:26,499 Fuck. 597 00:35:26,582 --> 00:35:27,625 (phone buzzes) 598 00:35:28,876 --> 00:35:30,169 Hey. 599 00:35:31,462 --> 00:35:36,134 Uh, nothing just... depressed in the bath. 600 00:35:39,428 --> 00:35:40,972 Bowling? 601 00:35:41,055 --> 00:35:44,141 ("She Brings the Rain" by Can playing) 602 00:35:44,225 --> 00:35:47,645 ♪ ♪ 603 00:35:59,448 --> 00:36:02,869 ♪ Yes, I care if she brings me spring ♪ 604 00:36:02,952 --> 00:36:05,204 ♪ But don't care about nothing ♪ 605 00:36:05,288 --> 00:36:07,498 Rue: What the fuck? 606 00:36:08,541 --> 00:36:10,751 ♪ She brings the rain ♪ 607 00:36:10,835 --> 00:36:13,671 ♪ Oh yeah, she brings the rain ♪ 608 00:36:13,754 --> 00:36:17,592 ♪ ♪ 609 00:36:17,675 --> 00:36:21,262 ♪ In the dawn of the silvery day ♪ 610 00:36:21,345 --> 00:36:22,471 (line ringing) 611 00:36:22,555 --> 00:36:26,601 ♪ Clouds seem to melt away ♪ 612 00:36:26,684 --> 00:36:28,769 ♪ She brings the rain ♪ 613 00:36:28,853 --> 00:36:32,315 ♪ Oh yeah, she brings the rain ♪ 614 00:36:35,776 --> 00:36:39,572 ♪ She brings the rain, it feels like spring ♪ 615 00:36:39,655 --> 00:36:41,908 Nate (on voicemail): Yo, this is Nate. I'm busy. 616 00:36:41,991 --> 00:36:43,784 Leave a message at the beep. 617 00:36:43,868 --> 00:36:44,911 (beeps) 618 00:36:44,994 --> 00:36:47,622 ♪ She brings the rain ♪ 619 00:36:47,705 --> 00:36:49,957 ♪ Oh yeah, she brings the rain ♪ 620 00:36:50,041 --> 00:36:51,584 (phone buzzes) 621 00:36:54,086 --> 00:36:58,799 ♪ She brings the rain, it feels like spring ♪ 622 00:36:58,883 --> 00:37:02,929 ♪ Magic mushrooms out of things ♪ 623 00:37:03,012 --> 00:37:16,150 ♪ She brings the rain, it feels like spring ♪ 624 00:37:16,233 --> 00:37:18,736 ♪ She brings the rain ♪ 625 00:37:18,819 --> 00:37:20,905 ♪ ♪ 626 00:37:29,246 --> 00:37:31,082 (grunts) 627 00:37:37,713 --> 00:37:39,340 (whirring) 628 00:37:46,472 --> 00:37:47,848 (sighs) 629 00:37:49,684 --> 00:37:51,936 Look who the cat dragged in. 630 00:37:52,895 --> 00:37:54,605 Yeah, yeah. 631 00:37:57,566 --> 00:38:00,695 (whispers): I see you're still on your suicide mission. 632 00:38:02,738 --> 00:38:06,117 Let go. Let God. 633 00:38:11,080 --> 00:38:12,289 (Ali sighs) 634 00:38:19,839 --> 00:38:22,049 Where are we goin'? 635 00:38:31,350 --> 00:38:33,811 (inaudible) 636 00:38:33,894 --> 00:38:35,980 ♪ ♪ 637 00:38:53,372 --> 00:38:56,042 What are you thinking about? 638 00:38:57,043 --> 00:38:58,794 We're almost there. 639 00:39:05,426 --> 00:39:07,428 I've never been over here before. 640 00:39:13,392 --> 00:39:17,563 So... you wanna tell me who that girl was you just had over. 641 00:39:19,648 --> 00:39:22,068 What? No. She's a friend. 642 00:39:24,987 --> 00:39:28,491 I can count on my hand how many friends you done had over here. 643 00:39:30,451 --> 00:39:32,495 Well, she's one of 'em. 644 00:39:33,162 --> 00:39:35,498 -Mm-hm. -Mm-hm. 645 00:39:38,292 --> 00:39:41,420 (vocalizing) 646 00:39:41,504 --> 00:39:43,589 ♪ ♪ 647 00:39:46,425 --> 00:39:48,094 (pins clattering) 648 00:39:49,136 --> 00:39:51,180 (upbeat electronic playing) 649 00:39:51,263 --> 00:40:11,617 ♪ ♪ 650 00:40:34,014 --> 00:40:36,016 Look, Cass, um... 651 00:40:37,268 --> 00:40:39,061 I really like you. 652 00:40:42,731 --> 00:40:45,067 How I wish that things could be different. 653 00:40:49,655 --> 00:40:52,158 I just think what happened between us was a mistake, 654 00:40:52,241 --> 00:40:54,368 and we never should have did what we did. 655 00:40:57,580 --> 00:40:59,206 Yeah, but... 656 00:41:01,375 --> 00:41:03,002 Nate: It was my fault. 657 00:41:04,753 --> 00:41:06,046 I shouldn't have, uh... 658 00:41:07,756 --> 00:41:10,593 It was my fault, too. 659 00:41:10,676 --> 00:41:14,054 I just thought-- I ju-- I just didn't think that I'd get so, um-- 660 00:41:18,976 --> 00:41:22,062 It doesn't matter. It is what it is. 661 00:41:24,398 --> 00:41:26,025 We can't see each other. 662 00:41:27,484 --> 00:41:30,029 And we can never, ever speak about this. 663 00:41:35,075 --> 00:41:39,997 I'm so sorry. I'm... I'm so fuckin' sorry. 664 00:41:46,629 --> 00:41:47,963 (shouts): Cassie! 665 00:41:50,299 --> 00:41:51,509 Cass! 666 00:42:03,187 --> 00:42:04,772 -Lexi Howard. -Hi. 667 00:42:04,855 --> 00:42:09,026 -How you doin'? -I'm good, um... 668 00:42:09,109 --> 00:42:13,739 -Hi. I'm Faye. -I'm Lexi, um... 669 00:42:15,407 --> 00:42:17,409 Are, are you guys... 670 00:42:17,493 --> 00:42:21,330 Fezco: Yeah, no, she's just stayin' with me for a bit, 671 00:42:21,413 --> 00:42:23,207 but, but she's cool, though. 672 00:42:24,875 --> 00:42:26,794 What brings you out here anyway? 673 00:42:29,213 --> 00:42:31,632 Oh, I just came to get a, a drink. 674 00:42:35,135 --> 00:42:38,722 Okay, well, we got plenty of those. 675 00:42:38,806 --> 00:42:42,518 Um... do you need help finding anything? 676 00:42:43,644 --> 00:42:45,145 No, I'm okay. 677 00:42:45,229 --> 00:42:48,941 Oh, uh, that's the malt liquor. 678 00:42:50,693 --> 00:42:52,027 Yeah, I know. 679 00:42:56,824 --> 00:42:58,200 (car door closes) 680 00:42:58,284 --> 00:43:02,204 (tense music playing) 681 00:43:06,041 --> 00:43:07,376 (car door closes) 682 00:43:14,758 --> 00:43:16,218 Nate: Cassie! 683 00:43:16,302 --> 00:43:18,512 (airplane flying overhead) 684 00:43:18,596 --> 00:43:20,222 Cass! 685 00:43:24,977 --> 00:43:26,520 Cassie! 686 00:43:35,571 --> 00:43:37,156 Nate: Cassie! 687 00:43:38,282 --> 00:43:40,117 Cassie! 688 00:43:44,413 --> 00:43:46,999 (airplane flying overhead) 689 00:44:20,157 --> 00:44:22,659 (melancholy music playing) 690 00:44:22,743 --> 00:44:24,828 ♪ ♪ 691 00:44:55,567 --> 00:44:58,445 Nate: You don't know how much power you have. 692 00:44:59,113 --> 00:45:00,239 (kissing) 693 00:45:00,322 --> 00:45:01,532 (Cassie moans) 694 00:45:02,366 --> 00:45:03,867 Nate (quietly): Fuck. 695 00:45:18,090 --> 00:45:21,385 How are you ever gonna look Maddy in the eye again? 696 00:45:27,307 --> 00:45:30,936 Feel sorry I didn't get to say goodbye on New Year's. 697 00:45:31,019 --> 00:45:32,271 Good evening. 698 00:45:33,522 --> 00:45:35,274 (tense music playing) 699 00:45:35,357 --> 00:45:36,859 What's up, man? 700 00:45:40,529 --> 00:45:43,449 ♪ ♪ 701 00:45:59,882 --> 00:46:01,300 You got any spearmint gum? 702 00:46:01,383 --> 00:46:04,511 I don't know, man. The gum's right here. 703 00:46:08,515 --> 00:46:10,601 ♪ ♪ 704 00:46:15,063 --> 00:46:17,357 This your store? 705 00:46:17,441 --> 00:46:19,234 It's a family business. 706 00:46:21,612 --> 00:46:23,489 Cal: Do your parents own it? 707 00:46:23,572 --> 00:46:25,407 (bag crinkling) 708 00:46:29,411 --> 00:46:31,955 You usually ask this many questions, man? 709 00:46:37,294 --> 00:46:38,545 Just you. 710 00:46:41,924 --> 00:46:43,967 She tell you who I am? 711 00:46:47,137 --> 00:46:50,599 -Nah, man. -Faye: Are you a cop? 712 00:46:53,060 --> 00:46:54,144 No. 713 00:46:55,771 --> 00:47:11,370 ♪ ♪ 714 00:47:33,642 --> 00:47:35,894 Just a concerned father. 715 00:47:44,194 --> 00:47:48,865 (car door closes, engine starts) 716 00:47:57,833 --> 00:48:00,127 (lights flickering) 717 00:48:01,545 --> 00:48:04,172 (pop music playing on speakers) 718 00:48:06,758 --> 00:48:09,553 You know what's kind of depressing? 719 00:48:09,636 --> 00:48:13,932 -What? -I'll never find that kind of love. 720 00:48:14,808 --> 00:48:16,435 What do you mean? 721 00:48:16,518 --> 00:48:20,689 There's just no darkness. It's just sweet. 722 00:48:21,690 --> 00:48:23,442 Jules: Yeah. 723 00:48:23,525 --> 00:48:25,986 I don't know if that would ever be enough for me. 724 00:48:28,614 --> 00:48:30,741 I don't know... I mean, 725 00:48:30,824 --> 00:48:34,870 I guess some people are just kinda built different. 726 00:48:38,248 --> 00:48:39,541 Yeah. 727 00:48:41,418 --> 00:48:42,919 Guess so. 728 00:48:46,006 --> 00:48:48,925 All: It works if you work it. 729 00:48:49,926 --> 00:48:51,928 (applause) 730 00:48:53,555 --> 00:48:55,098 How 'bout you let me give you a ride home? 731 00:48:55,182 --> 00:48:57,517 Um, I'm okay. I got my, uh, my bike. 732 00:48:57,601 --> 00:49:00,979 Yeah, yeah. I'm not sure you should be behind the handlebars right now. 733 00:49:01,063 --> 00:49:04,566 ("Blue Monk" by Thelonious Monk playing) 734 00:49:07,235 --> 00:49:10,238 -Yo, you ever listen to Thelonious Monk? -No. 735 00:49:10,322 --> 00:49:11,448 -(scoffs) -What? 736 00:49:11,531 --> 00:49:13,825 Greatest jazz pianist who ever lived. 737 00:49:13,909 --> 00:49:16,620 Supposedly, he had huge hands. 738 00:49:16,703 --> 00:49:18,163 He would play like this, 739 00:49:18,246 --> 00:49:20,749 and then he would roll his hands over, 740 00:49:20,832 --> 00:49:22,751 hit the keys... (fades out) 741 00:49:22,834 --> 00:49:25,921 ♪ ♪ 742 00:49:34,304 --> 00:49:36,014 (turns off engine) 743 00:49:36,098 --> 00:49:39,309 -All right. -Okay, what are you doing? 744 00:49:39,393 --> 00:49:42,062 I'm gonna introduce myself to your mother. 745 00:49:42,145 --> 00:49:45,524 -What are you talkin' about? -Rue, if my daughter was gettin' rides home from NA 746 00:49:45,607 --> 00:49:48,068 by a 54-year-old crackhead, and he didn't come to the door 747 00:49:48,151 --> 00:49:50,696 to look me in the eye and shake my hand... 748 00:49:50,779 --> 00:49:52,698 I'd think somethin' was afoot. 749 00:49:52,781 --> 00:49:54,241 O-Okay, but you can't, like, 750 00:49:54,324 --> 00:49:55,826 go in there and start... 751 00:49:55,909 --> 00:50:00,497 -talkin' and stuff, you know? -Oh shit. 752 00:50:00,580 --> 00:50:04,710 You scared I'mma tell your mama you're still doin' drugs, huh? 753 00:50:04,793 --> 00:50:07,254 Oh, the anxiety you must have. 754 00:50:07,337 --> 00:50:09,965 (tense music playing) 755 00:50:14,720 --> 00:50:16,388 (keypad beeping) 756 00:50:21,101 --> 00:50:23,437 (siren wailing in distance) 757 00:50:32,112 --> 00:50:33,697 (exhales) 758 00:50:34,823 --> 00:50:36,199 Rue: Mom? 759 00:50:36,283 --> 00:50:38,994 (indistinct) 760 00:50:44,040 --> 00:50:45,709 Five minutes. Okay? 761 00:50:45,792 --> 00:50:48,128 What is she gonna do for five minutes? 762 00:50:49,045 --> 00:50:50,964 Maddy: I don't even wanna know! 763 00:50:52,924 --> 00:50:54,342 (phone buzzing) 764 00:50:58,138 --> 00:51:01,349 I think I'm gonna get back together with Nate. 765 00:51:03,852 --> 00:51:05,353 It's a mistake, right? 766 00:51:07,314 --> 00:51:11,276 -Don't do it. -I don't know if I can help it. 767 00:51:14,070 --> 00:51:18,283 I wish you could see yourself the way the rest of the world does. 768 00:51:29,085 --> 00:51:33,924 (chuckles) I got two daughters myself, so I know it can't be easy. 769 00:51:35,592 --> 00:51:37,344 I've got a lot of respect for you. 770 00:51:39,012 --> 00:51:42,057 Well, I'm just doin' what I can. 771 00:51:42,140 --> 00:51:43,725 Do you want somethin' to drink or eat? 772 00:51:43,809 --> 00:51:45,268 Do you want to sit down? 773 00:51:45,352 --> 00:51:47,521 Nah, nah, nah. I was just comin' to introduce myself. 774 00:51:47,604 --> 00:51:50,023 I'm sponsorin' the little troublemaker. 775 00:51:54,986 --> 00:51:57,030 But she's doin' well, right? 776 00:52:05,747 --> 00:52:09,793 I can't tell if that's a statement... or a question. 777 00:52:09,876 --> 00:52:11,795 (chuckles) 778 00:52:11,878 --> 00:52:14,256 Well, she's got a long way to go. 779 00:52:15,257 --> 00:52:17,092 But so did I at her age. 780 00:52:20,220 --> 00:52:22,889 (sighs) Oh, well. 781 00:52:22,973 --> 00:52:25,350 -Thank you for having me by. -Leslie: Oh, of course. 782 00:52:25,433 --> 00:52:28,562 -Ali: All right. You have a lovely night. -Leslie: You too. 783 00:52:28,645 --> 00:52:30,021 Good night. 784 00:52:35,277 --> 00:52:36,486 (door opens) 785 00:52:38,280 --> 00:52:39,990 -(door closes) -(Rue sighs) 786 00:52:42,826 --> 00:52:44,578 (car engine starts) 787 00:52:46,329 --> 00:52:47,956 He's handsome. 788 00:52:53,587 --> 00:52:56,047 ♪ ♪ 789 00:53:03,972 --> 00:53:05,390 (thudding) 790 00:53:29,706 --> 00:53:31,291 Faye: Oh... 791 00:53:32,417 --> 00:53:33,835 I'm sorry. 792 00:53:35,253 --> 00:53:36,713 I fell. 793 00:53:40,008 --> 00:53:43,303 Come on, kid. Let's get you to the bed. 794 00:53:47,557 --> 00:53:50,727 Is it true you killed Mouse? 795 00:53:50,810 --> 00:53:52,562 Fezco: Go to sleep. 796 00:54:14,334 --> 00:54:17,462 You want to tell me why some punk drug dealer beat you up? 797 00:54:17,545 --> 00:54:21,174 -Nate: You sure you want to have this conversation? -Yeah, Nate. I do. 798 00:54:23,176 --> 00:54:24,260 Okay. 799 00:54:28,348 --> 00:54:30,558 I don't think you want Mom to hear. 800 00:54:30,642 --> 00:54:31,977 (clears throat) 801 00:54:35,480 --> 00:54:39,109 You remember that classmate of mine that you fucked? Jules? 802 00:54:41,111 --> 00:54:43,571 All right, so she told her best friend... 803 00:54:43,655 --> 00:54:45,824 who told her drug dealer. 804 00:54:45,907 --> 00:54:48,576 And now they keep threatening to go down to the police station, 805 00:54:48,660 --> 00:54:51,705 -and say that you like to fuck little kids. -Fuck. 806 00:54:54,332 --> 00:54:56,543 So maybe I was stickin' up for you. 807 00:55:03,091 --> 00:55:05,719 -I want to apologize-- -I don't need your apologies. 808 00:55:05,802 --> 00:55:07,971 Cal: I need you to understand... 809 00:55:08,054 --> 00:55:10,056 I didn't know she went to your school. 810 00:55:10,140 --> 00:55:12,851 -I didn't know how old she was. -Mm-hm. 811 00:55:12,934 --> 00:55:15,770 Well, what she didn't know is that you were filming her. 812 00:55:19,441 --> 00:55:20,984 Do you have it? 813 00:55:22,736 --> 00:55:25,864 (funky electronic music playing) 814 00:55:25,947 --> 00:55:27,657 Cal: Nate? 815 00:55:30,118 --> 00:55:31,745 Do you have it? 816 00:55:34,456 --> 00:55:36,583 ♪ Yeh I fuckin' did it Yeh I fuckin' said it ♪ 817 00:55:36,666 --> 00:55:38,460 ♪ Yeh I meant it Yeh I'm here to kill it ♪ 818 00:55:38,543 --> 00:55:40,336 ♪ Came here for the money Yeh there's plenty ♪ 819 00:55:40,420 --> 00:55:42,338 ♪ Poppin' like we're corn Yeh the pot is cookin' ♪ 820 00:55:42,422 --> 00:55:44,257 ♪ We so hungry I could eat a horse ♪ 821 00:55:44,340 --> 00:55:46,509 ♪ Tell that bitch I'll ride her like a stally (whoa) ♪ 822 00:55:46,593 --> 00:55:47,886 ♪ And we're coming for that bread ♪ 823 00:55:47,969 --> 00:55:49,220 ♪ You can do the tally ♪ 824 00:55:49,304 --> 00:55:50,847 ♪ Yeh, I look like Sammy Davis Jr. ♪ 825 00:55:50,930 --> 00:55:52,432 ♪ But I'm still the Frankie (Whoa) ♪ 826 00:55:52,515 --> 00:55:54,934 ♪ Keep them cameras rolling When I roll up in the lamy ♪ 827 00:55:55,018 --> 00:55:56,936 ♪ Cos' I fuckin' did it Yeh I fuckin' said it ♪ 828 00:55:57,020 --> 00:55:58,271 ♪ Understand me ♪ 829 00:55:58,354 --> 00:56:00,732 ♪ Watch me sling a couple shots with that 40 magy ♪ 830 00:56:00,815 --> 00:56:03,568 ♪ Tell them fuckin' cowboys it's a hootnanny ♪ 831 00:56:03,651 --> 00:56:06,613 ♪ Baby they'll be singing from New York to the West of Cali ♪ 832 00:56:06,696 --> 00:56:08,823 ♪ Cos' I fuckin' did it Yeh I fuckin' said it ♪ 833 00:56:08,907 --> 00:56:11,034 ♪ Understand me High on that money flow ♪ 834 00:56:11,117 --> 00:56:13,870 ♪ Ride like that Calito Fly in that Taxido ♪ 835 00:56:13,953 --> 00:56:16,623 ♪ Find me in Monaco High on that Mexico ♪ 836 00:56:16,706 --> 00:56:19,751 ♪ Cuban and Henny go Ape when my shit evolved ♪ 837 00:56:19,834 --> 00:56:21,419 ♪ Cake getting had and gulped ♪ 838 00:56:21,503 --> 00:56:23,838 ♪ ♪ 839 00:56:26,966 --> 00:56:28,384 ♪ Praise the lord ♪ 840 00:56:30,053 --> 00:56:32,430 ♪ Cos' I fuckin' did it Yeh I fuckin' said it ♪ 841 00:56:32,514 --> 00:56:33,807 ♪ Understand me ♪ 842 00:56:37,060 --> 00:56:39,479 ♪ Yeh I fuckin' said it Understand me ♪ 843 00:56:41,022 --> 00:56:45,485 ♪ Understand me ♪ 844 00:56:46,945 --> 00:56:48,696 ♪ Understand me Cos' I fuckin' did it ♪ 845 00:56:48,780 --> 00:56:50,824 ♪ Yeh I fuckin' said it Understand me ♪ 846 00:56:56,079 --> 00:56:58,331 ♪ Cos' I fuckin' did it Yeh I fuckin' said it ♪ 847 00:56:58,414 --> 00:56:59,833 ♪ Understand me ♪