1 00:00:19,625 --> 00:00:21,083 ♪ (MUSIC PLAYS) ♪ 2 00:00:21,625 --> 00:00:24,667 ALI: What happens in a month, six months, a year? 3 00:00:24,750 --> 00:00:27,416 When she tells you she just wants to be friends? 4 00:00:28,124 --> 00:00:30,583 Nate, why would I do a single thing for you? 5 00:00:31,041 --> 00:00:32,249 'Cause I'll put you in jail. 6 00:00:32,917 --> 00:00:34,500 I need you to get in your car and drive down 7 00:00:34,583 --> 00:00:35,792 to the East Island police station. 8 00:00:35,875 --> 00:00:37,500 You're going to walk up to the receptionist, 9 00:00:37,583 --> 00:00:39,792 and you're gonna tell her you'd like to confess to a crime. 10 00:00:39,875 --> 00:00:40,917 OFFICER: Do you recognize that man? 11 00:00:41,249 --> 00:00:43,667 He's the guy who assaulted me the night of the carnival. 12 00:00:45,958 --> 00:00:47,416 Can you please get out of the pool? 13 00:00:47,500 --> 00:00:50,124 JULES VAUGHN: This whole town is so fucking boring. 14 00:00:54,625 --> 00:00:57,708 RUE: I'm a burden, and it is what it is and it's embarrassing 15 00:00:57,792 --> 00:00:58,917 so I'm sorry. 16 00:01:00,291 --> 00:01:02,333 No funny business, Christopher! 17 00:01:04,291 --> 00:01:06,583 ♪ (MUSIC CONCLUDES) ♪ 18 00:01:07,124 --> 00:01:08,083 Fuck. 19 00:01:16,333 --> 00:01:18,041 ♪ 20 00:01:18,124 --> 00:01:20,958 ("Didn't I Blow Your Mind This Time" by the Delfonics plays) 21 00:01:21,541 --> 00:01:23,708 (indistinct chatter) 22 00:01:23,792 --> 00:01:26,500 Rue: Cassie's dad was really handsome. 23 00:01:26,583 --> 00:01:30,667 The kind of handsome that made people treat him differently. 24 00:01:33,375 --> 00:01:36,833 ♪ I gave my heart and soul to you, girl... ♪ 25 00:01:36,917 --> 00:01:39,875 Rue: Her mom used to get really upset at him for flirting. 26 00:01:39,958 --> 00:01:41,833 Party guests: ♪ Happy birthday to you ♪ 27 00:01:41,917 --> 00:01:44,750 Rue: Which wasn't fair. It wasn't his fault. 28 00:01:44,833 --> 00:01:46,833 He really loved her. 29 00:01:47,999 --> 00:01:50,124 He really loved them all. 30 00:01:50,208 --> 00:01:53,875 ♪ ...you never knew girl, oh ♪ 31 00:01:53,958 --> 00:01:56,041 ♪ Didn't I do it, baby ♪ 32 00:01:56,124 --> 00:01:59,583 Rue: Her dad always wanted her to become a professional ice skater. 33 00:01:59,667 --> 00:02:01,750 Wow. Thank you! 34 00:02:01,833 --> 00:02:03,708 Aw, happy birthday, kiddo. 35 00:02:03,792 --> 00:02:06,458 Rue: And for a while, she thought she might. 36 00:02:06,541 --> 00:02:07,792 She was a natural. 37 00:02:07,875 --> 00:02:10,375 ♪ It seems to make you laugh ♪ 38 00:02:10,458 --> 00:02:11,708 ♪ Each time I cry ♪ 39 00:02:11,792 --> 00:02:13,458 Rue: But her dad couldn't afford lessons, 40 00:02:13,541 --> 00:02:16,625 so he stopped encouraging her. 41 00:02:16,708 --> 00:02:19,625 When she hit puberty, her mother and her became best friends. 42 00:02:19,708 --> 00:02:21,750 Suze: You're an angel. 43 00:02:23,416 --> 00:02:25,875 I feel like a big baby. 44 00:02:26,750 --> 00:02:30,708 Cassie, woman to woman, hmm? 45 00:02:30,792 --> 00:02:32,625 You're perfect. 46 00:02:32,708 --> 00:02:34,875 ♪ I thought that heart of yours was true, girl ♪ 47 00:02:36,083 --> 00:02:38,291 ♪ Now didn't I think it, baby ♪ 48 00:02:38,375 --> 00:02:41,416 -Holy moly, look at you. -What? 49 00:02:42,208 --> 00:02:44,917 You're gonna be a real heart breaker. 50 00:02:44,999 --> 00:02:46,750 Trust me. 51 00:02:46,833 --> 00:02:48,958 Rue: And it wasn't just her body that changed. 52 00:02:49,041 --> 00:02:50,333 But the rest of the world, too. 53 00:02:50,416 --> 00:02:51,583 You remember Uncle Ted? 54 00:02:51,667 --> 00:02:53,667 Oh, boy, look at you. All grown up. 55 00:02:53,750 --> 00:02:55,333 Come on, give me a hug. 56 00:02:55,416 --> 00:02:59,583 -You really filled out. -Sassy Cassie. Come here. 57 00:02:59,667 --> 00:03:03,166 I bet you got all the boys wrapped around your finger. 58 00:03:03,249 --> 00:03:04,625 Boop. 59 00:03:04,708 --> 00:03:06,333 (both chuckle softly) 60 00:03:06,416 --> 00:03:08,166 Rue: Their family wasn't perfect. 61 00:03:08,249 --> 00:03:10,249 ("Eli's Coming" by the Nylons plays) 62 00:03:10,333 --> 00:03:13,333 Her mom had, you know, some issues. 63 00:03:13,416 --> 00:03:16,124 Oh, my God. 64 00:03:16,208 --> 00:03:18,958 Rue: And her dad struggled to keep a steady income. 65 00:03:19,041 --> 00:03:22,291 ♪ Everywhere I go ♪ 66 00:03:22,375 --> 00:03:25,541 -♪ Eli's a comin' ♪ - ♪ She walked, but she never got away ♪ 67 00:03:25,625 --> 00:03:28,667 -♪ Eli's a comin' ♪ -♪ She walked, but she never got away ♪ 68 00:03:28,750 --> 00:03:30,124 (Suze and Gus arguing) 69 00:03:30,208 --> 00:03:31,875 -Suze: Fuck you. -Gus: This is my family-- 70 00:03:31,958 --> 00:03:34,583 -Rue: And they fought. -(indistinct arguing) 71 00:03:34,667 --> 00:03:37,625 In the way all parents kind of fight. 72 00:03:38,291 --> 00:03:40,333 -(glass shattering) -(Suze yelling) 73 00:03:40,416 --> 00:03:43,625 Rue: Except for the night before she started ninth grade. 74 00:03:45,750 --> 00:03:49,416 (muffled arguing) 75 00:03:51,667 --> 00:03:55,333 (muffled arguing continues) 76 00:03:59,333 --> 00:04:03,041 Rue: Her mom told her that her dad was just being irrational. 77 00:04:03,124 --> 00:04:06,541 Your father had some serious jealousy issues. 78 00:04:06,625 --> 00:04:08,541 Let me tell you. 79 00:04:08,625 --> 00:04:11,375 Plus, he couldn't hold a steady job to save his life. 80 00:04:11,458 --> 00:04:15,458 I just think he didn't want the responsibility of being a father. 81 00:04:17,458 --> 00:04:20,208 It's too much work. 82 00:04:20,291 --> 00:04:22,583 Rue: But Cassie had heard differently. 83 00:04:22,667 --> 00:04:24,958 My mom said your mom cheated on your dad. 84 00:04:25,041 --> 00:04:26,999 And that's why he left. 85 00:04:27,083 --> 00:04:28,833 What? 86 00:04:31,333 --> 00:04:33,833 (shuddering) 87 00:04:35,708 --> 00:04:38,458 Rue: At first, she was really angry at her mom. 88 00:04:38,541 --> 00:04:41,708 She resented her for being such a hypocrite. 89 00:04:42,166 --> 00:04:45,667 -(liquid pouring) -(indistinct chatter on TV) 90 00:04:47,667 --> 00:04:51,541 Rue: But then she realized that her dad wasn't perfect. 91 00:04:51,625 --> 00:04:53,458 I don't know if I want to be associated with herpes 92 00:04:53,541 --> 00:04:54,667 but, you know... 93 00:04:54,750 --> 00:04:56,249 Rue: And her mom wasn't either, 94 00:04:56,333 --> 00:04:59,041 and maybe they just weren't right for each other. 95 00:05:00,708 --> 00:05:03,333 (all laughing) 96 00:05:03,416 --> 00:05:06,249 Rue: He used to visit them on weekends. 97 00:05:06,333 --> 00:05:08,083 Bye, Dad. 98 00:05:11,667 --> 00:05:13,375 -Bye, Dad. -Rue: But, eventually, 99 00:05:13,458 --> 00:05:15,375 it became once every couple of weeks. 100 00:05:17,375 --> 00:05:19,124 He said he was coming. 101 00:05:19,208 --> 00:05:22,166 Rue: And then sometimes, more than a month would go by. 102 00:05:24,375 --> 00:05:27,500 (indistinct chatter) 103 00:05:27,583 --> 00:05:29,833 -Rue: Then one night... -(car horn blares) 104 00:05:29,917 --> 00:05:32,249 ...he was driving home from work... 105 00:05:34,291 --> 00:05:36,999 -(truck horn horns) -(glass shattering) 106 00:05:37,083 --> 00:05:39,583 ...and was in the ICU for 23 days. 107 00:05:40,999 --> 00:05:44,083 The doctors were afraid he'd never walk again. 108 00:05:46,458 --> 00:05:49,083 But Cassie knew he was strong, and that he'd get better. 109 00:05:54,208 --> 00:05:56,625 He was prescribed fentanyl for pain. 110 00:05:57,625 --> 00:06:00,291 Promethazine to offset the nausea. 111 00:06:00,375 --> 00:06:01,958 Liquid Lorazepam to sleep, 112 00:06:02,041 --> 00:06:04,583 and Imitrex injections for migraines. 113 00:06:07,541 --> 00:06:11,333 ♪ ♪ 114 00:06:11,416 --> 00:06:14,541 Cassie would text him and talk to him. 115 00:06:17,958 --> 00:06:21,291 But as more time went by, the less responsive he became. 116 00:06:22,750 --> 00:06:24,208 And eventually, months went by, 117 00:06:24,291 --> 00:06:27,083 and she didn't hear from him at all. 118 00:06:27,166 --> 00:06:30,291 Until one night, a week after her 15th birthday, 119 00:06:30,375 --> 00:06:34,458 she got a text from a random number at about 1:00 in the morning. 120 00:06:36,124 --> 00:06:37,458 (phone bloops) 121 00:06:40,375 --> 00:06:41,625 (phone bloops) 122 00:06:46,875 --> 00:06:49,625 (garage door squeaks open) 123 00:06:49,708 --> 00:06:52,458 And even though she was excited to see him 124 00:06:52,541 --> 00:06:54,041 and wanted to hug him, 125 00:06:54,124 --> 00:06:57,208 there was something about the whole thing that scared her. 126 00:06:57,291 --> 00:06:59,124 I want you to know there's never a day goes by 127 00:06:59,208 --> 00:07:00,833 I don't think about you. 128 00:07:02,041 --> 00:07:04,792 The number you texted me from. 129 00:07:05,667 --> 00:07:07,500 Can I call you? 130 00:07:09,958 --> 00:07:12,208 That's my friend's phone. 131 00:07:12,291 --> 00:07:15,708 But I promise I'll reach you to you with my new number, I... 132 00:07:17,500 --> 00:07:19,999 Don't cry, baby. (exhales) 133 00:07:21,166 --> 00:07:23,667 I'm okay. I'm fine. Don't... 134 00:07:25,875 --> 00:07:28,833 I just miss you, Dad. 135 00:07:30,708 --> 00:07:33,500 I miss you, okay. I love you. 136 00:07:39,333 --> 00:07:41,249 Rue: He said he needed a few things, 137 00:07:41,333 --> 00:07:44,333 and made her promise that she wouldn't tell a soul. 138 00:07:58,166 --> 00:07:59,999 (sniffles) 139 00:08:04,375 --> 00:08:07,458 (door clatters) 140 00:08:07,541 --> 00:08:08,917 Rue: Cassie kept her promise, 141 00:08:08,999 --> 00:08:11,833 and never told anyone about that night. 142 00:08:11,917 --> 00:08:16,083 -She also never saw her dad again. -(door shuts) 143 00:08:16,166 --> 00:08:19,166 She fell in love with every guy she ever dated. 144 00:08:20,500 --> 00:08:22,249 Whether they were smart or stupid 145 00:08:22,333 --> 00:08:24,750 or sweet or cruel, it didn't matter. 146 00:08:31,333 --> 00:08:33,958 ♪ ♪ 147 00:08:41,083 --> 00:08:43,291 She didn't like to be alone. 148 00:08:44,041 --> 00:08:47,625 -What are you doing? -Ex-boyfriend 1: I'm just filming you. 149 00:08:48,249 --> 00:08:49,667 Why? 150 00:08:49,750 --> 00:08:53,166 Rue: And every guy she ever dated asked for the same things. 151 00:08:53,249 --> 00:08:56,583 -Ex-boyfriend 2: Can I film you sucking my dick? -What? No! 152 00:08:56,667 --> 00:08:59,458 -What? Stop. -Ex-boyfriend 3: Let's make a sex tape. 153 00:08:59,541 --> 00:09:03,083 -What? Get out of here. -Ex-boyfriend 4: Come on. I won't tell anyone. 154 00:09:03,166 --> 00:09:04,833 -Ex-boyfriend 5: It's not that big of a deal. -Yes, it is. 155 00:09:04,917 --> 00:09:06,041 I don't wanna do this. 156 00:09:06,124 --> 00:09:07,958 Rue: And she almost always said yes. 157 00:09:08,041 --> 00:09:10,291 Even though it didn't always make her feel good. 158 00:09:13,625 --> 00:09:16,375 And she knew that most guys, after she broke up with them, 159 00:09:16,458 --> 00:09:18,541 would always share those photos or videos. 160 00:09:18,625 --> 00:09:20,041 (moaning, slapping in video) 161 00:09:20,124 --> 00:09:22,999 The first time she found out, she had a panic attack, 162 00:09:23,083 --> 00:09:25,958 and wanted to swallow a whole bottle of Tylenol. 163 00:09:27,541 --> 00:09:29,333 But she didn't. Because, I mean, 164 00:09:29,416 --> 00:09:31,124 what's the worst thing anybody could say to her? 165 00:09:31,208 --> 00:09:33,875 That she gave a blowjob to a guy who didn't deserve it? 166 00:09:33,958 --> 00:09:36,166 And she figured by the time she was out of college 167 00:09:36,249 --> 00:09:38,208 and looking for a job, 99 percent of the population 168 00:09:38,291 --> 00:09:40,625 would have leaked nudes, anyway. 169 00:09:41,541 --> 00:09:43,541 ♪ 170 00:09:43,625 --> 00:09:46,333 And then, at the beginning of the year, she met McKay. 171 00:09:46,416 --> 00:09:48,458 And fell in love with him. 172 00:09:48,541 --> 00:09:50,541 And he fell in love with her. 173 00:09:50,625 --> 00:09:53,208 -I love you. -Rue: And even though things weren't perfect, 174 00:09:53,291 --> 00:09:55,583 he loved her for who she was. 175 00:09:55,667 --> 00:09:57,583 And even though she had made a couple of mistakes, 176 00:09:57,667 --> 00:09:59,083 I mean, they weren't big ones. 177 00:09:59,166 --> 00:10:01,583 They weren't the kind of things you couldn't come back from. 178 00:10:01,667 --> 00:10:05,833 ♪ Don't you know being so close ♪ 179 00:10:05,917 --> 00:10:07,958 ♪ To the edge ♪ 180 00:10:09,375 --> 00:10:12,541 ♪ When you are near me ♪ 181 00:10:14,041 --> 00:10:17,500 ♪ Ooh aah ♪ 182 00:10:24,166 --> 00:10:26,875 (soft piano music plays) 183 00:10:39,375 --> 00:10:42,583 Narrator (on computer screen): Previously on Love Island ... 184 00:10:42,667 --> 00:10:45,750 Laura (on computer screen): G rab the amazing-ness that you have with Josh 185 00:10:45,833 --> 00:10:47,291 by the balls. 186 00:10:47,375 --> 00:10:50,750 Rue: People are always telling me about great TV shows. 187 00:10:50,833 --> 00:10:53,124 How I just have to watch this show. 188 00:10:53,208 --> 00:10:56,750 But the truth is, I don't want good TV. 189 00:10:56,833 --> 00:10:58,792 I don't want a novel, or some slow burn, 190 00:10:58,875 --> 00:11:00,792 or anything that feels like work. 191 00:11:00,875 --> 00:11:02,541 That's why I love reality TV. 192 00:11:02,625 --> 00:11:06,333 It's funny, it's dramatic, and I can focus on it. 193 00:11:06,416 --> 00:11:09,291 It's pure, effortless entertainment. 194 00:11:10,583 --> 00:11:13,833 Narrator (on computer screen): Romance hits the rocks. 195 00:11:13,917 --> 00:11:15,999 Man (on computer screen): She doesn't talk to me, she doesn't acknowledge me. 196 00:11:16,083 --> 00:11:18,041 -She's playing a game. -Woman (on computer screen): Honestly... 197 00:11:18,124 --> 00:11:19,333 Rue: I want to lay down one moment 198 00:11:19,416 --> 00:11:20,999 and then look around the next 199 00:11:21,083 --> 00:11:22,458 and realize I have watched 200 00:11:22,541 --> 00:11:24,208 22 straight hours of Love Island 201 00:11:24,291 --> 00:11:25,833 over a two-day period... 202 00:11:25,917 --> 00:11:29,500 -...and yearn for more. -(music plays on computer screen) 203 00:11:29,583 --> 00:11:32,667 Some people may find that depressing. 204 00:11:32,750 --> 00:11:34,583 I don't. 205 00:11:37,416 --> 00:11:40,375 It is, however, a good way to measure depression. 206 00:11:40,458 --> 00:11:43,166 Because when reality TV begins to feel like work, 207 00:11:43,249 --> 00:11:45,958 like, final season of Mad Men work, 208 00:11:46,041 --> 00:11:48,458 you know you're depressed. 209 00:11:48,541 --> 00:11:53,333 Like, haven't got out of bed to pee in 24 hours depressed. 210 00:11:54,124 --> 00:11:56,833 (liquid sloshing) 211 00:11:56,917 --> 00:11:58,750 (indistinct TV chatter) 212 00:12:02,083 --> 00:12:04,083 Cassie: Do I look different to you? 213 00:12:04,917 --> 00:12:06,541 You look fine to me. 214 00:12:06,625 --> 00:12:08,708 'Cause I feel different. 215 00:12:08,792 --> 00:12:10,750 Okay, well, you don't look it. 216 00:12:11,667 --> 00:12:13,833 I don't think I'm gonna go to school today. 217 00:12:13,917 --> 00:12:18,124 -'Cause of Daniel? -No, not 'cause of Daniel, Lexi! 218 00:12:18,208 --> 00:12:20,458 Daniel's the last fucking thing I care about right now. 219 00:12:20,541 --> 00:12:22,291 Okay, well, it's all you ever fucking talk about. 220 00:12:22,375 --> 00:12:26,083 That's not true! I asked you how I look. Not about Daniel! 221 00:12:26,166 --> 00:12:27,917 Yeah, well, you look beautiful, Cassie. 222 00:12:27,999 --> 00:12:29,208 You look fucking amazing. 223 00:12:29,291 --> 00:12:30,999 It's literally all anyone's ever told you 224 00:12:31,083 --> 00:12:32,249 your entire life. 225 00:12:32,333 --> 00:12:35,500 Like, listen to yourself. It's fucking exhausting. 226 00:12:37,792 --> 00:12:39,208 (door slams) 227 00:12:51,583 --> 00:12:54,541 (TV show plays indistinctly on computer) 228 00:13:02,833 --> 00:13:04,917 Rue: The thought of having to stand up, 229 00:13:04,999 --> 00:13:09,500 exert 172 muscles each step for 35 feet, 230 00:13:09,583 --> 00:13:12,458 just so I can sit on cold porcelain and piss out toxins 231 00:13:12,541 --> 00:13:15,249 over and over again for the rest of my life 232 00:13:15,333 --> 00:13:17,375 makes the whole concept of living 233 00:13:17,458 --> 00:13:20,667 feel like one long, sadistic joke. 234 00:13:22,375 --> 00:13:25,833 But the absolute worst part of depression 235 00:13:25,917 --> 00:13:28,124 is that even though you know you're depressed, 236 00:13:28,208 --> 00:13:31,541 you're unable to stop yourself from getting worse. 237 00:13:33,375 --> 00:13:36,541 But I wasn't the only one feeling down. 238 00:13:36,999 --> 00:13:38,500 (door opens) 239 00:13:38,583 --> 00:13:41,708 Jules' dad: Jules? What's wrong? 240 00:13:41,792 --> 00:13:46,208 -I'm sick. -Okay. Let me know if you need anything. 241 00:13:47,917 --> 00:13:49,458 -(door closes) -Rue: After Halloween, 242 00:13:49,541 --> 00:13:52,041 Jules didn't go to school for a full week. 243 00:13:55,458 --> 00:13:59,291 And even though I sent her about 50 texts, she didn't respond. 244 00:13:59,750 --> 00:14:01,500 Happy Halloween. 245 00:14:01,583 --> 00:14:04,249 Rue: I could tell something bad had happened. 246 00:14:04,333 --> 00:14:06,917 And that it had something to do with Nate. 247 00:14:12,833 --> 00:14:14,958 (camera shutter clicks three times) 248 00:14:15,041 --> 00:14:18,458 -(door buzzes) -Rue: Tyler Clarkson was booked for assault. 249 00:14:20,750 --> 00:14:25,083 But this shit wasn't adding up. 250 00:14:25,166 --> 00:14:27,875 And I was putting together the pieces of the puzzle. 251 00:14:27,958 --> 00:14:31,208 -(sizzling) -Howard, let's roll. 252 00:14:31,291 --> 00:14:34,416 I wasn't gonna stop until I got the truth. 253 00:14:34,917 --> 00:14:36,249 (PA buzzes) 254 00:14:36,333 --> 00:14:38,667 Woman (over PA): False accusations in today's world 255 00:14:38,750 --> 00:14:40,500 can cause serious long-term damage 256 00:14:40,583 --> 00:14:44,124 to one's career, reputation, and emotional well-being. 257 00:14:46,792 --> 00:14:49,541 We all owe Nate Jacobs a heartfelt apology, 258 00:14:49,625 --> 00:14:50,917 and are excited and thrilled 259 00:14:50,999 --> 00:14:53,792 to have him back at East Highland. 260 00:14:53,875 --> 00:14:55,958 Lexi: Why would Jules lie to help Nate? 261 00:14:56,041 --> 00:14:57,208 I don't know. 262 00:14:57,291 --> 00:15:00,083 -Well, have you asked her about it? -No. 263 00:15:00,166 --> 00:15:02,166 -You haven't asked her? -No. 264 00:15:02,249 --> 00:15:04,124 Rue: Keep looking, you mook. 265 00:15:04,208 --> 00:15:08,208 I'm Morgan fuckin' Freeman and this is the beginning of the third act. 266 00:15:08,291 --> 00:15:11,124 Well, doesn't that seem like the first logical step? 267 00:15:12,750 --> 00:15:16,041 Honestly, Howard, this whole thing is beyond logic. 268 00:15:16,124 --> 00:15:18,875 -(match scraping) -Unless... 269 00:15:21,541 --> 00:15:22,999 Jules is in love with Nate. 270 00:15:23,416 --> 00:15:26,375 -Lexi: Why would Jules be in love with Nate? -You should listen to me. 271 00:15:26,458 --> 00:15:28,625 -Bennett, the cigarettes are killing me. -Hear me out. Listen. Listen. 272 00:15:28,708 --> 00:15:30,583 Listen, the night of the carnival, she said she wanted 273 00:15:30,667 --> 00:15:32,500 to go meet up with this guy she met online, okay? 274 00:15:32,583 --> 00:15:35,124 He's some fuckin' jock, he's from a conservative family, 275 00:15:35,208 --> 00:15:37,291 and they were talking and texting. 276 00:15:37,375 --> 00:15:38,999 They've been texting for weeks. 277 00:15:39,083 --> 00:15:42,416 And when I say texting, I don't just mean regular fuckin' texting. 278 00:15:42,500 --> 00:15:45,458 -They were sexting. -(match strikes) 279 00:15:45,541 --> 00:15:49,375 -Like nudes? -Yeah. Side note, 280 00:15:49,458 --> 00:15:51,500 very nice dick. Very clean room. 281 00:15:51,583 --> 00:15:52,917 Oh. 282 00:15:52,999 --> 00:15:54,833 She never fucking say his face. 283 00:15:54,917 --> 00:15:57,083 Yeah, so Jules is catfished. 284 00:15:57,166 --> 00:15:58,833 Now hear me out. So the night of the carnival, 285 00:15:58,917 --> 00:16:00,041 she made plans with this guy 286 00:16:00,124 --> 00:16:01,458 to meet up with him at the lake, okay? 287 00:16:01,541 --> 00:16:03,124 I fucking go home. Next thing I know... 288 00:16:03,208 --> 00:16:05,166 -(knocking) -...she's fucking knocking at my window. 289 00:16:05,249 --> 00:16:06,583 -(knocking) -She's all emotional, 290 00:16:06,667 --> 00:16:08,041 she's got fucking tears in her eyes. 291 00:16:08,124 --> 00:16:10,875 I say, Jules, what the fuck happened? 292 00:16:10,958 --> 00:16:13,083 She looks at me. She goes... 293 00:16:13,833 --> 00:16:16,124 "He didn't look like his pictures." 294 00:16:16,708 --> 00:16:19,166 Yeah, that's like, the definition of catfishing. 295 00:16:19,249 --> 00:16:21,667 No, but do you know what his name was? 296 00:16:22,458 --> 00:16:25,208 -Nate Jacobs? -Tyler. 297 00:16:27,375 --> 00:16:29,999 Like, Tyler Clarkson? 298 00:16:31,500 --> 00:16:33,792 You're goddamned right. 299 00:16:34,375 --> 00:16:38,124 Maddy is 17, Tyler's 22, and they fornicated. 300 00:16:38,208 --> 00:16:42,249 -Statutory. -Yeah. You saw it, I saw it. We all fucking saw it. 301 00:16:42,333 --> 00:16:45,958 -Including Nate. -And what is a lighter offense than statutory? 302 00:16:46,041 --> 00:16:47,583 Assault. 303 00:16:47,667 --> 00:16:49,583 -(slams) -Bingo! 304 00:16:52,750 --> 00:16:55,249 Rue, are you pouring coffee in the water filter? 305 00:16:55,333 --> 00:16:57,124 -Yes, I am. -Instead of water? 306 00:16:57,208 --> 00:16:58,750 -Yes, I am. -Well, please, don't do that. 307 00:16:58,833 --> 00:17:01,583 And it's late. You shouldn't be drinking caffeine. 308 00:17:01,667 --> 00:17:04,166 Mom, please. I have homework. 309 00:17:04,249 --> 00:17:06,875 Well, there's a sentence I never thought I'd hear. 310 00:17:06,958 --> 00:17:09,416 (coffee pot gurgling) 311 00:17:09,500 --> 00:17:11,708 Will you let me know when this is ready? 312 00:17:13,166 --> 00:17:15,291 -(phone rings) -Lexi (over phone): Hello? 313 00:17:15,375 --> 00:17:16,958 Howard, it's Bennett. 314 00:17:17,041 --> 00:17:19,375 Lexi (over phone): It's 2:45 in the morning. Don't you ever sleep? 315 00:17:19,458 --> 00:17:23,083 Listen, why would Nate single out Jules in the first place? 316 00:17:23,166 --> 00:17:25,917 It's obvious he was sexually attracted to her. 317 00:17:27,917 --> 00:17:30,917 And because Jules is predominantly het, okay, 318 00:17:30,999 --> 00:17:34,375 he wooed her with his, uh, fucking creepy jock magic shit. 319 00:17:34,458 --> 00:17:36,875 She's super fuckin' sensitive, she's very forgiving, 320 00:17:36,958 --> 00:17:40,708 and she's basically the most wonderful fucking person on the planet... 321 00:17:40,792 --> 00:17:42,625 she fell for him. 322 00:17:42,708 --> 00:17:44,792 That's why she fucking testified. 323 00:17:44,875 --> 00:17:47,875 I'm a genius. I'm a fucking genius. 324 00:17:47,958 --> 00:17:50,667 Hey, Mom! I'm a fucking genius. 325 00:17:51,958 --> 00:17:53,500 I'm not even tired. It's crazy. 326 00:17:53,583 --> 00:17:55,124 I'm not even fucking tired. 327 00:17:55,208 --> 00:17:56,541 I feel amazing. (chuckles) 328 00:17:56,625 --> 00:17:59,041 Lexi (over phone): I'll be honest with you, Bennett. 329 00:17:59,124 --> 00:18:00,833 You're too close to this case. 330 00:18:00,917 --> 00:18:03,917 -(phone clicks) -(dial tone) 331 00:18:04,375 --> 00:18:05,833 (slams) 332 00:18:07,958 --> 00:18:09,333 (exhales) 333 00:18:12,458 --> 00:18:15,458 -Who was that? -Lexi: Rue. 334 00:18:16,375 --> 00:18:20,833 -Think she's in, like, a manic state. -Cassie: Is she okay? 335 00:18:22,083 --> 00:18:24,041 I don't think so. 336 00:18:24,124 --> 00:18:26,541 (keyboard keys clicking) 337 00:18:37,416 --> 00:18:39,833 -(beeps) -Fuck. 338 00:18:42,166 --> 00:18:43,999 (sighs) 339 00:18:50,124 --> 00:18:52,625 I don't know what you're gonna say, but this feels like... 340 00:18:52,708 --> 00:18:54,917 really dramatic. 341 00:18:54,999 --> 00:18:57,249 Yeah, this is spooky. 342 00:18:57,333 --> 00:18:59,708 It is not spooky, BB. 343 00:19:00,375 --> 00:19:04,291 I just, I need your advice on, like, two things. 344 00:19:04,375 --> 00:19:08,083 And I need you guys to promise me not to say a single fucking word. 345 00:19:11,541 --> 00:19:15,458 So, the night of Daniel's Halloween party, 346 00:19:15,541 --> 00:19:17,875 something happened. 347 00:19:22,083 --> 00:19:25,375 ♪ 348 00:19:25,458 --> 00:19:27,958 (groaning) 349 00:19:28,249 --> 00:19:31,124 -(Kat panting) -I don't usually come that fast. 350 00:19:33,041 --> 00:19:35,083 That was amazing. 351 00:19:35,166 --> 00:19:36,708 (sighs) 352 00:19:36,792 --> 00:19:39,875 It's funny. I always thought I was gonna lose my virginity to you. 353 00:19:40,416 --> 00:19:42,750 (both panting softly) 354 00:19:43,750 --> 00:19:47,792 -You're a virgin? -No, I mean, when we were younger. 355 00:19:47,875 --> 00:19:51,583 -When we dated. -We dated? 356 00:19:53,583 --> 00:19:55,541 Yeah, in sixth grade. 357 00:19:57,291 --> 00:19:58,792 You and me? 358 00:19:59,583 --> 00:20:02,583 Yeah, for like five months. 359 00:20:04,124 --> 00:20:05,625 Oh. 360 00:20:06,208 --> 00:20:09,958 I literally have no recollection of that. (groans) 361 00:20:14,291 --> 00:20:16,500 Wait. Am I hearing this correctly? 362 00:20:16,583 --> 00:20:18,750 You want to tell McKay that you made out with Daniel 363 00:20:18,833 --> 00:20:20,625 at the carnival and on Halloween? 364 00:20:20,708 --> 00:20:22,750 Yeah, but, I don't-- I don't have to say it's Daniel. 365 00:20:22,833 --> 00:20:25,541 Bitch, that's the craziest idea I've ever heard. Right? 366 00:20:25,625 --> 00:20:26,875 For sure. 367 00:20:26,958 --> 00:20:30,500 -Yeah, but I want to be honest with him. -(groans) 368 00:20:31,458 --> 00:20:34,958 -You cannot tell McKay. -But it's not like I cheated-cheated. 369 00:20:35,041 --> 00:20:38,041 Kissing is worse. It's so much more intimate. 370 00:20:38,124 --> 00:20:41,291 And if anybody brings it up, you deny, deny, deny. 371 00:20:41,375 --> 00:20:43,124 Okay, but, I just-- I don't want there to be 372 00:20:43,208 --> 00:20:44,625 something this bad between us forever. 373 00:20:44,708 --> 00:20:46,375 I wouldn't worry about it, Cassie. It's not like 374 00:20:46,458 --> 00:20:48,375 you guys are gonna be together forever. 375 00:20:48,458 --> 00:20:50,500 Kat, what the fuck is your problem? 376 00:20:50,583 --> 00:20:53,124 You're being a bad friend now. You were a bad friend to me, 377 00:20:53,208 --> 00:20:56,249 and this whole new personality is seriously unlikable. 378 00:20:56,333 --> 00:20:57,750 World Star! 379 00:20:57,833 --> 00:20:59,416 Why, because I won't sit and listen to you bitch and moan 380 00:20:59,500 --> 00:21:01,416 about your psychotic, abusive boyfriend 381 00:21:01,500 --> 00:21:03,708 who you've literally broken up with a thousand times? 382 00:21:03,792 --> 00:21:06,792 It was literally the lowest point in my life, so, yeah. 383 00:21:06,875 --> 00:21:08,999 That and the fact that you're just fuckin' mean. 384 00:21:09,083 --> 00:21:11,500 Maddy, ever since I've met you, all you talk about is yourself. 385 00:21:11,583 --> 00:21:13,875 Your clothes, your boyfriends, whatever superficial shit 386 00:21:13,958 --> 00:21:15,583 you think is so fucking important. 387 00:21:15,667 --> 00:21:17,249 Sorry I'm no longer interested. 388 00:21:17,333 --> 00:21:20,208 I don't know about everyone else, but I miss the old Kat. 389 00:21:20,291 --> 00:21:22,041 You know, the one who had a sense of humor 390 00:21:22,124 --> 00:21:24,041 and wasn't a fuckin' cunt? 391 00:21:24,124 --> 00:21:25,833 Damn. 392 00:21:35,416 --> 00:21:37,541 ♪ 393 00:21:41,875 --> 00:21:44,083 (sobbing) 394 00:21:49,041 --> 00:21:51,999 (sobbing continues) 395 00:22:00,166 --> 00:22:01,958 What was the other thing? 396 00:22:02,041 --> 00:22:03,958 Cassie: What other thing? 397 00:22:04,041 --> 00:22:07,041 You said you needed advice on two things. 398 00:22:08,792 --> 00:22:10,500 I don't remember. 399 00:22:11,792 --> 00:22:13,541 What would you do? 400 00:22:14,875 --> 00:22:16,999 Um, I don't know. 401 00:22:17,083 --> 00:22:18,917 I've never really been in a situation 402 00:22:18,999 --> 00:22:21,291 where two guys have been interested in me. 403 00:22:21,375 --> 00:22:23,583 Cassie: That's 'cause you're shy. 404 00:22:24,500 --> 00:22:27,833 I guess so, but I've also never been in a situation 405 00:22:27,917 --> 00:22:29,833 where I've been interested in two guys. 406 00:22:29,917 --> 00:22:32,041 That's also 'cause you're shy. 407 00:22:32,625 --> 00:22:34,375 Lexi: Maybe. (chuckles) 408 00:22:34,999 --> 00:22:37,917 But if you were in my situation, what would you do? 409 00:22:40,249 --> 00:22:43,249 Honestly, I don't think I would say anything. 410 00:22:46,458 --> 00:22:49,875 What if not saying something makes you feel really bad? 411 00:22:51,249 --> 00:22:53,249 Lexi: Worse than saying it? 412 00:22:54,500 --> 00:22:55,875 Yeah. 413 00:22:57,917 --> 00:23:01,458 Well, then, I don't think you have any other option. 414 00:23:08,958 --> 00:23:10,999 (knob turning) 415 00:23:11,999 --> 00:23:14,458 (instinct chatter on computer screen) 416 00:23:17,208 --> 00:23:19,249 How are you feeling? 417 00:23:19,625 --> 00:23:22,541 Uh, I think I have the flu or something. 418 00:23:22,958 --> 00:23:24,708 Gia: You want me to get you something? 419 00:23:24,792 --> 00:23:28,333 -Something to drink, or something-- -Uh, no, I'm good. 420 00:23:33,875 --> 00:23:36,333 You sure you got the flu, Rue? 421 00:23:38,083 --> 00:23:39,249 Gia, right now I just need you 422 00:23:39,333 --> 00:23:40,999 to leave me the fuck alone, all right? 423 00:23:43,958 --> 00:23:45,625 (door slams) 424 00:23:45,999 --> 00:23:48,833 (indistinct chatter on computer screen) 425 00:23:52,249 --> 00:23:55,667 -(exhales) -Narrator (on computer screen): Previously... 426 00:24:03,875 --> 00:24:07,208 Look, Nate, we all make mistakes in life. 427 00:24:08,124 --> 00:24:09,667 We hurt the ones we love. 428 00:24:09,750 --> 00:24:11,999 We let down our friends, our family. 429 00:24:13,083 --> 00:24:14,708 Sometimes we do it out of ignorance. 430 00:24:14,792 --> 00:24:16,958 Sometimes it's selfishness. 431 00:24:19,416 --> 00:24:21,708 I am not perfect. 432 00:24:22,375 --> 00:24:24,041 You know that. 433 00:24:24,999 --> 00:24:27,291 But I've spent my life trying to do better. 434 00:24:27,375 --> 00:24:29,375 You have not. 435 00:24:30,875 --> 00:24:32,750 But it is my wish for you. 436 00:24:34,208 --> 00:24:36,750 I don't know how you got out of this situation. 437 00:24:37,208 --> 00:24:41,083 I know you didn't deserve to, but you did. 438 00:24:41,166 --> 00:24:43,667 And I admire whatever it took. 439 00:24:44,416 --> 00:24:47,416 I just hope it didn't teach you the wrong lesson. 440 00:24:54,416 --> 00:24:55,833 (door slams) 441 00:25:00,416 --> 00:25:02,625 (liquid sloshing) 442 00:25:04,166 --> 00:25:07,124 ( Love Island plays indistinctly on computer screen) 443 00:25:08,750 --> 00:25:11,166 Rue: Okay, this is gonna sound sick, 444 00:25:11,249 --> 00:25:13,375 because I'm actually in a lot of pain right now, 445 00:25:13,458 --> 00:25:16,667 due to the sheer weight and strain on my bladder, 446 00:25:16,750 --> 00:25:19,917 but, man, does this make me miss opiates. 447 00:25:20,875 --> 00:25:22,375 (groans) 448 00:25:22,458 --> 00:25:25,041 Because your bladder is trained from a very early age 449 00:25:25,124 --> 00:25:26,875 not to pee whenever it wants to, 450 00:25:26,958 --> 00:25:28,667 it needs permission from your brain. 451 00:25:28,750 --> 00:25:29,999 And when you're really high, 452 00:25:30,083 --> 00:25:33,083 your brain gets a little... lazy. 453 00:25:33,166 --> 00:25:35,541 Too lazy to say something. 454 00:25:35,625 --> 00:25:38,166 Come on. Breathe. (exhales) 455 00:25:38,249 --> 00:25:40,083 Come on, please. (whimpers) 456 00:25:40,166 --> 00:25:43,458 It's probably why so many drug addicts die on toilets. 457 00:25:43,541 --> 00:25:45,208 -(camera shutter clicks) -(groaning) 458 00:25:45,291 --> 00:25:46,625 (camera shutter clicks) 459 00:25:48,999 --> 00:25:52,166 The truth is, the last time I left this room, 460 00:25:52,249 --> 00:25:54,500 I didn't have the best experience. 461 00:26:00,917 --> 00:26:03,291 (breathing heavily) 462 00:26:08,375 --> 00:26:10,999 (cereal clattering) 463 00:26:14,500 --> 00:26:16,708 (milk pouring) 464 00:26:16,792 --> 00:26:18,708 Rick: Sleeping all day? 465 00:26:19,500 --> 00:26:22,249 -It's quite the life. -(Leslie chuckles softly) 466 00:26:22,333 --> 00:26:26,249 Rue: Meet Rick. My mom's new boyfriend. 467 00:26:26,333 --> 00:26:28,917 Rue: If you were to ask Rick to describe himself, 468 00:26:28,999 --> 00:26:30,708 he'd say he was... 469 00:26:30,792 --> 00:26:32,208 "A romantic at heart. 470 00:26:32,291 --> 00:26:35,041 "I'm adventurous. I love to travel. 471 00:26:35,124 --> 00:26:37,249 "I love the outdoors... 472 00:26:37,333 --> 00:26:42,500 ...great art, great movies, great wine. Forever young." 473 00:26:46,208 --> 00:26:48,041 (Rue, Gia chuckle) 474 00:26:49,708 --> 00:26:52,249 Sorry, I'm sorry. (chuckles) 475 00:26:52,333 --> 00:26:53,750 Oh. 476 00:26:53,833 --> 00:26:57,208 -I miss your dad. -Me, too. 477 00:26:57,291 --> 00:26:59,917 -Rue: So, enter Rick. -(phone beeps) 478 00:27:00,208 --> 00:27:02,166 -(phone dings) -So... 479 00:27:03,958 --> 00:27:07,458 Your mom tells me that you have a new, uh, 480 00:27:07,541 --> 00:27:09,249 "best friend." 481 00:27:10,875 --> 00:27:13,041 What is that supposed to mean? 482 00:27:13,583 --> 00:27:15,249 That, you know. 483 00:27:16,208 --> 00:27:19,333 -(chuckles) -You got a new best friend. 484 00:27:22,792 --> 00:27:24,583 You know what, Rick? 485 00:27:26,041 --> 00:27:28,291 Why don't you go fuck yourself? 486 00:27:28,375 --> 00:27:30,333 How dare you speak to someone like that? 487 00:27:30,416 --> 00:27:31,958 like that? -Who? (slurps) Rick. 488 00:27:32,041 --> 00:27:33,917 -Don't be a smart-ass. -Did I offend you? 489 00:27:33,999 --> 00:27:35,625 Apologize right now. 490 00:27:35,708 --> 00:27:37,875 Rue: In retrospect, I was a little cunt-y. 491 00:27:37,958 --> 00:27:41,291 -But Rick does suck, and I was angry. -(spoon clatters) 492 00:27:41,375 --> 00:27:43,083 For a lot of reasons. 493 00:27:43,166 --> 00:27:45,083 Rick, I sincerely apologize 494 00:27:45,166 --> 00:27:47,416 for telling you to go fuck yourself. 495 00:27:49,291 --> 00:27:51,667 What I really meant to say is that my mom can do better 496 00:27:51,750 --> 00:27:54,416 and I hate seeing you sit in the chair my dad sat at. 497 00:28:00,166 --> 00:28:02,416 (phone dings) 498 00:28:04,249 --> 00:28:05,541 (phone bloops) 499 00:28:05,750 --> 00:28:06,958 (phone bloops) 500 00:28:09,083 --> 00:28:10,083 (phone bloops) 501 00:28:11,750 --> 00:28:12,958 (phone bloops) 502 00:28:14,500 --> 00:28:15,708 (phone bloops) 503 00:28:17,416 --> 00:28:18,625 (phone bloops) 504 00:28:18,958 --> 00:28:20,249 (phone bloops) 505 00:28:26,875 --> 00:28:28,416 (exhales) 506 00:28:30,041 --> 00:28:32,792 ( Love Island plays indistinctly on computer screen) 507 00:28:35,958 --> 00:28:39,625 (indistinct conversation on computer screen) 508 00:28:41,291 --> 00:28:43,249 Rue: If I am bipolar... 509 00:28:44,792 --> 00:28:48,166 I sure as shit prefer mania over depression. 510 00:28:50,208 --> 00:28:53,166 Yo, Fez. So you know how in every '90s thriller, right, 511 00:28:53,249 --> 00:28:56,583 Morgan Freeman plays, like, the same semi-psychic black cop. 512 00:28:56,667 --> 00:28:58,999 -Yeah. -So, I know that's kind of racist, 513 00:28:59,083 --> 00:29:00,750 but the point is, in every movie, 514 00:29:00,833 --> 00:29:04,166 he's always calmly putting the fucking pieces of the case together, 515 00:29:04,249 --> 00:29:06,166 while everybody else around him is fucking freaking out, 516 00:29:06,249 --> 00:29:08,500 saying, "You don't know what the fuck you're talking about, Morgan. 517 00:29:08,583 --> 00:29:10,208 "You're-- You're a fucking bad husband. 518 00:29:10,291 --> 00:29:11,583 You should fucking retire." 519 00:29:11,667 --> 00:29:15,875 But no. Morgan is fucking hyper-focused. 520 00:29:15,958 --> 00:29:18,375 Because he can see beyond the little details. 521 00:29:18,458 --> 00:29:20,667 He's looking for the big fuckin' picture. 522 00:29:20,750 --> 00:29:23,750 Because all of this shit? It's connected, Fez. 523 00:29:24,291 --> 00:29:28,416 And it is way bigger than any of us can even fucking see. 524 00:29:28,500 --> 00:29:29,833 (water sloshing) 525 00:29:31,166 --> 00:29:32,917 The point is, that's me. 526 00:29:32,999 --> 00:29:36,166 Right now, that is fucking me. 527 00:29:36,249 --> 00:29:39,667 I can see everything so fucking clearly. 528 00:29:40,208 --> 00:29:42,249 I know what happened, I know why it happened, 529 00:29:42,333 --> 00:29:45,208 and I know what the fuck I'm gonna do about it. 530 00:29:46,875 --> 00:29:48,166 Word. 531 00:29:48,249 --> 00:29:49,625 Word. 532 00:29:50,458 --> 00:29:53,958 -She can't hear me, right? -She can't see you, either. 533 00:29:54,041 --> 00:29:57,208 Okay, good, 'cause this is, like, some real top-secret shit. 534 00:29:57,708 --> 00:30:01,541 Trust me, Rue, she not gonna gossip. 535 00:30:02,500 --> 00:30:04,208 Rue (sighs): Okay. 536 00:30:05,208 --> 00:30:08,208 -Do you still have that gun? -Fezco: What gun? 537 00:30:08,917 --> 00:30:10,875 The one from the couch. 538 00:30:12,124 --> 00:30:15,208 I mean, I got a couple guns. 539 00:30:15,500 --> 00:30:17,333 Why do you have so many guns? 540 00:30:17,416 --> 00:30:19,166 My grandma. 541 00:30:22,041 --> 00:30:23,291 That's cool. 542 00:30:23,375 --> 00:30:25,833 What you worried about my guns for? 543 00:30:28,208 --> 00:30:31,458 Okay, well, I was thinking... 544 00:30:31,541 --> 00:30:36,708 that maybe you could use one to scare Nate Jacobs. 545 00:30:38,999 --> 00:30:40,958 Are you serious? 546 00:30:41,041 --> 00:30:44,166 I mean, I'm not not serious. 547 00:30:44,458 --> 00:30:46,249 Rue, that must be the dumbest shit 548 00:30:46,333 --> 00:30:47,917 you've said all fucking day. 549 00:30:47,999 --> 00:30:50,833 You don't have to fucking point it at him. You could just-- 550 00:30:50,917 --> 00:30:54,249 You could, like-- You could flash it. 551 00:30:54,333 --> 00:30:57,333 You really have lost your fuckin' mind, Rue. 552 00:30:57,416 --> 00:30:59,500 Fuck, it's a bad fucking idea, okay? 553 00:30:59,583 --> 00:31:02,416 I just was fucking spit balling, here. 554 00:31:02,500 --> 00:31:03,958 (sighs) 555 00:31:04,041 --> 00:31:06,083 I mean, he fucked with me, he fucked with Jules. 556 00:31:06,166 --> 00:31:08,500 And I want fucking revenge. Okay? 557 00:31:08,583 --> 00:31:10,375 -Sorry. -(phone dings) 558 00:31:14,416 --> 00:31:16,500 Fuck. Mouse is here. 559 00:31:16,583 --> 00:31:20,583 -The guy with the-- -All right, so, stay in here. Be quiet-- 560 00:31:20,667 --> 00:31:22,708 Fez, I can't-- I can't stay in here. Like, I'm really... 561 00:31:22,792 --> 00:31:24,750 -Yes, the fuck you can. Shh! -I'm not good with awkward silences. 562 00:31:24,833 --> 00:31:27,375 Be quiet. Listen, I'm really serious right now. 563 00:31:27,458 --> 00:31:29,792 You just need to sit your manic ass down, 564 00:31:29,875 --> 00:31:32,375 and be quiet for five fuckin' minutes, Rue. 565 00:31:32,458 --> 00:31:34,124 I'm not fuckin' playin' with you. 566 00:31:34,208 --> 00:31:37,958 -Sit down and shut the fuck up. -(door slams) 567 00:31:53,458 --> 00:31:55,458 (exhales) Okay. 568 00:31:55,541 --> 00:31:57,667 So fuckin' weird. 569 00:32:08,708 --> 00:32:10,333 Voice of pill bottle: Psst. 570 00:32:12,583 --> 00:32:13,875 Psst. 571 00:32:17,333 --> 00:32:18,333 Psst. 572 00:32:19,416 --> 00:32:20,875 Yo, Rue. 573 00:32:22,708 --> 00:32:24,333 Both (whispering): Rue. 574 00:32:24,416 --> 00:32:26,166 Rue, I'm so lonely. 575 00:32:26,249 --> 00:32:28,792 (whispering): Me, too. Don't forget about me. 576 00:32:28,875 --> 00:32:32,583 That old lady? She doesn't even know we exist. 577 00:32:32,667 --> 00:32:34,792 All; Rue! 578 00:32:34,875 --> 00:32:37,917 Eat us all. 579 00:32:37,999 --> 00:32:38,917 -Eat... -Us... 580 00:32:38,999 --> 00:32:39,875 -All! -Eat... 581 00:32:39,958 --> 00:32:40,875 -Us... -All! 582 00:32:40,999 --> 00:32:43,458 Eat us all! Eat us all! 583 00:32:43,541 --> 00:32:44,917 (door closes softly) 584 00:32:46,958 --> 00:32:48,208 (sighs) 585 00:32:48,875 --> 00:32:51,708 Mouse: Yo, I'm gonna need you to start moving some weight. 586 00:32:53,208 --> 00:32:56,458 Yo, I'm just trying to keep it low-key over here, man. 587 00:32:56,541 --> 00:32:58,333 And I'm trying to make fuckin' money. 588 00:32:58,416 --> 00:33:00,833 Fezco: Even if wanted all this shit, bruh, 589 00:33:00,917 --> 00:33:02,958 I don't got the money for all this, man. 590 00:33:03,041 --> 00:33:05,833 That's why you in luck. I'm gonna front it to you. 591 00:33:05,917 --> 00:33:09,083 Ten percent on the vig, and I'll collect in a month. 592 00:33:11,124 --> 00:33:13,291 I'm not tryin' to do all that shit, man. 593 00:33:13,375 --> 00:33:15,083 (chuckles) 594 00:33:15,166 --> 00:33:17,041 I ain't asking, bruh. 595 00:33:17,583 --> 00:33:19,667 Step yo shit up. 596 00:33:23,166 --> 00:33:26,249 (whispering): One, two, three, four, five, six, seven. 597 00:33:26,333 --> 00:33:29,708 One, two, three, four, five, six, seven. 598 00:33:29,792 --> 00:33:31,083 One... 599 00:33:31,458 --> 00:33:33,750 (birds cawing) 600 00:33:36,333 --> 00:33:40,041 -♪ -(cawing continues) 601 00:33:56,291 --> 00:33:59,792 ♪ 602 00:34:06,917 --> 00:34:08,500 Rue: The other thing about depression 603 00:34:08,583 --> 00:34:10,708 is it kind of collapses time. 604 00:34:10,792 --> 00:34:12,583 Rue, are you listening? 605 00:34:14,792 --> 00:34:17,958 Rue: Suddenly, you find your whole days blending together 606 00:34:18,041 --> 00:34:21,416 to create one endless and suffocating loop. 607 00:34:30,124 --> 00:34:32,083 So you find yourself trying to remember 608 00:34:32,166 --> 00:34:34,583 the things that made you happy. 609 00:34:38,999 --> 00:34:41,458 -Jules: Do you want to get closer? -Rue: Yeah. 610 00:34:41,541 --> 00:34:43,999 Rue: But slowly, your brain begins to erase 611 00:34:44,083 --> 00:34:46,958 every memory that ever brought you joy. 612 00:34:52,792 --> 00:34:54,792 And eventually, 613 00:34:54,875 --> 00:34:58,667 all you can think about is how life has always been this way. 614 00:35:02,667 --> 00:35:05,708 And will only continue to be this way. 615 00:35:09,917 --> 00:35:14,500 -( Love Island theme music play) -Narrator (on computer): Previously, on Love Island... 616 00:35:14,583 --> 00:35:16,625 Laura (on computer): Grab the amazing-ness 617 00:35:16,708 --> 00:35:18,583 that you have with Josh by the balls. 618 00:35:18,667 --> 00:35:21,625 Rue: I wonder if Jules is having fun. 619 00:35:21,708 --> 00:35:23,667 Announcer (over PA): Stay clear of the tracks... 620 00:35:23,750 --> 00:35:26,333 (announcement continues indistinctly) 621 00:35:26,416 --> 00:35:29,166 ("Be Minez" by Amandla plays) 622 00:35:29,249 --> 00:35:31,208 ♪ I don't want to kid around ♪ 623 00:35:31,291 --> 00:35:33,083 ♪ Like a man who's dying ♪ 624 00:35:33,166 --> 00:35:37,541 ♪ Grinning at the end, Wondering if you'll always be mine ♪ 625 00:35:39,833 --> 00:35:41,541 ♪ Be mine ♪ 626 00:35:44,291 --> 00:35:47,958 -♪ I don't wanna spite God with my given fear ♪ -(Jules yelling) 627 00:35:48,041 --> 00:35:52,333 -♪ I just want euphoria, the more you're here ♪ -(both laughing, chattering) 628 00:35:52,416 --> 00:35:54,708 TC: Oh, I missed you! 629 00:35:55,583 --> 00:35:57,583 TC: So how are the suburbs treating you? 630 00:35:57,667 --> 00:35:59,500 -Jules: They're claustrophobic. -(TC chuckles) 631 00:35:59,583 --> 00:36:02,249 Yeah, how do you like it? How you doing? 632 00:36:02,333 --> 00:36:06,541 I don't know. It's been a weird, weird-ass year. 633 00:36:07,625 --> 00:36:09,333 Weird in what way? 634 00:36:09,416 --> 00:36:11,625 Weird in every way. 635 00:36:11,708 --> 00:36:14,792 Shit. You make some good friends, at least? 636 00:36:14,875 --> 00:36:17,166 -Yeah, I got one. -Yeah? 637 00:36:17,249 --> 00:36:19,833 But it's, like, complicated. 638 00:36:19,917 --> 00:36:21,375 Oh. 639 00:36:21,458 --> 00:36:24,333 Well, are you friends, or are you a little bit more, 640 00:36:24,416 --> 00:36:26,667 -like a special kind of friend? -Both, I guess? 641 00:36:26,750 --> 00:36:28,249 -Aah. -Yeah. 642 00:36:28,333 --> 00:36:30,875 Okay. What, are you in love with him or something? 643 00:36:30,958 --> 00:36:33,875 -(chuckles) Her, not him. -Oh! 644 00:36:33,958 --> 00:36:35,625 -Ooh, a little plot twist. Okay! -Yeah. 645 00:36:35,708 --> 00:36:38,375 -No room for hetero-normativity in here. -My bad. 646 00:36:39,249 --> 00:36:41,416 So... what? 647 00:36:41,500 --> 00:36:44,667 -I don't know. I don't know what it is. -Yeah. 648 00:36:44,750 --> 00:36:47,375 It's not, like, great right now. 649 00:36:50,958 --> 00:36:54,458 I'm not exactly, like, in the best place. 650 00:36:56,583 --> 00:36:58,625 Why? What's going on? 651 00:37:01,625 --> 00:37:04,583 I came here so I wouldn't have to think about it. 652 00:37:07,249 --> 00:37:08,792 Understood. 653 00:37:09,917 --> 00:37:11,541 (chuckles) 654 00:37:11,625 --> 00:37:13,875 ♪ What the fuck, what the fuck ♪ 655 00:37:13,958 --> 00:37:18,750 Jules and TC (singing along): ♪ Feel the morning on my face ♪ 656 00:37:19,416 --> 00:37:24,083 ♪ Ain't a pill that I didn't take ♪ 657 00:37:24,500 --> 00:37:29,583 ♪ Just a lifetime, it's been a long day ♪ 658 00:37:30,083 --> 00:37:34,500 ♪ 'Cause I'm asleep when... ♪ 659 00:37:35,667 --> 00:37:36,999 Oh! 660 00:37:39,999 --> 00:37:42,083 (both laughing) 661 00:37:42,166 --> 00:37:43,750 ♪ Camouflage ♪ 662 00:37:43,833 --> 00:37:45,249 ♪ Don't forget your hashtag ♪ 663 00:37:45,333 --> 00:37:48,208 -This one? -No, I'm one more up. 664 00:37:49,124 --> 00:37:52,541 (both laughing, chattering) 665 00:37:52,625 --> 00:37:54,500 ♪ You're a dead man ♪ 666 00:37:57,958 --> 00:38:01,083 ♪ You gonna run them They don't ever run you ♪ 667 00:38:01,166 --> 00:38:02,958 Yo, Anna. 668 00:38:04,833 --> 00:38:06,291 -Hey. -TC: Anna, 669 00:38:06,375 --> 00:38:08,625 someone I want you to meet. 670 00:38:09,249 --> 00:38:11,875 Hi. I'm Jules. 671 00:38:13,166 --> 00:38:14,875 I know. 672 00:38:15,708 --> 00:38:18,041 -TC: Like it? -Did y'all make these? 673 00:38:18,124 --> 00:38:22,291 -TC: Our friend did. -I mean, are you guys gonna go out? 674 00:38:22,792 --> 00:38:25,333 Uh, Anna's always trying to put makeup on me. 675 00:38:25,416 --> 00:38:27,291 -So awkward. -(Jules chuckles) 676 00:38:27,375 --> 00:38:30,208 ♪ Feel the morning on my face ♪ 677 00:38:33,875 --> 00:38:36,541 Jules: I remember walking out of Sears 678 00:38:36,625 --> 00:38:39,958 -with my first pair of heels in my backpack. -Anna: Cute. 679 00:38:40,041 --> 00:38:44,124 And my heart was fucking racing. 680 00:38:44,208 --> 00:38:47,291 And I got home, and went straight to my room, 681 00:38:47,375 --> 00:38:49,999 locked the door, put 'em on... 682 00:38:50,083 --> 00:38:53,083 And, I just... 683 00:38:53,166 --> 00:38:54,750 felt like... 684 00:38:54,833 --> 00:38:56,958 I was collecting... 685 00:38:57,041 --> 00:39:03,083 herbs, or making potions in order to up my manna, you know? 686 00:39:04,541 --> 00:39:05,875 Like, it started with that, 687 00:39:05,958 --> 00:39:08,333 and then it was clothes, and then it was... 688 00:39:08,416 --> 00:39:12,333 makeup, and eventually hormones. 689 00:39:12,416 --> 00:39:16,625 Um, I just kind of kept leveling up. 690 00:39:17,833 --> 00:39:21,166 So, what level are you at now? 691 00:39:21,249 --> 00:39:23,291 I don't know. 692 00:39:23,375 --> 00:39:28,625 But I definitely haven't reached my full power. 693 00:39:31,291 --> 00:39:33,833 But you date guys, right? 694 00:39:33,917 --> 00:39:36,500 Date isn't really the right word. 695 00:39:36,583 --> 00:39:38,833 What she means to say is that she's a slut. 696 00:39:38,917 --> 00:39:42,208 -Jules: Fuck you! -What, it's not an insult! 697 00:39:42,291 --> 00:39:45,500 -I mean... -But you normally hook up with guys. 698 00:39:46,958 --> 00:39:48,583 Jules: Yeah, but... 699 00:39:48,667 --> 00:39:51,708 my relationship to men is weird. 700 00:39:51,792 --> 00:39:55,291 -Anna: Like, how? -In my head, it's like-- 701 00:39:57,917 --> 00:40:00,249 If I can conquer men, 702 00:40:00,333 --> 00:40:03,458 then I can conquer femininity. 703 00:40:05,458 --> 00:40:08,333 Why do you need a guy to make you feel more feminine? 704 00:40:11,625 --> 00:40:12,958 Anna: Hmm? 705 00:40:14,792 --> 00:40:17,625 -We'll circle back to that one. -(Jules chuckles) 706 00:40:20,708 --> 00:40:23,875 -So have you? -Have I what? 707 00:40:23,958 --> 00:40:26,041 Conquered femininity? 708 00:40:27,541 --> 00:40:29,333 Jules: I don't know. 709 00:40:29,792 --> 00:40:32,583 But, it's not like I even want to conquer it. 710 00:40:32,667 --> 00:40:35,416 It's like I want to fuckin' obliterate it. 711 00:40:35,500 --> 00:40:39,416 -And then move on to the next level. -Anna: Mmm. 712 00:40:39,500 --> 00:40:42,291 Both: And the next, and the next. (chuckling) 713 00:40:42,375 --> 00:40:45,416 Level up. Level up! (laughs) 714 00:40:45,500 --> 00:40:49,541 Yeah. I don't really know what the means, or looks like, but... 715 00:40:50,833 --> 00:40:53,375 -I want it. -TC: Queerness is infinite. 716 00:40:53,458 --> 00:40:55,249 (chuckles) 717 00:40:55,333 --> 00:40:57,833 Anna: Okay, look at me. 718 00:40:59,333 --> 00:41:02,208 Yeah. You look adorable. 719 00:41:03,500 --> 00:41:05,541 -Stop. -(Jules chuckles) 720 00:41:11,667 --> 00:41:13,583 I'm pregnant. 721 00:41:15,124 --> 00:41:16,416 What? 722 00:41:18,208 --> 00:41:20,999 Are you for real that you're 100 percent pregnant? 723 00:41:23,291 --> 00:41:24,333 Yeah. 724 00:41:28,500 --> 00:41:30,208 (sighs) 725 00:41:32,917 --> 00:41:34,833 I... (sighs) 726 00:41:36,708 --> 00:41:38,583 I'm sorry, uh... 727 00:41:39,999 --> 00:41:41,875 Are you all right? 728 00:41:44,625 --> 00:41:47,750 Yeah, I'm-- I'm just a little bit nervous. 729 00:41:49,583 --> 00:41:51,375 Nervous about what? 730 00:41:53,291 --> 00:41:55,083 About what you're gonna say. 731 00:42:01,166 --> 00:42:04,041 You're not really thinking about having this kid, are you? 732 00:42:04,375 --> 00:42:05,750 (Cassie sniffles) 733 00:42:08,083 --> 00:42:10,416 I really love you, McKay. 734 00:42:10,917 --> 00:42:11,999 Yeah, I love you, too, 735 00:42:12,083 --> 00:42:14,083 but I'm doing a lot of shit right now. 736 00:42:15,416 --> 00:42:17,999 I'm in the middle of school right now. 737 00:42:18,083 --> 00:42:20,583 It's a big fuckin' responsibility, Cassie. 738 00:42:22,999 --> 00:42:25,917 What if this is what I'm supposed to do with my life? 739 00:42:30,999 --> 00:42:32,500 What the fuck? 740 00:42:33,249 --> 00:42:35,416 My parents are gonna kill me. 741 00:42:35,500 --> 00:42:36,625 My coach is gonna kill me. 742 00:42:36,708 --> 00:42:38,875 My parents are gonna fucking kill me. 743 00:42:38,958 --> 00:42:40,500 Fuck. 744 00:42:43,041 --> 00:42:46,041 Cass, I don't even think you wanna have this baby, okay? 745 00:42:46,124 --> 00:42:48,458 It's not a-- It's not a fuckin' fairy tale. Like-- 746 00:42:48,541 --> 00:42:52,083 It may seem all cute and cuddly to you, but this is real shit. 747 00:42:52,792 --> 00:42:54,500 I'm not even ready to be a dad. 748 00:42:54,583 --> 00:42:57,667 I don't know if that's selfish to say or whatever, but-- 749 00:42:57,750 --> 00:42:59,958 children are fuckin' scary. 750 00:43:02,625 --> 00:43:04,999 You wanted to talk about it, so here we are, we're talking about it. 751 00:43:05,083 --> 00:43:06,833 But I say we don't do it. 752 00:43:08,792 --> 00:43:12,333 I'm not saying I'm gonna have a baby. 753 00:43:14,458 --> 00:43:15,792 (sniffles) 754 00:43:16,541 --> 00:43:19,792 I just wanted to dream about it for a minute. 755 00:43:23,583 --> 00:43:24,999 (exhales) 756 00:43:25,833 --> 00:43:27,166 (Cassie sniffles) 757 00:43:29,792 --> 00:43:31,500 (sniffles) 758 00:43:44,833 --> 00:43:48,208 You'll make the best mother on the planet one day. 759 00:43:50,875 --> 00:43:53,375 -(sniffles) -I say that without a doubt. 760 00:43:59,458 --> 00:44:01,625 (breathes deeply) 761 00:44:01,708 --> 00:44:04,541 -Hello? -(man on computer clears throat) 762 00:44:06,208 --> 00:44:09,208 For some reason your screen is black. Should I call you back? 763 00:44:09,291 --> 00:44:12,041 Man (on computer): No, I prefer to keep it that way. 764 00:44:12,124 --> 00:44:14,291 Oh. Okay. 765 00:44:14,375 --> 00:44:18,708 -You drive a hard bargain. -(chuckles) Yeah, well, a girl's gotta eat. 766 00:44:18,792 --> 00:44:20,625 Man (on computer): 300 for thirty minutes. 767 00:44:20,708 --> 00:44:25,124 -You should have asked for more. -Really? 768 00:44:25,208 --> 00:44:29,583 Man (on computer): Let me see your whole body. Stand up. 769 00:44:36,583 --> 00:44:39,541 Yes. (breathes heavily) 770 00:44:39,625 --> 00:44:41,416 Keep going. 771 00:44:42,458 --> 00:44:43,958 Yes. 772 00:44:45,416 --> 00:44:47,458 Fantastic. 773 00:44:51,291 --> 00:44:53,249 (unzipping) 774 00:44:58,958 --> 00:45:00,958 Are you nervous? 775 00:45:01,041 --> 00:45:04,541 I-I-I... (chuckles) I mean, I don't usually, um... (sniffs) 776 00:45:04,625 --> 00:45:06,291 undress. 777 00:45:06,375 --> 00:45:10,583 Man (on computer): But I am special. Right? 778 00:45:13,041 --> 00:45:14,583 Yes. 779 00:45:15,750 --> 00:45:17,958 Man (on computer): Then say it. 780 00:45:19,625 --> 00:45:21,708 You're special. 781 00:45:21,792 --> 00:45:25,458 Man (on computer): So, get undressed . 782 00:45:26,792 --> 00:45:30,625 (slow breathing on computer) 783 00:45:42,625 --> 00:45:45,792 Oh, wow. 784 00:45:46,917 --> 00:45:52,833 (man on computer breathing heavily) 785 00:45:52,958 --> 00:45:56,124 You're beautiful. 786 00:45:59,792 --> 00:46:01,667 ♪ Boom, bitch, boom, bitch ♪ 787 00:46:01,750 --> 00:46:04,416 ♪ We on the move bitch, ready set go ♪ 788 00:46:04,500 --> 00:46:06,750 ♪ Ready set go, Ready, set, go ♪ 789 00:46:06,833 --> 00:46:08,708 ♪ Aim for the stars, if we miss ♪ 790 00:46:08,792 --> 00:46:11,416 ♪ We going to the moon, bitch, ready set go ♪ 791 00:46:11,500 --> 00:46:14,208 ♪ Ready set go, Ready... ♪ 792 00:46:14,833 --> 00:46:17,792 -Can you get me a mango La Croix? -Nate: Um-hmm. 793 00:46:17,875 --> 00:46:21,208 -And those cherry rolling papers? -Anything else? 794 00:46:31,750 --> 00:46:34,375 -What up, Fez? -What's up, man? 795 00:46:34,458 --> 00:46:38,083 Yo, can I get, uh, two of the rolling papers, too, bruh? 796 00:46:39,750 --> 00:46:41,458 Yo, man. 797 00:46:41,541 --> 00:46:45,458 I don't know what's been going on with you, Rue, and Jules and shit. 798 00:46:46,166 --> 00:46:50,249 But you should know, I really do care about her. 799 00:46:54,792 --> 00:46:57,041 Aren't you, like, her drug dealer? 800 00:46:57,833 --> 00:46:59,416 Nah, man. 801 00:47:00,958 --> 00:47:03,208 What, are you in a relationship? 802 00:47:04,291 --> 00:47:06,667 (sniffs) Nah, bruh, that's like, my family. 803 00:47:06,750 --> 00:47:08,958 Nate: So it's platonic. 804 00:47:09,041 --> 00:47:10,708 Look, man, 805 00:47:10,792 --> 00:47:14,416 all I'm saying is, leave her and her friends alone. 806 00:47:15,999 --> 00:47:17,458 Is that a threat? 807 00:47:19,500 --> 00:47:21,958 Nah, I'm just telling you. 808 00:47:22,333 --> 00:47:23,917 Nate: Or what? 809 00:47:24,875 --> 00:47:27,750 We're not gonna be having this conversation. 810 00:47:37,541 --> 00:47:39,583 Nate: Fezco, let's get this straight. 811 00:47:40,541 --> 00:47:42,375 You're, like, half a retard. 812 00:47:42,458 --> 00:47:44,917 You dropped out of school at 20, and now... 813 00:47:44,999 --> 00:47:47,166 you're a gangster. 814 00:47:47,249 --> 00:47:51,083 What are you, like, fucking Tony Montana? What's the plan? Hmm? 815 00:47:51,166 --> 00:47:54,416 You gonna be living in a mansion, fuckin' pet tigers and shit? 816 00:47:55,999 --> 00:47:58,124 Go fuck yourself. 817 00:47:59,208 --> 00:48:01,124 Listen, bruh. 818 00:48:02,541 --> 00:48:06,625 All I'm sayin', you keep fuckin' with Rue and her friends, 819 00:48:06,708 --> 00:48:08,958 and I'mma kill you. 820 00:48:11,583 --> 00:48:14,208 It's gonna be $5.75, playboy. 821 00:48:14,291 --> 00:48:16,792 (register tape whirring) 822 00:48:28,625 --> 00:48:30,500 -(car door slams) -(engine starts) 823 00:48:31,625 --> 00:48:33,375 (yells) 824 00:48:33,458 --> 00:48:37,958 Rue: An adult bladder can hold two cups of urine. 825 00:48:38,041 --> 00:48:40,833 But if you're telling your bladder to hold off because, say, 826 00:48:40,917 --> 00:48:43,667 you're in the worst depression of your fucking life, 827 00:48:43,750 --> 00:48:46,041 your bladder will eventually fill. 828 00:48:46,124 --> 00:48:48,208 (groans, chuckles) 829 00:48:48,291 --> 00:48:50,792 -(liquid sloshing) - And what begins to happen is... 830 00:48:50,875 --> 00:48:52,750 all of the toxins that your kidneys 831 00:48:52,833 --> 00:48:54,249 have pushed into your bladder 832 00:48:54,333 --> 00:48:56,667 begin to travel back into your kidneys. 833 00:48:56,750 --> 00:48:58,999 (groans) 834 00:48:59,083 --> 00:49:01,041 (panting) 835 00:49:01,124 --> 00:49:02,416 (whispers): Fuck. 836 00:49:02,500 --> 00:49:05,124 I know what you're thinking. Rue, this is insane. 837 00:49:05,208 --> 00:49:07,999 Don't get a kidney infection. Walk to the bathroom. 838 00:49:09,166 --> 00:49:12,792 Trust me, I'm thinking the same fuckin' thing. 839 00:49:14,750 --> 00:49:15,999 (groans) 840 00:49:16,249 --> 00:49:17,958 -(giggling) -Like a little pot? 841 00:49:18,041 --> 00:49:19,333 ("Reverie" by Arca plays) 842 00:49:19,416 --> 00:49:21,041 (snorts) 843 00:49:22,500 --> 00:49:26,375 (indistinct chatter) 844 00:49:31,375 --> 00:49:34,208 (song continues) 845 00:49:43,458 --> 00:49:46,083 (all laughing) 846 00:49:47,541 --> 00:49:50,917 (song continues) 847 00:49:55,792 --> 00:49:58,833 (song crescendos) 848 00:50:03,833 --> 00:50:06,416 (rhythmic heartbeat) 849 00:50:11,124 --> 00:50:13,583 (heartbeat continues) 850 00:50:14,249 --> 00:50:18,583 ("I'm Not in Love" by Kelsey Lu playing) 851 00:50:24,750 --> 00:50:26,999 ♪ I'm not in love ♪ 852 00:50:27,083 --> 00:50:29,416 -Jules: You remind me of her. -Anna: Who? 853 00:50:29,500 --> 00:50:31,124 ♪ So don't forget it ♪ 854 00:50:31,208 --> 00:50:33,333 Jules: My best friend. 855 00:50:33,416 --> 00:50:35,958 Anna: So what's she like? 856 00:50:36,041 --> 00:50:39,625 -Jules: Honestly? Kind of a mess. -(Jules and Anna laugh) 857 00:50:39,708 --> 00:50:41,416 Anna: So I'm a mess? 858 00:50:42,249 --> 00:50:45,166 -Yeah. -Anna: How am I a mess? 859 00:50:46,792 --> 00:50:49,667 -I don't know yet. -(Anna chuckles) 860 00:50:49,750 --> 00:50:51,958 ♪ Don't think you've got it made ♪ 861 00:50:54,124 --> 00:50:58,458 -♪ I'm not in love, oh, no ♪ -I think I'm really high. 862 00:50:58,541 --> 00:51:02,124 -(both giggling) -♪ It's because... ♪ 863 00:51:02,208 --> 00:51:04,500 -Jules: Should I text her? -Anna: No. 864 00:51:09,792 --> 00:51:12,541 (both breathing heavily) 865 00:51:12,625 --> 00:51:14,750 ♪ 866 00:51:22,999 --> 00:51:24,833 (laughs softly) 867 00:51:25,792 --> 00:51:27,917 You only get one more. 868 00:51:27,999 --> 00:51:29,541 (panting) 869 00:51:29,625 --> 00:51:31,416 (whispers): Fuck. 870 00:51:31,500 --> 00:51:34,041 (winces, then exhales) 871 00:51:34,124 --> 00:51:36,249 (groans) 872 00:51:36,333 --> 00:51:38,541 (panting) 873 00:51:43,291 --> 00:51:45,500 (exhales) 874 00:51:46,583 --> 00:51:49,333 (panting continues) 875 00:51:50,875 --> 00:51:54,041 ♪ 876 00:51:57,249 --> 00:52:00,333 (indistinct chatter) 877 00:52:20,375 --> 00:52:21,750 Jules. 878 00:52:22,833 --> 00:52:24,333 What are you doing here? 879 00:52:24,416 --> 00:52:27,041 -Nate: You texted me. -I did? 880 00:52:27,375 --> 00:52:29,375 Did you not want me to come? 881 00:52:31,416 --> 00:52:33,917 You here alone? 882 00:52:33,999 --> 00:52:39,083 ♪ It hides a nasty stain that's lying there ♪ 883 00:52:39,166 --> 00:52:40,875 No, no, no, no, no. 884 00:52:40,958 --> 00:52:44,833 ♪ So don't you ask me ♪ 885 00:52:44,917 --> 00:52:46,917 ♪ To give it back ♪ 886 00:52:46,999 --> 00:52:48,708 I'm scared of you, Nate. 887 00:52:48,792 --> 00:52:51,291 I'm sorry. For everything. 888 00:52:52,833 --> 00:52:55,124 I'm sorry for hurting you. 889 00:52:56,917 --> 00:52:58,333 You... 890 00:52:58,416 --> 00:53:01,999 you were the most beautiful person that I've ever known. 891 00:53:02,083 --> 00:53:04,541 I'm Tyler. (sniffs) 892 00:53:04,625 --> 00:53:07,958 -I'm the person that you fell in love with. -(Jules screams) 893 00:53:08,041 --> 00:53:10,583 -(thuds) -I wanna kill you. 894 00:53:10,667 --> 00:53:13,083 I'm yours. I'm all yours. 895 00:53:13,166 --> 00:53:18,249 ♪ I'm not in love... ♪ 896 00:53:26,625 --> 00:53:28,792 -(slaps) -Jules: You're a pussy. 897 00:53:28,875 --> 00:53:31,083 -You're a bitch. -(Nate coughing) 898 00:53:33,416 --> 00:53:36,083 And I wish the whole fucking world could know. 899 00:53:37,583 --> 00:53:39,416 (kissing) 900 00:53:39,625 --> 00:53:43,291 (song continues) 901 00:54:02,667 --> 00:54:05,249 I know this isn't gonna end well. 902 00:54:13,375 --> 00:54:15,375 (song ends) 903 00:54:17,416 --> 00:54:19,708 (somber music plays) 904 00:54:25,625 --> 00:54:27,124 Hello? 905 00:54:29,124 --> 00:54:31,083 Yeah, I'd like to report a crime. 906 00:54:31,958 --> 00:54:35,333 -(siren blaring) -(indistinct chatter on police radio) 907 00:54:37,041 --> 00:54:39,833 (indistinct chatter on TV) 908 00:54:46,124 --> 00:54:47,792 Cassie: Mom. 909 00:54:51,291 --> 00:54:53,166 I think I need your help. 910 00:55:09,792 --> 00:55:10,958 Come here. 911 00:55:11,416 --> 00:55:14,458 Come here. It's okay. It's okay. I love you so much. 912 00:55:14,541 --> 00:55:18,208 -(Cassie sobbing) -(whispers): I love you so much. You're so beautiful. 913 00:55:33,083 --> 00:55:34,333 -Fezco: Fuck! -(buzzer buzzing) 914 00:55:34,416 --> 00:55:36,208 -East Highland PD! -(banging) 915 00:55:36,291 --> 00:55:37,833 -Open the door! -Fezco: Come on, bro. 916 00:55:37,917 --> 00:55:39,500 -Hurry the fuck up out there! -(toilet flushes) 917 00:55:39,583 --> 00:55:41,792 -Officer: We know you're in there. Open up! -Fezco: Fuck! 918 00:55:41,875 --> 00:55:43,833 Goddamn it! 919 00:55:44,375 --> 00:55:46,750 -Fuck, bro. -What the fuck, man? 920 00:55:46,833 --> 00:55:49,083 -Come on, bruh. Hurry up, for real, man. -(police yelling) 921 00:55:49,166 --> 00:55:51,124 -(clattering) -(banging on door) 922 00:55:51,208 --> 00:55:53,792 -Police: Unlock the door! Open up, now! -(flushing) 923 00:55:53,875 --> 00:55:55,833 Goddamn it! 924 00:55:55,917 --> 00:55:58,583 (sniffling, shuddering) 925 00:56:04,249 --> 00:56:06,750 Leslie: Rue, what's wrong? 926 00:56:08,833 --> 00:56:10,792 (sobbing) 927 00:56:13,333 --> 00:56:15,416 Okay, baby. Come on. 928 00:56:16,083 --> 00:56:18,249 Come on. Come on. 929 00:56:19,208 --> 00:56:20,541 Rue: I had a therapist once 930 00:56:20,625 --> 00:56:23,249 who said that these states will wax and wane. 931 00:56:23,333 --> 00:56:24,875 Which gave my mother relief, 932 00:56:24,958 --> 00:56:27,041 because it meant that in the bad times, 933 00:56:27,124 --> 00:56:29,249 there would be good times. 934 00:56:32,333 --> 00:56:33,708 But it also gave her anxiety 935 00:56:33,792 --> 00:56:35,833 because it meant that in the good times, 936 00:56:35,917 --> 00:56:38,333 there would be bad times. 937 00:56:38,416 --> 00:56:39,583 It always confused me, 938 00:56:39,667 --> 00:56:42,249 because I didn't really know what it meant. 939 00:56:42,583 --> 00:56:44,500 (whispers): It's okay, baby. 940 00:56:45,750 --> 00:56:47,291 It's okay. 941 00:56:48,208 --> 00:56:49,792 But it did sound a lot calmer 942 00:56:49,875 --> 00:56:52,124 than the way I would describe it. 943 00:57:01,792 --> 00:57:05,333 I think I need to go back on medication. 944 00:57:12,667 --> 00:57:17,667 Leslie: There you go. How you feel? Okay? 945 00:57:23,792 --> 00:57:26,625 I know you're feeling low right now, baby. 946 00:57:26,708 --> 00:57:30,458 But the fact that you didn't turn back means you're gettin' better. 947 00:57:32,999 --> 00:57:34,958 (whispers): It does. 948 00:57:36,999 --> 00:57:38,500 It does. 949 00:57:42,249 --> 00:57:44,166 Rue: Granted, I didn't realize until later 950 00:57:44,249 --> 00:57:47,416 what waxing and waning implied. 951 00:57:47,500 --> 00:57:50,291 That these feelings were fixed and constant 952 00:57:50,375 --> 00:57:53,500 and would never end for the rest of my life. 953 00:57:56,416 --> 00:57:59,249 (wind blowing) 954 00:58:13,416 --> 00:58:15,541 ♪ 955 00:58:44,999 --> 00:58:45,958 ("Every Single Night" by Fiona Apple plays) 956 00:58:46,041 --> 00:58:47,166 ♪ Every single night ♪ 957 00:58:47,249 --> 00:58:49,958 ♪ I endure the flight of little wings ♪ 958 00:58:50,041 --> 00:58:52,833 ♪ Of white-flamed butterflies in my brain ♪ 959 00:58:52,917 --> 00:58:56,792 ♪ These ideas of mine percolate the mind ♪ 960 00:58:56,875 --> 00:58:58,208 ♪ Trickle down my spine ♪ 961 00:58:58,291 --> 00:59:00,500 ♪ Swarm the belly, swelling to a blaze ♪ 962 00:59:00,583 --> 00:59:03,917 ♪ That's where the pain comes in ♪ 963 00:59:03,999 --> 00:59:07,750 ♪ Like a second skeleton ♪ 964 00:59:07,833 --> 00:59:11,583 ♪ Trying to fit beneath the skin ♪ 965 00:59:11,667 --> 00:59:14,833 ♪ I can't fit the feelings in ♪ 966 00:59:14,917 --> 00:59:18,249 ♪ Oh, every single night's alight ♪ 967 00:59:18,333 --> 00:59:23,208 ♪ With my brai... ♪ 968 00:59:23,291 --> 00:59:26,708 ♪ ...ain ♪ 969 00:59:26,792 --> 00:59:30,583 ♪ What'd I say to her, why'd I say to her ♪ 970 00:59:30,667 --> 00:59:32,291 ♪ What does she think of me ♪ 971 00:59:32,375 --> 00:59:34,249 ♪ That I'm not what I ought to be ♪ 972 00:59:34,333 --> 00:59:36,291 ♪ That I'm what I try not to be ♪ 973 00:59:36,375 --> 00:59:39,667 ♪ It's got to be somebody else's fault ♪ 974 00:59:39,750 --> 00:59:41,792 ♪ I can't get caught ♪ 975 00:59:41,875 --> 00:59:45,667 ♪ If what I am is what I am 'cause I does what I does ♪ 976 00:59:45,750 --> 00:59:47,208 ♪ Then brother, get back ♪ 977 00:59:47,291 --> 00:59:49,083 ♪ 'Cause my breast's gonna bust open ♪ 978 00:59:49,166 --> 00:59:53,083 ♪ The rib is the shell and the heart is a yolk ♪ 979 00:59:53,166 --> 00:59:57,333 ♪ And I just made a meal for us both to choke on ♪ 980 00:59:57,416 --> 01:00:00,166 ♪ Every single night's a fight ♪ 981 01:00:00,249 --> 01:00:04,999 ♪ with my brai... ♪ 982 01:00:05,083 --> 01:00:08,750 ♪ ...ain ♪ 983 01:00:08,833 --> 01:00:12,625 ♪ I just want to ♪ 984 01:00:12,708 --> 01:00:16,416 ♪ Feel everything ♪ 985 01:00:16,500 --> 01:00:20,166 ♪ I just want to ♪ 986 01:00:20,249 --> 01:00:24,291 ♪ Feel everything ♪ 987 01:00:43,625 --> 01:00:44,291 LESLIE BENNETT: Last night, 988 01:00:44,875 --> 01:00:46,375 I couldn't stop thinking about the day you were born. 989 01:00:46,458 --> 01:00:47,750 ♪ (VOCALIZING) ♪ 990 01:00:47,833 --> 01:00:49,500 LESLIE: What if I heard a voice... 991 01:00:49,583 --> 01:00:51,083 ♪ (VOCALIZING) ♪ 992 01:00:51,291 --> 01:00:52,999 Some narrator who said... 993 01:00:53,083 --> 01:00:55,416 ♪ (VOCALIZING) ♪ 994 01:00:55,500 --> 01:00:57,166 "Here's what's going to happen." 995 01:00:57,249 --> 01:00:59,208 (VOCALIZING) 996 01:00:59,667 --> 01:01:02,166 ♪ Doing it all for love ♪ 997 01:01:02,625 --> 01:01:05,875 -(BREATHES DEEPLY) -♪ Doing it all ♪ 998 01:01:06,458 --> 01:01:10,667 ♪ Doing it al for love ♪ 999 01:01:14,124 --> 01:01:15,792 ♪ (MUSIC CONTINUES) ♪ 1000 01:01:16,541 --> 01:01:18,041 ♪ I'm gonna disappear ♪ 1001 01:01:18,124 --> 01:01:20,583 Obviously, there's something wrong with her! 1002 01:01:20,750 --> 01:01:23,041 -(GRUNTING) -(PANTING) 1003 01:01:23,583 --> 01:01:24,667 ♪ (MUSIC STOPS) ♪ 1004 01:01:25,083 --> 01:01:27,333 But all this happened because I left. 1005 01:01:27,416 --> 01:01:29,291 ♪ (MUSIC CONTINUES) ♪ 1006 01:01:31,708 --> 01:01:34,750 ♪ Doing it all for love ♪ 1007 01:01:36,625 --> 01:01:38,917 ♪ (TRIP-HOP MUSIC PLAYS) ♪ 1008 01:01:44,541 --> 01:01:47,750 I love Cassie because how relatable she was. 1009 01:01:47,999 --> 01:01:50,500 She's trying to find her purpose in life. 1010 01:01:50,750 --> 01:01:53,833 I felt like that's a very realistic representation 1011 01:01:54,041 --> 01:01:55,792 of what it's like to be a girl. 1012 01:01:57,583 --> 01:02:01,124 Before we went into filming, I actually got to sit down 1013 01:02:01,208 --> 01:02:03,667 and build Cassie's character book. 1014 01:02:04,041 --> 01:02:07,792 That is an interactive timeline diary 1015 01:02:07,875 --> 01:02:09,333 of her entire life, and so, 1016 01:02:09,416 --> 01:02:11,625 something that happened when she was two with her dad 1017 01:02:11,708 --> 01:02:13,249 will create how she reacts 1018 01:02:13,333 --> 01:02:15,375 when she opens her ice-skating present 1019 01:02:15,458 --> 01:02:16,792 on her tenth birthday. 1020 01:02:17,375 --> 01:02:19,416 RUE BENNETT: Cassie's dad always wanted her to become 1021 01:02:19,500 --> 01:02:21,541 -a professional ice skater. -Wow! 1022 01:02:21,833 --> 01:02:23,541 RUE: But her dad couldn't afford lessons 1023 01:02:23,625 --> 01:02:25,667 so he stopped encouraging her. 1024 01:02:26,667 --> 01:02:29,541 Cassie's father left when she was growing up, 1025 01:02:29,625 --> 01:02:32,541 and she lost this man that she looked at 1026 01:02:32,625 --> 01:02:35,625 as a superhero, and so, she's always looked for 1027 01:02:35,708 --> 01:02:39,792 that kind of love to replace, and Cassie feels like 1028 01:02:39,999 --> 01:02:43,708 she needs these men to tell her she's beautiful, 1029 01:02:43,792 --> 01:02:46,708 or make her feel like she has to accept herself. 1030 01:02:46,792 --> 01:02:48,166 Even though she's had... 1031 01:02:48,458 --> 01:02:50,416 these little things here and there, 1032 01:02:50,500 --> 01:02:53,500 McKay is her first real relationship. 1033 01:02:53,583 --> 01:02:55,541 You watch all these movies and TV shows, 1034 01:02:55,625 --> 01:02:58,708 and your idea of what teenage love is supposed to be, 1035 01:02:58,792 --> 01:03:01,375 and that's not what it is in her life. 1036 01:03:01,458 --> 01:03:05,667 And she's searching for what she's expecting it to be. 1037 01:03:08,750 --> 01:03:10,458 I really love you, McKay. 1038 01:03:11,625 --> 01:03:13,917 What if this is what I'm supposed to do with my life? 1039 01:03:14,333 --> 01:03:18,375 Throughout episode seven, you see Cassie asking herself, 1040 01:03:18,625 --> 01:03:20,583 "Should I tell McKay that I'm pregnant?" 1041 01:03:20,999 --> 01:03:23,333 She couldn't go to her friends. She didn't feel like-- 1042 01:03:23,416 --> 01:03:27,375 And the one person she had there for her was her mom. 1043 01:03:30,458 --> 01:03:33,541 -I think I need your help. -MOTHER: It's okay. 1044 01:03:35,792 --> 01:03:39,958 Cassie realizes that maybe her mom does know what to do, 1045 01:03:40,041 --> 01:03:42,333 and maybe she should listen. Her mom was... 1046 01:03:42,833 --> 01:03:44,541 amazing and helpful and there for her, 1047 01:03:44,625 --> 01:03:47,249 and I think that's really important for a lot of teenagers 1048 01:03:47,333 --> 01:03:50,124 because they don't think they need their parents. 1049 01:03:50,208 --> 01:03:52,208 I mean, I went through so many things myself 1050 01:03:52,291 --> 01:03:53,541 where I'm like, "Oh, I know what's what. 1051 01:03:53,750 --> 01:03:56,667 I don't need my mom." And I wish I would have gone to her first 1052 01:03:56,750 --> 01:03:59,750 without making different decisions that I did. 1053 01:04:00,917 --> 01:04:03,166 I'm so proud to be a part of this show 1054 01:04:03,249 --> 01:04:05,124 because as an actor, you dream 1055 01:04:05,208 --> 01:04:08,458 of these very gritty, realistic roles, 1056 01:04:08,667 --> 01:04:11,708 and I feel that Euphoria has that. 1057 01:04:11,917 --> 01:04:15,541 Being on a show that represents so many different people, 1058 01:04:15,625 --> 01:04:18,166 I hope that people find themselves 1059 01:04:18,249 --> 01:04:20,875 in these different characters and know that they're not alone. 1060 01:04:20,958 --> 01:04:23,708 ♪ (MUSIC CONCLUDES) ♪