1 00:00:05,566 --> 00:00:06,568 I'm Masha. 2 00:00:06,701 --> 00:00:09,574 Supposedly, she completely changes people, you know? 3 00:00:09,774 --> 00:00:14,083 -That's why I'm going, to be transformed. -Good luck with that. 4 00:00:14,784 --> 00:00:16,288 You're a drug addict, Tony. 5 00:00:16,388 --> 00:00:19,561 There's many places you could go, but you came here. 6 00:00:19,727 --> 00:00:22,533 It's my brother, Zach. He... he stopped living three years ago. 7 00:00:22,700 --> 00:00:23,836 -I'm angry. -At me. 8 00:00:24,136 --> 00:00:26,140 For being so constantly upbeat. 9 00:00:26,241 --> 00:00:28,579 -That was interesting. -Could you just be open, please? 10 00:00:28,745 --> 00:00:29,781 It's not published yet. 11 00:00:29,881 --> 00:00:31,618 Maybe the guy got a leaked copy or something. 12 00:00:31,718 --> 00:00:34,123 -What did it say? -He didn't like it very much. 13 00:00:34,390 --> 00:00:35,493 -Mom! -Honey! 14 00:00:35,559 --> 00:00:37,897 I mean, is Masha crazy or is she the real deal? 15 00:00:38,232 --> 00:00:42,140 You're right, Delilah this is a particularly volatile group. 16 00:00:42,273 --> 00:00:44,277 Let's start the Protocol. The new Protocol. 17 00:00:44,511 --> 00:00:48,519 I've made the decision. This is exciting. 18 00:02:38,973 --> 00:02:42,614 Today we give ourselves to the earth. 19 00:02:56,943 --> 00:02:57,945 What? 20 00:02:59,882 --> 00:03:01,452 I thought I heard a scream. 21 00:03:06,929 --> 00:03:09,301 -I wouldn't know. -Sorry. 22 00:03:39,829 --> 00:03:43,036 -You're not hard. -I mean, you're not really wet. 23 00:03:43,569 --> 00:03:45,373 -I am wet. -Not really. 24 00:03:45,473 --> 00:03:47,077 I think I'd be the first to know. 25 00:03:47,544 --> 00:03:49,515 Maybe our frame of reference is just different. 26 00:03:49,581 --> 00:03:53,556 -Our frame of reference is different? -I mean, my wet might not be your wet. 27 00:03:54,391 --> 00:03:55,861 What? 28 00:04:23,383 --> 00:04:24,418 Fuck me. 29 00:04:27,625 --> 00:04:29,796 -Morning. -Hey, honey. 30 00:04:30,898 --> 00:04:34,506 Brushing with a lot of vigor today. Even for you. 31 00:04:36,643 --> 00:04:38,647 -It's my Masha day. -What? 32 00:04:40,785 --> 00:04:46,563 It's my Masha day. My... my one-on-one. Fabulous. 33 00:04:48,600 --> 00:04:51,138 Why fabulous? Do you even know what to expect? 34 00:04:53,711 --> 00:04:57,852 No, no idea. It’s like jumping in a river. You just see where it takes you. 35 00:04:59,589 --> 00:05:02,160 Rivers just take you downstream from wherever you are. 36 00:05:06,102 --> 00:05:07,438 I guess that's the point. 37 00:05:10,076 --> 00:05:11,012 What can I do? 38 00:05:11,747 --> 00:05:12,949 Nothing, it's okay. 39 00:05:16,490 --> 00:05:19,462 Like you say, we... we ride it out. 40 00:05:45,047 --> 00:05:46,416 Hey, Pipi. 41 00:05:49,890 --> 00:05:51,793 Hey Richie, you're sad. 42 00:05:52,428 --> 00:05:55,836 What is it? What is it? We gotta clean your teeth. 43 00:06:20,886 --> 00:06:23,557 -Something wrong? -You scared me. 44 00:06:25,194 --> 00:06:27,498 Yao mentioned that you’ve been getting threats. 45 00:06:27,566 --> 00:06:29,670 -Is that another one? -I’m not worried. 46 00:06:31,574 --> 00:06:35,181 -I'm not. -Think it's Connelly, maybe? His family? 47 00:06:36,016 --> 00:06:39,957 -It makes sense, right? -What? I won. No negligence. 48 00:06:40,024 --> 00:06:41,694 Well, that doesn’t mean they’re over it. 49 00:06:43,531 --> 00:06:45,100 I mean, who else could it be? 50 00:06:46,904 --> 00:06:50,144 It could be... a stalker. 51 00:06:51,012 --> 00:06:54,820 Or could be a competitor, it could be my ex-husband, 52 00:06:54,887 --> 00:06:57,993 it could be, it could be. I mean, I wish I could narrow the field. 53 00:06:59,597 --> 00:07:00,932 I don’t think they’re ready. 54 00:07:02,636 --> 00:07:04,005 I really, really don’t. 55 00:07:05,842 --> 00:07:09,617 Delilah... can you trust me on this? 56 00:07:10,852 --> 00:07:13,157 Sometimes I feel trust is still an issue with you. 57 00:07:19,203 --> 00:07:21,174 -Yes. Take it. -Thank you. 58 00:07:22,543 --> 00:07:25,582 Come on. Don't worry so much. 59 00:07:27,084 --> 00:07:29,156 All right. Morning, Zoe. 60 00:07:29,223 --> 00:07:32,563 -Morning. -Morning, Carmel. Welcome, everybody. 61 00:07:34,567 --> 00:07:38,508 -Everyone, welcome to day three. -Good morning, Yao. 62 00:07:39,210 --> 00:07:41,113 I don’t know where Masha sourced that mattress, 63 00:07:41,180 --> 00:07:43,551 but oh, my God, it is perfection. 64 00:07:45,088 --> 00:07:49,897 -Heather, how are you feeling today? -Oh, good. Slept amazingly actually. 65 00:07:50,765 --> 00:07:53,238 -How about you, sweetheart? -Yeah, good. 66 00:07:55,141 --> 00:07:57,279 -This is good. -Oh, my goodness, delicious. 67 00:07:57,546 --> 00:08:00,118 -It’s the big yum-yum, is what this is. -It's his Masha day. 68 00:08:00,652 --> 00:08:03,224 It's scary, but like in a good way. Does that make sense? 69 00:08:03,291 --> 00:08:04,293 I’ve got a splitting headache. 70 00:08:04,593 --> 00:08:06,564 Okay, morning schedule. We have meditation 71 00:08:06,664 --> 00:08:09,938 -after breakfast, then we begin our fast. -I don't have my smoothie. 72 00:08:10,038 --> 00:08:11,674 -There you go. -Great. 73 00:08:11,741 --> 00:08:14,246 -Oh, look at the special plate. -Yeah, it's real fucking cute. 74 00:08:16,818 --> 00:08:18,588 Why do you get that? I couldn't even get an Advil. 75 00:08:18,655 --> 00:08:21,561 -Some of us have real medical conditions. -I have an actual bad back. 76 00:08:21,661 --> 00:08:24,033 -Which your little Heimlich didn’t help. -You loved it. 77 00:08:26,939 --> 00:08:29,778 Sorry to be a nosy-posy, but what am I missing? 78 00:08:31,247 --> 00:08:33,686 He tried to kill me with a grape yesterday. 79 00:08:34,688 --> 00:08:36,792 Can I get some grapes? Actually, I'm kinda having 80 00:08:36,925 --> 00:08:37,927 a little blood sugar issue. 81 00:08:37,994 --> 00:08:40,332 We do need you all to take the fast seriously. 82 00:08:41,033 --> 00:08:42,837 -Is that no? -I'm taking it very seriously. 83 00:08:42,904 --> 00:08:45,208 -When do we eat again? -Dinner. 7:00 pm. 84 00:08:45,275 --> 00:08:47,780 -Scheisse. -7:00? That's... that's 11 hours from now. 85 00:08:47,981 --> 00:08:51,287 We will be outside all day, so if you feel you must eat, 86 00:08:51,588 --> 00:08:53,893 anything you can forage on the property is allowed. 87 00:08:53,959 --> 00:08:58,636 Today is about connecting with Mother Earth. Living off the land. 88 00:08:59,236 --> 00:09:00,606 Can I ask? 89 00:09:02,109 --> 00:09:03,144 Oh, doesn't matter. It's fine. 90 00:09:03,211 --> 00:09:04,614 -Go ahead. -Please. 91 00:09:06,183 --> 00:09:11,093 Excellent. Well. When, I feel stress and tension, 92 00:09:11,327 --> 00:09:16,170 it typically helps me if, I talk about it. And I was wondering 93 00:09:16,304 --> 00:09:19,311 whether that was okay. You know, within the group? 94 00:09:20,580 --> 00:09:21,615 -Of course. -Absolutely. 95 00:09:21,748 --> 00:09:24,988 Excellent... I’m feeling tension 96 00:09:25,055 --> 00:09:28,896 between Jessica and Ben. What’s going on? 97 00:09:29,965 --> 00:09:31,935 It's probably more what’s not going on. 98 00:09:32,904 --> 00:09:34,073 I'm so sorry. I don't know why 99 00:09:34,139 --> 00:09:35,876 -I said that out loud. -What do you mean by that? 100 00:09:35,943 --> 00:09:37,914 -"What's not going on"? -I... I didn't mean anything by it. 101 00:09:37,981 --> 00:09:39,851 -I didn't mean to say it. -What'd you tell her about us? 102 00:09:39,951 --> 00:09:42,824 -I didn't say anything. -She just must be really intuitive. 103 00:09:43,892 --> 00:09:45,630 Listen, you’re with friends here. 104 00:09:45,830 --> 00:09:48,869 You would feel much better if you just talked it out. 105 00:09:48,969 --> 00:09:50,906 Hey, talk this out, bro. You’re a real dick. 106 00:09:51,842 --> 00:09:54,381 Delilah, I would like to report Ben to HR. 107 00:09:55,015 --> 00:09:56,351 -Who do I speak to about that? -Lars. 108 00:09:56,785 --> 00:09:59,391 -You need to stop being antagonistic. -Well, good luck with that. 109 00:10:00,393 --> 00:10:04,367 -Excuse me? -Excuse you? You remember? 110 00:10:05,002 --> 00:10:06,805 That’s what you said when we met at the general store. 111 00:10:06,872 --> 00:10:08,943 I told you I was coming here to be transformed... 112 00:10:09,979 --> 00:10:11,983 and you said, "Good luck with that." 113 00:10:12,116 --> 00:10:14,821 Wow, you really have given that a lot of thought. 114 00:10:15,823 --> 00:10:18,429 Seriously, babe, get yourself a vibrator, 115 00:10:18,762 --> 00:10:20,066 -let off some steam. -Really? 116 00:10:20,132 --> 00:10:24,307 Okay, okay. Back to the schedule please. We have meditation from 9:00 to 10:00. 117 00:10:24,441 --> 00:10:26,345 Potato sack race at 10:15. 118 00:10:26,411 --> 00:10:27,881 Napoleon, you have Masha at 11:00. 119 00:10:28,182 --> 00:10:30,119 Wait. Did you say potato sack race? 120 00:10:30,286 --> 00:10:32,724 Yes, I did. Exercise combined with laughter 121 00:10:32,825 --> 00:10:34,862 is proven to reduce stress and anxiety, 122 00:10:35,329 --> 00:10:36,498 which it seems we could use. 123 00:10:36,766 --> 00:10:38,302 -Sensational! -I'm not doing the Potato sack race, 124 00:10:38,369 --> 00:10:39,304 -I'm not doing it -Tony, 125 00:10:39,371 --> 00:10:41,074 -you can be excused because of your knee. -Right. 126 00:10:41,141 --> 00:10:43,045 And, Francis, if your back is bothering you... 127 00:10:43,112 --> 00:10:44,347 It really is. 128 00:10:44,414 --> 00:10:48,055 No problem. But I can tell you it’s one of our most popular activities. 129 00:10:48,188 --> 00:10:50,226 We’ve never had a guest who regretted participating. 130 00:10:50,326 --> 00:10:54,501 -Count the Marconis in. -I wanna be on the Marconi team. 131 00:10:54,835 --> 00:10:56,939 -Yeah, and Carmel. There you go. -Bet you guys are from 132 00:10:57,073 --> 00:10:58,308 a long line of potato-sackers. 133 00:10:58,375 --> 00:11:00,279 Oh, you bet. I got... I got moves like Tigger. 134 00:11:00,346 --> 00:11:03,318 -Look at this! -You could be in the Olympics. 135 00:11:03,452 --> 00:11:05,757 -No. Sit down. -You're gonna hit the ceiling! 136 00:11:05,891 --> 00:11:08,328 Is it individual bags, or do we get to jump in the sack 137 00:11:08,395 --> 00:11:10,332 with somebody else? 'Cause if we do, 138 00:11:10,901 --> 00:11:13,973 I choose Jessica. I’m gay, but I still choose Jessica. 139 00:11:14,207 --> 00:11:16,779 Aw, that is so sweet of you to say. 140 00:11:17,213 --> 00:11:19,952 Look at those claws. My God, they're fierce. 141 00:11:21,254 --> 00:11:24,395 Anyway, so long as it’s not Carmel because you terrify me. 142 00:11:26,198 --> 00:11:27,868 Shut up! 143 00:11:33,178 --> 00:11:35,550 -Masha? -Yes. 144 00:11:36,352 --> 00:11:40,394 There's been an incident. Carmel attacked Lars. 145 00:11:42,865 --> 00:11:44,200 Physically attacked him? 146 00:11:44,268 --> 00:11:46,806 She lunged for his throat, but we handled it. 147 00:11:47,307 --> 00:11:48,510 He's with Yao now. 148 00:11:51,349 --> 00:11:54,822 Well, she has anger issues. It's better that it comes out this way. 149 00:11:55,223 --> 00:11:56,259 Than what other way? 150 00:11:56,559 --> 00:12:00,267 Oh, come on. You’re having a day, aren’t you? Aren't you? 151 00:12:00,400 --> 00:12:04,909 Well, apropos of our conversation earlier, I do think we should proceed 152 00:12:04,975 --> 00:12:06,345 with a little bit of caution, no? 153 00:12:08,883 --> 00:12:10,019 Duly noted. 154 00:12:12,491 --> 00:12:14,361 It’s good that we challenge each other. 155 00:12:15,998 --> 00:12:20,340 It only makes us better, right? All about self-improvement. 156 00:12:24,482 --> 00:12:26,486 Glory's taking Carmel to the arboretum. 157 00:12:27,354 --> 00:12:29,358 I've examined Lars, he's fine. 158 00:12:29,492 --> 00:12:32,397 See, everything's fine. 159 00:12:33,333 --> 00:12:35,504 No need to worry. 160 00:12:36,038 --> 00:12:37,541 But Delilah is tight. 161 00:12:38,209 --> 00:12:40,147 I think you've been neglecting her, Yao. 162 00:12:41,082 --> 00:12:45,257 You've got a good one here. I hope you appreciate her. 163 00:12:50,200 --> 00:12:51,202 Do you? 164 00:12:52,872 --> 00:12:56,579 -I... I do. -Really good. 165 00:12:58,951 --> 00:13:00,988 I love my team. 166 00:13:05,297 --> 00:13:08,938 You want to ring the bell? Come on, lovebirds, move it. 167 00:13:10,608 --> 00:13:11,844 Fuck. 168 00:13:22,565 --> 00:13:23,601 Fuck. 169 00:13:49,419 --> 00:13:50,655 -Hey. -Yeah. 170 00:13:52,257 --> 00:13:55,364 Are you okay? You look... you look pasty. 171 00:13:55,631 --> 00:13:58,704 Yeah, I'm fine. Just, you know, meditation. 172 00:13:59,973 --> 00:14:02,278 Being alone with my own thoughts. 173 00:14:02,345 --> 00:14:05,985 Yeah. I know that. Hey, listen, do you mind 174 00:14:06,052 --> 00:14:10,261 not saying anything to the others about my little internet scam-dom thing 175 00:14:10,328 --> 00:14:13,300 'cause it’s just-- Well, it's humiliating. 176 00:14:15,003 --> 00:14:17,909 -What did you tell me for? -I don't know. I guess for some reason 177 00:14:17,976 --> 00:14:19,379 I didn't think you were gonna judge me. 178 00:14:23,554 --> 00:14:25,324 Yeah. Your secret's safe with me. 179 00:14:27,295 --> 00:14:29,399 -Thanks. -All right. Let's go meditate. 180 00:14:32,071 --> 00:14:36,046 The sunlight rains down upon you, 181 00:14:37,448 --> 00:14:40,488 a strobing swath of gold. 182 00:14:45,999 --> 00:14:47,402 Filling you up... 183 00:14:50,541 --> 00:14:54,149 from your head, to your toes... 184 00:14:55,418 --> 00:14:57,322 with gratitude... 185 00:14:58,724 --> 00:15:00,127 and joy. 186 00:15:00,996 --> 00:15:02,432 For another day... 187 00:15:03,667 --> 00:15:05,071 another chance. 188 00:15:18,665 --> 00:15:23,642 I’m right here, Tony... sharing it with you. 189 00:15:57,576 --> 00:15:58,745 Fancy meeting you here. 190 00:15:59,112 --> 00:16:00,782 Are you doing this? Are you sure that's a good idea? 191 00:16:01,049 --> 00:16:03,220 Yeah, I can't resist the competition. What's your excuse? 192 00:16:03,287 --> 00:16:05,124 Are you sure you're okay to do this? 193 00:16:06,427 --> 00:16:07,696 That's... that is cute. 194 00:16:07,763 --> 00:16:11,003 I'm not participating, I'm here socially. Good luck. 195 00:16:11,604 --> 00:16:14,543 -Okay, let’s split up. The Marconis... -Yes! 196 00:16:15,044 --> 00:16:19,019 ...and Carmel, versus Ben, Jessica, Lars, and Tony. 197 00:16:19,253 --> 00:16:21,557 We are gonna look so ridiculous in these things. 198 00:16:22,493 --> 00:16:26,434 -You? Never. -Okay, this way, ladies. 199 00:16:27,202 --> 00:16:30,107 -You're gonna do this with your knee? -You shit talking me, Karen? 200 00:16:30,175 --> 00:16:32,546 -Can you cope? -Heather. Her name's Heather. 201 00:16:32,680 --> 00:16:34,116 He knows that. He's joking. 202 00:16:34,450 --> 00:16:37,589 Okay, we want everyone to be safe. So let’s not get crazy. 203 00:16:38,124 --> 00:16:40,495 Remember the goal is fun, laughter, and play. 204 00:16:40,662 --> 00:16:42,466 The positive benefits of which have been documented 205 00:16:42,566 --> 00:16:45,672 -at the Mayo Clinic, FYI. -There you go! 206 00:16:46,074 --> 00:16:48,478 -I'm rooting for all of you! -Yeah, we're gonna crush this. 207 00:16:48,578 --> 00:16:49,780 -Go get them! -Our team's more fit! 208 00:16:50,549 --> 00:16:55,292 -The Marconis, will not be beaten! -I've got a heart murmur. Is that okay? 209 00:16:55,659 --> 00:16:59,266 All right. Ready, and, go! 210 00:17:30,429 --> 00:17:31,631 Come on. 211 00:17:33,168 --> 00:17:36,174 -I got it! I got it! I got it! -Come on! 212 00:17:36,675 --> 00:17:38,646 I got it! I got it! 213 00:17:39,580 --> 00:17:42,453 I got... I got it! I got it! 214 00:17:50,302 --> 00:17:51,337 What? 215 00:18:05,265 --> 00:18:09,641 Yeah! I won! I... we won! We won! We won! We won! 216 00:18:10,843 --> 00:18:14,250 That’s illegal. That’s illegal. That’s illegal. 217 00:18:14,618 --> 00:18:16,855 That wasn't... She wasn't... She wasn't jumping. 218 00:18:17,122 --> 00:18:18,224 Everyone calm down. 219 00:18:18,291 --> 00:18:20,162 -Calm down. Calm down. -I could've done the somersault! 220 00:18:20,329 --> 00:18:21,865 -Breathe. -Excuse me. But there's no rule 221 00:18:22,132 --> 00:18:23,602 -that says I have to jump. -That's right. 222 00:18:23,669 --> 00:18:25,807 No, no. That is a first but... 223 00:18:26,775 --> 00:18:28,712 -legal, yeah. -Strategy. 224 00:18:29,281 --> 00:18:32,253 -How did you even learn to do that? -I used to be a cheerleader. 225 00:18:33,154 --> 00:18:34,324 -Gee! -Okay, okay! 226 00:18:34,424 --> 00:18:37,597 Congratulations to the winners. Namaste to the losers. 227 00:18:37,831 --> 00:18:39,234 -Yeah, okay. -We have 40 minutes 228 00:18:39,301 --> 00:18:41,271 of free time, then it is out to the wilderness. 229 00:18:41,338 --> 00:18:43,509 Lunch is out there if you can find it. Dinner, too. 230 00:18:43,943 --> 00:18:45,613 -Why dinner? -Smoothies at 7:00 pm, 231 00:18:45,713 --> 00:18:48,619 -but anything beyond that-- -You can’t... you can't just starve us. 232 00:18:48,752 --> 00:18:50,523 There's a lot of fruit trees. Nuts. 233 00:18:50,656 --> 00:18:52,460 There’s even an avocado tree out there somewhere. 234 00:18:52,527 --> 00:18:54,464 -And a river. -I can't eat a river. 235 00:18:54,664 --> 00:18:57,470 -Do we at least get a fishing pole? -Living off the land, Ben. So... 236 00:18:58,372 --> 00:19:01,612 -That doesn't count? -Forty minutes, everyone! 237 00:19:01,912 --> 00:19:03,482 Don’t forget your sunscreen. Okay! 238 00:19:03,549 --> 00:19:05,419 -Okay. All right. -Can't eat sunscreen either. 239 00:19:49,374 --> 00:19:50,744 Please come in. 240 00:19:53,917 --> 00:19:55,253 Napoleon. 241 00:19:56,255 --> 00:19:57,791 -Welcome, how are you today? -Thank you. 242 00:19:58,359 --> 00:20:02,935 Fantastic. I mean, still smarting from a devastating potato sack defeat, 243 00:20:03,302 --> 00:20:04,839 -but other than that-- -Wonderful. 244 00:20:05,473 --> 00:20:07,477 You know, I... I wanted to let you know 245 00:20:07,578 --> 00:20:09,982 we’re so grateful to be here despite how it may have... 246 00:20:11,418 --> 00:20:13,623 seemed at the beginning. Heather was... 247 00:20:14,992 --> 00:20:18,466 She couldn’t believe it. When you reduced your rate for us. Very generous. 248 00:20:19,869 --> 00:20:22,575 -How is Heather? -Oh, she's good. Thank you. 249 00:20:22,741 --> 00:20:25,379 Please... sit down. 250 00:20:27,551 --> 00:20:28,687 So she's better? 251 00:20:29,455 --> 00:20:32,761 She was quite on the precipice the other day, I understand. 252 00:20:32,962 --> 00:20:35,367 Oh, she would never... She was just... 253 00:20:37,838 --> 00:20:39,542 -Admiring the view. -Yeah. 254 00:20:41,879 --> 00:20:44,452 Yeah, she would never. She would never. 255 00:20:51,098 --> 00:20:52,100 Wanna start again? 256 00:20:55,607 --> 00:20:58,012 How is your wife? How is Heather? 257 00:21:03,590 --> 00:21:04,859 Heather is broken. 258 00:21:06,963 --> 00:21:10,437 Our son took his life. And Heather... 259 00:21:11,739 --> 00:21:12,741 she’s broken. 260 00:21:15,047 --> 00:21:17,618 -What about you? -I’m fine. 261 00:21:19,989 --> 00:21:24,599 I mean, I-- Obviously I was, grief-stricken for some time and... 262 00:21:27,738 --> 00:21:31,079 -But these things happen. -These things happen? 263 00:21:31,145 --> 00:21:32,147 Yes, they do. 264 00:21:34,051 --> 00:21:38,059 Suicide is the leading cause of death in America, 265 00:21:38,460 --> 00:21:39,795 especially for young people. 266 00:21:41,733 --> 00:21:44,873 I spent about a month crying "Why me?" on my pillow. 267 00:21:44,940 --> 00:21:47,645 But when you look at the statistics, 268 00:21:47,745 --> 00:21:50,918 the better query might be, "Why not me?" It's all around us. 269 00:21:53,456 --> 00:21:54,860 So you're not broken. 270 00:21:58,834 --> 00:22:01,039 I... I still hurt, of course, but... 271 00:22:06,449 --> 00:22:08,821 -And the irony... -The irony? 272 00:22:10,424 --> 00:22:11,727 Napoleon, what irony? 273 00:22:15,033 --> 00:22:18,774 "It matters not how straight the gate, I am the master of my fate." 274 00:22:19,008 --> 00:22:20,778 "I am the captain of my soul." 275 00:22:22,081 --> 00:22:27,625 "Out of the night carries me, black as the Pit from pole to pole." 276 00:22:27,792 --> 00:22:28,828 Invictus. 277 00:22:31,967 --> 00:22:36,910 You get a gold star. I teach high school. Which you know. 278 00:22:37,812 --> 00:22:40,183 And anyway, that’s what I preach 279 00:22:40,451 --> 00:22:42,021 to all my students, that they are the masters 280 00:22:42,087 --> 00:22:43,156 of their own fates. 281 00:22:45,093 --> 00:22:47,832 And Zach chose to be the master of his fate, 282 00:22:48,934 --> 00:22:53,209 -in his way. So, you know. Irony. -I am so sorry. 283 00:22:54,713 --> 00:23:00,123 -I am so sorry for your loss, Napoleon. -Thank you. It’s... it's difficult. 284 00:23:01,994 --> 00:23:03,964 But I am not broken. 285 00:23:06,470 --> 00:23:08,908 We carry on because we must, right? 286 00:23:09,075 --> 00:23:10,912 -What's the alternative? -Exactly. 287 00:23:11,714 --> 00:23:13,584 I’d like to try something, if you’re open to it? 288 00:23:13,918 --> 00:23:17,625 -Of course I'm open, that's why I'm here. -Lovely. 289 00:23:18,694 --> 00:23:21,934 Good. Well... close your eyes? 290 00:23:27,145 --> 00:23:28,147 Breathe... 291 00:23:30,852 --> 00:23:32,655 picture your son Zach. 292 00:23:35,995 --> 00:23:38,234 -Sorry. That... Not... not right now. -Okay. Okay. No. 293 00:23:38,501 --> 00:23:40,138 -No. -Of course not. I understand. 294 00:23:40,505 --> 00:23:44,579 Just picture anything... anything at all. Close your eyes. 295 00:23:44,713 --> 00:23:47,218 I... I really don’t want to be late for the foraging. 296 00:23:47,552 --> 00:23:49,723 I’m... I'm told there’s a limited amount of avocados. 297 00:23:49,823 --> 00:23:51,260 -Napoleon, please. -And the idea of missing out 298 00:23:51,527 --> 00:23:53,764 -on the guac is... -Please, would you do it? 299 00:23:53,831 --> 00:23:56,170 Picture anything at all. I don't care. 300 00:23:56,270 --> 00:23:58,607 I mean, a cup of coffee. Whatever you want. 301 00:23:58,674 --> 00:24:01,046 A spaceship. Your wife’s smile. Anything at all. 302 00:24:01,113 --> 00:24:03,952 Then you can leave, I promise. Just close your eyes. 303 00:24:04,854 --> 00:24:05,856 -Yeah. -Close them. 304 00:24:05,923 --> 00:24:08,260 Yes, that's it. Now... 305 00:24:10,064 --> 00:24:11,133 anything you want. 306 00:24:28,033 --> 00:24:30,806 There it is. What did you see? 307 00:24:33,177 --> 00:24:34,580 I saw myself. 308 00:24:36,618 --> 00:24:38,287 Eating a delicious avocado. 309 00:24:43,999 --> 00:24:45,769 -The future. -Yeah. 310 00:24:48,040 --> 00:24:51,848 -May... may I go, Masha? Please? -You may. 311 00:24:52,750 --> 00:24:54,720 Carry on, Napoleon. 312 00:24:57,660 --> 00:24:58,829 Right-o. 313 00:25:25,983 --> 00:25:28,722 What about these mushrooms? Are they poisonous? 314 00:25:29,757 --> 00:25:31,093 Some are, some aren’t. 315 00:25:31,227 --> 00:25:34,065 -Some... Helpful! -I suggest we stick to the berries, 316 00:25:34,132 --> 00:25:37,071 the... the leafy greens. It’s not just about finding food. 317 00:25:37,206 --> 00:25:40,612 It’s about connecting to the earth. Really feeling the earth. 318 00:25:40,812 --> 00:25:44,052 Yeah. As long as I don’t connect to any poison ivy, I’m allergic. 319 00:25:44,187 --> 00:25:45,289 Yao, a moment. 320 00:25:45,355 --> 00:25:46,691 -Yes. -I’m not really feeling 321 00:25:46,758 --> 00:25:49,063 the effects of my breakfast this morning, you know what I mean? 322 00:25:50,065 --> 00:25:54,707 -No, I don't. -My medication. You guys cutting back? 323 00:25:55,042 --> 00:25:57,346 Tony, you... you picked up the pill and swallowed it. 324 00:25:57,913 --> 00:26:00,752 Yeah, well listen, I’m... I'm not feeling so great, okay? 325 00:26:00,819 --> 00:26:03,725 And when I feel like shit, I don’t play well with others. You got me? 326 00:26:04,060 --> 00:26:05,095 Understood. 327 00:26:11,140 --> 00:26:12,142 What are you staring at? 328 00:26:12,776 --> 00:26:14,213 -I know who you are. -Oh, yeah? 329 00:26:14,380 --> 00:26:16,384 You looked familiar, but I couldn’t place your face. 330 00:26:16,852 --> 00:26:19,323 But now I can. You’re Smiley Hogburn, right? 331 00:26:20,292 --> 00:26:22,329 What? Oh, my God. 332 00:26:23,298 --> 00:26:27,072 Ben, you're right, that's Smiley Hogburn. Holy moly, what happened, man? 333 00:26:28,675 --> 00:26:32,082 -I... I didn’t mean that. -Who... who's Smiley Hogburn? 334 00:26:32,216 --> 00:26:35,924 He was a star tight end for the Niners. He was like Gronkowski before Gronkowski. 335 00:26:36,024 --> 00:26:37,326 Gronkowski. I was better than Gronkowski. 336 00:26:37,393 --> 00:26:39,030 Yo, you know you could've been a Hall of Famer 337 00:26:39,096 --> 00:26:41,802 -if you wouldn't have shattered your knee. -I knew you were famous. I knew it. 338 00:26:41,869 --> 00:26:43,238 And you know how I recognized you? 339 00:26:43,438 --> 00:26:45,743 When we won the potato sack race and you did that little dance. 340 00:26:45,877 --> 00:26:47,179 That was your touchdown jig, right? 341 00:26:48,014 --> 00:26:50,887 Yo, you was my dad's favorite player. Well, you was his favorite white player. 342 00:26:50,954 --> 00:26:52,824 Well, you was probably his second favorite white player 343 00:26:52,924 --> 00:26:55,062 'cause he loved Brett Favre, but you was top three for sure. 344 00:26:56,130 --> 00:26:58,101 -Damn, I'm talking to Smiley Hogburn. -No, you’re not. 345 00:26:58,468 --> 00:27:00,974 No Smiley Hogburn anymore, okay? It's just Tony. 346 00:27:02,109 --> 00:27:03,144 You got me? Tony! 347 00:27:05,182 --> 00:27:06,652 And Tony needs his fucking medicine. 348 00:27:09,056 --> 00:27:11,662 So, are there any snakes? 349 00:27:11,996 --> 00:27:14,968 There are 33 species of snakes in this region. 350 00:27:15,102 --> 00:27:17,741 I’m not gonna have to, like, bite the head off one 351 00:27:17,807 --> 00:27:19,845 -to prove myself, am I? -Jessica. 352 00:27:21,114 --> 00:27:23,753 You shouldn’t ever do anything that makes you feel uncomfortable. 353 00:27:23,886 --> 00:27:25,857 That goes for anywhere, here included. 354 00:27:27,159 --> 00:27:29,364 Maybe especially here. Okay? 355 00:27:33,038 --> 00:27:35,777 What did that mean? That sounded like it had meaning. 356 00:28:00,293 --> 00:28:03,299 Honey, it wasn't yet the spring 357 00:28:05,837 --> 00:28:06,972 That's a pretty song. 358 00:28:10,213 --> 00:28:14,354 My son used to play it. He could really sing. 359 00:28:34,227 --> 00:28:38,970 -What's happening? -This part is completely optional. 360 00:28:40,373 --> 00:28:41,776 But I promise, you won't regret it. 361 00:28:58,910 --> 00:29:02,250 Oh, Mom. You're naked. Okay. 362 00:29:02,350 --> 00:29:04,488 -It's amazing! -It's beautiful! 363 00:29:06,425 --> 00:29:09,131 -Here you go. -You girls are wild! 364 00:29:25,798 --> 00:29:27,902 -'Gram-tastic. -What? 365 00:29:29,004 --> 00:29:32,411 Instagram. It's not real if you can’t post it, right? 366 00:29:35,083 --> 00:29:36,519 You strike me as more of a Facebook lady. 367 00:29:37,455 --> 00:29:40,561 No, my kids are like you, tragically addicted. 368 00:29:40,894 --> 00:29:43,065 I'm sure if they saw your page, they'd worship you. 369 00:29:47,875 --> 00:29:51,148 I'm really sorry if I'm, like, misreading you at all. 370 00:29:51,549 --> 00:29:53,386 But on the possibility that I’m not, you can fuck off. 371 00:29:57,995 --> 00:30:01,269 Mom! J... just at least t... turn... ang-- 372 00:30:01,436 --> 00:30:04,408 -It's just a body. It's just flesh. -Oh, God! 373 00:30:07,113 --> 00:30:12,056 -Francis? -Oh, no. No, not a chance. 374 00:30:12,158 --> 00:30:14,529 Between the chemical peels, the collagen injections, 375 00:30:14,629 --> 00:30:17,268 and all the other things that I'm not going to admit, 376 00:30:17,501 --> 00:30:21,309 I'm confident I have single-handedly paid for my esthetician’s beach house. 377 00:30:21,609 --> 00:30:24,549 This doesn't ever see the sun. 378 00:30:25,584 --> 00:30:27,121 Okay. 379 00:30:31,997 --> 00:30:34,001 Talk to me like that ever again... 380 00:30:34,535 --> 00:30:35,972 And what? You’ll fuck me up? 381 00:30:36,706 --> 00:30:38,978 You think you’re the only one who doesn’t like being dismissed? 382 00:30:39,078 --> 00:30:41,182 -I haven't been dismissing you. -Yes, you have. 383 00:30:41,984 --> 00:30:43,587 "Ooh. Gee. Ooh. 384 00:30:44,121 --> 00:30:47,127 Ch... cheerleader! Ooh, Instagram." Like, fuck off! 385 00:30:50,969 --> 00:30:53,573 I don't ever think I... I've seen one before. 386 00:30:54,342 --> 00:30:55,477 Well, there it is. 387 00:30:55,544 --> 00:30:57,381 -What? -Right there. See it? 388 00:30:57,448 --> 00:31:00,287 I do. Avocado, ahoy! 389 00:31:03,593 --> 00:31:04,662 Man, what the... 390 00:31:07,134 --> 00:31:08,036 One. 391 00:31:08,103 --> 00:31:10,307 -It's still a little early in the season. -What the fuck? Are we on 392 00:31:10,374 --> 00:31:12,278 some kind of reality show or something? 393 00:31:13,180 --> 00:31:17,221 -And what about the, apple orchard? -Just buds. But we got some blueberries, 394 00:31:17,321 --> 00:31:19,626 some... some green ones. It's a little early for them. 395 00:31:19,693 --> 00:31:21,630 Hey, man. You said that there was gonna be food out here. 396 00:31:22,064 --> 00:31:24,703 There is, we just need to forage. It’s not meant to be easy, Tony. 397 00:31:25,204 --> 00:31:26,206 Clearly not. 398 00:31:29,078 --> 00:31:32,586 Give in to the river, ladies. She knows what she’s doing. 399 00:31:33,486 --> 00:31:35,123 Oh, my God, Mom. 400 00:31:35,424 --> 00:31:37,596 The full-frontal situation, really... 401 00:31:39,298 --> 00:31:40,768 You used to run around naked all the time. 402 00:31:41,102 --> 00:31:42,371 Yeah, when I was five. 403 00:31:43,741 --> 00:31:47,047 -I love your body. -Oh, my God. Who are you? 404 00:31:47,348 --> 00:31:50,622 -Carmel, can you spin me around? -I wanna see the other side of the river. 405 00:31:56,400 --> 00:31:57,569 Oh, it's pretty! 406 00:32:01,443 --> 00:32:04,783 -These are actually pretty good. -A lot of fat content in walnuts. 407 00:32:05,150 --> 00:32:07,221 Rich in antioxidants and Omega-3s. 408 00:32:07,322 --> 00:32:11,029 I wanna go back to the lodge. I need my medication. 409 00:32:11,162 --> 00:32:13,734 When did you start taking oxy? Was it to deal with the injury? 410 00:32:14,101 --> 00:32:16,540 -That would be none of your business. -Come on. You can tell us. 411 00:32:17,174 --> 00:32:19,179 I mean, dipshit here told us his deep, dark secret. 412 00:32:20,248 --> 00:32:23,387 -I did? -Yeah. That you’re a dipshit. 413 00:32:24,556 --> 00:32:28,264 Well, the Marconi family drama has certainly been on full display. 414 00:32:28,331 --> 00:32:29,333 That's for sure. 415 00:32:29,466 --> 00:32:31,503 Yo, you know I saw you shatter that knee like a hundred times. 416 00:32:33,274 --> 00:32:35,345 Those highlight reels they always play on ESPN, 417 00:32:35,745 --> 00:32:38,417 the worst sports injuries, you’re right up there with Joe Theismann. 418 00:32:38,484 --> 00:32:42,325 -Good times. Let's change the subject. -Let's talk about you, Ben. 419 00:32:43,694 --> 00:32:46,233 Driving a Lamborghini. What’s your story? 420 00:32:47,202 --> 00:32:48,271 I don't have one. 421 00:32:50,308 --> 00:32:52,746 -I don't. -Everybody has a story. 422 00:32:53,381 --> 00:32:55,585 Especially the people that claim otherwise. 423 00:32:55,852 --> 00:32:58,424 Well, I'm sorry. Never been anything. 424 00:32:59,626 --> 00:33:01,830 -Never done anything. -How do you make your money? 425 00:33:03,701 --> 00:33:07,342 I didn't. I won the lottery. 426 00:33:09,513 --> 00:33:12,185 -Twenty-two million dollars. -Wow! 427 00:33:12,519 --> 00:33:14,122 I never did a fucking thing. 428 00:33:15,826 --> 00:33:19,299 -I didn’t plan on telling y’all that. -Sharing is contagious, Ben. 429 00:33:19,734 --> 00:33:22,105 So, thank you for your honesty. It's a big step. 430 00:33:22,172 --> 00:33:23,674 Come on, you must've had a job, right? 431 00:33:26,313 --> 00:33:27,582 I drove a catering truck. 432 00:33:29,252 --> 00:33:33,427 I didn't make a lot of money, but, it had meaning, you know? 433 00:33:34,129 --> 00:33:36,367 Just simple tasks that made people’s day a little better. 434 00:33:38,437 --> 00:33:40,174 Sounds stupid, but it mattered. 435 00:33:41,878 --> 00:33:47,288 And poof. I won the lottery, everything else became moot. 436 00:33:48,892 --> 00:33:51,263 No meaning. No matter. 437 00:33:51,430 --> 00:33:54,403 Come on. You’ve still got Jessica. 438 00:33:55,271 --> 00:33:56,440 At least for the time being. 439 00:33:57,677 --> 00:33:59,514 What the fuck is wrong with you, man? 440 00:33:59,647 --> 00:34:01,484 Why you feel like you always gotta stir shit up? 441 00:34:03,455 --> 00:34:06,360 -I was kidding. Sorry. -You know, the snide is getting old. 442 00:34:07,295 --> 00:34:10,234 Ben had a genuine moment there, a moment of real honesty. 443 00:34:10,334 --> 00:34:13,307 And you just took a big, fat shit all over it. Why? 444 00:34:13,608 --> 00:34:16,514 Look, man, I appreciate it, but I’m not asking anybody 445 00:34:16,581 --> 00:34:17,783 to feel sorry for me. 446 00:34:19,186 --> 00:34:22,827 -I won the lottery, right? -I actually feel sorry for Lars. 447 00:34:29,440 --> 00:34:32,213 -Okay, can we go now? -This is just the best feeling. 448 00:34:33,415 --> 00:34:36,921 This is the best thing I've ever felt and I don't know why. 449 00:34:37,189 --> 00:34:40,462 Me too. But my body keeps wanting to bob up. 450 00:34:40,529 --> 00:34:45,873 I also find that feelings tend to bubble up in this pool. 451 00:34:47,910 --> 00:34:50,616 Anybody have any feelings to share? 452 00:34:51,518 --> 00:34:53,789 -I feel wonderful. -Me, too. 453 00:34:54,323 --> 00:34:58,498 I feel more like myself, which I haven’t been today. 454 00:34:59,567 --> 00:35:01,538 Would you like to expand on that, Carmel? 455 00:35:02,707 --> 00:35:05,479 How you haven’t been feeling like yourself? 456 00:35:06,581 --> 00:35:08,652 I've been snapping at people. 457 00:35:09,721 --> 00:35:13,595 And-- Well, Jessica told me to fuck off. 458 00:35:13,762 --> 00:35:16,601 So I suspect that I did something to her, too. 459 00:35:17,938 --> 00:35:19,173 Did I? 460 00:35:19,474 --> 00:35:21,946 You dismissed me. I told you. You’ve been... 461 00:35:23,382 --> 00:35:25,786 you know, judging me. And... 462 00:35:28,291 --> 00:35:30,362 About being a cheerleader and Instagram. 463 00:35:30,429 --> 00:35:34,805 And you said, "It’s not real if I don’t post it." 464 00:35:35,205 --> 00:35:36,508 And that hit a nerve? 465 00:35:40,282 --> 00:35:43,622 Yeah, 'cause it's true. I check it first thing in the morning 466 00:35:44,323 --> 00:35:46,528 to make sure people think I'm pretty. 467 00:35:48,498 --> 00:35:49,500 It's pathetic. 468 00:35:50,770 --> 00:35:52,641 Do you really not think that you're pretty? 469 00:35:54,377 --> 00:35:56,381 -No. -How? 470 00:35:56,916 --> 00:35:59,520 It's pretty noticeable. I mean, my eyelids are, like, 471 00:35:59,588 --> 00:36:00,590 drooping, and... 472 00:36:02,426 --> 00:36:04,965 my thighs are too big, and my stomach isn't flat enough, 473 00:36:05,032 --> 00:36:08,438 my pores are huge, my hips are too big. My hairline is wrong, 474 00:36:08,506 --> 00:36:09,575 and these freckles won't fuck off 475 00:36:09,675 --> 00:36:11,779 no matter how much I laser and it's... You know... 476 00:36:14,250 --> 00:36:15,419 this is a good day. 477 00:36:16,722 --> 00:36:20,329 Wow, I feel so bad right now for hating you some. 478 00:36:21,866 --> 00:36:26,408 Well, my husband left me for, a... a young woman. 479 00:36:26,876 --> 00:36:30,383 So, sometimes when I see pretty young women, you, 480 00:36:30,784 --> 00:36:34,691 I just want to go..."Pow." 481 00:36:36,462 --> 00:36:39,268 Right in the face. I mean, I would never do it, honestly. 482 00:36:39,535 --> 00:36:41,672 What? You wanna punch me in the face? 483 00:36:41,906 --> 00:36:46,315 I’m-- Well, I'm ashamed of it, but... yes. 484 00:36:49,020 --> 00:36:52,994 -That's cool. -Francis, what are you thinking? 485 00:36:54,030 --> 00:36:57,471 I was just thinking I wish I could write this all down. 486 00:36:58,038 --> 00:37:03,048 It's awful. I have five interesting women, a beautiful setting, 487 00:37:03,316 --> 00:37:06,555 and I'm not the least bit present. 488 00:37:08,526 --> 00:37:10,463 I'm just recording it, you know, for reference. 489 00:37:10,597 --> 00:37:14,037 You're not... real people to me. 490 00:37:15,640 --> 00:37:18,546 Sorry, I-- It's the sulfur. 491 00:37:20,316 --> 00:37:21,452 I don't know where that came from. 492 00:37:21,619 --> 00:37:22,888 I have a question. 493 00:37:24,424 --> 00:37:26,595 When was the last time anybody here had sex? 494 00:37:27,030 --> 00:37:29,067 -Mom. -You don't have to answer. 495 00:37:29,735 --> 00:37:31,639 -Have you had sex? -Stop. Stop! 496 00:37:31,940 --> 00:37:33,877 It's just-- I'm just asking 497 00:37:34,478 --> 00:37:37,584 whether anybody here remembers. 'Cause I remember. 498 00:37:38,519 --> 00:37:41,325 I know exactly the last time I had sex. It was three years ago. 499 00:37:41,725 --> 00:37:43,095 -Don't please. -If I had known 500 00:37:43,362 --> 00:37:46,001 it was gonna be the last time, I'd have bothered to remember the details. 501 00:37:46,435 --> 00:37:48,005 -Oh, my God. -I suspect it was good, 502 00:37:48,072 --> 00:37:50,043 because your father is a brilliant lover. 503 00:37:50,510 --> 00:37:53,082 As goofy as he is, he... he can be all business. 504 00:37:53,516 --> 00:37:56,723 I’m sure it was good. Because sex is good. Isn't it? 505 00:37:56,957 --> 00:37:57,959 Holy shit. 506 00:37:58,059 --> 00:38:02,400 It’s just not possible for me... anymore. 507 00:38:04,571 --> 00:38:06,075 It might be for Napoleon. 508 00:38:08,680 --> 00:38:10,985 I think he should have an affair while we're here. 509 00:38:12,387 --> 00:38:15,761 He could have an affair with you. And you could write about it after. 510 00:38:19,101 --> 00:38:22,942 -Are you okay, Heather? -I... I'm wonderful. 511 00:38:27,652 --> 00:38:29,455 How could that possibly be? 512 00:38:35,099 --> 00:38:36,436 I'm not feeling well. 513 00:38:37,370 --> 00:38:39,842 Join the club. It’s called malnutrition. 514 00:38:40,911 --> 00:38:43,550 No. No, it’s something else. My head feels funny. 515 00:38:43,684 --> 00:38:45,721 It's 'cause you're starving. We all are. 516 00:38:45,921 --> 00:38:47,992 I hear ringing. Does anyone else hear ringing? 517 00:38:48,460 --> 00:38:50,431 I thought you said there was gonna be food out here to find. 518 00:38:50,664 --> 00:38:52,902 -There is. -Yeah? Well... well, when the fuck? 519 00:38:53,169 --> 00:38:54,872 I mean, all the fruit is out of season 520 00:38:54,939 --> 00:38:57,545 and all we've had was a... a couple of walnuts, 521 00:38:57,612 --> 00:38:58,981 which were fucking disgusting. 522 00:38:59,047 --> 00:39:01,185 And a tiny little smoothie like nine hours ago. 523 00:39:01,486 --> 00:39:03,991 -It's fucking inhumane. -Tony. Just take a breath. 524 00:39:04,057 --> 00:39:07,030 Enough with the fucking breath, okay? We can’t eat air. 525 00:39:08,734 --> 00:39:10,938 -You, you got rations? -Me? 526 00:39:11,606 --> 00:39:14,846 "Me." Yeah, you. You’re the type to have a secret stash. 527 00:39:14,912 --> 00:39:16,650 -Oh, right. -Yeah, yeah, you’re definitely the type 528 00:39:16,750 --> 00:39:17,752 to not share. 529 00:39:24,732 --> 00:39:25,935 Hi! 530 00:39:30,945 --> 00:39:32,014 You said the only thing 531 00:39:32,081 --> 00:39:33,684 we're having for dinner tonight is a smoothie? 532 00:39:36,523 --> 00:39:38,560 -Don't be ridiculous. -Well... 533 00:39:39,429 --> 00:39:41,800 the rules are "whatever we can forage," right, Yao? 534 00:39:46,944 --> 00:39:48,447 The ethical carnivore. 535 00:39:48,915 --> 00:39:51,186 One must only eat what one is prepared to kill. 536 00:39:52,755 --> 00:39:54,559 Little protein doesn’t sound so bad. 537 00:39:56,196 --> 00:39:58,133 -Have you all gone mad? -Hey, baby. 538 00:39:58,200 --> 00:39:59,235 -You have! -It's all right. 539 00:39:59,502 --> 00:40:01,573 Maybe after a little sustenance we'll come to our senses. 540 00:40:01,874 --> 00:40:02,909 Hey, girl. 541 00:40:05,681 --> 00:40:06,784 Scusi. 542 00:40:08,186 --> 00:40:09,823 I'll be back in a second, fellas. 543 00:40:12,228 --> 00:40:13,698 -Are you kidding me? -Tony! 544 00:40:14,900 --> 00:40:19,509 -Stop him! Jesus! -Tony! Tony! 545 00:40:19,575 --> 00:40:20,979 Come here. Come on! 546 00:41:23,204 --> 00:41:25,775 Welcome back. How was your earth day? 547 00:41:26,644 --> 00:41:29,015 -It was, interesting. -Yeah? 548 00:41:29,950 --> 00:41:31,654 No, actually, it was incredible. 549 00:41:35,027 --> 00:41:36,029 I feel strange. 550 00:41:41,707 --> 00:41:44,246 -Who's hungry for barbecue? -What the hell? 551 00:41:48,688 --> 00:41:51,160 -Did you kill it? -Living off the land, baby. 552 00:42:08,929 --> 00:42:09,931 You did this? 553 00:42:10,298 --> 00:42:12,736 Well, the rule was whatever we could forage out there. 554 00:42:14,306 --> 00:42:17,078 -And there wasn’t much out there. -How barbaric can you be? 555 00:42:17,312 --> 00:42:20,318 She wanted us to be barbaric. Didn't you? 556 00:42:25,128 --> 00:42:29,403 I did. Yes. Well-played. 557 00:42:29,838 --> 00:42:31,273 -"Well-played?" -You're okay with this? 558 00:42:31,808 --> 00:42:34,747 I'm proud of you all. The exercise was to live off the land. 559 00:42:34,914 --> 00:42:36,818 Man as hunter and gatherer. 560 00:42:37,954 --> 00:42:41,761 You have exceeded expectations. Tonight, we're gonna celebrate. 561 00:42:42,395 --> 00:42:45,101 We will have a... a grand banquet. 562 00:42:46,337 --> 00:42:48,074 We will even have wine. 563 00:42:48,441 --> 00:42:50,178 Why's she looking at me when she says, "wine?" 564 00:42:50,445 --> 00:42:51,748 See you all for dinner. 565 00:42:56,157 --> 00:42:57,325 -Glory! -I'm not eating that. 566 00:42:57,860 --> 00:42:59,464 -How you doing? -Very good, thank you. 567 00:43:00,231 --> 00:43:03,772 Well, I'll take my pill. The real one, right fucking now. 568 00:43:06,778 --> 00:43:07,780 Yeah. Of course. 569 00:43:38,040 --> 00:43:39,410 It's me. 570 00:43:42,850 --> 00:43:43,952 Come in. 571 00:43:47,293 --> 00:43:50,099 -You okay? -Yes. I'm fine. 572 00:43:52,870 --> 00:43:54,374 I should've intervened. 573 00:43:55,776 --> 00:43:58,115 No. You did well. 574 00:43:58,782 --> 00:44:02,456 It’s the new protocol. The power, th... they all felt it. 575 00:44:02,924 --> 00:44:03,926 Good. 576 00:44:06,331 --> 00:44:07,333 That's good. 577 00:44:11,141 --> 00:44:12,143 But I'm sorry. 578 00:44:15,716 --> 00:44:17,153 Yao, you did nothing wrong. 579 00:44:18,789 --> 00:44:21,862 For your loss, Masha. 580 00:44:23,232 --> 00:44:24,434 I'm sorry for that. 581 00:45:28,496 --> 00:45:30,132 -Francis! -Oh, God. 582 00:45:30,934 --> 00:45:31,936 Yeah, well, what do you say? 583 00:45:32,069 --> 00:45:34,942 I'm surviving, which is more than I can say about the goat. 584 00:45:36,011 --> 00:45:40,152 I mean, I know it's hypocritical 'cause I eat meat. And do I own 585 00:45:40,387 --> 00:45:42,557 quite a few exceptional leather pieces? I do. 586 00:45:42,858 --> 00:45:46,999 So, guilty. But, I mean, to physically just do it is... 587 00:45:49,338 --> 00:45:51,575 Just when I thought you were actually gonna be sweet. 588 00:45:52,009 --> 00:45:55,149 Well, there's your mistake right there, thinkin' I'm a nice guy. 589 00:45:58,389 --> 00:46:01,128 You know, the big, word on the street 590 00:46:01,228 --> 00:46:03,533 is that you were a professional football player. 591 00:46:04,935 --> 00:46:09,211 -Is that true? -Yeah. Yeah, I was. 592 00:46:10,347 --> 00:46:11,449 I was, yeah. 593 00:46:12,184 --> 00:46:14,988 Is there any reason that you never mentioned that to me? 594 00:46:15,123 --> 00:46:16,892 Well, you never asked me. 595 00:46:19,231 --> 00:46:20,266 So... 596 00:46:20,367 --> 00:46:22,571 Well, I just assumed you were in witness protection 597 00:46:22,871 --> 00:46:25,910 or something like that, so you couldn't talk about it anyway. 598 00:46:30,921 --> 00:46:33,894 -You know, your issue... -You gotta narrow it down for me. 599 00:46:34,395 --> 00:46:37,067 The one about, you know, not being as great 600 00:46:37,134 --> 00:46:38,536 as you used to be at something. 601 00:46:38,603 --> 00:46:40,273 -That one I know. -I... I get it. 602 00:46:41,542 --> 00:46:43,079 I've been there, done that. 603 00:46:44,448 --> 00:46:45,918 It sucks. 604 00:46:56,272 --> 00:46:57,274 Oh, hey. 605 00:47:00,480 --> 00:47:02,384 Your mom seems to be having fun. 606 00:47:02,451 --> 00:47:05,991 -That's nice. -Nice? Maybe. Concerning? Definitely. 607 00:47:06,092 --> 00:47:07,627 She could always dance, your mom. 608 00:47:09,933 --> 00:47:13,306 -I wasn't sure I'd ever see it again. -Something's up with Mom, Dad. 609 00:47:16,980 --> 00:47:18,249 She's turning a corner. 610 00:47:22,023 --> 00:47:25,029 Everyone seems a little different today, wouldn’t you agree? 611 00:47:26,365 --> 00:47:30,173 -Anything you wanna tell me? -Only that we don’t fool around. 612 00:47:31,910 --> 00:47:35,116 Yeah, about that, seems that when we were out today, 613 00:47:35,183 --> 00:47:38,055 somebody went into my room and took some of my things. 614 00:47:39,224 --> 00:47:41,095 Really? Like what? An Apple Watch? 615 00:47:41,162 --> 00:47:44,969 Things that record images and so forth, things that you agreed to turn over? 616 00:47:45,069 --> 00:47:48,176 -I need them back. Now. -You know what you need, Lars? 617 00:47:48,242 --> 00:47:51,516 You need a little puppy training. Would you like that? 618 00:47:52,652 --> 00:47:55,591 Want me to roll up a newspaper and come to your room later? 619 00:47:56,560 --> 00:47:57,595 Tempting. 620 00:48:11,122 --> 00:48:12,191 Look at this. 621 00:48:12,992 --> 00:48:15,096 -The goat, too. -That is... 622 00:48:15,431 --> 00:48:20,508 -That is a lot of meat. Impressive. -There's no such thing as white meat. 623 00:48:23,012 --> 00:48:28,657 Welcome. Here is to a successful Earth Day. 624 00:48:29,125 --> 00:48:33,667 I hear there was many positive unearthings today. 625 00:48:34,102 --> 00:48:35,371 Many truths were told. 626 00:48:36,306 --> 00:48:41,082 Here’s to revealing ourselves and giving of ourselves. 627 00:48:41,183 --> 00:48:44,088 -Hear, hear! -I'm down. To the truth, nothing but. 628 00:48:45,191 --> 00:48:48,096 Would anyone else like to say a blessing before we eat? 629 00:48:48,497 --> 00:48:50,467 What about a eulogy for the goat? 630 00:48:51,503 --> 00:48:54,108 He gave his life so that we may rejoice tonight? 631 00:48:54,275 --> 00:48:55,277 It's the least we can do. 632 00:48:55,344 --> 00:48:57,648 I don't think the goat was a willing participant. 633 00:48:57,715 --> 00:49:00,120 He didn't give anything. He was slaughtered. 634 00:49:00,588 --> 00:49:01,590 I... I'll go. 635 00:49:03,060 --> 00:49:06,801 Yes, Napoleon, please. Speak to us. 636 00:49:08,103 --> 00:49:09,105 All right. 637 00:49:14,115 --> 00:49:16,553 Leviticus 4. Anybody, remember that one? 638 00:49:21,196 --> 00:49:26,106 When you, sin, mind you, unintentionally sin. 639 00:49:27,241 --> 00:49:28,745 Leviticus 4:23. 640 00:49:29,379 --> 00:49:31,216 Honey? What... 641 00:49:31,349 --> 00:49:35,491 Out there, celebrating the earth, first I heard... 642 00:49:37,395 --> 00:49:39,600 ringing, like bells... 643 00:49:41,269 --> 00:49:45,277 -in my head, in my ears. Bells. -Dad? 644 00:49:46,480 --> 00:49:47,716 I’m saying grace, Zoe. 645 00:49:48,751 --> 00:49:51,122 And then I heard it. 646 00:49:51,423 --> 00:49:55,364 Leviticus 4:23. Screaming... 647 00:49:57,301 --> 00:49:59,473 "If his sin is made known to him, 648 00:50:00,408 --> 00:50:02,412 he shall bring for his offering... 649 00:50:03,848 --> 00:50:07,489 a goat. A male without defect." 650 00:50:07,823 --> 00:50:11,597 "He shall lay his hand on the head of the male goat... 651 00:50:13,233 --> 00:50:14,235 and slay it." 652 00:50:15,672 --> 00:50:17,342 "And offer it before the Lord." 653 00:50:19,280 --> 00:50:20,282 Napoleon. 654 00:50:25,292 --> 00:50:27,128 You know, the thing about suicide. 655 00:50:29,233 --> 00:50:32,572 So often there are no signs. There's hardly an inclination, even. 656 00:50:33,508 --> 00:50:36,414 Especially with teenage suicide, it can be the consequence of a... 657 00:50:38,851 --> 00:50:39,920 split-second decision. 658 00:50:40,188 --> 00:50:43,361 An impulse as little as minutes before it happens. 659 00:50:47,202 --> 00:50:51,711 I mean, isn’t that... isn't that incredible? And here’s the other thing. 660 00:50:52,713 --> 00:50:57,889 Suicide survivors often report that their first thought, 661 00:50:58,858 --> 00:51:04,303 after they swallow the pills, or jump, or cut themselves, 662 00:51:05,238 --> 00:51:07,977 first thought, "My God, what have I done?" 663 00:51:09,480 --> 00:51:11,283 Sometimes if the attempt is thwarted, the... 664 00:51:11,384 --> 00:51:13,788 the suicidal thoughts, they never even return. 665 00:51:24,576 --> 00:51:27,649 Zach... was... 666 00:51:29,687 --> 00:51:30,823 impulsive. 667 00:51:31,657 --> 00:51:33,428 He was always so impulsive, wasn’t he, Zoe? 668 00:51:35,766 --> 00:51:39,741 Me and him, we were up the night before. We were watching The Royal Tenenbaums. 669 00:51:40,275 --> 00:51:41,377 We really loved that movie. 670 00:51:41,477 --> 00:51:44,216 And... we stayed up a little too late watching it. 671 00:51:44,416 --> 00:51:49,326 And, that’s... that's why I was... I was tired the next morning. 672 00:51:49,393 --> 00:51:54,738 And that's why I hit the snooze button on my iPhone... 673 00:51:55,973 --> 00:51:57,442 when the alarm went off. 674 00:51:58,979 --> 00:52:00,716 Instead I was woken up by your scream 675 00:52:00,783 --> 00:52:03,354 after you found him two minutes after he hung himself. 676 00:52:04,256 --> 00:52:07,997 So, if I... if I... 677 00:52:09,434 --> 00:52:11,237 if I had gotten up when I should have, 678 00:52:12,407 --> 00:52:15,613 when my alarm went off, if I’d gone into his room 679 00:52:15,913 --> 00:52:18,552 and woke him up like I always do... 680 00:52:20,288 --> 00:52:21,725 "Up and at ‘em, buddy." 681 00:52:29,374 --> 00:52:33,582 You wouldn’t be broken. And, you'd still sing in the shower. 682 00:52:33,849 --> 00:52:37,623 You’d be celebrating your... your 21st birthday with your brother. 683 00:52:45,473 --> 00:52:46,541 I killed that goat. 684 00:52:47,042 --> 00:52:50,649 If... I went to save him, I grabbed him away from Tony, 685 00:52:51,618 --> 00:52:53,889 and then, Leviticus. 686 00:52:56,294 --> 00:53:00,336 "He shall lay his hand on the head of a male goat... 687 00:53:04,744 --> 00:53:09,387 and slay it, and offer it before the Lord." 688 00:53:09,654 --> 00:53:14,564 It's unintentional... an unintentional sin. 689 00:53:16,568 --> 00:53:20,409 If I had just gotten up. If I had just gotten up. 690 00:53:26,856 --> 00:53:27,858 God. 691 00:53:43,555 --> 00:53:45,059 Have you been medicating us?