1 00:00:07,381 --> 00:00:10,220 Namaste. Welcome to Tranquillum House. 2 00:00:10,822 --> 00:00:11,824 I'm Masha. 3 00:00:14,763 --> 00:00:18,871 -Are you saying they don't want the book? -It's not normal to be screaming, 4 00:00:18,938 --> 00:00:21,409 "Dead to the fuckin' world" at the top of your lungs. 5 00:00:21,476 --> 00:00:23,915 We're going 'cause we have issues, Benjamin. With us. 6 00:00:25,717 --> 00:00:26,786 What are you in for? 7 00:00:26,853 --> 00:00:30,194 Weight loss, esteem building, mind and body transformation. 8 00:00:30,260 --> 00:00:33,633 I mean, I already feel better. I really do. Is this not fantastic? 9 00:00:33,767 --> 00:00:35,971 -What's that? -Blood draw. Standard practice. 10 00:00:36,239 --> 00:00:38,310 Did she give you any idea what to expect? 11 00:00:38,877 --> 00:00:39,879 Suffering. 12 00:02:29,697 --> 00:02:30,699 Hey, there. 13 00:02:31,701 --> 00:02:32,703 Hey! 14 00:02:34,506 --> 00:02:37,679 -Are you okay? -Yeah. Yeah. No, I'm fine. I just... 15 00:02:39,583 --> 00:02:40,919 Just a little panic attack. 16 00:02:41,921 --> 00:02:42,956 They come and go. 17 00:02:43,023 --> 00:02:46,596 And sometimes, I just feel like I'm gonna freak out so I didn’t want to... 18 00:02:47,031 --> 00:02:48,901 you know, disrupt the session or anything. 19 00:02:49,035 --> 00:02:52,508 Oh, well, that session is officially disrupted, anyway. 20 00:02:52,575 --> 00:02:54,779 Your dad's back there holding your mom back, 21 00:02:54,880 --> 00:02:58,020 I think she wants to claw Masha’s eyes out. 22 00:02:58,988 --> 00:03:01,994 Something about death, or something. I didn't quite catch it. 23 00:03:02,828 --> 00:03:03,930 Yeah, yeah. 24 00:03:05,401 --> 00:03:08,073 It's my brother Zach. He stopped living three years ago. 25 00:03:09,575 --> 00:03:11,446 Kind of why we’re here. 26 00:03:11,513 --> 00:03:13,650 It would've been his 21st birthday this week. 27 00:03:13,717 --> 00:03:16,923 Or our 21st. We were twins. But... 28 00:03:17,958 --> 00:03:22,601 he stopped living the day before our 18th birthday. So... 29 00:03:22,668 --> 00:03:23,737 Oh God. 30 00:03:24,572 --> 00:03:27,678 There you have it, the Marconi family baggage, 31 00:03:27,745 --> 00:03:29,849 which was also searched, by the way. 32 00:03:36,028 --> 00:03:39,568 -I'm sorry, honey. -It's okay. We really weren’t close. So... 33 00:03:43,409 --> 00:03:46,815 -Are you all right? -Yeah, I'm fine. Just needed some air. 34 00:03:48,152 --> 00:03:50,123 -Hello. -Hello. 35 00:03:51,692 --> 00:03:52,995 -Could I talk to my daughter please? -Yes. 36 00:03:53,062 --> 00:03:54,164 -Mom, Mom, it's fine. 37 00:03:54,431 --> 00:03:55,800 I’m fine. Francis, I'm fine. 38 00:03:55,867 --> 00:03:58,572 I was actually just gonna go for a run. We’re runners. 39 00:03:59,875 --> 00:04:00,977 I'll see you. 40 00:04:12,634 --> 00:04:14,404 She was telling me about your son. 41 00:04:17,877 --> 00:04:18,879 I'm so sorry. 42 00:04:20,850 --> 00:04:21,885 Thank you. 43 00:04:23,556 --> 00:04:26,527 Yeah, I didn't read anything about getting my fucking bags gone through. 44 00:04:26,594 --> 00:04:30,001 Anybody else read anything about that? 'Cause I didn't read anything about that. 45 00:04:30,068 --> 00:04:31,571 Maybe you could take a breath. 46 00:04:31,637 --> 00:04:34,978 The fuck? I am not taking a breath. 47 00:04:36,614 --> 00:04:41,524 It’s a fucking crime is what it is. Tossing our cells for contraband? 48 00:04:41,591 --> 00:04:42,826 Not giving our shit back, 49 00:04:42,893 --> 00:04:45,132 that's a violation of our human rights, lady. 50 00:04:45,198 --> 00:04:48,571 Now, I've got prescription medication in my wash bag 51 00:04:48,638 --> 00:04:51,644 and I’m gonna need it back, like right-fucking-now. You feel me? 52 00:04:51,711 --> 00:04:54,550 Yao. Would you go and retrieve Tony's medicine? 53 00:04:54,617 --> 00:04:57,923 -Yeah, very good, thank you. -Would you like your vodka as well? 54 00:04:57,990 --> 00:04:59,660 Or do you take it separately? 55 00:04:59,727 --> 00:05:01,731 -Fuck you. -Hey, now. Let’s just take it easy. 56 00:05:01,798 --> 00:05:03,468 -Fuck you too. -All right. 57 00:05:03,535 --> 00:05:06,507 Yeah, this is not what I signed up for. Just like, FYI. 58 00:05:06,574 --> 00:05:09,647 We’re okay. Part of the healing is finding the wound. 59 00:05:09,713 --> 00:05:13,120 -That's why you picked us, right? -What do you mean, she “picked” us? 60 00:05:13,187 --> 00:05:18,698 She accepts less than ten percent of her applicants. We're just an equation. 61 00:05:18,765 --> 00:05:20,534 We complement each other’s demons. 62 00:05:21,002 --> 00:05:24,709 -Fuckin' crock. -What is it you look for in your guests? 63 00:05:24,777 --> 00:05:26,546 -Damage. -Potential. 64 00:05:27,582 --> 00:05:28,584 Tomato, to-mah-toe. 65 00:05:28,650 --> 00:05:32,725 Is that how you're feeling about yourself, Francis? Is it? 66 00:05:33,962 --> 00:05:38,137 About things? About your life? Tomato, to-mah-toe, whatever. 67 00:05:38,770 --> 00:05:40,641 I know women like you. 68 00:05:40,708 --> 00:05:43,113 -You don't. -You're so driven. 69 00:05:43,747 --> 00:05:44,949 And you're so committed... 70 00:05:45,718 --> 00:05:48,055 to perfection that you're not even human anymore. 71 00:05:48,791 --> 00:05:51,162 And you whittle away everybody else 72 00:05:51,228 --> 00:05:53,801 so you don’t have to see your own bumps and bruises. 73 00:05:54,268 --> 00:05:57,508 Maybe some of these guests did come for struggle. 74 00:05:57,575 --> 00:05:59,913 But I get enough of that in my day-to-day life. 75 00:06:00,514 --> 00:06:02,284 I didn't come here to open a vein. 76 00:06:03,119 --> 00:06:05,490 I came here to have a little bit of fucking fun. 77 00:06:06,091 --> 00:06:08,563 I’d like to talk to you in private, if I may. 78 00:06:10,233 --> 00:06:12,738 Look, obviously, you’re a very smart person... 79 00:06:13,907 --> 00:06:15,009 building this whole... 80 00:06:15,778 --> 00:06:16,780 thing. 81 00:06:17,815 --> 00:06:19,751 But it just doesn't make any sense. 82 00:06:20,220 --> 00:06:21,923 There's not a qualified professional in the world 83 00:06:21,990 --> 00:06:23,860 who would confiscate somebody's medication. 84 00:06:23,927 --> 00:06:25,230 You’re a drug addict, Tony. 85 00:06:26,065 --> 00:06:30,940 There's many places you could go to detox or rehab. But you came here. 86 00:06:31,609 --> 00:06:33,813 Maybe to fix what caused you to become a drug addict. 87 00:06:33,946 --> 00:06:35,917 I know. I know what caused it, okay? 88 00:06:36,852 --> 00:06:40,125 -Three spinal surgeries, a blown knee. -That's just a story. 89 00:06:40,192 --> 00:06:44,033 One that's keeping you numb and checked out of your entire life. 90 00:06:44,100 --> 00:06:46,639 Okay. Yeah, day one and you know all this, right? 91 00:06:47,741 --> 00:06:49,143 You’re divorced, yes? 92 00:06:50,613 --> 00:06:51,615 Yeah. 93 00:06:52,249 --> 00:06:54,621 You have... two children? 94 00:06:58,028 --> 00:06:59,798 How’s your relationship with them? 95 00:07:03,672 --> 00:07:05,743 This is it, right? This is what you do? 96 00:07:07,746 --> 00:07:11,087 You get people to talk about their shit, and then you use it against them. 97 00:07:11,154 --> 00:07:13,291 Huh? You gonna plug me into an ATM machine now? 98 00:07:14,594 --> 00:07:16,097 Are you happy with your life? 99 00:07:17,633 --> 00:07:19,604 Am I happy with my life? 100 00:07:22,243 --> 00:07:24,547 Who the fuck is happy with their life? 101 00:07:29,155 --> 00:07:31,594 Just give me my medicine, please. 102 00:07:38,240 --> 00:07:40,646 Have it. Right now! 103 00:07:41,714 --> 00:07:43,952 And another one, in the morning. Everyday. 104 00:07:44,687 --> 00:07:46,123 I don’t want you sick, Tony. 105 00:07:49,229 --> 00:07:50,732 I just want you... 106 00:07:51,634 --> 00:07:56,945 safe, healed, whole. And I think that's what you want. 107 00:08:00,852 --> 00:08:04,359 I never wanted to take your pills, Tony. Just your secret. 108 00:08:37,190 --> 00:08:38,326 -Shit! -I'm sorry. I'm sorry. 109 00:08:38,393 --> 00:08:39,629 -Jesus! -I'm sorry. 110 00:08:40,196 --> 00:08:42,669 -You scared me to death. -I'm so sorry. 111 00:08:42,735 --> 00:08:44,906 You shouldn’t sneak up on people in the dark like that. 112 00:08:44,973 --> 00:08:51,352 I wasn’t sneaking. I just read in the pamphlet to be mindful 113 00:08:51,419 --> 00:08:54,658 of others that they might be meditating and try not to disturb. 114 00:08:54,725 --> 00:08:56,028 So that's what that... 115 00:08:57,130 --> 00:08:59,068 -Yeah. -Well. I'm not meditating, 116 00:08:59,134 --> 00:09:01,772 just despondently staring into the gaping void. 117 00:09:02,908 --> 00:09:06,282 Hey, the welcoming thing. 118 00:09:06,349 --> 00:09:07,651 -That was... -It was bat shit. 119 00:09:07,718 --> 00:09:08,720 -Yeah. -Yeah. 120 00:09:08,786 --> 00:09:11,959 Okay, cool. 'Cause I thought I was just like losing my mind, okay. 121 00:09:12,026 --> 00:09:13,028 Hey. 122 00:09:13,796 --> 00:09:16,402 You probably don’t want to hear this. 123 00:09:17,036 --> 00:09:18,806 You know, people come to retreats to get away 124 00:09:18,873 --> 00:09:20,910 from it all and I have to say... 125 00:09:21,912 --> 00:09:23,281 I am such a huge fan. 126 00:09:24,350 --> 00:09:26,822 I've read Nathaniel’s Kiss, like, three times. 127 00:09:26,889 --> 00:09:30,429 I think it’s the most romantic book in the world. 128 00:09:33,068 --> 00:09:34,070 Thank you for that. 129 00:09:34,972 --> 00:09:37,811 -So, what's your crisis? -What's my what? 130 00:09:37,878 --> 00:09:39,848 The British dude, he said that... 131 00:09:40,784 --> 00:09:43,923 Masha, like, picked us all for a particular crisis. 132 00:09:43,990 --> 00:09:46,461 With all your success, I was wondering, I... 133 00:09:48,231 --> 00:09:51,171 Now I'm realizing that, I am kinda crossing a line. 134 00:09:51,905 --> 00:09:54,177 So, I'm just gonna take it back. 135 00:09:54,243 --> 00:09:57,249 It's okay, I'm just here for a little R&R. 136 00:09:57,950 --> 00:10:00,088 Maybe my crisis is I don't have a crisis. 137 00:10:05,966 --> 00:10:08,772 -So, are you writing anything new-- -What's your crisis? 138 00:10:09,206 --> 00:10:12,011 Marriage counseling. Yeah. Well, Ben and I just... 139 00:10:13,347 --> 00:10:15,118 a little bit of a bumpy patch. 140 00:10:15,519 --> 00:10:17,455 -I know that road. -Oh, you’re married? 141 00:10:18,759 --> 00:10:20,929 Not currently. Have been. Twice. 142 00:10:21,998 --> 00:10:24,269 Optimist, masochist. Fine line. 143 00:10:28,244 --> 00:10:32,519 “He saw her.” That’s my favorite part of... 144 00:10:33,788 --> 00:10:35,124 Nathaniel’s Kiss. You wrote... 145 00:10:36,026 --> 00:10:37,062 “He saw her." 146 00:10:38,230 --> 00:10:40,134 "And until then, she never knew." 147 00:10:41,203 --> 00:10:42,872 "She’d never been seen before." 148 00:10:44,076 --> 00:10:45,411 "It was like coming home.” 149 00:10:46,914 --> 00:10:49,953 -It's a little clunky. -No. No, it's not. 150 00:10:50,388 --> 00:10:54,161 It’s the most wonderful feeling in the world. To be seen. 151 00:10:56,366 --> 00:10:58,471 You want a little grown-ass lady advice? 152 00:10:58,537 --> 00:11:00,475 -You can take it or leave it? -I'll take it. 153 00:11:02,111 --> 00:11:06,385 I wouldn't look to novels, or music, or movies, 154 00:11:06,453 --> 00:11:08,223 to tell you the truth about love. 155 00:11:09,125 --> 00:11:10,127 They lie. 156 00:11:10,962 --> 00:11:13,968 And we’re just a pack of dirty liars. 157 00:11:15,872 --> 00:11:17,976 Right? I mean, yeah. 158 00:11:19,211 --> 00:11:20,347 Hustlers of the heart. 159 00:11:21,149 --> 00:11:24,088 -Did you just make that up? -Yeah, I guess I did. 160 00:11:24,488 --> 00:11:25,557 God! You're good. 161 00:11:28,898 --> 00:11:31,335 I'm gonna... get back to... 162 00:11:32,972 --> 00:11:34,141 thanks. 163 00:11:34,208 --> 00:11:35,544 I'll see you tomorrow, I guess? 164 00:11:35,610 --> 00:11:36,612 -Maybe it won't be as-- -Weird? 165 00:11:36,879 --> 00:11:38,616 -Yeah. -Yeah. Let's hope. 166 00:11:39,885 --> 00:11:41,289 -Good night. -Good night. 167 00:11:58,188 --> 00:12:00,961 Hi, baby. Let's have a quiet day today. 168 00:12:39,236 --> 00:12:42,142 What shower pressure. Fantastic. 169 00:12:42,977 --> 00:12:44,647 I had a spectacular sleep. 170 00:12:47,319 --> 00:12:50,058 It’s going to be a fantastic day, I can feel it. 171 00:12:51,327 --> 00:12:53,331 You should shower if you’re going to do so before breakfast, 172 00:12:53,397 --> 00:12:55,301 they want us promptly there at 7:00. 173 00:12:57,239 --> 00:13:00,478 I’m absolutely famished, by the way. 174 00:13:00,545 --> 00:13:05,154 Which I take as a good sign. My metabolism is engaged and firing. 175 00:13:05,221 --> 00:13:09,129 I think I might skip breakfast and go for a run, instead. 176 00:13:09,196 --> 00:13:11,433 I think brekkie is mandatory. 177 00:13:13,104 --> 00:13:18,414 It’s a very precise regimen here. I suggest we surrender to it, pumpkin. 178 00:13:19,283 --> 00:13:22,589 There’s only so much surrendering I can do, Leon. 179 00:13:23,558 --> 00:13:26,230 You go. Don’t be late for breakfast. 180 00:13:27,365 --> 00:13:29,503 You certainly wouldn't want to break a rule. 181 00:13:30,170 --> 00:13:31,540 What’s that supposed to mean? 182 00:13:32,943 --> 00:13:35,715 Look, it means rules are meant to be followed. 183 00:13:35,982 --> 00:13:40,458 How else to ensure the survival of a civilized society? 184 00:13:41,359 --> 00:13:43,531 You have to seek out the wonderful, Heather, 185 00:13:43,598 --> 00:13:47,204 because it doesn’t just come knocking. Maybe life will surprise you. 186 00:13:50,444 --> 00:13:53,650 You know, what you said to me? Right after. Do you remember? 187 00:13:54,418 --> 00:13:57,324 You said, “Things happen for a reason.” 188 00:14:01,666 --> 00:14:04,038 What reason? 189 00:14:06,042 --> 00:14:09,982 As much as I love you, and I do, I do... 190 00:14:10,951 --> 00:14:13,290 -Finish it. -I'm angry. 191 00:14:13,356 --> 00:14:14,492 -At me? -Yeah. 192 00:14:15,092 --> 00:14:17,264 For being so constantly upbeat. 193 00:14:18,266 --> 00:14:22,240 For trying to make sense of the most incomprehensible. 194 00:14:23,175 --> 00:14:26,048 But mostly, for making me feel so alone. 195 00:14:26,749 --> 00:14:29,020 You make me feel so fucking alone. 196 00:14:30,691 --> 00:14:32,293 You ask, "Why are we here?" 197 00:14:33,329 --> 00:14:35,399 I’m here because I miss liking you. 198 00:14:50,096 --> 00:14:52,734 I know, you didn’t deserve that. 199 00:14:55,740 --> 00:14:57,644 But I got it just the same. 200 00:15:48,811 --> 00:15:49,813 Yes! 201 00:16:01,237 --> 00:16:02,706 Hi, there, handsome. 202 00:16:03,173 --> 00:16:07,516 Hey, honey. I am unfortunately gonna have to postpone my trip. 203 00:16:07,582 --> 00:16:08,584 I'm so sorry. 204 00:16:09,420 --> 00:16:13,293 -Oh no. What happened? -It's Ari. He was in a car accident. 205 00:16:13,360 --> 00:16:17,368 -Oh my God. Is he okay? -They put him into an induced coma, 206 00:16:17,501 --> 00:16:19,505 to help with his healing. I'm trying to get him 207 00:16:19,572 --> 00:16:20,675 transferred to a better hospital... 208 00:16:20,742 --> 00:16:22,713 Here, you go detective, you can keep it. 209 00:16:25,684 --> 00:16:27,321 I told him I loved him. 210 00:16:29,625 --> 00:16:35,270 He's an imaginary person and I told him I loved him. 211 00:16:35,337 --> 00:16:38,810 This happens to a lot of women of your age and circumstance. 212 00:16:46,593 --> 00:16:49,232 -Good morning. -This should be on Instagram. 213 00:16:51,168 --> 00:16:55,209 This is so adorable. So healthy. 214 00:16:55,277 --> 00:16:57,748 It's like a dream. The perfect breakfast. 215 00:16:57,815 --> 00:17:02,323 Yes, if you can't have substance, style will do, I suppose. 216 00:17:02,390 --> 00:17:05,363 -How we doing, everybody? -I lost weight! 217 00:17:05,898 --> 00:17:07,735 You know, I was meaning to say. 218 00:17:08,570 --> 00:17:10,573 Why you trying to lose weight? You’re not fat. 219 00:17:11,375 --> 00:17:13,612 Thank you. But I'd still like to be thinner. 220 00:17:13,680 --> 00:17:15,550 But why? I don’t get it. 221 00:17:16,652 --> 00:17:18,656 Why is everybody so obsessed with that kind of thing? 222 00:17:19,424 --> 00:17:22,797 I don't think we are, Ben. And if you're looking for commonality, 223 00:17:22,898 --> 00:17:24,568 I think we're all obsessed with being a little 224 00:17:24,634 --> 00:17:27,674 better than we were yesterday. A little less lousy, 225 00:17:27,740 --> 00:17:29,311 a little less in the toilet. 226 00:17:29,811 --> 00:17:32,817 I could be wrong, but isn't that the essence of life? 227 00:17:32,884 --> 00:17:36,759 Identifying your hump and then hurling yourself over it. 228 00:17:37,560 --> 00:17:39,631 Told you, she's like a gifted writer. 229 00:17:39,698 --> 00:17:41,401 Good morning, good morning, everybody. 230 00:17:41,468 --> 00:17:43,539 What fell off the chuckwagon? That's not me. 231 00:17:44,641 --> 00:17:46,845 Hey, guys, look, I know I came in a little rough 232 00:17:46,912 --> 00:17:49,351 to the dock yesterday and I apologize. 233 00:17:49,417 --> 00:17:51,555 Okay? And if I offended any of you and... 234 00:17:52,457 --> 00:17:55,496 I probably offended most of you, sorry. New day, huh? 235 00:17:56,330 --> 00:17:57,834 Seems like someone got his meds back. 236 00:17:59,203 --> 00:18:00,205 You know what, Lars? 237 00:18:01,374 --> 00:18:02,376 I did. 238 00:18:03,679 --> 00:18:04,714 Thanks for caring. 239 00:18:07,754 --> 00:18:09,356 Who are you, really? 240 00:18:10,325 --> 00:18:11,929 You mean, like, deep down? 241 00:18:12,196 --> 00:18:15,335 He does look familiar, right? Like, I've seen your face. 242 00:18:15,469 --> 00:18:16,939 Probably on Dateline or something. 243 00:18:17,573 --> 00:18:21,314 People! All right! Today’s schedule. 244 00:18:21,814 --> 00:18:23,918 We will all begin with a little dirt-digging. 245 00:18:24,286 --> 00:18:25,856 -In the afternoon-- -What do you mean, dirt-digging? 246 00:18:25,922 --> 00:18:28,394 Soil bacteria has special qualities. 247 00:18:28,461 --> 00:18:30,665 It can fight anxiety, depression, maybe even cancer. 248 00:18:30,932 --> 00:18:34,974 I'm not that big on dirt or bacteria. 249 00:18:35,242 --> 00:18:37,245 It's kind of a Protestant thing. I don't wanna talk about it. 250 00:18:37,312 --> 00:18:38,848 You got an excuse for everything. 251 00:18:39,249 --> 00:18:41,487 -I said, you got an excuse-- -No! Still can't hear, your mouths is... 252 00:18:41,554 --> 00:18:42,856 -I get it. -Okay. Team... 253 00:18:43,491 --> 00:18:45,629 Yeah, this is definitely not a team. 254 00:18:45,695 --> 00:18:48,233 I mean, this is like the opposite of a team. 255 00:19:19,762 --> 00:19:20,931 Something you need? 256 00:19:22,702 --> 00:19:24,906 Tell me, you pool sit when you’re stressed. 257 00:19:24,973 --> 00:19:28,714 And you've been down here every day of late. What's wrong? 258 00:19:31,353 --> 00:19:33,657 I received some disturbing messages. 259 00:19:37,264 --> 00:19:39,401 -Threats. -Threats from who? 260 00:19:40,003 --> 00:19:41,005 Anonymous. 261 00:19:42,474 --> 00:19:43,577 Should we report it? 262 00:19:44,679 --> 00:19:47,417 To who? The police? What are they gonna do? 263 00:19:49,588 --> 00:19:50,791 It could be from anyone. 264 00:19:52,060 --> 00:19:55,366 I wasn't a very nice person in my previous life. 265 00:19:56,368 --> 00:19:58,606 You would’ve shot me too if you’d known me then. 266 00:19:58,739 --> 00:20:01,712 No. No, I wouldn’t have. 267 00:20:02,714 --> 00:20:04,818 No. You wouldn’t have. 268 00:20:08,926 --> 00:20:10,597 You and Delilah okay? 269 00:20:13,736 --> 00:20:17,677 -She still gets a little jealous. -She’ll have to get over that, won’t she? 270 00:20:20,350 --> 00:20:21,418 It’s difficult. 271 00:20:21,919 --> 00:20:24,691 That’s what life is more than anything, difficult. 272 00:20:29,033 --> 00:20:36,014 We are and we always will be profoundly and inextricably bound. 273 00:20:38,953 --> 00:20:40,022 Don't you agree? 274 00:20:46,100 --> 00:20:48,705 Love her and she will feel loved. 275 00:20:59,560 --> 00:21:00,862 Fuck! That's it, I’m done. 276 00:21:02,132 --> 00:21:04,837 Digging graves is not doing my back any favors. 277 00:21:04,904 --> 00:21:07,041 What are you talking about? They dug half of it for us 278 00:21:07,141 --> 00:21:08,878 and you haven't even stood up yet. 279 00:21:08,945 --> 00:21:13,153 I am still helping and exerting myself. Not that I've asked for your opinion. 280 00:21:14,089 --> 00:21:16,427 It feels good, doesn’t it? 281 00:21:16,928 --> 00:21:20,535 To exhaust the body with hard, hard work. 282 00:21:21,169 --> 00:21:23,541 Pre-industrial man, he didn’t get depressed 283 00:21:23,608 --> 00:21:26,079 because he was too busy working. 284 00:21:26,413 --> 00:21:30,421 Would you please lie down in your ditches? 285 00:21:44,516 --> 00:21:49,492 We spend our lives avoiding the thought of the one true guarantee. 286 00:21:50,094 --> 00:21:53,099 That our time here is limited. 287 00:21:54,101 --> 00:21:56,038 We are terrified of death, 288 00:21:56,105 --> 00:21:59,579 not because it is unknown, but because it forces us 289 00:21:59,746 --> 00:22:01,917 to confront our deepest regrets. 290 00:22:02,985 --> 00:22:03,987 Be it... 291 00:22:05,958 --> 00:22:08,096 lies we have told... 292 00:22:09,866 --> 00:22:11,469 people we have hurt... 293 00:22:13,506 --> 00:22:15,176 professional failures... 294 00:22:16,479 --> 00:22:17,547 or simply... 295 00:22:19,151 --> 00:22:21,055 an unfulfilled life. 296 00:22:22,457 --> 00:22:25,130 So, I want you all now to close your eyes. 297 00:22:26,132 --> 00:22:28,102 Think of your life, past. 298 00:22:30,840 --> 00:22:35,583 Imagine that your body, has returned to the Mother Earth, 299 00:22:35,784 --> 00:22:40,060 and that your soul has been set free. And your loved ones... 300 00:22:41,862 --> 00:22:44,000 Your loved ones are gathered around you. 301 00:22:44,701 --> 00:22:46,572 Marconis, we okay with this? 302 00:22:49,043 --> 00:22:50,045 Yeah. You good, Mom? 303 00:22:51,181 --> 00:22:52,216 I'm fine. 304 00:22:54,220 --> 00:22:57,694 Now, think of all the things that matter to you. 305 00:22:57,761 --> 00:22:59,765 The events that pre-occupy you. 306 00:23:00,132 --> 00:23:03,539 Everything, that you're obsessed. That you're worried about, 307 00:23:03,606 --> 00:23:09,618 that is stopping you from having a full and extraordinary, exceptional life. 308 00:23:11,655 --> 00:23:14,093 Think of the relationships that matter to you. 309 00:23:15,062 --> 00:23:18,201 The people who will mourn you. 310 00:23:21,040 --> 00:23:23,578 What do you want them to say about your life? 311 00:23:24,781 --> 00:23:27,520 Now... that it is over? 312 00:23:28,922 --> 00:23:31,761 You know, this exercise is ridiculous. 313 00:23:32,129 --> 00:23:34,233 Just lie down, Francis. Contemplate. 314 00:23:34,300 --> 00:23:36,671 What is it gonna take? What do I have to say 315 00:23:36,738 --> 00:23:37,973 to get out of the dirt hole? 316 00:23:38,040 --> 00:23:40,913 You wanna hear that if I die today, nobody would care? Fine. 317 00:23:40,979 --> 00:23:43,685 Because if I did die today, nobody would care. 318 00:23:43,752 --> 00:23:47,125 Because I’m humiliated and I am alone and it’s only gonna get worse. 319 00:23:47,793 --> 00:23:50,097 And you'll love this. I pre-paid my own funeral. 320 00:23:50,164 --> 00:23:52,068 Because nobody else is gonna do it. 321 00:23:52,135 --> 00:23:55,642 Okay? Is that enough? Does that count? Can we stop now? 322 00:23:55,709 --> 00:23:57,780 Francis, this isn't just about you. 323 00:24:01,220 --> 00:24:02,690 You now have the chance... 324 00:24:04,192 --> 00:24:05,695 and you have the choice... 325 00:24:06,865 --> 00:24:09,169 to come back and reinvent yourself. 326 00:24:10,138 --> 00:24:13,711 When you hear the sound of the chimes, I invite you... 327 00:24:14,981 --> 00:24:16,917 to rebirth yourself... 328 00:24:17,719 --> 00:24:21,093 out of the Earth and into your new life. 329 00:24:42,301 --> 00:24:45,073 -That was interesting. -Could you just be open, please? 330 00:24:46,810 --> 00:24:47,812 Okay. 331 00:24:48,714 --> 00:24:51,753 All right! Next up is the hike this afternoon. 332 00:24:51,920 --> 00:24:53,858 Yeah, I don't think I'm up for a hike. 333 00:24:54,625 --> 00:24:56,930 Of course. It’s not mandatory, though highly recommended. 334 00:24:56,997 --> 00:24:58,767 We can schedule you for some acupuncture, 335 00:24:58,834 --> 00:25:00,905 -Maybe, it'll help with your back. -That would be lovely. 336 00:25:00,972 --> 00:25:03,009 Jessica, your session with Masha is now. 337 00:25:03,076 --> 00:25:06,382 -Is that mandatory? -Yes. Yes, it is. 338 00:25:15,200 --> 00:25:17,137 This is absolutely incredible. 339 00:25:17,204 --> 00:25:21,144 You know, I toured the acupuncture houses in Beijing. 340 00:25:21,212 --> 00:25:23,650 I was doing research for one of my books. 341 00:25:23,716 --> 00:25:26,087 -But have you been? -Oh, Lulu’s been everywhere. 342 00:25:26,722 --> 00:25:29,895 -I trained in Oregon. -La-di-da-di! 343 00:25:35,139 --> 00:25:36,374 The Baihui point. 344 00:25:37,109 --> 00:25:38,245 It's where all energies converge. 345 00:25:38,312 --> 00:25:39,882 -Is that right? -That’s right. 346 00:25:40,750 --> 00:25:42,053 Try to keep still, Francis. 347 00:25:44,959 --> 00:25:47,263 -I felt that. -Yeah, I'm just taking some blood. 348 00:25:47,898 --> 00:25:50,269 -Why? -For your blood sugar. 349 00:25:50,336 --> 00:25:52,139 Okay. Well, next time maybe 350 00:25:52,206 --> 00:25:54,277 give me a heads-up before you shiv my lipids. 351 00:25:54,377 --> 00:25:55,446 -Okay. -Okay, good one. 352 00:25:56,147 --> 00:25:58,151 You're funny. I like you. 353 00:25:58,953 --> 00:26:00,756 Well... that makes one of us. 354 00:26:02,426 --> 00:26:05,266 -Can I ask you two a question? -Of course. 355 00:26:05,933 --> 00:26:08,905 I mean, is Masha crazy or is she the real deal? 356 00:26:08,972 --> 00:26:10,175 Masha? 357 00:26:13,282 --> 00:26:16,020 Masha is the realest of them all, 100%. 358 00:26:20,028 --> 00:26:21,297 Why are you here? 359 00:26:21,765 --> 00:26:24,202 Oh, I thought we had our one-on-one, but I can come-- 360 00:26:24,269 --> 00:26:26,841 No. Why are you at Tranquillum? 361 00:26:29,079 --> 00:26:30,716 What are you hoping to gain? 362 00:26:34,456 --> 00:26:37,028 Transformation, for one thing. 363 00:26:38,097 --> 00:26:41,704 I'm really interested in fixing what's broken. 364 00:26:42,405 --> 00:26:44,309 -You know? -And what would that be? 365 00:26:51,156 --> 00:26:52,292 You are very nervous. 366 00:26:53,728 --> 00:26:57,001 -Yeah, I am. -There is no reason to be. 367 00:27:00,174 --> 00:27:01,176 Tell me. 368 00:27:03,347 --> 00:27:06,820 What is particularly making you anxious right now? 369 00:27:09,025 --> 00:27:10,027 You. 370 00:27:13,033 --> 00:27:14,903 You're, like, super smart... 371 00:27:15,872 --> 00:27:16,874 and intuitive. 372 00:27:18,043 --> 00:27:21,349 And very fucking hot, by the way. I'm sorry, but you are, and I'm not. 373 00:27:23,019 --> 00:27:24,388 I'm okay. I'm fine. 374 00:27:27,428 --> 00:27:31,069 And I'm okay with people looking at me on the outside, you know, I've basically 375 00:27:31,135 --> 00:27:34,943 cultivated that, but being seen on the inside, which... 376 00:27:35,744 --> 00:27:38,783 you strike me as very... capable of, 377 00:27:38,850 --> 00:27:40,921 -it just makes me-- -You came here afraid. 378 00:27:42,758 --> 00:27:45,997 You were afraid before you knew of my existence. 379 00:27:50,807 --> 00:27:51,909 When I was... 380 00:27:52,845 --> 00:27:54,080 lying in that ditch, 381 00:27:54,482 --> 00:27:55,484 you know... 382 00:27:56,853 --> 00:27:58,222 imagining my own death, 383 00:27:59,224 --> 00:28:00,527 I thought about comments. 384 00:28:03,500 --> 00:28:04,902 Not my family. 385 00:28:06,539 --> 00:28:07,741 Comments. 386 00:28:08,977 --> 00:28:11,448 Saying how tragic it was that someone so... 387 00:28:13,018 --> 00:28:14,087 young and... 388 00:28:16,458 --> 00:28:19,164 pretty... died like that. 389 00:28:20,366 --> 00:28:22,971 And for a second, it made me feel better. 390 00:28:23,840 --> 00:28:24,875 For a second. 391 00:28:25,209 --> 00:28:29,919 Then I realized, my Instagram account would be deleted a week later and... 392 00:28:30,987 --> 00:28:34,360 everyone would move on, forget about me. 393 00:28:34,494 --> 00:28:39,437 You want your life to be important, to mean something. 394 00:28:40,038 --> 00:28:41,040 Yeah. 395 00:28:42,810 --> 00:28:44,981 But that's not what you really came here for. 396 00:28:46,183 --> 00:28:47,185 It's not? 397 00:28:50,926 --> 00:28:52,597 Why doesn't he love you anymore? 398 00:28:57,272 --> 00:28:58,475 I don't know. 399 00:29:00,980 --> 00:29:02,048 It's unfair. 400 00:29:35,147 --> 00:29:36,149 Attractive. 401 00:29:38,186 --> 00:29:41,427 If you don't mind, I'm social distancing. 402 00:29:41,560 --> 00:29:42,996 Actually, I do mind. 403 00:29:43,063 --> 00:29:46,136 Well then, fine. I have my cramps. 404 00:29:46,537 --> 00:29:48,875 You can't have both cramps and hot flashes... 405 00:29:48,941 --> 00:29:49,977 I don't think. 406 00:29:50,444 --> 00:29:52,616 For you, I can. So, bye-bye. 407 00:29:54,452 --> 00:29:56,523 -You know what, lady? -Here we go. 408 00:29:56,590 --> 00:29:59,128 One of the reasons I came to this funny farm, 409 00:29:59,897 --> 00:30:02,168 my entire adult life people have been telling me to fuck off. 410 00:30:03,036 --> 00:30:04,472 -Well... -And in the very short time 411 00:30:04,539 --> 00:30:07,979 that we've known each other, you've practically medaled at it. 412 00:30:08,580 --> 00:30:10,584 You know what, I'm not fucking off. 413 00:30:10,651 --> 00:30:14,158 All right? This place practically screams, "Welcome mat." 414 00:30:14,659 --> 00:30:16,396 I'm gonna enjoy the nature. 415 00:30:17,298 --> 00:30:21,973 I'm gonna enjoy the food. I'm gonna enjoy the pool. I'm even gonna enjoy you 416 00:30:22,040 --> 00:30:23,710 bobbing up and down like a cork in the pool. 417 00:30:23,977 --> 00:30:26,114 You know why? Because every day is a gift. 418 00:30:27,183 --> 00:30:29,989 This whole place is my fucking gift, lady. 419 00:30:31,058 --> 00:30:33,530 Did I hear something? I could have-- 420 00:30:34,231 --> 00:30:36,402 I just thought-- Did anyone say something? 421 00:30:36,536 --> 00:30:43,115 I don't see anybody. No. Nobody. Nobody. Nobody. 422 00:30:49,561 --> 00:30:50,764 Son of a... 423 00:30:55,206 --> 00:30:56,675 You bastard! 424 00:30:57,544 --> 00:30:59,114 I'm sorry, what did you say? 425 00:31:01,385 --> 00:31:04,157 Okay, let's take this to a higher plane, shall we? 426 00:31:04,224 --> 00:31:05,626 You're gonna start with your hands out 427 00:31:05,693 --> 00:31:08,265 in front or behind you. Eyes on the ground. 428 00:31:08,332 --> 00:31:10,503 Six to eight feet in front of you. 429 00:31:10,570 --> 00:31:13,742 We're gonna start with your right foot, move it forward one step. 430 00:31:14,444 --> 00:31:20,656 -Think right step, left step... -Right. Left. Right. 431 00:31:21,658 --> 00:31:22,760 So how did it go? 432 00:31:23,027 --> 00:31:25,533 -Yeah... -Wait, was she amazing? 433 00:31:26,033 --> 00:31:27,202 I bet she was. 434 00:31:27,336 --> 00:31:29,039 I think both of y'all are a little star-struck. 435 00:31:29,106 --> 00:31:33,114 Oh no. I'm actually, not a star-struck person. 436 00:31:33,181 --> 00:31:36,187 I used to work on Broadway, so, I've met stars, real stars. 437 00:31:36,688 --> 00:31:40,630 I met Alan Cumming. So, I'm not star-struck. 438 00:31:40,696 --> 00:31:43,434 Wow, Broadway. What'd you do on Broadway? 439 00:31:43,501 --> 00:31:44,536 Oh, I did... 440 00:31:45,338 --> 00:31:49,179 wardrobe, hair and make-up, props. I kinda actually did it all. 441 00:31:50,048 --> 00:31:53,421 Yeah, till I had my girls and my husband, he didn't want me to work anymore. 442 00:31:53,488 --> 00:31:54,790 He made enough money... 443 00:31:55,592 --> 00:31:57,562 so, you know, he just, he didn't like the idea 444 00:31:57,629 --> 00:31:59,199 of a nanny raising our kids. 445 00:32:00,068 --> 00:32:02,639 That's nice. At least you had that time with your kids. 446 00:32:03,608 --> 00:32:04,643 What did you say? 447 00:32:07,215 --> 00:32:09,219 Well, they're still my kids. 448 00:32:09,286 --> 00:32:13,328 Just because they're off with someone else, they're still my kids. 449 00:32:14,697 --> 00:32:19,372 -What did I say? -You said, "had," past tense. 450 00:32:19,440 --> 00:32:20,442 But... 451 00:32:21,109 --> 00:32:25,084 Seems like she had a past and now it's tense. 452 00:32:25,819 --> 00:32:28,156 Is that really something to be proud of? 453 00:32:28,825 --> 00:32:30,260 These bloody breeders. 454 00:32:31,496 --> 00:32:33,533 Biggest threat to the planet is overpopulation 455 00:32:33,634 --> 00:32:35,839 and they keep pumping them out without an apology. 456 00:32:36,673 --> 00:32:38,543 It's incredible you're still single. 457 00:32:39,779 --> 00:32:42,184 -Crazy. -Whatever. 458 00:33:33,552 --> 00:33:37,460 Hey, hey. No, no. Come here. Hey! 459 00:33:41,835 --> 00:33:43,572 You all right? Hey? 460 00:33:43,873 --> 00:33:46,445 -You okay? -I don't know, I-- 461 00:33:46,512 --> 00:33:49,685 Just take deep breaths. Deep breaths. In and... 462 00:33:52,156 --> 00:33:54,528 Oh God! What happened? 463 00:33:55,463 --> 00:33:58,536 I don't know. You were sleeping, you were snoring 464 00:33:58,602 --> 00:34:01,909 and then all of a sudden you were choking. It was so weird. 465 00:34:02,944 --> 00:34:06,451 I don't understand how you just start choking. 466 00:34:07,419 --> 00:34:08,823 I don't know. Do you have a medical condition? 467 00:34:08,889 --> 00:34:12,162 No! Not that I know of, I don't... 468 00:34:13,198 --> 00:34:15,903 -Oh, that was scary. -Oh, what is that? 469 00:34:16,705 --> 00:34:18,174 What? 470 00:34:18,274 --> 00:34:20,545 -Is that a grape? -No. No, I don't... 471 00:34:20,612 --> 00:34:21,614 Is that... 472 00:34:21,714 --> 00:34:23,551 -Don't! What are you doing? -I don't think so. 473 00:34:23,651 --> 00:34:25,589 Keep-- Damn it. 474 00:34:27,559 --> 00:34:28,728 It is a grape. 475 00:34:31,834 --> 00:34:35,275 -How did it get in-- -I don't know. Yeah. 476 00:34:40,619 --> 00:34:43,892 Did you put a grape into my mouth? 477 00:34:43,958 --> 00:34:45,295 -No. What are you-- -Oh my God! 478 00:34:45,362 --> 00:34:48,267 -I-- No... -Did you throw a grape into mouth? 479 00:34:48,334 --> 00:34:49,937 I know, I tossed the grape in your mouth 480 00:34:50,204 --> 00:34:52,543 but it was an accident, okay? You were snoring and I just... 481 00:34:52,643 --> 00:34:54,980 You know, I just wanted to wake you up. And... 482 00:34:55,715 --> 00:34:57,686 -I'm sorry. -You could've killed me. 483 00:34:57,786 --> 00:35:01,627 I could take that shot all day long and the odds of it going in are like... 484 00:35:02,796 --> 00:35:04,900 -Do you want a grape? -What? 485 00:35:08,407 --> 00:35:10,544 I do not want a grape. I'm not gonna... 486 00:35:11,546 --> 00:35:12,582 Don't do it. 487 00:35:18,494 --> 00:35:19,662 How do you like it? 488 00:35:22,835 --> 00:35:23,871 Who's Paul? 489 00:35:24,739 --> 00:35:25,775 Who's what? 490 00:35:26,576 --> 00:35:28,914 Paul. You were... 491 00:35:29,816 --> 00:35:31,720 You were saying his name, Paul, 492 00:35:31,787 --> 00:35:33,724 -when you were sleeping. -No, I wasn't. 493 00:35:34,926 --> 00:35:37,799 -Yes, you were. -No, I wasn't. 494 00:35:42,240 --> 00:35:43,242 Got it. 495 00:35:46,483 --> 00:35:47,485 So who is he? 496 00:35:51,860 --> 00:35:56,736 I don't know. I can honestly say, I don't know who Paul is, but I do know 497 00:35:56,803 --> 00:35:58,506 that it's none of your business. 498 00:36:00,009 --> 00:36:01,512 Well, which is it? 499 00:36:08,994 --> 00:36:10,230 Paul Drabble. 500 00:36:11,465 --> 00:36:12,634 Is a man I met... 501 00:36:13,302 --> 00:36:15,740 online, a man I fell in love with online. 502 00:36:17,444 --> 00:36:22,454 A man who did not fall in love with me, either online or offline. 503 00:36:23,422 --> 00:36:24,725 Allegedly from... 504 00:36:26,295 --> 00:36:29,568 Canada, who had a fake child, 505 00:36:30,436 --> 00:36:31,872 that got a fake illness... 506 00:36:33,543 --> 00:36:34,912 and then he convinced me to... 507 00:36:35,847 --> 00:36:38,719 send him... quite a bit of real money. 508 00:36:39,755 --> 00:36:40,890 Oh, I'm sorry. 509 00:36:41,692 --> 00:36:44,363 I mean, you know, it’s not like I had to date online. 510 00:36:44,464 --> 00:36:45,767 I get asked out by men... 511 00:36:46,434 --> 00:36:48,906 all the time. There's multiple sources that say 512 00:36:49,407 --> 00:36:51,745 I'm very good in bed, even enthusiastic. 513 00:36:51,812 --> 00:36:54,417 Well, you don't have to talk about this if it makes you feel uncomfortable. 514 00:36:54,484 --> 00:36:56,354 Doesn't make me uncomfortable. Does it make you uncomfortable? 515 00:36:56,421 --> 00:36:57,423 Yeah, a little. 516 00:37:01,397 --> 00:37:03,970 There's a part of me that thinks it was worth it. 517 00:37:05,572 --> 00:37:08,912 You know, six months of love and... companionship. 518 00:37:09,647 --> 00:37:12,386 I don't know, half a year of that, feeling like that... 519 00:37:14,323 --> 00:37:15,592 Not a bad deal. Right? 520 00:37:19,934 --> 00:37:21,905 Maybe you could put it in one of your books. 521 00:37:22,673 --> 00:37:24,443 It'll make a good story, no? 522 00:37:24,577 --> 00:37:25,679 Yeah, maybe. 523 00:37:27,750 --> 00:37:29,520 I take it you’ve never read me. 524 00:37:30,489 --> 00:37:33,394 Well, yeah. You know what? I read a snippet. 525 00:37:34,095 --> 00:37:35,331 -Snippet. -Yesterday. 526 00:37:36,366 --> 00:37:38,571 When I was taking a piss on this massive tree, 527 00:37:38,705 --> 00:37:41,410 found an article all about your Beating Heart. 528 00:37:42,078 --> 00:37:43,080 Wait, what? 529 00:37:44,015 --> 00:37:45,551 Isn't that what it's called? The Beating... 530 00:37:45,618 --> 00:37:46,687 -The Beating Heart? -No! 531 00:37:47,622 --> 00:37:48,724 -It was. -No. 532 00:37:48,791 --> 00:37:50,896 -That's what they said. -No, it's not. 533 00:37:51,630 --> 00:37:54,669 It can't-- No, because it can't be, because it's not... 534 00:37:55,938 --> 00:37:57,075 It's not published yet. 535 00:37:57,508 --> 00:37:59,913 -And so, it's still in manuscript format. -I don't know what to tell you. 536 00:37:59,980 --> 00:38:02,752 Maybe, the guy got a leaked copy or something. 537 00:38:04,422 --> 00:38:05,458 I'd be stoked, actually. 538 00:38:05,524 --> 00:38:07,729 It means he really wanted to read it, right? You're in demand. 539 00:38:08,364 --> 00:38:10,902 -I would take it as a compliment. -What did it say? 540 00:38:10,968 --> 00:38:12,004 I don't remember. 541 00:38:12,070 --> 00:38:14,709 Just-- I know you're lying. What did it say? 542 00:38:17,114 --> 00:38:18,684 He didn't like it very much. 543 00:38:20,053 --> 00:38:23,661 -He didn't like-- Did he hate it? -What do critics know anyway, huh? 544 00:38:24,361 --> 00:38:25,363 Look at poor Stallone. 545 00:38:25,565 --> 00:38:29,471 The fucking critics treat him like garbage and Rocky is the greatest movie ever made. 546 00:38:35,517 --> 00:38:36,820 So they hated it. 547 00:38:41,062 --> 00:38:42,864 Well. That's that. 548 00:38:48,076 --> 00:38:49,078 Where are you going? 549 00:38:55,156 --> 00:38:59,063 Implicitly, it may seem like a kids' game. But when it comes to trusting, 550 00:38:59,932 --> 00:39:03,005 when it comes to being ourselves, when it comes to letting go... 551 00:39:04,508 --> 00:39:06,979 -kids have a lot to teach us. -That's right. 552 00:39:07,848 --> 00:39:09,017 Let’s give it a go. 553 00:39:09,618 --> 00:39:11,388 Okay. Ready? 554 00:39:12,456 --> 00:39:14,628 Okay, come on, Carmel. Come on! 555 00:39:16,632 --> 00:39:20,606 Okay, you ready? Here we go... All right. Come on, Carmel. 556 00:39:20,674 --> 00:39:21,709 Oh my God! 557 00:39:23,145 --> 00:39:24,580 Oh wow, you got me. 558 00:39:27,788 --> 00:39:28,923 Got you! 559 00:39:54,239 --> 00:39:55,976 All right, I wanna do him next. 560 00:39:57,913 --> 00:39:58,815 Mom. 561 00:40:01,020 --> 00:40:03,692 Mom! -Honey! Honey! 562 00:40:07,232 --> 00:40:08,702 Take your hands off me. 563 00:40:09,269 --> 00:40:12,677 -Just take your fucking hands off me! -Please, honey. Please. 564 00:40:12,743 --> 00:40:16,684 Napoleon, please step back. It’s okay. 565 00:40:18,654 --> 00:40:19,790 It's okay! 566 00:40:27,005 --> 00:40:28,240 Heather, what’s going on? 567 00:40:28,841 --> 00:40:30,278 I just want you to step away. 568 00:40:30,845 --> 00:40:36,256 I'm not gonna do that, but what I am gonna do, is hold your hand. 569 00:40:48,914 --> 00:40:51,252 Do you know what they say about holding hands? 570 00:40:52,689 --> 00:40:53,858 It's intimate. 571 00:40:54,291 --> 00:40:57,932 It can be more intimate than lovemaking even. Do you know why? 572 00:40:59,636 --> 00:41:04,145 There’s something intuitive about it, something knowing about it. 573 00:41:05,614 --> 00:41:07,752 Perhaps it's the nerve endings in the fingertips 574 00:41:08,153 --> 00:41:12,694 or the sensory systems in the hands, but people feel each other. 575 00:41:13,730 --> 00:41:16,869 They know each other, even people they’ve never even met before. 576 00:41:21,979 --> 00:41:24,852 What do you feel in my hands, Heather? 577 00:41:26,689 --> 00:41:29,228 Somebody who’s been where you are, maybe? 578 00:41:31,666 --> 00:41:34,204 Somebody who has stood where you stand? 579 00:41:40,015 --> 00:41:42,086 You have never stood where I stand. 580 00:42:00,156 --> 00:42:02,226 -You think she was really going to jump? -I don’t know. 581 00:42:02,293 --> 00:42:05,766 Maybe not today, but she’s certainly ideating. 582 00:42:05,833 --> 00:42:08,372 This group is a powder-kick, Masha. I mean... 583 00:42:08,973 --> 00:42:11,945 Lars is... Honestly, I don't know what Lars is, 584 00:42:12,013 --> 00:42:13,982 but I know, he's not just a guest. 585 00:42:14,384 --> 00:42:16,922 He's got some agenda. I can smell it. 586 00:42:17,190 --> 00:42:19,961 -You swept his room? -Top to bottom. 587 00:42:23,936 --> 00:42:26,006 Yao, would you sweep it again for me? 588 00:42:26,140 --> 00:42:27,142 No problem. 589 00:42:28,946 --> 00:42:31,083 I’m sorry. I didn’t realize you were in a meeting. 590 00:42:32,753 --> 00:42:35,726 No. It's quite all right. Please. 591 00:42:39,299 --> 00:42:40,368 Come on in. 592 00:42:44,711 --> 00:42:45,880 How can I help you? 593 00:42:48,251 --> 00:42:50,221 I think I have to go. 594 00:42:51,457 --> 00:42:53,829 I don't want to find myself. 595 00:42:53,929 --> 00:42:57,269 I don't think I’m equipped for the discovery. 596 00:42:57,335 --> 00:43:00,008 I just had kind of a near-death experience myself, 597 00:43:00,074 --> 00:43:02,445 so I guess that's one thing we have in common, huh? 598 00:43:03,247 --> 00:43:05,351 Mine wasn’t as exotic as yours, but... 599 00:43:06,320 --> 00:43:08,391 First, because I almost choked on a grape. 600 00:43:09,126 --> 00:43:11,764 And, second, I didn’t... 601 00:43:12,666 --> 00:43:17,174 I didn't see the little girl, joyously riding her bike. I just... 602 00:43:18,811 --> 00:43:19,880 I just saw the truth. 603 00:43:20,682 --> 00:43:21,383 Which is... 604 00:43:24,355 --> 00:43:25,792 How much time do you got? 605 00:43:26,894 --> 00:43:27,929 Sit. 606 00:43:29,833 --> 00:43:30,835 Francis. 607 00:43:38,885 --> 00:43:39,920 What? 608 00:43:40,020 --> 00:43:44,863 The truth is that I’m a twice-divorced, middle-aged... 609 00:43:46,065 --> 00:43:48,003 hot-flashing, menopausal heap. 610 00:43:49,138 --> 00:43:50,307 I’ve become a punchline. 611 00:43:51,809 --> 00:43:54,482 I have been down in these dark holes before. 612 00:43:54,749 --> 00:43:57,855 And the one way out was that I could write my way out. 613 00:43:59,090 --> 00:44:04,100 Turns out I’m a one-trick pony that can no longer do her one trick. 614 00:44:06,138 --> 00:44:08,075 You’re a car, Francis. 615 00:44:08,208 --> 00:44:09,879 Okay. A car? 616 00:44:10,347 --> 00:44:13,720 And your gas tank is empty. And you're smoking, 617 00:44:13,787 --> 00:44:16,158 you’re churning, you're wheezing. 618 00:44:17,126 --> 00:44:19,431 You can't get going. But... 619 00:44:20,499 --> 00:44:23,372 in a few days, you're gonna refuel. 620 00:44:24,441 --> 00:44:27,413 And I promise you you're gonna feel a thousand times better. 621 00:44:28,382 --> 00:44:31,054 I totally expected a metaphor there. I just thought... 622 00:44:32,457 --> 00:44:35,296 maybe it would be something a little more lyrical. 623 00:44:35,429 --> 00:44:36,431 Okay. 624 00:44:37,901 --> 00:44:38,903 Try this. 625 00:44:42,110 --> 00:44:44,781 -Kintsugi. -A bowl? 626 00:44:44,848 --> 00:44:48,956 No. The Japanese art of repairing broken pottery. 627 00:44:49,858 --> 00:44:55,403 The broken pieces are mended with lacquer, powdered gold to make something stronger. 628 00:44:57,072 --> 00:44:58,342 More beautiful. 629 00:45:00,346 --> 00:45:01,882 Does beat a crappy car. 630 00:45:02,951 --> 00:45:04,086 This will be you. 631 00:45:09,129 --> 00:45:13,906 I just... I don’t think I want it. 632 00:45:15,375 --> 00:45:16,444 It’s what you need. 633 00:45:21,354 --> 00:45:26,397 I think, I may need a Four Seasons and a couple of Bellinis, is what I need. 634 00:45:26,464 --> 00:45:28,067 Francis, give me one more day. 635 00:45:28,969 --> 00:45:29,971 Please. 636 00:45:31,073 --> 00:45:32,075 One more day. 637 00:45:32,809 --> 00:45:35,915 If tomorrow you don't wanna stay, fine. 638 00:45:36,417 --> 00:45:39,323 I’ll respect your decision. But give me one more day. Yes? 639 00:45:40,492 --> 00:45:42,462 I don't think anything is gonna change. 640 00:45:43,398 --> 00:45:45,935 What have you got to lose? You've come this far. 641 00:45:49,610 --> 00:45:50,879 Okay. 642 00:45:52,983 --> 00:45:56,424 Just no more metaphors. Like, I can take it. 643 00:46:46,055 --> 00:46:47,090 Hey, honey. 644 00:46:49,929 --> 00:46:50,998 She wasn't gonna jump. 645 00:46:51,065 --> 00:46:54,906 Stop trying to shield me from everything, Dad! I saw! 646 00:46:56,041 --> 00:46:59,949 -I fucking saw it. -Honey, you know, as well as I do, 647 00:47:00,349 --> 00:47:02,420 -your mother would-- -You watch me like I’m the problem. 648 00:47:02,487 --> 00:47:05,259 Do you realize you guys are the fucked-up ones inside? 649 00:47:05,326 --> 00:47:07,564 And all you do, is hide it from me. 650 00:47:08,232 --> 00:47:10,203 And from each other, from everybody. 651 00:47:28,239 --> 00:47:29,140 One at a time. 652 00:47:31,311 --> 00:47:35,553 -Hey. How's Francis? -She's hurting. 653 00:47:38,324 --> 00:47:40,095 You’re right, Delilah, this is... 654 00:47:41,465 --> 00:47:44,638 a particularly volatile group. But they're a brilliant one, 655 00:47:44,704 --> 00:47:46,073 and we need them all. 656 00:47:46,474 --> 00:47:48,578 Let’s start the protocol. The new protocol. 657 00:47:51,317 --> 00:47:53,254 Okay, but it's only day two. 658 00:47:54,958 --> 00:47:56,494 But we have to make it to day three. 659 00:47:57,329 --> 00:47:58,665 We can't lose any of them. 660 00:47:58,731 --> 00:48:02,306 They haven’t fully detoxed. It hasn’t been tested. 661 00:48:02,372 --> 00:48:03,708 They are begging to be saved. 662 00:48:03,976 --> 00:48:06,214 They're on their hands and knees. You can both see that. 663 00:48:07,583 --> 00:48:09,386 I've made the decision. 664 00:48:10,355 --> 00:48:11,357 All right? 665 00:48:12,426 --> 00:48:13,495 Let's go, my loves. 666 00:48:14,497 --> 00:48:16,099 There is no time to waste. 667 00:48:19,573 --> 00:48:21,109 This is exciting.