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[cheerful music plays]

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[Claudia] Some people
are obsessed with coffee.

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They need an AeroPress,
or exactly a half an inch of foam,

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or it has to be made from beans

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that were already digested by an ocelot
or something.

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But at my house, my Mimi is all about tea.

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It's one of her favorite things,

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and she's pretty much
my favorite person in the whole world,

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so I'm learning how to make it for her,
the old, traditional Japanese way.

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But like a lot of things
that are old and traditional,

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it looks simple,
but it's really pretty complicated.

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Much like Mimi herself.

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Do over.

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What? It's perfect.

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You did not warm cup first.

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Does it feel cold?

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It doesn't matter how it feels.
It's important to do.

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Important now
to show guest you honor them.

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Warm, fresh.

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It'll taste exactly the same.

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-Yum. Perfect.
-It's not about perfect taste, my Claudia.

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It's about doing correctly.

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[Claudia] Mimi had a bad stroke last year.

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She leaves words out of sentences
and seems a little confused sometimes,

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but she'd never forget to warm a cup.

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Still, she's definitely the least
judgmental person in my family.

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[girl] …for a seminar to…

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[Claudia] And here comes the most.

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…as a workshop for learning IDE for AR.

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Hey, Mimi. Hey, Claudia.

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[Claudia] So typical of my sister
to interrupt my quality time with Mimi.

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Not typical?

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That Ashley Wyeth, the coolest girl ever,
was still hanging out with her.

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We're going to head upstairs
and concentrate on Python.

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The code. Not the snake. [chuckles]

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Okay. Upstairs.

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And in a moment,
Claudia will bring you special tea.

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Oh, that sounds great. Thanks.

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Yeah, of course.

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I have to bring Janine tea?

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What am I, her maid? Why doesn't she
just learn how to do it herself?

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Because you are learning
how to make it for the whole family.

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[sighs]

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Don't forget to warm cup first.

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[tranquil music plays]

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Mimi! Everything okay?

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Yes. Okay.

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Keep going. Keep painting.

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I go now.

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Don't want to confuse the muses.

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Okay. Good night, Mimi.

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Goodbye, my Claudia.

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[Claudia] I was painting,
Janine was annoying,

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Mimi came up to say good night.

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It was a night like any other night.

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Until it wasn't.

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That's the thing about life.

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You never know when it will change.

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[foreboding music plays]

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Mom?

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Claudia. You're up.

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Good. [sighs]

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We didn't want to wake you.

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What's going on?

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Uh, maybe we should get Janine?
Tell them together?

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Yeah. [sniffs]

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Tell us what?

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[John] Girls,

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Mimi passed away last night in her sleep.

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But…

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I was making tea with her yesterday.
She was fine.

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-She was 85.
-So what?

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-She had a series of strokes.
-One stroke.

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-There were aftereffects.
-Girls.

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Please.

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She had health problems.

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-But she died peacefully in her own bed.
-[sniffles]

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It was her time.

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No one could ask for more.

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We were lucky that we had her
for as long as we did.

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[Claudia] My parents were saying
all the things

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people always say when someone dies.

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[Kimiko] She had a long…

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[Claudia] Stuff that sounds nice,
but nobody believes it.

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[Kimiko] …wonderful life.

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[Claudia] It's just something to fill
the air when you feel like screaming.

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But then one thing cut through.

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[Kimiko] She already made
most of the plans herself.

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They told me she ordered her urn
from Japan months ago.

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[John sniffling]

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She wanted everything done,
uh, the old way.

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The funeral will be in a few days.

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And, uh, no visitors to the house
until afterwards,

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out of respect to Buddhist tradition.

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Okay, girls?

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[Claudia] Then Mom started talking to Dad
about death certificates

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and obituary stuff.

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But all I could think about
was spending the rest of my life here,

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alone, in a house with no Mimi in it.

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And that I couldn't do. Not yet.

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My mom said you can stay
as long as you need to.

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You can just take it easy.

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Chill, watch movies. Anything.

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Thank you.
Um, I'm just glad to be out of the house.

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It'll be good for my parents too,
to have me out of their hair.

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There's just so much to do. So…

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I can't believe it.

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When my great-grandpa died, it was sad,

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but he just lived
in the nursing home upstate,

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staring at the wall
and drinking Sprite Zero all day.

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Mimi was so alive.

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Yeah, well, everything is temporary.

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Claudia. How are you doing, sweetheart?

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I'm okay.

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I'm so, so sorry.

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You know you can stay here
as long as you want.

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-I told her that already.
-[Maureen] Good.

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What else can we do?
Can I send some food over?

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I could have one of those appetizing
platters sent in from Zabar's in the city.

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Well, we don't really do that
until after the funeral.

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Mom, she told you.
None of that happens until later.

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This is like a meditative period.

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-What if we go to the mall?
-The mall? Like in Stamford?

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I know it sounds crazy, but I just want
to take my mind off of everything.

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You know what? So do I.

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There is a new Glossier pop-up shop
at Nordstrom's

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and we could go to the Forty Carrots
at Bloomie's for some froyo after.

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Maybe I can get that cartilage piercing
at the Piercing Pagoda

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while everyone's too distraught to notice?

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Absolutely not.

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Nice try.

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[Claudia] I was trying to bury my feelings
in ethically manufactured beauty products

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and overpriced soft-serve. So what?

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I had the next 80 years of my life
to be sad about Mimi.

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In the meantime, I just wanted everything
to feel as normal as possible.

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Are you hosting a support group?

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Claudia can't have guests
until after the funeral,

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so we're hosting the club meeting here.

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Trying to make it feel
as much like her room as possible.

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She always hides candy all over the place.

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Here. Let me.

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The best hiding places are in plain sight.
Nobody ever thinks to look.

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Baby-Sitters Club, Dawn Schafer here.
Alternate Officer.

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Hey! Come on in.

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Take your seats.

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Ooh, gummy worms.

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Plain sight, huh?

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Sometimes I think you forget
that I'm only eight.

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Right.

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Think anyone will call?

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[Kristy] Well, the clients have my number,
and this is what Claud said she wanted.

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For us to have a meeting.
For everything to feel normal.

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I can't believe Mimi's gone.

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I didn't even get to say goodbye.

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It's okay, let it all out.

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It's healthier that way.
Toxins go. Endorphins rise.

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What happened? Did someone die? [chuckles]

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I know. I should be comforting you.

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Oh, it's okay.
You can just comfort me by acting normal.

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But Mimi, she--

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Just pretend this is a normal meeting.
Kristy, can you call us to order?

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Please?

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Okay.

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I hereby call this meeting to order.

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So…

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Stacey. How's the treasury?

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Um…

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Fine.

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Great.

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H… have we gotten any new business?

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Not since the last meeting.

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Does anyone have anything
they'd like to share?

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I was gonna start shaving my legs.
But then my mom said if I start too soon,

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the hairs will grow back faster
and thicker, so I didn't. [chuckles]

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That's really helpful. Thank you.

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Mimi came to me in a dream last night.

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Karen, not now.

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[Karen] She was wearing a white gown.

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Not like a ghost. Like a bride.

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She told me she'd met the spirit
of my great-grandfather, old Ben Brewer,

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and now they're in love
and getting married.

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So maybe they'll both haunt our attic

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and you can visit her.

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-Stacey and I are gonna go.
-We are?

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Uh, no one's calling anyway. And I…

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[Claudia] I don't want
to talk about any of this.

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And I don't like everyone staring at me
like I'm a walking tragedy.

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I really have to catch up
on some make-up homework for the week.

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Claud, wait.

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Let her go.

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She's not yet ready
for the truths of the spirit world.

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[sighs] Do you want to play a board game?

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Or we can bring up your mom's
'90s Vogue issues from the basement.

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I guess so.

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You know we could do
a cool vintage wallpaper decoupage

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on one wall of your closet.

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Do you think she'd let us cut them up?

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I doubt it. My mom has been hoarding
those magazines since college.

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Well, should we bake something? Cookies?

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My sugar's been weird today.

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Well, there's gotta be
something we can do.

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We could talk.

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[Claudia] I knew
she was going to say that.

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But what was there to say?

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Mimi was gone. I didn't want
to go in my house until she was back.

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But she was never coming back,

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so I never wanted
to go inside my house again.

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[knocking on door]

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Claudia, honey, your dad just called.

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The funeral is tomorrow.

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I know.

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Your mom got you a dress to wear.

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And I think she was kind of hoping
you would go home and make sure it fits.

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It'll fit.

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Are you sure?

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It'll be fine, and if it isn't,
there's no time to exchange it anyway.

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[Claudia] I just wanted one more night.
One more night before it was all real.

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[melancholy music plays]

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[John] It was beautiful.

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It was. I really felt close to her.

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[Claudia] Well, I didn't. I felt… numb.

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That's koden, Japanese mourning gifts
of money sent by family and friends.

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Now my mom will have to send notes

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and return gifts
back to the people who sent it.

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And with each note and gift,

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Mimi will be a little more gone
to everyone who knew her.

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I'm going back to Stacey's.

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Stacey can come here now, honey.

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If you want.

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All your friends can.

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Yeah, but I think, um,

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these flowers are giving me allergies.

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You've never exhibited pollen-related
rhinitis before. I have some anti--

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It's fine.
Just, I don't want to be here right now.

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Because of the flowers?

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Because I just don't.

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Um…

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Can I go now?

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Please.

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If that's what you really want.

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[Claudia] You know when you know
something is the wrong thing to do,

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but you do it anyway
because it kinda feels good?

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Like yanking on a hangnail.

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So I found myself back at Stacey's
that night, eating ants on a log.

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Okay, so I actually
started using dark chocolate chips

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mostly because they taste better,

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but then I learned dark chocolate
actually has less sugar than raisins.

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00:12:37,132 --> 00:12:40,177
Dark-chocolate therapy.
Almost as good as retail therapy.

249
00:12:40,260 --> 00:12:42,596
-Or actual therapy.
-[Claudia chuckles]

250
00:12:42,679 --> 00:12:44,723
-[Maureen] …hours ago.
-[Edward] I had a late meeting.

251
00:12:44,807 --> 00:12:45,974
This is not a good time.

252
00:12:46,058 --> 00:12:47,893
-[Maureen] When, Edward?
-[Edward] I don't know.

253
00:12:49,186 --> 00:12:50,437
It's been like this for a while.

254
00:12:51,605 --> 00:12:53,148
He's on a new account at work.

255
00:12:53,816 --> 00:12:58,237
And this happens every time he comes home
before we go to bed, which isn't often.

256
00:12:59,780 --> 00:13:02,324
Guess it might not be the best night
for another sleepover.

257
00:13:02,908 --> 00:13:04,952
Well, do you wanna talk about it?

258
00:13:05,035 --> 00:13:07,830
-What is there to talk about?
-[Claudia] I knew the feeling.

259
00:13:07,913 --> 00:13:12,209
And I knew it was probably time to go home
and deal with my own family.

260
00:13:12,292 --> 00:13:13,168
Probably.

261
00:13:13,752 --> 00:13:17,881
But as I got closer,
I imagined walking into the house.

262
00:13:17,965 --> 00:13:19,800
Quiet. Empty.

263
00:13:20,425 --> 00:13:24,304
No Mimi there to ask me about my day,
or praise my new artwork,

264
00:13:24,388 --> 00:13:27,558
or correct me when I'm making
the special tea the wrong way.

265
00:13:28,350 --> 00:13:32,813
When she said, "Goodbye, my Claudia,"
that last time, she meant it.

266
00:13:32,896 --> 00:13:34,398
[John] Janine, dinner's ready.

267
00:13:34,481 --> 00:13:35,399
[Claudia] Goodbye.

268
00:13:36,149 --> 00:13:37,025
She was ready.

269
00:13:38,402 --> 00:13:39,903
But I still wasn't.

270
00:13:44,616 --> 00:13:46,743
Your dad said
your mom sounded kind of sad.

271
00:13:47,327 --> 00:13:50,289
Yeah, well, we're all sad. Aren't you?

272
00:13:52,207 --> 00:13:53,333
Yeah.

273
00:13:54,126 --> 00:13:56,461
So it's good that I'm here.
We can cheer each other up.

274
00:13:56,962 --> 00:14:00,215
Maybe I could stay for a few days
and we can rearrange your room.

275
00:14:00,299 --> 00:14:03,635
You know what? Maybe we can
even do, like, a wallpaper accent wall.

276
00:14:03,719 --> 00:14:06,889
Or I can fake one with stencils.
We could do like an art nouveau vibe.

277
00:14:06,972 --> 00:14:08,724
I like my room the way it is.

278
00:14:09,641 --> 00:14:11,685
Okay. Well, we can just hang out then.

279
00:14:12,311 --> 00:14:14,479
But those cushions
are in the wrong color order.

280
00:14:14,563 --> 00:14:17,316
-Claudia--
-Let's start over and do primary colors.

281
00:14:17,399 --> 00:14:19,359
Wait, no, let's do cool tone… Mm, no.

282
00:14:19,443 --> 00:14:22,195
Ooh, contrasting colors!
That will look really cool.

283
00:14:22,946 --> 00:14:23,780
Hey.

284
00:14:23,864 --> 00:14:26,825
Sorry. I just…
I needed to get your attention somehow.

285
00:14:26,909 --> 00:14:30,495
Please listen and stop trying to
distract yourself from feeling your grief.

286
00:14:30,579 --> 00:14:33,832
I don't want to feel my grief.
My grief feels horrible.

287
00:14:33,916 --> 00:14:35,626
-My grief feels like--
-Like what?

288
00:14:35,709 --> 00:14:38,086
Like my chest is going to explode!

289
00:14:39,129 --> 00:14:40,589
Like I can't breathe.

290
00:14:41,089 --> 00:14:44,343
[gasps for air]
Like everything is over and nobody…

291
00:14:46,261 --> 00:14:47,638
Nobody understands.

292
00:14:52,225 --> 00:14:53,060
I do.

293
00:14:58,315 --> 00:15:00,776
Hm. You were just a baby
when your mom died.

294
00:15:00,859 --> 00:15:03,153
Yeah, but my dad wasn't.

295
00:15:04,613 --> 00:15:06,573
He kept his grief bottled up for years.

296
00:15:07,407 --> 00:15:10,327
He froze in time.
He almost froze me in time too.

297
00:15:11,411 --> 00:15:14,039
-Remember the braids?
-How could I forget? [chuckles]

298
00:15:14,581 --> 00:15:17,626
Exactly. But finally, he let it all out.

299
00:15:18,919 --> 00:15:20,545
Started talking about my mom.

300
00:15:22,214 --> 00:15:23,048
Moved on.

301
00:15:24,007 --> 00:15:27,844
And now I think
I can finally say that he's okay.

302
00:15:30,681 --> 00:15:31,515
It hurts.

303
00:15:33,433 --> 00:15:34,267
I know.

304
00:15:35,894 --> 00:15:38,563
But… it has to.

305
00:15:40,816 --> 00:15:44,403
Remember in third grade when you fell
off the jungle gym and broke your wrist?

306
00:15:44,486 --> 00:15:47,239
[chuckles]
I think I blacked out when that happened.

307
00:15:47,322 --> 00:15:48,240
Well, I didn't.

308
00:15:48,323 --> 00:15:52,119
I remember you screaming
and crying through the pain,

309
00:15:52,202 --> 00:15:54,579
yelling about how
what if you could never paint again.

310
00:15:55,580 --> 00:15:57,916
If you'd ignored it,
maybe that would've been true.

311
00:15:58,000 --> 00:16:01,336
But instead, your mom came
and took you straight to the hospital.

312
00:16:01,420 --> 00:16:04,297
They snapped your bone back into place
and put a cast on it right away,

313
00:16:04,798 --> 00:16:06,008
and it healed correctly.

314
00:16:07,092 --> 00:16:07,926
Stronger.

315
00:16:09,177 --> 00:16:11,304
Now it's something
that you can talk about.

316
00:16:11,388 --> 00:16:12,723
Maybe even smile about.

317
00:16:14,099 --> 00:16:15,308
Grief is the same.

318
00:16:16,435 --> 00:16:18,437
You have to deal with it so it can pass.

319
00:16:19,730 --> 00:16:21,148
And then you're stronger.

320
00:16:22,149 --> 00:16:26,111
[Claudia] Part of me just wanted to nod
and smile and flee to the next house.

321
00:16:26,611 --> 00:16:29,489
But it was getting pretty late
to go all the way to Kristy's.

322
00:16:29,990 --> 00:16:33,243
And deep down, I knew Mary Anne was right.

323
00:16:34,244 --> 00:16:35,495
I had to go back.

324
00:16:36,163 --> 00:16:39,458
I had to walk into my house
and face my grief.

325
00:16:42,169 --> 00:16:43,003
[Janine] Hey, Claud.

326
00:16:48,675 --> 00:16:49,760
What are you doing?

327
00:16:50,677 --> 00:16:52,095
Looking through Mimi's jewelry.

328
00:16:52,888 --> 00:16:53,847
Don't be alarmed.

329
00:16:53,930 --> 00:16:54,973
Mom is amenable.

330
00:16:56,308 --> 00:16:58,643
Mimi set aside
a few specific things for us.

331
00:17:00,062 --> 00:17:01,813
This was earmarked for you, Claudia.

332
00:17:02,689 --> 00:17:05,150
I came in here to grieve
and be alone with my feelings

333
00:17:05,233 --> 00:17:07,235
and here you are stealing her stuff?

334
00:17:07,319 --> 00:17:08,779
Nobody is stealing anything.

335
00:17:08,862 --> 00:17:11,406
-She was my grandmother too.
-Then what's she doing here?

336
00:17:11,490 --> 00:17:15,285
Uh, I'm gonna go upstairs
and give you a minute.

337
00:17:20,248 --> 00:17:22,334
You have no right
to speak to her like that.

338
00:17:22,417 --> 00:17:24,419
She has no right
going through my grandmother's stuff

339
00:17:24,503 --> 00:17:25,712
like it's a garage sale!

340
00:17:25,796 --> 00:17:29,007
Are you out of your mind?
You have no idea what's been going on.

341
00:17:29,091 --> 00:17:31,635
What it's been like with Mom and Dad.
You just took off!

342
00:17:31,718 --> 00:17:33,220
I've been all alone with them.

343
00:17:33,804 --> 00:17:37,265
Trying to support them.
But it's been very difficult.

344
00:17:37,349 --> 00:17:41,853
Mom is unresponsive.
Dad gives all his emotional energy to her.

345
00:17:42,562 --> 00:17:44,898
The only one who's been here
for me has been Ashley.

346
00:17:44,981 --> 00:17:47,776
So what, you're so grateful,
you're giving her Mimi's jewelry?

347
00:17:47,859 --> 00:17:50,403
I'm not grateful to her!
I'm in love with her!

348
00:17:53,615 --> 00:17:55,117
She's my girlfriend, Claudia.

349
00:17:59,371 --> 00:18:00,205
I…

350
00:18:01,456 --> 00:18:02,415
I didn't know.

351
00:18:06,211 --> 00:18:07,796
[Janine sniffles]

352
00:18:15,428 --> 00:18:16,596
It's still pretty new.

353
00:18:17,556 --> 00:18:20,725
Mimi figured it out a few weeks ago
because she paid attention.

354
00:18:24,688 --> 00:18:27,357
She asked me and I told her the truth.

355
00:18:29,401 --> 00:18:30,360
It made her happy.

356
00:18:33,155 --> 00:18:35,448
She immediately wanted to give her a gift.

357
00:18:36,616 --> 00:18:37,784
She was always kind of

358
00:18:39,411 --> 00:18:40,579
romantic like that.

359
00:18:41,621 --> 00:18:43,582
Yeah. She was.

360
00:18:45,500 --> 00:18:47,586
I'd been planning on telling Mom and Dad,

361
00:18:49,421 --> 00:18:52,299
but I just couldn't seem
to find the right moment.

362
00:18:54,968 --> 00:18:56,553
And then, Mimi…

363
00:18:57,971 --> 00:18:59,055
Died. [sniffles]

364
00:19:01,099 --> 00:19:03,101
[sighs] Mimi died.

365
00:19:12,652 --> 00:19:15,280
Jiji gave this to her
when they first started dating.

366
00:19:16,198 --> 00:19:18,575
I think he won it
at some carnival or something.

367
00:19:19,910 --> 00:19:21,870
Is this what she wanted Ashley to have?

368
00:19:25,165 --> 00:19:28,335
But I won't give it to her…
unless it's okay with you.

369
00:19:30,587 --> 00:19:32,297
Of course I'm okay with it.

370
00:19:33,840 --> 00:19:35,342
Jiji loved Mimi and

371
00:19:36,551 --> 00:19:37,510
you love Ashley.

372
00:19:38,762 --> 00:19:40,013
It's like a return gift.

373
00:19:40,972 --> 00:19:42,307
Like with koden, but

374
00:19:43,558 --> 00:19:44,517
with love.

375
00:19:50,732 --> 00:19:52,734
I already miss her so much.

376
00:19:54,986 --> 00:19:55,987
Me too, my Janine.

377
00:19:57,656 --> 00:19:58,490
Me too.

378
00:19:59,157 --> 00:20:02,160
[Claudia] Mimi was the person
who always brought us together.

379
00:20:02,827 --> 00:20:05,956
We belonged to Mimi,
and Mimi belonged to us.

380
00:20:06,915 --> 00:20:09,584
But now, we had to belong to each other.

381
00:20:14,005 --> 00:20:16,383
And it was my job
to pull us back together,

382
00:20:17,300 --> 00:20:18,468
with string,

383
00:20:19,261 --> 00:20:20,303
and tradition,

384
00:20:21,137 --> 00:20:21,972
and love.

385
00:20:22,055 --> 00:20:24,057
[tranquil music plays]

386
00:20:56,047 --> 00:20:57,757
Oh. Habit. Sorry.

387
00:20:58,675 --> 00:21:00,260
Yeah. It's not a club meeting.

388
00:21:00,343 --> 00:21:02,387
Yet. Until 5:00, then all bets are off.

389
00:21:02,470 --> 00:21:03,388
Kristy, come on.

390
00:21:03,471 --> 00:21:04,848
[giggling]

391
00:21:07,684 --> 00:21:09,561
-I'm sorry.
-[knocking on door]

392
00:21:09,644 --> 00:21:12,897
So sorry to interrupt,
but we got an invitation.

393
00:21:12,981 --> 00:21:14,232
Yes, please. Come on in.

394
00:21:15,525 --> 00:21:17,485
So did we.

395
00:21:17,569 --> 00:21:19,487
Welcome to my room. [chuckles]

396
00:21:20,030 --> 00:21:22,657
I don't think we've been in here
with your friends before.

397
00:21:22,741 --> 00:21:25,618
Well, you're always welcome.
As long as you knock first.

398
00:21:25,702 --> 00:21:27,412
You all got your envelopes,

399
00:21:27,495 --> 00:21:30,206
so you know that I invited you here
to talk about Mimi.

400
00:21:31,124 --> 00:21:34,794
To remember her. But first,
I'd like to offer some refreshments.

401
00:21:34,878 --> 00:21:35,712
Ho Hos?

402
00:21:36,296 --> 00:21:37,255
Tea.

403
00:21:37,339 --> 00:21:39,966
-Oh.
-[chuckling]

404
00:21:45,513 --> 00:21:47,515
[tranquil music plays]

405
00:22:17,545 --> 00:22:18,671
It looks perfect.

406
00:22:21,299 --> 00:22:23,343
Remember the time
Mimi was at the biker bar?

407
00:22:23,426 --> 00:22:25,470
[all laughing]

408
00:22:25,553 --> 00:22:28,139
-Wait, like Hells Angels?
-[Janine] It was her birthday.

409
00:22:28,223 --> 00:22:30,141
She wanted to go to this really authentic,

410
00:22:30,225 --> 00:22:32,394
new Japanese restaurant
about an hour away.

411
00:22:32,477 --> 00:22:35,271
But we got a late start and Dad got lost--

412
00:22:35,355 --> 00:22:37,065
Uh, the GPS got lost.

413
00:22:37,148 --> 00:22:38,775
-[Claudia laughs]
-[Janine] Oh!

414
00:22:38,858 --> 00:22:40,110
And finally we got there,

415
00:22:40,693 --> 00:22:42,695
only to find out it was closed.

416
00:22:42,779 --> 00:22:43,780
We were starving.

417
00:22:43,863 --> 00:22:48,743
So Dad pulled into this creepy dive bar
off the highway that said it served pizza.

418
00:22:48,827 --> 00:22:50,078
Not a family place,

419
00:22:50,161 --> 00:22:51,746
let alone an Asian family.

420
00:22:51,830 --> 00:22:56,042
Everyone was staring at us.
We just sat there, feeling them stare.

421
00:22:56,126 --> 00:22:57,335
Finally, the pizza came.

422
00:22:57,419 --> 00:22:58,628
Mimi took a bite,

423
00:22:58,711 --> 00:23:02,632
then stood up and announced
really loudly to the whole bar,

424
00:23:04,592 --> 00:23:06,928
"Best Japanese food I ever tasted!"

425
00:23:07,011 --> 00:23:09,722
[laughing]

426
00:23:09,806 --> 00:23:12,183
I remember one time
I was in the car with Mimi

427
00:23:12,267 --> 00:23:14,561
and we got stuck behind an ambulance

428
00:23:14,644 --> 00:23:16,688
and she decided to chase it.

429
00:23:16,771 --> 00:23:21,526
It sped. She sped. And we followed it
all the way to our house.

430
00:23:22,110 --> 00:23:24,612
That's what happens
when you try to fix the roof yourself.

431
00:23:24,696 --> 00:23:27,031
-[laughing]
-Yeah.

432
00:23:27,115 --> 00:23:30,785
I loved how no matter what, Mimi always
made time to tell me about my mom.

433
00:23:31,369 --> 00:23:32,829
What they used to talk about.

434
00:23:33,830 --> 00:23:35,999
She even helped decide what to name me.

435
00:23:36,082 --> 00:23:37,959
I thought you were named
after your great-aunt.

436
00:23:38,042 --> 00:23:41,546
I was, but she helped decide which one.
It was either this or Linda.

437
00:23:41,629 --> 00:23:43,756
-Linda?
-I cannot see her as a Linda.

438
00:23:43,840 --> 00:23:44,674
Uh-uh.

439
00:23:44,757 --> 00:23:47,302
She always made me feel so welcome.

440
00:23:48,720 --> 00:23:49,762
That's because you are.

441
00:23:56,019 --> 00:23:57,020
My stepsister Karen,

442
00:23:57,103 --> 00:24:00,023
she thinks that Mimi is in love
with her great-grandfather,

443
00:24:00,106 --> 00:24:01,524
Ben Brewer, up in heaven.

444
00:24:01,608 --> 00:24:02,442
Good for Mimi.

445
00:24:03,234 --> 00:24:05,236
My dad's been gone a long time.

446
00:24:05,320 --> 00:24:07,238
-She deserves some fun.
-[laughing]

447
00:24:07,322 --> 00:24:11,367
-Wait, but isn't Jiji there too?
-OMG, it's a love triangle.

448
00:24:11,451 --> 00:24:16,414
[laughing]

449
00:24:17,332 --> 00:24:20,793
[Claudia] I wish I could tell you that day
made me stop missing Mimi so much.

450
00:24:21,377 --> 00:24:24,464
The truth is,
I think I'll always miss her.

451
00:24:25,048 --> 00:24:28,301
But what that day showed me
is that that's okay.

452
00:24:29,135 --> 00:24:30,970
Because as long as I miss her,

453
00:24:31,679 --> 00:24:32,931
she's still here with me.

454
00:24:33,014 --> 00:24:35,183
["In Fantasia" by Kishi Bashi playing]

455
00:24:35,266 --> 00:24:38,353
[singing in Japanese]

456
00:25:02,001 --> 00:25:04,003
[singing in Japanese continues]

457
00:25:49,841 --> 00:25:52,260
♪ Endless twilight ♪

458
00:25:52,844 --> 00:25:57,223
♪ If only stars
Would show their faithful stare ♪

459
00:25:59,350 --> 00:26:03,855
♪ In this world of fading memories ♪

460
00:26:05,690 --> 00:26:08,359
♪ We'd cease to be ♪