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I think you feel nice Claudia.

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I really think it will.

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Fix you right up.

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Fix you right up.

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Sing with me Bill.

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Come on little bell sing with me.

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You know the lyrics.

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You lost and gone for.

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It was my voice who left.

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Sometimes I think it arrived on paper.

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I wrote the picture.

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Lies interchangeably.

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Made me feel like someone else.

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For Christ's sake.

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The worth to belong to.

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That is your daughter.

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No.

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To safety. To girls.

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My mother. Her hair.

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Her scar. Her stories.

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Won a prize for that story belt.

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And your daddy won an art

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prize for this drawing. My sister.

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My adoration. My heart.

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I mean you look like a bone

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in that nubby sack shirt.

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It does nothing for you.

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Look at me.

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Trying to look like a man. My sister.

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Taking everything.

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Before you were even born. One take.

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My sister is gone.

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My mother is.

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My father designs houses in

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the room next to my smoking.

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I wait for 5am. I pray.

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Swim.

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You know the drill.

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One lick for every pound you're over.

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Taurus.

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Primer.

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One for you, freshman.

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So we'll make it count.

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Miles does it take? To swim.

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To a self.

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So you really want this, huh?

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You only got a three quarter ride.

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Offered the whole nine yards, huh?

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Delighted to offer a

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partial scholarship.

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Last one.

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In my head I swam laps.

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Didn't even get one full ride.

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Hey, don't blame me.

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If they don't want you, then

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you don't belong there.

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I could taste blood.

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The answer is no.

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Why?

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Because he could.

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And I was hit.

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I'm a coach from Texas Tech.

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I'm excited to meet you. Let's talk.

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I'd like to have you on our team.

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I almost loved her.

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There's a gold bell.

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Fucking disgusting media.

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You should be ashamed of her.

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My bedroom holds the wet and

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the dark of my body.

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It smells like my sweat. And chlorine.

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Can't sleep, huh?

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Yeah, me neither. Come here.

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I want to talk to you.

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Listen, I'm sorry I've been

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so hard on you lately.

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I guess I just really worry

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about you out there.

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Things are going to be

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different when you go to college.

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And I want you to listen to me.

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He narrated what boys would do to me.

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How they put their dirty

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hands up my skirt and finger-fuck me.

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Fond on my tits.

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How disgusting boys would be.

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Their hand.

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Their hips running in and up.

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And their dicks. And his.

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Me sitting next to him.

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Feeling the heat of him.

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Without even looking.

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What are you doing out here?

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Motherfucker.

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All I thought was my own

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wide open cunt.

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It opens the mouth.

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Screaming.

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Mother, mother, mother fucker.

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I didn't know a girl body

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could do that.

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Shoot.

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It had to explode.

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Yuck.

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Above your hands.

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Father and my brother.

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Who have the real voices.

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I always hear them in my head.

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Really?

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What are they saying?

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An amazing grace.

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Voices of God. Poor Phillip.

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I wish I could go back and apologize.

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Where it's been gone.

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And I know the peace will come.

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I've been searching for the dolphins.

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It's just a regular James Taylor.

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Singing his heart out here in Texas.

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And sometimes I wonder.

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Do you ever.

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This world may never change.

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Where it's been gone.

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And I know the peace will come.

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How'd you always do that?

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I feel it.

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You're such a pussy.

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Take a joke.

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You're so fucking sensitive.

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This is probably one of the

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most pathetic things I've ever seen.

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This is what I'm talking about.

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It's like.

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It's like talking to a

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fucking doorknob.

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Why didn't you say something?

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When you say anything.

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I'm being a fucking bitch.

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So why don't you do something about it?

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You're not a bitch.

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Fuck you Phillip.

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You don't even fucking know me Phillip.

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It means lover of horses.

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Or brotherhood.

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Wake up motherfucker! Hey Liz.

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Wanna get out of here? She's good.

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I'll take her back. Hey man.

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I shut that door.

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Just shut the goddamn door.

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I've seen you at practice.

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Yeah I flunked out. That's cool.

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I can still feel my face.

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Addiction is in me for sure.

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But I want to describe

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something else to you.

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Something smaller.

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It's a smaller word.

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So small I could travel a bloodstream.

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Go away Belle. Stay away.

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This isn't anything for you.

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I'm not talking about anything.

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I'm not talking about anything.

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I'm not talking about anything.

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Forty. I'm sorry.

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I'm sorry.

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Yeah.

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Lydia.

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You can talk to us. It helps.

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Trust me.

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I'm not talking about anything.

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You know.

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I always like to say. Find meaning.

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In life's traffic. Through clearing.

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Spiritual barriers.

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Proud of you. You know?

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Yeah.

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Yeah.

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Hey.

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Would you marry me?

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Okay.

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And children have their dreams

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to hold on to.

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And how they fly take us to the moon.

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Yes.

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They float from you.

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Yes.

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They float from you.

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They float from you.

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And they float from you.

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And women have themselves to

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hold on to.

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And how they fly take me by surprise.

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They float from me.

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They float from me.

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And they float from me. So good.

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You did so good.

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You did so good.

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I made you some tea.

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I don't want any tea.

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What are we going to do?

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Lydia.

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I love you.

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I love you.

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And whatever you want to do.

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I'll support it. That's it?

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More than nothing from the

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most passive man on the fucking planet.

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Sorry.

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I've been kind of sick.

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You don't want anything.

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And you are killing me when

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you're not wanting anything.

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What were you thinking?

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I don't know.

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It's fucking impossible.

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I can't stand how nice he is.

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I can't stand how nice he is.

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But I couldn't have killed it either.

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I was thinking maybe there's

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a world in which I come and

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live with you and Eugene.

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And take some classes where

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you're teaching.

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And I don't know.

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Maybe we could start like a

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little family.

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Yes.

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Because I think my life with

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him is going to be like some stupid.

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Sad.

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Sad.

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Fucking. Country song.

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And I...

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Lydia.

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Lydia.

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I said yes. Come home.

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Okay.

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Cool.

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Because she left me once.

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To save her own life.

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What are you doing back there, huh?

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Playing with yourselves?

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What?

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I bring them to the most

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beautiful scenery in the world and...

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And they're just playing grab ass?

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Look out the goddamn window!

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Claudia.

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Grab the hacksaw from under

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your mother's seat. Come on!

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Let's go.

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Here you go, sweetheart.

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For sustenance.

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For sustenance.

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You don't want it?

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Come on, honey.

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Just have a little sip.

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It'll warm you up.

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Mmm.

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Mmm.

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Well, thank God.

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Where's the tree?

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That's the picture. Welcome home.

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Oh!

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Come on in.

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Shit.

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I'll get that.

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Why because I'm pregnant?

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Yeah.

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Here.

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Thank you, Claudia.

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Do you remember when you used

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to make me do things?

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Like...

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Here.

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Bite this apple.

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It's just sucking in my mouth.

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Here.

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Smell this ashtray.

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Just blow it.

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One.

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Two.

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Ashes all over my fucking face.

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I would've done anything.

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You were mythic to me.

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And I went downstairs after

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you moved into the basement.

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I don't know.

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I realized how smart that was

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then, but...

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I used to look at all of

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your stuff and used to touch it.

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One time I found a razor

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00:47:02,021 --> 00:47:04,380
blade in your purse, cut myself on it.

295
00:47:05,400 --> 00:47:07,260
I made the fact that I had to pee hurt.

296
00:47:24,970 --> 00:47:29,810
I know that this is a sacrifice.

297
00:47:32,430 --> 00:47:36,680
No, it's just you.

298
00:47:38,580 --> 00:47:40,460
You were so little.

299
00:47:57,330 --> 00:47:58,851
This is one way to

300
00:47:58,851 --> 00:48:00,870
Frankenstein your life.

301
00:48:10,480 --> 00:48:11,141
Maybe...

302
00:48:11,141 --> 00:48:13,840
I've been waiting for this.

303
00:48:40,390 --> 00:48:41,890
Brie.

304
00:49:36,030 --> 00:49:37,670
Where is she?

305
00:49:39,890 --> 00:49:42,310
Can I hold her? Uh, yeah.

306
00:50:15,620 --> 00:50:18,040
Her lips are pink. They're pink.

307
00:51:36,940 --> 00:51:42,030
Just throw it as far as you can.

308
00:52:06,970 --> 00:52:09,450
It's not funny. Get it?

309
00:54:31,950 --> 00:54:33,710
Sorry. It's me.

310
00:54:39,180 --> 00:54:41,160
God damn, girl.

311
00:54:41,680 --> 00:54:43,440
What are you, some kind of mermaid?

312
00:54:45,240 --> 00:54:46,740
Yup.

313
00:54:51,940 --> 00:54:54,280
You got something to say? No way.

314
00:54:58,640 --> 00:55:00,140
Come on!

315
00:55:01,080 --> 00:55:02,460
You deserve this.

316
00:55:02,460 --> 00:55:04,420
You don't want to come with me?

317
00:55:05,260 --> 00:55:06,260
This is crazy.

318
00:55:06,260 --> 00:55:07,660
I'm not even a grad student.

319
00:55:07,660 --> 00:55:08,681
I'm basically just trolling

320
00:55:08,681 --> 00:55:09,461
the English department.

321
00:55:09,461 --> 00:55:11,001
You think Keezy gives a rat's

322
00:55:11,001 --> 00:55:12,640
ass about UFO rules?

323
00:55:12,640 --> 00:55:14,780
You will regret not doing this.

324
00:55:14,780 --> 00:55:16,380
They won't even let me enroll.

325
00:55:17,100 --> 00:55:17,541
Bullshit.

326
00:55:17,541 --> 00:55:19,280
I already told them about you.

327
00:55:22,080 --> 00:55:23,580
These...

328
00:55:25,540 --> 00:55:27,360
He's gonna love you.

329
00:55:32,220 --> 00:55:33,461
You don't want to write a

330
00:55:33,461 --> 00:55:35,520
novel with Ken Keezy. Hey, everyone.

331
00:55:57,530 --> 00:55:59,110
Um, hey everybody.

332
00:55:59,110 --> 00:56:00,610
Hey.

333
00:56:03,760 --> 00:56:05,260
You're an idiot.

334
00:56:05,260 --> 00:56:06,060
Hi.

335
00:56:06,060 --> 00:56:08,260
Um, this is Lydia. Say hi.

336
00:56:13,410 --> 00:56:15,690
Hi. Well, hello.

337
00:56:15,790 --> 00:56:17,850
What do we have here?

338
00:56:17,910 --> 00:56:20,030
A triple-A tootsie?

339
00:56:44,540 --> 00:56:45,360
Jeff.

340
00:56:45,360 --> 00:56:45,540
Yes.

341
00:56:45,540 --> 00:56:46,880
You think you can roll one?

342
00:56:46,880 --> 00:56:48,401
I always hate sitting in a

343
00:56:48,401 --> 00:56:49,880
room full of writers.

344
00:56:49,880 --> 00:56:51,380
Sure.

345
00:56:59,840 --> 00:57:01,960
The chair will be fine.

346
00:57:03,230 --> 00:57:05,590
I want you all...

347
00:57:10,620 --> 00:57:12,860
I want you all to be winners.

348
00:57:13,780 --> 00:57:16,940
I want you to be warriors.

349
00:57:18,350 --> 00:57:19,650
Warriors.

350
00:57:19,650 --> 00:57:21,950
I'll give you the warrior test.

351
00:57:22,210 --> 00:57:25,850
Shit floats. Cream rises.

352
00:57:25,930 --> 00:57:29,050
Shit floats. Jerry Rubin.

353
00:57:39,300 --> 00:57:41,500
Cream rises. Ferling Getty.

354
00:57:44,300 --> 00:57:47,540
Lord Buckley. Lenny Bruce.

355
00:57:48,560 --> 00:57:50,060
The greats.

356
00:57:51,650 --> 00:57:53,790
I want you to be great.

357
00:57:56,160 --> 00:57:59,521
Shit, somebody has got to

358
00:57:59,521 --> 00:58:01,001
create our culture for the

359
00:58:01,001 --> 00:58:02,841
next 50 years and I want it to be you.

360
00:58:02,841 --> 00:58:04,700
All right, there are only two rules.

361
00:58:04,700 --> 00:58:07,941
One, do not talk the plot of

362
00:58:07,941 --> 00:58:11,180
our novel to anyone outside this class.

363
00:58:11,320 --> 00:58:15,040
Two, I comprise 50% of the class.

364
00:58:15,040 --> 00:58:17,921
So we only write together

365
00:58:17,921 --> 00:58:21,761
because we will publish or

366
00:58:21,761 --> 00:58:23,261
perish together.

367
00:58:29,220 --> 00:58:33,671
Nelson Augeron says the job

368
00:58:33,671 --> 00:58:36,731
of the writer is to pull the

369
00:58:36,731 --> 00:58:40,341
judge down onto the dock to

370
00:58:40,341 --> 00:58:43,441
make the almighty feel what

371
00:58:43,441 --> 00:58:45,720
it's like to be down low.

372
00:58:46,120 --> 00:58:48,040
It'll be all right.

373
00:58:49,220 --> 00:58:54,730
Grass never killed anybody. So, go.

374
00:58:55,930 --> 00:58:57,430
Right now.

375
00:58:58,190 --> 00:59:00,130
Write some bizarre sentences.

376
00:59:00,190 --> 00:59:00,610
Hey!

377
00:59:00,610 --> 00:59:02,550
Where are you?

378
00:59:03,230 --> 00:59:04,951
You can't take quaaludes

379
00:59:04,951 --> 00:59:06,451
before the class.

380
00:59:06,990 --> 00:59:09,210
Now disappear into your imagination.

381
00:59:09,210 --> 00:59:10,190
Come on!

382
00:59:10,190 --> 00:59:12,151
Disappear into your imagination.

383
00:59:12,151 --> 00:59:13,571
Nobody's in the room but you

384
00:59:13,571 --> 00:59:15,071
and that pen.

385
00:59:22,540 --> 00:59:24,040
Here you are.

386
00:59:24,040 --> 00:59:25,960
This is the shed.

387
00:59:30,880 --> 00:59:32,960
I wrote demon boxing here.

388
00:59:33,460 --> 00:59:35,980
This room here is a creative room here.

389
00:59:35,980 --> 00:59:38,480
It's a creative space. Hey, Bennett.

390
00:59:38,480 --> 00:59:39,801
You didn't even bring the

391
00:59:39,801 --> 00:59:40,740
ludes with you, did you?

392
00:59:40,740 --> 00:59:42,901
You know, those kind of drugs

393
00:59:42,901 --> 00:59:44,801
put you into your body, not

394
00:59:44,801 --> 00:59:46,301
into your mind.

395
00:59:46,620 --> 00:59:48,180
Stick with the acid,

396
00:59:48,180 --> 00:59:50,460
psilocybin, San Pedro.

397
00:59:51,000 --> 00:59:52,961
Something to disintegrate your

398
00:59:52,961 --> 00:59:55,760
ego so you can hear your inner voice.

399
00:59:57,060 --> 00:59:58,481
And you write from that voice.

400
00:59:58,481 --> 00:59:58,681
You know, 27-2199.

401
00:59:58,681 --> 00:59:58,821
Let me see you.

402
00:59:58,821 --> 01:00:00,321
hero!

403
01:00:02,450 --> 01:00:05,090
We want your voice to come through.

404
01:00:13,570 --> 01:00:15,590
It's supposed to happen.

405
01:00:16,710 --> 01:00:18,350
I got rustler's knees.

406
01:00:20,130 --> 01:00:22,971
All right, let's get outside

407
01:00:22,971 --> 01:00:24,670
before the sun sets.

408
01:00:24,910 --> 01:00:30,010
I want you to meet someone.

409
01:00:32,610 --> 01:00:34,210
Come on up.

410
01:00:34,550 --> 01:00:36,050
Fuck you, God.

411
01:00:37,460 --> 01:00:39,100
God got the commandments wrong.

412
01:00:39,100 --> 01:00:40,820
I think there's 11 commandments.

413
01:00:40,820 --> 01:00:42,400
And it should be the first commandment.

414
01:00:42,400 --> 01:00:43,900
Have mercy.

415
01:00:43,940 --> 01:00:46,040
Lord, have mercy.

416
01:00:46,140 --> 01:00:47,861
Just think, if everybody had

417
01:00:47,861 --> 01:00:48,941
mercy for each other,

418
01:00:48,941 --> 01:00:50,300
where we'd be today.

419
01:00:50,300 --> 01:00:51,780
You see a man in the street,

420
01:00:51,780 --> 01:00:52,561
needs a few dollars,

421
01:00:52,561 --> 01:00:54,020
give it to him. Give it to him.

422
01:00:54,020 --> 01:00:54,780
Have mercy.

423
01:00:54,780 --> 01:00:56,280
He needs it.

424
01:00:56,420 --> 01:00:58,041
He wouldn't ask for it if he

425
01:00:58,041 --> 01:00:59,541
didn't need it.

426
01:01:01,810 --> 01:01:07,280
Mercy, hire me to rewrite the Bible.

427
01:01:29,720 --> 01:01:31,660
Lord, are you some kind of mermaid?

428
01:01:40,820 --> 01:01:42,320
Yep.

429
01:01:54,530 --> 01:01:56,630
You know, when Jed died, my boy,

430
01:01:57,750 --> 01:02:00,110
I wanted to cease to exist.

431
01:02:08,380 --> 01:02:09,981
And everybody that talked to

432
01:02:09,981 --> 01:02:12,580
me said something asinine.

433
01:02:15,950 --> 01:02:17,870
Lord, he didn't say anything at all.

434
01:02:32,210 --> 01:02:34,710
He understands death anymore.

435
01:02:38,810 --> 01:02:42,390
We used to be sacred. So sacred.

436
01:02:50,190 --> 01:02:51,951
No one's big enough to hold

437
01:02:51,951 --> 01:02:53,451
what happens to us.

438
01:02:56,860 --> 01:02:58,900
No one is big enough.

439
01:03:08,320 --> 01:03:09,820
You got something to say?

440
01:03:18,110 --> 01:03:20,110
It's in your hands.

441
01:03:43,510 --> 01:03:45,491
Everything about my father was

442
01:03:45,491 --> 01:03:46,991
in his hands.

443
01:04:03,350 --> 01:04:05,970
Before my father was my father.

444
01:04:06,150 --> 01:04:07,950
He was an artist.

445
01:04:07,950 --> 01:04:09,470
And your daddy.

446
01:04:16,440 --> 01:04:18,440
Before my father was an artist.

447
01:04:19,130 --> 01:04:20,750
He was an athlete.

448
01:04:27,980 --> 01:04:29,480
He was beautiful.

449
01:04:30,040 --> 01:04:31,540
And she was.

450
01:04:32,130 --> 01:04:34,450
Before my father was my father.

451
01:04:34,910 --> 01:04:40,770
He was a boy whose own mother.

452
01:04:42,100 --> 01:04:43,600
His tongue.

453
01:04:48,880 --> 01:04:54,080
Before I hated him, I loved him.

454
01:04:59,900 --> 01:05:00,740
Look up.

455
01:05:00,740 --> 01:05:01,981
You know, if you don't look

456
01:05:01,981 --> 01:05:02,520
where you're going,

457
01:05:02,520 --> 01:05:03,180
you're going to crash.

458
01:05:03,180 --> 01:05:03,740
You hear me?

459
01:05:03,740 --> 01:05:04,880
And get to the bottom of the hill,

460
01:05:04,880 --> 01:05:06,840
you just break enough to make a turn.

461
01:05:14,560 --> 01:05:16,060
Okay? Keep going.

462
01:05:16,140 --> 01:05:17,900
Keep your head up.

463
01:05:43,880 --> 01:05:45,680
You done with that, chapter?

464
01:06:11,670 --> 01:06:13,170
Hey.

465
01:06:14,080 --> 01:06:15,580
Huh?

466
01:06:21,470 --> 01:06:23,710
I'm a writer. Thank you.

467
01:06:40,260 --> 01:06:41,240
Thank you.

468
01:06:41,240 --> 01:06:44,201
We are gathered because we

469
01:06:44,201 --> 01:06:45,720
want to see the results.

470
01:06:45,720 --> 01:06:47,201
We want to witness the

471
01:06:47,201 --> 01:06:50,820
results of this experiment.

472
01:06:50,820 --> 01:06:55,580
A collaborative novel written by us.

473
01:06:55,800 --> 01:06:58,701
Please, let's welcome the

474
01:06:58,701 --> 01:07:01,161
first of the not-so-merry pranksters

475
01:07:01,161 --> 01:07:06,440
to the stage to present Caverns.

476
01:07:06,660 --> 01:07:09,520
Lydia, come on up.

477
01:07:12,000 --> 01:07:14,080
We're going to kill it.

478
01:07:34,890 --> 01:07:36,390
Hello.

479
01:07:36,590 --> 01:07:37,031
Um...

480
01:07:37,031 --> 01:07:38,430
Behind my knee.

481
01:07:38,430 --> 01:07:39,830
There you go. You too.

482
01:07:39,830 --> 01:07:40,930
Thank you. We're coming.

483
01:07:40,930 --> 01:07:44,450
Back to my knees. Lydia's father.

484
01:07:45,170 --> 01:07:46,390
What can I say?

485
01:07:46,390 --> 01:07:48,470
I'm a great admirer of yours.

486
01:07:48,650 --> 01:07:49,510
Mike.

487
01:07:49,510 --> 01:07:51,990
Is that right? That's right.

488
01:07:52,430 --> 01:07:54,490
I'm glad you could make it.

489
01:07:55,190 --> 01:07:56,951
Lydia and I, we saw a

490
01:07:56,951 --> 01:07:59,091
cuckoo's nest and sometimes a

491
01:07:59,091 --> 01:07:59,990
great notion together,

492
01:07:59,990 --> 01:08:01,330
and it's just great.

493
01:08:01,330 --> 01:08:03,310
I mean, great books.

494
01:08:05,610 --> 01:08:08,110
You know, Mike, Lydia here,

495
01:08:11,790 --> 01:08:14,270
she can knock it out of the park.

496
01:08:18,240 --> 01:08:20,400
Do you want me to sign that?

497
01:08:23,900 --> 01:08:25,940
Thanks for coming, Dad.

498
01:08:35,130 --> 01:08:36,630
Mike.

499
01:08:42,050 --> 01:08:46,100
Please. Be brave.

500
01:09:04,350 --> 01:09:05,850
Yep.

501
01:09:25,700 --> 01:09:27,480
I've seen a lot of writers,

502
01:09:32,280 --> 01:09:33,780
and you got the stuff.

503
01:09:49,020 --> 01:09:50,181
It comes to the most

504
01:09:50,181 --> 01:09:53,260
spiritual beach on Earth. Hold that.

505
01:09:56,770 --> 01:09:58,730
You can hold it all.

506
01:10:01,460 --> 01:10:03,580
You're going to hold it all, girl.

507
01:10:10,580 --> 01:10:14,440
So, so what's next?

508
01:10:17,630 --> 01:10:18,151
Next.

509
01:10:18,151 --> 01:10:20,330
Next. What's next?

510
01:10:20,330 --> 01:10:21,830
Next.

511
01:10:29,470 --> 01:10:30,691
I'm going to write the sound

512
01:10:30,691 --> 01:10:32,191
and the fury.

513
01:10:42,970 --> 01:10:44,750
Of course you do.

514
01:10:53,430 --> 01:10:55,230
See if I can catch it.

515
01:10:55,230 --> 01:10:55,810
Ready?

516
01:10:55,810 --> 01:10:57,310
Yeah.

517
01:11:03,430 --> 01:11:05,710
I'm not writing on that going in.

518
01:11:09,010 --> 01:11:14,310
It has no metaphor. Fuck metaphor.

519
01:11:15,440 --> 01:11:15,760
Okay.

520
01:11:15,760 --> 01:11:17,700
It's just a rock that fell.

521
01:11:26,550 --> 01:11:28,110
I'm going to get the rock,

522
01:11:28,110 --> 01:11:30,370
and I'm going to go pee. All right.

523
01:11:30,710 --> 01:11:31,870
Oh, yeah.

524
01:11:31,870 --> 01:11:32,710
There we go.

525
01:11:32,710 --> 01:11:34,210
You got it.

526
01:11:37,700 --> 01:11:39,440
It's time I saw him.

527
01:11:40,140 --> 01:11:42,100
You can write, girl.

528
01:11:42,420 --> 01:11:45,440
I'm of the opinion that he drowned.

529
01:11:52,400 --> 01:11:56,140
Caddy wants to fuck. She's insatiable.

530
01:11:56,140 --> 01:11:58,301
And because her neighbor boy

531
01:11:58,301 --> 01:12:00,541
man has a giant pants bulge

532
01:12:00,541 --> 01:12:02,021
and a sound that comes out

533
01:12:02,021 --> 01:12:03,440
of him instead of language,

534
01:12:03,440 --> 01:12:05,021
she goes over to his house

535
01:12:05,021 --> 01:12:06,401
and she removes all of her

536
01:12:06,401 --> 01:12:09,300
clothes so he finally fucks her.

537
01:12:09,840 --> 01:12:11,800
And crushes her.

538
01:12:13,140 --> 01:12:13,881
And crushes her.

539
01:12:13,881 --> 01:12:16,201
He fucks her to death, and

540
01:12:16,201 --> 01:12:18,080
she loves it.

541
01:12:18,080 --> 01:12:19,641
And she laughs until she

542
01:12:19,641 --> 01:12:21,720
cries and an ambulance has to come.

543
01:12:21,720 --> 01:12:23,360
But it's too late.

544
01:12:24,090 --> 01:12:26,610
That is the sound and the fury.

545
01:12:28,040 --> 01:12:29,540
Try it.

546
01:12:29,960 --> 01:12:32,081
Look, I've reread the sound

547
01:12:32,081 --> 01:12:33,160
and the fury.

548
01:12:33,160 --> 01:12:34,901
Reworking Faulkner is some

549
01:12:34,901 --> 01:12:36,401
college shit.

550
01:12:40,450 --> 01:12:42,231
Maybe try something original.

551
01:12:42,231 --> 01:12:43,731
I don't know.

552
01:12:46,980 --> 01:12:48,640
I hate them.

553
01:12:48,940 --> 01:12:49,940
Hey.

554
01:12:49,940 --> 01:12:52,340
What the hell does he know?

555
01:12:52,640 --> 01:12:54,400
It is original.

556
01:12:54,400 --> 01:12:56,540
It's a fucking pastiche.

557
01:12:57,260 --> 01:12:58,740
Hey.

558
01:12:58,740 --> 01:12:59,800
Hey.

559
01:12:59,800 --> 01:13:01,500
You want to go to the coast?

560
01:13:01,500 --> 01:13:03,760
They got us a room. Hi, Hannah.

561
01:13:04,220 --> 01:13:04,961
We're actually going to work

562
01:13:04,961 --> 01:13:06,360
on these this weekend. All right.

563
01:13:06,360 --> 01:13:06,960
Come on.

564
01:13:06,960 --> 01:13:09,120
Sure flies on none. What's that?

565
01:13:17,100 --> 01:13:19,600
I fucking dare you. Come on.

566
01:13:23,610 --> 01:13:26,950
Anything. Any time.

567
01:13:27,660 --> 01:13:28,401
Any time.

568
01:13:28,401 --> 01:13:28,780
Anywhere.

569
01:13:28,780 --> 01:13:29,420
Anywhere.

570
01:13:29,420 --> 01:13:29,820
Anything.

571
01:13:29,820 --> 01:13:30,300
Any time.

572
01:13:30,300 --> 01:13:31,120
Please be careful.

573
01:13:31,120 --> 01:13:33,700
To feel absolutely nothing.

574
01:13:38,080 --> 01:13:40,180
And we got some firewood.

575
01:13:40,180 --> 01:13:42,340
Don't anything I wouldn't do.

576
01:14:05,120 --> 01:14:09,820
Is this like a fuck trip?

577
01:14:14,770 --> 01:14:16,270
What?

578
01:14:18,370 --> 01:14:20,790
I never, I never liked pussy.

579
01:18:00,000 --> 01:18:05,000
In water, like in books, you

580
01:18:07,540 --> 01:18:09,040
can leave your life.

581
01:18:34,260 --> 01:18:37,160
We're a happy childhood. We swim.

582
01:18:39,440 --> 01:18:40,420
We race.

583
01:18:40,420 --> 01:18:42,080
You went fast out, Tom.

584
01:18:42,200 --> 01:18:44,600
We laugh like other people's children.

585
01:18:54,550 --> 01:18:56,730
And the first and last name is like.

586
01:18:56,730 --> 01:18:58,110
He goes and cramies.

587
01:18:58,110 --> 01:18:59,870
And win, goela, bell.

588
01:18:59,950 --> 01:19:01,331
Win, goela, bell.

589
01:19:01,331 --> 01:19:02,831
Win, goela, bell. Win, goela.

590
01:19:06,480 --> 01:19:08,860
Making song loops in my skull.

591
01:19:33,990 --> 01:19:34,431
Mono.

592
01:19:34,431 --> 01:19:35,931
Mono?

593
01:19:36,540 --> 01:19:38,080
Isn't that the kissing disease?

594
01:19:42,560 --> 01:19:44,100
Don't be silly.

595
01:19:46,390 --> 01:19:48,770
Everything's gonna be okay, bell.

596
01:19:48,770 --> 01:19:49,690
You'll see.

597
01:19:49,690 --> 01:19:51,190
You're gonna feel better.

598
01:19:54,180 --> 01:19:55,641
And your dad's gonna take

599
01:19:55,641 --> 01:19:57,680
real good care of you. Aren't ya?

600
01:20:00,240 --> 01:20:01,060
We'll be alright.

601
01:20:01,060 --> 01:20:01,440
Okay.

602
01:20:01,440 --> 01:20:03,260
Mama's gonna go sell some houses.

603
01:20:15,430 --> 01:20:17,450
Can you just give it a cup?

604
01:20:24,560 --> 01:20:26,641
It is language letting me say

605
01:20:26,641 --> 01:20:30,160
how four weeks can be years.

606
01:20:31,990 --> 01:20:35,871
It is the yielding expanse of

607
01:20:35,871 --> 01:20:37,970
a white page.

608
01:21:16,150 --> 01:21:18,530
Have you shown these to anyone?

609
01:21:21,450 --> 01:21:22,950
No.

610
01:21:38,780 --> 01:21:40,280
Work is so dark.

611
01:21:42,410 --> 01:21:45,410
What do you know about pain, Lydia?

612
01:21:50,290 --> 01:21:56,360
Um, I know that it matters to me.

613
01:21:58,260 --> 01:22:00,300
I'm gonna take care of you.

614
01:22:04,520 --> 01:22:06,060
Do you understand?

615
01:22:11,510 --> 01:22:13,990
No, ask me for what you want.

616
01:22:21,330 --> 01:22:23,450
That's not right, Angel.

617
01:22:29,720 --> 01:22:40,410
I want you to knock it out of me.

618
01:22:46,640 --> 01:22:48,140
To whip me.

619
01:22:49,620 --> 01:22:53,480
Where would you like to be with, Angel?

620
01:22:57,700 --> 01:22:59,200
Everywhere.

621
01:23:04,620 --> 01:23:06,120
Take it somewhere.

622
01:23:18,280 --> 01:23:19,780
Mom.

623
01:23:53,140 --> 01:23:55,380
I'm trying to be precise.

624
01:24:05,310 --> 01:24:06,271
At the moment my mother was

625
01:24:06,271 --> 01:24:07,930
whining, Daddy was smelling my cunt.

626
01:24:07,930 --> 01:24:08,871
I've reached my best moment

627
01:24:08,871 --> 01:24:09,671
now, he explained.

628
01:24:09,671 --> 01:24:11,091
Now I was sure what he was

629
01:24:11,091 --> 01:24:11,850
referring to.

630
01:24:11,850 --> 01:24:13,310
This is the moment of truth.

631
01:24:13,310 --> 01:24:14,750
I'm going off, off, off,

632
01:24:14,750 --> 01:24:15,590
jacking it off.

633
01:24:15,590 --> 01:24:16,651
My hands are gonna be broken

634
01:24:16,651 --> 01:24:17,390
from this one.

635
01:24:17,390 --> 01:24:18,790
I don't even recognize my own body.

636
01:24:18,790 --> 01:24:19,630
It doesn't matter.

637
01:24:19,630 --> 01:24:20,510
I know you're mine.

638
01:24:20,510 --> 01:24:21,250
I made you.

639
01:24:21,250 --> 01:24:22,070
I'm making you.

640
01:24:22,070 --> 01:24:23,410
I swore I'd live for pleasure.

641
01:24:23,410 --> 01:24:25,510
My tongue is fucking enormous. Feel it.

642
01:24:25,510 --> 01:24:26,411
It's reaching down to my waist.

643
01:24:26,411 --> 01:24:27,591
You're seeing your actual

644
01:24:27,591 --> 01:24:29,550
father in his moment of truth.

645
01:24:29,550 --> 01:24:31,070
God Almighty. Nothing matters.

646
01:24:31,070 --> 01:24:32,770
You're my God. My daughter.

647
01:24:32,770 --> 01:24:33,770
I worship you.

648
01:24:33,770 --> 01:24:34,571
I beg you to do it.

649
01:24:34,571 --> 01:24:35,470
So I can please you.

650
01:24:35,470 --> 01:24:36,110
Now look at it.

651
01:24:36,110 --> 01:24:37,950
It's big in my corkscrewing hand.

652
01:24:37,950 --> 01:24:38,471
Kiss it.

653
01:24:38,471 --> 01:24:40,190
My father explained again.

654
01:24:40,190 --> 01:24:41,250
I am fucking God.

655
01:24:41,250 --> 01:24:43,090
And I made God. Holy shit.

656
01:24:43,090 --> 01:24:44,270
All I have to do is look at God.

657
01:24:44,270 --> 01:24:44,990
And God is happy.

658
01:24:44,990 --> 01:24:45,931
Because I've made God come.

659
01:24:45,931 --> 01:24:47,130
God is in heaven.

660
01:24:47,130 --> 01:24:47,830
I'm in heaven.

661
01:24:47,830 --> 01:24:48,831
And I've died the whole world

662
01:24:48,831 --> 01:24:49,330
in heaven.

663
01:24:49,330 --> 01:24:50,830
I'm coming all over your face.

664
01:24:50,830 --> 01:24:51,931
I licked up his sperm.

665
01:24:51,931 --> 01:24:53,431
It's just making me sick.

666
01:25:13,120 --> 01:25:15,080
Who do you think you are?

667
01:25:17,520 --> 01:25:19,800
My father's daughter. You're one.

668
01:26:04,520 --> 01:26:06,020
Vodka!

669
01:26:09,190 --> 01:26:11,190
Mostly all the time.

670
01:26:13,390 --> 01:26:15,630
I feel nothing about myself.

671
01:26:22,120 --> 01:26:23,980
I make fuck body pain shadows.

672
01:26:54,610 --> 01:26:56,110
Septic.

673
01:27:14,850 --> 01:27:15,930
To escape to year six.

674
01:27:15,930 --> 01:27:19,031
when underwater stories start

675
01:27:19,031 --> 01:27:21,551
itching and yelling begins a

676
01:27:21,551 --> 01:27:23,031
rhythm where drinking gets louder and

677
01:27:23,031 --> 01:27:24,551
go back to kissing women i

678
01:27:24,551 --> 01:27:25,811
know and kissing women i

679
01:27:25,811 --> 01:27:26,951
don't know and what is a

680
01:27:26,951 --> 01:27:28,191
couple over time but a

681
01:27:28,191 --> 01:27:29,471
line i'll show you a fucking

682
01:27:29,471 --> 01:27:31,011
line your fucking bullshit is

683
01:27:31,011 --> 01:27:33,431
taking over the house it was taking

684
01:27:33,431 --> 01:27:36,750
over the house i didn't want

685
01:28:17,081 --> 01:28:21,890
a drink i wanted to write

686
01:28:36,940 --> 01:28:39,880
you're seven i finished my dissertation

687
01:28:46,030 --> 01:28:48,430
you're eight i get a phd

688
01:29:04,210 --> 01:29:09,160
you're ten you pretend you

689
01:29:13,300 --> 01:29:18,861
said that you would love me

690
01:29:18,861 --> 01:29:20,840
until i died you said

691
01:29:25,071 --> 01:29:27,470
we would die together in love

692
01:29:47,130 --> 01:29:56,860
where are you there is the

693
01:30:12,650 --> 01:30:15,470
man who would love a woman like me

694
01:33:01,720 --> 01:33:07,330
the data shivering arms little

695
01:34:56,101 --> 01:34:58,501
tragedies are difficult to

696
01:34:58,501 --> 01:35:01,520
keep straight chronology convinces

697
01:35:05,921 --> 01:35:07,321
us we are moving toward a

698
01:35:07,321 --> 01:35:09,341
real place swimmers to your

699
01:35:09,341 --> 01:35:14,341
marks gunshot a gunshot

700
01:35:14,341 --> 01:35:16,300
released our tense flesh

701
01:35:17,080 --> 01:35:18,801
fathers were often

702
01:35:18,801 --> 01:35:20,621
uncontainable while the little

703
01:35:20,621 --> 01:35:22,720
women swam for their lives

704
01:35:24,750 --> 01:35:30,530
swim hurry harder faster

705
01:35:36,840 --> 01:35:40,021
a cacophony of men swelling

706
01:35:40,021 --> 01:35:42,901
and pressing down on the wet

707
01:35:42,901 --> 01:35:47,511
motion how many times did i

708
01:35:47,511 --> 01:35:48,511
slip into the

709
01:35:48,511 --> 01:35:51,110
chlorinated depths secretly

710
01:35:51,410 --> 01:35:54,671
hoping to shed this useless

711
01:35:54,671 --> 01:35:59,350
skin and emerge something amphibious

712
01:36:06,010 --> 01:36:09,250
about gender and waiting to

713
01:36:27,341 --> 01:36:30,160
see what comes out it's

714
01:36:32,860 --> 01:36:38,320
creepy and idiotic starting to

715
01:36:40,181 --> 01:36:41,861
piss me off

716
01:36:41,861 --> 01:36:44,281
that i have to even think

717
01:36:44,281 --> 01:36:48,640
that hole what i am saying

718
01:36:53,290 --> 01:36:54,771
there is a woman in a room

719
01:36:54,771 --> 01:36:58,130
who is tired of looking down

720
01:37:02,740 --> 01:37:06,660
bleeding bearing and it of

721
01:37:11,121 --> 01:37:14,581
remaining open with no hope

722
01:37:14,581 --> 01:37:18,160
of suturing herself up it

723
01:37:28,021 --> 01:37:31,120
isn't that i want it gone it's that

724
01:37:37,320 --> 01:37:42,620
wanting to come from somewhere

725
01:37:51,620 --> 01:37:54,360
near the surface with grateful

726
01:37:55,470 --> 01:37:57,891
remind me why we're here i

727
01:37:57,891 --> 01:38:00,051
thought this was your idea i

728
01:38:00,051 --> 01:38:01,551
came here with you

729
01:38:06,050 --> 01:38:07,550
delusion

730
01:38:09,450 --> 01:38:13,490
women are idiots she begged i

731
01:38:23,450 --> 01:38:24,950
changed my name

732
01:39:03,950 --> 01:39:09,620
kill or suck the killing back

733
01:39:13,850 --> 01:39:19,870
pump it into the story of someone else

734
01:39:22,690 --> 01:39:24,971
my father lost his memory

735
01:39:24,971 --> 01:39:28,650
from hypoxia that day i did

736
01:39:32,211 --> 01:39:36,361
not kill him did not save

737
01:39:36,361 --> 01:39:40,510
him i am learning

738
01:39:41,030 --> 01:39:42,910
to live on land

739
01:39:51,300 --> 01:39:53,080
go back

740
01:40:07,490 --> 01:40:09,751
but have your parents read

741
01:40:09,751 --> 01:40:11,470
this story and what do they think

742
01:40:11,950 --> 01:40:12,971
join new york

743
01:40:12,971 --> 01:40:14,990
you're gonna get an e-job

744
01:40:18,100 --> 01:40:19,741
oh yeah it's so nice to meet

745
01:40:19,741 --> 01:40:21,420
you thank you for being here

746
01:40:21,700 --> 01:40:23,200
excuse me

747
01:40:23,830 --> 01:40:26,030
do you have anything um

748
01:40:29,830 --> 01:40:31,330
thanks

749
01:40:35,830 --> 01:40:36,871
carol hoax smith

750
01:40:36,871 --> 01:40:38,371
norton publishing

751
01:40:39,730 --> 01:40:41,251
it's pretty impressive what

752
01:40:41,251 --> 01:40:41,831
you did up there

753
01:40:41,831 --> 01:40:44,830
thank you

754
01:40:45,690 --> 01:40:49,230
no really it didn't look easy

755
01:40:49,230 --> 01:40:52,541
tell me is there any more

756
01:40:52,541 --> 01:40:53,241
where that came from

757
01:40:53,241 --> 01:40:55,440
something in a little while

758
01:40:59,200 --> 01:41:01,240
you should send me something

759
01:41:05,960 --> 01:41:09,440
it's just that something in

760
01:41:11,811 --> 01:41:16,350
me had been born still

761
01:41:49,000 --> 01:41:51,660
it's a small stem we carry

762
01:41:55,830 --> 01:41:58,290
shame of wanting something good

763
01:45:23,040 --> 01:45:24,540
hi

764
01:45:27,690 --> 01:45:29,410
chop and block

765
01:45:29,630 --> 01:45:30,990
peer review

766
01:45:30,990 --> 01:45:32,890
who wants to go first

767
01:45:34,640 --> 01:45:36,140
really helpful

768
01:45:36,160 --> 01:45:39,080
you know you can't look the wrong line

769
01:45:40,100 --> 01:45:41,761
your one is just as important

770
01:45:41,761 --> 01:45:42,301
as your own

771
01:45:42,301 --> 01:45:42,840
you have to

772
01:45:42,840 --> 01:45:43,961
it has to hurt

773
01:45:43,961 --> 01:45:45,800
but i'm excited for you

774
01:46:42,220 --> 01:46:44,881
something small and specific

775
01:46:44,881 --> 01:46:45,761
caught my eye

776
01:46:45,761 --> 01:46:47,800
an important detail

777
01:46:48,060 --> 01:46:48,981
a bruise

778
01:46:48,981 --> 01:46:50,381
on the bridge of her nose

779
01:46:50,381 --> 01:46:52,261
letting me know that her eyes were blue

780
01:46:52,261 --> 01:46:52,861
like mine

781
01:46:52,861 --> 01:46:54,361
hey

782
01:46:59,640 --> 01:47:02,100
i pay her pimp a hundred dollars

783
01:47:02,100 --> 01:47:03,740
i ask her in

784
01:47:03,840 --> 01:47:05,680
i tell her to sit down

785
01:47:09,360 --> 01:47:11,241
in the story i say

786
01:47:11,241 --> 01:47:13,760
this is what it feels like to be me

787
01:47:13,760 --> 01:47:17,160
a woman who teaches english

788
01:47:17,740 --> 01:47:19,461
looking down at a woman who

789
01:47:19,461 --> 01:47:20,981
sucks dicks all day

790
01:47:20,981 --> 01:47:22,980
she sits on my couch

791
01:47:23,660 --> 01:47:25,160
smoking

792
01:47:26,580 --> 01:47:27,580
look at her

793
01:47:27,580 --> 01:47:30,060
i think she looks like mary

794
01:47:51,450 --> 01:47:52,811
in the story

795
01:47:52,811 --> 01:47:54,730
in the story i say

796
01:47:56,390 --> 01:47:58,510
what am i gonna do

797
01:47:59,000 --> 01:48:00,620
teacher

798
01:48:03,030 --> 01:48:04,811
this is what me

799
01:48:04,811 --> 01:48:05,831
an addict

800
01:48:05,831 --> 01:48:07,350
upwardly mobile

801
01:48:07,350 --> 01:48:08,911
given something as

802
01:48:08,911 --> 01:48:11,031
infinitesimally small as words

803
01:48:11,031 --> 01:48:11,791
to believe in

804
01:48:11,791 --> 01:48:13,291
thinks

805
01:48:13,310 --> 01:48:15,130
i'm looking at her

806
01:48:19,580 --> 01:48:21,740
offer words

807
01:48:34,650 --> 01:48:37,010
people say to me all the time

808
01:48:37,010 --> 01:48:40,501
did the things in your short stories

809
01:48:40,501 --> 01:48:42,180
actually happen

810
01:48:44,780 --> 01:48:46,181
isn't that the

811
01:48:46,181 --> 01:48:48,750
the question

812
01:48:48,750 --> 01:48:51,970
when it comes to life

813
01:48:57,090 --> 01:48:59,890
did this really happen to me

814
01:49:07,740 --> 01:49:09,020
andy

815
01:49:09,020 --> 01:49:12,510
i don't know

816
01:49:19,910 --> 01:49:21,911
the things that happened to us

817
01:49:21,911 --> 01:49:23,411
are true

818
01:49:25,310 --> 01:49:27,030
but writing

819
01:49:27,450 --> 01:49:30,030
is a whole other body

820
01:49:30,710 --> 01:49:32,611
i was hoping we could discuss

821
01:49:32,611 --> 01:49:34,111
my manuscript

822
01:49:34,810 --> 01:49:35,251
oh

823
01:49:35,251 --> 01:49:36,751
of course

824
01:49:36,790 --> 01:49:38,290
yeah

825
01:49:39,850 --> 01:49:42,110
i also want to loan you my car

826
01:49:45,720 --> 01:49:47,441
saw you were taking the bus

827
01:49:47,441 --> 01:49:48,850
and

828
01:49:48,850 --> 01:49:51,070
i happen to have two cars

829
01:50:05,320 --> 01:50:06,820
hey

830
01:50:28,740 --> 01:50:30,841
you can tell a lot about a person

831
01:50:30,841 --> 01:50:32,341
from seeing them in the water

832
01:50:34,240 --> 01:50:35,740
thank you

833
01:50:38,720 --> 01:50:39,500
for what

834
01:50:39,500 --> 01:50:41,680
it's about if you swim with me

835
01:50:41,860 --> 01:50:43,601
i read a couple of your stories

836
01:50:43,601 --> 01:50:45,840
i know that swimming is a good deal

837
01:50:46,880 --> 01:50:48,761
i always let my students choose to run

838
01:50:48,761 --> 01:50:51,281
you know i wanted to say

839
01:50:51,281 --> 01:50:53,300
i've seen you a couple times before

840
01:50:53,480 --> 01:50:55,521
yeah i read about ken kesey

841
01:50:55,521 --> 01:50:56,641
teaching at u of o when i

842
01:50:56,641 --> 01:50:58,161
was abroad and i applied to

843
01:50:58,161 --> 01:51:00,360
the program but it already happened

844
01:51:01,080 --> 01:51:02,501
no shit this is funny

845
01:51:02,501 --> 01:51:04,040
yeah i know

846
01:51:04,040 --> 01:51:05,321
and then i've seen you

847
01:51:05,321 --> 01:51:06,781
stomping around the creative

848
01:51:06,781 --> 01:51:08,281
writing department

849
01:51:09,330 --> 01:51:11,830
i was in the reading you gave a girlie

850
01:51:18,260 --> 01:51:20,240
oh that's weird

851
01:51:20,800 --> 01:51:22,300
weird

852
01:51:24,790 --> 01:51:26,771
it was a weird day for me

853
01:51:26,771 --> 01:51:28,430
why

854
01:51:38,780 --> 01:51:40,341
my father

855
01:51:40,341 --> 01:51:42,060
was

856
01:51:44,020 --> 01:51:44,561
my

857
01:51:44,561 --> 01:51:47,100
my father

858
01:51:50,050 --> 01:51:51,810
your father

859
01:51:53,610 --> 01:51:55,830
was abusive

860
01:51:58,010 --> 01:51:59,950
your father

861
01:52:02,360 --> 01:52:04,180
how's it

862
01:52:05,990 --> 01:52:07,251
sexual

863
01:52:07,251 --> 01:52:08,731
well

864
01:52:08,731 --> 01:52:12,540
it sucks

865
01:52:21,460 --> 01:52:23,341
i hope something karmically

866
01:52:23,341 --> 01:52:24,381
fucked happened to him

867
01:52:24,381 --> 01:52:25,940
yeah

868
01:52:30,140 --> 01:52:31,521
kind of actually

869
01:52:31,521 --> 01:52:33,021
it did

870
01:52:33,040 --> 01:52:34,501
excellent

871
01:52:34,501 --> 01:52:36,001
wow

872
01:52:41,800 --> 01:52:45,411
it was a long time ago i

873
01:52:45,411 --> 01:52:47,190
was a totally different person then

874
01:52:48,570 --> 01:52:50,410
so who are you now

875
01:52:52,750 --> 01:52:54,310
i'm your teacher

876
01:53:00,560 --> 01:53:03,080
i'm teaching you how to take my car

877
01:53:27,120 --> 01:53:28,781
i don't quite know how to

878
01:53:28,781 --> 01:53:30,600
tell you what it feels like

879
01:53:33,780 --> 01:53:35,561
watching the little woman swim

880
01:53:35,561 --> 01:53:37,061
for her life

881
01:53:39,190 --> 01:53:40,950
i mean

882
01:54:02,460 --> 01:54:05,320
are you fucking insane

883
01:54:32,680 --> 01:54:35,020
i can see the mother in you

884
01:54:44,010 --> 01:54:45,851
there's more to your story

885
01:54:45,851 --> 01:54:47,351
than you think

886
01:55:57,590 --> 01:55:58,971
thank you

887
01:55:58,971 --> 01:56:00,471
thanks

888
01:56:48,920 --> 01:56:49,081
sir

889
01:56:49,081 --> 01:56:50,581
what

890
01:57:11,710 --> 01:57:13,570
out the room

891
01:57:13,710 --> 01:57:15,631
they said it would be ready tomorrow

892
01:57:15,631 --> 01:57:17,131
sure

893
01:57:20,570 --> 01:57:21,771
i must

894
01:57:21,771 --> 01:57:24,090
be weird right

895
01:57:59,330 --> 01:58:00,691
hi dad

896
01:58:00,691 --> 01:58:02,191
hello

897
01:58:03,050 --> 01:58:05,250
no it's me it's lydia

898
01:58:05,690 --> 01:58:07,410
i know that kiddo

899
01:58:18,300 --> 01:58:20,280
i read that book

900
01:58:20,740 --> 01:58:22,240
oh yeah

901
01:58:23,880 --> 01:58:25,960
do you know who wrote it

902
01:58:26,460 --> 01:58:27,960
um

903
01:58:30,360 --> 01:58:31,860
you

904
01:58:32,430 --> 01:58:33,930
that's right

905
01:58:36,870 --> 01:58:38,751
did you read all of the stories

906
01:58:38,751 --> 01:58:39,911
i uh

907
01:58:39,911 --> 01:58:43,690
there was one about swimming

908
01:58:49,620 --> 01:58:50,381
thank you

909
01:58:50,381 --> 01:58:51,881
thank you

910
01:58:52,980 --> 01:58:55,280
or a flattering of me though

911
01:58:58,340 --> 01:58:59,840
that's fair enough

912
01:59:10,610 --> 01:59:12,850
prize for that story

913
01:59:13,690 --> 01:59:15,930
i got to go to new york

914
01:59:36,290 --> 01:59:37,791
there's a real home

915
01:59:37,791 --> 01:59:39,291
you have here

916
01:59:46,300 --> 01:59:47,360
don't you

917
01:59:47,360 --> 01:59:51,431
the safest memories are locked

918
01:59:51,431 --> 01:59:52,591
away in the brains of people

919
01:59:52,591 --> 01:59:53,351
who can't remember

920
01:59:53,351 --> 01:59:54,850
oh

921
01:59:54,850 --> 01:59:55,331
oh

922
01:59:55,331 --> 01:59:55,671
get her mine

923
01:59:55,671 --> 01:59:57,171
get her mine

924
01:59:57,190 --> 01:59:58,171
no i don't

925
01:59:58,171 --> 01:59:59,671
get her

926
02:00:03,080 --> 02:00:05,340
Underwater, forever.

927
02:00:07,280 --> 02:00:09,660
They ain't gonna count. I'm swimming.

928
02:00:28,160 --> 02:00:31,500
Nose and ears and into my brain.

929
02:00:32,860 --> 02:00:34,960
Uh, Miles?

930
02:00:37,430 --> 02:00:40,191
How many times have you seen

931
02:00:40,191 --> 02:00:43,330
mums swimming and swimming laps?

932
02:00:45,160 --> 02:00:46,760
Lots of times, right?

933
02:00:46,840 --> 02:00:51,071
Have you ever noticed that

934
02:00:51,071 --> 02:00:54,110
I've never got water in my brain?

935
02:00:56,760 --> 02:00:59,300
Water's never gone in in my brain.

936
02:00:59,300 --> 02:01:02,380
You wanna see? Watch this.

937
02:01:02,380 --> 02:01:03,881
Tell me how much water goes

938
02:01:03,881 --> 02:01:05,381
in my brain, okay?

939
02:01:15,680 --> 02:01:17,180
See?

940
02:01:18,720 --> 02:01:20,040
Okay, pull.

941
02:01:20,040 --> 02:01:22,940
I have a very important game.

942
02:01:22,940 --> 02:01:28,100
I'm gonna put my whole head underwater.

943
02:01:28,660 --> 02:01:29,600
Okay.

944
02:01:29,600 --> 02:01:32,920
And we look at each other underwater.

945
02:01:34,800 --> 02:01:36,080
What game is this?

946
02:01:36,080 --> 02:01:37,580
I made it up.

947
02:01:49,510 --> 02:01:54,700
The key is, make up shit.

948
02:02:03,820 --> 02:02:05,821
I'm not speaking out of my

949
02:02:05,821 --> 02:02:08,560
asshole when I say this. Come in.

950
02:02:13,520 --> 02:02:15,181
The water will hold you.

951
02:02:15,181 --> 02:02:15,201
It will針 on a nearly 80

952
02:02:15,201 --> 02:02:15,241
seconds, so I thank you.

953
02:02:15,241 --> 02:02:15,321
Yeah, it works.

954
02:02:15,321 --> 02:02:15,341
If you are closer to an

955
02:02:15,341 --> 02:02:16,841
hour, do I remember? Thank you.

955
02:02:17,305 --> 02:03:17,660
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