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How's she doing?

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Not too good.

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Been in bed almost a week now.

4
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I suppose if it's her time,
then it's her time.

5
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The Lord takes who he wants.

6
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Sure does.

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- Maggie, I'll take that upstairs.
- No. I don't mind.

8
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I said I'd take it.

9
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Very good, sir.

10
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How is your head?

11
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Aching. It's like thunder.

12
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Well, I've ordered the whole house silent.

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Here.

14
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Please try to eat.

15
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There you go.

16
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So, Dr. Brewster will be here
by the early afternoon.

17
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I don't think that's necessary.

18
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You're all peaked and ashen.

19
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I'm not taking any chances.

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Get some sleep.

21
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Damn.

22
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Mrs. Boltwood's cousin
just passed from yellow fever.

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It's going around.

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Emily doesn't have yellow fever.
She has a headache.

25
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Don't get yourself all worked up
until the doctor's had a look at her.

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Good. He's here.

27
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Who's here?

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The doctor isn't expected
until this afternoon.

29
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It's not the doctor.

30
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It's the portrait painter,
Thomas Elliot Moody.

31
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I'm sitting for him today.

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A painter? Heavens.

33
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Send him away.

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Mother, no!

35
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Do you know how long I've waited
to get a session with him?

36
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He's already done
all of the girls in Amherst.

37
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He just finished
Jane Humphrey's portrait last week.

38
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He makes everyone look so beautiful.
I have to sit for him.

39
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He can return another day.

40
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- Wha...
- When Emily's health has improved.

41
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There won't be another day.
He sails to Europe next week.

42
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Your vanity astonishes me, Lavinia.

43
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Thank you.

44
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Your sister is ill.

45
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Which means
there are extra chores to be done

46
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- and you'll need to tend to her.
- That is not fair.

47
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It's always about Emily.

48
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You want me to tend to her
so I can get sick too

49
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and die without ever having
a beautiful portrait painted of me?

50
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It'll be like I never even existed at all.

51
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Should I let him in?

52
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He's got a very assertive knock.

53
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I shall leave that decision
to your conscience.

54
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Okay, so...

55
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I'll do it.

56
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Consarn it.

57
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Need some help?

58
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Who are you?

59
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My name's Ben.

60
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Where did you come from?

61
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Worcester.

62
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That's not what you were asking.

63
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Sorry, I didn't mean to startle you.

64
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I'm Benjamin Newton,
your father's new law clerk.

65
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And I'm helping him out
until the election. And if he wins...

66
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keeping up his office here.

67
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You must be one of his daughters. Lavinia?

68
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Emily.

69
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Your father said you've been sick.

70
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Right.

71
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I just needed a book.

72
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From up there?

73
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Yeah.

74
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That's my shelf.

75
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I'd think that your shelf
would be a bit lower.

76
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Or in your own room.

77
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My father buys me books,
then begs me not to read them.

78
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He fears they joggle the mind.

79
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Bit of a mixed message.

80
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Let me grab it for you.

81
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It's that one right there. The green one.

82
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Emerson.

83
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Cool.

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"In the long sunny afternoon
The plain was full of ghosts

85
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I wandered up, I wandered down..."

86
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"Beset by pensive hosts"

87
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Dirge. I love that one.

88
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It's spooky, right?

89
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Most people quote love poems.

90
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Nah, I prefer a dirge.
It's like a different kind of love poem.

91
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Yeah.

92
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So, you read a lot of poetry?

93
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As much as I can.

94
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But a lot of what's called poetry
isn't really poetry, you know?

95
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What do you mean?

96
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See...

97
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if I read a book

98
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and it makes my whole body so cold
no fire can warm me...

99
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then I know that is poetry.

100
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If I feel physically
as if the top of my head were taken off,

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I know that is poetry.
These are the only ways I know it.

102
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Is there any other way?

103
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Well...

104
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here you go.

105
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Thanks.

106
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So, is your wife here in Amherst too

107
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or will you travel back to Worcester
to see her?

108
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Yes.

109
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Either way.

110
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Well, I should get back to bed.

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I'm not sick.

112
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Okay.

113
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I'm just pretending.

114
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Why would you pretend to be sick?

115
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So I can write.

116
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I'm a writer.

117
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Actually...

118
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I'm a poet.

119
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I had a feeling.

120
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Maybe you'll let me read
one of your poems some time.

121
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Would you like to?

122
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Only if it takes the top of my head off.

123
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Please don't tell my dad, okay?

124
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About me not being sick.

125
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Solemn oath.

126
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Oh, shit. That's the doctor.

127
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- Can you get upstairs without...
- I'm invisible.

128
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Do I look pretty?

129
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Please...

130
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remain still.

131
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Will you make sure to make me look pwump?

132
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Excuse me? I can't understand you.

133
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Pwump.

134
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What are you trying to say?

135
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Plump. I wanna look plump.

136
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It's fashionable, you know,
no one wants to look skinny.

137
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I will paint...

138
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the truth.

139
00:10:03,478 --> 00:10:04,478
The truth?

140
00:10:08,150 --> 00:10:09,650
And how is your stool?

141
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Fine. Thank you.

142
00:10:14,448 --> 00:10:15,488
How's yours?

143
00:10:15,574 --> 00:10:16,664
And your vision?

144
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Any spots? Or strange hallucinations?

145
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Not any more than usual.

146
00:10:23,790 --> 00:10:25,040
Do you often hallucinate?

147
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No. Just, sometimes I see...

148
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See what?

149
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Death.

150
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It was not Death, for I stood up

151
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And all the Dead, lie down

152
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- That's good. I got to write that down.
- Just lie down.

153
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Just lie down, my dear.

154
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Try to rest.

155
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There's never an easy way to put this.

156
00:11:06,625 --> 00:11:08,375
Your daughter is going to die.

157
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No.

158
00:11:11,171 --> 00:11:12,671
God, no.

159
00:11:12,756 --> 00:11:14,166
Her symptoms are spotty.

160
00:11:14,258 --> 00:11:16,838
But as there've been more than
100 reported cases

161
00:11:16,927 --> 00:11:19,097
of yellow fever within a mile of Amherst,

162
00:11:19,179 --> 00:11:21,469
I'm quite comfortable
making that diagnosis.

163
00:11:21,557 --> 00:11:23,637
I knew it. Mrs. Boltwood's cousin.

164
00:11:25,853 --> 00:11:27,863
- "Tell all..."
- Tell all the truth

165
00:11:27,938 --> 00:11:28,978
"The truth..."

166
00:11:29,982 --> 00:11:31,072
But tell it slant -

167
00:11:51,170 --> 00:11:52,939
Dammit,
isn't there something you can give her?

168
00:11:52,963 --> 00:11:54,923
Some medicine, some balm, something?

169
00:11:55,007 --> 00:11:56,087
What about leeches?

170
00:11:56,175 --> 00:11:58,295
I hear those have been effective
in many cases.

171
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They really haven't.

172
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Dear God.

173
00:12:02,973 --> 00:12:04,853
I'm terribly sorry, Mr. Dickinson.

174
00:12:05,601 --> 00:12:07,061
My examination makes clear

175
00:12:07,144 --> 00:12:09,484
the disease
has already advanced to her brain.

176
00:12:10,272 --> 00:12:12,322
There's nothing more
that any of us can do.

177
00:12:15,152 --> 00:12:16,822
Can't we just try...

178
00:12:18,113 --> 00:12:19,113
the leeches?

179
00:12:32,085 --> 00:12:33,085
Emily.

180
00:12:46,099 --> 00:12:47,849
Does that feel good, my darling?

181
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Thank you, Mother.

182
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My poor child.

183
00:12:51,813 --> 00:12:53,273
This is all my fault.

184
00:12:53,690 --> 00:12:55,230
No. No, it isn't.

185
00:12:55,317 --> 00:12:57,987
Yes.
This all comes from my side of the family.

186
00:12:58,070 --> 00:13:00,570
I'm afraid you got
the Norcross constitution.

187
00:13:01,114 --> 00:13:03,164
Frail. Susceptible.

188
00:13:04,117 --> 00:13:05,117
I'll be all right.

189
00:13:05,953 --> 00:13:07,083
My daughter...

190
00:13:08,205 --> 00:13:12,325
I must unburden myself
of this long-kept secret.

191
00:13:12,417 --> 00:13:14,747
Maybe... don't.

192
00:13:14,837 --> 00:13:17,757
When I was a student at Yale,
there was a night. One heady night.

193
00:13:17,840 --> 00:13:19,930
A party.
There was an abundance of cherry rum

194
00:13:20,008 --> 00:13:22,798
and one of our most respectable professors
stripped himself naked

195
00:13:22,886 --> 00:13:24,096
and ran across the green.

196
00:13:24,179 --> 00:13:26,309
I know I've failed you as a mother, Emily.

197
00:13:27,266 --> 00:13:29,886
Seriously, don't worry about it.
You're fine.

198
00:13:30,519 --> 00:13:32,979
The truth is,
I never really wanted children.

199
00:13:33,063 --> 00:13:34,063
Mom!

200
00:13:34,982 --> 00:13:36,782
- You didn't?
- No.

201
00:13:36,859 --> 00:13:38,359
I must admit that I partook.

202
00:13:38,902 --> 00:13:42,242
On top of the rum... there were oysters.

203
00:13:42,698 --> 00:13:45,028
I binged upon them late into the evening.

204
00:13:45,409 --> 00:13:48,119
So many oysters. I was intoxicated.

205
00:13:48,620 --> 00:13:51,160
And then
those wicked bivalves overtook me.

206
00:13:52,040 --> 00:13:53,040
There was a girl.

207
00:13:53,375 --> 00:13:54,535
Dad, it's okay.

208
00:13:54,626 --> 00:13:56,336
Her name was Lucinda.

209
00:13:56,837 --> 00:13:58,167
She was a maid.

210
00:13:58,255 --> 00:13:59,795
Much older than I.

211
00:14:00,841 --> 00:14:03,301
And although I was betrothed
to your mother,

212
00:14:03,385 --> 00:14:04,385
I succumbed.

213
00:14:04,469 --> 00:14:06,719
But then I married your father...

214
00:14:07,723 --> 00:14:09,473
and one thing led to another.

215
00:14:10,184 --> 00:14:11,944
And then the three of you were born.

216
00:14:12,853 --> 00:14:14,063
And now...

217
00:14:15,230 --> 00:14:19,610
here you are in this awful state.
And... and...

218
00:14:20,027 --> 00:14:21,777
You realize it was all worth it?

219
00:14:22,112 --> 00:14:25,782
No. I realize I was right.
It's pure agony.

220
00:14:26,241 --> 00:14:27,241
No one,

221
00:14:27,659 --> 00:14:29,829
no one should have to bury a child.

222
00:14:32,748 --> 00:14:37,038
I have tried, I have always tried
to set a good example for you children.

223
00:14:43,800 --> 00:14:44,800
What the f...

224
00:14:45,886 --> 00:14:48,256
Are you sure this is a good idea?

225
00:14:48,889 --> 00:14:51,929
Messing around with everybody's emotions?

226
00:14:52,017 --> 00:14:53,937
If I can finish one poem...

227
00:14:55,521 --> 00:14:56,521
then, yes.

228
00:15:11,161 --> 00:15:12,541
Are you finished already?

229
00:15:12,955 --> 00:15:14,205
I've finished the face.

230
00:15:15,165 --> 00:15:16,625
The rest is a rough study.

231
00:15:18,627 --> 00:15:19,627
May I see?

232
00:15:20,087 --> 00:15:21,127
If you like.

233
00:15:28,762 --> 00:15:30,012
Not to your liking?

234
00:15:31,974 --> 00:15:32,984
It's just...

235
00:15:33,976 --> 00:15:35,556
I wanted to look better.

236
00:15:36,562 --> 00:15:37,902
You look just like this.

237
00:15:40,649 --> 00:15:42,319
Couldn't you have made me prettier?

238
00:15:43,193 --> 00:15:44,533
I paint what I see.

239
00:15:44,945 --> 00:15:47,445
You want something different?
Paint it yourself.

240
00:15:58,834 --> 00:16:01,254
Success in Circuit lies

241
00:16:03,505 --> 00:16:06,715
Too bright for our infirm Delight

242
00:16:21,106 --> 00:16:25,316
I don't know if you'll like Emerson's
essays as much as his poems.

243
00:16:25,736 --> 00:16:28,656
But they've certainly
made an impression on me.

244
00:16:30,157 --> 00:16:31,157
Did you underline this?

245
00:16:32,284 --> 00:16:33,294
Maybe.

246
00:16:36,955 --> 00:16:39,365
"Our life is an apprenticeship
to the truth"

247
00:16:40,709 --> 00:16:43,209
that around every circle
another can be drawn;

248
00:16:44,213 --> 00:16:46,633
that there is no end in nature,

249
00:16:47,132 --> 00:16:48,722
but every end is a beginning;

250
00:16:49,593 --> 00:16:52,223
that there is always
another dawn risen on mid-noon,

251
00:16:53,430 --> 00:16:57,850
"and under every deep a lower deep opens."

252
00:17:02,481 --> 00:17:03,821
Speaking of truth...

253
00:17:04,775 --> 00:17:05,855
I'm not actually married.

254
00:17:07,736 --> 00:17:08,736
But...

255
00:17:09,863 --> 00:17:10,993
you wear a ring.

256
00:17:11,406 --> 00:17:12,486
It was my father's,

257
00:17:12,574 --> 00:17:14,624
and I started wearing it
to remember him by.

258
00:17:15,035 --> 00:17:16,035
And then...

259
00:17:16,494 --> 00:17:19,164
I discovered that it helped
to stop the prying questions

260
00:17:19,248 --> 00:17:22,708
and the endless set-ups
from a thousand Mrs. Dickinsons.

261
00:17:24,044 --> 00:17:25,884
- Wow.
- No offense to your mom.

262
00:17:25,963 --> 00:17:27,093
Oh, none taken.

263
00:17:29,842 --> 00:17:31,722
Lot of power in a little gold band.

264
00:17:33,720 --> 00:17:35,350
A wedding ring as freedom.

265
00:17:37,683 --> 00:17:38,683
That's a new one.

266
00:17:39,685 --> 00:17:43,305
Marriage itself is a bit old-fashioned,
don't you think?

267
00:17:45,399 --> 00:17:48,569
"Take this woman to have and to hold."

268
00:17:49,236 --> 00:17:50,356
Just sounds a little like...

269
00:17:50,445 --> 00:17:51,525
Imprisonment?

270
00:17:51,613 --> 00:17:53,033
- Exactly.
- Yeah.

271
00:17:55,033 --> 00:17:56,163
So, you don't want children?

272
00:17:56,451 --> 00:17:58,041
I love children. Other people's.

273
00:17:58,453 --> 00:18:00,123
But if I had my own...

274
00:18:01,498 --> 00:18:03,078
I wouldn't have any time to read.

275
00:18:06,211 --> 00:18:09,051
I feel like you are reciting
my own thoughts.

276
00:18:09,798 --> 00:18:10,968
Struck a chord?

277
00:18:12,050 --> 00:18:13,260
The whole piano.

278
00:18:19,474 --> 00:18:20,894
You ever swim in this lake?

279
00:18:22,186 --> 00:18:23,936
- My father doesn't let me.
- Why not?

280
00:18:24,438 --> 00:18:26,018
He's afraid I'll get sick.

281
00:18:26,106 --> 00:18:28,316
Well, it's too late now.
You're already dying.

282
00:18:28,942 --> 00:18:29,992
True.

283
00:18:34,948 --> 00:18:37,868
That water, it looks tempting.

284
00:18:39,036 --> 00:18:40,036
"Tempting"?

285
00:18:40,787 --> 00:18:42,367
I bet it's freezing.

286
00:18:42,456 --> 00:18:43,496
Well...

287
00:18:46,793 --> 00:18:47,883
I bet it warms up.

288
00:19:06,522 --> 00:19:07,772
Oh, my God.

289
00:19:22,621 --> 00:19:24,831
Too bright Too bright

290
00:19:26,416 --> 00:19:28,666
{\an8}Too bright for our infirm Delight

291
00:19:30,963 --> 00:19:33,263
{\an8}The Truth's superb surprise

292
00:19:40,472 --> 00:19:41,472
Hey.

293
00:19:42,850 --> 00:19:44,980
- Can I come in?
- Yeah.

294
00:19:50,649 --> 00:19:51,649
Your hair.

295
00:19:52,401 --> 00:19:53,401
It's damp.

296
00:19:53,485 --> 00:19:54,485
Night sweats.

297
00:19:55,821 --> 00:19:56,821
Yeah.

298
00:20:02,995 --> 00:20:06,325
The doctor said there isn't any hope.

299
00:20:08,208 --> 00:20:10,838
There's, there's always hope.

300
00:20:14,256 --> 00:20:17,176
I can't imagine life without you, Emily.

301
00:20:20,554 --> 00:20:24,564
Do you remember
that time we put on the bumblebee opera?

302
00:20:25,309 --> 00:20:26,309
Yeah.

303
00:20:27,436 --> 00:20:29,606
That was a pretty fun waste
of an afternoon.

304
00:20:30,856 --> 00:20:33,356
We hummed for so long I got a sore throat.

305
00:20:33,984 --> 00:20:36,404
You were very committed
to that performance.

306
00:20:37,529 --> 00:20:39,909
And nobody's as fun as you, Em.

307
00:20:43,243 --> 00:20:44,373
I don't wanna lose you.

308
00:20:44,453 --> 00:20:47,213
Austin, you won't.

309
00:20:47,289 --> 00:20:48,749
I've already lost Sue.

310
00:20:49,833 --> 00:20:51,213
Now you could go too.

311
00:20:52,044 --> 00:20:53,634
I thought Sue was writing to you.

312
00:20:54,046 --> 00:20:55,086
She only wrote once.

313
00:20:55,172 --> 00:20:56,172
You said twice.

314
00:20:57,257 --> 00:20:58,337
I lied.

315
00:21:05,474 --> 00:21:06,984
I'm sure she misses you.

316
00:21:07,768 --> 00:21:08,768
Are you?

317
00:21:09,436 --> 00:21:10,436
I'm not.

318
00:21:13,065 --> 00:21:18,105
I'm sorry. This is so selfish of me,
going on and on...

319
00:21:19,279 --> 00:21:21,569
spending what could be your last hours...

320
00:21:22,574 --> 00:21:23,664
like this.

321
00:21:24,117 --> 00:21:26,747
Just whining about some girl.

322
00:21:27,829 --> 00:21:29,119
I understand.

323
00:21:30,958 --> 00:21:35,088
And she's not just "some girl," she's Sue.

324
00:21:36,588 --> 00:21:37,588
Yeah.

325
00:21:43,136 --> 00:21:44,176
Sue.

326
00:21:46,056 --> 00:21:47,596
I don't understand her.

327
00:21:48,016 --> 00:21:50,226
But I know I love her.

328
00:21:51,770 --> 00:21:55,570
Because, somehow,
I love not understanding her.

329
00:21:56,525 --> 00:21:59,065
I'd rather spend the rest of my life
not understanding Sue

330
00:21:59,152 --> 00:22:01,282
than marry someone who made sense to me.

331
00:22:01,780 --> 00:22:03,240
Does that make any sense?

332
00:22:05,075 --> 00:22:06,075
Yeah.

333
00:22:07,995 --> 00:22:09,035
I think I get it.

334
00:22:15,460 --> 00:22:18,800
Emily, can you please, please not die?

335
00:22:31,059 --> 00:22:32,059
I finished it.

336
00:22:38,901 --> 00:22:40,111
I want you to read it.

337
00:22:47,576 --> 00:22:48,826
Don't, don't open it now!

338
00:22:49,369 --> 00:22:50,789
Not while I'm in here.

339
00:22:50,871 --> 00:22:51,871
Okay.

340
00:22:54,291 --> 00:22:55,541
Read it when I'm gone.

341
00:22:57,252 --> 00:22:59,302
You mean... when you're dead?

342
00:22:59,588 --> 00:23:01,878
Dude, no,
I mean, like, when I'm in the other room.

343
00:23:02,716 --> 00:23:04,126
Gotcha. Will do.

344
00:23:05,469 --> 00:23:08,559
Now, I have to
go make a miraculous recovery.

345
00:23:16,522 --> 00:23:18,362
Would anyone like some tea?

346
00:23:20,984 --> 00:23:22,194
Tea sounds nice.

347
00:23:22,903 --> 00:23:24,323
Do we have any peppermint?

348
00:23:25,489 --> 00:23:26,569
It's a ghost!

349
00:23:28,867 --> 00:23:30,947
No, Mother. It's actually me.

350
00:23:31,703 --> 00:23:34,373
Emily, shouldn't you be in bed?

351
00:23:34,957 --> 00:23:36,537
It's the most amazing thing.

352
00:23:37,251 --> 00:23:40,131
I woke up this morning
and the headache was gone.

353
00:23:40,212 --> 00:23:45,092
I don't feel dizzy, no more sweats,
I feel... wonderful.

354
00:23:45,175 --> 00:23:47,175
Told you she didn't have yellow fever.

355
00:23:47,261 --> 00:23:51,641
Praise be. Let's get some food into you.
Something that'll stick to your ribs.

356
00:23:54,101 --> 00:23:55,941
I'm sorry if I scared you, Mom.

357
00:23:56,353 --> 00:23:58,733
Yes, well, it's good you're out of bed.

358
00:24:00,357 --> 00:24:02,067
Now you can go wash the sheets.

359
00:24:17,583 --> 00:24:19,253
It's okay, Dad.

360
00:24:20,085 --> 00:24:21,295
I'm not gonna die.

361
00:24:25,966 --> 00:24:27,886
Well, I will one day.

362
00:24:29,970 --> 00:24:33,720
But probably not for, like,
a long, long time.

363
00:24:45,986 --> 00:24:52,236
He likes the poem. He likes it not.
He likes it. He likes it not.

364
00:24:53,535 --> 00:24:56,405
Who cares if he likes it?
He's going to like it, right?

365
00:24:57,873 --> 00:24:58,873
Emily?

366
00:25:01,502 --> 00:25:02,502
Sue?

367
00:25:03,712 --> 00:25:04,962
Is it really you?

368
00:25:05,422 --> 00:25:07,302
Not a figment of my imagination?

369
00:25:07,799 --> 00:25:08,839
I'm real.

370
00:25:09,676 --> 00:25:10,966
But you're out of bed.

371
00:25:11,887 --> 00:25:13,137
Yeah.

372
00:25:13,222 --> 00:25:15,022
Up and at 'em. Feeling good.

373
00:25:16,475 --> 00:25:18,635
But in your letter you said you were sick.

374
00:25:19,728 --> 00:25:20,728
I was...

375
00:25:21,647 --> 00:25:22,897
feeling fatigued.

376
00:25:23,273 --> 00:25:25,153
Your letter said you were dying.

377
00:25:25,484 --> 00:25:27,494
Well, I was dying. Of loneliness.

378
00:25:27,903 --> 00:25:29,493
Because you weren't writing me back.

379
00:25:29,571 --> 00:25:31,161
That's not what you wrote.

380
00:25:31,532 --> 00:25:33,282
Haven't you ever heard of a metaphor?

381
00:25:33,867 --> 00:25:36,287
Dying isn't a metaphor.

382
00:25:37,204 --> 00:25:42,214
Not to me. Everyone in my family died.
I take death literally.

383
00:25:43,043 --> 00:25:45,923
And... you scared me.

384
00:25:46,755 --> 00:25:48,965
You really scared me.

385
00:25:52,135 --> 00:25:53,175
I'm sorry.

386
00:25:54,972 --> 00:25:55,972
Emily, whe...

387
00:25:57,349 --> 00:26:00,979
When I got your letter,
the one that said you were sick...

388
00:26:02,479 --> 00:26:06,569
I realized you're the only one I have.

389
00:26:07,776 --> 00:26:11,566
Without you,
I might as well not exist here.

390
00:26:13,699 --> 00:26:15,449
You're the only one who truly loves me.

391
00:26:15,534 --> 00:26:16,744
That's not true.

392
00:26:17,953 --> 00:26:19,163
- It is.
- No.

393
00:26:20,873 --> 00:26:22,373
My brother loves you.

394
00:26:23,667 --> 00:26:24,667
What?

395
00:26:24,751 --> 00:26:27,051
Austin came to my bedside when I was sick.

396
00:26:27,880 --> 00:26:29,880
Or when I was not sick.

397
00:26:31,008 --> 00:26:32,338
He confided in me.

398
00:26:33,010 --> 00:26:34,010
About you.

399
00:26:34,636 --> 00:26:36,096
About how he feels.

400
00:26:36,180 --> 00:26:40,270
And, Sue, he adores you.

401
00:26:42,019 --> 00:26:43,149
And I think...

402
00:26:45,772 --> 00:26:46,942
you should marry him.

403
00:26:54,865 --> 00:26:58,035
{\an8}Tell all the truth but tell it slant -

404
00:26:58,827 --> 00:27:01,117
{\an8}Success in Circuit lies

405
00:27:02,331 --> 00:27:05,541
{\an8}Too bright for our infirm Delight

406
00:27:05,959 --> 00:27:08,379
{\an8}The Truth's superb surprise

407
00:27:13,675 --> 00:27:16,135
{\an8}As Lightning to the Children eased

408
00:27:18,555 --> 00:27:20,385
{\an8}With explanation kind

409
00:27:21,642 --> 00:27:24,312
{\an8}The Truth must dazzle gradually

410
00:27:26,396 --> 00:27:28,476
{\an8}Or every man be blind -

411
00:27:38,158 --> 00:27:39,158
Sue?

412
00:27:39,826 --> 00:27:40,826
Austin.

413
00:27:42,996 --> 00:27:44,116
What are you doing here?

414
00:27:45,332 --> 00:27:46,582
I came back.

415
00:27:47,000 --> 00:27:48,880
But... for who?

416
00:27:54,216 --> 00:27:55,216
For you.