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‎雙胞胎之間確實存在某種聯繫

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‎起初同卵雙胞胎是單一個體

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‎之後它們便分開了

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‎成為兩個個體

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‎當這種事發生在她身上

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‎我感覺像是失去了另一個自己

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‎另一半的我離開了

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‎（美國監獄囚禁了
‎逾13萬5千名殺人犯）

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‎（四分之一囚犯的童年
‎都曾被政府送往安置中心）

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‎（這是囚犯1113010號的故事）

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‎無人陪伴是很糟糕的感覺

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‎沒人想收留你

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‎（又名史坦迪佛，編號1113010）

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‎對我來說，一個美好的家應該…

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‎有愛我的人

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‎會照顧我的人，以及…

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‎給我家的感覺

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‎NETFLIX 影集

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‎（家人第一）

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‎（密蘇里矯正署）

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‎（傑佛森市矯正署，密蘇里）

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‎可以嗎？好

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‎（2010年，安東尼史坦迪佛
‎槍殺69歲的貝佛莉克勞爾）

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‎我叫安東尼史坦迪佛

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‎我從2010年起被監禁

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‎罪名是二級謀殺罪和一級強盜罪

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‎（1985年，史坦迪佛
‎出生於密蘇里州堪薩斯城）

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‎我的童年…

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‎不是大眾認為的典型童年生活

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‎從我有記憶以來，我媽就是個毒蟲

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‎雖然我知道自己的父親是誰

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‎但他從沒承認我是他的兒子

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‎我偶爾會看到他

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‎但他總是對我…

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‎視若無睹

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‎雖然我媽經常嗑藥

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‎但她還是很慈愛

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‎我跟她有過很美好的回憶

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‎（格倫伍德南大道）

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‎她帶著我到不同的州旅遊

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‎一起去湖上釣魚

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‎我跟她有著很棒的回憶

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‎可是…

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‎她在我的生命裡來來去去
‎有時見她一兩天

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‎之後便消失好幾個禮拜

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‎（小時候，史坦迪佛
‎輾轉與不同的親戚住在一起）

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‎（11歲時，州政府介入
‎轉送安置中心）

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‎我淪落到寄養家庭

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‎在那之前，我和阿姨同住

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‎但她受不了我

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‎她把我的東西全丟進垃圾袋

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‎把我帶去社福中心

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‎將照顧權轉交給州政府

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‎你就這樣…

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‎將一個孩子拋棄

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‎讓他離開家人

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‎感覺…

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‎根本沒人愛他

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‎那確實是我人生中最低潮的時期

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‎（13歲時，史坦迪佛
‎回到母親的懷抱中）

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‎當時她戒除了毒癮

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‎她再婚了

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‎我覺得這是我們母子相聚的好時機

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‎我們終於有機會團聚了

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‎但當我搬回堪薩斯城後

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‎麻煩接踵而至

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‎她的丈夫當時有個兒子

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‎他16歲

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‎那時就在混幫派

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‎我同時也有一個哥哥

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‎同母異父的哥哥

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‎他也在混幫派

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‎他們倆是我的榜樣

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‎我當時沒有什麼榜樣能學

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‎然後…

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‎我很崇拜他們倆做的某些事

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‎如果他們販毒，我也想跟著做

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‎如果他們搶劫

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‎我也想搶劫

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‎（從14歲開始，史坦迪佛
‎便因幫派相關的罪刑）

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‎（出入不同少年感化機構）

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‎我曾待過一個叫
‎麥克伊旺男子學校的地方

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‎就像是少年感化院那樣

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‎然後…

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‎有一天我被叫到辦公室

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‎對方把電話筒交到我手上

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‎是我母親打來的

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‎那晚她跟我說…

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‎我的哥哥被殺害了

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‎是啊

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‎我離開感化院時

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‎就是…

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‎我哥不在了

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‎就…

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‎我已經不是原本的我了

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‎我對事物的態度也變了

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‎我變得不在乎任何人事物

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‎然後…

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‎一旦我有了這種態度

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‎還有這種心態

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‎我變得…

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‎為所欲為

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‎不考慮事情的後果

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‎我什麼也不在乎

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‎（2010年，史坦迪佛25歲
‎並與女友同居）

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‎我沒有工作

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‎她也沒有工作

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‎所以我們很需要錢

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‎有一晚我人在外面

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‎我接到一通電話

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‎對方是以前和我一起犯案的搶匪

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‎他叫傑尼克斯

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‎他打給我

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‎問我要不要去搶劫某個毒販

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‎我問他能得手多少

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‎他回答大約八萬

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‎而且他身上還有50磅左右的大麻

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‎我答應了

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‎我掛上電話

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‎再打給另一個朋友，他叫DJ

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‎我和DJ

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‎我們上了車，開去與傑尼克斯碰面

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‎傑尼克斯給我一張紙條

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‎他說：“上面有三個地址”

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‎他描述了房子的外觀

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‎說對方開著一輛橘色的道奇汽車

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‎24吋的輪框

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‎他說很好認

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‎我說好，他並給了我一把槍

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‎我們開著車，在附近徘徊

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‎我們找不到地址

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‎我們找不到那輛橘色的道奇汽車

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‎所以我下了車

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‎在附近閒晃起來

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‎我最後找到那間房子了

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‎我打給傑尼克斯

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‎跟他說我找到了

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‎但房屋外沒有停著道格汽車

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‎我問對方還有沒有其他牌子的車

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‎他跟我說了車名

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‎而車道上正好停了一輛相同的汽車

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‎於是我和DJ走到房屋前面

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‎把大門一腳踹開

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‎門踹開後

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‎前廳黑漆漆的

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‎但我看得見有人在那

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‎DJ抓住那個人，把他摔到地上

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‎當我找到電燈打開時

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‎發現對方是個女的

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‎我一看到對方是一名年長的女人

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‎我馬上就意識到我們進錯房子了

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‎我拿著槍站著，對方則趴在地上

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‎我告訴DJ別找了

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‎說不定我們搞錯地址了

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‎DJ走回來，說道後面什麼也沒有

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‎所以…

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00:11:03,523 --> 00:11:06,243
‎我在想…

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00:11:07,363 --> 00:11:09,003
‎我才剛假釋出獄

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00:11:12,323 --> 00:11:14,163
‎我不想回去坐牢

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00:11:16,283 --> 00:11:17,763
‎她已經看到我的臉了

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‎於是我想說…

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‎好吧，我得殺了她

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‎我站在她身旁

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‎扣下扳機

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‎開了一次槍

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‎然後…

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‎我問自己

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00:12:17,923 --> 00:12:19,323
‎我為什麼要這麼做？

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00:12:22,803 --> 00:12:23,643
‎然後…

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‎之後的每一天，我仍找不出答案

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‎（史坦迪佛殺害的女性
‎是退休的警局書記員貝佛莉克勞爾）

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‎（貝佛莉的遺親已經是第三代了）

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‎-嗨
‎-嗨

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00:13:06,203 --> 00:13:07,923
‎-妳好嗎？
‎-很好，妳呢？

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‎這可以給炸雞排用

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‎-來
‎-好

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‎雪倫，食物還是熱的嗎？

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00:13:20,963 --> 00:13:22,563
‎妳帶了食物過來

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‎妳就坐下好好放鬆吧

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‎-看起來很好吃
‎-沒錯

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‎我們一家人的感情很緊密

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‎大家總是聚在一起

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‎他們想讓我工作時變胖

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‎雖然我們不是家財萬貫

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‎但至少衣食無虞，該有的都有了

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‎我已經心滿意足了

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‎要吃沙拉嗎？

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‎要嗎？

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‎我是黛娜克勞爾

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00:14:02,243 --> 00:14:03,603
‎貝佛莉是我的母親

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00:14:09,243 --> 00:14:11,763
‎從小到大，我的家庭成員…

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00:14:11,843 --> 00:14:13,163
‎主要是我

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00:14:13,723 --> 00:14:16,403
‎我的兄弟、姊妹還有我母親

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00:14:17,083 --> 00:14:20,083
‎我們的父母離婚了
‎所以我不常見到父親

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00:14:21,603 --> 00:14:23,363
‎我們希望能更常見到他

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‎媽媽是我們的支柱

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00:14:27,203 --> 00:14:28,643
‎她為了我們付出一切

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00:14:32,923 --> 00:14:35,963
‎我媽非常慈愛，她…

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‎是我見過最喜歡擁抱的人

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‎-握著妳的手
‎-撫摸妳

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‎假設妳坐著，她就會像這樣…

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‎“親愛的”

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00:14:46,723 --> 00:14:48,043
‎妳也是啊

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‎沒錯，妳也會這樣

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‎她不會讓我們覺得自己是個負擔

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‎讓孩子覺得你喜歡他們的陪伴

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00:15:00,243 --> 00:15:01,763
‎我覺得這很重要

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00:15:05,403 --> 00:15:08,403
‎1976年，她成為警察

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00:15:09,363 --> 00:15:12,003
‎她在獨立城警察局工作

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00:15:12,083 --> 00:15:14,083
‎她是一名書記員

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‎她幫警察撰寫報告

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00:15:19,483 --> 00:15:21,883
‎所以她聽過許許多多的犯罪故事

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‎我們幾個孩子都很乖

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‎因為她不會讓我們
‎有機會出去外面闖禍

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00:15:33,123 --> 00:15:36,643
‎我得知媽媽出事那天
‎是3月19日，那天是星期五

216
00:15:37,283 --> 00:15:40,163
‎我正準備去上班
‎大概是七點二十分

217
00:15:40,243 --> 00:15:41,243
‎（歡迎）

218
00:15:41,323 --> 00:15:43,883
‎我的手機響了，是我的妹婿，史帝夫

219
00:15:43,963 --> 00:15:46,803
‎他說剛剛與芭芭拉阿姨通過電話

220
00:15:47,843 --> 00:15:50,523
‎她問我能不能去妳媽家一趟

221
00:15:50,603 --> 00:15:52,523
‎感覺出事了

222
00:15:53,403 --> 00:15:58,043
‎當我抵達時，我看見紗門沒關

223
00:16:00,083 --> 00:16:01,843
‎我把頭伸進去

224
00:16:01,923 --> 00:16:04,403
‎我甚至沒走進客廳

225
00:16:06,003 --> 00:16:07,043
‎我看到她倒在那

226
00:16:09,323 --> 00:16:11,683
‎我往後退，並把門關上

227
00:16:12,403 --> 00:16:14,963
‎我拿起手上的電話報警

228
00:16:16,003 --> 00:16:20,403
‎不到兩分鐘，警察就抵達現場了

229
00:16:20,483 --> 00:16:25,043
‎（堪薩斯城酋長隊）

230
00:16:25,123 --> 00:16:30,203
‎失去母親一事
‎對我們一家產生巨大衝擊

231
00:16:32,643 --> 00:16:36,243
‎衝擊之大，我根本無從描述

232
00:16:39,363 --> 00:16:43,043
‎她就像我生命中的明燈

233
00:16:45,723 --> 00:16:49,083
‎每天我開車經過墓園
‎都會跟她打聲招呼

234
00:16:49,163 --> 00:16:51,163
‎每天早上我都會跟她說早安

235
00:16:56,283 --> 00:16:58,883
‎我不想用“禽獸”這個詞，但他就是

236
00:16:58,963 --> 00:17:00,643
‎但在我心裡，他就是個禽獸

237
00:17:01,163 --> 00:17:05,283
‎真希望他被關到死，永不見天日

238
00:17:13,403 --> 00:17:15,003
‎我不知道對方為什麼要開槍

239
00:17:15,483 --> 00:17:17,683
‎但願我知道原因，如果我知道

240
00:17:17,763 --> 00:17:20,323
‎我就能明白他的理由，並原諒對方

241
00:17:22,563 --> 00:17:24,883
‎但我永遠無法理解對方是什麼心態

242
00:17:26,443 --> 00:17:28,883
‎我不了解他所處的世界

243
00:17:30,603 --> 00:17:34,843
‎我想他的世界裡
‎開槍殺人就是這麼理所當然

244
00:17:37,243 --> 00:17:41,283
‎想到他活在這種世界
‎我就覺得他好可憐

245
00:17:41,763 --> 00:17:46,523
‎但你可以選擇不要同流合汙

246
00:17:47,363 --> 00:17:49,123
‎你可以做出不同的選擇

247
00:17:49,203 --> 00:17:51,523
‎但我不覺得他有做出什麼選擇

248
00:17:52,083 --> 00:17:53,563
‎他明明有權利

249
00:17:54,883 --> 00:17:56,683
‎選擇不一樣的人生

250
00:18:07,683 --> 00:18:12,843
‎（事發後第12天，史坦迪佛落網了）

251
00:18:23,323 --> 00:18:30,043
‎（2011年五月
‎殺人罪成立，遭判60年有期徒刑）

252
00:18:33,403 --> 00:18:34,403
‎走吧

253
00:18:40,443 --> 00:18:41,603
‎跟他們打聲招呼

254
00:18:45,563 --> 00:18:49,003
‎我是蘇珊湯普森
‎我是安東尼史坦迪佛的阿姨

255
00:18:49,083 --> 00:18:51,403
‎過來，戴門，過來，女孩

256
00:18:52,563 --> 00:18:53,403
‎打個招呼吧

257
00:18:55,283 --> 00:19:00,043
‎安東尼在中城區的社區中長大

258
00:19:01,003 --> 00:19:02,643
‎在那生活不容易

259
00:19:05,123 --> 00:19:07,803
‎安東尼的爸爸是個控制狂

260
00:19:07,883 --> 00:19:10,123
‎常常虐待別人

261
00:19:10,203 --> 00:19:14,203
‎對他們母子說話惡毒

262
00:19:14,283 --> 00:19:16,523
‎“你是個廢物，你媽也是廢物”

263
00:19:16,603 --> 00:19:19,243
‎對他們極盡所能的言語虐待

264
00:19:19,883 --> 00:19:23,843
‎我認為這對安東尼的影響很大

265
00:19:24,683 --> 00:19:28,443
‎他經歷了家庭暴力

266
00:19:28,523 --> 00:19:30,003
‎他經歷了毒品的危害

267
00:19:32,363 --> 00:19:33,963
‎安東尼的爸爸離開了家

268
00:19:34,643 --> 00:19:37,283
‎當時的安東尼才三、四歲而已

269
00:19:38,083 --> 00:19:41,523
‎從那之後，情況每況愈下

270
00:19:43,603 --> 00:19:48,243
‎安東尼的媽媽會讓毒販用她的家

271
00:19:48,323 --> 00:19:50,603
‎她的家會變成販毒的據點

272
00:19:51,163 --> 00:19:54,643
‎她在街上四處販毒

273
00:19:54,723 --> 00:19:57,563
‎她的行蹤不定，根本找不到人

274
00:19:59,003 --> 00:20:01,243
‎情況不是很樂觀

275
00:20:04,283 --> 00:20:06,443
‎我媽把安東尼接了過來

276
00:20:07,443 --> 00:20:09,723
‎照顧了一、兩個月

277
00:20:09,803 --> 00:20:15,763
‎之後我媽搬離城鎮
‎把安東尼留給我照顧

278
00:20:18,963 --> 00:20:22,083
‎我也有六個孩子要養

279
00:20:23,123 --> 00:20:26,003
‎我的一個兒子患有腦癱
‎他無法走路或說話

280
00:20:26,083 --> 00:20:29,723
‎我沒辦法把注意力放在安東尼身上

281
00:20:29,803 --> 00:20:32,923
‎沒辦法滿足他的成長需求

282
00:20:33,003 --> 00:20:35,043
‎他需要人一對一的照顧

283
00:20:37,563 --> 00:20:40,083
‎這孩子接觸過很多東西

284
00:20:40,163 --> 00:20:44,803
‎我可不希望
‎我的孩子接觸到那些鬼東西

285
00:20:44,883 --> 00:20:47,483
‎（她的）

286
00:20:47,563 --> 00:20:51,083
‎有一天我心想著我再也受不了他了

287
00:20:51,163 --> 00:20:55,243
‎我去了一趟州立少年觀護所

288
00:20:56,283 --> 00:20:58,763
‎跟他們說安東尼的事

289
00:20:58,843 --> 00:21:03,203
‎我的妹妹是毒蟲，你們快給她強制令

290
00:21:03,283 --> 00:21:06,523
‎這是我的計畫，法院會判強制令給她

291
00:21:06,603 --> 00:21:10,323
‎把她抓過來戒毒

292
00:21:10,403 --> 00:21:15,083
‎我要讓她和兒子團聚在一起

293
00:21:15,163 --> 00:21:19,243
‎可惜事與願違，她根本不甩法院

294
00:21:19,323 --> 00:21:22,003
‎最後安東尼就送去寄養家庭了

295
00:21:24,843 --> 00:21:26,003
‎然後…

296
00:21:26,683 --> 00:21:29,043
‎他在寄宿家庭遭人猥褻

297
00:21:34,803 --> 00:21:37,083
‎我為此心痛萬分

298
00:21:37,803 --> 00:21:41,443
‎是我讓他遭受到這樣的不幸

299
00:21:41,523 --> 00:21:44,523
‎要是我沒讓州政府介入安置

300
00:21:44,603 --> 00:21:47,163
‎也許他今天就不會變成這樣了

301
00:21:47,243 --> 00:21:51,843
‎這一切的事情
‎已經把他的腦子搞到壞掉了

302
00:21:52,723 --> 00:21:58,003
‎他開始跟街邊小混混
‎還有年長的人混在一起

303
00:21:58,083 --> 00:22:00,403
‎對他來說，這些事既新鮮又刺激

304
00:22:01,163 --> 00:22:04,963
‎他很容易受到影響，容易走偏

305
00:22:05,883 --> 00:22:07,243
‎他渴望歸屬感

306
00:22:08,603 --> 00:22:12,523
‎對方給了他我們無法給的愛與關懷

307
00:22:13,003 --> 00:22:16,203
‎所以他自然而然就跟著對方混

308
00:22:16,763 --> 00:22:18,603
‎畢竟我們從沒給過他愛的感受

309
00:22:23,683 --> 00:22:25,643
‎他只要一走出家門

310
00:22:26,523 --> 00:22:27,883
‎大家就說他是壞孩子

311
00:22:28,883 --> 00:22:32,323
‎自從知道他父親是誰
‎大家就認定他是壞孩子

312
00:22:32,403 --> 00:22:35,083
‎自從知道他媽媽身陷毒癮

313
00:22:35,163 --> 00:22:36,803
‎大家就認定他是壞胚子

314
00:22:38,643 --> 00:22:40,923
‎我還可以繼續舉例

315
00:22:41,003 --> 00:22:42,683
‎我們竟然還會問為什麼

316
00:22:43,163 --> 00:22:46,923
‎他怎麼會長成這副德性？
‎做出這種事？

317
00:22:47,003 --> 00:22:47,843
‎搞屁啊

318
00:22:48,683 --> 00:22:50,363
‎原因不是顯而易見嗎？

319
00:22:52,083 --> 00:22:54,603
‎捫心自問，你可曾拉他一把？

320
00:22:55,763 --> 00:22:56,763
‎你做了什麼？

321
00:22:57,963 --> 00:22:58,803
‎你什麼也沒做

322
00:23:01,323 --> 00:23:05,283
‎當時我根本不想與他有任何瓜葛
‎我太生氣了

323
00:23:05,363 --> 00:23:06,723
‎因為我不了解他

324
00:23:07,283 --> 00:23:09,723
‎但現在我坐在各位面前

325
00:23:09,803 --> 00:23:12,123
‎感覺就好像…

326
00:23:12,683 --> 00:23:14,403
‎我們所有人

327
00:23:14,883 --> 00:23:15,763
‎全都是始作俑者

328
00:23:18,003 --> 00:23:18,963
‎我們責無旁貸

329
00:23:19,803 --> 00:23:23,523
‎這並不是單一個人的問題
‎是大家的錯

330
00:23:23,603 --> 00:23:25,323
‎不是他爸、他媽或是…

331
00:23:25,803 --> 00:23:29,243
‎身為家人，這是我們所有人的錯

332
00:23:29,763 --> 00:23:31,043
‎懂我的意思嗎？

333
00:23:44,523 --> 00:23:49,523
‎（13歲時，史坦迪佛
‎加入堪薩斯城的瘸幫）

334
00:23:51,923 --> 00:23:53,763
‎幫派能給人歸屬感

335
00:23:53,843 --> 00:23:57,283
‎它替代了家庭的功能

336
00:23:59,163 --> 00:24:00,803
‎幫派成員會成為你的兄弟

337
00:24:00,883 --> 00:24:02,803
‎有些人會成為你的父親楷模

338
00:24:03,763 --> 00:24:06,363
‎他們教你處世之道

339
00:24:07,083 --> 00:24:11,043
‎但正因我們不聰明，所以才加入幫派

340
00:24:14,163 --> 00:24:16,763
‎我叫瓦倫蒂諾巴拉薩

341
00:24:16,843 --> 00:24:22,203
‎我14、15歲時
‎就認識安東尼史坦迪佛了

342
00:24:22,723 --> 00:24:26,363
‎直到今天，我們還是朋友

343
00:24:28,283 --> 00:24:30,483
‎友誼應該會繼續下去

344
00:24:34,243 --> 00:24:38,243
‎（幫派成員瓦倫蒂諾巴拉薩
‎入監服刑50年）

345
00:24:38,323 --> 00:24:41,563
‎（罪名為一項與本案無關的謀殺罪）

346
00:24:43,003 --> 00:24:45,203
‎身為幫派一員的安東尼

347
00:24:45,283 --> 00:24:47,843
‎他的角色比較…

348
00:24:49,603 --> 00:24:50,723
‎他超級瘋狂

349
00:24:51,363 --> 00:24:55,323
‎他總是蓄勢待發

350
00:24:56,283 --> 00:25:00,923
‎隨時準備好去搶劫或是偷車

351
00:25:01,003 --> 00:25:03,883
‎我從沒見過他害怕退縮

352
00:25:03,963 --> 00:25:05,643
‎不管是什麼

353
00:25:05,723 --> 00:25:09,723
‎假設我們要進入一間房子
‎裡面的人全都持槍

354
00:25:10,323 --> 00:25:13,683
‎他也會一馬當先，第一個進去

355
00:25:14,243 --> 00:25:18,003
‎他是個瘋狂的人

356
00:25:18,643 --> 00:25:19,683
‎非常瘋狂

357
00:25:20,163 --> 00:25:21,763
‎像不定時炸彈

358
00:25:24,843 --> 00:25:27,723
‎當然，我對發生的一切感到遺憾

359
00:25:27,803 --> 00:25:31,403
‎希望死者的家人能節哀

360
00:25:32,243 --> 00:25:38,923
‎但犯罪的時候
‎不管是闖空門或是其他的

361
00:25:39,643 --> 00:25:43,883
‎有時候人們不希望留下…

362
00:25:45,963 --> 00:25:48,763
‎任何證據

363
00:25:50,843 --> 00:25:52,323
‎或是目擊者

364
00:25:53,403 --> 00:25:54,603
‎就像是上戰場時

365
00:25:55,443 --> 00:25:57,643
‎不管怎樣，一定都有傷亡

366
00:25:58,403 --> 00:26:00,923
‎不管你找到的是敵人

367
00:26:01,843 --> 00:26:04,643
‎或是路人甲

368
00:26:32,283 --> 00:26:37,643
‎這是一起極盡殘暴的犯罪

369
00:26:39,483 --> 00:26:43,803
‎基本上這位女士
‎是在她的家中遭人處決的

370
00:26:50,043 --> 00:26:51,523
‎我是麥可喬漢

371
00:26:51,603 --> 00:26:56,123
‎我是密蘇里獨立城警察局的退休警官

372
00:26:56,203 --> 00:26:59,883
‎我是領導調查
‎貝佛莉克勞爾謀殺案的警官

373
00:27:18,203 --> 00:27:22,123
‎11年後回到這裡，我百感交集

374
00:27:27,363 --> 00:27:29,243
‎兇手沒必要殺了她

375
00:27:31,923 --> 00:27:34,323
‎我們得將這些人繩之以法

376
00:27:34,403 --> 00:27:36,843
‎如果他可以在晚上
‎肆無忌憚地將門踹開

377
00:27:36,923 --> 00:27:39,163
‎殺了這名手無寸鐵的女士

378
00:27:39,243 --> 00:27:40,163
‎那麼下一個是誰？

379
00:27:41,883 --> 00:27:45,563
‎（史坦迪佛被另一名
‎幫派成員告發後落網）

380
00:27:45,643 --> 00:27:46,723
‎好

381
00:27:46,803 --> 00:27:51,883
‎安東尼，你應該記得
‎我和肯佛瑞斯特警官吧？

382
00:27:51,963 --> 00:27:55,003
‎我叫麥克，我再重申一次…

383
00:27:55,083 --> 00:27:56,683
‎（2010年4月1日）

384
00:27:56,763 --> 00:27:58,483
‎我稍早跟你陳述了你的權利

385
00:27:58,563 --> 00:28:01,403
‎你也簽了名，你還記得哪些權利嗎？

386
00:28:01,483 --> 00:28:05,523
‎你仍有權…那些權利仍然有效

387
00:28:06,123 --> 00:28:08,483
‎聽著，重點是…

388
00:28:08,563 --> 00:28:11,003
‎重點是你大難臨頭了

389
00:28:11,083 --> 00:28:14,603
‎我不知道，你們這些人說我犯法…

390
00:28:14,683 --> 00:28:15,883
‎不如這樣吧，你…

391
00:28:17,323 --> 00:28:21,323
‎他滿口謊話，否認一切

392
00:28:21,403 --> 00:28:24,523
‎-證據在哪？
‎-有些證據在你家

393
00:28:24,603 --> 00:28:27,443
‎我們不會再次討論這些證據

394
00:28:27,523 --> 00:28:29,043
‎謀殺案？

395
00:28:29,603 --> 00:28:31,843
‎謀殺？不，我可不這麼想

396
00:28:31,923 --> 00:28:33,763
‎我沒有殺人

397
00:28:33,843 --> 00:28:34,803
‎才怪

398
00:28:34,883 --> 00:28:36,843
‎-你殺了人
‎-你早就認定我殺人…

399
00:28:36,923 --> 00:28:39,483
‎他是個很難審問的人

400
00:28:39,563 --> 00:28:41,803
‎首先，我為什麼要殺了這位女士？

401
00:28:41,883 --> 00:28:44,083
‎那你就跟我說你當天晚上不在那

402
00:28:44,163 --> 00:28:45,003
‎不在哪？

403
00:28:45,083 --> 00:28:47,043
‎-那位女士被殺的地方
‎-聽著…

404
00:28:47,123 --> 00:28:49,323
‎-告訴我你不在那裡
‎-我不在那

405
00:28:49,403 --> 00:28:50,603
‎狗屁

406
00:28:51,083 --> 00:28:54,203
‎他前後進出監獄多次
‎早已摸透警方辦案的方式

407
00:28:54,843 --> 00:28:58,323
‎打情緒牌這招對他沒用

408
00:28:58,403 --> 00:29:02,443
‎沒辦法讓他對受害者感到愧疚

409
00:29:04,683 --> 00:29:09,483
‎所以我們把證據給他看
‎讓他知道…

410
00:29:11,363 --> 00:29:14,883
‎我們能證明
‎他就是殺了貝佛莉克勞爾的人

411
00:29:14,963 --> 00:29:15,923
‎我們不來這套…

412
00:29:16,003 --> 00:29:18,003
‎-好…
‎-我們不來這套…

413
00:29:18,083 --> 00:29:23,683
‎我該怎麼向你們證明
‎我說的全是實話？

414
00:29:23,763 --> 00:29:27,123
‎我該怎麼…我說了，我沒有鬼扯…

415
00:29:27,203 --> 00:29:29,163
‎輪不到你反問我們

416
00:29:29,243 --> 00:29:33,243
‎審訊一段時間後，他要求要見見女友

417
00:29:33,323 --> 00:29:35,923
‎我們說可以替他安排

418
00:29:36,803 --> 00:29:41,803
‎她把實情全吐出來
‎並表示安東尼就是兇手

419
00:29:41,883 --> 00:29:45,203
‎我們便以此作為談判籌碼

420
00:29:45,283 --> 00:29:47,923
‎告訴安東尼
‎除非他坦白，否則休想見女友

421
00:29:48,003 --> 00:29:51,803
‎告訴我們有關貝佛莉克勞爾遇害的事

422
00:29:51,883 --> 00:29:54,123
‎在這之前，你不准見她

423
00:29:54,883 --> 00:29:57,843
‎他卸下了防衛

424
00:29:57,923 --> 00:30:02,523
‎並告訴我們他犯案的細節經過

425
00:30:03,323 --> 00:30:04,883
‎是誰進屋搜查的？

426
00:30:04,963 --> 00:30:06,043
‎是我

427
00:30:06,123 --> 00:30:07,843
‎好，然後呢？

428
00:30:07,923 --> 00:30:10,723
‎我發現搞錯房子了，我知道

429
00:30:10,803 --> 00:30:12,003
‎確實搞錯了

430
00:30:13,083 --> 00:30:14,203
‎然後你射殺她？

431
00:30:16,043 --> 00:30:16,963
‎是或不是？

432
00:30:19,483 --> 00:30:20,643
‎-是或不是？
‎-是

433
00:30:25,003 --> 00:30:29,443
‎我對安東尼史坦迪佛這個人的看法

434
00:30:29,523 --> 00:30:32,523
‎我覺得他是個冷血的變態殺手

435
00:30:33,043 --> 00:30:34,803
‎他槍決了貝佛莉

436
00:30:34,883 --> 00:30:36,443
‎殺了人之後

437
00:30:37,723 --> 00:30:39,843
‎他跟同夥回到車上

438
00:30:39,923 --> 00:30:43,203
‎他說把這事栽贓在別人身上

439
00:30:44,923 --> 00:30:47,723
‎這表示他以前很可能曾殺過人

440
00:31:15,883 --> 00:31:18,203
‎人老了以後

441
00:31:19,923 --> 00:31:21,523
‎什麼事能帶給我們快樂呢？

442
00:31:21,603 --> 00:31:25,283
‎（海爾漢堡店）

443
00:31:25,363 --> 00:31:30,523
‎看著我們的姪女、孫子、孩子

444
00:31:30,603 --> 00:31:32,883
‎對著他們的孩子

445
00:31:33,923 --> 00:31:35,723
‎以及孩子的孩子開心笑著

446
00:31:40,363 --> 00:31:43,283
‎那是全世界最幸福的事

447
00:31:45,203 --> 00:31:48,203
‎但是我的侄子殺了那名女士

448
00:31:48,723 --> 00:31:50,603
‎奪走了她享受天倫之樂的機會

449
00:32:04,043 --> 00:32:09,923
‎安東尼自己選擇了那樣的生活

450
00:32:11,163 --> 00:32:13,803
‎如果你想過著那種生活

451
00:32:14,323 --> 00:32:16,923
‎就得承受它帶來的後果

452
00:32:17,443 --> 00:32:20,323
‎暴力只會衍伸暴力，這道理很簡單

453
00:32:20,403 --> 00:32:22,243
‎一點也不複雜

454
00:32:26,723 --> 00:32:31,723
‎他哥哥被一位毒癮發作的朋友殺了

455
00:32:32,243 --> 00:32:36,083
‎幾年後，安東尼走進一間房子
‎他沒見到毒販

456
00:32:36,163 --> 00:32:38,483
‎倒是找到一位老太太，然後殺了對方

457
00:32:39,123 --> 00:32:41,683
‎一場兇殺只會導致另一場兇殺

458
00:32:41,763 --> 00:32:44,123
‎那種生活只會惡性循環

459
00:32:48,163 --> 00:32:50,003
‎無可救藥、絕望…

460
00:32:51,123 --> 00:32:57,803
‎沒有一個團體或組織會跟你說

461
00:32:57,883 --> 00:33:01,923
‎“我們在某個階級替你留了位置

462
00:33:02,883 --> 00:33:06,243
‎而且你還能晉升呢”

463
00:33:06,843 --> 00:33:09,603
‎你越是暴力

464
00:33:09,683 --> 00:33:11,763
‎晉升的速度就越快

465
00:33:13,683 --> 00:33:19,083
‎開槍殺人一點也不酷

466
00:33:19,163 --> 00:33:21,563
‎恐嚇孩子也是

467
00:33:22,123 --> 00:33:26,083
‎混幫派跟當公車司機可不一樣

468
00:33:26,163 --> 00:33:28,243
‎那不是一個安全的職業

469
00:33:28,843 --> 00:33:31,883
‎我經常看到一些幫派耍帥的影片

470
00:33:31,963 --> 00:33:35,403
‎“我開著名車，我是超屌的毒販

471
00:33:35,483 --> 00:33:38,323
‎身旁美女如雲，隨我調戲

472
00:33:38,403 --> 00:33:40,723
‎我要跑趴，我要…”

473
00:33:40,803 --> 00:33:41,683
‎好喔

474
00:33:43,123 --> 00:33:43,963
‎好

475
00:33:44,523 --> 00:33:45,723
‎去吧

476
00:33:46,643 --> 00:33:47,483
‎對

477
00:33:47,963 --> 00:33:49,563
‎好，慢走不送

478
00:33:52,963 --> 00:33:55,003
‎（禁止私帶槍械）

479
00:33:55,083 --> 00:33:56,563
‎我愛我的侄子

480
00:33:56,643 --> 00:33:58,643
‎到現在也是

481
00:33:59,163 --> 00:34:02,763
‎沒有任何事能奪走我對他的愛

482
00:34:03,883 --> 00:34:07,003
‎我不在乎他那狂爆的父親

483
00:34:07,083 --> 00:34:09,923
‎我不在乎他那神經的母親

484
00:34:10,003 --> 00:34:12,603
‎或是他生活中任何的鳥事

485
00:34:12,683 --> 00:34:13,523
‎我愛他

486
00:34:14,003 --> 00:34:15,443
‎我會永遠愛他

487
00:34:16,043 --> 00:34:20,163
‎但他的行為令人髮指，無法原諒

488
00:34:21,163 --> 00:34:22,043
‎就這樣

489
00:34:34,203 --> 00:34:39,803
‎（歡迎來到獨立城）

490
00:34:41,883 --> 00:34:43,763
‎當他決定殺人時

491
00:34:43,843 --> 00:34:45,563
‎他不只影響了貝佛莉

492
00:34:47,443 --> 00:34:48,803
‎影響了她的家人

493
00:34:50,163 --> 00:34:51,443
‎影響了他自己

494
00:34:52,603 --> 00:34:54,003
‎也影響了他的家人

495
00:34:55,243 --> 00:34:56,243
‎朋友

496
00:34:58,123 --> 00:35:01,563
‎像漣漪一樣，引發連鎖的反應

497
00:35:07,683 --> 00:35:10,803
‎我叫芭芭拉露多拉波

498
00:35:11,843 --> 00:35:14,043
‎貝佛莉蘇克勞爾是我的雙胞胎妹妹

499
00:35:21,283 --> 00:35:23,603
‎我比她大了十分鐘

500
00:35:27,923 --> 00:35:29,363
‎成長的過程中

501
00:35:29,843 --> 00:35:32,123
‎基本上我們形影不離

502
00:35:33,163 --> 00:35:34,803
‎只要看到我，就一定會看到她

503
00:35:35,643 --> 00:35:38,363
‎我們讓人們分不清誰是誰

504
00:35:41,323 --> 00:35:44,523
‎以前有幾次約會時

505
00:35:45,483 --> 00:35:46,683
‎我們會交換身分

506
00:35:47,443 --> 00:35:48,283
‎騙騙男人

507
00:35:49,763 --> 00:35:50,803
‎真的很有趣

508
00:35:56,003 --> 00:35:57,723
‎我們就是普通的孩子

509
00:36:00,843 --> 00:36:02,043
‎我們很親密

510
00:36:02,603 --> 00:36:04,403
‎我們一直都住在這個小鎮

511
00:36:05,163 --> 00:36:08,123
‎我住在這好幾年了

512
00:36:09,043 --> 00:36:12,283
‎之後對街的房子在出售

513
00:36:13,243 --> 00:36:15,003
‎於是她買了下來

514
00:36:15,963 --> 00:36:17,043
‎搬進去住

515
00:36:18,803 --> 00:36:20,643
‎我會看著窗外

516
00:36:21,843 --> 00:36:24,923
‎她會在庭院裡，漫無目的地忙著

517
00:36:26,043 --> 00:36:27,603
‎我每天都跟她說話

518
00:36:28,683 --> 00:36:32,043
‎她會打電話過來，邀請我過去吃晚餐

519
00:36:32,523 --> 00:36:34,523
‎她說叫我快一點

520
00:36:38,363 --> 00:36:40,363
‎那天晚上也是這樣

521
00:36:40,443 --> 00:36:43,843
‎她打電話叫我去她家吃晚餐

522
00:36:44,763 --> 00:36:47,203
‎我們邊吃邊看電視

523
00:36:47,283 --> 00:36:50,243
‎她的廚房檯上有兩根香蕉

524
00:36:50,323 --> 00:36:52,323
‎我永遠忘不了，香蕉都黑掉了

525
00:36:53,443 --> 00:36:55,443
‎她說早上要做香蕉麵包

526
00:36:58,843 --> 00:37:01,003
‎她還看著我回家

527
00:37:02,283 --> 00:37:04,203
‎我們在前門對彼此揮手道別

528
00:37:04,843 --> 00:37:06,123
‎那是我最後一次見到她

529
00:37:13,123 --> 00:37:15,363
‎對於做出這種事的人，我的評價…

530
00:37:15,443 --> 00:37:16,443
‎不是很高

531
00:37:18,163 --> 00:37:19,323
‎我很不屑

532
00:37:21,123 --> 00:37:24,563
‎但我知道他跟我們一樣只是個凡人

533
00:37:24,643 --> 00:37:26,723
‎但不表示他就能為他的行為開脫

534
00:37:26,803 --> 00:37:29,603
‎因為他有選擇權
‎他沒有必要做出這個選擇

535
00:37:33,083 --> 00:37:35,603
‎我們從小所學的價值觀與道德

536
00:37:35,683 --> 00:37:39,763
‎它會一代傳一代

537
00:37:40,603 --> 00:37:41,563
‎理應如此

538
00:37:42,283 --> 00:37:43,603
‎因為你知道的…

539
00:37:44,603 --> 00:37:46,323
‎爸媽年紀比你長

540
00:37:47,963 --> 00:37:48,803
‎比你更有智慧

541
00:37:49,363 --> 00:37:50,563
‎經歷了更多事

542
00:37:52,923 --> 00:37:55,283
‎年輕人得聽老人言

543
00:37:56,443 --> 00:37:59,003
‎因為這樣對他們比較好

544
00:38:02,483 --> 00:38:03,683
‎家庭教育很重要

545
00:38:04,363 --> 00:38:05,523
‎真的很重要

546
00:38:20,363 --> 00:38:22,923
‎毒品害慘了我

547
00:38:27,403 --> 00:38:29,083
‎只是讓你暫時逃避生活而已

548
00:38:30,403 --> 00:38:31,563
‎就這樣而已

549
00:38:31,643 --> 00:38:36,203
‎逃離現實生活中的混亂或壓力

550
00:38:38,803 --> 00:38:41,483
‎但沒人需要為你負責
‎責任在自己身上

551
00:38:52,723 --> 00:38:54,643
‎我是卡珊卓珍妮里德

552
00:38:54,723 --> 00:38:56,723
‎我是安東尼的母親

553
00:39:01,923 --> 00:39:05,443
‎我和安東尼的關係很棒

554
00:39:05,523 --> 00:39:07,483
‎總是逗對方笑

555
00:39:11,043 --> 00:39:13,963
‎當我無法起床時
‎安東尼那時才五歲

556
00:39:14,603 --> 00:39:17,603
‎他會把早餐端到我的床頭

557
00:39:17,683 --> 00:39:21,643
‎他會把椅子搬到火爐旁，站在上面

558
00:39:21,723 --> 00:39:23,363
‎炒蛋給我吃

559
00:39:24,923 --> 00:39:28,403
‎去外面摘一些黃色的雛菊

560
00:39:28,483 --> 00:39:30,723
‎然後把花放在托盤上

561
00:39:30,803 --> 00:39:31,723
‎然後買了…

562
00:39:32,483 --> 00:39:34,923
‎他對我總是這麼體貼

563
00:39:35,883 --> 00:39:37,723
‎他對我說：“媽，妳會沒事的

564
00:39:37,803 --> 00:39:39,963
‎來，妳得吃點東西”

565
00:39:40,683 --> 00:39:45,203
‎我告訴你
‎我一直覺得他是很棒的小孩

566
00:39:51,603 --> 00:39:54,123
‎我錯過很多和安東尼相處的機會

567
00:39:55,523 --> 00:39:56,563
‎因為我…

568
00:39:58,043 --> 00:39:59,723
‎我得離開這裡

569
00:40:01,043 --> 00:40:02,363
‎然後…

570
00:40:04,723 --> 00:40:06,003
‎我不能帶他一起走

571
00:40:10,003 --> 00:40:11,443
‎我是真的這麼想的

572
00:40:12,483 --> 00:40:15,043
‎如果當初我沒有拋棄他的話

573
00:40:15,523 --> 00:40:18,083
‎把他丟給我的家人照顧

574
00:40:21,003 --> 00:40:22,643
‎因為他們總是說他是壞孩子

575
00:40:24,683 --> 00:40:27,163
‎他知道我從來不會說他是壞孩子

576
00:40:28,883 --> 00:40:29,723
‎就…

577
00:40:31,243 --> 00:40:35,923
‎我覺得這深深影響了他

578
00:40:39,883 --> 00:40:42,443
‎好，夠了，我撐不下去了

579
00:41:04,843 --> 00:41:08,923
‎我不會因為家人沒有好好養育我

580
00:41:09,003 --> 00:41:13,683
‎而對他們心生怨懟

581
00:41:14,443 --> 00:41:15,883
‎我…

582
00:41:16,803 --> 00:41:19,963
‎我猜想他們也不知道該如何養小孩吧

583
00:41:22,003 --> 00:41:25,683
‎（距第一次訪談三個月後）

584
00:41:25,763 --> 00:41:29,003
‎（安東尼史坦迪佛
‎同意回答更多提問）

585
00:41:31,443 --> 00:41:34,683
‎我不想把一切歸咎於家庭教育

586
00:41:34,763 --> 00:41:37,563
‎當然那深深影響了我

587
00:41:37,643 --> 00:41:39,283
‎但我也得付起一些責任

588
00:41:39,363 --> 00:41:45,043
‎因為犯案當時，我已經25歲了

589
00:41:45,123 --> 00:41:50,163
‎我知道是非對錯
‎我也知道自己在做錯的事

590
00:41:50,243 --> 00:41:51,723
‎我當時有選擇的權利

591
00:41:51,803 --> 00:41:53,643
‎而我選擇做錯的事

592
00:41:54,443 --> 00:41:57,203
‎（又名史坦迪佛，編號1113010）

593
00:41:57,283 --> 00:42:03,923
‎我怎麼能就這樣把人殺了？

594
00:42:04,603 --> 00:42:06,763
‎無緣無故，毫無人性可言

595
00:42:06,843 --> 00:42:08,643
‎絲毫沒有悔意

596
00:42:09,483 --> 00:42:13,763
‎光是想到對方只是看到我的臉

597
00:42:13,843 --> 00:42:19,523
‎我就要把對方殺掉，真的好荒謬

598
00:42:19,603 --> 00:42:22,123
‎而我…

599
00:42:24,323 --> 00:42:26,803
‎我就是想不透

600
00:42:27,323 --> 00:42:30,403
‎抱歉說髒話
‎但他媽的我有什麼毛病？

601
00:42:31,523 --> 00:42:35,483
‎我怎麼會做出這種事？

602
00:42:37,323 --> 00:42:39,603
‎真的很噁心

603
00:42:43,483 --> 00:42:45,483
‎我真的很抱歉

604
00:42:48,843 --> 00:42:54,243
‎每一天我總希望回到過去，改變一切

605
00:42:58,243 --> 00:43:01,803
‎（史坦迪佛
‎將在2055年獲得假釋資格）

606
00:43:01,883 --> 00:43:06,603
‎（屆時他已經七十歲了）

607
00:43:08,003 --> 00:43:12,483
‎我對安東尼史坦迪佛這個人的看法

608
00:43:12,563 --> 00:43:15,563
‎我覺得他是個冷血的變態殺手

609
00:43:16,043 --> 00:43:17,803
‎他槍決了貝佛莉

610
00:43:17,883 --> 00:43:19,483
‎殺了人之後

611
00:43:20,763 --> 00:43:22,883
‎他跟同夥回到車上

612
00:43:22,963 --> 00:43:26,603
‎他說把這事栽贓在別人身上

613
00:43:27,923 --> 00:43:30,643
‎這表示他以前很可能曾殺過人

614
00:43:34,403 --> 00:43:36,763
‎我從來沒有殺過任何人

615
00:43:37,603 --> 00:43:42,923
‎如果我曾殺人，我就會罪加一等

616
00:43:43,643 --> 00:43:48,803
‎我覺得他們描述得繪聲繪影

617
00:43:48,883 --> 00:43:50,803
‎想強加這些標籤在我身上

618
00:43:50,883 --> 00:43:54,203
‎所有參與調查這起案件的警員

619
00:43:54,283 --> 00:43:57,643
‎他們全都認識死者，因為他們是同事

620
00:43:57,723 --> 00:44:00,443
‎他們說她就像母親一樣

621
00:44:00,523 --> 00:44:04,723
‎所以我才認為
‎那個警官的情緒反應很大

622
00:44:05,323 --> 00:44:07,523
‎我無法改變人們的想法

623
00:44:07,603 --> 00:44:09,323
‎但我能改變我的行為

624
00:44:09,403 --> 00:44:12,883
‎我可以…

625
00:44:13,923 --> 00:44:15,683
‎變成一個好人，可以這麼說

626
00:44:16,283 --> 00:44:18,843
‎但我被關在這，別人要怎麼…

627
00:44:19,643 --> 00:44:22,163
‎要怎麼知道我變成了一個好人了？

628
00:44:22,643 --> 00:44:25,043
‎要怎麼知道我改變了？

629
00:44:25,123 --> 00:44:28,083
‎我可以坐在這訴說這些事，但…

630
00:44:29,483 --> 00:44:34,003
‎但在我出獄前
‎你不可能知道答案吧？

631
00:44:34,523 --> 00:44:38,083
‎我會成為對社會有所貢獻的人

632
00:44:38,163 --> 00:44:44,283
‎我得痛改前非，然後…

633
00:44:45,483 --> 00:44:46,843
‎盡力而為

634
00:44:52,123 --> 00:44:53,363
‎（下季預告）

635
00:44:53,443 --> 00:44:56,043
‎我住在這，我生活在這

636
00:44:56,763 --> 00:45:01,523
‎我直接越過肩膀，把刀刺進他的頸側

637
00:45:01,603 --> 00:45:03,683
‎我害怕極了，我殺了人

638
00:45:04,763 --> 00:45:09,123
‎自己的生命掌控在他人手中
‎是全世界最恐怖的事

639
00:45:10,483 --> 00:45:12,643
‎金屬板將我的臉固定在一起

640
00:45:13,683 --> 00:45:15,283
‎我是個危險人物

641
00:45:15,843 --> 00:45:18,203
‎我不是說自己是兇手

642
00:45:18,803 --> 00:45:20,163
‎但他們確實因我而死

643
00:45:21,283 --> 00:45:22,323
‎我就是我

644
00:45:23,403 --> 00:45:24,283
‎我是個殺人犯

645
00:45:26,283 --> 00:45:29,323
‎（字幕翻譯：郭晉佑）