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[upbeat music]

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♪ ♪

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‐ So what number
are you on now?

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‐ Seven.

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‐ Wow. That's good.

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Seven's good;
you said going to a party

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would put you on a nine
for anxiety.

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‐ It's quite a strong seven.
‐ [chuckles]

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Well, it's still good.

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Have you done your breathing?
‐ Yeah.

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Brilliant.

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Well, you've only got to stay
for about half an hour

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if you want.

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‐ Okay. Thanks, Dad.

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[apprehensive music]

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♪ ♪

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Ava:
Mum!

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‐ Just getting ready.

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Ava: Can you help me
with my history homework?

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‐ Well, unless
it's about the history

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of Brookside characters
from 1992 to 1997,

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I'm afraid I've got
nothing for you, sweetie.

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‐ It's about the Falklands War.

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‐ Ah, I said
that I was getting ready,

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so can you please just give me
a fucking moment?

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‐ Go get my phone
from my bag, Ava.

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An ex‐boyfriend of mine
was part of the task force.

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Catering, below deck,

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but he would've heard
the majority of it.

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‐ Thanks, Granny.

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‐ You really need to tell Paul.

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Ally:
Paul?

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Paul.
‐ Come here, mate.

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Oi, behave yourself, or there's
no ice cream till you're 15.

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Actually, that's a bit harsh.

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‐ Paul, I need to tell you
something important.

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‐ Oh?

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‐ I'm pregnant.

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‐ Wow.

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‐ Why are you pulling
that face?

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‐ What face?

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This is literally
what my face does.

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What face am I
supposed to pull?

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‐ Oh, I don't know, happy?
Neutral?

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Anything other than that
horrible, sour fucking grimace.

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‐ No, it's‐‐it's just a shock,
that's all.

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And I thought we'd agreed.

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‐ Agr‐‐agreed what?
What did we agree?

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‐ That we wouldn't have
another one just yet.

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‐ Well, I'm sorry
it's such shit news.

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Ally: I'll go and have
an abortion, shall I?

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What's Vera Drake's number?

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‐ I'm sorry. I'm so‐‐
I'm just taking it in.

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Luke nearly broke me.

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Right, he's still breaking me.

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I do love you, mate,
but you know it's true.

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‐ I've got a baby in me,

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and do you know
what it feels like

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to have you act like
that's the worst news ever?

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No. Honestly.

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‐ Ally.
‐ No.

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‐ Hon...

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I hope you realize
you're paying for this.

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‐ Is this Leo's house, then?

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‐ Yeah, that's it.

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‐ It's nice.

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Bit showy.

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So what do his parents do
for a living?

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‐ His mum's a teacher,
and his dad's a potter.

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‐ A potter?

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‐ Mmm, he makes pots. Clay.

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Like the ones Mum likes.

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You know,
brown and a bit wonky.

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He used to be in banking.

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‐ Oh, for f‐‐
Right. Say no more.

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I'm not jealous.

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It's a nice house,
that's all.

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A potter. Um...

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Right, I'll be at the end
of the phone

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if you need me
to come and get you.

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‐ I'll try and stay
till the end,

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and then Leo's dad
can give me a lift.

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‐ Oh, all right, well, I'll
listen out for the helicopter.

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[muffled music thumping]

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♪ ♪

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What do you reckon, mate?
Give it a go?

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Luke,

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be yourself.

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If you need to,
you can go into the garden

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and do your breathing.

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‐ Okay. See you later.

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‐ Yep.

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[sighs]
You poor sod.

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♪ ♪

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‐ Hmm, what pizza
are you having?

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‐ Pbbt, Pepperoni Hot, baby.

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Same pizza choice since 1989.
What about you?

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‐ I'm going bespoke.

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Toppings from all over
the place.

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Jazz pizza.
More of this, hold that.

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They're gonna hate me.

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‐ Can I get you guys
anything to drink?

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‐ Um, yeah, I'll have
a pint of Peroni.

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‐ Just a fizzy water, thanks.

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‐ So you're pregnant.

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‐ What?

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‐ Never been out
for a meal with you

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where you haven't had wine

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unless you were pregnant
or breastfeeding.

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‐ Really?

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‐ It has literally
never happened.

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I've also picked up
on some other clues‐‐

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you being mental, for a start.

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‐ Listen, this is our first
date night out in months.

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‐ Yeah.
‐ And we've got, what,

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three hours before Mum finishes

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her third bottle
and then falls asleep

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with the deadlock on,
so there is a hard deadline.

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‐ Yeah, but
fucking hell, hon...

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a baby.

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I mean, a‐‐

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a baby, that is
a very big deal.

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‐ Yeah, no, I know, and I know
we need to get into this,

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but before that,
if at all possible,

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I would love to order
a really complicated pizza

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and then eat the whole thing
very, very quickly

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whilst we bitch about people
we pretend to like.

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‐ Okay.

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‐ Thanks.

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‐ Are we ready to order?

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‐ Yes, uh,
this could get complicated,

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so you might want to get a pen.

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‐ And a slide rule.

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‐ Right, margherita base,
extra basil.

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server: Right.

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‐ Then capers, anchovies,

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black olives, smoked garlic,

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red peppers, green peppers,
yellow peppers.

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server: I'll just put peppers.
‐ Mushrooms...

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♪ ♪

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[indistinct dialogue over TV]

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[door slams]

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‐ Hi, Mum.
Is everything all right?

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‐ I wasn't asleep.
‐ Clearly.

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Leah: How was the restaurant?
‐ It was fine.

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‐ Did you tell him
you're pregnant?

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‐ Yes, but what if I hadn't?
Fucking hell, Mum.

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‐ Right, so suddenly
I'm the bad guy.

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‐ Yes, you are.

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‐ Hormones.

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She doesn't know
what she's saying.

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‐ Think she might do.
Leah: Headlines.

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Luke looked quite grim when
he got back from his party,

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and Ava seems a bit off.

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‐ Hmm.
Leah: How are you doing?

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How are you feeling
about the baby?

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‐ Not sure.

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‐ Between you, me,
and the garden gate,

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I have four friends
who had three children.

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Two of them didn't see 60.

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‐ Terrific.
‐ Just a word to the wise.

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Three is the tragic number.

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[siren wailing]

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‐ [sighs]
I've just been feeling,

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like, weird as balls.

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Just, like, really odd.

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‐ The whole thing is just daft.

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You're definitely sure
you're pregnant?

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‐ Yes, I've been collecting
pregnancy tests

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like they're fucking Pokémon.

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‐ And‐‐and this one,

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is it‐‐is it making you feel
the same kind of weird

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as Luke and Ava did, or...

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‐ I mean, I can't remember.

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The whole thing is‐‐is weird,
isn't it?

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I mean, growing a human
inside you is nuts.

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I do know that Ava made me go

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the most mental
when she was born.

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Just, like, this tiny vampire

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sucking my life out
through my tits.

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Ah.

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‐ I know. It was tough.

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I mean, of course,
I don't have tits,

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so I can't
fully appreciate your‐‐

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‐ Well...

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‐ What's that me‐‐
you think I've got tits?

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‐ It just‐‐it happens to men
in their 40s.

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[imitating Paul]
Oh. Look at these.

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I've suddenly got some tits.

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‐ [whispering] Fuck you.

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‐ [laughs]

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[urine splashing]

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[cell phone ringing]
‐ Mm.

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Hello.

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Hi, yeah, this is Luke's dad.

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Paul.

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Oh, hello, Leo's mum.
Everything all right?

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No, I'm just
decanting a shiraz.

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[splashing continues]

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Yeah, no, Luke seemed fine.
Why?

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Oi, bell end.

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Leo's mum told me
that you were smoking

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in their gazebo.
‐ What's a gazebo?

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‐ I don't fucking know, do I?

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Were you smoking?

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‐ No. Some of the others were.

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I went into the garden
'cause I had a bit

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of a panic attack
and needed some air.

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But I didn't go
in the gazebo thing,

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and I didn't smoke.

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‐ Really?
‐ Really!

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‐ I swear to Christ, mate,
you telling me the truth?

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‐ Yes.

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‐ All right. Good.

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I believe you.

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‐ Thank you.

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Paul: I'm sorry you had
a panic attack.

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That must've been rough.

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‐ It was. Thanks.

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‐ Did I make you
lose your game?

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‐ It's all right.
It's not that sort of a game.

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‐ All right.

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You should turn it off anyway.

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Go to sleep, please.

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[apprehensive music]

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♪ ♪

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‐ I'm having doubts.

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‐ Baby doubts?
‐ Yeah.

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I mean, not as in small doubts,

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as in doubts about the baby.

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I'm‐‐

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I'm not sure
if I want this baby.

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‐ Okay.

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That is a perfectly reasonable
thing to think.

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‐ I just, uh‐‐
I just don't know.

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‐ Well, if you were
a pendulum, right?

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‐ Mm‐hmm.

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‐ With "sure" and "not sure"

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either side of you,

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what angle would you be at
right now?

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‐ Um‐‐sorry, where are you
measuring the angle from?

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‐ The middle.

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‐ And which way
is the pendulum going?

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‐ Either way.
That's‐‐that's the point.

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You're the pendulum.

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‐ Right, so if I say
"30 degrees,"

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is that 30 degrees
towards the side

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that I'm in favor of
or towards the other side?

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‐ No, it's towards the‐‐

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you're making this
unnecessarily complicated.

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‐ No, you are.

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You haven't explained
any of the essential...

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‐ Okay. Fine. Shh, shh.

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It's all right. It's all right.
‐ Components.

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‐ It's fine.
It's not a problem.

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It was a bad idea.

259
00:09:27,277 --> 00:09:28,212
Don't worry, it's fine.

260
00:09:31,252 --> 00:09:32,287
[sighs]

261
00:09:34,993 --> 00:09:36,663
‐ 20 degrees.
‐ Right, which way?

262
00:09:36,696 --> 00:09:38,132
‐ I don't know.
‐ Fuck's sake, that's‐‐

263
00:09:38,166 --> 00:09:40,069
‐ That way.

264
00:09:40,103 --> 00:09:41,238
No.
‐ What way was that?

265
00:09:41,272 --> 00:09:42,274
‐ I don't know.

266
00:09:42,307 --> 00:09:43,610
‐ Fuck me ragged.

267
00:09:48,687 --> 00:09:50,156
[inquisitive music]

268
00:09:50,190 --> 00:09:54,599
♪ ♪

269
00:09:54,632 --> 00:09:56,035
‐ Hi.

270
00:09:56,068 --> 00:09:57,003
‐ Hi, Mum.

271
00:09:57,037 --> 00:09:58,106
‐ Aw.

272
00:09:59,909 --> 00:10:02,748
You were such a cute
little baby fatso.

273
00:10:02,782 --> 00:10:04,184
We used to call you
Kenny Podgers.

274
00:10:04,218 --> 00:10:05,153
[chuckles]

275
00:10:08,694 --> 00:10:10,798
You okay, Ava‐cado?

276
00:10:10,831 --> 00:10:12,134
‐ Yeah.

277
00:10:13,136 --> 00:10:14,906
Ally
:
I've been a bit of a dick
to you lately.

278
00:10:14,939 --> 00:10:17,177
I'm so sorry.

279
00:10:17,210 --> 00:10:19,214
Do you wanna do something fun,
you and me?

280
00:10:19,248 --> 00:10:21,051
‐ Like what?

281
00:10:21,085 --> 00:10:23,991
[indistinct chatter]

282
00:10:25,293 --> 00:10:27,397
‐ [gasps]
Wow! A tent bunk.

283
00:10:27,430 --> 00:10:29,669
I'd have loved one of these
at your age.

284
00:10:29,702 --> 00:10:31,172
‐ Bit of a dust trap.

285
00:10:31,205 --> 00:10:33,342
‐ Ah, no, it'd be so cool
in your room.

286
00:10:33,376 --> 00:10:36,348
Right, I'm going up.
You just keep watch.

287
00:10:36,382 --> 00:10:38,052
So graceful.

288
00:10:40,323 --> 00:10:43,062
Ah. Come on up.
It's lovely.

289
00:10:43,095 --> 00:10:44,198
It's like camping,
but it's nice.

290
00:10:46,202 --> 00:10:47,237
Come on.

291
00:10:47,270 --> 00:10:48,372
Hey, if you have a sleepover,

292
00:10:48,406 --> 00:10:49,709
your friend can go underneath,

293
00:10:49,742 --> 00:10:53,182
or they can snuggle up in here.

294
00:10:53,216 --> 00:10:54,986
‐ Sorry.

295
00:10:55,019 --> 00:10:56,388
‐ What, love?

296
00:10:56,422 --> 00:10:58,694
‐ Sorry I hurt you
when I was born.

297
00:10:58,727 --> 00:10:59,696
I heard you and Dad.

298
00:10:59,729 --> 00:11:02,100
‐ When? Oh, my God.

299
00:11:02,133 --> 00:11:04,204
‐ I made you mental
and sucked the life out of you.

300
00:11:04,238 --> 00:11:06,242
‐ No, no, no, no, no, no.
You didn't.

301
00:11:06,275 --> 00:11:07,945
Oh, my sweet thing.

302
00:11:07,979 --> 00:11:10,684
I didn't want you
to hear any of that.

303
00:11:10,718 --> 00:11:12,320
‐ You were really sad
when I was born.

304
00:11:12,354 --> 00:11:14,324
‐ Oh...God,
I can't stand you thinking

305
00:11:14,358 --> 00:11:15,460
that you ever made me sad,
no.

306
00:11:15,494 --> 00:11:16,462
woman: This bed,
it's got a tent.

307
00:11:16,496 --> 00:11:17,965
‐ Not now!

308
00:11:17,999 --> 00:11:19,869
Ava, look at me.

309
00:11:19,903 --> 00:11:22,207
It wasn't you, ever,

310
00:11:22,240 --> 00:11:24,712
and it was only
for a little while.

311
00:11:24,746 --> 00:11:26,415
Look, most new mums,

312
00:11:26,448 --> 00:11:28,720
they can get a bit wobbly,

313
00:11:28,754 --> 00:11:30,423
but they just‐‐
they just don't admit it.

314
00:11:30,456 --> 00:11:33,196
It doesn't mean that they
don't love their babies.

315
00:11:34,298 --> 00:11:35,868
I loved you.

316
00:11:35,901 --> 00:11:37,972
I love you, okay?

317
00:11:44,184 --> 00:11:45,854
‐ I'm worried
about the new baby.

318
00:11:45,888 --> 00:11:47,123
‐ What? Oh.

319
00:11:47,157 --> 00:11:48,961
Oh, right. Ah, shit.

320
00:11:48,994 --> 00:11:50,096
Listen, we would have told you.

321
00:11:50,129 --> 00:11:52,033
It's just, it's‐‐
it's so early,

322
00:11:52,067 --> 00:11:54,037
but please don't worry.

323
00:11:54,071 --> 00:11:56,175
We're still gonna love
you and Luke just the same.

324
00:11:56,208 --> 00:11:58,379
‐ No, I'm worried
'cause you're an older mum.

325
00:11:58,412 --> 00:11:59,849
So many things could go wrong

326
00:11:59,882 --> 00:12:01,252
with you and the baby.
‐ Oh.

327
00:12:01,285 --> 00:12:03,289
‐ Well, Grace's mum had a baby
when she was 39,

328
00:12:03,322 --> 00:12:05,026
so a lot younger than you.
‐ Right.

329
00:12:05,059 --> 00:12:06,763
‐ And the doctor said
there was an increased risk

330
00:12:06,796 --> 00:12:09,001
of complications:
high blood pressure,

331
00:12:09,034 --> 00:12:11,171
miscarriage, stillbirth,

332
00:12:11,205 --> 00:12:12,508
even you dying.

333
00:12:12,541 --> 00:12:14,244
It's really dangerous
being a geriatric mum.

334
00:12:14,278 --> 00:12:15,781
‐ Geriatric?

335
00:12:15,814 --> 00:12:17,417
‐ Yeah, that's what
they called Grace's mum.

336
00:12:17,450 --> 00:12:19,388
If you're over 35,
you're geriatric.

337
00:12:19,421 --> 00:12:21,425
‐ Jesus.
This is all a bit mad.

338
00:12:21,458 --> 00:12:24,131
‐ It is a bit mad.
Ally: Yes, it‐‐it is,

339
00:12:24,164 --> 00:12:26,268
but I promise I will
look after myself, okay?

340
00:12:26,302 --> 00:12:28,774
No booze, no cigarettes.

341
00:12:28,807 --> 00:12:32,815
I will eat kale and quinoa
and that horrible yogurt

342
00:12:32,848 --> 00:12:34,484
and all that
Gwyneth Paltrow shit,

343
00:12:34,519 --> 00:12:38,125
and I will drink
all of the water, all right?

344
00:12:38,159 --> 00:12:39,428
[chuckles]
I love you.

345
00:12:42,935 --> 00:12:44,271
‐ Do you want to use
one of my baby names?

346
00:12:44,304 --> 00:12:46,442
‐ You have names
for your babies?

347
00:12:46,475 --> 00:12:49,448
‐ Yep.
Taylor, Jaguar, Jo, Meg,

348
00:12:49,481 --> 00:12:52,220
Beth, Amy, Saoirse,
Serenity, and Salem.

349
00:12:52,253 --> 00:12:54,826
‐ Aw, baby Jaguar.

350
00:12:54,859 --> 00:12:56,061
‐ Actually,
you can't have that one.

351
00:12:56,095 --> 00:12:57,364
That's my favorite.

352
00:12:57,397 --> 00:12:59,334
‐ Okay. You're my favorite.

353
00:12:59,368 --> 00:13:02,040
But don't tell Luke
or baby Jaguar, all right?

354
00:13:04,411 --> 00:13:06,181
Come on.
[smooches]

355
00:13:06,215 --> 00:13:07,417
Everything's gonna be fine.

356
00:13:08,620 --> 00:13:10,958
I promise.

357
00:13:10,991 --> 00:13:13,930
[upbeat music]

358
00:13:13,964 --> 00:13:16,503
♪ ♪

359
00:13:16,536 --> 00:13:18,205
Paul: Cheers, can you stick
a battered sausage

360
00:13:18,239 --> 00:13:19,474
in there too, Nat?

361
00:13:19,509 --> 00:13:20,978
‐ Will do, mate.
‐ Thank you.

362
00:13:21,011 --> 00:13:22,247
‐ Can I get a Fanta?

363
00:13:22,280 --> 00:13:23,482
‐ There's a new lot
in the fridge out the back.

364
00:13:23,517 --> 00:13:24,819
You can pop through
and fetch one, Luke.

365
00:13:24,852 --> 00:13:25,988
‐ Cheers.

366
00:13:26,021 --> 00:13:27,490
‐ What's the damage?

367
00:13:27,525 --> 00:13:30,864
‐ £21.50.
‐ Oh, fuck, is it cash only?

368
00:13:30,898 --> 00:13:32,233
‐ Until the card
what's‐his‐name is fixed, yeah.

369
00:13:32,267 --> 00:13:34,972
Sorry, Paul.
‐ I'm a bit short. Uh...

370
00:13:35,006 --> 00:13:36,408
one second.

371
00:13:36,442 --> 00:13:38,012
Luke's a hoarder.

372
00:13:38,045 --> 00:13:40,183
He'll probably have some
shrapnel in here somewhere.

373
00:13:43,055 --> 00:13:44,492
The fuck?

374
00:13:44,525 --> 00:13:46,261
‐ That's a bit "EastEnders"
drums, innit?

375
00:13:46,295 --> 00:13:48,232
‐ Yeah, just a bit.

376
00:13:49,569 --> 00:13:52,842
[apprehensive music]

377
00:13:52,875 --> 00:13:55,514
♪ ♪

378
00:13:55,547 --> 00:13:57,117
‐ What?

379
00:13:57,150 --> 00:13:58,553
‐ It's the fucking lying
that gets me.

380
00:13:58,587 --> 00:14:00,123
‐ I know. I'm sorry.

381
00:14:00,156 --> 00:14:01,125
‐ I believed you!

382
00:14:01,158 --> 00:14:02,895
I was sympathetic.

383
00:14:02,928 --> 00:14:05,033
Your anxiety,
your panic attack.

384
00:14:05,066 --> 00:14:06,903
‐ I really did
have a panic attack.

385
00:14:06,936 --> 00:14:08,640
That's why I've been smoking.
It calms me down.

386
00:14:08,673 --> 00:14:10,911
‐ No, it doesn't;
it just calms the jitters

387
00:14:10,944 --> 00:14:12,447
you get
from nicotine withdrawal.

388
00:14:12,480 --> 00:14:14,384
I know about this stuff.

389
00:14:14,418 --> 00:14:16,321
Fucking hell, it'll kill you.
‐ I know.

390
00:14:16,355 --> 00:14:18,225
‐ Your lungs
are still developing.

391
00:14:18,259 --> 00:14:20,864
‐ Look, I'm sorry.
I'll stop smoking.

392
00:14:20,898 --> 00:14:23,369
I've only had, like,
15 cigarettes in total.

393
00:14:23,402 --> 00:14:26,175
‐ How can you even afford them?
They cost a fortune.

394
00:14:26,208 --> 00:14:28,112
‐ I used the money
Granny Leah gave me.

395
00:14:28,145 --> 00:14:30,249
‐ She gave you that to get
yourself something nice.

396
00:14:30,283 --> 00:14:31,452
‐ Please don't tell her.

397
00:14:31,485 --> 00:14:33,322
‐ I'll fucking do
as I like, mate.

398
00:14:33,355 --> 00:14:35,426
You're in no position
to tell me what to do.

399
00:14:36,462 --> 00:14:37,565
Fuck.

400
00:14:42,508 --> 00:14:45,948
You haven't said that I smoke
and am therefore a hypocrite.

401
00:14:45,981 --> 00:14:47,217
‐ No, I know.

402
00:14:47,250 --> 00:14:48,587
‐ I am a hypocrite.
I know it.

403
00:14:48,620 --> 00:14:51,458
But I'd rather be a hypocrite
than a fucking liar.

404
00:14:51,493 --> 00:14:52,928
I'll tell you, mate,
if I ever catch you

405
00:14:52,962 --> 00:14:55,199
with cigarettes again,
there will be hell to pay.

406
00:14:55,233 --> 00:14:56,603
Got it?
‐ Got it.

407
00:14:56,636 --> 00:14:57,905
Paul: Good.

408
00:15:09,227 --> 00:15:12,167
[apprehensive music]

409
00:15:12,200 --> 00:15:15,173
♪ ♪

410
00:15:15,206 --> 00:15:16,475
[Ava crying]
‐ Please stop.

411
00:15:16,509 --> 00:15:18,179
Please stop crying.

412
00:15:20,183 --> 00:15:22,020
Please, you can't be hungry.

413
00:15:22,053 --> 00:15:24,659
You've already had
a bucketload.

414
00:15:24,692 --> 00:15:26,395
Please, Ava.

415
00:15:26,428 --> 00:15:28,165
I haven't got anything left.

416
00:15:28,199 --> 00:15:30,369
I'm not a fucking dairy farm.

417
00:15:31,573 --> 00:15:32,608
Fine.

418
00:15:32,641 --> 00:15:34,211
Come on, then.

419
00:15:34,244 --> 00:15:35,213
[sighs]

420
00:15:35,246 --> 00:15:38,452
♪ ♪

421
00:15:38,486 --> 00:15:40,691
No?
[groans]

422
00:15:40,724 --> 00:15:43,095
Okay, so you're not hungry.
You're not wet.

423
00:15:43,129 --> 00:15:45,133
You're not windy.
You're not sleepy.

424
00:15:45,166 --> 00:15:47,972
What the fuck
could you possibly want?

425
00:15:48,005 --> 00:15:50,343
[Ava quiets]

426
00:15:50,376 --> 00:15:51,613
[Ava giggling]

427
00:15:51,646 --> 00:15:53,750
Oh.

428
00:15:53,783 --> 00:15:55,687
Oh, okay.

429
00:15:55,721 --> 00:15:57,658
Hello, smiler.

430
00:15:57,691 --> 00:15:59,529
Hi.

431
00:15:59,562 --> 00:16:01,666
Sorry about that.

432
00:16:01,699 --> 00:16:03,402
Hello.

433
00:16:03,435 --> 00:16:05,306
[Ava squeals]

434
00:16:05,339 --> 00:16:07,277
[intercom beeps]

435
00:16:07,310 --> 00:16:08,279
‐ Ally.
‐ Hi.

436
00:16:08,312 --> 00:16:09,414
‐ Come in. Take a seat.

437
00:16:09,447 --> 00:16:10,617
I'll be with you
in just a minute.

438
00:16:12,387 --> 00:16:14,625
Ally: So I had my doubts‐‐
well, we both did‐‐

439
00:16:14,659 --> 00:16:17,731
um, but I thought and thought,
and yeah,

440
00:16:17,765 --> 00:16:21,205
I'm sure I wanna keep the baby.

441
00:16:21,238 --> 00:16:22,473
‐ Right.

442
00:16:22,508 --> 00:16:24,745
‐ You don't think I should
'cause of my age.

443
00:16:24,779 --> 00:16:27,317
‐ Ally, I hate to be
the bearer of bad news,

444
00:16:27,350 --> 00:16:29,087
but you're not pregnant.

445
00:16:29,120 --> 00:16:30,122
‐ I am.

446
00:16:30,156 --> 00:16:31,291
‐ You're not.

447
00:16:31,325 --> 00:16:33,095
‐ I am pregnant.
[laughs]

448
00:16:36,368 --> 00:16:38,673
How am‐‐how am I not pregnant?

449
00:16:38,707 --> 00:16:40,309
I mean, I‐‐how?

450
00:16:40,343 --> 00:16:42,213
I've been so hormonal.

451
00:16:42,247 --> 00:16:44,519
‐ That's because
your HCG level is high.

452
00:16:44,552 --> 00:16:47,023
HCG is, indeed,
a pregnancy hormone,

453
00:16:47,056 --> 00:16:49,160
but also, in the early stages
of menopause,

454
00:16:49,194 --> 00:16:50,597
your HCG can spike‐‐

455
00:16:50,631 --> 00:16:52,066
‐ Early, sorry, what?

456
00:16:53,369 --> 00:16:55,439
‐ Basically, the symptoms
of perimenopause

457
00:16:55,473 --> 00:16:58,445
can be almost identical
to pregnancy.

458
00:16:58,479 --> 00:17:00,182
‐ Menopause?

459
00:17:00,216 --> 00:17:01,686
Um...
[laughs]

460
00:17:01,719 --> 00:17:03,122
Hello!

461
00:17:03,155 --> 00:17:05,459
‐ Peri.
Not quite the menopause.

462
00:17:05,494 --> 00:17:08,132
‐ Sorry, but do you know
how old I am?

463
00:17:08,165 --> 00:17:10,604
‐ It's on here, yes.

464
00:17:10,637 --> 00:17:13,577
‐ Well, so it's‐‐
it's just...

465
00:17:13,610 --> 00:17:14,812
menopause?

466
00:17:14,845 --> 00:17:17,450
‐ It is early
but not that unusual.

467
00:17:17,483 --> 00:17:19,522
Have you been having
irregular periods?

468
00:17:19,555 --> 00:17:21,325
Anxiety?

469
00:17:21,358 --> 00:17:22,661
‐ Yes, but‐‐

470
00:17:22,695 --> 00:17:25,567
‐ Any hot flushes
or issues with memory?

471
00:17:25,601 --> 00:17:27,337
‐ Fucking hell.

472
00:17:27,370 --> 00:17:29,140
I thought that was just stress
and lack of sleep

473
00:17:29,174 --> 00:17:31,512
and being pregnant.

474
00:17:31,546 --> 00:17:33,583
Dr. Kaur: Let me print you out
a fact sheet.

475
00:17:33,617 --> 00:17:36,088
It's a lot to take in,
I do understand.

476
00:17:36,121 --> 00:17:37,591
‐ Yeah, going
from being pregnant

477
00:17:37,625 --> 00:17:39,394
to being I don't know what,
um...

478
00:17:39,427 --> 00:17:40,296
Dr. Kaur:
Take some time to read.

479
00:17:40,329 --> 00:17:42,233
‐ Barren.

480
00:17:42,267 --> 00:17:44,037
That's it. I'm barren.

481
00:17:44,505 --> 00:17:45,774
‐ You coul
d still get pregnant.

482
00:17:45,807 --> 00:17:47,076
‐ Could I?
‐ Yes.

483
00:17:47,110 --> 00:17:48,445
It wouldn't be easy.

484
00:17:48,479 --> 00:17:50,082
It would most probably
need to be

485
00:17:50,116 --> 00:17:51,418
via assisted conception,

486
00:17:51,451 --> 00:17:52,721
IVF.
‐ Right.

487
00:17:52,755 --> 00:17:54,257
But doesn't that
always mean twins?

488
00:17:54,291 --> 00:17:56,295
‐ Not necessarily.

489
00:17:56,328 --> 00:17:59,267
But you do get a lot of twins.

490
00:17:59,301 --> 00:18:01,706
‐ Oh. Vaginal dryness.

491
00:18:05,346 --> 00:18:06,348
[door slams]

492
00:18:06,381 --> 00:18:08,352
Hi.
‐ Hey.

493
00:18:08,385 --> 00:18:10,624
‐ Ooh. Look at that.

494
00:18:10,657 --> 00:18:12,226
‐ Hey, guess
what I found today.

495
00:18:12,260 --> 00:18:13,429
‐ What?

496
00:18:13,462 --> 00:18:14,832
‐ Packet of cigarettes
in Luke's bag.

497
00:18:14,865 --> 00:18:16,502
‐ No way!
He said he wasn't smoking.

498
00:18:16,536 --> 00:18:17,738
‐ He was lying.

499
00:18:17,771 --> 00:18:19,240
Turns out,
he's a really good liar,

500
00:18:19,274 --> 00:18:21,211
which is gonna make
the next few years interesting.

501
00:18:21,244 --> 00:18:22,815
Said they help him
with his panic attacks.

502
00:18:22,848 --> 00:18:25,119
‐ Bollocks.
‐ No, I know.

503
00:18:25,152 --> 00:18:26,656
How was your day?

504
00:18:26,689 --> 00:18:28,125
‐ [sighs]

505
00:18:28,158 --> 00:18:29,294
I'm not pregnant.

506
00:18:29,327 --> 00:18:31,699
‐ Yeah, you are.
‐ That's what I said.

507
00:18:31,733 --> 00:18:33,903
‐ So the‐‐the tests are wrong.

508
00:18:33,937 --> 00:18:35,607
Can that‐‐can that happen?
You did three.

509
00:18:35,641 --> 00:18:38,445
‐ Yeah, well, it‐‐
it's a mad hormone thing.

510
00:18:38,479 --> 00:18:42,554
I'm not pregnant.
I am perimenopausal.

511
00:18:42,588 --> 00:18:44,558
Don't say that sounds
like a '50s pop star.

512
00:18:44,592 --> 00:18:46,261
‐ I wasn't.

513
00:18:46,295 --> 00:18:47,463
‐ Sure.

514
00:18:49,902 --> 00:18:52,407
‐ So how are we feeling
about that?

515
00:18:52,440 --> 00:18:54,578
‐ Um, well, it's a‐‐

516
00:18:54,612 --> 00:18:56,783
it's a relief, isn't it?

517
00:18:56,816 --> 00:18:58,820
‐ Yes.

518
00:18:58,853 --> 00:19:00,524
Yes, it is a relief.

519
00:19:02,327 --> 00:19:03,329
‐ Shall we?

520
00:19:03,362 --> 00:19:04,431
‐ Not in your condition.

521
00:19:04,464 --> 00:19:05,600
‐ What condition's that,

522
00:19:05,634 --> 00:19:06,869
being one of the fucking
Golden Girls?

523
00:19:06,903 --> 00:19:08,940
[upbeat music]

524
00:19:08,973 --> 00:19:10,409
‐ Wait up, Blanche.

525
00:19:10,443 --> 00:19:11,746
‐ [laughs]

526
00:19:11,779 --> 00:19:15,453
♪ ♪

527
00:19:15,486 --> 00:19:17,190
You still got
that battered sausage?

528
00:19:17,223 --> 00:19:18,526
‐ I'll give you
a battered sausage.

529
00:19:18,560 --> 00:19:19,495
‐ [laughs]

530
00:19:21,532 --> 00:19:24,638
Oh, you absolute
fucking genius.

531
00:19:24,672 --> 00:19:25,674
Mmm, mmm.
‐ Hiya, Mum.

532
00:19:27,210 --> 00:19:28,479
Everything all right?

533
00:19:28,513 --> 00:19:30,517
‐ Yeah, yeah. All good.

534
00:19:30,550 --> 00:19:32,320
Dad told me about you smoking

535
00:19:32,353 --> 00:19:34,424
and you lying about smoking.
Luke: Yeah.

536
00:19:34,457 --> 00:19:36,963
I'm really sorry for lying
and smoking.

537
00:19:36,996 --> 00:19:39,802
I'll stop. Smoking's dumb.
Ally: So dumb.

538
00:19:39,835 --> 00:19:41,271
You've got
your breathing exercises

539
00:19:41,304 --> 00:19:42,708
to help with your anxiety,

540
00:19:42,741 --> 00:19:45,479
your mindfulness tips,
your one‐to‐ten scale.

541
00:19:45,514 --> 00:19:47,985
Nicotine is a stimulant.
It doesn't calm you down.

542
00:19:48,018 --> 00:19:49,822
Paul: Yeah, everyone
experiments, Luke,

543
00:19:49,855 --> 00:19:51,526
but, you know,
don't go any further.

544
00:19:51,559 --> 00:19:52,961
I'm addicted.
I can't give up.

545
00:19:52,995 --> 00:19:54,799
‐ Although I can just enjoy
the odd one now and again.

546
00:19:54,832 --> 00:19:56,936
‐ That's really bad advice.
‐ Yeah, sorry.

547
00:19:56,969 --> 00:19:58,540
‐ Do you want some tea?

548
00:19:58,573 --> 00:20:00,376
‐ Yeah, please.
‐ Yeah, all right. Thanks.

549
00:20:00,409 --> 00:20:01,311
Paul: Thanks, man.

550
00:20:05,319 --> 00:20:06,455
What are we gonna do
with him?

551
00:20:06,488 --> 00:20:07,691
‐ Mm.

552
00:20:09,495 --> 00:20:12,400
‐ So our fictional baby,

553
00:20:12,433 --> 00:20:15,406
would she or he have been a mix

554
00:20:15,439 --> 00:20:16,943
of Luke and Ava, do you think,

555
00:20:16,976 --> 00:20:19,247
or someone totally new?

556
00:20:19,280 --> 00:20:21,853
‐ New but with bits of them,
probably.

557
00:20:21,886 --> 00:20:23,489
‐ Mm.

558
00:20:23,523 --> 00:20:25,292
‐ And maybe different bits
of us, better bits.

559
00:20:25,326 --> 00:20:26,496
Paul: Yeah.

560
00:20:26,529 --> 00:20:28,533
[melancholy music]

561
00:20:28,566 --> 00:20:30,704
It's‐‐it's a relief, innit,

562
00:20:30,737 --> 00:20:34,545
not having to deal
with all the new‐baby madness?

563
00:20:34,578 --> 00:20:36,949
‐ Yeah. It's sad too.

564
00:20:36,983 --> 00:20:38,620
Paul:
Oh, yeah. [chuckles]

565
00:20:38,653 --> 00:20:40,690
It is sad.

566
00:20:40,724 --> 00:20:42,694
I'm sad about it.

567
00:20:42,728 --> 00:20:45,366
‐ I am sad about it.

568
00:20:45,399 --> 00:20:49,508
♪ ♪

569
00:20:49,542 --> 00:20:50,610
‐ If you were a pendulum‐‐

570
00:20:50,644 --> 00:20:53,315
‐ Fuck off.
[chuckles]

571
00:20:53,348 --> 00:21:00,262
♪ ♪