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So, you just heat it up at 300
and leave it in for 35 minutes.
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Thanks, Karen.
But you really don't have to keep...
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- It's my take on Mexican lasagna.
- Great.
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It's nothing. We just don't want you
to think you're alone.
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- Mmm.
- Jeff and I are here for you,
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if you ever wanna talk.
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Thanks.
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Just can't imagine
what you're going through.
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Well, it's like if Jeff got hit by a car
and died suddenly and violently.
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Like that.
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Right.
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Well, you get that dish back to me
whenever you can...
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Yup. Gonna get right on it.
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Oh.
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Fuck.
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God.
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I'd skip the coffee. It's terrible.
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I made it.
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Hmm? Oh.
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I'm sorry.
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- No. I'm just kidding.
- Hmm?
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- I'm just kidding.
- Oh.
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I'm Judy.
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- Hi. Jen.
- Hi.
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Hi.
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You come to this group often?
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Uh... No. This is my first time here.
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- Me, too.
- Oh.
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Sorry. I hope this isn't weird.
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Do you do real estate?
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I feel like I've seen your face
on, like, a... a bus bench?
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You and a cute gay guy?
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- Yeah.
- What?
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Yeah, that's me.
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With Christopher, who does not think
he looks gay in that picture.
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I didn't mean that in a bad way.
I think gay is beautiful.
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Which bench did you see?
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Oh, I think it's the one
where you're like...
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Oh, no.
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No? And he's like...
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No, no, no.
I guess I just mean where do you live?
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Oh, my gosh.
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Sorry. Newport Beach.
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- Oh, really?
- Yeah.
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- You live... You live in Newport?
- Yeah.
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Okay.
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Yeah. I don't think I
belong there either.
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- Not a bad thing to not belong there.
- Right.
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But if you ever need
a real estate agent, just...
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- Oh, wow. Thank you.
- Uh-huh.
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- I might.
- Okay.
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Sorry.
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I hope this isn't weird.
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Can I give you a hug?
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No.
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Okay.
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Well, looks like we have
some new people here today.
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Hi. I'm Judy.
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- Hi, Judy.
- Hey, Judy.
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- Uh-uh. That's okay.
- All right.
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Well, welcome to Friends of Heaven.
I'm Pastor Wayne.
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As some of you know,
I like to start out our grief circle
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by talking about a loss I lived through
that got me into this work.
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My aunt fell down a flight of stairs
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and cracked her head open and bled out
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as her five-year-old son watched,
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and I was the one that asked her
to get me a soda from the basement.
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So, I live with that.
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And that's a little something about me.
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Oh, my God.
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I appreciate that.
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Is there a loss you've had
that you'd like to share with us today?
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Uh...
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Yeah. I lost my fiance eight weeks ago.
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Um... It was really sudden.
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One minute, we were eating dinner
and then the next, he was gone.
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I'm so sorry.
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Thank you.
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- Heart attack?
- Yeah. He was 44.
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Oh, that sucks. Sorry.
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Thank you.
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Thank you for sharing that.
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So, last week, we started
talking about...
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the F-word.
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Forgiveness.
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Forgiveness can be very difficult,
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and it can take time, even a lifetime.
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But no matter what the circumstances,
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everyone is deserving of forgiveness.
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You really think that?
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Jesus thought that.
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Amen.
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Um, excuse me. Um...
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How do you forgive someone
who hits your husband with their car,
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and then drives away, leaving him to
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bleed to death on the side of the road?
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How do you forgive that?
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No, that's it.
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Don't really wanna get into it,
so someone else can go.
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At your own pace.
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It's okay to feel whatever you're
feeling, sad, angry, defensive...
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I'm not defensive. Okay?
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I'm tired.
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I'm tired, too.
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Can you tell us more about that?
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Oh, yeah. I just haven't been sleeping.
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You know, I've never been
a very good sleeper, anyway, but...
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since Ted died, not at all.
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I mean, not naturally, anyway, but...
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And I'm not gonna take pills.
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I was not a pill person
and I have two kids, two boys, who...
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who need me, and so,
I'm not gonna be one of those, like,
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Xanax Ambien zombie moms, you know.
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Hey. Hey!
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Oh, hey.
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Uh...
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I'm up all night.
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Feel free to call me.
We can... not sleep together.
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It's supposed to be Mexican lasagna.
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Why are there raisins in this?
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- I honestly don't know.
- I like it.
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- I'm sick of other people's food.
- Me, too.
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And I miss Dad's cooking.
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Me, too.
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It's just so not fair.
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Like, why did our dad have to die?
Why didn't...
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Tyler's dad die? Rick.
That guy's a twatwaffle.
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I like Rick.
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- You have to wait till I'm asleep.
- Mm-hmm.
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All the way asleep.
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I know, Boop.
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- Mommy?
- Yup?
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- I don't wanna go to school tomorrow.
- No kidding.
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I wanna go to work with you.
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Oh, sweetie, I know, but we just can't
do that anymore, okay?
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I mean, it's been three months, and...
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I think it's just time for us
to go back to normal.
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- But I wanna be with you.
- I know.
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I know, baby.
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You know, what happened
to your dad was an accident.
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- As far as we know.
- Charlie, please.
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What happened to your dad
was a freak accident.
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And nothing like that
is gonna happen to me, okay?
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I promise you.
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No, it's not that.
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I'm not worried
something's gonna happen to you.
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No?
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Well, then what are you worried about?
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I just don't want you to be alone.
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Okay.
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Hello?
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Uh... Judy?
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- Yeah?
- It's... It's Jen from...
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from the grief group thing.
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Hi.
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I'm sorry. I don't... I don't even know
why I'm calling you.
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No, no. God, come on.
I told you you could.
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- Is it too late?
- No.
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- Are you in bed?
- Uh, yeah.
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- What are you wearing?
- Huh?
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What are you wearing?
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Um...
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A pair of my husband's sweatpants
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and a T-shirt he got
for running a 5K for...
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psoriasis.
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Mm. Slower.
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You're a weird person, Judy.
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Thank you.
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Did your husband really like running?
Or did he just hate psoriasis?
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I'm sorry. You don't have to talk
about him if you don't want to.
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Uh, no, no. He... He liked running.
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Came to it later in life. He was 40.
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- What made him start?
- He was gettin' doughy.
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- Oh, yeah.
- Mm-hmm.
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Men get that middle-aged man puff.
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Yeah. I mean, he had a
full-on beer belly.
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He was getting a beer neck.
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Beer neck?
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So, he started running.
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I was proud of him.
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He was in the best shape
of his life, when...
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when the car hit him.
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I'm so sorry.
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Yeah.
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Are you... Are you eating something?
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Mm-hmm.
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It's an Entenmann's chocolate chip
cookie. You know, the little one?
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Why, yes, I do.
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Oh, he was...
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He was always a really good musician,
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even then.
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He was the only guy
I knew who liked Ani DiFranco.
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Oh, I love Ani.
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Well, I haven't talked about
him much since he died.
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- Well, we can stop. I don't wanna pry.
- No. It's...
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It's nice.
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Did you get it?
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- Is that him?
- No, that's my other husband.
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Oh, you have another one?
Then you're fine.
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Yeah, but if something happens
to him, then...
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- Excuse me.
- I heard that.
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You should ride that
wave and go to sleep.
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No, I want a picture of Steve.
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I'd have to look.
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Found some.
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Jeez. Okay.
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Hold on.
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Oh, my God.
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- Is that your house?
- Yeah.
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Harbor Ridge?
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- Yup.
- It's a lovely home.
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He was very handsome.
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Thanks.
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Yeah, I always thought he had
kind of a JFK Jr. vibe.
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God!
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JFK Jr. was so hot.
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- So hot.
- And then just so sad.
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So sad.
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So fucked up.
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- You're tired.
- Oh, yeah.
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I think I am. You're not?
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No. But... I'll let you go.
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No, no, no. No.
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Would you...
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Would you mind waiting
until I fall asleep?
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Uh...
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Okay.
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I mean, like...
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...all the way asleep?
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Sure, of course.
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Thank you.
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All right.
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- Do you want me to keep talking?
- No, 'cause then I can't fall asleep.
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Oh. Okay. Right.
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Okay?
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Hey.
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Oh, Judy.
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Psst!
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I mean, if I knew it
was the end, I would...
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...start smoking immediately.
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Oh, my God. Yes.
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- Right?
- Immediately.
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Smoking is the greatest thing
that slowly kills you.
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It's the greatest.
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- I would.
- Ooh!
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- But I need something...
- Facts of Life is on.
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What? What channel?
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Three-ninety-one.
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Three-ninety-one.
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Now, promise me you won't tell.
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God, I used to love this show.
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- Loved it.
- You're just jealous because I...
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How did I not know
this was on every night?
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More importantly, why are the other
girls 15 and Tootie is, like, nine?
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I don't know.
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Has anyone ever told you
you're kind of a Blair?
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What? Fuck you.
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- Seriously, fuck you.
- Why?
260
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I'm a Jo.
261
00:14:54,768 --> 00:14:55,768
How are you a Jo?
262
00:14:56,395 --> 00:14:57,995
I'm sitting in your outdoor living room,
263
00:14:58,028 --> 00:15:00,599
watching TV next to your hot tub.
264
00:15:01,025 --> 00:15:02,943
- Feeling a little Blair-y.
- I'm a fucking Jo!
265
00:15:03,319 --> 00:15:04,904
- Okay!
- Why?
266
00:15:05,362 --> 00:15:06,989
- Who are you?
- I'm a Tootie.
267
00:15:08,242 --> 00:15:09,242
It's layered.
268
00:15:10,743 --> 00:15:13,162
- How are you a Jo?
- 'Cause I'm tough.
269
00:15:14,955 --> 00:15:16,332
I'm from Brooklyn.
270
00:15:17,041 --> 00:15:18,375
- You're from Brooklyn?
- Mm-hmm.
271
00:15:18,451 --> 00:15:21,454
How did I not know that? You don't
sound like you're from Brooklyn.
272
00:15:21,795 --> 00:15:23,339
Oh, I used to have an accent.
273
00:15:24,131 --> 00:15:26,383
- What'd you sound like?
- Like someone from Brooklyn.
274
00:15:27,468 --> 00:15:28,510
Like what?
275
00:15:29,762 --> 00:15:30,971
Like this.
276
00:15:33,766 --> 00:15:35,726
- That is fantastic.
- I hate you.
277
00:15:36,602 --> 00:15:38,841
- You are a Jo.
- Yeah.
278
00:15:38,938 --> 00:15:41,440
- Such a Jo.
- Yeah, man, I'm a piece of work.
279
00:15:42,786 --> 00:15:47,529
According to my business partner,
Christopher, my anger is an "issue."
280
00:15:48,948 --> 00:15:49,948
Personally,
281
00:15:50,783 --> 00:15:52,952
I think that your anger
is understandable.
282
00:15:53,035 --> 00:15:55,871
Well, you haven't been
on the receiving end of it.
283
00:15:57,957 --> 00:16:01,752
I mean... there are
healthier ways of channeling it.
284
00:16:02,419 --> 00:16:04,338
- Like meditation.
- I meditate.
285
00:16:05,714 --> 00:16:06,714
In my own way.
286
00:16:06,960 --> 00:16:10,088
♪ You fucking prick, drop dead ♪
287
00:16:10,219 --> 00:16:11,512
♪ You make me sick ♪
288
00:16:11,595 --> 00:16:13,222
♪ Get out of my head! ♪
289
00:16:18,310 --> 00:16:19,895
♪ You're the light ♪
290
00:16:21,605 --> 00:16:24,900
♪ I'm the ghost, you're the night ♪
291
00:16:24,984 --> 00:16:27,778
♪ I'm the shadow, you're the light ♪
292
00:16:29,446 --> 00:16:30,948
Do you do this a lot?
293
00:16:31,782 --> 00:16:32,782
Oh...
294
00:16:33,242 --> 00:16:35,147
No, just every time I
see a person-sized dent
295
00:16:35,181 --> 00:16:36,570
in the front bumper of a car.
296
00:16:38,247 --> 00:16:39,373
Okay.
297
00:16:39,456 --> 00:16:42,710
The cops say that hit-and-runs
are almost impossible to solve, so...
298
00:16:43,377 --> 00:16:46,714
But you feel like maybe you might find
the person this way?
299
00:16:47,798 --> 00:16:48,798
Nope.
300
00:16:49,049 --> 00:16:50,509
But it makes you feel better?
301
00:16:51,343 --> 00:16:52,343
Not really.
302
00:16:55,513 --> 00:16:56,598
I have an idea.
303
00:16:59,844 --> 00:17:00,941
What are you doing?
304
00:17:00,975 --> 00:17:02,477
- It's legal. Relax.
- Oh, right.
305
00:17:06,984 --> 00:17:08,068
Oh, no, thanks.
306
00:17:08,902 --> 00:17:10,821
I'm just not... not
really a drugs person.
307
00:17:10,904 --> 00:17:13,157
It's not drugs. It's a plant.
308
00:17:13,532 --> 00:17:14,867
And it will help you sleep.
309
00:17:17,244 --> 00:17:18,244
Mm-hmm.
310
00:17:20,759 --> 00:17:23,674
Um... You totally smoke pot.
311
00:17:27,296 --> 00:17:30,883
All right. I did with Ted, but it's...
I mean, it's been years.
312
00:17:30,966 --> 00:17:32,593
Well, I'm happy to reacquaint you.
313
00:17:35,095 --> 00:17:36,221
Oh, yeah.
314
00:17:37,980 --> 00:17:39,440
You immediately feel nice.
315
00:17:39,796 --> 00:17:40,812
Yeah.
316
00:17:45,272 --> 00:17:46,523
Can I say something weird?
317
00:17:47,232 --> 00:17:48,232
Please.
318
00:17:49,716 --> 00:17:50,716
Thank you.
319
00:17:51,668 --> 00:17:52,676
For what?
320
00:17:52,723 --> 00:17:55,949
I don't know. Just for
coming into my life, I guess, like...
321
00:17:57,543 --> 00:17:59,453
some weird little pot fairy.
322
00:18:00,746 --> 00:18:02,456
And also just for not...
323
00:18:02,949 --> 00:18:05,459
saying and doing the same stupid shit
324
00:18:05,542 --> 00:18:07,419
that everybody says
and does that just...
325
00:18:08,545 --> 00:18:11,590
makes you feel more alone
than you already are, you know?
326
00:18:13,008 --> 00:18:15,552
And for not being repulsed
by my version of grief.
327
00:18:19,056 --> 00:18:20,057
Thank you.
328
00:18:21,517 --> 00:18:23,310
- For the same.
- Mm-hmm.
329
00:18:24,061 --> 00:18:26,018
I know that it must
be hard for you to be
330
00:18:26,052 --> 00:18:27,722
alone in that big house without Steve.
331
00:18:31,026 --> 00:18:32,026
It is.
332
00:18:33,112 --> 00:18:34,113
It's really hard.
333
00:18:35,114 --> 00:18:36,114
I miss him.
334
00:18:37,991 --> 00:18:38,991
I know.
335
00:18:39,201 --> 00:18:40,536
I know you know.
336
00:18:44,213 --> 00:18:46,298
- Light's out.
- You probably shouldn't have anymore.
337
00:18:46,375 --> 00:18:47,895
- I don't think so, 'cause I...
- Yeah.
338
00:18:48,085 --> 00:18:50,170
...can't feel my tongue.
339
00:18:50,254 --> 00:18:51,505
You're so fucking high!
340
00:18:52,477 --> 00:18:53,477
Fuck.
341
00:18:54,050 --> 00:18:55,801
Why did you give that to me?
342
00:19:01,098 --> 00:19:02,933
I think I just peed!
343
00:19:05,018 --> 00:19:06,228
Wait, I have to check.
344
00:19:07,354 --> 00:19:08,730
- Oh, my God.
- No, I didn't.
345
00:19:09,398 --> 00:19:10,398
Oh, my God.
346
00:19:10,816 --> 00:19:11,900
Oh, my God.
347
00:19:20,617 --> 00:19:21,827
Good evening.
348
00:19:21,910 --> 00:19:23,328
Good evening.
349
00:19:23,787 --> 00:19:26,915
- Shall I come over?
- Nope, because I'm coming to you.
350
00:19:27,583 --> 00:19:28,583
What?
351
00:19:28,617 --> 00:19:30,577
Come on. You've been coming
to me this whole time.
352
00:19:30,794 --> 00:19:32,212
You don't even know where I live.
353
00:19:32,296 --> 00:19:34,047
Oh, yes, I do.
354
00:19:34,548 --> 00:19:35,924
And I'm pulling up right now.
355
00:20:01,575 --> 00:20:02,575
Judy!
356
00:20:07,915 --> 00:20:08,999
Can I help you?
357
00:20:12,002 --> 00:20:13,002
You're Steve.
358
00:20:14,129 --> 00:20:15,129
Yeah.
359
00:20:17,716 --> 00:20:18,716
You're alive.
360
00:20:19,843 --> 00:20:20,843
Yeah.
361
00:20:21,011 --> 00:20:22,638
I'm sorry. It's 11:30 at night.
362
00:20:22,721 --> 00:20:24,556
What's... What's happening?
Do I know you?
363
00:20:25,849 --> 00:20:26,975
No. I, uh...
364
00:20:28,060 --> 00:20:29,580
heard a lot...
365
00:20:30,520 --> 00:20:31,521
...about you.
366
00:20:32,814 --> 00:20:33,814
Is Judy here?
367
00:20:34,733 --> 00:20:36,151
Judy doesn't live here anymore.
368
00:20:36,510 --> 00:20:38,390
- She doesn't?
- No. We broke up two months ago.
369
00:20:41,834 --> 00:20:42,834
Wow.
370
00:20:44,451 --> 00:20:45,577
This is, uh...
371
00:20:47,105 --> 00:20:48,126
Wow.
372
00:20:48,160 --> 00:20:51,458
Hey, Jen. Um, I can explain.
Please call me back.
373
00:20:51,917 --> 00:20:55,420
I'm so sorry. Please.
Please, please let me explain.
374
00:20:55,504 --> 00:20:56,964
Wait. How do you know Judy?
375
00:20:58,840 --> 00:21:00,917
- I thought she was a friend.
- Okay. Well...
376
00:21:00,971 --> 00:21:02,434
If you see her, can you tell her to stop
377
00:21:02,467 --> 00:21:03,896
coming around here while I'm at work?
378
00:21:03,929 --> 00:21:05,009
I'm gonna change the locks.
379
00:21:05,931 --> 00:21:09,268
I'm... I'm sorry.
I'm... I'm so sorry to bother you.
380
00:21:09,601 --> 00:21:11,687
It's all right. I just gotta go.
I'm running a bath.
381
00:21:11,770 --> 00:21:12,770
Okay.
382
00:21:13,772 --> 00:21:14,815
You know, um...
383
00:21:16,970 --> 00:21:19,264
maybe it's better
if she doesn't know where you live.
384
00:21:20,195 --> 00:21:21,363
Seller's market.
385
00:21:22,614 --> 00:21:24,866
Again, I'm... I'm so sorry.
386
00:21:32,631 --> 00:21:34,633
What the fuck? Huh?
387
00:21:34,710 --> 00:21:36,211
- Jen, please.
- What?
388
00:21:36,295 --> 00:21:37,638
- Please. I can explain.
- Okay. Do.
389
00:21:37,671 --> 00:21:38,749
What is going on?
390
00:21:38,783 --> 00:21:40,072
Why don't you tell them what's going on?
391
00:21:40,105 --> 00:21:42,232
- No. I...
- Guess Kate & Allie are having trouble.
392
00:21:42,301 --> 00:21:44,845
- It's very complicated.
- No. It's not complicated.
393
00:21:44,928 --> 00:21:48,265
Her... fiance is not dead, okay?
394
00:21:48,473 --> 00:21:51,226
I mean, unless that was his ghost
who answered the door last night,
395
00:21:51,310 --> 00:21:53,770
because that...
that would be fucking complicated.
396
00:21:53,854 --> 00:21:56,648
But it's not complicated, Judy,
because he's not fucking dead!
397
00:21:56,732 --> 00:21:58,780
What the fuck? What, do you get off
398
00:21:58,835 --> 00:22:00,944
pretending you're going through
the same thing I am?
399
00:22:01,028 --> 00:22:02,404
- No. Of course not.
- No?
400
00:22:02,487 --> 00:22:05,365
Is this a game you're playing with me,
with everybody else?
401
00:22:05,824 --> 00:22:07,868
Making up that whole fucking story?
402
00:22:08,535 --> 00:22:11,830
You don't belong here
because he's not fucking dead, Judy.
403
00:22:11,913 --> 00:22:13,665
He broke up with you!
404
00:22:14,541 --> 00:22:15,758
Probably 'cause you're a fucking lunatic
405
00:22:15,791 --> 00:22:17,467
who lies about him fucking being dead.
406
00:22:17,501 --> 00:22:19,437
- Jen, please settle down.
- Let her talk.
407
00:22:19,470 --> 00:22:21,138
I don't wanna let her talk, Kyle!
408
00:22:21,923 --> 00:22:25,802
Oh, now, see, this is getting real.
Judy, you go ahead, honey.
409
00:22:29,147 --> 00:22:30,148
I don't know what to say.
410
00:22:30,182 --> 00:22:33,393
Oh, my God. That was so powerful.
Right, guys? Right?
411
00:22:34,061 --> 00:22:35,479
Jen, I'm so sorry.
412
00:22:35,977 --> 00:22:37,561
You have no idea.
413
00:22:38,065 --> 00:22:39,191
I...
414
00:22:39,733 --> 00:22:42,110
I'm sorry to all of you.
I really am. I...
415
00:22:42,444 --> 00:22:46,323
I don't know why. I wasn't trying
to pull anything or to hurt anyone.
416
00:22:46,406 --> 00:22:48,909
I never meant to hurt anyone.
I swear to God.
417
00:22:49,409 --> 00:22:50,409
I just...
418
00:22:56,416 --> 00:22:57,416
It's true.
419
00:22:58,251 --> 00:23:00,087
Steve... is alive.
420
00:23:00,170 --> 00:23:02,005
- Yeah, not dead. Alive.
- Yeah.
421
00:23:03,465 --> 00:23:06,343
He didn't die two months ago.
But I did lose him,
422
00:23:06,593 --> 00:23:07,719
because he broke up with me.
423
00:23:07,803 --> 00:23:10,514
- Oh, my God. That is not the same!
- I know.
424
00:23:11,244 --> 00:23:12,244
I know.
425
00:23:16,520 --> 00:23:20,023
It's just,
he broke up with me because I...
426
00:23:22,818 --> 00:23:25,862
He broke up with me
because we really wanted to have kids.
427
00:23:27,155 --> 00:23:29,991
And we tried,
and we tried for years, and...
428
00:23:31,660 --> 00:23:32,702
I couldn't.
429
00:23:35,205 --> 00:23:37,165
I just kept having miscarriages.
430
00:23:39,042 --> 00:23:40,377
I'm so sorry.
431
00:23:41,700 --> 00:23:42,770
Thank you.
432
00:23:46,258 --> 00:23:47,717
Let's get you to your room.
433
00:23:59,984 --> 00:24:01,569
That was my fifth one.
434
00:24:03,692 --> 00:24:07,404
I really thought that I was
gonna have a baby and a family.
435
00:24:09,656 --> 00:24:13,584
And then to find out that there's just
something that's broken inside of me...
436
00:24:15,745 --> 00:24:17,789
I think just going through all that,
437
00:24:18,623 --> 00:24:20,125
it messed me up a little bit.
438
00:24:22,919 --> 00:24:25,046
I swear, I'm not a bad person.
439
00:24:26,256 --> 00:24:27,674
I'm really not. I...
440
00:24:29,301 --> 00:24:30,302
It doesn't matter.
441
00:24:31,470 --> 00:24:33,096
I should have never come here.
442
00:24:35,640 --> 00:24:37,851
Jen, I'm so sorry that I hurt you.
443
00:24:37,934 --> 00:24:39,728
It's the last thing that I wanted to do.
444
00:24:40,145 --> 00:24:41,980
I really cherish our friendship.
445
00:24:44,774 --> 00:24:45,859
No, I really do.
446
00:24:48,140 --> 00:24:50,947
Shit! I'm sorry. I'm so sorry.
447
00:24:51,323 --> 00:24:52,824
Jesus Christ.
448
00:24:54,242 --> 00:24:55,827
That is a sad story.
449
00:24:55,911 --> 00:24:56,911
Yeah, if you believe it.
450
00:24:57,996 --> 00:24:59,122
What's wrong with you?
451
00:24:59,206 --> 00:25:00,248
Me?
452
00:25:00,749 --> 00:25:02,125
- What about her?
- Yeah.
453
00:25:02,334 --> 00:25:03,710
Find a different group, Judy.
454
00:25:03,793 --> 00:25:05,003
Fuck, yeah, Linda. Thank you.
455
00:25:05,086 --> 00:25:08,089
Jen, Judy's in pain,
and I know that you are, too,
456
00:25:08,570 --> 00:25:11,170
but that doesn't make it okay for you
to attack someone like that.
457
00:25:11,429 --> 00:25:13,349
I mean, don't y'all
hang out all the time?
458
00:25:13,428 --> 00:25:15,096
How did you not know any of that?
459
00:25:16,806 --> 00:25:17,849
I don't know.
460
00:25:18,892 --> 00:25:22,306
Well, either way, Judy has every right
to sit in this circle.
461
00:25:22,384 --> 00:25:26,441
Yeah. I mean, in a way,
her life is sadder than all of ours.
462
00:25:26,525 --> 00:25:29,277
Oh, God. She lied, man.
463
00:25:29,486 --> 00:25:32,364
Jen, everyone's grief
manifests in different ways.
464
00:25:32,447 --> 00:25:36,079
Judy lied.
You flew into this terrifying rage.
465
00:25:36,826 --> 00:25:38,453
We are all doing our best,
466
00:25:38,537 --> 00:25:41,831
but you've got to start
reconciling that anger inside of you.
467
00:25:42,958 --> 00:25:45,158
Don't let it cause you more grief
than you already have.
468
00:25:51,091 --> 00:25:52,399
♪ Oh, God ♪
469
00:25:52,432 --> 00:25:53,767
♪ You make me sick ♪
470
00:26:45,979 --> 00:26:48,982
The bad news is,
I may have gone overboard.
471
00:26:49,232 --> 00:26:53,069
Like, on some of my stories,
I might have exaggerated a little,
472
00:26:53,153 --> 00:26:55,196
especially about Mrs. Garrett
being drunk.
473
00:26:55,280 --> 00:26:57,782
- Fuckin' Tootie.
- She had her eyeballs diluted.
474
00:27:03,705 --> 00:27:05,745
- Oh, she's right that way.
- Thank you.
475
00:27:14,752 --> 00:27:15,752
Hey.
476
00:27:16,259 --> 00:27:17,259
Hi.
477
00:27:22,307 --> 00:27:24,768
- You could have just told me.
- I know.
478
00:27:25,477 --> 00:27:27,479
I just thought... But I didn't, so...
479
00:27:27,562 --> 00:27:29,648
I should have, but I didn't.
I don't know why.
480
00:27:30,190 --> 00:27:32,275
Because you have issues.
481
00:27:33,234 --> 00:27:36,821
- You have no idea.
- Yeah, well, I have them, too.
482
00:27:37,530 --> 00:27:40,450
- Well, you're allowed.
- So are you, Judy.
483
00:27:40,984 --> 00:27:42,027
I mean...
484
00:27:42,786 --> 00:27:43,953
okay, it's weird...
485
00:27:44,245 --> 00:27:45,580
that you lied about Steve.
486
00:27:45,664 --> 00:27:48,083
I mean, it's... it's fucked up,
you know, but...
487
00:27:49,250 --> 00:27:51,961
maybe it's easier to lie about that
than it is to...
488
00:27:52,045 --> 00:27:54,255
to just tell the truth
about the other stuff.
489
00:27:55,799 --> 00:27:56,799
Maybe.
490
00:27:59,094 --> 00:28:01,429
I'm really sorry that I said
you didn't belong.
491
00:28:02,764 --> 00:28:04,974
And you've... you've lost a lot, too.
492
00:28:05,433 --> 00:28:08,520
But they were just miscarriages.
It wasn't like I have actually...
493
00:28:08,603 --> 00:28:11,731
Well, I think it is an actual... thing.
494
00:28:11,815 --> 00:28:14,901
I mean, not if a Republican is asking.
But...
495
00:28:15,610 --> 00:28:17,153
you heard a heartbeat.
496
00:28:18,363 --> 00:28:20,156
And you fell in love in that heartbeat.
497
00:28:22,367 --> 00:28:23,493
Yeah.
498
00:28:26,854 --> 00:28:29,791
Come on.
I have tissues and whiskey in my room.
499
00:28:30,583 --> 00:28:32,293
- You live here?
- Yeah.
500
00:28:32,794 --> 00:28:33,794
Here?
501
00:28:42,762 --> 00:28:44,514
- Thank you.
- Yeah.
502
00:28:46,176 --> 00:28:50,353
So, this is where you were whenever
we would talk on the phone, huh?
503
00:28:50,645 --> 00:28:51,646
Yeah.
504
00:28:52,188 --> 00:28:54,357
They're letting me stay here
till I find a place.
505
00:28:54,441 --> 00:28:55,900
Rooms open up all the time.
506
00:28:55,984 --> 00:28:57,569
Oh, I'll bet.
507
00:29:00,071 --> 00:29:02,198
- God, the smell in here.
- Yeah.
508
00:29:02,532 --> 00:29:03,532
Yeah.
509
00:29:04,200 --> 00:29:05,535
But you get used to it.
510
00:29:05,994 --> 00:29:07,328
Oh, okay.
511
00:29:08,705 --> 00:29:10,745
I didn't think you were ever
gonna talk to me again.
512
00:29:11,298 --> 00:29:14,102
- You were so angry.
- I told you you wouldn't like it.
513
00:29:14,144 --> 00:29:15,396
I did not.
514
00:29:15,670 --> 00:29:18,131
- It was a little scary.
- I'm sorry.
515
00:29:20,925 --> 00:29:21,968
Look, um...
516
00:29:24,053 --> 00:29:25,889
my guesthouse is open.
517
00:29:26,055 --> 00:29:29,768
Um... It used to be Ted's
music studio, but...
518
00:29:30,351 --> 00:29:32,896
but he's... he's not using it. Um...
519
00:29:34,564 --> 00:29:35,774
But you're welcome to.
520
00:29:36,232 --> 00:29:37,317
Welcome to what?
521
00:29:38,401 --> 00:29:39,705
To come and stay with us.
522
00:29:40,945 --> 00:29:42,739
Wow, that's very generous.
523
00:29:43,531 --> 00:29:45,241
But you don't have to take pity on me
524
00:29:45,325 --> 00:29:47,577
just because I'm a 41-year-old
barren woman
525
00:29:47,660 --> 00:29:49,829
sleeping in an assisted living facility.
526
00:29:49,913 --> 00:29:51,289
Yes, I do.
527
00:29:52,499 --> 00:29:54,375
Seriously, come.
528
00:29:56,377 --> 00:29:57,587
It'd be nice having you there.
529
00:29:59,547 --> 00:30:00,632
Thank you.
530
00:30:02,342 --> 00:30:04,469
- Now can I give you a hug?
- No.
531
00:30:05,887 --> 00:30:06,887
Come here.
532
00:30:12,727 --> 00:30:13,727
That's good.
533
00:30:14,979 --> 00:30:16,606
- You're a good hugger.
- Aww.
534
00:30:18,316 --> 00:30:19,442
All right.
535
00:30:19,526 --> 00:30:20,777
Here we go.
536
00:30:23,571 --> 00:30:24,572
Told you.