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How 'bout you
start at the very beginning?

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Tell us about your early childhood.

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My early childhood.

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Well, my parents adopted
me when I was a baby.

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And about four years later,

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they adopted my younger brother, Gabe.

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And was he a
welcome addition to the family

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or an intruder?

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We got along great.

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Things were good up until about age nine.

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What happened?

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Well, my dad took a new job

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that kept him out of the
house most of the time.

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So I barely saw him and
I started acting out.

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The times that I did see him,

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I tended to bring more anger out of him.

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Was he ever abusive towards you?

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I wouldn't call it abusive.

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It was a stressful time
for him and our family.

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But unfortunately,

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any closeness that I had with my dad

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started to unravel at that time.

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Did your family
have any improvements

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by the time you reached your teen years?

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No, things pretty much stayed the same,

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but one thing that they
changed with me though

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is who I started hanging around.

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When I was 14, I met this kid named Dave

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and it wasn't long before him and I

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were real good friends.

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Alright, let's see what we got here.

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No, no, no, no, no.

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Hey, what's that?

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That's the story I'm writing.

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What are you writing a story for?

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It's for my writing class.

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That stinks, man.

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Well, it's not that bad.

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I'm kind of enjoying writing it.

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Whatever, man.

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Why isn't there every anything on?

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Oh, here we go.

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Do you guys value the
people in your life?

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Do you guys value your friends?

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How about your parents and siblings?

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Do you guys value them?

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How about the bully at your school?

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How many of you value him or her?

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Nobody ever loves the bullies, do they?

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Not something you typically
think about, right?

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But you know what?

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Jesus loves them.

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In fact,

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Jesus loved and approached

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the people who were
looked down on the most

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in the society of his day.

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The guy we're gonna take
a look at was despised.

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Like a bully

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who might shake down
someone for the lunch money,

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this guy would shake down
people for extra money

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on top of what they owed in taxes.

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His name was Zacchaeus

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and we're gonna look at how
Jesus responded to this man.

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Turn with me to Luke chapter 19.

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How was Sunday school boys?

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- Good.
- Fine.

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What'd you learn?

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John, what was the lesson about?

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It was,

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he was talking about this short dude

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and I think his name was like Zach.

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Zacchaeus?

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Yeah, yeah, I think that was it.

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What'd you learn about Zacchaeus?

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I don't remember.

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How many times do I need to tell you

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you need to pay attention in class?

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Pastor Marcus brought
this up several times.

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You need to pay attention in class

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and stop distracting other kids.

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How many times do we have
to have this conversation?

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Then she came stomping
down the stairs in a fury,

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stomped her way into the living room

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and got right up into her dad's face.

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"Why won't you let me go to
the prom," she exclaimed.

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Hello?

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Hey John, you've
got to come over, man.

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Why, what's going on?

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My brother invited
us to a party tonight.

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I don't know.

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I'm kind of in the middle of something.

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You're not gonna
want to miss this party, man.

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There's gonna be high school chicks there.

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Really?

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Yeah, now come over.

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All right, I'm coming.

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Why don't you guys take a look around,

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see if you know anybody?

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Come on, let's go.

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Hey, you guys want some of this?

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No, thanks.

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You sure man?

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What about you?

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Yeah, yeah, I'll try.

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Oh yeah dude, puff it up, bro.

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It's good, man.

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Come on.

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Try it.

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Man, let me see that thing.

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Jasmine, are you okay?

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What happened?

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Please, lock the door.

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Jasmine, talk to me.

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What happened?

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I was raped.

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What?

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Oh my God, Jasmine, I am so sorry.

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Is there anything, anything I can do?

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Could you stay here a while?

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I really don't want to be alone right now.

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Come here, come here.

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So after that
party, what happened?

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Dave and I continued smoking weed.

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And when we got bored with that,

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we started trying other things.

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That certainly didn't help
things with my parents.

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Eventually, it reached a tipping point.

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I remember that day so clearly.

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It was a few days before my 18th birthday,

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They gave me an ultimatum
and I wasn't having it

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so I moved out.

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What did you do?

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How did you get by?

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I thought I had it all figured out.

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I moved in with Dave and his brother

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and sure, things were fine for awhile.

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But then reality came.

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We spent most of our money on drugs

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instead of on bills
that needed to be paid.

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In fact, we even stole from
neighbors a couple of times

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to come up with money.

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Ugh.

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What about your family during this time?

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Did they try to reach out
to you, try to help you?

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Yeah, they tried.

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I just didn't respond.

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Was there anything good
that came out of that time?

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Yeah.

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I met Kayla.

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Then her and I got
married in April of 2008.

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Did things ever
improve with your family?

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A little bit.

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As much as I would allow.

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Do we really need to go to
my parents' house today?

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Yes, we made plans with them.

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Why did I do that?

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Can we just cancel with them?

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Look, you've already bought a gift.

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Let's just go, have dinner,
and then we can leave, okay?

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Yeah, okay.

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I'm 'bout to take the dog out.

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Alright.

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John, you ready to go?

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John?

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What are you doing?

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The light was on in the garage.

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You ready to go?

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Yeah.

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Let's go.

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Hey guys, glad you could make it.

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- Hey dad.
- Hey.

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Kayla.
Hi.

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- Come on in.
- Thanks.

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Hey guys.

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Hey Gabe, still haven't
moved out of here yet?

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Not yet.

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What are you, like 24?

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23.

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What's the hold up, man?

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Actually Gabe's working
on that right now.

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Oh yeah, how you doing that?

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He's applying around to colleges.

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What are you, his spokesperson, dad?

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Let him answer for himself.

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John, Kayla.

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Hey.

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Oh, so good to see you.

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Happy mother's day mom.

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Ah thanks.

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Happy mother's day.

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They're beautiful.

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So how are you two doing?

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- We're all right.
- Yeah.

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Well, come on in,
make yourselves at home.

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Dinner's almost ready.

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John, how's the job coming along?

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It's a job.

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Nothing new to report.

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Kayla, how about you?

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How's the dentist office treating you?

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My job's going great, yeah.

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Got to go to the bathroom.

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I'll be back.

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So how was the drive over here, Kayla?

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Oh, it was smooth.

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That was until we hit traffic.

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I swear, couldn't it be
just one time in the year

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where there's like no
construction anywhere?

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Just one time, that's all I ask, you know?

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Can you excuse me?

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And maybe it's just me,

211
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but it seems like every time I get

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to one of those constructions,

213
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it's right when that sign flips to stop

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and then they make me sit
there and wait like forever?

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You know what I mean?

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Yeah?

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Hey dad, what's up?

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Everything okay?

219
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What do you mean?

220
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You were in there for quite a while.

221
00:17:07,026 --> 00:17:10,229
You think I was in there
using drugs, don't you?

222
00:17:10,230 --> 00:17:12,313
I didn't say that, did I?

223
00:17:12,314 --> 00:17:13,399
You didn't have to say it.

224
00:17:13,400 --> 00:17:15,002
I could see it on your face.

225
00:17:16,020 --> 00:17:18,732
Why is it every time I come over here,

226
00:17:18,733 --> 00:17:19,566
you got to do this to me, man?

227
00:17:19,567 --> 00:17:20,828
I'm just trying to look out for you.

228
00:17:20,829 --> 00:17:22,719
Oh yeah, by accusing me?

229
00:17:22,720 --> 00:17:24,374
By trying to run my life?

230
00:17:24,375 --> 00:17:25,525
I am not trying to run your life.

231
00:17:25,526 --> 00:17:26,537
Really?

232
00:17:26,538 --> 00:17:27,531
Yes really.

233
00:17:27,531 --> 00:17:28,364
What is going on over here?

234
00:17:28,365 --> 00:17:30,423
Nothing, we're leaving.

235
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Come on, get your purse.

236
00:17:35,770 --> 00:17:36,770
- What?
- Come on.

237
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Please don't go.

238
00:17:40,495 --> 00:17:41,495
I'm sorry, mom.

239
00:18:14,154 --> 00:18:16,803
Why did you get into it with him again?

240
00:18:18,200 --> 00:18:21,549
I'm sorry, I didn't intend
to start an argument with him.

241
00:18:21,550 --> 00:18:23,039
We've talked about this.

242
00:18:23,040 --> 00:18:25,453
You've got to meet him where he's at.

243
00:18:29,470 --> 00:18:30,603
How do you do it?

244
00:18:32,520 --> 00:18:33,713
How do you talk to him?

245
00:18:35,280 --> 00:18:38,767
Try to make him see that you love him.

246
00:18:41,610 --> 00:18:42,860
You're right.

247
00:19:01,500 --> 00:19:03,939
Wow, it's like clockwork.

248
00:19:03,940 --> 00:19:05,909
You're always out of here right at three.

249
00:19:05,910 --> 00:19:06,910
Yep.

250
00:19:08,020 --> 00:19:09,199
All right, I'll see you tomorrow, man.

251
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See you tomorrow.

252
00:19:37,326 --> 00:19:39,753
Hey man, hey, where's Dave at?

253
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Kitchen.

254
00:19:49,310 --> 00:19:50,953
Hey buddy, how you doing?

255
00:19:52,240 --> 00:19:53,240
Hey Dave.

256
00:19:54,695 --> 00:19:55,893
Got your stuff right here.

257
00:20:06,780 --> 00:20:10,563
Actually, I'm gonna need
$150 from you this time.

258
00:20:12,369 --> 00:20:14,159
I always pay $120 a gram.

259
00:20:14,160 --> 00:20:15,160
What can I say?

260
00:20:15,852 --> 00:20:16,852
The price has gone up.

261
00:20:18,028 --> 00:20:19,009
You're gonna treat me

262
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like any of your other customers, man?

263
00:20:20,153 --> 00:20:21,303
Come on, we're friends.

264
00:20:22,412 --> 00:20:25,089
It's business, John, nothing personal.

265
00:20:25,090 --> 00:20:27,533
It's $150, take it or leave it.

266
00:20:30,860 --> 00:20:32,593
Can't believe I'm doing this.

267
00:20:37,250 --> 00:20:39,433
You know, there's other
dealers I can go to.

268
00:20:40,400 --> 00:20:43,519
Yeah, but even at 150 bucks,

269
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you're still getting
a better deal from me.

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So quit whining.

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Thanks, friend.

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00:20:50,551 --> 00:20:51,637
Any time, buddy.

273
00:22:07,703 --> 00:22:10,649
Where did you learn
your survival skills?

274
00:22:10,650 --> 00:22:12,903
Oh, I picked it up
along the way through life.

275
00:22:14,215 --> 00:22:15,215
Who taught you to hunt?

276
00:22:17,335 --> 00:22:18,735
I learned a little along the way.

277
00:22:20,017 --> 00:22:21,567
I'm mainly though, a scavenger.

278
00:22:45,260 --> 00:22:48,664
People need people though,
that's how we're designed.

279
00:22:48,665 --> 00:22:51,739
I mean based off of how someone was raised

280
00:22:51,740 --> 00:22:54,373
or how their parents parented them.

281
00:23:05,850 --> 00:23:06,850
What you doing?

282
00:23:07,827 --> 00:23:09,553
What's it look like I'm doing?

283
00:23:11,399 --> 00:23:14,309
You messing with that
stupid novel again?

284
00:23:14,310 --> 00:23:16,469
Why do you even waste your time with that?

285
00:23:16,470 --> 00:23:18,629
It's not a waste of time.

286
00:23:18,630 --> 00:23:20,379
I'm making progress.

287
00:23:20,380 --> 00:23:21,213
Oh.

288
00:23:21,214 --> 00:23:23,035
I wrote a page the other day.

289
00:23:23,036 --> 00:23:25,856
Oh, well woopty doo, you wrote a page.

290
00:23:25,857 --> 00:23:27,339
John, you've been messing with that thing

291
00:23:27,340 --> 00:23:28,399
for as long as I've known you.

292
00:23:28,400 --> 00:23:29,789
You're never gonna finish it.

293
00:23:29,790 --> 00:23:32,555
Just accept it, you're
not a writer, honey.

294
00:23:32,556 --> 00:23:35,059
What do you know Kayla?

295
00:23:35,060 --> 00:23:36,429
Just 'cause you have no ambitions,

296
00:23:36,430 --> 00:23:38,159
doesn't mean you got to
trample all over mine.

297
00:23:38,160 --> 00:23:40,427
That is not true and you know it.

298
00:23:40,428 --> 00:23:42,039
It is true and I know that.

299
00:23:42,040 --> 00:23:44,032
You're still what, a receptionist?

300
00:23:44,033 --> 00:23:45,031
So?

301
00:23:45,031 --> 00:23:45,870
You said you wanted
to be hygienist, right?

302
00:23:45,871 --> 00:23:47,270
Yeah.

303
00:23:47,271 --> 00:23:48,283
What's going on with that?

304
00:23:48,284 --> 00:23:49,117
I'm still thinking about it.

305
00:23:49,117 --> 00:23:49,950
Okay, but you're not doing.

306
00:23:49,951 --> 00:23:51,799
I'm doing something here.
I've been looking online.

307
00:23:51,800 --> 00:23:54,079
Yes, yes, are you looking to do it?

308
00:23:54,080 --> 00:23:56,279
Get a book, start reading, start writing,

309
00:23:56,280 --> 00:23:57,926
start pushing yourself.

310
00:23:57,927 --> 00:23:58,920
What have you done for years?

311
00:23:58,921 --> 00:24:00,288
Nothing!

312
00:24:00,289 --> 00:24:02,310
I've listened to you
run me into the ground.

313
00:24:02,311 --> 00:24:04,279
You're supposed to be my muse.

314
00:24:04,280 --> 00:24:06,709
But every time you come
around, I'm uninspired.

315
00:24:06,710 --> 00:24:08,509
I should be here showing you my work

316
00:24:08,510 --> 00:24:09,380
but I'm putting it away.

317
00:24:09,381 --> 00:24:10,589
How is it my fault?

318
00:24:10,590 --> 00:24:11,743
It's just your fault.

319
00:25:33,799 --> 00:25:36,549
Kayla, what are you doing here?

320
00:25:37,710 --> 00:25:38,792
What am I doing here?

321
00:25:38,793 --> 00:25:39,873
What are you doing in here?

322
00:25:40,880 --> 00:25:43,089
What's that behind your back?

323
00:25:43,090 --> 00:25:44,340
It's just a socket set.

324
00:25:45,380 --> 00:25:47,291
Then why are you hiding
it behind your back?

325
00:25:47,292 --> 00:25:51,933
I don't know, you scared me, just, see?

326
00:25:54,063 --> 00:25:55,513
I'm just organizing my tools.

327
00:25:57,870 --> 00:25:59,270
This early in the morning?

328
00:26:01,920 --> 00:26:03,459
Can I see what's inside the box?

329
00:26:03,460 --> 00:26:04,604
Why?

330
00:26:04,605 --> 00:26:06,596
Since when are you interested in tools?

331
00:26:06,597 --> 00:26:10,149
I'm not, I just want to
see what's inside the box.

332
00:26:10,150 --> 00:26:12,299
It's just a socket set, Kayla.

333
00:26:12,300 --> 00:26:15,189
Then you shouldn't have
any trouble showing it to me.

334
00:26:15,190 --> 00:26:18,141
Why don't you just go
back inside the house

335
00:26:18,142 --> 00:26:19,040
and leave me alone?

336
00:26:19,041 --> 00:26:22,993
No, not until you show
me what's in that box.

337
00:26:25,500 --> 00:26:27,859
I told you it was just a socket set.

338
00:26:27,860 --> 00:26:30,468
I shouldn't have to show
you what's in this box.

339
00:26:30,469 --> 00:26:31,302
Let it go.

340
00:26:31,303 --> 00:26:32,363
Let it go, let it go.

341
00:26:42,776 --> 00:26:44,026
What is that?

342
00:26:48,700 --> 00:26:49,600
What do you think it is?

343
00:26:49,601 --> 00:26:51,653
If I knew, I wouldn't have asked you.

344
00:26:53,220 --> 00:26:55,993
Obviously it's some kind of drug.

345
00:26:57,510 --> 00:26:58,510
What kind?

346
00:27:00,983 --> 00:27:02,438
Answer me!

347
00:27:02,439 --> 00:27:04,458
It's heroine.

348
00:27:04,459 --> 00:27:05,542
It's heroine.

349
00:27:09,601 --> 00:27:10,841
How long you been doing this?

350
00:27:14,430 --> 00:27:15,430
A long time.

351
00:27:19,280 --> 00:27:21,273
God, since before we met?

352
00:27:27,480 --> 00:27:28,883
I can't believe you.

353
00:27:30,657 --> 00:27:32,557
You kept this from me the entire time?

354
00:27:37,105 --> 00:27:39,239
I don't even know who you are.

355
00:27:41,800 --> 00:27:42,913
Kayla, wait!

356
00:27:57,630 --> 00:27:58,630
What are you doing?

357
00:27:59,463 --> 00:28:00,464
What does it look like?

358
00:28:00,465 --> 00:28:01,298
I'm leaving.

359
00:28:01,299 --> 00:28:02,480
Why?

360
00:28:02,481 --> 00:28:03,483
We can work this out.

361
00:28:03,484 --> 00:28:05,759
Oh, you think it's
that simple, huh John?

362
00:28:05,760 --> 00:28:08,610
You kept this from me for the
entire time I've known you.

363
00:28:10,204 --> 00:28:11,870
How can I trust anything you say anymore?

364
00:28:17,475 --> 00:28:19,462
I'm going to my mother's house.

365
00:28:19,463 --> 00:28:22,073
Kayla, how can I fix this?

366
00:28:26,310 --> 00:28:27,310
Don't go.

367
00:28:33,841 --> 00:28:34,841
Bye John.

368
00:29:48,178 --> 00:29:49,261
No, no way.

369
00:29:56,633 --> 00:29:59,114
It's gonna
be all right, Jasmine.

370
00:29:59,115 --> 00:30:00,469
How's it gonna be all right?

371
00:30:00,470 --> 00:30:02,710
You're gonna go to that clinic

372
00:30:02,711 --> 00:30:05,158
and you're gonna take care of this.

373
00:30:05,159 --> 00:30:06,789
So you really think I should?

374
00:30:06,790 --> 00:30:09,283
I don't see that you
have any other choice.

375
00:30:10,120 --> 00:30:11,823
You're not ready to be a mother.

376
00:30:13,460 --> 00:30:14,460
Your mom's right.

377
00:30:15,630 --> 00:30:17,276
You didn't ask for this

378
00:30:17,277 --> 00:30:19,177
and you shouldn't be burdened with it.

379
00:30:23,410 --> 00:30:25,229
I don't know.

380
00:30:25,230 --> 00:30:26,580
How would you support it?

381
00:30:28,534 --> 00:30:29,773
It's your only good option.

382
00:30:35,837 --> 00:30:38,119
So when your wife walked out,

383
00:30:38,120 --> 00:30:39,863
how did you process that?

384
00:30:42,615 --> 00:30:43,763
Anger,

385
00:30:46,040 --> 00:30:47,040
self pity,

386
00:30:49,440 --> 00:30:54,440
and honestly, I didn't want to
take any of the blame for it.

387
00:30:58,957 --> 00:31:02,327
I made excuses for myself
and I blamed everyone else,

388
00:31:04,500 --> 00:31:05,500
including her.

389
00:31:08,271 --> 00:31:09,271
But

390
00:31:12,098 --> 00:31:16,380
I couldn't deny that I
wanted her back in my life.

391
00:31:20,514 --> 00:31:22,693
Was there any kind of
a wake up call for you?

392
00:31:24,420 --> 00:31:27,823
No, quite the contrary, my friend.

393
00:31:29,650 --> 00:31:32,463
I actually spiraled
further out of control.

394
00:32:26,970 --> 00:32:29,463
Hi John, this is Rick calling again.

395
00:32:30,450 --> 00:32:33,050
I'm wondering why you didn't
show up for work today.

396
00:32:34,511 --> 00:32:36,353
You need to call me back ASAP.

397
00:32:38,100 --> 00:32:39,100
Goodbye.

398
00:32:46,910 --> 00:32:48,319
Okay, alright.

399
00:32:48,320 --> 00:32:50,883
I'll take care of it, yeah.

400
00:32:51,731 --> 00:32:52,564
I got to go.

401
00:32:52,565 --> 00:32:53,959
Come in.

402
00:32:53,960 --> 00:32:55,853
John, close the door, have a seat.

403
00:33:02,430 --> 00:33:03,593
So where were you yesterday?

404
00:33:05,520 --> 00:33:07,319
I was at home sick.

405
00:33:07,320 --> 00:33:08,920
Why didn't you give us a call?

406
00:33:13,930 --> 00:33:17,150
I guess I fell asleep

407
00:33:18,617 --> 00:33:21,359
and I lost track of time.

408
00:33:21,360 --> 00:33:23,729
Well, you know that's no excuse John.

409
00:33:23,730 --> 00:33:25,259
You know, you've got to give us a call

410
00:33:25,260 --> 00:33:26,563
no matter what the reason.

411
00:33:27,470 --> 00:33:28,913
Don't let this happen again.

412
00:33:30,390 --> 00:33:31,390
I won't.

413
00:33:32,530 --> 00:33:33,530
Alright.

414
00:33:36,620 --> 00:33:37,620
You okay?

415
00:33:38,800 --> 00:33:39,950
You don't look so good.

416
00:33:41,758 --> 00:33:42,889
I'm fine.

417
00:33:42,890 --> 00:33:43,890
I'm alright.

418
00:33:44,810 --> 00:33:45,810
Okay.

419
00:33:46,900 --> 00:33:49,277
Well then you can get back to work.

420
00:34:44,031 --> 00:34:46,955
Call from John Yessima.

421
00:34:46,956 --> 00:34:51,956
Call from

422
00:34:58,171 --> 00:35:00,088
Call from John Yessima.

423
00:35:11,817 --> 00:35:12,650
This is Kayla.

424
00:35:12,651 --> 00:35:14,574
Sorry you missed me, leave me a message.

425
00:35:30,105 --> 00:35:31,543
Gonna this weekend?

426
00:35:33,420 --> 00:35:34,420
Nope.

427
00:35:37,690 --> 00:35:40,217
John, is everything all right?

428
00:35:45,286 --> 00:35:47,586
Just had a rough couple
of days, that's all.

429
00:35:48,770 --> 00:35:50,977
I'm sorry to hear that, man.

430
00:35:50,978 --> 00:35:52,613
Is there anything I can do to help?

431
00:35:57,050 --> 00:36:00,267
There's nothing you
can do for me, George.

432
00:36:00,268 --> 00:36:02,969
You want to talk about it?

433
00:36:02,970 --> 00:36:03,970
Nope.

434
00:36:06,213 --> 00:36:08,470
Well, if you ever change your mind,

435
00:36:09,340 --> 00:36:10,540
I'd love to talk to you.

436
00:36:11,770 --> 00:36:14,289
I've been through some
rough things myself,

437
00:36:14,290 --> 00:36:16,490
including some bad
habits I had to overcome.

438
00:36:18,360 --> 00:36:20,493
Maybe you can relate to
my story in some way.

439
00:36:23,201 --> 00:36:24,761
What kind of bad habits did you have?

440
00:36:25,803 --> 00:36:27,069
You name it, man,

441
00:36:27,070 --> 00:36:31,763
alcohol, cocaine, prescription drugs.

442
00:36:33,120 --> 00:36:34,420
I was in really bad shape,

443
00:36:35,609 --> 00:36:38,593
but the Lord came and rescued
me when I was at my lowest.

444
00:36:40,090 --> 00:36:41,090
So what about you?

445
00:36:43,479 --> 00:36:45,529
Are you dealing with something like that?

446
00:36:47,490 --> 00:36:49,439
I don't want to talk about it.

447
00:36:49,440 --> 00:36:51,333
All right, I respect that.

448
00:36:53,817 --> 00:36:55,257
Well if you decide you want to talk,

449
00:36:55,861 --> 00:36:56,901
you know where to find me.

450
00:36:57,977 --> 00:36:58,977
Yeah.

451
00:37:39,215 --> 00:37:40,970
John, you love
your wife a lot, right?

452
00:37:40,971 --> 00:37:43,380
Call from John.

453
00:37:43,381 --> 00:37:48,381
Call from John.

454
00:37:56,188 --> 00:38:00,229
Hi John.

455
00:38:00,230 --> 00:38:01,230
Hi, Kayla.

456
00:38:03,066 --> 00:38:04,066
What is it, John?

457
00:38:06,040 --> 00:38:07,250
I just want to talk.

458
00:38:08,210 --> 00:38:09,643
So talk.

459
00:38:13,400 --> 00:38:15,467
Well, how are you doing?

460
00:38:19,567 --> 00:38:21,116
How am I doing?

461
00:38:21,117 --> 00:38:22,893
How do you think I'm doing?

462
00:38:23,910 --> 00:38:25,279
I found out a couple of days ago

463
00:38:25,280 --> 00:38:27,239
that my husband is a drug addict.

464
00:38:27,240 --> 00:38:29,643
Kayla, what can I do
to say that I'm sorry?

465
00:38:31,730 --> 00:38:32,913
Stop using drugs.

466
00:38:33,763 --> 00:38:34,596
I will.

467
00:38:34,597 --> 00:38:35,961
I promise.

468
00:38:35,962 --> 00:38:37,442
Yeah, I believe that when I see it.

469
00:38:38,287 --> 00:38:39,659
I will quit.

470
00:38:39,660 --> 00:38:42,033
I don't trust you anymore, John.

471
00:38:43,290 --> 00:38:45,099
You've lied to me.

472
00:38:45,100 --> 00:38:48,999
I know that I lied,
but I'm not lying now.

473
00:38:49,000 --> 00:38:52,548
All of these years, you've lied to me.

474
00:38:52,549 --> 00:38:53,549
I will quit.

475
00:38:56,229 --> 00:39:01,174
Yeah, I heard all that
before from my drunk dad.

476
00:39:01,175 --> 00:39:02,342
I'm not him.

477
00:39:03,410 --> 00:39:04,410
I will quit.

478
00:39:08,820 --> 00:39:13,693
Can I come over there and
talk to you in person?

479
00:39:14,550 --> 00:39:17,949
No, I don't want to see you right now.

480
00:39:17,950 --> 00:39:19,249
When then?

481
00:39:19,250 --> 00:39:22,810
You stop using drugs
and then we'll talk.

482
00:39:28,338 --> 00:39:29,639
I got to go, bye.

483
00:39:29,640 --> 00:39:30,994
Wait, don't hang...

484
00:41:14,098 --> 00:41:15,098
Hey Dave.

485
00:41:18,054 --> 00:41:20,903
I'm gonna need you to deliver
some more to my house.

486
00:41:23,000 --> 00:41:24,400
I don't know, bring a bunch.

487
00:41:30,253 --> 00:41:33,703
All right, see you soon.

488
00:42:10,130 --> 00:42:11,130
John you in there?

489
00:42:15,420 --> 00:42:17,233
John, what's up, man?

490
00:42:18,437 --> 00:42:19,517
You want this stuff or not?

491
00:42:29,538 --> 00:42:30,538
John, are you here?

492
00:42:36,157 --> 00:42:37,595
John?

493
00:42:37,596 --> 00:42:38,693
Come on John, wake up, man.

494
00:43:09,478 --> 00:43:11,005
Is John in there?

495
00:43:11,006 --> 00:43:12,089
I'm his mom.

496
00:43:12,090 --> 00:43:14,221
He's alive, but we need to leave

497
00:43:14,222 --> 00:43:15,789
for the hospital right now, okay?

498
00:43:15,790 --> 00:43:18,602
You're welcome to ride
along, but we need to go now.

499
00:43:18,603 --> 00:43:19,765
I'm gonna ride with them.

500
00:43:19,766 --> 00:43:20,784
Can you follow us?

501
00:43:20,785 --> 00:43:21,785
Yeah.

502
00:43:36,910 --> 00:43:38,744
I called Gabe and Kayla

503
00:43:38,745 --> 00:43:41,029
and they're both on their way up here.

504
00:43:41,030 --> 00:43:43,019
How is he?

505
00:43:43,020 --> 00:43:44,020
He's stable.

506
00:43:44,882 --> 00:43:46,239
He's lucky the paramedics
got there when they did.

507
00:43:46,240 --> 00:43:47,549
How soon can we see him?

508
00:43:47,550 --> 00:43:48,440
Soon.

509
00:43:48,441 --> 00:43:49,789
I'll come back out and let you know.

510
00:43:49,790 --> 00:43:51,485
Thank you, doctor.

511
00:43:51,486 --> 00:43:52,836
Thank you, appreciate it.

512
00:44:02,046 --> 00:44:03,869
Like I said, I'm
glad he's fine in recovery.

513
00:44:03,870 --> 00:44:06,829
I'm only saying you guys
have to face the facts here,

514
00:44:06,830 --> 00:44:10,522
John's a screw up and he's
always gonna be a screw up.

515
00:44:10,523 --> 00:44:11,507
Keep your voice down.

516
00:44:11,508 --> 00:44:13,208
He's right there.

517
00:44:13,209 --> 00:44:14,042
I don't care if he hears me.

518
00:44:14,043 --> 00:44:15,809
John is not going to change.

519
00:44:15,810 --> 00:44:17,389
The sooner you guys realize that,

520
00:44:17,390 --> 00:44:19,523
the better off you're going to be.

521
00:44:27,683 --> 00:44:28,683
Morning, John.

522
00:44:30,250 --> 00:44:31,250
Morning.

523
00:44:32,210 --> 00:44:33,310
How are you feeling?

524
00:44:35,510 --> 00:44:36,510
Miserable.

525
00:44:38,090 --> 00:44:39,540
How else should I be feeling?

526
00:44:45,200 --> 00:44:46,783
So, where's everyone else?

527
00:44:48,190 --> 00:44:49,190
They're here.

528
00:44:50,820 --> 00:44:53,309
What, they don't want
to come in and see me?

529
00:44:53,310 --> 00:44:55,623
No, they do and they will.

530
00:44:59,235 --> 00:45:01,253
What about Kayla?

531
00:45:01,254 --> 00:45:02,929
Is she here?

532
00:45:02,930 --> 00:45:03,983
Yeah, she's here.

533
00:45:08,650 --> 00:45:09,700
And what about you?

534
00:45:12,323 --> 00:45:13,323
What about me?

535
00:45:16,471 --> 00:45:18,500
You come here here to lecture me?

536
00:45:19,840 --> 00:45:20,840
No.

537
00:45:23,907 --> 00:45:24,850
Then why are you the
only one in here dad?

538
00:45:24,850 --> 00:45:25,850
What do you want?

539
00:45:31,920 --> 00:45:33,103
Where do I begin?

540
00:45:39,350 --> 00:45:40,503
I'm sorry, John.

541
00:45:42,642 --> 00:45:43,642
For what?

542
00:45:47,260 --> 00:45:49,623
I'm sorry for being
an absent father to you.

543
00:45:55,902 --> 00:45:58,552
My dad when I was younger
was always too busy for me.

544
00:46:01,340 --> 00:46:04,293
He was hardly around and
I barely got to know him.

545
00:46:06,760 --> 00:46:09,829
I promised myself when I had kids,

546
00:46:09,830 --> 00:46:13,580
I wouldn't do that, but I did

547
00:46:16,147 --> 00:46:17,147
and I have to own that.

548
00:46:18,686 --> 00:46:19,686
I'm sorry.

549
00:46:22,620 --> 00:46:26,839
So am asking can you forgive me

550
00:46:26,840 --> 00:46:29,643
for all the times that I've
been a lousy father to you?

551
00:46:51,331 --> 00:46:52,331
Thank you.

552
00:46:53,755 --> 00:46:55,443
I love you, John.

553
00:46:57,465 --> 00:46:58,465
I hope you know that.

554
00:47:00,630 --> 00:47:02,320
I'll send the others in.

555
00:47:32,350 --> 00:47:33,350
Love you.

556
00:47:40,585 --> 00:47:41,585
I love you, John.

557
00:47:42,430 --> 00:47:43,430
See you later.

558
00:48:00,630 --> 00:48:01,630
Hey Dave.

559
00:48:02,420 --> 00:48:04,952
John, how's it going?

560
00:48:04,953 --> 00:48:06,739
Fine, what do you want?

561
00:48:06,740 --> 00:48:08,249
Come on, man.

562
00:48:08,250 --> 00:48:11,123
Is that any way to talk to the
friend who saved your life?

563
00:48:12,030 --> 00:48:13,430
So is that why you called?

564
00:48:14,590 --> 00:48:17,140
Well then, because we
never got to make our deal.

565
00:48:17,980 --> 00:48:19,563
It's not gonna happen, man.

566
00:48:21,246 --> 00:48:24,009
Ruined my marriage, it almost killed me.

567
00:48:24,010 --> 00:48:26,449
Well, you're fine now, aren't you?

568
00:48:26,450 --> 00:48:29,913
What you think you're the
only one who's ever overdosed?

569
00:48:30,810 --> 00:48:31,810
Happens all the time

570
00:48:31,811 --> 00:48:33,839
and people get right back on their feet.

571
00:48:33,840 --> 00:48:35,053
The answer's no, Dave.

572
00:48:36,250 --> 00:48:39,159
Don't ever bring that stuff
over here again, you got it?

573
00:48:39,160 --> 00:48:40,543
Come on, John.

574
00:48:48,142 --> 00:48:51,912
John, where you been
the past couple days?

575
00:48:51,913 --> 00:48:54,039
Long story, George.

576
00:48:54,040 --> 00:48:56,390
I better warn you, Rick
is really mad at you.

577
00:48:58,425 --> 00:49:00,913
Don't look now but here he comes.

578
00:49:04,163 --> 00:49:05,959
Meet me in my office, John.

579
00:49:05,960 --> 00:49:07,333
You and I need to talk.

580
00:49:23,710 --> 00:49:24,910
So what happened, man?

581
00:49:27,630 --> 00:49:29,040
What's it look like, man?

582
00:49:30,627 --> 00:49:31,627
He fired me.

583
00:49:37,390 --> 00:49:38,640
Nice knowing you, George.

584
00:49:39,890 --> 00:49:43,522
Well hey, it doesn't
have to end like that.

585
00:49:43,523 --> 00:49:45,066
Get a hold of me sometime.

586
00:49:45,067 --> 00:49:46,145
I don't know, maybe we hang out

587
00:49:46,146 --> 00:49:47,346
and get a burger or something.

588
00:49:48,425 --> 00:49:49,592
Yeah, maybe.

589
00:50:58,590 --> 00:51:00,190
Come on, John, I know you're in there.

590
00:51:01,637 --> 00:51:03,233
Come on, open the door.

591
00:51:09,580 --> 00:51:11,223
What do you want, Dave?

592
00:51:12,570 --> 00:51:15,079
I'm just stopping by
to see how you're doing.

593
00:51:15,080 --> 00:51:16,080
Come on, let me in.

594
00:51:21,140 --> 00:51:22,699
What's going on man?

595
00:51:22,700 --> 00:51:24,400
You don't got time for me anymore?

596
00:51:35,201 --> 00:51:38,803
All right, get to the point, Dave.

597
00:51:40,100 --> 00:51:43,353
Well, I thought you might
like to see my new product.

598
00:51:47,141 --> 00:51:49,029
I told you not to bring
that stuff over here.

599
00:51:49,030 --> 00:51:51,233
Sure, man but I know
you better than that.

600
00:51:52,990 --> 00:51:55,440
Well you're just wasting
your time anyway, man.

601
00:51:57,582 --> 00:51:59,106
I just got fired from my job

602
00:51:59,107 --> 00:52:02,573
so you won't be able to
make much money off of me.

603
00:52:03,462 --> 00:52:06,369
That's okay because
tonight it's on the house.

604
00:52:06,370 --> 00:52:08,039
I thought you and I
could do a line together

605
00:52:08,040 --> 00:52:09,183
for old time's sake.

606
00:52:11,450 --> 00:52:12,709
Man, I'm telling you,

607
00:52:12,710 --> 00:52:16,533
this stuff is the best
high you'll ever have.

608
00:52:23,780 --> 00:52:26,430
Johnny, I thought maybe
you'd like to have this back.

609
00:52:56,686 --> 00:52:59,422
I knew you'd come around.

610
00:54:02,025 --> 00:54:03,358
I'm worthless.

611
00:54:08,222 --> 00:54:10,555
God, if you're really there,

612
00:54:16,308 --> 00:54:17,308
show me.

613
00:54:45,683 --> 00:54:46,516
Hi, John.

614
00:54:46,517 --> 00:54:47,689
I hope you read this.

615
00:54:47,690 --> 00:54:49,029
I slipped this into your lunch bag

616
00:54:49,030 --> 00:54:50,759
while you were meeting with Rick.

617
00:54:50,760 --> 00:54:54,193
My number is 248-555-0199.

618
00:54:55,290 --> 00:54:58,039
I would like to meet up
sometime and tell you my story.

619
00:54:58,040 --> 00:55:00,869
Or if you just want to call
and talk, that's fine too.

620
00:55:00,870 --> 00:55:02,513
Your friend, George.

621
00:55:33,726 --> 00:55:34,726
Hi George.

622
00:55:39,726 --> 00:55:41,476
I'm hanging in there.

623
00:55:45,679 --> 00:55:49,846
I found the message that
you left in my lunch bag.

624
00:55:53,140 --> 00:55:54,140
Yeah.

625
00:55:58,108 --> 00:55:59,253
Yeah.

626
00:56:01,969 --> 00:56:02,973
Let's do that.

627
00:56:07,684 --> 00:56:08,517
So then I tell Rick,

628
00:56:08,518 --> 00:56:11,289
for all I know he's climbing
on Mount Everest right now.

629
00:56:11,290 --> 00:56:14,368
So then he stares at me and
doesn't even crack a smile.

630
00:56:14,369 --> 00:56:16,169
Then he turns around and walks away.

631
00:56:18,360 --> 00:56:21,033
All right, enough about work.

632
00:56:22,200 --> 00:56:26,519
So what made you decide
to meet with me for lunch

633
00:56:26,520 --> 00:56:27,520
anyway, John?

634
00:56:34,050 --> 00:56:35,363
My life's a mess, man.

635
00:56:38,846 --> 00:56:39,846
I feel hopeless.

636
00:56:43,550 --> 00:56:46,467
I don't know what to do about that.

637
00:56:48,230 --> 00:56:49,330
I know that feeling.

638
00:56:50,370 --> 00:56:51,370
I've been there.

639
00:56:53,920 --> 00:56:54,920
What did you do?

640
00:56:57,949 --> 00:56:59,799
Well, it took me a while to see it,

641
00:57:01,400 --> 00:57:03,400
but eventually I realized I needed help.

642
00:57:04,280 --> 00:57:05,880
I was getting nowhere on my own.

643
00:57:08,470 --> 00:57:10,669
So how did you get help?

644
00:57:10,670 --> 00:57:11,503
You remember when I told you

645
00:57:11,504 --> 00:57:13,563
I was going through some
rough things, right?

646
00:57:15,100 --> 00:57:16,637
Can I tell you about it?

647
00:57:19,710 --> 00:57:20,710
Sure.

648
00:57:21,500 --> 00:57:22,500
All right.

649
00:57:24,250 --> 00:57:29,250
Well, I grew up with a abusive
drug dealer for a father.

650
00:57:30,930 --> 00:57:32,949
And even though we despised him,

651
00:57:32,950 --> 00:57:34,869
my brother and I followed his example.

652
00:57:34,870 --> 00:57:36,749
But using and dealing drugs

653
00:57:36,750 --> 00:57:40,239
eventually landed me in prison
on a three year sentence.

654
00:57:40,240 --> 00:57:42,079
Yeah, I was miserable.

655
00:57:42,080 --> 00:57:43,369
And believe me at that time,

656
00:57:43,370 --> 00:57:44,970
I wanted nothing to do with God,

657
00:57:45,969 --> 00:57:48,763
but that didn't stop God
from reaching out to me.

658
00:57:50,164 --> 00:57:52,064
You see, there was this preacher there

659
00:57:52,990 --> 00:57:55,325
and he would come to the prison every week

660
00:57:55,326 --> 00:57:57,999
and share his testimony
and hold Bible studies.

661
00:57:58,000 --> 00:58:00,219
He would tell us how God changed him

662
00:58:00,220 --> 00:58:02,420
and took him from being
thief to a preacher.

663
00:58:03,680 --> 00:58:05,080
Yeah, I was still skeptical,

664
00:58:06,040 --> 00:58:08,990
but I saw joy and peace in this
guy that I couldn't ignore.

665
00:58:10,612 --> 00:58:15,612
So a few years later, I
find myself a free man,

666
00:58:18,470 --> 00:58:19,720
but I wasn't really free.

667
00:58:20,890 --> 00:58:22,169
After being clean for a few weeks,

668
00:58:22,170 --> 00:58:23,873
I went right back to using drugs.

669
00:58:25,210 --> 00:58:27,409
I bounced from one job to another,

670
00:58:27,410 --> 00:58:30,010
making a enough to survive
and supply my drug habit.

671
00:58:32,500 --> 00:58:34,823
Eventually I got evicted
from my apartment.

672
00:58:36,160 --> 00:58:39,589
So I stumbled my way over to
this Christian run rehab clinic

673
00:58:39,590 --> 00:58:41,339
and while I was there,

674
00:58:41,340 --> 00:58:43,290
this Christian therapist befriended me.

675
00:58:44,274 --> 00:58:46,653
He also told me how Jesus changed him.

676
00:58:47,902 --> 00:58:49,429
And you know what?

677
00:58:49,430 --> 00:58:50,680
I started to believe him.

678
00:58:52,004 --> 00:58:54,153
And I realized Jesus
could do the same for me.

679
00:58:55,460 --> 00:58:57,009
He told me that I needed to make Jesus

680
00:58:57,010 --> 00:58:59,883
the Lord and savior of
my life and so I did.

681
00:59:01,281 --> 00:59:02,114
And it's true,

682
00:59:02,115 --> 00:59:04,999
Jesus has completely changed my life.

683
00:59:05,000 --> 00:59:07,403
It didn't happen
overnight, but it happened.

684
00:59:09,430 --> 00:59:13,819
I am now a different person
today and with God's help,

685
00:59:13,820 --> 00:59:16,420
I made it through rehab and
eventually stayed clean.

686
00:59:18,150 --> 00:59:20,893
The Lord can help you too,
John, and he wants to,

687
00:59:22,240 --> 00:59:24,249
but he isn't gonna force
his way into your life,

688
00:59:24,250 --> 00:59:25,403
you have to let him in.

689
00:59:33,406 --> 00:59:35,213
Tell me more about this rehab place.

690
00:59:36,259 --> 00:59:37,699
They have an awesome staff there

691
00:59:37,700 --> 00:59:38,919
that treat you with love and dignity

692
00:59:38,920 --> 00:59:41,120
and they recognize their
great value to God.

693
00:59:42,081 --> 00:59:44,229
They want to see lives change through him.

694
00:59:44,230 --> 00:59:46,063
They'll be a huge help to you, John.

695
00:59:48,601 --> 00:59:49,851
Think about it.

696
00:59:59,580 --> 01:00:00,580
Hello?

697
01:00:01,300 --> 01:00:04,213
Hey Jasmine, I have some bad news.

698
01:00:06,070 --> 01:00:07,070
Our car won't start.

699
01:00:09,423 --> 01:00:10,763
Please tell me you're joking.

700
01:00:12,281 --> 01:00:14,147
No, I'm not.

701
01:00:14,148 --> 01:00:15,145
Of all the days,

702
01:00:15,146 --> 01:00:17,644
your car chooses today to break down?

703
01:00:17,645 --> 01:00:19,379
I don't know what to tell you.

704
01:00:19,380 --> 01:00:21,123
Maybe you could reschedule.

705
01:00:21,124 --> 01:00:23,181
No, no, I'm not rescheduling.

706
01:00:23,182 --> 01:00:24,519
I want this done and over with.

707
01:00:24,520 --> 01:00:25,720
I'll just catch the bus.

708
01:00:27,124 --> 01:00:28,249
Jasmine, your mother and I

709
01:00:28,250 --> 01:00:31,009
really wanted to be there with you today.

710
01:00:31,010 --> 01:00:32,010
I know.

711
01:00:34,825 --> 01:00:36,621
We love you.

712
01:00:36,622 --> 01:00:37,872
Love you too.

713
01:00:52,260 --> 01:00:54,040
Excuse me, do you mind if
I sit right here, dear?

714
01:00:54,041 --> 01:00:55,041
Not at all, dear.

715
01:01:03,102 --> 01:01:04,149
How far along are you?

716
01:01:04,150 --> 01:01:05,150
Excuse me?

717
01:01:06,950 --> 01:01:10,209
You're not showing
very much, but trust me,

718
01:01:10,210 --> 01:01:12,383
I know when someone's pregnant.

719
01:01:14,760 --> 01:01:16,563
I'm a little over four months.

720
01:01:17,820 --> 01:01:20,523
I always wondered what it
would be like to have a child.

721
01:01:25,400 --> 01:01:30,285
So you get to find out what
it's like in five months,

722
01:01:30,286 --> 01:01:32,353
assuming this is your first child.

723
01:01:35,821 --> 01:01:37,223
Is this is your first child?

724
01:01:38,087 --> 01:01:39,379
You know, I really don't
want to talk about this.

725
01:01:39,380 --> 01:01:40,883
Okay, I won't press you.

726
01:01:55,490 --> 01:01:56,773
Where are you headed?

727
01:01:57,697 --> 01:01:58,697
Does it matter?

728
01:01:59,420 --> 01:02:01,443
You certainly don't have to tell me.

729
01:02:02,630 --> 01:02:04,233
I'm just making conversation.

730
01:02:11,550 --> 01:02:14,223
Do you want to know why I
don't have any children?

731
01:02:15,140 --> 01:02:16,829
I was pregnant once,

732
01:02:16,830 --> 01:02:19,139
I was about your age.

733
01:02:19,140 --> 01:02:21,749
I decided I didn't want the baby,

734
01:02:21,750 --> 01:02:24,423
so I went to the clinic
and I had an abortion.

735
01:02:27,570 --> 01:02:29,979
Now I know God has forgiven me,

736
01:02:29,980 --> 01:02:31,829
but I've never forgotten about it.

737
01:02:31,830 --> 01:02:34,143
I wish I could take it back, but I can't.

738
01:02:35,741 --> 01:02:37,373
I hope you don't make that same mistake.

739
01:02:38,360 --> 01:02:41,407
Think about what I said
before you go through with it.

740
01:02:54,034 --> 01:02:54,867
So what was it about George

741
01:02:54,868 --> 01:02:56,550
that influenced you to go to rehab?

742
01:02:57,730 --> 01:03:00,723
George didn't seem like a
former addict to me, you know?

743
01:03:01,811 --> 01:03:04,309
He seemed so different

744
01:03:04,310 --> 01:03:06,979
from the former life
that he described to me.

745
01:03:06,980 --> 01:03:11,289
So I concluded that it
must have been rehab

746
01:03:11,290 --> 01:03:12,529
that did that for him.

747
01:03:12,530 --> 01:03:14,999
But he did credit Jesus, right?

748
01:03:15,000 --> 01:03:17,223
Right and I didn't believe him.

749
01:03:18,920 --> 01:03:21,259
So here you are

750
01:03:21,260 --> 01:03:23,653
ready to enter this
Christian run rehab clinic.

751
01:03:24,780 --> 01:03:27,230
What were your thoughts
before you went in there?

752
01:03:28,920 --> 01:03:31,003
I kept trying to psych myself up,

753
01:03:32,186 --> 01:03:36,689
telling myself if George
could do it, I can do it.

754
01:03:36,690 --> 01:03:37,859
All right, gentlemen,

755
01:03:37,860 --> 01:03:39,799
we have a copy of the schedule

756
01:03:39,800 --> 01:03:41,229
posted out here in the hallway.

757
01:03:41,230 --> 01:03:44,823
Breakfast is at seven,
followed by morning meds.

758
01:03:46,137 --> 01:03:47,120
Here's a list of classes,

759
01:03:47,121 --> 01:03:49,999
as well as group and
individual therapy sessions.

760
01:03:50,000 --> 01:03:51,719
Now if you need anything at all,

761
01:03:51,720 --> 01:03:54,819
you come find me or
one of the other techs.

762
01:03:54,820 --> 01:03:56,220
We'll be glad to assist you.

763
01:03:57,077 --> 01:03:57,910
All right.

764
01:03:57,910 --> 01:03:58,910
See you around John.

765
01:03:58,910 --> 01:03:59,810
It's good to meet you.

766
01:03:59,810 --> 01:04:00,810
You too.

767
01:04:02,550 --> 01:04:03,869
George, you're a good man.

768
01:04:03,870 --> 01:04:04,870
Thank you.

769
01:04:05,750 --> 01:04:06,717
Ready?

770
01:04:06,718 --> 01:04:08,038
I'll be praying for you, brother.

771
01:04:10,890 --> 01:04:14,549
Wow, this place brings back memories.

772
01:04:14,550 --> 01:04:15,550
That's a good thing.

773
01:04:16,570 --> 01:04:18,563
This is where everything
turned around for me.

774
01:04:20,360 --> 01:04:21,573
Honestly, George,

775
01:04:24,950 --> 01:04:26,149
I'm having second thoughts

776
01:04:26,150 --> 01:04:28,569
about this whole rehab thing, man.

777
01:04:28,570 --> 01:04:30,020
You're gonna be fine, John.

778
01:04:30,974 --> 01:04:33,569
I felt the same way when
I first came in here.

779
01:04:33,570 --> 01:04:35,169
You have my number.

780
01:04:35,170 --> 01:04:36,453
You can call me anytime.

781
01:04:37,710 --> 01:04:40,136
Believe me, John, I have your back

782
01:04:40,137 --> 01:04:42,099
and the people in here, they're great.

783
01:04:42,100 --> 01:04:44,150
They'll do whatever they can to help you.

784
01:04:49,630 --> 01:04:50,630
Come in.

785
01:04:54,960 --> 01:04:56,243
Good afternoon, John.

786
01:04:58,540 --> 01:04:59,890
Come on in and have a seat.

787
01:05:02,432 --> 01:05:05,193
So how are you feeling today?

788
01:05:06,110 --> 01:05:07,410
How do you think I feel?

789
01:05:08,440 --> 01:05:11,189
I understand if you're
not in a good mood, John.

790
01:05:11,190 --> 01:05:14,510
There's nothing easy
about detoxing from drugs.

791
01:05:14,511 --> 01:05:17,283
But you're here, that's what counts.

792
01:05:18,670 --> 01:05:21,403
But I have to ask, why did
you decide to come here?

793
01:05:22,510 --> 01:05:24,910
I don't see any other
way to get my life back.

794
01:05:26,050 --> 01:05:27,100
Tell me about that.

795
01:05:28,060 --> 01:05:29,813
What have you lost in your life?

796
01:05:31,210 --> 01:05:36,210
Well, let's see my
wife, my job, my health.

797
01:05:38,160 --> 01:05:39,313
What haven't I lost?

798
01:05:40,421 --> 01:05:42,959
I'm sorry to hear that, John.

799
01:05:42,960 --> 01:05:44,323
That's a lot to deal with.

800
01:05:45,874 --> 01:05:49,536
Now I want to ask you some
things about your family

801
01:05:49,537 --> 01:05:50,370
if that's okay.

802
01:05:50,371 --> 01:05:51,889
Go ahead.

803
01:05:51,890 --> 01:05:55,529
Are you close with
your parents or brother?

804
01:05:55,530 --> 01:05:56,530
No.

805
01:05:57,560 --> 01:05:59,783
How do you feel when you're around them?

806
01:05:59,784 --> 01:06:02,149
I don't know.

807
01:06:02,150 --> 01:06:07,150
I mean, I'm not around
'em much, but when I am,

808
01:06:08,162 --> 01:06:11,523
I want the visit to end
as quickly as possible.

809
01:06:12,584 --> 01:06:13,584
I see.

810
01:06:14,264 --> 01:06:16,323
And why is it you don't
want to be around them?

811
01:06:17,990 --> 01:06:19,363
It's been a long time,

812
01:06:20,300 --> 01:06:25,223
but I guess it all started

813
01:06:25,224 --> 01:06:28,973
when I had a falling out with
my parents as a teenager.

814
01:06:29,842 --> 01:06:31,123
Tell me about that.

815
01:06:33,870 --> 01:06:38,000
I remember I felt like
they wanted to control me,

816
01:06:45,220 --> 01:06:47,579
especially my dad.

817
01:06:47,580 --> 01:06:49,820
In what way did they control you?

818
01:06:49,821 --> 01:06:51,189
I don't know.

819
01:06:51,190 --> 01:06:54,229
Stuff like making me go to church,

820
01:06:54,230 --> 01:06:56,689
trying to keep me from my friends,

821
01:06:56,690 --> 01:06:59,089
setting ridiculous curfews.

822
01:06:59,090 --> 01:07:02,463
And they yelled at me all the time.

823
01:07:04,550 --> 01:07:08,269
Do you think that actions
were motivated out of concern

824
01:07:08,270 --> 01:07:10,763
or did they just enjoy
telling you what to do?

825
01:07:13,460 --> 01:07:14,873
Probably out of concern.

826
01:07:18,460 --> 01:07:20,519
Let's digress a little.

827
01:07:20,520 --> 01:07:23,929
You were adopted, right?

828
01:07:23,930 --> 01:07:25,537
Yes.

829
01:07:25,538 --> 01:07:28,935
Have you ever met your
biological mother or father?

830
01:07:28,936 --> 01:07:30,789
No.

831
01:07:30,790 --> 01:07:31,840
Have you wanted to?

832
01:07:33,826 --> 01:07:38,826
My birth mom, yes, but not my birth dad.

833
01:07:40,810 --> 01:07:43,033
Why not your birth dad?

834
01:07:46,770 --> 01:07:51,583
Because he raped my mom.

835
01:07:57,180 --> 01:07:58,730
I'm sorry to hear that, John.

836
01:08:00,570 --> 01:08:02,920
I can tell that is a
sensitive subject for you.

837
01:08:04,653 --> 01:08:05,630
We don't have to talk about that right now

838
01:08:05,631 --> 01:08:06,680
if you don't want to.

839
01:08:10,940 --> 01:08:12,790
I never talked to anyone about that

840
01:08:14,610 --> 01:08:15,710
other than my parents.

841
01:08:17,357 --> 01:08:20,493
Well, I'm here to help John,
if you want to talk about it,

842
01:08:24,069 --> 01:08:26,939
I don't even know
where to begin with that.

843
01:08:26,940 --> 01:08:29,662
Well, how old were you

844
01:08:29,663 --> 01:08:31,792
when you found out about the assault?

845
01:08:34,059 --> 01:08:35,510
I'll never forget that day.

846
01:08:38,587 --> 01:08:41,219
It was right after my 15th birthday.

847
01:08:43,059 --> 01:08:46,718
What were you feeling when
you first found out about it?

848
01:08:46,719 --> 01:08:50,657
Uh, confused, angry.

849
01:08:56,639 --> 01:08:58,602
Up until that point,

850
01:08:58,603 --> 01:09:01,219
I barely knew anything about my birth mom

851
01:09:02,130 --> 01:09:05,303
and nothing about my birth dad.

852
01:09:08,399 --> 01:09:09,700
I used to wonder about him

853
01:09:11,969 --> 01:09:16,969
But after that, I hated him.

854
01:09:23,870 --> 01:09:28,870
I always used to ask myself
why my birth mom gave me up.

855
01:09:32,600 --> 01:09:36,413
But suddenly it all made sense to me.

856
01:09:42,895 --> 01:09:45,062
It made me feel worthless,

857
01:09:50,280 --> 01:09:55,233
like I was a big mistake.

858
01:10:00,040 --> 01:10:01,883
You're not a mistake, John.

859
01:10:04,064 --> 01:10:05,414
And you're not your father.

860
01:10:07,150 --> 01:10:10,849
You've been created in the image of God

861
01:10:10,850 --> 01:10:12,740
and he loves you and values you

862
01:10:13,869 --> 01:10:15,543
regardless of where you came from.

863
01:10:18,184 --> 01:10:20,413
I really hope that you'll
come to accept that.

864
01:10:21,710 --> 01:10:24,583
Yeah, me too.

865
01:11:00,719 --> 01:11:02,279
Gabe.

866
01:11:02,280 --> 01:11:03,280
John.

867
01:11:05,990 --> 01:11:07,899
All right, well,

868
01:11:07,900 --> 01:11:10,239
I want to thank the three
of you for coming in here

869
01:11:10,240 --> 01:11:12,593
to join John and have
this talk as a family.

870
01:11:14,180 --> 01:11:16,468
John, I want to start

871
01:11:16,469 --> 01:11:18,789
by asking you to share your
thoughts with your family

872
01:11:18,790 --> 01:11:19,903
about why you're here.

873
01:11:22,120 --> 01:11:23,120
Well,

874
01:11:27,660 --> 01:11:32,630
my life is a mess and

875
01:11:36,460 --> 01:11:38,260
I needed to do something about that.

876
01:11:39,752 --> 01:11:42,187
So I'm here

877
01:11:44,557 --> 01:11:47,974
and I hope that you guys will support me.

878
01:11:51,517 --> 01:11:53,431
Of course, we'll support you John.

879
01:11:53,432 --> 01:11:55,073
And we're 100% behind you.

880
01:11:56,317 --> 01:11:58,517
Yeah, I mean, we're
all here for you, man.

881
01:12:01,799 --> 01:12:06,799
Now, I want each of you to take turns

882
01:12:07,634 --> 01:12:09,299
expressing how you feel towards John

883
01:12:09,300 --> 01:12:10,133
and how you would like

884
01:12:10,134 --> 01:12:13,308
to see your relationship improve with him

885
01:12:13,309 --> 01:12:14,383
and as a family.

886
01:12:16,023 --> 01:12:18,743
Gabe, let's start with you.

887
01:12:21,130 --> 01:12:25,183
Well, it's good you're getting help.

888
01:12:27,565 --> 01:12:30,173
So how do I feel toward you?

889
01:12:31,148 --> 01:12:33,963
I guess I feel distant,

890
01:12:34,850 --> 01:12:35,890
that's all I can think of.

891
01:12:36,929 --> 01:12:40,209
Would you like to expound
on that a little, Gabe?

892
01:12:40,210 --> 01:12:42,483
Why do you feel distant from John?

893
01:12:45,385 --> 01:12:47,903
I used to look up to
you when I was younger,

894
01:12:49,340 --> 01:12:52,697
but then one day you up and left

895
01:12:52,698 --> 01:12:54,339
and it's like you wanted
nothing else to do with me

896
01:12:54,340 --> 01:12:55,340
after that.

897
01:12:56,630 --> 01:12:57,709
Why man?

898
01:12:57,710 --> 01:12:59,349
Why did you disown us?

899
01:12:59,350 --> 01:13:01,539
What did we do to drive you away?

900
01:13:01,540 --> 01:13:03,042
Or was it that you cared more about drugs

901
01:13:03,043 --> 01:13:04,923
than you cared about us?

902
01:13:09,393 --> 01:13:12,375
What, you're not going to answer me?

903
01:13:12,376 --> 01:13:13,394
Gabe.

904
01:13:13,395 --> 01:13:15,029
Well, why isn't he answering me?

905
01:13:15,030 --> 01:13:17,782
What did we do to drive you away?

906
01:13:20,770 --> 01:13:22,202
You didn't do anything.

907
01:13:26,230 --> 01:13:27,230
None of you did.

908
01:13:29,816 --> 01:13:33,032
I just stopped caring about everything.

909
01:13:33,920 --> 01:13:37,029
You stopped caring about everything,

910
01:13:37,030 --> 01:13:38,713
including your family?

911
01:13:39,950 --> 01:13:43,039
So where do we stand with you now, John?

912
01:13:43,040 --> 01:13:45,829
Let's try to keep our tone constructive.

913
01:13:45,830 --> 01:13:47,937
I asked him a simple question.

914
01:13:47,938 --> 01:13:48,999
I know you're angry

915
01:13:49,000 --> 01:13:51,769
but let's try to keep a civil tone.

916
01:13:51,770 --> 01:13:52,778
You know what?

917
01:13:52,779 --> 01:13:53,778
This whole thing is stupid.

918
01:13:53,779 --> 01:13:54,999
I don't even know why I'm here.

919
01:13:55,000 --> 01:13:56,379
Gabe.

920
01:13:56,380 --> 01:13:57,580
This isn't helping anything.

921
01:14:02,020 --> 01:14:03,177
I'll go talk to him.

922
01:14:13,442 --> 01:14:16,919
You know, he's right about me.

923
01:14:16,920 --> 01:14:18,620
What he said back at the hospital,

924
01:14:21,141 --> 01:14:22,141
I'm a worthless screw up.

925
01:14:23,070 --> 01:14:24,163
No dad, I am.

926
01:14:25,600 --> 01:14:28,400
I don't even know why the two
of you would stick around.

927
01:14:29,464 --> 01:14:32,649
John, we may not approve
of everything you do,

928
01:14:32,650 --> 01:14:33,670
but we love you

929
01:14:34,650 --> 01:14:36,452
and nothing's going to change that.

930
01:14:37,740 --> 01:14:39,487
We'll never give up on you.

931
01:15:14,602 --> 01:15:15,602
Come in.

932
01:15:17,260 --> 01:15:20,159
John, my friend, ready
to grab some lunch?

933
01:15:20,160 --> 01:15:21,673
Yeah, I'm ready.

934
01:15:22,537 --> 01:15:25,067
Hey, you've been reading the Bible?

935
01:15:25,068 --> 01:15:26,709
Yeah.

936
01:15:26,710 --> 01:15:27,929
Well that's great.

937
01:15:27,930 --> 01:15:30,075
What are you reading right now?

938
01:15:30,076 --> 01:15:32,019
John Chapter 10.

939
01:15:32,020 --> 01:15:33,499
I'm very familiar with that chapter.

940
01:15:33,500 --> 01:15:34,900
You have any thoughts on it?

941
01:15:35,768 --> 01:15:39,829
Well, verse 10 really stood out to me.

942
01:15:39,830 --> 01:15:41,849
I've been sitting here thinking about it.

943
01:15:41,850 --> 01:15:43,976
That's a great verse.

944
01:15:43,977 --> 01:15:48,977
"The thief come not but for
to steal, kill and to destroy."

945
01:15:49,520 --> 01:15:52,599
I am come that they might have life

946
01:15:52,600 --> 01:15:55,099
"and that they might have
it more abundantly."

947
01:15:55,100 --> 01:15:56,743
Yeah.

948
01:15:56,744 --> 01:16:00,509
What does Jesus mean
by more abundant life?

949
01:16:00,510 --> 01:16:02,519
I believe he means that in him

950
01:16:02,520 --> 01:16:04,513
he wants us to live a thriving life,

951
01:16:05,360 --> 01:16:07,163
one full of joy and purpose.

952
01:16:09,151 --> 01:16:12,009
Anybody breathing can live a life,

953
01:16:12,010 --> 01:16:14,360
but in Jesus that life
could mean so much more.

954
01:16:15,650 --> 01:16:17,903
Take it from me, John, I lived both.

955
01:16:20,369 --> 01:16:23,019
And thank God I don't have
to go back to where I was.

956
01:16:25,575 --> 01:16:27,109
John, can't you see it?

957
01:16:27,110 --> 01:16:31,279
God has been reaching out
to you left and right.

958
01:16:31,280 --> 01:16:33,243
I mean look at your parents.

959
01:16:34,200 --> 01:16:36,106
They loved you unconditionally

960
01:16:36,107 --> 01:16:38,138
and have stood by your side

961
01:16:38,139 --> 01:16:40,440
with everything they've
been through with you.

962
01:16:41,510 --> 01:16:43,983
That's because of God in their lives.

963
01:16:45,582 --> 01:16:47,739
And look at George.

964
01:16:47,740 --> 01:16:50,973
How God's been working through
him to reach out to you.

965
01:16:52,840 --> 01:16:54,743
These are not the coincidences.

966
01:16:56,295 --> 01:17:00,123
John, what are you waiting for?

967
01:17:04,812 --> 01:17:05,812
Why?

968
01:17:08,559 --> 01:17:12,713
Why has God been trying
to reach out to me?

969
01:17:15,200 --> 01:17:16,933
I've done nothing good in my life.

970
01:17:20,842 --> 01:17:22,353
He loves you, John.

971
01:17:28,900 --> 01:17:33,763
He always has and always will.

972
01:17:39,780 --> 01:17:41,013
What do I do now?

973
01:17:45,630 --> 01:17:46,630
Let him in.

974
01:17:47,947 --> 01:17:51,443
Let Jesus in as Lord and savior.

975
01:18:05,050 --> 01:18:09,619
Okay, Adam, we will
see you in six months.

976
01:18:09,620 --> 01:18:10,729
Thanks, have a good day.

977
01:18:10,730 --> 01:18:11,730
You too.

978
01:18:15,998 --> 01:18:18,909
I have a delivery for our Kayla Gessler.

979
01:18:18,910 --> 01:18:19,860
That's me.

980
01:18:19,861 --> 01:18:21,083
You, sign here.

981
01:18:27,790 --> 01:18:29,245
Thank you.

982
01:18:29,246 --> 01:18:30,231
Have a great day.

983
01:18:30,232 --> 01:18:31,243
You too.

984
01:18:31,244 --> 01:18:33,161
So who are they from?

985
01:18:34,056 --> 01:18:37,883
There's not a name, but it's a poem.

986
01:18:40,487 --> 01:18:42,269
"I don't deserve you Kayla, this is true,"

987
01:18:42,270 --> 01:18:44,839
but that doesn't stop me from loving you.

988
01:18:44,840 --> 01:18:46,159
If you love the flowers,

989
01:18:46,160 --> 01:18:47,799
there's more to bloom.

990
01:18:47,800 --> 01:18:48,770
Come out of the office,

991
01:18:48,771 --> 01:18:50,327
"I'm in the next room."

992
01:18:51,702 --> 01:18:52,743
Who's out there Kayla?

993
01:18:53,665 --> 01:18:55,082
I have no idea.

994
01:19:13,825 --> 01:19:14,825
Hi Kayla.

995
01:19:16,039 --> 01:19:17,039
Hey.

996
01:19:21,628 --> 01:19:24,629
Join me for dinner tonight?

997
01:19:24,630 --> 01:19:27,030
I made reservations at
your favorite restaurant.

998
01:19:28,469 --> 01:19:29,469
You did, huh?

999
01:19:31,090 --> 01:19:32,190
Why should I join you?

1000
01:19:33,880 --> 01:19:38,880
Kayla, I am so, so
sorry that I hurt you.

1001
01:19:42,710 --> 01:19:46,638
And if I could take it all back, I would.

1002
01:19:46,639 --> 01:19:47,639
All I'm asking

1003
01:19:49,059 --> 01:19:53,362
is for you to let me try
and earn your trust back.

1004
01:19:57,889 --> 01:19:58,889
Wow.

1005
01:20:02,930 --> 01:20:04,043
You seem different.

1006
01:20:05,960 --> 01:20:08,760
Come to dinner with me and
I'll tell you all about it.

1007
01:20:14,638 --> 01:20:16,003
Okay, I'll join you.

1008
01:20:18,840 --> 01:20:20,109
What time?

1009
01:20:20,110 --> 01:20:21,929
As soon as you're done here.

1010
01:20:21,930 --> 01:20:24,003
I'll be right here sitting right there,

1011
01:20:24,882 --> 01:20:27,109
not going anywhere.

1012
01:20:27,110 --> 01:20:28,110
Okay.

1013
01:20:33,346 --> 01:20:36,263
Oh by the way, you look good, John.

1014
01:20:42,380 --> 01:20:45,467
Kayla, you look as beautiful as ever.

1015
01:22:03,790 --> 01:22:07,958
Hello, read this please
before you make your choice.

1016
01:22:47,809 --> 01:22:49,687
Laura Reel.

1017
01:23:03,447 --> 01:23:05,908
You're not
ready to be a mother.

1018
01:23:05,909 --> 01:23:07,211
How are you gonna support it?

1019
01:23:07,212 --> 01:23:10,049
It's your only good option.

1020
01:23:10,050 --> 01:23:12,112
Read this please,
before you make your choice.

1021
01:23:13,840 --> 01:23:15,286
Think about what I said

1022
01:23:15,287 --> 01:23:16,787
before you go through with it.

1023
01:23:22,564 --> 01:23:23,691
Bless you.

1024
01:23:23,692 --> 01:23:26,638
You know, if you like, we
can help you at our center.

1025
01:23:26,639 --> 01:23:29,449
We have resources and
counselors available.

1026
01:23:29,450 --> 01:23:30,410
Don't hesitate to call us

1027
01:23:30,411 --> 01:23:32,670
if there's anything we
can do for you, okay?

1028
01:23:35,120 --> 01:23:36,090
So what was it like

1029
01:23:36,091 --> 01:23:38,603
to take your first
steps as a new believer?

1030
01:23:40,500 --> 01:23:41,500
It felt great.

1031
01:23:42,600 --> 01:23:43,808
God was opening my eyes

1032
01:23:43,809 --> 01:23:46,173
to all kinds of things that I hadn't seen.

1033
01:23:47,420 --> 01:23:50,143
It was tough in many ways.

1034
01:23:52,300 --> 01:23:54,029
I had hurt a lot of people,

1035
01:23:54,030 --> 01:23:55,869
especially my family,

1036
01:23:55,870 --> 01:23:58,799
and I had a lot of
relationships to try to repair,

1037
01:23:58,800 --> 01:24:00,781
but my family could see

1038
01:24:00,782 --> 01:24:02,770
that I was seriously
trying to kick my addiction

1039
01:24:03,670 --> 01:24:04,763
and my parents,

1040
01:24:06,360 --> 01:24:09,563
they demonstrated what
unconditional love was like.

1041
01:24:10,806 --> 01:24:12,246
How 'bout the rest of your family?

1042
01:24:12,940 --> 01:24:15,373
Kayla and Gabe were more of a challenge.

1043
01:24:16,572 --> 01:24:18,230
With Gabe, it took a long time

1044
01:24:19,191 --> 01:24:21,808
before we could really
open up to each other.

1045
01:24:21,809 --> 01:24:23,369
And how about Kayla?

1046
01:24:23,370 --> 01:24:25,219
How did you patch things up with her?

1047
01:24:27,228 --> 01:24:28,406
She struggled with letting go

1048
01:24:28,407 --> 01:24:30,199
of the past wounds that I had caused her

1049
01:24:30,200 --> 01:24:33,649
and my ongoing battle with
drugs didn't help matters,

1050
01:24:33,650 --> 01:24:34,650
but God,

1051
01:24:35,898 --> 01:24:39,689
but God definitely helped me.

1052
01:24:39,690 --> 01:24:42,829
And she could see my growth
with my walk with the Lord.

1053
01:24:42,830 --> 01:24:47,830
I can joyfully report that
Kayla has now accepted Christ

1054
01:24:48,564 --> 01:24:52,939
and our relationship is healthier
having him at the center.

1055
01:24:52,940 --> 01:24:54,229
Amazing.

1056
01:24:54,230 --> 01:24:56,584
God certainly makes a better captain

1057
01:24:56,585 --> 01:24:58,839
of our lives and
relationships than we can.

1058
01:24:58,840 --> 01:25:00,468
Speaking of which,

1059
01:25:00,469 --> 01:25:04,823
how did you eventually surrender
your drug addiction to him?

1060
01:25:05,964 --> 01:25:09,718
I wish that rehab had
cured me the first time,

1061
01:25:09,719 --> 01:25:14,719
but I ended up going back twice

1062
01:25:14,725 --> 01:25:16,769
and every time I got out,

1063
01:25:16,770 --> 01:25:20,522
my good old friend, Dave was
there to offer me freebies.

1064
01:25:20,523 --> 01:25:24,249
How did you eventually deal with Dave?

1065
01:25:24,250 --> 01:25:29,058
Well, I needed help 24/7.

1066
01:25:29,059 --> 01:25:31,193
So after I got out that third time,

1067
01:25:32,139 --> 01:25:33,549
I wasn't left alone

1068
01:25:33,550 --> 01:25:36,350
and Dave never found another
opportunity to come around.

1069
01:25:37,650 --> 01:25:39,679
So here you are,

1070
01:25:39,680 --> 01:25:43,491
off of drugs growing in your
relationship with the Lord,

1071
01:25:43,492 --> 01:25:46,069
how did you eventually sense God's calling

1072
01:25:46,070 --> 01:25:47,112
to write your book?

1073
01:25:48,050 --> 01:25:49,489
Well, I started writing

1074
01:25:49,490 --> 01:25:51,848
just to put my thoughts down on paper

1075
01:25:51,849 --> 01:25:55,939
and then after I prayed and
reached out to God about it,

1076
01:25:55,940 --> 01:25:58,290
I felt like he wanted me
to write my own story.

1077
01:25:59,190 --> 01:26:02,529
I had no idea what would come of it,

1078
01:26:02,530 --> 01:26:05,249
but I trusted his lead
and I started writing.

1079
01:26:05,250 --> 01:26:07,308
So what's come of it?

1080
01:26:07,309 --> 01:26:08,143
I released it

1081
01:26:08,144 --> 01:26:10,410
on the fourth year
anniversary of my sobriety

1082
01:26:11,593 --> 01:26:16,593
and God no doubt has opened
up many doors because of that.

1083
01:26:18,331 --> 01:26:21,352
And invitations flowed

1084
01:26:21,353 --> 01:26:24,973
to speak to various groups about
the book and about my life.

1085
01:26:27,330 --> 01:26:29,859
Thank you for coming to hear me tonight

1086
01:26:29,860 --> 01:26:32,112
and please know that
I'm here for you guys.

1087
01:26:33,110 --> 01:26:37,903
If you want to talk or need
to pray, just let me know.

1088
01:26:44,105 --> 01:26:45,105
Thank you.

1089
01:26:46,126 --> 01:26:47,446
Do any of you have any questions?

1090
01:26:48,639 --> 01:26:49,639
Yes?

1091
01:26:50,625 --> 01:26:51,624
How long did it take

1092
01:26:51,625 --> 01:26:53,923
before you cravings completely went away?

1093
01:26:53,924 --> 01:26:56,273
I don't have a clear
cut answer for that one.

1094
01:26:57,526 --> 01:27:01,532
Truth is I can't let my guard
down even till this day.

1095
01:27:03,230 --> 01:27:05,532
Is it a struggle like it used to be?

1096
01:27:06,870 --> 01:27:07,870
No.

1097
01:27:09,040 --> 01:27:12,058
But I have to be careful

1098
01:27:12,059 --> 01:27:14,379
not to place myself in any situations

1099
01:27:14,380 --> 01:27:16,558
where I can find myself tempted.

1100
01:27:16,559 --> 01:27:17,559
Yes?

1101
01:27:21,572 --> 01:27:22,405
Hi John.

1102
01:27:22,406 --> 01:27:24,099
Hey mom, happy mother's day.

1103
01:27:24,100 --> 01:27:25,405
Thank you.

1104
01:27:25,406 --> 01:27:26,799
Happy mother's day.

1105
01:27:26,800 --> 01:27:28,619
Thank you, Kayla.

1106
01:27:28,620 --> 01:27:30,839
They're beautiful.

1107
01:27:30,840 --> 01:27:31,840
Thank you.

1108
01:27:32,628 --> 01:27:33,886
You're welcome.

1109
01:27:34,719 --> 01:27:35,552
Oh, that's the timer.

1110
01:27:35,553 --> 01:27:36,829
I have to go check on the chicken.

1111
01:27:36,830 --> 01:27:38,299
Come on in, make yourselves at home.

1112
01:27:38,300 --> 01:27:39,308
Your dad and Gabe

1113
01:27:39,309 --> 01:27:41,599
are watching the baseball
game in the family room.

1114
01:27:41,600 --> 01:27:42,926
I'm on it.

1115
01:27:42,927 --> 01:27:44,607
So is there anything
I can help you with?

1116
01:27:47,450 --> 01:27:49,249
What's up guys?

1117
01:27:49,250 --> 01:27:50,250
Hey John.

1118
01:27:51,120 --> 01:27:52,252
Good to see you.

1119
01:27:52,253 --> 01:27:54,143
Good to see you too, old man.

1120
01:27:55,342 --> 01:27:56,995
Hey bro.

1121
01:27:56,996 --> 01:27:58,596
What's up, bro?

1122
01:27:58,597 --> 01:27:59,430
How you doing man?

1123
01:27:59,431 --> 01:28:01,628
Good.

1124
01:28:01,629 --> 01:28:02,808
So how'd your speaking engagement

1125
01:28:02,809 --> 01:28:04,402
go with the kids?

1126
01:28:04,403 --> 01:28:05,236
I think it went good.

1127
01:28:05,237 --> 01:28:06,999
I got a lot of great questions afterwards

1128
01:28:07,000 --> 01:28:09,299
and I trust that God
will touch their hearts

1129
01:28:09,300 --> 01:28:10,519
with some of what I said.

1130
01:28:10,520 --> 01:28:11,819
I'm sure he will.

1131
01:28:11,820 --> 01:28:13,369
God does say his word will do

1132
01:28:13,370 --> 01:28:15,549
what it set out to accomplish.

1133
01:28:15,550 --> 01:28:17,458
You planted that seed.

1134
01:28:17,459 --> 01:28:19,063
Thanks guys.

1135
01:28:20,180 --> 01:28:21,589
So who's winning?

1136
01:28:21,590 --> 01:28:23,959
The Tigers are up one nothing.

1137
01:28:23,960 --> 01:28:25,003
All right.

1138
01:28:35,943 --> 01:28:36,943
Where you going?

1139
01:28:38,307 --> 01:28:40,452
I'm going to visit Dave today, remember?

1140
01:28:41,290 --> 01:28:42,773
Oh, okay.

1141
01:28:44,124 --> 01:28:45,124
What?

1142
01:28:46,647 --> 01:28:50,169
I was just thinking, why do
you keep visiting that guy?

1143
01:28:50,170 --> 01:28:53,263
It sounds like he doesn't
want anything to do with you.

1144
01:28:53,264 --> 01:28:56,683
I know, but I don't
want to give up on him.

1145
01:28:59,418 --> 01:29:04,418
Well, you do what you need to do.

1146
01:29:09,377 --> 01:29:13,799
Well, I'll be back in a little while.

1147
01:29:13,800 --> 01:29:14,800
Okay.

1148
01:29:15,501 --> 01:29:16,750
- Love you.
- I love you, too.

1149
01:29:50,295 --> 01:29:51,295
Hi Dave.

1150
01:29:52,755 --> 01:29:53,755
John.

1151
01:29:55,096 --> 01:29:56,589
How you doing?

1152
01:29:56,590 --> 01:29:57,862
I'm still here.

1153
01:29:59,070 --> 01:30:01,529
So you finding activities to do?

1154
01:30:01,530 --> 01:30:03,019
Why do you come here John?

1155
01:30:03,020 --> 01:30:04,020
Well I told you.

1156
01:30:04,957 --> 01:30:06,069
I know he had told me.

1157
01:30:06,070 --> 01:30:07,969
Why do you still consider me a friend?

1158
01:30:13,507 --> 01:30:16,403
Let me tell you about
this person that I know.

1159
01:30:20,180 --> 01:30:21,313
He had a hard heart.

1160
01:30:24,875 --> 01:30:28,451
He didn't care about
the people around him,

1161
01:30:28,452 --> 01:30:31,036
didn't even care about himself,

1162
01:30:32,576 --> 01:30:34,769
but then there was someone

1163
01:30:34,770 --> 01:30:36,523
that saw something of value in him

1164
01:30:37,587 --> 01:30:41,253
and he reached out to him
with unconditional love.

1165
01:30:43,940 --> 01:30:48,940
That person, he now
knows that he's valued,

1166
01:30:51,870 --> 01:30:55,293
he now knows that he's forgiven.

1167
01:30:56,670 --> 01:30:58,006
Okay, what does that mean?

1168
01:30:58,007 --> 01:30:59,623
Who are you talking about?

1169
01:31:00,612 --> 01:31:01,612
Me.

1170
01:31:03,791 --> 01:31:05,142
I'm talking about me, Dave.

1171
01:31:06,150 --> 01:31:11,150
God reached out to me and he changed me

1172
01:31:13,120 --> 01:31:14,920
and he changed my heart towards you.

1173
01:31:17,333 --> 01:31:19,750
So I guess the bottom line is

1174
01:31:24,091 --> 01:31:26,083
whether what I'm saying
to you makes sense or not,

1175
01:31:27,050 --> 01:31:29,183
I still want to be your friend.

1176
01:31:32,559 --> 01:31:34,153
I've been playing basketball.

1177
01:31:36,138 --> 01:31:37,253
What?

1178
01:31:38,555 --> 01:31:39,629
You asked me about activities,

1179
01:31:39,630 --> 01:31:41,313
I've been playing basketball.

1180
01:31:42,200 --> 01:31:45,073
Great, that's great, man.

1181
01:31:46,700 --> 01:31:50,058
Are you playing by yourself
or playing with other guys?

1182
01:31:50,059 --> 01:31:54,169
I don't shoot hoops by
myself like some loser, no man,

1183
01:31:54,170 --> 01:31:56,329
I play two on two with a couple of guys.

1184
01:31:56,330 --> 01:31:58,379
That's awesome, man.

1185
01:31:58,380 --> 01:31:59,729
That's progress, right?

1186
01:31:59,730 --> 01:32:00,730
It's all right.

1187
01:32:06,612 --> 01:32:08,183
You have an amazing story, John.

1188
01:32:09,173 --> 01:32:10,150
But it's not over yet.

1189
01:32:10,151 --> 01:32:12,683
You had a very interesting
evening recently.

1190
01:32:13,740 --> 01:32:15,308
Care to give us some details?

1191
01:32:15,309 --> 01:32:16,859
Absolutely.

1192
01:32:16,860 --> 01:32:18,260
I'll take one more question.

1193
01:32:19,130 --> 01:32:20,499
Yes sir?

1194
01:32:20,500 --> 01:32:25,500
Yeah, do any of the proceeds
of your book go to charity?

1195
01:32:25,690 --> 01:32:26,523
That's a great question.

1196
01:32:26,524 --> 01:32:28,359
Thank you for asking that.

1197
01:32:28,360 --> 01:32:30,549
I donate to several charities,

1198
01:32:30,550 --> 01:32:32,209
including 10% of the profits

1199
01:32:32,210 --> 01:32:34,273
to Victorious Living Rehab Center.

1200
01:32:35,350 --> 01:32:36,579
As I shared earlier,

1201
01:32:36,580 --> 01:32:38,689
that's where I eventually got clean

1202
01:32:38,690 --> 01:32:40,389
and where I came to know the Lord.

1203
01:32:41,736 --> 01:32:44,799
Well folks, we're going to
have to wrap things up here.

1204
01:32:44,800 --> 01:32:46,409
I want to thank each and every one of you

1205
01:32:46,410 --> 01:32:49,289
for allowing me to come
and speak to you tonight.

1206
01:32:49,290 --> 01:32:51,653
Be safe and God bless you.

1207
01:33:59,861 --> 01:34:01,028
Lord, help me.

1208
01:34:15,840 --> 01:34:17,590
Hey, leave her alone.

1209
01:34:24,341 --> 01:34:25,858
Just walk away, man,

1210
01:34:25,859 --> 01:34:27,920
no one has to get hurt here.

1211
01:34:35,179 --> 01:34:36,583
Should've mind your business.

1212
01:34:43,317 --> 01:34:44,319
What's that?

1213
01:34:44,320 --> 01:34:46,070
What's that, come on.

1214
01:34:48,235 --> 01:34:49,666
Come on, boy.

1215
01:35:04,270 --> 01:35:06,290
You're not a mistake John

1216
01:35:07,440 --> 01:35:08,520
and you're not your father.

1217
01:35:48,164 --> 01:35:51,414
Oh, come on let's go get some treats.

1218
01:35:53,483 --> 01:35:54,483
Come on.

1219
01:36:04,016 --> 01:36:05,269
And for other
birds migrating south

1220
01:36:05,270 --> 01:36:06,853
to stop and rest in safety.

1221
01:36:07,900 --> 01:36:09,468
One of the main migratory birds

1222
01:36:09,469 --> 01:36:12,163
that marsh is known for
is the redhead duck.

1223
01:36:13,020 --> 01:36:14,020
Through your mind

1224
01:36:14,971 --> 01:36:16,058
as you ran to save that woman in distress

1225
01:36:16,059 --> 01:36:18,059
and came face to face with her attacker?

1226
01:36:19,020 --> 01:36:23,423
Honestly, I didn't know what
I was getting myself into.

1227
01:36:24,760 --> 01:36:27,808
I kept thinking and praying to God

1228
01:36:27,809 --> 01:36:29,303
the whole time to help me.

1229
01:36:30,370 --> 01:36:34,154
Then, the attacker got violent with me

1230
01:36:34,155 --> 01:36:38,138
so my mind just went into survival mode

1231
01:36:38,139 --> 01:36:42,423
and I did my best to defend
her and myself at that point.

1232
01:36:43,300 --> 01:36:45,700
It was just by the grace
of God that we made it.

1233
01:36:47,335 --> 01:36:48,975
Well, we're glad that you're both safe.

1234
01:36:49,393 --> 01:36:50,840
Thank you, Robin.

1235
01:36:57,755 --> 01:36:58,755
Oh God.

1236
01:37:02,370 --> 01:37:05,479
I have one
final question to ask you.

1237
01:37:05,480 --> 01:37:07,113
Okay.

1238
01:37:07,114 --> 01:37:07,947
It's about your birth mother.

1239
01:37:07,948 --> 01:37:09,679
Have you ever thought
about tracking her down

1240
01:37:09,680 --> 01:37:10,680
and meeting her?

1241
01:37:11,800 --> 01:37:13,083
I have.

1242
01:37:14,610 --> 01:37:16,410
I thought about it a lot growing up.

1243
01:37:18,296 --> 01:37:21,803
Life issues and my bad
choices distracted me,

1244
01:37:22,820 --> 01:37:27,820
but I haven't determined how
or when I would actually do it.

1245
01:37:30,790 --> 01:37:32,940
Do you have any leads
on how to find her?

1246
01:37:33,870 --> 01:37:35,749
No, not much.

1247
01:37:35,750 --> 01:37:37,200
I know very little about her.

1248
01:37:38,600 --> 01:37:40,100
If you don't mind me asking,

1249
01:37:42,550 --> 01:37:44,850
what would you say to
her if you did find her?

1250
01:37:46,400 --> 01:37:47,400
I'd let her know

1251
01:37:48,557 --> 01:37:50,480
that I'm grateful that she gave me life

1252
01:37:52,059 --> 01:37:54,072
and I hope to get to know her.

1253
01:37:57,597 --> 01:37:59,959
I hope you get that opportunity, John.

1254
01:37:59,960 --> 01:38:00,960
Thanks.

1255
01:38:01,784 --> 01:38:04,414
Thank you
so much for joining us

1256
01:38:04,415 --> 01:38:06,336
on Foundations of the Family.

1257
01:38:06,337 --> 01:38:07,873
Thank you Charles, for having me.

1258
01:38:14,610 --> 01:38:16,252
John.

1259
01:38:52,633 --> 01:38:55,867
♪ It's just like Jesus ♪

1260
01:38:55,868 --> 01:38:59,020
♪ To roll the clouds away ♪

1261
01:38:59,021 --> 01:39:01,796
♪ It's just like Jesus ♪

1262
01:39:01,797 --> 01:39:04,817
♪ To give me day by day ♪

1263
01:39:04,818 --> 01:39:08,315
♪ It's just like Jesus ♪

1264
01:39:08,316 --> 01:39:10,919
♪ All along the way ♪

1265
01:39:10,920 --> 01:39:14,920
♪ It's just like his great love ♪

1266
01:39:20,800 --> 01:39:22,170
I once thought of life

1267
01:39:23,389 --> 01:39:26,243
as having no meaning or purpose.

1268
01:39:27,925 --> 01:39:31,673
We live, we die,

1269
01:39:33,600 --> 01:39:35,500
and nothing in between really matters.

1270
01:39:38,559 --> 01:39:43,559
But I now know that life
is so much more than that.

1271
01:39:46,570 --> 01:39:50,993
Yes, life is a journey
full of ups and downs,

1272
01:39:52,710 --> 01:39:55,612
joys, heartaches,

1273
01:39:58,160 --> 01:40:01,443
struggles, victories,

1274
01:40:03,588 --> 01:40:08,588
but in the midst of all that,
there is meaning and purpose

1275
01:40:10,559 --> 01:40:15,559
and there's a God out there
who wants us to know him

1276
01:40:17,600 --> 01:40:19,763
and that purpose for which he created us.

1277
01:40:21,529 --> 01:40:25,903
He wants us to know how
greatly valued we really are,

1278
01:40:27,440 --> 01:40:32,243
so much so that he sent
his only son to die for us.

1279
01:40:33,611 --> 01:40:36,593
So considering our value to God,

1280
01:40:39,150 --> 01:40:40,600
I've come to this conclusion,

1281
01:40:42,330 --> 01:40:44,653
a life is worth giving birth to,

1282
01:40:49,110 --> 01:40:50,803
worth spending time with,

1283
01:40:54,010 --> 01:40:55,983
worth loving unconditionally,

1284
01:40:59,160 --> 01:41:00,623
worth taking a risk for.

1285
01:41:04,731 --> 01:41:06,133
A life is worth living.

1286
01:41:08,808 --> 01:41:10,746
And I can now say, by God's grace,

1287
01:41:14,540 --> 01:41:15,540
I'm living well.

1288
01:41:23,710 --> 01:41:25,427
♪ It's just like Jesus ♪

1289
01:41:25,428 --> 01:41:28,168
♪ To roll the clouds away ♪

1290
01:41:28,169 --> 01:41:31,467
♪ It's just like Jesus ♪

1291
01:41:31,468 --> 01:41:34,290
♪ To keep me day by day ♪

1292
01:41:34,291 --> 01:41:37,629
♪ It's just like Jesus ♪

1293
01:41:37,630 --> 01:41:40,232
♪ All along the way ♪

1294
01:41:40,233 --> 01:41:45,233
♪ It's just like his great love ♪

1295
01:41:46,431 --> 01:41:51,431
♪ A friend I have called Jesus ♪

1296
01:41:52,175 --> 01:41:57,175
♪ Who's love is strong and true ♪

1297
01:41:57,849 --> 01:42:02,849
♪ Oh, he never, never
fails however tried ♪

1298
01:42:04,313 --> 01:42:09,313
♪ No matter what I do ♪

1299
01:42:09,956 --> 01:42:14,956
♪ Oh this love of his ♪

1300
01:42:16,442 --> 01:42:21,442
♪ But when the nails to pray ♪

1301
01:42:22,308 --> 01:42:27,308
♪ Confessing all my guilt to him ♪

1302
01:42:28,990 --> 01:42:33,990
♪ The sins are thrown away ♪

1303
01:42:35,888 --> 01:42:38,888
♪ It's just like Jesus ♪

1304
01:42:38,889 --> 01:42:41,688
♪ To roll the clouds away ♪

1305
01:42:41,689 --> 01:42:44,851
♪ It's just like Jesus ♪

1306
01:42:44,852 --> 01:42:47,752
♪ To give me day by day ♪

1307
01:42:47,753 --> 01:42:51,128
♪ It's just like Jesus ♪

1308
01:42:51,129 --> 01:42:53,629
♪ All along the way ♪

1309
01:42:53,630 --> 01:42:58,630
♪ It's just like his great love ♪

1310
01:42:59,833 --> 01:43:04,833
♪ When sorrows clouds overtake me ♪

1311
01:43:06,313 --> 01:43:11,313
♪ Break upon my head ♪

1312
01:43:11,948 --> 01:43:16,948
♪ When life seems worse than useless ♪

1313
01:43:17,727 --> 01:43:22,727
♪ And I will better days ♪

1314
01:43:23,855 --> 01:43:28,855
♪ I take my grief to Jesus ♪

1315
01:43:29,067 --> 01:43:34,067
♪ Then nor do I go in grace ♪

1316
01:43:35,311 --> 01:43:39,160
♪ For heavenly, heavenly joy ♪

1317
01:43:39,161 --> 01:43:41,480
♪ We kiss the tears ♪

1318
01:43:41,481 --> 01:43:46,481
♪ Like sunshine after rain ♪

1319
01:43:48,550 --> 01:43:50,915
♪ It's just like Jesus ♪

1320
01:43:50,916 --> 01:43:53,774
♪ To roll the clouds away ♪

1321
01:43:53,775 --> 01:43:56,867
♪ It's just like Jesus ♪

1322
01:43:56,868 --> 01:43:59,933
♪ To keep me day by day ♪

1323
01:43:59,934 --> 01:44:02,894
♪ It's just like Jesus ♪

1324
01:44:02,895 --> 01:44:05,851
♪ All along the way ♪

1325
01:44:05,852 --> 01:44:10,852
♪ It's just like his great love ♪

1326
01:44:11,992 --> 01:44:16,992
♪ It's just like his great ♪

1327
01:44:20,031 --> 01:44:21,948
♪ Love ♪