Hi. Is Professor Jacobs home?
-He's on his way. -Then I'll wait.
[gasps]
[Elizabeth] There's this room here at the church
that we've turned into a nursery,
and I can't think of anyone
who would be better helping me to get it up and going than you.
[Lillian] Aw. Well, I'm honored.
The last time she ran away, it was to Paris.
You're forgetting the time when I was sick.
Mom? Dad?
-[Ryan] Something's wrong. -Pregnancy hormones.
-He hurt you? -No.
-Is he here? -No, Ryan.
Tim. Whoa!
[theme song playing]
♪ 'Cause life has a way Of pulling us under ♪
♪ But we'll stick it out ♪
♪ If we got each other ♪
♪ When it all feels too much ♪
♪ I know you'll come running For me ♪
♪ Through the highs and lows We'll find our way home ♪
♪ Family ♪
♪ Oh, oh, oh ♪
♪ Family ♪
It's my fault he's dead.
If I hadn't offered to drive him home that night...
What happened that night wasn't your fault, Ashley.
[sniffles]
They brought us in at the same time.
They wheeled us both into surgery,
and you were the only doctor on call.
You had to choose.
No.
There was no choice to be made.
If I wasn't your daughter...
You were six months pregnant,
and in critical condition.
If I hadn't been the one on that gurney.
It wouldn't have mattered.
I made the same call any doctor would have made.
He deserved to live.
[John] You both deserved to live.
All three of you deserved to live.
[sobbing]
He's a better person than me.
The accident happened a month after I got home from Paris.
I was alone, and I was pregnant.
I wouldn't have even been there to drive him
if I hadn't made such terrible choices.
You've been through so much, Ashley,
and, yes, you've made mistakes,
but your heart is pure.
You don't know that, Mom.
You don't know everything I've done.
I don't need to know.
[sighs]
Honey, guilt feels terrible.
It is a heavy burden to bear.
It's numbing, it's consuming.
And it protects us
from the even more overwhelming feeling of...
Of helplessness.
You didn't survive that night because of me,
and he didn't die that night because of you.
The longer you allow yourself to wallow in the guilt,
the longer you avoid dealing with what's real,
grief and sadness.
Ashley, you cannot move beyond this
until you find the courage to allow yourself to just...
feel.
[sobbing]
We love you.
Love you, honey.
-Can I ask you a question? -I guess.
You a man of faith?
I'm a man of action.
Jesus was a man of action.
His actions were like earthquakes,
shaking and rumbling through cities.
He was a guy who knew how to get his message across.
But it was difficult
'cause not everybody believed in him.
A lot of people thought he was crazy.
I always related to that.
A guy who wants something so desperately, so badly,
and yet, life just keeps getting in the way.
That's why you have to take the things you want.
[Ryan] Taking's easy.
Earning,
earning what you want, that's what will make people respect you.
That's what makes people love you.
He's right. If you want Angela to love you,
then you have to earn that love.
You have to show her that you're not the man that Tim was to her.
It's too late now.
She's gone,
and I'm never gonna get her back
because your husband is a liar and a cheater.
And you'll be a murderer.
-I've already... -[Ryan] Already what?
Sat in the living room with two people
and talked about God and love?
[Kari] You haven't done anything wrong.
Not yet.
You can still walk out that door.
[Ryan] Come on, man, you want to be a man of action, right?
Ask yourself would you really be happy if you were with Angela?
Something tells me you'd still feel
the same resentment, the same anger.
'Cause you can't be happy with somebody else
if you haven't even accepted yourself.
I know you're in pain,
but I see strength in you, too.
The kind of strength it takes to look inward,
ask yourself the hard questions,
kind of strength it takes to be a real man of action.
You can be that man.
All you have to do is walk out the door.
[door opens]
[door closes]
-[sighs] -You okay?
You okay?
[gunshots]
Hold on.
Wait, Kari.
[Kari shrieks]
[gasping]
It's okay. I'm here.
-Okay, what's up? -Gunshot wound to the abdomen.
-Victim was unresponsive in the field. -Okay.
[Brooke] Tim, we got you, man.
Patient's tachycardiac.
Call the blood bank. Activate massive transfusion protocol.
O.R. prepped? Let's go.
-[Kari grunts] -Whoa, Kari. You okay?
I'm gonna get a medic. Hey. Hey, I need a doctor.
Hey. Hey, she needs help.
You'll be all right.
[door opens]
[man on TV] Better stay in your seat, because coming up,
we're gonna go through all the highlights of this week's biggest games.
-[TV switches off] -Hey.
Hey, Mom.
Hey, Ash.
-Hey. -[cell phone ringing]
Oh, it's Brooke.
Hey. What's up?
[Brooke] Dad, listen. Tim and Kari just came in to the hospital.
Tim was shot, and Kari is in labor.
He's in surgery, and they're moving her into a room.
Can you come right now?
Okay. We're on our way.
[doctor] One, two, three.
[doctor] Charging. Set.
[breathing heavily]
[door opens]
Kari.
Oh, Kari.
Good. Good, keep breathing.
That's it.
That's it. You're gonna be fine, sweetheart.
You are gonna be fine.
I'm gonna go check on Tim.
It's okay, honey. I'm here now.
It's okay. It's gonna be okay.
[gunshot]
[breathing heavily]
[Kari shrieks]
[Kari shuddering]
[Tim coughing]
Yeah, someone's been shot. We need an ambulance right away.
You're okay.
-I'm sorry. -[Kari] Stop.
You're gonna be all right.
You're the greatest gift God ever gave me.
Please hold on.
-I love you, Kari. -I love you, too.
Please tell our baby that I love her.
-[breathing heavily] -That's it, Kari.
That's it, honey.
Just breathe.
That's it.
No.
[sobbing]
-You okay, Kari? -Yeah.
-It's just a lot. -I know.
But they're easy at this age, you know.
I mean, either she's hungry
or she needs to be changed.
Or she should be sleeping.
You should be sleeping.
[crying]
It's okay.
[doorbell rings]
I'll go get that.
Here, go to Mommy.
There. There you go.
Aw. Okay.
You're okay, Jessie.
There you go.
Just wanna lay down?
It's a delivery.
[Kari sighs]
He found it.
-He sent you a cake. -[Kari] It's our honeymoon cake.
He must have sent it before...
-How's Kari? -[Luke] She's good. Yeah.
I mean, as good as she can be, I guess.
-Just one day at a time. -Yeah.
Uh-oh. Here, hold on, check this out.
Luke? Uh, hello?
Ta-da!
-Oh. -What do you think?
It's so... So tacky.
Then you'll love this. Hold on.
[laughing] Oh, my.
Yeah, definitely... Definitely suits you.
-I really miss you, Luke. -What's wrong?
Too cold in New York?
It's too cold, it's too loud, it's too lonely.
You know, I'm already at my grandparents'.
I probably shouldn't keep them waiting.
Yeah. Yeah, no, it's all...
Uh, it's all good. I'll, um...
I'll give you a call after things settle down.
Okay.
Hey, Luke, I, um...
[laughing]
Yeah?
I...
I love you.
I love you, too.
Yeah. Okay, bye.
Yeah, I love you. Okay, bye. Love you.
Bye.
Oh, this place has really come alive.
We did a good job, didn't we?
Yeah.
Oh, this church is so blessed to have you.
Mmm.
I wish you would stay. Help me get the place up and running.
It's been a joy working with you. It always is.
But I gotta move on.
It's time now, and I'm ready.
That's the good news.
I got a great offer on the house right off the bat,
so I just, sort of, took that as a sign, you know.
I understand.
But I do want Colton's spirit to live on here.
He was such a happy little guy, remember?
I remember.
So, I was up in the attic cleaning stuff up,
and look what I found.
His favorites.
-[laughing] -Thank you.
-The kids are gonna love these. -Oh, yeah.
But you know what, Elizabeth,
just a few months ago,
I couldn't get away from this town fast enough,
and never look back.
But then, when we prayed together, remember,
I had such a healing.
I really did.
And now, looking back doesn't seem like
such a scary thing anymore.
Well, I hope you'll come visit us.
And maybe Ashley will be ready to reconnect then.
She can introduce you to her little boy, Cole.
-Cole? -Yes.
She named him after Colton.
Oh.
This was Colton's favorite.
[laughing] Isn't he sweet?
Don't you think Cole should have him?
Thank you.
No. I'm gonna kiss him goodbye first.
Okay.
Thank you.
No, thank you.
Oh, Elizabeth Baxter.
You're the dearest.
Erin. Hi.
I barely heard you knock.
I didn't wanna wake Jessie.
I did just get her down for a nap, finally.
Sorry. Did you come to see her?
No, I came to see you.
I brought you some of the cookies
that we made at Mom's the other day.
Thanks.
We missed you.
I know. I wanted to come. I just...
Can we sit for a second, Kari?
I wanna be honest.
I am here because Mom said
that you aren't coming to the Christmas tree lighting tomorrow.
[sighs] I'm sorry, I can't.
I can't imagine how hard this holiday season must be without Tim.
The thought of being with everyone,
trying to put on a happy face,
while still figuring out how to manage alone with Jessie,
it's too much.
But you're not alone.
If you need to cry, or if you need someone to take Jessie,
or even if you can only manage being around us for a little while,
you and Jessie are not alone.
I don't want my sadness to ruin everyone's holiday.
We're your family, Kari.
We love you unconditionally.
And it fills our hearts to know that we can be here for you
in your time of pain and need.
I know you'd do the same for me.
Please just think about it.
These smell great.
But, you know, if you pulled those out too late,
they might lose their chewy center.
I don't give you pointers for teaching kindergarten.
Am I too late for the tree lighting?
No, you're exactly on time.
I will go make sure everyone's ready.
Hey, thanks, honey.
Mmm.
You look nice.
I'm glad to have a few moments alone with you.
I know there are some things that have been very difficult for you to talk about.
I know.
But I wanna try.
Lillian came by to the church today to see the nursery,
and she brought some of Colton's old toys,
so we have for the kids when it's finished.
She wanted Cole to have this one.
It was his favorite.
Thanks, Mom.
It's okay, honey.
Thank you.
Five, four, three, two, one!
[all cheering]
♪ Deck the halls with boughs of holly ♪
-[doorbell ringing] -I'll get it.
Scooch over, guys.
Good. Make sure you all smile.
All right, big smiles, big smiles.
-One, two. -Kari.
Perfect.
[indistinct chatter]
Ryan's here.
-Hey. -Hey.
-How's Jessie? -She's good.
I'm a little sleep deprived,
but that seems to come with the territory.
-You don't look it. -[chuckles]
Will I see you at church tonight?
We're all heading over soon.
My family's going tomorrow.
I just wanted to come and see you.
Say goodbye before I go to New York.
-When's your flight? -Tomorrow night.
Celebrate Christmas and then head out.
Wow.
-Yeah. -It's good.
You're chasing your dreams.
I'm so proud of you.
Thank you, Ryan.
-For what? -Being there for me that night.
You know, I realized the other day
I never asked what you had come over for in the first place.
You said there was something you wanted to talk about.
New York.
Yeah, I came by to tell you I was definitely taking the job.
So then, this is goodbye.
Kari...
take care of yourself.
I will. You too.
Goodbye.
Wait.
Yeah?
Merry Christmas, Ryan.
Merry Christmas, Kari girl.
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