1 00:00:04,091 --> 00:00:05,875 Previously on "New Amsterdam"... 2 00:00:05,918 --> 00:00:07,485 Somebody reported that you 3 00:00:07,529 --> 00:00:09,270 have a problem with Adderall. 4 00:00:09,313 --> 00:00:11,620 You're asking me if I've ever risked a patient's life 5 00:00:11,663 --> 00:00:12,969 because I'm stoned. 6 00:00:13,013 --> 00:00:14,362 Yeah, and you haven't answered the question. 7 00:00:14,405 --> 00:00:15,798 What do you think would happen 8 00:00:15,841 --> 00:00:18,192 if you stopped helping people? Who would they see? 9 00:00:18,235 --> 00:00:21,282 They would see a corny, nerdy, 10 00:00:21,325 --> 00:00:24,372 fat, worthless nothing. 11 00:00:24,415 --> 00:00:27,070 All right, since you all prescribe 79% of our opioids, 12 00:00:27,114 --> 00:00:29,029 I am giving you one year 13 00:00:29,072 --> 00:00:31,509 to prescribe 79% less, 14 00:00:31,553 --> 00:00:34,599 and anyone who doesn't will be fired. 15 00:00:35,948 --> 00:00:38,386 I think they're clean. 16 00:00:39,343 --> 00:00:41,606 The damage to his heart was extensive. 17 00:00:41,650 --> 00:00:44,087 The virus also ravaged the surrounding heart muscle. 18 00:00:44,131 --> 00:00:45,697 How bad? 19 00:00:45,741 --> 00:00:47,960 Even if you found the best heart surgeon in the world, 20 00:00:48,004 --> 00:00:50,659 I'm not sure it'd be enough. 21 00:00:52,269 --> 00:00:55,838 ♪ There'll be three white horses ♪ 22 00:00:55,881 --> 00:00:58,841 ♪ All in a line 23 00:00:58,884 --> 00:01:02,323 ♪ There'll be three white horses ♪ 24 00:01:02,366 --> 00:01:04,194 ♪ In a line 25 00:01:07,241 --> 00:01:11,158 ♪ Three white horses 26 00:01:11,201 --> 00:01:14,509 ♪ When you go that way 27 00:01:14,552 --> 00:01:18,426 ♪ You will need somebody 28 00:01:18,469 --> 00:01:20,906 ♪ When you come to die 29 00:01:24,997 --> 00:01:26,999 ♪ Don't dismiss it 30 00:01:27,043 --> 00:01:30,525 ♪ Like it's easy 31 00:01:30,568 --> 00:01:34,224 ♪ Tell me what's so easy 32 00:01:34,268 --> 00:01:38,098 ♪ About coming to say goodbye? ♪ 33 00:01:41,144 --> 00:01:43,364 ♪ You're gonna miss her 34 00:01:43,407 --> 00:01:46,932 ♪ In the evening 35 00:01:46,976 --> 00:01:48,934 Hey. - Yeah? 36 00:01:48,978 --> 00:01:51,241 Dr. Reynolds. 37 00:01:51,285 --> 00:01:53,809 I used to work here. 38 00:01:53,852 --> 00:01:55,289 Hospital ID? 39 00:01:55,332 --> 00:01:58,379 No, but I should be in the system. 40 00:02:01,425 --> 00:02:02,818 ♪ There'll be three white horses ♪ 41 00:02:02,861 --> 00:02:04,689 Oh, thank you. 42 00:02:04,733 --> 00:02:08,650 ♪ When you go that way 43 00:02:08,693 --> 00:02:12,175 ♪ You will need somebody 44 00:02:12,219 --> 00:02:14,830 ♪ When you come to die 45 00:02:18,094 --> 00:02:19,965 ♪ It's not desperation 46 00:02:20,009 --> 00:02:23,360 ♪ That we're breeding 47 00:02:23,404 --> 00:02:26,450 ♪ It's just a need we're feeding ♪ 48 00:02:26,494 --> 00:02:30,454 ♪ Before you say goodbye 49 00:02:33,544 --> 00:02:35,416 ♪ You're gonna miss me 50 00:02:35,459 --> 00:02:39,202 ♪ In the evening 51 00:02:41,683 --> 00:02:44,686 ♪ Somebody when you come to die ♪ 52 00:02:46,688 --> 00:02:50,431 ♪ You know all you need is 53 00:02:50,474 --> 00:02:52,433 ♪ Somebody when you 54 00:02:52,476 --> 00:02:54,261 ♪ Come to die 55 00:02:54,304 --> 00:02:56,698 So? 56 00:02:56,741 --> 00:02:59,266 I can't operate. 57 00:03:04,358 --> 00:03:05,489 Here's Vijay's cardiac echo. 58 00:03:05,533 --> 00:03:07,012 What do you mean "can't operate"? 59 00:03:07,056 --> 00:03:08,971 His mitral valve, it's greater than 60% regurgitation. 60 00:03:09,014 --> 00:03:10,668 That's secondary to a ruptured papillary muscle. 61 00:03:10,712 --> 00:03:13,018 I didn't fly you out here to not operate. 62 00:03:13,062 --> 00:03:14,716 Listen, his EF is under 20%. 63 00:03:14,759 --> 00:03:16,848 These numbers aren't even compatible with life. 64 00:03:16,892 --> 00:03:19,024 Right, which is exactly why you need to fix the valve. 65 00:03:19,068 --> 00:03:20,722 I can't fix it because the virus has damaged 66 00:03:20,765 --> 00:03:22,376 the heart muscle around the valve. 67 00:03:22,419 --> 00:03:24,378 There's nothing to sew a new valve into. 68 00:03:24,421 --> 00:03:26,249 Doing nothing isn't an option. 69 00:03:26,293 --> 00:03:27,685 I didn't say I was doing nothing. 70 00:03:27,729 --> 00:03:29,470 Look, I'm gonna use a catheter. - TAVR? 71 00:03:29,513 --> 00:03:31,254 All right, I'm gonna place a clip... 72 00:03:31,298 --> 00:03:32,734 A clip? 73 00:03:32,777 --> 00:03:34,605 Into the mitral's weakened area--that should fix it. 74 00:03:34,649 --> 00:03:36,738 He's dying, Floyd. He needs surgery. 75 00:03:36,781 --> 00:03:39,219 Okay, look, you brought me here because of my expertise, 76 00:03:39,262 --> 00:03:40,394 and because you trust me. 77 00:03:40,437 --> 00:03:42,265 Right now my expertise is saying this. 78 00:03:42,309 --> 00:03:44,833 I gotta go. 79 00:03:44,876 --> 00:03:47,009 What happened to "How can I help?" 80 00:03:47,052 --> 00:03:51,013 The virus hit us hard. Nothing's the same. 81 00:03:52,319 --> 00:03:54,190 My hospital had three. 82 00:03:54,234 --> 00:03:56,410 Three what? 83 00:03:56,453 --> 00:03:58,716 Only three deaths. 84 00:03:58,760 --> 00:04:02,024 I feel guilty just saying it. 85 00:04:02,067 --> 00:04:05,245 Don't. You were spared. 86 00:04:05,288 --> 00:04:07,377 I wish we were. 87 00:04:07,421 --> 00:04:09,423 Especially Lauren. 88 00:04:10,946 --> 00:04:13,427 It hit her the worst. 89 00:04:35,231 --> 00:04:37,929 Candelario's on! - Dr. Bloom, it's Gladys. 90 00:04:37,973 --> 00:04:41,368 Get Candelario! - It's about Iggy. 91 00:04:43,326 --> 00:04:46,373 I'm on my way out. 92 00:04:47,939 --> 00:04:49,680 He's sweaty, wobbly on his feet. 93 00:04:49,724 --> 00:04:51,160 Did he take a COVID test? 94 00:04:51,203 --> 00:04:52,509 PCR came back negative, 95 00:04:52,553 --> 00:04:54,903 but he can hardly stand. 96 00:05:00,691 --> 00:05:02,650 Ig? 97 00:05:04,347 --> 00:05:05,740 Hey. - Hey. 98 00:05:05,783 --> 00:05:09,134 What brings you down to the-- Ooh. 99 00:05:09,178 --> 00:05:11,920 Aw, God, Gladys was right. You gotta go home. 100 00:05:11,963 --> 00:05:14,357 No, I just-- I stood up too fast. 101 00:05:14,401 --> 00:05:16,533 I got a head rush. - You're valor is noted, 102 00:05:16,577 --> 00:05:18,143 but if you've got the flu, you gotta go. 103 00:05:18,187 --> 00:05:20,537 I don't have the flu, I'm just--I'm tired. 104 00:05:20,581 --> 00:05:22,539 You're color's not great. 105 00:05:22,583 --> 00:05:24,454 Lauren, if I feel anything flu-y, I'll, uh... 106 00:05:24,498 --> 00:05:26,064 Hey. 107 00:05:26,108 --> 00:05:27,457 I'll page you. - Hey, hey, hey, hey, hey. 108 00:05:27,501 --> 00:05:28,719 Hey, come on, come on. Sit down. 109 00:05:28,763 --> 00:05:30,242 Sit down. - No, no, I'm fine. 110 00:05:30,286 --> 00:05:31,896 I just--I haven't eaten. 111 00:05:31,940 --> 00:05:33,507 Since when? 112 00:05:35,596 --> 00:05:37,859 Hey. How many meals? 113 00:05:43,081 --> 00:05:44,605 How many days? 114 00:05:47,390 --> 00:05:48,652 Two. 115 00:05:50,437 --> 00:05:52,526 Maybe three. 116 00:05:56,051 --> 00:05:57,574 Hi. 117 00:05:57,618 --> 00:06:00,403 I thought you might enjoy a full-bodied Ethiopian roast, 118 00:06:00,447 --> 00:06:02,318 carefully wrapped for contactless delivery, 119 00:06:02,362 --> 00:06:04,625 as an apology. - None needed. 120 00:06:04,668 --> 00:06:08,237 I'll take the coffee, but keep the apology. 121 00:06:08,280 --> 00:06:10,848 Um, look, all of this, um, 122 00:06:10,892 --> 00:06:13,808 being close bodies and trusting, normal, 123 00:06:13,851 --> 00:06:15,157 it's kinda like I don't remember 124 00:06:15,200 --> 00:06:16,332 how to do any of it anymore. 125 00:06:16,376 --> 00:06:19,030 I get it, if that's what it is. 126 00:06:19,074 --> 00:06:21,076 What do you mean? 127 00:06:21,119 --> 00:06:23,861 I mean, there's no reason 128 00:06:23,905 --> 00:06:25,950 to force something that's not there anymore. 129 00:06:25,994 --> 00:06:27,561 No, it's not-- that's not it. 130 00:06:27,604 --> 00:06:29,389 Are you sure? 131 00:06:33,610 --> 00:06:35,656 It's okay, Helen. 132 00:06:35,699 --> 00:06:37,614 COVID took away a lot of things. 133 00:06:37,658 --> 00:06:39,355 We focus here on the lives lost, 134 00:06:39,399 --> 00:06:42,445 but there were other casualties. 135 00:06:44,708 --> 00:06:47,102 See you around. 136 00:06:47,145 --> 00:06:49,104 It's all I know right now. I'm sorry. 137 00:06:49,147 --> 00:06:50,279 I know, but Dr. Kapoor 138 00:06:50,322 --> 00:06:51,541 was supposed to be in the OR hours ago. 139 00:06:51,585 --> 00:06:53,413 So that can't be good, right? 140 00:06:53,456 --> 00:06:54,762 I know it's hard to wait. 141 00:06:54,805 --> 00:06:57,199 As soon as I have an update, I will let you know. 142 00:06:58,505 --> 00:07:00,681 Hi, Ella, I'm Dr. Sharpe, 143 00:07:00,724 --> 00:07:02,422 one of Vijay's colleagues. 144 00:07:02,465 --> 00:07:04,424 Of course, Double French Roast with a splash of agave. 145 00:07:04,467 --> 00:07:05,555 Yep. 146 00:07:05,599 --> 00:07:07,296 I'm sorry I'm not standing. 147 00:07:07,339 --> 00:07:09,341 I just--I'm worried that if I get out of this chair, 148 00:07:09,385 --> 00:07:10,908 Vijay's gonna die during surgery. 149 00:07:10,952 --> 00:07:12,170 I have OCD, 150 00:07:12,214 --> 00:07:14,608 and my irrational thoughts won this round. 151 00:07:14,651 --> 00:07:16,087 It happens. 152 00:07:16,131 --> 00:07:18,873 Ah, I wish it hadn't 153 00:07:18,916 --> 00:07:20,962 because sitting is making my leg cramps worse. 154 00:07:21,005 --> 00:07:23,443 I stretch, but they just keep coming back. 155 00:07:23,486 --> 00:07:24,487 How long has that been going on? 156 00:07:24,531 --> 00:07:26,794 Um, an hour or two? 157 00:07:26,837 --> 00:07:29,492 I woke up breathing better for the first time in months, 158 00:07:29,536 --> 00:07:31,755 but my back gets hot and now this. 159 00:07:31,799 --> 00:07:33,235 Although my pregnancy podcast 160 00:07:33,278 --> 00:07:35,977 said I was going to start feeling confident and sexy. 161 00:07:36,020 --> 00:07:38,501 Ella, it sounds like you're in labor. 162 00:07:41,504 --> 00:07:42,940 I got your page. 163 00:07:42,984 --> 00:07:44,551 We caught the guy who's been pinching Oxy 164 00:07:44,594 --> 00:07:46,466 from the dispensary. - An orderly? 165 00:07:46,509 --> 00:07:48,598 My name is Paul. - Paul Argento. 166 00:07:48,642 --> 00:07:50,557 Been working here for 13 months 167 00:07:50,600 --> 00:07:52,863 and stealing from you just as long. 168 00:07:52,907 --> 00:07:54,996 You mind telling me why? 169 00:07:56,214 --> 00:07:57,694 Look, if we're using, we can get you tre-- 170 00:07:57,738 --> 00:07:59,391 They're not for me. 171 00:07:59,435 --> 00:08:00,480 Well, if you're selling them... 172 00:08:00,523 --> 00:08:03,047 The--they're for my mom. 173 00:08:04,005 --> 00:08:06,616 She got diagnosed with osteosarcoma a year ago. 174 00:08:06,660 --> 00:08:08,270 She used to be happy, 175 00:08:08,313 --> 00:08:09,750 but now the pain's killing her. 176 00:08:09,793 --> 00:08:12,492 She can't even walk her dog. 177 00:08:12,535 --> 00:08:14,755 The Oxy was helping, but that idiot doctor of hers-- 178 00:08:14,798 --> 00:08:17,584 He's been giving me less and less for my pain. 179 00:08:18,628 --> 00:08:20,717 Told me I had to be weaned off. 180 00:08:20,761 --> 00:08:23,154 And what is he giving you as an alternative? 181 00:08:23,198 --> 00:08:24,634 Nothing. 182 00:08:24,678 --> 00:08:27,158 That's awful. 183 00:08:27,202 --> 00:08:29,683 Whoever was treating you stops today. 184 00:08:29,726 --> 00:08:31,989 You're a patient at New Amsterdam now. 185 00:08:32,033 --> 00:08:34,601 But my doctor is at New Amsterdam. 186 00:08:36,211 --> 00:08:37,386 Brenna Argento. 187 00:08:37,429 --> 00:08:39,519 I know her well. Stage three bone cancer. 188 00:08:39,562 --> 00:08:42,739 She can barely walk, and yet you pulled her Oxy. Why? 189 00:08:42,783 --> 00:08:45,002 Because received a letter from a Dr. Max Goodwin 190 00:08:45,046 --> 00:08:46,787 saying that if I didn't, I'd be fired. 191 00:08:46,830 --> 00:08:49,137 No, for overprescribing, needlessly, recklessly, 192 00:08:49,180 --> 00:08:50,965 but Brenna-- - Who wasn't the type 193 00:08:51,008 --> 00:08:52,836 of patient you pictured when you wrote it. 194 00:08:52,880 --> 00:08:55,056 This is what happens when you needlessly and recklessly 195 00:08:55,099 --> 00:08:57,798 make a blanket policy without a regard to individual patients. 196 00:08:57,841 --> 00:09:00,017 She is suffering. 197 00:09:00,061 --> 00:09:03,194 Of course she's suffering, but not because of me. 198 00:09:03,238 --> 00:09:04,631 Because of you. 199 00:09:13,161 --> 00:09:15,119 Don't hang up! 200 00:09:15,163 --> 00:09:17,208 Because I want whoever that is to know 201 00:09:17,252 --> 00:09:18,514 that I'm person who killed you 202 00:09:18,558 --> 00:09:20,037 for reversing this hospital's policy 203 00:09:20,081 --> 00:09:21,691 on limiting opiate prescriptions. 204 00:09:26,783 --> 00:09:28,350 I am unmoved. 205 00:09:28,393 --> 00:09:30,744 Wow, okay, I gotta go. Yeah, Daddy's in trouble. 206 00:09:30,787 --> 00:09:32,572 Love you. Bye. 207 00:09:32,615 --> 00:09:36,140 Opioid prescriptions at New Amsterdam are down 38%. 208 00:09:36,184 --> 00:09:38,752 We've won awards. We're a national model. 209 00:09:38,795 --> 00:09:40,884 The Nyler family's rightfully drowning 210 00:09:40,928 --> 00:09:42,190 in class-action lawsuits. 211 00:09:42,233 --> 00:09:44,366 And yet, deaths from narcotic overdoses 212 00:09:44,409 --> 00:09:46,498 are skyrocketing. Know by how much? 213 00:09:46,542 --> 00:09:49,327 240%. So mission accomplished? 214 00:09:49,371 --> 00:09:51,547 You instituted that policy. 215 00:09:51,591 --> 00:09:54,942 Yeah, to save lives, but that policy was a blunt instrument 216 00:09:54,985 --> 00:09:56,508 that put paper over people. 217 00:09:56,552 --> 00:09:58,902 So you're denouncing your own hugely successful policy? 218 00:09:58,946 --> 00:10:00,512 Well, that's just it. It wasn't successful. 219 00:10:00,556 --> 00:10:03,559 Our books were clean, but at the cost of hurting people 220 00:10:03,603 --> 00:10:05,430 who needed our help. We have to do better. 221 00:10:05,474 --> 00:10:07,084 By returning to the halcyon days 222 00:10:07,128 --> 00:10:09,652 when doled out highly addictive drugs like Halloween candy? 223 00:10:09,696 --> 00:10:12,176 Karen, do you know what it feels like to have bone cancer? 224 00:10:12,220 --> 00:10:13,700 Oh, Max. - It's like being stabbed 225 00:10:13,743 --> 00:10:15,310 over and over again 226 00:10:15,353 --> 00:10:17,399 all day long with a serrated knife, 227 00:10:17,442 --> 00:10:19,270 and the only, the only thing, 228 00:10:19,314 --> 00:10:21,925 that is gonna ease that excruciating pain 229 00:10:21,969 --> 00:10:23,318 is opioids. 230 00:10:23,361 --> 00:10:25,276 Those aren't my words. 231 00:10:25,320 --> 00:10:26,713 They're Brenna Argento's, 232 00:10:26,756 --> 00:10:29,237 a patient that we... 233 00:10:29,280 --> 00:10:31,543 that I let down. 234 00:10:31,587 --> 00:10:34,329 You don't convince me opioids work. 235 00:10:34,372 --> 00:10:37,462 That was never the issue. This was always about abuse. 236 00:10:37,506 --> 00:10:39,726 About ensuring the drugs we send into the world 237 00:10:39,769 --> 00:10:42,032 aren't getting our patients hooked or being sold 238 00:10:42,076 --> 00:10:43,338 or ending up in the wrong hands. 239 00:10:43,381 --> 00:10:44,731 You're absolutely right. 240 00:10:44,774 --> 00:10:46,646 I don't like it when we're fighting, 241 00:10:46,689 --> 00:10:47,995 and you agree with me. - No, you're right. 242 00:10:48,038 --> 00:10:50,040 We can get opioids to the people who need them 243 00:10:50,084 --> 00:10:51,781 and in quantities that are in safe-- 244 00:10:51,825 --> 00:10:53,435 Karen, yes! 245 00:10:56,307 --> 00:10:57,395 Sorry, forgot this was my office. 246 00:10:57,439 --> 00:10:58,962 Uh, would you excuse me? 247 00:11:01,617 --> 00:11:05,186 Contractions are organized and four minutes apart. 248 00:11:05,229 --> 00:11:07,275 It's official. 249 00:11:07,318 --> 00:11:08,711 What's official? 250 00:11:08,755 --> 00:11:11,453 Ella, you're gonna have a baby today. 251 00:11:11,496 --> 00:11:13,150 Oh, no, that's impossible 252 00:11:13,194 --> 00:11:15,326 'cause my due date's in three weeks. 253 00:11:15,370 --> 00:11:17,720 On a Friday. And today's Tuesday. 254 00:11:17,764 --> 00:11:20,854 And Dr. Richardson was gonna delivery my baby. 255 00:11:20,897 --> 00:11:22,029 Well, looks like someone 256 00:11:22,072 --> 00:11:23,639 wants to crash this party early. 257 00:11:23,683 --> 00:11:25,989 I'll be covering for Dr. Richardson all day, 258 00:11:26,033 --> 00:11:28,035 so I think we'll be seeing a lot of each other. 259 00:11:28,078 --> 00:11:30,777 I'll be back in a bit to check on your progress. 260 00:11:30,820 --> 00:11:32,779 Thank you. 261 00:11:34,694 --> 00:11:37,740 This is not OCD. This is a relaxation exercise. 262 00:11:37,784 --> 00:11:39,742 Good, you know, good. Relaxing is good. 263 00:11:39,786 --> 00:11:41,396 How is this happening? 264 00:11:41,439 --> 00:11:43,790 I am not ready for this. 265 00:11:43,833 --> 00:11:45,661 Is there someone that you would like me to call? 266 00:11:45,705 --> 00:11:48,403 Family, friends? - No, there's only Vijay, 267 00:11:48,446 --> 00:11:50,144 and he promised he'd be here for this. 268 00:11:50,187 --> 00:11:52,494 Um, okay, uh... 269 00:11:52,537 --> 00:11:54,975 Who--uh. You could try my doula, 270 00:11:55,018 --> 00:11:57,151 but I think she's in Portland this weekend 271 00:11:57,194 --> 00:11:59,675 for her great-aunt's birthday, so that feels like a dead end. 272 00:11:59,719 --> 00:12:01,764 I know a great doula here at New Amsterdam. 273 00:12:01,808 --> 00:12:03,679 Has she been working with me for the last 26 weeks 274 00:12:03,723 --> 00:12:06,247 on ways to manage my OCD for this specific moment? 275 00:12:06,290 --> 00:12:09,293 Uh, no. 276 00:12:09,337 --> 00:12:11,992 I had a plan. I had such a perfect plan. 277 00:12:12,035 --> 00:12:14,255 Oh. 278 00:12:14,298 --> 00:12:16,736 Surgical suite prep to OR seven. 279 00:12:21,175 --> 00:12:22,393 Uh, Leela, hi. 280 00:12:22,437 --> 00:12:23,655 Can you clear my afternoon please? 281 00:12:23,699 --> 00:12:25,353 No pagers, no patients. Nothing. 282 00:12:25,396 --> 00:12:27,529 What are you doing? 283 00:12:27,572 --> 00:12:29,879 I'm kicking off a new plan. 284 00:12:33,622 --> 00:12:34,754 Okay. 285 00:12:34,797 --> 00:12:37,321 Well, your concern is duly noted, 286 00:12:37,365 --> 00:12:40,455 but I don't need your help. But thank you. 287 00:12:40,498 --> 00:12:41,935 You know your staff's noticed? 288 00:12:41,978 --> 00:12:43,806 I mean, even I can tell you're weak on your feet, 289 00:12:43,850 --> 00:12:46,461 and you just admitted to caloric restrictions 290 00:12:46,504 --> 00:12:48,202 spanning over 72 hours. 291 00:12:48,245 --> 00:12:50,073 It's a cleanse, Lauren. 292 00:12:50,117 --> 00:12:52,336 Really, I'm fine. 293 00:12:52,380 --> 00:12:54,164 You know you sound like every first-timer 294 00:12:54,208 --> 00:12:55,687 who's just been dragged to rehab. 295 00:12:55,731 --> 00:12:57,864 Whatever it is that you think this is, 296 00:12:57,907 --> 00:13:00,214 it isn't, and I don't appreciate the accusation. 297 00:13:00,257 --> 00:13:03,217 Do you hide food? 298 00:13:03,260 --> 00:13:04,609 Lauren-- 299 00:13:04,653 --> 00:13:06,611 Sometimes people starve themselves after a binge, 300 00:13:06,655 --> 00:13:08,483 and not for health reasons, but because they feel ashamed. 301 00:13:08,526 --> 00:13:09,832 Well, it's not like that. 302 00:13:09,876 --> 00:13:12,008 Must be hard to hide your stash at home 303 00:13:12,052 --> 00:13:14,097 what with Martin and the kids, so where do you keep it? 304 00:13:14,141 --> 00:13:16,230 Nowhere, I don't have a-- - Here in this office? 305 00:13:16,273 --> 00:13:18,493 No. 306 00:13:18,536 --> 00:13:20,451 Lauren, don't. Don't. 307 00:13:24,281 --> 00:13:26,718 Oh, Iggy. 308 00:13:31,375 --> 00:13:32,942 Hey. - It's... 309 00:13:36,685 --> 00:13:38,948 The left atrium's barely moving. 310 00:13:38,992 --> 00:13:41,124 COVID really did a number on his heart. 311 00:13:41,168 --> 00:13:43,997 Vijay said he got it here at New Amsterdam? 312 00:13:44,040 --> 00:13:46,826 He's not the only one. - Approaching the left atrium. 313 00:13:46,869 --> 00:13:48,392 You too? 314 00:13:48,436 --> 00:13:50,046 It was in the early days. 315 00:13:50,090 --> 00:13:53,441 I wore the same mask day and night for two weeks straight. 316 00:13:53,484 --> 00:13:55,617 Then I was intubating a patient, 317 00:13:55,660 --> 00:13:57,314 got a focused blast of exhaled air 318 00:13:57,358 --> 00:13:58,620 right in my face. 319 00:13:58,663 --> 00:14:00,709 I just felt the virus coming through the mask. 320 00:14:00,752 --> 00:14:03,451 Sure enough, three days later, cough, fever, headaches. 321 00:14:03,494 --> 00:14:06,236 Yeah. Vijay. 322 00:14:06,280 --> 00:14:08,238 Why was he even here, you know? 323 00:14:08,282 --> 00:14:11,633 I mean, his age, knowing the risk, why even come in? 324 00:14:11,676 --> 00:14:13,635 How could he not? - Vitals are stable. 325 00:14:13,678 --> 00:14:16,507 We all felt a sense of duty, 326 00:14:16,551 --> 00:14:18,901 of pride even. 327 00:14:27,170 --> 00:14:28,563 What's that? You can't... 328 00:14:28,606 --> 00:14:30,870 Ah, sorry about that. 329 00:14:30,913 --> 00:14:32,697 Hi, again. 330 00:14:32,741 --> 00:14:36,310 There are quite a few of you on this call, 331 00:14:36,353 --> 00:14:37,311 and, well, you all have 332 00:14:37,354 --> 00:14:38,312 something in common, 333 00:14:38,355 --> 00:14:39,313 and that's that 334 00:14:39,356 --> 00:14:40,314 you are all victims 335 00:14:40,357 --> 00:14:41,489 of New Amsterdam's 336 00:14:41,532 --> 00:14:43,099 opioid policy that kept pain meds 337 00:14:43,143 --> 00:14:45,493 from the people who need them the most. 338 00:14:45,536 --> 00:14:47,103 We failed you 339 00:14:47,147 --> 00:14:49,453 in the most fundamental way 340 00:14:49,497 --> 00:14:51,020 a hospital can. 341 00:14:51,064 --> 00:14:53,414 You came to us in pain, 342 00:14:53,457 --> 00:14:56,547 you asked for our help, and we said no. 343 00:14:56,591 --> 00:14:58,680 And what's worse, 344 00:14:58,723 --> 00:15:01,552 is we shamed you for asking. 345 00:15:01,596 --> 00:15:03,946 So I'm here to apologize 346 00:15:03,990 --> 00:15:07,471 and to tell you that that cruel policy 347 00:15:07,515 --> 00:15:09,256 ends now. 348 00:15:10,257 --> 00:15:11,214 Yes! 349 00:15:11,258 --> 00:15:12,259 Finally. 350 00:15:12,302 --> 00:15:13,303 It's about damn time. 351 00:15:13,347 --> 00:15:14,957 Yeah, all patients will get 352 00:15:15,001 --> 00:15:16,698 the prescribed opioids they need 353 00:15:16,741 --> 00:15:18,134 based on their pain levels, 354 00:15:18,178 --> 00:15:19,919 and all have you to do is swing by New Amsterdam 355 00:15:19,962 --> 00:15:22,399 once a week to pick up your pills. 356 00:15:22,443 --> 00:15:23,966 Easy as pie. 357 00:15:24,010 --> 00:15:25,707 Wait, what? 358 00:15:25,750 --> 00:15:27,100 I can't do that. - No, no. 359 00:15:27,143 --> 00:15:29,493 We're gonna make it very, very simple. 360 00:15:29,537 --> 00:15:31,495 We're gonna establish a special clinic. 361 00:15:31,539 --> 00:15:33,019 What the hell's a special clinic? 362 00:15:33,062 --> 00:15:34,237 I live in Long Island. 363 00:15:34,281 --> 00:15:36,152 It's a three-hour trip if I'm lucky. 364 00:15:36,196 --> 00:15:38,154 Excuse me, I have four kids and a job, 365 00:15:38,198 --> 00:15:39,721 and you expect me to spend my one day off 366 00:15:39,764 --> 00:15:40,983 with you every week? 367 00:15:41,027 --> 00:15:43,377 Okay, I'm hearing some concerns 368 00:15:43,420 --> 00:15:45,118 about the policy that we were 369 00:15:45,161 --> 00:15:47,250 all just very excited about. 370 00:15:47,294 --> 00:15:48,904 But I'll just be honest. 371 00:15:48,948 --> 00:15:51,124 The hospital has some concerns 372 00:15:51,167 --> 00:15:54,083 about portion control. 373 00:15:54,127 --> 00:15:56,520 Portion control? Like I'm five? 374 00:15:56,564 --> 00:15:57,913 No, no, no. 375 00:15:57,957 --> 00:16:00,220 It's just that these pills are highly addictive, 376 00:16:00,263 --> 00:16:01,438 and we do need to make sure 377 00:16:01,482 --> 00:16:02,918 that nobody is using 378 00:16:02,962 --> 00:16:05,138 or distributing these pills inappropriately. 379 00:16:05,181 --> 00:16:06,878 So now you think I'm dealing? 380 00:16:06,922 --> 00:16:08,358 No. - You just said 381 00:16:08,402 --> 00:16:10,230 the shaming of chronic pain treatment was over. 382 00:16:10,273 --> 00:16:11,927 And it is, but... 383 00:16:11,971 --> 00:16:14,016 Are you serious, Max? - Come on. 384 00:16:14,060 --> 00:16:15,800 That's not gonna work. - No way. 385 00:16:15,844 --> 00:16:16,932 Um... 386 00:16:16,976 --> 00:16:18,890 What a joke. - I'm outta here. 387 00:16:18,934 --> 00:16:20,414 Come on, Max. - This is ridiculous. 388 00:16:20,457 --> 00:16:22,764 Thanks for nothing. - I'm closing this window. 389 00:16:30,554 --> 00:16:33,862 Thank you all for responding to my multiple app requests. 390 00:16:33,905 --> 00:16:36,212 I have some deliveries for you. 391 00:16:36,256 --> 00:16:39,607 Addresses are grouped together for maximum efficiency. 392 00:16:39,650 --> 00:16:42,001 Those burritos? - They are not. 393 00:16:42,044 --> 00:16:43,741 Are your items heat sensitive? 394 00:16:43,785 --> 00:16:46,353 No, we're good. So if you wanna grab your bag-- 395 00:16:46,396 --> 00:16:48,833 Are dealing with breakable items like figurines? 396 00:16:48,877 --> 00:16:51,271 Are they insured? - Are we liable here? 397 00:16:51,314 --> 00:16:53,925 I--no, it's very simple. 398 00:16:53,969 --> 00:16:56,232 Some of our patients are having a hard time 399 00:16:56,276 --> 00:16:58,495 getting to the hospital to pick up their prescriptions, 400 00:16:58,539 --> 00:17:01,324 so I am hiring all of you 401 00:17:01,368 --> 00:17:02,543 to solve that problem. 402 00:17:02,586 --> 00:17:04,936 So we're delivering drugs. 403 00:17:06,460 --> 00:17:08,114 Technically, yes? 404 00:17:09,898 --> 00:17:12,031 But uh... 405 00:17:12,074 --> 00:17:14,903 did I mention there's a 25% tip? 406 00:17:16,078 --> 00:17:17,645 All right. 407 00:17:19,995 --> 00:17:23,042 Yo, how many are we allowed to take? 408 00:17:23,085 --> 00:17:25,087 Okay, okay. 409 00:17:25,131 --> 00:17:26,306 That was smooth. 410 00:17:26,349 --> 00:17:27,742 That was the alcohol swipe. 411 00:17:27,785 --> 00:17:30,353 Getting started now. 412 00:17:30,397 --> 00:17:32,442 Oh, my God. Distract me. 413 00:17:32,486 --> 00:17:33,748 Uh, distract you? 414 00:17:33,791 --> 00:17:35,010 Say something. Anything. 415 00:17:35,054 --> 00:17:36,620 Um, okay. 416 00:17:36,664 --> 00:17:39,449 Did you know that women blink nearly twice as much as men? 417 00:17:39,493 --> 00:17:41,147 Nope, something interesting. 418 00:17:41,190 --> 00:17:43,584 Fine, fine. Okay. 419 00:17:43,627 --> 00:17:45,716 Aah, it feels like a sword! 420 00:17:45,760 --> 00:17:47,805 Like I'm literally being stabbed by a sword! 421 00:17:47,849 --> 00:17:49,938 All right, okay. Um... 422 00:17:49,981 --> 00:17:52,636 there's this gorgeous man, 423 00:17:52,680 --> 00:17:54,029 this doctor that I was seeing. 424 00:17:54,073 --> 00:17:55,813 Yes, good. - Am seeing. 425 00:17:55,857 --> 00:17:58,903 Well, mmm, was seeing. I don't know. 426 00:17:58,947 --> 00:18:00,296 I don't know. 427 00:18:00,340 --> 00:18:03,256 But we started dating just when the pandemic hit, 428 00:18:03,299 --> 00:18:05,649 and I thought about him for months during the lockdown. 429 00:18:05,693 --> 00:18:07,521 I fantasized about him. 430 00:18:07,564 --> 00:18:09,827 But then, the other day, 431 00:18:09,871 --> 00:18:12,265 when he reached out to touch me, I pulled away. 432 00:18:13,875 --> 00:18:17,052 I recoiled like I was physically repelled by him... 433 00:18:19,446 --> 00:18:20,621 And I don't know. I don't know. 434 00:18:20,664 --> 00:18:21,839 Is it me? 435 00:18:21,883 --> 00:18:23,319 Am I that scared to be touched by someone, 436 00:18:23,363 --> 00:18:25,669 or is it him? 437 00:18:27,367 --> 00:18:28,759 Did what we have, 438 00:18:28,803 --> 00:18:31,153 did it just sort of... 439 00:18:32,372 --> 00:18:33,503 No, keep going. 440 00:18:33,547 --> 00:18:35,288 But fast forward to the interesting part. 441 00:18:35,331 --> 00:18:38,508 Did he dump you? Are you sad? 442 00:18:38,552 --> 00:18:40,815 Aah! 443 00:18:40,858 --> 00:18:42,773 Was that a contraction? 444 00:18:42,817 --> 00:18:43,861 Mm-hmm. Mmm! 445 00:18:43,905 --> 00:18:45,298 What? The epidural seems to be 446 00:18:45,341 --> 00:18:46,995 taking its sweet time. - Yeah, it should've 447 00:18:47,038 --> 00:18:49,171 kicked in by now. Unfortunately, 448 00:18:49,215 --> 00:18:52,131 I think the catheter's tip is in the sub-dural space. 449 00:18:52,174 --> 00:18:53,654 It didn't work? 450 00:18:53,697 --> 00:18:55,917 It didn't work? 451 00:18:55,960 --> 00:18:58,789 Uh, can we try again the epidural? 452 00:19:01,009 --> 00:19:03,968 It's too late, sweetheart. You're too far along. 453 00:19:04,012 --> 00:19:06,493 Ella, you're gonna have to do this 454 00:19:06,536 --> 00:19:08,234 on your own. 455 00:19:08,277 --> 00:19:10,323 No. No. 456 00:19:10,366 --> 00:19:11,933 No, no, no, no, no, no. 457 00:19:13,064 --> 00:19:15,719 All right, I know how this looks. 458 00:19:15,763 --> 00:19:19,419 I do. Believe me. 459 00:19:19,462 --> 00:19:22,204 But these are my dad's words. 460 00:19:22,248 --> 00:19:24,163 They're his words, 461 00:19:24,206 --> 00:19:25,381 and growing up, 462 00:19:25,425 --> 00:19:28,210 I had to hear them practically every day. 463 00:19:28,254 --> 00:19:31,866 My father struggled with his weight his entire life, 464 00:19:31,909 --> 00:19:34,347 and he didn't want me to suffer the same fate. 465 00:19:34,390 --> 00:19:36,087 So at an early age, 466 00:19:36,131 --> 00:19:38,525 he took an interest in my weight. 467 00:19:38,568 --> 00:19:39,830 An interest? 468 00:19:39,874 --> 00:19:41,484 Mm-hmm, yeah. 469 00:19:41,528 --> 00:19:43,921 It started around the third grade. 470 00:19:43,965 --> 00:19:46,750 I filled out a little bit, and, uh, 471 00:19:46,794 --> 00:19:49,405 he would make me go on crash diets 472 00:19:49,449 --> 00:19:51,364 out of the blue, 473 00:19:51,407 --> 00:19:53,844 skip meals, take meal replacement bars to school. 474 00:19:53,888 --> 00:19:55,237 As a nine-year-old? 475 00:19:55,281 --> 00:19:57,413 Mm-hmm. 476 00:19:57,457 --> 00:20:00,024 Yeah, and... 477 00:20:00,068 --> 00:20:03,767 he would make me take my shirt off 478 00:20:03,811 --> 00:20:05,987 so he could take pictures of my body 479 00:20:06,030 --> 00:20:09,382 to, um, put up on the wall in the basement 480 00:20:09,425 --> 00:20:11,949 next to the makeshift gym that he'd built for me 481 00:20:11,993 --> 00:20:13,821 to track my process. 482 00:20:13,864 --> 00:20:17,172 There was a body progress chart. 483 00:20:17,216 --> 00:20:19,609 And if I would ever walk by him, 484 00:20:19,653 --> 00:20:21,045 he would smack my gut and say, 485 00:20:21,089 --> 00:20:22,569 "Jesus, look at that thing." 486 00:20:24,310 --> 00:20:26,573 "Got a lot of work left to do, don't we, buddy?" 487 00:20:26,616 --> 00:20:29,053 And what's worse is, 488 00:20:29,097 --> 00:20:32,231 if I ever had a good weigh-in, which was not very often, 489 00:20:32,274 --> 00:20:35,277 I, uh, I would be over the moon 490 00:20:35,321 --> 00:20:37,366 because it would make me feel loved. 491 00:20:44,025 --> 00:20:47,463 Then...this one time, 492 00:20:47,507 --> 00:20:49,552 I guess I would've been in middle school by this point, 493 00:20:49,596 --> 00:20:51,641 I just--I-- 494 00:20:51,685 --> 00:20:53,295 I hated everything about myself. 495 00:20:55,166 --> 00:20:57,604 So I tried to hang myself. 496 00:20:57,647 --> 00:20:59,388 What? 497 00:20:59,432 --> 00:21:01,042 Jesus, Iggy. 498 00:21:01,085 --> 00:21:03,392 No, it's okay. 499 00:21:03,436 --> 00:21:06,830 It didn't work, obviously. 500 00:21:06,874 --> 00:21:08,658 Ironically, I was too fat 501 00:21:08,702 --> 00:21:10,312 for the rod in the basement closet 502 00:21:10,356 --> 00:21:13,315 to hold me up, and it crashed down on my head, 503 00:21:13,359 --> 00:21:16,100 and my mom heard the sound and came to help me. 504 00:21:16,144 --> 00:21:18,799 What? What did your dad say? 505 00:21:18,842 --> 00:21:20,496 Oh. 506 00:21:20,540 --> 00:21:23,586 My dad, um, well, 507 00:21:23,630 --> 00:21:25,066 that night at my weigh-in, 508 00:21:25,109 --> 00:21:27,416 he just snapped another polaroid for the wall 509 00:21:27,460 --> 00:21:29,723 and acted like nothing ever happened. 510 00:21:32,073 --> 00:21:34,162 That's my dad for you. 511 00:21:42,605 --> 00:21:44,868 These are his words, 512 00:21:44,912 --> 00:21:46,566 but they don't control me anymore. 513 00:21:46,609 --> 00:21:48,219 They do not. 514 00:21:48,263 --> 00:21:49,743 They serve as a reminder of all of the things 515 00:21:49,786 --> 00:21:52,093 that I have conquered, which is a lot, 516 00:21:52,136 --> 00:21:54,225 and sometimes I look at these words, 517 00:21:54,269 --> 00:21:56,880 and they remind that I'm not that kid anymore 518 00:21:56,924 --> 00:21:58,795 and that I'm making better decisions. 519 00:21:58,839 --> 00:22:01,276 I'm making healthy decisions in my life. 520 00:22:03,713 --> 00:22:07,587 And that I no longer need to stand around with my shirt off 521 00:22:07,630 --> 00:22:10,329 and let others judge me. - What? 522 00:22:11,547 --> 00:22:13,723 You know that's not what I was doing, right? 523 00:22:13,767 --> 00:22:15,899 I'm fine. 524 00:22:15,943 --> 00:22:17,727 I am more than fine. 525 00:22:17,771 --> 00:22:19,250 You can rest easy. 526 00:22:19,294 --> 00:22:22,863 Now if you'll excuse me, I have patients to see. 527 00:22:25,169 --> 00:22:27,563 No, I'm--I'm being careful. 528 00:22:27,607 --> 00:22:29,870 Yeah. 529 00:22:29,913 --> 00:22:32,351 Ma, I'm gonna see you soon. 530 00:22:32,394 --> 00:22:35,266 Okay, yeah. I love you too. 531 00:22:35,310 --> 00:22:37,051 All right. 532 00:22:37,094 --> 00:22:39,488 Heard you pulled off one hell of a TAVR. 533 00:22:39,532 --> 00:22:41,272 Just this side of genius. 534 00:22:41,316 --> 00:22:43,231 I accept your apology, Max. 535 00:22:43,274 --> 00:22:44,406 You need anything else while you're here? 536 00:22:44,450 --> 00:22:46,408 Aw, no, just catching up with some folks. 537 00:22:46,452 --> 00:22:49,019 You know, I missed my favorite scrub nurse in OR today, JJ. 538 00:22:49,063 --> 00:22:50,194 Devlin. - Yeah. 539 00:22:50,238 --> 00:22:51,544 He passed away a few months ago. 540 00:22:51,587 --> 00:22:52,980 COVID. 541 00:22:54,068 --> 00:22:55,765 That's too bad. 542 00:22:55,809 --> 00:22:57,419 Everything's changed. 543 00:22:57,463 --> 00:22:59,290 Dr. Max Goodwin. - That's me. 544 00:22:59,334 --> 00:23:01,728 You're under arrest. - Whoa, what's going on? 545 00:23:01,771 --> 00:23:03,077 For what? 546 00:23:03,120 --> 00:23:04,557 For writing 700 Oxycodone prescriptions, 547 00:23:04,600 --> 00:23:06,254 each one over 100 milligrams, 548 00:23:06,297 --> 00:23:07,777 and distributing them with bike messengers. 549 00:23:07,821 --> 00:23:09,605 Oh, that. 550 00:23:09,649 --> 00:23:11,738 It's nice to see some things haven't changed. 551 00:23:18,484 --> 00:23:19,267 BP's 80/40 and falling. 552 00:23:19,310 --> 00:23:20,442 Push epi, I'm coming in. 553 00:23:20,486 --> 00:23:22,401 I need an echo over here. 554 00:23:22,444 --> 00:23:23,750 What happened? 555 00:23:23,793 --> 00:23:26,492 The clip didn't hold. His heart is failing. 556 00:23:38,155 --> 00:23:39,461 The DA only agreed 557 00:23:39,505 --> 00:23:41,463 to not press charges for narcotics trafficking 558 00:23:41,507 --> 00:23:42,812 because you're an essential worker. 559 00:23:42,856 --> 00:23:44,988 Huh. - Congratulations. 560 00:23:45,032 --> 00:23:47,034 You're one of the select few to benefit from COVID-19. 561 00:23:47,077 --> 00:23:48,383 Thanks for getting me out. 562 00:23:48,427 --> 00:23:49,993 I have half a mind to leave you in there. 563 00:23:50,037 --> 00:23:51,952 You know, pharmacies mail opioids all the time. 564 00:23:51,995 --> 00:23:54,520 Bike messengers are almost the same. 565 00:23:54,563 --> 00:23:56,652 I wonder if you've ever considered how exhausting it is 566 00:23:56,696 --> 00:23:57,784 to be your boss. 567 00:23:57,827 --> 00:23:59,873 All your wonderful ideas 568 00:23:59,916 --> 00:24:00,917 that come with such chaos, 569 00:24:00,961 --> 00:24:02,658 every single one. 570 00:24:02,702 --> 00:24:04,399 It's funny. 571 00:24:04,443 --> 00:24:06,836 The thing you're best at is the part of my job I hate the most. 572 00:24:06,880 --> 00:24:08,795 You ignore reality. - That's not fair. 573 00:24:08,838 --> 00:24:11,841 Says the man who just sent 70,000 milligrams of Oxy 574 00:24:11,885 --> 00:24:13,408 out into the street via bike messenger. 575 00:24:13,452 --> 00:24:15,323 I know it seems like a good idea. 576 00:24:15,366 --> 00:24:17,499 Hell, it might even be a good idea, 577 00:24:17,543 --> 00:24:19,980 but it's my job to deal with the reality of your ideas, 578 00:24:20,023 --> 00:24:22,548 in this case criminal reality. Optics matter. 579 00:24:22,591 --> 00:24:24,593 Patients matter. 580 00:24:24,637 --> 00:24:27,422 I'm glad you're helping people, Max, truly. 581 00:24:27,466 --> 00:24:30,077 But your plan has no accountability. 582 00:24:30,120 --> 00:24:31,513 You don't know where these drugs are going. 583 00:24:31,557 --> 00:24:32,949 You just don't. 584 00:24:32,993 --> 00:24:35,996 And opioids, the potential for abuse, 585 00:24:36,039 --> 00:24:38,607 it's a very emotional issue. 586 00:24:38,651 --> 00:24:41,523 To many people, opioids aren't pain medicine. 587 00:24:41,567 --> 00:24:43,525 They're what killed someone they loved. 588 00:24:50,967 --> 00:24:52,969 Wait. Iggy. 589 00:24:53,013 --> 00:24:54,667 Iggy, I wasn't judging you. 590 00:24:54,710 --> 00:24:56,059 You could've fooled me. 591 00:24:56,103 --> 00:24:58,845 It was just--people die from what you're doing. 592 00:24:58,888 --> 00:25:00,194 What did she say? 593 00:25:06,200 --> 00:25:09,290 In here. In here. 594 00:25:14,643 --> 00:25:16,340 Ig. 595 00:25:16,384 --> 00:25:18,560 Ig, look, I'm sorry for making a scene. 596 00:25:18,604 --> 00:25:20,083 You should be. 597 00:25:20,127 --> 00:25:22,129 It's just 598 00:25:22,172 --> 00:25:25,132 I've seen people in my ED with eating disorders. 599 00:25:25,175 --> 00:25:27,047 I mean, I've known people with eating disorders. 600 00:25:27,090 --> 00:25:28,788 Some of them... 601 00:25:28,831 --> 00:25:29,919 they're not here anymore. 602 00:25:29,963 --> 00:25:31,355 Mm-hmm. 603 00:25:31,399 --> 00:25:33,140 Look. 604 00:25:33,183 --> 00:25:35,577 I know as well anyone 605 00:25:35,621 --> 00:25:38,232 that the truth is really difficult. 606 00:25:38,275 --> 00:25:41,409 I'm sorry. What are you doing? 607 00:25:41,452 --> 00:25:43,977 Are you comparing your issues to mine right now? 608 00:25:44,020 --> 00:25:45,631 Let me just mirror that back for you 609 00:25:45,674 --> 00:25:47,067 so you can hear it out loud. 610 00:25:47,110 --> 00:25:49,548 I'm on the Jimmy Kimmel diet, 611 00:25:49,591 --> 00:25:52,551 and you almost killed a patient because you are a drug addict. 612 00:25:54,553 --> 00:25:57,120 Not the same. - That was way out of line. 613 00:25:57,164 --> 00:25:59,166 I'm outta line? It's not hard, Lauren. 614 00:25:59,209 --> 00:26:00,471 This is a hospital. 615 00:26:00,515 --> 00:26:02,082 There's only one line that matters. 616 00:26:02,125 --> 00:26:04,911 You were hurting patients. I am not. 617 00:26:04,954 --> 00:26:06,390 Plain and simple! 618 00:26:06,434 --> 00:26:08,262 Patients aren't the only people you can hurt. 619 00:26:08,305 --> 00:26:09,916 Oh, yeah? Well, I think the janitors 620 00:26:09,959 --> 00:26:11,613 are safe from my eating too. - Yeah? 621 00:26:11,657 --> 00:26:13,615 What about your kids? 622 00:26:14,442 --> 00:26:16,096 Excuse me? - You're starving yourself. 623 00:26:16,139 --> 00:26:17,576 You think they don't notice that? 624 00:26:17,619 --> 00:26:18,751 You stop talking. - How many meals have you 625 00:26:18,794 --> 00:26:19,882 had with them where you 626 00:26:19,926 --> 00:26:21,101 haven't eaten anything? - Stop! 627 00:26:21,144 --> 00:26:22,276 How many have you skipped altogether? 628 00:26:22,319 --> 00:26:23,625 I mean, what kind of screwed up issues 629 00:26:23,669 --> 00:26:25,192 are your kids gonna have with food because of you? 630 00:26:25,235 --> 00:26:27,194 Occupied! 631 00:26:29,675 --> 00:26:31,633 It's a bad time, Gladys. 632 00:26:31,677 --> 00:26:33,809 It's Dr. Kapoor. 633 00:26:33,853 --> 00:26:35,158 The clip failed, 634 00:26:35,202 --> 00:26:37,117 tore right through the valve leaflets. 635 00:26:37,160 --> 00:26:38,379 I'm gonna have to crack open his chest 636 00:26:38,422 --> 00:26:39,859 and put in an artificial valve. 637 00:26:39,902 --> 00:26:41,643 That's a big surgery. 638 00:26:41,687 --> 00:26:43,776 I thought you said you couldn't sew into the muscle. 639 00:26:43,819 --> 00:26:46,648 What changed? - Nothing. Not a damn thing. 640 00:26:46,692 --> 00:26:49,520 But he'll make it through the surgery, right? 641 00:26:54,874 --> 00:26:56,310 That's why I thought you should see him now, 642 00:26:56,353 --> 00:26:59,487 and have one more moment with him 643 00:26:59,530 --> 00:27:01,663 in case... 644 00:27:01,707 --> 00:27:03,186 I'm gonna go prep. 645 00:27:14,502 --> 00:27:16,373 You're fully effaced and dilated, 646 00:27:16,417 --> 00:27:18,637 but the baby's still at minus three position. 647 00:27:18,680 --> 00:27:20,813 Ella, the delivery isn't progressing as I had hoped. 648 00:27:20,856 --> 00:27:22,423 What does that mean? 649 00:27:22,466 --> 00:27:25,078 When your contraction comes, you need to push real hard. 650 00:27:25,121 --> 00:27:26,993 Oh, my God, this is a disaster. 651 00:27:27,036 --> 00:27:29,343 Maybe you could hold her hand. 652 00:27:29,386 --> 00:27:32,651 E-Ella. 653 00:27:32,694 --> 00:27:33,564 Look. Look. 654 00:27:33,608 --> 00:27:35,349 Count them out with me, okay? 655 00:27:35,392 --> 00:27:37,046 Here we go. 656 00:27:37,090 --> 00:27:38,700 Give me the biggest push you got. 657 00:27:38,744 --> 00:27:40,615 You can do this. Come on, come on. 658 00:27:40,659 --> 00:27:43,879 No, I can't! Stop, I don't want to! 659 00:27:43,923 --> 00:27:46,882 What if the baby's not okay? What if I hurt it? 660 00:27:46,926 --> 00:27:49,711 What I ate undercooked meat and didn't know it? 661 00:27:49,755 --> 00:27:51,539 And seven weeks ago I took a bath 662 00:27:51,582 --> 00:27:52,801 right after the tub was cleaned, 663 00:27:52,845 --> 00:27:54,020 and the water probably had bleach in it. 664 00:27:54,063 --> 00:27:55,282 What kind of mom is that careless? 665 00:27:55,325 --> 00:27:56,892 You are not careless. 666 00:27:56,936 --> 00:27:59,242 You have disorder that sends your pregnancy into overdrive, 667 00:27:59,286 --> 00:28:01,549 but you fought it, and you've made it this far. 668 00:28:01,592 --> 00:28:03,899 I cheated. I got scans all the time. 669 00:28:03,943 --> 00:28:05,292 Sometimes two days in a row 670 00:28:05,335 --> 00:28:06,859 in case something happened while I was sleeping. 671 00:28:06,902 --> 00:28:08,512 But then everything shut down, 672 00:28:08,556 --> 00:28:10,340 and Vijay got sick, and I don't know why, 673 00:28:10,384 --> 00:28:12,081 but I just convinced myself 674 00:28:12,125 --> 00:28:14,736 that the baby was going to be okay as long as he was okay. 675 00:28:14,780 --> 00:28:16,042 What if Vijay's not okay? 676 00:28:16,085 --> 00:28:18,305 Ella! Everything on that monitor 677 00:28:18,348 --> 00:28:19,915 says that your baby is going to be okay, 678 00:28:19,959 --> 00:28:21,177 but you have to deliver it... 679 00:28:21,221 --> 00:28:23,136 No! Oh. 680 00:28:23,179 --> 00:28:24,093 Contractions peaking. - Aah! 681 00:28:24,137 --> 00:28:25,399 You can do it. 682 00:28:25,442 --> 00:28:26,748 Your baby needs you to push now. 683 00:28:26,792 --> 00:28:29,577 Aah. 684 00:28:45,811 --> 00:28:47,464 Eh? 685 00:28:48,204 --> 00:28:50,467 Yeah, yeah, buddy? What is it? 686 00:28:51,817 --> 00:28:53,340 Hit me. 687 00:28:54,123 --> 00:28:56,865 You're such a good dad. 688 00:28:56,909 --> 00:28:58,475 Aw, I don't know. I... 689 00:29:05,134 --> 00:29:07,789 If this doesn't work out... 690 00:29:10,096 --> 00:29:12,794 Will you look after 691 00:29:12,838 --> 00:29:15,188 Ella and the baby? 692 00:29:49,918 --> 00:29:51,964 You've got this. 693 00:29:52,007 --> 00:29:53,879 You can do it. 694 00:29:55,184 --> 00:29:56,969 Hey. 695 00:29:57,012 --> 00:29:58,361 And I am dying... 696 00:29:58,405 --> 00:29:59,841 What are you talking about? Don't be silly. 697 00:29:59,885 --> 00:30:01,234 You are going to be annoying her 698 00:30:01,277 --> 00:30:02,844 for the rest of your life, okay? 699 00:30:04,890 --> 00:30:06,717 Please. 700 00:30:09,372 --> 00:30:12,985 If something happens, I... 701 00:30:13,028 --> 00:30:15,161 Yes. 702 00:30:15,204 --> 00:30:17,337 Obviously. 703 00:30:18,904 --> 00:30:19,861 Good. 704 00:30:35,790 --> 00:30:38,053 Listen, Iggy. 705 00:30:38,097 --> 00:30:39,881 Lauren, I'm fine. - No. 706 00:30:39,925 --> 00:30:42,231 I never should've dragged your kids into this. 707 00:30:43,929 --> 00:30:45,887 I'm really sorry. 708 00:30:48,237 --> 00:30:51,371 A couple nights ago, I was, uh, 709 00:30:51,414 --> 00:30:53,155 I was wearing this nice new sweater 710 00:30:53,199 --> 00:30:54,853 that Martin gave me, and, um... 711 00:30:58,465 --> 00:31:00,684 Harper told me that I looked handsome in it. 712 00:31:02,861 --> 00:31:05,559 Then I immediately grabbed my stomach, 713 00:31:05,602 --> 00:31:07,430 and I told her that she was wrong. 714 00:31:10,042 --> 00:31:11,739 It just popped out of mouth. 715 00:31:17,310 --> 00:31:19,616 I say things like that all the time. 716 00:31:22,271 --> 00:31:24,143 And Vijay thinks that I'm a great father? 717 00:31:25,405 --> 00:31:27,233 I'm teaching my kids 718 00:31:27,276 --> 00:31:30,453 that someone who looks like me doesn't deserve to be loved. 719 00:31:33,065 --> 00:31:36,807 That is the same lesson that my dad taught me. 720 00:31:36,851 --> 00:31:38,809 Aw, man. 721 00:31:40,289 --> 00:31:43,466 He just used different words. 722 00:31:46,992 --> 00:31:48,297 Iggy. 723 00:31:50,256 --> 00:31:52,954 These aren't your dad's words. 724 00:31:52,998 --> 00:31:54,216 You wrote this. 725 00:31:54,260 --> 00:31:55,783 I know. 726 00:31:55,826 --> 00:31:59,439 These are your words. You're calling yourself this, 727 00:31:59,482 --> 00:32:03,008 and you're keep suffering until you stop. 728 00:32:03,051 --> 00:32:05,967 If I can't stop, 729 00:32:06,011 --> 00:32:09,492 this note, that voice... 730 00:32:11,581 --> 00:32:14,497 It's the thing about myself that feels the most true. 731 00:32:15,585 --> 00:32:18,893 How do you stop believing that? 732 00:32:19,894 --> 00:32:23,115 Well, you could try talking to a therapist. 733 00:32:26,945 --> 00:32:28,033 Hey, I did. 734 00:32:30,035 --> 00:32:31,688 He saved my life. 735 00:32:40,262 --> 00:32:42,003 Come here. 736 00:32:44,397 --> 00:32:47,313 Thank you. - Yeah. 737 00:32:47,356 --> 00:32:51,752 ♪ Even if we try 738 00:32:51,795 --> 00:32:56,670 ♪ Even if we try 739 00:32:56,713 --> 00:32:59,412 ♪ To make ourselves 740 00:32:59,455 --> 00:33:02,371 ♪ All right 741 00:33:02,415 --> 00:33:06,854 ♪ To mend our severed lives 742 00:33:08,377 --> 00:33:12,555 ♪ While all the rivers rage 743 00:33:12,599 --> 00:33:17,386 ♪ Descend upon the sage 744 00:33:17,430 --> 00:33:22,000 ♪ Alone on willowed eves 745 00:33:22,043 --> 00:33:26,656 ♪ I lift my voice to sing 746 00:33:27,657 --> 00:33:31,661 ♪ Ooh, ooh, ooh 747 00:33:31,705 --> 00:33:34,142 ♪ Ooh, ooh 748 00:33:34,186 --> 00:33:38,190 ♪ Ooh, ooh, ooh 749 00:33:38,233 --> 00:33:40,757 ♪ Ooh 750 00:33:40,801 --> 00:33:44,022 ♪ Ooh, ooh 751 00:33:46,937 --> 00:33:49,984 ♪ Down long, hollow grove 752 00:33:51,681 --> 00:33:56,034 ♪ Its wilting, winding bones ♪ 753 00:33:56,077 --> 00:34:00,386 ♪ Come on, Johnny, please 754 00:34:00,429 --> 00:34:06,305 ♪ Won't you speak to me? 755 00:34:06,348 --> 00:34:08,655 ♪ Ooh, ooh 756 00:34:08,698 --> 00:34:10,700 ♪ Ooh 757 00:34:10,744 --> 00:34:13,094 Ready to restart the heart. 758 00:34:13,138 --> 00:34:14,226 Everything's solid. 759 00:34:14,269 --> 00:34:16,271 Charging. Clear. 760 00:34:16,315 --> 00:34:17,838 Suctioning. 761 00:34:21,668 --> 00:34:23,670 Quarter's ready. 762 00:34:30,503 --> 00:34:33,288 We did it. 763 00:34:33,332 --> 00:34:35,116 Good job, everyone. 764 00:34:40,513 --> 00:34:41,775 Ooh. 765 00:34:41,818 --> 00:34:43,994 All right, let's close him up. 766 00:34:50,088 --> 00:34:52,002 BP is dropping. 767 00:34:52,046 --> 00:34:53,221 What? 768 00:34:53,265 --> 00:34:54,962 Heart valve's not holding. - It's slipping. 769 00:34:55,005 --> 00:34:56,572 Give me a 3-0 proline on the needle driver. 770 00:34:56,616 --> 00:34:58,139 Times two. 771 00:34:58,183 --> 00:35:01,534 You work the septum, I'll work the free wall. 772 00:35:01,577 --> 00:35:03,144 I'm gonna have to get him back on bypass. 773 00:35:03,188 --> 00:35:04,885 We can't reestablish aortic cannulation. 774 00:35:04,928 --> 00:35:07,148 As a backup, yes. 775 00:35:08,889 --> 00:35:10,586 My stitches aren't holding. - Neither are mine. 776 00:35:10,630 --> 00:35:11,935 Trying 5-0. - Suction needs to be higher. 777 00:35:11,979 --> 00:35:13,546 I'm not getting any purchase. 778 00:35:13,589 --> 00:35:15,461 Another bag. 779 00:35:15,504 --> 00:35:17,289 Come on. Hold, damn it. 780 00:35:17,332 --> 00:35:18,899 Flash sterilized. 781 00:35:36,090 --> 00:35:37,744 Ansuya. 782 00:35:41,965 --> 00:35:44,054 Ansuya. 783 00:35:48,755 --> 00:35:55,892 ♪ Oh 784 00:35:56,806 --> 00:36:00,462 ♪ Oh 785 00:36:00,506 --> 00:36:05,206 ♪ Oh, oh 786 00:36:05,250 --> 00:36:07,991 Ansuya. 787 00:36:09,341 --> 00:36:11,430 Vijay. 788 00:36:11,473 --> 00:36:18,567 ♪ Oh, oh, oh 789 00:36:28,577 --> 00:36:30,318 Eat this. 790 00:36:32,668 --> 00:36:35,062 I don't need it. 791 00:36:37,238 --> 00:36:40,023 All I need is you. 792 00:36:40,067 --> 00:36:42,504 It will give you strength 793 00:36:42,548 --> 00:36:45,551 for our granddaughter. 794 00:36:45,594 --> 00:36:46,943 Granddaughter? 795 00:36:46,987 --> 00:36:49,511 She needs her Dadaji. 796 00:36:49,555 --> 00:36:56,692 ♪ Oh 797 00:36:57,476 --> 00:37:03,873 ♪ Oh 798 00:37:05,310 --> 00:37:12,230 ♪ Oh 799 00:37:13,579 --> 00:37:15,711 Vijay? 800 00:37:17,713 --> 00:37:20,803 ♪ Ah 801 00:37:26,461 --> 00:37:28,289 He's waking up. 802 00:37:28,333 --> 00:37:29,856 Oh, thank God. Vijay. 803 00:37:31,553 --> 00:37:33,468 Welcome back, Dr. Kapoor. 804 00:38:03,368 --> 00:38:06,458 Happy birthday, little one. 805 00:38:14,683 --> 00:38:16,903 Uh, K-Karen! 806 00:38:16,946 --> 00:38:19,340 Are the cops chasing you now? - Uh, I don't know, 807 00:38:19,384 --> 00:38:21,777 but I did come up with a solve for our opioid issue, 808 00:38:21,821 --> 00:38:23,388 and I think you're really gonna like it. 809 00:38:23,431 --> 00:38:24,954 And here I thought we knew each other better. 810 00:38:24,998 --> 00:38:26,608 Watermarking. 811 00:38:26,652 --> 00:38:30,308 So every single opioid that New Amsterdam sends out 812 00:38:30,351 --> 00:38:31,787 into the world will be watermarked 813 00:38:31,831 --> 00:38:34,660 with invisible, fluorescent fibers. 814 00:38:34,703 --> 00:38:36,966 Every patient will have access 815 00:38:37,010 --> 00:38:39,621 to the medicine they need and without shame. 816 00:38:39,665 --> 00:38:42,581 And they'll be able to manage their pain, 817 00:38:42,624 --> 00:38:45,975 and they'll be able to live functional lives. 818 00:38:46,019 --> 00:38:48,195 But if those pills ever do end up in the street, 819 00:38:48,238 --> 00:38:49,892 or in the wrong hands, we'll know. 820 00:38:49,936 --> 00:38:52,808 There will be no drug trafficking, 821 00:38:52,852 --> 00:38:56,421 and there will be accountability. 822 00:38:57,987 --> 00:38:59,815 Oh, and I almost forgot the best part. 823 00:38:59,859 --> 00:39:02,818 The Nylers are gonna pay for it. 824 00:39:02,862 --> 00:39:04,429 Why would they do that? 825 00:39:04,472 --> 00:39:06,213 They kinda have to. 826 00:39:06,256 --> 00:39:07,606 Part of their settlement includes 827 00:39:07,649 --> 00:39:10,304 donating millions of dollars to public hospitals, 828 00:39:10,348 --> 00:39:11,653 just like ours. 829 00:39:13,133 --> 00:39:15,222 I don't know what to say. 830 00:39:15,265 --> 00:39:17,355 It sounds like a well-thought-out 831 00:39:17,398 --> 00:39:18,747 and realistic plan. 832 00:39:18,791 --> 00:39:20,488 I know. Weird, right? 833 00:39:22,272 --> 00:39:24,971 Karen. 834 00:39:25,014 --> 00:39:28,409 Thank you for keeping me accountable. 835 00:39:28,453 --> 00:39:30,193 That's my job. 836 00:39:32,021 --> 00:39:35,242 And every once and a while, it's worth it. 837 00:39:58,874 --> 00:40:01,442 I'm not ready. 838 00:40:03,313 --> 00:40:04,967 Okay. 839 00:40:07,796 --> 00:40:11,887 I mean, I'm not ready to call it. 840 00:41:52,597 --> 00:41:55,904 I should've been here.