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- Previously on
"New Amsterdam"...
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- Somebody reported that you
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have a problem with Adderall.
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- You're asking me if I've
ever risked a patient's life
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because I'm stoned.
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- Yeah, and you haven't
answered the question.
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- What do you think
would happen
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if you stopped helping people?
Who would they see?
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- They would see
a corny, nerdy,
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fat, worthless nothing.
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- All right, since you all
prescribe 79% of our opioids,
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I am giving you one year
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to prescribe 79% less,
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and anyone who doesn't
will be fired.
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[dramatic music]
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- I think they're clean.
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- The damage to his heart
was extensive.
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The virus also ravaged
the surrounding heart muscle.
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- How bad?
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- Even if you found the best
heart surgeon in the world,
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I'm not sure it'd be enough.
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[Andrew Bird's
"Three White Horses"]
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- ♪ There'll be
three white horses ♪
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♪ All in a line
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♪ There'll be
three white horses ♪
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♪ In a line
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♪
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♪ Three white horses
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♪ When you go that way
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♪ You will need somebody
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♪ When you come to die
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♪
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♪ Don't dismiss it
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♪ Like it's easy
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♪ Tell me what's so easy
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♪ About coming
to say goodbye? ♪
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♪ You're gonna miss her
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♪ In the evening
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- Hey.
- Yeah?
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- Dr. Reynolds.
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I used to work here.
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- Hospital ID?
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- No, but I should be
in the system.
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- ♪ There'll be
three white horses ♪
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- Oh, thank you.
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- ♪ When you go that way
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♪ You will need somebody
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♪ When you come to die
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♪ It's not desperation
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♪ That we're breeding
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♪ It's just
a need we're feeding ♪
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♪ Before you say goodbye
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♪ You're gonna miss me
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♪ In the evening
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- [sighs]
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- ♪ Somebody when you
come to die ♪
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♪ You know all you need is
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♪ Somebody when you
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♪ Come to die
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- So?
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- I can't operate.
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[dramatic music]
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♪
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Here's Vijay's cardiac echo.
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- What do you mean
"can't operate"?
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- His mitral valve, it's
greater than 60% regurgitation.
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That's secondary to a ruptured
papillary muscle.
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- I didn't fly you out here
to not operate.
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- Listen, his EF is under 20%.
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These numbers aren't even
compatible with life.
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- Right, which is exactly why
you need to fix the valve.
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- I can't fix it
because the virus has damaged
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the heart muscle
around the valve.
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There's nothing to sew
a new valve into.
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- Doing nothing
isn't an option.
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- I didn't say
I was doing nothing.
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Look, I'm gonna use a catheter.
- TAVR?
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- All right,
I'm gonna place a clip...
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- A clip?
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- Into the mitral's weakened
area--that should fix it.
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- He's dying, Floyd.
He needs surgery.
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- Okay, look, you brought me
here because of my expertise,
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and because you trust me.
[beeper beeping]
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Right now my expertise
is saying this.
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- I gotta go.
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- What happened to
"How can I help?"
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- The virus hit us hard.
Nothing's the same.
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- My hospital had three.
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- Three what?
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- Only three deaths.
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I feel guilty just saying it.
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- Don't.
You were spared.
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I wish we were.
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Especially Lauren.
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It hit her the worst.
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♪
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[knocking on door]
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[knocking continues]
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- Candelario's on!
- Dr. Bloom, it's Gladys.
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- Get Candelario!
- It's about Iggy.
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[dramatic music]
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- I'm on my way out.
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♪
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- He's sweaty,
wobbly on his feet.
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- Did he take a COVID test?
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- PCR came back negative,
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but he can hardly stand.
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♪
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[knocks]
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- Ig?
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- Hey.
- Hey.
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- What brings you down to the--
Ooh.
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- Aw, God, Gladys was right.
You gotta go home.
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- No, I just--
I stood up too fast.
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I got a head rush.
- You're valor is noted,
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but if you've got the flu,
you gotta go.
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- I don't have the flu,
I'm just--I'm tired.
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- You're color's not great.
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- Lauren, if I feel
anything flu-y, I'll, uh...
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[sighs]
- Hey.
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- I'll page you.
- Hey, hey, hey, hey, hey.
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Hey, come on, come on.
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Sit down.
- No, no, I'm fine.
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I just--I haven't eaten.
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- Since when?
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- [clears throat]
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- Hey.
How many meals?
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- [sighs]
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- How many days?
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- Two.
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Maybe three.
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- Hi.
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I thought you might enjoy
a full-bodied Ethiopian roast,
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carefully wrapped
for contactless delivery,
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as an apology.
- None needed.
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I'll take the coffee,
but keep the apology.
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- Um, look, all of this, um,
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being close bodies
and trusting, normal,
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it's kinda like
I don't remember
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how to do any of it anymore.
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- I get it,
if that's what it is.
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- What do you mean?
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- I mean, there's no reason
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to force something
that's not there anymore.
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- No, it's not--
that's not it.
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- Are you sure?
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[somber music]
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[sighs]
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It's okay, Helen.
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COVID took away
a lot of things.
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We focus here
on the lives lost,
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but there were
other casualties.
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See you around.
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- It's all I know right now.
I'm sorry.
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- I know, but Dr. Kapoor
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was supposed to be
in the OR hours ago.
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So that can't be good, right?
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- I know it's hard to wait.
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As soon as I have an update,
I will let you know.
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- Hi, Ella, I'm Dr. Sharpe,
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one of Vijay's colleagues.
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- Of course, Double French
Roast with a splash of agave.
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- Yep.
[laughs]
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- I'm sorry I'm not standing.
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I just--I'm worried that
if I get out of this chair,
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Vijay's gonna die
during surgery.
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I have OCD,
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and my irrational thoughts
won this round.
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- It happens.
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- Ah, I wish it hadn't
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because sitting is making
my leg cramps worse.
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I stretch, but they just
keep coming back.
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- How long has that
been going on?
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- Um, an hour or two?
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I woke up breathing better
for the first time in months,
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but my back gets hot
and now this.
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Although my pregnancy podcast
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said I was going to start
feeling confident and sexy.
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- Ella, it sounds like
you're in labor.
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- I got your page.
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- We caught the guy
who's been pinching Oxy
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from the dispensary.
- An orderly?
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- My name is Paul.
- Paul Argento.
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Been working here for 13 months
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and stealing from you
just as long.
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- You mind telling me why?
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Look, if we're using,
we can get you tre--
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- They're not for me.
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- Well, if you're
selling them...
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- The--they're for my mom.
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She got diagnosed
with osteosarcoma a year ago.
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She used to be happy,
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but now the pain's killing her.
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She can't even walk her dog.
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The Oxy was helping,
but that idiot doctor of hers--
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- He's been giving me
less and less for my pain.
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Told me I had to be weaned off.
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- And what is he giving you
as an alternative?
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- Nothing.
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- That's awful.
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Whoever was treating you
stops today.
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You're a patient
at New Amsterdam now.
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- But my doctor
is at New Amsterdam.
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[dramatic music]
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- Brenna Argento.
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- I know her well.
Stage three bone cancer.
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- She can barely walk, and
yet you pulled her Oxy. Why?
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- Because received a letter
from a Dr. Max Goodwin
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saying that if I didn't,
I'd be fired.
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- No, for overprescribing,
needlessly, recklessly,
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but Brenna--
- Who wasn't the type
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of patient you pictured
when you wrote it.
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This is what happens when
you needlessly and recklessly
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make a blanket policy without a
regard to individual patients.
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- [laughs]
She is suffering.
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- Of course she's suffering,
but not because of me.
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Because of you.
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♪
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[fast-paced percussive music]
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- Don't hang up!
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Because I want
whoever that is to know
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that I'm person who killed you
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for reversing
this hospital's policy
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on limiting
opiate prescriptions.
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- [cooing]
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♪
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- I am unmoved.
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- Wow, okay, I gotta go.
Yeah, Daddy's in trouble.
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Love you.
Bye.
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- Opioid prescriptions
at New Amsterdam are down 38%.
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We've won awards.
We're a national model.
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The Nyler family's
rightfully drowning
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in class-action lawsuits.
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- And yet,
deaths from narcotic overdoses
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are skyrocketing.
Know by how much?
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240%.
So mission accomplished?
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- You instituted that policy.
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- Yeah, to save lives, but that
policy was a blunt instrument
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that put paper over people.
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- So you're denouncing your own
hugely successful policy?
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- Well, that's just it.
It wasn't successful.
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Our books were clean, but
at the cost of hurting people
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who needed our help.
We have to do better.
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- By returning
to the halcyon days
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when doled out highly addictive
drugs like Halloween candy?
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- Karen, do you know what it
feels like to have bone cancer?
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- Oh, Max.
- It's like being stabbed
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over and over again
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all day long
with a serrated knife,
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and the only, the only thing,
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that is gonna ease
that excruciating pain
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is opioids.
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Those aren't my words.
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They're Brenna Argento's,
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a patient that we...
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that I let down.
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- You don't convince me
opioids work.
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00:10:34,393 --> 00:10:37,483
That was never the issue.
This was always about abuse.
262
00:10:37,527 --> 00:10:39,747
About ensuring the drugs
we send into the world
263
00:10:39,790 --> 00:10:42,053
aren't getting our patients
hooked or being sold
264
00:10:42,097 --> 00:10:43,359
or ending up
in the wrong hands.
265
00:10:43,402 --> 00:10:44,752
- You're absolutely right.
266
00:10:44,795 --> 00:10:46,667
- I don't like it
when we're fighting,
267
00:10:46,710 --> 00:10:48,016
and you agree with me.
- No, you're right.
268
00:10:48,059 --> 00:10:50,061
We can get opioids
to the people who need them
269
00:10:50,105 --> 00:10:51,802
and in quantities
that are in safe--
270
00:10:51,846 --> 00:10:53,456
Karen, yes!
271
00:10:54,805 --> 00:10:56,285
- [sighs]
272
00:10:56,328 --> 00:10:57,416
- Sorry, forgot this
was my office.
273
00:10:57,460 --> 00:10:58,983
Uh, would you excuse me?
274
00:10:59,027 --> 00:11:01,594
♪
275
00:11:01,638 --> 00:11:05,207
- Contractions are organized
and four minutes apart.
276
00:11:05,250 --> 00:11:07,296
It's official.
277
00:11:07,339 --> 00:11:08,732
- What's official?
278
00:11:08,776 --> 00:11:11,474
- Ella, you're gonna have
a baby today.
279
00:11:11,517 --> 00:11:13,171
- Oh, no, that's impossible
280
00:11:13,215 --> 00:11:15,347
'cause my due date's
in three weeks.
281
00:11:15,391 --> 00:11:17,741
On a Friday.
And today's Tuesday.
282
00:11:17,785 --> 00:11:20,875
And Dr. Richardson was gonna
delivery my baby.
283
00:11:20,918 --> 00:11:22,050
- Well, looks like someone
284
00:11:22,093 --> 00:11:23,660
wants to crash
this party early.
285
00:11:23,704 --> 00:11:26,010
I'll be covering for
Dr. Richardson all day,
286
00:11:26,054 --> 00:11:28,056
so I think we'll be seeing
a lot of each other.
287
00:11:28,099 --> 00:11:30,798
I'll be back in a bit
to check on your progress.
288
00:11:30,841 --> 00:11:32,800
- Thank you.
289
00:11:34,715 --> 00:11:37,761
- This is not OCD.
This is a relaxation exercise.
290
00:11:37,805 --> 00:11:39,763
- Good, you know, good.
Relaxing is good.
291
00:11:39,807 --> 00:11:41,417
- How is this happening?
292
00:11:41,460 --> 00:11:43,811
I am not ready for this.
293
00:11:43,854 --> 00:11:45,682
- Is there someone that you
would like me to call?
294
00:11:45,726 --> 00:11:48,424
Family, friends?
- No, there's only Vijay,
295
00:11:48,467 --> 00:11:50,165
and he promised
he'd be here for this.
296
00:11:50,208 --> 00:11:52,515
Um, okay, uh...
297
00:11:52,558 --> 00:11:54,996
Who--uh.
You could try my doula,
298
00:11:55,039 --> 00:11:57,172
but I think she's in Portland
this weekend
299
00:11:57,215 --> 00:11:59,696
for her great-aunt's birthday,
so that feels like a dead end.
300
00:11:59,740 --> 00:12:01,785
- I know a great doula here
at New Amsterdam.
301
00:12:01,829 --> 00:12:03,700
- Has she been working with me
for the last 26 weeks
302
00:12:03,744 --> 00:12:06,268
on ways to manage my OCD
for this specific moment?
303
00:12:06,311 --> 00:12:09,314
- Uh, no.
304
00:12:09,358 --> 00:12:12,013
- I had a plan.
I had such a perfect plan.
305
00:12:12,056 --> 00:12:14,276
Oh.
306
00:12:14,319 --> 00:12:16,757
- Surgical suite prep
to OR seven.
307
00:12:16,800 --> 00:12:18,497
- [sighs]
308
00:12:18,541 --> 00:12:21,152
[line trilling]
309
00:12:21,196 --> 00:12:22,414
Uh, Leela, hi.
310
00:12:22,458 --> 00:12:23,676
Can you clear
my afternoon please?
311
00:12:23,720 --> 00:12:25,374
No pagers, no patients.
Nothing.
312
00:12:25,417 --> 00:12:27,550
- What are you doing?
313
00:12:27,593 --> 00:12:29,900
- I'm kicking off a new plan.
314
00:12:29,944 --> 00:12:33,599
♪
315
00:12:33,643 --> 00:12:34,775
- Okay.
316
00:12:34,818 --> 00:12:37,342
Well, your concern
is duly noted,
317
00:12:37,386 --> 00:12:40,476
but I don't need your help.
But thank you.
318
00:12:40,519 --> 00:12:41,956
- You know
your staff's noticed?
319
00:12:41,999 --> 00:12:43,827
I mean, even I can tell
you're weak on your feet,
320
00:12:43,871 --> 00:12:46,482
and you just admitted
to caloric restrictions
321
00:12:46,525 --> 00:12:48,223
spanning over 72 hours.
322
00:12:48,266 --> 00:12:50,094
- It's a cleanse, Lauren.
323
00:12:50,138 --> 00:12:52,357
Really, I'm fine.
324
00:12:52,401 --> 00:12:54,185
- You know you sound like
every first-timer
325
00:12:54,229 --> 00:12:55,708
who's just been
dragged to rehab.
326
00:12:55,752 --> 00:12:57,885
- Whatever it is
that you think this is,
327
00:12:57,928 --> 00:13:00,235
it isn't, and I don't
appreciate the accusation.
328
00:13:00,278 --> 00:13:03,238
- Do you hide food?
329
00:13:03,281 --> 00:13:04,630
- Lauren--
330
00:13:04,674 --> 00:13:06,632
- Sometimes people starve
themselves after a binge,
331
00:13:06,676 --> 00:13:08,504
and not for health reasons,
but because they feel ashamed.
332
00:13:08,547 --> 00:13:09,853
- Well, it's not like that.
333
00:13:09,897 --> 00:13:12,029
- Must be hard to hide
your stash at home
334
00:13:12,073 --> 00:13:14,118
what with Martin and the kids,
so where do you keep it?
335
00:13:14,162 --> 00:13:16,251
- Nowhere, I don't have a--
- Here in this office?
336
00:13:16,294 --> 00:13:18,514
- No.
337
00:13:18,557 --> 00:13:20,472
Lauren, don't.
Don't.
338
00:13:24,302 --> 00:13:26,739
- Oh, Iggy.
339
00:13:28,132 --> 00:13:29,830
- [sighs]
340
00:13:31,396 --> 00:13:32,963
- Hey.
- It's...
341
00:13:36,706 --> 00:13:38,969
- The left atrium's
barely moving.
342
00:13:39,013 --> 00:13:41,145
- COVID really did
a number on his heart.
343
00:13:41,189 --> 00:13:44,018
- Vijay said he got it
here at New Amsterdam?
344
00:13:44,061 --> 00:13:46,847
- He's not the only one.
- Approaching the left atrium.
345
00:13:46,890 --> 00:13:48,413
You too?
346
00:13:48,457 --> 00:13:50,067
- It was in the early days.
347
00:13:50,111 --> 00:13:53,462
I wore the same mask day and
night for two weeks straight.
348
00:13:53,505 --> 00:13:55,638
Then I was intubating
a patient,
349
00:13:55,681 --> 00:13:57,335
got a focused blast
of exhaled air
350
00:13:57,379 --> 00:13:58,641
right in my face.
[laughs]
351
00:13:58,684 --> 00:14:00,730
I just felt the virus
coming through the mask.
352
00:14:00,773 --> 00:14:03,472
Sure enough, three days later,
cough, fever, headaches.
353
00:14:03,515 --> 00:14:06,257
- Yeah.
Vijay.
354
00:14:06,301 --> 00:14:08,259
Why was he even here, you know?
355
00:14:08,303 --> 00:14:11,654
I mean, his age, knowing
the risk, why even come in?
356
00:14:11,697 --> 00:14:13,656
- How could he not?
- Vitals are stable.
357
00:14:13,699 --> 00:14:16,528
- We all felt a sense of duty,
358
00:14:16,572 --> 00:14:18,922
of pride even.
359
00:14:23,187 --> 00:14:24,362
- [sighs]
360
00:14:24,406 --> 00:14:27,148
[no sound]
361
00:14:27,191 --> 00:14:28,584
- What's that?
You can't...
362
00:14:28,627 --> 00:14:30,891
Ah, sorry about that.
363
00:14:30,934 --> 00:14:32,718
Hi, again.
364
00:14:32,762 --> 00:14:36,331
There are quite a few of you
on this call,
365
00:14:36,374 --> 00:14:37,332
and, well, you all have
366
00:14:37,375 --> 00:14:38,333
something in common,
367
00:14:38,376 --> 00:14:39,334
and that's that
368
00:14:39,377 --> 00:14:40,335
you are all victims
369
00:14:40,378 --> 00:14:41,510
of New Amsterdam's
370
00:14:41,553 --> 00:14:43,120
opioid policy
that kept pain meds
371
00:14:43,164 --> 00:14:45,514
from the people
who need them the most.
372
00:14:45,557 --> 00:14:47,124
We failed you
373
00:14:47,168 --> 00:14:49,474
in the most fundamental way
374
00:14:49,518 --> 00:14:51,041
a hospital can.
375
00:14:51,085 --> 00:14:53,435
You came to us in pain,
376
00:14:53,478 --> 00:14:56,568
you asked for our help,
and we said no.
377
00:14:56,612 --> 00:14:58,701
And what's worse,
378
00:14:58,744 --> 00:15:01,573
is we shamed you for asking.
379
00:15:01,617 --> 00:15:03,967
So I'm here to apologize
380
00:15:04,011 --> 00:15:07,492
and to tell you
that that cruel policy
381
00:15:07,536 --> 00:15:09,277
ends now.
382
00:15:09,320 --> 00:15:10,234
[cheers and applause]
383
00:15:10,278 --> 00:15:11,235
- Yes!
384
00:15:11,279 --> 00:15:12,280
- Finally.
385
00:15:12,323 --> 00:15:13,324
- It's about damn time.
386
00:15:13,368 --> 00:15:14,978
- Yeah, all patients will get
387
00:15:15,022 --> 00:15:16,719
the prescribed opioids
they need
388
00:15:16,762 --> 00:15:18,155
based on their pain levels,
389
00:15:18,199 --> 00:15:19,940
and all have you to do
is swing by New Amsterdam
390
00:15:19,983 --> 00:15:22,420
once a week
to pick up your pills.
391
00:15:22,464 --> 00:15:23,987
Easy as pie.
392
00:15:24,031 --> 00:15:25,728
- Wait, what?
- [speaking Spanish]
393
00:15:25,771 --> 00:15:27,121
- I can't do that.
- No, no.
394
00:15:27,164 --> 00:15:29,514
We're gonna make it
very, very simple.
395
00:15:29,558 --> 00:15:31,516
We're gonna establish
a special clinic.
396
00:15:31,560 --> 00:15:33,040
- What the hell's
a special clinic?
397
00:15:33,083 --> 00:15:34,258
- I live in Long Island.
398
00:15:34,302 --> 00:15:36,173
It's a three-hour trip
if I'm lucky.
399
00:15:36,217 --> 00:15:38,175
- Excuse me,
I have four kids and a job,
400
00:15:38,219 --> 00:15:39,742
and you expect me
to spend my one day off
401
00:15:39,785 --> 00:15:41,004
with you every week?
402
00:15:41,048 --> 00:15:43,398
- Okay, I'm hearing
some concerns
403
00:15:43,441 --> 00:15:45,139
about the policy that we were
404
00:15:45,182 --> 00:15:47,271
all just very excited about.
405
00:15:47,315 --> 00:15:48,925
But I'll just be honest.
406
00:15:48,969 --> 00:15:51,145
The hospital has some concerns
407
00:15:51,188 --> 00:15:54,104
about portion control.
408
00:15:54,148 --> 00:15:56,541
- Portion control?
Like I'm five?
409
00:15:56,585 --> 00:15:57,934
- No, no, no.
[laughs]
410
00:15:57,978 --> 00:16:00,241
It's just that these pills
are highly addictive,
411
00:16:00,284 --> 00:16:01,459
and we do need to make sure
412
00:16:01,503 --> 00:16:02,939
that nobody is using
413
00:16:02,983 --> 00:16:05,159
or distributing these pills
inappropriately.
414
00:16:05,202 --> 00:16:06,899
- [laughs]
So now you think I'm dealing?
415
00:16:06,943 --> 00:16:08,379
- No.
- You just said
416
00:16:08,423 --> 00:16:10,251
the shaming of chronic pain
treatment was over.
417
00:16:10,294 --> 00:16:11,948
- And it is, but...
418
00:16:11,992 --> 00:16:14,037
- Are you serious, Max?
- Come on.
419
00:16:14,081 --> 00:16:15,821
- That's not gonna work.
- No way.
420
00:16:15,865 --> 00:16:16,953
- Um...
421
00:16:16,997 --> 00:16:18,911
- What a joke.
- I'm outta here.
422
00:16:18,955 --> 00:16:20,435
- Come on, Max.
- This is ridiculous.
423
00:16:20,478 --> 00:16:22,785
- Thanks for nothing.
- I'm closing this window.
424
00:16:22,828 --> 00:16:25,962
[fast-paced percussive music]
425
00:16:26,006 --> 00:16:27,485
♪
426
00:16:30,575 --> 00:16:33,883
- Thank you all for responding
to my multiple app requests.
427
00:16:33,926 --> 00:16:36,233
I have some deliveries for you.
428
00:16:36,277 --> 00:16:39,628
Addresses are grouped together
for maximum efficiency.
429
00:16:39,671 --> 00:16:42,022
- Those burritos?
- They are not.
430
00:16:42,065 --> 00:16:43,762
- Are your items
heat sensitive?
431
00:16:43,806 --> 00:16:46,374
- No, we're good.
So if you wanna grab your bag--
432
00:16:46,417 --> 00:16:48,854
- Are dealing with breakable
items like figurines?
433
00:16:48,898 --> 00:16:51,292
- Are they insured?
- Are we liable here?
434
00:16:51,335 --> 00:16:53,946
- I--no, it's very simple.
435
00:16:53,990 --> 00:16:56,253
Some of our patients
are having a hard time
436
00:16:56,297 --> 00:16:58,516
getting to the hospital
to pick up their prescriptions,
437
00:16:58,560 --> 00:17:01,345
so I am hiring all of you
438
00:17:01,389 --> 00:17:02,564
to solve that problem.
439
00:17:02,607 --> 00:17:04,957
- So we're delivering drugs.
440
00:17:05,001 --> 00:17:06,437
- [laughs]
441
00:17:06,481 --> 00:17:08,135
Technically, yes?
442
00:17:09,919 --> 00:17:12,052
But uh...
443
00:17:12,095 --> 00:17:14,924
did I mention
there's a 25% tip?
444
00:17:16,099 --> 00:17:17,666
- All right.
445
00:17:17,709 --> 00:17:19,972
♪
446
00:17:20,016 --> 00:17:23,063
- Yo, how many
are we allowed to take?
447
00:17:23,106 --> 00:17:25,108
- Okay, okay.
448
00:17:25,152 --> 00:17:26,327
That was smooth.
449
00:17:26,370 --> 00:17:27,763
- That was the alcohol swipe.
450
00:17:27,806 --> 00:17:30,374
- Getting started now.
451
00:17:30,418 --> 00:17:32,463
- Oh, my God.
Distract me.
452
00:17:32,507 --> 00:17:33,769
- Uh, distract you?
453
00:17:33,812 --> 00:17:35,031
- Say something.
Anything.
454
00:17:35,075 --> 00:17:36,641
- Um, okay.
455
00:17:36,685 --> 00:17:39,470
Did you know that women blink
nearly twice as much as men?
456
00:17:39,514 --> 00:17:41,168
- Nope, something interesting.
457
00:17:41,211 --> 00:17:43,605
- Fine, fine.
Okay.
458
00:17:43,648 --> 00:17:45,737
- [gasps]
Aah, it feels like a sword!
459
00:17:45,781 --> 00:17:47,826
Like I'm literally
being stabbed by a sword!
460
00:17:47,870 --> 00:17:49,959
- All right, okay.
Um...
461
00:17:50,002 --> 00:17:52,657
there's this gorgeous man,
462
00:17:52,701 --> 00:17:54,050
this doctor that I was seeing.
463
00:17:54,094 --> 00:17:55,834
- Yes, good.
- Am seeing.
464
00:17:55,878 --> 00:17:58,924
Well, mmm, was seeing.
[stammers] I don't know.
465
00:17:58,968 --> 00:18:00,317
[laughs]
I don't know.
466
00:18:00,361 --> 00:18:03,277
But we started dating
just when the pandemic hit,
467
00:18:03,320 --> 00:18:05,670
and I thought about him
for months during the lockdown.
468
00:18:05,714 --> 00:18:07,542
I fantasized about him.
469
00:18:07,585 --> 00:18:09,848
But then, the other day,
470
00:18:09,892 --> 00:18:12,286
when he reached out
to touch me, I pulled away.
471
00:18:13,896 --> 00:18:17,073
I recoiled like I was
physically repelled by him...
472
00:18:19,467 --> 00:18:20,642
And I don't know.
I don't know.
473
00:18:20,685 --> 00:18:21,860
Is it me?
474
00:18:21,904 --> 00:18:23,340
Am I that scared
to be touched by someone,
475
00:18:23,384 --> 00:18:25,690
or is it him?
476
00:18:27,388 --> 00:18:28,780
Did what we have,
477
00:18:28,824 --> 00:18:31,174
did it just sort of...
478
00:18:32,393 --> 00:18:33,524
- No, keep going.
479
00:18:33,568 --> 00:18:35,309
But fast forward
to the interesting part.
480
00:18:35,352 --> 00:18:38,529
Did he dump you?
Are you sad?
481
00:18:38,573 --> 00:18:40,836
[gasps]
Aah!
482
00:18:40,879 --> 00:18:42,794
- Was that a contraction?
483
00:18:42,838 --> 00:18:43,882
- Mm-hmm.
Mmm!
484
00:18:43,926 --> 00:18:45,319
- What?
The epidural seems to be
485
00:18:45,362 --> 00:18:47,016
taking its sweet time.
- Yeah, it should've
486
00:18:47,059 --> 00:18:49,192
kicked in by now.
Unfortunately,
487
00:18:49,236 --> 00:18:52,152
I think the catheter's tip
is in the sub-dural space.
488
00:18:52,195 --> 00:18:53,675
- It didn't work?
489
00:18:53,718 --> 00:18:55,938
- It didn't work?
[sighs]
490
00:18:55,981 --> 00:18:58,810
Uh, can we try again
the epidural?
491
00:18:58,854 --> 00:19:00,986
[dramatic music]
492
00:19:01,030 --> 00:19:03,989
- It's too late, sweetheart.
You're too far along.
493
00:19:04,033 --> 00:19:06,514
Ella, you're gonna
have to do this
494
00:19:06,557 --> 00:19:08,255
on your own.
495
00:19:08,298 --> 00:19:10,344
- No.
No.
496
00:19:10,387 --> 00:19:11,954
No, no, no, no, no, no.
497
00:19:13,085 --> 00:19:15,740
- All right,
I know how this looks.
498
00:19:15,784 --> 00:19:19,440
I do.
Believe me.
499
00:19:19,483 --> 00:19:22,225
But these are my dad's words.
500
00:19:22,269 --> 00:19:24,184
They're his words,
501
00:19:24,227 --> 00:19:25,402
and growing up,
502
00:19:25,446 --> 00:19:28,231
I had to hear them
practically every day.
503
00:19:28,275 --> 00:19:31,887
My father struggled with
his weight his entire life,
504
00:19:31,930 --> 00:19:34,368
and he didn't want me
to suffer the same fate.
505
00:19:34,411 --> 00:19:36,108
So at an early age,
506
00:19:36,152 --> 00:19:38,546
he took an interest
in my weight.
507
00:19:38,589 --> 00:19:39,851
- An interest?
508
00:19:39,895 --> 00:19:41,505
- Mm-hmm, yeah.
509
00:19:41,549 --> 00:19:43,942
It started around
the third grade.
510
00:19:43,986 --> 00:19:46,771
I filled out a little bit,
and, uh,
511
00:19:46,815 --> 00:19:49,426
he would make me go
on crash diets
512
00:19:49,470 --> 00:19:51,385
out of the blue,
513
00:19:51,428 --> 00:19:53,865
skip meals, take meal
replacement bars to school.
514
00:19:53,909 --> 00:19:55,258
- As a nine-year-old?
515
00:19:55,302 --> 00:19:57,434
- Mm-hmm.
516
00:19:57,478 --> 00:20:00,045
Yeah, and...
517
00:20:00,089 --> 00:20:03,788
he would make me
take my shirt off
518
00:20:03,832 --> 00:20:06,008
so he could take pictures
of my body
519
00:20:06,051 --> 00:20:09,403
to, um, put up on the wall
in the basement
520
00:20:09,446 --> 00:20:11,970
next to the makeshift gym
that he'd built for me
521
00:20:12,014 --> 00:20:13,842
to track my process.
522
00:20:13,885 --> 00:20:17,193
There was
a body progress chart.
523
00:20:17,237 --> 00:20:19,630
And if I would ever
walk by him,
524
00:20:19,674 --> 00:20:21,066
he would smack my gut and say,
525
00:20:21,110 --> 00:20:22,590
"Jesus, look at that thing."
526
00:20:22,633 --> 00:20:24,287
[somber music]
527
00:20:24,331 --> 00:20:26,594
"Got a lot of work left to do,
don't we, buddy?"
528
00:20:26,637 --> 00:20:29,074
And what's worse is,
529
00:20:29,118 --> 00:20:32,252
if I ever had a good weigh-in,
which was not very often,
530
00:20:32,295 --> 00:20:35,298
I, uh,
I would be over the moon
531
00:20:35,342 --> 00:20:37,387
because it would make me
feel loved.
532
00:20:37,431 --> 00:20:41,652
♪
533
00:20:41,696 --> 00:20:44,002
[sighs]
534
00:20:44,046 --> 00:20:47,484
Then...this one time,
535
00:20:47,528 --> 00:20:49,573
I guess I would've been
in middle school by this point,
536
00:20:49,617 --> 00:20:51,662
I just--I--
537
00:20:51,706 --> 00:20:53,316
I hated everything
about myself.
538
00:20:55,187 --> 00:20:57,625
So I tried to hang myself.
539
00:20:57,668 --> 00:20:59,409
- What?
540
00:20:59,453 --> 00:21:01,063
Jesus, Iggy.
541
00:21:01,106 --> 00:21:03,413
- No, it's okay.
[cries]
542
00:21:03,457 --> 00:21:06,851
It didn't work, obviously.
543
00:21:06,895 --> 00:21:08,679
Ironically, I was too fat
544
00:21:08,723 --> 00:21:10,333
for the rod
in the basement closet
545
00:21:10,377 --> 00:21:13,336
to hold me up,
and it crashed down on my head,
546
00:21:13,380 --> 00:21:16,121
and my mom heard the sound
and came to help me.
547
00:21:16,165 --> 00:21:18,820
- What?
What did your dad say?
548
00:21:18,863 --> 00:21:20,517
- Oh.
549
00:21:20,561 --> 00:21:23,607
My dad, um, well,
550
00:21:23,651 --> 00:21:25,087
that night at my weigh-in,
551
00:21:25,130 --> 00:21:27,437
he just snapped
another polaroid for the wall
552
00:21:27,481 --> 00:21:29,744
and acted like nothing
ever happened.
553
00:21:30,658 --> 00:21:32,050
- [scoffs]
554
00:21:32,094 --> 00:21:34,183
- That's my dad for you.
555
00:21:39,406 --> 00:21:40,929
- [sighs]
556
00:21:42,626 --> 00:21:44,889
These are his words,
557
00:21:44,933 --> 00:21:46,587
but they don't control me
anymore.
558
00:21:46,630 --> 00:21:48,240
They do not.
559
00:21:48,284 --> 00:21:49,764
They serve as a reminder
of all of the things
560
00:21:49,807 --> 00:21:52,114
that I have conquered,
which is a lot,
561
00:21:52,157 --> 00:21:54,246
and sometimes
I look at these words,
562
00:21:54,290 --> 00:21:56,901
and they remind that
I'm not that kid anymore
563
00:21:56,945 --> 00:21:58,816
and that I'm making
better decisions.
564
00:21:58,860 --> 00:22:01,297
I'm making healthy decisions
in my life.
565
00:22:03,734 --> 00:22:07,608
And that I no longer need to
stand around with my shirt off
566
00:22:07,651 --> 00:22:10,350
and let others judge me.
- What?
567
00:22:11,568 --> 00:22:13,744
You know that's not
what I was doing, right?
568
00:22:13,788 --> 00:22:15,920
- I'm fine.
569
00:22:15,964 --> 00:22:17,748
I am more than fine.
570
00:22:17,792 --> 00:22:19,271
You can rest easy.
571
00:22:19,315 --> 00:22:22,884
Now if you'll excuse me,
I have patients to see.
572
00:22:23,972 --> 00:22:25,147
[door clicks open]
573
00:22:25,190 --> 00:22:27,584
- No, I'm--I'm being careful.
574
00:22:27,628 --> 00:22:29,891
Yeah.
575
00:22:29,934 --> 00:22:32,372
Ma, I'm gonna see you soon.
576
00:22:32,415 --> 00:22:35,287
Okay, yeah.
I love you too.
577
00:22:35,331 --> 00:22:37,072
All right.
578
00:22:37,115 --> 00:22:39,509
- Heard you pulled off
one hell of a TAVR.
579
00:22:39,553 --> 00:22:41,293
Just this side of genius.
580
00:22:41,337 --> 00:22:43,252
- I accept your apology, Max.
581
00:22:43,295 --> 00:22:44,427
- You need anything else
while you're here?
582
00:22:44,471 --> 00:22:46,429
- Aw, no, just catching up
with some folks.
583
00:22:46,473 --> 00:22:49,040
You know, I missed my favorite
scrub nurse in OR today, JJ.
584
00:22:49,084 --> 00:22:50,215
- Devlin.
- Yeah.
585
00:22:50,259 --> 00:22:51,565
- He passed away
a few months ago.
586
00:22:51,608 --> 00:22:53,001
COVID.
587
00:22:54,089 --> 00:22:55,786
- [sighs]
That's too bad.
588
00:22:55,830 --> 00:22:57,440
- Everything's changed.
589
00:22:57,484 --> 00:22:59,311
- Dr. Max Goodwin.
- That's me.
590
00:22:59,355 --> 00:23:01,749
- You're under arrest.
- Whoa, what's going on?
591
00:23:01,792 --> 00:23:03,098
- For what?
592
00:23:03,141 --> 00:23:04,578
- For writing
700 Oxycodone prescriptions,
593
00:23:04,621 --> 00:23:06,275
each one over 100 milligrams,
594
00:23:06,318 --> 00:23:07,798
and distributing them
with bike messengers.
595
00:23:07,842 --> 00:23:09,626
- Oh, that.
596
00:23:09,670 --> 00:23:11,759
- It's nice to see some things
haven't changed.
597
00:23:11,802 --> 00:23:14,370
[beeper beeping]
598
00:23:14,414 --> 00:23:18,461
[fast-paced dramatic music]
599
00:23:18,505 --> 00:23:19,288
- BP's 80/40 and falling.
600
00:23:19,331 --> 00:23:20,463
- Push epi, I'm coming in.
601
00:23:20,507 --> 00:23:22,422
I need an echo over here.
602
00:23:22,465 --> 00:23:23,771
- What happened?
603
00:23:23,814 --> 00:23:26,513
- The clip didn't hold.
His heart is failing.
604
00:23:26,556 --> 00:23:31,213
♪
605
00:23:33,389 --> 00:23:34,738
- [sighs]
606
00:23:34,782 --> 00:23:38,133
[fast-paced percussive music]
607
00:23:38,176 --> 00:23:39,482
- The DA only agreed
608
00:23:39,526 --> 00:23:41,484
to not press charges
for narcotics trafficking
609
00:23:41,528 --> 00:23:42,833
because you're an essential worker.
610
00:23:42,877 --> 00:23:45,009
- Huh.
- Congratulations.
611
00:23:45,053 --> 00:23:47,055
You're one of the select few
to benefit from COVID-19.
612
00:23:47,098 --> 00:23:48,404
- Thanks for getting me out.
613
00:23:48,448 --> 00:23:50,014
- I have half a mind
to leave you in there.
614
00:23:50,058 --> 00:23:51,973
- You know, pharmacies
mail opioids all the time.
615
00:23:52,016 --> 00:23:54,541
Bike messengers
are almost the same.
616
00:23:54,584 --> 00:23:56,673
- I wonder if you've ever
considered how exhausting it is
617
00:23:56,717 --> 00:23:57,805
to be your boss.
618
00:23:57,848 --> 00:23:59,894
All your wonderful ideas
619
00:23:59,937 --> 00:24:00,938
that come with such chaos,
620
00:24:00,982 --> 00:24:02,679
every single one.
621
00:24:02,723 --> 00:24:04,420
[sighs]
It's funny.
622
00:24:04,464 --> 00:24:06,857
The thing you're best at is the
part of my job I hate the most.
623
00:24:06,901 --> 00:24:08,816
You ignore reality.
- That's not fair.
624
00:24:08,859 --> 00:24:11,862
- Says the man who just
sent 70,000 milligrams of Oxy
625
00:24:11,906 --> 00:24:13,429
out into the street
via bike messenger.
626
00:24:13,473 --> 00:24:15,344
I know it seems
like a good idea.
627
00:24:15,387 --> 00:24:17,520
Hell, it might even be
a good idea,
628
00:24:17,564 --> 00:24:20,001
but it's my job to deal
with the reality of your ideas,
629
00:24:20,044 --> 00:24:22,569
in this case criminal reality.
Optics matter.
630
00:24:22,612 --> 00:24:24,614
- Patients matter.
631
00:24:24,658 --> 00:24:27,443
- I'm glad you're
helping people, Max, truly.
632
00:24:27,487 --> 00:24:30,098
But your plan
has no accountability.
633
00:24:30,141 --> 00:24:31,534
You don't know where
these drugs are going.
634
00:24:31,578 --> 00:24:32,970
You just don't.
635
00:24:33,014 --> 00:24:36,017
And opioids,
the potential for abuse,
636
00:24:36,060 --> 00:24:38,628
it's a very emotional issue.
637
00:24:38,672 --> 00:24:41,544
To many people,
opioids aren't pain medicine.
638
00:24:41,588 --> 00:24:43,546
They're what killed
someone they loved.
639
00:24:43,590 --> 00:24:46,549
[somber music]
640
00:24:46,593 --> 00:24:48,290
♪
641
00:24:48,333 --> 00:24:50,074
- [sighs]
642
00:24:50,988 --> 00:24:52,990
- Wait.
Iggy.
643
00:24:53,034 --> 00:24:54,688
Iggy, I wasn't judging you.
644
00:24:54,731 --> 00:24:56,080
- You could've fooled me.
645
00:24:56,124 --> 00:24:58,866
- It was just--people die
from what you're doing.
646
00:24:58,909 --> 00:25:00,215
- What did she say?
[chatter]
647
00:25:00,258 --> 00:25:01,869
[murmuring continues]
648
00:25:01,912 --> 00:25:06,177
[dramatic music]
649
00:25:06,221 --> 00:25:09,311
- In here.
In here.
650
00:25:14,664 --> 00:25:16,361
- Ig.
- [sighs]
651
00:25:16,405 --> 00:25:18,581
- Ig, look, I'm sorry
for making a scene.
652
00:25:18,625 --> 00:25:20,104
- You should be.
653
00:25:20,148 --> 00:25:22,150
- It's just
654
00:25:22,193 --> 00:25:25,153
I've seen people in my ED
with eating disorders.
655
00:25:25,196 --> 00:25:27,068
I mean, I've known people
with eating disorders.
656
00:25:27,111 --> 00:25:28,809
- [sighs]
- Some of them...
657
00:25:28,852 --> 00:25:29,940
they're not here anymore.
658
00:25:29,984 --> 00:25:31,376
- Mm-hmm.
659
00:25:31,420 --> 00:25:33,161
- Look.
660
00:25:33,204 --> 00:25:35,598
I know as well anyone
661
00:25:35,642 --> 00:25:38,253
that the truth
is really difficult.
662
00:25:38,296 --> 00:25:41,430
- I'm sorry.
What are you doing?
663
00:25:41,473 --> 00:25:43,998
Are you comparing your issues
to mine right now?
664
00:25:44,041 --> 00:25:45,652
Let me just mirror
that back for you
665
00:25:45,695 --> 00:25:47,088
so you can hear it out loud.
666
00:25:47,131 --> 00:25:49,569
I'm on the Jimmy Kimmel diet,
667
00:25:49,612 --> 00:25:52,572
and you almost killed a patient
because you are a drug addict.
668
00:25:54,574 --> 00:25:57,141
Not the same.
- That was way out of line.
669
00:25:57,185 --> 00:25:59,187
- I'm outta line?
It's not hard, Lauren.
670
00:25:59,230 --> 00:26:00,492
This is a hospital.
671
00:26:00,536 --> 00:26:02,103
There's only one line
that matters.
672
00:26:02,146 --> 00:26:04,932
You were hurting patients.
I am not.
673
00:26:04,975 --> 00:26:06,411
Plain and simple!
674
00:26:06,455 --> 00:26:08,283
- Patients aren't
the only people you can hurt.
675
00:26:08,326 --> 00:26:09,937
- Oh, yeah?
Well, I think the janitors
676
00:26:09,980 --> 00:26:11,634
are safe from my eating too.
- Yeah?
677
00:26:11,678 --> 00:26:13,636
What about your kids?
678
00:26:14,463 --> 00:26:16,117
- Excuse me?
- You're starving yourself.
679
00:26:16,160 --> 00:26:17,597
You think
they don't notice that?
680
00:26:17,640 --> 00:26:18,772
- You stop talking.
- How many meals have you
681
00:26:18,815 --> 00:26:19,903
had with them where you
682
00:26:19,947 --> 00:26:21,122
haven't eaten anything?
- Stop!
683
00:26:21,165 --> 00:26:22,297
- How many have
you skipped altogether?
684
00:26:22,340 --> 00:26:23,646
I mean, what kind
of screwed up issues
685
00:26:23,690 --> 00:26:25,213
are your kids gonna have
with food because of you?
686
00:26:25,256 --> 00:26:27,215
[knocking]
Occupied!
687
00:26:29,696 --> 00:26:31,654
- It's a bad time, Gladys.
688
00:26:31,698 --> 00:26:33,830
- It's Dr. Kapoor.
689
00:26:33,874 --> 00:26:35,179
- The clip failed,
690
00:26:35,223 --> 00:26:37,138
tore right through
the valve leaflets.
691
00:26:37,181 --> 00:26:38,400
I'm gonna have to crack open
his chest
692
00:26:38,443 --> 00:26:39,880
and put in an artificial valve.
693
00:26:39,923 --> 00:26:41,664
- That's a big surgery.
694
00:26:41,708 --> 00:26:43,797
- I thought you said you
couldn't sew into the muscle.
695
00:26:43,840 --> 00:26:46,669
What changed?
- Nothing. Not a damn thing.
696
00:26:46,713 --> 00:26:49,541
- But he'll make it through
the surgery, right?
697
00:26:49,585 --> 00:26:52,501
[somber music]
698
00:26:52,544 --> 00:26:54,851
♪
699
00:26:54,895 --> 00:26:56,331
- That's why I thought
you should see him now,
700
00:26:56,374 --> 00:26:59,508
and have one more moment
with him
701
00:26:59,551 --> 00:27:01,684
in case...
702
00:27:01,728 --> 00:27:03,207
I'm gonna go prep.
703
00:27:03,251 --> 00:27:10,388
♪
704
00:27:11,085 --> 00:27:13,391
- [grunts]
705
00:27:13,435 --> 00:27:14,479
[sighs]
706
00:27:14,523 --> 00:27:16,394
- You're fully effaced
and dilated,
707
00:27:16,438 --> 00:27:18,658
but the baby's still
at minus three position.
708
00:27:18,701 --> 00:27:20,834
Ella, the delivery isn't
progressing as I had hoped.
709
00:27:20,877 --> 00:27:22,444
- What does that mean?
710
00:27:22,487 --> 00:27:25,099
- When your contraction comes,
you need to push real hard.
711
00:27:25,142 --> 00:27:27,014
- Oh, my God,
this is a disaster.
712
00:27:27,057 --> 00:27:29,364
- Maybe you
could hold her hand.
713
00:27:29,407 --> 00:27:32,672
- [heavy breathing]
- E-Ella.
714
00:27:32,715 --> 00:27:33,585
Look.
Look.
715
00:27:33,629 --> 00:27:35,370
Count them out with me, okay?
716
00:27:35,413 --> 00:27:37,067
- [groans]
- Here we go.
717
00:27:37,111 --> 00:27:38,721
Give me
the biggest push you got.
718
00:27:38,765 --> 00:27:40,636
- You can do this.
Come on, come on.
719
00:27:40,680 --> 00:27:43,900
- No, I can't!
Stop, I don't want to!
720
00:27:43,944 --> 00:27:46,903
What if the baby's not okay?
What if I hurt it?
721
00:27:46,947 --> 00:27:49,732
What I ate undercooked meat
and didn't know it?
722
00:27:49,776 --> 00:27:51,560
And seven weeks ago
I took a bath
723
00:27:51,603 --> 00:27:52,822
right after the tub
was cleaned,
724
00:27:52,866 --> 00:27:54,041
and the water
probably had bleach in it.
725
00:27:54,084 --> 00:27:55,303
What kind of mom
is that careless?
726
00:27:55,346 --> 00:27:56,913
- You are not careless.
727
00:27:56,957 --> 00:27:59,263
You have disorder that sends
your pregnancy into overdrive,
728
00:27:59,307 --> 00:28:01,570
but you fought it,
and you've made it this far.
729
00:28:01,613 --> 00:28:03,920
- I cheated.
I got scans all the time.
730
00:28:03,964 --> 00:28:05,313
Sometimes two days in a row
731
00:28:05,356 --> 00:28:06,880
in case something happened
while I was sleeping.
732
00:28:06,923 --> 00:28:08,533
But then everything shut down,
733
00:28:08,577 --> 00:28:10,361
and Vijay got sick,
and I don't know why,
734
00:28:10,405 --> 00:28:12,102
but I just convinced myself
735
00:28:12,146 --> 00:28:14,757
that the baby was going to be
okay as long as he was okay.
736
00:28:14,801 --> 00:28:16,063
What if Vijay's not okay?
737
00:28:16,106 --> 00:28:18,326
- Ella!
Everything on that monitor
738
00:28:18,369 --> 00:28:19,936
says that your baby
is going to be okay,
739
00:28:19,980 --> 00:28:21,198
but you have to deliver it...
740
00:28:21,242 --> 00:28:23,157
- No!
Oh.
741
00:28:23,200 --> 00:28:24,114
- Contractions peaking.
- Aah!
742
00:28:24,158 --> 00:28:25,420
- You can do it.
743
00:28:25,463 --> 00:28:26,769
Your baby needs you
to push now.
744
00:28:26,813 --> 00:28:29,598
- [grunts]
Aah.
745
00:28:30,904 --> 00:28:33,123
[crying]
746
00:28:35,909 --> 00:28:38,825
[crying]
747
00:28:45,832 --> 00:28:47,485
- Eh?
748
00:28:48,225 --> 00:28:50,488
- Yeah, yeah, buddy?
What is it?
749
00:28:51,838 --> 00:28:53,361
Hit me.
750
00:28:54,144 --> 00:28:56,886
- You're such a good dad.
751
00:28:56,930 --> 00:28:58,496
- Aw, I don't know.
I...
752
00:29:05,155 --> 00:29:07,810
- If this doesn't work out...
753
00:29:10,117 --> 00:29:12,815
Will you look after
754
00:29:12,859 --> 00:29:15,209
Ella and the baby?
755
00:29:18,038 --> 00:29:21,171
- [crying]
756
00:29:49,939 --> 00:29:51,985
- You've got this.
757
00:29:52,028 --> 00:29:53,900
You can do it.
758
00:29:55,205 --> 00:29:56,990
- Hey.
759
00:29:57,033 --> 00:29:58,382
And I am dying...
760
00:29:58,426 --> 00:29:59,862
- What are you talking about?
Don't be silly.
761
00:29:59,906 --> 00:30:01,255
You are going
to be annoying her
762
00:30:01,298 --> 00:30:02,865
for the rest of your life,
okay?
763
00:30:04,911 --> 00:30:06,738
- Please.
764
00:30:09,393 --> 00:30:13,006
- If something happens, I...
765
00:30:13,049 --> 00:30:15,182
[cries]
Yes.
766
00:30:15,225 --> 00:30:17,358
Obviously.
767
00:30:18,925 --> 00:30:19,882
- Good.
768
00:30:19,926 --> 00:30:21,753
- [sighs]
769
00:30:33,461 --> 00:30:35,767
[somber music]
770
00:30:35,811 --> 00:30:38,074
- Listen, Iggy.
771
00:30:38,118 --> 00:30:39,902
- Lauren, I'm fine.
- No.
772
00:30:39,946 --> 00:30:42,252
I never should've dragged
your kids into this.
773
00:30:43,950 --> 00:30:45,908
I'm really sorry.
774
00:30:48,258 --> 00:30:51,392
- A couple nights ago,
I was, uh,
775
00:30:51,435 --> 00:30:53,176
I was wearing
this nice new sweater
776
00:30:53,220 --> 00:30:54,874
that Martin gave me,
and, um...
777
00:30:58,486 --> 00:31:00,705
Harper told me that
I looked handsome in it.
778
00:31:02,882 --> 00:31:05,580
Then I immediately grabbed
my stomach,
779
00:31:05,623 --> 00:31:07,451
and I told her
that she was wrong.
780
00:31:10,063 --> 00:31:11,760
It just popped out of mouth.
781
00:31:11,803 --> 00:31:13,762
[crying]
782
00:31:17,331 --> 00:31:19,637
I say things like that
all the time.
783
00:31:22,292 --> 00:31:24,164
And Vijay thinks
that I'm a great father?
784
00:31:24,207 --> 00:31:25,382
[crying]
785
00:31:25,426 --> 00:31:27,254
I'm teaching my kids
786
00:31:27,297 --> 00:31:30,474
that someone who looks like me
doesn't deserve to be loved.
787
00:31:33,086 --> 00:31:36,828
That is the same lesson
that my dad taught me.
788
00:31:36,872 --> 00:31:38,830
Aw, man.
789
00:31:40,310 --> 00:31:43,487
He just used different words.
790
00:31:47,013 --> 00:31:48,318
- Iggy.
791
00:31:50,277 --> 00:31:52,975
These aren't your dad's words.
792
00:31:53,019 --> 00:31:54,237
You wrote this.
793
00:31:54,281 --> 00:31:55,804
- I know.
794
00:31:55,847 --> 00:31:59,460
- These are your words.
You're calling yourself this,
795
00:31:59,503 --> 00:32:03,029
and you're keep suffering
until you stop.
796
00:32:03,072 --> 00:32:05,988
- [sighs]
If I can't stop,
797
00:32:06,032 --> 00:32:09,513
this note, that voice...
798
00:32:11,602 --> 00:32:14,518
It's the thing about myself
that feels the most true.
799
00:32:15,606 --> 00:32:18,914
How do you stop believing that?
800
00:32:19,915 --> 00:32:23,136
- Well, you could try
talking to a therapist.
801
00:32:23,179 --> 00:32:24,833
- [crying]
802
00:32:26,966 --> 00:32:28,054
- Hey, I did.
803
00:32:30,056 --> 00:32:31,709
He saved my life.
804
00:32:38,847 --> 00:32:40,240
- [sighs]
805
00:32:40,283 --> 00:32:42,024
- Come here.
806
00:32:44,418 --> 00:32:47,334
- Thank you.
- Yeah.
807
00:32:47,377 --> 00:32:51,773
- ♪ Even if we try
808
00:32:51,816 --> 00:32:56,691
♪ Even if we try
809
00:32:56,734 --> 00:32:59,433
♪ To make ourselves
810
00:32:59,476 --> 00:33:02,392
♪ All right
811
00:33:02,436 --> 00:33:06,875
♪ To mend our severed lives
812
00:33:06,918 --> 00:33:08,355
[no audio]
813
00:33:08,398 --> 00:33:12,576
♪ While all the rivers rage
814
00:33:12,620 --> 00:33:17,407
♪ Descend upon the sage
815
00:33:17,451 --> 00:33:22,021
♪ Alone on willowed eves
816
00:33:22,064 --> 00:33:26,677
♪ I lift my voice to sing
817
00:33:27,678 --> 00:33:31,682
♪ Ooh, ooh, ooh
818
00:33:31,726 --> 00:33:34,163
♪ Ooh, ooh
819
00:33:34,207 --> 00:33:38,211
♪ Ooh, ooh, ooh
820
00:33:38,254 --> 00:33:40,778
♪ Ooh
821
00:33:40,822 --> 00:33:44,043
♪ Ooh, ooh
822
00:33:46,958 --> 00:33:50,005
♪ Down long, hollow grove
823
00:33:51,702 --> 00:33:56,055
♪ Its wilting,
winding bones ♪
824
00:33:56,098 --> 00:34:00,407
♪ Come on, Johnny, please
825
00:34:00,450 --> 00:34:06,326
♪ Won't you speak to me?
826
00:34:06,369 --> 00:34:08,676
♪ Ooh, ooh
827
00:34:08,719 --> 00:34:10,721
♪ Ooh
828
00:34:10,765 --> 00:34:13,115
- Ready to restart the heart.
829
00:34:13,159 --> 00:34:14,247
- Everything's solid.
830
00:34:14,290 --> 00:34:16,292
- Charging.
Clear.
831
00:34:16,336 --> 00:34:17,859
- Suctioning.
832
00:34:21,689 --> 00:34:23,691
- Quarter's ready.
833
00:34:23,734 --> 00:34:27,521
[tense music]
834
00:34:27,564 --> 00:34:30,480
[machine beeping]
835
00:34:30,524 --> 00:34:33,309
- We did it.
836
00:34:33,353 --> 00:34:35,137
- Good job, everyone.
837
00:34:35,181 --> 00:34:38,532
[warm music]
838
00:34:38,575 --> 00:34:40,490
- [sighs]
839
00:34:40,534 --> 00:34:41,796
Ooh.
840
00:34:41,839 --> 00:34:44,015
- All right,
let's close him up.
841
00:34:44,059 --> 00:34:50,065
♪
842
00:34:50,109 --> 00:34:52,023
[machine beeping rapidly]
BP is dropping.
843
00:34:52,067 --> 00:34:53,242
- What?
844
00:34:53,286 --> 00:34:54,983
- Heart valve's not holding.
- It's slipping.
845
00:34:55,026 --> 00:34:56,593
Give me a 3-0 proline
on the needle driver.
846
00:34:56,637 --> 00:34:58,160
- Times two.
847
00:34:58,204 --> 00:35:01,555
- You work the septum,
I'll work the free wall.
848
00:35:01,598 --> 00:35:03,165
I'm gonna have to get him
back on bypass.
849
00:35:03,209 --> 00:35:04,906
- We can't reestablish
aortic cannulation.
850
00:35:04,949 --> 00:35:07,169
- [grunts]
- As a backup, yes.
851
00:35:08,910 --> 00:35:10,607
- My stitches aren't holding.
- Neither are mine.
852
00:35:10,651 --> 00:35:11,956
- Trying 5-0.
- Suction needs to be higher.
853
00:35:12,000 --> 00:35:13,567
- I'm not getting any purchase.
854
00:35:13,610 --> 00:35:15,482
- Another bag.
855
00:35:15,525 --> 00:35:17,310
- Come on.
Hold, damn it.
856
00:35:17,353 --> 00:35:18,920
- Flash sterilized.
857
00:35:21,488 --> 00:35:24,447
[somber music]
858
00:35:24,491 --> 00:35:31,585
♪
859
00:35:36,111 --> 00:35:37,765
- Ansuya.
860
00:35:37,808 --> 00:35:40,898
[ethereal music]
861
00:35:41,986 --> 00:35:44,075
Ansuya.
862
00:35:48,776 --> 00:35:55,913
- ♪ Oh
863
00:35:56,827 --> 00:36:00,483
♪ Oh
864
00:36:00,527 --> 00:36:05,227
♪ Oh, oh
865
00:36:05,271 --> 00:36:08,012
- Ansuya.
866
00:36:09,362 --> 00:36:11,451
- Vijay.
867
00:36:11,494 --> 00:36:18,588
- ♪ Oh, oh, oh
868
00:36:28,598 --> 00:36:30,339
- Eat this.
869
00:36:32,689 --> 00:36:35,083
- I don't need it.
870
00:36:37,259 --> 00:36:40,044
All I need is you.
871
00:36:40,088 --> 00:36:42,525
- It will give you strength
872
00:36:42,569 --> 00:36:45,572
for our granddaughter.
873
00:36:45,615 --> 00:36:46,964
- Granddaughter?
[laughs]
874
00:36:47,008 --> 00:36:49,532
- She needs her Dadaji.
875
00:36:49,576 --> 00:36:56,713
- ♪ Oh
876
00:36:57,497 --> 00:37:03,894
♪ Oh
877
00:37:05,331 --> 00:37:12,251
♪ Oh
878
00:37:13,600 --> 00:37:15,732
- Vijay?
879
00:37:17,734 --> 00:37:20,824
- ♪ Ah
880
00:37:23,479 --> 00:37:26,439
[machine beeping]
881
00:37:26,482 --> 00:37:28,310
- He's waking up.
882
00:37:28,354 --> 00:37:29,877
Oh, thank God.
Vijay.
883
00:37:29,920 --> 00:37:31,531
[warm music]
884
00:37:31,574 --> 00:37:33,489
- Welcome back, Dr. Kapoor.
885
00:37:33,533 --> 00:37:40,583
♪
886
00:37:40,844 --> 00:37:42,759
- [chuckles]
887
00:37:42,803 --> 00:37:44,283
[sighs]
888
00:37:47,373 --> 00:37:50,201
[baby crying]
889
00:38:03,389 --> 00:38:06,479
- [laughs]
Happy birthday, little one.
890
00:38:06,522 --> 00:38:08,307
[both laughing]
891
00:38:08,350 --> 00:38:11,266
[baby cooing]
892
00:38:14,704 --> 00:38:16,924
- Uh, K-Karen!
893
00:38:16,967 --> 00:38:19,361
- Are the cops chasing you now?
- Uh, I don't know,
894
00:38:19,405 --> 00:38:21,798
but I did come up with a solve
for our opioid issue,
895
00:38:21,842 --> 00:38:23,409
and I think you're really
gonna like it.
896
00:38:23,452 --> 00:38:24,975
- And here I thought
we knew each other better.
897
00:38:25,019 --> 00:38:26,629
- Watermarking.
898
00:38:26,673 --> 00:38:30,329
So every single opioid
that New Amsterdam sends out
899
00:38:30,372 --> 00:38:31,808
into the world
will be watermarked
900
00:38:31,852 --> 00:38:34,681
with invisible,
fluorescent fibers.
901
00:38:34,724 --> 00:38:36,987
Every patient will have access
902
00:38:37,031 --> 00:38:39,642
to the medicine they need
and without shame.
903
00:38:39,686 --> 00:38:42,602
And they'll be able
to manage their pain,
904
00:38:42,645 --> 00:38:45,996
and they'll be able to live
functional lives.
905
00:38:46,040 --> 00:38:48,216
But if those pills ever do
end up in the street,
906
00:38:48,259 --> 00:38:49,913
or in the wrong hands,
we'll know.
907
00:38:49,957 --> 00:38:52,829
There will be
no drug trafficking,
908
00:38:52,873 --> 00:38:56,442
and there will
be accountability.
909
00:38:58,008 --> 00:38:59,836
Oh, and I almost forgot
the best part.
910
00:38:59,880 --> 00:39:02,839
The Nylers are gonna
pay for it.
911
00:39:02,883 --> 00:39:04,450
- Why would they do that?
912
00:39:04,493 --> 00:39:06,234
- They kinda have to.
913
00:39:06,277 --> 00:39:07,627
Part of their settlement
includes
914
00:39:07,670 --> 00:39:10,325
donating millions of dollars
to public hospitals,
915
00:39:10,369 --> 00:39:11,674
just like ours.
916
00:39:11,718 --> 00:39:13,110
- [laughs]
917
00:39:13,154 --> 00:39:15,243
I don't know what to say.
918
00:39:15,286 --> 00:39:17,376
It sounds like
a well-thought-out
919
00:39:17,419 --> 00:39:18,768
and realistic plan.
920
00:39:18,812 --> 00:39:20,509
- I know.
Weird, right?
921
00:39:20,553 --> 00:39:22,250
- [chuckles]
922
00:39:22,293 --> 00:39:24,992
- Karen.
923
00:39:25,035 --> 00:39:28,430
Thank you
for keeping me accountable.
924
00:39:28,474 --> 00:39:30,214
- That's my job.
925
00:39:32,042 --> 00:39:35,263
And every once and a while,
it's worth it.
926
00:39:41,617 --> 00:39:44,533
[keys clacking]
927
00:39:58,895 --> 00:40:01,463
- I'm not ready.
928
00:40:03,334 --> 00:40:04,988
- Okay.
929
00:40:07,817 --> 00:40:11,908
- I mean,
I'm not ready to call it.
930
00:40:25,966 --> 00:40:28,882
[hopeful music]
931
00:40:28,925 --> 00:40:36,063
♪
932
00:40:55,082 --> 00:40:58,041
[somber music]
933
00:40:58,085 --> 00:41:05,222
♪
934
00:41:52,618 --> 00:41:55,925
- I should've been here.
935
00:41:55,969 --> 00:41:58,449
- Well, you're here now.
936
00:42:47,281 --> 00:42:49,239
[thunder rumbling]
937
00:42:49,283 --> 00:42:51,372
[projector clicking]