1 00:00:04,112 --> 00:00:05,896 - Previously on "New Amsterdam"... 2 00:00:05,939 --> 00:00:07,506 - Somebody reported that you 3 00:00:07,550 --> 00:00:09,291 have a problem with Adderall. 4 00:00:09,334 --> 00:00:11,641 - You're asking me if I've ever risked a patient's life 5 00:00:11,684 --> 00:00:12,990 because I'm stoned. 6 00:00:13,034 --> 00:00:14,383 - Yeah, and you haven't answered the question. 7 00:00:14,426 --> 00:00:15,819 - What do you think would happen 8 00:00:15,862 --> 00:00:18,213 if you stopped helping people? Who would they see? 9 00:00:18,256 --> 00:00:21,303 - They would see a corny, nerdy, 10 00:00:21,346 --> 00:00:24,393 fat, worthless nothing. 11 00:00:24,436 --> 00:00:27,091 - All right, since you all prescribe 79% of our opioids, 12 00:00:27,135 --> 00:00:29,050 I am giving you one year 13 00:00:29,093 --> 00:00:31,530 to prescribe 79% less, 14 00:00:31,574 --> 00:00:34,620 and anyone who doesn't will be fired. 15 00:00:35,969 --> 00:00:38,407 - I think they're clean. 16 00:00:39,364 --> 00:00:41,627 - The damage to his heart was extensive. 17 00:00:41,671 --> 00:00:44,108 The virus also ravaged the surrounding heart muscle. 18 00:00:44,152 --> 00:00:45,718 - How bad? 19 00:00:45,762 --> 00:00:47,981 - Even if you found the best heart surgeon in the world, 20 00:00:48,025 --> 00:00:50,680 I'm not sure it'd be enough. 21 00:00:52,290 --> 00:00:55,859 - ♪ There'll be three white horses ♪ 22 00:00:55,902 --> 00:00:58,862 ♪ All in a line 23 00:00:58,905 --> 00:01:02,344 ♪ There'll be three white horses ♪ 24 00:01:02,387 --> 00:01:04,215 ♪ In a line 25 00:01:04,259 --> 00:01:07,218 ♪ 26 00:01:07,262 --> 00:01:11,179 ♪ Three white horses 27 00:01:11,222 --> 00:01:14,530 ♪ When you go that way 28 00:01:14,573 --> 00:01:18,447 ♪ You will need somebody 29 00:01:18,490 --> 00:01:20,927 ♪ When you come to die 30 00:01:20,971 --> 00:01:24,975 ♪ 31 00:01:25,018 --> 00:01:27,020 ♪ Don't dismiss it 32 00:01:27,064 --> 00:01:30,546 ♪ Like it's easy 33 00:01:30,589 --> 00:01:34,245 ♪ Tell me what's so easy 34 00:01:34,289 --> 00:01:38,119 ♪ About coming to say goodbye? ♪ 35 00:01:41,165 --> 00:01:43,385 ♪ You're gonna miss her 36 00:01:43,428 --> 00:01:46,953 ♪ In the evening 37 00:01:46,997 --> 00:01:48,955 - Hey. - Yeah? 38 00:01:48,999 --> 00:01:51,262 - Dr. Reynolds. 39 00:01:51,306 --> 00:01:53,830 I used to work here. 40 00:01:53,873 --> 00:01:55,310 - Hospital ID? 41 00:01:55,353 --> 00:01:58,400 - No, but I should be in the system. 42 00:02:01,446 --> 00:02:02,839 - ♪ There'll be three white horses ♪ 43 00:02:02,882 --> 00:02:04,710 - Oh, thank you. 44 00:02:04,754 --> 00:02:08,671 - ♪ When you go that way 45 00:02:08,714 --> 00:02:12,196 ♪ You will need somebody 46 00:02:12,240 --> 00:02:14,851 ♪ When you come to die 47 00:02:18,115 --> 00:02:19,986 ♪ It's not desperation 48 00:02:20,030 --> 00:02:23,381 ♪ That we're breeding 49 00:02:23,425 --> 00:02:26,471 ♪ It's just a need we're feeding ♪ 50 00:02:26,515 --> 00:02:30,475 ♪ Before you say goodbye 51 00:02:33,565 --> 00:02:35,437 ♪ You're gonna miss me 52 00:02:35,480 --> 00:02:39,223 ♪ In the evening 53 00:02:41,704 --> 00:02:44,707 - ♪ Somebody when you come to die ♪ 54 00:02:46,709 --> 00:02:50,452 ♪ You know all you need is 55 00:02:50,495 --> 00:02:52,454 ♪ Somebody when you 56 00:02:52,497 --> 00:02:54,282 ♪ Come to die 57 00:02:54,325 --> 00:02:56,719 - So? 58 00:02:56,762 --> 00:02:59,287 - I can't operate. 59 00:03:02,290 --> 00:03:04,335 ♪ 60 00:03:04,379 --> 00:03:05,510 Here's Vijay's cardiac echo. 61 00:03:05,554 --> 00:03:07,033 - What do you mean "can't operate"? 62 00:03:07,077 --> 00:03:08,992 - His mitral valve, it's greater than 60% regurgitation. 63 00:03:09,035 --> 00:03:10,689 That's secondary to a ruptured papillary muscle. 64 00:03:10,733 --> 00:03:13,039 - I didn't fly you out here to not operate. 65 00:03:13,083 --> 00:03:14,737 - Listen, his EF is under 20%. 66 00:03:14,780 --> 00:03:16,869 These numbers aren't even compatible with life. 67 00:03:16,913 --> 00:03:19,045 - Right, which is exactly why you need to fix the valve. 68 00:03:19,089 --> 00:03:20,743 - I can't fix it because the virus has damaged 69 00:03:20,786 --> 00:03:22,397 the heart muscle around the valve. 70 00:03:22,440 --> 00:03:24,399 There's nothing to sew a new valve into. 71 00:03:24,442 --> 00:03:26,270 - Doing nothing isn't an option. 72 00:03:26,314 --> 00:03:27,706 - I didn't say I was doing nothing. 73 00:03:27,750 --> 00:03:29,491 Look, I'm gonna use a catheter. - TAVR? 74 00:03:29,534 --> 00:03:31,275 - All right, I'm gonna place a clip... 75 00:03:31,319 --> 00:03:32,755 - A clip? 76 00:03:32,798 --> 00:03:34,626 - Into the mitral's weakened area--that should fix it. 77 00:03:34,670 --> 00:03:36,759 - He's dying, Floyd. He needs surgery. 78 00:03:36,802 --> 00:03:39,240 - Okay, look, you brought me here because of my expertise, 79 00:03:39,283 --> 00:03:40,415 and because you trust me. 80 00:03:40,458 --> 00:03:42,286 Right now my expertise is saying this. 81 00:03:42,330 --> 00:03:44,854 - I gotta go. 82 00:03:44,897 --> 00:03:47,030 - What happened to "How can I help?" 83 00:03:47,073 --> 00:03:51,034 - The virus hit us hard. Nothing's the same. 84 00:03:52,340 --> 00:03:54,211 - My hospital had three. 85 00:03:54,255 --> 00:03:56,431 - Three what? 86 00:03:56,474 --> 00:03:58,737 - Only three deaths. 87 00:03:58,781 --> 00:04:02,045 I feel guilty just saying it. 88 00:04:02,088 --> 00:04:05,266 - Don't. You were spared. 89 00:04:05,309 --> 00:04:07,398 I wish we were. 90 00:04:07,442 --> 00:04:09,444 Especially Lauren. 91 00:04:10,967 --> 00:04:13,448 It hit her the worst. 92 00:04:16,799 --> 00:04:23,675 ♪ 93 00:04:35,252 --> 00:04:37,950 - Candelario's on! - Dr. Bloom, it's Gladys. 94 00:04:37,994 --> 00:04:41,389 - Get Candelario! - It's about Iggy. 95 00:04:43,347 --> 00:04:46,394 - I'm on my way out. 96 00:04:46,437 --> 00:04:47,917 ♪ 97 00:04:47,960 --> 00:04:49,701 - He's sweaty, wobbly on his feet. 98 00:04:49,745 --> 00:04:51,181 - Did he take a COVID test? 99 00:04:51,224 --> 00:04:52,530 - PCR came back negative, 100 00:04:52,574 --> 00:04:54,924 but he can hardly stand. 101 00:04:54,967 --> 00:04:58,841 ♪ 102 00:05:00,712 --> 00:05:02,671 - Ig? 103 00:05:04,368 --> 00:05:05,761 - Hey. - Hey. 104 00:05:05,804 --> 00:05:09,155 - What brings you down to the-- Ooh. 105 00:05:09,199 --> 00:05:11,941 - Aw, God, Gladys was right. You gotta go home. 106 00:05:11,984 --> 00:05:14,378 - No, I just-- I stood up too fast. 107 00:05:14,422 --> 00:05:16,554 I got a head rush. - You're valor is noted, 108 00:05:16,598 --> 00:05:18,164 but if you've got the flu, you gotta go. 109 00:05:18,208 --> 00:05:20,558 - I don't have the flu, I'm just--I'm tired. 110 00:05:20,602 --> 00:05:22,560 - You're color's not great. 111 00:05:22,604 --> 00:05:24,475 - Lauren, if I feel anything flu-y, I'll, uh... 112 00:05:24,519 --> 00:05:26,085 - Hey. 113 00:05:26,129 --> 00:05:27,478 - I'll page you. - Hey, hey, hey, hey, hey. 114 00:05:27,522 --> 00:05:28,740 Hey, come on, come on. 115 00:05:28,784 --> 00:05:30,263 Sit down. - No, no, I'm fine. 116 00:05:30,307 --> 00:05:31,917 I just--I haven't eaten. 117 00:05:31,961 --> 00:05:33,528 - Since when? 118 00:05:35,617 --> 00:05:37,880 - Hey. How many meals? 119 00:05:43,102 --> 00:05:44,626 - How many days? 120 00:05:47,411 --> 00:05:48,673 - Two. 121 00:05:50,458 --> 00:05:52,547 Maybe three. 122 00:05:56,072 --> 00:05:57,595 - Hi. 123 00:05:57,639 --> 00:06:00,424 I thought you might enjoy a full-bodied Ethiopian roast, 124 00:06:00,468 --> 00:06:02,339 carefully wrapped for contactless delivery, 125 00:06:02,383 --> 00:06:04,646 as an apology. - None needed. 126 00:06:04,689 --> 00:06:08,258 I'll take the coffee, but keep the apology. 127 00:06:08,301 --> 00:06:10,869 - Um, look, all of this, um, 128 00:06:10,913 --> 00:06:13,829 being close bodies and trusting, normal, 129 00:06:13,872 --> 00:06:15,178 it's kinda like I don't remember 130 00:06:15,221 --> 00:06:16,353 how to do any of it anymore. 131 00:06:16,397 --> 00:06:19,051 - I get it, if that's what it is. 132 00:06:19,095 --> 00:06:21,097 - What do you mean? 133 00:06:21,140 --> 00:06:23,882 - I mean, there's no reason 134 00:06:23,926 --> 00:06:25,971 to force something that's not there anymore. 135 00:06:26,015 --> 00:06:27,582 - No, it's not-- that's not it. 136 00:06:27,625 --> 00:06:29,410 - Are you sure? 137 00:06:33,631 --> 00:06:35,677 It's okay, Helen. 138 00:06:35,720 --> 00:06:37,635 COVID took away a lot of things. 139 00:06:37,679 --> 00:06:39,376 We focus here on the lives lost, 140 00:06:39,420 --> 00:06:42,466 but there were other casualties. 141 00:06:42,510 --> 00:06:44,686 ♪ 142 00:06:44,729 --> 00:06:47,123 See you around. 143 00:06:47,166 --> 00:06:49,125 - It's all I know right now. I'm sorry. 144 00:06:49,168 --> 00:06:50,300 - I know, but Dr. Kapoor 145 00:06:50,343 --> 00:06:51,562 was supposed to be in the OR hours ago. 146 00:06:51,606 --> 00:06:53,434 So that can't be good, right? 147 00:06:53,477 --> 00:06:54,783 - I know it's hard to wait. 148 00:06:54,826 --> 00:06:57,220 As soon as I have an update, I will let you know. 149 00:06:58,526 --> 00:07:00,702 - Hi, Ella, I'm Dr. Sharpe, 150 00:07:00,745 --> 00:07:02,443 one of Vijay's colleagues. 151 00:07:02,486 --> 00:07:04,445 - Of course, Double French Roast with a splash of agave. 152 00:07:04,488 --> 00:07:05,576 - Yep. 153 00:07:05,620 --> 00:07:07,317 - I'm sorry I'm not standing. 154 00:07:07,360 --> 00:07:09,362 I just--I'm worried that if I get out of this chair, 155 00:07:09,406 --> 00:07:10,929 Vijay's gonna die during surgery. 156 00:07:10,973 --> 00:07:12,191 I have OCD, 157 00:07:12,235 --> 00:07:14,629 and my irrational thoughts won this round. 158 00:07:14,672 --> 00:07:16,108 - It happens. 159 00:07:16,152 --> 00:07:18,894 - Ah, I wish it hadn't 160 00:07:18,937 --> 00:07:20,983 because sitting is making my leg cramps worse. 161 00:07:21,026 --> 00:07:23,464 I stretch, but they just keep coming back. 162 00:07:23,507 --> 00:07:24,508 - How long has that been going on? 163 00:07:24,552 --> 00:07:26,815 - Um, an hour or two? 164 00:07:26,858 --> 00:07:29,513 I woke up breathing better for the first time in months, 165 00:07:29,557 --> 00:07:31,776 but my back gets hot and now this. 166 00:07:31,820 --> 00:07:33,256 Although my pregnancy podcast 167 00:07:33,299 --> 00:07:35,998 said I was going to start feeling confident and sexy. 168 00:07:36,041 --> 00:07:38,522 - Ella, it sounds like you're in labor. 169 00:07:38,566 --> 00:07:41,482 ♪ 170 00:07:41,525 --> 00:07:42,961 - I got your page. 171 00:07:43,005 --> 00:07:44,572 - We caught the guy who's been pinching Oxy 172 00:07:44,615 --> 00:07:46,487 from the dispensary. - An orderly? 173 00:07:46,530 --> 00:07:48,619 - My name is Paul. - Paul Argento. 174 00:07:48,663 --> 00:07:50,578 Been working here for 13 months 175 00:07:50,621 --> 00:07:52,884 and stealing from you just as long. 176 00:07:52,928 --> 00:07:55,017 - You mind telling me why? 177 00:07:56,235 --> 00:07:57,715 Look, if we're using, we can get you tre-- 178 00:07:57,759 --> 00:07:59,412 - They're not for me. 179 00:07:59,456 --> 00:08:00,501 - Well, if you're selling them... 180 00:08:00,544 --> 00:08:03,068 - The--they're for my mom. 181 00:08:04,026 --> 00:08:06,637 She got diagnosed with osteosarcoma a year ago. 182 00:08:06,681 --> 00:08:08,291 She used to be happy, 183 00:08:08,334 --> 00:08:09,771 but now the pain's killing her. 184 00:08:09,814 --> 00:08:12,513 She can't even walk her dog. 185 00:08:12,556 --> 00:08:14,776 The Oxy was helping, but that idiot doctor of hers-- 186 00:08:14,819 --> 00:08:17,605 - He's been giving me less and less for my pain. 187 00:08:18,649 --> 00:08:20,738 Told me I had to be weaned off. 188 00:08:20,782 --> 00:08:23,175 - And what is he giving you as an alternative? 189 00:08:23,219 --> 00:08:24,655 - Nothing. 190 00:08:24,699 --> 00:08:27,179 - That's awful. 191 00:08:27,223 --> 00:08:29,704 Whoever was treating you stops today. 192 00:08:29,747 --> 00:08:32,010 You're a patient at New Amsterdam now. 193 00:08:32,054 --> 00:08:34,622 - But my doctor is at New Amsterdam. 194 00:08:36,232 --> 00:08:37,407 - Brenna Argento. 195 00:08:37,450 --> 00:08:39,540 - I know her well. Stage three bone cancer. 196 00:08:39,583 --> 00:08:42,760 - She can barely walk, and yet you pulled her Oxy. Why? 197 00:08:42,804 --> 00:08:45,023 - Because received a letter from a Dr. Max Goodwin 198 00:08:45,067 --> 00:08:46,808 saying that if I didn't, I'd be fired. 199 00:08:46,851 --> 00:08:49,158 - No, for overprescribing, needlessly, recklessly, 200 00:08:49,201 --> 00:08:50,986 but Brenna-- - Who wasn't the type 201 00:08:51,029 --> 00:08:52,857 of patient you pictured when you wrote it. 202 00:08:52,901 --> 00:08:55,077 This is what happens when you needlessly and recklessly 203 00:08:55,120 --> 00:08:57,819 make a blanket policy without a regard to individual patients. 204 00:08:57,862 --> 00:09:00,038 - She is suffering. 205 00:09:00,082 --> 00:09:03,215 - Of course she's suffering, but not because of me. 206 00:09:03,259 --> 00:09:04,652 Because of you. 207 00:09:04,695 --> 00:09:06,741 ♪ 208 00:09:13,182 --> 00:09:15,140 - Don't hang up! 209 00:09:15,184 --> 00:09:17,229 Because I want whoever that is to know 210 00:09:17,273 --> 00:09:18,535 that I'm person who killed you 211 00:09:18,579 --> 00:09:20,058 for reversing this hospital's policy 212 00:09:20,102 --> 00:09:21,712 on limiting opiate prescriptions. 213 00:09:25,194 --> 00:09:26,761 ♪ 214 00:09:26,804 --> 00:09:28,371 - I am unmoved. 215 00:09:28,414 --> 00:09:30,765 - Wow, okay, I gotta go. Yeah, Daddy's in trouble. 216 00:09:30,808 --> 00:09:32,593 Love you. Bye. 217 00:09:32,636 --> 00:09:36,161 - Opioid prescriptions at New Amsterdam are down 38%. 218 00:09:36,205 --> 00:09:38,773 We've won awards. We're a national model. 219 00:09:38,816 --> 00:09:40,905 The Nyler family's rightfully drowning 220 00:09:40,949 --> 00:09:42,211 in class-action lawsuits. 221 00:09:42,254 --> 00:09:44,387 - And yet, deaths from narcotic overdoses 222 00:09:44,430 --> 00:09:46,519 are skyrocketing. Know by how much? 223 00:09:46,563 --> 00:09:49,348 240%. So mission accomplished? 224 00:09:49,392 --> 00:09:51,568 - You instituted that policy. 225 00:09:51,612 --> 00:09:54,963 - Yeah, to save lives, but that policy was a blunt instrument 226 00:09:55,006 --> 00:09:56,529 that put paper over people. 227 00:09:56,573 --> 00:09:58,923 - So you're denouncing your own hugely successful policy? 228 00:09:58,967 --> 00:10:00,533 - Well, that's just it. It wasn't successful. 229 00:10:00,577 --> 00:10:03,580 Our books were clean, but at the cost of hurting people 230 00:10:03,624 --> 00:10:05,451 who needed our help. We have to do better. 231 00:10:05,495 --> 00:10:07,105 - By returning to the halcyon days 232 00:10:07,149 --> 00:10:09,673 when doled out highly addictive drugs like Halloween candy? 233 00:10:09,717 --> 00:10:12,197 - Karen, do you know what it feels like to have bone cancer? 234 00:10:12,241 --> 00:10:13,721 - Oh, Max. - It's like being stabbed 235 00:10:13,764 --> 00:10:15,331 over and over again 236 00:10:15,374 --> 00:10:17,420 all day long with a serrated knife, 237 00:10:17,463 --> 00:10:19,291 and the only, the only thing, 238 00:10:19,335 --> 00:10:21,946 that is gonna ease that excruciating pain 239 00:10:21,990 --> 00:10:23,339 is opioids. 240 00:10:23,382 --> 00:10:25,297 Those aren't my words. 241 00:10:25,341 --> 00:10:26,734 They're Brenna Argento's, 242 00:10:26,777 --> 00:10:29,258 a patient that we... 243 00:10:29,301 --> 00:10:31,564 that I let down. 244 00:10:31,608 --> 00:10:34,350 - You don't convince me opioids work. 245 00:10:34,393 --> 00:10:37,483 That was never the issue. This was always about abuse. 246 00:10:37,527 --> 00:10:39,747 About ensuring the drugs we send into the world 247 00:10:39,790 --> 00:10:42,053 aren't getting our patients hooked or being sold 248 00:10:42,097 --> 00:10:43,359 or ending up in the wrong hands. 249 00:10:43,402 --> 00:10:44,752 - You're absolutely right. 250 00:10:44,795 --> 00:10:46,667 - I don't like it when we're fighting, 251 00:10:46,710 --> 00:10:48,016 and you agree with me. - No, you're right. 252 00:10:48,059 --> 00:10:50,061 We can get opioids to the people who need them 253 00:10:50,105 --> 00:10:51,802 and in quantities that are in safe-- 254 00:10:51,846 --> 00:10:53,456 Karen, yes! 255 00:10:56,328 --> 00:10:57,416 - Sorry, forgot this was my office. 256 00:10:57,460 --> 00:10:58,983 Uh, would you excuse me? 257 00:10:59,027 --> 00:11:01,594 ♪ 258 00:11:01,638 --> 00:11:05,207 - Contractions are organized and four minutes apart. 259 00:11:05,250 --> 00:11:07,296 It's official. 260 00:11:07,339 --> 00:11:08,732 - What's official? 261 00:11:08,776 --> 00:11:11,474 - Ella, you're gonna have a baby today. 262 00:11:11,517 --> 00:11:13,171 - Oh, no, that's impossible 263 00:11:13,215 --> 00:11:15,347 'cause my due date's in three weeks. 264 00:11:15,391 --> 00:11:17,741 On a Friday. And today's Tuesday. 265 00:11:17,785 --> 00:11:20,875 And Dr. Richardson was gonna delivery my baby. 266 00:11:20,918 --> 00:11:22,050 - Well, looks like someone 267 00:11:22,093 --> 00:11:23,660 wants to crash this party early. 268 00:11:23,704 --> 00:11:26,010 I'll be covering for Dr. Richardson all day, 269 00:11:26,054 --> 00:11:28,056 so I think we'll be seeing a lot of each other. 270 00:11:28,099 --> 00:11:30,798 I'll be back in a bit to check on your progress. 271 00:11:30,841 --> 00:11:32,800 - Thank you. 272 00:11:34,715 --> 00:11:37,761 - This is not OCD. This is a relaxation exercise. 273 00:11:37,805 --> 00:11:39,763 - Good, you know, good. Relaxing is good. 274 00:11:39,807 --> 00:11:41,417 - How is this happening? 275 00:11:41,460 --> 00:11:43,811 I am not ready for this. 276 00:11:43,854 --> 00:11:45,682 - Is there someone that you would like me to call? 277 00:11:45,726 --> 00:11:48,424 Family, friends? - No, there's only Vijay, 278 00:11:48,467 --> 00:11:50,165 and he promised he'd be here for this. 279 00:11:50,208 --> 00:11:52,515 Um, okay, uh... 280 00:11:52,558 --> 00:11:54,996 Who--uh. You could try my doula, 281 00:11:55,039 --> 00:11:57,172 but I think she's in Portland this weekend 282 00:11:57,215 --> 00:11:59,696 for her great-aunt's birthday, so that feels like a dead end. 283 00:11:59,740 --> 00:12:01,785 - I know a great doula here at New Amsterdam. 284 00:12:01,829 --> 00:12:03,700 - Has she been working with me for the last 26 weeks 285 00:12:03,744 --> 00:12:06,268 on ways to manage my OCD for this specific moment? 286 00:12:06,311 --> 00:12:09,314 - Uh, no. 287 00:12:09,358 --> 00:12:12,013 - I had a plan. I had such a perfect plan. 288 00:12:12,056 --> 00:12:14,276 Oh. 289 00:12:14,319 --> 00:12:16,757 - Surgical suite prep to OR seven. 290 00:12:21,196 --> 00:12:22,414 Uh, Leela, hi. 291 00:12:22,458 --> 00:12:23,676 Can you clear my afternoon please? 292 00:12:23,720 --> 00:12:25,374 No pagers, no patients. Nothing. 293 00:12:25,417 --> 00:12:27,550 - What are you doing? 294 00:12:27,593 --> 00:12:29,900 - I'm kicking off a new plan. 295 00:12:29,944 --> 00:12:33,599 ♪ 296 00:12:33,643 --> 00:12:34,775 - Okay. 297 00:12:34,818 --> 00:12:37,342 Well, your concern is duly noted, 298 00:12:37,386 --> 00:12:40,476 but I don't need your help. But thank you. 299 00:12:40,519 --> 00:12:41,956 - You know your staff's noticed? 300 00:12:41,999 --> 00:12:43,827 I mean, even I can tell you're weak on your feet, 301 00:12:43,871 --> 00:12:46,482 and you just admitted to caloric restrictions 302 00:12:46,525 --> 00:12:48,223 spanning over 72 hours. 303 00:12:48,266 --> 00:12:50,094 - It's a cleanse, Lauren. 304 00:12:50,138 --> 00:12:52,357 Really, I'm fine. 305 00:12:52,401 --> 00:12:54,185 - You know you sound like every first-timer 306 00:12:54,229 --> 00:12:55,708 who's just been dragged to rehab. 307 00:12:55,752 --> 00:12:57,885 - Whatever it is that you think this is, 308 00:12:57,928 --> 00:13:00,235 it isn't, and I don't appreciate the accusation. 309 00:13:00,278 --> 00:13:03,238 - Do you hide food? 310 00:13:03,281 --> 00:13:04,630 - Lauren-- 311 00:13:04,674 --> 00:13:06,632 - Sometimes people starve themselves after a binge, 312 00:13:06,676 --> 00:13:08,504 and not for health reasons, but because they feel ashamed. 313 00:13:08,547 --> 00:13:09,853 - Well, it's not like that. 314 00:13:09,897 --> 00:13:12,029 - Must be hard to hide your stash at home 315 00:13:12,073 --> 00:13:14,118 what with Martin and the kids, so where do you keep it? 316 00:13:14,162 --> 00:13:16,251 - Nowhere, I don't have a-- - Here in this office? 317 00:13:16,294 --> 00:13:18,514 - No. 318 00:13:18,557 --> 00:13:20,472 Lauren, don't. Don't. 319 00:13:24,302 --> 00:13:26,739 - Oh, Iggy. 320 00:13:31,396 --> 00:13:32,963 - Hey. - It's... 321 00:13:36,706 --> 00:13:38,969 - The left atrium's barely moving. 322 00:13:39,013 --> 00:13:41,145 - COVID really did a number on his heart. 323 00:13:41,189 --> 00:13:44,018 - Vijay said he got it here at New Amsterdam? 324 00:13:44,061 --> 00:13:46,847 - He's not the only one. - Approaching the left atrium. 325 00:13:46,890 --> 00:13:48,413 You too? 326 00:13:48,457 --> 00:13:50,067 - It was in the early days. 327 00:13:50,111 --> 00:13:53,462 I wore the same mask day and night for two weeks straight. 328 00:13:53,505 --> 00:13:55,638 Then I was intubating a patient, 329 00:13:55,681 --> 00:13:57,335 got a focused blast of exhaled air 330 00:13:57,379 --> 00:13:58,641 right in my face. 331 00:13:58,684 --> 00:14:00,730 I just felt the virus coming through the mask. 332 00:14:00,773 --> 00:14:03,472 Sure enough, three days later, cough, fever, headaches. 333 00:14:03,515 --> 00:14:06,257 - Yeah. Vijay. 334 00:14:06,301 --> 00:14:08,259 Why was he even here, you know? 335 00:14:08,303 --> 00:14:11,654 I mean, his age, knowing the risk, why even come in? 336 00:14:11,697 --> 00:14:13,656 - How could he not? - Vitals are stable. 337 00:14:13,699 --> 00:14:16,528 - We all felt a sense of duty, 338 00:14:16,572 --> 00:14:18,922 of pride even. 339 00:14:27,191 --> 00:14:28,584 - What's that? You can't... 340 00:14:28,627 --> 00:14:30,891 Ah, sorry about that. 341 00:14:30,934 --> 00:14:32,718 Hi, again. 342 00:14:32,762 --> 00:14:36,331 There are quite a few of you on this call, 343 00:14:36,374 --> 00:14:37,332 and, well, you all have 344 00:14:37,375 --> 00:14:38,333 something in common, 345 00:14:38,376 --> 00:14:39,334 and that's that 346 00:14:39,377 --> 00:14:40,335 you are all victims 347 00:14:40,378 --> 00:14:41,510 of New Amsterdam's 348 00:14:41,553 --> 00:14:43,120 opioid policy that kept pain meds 349 00:14:43,164 --> 00:14:45,514 from the people who need them the most. 350 00:14:45,557 --> 00:14:47,124 We failed you 351 00:14:47,168 --> 00:14:49,474 in the most fundamental way 352 00:14:49,518 --> 00:14:51,041 a hospital can. 353 00:14:51,085 --> 00:14:53,435 You came to us in pain, 354 00:14:53,478 --> 00:14:56,568 you asked for our help, and we said no. 355 00:14:56,612 --> 00:14:58,701 And what's worse, 356 00:14:58,744 --> 00:15:01,573 is we shamed you for asking. 357 00:15:01,617 --> 00:15:03,967 So I'm here to apologize 358 00:15:04,011 --> 00:15:07,492 and to tell you that that cruel policy 359 00:15:07,536 --> 00:15:09,277 ends now. 360 00:15:10,278 --> 00:15:11,235 - Yes! 361 00:15:11,279 --> 00:15:12,280 - Finally. 362 00:15:12,323 --> 00:15:13,324 - It's about damn time. 363 00:15:13,368 --> 00:15:14,978 - Yeah, all patients will get 364 00:15:15,022 --> 00:15:16,719 the prescribed opioids they need 365 00:15:16,762 --> 00:15:18,155 based on their pain levels, 366 00:15:18,199 --> 00:15:19,940 and all have you to do is swing by New Amsterdam 367 00:15:19,983 --> 00:15:22,420 once a week to pick up your pills. 368 00:15:22,464 --> 00:15:23,987 Easy as pie. 369 00:15:24,031 --> 00:15:25,728 - Wait, what? - 370 00:15:25,771 --> 00:15:27,121 - I can't do that. - No, no. 371 00:15:27,164 --> 00:15:29,514 We're gonna make it very, very simple. 372 00:15:29,558 --> 00:15:31,516 We're gonna establish a special clinic. 373 00:15:31,560 --> 00:15:33,040 - What the hell's a special clinic? 374 00:15:33,083 --> 00:15:34,258 - I live in Long Island. 375 00:15:34,302 --> 00:15:36,173 It's a three-hour trip if I'm lucky. 376 00:15:36,217 --> 00:15:38,175 - Excuse me, I have four kids and a job, 377 00:15:38,219 --> 00:15:39,742 and you expect me to spend my one day off 378 00:15:39,785 --> 00:15:41,004 with you every week? 379 00:15:41,048 --> 00:15:43,398 - Okay, I'm hearing some concerns 380 00:15:43,441 --> 00:15:45,139 about the policy that we were 381 00:15:45,182 --> 00:15:47,271 all just very excited about. 382 00:15:47,315 --> 00:15:48,925 But I'll just be honest. 383 00:15:48,969 --> 00:15:51,145 The hospital has some concerns 384 00:15:51,188 --> 00:15:54,104 about portion control. 385 00:15:54,148 --> 00:15:56,541 - Portion control? Like I'm five? 386 00:15:56,585 --> 00:15:57,934 - No, no, no. 387 00:15:57,978 --> 00:16:00,241 It's just that these pills are highly addictive, 388 00:16:00,284 --> 00:16:01,459 and we do need to make sure 389 00:16:01,503 --> 00:16:02,939 that nobody is using 390 00:16:02,983 --> 00:16:05,159 or distributing these pills inappropriately. 391 00:16:05,202 --> 00:16:06,899 - So now you think I'm dealing? 392 00:16:06,943 --> 00:16:08,379 - No. - You just said 393 00:16:08,423 --> 00:16:10,251 the shaming of chronic pain treatment was over. 394 00:16:10,294 --> 00:16:11,948 - And it is, but... 395 00:16:11,992 --> 00:16:14,037 - Are you serious, Max? - Come on. 396 00:16:14,081 --> 00:16:15,821 - That's not gonna work. - No way. 397 00:16:15,865 --> 00:16:16,953 - Um... 398 00:16:16,997 --> 00:16:18,911 - What a joke. - I'm outta here. 399 00:16:18,955 --> 00:16:20,435 - Come on, Max. - This is ridiculous. 400 00:16:20,478 --> 00:16:22,785 - Thanks for nothing. - I'm closing this window. 401 00:16:26,006 --> 00:16:27,485 ♪ 402 00:16:30,575 --> 00:16:33,883 - Thank you all for responding to my multiple app requests. 403 00:16:33,926 --> 00:16:36,233 I have some deliveries for you. 404 00:16:36,277 --> 00:16:39,628 Addresses are grouped together for maximum efficiency. 405 00:16:39,671 --> 00:16:42,022 - Those burritos? - They are not. 406 00:16:42,065 --> 00:16:43,762 - Are your items heat sensitive? 407 00:16:43,806 --> 00:16:46,374 - No, we're good. So if you wanna grab your bag-- 408 00:16:46,417 --> 00:16:48,854 - Are dealing with breakable items like figurines? 409 00:16:48,898 --> 00:16:51,292 - Are they insured? - Are we liable here? 410 00:16:51,335 --> 00:16:53,946 - I--no, it's very simple. 411 00:16:53,990 --> 00:16:56,253 Some of our patients are having a hard time 412 00:16:56,297 --> 00:16:58,516 getting to the hospital to pick up their prescriptions, 413 00:16:58,560 --> 00:17:01,345 so I am hiring all of you 414 00:17:01,389 --> 00:17:02,564 to solve that problem. 415 00:17:02,607 --> 00:17:04,957 - So we're delivering drugs. 416 00:17:06,481 --> 00:17:08,135 Technically, yes? 417 00:17:09,919 --> 00:17:12,052 But uh... 418 00:17:12,095 --> 00:17:14,924 did I mention there's a 25% tip? 419 00:17:16,099 --> 00:17:17,666 - All right. 420 00:17:17,709 --> 00:17:19,972 ♪ 421 00:17:20,016 --> 00:17:23,063 - Yo, how many are we allowed to take? 422 00:17:23,106 --> 00:17:25,108 - Okay, okay. 423 00:17:25,152 --> 00:17:26,327 That was smooth. 424 00:17:26,370 --> 00:17:27,763 - That was the alcohol swipe. 425 00:17:27,806 --> 00:17:30,374 - Getting started now. 426 00:17:30,418 --> 00:17:32,463 - Oh, my God. Distract me. 427 00:17:32,507 --> 00:17:33,769 - Uh, distract you? 428 00:17:33,812 --> 00:17:35,031 - Say something. Anything. 429 00:17:35,075 --> 00:17:36,641 - Um, okay. 430 00:17:36,685 --> 00:17:39,470 Did you know that women blink nearly twice as much as men? 431 00:17:39,514 --> 00:17:41,168 - Nope, something interesting. 432 00:17:41,211 --> 00:17:43,605 - Fine, fine. Okay. 433 00:17:43,648 --> 00:17:45,737 - Aah, it feels like a sword! 434 00:17:45,781 --> 00:17:47,826 Like I'm literally being stabbed by a sword! 435 00:17:47,870 --> 00:17:49,959 - All right, okay. Um... 436 00:17:50,002 --> 00:17:52,657 there's this gorgeous man, 437 00:17:52,701 --> 00:17:54,050 this doctor that I was seeing. 438 00:17:54,094 --> 00:17:55,834 - Yes, good. - Am seeing. 439 00:17:55,878 --> 00:17:58,924 Well, mmm, was seeing. 440 00:17:58,968 --> 00:18:00,317 I don't know. 441 00:18:00,361 --> 00:18:03,277 But we started dating just when the pandemic hit, 442 00:18:03,320 --> 00:18:05,670 and I thought about him for months during the lockdown. 443 00:18:05,714 --> 00:18:07,542 I fantasized about him. 444 00:18:07,585 --> 00:18:09,848 But then, the other day, 445 00:18:09,892 --> 00:18:12,286 when he reached out to touch me, I pulled away. 446 00:18:13,896 --> 00:18:17,073 I recoiled like I was physically repelled by him... 447 00:18:19,467 --> 00:18:20,642 And I don't know. I don't know. 448 00:18:20,685 --> 00:18:21,860 Is it me? 449 00:18:21,904 --> 00:18:23,340 Am I that scared to be touched by someone, 450 00:18:23,384 --> 00:18:25,690 or is it him? 451 00:18:27,388 --> 00:18:28,780 Did what we have, 452 00:18:28,824 --> 00:18:31,174 did it just sort of... 453 00:18:32,393 --> 00:18:33,524 - No, keep going. 454 00:18:33,568 --> 00:18:35,309 But fast forward to the interesting part. 455 00:18:35,352 --> 00:18:38,529 Did he dump you? Are you sad? 456 00:18:38,573 --> 00:18:40,836 Aah! 457 00:18:40,879 --> 00:18:42,794 - Was that a contraction? 458 00:18:42,838 --> 00:18:43,882 - Mm-hmm. Mmm! 459 00:18:43,926 --> 00:18:45,319 - What? The epidural seems to be 460 00:18:45,362 --> 00:18:47,016 taking its sweet time. - Yeah, it should've 461 00:18:47,059 --> 00:18:49,192 kicked in by now. Unfortunately, 462 00:18:49,236 --> 00:18:52,152 I think the catheter's tip is in the sub-dural space. 463 00:18:52,195 --> 00:18:55,938 - It didn't work? 464 00:18:55,981 --> 00:18:58,810 Uh, can we try again the epidural? 465 00:19:01,030 --> 00:19:03,989 - It's too late, sweetheart. You're too far along. 466 00:19:04,033 --> 00:19:06,514 Ella, you're gonna have to do this 467 00:19:06,557 --> 00:19:08,255 on your own. 468 00:19:08,298 --> 00:19:10,344 - No. No. 469 00:19:10,387 --> 00:19:11,954 No, no, no, no, no, no. 470 00:19:13,085 --> 00:19:15,740 - All right, I know how this looks. 471 00:19:15,784 --> 00:19:19,440 I do. Believe me. 472 00:19:19,483 --> 00:19:22,225 But these are my dad's words. 473 00:19:22,269 --> 00:19:24,184 They're his words, 474 00:19:24,227 --> 00:19:25,402 and growing up, 475 00:19:25,446 --> 00:19:28,231 I had to hear them practically every day. 476 00:19:28,275 --> 00:19:31,887 My father struggled with his weight his entire life, 477 00:19:31,930 --> 00:19:34,368 and he didn't want me to suffer the same fate. 478 00:19:34,411 --> 00:19:36,108 So at an early age, 479 00:19:36,152 --> 00:19:38,546 he took an interest in my weight. 480 00:19:38,589 --> 00:19:39,851 - An interest? 481 00:19:39,895 --> 00:19:41,505 - Mm-hmm, yeah. 482 00:19:41,549 --> 00:19:43,942 It started around the third grade. 483 00:19:43,986 --> 00:19:46,771 I filled out a little bit, and, uh, 484 00:19:46,815 --> 00:19:49,426 he would make me go on crash diets 485 00:19:49,470 --> 00:19:51,385 out of the blue, 486 00:19:51,428 --> 00:19:53,865 skip meals, take meal replacement bars to school. 487 00:19:53,909 --> 00:19:55,258 - As a nine-year-old? 488 00:19:55,302 --> 00:19:57,434 - Mm-hmm. 489 00:19:57,478 --> 00:20:00,045 Yeah, and... 490 00:20:00,089 --> 00:20:03,788 he would make me take my shirt off 491 00:20:03,832 --> 00:20:06,008 so he could take pictures of my body 492 00:20:06,051 --> 00:20:09,403 to, um, put up on the wall in the basement 493 00:20:09,446 --> 00:20:11,970 next to the makeshift gym that he'd built for me 494 00:20:12,014 --> 00:20:13,842 to track my process. 495 00:20:13,885 --> 00:20:17,193 There was a body progress chart. 496 00:20:17,237 --> 00:20:19,630 And if I would ever walk by him, 497 00:20:19,674 --> 00:20:21,066 he would smack my gut and say, 498 00:20:21,110 --> 00:20:22,590 "Jesus, look at that thing." 499 00:20:24,331 --> 00:20:26,594 "Got a lot of work left to do, don't we, buddy?" 500 00:20:26,637 --> 00:20:29,074 And what's worse is, 501 00:20:29,118 --> 00:20:32,252 if I ever had a good weigh-in, which was not very often, 502 00:20:32,295 --> 00:20:35,298 I, uh, I would be over the moon 503 00:20:35,342 --> 00:20:37,387 because it would make me feel loved. 504 00:20:37,431 --> 00:20:41,652 ♪ 505 00:20:44,046 --> 00:20:47,484 Then...this one time, 506 00:20:47,528 --> 00:20:49,573 I guess I would've been in middle school by this point, 507 00:20:49,617 --> 00:20:51,662 I just--I-- 508 00:20:51,706 --> 00:20:53,316 I hated everything about myself. 509 00:20:55,187 --> 00:20:57,625 So I tried to hang myself. 510 00:20:57,668 --> 00:20:59,409 - What? 511 00:20:59,453 --> 00:21:01,063 Jesus, Iggy. 512 00:21:01,106 --> 00:21:03,413 - No, it's okay. 513 00:21:03,457 --> 00:21:06,851 It didn't work, obviously. 514 00:21:06,895 --> 00:21:08,679 Ironically, I was too fat 515 00:21:08,723 --> 00:21:10,333 for the rod in the basement closet 516 00:21:10,377 --> 00:21:13,336 to hold me up, and it crashed down on my head, 517 00:21:13,380 --> 00:21:16,121 and my mom heard the sound and came to help me. 518 00:21:16,165 --> 00:21:18,820 - What? What did your dad say? 519 00:21:18,863 --> 00:21:20,517 - Oh. 520 00:21:20,561 --> 00:21:23,607 My dad, um, well, 521 00:21:23,651 --> 00:21:25,087 that night at my weigh-in, 522 00:21:25,130 --> 00:21:27,437 he just snapped another polaroid for the wall 523 00:21:27,481 --> 00:21:29,744 and acted like nothing ever happened. 524 00:21:32,094 --> 00:21:34,183 - That's my dad for you. 525 00:21:42,626 --> 00:21:44,889 These are his words, 526 00:21:44,933 --> 00:21:46,587 but they don't control me anymore. 527 00:21:46,630 --> 00:21:48,240 They do not. 528 00:21:48,284 --> 00:21:49,764 They serve as a reminder of all of the things 529 00:21:49,807 --> 00:21:52,114 that I have conquered, which is a lot, 530 00:21:52,157 --> 00:21:54,246 and sometimes I look at these words, 531 00:21:54,290 --> 00:21:56,901 and they remind that I'm not that kid anymore 532 00:21:56,945 --> 00:21:58,816 and that I'm making better decisions. 533 00:21:58,860 --> 00:22:01,297 I'm making healthy decisions in my life. 534 00:22:03,734 --> 00:22:07,608 And that I no longer need to stand around with my shirt off 535 00:22:07,651 --> 00:22:10,350 and let others judge me. - What? 536 00:22:11,568 --> 00:22:13,744 You know that's not what I was doing, right? 537 00:22:13,788 --> 00:22:15,920 - I'm fine. 538 00:22:15,964 --> 00:22:17,748 I am more than fine. 539 00:22:17,792 --> 00:22:19,271 You can rest easy. 540 00:22:19,315 --> 00:22:22,884 Now if you'll excuse me, I have patients to see. 541 00:22:25,190 --> 00:22:27,584 - No, I'm--I'm being careful. 542 00:22:27,628 --> 00:22:29,891 Yeah. 543 00:22:29,934 --> 00:22:32,372 Ma, I'm gonna see you soon. 544 00:22:32,415 --> 00:22:35,287 Okay, yeah. I love you too. 545 00:22:35,331 --> 00:22:37,072 All right. 546 00:22:37,115 --> 00:22:39,509 - Heard you pulled off one hell of a TAVR. 547 00:22:39,553 --> 00:22:41,293 Just this side of genius. 548 00:22:41,337 --> 00:22:43,252 - I accept your apology, Max. 549 00:22:43,295 --> 00:22:44,427 - You need anything else while you're here? 550 00:22:44,471 --> 00:22:46,429 - Aw, no, just catching up with some folks. 551 00:22:46,473 --> 00:22:49,040 You know, I missed my favorite scrub nurse in OR today, JJ. 552 00:22:49,084 --> 00:22:50,215 - Devlin. - Yeah. 553 00:22:50,259 --> 00:22:51,565 - He passed away a few months ago. 554 00:22:51,608 --> 00:22:53,001 COVID. 555 00:22:54,089 --> 00:22:55,786 - That's too bad. 556 00:22:55,830 --> 00:22:57,440 - Everything's changed. 557 00:22:57,484 --> 00:22:59,311 - Dr. Max Goodwin. - That's me. 558 00:22:59,355 --> 00:23:01,749 - You're under arrest. - Whoa, what's going on? 559 00:23:01,792 --> 00:23:03,098 - For what? 560 00:23:03,141 --> 00:23:04,578 - For writing 700 Oxycodone prescriptions, 561 00:23:04,621 --> 00:23:06,275 each one over 100 milligrams, 562 00:23:06,318 --> 00:23:07,798 and distributing them with bike messengers. 563 00:23:07,842 --> 00:23:09,626 - Oh, that. 564 00:23:09,670 --> 00:23:11,759 - It's nice to see some things haven't changed. 565 00:23:18,505 --> 00:23:19,288 - BP's 80/40 and falling. 566 00:23:19,331 --> 00:23:20,463 - Push epi, I'm coming in. 567 00:23:20,507 --> 00:23:22,422 I need an echo over here. 568 00:23:22,465 --> 00:23:23,771 - What happened? 569 00:23:23,814 --> 00:23:26,513 - The clip didn't hold. His heart is failing. 570 00:23:26,556 --> 00:23:31,213 ♪ 571 00:23:38,176 --> 00:23:39,482 - The DA only agreed 572 00:23:39,526 --> 00:23:41,484 to not press charges for narcotics trafficking 573 00:23:41,528 --> 00:23:42,833 because you're an essential worker. 574 00:23:42,877 --> 00:23:45,009 - Huh. - Congratulations. 575 00:23:45,053 --> 00:23:47,055 You're one of the select few to benefit from COVID-19. 576 00:23:47,098 --> 00:23:48,404 - Thanks for getting me out. 577 00:23:48,448 --> 00:23:50,014 - I have half a mind to leave you in there. 578 00:23:50,058 --> 00:23:51,973 - You know, pharmacies mail opioids all the time. 579 00:23:52,016 --> 00:23:54,541 Bike messengers are almost the same. 580 00:23:54,584 --> 00:23:56,673 - I wonder if you've ever considered how exhausting it is 581 00:23:56,717 --> 00:23:57,805 to be your boss. 582 00:23:57,848 --> 00:23:59,894 All your wonderful ideas 583 00:23:59,937 --> 00:24:00,938 that come with such chaos, 584 00:24:00,982 --> 00:24:02,679 every single one. 585 00:24:02,723 --> 00:24:04,420 It's funny. 586 00:24:04,464 --> 00:24:06,857 The thing you're best at is the part of my job I hate the most. 587 00:24:06,901 --> 00:24:08,816 You ignore reality. - That's not fair. 588 00:24:08,859 --> 00:24:11,862 - Says the man who just sent 70,000 milligrams of Oxy 589 00:24:11,906 --> 00:24:13,429 out into the street via bike messenger. 590 00:24:13,473 --> 00:24:15,344 I know it seems like a good idea. 591 00:24:15,387 --> 00:24:17,520 Hell, it might even be a good idea, 592 00:24:17,564 --> 00:24:20,001 but it's my job to deal with the reality of your ideas, 593 00:24:20,044 --> 00:24:22,569 in this case criminal reality. Optics matter. 594 00:24:22,612 --> 00:24:24,614 - Patients matter. 595 00:24:24,658 --> 00:24:27,443 - I'm glad you're helping people, Max, truly. 596 00:24:27,487 --> 00:24:30,098 But your plan has no accountability. 597 00:24:30,141 --> 00:24:31,534 You don't know where these drugs are going. 598 00:24:31,578 --> 00:24:32,970 You just don't. 599 00:24:33,014 --> 00:24:36,017 And opioids, the potential for abuse, 600 00:24:36,060 --> 00:24:38,628 it's a very emotional issue. 601 00:24:38,672 --> 00:24:41,544 To many people, opioids aren't pain medicine. 602 00:24:41,588 --> 00:24:43,546 They're what killed someone they loved. 603 00:24:46,593 --> 00:24:48,290 ♪ 604 00:24:50,988 --> 00:24:52,990 - Wait. Iggy. 605 00:24:53,034 --> 00:24:54,688 Iggy, I wasn't judging you. 606 00:24:54,731 --> 00:24:56,080 - You could've fooled me. 607 00:24:56,124 --> 00:24:58,866 - It was just--people die from what you're doing. 608 00:24:58,909 --> 00:25:00,215 - What did she say? 609 00:25:06,221 --> 00:25:09,311 - In here. In here. 610 00:25:14,664 --> 00:25:16,361 - Ig. - 611 00:25:16,405 --> 00:25:18,581 - Ig, look, I'm sorry for making a scene. 612 00:25:18,625 --> 00:25:20,104 - You should be. 613 00:25:20,148 --> 00:25:22,150 - It's just 614 00:25:22,193 --> 00:25:25,153 I've seen people in my ED with eating disorders. 615 00:25:25,196 --> 00:25:27,068 I mean, I've known people with eating disorders. 616 00:25:27,111 --> 00:25:28,809 - - Some of them... 617 00:25:28,852 --> 00:25:29,940 they're not here anymore. 618 00:25:29,984 --> 00:25:31,376 - Mm-hmm. 619 00:25:31,420 --> 00:25:33,161 - Look. 620 00:25:33,204 --> 00:25:35,598 I know as well anyone 621 00:25:35,642 --> 00:25:38,253 that the truth is really difficult. 622 00:25:38,296 --> 00:25:41,430 - I'm sorry. What are you doing? 623 00:25:41,473 --> 00:25:43,998 Are you comparing your issues to mine right now? 624 00:25:44,041 --> 00:25:45,652 Let me just mirror that back for you 625 00:25:45,695 --> 00:25:47,088 so you can hear it out loud. 626 00:25:47,131 --> 00:25:49,569 I'm on the Jimmy Kimmel diet, 627 00:25:49,612 --> 00:25:52,572 and you almost killed a patient because you are a drug addict. 628 00:25:54,574 --> 00:25:57,141 Not the same. - That was way out of line. 629 00:25:57,185 --> 00:25:59,187 - I'm outta line? It's not hard, Lauren. 630 00:25:59,230 --> 00:26:00,492 This is a hospital. 631 00:26:00,536 --> 00:26:02,103 There's only one line that matters. 632 00:26:02,146 --> 00:26:04,932 You were hurting patients. I am not. 633 00:26:04,975 --> 00:26:06,411 Plain and simple! 634 00:26:06,455 --> 00:26:08,283 - Patients aren't the only people you can hurt. 635 00:26:08,326 --> 00:26:09,937 - Oh, yeah? Well, I think the janitors 636 00:26:09,980 --> 00:26:11,634 are safe from my eating too. - Yeah? 637 00:26:11,678 --> 00:26:13,636 What about your kids? 638 00:26:14,463 --> 00:26:16,117 - Excuse me? - You're starving yourself. 639 00:26:16,160 --> 00:26:17,597 You think they don't notice that? 640 00:26:17,640 --> 00:26:18,772 - You stop talking. - How many meals have you 641 00:26:18,815 --> 00:26:19,903 had with them where you 642 00:26:19,947 --> 00:26:21,122 haven't eaten anything? - Stop! 643 00:26:21,165 --> 00:26:22,297 - How many have you skipped altogether? 644 00:26:22,340 --> 00:26:23,646 I mean, what kind of screwed up issues 645 00:26:23,690 --> 00:26:25,213 are your kids gonna have with food because of you? 646 00:26:25,256 --> 00:26:27,215 Occupied! 647 00:26:29,696 --> 00:26:31,654 - It's a bad time, Gladys. 648 00:26:31,698 --> 00:26:33,830 - It's Dr. Kapoor. 649 00:26:33,874 --> 00:26:35,179 - The clip failed, 650 00:26:35,223 --> 00:26:37,138 tore right through the valve leaflets. 651 00:26:37,181 --> 00:26:38,400 I'm gonna have to crack open his chest 652 00:26:38,443 --> 00:26:39,880 and put in an artificial valve. 653 00:26:39,923 --> 00:26:41,664 - That's a big surgery. 654 00:26:41,708 --> 00:26:43,797 - I thought you said you couldn't sew into the muscle. 655 00:26:43,840 --> 00:26:46,669 What changed? - Nothing. Not a damn thing. 656 00:26:46,713 --> 00:26:49,541 - But he'll make it through the surgery, right? 657 00:26:52,544 --> 00:26:54,851 ♪ 658 00:26:54,895 --> 00:26:56,331 - That's why I thought you should see him now, 659 00:26:56,374 --> 00:26:59,508 and have one more moment with him 660 00:26:59,551 --> 00:27:01,684 in case... 661 00:27:01,728 --> 00:27:03,207 I'm gonna go prep. 662 00:27:03,251 --> 00:27:10,388 ♪ 663 00:27:14,523 --> 00:27:16,394 - You're fully effaced and dilated, 664 00:27:16,438 --> 00:27:18,658 but the baby's still at minus three position. 665 00:27:18,701 --> 00:27:20,834 Ella, the delivery isn't progressing as I had hoped. 666 00:27:20,877 --> 00:27:22,444 - What does that mean? 667 00:27:22,487 --> 00:27:25,099 - When your contraction comes, you need to push real hard. 668 00:27:25,142 --> 00:27:27,014 - Oh, my God, this is a disaster. 669 00:27:27,057 --> 00:27:29,364 - Maybe you could hold her hand. 670 00:27:29,407 --> 00:27:32,672 - - E-Ella. 671 00:27:32,715 --> 00:27:33,585 Look. Look. 672 00:27:33,629 --> 00:27:35,370 Count them out with me, okay? 673 00:27:35,413 --> 00:27:37,067 - - Here we go. 674 00:27:37,111 --> 00:27:38,721 Give me the biggest push you got. 675 00:27:38,765 --> 00:27:40,636 - You can do this. Come on, come on. 676 00:27:40,680 --> 00:27:43,900 - No, I can't! Stop, I don't want to! 677 00:27:43,944 --> 00:27:46,903 What if the baby's not okay? What if I hurt it? 678 00:27:46,947 --> 00:27:49,732 What I ate undercooked meat and didn't know it? 679 00:27:49,776 --> 00:27:51,560 And seven weeks ago I took a bath 680 00:27:51,603 --> 00:27:52,822 right after the tub was cleaned, 681 00:27:52,866 --> 00:27:54,041 and the water probably had bleach in it. 682 00:27:54,084 --> 00:27:55,303 What kind of mom is that careless? 683 00:27:55,346 --> 00:27:56,913 - You are not careless. 684 00:27:56,957 --> 00:27:59,263 You have disorder that sends your pregnancy into overdrive, 685 00:27:59,307 --> 00:28:01,570 but you fought it, and you've made it this far. 686 00:28:01,613 --> 00:28:03,920 - I cheated. I got scans all the time. 687 00:28:03,964 --> 00:28:05,313 Sometimes two days in a row 688 00:28:05,356 --> 00:28:06,880 in case something happened while I was sleeping. 689 00:28:06,923 --> 00:28:08,533 But then everything shut down, 690 00:28:08,577 --> 00:28:10,361 and Vijay got sick, and I don't know why, 691 00:28:10,405 --> 00:28:12,102 but I just convinced myself 692 00:28:12,146 --> 00:28:14,757 that the baby was going to be okay as long as he was okay. 693 00:28:14,801 --> 00:28:16,063 What if Vijay's not okay? 694 00:28:16,106 --> 00:28:18,326 - Ella! Everything on that monitor 695 00:28:18,369 --> 00:28:19,936 says that your baby is going to be okay, 696 00:28:19,980 --> 00:28:21,198 but you have to deliver it... 697 00:28:21,242 --> 00:28:23,157 - No! Oh. 698 00:28:23,200 --> 00:28:24,114 - Contractions peaking. - Aah! 699 00:28:24,158 --> 00:28:25,420 - You can do it. 700 00:28:25,463 --> 00:28:26,769 Your baby needs you to push now. 701 00:28:26,813 --> 00:28:29,598 - Aah. 702 00:28:45,832 --> 00:28:47,485 - Eh? 703 00:28:48,225 --> 00:28:50,488 - Yeah, yeah, buddy? What is it? 704 00:28:51,838 --> 00:28:53,361 Hit me. 705 00:28:54,144 --> 00:28:56,886 - You're such a good dad. 706 00:28:56,930 --> 00:28:58,496 - Aw, I don't know. I... 707 00:29:05,155 --> 00:29:07,810 - If this doesn't work out... 708 00:29:10,117 --> 00:29:12,815 Will you look after 709 00:29:12,859 --> 00:29:15,209 Ella and the baby? 710 00:29:49,939 --> 00:29:51,985 - You've got this. 711 00:29:52,028 --> 00:29:53,900 You can do it. 712 00:29:55,205 --> 00:29:56,990 - Hey. 713 00:29:57,033 --> 00:29:58,382 And I am dying... 714 00:29:58,426 --> 00:29:59,862 - What are you talking about? Don't be silly. 715 00:29:59,906 --> 00:30:01,255 You are going to be annoying her 716 00:30:01,298 --> 00:30:02,865 for the rest of your life, okay? 717 00:30:04,911 --> 00:30:06,738 - Please. 718 00:30:09,393 --> 00:30:13,006 - If something happens, I... 719 00:30:13,049 --> 00:30:15,182 Yes. 720 00:30:15,225 --> 00:30:17,358 Obviously. 721 00:30:18,925 --> 00:30:19,882 - Good. 722 00:30:35,811 --> 00:30:38,074 - Listen, Iggy. 723 00:30:38,118 --> 00:30:39,902 - Lauren, I'm fine. - No. 724 00:30:39,946 --> 00:30:42,252 I never should've dragged your kids into this. 725 00:30:43,950 --> 00:30:45,908 I'm really sorry. 726 00:30:48,258 --> 00:30:51,392 - A couple nights ago, I was, uh, 727 00:30:51,435 --> 00:30:53,176 I was wearing this nice new sweater 728 00:30:53,220 --> 00:30:54,874 that Martin gave me, and, um... 729 00:30:58,486 --> 00:31:00,705 Harper told me that I looked handsome in it. 730 00:31:02,882 --> 00:31:05,580 Then I immediately grabbed my stomach, 731 00:31:05,623 --> 00:31:07,451 and I told her that she was wrong. 732 00:31:10,063 --> 00:31:11,760 It just popped out of mouth. 733 00:31:17,331 --> 00:31:19,637 I say things like that all the time. 734 00:31:22,292 --> 00:31:24,164 And Vijay thinks that I'm a great father? 735 00:31:25,426 --> 00:31:27,254 I'm teaching my kids 736 00:31:27,297 --> 00:31:30,474 that someone who looks like me doesn't deserve to be loved. 737 00:31:33,086 --> 00:31:36,828 That is the same lesson that my dad taught me. 738 00:31:36,872 --> 00:31:38,830 Aw, man. 739 00:31:40,310 --> 00:31:43,487 He just used different words. 740 00:31:47,013 --> 00:31:48,318 - Iggy. 741 00:31:50,277 --> 00:31:52,975 These aren't your dad's words. 742 00:31:53,019 --> 00:31:54,237 You wrote this. 743 00:31:54,281 --> 00:31:55,804 - I know. 744 00:31:55,847 --> 00:31:59,460 - These are your words. You're calling yourself this, 745 00:31:59,503 --> 00:32:03,029 and you're keep suffering until you stop. 746 00:32:03,072 --> 00:32:05,988 - If I can't stop, 747 00:32:06,032 --> 00:32:09,513 this note, that voice... 748 00:32:11,602 --> 00:32:14,518 It's the thing about myself that feels the most true. 749 00:32:15,606 --> 00:32:18,914 How do you stop believing that? 750 00:32:19,915 --> 00:32:23,136 - Well, you could try talking to a therapist. 751 00:32:26,966 --> 00:32:28,054 - Hey, I did. 752 00:32:30,056 --> 00:32:31,709 He saved my life. 753 00:32:40,283 --> 00:32:42,024 - Come here. 754 00:32:44,418 --> 00:32:47,334 - Thank you. - Yeah. 755 00:32:47,377 --> 00:32:51,773 - ♪ Even if we try 756 00:32:51,816 --> 00:32:56,691 ♪ Even if we try 757 00:32:56,734 --> 00:32:59,433 ♪ To make ourselves 758 00:32:59,476 --> 00:33:02,392 ♪ All right 759 00:33:02,436 --> 00:33:06,875 ♪ To mend our severed lives 760 00:33:08,398 --> 00:33:12,576 ♪ While all the rivers rage 761 00:33:12,620 --> 00:33:17,407 ♪ Descend upon the sage 762 00:33:17,451 --> 00:33:22,021 ♪ Alone on willowed eves 763 00:33:22,064 --> 00:33:26,677 ♪ I lift my voice to sing 764 00:33:27,678 --> 00:33:31,682 ♪ Ooh, ooh, ooh 765 00:33:31,726 --> 00:33:34,163 ♪ Ooh, ooh 766 00:33:34,207 --> 00:33:38,211 ♪ Ooh, ooh, ooh 767 00:33:38,254 --> 00:33:40,778 ♪ Ooh 768 00:33:40,822 --> 00:33:44,043 ♪ Ooh, ooh 769 00:33:46,958 --> 00:33:50,005 ♪ Down long, hollow grove 770 00:33:51,702 --> 00:33:56,055 ♪ Its wilting, winding bones ♪ 771 00:33:56,098 --> 00:34:00,407 ♪ Come on, Johnny, please 772 00:34:00,450 --> 00:34:06,326 ♪ Won't you speak to me? 773 00:34:06,369 --> 00:34:08,676 ♪ Ooh, ooh 774 00:34:08,719 --> 00:34:10,721 ♪ Ooh 775 00:34:10,765 --> 00:34:13,115 - Ready to restart the heart. 776 00:34:13,159 --> 00:34:14,247 - Everything's solid. 777 00:34:14,290 --> 00:34:16,292 - Charging. Clear. 778 00:34:16,336 --> 00:34:17,859 - Suctioning. 779 00:34:21,689 --> 00:34:23,691 - Quarter's ready. 780 00:34:30,524 --> 00:34:33,309 - We did it. 781 00:34:33,353 --> 00:34:35,137 - Good job, everyone. 782 00:34:40,534 --> 00:34:41,796 Ooh. 783 00:34:41,839 --> 00:34:44,015 - All right, let's close him up. 784 00:34:44,059 --> 00:34:50,065 ♪ 785 00:34:50,109 --> 00:34:52,023 BP is dropping. 786 00:34:52,067 --> 00:34:53,242 - What? 787 00:34:53,286 --> 00:34:54,983 - Heart valve's not holding. - It's slipping. 788 00:34:55,026 --> 00:34:56,593 Give me a 3-0 proline on the needle driver. 789 00:34:56,637 --> 00:34:58,160 - Times two. 790 00:34:58,204 --> 00:35:01,555 - You work the septum, I'll work the free wall. 791 00:35:01,598 --> 00:35:03,165 I'm gonna have to get him back on bypass. 792 00:35:03,209 --> 00:35:04,906 - We can't reestablish aortic cannulation. 793 00:35:04,949 --> 00:35:07,169 - - As a backup, yes. 794 00:35:08,910 --> 00:35:10,607 - My stitches aren't holding. - Neither are mine. 795 00:35:10,651 --> 00:35:11,956 - Trying 5-0. - Suction needs to be higher. 796 00:35:12,000 --> 00:35:13,567 - I'm not getting any purchase. 797 00:35:13,610 --> 00:35:15,482 - Another bag. 798 00:35:15,525 --> 00:35:17,310 - Come on. Hold, damn it. 799 00:35:17,353 --> 00:35:18,920 - Flash sterilized. 800 00:35:24,491 --> 00:35:31,585 ♪ 801 00:35:36,111 --> 00:35:37,765 - Ansuya. 802 00:35:41,986 --> 00:35:44,075 Ansuya. 803 00:35:48,776 --> 00:35:55,913 - ♪ Oh 804 00:35:56,827 --> 00:36:00,483 ♪ Oh 805 00:36:00,527 --> 00:36:05,227 ♪ Oh, oh 806 00:36:05,271 --> 00:36:08,012 - Ansuya. 807 00:36:09,362 --> 00:36:11,451 - Vijay. 808 00:36:11,494 --> 00:36:18,588 - ♪ Oh, oh, oh 809 00:36:28,598 --> 00:36:30,339 - Eat this. 810 00:36:32,689 --> 00:36:35,083 - I don't need it. 811 00:36:37,259 --> 00:36:40,044 All I need is you. 812 00:36:40,088 --> 00:36:42,525 - It will give you strength 813 00:36:42,569 --> 00:36:45,572 for our granddaughter. 814 00:36:45,615 --> 00:36:46,964 - Granddaughter? 815 00:36:47,008 --> 00:36:49,532 - She needs her Dadaji. 816 00:36:49,576 --> 00:36:56,713 - ♪ Oh 817 00:36:57,497 --> 00:37:03,894 ♪ Oh 818 00:37:05,331 --> 00:37:12,251 ♪ Oh 819 00:37:13,600 --> 00:37:15,732 - Vijay? 820 00:37:17,734 --> 00:37:20,824 - ♪ Ah 821 00:37:26,482 --> 00:37:28,310 - He's waking up. 822 00:37:28,354 --> 00:37:29,877 Oh, thank God. Vijay. 823 00:37:31,574 --> 00:37:33,489 - Welcome back, Dr. Kapoor. 824 00:37:33,533 --> 00:37:40,583 ♪ 825 00:38:03,389 --> 00:38:06,479 - Happy birthday, little one. 826 00:38:14,704 --> 00:38:16,924 - Uh, K-Karen! 827 00:38:16,967 --> 00:38:19,361 - Are the cops chasing you now? - Uh, I don't know, 828 00:38:19,405 --> 00:38:21,798 but I did come up with a solve for our opioid issue, 829 00:38:21,842 --> 00:38:23,409 and I think you're really gonna like it. 830 00:38:23,452 --> 00:38:24,975 - And here I thought we knew each other better. 831 00:38:25,019 --> 00:38:26,629 - Watermarking. 832 00:38:26,673 --> 00:38:30,329 So every single opioid that New Amsterdam sends out 833 00:38:30,372 --> 00:38:31,808 into the world will be watermarked 834 00:38:31,852 --> 00:38:34,681 with invisible, fluorescent fibers. 835 00:38:34,724 --> 00:38:36,987 Every patient will have access 836 00:38:37,031 --> 00:38:39,642 to the medicine they need and without shame. 837 00:38:39,686 --> 00:38:42,602 And they'll be able to manage their pain, 838 00:38:42,645 --> 00:38:45,996 and they'll be able to live functional lives. 839 00:38:46,040 --> 00:38:48,216 But if those pills ever do end up in the street, 840 00:38:48,259 --> 00:38:49,913 or in the wrong hands, we'll know. 841 00:38:49,957 --> 00:38:52,829 There will be no drug trafficking, 842 00:38:52,873 --> 00:38:56,442 and there will be accountability. 843 00:38:58,008 --> 00:38:59,836 Oh, and I almost forgot the best part. 844 00:38:59,880 --> 00:39:02,839 The Nylers are gonna pay for it. 845 00:39:02,883 --> 00:39:04,450 - Why would they do that? 846 00:39:04,493 --> 00:39:06,234 - They kinda have to. 847 00:39:06,277 --> 00:39:07,627 Part of their settlement includes 848 00:39:07,670 --> 00:39:10,325 donating millions of dollars to public hospitals, 849 00:39:10,369 --> 00:39:11,674 just like ours. 850 00:39:13,154 --> 00:39:15,243 I don't know what to say. 851 00:39:15,286 --> 00:39:17,376 It sounds like a well-thought-out 852 00:39:17,419 --> 00:39:18,768 and realistic plan. 853 00:39:18,812 --> 00:39:20,509 - I know. Weird, right? 854 00:39:22,293 --> 00:39:24,992 - Karen. 855 00:39:25,035 --> 00:39:28,430 Thank you for keeping me accountable. 856 00:39:28,474 --> 00:39:30,214 - That's my job. 857 00:39:32,042 --> 00:39:35,263 And every once and a while, it's worth it. 858 00:39:58,895 --> 00:40:01,463 - I'm not ready. 859 00:40:03,334 --> 00:40:04,988 - Okay. 860 00:40:07,817 --> 00:40:11,908 - I mean, I'm not ready to call it. 861 00:40:28,925 --> 00:40:36,063 ♪ 862 00:40:58,085 --> 00:41:05,222 ♪ 863 00:41:52,618 --> 00:41:55,925 - I should've been here. 864 00:41:55,969 --> 00:41:58,449 - Well, you're here now.