1 00:00:00,793 --> 00:00:03,360 [SOFT XYLOPHONE MUSIC] 2 00:00:04,353 --> 00:00:06,487 When I was 18, or night. I wanted a 3 00:00:06,521 --> 00:00:09,924 tattoo of a panda right here, on my arm, 4 00:00:09,958 --> 00:00:12,927 but, uh, my girlfriend at the time 5 00:00:12,961 --> 00:00:15,029 talked me into a heart. 6 00:00:15,063 --> 00:00:16,931 - Stop moving. - Yeah. 7 00:00:16,965 --> 00:00:19,350 I don't know why I thought a panda would be so cool. 8 00:00:19,384 --> 00:00:20,835 Well, this tattoo will guide 9 00:00:20,869 --> 00:00:22,603 the external beam radiation 10 00:00:22,638 --> 00:00:24,738 to within less than a millimeter of your tumor, 11 00:00:24,738 --> 00:00:26,239 so, also cool. 12 00:00:26,273 --> 00:00:28,374 Yeah, but three dots? 13 00:00:28,409 --> 00:00:30,076 Three dots is so lame. 14 00:00:30,110 --> 00:00:31,611 Why couldn't you give me, like, a badass teardrop 15 00:00:31,645 --> 00:00:32,779 or a tiger? 16 00:00:32,813 --> 00:00:34,768 I get that you're nervous. 17 00:00:35,849 --> 00:00:37,617 Hmm. 18 00:00:37,651 --> 00:00:39,385 When will you tell the staff? 19 00:00:39,420 --> 00:00:41,358 I was kind of hoping they wouldn't notice. 20 00:00:42,256 --> 00:00:45,224 Four days in you're gonna start vomiting constantly. 21 00:00:45,259 --> 00:00:47,660 After two weeks, you'll be fed through a tube in your stomach. 22 00:00:47,694 --> 00:00:49,228 You won't be able to swallow. 23 00:00:49,263 --> 00:00:51,410 There'll be hair loss. Weight loss. 24 00:00:52,633 --> 00:00:55,101 What I'm saying is, I think they're gonna notice. 25 00:00:55,135 --> 00:00:57,470 They're gonna notice, yeah. 26 00:00:57,504 --> 00:00:59,168 I'll tell them. 27 00:00:59,840 --> 00:01:00,929 Somehow. 28 00:01:00,963 --> 00:01:02,241 Okay. 29 00:01:02,276 --> 00:01:04,777 Hold. Don't move. 30 00:01:06,847 --> 00:01:08,414 Imagine it's a panda. 31 00:01:08,449 --> 00:01:10,349 [CHUCKLES] 32 00:01:10,384 --> 00:01:14,287 33 00:01:14,321 --> 00:01:16,756 [SIRENS WAILING] 34 00:01:16,790 --> 00:01:20,783 Synced & corrected by -robtor- www.addic7ed.com 35 00:01:20,817 --> 00:01:25,765 36 00:01:25,799 --> 00:01:27,767 So in the middle of stitching up her arm 37 00:01:27,801 --> 00:01:29,602 she asks for a mai tai. 38 00:01:29,636 --> 00:01:31,170 I was like, "Lady, 39 00:01:31,205 --> 00:01:33,272 does this look like a tiki bar to you?" 40 00:01:33,307 --> 00:01:35,108 Hey, thanks guys. 41 00:01:35,142 --> 00:01:36,676 I would never have made it from the Bronx without you. 42 00:01:36,710 --> 00:01:39,345 Next time, drinks are on me, okay? 43 00:01:45,419 --> 00:01:47,220 Stealing snacks again? 44 00:01:47,254 --> 00:01:49,889 No name, fair game. 45 00:01:49,923 --> 00:01:51,357 Moonlighting before a double? 46 00:01:51,391 --> 00:01:53,793 So? Like you don't. 47 00:01:53,827 --> 00:01:56,629 Yeah, but I'm not the department chair. 48 00:01:59,700 --> 00:02:00,700 Later. 49 00:02:00,734 --> 00:02:02,105 All right. 50 00:02:03,737 --> 00:02:04,704 Lauren? 51 00:02:04,738 --> 00:02:06,706 Hey, do you know what kind of Scotch Floyd drinks? 52 00:02:06,740 --> 00:02:08,474 What? You guys are buds. 53 00:02:08,509 --> 00:02:10,309 Yeah, it's just weird hearing him called Floyd. 54 00:02:10,344 --> 00:02:11,844 Oh, yeah, right. 55 00:02:11,879 --> 00:02:13,479 It's way more normal to call somebody by their last name. 56 00:02:13,514 --> 00:02:15,181 So Scotch? 57 00:02:15,215 --> 00:02:17,183 Uh, if he's paying, whatever's in the well, 58 00:02:17,217 --> 00:02:19,485 and if someone else is paying, then top shelf. 59 00:02:19,520 --> 00:02:21,387 - Why? - Uh, it's his birthday. 60 00:02:21,421 --> 00:02:23,656 Oh, man. Well, good luck. 61 00:02:23,690 --> 00:02:25,324 Wait, why good luck? 62 00:02:25,359 --> 00:02:26,659 Well, it just sucks to start dating a guy 63 00:02:26,693 --> 00:02:27,660 and then have it be his birthday. 64 00:02:27,694 --> 00:02:29,395 - Does it? - Yeah. 65 00:02:29,429 --> 00:02:30,830 If he one of those guys who loves his birthday. 66 00:02:30,864 --> 00:02:33,866 - I love my birthday. - Not like he does. It's impossible. 67 00:02:33,901 --> 00:02:35,234 So you're thinking I should get something 68 00:02:35,269 --> 00:02:36,502 - better than Scotch? - Yep. 69 00:02:36,537 --> 00:02:38,738 Good luck. 70 00:02:38,772 --> 00:02:43,676 71 00:02:43,710 --> 00:02:45,778 [ELEVATOR DINGS] - Ah, thank you. 72 00:02:45,812 --> 00:02:47,713 [METALLIC SQUEAKING] 73 00:02:47,748 --> 00:02:49,682 [SIGHS] This is too much. 74 00:02:49,716 --> 00:02:51,784 [SQUEAKING] 75 00:02:51,818 --> 00:02:54,187 I don't even know how to... [SIGHS] 76 00:02:54,221 --> 00:02:56,889 - [SQUEAKING, THUDDING] - Oh! 77 00:02:59,393 --> 00:03:01,928 You got me a FloTech Cell Sorter for my birthday? 78 00:03:01,962 --> 00:03:03,930 - No. - Man, you shouldn't have. 79 00:03:03,964 --> 00:03:06,966 - I didn't. - And yet, here it is. 80 00:03:07,000 --> 00:03:09,302 I guess HCC decided to upgrade our old cell sorter. 81 00:03:09,336 --> 00:03:10,870 Which, no surprise, didn't need upgrading. 82 00:03:10,904 --> 00:03:12,162 Whoa. 83 00:03:12,197 --> 00:03:13,895 Maybe your girlfriend pulled some strings? 84 00:03:13,929 --> 00:03:15,908 Oh, I don't know; this machine costs 100,000 bucks. 85 00:03:15,943 --> 00:03:17,310 Which could have been better spent 86 00:03:17,344 --> 00:03:19,478 almost anywhere else in the hospital. 87 00:03:19,513 --> 00:03:21,380 - Yes. Bureaucracy. - Bureaucracy. 88 00:03:21,415 --> 00:03:23,294 Here, help me get it to the OR before someone else nabs it. 89 00:03:23,328 --> 00:03:24,383 You're keeping it? 90 00:03:24,418 --> 00:03:26,018 Well, possession's 9/10 of the law. 91 00:03:26,053 --> 00:03:27,453 It's not, actually. 92 00:03:27,487 --> 00:03:29,288 Well, then I'm invoking the "finders, keepers" rule. 93 00:03:29,323 --> 00:03:31,557 Just help me move it. Come on. 94 00:03:31,592 --> 00:03:33,626 [CART SQUEAKING] 95 00:03:33,660 --> 00:03:34,627 How do you, do you know how to... 96 00:03:34,661 --> 00:03:35,628 Do you know how to do... 97 00:03:35,662 --> 00:03:37,763 [PAGER BUZZING] 98 00:03:37,798 --> 00:03:38,998 - It's broken. - [PAGER BUZZING] 99 00:03:39,032 --> 00:03:40,766 - Yeah, well... - [PAGER BEEPS] 100 00:03:40,801 --> 00:03:42,001 Bureaucracy. 101 00:03:42,035 --> 00:03:45,905 102 00:03:45,939 --> 00:03:48,307 Hup, keep walking. 103 00:03:48,342 --> 00:03:50,509 Keep walking. 104 00:03:50,544 --> 00:03:53,133 I am still very angry. 105 00:03:54,047 --> 00:03:55,815 Down three with seven seconds left 106 00:03:55,849 --> 00:03:57,750 and Hardaway's sitting on a bench? 107 00:03:57,784 --> 00:03:59,418 And then they don't call a timeout. 108 00:03:59,453 --> 00:04:01,454 He's our only three-point shooter. 109 00:04:01,488 --> 00:04:03,518 Well, to love the Knicks is to suffer. 110 00:04:09,830 --> 00:04:13,766 Would you like to watch the game tonight... 111 00:04:13,800 --> 00:04:15,768 together? 112 00:04:15,802 --> 00:04:16,936 I can't. 113 00:04:16,970 --> 00:04:18,604 [STIRRING MUSIC] 114 00:04:18,639 --> 00:04:20,273 Okay. 115 00:04:20,307 --> 00:04:22,913 I'm getting my one-year chip. 116 00:04:23,644 --> 00:04:24,877 Chip? 117 00:04:24,911 --> 00:04:26,249 For being clean. 118 00:04:26,880 --> 00:04:28,781 I see. 119 00:04:28,815 --> 00:04:30,962 It's at the downtown Y. 120 00:04:31,685 --> 00:04:33,019 You could come if you'd like. 121 00:04:33,053 --> 00:04:35,721 - That would be... - Strange to get a reward. 122 00:04:35,756 --> 00:04:37,957 I mean, it's kind of a big deal. 123 00:04:37,991 --> 00:04:39,792 I would think that 124 00:04:39,826 --> 00:04:42,628 the real reward would be 125 00:04:42,663 --> 00:04:44,434 not being an addict. 126 00:04:45,832 --> 00:04:47,633 Okay. 127 00:04:47,668 --> 00:04:50,870 - So I guess you're not coming. - I have a better idea. 128 00:04:50,904 --> 00:04:52,567 Um... 129 00:04:53,707 --> 00:04:55,308 Knicks game? Next week? 130 00:04:55,342 --> 00:04:57,677 131 00:04:57,711 --> 00:04:59,712 Yeah. 132 00:04:59,746 --> 00:05:02,014 [PAGER BUZZING] 133 00:05:03,717 --> 00:05:05,330 Patient. 134 00:05:05,952 --> 00:05:08,487 So I'll... I'll see you next week? 135 00:05:08,522 --> 00:05:12,992 136 00:05:14,761 --> 00:05:16,829 [PEPPY DRUM MUSIC] 137 00:05:16,863 --> 00:05:18,564 Uh, Max. 138 00:05:18,598 --> 00:05:19,865 Can I just get your thoughts on a patient? 139 00:05:19,900 --> 00:05:21,067 - Yeah. - Um, locally advanced 140 00:05:21,101 --> 00:05:22,068 pancreatic cancer. 141 00:05:22,102 --> 00:05:23,536 Amenable to surgery? 142 00:05:23,570 --> 00:05:24,770 Yes, he's prepped and ready to go. 143 00:05:24,805 --> 00:05:26,839 - Great, then go for the cure. - There's a catch. 144 00:05:26,873 --> 00:05:29,008 Cardiology work-up found a left-ventricular 145 00:05:29,042 --> 00:05:30,910 ejection fraction of 35%. 146 00:05:30,944 --> 00:05:32,111 That is a catch. 147 00:05:32,145 --> 00:05:33,713 90% chance he'll die on the table. 148 00:05:33,747 --> 00:05:35,114 But a 10% chance he won't. 149 00:05:35,148 --> 00:05:36,849 Technically. But those are terrible odds. 150 00:05:36,883 --> 00:05:38,551 That's for him to decide. 151 00:05:38,585 --> 00:05:40,386 I can't suggest he go through with the surgery, can I? 152 00:05:40,420 --> 00:05:41,687 Why not? 153 00:05:41,722 --> 00:05:43,522 Because that's like me saying to you, 154 00:05:43,557 --> 00:05:44,957 "Hey, let's scrap chemo and wing it 155 00:05:44,991 --> 00:05:46,592 with precision-targeted therapy." 156 00:05:46,626 --> 00:05:49,695 Well, some of those trials show a lot of promise. 157 00:05:49,730 --> 00:05:52,031 Some show it makes the disease worse. 158 00:05:52,065 --> 00:05:53,532 [ELEVATOR DINGS] 159 00:05:53,567 --> 00:05:54,767 But we're not talking about you. 160 00:05:54,801 --> 00:05:56,535 Right, but 161 00:05:56,570 --> 00:05:58,037 we have to give your patient 162 00:05:58,071 --> 00:06:00,973 both options, right? 163 00:06:01,007 --> 00:06:03,409 "We"? 164 00:06:03,443 --> 00:06:06,879 165 00:06:06,913 --> 00:06:08,147 A man named Daniel 166 00:06:08,181 --> 00:06:10,549 was captured by Roman soldiers. 167 00:06:10,584 --> 00:06:12,136 The general told Daniel he could make... 168 00:06:12,170 --> 00:06:13,786 Nurse, can you give us a minute? 169 00:06:13,820 --> 00:06:15,388 Thank you, he's all yours. 170 00:06:15,422 --> 00:06:16,789 [LAUGHS] The story was just getting good. 171 00:06:16,823 --> 00:06:18,057 Rabbi Skillman, I'd like to introduce you 172 00:06:18,091 --> 00:06:20,092 to our medical director, Max Goodwin. 173 00:06:20,127 --> 00:06:21,927 Goodwin. Is that Jewish? 174 00:06:21,962 --> 00:06:24,663 Uh, I believe my great-great-grandmother was, 175 00:06:24,698 --> 00:06:27,099 but I was raised... nothing. 176 00:06:27,134 --> 00:06:28,434 Then you're Jewish. 177 00:06:28,468 --> 00:06:30,169 [CHUCKLES] I'll take it. 178 00:06:30,203 --> 00:06:31,737 So, Dr. Sharpe. 179 00:06:31,772 --> 00:06:33,139 Do you have good news for me this morning? 180 00:06:33,173 --> 00:06:35,408 Lot of whispering going on. 181 00:06:35,442 --> 00:06:36,909 I wish I did. 182 00:06:38,945 --> 00:06:40,746 Okay. 183 00:06:40,781 --> 00:06:42,915 It's what you feared? His heart... 184 00:06:42,949 --> 00:06:44,150 Work-up shows that it's not 185 00:06:44,184 --> 00:06:46,129 pumping blood very well. 186 00:06:46,164 --> 00:06:47,653 Mm. 187 00:06:47,687 --> 00:06:49,955 The cherry on the cancer cake. 188 00:06:49,990 --> 00:06:52,191 There's a 90% chance 189 00:06:52,225 --> 00:06:53,793 of dying in surgery. 190 00:06:53,827 --> 00:06:57,062 Or a 10% chance of a cure. 191 00:06:58,565 --> 00:07:00,099 Not great odds. 192 00:07:00,133 --> 00:07:02,935 The other option is no surgery. 193 00:07:03,198 --> 00:07:05,104 You can go home. 194 00:07:05,138 --> 00:07:06,605 Spend a year of good-quality life 195 00:07:06,640 --> 00:07:07,940 with the people you love. 196 00:07:07,974 --> 00:07:10,109 We'll make sure that you're comfortable. 197 00:07:10,143 --> 00:07:12,945 [STIRRING MUSIC] 198 00:07:12,979 --> 00:07:15,214 Like any good conundrum, 199 00:07:15,248 --> 00:07:17,216 I believe I'll need some time to think about this. 200 00:07:17,250 --> 00:07:18,818 Yeah, of course. 201 00:07:18,852 --> 00:07:20,186 And if you have any questions, I'm here. 202 00:07:20,220 --> 00:07:22,092 Take all the time you need. 203 00:07:23,023 --> 00:07:24,490 We just want to make sure 204 00:07:24,524 --> 00:07:27,526 you really consider both options. 205 00:07:27,561 --> 00:07:33,232 206 00:07:33,266 --> 00:07:34,800 Okay. 207 00:07:34,835 --> 00:07:36,202 Hmm. 208 00:07:36,236 --> 00:07:37,983 Amy. 209 00:07:38,772 --> 00:07:40,840 I see your... 210 00:07:40,874 --> 00:07:44,009 migraines haven't improved. 211 00:07:44,044 --> 00:07:46,241 And, uh... 212 00:07:47,080 --> 00:07:49,081 your triptans did not help. 213 00:07:49,115 --> 00:07:50,516 No. 214 00:07:50,550 --> 00:07:52,985 We can run a second MRI, 215 00:07:53,019 --> 00:07:54,653 but I'm afraid we've exhausted 216 00:07:54,688 --> 00:07:55,988 all the traditional treatments. 217 00:07:56,022 --> 00:07:57,556 Is there anything else... 218 00:07:57,591 --> 00:07:59,225 Find a better treatment. 219 00:08:00,861 --> 00:08:03,095 Yes, Mrs. Chiang. 220 00:08:03,129 --> 00:08:05,664 I'm starting to think that stress 221 00:08:05,699 --> 00:08:07,233 could be a factor. 222 00:08:07,267 --> 00:08:09,835 And we might think about counseling 223 00:08:09,870 --> 00:08:11,136 as an alternative treatment. 224 00:08:14,774 --> 00:08:16,909 I speak many languages, Mrs. Chiang, 225 00:08:16,943 --> 00:08:19,211 but Mandarin is not one of them. 226 00:08:19,246 --> 00:08:20,746 Um, my mom is just saying... 227 00:08:20,780 --> 00:08:23,048 My daughter is here for migraines. 228 00:08:26,953 --> 00:08:29,688 I have a colleague, Dr. Iggy Frome, 229 00:08:29,723 --> 00:08:33,025 and, uh... ah. 230 00:08:33,059 --> 00:08:35,194 He's a wonderful psychiatrist. 231 00:08:35,228 --> 00:08:38,764 [SOFT, TENSE MUSIC] 232 00:08:38,798 --> 00:08:42,868 233 00:08:42,903 --> 00:08:44,703 Okay. 234 00:08:44,738 --> 00:08:48,207 235 00:08:48,241 --> 00:08:50,075 "Dr. Ignatius Frome. 236 00:08:50,110 --> 00:08:52,912 Chair of behavioral health." 237 00:08:56,983 --> 00:08:59,218 Mom. It's just to talk. 238 00:08:59,252 --> 00:09:01,253 One appointment can't hurt. 239 00:09:04,925 --> 00:09:07,572 Okay, but what if Dr. Frome could help? 240 00:09:08,128 --> 00:09:12,031 We don't talk to strangers about our problems. 241 00:09:16,636 --> 00:09:19,705 [TRAIN RUSHING] 242 00:09:21,274 --> 00:09:24,243 [INTENSE MUSIC] 243 00:09:24,277 --> 00:09:26,612 244 00:09:26,646 --> 00:09:28,113 [BRAKES SQUEALING, HORN HONKING] 245 00:09:28,148 --> 00:09:31,317 [SCREAMING] 246 00:09:33,582 --> 00:09:35,382 [TENSE MUSIC] 247 00:09:35,416 --> 00:09:37,350 248 00:09:38,315 --> 00:09:39,715 What do we got? 249 00:09:39,749 --> 00:09:41,997 "Failure to fly." Bowery stop, attempted suicide. 250 00:09:44,147 --> 00:09:46,182 Escort her out of here. Would you give me the rundown? 251 00:09:46,216 --> 00:09:47,650 Amy Chiang. 21. 252 00:09:47,684 --> 00:09:49,051 Got lucky, landed on the track bed 253 00:09:49,086 --> 00:09:50,319 so the train went right over her. 254 00:09:50,353 --> 00:09:53,022 Left her with lacerations, possible patellar fracture. 255 00:09:53,056 --> 00:09:54,857 Amy, look at me. 256 00:09:54,891 --> 00:09:55,991 Can you move your leg? 257 00:09:56,026 --> 00:09:57,193 Got her chart. 258 00:09:57,227 --> 00:09:59,295 Get ortho and prep for surgery. Now. 259 00:09:59,329 --> 00:10:00,629 You're not gonna believe this, 260 00:10:00,664 --> 00:10:01,797 but she was here this morning. 261 00:10:01,832 --> 00:10:04,200 - Why? - Seeing Dr. Kapoor. 262 00:10:07,871 --> 00:10:09,238 First generation Chinese-American. 263 00:10:09,272 --> 00:10:11,240 First to go to college in her family. 264 00:10:11,274 --> 00:10:13,175 Scholarship. Works full-time at the family restaurant. 265 00:10:13,210 --> 00:10:14,710 Grades started to slip. 266 00:10:14,745 --> 00:10:17,213 She came in complaining of migraines. Medication didn't work, 267 00:10:17,247 --> 00:10:19,181 at which point Kapoor suggested stress 268 00:10:19,216 --> 00:10:21,050 as a possible trigger, and then referred her to me. 269 00:10:21,084 --> 00:10:23,686 - The next thing you know... - Only 21. 270 00:10:23,720 --> 00:10:25,321 Possible undiagnosed severe depression. 271 00:10:25,355 --> 00:10:26,822 We saw this at the Chinatown clinic. 272 00:10:26,857 --> 00:10:27,962 Called it "the F train disease." 273 00:10:27,997 --> 00:10:29,158 Never heard of it. 274 00:10:29,192 --> 00:10:30,726 Well, the F train runs through Chinatown, 275 00:10:30,761 --> 00:10:32,828 and a lot of women would use it as a last resort. 276 00:10:32,863 --> 00:10:35,064 Uh, depression can be... 277 00:10:35,098 --> 00:10:37,266 hard to accept in some Asian communities. 278 00:10:37,300 --> 00:10:38,734 In many communities. 279 00:10:38,769 --> 00:10:41,070 Yeah, well, stigma or no, if we don't help Amy, 280 00:10:41,104 --> 00:10:43,606 she will probably try to kill herself again. 281 00:10:43,640 --> 00:10:45,875 [CART RATTLING] 282 00:10:45,909 --> 00:10:48,177 I've never seen anything so beautiful. 283 00:10:49,946 --> 00:10:51,580 What does it even do? 284 00:10:51,615 --> 00:10:52,915 Oh, nothing, you know, 285 00:10:52,949 --> 00:10:54,683 just separates the white blood cells 286 00:10:54,718 --> 00:10:58,921 from the red blood cells with the flick of a switch. 287 00:10:58,955 --> 00:11:01,891 Best birthday present ever. 288 00:11:01,925 --> 00:11:05,361 [GIGGLING] You really are a birthday dork. 289 00:11:05,395 --> 00:11:08,230 My mom worked two jobs seven days a week, 290 00:11:08,265 --> 00:11:10,455 but every year on my birthday she took the whole day off 291 00:11:10,490 --> 00:11:11,634 and took me to the bookstore, 292 00:11:11,668 --> 00:11:12,968 where she bought me as many books 293 00:11:13,003 --> 00:11:14,603 as I could carry. 294 00:11:14,638 --> 00:11:17,373 [LAUGHS] Correction. You are just a dork. 295 00:11:17,407 --> 00:11:18,703 No way. 296 00:11:21,978 --> 00:11:23,646 It's the wrong connector. 297 00:11:23,680 --> 00:11:26,248 It's not compatible with any of the machines. 298 00:11:26,682 --> 00:11:27,817 Call an electrician. 299 00:11:27,851 --> 00:11:29,819 No, we'd have to upgrade the whole OR. 300 00:11:29,853 --> 00:11:32,855 This is just $100,000 worth of useless junk. 301 00:11:38,695 --> 00:11:40,763 Quality genes. I bet he's smart, too. 302 00:11:40,797 --> 00:11:43,299 You don't get abs like that without crushing the SATs. 303 00:11:43,333 --> 00:11:45,968 When I want input on my choice of sperm donor, 304 00:11:46,002 --> 00:11:47,970 - I'll let you know. - Right. 305 00:11:48,004 --> 00:11:49,805 Has the rabbi decided on the surgery yet? 306 00:11:49,840 --> 00:11:51,807 I usually give my patients a little more time, 307 00:11:51,842 --> 00:11:54,009 you know, when it comes to life-and-death decisions. 308 00:11:54,044 --> 00:11:55,177 Well, you know, in poker they say, 309 00:11:55,212 --> 00:11:56,645 "You think long, you think wrong." 310 00:11:56,680 --> 00:11:58,013 Well, that's interesting, 311 00:11:58,048 --> 00:11:59,682 because in oncology we say, 312 00:11:59,716 --> 00:12:01,984 "Do the opposite of poker players." [LAUGHS] 313 00:12:02,018 --> 00:12:04,119 Well, let's see what the patient has to say. 314 00:12:04,154 --> 00:12:05,421 No. Max! 315 00:12:05,455 --> 00:12:07,156 - Hmm? - I think you're getting 316 00:12:07,190 --> 00:12:08,924 - too invested in this. - Really? 317 00:12:08,959 --> 00:12:10,659 Isn't this the same amount of "too invested" I always get? 318 00:12:10,694 --> 00:12:12,094 I take it, if you were the rabbi, 319 00:12:12,128 --> 00:12:13,963 - you would take the year. - I have my reasons. 320 00:12:13,997 --> 00:12:15,462 Well, I respect those reasons, 321 00:12:15,497 --> 00:12:17,333 except they're ridiculous because a year is nothing. 322 00:12:17,367 --> 00:12:18,767 A year is everything 323 00:12:18,802 --> 00:12:20,269 if it's with someone that you love. 324 00:12:20,303 --> 00:12:22,004 There's a year, and then there's a year with cancer. 325 00:12:22,038 --> 00:12:24,006 Believe me, most people would take the surgery. 326 00:12:24,040 --> 00:12:25,975 Max. Signatures. 327 00:12:26,009 --> 00:12:27,276 Dora, my dear, how are you? 328 00:12:27,310 --> 00:12:28,711 Ah, good, thanks. 329 00:12:28,745 --> 00:12:30,279 - Actually you're not. - I'm not? 330 00:12:30,313 --> 00:12:32,118 - You have terminal cancer. - What? 331 00:12:32,153 --> 00:12:34,350 Ah, you're settling a debate between Sharpe and me. 332 00:12:34,384 --> 00:12:35,985 Oh, do I have to? 333 00:12:36,019 --> 00:12:38,220 Choice one: get a surgery that would cure you. 334 00:12:38,255 --> 00:12:40,189 Right? Or choice two: 335 00:12:40,223 --> 00:12:42,620 go home, do nothing, and die. 336 00:12:43,159 --> 00:12:45,327 - Definitely the surgery. - No, hang on. 337 00:12:45,362 --> 00:12:46,462 Max is trying to sway the jury. 338 00:12:46,496 --> 00:12:47,863 Here's the real situation. 339 00:12:47,898 --> 00:12:49,865 Option one: have a surgery so risky 340 00:12:49,900 --> 00:12:51,734 you're more likely to survive a plane crash, 341 00:12:51,768 --> 00:12:53,736 or go home and have a good year with your family 342 00:12:53,770 --> 00:12:55,404 living in peace and comfort. 343 00:12:55,438 --> 00:12:58,040 Definitely the year. Can I be done now? 344 00:12:58,074 --> 00:12:59,708 - No. - Yes. 345 00:12:59,743 --> 00:13:01,844 Thank you, Dora. See? 346 00:13:01,878 --> 00:13:03,879 It's all in the presentation. 347 00:13:03,914 --> 00:13:05,810 He's doing the surgery. 348 00:13:06,883 --> 00:13:08,229 It's a no-brainer. 349 00:13:09,689 --> 00:13:12,054 I'm not doing the surgery. 350 00:13:12,088 --> 00:13:14,423 The risk is too great, I... 351 00:13:14,457 --> 00:13:16,725 I was prepared, but now... 352 00:13:16,760 --> 00:13:18,894 90% death rate? 353 00:13:18,929 --> 00:13:20,396 I'm a Jets fan. 354 00:13:20,430 --> 00:13:22,932 Historically, luck has not been in my favor. 355 00:13:22,966 --> 00:13:24,199 [CRYING] 356 00:13:24,234 --> 00:13:25,705 Hey, hey, hey. 357 00:13:26,539 --> 00:13:28,750 This is the path God chose for me. 358 00:13:29,572 --> 00:13:31,206 We're gonna have a good year. 359 00:13:31,241 --> 00:13:33,742 You could take more time... 360 00:13:33,777 --> 00:13:36,078 to decide, if you want. You can... 361 00:13:36,112 --> 00:13:38,547 go home and talk it over with the rest of your family, 362 00:13:38,581 --> 00:13:39,785 your congregation... 363 00:13:39,819 --> 00:13:42,021 I-I'm... I'm at peace with my decision. 364 00:13:42,055 --> 00:13:45,354 I accept my circumstances for the way they are, 365 00:13:45,388 --> 00:13:47,256 not the way I want them to be. 366 00:13:47,290 --> 00:13:49,091 We both do. 367 00:13:49,125 --> 00:13:51,126 I want the year. 368 00:13:51,161 --> 00:13:53,195 And New Amsterdam will be here to support you 369 00:13:53,229 --> 00:13:54,797 every step of the way. 370 00:13:54,831 --> 00:13:57,099 Thank you, Dr. Sharpe. 371 00:13:57,133 --> 00:13:58,901 Now let's talk about what comes next. 372 00:13:58,935 --> 00:14:00,269 Mm. 373 00:14:00,303 --> 00:14:02,905 We're going to connect you with staff members 374 00:14:02,939 --> 00:14:06,542 who will discuss home care and medication. 375 00:14:06,576 --> 00:14:09,244 Rebecca's going to be incredibly important. 376 00:14:09,279 --> 00:14:13,115 And the focus of this year is you. 377 00:14:13,149 --> 00:14:14,817 Your comfort. 378 00:14:14,851 --> 00:14:18,454 [SOMBER MUSIC] 379 00:14:18,488 --> 00:14:20,923 - Mrs. Chiang. - How is she? 380 00:14:20,957 --> 00:14:23,846 - Amy is stable. - When can I take her home? 381 00:14:24,995 --> 00:14:26,996 Hi, um, I'm Dr. Frome. 382 00:14:27,030 --> 00:14:29,198 Dr. Kapoor gave you my card earlier. 383 00:14:31,167 --> 00:14:35,337 I just wanted to say I'm very, very sorry about what happened today. 384 00:14:35,372 --> 00:14:37,940 When your daughter gets out of surgery, we would like to discuss 385 00:14:37,974 --> 00:14:39,508 inpatient psychiatric care with you. 386 00:14:39,542 --> 00:14:42,444 She's not crazy. She's a good girl. 387 00:14:42,479 --> 00:14:44,413 No, no, we know that. We know she is. 388 00:14:44,447 --> 00:14:47,149 She just needs help. 389 00:14:47,183 --> 00:14:48,817 We're going to go now. 390 00:14:48,852 --> 00:14:50,185 Okay. We want what's best for your daughter, 391 00:14:50,220 --> 00:14:51,587 and I'm sure you do too. 392 00:14:51,621 --> 00:14:53,355 But, uh, you're not the patient here. 393 00:14:53,390 --> 00:14:54,523 Amy is. 394 00:14:55,128 --> 00:14:56,825 Mrs. Chiang, 395 00:14:56,860 --> 00:14:59,361 your daughter jumped in front of a subway train. 396 00:14:59,396 --> 00:15:01,467 She didn't jump. 397 00:15:02,465 --> 00:15:03,866 I beg your pardon? 398 00:15:03,900 --> 00:15:06,335 She didn't jump. She slipped. 399 00:15:06,369 --> 00:15:13,342 400 00:15:13,376 --> 00:15:15,444 [CHILD CRYING] 401 00:15:15,478 --> 00:15:17,346 [CHAIR SQUEAKING] 402 00:15:17,380 --> 00:15:22,451 [CHILD CRYING] 403 00:15:22,485 --> 00:15:24,186 [CHAIR SLAMS, CRYING CONTINUES] 404 00:15:24,220 --> 00:15:25,554 Come here, baby. Come here. 405 00:15:25,588 --> 00:15:27,489 406 00:15:27,524 --> 00:15:30,059 Studies found that docs working shifts 407 00:15:30,093 --> 00:15:31,393 of 30 hours or more 408 00:15:31,428 --> 00:15:34,396 end up making 36% more mistakes. 409 00:15:34,431 --> 00:15:37,332 I'm fine. I'm a polyphasic sleeper. 410 00:15:37,367 --> 00:15:39,034 That's not a real thing. 411 00:15:39,069 --> 00:15:42,671 Me and Thomas Edison. We thrive off of short naps. 412 00:15:42,705 --> 00:15:44,635 Define "thrive." 413 00:15:45,542 --> 00:15:48,911 You gave the subway jumper 20 milligrams of morphine? 414 00:15:48,945 --> 00:15:50,145 Is she dead? 415 00:15:50,180 --> 00:15:53,649 No. Two. 2 milligrams. 416 00:15:53,683 --> 00:15:55,150 It's a typo. 417 00:15:55,185 --> 00:15:56,585 I didn't submit it. 418 00:15:56,619 --> 00:15:59,108 I was gonna proof it. 419 00:16:00,056 --> 00:16:01,590 - 36%. - Shut up. 420 00:16:01,624 --> 00:16:02,991 Okay. 421 00:16:04,294 --> 00:16:06,528 [CRYING CONTINUES] 422 00:16:06,563 --> 00:16:08,330 [INDISTINCT VOICE ON PA] 423 00:16:08,364 --> 00:16:11,333 [INTENSIFYING ELECTRONIC MUSIC] 424 00:16:11,367 --> 00:16:18,407 425 00:16:28,957 --> 00:16:31,391 - Hey, Doc. - Hey. 426 00:16:31,425 --> 00:16:32,859 Thought I was gonna miss you. 427 00:16:32,894 --> 00:16:34,895 Everything all right? 428 00:16:34,929 --> 00:16:37,564 Yeah, um... 429 00:16:37,598 --> 00:16:38,865 Uh... 430 00:16:38,900 --> 00:16:41,801 [QUIETLY] I... I need to ask you a question. 431 00:16:41,836 --> 00:16:43,637 And, uh... 432 00:16:43,671 --> 00:16:46,039 this isn't me, Dr. Goodwin, asking. 433 00:16:46,073 --> 00:16:48,642 This is, uh... 434 00:16:50,912 --> 00:16:52,846 This is me, Max. 435 00:16:52,880 --> 00:16:55,248 What is it, Max? 436 00:16:55,283 --> 00:16:57,583 That decision you made... 437 00:16:59,210 --> 00:17:01,588 I don't think I could have made it. 438 00:17:02,130 --> 00:17:04,991 And you seem so at peace, I mean... 439 00:17:05,633 --> 00:17:08,361 real, in your bones, at peace. 440 00:17:08,769 --> 00:17:10,403 You want to know how I can be at peace 441 00:17:10,437 --> 00:17:11,737 when I know I'm going to die? 442 00:17:11,772 --> 00:17:12,838 Yeah. 443 00:17:15,342 --> 00:17:18,020 Do you know the story of Abraham and Isaac? 444 00:17:18,679 --> 00:17:19,645 No. 445 00:17:19,680 --> 00:17:22,214 Okay, so... 446 00:17:22,249 --> 00:17:24,817 Abraham and Sarah have no children. 447 00:17:24,851 --> 00:17:26,652 But when they're very old, 448 00:17:26,687 --> 00:17:29,155 God gives them a son, Isaac. 449 00:17:29,189 --> 00:17:31,057 And then God asks Abraham 450 00:17:31,091 --> 00:17:33,292 to sacrifice Isaac. Kill him. 451 00:17:33,327 --> 00:17:35,661 And he'll reward him with as many children 452 00:17:35,696 --> 00:17:39,065 as there are stars in the sky and sand in the sea. 453 00:17:39,099 --> 00:17:43,135 And Abraham, being a good and faithful man, 454 00:17:43,170 --> 00:17:45,938 takes Isaac up the mountain to sacrifice him. 455 00:17:45,972 --> 00:17:48,050 And God rewards him for it. 456 00:17:49,343 --> 00:17:50,476 That's choice one. 457 00:17:50,510 --> 00:17:52,778 [CHUCKLES SHORTLY] 458 00:17:52,813 --> 00:17:55,448 But what if Abraham said no? 459 00:17:55,482 --> 00:17:56,949 What if Abraham said, 460 00:17:56,983 --> 00:17:58,250 "There's lots of stars in the sky, 461 00:17:58,285 --> 00:17:59,985 "but only one Isaac, 462 00:18:00,020 --> 00:18:02,488 "who I waited 100 years for, 463 00:18:02,522 --> 00:18:05,291 "and I'd rather spend the time I have left on this Earth 464 00:18:05,325 --> 00:18:07,820 with him and Sarah, reward be damned"? 465 00:18:09,062 --> 00:18:10,781 That's choice two. 466 00:18:11,865 --> 00:18:14,035 Two impossible choices. 467 00:18:15,168 --> 00:18:17,663 So I took the one that makes me happier. 468 00:18:18,305 --> 00:18:20,208 I have a confession. 469 00:18:21,074 --> 00:18:22,375 Wrong religion, but I'm listening. 470 00:18:22,409 --> 00:18:24,143 I have cancer. [CLEARS THROAT] 471 00:18:24,177 --> 00:18:26,812 [STIRRING MUSIC] 472 00:18:26,847 --> 00:18:28,424 I'm sorry. 473 00:18:29,916 --> 00:18:33,221 Chemo stars tomorrow, and, uh... 474 00:18:34,020 --> 00:18:37,934 what I'm learning is that I'm not a good patient. 475 00:18:39,092 --> 00:18:43,362 [CHUCKLES] 'Cause I'm... scared. 476 00:18:43,397 --> 00:18:45,608 And I'm frustrated. 477 00:18:46,933 --> 00:18:49,402 And I'm angry, you know? 478 00:18:49,436 --> 00:18:53,139 479 00:18:53,173 --> 00:18:56,142 I don't... I don't know what to do. [BREATH HITCHES] 480 00:18:57,411 --> 00:19:01,313 Cancer changes everything and nothing at all. 481 00:19:01,348 --> 00:19:04,517 482 00:19:04,551 --> 00:19:06,051 [BREATHES DEEPLY] 483 00:19:07,187 --> 00:19:10,389 [DISTORTED] Where is my sandwich? 484 00:19:10,424 --> 00:19:14,326 [OVERLAPPING VOICES AND COUGHING] 485 00:19:14,361 --> 00:19:16,973 I need a sandwich! 486 00:19:17,464 --> 00:19:19,899 I need a sandwich. 487 00:19:19,933 --> 00:19:21,267 Would you mind checking it out? 488 00:19:21,301 --> 00:19:23,936 - Yeah, no problem. - [INDISTINCT VOICE ON PA] 489 00:19:23,970 --> 00:19:26,939 [SPACEY MUSIC] 490 00:19:26,973 --> 00:19:34,046 491 00:19:38,151 --> 00:19:39,919 How are you feeling, Rodger? 492 00:19:39,953 --> 00:19:42,221 His asthma seems better. 493 00:19:42,255 --> 00:19:43,456 [DISTORTED] Do you know how much longer 494 00:19:43,490 --> 00:19:46,168 we have to stay? 495 00:19:46,960 --> 00:19:47,960 I'm sorry, what? 496 00:19:47,994 --> 00:19:50,129 When can we go? 497 00:19:50,163 --> 00:19:52,431 Yeah, uh, since your husband 498 00:19:52,466 --> 00:19:54,233 uh, also has hypertension, 499 00:19:54,267 --> 00:19:57,269 we're going to need to watch his pressure overnight. 500 00:19:57,304 --> 00:19:59,472 I'm afraid the recital's gonna have to wait. 501 00:19:59,506 --> 00:20:01,907 Is he gonna be okay? 502 00:20:01,942 --> 00:20:03,542 Absolutely. 503 00:20:03,577 --> 00:20:07,112 504 00:20:07,147 --> 00:20:08,981 Okay, you were right. 505 00:20:09,015 --> 00:20:11,150 Polyphasic sleepers are real. 506 00:20:11,184 --> 00:20:12,985 Yeah, uh, you were right too. 507 00:20:13,019 --> 00:20:15,488 Um, I'm gonna hit the on-call room 508 00:20:15,522 --> 00:20:18,891 and just crash for five. 509 00:20:23,864 --> 00:20:26,232 - [THUD] - What the? 510 00:20:26,266 --> 00:20:28,334 Can someone get whatever the hell this is 511 00:20:28,368 --> 00:20:29,969 out of my ED? 512 00:20:30,003 --> 00:20:31,824 You better be ready to party. 513 00:20:31,859 --> 00:20:32,938 What? 514 00:20:32,973 --> 00:20:34,273 Uh, I thought about what you said 515 00:20:34,307 --> 00:20:36,075 and I decided to throw Floyd a surprise party 516 00:20:36,109 --> 00:20:37,343 - right after work. - Right. 517 00:20:37,377 --> 00:20:39,211 Great idea. He'll love it. 518 00:20:42,048 --> 00:20:43,349 Just a few more quick questions. 519 00:20:43,383 --> 00:20:44,583 Cake or pie? 520 00:20:44,618 --> 00:20:47,286 Neither. Uh, cobbler. Peach. 521 00:20:47,320 --> 00:20:49,648 Does he like karaoke? 522 00:20:50,290 --> 00:20:52,858 Only if he can do power ballads. 523 00:20:52,893 --> 00:20:55,127 Can't wait to see that. 524 00:20:55,161 --> 00:20:57,530 You can't, really? 525 00:20:57,564 --> 00:20:59,131 Are balloons too much? 526 00:20:59,165 --> 00:21:00,533 Nothing is too much. 527 00:21:00,567 --> 00:21:02,620 Thanks, you rock. 528 00:21:11,244 --> 00:21:15,014 [KNOCKING] 529 00:21:15,048 --> 00:21:16,515 Dr. Bloom? 530 00:21:16,550 --> 00:21:17,950 I could really use your opinion 531 00:21:17,984 --> 00:21:19,952 on the patient in Bay 3. 532 00:21:24,424 --> 00:21:26,727 Did you have a good nap? 533 00:21:32,232 --> 00:21:33,365 Hi there, Amy. 534 00:21:33,400 --> 00:21:34,533 I am, uh, I'm Dr. Frome, 535 00:21:34,568 --> 00:21:36,902 I believe Dr. Kapoor spoke to you about me earlier? 536 00:21:36,937 --> 00:21:38,337 Um... 537 00:21:38,371 --> 00:21:40,172 Do you mind if I sit? 538 00:21:44,077 --> 00:21:45,454 Thank you. 539 00:21:46,179 --> 00:21:48,180 Okay, so. 540 00:21:48,214 --> 00:21:49,682 [CLEARS THROAT] 541 00:21:49,716 --> 00:21:53,254 I would like to talk to you about what happened today. 542 00:21:55,455 --> 00:21:58,551 You are very lucky to be alive. 543 00:21:59,092 --> 00:22:00,993 You know that, right? 544 00:22:06,600 --> 00:22:09,353 Okay, tell me if any of these feel true for you. 545 00:22:10,403 --> 00:22:12,314 Can't concentrate at school. 546 00:22:13,039 --> 00:22:15,484 Chronic fatigue, but you can't sleep. 547 00:22:16,652 --> 00:22:18,510 You feel like a failure 548 00:22:18,545 --> 00:22:21,547 despite your many accomplishments. 549 00:22:21,927 --> 00:22:23,828 Feel hopeless. 550 00:22:24,718 --> 00:22:26,328 I thought it was stress. 551 00:22:27,153 --> 00:22:28,873 That's depression. 552 00:22:30,223 --> 00:22:32,418 And millions of people suffer from it. 553 00:22:33,426 --> 00:22:35,127 I have a lot of good things in my life. 554 00:22:35,161 --> 00:22:37,229 I shouldn't have depression. 555 00:22:37,263 --> 00:22:38,397 Yeah. 556 00:22:38,431 --> 00:22:40,467 Depression doesn't work that way. 557 00:22:42,168 --> 00:22:45,037 But the good news 558 00:22:45,071 --> 00:22:46,538 is it's highly treatable. 559 00:22:46,573 --> 00:22:50,376 [SOFT MUSIC] 560 00:22:50,410 --> 00:22:51,645 How? 561 00:22:52,078 --> 00:22:54,481 Well, the first step is to ask for help. 562 00:22:57,985 --> 00:23:00,586 I like to start with talk therapy. 563 00:23:00,620 --> 00:23:02,865 What if my mom found out? 564 00:23:03,908 --> 00:23:05,784 Or my dad? 565 00:23:07,293 --> 00:23:09,705 They'd think I was acting weak. 566 00:23:10,196 --> 00:23:11,730 I think it's a good thing 567 00:23:11,765 --> 00:23:14,733 to talk to others about our problems. 568 00:23:17,037 --> 00:23:19,381 I'm on my parents' insurance. 569 00:23:20,206 --> 00:23:21,607 Okay. 570 00:23:21,641 --> 00:23:23,969 They would know I was going to therapy. 571 00:23:24,844 --> 00:23:27,179 They'd think I was talking about them 572 00:23:27,213 --> 00:23:29,281 or telling family secrets. 573 00:23:29,315 --> 00:23:33,686 574 00:23:33,720 --> 00:23:36,148 They'd stop talking to me. 575 00:23:36,856 --> 00:23:38,734 - Amy... - I can't. 576 00:23:39,726 --> 00:23:41,293 I'm sorry. 577 00:23:43,830 --> 00:23:45,230 Okay. 578 00:23:50,403 --> 00:23:52,171 Amy shouldn't have to suffer 579 00:23:52,205 --> 00:23:53,605 because her community is afraid of mental illness. 580 00:23:53,640 --> 00:23:55,541 It is not about fear. It's about shame. 581 00:23:55,575 --> 00:23:58,177 - No, it's about stigma. - You have to understand 582 00:23:58,211 --> 00:23:59,611 that they are afraid of what others think. 583 00:23:59,646 --> 00:24:01,313 Yeah, well, who cares what others think? 584 00:24:01,347 --> 00:24:02,848 Look, we all want what's best for her, okay? 585 00:24:02,882 --> 00:24:04,683 But we can't fight every cultural stigma in one day. 586 00:24:04,718 --> 00:24:06,852 - Told you it was stigma. - It's shame. 587 00:24:06,886 --> 00:24:08,620 We've got a patient that we want to help, 588 00:24:08,655 --> 00:24:10,355 but we can't help her because of all these 589 00:24:10,390 --> 00:24:12,351 stupid insurance forms. 590 00:24:13,827 --> 00:24:16,228 - You're right. - See? 591 00:24:16,262 --> 00:24:17,496 About what? 592 00:24:17,530 --> 00:24:19,164 - Downcode it. - Are you serious? 593 00:24:19,199 --> 00:24:20,332 I had to do it for girls whose parents 594 00:24:20,366 --> 00:24:21,500 wouldn't allow them birth control. 595 00:24:21,534 --> 00:24:23,569 Billed it as "round ligament pain." 596 00:24:23,603 --> 00:24:24,570 Huh. 597 00:24:24,604 --> 00:24:25,838 We would look incompetent. 598 00:24:25,872 --> 00:24:27,806 But you'll help the patient. 599 00:24:27,841 --> 00:24:29,782 You want us to defraud the hospital? 600 00:24:29,817 --> 00:24:31,287 Exactly. 601 00:24:32,212 --> 00:24:33,831 Okay... 602 00:24:34,614 --> 00:24:36,682 [PEPPY DRUM MUSIC] 603 00:24:36,716 --> 00:24:38,417 604 00:24:38,451 --> 00:24:39,718 Max. 605 00:24:39,753 --> 00:24:41,653 What the hell did you tell the rabbi? 606 00:24:41,688 --> 00:24:43,388 I have no idea what you're talking about. 607 00:24:43,423 --> 00:24:46,425 After you talked to him, he changed his mind. 608 00:24:46,459 --> 00:24:48,260 You have just talked him into a risky surgery 609 00:24:48,294 --> 00:24:50,306 that will most likely lead to his death. 610 00:25:00,508 --> 00:25:02,853 Sorry, Jane? Give us a second. 611 00:25:02,887 --> 00:25:04,278 Please? 612 00:25:04,911 --> 00:25:06,846 You're wondering why I changed my mind. 613 00:25:06,880 --> 00:25:09,482 I am praying it is not because of me. 614 00:25:09,516 --> 00:25:11,984 What can I say? You made a good case. 615 00:25:12,018 --> 00:25:14,520 This is a high-risk surgery. 616 00:25:14,554 --> 00:25:16,722 And for me to tip the scales in any way 617 00:25:16,756 --> 00:25:17,857 with my own baggage 618 00:25:17,891 --> 00:25:20,226 is the definition of unethical. 619 00:25:20,260 --> 00:25:21,527 Tough luck. 620 00:25:21,561 --> 00:25:23,529 You did. 621 00:25:23,563 --> 00:25:25,130 - Max. - Rabbi. 622 00:25:25,165 --> 00:25:27,633 Max, I make my own decisions. 623 00:25:27,667 --> 00:25:30,703 Yeah, I could be home with family. 624 00:25:30,737 --> 00:25:33,239 But I'd still be a patient. 625 00:25:33,273 --> 00:25:35,225 That's not the life I want. 626 00:25:36,042 --> 00:25:37,576 - But... - If I do this, 627 00:25:37,611 --> 00:25:40,212 tomorrow I'll be better or I'll be dead, 628 00:25:40,679 --> 00:25:43,113 but I won't be a patient. 629 00:25:44,918 --> 00:25:47,586 Not sure that clears me of the malpractice suit, but... 630 00:25:47,621 --> 00:25:50,823 [CHUCKLES] Max, go. I absolve you. 631 00:25:50,857 --> 00:25:51,891 Wrong religion. 632 00:25:51,925 --> 00:25:53,501 Oh, now you're being picky. 633 00:25:53,536 --> 00:25:55,528 [CHUCKLES] 634 00:26:00,033 --> 00:26:01,700 Sorry. Rabbi? 635 00:26:04,129 --> 00:26:07,239 Did Abraham actually sacrifice his own son? 636 00:26:09,426 --> 00:26:11,076 No. 637 00:26:11,345 --> 00:26:13,913 An angel came down and stopped him. 638 00:26:13,947 --> 00:26:16,515 But he was going to. 639 00:26:16,550 --> 00:26:20,019 And it was enough to pass God's test. 640 00:26:20,053 --> 00:26:23,122 And God rewarded him with as many children 641 00:26:23,156 --> 00:26:26,559 as there are stars in the sky and sands in the sea: 642 00:26:26,593 --> 00:26:28,570 the Jewish people. 643 00:26:29,563 --> 00:26:31,964 Some things are worth the risk. 644 00:26:31,998 --> 00:26:34,967 [HOPEFUL MUSIC] 645 00:26:35,001 --> 00:26:40,639 646 00:26:40,674 --> 00:26:43,943 Why is there a cell sorter in the hallway? 647 00:26:43,977 --> 00:26:45,744 It won't connect to the other machines. 648 00:26:45,779 --> 00:26:47,046 Bureaucracy. 649 00:26:47,080 --> 00:26:48,881 Tell HCC 650 00:26:48,915 --> 00:26:51,116 - to take it back. - They won't. 651 00:26:51,151 --> 00:26:52,318 It's like we're working for the army. 652 00:26:52,352 --> 00:26:53,612 Well, it can't live here. 653 00:26:53,646 --> 00:26:54,952 I know. Can you take it? 654 00:26:54,986 --> 00:26:56,321 And do what with it? 655 00:26:56,356 --> 00:26:58,123 I don't know. But it's my birthday. 656 00:27:01,133 --> 00:27:02,689 Dr. Goodwin, Sandra Fall from billing. 657 00:27:02,714 --> 00:27:03,848 Yes. You left me a message? 658 00:27:03,882 --> 00:27:05,549 Yeah, and you didn't call me back. 659 00:27:05,584 --> 00:27:06,917 I knew there was something I forgot to do today. 660 00:27:06,952 --> 00:27:09,120 Um, are you aware that two of your doctors are downcoding? 661 00:27:09,154 --> 00:27:10,390 Downcoding? 662 00:27:10,424 --> 00:27:12,298 Yeah, it's when doctors bill for something small 663 00:27:12,332 --> 00:27:14,125 but provide more expensive care. 664 00:27:14,159 --> 00:27:16,165 Why would they do that? Because if they were upcoding, 665 00:27:16,199 --> 00:27:17,906 they could make money, but downcoding... 666 00:27:17,906 --> 00:27:19,440 Yeah, exactly. So they told me 667 00:27:19,474 --> 00:27:21,642 to put down CPT code 90868 668 00:27:21,676 --> 00:27:23,377 for transcranial electrical stimulation 669 00:27:23,411 --> 00:27:24,812 for patient Amy Chiang, 670 00:27:24,846 --> 00:27:26,447 but that doesn't require three weekly sessions 671 00:27:26,481 --> 00:27:28,382 in the psych ward, so I will also notify... 672 00:27:28,416 --> 00:27:29,884 Okay, you got me. I told them to do it. 673 00:27:29,918 --> 00:27:32,620 I just hoped they would do it a little better. 674 00:27:32,654 --> 00:27:34,321 Uh, wait, you told your doctors 675 00:27:34,356 --> 00:27:35,823 to extort money from the hospital? 676 00:27:35,857 --> 00:27:37,358 Well, it sounds really bad when you say it like that, 677 00:27:37,392 --> 00:27:38,792 but, uh, 678 00:27:38,827 --> 00:27:40,227 we were just trying to help a patient. 679 00:27:40,262 --> 00:27:42,630 Yeah, and it's my job to make sure the hospital has enough money 680 00:27:42,664 --> 00:27:43,831 to help all our patients. 681 00:27:43,865 --> 00:27:45,299 [THUD] - When is somebody 682 00:27:45,333 --> 00:27:46,867 gonna get this thing out of here? 683 00:27:46,902 --> 00:27:48,569 You bring up an excellent point. 684 00:27:48,603 --> 00:27:51,445 So how do you intend to make up the lost revenue? 685 00:27:52,387 --> 00:27:54,573 Would $100,000 cover it? 686 00:27:55,610 --> 00:27:57,378 You can do that? 687 00:27:57,412 --> 00:27:59,713 Call therapy something else? 688 00:27:59,748 --> 00:28:01,682 We want to get you the help that you need 689 00:28:01,716 --> 00:28:02,972 any way we can, 690 00:28:03,007 --> 00:28:04,818 so we're gonna start therapy in here, 691 00:28:04,853 --> 00:28:06,654 while you're in recovery, three times a week. 692 00:28:06,688 --> 00:28:09,223 And, uh, and I will navigate your school schedule 693 00:28:09,257 --> 00:28:10,892 and your work schedule. 694 00:28:10,926 --> 00:28:12,424 Your mother will never find out. 695 00:28:14,055 --> 00:28:16,256 But it's a lie. 696 00:28:16,281 --> 00:28:18,182 On paper, yes. 697 00:28:18,207 --> 00:28:19,681 [CHUCKLES WRYLY] 698 00:28:20,368 --> 00:28:22,369 And what will I tell my mother 699 00:28:22,404 --> 00:28:24,705 when she asks about the brain stimulation? 700 00:28:24,739 --> 00:28:27,741 Well, you can tell her it was very stimulating. 701 00:28:29,544 --> 00:28:31,988 So then I will be lying to my mother. 702 00:28:31,989 --> 00:28:34,057 - And to my father. - It's... 703 00:28:34,091 --> 00:28:35,892 - it's for your mental health. - She'll know. 704 00:28:35,927 --> 00:28:39,229 And even if she doesn't say anything... 705 00:28:39,263 --> 00:28:40,563 she'll judge me. 706 00:28:42,199 --> 00:28:43,566 I can teach you some coping mechanisms. 707 00:28:43,601 --> 00:28:47,304 She won't... love me the same. 708 00:28:50,341 --> 00:28:52,631 Is there a coping mechanism for that? 709 00:28:56,180 --> 00:28:58,281 The downcoding will work. 710 00:28:58,316 --> 00:29:01,418 But it's not gonna help, not in the long run. 711 00:29:01,452 --> 00:29:03,286 The stress of having to lie to her family 712 00:29:03,321 --> 00:29:05,422 is only going to exacerbate her depression... 713 00:29:05,456 --> 00:29:07,123 her sense of isolation. 714 00:29:07,158 --> 00:29:09,426 Our only option is to work around the mother. 715 00:29:09,460 --> 00:29:10,694 I think that's the problem. 716 00:29:10,728 --> 00:29:12,262 I don't think we should work around her. 717 00:29:12,296 --> 00:29:13,496 I think we should bring her in. 718 00:29:13,531 --> 00:29:14,698 - For therapy? - Yeah. 719 00:29:14,732 --> 00:29:16,366 They need to do it together. 720 00:29:16,400 --> 00:29:18,101 The whole reason we are here is because 721 00:29:18,135 --> 00:29:20,370 the mother is against talking to anyone. 722 00:29:20,404 --> 00:29:23,139 I know, but we have to get her on board, 723 00:29:23,174 --> 00:29:24,997 or we're gonna lose Amy. 724 00:29:27,411 --> 00:29:29,376 - Okay. - Okay. 725 00:29:30,147 --> 00:29:33,516 [TENSE MUSIC] 726 00:29:33,551 --> 00:29:36,019 [DOOR OPENING] 727 00:29:36,053 --> 00:29:37,687 Rodger Conway's gone into A-fib. 728 00:29:37,722 --> 00:29:39,155 What? 729 00:29:39,190 --> 00:29:41,157 Sorry, I can get someone else. 730 00:29:41,192 --> 00:29:42,659 No, just, just give me a sec. 731 00:29:42,693 --> 00:29:45,729 No, we can handle it. 732 00:29:45,763 --> 00:29:48,228 I'm fine. I'm fine. 733 00:29:49,200 --> 00:29:51,401 [ALARMS BEEPING] 734 00:29:51,435 --> 00:29:55,171 SVT. Ventricular rate of 160. 735 00:29:55,206 --> 00:29:56,856 - Dr. Bloom? - Uh, how's the patient? 736 00:29:56,891 --> 00:29:58,141 Any chest pain? 737 00:29:58,175 --> 00:30:00,010 I would ask him, but he's unresponsive. 738 00:30:00,044 --> 00:30:02,245 Okay. Uh, carotid massage. 739 00:30:02,279 --> 00:30:04,180 He's a set-up for carotid stenosis. 740 00:30:04,215 --> 00:30:06,649 He'll stroke out. We need a heavy hitter. 741 00:30:06,684 --> 00:30:09,219 Okay. Okay. 742 00:30:09,253 --> 00:30:11,588 [ALARMS BEEPING RAPIDLY] 743 00:30:11,622 --> 00:30:13,754 What do you want us to do, Dr. Bloom? 744 00:30:14,692 --> 00:30:17,694 [BEEPING CONTINUES] 745 00:30:21,816 --> 00:30:23,916 Dr. Bloom, we need your instructions. 746 00:30:24,304 --> 00:30:25,604 - Yes. - Yes? 747 00:30:25,629 --> 00:30:27,096 BP's down to 95/50. 748 00:30:27,131 --> 00:30:28,560 Dr. Bloom. 749 00:30:29,467 --> 00:30:31,134 Okay. Okay. 750 00:30:31,168 --> 00:30:33,470 [ALARMS BEEPING] 751 00:30:33,504 --> 00:30:34,983 Okay. 752 00:30:37,341 --> 00:30:40,009 Atenolol, 5 milligram, IV. 753 00:30:40,044 --> 00:30:41,196 You mean adenosine. 754 00:30:41,231 --> 00:30:43,046 No, I said atenolol. 755 00:30:43,080 --> 00:30:44,493 Atenolol. 756 00:30:45,416 --> 00:30:47,450 - All right. - Got it. Here. 757 00:30:51,422 --> 00:30:53,990 BP's down to 90/50. 758 00:30:54,024 --> 00:30:55,325 Mr. Conway? 759 00:30:55,359 --> 00:30:57,172 Are you with us? 760 00:30:58,028 --> 00:30:59,966 Still unresponsive. 761 00:31:00,598 --> 00:31:03,500 The medication will take a minute to work. 762 00:31:03,534 --> 00:31:04,968 BP's down to 86. 763 00:31:05,002 --> 00:31:06,135 He's about to convert to VTACH. 764 00:31:06,170 --> 00:31:07,237 Blood pressure's still dropping. 765 00:31:07,271 --> 00:31:08,505 We usually shock this rhythm. 766 00:31:08,539 --> 00:31:10,039 Don't. No. This med will work. 767 00:31:10,074 --> 00:31:11,641 We need to shock him now. 768 00:31:11,675 --> 00:31:13,843 No, j... just wait. 769 00:31:13,878 --> 00:31:16,880 [ALARMS BEEPING] 770 00:31:16,914 --> 00:31:19,883 [INTENSIFYING MUSIC] 771 00:31:19,917 --> 00:31:22,519 772 00:31:22,553 --> 00:31:24,241 Just stop! 773 00:31:28,626 --> 00:31:30,660 [BEEPING SLOWS] 774 00:31:30,694 --> 00:31:32,061 He's back. 775 00:31:34,431 --> 00:31:37,333 Normal sinus rhythm. The medication worked. 776 00:31:40,070 --> 00:31:41,871 What just happened? 777 00:31:41,906 --> 00:31:43,844 You're okay, Mr. Conway. 778 00:31:44,408 --> 00:31:46,543 It's okay. You're okay. 779 00:31:46,577 --> 00:31:49,646 [MACHINES BEEPING STEADILY] 780 00:31:54,118 --> 00:31:56,419 Okay, one last quick question, and it's kind of funny. 781 00:31:56,453 --> 00:31:58,054 How old is Floyd going to be? 782 00:31:58,088 --> 00:31:59,622 I don't know. He's not my boyfriend. 783 00:31:59,657 --> 00:32:01,862 We just slept together a couple of times. 784 00:32:03,260 --> 00:32:05,328 [SIGHS] 785 00:32:09,433 --> 00:32:16,406 786 00:32:19,276 --> 00:32:22,048 There must be a part of you that knows... 787 00:32:22,746 --> 00:32:25,135 that your daughter did not slip... 788 00:32:26,483 --> 00:32:28,889 that she tried to end her life today. 789 00:32:30,421 --> 00:32:32,476 I know it's hard to accept. 790 00:32:33,624 --> 00:32:36,438 When a child needs help, one may think, 791 00:32:37,127 --> 00:32:39,462 "I did a bad job as a parent." 792 00:32:41,165 --> 00:32:42,402 One may wonder, 793 00:32:43,367 --> 00:32:45,969 "Why I didn't see the signs sooner?" 794 00:32:48,005 --> 00:32:50,118 Our children aren't perfect. 795 00:32:52,142 --> 00:32:53,789 And why should they be? 796 00:32:55,312 --> 00:32:56,579 We are not. 797 00:33:07,704 --> 00:33:09,805 He's a good man. 798 00:33:11,228 --> 00:33:13,183 Does that count for something? 799 00:33:14,031 --> 00:33:17,166 In here, no. But... 800 00:33:17,201 --> 00:33:20,315 everywhere else, yes. 801 00:33:21,038 --> 00:33:22,438 [SIGHS] 802 00:33:22,473 --> 00:33:25,642 He was always going to do the surgery, I think. 803 00:33:25,676 --> 00:33:29,449 He just needed to explore the alternatives 804 00:33:30,080 --> 00:33:32,160 to know it wasn't for him. 805 00:33:36,153 --> 00:33:37,624 Do you... 806 00:33:39,523 --> 00:33:41,461 resent him for it? 807 00:33:42,393 --> 00:33:44,560 I love him for it. 808 00:33:44,595 --> 00:33:46,629 [SOFT MUSIC] 809 00:33:46,664 --> 00:33:51,167 810 00:33:51,201 --> 00:33:52,681 Hi. 811 00:33:53,537 --> 00:33:55,338 Just came by to check on you. 812 00:33:55,372 --> 00:33:57,073 How you feeling? 813 00:33:57,107 --> 00:34:00,510 Hmm, like I've been hit by an F train. 814 00:34:00,544 --> 00:34:03,546 Whoa. Solid. 815 00:34:03,580 --> 00:34:06,444 Solid jokes are a very good sign. 816 00:34:07,351 --> 00:34:09,686 I'm sorry I can't go behind my mother's back. 817 00:34:11,855 --> 00:34:14,223 You know... [CLEARS THROAT] 818 00:34:14,258 --> 00:34:19,228 You are obviously a very, very loyal, 819 00:34:19,263 --> 00:34:20,830 very caring daughter. 820 00:34:20,864 --> 00:34:22,498 I see that. 821 00:34:22,533 --> 00:34:25,702 And you're part of a very tight-knit, close family, 822 00:34:25,736 --> 00:34:27,336 and you care what they think. 823 00:34:30,607 --> 00:34:32,137 I know it sounds... 824 00:34:33,110 --> 00:34:34,681 silly... 825 00:34:35,212 --> 00:34:36,516 but... 826 00:34:37,881 --> 00:34:40,854 the hardest part of every day is... 827 00:34:42,886 --> 00:34:44,721 just getting out of bed. 828 00:34:44,755 --> 00:34:47,724 829 00:34:47,758 --> 00:34:50,697 I lay there thinking about 830 00:34:51,261 --> 00:34:53,825 all the things I have to get done. 831 00:34:54,431 --> 00:34:57,203 I imagine it all in my mind. 832 00:34:58,102 --> 00:35:00,369 And one by one, 833 00:35:00,404 --> 00:35:03,606 I fail at everything. 834 00:35:06,910 --> 00:35:09,132 I don't finish my schoolwork. 835 00:35:10,314 --> 00:35:11,968 I'm late for work. 836 00:35:13,784 --> 00:35:16,890 I say the wrong thing at home, and... 837 00:35:17,621 --> 00:35:20,769 then I think maybe I shouldn't even try. 838 00:35:21,925 --> 00:35:24,627 So I lay there for a while... 839 00:35:27,264 --> 00:35:30,166 All the time, wishing 840 00:35:30,200 --> 00:35:32,769 that I could just tell my mom... 841 00:35:32,803 --> 00:35:35,505 [VOICE BREAKING] How much pressure I feel 842 00:35:35,539 --> 00:35:37,874 to make her proud. 843 00:35:40,250 --> 00:35:41,617 Ma! 844 00:35:45,716 --> 00:35:47,517 I told your mother how we will 845 00:35:47,551 --> 00:35:50,486 - bill your insurance. - [SOBS] 846 00:35:50,521 --> 00:35:52,884 She said it was quite clever. 847 00:35:53,791 --> 00:35:57,326 I... yeah, I would like to... if it's okay with you... 848 00:35:57,361 --> 00:35:59,349 see the two of you together. 849 00:36:02,466 --> 00:36:04,479 I want you to get better. 850 00:36:05,349 --> 00:36:07,450 I'm sorry. 851 00:36:07,704 --> 00:36:09,806 I need help. 852 00:36:09,840 --> 00:36:15,645 853 00:36:15,679 --> 00:36:17,613 We all need help. 854 00:36:17,648 --> 00:36:19,615 [SOBBING] 855 00:36:23,520 --> 00:36:27,690 [BOTH CRYING] 856 00:36:35,532 --> 00:36:37,466 ALL: Surprise! 857 00:36:37,501 --> 00:36:40,536 [ALL CHEERING AND CLAPPING] 858 00:36:42,005 --> 00:36:44,473 [WHOOPING] 859 00:36:44,508 --> 00:36:47,376 - Yeah, dawg! - Yeah! [LAUGHING] 860 00:36:47,411 --> 00:36:49,345 Did you do all this? 861 00:36:49,379 --> 00:36:50,942 It's no big deal. 862 00:36:53,030 --> 00:36:54,630 Thank you. 863 00:36:54,852 --> 00:36:56,698 Seriously. 864 00:36:57,454 --> 00:36:59,722 How amazing are you? 865 00:37:01,959 --> 00:37:04,861 - Aww. - [ALL OOHING] 866 00:37:04,895 --> 00:37:07,864 [CHEERING AND COOING] 867 00:37:07,898 --> 00:37:09,365 Paging Dr. Reynolds. 868 00:37:09,399 --> 00:37:10,533 You are urgently needed 869 00:37:10,567 --> 00:37:12,368 in the karaoke department! 870 00:37:12,402 --> 00:37:15,671 [ALL CHEERING AND CLAPPING] 871 00:37:18,442 --> 00:37:19,542 How did you know? 872 00:37:19,576 --> 00:37:22,932 Honestly, Bloom told me. 873 00:37:23,714 --> 00:37:25,414 I believe I said "urgently needed"? 874 00:37:25,449 --> 00:37:26,949 - Yeah. - Yeah, come on! 875 00:37:26,984 --> 00:37:29,685 - Whoo! - [ALL CLAPPING] 876 00:37:29,720 --> 00:37:32,555 ♪ - Ooh, child ♪ 877 00:37:32,589 --> 00:37:36,759 ♪ Things are gonna get easier ♪ 878 00:37:36,793 --> 00:37:38,728 ♪ Ooh, child ♪ 879 00:37:38,762 --> 00:37:43,299 ♪ Things'll get brighter ♪ 880 00:37:43,333 --> 00:37:46,802 ♪ Ooh, child ♪ 881 00:37:46,837 --> 00:37:50,573 ♪ Things are gonna get easier ♪ 882 00:37:50,607 --> 00:37:52,875 ♪ Ooh, child ♪ 883 00:37:52,910 --> 00:37:58,414 ♪ Things'll get brighter ♪ 884 00:37:58,448 --> 00:38:00,716 ♪ Someday ♪ 885 00:38:00,751 --> 00:38:05,588 ♪ We'll get it together and we'll get it all done ♪ 886 00:38:05,622 --> 00:38:12,428 ♪ Someday when your head is much lighter ♪ 887 00:38:12,462 --> 00:38:14,764 ♪ Someday, yeah ♪ 888 00:38:14,798 --> 00:38:19,268 ♪ We'll walk in the rays of a beautiful sun ♪ 889 00:38:19,303 --> 00:38:24,740 ♪ Someday when the world is much brighter ♪ 890 00:38:24,775 --> 00:38:27,276 ♪ Ooh, child ♪ 891 00:38:27,311 --> 00:38:32,481 ♪ Things'll get brighter ♪ 892 00:38:32,516 --> 00:38:34,951 ♪ Someday ♪ 893 00:38:34,985 --> 00:38:36,752 ♪ We'll get it together ♪ 894 00:38:36,787 --> 00:38:39,855 ♪ And we'll get it all done ♪ 895 00:38:39,890 --> 00:38:46,796 ♪ Someday when your head is much lighter ♪ 896 00:38:46,830 --> 00:38:49,098 ♪ Someday, yeah ♪ 897 00:38:49,132 --> 00:38:53,502 ♪ We'll walk in the rays of a beautiful sun ♪ 898 00:38:53,537 --> 00:39:00,109 ♪ Someday when the world is much brighter ♪ 899 00:39:00,143 --> 00:39:03,980 ♪ Brighter ♪ 900 00:39:04,014 --> 00:39:06,949 ♪ Ooh, child ♪ 901 00:39:06,984 --> 00:39:12,455 ♪ Things are gonna get easier ♪ 902 00:39:12,489 --> 00:39:14,890 Rabbi Skillman's surgery is looking good. 903 00:39:14,925 --> 00:39:17,660 Yeah, I got a text from Dr. Anders. 904 00:39:17,694 --> 00:39:19,028 I'm so relieved. 905 00:39:19,062 --> 00:39:22,177 Rolled the dice and came up huge. 906 00:39:23,567 --> 00:39:25,701 Maybe you should do the same. 907 00:39:25,972 --> 00:39:27,970 Choosing a donor. 908 00:39:31,708 --> 00:39:32,875 I still miss him. 909 00:39:36,780 --> 00:39:38,943 His name was Muhammad. 910 00:39:40,751 --> 00:39:42,614 Internal medicine. 911 00:39:44,187 --> 00:39:45,992 One of the good ones. 912 00:39:47,190 --> 00:39:50,538 We were completely out of our minds for each other. 913 00:39:51,895 --> 00:39:53,583 You know what that's like? 914 00:39:55,399 --> 00:39:57,378 He asked me to marry him. 915 00:39:58,548 --> 00:40:00,883 We were gonna have kids. 916 00:40:00,908 --> 00:40:02,926 The whole thing. 917 00:40:04,875 --> 00:40:06,137 You broke up? 918 00:40:09,546 --> 00:40:10,846 Brain aneurysm. 919 00:40:15,506 --> 00:40:17,874 All our plans, just... 920 00:40:22,559 --> 00:40:25,895 And now here I am, freezing eggs 921 00:40:25,929 --> 00:40:28,159 and asking strangers for help. 922 00:40:29,433 --> 00:40:31,167 [CHUCKLES] 923 00:40:39,609 --> 00:40:41,944 I feel like I'm b... 924 00:40:44,247 --> 00:40:45,881 I feel like I'm betraying him, 925 00:40:45,916 --> 00:40:47,883 and I... I don't know if it's worth it. 926 00:40:50,020 --> 00:40:51,849 It's worth it. 927 00:40:52,823 --> 00:40:55,891 [FAINT LAUGHTER AND KARAOKE MUSIC] 928 00:40:59,607 --> 00:41:01,430 ♪ - Don't you ♪ 929 00:41:01,465 --> 00:41:03,966 ♪ Forget about me! ♪ 930 00:41:04,000 --> 00:41:05,935 [MUSIC CONTINUES] 931 00:41:05,969 --> 00:41:08,504 Reynolds. [LAUGHING] 932 00:41:08,538 --> 00:41:11,006 ♪ - Don't you ♪ 933 00:41:11,041 --> 00:41:14,076 We should stop him before he moves onto prog rock. 934 00:41:14,111 --> 00:41:15,744 Yeah, I didn't even know he could go that high. 935 00:41:15,779 --> 00:41:16,745 [LAUGHING] 936 00:41:16,780 --> 00:41:18,647 I mean, that is... 937 00:41:20,650 --> 00:41:22,785 And would you cancel my chemo tomorrow? 938 00:41:22,819 --> 00:41:25,675 I wanna try precision-targeted therapy. 939 00:41:27,824 --> 00:41:29,075 Clinical trials? 940 00:41:29,109 --> 00:41:30,526 Mm. 941 00:41:30,560 --> 00:41:33,099 Chemo's gonna take the life out of me, and I... 942 00:41:34,197 --> 00:41:36,799 I wanna keep running this hospital. 943 00:41:36,833 --> 00:41:38,134 I want to be there 944 00:41:38,168 --> 00:41:40,603 for Georgia and the baby. 945 00:41:40,637 --> 00:41:42,483 Max, we had a plan. 946 00:41:43,507 --> 00:41:45,570 I know, but I don't want to be a patient. 947 00:41:46,843 --> 00:41:48,811 I just want to be myself. 948 00:41:48,845 --> 00:41:50,646 It's too big a risk. 949 00:41:53,049 --> 00:41:54,996 It's a risk I have to take. 950 00:41:57,320 --> 00:42:01,891 ♪ - Oh-oh-oh ♪ ♪ - Ooh, child ♪ 951 00:42:01,925 --> 00:42:05,227 ♪ Ooh, child ♪ 952 00:42:05,262 --> 00:42:08,697 ♪ Ooh, child ♪ 953 00:42:08,732 --> 00:42:12,535 ♪ Things'll get easier