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["Oh No" playing]
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[vocalizing]
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[Aza] Did you know human beings
are almost 50% microbial?
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That means half the cells
that make up your body
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don't even belong to you.
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They belong to these tiny,
microscopic organisms
crawling inside of you.
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So, if you think about it,
there is no you.
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You're not real.
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You're fictional.
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♪ Oh, no, I did it again ♪
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♪ I heard them all too loud
Voices in my head ♪
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♪ And now I'm lonely ♪
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♪ Someone to tell me
They knew... ♪
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You're just
a glorified bacterial colony.
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- [Dr. Singh] I did know that.
- [song stops]
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Because you've told me before.
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When was the last time
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you had the urge to open
the callus on your finger?
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- This morning.
- And did you?
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Yes.
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Maybe we try
exposure response
therapy again.
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Oh, that... that wasn't for me.
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Okay.
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Have you been taking
your medication?
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Uh...
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Sometimes.
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You have to take
your medication every day,
for it to work. You know that.
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What are you thinking?
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I was thinking it's not fair
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that you and every other
normal person can know
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you're covered in bacteria
and not give a shit.
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- I don't like
the word "normal."
- And I don't like the words
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that you write on your notepad
to describe me,
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but if the shoe fits.
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Sure, they acknowledge
you're struggling,
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but they also reflect
that you are so much more
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than your OCD.
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You're smart, and creative,
and thoughtful.
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Okay, thank you.
But, please, just stop.
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So, you wish you were more
like normal people?
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No.
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I'd kill to be
like normal people.
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[song resumes]
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{\an8}♪ I'm caving out ♪
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{\an8}♪ And I just sit back ♪
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{\an8}♪ While I watch me drown ♪
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{\an8}♪ So I'm safe and sound ♪
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{\an8}♪ While I'm in this room ♪
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{\an8}♪ No, it's nothing new ♪
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{\an8}♪ Ooh-ooh ♪
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{\an8}[vocalizing]
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{\an8}♪ Oh, no, I did it again ♪
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{\an8}♪ I told the world I'm fine
Never near the edge ♪
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{\an8}♪ And now I'm falling ♪
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{\an8}♪ Too late to tell them
The truth ♪
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{\an8}♪ Oh, no, I did it again ♪
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{\an8}♪ I heard them all too loud
Voices in my head ♪
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{\an8}♪ And now I'm lonely ♪
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{\an8}♪ Someone to tell me
They knew ♪
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♪ 'Cause I'm caving out ♪
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{\an8}♪ And I just sit back ♪
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♪ While I watch me drown ♪
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♪ So I'm safe and sound ♪
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♪ While I'm in this room ♪
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♪ No, it's nothing new ♪
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♪ Ooh-ooh ♪
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{\an8}-♪ Oh, no, I did it again ♪
- ♪ 'Cause I'm caving out ♪
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{\an8}♪ I let my mind leak out
Into all my friends ♪
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{\an8}♪ And I just sit back ♪
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{\an8}♪ While I watch me drown ♪
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{\an8}-♪ Oh, no, I did it again ♪
- ♪ So I'm safe and sound ♪
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{\an8}♪ I let myself inside
Till the silence ends ♪
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{\an8}♪ Too late to tell the truth ♪
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{\an8}♪ Slipping and thinking
Of you ♪
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{\an8}♪ And it's nothing new ♪
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{\an8}♪ Slipping and thinking
Of you ♪
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{\an8}♪ Slipping and thinking
Of you... ♪
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[school bell ringing]
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♪ Slipping and thinking
Of you... ♪
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[indistinct conversation]
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♪ Slipping and thinking
Of you ♪
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♪ Slipping and thinking
Of you... ♪
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So, what do you think?
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[song stops]
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Of what?
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Holmsey, my hair is the color
of an embarrassed flamingo.
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Yeah, it's not a good thing.
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[Daisy chuckles]
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I can't believe you actually
went through with it.
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It's bold.
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Daisy Ramirez breaks hearts,
not promises.
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[girls chuckle]
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Do you think
I should get that tattooed,
like, yea big on my ankle?
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Still, no.
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- Hey, check out my new piece.
- [Daisy] Oh.
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His new piece.
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Bam.
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He's hot. Who is he?
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He's Mychal 101.
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I used Photoshop
to average the faces
of 100 people named Mychal,
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- but spelled
with a "Y" like me.
- [static crackles]
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And the average
of their faces became him.
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The 101st Mychal.
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- Hello, Mychal 101.
- [whooshing]
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[voice fading] Yeah,
so, now that I've got
the technique down...
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[Aza] That's your stomach
digesting your sandwich.
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Make a piece about the face
of White River High.
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- ["Bad Guy"
instrumental playing]
- [whooshing]
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[Aza] All the bacteria
chewing the slime
of the peanut butter and honey.
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You can feel them living,
and breeding,
and dying inside of you.
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Your body is nothing but a host
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to a massive collection
of parasitic organisms,
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ready to cause infection,
ready to cause infection,
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ready to cause infection.
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Holmsey, are you listening?
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[Aza] I am listening
to the cacophony
of my digestive tract.
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- Aza?
- [song stops]
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Yeah. Yeah?
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When was the last time
you saw Davis?
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{\an8}Um, I don't... I don't know.
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[Mychal] You know
Davis Pickett?
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- [echoing] Yeah,
when they were kids.
- [song resumes]
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- What?
- They went to camp.
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[Aza] It's too loud.
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Why is it so loud?
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Excessive abdominal noise
is an uncommon
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but not unprecedented,
symptom of a C. diff infection.
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Even moderate
C. diff infections
can quickly worsen.
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Damage to the intestinal lining
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causes bacteria to spill
into the abdominal cavity,
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leading to
a life-threatening infection.
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You need to change
the Band-Aid.
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You're probably infected.
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You need to drain
the infection.
Drain it and clean it.
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Put on a new Band-Aid
before it gets any worse.
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I gotta go to my locker.
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Most C. diff cases
occur in hospitals.
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You haven't been to a hospital,
but you're sweating
and you feel hot.
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You probably have a fever.
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A fever is also a symptom
of C. diff.
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- Stop it,
you don't have a fever.
- [door closes]
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You don't have a fever yet.
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How could you forget
to change the Band-Aid?
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I really don't think I did.
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You did,
you forgot to change it,
and now it's too late.
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You have C. diff,
and you're gonna--
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- [song stops]
- [exhales]
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[winces]
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Thought spiral?
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Yeah.
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[Daisy] Well, tomorrow,
we're gonna hang out
on my lunch break, right?
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And by "hang out" I mean,
you're gonna pick me up
on my lunch break?
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- Sure.
- Thank God.
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I'll see you tomorrow.
Love you.
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Bye.
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[typing]
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- No phones in the hallway, Aza.
- [cell phone clicks]
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No spying on your daughter
during school hours, Mom.
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You look tired.
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You feeling okay?
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Yeah.
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And you're taking your...
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Yes.
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[bell ringing]
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Hey, do you wanna go to a movie
sometime tomorrow afternoon?
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I barely get to see you
during the week.
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I'm hanging out with Daisy.
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Maybe Sunday then?
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[Aza] Maybe.
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[gentle piano music playing]
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Hey, everybody.
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[Professor Abbott on video]
Schopenhauer once said,
"Man can do what he wills,
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but he cannot will
what he wills."
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Our motives
may be predetermined,
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but it's up to us
how we act on those motives.
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And consider this.
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If you alter a mouse's
microbiome, the colonies
of bacteria in its stomach,
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the mouse will suddenly
seek out different foods--
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- [knocking on window]
- [gasps]
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[window creaking open]
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Horrible news.
I drew the short straw,
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which means I have to
get in the freakin'
Kenny the chinchilla costume.
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And B.O. Brian
was in it all morning.
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So, let's make
this lunch break count.
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Really?
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You know you're not allowed
to drink non-clear liquids
in Harold.
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It's vanilla.
It's clear-adjacent.
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Fine.
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[sucking]
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Empty.
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- Happy?
- Mm-hmm.
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[lock clicks]
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[Daisy clicks tongue, sighs]
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Happy, Harold?
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Yes, he is.
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- [engine starts]
- For what it's worth,
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your dad is definitely
smiling down
from the great beyond,
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proud of how anal you're being
about his old car.
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[chuckles] Radio or the CD?
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CD, always.
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Just think, of all the CDs
that could have
gotten stuck in here...
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[player beeps]
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...it wound up being
the greatest album of all time.
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[chuckles]
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["Ms. Jackson"
playing on stereo]
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- ♪ I'm sorry, Ms. Jackson ♪
- ♪ Ooh ♪
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♪ I am for real ♪
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♪ Never meant
To make your daughter cry ♪
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♪ I apologize
A trillion times ♪
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[speaking Spanish]
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[singing along in Spanish]
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[in English]
♪ Ooh, I am for real ♪
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♪ For real ♪
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♪ Never meant
To make your daughter cry ♪
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♪ I apologize
A trillion times ♪
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♪ On the oak tree
I hope we feel
Like this forever ♪
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- ♪ Forever? ♪
- ♪ Forever ever? ♪
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♪ Forever ever? ♪
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♪ Forever never seems that long
Until you're grown ♪
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♪ And notice that
The day-by-day ruler
Can't be too wrong ♪
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♪ Ms. Jackson
My intentions were good
I wish I could ♪
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♪ Become a magician
To abracadabra all the sadder ♪
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♪ Thoughts of me
Thoughts of she
Thoughts of he ♪
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♪ Asking what happened
To the feeling
That her and me ♪
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Hi, Holly.
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We'll do a veggie burger
for milady. Hold everything
but the bun.
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And a blazin' Texan for me.
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Extra blazing,
if that's possible.
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I'm having a day.
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Let me guess,
you have a coupon?
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[Daisy] We do, in fact.
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Anything to drink?
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What are we, heiresses?
Two waters.
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If you tip me
in quarters again,
I swear to God.
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Why is Davis on the news?
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[Daisy] Because his dad
is missing. That's what
I was talking about.
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You didn't hear me say that?
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[newscaster] Billionaire,
Russell Pickett, seemingly--
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Do you hear me now?
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Pickett Engineering was working
on a massive
construction project
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designed to clean sewage
from the White River
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by expanding existing tunnels
and diverting the creek
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{\an8}known as Pogue's Run.
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{\an8}Pickett had likely been
tipped off
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{\an8}that he was being charged
with fraud and bribery
246
00:11:54,482 --> 00:11:56,526
{\an8}and that his arrest
was imminent.
247
00:11:56,526 --> 00:11:59,612
{\an8}- Yikes.
- Mr. Pickett is a widower
with two sons,
248
00:11:59,612 --> 00:12:01,239
{\an8}Davis and Noah.
249
00:12:01,239 --> 00:12:04,409
{\an8}Detective Dwight Allen gave us
more details on the search.
250
00:12:04,409 --> 00:12:07,912
[Dwight] The FBI is offering
a $100,000 reward
251
00:12:07,912 --> 00:12:09,622
for anyone who has information
252
00:12:09,622 --> 00:12:12,083
that would lead
to the discovery
of Mr. Pickett.
253
00:12:12,083 --> 00:12:14,836
- Holy shit!
- Anyone with any
pertinent information
254
00:12:14,836 --> 00:12:17,172
- about this investigation
should contact--
- Holy shit!
255
00:12:17,172 --> 00:12:20,008
Who do you think is taking care
of Davis and Noah?
256
00:12:20,008 --> 00:12:23,094
Probably one of their
bajillion servants.
257
00:12:23,094 --> 00:12:26,222
They're rich.
Rich people are always fine.
258
00:12:26,222 --> 00:12:31,102
I think you're missing
the takeaway here,
which is $100,000.
259
00:12:31,102 --> 00:12:32,312
What about it?
260
00:12:32,312 --> 00:12:35,064
You and Davis
used to be friends.
261
00:12:35,064 --> 00:12:37,650
Yeah, for one summer
at sad camp.
262
00:12:40,195 --> 00:12:41,696
He might not even remember me.
263
00:12:41,696 --> 00:12:43,907
He'll remember you.
That shit bonds you for life.
264
00:12:44,949 --> 00:12:46,743
And you're memorable.
265
00:12:46,743 --> 00:12:48,161
Even if he does,
266
00:12:48,161 --> 00:12:50,413
it doesn't mean I know how
to find his missing dad.
267
00:12:50,413 --> 00:12:53,374
Okay, but it gives us a leg up
on everyone else.
268
00:12:53,374 --> 00:12:57,754
We are not people
to turn our noses up
at a hundred grand, Holmsey.
269
00:12:57,754 --> 00:13:02,300
I am currently
washing ball pit balls
for $8.40 an hour.
270
00:13:02,300 --> 00:13:04,552
Do you know
what I'm washing off the balls?
271
00:13:04,552 --> 00:13:05,553
Do you?
272
00:13:06,846 --> 00:13:08,806
- It's pee.
- Mmm.
273
00:13:08,806 --> 00:13:12,477
It's pee, Aza. Pee-pee.
274
00:13:12,477 --> 00:13:13,645
Yeah, okay.
275
00:13:13,645 --> 00:13:15,563
And as much
as I would love to think
276
00:13:15,563 --> 00:13:17,482
that my Star Wars fanfic
is going to make me
stupid rich,
277
00:13:17,482 --> 00:13:19,400
just can't rely on that
right now.
278
00:13:19,400 --> 00:13:22,237
Ergo, we owe it to ourselves,
279
00:13:22,237 --> 00:13:26,783
to our families,
and to our futures
to try and get this 100 grand.
280
00:13:28,952 --> 00:13:31,371
That kind of money,
we could order sodas.
281
00:13:31,371 --> 00:13:33,331
[curious music playing]
282
00:13:33,331 --> 00:13:35,542
I just don't get
how Russell Pickett disappeared
without anyone knowing.
283
00:13:35,542 --> 00:13:38,503
I mean, don't rich people have
a bunch of security cameras
284
00:13:38,503 --> 00:13:40,004
in their manors?
285
00:13:40,004 --> 00:13:44,801
Like, to make sure that
nobody steals their jewels?
286
00:13:44,801 --> 00:13:46,970
Actually, they only have
one camera.
287
00:13:47,679 --> 00:13:49,347
How do you know?
288
00:13:49,347 --> 00:13:51,849
After that summer at camp,
Davis invited me
to his 13th birthday.
289
00:13:51,849 --> 00:13:54,060
Some kid got him
this motion capture camera
290
00:13:54,060 --> 00:13:55,603
because he was really
into tracking animals,
291
00:13:55,603 --> 00:13:57,272
and in front of everyone,
292
00:13:57,272 --> 00:13:59,357
his dad just turned all cold
and said he couldn't keep it.
293
00:13:59,357 --> 00:14:00,525
Why?
294
00:14:00,525 --> 00:14:02,443
Uh, because...
295
00:14:02,443 --> 00:14:04,612
[imitating Russell] "Privacy
is the most important thing
you can have,
296
00:14:04,612 --> 00:14:06,906
and if you don't have that,
you have nothing."
297
00:14:06,906 --> 00:14:08,908
[scoffs]
298
00:14:08,908 --> 00:14:11,452
It's a pretty crazy speech
to give a kid who's just
trying to enjoy his birthday
299
00:14:11,452 --> 00:14:14,455
and not be sad
about his dead mom.
300
00:14:14,455 --> 00:14:15,665
Seriously.
301
00:14:15,665 --> 00:14:17,292
Anyway, uh, Davis got upset,
302
00:14:17,292 --> 00:14:20,753
and, finally, his dad caved
and let him keep it.
303
00:14:20,753 --> 00:14:21,838
Huh.
304
00:14:21,838 --> 00:14:23,423
No, no, no, don't...
305
00:14:23,423 --> 00:14:24,591
- Don't lean.
- [music stops]
306
00:14:24,591 --> 00:14:26,342
Sorry. Sorry.
307
00:14:27,885 --> 00:14:29,804
Okay. So...
308
00:14:29,804 --> 00:14:33,391
we've gotta get our hands
on that camera. Do you know
where he installed it?
309
00:14:33,891 --> 00:14:35,977
Sort of.
310
00:14:35,977 --> 00:14:39,063
We all helped him put it up
in this huge tree
near the river.
311
00:14:39,897 --> 00:14:43,151
Holmsey, we have a lead.
312
00:14:44,611 --> 00:14:46,988
- [cell phone clicks]
- [typing]
313
00:14:46,988 --> 00:14:49,907
- [whispers] What are you doing?
- I'm on the phone.
314
00:14:49,907 --> 00:14:52,660
Eric, hi. It's Daisy.
315
00:14:52,660 --> 00:14:54,329
Yes, that's... that's actually
why I'm calling.
316
00:14:54,329 --> 00:14:56,831
I really, really need
the afternoon off.
317
00:14:56,831 --> 00:14:59,834
I'm pretty sure that I have...
318
00:14:59,834 --> 00:15:03,463
[quietly] What's
a highly contagious
stomach bug?
319
00:15:04,297 --> 00:15:05,465
Norovirus.
320
00:15:05,465 --> 00:15:06,883
[in normal voice]
Definitely Norovirus.
321
00:15:06,883 --> 00:15:08,885
100% it's Norovirus.
322
00:15:08,885 --> 00:15:11,763
It feels like Norovirus.
323
00:15:13,389 --> 00:15:14,515
["Fig in Leather"
instrumental playing]
324
00:15:14,515 --> 00:15:16,517
Thank you. Okay.
325
00:15:16,517 --> 00:15:17,894
- Bye.
- [cell phone clicks]
326
00:15:20,313 --> 00:15:22,065
Do you still have that canoe?
327
00:15:33,910 --> 00:15:36,412
This water has to be like,
50% urine.
328
00:15:36,412 --> 00:15:38,081
That's the good half.
329
00:15:42,502 --> 00:15:43,795
Kidding.
330
00:15:43,795 --> 00:15:45,713
[Aza] This water
is teeming with bacteria.
331
00:15:47,632 --> 00:15:49,092
[Daisy] What a day!
332
00:15:49,092 --> 00:15:54,806
The sun's a-shining,
the canoe's a-floating,
333
00:15:54,806 --> 00:15:57,642
and we're about
to live the American dream.
334
00:15:57,642 --> 00:16:01,479
Benefiting from
someone else's misfortune.
335
00:16:01,479 --> 00:16:04,190
Could you please
row a little gentler,
so I don't get splashed?
336
00:16:04,190 --> 00:16:05,400
Sorry.
337
00:16:06,150 --> 00:16:07,360
[static crackles]
338
00:16:07,360 --> 00:16:09,028
[Aza] The water
will get on you,
339
00:16:09,028 --> 00:16:10,738
and then it's only
a matter of time before--
340
00:16:10,738 --> 00:16:12,573
Hey, did you know that
this river is the only reason
341
00:16:12,573 --> 00:16:14,242
that Indianapolis even exists?
342
00:16:14,242 --> 00:16:16,494
I know you're trying
to distract me.
343
00:16:16,494 --> 00:16:19,455
Yep, but did you know my thing?
344
00:16:19,455 --> 00:16:22,166
[Aza] Bacteria
can lead to Giardia.
345
00:16:22,166 --> 00:16:26,254
So, back when Indiana
first became a state,
346
00:16:26,254 --> 00:16:29,799
there were all of these
heated debates about
where the capital should be.
347
00:16:29,799 --> 00:16:33,928
And they noticed that
there's a river right smack
in the center of the state.
348
00:16:33,928 --> 00:16:38,141
So, they're like,
"Boomshakalaka,
perfect place for our capital."
349
00:16:38,141 --> 00:16:40,685
But then, after they made
the announcement,
350
00:16:40,685 --> 00:16:44,188
they realized
that the White River is,
like, six inches deep,
351
00:16:44,188 --> 00:16:47,567
and there's no way in hell
you can float
a steamship down it.
352
00:16:48,443 --> 00:16:49,694
For a long time,
353
00:16:49,694 --> 00:16:51,612
Indianapolis was
the largest city in the world
354
00:16:51,612 --> 00:16:54,031
not on a navigable waterway.
355
00:16:54,031 --> 00:16:55,825
That's actually
really interesting.
356
00:16:55,825 --> 00:16:57,660
Yeah, I knew you'd like that.
357
00:16:59,579 --> 00:17:01,748
And look at that, we're here!
358
00:17:03,040 --> 00:17:04,125
Almost!
359
00:17:04,125 --> 00:17:05,084
[music fades]
360
00:17:05,084 --> 00:17:06,169
[grunts]
361
00:17:08,212 --> 00:17:11,174
Maybe this is a literal sign
we should go home now.
362
00:17:12,091 --> 00:17:13,092
Nah.
363
00:17:16,387 --> 00:17:18,681
It's plausible deniability.
364
00:17:18,681 --> 00:17:21,392
Now... [sighs] which way
to that camera, Holmsey?
365
00:17:22,727 --> 00:17:24,228
I have no idea.
366
00:17:25,188 --> 00:17:26,647
[sighs in exasperation]
367
00:17:26,647 --> 00:17:28,733
Why can't you have that
super observant kind of OCD
368
00:17:28,733 --> 00:17:30,985
that makes you
an amazing detective
369
00:17:30,985 --> 00:17:33,654
in all those crime shows
that my dad watches?
370
00:17:33,654 --> 00:17:35,740
["Dance Yrself Clean" playing]
371
00:17:39,452 --> 00:17:41,370
[Daisy] Shh!
372
00:17:41,370 --> 00:17:42,830
[imitating lightsaber]
373
00:17:45,833 --> 00:17:46,751
[imitating hacking]
374
00:17:55,218 --> 00:17:56,719
Does this look familiar at all?
375
00:17:56,719 --> 00:17:59,222
♪ Walking up to me
Expecting... ♪
376
00:17:59,222 --> 00:18:01,808
No? Just woods? Okay.
377
00:18:01,808 --> 00:18:04,060
[Daisy imitating lightsaber]
378
00:18:04,060 --> 00:18:05,520
What are you doing?
379
00:18:07,772 --> 00:18:08,731
Lightsaber.
380
00:18:09,941 --> 00:18:11,651
[clicks tongue] You try.
381
00:18:13,986 --> 00:18:15,238
You got it.
382
00:18:15,947 --> 00:18:18,491
♪ Ah ♪
383
00:18:19,492 --> 00:18:21,994
Wingardium Leviosa.
384
00:18:25,248 --> 00:18:31,128
No. Wrong franchise.
And I know that you know that.
385
00:18:31,128 --> 00:18:34,632
[sighs] Can we please
just go home?
386
00:18:36,092 --> 00:18:39,136
This was an idiotic,
massive waste of...
387
00:18:39,136 --> 00:18:40,137
[music stops]
388
00:18:41,806 --> 00:18:43,391
There's... there's the tree.
389
00:18:45,893 --> 00:18:47,144
And the camera.
390
00:18:48,020 --> 00:18:48,896
Yes!
391
00:18:48,896 --> 00:18:50,231
[exhales]
392
00:18:50,231 --> 00:18:51,858
What is happening up there?
393
00:18:51,858 --> 00:18:53,985
I'm not exactly known
for my core strength.
394
00:18:53,985 --> 00:18:55,778
It won't sync with my phone.
395
00:18:55,778 --> 00:18:57,071
Well, is your Bluetooth on?
396
00:18:57,071 --> 00:18:58,823
Yes, my Bluetooth is on.
397
00:19:00,992 --> 00:19:02,368
- Oh.
- What?
398
00:19:02,368 --> 00:19:04,370
- It wasn't on.
- [clicks tongue] Aza!
399
00:19:05,872 --> 00:19:07,123
- [cell phone dings]
- [Aza gasps]
400
00:19:07,123 --> 00:19:08,833
- Okay. It's working.
- Yeah?
401
00:19:08,833 --> 00:19:11,127
- Yeah, the photos are loading.
- Okay.
402
00:19:11,127 --> 00:19:13,087
Um, I don't want to alarm you,
403
00:19:13,087 --> 00:19:15,965
but there is definitely
a golf cart headed
in our vague direction.
404
00:19:15,965 --> 00:19:18,134
Wait. [sputtering]
What do you mean vague?
405
00:19:18,134 --> 00:19:19,886
All right, I think
it's just making the rounds.
406
00:19:19,886 --> 00:19:21,220
We're good. Relax.
407
00:19:22,597 --> 00:19:25,725
Nope, not good. Very bad.
It definitely saw us.
408
00:19:25,725 --> 00:19:27,143
- One sec, one sec, one sec.
- Come on, hurry!
409
00:19:27,143 --> 00:19:28,811
- Okay, okay, okay.
- Hurry! Good? Good?
410
00:19:28,811 --> 00:19:30,021
- Yep, yep, yep. Mm-hmm.
- We're good? We're good? Okay.
411
00:19:30,021 --> 00:19:31,355
Okay. We're good. Okay, okay.
412
00:19:31,355 --> 00:19:32,857
- [Aza breathing heavily]
- Ah!
413
00:19:32,857 --> 00:19:34,775
- What do we do?
- [panting]
414
00:19:34,775 --> 00:19:36,444
We "damsel in distress."
415
00:19:36,444 --> 00:19:38,070
- Yeah, um...
- [siren blaring faintly]
416
00:19:40,281 --> 00:19:41,949
Oh, no, I'm not doing that.
I'm not doing that.
417
00:19:41,949 --> 00:19:44,035
Okay, all right. That's fine.
That's fine, don't worry.
418
00:19:44,035 --> 00:19:45,453
God.
419
00:19:45,453 --> 00:19:47,246
[Daisy] There. There. There.
420
00:19:48,247 --> 00:19:49,498
No!
421
00:19:49,498 --> 00:19:51,417
- What are you two doing here?
- [Daisy pants]
422
00:19:51,417 --> 00:19:53,294
Other than trespassing?
423
00:19:54,712 --> 00:19:58,007
Hi. Thank God. We, um...
424
00:19:58,007 --> 00:20:01,302
We were canoeing
and we must have hit a rock.
425
00:20:02,386 --> 00:20:03,471
Multiple rocks.
426
00:20:03,471 --> 00:20:05,681
We started taking on water.
427
00:20:05,681 --> 00:20:08,309
[clears throat, coughs]
428
00:20:08,309 --> 00:20:09,936
Barely made it to shore.
429
00:20:09,936 --> 00:20:12,438
But Aza here,
430
00:20:12,438 --> 00:20:16,025
she actually
happens to be friends
with Davis Pickett.
431
00:20:16,025 --> 00:20:17,276
Maybe you could take us to him.
432
00:20:21,072 --> 00:20:22,490
It would be my pleasure.
433
00:20:23,741 --> 00:20:24,575
Oh.
434
00:20:25,743 --> 00:20:27,453
Thank you.
435
00:20:27,453 --> 00:20:30,581
Because if he doesn't
know your friend,
I'm calling the police.
436
00:20:31,874 --> 00:20:33,918
Fun.
437
00:20:33,918 --> 00:20:37,338
Sad camp does bond you
for life, doesn't it?
438
00:20:37,338 --> 00:20:39,590
["The Less I Know
The Better" playing]
439
00:20:44,011 --> 00:20:46,055
[Daisy] Whoo! Bumpy.
440
00:20:51,018 --> 00:20:52,228
[door opens]
441
00:20:57,650 --> 00:20:59,026
[Lyle clears throat]
442
00:20:59,026 --> 00:21:00,236
[door closes]
443
00:21:00,236 --> 00:21:03,197
Davis, you have,
uh, some visitors.
444
00:21:03,197 --> 00:21:04,865
[song continues on speakers]
445
00:21:04,865 --> 00:21:07,410
Aza. What are you doing here?
446
00:21:08,285 --> 00:21:10,371
Hi, Davis.
447
00:21:10,371 --> 00:21:13,249
See, I told you
they knew each other.
448
00:21:13,249 --> 00:21:19,463
Uh, sorry, we hit a rock
and washed ashore
on your... mansion.
449
00:21:19,463 --> 00:21:21,966
Uh, apologies
for the intrusion.
450
00:21:25,511 --> 00:21:28,097
Uh, well, I'm gonna...
I think I'm gonna...
451
00:21:28,097 --> 00:21:29,974
I'm gonna go make a phone call.
452
00:21:29,974 --> 00:21:33,227
Um, make sure that
we have that canoe insurance
453
00:21:33,227 --> 00:21:35,146
that I was telling you about.
454
00:21:35,813 --> 00:21:36,939
State Farm?
455
00:21:39,775 --> 00:21:42,903
Sorry about Daisy. Um...
456
00:21:42,903 --> 00:21:44,238
She's a...
457
00:21:46,073 --> 00:21:47,700
Leo.
458
00:21:47,700 --> 00:21:49,577
You know what's crazy?
459
00:21:49,577 --> 00:21:51,704
I was just thinking about you.
460
00:21:51,704 --> 00:21:53,789
You were?
461
00:21:53,789 --> 00:21:56,542
Yeah, everyone on the news
keeps using my dad's full name,
462
00:21:56,542 --> 00:21:57,793
Russell Davis Pickett.
463
00:21:57,793 --> 00:22:00,713
And I keep thinking,
"That's my name."
464
00:22:02,506 --> 00:22:04,216
That made you think of me?
465
00:22:04,216 --> 00:22:06,010
I remember you said that
your dad wanted you to have
466
00:22:06,010 --> 00:22:07,928
your own unique name.
467
00:22:07,928 --> 00:22:09,555
A sound you could
make your own.
468
00:22:10,347 --> 00:22:12,683
"A to Z and back again."
469
00:22:12,683 --> 00:22:14,351
My dad made me a junior.
470
00:22:15,352 --> 00:22:16,645
As I made juniority.
471
00:22:18,189 --> 00:22:21,317
Well, you're not your name.
472
00:22:23,736 --> 00:22:25,988
I'm really sorry
about everything.
473
00:22:29,033 --> 00:22:30,951
I'm sure he'll turn up soon.
474
00:22:37,833 --> 00:22:39,960
I mean, I hope so,
for Noah's sake,
475
00:22:41,253 --> 00:22:43,172
[sighs] but my dad's a shitbag.
476
00:22:44,215 --> 00:22:45,674
Maybe that's the wrong word.
477
00:22:45,674 --> 00:22:48,427
He's a coward and a criminal.
478
00:22:48,427 --> 00:22:52,264
He's probably holed up
in the Swiss Alps,
getting a massage right now.
479
00:22:54,225 --> 00:22:55,810
Hey, wanna play
the next one with me?
480
00:22:55,810 --> 00:22:58,771
Sure, but first, say "hi."
Remember my friend Aza?
481
00:22:58,771 --> 00:22:59,980
[Noah] Sup?
482
00:22:59,980 --> 00:23:02,191
Hey, nice to see you.
483
00:23:05,319 --> 00:23:07,488
Uh, well,
I should get going. [chuckles]
484
00:23:07,488 --> 00:23:11,242
Do you need a ride home?
'Cause Lyle can take you.
It's no problem.
485
00:23:11,242 --> 00:23:14,495
Sure. Thanks. [chuckles]
486
00:23:14,495 --> 00:23:17,706
I hope it's not years
before I see you again, Aza.
487
00:23:22,878 --> 00:23:24,338
[song gets louder]
488
00:23:24,338 --> 00:23:28,968
♪ So, come on, Superman
Say your stupid line ♪
489
00:23:31,011 --> 00:23:31,887
[song stops]
490
00:23:31,887 --> 00:23:34,640
- [sighs] Raccoon.
- Raccoon.
491
00:23:34,640 --> 00:23:36,267
- Coyote.
- Coyote.
492
00:23:36,267 --> 00:23:38,435
Are you gonna
keep repeating me or...
493
00:23:38,435 --> 00:23:41,313
I can stop if it doesn't help.
494
00:23:41,313 --> 00:23:43,315
- [Aza] Raccoon.
- [Daisy] Raccoon.
495
00:23:43,315 --> 00:23:44,775
- [Aza] Nothing.
- [Daisy] Nothing.
496
00:23:47,153 --> 00:23:48,654
I'll stop. I'm done.
497
00:23:49,738 --> 00:23:51,240
- Nothing.
- [inhales]
498
00:23:52,408 --> 00:23:54,201
- Nothing.
- [groans loudly]
499
00:23:54,201 --> 00:23:55,786
It's taking too long.
500
00:23:56,996 --> 00:23:58,706
[Aza] Coyote.
501
00:23:58,706 --> 00:24:00,374
Ew! Coyote eating a raccoon.
502
00:24:00,374 --> 00:24:01,584
- Ew.
- Oh.
503
00:24:02,585 --> 00:24:04,044
Look, there! That's him.
504
00:24:04,044 --> 00:24:07,381
That's literally him.
Oh, my God! Oh, my God! [gasps]
505
00:24:07,381 --> 00:24:11,302
Oh! He's escaping in Burberry
because, of course.
506
00:24:11,302 --> 00:24:13,429
Oh, my God, this is huge.
This is huge.
507
00:24:13,429 --> 00:24:17,141
Okay, okay, um,
we know that he left
in the middle of the night
508
00:24:17,141 --> 00:24:20,811
because of the time stamp,
and he brought a duffel bag.
509
00:24:22,563 --> 00:24:25,149
I'm not sure what this gets us.
510
00:24:26,066 --> 00:24:27,193
Yeah, me neither.
511
00:24:27,985 --> 00:24:29,236
But it's something!
512
00:24:29,236 --> 00:24:31,447
And lucky for us,
Davis is totally into you.
513
00:24:31,447 --> 00:24:35,326
So, we'll just hang out
with him again and get inside
the belly of the beast.
514
00:24:35,326 --> 00:24:38,412
The mansion is the belly.
Or is it the beast?
515
00:24:38,412 --> 00:24:41,373
I don't know. I don't... I've
never understood that saying.
516
00:24:41,373 --> 00:24:42,541
Daisy...
517
00:24:44,585 --> 00:24:46,629
- you really think he's into me?
- [scoffs]
518
00:24:48,047 --> 00:24:51,342
Yes, and you're into him, too.
519
00:24:51,342 --> 00:24:53,844
- I'm... I'm not.
- You are, too.
520
00:24:53,844 --> 00:24:56,513
He's literally so hot.
Are you kidding me?
521
00:24:56,513 --> 00:24:58,641
Look at you,
you're literally aglow.
522
00:24:58,641 --> 00:25:00,976
- You're aglow.
- No, even if I was,
which I'm not...
523
00:25:00,976 --> 00:25:03,270
- I'm not saying I am.
- [laughing] You are.
524
00:25:03,270 --> 00:25:04,939
It doesn't matter.
525
00:25:04,939 --> 00:25:06,982
I'm not...
526
00:25:06,982 --> 00:25:09,193
I can't date anyone,
you know that.
527
00:25:09,193 --> 00:25:12,613
No, I don't know that.
Why can't you?
528
00:25:12,613 --> 00:25:16,575
Maybe because
the actual mechanics of it
don't suit my talents?
529
00:25:16,575 --> 00:25:17,993
The--
530
00:25:17,993 --> 00:25:21,580
Like, swapping bodily fluids
is my idea of hell.
531
00:25:23,123 --> 00:25:24,667
And also, when you date people,
532
00:25:24,667 --> 00:25:26,627
they say stuff like,
"What are you thinking?"
533
00:25:26,627 --> 00:25:30,422
And you're supposed to say,
"I'm thinking
about you, darling."
534
00:25:30,422 --> 00:25:33,259
But you're actually thinking
about how cows
literally could not survive
535
00:25:33,259 --> 00:25:35,261
without the microbiota
in their guts.
536
00:25:35,261 --> 00:25:38,806
Which means,
cows sort of don't exist
as independent life forms,
537
00:25:38,806 --> 00:25:40,766
but you can't say that
because it'll seem weird.
538
00:25:40,766 --> 00:25:44,812
So, you're forced to choose
between lying
and seeming weird.
539
00:25:44,812 --> 00:25:49,733
I mean, I think that's
a great icebreaker for your
future date with Davis.
540
00:25:49,733 --> 00:25:50,985
[both chuckle]
541
00:25:52,069 --> 00:25:53,612
I'm--
542
00:25:53,612 --> 00:25:56,532
Look, it is definitely weird,
but in the best kind of way.
543
00:25:57,741 --> 00:25:58,993
Like you, Holmsey.
544
00:26:01,078 --> 00:26:03,622
You know what? I bet that
if you guys actually kissed,
545
00:26:03,622 --> 00:26:05,374
you would
not be thinking about--
546
00:26:05,374 --> 00:26:07,084
Eighty million microbes.
547
00:26:07,584 --> 00:26:09,420
Ooh.
548
00:26:09,420 --> 00:26:11,588
What if his microbes
are better than yours?
549
00:26:13,215 --> 00:26:14,800
Right?
550
00:26:14,800 --> 00:26:18,262
Like, maybe
if you guys made out,
you'd get healthier.
551
00:26:18,262 --> 00:26:20,139
[snorting] Maybe.
552
00:26:20,139 --> 00:26:23,892
[gasps] What if you got
superpowers from his microbes?
553
00:26:23,892 --> 00:26:25,602
Yes. Oh, my God.
554
00:26:25,602 --> 00:26:29,189
"She was a normal girl
until she kissed a billionaire,
555
00:26:29,189 --> 00:26:32,484
and then she became
'Micro Bianca...
556
00:26:32,484 --> 00:26:34,111
- Queen of the Microbe!'"
- Shh! Stop! Stop!
557
00:26:34,111 --> 00:26:36,238
[Daisy snoring]
558
00:27:15,652 --> 00:27:17,237
[Davis] "The greatest weapon
against stress is
559
00:27:17,237 --> 00:27:19,365
our ability to choose
one thought over another."
560
00:27:19,365 --> 00:27:20,866
[somber instrumental
music playing]
561
00:27:20,866 --> 00:27:23,327
William James.
562
00:27:23,327 --> 00:27:26,121
What superpower
did William James have?
[chuckles]
563
00:27:26,121 --> 00:27:28,832
I can't choose my thoughts
like I can't choose my name.
564
00:27:40,302 --> 00:27:42,096
With everyone snooping around
my family's business,
565
00:27:42,096 --> 00:27:44,515
I think it's time
to shut this account down.
566
00:27:44,515 --> 00:27:47,559
So, this is goodbye,
my friends.
567
00:27:49,019 --> 00:27:50,312
Then again, uh,
568
00:27:53,065 --> 00:27:55,818
{\an8}no one ever says goodbye
unless they want
to see you again.
569
00:28:09,998 --> 00:28:11,166
- [school bell ringing]
- [music fades]
570
00:28:15,921 --> 00:28:18,090
- Hey, Aza, how's it goin'?
- [Aza] Hey.
571
00:28:18,090 --> 00:28:21,385
It's good. Uh, what's up?
572
00:28:21,385 --> 00:28:23,762
Listen, I don't wanna mess up
our friend group,
573
00:28:23,762 --> 00:28:27,683
because it's really great
and I don't wanna
make anything weird,
574
00:28:29,226 --> 00:28:30,477
but do you think--
575
00:28:30,477 --> 00:28:32,187
And you can...
you can totally tell me no
576
00:28:32,187 --> 00:28:33,856
and I won't be
offended or anything.
[chuckles]
577
00:28:33,856 --> 00:28:35,357
- Uh...
- But--
578
00:28:35,357 --> 00:28:38,485
I... I don't really think
I can date anyone right now.
579
00:28:38,485 --> 00:28:40,404
Uh, this is awkward.
580
00:28:42,823 --> 00:28:44,116
I was gonna ask [chuckles]
581
00:28:44,116 --> 00:28:47,494
if you think Daisy would
wanna go out with me
582
00:28:47,494 --> 00:28:48,787
or if that's crazy?
583
00:28:48,787 --> 00:28:50,581
But I mean,
you're great, too, Aza.
584
00:28:50,581 --> 00:28:52,332
- You know--
- Yes, yes, that's...
that's a good idea.
585
00:28:52,332 --> 00:28:54,668
I mean, you should talk to her,
not me,
586
00:28:54,668 --> 00:28:56,462
but by all means, go for it.
587
00:28:56,462 --> 00:28:58,422
[both chuckle]
588
00:28:58,422 --> 00:29:00,757
This is embarrassing.
I'm embarrassed right now.
589
00:29:00,757 --> 00:29:02,759
No, no, no. I mean,
you're beautiful, too, Aza.
590
00:29:02,759 --> 00:29:04,136
It's just, you know,
I've known her since--
591
00:29:04,136 --> 00:29:06,763
Mmm. No. It's good. We're good.
592
00:29:06,763 --> 00:29:08,515
[Daisy] I guess it makes sense.
593
00:29:08,515 --> 00:29:10,225
He's been pining over me
for months.
594
00:29:10,225 --> 00:29:11,351
Really?
595
00:29:12,644 --> 00:29:13,687
How do you know?
596
00:29:21,695 --> 00:29:23,197
Because I have eyes.
597
00:29:23,197 --> 00:29:24,198
[Aza giggles]
598
00:29:25,407 --> 00:29:28,160
So, what are you gonna say?
599
00:29:28,869 --> 00:29:30,078
I'm down.
600
00:29:30,078 --> 00:29:32,623
Figure one date can't hurt.
601
00:29:32,623 --> 00:29:34,750
And now, me and Mychal
can go out with you and Davis.
602
00:29:34,750 --> 00:29:36,960
We'll all wind up
back at the castle,
603
00:29:36,960 --> 00:29:39,922
I'll sneak off and snoop around
while you and Davis...
604
00:29:41,215 --> 00:29:43,842
Boom-diddy-boom-boom.
605
00:29:43,842 --> 00:29:45,010
Hey.
606
00:29:45,010 --> 00:29:46,094
What is...
607
00:29:46,762 --> 00:29:47,971
It's porn music.
608
00:29:49,097 --> 00:29:50,807
Okay.
609
00:29:50,807 --> 00:29:55,479
Even if I agree
to go along with this,
Davis didn't ask me out.
610
00:29:55,479 --> 00:29:58,774
Aza, you don't have
to wait for a boy
to ask you out.
611
00:29:58,774 --> 00:30:00,651
What are you, a handmaiden?
612
00:30:00,651 --> 00:30:02,611
Just text him. Tell him that
some friends
are getting together
613
00:30:02,611 --> 00:30:04,488
for burgers this weekend.
614
00:30:04,488 --> 00:30:07,199
Trust me,
he's going to say yes.
615
00:30:07,199 --> 00:30:09,701
- We're texting him now.
- [sighs]
616
00:30:11,495 --> 00:30:12,579
[typing]
617
00:30:12,579 --> 00:30:13,622
7:00?
618
00:30:13,622 --> 00:30:16,083
- 7:00 work?
- Yeah, sure.
619
00:30:16,083 --> 00:30:17,668
P.M.? Or do you think
he knows that it's--
620
00:30:17,668 --> 00:30:19,419
I mean,
it's not like breakfast.
621
00:30:19,419 --> 00:30:20,921
[typing]
622
00:30:20,921 --> 00:30:22,089
Okay.
623
00:30:24,383 --> 00:30:25,926
Breezy, very breezy.
624
00:30:25,926 --> 00:30:26,885
[message whooshes]
625
00:30:31,348 --> 00:30:32,641
[cell phone dinging, vibrating]
626
00:30:42,025 --> 00:30:44,361
- Did he answer really fast?
- Yeah.
627
00:30:44,361 --> 00:30:47,489
- What do we wear?
- Evening gowns. Duh.
628
00:30:47,489 --> 00:30:49,783
[funky instrumental music
playing]
629
00:30:49,783 --> 00:30:50,742
[sighs]
630
00:30:57,499 --> 00:30:59,376
Hey, have you ever gotten
a dick pic?
631
00:31:02,629 --> 00:31:03,547
Uh...
632
00:31:04,590 --> 00:31:08,385
I mean, I've seen one.
633
00:31:08,385 --> 00:31:10,345
Of course you've seen one.
634
00:31:10,345 --> 00:31:15,475
I'm asking
if you've ever received
a dick pic totally unsolicited.
635
00:31:15,475 --> 00:31:17,853
- Like, as a form
of introduction.
- Oh.
636
00:31:17,853 --> 00:31:23,609
Like, "Hey, nice to meet you.
I'm a penis."
637
00:31:23,609 --> 00:31:24,818
Uh-huh.
638
00:31:24,818 --> 00:31:27,863
Yeah, no. I haven't.
639
00:31:27,863 --> 00:31:28,822
[Daisy sighs]
640
00:31:30,741 --> 00:31:33,619
A fan literally sent me one.
641
00:31:35,912 --> 00:31:38,540
It's just like,
what is the thought process?
You know?
642
00:31:38,540 --> 00:31:40,542
"I really enjoyed
this story you wrote
643
00:31:40,542 --> 00:31:43,003
about Rey and Chewbacca's
romantic adventure
644
00:31:43,003 --> 00:31:44,504
- scavenging
a Tul'kar's spaceship."
- [sighs]
645
00:31:44,504 --> 00:31:46,340
"So, as a thank you
to the author,
646
00:31:46,340 --> 00:31:48,800
here's a photograph
of my disembodied,
flaccid penis."
647
00:31:48,800 --> 00:31:49,885
- [door opens]
- [gasps]
648
00:31:49,885 --> 00:31:51,511
- [music stops]
- Hi, guys.
649
00:31:52,054 --> 00:31:53,055
Hey.
650
00:31:53,055 --> 00:31:54,931
What are you lookin' at?
651
00:31:54,931 --> 00:31:56,767
- Social media.
- We're just... Social media.
652
00:31:56,767 --> 00:31:59,144
- Social media platforms.
- Social media. Social media.
653
00:32:04,232 --> 00:32:06,860
Did they change
the dress code at Applebee's?
654
00:32:06,860 --> 00:32:08,153
[Aza] Hilarious.
655
00:32:08,153 --> 00:32:10,697
- We're going on a double date.
- Daisy.
656
00:32:10,697 --> 00:32:12,699
What? It's not a secret.
657
00:32:13,492 --> 00:32:15,035
Shit, was it a secret?
658
00:32:15,035 --> 00:32:16,370
With who?
659
00:32:17,496 --> 00:32:20,791
- Mychal and Davis.
- Davis Pickett?
660
00:32:20,791 --> 00:32:23,210
Yep. Okay, bye, Mom.
661
00:32:23,210 --> 00:32:25,212
Okay, okay.
662
00:32:25,212 --> 00:32:27,464
You look beautiful.
I love the lipstick.
663
00:32:28,840 --> 00:32:30,008
- [door closes]
- Ooh.
664
00:32:31,802 --> 00:32:33,845
Lose the lipstick.
665
00:32:33,845 --> 00:32:35,889
- [door opens]
- [whimsical song playing
on speakers]
666
00:32:35,889 --> 00:32:37,265
- [Daisy] Hi, guys.
- Hey, what's goin' on?
667
00:32:37,265 --> 00:32:38,433
- Hey.
- [Daisy] Hey.
668
00:32:38,433 --> 00:32:39,810
- Hi.
- [Mychal] How are you?
669
00:32:40,519 --> 00:32:41,770
Hi.
670
00:32:41,770 --> 00:32:43,563
Ooh. Not yet. [giggles]
671
00:32:43,563 --> 00:32:46,316
- You guys come here a lot?
- [Mychal] Bro,
they're regulars.
672
00:32:46,316 --> 00:32:48,902
Where else can you get
a shrimp wonton,
a chicken parm,
673
00:32:48,902 --> 00:32:50,862
and a quesadilla
in one fell swoop?
674
00:32:50,862 --> 00:32:53,407
[all laughing]
675
00:32:53,407 --> 00:32:55,117
Can we get a round
of Dr Peppers, please?
676
00:32:55,117 --> 00:32:57,661
Oh, Davis, Davis, Davis,
soft drinks aren't covered
677
00:32:57,661 --> 00:32:59,413
- by the coupon.
- I think we can splurge.
678
00:33:00,706 --> 00:33:02,457
That's your favorite, right?
679
00:33:02,457 --> 00:33:03,750
Do you remember that?
680
00:33:05,168 --> 00:33:06,378
[chuckles]
681
00:33:10,465 --> 00:33:12,926
So, uh, Mychal just submitted
one of his portraits
682
00:33:12,926 --> 00:33:16,012
to be in this big
pop-up art show they're doing
in these abandoned tunnels.
683
00:33:16,012 --> 00:33:17,597
Well, that's awesome.
684
00:33:17,597 --> 00:33:18,807
Yeah, I... I don't think
I'm gonna get selected, though.
685
00:33:18,807 --> 00:33:20,517
[Daisy] You definitely will.
686
00:33:20,517 --> 00:33:22,728
- [fading] You're so talented...
- [static crackling]
687
00:33:22,728 --> 00:33:24,896
[Aza] You're sweating,
and everyone can tell
you're sweating.
688
00:33:24,896 --> 00:33:29,109
They probably think
you're just a sweaty freak.
689
00:33:29,109 --> 00:33:31,528
Aza, what's it like
to be friends
with a literary icon?
690
00:33:31,528 --> 00:33:35,866
Aw, I don't think
80,000 readers
makes me an icon. [laughs]
691
00:33:35,866 --> 00:33:40,746
Besides, Aza has
never read my fanfic.
She's not a Star Wars girl.
692
00:33:40,746 --> 00:33:42,289
[static crackling]
693
00:33:42,289 --> 00:33:44,458
[Aza] Did you even
change the Band-Aid today?
694
00:33:44,458 --> 00:33:46,168
Yes, I did.
695
00:33:46,168 --> 00:33:47,252
Are you sure?
696
00:33:51,298 --> 00:33:52,257
Right, Holmsey?
697
00:33:53,300 --> 00:33:55,635
[Aza] Say something. Anything.
698
00:33:55,635 --> 00:33:57,345
- Right. [chuckles]
- Yeah.
699
00:33:57,345 --> 00:33:58,847
[Mychal] Plus y'all both got
other similar interests, right?
700
00:33:58,847 --> 00:34:00,515
- [fading] Like...
- Yeah.
701
00:34:00,515 --> 00:34:02,142
[Aza] There's no reason not
to change the Band-Aid.
702
00:34:02,142 --> 00:34:04,144
Just go change it
and be done with it.
703
00:34:04,144 --> 00:34:06,188
[Daisy] We also
really like Applebee's.
704
00:34:06,188 --> 00:34:07,397
Be right back.
705
00:34:13,403 --> 00:34:15,489
[sighs] Anyway.
706
00:34:15,489 --> 00:34:17,574
[tense music playing]
707
00:34:17,574 --> 00:34:19,743
[Aza breathing heavily]
708
00:34:23,288 --> 00:34:24,206
[static crackles]
709
00:34:24,206 --> 00:34:26,708
It's infected. You're infected.
710
00:34:26,708 --> 00:34:29,377
Bacteria are multiplying
inside of you right now.
711
00:34:29,377 --> 00:34:31,963
Do something.
Do something. Do something.
712
00:34:37,010 --> 00:34:38,678
- [door opens]
- [tense music stops]
713
00:34:38,678 --> 00:34:42,307
Hey, I'm just checking on you.
714
00:34:42,307 --> 00:34:43,391
[door closes]
715
00:34:43,391 --> 00:34:45,602
Does this look infected to you?
716
00:34:49,606 --> 00:34:53,944
It looks exactly the same
as every other time
you've shown it to me.
717
00:34:56,947 --> 00:35:00,367
- He must think
I'm really crazy.
- No, he doesn't.
718
00:35:00,367 --> 00:35:02,994
Aza, I swear to God,
he's so smitten,
719
00:35:02,994 --> 00:35:05,539
you could literally
start peeing out of your ears
720
00:35:05,539 --> 00:35:07,082
and he would still be into you.
721
00:35:10,752 --> 00:35:14,631
Look, he invited us all over
to hang out, but if that's
too much for you...
722
00:35:14,631 --> 00:35:17,175
No. Let's go.
723
00:35:18,176 --> 00:35:20,637
Okay. Good.
724
00:35:20,637 --> 00:35:23,431
'Cause I'm gonna Nancy Drew
the shit outta that mansion.
725
00:35:23,431 --> 00:35:24,891
[both chuckle]
726
00:35:24,891 --> 00:35:27,102
[upbeat pop music playing]
727
00:35:29,771 --> 00:35:35,110
- Okay. [chuckles] Welcome.
- Yo, what?
728
00:35:35,110 --> 00:35:39,865
Oh, my God! Yo, bro,
is that a Keith Haring?
729
00:35:39,865 --> 00:35:42,909
[echoing] Then you got Picasso,
and then you got Basquiat!
730
00:35:42,909 --> 00:35:44,703
Nah. Wait...
731
00:35:44,703 --> 00:35:45,954
- Did I just echo?
- [Davis chuckles]
732
00:35:45,954 --> 00:35:47,414
[Mychal laughing]
733
00:35:47,414 --> 00:35:50,750
Bro, that's crazy. Wait,
hold on, hold on. Basquiat.
734
00:35:50,750 --> 00:35:52,002
- Basquiat.
- [Davis chuckles]
735
00:35:52,002 --> 00:35:53,962
Hey, yo, Basquiat.
Oh, that's tough.
736
00:35:53,962 --> 00:35:56,256
- Okay. Mychal, breathe.
- Ba-- Sorry.
737
00:35:56,256 --> 00:35:58,258
- [exhales]
- Can we show ourselves around?
738
00:35:58,258 --> 00:35:59,342
Daisy!
739
00:36:00,719 --> 00:36:03,221
No, I mean... I... [chuckles]
740
00:36:03,221 --> 00:36:07,434
Let's be honest,
we're all dying to get some
alone time anyway, right?
741
00:36:07,434 --> 00:36:08,977
[Davis chuckles]
742
00:36:08,977 --> 00:36:11,354
- Yeah, sure. Do whatever.
- [Mychal] Wait, like, for real?
743
00:36:11,354 --> 00:36:12,939
- Like, we could--
- He said do whatever.
744
00:36:12,939 --> 00:36:14,566
[laughs] Bet.
745
00:36:16,151 --> 00:36:17,027
[Aza chuckles]
746
00:36:19,279 --> 00:36:20,655
And what's this one?
747
00:36:27,537 --> 00:36:30,123
It's a Raymond Pettibon.
748
00:36:30,123 --> 00:36:31,833
He's most famous
for his paintings of surfers,
749
00:36:31,833 --> 00:36:33,418
but I like his spirals.
750
00:36:34,628 --> 00:36:36,838
He was a musician
before he was an artist.
751
00:36:36,838 --> 00:36:39,424
He was in Black Flag
before it was even Black Flag.
752
00:36:41,301 --> 00:36:42,636
I love it.
753
00:36:44,971 --> 00:36:46,723
[warm sentimental music
playing]
754
00:36:46,723 --> 00:36:49,142
[Davis] You don't talk much,
do you?
755
00:36:49,142 --> 00:36:53,855
[Aza] I can get a little stuck
in my head.
756
00:36:53,855 --> 00:36:55,357
[Davis] Just say
what you're thinking.
757
00:36:55,357 --> 00:36:56,775
[Aza chuckles]
758
00:36:56,775 --> 00:37:00,654
That's not something
I normally do.
759
00:37:00,654 --> 00:37:02,906
- Do you really want to know?
- I do.
760
00:37:08,286 --> 00:37:14,584
I was thinking that, deep down,
I'm just an organism
761
00:37:14,584 --> 00:37:17,420
in this vastness.
762
00:37:18,797 --> 00:37:21,967
It kind of terrifies me
that what I think of
763
00:37:21,967 --> 00:37:27,889
as, like,
my quote unquote "self"
isn't really under my control.
764
00:37:29,182 --> 00:37:30,141
What do you mean?
765
00:37:31,935 --> 00:37:32,978
There's this parasite.
766
00:37:34,270 --> 00:37:36,648
It only grows
in the eyes of fish,
767
00:37:36,648 --> 00:37:41,778
but the only way
it can reproduce, is inside
the stomach of a bird.
768
00:37:41,778 --> 00:37:43,822
Once the parasite
is ready to mate,
769
00:37:43,822 --> 00:37:47,534
the infected fish suddenly
starts swimming
to the surface of the water.
770
00:37:47,534 --> 00:37:51,121
The fish are literally trying
to get themselves
eaten by a bird.
771
00:37:52,497 --> 00:37:54,791
Eventually, they succeed.
772
00:37:56,876 --> 00:37:59,546
The parasite
was in charge all along.
773
00:38:03,299 --> 00:38:05,510
Sometimes I feel like a fish.
774
00:38:08,138 --> 00:38:09,848
Not in control of my body.
775
00:38:11,474 --> 00:38:13,018
Not in control of my thoughts.
776
00:38:15,437 --> 00:38:17,022
I like the way
your brain works.
777
00:38:18,898 --> 00:38:19,899
It hums.
778
00:38:21,568 --> 00:38:22,944
Where'd you learn that?
779
00:38:24,821 --> 00:38:28,616
This philosophy professor,
Lucia Abbott.
780
00:38:28,616 --> 00:38:31,036
I've watched her TED talk,
like, a dozen times.
781
00:38:32,704 --> 00:38:34,456
She teaches at Northwestern.
782
00:38:36,207 --> 00:38:40,962
I have this stupid dream
of going there
and taking her class.
783
00:38:40,962 --> 00:38:42,505
Why is that a stupid dream?
784
00:38:44,841 --> 00:38:49,304
[chuckling] I mean,
it's insanely expensive.
785
00:38:49,304 --> 00:38:52,474
And then there's the whole
living in Chicago part,
786
00:38:52,474 --> 00:38:55,894
which... would be new for me.
787
00:38:57,353 --> 00:38:59,939
New things aren't exactly
my strong suit.
788
00:38:59,939 --> 00:39:03,109
Well, I'm sort of a new thing,
789
00:39:05,695 --> 00:39:07,072
and you're doin' fine with me.
790
00:39:08,448 --> 00:39:09,657
You're old-new.
791
00:39:11,534 --> 00:39:12,869
It's different.
792
00:39:14,370 --> 00:39:15,330
"Old-new."
793
00:39:17,540 --> 00:39:18,583
I like that.
794
00:39:22,087 --> 00:39:26,299
[Aza] If you kiss him,
you'll get his bacteria
in your mouth.
795
00:39:26,299 --> 00:39:28,426
His bacteria
will make you sick.
796
00:39:29,803 --> 00:39:31,387
What are you thinking?
797
00:39:35,266 --> 00:39:36,601
You really wanna know?
798
00:39:37,727 --> 00:39:38,853
I do. [laughs]
799
00:39:40,897 --> 00:39:41,856
Okay.
800
00:39:42,816 --> 00:39:43,817
I was thinking...
801
00:39:45,693 --> 00:39:47,570
"I hope
she's not after the reward."
802
00:39:51,574 --> 00:39:52,909
Davis, I'm not.
803
00:39:52,909 --> 00:39:54,327
[music fades]
804
00:39:54,327 --> 00:39:56,371
- I swear.
- Aza.
805
00:39:56,371 --> 00:39:59,499
I know why you guys
were in the woods
the other day.
806
00:39:59,499 --> 00:40:01,334
You were looking
for the camera, right?
807
00:40:03,086 --> 00:40:05,338
I checked it, too.
808
00:40:05,338 --> 00:40:07,966
Got a photo of him leaving
with a duffel bag.
809
00:40:10,468 --> 00:40:13,930
I never actually
cared about the reward.
810
00:40:15,473 --> 00:40:16,975
Daisy and I were just--
811
00:40:16,975 --> 00:40:17,934
I just realized...
812
00:40:19,936 --> 00:40:21,980
this is an entirely
solvable problem.
813
00:40:22,981 --> 00:40:25,066
[funky music playing]
814
00:40:27,110 --> 00:40:29,028
[plastic rustling]
815
00:40:30,488 --> 00:40:31,614
What are you doing?
816
00:40:32,449 --> 00:40:34,534
[Davis] One second.
817
00:40:34,534 --> 00:40:36,744
- Are you into lizards?
- Hmm?
818
00:40:37,579 --> 00:40:38,913
Oh, no, my dad is.
819
00:40:38,913 --> 00:40:43,042
Although, that is not a lizard.
That's a tuatara.
820
00:40:43,960 --> 00:40:45,420
What is that?
821
00:40:45,420 --> 00:40:49,340
I don't know, some leftover
from 200 million years ago
822
00:40:49,340 --> 00:40:51,759
that my dad believes
holds the secret to longevity.
823
00:40:52,969 --> 00:40:54,304
You can learn all about it
824
00:40:54,304 --> 00:40:56,222
at the Pickett Center
for Tuatara Research,
825
00:40:56,222 --> 00:40:58,850
which is a real thing
that he's leaving
most of his estate to.
826
00:40:58,850 --> 00:41:01,436
- That is insane.
- Do you know what's worse?
827
00:41:01,436 --> 00:41:03,938
The money doesn't even go
to taking care
of the damn thing.
828
00:41:03,938 --> 00:41:07,358
It pays for studying its cells
with all sorts
of horrible experiments.
829
00:41:07,358 --> 00:41:10,028
- [footsteps retreating]
- [drawer opens]
830
00:41:10,028 --> 00:41:10,987
[box rattles]
831
00:41:12,822 --> 00:41:16,284
This is for you.
832
00:41:17,744 --> 00:41:18,578
Oh.
833
00:41:20,663 --> 00:41:21,956
Thank you.
834
00:41:21,956 --> 00:41:23,875
Promise me you won't open it
till you get home.
835
00:41:23,875 --> 00:41:28,087
And if you still wanna see me,
give me a call.
836
00:41:28,087 --> 00:41:32,091
Or a text,
or whatever people say
that sounds casual and smooth.
837
00:41:32,091 --> 00:41:33,218
[Aza chuckles]
838
00:41:34,636 --> 00:41:35,637
Okay.
839
00:41:36,512 --> 00:41:38,348
[mellow pop music playing]
840
00:41:38,348 --> 00:41:41,059
I should
probably go find Daisy.
841
00:41:42,185 --> 00:41:43,394
It's getting late.
842
00:41:45,605 --> 00:41:46,481
Daisy?
843
00:41:50,610 --> 00:41:51,569
[Aza sighs]
844
00:41:56,824 --> 00:41:57,825
Daisy?
845
00:41:58,952 --> 00:41:59,994
Mychal?
846
00:42:01,371 --> 00:42:02,205
[gasps]
847
00:42:03,081 --> 00:42:04,123
[Davis clears throat]
848
00:42:05,291 --> 00:42:06,793
Hey.
849
00:42:06,793 --> 00:42:08,545
Hey, we were just, um...
850
00:42:08,545 --> 00:42:09,837
[Mychal clears throat]
851
00:42:09,837 --> 00:42:10,964
- Uh, we were, we were...
- [Mychal] Um...
852
00:42:10,964 --> 00:42:12,548
...we were looking for you!
853
00:42:12,548 --> 00:42:13,841
- Mmm-hmm. Right.
- [chuckles]
854
00:42:13,841 --> 00:42:14,884
You weren't in here.
855
00:42:14,884 --> 00:42:16,219
Found us.
856
00:42:16,219 --> 00:42:17,595
[both chuckle]
857
00:42:17,595 --> 00:42:18,763
- You ready to go?
- Yeah.
858
00:42:18,763 --> 00:42:19,806
- Great.
- Let me see...
859
00:42:19,806 --> 00:42:21,975
[mellow pop music continues]
860
00:42:26,813 --> 00:42:28,690
[lock clicking]
861
00:42:39,575 --> 00:42:43,162
[Gina] Aza, you're home late.
862
00:42:43,162 --> 00:42:46,457
I know. Sorry. Traffic.
863
00:42:50,295 --> 00:42:51,963
[music intensifies]
864
00:42:58,928 --> 00:42:59,762
[gasps]
865
00:43:13,443 --> 00:43:15,194
- [knocking at door]
- [gasps]
866
00:43:15,194 --> 00:43:19,407
- I want to hear
about your date.
- [Aza] I'm changing.
867
00:43:19,407 --> 00:43:21,826
Good night. Talk to you
in the morning. I love you.
868
00:43:25,163 --> 00:43:27,081
- [gasps]
- [cell phone clicks]
869
00:43:35,590 --> 00:43:36,466
[message whooshes]
870
00:43:41,846 --> 00:43:42,805
[cell phone dings]
871
00:43:46,142 --> 00:43:47,226
{\an8}[message whooshes]
872
00:43:51,272 --> 00:43:52,148
{\an8}[cell phone dings]
873
00:43:53,983 --> 00:43:54,901
{\an8}[message whooshes]
874
00:44:02,825 --> 00:44:03,701
{\an8}[message whooshes]
875
00:44:06,954 --> 00:44:07,830
{\an8}[cell phone dings]
876
00:44:11,334 --> 00:44:12,251
{\an8}[message whooshes]
877
00:44:13,669 --> 00:44:15,213
{\an8}[exhales]
878
00:44:15,213 --> 00:44:16,923
- [cell phone clicks]
- [gasps]
879
00:44:20,510 --> 00:44:21,511
[cell phone dings]
880
00:44:31,729 --> 00:44:33,106
- [laughs]
- [music fades]
881
00:44:35,983 --> 00:44:38,736
I'm so glad you're here.
Holmsey, I have a lot to say.
882
00:44:38,736 --> 00:44:40,279
Shocker. Listen--
883
00:44:40,279 --> 00:44:42,407
First, I'm sorry
to ditch you last night.
Very uncool.
884
00:44:42,407 --> 00:44:43,825
That's totally fine. Daisy--
885
00:44:43,825 --> 00:44:45,368
Second, I know, I know, I know.
886
00:44:45,368 --> 00:44:47,036
I convinced you to come
so that we could snoop,
887
00:44:47,036 --> 00:44:48,663
and then I didn't even snoop.
888
00:44:48,663 --> 00:44:51,249
But Mychal is kind of amazing.
889
00:44:51,249 --> 00:44:53,501
- And I want
to hear all about it, but--
- Mmm, mmm.
890
00:44:53,501 --> 00:44:55,128
The first room
that we wandered into
891
00:44:55,128 --> 00:44:58,172
had a fireplace
with a remote control.
892
00:44:58,172 --> 00:45:00,716
And then the next thing I know,
we were cuddled up
on this couch
893
00:45:00,716 --> 00:45:02,760
that was also, like,
a literal work of art.
894
00:45:02,760 --> 00:45:06,472
And I don't...
One thing led to another
and I just let him, I let him--
895
00:45:06,472 --> 00:45:07,640
Daisy!
896
00:45:07,640 --> 00:45:09,642
[upbeat pop music playing
on speakers]
897
00:45:12,895 --> 00:45:14,439
Look. Look inside.
898
00:45:14,439 --> 00:45:16,691
Oh, I'm more
of a frosted blueberry
kind of girl.
899
00:45:16,691 --> 00:45:18,234
Just look inside.
900
00:45:19,402 --> 00:45:20,445
[Daisy scoffs]
901
00:45:21,863 --> 00:45:25,074
[laughs awkwardly]
902
00:45:27,243 --> 00:45:28,119
[exhales]
903
00:45:29,495 --> 00:45:31,414
What in the shit is this?
904
00:45:32,206 --> 00:45:34,000
Davis gave it to me.
905
00:45:34,000 --> 00:45:36,961
I'm not sure
if it really makes sense,
or if it's ethical. I don't--
906
00:45:36,961 --> 00:45:38,629
Oh, no, no, no.
907
00:45:38,629 --> 00:45:43,759
For once in your life,
Aza, do not overthink this.
908
00:45:43,759 --> 00:45:45,178
Oh.
909
00:45:45,178 --> 00:45:47,555
Should I have not come here
to tell you you're rich?
910
00:45:47,555 --> 00:45:49,849
It's okay, I can just
hold on to your half.
911
00:45:49,849 --> 00:45:50,850
Wait!
912
00:45:52,143 --> 00:45:54,353
Half of this is mine?
913
00:45:54,353 --> 00:45:56,814
There's 50 grand
for each of us.
914
00:45:58,357 --> 00:46:01,194
- [music stops]
- [Daisy squealing, laughing]
915
00:46:02,862 --> 00:46:04,864
- Oh! Ooh!
- [chuckles nervously]
916
00:46:04,864 --> 00:46:07,575
Do you actually think
we can keep it?
917
00:46:07,575 --> 00:46:09,994
Hell yes, we can keep it!
918
00:46:09,994 --> 00:46:12,914
Holmsey, I am so done
with the idea
919
00:46:12,914 --> 00:46:16,959
that there is, like, nobility
in turning down money.
920
00:46:16,959 --> 00:46:19,045
This is gonna change our lives.
921
00:46:19,045 --> 00:46:22,215
I'm actually gonna go
to college. Not at night.
922
00:46:22,215 --> 00:46:24,258
Well, it's not enough to pay
for all of college.
923
00:46:24,258 --> 00:46:26,802
[sighs] Yeah, I know that,
Queen Buzzkill.
924
00:46:26,802 --> 00:46:30,223
But it'll make paying
for college
a hell of a lot easier.
925
00:46:30,223 --> 00:46:33,351
Aza, you can put this
towards Northwestern.
926
00:46:35,728 --> 00:46:37,396
My mom can't know
about this money.
927
00:46:37,396 --> 00:46:39,774
Duh, my parents
would make me split it
with my sister.
928
00:46:39,774 --> 00:46:43,361
No. No. No!
929
00:46:43,361 --> 00:46:49,075
Now, I need you to just accept
that the universe
930
00:46:49,075 --> 00:46:51,827
is being awesome
with us right now
931
00:46:53,079 --> 00:46:54,580
and lean the eff in.
932
00:46:58,334 --> 00:46:59,835
- I'll try.
- Ooh.
933
00:46:59,835 --> 00:47:03,756
Let's go get the finest meal
Indianapolis has to offer.
934
00:47:04,966 --> 00:47:06,842
{\an8}[upbeat country music plays]
935
00:47:06,842 --> 00:47:08,928
{\an8}[Daisy] Hi, Holly.
936
00:47:08,928 --> 00:47:11,264
Two red wines, please.
We're celebrating.
937
00:47:11,264 --> 00:47:13,474
- [Holly] Yeah, nice try.
- [clicks tongue] Okay.
938
00:47:13,474 --> 00:47:17,019
Uh, fine,
what is your best steak?
939
00:47:17,019 --> 00:47:20,731
The shrimp and parm sirloin
is our most popular.
940
00:47:20,731 --> 00:47:22,275
Woof. Okay.
941
00:47:22,275 --> 00:47:25,611
Uh, I will get
my usual blazin' Texan burger,
942
00:47:25,611 --> 00:47:28,281
but I would like to upgrade
my side to onion rings.
943
00:47:28,281 --> 00:47:30,408
And, yes,
I know that it's extra.
944
00:47:30,408 --> 00:47:33,077
- [Holly] And you?
- A veggie burger.
945
00:47:33,077 --> 00:47:36,163
Uh, no tomatoes,
cheese, mayonnaise, onions--
946
00:47:36,163 --> 00:47:37,623
Yeah, I know your order.
947
00:47:39,333 --> 00:47:42,253
- Do you have a coupon?
- [laughing] No.
948
00:47:42,253 --> 00:47:45,339
Not today, Holly. Not today.
949
00:47:46,257 --> 00:47:47,675
[curious music playing]
950
00:47:49,427 --> 00:47:50,720
[typing]
951
00:48:01,188 --> 00:48:02,148
[music fades]
952
00:48:02,148 --> 00:48:03,149
Um...
953
00:48:04,025 --> 00:48:05,359
What is that?
954
00:48:05,359 --> 00:48:07,361
Oh. [chuckles]
Isn't he fabulous?
955
00:48:08,237 --> 00:48:09,614
I'm naming him Liam.
956
00:48:11,240 --> 00:48:13,618
I thought we were saving
the money for college.
957
00:48:14,452 --> 00:48:16,746
We are. Most of it.
958
00:48:16,746 --> 00:48:20,583
But I talked
the car salesman down
to $8,400 from $10,000,
959
00:48:20,583 --> 00:48:21,959
so in a way, I made money.
960
00:48:21,959 --> 00:48:24,920
In no way
did you make any money.
961
00:48:24,920 --> 00:48:26,839
But you already had a car.
962
00:48:26,839 --> 00:48:29,383
- I'm just saying.
- Okay.
963
00:48:32,470 --> 00:48:36,891
Oh. Mychal
got into that art show.
It's in a couple weeks.
964
00:48:36,891 --> 00:48:39,310
I know that dirty tunnels
might be a lot for you,
965
00:48:39,310 --> 00:48:42,438
but is there any way
that you could come with me?
966
00:48:43,522 --> 00:48:46,108
Um... Maybe.
967
00:48:47,068 --> 00:48:48,069
[cell phone dings]
968
00:48:53,240 --> 00:48:54,575
Aw.
969
00:48:54,575 --> 00:48:57,286
Mychal wants to meet up
before homeroom.
970
00:48:57,286 --> 00:48:59,413
Ugh! I love how into me he is.
971
00:48:59,413 --> 00:49:01,874
["Sunflower Vol. 6" playing]
972
00:49:03,084 --> 00:49:04,043
{\an8}- [typing]
- [message whooshes]
973
00:49:06,629 --> 00:49:07,546
[message whooshes]
974
00:49:12,009 --> 00:49:14,637
Now, how I'mma capture
the curve of your face
if you keep moving?
975
00:49:14,637 --> 00:49:15,638
Girl, hold still.
976
00:49:15,638 --> 00:49:16,972
You hold still.
977
00:49:16,972 --> 00:49:18,974
[Mychal] That doesn't
even make any sense.
978
00:49:22,186 --> 00:49:23,270
[Daisy] Holding still.
979
00:49:26,232 --> 00:49:29,068
{\an8}♪ Wondering, headshake ♪
980
00:49:29,068 --> 00:49:32,154
{\an8}♪ Tired eyes
Are the death of me... ♪
981
00:49:32,154 --> 00:49:35,032
{\an8}♪ Mouthful of toothpaste ♪
982
00:49:35,032 --> 00:49:37,910
{\an8}♪ Before I got to know you ♪
983
00:49:37,910 --> 00:49:41,122
{\an8}♪ I've got your face ♪
984
00:49:41,122 --> 00:49:43,916
{\an8}♪ Hung up high
In the gallery... ♪
985
00:49:43,916 --> 00:49:45,376
{\an8}[music soars]
986
00:49:49,338 --> 00:49:50,923
[singer hoots]
987
00:49:53,384 --> 00:49:54,301
[cell phone dings]
988
00:49:58,264 --> 00:49:59,098
[song stops]
989
00:49:59,098 --> 00:50:00,141
- [whistle blows]
- [gasps]
990
00:50:00,141 --> 00:50:01,308
Ow!
991
00:50:01,308 --> 00:50:04,437
Aza, can you at least
pretend to play?
992
00:50:04,437 --> 00:50:05,938
Sorry, Mr. Adler.
993
00:50:05,938 --> 00:50:07,648
[Adler] All right, everybody,
let's get back at it.
994
00:50:07,648 --> 00:50:10,484
♪ My eyes want you more
Than a melody... ♪
995
00:50:10,484 --> 00:50:11,569
Mom.
996
00:50:12,528 --> 00:50:15,322
♪ Let me inside ♪
997
00:50:15,322 --> 00:50:18,409
♪ Wish I could
Get to know you ♪
998
00:50:19,326 --> 00:50:20,327
Mom?
999
00:50:23,622 --> 00:50:25,499
- [Gina] Stop it.
- [man laughs]
1000
00:50:25,499 --> 00:50:28,335
[Gina and man
speak indistinctly]
1001
00:50:28,335 --> 00:50:30,671
- [Gina] You're terrible!
- [Aza] Hi.
1002
00:50:32,047 --> 00:50:33,048
Hey, honey.
1003
00:50:34,717 --> 00:50:37,470
This is Evan,
my friend Debbie's brother.
1004
00:50:38,387 --> 00:50:39,889
Um, you must be Aza.
1005
00:50:39,889 --> 00:50:42,349
I've heard such great things
about you.
1006
00:50:42,349 --> 00:50:44,351
Evan is a contractor.
1007
00:50:44,351 --> 00:50:47,188
He came by after work
to see if we could turn
the garage into a bedroom.
1008
00:50:47,188 --> 00:50:50,858
Why do we need a new bedroom?
We never have any guests.
1009
00:50:50,858 --> 00:50:54,028
Actually, I was thinking
maybe you'd like it.
1010
00:50:54,028 --> 00:50:58,324
- For the future.
- Like, when I'm in college?
1011
00:51:00,576 --> 00:51:02,328
I'll get out of you guys' way.
1012
00:51:02,328 --> 00:51:03,454
[chuckles]
1013
00:51:03,454 --> 00:51:05,289
It's nice
to finally meet you, Aza.
1014
00:51:06,415 --> 00:51:08,000
- I'll see you later.
- Thank you.
1015
00:51:10,503 --> 00:51:11,504
Bye.
1016
00:51:15,382 --> 00:51:17,968
- You want me
to live in the garage?
- No.
1017
00:51:17,968 --> 00:51:20,346
I mean, yes,
but it wouldn't be a garage.
1018
00:51:20,346 --> 00:51:23,015
We'd make it into more
of your own apartment.
1019
00:51:23,724 --> 00:51:24,600
[scoffs]
1020
00:51:26,185 --> 00:51:28,604
So, you think I'm too crazy
to live away from home?
1021
00:51:29,730 --> 00:51:31,607
Aza, it was just an idea.
1022
00:51:31,607 --> 00:51:33,442
I was trying
to get a sense of the costs.
1023
00:51:33,442 --> 00:51:36,487
And IU is close by
and it's such a good school--
1024
00:51:36,487 --> 00:51:37,696
Got it.
1025
00:51:39,490 --> 00:51:42,409
I'm going over
to Davis' tonight.
He's picking me up.
1026
00:51:44,286 --> 00:51:45,204
[sighs]
1027
00:51:45,204 --> 00:51:46,956
[mellow piano music playing]
1028
00:51:50,292 --> 00:51:54,380
[Aza] I feel like
we're back at camp,
sitting at the lake.
1029
00:52:01,929 --> 00:52:03,472
You see that bright star
up there?
1030
00:52:04,807 --> 00:52:06,350
The one kind of by itself.
1031
00:52:07,601 --> 00:52:09,478
Yeah, I think so.
1032
00:52:12,064 --> 00:52:13,482
Well, that's Tau Ceti.
1033
00:52:14,817 --> 00:52:16,235
It's 12 light-years away,
1034
00:52:16,235 --> 00:52:18,821
and two of its planets
might actually be habitable.
1035
00:52:18,821 --> 00:52:21,365
- Well, probably not, but maybe.
- [chuckles]
1036
00:52:23,158 --> 00:52:24,451
It's my favorite star.
1037
00:52:26,370 --> 00:52:27,621
Why is that?
1038
00:52:30,040 --> 00:52:31,625
I like to look at it
1039
00:52:31,625 --> 00:52:32,877
and think about how
the Sun's light looks
to someone
1040
00:52:32,877 --> 00:52:35,087
in Tau Ceti's solar system.
1041
00:52:35,087 --> 00:52:38,173
And right now, they're looking
at our light from 12 years ago.
1042
00:52:40,676 --> 00:52:44,847
In the light they see,
my mom has five years to live.
1043
00:52:47,266 --> 00:52:49,476
In the light they see,
you and I are just kids.
1044
00:52:54,023 --> 00:52:55,941
In the light they see,
1045
00:52:57,943 --> 00:53:01,572
my dad just got me
my first tricycle.
1046
00:53:01,572 --> 00:53:06,452
We go to the park,
he watches me ride,
1047
00:53:06,452 --> 00:53:09,997
and he tells me
I'm going so fast,
he can barely see me.
1048
00:53:16,587 --> 00:53:17,588
In the light they see,
1049
00:53:20,382 --> 00:53:22,885
we have the best
and worst of it
in front of us.
1050
00:53:26,889 --> 00:53:29,600
Hey, how come
it's so easy for me
to talk to you?
1051
00:53:32,144 --> 00:53:33,395
I don't know.
1052
00:53:36,398 --> 00:53:40,694
Maybe because
our hearts are broken
in the same places.
1053
00:53:46,241 --> 00:53:47,409
[chuckles]
1054
00:53:53,457 --> 00:53:55,626
You wanna go for a swim?
1055
00:53:55,626 --> 00:53:57,419
[mellow romantic music playing]
1056
00:53:57,419 --> 00:53:59,088
[both chuckle]
1057
00:54:06,053 --> 00:54:08,722
- Turn around.
- [chuckles] Okay.
1058
00:54:30,202 --> 00:54:31,704
Okay, you can look now.
1059
00:54:37,918 --> 00:54:38,961
[laughs softly]
1060
00:54:49,221 --> 00:54:50,222
Hi.
1061
00:54:52,266 --> 00:54:54,059
Hi.
1062
00:54:54,059 --> 00:54:56,729
Do you have any big exams
or anything Wednesday?
1063
00:54:58,814 --> 00:54:59,815
No.
1064
00:55:00,941 --> 00:55:02,568
Why?
1065
00:55:02,568 --> 00:55:05,571
I was kind of hoping
I could convince you
to skip school.
1066
00:55:07,156 --> 00:55:08,323
I wanna take you somewhere.
1067
00:55:09,408 --> 00:55:10,409
Where?
1068
00:55:12,828 --> 00:55:14,079
It's a surprise.
1069
00:55:14,079 --> 00:55:15,372
[inhales]
1070
00:55:15,956 --> 00:55:17,082
[laughs]
1071
00:55:17,082 --> 00:55:18,667
[music turns funky]
1072
00:55:20,586 --> 00:55:21,879
[cell phone vibrates]
1073
00:55:32,014 --> 00:55:32,890
{\an8}[message whooshes]
1074
00:55:44,359 --> 00:55:46,528
[typing]
1075
00:55:48,530 --> 00:55:49,990
[Davis typing]
1076
00:56:20,896 --> 00:56:22,439
{\an8}[Aza laughing]
1077
00:56:49,508 --> 00:56:50,425
[cell phone clicks]
1078
00:56:51,635 --> 00:56:54,429
[Aza] He's cute and smart.
1079
00:56:54,429 --> 00:56:57,516
And not just because
he goes to a fancy prep school.
1080
00:56:57,516 --> 00:56:59,351
[music fades]
1081
00:56:59,351 --> 00:57:02,938
He makes me feel like
I'm an acceptable girl
to have a crush on.
1082
00:57:02,938 --> 00:57:06,191
And you don't feel that way
about yourself?
1083
00:57:06,191 --> 00:57:10,279
I mean, I'm still crazy,
if that's what you're asking.
1084
00:57:10,279 --> 00:57:12,948
Nothing's changed
on the crazy front.
1085
00:57:12,948 --> 00:57:16,034
I would like to ask you
to frame your mental health
1086
00:57:16,034 --> 00:57:18,162
around a word
other than "crazy."
1087
00:57:18,162 --> 00:57:20,539
Um, can we try "courageous"?
1088
00:57:20,539 --> 00:57:23,917
[scoffs] God, that's
such a psychiatrist move.
1089
00:57:23,917 --> 00:57:26,920
[chuckles] Look, Aza,
plenty of people
with anxiety disorders
1090
00:57:26,920 --> 00:57:30,048
have fulfilling
romantic relationships.
1091
00:57:30,048 --> 00:57:34,094
Yeah, but how can I have
a boyfriend if I hate
the idea of kissing him?
1092
00:57:34,094 --> 00:57:38,849
Being intimate
with another person
is intimidating for everyone,
1093
00:57:38,849 --> 00:57:42,477
especially for someone
who has already lost
someone she loves.
1094
00:57:46,064 --> 00:57:46,982
[exhales]
1095
00:57:47,983 --> 00:57:49,318
What?
1096
00:57:49,318 --> 00:57:51,778
You don't have to make this
about my dad dying.
1097
00:57:53,739 --> 00:57:56,241
Not everything is about him.
1098
00:57:56,241 --> 00:58:00,245
But you being afraid
to get close to this boy,
1099
00:58:00,245 --> 00:58:02,456
I think it may be
a little bit about him.
1100
00:58:06,835 --> 00:58:08,921
He was better with me
than my mom.
1101
00:58:10,505 --> 00:58:12,507
He never made me feel broken.
1102
00:58:14,635 --> 00:58:15,844
He'd just tell me,
1103
00:58:18,889 --> 00:58:19,973
"You're right to worry.
1104
00:58:22,643 --> 00:58:24,561
Life is worrisome."
1105
00:58:24,561 --> 00:58:26,772
[melancholy piano music
playing]
1106
00:58:29,191 --> 00:58:32,736
Uh, can we go back to talking
about the cute boy
again, please?
1107
00:58:32,736 --> 00:58:34,446
[inhales sharply]
1108
00:58:36,114 --> 00:58:38,325
Aza, I have to be honest
with you.
1109
00:58:38,325 --> 00:58:40,786
I think your progress
is being slowed down
1110
00:58:40,786 --> 00:58:45,582
by your refusal
to take the medication
on a regular basis.
1111
00:58:45,582 --> 00:58:48,293
And I believe your chances
of having a relationship
1112
00:58:48,293 --> 00:58:51,922
with this cute, smart boy
will be hurt, too.
1113
00:58:53,090 --> 00:58:54,591
I just think it's messed up.
1114
00:58:56,551 --> 00:58:59,388
The idea of having
to take a pill
to become your real self.
1115
00:58:59,388 --> 00:59:02,724
And here I thought you said
you'd kill to have a mind
that lets go of things.
1116
00:59:02,724 --> 00:59:06,436
And you said my mind
is what makes me, me.
1117
00:59:08,188 --> 00:59:10,023
But it isn't my mind
on the pills.
1118
00:59:10,774 --> 00:59:11,942
[Aza scoffs]
1119
00:59:14,611 --> 00:59:16,822
It's a real catch-22, isn't it?
1120
00:59:17,990 --> 00:59:19,157
[doorbell rings]
1121
00:59:19,157 --> 00:59:20,284
[automated voice]
Someone's at the door.
1122
00:59:25,205 --> 00:59:26,081
[lock clicks open]
1123
00:59:27,499 --> 00:59:28,792
[Aza] Hey.
1124
00:59:28,792 --> 00:59:31,545
I'm, uh, here
to hang out with your brother.
1125
00:59:31,545 --> 00:59:33,005
Oh, yeah, I know.
1126
00:59:33,005 --> 00:59:34,840
He's been trying on
different outfits all morning.
1127
00:59:34,840 --> 00:59:37,342
Hey, Davis.
Your girlfriend's here.
1128
00:59:37,342 --> 00:59:40,095
- Oh, I'm...
I'm not his girlfriend.
- Sure.
1129
00:59:41,763 --> 00:59:43,223
Hey, can I show you something?
1130
00:59:43,223 --> 00:59:44,933
[mellow curious music playing]
1131
00:59:44,933 --> 00:59:47,853
Davis said you and your friend
were trying to find my dad.
1132
00:59:47,853 --> 00:59:50,564
Oh, uh, no. Not really.
1133
00:59:50,564 --> 00:59:53,775
- Um, I mean, I--
- Uh, just check this out.
1134
00:59:58,280 --> 01:00:01,158
- A permission slip?
- Uh, look at the back.
1135
01:00:02,868 --> 01:00:05,203
{\an8}That's his handwriting.
1136
01:00:05,203 --> 01:00:08,749
{\an8}[Aza] "Maldives,
Kosovo, Cambodia.
1137
01:00:08,749 --> 01:00:10,625
The Joggers Mouth"?
1138
01:00:10,625 --> 01:00:14,254
So, Davis says those
first three are countries
where people hide out
1139
01:00:14,254 --> 01:00:17,049
when they're wanted in America.
1140
01:00:17,049 --> 01:00:20,052
But I can't figure out
The Joggers Mouth.
1141
01:00:20,052 --> 01:00:21,803
Does it mean anything to you?
1142
01:00:23,388 --> 01:00:24,431
Uh...
1143
01:00:24,431 --> 01:00:25,515
No.
1144
01:00:26,767 --> 01:00:28,226
I'm really sorry, Noah.
1145
01:00:28,977 --> 01:00:30,562
[sighs]
1146
01:00:30,562 --> 01:00:31,563
[paper rustles]
1147
01:00:31,563 --> 01:00:33,398
Okay.
1148
01:00:33,398 --> 01:00:35,776
Hi. Sorry to keep you waiting.
1149
01:00:35,776 --> 01:00:37,444
Um, I was thinking
really hard about
1150
01:00:37,444 --> 01:00:39,488
whether I can pull this
sweater off or not. [chuckles]
1151
01:00:39,488 --> 01:00:41,031
- I like it.
- No, you can't.
1152
01:00:42,741 --> 01:00:43,784
You ready to go?
1153
01:00:48,413 --> 01:00:51,833
- You have your own airplane?
- No, my father does.
1154
01:00:51,833 --> 01:00:55,045
But my father's not here, so...
1155
01:00:55,045 --> 01:00:59,091
- And you have
a full-time pilot, too?
- You're looking at him.
1156
01:00:59,091 --> 01:01:01,134
You can get your
pilot's license at 16, so...
1157
01:01:02,636 --> 01:01:03,637
Voila.
1158
01:01:06,556 --> 01:01:07,391
Aza, I'm kidding.
1159
01:01:07,391 --> 01:01:08,767
Meet Richard.
1160
01:01:08,767 --> 01:01:09,768
- He's a trained professional.
- [both laugh]
1161
01:01:09,768 --> 01:01:10,936
[laughing] Oh.
1162
01:01:10,936 --> 01:01:12,771
- [Davis] Hi.
- [Aza] Hi.
1163
01:01:13,438 --> 01:01:14,231
[Aza exhales]
1164
01:01:14,231 --> 01:01:16,400
["Zeitgeist" playing]
1165
01:01:18,360 --> 01:01:20,112
- [Aza typing]
- [Davis] Howdy, Richard.
1166
01:01:20,112 --> 01:01:22,948
♪ Outside lies within... ♪
1167
01:01:22,948 --> 01:01:24,825
[message whooshes]
1168
01:01:24,825 --> 01:01:28,203
- You coming? Come on.
- [Aza laughs]
1169
01:01:28,203 --> 01:01:29,704
♪ Soft spring winds
Have blown... ♪
1170
01:01:29,704 --> 01:01:31,706
[laughing] Oh. What!
1171
01:01:31,706 --> 01:01:33,708
♪ Let the note fly ♪
1172
01:01:33,708 --> 01:01:35,335
♪ East-West ♪
1173
01:01:35,335 --> 01:01:37,963
[vocalizing]
1174
01:01:39,214 --> 01:01:40,465
[imperceptible]
1175
01:01:44,553 --> 01:01:48,682
♪ I never dreamed
it could be like this ♪
1176
01:01:48,682 --> 01:01:50,725
♪ Takes a little time ♪
1177
01:01:50,725 --> 01:01:52,894
♪ Let the note fly ♪
1178
01:01:54,062 --> 01:01:57,649
♪ Hard time mantle of time... ♪
1179
01:01:57,649 --> 01:01:59,234
[Richard] Lady and gentleman,
1180
01:01:59,234 --> 01:02:01,778
we will be touching down
in Chicago shortly.
1181
01:02:01,778 --> 01:02:02,988
Chicago?
1182
01:02:02,988 --> 01:02:05,824
Richard, it was supposed
to be a surprise.
1183
01:02:05,824 --> 01:02:07,784
What are we doing in Chicago?
1184
01:02:09,077 --> 01:02:11,538
- It's still a surprise.
- [laughs]
1185
01:02:11,538 --> 01:02:15,292
♪ Honey, honey, I know ♪
1186
01:02:15,292 --> 01:02:17,335
♪ For what it's worth... ♪
1187
01:02:17,335 --> 01:02:19,171
[Davis] You said you dreamed
of going to Northwestern,
1188
01:02:19,171 --> 01:02:21,506
but that new things
aren't really your strong suit.
1189
01:02:21,506 --> 01:02:25,635
So, I thought
if you saw the school,
it wouldn't be new anymore.
1190
01:02:26,428 --> 01:02:27,888
It'd be old-new.
1191
01:02:30,432 --> 01:02:32,225
Are we going on a campus tour?
1192
01:02:34,811 --> 01:02:36,563
Not exactly.
1193
01:02:36,563 --> 01:02:39,858
♪ Outside lies within ♪
1194
01:02:39,858 --> 01:02:41,943
♪ Peel the mandarin ♪
1195
01:02:41,943 --> 01:02:45,030
♪ Love has just begun ♪
1196
01:02:45,030 --> 01:02:47,824
♪ Somewhere
In space and time... ♪
1197
01:02:47,824 --> 01:02:48,867
[softly] Come on.
1198
01:02:48,867 --> 01:02:50,577
♪ Like a bank heist ♪
1199
01:02:50,577 --> 01:02:52,704
♪ It's the Zeitgeist ♪
1200
01:02:52,704 --> 01:02:54,080
[song fades]
1201
01:02:55,832 --> 01:02:57,250
[Aza chuckles]
1202
01:02:57,250 --> 01:03:00,128
I can't believe
Professor Abbott
is right there.
1203
01:03:00,128 --> 01:03:02,422
Okay.
1204
01:03:02,422 --> 01:03:05,884
We have 90 minutes.
Let's crack free will,
shall we?
1205
01:03:05,884 --> 01:03:07,802
[students laughing]
1206
01:03:07,802 --> 01:03:09,888
You, eating Doritos.
1207
01:03:10,889 --> 01:03:11,890
Why?
1208
01:03:13,141 --> 01:03:14,392
Why?
1209
01:03:14,392 --> 01:03:16,061
[Professor Abbott] Is it
because you were hungry
1210
01:03:16,061 --> 01:03:17,896
and you made that choice?
1211
01:03:17,896 --> 01:03:20,482
Is it because
advertising works?
1212
01:03:20,482 --> 01:03:22,901
[students laughing]
1213
01:03:22,901 --> 01:03:25,612
Is it because there was only
ever going to be one world,
1214
01:03:25,612 --> 01:03:27,781
and everything
was predetermined
from the start,
1215
01:03:27,781 --> 01:03:29,991
and you were always gonna
take this class?
1216
01:03:29,991 --> 01:03:32,244
Well, in our reading,
there was that part
1217
01:03:32,244 --> 01:03:34,621
where Kant said,
"Freedom of the will
must be presupposed."
1218
01:03:34,621 --> 01:03:39,167
So, I suppose I could've
chosen any food,
but I chose Doritos.
1219
01:03:39,167 --> 01:03:41,086
You did the reading.
Wonderful news.
1220
01:03:41,086 --> 01:03:43,255
[students laughing]
1221
01:03:43,255 --> 01:03:47,926
And if we just assume that Kant
was right, maybe we don't need
the full 90 minutes.
1222
01:03:47,926 --> 01:03:51,054
But Kant was writing about this
in the 18th century, right?
1223
01:03:51,054 --> 01:03:54,975
And now we have all these
fancy brain contraptions.
1224
01:03:54,975 --> 01:03:59,062
In 2008, volunteers were asked
to choose to push a button
1225
01:03:59,062 --> 01:04:02,566
with either their right hand
or their left hand.
1226
01:04:02,566 --> 01:04:07,195
And the researchers found
that they could predict
with 100% accuracy
1227
01:04:07,195 --> 01:04:09,030
which choice
the people would make
1228
01:04:09,030 --> 01:04:11,283
seven seconds
before the person believed
they'd made it.
1229
01:04:11,283 --> 01:04:13,660
[mellow music playing]
1230
01:04:13,660 --> 01:04:16,079
So, I ask you again.
1231
01:04:16,079 --> 01:04:18,790
When did you decide
to eat Doritos?
1232
01:04:18,790 --> 01:04:20,625
And who made that choice?
1233
01:04:21,668 --> 01:04:22,836
I have no idea.
1234
01:04:22,836 --> 01:04:24,796
[students laughing]
1235
01:04:24,796 --> 01:04:26,798
[Professor Abbott]
It's difficult
to define these terms.
1236
01:04:26,798 --> 01:04:28,883
- I need to take this class.
- [Professor Abbott]
What constitutes
1237
01:04:28,883 --> 01:04:31,886
freedom of choice in a world
where our choices
are endlessly limited
1238
01:04:31,886 --> 01:04:33,972
and shaped by cultural forces?
1239
01:04:33,972 --> 01:04:37,559
I mean, she has a way
of taking these old,
dusty philosophical questions
1240
01:04:37,559 --> 01:04:40,186
and making them feel
so insanely relevant.
1241
01:04:40,186 --> 01:04:41,438
Oh, my God. Oh, my God.
1242
01:04:45,358 --> 01:04:46,359
Okay.
1243
01:04:49,321 --> 01:04:50,363
Why are we hiding?
1244
01:04:53,158 --> 01:04:54,659
Because she's right there.
1245
01:04:55,994 --> 01:04:57,495
[Davis] You should go
talk to her.
1246
01:04:57,495 --> 01:04:59,372
- What would I even say?
- Aza.
1247
01:05:00,498 --> 01:05:01,583
You got this.
1248
01:05:11,926 --> 01:05:13,511
[Aza] Hi, Professor Abbott.
1249
01:05:15,096 --> 01:05:17,474
I wanted to introduce myself.
1250
01:05:17,474 --> 01:05:19,643
I'm Aza Holmes, and I'm...
1251
01:05:21,853 --> 01:05:23,146
a fan.
1252
01:05:23,146 --> 01:05:25,649
Are you a fan
of being my student?
1253
01:05:25,649 --> 01:05:29,027
No, I'm still in high school.
I'm just visiting today.
1254
01:05:30,278 --> 01:05:31,988
But you're the reason
I wanna go here.
1255
01:05:34,199 --> 01:05:37,535
I just think you're the most
brilliant person in the world.
1256
01:05:37,535 --> 01:05:39,371
Oh, well. [chuckles]
1257
01:05:39,371 --> 01:05:42,999
Thank you so much,
but I assure you
that's not the case.
1258
01:05:43,792 --> 01:05:44,668
[chuckles]
1259
01:05:47,462 --> 01:05:48,588
It was nice to meet you.
1260
01:05:51,966 --> 01:05:53,009
Professor Abbott?
1261
01:05:54,094 --> 01:05:55,095
Yes?
1262
01:05:59,599 --> 01:06:01,393
I'm worried that I'm not real.
1263
01:06:02,435 --> 01:06:03,603
[music fades]
1264
01:06:06,648 --> 01:06:08,233
Why is that?
1265
01:06:08,233 --> 01:06:10,193
It's like what you said.
1266
01:06:10,193 --> 01:06:14,197
A lot of my thoughts
and behaviors don't even feel
like they're mine.
1267
01:06:15,657 --> 01:06:20,412
Like, they're not things
I want to think or do.
1268
01:06:20,412 --> 01:06:24,165
And then when I look
for the originator
of my thoughts, the real me,
1269
01:06:25,208 --> 01:06:26,418
I never find it.
1270
01:06:27,919 --> 01:06:30,255
You know those nesting dolls?
1271
01:06:30,255 --> 01:06:32,090
The ones that are hollow
and when you open them up,
1272
01:06:32,090 --> 01:06:33,967
there's a smaller one inside?
1273
01:06:33,967 --> 01:06:37,095
And you keep opening them
until eventually
you get to the smallest one,
1274
01:06:37,095 --> 01:06:38,847
and it's solid
all the way through?
1275
01:06:40,306 --> 01:06:43,393
But with me, I don't think
there's one that's solid.
1276
01:06:43,393 --> 01:06:46,813
I just keep getting
smaller and smaller.
1277
01:06:52,485 --> 01:06:54,279
That reminds me
of an old story.
1278
01:06:54,863 --> 01:06:55,697
Um...
1279
01:06:59,075 --> 01:07:00,785
There's this
very famous scientist,
1280
01:07:00,785 --> 01:07:05,123
and he's giving a lecture
on astronomy
to a large audience.
1281
01:07:05,123 --> 01:07:08,418
And he's describing
how the Earth orbits the Sun,
1282
01:07:08,418 --> 01:07:11,713
and the Sun orbits the galaxy,
etcetera, etcetera.
1283
01:07:11,713 --> 01:07:13,339
And when he's finally done,
1284
01:07:13,339 --> 01:07:15,800
a little old lady in the back
raises her hand and says,
1285
01:07:15,800 --> 01:07:19,387
"Professor, with
all due respect, what you've
just told us is bullshit.
1286
01:07:19,387 --> 01:07:24,309
The truth is, the Earth
is resting on the back
of a giant turtle."
1287
01:07:24,309 --> 01:07:27,604
So, the very famous scientist
gives a smug smile and says,
1288
01:07:27,604 --> 01:07:30,356
"So, what is the turtle
resting on?"
1289
01:07:30,356 --> 01:07:32,650
And the woman replies,
1290
01:07:32,650 --> 01:07:36,696
"It's resting on the shell
of another giant turtle,
of course."
1291
01:07:36,696 --> 01:07:39,449
And the scientist says,
"And that turtle?"
1292
01:07:39,449 --> 01:07:42,494
And the woman exclaims,
"Don't you understand?
1293
01:07:42,494 --> 01:07:44,871
It's turtles,
all the way down."
1294
01:07:48,291 --> 01:07:50,293
You're imagining the true self,
1295
01:07:50,293 --> 01:07:54,422
the self that exists
independent of circumstance,
1296
01:07:54,422 --> 01:07:57,842
as that turtle
on the very bottom of the pile.
1297
01:07:57,842 --> 01:08:02,806
But maybe it's turtles,
all the way down.
1298
01:08:04,724 --> 01:08:06,017
Maybe you're infinite.
1299
01:08:06,017 --> 01:08:07,811
[upbeat pop music building]
1300
01:08:07,811 --> 01:08:13,525
And I think your doubts
make you more real, not less.
1301
01:08:17,862 --> 01:08:19,697
I think you'd do
just fine here, Aza.
1302
01:08:26,538 --> 01:08:28,081
[laughs]
1303
01:08:30,917 --> 01:08:32,544
[laughing]
1304
01:08:34,254 --> 01:08:35,380
So, how'd it go?
1305
01:08:41,594 --> 01:08:42,554
Ah.
1306
01:08:43,388 --> 01:08:44,722
[both chuckle]
1307
01:08:51,813 --> 01:08:55,316
[Aza] His bacteria are joining
your bacteria right now.
1308
01:08:56,192 --> 01:08:57,902
It doesn't matter.
1309
01:08:57,902 --> 01:08:59,612
People kiss all the time.
1310
01:09:01,656 --> 01:09:04,868
[tense music playing]
1311
01:09:04,868 --> 01:09:08,913
Millions of his organisms
are entering
your body right now.
1312
01:09:11,040 --> 01:09:12,041
[softly] Hey.
1313
01:09:13,001 --> 01:09:14,127
Is everything okay?
1314
01:09:15,336 --> 01:09:16,629
[Aza] Hmm.
1315
01:09:16,629 --> 01:09:17,922
Yeah, I'm just, uh...
1316
01:09:20,175 --> 01:09:21,593
Just a little nauseous.
1317
01:09:21,593 --> 01:09:22,844
Be right back.
1318
01:09:26,180 --> 01:09:30,018
[door opens, closes]
1319
01:09:30,018 --> 01:09:31,603
- What were you thinking?
- [panting]
1320
01:09:31,603 --> 01:09:33,646
Everything was going perfectly
and you had to ruin it
1321
01:09:33,646 --> 01:09:35,982
by letting his tongue
into your mouth.
1322
01:09:37,358 --> 01:09:38,985
Why isn't it working?
1323
01:09:38,985 --> 01:09:41,070
- [static crackles]
- [water running]
1324
01:09:41,070 --> 01:09:43,406
[panting]
1325
01:09:43,406 --> 01:09:44,616
You're infected.
1326
01:09:47,327 --> 01:09:49,746
You need to kill the bacteria
now, now, now.
1327
01:09:50,788 --> 01:09:51,789
Oh, shut up!
1328
01:09:52,957 --> 01:09:55,668
Kill it. Kill every last germ.
1329
01:09:55,668 --> 01:09:57,170
Kill his saliva.
1330
01:09:59,047 --> 01:10:02,383
You know what you need to do,
so do it. Just do it.
1331
01:10:06,220 --> 01:10:07,639
[music fades]
1332
01:10:12,602 --> 01:10:13,853
[breathing heavily]
1333
01:10:29,327 --> 01:10:30,745
Aza, what's goin' on?
1334
01:10:42,006 --> 01:10:44,384
When I get
stuck in my thoughts,
1335
01:10:46,552 --> 01:10:49,973
it's not just the interesting
fish stuff I told you about.
1336
01:10:52,392 --> 01:10:53,393
Okay.
1337
01:10:59,357 --> 01:11:01,693
Bacteria scares me
more than anything.
1338
01:11:03,403 --> 01:11:05,655
I'm always worried
about getting infections,
1339
01:11:05,655 --> 01:11:07,949
and once I start worrying,
I can't stop.
1340
01:11:11,619 --> 01:11:15,248
That's why I liked
your painting so much.
1341
01:11:15,248 --> 01:11:17,125
Because my thoughts
are like that.
1342
01:11:18,626 --> 01:11:23,214
They're all, like, spirally.
1343
01:11:23,214 --> 01:11:26,217
So, right now
you're thinking about
whether you have an infection?
1344
01:11:27,176 --> 01:11:28,428
Kind of.
1345
01:11:33,933 --> 01:11:35,101
From kissing you.
1346
01:11:37,061 --> 01:11:39,147
[somber piano music playing]
1347
01:11:42,191 --> 01:11:45,486
We don't have to kiss.
We can just take things
really slow.
1348
01:11:45,486 --> 01:11:46,904
You don't understand.
1349
01:11:47,905 --> 01:11:49,198
It's not logical.
1350
01:11:51,367 --> 01:11:54,120
It's like
I'm living with a demon.
1351
01:11:54,120 --> 01:11:57,790
And maybe you don't care
right now, but you won't feel
that way forever.
1352
01:11:59,667 --> 01:12:00,793
But it's not forever.
1353
01:12:01,919 --> 01:12:02,962
It's now.
1354
01:12:10,344 --> 01:12:11,262
[lock clicks open]
1355
01:12:14,557 --> 01:12:16,184
Oh, thank God.
1356
01:12:16,184 --> 01:12:17,477
- Where have you been?
- [door shuts]
1357
01:12:17,477 --> 01:12:18,811
[lock clicks]
1358
01:12:18,811 --> 01:12:20,563
Why haven't you been answering
your phone?
1359
01:12:20,563 --> 01:12:22,023
[exhales shakily]
1360
01:12:23,608 --> 01:12:24,984
I was with Davis.
1361
01:12:27,695 --> 01:12:30,948
I see you at school
at the same time
every single day, Aza.
1362
01:12:30,948 --> 01:12:33,117
Did you seriously think
I wasn't gonna find out?
1363
01:12:33,117 --> 01:12:36,245
I don't know.
I guess I didn't care.
1364
01:12:36,245 --> 01:12:39,707
- Well, where'd you guys go?
- We went to Chicago.
1365
01:12:39,707 --> 01:12:41,125
To Chicago?
1366
01:12:41,125 --> 01:12:43,628
What the hell
were you doing in Chicago?
1367
01:12:43,628 --> 01:12:45,088
He didn't kidnap me.
I wanted to go.
1368
01:12:45,088 --> 01:12:47,423
Well, I don't care
if you wanted to go.
1369
01:12:47,423 --> 01:12:51,344
What if something happened
to you and I didn't even know
where you were?
1370
01:12:51,344 --> 01:12:54,597
Or what if you got in your head
and you needed me
to calm you down?
1371
01:12:54,597 --> 01:12:56,432
You think you calm me down?
1372
01:12:57,058 --> 01:12:59,102
How, Mom?
1373
01:12:59,102 --> 01:13:01,979
Do you know why Davis took me
to Chicago today?
1374
01:13:01,979 --> 01:13:03,231
[breathes shakily]
1375
01:13:03,231 --> 01:13:05,525
To see Northwestern.
1376
01:13:05,525 --> 01:13:08,361
Because he actually thinks
that I can go to school
on my own
1377
01:13:08,361 --> 01:13:09,946
in another state.
1378
01:13:09,946 --> 01:13:12,031
He thinks that I can study
what I wanna study,
1379
01:13:12,031 --> 01:13:13,950
and live in a dorm
with the other kids.
1380
01:13:13,950 --> 01:13:17,620
And maybe he's wrong.
Maybe I can't.
1381
01:13:17,620 --> 01:13:21,290
But do you know
how good it feels to finally
have someone in my life
1382
01:13:21,290 --> 01:13:22,750
who thinks I can?
1383
01:13:24,127 --> 01:13:25,294
- Aza!
- [door slams]
1384
01:13:27,755 --> 01:13:29,882
[somber instrumental music
playing]
1385
01:13:33,886 --> 01:13:35,096
[cell phone dings]
1386
01:13:56,784 --> 01:13:57,660
[clicks mouse]
1387
01:13:58,661 --> 01:14:01,372
[typing]
1388
01:14:08,004 --> 01:14:12,633
[Daisy] "Chewie and I were
on Tatooine where we'd stopped
to pick up some cargo.
1389
01:14:12,633 --> 01:14:19,432
Of course, Ayala was with me.
My best friend
and my greatest burden."
1390
01:14:23,811 --> 01:14:24,979
[clicking mouse]
1391
01:14:27,565 --> 01:14:31,110
"Ayala reached into her mane
of blue hair
and plucked out a strand.
1392
01:14:31,110 --> 01:14:35,239
A nervous habit, but then,
all her habits were nervous."
1393
01:14:40,953 --> 01:14:43,247
"Ayala never got
anything right.
1394
01:14:43,247 --> 01:14:46,542
The more Ayala worried,
the worse she made everything."
1395
01:14:49,670 --> 01:14:52,548
"Ayala sneered
at my new Speeder Bike.
1396
01:14:52,548 --> 01:14:54,884
'I thought you were
saving your money.'
1397
01:14:54,884 --> 01:15:00,264
Ayala had a Landspeeder
from her parents.
What did she know?
1398
01:15:00,264 --> 01:15:03,851
Ayala wasn't a bad person.
Just a useless one."
1399
01:15:03,851 --> 01:15:05,519
[music crescendoes, fades]
1400
01:15:06,687 --> 01:15:07,563
[gasps]
1401
01:15:07,563 --> 01:15:09,732
[intense pop music playing]
1402
01:15:10,942 --> 01:15:12,193
[cell phone vibrates]
1403
01:15:25,373 --> 01:15:27,166
- [locker clicks open]
- [cell phone vibrating]
1404
01:15:36,717 --> 01:15:38,844
[laughing,
speaking indistinctly]
1405
01:15:45,601 --> 01:15:46,769
[cell phone vibrates]
1406
01:15:58,698 --> 01:16:00,157
- [music stops]
- [Daisy] Holmsey!
1407
01:16:00,157 --> 01:16:02,076
Where have you been all day?
1408
01:16:02,076 --> 01:16:04,203
Can I ride with you
to Mychal's later?
My mom had to borrow my car.
1409
01:16:04,203 --> 01:16:05,830
And I need the deets
on your date.
1410
01:16:07,581 --> 01:16:09,333
I just don't get it.
1411
01:16:09,333 --> 01:16:10,960
He whisks you away to Chicago.
1412
01:16:10,960 --> 01:16:14,171
You have the most romantic day
in the history of ever.
1413
01:16:14,171 --> 01:16:16,507
[chuckles] Now you don't want
to see him anymore?
1414
01:16:16,507 --> 01:16:18,509
Something else
must've happened.
1415
01:16:20,636 --> 01:16:21,679
Did you guys do it?
1416
01:16:21,679 --> 01:16:24,098
No. I told you
nothing happened.
1417
01:16:24,098 --> 01:16:26,809
Yeah, but that doesn't make
any sense. I'm sure that--
1418
01:16:26,809 --> 01:16:28,561
I screwed it up?
1419
01:16:28,561 --> 01:16:29,687
[chuckles] What?
1420
01:16:30,688 --> 01:16:31,647
No.
1421
01:16:33,232 --> 01:16:35,568
You barely even
changed my name.
1422
01:16:40,448 --> 01:16:41,532
You read my fanfic?
1423
01:16:41,532 --> 01:16:43,576
Yes, I read your fanfic!
1424
01:16:43,576 --> 01:16:46,912
You're my best friend.
You didn't think
maybe I'd read it?
1425
01:16:48,748 --> 01:16:50,916
No, I didn't.
1426
01:16:52,418 --> 01:16:54,170
Because I've been writing them
since I was 11,
1427
01:16:54,170 --> 01:16:55,880
and you've never read
a single one.
1428
01:16:55,880 --> 01:16:58,257
What? You never asked.
1429
01:16:58,257 --> 01:17:00,634
I shouldn't have to ask.
1430
01:17:00,634 --> 01:17:03,137
Other people's best friends
would just
1431
01:17:03,137 --> 01:17:05,348
take a little break
from endlessly contemplating
1432
01:17:05,348 --> 01:17:10,061
the inner workings
of their own mind to think
about other people's interests.
1433
01:17:10,061 --> 01:17:11,937
I came up with Ayala
in seventh grade.
1434
01:17:11,937 --> 01:17:15,900
And, yeah, it was a dick move,
1435
01:17:15,900 --> 01:17:18,903
but maybe it was my way
of coping with having
a best friend who's...
1436
01:17:22,657 --> 01:17:26,285
Look, Mychal says that
you're like mustard, right?
1437
01:17:26,285 --> 01:17:31,874
Like, you're awesome
in small quantities,
but a lot of you is a lot.
1438
01:17:33,000 --> 01:17:34,752
Got it.
1439
01:17:34,752 --> 01:17:37,588
I mean, have you ever stopped
to think about
what it's like for me?
1440
01:17:37,588 --> 01:17:40,299
I constantly have your back
and you never have mine.
1441
01:17:40,299 --> 01:17:41,592
You're right.
1442
01:17:41,592 --> 01:17:42,760
All our friendship
has gotten you lately
1443
01:17:42,760 --> 01:17:44,553
is 50 grand and a boyfriend.
1444
01:17:44,553 --> 01:17:47,098
But you won't even come with me
to his art show.
1445
01:17:47,098 --> 01:17:48,557
Other people's
best friends would...
1446
01:17:49,558 --> 01:17:51,102
[breathing heavily]
1447
01:17:51,102 --> 01:17:53,145
I mean, I know that you have
mental problems and whatever,
1448
01:17:53,145 --> 01:17:55,272
but they make you
extremely self-centered.
1449
01:17:55,272 --> 01:17:56,816
I am not self-centered!
1450
01:17:56,816 --> 01:17:58,317
What are my parents' names?
1451
01:18:00,861 --> 01:18:02,238
What are their jobs?
1452
01:18:03,614 --> 01:18:04,782
What's my middle name?
1453
01:18:04,782 --> 01:18:06,075
Do I have any pets?
1454
01:18:09,578 --> 01:18:14,417
You're just so
pathologically uncurious
1455
01:18:14,417 --> 01:18:16,377
that you don't even know
what you don't know.
1456
01:18:18,129 --> 01:18:19,839
- You have a cat.
- Yes.
1457
01:18:19,839 --> 01:18:22,133
Congratulations, Aza,
I have a cat.
1458
01:18:22,133 --> 01:18:24,468
I've had her since I was five.
What's her name?
1459
01:18:27,012 --> 01:18:28,973
- I don't know.
- No, you have no clue.
1460
01:18:28,973 --> 01:18:33,352
You have no idea
what it's like for me,
because you never ask.
1461
01:18:33,352 --> 01:18:35,646
I mean, you think
you and your mom
are poor or whatever,
1462
01:18:35,646 --> 01:18:39,608
but you got braces, and a car,
and an iPad, and all that shit.
1463
01:18:39,608 --> 01:18:40,985
Do you think that
it's just normal
1464
01:18:40,985 --> 01:18:42,486
to have a house
with your own room in it?
1465
01:18:42,486 --> 01:18:44,155
And a mom who helps you
with your homework?
1466
01:18:44,155 --> 01:18:47,533
I mean, your privileges
are like oxygen to you, Aza.
1467
01:18:47,533 --> 01:18:51,036
And then you judge me
for buying a car instead of
saving it all for college.
1468
01:18:51,036 --> 01:18:55,166
And I try not to care,
and I try to be
understanding because--
1469
01:18:55,166 --> 01:18:56,542
Stop talking!
1470
01:18:56,542 --> 01:18:59,336
Jesus Christ, you haven't
shut up in ten years!
1471
01:18:59,336 --> 01:19:01,714
I'm sorry if it's hard
hanging out with me,
1472
01:19:01,714 --> 01:19:03,257
but imagine actually being me!
1473
01:19:03,257 --> 01:19:05,342
Imagine being stuck in my head
all the time
1474
01:19:05,342 --> 01:19:06,969
with no break, no way out!
1475
01:19:06,969 --> 01:19:08,345
I'm sorry that--
1476
01:19:08,345 --> 01:19:09,847
And to use Mychal's clever
little analogy.
1477
01:19:09,847 --> 01:19:12,266
Imagine eating
nothing but mustard!
1478
01:19:12,266 --> 01:19:14,268
Being stuck
with mustard all the time!
1479
01:19:14,268 --> 01:19:16,270
Okay, I shouldn't have
said that.
1480
01:19:16,270 --> 01:19:18,105
{\an8}And if you hate me so much
then why don't you
just stop asking me--
1481
01:19:18,105 --> 01:19:19,440
Watch out!
1482
01:19:19,440 --> 01:19:21,233
- [tense music playing]
- [tires screeching]
1483
01:19:23,986 --> 01:19:25,029
[music fades]
1484
01:19:30,159 --> 01:19:32,286
[somber tense music playing]
1485
01:19:50,304 --> 01:19:51,514
[echoing] Are you okay?
1486
01:19:52,973 --> 01:19:53,933
[Aza] I think so.
1487
01:19:53,933 --> 01:19:55,559
[breathing heavily]
1488
01:19:56,769 --> 01:19:57,895
Are you?
1489
01:19:58,646 --> 01:19:59,647
You're hurt.
1490
01:20:01,524 --> 01:20:05,152
Aza, stop.
1491
01:20:05,152 --> 01:20:07,071
- [Aza grunts]
- Stay still.
1492
01:20:08,197 --> 01:20:09,031
Aza!
1493
01:20:10,533 --> 01:20:12,034
[glass crunching]
1494
01:20:13,702 --> 01:20:18,082
No, no, no.
1495
01:20:19,542 --> 01:20:20,709
[crying] No.
1496
01:20:31,595 --> 01:20:33,889
[firefighter] Hey.
Are you all right?
1497
01:20:33,889 --> 01:20:35,015
It's ruined.
1498
01:20:36,100 --> 01:20:37,601
My dad's car.
1499
01:20:37,601 --> 01:20:39,812
[firefighter] Honey, I've been
doing this for a long time,
1500
01:20:39,812 --> 01:20:42,773
and I can promise, your dad's
not gonna be mad at you.
1501
01:20:42,773 --> 01:20:44,275
[Aza breathing heavily]
1502
01:20:49,822 --> 01:20:51,740
I need help!
1503
01:20:51,740 --> 01:20:53,909
[somber tense music continues]
1504
01:21:02,710 --> 01:21:03,752
[music fades]
1505
01:21:06,714 --> 01:21:07,756
Hey, kiddo.
1506
01:21:09,592 --> 01:21:12,553
You're in the hospital,
but everything's gonna be okay.
1507
01:21:14,430 --> 01:21:15,889
I love you so much.
1508
01:21:17,683 --> 01:21:20,769
Mmm, is... Is Daisy okay?
1509
01:21:20,769 --> 01:21:23,147
They gave her some stitches
on her forehead,
1510
01:21:23,147 --> 01:21:24,690
but she's gonna be fine.
1511
01:21:26,191 --> 01:21:28,235
[sobbing]
1512
01:21:29,028 --> 01:21:31,113
I ruined Harold.
1513
01:21:31,113 --> 01:21:33,324
I know, baby.
1514
01:21:33,324 --> 01:21:35,159
Dad loved that car.
1515
01:21:36,619 --> 01:21:37,995
Dad loved you.
1516
01:21:39,622 --> 01:21:41,457
Am I okay?
1517
01:21:41,457 --> 01:21:43,167
You have a lacerated liver,
1518
01:21:43,167 --> 01:21:45,461
but the internal bleeding
is mild.
1519
01:21:45,461 --> 01:21:47,671
- I'm bleeding inside?
- Just a little.
1520
01:21:47,671 --> 01:21:49,006
[breathing heavily]
1521
01:21:49,006 --> 01:21:50,549
The good news
is you don't need surgery.
1522
01:21:50,549 --> 01:21:51,884
- They just wanna monitor you...
- [sobs]
1523
01:21:51,884 --> 01:21:53,135
...for a few days.
1524
01:21:53,135 --> 01:21:54,136
What?
1525
01:21:55,137 --> 01:21:57,097
No. [cries]
1526
01:21:57,097 --> 01:21:59,558
- No, I can't stay here, Mom.
- Aza.
1527
01:21:59,558 --> 01:22:03,103
Please, please just
do something.
I can't stay here.
1528
01:22:03,103 --> 01:22:04,480
[gasping]
1529
01:22:04,480 --> 01:22:06,190
I have to go home.
1530
01:22:06,190 --> 01:22:08,692
I'm gonna get C. diff
if I stay.
1531
01:22:08,692 --> 01:22:10,402
- You don't have C. diff.
- I probably
1532
01:22:10,402 --> 01:22:11,695
already have C. diff.
1533
01:22:11,695 --> 01:22:13,697
No, you don't have C. diff.
1534
01:22:13,697 --> 01:22:16,283
Hospitals are where
people get it, okay?
1535
01:22:16,283 --> 01:22:18,035
I can't stay here, Mom.
1536
01:22:18,035 --> 01:22:20,204
- I can't stay here!
- Aza! Aza!
1537
01:22:20,204 --> 01:22:22,915
- Your liver is bleeding!
We can't go home.
- [crying] I have...
1538
01:22:22,915 --> 01:22:24,958
But I'll be with you
the whole time.
1539
01:22:24,958 --> 01:22:27,586
- I promise.
- I have to go. I have to go--
1540
01:22:27,586 --> 01:22:29,797
[tense pulsating music playing]
1541
01:22:36,345 --> 01:22:39,807
[Aza] C. diff is
invading your body right now.
1542
01:22:39,807 --> 01:22:42,059
It's all around you.
1543
01:22:42,059 --> 01:22:43,394
You're infected.
1544
01:22:43,394 --> 01:22:45,729
You're full of bacteria
colonizing you.
1545
01:22:45,729 --> 01:22:49,066
It's all colonizing you,
and you can't stop it.
1546
01:22:49,066 --> 01:22:50,734
You can't.
1547
01:22:50,734 --> 01:22:53,153
You can't have a boyfriend.
You can't go to college.
1548
01:22:53,153 --> 01:22:54,488
You can't have a job.
1549
01:22:54,488 --> 01:22:56,532
You can't even control
your own brain.
1550
01:22:56,532 --> 01:22:58,659
You can't.
You can't. You can't.
1551
01:23:07,459 --> 01:23:09,002
[gasping]
1552
01:23:10,462 --> 01:23:11,797
You know how to deal with this.
1553
01:23:11,797 --> 01:23:13,966
It's the only way.
It's the only way.
1554
01:23:16,677 --> 01:23:18,762
[breathing heavily]
1555
01:23:25,269 --> 01:23:26,770
Come on, kill it.
Kill the infection.
1556
01:23:26,770 --> 01:23:29,106
You have to.
You have to. You have to.
1557
01:23:29,106 --> 01:23:31,734
Please, please think
about something else.
1558
01:23:31,734 --> 01:23:32,651
Mmm!
1559
01:23:32,651 --> 01:23:34,903
I hate being stuck inside you!
1560
01:23:34,903 --> 01:23:37,364
You wanna feel better?
You know how to feel better.
1561
01:23:37,364 --> 01:23:38,991
It'll just make me sick.
1562
01:23:38,991 --> 01:23:40,743
Do you wanna die of C. diff?
1563
01:23:40,743 --> 01:23:45,581
This is not rational.
Your now is not your forever.
1564
01:23:45,581 --> 01:23:48,041
Kill the infection!
Kill it! Kill it now!
1565
01:23:48,041 --> 01:23:49,626
- [music building]
- [breathing heavily]
1566
01:23:52,921 --> 01:23:53,756
[slurps]
1567
01:23:54,590 --> 01:23:55,382
[gulps]
1568
01:23:55,382 --> 01:23:56,800
Please, let me go.
1569
01:23:56,800 --> 01:23:58,469
- Please, I'll do anything.
- [slurping]
1570
01:23:58,469 --> 01:23:59,970
You can have this body.
I don't want it anymore.
1571
01:23:59,970 --> 01:24:01,597
[dispenser rattling]
1572
01:24:01,597 --> 01:24:03,515
I am my way, I am not my will.
I am my way, not my will.
1573
01:24:03,515 --> 01:24:05,058
- You'll never be free of this.
- [gagging]
1574
01:24:05,058 --> 01:24:07,102
- You're possessed by a demon!
- [grunting]
1575
01:24:07,102 --> 01:24:09,104
Do you want to die
of fucking C. diff?
1576
01:24:09,104 --> 01:24:10,564
No! Because you will.
1577
01:24:10,564 --> 01:24:14,151
I will. You will.
1578
01:24:14,151 --> 01:24:16,069
[grunting]
1579
01:24:16,069 --> 01:24:18,655
- [door opens]
- [Gina] Aza! No, no,
what are you doing?
1580
01:24:18,655 --> 01:24:20,073
No, stop that.
1581
01:24:20,073 --> 01:24:22,576
- Stop it. Aza, stop that!
- [Aza] You're disgusting.
1582
01:24:22,576 --> 01:24:25,496
- You make me sick.
- [Gina] Help. Nurse!
1583
01:24:25,496 --> 01:24:27,623
- Stop it.
- You're not possessed
by a demon.
1584
01:24:29,291 --> 01:24:30,834
[music slows]
1585
01:24:33,253 --> 01:24:35,172
You are the demon.
1586
01:24:49,812 --> 01:24:51,230
[music fades]
1587
01:24:59,613 --> 01:25:00,906
You want some breakfast?
1588
01:25:02,783 --> 01:25:03,659
[Aza] Mmm-mmm.
1589
01:25:06,537 --> 01:25:08,121
My stomach hurts.
1590
01:25:12,167 --> 01:25:13,460
They had to pump it.
1591
01:25:15,963 --> 01:25:16,839
[sighs]
1592
01:25:20,175 --> 01:25:22,427
You can probably guess
who that's from.
1593
01:25:26,139 --> 01:25:27,558
I called Dr. Singh.
1594
01:25:29,977 --> 01:25:31,228
Please don't be mad at me.
1595
01:25:33,564 --> 01:25:35,941
[whispering] I just
didn't know what to do.
1596
01:25:35,941 --> 01:25:37,442
I'm not mad.
1597
01:25:41,446 --> 01:25:42,573
Thank you, Mom.
1598
01:25:47,536 --> 01:25:48,620
How are you feeling?
1599
01:25:51,123 --> 01:25:52,374
Well... [sighs]
1600
01:25:54,167 --> 01:25:55,252
not great.
1601
01:25:57,838 --> 01:26:02,426
I think it would be good
for you to start seeing me
more regularly.
1602
01:26:04,177 --> 01:26:07,264
I don't want you left alone
with your thoughts
for too long.
1603
01:26:10,851 --> 01:26:14,605
- Okay.
- Good.
1604
01:26:14,605 --> 01:26:18,442
I also think we should give
exposure response therapy
another try,
1605
01:26:18,442 --> 01:26:20,777
and... and we can take it slow.
1606
01:26:23,322 --> 01:26:26,658
But, Aza, you have to take
your medication.
1607
01:26:28,493 --> 01:26:30,954
Or we find another medication
that works better for you
1608
01:26:30,954 --> 01:26:33,415
that you are willing to take,
as prescribed.
1609
01:26:33,415 --> 01:26:37,794
- None of them have worked.
- None of them have worked yet.
1610
01:26:39,963 --> 01:26:41,715
[calming music playing]
1611
01:26:43,383 --> 01:26:46,219
[Gina] ♪ We're here because ♪
1612
01:26:46,219 --> 01:26:49,389
♪ We're here because ♪
1613
01:26:49,389 --> 01:26:55,270
♪ We're here because
We're here ♪
1614
01:26:55,270 --> 01:27:01,652
♪ We're here because ♪
1615
01:27:01,652 --> 01:27:08,075
♪ We're here because
We're here ♪
1616
01:27:08,075 --> 01:27:14,206
♪ We're here because ♪
1617
01:27:14,206 --> 01:27:19,920
♪ We're here because
We're here ♪
1618
01:27:20,796 --> 01:27:22,839
[Gina humming]
1619
01:27:29,513 --> 01:27:30,514
{\an8}[imperceptible]
1620
01:27:31,932 --> 01:27:35,018
[Gina continues humming]
1621
01:27:46,613 --> 01:27:47,614
[stops humming]
1622
01:27:52,661 --> 01:27:54,413
[music fades]
1623
01:28:11,138 --> 01:28:12,055
{\an8}[message whooshes]
1624
01:28:16,143 --> 01:28:18,311
[indie pop music playing
on speakers]
1625
01:28:22,899 --> 01:28:24,151
[chuckles]
1626
01:28:24,151 --> 01:28:25,277
[Aza chuckles]
1627
01:28:28,572 --> 01:28:30,699
- Hi.
- Hi.
1628
01:28:35,162 --> 01:28:38,707
I'm sorry it took so long
for me to reach out.
1629
01:28:40,083 --> 01:28:41,752
It's okay.
1630
01:28:41,752 --> 01:28:44,004
I just-- I needed some time.
1631
01:28:47,591 --> 01:28:48,633
I missed you.
1632
01:28:50,510 --> 01:28:51,303
[static crackles]
1633
01:28:51,303 --> 01:28:53,263
I missed you, too.
1634
01:28:53,263 --> 01:28:54,931
I talked to your mom
a few times.
1635
01:28:54,931 --> 01:28:56,892
[thoughtful music playing]
1636
01:28:56,892 --> 01:28:58,351
[fading] And she was
actually really nice
about keeping me updated...
1637
01:29:00,854 --> 01:29:02,939
- [Aza] Maybe you could
kiss him.
- [imperceptible]
1638
01:29:04,483 --> 01:29:06,443
It'll be different.
1639
01:29:06,443 --> 01:29:09,780
- [static crackles]
- No, no, no. Don't kiss him.
1640
01:29:09,780 --> 01:29:11,948
You'll get sick.
You'll have to go back
to the hospital.
1641
01:29:11,948 --> 01:29:13,784
Then you'll get C. diff.
You'll have to go back
to the hospital.
1642
01:29:13,784 --> 01:29:15,911
- Then you'll get C. diff.
- How are you feeling?
1643
01:29:19,456 --> 01:29:20,916
Are you there?
1644
01:29:20,916 --> 01:29:22,084
[static crackles]
1645
01:29:23,293 --> 01:29:24,544
Uh, yeah.
1646
01:29:24,544 --> 01:29:26,546
[music building]
1647
01:29:26,546 --> 01:29:28,757
- Sorry.
- I asked how you were feeling.
1648
01:29:29,883 --> 01:29:30,884
Good.
1649
01:29:32,469 --> 01:29:33,553
Generally.
1650
01:29:36,389 --> 01:29:37,265
Uh...
1651
01:29:39,226 --> 01:29:41,937
Not so good right now, though.
1652
01:29:41,937 --> 01:29:45,690
Could you, um, maybe
sit across from me instead?
1653
01:30:03,583 --> 01:30:05,127
I was hoping I'd be better.
1654
01:30:07,254 --> 01:30:11,675
I've been taking my meds
and working with Dr. Singh.
1655
01:30:12,759 --> 01:30:13,635
I thought...
1656
01:30:15,595 --> 01:30:18,348
maybe, uh,
I could even kiss you.
1657
01:30:21,434 --> 01:30:23,270
I think I am better.
1658
01:30:25,772 --> 01:30:27,524
But I guess I'm just not...
1659
01:30:30,318 --> 01:30:31,278
better enough.
1660
01:30:40,287 --> 01:30:41,621
Maybe we could text?
1661
01:30:44,708 --> 01:30:45,834
I just...
1662
01:30:49,504 --> 01:30:51,089
I need to be liked up close.
1663
01:30:59,472 --> 01:31:00,307
[door opens]
1664
01:31:03,310 --> 01:31:05,854
- [Gina] Hey, how was Davis?
- [lock clicks]
1665
01:31:07,397 --> 01:31:08,481
Fine.
1666
01:31:09,316 --> 01:31:10,275
[Gina] Come here.
1667
01:31:10,275 --> 01:31:12,235
[thoughtful music slows]
1668
01:31:12,235 --> 01:31:18,742
You know, when you first
started having thought spirals,
I was so confused.
1669
01:31:18,742 --> 01:31:20,619
You'd been
such a happy little girl,
1670
01:31:20,619 --> 01:31:23,663
and, suddenly, you were
so scared of everything.
1671
01:31:23,663 --> 01:31:26,041
And I... I couldn't
make you feel better.
1672
01:31:27,209 --> 01:31:30,170
But your dad got me through it.
1673
01:31:30,170 --> 01:31:34,090
This sounds crazy,
but he'd make me stare
at my reflection in the mirror
1674
01:31:34,090 --> 01:31:37,719
and tell myself all the things
I did right that day, out loud.
1675
01:31:39,095 --> 01:31:40,472
And it worked.
1676
01:31:40,472 --> 01:31:42,349
For those few minutes
before bed,
1677
01:31:44,726 --> 01:31:46,811
I actually felt okay.
1678
01:31:47,729 --> 01:31:50,899
He was the one person
1679
01:31:52,192 --> 01:31:54,361
that made me feel good
at being your mom.
1680
01:31:56,363 --> 01:31:58,365
And now, he's gone,
[inhales sharply]
1681
01:31:58,365 --> 01:32:00,283
and I can't calm myself down.
1682
01:32:00,283 --> 01:32:02,536
So, I just go about my day,
1683
01:32:02,536 --> 01:32:04,913
terrified that something bad's
gonna happen.
1684
01:32:04,913 --> 01:32:06,164
[music fades]
1685
01:32:06,164 --> 01:32:08,500
Terrified that I'm failing you.
1686
01:32:11,378 --> 01:32:12,254
But you're not.
1687
01:32:13,004 --> 01:32:14,464
Okay. [sniffles]
1688
01:32:14,464 --> 01:32:16,383
I can do it if you want.
1689
01:32:17,676 --> 01:32:19,135
The mirror thing.
1690
01:32:21,221 --> 01:32:22,681
We can do that together.
1691
01:32:23,556 --> 01:32:25,267
No, that's okay. [laughs]
1692
01:32:25,267 --> 01:32:27,060
Oh, thank God.
1693
01:32:27,060 --> 01:32:29,646
Us doing that
sounded really weird.
1694
01:32:29,646 --> 01:32:30,730
[Gina chuckles]
1695
01:32:32,899 --> 01:32:35,068
Aza, when the garage is redone,
1696
01:32:36,987 --> 01:32:40,407
we'll rent it out
to help pay for your tuition.
1697
01:32:40,407 --> 01:32:43,952
- Really?
- You will go to college
wherever you want.
1698
01:32:45,704 --> 01:32:46,830
You know why?
1699
01:32:47,747 --> 01:32:50,083
Because you never give up.
1700
01:32:50,083 --> 01:32:51,835
That's one of the things
I love about you.
1701
01:32:51,835 --> 01:32:55,505
No matter how scared you are,
you never stop trying.
1702
01:32:55,505 --> 01:32:57,674
[warm gentle music playing]
1703
01:33:00,510 --> 01:33:01,344
Um...
1704
01:33:02,679 --> 01:33:04,973
Mom, I need to borrow your car.
1705
01:33:04,973 --> 01:33:06,933
[music building]
1706
01:33:06,933 --> 01:33:11,313
Davis said
he needs to be liked up close,
and I can't do that right now,
1707
01:33:11,313 --> 01:33:13,023
but I'm gonna like
my best friend up close,
1708
01:33:13,023 --> 01:33:15,317
even if it kills me.
[inhales sharply]
1709
01:33:17,444 --> 01:33:20,322
Hey, while we're telling
each other things,
1710
01:33:20,322 --> 01:33:23,867
when Davis and I first started
hanging out,
he gave me $50,000.
1711
01:33:23,867 --> 01:33:25,535
It either goes to me
or a tuatara,
1712
01:33:25,535 --> 01:33:27,579
so I'm putting it
towards Northwestern, okay?
1713
01:33:27,579 --> 01:33:28,872
Great. Bye. [speaking Spanish]
1714
01:33:29,456 --> 01:33:30,290
Wha...
1715
01:33:31,124 --> 01:33:33,168
[exciting music playing]
1716
01:33:39,841 --> 01:33:40,800
[grunts]
1717
01:33:55,940 --> 01:33:57,359
[music fades]
1718
01:33:57,359 --> 01:33:59,527
[Aza in English] You need
to be here for Daisy.
1719
01:33:59,527 --> 01:34:02,197
You need to be here.
You need to be here.
You need to be here.
1720
01:34:03,948 --> 01:34:05,075
[static crackles]
1721
01:34:06,326 --> 01:34:08,453
[dance music playing
on speakers]
1722
01:34:25,678 --> 01:34:27,806
[indistinct conversation]
1723
01:34:35,021 --> 01:34:36,856
- Hey, Aza.
- Hi.
1724
01:34:36,856 --> 01:34:39,818
Uh, I guess I assumed
you weren't coming.
1725
01:34:40,902 --> 01:34:42,362
Oh, and I...
1726
01:34:42,362 --> 01:34:44,697
And I'm so sorry
about the accident
and your liver.
1727
01:34:44,697 --> 01:34:45,949
Oh, I'm fine.
1728
01:34:48,451 --> 01:34:50,286
This is awesome.
1729
01:34:50,286 --> 01:34:53,998
I mean, I don't understand art,
but even I can tell
that it's awesome.
1730
01:34:53,998 --> 01:34:55,333
[both chuckle]
1731
01:34:55,333 --> 01:34:58,711
I don't know about that,
but thank you. Really.
1732
01:34:58,711 --> 01:35:01,881
- For coming.
- I wanna be
a supportive friend.
1733
01:35:03,341 --> 01:35:05,510
It's this new thing I'm trying.
1734
01:35:05,510 --> 01:35:07,762
[both chuckle]
1735
01:35:10,473 --> 01:35:12,350
[indistinct conversation]
1736
01:35:12,350 --> 01:35:13,977
[music turns thoughtful]
1737
01:35:30,285 --> 01:35:31,494
[Daisy] How's the liver?
1738
01:35:31,494 --> 01:35:32,704
[river gushing]
1739
01:35:32,704 --> 01:35:34,247
[Aza] De-lacerated.
1740
01:35:35,707 --> 01:35:37,459
How are you?
1741
01:35:38,418 --> 01:35:40,795
Oh, I got off easy.
1742
01:35:40,795 --> 01:35:44,215
Although, you'd never know it
by how Mychal
is acting. [chuckles]
1743
01:35:44,215 --> 01:35:49,971
He named all six of my stitches
and wrote them each
individual love poems.
1744
01:35:53,266 --> 01:35:55,894
I'm really sorry, Daisy.
1745
01:35:55,894 --> 01:36:01,399
You deserve the most amazing,
supportive, attentive friend
in the world.
1746
01:36:01,399 --> 01:36:03,860
Not one who almost killed you
in a car crash.
1747
01:36:04,777 --> 01:36:06,321
[chuckling] Jesus, Holmsey.
1748
01:36:07,989 --> 01:36:10,158
You can sure hold a grudge
against yourself.
1749
01:36:12,160 --> 01:36:16,498
If you can't tell,
I've already forgiven you.
1750
01:36:18,458 --> 01:36:21,711
And I'm sorry about Ayala.
1751
01:36:21,711 --> 01:36:23,713
You don't have to be.
1752
01:36:23,713 --> 01:36:24,797
Yeah.
1753
01:36:26,299 --> 01:36:27,258
I do.
1754
01:36:29,636 --> 01:36:35,725
Yes, you can be exhausting,
but you are not like mustard.
1755
01:36:35,725 --> 01:36:39,354
You're the most
fascinating person
I've ever known.
1756
01:36:42,065 --> 01:36:45,276
I love you.
1757
01:36:45,276 --> 01:36:48,905
- I want to be buried
next to you.
- [chuckles]
1758
01:36:48,905 --> 01:36:50,615
We'll have a shared tombstone.
1759
01:36:50,615 --> 01:36:55,578
It'll read, "Holmsey and Daisy.
They did everything together.
1760
01:36:57,330 --> 01:36:59,457
- Except the nasty."
- [both laugh]
1761
01:37:02,335 --> 01:37:03,294
[Daisy] Mmm.
1762
01:37:03,294 --> 01:37:05,505
[gentle piano music playing]
1763
01:37:07,382 --> 01:37:11,177
{\an8}[Aza] I'm not like mustard,
but maybe
I'm like Indianapolis.
1764
01:37:12,595 --> 01:37:14,430
{\an8}They had this shit river,
1765
01:37:14,430 --> 01:37:17,392
but they worked
with what they had.
1766
01:37:17,392 --> 01:37:19,519
And they managed to build
an okay city around it.
1767
01:37:21,062 --> 01:37:23,731
Not a great city, but not bad.
1768
01:37:24,440 --> 01:37:26,859
A B-minus.
1769
01:37:26,859 --> 01:37:31,447
Well, I think
you're at least a B-plus.
You and this city.
1770
01:37:32,574 --> 01:37:33,992
This skyline.
1771
01:37:35,743 --> 01:37:36,953
These tunnels.
1772
01:37:38,246 --> 01:37:39,247
This bridge.
1773
01:37:39,247 --> 01:37:40,873
[both giggle]
1774
01:37:40,873 --> 01:37:42,875
This sewage.
1775
01:37:42,875 --> 01:37:44,085
[laughs]
1776
01:37:44,085 --> 01:37:50,216
This tire,
this cinder block, this...
1777
01:37:50,216 --> 01:37:53,219
- I don't know, what are those?
- Wait, Daisy.
1778
01:37:53,219 --> 01:37:55,263
- Go back, go back, go back!
- What?
1779
01:37:56,139 --> 01:37:57,181
Isn't that...
1780
01:38:01,936 --> 01:38:04,022
[tense music playing]
1781
01:38:10,069 --> 01:38:11,696
[exhales shakily]
1782
01:38:18,328 --> 01:38:19,287
[Daisy gasps]
1783
01:38:25,001 --> 01:38:26,127
Pogue's Run.
1784
01:38:28,546 --> 01:38:30,840
Daisy, the spot where
a river ends,
1785
01:38:30,840 --> 01:38:32,759
- isn't it called...
- A mouth?
1786
01:38:36,763 --> 01:38:38,556
This is The Joggers Mouth.
1787
01:38:39,390 --> 01:38:41,601
What?
1788
01:38:41,601 --> 01:38:44,520
It was something Pickett
scribbled down
right before escaping.
1789
01:38:50,485 --> 01:38:51,527
What's that?
1790
01:38:53,738 --> 01:38:57,033
A note to Davis and Noah.
1791
01:38:59,952 --> 01:39:01,412
The worst kind of note.
1792
01:39:07,794 --> 01:39:09,170
Do you think he jumped?
1793
01:39:13,216 --> 01:39:14,676
Should we call the cops?
1794
01:39:17,053 --> 01:39:19,972
I don't want him to find out
from some random detective.
1795
01:39:19,972 --> 01:39:21,891
[music slows]
1796
01:39:21,891 --> 01:39:23,226
[imperceptible]
1797
01:39:32,151 --> 01:39:34,237
[music turns somber]
1798
01:39:44,330 --> 01:39:45,373
[music fades]
1799
01:39:55,633 --> 01:39:57,719
[somber piano music playing]
1800
01:40:14,110 --> 01:40:14,986
[imperceptible]
1801
01:40:22,326 --> 01:40:24,370
[music turns mellow]
1802
01:40:32,670 --> 01:40:34,714
[whooshing on TV]
1803
01:40:39,302 --> 01:40:41,763
[Gina] So, how do I look?
1804
01:40:43,139 --> 01:40:45,308
Um, like you're
trying to get lucky.
1805
01:40:45,308 --> 01:40:49,103
- What? Is it too much?
Should I change?
- Mom, no. You look amazing.
1806
01:40:49,103 --> 01:40:50,605
And by "amazing" she means hot.
1807
01:40:50,605 --> 01:40:52,106
- [chuckles]
- [doorbell rings]
1808
01:40:52,732 --> 01:40:54,650
Ooh! Get it!
1809
01:40:54,650 --> 01:40:57,904
Uh, tell Evan if he doesn't
get you home by 11:00,
you're in big trouble.
1810
01:40:58,738 --> 01:40:59,697
Big trouble.
1811
01:41:03,117 --> 01:41:05,453
Well, you are far too young
to be my date.
1812
01:41:05,453 --> 01:41:06,454
[both chuckle]
1813
01:41:06,454 --> 01:41:07,830
[Davis] Hi, Mrs. Holmes.
1814
01:41:08,831 --> 01:41:09,999
Is Aza here?
1815
01:41:22,011 --> 01:41:22,970
[Aza] Davis.
1816
01:41:26,599 --> 01:41:28,309
I stole it
from a lizard for you.
1817
01:41:33,940 --> 01:41:34,982
Thank you.
1818
01:41:37,568 --> 01:41:39,070
Aza, Noah and I are moving.
1819
01:41:42,490 --> 01:41:43,616
Where?
1820
01:41:44,575 --> 01:41:45,785
Colorado.
1821
01:41:47,286 --> 01:41:49,455
Noah got into a special school
out there.
1822
01:41:51,707 --> 01:41:54,877
We just need a fresh start
1823
01:41:56,337 --> 01:41:57,338
after everything.
1824
01:41:59,799 --> 01:42:01,133
When are you leaving?
1825
01:42:04,136 --> 01:42:05,263
Tomorrow.
1826
01:42:08,724 --> 01:42:09,600
[Aza exhales]
1827
01:42:18,192 --> 01:42:19,443
You're a good brother.
1828
01:42:19,443 --> 01:42:21,696
[soft rock guitar music
building]
1829
01:42:27,243 --> 01:42:29,161
It's a funny phrase, isn't it?
1830
01:42:32,498 --> 01:42:33,541
"In love."
1831
01:42:36,752 --> 01:42:39,297
You don't get to be
in anything else.
1832
01:42:42,717 --> 01:42:46,596
In friendship, or in hope.
1833
01:42:50,182 --> 01:42:51,976
All you can be in, is love.
1834
01:43:14,290 --> 01:43:16,542
[softly] I think if I don't
go now, I'll never leave.
1835
01:43:23,007 --> 01:43:24,008
Okay.
1836
01:43:31,474 --> 01:43:32,600
Goodbye, Aza.
1837
01:43:42,818 --> 01:43:44,987
[soft rock guitar music
continues]
1838
01:43:58,584 --> 01:43:59,835
Maybe he'll be back.
1839
01:44:01,045 --> 01:44:02,088
[music fades]
1840
01:44:08,761 --> 01:44:09,804
Yeah.
1841
01:44:12,932 --> 01:44:13,975
Maybe.
1842
01:44:17,728 --> 01:44:21,357
"No one ever says goodbye
unless they wanna
see you again."
1843
01:44:30,908 --> 01:44:32,034
Daisy?
1844
01:44:33,411 --> 01:44:34,412
Yeah.
1845
01:44:36,080 --> 01:44:39,291
Do you think I'll ever be able
to actually be with someone?
1846
01:44:42,378 --> 01:44:43,379
Yes.
1847
01:44:43,379 --> 01:44:45,131
[soft rock guitar music
building]
1848
01:44:45,131 --> 01:44:46,632
I think you will.
1849
01:44:49,468 --> 01:44:53,139
I think you, Aza Holmes,
1850
01:44:54,473 --> 01:44:56,559
will have a very full life.
1851
01:45:00,312 --> 01:45:04,942
I think you'll go to college
and study whatever you want.
1852
01:45:06,610 --> 01:45:07,778
And you'll have a career.
1853
01:45:10,823 --> 01:45:12,324
One that you're proud of.
1854
01:45:16,579 --> 01:45:18,706
And I think
you will be with someone.
1855
01:45:20,666 --> 01:45:21,834
Someone great.
1856
01:45:25,963 --> 01:45:27,882
I think you, Holmsey,
1857
01:45:27,882 --> 01:45:30,051
will have
an incredible love story.
1858
01:45:31,510 --> 01:45:33,554
[music turns triumphant]
1859
01:45:38,893 --> 01:45:42,271
I even think you'll have
a family of your own one day.
1860
01:45:50,029 --> 01:45:52,698
You're gonna make
a whole damn life for yourself.
1861
01:45:53,574 --> 01:45:54,617
I know it.
1862
01:45:57,119 --> 01:45:58,412
But I don't want to lie to you.
1863
01:45:59,538 --> 01:46:01,999
I think
it'll be hard sometimes.
1864
01:46:01,999 --> 01:46:04,877
[music turns poignant]
1865
01:46:04,877 --> 01:46:08,464
I think, sometimes,
you'll see that life unbuilt.
1866
01:46:09,548 --> 01:46:11,342
[music building]
1867
01:46:21,852 --> 01:46:23,979
But you'll always rebuild it.
1868
01:46:26,273 --> 01:46:28,067
And you will never be alone.
1869
01:46:30,402 --> 01:46:31,821
I promise.
1870
01:46:33,572 --> 01:46:37,743
Because you will always love
and be loved.
1871
01:46:40,538 --> 01:46:43,040
And love is both
1872
01:46:43,040 --> 01:46:45,876
how you become a person
and why.
1873
01:46:49,171 --> 01:46:51,215
Love, Holmsey,
1874
01:46:53,217 --> 01:46:55,511
is how you become real.
1875
01:46:55,511 --> 01:46:57,680
[music turns triumphant]
1876
01:47:22,955 --> 01:47:25,124
["I'm Not Perfect
(But I'm Trying)" playing]
1877
01:47:27,293 --> 01:47:29,336
♪ Never in or out ♪
1878
01:47:29,336 --> 01:47:32,131
♪ Indecisive ♪
1879
01:47:32,131 --> 01:47:35,593
♪ Never did I think
I'd be doing this alone ♪
1880
01:47:36,802 --> 01:47:39,388
♪ Now we're upside down ♪
1881
01:47:39,388 --> 01:47:41,724
♪ Blinded ♪
1882
01:47:41,724 --> 01:47:45,519
♪ I'll admit defeat
I can barely sleep at all ♪
1883
01:47:45,519 --> 01:47:50,733
♪ I'd walk on water
If I could ♪
1884
01:47:50,733 --> 01:47:55,070
♪ To be loved
To be understood ♪
1885
01:47:55,070 --> 01:47:59,617
♪ What's it worth
Was it for the good? ♪
1886
01:47:59,617 --> 01:48:02,286
♪ For the good ♪
1887
01:48:03,996 --> 01:48:08,542
♪ I'm not perfect
But I'm trying ♪
1888
01:48:08,542 --> 01:48:13,005
♪ Pick my moment
Then I'll dive in ♪
1889
01:48:13,005 --> 01:48:15,716
♪ I've had my fair share
Of mistakes ♪
1890
01:48:15,716 --> 01:48:18,385
♪ So for now
It's far too late ♪
1891
01:48:18,385 --> 01:48:24,183
♪ I'll wait until
The tide's in ♪
1892
01:48:24,183 --> 01:48:29,271
♪ If it's all about
The timing ♪
1893
01:48:29,271 --> 01:48:33,692
♪ I don't feel enough
What's the need
To rush for now? ♪
1894
01:48:33,692 --> 01:48:38,781
♪ I see clouds
Without a silver lining ♪
1895
01:48:38,781 --> 01:48:42,660
♪ When I hesitate
Nothing ever lets me down ♪
1896
01:48:42,660 --> 01:48:47,831
♪ I'd walk on water
If I could ♪
1897
01:48:47,831 --> 01:48:52,127
♪ To be loved
To be understood ♪
1898
01:48:52,127 --> 01:48:56,757
♪ What's it worth
Was it for the good? ♪
1899
01:48:56,757 --> 01:49:00,844
♪ For the good ♪
1900
01:49:00,844 --> 01:49:04,223
♪ I'm not perfect
But I'm trying ♪
1901
01:49:05,724 --> 01:49:10,020
♪ Pick my moment
Then I'll dive in ♪
1902
01:49:10,020 --> 01:49:12,856
♪ I've had my fair share
Of mistakes ♪
1903
01:49:12,856 --> 01:49:15,567
♪ So for now
It's far too late ♪
1904
01:49:15,567 --> 01:49:21,323
♪ I'll wait until
The tide's in ♪
1905
01:49:21,323 --> 01:49:26,161
♪ Ooh-ooh ♪
1906
01:49:28,372 --> 01:49:33,585
♪ I'll wait until
The tide's in ♪
1907
01:49:33,585 --> 01:49:36,338
♪ Ooh-ooh ♪
1908
01:49:36,338 --> 01:49:39,591
♪ Dive in ♪
1909
01:49:46,849 --> 01:49:48,267
♪ Water ♪
1910
01:49:49,310 --> 01:49:51,353
♪ Dive in ♪
1911
01:49:51,353 --> 01:49:55,190
♪ Even when times
Get difficult ♪
1912
01:49:56,358 --> 01:49:57,735
♪ Water ♪
1913
01:49:58,777 --> 01:50:00,112
♪ Dive in ♪
1914
01:50:01,155 --> 01:50:02,781
♪ Even when times ♪
1915
01:50:02,781 --> 01:50:06,076
♪ I'm not perfect
But I'm trying ♪
1916
01:50:07,619 --> 01:50:11,957
♪ Pick my moment
Then I'll dive in ♪
1917
01:50:11,957 --> 01:50:14,626
♪ I've had my fair share
Of mistakes ♪
1918
01:50:14,626 --> 01:50:17,212
♪ So for now
It's far too late ♪
1919
01:50:17,212 --> 01:50:22,760
♪ I'll wait until
The tide's in ♪
1920
01:50:22,760 --> 01:50:26,930
♪ Oh-oh-oh-oh-oh ♪
1921
01:50:26,930 --> 01:50:29,224
♪ I'll wait until ♪
1922
01:50:29,224 --> 01:50:34,438
♪ I'll wait until
The tide goes in ♪
1923
01:50:34,438 --> 01:50:35,689
♪ Water ♪
1924
01:50:36,774 --> 01:50:37,608
♪ Dive in ♪
1925
01:50:37,608 --> 01:50:40,194
♪ Oh, dive in ♪
1926
01:50:43,906 --> 01:50:45,324
♪ Water ♪
1927
01:50:46,325 --> 01:50:47,868
♪ Dive in ♪
1928
01:50:47,868 --> 01:50:48,911
[song ends]
1929
01:50:48,911 --> 01:50:51,080
[calming pop music playing]
1930
01:51:08,597 --> 01:51:09,556
[music fades]