1 00:00:01,262 --> 00:00:02,741 - Previously on "You"... 2 00:00:02,785 --> 00:00:04,613 - I love our little routine. - [moans] 3 00:00:04,656 --> 00:00:06,832 - Always the same, but never stale. 4 00:00:06,876 --> 00:00:08,399 Your father was never consistent, 5 00:00:08,443 --> 00:00:10,184 and you're still healing from that with my help. 6 00:00:10,227 --> 00:00:11,620 And guess what. 7 00:00:11,663 --> 00:00:13,187 Now that I've made our morning sacred, 8 00:00:13,230 --> 00:00:14,797 you're actually writing. 9 00:00:14,840 --> 00:00:17,234 One day, I'll tell you about Candace. 10 00:00:17,278 --> 00:00:18,844 She broke my heart. - [laughs] 11 00:00:18,888 --> 00:00:20,542 - But you are good. 12 00:00:20,585 --> 00:00:23,153 You make cheating a distant memory. 13 00:00:23,197 --> 00:00:25,503 Peach is taking you out of town. 14 00:00:25,547 --> 00:00:26,983 I need to save you. 15 00:00:28,289 --> 00:00:30,639 [tires screeching, crash] 16 00:00:31,553 --> 00:00:33,381 - License and registration. 17 00:00:33,424 --> 00:00:34,947 - Sorry, Spencer Hewitt. 18 00:00:34,991 --> 00:00:36,253 - Dispatch to Nico, 19 00:00:36,297 --> 00:00:38,734 car's registered to an Ivan Mooney. 20 00:00:38,777 --> 00:00:39,735 - Kicked Ron out. 21 00:00:39,778 --> 00:00:41,345 You're right, people don't change. 22 00:00:41,389 --> 00:00:43,086 - Peach has it out for me. 23 00:00:43,130 --> 00:00:44,914 If I just keep being the perfect boyfriend, 24 00:00:44,957 --> 00:00:47,134 you'll realize that life is so much healthier 25 00:00:47,177 --> 00:00:49,005 away from this toxicity. 26 00:00:49,049 --> 00:00:50,876 - You have issues, okay? 27 00:00:50,920 --> 00:00:52,139 Don't make your desperate, 28 00:00:52,182 --> 00:00:54,097 unending need for attention about me. 29 00:00:54,141 --> 00:00:56,317 - It's freeing in a way to know for certain 30 00:00:56,360 --> 00:00:58,188 what I have to do to protect you. 31 00:00:58,232 --> 00:00:59,233 - Anyone here? 32 00:00:59,276 --> 00:01:01,322 - I would do anything for you. 33 00:01:01,365 --> 00:01:04,325 [both grunting] 34 00:01:04,368 --> 00:01:06,892 ♪ 35 00:01:06,936 --> 00:01:09,112 [gunshot] 36 00:01:09,156 --> 00:01:10,374 I'm not a bad person. 37 00:01:10,418 --> 00:01:12,159 She was going to ruin you. 38 00:01:12,202 --> 00:01:14,813 You're safe now, next to me. 39 00:01:14,857 --> 00:01:16,424 ♪ 40 00:01:19,035 --> 00:01:21,733 [soft, dramatic music] 41 00:01:21,777 --> 00:01:24,997 That first perfect month-- 42 00:01:25,041 --> 00:01:28,305 we'd been to hell and back, we'd done the hard work, 43 00:01:28,349 --> 00:01:29,698 and we were closer than ever, 44 00:01:29,741 --> 00:01:31,091 we were living the dream. 45 00:01:32,440 --> 00:01:33,963 Couldn't keep our hands off each other, 46 00:01:34,006 --> 00:01:36,226 couldn't keep anything off each other. 47 00:01:36,270 --> 00:01:38,968 I was ready to wait it out during the grief period, 48 00:01:39,011 --> 00:01:40,404 no matter what that looked like. 49 00:01:42,493 --> 00:01:45,148 But it only brought us closer together. 50 00:01:46,802 --> 00:01:51,198 That month after the funeral was-- 51 00:01:51,241 --> 00:01:53,156 it was intimate. 52 00:01:53,200 --> 00:01:54,462 Real. 53 00:01:56,942 --> 00:02:00,424 Just made us more. 54 00:02:00,468 --> 00:02:03,123 - No doubt, awash with champagne... 55 00:02:03,166 --> 00:02:04,776 - But then, over the next few weeks... 56 00:02:04,820 --> 00:02:06,387 [uneasy electronic music] 57 00:02:06,430 --> 00:02:08,215 Something happened. 58 00:02:08,258 --> 00:02:14,830 ♪ 59 00:02:14,873 --> 00:02:16,310 - Falafel. 60 00:02:18,181 --> 00:02:19,574 - Couldn't tell you the exact moment 61 00:02:19,617 --> 00:02:21,184 things went wrong between us. 62 00:02:21,228 --> 00:02:23,186 But, uh, 63 00:02:23,230 --> 00:02:25,232 wrong they have gone. 64 00:02:27,234 --> 00:02:30,019 - So that's why you're here in therapy, to... 65 00:02:30,062 --> 00:02:32,239 find out why your relationship went south? 66 00:02:32,282 --> 00:02:34,850 - Oh, it didn't just go south. 67 00:02:34,893 --> 00:02:36,025 It's over. 68 00:02:37,287 --> 00:02:38,593 And I wanna know why. 69 00:02:38,636 --> 00:02:41,857 [foreboding music] 70 00:02:41,900 --> 00:02:48,951 ♪ 71 00:02:50,257 --> 00:02:52,041 - Listen, here's the deal. 72 00:02:52,084 --> 00:02:55,218 Don't think of this as an office or me as a shrink. 73 00:02:55,262 --> 00:02:58,395 We're just two dudes, you know, shooting the shit. 74 00:02:59,266 --> 00:03:00,919 Why don't we start... [recorder beeps] 75 00:03:00,963 --> 00:03:03,879 When things were good with you two? 76 00:03:03,922 --> 00:03:07,404 - Hmm, my first kiss? Good question. 77 00:03:07,448 --> 00:03:10,233 I was 14, and I was going out 78 00:03:10,277 --> 00:03:13,323 with this, um, boy Matt. 79 00:03:13,367 --> 00:03:15,630 - You know, we told each other all the good stuff. 80 00:03:15,673 --> 00:03:18,502 - He was so sweet, and we went to see, um, 81 00:03:18,546 --> 00:03:22,071 "Hitch" together... [laughs] 82 00:03:22,114 --> 00:03:24,247 And I was waiting for him to make the move. 83 00:03:24,291 --> 00:03:27,163 - Waiting--so, what, that was your first kiss? 84 00:03:27,207 --> 00:03:31,385 - No, it was two nights later on a school camping trip, 85 00:03:31,428 --> 00:03:34,126 in a tent in the rain, 86 00:03:34,170 --> 00:03:35,432 with his best friend, Chad. 87 00:03:35,476 --> 00:03:38,392 - Oh, Chad. - I know. 88 00:03:38,435 --> 00:03:40,002 - Chad. - I know. 89 00:03:40,045 --> 00:03:43,701 [laughs] I mean, but Chad, he just--he went for it, 90 00:03:43,745 --> 00:03:45,616 and I've always had trouble with that kind of thing, 91 00:03:45,660 --> 00:03:49,533 the whole good guy versus bad boy bit. 92 00:03:49,577 --> 00:03:51,405 Don't look at me that way. 93 00:03:51,448 --> 00:03:53,842 Trust me, I wish I could have a redo. 94 00:03:53,885 --> 00:03:56,801 I still feel like a hootsie for it. 95 00:03:56,845 --> 00:03:59,282 - A hootsie? 96 00:03:59,326 --> 00:04:00,283 That should totally be a word. 97 00:04:00,327 --> 00:04:01,458 - [laughs] 98 00:04:02,416 --> 00:04:03,678 No real words? 99 00:04:03,721 --> 00:04:05,593 - Only fake ones. - [laughs] 100 00:04:05,636 --> 00:04:07,159 - Punklassical. - Photobomb. 101 00:04:07,203 --> 00:04:10,206 Ravey. - We connected on every level. 102 00:04:10,250 --> 00:04:11,251 It doesn't get any better. 103 00:04:11,294 --> 00:04:13,514 - Everythingship. 104 00:04:13,557 --> 00:04:15,472 I love that. 105 00:04:15,516 --> 00:04:18,388 It's like our word. 106 00:04:18,432 --> 00:04:20,042 Everythingship. 107 00:04:20,085 --> 00:04:21,826 And now... 108 00:04:21,870 --> 00:04:24,394 - A meeting of the minds, 109 00:04:24,438 --> 00:04:27,528 bodies, and souls. 110 00:04:27,571 --> 00:04:30,095 [mellow pop music] 111 00:04:30,139 --> 00:04:31,445 Okay, Beck, ready? 112 00:04:31,488 --> 00:04:32,968 [door creaks] 113 00:04:33,011 --> 00:04:34,535 ♪ 114 00:04:34,578 --> 00:04:36,058 - Wha... 115 00:04:36,101 --> 00:04:37,973 [laughs] 116 00:04:38,016 --> 00:04:40,497 It can't be. 117 00:04:40,541 --> 00:04:42,934 Are we redoing my first kiss? 118 00:04:42,978 --> 00:04:45,328 - We're redoing your first kiss. 119 00:04:45,372 --> 00:04:47,330 - Wow. 120 00:04:47,374 --> 00:04:50,551 I'm finally gonna kiss the right guy. 121 00:04:50,594 --> 00:04:54,511 - It was an everythingship, it really was. 122 00:04:54,555 --> 00:04:57,166 We were in a really healthy place. 123 00:04:57,209 --> 00:04:58,907 I mean, I'd even stopped 124 00:04:58,950 --> 00:05:02,432 relying on the, you know, like, these certain crutches. 125 00:05:02,476 --> 00:05:04,434 - Crutches? - Yeah. 126 00:05:04,478 --> 00:05:05,957 Checking social media, 127 00:05:06,001 --> 00:05:08,133 sneaking a peek at a locked screen and-- 128 00:05:08,177 --> 00:05:11,572 it was time to stop 'cause we were real. 129 00:05:11,615 --> 00:05:14,052 I just needed to-- - Trust? 130 00:05:15,576 --> 00:05:17,360 - Sure. 131 00:05:17,404 --> 00:05:19,231 I'll see you after work. 132 00:05:19,275 --> 00:05:20,581 - Yeah, about that. 133 00:05:20,624 --> 00:05:24,672 I may have gotten fired from the yoga studio. 134 00:05:25,847 --> 00:05:27,370 - May have? - Oh... 135 00:05:27,414 --> 00:05:30,504 I got fired. 136 00:05:30,547 --> 00:05:33,550 Apparently I fell asleep leading Savasana. 137 00:05:33,594 --> 00:05:34,725 - [snickers] 138 00:05:34,769 --> 00:05:36,814 - It's fine. I can find another job. 139 00:05:36,858 --> 00:05:38,773 I can... - Come work at Mooney's. 140 00:05:38,816 --> 00:05:40,383 I know, I know. Big step. 141 00:05:40,427 --> 00:05:41,384 - Joe. 142 00:05:41,428 --> 00:05:43,038 - Come on, it's perfect. 143 00:05:43,081 --> 00:05:45,562 Flexible hours, you have time to write. 144 00:05:45,606 --> 00:05:46,563 I wanna help. 145 00:05:46,607 --> 00:05:48,870 - I can't ask that of you. 146 00:05:48,913 --> 00:05:51,220 - Well, you're not asking, I'm offering. 147 00:05:51,263 --> 00:05:54,832 But big steps feel right in an everythingship. 148 00:05:54,876 --> 00:05:56,921 - Yeah, yeah, I get that. 149 00:06:01,012 --> 00:06:02,710 Oh, don't worry about this. 150 00:06:02,753 --> 00:06:04,799 I'm in early stages of asymptomatic glaucoma, 151 00:06:04,842 --> 00:06:06,409 so I got a prescription. 152 00:06:06,453 --> 00:06:09,281 I swear, this makes me such a better listener. 153 00:06:09,325 --> 00:06:11,632 They should do a study. 154 00:06:11,675 --> 00:06:14,591 [mysterious music] 155 00:06:14,635 --> 00:06:18,290 [inhaling] 156 00:06:18,334 --> 00:06:20,597 [exhaling] 157 00:06:20,641 --> 00:06:23,426 [sighs] So what happened next? 158 00:06:23,470 --> 00:06:24,558 - Ooh, hey, Ethan? 159 00:06:24,601 --> 00:06:27,430 Do you mind taking a picture of us? 160 00:06:27,474 --> 00:06:31,434 ♪ 161 00:06:31,478 --> 00:06:33,523 - [sighs] Uh, I'm sorry, 162 00:06:33,567 --> 00:06:34,611 I think I just need to sit down. 163 00:06:34,655 --> 00:06:37,527 I, um, pre-gamed the new Safran Foer 164 00:06:37,571 --> 00:06:38,702 by reading "Eating Animals," 165 00:06:38,746 --> 00:06:40,443 and I'm test driving veganism now, 166 00:06:40,487 --> 00:06:42,489 and I'm just feeling a little faint. 167 00:06:42,532 --> 00:06:43,577 both: Oh. 168 00:06:43,620 --> 00:06:46,275 - [laughs] Of course. 169 00:06:46,318 --> 00:06:47,711 [shutter clicks] 170 00:06:47,755 --> 00:06:50,192 - You two are absolutely adorable, 171 00:06:50,235 --> 00:06:54,805 and I am a lonely vegan island. 172 00:06:55,502 --> 00:06:56,851 - Someone needs a burger. 173 00:06:56,894 --> 00:07:00,071 - Or somewhere to put his meat. 174 00:07:00,115 --> 00:07:02,639 - Oh. - Okay, that was bad. 175 00:07:02,683 --> 00:07:04,685 I meant it sympathetically. 176 00:07:04,728 --> 00:07:06,687 [gentle string music] 177 00:07:06,730 --> 00:07:07,949 - We have a hashtag now? 178 00:07:07,992 --> 00:07:09,951 - Too much? - It's perfect. 179 00:07:09,994 --> 00:07:12,344 What happened next was we were doing great. 180 00:07:12,388 --> 00:07:16,087 It was safe to open up about the very hardest things. 181 00:07:16,131 --> 00:07:17,524 - You know, uh, 182 00:07:17,567 --> 00:07:20,527 Peach went on a date with JSF in high school. 183 00:07:20,570 --> 00:07:23,660 - I thought that grief was really the last frontier. 184 00:07:23,704 --> 00:07:25,575 - Apparently, he ate pork belly. 185 00:07:25,619 --> 00:07:27,664 Very scandalous. 186 00:07:27,708 --> 00:07:30,319 And Peach always said th-- 187 00:07:30,362 --> 00:07:32,669 um... [laughs] 188 00:07:32,713 --> 00:07:34,802 - You can talk about her, you know. 189 00:07:34,845 --> 00:07:36,368 - Yeah, I know. 190 00:07:36,412 --> 00:07:38,675 - You haven't mentioned her since the funeral. 191 00:07:38,719 --> 00:07:40,111 It's been over a month. 192 00:07:40,155 --> 00:07:41,939 And we were at that frontier together. 193 00:07:41,983 --> 00:07:43,898 - Actually, I think I-- 194 00:07:43,941 --> 00:07:46,553 I'd rather save it for therapy, if that's okay. 195 00:07:46,596 --> 00:07:48,990 [foreboding music] 196 00:07:49,033 --> 00:07:50,339 - Therapy? 197 00:07:50,382 --> 00:07:51,993 Except, it turns out, we weren't. 198 00:07:52,036 --> 00:07:55,518 - Yeah, I--I used to go about a year ago, 199 00:07:55,562 --> 00:07:57,041 but I stopped, but then after Peach, 200 00:07:57,085 --> 00:07:59,566 I thought it was worth it 201 00:07:59,609 --> 00:08:03,352 to go for a bit. 202 00:08:03,395 --> 00:08:04,527 I mean, honestly, 203 00:08:04,571 --> 00:08:05,702 Dr. Nicky's been really helpful 204 00:08:05,746 --> 00:08:08,575 dealing with my grief. 205 00:08:08,618 --> 00:08:09,793 I think we need more stars. 206 00:08:09,837 --> 00:08:12,100 They're in your office, right? - Yeah. 207 00:08:12,143 --> 00:08:13,405 ♪ 208 00:08:13,449 --> 00:08:15,190 Don't get me wrong... [stammers] 209 00:08:15,233 --> 00:08:16,626 There's nothing wrong with going to therapy, 210 00:08:16,670 --> 00:08:18,410 it's just, it's a bit troubling 211 00:08:18,454 --> 00:08:20,500 when your partner hides something from you. 212 00:08:21,544 --> 00:08:23,894 Don't you agree, Dr. Nicky? 213 00:08:23,938 --> 00:08:25,461 - I hear you, Paul. 214 00:08:25,505 --> 00:08:27,028 Not cool. 215 00:08:27,071 --> 00:08:28,943 - Forgive me, Beck, but for the purposes 216 00:08:28,986 --> 00:08:30,684 of this session with your therapist, 217 00:08:30,727 --> 00:08:32,686 you are Renaldo... - [echoing speech] 218 00:08:32,729 --> 00:08:35,515 - Tall, dark, and man-bunned backup dancer for Beyoncé, 219 00:08:35,558 --> 00:08:37,560 and I, Paul, well, I manage a bar. 220 00:08:37,604 --> 00:08:38,909 Every asshole in this city 221 00:08:38,953 --> 00:08:40,650 has the same not-so-special problems. 222 00:08:40,694 --> 00:08:43,697 It won't be hard to hide who I am. 223 00:08:43,740 --> 00:08:45,786 - You two seem pretty copacetic, 224 00:08:45,829 --> 00:08:47,570 sort of, uh... 225 00:08:47,614 --> 00:08:50,965 things were Ross and Rachel with you and Renaldo. 226 00:08:51,008 --> 00:08:52,749 - Yeah. 227 00:08:52,793 --> 00:08:55,752 I guess they--they were, 228 00:08:55,796 --> 00:08:57,058 until they weren't. 229 00:08:57,101 --> 00:08:58,799 See, I thought I'd eliminated all 230 00:08:58,842 --> 00:09:01,932 the obstacles between us-- Beck, Benji, Peach-- 231 00:09:01,976 --> 00:09:04,456 but now another has reared its head, 232 00:09:04,500 --> 00:09:07,198 and he's sitting right in front of me. 233 00:09:12,334 --> 00:09:14,641 - All right, Paul, let's keep digging into this. 234 00:09:14,684 --> 00:09:16,599 All right, tell me, when did you see 235 00:09:16,643 --> 00:09:19,036 the first cracks with Renaldo? 236 00:09:19,080 --> 00:09:22,387 [soft, dramatic music] 237 00:09:22,431 --> 00:09:24,738 - Well, having Renaldo at work was amazing, 238 00:09:24,781 --> 00:09:27,871 but it did force me to confront some slightly 239 00:09:27,915 --> 00:09:31,440 careless aspects of his personality. 240 00:09:31,483 --> 00:09:38,186 ♪ 241 00:09:38,229 --> 00:09:40,275 I tried to cut him some slack-- 242 00:09:40,318 --> 00:09:42,973 you know, new job-- and somewhere in there, 243 00:09:43,017 --> 00:09:45,193 he's still grieving, right? 244 00:09:45,236 --> 00:09:47,717 - [clears throat] - Hey. 245 00:09:47,761 --> 00:09:50,067 - We need to talk. - About what? 246 00:09:50,111 --> 00:09:53,157 - Look, this is uncomfortable, she's your girlfriend, 247 00:09:53,201 --> 00:09:55,856 and lord knows I'm not one to criticize, 248 00:09:55,899 --> 00:09:58,336 but Becky's terrible, Joe. 249 00:09:58,380 --> 00:10:00,861 Okay? She's always late, she leaves the register open, 250 00:10:00,904 --> 00:10:02,732 she doesn't know how to organize by genre. 251 00:10:02,776 --> 00:10:04,473 Just this morning, she chewed out 252 00:10:04,516 --> 00:10:06,780 a 14-year-old for buying "American Tragedy" for school 253 00:10:06,823 --> 00:10:07,737 because she hates Dreiser. 254 00:10:07,781 --> 00:10:09,652 Everyone hates Dreiser. 255 00:10:09,696 --> 00:10:11,959 But this is a bookstore, okay? We're trying to sell books. 256 00:10:12,002 --> 00:10:13,743 And I hear you, buddy. 257 00:10:13,787 --> 00:10:16,354 You're caught up hard in the Tilt-A-Whirl of punani, 258 00:10:16,398 --> 00:10:18,574 and that is something I struggle with every day. 259 00:10:18,618 --> 00:10:19,923 But here's the thing, brother. 260 00:10:19,967 --> 00:10:23,492 Shitting where you eat just leads to confusion 261 00:10:23,535 --> 00:10:25,146 and E. coli. 262 00:10:26,190 --> 00:10:29,324 So I'm gonna let you ruminate on that for a little bit. 263 00:10:30,455 --> 00:10:32,893 - Yeah, well, we were a little imperfect. 264 00:10:32,936 --> 00:10:34,895 [phone rings] 265 00:10:34,938 --> 00:10:36,940 But I still thought we were in great shape, 266 00:10:36,984 --> 00:10:38,899 if that was the worst of our problems. 267 00:10:38,942 --> 00:10:42,772 [tense music] 268 00:10:42,816 --> 00:10:46,558 [coughs, clears throat] 269 00:10:46,602 --> 00:10:48,430 Mooney's, rare and used. 270 00:10:48,473 --> 00:10:50,824 - This is Officer Nico, Greenwich Sheriff's Department. 271 00:10:50,867 --> 00:10:53,870 I'm looking for a Mr. Ivan Mooney. 272 00:10:53,914 --> 00:10:55,567 - Speaking. 273 00:10:55,611 --> 00:10:57,569 - Calling about a Buick registered to your name. 274 00:10:57,613 --> 00:11:00,442 - Yeah, I gave that car to my nephew, Spencer. 275 00:11:00,485 --> 00:11:01,922 Is he in trouble? 276 00:11:01,965 --> 00:11:03,880 - [laughs softly] No. 277 00:11:03,924 --> 00:11:06,840 I was just calling about a little fender bender he had. 278 00:11:06,883 --> 00:11:08,972 It was nothing. Have a nice day. 279 00:11:09,016 --> 00:11:10,974 [tense music] 280 00:11:11,018 --> 00:11:12,846 ♪ 281 00:11:12,889 --> 00:11:14,543 - That was too close. 282 00:11:14,586 --> 00:11:17,285 ♪ 283 00:11:17,328 --> 00:11:20,810 I just saw my job as keeping the outside world away 284 00:11:20,854 --> 00:11:22,116 so Renaldo could heal. 285 00:11:22,159 --> 00:11:25,728 Hey, Ethan said you were late again today. 286 00:11:25,772 --> 00:11:27,861 - Yeah, I know. Sorry. 287 00:11:27,904 --> 00:11:31,560 - It was hard to find a line between boss and boyfriend, 288 00:11:31,603 --> 00:11:33,780 between supporting and enabling. 289 00:11:33,823 --> 00:11:36,870 - But you did say the hours were flexible 290 00:11:36,913 --> 00:11:38,393 and that I'd have time to write. 291 00:11:38,436 --> 00:11:41,744 - I did, but you haven't been writing. 292 00:11:41,788 --> 00:11:44,704 - Thinking about writing is a part of the process. 293 00:11:46,531 --> 00:11:48,533 Okay, that sounded like bullshit, 294 00:11:48,577 --> 00:11:51,406 even as I said it. 295 00:11:51,449 --> 00:11:52,886 I'm sorry. 296 00:11:52,929 --> 00:11:55,236 The truth is... 297 00:11:55,279 --> 00:11:58,805 I've been having really vivid dreams about Peach. 298 00:12:00,807 --> 00:12:02,373 - I'm sorry about that. 299 00:12:02,417 --> 00:12:05,159 - It's not your fault, it's just... 300 00:12:05,202 --> 00:12:08,858 her face, it's...fading, 301 00:12:08,902 --> 00:12:13,733 and I didn't think that would happen so fast. 302 00:12:13,776 --> 00:12:15,865 But she comes at night, so, 303 00:12:15,909 --> 00:12:20,522 now I am too tired to write and falling behind at school, 304 00:12:20,565 --> 00:12:24,526 and now I'm failing you by being bad at this job. 305 00:12:24,569 --> 00:12:26,963 - I couldn't tell if I was helping; I thought I was. 306 00:12:27,007 --> 00:12:29,444 - It's pathetic-- the only good thing 307 00:12:29,487 --> 00:12:31,751 in my life right now is therapy. 308 00:12:32,752 --> 00:12:34,188 - That's the only good thing? 309 00:12:34,231 --> 00:12:36,712 - Joe, don't be like that. 310 00:12:36,756 --> 00:12:38,496 - Or I was totally wrong, and there were 311 00:12:38,540 --> 00:12:41,412 dark forces at work I wasn't privy to. 312 00:12:41,456 --> 00:12:43,240 [loud knocking] - Claudia! 313 00:12:43,284 --> 00:12:45,982 - There are people who are thoroughly delusional 314 00:12:46,026 --> 00:12:47,897 about their relationship. - Claudia! 315 00:12:47,941 --> 00:12:49,856 - Get your scrub ass out of here, Ron. 316 00:12:49,899 --> 00:12:51,901 - Karen, stop being a meddling bitch 317 00:12:51,945 --> 00:12:53,773 and tell me where Claudia is. 318 00:12:53,816 --> 00:12:56,036 - For example, my neighbor's alcoholic boyfriend 319 00:12:56,079 --> 00:12:59,691 literally has to be chased away with a baseball bat. 320 00:12:59,735 --> 00:13:01,868 [mellow music] 321 00:13:01,911 --> 00:13:03,695 - This isn't over, Karen. 322 00:13:03,739 --> 00:13:06,394 [tapping] Can't hide forever, Claudia! 323 00:13:06,437 --> 00:13:08,004 - Do I know you? 324 00:13:08,048 --> 00:13:09,136 - No. 325 00:13:09,179 --> 00:13:11,355 - You don't know me at all? 326 00:13:11,399 --> 00:13:14,315 - No. - Then what are you staring at? 327 00:13:14,358 --> 00:13:15,882 - But we were different... 328 00:13:15,925 --> 00:13:17,709 [door slams] 329 00:13:17,753 --> 00:13:19,189 I thought. 330 00:13:19,233 --> 00:13:21,713 - Sounds like working with Renaldo at the bar 331 00:13:21,757 --> 00:13:23,411 wasn't such a hot idea, huh? 332 00:13:23,454 --> 00:13:28,024 - I mean, sure, it was difficult to navigate at times. 333 00:13:29,896 --> 00:13:31,723 But it had its good parts. 334 00:13:31,767 --> 00:13:33,421 Beck? 335 00:13:34,770 --> 00:13:36,946 Beck? 336 00:13:36,990 --> 00:13:39,949 [Hamilton Leithauser's "Heartstruck" playing] 337 00:13:39,993 --> 00:13:42,734 ♪ 338 00:13:42,778 --> 00:13:46,086 - ♪ Unwind 339 00:13:46,129 --> 00:13:48,740 ♪ Your watch 340 00:13:48,784 --> 00:13:50,307 ♪ 341 00:13:50,351 --> 00:13:52,788 ♪ Shut your eyes 342 00:13:52,832 --> 00:13:53,963 ♪ A minute 343 00:13:54,007 --> 00:13:55,922 ♪ 344 00:13:55,965 --> 00:13:58,620 ♪ 'Cause your heart 345 00:13:58,663 --> 00:14:00,883 ♪ Killed mine 346 00:14:00,927 --> 00:14:02,145 ♪ 347 00:14:02,189 --> 00:14:04,887 ♪ And I would close 348 00:14:04,931 --> 00:14:08,935 ♪ The distance 349 00:14:08,978 --> 00:14:10,153 - Hi. 350 00:14:10,197 --> 00:14:14,157 - Hi, what is this? 351 00:14:14,201 --> 00:14:16,072 - I thought we could use a-- 352 00:14:16,116 --> 00:14:18,596 a little date night. 353 00:14:18,640 --> 00:14:19,597 [laughs] 354 00:14:19,641 --> 00:14:24,385 ♪ 355 00:14:24,428 --> 00:14:27,170 Meatball subs, your favorite. 356 00:14:27,214 --> 00:14:28,824 [lid clatters] 357 00:14:30,173 --> 00:14:32,959 Well, what do you think? 358 00:14:33,002 --> 00:14:34,743 - I think one errant candle 359 00:14:34,786 --> 00:14:38,703 could destroy an entire collection of rare books, 360 00:14:38,747 --> 00:14:41,054 but... 361 00:14:41,097 --> 00:14:44,927 you are worth it. 362 00:14:44,971 --> 00:14:48,931 - [laughs] 363 00:14:48,975 --> 00:14:51,020 [soft music] 364 00:14:51,064 --> 00:14:53,457 I feel bad for girls who don't eat. 365 00:14:53,501 --> 00:14:55,851 It always made me sad with Peach. 366 00:14:55,895 --> 00:14:58,810 ♪ 367 00:14:58,854 --> 00:15:00,073 What? 368 00:15:00,116 --> 00:15:02,118 - [stammers] 369 00:15:02,162 --> 00:15:04,555 You're talking about Peach. 370 00:15:04,599 --> 00:15:06,601 It's good. 371 00:15:06,644 --> 00:15:08,516 - Yeah. 372 00:15:08,559 --> 00:15:09,952 I guess so. 373 00:15:09,996 --> 00:15:15,131 ♪ 374 00:15:15,175 --> 00:15:17,220 You know, I, uh, 375 00:15:17,264 --> 00:15:20,136 I had this Little Mermaid sleeping bag when I was a kid. 376 00:15:20,180 --> 00:15:22,486 God, I loved that thing. 377 00:15:22,530 --> 00:15:25,098 But then it started to smell bad, 378 00:15:25,141 --> 00:15:27,709 like, fungus-bad. 379 00:15:27,752 --> 00:15:30,364 I couldn't bring myself to get rid of it, though. 380 00:15:30,407 --> 00:15:32,061 It was like-- - A security blanket. 381 00:15:32,105 --> 00:15:34,629 - Exactly. 382 00:15:34,672 --> 00:15:36,065 But then I lost it, 383 00:15:36,109 --> 00:15:40,069 and even though I was sad, 384 00:15:40,113 --> 00:15:42,115 I was kinda relieved because I didn't-- 385 00:15:42,158 --> 00:15:45,205 I didn't actually have to get rid of it. 386 00:15:45,248 --> 00:15:47,381 ♪ 387 00:15:47,424 --> 00:15:50,036 And it's-- it's the same with Peach. 388 00:15:50,079 --> 00:15:51,428 There is a part of me-- 389 00:15:51,472 --> 00:15:53,387 oh, God, it sounds terrible. 390 00:15:53,430 --> 00:15:56,999 Not that I'm comparing Peach to a cheap, nylon sleeping bag, 391 00:15:57,043 --> 00:15:59,610 I, uh... 392 00:15:59,654 --> 00:16:00,655 [laughs] 393 00:16:00,698 --> 00:16:03,092 This metaphor made a lot more sense 394 00:16:03,136 --> 00:16:05,094 when I came to it with Dr. Nicky. 395 00:16:06,182 --> 00:16:07,792 I think all this Peach stuff is coming up 396 00:16:07,836 --> 00:16:10,012 because of my birthday. 397 00:16:11,187 --> 00:16:13,059 - December 3rd. 398 00:16:14,886 --> 00:16:15,844 - [laughs] 399 00:16:15,887 --> 00:16:17,063 You remembered? 400 00:16:17,106 --> 00:16:19,674 - Of course. 401 00:16:19,717 --> 00:16:21,241 - Anyway, 402 00:16:21,284 --> 00:16:26,028 Peach made such a big deal about birthdays. 403 00:16:26,072 --> 00:16:29,336 And she always made sure I felt super special 404 00:16:29,379 --> 00:16:33,862 and would plan the whole thing, and... 405 00:16:33,905 --> 00:16:35,777 now I don't... 406 00:16:35,820 --> 00:16:36,952 - I'll handle it. 407 00:16:36,996 --> 00:16:38,954 - No, Joe-- - No, what do you want? 408 00:16:38,998 --> 00:16:42,349 A night at the Met? A tasting menu at Momofuku? 409 00:16:42,392 --> 00:16:45,743 Hell, I'll even sing karaoke with Annika and Lynn. 410 00:16:45,787 --> 00:16:48,050 - [laughs] 411 00:16:48,094 --> 00:16:50,270 That's sweet, that's really... 412 00:16:50,313 --> 00:16:52,011 [laughs] Really sweet. 413 00:16:52,054 --> 00:16:53,229 But I-- 414 00:16:53,273 --> 00:16:56,667 I think I'd rather keep it low-key and small. 415 00:16:57,712 --> 00:17:01,237 - No. No to small, no to low-key. 416 00:17:01,281 --> 00:17:03,587 - [sighs] 417 00:17:03,631 --> 00:17:06,503 I don't know, Lynn, Beck was pretty emphatic. 418 00:17:06,547 --> 00:17:10,029 - Dude, Beck's a Sagittarius. She craves attention. 419 00:17:10,072 --> 00:17:12,248 This is a test, okay? Part of the fun 420 00:17:12,292 --> 00:17:14,511 is making a guy think that you don't want something 421 00:17:14,555 --> 00:17:16,122 and seeing if he still comes through. 422 00:17:16,165 --> 00:17:17,340 - No, Beck's not like that. 423 00:17:17,384 --> 00:17:19,212 - Let me give you a little lesson on Beck. 424 00:17:19,255 --> 00:17:21,605 Every year she wants to "keep it simple," 425 00:17:21,649 --> 00:17:24,260 and every year, whatever guy that she's dating 426 00:17:24,304 --> 00:17:28,351 royally blows it, and Peach swoops in on her Manolos 427 00:17:28,395 --> 00:17:30,484 and throws Beck a party for the ages. 428 00:17:30,527 --> 00:17:32,660 Only now, no Peach. 429 00:17:32,703 --> 00:17:34,749 God rest her beautiful soul. 430 00:17:34,792 --> 00:17:38,100 - So you're saying throw a party? 431 00:17:38,144 --> 00:17:40,015 - I'll help. 432 00:17:41,190 --> 00:17:43,018 I need a distraction. 433 00:17:43,062 --> 00:17:45,412 - And I think because I was anxious about this, 434 00:17:45,455 --> 00:17:47,588 my judgment was a little off. 435 00:17:47,631 --> 00:17:50,330 - If I bury my sorrows in anymore booze and boys, 436 00:17:50,373 --> 00:17:52,506 I'm gonna get syphilis again. 437 00:17:52,549 --> 00:17:55,465 And Annika is still at Esalen on her grief retreat so-- 438 00:17:55,509 --> 00:17:57,250 - But she didn't like Peach. 439 00:17:57,293 --> 00:17:59,078 - None of us liked Peach. 440 00:18:00,166 --> 00:18:02,994 But we loved her. 441 00:18:03,038 --> 00:18:06,172 Losing a friend is super complicated, Joe. 442 00:18:06,215 --> 00:18:07,260 I need this. 443 00:18:07,303 --> 00:18:09,871 Beck needs it. 444 00:18:09,914 --> 00:18:11,829 - Which is why I was stupid enough 445 00:18:11,873 --> 00:18:14,223 to think Renaldo's friends should be listened to, ever. 446 00:18:14,267 --> 00:18:15,268 - It'll just be some friends, 447 00:18:15,311 --> 00:18:16,704 some NYU people. 448 00:18:16,747 --> 00:18:19,924 We'll make it a surprise party, hmm? 449 00:18:19,968 --> 00:18:21,230 A book theme, 450 00:18:21,274 --> 00:18:22,797 and everyone can come dressed 451 00:18:22,840 --> 00:18:24,364 as their favorite literary character. 452 00:18:24,407 --> 00:18:26,192 What do you say? 453 00:18:26,235 --> 00:18:28,759 Put it to you this way. 454 00:18:28,803 --> 00:18:31,066 Would you rather do something and be wrong 455 00:18:31,110 --> 00:18:33,242 or nothing and be wrong? 456 00:18:33,286 --> 00:18:34,548 - Surprise party. 457 00:18:34,591 --> 00:18:36,158 Hmm, I thought it would cheer him up 458 00:18:36,202 --> 00:18:38,378 after the death of... 459 00:18:38,421 --> 00:18:41,163 his beloved shih tzu. 460 00:18:41,207 --> 00:18:43,992 Get his mind off of things. 461 00:18:44,035 --> 00:18:46,212 - And? 462 00:18:46,255 --> 00:18:47,778 Did it? 463 00:18:47,822 --> 00:18:50,129 - No, it was the beginning of the end. 464 00:18:51,304 --> 00:18:52,696 - Because you threw him a surprise party? 465 00:18:52,740 --> 00:18:54,307 - No, no, because that's when I realized 466 00:18:54,350 --> 00:18:57,005 he was cheating on me with his therapist. 467 00:18:57,048 --> 00:18:59,486 [eerie music] 468 00:19:07,407 --> 00:19:09,887 [doorknob rattling, keys clanging] 469 00:19:11,454 --> 00:19:13,413 [heavy steps] 470 00:19:13,456 --> 00:19:15,458 - Oh, shit, you scared me. 471 00:19:16,329 --> 00:19:17,634 - What's all this? 472 00:19:17,678 --> 00:19:20,202 - Uh, oh, it's my girlfriend's birthday. 473 00:19:20,246 --> 00:19:22,161 Throwing her a little-- well, it's not so little. 474 00:19:22,204 --> 00:19:24,989 It's, um, it's a surprise party. 475 00:19:25,033 --> 00:19:26,382 Kind of a literary theme. 476 00:19:26,426 --> 00:19:28,689 Thus... 477 00:19:29,777 --> 00:19:32,258 I'm going as Ernest Hemingway. 478 00:19:32,301 --> 00:19:33,737 "The Old Man and the Sea," "The Sun Also"-- 479 00:19:33,781 --> 00:19:37,393 - I know who Hemingway is. 480 00:19:37,437 --> 00:19:39,569 Nice cake. 481 00:19:39,613 --> 00:19:42,006 She's lucky to have a man who cares. 482 00:19:43,747 --> 00:19:46,968 [dramatic hip-hop music] 483 00:19:47,011 --> 00:19:49,188 ♪ 484 00:19:49,231 --> 00:19:52,234 [indistinct chatter] 485 00:19:52,278 --> 00:19:54,018 [bell jingles] 486 00:19:54,062 --> 00:20:00,764 ♪ 487 00:20:00,808 --> 00:20:05,334 - Bacon-wrapped date? Bacon-wrapped date? 488 00:20:05,378 --> 00:20:07,641 Bacon-wrapped date? 489 00:20:07,684 --> 00:20:10,470 Good call. 490 00:20:10,513 --> 00:20:11,819 Bacon-wrapped date? 491 00:20:11,862 --> 00:20:13,386 - It's 9:40. 492 00:20:13,429 --> 00:20:15,039 Beck was supposed to be here at 9:00 to meet for dinner. 493 00:20:15,083 --> 00:20:16,693 - She'll be here, relax. 494 00:20:16,737 --> 00:20:18,695 You know what you need, my friend, is a drink. 495 00:20:18,739 --> 00:20:20,349 Hey, get this man a Catcher in the Rye. 496 00:20:20,393 --> 00:20:22,873 - No, no, no, it's fine. - She's here. 497 00:20:22,917 --> 00:20:25,485 Everyone hide. Places, people. 498 00:20:25,528 --> 00:20:26,529 Hide! 499 00:20:26,573 --> 00:20:33,884 ♪ 500 00:20:34,276 --> 00:20:36,974 all: Surprise! 501 00:20:37,018 --> 00:20:39,020 - How American. 502 00:20:39,063 --> 00:20:41,022 [laughs] 503 00:20:42,284 --> 00:20:44,460 - Who is that? 504 00:20:44,504 --> 00:20:47,071 - That's one of Beck's school friends, 505 00:20:47,115 --> 00:20:48,899 I think, I don't know. 506 00:20:48,943 --> 00:20:50,031 I'm texting her. 507 00:20:50,074 --> 00:20:51,337 [phone blips] 508 00:20:51,380 --> 00:20:58,039 ♪ 509 00:20:58,082 --> 00:20:59,345 What? 510 00:20:59,388 --> 00:21:04,872 ♪ 511 00:21:04,915 --> 00:21:09,137 - Rude to stare, especially in Asian cultures. 512 00:21:09,180 --> 00:21:11,313 Mr. Darcy, I take it? 513 00:21:11,357 --> 00:21:14,011 - Indeed. - Predictable. 514 00:21:14,055 --> 00:21:15,448 - Says Elizabeth Bennet. 515 00:21:15,491 --> 00:21:17,276 - Ugh, god, no. Dorothea Brooke. 516 00:21:17,319 --> 00:21:18,407 - "Middlemarch"? 517 00:21:18,451 --> 00:21:20,540 Named my shelter cat after George Eliot. 518 00:21:20,583 --> 00:21:22,672 I love her. 519 00:21:22,716 --> 00:21:24,195 - The cat or the author? 520 00:21:24,239 --> 00:21:26,110 - Both. 521 00:21:26,154 --> 00:21:27,547 - Meow. 522 00:21:27,590 --> 00:21:29,505 ♪ 523 00:21:29,549 --> 00:21:32,552 [big band music playing] 524 00:21:32,595 --> 00:21:33,596 - Hi, hey, I'm sorry, I'm sorry, 525 00:21:33,640 --> 00:21:35,337 can we chat for a second? 526 00:21:35,381 --> 00:21:37,644 - Oh, Joe, Joe, this is Constantine. 527 00:21:37,687 --> 00:21:39,602 He lives in Bushwick. 528 00:21:39,646 --> 00:21:41,125 ♪ 529 00:21:41,169 --> 00:21:42,953 - That's fine. Where the hell is Beck? 530 00:21:42,997 --> 00:21:44,781 - Do you wanna touch his moustache? 531 00:21:44,825 --> 00:21:46,348 - No, no, no, Lynn, no, Lynn. 532 00:21:46,392 --> 00:21:47,871 I don't wanna touch his moustache. 533 00:21:47,915 --> 00:21:49,569 - Joe. - I don't get it. 534 00:21:49,612 --> 00:21:50,918 I've tried to be the perfect boyfriend. 535 00:21:50,961 --> 00:21:53,747 I've bent over backwards. I gave her a job. 536 00:21:53,790 --> 00:21:56,184 I threw her this party. 537 00:21:56,227 --> 00:21:57,185 What else can I do? 538 00:21:57,228 --> 00:21:59,100 - People are puzzling. 539 00:21:59,143 --> 00:22:00,406 Peach committed suicide, 540 00:22:00,449 --> 00:22:02,886 and she's the strongest person I know--knew. 541 00:22:02,930 --> 00:22:05,367 - Beck isn't just puzzling, she's impossible. 542 00:22:05,411 --> 00:22:07,326 Like, where is she right now? 543 00:22:07,369 --> 00:22:08,805 [stammers] It's selfish. 544 00:22:08,849 --> 00:22:10,894 It's rude, but it's Beck... 545 00:22:10,938 --> 00:22:12,592 - Joe. - And tha-- 546 00:22:12,635 --> 00:22:14,811 ♪ 547 00:22:14,855 --> 00:22:15,899 Oh, shit. 548 00:22:15,943 --> 00:22:17,379 Hi--hey! 549 00:22:18,467 --> 00:22:20,382 - Can I speak to you for a sec? 550 00:22:20,426 --> 00:22:24,168 ♪ 551 00:22:24,212 --> 00:22:26,170 Joe, this is not what I asked for. 552 00:22:26,214 --> 00:22:30,000 I said quiet, and I said small. 553 00:22:30,044 --> 00:22:31,001 - Lynn said-- 554 00:22:31,045 --> 00:22:32,612 - Oh, now you're listening to Lynn? 555 00:22:32,655 --> 00:22:35,702 - In retrospect, a misfire. 556 00:22:35,745 --> 00:22:37,094 - Why are you wearing a turtleneck? 557 00:22:37,138 --> 00:22:39,401 - I'm Hemingway-- again, misfire. 558 00:22:39,445 --> 00:22:41,490 - Look, I appreciate the gesture, 559 00:22:41,534 --> 00:22:44,754 I just--I can't be at a party 560 00:22:44,798 --> 00:22:46,669 and pretend that everything is okay without Peach. 561 00:22:46,713 --> 00:22:48,584 I am not a robot. 562 00:22:48,628 --> 00:22:49,759 - Well, what about the other day, 563 00:22:49,803 --> 00:22:51,935 the relief you talked about? 564 00:22:51,979 --> 00:22:54,024 - Grief isn't a straight line, Joe. 565 00:22:54,068 --> 00:22:56,810 - I know, you've just been hard to read lately. 566 00:22:56,853 --> 00:22:58,594 - What is that supposed to mean? 567 00:22:58,638 --> 00:22:59,682 - [sighs] 568 00:23:01,684 --> 00:23:03,425 Where were you? 569 00:23:03,469 --> 00:23:04,774 - Sorry? - Beck, I called. 570 00:23:04,818 --> 00:23:07,081 I texted you. - Yeah, I know. 571 00:23:07,124 --> 00:23:09,649 I just--my, um... 572 00:23:09,692 --> 00:23:12,173 my therapy session ran long. 573 00:23:12,216 --> 00:23:16,177 Dr. Nicky and I were really making some headway. 574 00:23:16,220 --> 00:23:19,180 And then I guess I just-- I went for a walk, and... 575 00:23:19,223 --> 00:23:20,747 - You guess? 576 00:23:20,790 --> 00:23:22,923 Therapy and a walk? - Yes. 577 00:23:22,966 --> 00:23:24,968 - Then why do you smell like three glasses of rosé? 578 00:23:25,012 --> 00:23:28,015 - Because I sat down at some stupid bar with my journal 579 00:23:28,058 --> 00:23:30,104 trying to work through shit, Joe, that's it. 580 00:23:30,147 --> 00:23:31,453 - Okay so, then, why didn't you call me? 581 00:23:31,497 --> 00:23:33,281 - [sighs] I forgot. 582 00:23:33,324 --> 00:23:35,588 - But it's your birthday, Beck, we made dinner plans. 583 00:23:35,631 --> 00:23:36,676 - [stammering] Well, I--I just-- 584 00:23:36,719 --> 00:23:39,940 I lost track of time. 585 00:23:39,983 --> 00:23:41,507 - [sighs] 586 00:23:41,550 --> 00:23:44,597 [tense music] 587 00:23:44,640 --> 00:23:46,468 Beck, just tell me. 588 00:23:47,817 --> 00:23:49,471 [whispers] Just tell me. 589 00:23:50,429 --> 00:23:52,213 Tell me the truth, 590 00:23:52,256 --> 00:23:55,477 and we can get through anything. 591 00:23:55,521 --> 00:23:59,002 ♪ 592 00:23:59,046 --> 00:24:00,613 Okay, well, if you can't tell me, 593 00:24:00,656 --> 00:24:01,527 then show me, show me your phone. 594 00:24:01,570 --> 00:24:05,008 - [laughs] 595 00:24:05,052 --> 00:24:07,054 Are--are you serious right now? 596 00:24:07,097 --> 00:24:09,012 - You said yourself, you have a hard time with good guys. 597 00:24:09,056 --> 00:24:10,405 - What are you talking about? 598 00:24:10,449 --> 00:24:11,493 - The hootsie stuff. 599 00:24:11,537 --> 00:24:12,712 - [laughs] 600 00:24:12,755 --> 00:24:15,454 Okay, I'm--okay, fine. 601 00:24:15,497 --> 00:24:18,152 You wanna see my phone? 602 00:24:18,195 --> 00:24:19,719 Have at it. 603 00:24:19,762 --> 00:24:20,894 But if you do this, it means there is 604 00:24:20,937 --> 00:24:23,418 absolutely no trust between us, 605 00:24:23,462 --> 00:24:26,465 and if we don't have trust, we have nothing. 606 00:24:27,770 --> 00:24:29,642 Do you trust me? 607 00:24:29,685 --> 00:24:33,776 ♪ 608 00:24:33,820 --> 00:24:35,648 You know what, I can't-- 609 00:24:35,691 --> 00:24:37,171 I can't do this right now. 610 00:24:38,781 --> 00:24:41,175 Happy birthday to me. 611 00:24:41,218 --> 00:24:44,178 [somber music] 612 00:24:44,221 --> 00:24:50,663 ♪ 613 00:24:50,706 --> 00:24:53,230 - ♪ Birthday to you... 614 00:24:53,274 --> 00:24:55,798 [bell jingles] 615 00:24:55,842 --> 00:24:58,671 ♪ Happy bir... 616 00:24:58,714 --> 00:25:05,765 ♪ 617 00:25:12,598 --> 00:25:15,557 [mysterious music] 618 00:25:15,601 --> 00:25:17,559 ♪ 619 00:25:17,603 --> 00:25:21,041 - With his therapist? You sure? 620 00:25:21,084 --> 00:25:23,565 That's a pretty heavy accusation. 621 00:25:23,609 --> 00:25:26,176 ♪ 622 00:25:26,220 --> 00:25:28,527 How do you know? 623 00:25:28,570 --> 00:25:29,702 - Experience. 624 00:25:29,745 --> 00:25:31,834 Candace. 625 00:25:31,878 --> 00:25:33,401 There are certain tells you can just-- 626 00:25:33,444 --> 00:25:35,882 you can see it in their eyes when they look at you. 627 00:25:35,925 --> 00:25:38,667 - Been cheated on before? 628 00:25:38,711 --> 00:25:40,364 - In my last relationship. 629 00:25:40,408 --> 00:25:42,802 I was blind, I only saw what I wanted to see, 630 00:25:42,845 --> 00:25:44,717 but I didn't make that mistake again. 631 00:25:44,760 --> 00:25:48,068 This time, I made sure... 632 00:25:48,111 --> 00:25:51,811 that Renaldo was different. 633 00:25:51,854 --> 00:25:54,596 So I knew if he was lying or cheating, 634 00:25:54,640 --> 00:25:56,772 someone was using him. 635 00:25:56,816 --> 00:25:58,774 [dramatic musical thuds] 636 00:25:58,818 --> 00:26:00,428 - Look, I'm not--I'm not one of those shrinks 637 00:26:00,471 --> 00:26:02,082 that are obsessed with the past, 638 00:26:02,125 --> 00:26:04,432 but I think in this case, we should take a look. 639 00:26:04,475 --> 00:26:06,042 Why don't you tell me about your childhood? 640 00:26:06,086 --> 00:26:07,261 - Look, I mean, but we're not here 641 00:26:07,304 --> 00:26:08,741 to talk about my childhood, right? 642 00:26:08,784 --> 00:26:09,916 We're talking about my relationship. 643 00:26:09,959 --> 00:26:12,875 - Which ended because... a surprise party? 644 00:26:12,919 --> 00:26:15,486 - No, that's not when it ended. 645 00:26:19,665 --> 00:26:21,841 - I brought you a donut. 646 00:26:21,884 --> 00:26:24,844 [gentle music] 647 00:26:24,887 --> 00:26:26,628 ♪ 648 00:26:26,672 --> 00:26:28,456 It's glazed. 649 00:26:28,499 --> 00:26:32,242 ♪ 650 00:26:32,286 --> 00:26:33,722 - Wait, wait, hold up, hold up. 651 00:26:33,766 --> 00:26:35,594 So you're just back together 652 00:26:35,637 --> 00:26:36,682 regardless of your suspicions? 653 00:26:36,725 --> 00:26:38,335 - Eh, didn't matter. 654 00:26:38,379 --> 00:26:40,729 That was the past. 655 00:26:40,773 --> 00:26:42,862 - All right, so what happened next? 656 00:26:42,905 --> 00:26:44,733 - Things were good at first. 657 00:26:44,777 --> 00:26:46,343 But then it started to feel like something was different. 658 00:26:46,387 --> 00:26:49,695 - I feel like I'm hungrier than sushi. 659 00:26:49,738 --> 00:26:52,698 - Okay, pizza? - Too saucy. 660 00:26:52,741 --> 00:26:53,699 - Okay, Thai? 661 00:26:53,742 --> 00:26:55,657 - We had Thai for lunch. 662 00:26:55,701 --> 00:26:57,833 [phone dinging] 663 00:26:57,877 --> 00:27:00,967 [tense music] 664 00:27:01,010 --> 00:27:03,926 [sighs] Why do I always have to pick? 665 00:27:03,970 --> 00:27:05,841 ♪ 666 00:27:05,885 --> 00:27:07,713 - It's okay. [phone dings] 667 00:27:07,756 --> 00:27:08,975 I'll choose. 668 00:27:09,018 --> 00:27:11,542 - You're a snob, Connor. 669 00:27:11,586 --> 00:27:15,329 - It's a horrible feeling to know things have gone wrong 670 00:27:15,372 --> 00:27:17,548 and there's nothing you can do to change it. 671 00:27:17,592 --> 00:27:18,767 - George, I'm going to. 672 00:27:18,811 --> 00:27:20,595 [phone dings] 673 00:27:20,639 --> 00:27:27,646 ♪ 674 00:27:30,605 --> 00:27:33,695 - Mm, falafel. 675 00:27:33,739 --> 00:27:35,697 [phone dings] 676 00:27:35,741 --> 00:27:37,656 ♪ 677 00:27:37,699 --> 00:27:42,661 - You know something or someone has come between you, 678 00:27:42,704 --> 00:27:45,707 but I had to be sure. 679 00:27:45,751 --> 00:27:48,144 - I'll see you after class, okay? 680 00:27:48,188 --> 00:27:49,363 - Okay, bye. 681 00:27:49,406 --> 00:27:56,457 ♪ 682 00:28:04,813 --> 00:28:08,687 Heart, heart, heart. 683 00:28:11,690 --> 00:28:14,649 [suspenseful music] 684 00:28:14,693 --> 00:28:21,700 ♪ 685 00:28:28,054 --> 00:28:30,056 I wanted to be wrong. 686 00:28:30,099 --> 00:28:32,754 I never wanted to be wrong so badly 687 00:28:32,798 --> 00:28:34,756 in my life. 688 00:28:34,800 --> 00:28:37,019 I was begging to be proven wrong. 689 00:28:37,063 --> 00:28:38,847 [phone dings] 690 00:28:38,891 --> 00:28:41,807 ♪ 691 00:28:45,898 --> 00:28:47,856 But it was looking like I was right. 692 00:28:47,900 --> 00:28:54,950 ♪ 693 00:28:55,908 --> 00:28:57,823 You trust someone, 694 00:28:57,866 --> 00:29:00,782 you give them your heart, 695 00:29:00,826 --> 00:29:02,262 and what do they do? 696 00:29:02,305 --> 00:29:05,134 Is there even a punishment that fits 697 00:29:05,178 --> 00:29:08,442 the crime of lying, of manipulating like this, 698 00:29:08,485 --> 00:29:11,575 of breaking someone's heart? 699 00:29:11,619 --> 00:29:14,143 I guess I'm bad at picking good people, 700 00:29:14,187 --> 00:29:17,407 but I'm good at catching bad people red-handed. 701 00:29:17,451 --> 00:29:24,501 ♪ 702 00:29:30,812 --> 00:29:32,379 - Are you following me? 703 00:29:32,422 --> 00:29:34,076 ♪ 704 00:29:39,038 --> 00:29:41,867 - Answer me right now. Were you following me? 705 00:29:41,910 --> 00:29:44,739 - No, no, no. I was in the neighborhood. 706 00:29:44,783 --> 00:29:46,828 And then I--I saw you. 707 00:29:46,872 --> 00:29:49,091 - God, stop lying. 708 00:29:50,745 --> 00:29:53,617 You know, just tell me why. 709 00:29:53,661 --> 00:29:54,705 Why, Joe? 710 00:29:54,749 --> 00:29:56,533 - It's the being late, 711 00:29:56,577 --> 00:29:57,796 the secret texts. 712 00:29:57,839 --> 00:29:58,797 You've been different, Beck. 713 00:29:58,840 --> 00:30:00,059 - You're being crazy. 714 00:30:00,102 --> 00:30:01,843 - Are you sleeping with him? 715 00:30:01,887 --> 00:30:02,975 - Who? 716 00:30:04,890 --> 00:30:05,978 - Your therapist. 717 00:30:06,021 --> 00:30:07,196 - [laughs] Oh, my God. 718 00:30:07,240 --> 00:30:09,111 - Are you? I need to know. I want to know. 719 00:30:09,155 --> 00:30:12,419 - No! I am not sleeping with him. 720 00:30:12,462 --> 00:30:13,420 - Who's the fox? 721 00:30:13,463 --> 00:30:14,247 - What? 722 00:30:14,290 --> 00:30:17,206 - The fox. The fox, Beck! 723 00:30:17,250 --> 00:30:20,427 - My friend, Emma Fox, from Brown. 724 00:30:20,470 --> 00:30:22,037 But I guess that wasn't readily apparent 725 00:30:22,081 --> 00:30:24,387 on the text from my phone, huh? 726 00:30:24,431 --> 00:30:27,651 [soft, dramatic music] 727 00:30:27,695 --> 00:30:29,871 ♪ 728 00:30:29,915 --> 00:30:31,873 - Beck-- - Just don't. 729 00:30:31,917 --> 00:30:33,179 Joe, I told you. 730 00:30:33,222 --> 00:30:36,660 If we don't have trust, we have nothing. 731 00:30:36,704 --> 00:30:38,880 - I know, I know, I'm sorry. 732 00:30:40,142 --> 00:30:41,230 - Me too. 733 00:30:43,406 --> 00:30:46,583 You and I...we're over. 734 00:30:46,627 --> 00:30:53,677 ♪ 735 00:31:04,993 --> 00:31:07,822 - And that... 736 00:31:07,866 --> 00:31:10,085 that's when it ended. 737 00:31:10,129 --> 00:31:11,870 - That's one hell of a story. 738 00:31:14,133 --> 00:31:15,047 - What's your diagnosis? 739 00:31:15,090 --> 00:31:16,439 - My diagnosis? 740 00:31:16,483 --> 00:31:18,485 - Yeah, yeah, what do you make of it all? 741 00:31:18,528 --> 00:31:20,530 - Well, you might think I'm crazy 742 00:31:20,574 --> 00:31:24,056 'cause I've only known you 48 minutes, but... 743 00:31:24,099 --> 00:31:27,015 I think there's two of you-- 744 00:31:27,059 --> 00:31:28,930 two Paul Browns. 745 00:31:28,974 --> 00:31:32,064 One has been hurt in the past. 746 00:31:32,107 --> 00:31:33,761 You feel betrayed and hopeless. 747 00:31:33,804 --> 00:31:35,676 But the other one has faith, 748 00:31:35,719 --> 00:31:40,115 and in spite of the evidence to the contrary, 749 00:31:40,159 --> 00:31:43,249 he believes true love exists. 750 00:31:43,292 --> 00:31:45,338 And that is someone I think I can help. 751 00:31:45,381 --> 00:31:48,602 [soft, dramatic music] 752 00:31:48,645 --> 00:31:50,343 ♪ 753 00:31:50,386 --> 00:31:52,171 Our time is up now, but I-- 754 00:31:52,214 --> 00:31:55,130 I would, uh, sure be down to seeing you again if you'd like. 755 00:31:55,174 --> 00:32:00,744 ♪ 756 00:32:00,788 --> 00:32:02,050 - I don't think so. 757 00:32:02,094 --> 00:32:09,144 ♪ 758 00:32:12,191 --> 00:32:13,714 [door slams] 759 00:32:16,195 --> 00:32:19,981 Everything I do, I do to protect you, Beck. 760 00:32:20,025 --> 00:32:21,983 [door clicks] 761 00:32:22,027 --> 00:32:24,986 [foreboding music] 762 00:32:25,030 --> 00:32:28,947 ♪ 763 00:32:28,990 --> 00:32:31,819 Peach, Benji-- they left me no choice. 764 00:32:31,862 --> 00:32:33,690 They were dangerous. 765 00:32:33,734 --> 00:32:40,436 ♪ 766 00:32:40,480 --> 00:32:42,917 I think you might be in danger again. 767 00:32:42,961 --> 00:32:49,968 ♪ 768 00:33:01,022 --> 00:33:02,284 [elevator dings] 769 00:33:04,504 --> 00:33:09,204 But I need absolute proof first. 770 00:33:09,248 --> 00:33:10,553 And these days, 771 00:33:10,597 --> 00:33:14,079 the quickest way to a man's truth 772 00:33:14,122 --> 00:33:17,386 is through his computer. 773 00:33:17,430 --> 00:33:20,650 [doorknob rattling quietly] 774 00:33:20,694 --> 00:33:25,133 ♪ 775 00:33:25,177 --> 00:33:29,268 And if I find what I'm looking for, 776 00:33:29,311 --> 00:33:31,835 Dr. Nicky will be handled. 777 00:33:31,879 --> 00:33:38,929 ♪ 778 00:33:50,158 --> 00:33:53,248 - I mean, he followed me. 779 00:33:53,292 --> 00:33:56,077 That's just--it's not okay. 780 00:33:56,121 --> 00:33:58,906 - I get it, you feel violated. 781 00:33:58,949 --> 00:34:00,299 Pretend I'm Joe. 782 00:34:00,342 --> 00:34:02,083 What would you say to him right now? 783 00:34:03,563 --> 00:34:07,262 - The more you want me, the less I want you. 784 00:34:07,306 --> 00:34:12,441 I know, it's messed up, but it's true. 785 00:34:12,485 --> 00:34:15,314 Of course you think I'm hiding shit. 786 00:34:15,357 --> 00:34:17,925 I am... 787 00:34:17,968 --> 00:34:23,191 hiding what a complete, ugly mess I am. 788 00:34:23,235 --> 00:34:25,498 Behind this, like, cute, 789 00:34:25,541 --> 00:34:28,501 acceptable version of being a mess, it's insane. 790 00:34:28,544 --> 00:34:31,112 [soft, dramatic music] 791 00:34:31,156 --> 00:34:32,592 I haven't dealt with this shit 792 00:34:32,635 --> 00:34:35,725 that went on with me and Peach, 793 00:34:35,769 --> 00:34:38,989 or my dad, or Benji. 794 00:34:39,033 --> 00:34:41,166 And instead of putting it into my writing, 795 00:34:41,209 --> 00:34:43,298 I'm hibernating with you. 796 00:34:43,342 --> 00:34:48,477 ♪ 797 00:34:48,521 --> 00:34:50,697 And I resent you for it. 798 00:34:50,740 --> 00:34:53,134 ♪ 799 00:34:53,178 --> 00:34:56,050 I need space to heal, 800 00:34:56,094 --> 00:34:59,227 but every time I turn around, you're standing there, 801 00:34:59,271 --> 00:35:02,143 ready to make it all okay. 802 00:35:02,187 --> 00:35:04,232 But only I can do that. 803 00:35:04,276 --> 00:35:07,931 ♪ 804 00:35:07,975 --> 00:35:10,151 And if you really love me, 805 00:35:10,195 --> 00:35:12,893 you'll see that. 806 00:35:12,936 --> 00:35:14,286 ♪ 807 00:35:14,329 --> 00:35:16,288 You'll let me go. 808 00:35:16,331 --> 00:35:21,554 ♪ 809 00:35:24,209 --> 00:35:25,993 - Are you afraid you might be pushing away 810 00:35:26,036 --> 00:35:27,908 a good thing, Beck? 811 00:35:27,951 --> 00:35:31,085 Do you think Joe might be good for you? 812 00:35:31,129 --> 00:35:33,000 - Maybe. 813 00:35:33,043 --> 00:35:35,742 But it's what I need. 814 00:35:35,785 --> 00:35:39,354 ♪ 815 00:35:39,398 --> 00:35:42,401 - That doesn't sound like an illicit affair. 816 00:35:42,444 --> 00:35:44,229 That sounds like 817 00:35:44,272 --> 00:35:47,101 a messed-up girl in a crisis 818 00:35:47,145 --> 00:35:51,018 and a pretty decent therapist she's lucky to have. 819 00:35:51,061 --> 00:35:54,413 ♪ 820 00:35:54,456 --> 00:35:56,850 It also sounds like 821 00:35:56,893 --> 00:36:00,245 you were right to end it with me. 822 00:36:00,288 --> 00:36:05,293 ♪ 823 00:36:05,337 --> 00:36:10,342 I was wrong about all of it. 824 00:36:10,385 --> 00:36:13,258 The only thing I wasn't wrong about 825 00:36:13,301 --> 00:36:16,304 was loving you. 826 00:36:16,348 --> 00:36:19,177 So, I'm letting you go. 827 00:36:19,220 --> 00:36:21,788 [glass shattering] 828 00:36:21,831 --> 00:36:24,878 ♪ 829 00:36:30,362 --> 00:36:32,451 [knocking] 830 00:36:36,368 --> 00:36:37,325 - Hey. 831 00:36:37,369 --> 00:36:39,284 - Hi. 832 00:36:39,327 --> 00:36:41,242 - Thanks for opening the door, 833 00:36:41,286 --> 00:36:43,418 all things considered. 834 00:36:43,462 --> 00:36:47,117 Uh, look, there are a million things 835 00:36:47,161 --> 00:36:48,902 I could say right now, 836 00:36:48,945 --> 00:36:52,645 but all that matters is, I'm sorry. 837 00:36:53,820 --> 00:36:55,865 - Thank you. 838 00:36:55,909 --> 00:36:58,128 - Jealousy got the best of me. 839 00:37:00,435 --> 00:37:02,916 And I, uh, I was-- I was threatened 840 00:37:02,959 --> 00:37:06,354 that you needed someone to talk to who wasn't me. 841 00:37:06,398 --> 00:37:08,269 And I know you deserve that. 842 00:37:08,313 --> 00:37:10,489 You deserve to figure your stuff out. 843 00:37:11,881 --> 00:37:13,318 And if I was a smarter man, 844 00:37:13,361 --> 00:37:17,974 maybe I wouldn't let you go, but, um, 845 00:37:18,018 --> 00:37:20,934 I'm guessing that's what you need, 846 00:37:20,977 --> 00:37:23,415 so I will. 847 00:37:23,458 --> 00:37:24,981 [box clatters] 848 00:37:28,420 --> 00:37:31,379 [somber music] 849 00:37:31,423 --> 00:37:32,554 ♪ 850 00:37:32,598 --> 00:37:35,296 Goodbye, Beck. 851 00:37:35,340 --> 00:37:42,042 ♪ 852 00:37:42,085 --> 00:37:43,522 - [sighs] 853 00:37:43,565 --> 00:37:45,306 [whispers] Goodbye, Joe. 854 00:37:45,350 --> 00:37:48,004 ♪ 855 00:37:48,048 --> 00:37:51,094 - Turns out, it is like the movies. 856 00:37:51,138 --> 00:37:54,663 The second it's over, all you can remember 857 00:37:54,707 --> 00:37:57,362 is the stuff that made you fall in love, 858 00:37:57,405 --> 00:37:59,233 blazing through your mind, 859 00:37:59,277 --> 00:38:03,150 this rom-com montage made of the sweetest poison. 860 00:38:03,193 --> 00:38:06,327 - Everythingship. 861 00:38:06,371 --> 00:38:07,633 I love that. 862 00:38:07,676 --> 00:38:09,330 - I'd never felt this way before, 863 00:38:09,374 --> 00:38:13,769 where you love the bad things about someone 864 00:38:13,813 --> 00:38:16,337 as much as the good. 865 00:38:16,381 --> 00:38:17,947 [train whooshing] 866 00:38:17,991 --> 00:38:20,472 Maybe even a little more. 867 00:38:20,515 --> 00:38:22,256 ♪ 868 00:38:22,300 --> 00:38:25,477 Love isn't a strong enough word. 869 00:38:27,392 --> 00:38:30,264 Sometimes, it scares me 870 00:38:30,308 --> 00:38:32,048 to love someone so completely 871 00:38:32,092 --> 00:38:34,355 and not have them love you back. 872 00:38:34,399 --> 00:38:37,619 ♪ 873 00:38:37,663 --> 00:38:39,491 - I'm happy to see you here. 874 00:38:39,534 --> 00:38:42,624 I didn't think you'd come back after our last session. 875 00:38:42,668 --> 00:38:44,757 - Well, that's the thing, I... 876 00:38:44,800 --> 00:38:48,282 [stammers] I don't understand it. 877 00:38:48,326 --> 00:38:49,414 That's why I'm here. 878 00:38:49,457 --> 00:38:51,111 - What don't you understand? - Love. 879 00:38:51,154 --> 00:38:52,460 - [chuckles] 880 00:38:52,504 --> 00:38:55,855 You and 7 billion other people on this planet. 881 00:38:55,898 --> 00:38:58,423 If we understood love, I'd be out of a job. 882 00:38:58,466 --> 00:39:01,034 I have to say it's sort of unique to everybody, 883 00:39:01,077 --> 00:39:04,646 like a fingerprint, or a strand of DNA, 884 00:39:04,690 --> 00:39:07,519 or the song you lost your virginity to. 885 00:39:09,477 --> 00:39:12,350 "Hungry Like the Wolf." 886 00:39:12,393 --> 00:39:14,177 [mellow music] 887 00:39:14,221 --> 00:39:15,396 [glass clinks] 888 00:39:15,440 --> 00:39:17,093 ♪ 889 00:39:17,137 --> 00:39:19,966 Some people have a hard time letting love in. 890 00:39:20,009 --> 00:39:22,577 ♪ 891 00:39:22,621 --> 00:39:26,189 Some people are built for love. 892 00:39:26,233 --> 00:39:29,845 And some people are searching, 893 00:39:29,889 --> 00:39:31,760 searching for someone who can love them 894 00:39:31,804 --> 00:39:34,415 in the way that they deserve. 895 00:39:34,459 --> 00:39:36,417 That's you. 896 00:39:36,461 --> 00:39:38,158 - You look like shit. 897 00:39:38,201 --> 00:39:39,551 - Thanks. 898 00:39:39,594 --> 00:39:41,683 - What happened? 899 00:39:41,727 --> 00:39:44,730 - My girlfriend dumped me, all right? 900 00:39:44,773 --> 00:39:47,297 So if you don't mind... 901 00:39:49,038 --> 00:39:52,259 [mysterious percussive music] 902 00:39:52,302 --> 00:39:59,353 ♪ 903 00:40:02,574 --> 00:40:05,533 [both moaning] 904 00:40:05,577 --> 00:40:12,627 ♪ 905 00:40:18,503 --> 00:40:21,157 - Mm. 906 00:40:21,201 --> 00:40:23,290 I love you, Joe. 907 00:40:25,640 --> 00:40:27,642 [laughs] Your face! 908 00:40:27,686 --> 00:40:28,774 Oh, my God, I was just messing with you. 909 00:40:28,817 --> 00:40:31,080 - Oh... [weak laugh] 910 00:40:31,124 --> 00:40:33,039 [sheets ruffling] 911 00:40:33,082 --> 00:40:34,780 [sighs] 912 00:40:45,660 --> 00:40:48,707 [water running] 913 00:40:58,934 --> 00:41:00,806 - Are you gonna leave Beck alone? 914 00:41:00,849 --> 00:41:01,981 [ominous music] 915 00:41:02,024 --> 00:41:04,157 Or will she end up like me? 916 00:41:04,200 --> 00:41:05,767 ♪ 917 00:41:05,811 --> 00:41:08,770 [uneasy music] 918 00:41:08,814 --> 00:41:16,125 ♪