1 00:00:18,018 --> 00:00:19,394 Previously on 2 00:00:19,477 --> 00:00:23,064 It's been three days since the disappearance of Natalie Engler. 3 00:00:23,148 --> 00:00:24,858 -Falco. -We found the ring. 4 00:00:24,941 --> 00:00:25,859 Okay. 5 00:00:25,942 --> 00:00:27,652 Love, this is my son, Theo. 6 00:00:27,736 --> 00:00:28,987 Didn't know you had a son. 7 00:00:29,070 --> 00:00:32,949 I'm still very unclear as to why you decided to volunteer here. 8 00:00:33,033 --> 00:00:35,243 I'm at the hospital. Henry has the measles. 9 00:00:35,326 --> 00:00:37,829 -Who do you think it was? -Not closed yet, are you? 10 00:00:37,912 --> 00:00:40,248 Can't tell you how sorry we are for exposing Henry. 11 00:00:40,331 --> 00:00:42,167 We hope you won't hold it against us. 12 00:00:42,250 --> 00:00:43,543 -Hey, Gil. -Yep? 13 00:01:07,984 --> 00:01:10,403 Well, this came sooner than expected. 14 00:01:10,487 --> 00:01:13,406 The proverbial paint is hardly dry. 15 00:01:13,490 --> 00:01:14,908 Breathing. 16 00:01:14,991 --> 00:01:19,704 It's more than I can say for Natalie. Meaning, you did the right thing. 17 00:01:22,457 --> 00:01:25,168 Controlled your impulses. 18 00:01:28,963 --> 00:01:31,007 So I won't be frustrated with you, Love. No. 19 00:01:31,091 --> 00:01:32,217 This is growth, 20 00:01:32,300 --> 00:01:35,386 and it's important I show you I recognize it-- 21 00:01:35,470 --> 00:01:37,388 No. Appreciate it. 22 00:01:37,472 --> 00:01:41,309 I'll set aside the fact that we're using our son's baby monitor as surveillance. 23 00:01:41,392 --> 00:01:43,686 It's twisted but smart. 24 00:01:46,481 --> 00:01:48,399 Hey, Gil. Hey, buddy. 25 00:01:49,776 --> 00:01:50,819 Hey there. 26 00:01:51,653 --> 00:01:52,779 Hey. 27 00:01:52,862 --> 00:01:54,030 She hit me. 28 00:01:56,491 --> 00:01:57,325 I'm so sorry. 29 00:01:57,408 --> 00:01:59,410 "Slipped and hit your head" is off the table. 30 00:01:59,494 --> 00:02:01,287 Your wife. She knocked me out. 31 00:02:01,371 --> 00:02:03,081 Can't say it was a shock. 32 00:02:03,164 --> 00:02:04,332 I was shocked. 33 00:02:04,415 --> 00:02:07,502 I said, "Gil? Nice guy Gil?" 34 00:02:07,585 --> 00:02:09,671 'Course she told me what you said. 35 00:02:10,755 --> 00:02:15,218 Not that it justified what she did. The thing is, if you could have seen... 36 00:02:16,344 --> 00:02:19,013 what she went through in the hospital with our baby... 37 00:02:19,806 --> 00:02:20,640 Here. 38 00:02:25,395 --> 00:02:29,065 Still, she should not have done this. 39 00:02:29,149 --> 00:02:30,316 That's for sure. 40 00:02:34,571 --> 00:02:38,241 It's a proofing room. Something about temperature and humidity. 41 00:02:38,324 --> 00:02:42,954 Keeps the dough from getting a tough skin. I'm not sure I understand any of it. 42 00:02:43,037 --> 00:02:45,290 That's Margaret with her gardening. 43 00:02:46,166 --> 00:02:48,626 Seeds and soil pH and... 44 00:02:48,710 --> 00:02:51,129 Friendly chatter's a reflex with this guy. 45 00:02:51,212 --> 00:02:55,175 You may have assaulted the one person who might give us a pass for this. 46 00:02:55,258 --> 00:02:57,760 Love and I are very embarrassed. 47 00:02:57,844 --> 00:03:00,346 Is there any chance we could keep this between us? 48 00:03:00,430 --> 00:03:03,850 We will not tell a soul how you recklessly endangered our son. 49 00:03:03,933 --> 00:03:06,853 -I don't know I would put it like that. -No? How? 50 00:03:07,979 --> 00:03:10,690 Well, it's just-- No judgment. 51 00:03:10,773 --> 00:03:14,277 But to dose an infant with chemicals we know nothing about? 52 00:03:14,360 --> 00:03:16,487 -I mean, I call that reckless. -Hmm. 53 00:03:16,571 --> 00:03:20,158 Actually, your son has naturally gained immunity, so... 54 00:03:20,950 --> 00:03:22,493 I'd say it was beneficial. 55 00:03:26,831 --> 00:03:28,333 You know what? I'm sorry. 56 00:03:28,416 --> 00:03:31,502 -I'm sorry, I get carried away. -No, no, no. 57 00:03:33,546 --> 00:03:35,048 You might be right, yeah. 58 00:03:35,965 --> 00:03:38,885 -Our child is fine. -Yeah. 59 00:03:41,512 --> 00:03:42,597 Here. 60 00:03:49,520 --> 00:03:51,022 Here, let me help you up. 61 00:03:54,150 --> 00:03:55,068 Ooh. 62 00:03:59,906 --> 00:04:02,242 So, what do you say, bygones? 63 00:04:08,873 --> 00:04:09,791 Okay. 64 00:04:10,917 --> 00:04:13,086 Sure. Bygones. 65 00:04:16,547 --> 00:04:17,548 He's lying. 66 00:04:17,632 --> 00:04:19,926 -Are you absolutely sure? -I'm cool! 67 00:04:20,009 --> 00:04:22,011 I'm cool. Let me out, please? 68 00:04:22,095 --> 00:04:24,138 No doubt. He'll go straight to the police. 69 00:04:24,222 --> 00:04:26,766 -Fuck. -Guys, let's be grown-ups about this! 70 00:04:26,849 --> 00:04:28,810 -Now what? -Come on! 71 00:04:41,114 --> 00:04:43,574 Here we go. Coming in hot, Henry. Hey. 72 00:04:43,658 --> 00:04:48,162 Got to bank to the left. Here. Open. There we go. 73 00:04:48,246 --> 00:04:51,291 Peek in our window, you see your typical suburban family 74 00:04:51,374 --> 00:04:52,792 having a typical morning. 75 00:04:52,875 --> 00:04:54,711 You know, it can be blissful... 76 00:04:55,336 --> 00:04:57,922 watching our son discover the pleasures of sweet potatoes. 77 00:04:58,006 --> 00:04:59,090 All I really need. 78 00:04:59,173 --> 00:05:00,425 I did have a thought. 79 00:05:02,802 --> 00:05:04,804 Mutually-assured destruction. 80 00:05:04,887 --> 00:05:08,099 Get something that he doesn't want anyone else to know about 81 00:05:08,182 --> 00:05:10,143 and he can't expose us. 82 00:05:11,477 --> 00:05:15,106 -He opens his mouth, we open ours. -Worked for me once before. 83 00:05:15,189 --> 00:05:17,108 It would have, Benji. 84 00:05:17,191 --> 00:05:20,320 -He may look like a choirboy... -So did Dahmer. 85 00:05:34,876 --> 00:05:37,378 A plan in place, a Monday's worth of returns. 86 00:05:37,462 --> 00:05:41,924 I got lots of time to learn what Gil's hiding behind the Mr. Rogers persona. 87 00:05:43,718 --> 00:05:47,472 Okay. All right. So Google out of my boss's eagle-eyeline. 88 00:05:48,264 --> 00:05:50,641 Kids are gonna commit hara-kiri. 89 00:05:50,725 --> 00:05:53,144 No child sacrifice in the library, please. 90 00:05:53,227 --> 00:05:55,855 Gil is MIA. He was our reader today, 91 00:05:55,938 --> 00:05:58,274 and I told Lansing I'd run the boys to the dentist. 92 00:05:58,358 --> 00:06:01,361 -He did not just say "Gil." -That's so not like Gil. 93 00:06:02,028 --> 00:06:04,238 He's their favorite. Man's a saint. 94 00:06:04,322 --> 00:06:07,658 Except for that one dark thing about him that Dante knows? 95 00:06:07,742 --> 00:06:10,661 You know better than that. Not even the saints were saints. 96 00:06:10,745 --> 00:06:12,705 Hey, sorry. I couldn't help but overhear. 97 00:06:12,789 --> 00:06:14,624 -I could read to the kids. -I've got it. 98 00:06:14,707 --> 00:06:15,708 Okay. 99 00:06:17,293 --> 00:06:21,005 Joe Goldberg? Hi. Did I know you work here? 100 00:06:21,089 --> 00:06:23,549 Did I know you had your breasts enhanced in 2017? 101 00:06:23,633 --> 00:06:26,344 Vlogged your recovery from Adderall addiction? 102 00:06:26,427 --> 00:06:28,679 Brother's a roadie for 5 Seconds of Summer? 103 00:06:28,763 --> 00:06:29,889 Cool to post this? 104 00:06:34,435 --> 00:06:35,812 This is stupid! 105 00:06:36,562 --> 00:06:38,731 Hey, hello? Hey! 106 00:06:39,232 --> 00:06:41,943 -Hey, you-- -I could have one of everything. 107 00:06:42,860 --> 00:06:44,195 Well, I wouldn't tell. 108 00:06:44,278 --> 00:06:46,030 But my ass would. 109 00:06:47,407 --> 00:06:48,783 God, I envy you, Love. 110 00:06:48,866 --> 00:06:51,369 I have so many photo shoots, next thing you know, 111 00:06:51,452 --> 00:06:53,913 people will be calling me "brave" and then unfollowing 112 00:06:53,996 --> 00:06:56,666 'cause I'm no longer aspirational. 113 00:06:56,749 --> 00:06:57,959 Mind if I post this? 114 00:06:58,042 --> 00:06:58,960 Oh. 115 00:06:59,627 --> 00:07:01,379 Perfect. Okay, ciao. 116 00:07:02,255 --> 00:07:03,172 Ciao. 117 00:07:08,928 --> 00:07:10,221 -Fuck. -Love, listen. 118 00:07:10,304 --> 00:07:12,890 That ring, it was supposed to look like she left it there, 119 00:07:12,974 --> 00:07:15,476 then moved on, but of course they want to look there. 120 00:07:16,561 --> 00:07:19,397 -What if we missed something else? -We control what we can. 121 00:07:19,480 --> 00:07:20,898 We keep up appearances. 122 00:07:21,524 --> 00:07:24,235 We volunteer to help with the search. 123 00:07:25,319 --> 00:07:28,030 -God. -It's gonna be okay. 124 00:07:29,407 --> 00:07:30,241 Okay. 125 00:07:31,659 --> 00:07:32,910 I'll see you at home. 126 00:07:37,165 --> 00:07:39,459 A man in a cage is a problem. 127 00:07:39,542 --> 00:07:41,711 Few hundred citizens combing the woods 128 00:07:41,794 --> 00:07:43,880 where we buried and exhumed Natalie Engler? 129 00:07:43,963 --> 00:07:45,381 Full-stop crisis. 130 00:07:49,760 --> 00:07:52,388 I don't understand why I would go to this! 131 00:07:52,472 --> 00:07:55,099 -Theo, can you be reasonable? -You can't make me volunteer! 132 00:07:55,183 --> 00:07:59,770 -That's implied in the word "volunteer"-- -Theo! Keep your voice down. 133 00:07:59,854 --> 00:08:02,315 Dad, they're making you look pathetic. 134 00:08:03,274 --> 00:08:04,859 I am not going. 135 00:08:04,942 --> 00:08:08,905 When you're ready to talk like a person above the age of 6, I'll be inside. 136 00:08:19,832 --> 00:08:22,919 Hey, was the idea to be so loud, the whole neighborhood could hear? 137 00:08:24,045 --> 00:08:27,006 'Cause that was gauche. You sounded like a brat. 138 00:08:27,089 --> 00:08:29,509 You little peeping Tom. You spying on me? 139 00:08:30,843 --> 00:08:33,095 What's up with all the dad theatrics? 140 00:08:33,971 --> 00:08:35,014 Um... 141 00:08:35,097 --> 00:08:38,851 So, apparently, Sherry Conrad and her creepy little squad 142 00:08:38,935 --> 00:08:43,064 are teaming up with the cops to go search some state park 143 00:08:43,147 --> 00:08:46,984 to, like, I don't know, find Natalie out there stacking rocks? 144 00:08:47,860 --> 00:08:49,028 You don't want to join? 145 00:08:49,111 --> 00:08:52,657 I've been waiting for this opportunity to join a cabal 146 00:08:52,740 --> 00:08:55,660 of soulless, bulimic yoga moms. I think it's my calling. 147 00:09:03,751 --> 00:09:05,628 They're convinced that he killed her. 148 00:09:06,379 --> 00:09:10,091 I don't want him helping the villagers sharpen their pitchforks. 149 00:09:12,927 --> 00:09:17,223 You should go. Optics are a thing. If you don't go, both of you look bad. 150 00:09:18,224 --> 00:09:19,642 Hey, hey, hey. 151 00:09:20,393 --> 00:09:23,813 I will be your search buddy. Hmm? 152 00:09:26,732 --> 00:09:28,401 Tie my shoes and everything? 153 00:09:29,277 --> 00:09:30,278 If necessary. 154 00:09:33,030 --> 00:09:34,490 Brat. 155 00:09:35,408 --> 00:09:37,910 Hey, you should get this fixed by the way. 156 00:09:42,832 --> 00:09:46,043 This "Hands Across Madre Linda" exercise in the woods 157 00:09:46,127 --> 00:09:48,170 has me dangerously distracted. 158 00:09:49,714 --> 00:09:53,593 What if we did leave something for John and Betty Volunteer to find? 159 00:09:54,510 --> 00:09:57,305 But we weren't careless, were we? 160 00:09:57,388 --> 00:09:59,473 Focus! One thing at a time. 161 00:10:01,475 --> 00:10:04,103 Need to find Gil's fatal flaw. 162 00:10:05,229 --> 00:10:08,024 "Geology rocks." "Schist happens." 163 00:10:08,107 --> 00:10:11,444 If I've mined anything, it's that "Rock Star" Professor Gil Brigham 164 00:10:11,527 --> 00:10:13,279 has a taste for geologist humor. 165 00:10:13,362 --> 00:10:16,032 Once taught at Burgess College in Columbus, Ohio. 166 00:10:16,115 --> 00:10:19,076 Left in his second year. In October. Hmm. 167 00:10:19,160 --> 00:10:20,161 It's abrupt. 168 00:10:20,244 --> 00:10:22,913 Did he transgress with a co-ed? 169 00:10:22,997 --> 00:10:25,666 "Sophomore Burgess student victim of campus attack." 170 00:10:25,750 --> 00:10:27,335 Could it be...? 171 00:10:28,502 --> 00:10:29,420 Hmm. 172 00:10:31,922 --> 00:10:34,925 Four hours in and the only fault I can find 173 00:10:35,009 --> 00:10:36,719 is Gil's sense of humor. 174 00:10:36,802 --> 00:10:39,889 Spotless academic career, church, a dedication to his kids so deep 175 00:10:39,972 --> 00:10:42,850 he may be the inspiration for those World's Greatest Dad mugs. 176 00:10:42,933 --> 00:10:44,977 Never misses a game, a birthday-- 177 00:10:45,061 --> 00:10:47,063 Look, he volunteers at the children's ward-- 178 00:10:47,146 --> 00:10:48,856 And shit! The library. 179 00:10:48,939 --> 00:10:50,441 Better account for today. 180 00:10:51,442 --> 00:10:55,613 Sorry to miss today. A little work crisis. 181 00:10:55,696 --> 00:10:57,990 Sorry to disappoint the kids. 182 00:10:58,074 --> 00:10:59,825 -Who are we stalking? -Hey. 183 00:10:59,909 --> 00:11:02,411 -No, no, I'm just-- -You seen Peer Gynt? 184 00:11:02,495 --> 00:11:04,580 Yes. In that I stole it for Ellie. 185 00:11:04,664 --> 00:11:07,958 Yeah, I may have taken it home for a read. 186 00:11:08,042 --> 00:11:11,420 You took a 2500-dollar book that isn't supposed to leave? 187 00:11:11,504 --> 00:11:14,215 You know how when you know a rule exists, 188 00:11:14,298 --> 00:11:16,550 but you don't think it applies to you 189 00:11:16,634 --> 00:11:19,011 because you're quick and careful, and you work here. 190 00:11:19,095 --> 00:11:23,015 For those of us who didn't grow up with first editions for coasters-- 191 00:11:23,099 --> 00:11:25,726 I'm sorry, you think that I come from money? 192 00:11:25,810 --> 00:11:28,854 Look what you've done to me, Love. I smell like the rich now. 193 00:11:28,938 --> 00:11:30,356 Just let me say this. 194 00:11:30,439 --> 00:11:32,983 There were no first editions on the shelves growing up 195 00:11:33,067 --> 00:11:35,152 because there were no... shelves. 196 00:11:35,236 --> 00:11:37,863 -Right. You were poor. -Practically homeless. 197 00:11:38,698 --> 00:11:41,492 A bookstore owner took me in and let me work for free, 198 00:11:41,575 --> 00:11:44,120 and I slept in a cage in his basement. 199 00:11:45,121 --> 00:11:47,790 No, wait. Marienne, hang on. Wait, I'm sorry. 200 00:11:47,873 --> 00:11:51,335 I'm sorry. Stop. That crossed the line. It was an exaggeration. 201 00:11:51,419 --> 00:11:53,671 We straddled the poverty line my entire childhood, 202 00:11:53,754 --> 00:11:57,049 and I escaped with books. 203 00:11:57,675 --> 00:11:58,884 I learned all about them, 204 00:11:58,968 --> 00:12:01,637 like you wanna know everything about that one beautiful thing. 205 00:12:02,471 --> 00:12:05,391 It saves your miserable life. 206 00:12:07,309 --> 00:12:08,310 So I... 207 00:12:09,520 --> 00:12:12,273 I misjudged a little, maybe. 208 00:12:12,356 --> 00:12:15,735 Generally, my favorite apologies are stiff and grudging... 209 00:12:17,278 --> 00:12:18,112 Fair. 210 00:12:19,029 --> 00:12:19,864 I'm sorry. 211 00:12:19,947 --> 00:12:21,031 Ah... 212 00:12:23,617 --> 00:12:26,996 And I guess I might have to like you after all, Goldberg. 213 00:12:27,621 --> 00:12:29,373 -Perish the thought. -Hmm. 214 00:12:30,332 --> 00:12:33,377 Since we're friends now, what else did you take? 215 00:12:33,461 --> 00:12:35,504 A Dickens, a Shelley, a signed early Strand. 216 00:12:35,588 --> 00:12:36,672 -Nothing. -Mm-hm. 217 00:12:36,756 --> 00:12:40,384 Make sure that's still true when I look real hard tomorrow. 218 00:12:40,468 --> 00:12:41,302 Okay? 219 00:12:50,811 --> 00:12:53,314 -Thought we had a deal! -We did. I'm sorry. 220 00:12:53,397 --> 00:12:57,109 You know, you can't keep me in here like some animal. 221 00:12:57,193 --> 00:13:01,739 People know that I was coming here. So you can let me out or the police can. 222 00:13:01,822 --> 00:13:05,284 -When they come looking-- -No one's gonna save you. We-- 223 00:13:06,660 --> 00:13:09,538 We already made excuses on your behalf. 224 00:13:10,414 --> 00:13:11,332 Uh... 225 00:13:11,415 --> 00:13:14,502 I'm sorry, Gil. I want to let you out, man. 226 00:13:15,169 --> 00:13:16,712 I won't tell a soul. 227 00:13:16,796 --> 00:13:17,838 I promise. 228 00:13:17,922 --> 00:13:20,925 I told you, we can keep this between us. 229 00:13:24,428 --> 00:13:25,262 Say... 230 00:13:26,680 --> 00:13:28,390 we knew something about you. 231 00:13:28,474 --> 00:13:33,938 Something you really don't want anyone to know. 232 00:13:36,190 --> 00:13:38,150 Right, I see. 233 00:13:38,234 --> 00:13:40,861 Okay, I keep your secret, you keep mine. 234 00:13:41,695 --> 00:13:44,865 And this time, you'll keep your end of the deal? 235 00:13:44,949 --> 00:13:45,825 Yes. 236 00:13:46,784 --> 00:13:48,702 Okay. Okay. 237 00:13:50,579 --> 00:13:52,957 Just-- Give me a minute to think. 238 00:13:56,377 --> 00:13:57,211 I got it! 239 00:13:58,003 --> 00:13:58,963 Okay, listen. 240 00:14:01,257 --> 00:14:06,011 Couple years back, our church group went to a festival for Christ in Vegas. 241 00:14:06,095 --> 00:14:09,473 Christ? Vegas? Strong starter ingredients. 242 00:14:10,140 --> 00:14:12,810 We raised funds for the Santoses, 243 00:14:12,893 --> 00:14:14,937 who'd lost their home to a fire. 244 00:14:15,521 --> 00:14:19,817 And now, there's this woman, Cheryl. 245 00:14:20,442 --> 00:14:22,361 Christ. Vegas. Cheryl. 246 00:14:23,153 --> 00:14:26,115 Real, you know, fun-lover. You know the type. 247 00:14:27,241 --> 00:14:29,535 Anyway, everyone else had gone to bed, 248 00:14:29,618 --> 00:14:33,497 but she and I have a little more in our tanks. 249 00:14:33,581 --> 00:14:34,456 So... 250 00:14:35,958 --> 00:14:40,045 So we take the 600 dollars that we'd raised, and... 251 00:14:41,046 --> 00:14:43,757 A room with a pile of blow and a dominatrix dressed as a nun. 252 00:14:43,841 --> 00:14:45,593 Why didn't I start here this morning? 253 00:14:45,676 --> 00:14:47,511 We put it all on red. 254 00:14:51,724 --> 00:14:52,892 And lost. 255 00:14:54,768 --> 00:14:56,562 That sucks. Then what? 256 00:14:56,645 --> 00:15:00,190 Then we had to recoup it from our own savings that Monday. 257 00:15:03,319 --> 00:15:05,029 -That's it? -"That's it?" 258 00:15:05,112 --> 00:15:10,159 -We gambled and lost the Santoses' money. -And you returned it-- It was a Monday? 259 00:15:10,242 --> 00:15:11,660 Yeah, but we lied. 260 00:15:12,202 --> 00:15:13,913 You know, we were selfish. 261 00:15:13,996 --> 00:15:16,624 If people knew that, are you kidding me? 262 00:15:20,044 --> 00:15:21,211 Okay. 263 00:15:21,295 --> 00:15:24,214 Okay, fine. I slept with her. 264 00:15:25,382 --> 00:15:26,216 I did. 265 00:15:27,176 --> 00:15:29,303 Real rough-style too. 266 00:15:31,805 --> 00:15:35,017 -Can you define "rough style"? -You know, when... 267 00:15:35,976 --> 00:15:37,978 I'm trying to give you something. 268 00:15:38,062 --> 00:15:39,980 -Got to do better, Gil. -Fuck! 269 00:15:43,067 --> 00:15:43,901 Fuck. 270 00:15:45,569 --> 00:15:48,405 So I managed to rolling-pin the only saint in Madre Linda? 271 00:15:48,489 --> 00:15:50,032 Not even the saints are saints. 272 00:15:51,033 --> 00:15:53,786 But, look, I-- I don't know. 273 00:15:53,869 --> 00:15:55,287 My mom's taking Henry tomorrow. 274 00:15:55,371 --> 00:15:57,790 -With everything... -It's a good idea. 275 00:15:57,873 --> 00:15:59,833 "Committee to Find Natalie Engler" 276 00:15:59,917 --> 00:16:03,087 is organizing a search party in Redwood State Park, which is Natalie's... 277 00:16:03,170 --> 00:16:04,588 Better give her a frozen one. 278 00:16:05,839 --> 00:16:08,133 In case of an earthquake, right? Or... 279 00:16:08,759 --> 00:16:10,678 we're taken in for questioning. 280 00:16:12,471 --> 00:16:13,347 Joe? 281 00:16:15,349 --> 00:16:18,227 -Tell me not to panic. -There's nothing for them to find. 282 00:16:18,310 --> 00:16:19,353 What if they do? 283 00:16:20,020 --> 00:16:24,316 What if they get a search warrant or they start looking around? 284 00:16:24,400 --> 00:16:26,151 "What's in this basement?" 285 00:16:26,235 --> 00:16:29,321 Why is it feeling like this has become my fault? 286 00:16:29,405 --> 00:16:32,408 It's your fault your mommy left you here, Goldberg. 287 00:16:34,952 --> 00:16:36,537 We need to get rid of Gil. 288 00:16:36,620 --> 00:16:38,789 We can't have this hanging over our heads. 289 00:16:38,872 --> 00:16:39,707 I know. 290 00:16:40,624 --> 00:16:44,128 Okay, so we built the cage so that we could stop and think. 291 00:16:44,962 --> 00:16:46,588 What if we've done that and now...? 292 00:16:49,258 --> 00:16:52,761 -What? And now what? -What you gonna do, Goldberg? 293 00:16:54,013 --> 00:16:55,180 He's gonna cry. 294 00:16:55,264 --> 00:16:57,766 Just like he cries for his mommy in bed very night. 295 00:16:58,809 --> 00:17:01,186 We didn't want... to do this. 296 00:17:01,270 --> 00:17:04,189 -We did this to protect our family. -It had to be done. 297 00:17:04,273 --> 00:17:07,568 You were protecting me. You're a good boy, Joey. 298 00:17:07,651 --> 00:17:10,070 What if the only option is for Gil to--? 299 00:17:12,322 --> 00:17:13,657 She's not coming for you. 300 00:17:13,741 --> 00:17:15,826 No one is coming to save you. 301 00:17:16,452 --> 00:17:17,578 Yeah. 302 00:17:18,829 --> 00:17:20,581 Give me a better idea. 303 00:17:20,664 --> 00:17:24,209 -I can't believe you're saying this. -I'm just asking questions. 304 00:17:24,293 --> 00:17:25,878 You're saying, "I don't know." 305 00:17:25,961 --> 00:17:28,297 You hit him and put him in a cage when we could've-- 306 00:17:28,380 --> 00:17:29,923 -Sued him. -The cage was your idea. 307 00:17:30,007 --> 00:17:32,593 -No, no, no. We are not going to-- -How--? 308 00:17:32,676 --> 00:17:35,971 You are not making me kill anyone! 309 00:17:38,724 --> 00:17:40,768 We are not doing that to our son. 310 00:18:03,123 --> 00:18:04,333 I shouldn't. 311 00:18:05,626 --> 00:18:08,462 Not exactly getting my run in down here. 312 00:18:11,048 --> 00:18:14,718 Used to be my son Alan and I got out there every morning. 313 00:18:15,969 --> 00:18:17,679 Before he went off to Dartmouth. 314 00:18:20,766 --> 00:18:22,893 -He'd get a kick out of this. -He would? 315 00:18:22,976 --> 00:18:25,729 Come on. His pops knocked down a peg? 316 00:18:27,147 --> 00:18:28,023 You know... 317 00:18:28,941 --> 00:18:30,692 sons and their fathers. 318 00:18:31,318 --> 00:18:32,736 Yeah, I'm new to it. 319 00:18:32,820 --> 00:18:35,697 You kidding? This idea that you have to mold them 320 00:18:35,781 --> 00:18:37,991 into a good strong man... 321 00:18:38,075 --> 00:18:39,284 How'd you? 322 00:18:40,327 --> 00:18:41,245 Mm. 323 00:18:42,287 --> 00:18:45,707 I came to realize it's a lot simpler than I was making it. 324 00:18:45,791 --> 00:18:47,459 Here's what you do as a parent: 325 00:18:47,543 --> 00:18:51,588 You keep them healthy and safe and be a good person. 326 00:18:53,382 --> 00:18:57,678 That's it. Protect, be good, get out of the way. 327 00:18:57,761 --> 00:18:59,471 To be honest, I'm jealous. 328 00:19:00,556 --> 00:19:01,890 You have it all ahead of you. 329 00:19:11,775 --> 00:19:12,609 Hey, um... 330 00:19:14,278 --> 00:19:18,115 whatever happens here, I just hope I get to see them again. 331 00:19:23,787 --> 00:19:28,292 ...hoping we can buy another 30 acres of this wonderful property on the coast 332 00:19:28,375 --> 00:19:31,837 that apparently gets this great fog Pinot thrives in. 333 00:19:31,920 --> 00:19:35,257 Sweetie, hand me those fleece-y p.j.'s in case it's cold. 334 00:19:35,340 --> 00:19:38,760 Butt Paste. He's been a bit red lately. So I'm gonna... 335 00:19:41,221 --> 00:19:43,765 Worried? If you think this vineyard business 336 00:19:43,849 --> 00:19:46,560 is going to jeopardize the bakery, it's the opposite. 337 00:19:46,643 --> 00:19:51,315 -This is how empires are born. -Yeah, it's actually not that. I, um... 338 00:19:54,860 --> 00:19:56,904 Does Dad still have that guy Cy? 339 00:19:56,987 --> 00:20:00,616 Probably has that little snake digging into me right now. 340 00:20:00,699 --> 00:20:01,700 Why, what's up? 341 00:20:03,118 --> 00:20:04,953 I know it was something. 342 00:20:05,037 --> 00:20:07,122 Oh, it's no big. I just... 343 00:20:08,457 --> 00:20:11,210 I got a weird vibe from the guy I rent the bakery from. 344 00:20:11,960 --> 00:20:14,630 I wanna make sure he's legit. I don't want to put in all of this work 345 00:20:14,713 --> 00:20:17,257 just to have the property seized by the IRS. 346 00:20:18,091 --> 00:20:19,509 I'll get you his number. 347 00:20:36,276 --> 00:20:39,905 I did something you're not gonna be totally... psyched about. 348 00:20:42,157 --> 00:20:42,991 Try me. 349 00:20:45,827 --> 00:20:46,662 My mom... 350 00:20:47,537 --> 00:20:51,250 gave me a number for a guy that my dad uses to look into people. 351 00:20:53,752 --> 00:20:55,003 You involved your family? 352 00:20:55,087 --> 00:20:58,674 I didn't tell them anything. Okay? 353 00:21:00,592 --> 00:21:03,971 I contacted him directly. I didn't tell him why. He's discreet. 354 00:21:05,847 --> 00:21:09,309 -You're mad at me anyway. -I'm not mad. I'm worried. 355 00:21:10,394 --> 00:21:11,395 I'm worried. 356 00:21:12,229 --> 00:21:14,356 -That we can't deal with this? -That you'll hate me 357 00:21:14,439 --> 00:21:16,400 if we don't do it the right way. 358 00:21:16,483 --> 00:21:20,070 The look on your face when you said you thought Henry would be hurt if... 359 00:21:23,407 --> 00:21:24,866 I'm sorry. I-- 360 00:21:25,951 --> 00:21:27,035 I scared you. 361 00:21:27,869 --> 00:21:28,704 No. 362 00:21:30,580 --> 00:21:31,456 Joe... 363 00:21:32,249 --> 00:21:33,625 it broke my heart. 364 00:21:33,709 --> 00:21:37,462 I see how hard you're trying to be a good dad. 365 00:21:38,297 --> 00:21:42,009 You're scared one little move is gonna magically fuck it all up. 366 00:21:42,092 --> 00:21:46,179 No, I know it's not magic because I saw it growing up, how-- 367 00:21:46,930 --> 00:21:50,934 What kids are exposed to sticks. Fucks them up for life. 368 00:21:51,018 --> 00:21:53,603 You've been through a lot. You're not fucked up for life. 369 00:21:55,188 --> 00:21:56,023 I know. 370 00:21:56,732 --> 00:21:59,609 But I don't wanna roll the dice with Henry. 371 00:21:59,693 --> 00:22:01,695 I-- You know I understand. 372 00:22:02,738 --> 00:22:05,699 I think about it with Forty. If he'd grown up differently, maybe-- 373 00:22:08,869 --> 00:22:09,703 I get it. 374 00:22:11,121 --> 00:22:11,997 I'm just... 375 00:22:13,290 --> 00:22:14,666 trying to fix this. 376 00:22:17,836 --> 00:22:18,670 Hey. 377 00:22:19,254 --> 00:22:20,255 I love you. 378 00:22:34,353 --> 00:22:37,939 Hey, Cy. No, of course I'm not busy. What is it? 379 00:22:44,988 --> 00:22:46,031 Really? 380 00:22:47,449 --> 00:22:49,076 Oh, that's rich. 381 00:22:49,159 --> 00:22:52,871 I cheated to get my son into Dartmouth? Why? 382 00:22:52,954 --> 00:22:56,041 Alan is a stellar student. Not the world's best test-taker-- 383 00:22:56,124 --> 00:22:59,252 Dartmouth received perfect test scores from your son. 384 00:22:59,336 --> 00:23:03,673 No. He got in on his GPA, his essay and community service. 385 00:23:03,757 --> 00:23:07,302 And his perfect SAT score. And there's also... 386 00:23:07,386 --> 00:23:10,972 Yeah, all-American water polo until a career-ending injury. 387 00:23:11,056 --> 00:23:14,976 -That isn't my son's transcript. -No? 'Cause there's also this. 388 00:23:16,561 --> 00:23:19,356 That's 50 K you donated to a Bennett's Fund 389 00:23:19,439 --> 00:23:22,192 to help underprivileged kids have a shot at college. 390 00:23:22,275 --> 00:23:25,195 -You're good at this. -What's that got to do with anything? 391 00:23:25,278 --> 00:23:29,699 There is no Bennett's Fund. Or there is, but for kids like Alan. 392 00:23:29,783 --> 00:23:30,992 Disturbingly good. 393 00:23:31,076 --> 00:23:33,078 That's 25,000 to a Frye family 394 00:23:33,161 --> 00:23:36,706 whose all-star cheerleader Vicky graduated with Alan. 395 00:23:36,790 --> 00:23:40,877 What? Did they agree to vouch they build houses in Haiti or some shit? 396 00:23:45,924 --> 00:23:47,342 Wait, wait, wait. 397 00:23:47,426 --> 00:23:48,760 -Wait a second. -What? 398 00:23:50,178 --> 00:23:52,139 You had no idea, did you? 399 00:23:55,308 --> 00:23:56,143 Why...? 400 00:23:57,269 --> 00:23:58,478 Why would my wife--? 401 00:24:01,106 --> 00:24:01,940 Oh, God. 402 00:24:02,732 --> 00:24:03,608 Oh, no. 403 00:24:04,234 --> 00:24:05,068 Alan. 404 00:24:05,986 --> 00:24:06,987 Not again. 405 00:24:08,155 --> 00:24:10,532 He promised he would be good. 406 00:24:10,615 --> 00:24:14,119 This is worse than some college scandal. 407 00:24:14,202 --> 00:24:17,205 Alan did something to this Vicky. 408 00:24:17,289 --> 00:24:18,373 It was a payoff. 409 00:24:19,207 --> 00:24:23,920 His beloved Alan is a very bad young man who hurts girls. 410 00:24:24,713 --> 00:24:27,591 It was Alan in Ohio, right? 411 00:24:28,675 --> 00:24:30,802 The girl who was attacked... 412 00:24:32,053 --> 00:24:33,305 sexually assaulted. 413 00:24:34,139 --> 00:24:35,557 The reason you left. 414 00:24:37,058 --> 00:24:38,852 And he did it again. 415 00:24:40,645 --> 00:24:44,608 I believed that it was just a onetime mistake. 416 00:24:44,691 --> 00:24:47,068 I made my mistakes at that age, so I-- 417 00:24:50,697 --> 00:24:51,698 I did nothing. 418 00:24:53,950 --> 00:24:55,577 Now another girl got hurt. 419 00:24:56,703 --> 00:24:59,414 I made poor Margaret feel like she had to do all this. 420 00:25:02,834 --> 00:25:06,046 Gil said fatherhood was just about protecting them 421 00:25:06,129 --> 00:25:07,464 and getting out of the way, 422 00:25:07,547 --> 00:25:11,593 but that's clearly not enough to keep his son from going wrong. 423 00:25:11,676 --> 00:25:14,721 Which is terrifying but also exactly what we needed 424 00:25:14,804 --> 00:25:16,556 to get Gil to play ball. 425 00:25:16,640 --> 00:25:21,311 Our next move is to propose his imminent relocation from Madre Linda. 426 00:25:21,394 --> 00:25:25,357 Too bad for Ellie, my boss busted me, so this book's back to the library. 427 00:25:25,440 --> 00:25:26,650 I'll try again. 428 00:25:26,733 --> 00:25:30,111 Now, as for Gil, I wonder if he's marinated long enough. 429 00:25:31,988 --> 00:25:34,282 What? No. No, no, no. 430 00:25:39,746 --> 00:25:40,997 Oh, my God! 431 00:25:43,250 --> 00:25:44,501 Get it off. Get it off him. 432 00:25:45,252 --> 00:25:46,586 -Get it off him! -I'm trying! 433 00:25:47,712 --> 00:25:49,464 I'm trying. I'm trying. 434 00:25:55,387 --> 00:25:57,931 Joe, we can't just sit here all night. 435 00:25:58,890 --> 00:26:00,976 I-- I need you to talk to me. 436 00:26:02,602 --> 00:26:06,898 We need to do something about this. We need to come up with some plan. 437 00:26:08,149 --> 00:26:10,485 Joe, I really need you to listen to me. 438 00:26:11,236 --> 00:26:12,112 Joe. 439 00:26:13,572 --> 00:26:15,240 Joseph Quinn-Goldberg! 440 00:26:16,491 --> 00:26:17,492 Hey. 441 00:26:18,076 --> 00:26:19,411 This is not our fault. 442 00:26:21,288 --> 00:26:22,247 He did this. 443 00:26:23,873 --> 00:26:25,083 It was his decision. 444 00:26:25,959 --> 00:26:28,211 We did everything to keep our promise. 445 00:26:29,087 --> 00:26:30,880 Why the fuck did he have to... 446 00:26:31,840 --> 00:26:33,717 kill himself? Oh, my God. 447 00:26:33,800 --> 00:26:36,094 He's already ruined his family. 448 00:26:40,348 --> 00:26:41,474 Fuck. 449 00:26:46,938 --> 00:26:48,898 The search is starting soon. 450 00:26:49,816 --> 00:26:51,776 Okay, okay. 451 00:26:52,902 --> 00:26:55,071 I will make an appearance for us. 452 00:26:56,364 --> 00:26:59,951 And then I will be back as soon as I can. Okay? 453 00:27:00,035 --> 00:27:00,952 Okay. 454 00:27:02,078 --> 00:27:03,705 Okay, okay, okay. 455 00:27:06,416 --> 00:27:07,375 Oh, my God. 456 00:27:08,251 --> 00:27:09,085 Joe. 457 00:27:10,962 --> 00:27:11,963 I have a plan. 458 00:27:35,320 --> 00:27:36,946 In case you find something. 459 00:27:54,130 --> 00:27:56,716 Hi, can you guys hear me okay? Hi. 460 00:27:57,342 --> 00:27:59,886 Okay. Fine. 461 00:27:59,969 --> 00:28:02,472 Thank you all for showing up. 462 00:28:02,555 --> 00:28:06,810 If I may say on behalf of Natalie's beautiful family, 463 00:28:06,893 --> 00:28:08,645 we are so grateful 464 00:28:08,728 --> 00:28:11,773 to each and every one of you. 465 00:28:11,856 --> 00:28:15,443 Natalie is a fixture of Madre Linda. 466 00:28:15,527 --> 00:28:18,071 We need her, 467 00:28:18,154 --> 00:28:20,281 and now she needs us. 468 00:28:21,199 --> 00:28:23,201 So good luck out there and-- 469 00:28:24,119 --> 00:28:25,161 Sorry. 470 00:28:29,666 --> 00:28:31,710 Hashtag, "Natalie, come home." 471 00:28:51,730 --> 00:28:56,401 The story you came up with, Love, is fit for a steamy psychodrama. 472 00:28:56,484 --> 00:28:59,821 Gil Brigham, Madre Linda's answer to Ned Flanders, 473 00:28:59,904 --> 00:29:00,989 had a secret. 474 00:29:01,906 --> 00:29:05,618 But it was when you used the phrase "two birds, one stone" 475 00:29:05,702 --> 00:29:08,413 that I saw your true brilliance. 476 00:29:10,165 --> 00:29:13,293 Two bodies, one story, if we get this part right. 477 00:29:13,376 --> 00:29:15,754 And we will. I will. 478 00:29:15,837 --> 00:29:16,880 I have to. 479 00:29:16,963 --> 00:29:20,008 It's on me to protect you and Henry. 480 00:29:20,091 --> 00:29:22,135 There's no one else who will. 481 00:29:23,678 --> 00:29:25,847 Here are your flags. Drop them as you go. 482 00:29:38,860 --> 00:29:40,153 Hi, Matthew. 483 00:29:40,987 --> 00:29:41,821 Hello. 484 00:29:44,240 --> 00:29:45,909 -How are you holding up? -Hmm. 485 00:29:46,451 --> 00:29:48,536 I never really know how to answer that question 486 00:29:48,620 --> 00:29:50,872 when I'm out searching for my wife. 487 00:29:52,373 --> 00:29:55,960 It's your-- I'm sorry. I was just-- I just wanted to know... 488 00:29:57,378 --> 00:29:59,088 I'm sorry this is happening. 489 00:30:00,173 --> 00:30:01,382 I really am. 490 00:30:01,466 --> 00:30:03,510 Well, I guess I have you to thank. 491 00:30:05,386 --> 00:30:08,556 For getting Theodore to come. He told me you talked to him. 492 00:30:08,640 --> 00:30:12,519 -He called you a kind person. -I barely said anything. I just... 493 00:30:13,645 --> 00:30:15,146 He seems like a good kid. 494 00:30:18,024 --> 00:30:18,900 Excuse me. 495 00:30:30,620 --> 00:30:34,624 Yo, why is everyone so scared of Sherry Conrad? 496 00:30:35,250 --> 00:30:39,838 She is fucking pathetic, right? 497 00:30:40,839 --> 00:30:43,716 I hear that her husband, 498 00:30:43,800 --> 00:30:47,804 he has to take pharmaceutical molly just so he can get it up for her. 499 00:30:48,471 --> 00:30:49,305 Yeah. 500 00:30:50,640 --> 00:30:53,893 Oh, and please tell me you saw that speech, right? 501 00:30:57,313 --> 00:30:59,065 I have to pee. Be right back. 502 00:31:02,193 --> 00:31:03,027 Okay. 503 00:31:39,814 --> 00:31:41,941 Awful, you know? 504 00:31:42,025 --> 00:31:45,403 But if I was married to a robot like Matthew Engler, 505 00:31:45,486 --> 00:31:47,030 probably disappear too. 506 00:31:48,031 --> 00:31:50,700 -Did you forget your bullhorn, Sherry? -Theo! 507 00:31:50,783 --> 00:31:53,244 If you have a theory, make sure everyone hears it. 508 00:31:53,328 --> 00:31:55,038 Everyone knows what you're doing. 509 00:31:55,121 --> 00:31:57,457 You're trying to cash in on someone else's tragedy, 510 00:31:57,540 --> 00:32:00,001 -so you can sell your vegan panties-- -Hey! Theo! 511 00:32:00,084 --> 00:32:01,878 And get all these likes on Instagram. 512 00:32:01,961 --> 00:32:03,546 Count to ten, okay? Relax. 513 00:32:06,341 --> 00:32:07,884 Hey, Sherry, are you okay? 514 00:32:10,178 --> 00:32:12,764 He's having a very hard day. He doesn't mean it. 515 00:32:12,847 --> 00:32:13,848 Right, Theo? 516 00:32:16,351 --> 00:32:17,602 You've done so much. 517 00:32:18,561 --> 00:32:20,521 How about we just get back to it? 518 00:32:21,397 --> 00:32:23,107 -Thank you. -Of course. 519 00:32:24,108 --> 00:32:24,984 Let's go. 520 00:32:30,156 --> 00:32:32,200 -So that happened. -"A hard day"? 521 00:32:33,910 --> 00:32:35,328 Fucking seriously? 522 00:33:02,480 --> 00:33:03,606 Does it hurt, Joe? 523 00:33:06,693 --> 00:33:08,778 No idea why they did this to you? 524 00:33:08,861 --> 00:33:10,154 It doesn't matter. 525 00:33:10,238 --> 00:33:12,907 Counselors say I'm a lost cause. I heard them. 526 00:33:12,991 --> 00:33:14,325 Hey, no, no. 527 00:33:15,034 --> 00:33:16,703 No kid is a lost cause. 528 00:33:17,870 --> 00:33:19,080 Especially not you. 529 00:33:24,752 --> 00:33:28,423 You know, if I were to adopt, I would want an older kid. 530 00:33:28,506 --> 00:33:32,760 You know why? Because... you know who they are. 531 00:33:33,970 --> 00:33:36,055 The whole messy truth. 532 00:33:37,265 --> 00:33:39,767 And that's beautiful and worthwhile. 533 00:33:40,435 --> 00:33:42,895 And exactly what I would want in my life. 534 00:33:44,772 --> 00:33:46,899 No matter what happened in the past, 535 00:33:48,526 --> 00:33:51,988 someone out there will want you too. You're a good kid. 536 00:34:11,924 --> 00:34:12,842 Excuse me, sir. 537 00:34:13,968 --> 00:34:14,969 You calling Uber? 538 00:34:17,805 --> 00:34:18,931 It's gonna rain. Get in. 539 00:34:28,733 --> 00:34:30,651 Is that your best friend Sherry? 540 00:34:36,866 --> 00:34:39,327 You know, it is really hard to stay mad 541 00:34:39,410 --> 00:34:42,371 at the one person that I can actually stand talking to. 542 00:34:42,455 --> 00:34:44,791 Hmm. Stepdad still a brick wall? 543 00:34:47,376 --> 00:34:48,795 He's got a lot going on. 544 00:34:56,177 --> 00:34:57,595 But he's not a murderer. 545 00:35:01,974 --> 00:35:03,976 Hey, how did you deal with it? 546 00:35:04,060 --> 00:35:05,061 Like... 547 00:35:05,645 --> 00:35:08,231 all the attention and the rubbernecking? 548 00:35:08,314 --> 00:35:10,566 -You mean, about my brother? -Yeah. 549 00:35:11,609 --> 00:35:14,862 -I read the Vanity Fair article, so... -Mm-hm. 550 00:35:14,946 --> 00:35:18,866 He insisted that I cut his hair because I was the only one that did it right. 551 00:35:19,450 --> 00:35:22,245 And he loved the Ninja Turtle movie. 552 00:35:23,246 --> 00:35:25,915 Uh, he always wanted to fast-forward where the red one got hurt 553 00:35:25,998 --> 00:35:27,667 because it made him too sad. 554 00:35:29,001 --> 00:35:31,212 The shit that doesn't sell magazines. 555 00:35:33,005 --> 00:35:35,925 The part where he was a whole fucking human being. 556 00:35:37,176 --> 00:35:38,845 The big, 557 00:35:39,762 --> 00:35:41,931 beautiful, sensitive fucking heart. 558 00:35:42,515 --> 00:35:44,725 He was the only person who ever really knew me. 559 00:35:47,145 --> 00:35:47,979 You know... 560 00:35:49,689 --> 00:35:50,606 publicity... 561 00:35:51,899 --> 00:35:53,985 it has a way of flattening. 562 00:35:54,068 --> 00:35:56,988 Flattening you and the people you love into types. 563 00:35:57,071 --> 00:36:01,159 And it's really hard because nobody will ever let you forget what happened. 564 00:36:02,285 --> 00:36:03,161 Yeah. 565 00:36:18,843 --> 00:36:20,595 Rain snuck up on us. 566 00:36:20,678 --> 00:36:22,930 If it clears up soon, we'll send people back out. 567 00:36:23,014 --> 00:36:26,350 You can be honest. Today accomplished absolutely nothing. 568 00:36:26,434 --> 00:36:28,519 Besides something exciting for the social media feeds 569 00:36:28,603 --> 00:36:30,771 of people that barely knew my wife. 570 00:36:31,397 --> 00:36:33,608 The search was always a long shot, 571 00:36:33,691 --> 00:36:36,485 and you had no belief whatsoever we'd find anything. None. 572 00:36:36,569 --> 00:36:39,739 I've seen everything up to this point, okay? 573 00:36:39,822 --> 00:36:42,116 And, yes, usually, you're right. 574 00:36:42,909 --> 00:36:45,077 Which isn't necessarily a bad thing. 575 00:36:45,620 --> 00:36:48,581 I mean, if we did find something... 576 00:36:48,664 --> 00:36:52,752 It would probably be something that indicated she's not alive anymore. 577 00:36:57,006 --> 00:36:58,341 I know this is hard. 578 00:36:59,425 --> 00:37:02,261 And I'd just say to you, let us keep working. 579 00:37:20,529 --> 00:37:21,781 Dearest Megy, 580 00:37:22,657 --> 00:37:25,493 my heart aches as I write this. 581 00:37:25,576 --> 00:37:27,787 You stood by me in spite of my flaws 582 00:37:27,870 --> 00:37:30,539 and Lord knows you don't deserve what I've done to you. 583 00:37:30,623 --> 00:37:33,084 I strayed. No excuse. 584 00:37:33,167 --> 00:37:37,046 Idiot me thought Natalie could provide something I was missing. 585 00:37:37,129 --> 00:37:40,716 When it became clear she'd never belong exclusively to me, 586 00:37:40,800 --> 00:37:42,051 I lost control. 587 00:37:42,593 --> 00:37:44,804 I do not know what came over me. 588 00:37:44,887 --> 00:37:49,642 Next thing I knew, I was standing there, with an ax, her body on the ground. 589 00:37:49,725 --> 00:37:51,852 And when I put her in the ocean, 590 00:37:52,561 --> 00:37:55,106 I felt like I was possessed by someone else. 591 00:37:55,815 --> 00:37:59,443 But I am guilty all the same, and I can't live with what I've done. 592 00:38:00,194 --> 00:38:03,656 I'm sorry I hurt you. And I'm sorry you found me like this. 593 00:38:03,739 --> 00:38:06,867 I failed all of you. But especially Alan. 594 00:38:07,576 --> 00:38:10,955 Didn't want to see in him what I saw in myself. 595 00:38:11,038 --> 00:38:13,499 Maybe you can mold him into a better man. 596 00:38:14,292 --> 00:38:16,377 Tell him and the girls I love them. 597 00:38:18,629 --> 00:38:23,050 And know that I love you, Megy. 598 00:38:24,218 --> 00:38:25,928 More than you'll ever know. 599 00:38:27,930 --> 00:38:28,848 Forgive me, 600 00:38:31,183 --> 00:38:32,518 Your Gily. 601 00:38:34,020 --> 00:38:38,899 Yeah, well, someone wrote a think piece about my parents' divorce. 602 00:38:39,358 --> 00:38:40,276 Yeah. 603 00:38:40,359 --> 00:38:43,070 It was about the first wives of tech superstars 604 00:38:43,154 --> 00:38:45,948 and how Silicon Valley discards women. 605 00:38:48,409 --> 00:38:51,412 Thought that was the worst thing that ever happened to me. 606 00:38:51,495 --> 00:38:55,041 Yeah, look at you now. Got a family tragedy all your own. 607 00:38:58,002 --> 00:39:00,421 I'm not trying to sound flip. It's just-- 608 00:39:02,298 --> 00:39:04,592 -Welcome to the club. -Mm. Do I get a gift bag? 609 00:39:05,760 --> 00:39:10,848 Or does terrible family tragedy make people more fuckable? 610 00:39:11,390 --> 00:39:14,685 'Cause... Could really use a silver lining. 611 00:39:14,769 --> 00:39:16,020 Um... 612 00:39:16,896 --> 00:39:19,357 In my experience, yes, but... 613 00:39:20,191 --> 00:39:22,818 you end up resenting the people who think that fucking you 614 00:39:22,902 --> 00:39:25,738 was somehow gonna make them more interesting. 615 00:39:25,821 --> 00:39:28,449 Like it's gonna rub off on them or something. 616 00:39:29,325 --> 00:39:31,619 Don't let people like that define you. 617 00:39:39,001 --> 00:39:40,336 Find the people that get you. 618 00:39:41,212 --> 00:39:42,421 Lean on them. 619 00:39:42,505 --> 00:39:45,633 Forty-- My brother, he never really... 620 00:39:46,926 --> 00:39:47,760 got that. 621 00:39:54,225 --> 00:39:56,602 So how do you know who those people are? 622 00:39:57,395 --> 00:39:58,396 You just do. 623 00:40:05,486 --> 00:40:06,529 Um... 624 00:40:10,157 --> 00:40:11,367 -Don't do that. -Yep. 625 00:40:15,496 --> 00:40:18,499 Oh, shit. I got a text from my dad. 626 00:40:18,582 --> 00:40:20,459 Whoa. They think they found something. 627 00:40:21,377 --> 00:40:24,630 They think they might have just found a murder weapon. 628 00:40:36,434 --> 00:40:37,601 Morning, everybody. 629 00:40:38,394 --> 00:40:41,522 I'm Detective Falco with the Madre Linda Police Department. 630 00:40:41,605 --> 00:40:44,608 There's been a development in the Natalie Engler investigation. 631 00:40:44,692 --> 00:40:47,862 New evidence points to a suspect in her disappearance 632 00:40:47,945 --> 00:40:50,990 -and potentially her murder. -We are hardly criminal masterminds. 633 00:40:51,073 --> 00:40:52,032 Gily? 634 00:40:53,701 --> 00:40:55,286 I got your text, honey. 635 00:40:55,369 --> 00:40:58,456 I don't know why you insisted on the kids staying with my mother. 636 00:40:59,623 --> 00:41:02,835 But sometimes all it takes is a good story. 637 00:41:03,836 --> 00:41:06,547 Make it solid, sexy, relatable. 638 00:41:10,050 --> 00:41:12,553 Give them just enough evidence. 639 00:41:12,636 --> 00:41:14,930 It has come to our attention that Mrs. Engler 640 00:41:15,014 --> 00:41:16,849 was involved in an extramarital relationship 641 00:41:16,932 --> 00:41:19,185 with Madre Linda resident Gil Brigham, 642 00:41:19,268 --> 00:41:21,604 a professor at Stanford University. 643 00:41:22,188 --> 00:41:26,025 In a letter, Mr. Brigham confessed he murdered Mrs. Engler and disposed... 644 00:41:26,108 --> 00:41:31,113 And the town of Madre Linda settles into begrudging acceptance 645 00:41:31,197 --> 00:41:34,533 that the sordid tale of suburban ennui, sex and murder 646 00:41:34,617 --> 00:41:36,160 has come to an end 647 00:41:36,243 --> 00:41:40,164 'cause, well, what bored suburbanite isn't gonna buy that? 648 00:41:50,257 --> 00:41:51,926 We did it, Love. 649 00:41:52,009 --> 00:41:54,970 Let's be honest, rebuilding the cage was crazy. 650 00:41:55,054 --> 00:41:58,098 Could've really backfired. And yet it worked. 651 00:41:58,641 --> 00:42:00,100 We slowed down. 652 00:42:01,060 --> 00:42:02,353 Reflected. 653 00:42:02,436 --> 00:42:03,687 Responded. 654 00:42:04,772 --> 00:42:07,775 Proved we're a team. For Henry. 655 00:42:20,454 --> 00:42:22,665 You look terrible, Herr Gynt. 656 00:42:31,924 --> 00:42:32,925 Oh. 657 00:42:33,008 --> 00:42:35,928 -Sorry, a lot of long nights. -Yeah, it's fine. 658 00:42:36,637 --> 00:42:40,307 Dante was an absolute liability when their younger was small. 659 00:42:40,391 --> 00:42:42,643 Just forgot the Dewey Decimal System, 660 00:42:42,726 --> 00:42:47,147 despite it literally being printed on every aisle, in Braille. 661 00:42:47,231 --> 00:42:48,732 She's being nice to me. 662 00:42:48,816 --> 00:42:51,569 Weird to think disclosing one's shit childhood could do that. 663 00:42:51,652 --> 00:42:54,572 Hers must not have been exactly roses either. 664 00:42:54,655 --> 00:42:56,156 You have a kid, right? 665 00:42:57,575 --> 00:42:59,994 -Mm-hm. -How do you balance it? 666 00:43:00,077 --> 00:43:03,372 She's with her dad these days. 667 00:43:03,455 --> 00:43:05,666 And she throws that away. Curious. 668 00:43:05,749 --> 00:43:08,168 Guess I don't need to ask if you've heard 669 00:43:08,252 --> 00:43:12,131 about the whole awful Gil Brigham thing. 670 00:43:12,214 --> 00:43:14,550 Yeah. Yeah, it's terrible. 671 00:43:14,633 --> 00:43:15,467 Truly. 672 00:43:16,885 --> 00:43:18,721 Does mean we need a new reader. 673 00:43:18,804 --> 00:43:20,806 -You still interested? -Sure. 674 00:43:21,432 --> 00:43:22,933 -Of course. -Great. 675 00:43:23,017 --> 00:43:26,145 Oh, and I have a new rec for you. 676 00:43:27,855 --> 00:43:28,939 David Copperfield. 677 00:43:29,023 --> 00:43:31,734 You know, hardscrabble orphan down on his luck. 678 00:43:31,817 --> 00:43:33,444 Figured you could relate. 679 00:43:33,527 --> 00:43:35,237 She's teasing me, isn't she? 680 00:43:35,321 --> 00:43:38,616 -Ha. -Anyway, if you wanted to apply 681 00:43:38,699 --> 00:43:42,077 your wizard-level book repair skills, have at it. 682 00:43:42,786 --> 00:43:47,041 It's almost like you're flirting with me? 683 00:43:47,124 --> 00:43:50,002 No. No, you wouldn't. Well, not consciously. 684 00:43:51,086 --> 00:43:54,423 This necklace thing, nervous habit? 685 00:43:54,506 --> 00:43:59,303 Why would you be nervous unless...? It couldn't be about me. Could it? 686 00:43:59,386 --> 00:44:00,721 You okay there, Joe? 687 00:44:00,804 --> 00:44:03,599 Oh, shit. What was I just doing? 688 00:44:03,682 --> 00:44:05,893 -I'm totally fine. -Great. 689 00:44:06,810 --> 00:44:09,480 I cannot be thinking about you like this. No. 690 00:44:13,525 --> 00:44:16,111 No, no, no. This is bad.