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[Joe] Previously on You:

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[Dottie] What are you doing, Love?

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That boy will distract you from your son.

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[Joe] I can't cage what's inside of me.

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Better to feed it just enough
to keep it in check,

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but make sure it knows the rules.

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So now I have you, Marienne.

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Things will be different this time.

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[pensive music playing]

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Oh.

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If you look up "klutz,"
there's a picture of me.

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Oh.

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Okay.

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[Joe] Here's what I've learned about you
in the last few days, Marienne.

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You like things that make you feel.

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You're whimsical and artsy. You don't like
things that go together too perfectly.

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You find beauty in the flaws.

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Unexpected pairings.

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You're deep, reverent, rooted,

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yet adventurous.

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You're at home in chaos,
but something tells me not by choice.

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[water dripping]

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You take care of books
and art and young minds,

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but who takes care of you?

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No. No, no, no. This is not why I'm here.

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I'm here, well,
to figure out why I'm here.

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Why you, Marienne?

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So I must leave everything as I found it.

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I like following you.
You're interesting and unpredictable.

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And that inner part of me
that needs this is mostly satiated,

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but in the spirit of self-awareness
and maybe conquering that inner thing,

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I ask again,

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why am I drawn to you?

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-[Marienne] Great! Yeah, sure.
-[door unlocks]

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[Joe] Shit.

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Oh, all right.

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Okay.

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Okay, great.

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[Joe] Home early.
It's very unusual for you.

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Yes, yes, I know that place.

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Okay. Yeah, great. I'll see you there.

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[Joe] What's got you stepping
out of your routine?

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I dearly hope it doesn't involve
pegging someone on this bed. RIP Peach.

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Okay, now you're just playing with me.

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Lipstick.

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Are you going on a date?

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[cell phone buzzes]

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My wife.

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I deserve this.

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Aw, Daddy's still working.

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[Joe] She's the best wife ever...

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while I'm doing this.

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All to prove you aren't worth it.

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You are just a fleeting crush.

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[door opens, then closes]

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[cell phone chimes]

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[dramatic music playing]

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[car door locks]

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-Dad, hey, what--?
-Hi.

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What about Tokyo?
You said you'd be away till next month.

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Yeah. Team's wrapping things up, so...

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Okay, well, congrats
on your sudden ability to delegate.

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-[cell phone chimes]
-Thank you.

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So, like, you forgot
to sleep over there, or...?

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I just got off a long flight, Theo.

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-It's good to have you home.
-Good to be home.

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Did you wanna ask why I'm here?

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Of course.

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Of course.

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-What happened at school?
-Decided to take some time off.

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With everything that happened,
felt like it was starting to get to me.

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Hey, that's okay.

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I can understand.

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-We could go grab some food.
-I can't. I've got stuff to do inside.

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Yeah, yeah. For sure.

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[cell phone chimes]

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[Love] Remember when we crashed Dad's
beloved Maserati? We were all banged up.

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But better to suffer in silence
than let him know what we did.

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This feels like that.

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Only, I can't take this damaged thing
to the wrong side of town

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and claim someone stole it.

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I cheated on my soul mate.

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What's wrong with me, Forty?

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If you were here, you'd laugh.
You said I'd be a terrible mom.

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Number two might be in me as we speak,
and there's no one I can tell that...

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I'm not sure I want it.

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[cell phone chimes]

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Stop insinuating.

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It's not Theo's baby.

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Couldn't be, I don't think.

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What am I doing?

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Your phone is dead in my nightstand
because you are dead.

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And no one will ever read this.
So, what am I confessing for?

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[cell phone beeps]

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Speaking of terrible mothers...

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Ugh. The last thing I need is a weekend
all about Dottie and her second act.

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I wish you were here.

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I need you.

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["Supercut" playing over speaker]

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♪ The visions never stop ♪

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♪ These ribbons wrap me up ♪

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♪ But when I reach for you
There's just a supercut ♪

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♪ In your car, the radio up ♪

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♪ In your car, the radio up ♪

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♪ We keep tryin' to talk about us ♪

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♪ I'm someone, you may be my love... ♪

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Oh, my God. Theo, stop it!

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What the fuck?

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-What the fuck are you doing?
-[music stops]

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Thought that would get your attention.
This shit's romantic as fuck.

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-What are you talking about?
-According to all the rom-coms

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of your generation,
this is what the guys do to get the girl.

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First of all, I'm not that old.
And this is not a game, Theo.

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Okay, okay, I'm sorry. Sorry.
I don't know what to do.

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But you're ignoring me.

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I just-- I need your advice

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'cause you're the only person
that I actually trust.

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So my dad's back.

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He's already sequestered in his office.

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And I just...

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I don't know.

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I don't know what to do.

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He's not doing well.

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Yeah. Your dad is grieving, Theo.
It's a roller coaster that doesn't end.

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I was just texting my dead brother.

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-Come here.
-What? No.

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Just go take care of your dad.

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I know he can be a dick,
but try to see where he's coming from.

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I bet it's not a bad place.

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Okay.

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Can I ask you one more thing?

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Sure.

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Do you think of me
during sex with your husband?

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-Seriously?
-Because yours is the only face I see.

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You need to leave.
Go take care of your dad.

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[Love] Do I deserve this?

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Is this new baby a gift or a punishment?

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God, that sounds terrible. Am I terrible?
Why did I do it, Forty, if I'm so happy?

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[timer dings]

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-Need help over there?
-No, I got it.

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Smells amazing.

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[Love] I don't deserve him.

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[Joe] I don't deserve her.

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She's making food,
so I'm nourished all weekend,

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and here I am counting the minutes
till she's gone so I can follow you.

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-Perfect bite. Ready?
-Ooh.

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Oh, yeah.

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Mm.

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Let me be clear. You fascinate me.

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But Love is my soul mate,

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mother of my child,

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love of my life.

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And my job as a husband
and a father is to keep it that way.

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[dramatic music playing]

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[Joe] I'm happy.

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[Marienne] Of course you are.

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Your mind's on nothing but your wife.

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All the time.

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Hey, you okay?

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Yeah.

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Yeah.

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How do you get it so fucking moist?

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Come show me.

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Yeah. Just like that.

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[both moaning]

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That was great.

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That was so great.

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[Jean] I appreciate you taking
this meeting face-to-face.

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I like to know I can put you in a headlock
when I'm not getting through to you.

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A loving headlock.

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I can only assume
the best part of this is now behind us.

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I'd appreciate if you tell me
before you hire an investigator

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to look into your wife's case
that's closed.

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-Is it? You bought that?
-What did he find?

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He tell you
the neighbors' daughter's a coke dealer?

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Wanna take a look?

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-Help yourself.
-Oh.

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Bottom-line it, anything remotely
interesting in all this guy's work?

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One thing that's interesting to me
is your neighbor, the baker,

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Quinn of the L.A. Quinns,

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meaning she probably has her own PIs
who know what you're up to.

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And the most litigious father this side
of Republicans whining for a recount.

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Except Ray Quinn, he wins.

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-I haven't broken any laws.
-A look this bad should be illegal.

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You mean, my trying to figure out
who murdered my wife? Can you imagine?

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You do understand what will happen
when the townspeople learn

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you're having them investigated?

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They'll make noise.

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-Great.
-No, not great.

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I just spent six months trying to put
some light between this company

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and words like marital affair, murder.

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-Different lanes.
-I'm not disappearing your ass

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back to Tokyo while I spend another six
putting out more fires you've lit.

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Different fucking lanes!

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This isn't about the company.

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Oh, because you and the company I protect
aren't at all the exact same thing?

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Listen, I--

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I understand that you're grieving.
That's reasonable.

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Grieve.

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But this?

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This will cost not just you
but every person who works for you.

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You'll destroy lives for nothing

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because the worst offense
the townspeople are guilty of is

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tacky athleisure.

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It stops now. You get that, right?

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["Dramatic" playing]

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♪ If you cover my mouth with your hands ♪

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♪ Try to silence me ♪

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♪ I'll scream out as loud as I can ♪

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♪ Shouldn't bite the hand that feeds me ♪

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♪ But you're not the man ♪

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♪ And when I stick it to you
We'll see who's dramatic ♪

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♪ You say that I'm safe ♪

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♪ While you look for someone... ♪

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Alrighty.

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Thank you.

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♪ I think you're a bit too late... ♪

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[Love] Maybe I'll actually get
some answers this weekend. God, I hope.

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Changing lives is my passion.

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That's why I bought Casa Gaia Vineyard
and intend to make it a hub

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for transformation

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and organic, biodynamic fine wines.

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[Love] Course, Dottie befriends Sherry

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and her billion followers.

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Lot of chances to sell mommy-juice.

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These women are about to experience
a defining moment in their lives.

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The Women Optimizing Motherhood
and Business Summit

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will set a path into the future.

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Hashtag "W.O.M.B."

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[Love] I'm drowning in her estrogen.

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[Dottie] Now let's toast.

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To womanhood, motherhood

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and the entrepreneurial spirit.

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And cut. Yes!

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That was perfection.
I'll check this file and AirDrop you.

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The Internet is gonna swoon
when you post this.

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-Thank you for being here.
-Hey, Sherry.

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-Sweetie.
-Hi, Mom.

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-Did the nursery take our little man?
-Practically took him out of my hands.

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This could not have come at a better time.
You look exhausted.

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[Love] It begins.

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Yeah, I haven't made it to my room yet
but thank you.

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Trust me. Come Monday, you will be
the picture of relaxation. Want some?

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I'm good.

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Not pregnant, are you?

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-[Love] Keep it together. She smells fear.
-I'm on a mini detox.

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You are? Oh, my God.

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-Is it Joe's or that neighbor kid's?
-Keep your voice down. I was--

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I have seconds before kickoff.
We'll finish this later.

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Maybe a little lipstick, sweetheart?
You're pale.

251
00:16:26,611 --> 00:16:28,613
[Love] Remember pretending to be orphans?

252
00:16:28,697 --> 00:16:29,698
That was fun.

253
00:16:32,659 --> 00:16:33,952
[cell phone chimes]

254
00:16:41,918 --> 00:16:44,212
[Joe] Your work face, giving nothing away.

255
00:16:52,846 --> 00:16:55,057
Excuse me. Where's Narnia?

256
00:16:55,140 --> 00:16:58,310
Oh, it's in Kid Lit.
You see that tree over there?

257
00:16:58,393 --> 00:16:59,936
-Thank you.
-Yeah.

258
00:17:06,568 --> 00:17:10,322
You're leaving mid-shift?
Could this be opportunity knocking?

259
00:17:13,867 --> 00:17:15,285
Hey, Dante.

260
00:17:15,368 --> 00:17:19,414
Marienne asked me to take care
of the overdue notices?

261
00:17:19,498 --> 00:17:21,333
Was that at the desk here?

262
00:17:21,416 --> 00:17:23,668
Her office. She'll be back in an hour.

263
00:17:23,752 --> 00:17:26,379
Okay. I think she meant while she's out.

264
00:17:26,963 --> 00:17:28,548
So diligent...

265
00:17:28,632 --> 00:17:32,636
after taking three hours
to shelve that one cart this morning.

266
00:17:34,596 --> 00:17:35,430
Thank you.

267
00:17:46,900 --> 00:17:48,026
Okay.

268
00:17:48,110 --> 00:17:51,988
Doesn't exactly scream skeletons
but then neither do you.

269
00:17:56,118 --> 00:17:58,578
There's nothing in your work files
or search history.

270
00:17:58,662 --> 00:18:01,623
It's just, there's no "you" here at all,

271
00:18:01,706 --> 00:18:04,334
which tells me
I'm not looking hard enough.

272
00:18:08,171 --> 00:18:11,633
Hmm. "Recovery." This is a surprise.

273
00:18:11,716 --> 00:18:15,595
This deepens my curiosity,
and now I need more.

274
00:18:25,397 --> 00:18:26,690
"Child endangerment"?

275
00:18:28,150 --> 00:18:29,359
"Neglect."

276
00:18:29,442 --> 00:18:30,443
"Abuse."

277
00:18:30,527 --> 00:18:32,362
This can't be right.

278
00:18:34,489 --> 00:18:36,283
The ex-husband, I presume.

279
00:18:37,868 --> 00:18:39,494
The more I know,

280
00:18:39,578 --> 00:18:41,913
the less I understand.

281
00:18:41,997 --> 00:18:44,124
Who are you?

282
00:18:44,666 --> 00:18:46,459
What I do know,

283
00:18:46,543 --> 00:18:48,295
your problems are serious.

284
00:18:48,378 --> 00:18:50,463
You're a mess.

285
00:18:50,547 --> 00:18:52,257
I have a loving wife, a son.

286
00:18:52,340 --> 00:18:55,010
I can't have anything to do
with your red flags.

287
00:18:55,093 --> 00:18:57,637
This itch has been scratched.

288
00:19:00,182 --> 00:19:04,477
[Laura] "What did I want? A tarnished
marriage that takes so much work to heal?

289
00:19:04,561 --> 00:19:06,271
A family that consumed me?

290
00:19:06,897 --> 00:19:09,482
No, I deserved better.

291
00:19:09,566 --> 00:19:12,110
All at once,
I knew what that looked like."

292
00:19:12,194 --> 00:19:13,737
[Love] What does it look like?

293
00:19:14,529 --> 00:19:16,740
"I realized I had more to offer."

294
00:19:19,951 --> 00:19:21,578
And so, I started writing.

295
00:19:21,661 --> 00:19:23,914
Eventually, I started my own company,

296
00:19:23,997 --> 00:19:25,749
and it was hard.

297
00:19:25,832 --> 00:19:27,209
It was exhausting.

298
00:19:27,834 --> 00:19:30,378
But if I could do it, you can too.

299
00:19:30,962 --> 00:19:33,423
[Love] That's it?

300
00:19:34,007 --> 00:19:36,259
All right. Who has a question?

301
00:19:37,177 --> 00:19:40,263
-Yes, right here.
-Given all you've accomplished,

302
00:19:40,347 --> 00:19:42,057
how do you stay so humble?

303
00:19:42,140 --> 00:19:43,725
[Love] Is she joking?

304
00:19:43,808 --> 00:19:48,438
I start the first half hour
of every morning expressing gratitude.

305
00:19:49,022 --> 00:19:52,609
A great way to remember that none of us
can get through this life without help.

306
00:19:54,027 --> 00:19:55,654
All right. Who's next?

307
00:19:56,404 --> 00:19:59,783
If you're supposed to be giving us
the secret of joy,

308
00:19:59,866 --> 00:20:00,867
what is it?

309
00:20:02,327 --> 00:20:05,622
I don't hear you saying
what a 21st-century professional mother

310
00:20:05,705 --> 00:20:07,832
is supposed to do to find happiness.

311
00:20:08,416 --> 00:20:09,542
Simple.

312
00:20:09,626 --> 00:20:11,586
If you focus on watering your own grass,

313
00:20:11,670 --> 00:20:13,880
you never have to wonder
if it's greener anywhere else.

314
00:20:13,964 --> 00:20:17,759
But what does that mean? I--
I water my own grass, and I don't--

315
00:20:17,842 --> 00:20:20,679
-Okay, next.
-It's fine. You don't what?

316
00:20:20,762 --> 00:20:24,057
You don't feel how incredibly green
your own grass is?

317
00:20:24,140 --> 00:20:26,101
Is it possible
that you don't wanna succeed?

318
00:20:26,184 --> 00:20:30,313
That you feel guilty for what you have
and you sabotage your happiness?

319
00:20:34,651 --> 00:20:38,321
I would suggest a look inward
and read my book.

320
00:20:38,405 --> 00:20:41,491
To read more about your narcissistic climb
to success, when, poof,

321
00:20:41,574 --> 00:20:43,493
you suddenly discovered
you were deserving?

322
00:20:43,576 --> 00:20:45,829
Sounds like privileged bullshit to me.

323
00:20:52,002 --> 00:20:53,086
I'm not sorry.

324
00:20:53,169 --> 00:20:57,966
She doesn't know what she's talking about.
I do want to succeed, obviously, right?

325
00:20:58,049 --> 00:21:01,469
You are powerful. You are loved.
You are forgiven.

326
00:21:02,095 --> 00:21:03,972
Mm. Thank you.

327
00:21:04,806 --> 00:21:06,891
I am sorry.

328
00:21:06,975 --> 00:21:10,687
-We've moved on.
-It's not too late to turn the day around.

329
00:21:10,770 --> 00:21:14,566
Sherry had the brilliant idea, we do
an IGTV interview with each other and...

330
00:21:14,649 --> 00:21:16,234
We want you to be a part of it.

331
00:21:17,819 --> 00:21:19,946
-Interview for what?
-Our brands.

332
00:21:20,030 --> 00:21:22,991
But also to counteract
your little outburst.

333
00:21:25,243 --> 00:21:27,120
You were right about one thing.

334
00:21:27,662 --> 00:21:30,957
Women need to see other successful women
supporting each other.

335
00:21:31,041 --> 00:21:34,336
How better to use our privilege, right?

336
00:21:34,836 --> 00:21:36,963
Hashtag "You can sit with us."

337
00:21:38,631 --> 00:21:39,466
Sure.

338
00:21:45,597 --> 00:21:46,890
Hello, goddesses.

339
00:21:46,973 --> 00:21:48,808
I'm at the W.O.M.B. Summit

340
00:21:48,892 --> 00:21:51,353
with Heart-Shaped Mistakes creator

341
00:21:51,436 --> 00:21:54,939
and fellow twin mom Sherry Conrad.

342
00:21:55,648 --> 00:21:56,566
Sherry,

343
00:21:57,317 --> 00:21:59,152
your blog moves me.

344
00:21:59,778 --> 00:22:02,405
But it's your heart
that really touches me.

345
00:22:02,489 --> 00:22:03,907
Oh, Dottie.

346
00:22:03,990 --> 00:22:05,200
[Love] Oh, woof.

347
00:22:05,283 --> 00:22:08,119
You are a shining light for us all.

348
00:22:08,620 --> 00:22:11,748
-Thank you for being my soul sister.
-[Love] Vomit emoji.

349
00:22:11,831 --> 00:22:13,375
And last but not least,

350
00:22:13,458 --> 00:22:17,003
my pride and joy, Love Quinn-Goldberg.

351
00:22:18,505 --> 00:22:22,717
I'm so proud to have raised a daughter
whose grit nearly matches my own.

352
00:22:22,801 --> 00:22:24,761
-[Love] Nearly?
-Doing it all.

353
00:22:24,844 --> 00:22:29,307
Husband, business, 1-year-old,
all with possibly another on the way.

354
00:22:29,391 --> 00:22:30,391
Oh, my God, Mom.

355
00:22:30,475 --> 00:22:32,811
-Oh, my God, Love! Amazing!
-What the fuck?

356
00:22:32,894 --> 00:22:35,105
-What are you doing?
-Sherry, give us a second.

357
00:22:35,188 --> 00:22:37,899
-Love, I just--
-Seriously, get the fuck out.

358
00:22:39,109 --> 00:22:39,943
Thank you.

359
00:22:41,277 --> 00:22:45,115
How the hell could you do that?
I'm not sure. I haven't told Joe.

360
00:22:45,824 --> 00:22:50,036
It's not surprising. The problems
in your marriage keep stacking up.

361
00:22:50,120 --> 00:22:52,413
Mom, it has nothing to do with you.

362
00:22:52,497 --> 00:22:55,291
My life, my marriage, my womb,

363
00:22:55,375 --> 00:22:58,378
none of your fucking business,
and not to share on social media.

364
00:22:58,461 --> 00:23:00,964
-Don't speak to me like that.
-Somebody has to.

365
00:23:01,631 --> 00:23:04,008
You're the reason
Forty and I are fucked up.

366
00:23:04,092 --> 00:23:07,053
-Don't talk about him.
-No wonder that our life turned into this.

367
00:23:07,137 --> 00:23:09,931
All you ever showed me
was to get the prince,

368
00:23:10,014 --> 00:23:12,433
build a castle,
and then burn it all to the ground.

369
00:23:12,517 --> 00:23:16,020
Says the princess who was given all
the mattresses in the world to sleep on

370
00:23:16,104 --> 00:23:18,148
and still complains she can feel a pea.

371
00:23:18,231 --> 00:23:19,816
I gave you the world,

372
00:23:19,899 --> 00:23:21,734
you ungrateful, little bitch.

373
00:23:21,818 --> 00:23:24,863
You have no idea
what I had to do to give it to you.

374
00:23:25,405 --> 00:23:28,199
Your choice to fuck the neighbor boy
or blow up your life

375
00:23:28,283 --> 00:23:33,079
has nothing to do with me and everything
to do with you being spoiled and bored.

376
00:23:33,163 --> 00:23:36,875
I'll take the blame for spoiling you.
But the source of your unhappiness?

377
00:23:36,958 --> 00:23:41,087
Look in the mirror instead of spouting
your hypocrisy at everyone else.

378
00:24:17,749 --> 00:24:18,833
[knocking on door]

379
00:24:19,417 --> 00:24:20,752
Dad, I got you dinner.

380
00:24:25,340 --> 00:24:26,174
Dad?

381
00:24:31,554 --> 00:24:35,058
Come on, you can be mad at me,
but at least eat something.

382
00:24:38,269 --> 00:24:39,646
[Matthew snoring]

383
00:24:56,329 --> 00:24:57,622
[ominous music playing]

384
00:25:04,128 --> 00:25:05,296
What the fuck?

385
00:25:14,806 --> 00:25:16,516
Almost ready to go, Goldberg?

386
00:25:16,599 --> 00:25:18,810
No, you go ahead. I'll close up.

387
00:25:18,893 --> 00:25:22,188
The smell of your perfume could
erase everything I've learned today.

388
00:25:22,272 --> 00:25:26,276
-Best to hang back for now.
-No way. You know the rules.

389
00:25:33,074 --> 00:25:35,743
Do me a favor
and stay down there a sec, okay?

390
00:25:35,827 --> 00:25:37,036
[Goodwin] You hired a lawyer?

391
00:25:37,120 --> 00:25:39,163
-[Marienne] Let's talk outside.
-[Goodwin] No.

392
00:25:39,247 --> 00:25:40,415
[Joe] Is that your ex-husband?

393
00:25:40,498 --> 00:25:42,792
[Goodwin] No, you don't have any rights,
you fucking junkie.

394
00:25:42,875 --> 00:25:44,502
[Joe] That doesn't sound right.

395
00:25:44,585 --> 00:25:46,838
-[Goodwin] Listen to me...
-[Marienne] Get your hands off--

396
00:25:46,921 --> 00:25:50,341
-Get your hands off me!
-No, no-- Hey, no, we're not done.

397
00:25:50,425 --> 00:25:51,259
Hey!

398
00:25:52,385 --> 00:25:55,513
-What is going on here?
-Hey, man, I'm sorry. That--

399
00:25:56,472 --> 00:25:59,892
This looks bad, right?
I knocked that over by accident.

400
00:25:59,976 --> 00:26:01,602
It must have sounded crazy.

401
00:26:02,478 --> 00:26:03,896
I'm-- I'm Ryan Goodwin.

402
00:26:03,980 --> 00:26:06,774
If I look familiar, Channel Three News.

403
00:26:07,442 --> 00:26:11,112
I recognize you.
I think you should leave, Ryan.

404
00:26:12,155 --> 00:26:13,114
Yeah, sure.

405
00:26:13,823 --> 00:26:14,657
Sure.

406
00:26:15,241 --> 00:26:18,828
Look, you know, exes.

407
00:26:19,871 --> 00:26:24,042
-But the respect's there.
-Don't look at her. Just go.

408
00:26:26,669 --> 00:26:27,503
Yeah.

409
00:26:29,380 --> 00:26:30,506
Talk later, Mare.

410
00:26:34,260 --> 00:26:36,095
-You okay?
-You shouldn't have done that.

411
00:26:36,179 --> 00:26:37,472
I didn't ask for your help.

412
00:26:37,555 --> 00:26:40,141
What part of "stay out of it"
did you not understand?

413
00:26:40,224 --> 00:26:41,893
Was that too hard?

414
00:26:41,976 --> 00:26:43,978
You really had to run up here
like some white knight

415
00:26:44,062 --> 00:26:46,147
and get in the middle of my shit?

416
00:26:46,230 --> 00:26:47,607
You're crazy!

417
00:26:47,690 --> 00:26:51,027
Which is 100%
none of your goddamn business, Joe!

418
00:26:51,110 --> 00:26:53,988
-You sick fuck!
-[Joe] I see it now.

419
00:26:54,072 --> 00:26:56,074
This is why "you."

420
00:26:56,157 --> 00:26:59,911
-You're a pattern.
-[Sandy] Thought he'd be better this time.

421
00:26:59,994 --> 00:27:02,538
[Fiona] If you look up "klutz,"
there's a picture of me.

422
00:27:02,622 --> 00:27:04,957
[Joe] You're a lost lamb
attracted to wolves.

423
00:27:05,041 --> 00:27:07,251
-Ergo, what I feel...
-Just let me handle it.

424
00:27:07,335 --> 00:27:12,131
...it's not because you're special, it's--
Wait for it. It's mother issues.

425
00:27:12,215 --> 00:27:14,008
How's that for self-awareness?

426
00:27:15,176 --> 00:27:16,511
Am I amusing you?

427
00:27:16,594 --> 00:27:18,513
No, no, no. No.

428
00:27:19,389 --> 00:27:21,516
I'm sorry. Also, I'm not sorry.

429
00:27:21,599 --> 00:27:24,811
I'm not one to let bullies bully.
I would've done that for anybody.

430
00:27:26,020 --> 00:27:26,854
Okay.

431
00:27:36,614 --> 00:27:38,825
[pop music playing faintly over speakers]

432
00:27:46,874 --> 00:27:49,377
[Love] Fuck Dottie.

433
00:27:50,670 --> 00:27:53,673
What's she know?
We were accessories to her.

434
00:27:53,756 --> 00:27:56,008
A couple of purse dogs she'd overfeed,

435
00:27:56,092 --> 00:27:58,886
then scream at
when we shit on her Gucci wallet.

436
00:27:58,970 --> 00:28:00,054
Fuck Dottie.

437
00:28:00,805 --> 00:28:02,056
I hate her.

438
00:28:15,403 --> 00:28:16,696
I hate you too.

439
00:28:17,530 --> 00:28:18,948
For leaving me with her.

440
00:28:19,031 --> 00:28:22,076
You should've just eaten me
in the womb, Forty.

441
00:28:36,924 --> 00:28:38,092
[cell phone chimes]

442
00:28:44,891 --> 00:28:47,435
Did you just answer me?

443
00:28:50,021 --> 00:28:51,564
What the fuck?

444
00:28:51,647 --> 00:28:52,774
Forty?

445
00:28:54,984 --> 00:28:56,027
God.

446
00:28:58,488 --> 00:29:01,240
[groaning] I am wasted.

447
00:29:03,659 --> 00:29:04,869
[Forty laughing]

448
00:29:08,581 --> 00:29:10,708
So wasted.

449
00:29:12,293 --> 00:29:14,462
Oh, my God. Forty!

450
00:29:15,922 --> 00:29:17,048
Wait.

451
00:29:18,299 --> 00:29:20,176
Are you really here?

452
00:29:22,261 --> 00:29:24,847
Yeah, of course, Lovey.

453
00:29:25,348 --> 00:29:27,558
I live inside you.

454
00:29:28,142 --> 00:29:29,185
I'm always here.

455
00:29:29,685 --> 00:29:34,440
♪ Just call my name and I'll be there ♪

456
00:29:34,524 --> 00:29:35,608
[Love laughing]

457
00:29:36,150 --> 00:29:37,693
All seriousness though,

458
00:29:38,611 --> 00:29:42,949
how happy are we that I am
the only thing living inside you?

459
00:29:44,826 --> 00:29:46,035
Dodged a bullet.

460
00:29:46,869 --> 00:29:49,080
-Good job, vagina.
-Did I though?

461
00:29:49,163 --> 00:29:50,748
Dodge a bullet? I mean...

462
00:29:51,749 --> 00:29:52,959
I am relieved,

463
00:29:53,042 --> 00:29:58,548
but, I don't know, I can't help but wonder
if maybe another baby would calm me down.

464
00:29:59,590 --> 00:30:03,052
-Focus me a little.
-First of all, no.

465
00:30:03,135 --> 00:30:04,387
And, B,

466
00:30:05,388 --> 00:30:08,099
do you really think
focusing is what you need?

467
00:30:08,182 --> 00:30:10,017
I thought I needed to get married.

468
00:30:11,102 --> 00:30:13,437
Then move and start over.

469
00:30:14,105 --> 00:30:15,398
Then a bakery.

470
00:30:17,733 --> 00:30:20,027
Then someone who wasn't my husband.

471
00:30:20,111 --> 00:30:22,655
I get it though. That kid is pretty cool.

472
00:30:23,739 --> 00:30:25,449
Kind of reminds me of me.

473
00:30:30,371 --> 00:30:32,623
[voice breaking]
Forty, I don't know what happened.

474
00:30:34,292 --> 00:30:36,669
I fell so in love with Joe.

475
00:30:37,753 --> 00:30:40,047
But now I don't-- I don't even...

476
00:30:42,341 --> 00:30:43,384
like him...

477
00:30:44,552 --> 00:30:45,469
anymore.

478
00:30:46,345 --> 00:30:49,599
I mean, he makes me feel bad for being me.

479
00:30:52,935 --> 00:30:55,605
That's not how your soul mate's supposed
to make you feel, right?

480
00:31:03,070 --> 00:31:05,323
I'm self-sabotaging, aren't I?

481
00:31:06,073 --> 00:31:06,949
Yeah.

482
00:31:10,536 --> 00:31:13,581
-Why can't I just be happy?
-Oh, Lovey.

483
00:31:15,082 --> 00:31:18,794
You're not happy
because Joe isn't your soul mate.

484
00:31:22,006 --> 00:31:22,965
I am.

485
00:31:24,133 --> 00:31:26,344
There is one person

486
00:31:26,427 --> 00:31:29,597
who understands
what you have been through.

487
00:31:29,680 --> 00:31:31,641
I slept on those mattresses too.

488
00:31:31,724 --> 00:31:34,852
I mean, that pea fucking killed me.

489
00:31:36,062 --> 00:31:38,731
I am so sorry.

490
00:31:39,899 --> 00:31:43,194
Don't be sorry for surviving.

491
00:31:46,238 --> 00:31:47,657
You were the strong one.

492
00:31:49,158 --> 00:31:51,869
You always knew
it was gonna turn out this way.

493
00:31:53,537 --> 00:31:55,331
It's why you held me so tight.

494
00:32:03,881 --> 00:32:04,882
[Love sobbing]

495
00:32:09,553 --> 00:32:11,889
♪ I'll be there ♪

496
00:32:12,598 --> 00:32:14,642
♪ I'll be there ♪

497
00:32:16,394 --> 00:32:22,858
♪ Just call my name and I'll be there ♪

498
00:32:37,873 --> 00:32:40,209
[Joe] Mommy issues.

499
00:32:40,292 --> 00:32:43,546
I can't believe it's taken me this long.
I'm growing.

500
00:32:43,629 --> 00:32:47,591
"The absence of burden causes man
to be lighter than air,

501
00:32:47,675 --> 00:32:51,345
to soar into heights,
take leave of the earth, free.

502
00:32:51,429 --> 00:32:54,974
What then shall we choose?
Weight or lightness?"

503
00:32:55,057 --> 00:32:56,142
[cell phone buzzing]

504
00:33:00,187 --> 00:33:02,398
-Hey, what--?
-[Marienne] Hey. It's an emergency.

505
00:33:02,481 --> 00:33:04,483
I'm sorry for calling so late.

506
00:33:30,092 --> 00:33:31,218
-Hey.
-Hey.

507
00:33:32,011 --> 00:33:34,972
-What happened?
-Sprinkler system malfunctioned.

508
00:33:36,474 --> 00:33:40,352
I tried to get somebody to look at it,
now thousands of books are destroyed...

509
00:33:41,645 --> 00:33:44,356
-and I'll lose my job.
-That won't happen.

510
00:33:44,440 --> 00:33:47,651
Not your fault the county's too cheap
to invest in building upkeep.

511
00:33:50,571 --> 00:33:53,407
You happen to have called
the best book doctor in the world,

512
00:33:53,491 --> 00:33:55,826
so we'll figure out what's salvageable.

513
00:33:56,577 --> 00:33:57,661
It'll be fine.

514
00:33:58,704 --> 00:34:02,208
Okay. Well, I'm choosing to believe you.

515
00:34:10,174 --> 00:34:11,675
[Joe] This is about books.

516
00:34:11,759 --> 00:34:13,594
For the love of books.

517
00:34:13,677 --> 00:34:15,846
I would've done the same thing
if Dante called.

518
00:34:16,430 --> 00:34:17,389
I'm sorry.

519
00:34:19,016 --> 00:34:22,770
About earlier.
I know you were just trying to help.

520
00:34:24,355 --> 00:34:26,440
I know it's no excuse,

521
00:34:27,858 --> 00:34:30,194
but my ex-husband brings out my worst.

522
00:34:30,778 --> 00:34:31,612
It's okay.

523
00:34:32,363 --> 00:34:34,073
We're all works in progress.

524
00:34:35,699 --> 00:34:38,911
"When you've been worked on for so long,
you never know you're done."

525
00:34:40,955 --> 00:34:42,248
Jericho Brown.

526
00:34:43,707 --> 00:34:45,126
You know his work?

527
00:34:45,209 --> 00:34:48,587
[Joe] What am I doing, using my old games
on you? I'm not this guy anymore.

528
00:34:49,380 --> 00:34:54,552
I read his work in The New Yorker,
and that line... stayed with me.

529
00:34:54,635 --> 00:34:57,680
But I don't know
his writing much, actually.

530
00:35:09,066 --> 00:35:12,153
The way you've handled
those books. The care.

531
00:35:12,236 --> 00:35:14,280
Only a mother-- Oh, there. Yep.

532
00:35:14,363 --> 00:35:15,447
Okay, stop.

533
00:35:16,282 --> 00:35:18,367
But just to pass the time...

534
00:35:18,450 --> 00:35:22,413
It's a personal question,
but we are technically off-hours.

535
00:35:22,496 --> 00:35:23,330
Just ask it.

536
00:35:24,415 --> 00:35:25,791
What's your daughter like?

537
00:35:30,254 --> 00:35:31,213
Amazing.

538
00:35:32,673 --> 00:35:34,341
Kind, funny,

539
00:35:34,425 --> 00:35:38,262
likes to go out
and look for fairy rings at the park.

540
00:35:38,345 --> 00:35:40,431
Excellent at finding them.

541
00:35:40,514 --> 00:35:41,849
Loves to draw.

542
00:35:42,433 --> 00:35:43,309
Like her mom.

543
00:35:43,392 --> 00:35:46,437
Yeah, nothing in this world beats
the feeling of...

544
00:35:46,520 --> 00:35:48,689
Of looking at your child

545
00:35:48,772 --> 00:35:51,525
and knowing you're watching
someone grow up better than you.

546
00:35:51,609 --> 00:35:54,528
[Joe] How could you do anything
to hurt your child?

547
00:35:54,612 --> 00:35:55,821
All I see is love.

548
00:35:55,905 --> 00:35:56,989
Your turn.

549
00:35:57,615 --> 00:36:00,034
-What's Henry like?
-Oh, he's a terrorist.

550
00:36:00,784 --> 00:36:05,623
No, he's-- He's adorable, he's sweet.
A big fan of Hemingway and Fitzgerald.

551
00:36:05,706 --> 00:36:07,750
No surprise,
you've seen him with the bottle.

552
00:36:09,043 --> 00:36:11,503
I really hope he's better than me.

553
00:36:13,005 --> 00:36:14,256
Why do you look like that?

554
00:36:20,262 --> 00:36:22,932
I had this idea...

555
00:36:24,475 --> 00:36:26,185
of happily ever after.

556
00:36:26,268 --> 00:36:29,063
Perfect family, picket fence.
Now I have that.

557
00:36:29,730 --> 00:36:30,898
I want what's best for my son.

558
00:36:30,981 --> 00:36:34,360
I'm just worried that this suburban,
cookie-cutter existence isn't...

559
00:36:35,527 --> 00:36:37,863
Isn't it. I know it's nothing compared
to your situation.

560
00:36:37,947 --> 00:36:40,157
-I shouldn't be complaining.
-No, I get it.

561
00:36:40,241 --> 00:36:43,118
Raising kids is a whole different game
once you've gone through the system.

562
00:36:46,247 --> 00:36:48,040
Soon as you told me
you didn't come from money,

563
00:36:48,123 --> 00:36:50,167
all of a sudden
I could just see it on you.

564
00:36:52,419 --> 00:36:56,590
Yeah, I had been in a dozen foster homes
before I hit 18,

565
00:36:57,466 --> 00:37:00,511
and still, even though I knew
it made no sense, I...

566
00:37:02,429 --> 00:37:05,140
I never stopped thinking
my mom would show up and save me.

567
00:37:06,600 --> 00:37:08,602
She never did, of course,

568
00:37:09,186 --> 00:37:11,855
but sure made me wanna be
a better mom though.

569
00:37:13,941 --> 00:37:15,776
I held on to that same hope.

570
00:37:17,528 --> 00:37:18,612
For years.

571
00:37:19,280 --> 00:37:22,741
And got my ass kicked regularly for it.

572
00:37:22,825 --> 00:37:25,160
I think it kept me going.

573
00:37:26,120 --> 00:37:28,914
But she never came back either.

574
00:37:30,332 --> 00:37:34,753
I never talk about this with anyone,
not even Love.

575
00:37:36,839 --> 00:37:40,426
Despite her best intentions,
she could only understand to a point.

576
00:37:40,509 --> 00:37:42,594
[Joe] But you understand completely.

577
00:37:46,640 --> 00:37:47,516
Um...

578
00:37:48,183 --> 00:37:49,977
We should get back to it.

579
00:37:51,186 --> 00:37:52,604
What happened with Ryan?

580
00:37:54,481 --> 00:37:55,357
I'm sorry.

581
00:37:56,025 --> 00:37:58,027
I'm not okay with what I saw,

582
00:37:58,110 --> 00:38:01,739
and I would like to know
how someone who treats you like that

583
00:38:01,822 --> 00:38:03,782
could have custody of your child.

584
00:38:26,013 --> 00:38:27,389
We were both addicts...

585
00:38:28,140 --> 00:38:29,641
when Juliette was a baby.

586
00:38:31,185 --> 00:38:32,770
One night, I...

587
00:38:33,896 --> 00:38:35,606
I sailed through a red light.

588
00:38:36,148 --> 00:38:39,068
And the other driver
was very seriously hurt,

589
00:38:39,151 --> 00:38:42,905
and the way that we collided,
if Juliette had been on the other side...

590
00:38:42,988 --> 00:38:44,656
[Joe] Reckless endangerment of a child.

591
00:38:44,740 --> 00:38:47,659
That disaster, and the fact
that he got clean before I did,

592
00:38:47,743 --> 00:38:49,745
is how Ryan got full custody.

593
00:38:52,164 --> 00:38:55,167
The lies he's told ever since is
how he's kept it.

594
00:38:55,250 --> 00:38:56,293
The lies?

595
00:38:56,377 --> 00:38:58,587
Well, you know, he's got money.

596
00:38:58,670 --> 00:39:01,590
Beloved local celeb, a white man.

597
00:39:01,673 --> 00:39:05,260
And I think we can both agree,
white men get a million chances in life.

598
00:39:05,344 --> 00:39:10,224
So when he accuses me of child neglect,
for not showing up for my visitation,

599
00:39:10,307 --> 00:39:11,767
they believe him.

600
00:39:11,850 --> 00:39:14,561
Even when I swear
he gave me the wrong address.

601
00:39:15,270 --> 00:39:18,774
He can have me arrested
for destruction of property

602
00:39:18,857 --> 00:39:22,945
for keying his car that I barely scratched
'cause I chickened out.

603
00:39:23,028 --> 00:39:24,613
And my favorite,

604
00:39:25,406 --> 00:39:28,534
verbal and emotional abuse
for calling him a dickhead.

605
00:39:31,036 --> 00:39:34,289
Yeah, and he's had this case built
against me for years,

606
00:39:34,373 --> 00:39:35,916
and everyone believes him,

607
00:39:35,999 --> 00:39:40,963
everyone takes his word over mine
because... who am I?

608
00:39:42,047 --> 00:39:43,090
I'm sorry.

609
00:39:43,715 --> 00:39:47,594
I'm so sorry for what you've been through.

610
00:39:50,722 --> 00:39:53,725
Nobody forced me
to get behind the wheel that night.

611
00:39:53,809 --> 00:39:54,643
That's...

612
00:39:55,769 --> 00:39:57,438
That's a choice I live with.

613
00:39:57,521 --> 00:40:00,858
Yeah, but everything else,
Ryan manipulating the justice system,

614
00:40:00,941 --> 00:40:02,109
somebody should stop him.

615
00:40:02,192 --> 00:40:05,737
-I volunteer, happily.
-Well, I am working on it.

616
00:40:06,447 --> 00:40:09,324
I just met a new lawyer
for dinner last night.

617
00:40:09,867 --> 00:40:11,827
[Joe] Lawyer. You weren't on a date.

618
00:40:12,494 --> 00:40:14,913
He thinks joint custody is doable

619
00:40:14,997 --> 00:40:18,459
if I can just show
how I'm really doing now

620
00:40:18,542 --> 00:40:19,877
and the judge sees it.

621
00:40:20,711 --> 00:40:26,842
If I was sure Ryan could never find us,
I would grab Juliette and run to Paris.

622
00:40:28,051 --> 00:40:31,180
And spend our days
drawing outside Sacré-Cœur.

623
00:40:33,765 --> 00:40:35,100
That sounds magical.

624
00:40:35,184 --> 00:40:36,393
For you.

625
00:40:36,477 --> 00:40:39,146
Tragic for me to lose you.

626
00:40:39,229 --> 00:40:43,317
I shouldn't have reduced you to my issues.
You're nothing like my mother.

627
00:40:43,400 --> 00:40:45,319
You adore your child
and she should be with you.

628
00:40:45,402 --> 00:40:47,779
You're just who you are.

629
00:40:48,572 --> 00:40:51,909
You don't hide or embellish,
you own your mistakes

630
00:40:51,992 --> 00:40:55,996
and stand up to the strikes
against you. You're so...

631
00:40:58,582 --> 00:41:01,710
Oh! No! Please, no!

632
00:41:03,504 --> 00:41:04,505
It's okay, look.

633
00:41:05,130 --> 00:41:07,216
I think, it's-- It's just us.

634
00:41:16,558 --> 00:41:17,935
[dramatic music playing]

635
00:41:56,431 --> 00:41:57,474
Oh, shit.

636
00:41:58,016 --> 00:41:59,393
Love is gonna kill you.

637
00:42:02,104 --> 00:42:04,022
[pop music playing over speakers]

638
00:42:20,247 --> 00:42:22,916
Haven't really been yourself this weekend.

639
00:42:24,376 --> 00:42:26,795
-You really pregnant?
-This is a hangover.

640
00:42:28,130 --> 00:42:29,631
I'm not pregnant.

641
00:42:30,215 --> 00:42:31,883
I'm sorry to hear that.

642
00:42:33,885 --> 00:42:35,012
It's fine.

643
00:42:35,095 --> 00:42:36,638
Then what's going on?

644
00:42:36,722 --> 00:42:37,889
I don't know.

645
00:42:40,517 --> 00:42:43,478
I'm just not happy.

646
00:42:45,689 --> 00:42:47,232
And it's not Joe's fault.

647
00:42:47,816 --> 00:42:50,819
He's just not my soul mate.

648
00:42:51,403 --> 00:42:55,032
No one who tries to love you really
measures up when you're a twin.

649
00:42:55,115 --> 00:42:58,577
Well, I know from my own twins,
you are absolutely right.

650
00:42:58,660 --> 00:43:01,079
But the whole soul-mate thing,

651
00:43:01,663 --> 00:43:02,914
it's mostly bullshit.

652
00:43:03,874 --> 00:43:05,917
You choose your soul mate.

653
00:43:06,001 --> 00:43:07,377
Cary and I,

654
00:43:07,461 --> 00:43:10,047
we had some fundamental problems.

655
00:43:10,130 --> 00:43:12,215
I didn't even like him for a while.

656
00:43:12,883 --> 00:43:17,429
But I decided he was my person,

657
00:43:17,512 --> 00:43:18,930
and I made it work.

658
00:43:19,514 --> 00:43:22,225
Love, it's mostly chemicals.

659
00:43:22,309 --> 00:43:25,187
Dopamine, oxytocin, serotonin.

660
00:43:25,270 --> 00:43:26,480
To activate all three,

661
00:43:26,563 --> 00:43:29,399
exercise, eat some protein,
squeeze in eight hugs a day.

662
00:43:29,483 --> 00:43:31,860
-Mm.
-When you're happy and healthy,

663
00:43:31,943 --> 00:43:34,279
then you can make real choices.

664
00:43:34,363 --> 00:43:37,866
And that includes choosing your life mate.

665
00:43:37,949 --> 00:43:39,117
That easy, huh?

666
00:43:39,201 --> 00:43:40,702
It is not easy.

667
00:43:42,621 --> 00:43:44,539
But it is so worth it.

668
00:43:46,124 --> 00:43:47,542
[Love] Dear Forty,

669
00:43:48,251 --> 00:43:51,004
you've been my best friend
since before we were born.

670
00:43:51,880 --> 00:43:53,006
My other half.

671
00:43:54,007 --> 00:43:56,718
But I can't keep holding back
because I miss you.

672
00:43:56,802 --> 00:43:58,804
I can't raise a family
with a broken heart.

673
00:43:59,721 --> 00:44:01,390
I have to choose Joe now.

674
00:44:07,062 --> 00:44:08,605
I'll always love you.

675
00:44:10,107 --> 00:44:11,650
But I have to say goodbye.

676
00:44:12,526 --> 00:44:13,819
For real this time.

677
00:44:15,320 --> 00:44:17,072
As much as it hurts.

678
00:44:18,323 --> 00:44:21,201
Goodbye, you.

679
00:44:29,251 --> 00:44:30,669
[knocking on door]

680
00:44:35,257 --> 00:44:36,633
The fuck? What are you doing here?

681
00:44:38,927 --> 00:44:40,137
You called me.

682
00:44:40,721 --> 00:44:42,764
You drunk-dialed me at 4 a.m.

683
00:44:42,848 --> 00:44:46,017
I was worried, so I... So I Ubered.

684
00:44:46,101 --> 00:44:48,645
I'm sorry.
I don't remember that happening.

685
00:44:48,729 --> 00:44:50,063
Oh, wow.

686
00:44:50,147 --> 00:44:52,816
It's proof
that I'm in your subconscious though.

687
00:44:52,899 --> 00:44:53,817
Okay.

688
00:44:54,985 --> 00:44:57,571
I can drive you home,
but I need you to listen.

689
00:44:57,654 --> 00:44:59,239
I care about you a lot.

690
00:44:59,322 --> 00:45:03,618
I'm sorry, I'm sorry.
Can I just say something really quickly?

691
00:45:04,286 --> 00:45:05,120
Sure.

692
00:45:05,203 --> 00:45:06,955
My dad is a lot worse than I thought.

693
00:45:07,038 --> 00:45:11,751
I went into his office,
and he hired a PI to stalk people.

694
00:45:11,835 --> 00:45:16,798
And he has all this insane conspiracy shit

695
00:45:16,882 --> 00:45:19,134
about Natalie's murder

696
00:45:19,217 --> 00:45:22,971
with these names of people in Madre Linda,

697
00:45:23,054 --> 00:45:25,056
including you and Joe.

698
00:45:25,140 --> 00:45:26,308
[ominous music playing]

699
00:45:26,892 --> 00:45:27,809
What?

700
00:45:41,615 --> 00:45:44,451
Nurse Fiona,
I think you'll like this. It's--

701
00:45:51,458 --> 00:45:52,876
Wait for you outside, beautiful.

702
00:46:01,343 --> 00:46:02,385
Hey, kid.

703
00:46:03,220 --> 00:46:04,721
Love that book.

704
00:46:13,855 --> 00:46:16,358
Sorry, today is not a good day.
I have to--

705
00:46:16,441 --> 00:46:18,527
He gets mad at you and he hurts you.

706
00:46:19,194 --> 00:46:22,072
He says he's sorry,
it'll never happen again,

707
00:46:22,155 --> 00:46:24,533
and he gives you flowers, right?

708
00:46:27,827 --> 00:46:29,704
There are a lot of bad men out there,

709
00:46:29,788 --> 00:46:33,291
and sometimes you can't tell
until it's too late.

710
00:46:33,375 --> 00:46:35,335
Go outside and eat with the other boys.

711
00:46:51,476 --> 00:46:56,439
[Joe] I know now, Marienne.
I know why "you," and it's no pattern.

712
00:46:57,190 --> 00:46:59,693
But today starts the next phase

713
00:46:59,776 --> 00:47:03,905
of my growth to know you exist,
to see you, to love you even,

714
00:47:04,364 --> 00:47:05,907
and to never have you.

715
00:47:05,991 --> 00:47:09,744
Because as long as I love you,
you'll be in danger.

716
00:47:11,204 --> 00:47:13,373
Hi. Hi, can we talk?

717
00:47:13,456 --> 00:47:16,418
-We have a lot to do today.
-[Joe] You wanna forget what happened.

718
00:47:16,501 --> 00:47:18,628
Go back to business as usual.
I can't go back.

719
00:47:18,712 --> 00:47:22,340
It's only a matter of time before I'm
making treasure boxes for Love to find.

720
00:47:22,424 --> 00:47:24,801
-Marienne...
-I have feelings for you.

721
00:47:24,884 --> 00:47:27,012
I know nothing can happen.

722
00:47:27,095 --> 00:47:30,932
You're married,
with the cutest baby on the planet,

723
00:47:31,016 --> 00:47:32,976
and I'd never do anything
to split up a family,

724
00:47:33,059 --> 00:47:34,477
and I need you to know that.

725
00:47:36,146 --> 00:47:37,647
Not that you'd ever,

726
00:47:38,231 --> 00:47:39,816
obviously, because...

727
00:47:41,026 --> 00:47:42,569
you love your wife,

728
00:47:42,652 --> 00:47:47,365
and we were just exhausted
and caught up in the moment.

729
00:47:47,449 --> 00:47:50,619
So don't worry, I don't--
I don't want anything.

730
00:47:50,702 --> 00:47:51,578
I just...

731
00:47:52,287 --> 00:47:56,249
It can go away.
It can dissolve into nothing. Okay?

732
00:47:56,875 --> 00:47:57,709
Cool?

733
00:47:58,668 --> 00:47:59,502
Wait.

734
00:48:00,086 --> 00:48:03,381
It's-- It's not nothing.

735
00:48:04,090 --> 00:48:05,925
I'd never break up your family.

736
00:48:07,761 --> 00:48:10,138
-I'd never do anything to hurt Henry.
-I know.

737
00:48:11,931 --> 00:48:14,684
I'd never get in the way
of you getting your family back.

738
00:48:16,269 --> 00:48:18,772
-I would never hurt Juliette.
-I know.

739
00:48:28,031 --> 00:48:29,032
[Joe] Oh, no.

740
00:48:30,950 --> 00:48:31,993
We can't do this.

741
00:48:32,577 --> 00:48:33,411
I know.

742
00:48:33,495 --> 00:48:34,746
Shit.

743
00:48:40,168 --> 00:48:41,378
No, you...

744
00:48:41,461 --> 00:48:44,005
-You have to go before this...
-I know. We can't.

745
00:48:44,089 --> 00:48:45,924
I came here to quit.

746
00:48:46,007 --> 00:48:48,385
I thought this would make it easier.

747
00:48:48,468 --> 00:48:51,554
You don't have to do that.

748
00:48:52,138 --> 00:48:56,851
But we should talk
when we're a bit more clear-headed.

749
00:49:02,732 --> 00:49:05,068
[Joe] I have never felt more clear-headed.

750
00:49:05,151 --> 00:49:07,654
But I do need time to figure out
what I'm gonna do about Love.

751
00:49:10,699 --> 00:49:14,744
I won't let her hurt you, Marienne.
I'll never let anyone hurt you.

752
00:49:14,828 --> 00:49:17,539
I will stay ahead of her this time.

753
00:49:18,123 --> 00:49:19,541
-You're home early.
-Hey.

754
00:49:19,624 --> 00:49:22,001
There you are. Did you not get my texts?

755
00:49:22,919 --> 00:49:23,962
We need to talk.

756
00:49:24,045 --> 00:49:26,047
[Joe] She knows.
How the hell could she already know?

757
00:49:26,131 --> 00:49:27,632
-Is everything okay?
-No.

758
00:49:27,716 --> 00:49:30,593
Theo told me that Matthew hired a PI
to look into people.

759
00:49:30,677 --> 00:49:32,804
He doesn't think Natalie's case is closed.

760
00:49:32,887 --> 00:49:34,597
Okay. So, what does he have?

761
00:49:34,681 --> 00:49:36,516
I don't know,
but I may be able to find out.

762
00:49:36,599 --> 00:49:39,102
-How?
-We know Theo has a crush on me...

763
00:49:41,312 --> 00:49:43,523
-And you wanna use that?
-Sort of.

764
00:49:43,606 --> 00:49:46,693
Like, okay, I'm just gonna say it.
You can shoot it down.

765
00:49:46,776 --> 00:49:51,948
But I could... pretend
like he had a chance.

766
00:49:52,031 --> 00:49:55,160
Like, 19-year-olds will do anything
if they think sex is on the table.

767
00:49:55,243 --> 00:49:57,078
[Joe] Well, this took a turn,

768
00:49:57,162 --> 00:50:01,249
but if Love's focused on this,
she'll be too distracted to notice us.

769
00:50:01,332 --> 00:50:05,170
I know, I was-- It's crazy,
and I'm asking you for a lot of trust,

770
00:50:05,253 --> 00:50:06,796
-but I really--
-It's a great idea.

771
00:50:09,883 --> 00:50:11,009
I trust you.

772
00:50:11,092 --> 00:50:12,802
We are a team.

773
00:50:13,344 --> 00:50:14,554
The best team.

774
00:50:20,852 --> 00:50:22,520
[Joe] We are the best team.

775
00:50:22,604 --> 00:50:26,608
Even if we're not soul mates,
it's a kind of love.

776
00:50:26,691 --> 00:50:32,071
And it keeps her eyes somewhere else,
so the rest I can give to you.

777
00:50:32,155 --> 00:50:35,074
This is great for everyone.

778
00:50:40,580 --> 00:50:41,956
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