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[Joe] Previously on You:

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[Goodwin] It's been three days
since the disappearance of Natalie Engler.

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-Falco.
-We found the ring.

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Okay.

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Love, this is my son, Theo.

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Didn't know you had a son.

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I'm still very unclear
as to why you decided to volunteer here.

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I'm at the hospital.
Henry has the measles.

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-Who do you think it was?
-Not closed yet, are you?

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Can't tell you
how sorry we are for exposing Henry.

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We hope you won't hold it against us.

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-Hey, Gil.
-Yep?

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[Joe]
Well, this came sooner than expected.

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The proverbial paint is hardly dry.

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Breathing.

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It's more than I can say for Natalie.
Meaning, you did the right thing.

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Controlled your impulses.

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So I won't be frustrated
with you, Love. No.

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This is growth,

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and it's important I show you
I recognize it--

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No. Appreciate it.

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I'll set aside the fact that we're using
our son's baby monitor as surveillance.

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It's twisted but smart.

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[Gil groaning]

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[Joe] Hey, Gil. Hey, buddy.

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Hey there.

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Hey.

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She hit me.

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[groaning]

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I'm so sorry.

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"Slipped and hit your head" is
off the table.

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Your wife. She knocked me out.

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[Joe] Can't say it was a shock.

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I was shocked.

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I said, "Gil? Nice guy Gil?"

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'Course she told me what you said.

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Not that it justified what she did.
The thing is, if you could have seen...

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what she went through
in the hospital with our baby...

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Here.

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Still, she should not have done this.

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That's for sure.

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It's a proofing room.
Something about temperature and humidity.

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Keeps the dough from getting a tough skin.
I'm not sure I understand any of it.

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That's Margaret with her gardening.

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Seeds and soil pH and...

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[Joe] Friendly chatter's
a reflex with this guy.

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You may have assaulted the one person
who might give us a pass for this.

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Love and I are very embarrassed.

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Is there any chance
we could keep this between us?

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We will not tell a soul
how you recklessly endangered our son.

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-I don't know I would put it like that.
-No? How?

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Well, it's just-- No judgment.

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But to dose an infant
with chemicals we know nothing about?

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-I mean, I call that reckless.
-Hmm.

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Actually, your son has naturally
gained immunity, so...

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I'd say it was beneficial.

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[knuckles cracking]

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You know what? I'm sorry.

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-I'm sorry, I get carried away.
-No, no, no.

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You might be right, yeah.

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-Our child is fine.
-Yeah.

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Here.

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Here, let me help you up.

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[Gil grunts]

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Ooh.

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So, what do you say, bygones?

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Okay.

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Sure. Bygones.

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[Joe] He's lying.

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-Are you absolutely sure?
-[Gil] I'm cool!

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I'm cool. Let me out, please?

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No doubt. He'll go straight to the police.

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-Fuck.
-Guys, let's be grown-ups about this!

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-Now what?
-Come on!

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Here we go. Coming in hot, Henry. Hey.

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[sputtering] Got to bank to the left.
Here. Open. There we go.

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Peek in our window,
you see your typical suburban family

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having a typical morning.

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You know, it can be blissful...

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watching our son discover
the pleasures of sweet potatoes.

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All I really need.

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I did have a thought.

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Mutually-assured destruction.

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Get something that he doesn't want
anyone else to know about

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and he can't expose us.

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-He opens his mouth, we open ours.
-Worked for me once before.

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It would have, Benji.

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-He may look like a choirboy...
-So did Dahmer.

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[Joe] A plan in place,
a Monday's worth of returns.

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I got lots of time to learn what Gil's
hiding behind the Mr. Rogers persona.

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Okay. All right. So Google
out of my boss's eagle-eyeline.

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Kids are gonna commit hara-kiri.

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No child sacrifice in the library, please.

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Gil is MIA. He was our reader today,

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and I told Lansing
I'd run the boys to the dentist.

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-[Joe] He did not just say "Gil."
-That's so not like Gil.

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He's their favorite. Man's a saint.

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[Joe] Except for that one dark thing
about him that Dante knows?

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You know better than that.
Not even the saints were saints.

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Hey, sorry. I couldn't help but overhear.

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-I could read to the kids.
-I've got it.

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Okay.

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Joe Goldberg? Hi.
Did I know you work here?

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[Joe] Did I know you had
your breasts enhanced in 2017?

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Vlogged your recovery
from Adderall addiction?

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Brother's a roadie
for 5 Seconds of Summer?

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Cool to post this?

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[Gil over phone] This is stupid!

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Hey, hello? Hey!

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-Hey, you--
-I could have one of everything.

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Well, I wouldn't tell.

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But my ass would.

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God, I envy you, Love.

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I have so many photo shoots,
next thing you know,

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people will be calling me "brave"
and then unfollowing

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'cause I'm no longer aspirational.
[chuckles]

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Mind if I post this?

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Oh.

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Perfect. Okay, ciao.

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Ciao.

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[door opens, then bells chiming]

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-Fuck.
-[Joe] Love, listen.

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[Love] That ring, it was supposed
to look like she left it there,

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then moved on,
but of course they want to look there.

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-What if we missed something else?
-We control what we can.

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We keep up appearances.

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We volunteer to help with the search.

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-God.
-It's gonna be okay.

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Okay.

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I'll see you at home.

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[Joe] A man in a cage is a problem.

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Few hundred citizens combing the woods

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where we buried
and exhumed Natalie Engler?

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Full-stop crisis.

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[Theo]
I don't understand why I would go to this!

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-[Matthew] Theo, can you be reasonable?
-You can't make me volunteer!

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-That's implied in the word "volunteer"--
-Theo! Keep your voice down.

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Dad, they're making you look pathetic.

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I am not going.

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When you're ready to talk like a person
above the age of 6, I'll be inside.

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Hey, was the idea to be so loud,
the whole neighborhood could hear?

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'Cause that was gauche.
You sounded like a brat.

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You little peeping Tom. You spying on me?

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[Love chuckles]

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What's up with all the dad theatrics?

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Um...

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So, apparently, Sherry Conrad
and her creepy little squad

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are teaming up with the cops
to go search some state park

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to, like, I don't know,
find Natalie out there stacking rocks?

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You don't want to join?

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I've been waiting
for this opportunity to join a cabal

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of soulless, bulimic yoga moms.
I think it's my calling.

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They're convinced that he killed her.

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I don't want him helping
the villagers sharpen their pitchforks.

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You should go. Optics are a thing.
If you don't go, both of you look bad.

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Hey, hey, hey.

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I will be your search buddy. Hmm?

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[gasps]

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Tie my shoes and everything?

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If necessary.

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Brat.

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Hey, you should get this fixed by the way.

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[Joe] This "Hands Across
Madre Linda" exercise in the woods

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has me dangerously distracted.

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What if we did leave something
for John and Betty Volunteer to find?

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But we weren't careless, were we?

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Focus! One thing at a time.

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Need to find Gil's fatal flaw.

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"Geology rocks." "Schist happens."

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If I've mined anything, it's that
"Rock Star" Professor Gil Brigham

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has a taste for geologist humor.

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Once taught at Burgess College
in Columbus, Ohio.

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Left in his second year. In October. Hmm.

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It's abrupt.

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Did he transgress with a co-ed?

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"Sophomore Burgess student
victim of campus attack."

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Could it be...?

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Hmm.

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Four hours in
and the only fault I can find

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is Gil's sense of humor.

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Spotless academic career, church,
a dedication to his kids so deep

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he may be the inspiration
for those World's Greatest Dad mugs.

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Never misses a game, a birthday--

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Look, he volunteers
at the children's ward--

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And shit! The library.

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Better account for today.

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Sorry to miss today. A little work crisis.

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Sorry to disappoint the kids.

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-[Marienne] Who are we stalking?
-Hey.

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-No, no, I'm just--
-You seen Peer Gynt?

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[Joe] Yes. In that I stole it for Ellie.

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Yeah, I may have taken it home for a read.

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You took a 2500-dollar book
that isn't supposed to leave?

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You know how when you know a rule exists,

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but you don't think it applies to you

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because you're quick
and careful, and you work here.

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For those of us who didn't grow up
with first editions for coasters--

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I'm sorry,
you think that I come from money?

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Look what you've done to me, Love.
I smell like the rich now.

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Just let me say this.

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There were no first editions
on the shelves growing up

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because there were no... shelves.

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-Right. You were poor.
-Practically homeless.

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A bookstore owner took me in
and let me work for free,

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and I slept in a cage in his basement.

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No, wait. Marienne, hang on.
Wait, I'm sorry.

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I'm sorry. Stop. That crossed the line.
It was an exaggeration.

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We straddled the poverty line
my entire childhood,

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and I escaped with books.

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I learned all about them,

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like you wanna know everything
about that one beautiful thing.

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It saves your miserable life.

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So I...

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I misjudged a little, maybe.

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Generally, my favorite apologies
are stiff and grudging...

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Fair.

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I'm sorry.

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Ah...

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And I guess I might have
to like you after all, Goldberg.

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-Perish the thought.
-Hmm.

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Since we're friends now,
what else did you take?

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[Joe] A Dickens, a Shelley,
a signed early Strand.

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-Nothing.
-Mm-hm.

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Make sure that's still true
when I look real hard tomorrow.

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Okay?

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-[Gil] Thought we had a deal!
-We did. I'm sorry.

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You know, you can't keep me in here
like some animal.

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People know that I was coming here.
So you can let me out or the police can.

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-When they come looking--
-No one's gonna save you. We--

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We already made excuses on your behalf.

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Uh...

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I'm sorry, Gil.
I want to let you out, man.

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I won't tell a soul.

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I promise.

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I told you, we can keep this between us.

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Say...

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we knew something about you.

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Something you really don't want
anyone to know.

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Right, I see.

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Okay, I keep your secret, you keep mine.

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And this time,
you'll keep your end of the deal?

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Yes.

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Okay. Okay.

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Just-- Give me a minute to think.

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I got it!

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Okay, listen.

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Couple years back, our church group went
to a festival for Christ in Vegas.

248
00:14:06,138 --> 00:14:09,516
[Joe] Christ? Vegas?
Strong starter ingredients.

249
00:14:10,183 --> 00:14:12,853
We raised funds for the Santoses,

250
00:14:12,936 --> 00:14:14,980
who'd lost their home to a fire.

251
00:14:15,564 --> 00:14:19,860
And now, there's this woman, Cheryl.

252
00:14:20,485 --> 00:14:22,404
[Joe] Christ. Vegas. Cheryl.

253
00:14:23,196 --> 00:14:26,158
Real, you know, fun-lover.
You know the type.

254
00:14:27,284 --> 00:14:29,578
Anyway, everyone else had gone to bed,

255
00:14:29,661 --> 00:14:33,540
but she and I have
a little more in our tanks.

256
00:14:33,624 --> 00:14:34,499
So...

257
00:14:36,001 --> 00:14:40,088
So we take the 600 dollars
that we'd raised, and...

258
00:14:41,089 --> 00:14:43,800
[Joe] A room with a pile of blow
and a dominatrix dressed as a nun.

259
00:14:43,884 --> 00:14:45,636
Why didn't I start here this morning?

260
00:14:45,719 --> 00:14:47,554
We put it all on red.

261
00:14:51,767 --> 00:14:52,935
And lost.

262
00:14:54,811 --> 00:14:56,605
That sucks. Then what?

263
00:14:56,688 --> 00:15:00,233
Then we had to recoup it
from our own savings that Monday.

264
00:15:03,362 --> 00:15:05,072
-That's it?
-"That's it?"

265
00:15:05,155 --> 00:15:10,202
-We gambled and lost the Santoses' money.
-And you returned it-- It was a Monday?

266
00:15:10,285 --> 00:15:11,703
Yeah, but we lied.

267
00:15:12,245 --> 00:15:13,956
You know, we were selfish.

268
00:15:14,039 --> 00:15:16,667
If people knew that, are you kidding me?

269
00:15:20,087 --> 00:15:21,254
Okay.

270
00:15:21,338 --> 00:15:24,257
Okay, fine. I slept with her.

271
00:15:25,425 --> 00:15:26,259
I did.

272
00:15:27,219 --> 00:15:29,346
Real rough-style too.

273
00:15:31,848 --> 00:15:35,060
-Can you define "rough style"?
-You know, when...

274
00:15:36,019 --> 00:15:38,021
I'm trying to give you something.

275
00:15:38,105 --> 00:15:40,023
-Got to do better, Gil.
-Fuck!

276
00:15:43,110 --> 00:15:43,944
Fuck.

277
00:15:45,612 --> 00:15:48,448
So I managed to rolling-pin
the only saint in Madre Linda?

278
00:15:48,532 --> 00:15:50,075
Not even the saints are saints.

279
00:15:51,076 --> 00:15:53,829
But, look, I-- I don't know.

280
00:15:53,912 --> 00:15:55,330
My mom's taking Henry tomorrow.

281
00:15:55,414 --> 00:15:57,833
-With everything...
-It's a good idea.

282
00:15:57,916 --> 00:15:59,876
[reporter on TV]
"Committee to Find Natalie Engler"

283
00:15:59,960 --> 00:16:03,130
is organizing a search party in
Redwood State Park, which is Natalie's...

284
00:16:03,213 --> 00:16:04,631
Better give her a frozen one.

285
00:16:05,882 --> 00:16:08,176
In case of an earthquake, right? Or...

286
00:16:08,802 --> 00:16:10,721
we're taken in for questioning.

287
00:16:12,514 --> 00:16:13,390
Joe?

288
00:16:15,392 --> 00:16:18,270
-Tell me not to panic.
-There's nothing for them to find.

289
00:16:18,353 --> 00:16:19,396
What if they do?

290
00:16:20,063 --> 00:16:24,359
What if they get a search warrant
or they start looking around?

291
00:16:24,443 --> 00:16:26,194
"What's in this basement?"

292
00:16:26,278 --> 00:16:29,364
[Joe] Why is it feeling
like this has become my fault?

293
00:16:29,448 --> 00:16:32,451
[boy] It's your fault
your mommy left you here, Goldberg.

294
00:16:34,995 --> 00:16:36,580
We need to get rid of Gil.

295
00:16:36,663 --> 00:16:38,832
We can't have this hanging over our heads.

296
00:16:38,915 --> 00:16:39,750
I know.

297
00:16:40,667 --> 00:16:44,171
Okay, so we built the cage
so that we could stop and think.

298
00:16:45,005 --> 00:16:46,631
What if we've done that and now...?

299
00:16:49,301 --> 00:16:52,804
-What? And now what?
-[boy] What you gonna do, Goldberg?

300
00:16:54,056 --> 00:16:55,223
He's gonna cry.

301
00:16:55,307 --> 00:16:57,809
Just like he cries for his mommy
in bed very night.

302
00:16:57,893 --> 00:16:58,769
[boys laughing]

303
00:16:58,852 --> 00:17:01,229
We didn't want... to do this.

304
00:17:01,313 --> 00:17:04,232
-We did this to protect our family.
-[Sandy] It had to be done.

305
00:17:04,316 --> 00:17:07,611
You were protecting me.
You're a good boy, Joey.

306
00:17:07,694 --> 00:17:10,113
What if the only option is for Gil to--?

307
00:17:12,365 --> 00:17:13,700
[boy] She's not coming for you.

308
00:17:13,784 --> 00:17:15,869
No one is coming to save you.

309
00:17:16,495 --> 00:17:17,621
Yeah.

310
00:17:18,872 --> 00:17:20,624
Give me a better idea.

311
00:17:20,707 --> 00:17:24,252
-I can't believe you're saying this.
-I'm just asking questions.

312
00:17:24,336 --> 00:17:25,921
You're saying, "I don't know."

313
00:17:26,004 --> 00:17:28,340
You hit him and put him in a cage
when we could've--

314
00:17:28,423 --> 00:17:29,966
-Sued him.
-The cage was your idea.

315
00:17:30,050 --> 00:17:32,636
-No, no, no. We are not going to--
-How--?

316
00:17:32,719 --> 00:17:36,014
You are not making me kill anyone!

317
00:17:38,767 --> 00:17:40,811
We are not doing that to our son.

318
00:18:03,166 --> 00:18:04,376
I shouldn't.

319
00:18:05,669 --> 00:18:08,505
Not exactly getting my run in down here.

320
00:18:11,091 --> 00:18:14,761
Used to be my son Alan and I
got out there every morning.

321
00:18:16,012 --> 00:18:17,722
Before he went off to Dartmouth.

322
00:18:20,809 --> 00:18:22,936
-He'd get a kick out of this.
-He would?

323
00:18:23,019 --> 00:18:25,772
Come on. His pops knocked down a peg?

324
00:18:27,190 --> 00:18:28,066
You know...

325
00:18:28,984 --> 00:18:30,735
sons and their fathers.

326
00:18:31,361 --> 00:18:32,779
Yeah, I'm new to it.

327
00:18:32,863 --> 00:18:35,740
You kidding?
This idea that you have to mold them

328
00:18:35,824 --> 00:18:38,034
into a good strong man...

329
00:18:38,118 --> 00:18:39,327
How'd you?

330
00:18:40,370 --> 00:18:41,288
Mm.

331
00:18:42,330 --> 00:18:45,750
I came to realize it's a lot simpler
than I was making it.

332
00:18:45,834 --> 00:18:47,502
Here's what you do as a parent:

333
00:18:47,586 --> 00:18:51,631
You keep them healthy and safe
and be a good person.

334
00:18:53,425 --> 00:18:57,721
That's it. Protect, be good,
get out of the way.

335
00:18:57,804 --> 00:18:59,514
To be honest, I'm jealous.

336
00:19:00,599 --> 00:19:01,933
You have it all ahead of you.

337
00:19:11,818 --> 00:19:12,652
Hey, um...

338
00:19:14,321 --> 00:19:18,158
whatever happens here,
I just hope I get to see them again.

339
00:19:23,830 --> 00:19:28,335
...hoping we can buy another 30 acres
of this wonderful property on the coast

340
00:19:28,418 --> 00:19:31,880
that apparently gets
this great fog Pinot thrives in.

341
00:19:31,963 --> 00:19:35,300
Sweetie, hand me
those fleece-y p.j.'s in case it's cold.

342
00:19:35,383 --> 00:19:38,803
Butt Paste. He's been a bit red lately.
So I'm gonna...

343
00:19:41,264 --> 00:19:43,808
Worried?
If you think this vineyard business

344
00:19:43,892 --> 00:19:46,603
is going to jeopardize the bakery,
it's the opposite.

345
00:19:46,686 --> 00:19:51,358
-This is how empires are born.
-Yeah, it's actually not that. I, um...

346
00:19:54,903 --> 00:19:56,947
Does Dad still have that guy Cy?

347
00:19:57,030 --> 00:20:00,659
Probably has that little snake digging
into me right now.

348
00:20:00,742 --> 00:20:01,743
Why, what's up?

349
00:20:03,161 --> 00:20:04,996
I know it was something.

350
00:20:05,080 --> 00:20:07,165
Oh, it's no big. I just...

351
00:20:08,500 --> 00:20:11,253
I got a weird vibe from the guy
I rent the bakery from.

352
00:20:12,003 --> 00:20:14,673
I wanna make sure he's legit.
I don't want to put in all of this work

353
00:20:14,756 --> 00:20:17,300
just to have the property seized
by the IRS.

354
00:20:18,134 --> 00:20:19,552
I'll get you his number.

355
00:20:36,319 --> 00:20:39,948
I did something you're not gonna
be totally... psyched about.

356
00:20:42,200 --> 00:20:43,034
Try me.

357
00:20:45,870 --> 00:20:46,705
My mom...

358
00:20:47,580 --> 00:20:51,293
gave me a number for a guy
that my dad uses to look into people.

359
00:20:53,795 --> 00:20:55,046
You involved your family?

360
00:20:55,130 --> 00:20:58,717
I didn't tell them anything. Okay?

361
00:21:00,635 --> 00:21:04,014
I contacted him directly.
I didn't tell him why. He's discreet.

362
00:21:05,890 --> 00:21:09,352
-You're mad at me anyway.
-I'm not mad. I'm worried.

363
00:21:10,437 --> 00:21:11,438
I'm worried.

364
00:21:12,272 --> 00:21:14,399
-That we can't deal with this?
-That you'll hate me

365
00:21:14,482 --> 00:21:16,443
if we don't do it the right way.

366
00:21:16,526 --> 00:21:20,113
The look on your face when you said
you thought Henry would be hurt if...

367
00:21:23,450 --> 00:21:24,909
I'm sorry. I--

368
00:21:25,994 --> 00:21:27,078
I scared you.

369
00:21:27,912 --> 00:21:28,747
No.

370
00:21:30,623 --> 00:21:31,499
Joe...

371
00:21:32,292 --> 00:21:33,668
it broke my heart.

372
00:21:33,752 --> 00:21:37,505
I see how hard
you're trying to be a good dad.

373
00:21:38,340 --> 00:21:42,052
You're scared one little move is
gonna magically fuck it all up.

374
00:21:42,135 --> 00:21:46,222
No, I know it's not magic
because I saw it growing up, how--

375
00:21:46,973 --> 00:21:50,977
What kids are exposed to sticks.
Fucks them up for life.

376
00:21:51,061 --> 00:21:53,646
You've been through a lot.
You're not fucked up for life.

377
00:21:55,231 --> 00:21:56,066
I know.

378
00:21:56,775 --> 00:21:59,652
But I don't wanna roll the dice
with Henry.

379
00:21:59,736 --> 00:22:01,738
I-- You know I understand.

380
00:22:02,781 --> 00:22:05,742
I think about it with Forty.
If he'd grown up differently, maybe--

381
00:22:08,912 --> 00:22:09,746
I get it.

382
00:22:11,164 --> 00:22:12,040
I'm just...

383
00:22:13,333 --> 00:22:14,709
trying to fix this.

384
00:22:17,879 --> 00:22:18,713
Hey.

385
00:22:19,297 --> 00:22:20,298
I love you.

386
00:22:27,806 --> 00:22:29,307
[cell phone buzzing]

387
00:22:34,396 --> 00:22:37,982
Hey, Cy.
No, of course I'm not busy. What is it?

388
00:22:45,031 --> 00:22:46,074
Really?

389
00:22:47,492 --> 00:22:49,119
Oh, that's rich.

390
00:22:49,202 --> 00:22:52,914
I cheated to get my son
into Dartmouth? Why?

391
00:22:52,997 --> 00:22:56,084
Alan is a stellar student.
Not the world's best test-taker--

392
00:22:56,167 --> 00:22:59,295
Dartmouth received perfect test scores
from your son.

393
00:22:59,379 --> 00:23:03,716
No. He got in on his GPA,
his essay and community service.

394
00:23:03,800 --> 00:23:07,345
And his perfect SAT score.
And there's also...

395
00:23:07,429 --> 00:23:11,015
Yeah, all-American water polo
until a career-ending injury.

396
00:23:11,099 --> 00:23:15,019
-That isn't my son's transcript.
-No? 'Cause there's also this.

397
00:23:16,604 --> 00:23:19,399
That's 50 K you donated
to a Bennett's Fund

398
00:23:19,482 --> 00:23:22,235
to help underprivileged kids have
a shot at college.

399
00:23:22,318 --> 00:23:25,238
-[Joe] You're good at this.
-What's that got to do with anything?

400
00:23:25,321 --> 00:23:29,742
There is no Bennett's Fund.
Or there is, but for kids like Alan.

401
00:23:29,826 --> 00:23:31,035
[Joe] Disturbingly good.

402
00:23:31,119 --> 00:23:33,121
That's 25,000 to a Frye family

403
00:23:33,204 --> 00:23:36,749
whose all-star cheerleader Vicky
graduated with Alan.

404
00:23:36,833 --> 00:23:40,920
What? Did they agree to vouch
they build houses in Haiti or some shit?

405
00:23:45,967 --> 00:23:47,385
Wait, wait, wait.

406
00:23:47,469 --> 00:23:48,803
-Wait a second.
-What?

407
00:23:50,221 --> 00:23:52,182
You had no idea, did you?

408
00:23:55,351 --> 00:23:56,186
Why...?

409
00:23:57,312 --> 00:23:58,521
Why would my wife--?

410
00:24:01,149 --> 00:24:01,983
Oh, God.

411
00:24:02,775 --> 00:24:03,651
Oh, no.

412
00:24:04,277 --> 00:24:05,111
Alan.

413
00:24:06,029 --> 00:24:07,030
Not again.

414
00:24:08,198 --> 00:24:10,575
He promised he would be good.

415
00:24:10,658 --> 00:24:14,162
[Joe] This is worse
than some college scandal.

416
00:24:14,245 --> 00:24:17,248
Alan did something to this Vicky.

417
00:24:17,332 --> 00:24:18,416
It was a payoff.

418
00:24:19,250 --> 00:24:23,963
His beloved Alan is a very bad young man
who hurts girls.

419
00:24:24,756 --> 00:24:27,634
It was Alan in Ohio, right?

420
00:24:28,718 --> 00:24:30,845
The girl who was attacked...

421
00:24:32,096 --> 00:24:33,348
sexually assaulted.

422
00:24:34,182 --> 00:24:35,600
The reason you left.

423
00:24:37,101 --> 00:24:38,895
And he did it again.

424
00:24:40,688 --> 00:24:44,651
I believed
that it was just a onetime mistake.

425
00:24:44,734 --> 00:24:47,111
I made my mistakes at that age, so I--

426
00:24:50,740 --> 00:24:51,741
I did nothing.

427
00:24:53,993 --> 00:24:55,620
Now another girl got hurt.

428
00:24:56,746 --> 00:24:59,457
I made poor Margaret feel
like she had to do all this.

429
00:25:02,877 --> 00:25:06,089
[Joe] Gil said fatherhood was
just about protecting them

430
00:25:06,172 --> 00:25:07,507
and getting out of the way,

431
00:25:07,590 --> 00:25:11,636
but that's clearly not enough
to keep his son from going wrong.

432
00:25:11,719 --> 00:25:14,764
Which is terrifying
but also exactly what we needed

433
00:25:14,847 --> 00:25:16,599
to get Gil to play ball.

434
00:25:16,683 --> 00:25:21,354
Our next move is to propose
his imminent relocation from Madre Linda.

435
00:25:21,437 --> 00:25:25,400
Too bad for Ellie, my boss busted me,
so this book's back to the library.

436
00:25:25,483 --> 00:25:26,693
I'll try again.

437
00:25:26,776 --> 00:25:30,154
Now, as for Gil,
I wonder if he's marinated long enough.

438
00:25:32,031 --> 00:25:34,325
What? No. No, no, no.

439
00:25:34,409 --> 00:25:35,827
[shouting]

440
00:25:39,789 --> 00:25:41,040
Oh, my God!

441
00:25:43,293 --> 00:25:44,544
Get it off. Get it off him.

442
00:25:45,295 --> 00:25:46,629
-Get it off him!
-I'm trying!

443
00:25:47,755 --> 00:25:49,507
I'm trying. I'm trying.

444
00:25:51,009 --> 00:25:52,552
[Love speaking indistinctly]

445
00:25:55,430 --> 00:25:57,974
[Love]
Joe, we can't just sit here all night.

446
00:25:58,933 --> 00:26:01,019
I-- I need you to talk to me.

447
00:26:02,645 --> 00:26:06,941
We need to do something about this.
We need to come up with some plan.

448
00:26:08,192 --> 00:26:10,528
Joe, I really need you to listen to me.

449
00:26:11,279 --> 00:26:12,155
Joe.

450
00:26:13,615 --> 00:26:15,283
Joseph Quinn-Goldberg!

451
00:26:16,534 --> 00:26:17,535
Hey.

452
00:26:18,119 --> 00:26:19,454
This is not our fault.

453
00:26:21,331 --> 00:26:22,290
He did this.

454
00:26:23,916 --> 00:26:25,126
It was his decision.

455
00:26:26,002 --> 00:26:28,254
We did everything to keep our promise.

456
00:26:29,130 --> 00:26:30,923
Why the fuck did he have to...

457
00:26:31,883 --> 00:26:33,760
kill himself? Oh, my God.

458
00:26:33,843 --> 00:26:36,137
He's already ruined his family.

459
00:26:36,220 --> 00:26:37,388
[cell phone buzzes]

460
00:26:40,391 --> 00:26:41,517
Fuck.

461
00:26:46,981 --> 00:26:48,941
The search is starting soon.

462
00:26:49,859 --> 00:26:51,819
Okay, okay.

463
00:26:52,945 --> 00:26:55,114
I will make an appearance for us.

464
00:26:56,407 --> 00:26:59,994
And then I will be back
as soon as I can. Okay?

465
00:27:00,078 --> 00:27:00,995
Okay.

466
00:27:02,121 --> 00:27:03,748
Okay, okay, okay.

467
00:27:06,459 --> 00:27:07,418
Oh, my God.

468
00:27:08,294 --> 00:27:09,128
Joe.

469
00:27:11,005 --> 00:27:12,006
I have a plan.

470
00:27:22,684 --> 00:27:23,726
[indistinct chatter]

471
00:27:35,363 --> 00:27:36,989
[woman] In case you find something.

472
00:27:52,463 --> 00:27:54,090
[Sherry clearing throat over bullhorn]

473
00:27:54,173 --> 00:27:56,759
Hi, can you guys hear me okay? Hi.

474
00:27:57,385 --> 00:27:59,929
Okay. Fine.

475
00:28:00,012 --> 00:28:02,515
Thank you all for showing up.

476
00:28:02,598 --> 00:28:06,853
If I may say on behalf
of Natalie's beautiful family,

477
00:28:06,936 --> 00:28:08,688
we are so grateful

478
00:28:08,771 --> 00:28:11,816
to each and every one of you.

479
00:28:11,899 --> 00:28:15,486
Natalie is a fixture of Madre Linda.

480
00:28:15,570 --> 00:28:18,114
We need her,

481
00:28:18,197 --> 00:28:20,324
and now she needs us.

482
00:28:21,242 --> 00:28:23,244
[sobbing] So good luck out there and--

483
00:28:24,162 --> 00:28:25,204
Sorry.

484
00:28:29,709 --> 00:28:31,753
Hashtag, "Natalie, come home."

485
00:28:35,548 --> 00:28:36,591
[crowd applauding]

486
00:28:51,773 --> 00:28:56,444
[Joe] The story you came up with, Love,
is fit for a steamy psychodrama.

487
00:28:56,527 --> 00:28:59,864
Gil Brigham,
Madre Linda's answer to Ned Flanders,

488
00:28:59,947 --> 00:29:01,032
had a secret.

489
00:29:01,949 --> 00:29:05,661
But it was when you used
the phrase "two birds, one stone"

490
00:29:05,745 --> 00:29:08,456
that I saw your true brilliance.

491
00:29:10,208 --> 00:29:13,336
Two bodies, one story,
if we get this part right.

492
00:29:13,419 --> 00:29:15,797
And we will. I will.

493
00:29:15,880 --> 00:29:16,923
I have to.

494
00:29:17,006 --> 00:29:20,051
It's on me to protect you and Henry.

495
00:29:20,134 --> 00:29:22,178
There's no one else who will.

496
00:29:23,721 --> 00:29:25,890
Here are your flags. Drop them as you go.

497
00:29:38,903 --> 00:29:40,196
Hi, Matthew.

498
00:29:41,030 --> 00:29:41,864
Hello.

499
00:29:44,283 --> 00:29:45,952
-How are you holding up?
-Hmm.

500
00:29:46,494 --> 00:29:48,579
I never really know
how to answer that question

501
00:29:48,663 --> 00:29:50,915
when I'm out searching for my wife.

502
00:29:52,416 --> 00:29:56,003
It's your-- I'm sorry. I was just--
I just wanted to know...

503
00:29:57,421 --> 00:29:59,131
I'm sorry this is happening.

504
00:30:00,216 --> 00:30:01,425
I really am.

505
00:30:01,509 --> 00:30:03,553
Well, I guess I have you to thank.

506
00:30:05,429 --> 00:30:08,599
For getting Theodore to come.
He told me you talked to him.

507
00:30:08,683 --> 00:30:12,562
-He called you a kind person.
-I barely said anything. I just...

508
00:30:13,688 --> 00:30:15,189
He seems like a good kid.

509
00:30:18,067 --> 00:30:18,943
Excuse me.

510
00:30:30,663 --> 00:30:34,667
Yo, why is everyone so scared
of Sherry Conrad?

511
00:30:35,293 --> 00:30:39,881
She is fucking pathetic, right?

512
00:30:40,882 --> 00:30:43,759
I hear that her husband,

513
00:30:43,843 --> 00:30:47,847
he has to take pharmaceutical molly
just so he can get it up for her.

514
00:30:48,514 --> 00:30:49,348
Yeah.

515
00:30:50,683 --> 00:30:53,936
Oh, and please tell me
you saw that speech, right?

516
00:30:57,356 --> 00:30:59,108
I have to pee. Be right back.

517
00:31:02,236 --> 00:31:03,070
Okay.

518
00:31:05,156 --> 00:31:06,699
[dramatic music playing]

519
00:31:39,857 --> 00:31:41,984
Awful, you know?

520
00:31:42,068 --> 00:31:45,446
But if I was married
to a robot like Matthew Engler,

521
00:31:45,529 --> 00:31:47,073
probably disappear too.

522
00:31:47,156 --> 00:31:47,990
[all laughing]

523
00:31:48,074 --> 00:31:50,743
-Did you forget your bullhorn, Sherry?
-Theo!

524
00:31:50,826 --> 00:31:53,287
If you have a theory,
make sure everyone hears it.

525
00:31:53,371 --> 00:31:55,081
Everyone knows what you're doing.

526
00:31:55,164 --> 00:31:57,500
You're trying to cash in
on someone else's tragedy,

527
00:31:57,583 --> 00:32:00,044
-so you can sell your vegan panties--
-Hey! Theo!

528
00:32:00,127 --> 00:32:01,921
And get all these likes on Instagram.

529
00:32:02,004 --> 00:32:03,589
Count to ten, okay? Relax.

530
00:32:04,340 --> 00:32:05,716
[thunder rumbling]

531
00:32:06,384 --> 00:32:07,927
Hey, Sherry, are you okay?

532
00:32:10,221 --> 00:32:12,807
He's having a very hard day.
He doesn't mean it.

533
00:32:12,890 --> 00:32:13,891
Right, Theo?

534
00:32:16,394 --> 00:32:17,645
You've done so much.

535
00:32:18,604 --> 00:32:20,564
How about we just get back to it?

536
00:32:21,440 --> 00:32:23,150
-Thank you.
-Of course.

537
00:32:24,151 --> 00:32:25,027
Let's go.

538
00:32:30,199 --> 00:32:32,243
-So that happened.
-"A hard day"?

539
00:32:33,953 --> 00:32:35,371
Fucking seriously?

540
00:32:47,508 --> 00:32:49,051
[thunder crashing]

541
00:32:49,135 --> 00:32:50,428
[door opens]

542
00:33:02,523 --> 00:33:03,649
[Fiona] Does it hurt, Joe?

543
00:33:06,736 --> 00:33:08,821
No idea why they did this to you?

544
00:33:08,904 --> 00:33:10,197
It doesn't matter.

545
00:33:10,281 --> 00:33:12,950
Counselors say I'm a lost cause.
I heard them.

546
00:33:13,034 --> 00:33:14,368
Hey, no, no.

547
00:33:15,077 --> 00:33:16,746
No kid is a lost cause.

548
00:33:17,913 --> 00:33:19,123
Especially not you.

549
00:33:24,795 --> 00:33:28,466
You know, if I were to adopt,
I would want an older kid.

550
00:33:28,549 --> 00:33:32,803
You know why?
Because... you know who they are.

551
00:33:34,013 --> 00:33:36,098
The whole messy truth.

552
00:33:37,308 --> 00:33:39,810
And that's beautiful and worthwhile.

553
00:33:40,478 --> 00:33:42,938
And exactly what I would want in my life.

554
00:33:44,815 --> 00:33:46,942
No matter what happened in the past,

555
00:33:48,569 --> 00:33:52,031
someone out there will want you too.
You're a good kid.

556
00:34:06,087 --> 00:34:06,921
[car alarm chirps]

557
00:34:11,967 --> 00:34:12,885
Excuse me, sir.

558
00:34:14,011 --> 00:34:15,012
You calling Uber?

559
00:34:17,848 --> 00:34:18,974
It's gonna rain. Get in.

560
00:34:23,813 --> 00:34:25,106
[cell phone buzzes]

561
00:34:28,776 --> 00:34:30,694
Is that your best friend Sherry?

562
00:34:36,909 --> 00:34:39,370
You know, it is really hard to stay mad

563
00:34:39,453 --> 00:34:42,414
at the one person
that I can actually stand talking to.

564
00:34:42,498 --> 00:34:44,834
Hmm. Stepdad still a brick wall?

565
00:34:47,419 --> 00:34:48,838
He's got a lot going on.

566
00:34:56,220 --> 00:34:57,638
But he's not a murderer.

567
00:35:02,017 --> 00:35:04,019
Hey, how did you deal with it?

568
00:35:04,103 --> 00:35:05,104
Like...

569
00:35:05,688 --> 00:35:08,274
all the attention and the rubbernecking?

570
00:35:08,357 --> 00:35:10,609
-You mean, about my brother?
-Yeah.

571
00:35:11,652 --> 00:35:14,905
-I read the Vanity Fair article, so...
-Mm-hm.

572
00:35:14,989 --> 00:35:18,909
He insisted that I cut his hair because
I was the only one that did it right.

573
00:35:19,493 --> 00:35:22,288
And he loved the Ninja Turtle movie.

574
00:35:23,289 --> 00:35:25,958
Uh, he always wanted to fast-forward
where the red one got hurt

575
00:35:26,041 --> 00:35:27,710
because it made him too sad.

576
00:35:29,044 --> 00:35:31,255
The shit that doesn't sell magazines.

577
00:35:33,048 --> 00:35:35,968
The part where he was
a whole fucking human being.

578
00:35:37,219 --> 00:35:38,888
The big,

579
00:35:39,805 --> 00:35:41,974
beautiful, sensitive fucking heart.

580
00:35:42,558 --> 00:35:44,768
He was the only person
who ever really knew me.

581
00:35:47,188 --> 00:35:48,022
You know...

582
00:35:49,732 --> 00:35:50,649
publicity...

583
00:35:51,942 --> 00:35:54,028
it has a way of flattening.

584
00:35:54,111 --> 00:35:57,031
Flattening you
and the people you love into types.

585
00:35:57,114 --> 00:36:01,202
And it's really hard because nobody
will ever let you forget what happened.

586
00:36:02,328 --> 00:36:03,204
Yeah.

587
00:36:18,886 --> 00:36:20,638
Rain snuck up on us.

588
00:36:20,721 --> 00:36:22,973
If it clears up soon,
we'll send people back out.

589
00:36:23,057 --> 00:36:26,393
You can be honest.
Today accomplished absolutely nothing.

590
00:36:26,477 --> 00:36:28,562
Besides something exciting
for the social media feeds

591
00:36:28,646 --> 00:36:30,814
of people that barely knew my wife.

592
00:36:31,440 --> 00:36:33,651
The search was always a long shot,

593
00:36:33,734 --> 00:36:36,528
and you had no belief whatsoever
we'd find anything. None.

594
00:36:36,612 --> 00:36:39,782
I've seen everything
up to this point, okay?

595
00:36:39,865 --> 00:36:42,159
And, yes, usually, you're right.

596
00:36:42,952 --> 00:36:45,120
Which isn't necessarily a bad thing.

597
00:36:45,663 --> 00:36:48,624
I mean, if we did find something...

598
00:36:48,707 --> 00:36:52,795
It would probably be something
that indicated she's not alive anymore.

599
00:36:57,049 --> 00:36:58,384
I know this is hard.

600
00:36:59,468 --> 00:37:02,304
And I'd just say to you,
let us keep working.

601
00:37:02,763 --> 00:37:05,182
-[dogs barking]
-[whistles blowing]

602
00:37:10,229 --> 00:37:11,897
[dramatic music playing]

603
00:37:20,572 --> 00:37:21,824
[Joe] Dearest Megy,

604
00:37:22,700 --> 00:37:25,536
my heart aches as I write this.

605
00:37:25,619 --> 00:37:27,830
[Gil] You stood by me in spite of my flaws

606
00:37:27,913 --> 00:37:30,582
and Lord knows you don't deserve
what I've done to you.

607
00:37:30,666 --> 00:37:33,127
I strayed. No excuse.

608
00:37:33,210 --> 00:37:37,089
Idiot me thought Natalie could
provide something I was missing.

609
00:37:37,172 --> 00:37:40,759
When it became clear
she'd never belong exclusively to me,

610
00:37:40,843 --> 00:37:42,094
I lost control.

611
00:37:42,636 --> 00:37:44,847
I do not know what came over me.

612
00:37:44,930 --> 00:37:49,685
Next thing I knew, I was standing there,
with an ax, her body on the ground.

613
00:37:49,768 --> 00:37:51,895
And when I put her in the ocean,

614
00:37:52,604 --> 00:37:55,149
I felt like I was possessed
by someone else.

615
00:37:55,858 --> 00:37:59,486
But I am guilty all the same,
and I can't live with what I've done.

616
00:38:00,237 --> 00:38:03,699
I'm sorry I hurt you.
And I'm sorry you found me like this.

617
00:38:03,782 --> 00:38:06,910
I failed all of you. But especially Alan.

618
00:38:07,619 --> 00:38:10,998
Didn't want to see in him
what I saw in myself.

619
00:38:11,081 --> 00:38:13,542
Maybe you can mold him into a better man.

620
00:38:14,335 --> 00:38:16,420
Tell him and the girls I love them.

621
00:38:18,672 --> 00:38:23,093
And know that I love you, Megy.

622
00:38:24,261 --> 00:38:25,971
More than you'll ever know.

623
00:38:27,973 --> 00:38:28,891
[Joe] Forgive me,

624
00:38:31,226 --> 00:38:32,561
Your Gily.

625
00:38:34,063 --> 00:38:38,942
Yeah, well, someone wrote a think piece
about my parents' divorce.

626
00:38:39,401 --> 00:38:40,319
Yeah.

627
00:38:40,402 --> 00:38:43,113
It was about the first wives
of tech superstars

628
00:38:43,197 --> 00:38:45,991
and how Silicon Valley discards women.

629
00:38:48,452 --> 00:38:51,455
Thought that was the worst thing
that ever happened to me.

630
00:38:51,538 --> 00:38:55,084
Yeah, look at you now.
Got a family tragedy all your own.

631
00:38:58,045 --> 00:39:00,464
I'm not trying to sound flip. It's just--

632
00:39:02,341 --> 00:39:04,635
-Welcome to the club.
-Mm. Do I get a gift bag?

633
00:39:05,803 --> 00:39:10,891
Or does terrible family tragedy
make people more fuckable?

634
00:39:11,433 --> 00:39:14,728
'Cause... Could really use
a silver lining.

635
00:39:14,812 --> 00:39:16,063
Um...

636
00:39:16,939 --> 00:39:19,400
In my experience, yes, but...

637
00:39:20,234 --> 00:39:22,861
you end up resenting
the people who think that fucking you

638
00:39:22,945 --> 00:39:25,781
was somehow gonna make them
more interesting.

639
00:39:25,864 --> 00:39:28,492
Like it's gonna rub off on them
or something.

640
00:39:29,368 --> 00:39:31,662
Don't let people like that define you.

641
00:39:39,044 --> 00:39:40,379
Find the people that get you.

642
00:39:41,255 --> 00:39:42,464
Lean on them.

643
00:39:42,548 --> 00:39:45,676
Forty-- My brother, he never really...

644
00:39:46,969 --> 00:39:47,803
got that.

645
00:39:54,268 --> 00:39:56,645
So how do you know who those people are?

646
00:39:57,438 --> 00:39:58,439
You just do.

647
00:40:05,529 --> 00:40:06,572
Um...

648
00:40:10,200 --> 00:40:11,410
-Don't do that.
-Yep.

649
00:40:13,579 --> 00:40:15,456
[cell phone buzzing]

650
00:40:15,539 --> 00:40:18,542
Oh, shit. I got a text from my dad.

651
00:40:18,625 --> 00:40:20,502
Whoa. They think they found something.

652
00:40:21,420 --> 00:40:24,673
They think they might have just found
a murder weapon.

653
00:40:36,477 --> 00:40:37,644
Morning, everybody.

654
00:40:38,437 --> 00:40:41,565
I'm Detective Falco
with the Madre Linda Police Department.

655
00:40:41,648 --> 00:40:44,651
There's been a development
in the Natalie Engler investigation.

656
00:40:44,735 --> 00:40:47,905
New evidence points to a suspect
in her disappearance

657
00:40:47,988 --> 00:40:51,033
-and potentially her murder.
-[Joe] We are hardly criminal masterminds.

658
00:40:51,116 --> 00:40:52,075
Gily?

659
00:40:53,744 --> 00:40:55,329
I got your text, honey.

660
00:40:55,412 --> 00:40:58,499
I don't know why you insisted
on the kids staying with my mother.

661
00:40:59,666 --> 00:41:02,878
[Joe] But sometimes
all it takes is a good story.

662
00:41:03,879 --> 00:41:06,590
Make it solid, sexy, relatable.

663
00:41:10,093 --> 00:41:12,596
Give them just enough evidence.

664
00:41:12,679 --> 00:41:14,973
[reporter] It has come to our attention
that Mrs. Engler

665
00:41:15,057 --> 00:41:16,892
was involved
in an extramarital relationship

666
00:41:16,975 --> 00:41:19,228
with Madre Linda resident Gil Brigham,

667
00:41:19,311 --> 00:41:21,647
a professor at Stanford University.

668
00:41:22,231 --> 00:41:26,068
In a letter, Mr. Brigham confessed
he murdered Mrs. Engler and disposed...

669
00:41:26,151 --> 00:41:31,156
[Joe] And the town of Madre Linda settles
into begrudging acceptance

670
00:41:31,240 --> 00:41:34,576
that the sordid tale
of suburban ennui, sex and murder

671
00:41:34,660 --> 00:41:36,203
has come to an end

672
00:41:36,286 --> 00:41:40,207
'cause, well, what bored suburbanite
isn't gonna buy that?

673
00:41:50,300 --> 00:41:51,969
We did it, Love.

674
00:41:52,052 --> 00:41:55,013
Let's be honest,
rebuilding the cage was crazy.

675
00:41:55,097 --> 00:41:58,141
Could've really backfired.
And yet it worked.

676
00:41:58,684 --> 00:42:00,143
We slowed down.

677
00:42:01,103 --> 00:42:02,396
Reflected.

678
00:42:02,479 --> 00:42:03,730
Responded.

679
00:42:04,815 --> 00:42:07,818
Proved we're a team. For Henry.

680
00:42:08,777 --> 00:42:10,112
[engine starting]

681
00:42:20,497 --> 00:42:22,708
You look terrible, Herr Gynt.

682
00:42:31,967 --> 00:42:32,968
Oh.

683
00:42:33,051 --> 00:42:35,971
-Sorry, a lot of long nights.
-Yeah, it's fine.

684
00:42:36,680 --> 00:42:40,350
Dante was an absolute liability
when their younger was small.

685
00:42:40,434 --> 00:42:42,686
Just forgot the Dewey Decimal System,

686
00:42:42,769 --> 00:42:47,190
despite it literally being printed
on every aisle, in Braille.

687
00:42:47,274 --> 00:42:48,775
[Joe] She's being nice to me.

688
00:42:48,859 --> 00:42:51,612
Weird to think disclosing
one's shit childhood could do that.

689
00:42:51,695 --> 00:42:54,615
Hers must not have been
exactly roses either.

690
00:42:54,698 --> 00:42:56,199
You have a kid, right?

691
00:42:57,618 --> 00:43:00,037
-Mm-hm.
-How do you balance it?

692
00:43:00,120 --> 00:43:03,415
She's with her dad these days.

693
00:43:03,498 --> 00:43:05,709
[Joe] And she throws that away. Curious.

694
00:43:05,792 --> 00:43:08,211
Guess I don't need to ask if you've heard

695
00:43:08,295 --> 00:43:12,174
about the whole awful Gil Brigham thing.

696
00:43:12,257 --> 00:43:14,593
Yeah. Yeah, it's terrible.

697
00:43:14,676 --> 00:43:15,510
Truly.

698
00:43:16,928 --> 00:43:18,764
Does mean we need a new reader.

699
00:43:18,847 --> 00:43:20,849
-You still interested?
-Sure.

700
00:43:21,475 --> 00:43:22,976
-Of course.
-Great.

701
00:43:23,060 --> 00:43:26,188
Oh, and I have a new rec for you.

702
00:43:27,898 --> 00:43:28,982
David Copperfield.

703
00:43:29,066 --> 00:43:31,777
You know, hardscrabble orphan
down on his luck.

704
00:43:31,860 --> 00:43:33,487
Figured you could relate.

705
00:43:33,570 --> 00:43:35,280
[Joe] She's teasing me, isn't she?

706
00:43:35,364 --> 00:43:38,659
-Ha.
-Anyway, if you wanted to apply

707
00:43:38,742 --> 00:43:42,120
your wizard-level book repair skills,
have at it.

708
00:43:42,829 --> 00:43:47,084
[Joe] It's almost like
you're flirting with me?

709
00:43:47,167 --> 00:43:50,045
No. No, you wouldn't.
Well, not consciously.

710
00:43:51,129 --> 00:43:54,466
This necklace thing, nervous habit?

711
00:43:54,549 --> 00:43:59,346
Why would you be nervous unless...?
It couldn't be about me. Could it?

712
00:43:59,429 --> 00:44:00,764
You okay there, Joe?

713
00:44:00,847 --> 00:44:03,642
[Joe] Oh, shit. What was I just doing?

714
00:44:03,725 --> 00:44:05,936
-I'm totally fine.
-Great.

715
00:44:06,853 --> 00:44:09,523
[Joe] I cannot be thinking
about you like this. No.

716
00:44:13,568 --> 00:44:16,154
No, no, no. This is bad.

717
00:44:21,159 --> 00:44:22,536
[theme music playing]