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[church bell rings]

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[vocalizing]

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In the name of the creator,
our brother Jesus, and Wisdom, Sophia,

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we thank you for the gift of this day,
for our first breath this morning.

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In your name, we pray. Amen.

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[dance music playing]

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-♪ Better ♪
-♪ Oh, things just keep getting better ♪

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[Karamo] Like to know who we're helping?

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-[Bobby] Yeah!
-[Jonathan] Yes!

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[Karamo] Her name is Alison McCrary.

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"Alison is 40 years old and lives in
the Gentilly neighborhood of New Orleans."

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"She is a social-justice lawyer
and advocate for human rights."

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Good for her!

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I'm trained professionally as an attorney,

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but I feel like I did life
a little backwards

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because I was 25 years old when I started
the process of becoming a sister.

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-[Karamo] A nun?
-Oh my God! Sister Act!

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-We are having a Sister Act moment.
-I hope she's like the redheaded one!

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Or the brunette!

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Oh, I love Kathy Najimy.

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[Alison] I left life as a Catholic sister
in 2020 when I was 38

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because, as Catholic sisters, we make vows
of poverty, celibacy, and obedience,

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but I would like to have
a long-term relationship with someone,

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someone who knows me
on a really deep level.

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"Alison is nominated by her dear friend
from the church, Miss Deedy."

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When Alison told me
she was leaving the convent,

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I was like, "Okay!"

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"Okay now."

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"Let's go full speed ahead,"

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because Alison is a phenomenal woman.

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She has a big heart,

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and she gives 100% of herself.

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If she can help you, she's gonna help you.

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"Alison is as a real-life saint."

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"Her commitment to her community
and social causes runs so deep,

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she even opens her home to anyone in need,

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whether an ex-convict, refugee,
or someone simply down on their luck."

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-I love her already.
-Right?

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I also serve as a spiritual advisor
on Louisiana's death row,

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and I've been visiting the people
on death row for about 17 years.

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Alison is involved in so much,

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but to make space for someone,

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if you wanna be involved
in a relationship,

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you have to put the brakes on things.

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"It's been 15 years
since Alison had a long-term relationship,

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and she feels like she missed out
on developing her social skills."

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She did have an LTR with Jesus.

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She did have a long-term relationship
with Jesus. That is true.

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I wasn't able to…
to date when I was a sister.

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We have a vow of celibacy,
so we're not allowed to date

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or have romantic or sexual relationships,

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but before I was a Catholic sister,
I did date some,

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but I was very young
and a very different person,

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so when I first left the convent,
I was really nervous about meeting people

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and there was a lot
I needed to figure out.

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First dates are hard. They really are.

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Especially, like,
you learn first dates in your 20s.

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-Yeah.
-[Bobby] She didn't do that.

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-It takes practice.
-Yeah.

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The person who dates Alison
must have a lot of energy.

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You better take your vitamins,

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you better start jogging,
running, working out,

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because you're gonna have to be ready
for Alison.

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She's a firecracker.

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The spreadsheet. [chuckles]

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I created a little rubric for dating,
and then I made it into a spreadsheet.

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[laughs]

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Each criteria
is given a certain number of points,

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and then those columns
have built-in formulas to give a score.

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It helps me to remember
what is important to me

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and to look objectively at some things.

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It's a tool.

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That's just too much.

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Lord. [sighs]

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Whoosah.

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My baby needs a new attitude.

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[Karamo] "Alison's friends from both
inside and outside her church community

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want the Fab Five to help her transition
from her life as a nun

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so she can fully embrace
the rest of her life."

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-We can do that!
-Never too late, Alison!

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It's never too late to find love.

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It's never too late.

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And I think the Fab Five could help her

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because Alison is missing a love life.

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[Karamo] So our mission this week is
to help this former nun find a future hon.

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[cheering]

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-♪ Don't stop, don't stop ♪
-♪ Stop ♪

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-♪ What you're doing to me ♪
-♪ Doing to me ♪

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♪ We could sell our love… ♪

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-[Tan] Cute neighborhood. We're here?
-[Karamo] We're here?

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-[Tan] Whoo!
-[Jonathan] yay!

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♪ Give yourself time to think… ♪

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[Alison] Peanuts are ready.

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This is… weeds.

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[Bobby] Alison?

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-Alison? Hi!
-[Alison laughs]

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Did we catch you gardening?

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Whatcha doing?

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-Hello!
-[laughs]

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-Hi!
-[Bobby] Hug?

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-[Jonathan] Hi, queen!
-You want some peanuts?

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Always!

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Peanuts are grown in the ground?

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-Hi! So--
-Hold on. [laughs]

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Alison's laugh is very infectious.

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You can't help but smile
and start to giggle with her.

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How do you have a sweater on? Hi!

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-[Alison] How are you?
-[Tan] So nice to meet you!

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-Hi!
-[Antoni] Are those bananas?

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[Alison] Those are actually plantains,

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but those are bananas.

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Those are baby bananas,

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and there are figs, papayas, grapes.

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I love this garden vibe.

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I am living for this Armageddon,
end-of-days, Panic Room garden, honey.

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Blackberries, pomegranates, lemons.

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She's giving conscientious,
"I'm canning tomatoes because I am ready."

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"My garden is ready to give me sustenance
through whatever may come my way."

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-What's it like inside?
-[Alison] Uh…

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My house inside?

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[Bobby] Can we see inside?

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-Okay!
-[Tan] Lead the way!

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-This is my house.
-Your house is super cute.

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She said, "Ceilings."

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[Bobby] I love this big table.
Do you have a lot of people over?

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[Alison] Yeah,
I like to cook a lot for people,

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and I like to have people over for meals.

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This is such a great kitchen.

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[Jonathan]
Look at all your gorgeous spices.

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Yeah, that's a little apothecary.

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Food and plant medicine.

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Everything is very labeled.

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-[Tan] You are fully type A.
-[Alison laughs]

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-[Bobby] Alison, what's this?
-[Alison] The Sacred Universe story.

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So it's from the Big Bang to present day,

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connecting evolution and creation
and spirituality and science.

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-Wow.
-I really love.

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Everything about Alison's house
is making my little Virgo heart happy.

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The timeline of evolution
in a former nun's home

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is not something I was expecting to see,
and I like it.

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What's upstairs?

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[Alison] Upstairs, okay, so…

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-[Bobby] Is this your bedroom?
-This is where I sleep.

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[Antoni] Bobby, there's literally
a sign on the door.

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It says it's my room.

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[Bobby] I love it.

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There's order
and then there's, like, extreme order.

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A lot of the nuns would always say,
"Cleanliness is holiness,"

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and so I want them organized.

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Where's the messy?
I wanna see some cracks.

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We love journaling.

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[Jonathan]
"I will not comply with sexism."

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[Antoni] "Thin preference
is about capitalism,

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white supremacy, and patriarchy."

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-Yes, it is, queen!
-[laughs]

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-[Tan] Why do you have a kettle here?
-[Alison] Every morning, I make tea.

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[Tan] You got a tea station in
your bedroom? Is this a meditation space?

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-[Alison] This is the chapel.
-[Tan] Oh, it's a chapel!

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You have a chapel in your bedroom. Okay.

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Is that holy water on the wall?

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Yes. Yes, it is.

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[Alison] These are my prayer books,
The Liturgy of the Hours,

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and this is where I sit to pray
after I come and sage myself.

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-This is really nice!
-Some holy water here.

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[Jonathan] You're just getting in touch
with your highest self in the morning.

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I love that!

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I love this room.

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I exercise in here.
It's like a everything room.

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And I write,
and I do some artwork in here.

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-Like a man cave. This is your woman cave.
-Yeah. [laughs]

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I can't get over these labels.

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How much label tape
do you go through monthly?

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[Karamo] A lot.

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If you spent half the time dating
that you did making labels…

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[laughs] I might have a little luck!

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[Bobby] On the surface,
Alison seems pretty put together.

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She seems giggly and happy
and organized and labeled.

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[Antoni] We're gonna go politely explore.

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[Bobby] But I think
she might be hiding some things,

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and not, like, a dead body in the garden.

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Gosh, everything
just reads "much older lady."

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Alison's closet is…

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strange.

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All that can go.

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Like, everything that's dowdy.

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It sounds like you use your home

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as an extension
of all the amazing work you do.

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Yeah. One friend is like,
"Alison, your desk is by your front door."

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"You look like a receptionist
to your own house."

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Like, "Hi, are you here to see Alison?
Let me go get her."

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-"Did you make an appointment?"
-[Alison laughs] Right?

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And so this is where I write,

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but I haven't really had time
to make it more inspiring or comfortable.

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-But it's organized.
-It's organized!

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♪ Doo, doo, doo, doo, doo ♪

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♪ Doo, doo, doo
Doo, doo, doo, doo, doo ♪

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-♪ Doo, doo, doo ♪
-♪ Doo… ♪

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[Antoni] Every single drawer is labeled.

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This woman needs some kind
of a sponsorship for a label maker.

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It's intense.

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Wow.

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[Bobby] Wait. What's in here?
"God's coming, and they're pissed."

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-Jonathan--
-I love a nonbinary bag!

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-[Alison laughs]
-So cute!

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Oh my God.

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-I thought you would like it.
-I love it.

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It goes with your outfit.
She's in tie-dye today too. It's perfect.

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Who even needs that other bag?

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So good.

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-Thank you for my bag. I love it.
-I thought you would.

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-[Jonathan] Won't you miss it?
-No. I took a picture of it.

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So, okay, you have gorgeous hair.

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-Thank you. It's a little like yours.
-It looks really gorgeous.

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There's so many fun things
to do with curly hair.

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I cut it myself.

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When I wash it, I flip it upside down,
put it in a ponytail, and I…

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-Okay. Cute.
-Yeah.

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But, I mean, you were, like,
a literal, full-on nun for 14 years.

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Is there anything beauty-wise
that you've never learned how to do

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that you really wanna do?

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[Alison] I never learned how to put on
makeup. This is actually for Mardi Gras.

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Got it. You don't have a lot
of daily-wear stuff.

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It's more glittery, bright stuff.

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Sometimes I think people think,
like, "Oh, beauty is about how I look."

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"I don't care about the way I look,
thus I'm not gonna care about it."

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But it's actually
about how we treat ourselves.

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So I would be curious
if we could, like, allow your mission

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of, like, caring and being in community

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to extend to yourself just a smidgen.

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[jazzy music playing]

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[Karamo] Hmm.

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What do we have here?

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So, for the first time in history,

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I didn't have to guess
what was in a drawer

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because everything is super labeled.

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But I'm curious,
where is your messy drawer?

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-Have you heard of a messy drawer?
-Yeah, a junk drawer.

238
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I don't have a junk drawer.

239
00:10:51,484 --> 00:10:53,903
You don't have a junk drawer?

240
00:10:53,986 --> 00:10:55,946
-No. Did you find a junk drawer?
-I'm not--

241
00:10:56,030 --> 00:10:57,740
-I don't know.
-I'm not, like…

242
00:10:57,823 --> 00:10:59,867
I know we don't know each other yet,

243
00:10:59,950 --> 00:11:03,245
but I'm not, like, sneaky and sly.
I'm genuinely asking you.

244
00:11:03,329 --> 00:11:04,413
[Alison] Yeah.

245
00:11:04,497 --> 00:11:10,753
There's this initial appearance
of kind of a perfectly-curated life.

246
00:11:11,879 --> 00:11:15,675
And whenever I see something like that,
I just always wonder what's beneath.

247
00:11:15,758 --> 00:11:18,302
When you left vowed religious life,

248
00:11:18,386 --> 00:11:21,180
you left because you had certain needs
that weren't being met.

249
00:11:21,263 --> 00:11:23,391
-Is that safe to say?
-[Alison] Uh, yeah.

250
00:11:23,474 --> 00:11:27,436
I loved being a Catholic sister,
but was really realizing that I had needs,

251
00:11:27,520 --> 00:11:30,523
and the container that's holding my life

252
00:11:30,606 --> 00:11:33,359
isn't allowing me
to have those needs filled.

253
00:11:33,442 --> 00:11:36,612
-Mainly around intimacy needs, yeah.
-Okay, so intimacy needs.

254
00:11:36,696 --> 00:11:40,825
But intimacy isn't just physical.
Intimacy is like "into-me-see."

255
00:11:40,908 --> 00:11:42,076
"See into me."

256
00:11:42,159 --> 00:11:43,536
-Like, "Get to know me."
-Okay.

257
00:11:43,619 --> 00:11:47,581
-Um, I am biromantic demisexual.
-Okay.

258
00:11:47,665 --> 00:11:49,250
Um, yeah.

259
00:11:49,333 --> 00:11:53,546
It means I'm romantically attracted
to men, women, nonbinary folks,

260
00:11:53,629 --> 00:11:57,550
but I'm only sexually attracted to people
if there's an emotional connection.

261
00:11:57,633 --> 00:11:59,593
-[Antoni] So how's all that going for you?
-Um…

262
00:11:59,677 --> 00:12:02,930
-Do you like going on dates?
-I like getting to know people.

263
00:12:03,013 --> 00:12:05,766
But my friend,
she had a bar crawl, and I love her,

264
00:12:05,850 --> 00:12:08,227
and it was fun, but I was so uncomfortable

265
00:12:08,310 --> 00:12:12,440
just 'cause I'm like, "Everyone knows what
to order at all these different bars,"

266
00:12:12,523 --> 00:12:15,860
and I just didn't know what to order.
I just got water.

267
00:12:15,943 --> 00:12:19,530
Well, if you're going on dates
and if that's something you wanna do,

268
00:12:19,613 --> 00:12:22,032
it's like,
you should be able to go into a bar,

269
00:12:22,116 --> 00:12:25,870
and be like, "Am I in the mood for
a mocktail, a cocktail, a glass of wine?"

270
00:12:25,953 --> 00:12:28,581
So you can get that out of the way
and get to know the person.

271
00:12:28,664 --> 00:12:29,540
Yeah.

272
00:12:29,623 --> 00:12:30,624
[Jonathan] Ha!

273
00:12:30,708 --> 00:12:33,002
[whimsical music playing]

274
00:12:38,090 --> 00:12:40,134
-You're single. Am I right?
-I am, yeah.

275
00:12:40,217 --> 00:12:42,344
But you're ready to mingle.
Am I also right?

276
00:12:42,428 --> 00:12:43,554
I think so!

277
00:12:43,637 --> 00:12:45,222
What are you wearing on your dates?

278
00:12:45,306 --> 00:12:47,767
What I wear, it's, like, tried and true.

279
00:12:47,850 --> 00:12:51,562
Okay.
It is what I would call modest clothing.

280
00:12:51,645 --> 00:12:53,689
-Yes.
-[Tan] Do you wanna be modest always?

281
00:12:53,773 --> 00:12:54,982
I mean, maybe…

282
00:12:55,065 --> 00:12:59,361
There's maybe some occasions
where something else might be needed.

283
00:12:59,945 --> 00:13:02,907
But I'm usually just really uncomfortable…

284
00:13:02,990 --> 00:13:04,867
Okay. I wanna talk through your closet.

285
00:13:04,950 --> 00:13:06,702
-Let's figure it out.
-Yeah.

286
00:13:06,786 --> 00:13:10,831
Why do you have twos of everything?
What ark are you trying to fill?

287
00:13:10,915 --> 00:13:13,584
-[laughs] An ark!
-[Tan] Full of women who dress the same?

288
00:13:13,667 --> 00:13:15,336
What, do they go two by two?

289
00:13:15,419 --> 00:13:17,087
-[laughs]
-[Tan] What's going on?

290
00:13:17,171 --> 00:13:20,382
[Alison] When I like something,
I try to find the same thing.

291
00:13:20,466 --> 00:13:22,092
Like, these are from the thrift store,

292
00:13:22,176 --> 00:13:24,845
and I'm like, "The universe
wants me to wear this dress."

293
00:13:24,929 --> 00:13:25,846
"They know I like it."

294
00:13:25,930 --> 00:13:32,228
However, it's feeling a little… older
than I would care for you to look.

295
00:13:32,728 --> 00:13:35,564
Yeah. Yeah,
and I wear cardigans over those.

296
00:13:35,648 --> 00:13:37,650
[pensive music playing]

297
00:13:37,733 --> 00:13:41,028
Wow. Do you live in Utah
in your spare time?

298
00:13:41,111 --> 00:13:43,197
[Alison] I have
some good Mormon friends though.

299
00:13:43,280 --> 00:13:45,741
All my friends and family are Mormon.
I live in Utah!

300
00:13:46,325 --> 00:13:50,412
But this is
like a woman much older in Utah.

301
00:13:50,496 --> 00:13:52,706
I like that I don't have to think
about what I wear.

302
00:13:52,790 --> 00:13:56,126
So what I wear to testify
in the state legislature

303
00:13:56,210 --> 00:13:57,920
on a bill-airing committee

304
00:13:58,003 --> 00:14:01,298
is the same thing that I will wear
to do my gardening in the backyard.

305
00:14:01,382 --> 00:14:02,424
How about a date?

306
00:14:03,384 --> 00:14:05,135
And the same thing I wear on a date.

307
00:14:05,219 --> 00:14:06,387
-It's all the same.
-Oh.

308
00:14:06,470 --> 00:14:07,888
[Alison] Yeah. It doesn't change.

309
00:14:14,144 --> 00:14:16,146
[Karamo] Do you think
people see the real you?

310
00:14:16,230 --> 00:14:18,190
I think they do.

311
00:14:18,274 --> 00:14:21,151
I see everything's organized,
and I see the beautiful garden.

312
00:14:21,235 --> 00:14:24,154
I think people look at me
and think I have it together. [chuckles]

313
00:14:24,238 --> 00:14:26,824
-You know? And--
-So what don't you have together?

314
00:14:27,324 --> 00:14:30,494
Oh, gosh.
I mean, whether it's issues of trust

315
00:14:30,578 --> 00:14:34,623
or needs to feel control over things, um,

316
00:14:34,707 --> 00:14:36,125
feeling insecure,

317
00:14:36,208 --> 00:14:39,420
and then appearing more confident
than I might be.

318
00:14:39,503 --> 00:14:42,339
I mean, there's
just a laundry list of all the things.

319
00:14:42,423 --> 00:14:44,675
Yeah. How often do you help yourself?

320
00:14:46,635 --> 00:14:51,181
I mean, I feel like I try
to schedule in the practices. [chuckles]

321
00:14:51,265 --> 00:14:52,266
Um…

322
00:14:52,766 --> 00:14:55,978
You know? Meeting with counselors.

323
00:14:56,061 --> 00:14:58,397
-I said yourself.
-Yeah. Um…

324
00:14:58,480 --> 00:15:00,441
So how much time you take for yourself?

325
00:15:01,692 --> 00:15:02,568
[chuckles]

326
00:15:02,651 --> 00:15:04,945
[heartfelt music playing]

327
00:15:05,613 --> 00:15:07,781
-This is hard. [chuckles]
-No, it's okay.

328
00:15:08,407 --> 00:15:11,952
A lot of my relationships end up being
like caretaking relationships, you know?

329
00:15:12,036 --> 00:15:14,788
Just kind of patterns
of having to care for people.

330
00:15:14,872 --> 00:15:17,499
[Karamo] Yeah. Is it exhausting sometimes,
always giving?

331
00:15:17,583 --> 00:15:18,918
-Of course.
-[Karamo] Yeah.

332
00:15:19,501 --> 00:15:21,837
-[Alison] It's a habit.
-[Karamo] That's how you been taught.

333
00:15:21,921 --> 00:15:23,297
Yeah. Yeah.

334
00:15:23,380 --> 00:15:26,550
Yeah, and sometimes I think,
like, you know, with being a sister,

335
00:15:26,634 --> 00:15:28,469
in my mind, it was to get close.

336
00:15:28,552 --> 00:15:31,055
You know, it's like, "We're here
to love everyone who needs love,"

337
00:15:31,138 --> 00:15:34,308
and it was also a way of avoiding what…

338
00:15:35,976 --> 00:15:38,520
um, what I might really need.

339
00:15:38,604 --> 00:15:42,191
[Karamo] Whatever you need in your heart,
you should've gotten that.

340
00:15:42,274 --> 00:15:44,276
Yeah. Thanks.

341
00:15:50,616 --> 00:15:51,700
We are back.

342
00:15:51,784 --> 00:15:52,701
-Hi!
-Hi!

343
00:15:52,785 --> 00:15:54,203
-[Jonathan] Hi!
-[Alison chuckles]

344
00:15:54,286 --> 00:15:57,998
So how do you feel about allowing us
to do what we know how to do?

345
00:15:58,082 --> 00:16:01,627
Oh! Um, yeah. I mean,
I think y'all are, like, experts, right?

346
00:16:01,710 --> 00:16:04,546
That's the title.
Jury's out, frankly, but…

347
00:16:04,630 --> 00:16:05,506
[laughs]

348
00:16:05,589 --> 00:16:07,549
Yeah. Yeah. I think I…
Yeah. Yeah, yeah, yeah.

349
00:16:07,633 --> 00:16:09,468
-[Karamo] You're coming with us.
-I am?

350
00:16:09,551 --> 00:16:10,928
[Karamo] You're coming with us!

351
00:16:11,011 --> 00:16:13,347
Grab a comfy pair of shoes, and let's go.

352
00:16:13,430 --> 00:16:15,224
[Jonathan] We're giving you
more tools, queen.

353
00:16:15,307 --> 00:16:16,475
[Tan] Come on, dear.

354
00:16:16,558 --> 00:16:19,687
♪ The time has come to start the show ♪

355
00:16:20,187 --> 00:16:22,731
♪ Let that feeling get in your bones… ♪

356
00:16:22,815 --> 00:16:26,986
[Bobby] I feel like Alison might be
using her activism

357
00:16:27,069 --> 00:16:31,198
to hide the work
that she needs to do on herself.

358
00:16:31,281 --> 00:16:33,450
So I think my biggest goal this week

359
00:16:33,534 --> 00:16:36,370
is to really help push Alison
out of her comfort zone.

360
00:16:36,453 --> 00:16:40,416
And I wanna show her a way
to utilize her space

361
00:16:40,499 --> 00:16:44,628
that can help her change some other things
in her life for the better.

362
00:16:44,712 --> 00:16:47,006
[Jonathan]
Alison is a little bit très uptight.

363
00:16:47,089 --> 00:16:50,426
She maybe forgot
how to have a little bit of fun,

364
00:16:50,509 --> 00:16:54,722
but, lucky for her, my middle name is fun.

365
00:16:54,805 --> 00:16:57,599
So I want for us to just get
into a little sandbox

366
00:16:57,683 --> 00:16:59,101
that is beauty and play.

367
00:17:00,352 --> 00:17:04,523
[Tan] She has
so many clothes in her closet,

368
00:17:04,606 --> 00:17:06,859
but, right now,
everything's so functional.

369
00:17:06,942 --> 00:17:08,402
It just serves a purpose.

370
00:17:08,485 --> 00:17:10,904
I wanna get rid of the matronly clothes,

371
00:17:10,988 --> 00:17:15,242
and I want to show her
what fashion can do for her self-esteem.

372
00:17:16,118 --> 00:17:19,079
If you know what your drink is,
it's one less thing to stress with

373
00:17:19,163 --> 00:17:20,497
so that you can be yourself,

374
00:17:20,581 --> 00:17:22,708
and you can show up
as a curious human being

375
00:17:22,791 --> 00:17:25,127
and get to know the person
you're on a date with.

376
00:17:25,210 --> 00:17:28,088
I wanna get her to,
"You know what? [beep] …this."

377
00:17:28,172 --> 00:17:30,549
♪ Tell me can you feel that rush? ♪

378
00:17:30,632 --> 00:17:33,927
Between the labels and the spreadsheets,
Alison loves control,

379
00:17:34,011 --> 00:17:36,263
but this week,
you gotta let go of control.

380
00:17:36,346 --> 00:17:40,100
I wanna connect Alison with some people
so she can practice getting out there,

381
00:17:40,184 --> 00:17:43,353
and, at the end the week, maybe she might
find somebody that she likes.

382
00:17:43,437 --> 00:17:45,189
♪ We the bestest ♪

383
00:17:45,272 --> 00:17:47,274
[upbeat music playing]

384
00:17:48,192 --> 00:17:50,360
♪ Ooh, ooh, ooh ♪

385
00:17:51,153 --> 00:17:53,238
♪ Ooh, ooh, ooh… ♪

386
00:17:53,947 --> 00:17:56,408
-[Alison] So I get you this morning?
-[Karamo] You get me first.

387
00:17:56,492 --> 00:17:59,036
-[Alison laughs]
-♪ Ooh, ooh, ooh ♪

388
00:17:59,119 --> 00:18:00,621
-[car horn beeps]
-[laughing]

389
00:18:03,624 --> 00:18:04,917
[Alison] Oh my gosh.

390
00:18:07,795 --> 00:18:09,963
-Beautiful. [laughs]
-[Karamo] Glad you like.

391
00:18:11,757 --> 00:18:12,674
[grunts]

392
00:18:12,758 --> 00:18:14,259
-[woman] Hello.
-Hi!

393
00:18:14,343 --> 00:18:16,970
Welcome to Queenly Conjure.
My name is Lorena.

394
00:18:17,054 --> 00:18:20,808
-Got some teas, if you'd like to share.
-I love tea. Thank you, Lorena.

395
00:18:20,891 --> 00:18:22,726
[Lorena] Of course. Enjoy.

396
00:18:22,810 --> 00:18:23,894
-[Karamo] Thank you.
-Thanks!

397
00:18:23,977 --> 00:18:25,145
[Lorena] Of course. Thank you.

398
00:18:27,606 --> 00:18:29,691
Your whole energy just lit up
when you saw her.

399
00:18:29,775 --> 00:18:30,859
[laughs]

400
00:18:30,943 --> 00:18:32,778
-Maybe!
-There's no maybe about that!

401
00:18:32,861 --> 00:18:35,364
I don't know!
I also sense people's energy a lot.

402
00:18:35,447 --> 00:18:37,449
-You like that energy.
-She has good energy.

403
00:18:37,533 --> 00:18:38,700
[Karamo] I saw it!

404
00:18:38,784 --> 00:18:40,202
You were like, "Hi."

405
00:18:40,285 --> 00:18:42,037
-You were, like, "Oh, tea?"
-[laughs]

406
00:18:42,121 --> 00:18:43,831
I like that opening up of you,
you know?

407
00:18:43,914 --> 00:18:47,000
Because I know you said that
a large part of that was closed off.

408
00:18:47,084 --> 00:18:49,503
As a sister, we have a…
We had a vow of celibacy.

409
00:18:49,586 --> 00:18:51,880
So, of course, we have attractions.
That's normal,

410
00:18:51,964 --> 00:18:53,757
but, like,
we can't act on those attractions.

411
00:18:53,841 --> 00:18:56,176
So everything just went friend zone,
you know?

412
00:18:56,260 --> 00:18:57,928
-Yes.
-Um, now it's confusing.

413
00:18:58,011 --> 00:18:59,596
Alison was a nun for 14 years.

414
00:18:59,680 --> 00:19:02,141
She was taught
to abandon her sexual desires

415
00:19:02,224 --> 00:19:03,725
and what she needs,

416
00:19:03,809 --> 00:19:08,814
but now she has to rediscover all of that
if she wants to find a relationship.

417
00:19:08,897 --> 00:19:11,525
Yesterday, I saw a list on your computer.

418
00:19:11,608 --> 00:19:13,360
[laughs] You saw my list?

419
00:19:13,443 --> 00:19:15,320
-I did see a list.
-[Alison] Yeah.

420
00:19:15,404 --> 00:19:18,907
And that list had a lot of type-A

421
00:19:18,991 --> 00:19:21,910
"I must have this, must have this,
must have this in a relationship."

422
00:19:21,994 --> 00:19:24,663
Preferences.
Maybe not must-haves. Preferences.

423
00:19:25,247 --> 00:19:27,249
Those are some strong preferences, girl!

424
00:19:27,332 --> 00:19:31,295
-There's, like, 50 of 'em or something.
-There was, like, 50 strong preferences!

425
00:19:31,378 --> 00:19:35,549
I'm so nervous about getting caught up
in emotions, feelings.

426
00:19:35,632 --> 00:19:38,468
It's like, "The minute
that I have to start feeling,

427
00:19:38,969 --> 00:19:40,137
I get uncomfortable,

428
00:19:40,220 --> 00:19:44,558
so I control
and put into categories and lists."

429
00:19:44,641 --> 00:19:47,811
The problem is, is that
when it's a spreadsheet like you had,

430
00:19:47,895 --> 00:19:52,316
instead of building healthy boundaries,
you're building walls.

431
00:19:53,358 --> 00:19:56,945
And you're not getting the connections
you truly deserve.

432
00:19:58,197 --> 00:20:00,115
It's hard to hear all those things.

433
00:20:00,782 --> 00:20:05,537
You need things to be written down
so you can have that clarity,

434
00:20:05,621 --> 00:20:09,416
which is why I brought this
because we need to redo that list.

435
00:20:09,499 --> 00:20:10,500
Okay.

436
00:20:10,584 --> 00:20:14,755
Wants, not wants, and boundaries.

437
00:20:15,380 --> 00:20:17,216
-That's all I get, just three?
-Mm-hmm.

438
00:20:17,299 --> 00:20:18,383
Okay!

439
00:20:18,467 --> 00:20:19,968
What is it that you want?

440
00:20:20,469 --> 00:20:22,304
-I think common interests.
-Okay.

441
00:20:22,387 --> 00:20:24,181
-A commitment to social justice.
-Okay.

442
00:20:24,264 --> 00:20:26,058
Now I'm gonna challenge you here.

443
00:20:26,558 --> 00:20:28,393
What's the level of social justice?

444
00:20:28,477 --> 00:20:31,688
Do they need to be at a 10%?
Is there a 15%?

445
00:20:31,772 --> 00:20:35,192
Because what you do
and how active you are,

446
00:20:35,275 --> 00:20:38,278
that takes your pool from a million to…

447
00:20:38,362 --> 00:20:39,613
-[clicks teeth]
-Mm-hmm.

448
00:20:39,696 --> 00:20:42,741
That's okay, if you're really like,
"They have to do these things."

449
00:20:42,824 --> 00:20:46,453
No, they don't have to do those things,
but, like, maybe it's just supporting me

450
00:20:46,536 --> 00:20:48,288
in my social-justice work.

451
00:20:48,372 --> 00:20:50,874
-Maybe it's just like support.
-Boom!

452
00:20:50,958 --> 00:20:54,211
Listen, that's so beautiful.
What else is a want for you?

453
00:20:55,254 --> 00:20:59,049
I mean, I think there has to be
some level of chemistry, like a spark.

454
00:20:59,132 --> 00:21:01,260
Chemistry and spark,
you know from off the bat.

455
00:21:01,343 --> 00:21:03,845
I think the want, in this case,

456
00:21:04,388 --> 00:21:08,517
is the courage to be able
to clearly say there is a spark.

457
00:21:08,600 --> 00:21:11,061
-Mm-hmm.
-What are the things that we don't want?

458
00:21:11,144 --> 00:21:13,063
Some people really just aren't available.

459
00:21:13,146 --> 00:21:16,108
They think they are, but they're really
not emotionally available.

460
00:21:16,191 --> 00:21:19,569
That's actually more of a want.
Emotionally available.

461
00:21:19,653 --> 00:21:21,071
Emo… Yeah. Yeah.

462
00:21:21,154 --> 00:21:24,074
[Karamo] These all coincide.
The want and the not want.

463
00:21:24,157 --> 00:21:26,368
[Alison] Yeah, it's like there's
an opposite of those.

464
00:21:26,451 --> 00:21:28,412
[Karamo] Exactly.
Now let's get those boundaries.

465
00:21:28,495 --> 00:21:32,040
What are the things
that are like, "Nope, this is not okay."

466
00:21:32,124 --> 00:21:35,585
I mean, I think respect is a big one.
Like, if there's not respect.

467
00:21:35,669 --> 00:21:37,212
-[Karamo] Yes.
-[Alison] You know?

468
00:21:37,713 --> 00:21:41,091
Where does, like, commitment
to personal growth go?

469
00:21:41,174 --> 00:21:43,719
"You doing the same thing
you were doing five years ago,

470
00:21:43,802 --> 00:21:45,637
and I don't want it." That's a boundary.

471
00:21:45,721 --> 00:21:46,555
[Alison] A boundary.

472
00:21:46,638 --> 00:21:49,933
All these things connect.
It's just making a shorter list.

473
00:21:50,017 --> 00:21:51,810
It's such clear communication.

474
00:21:51,893 --> 00:21:54,146
Then you start to really understand

475
00:21:54,229 --> 00:21:56,857
and not get boggled down in the analytics

476
00:21:56,940 --> 00:21:58,483
and the checking lists

477
00:21:58,567 --> 00:22:00,110
that then becomes a wall.

478
00:22:00,193 --> 00:22:01,445
Yeah. Yeah.

479
00:22:01,528 --> 00:22:05,115
If you're trying to meet somebody,
having a long checklist is not the way.

480
00:22:05,198 --> 00:22:08,744
What I wanna so is start that process off
where you can practice.

481
00:22:08,827 --> 00:22:10,912
Because all you're doing
is saying to yourself

482
00:22:10,996 --> 00:22:13,707
that "No one is ever gonna be
perfect enough for me."

483
00:22:13,790 --> 00:22:19,379
I propose that you allow me
to introduce you to five people.

484
00:22:19,463 --> 00:22:20,839
-Five people?
-Mm-hmm.

485
00:22:20,922 --> 00:22:23,175
Every time you meet with someone
in the Fab Five,

486
00:22:23,258 --> 00:22:25,969
at the end of your lesson,
you'll meet someone new.

487
00:22:26,053 --> 00:22:27,929
No pressure. Just a meet,

488
00:22:28,013 --> 00:22:32,142
where you can practice you clarifying,
"This is what I need."

489
00:22:32,225 --> 00:22:34,895
And at the end of the week,
if you like somebody,

490
00:22:34,978 --> 00:22:38,273
we circle back around
and say, "Maybe I go on a date."

491
00:22:39,608 --> 00:22:40,692
Uh, o… okay.

492
00:22:40,776 --> 00:22:42,903
-Does that work?
-That'd be awesome. That'd be awesome.

493
00:22:42,986 --> 00:22:44,988
[upbeat music playing]

494
00:22:47,491 --> 00:22:49,368
[Karamo]
I want you to meet my friend Pablo.

495
00:22:49,451 --> 00:22:50,285
-Hey, Pablo.
-Hi.

496
00:22:50,369 --> 00:22:51,953
-I'm Alison.
-[Pablo] Nice to meet you.

497
00:22:52,037 --> 00:22:53,497
Nice to meet you. [chuckles]

498
00:22:53,580 --> 00:22:55,123
[Karamo] Yeah, get comfortable.

499
00:22:55,207 --> 00:22:58,668
-This is a dope little tea spot.
-[Pablo] I'm really happy to be here.

500
00:22:58,752 --> 00:23:00,921
[Karamo] It's okay to know what you want

501
00:23:01,004 --> 00:23:03,965
and also to understand the boundaries
of things that are not acceptable.

502
00:23:04,049 --> 00:23:06,259
My friend here, he's active in sports.

503
00:23:06,343 --> 00:23:08,220
Active in support, what do you mean?

504
00:23:08,303 --> 00:23:10,138
-[Karamo] In sports.
-Oh, active in sports.

505
00:23:10,222 --> 00:23:11,848
[Pablo] I play soccer on Sunday mornings.

506
00:23:11,932 --> 00:23:14,476
But allow yourself to live in a space

507
00:23:14,559 --> 00:23:17,396
where things can change
and people can surprise you.

508
00:23:17,979 --> 00:23:20,148
It's all a big mystery. [laughs]

509
00:23:20,232 --> 00:23:22,067
I just go along for the ride.

510
00:23:22,150 --> 00:23:25,070
Which I love! I love that!

511
00:23:25,153 --> 00:23:26,696
[Alison] I'm not in control!

512
00:23:27,364 --> 00:23:29,366
[upbeat music playing]

513
00:23:34,454 --> 00:23:38,083
[Tan] Okay, so I brought you to Joseph,
which I love very much.

514
00:23:38,708 --> 00:23:40,502
[Alison] Mmm, I'm very uncomfortable.

515
00:23:40,585 --> 00:23:43,255
Everything looks really, really…
probably expensive.

516
00:23:43,839 --> 00:23:47,342
It's not things I would wear really.

517
00:23:47,426 --> 00:23:49,219
There's no flat shoes. [laughs]

518
00:23:49,302 --> 00:23:51,847
There are a couple of flat shoes.
There are a couple.

519
00:23:51,930 --> 00:23:54,558
Alison isn't comfortable here,

520
00:23:54,641 --> 00:23:56,101
but I want her to understand

521
00:23:56,184 --> 00:23:58,937
that the way she's going
to start to feel more comfortable

522
00:23:59,020 --> 00:24:00,772
on dates or in social settings

523
00:24:00,856 --> 00:24:02,858
is if she presents herself well.

524
00:24:02,941 --> 00:24:04,860
So I want to play with fit.

525
00:24:04,943 --> 00:24:06,736
I wanna play with color.

526
00:24:06,820 --> 00:24:10,240
I want to play with who she gets to be
going forward.

527
00:24:10,323 --> 00:24:13,160
For a long time, you haven't really had
a chance to experiment,

528
00:24:13,243 --> 00:24:16,413
and what you have in your closet
isn't going to push you at all.

529
00:24:16,496 --> 00:24:19,040
-You have twos of everything.
-You called it Noah's Ark.

530
00:24:19,124 --> 00:24:21,710
You had a Noah's Ark closet.
They all came in twos.

531
00:24:21,793 --> 00:24:23,753
-I've been laughing about that a lot.
-[Tan] Good!

532
00:24:23,837 --> 00:24:26,047
Like, in bed at night,
thinking, "Tan's right."

533
00:24:26,131 --> 00:24:28,300
Even if you continue
to get two of everything,

534
00:24:28,383 --> 00:24:30,719
doesn't bother me
as long as they make you feel something,

535
00:24:30,802 --> 00:24:33,513
not just,
"I'm putting clothes on my body."

536
00:24:33,597 --> 00:24:35,765
So I'm gonna take you to a mirror.

537
00:24:36,600 --> 00:24:39,019
Talk to me about the parts of your body
that you like.

538
00:24:39,519 --> 00:24:40,687
Um…

539
00:24:41,813 --> 00:24:43,231
I don't really think about it.

540
00:24:43,315 --> 00:24:44,816
-I feel like--
-That's not true.

541
00:24:44,900 --> 00:24:47,152
Yeah. I mean, it's not true, and it is,

542
00:24:47,235 --> 00:24:51,031
'cause, as sisters, we were almost meant
to feel like we didn't have a body.

543
00:24:51,114 --> 00:24:52,449
Desexualized.

544
00:24:52,532 --> 00:24:55,827
And you're not of this earth, you know.
You're in the world, but not of the world.

545
00:24:55,911 --> 00:24:57,037
But now that you're out,

546
00:24:57,120 --> 00:24:59,331
you can't say
you've not looked in the mirror

547
00:24:59,414 --> 00:25:02,250
and thought, "I wanna show this,
but I don't wanna show this."

548
00:25:02,334 --> 00:25:05,170
So what makes you uncomfortable
about your body?

549
00:25:05,879 --> 00:25:09,299
I feel like I have broad shoulders
and broad chest.

550
00:25:09,382 --> 00:25:11,676
-Okay.
-And so I always feel, like, top-heavy.

551
00:25:11,760 --> 00:25:13,386
I mean, I like to wear a cardigan.

552
00:25:13,470 --> 00:25:17,098
I like to cover things up
so I don't feel so top-heavy.

553
00:25:17,182 --> 00:25:19,601
Would you try on anything for me, please?

554
00:25:20,185 --> 00:25:21,019
"Anything"?

555
00:25:21,102 --> 00:25:24,606
I just want you to see that the things
that you see are all in your mind.

556
00:25:24,689 --> 00:25:26,566
No one's thinking that.

557
00:25:26,650 --> 00:25:28,151
I was raised in a very religious…

558
00:25:28,235 --> 00:25:31,404
I'm Muslim, which… We're a little
more extreme than most religions.

559
00:25:31,488 --> 00:25:34,032
And so I'm not the most sexual person.

560
00:25:34,115 --> 00:25:38,203
I chose somebody to marry
who was very, very Christian,

561
00:25:38,286 --> 00:25:41,748
who also didn't expect just sex
on the first date.

562
00:25:41,831 --> 00:25:44,167
Like, it takes a long time to get to that.

563
00:25:44,251 --> 00:25:47,587
However, I still wanted to be desired.

564
00:25:47,671 --> 00:25:49,714
Don't you want that at least?

565
00:25:49,798 --> 00:25:51,591
A little of that might be nice.

566
00:25:51,675 --> 00:25:53,426
And you don't do well on dates.

567
00:25:53,510 --> 00:25:55,887
I think you said
you don't feel comfortable on dates.

568
00:25:55,971 --> 00:25:58,265
Do you think
that that might change slightly

569
00:25:58,348 --> 00:26:01,977
if you really felt good about
how you presented yourself on those dates?

570
00:26:02,060 --> 00:26:03,061
-Maybe.
-Great.

571
00:26:03,144 --> 00:26:06,147
It'd be great to have, like, an outfit.
Yeah.

572
00:26:06,648 --> 00:26:08,066
[laughs]

573
00:26:08,149 --> 00:26:09,150
Who are you?

574
00:26:09,734 --> 00:26:11,987
Where were you when I came to your house?

575
00:26:12,070 --> 00:26:12,988
That's all I want.

576
00:26:13,071 --> 00:26:15,115
[upbeat music playing]

577
00:26:16,950 --> 00:26:18,118
Alison?

578
00:26:18,618 --> 00:26:20,203
[laughing]

579
00:26:20,287 --> 00:26:22,205
[Tan] Come on out! Let me see!

580
00:26:22,289 --> 00:26:25,041
Okay. Will you stand here for me
and look at yourself?

581
00:26:25,125 --> 00:26:26,084
Uh-huh.

582
00:26:26,167 --> 00:26:27,377
Oh my. [laughs]

583
00:26:28,628 --> 00:26:30,046
Your legs look amazing

584
00:26:30,630 --> 00:26:32,507
and very long.

585
00:26:32,591 --> 00:26:34,759
The shoe is gorgeous on you.

586
00:26:34,843 --> 00:26:36,553
But I wanna know what you think.

587
00:26:37,304 --> 00:26:38,638
Feels loud.

588
00:26:38,722 --> 00:26:40,265
Feels attention drawing.

589
00:26:40,348 --> 00:26:42,851
-Can I take out your, uh, clip?
-Um…

590
00:26:42,934 --> 00:26:45,520
-I just want… Do you mind?
-Yeah. Yeah, you can take it out.

591
00:26:45,604 --> 00:26:46,771
[laughs]

592
00:26:48,148 --> 00:26:50,150
I just wanna see.

593
00:26:50,900 --> 00:26:52,485
And then that on a date.

594
00:26:52,569 --> 00:26:56,448
Does it feel like a version
that could potentially be you?

595
00:26:56,531 --> 00:26:57,907
For your not-work life.

596
00:26:57,991 --> 00:27:00,493
Yeah, maybe with some time.
I like this color

597
00:27:00,577 --> 00:27:03,705
'cause it's similar
to the orange rust color I like to wear.

598
00:27:03,788 --> 00:27:04,914
-I know.
-[Alison] So I do…

599
00:27:04,998 --> 00:27:08,084
I'm usually not a pinky kind of person,
but yeah.

600
00:27:08,168 --> 00:27:10,420
I think you look beautiful, Alison.

601
00:27:10,920 --> 00:27:12,922
-Ready for the next one?
-Um, sure.

602
00:27:15,300 --> 00:27:16,801
-I'm gonna give you this.
-A bag?

603
00:27:16,885 --> 00:27:17,719
[Tan] Yeah.

604
00:27:17,802 --> 00:27:19,179
Stand right here, please.

605
00:27:22,182 --> 00:27:23,975
[Alison]
It feels like I have no bottoms on.

606
00:27:24,059 --> 00:27:27,479
-[laughs] You don't!
-[Alison laughs] I don't! Um…

607
00:27:27,562 --> 00:27:30,231
It's cute. I would never ever wear
anything like this.

608
00:27:30,315 --> 00:27:32,233
[Tan] I know you wouldn't.
I wanted to push you.

609
00:27:32,317 --> 00:27:33,151
Yeah.

610
00:27:33,234 --> 00:27:37,530
-We are sharing the tiniest bit of cleave.
-[Alison] Yeah.

611
00:27:37,614 --> 00:27:39,157
Let me take that bag from you.

612
00:27:39,240 --> 00:27:42,702
And now look
at what that's doing to your chest.

613
00:27:42,786 --> 00:27:45,580
I'd suggest always a scoop neck.
It doesn't have to be this low.

614
00:27:45,664 --> 00:27:48,375
Just something
that really shows off some skin

615
00:27:48,458 --> 00:27:50,710
so you start to see the extension
of a neck,

616
00:27:50,794 --> 00:27:53,797
otherwise you will always feel
the way you do about your chest.

617
00:27:53,880 --> 00:27:57,801
You know, the sleeves, the texture,
the belt, makes it so much small…

618
00:27:57,884 --> 00:27:59,094
Like it really…

619
00:27:59,678 --> 00:28:01,054
Yeah, it's like magic.

620
00:28:01,137 --> 00:28:05,350
I wanted you to see that the thing
that was in your head about your body

621
00:28:05,433 --> 00:28:07,560
was purely because
of how you were dressing it.

622
00:28:07,644 --> 00:28:09,312
-Yeah.
-Your body is balanced.

623
00:28:09,396 --> 00:28:12,691
It's like you…
Yeah, you make magic happen. [laughs]

624
00:28:12,774 --> 00:28:14,109
Thanks!

625
00:28:14,192 --> 00:28:17,404
-[Tan] And I have legs!
-You ha… Listen, you always had legs.

626
00:28:17,487 --> 00:28:20,615
You just weren't showing 'em off.
They are great legs.

627
00:28:20,699 --> 00:28:24,661
Now she can see what great clothes can do
for her body and her self-esteem.

628
00:28:25,245 --> 00:28:27,706
I think,
within a few days of wearing stuff

629
00:28:27,789 --> 00:28:31,292
that really enhance all the parts
of your body that you want to enhance,

630
00:28:31,376 --> 00:28:34,462
I think you'll start
to really feel so much better,

631
00:28:34,546 --> 00:28:36,589
and so much more comfortable on dates.

632
00:28:36,673 --> 00:28:38,591
How do you do with chitchat?

633
00:28:38,675 --> 00:28:41,219
I can talk to a lamppost.
I can make friends with a tree.

634
00:28:41,302 --> 00:28:42,470
I can talk to anyone.

635
00:28:42,554 --> 00:28:45,140
-Well, then I'm gonna put it to the test.
-Okay.

636
00:28:46,474 --> 00:28:48,518
[Tan] Alison, this is my new friend Paige.

637
00:28:48,601 --> 00:28:50,103
Nice to meet you.

638
00:28:50,186 --> 00:28:54,315
Alison is 40 years old and a former nun.

639
00:28:54,399 --> 00:28:56,401
I'm trying to get comfortable in things.

640
00:28:56,484 --> 00:28:58,903
I usually wear
the same kinda thing all the time.

641
00:28:58,987 --> 00:29:01,698
-[Paige] You buy it in several colors?
-That's exactly what I do.

642
00:29:01,781 --> 00:29:03,825
Can't lie.
Like, I have this dress in teal too.

643
00:29:03,908 --> 00:29:05,660
[Tan] But she can connect with anyone

644
00:29:05,744 --> 00:29:09,080
as long she presents herself
with confidence and shares her own joy.

645
00:29:09,164 --> 00:29:11,416
[Alison] I've never shown this much leg,
I don't think.

646
00:29:11,499 --> 00:29:12,542
-You look cute!
-Thanks!

647
00:29:12,625 --> 00:29:15,879
Because that could potentially lead
to a date.

648
00:29:15,962 --> 00:29:17,672
You've never been to a drag show?

649
00:29:17,756 --> 00:29:20,175
When I first came out of the convent,
we went to…

650
00:29:20,258 --> 00:29:23,303
I think it was a Halloween party,
and they did have some drag,

651
00:29:23,386 --> 00:29:25,680
but I've never been
to, like, drag show only.

652
00:29:25,764 --> 00:29:28,933
Well, Sunday, I'm not hard to find,
'cause I'm usually at one, so…

653
00:29:29,017 --> 00:29:30,435
[Alison] Awesome. That could be fun!

654
00:29:30,518 --> 00:29:31,644
[laughs]

655
00:29:32,437 --> 00:29:34,314
["Love's Addition" playing]

656
00:29:36,149 --> 00:29:38,276
♪ Wind that bobbin up ♪

657
00:29:39,068 --> 00:29:40,153
♪ Pull on my heart… ♪

658
00:29:40,236 --> 00:29:43,156
I wanted to bring you somewhere that
I didn't know what I was doing either.

659
00:29:43,239 --> 00:29:46,075
You and I are gonna learn together.
We're gonna throw a pot!

660
00:29:46,159 --> 00:29:47,911
Alison is such an amazing activist,

661
00:29:47,994 --> 00:29:50,330
but I think
she is also a creature of habit

662
00:29:50,413 --> 00:29:51,623
and she's set in her ways.

663
00:29:51,706 --> 00:29:53,792
Let me see them instructions. [laughs]

664
00:29:54,375 --> 00:29:57,337
Old-school nuns would say, "You keep
the rule, and the rule will keep you,"

665
00:29:57,420 --> 00:29:59,923
meaning you follow the rules,
and you get to stay in.

666
00:30:00,006 --> 00:30:03,968
I want her to let go a little bit
and just open up more emotionally

667
00:30:04,052 --> 00:30:06,346
and see that it's okay
to learn new things.

668
00:30:06,429 --> 00:30:09,891
It's okay to try new things.
It's okay to make yourself vulnerable.

669
00:30:09,974 --> 00:30:12,060
[Alison] It's hard learning new things.

670
00:30:12,143 --> 00:30:13,728
[groans] Oh.

671
00:30:13,812 --> 00:30:16,105
This is a lot harder than… [laughs]

672
00:30:16,189 --> 00:30:20,527
[Bobby] Because she definitely thinks
she knows how she wants things

673
00:30:20,610 --> 00:30:22,779
and has a plan and has a label.

674
00:30:22,862 --> 00:30:26,199
-Look, I made a pitcher. [laughs]
-You made the Holy Grail!

675
00:30:26,282 --> 00:30:27,909
I still have a blob. [laughs]

676
00:30:27,992 --> 00:30:32,455
[Bobby] But I want Alison to realize
you can't control everything.

677
00:30:32,539 --> 00:30:35,875
[Alison] Oh no, she's sliding again.

678
00:30:35,959 --> 00:30:37,502
Oh, my sponge flew off.

679
00:30:37,585 --> 00:30:39,462
I think I'm gonna start over. Yeah.

680
00:30:39,546 --> 00:30:41,172
My wheel is just all wet.

681
00:30:42,048 --> 00:30:44,092
It's like air hockey.

682
00:30:44,175 --> 00:30:47,470
[Bobby] As you know, Karamo has set up
some meet-and-greets,

683
00:30:47,554 --> 00:30:52,517
and he's got another one
that's meeting us here,

684
00:30:52,600 --> 00:30:55,395
and I'm gonna let you teach them.

685
00:30:55,478 --> 00:30:57,313
I'm not feeling confident in this.

686
00:30:57,397 --> 00:31:00,233
I feel that I haven't seen
this side of you before.

687
00:31:00,316 --> 00:31:01,860
I haven't either! [laughs]

688
00:31:04,320 --> 00:31:05,196
[Gary] This looks fun.

689
00:31:05,280 --> 00:31:07,407
-[Alison] Have you ever made pottery?
-I have not.

690
00:31:07,907 --> 00:31:09,909
-[Bobby] Gary was in the service.
-[Alison] Okay.

691
00:31:09,993 --> 00:31:11,703
So he's all about service, like you are.

692
00:31:11,786 --> 00:31:13,454
-What branch of the military?
-[Gary] Army.

693
00:31:13,538 --> 00:31:15,790
My nephew, he just joined the Marines.

694
00:31:15,874 --> 00:31:18,042
[Bobby] Alison is very good
with organizing

695
00:31:18,126 --> 00:31:20,295
and putting everything in little boxes,

696
00:31:20,378 --> 00:31:24,883
but, after 14 years of being a nun
and two years of a pandemic,

697
00:31:24,966 --> 00:31:27,135
this is no-pressure fun.

698
00:31:27,218 --> 00:31:30,096
Just, "Hey, let's hang out
with somebody new."

699
00:31:30,179 --> 00:31:31,931
[Alison]
What were you doing in the military?

700
00:31:32,015 --> 00:31:35,685
I was an artilleryman originally,
and then I became an intelligence officer.

701
00:31:35,768 --> 00:31:36,603
[Alison] Okay.

702
00:31:36,686 --> 00:31:41,274
What do you think some of the biggest
challenges have been, just big picture?

703
00:31:41,357 --> 00:31:43,818
-Dating at, like, our age?
-Yeah.

704
00:31:44,694 --> 00:31:45,778
I would say it's just…

705
00:31:45,862 --> 00:31:49,032
You know, you have to allow yourself
to be vulnerable because…

706
00:31:49,115 --> 00:31:50,575
-To open up?
-Yeah, to open up.

707
00:31:50,658 --> 00:31:51,743
[Alison] And share.

708
00:31:51,826 --> 00:31:54,746
[Bobby] You have to be present
and in the moment,

709
00:31:54,829 --> 00:31:56,956
and that goes for meeting people too.

710
00:31:57,040 --> 00:32:00,168
If you feel a little spark, great!

711
00:32:00,251 --> 00:32:02,337
Maybe go on a real date later on.

712
00:32:02,420 --> 00:32:04,589
-Oh my God. Look at you.
-[Alison] Well, I don't know.

713
00:32:04,672 --> 00:32:08,092
-It's not what it's supposed be.
-I feel like I'm way behind at this point.

714
00:32:08,176 --> 00:32:10,094
-[Bobby] It has potential.
-[Gary laughs]

715
00:32:10,178 --> 00:32:11,596
This is going great.

716
00:32:12,096 --> 00:32:13,598
[Alison laughs]

717
00:32:15,350 --> 00:32:17,352
[upbeat piano music playing]

718
00:32:24,442 --> 00:32:27,070
-[Antoni] Just me and you.
-[Alison] This is gonna be a disaster!

719
00:32:27,153 --> 00:32:28,112
[laughing]

720
00:32:28,196 --> 00:32:30,031
Oh my gosh. I've never even…

721
00:32:30,114 --> 00:32:32,617
-You've never been behind a bar before?
-Of course not!

722
00:32:32,700 --> 00:32:34,953
Being back here, it reminds me of…

723
00:32:35,036 --> 00:32:38,164
So I worked as a waiter and a bartender.

724
00:32:38,247 --> 00:32:41,876
This was my life
for the entirety of my 20s,

725
00:32:41,960 --> 00:32:43,753
was, like, serving drinks.

726
00:32:43,836 --> 00:32:46,506
I love mixology,
but I'm really excited to do it with you.

727
00:32:46,589 --> 00:32:48,716
So welcome to Vessel.

728
00:32:51,427 --> 00:32:52,804
I wanted to bring you here

729
00:32:52,887 --> 00:32:56,182
because, um, you were telling me
earlier this week

730
00:32:56,265 --> 00:32:58,768
that it was like
this pub crawl-y situation

731
00:32:58,851 --> 00:33:02,271
where you had to go to different bars,
and you were kind of intimidated.

732
00:33:02,355 --> 00:33:03,648
Personally, I'm allergic,

733
00:33:03,731 --> 00:33:06,192
and I learned later in life
that I was very allergic,

734
00:33:06,275 --> 00:33:10,613
but it's still something
that I love to include when I entertain.

735
00:33:10,697 --> 00:33:13,282
If you wanna loosen up
and you wanna have a little cocktail

736
00:33:13,366 --> 00:33:17,453
before, you know, a little rendezvous
or a date or social gathering with friends

737
00:33:17,537 --> 00:33:18,871
or whatever it is,

738
00:33:18,955 --> 00:33:21,374
then you know you at least have one drink
you can fall back on.

739
00:33:21,457 --> 00:33:22,542
Okay.

740
00:33:22,625 --> 00:33:25,753
I think Alison spends so much time
focusing on other people

741
00:33:25,837 --> 00:33:27,255
and helping her community,

742
00:33:27,338 --> 00:33:30,883
it's like a certain part of her has just
kind of remained in the background

743
00:33:30,967 --> 00:33:32,969
and has been suppressed, if you will,

744
00:33:33,052 --> 00:33:37,181
but it's like she's been given permission
to exercise this part of her

745
00:33:37,265 --> 00:33:40,101
that's been kind of brushed aside
for a really long time,

746
00:33:40,184 --> 00:33:41,602
and she's finding it now.

747
00:33:41,686 --> 00:33:44,814
I'm a Polish boy,
so let's go for classic vodka.

748
00:33:44,897 --> 00:33:49,110
My sister really loves vodka,
um, with orange juice.

749
00:33:49,193 --> 00:33:51,195
Vodka-cranberry is really popular as well.

750
00:33:51,279 --> 00:33:53,031
Do you like cranberry juice?

751
00:33:53,114 --> 00:33:55,324
Can you ever mix
the cranberry and orange juice?

752
00:33:55,408 --> 00:33:56,784
Totally! This is your drink.

753
00:33:56,868 --> 00:33:58,661
[Alison]
Well, I do a lot of juicing at home.

754
00:33:58,745 --> 00:34:00,079
-I have a juicer.
-[Antoni] Got it.

755
00:34:00,163 --> 00:34:02,081
[Alison] And I do a lot of…
Yeah, I love juicing

756
00:34:02,165 --> 00:34:05,460
beets, carrots, turmeric from the garden.
I like making juices.

757
00:34:05,543 --> 00:34:08,921
-It's really pretty.
-It is pretty. It looks very tropical.

758
00:34:10,089 --> 00:34:12,258
Hmm. I like the flavors.

759
00:34:12,341 --> 00:34:13,885
And it's familiar to you.

760
00:34:13,968 --> 00:34:16,804
-Do you feel like we have a winner?
-I like this one the best.

761
00:34:16,888 --> 00:34:19,974
Vodka, cranberry, orange juice
with a wedge of lemon.

762
00:34:20,058 --> 00:34:22,727
There you go! We got it!
You have a drink now!

763
00:34:24,270 --> 00:34:27,398
I wanna know what you've learned
about yourself throughout the process.

764
00:34:27,482 --> 00:34:28,316
Uh…

765
00:34:29,233 --> 00:34:31,652
I'm like going so deep so quick.

766
00:34:31,736 --> 00:34:33,613
[Antoni] You feel like
you go so deep so quick?

767
00:34:33,696 --> 00:34:36,574
Yeah. Yeah.
It's something I need to work on. [laughs]

768
00:34:36,657 --> 00:34:40,119
I mean, I think
that's such a beautiful quality,

769
00:34:40,203 --> 00:34:43,539
and I think that
there's also a time and a place for it.

770
00:34:43,623 --> 00:34:46,292
You know what I mean?
If you, like, lead with that, it can--

771
00:34:46,375 --> 00:34:50,421
-Like, "Hey, ever been to death row?"
-Exactly. Like, that's a little…

772
00:34:50,505 --> 00:34:53,299
I mean, it's a hell of an icebreaker,
you know?

773
00:34:53,382 --> 00:34:55,510
It's really about the long game
with dating.

774
00:34:55,593 --> 00:34:58,596
You won't figure it out immediately.
You're gonna make a lot of mistakes.

775
00:34:58,679 --> 00:35:01,808
Speaking of meeting people, I have
a friend I was hoping you can meet.

776
00:35:01,891 --> 00:35:03,768
-Are you down?
-[Alison] I'm down for that.

777
00:35:03,851 --> 00:35:04,685
Yeah!

778
00:35:06,395 --> 00:35:08,648
[Antoni] I'm gonna be
your bartender today.

779
00:35:08,731 --> 00:35:11,025
-[Alison] Where are you from?
-Born and raised here.

780
00:35:11,109 --> 00:35:12,610
What kind of things are you into?

781
00:35:12,693 --> 00:35:14,112
Well, I'm a hairstylist.

782
00:35:14,195 --> 00:35:15,279
-Oh!
-[Ebony] Yes.

783
00:35:15,363 --> 00:35:16,823
-[Alison] Great hair.
-Thank you.

784
00:35:16,906 --> 00:35:22,036
I think with Alison, she's started to shed
all of these barriers and these layers.

785
00:35:22,120 --> 00:35:24,539
-So what about you?
-[Alison] I'm doing some writing.

786
00:35:24,622 --> 00:35:27,500
I do a lot, like, social-justice work
in the community.

787
00:35:27,583 --> 00:35:28,960
Is that what you're writing about?

788
00:35:29,043 --> 00:35:32,672
-Um, I was also a Catholic Sister before.
-Okay, good.

789
00:35:32,755 --> 00:35:34,590
So your faith it is important to you.

790
00:35:34,674 --> 00:35:35,633
-Awesome.
-Yeah.

791
00:35:35,716 --> 00:35:38,302
[Antoni] And that makes her
so much more interesting of a person.

792
00:35:38,386 --> 00:35:39,554
It's authenticity.

793
00:35:39,637 --> 00:35:41,722
-But I'm open, so…
-[Ebony] Yeah.

794
00:35:41,806 --> 00:35:45,810
I wouldn't say I'm super religious,
but I do believe in treating people well.

795
00:35:45,893 --> 00:35:47,687
The energy we put out into the world…

796
00:35:47,770 --> 00:35:49,939
-[Ebony] Absolutely.
-It's important. Yeah.

797
00:35:50,022 --> 00:35:53,109
Not that this is a competition,
but I do feel like she'll pick Ebony

798
00:35:53,192 --> 00:35:54,443
at the end of the week.

799
00:35:54,527 --> 00:35:55,570
[mouths]

800
00:35:55,653 --> 00:35:57,655
[upbeat music playing]

801
00:36:09,417 --> 00:36:11,878
♪ If you got it ♪

802
00:36:11,961 --> 00:36:13,921
♪ Don't let it go to waste ♪

803
00:36:14,005 --> 00:36:18,426
♪ Won't you let me have a taste? ♪

804
00:36:18,509 --> 00:36:20,887
-Hi! Come on over.
-[Alison laughs]

805
00:36:20,970 --> 00:36:22,972
Welcome to Sweet Olive.

806
00:36:23,055 --> 00:36:25,474
-[Alison] Thanks.
-[Jonathan] It's so cute here.

807
00:36:25,558 --> 00:36:29,061
We're just gonna snuggle over here, queen.
This is gonna be our station.

808
00:36:29,145 --> 00:36:33,316
I actually genuinely don't think that
Alison has ever slowed down long enough

809
00:36:33,399 --> 00:36:37,320
to realize how much of a positive impact
she's had on people's lives.

810
00:36:37,403 --> 00:36:40,781
I'm so excited to, like, make like Adele
and turn the table

811
00:36:40,865 --> 00:36:43,659
and get to focus on Alison
and celebrate her,

812
00:36:43,743 --> 00:36:45,036
because she does deserve it.

813
00:36:45,119 --> 00:36:49,957
You have beautiful waves.
Look at how gorgeous your waves are.

814
00:36:50,041 --> 00:36:54,462
Uh… I mean, I'd like it to look more full.
It just looks very thin and flat.

815
00:36:54,545 --> 00:36:56,714
[Jonathan] Even if your hair
is, like, finer, like yours,

816
00:36:56,797 --> 00:36:59,467
you definitely, like,
wanna use some product on it,

817
00:36:59,550 --> 00:37:01,928
and it's gonna look
so much fuller and fatter.

818
00:37:02,011 --> 00:37:04,138
When's the last time you did
an at-home haircut?

819
00:37:04,222 --> 00:37:05,306
Mmm…

820
00:37:05,389 --> 00:37:07,058
Probably eight or nine months ago?

821
00:37:07,141 --> 00:37:09,810
[Jonathan] I'm thinking, like, layers.

822
00:37:09,894 --> 00:37:12,104
Like a little shaggy, curly '70s vibe,
but long.

823
00:37:12,188 --> 00:37:15,233
-I'm doing the letting go.
-But it's going to be so full and pretty!

824
00:37:18,569 --> 00:37:21,030
And you're a lawyer.

825
00:37:21,113 --> 00:37:23,032
-[Alison] Yes.
-[Jonathan] A public defender?

826
00:37:23,115 --> 00:37:25,618
No, I represent people
who do civil disobedience.

827
00:37:25,701 --> 00:37:29,956
Yeah, so I do that. A lot of mediation,
restorative justice, conflict resolution.

828
00:37:30,039 --> 00:37:33,042
[Jonathan] What's your favorite part
about what you get to do?

829
00:37:33,125 --> 00:37:35,920
[Alison] Hmm.
I think listening to people's stories

830
00:37:36,003 --> 00:37:39,048
and finding these magical moments
where people can work together

831
00:37:39,131 --> 00:37:42,093
and find ways
where they can resolve their conflict

832
00:37:42,176 --> 00:37:45,596
where they didn't think they could,
where they were at each other's throats.

833
00:37:45,680 --> 00:37:47,598
[Jonathan] How long
will a mediation session take?

834
00:37:47,682 --> 00:37:50,977
We say, uh, "Mediators do it
till everyone is satisfied."

835
00:37:51,060 --> 00:37:52,895
[laughing]

836
00:37:52,979 --> 00:37:56,315
Ooh, so mediators
are good lovers, darling. I love it.

837
00:37:56,399 --> 00:37:58,901
-We do it till everyone is satisfied.
-[Jonathan] Oh, I love that.

838
00:37:58,985 --> 00:38:02,613
-So we have as many sessions as it takes.
-[Jonathan] Look at your gorgeous smile!

839
00:38:02,697 --> 00:38:04,031
♪ Make it golden ♪

840
00:38:06,575 --> 00:38:07,618
♪ Eh ♪

841
00:38:10,788 --> 00:38:12,039
[Alison] Mmm.

842
00:38:12,540 --> 00:38:13,666
[Jonathan] It's good, right?

843
00:38:14,333 --> 00:38:16,836
-So amazing.
-Yes.

844
00:38:16,919 --> 00:38:17,837
[Alison laughs]

845
00:38:22,550 --> 00:38:25,594
Wow. I feel so well taken care of.

846
00:38:25,678 --> 00:38:27,096
[Jonathan] Good!

847
00:38:27,179 --> 00:38:30,349
I'm just gonna go through your hair
after I have this product in it.

848
00:38:32,143 --> 00:38:34,020
Jonathan, I'm so grateful.

849
00:38:35,104 --> 00:38:38,316
[Jonathan] Ah.
I'm so grateful for the work that you do.

850
00:38:38,399 --> 00:38:39,358
[Alison laughs]

851
00:38:40,818 --> 00:38:42,903
[gentle music playing]

852
00:38:45,906 --> 00:38:47,950
[Jonathan] Oh my God, are you…
Oh my God, queen.

853
00:38:48,451 --> 00:38:51,579
Oh my God. I love you.
I'm sorry. I didn't… It's okay.

854
00:38:53,205 --> 00:38:57,626
No one's just ever given this… attention.
[chuckles]

855
00:38:57,710 --> 00:38:59,211
[Jonathan] Oh my God, honey.

856
00:39:00,421 --> 00:39:02,131
You're giving me chills on my thighs.

857
00:39:02,214 --> 00:39:05,051
Is this like the first time
you've slowed down enough

858
00:39:05,134 --> 00:39:07,428
to, like, feel something in a long time?

859
00:39:07,511 --> 00:39:08,888
To feel all this, yeah.

860
00:39:08,971 --> 00:39:10,222
-[Jonathan] Yeah.
-[Alison] Yeah.

861
00:39:10,306 --> 00:39:15,269
[Jonathan] Thanks for, like, letting me in
and embracing a little change moment.

862
00:39:15,353 --> 00:39:16,812
It's not easy.

863
00:39:17,730 --> 00:39:21,525
Alison has been in this place
of giving, giving, giving.

864
00:39:21,609 --> 00:39:25,738
She has not stopped
and received really any love for herself.

865
00:39:25,821 --> 00:39:30,368
It's been such a hard wall,
but I see that wall starting to crack.

866
00:39:30,451 --> 00:39:32,495
-Is it, like, grateful tears?
-No, it's good.

867
00:39:32,578 --> 00:39:33,412
[Jonathan] Okay.

868
00:39:34,038 --> 00:39:36,123
And I am seeing someone who is,

869
00:39:36,207 --> 00:39:38,751
for the first time
in maybe her whole life,

870
00:39:38,834 --> 00:39:41,128
taking the risk of connection.

871
00:39:42,630 --> 00:39:44,924
You deserve
to celebrate yourself sometimes.

872
00:39:45,007 --> 00:39:45,841
Thanks.

873
00:39:45,925 --> 00:39:48,010
[Jonathan] Doesn't have to be on my level

874
00:39:48,094 --> 00:39:51,138
'cause I see that I'm
on the very other end of the spectrum.

875
00:39:51,222 --> 00:39:53,516
I'm on-steroids celebrating of the self,

876
00:39:53,599 --> 00:39:56,769
but it's good for us to do it,
like, in a way that feels authentic to us.

877
00:39:56,852 --> 00:39:58,270
♪ Energy ascending ♪

878
00:39:58,771 --> 00:40:00,648
♪ Stellar explosion ♪

879
00:40:01,399 --> 00:40:02,817
♪ Vision got me peeking… ♪

880
00:40:03,526 --> 00:40:06,487
How do you feel about,
like, a brighter lip?

881
00:40:06,570 --> 00:40:09,740
We need to attract
the ladies, the gentlemen,

882
00:40:09,824 --> 00:40:13,202
the theys, the thems, the hes, the shes.
We're trying to attract everybody.

883
00:40:13,285 --> 00:40:16,789
I just feel like that smile on you,
honey, is, oh so pretty!

884
00:40:16,872 --> 00:40:20,835
So I'm just like, do we need
to put a little, like, color on there?

885
00:40:20,918 --> 00:40:22,253
You can try that.

886
00:40:22,336 --> 00:40:27,425
I'm obsessed with, like, "Operation
Alison Get Her Toes in the Dating Pool,"

887
00:40:27,508 --> 00:40:30,469
because I wanna see
what Alison's game is like.

888
00:40:30,553 --> 00:40:33,764
♪ Now we're ready, voltage steady ♪

889
00:40:33,848 --> 00:40:39,353
Basically, the trick is to use a darker
on the outside, lighter on the inside.

890
00:40:39,854 --> 00:40:41,063
You can go like this.

891
00:40:42,314 --> 00:40:43,482
And that'll blend.

892
00:40:43,566 --> 00:40:44,442
[Jonathan] Gorgeous!

893
00:40:45,693 --> 00:40:46,694
Oh my God.

894
00:40:47,528 --> 00:40:49,071
Am I biromantic now?

895
00:40:49,155 --> 00:40:50,448
[laughs]

896
00:40:51,407 --> 00:40:53,409
Okay, so I'm gonna show you the new you.
Ready?

897
00:40:53,492 --> 00:40:55,119
-[Alison] Don't know if I'm ready.
-Three--

898
00:40:55,202 --> 00:40:58,289
-[Alison laughs] I'm not ready!
-Three, two, one.

899
00:40:58,956 --> 00:41:00,541
Oh my God!

900
00:41:04,837 --> 00:41:06,005
Oh my God.

901
00:41:07,256 --> 00:41:10,468
-It looks like I have eyes now.
-You have full-on eyes.

902
00:41:10,968 --> 00:41:12,136
Wow.

903
00:41:12,219 --> 00:41:14,763
I love what you… Yeah, look at this hair.

904
00:41:14,847 --> 00:41:16,348
[Jonathan] It's pretty, right?

905
00:41:16,849 --> 00:41:18,476
-Yeah.
-[Jonathan] Do you like it?

906
00:41:18,559 --> 00:41:20,269
I love… I love it, yeah.

907
00:41:20,352 --> 00:41:22,271
You're amazing.

908
00:41:22,354 --> 00:41:26,233
So… let's do an experiment.

909
00:41:26,734 --> 00:41:29,195
-I have a…
-You have a friend too.

910
00:41:29,278 --> 00:41:31,322
So why don't we just meet my nice friend

911
00:41:31,405 --> 00:41:35,284
and see how you feel
about being Alison with eyelashes on

912
00:41:35,367 --> 00:41:36,660
after you meet them?

913
00:41:36,744 --> 00:41:37,745
Okay.

914
00:41:39,580 --> 00:41:42,166
Whoo! You look so good!

915
00:41:42,249 --> 00:41:43,626
That's very kind of you.

916
00:41:43,709 --> 00:41:44,793
-Yeah.
-Very nice.

917
00:41:44,877 --> 00:41:50,341
Alison is a gorgeous biromantic woman
in the millennium,

918
00:41:50,424 --> 00:41:54,386
and her sexuality was in the Sahara.

919
00:41:54,470 --> 00:41:56,722
-What kind of lawyer are you?
-Social justice movement.

920
00:41:56,805 --> 00:41:59,058
Oh my God.
That's so cool that you do that.

921
00:41:59,141 --> 00:42:02,228
That's my work, but I like
to do fun things too that aren't work.

922
00:42:02,311 --> 00:42:05,314
And now we're in an oasis of love.

923
00:42:05,397 --> 00:42:07,399
-Like what?
-I love paddling. I have a kayak.

924
00:42:07,483 --> 00:42:09,818
-[Pierce] Me too!
-And camping, and like…

925
00:42:09,902 --> 00:42:10,945
I love fishing.

926
00:42:11,570 --> 00:42:12,863
[Pierce] Me too!

927
00:42:13,364 --> 00:42:20,204
-Honey, I am seeing sparks fly. Ah!
-I think we're probably on the same page.

928
00:42:22,289 --> 00:42:24,750
♪ If you want it, come and give it up ♪

929
00:42:24,833 --> 00:42:26,835
♪ That's how you gonna get my love ♪

930
00:42:26,919 --> 00:42:29,296
♪ Don't let it get carried away ♪

931
00:42:29,380 --> 00:42:30,256
[keyboard clacking]

932
00:42:30,339 --> 00:42:32,633
♪ If you want it, come and give it up ♪

933
00:42:32,716 --> 00:42:34,760
♪ That's how you gonna get my love ♪

934
00:42:34,843 --> 00:42:37,096
♪ Go on, get carried away! ♪

935
00:42:43,727 --> 00:42:44,770
[horn honks]

936
00:42:44,853 --> 00:42:47,731
-They're here, everyone! They're here!
-[Bobby] Oh, coming!

937
00:42:47,815 --> 00:42:49,358
[Jonathan] Ooh!

938
00:42:49,441 --> 00:42:50,734
[Karamo] Come on!

939
00:42:50,818 --> 00:42:52,111
[Antoni vocalizing]

940
00:42:52,194 --> 00:42:53,404
-Ready for it?
-I think so.

941
00:42:53,487 --> 00:42:56,532
-Let's go make sure the kids are up.
-[guys] Hi!

942
00:42:56,615 --> 00:42:58,200
I didn't crash the car!

943
00:42:58,284 --> 00:43:00,286
-[guys cheer]
-Good job, Tan.

944
00:43:00,869 --> 00:43:02,538
-[Bobby] Okay. Are you ready?
-[Alison] Yes!

945
00:43:02,621 --> 00:43:03,747
[Bobby] Okay. Come on in.

946
00:43:03,872 --> 00:43:07,459
Oh my gosh! [laughs]

947
00:43:07,543 --> 00:43:08,419
What?

948
00:43:08,502 --> 00:43:10,004
[bright music playing]

949
00:43:10,087 --> 00:43:12,131
-This is your new chapel.
-Oh my God.

950
00:43:14,592 --> 00:43:16,594
[crying] This is awesome.

951
00:43:18,095 --> 00:43:19,471
Oh my God! [laughs]

952
00:43:19,555 --> 00:43:21,181
-This is a happy cry, yes?
-[Alison] Yes.

953
00:43:21,265 --> 00:43:23,225
Okay, yay. [laughs]

954
00:43:23,309 --> 00:43:24,685
Oh my God! [laughs]

955
00:43:24,768 --> 00:43:27,438
-I love the wall.
-[Bobby] Texture accent wall.

956
00:43:27,521 --> 00:43:28,856
Oh my gosh.

957
00:43:28,939 --> 00:43:32,860
I wanted to give you a spot where you
could have your moments and do your art,

958
00:43:32,943 --> 00:43:35,904
and I wanted to separate church and sex.

959
00:43:35,988 --> 00:43:37,406
Okay. [laughs]

960
00:43:37,489 --> 00:43:40,034
[Bobby] This is your chapel.
This is church.

961
00:43:40,117 --> 00:43:42,828
-Oh my gosh.
-Isn't that such a nice feeling?

962
00:43:42,911 --> 00:43:44,038
This is incredible.

963
00:43:44,121 --> 00:43:45,497
[Bobby] You ready to see more?

964
00:43:45,581 --> 00:43:46,457
[Alison] I think so.

965
00:43:47,249 --> 00:43:50,002
Whoa! [laughs]

966
00:43:50,085 --> 00:43:52,087
-This is awesome.
-[Tan] So nice.

967
00:43:52,171 --> 00:43:53,631
All right, everybody.

968
00:43:53,714 --> 00:43:56,258
Oh my God! [laughs]

969
00:43:56,342 --> 00:43:57,760
My bedroom!

970
00:43:59,219 --> 00:44:01,430
Look at the wall! Look at the curtains!

971
00:44:01,513 --> 00:44:05,851
[Bobby] We got you an Avocado mattress,
because it's sustainable and organic.

972
00:44:05,934 --> 00:44:08,854
-I know how important that is to you.
-[Jonathan] Yes, queen!

973
00:44:09,521 --> 00:44:10,814
It's incredible.

974
00:44:11,357 --> 00:44:12,316
Oh my gosh.

975
00:44:13,233 --> 00:44:14,777
[Tan] And I love the chest of drawers.

976
00:44:14,860 --> 00:44:17,738
-[Alison] Yeah.
-[Karamo] Will you still label these?

977
00:44:17,821 --> 00:44:20,991
[Alison] No. I think labels will make 'em
not look so pretty.

978
00:44:21,075 --> 00:44:22,785
Wow! And look at this light.

979
00:44:23,369 --> 00:44:24,495
[Bobby] It's pretty, eh?

980
00:44:25,329 --> 00:44:30,376
So now, you've got
your own little office in here.

981
00:44:30,459 --> 00:44:33,295
-[Alison] Oh my gosh! Wow.
-[Tan] It feels really calming.

982
00:44:33,379 --> 00:44:34,505
[laughs]

983
00:44:35,172 --> 00:44:39,635
[Bobby] We got you a brand-new Microsoft
computer with their Microsoft 365

984
00:44:39,718 --> 00:44:41,804
so you can write your memoir.

985
00:44:41,887 --> 00:44:42,888
[Karamo] Good job, Bob.

986
00:44:42,971 --> 00:44:44,807
[Alison] "Alison's Next Chapter."

987
00:44:44,890 --> 00:44:46,350
This is incredible.

988
00:44:46,433 --> 00:44:49,019
-So beautiful, Bobby. Thank you.
-Thank you.

989
00:44:51,271 --> 00:44:53,565
Oh my gosh. Look how bright it is!

990
00:44:53,649 --> 00:44:55,275
Look how big it looks!

991
00:44:55,359 --> 00:44:57,486
[Tan] Good! We got a bunch of dresses

992
00:44:57,569 --> 00:45:00,698
that will hopefully
make you feel beautiful!

993
00:45:00,781 --> 00:45:01,615
Wow, Tan.

994
00:45:01,699 --> 00:45:05,744
And then we got a bunch of tops
that are a little more low cut,

995
00:45:05,828 --> 00:45:07,579
but when they are busy like this,

996
00:45:07,663 --> 00:45:10,499
it's gonna do
what you're wanting to achieve.

997
00:45:10,582 --> 00:45:13,460
You are fun.
Like, you're so giggly and playful.

998
00:45:13,544 --> 00:45:15,629
I want your clothes to be fun also.

999
00:45:16,130 --> 00:45:18,132
[Jonathan] I've never been
so nervous in my life.

1000
00:45:18,215 --> 00:45:19,717
Kids! You ready?

1001
00:45:19,800 --> 00:45:21,343
-Yeah!
-Yeah, we are!

1002
00:45:21,427 --> 00:45:23,262
I've got a new friend.

1003
00:45:23,345 --> 00:45:25,180
Who's your new friend, Tanny?

1004
00:45:25,264 --> 00:45:27,015
This is Alison 2.0.

1005
00:45:27,099 --> 00:45:28,308
Right. Alison!

1006
00:45:28,392 --> 00:45:30,436
-[Alison] Yeah!
-[Tan] Won't you join us, my love?

1007
00:45:31,019 --> 00:45:33,480
-[Antoni] What?!
-Oh my gosh!

1008
00:45:33,564 --> 00:45:35,274
-[laughing]
-[guys] Wow!

1009
00:45:35,357 --> 00:45:36,900
-[Jonathan] Look at that!
-[Karamo] Cute!

1010
00:45:36,984 --> 00:45:40,070
You really navigated those stairs well!

1011
00:45:40,154 --> 00:45:41,989
[Alison] I'm working on it.

1012
00:45:42,072 --> 00:45:44,950
[Tan] Alison
doesn't look like Sister Alison anymore.

1013
00:45:45,033 --> 00:45:46,535
-[guys] No!
-[Alison] I have a body.

1014
00:45:46,618 --> 00:45:48,287
And this stuff, it's just life-changing.

1015
00:45:48,370 --> 00:45:50,622
I could see wearing this,
walking into an event,

1016
00:45:50,706 --> 00:45:52,583
walking out of an event, going on a date.

1017
00:45:52,666 --> 00:45:54,084
You're working it.

1018
00:45:54,168 --> 00:45:56,795
We still got it, Tan,
after all these years!

1019
00:45:56,879 --> 00:45:58,422
Ah!

1020
00:45:58,505 --> 00:46:00,674
[Antoni] We're too far.
Can we get closer to you?

1021
00:46:00,758 --> 00:46:06,472
So, Alison, this has been, I know,
a shockingly unique week for you.

1022
00:46:07,055 --> 00:46:09,933
I've grown a lot this week,
and you really pushed me.

1023
00:46:10,017 --> 00:46:13,270
Like, each of you really, really pushed me
and made me uncomfortable

1024
00:46:13,353 --> 00:46:16,064
and, like, helped me grow
through that discomfort.

1025
00:46:16,148 --> 00:46:18,442
[Karamo] When we first walked in,
you were like,

1026
00:46:18,525 --> 00:46:21,403
"This is what it's gonna be.
This is how I'm gonna label it,"

1027
00:46:21,487 --> 00:46:23,572
and then you just let your guard down.

1028
00:46:23,655 --> 00:46:25,783
You helped me, like,
notice my feelings more.

1029
00:46:25,866 --> 00:46:30,037
I can be analytical, and that's good
for a lot of the work I do,

1030
00:46:30,120 --> 00:46:32,790
but I can't bring that
in, like, my personal relationships.

1031
00:46:32,873 --> 00:46:35,125
-Amen. Love that.
-You gave me some good language.

1032
00:46:35,209 --> 00:46:36,335
And I'm really grateful.

1033
00:46:36,919 --> 00:46:40,589
I just feel so much more confident
and comfortable.

1034
00:46:40,672 --> 00:46:41,799
[Karamo] Which leads me to…

1035
00:46:41,882 --> 00:46:44,009
Tonight I want you to choose someone
you met this week

1036
00:46:44,092 --> 00:46:46,345
so that you can have a moment to have fun.

1037
00:46:46,428 --> 00:46:48,680
[Jonathan] I've never been
so nervous in my life.

1038
00:46:49,932 --> 00:46:52,184
Was there one person in particular
that you felt like,

1039
00:46:52,267 --> 00:46:54,895
"Oh, okay. I could go
for a drink with that person?"

1040
00:46:55,395 --> 00:46:57,940
-And this is not the pressure of a date.
-Yeah. No.

1041
00:46:58,023 --> 00:47:00,067
-It's just…
-Just a hangout.

1042
00:47:00,150 --> 00:47:01,068
Maybe.

1043
00:47:01,151 --> 00:47:02,611
-Yeah, maybe?
-[Alison laughs]

1044
00:47:02,694 --> 00:47:04,571
Well, then we won't press you anymore.

1045
00:47:04,655 --> 00:47:05,823
-Okay.
-We love you.

1046
00:47:05,906 --> 00:47:07,324
-I love y'all.
-[Jonathan] Yeah!

1047
00:47:07,407 --> 00:47:10,661
-[Bobby] We're huggers.
-[Jonathan] We're Tan's biceps! Yay.

1048
00:47:10,744 --> 00:47:12,412
-[Alison laughs]
-[Bobby] That's nice!

1049
00:47:12,496 --> 00:47:14,623
♪ A tip to always go ♪

1050
00:47:15,290 --> 00:47:18,126
♪ Now get up, follow my lead, yeah ♪

1051
00:47:18,210 --> 00:47:21,046
♪ What you really need to know ♪

1052
00:47:21,129 --> 00:47:23,715
♪ Is feeling good is what I need ♪

1053
00:47:24,383 --> 00:47:26,760
♪ 'Cause I'm not what you got ♪

1054
00:47:27,344 --> 00:47:28,720
♪ What you got is guaranteed… ♪

1055
00:47:28,804 --> 00:47:31,056
[Jonathan] I say, "Demi."
You say, "Sexual!"

1056
00:47:31,139 --> 00:47:32,558
-Demi!
-[Antoni] Sexual!

1057
00:47:32,641 --> 00:47:33,725
-[Jonathan] Demi!
-Sexual!

1058
00:47:33,809 --> 00:47:38,480
I don't know about you, but I am pretty
sure that Alison is gonna choose Gary.

1059
00:47:38,564 --> 00:47:40,524
Ebony. I'm very confident.

1060
00:47:40,607 --> 00:47:42,359
-Gary.
-[Antoni] She's gonna choose Ebony.

1061
00:47:42,442 --> 00:47:44,528
It's Ebony! She's picking Ebony.

1062
00:47:44,611 --> 00:47:46,613
-Peirce.
-Gary. Gary. Gary. Gary. Gary. Gary.

1063
00:47:46,697 --> 00:47:48,282
I think Paige was pretty special.

1064
00:47:48,365 --> 00:47:50,367
-Shall we go see?
-[guys] Yeah!

1065
00:47:51,118 --> 00:47:52,953
She's gonna choose Paige!

1066
00:47:53,036 --> 00:47:55,289
Let's see what she's got going on.

1067
00:47:58,834 --> 00:48:00,502
[Tan] I love
that she's exploring her closet

1068
00:48:00,586 --> 00:48:03,547
and hopefully gonna choose something
that's more age appropriate.

1069
00:48:04,047 --> 00:48:06,341
Also date appropriate.
She wants to look cute on the date.

1070
00:48:06,425 --> 00:48:07,384
-Yeah.
-Yeah.

1071
00:48:09,052 --> 00:48:10,137
[Tan] Love the yellow.

1072
00:48:10,220 --> 00:48:13,056
-The yellow looks really good on her.
-[Tan] Great. She chose a jean!

1073
00:48:13,140 --> 00:48:14,391
[Jonathan] Tan, controversial.

1074
00:48:14,474 --> 00:48:17,144
How do you feel
about a full tuck versus a French tuck?

1075
00:48:17,227 --> 00:48:21,982
-Are you triggered? Are you feeling good?
-This one makes sense for a full tuck.

1076
00:48:22,065 --> 00:48:23,984
Get him smelling salts! He might pass out!

1077
00:48:25,485 --> 00:48:27,070
[Tan] Ooh, she looks great!

1078
00:48:27,905 --> 00:48:29,239
[Bobby] So good.

1079
00:48:29,323 --> 00:48:30,824
[Jonathan] Honey, Jesus loves jeans.

1080
00:48:30,908 --> 00:48:32,117
[guys laugh]

1081
00:48:32,200 --> 00:48:33,744
♪ Dun, dun, dun, dun ♪

1082
00:48:33,827 --> 00:48:35,454
♪ Dun, dun, dun, dun ♪

1083
00:48:35,537 --> 00:48:37,039
♪ Da, da, da, da ♪

1084
00:48:37,122 --> 00:48:39,207
♪ I like the way that you're look at me ♪

1085
00:48:39,291 --> 00:48:41,752
♪ I like the way it falls in between ♪

1086
00:48:42,252 --> 00:48:44,630
♪ Getting lost, get lost in me ♪

1087
00:48:45,213 --> 00:48:47,883
♪ Take a ride
And you'll start to believe… ♪

1088
00:48:47,966 --> 00:48:49,635
-Who's she gonna pick?
-She'll choose Paige.

1089
00:48:49,718 --> 00:48:52,429
-Is it gonna be my person?
-[Tan] Come on, Paige. Come on, Paige.

1090
00:48:52,512 --> 00:48:53,764
[Antoni] Who's coming out?

1091
00:48:53,847 --> 00:48:55,724
Who is it? I'm dying!

1092
00:48:56,558 --> 00:48:59,269
♪ Dun, dun, da, da, da, da ♪

1093
00:49:06,652 --> 00:49:07,945
[Tan] Oh!

1094
00:49:08,028 --> 00:49:09,863
-It's my girl, Paige!
-[Karamo] She's beautiful.

1095
00:49:09,947 --> 00:49:10,948
-Paige!
-I knew it!

1096
00:49:11,031 --> 00:49:12,491
-[Paige] Hey,
-Hi, Paige.

1097
00:49:12,574 --> 00:49:16,203
How are you? Good to see you again.
Thanks for coming.

1098
00:49:16,286 --> 00:49:18,747
I gave her those highlights for nothing!

1099
00:49:18,830 --> 00:49:19,915
[laughs]

1100
00:49:19,998 --> 00:49:22,793
-Look at you in pants.
-I'm getting used to wearing pants.

1101
00:49:22,876 --> 00:49:23,961
[Antoni] Paige is cute.

1102
00:49:24,044 --> 00:49:25,545
-Paige is really cute.
-Yeah.

1103
00:49:25,629 --> 00:49:27,255
-I like the tattoos.
-Me too.

1104
00:49:27,339 --> 00:49:29,925
She really seemed to like Alison.
She seemed respectful.

1105
00:49:30,008 --> 00:49:32,094
So how was… So how was drag day?

1106
00:49:32,177 --> 00:49:34,638
-It was good. I had a lot of fun.
-Uh-huh.

1107
00:49:34,721 --> 00:49:36,306
-Yeah.
-Thank you very much.|

1108
00:49:36,390 --> 00:49:37,975
[waiter] What would you like to drink?

1109
00:49:38,058 --> 00:49:42,938
Can you do a orange juice and cranberry
with vodka?

1110
00:49:43,021 --> 00:49:45,107
-Yeah, sure. Of course.
-Yes!

1111
00:49:45,190 --> 00:49:46,817
You look great. Cute dress.

1112
00:49:46,900 --> 00:49:49,403
I normally am, like, denim and a T-shirt.

1113
00:49:49,486 --> 00:49:50,946
-And you're good to go.
-Yeah.

1114
00:49:51,029 --> 00:49:54,533
The way they're smiling at each other,
the way Alison is engaging, is lovely.

1115
00:49:54,616 --> 00:49:56,702
-She seems open.
-[Karamo] Yeah, she seems very open.

1116
00:49:56,785 --> 00:49:59,204
The fact that she's now
just letting someone be

1117
00:49:59,287 --> 00:50:01,790
and not expecting them
to meet all these things,

1118
00:50:01,873 --> 00:50:03,834
that's why she's open
to having a good time.

1119
00:50:03,917 --> 00:50:07,129
And wherever this goes, like,
as long as she's getting the reps in,

1120
00:50:07,212 --> 00:50:08,964
I think that's incredibly important.

1121
00:50:09,047 --> 00:50:10,882
-Yes.
-Good dates, bad dates, all of them.

1122
00:50:10,966 --> 00:50:13,135
[Alison] I've grown a lot this week.

1123
00:50:13,218 --> 00:50:14,553
Just, like letting go

1124
00:50:14,636 --> 00:50:19,057
and just knowing that, like, I'm capable
of learning how to receive love

1125
00:50:19,599 --> 00:50:21,727
in addition to always giving it.

1126
00:50:21,810 --> 00:50:24,855
Everyone should feel worthy
of treating themselves well

1127
00:50:24,938 --> 00:50:26,189
and loving themselves.

1128
00:50:26,273 --> 00:50:29,359
I mean, the whole dating thing
is still all, like, really new to me.

1129
00:50:29,443 --> 00:50:32,362
Do you need, like,
a welcome manual or anything?

1130
00:50:32,446 --> 00:50:35,907
A welcome manual. That would be awesome!
Can you write a welcome manual for me?

1131
00:50:35,991 --> 00:50:39,369
Do you need a sponsor?
I can assign a lesbian sponsor for you.

1132
00:50:39,453 --> 00:50:42,914
[Alison] That would be awesome.
I will gladly take a manual.

1133
00:50:42,998 --> 00:50:44,374
[laughs]

1134
00:50:44,458 --> 00:50:46,168
The thing I hope most for Alison,

1135
00:50:46,251 --> 00:50:48,503
as she starts this new chapter
in her life,

1136
00:50:48,587 --> 00:50:52,382
is that she's present
and open to the moment.

1137
00:50:52,466 --> 00:50:54,926
And to lead with her heart
and not just her mind.

1138
00:50:55,010 --> 00:50:57,596
[Antoni] By putting her guard down,
whenever she meets somebody,

1139
00:50:57,679 --> 00:51:00,849
whether it's romantic,
professional, personal,

1140
00:51:00,932 --> 00:51:03,602
it allows you to just go in
and learn something about them.

1141
00:51:03,685 --> 00:51:06,855
You might learn something about yourself
in the process as well.

1142
00:51:06,938 --> 00:51:08,982
So, for all the Alisons of the world,

1143
00:51:09,066 --> 00:51:12,944
I hope you take a beat
to restore your heart and soul.

1144
00:51:13,028 --> 00:51:14,946
[Alison laughs] Cheers.

1145
00:51:15,030 --> 00:51:20,077
-[Bobby] We're just little matchmakers.
-To being open to opportunity and love.

1146
00:51:20,160 --> 00:51:21,328
To surviving rejection!

1147
00:51:21,411 --> 00:51:22,954
[Bobby laughs]

1148
00:51:23,038 --> 00:51:24,623
[Jonathan] To Peirce! Yes.

1149
00:51:24,706 --> 00:51:26,208
[guys laugh]

1150
00:51:26,291 --> 00:51:27,375
[Jonathan] To Peirce.

1151
00:51:27,459 --> 00:51:29,461
[upbeat drum music playing]

1152
00:51:34,174 --> 00:51:36,802
Welcome to the Sazerac House,

1153
00:51:36,885 --> 00:51:39,054
home of the Sazerac cocktail,

1154
00:51:39,137 --> 00:51:41,681
a New Orleans tradition since the 1800s.

1155
00:51:42,182 --> 00:51:44,184
So you start with two rocks glasses.

1156
00:51:44,768 --> 00:51:47,187
In the first glass, add ice

1157
00:51:47,854 --> 00:51:49,689
and set aside to chill.

1158
00:51:49,773 --> 00:51:50,774
In the second glass,

1159
00:51:50,857 --> 00:51:54,277
add two to three dashes
of Peychaud's bitters

1160
00:51:54,361 --> 00:51:58,073
to a crushed sugar cube
or one teaspoon of simple syrup.

1161
00:52:02,536 --> 00:52:05,539
Add a jigger of Sazerac rye whiskey.

1162
00:52:06,373 --> 00:52:07,374
Add some ice.

1163
00:52:08,083 --> 00:52:09,292
And stir.

1164
00:52:10,961 --> 00:52:14,339
In the chilled glass,
rinse with a splash of Herbsaint,

1165
00:52:14,422 --> 00:52:17,843
or if you prefer,
you can use its cousin, absinthe.

1166
00:52:19,302 --> 00:52:21,429
And, finally, end with a twist.

1167
00:52:22,180 --> 00:52:25,100
The Sazerac, a New Orleans original.

1168
00:52:25,976 --> 00:52:26,852
Santé.

1169
00:52:27,853 --> 00:52:30,438
["When the Saints Go Marching In" playing]