1 00:00:02,153 --> 00:00:04,416 ♪ Hey, yah, oh, hey, yah 2 00:00:04,460 --> 00:00:06,070 ♪ Hey, yah, oh, hey, yah 3 00:00:06,114 --> 00:00:07,724 ♪ Bring it on 4 00:00:07,767 --> 00:00:08,725 ♪ Hard time come 5 00:00:08,768 --> 00:00:10,118 ♪ That was nothing now 6 00:00:10,161 --> 00:00:11,858 ♪ Ooh, how you like it now? 7 00:00:11,902 --> 00:00:14,252 ♪ Bring it on 8 00:00:14,296 --> 00:00:15,906 ♪ Yeah-ah-ah-ah-ah 9 00:00:15,949 --> 00:00:19,562 ♪ Ahhh-ahh-ahh-ahh 10 00:00:19,605 --> 00:00:21,520 ♪ Bad days, rat race 11 00:00:21,564 --> 00:00:24,349 ♪ Mud in the face days, scream and shout ♪ 12 00:00:24,393 --> 00:00:25,916 ♪ Trying to take you out 13 00:00:25,959 --> 00:00:30,181 ♪ Oh, I can make it louder than thunder ♪ 14 00:00:30,225 --> 00:00:33,489 ♪ When you go down, who you come to? ♪ 15 00:00:33,532 --> 00:00:35,012 ♪ Bring it on 16 00:00:35,056 --> 00:00:36,274 ♪ Hard time come 17 00:00:36,318 --> 00:00:37,710 ♪ That was nothing now 18 00:00:37,754 --> 00:00:39,756 ♪ Ooh, how you like it now? 19 00:00:39,799 --> 00:00:41,627 ♪ Bring it on 20 00:00:41,671 --> 00:00:44,021 ♪ Yeah-ah-ah-ah-ah 21 00:00:44,065 --> 00:00:47,416 ♪ Ahhh-ahh-ahh 22 00:00:47,459 --> 00:00:50,767 ♪ Hey, yah, oh, hey, yah 23 00:00:50,810 --> 00:00:52,769 ♪ Hey, yah, one more time 24 00:00:52,812 --> 00:00:55,119 ♪ Bring it on 25 00:00:55,163 --> 00:00:57,208 [ Doors slam ] 26 00:00:57,252 --> 00:01:00,255 Maya: I know it's been a long night, team, 27 00:01:00,298 --> 00:01:02,039 and we have a long shift ahead of us, 28 00:01:02,083 --> 00:01:03,519 but I want you all to know that --Diane. 29 00:01:03,562 --> 00:01:06,565 Jack. Don't worry. 30 00:01:06,609 --> 00:01:07,958 I got a rapid test this morning, 31 00:01:08,001 --> 00:01:09,307 so I'm clean as a whistle. 32 00:01:09,351 --> 00:01:10,917 Uh, what are y-- What is she -- 33 00:01:10,961 --> 00:01:12,658 I asked her to come. 34 00:01:12,702 --> 00:01:14,660 There's been a death, and you are all grieving, 35 00:01:14,704 --> 00:01:16,097 so I asked her to come. 36 00:01:18,838 --> 00:01:20,884 I'm sorr-- You me-- [ Stammers ] 37 00:01:20,927 --> 00:01:22,798 You talking about George Floyd?Dean: You brought in a therapist 38 00:01:22,842 --> 00:01:25,149 to help us process the death of George Floyd? 39 00:01:25,193 --> 00:01:27,108 I did. 40 00:01:27,151 --> 00:01:29,327 I feel powerless to help, 41 00:01:29,371 --> 00:01:31,721 and this felt like something I could do. 42 00:01:31,764 --> 00:01:35,116 Diane: There are not many fire captains 43 00:01:35,159 --> 00:01:37,988 who would treat a moment of national crisis 44 00:01:38,030 --> 00:01:40,295 like an internal tragedy, and your captain is. 45 00:01:40,338 --> 00:01:42,297 I respect it, 46 00:01:42,340 --> 00:01:45,909 so I'm honored to be here to help however I can. 47 00:01:45,952 --> 00:01:48,694 I don't need you to talk about Mr. Floyd. 48 00:01:48,738 --> 00:01:50,740 I'm not gonna make you talk to me at all. 49 00:01:50,783 --> 00:01:52,437 This isn't mandatory. 50 00:01:52,481 --> 00:01:55,397 I'm just here if you need me. 51 00:01:57,486 --> 00:01:59,227 [ Door opens ] 52 00:01:59,270 --> 00:02:05,276 ♪♪ 53 00:02:05,320 --> 00:02:07,626 [ Doors close ] 54 00:02:07,670 --> 00:02:15,199 ♪♪ 55 00:02:15,243 --> 00:02:22,424 ♪♪ 56 00:02:22,467 --> 00:02:24,817 [ Breathing shakily ] 57 00:02:24,861 --> 00:02:26,819 ♪♪ 58 00:02:26,862 --> 00:02:28,647 [ Breathes deeply ] 59 00:02:28,691 --> 00:02:33,652 ♪♪ 60 00:02:39,267 --> 00:02:41,660 [ Ringing ] 61 00:02:41,704 --> 00:02:44,141 Carina: You're bold, and you're trying. 62 00:02:44,185 --> 00:02:46,709 Right or wrong, you tried something today. 63 00:02:46,752 --> 00:02:48,927 You tried something to help. 64 00:02:48,972 --> 00:02:50,756 Thank you. 65 00:02:50,800 --> 00:02:52,193 I love you. 66 00:02:54,847 --> 00:02:55,631 [ Cellphone beeps ] 67 00:03:05,554 --> 00:03:07,860 How do you do it? I mean, how do you -- 68 00:03:07,904 --> 00:03:10,341 I-I-I know you have to be as shaken up as I am, 69 00:03:10,385 --> 00:03:11,647 so how do you -- 70 00:03:11,690 --> 00:03:12,648 How do I do my job?Well, yeah. 71 00:03:12,691 --> 00:03:14,563 You fought a fire this morning. 72 00:03:14,606 --> 00:03:16,129 How did you do it? 73 00:03:16,173 --> 00:03:19,829 I pushed my pain aside and did what had to be done. 74 00:03:19,872 --> 00:03:20,873 Same. 75 00:03:22,179 --> 00:03:24,137 I saw what happened to Dean Miller. 76 00:03:24,181 --> 00:03:26,009 He's suing the police department, 77 00:03:26,052 --> 00:03:27,706 and he's right to do it. 78 00:03:27,749 --> 00:03:29,360 But? 79 00:03:29,404 --> 00:03:31,100 [ Clears throat ] 80 00:03:31,144 --> 00:03:33,495 But, uh -- uh, it -- it makes me uncomfortable. 81 00:03:33,538 --> 00:03:35,279 Because he's a firefighter 82 00:03:35,323 --> 00:03:37,020 and we're supposed to shut up and look pretty? 83 00:03:37,063 --> 00:03:38,761 No, because when the police 84 00:03:38,804 --> 00:03:40,850 made me lie down on the street like an animal 85 00:03:40,893 --> 00:03:42,286 during a routine traffic stop -- 86 00:03:42,330 --> 00:03:44,810 You didn't sue. 87 00:03:44,854 --> 00:03:47,683 I didn't do much of anything at all. 88 00:03:47,725 --> 00:03:51,076 ♪♪ 89 00:03:51,121 --> 00:03:54,080 I did yell, you know, whi-- which was... 90 00:03:54,124 --> 00:03:55,691 ♪♪ 91 00:03:55,734 --> 00:03:59,260 [ Sirens wailing ] 92 00:03:59,302 --> 00:04:01,566 ♪♪ 93 00:04:01,610 --> 00:04:04,090 I feel like a hypocrite. 94 00:04:04,134 --> 00:04:06,571 A hypocrite? Yeah. I have two kids. 95 00:04:06,615 --> 00:04:08,704 I have a new son since we last spoke. 96 00:04:08,747 --> 00:04:10,488 Congratulations. Thanks. 97 00:04:10,532 --> 00:04:12,577 You get any sleep?Well, he's 18, so, you know... 98 00:04:12,621 --> 00:04:14,144 Oh. 99 00:04:14,187 --> 00:04:15,580 While I'm not losing sleep because of him -- 100 00:04:15,624 --> 00:04:16,886 You're losing sleep overhim. 101 00:04:16,929 --> 00:04:19,192 Yeah. 102 00:04:19,235 --> 00:04:21,107 Anyway, m-my wife and I, we -- 103 00:04:21,151 --> 00:04:22,544 we gave "the talk" 104 00:04:22,587 --> 00:04:24,850 and explained that young Black men 105 00:04:24,894 --> 00:04:26,678 don't get to behave any old way they want 106 00:04:26,722 --> 00:04:28,332 when dealing with the police. 107 00:04:28,376 --> 00:04:31,379 We told them to do whatever it took to get home safe. 108 00:04:31,422 --> 00:04:33,903 But when Ihad a run-in with the police myself, 109 00:04:33,946 --> 00:04:37,167 I -- I-I yelled at that officer 110 00:04:37,210 --> 00:04:40,126 as he got into his car. 111 00:04:40,170 --> 00:04:42,694 I mean, if my boys had yelled at a cop like that, I -- 112 00:04:42,738 --> 00:04:44,305 You'd be upset with them? 113 00:04:44,348 --> 00:04:45,871 Well, hell, yes, I'd be upset! 114 00:04:45,915 --> 00:04:48,657 I'd...[ Sighs ] 115 00:04:48,700 --> 00:04:50,833 But I'd also be proud. 116 00:04:50,876 --> 00:04:52,530 U-- Because they'd be right. 117 00:04:52,574 --> 00:04:53,401 You know, I was right. 118 00:04:53,444 --> 00:04:54,967 Miller was right. 119 00:04:55,011 --> 00:04:56,404 But y-you can't do that. 120 00:04:56,447 --> 00:04:58,362 You can't yell at a cop because, you know, w-- 121 00:04:58,406 --> 00:04:59,581 because they've got a gun, you know? 122 00:04:59,624 --> 00:05:01,104 They're given authority. 123 00:05:01,147 --> 00:05:04,325 They have the power t-- [ Sighs ] 124 00:05:04,368 --> 00:05:06,544 D-Do you have kids? 125 00:05:06,588 --> 00:05:08,677 Three teenagers. 126 00:05:08,720 --> 00:05:12,202 Oh, wow. Okay, so, you get just how frustrating 127 00:05:12,245 --> 00:05:15,423 and infuriating it is to pour every ounce 128 00:05:15,466 --> 00:05:17,381 of energy and brain power you have 129 00:05:17,425 --> 00:05:19,383 into them to -- to try and mold them 130 00:05:19,427 --> 00:05:21,646 into confident young men -- 131 00:05:21,690 --> 00:05:22,734 to make them honestly believe 132 00:05:22,778 --> 00:05:24,910 that they can accomplish anything, 133 00:05:24,954 --> 00:05:28,958 to -- to work so hard to get them to s-stand tall 134 00:05:29,001 --> 00:05:31,787 and feel good in their own skin -- 135 00:05:31,830 --> 00:05:33,745 only to then have to tell them that 136 00:05:33,789 --> 00:05:35,399 because of the color of that skin, 137 00:05:35,443 --> 00:05:36,531 they have to shrink 138 00:05:36,574 --> 00:05:38,402 when in the presence of a police officer. 139 00:05:38,446 --> 00:05:39,969 Do you tell them that? 140 00:05:40,012 --> 00:05:42,101 Do you tell them to shrink? 141 00:05:42,145 --> 00:05:44,756 No. 142 00:05:44,800 --> 00:05:47,019 No, I -- I don't tell them to shrink. 143 00:05:47,063 --> 00:05:48,325 I -- 144 00:05:48,369 --> 00:05:49,674 [Sighs] 145 00:05:49,718 --> 00:05:51,633 I tell them to stand with dignity, 146 00:05:51,676 --> 00:05:53,025 and I tell them to de-escalate. 147 00:05:53,069 --> 00:05:55,201 I-I tell them that in any confrontational situation, 148 00:05:55,245 --> 00:05:56,986 their job is to de-escalate. 149 00:05:57,029 --> 00:05:58,596 But it should be the cop's job. 150 00:05:58,640 --> 00:06:01,077 You're right. It should. 151 00:06:01,120 --> 00:06:02,905 [ Clears throat ] 152 00:06:02,948 --> 00:06:06,082 So, let me just make sure I have this straight. 153 00:06:06,125 --> 00:06:08,040 You're mad at yourself that you didn't do more 154 00:06:08,084 --> 00:06:09,999 after that cop treated you that way, 155 00:06:10,042 --> 00:06:13,002 and you're mad at yourself that you didn't do less 156 00:06:13,045 --> 00:06:15,178 after that cop treated you that way. 157 00:06:15,221 --> 00:06:17,093 Because Miller's doing more, 158 00:06:17,136 --> 00:06:19,704 and because you want your boys to do less. 159 00:06:20,749 --> 00:06:23,621 Look... 160 00:06:23,665 --> 00:06:25,318 I'm exhausted, you know? 161 00:06:25,362 --> 00:06:26,624 [ Stammers ] 162 00:06:26,668 --> 00:06:29,279 I'm exhausted by navigating a -- a w-- a world 163 00:06:29,322 --> 00:06:32,804 that sees me and -- and my kids as a threat. 164 00:06:32,848 --> 00:06:33,805 I mean, it's -- it's this -- 165 00:06:33,849 --> 00:06:37,766 it's this constant nagging worry 166 00:06:37,809 --> 00:06:39,898 that -- that never goes away. 167 00:06:39,942 --> 00:06:42,031 And i-if I do manage to forget and just -- 168 00:06:42,074 --> 00:06:44,728 you know, just exist... 169 00:06:44,773 --> 00:06:46,731 ♪♪ 170 00:06:46,775 --> 00:06:49,473 ...a comment or a look 171 00:06:49,517 --> 00:06:53,259 or the news that a man has been killed in the street 172 00:06:53,303 --> 00:06:56,001 reminds me that I have to be careful. 173 00:06:56,045 --> 00:06:59,483 And -- And it steals all of my mental and emotional energy 174 00:06:59,527 --> 00:07:01,267 that I should be giving to my wife 175 00:07:01,311 --> 00:07:04,270 and my kids and my health. 176 00:07:04,314 --> 00:07:06,577 Is something going on with your health? 177 00:07:06,621 --> 00:07:11,190 ♪♪ 178 00:07:11,234 --> 00:07:14,324 Being Black in America is a life-threatening condition. 179 00:07:14,367 --> 00:07:17,153 Other than that... 180 00:07:17,196 --> 00:07:20,765 ♪♪ 181 00:07:25,161 --> 00:07:27,990 Seattle protests continued late into the evening last night 182 00:07:28,033 --> 00:07:29,252 with police presence on the scene. 183 00:07:29,295 --> 00:07:30,514 Should we go? 184 00:07:30,558 --> 00:07:31,820 Can we? 185 00:07:31,863 --> 00:07:33,603 I mean, after shift. 186 00:07:33,648 --> 00:07:35,388 No, still -- can we?Oh, you mean -- 187 00:07:35,432 --> 00:07:36,781 Because we're FD. 188 00:07:36,825 --> 00:07:38,566 I mean, is that an official policy? 189 00:07:38,609 --> 00:07:39,958 Do they have to say anything? We know. 190 00:07:40,002 --> 00:07:42,047 Well, it's a free country, so... 191 00:07:43,309 --> 00:07:44,572 In theory. 192 00:07:44,615 --> 00:07:46,835 But the Department's a public entity. 193 00:07:46,878 --> 00:07:49,054 And the protests are considered anti-police.[ Laughs ] 194 00:07:49,098 --> 00:07:50,708 'Cause asking for our right to live 195 00:07:50,752 --> 00:07:52,144 is inherently anti-police, 196 00:07:52,188 --> 00:07:53,581 and nobody seems to... 197 00:07:53,624 --> 00:07:55,583 realize that's the problem. 198 00:07:55,626 --> 00:07:58,281 [ Sighs ] 199 00:07:58,324 --> 00:08:01,284 [ Telephone rings ] 200 00:08:02,938 --> 00:08:05,070 Any takers? 201 00:08:05,114 --> 00:08:07,682 Just one, so far. 202 00:08:07,725 --> 00:08:09,510 And you. What? 203 00:08:09,553 --> 00:08:11,120 Sit. No, I'm not -- 204 00:08:11,163 --> 00:08:13,470 You're what? You're -- You're -- You're not grieving? 205 00:08:13,514 --> 00:08:14,689 You had a happy little firehouse 206 00:08:14,732 --> 00:08:16,212 where everyone was best friends 207 00:08:16,255 --> 00:08:18,649 and racial disparity was not a hot topic. 208 00:08:18,693 --> 00:08:20,477 And now?Everything has changed. 209 00:08:20,521 --> 00:08:22,610 Everything and nothing. 210 00:08:23,915 --> 00:08:26,178 I know fire. 211 00:08:26,222 --> 00:08:28,703 I mean, I'm the person that studies them for fun. 212 00:08:28,746 --> 00:08:29,704 But this fire -- 213 00:08:29,747 --> 00:08:31,923 This fire is beneath our feet. 214 00:08:31,967 --> 00:08:34,926 It's built into every foundation -- 215 00:08:34,969 --> 00:08:38,147 our history, language, n-news coverage. 216 00:08:38,190 --> 00:08:40,541 It's everywhere. I mean, we vent fires 217 00:08:40,584 --> 00:08:42,673 to let out the hot smoke and gasses 218 00:08:42,717 --> 00:08:44,240 so that we can contain the fire, 219 00:08:44,282 --> 00:08:46,677 but I don't see how we can contain this, 220 00:08:46,721 --> 00:08:48,331 let alone put it out. 221 00:08:48,374 --> 00:08:50,899 And growing up, we were taught about 222 00:08:50,942 --> 00:08:53,902 Black history and the Civil Rights movement. 223 00:08:53,945 --> 00:08:56,644 We were taught to believe that they had beat it. 224 00:08:56,686 --> 00:08:57,949 And I think, on some level, 225 00:08:57,993 --> 00:08:59,472 that belief was still inside of me, 226 00:08:59,516 --> 00:09:01,431 because I didn't listen to Dean, and I didn't listen 227 00:09:01,474 --> 00:09:03,302 to the mothers of those kidnapped girls, 228 00:09:03,346 --> 00:09:06,088 and I am so embarrassed saying that to you. 229 00:09:06,131 --> 00:09:08,351 Well, you were taught that in school... 230 00:09:08,394 --> 00:09:09,787 and probably also at home. 231 00:09:09,831 --> 00:09:11,180 And that teaching, 232 00:09:11,223 --> 00:09:13,704 it's the coal that keeps the fire hot. 233 00:09:13,748 --> 00:09:15,532 When I was a child 234 00:09:15,576 --> 00:09:17,752 and I learned about the Native American genocide, 235 00:09:17,795 --> 00:09:20,015 I pictured one small village -- 236 00:09:20,058 --> 00:09:22,539 one small village of men with feathers in their hair 237 00:09:22,583 --> 00:09:24,062 who gave the white people turkey 238 00:09:24,106 --> 00:09:25,455 and then got mad that they wouldn't leave. 239 00:09:25,498 --> 00:09:27,370 Now, I pictured it because 240 00:09:27,413 --> 00:09:29,285 those were the literal pictures in my history books. 241 00:09:29,328 --> 00:09:30,808 And even though I knew 242 00:09:30,852 --> 00:09:32,723 that my people had been stolen from their homes 243 00:09:32,767 --> 00:09:34,986 and brought here chained up on ships, 244 00:09:35,030 --> 00:09:37,902 somehow, I believed that textbook. 245 00:09:37,946 --> 00:09:42,428 I was 35 years old when I learned that in 1492, 246 00:09:42,472 --> 00:09:43,995 Columbus sailed the ocean blue, 247 00:09:44,039 --> 00:09:45,736 and in the wake of that, 248 00:09:45,780 --> 00:09:47,738 millions upon millions of people 249 00:09:47,782 --> 00:09:50,654 who had been living here for 15,000 years 250 00:09:50,698 --> 00:09:52,438 were extinguished. 251 00:09:52,482 --> 00:09:55,746 And the ones who survived were fighting every day 252 00:09:55,790 --> 00:09:57,443 against a culture 253 00:09:57,487 --> 00:10:00,795 that still wants to pretend they don't exist. 254 00:10:00,838 --> 00:10:02,971 We learn when we learn. 255 00:10:03,014 --> 00:10:05,103 And the shame we feel 256 00:10:05,147 --> 00:10:07,018 at having taken so long to learn, 257 00:10:07,062 --> 00:10:10,935 well, that can be useful as long as we use it well. 258 00:10:10,979 --> 00:10:14,330 Once we know better, we have to do better. 259 00:10:19,117 --> 00:10:22,338 When I was 13, I ran cross country and track, 260 00:10:22,381 --> 00:10:25,254 and during the off-season, my dad would train... 261 00:10:25,297 --> 00:10:27,822 [ All panting ]...a group of us girls who ran both. 262 00:10:27,865 --> 00:10:29,127 And he would push us too hard, 263 00:10:29,171 --> 00:10:31,042 and when I didn't hit a drill 264 00:10:31,086 --> 00:10:32,261 the way he wanted me to...[ Yells indistinctly ] 265 00:10:32,304 --> 00:10:34,306 ...he'd make me do it over and over and over 266 00:10:34,350 --> 00:10:36,308 until I would collapse on the ground. 267 00:10:36,352 --> 00:10:38,006 And my dad would leave me there, 268 00:10:38,049 --> 00:10:39,529 and one by one, 269 00:10:39,572 --> 00:10:42,924 my team members would lie down next to me. 270 00:10:42,967 --> 00:10:46,188 Face to the concrete, eyes on me, silent. 271 00:10:46,231 --> 00:10:50,366 Giving me space, but... 272 00:10:50,409 --> 00:10:52,107 also making sure I wasn't alone. 273 00:10:52,150 --> 00:10:53,717 And my instinct is that 274 00:10:53,761 --> 00:10:55,197 that is what I have to do 275 00:10:55,240 --> 00:10:57,503 for the Black members of my team -- 276 00:10:57,547 --> 00:10:58,896 to quietly show up 277 00:10:58,940 --> 00:11:01,507 and let them know that I support them. 278 00:11:01,551 --> 00:11:04,815 But I think that instinct is wrong, 279 00:11:04,859 --> 00:11:06,817 because when my friends and I were 13, 280 00:11:06,861 --> 00:11:08,601 we didn't have the capacity 281 00:11:08,645 --> 00:11:11,343 to stand up against an abusive power. 282 00:11:11,387 --> 00:11:13,215 And now I do. 283 00:11:13,258 --> 00:11:16,435 I -- I have the power to stand up 284 00:11:16,479 --> 00:11:18,960 and say when something is wrong. 285 00:11:19,003 --> 00:11:21,092 I mean, I have the power 286 00:11:21,136 --> 00:11:23,007 to call out injustices when I see them. 287 00:11:23,051 --> 00:11:25,401 I have... 288 00:11:25,444 --> 00:11:28,970 the power to make sure that everyone can breathe. 289 00:11:29,013 --> 00:11:33,365 ♪♪ 290 00:11:33,409 --> 00:11:36,064 [ Sighs ] 291 00:11:36,107 --> 00:11:39,154 [ Footsteps approaching ] 292 00:11:39,197 --> 00:11:41,896 Hey.Hey. 293 00:11:41,939 --> 00:11:44,115 The protests have really grown. 294 00:11:44,159 --> 00:11:45,595 Yeah, I saw. 295 00:11:45,638 --> 00:11:46,857 [ Inhales deeply ] 296 00:11:48,206 --> 00:11:50,078 What happened to you? You get into a bar fight? 297 00:11:50,121 --> 00:11:52,254 [ Laughs ] 298 00:11:52,297 --> 00:11:55,910 Yeah, with an SCBA. 299 00:11:57,520 --> 00:11:59,609 You okay?Nope. 300 00:11:59,652 --> 00:12:01,350 You gonna talk to Diane? 301 00:12:01,393 --> 00:12:02,917 I doubt it. 302 00:12:02,960 --> 00:12:04,919 [ Clears throat ] 303 00:12:04,962 --> 00:12:06,442 Yep. 304 00:12:06,485 --> 00:12:07,878 ♪♪ 305 00:12:07,922 --> 00:12:10,751 [ Refrigerator door opens ] 306 00:12:15,843 --> 00:12:18,019 [ Indistinct talking on TV] 307 00:12:18,062 --> 00:12:20,456 God, look at that. 308 00:12:20,499 --> 00:12:21,936 It's just getting 309 00:12:21,979 --> 00:12:23,111 bigger and bigger, hmm? 310 00:12:23,154 --> 00:12:24,895 Mm-hmm. It's all over the world. 311 00:12:24,939 --> 00:12:27,419 Almost makes you... 312 00:12:27,463 --> 00:12:28,899 hopeful? 313 00:12:28,943 --> 00:12:30,335 Take this. [ Laughs ] 314 00:12:30,379 --> 00:12:32,294 Turn to channel 17. 315 00:12:32,337 --> 00:12:34,383 And let me get that. 316 00:12:34,426 --> 00:12:36,515 What?So you don't throw it across the room. 317 00:12:36,559 --> 00:12:38,169 Dixon: ...the news in Minneapolis. 318 00:12:38,213 --> 00:12:40,258 We stand in support of our communities, 319 00:12:40,302 --> 00:12:41,607 no matter their color. 320 00:12:41,651 --> 00:12:43,566 Oh, God. Give me that coffee cup back. 321 00:12:43,609 --> 00:12:44,915 This little play-act 322 00:12:44,959 --> 00:12:46,699 has been on loop for half an hour now, 323 00:12:46,743 --> 00:12:48,092 and these stations are eating it up. 324 00:12:48,136 --> 00:12:50,921 Like he's some shining example of PD valor. 325 00:12:50,965 --> 00:12:53,097 Oh, God, I just threw up in my mouth a little bit, 326 00:12:53,141 --> 00:12:55,970 I think.Well, get ready to throw up some more. 327 00:12:56,013 --> 00:12:59,669 As far as any question about where this department stands 328 00:12:59,712 --> 00:13:01,889 on the issue of Black Lives... 329 00:13:01,932 --> 00:13:03,238 [ Camera shutters clicking] 330 00:13:03,281 --> 00:13:04,500 I know this little earthworm is not gon-- 331 00:13:04,543 --> 00:13:05,849 Mm. 332 00:13:05,893 --> 00:13:08,112 Oh. What?! Yeah. 333 00:13:08,156 --> 00:13:09,984 Oh, come on. That. 334 00:13:10,027 --> 00:13:11,855 That is why every time I wonder 335 00:13:11,899 --> 00:13:13,770 whether to continue with the lawsuit, 336 00:13:13,814 --> 00:13:16,164 whether it's too much... 337 00:13:16,207 --> 00:13:19,254 [ Sighs ] ...too little, too fast, too slow. 338 00:13:19,297 --> 00:13:22,344 It's -- It's something, at least. 339 00:13:22,387 --> 00:13:25,347 Some way to fight against this -- 340 00:13:25,390 --> 00:13:30,004 this performative, uh -- uh, hypocritical, destructive... 341 00:13:30,047 --> 00:13:31,309 Yeah. 342 00:13:31,353 --> 00:13:33,311 [ Sighs ]Yeah. 343 00:13:41,189 --> 00:13:42,625 Travis. 344 00:13:42,668 --> 00:13:44,235 Diane. 345 00:13:44,279 --> 00:13:46,977 You know, the Department pays me no matter what, 346 00:13:47,021 --> 00:13:48,979 but, uh, there's only 347 00:13:49,023 --> 00:13:51,199 so many crossword puzzles I can do, so... 348 00:13:51,242 --> 00:13:52,591 [ Laughs ] 349 00:13:52,635 --> 00:13:54,985 You want to talk? Oh, no. 350 00:13:55,029 --> 00:13:56,900 I mean, I -- I want to let 351 00:13:56,944 --> 00:13:58,423 the Black firefighters go first. 352 00:13:58,467 --> 00:14:02,340 O-- Do you see a line outside this door? 353 00:14:03,907 --> 00:14:06,649 I-I know the past couple months 354 00:14:06,692 --> 00:14:08,433 can't have been easy for you, either. 355 00:14:08,477 --> 00:14:09,870 Hate crimes are hate crimes, 356 00:14:09,913 --> 00:14:11,219 no matter the race. 357 00:14:16,354 --> 00:14:18,704 My mom got, uh -- 358 00:14:18,748 --> 00:14:20,054 Well, she was spit on at the grocery store... 359 00:14:20,097 --> 00:14:21,359 Mm. 360 00:14:21,403 --> 00:14:23,753 ...the same day that George Floyd... 361 00:14:23,796 --> 00:14:26,321 My, uh -- my mom was leaving, 362 00:14:26,364 --> 00:14:31,413 and a crazy maskless woman was like... 363 00:14:31,456 --> 00:14:33,154 "If this Kung Flu is real, 364 00:14:33,197 --> 00:14:36,113 it's because of people like her." 365 00:14:36,157 --> 00:14:38,333 The woman both didn't believe COVID was real 366 00:14:38,376 --> 00:14:40,291 andwas blaming my mom for it. 367 00:14:40,335 --> 00:14:45,383 ♪♪ 368 00:14:45,427 --> 00:14:46,863 [ Whimpers ] 369 00:14:46,907 --> 00:14:49,170 When my mom told me, 370 00:14:49,213 --> 00:14:52,434 it actually felt like my organs were melting.[ Sobs ] 371 00:14:52,477 --> 00:14:54,349 I was so hot with rage, you know, 372 00:14:54,392 --> 00:14:56,351 remembering the times when I was a kid, 373 00:14:56,394 --> 00:14:59,354 and, you know, people would say stuff to us. 374 00:14:59,397 --> 00:15:02,183 And then, we would just go home. 375 00:15:02,226 --> 00:15:05,229 Never to be discussed again. 376 00:15:05,273 --> 00:15:07,710 And I -- And I didn't say anything to anyone here about it 377 00:15:07,753 --> 00:15:10,321 because, you know, it didn't feel appropriate. 378 00:15:10,365 --> 00:15:13,281 This giant, massive thing was happening -- 379 00:15:13,324 --> 00:15:14,586 a hate crime. 380 00:15:14,630 --> 00:15:17,981 [ Whimpering ] 381 00:15:18,025 --> 00:15:20,984 [ Sobbing ] 382 00:15:21,028 --> 00:15:23,944 An atrocity so much more brutal and egregious. 383 00:15:23,987 --> 00:15:26,816 You know, other people were hurting so much more. 384 00:15:26,859 --> 00:15:28,165 I'm sorry. 385 00:15:28,209 --> 00:15:29,950 I don't know why I'm talking to you about this. 386 00:15:29,993 --> 00:15:31,734 I don't know why I'm doing that. 387 00:15:31,777 --> 00:15:33,170 Because I'm a Black woman, 388 00:15:33,214 --> 00:15:34,911 and my racist stuff is "bigger"? 389 00:15:34,955 --> 00:15:36,304 Something like that. 390 00:15:36,347 --> 00:15:38,088 That doesn't work. 391 00:15:38,132 --> 00:15:39,655 It doesn't notwork. 392 00:15:41,396 --> 00:15:44,790 I know that since COVID, 393 00:15:44,834 --> 00:15:46,705 hate crimes against Asian Americans 394 00:15:46,749 --> 00:15:49,708 have spiked like crazy. 395 00:15:49,752 --> 00:15:52,276 And yet, no one is talking about it -- 396 00:15:52,320 --> 00:15:53,756 no one but us. 397 00:15:53,799 --> 00:15:55,149 Not the media. 398 00:15:55,192 --> 00:15:58,152 No the -- [ Scoffs ] 399 00:15:58,195 --> 00:16:00,981 I mean, grandmas and grandpas -- 400 00:16:01,024 --> 00:16:02,808 halmoniand haraboji. 401 00:16:02,852 --> 00:16:04,854 People being shoved into walls 402 00:16:04,897 --> 00:16:06,856 and off subway platforms. 403 00:16:06,899 --> 00:16:09,511 You have Filipina nurses 404 00:16:09,554 --> 00:16:10,773 who say goodbye to their families 405 00:16:10,816 --> 00:16:12,775 and their own country to come here 406 00:16:12,818 --> 00:16:14,516 to work the front lines of a pandemic 407 00:16:14,559 --> 00:16:15,778 being attacked in the streets. 408 00:16:15,821 --> 00:16:17,780 A 2-year-old and a 6-year-old 409 00:16:17,823 --> 00:16:19,825 stabbed at a big-box store. 410 00:16:19,869 --> 00:16:22,176 I mean, who stabs a 2-year-old? 411 00:16:22,219 --> 00:16:25,788 And why is that not news? 412 00:16:25,831 --> 00:16:28,965 Why are we so... 413 00:16:29,009 --> 00:16:30,271 invisible? 414 00:16:30,314 --> 00:16:32,186 I don't know. 415 00:16:32,229 --> 00:16:34,362 I -- [ Sighs ] 416 00:16:34,405 --> 00:16:35,363 I don't know. 417 00:16:35,406 --> 00:16:37,321 I don't know either! 418 00:16:39,061 --> 00:16:42,239 But how can we even make a fuss 419 00:16:42,283 --> 00:16:46,809 when this is all it is relative to how horrifically 420 00:16:46,852 --> 00:16:48,506 this country treats Black people? 421 00:16:48,550 --> 00:16:51,292 I mean, I watched that whole video, 422 00:16:51,335 --> 00:16:54,817 and in addition to the absolute horror that I felt -- 423 00:16:54,860 --> 00:16:59,039 and feel -- I also thought... 424 00:17:00,562 --> 00:17:05,175 ..."What do we have to even complain about?" 425 00:17:05,219 --> 00:17:09,918 Travis, it's all bad. 426 00:17:09,962 --> 00:17:11,616 I know you're trying to be generous, 427 00:17:11,659 --> 00:17:15,142 but it is all bad. 428 00:17:15,185 --> 00:17:18,927 There are no winners in the Oppression Olympics. 429 00:17:18,971 --> 00:17:20,321 Okay? 430 00:17:20,364 --> 00:17:22,845 And it's gaslighting if anyone tells you 431 00:17:22,888 --> 00:17:24,760 or if you tell yourself... 432 00:17:24,802 --> 00:17:26,588 [ Sobbing ]...to be okay with the brutalities 433 00:17:26,630 --> 00:17:28,372 being inflicted on your community 434 00:17:28,416 --> 00:17:30,635 because worse things are happening to another. 435 00:17:30,679 --> 00:17:32,768 ♪♪ 436 00:17:42,386 --> 00:17:45,041 [ Sighs ] 437 00:17:47,957 --> 00:17:49,350 She's just trying to help. 438 00:17:49,393 --> 00:17:50,873 Okay. 439 00:17:53,223 --> 00:17:54,659 Robert -- 440 00:17:54,703 --> 00:17:56,574 Look, I'm not gonna do it, okay? 441 00:17:56,618 --> 00:17:58,315 I'm not gonna just sit there 442 00:17:58,359 --> 00:17:59,838 and -- and perform my pain... 443 00:17:59,882 --> 00:18:01,318 It's not -- 444 00:18:01,362 --> 00:18:02,972 ...so that Bishop can feel better, alright? 445 00:18:03,015 --> 00:18:04,016 That's not -- [ Sighs ]I'm not gonna do it. 446 00:18:04,060 --> 00:18:06,628 Andy, I just need a minute. 447 00:18:06,671 --> 00:18:07,977 [ Buckle clinks ]Okay. 448 00:18:09,979 --> 00:18:11,154 I need a minute. 449 00:18:11,198 --> 00:18:13,113 Okay. Okay. 450 00:18:19,684 --> 00:18:22,731 [ Door opens ][ Sighs ] 451 00:18:22,774 --> 00:18:24,211 You know, it's always bothered me 452 00:18:24,254 --> 00:18:27,649 when men would suddenly see the world differently 453 00:18:27,692 --> 00:18:28,737 after they had a daughter. 454 00:18:28,780 --> 00:18:30,042 Like, I always wondered 455 00:18:30,086 --> 00:18:31,696 why it took them having a daughter 456 00:18:31,740 --> 00:18:33,611 in order to open their eyes. 457 00:18:33,655 --> 00:18:36,179 But I guess that's how it feels for me now. 458 00:18:36,223 --> 00:18:37,572 I'm that guy. [ Exhales sharply ] 459 00:18:38,616 --> 00:18:41,663 The world changed for me 460 00:18:41,706 --> 00:18:44,666 because I fell in love with a Black man, 461 00:18:44,709 --> 00:18:47,059 and now I see what he sees. 462 00:18:47,103 --> 00:18:50,585 You know, I -- I worry for him every day. 463 00:18:50,628 --> 00:18:52,369 I-I've taken on the fear 464 00:18:52,413 --> 00:18:54,415 that he doesn't allow himself to feel. 465 00:18:54,458 --> 00:18:56,808 I -- You know, I've always seen it 466 00:18:56,852 --> 00:18:57,853 and felt it growing up. 467 00:18:57,896 --> 00:18:59,420 I saw my dad go through it. 468 00:18:59,463 --> 00:19:01,900 People would call him awful names, 469 00:19:01,944 --> 00:19:04,512 and he would -- he would just walk by, 470 00:19:04,555 --> 00:19:06,122 hold his head up high. 471 00:19:06,166 --> 00:19:08,777 A-As a kid, people would look at my last name, 472 00:19:08,820 --> 00:19:11,127 and they would ask me, "Where are you really from?" 473 00:19:11,171 --> 00:19:12,868 [ Scoffs ] 474 00:19:12,911 --> 00:19:15,044 I even had teachers who would look really surprised 475 00:19:15,087 --> 00:19:17,089 once they realized that I was smart. 476 00:19:17,133 --> 00:19:18,482 But, you know, mostly... 477 00:19:18,526 --> 00:19:20,049 [ Clicks tongue ] 478 00:19:20,092 --> 00:19:21,224 [ Scoffs ] 479 00:19:22,573 --> 00:19:24,488 It's okay to say it.Mostly, I got treated okay 480 00:19:24,532 --> 00:19:26,273 because my skin is light. 481 00:19:26,316 --> 00:19:27,970 I pass for white. 482 00:19:28,013 --> 00:19:30,581 And you feel guilty about that? 483 00:19:30,625 --> 00:19:31,887 [ Clicks tongue ] I -- 484 00:19:31,930 --> 00:19:33,410 You know... [ Clears throat ] 485 00:19:33,454 --> 00:19:36,239 I swear to God, I don't even know how I feel. 486 00:19:36,283 --> 00:19:37,458 Uh, can we walk? 487 00:19:38,763 --> 00:19:42,027 This year has been so much -- so much. 488 00:19:42,071 --> 00:19:44,247 It's been just one thing after another a-- 489 00:19:44,291 --> 00:19:46,336 with no time to recover. 490 00:19:46,380 --> 00:19:48,512 And that video? [ Scoffs ] 491 00:19:48,556 --> 00:19:49,905 I feel -- 492 00:19:49,948 --> 00:19:52,951 [ Stammers ] I feel betrayed. 493 00:19:52,995 --> 00:19:55,780 I mean, j-- I know it's always been this way, 494 00:19:55,824 --> 00:19:58,522 but I needed to love a Black man -- 495 00:19:58,566 --> 00:20:00,481 I needed to be married to a Black man -- 496 00:20:00,524 --> 00:20:02,091 in order to see the whole picture? 497 00:20:02,134 --> 00:20:05,050 Why? Why? Where was my call for justice? 498 00:20:05,094 --> 00:20:06,530 Like, why didn't I see this before? 499 00:20:06,574 --> 00:20:10,230 W-- Why am I just waking up now? 500 00:20:10,273 --> 00:20:12,449 A lot of people are waking up now, 501 00:20:12,493 --> 00:20:15,452 and they're asking themselves the same questions. 502 00:20:15,496 --> 00:20:17,454 And you -- you're the daughter 503 00:20:17,498 --> 00:20:19,543 of a fire captain. 504 00:20:19,587 --> 00:20:20,849 Police have been a part of your life 505 00:20:20,892 --> 00:20:22,329 since you were a little girl. 506 00:20:22,372 --> 00:20:24,635 Cops and firefighters were your family. 507 00:20:26,898 --> 00:20:28,770 They would call me Pruitita. 508 00:20:28,813 --> 00:20:30,424 It means Little Pruitt. 509 00:20:30,467 --> 00:20:33,340 And there was this sort of mental gymnastics going on 510 00:20:33,383 --> 00:20:36,517 where, a-as I got older, I thought I knew 511 00:20:36,560 --> 00:20:38,301 that police brutality was rampant. 512 00:20:38,345 --> 00:20:39,781 But at the same time, 513 00:20:39,824 --> 00:20:41,435 I didn't count the cops that I knew personally 514 00:20:41,478 --> 00:20:42,784 into that issue. 515 00:20:42,827 --> 00:20:44,438 You know, it was double-think. 516 00:20:44,481 --> 00:20:46,222 Like, I never stopped and questioned 517 00:20:46,266 --> 00:20:48,659 why the good cops weren't calling out the bad ones. 518 00:20:48,703 --> 00:20:52,446 You know, not a single one of my dad's old police friends 519 00:20:52,489 --> 00:20:55,492 have stepped forward to denounce the actions 520 00:20:55,536 --> 00:20:57,277 of the officers that murdered George Floyd? 521 00:20:57,320 --> 00:21:00,584 Not a single one. 522 00:21:02,630 --> 00:21:05,546 It is my instinct as a therapist to comfort you, 523 00:21:05,589 --> 00:21:08,113 but your comfort -- 524 00:21:08,157 --> 00:21:10,115 and everyone else's comfort -- 525 00:21:10,159 --> 00:21:13,771 has been such a big part of this problem 526 00:21:13,815 --> 00:21:14,903 for so long. 527 00:21:18,385 --> 00:21:20,778 [ Sighs ] 528 00:21:20,822 --> 00:21:24,391 [ Ringing] 529 00:21:24,434 --> 00:21:26,349 Carina: You're beautiful, and you're brave, 530 00:21:26,393 --> 00:21:29,309 and you are -- Okay, no, just listen. 531 00:21:29,352 --> 00:21:31,136 I want to tell everyone 532 00:21:31,180 --> 00:21:33,661 that I support them attending the protests. 533 00:21:33,704 --> 00:21:34,966 I want to go. 534 00:21:35,010 --> 00:21:38,100 I don't want to silently support anymore. 535 00:21:38,143 --> 00:21:40,189 I want to scream in the streets. 536 00:21:40,232 --> 00:21:41,886 Wonderful. I'll join you. 537 00:21:41,930 --> 00:21:43,758 You don't understand. 538 00:21:43,801 --> 00:21:47,370 It's -- Things are bad enough right now between 19 and PD. 539 00:21:47,414 --> 00:21:49,590 The Department won't like it. 540 00:21:49,633 --> 00:21:51,592 Okay, but they cannot 541 00:21:51,635 --> 00:21:54,377 officially discipline you for it, though, right? 542 00:21:54,421 --> 00:21:56,161 No, no. 543 00:21:56,205 --> 00:21:57,380 But [sighs] 544 00:21:57,424 --> 00:21:59,861 I'm on a track, 545 00:21:59,904 --> 00:22:03,212 and if I support this publicly -- 546 00:22:03,255 --> 00:22:05,388 which everything in me wants to do -- 547 00:22:05,432 --> 00:22:07,216 it'll take me off that track. 548 00:22:07,259 --> 00:22:10,306 Because people are setting fires to police stations. 549 00:22:10,350 --> 00:22:13,614 Yes, and because firefighters work with the police, okay? 550 00:22:13,657 --> 00:22:15,964 They're our brothers, too, 551 00:22:16,007 --> 00:22:17,400 and there are some bad apples, bu-- 552 00:22:17,444 --> 00:22:19,489 Okay, they keep saying that on the news. 553 00:22:19,533 --> 00:22:21,404 The "one bad apple," "one bad apple." 554 00:22:21,448 --> 00:22:22,753 And I didn't understand what it meant, 555 00:22:22,797 --> 00:22:24,233 so I looked it up, 556 00:22:24,276 --> 00:22:26,540 and one bad apple ruins the whole barrel. 557 00:22:26,583 --> 00:22:28,063 That's the saying. 558 00:22:28,106 --> 00:22:30,326 So, after we all saw the horrific video, 559 00:22:30,370 --> 00:22:32,197 why aren't all the brothers -- 560 00:22:32,241 --> 00:22:33,851 why aren't all the friends -- 561 00:22:33,895 --> 00:22:35,940 why isn't every member of the police force 562 00:22:35,984 --> 00:22:38,116 in the streets demanding systemic change? 563 00:22:38,160 --> 00:22:39,988 Why? 564 00:22:40,031 --> 00:22:42,773 Because it'll take them off of the track. 565 00:22:44,340 --> 00:22:47,038 [ Knock on door ] 566 00:22:47,082 --> 00:22:48,997 Can I ask you a question? 567 00:22:49,040 --> 00:22:50,390 Of course. 568 00:22:50,433 --> 00:22:52,087 How do you become a therapist? 569 00:22:53,480 --> 00:22:56,831 I'm sorry. I'm not, uh, often taken off-guard. 570 00:22:56,874 --> 00:22:59,921 Are you considering a career change? 571 00:22:59,964 --> 00:23:01,444 Oh, no. No, no, no. I mean, not now. 572 00:23:01,488 --> 00:23:03,141 I just -- It would be nice 573 00:23:03,185 --> 00:23:04,708 to have a back-up plan that's better than 574 00:23:04,752 --> 00:23:06,275 waiting tables at my parents' restaurant 575 00:23:06,318 --> 00:23:08,146 in case I get injured or... 576 00:23:08,190 --> 00:23:09,670 Or what? 577 00:23:10,975 --> 00:23:14,022 Or if I give myself permission 578 00:23:14,065 --> 00:23:15,502 to throw a brick at a police station 579 00:23:15,545 --> 00:23:17,242 and it gets me kicked out of FD. 580 00:23:18,548 --> 00:23:19,984 It's, uh, four years of undergrad 581 00:23:20,028 --> 00:23:21,595 plus two years of grad school. 582 00:23:21,638 --> 00:23:23,074 I'm only like eight credits shy 583 00:23:23,118 --> 00:23:24,772 of my undergrad degree, so... 584 00:23:24,815 --> 00:23:26,208 In what? 585 00:23:26,251 --> 00:23:28,210 Uh, it'll be a Bachelor of Fine Arts. 586 00:23:28,253 --> 00:23:29,951 A Bachelor of -- of Fine Arts? 587 00:23:29,994 --> 00:23:31,256 Yeah, I studied musical theater. 588 00:23:31,300 --> 00:23:32,693 Wow. 589 00:23:32,736 --> 00:23:34,521 What are the classes when you get 590 00:23:34,564 --> 00:23:35,739 a Bachelor of Fine Arts in musical theater? 591 00:23:35,783 --> 00:23:37,262 Well, let's see. 592 00:23:37,306 --> 00:23:39,264 Uh, there's voice and speech, 593 00:23:39,308 --> 00:23:41,179 and acting, singing, ballet, 594 00:23:41,223 --> 00:23:42,746 and also circus skills 595 00:23:42,790 --> 00:23:46,489 like walking a tightrope or juggling. 596 00:23:46,533 --> 00:23:48,143 And they give you a degree for that? 597 00:23:48,186 --> 00:23:50,232 Well, they would have, but the theater burned down, 598 00:23:50,275 --> 00:23:51,886 and my favorite teacher didn't make it out. 599 00:23:51,929 --> 00:23:53,540 And I did make it out, but I couldn't go back. 600 00:23:53,583 --> 00:23:55,367 I couldn't finish, so... 601 00:23:55,411 --> 00:23:57,065 So...? 602 00:23:58,980 --> 00:24:01,112 [ Sighs ] Uh, why are we talking about this? 603 00:24:01,156 --> 00:24:03,201 I don't know, but if I had to guess, 604 00:24:03,245 --> 00:24:05,682 I'd say it's because you are desperate to talk 605 00:24:05,726 --> 00:24:07,379 and think about literally anything 606 00:24:07,423 --> 00:24:08,990 besides that video. 607 00:24:09,033 --> 00:24:11,122 Can you think of anything... 608 00:24:11,166 --> 00:24:12,820 No. 609 00:24:19,479 --> 00:24:21,132 [ Sighs ] 610 00:24:21,176 --> 00:24:22,960 I like to fix things. 611 00:24:23,004 --> 00:24:24,832 I see a fire and I put it out. 612 00:24:24,875 --> 00:24:27,922 But we have been having this same fight for so long -- 613 00:24:27,965 --> 00:24:29,750 for so long. 614 00:24:29,793 --> 00:24:31,229 I mean, my grandma used to tell me about the sit-ins 615 00:24:31,273 --> 00:24:33,275 and boycotts she used to do in the '60s. 616 00:24:33,318 --> 00:24:34,842 And we're how many moments 617 00:24:34,885 --> 00:24:36,931 and movements and marches later, 618 00:24:36,974 --> 00:24:38,846 and what do we have to show for it? 619 00:24:38,889 --> 00:24:41,065 And to see so many people act like this is news -- 620 00:24:41,109 --> 00:24:43,285 like this is just some brand-new information 621 00:24:43,328 --> 00:24:44,808 they're just now waking up to. 622 00:24:44,852 --> 00:24:46,767 Do you know how many white friends 623 00:24:46,810 --> 00:24:49,813 texted me or emailed me just out of the blue?[ Laughs ] 624 00:24:49,857 --> 00:24:51,467 Right? And everything under this guise 625 00:24:51,511 --> 00:24:53,643 of just checking in and just asking how I was doing. 626 00:24:53,687 --> 00:24:54,992 "How are you feeling?" You know? 627 00:24:55,036 --> 00:24:57,821 I -- [Laughs] I knew they meant well, 628 00:24:57,865 --> 00:25:01,608 but I also knew what was behind it -- guilt. 629 00:25:01,651 --> 00:25:03,914 So, I -- Pbht. I don't know, how am I feeling? 630 00:25:03,958 --> 00:25:05,873 How are you feeling? 'Cause that -- Like --[ Laughing ] 631 00:25:05,916 --> 00:25:07,483 [ Both laugh ] 632 00:25:07,527 --> 00:25:09,050 'Cause as much as I couldn't fix this problem, 633 00:25:09,093 --> 00:25:10,573 at least I knew it was there. 634 00:25:10,617 --> 00:25:12,314 And for a better reason than I was just 635 00:25:12,357 --> 00:25:13,663 stuck inside my house this time 636 00:25:13,707 --> 00:25:15,970 and I couldn't look away. 637 00:25:16,013 --> 00:25:17,885 Yeah. 638 00:25:17,928 --> 00:25:21,453 And the way they're talking about him already. 639 00:25:21,497 --> 00:25:23,760 Yeah. T-T-The spin already afoot 640 00:25:23,804 --> 00:25:25,762 by usual suspects in the media 641 00:25:25,806 --> 00:25:29,244 trying to vilify him rather than the murder of him. 642 00:25:29,287 --> 00:25:30,767 You kn-- You know what's almost 643 00:25:30,811 --> 00:25:32,029 equally as enraging to me, too? 644 00:25:32,073 --> 00:25:34,902 It's the people patting themselves on the back 645 00:25:34,945 --> 00:25:36,468 trying to humanize him. 646 00:25:36,512 --> 00:25:38,427 It's like, you're trying to humanize a person. 647 00:25:38,470 --> 00:25:39,776 [ Exhales sharply ] 648 00:25:39,820 --> 00:25:42,474 Do you really have to look for proof 649 00:25:42,518 --> 00:25:43,867 that we're people, too? 650 00:25:43,911 --> 00:25:44,999 [ Scoffs ] Really? 651 00:25:45,042 --> 00:25:46,435 We should care more about him 652 00:25:46,478 --> 00:25:48,002 because he was a -- a good father 653 00:25:48,045 --> 00:25:49,525 or a loving brother 654 00:25:49,569 --> 00:25:50,918 or a high-school athlete or he's fun at a party? 655 00:25:50,961 --> 00:25:52,659 No, we -- we should care about him 656 00:25:52,702 --> 00:25:53,877 because he was a person. 657 00:25:55,966 --> 00:25:57,664 [ Voice breaking ] George Floyd shouldn't have been 658 00:25:57,707 --> 00:26:00,667 treated this way because he's a person. 659 00:26:00,710 --> 00:26:03,147 A cop... 660 00:26:05,062 --> 00:26:07,195 ...should not have had his knee on his neck 661 00:26:07,238 --> 00:26:09,763 until the last gasp of life was choked out of him, 662 00:26:09,806 --> 00:26:11,634 because he is a person. 663 00:26:11,678 --> 00:26:14,376 [ Sirens wailing in distance ] 664 00:26:14,419 --> 00:26:17,292 [ Screams ] 665 00:26:17,335 --> 00:26:19,511 [ Glass shatters ] 666 00:26:19,555 --> 00:26:21,601 [ Sirens continue ] 667 00:26:21,644 --> 00:26:25,953 ♪♪ 668 00:26:25,996 --> 00:26:27,607 [ Scoffs ] 669 00:26:27,650 --> 00:26:30,610 So, do you think I could get into grad school, or...? 670 00:26:30,653 --> 00:26:33,351 You really gonna throw that brick? 671 00:26:33,395 --> 00:26:35,876 [ Sirens wailing ] 672 00:26:35,919 --> 00:26:38,182 [ Glass shatters ] 673 00:26:38,226 --> 00:26:43,840 ♪♪ 674 00:26:43,884 --> 00:26:49,541 ♪♪ 675 00:26:49,585 --> 00:26:51,979 I just want a back-up plan. 676 00:26:52,022 --> 00:26:53,720 ♪♪ 677 00:26:59,377 --> 00:27:01,031 [ Knock on door ] 678 00:27:02,337 --> 00:27:03,643 Diane: ♪ Little ditty 679 00:27:03,686 --> 00:27:06,210 ♪ About Jack and Diane ♪ 680 00:27:06,254 --> 00:27:07,690 I'm sorry. 681 00:27:07,734 --> 00:27:09,866 I'm sure I'm not the one you're here to talk to. 682 00:27:09,910 --> 00:27:12,173 I'm here to talk to anyone who needs it. 683 00:27:12,216 --> 00:27:14,610 I'm afraid to talk to anyone right now. 684 00:27:14,654 --> 00:27:16,090 Not just you -- t-to anyone. 685 00:27:16,133 --> 00:27:18,092 I'm afraid to talk to my best friend. 686 00:27:18,135 --> 00:27:19,659 Ah, Miller. 687 00:27:21,008 --> 00:27:23,401 I'm afraid I'm gonna get every word wrong, 688 00:27:23,445 --> 00:27:25,055 or even one word. 689 00:27:25,099 --> 00:27:26,666 Yeah, I know I'm not a racist. 690 00:27:26,709 --> 00:27:28,232 Ohh. I-I know that. 691 00:27:28,276 --> 00:27:31,627 You do realize that "I'm not racist" is kind of 692 00:27:31,671 --> 00:27:34,717 the -- the club slogan of racists? 693 00:27:34,761 --> 00:27:36,806 And that's because we live in a culture 694 00:27:36,850 --> 00:27:38,634 built on white supremacy, 695 00:27:38,678 --> 00:27:40,723 so the racism is baked in. 696 00:27:40,767 --> 00:27:42,769 And we can't begin to undo it 697 00:27:42,812 --> 00:27:43,857 until we name it and own it. 698 00:27:43,900 --> 00:27:45,641 Okay, see, this is exactly my point. 699 00:27:45,685 --> 00:27:47,861 You know, I'm damned if I do, and I'm damned if I don't. 700 00:27:47,904 --> 00:27:50,385 Cops take a knee, join the protests, 701 00:27:50,428 --> 00:27:52,039 they're called hypocrites. 702 00:27:52,082 --> 00:27:53,823 And Dixon? He is a hypocrite. 703 00:27:53,867 --> 00:27:55,825 He is a racist. 704 00:27:55,869 --> 00:27:58,349 But it can't be that across the board. 705 00:28:00,047 --> 00:28:02,919 Jack, you come to see me twice a month, 706 00:28:02,963 --> 00:28:06,401 so I have to assume that you like me, right? 707 00:28:06,444 --> 00:28:08,708 You like that I give you tough love 708 00:28:08,751 --> 00:28:10,753 and tell it like it is and don't pull punches? 709 00:28:12,102 --> 00:28:14,539 And you came in here today looking for some clarity. 710 00:28:14,583 --> 00:28:16,106 So, here it is. 711 00:28:16,150 --> 00:28:18,369 I know what you mean 712 00:28:18,413 --> 00:28:19,936 when you say you aren't racist, 713 00:28:19,980 --> 00:28:21,198 and I believe 714 00:28:21,242 --> 00:28:24,724 that you do not have hatred in your heart. 715 00:28:24,767 --> 00:28:28,075 But you also aren't damned. 716 00:28:28,118 --> 00:28:29,685 Not even in the least bit. 717 00:28:29,729 --> 00:28:33,167 You're blessed as hell. 718 00:28:33,210 --> 00:28:35,343 I know you grew up on the streets in the system, 719 00:28:35,386 --> 00:28:37,911 and I'm not diminishing your hardship, 720 00:28:37,954 --> 00:28:39,782 but you are --[ Indistinct shouting ] 721 00:28:39,826 --> 00:28:41,262 Yeah, I'm privileged because I'm white. 722 00:28:41,305 --> 00:28:42,785 I get it. 723 00:28:42,829 --> 00:28:46,397 When I was a kid -- when I was squatting -- 724 00:28:46,441 --> 00:28:48,922 after that last foster home, 725 00:28:48,965 --> 00:28:51,751 there were a few of us who would hunker down 726 00:28:51,794 --> 00:28:54,101 to make a place for ourselves. 727 00:28:54,144 --> 00:28:55,319 [ Sirens wailing ]You know, to stay out of the system. 728 00:28:55,363 --> 00:28:57,713 Eventually, the cops would find us, 729 00:28:57,757 --> 00:28:59,280 and we'd run. 730 00:28:59,323 --> 00:29:01,630 And it was scary. 731 00:29:01,673 --> 00:29:03,719 But when I was being chased, 732 00:29:03,763 --> 00:29:06,243 not once did I think that, 733 00:29:06,287 --> 00:29:11,161 "If he catches me, he might kill me." 734 00:29:11,205 --> 00:29:12,815 ♪♪ 735 00:29:12,859 --> 00:29:14,817 I never feared for my life. 736 00:29:14,861 --> 00:29:16,471 ♪♪ 737 00:29:16,514 --> 00:29:20,649 But I know some of my friends did. 738 00:29:20,692 --> 00:29:23,086 I know I'm privileged, Diane. 739 00:29:25,045 --> 00:29:27,395 I watched what those cops did to Miller, 740 00:29:27,438 --> 00:29:29,353 I watched that video, 741 00:29:29,397 --> 00:29:32,356 and I want to blow up the world. 742 00:29:32,400 --> 00:29:34,358 And? 743 00:29:34,402 --> 00:29:36,491 And... 744 00:29:36,534 --> 00:29:38,841 we're firefighters. 745 00:29:38,885 --> 00:29:42,192 We need the cops, and they need us. 746 00:29:42,236 --> 00:29:44,020 And we can't all of a sudden overnight decide 747 00:29:44,064 --> 00:29:45,805 that the whole institution is evil. 748 00:29:45,848 --> 00:29:48,720 Some good guys stayed silent, 749 00:29:48,764 --> 00:29:51,245 and that makes them bad. 750 00:29:51,288 --> 00:29:55,553 Except, they're not actually all bad. 751 00:29:55,597 --> 00:29:57,991 They're individuals. 752 00:29:58,034 --> 00:30:00,036 And I feel like I'm not allowed to say that. 753 00:30:00,080 --> 00:30:04,867 I'm afraid to say anything. 754 00:30:04,911 --> 00:30:05,737 Mm. 755 00:30:06,782 --> 00:30:08,044 [ Inhales deeply ] 756 00:30:08,088 --> 00:30:11,134 I was a firefighter, too. 757 00:30:11,178 --> 00:30:14,007 I have cop buddies, too. 758 00:30:14,050 --> 00:30:17,837 Our cop buddies are not the point. 759 00:30:21,753 --> 00:30:24,408 Do you know what the 13th Amendment did? 760 00:30:25,845 --> 00:30:27,672 Abolished slavery. 761 00:30:27,716 --> 00:30:30,023 Except as a punishment for a crime. 762 00:30:30,066 --> 00:30:31,720 Yeah, but that was like -- 763 00:30:31,763 --> 00:30:33,026 That's still the law. 764 00:30:33,069 --> 00:30:36,551 It is still legal to enslave Americans 765 00:30:36,594 --> 00:30:38,727 as a punishment for a crime. 766 00:30:38,770 --> 00:30:40,816 And do you know the statistics 767 00:30:40,860 --> 00:30:42,949 of incarcerated Black folks in America? 768 00:30:42,992 --> 00:30:44,951 34%. 769 00:30:44,994 --> 00:30:47,562 We are 34% of the prison population, 770 00:30:47,605 --> 00:30:51,131 but we only make up 13% of this country's population. 771 00:30:51,174 --> 00:30:52,959 That seem right to you? 772 00:30:53,002 --> 00:30:54,786 And you're thinking, 773 00:30:54,830 --> 00:30:57,572 "Well, that's because more Black people are poor, 774 00:30:57,615 --> 00:30:59,226 so they have to resort to crime. 775 00:30:59,269 --> 00:31:01,663 So they get arrested more. 776 00:31:01,706 --> 00:31:04,492 Sucks for them, but, hey, you do the crime, you do the time." 777 00:31:04,535 --> 00:31:07,147 But how many crimes did you commit, Jack, 778 00:31:07,190 --> 00:31:09,236 when you were out there on the streets? 779 00:31:10,454 --> 00:31:13,849 Did you, uh, steal to eat? Did you run from police? 780 00:31:13,893 --> 00:31:15,807 Did you get drunk sometimes and make a mess with your friends? 781 00:31:15,851 --> 00:31:17,635 Yeah, all of that. 782 00:31:17,679 --> 00:31:19,028 But you never went to prison. 783 00:31:19,072 --> 00:31:20,551 Never went to jail. 784 00:31:20,595 --> 00:31:23,032 Never had a gun pointed at you. 785 00:31:23,076 --> 00:31:25,513 Never have a knee put on your neck. 786 00:31:25,556 --> 00:31:28,733 When you make mistakes, you get to learn from them. 787 00:31:28,777 --> 00:31:31,867 When people who look like me make any kind of mistake, 788 00:31:31,911 --> 00:31:34,696 we go to prison... or worse. 789 00:31:34,739 --> 00:31:38,439 And way too often, no mistake is needed. 790 00:31:38,482 --> 00:31:40,876 We can laugh too loud and they'll arrest us. 791 00:31:40,920 --> 00:31:42,356 We can put our hands in the air, 792 00:31:42,399 --> 00:31:43,444 and they'll shoot us. 793 00:31:43,487 --> 00:31:45,228 It's not in the past. 794 00:31:45,272 --> 00:31:47,013 It's now. It's still. 795 00:31:47,056 --> 00:31:49,276 ♪♪ 796 00:31:49,319 --> 00:31:52,583 And I know you don't have hatred in your heart, Jack. 797 00:31:52,627 --> 00:31:54,585 But that's not enough anymore. 798 00:31:54,629 --> 00:31:56,544 You have to dig deeper. 799 00:31:56,587 --> 00:31:58,676 When you're too uncomfortable to talk 800 00:31:58,720 --> 00:32:00,591 and you don't know what to say? 801 00:32:00,635 --> 00:32:02,680 That's okay. 802 00:32:02,724 --> 00:32:05,205 Listen instead. 803 00:32:05,248 --> 00:32:12,864 ♪♪ 804 00:32:13,953 --> 00:32:16,477 [ Sighs ] 805 00:32:18,305 --> 00:32:20,437 I know. 806 00:32:20,481 --> 00:32:23,179 You want me to talk to her. 807 00:32:23,223 --> 00:32:28,793 No, I want you to do whatever you need to do. 808 00:32:37,498 --> 00:32:40,196 [ Footsteps retreat ] 809 00:32:46,724 --> 00:32:49,249 [ Knock on door ] 810 00:32:50,859 --> 00:32:53,166 Hey, there.Yeah? 811 00:32:53,209 --> 00:32:54,341 Is it alright if we come in? 812 00:32:54,384 --> 00:32:56,299 You guys okay? 813 00:32:56,343 --> 00:32:57,735 You need medical attention or anything? 814 00:32:57,779 --> 00:32:59,172 Oh, no. I was just hoping 815 00:32:59,215 --> 00:33:01,652 someone could show my boys around the station. 816 00:33:01,696 --> 00:33:03,437 Can we slide down the pole? 817 00:33:03,480 --> 00:33:06,092 Sorry, but the station tours are cancelled because of COVID. 818 00:33:06,135 --> 00:33:07,223 I'm sorry. Aww! 819 00:33:07,267 --> 00:33:09,269 Can we go now? 820 00:33:09,312 --> 00:33:13,534 Hey, guys, um -- just, um, wait for me 821 00:33:13,577 --> 00:33:15,188 out there on the bench for me, okay?Ugh, fine. 822 00:33:15,231 --> 00:33:16,798 I'll be right out. 823 00:33:16,841 --> 00:33:19,844 Uh, look, u-- sir, I'm -- I'm sorry, but I... 824 00:33:23,283 --> 00:33:24,936 My kids saw the video. 825 00:33:26,242 --> 00:33:27,591 They watched it. 826 00:33:27,635 --> 00:33:29,419 I didn't tell them that they could, 827 00:33:29,463 --> 00:33:31,073 but it's all over social media. 828 00:33:31,117 --> 00:33:34,033 And before I even got home from work, 829 00:33:34,076 --> 00:33:35,817 they had watched it. 830 00:33:35,860 --> 00:33:40,082 My 11-year-old slept with his comfort blanket last night. 831 00:33:40,126 --> 00:33:43,085 He dug it out of storage and he hid it under his pillow. 832 00:33:43,129 --> 00:33:45,087 He thought I didn't see it. 833 00:33:45,131 --> 00:33:48,525 He hasn't slept with that since he was 8 years old. 834 00:33:48,569 --> 00:33:51,050 They don't understand, 835 00:33:51,093 --> 00:33:53,530 and I cannot find any honest words 836 00:33:53,574 --> 00:33:55,097 to explain it to them. 837 00:33:55,141 --> 00:33:58,840 But I saw your station on the news, 838 00:33:58,883 --> 00:34:01,060 and I knew that there were Black firefighters here. 839 00:34:01,103 --> 00:34:03,888 And I thought that my boys should see 840 00:34:03,932 --> 00:34:07,109 good people in uniform -- people that look like them. 841 00:34:07,153 --> 00:34:10,156 So...please. 842 00:34:13,680 --> 00:34:15,204 Stand back, sir. Please. 843 00:34:27,303 --> 00:34:28,870 You all have to sanitize, alright? 844 00:34:28,912 --> 00:34:30,827 Come on. Let's go. 845 00:34:30,872 --> 00:34:32,394 Hey, guys, come on!Come on, boys. 846 00:34:32,439 --> 00:34:33,352 Here you guys go. 847 00:34:40,490 --> 00:34:41,970 [ Sniffles ] 848 00:34:44,146 --> 00:34:46,104 [ Breathes deeply ] 849 00:34:46,148 --> 00:34:47,802 [ Sniffles ] 850 00:34:50,196 --> 00:34:53,329 [ Sniffles ] 851 00:34:53,372 --> 00:34:56,115 Uh -- Uh... 852 00:34:56,158 --> 00:34:58,682 [ Sighs, sniffles ] 853 00:34:58,726 --> 00:35:02,077 [ Crying, sniffling ] 854 00:35:02,121 --> 00:35:04,427 [ Breathing deeply ] 855 00:35:05,820 --> 00:35:09,519 [ Sighs ] 856 00:35:12,609 --> 00:35:14,089 [ Breathes unsteadily ] 857 00:35:18,485 --> 00:35:20,791 Thanks. 858 00:35:22,228 --> 00:35:24,055 [ Sniffles ] 859 00:35:24,099 --> 00:35:25,318 [ Breathes deeply ] 860 00:35:25,361 --> 00:35:27,450 [ Rubs hands ] 861 00:35:27,494 --> 00:35:29,670 [ Inhales deeply ] 862 00:35:33,587 --> 00:35:34,718 [ Door closes ] 863 00:35:34,762 --> 00:35:35,893 [ Exhales sharply ] 864 00:35:37,982 --> 00:35:39,941 [ Inhales deeply ] 865 00:35:39,984 --> 00:35:42,944 ♪♪ 866 00:35:42,987 --> 00:35:45,860 See that?[ Laughing ] Whoa! 867 00:35:45,903 --> 00:35:47,818 This is Station 19.Oh, this thing is huge! 868 00:35:47,862 --> 00:35:49,864 Awesome.Whoa, it's so -- 869 00:35:49,907 --> 00:35:51,431 Firefighter, baby!Perfect, yeah. 870 00:35:51,474 --> 00:35:53,128 Does it look good on me?Of course it does, yeah! 871 00:35:53,172 --> 00:35:54,651 I'm wearing a firefighter helmet!Whoa! 872 00:35:54,695 --> 00:35:56,218 Unh! 873 00:35:56,262 --> 00:35:58,002 Yeah, man! 874 00:35:58,046 --> 00:35:59,830 Hey! Hi!Hi! 875 00:35:59,874 --> 00:36:01,223 Oh, hey! 876 00:36:01,267 --> 00:36:02,616 Bye!Bye! Say thank you. 877 00:36:02,659 --> 00:36:03,965 Sullivan: Come on.Thank you! 878 00:36:16,847 --> 00:36:19,110 [ Mutters indistinctly ] 879 00:36:22,288 --> 00:36:24,551 [ Sighs ] 880 00:36:29,295 --> 00:36:32,820 This one was different. 881 00:36:32,863 --> 00:36:34,125 This wasn't just another video 882 00:36:34,169 --> 00:36:37,259 of an innocent Black man being shot by police. 883 00:36:37,303 --> 00:36:40,523 This wasn't an officer making a split-second decision 884 00:36:40,567 --> 00:36:44,484 that resulted in another Black man losing his life. 885 00:36:44,527 --> 00:36:48,270 This wasn't fight-or-flight or panic-induced impulse 886 00:36:48,314 --> 00:36:50,838 or unconscious bias or unnecessary escalation. 887 00:36:50,881 --> 00:36:54,102 This was the murder of an unarmed, defenseless, 888 00:36:54,145 --> 00:36:55,756 compliant Black man 889 00:36:55,799 --> 00:36:58,498 in the middle of the street in broad daylight. 890 00:36:58,541 --> 00:37:00,282 Right in front of our eyes -- 891 00:37:00,326 --> 00:37:02,284 all of our eyes. 892 00:37:02,328 --> 00:37:04,155 And, you know, white people are finally realizing 893 00:37:04,199 --> 00:37:07,681 that we aren't hysterical or beating a dead horse. 894 00:37:09,335 --> 00:37:11,337 They saw that white woman in Central Park 895 00:37:11,380 --> 00:37:14,731 casually use a racist police system as a weapon, 896 00:37:14,775 --> 00:37:17,734 and they're starting to understand 897 00:37:17,778 --> 00:37:22,130 that all of it renders us Black people terrorized. 898 00:37:22,173 --> 00:37:23,610 Hunted. 899 00:37:23,653 --> 00:37:28,179 Exhausted by everyday life. 900 00:37:31,270 --> 00:37:33,576 And, you know, I'm tired. 901 00:37:33,620 --> 00:37:36,187 I'm -- And I'm mad, and I'm sad. 902 00:37:36,231 --> 00:37:40,104 And I'm tired for having to explain why I'm mad and sad. 903 00:37:41,671 --> 00:37:44,935 I'm mad because I have to take a magic pause 904 00:37:44,979 --> 00:37:48,591 every time I'm being tracked by eyeballs in a store. 905 00:37:48,635 --> 00:37:52,029 Or when people who are in life-threatening danger 906 00:37:52,073 --> 00:37:55,206 choose to take their chances by themselves 907 00:37:55,250 --> 00:37:58,558 rather than being rescued by a Black firefighter. 908 00:37:58,601 --> 00:38:01,038 [ Scoffs ] 909 00:38:06,261 --> 00:38:08,698 But, you know, mostly, I'm scared. 910 00:38:08,742 --> 00:38:10,831 I'm scared. 911 00:38:12,702 --> 00:38:15,401 Because no matter how tired I am, 912 00:38:15,444 --> 00:38:18,317 how mad I get, how sad I get, 913 00:38:18,360 --> 00:38:22,799 there's nothing I can say to change their minds. 914 00:38:22,843 --> 00:38:24,366 There's nothing I can do 915 00:38:24,410 --> 00:38:28,718 that will make them see me as a hardworking professional. 916 00:38:28,762 --> 00:38:30,764 A loving husband. 917 00:38:30,807 --> 00:38:34,768 Or just a man. 918 00:38:34,811 --> 00:38:37,684 There's nothing that prevents something like this 919 00:38:37,727 --> 00:38:39,294 from happening to me. 920 00:38:39,338 --> 00:38:41,427 Nothing. 921 00:38:41,470 --> 00:38:44,473 I'm scared because I am eight minutes away 922 00:38:44,517 --> 00:38:48,216 from being another George Floyd. 923 00:38:48,259 --> 00:38:51,219 ♪♪ 924 00:38:51,262 --> 00:38:53,787 [ Sighs ] 925 00:38:55,092 --> 00:38:57,268 We're a quiet bunch tonight. [ Chuckles ] 926 00:38:57,312 --> 00:38:59,880 Look, I'm just -- I'm just glad to see your faces. 927 00:38:59,923 --> 00:39:02,099 You know, know you're good and safe. 928 00:39:02,143 --> 00:39:04,450 Are you sure we can't go to the protest? 929 00:39:04,493 --> 00:39:06,321 A bunch of my friends are going. 930 00:39:06,365 --> 00:39:08,323 They're all masked and everything. 931 00:39:08,367 --> 00:39:09,890 I'll follow your lead, Ben. 932 00:39:09,933 --> 00:39:13,023 Another Black Trans woman was killed today. 933 00:39:13,067 --> 00:39:15,678 Tuck --I want to march, Aunt Roz. 934 00:39:15,722 --> 00:39:17,767 I want to march for you and for myself. 935 00:39:17,811 --> 00:39:19,160 I want to march. 936 00:39:19,203 --> 00:39:22,555 W-W-Why won't you let us march? 937 00:39:25,514 --> 00:39:26,515 Travis: You sure? Hey. 938 00:39:26,559 --> 00:39:27,864 It'll be great. 939 00:39:27,908 --> 00:39:29,779 I was thinking tomorrow after shift, 940 00:39:29,823 --> 00:39:31,302 Captain Bishop has given the all-clear 941 00:39:31,346 --> 00:39:33,174 for us to go to a protest. 942 00:39:33,217 --> 00:39:35,481 Us? 943 00:39:35,524 --> 00:39:38,135 I'd like to go, if you'll have me. 944 00:39:38,179 --> 00:39:39,746 Uh -- 945 00:39:41,574 --> 00:39:43,445 Cool. [ Laughs ]Vic: Yeah. 946 00:39:43,489 --> 00:39:45,186 Um, but if anybody comes at us with weapons, 947 00:39:45,229 --> 00:39:48,450 it is your job to put your body between us and them. 948 00:39:48,494 --> 00:39:50,452 Got it.Yeah, he's not kidding. 949 00:39:50,496 --> 00:39:51,671 I'm not kidding. 950 00:39:51,714 --> 00:39:53,673 I kinda figured, yeah. 951 00:39:53,716 --> 00:39:56,110 Okay. [ Laughs ] 952 00:39:57,764 --> 00:40:00,114 [ Sighs ] 953 00:40:07,513 --> 00:40:10,385 [ Chuckles ] 954 00:40:12,343 --> 00:40:14,302 I was so desperate for a promotion 955 00:40:14,345 --> 00:40:18,219 that I was gonna try and stop Miller's lawsuit, 956 00:40:18,262 --> 00:40:21,265 which is the best shot we have at anything changing. 957 00:40:21,309 --> 00:40:23,267 Robert... 958 00:40:23,311 --> 00:40:27,271 This demotion has been humbling. 959 00:40:27,315 --> 00:40:28,708 It's been humbling, 960 00:40:28,751 --> 00:40:32,494 and I've had so many dark thoughts. 961 00:40:32,538 --> 00:40:37,368 Sometimes, I doubt my own... 962 00:40:37,412 --> 00:40:40,110 my own goodness. 963 00:40:40,154 --> 00:40:44,506 No one is just good. 964 00:40:44,550 --> 00:40:47,509 We -- We make mistakes, and we learn from them, 965 00:40:47,553 --> 00:40:48,728 and we do better next time. 966 00:40:48,771 --> 00:40:50,294 That's how goodness works. 967 00:40:50,338 --> 00:40:53,515 It's not about purity. 968 00:40:53,559 --> 00:40:57,171 It's about -- It's about growth. 969 00:40:57,214 --> 00:41:06,267 ♪♪ 970 00:41:07,268 --> 00:41:09,792 ♪♪ 971 00:41:09,836 --> 00:41:11,794 [ Laughter, chatter ][ Sighs ] 972 00:41:11,838 --> 00:41:13,187 Let's get into the car real quick.I -- 973 00:41:13,230 --> 00:41:14,580 19. 974 00:41:14,623 --> 00:41:16,582 Hopefully this goes without saying, 975 00:41:16,625 --> 00:41:19,367 but although you have the right to peacefully protest 976 00:41:19,410 --> 00:41:21,412 and my wholehearted support, 977 00:41:21,456 --> 00:41:25,112 I trust that you will not engage in any activity or action 978 00:41:25,155 --> 00:41:28,419 that will bring discredit to you, 19, or the SFD. 979 00:41:28,463 --> 00:41:30,421 ♪♪ 980 00:41:30,465 --> 00:41:32,162 19. 981 00:41:32,206 --> 00:41:34,077 19.19. 19.19. 982 00:41:34,121 --> 00:41:38,691 ♪ That people do when they have known true pain ♪ 983 00:41:38,734 --> 00:41:41,432 [ Indistinct conversations ]♪ What choice was he given? 984 00:41:41,476 --> 00:41:43,434 ♪ In this world that we're livin' ♪ 985 00:41:43,478 --> 00:41:44,914 All: No justice, no peace! 986 00:41:44,958 --> 00:41:47,003 ♪ When I see you 987 00:41:47,047 --> 00:41:49,223 ♪ I see love 988 00:41:49,266 --> 00:41:51,834 ♪ I see America 989 00:41:51,878 --> 00:41:53,793 No justice, no peace! No justice, no peace! 990 00:41:53,836 --> 00:41:56,360 ♪ I feel your pain 991 00:41:56,404 --> 00:41:58,188 ♪ I share your blood 992 00:41:58,232 --> 00:41:59,973 ♪ And I see America 993 00:42:00,016 --> 00:42:01,888 No justice, no peace! 994 00:42:01,931 --> 00:42:03,454 No justice, no peace! 995 00:42:03,498 --> 00:42:04,934 ♪ I see you 996 00:42:04,978 --> 00:42:06,283 ♪ When I see you 997 00:42:06,327 --> 00:42:07,589 ♪ I see love 998 00:42:07,633 --> 00:42:08,895 ♪ I see love 999 00:42:08,938 --> 00:42:10,723 ♪ I see America No justice, no peace! 1000 00:42:10,766 --> 00:42:12,768 No justice, no peace! 1001 00:42:23,649 --> 00:42:33,615 ♪♪ 1002 00:42:33,659 --> 00:42:43,625 ♪♪ 1003 00:42:43,669 --> 00:42:48,412 ♪♪