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Previously on "Station 19"...Andy: There's no way out. I'm trapped.

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You're not well.You can't --Exactly.

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That's why I'm gonnasave my daughter's life.

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Andy: Tía Sandra sent mea birthday card every year

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from age 10 to 15.

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He kept those from me.

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I thought my parentswere happy.

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And now I thinkmaybe she killed herself.

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Where's my girlfriend?

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You havea girlfriend?Sasha!

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Actually knew whatyou were doing.It was pretty hot.

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I think you shouldmove out.

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[ Laughing ]What?

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[ Groaning ]Dr. Shepherd orderedmorphine as needed.

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I-I need it!I need it!

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Did my mom...

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Andy.

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[ Gasps ]

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[ Breathing heavily ]

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Mami?

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What are you...

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[ Breathing heavily ]

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Sandra.

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[ Hyperventilating ]

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Sandra: Hey.

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♪♪

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♪♪

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Hey.

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How's the eulogy coming?

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It's not.[ Chuckles ]

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Yeah.

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Change of scenerymight help.

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Come on.It's time for the clapout.

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[ Inhales deeply ]

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[ Exhales sharply ]

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♪♪

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[ Siren wailing in distance ]

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[ Indistinct conversations ]

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♪♪

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Wow, this is unreal.

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God,do I miss my wife.

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I'm sorry.

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Sorry.No, no, it's fine.

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Robert and I choseto separate.

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You and Mirandadid not.

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Hey, Roz.Hey.

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W-- Hey.Whoa, whoa, whoa, whoa.

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Now, what are you guysdoing --

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The boys wantedto see their mom.

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Tuck: I know Auntie Rozis only staying with us

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while you and Momare quarantining at work,

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but can she --Can she move in with us?

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[ Laughter ]

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Alright, what did youbribe them with?

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What can I say?My auntie games is on point.

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[ Andy laughs ]19.

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Hey.

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Thank you guys for getting upan hour early.

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I --It means a lot to me.

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Oh, Mom!Miranda!

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My boys!

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What -- Oh.

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Benjamin Warren,you are a sight for sore eyes.

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And back and feet.[ Chuckles ]

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I miss you.

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I miss you.

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Oh, Rosalind,thank you.

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No, thank you.

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-Uh, how we doing on time?-We're about there.

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-Thank you, Dr. Bailey.-We love you, Bailey.

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-You're the best.-You guys, you guys, it's time.

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[ Cheers and applause ]

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♪♪

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♪♪

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Thank youfor all you do!

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[ Cheers and applause continue ]

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Thanks, Dr. Bailey!

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Thank you so much!

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We love you guys!

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We love you!

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♪♪

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[ Davie's "Roll With Me" plays ]

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Wait, you're giving themour toilet paper?

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Ourtoilet paper?

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You're giving themyour toilet paper?

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You're never gonna findyour own place, are you?

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I'm looking.

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I am!

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♪ But I'm too madlyin love with you ♪

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[ Doorbell rings ]

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Oh, hi, honey.

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Hi, Mom.Hi, Mom.

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Oh, I'm so gladto see you.

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Oh, my God.So many groceries.

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Vic: I know.Thank you.

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Is that toilet paper?

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♪♪

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♪ So, I'm gonnabet it all on you ♪

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Whoa, whoa, bud, bud.You forgetting something?

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He doesn't likewhen we wear the face mask

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because he can'tread lips.

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Yeah,I don't make the rules.

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I think it's horse crap,if you ask me.

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Yeah, that's what they saidabout seatbelts at first, too.

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[ Chuckles ]Inara, he's here.

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♪ Roll with me, roll with me

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♪ Oh, baby, roll with me

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Hi.Hey. Hi.

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You need anything?

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Just you.

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Uh, I mean that we all wishyou could hang out with us.

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Marcus is dying to show youhis train set.

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♪ Roll with me, roll with me

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Why am I signing?I don't know.

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♪ Roll with me, roll with me

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♪ Ooh, ooh-ooh,ooh, ooh-ooh ♪

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♪ Ooh-ooh-ooh, ooh, ooh-ooh

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♪ Ooh, ooh-ooh,ooh, ooh-ooh ♪

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Alright, we're here today

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to teach you the basicsof wildfire training.

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In the case of a wildland fireanywhere on the West Coast,

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we call on you to help back upthe fire companies.

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Questions?Yes?

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Yeah, what fire stationyou work at?

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My cousin, he works at, uh,SFD -- What is it? -- 23.

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Name's Barnes.

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Yeah,he's a good firefighter.

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Yeah,you work with him?

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We work for a companycalled Mavis.

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It's a privatefire company.

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[ Chuckles ]The hell does that mean?

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Means we get paid morethan your cousin.

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What it meansis that private clientele

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hire usto protect their property.

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Now, what we're gonnateach you today

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is called an anchor, flank,and pinch drill.

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It's the most useful tacticyou will learn today.

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A reminder thatthe virtual memorial service

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for Captain Herrera willtake place this afternoon.

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I can't believe after allthe crap we went through

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to get him hisLine of Duty funeral,

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we have to do iton the frickin' Internet.Agreed.

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Tell me again why we can'tjust wait until after lockdown.

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I mean,he was cremated anyway.

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'Cause we don't know when"after lockdown's" gonna be.

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Can't be more thana couple weeks, right?

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Yeah, you just keeptelling yourself that.

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Sorry!Sorry I'm late!

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Miller, Miller, you touch it,you clean it.

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Thanks for the reminder,Dad.

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[ Laughter ]

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[ Laughs mockingly ]

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Six feet apart.Come on.

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Come on.We live together.

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Temporarily.Just don't be mad, Dad.

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Wow. Okay, look -- look, guys,it's not that hard.

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19 is your household,

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so you don't have to wear masksin here,

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but you do still have tokeep your distance.

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That is a great segue.

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Hughes, when are you gonnaget your crap out of my place?

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[ Klaxons sound ]

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Dispatch: Aid car requested to Black Ball Hill rest area.

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You guys are luckyI'm not your dad,

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'cause if I was,you'd show more respect.

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Larson, six feet.

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Have a good day, Dad!Love you.

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So, Sasha offered to staywith me, help out with Pru.

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Also known asmoving in with you?

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No. We are justquarantining together.

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That's it.Okay.

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[ Siren wailing in distance ][ Chuckles ]

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What?No, man, it's your story.

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You tell itthe way you want to.

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[ Chuckles ]

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Herrera, you, um --you need anything today?

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All good.

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[ Andy breathing heavily]

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Don't touch me.

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I'm not this --I'm not this --

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This -- This --This isn't real.

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Andrea, this is real,and I know it's awful.

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I didn't want to --but you kept calling.

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No, no.You called and you called

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and you said you wantedto know the truth.

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Sweetheart.My sweet girl.

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This is the truth.

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Just hear her out.

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Just hear her out,honey.

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[ Breathing heavily ]

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[ Door closes ]

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I know this is a lot.No.

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It's probably too much.No, no, no, no, no.

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Andrea!Andrea!

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[ Breathing heavily ]

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Travis: Ooh.

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Oh.

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How...

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How does one even dateduring a pandemic?

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Same way as before.

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You just text each otherfor weeks

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until someonestops responding.

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This guy's profilejust says "snakes."

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Oh, do you think thatmeans he's interestedin snakes as a hobby,

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or is he interestedin snake-like men?

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Does it matter?

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[ Siren chirps ]

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One of youcall in a burn?

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Yeah.One of us did.

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Well, I'm sorry, youshouldn't be messingaround with health stuff.

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Well, then maybeyou shouldn't have come.

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Vic: Did you call us?You hurt?

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Uh, no.Billie is.

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Okay, can you put your mask onfor me, please?

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We broke down on our way backfrom...my mom's house.

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[ Chuckles ]Mom's house, huh?

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All of you?

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Uh, yeah.

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Wouldn't be breaking quarantineto party, would you?

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Yeah, your parents knowyou're out here?

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Where are your masks?They're in the car.

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I mean, you weren't even wearingthem in the car, either.

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Well, you know what?We work together, so...

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Travis: Yeah.Which makes us a bubble.

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What is your name?Uh, Kayden.

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It's my car.

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Okay. Hey, come here.What happened?

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Oh, I thought maybethe car overheated,

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so I opened up the radiator cap,and, um...

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Ooh. Ouch.Okay.

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Well, next time, wait forthe car to cool down first.

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What's your name again?Billie.

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Billie. Sweet.I'm Vic.

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You boys haven't been drinking,have you?

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Oh, I'm not a boy.

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Billie's nonbinary.

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Oh. Got it.Sorry about that.

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My bad.I'm Travis.

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He/him. Sometimes she.[ Snaps fingers ]

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I'm gonna -- Should I --I'm gonna check the car.

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The purpose of the anchor pointis to prevent the fire

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from burning around the endof the control line,

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possibly outflankingthe suppression crew,

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which is you guys.

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Alright?

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Good job.

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Let's take five.

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Stay whereI can see you.

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I hate this crap.

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What? Drills?

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No.

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Workingwith criminals.

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You know they're human beingswho made mistakes

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and now have the opportunityto learn a skill

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that will helpthe society they hurt?

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Yeah, I guess you would have tolook at it that way, huh?

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Why would I have tolook at it that way?

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Come on, man.

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Half these dudes are in herefor selling plants, but you --

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you steal Schedule II narcoticsoff an aid car?

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What?You thought I didn't know?

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Come on, man.Everybody talks.

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And everybody knows.

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My only question is,how'd you manage not toget locked up in here?

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00:10:14,156 --> 00:10:15,374
Nelligan: Are you sure?

268
00:10:15,418 --> 00:10:17,420
Could you do the testjust to be sure?

269
00:10:17,463 --> 00:10:20,379
Mr. Nelligan, the COVID testsare in short supply right now,

270
00:10:20,423 --> 00:10:22,164
so we have to limit themto people with symptoms.

271
00:10:22,207 --> 00:10:23,818
You know, I thinkI feel my throat

272
00:10:23,861 --> 00:10:25,515
closing upjust a tiny bit.

273
00:10:25,558 --> 00:10:28,431
[ Chuckles ] Well, then Isuggest you walk three blocks

274
00:10:28,474 --> 00:10:29,824
down the roadto Grey-Sloan.

275
00:10:29,867 --> 00:10:32,174
And risk getting itfrom someone there?

276
00:10:32,217 --> 00:10:35,351
Mr. Nelligan, it's the sameas I told you last week.

277
00:10:35,394 --> 00:10:37,440
The best thing you can dois stay home,

278
00:10:37,483 --> 00:10:39,224
wear a maskif you do go outside,

279
00:10:39,268 --> 00:10:41,183
and stay six feet awayfrom anyone else, okay?

280
00:10:41,226 --> 00:10:42,227
Fine.Fine.

281
00:10:42,271 --> 00:10:43,925
I don't knowwhat I pay taxes for

282
00:10:43,968 --> 00:10:46,405
if I can't get a testduring a pandemic.

283
00:10:49,017 --> 00:10:50,714
[ Door closes ]

284
00:10:50,758 --> 00:10:52,281
[ Andy breathing heavily]

285
00:10:52,324 --> 00:10:55,632
Andrea.Andrea.

286
00:10:55,676 --> 00:10:57,068
I'm sorry.

287
00:10:57,112 --> 00:10:58,374
I should havetold you --

288
00:10:58,417 --> 00:10:59,810
That my motheris alive?

289
00:10:59,854 --> 00:11:01,377
That she fakedher own death?

290
00:11:01,420 --> 00:11:02,944
That shelet me believe --

291
00:11:02,987 --> 00:11:04,554
Oh, my God, this is --You called me a lot of times.

292
00:11:04,597 --> 00:11:05,642
You saidyou wanted to talk.

293
00:11:05,686 --> 00:11:07,209
You said your fatherhad lied to you.

294
00:11:07,252 --> 00:11:08,558
You saidyou found my letters.

295
00:11:08,601 --> 00:11:09,864
I thought she hadkilled herself!

296
00:11:09,907 --> 00:11:12,214
I-I wanted to see you.I-I missed you.

297
00:11:12,257 --> 00:11:14,433
I wanted to know why you left meafter she died,

298
00:11:14,477 --> 00:11:16,044
why I neversaw you again, why --

299
00:11:16,087 --> 00:11:17,262
I missed you,Tía.

300
00:11:17,306 --> 00:11:18,655
I know,but how could I?

301
00:11:18,699 --> 00:11:20,613
How could I see you when --What could I have said?

302
00:11:20,657 --> 00:11:21,702
What could I have saidthat would be true?

303
00:11:21,745 --> 00:11:22,877
Did my dad know?

304
00:11:22,920 --> 00:11:24,922
Did he knowshe was alive?

305
00:11:24,966 --> 00:11:27,272
That's not my storyto tell, Andy.

306
00:11:27,316 --> 00:11:29,231
Your mother is here.

307
00:11:29,274 --> 00:11:30,754
She came a long wayto talk --

308
00:11:30,798 --> 00:11:32,277
She came a long way?

309
00:11:32,321 --> 00:11:34,018
You want meto give her credit?

310
00:11:34,061 --> 00:11:35,280
After 20 years?

311
00:11:35,324 --> 00:11:37,761
After 20 years,she came --

312
00:11:37,805 --> 00:11:38,762
[ Hyperventilating ]

313
00:11:38,806 --> 00:11:42,548
Andy. Andy, honey.

314
00:11:42,592 --> 00:11:49,991
♪♪

315
00:11:50,034 --> 00:11:52,907
Andrea, talk to her.

316
00:11:52,950 --> 00:11:55,692
You deserve to knowthe whole story,

317
00:11:55,736 --> 00:11:57,650
even if she doesn't deserveto tell it.

318
00:11:57,694 --> 00:12:00,175
♪♪

319
00:12:02,003 --> 00:12:04,570
Vic: I dunno, I just feel likeI need to vibe with a guy

320
00:12:04,614 --> 00:12:06,529
if I'm gonna risk my lifeto make out with him.

321
00:12:06,572 --> 00:12:08,052
Who said I was planningon making out?

322
00:12:08,096 --> 00:12:09,314
Oh, so you havezero intention

323
00:12:09,358 --> 00:12:10,663
of actually sleepingwith any of these guys?

324
00:12:10,707 --> 00:12:12,796
We will crossthat bridge...

325
00:12:12,840 --> 00:12:14,319
when it becomesimpossible not to.

326
00:12:14,363 --> 00:12:16,060
[ Laughs ]

327
00:12:16,104 --> 00:12:18,802
Anyway, it's likegoing to the gym.

328
00:12:18,846 --> 00:12:22,501
You stretch before and then...wipe everything down after.

329
00:12:22,545 --> 00:12:23,502
[ Laughs ]

330
00:12:23,546 --> 00:12:24,895
Speaking of which,actually,

331
00:12:24,939 --> 00:12:27,724
what is going onwith Herrera and Sullivan?

332
00:12:27,768 --> 00:12:29,073
Oh, my God.

333
00:12:29,117 --> 00:12:30,814
What? What?Who is it?

334
00:12:30,858 --> 00:12:32,381
Who is it?

335
00:12:32,424 --> 00:12:34,949
Car fire at Black Ball Hill rest area.

336
00:12:34,992 --> 00:12:36,254
That's those kids.

337
00:12:36,298 --> 00:12:37,865
What the helldid they do?

338
00:12:37,908 --> 00:12:40,302
[ Tires screech ]

339
00:12:40,345 --> 00:12:47,178
♪♪

340
00:12:47,222 --> 00:12:48,832
[ Billie screams ]

341
00:12:51,226 --> 00:12:52,923
[ Screams ]

342
00:12:52,967 --> 00:12:57,319
♪♪

343
00:12:57,362 --> 00:12:59,060
[ Screams ]

344
00:13:05,501 --> 00:13:07,416
[ Klaxons sound ]So, should I do it?

345
00:13:07,459 --> 00:13:08,504
What?Let Sasha quarantine with me.

346
00:13:08,547 --> 00:13:09,679
You meanmove in with you?

347
00:13:09,722 --> 00:13:11,246
Look, I have a baby,alright?

348
00:13:11,289 --> 00:13:13,596
I have a whole tiny humanwith a very big cry

349
00:13:13,639 --> 00:13:14,989
and a great many a need,

350
00:13:15,032 --> 00:13:17,730
and it's just the two of uslocked up together, man.

351
00:13:17,774 --> 00:13:20,298
And frankly, firefighting isway easier than childrearing,

352
00:13:20,342 --> 00:13:21,473
and Sasha wants to help.

353
00:13:21,517 --> 00:13:23,432
So, I should justlet her help, right?

354
00:13:23,475 --> 00:13:24,955
Yeah, okay.

355
00:13:24,999 --> 00:13:27,305
But you actually like her,right?

356
00:13:27,349 --> 00:13:29,481
Yeah, sure.Yes, yes.

357
00:13:29,525 --> 00:13:30,918
[ Laughs ]Laughing's not helpful.

358
00:13:30,961 --> 00:13:31,832
That doesn't help.

359
00:13:31,875 --> 00:13:33,398
[ Laughs ]

360
00:13:34,791 --> 00:13:36,488
[ Siren wailing ][ Laughs ]

361
00:13:36,532 --> 00:13:38,099
Hey. We told youto wait for a tow.

362
00:13:38,142 --> 00:13:39,404
He tried to fix it.

363
00:13:39,448 --> 00:13:40,710
He thought he could fix it,and it -- it --

364
00:13:40,753 --> 00:13:42,277
It blew up?Okay.

365
00:13:42,320 --> 00:13:43,539
Billie, was anyone else hurt?It blew up.

366
00:13:43,582 --> 00:13:45,323
Why did it blow up?!Billie, were they hurt?

367
00:13:45,367 --> 00:13:47,760
They ran. I-I don't know.I don't know. They ran.

368
00:13:47,804 --> 00:13:49,545
Why did they run?[ Sniffs ]

369
00:13:49,588 --> 00:13:52,504
Billie, are you just scared,or are you on something?

370
00:13:52,548 --> 00:13:53,505
Huh?

371
00:13:53,549 --> 00:13:55,159
Billie?Billie!

372
00:13:57,031 --> 00:13:58,815
Ladder 19,this is Aid Car 19.

373
00:13:58,859 --> 00:14:00,077
I have an 18-year-old male

374
00:14:00,121 --> 00:14:02,340
with full thickness burnsfrom a car explosion,

375
00:14:02,384 --> 00:14:04,821
three other teenagers MIA,possibly injured,

376
00:14:04,865 --> 00:14:06,692
possibly high,definitely stupid.

377
00:14:06,736 --> 00:14:08,651
Copy, Hughes.We're four minutes out.

378
00:14:08,694 --> 00:14:10,914
Get the patient in the aid carand ready to go when we arrive.

379
00:14:10,958 --> 00:14:12,655
[ Siren wailing ]

380
00:14:12,698 --> 00:14:15,310
Dispatch,I need four more aid cars

381
00:14:15,353 --> 00:14:17,442
at Black Ball Hillrest area.

382
00:14:19,749 --> 00:14:21,794
Tell me againwhat my dad said to you

383
00:14:21,838 --> 00:14:24,449
before he went upthat ladder.

384
00:14:24,493 --> 00:14:25,842
He said, "Tell Andreaeverything I did --"

385
00:14:25,886 --> 00:14:27,713
"Everything I did,I did because I loved her."

386
00:14:27,757 --> 00:14:28,932
Right?

387
00:14:31,543 --> 00:14:33,328
Are you gonna put itin the eulogy?

388
00:14:35,983 --> 00:14:37,201
Elena:Don't you want to sit?

389
00:14:37,245 --> 00:14:38,550
Did my father beat you?

390
00:14:38,594 --> 00:14:41,640
Did he --Did he torture you?

391
00:14:41,684 --> 00:14:43,860
Was -- Was he a monsterand I just never knew it?

392
00:14:43,904 --> 00:14:47,472
No. I was overwhelmedfrom the minute you were born.

393
00:14:47,516 --> 00:14:49,735
I-I was in over my head.I-I...

394
00:14:49,779 --> 00:14:52,956
I never planned to be a mother,but I loved you.

395
00:14:53,000 --> 00:14:55,263
I-I love you.

396
00:14:55,306 --> 00:14:57,134
I just wantedto fight fires,

397
00:14:57,178 --> 00:14:58,570
and I know that youget that, m'ija.

398
00:14:58,614 --> 00:15:00,094
Can you notcall me that?

399
00:15:00,137 --> 00:15:01,660
Papi calls me that.

400
00:15:03,619 --> 00:15:07,014
I got pregnant,and I thought I was wrong.

401
00:15:07,057 --> 00:15:08,667
I was told I was wrong.

402
00:15:08,711 --> 00:15:11,018
I was told that I wouldlove being a mother.

403
00:15:11,061 --> 00:15:13,977
Elena: I was told thatthe minute I held you in my arms

404
00:15:14,021 --> 00:15:16,937
that I would forget aboutevery dream I had before you,

405
00:15:16,980 --> 00:15:17,981
but that didn't happen.

406
00:15:18,025 --> 00:15:21,506
You were born,and I loved you,

407
00:15:21,550 --> 00:15:23,421
but I also resented you,

408
00:15:23,465 --> 00:15:25,902
and I resented your father

409
00:15:25,946 --> 00:15:28,949
for getting to do the one thingwe both wanted to do.

410
00:15:28,992 --> 00:15:30,559
I was so depressed.

411
00:15:30,602 --> 00:15:34,476
I became unstable,self-loathing, angry, violent.

412
00:15:34,519 --> 00:15:36,173
And that wasa different time.

413
00:15:36,217 --> 00:15:38,349
No one ever talked aboutmental health back then,

414
00:15:38,393 --> 00:15:39,785
especially notfor mothers.

415
00:15:39,829 --> 00:15:42,788
I felt hopeless.I felt like a failure.

416
00:15:42,832 --> 00:15:45,269
I wanted to die becausethere was no way out.

417
00:15:45,313 --> 00:15:47,750
There was not a way outthat wouldn't destroy you.

418
00:15:47,793 --> 00:15:49,708
But I loved you.

419
00:15:49,752 --> 00:15:51,797
I still love you, Andy.

420
00:15:51,841 --> 00:15:53,582
W-Where --Where did you go?

421
00:15:53,625 --> 00:15:56,411
I went to New York,where my cousins lived.

422
00:15:56,454 --> 00:15:59,414
I fought fires for two years,and then I injured out.

423
00:15:59,457 --> 00:16:01,155
I need you to understand

424
00:16:01,198 --> 00:16:04,419
that this is the biggest shameof my life.

425
00:16:04,462 --> 00:16:07,161
Biggest shame.

426
00:16:07,204 --> 00:16:09,206
But notyour biggest regret.

427
00:16:11,208 --> 00:16:12,601
[ Exhales sharply ]

428
00:16:12,644 --> 00:16:15,865
You...You aren't sorry.

429
00:16:15,908 --> 00:16:17,867
You're not --You're not sorry, are you?

430
00:16:17,910 --> 00:16:19,608
Of course I am.But you -- But youhaven't said that.

431
00:16:19,651 --> 00:16:21,088
You've said a lot of thingstonight,

432
00:16:21,131 --> 00:16:22,872
but you haven't said,"I'm sorry for leaving you

433
00:16:22,915 --> 00:16:24,047
and letting you thinkI was dead."

434
00:16:24,091 --> 00:16:25,396
Well, I didn't know --

435
00:16:25,440 --> 00:16:26,615
You didn't knowthat faking your own death

436
00:16:26,658 --> 00:16:28,051
would make me thinkyou were dead?!

437
00:16:28,095 --> 00:16:30,314
I didn't fake anything,Andrea!

438
00:16:31,750 --> 00:16:34,492
I just left.

439
00:16:34,536 --> 00:16:36,233
Your fatherdid the rest.

440
00:16:37,843 --> 00:16:39,541
[ Siren wailing ]

441
00:16:44,894 --> 00:16:47,114
[ Radio chatter ]

442
00:16:49,507 --> 00:16:52,032
Montgomery, go and searchthe perimeter.

443
00:16:52,075 --> 00:16:54,164
Hey, we treated a small burnfrom a radiator cap earlier

444
00:16:54,208 --> 00:16:55,861
and then left themwaiting for a tow truck.

445
00:16:55,905 --> 00:16:58,038
They must have poured gasin the radiator.

446
00:16:58,081 --> 00:16:59,604
Let's put water on that --

447
00:16:59,648 --> 00:17:01,084
[ Fire whooshes ]

448
00:17:01,128 --> 00:17:03,478
[ Wind whistling ]

449
00:17:03,521 --> 00:17:05,132
There it goes!

450
00:17:05,175 --> 00:17:06,829
[ Indistinct shouting ]

451
00:17:06,872 --> 00:17:09,831
Anchor, flank, and pinch!Don't let that fire grow!

452
00:17:09,875 --> 00:17:12,008
Dispatch, we have a car firethat's spread to some trees.

453
00:17:12,052 --> 00:17:14,140
I'm gonna needthree more engines.

454
00:17:14,184 --> 00:17:15,925
Knock down that fire, Banks!Come on!

455
00:17:15,967 --> 00:17:18,274
Sully.We're getting called in.

456
00:17:18,319 --> 00:17:19,972
Wildfire?Black Ball Hill.

457
00:17:20,015 --> 00:17:21,539
Hey, yo, can we come?

458
00:17:21,582 --> 00:17:23,715
Nah. This isthe big leagues, Banks.

459
00:17:23,759 --> 00:17:26,022
You stay here and keeppracticing with your toy hoses.

460
00:17:26,066 --> 00:17:27,980
Sullivan: You know,you don't have to mock them.

461
00:17:28,023 --> 00:17:29,634
I know Banksis a pain in the ass,

462
00:17:29,678 --> 00:17:31,027
but he'll bea good firefighter.

463
00:17:31,071 --> 00:17:33,638
Yeah, for Convict Work CrewNumber One.

464
00:17:33,682 --> 00:17:36,293
Nothing wrong with that.We rely on these guys.

465
00:17:36,337 --> 00:17:38,165
Then why does the state pay themnext to nothing, huh?

466
00:17:38,208 --> 00:17:39,775
Well, that's justhow it is.

467
00:17:39,818 --> 00:17:41,646
It's rehabilitation.

468
00:17:41,690 --> 00:17:44,301
Nah.It's capitalism, Sully.

469
00:17:44,345 --> 00:17:46,086
They're cheap laborwhile they're here,

470
00:17:46,129 --> 00:17:47,652
but you know damn wellSeattle Fire

471
00:17:47,696 --> 00:17:49,132
ain't gonna hire themwhen they get out.

472
00:17:49,176 --> 00:17:51,787
Hey. That's another thingyou have in common with them.

473
00:17:51,830 --> 00:17:54,746
[ Laughs ]

474
00:17:54,790 --> 00:17:56,879
Warren, grab some brush rollsoff of Engine 19

475
00:17:56,922 --> 00:17:58,228
so they can extend the lineon the left flank.

476
00:17:58,272 --> 00:17:59,403
Copy.Grabbing brush rolls.

477
00:17:59,447 --> 00:18:01,144
Travis: Captain![ Grunts ]

478
00:18:02,014 --> 00:18:03,233
Miller, go!

479
00:18:04,713 --> 00:18:05,801
Almost there.

480
00:18:08,195 --> 00:18:09,761
Dispatch,where's that other aid car?

481
00:18:15,854 --> 00:18:18,030
[ Sirens wailing ]

482
00:18:19,554 --> 00:18:21,817
[ Brakes screech ]

483
00:18:21,860 --> 00:18:24,950
Warren, I've got some ember caston my right flank.

484
00:18:24,994 --> 00:18:26,778
I need you to bring a coupleof those brush rolls

485
00:18:26,822 --> 00:18:28,128
and a water thiefto the side.

486
00:18:28,171 --> 00:18:29,912
Copy.Go, go, go!

487
00:18:32,784 --> 00:18:34,873
Montgomery, let's go!Let's go! Come on!

488
00:18:34,917 --> 00:18:36,614
This is Billie,18-year-old NB

489
00:18:36,658 --> 00:18:38,007
with partial thickness burnson both forearms

490
00:18:38,050 --> 00:18:39,356
and smoke inhalation.

491
00:18:39,400 --> 00:18:40,705
I just put themon oxygen.

492
00:18:40,749 --> 00:18:42,620
Hemodynamically stable.No loss of consciousness.

493
00:18:42,664 --> 00:18:45,710
Possible -- probable --drugs involved.

494
00:18:45,754 --> 00:18:47,321
The other two are stillout there somewhere.

495
00:18:47,364 --> 00:18:48,539
19'll find them.

496
00:18:48,583 --> 00:18:55,938
♪♪

497
00:18:55,981 --> 00:18:57,766
[ Radio chatter, siren wails ]

498
00:19:00,203 --> 00:19:01,987
This is just wrong.

499
00:19:02,031 --> 00:19:04,251
What? You suddenlygrew a conscience?

500
00:19:05,991 --> 00:19:08,037
Fowler, I had an injuryon the job,

501
00:19:08,080 --> 00:19:09,995
and I developedan addiction,

502
00:19:10,039 --> 00:19:12,955
which explains why I brieflybecame someone I didn't like.

503
00:19:12,998 --> 00:19:14,783
Now, you're someone elseI don't like.

504
00:19:14,826 --> 00:19:17,351
But as faras I can tell...

505
00:19:17,394 --> 00:19:19,266
you were just bornthat way.

506
00:19:19,309 --> 00:19:22,007
[ Laughs ]

507
00:19:26,055 --> 00:19:27,056
Ah.

508
00:19:27,099 --> 00:19:28,623
Cheer up, Sully.

509
00:19:28,666 --> 00:19:31,103
Don't call me Sully.

510
00:19:31,147 --> 00:19:33,323
See this big house?

511
00:19:33,367 --> 00:19:35,412
This is why they pay usthe big bucks.

512
00:19:38,894 --> 00:19:40,200
[ Siren wailing ]

513
00:19:40,243 --> 00:19:42,289
Vic: Grey-Sloan, this is Hugheson Aid Car 19.

514
00:19:42,332 --> 00:19:44,508
I have an 18-year-old male withextensive full thickness burns.

515
00:19:44,552 --> 00:19:46,423
TBSA estimategreater than 70%.

516
00:19:46,467 --> 00:19:47,816
Hypotensiveand intubated.

517
00:19:47,859 --> 00:19:49,252
Nurse: Hughes, I'm sorry,

518
00:19:49,296 --> 00:19:50,645
but we aren't taking any non-COVID emergencies.

519
00:19:50,688 --> 00:19:51,733
Pressure's dropping!

520
00:19:51,776 --> 00:19:52,951
See, that's notgonna work for me

521
00:19:52,995 --> 00:19:54,388
because I havea barbecued teenager here

522
00:19:54,431 --> 00:19:55,650
and you'rethe closest burn center.

523
00:19:55,693 --> 00:19:56,999
Very sorry, but --Okay, cool.

524
00:19:57,042 --> 00:19:58,522
See ya soon.Bye.

525
00:19:58,566 --> 00:20:01,308
Pushy!I like it!

526
00:20:01,351 --> 00:20:03,310
Andy: Bishop, I've gota spot fire to my right

527
00:20:03,353 --> 00:20:05,703
about 50 yardsoutside the burn.

528
00:20:08,315 --> 00:20:10,012
Fowler: Just don'topen the door, babe.

529
00:20:12,884 --> 00:20:14,234
No, no.

530
00:20:14,277 --> 00:20:15,539
He's gonna set iton the porch,

531
00:20:15,583 --> 00:20:17,933
then he'll walk away,then you can go get it.

532
00:20:17,976 --> 00:20:19,456
Andy: That spot is starting to run.

533
00:20:19,500 --> 00:20:21,284
It might hook our location. Warren!

534
00:20:21,328 --> 00:20:22,633
No. No.

535
00:20:22,677 --> 00:20:25,114
No, you do not have to boil itbefore you eat it.

536
00:20:25,157 --> 00:20:26,768
Gibson, I need you over here!

537
00:20:26,811 --> 00:20:28,639
[ Beeping ]

538
00:20:28,683 --> 00:20:33,383
♪♪

539
00:20:33,427 --> 00:20:34,471
[ Engine starts ]

540
00:20:34,515 --> 00:20:35,690
The hell?

541
00:20:35,733 --> 00:20:37,257
Sullivan!

542
00:20:37,300 --> 00:20:38,997
Hey!

543
00:20:39,041 --> 00:20:40,347
Cruz,we're gonna need water.

544
00:20:40,390 --> 00:20:42,610
Hand lay a two and a halfdown to that hydrant.

545
00:20:42,653 --> 00:20:45,308
Dispatch, did you askfor a private company --

546
00:20:46,614 --> 00:20:47,702
Disregard.

547
00:20:49,791 --> 00:20:51,706
Bishop.

548
00:20:51,749 --> 00:20:52,794
Where do youneed me?

549
00:20:52,837 --> 00:20:58,190
♪♪

550
00:20:58,234 --> 00:20:59,714
North side.

551
00:20:59,757 --> 00:21:01,368
Lay a hose line around the flankof that spot fire

552
00:21:01,411 --> 00:21:03,326
and pinch it off.Alright. Copy that.

553
00:21:03,370 --> 00:21:11,073
♪♪

554
00:21:11,116 --> 00:21:12,596
[ Coughing ]

555
00:21:16,208 --> 00:21:18,646
Captain, I have eyeson one of the other kids.

556
00:21:18,689 --> 00:21:20,300
Maya: Good. Keep working on that fire.

557
00:21:20,343 --> 00:21:22,345
That's the best way to protect him until we can evac.

558
00:21:22,389 --> 00:21:27,611
♪♪

559
00:21:27,655 --> 00:21:30,266
My father told meyou were very sick.

560
00:21:30,310 --> 00:21:33,965
I always assumed you had someillness that couldn't be cured.

561
00:21:36,446 --> 00:21:38,622
I guess you did.Just not the kind I thought.

562
00:21:38,666 --> 00:21:40,494
You know, when fathersleave their children,

563
00:21:40,537 --> 00:21:42,234
no one blames iton mental illness,

564
00:21:42,278 --> 00:21:43,845
no onecalls them monsters.

565
00:21:43,888 --> 00:21:46,195
They just turn to the motherwho's left alone

566
00:21:46,238 --> 00:21:47,805
and is expectedto do both jobs.

567
00:21:47,849 --> 00:21:49,807
Which is what you didto my dad.

568
00:21:49,851 --> 00:21:51,896
I told you, I was notin the right mind --Well, which one was it?

569
00:21:51,940 --> 00:21:53,376
Were you mentally ill,or were you not?

570
00:21:53,420 --> 00:21:55,378
I don't know.I was depressed.

571
00:21:55,422 --> 00:21:57,119
I was exhausted.

572
00:21:57,162 --> 00:21:59,077
And sometimes suicidal.

573
00:21:59,121 --> 00:22:00,818
I was never diagnosedor medicated --

574
00:22:00,862 --> 00:22:02,994
You were just happieronce I was out of your life.

575
00:22:03,038 --> 00:22:05,780
No. I was devastated.

576
00:22:05,823 --> 00:22:09,392
And I missed youdesperately.

577
00:22:09,436 --> 00:22:12,308
And, yes...

578
00:22:12,352 --> 00:22:14,702
I felt free.

579
00:22:14,745 --> 00:22:17,661
When -- When you left...

580
00:22:17,705 --> 00:22:20,621
did he tell you he was gonnasay you were dead?

581
00:22:20,664 --> 00:22:22,927
No. He asked me,"What am I supposed to tell

582
00:22:22,971 --> 00:22:25,321
a 9-year-old girl aboutwhy her mother left her?"

583
00:22:25,365 --> 00:22:28,106
And I said,"I don't know.

584
00:22:28,150 --> 00:22:29,586
Tell her I'm dead."

585
00:22:29,630 --> 00:22:31,414
But I didn't mean it,

586
00:22:31,458 --> 00:22:34,156
just like I didn't meanto leave you that day forever.But you did!

587
00:22:34,199 --> 00:22:36,114
You left.

588
00:22:39,291 --> 00:22:41,729
And my fathermade the decision

589
00:22:41,772 --> 00:22:43,905
that it would be less painfulfor me to grieve you

590
00:22:43,948 --> 00:22:47,561
than to knowyou abandoned me.

591
00:22:47,604 --> 00:22:49,389
[ Conor coughing]

592
00:22:51,347 --> 00:22:52,957
I needa fire shelter here!

593
00:22:53,001 --> 00:22:54,132
Sullivan: I got it!

594
00:22:54,176 --> 00:22:55,482
Robert?

595
00:22:55,525 --> 00:22:56,657
Keep your eyes on the fire,Herrera.

596
00:22:56,700 --> 00:22:57,745
I got it.

597
00:22:57,788 --> 00:22:59,660
[ Coughing ]

598
00:22:59,703 --> 00:23:01,139
You're gonna be okay.

599
00:23:05,013 --> 00:23:08,756
Hold it close to the ground,and do not move no matter what.

600
00:23:08,799 --> 00:23:10,453
You hear me?!Yeah.

601
00:23:10,497 --> 00:23:15,632
♪♪

602
00:23:15,676 --> 00:23:20,550
♪♪

603
00:23:25,816 --> 00:23:28,123
[ Conor coughing ]

604
00:23:28,166 --> 00:23:30,430
♪♪

605
00:23:30,473 --> 00:23:33,084
Herrera, we got this.Go help him.

606
00:23:35,913 --> 00:23:37,698
It's okay.It's okay.

607
00:23:37,741 --> 00:23:40,440
Bishop, I have one malewith second-degree burns,

608
00:23:40,483 --> 00:23:41,658
possibly in shock.Maya: Copy.

609
00:23:41,702 --> 00:23:43,312
We have an aid car standing by.

610
00:23:43,355 --> 00:23:44,444
Frankie.Frankie.

611
00:23:44,487 --> 00:23:45,357
Frankie?Frankie, is that your name?

612
00:23:45,401 --> 00:23:46,837
No, no, I'm --I'm Conor.

613
00:23:46,881 --> 00:23:48,622
Conor, my name is Andy.Where else does it hurt?

614
00:23:48,665 --> 00:23:50,493
I don't -- I don't -- W-We --We just wanted to be together

615
00:23:50,537 --> 00:23:51,799
for one night,you know, one party.

616
00:23:51,842 --> 00:23:53,714
Prom's been canceled.Graduation's been canceled.

617
00:23:53,757 --> 00:23:55,759
Okay.They're mailing usour freaking diplomas!

618
00:23:55,803 --> 00:23:57,326
12 years of school,and we're missing everything!

619
00:23:57,369 --> 00:23:58,501
It's okay. It's okay.It's okay.

620
00:23:58,545 --> 00:23:59,589
Hey, take a deep breathfor me.

621
00:23:59,633 --> 00:24:00,851
Okay,what's your name again?

622
00:24:00,895 --> 00:24:03,245
Conor Jaxtimer.Have you found Frankie yet?

623
00:24:03,288 --> 00:24:04,594
Sullivan:Let's get him up.

624
00:24:04,638 --> 00:24:06,335
Bishop, there's another kidout here.

625
00:24:06,378 --> 00:24:07,815
Let's get you up.His name is Frankie.

626
00:24:07,858 --> 00:24:10,513
Come on.Let's go find him.

627
00:24:10,557 --> 00:24:12,472
Gibson, any signof the fourth kid?

628
00:24:12,515 --> 00:24:14,038
Jack: Not yet. Will update.

629
00:24:14,082 --> 00:24:16,476
[ Siren chirps ][ Conor coughing ]

630
00:24:17,868 --> 00:24:19,087
[ Grunting ]Come on.

631
00:24:20,828 --> 00:24:22,438
Wait, wait, wait.You have to find Frankie.

632
00:24:22,482 --> 00:24:23,570
He's got a bunchof health problems.

633
00:24:23,613 --> 00:24:25,006
He didn't want to come outand party.

634
00:24:25,049 --> 00:24:25,789
I forced him to.

635
00:24:25,833 --> 00:24:27,008
Come on.

636
00:24:27,051 --> 00:24:28,705
Frankie, hey!

637
00:24:28,749 --> 00:24:31,229
Frankie,can you hear me?!

638
00:24:31,273 --> 00:24:33,362
Frankie,I'm here to help you!

639
00:24:33,405 --> 00:24:35,712
[ Weakly ] Help!Frankie!

640
00:24:35,756 --> 00:24:37,932
Frankie, call outif you can hear me.

641
00:24:37,975 --> 00:24:39,586
Help!

642
00:24:43,851 --> 00:24:44,765
I got him!

643
00:24:48,116 --> 00:24:50,161
I was running,and then I tripped.

644
00:24:50,205 --> 00:24:51,641
There was so much smoke.It's okay.

645
00:24:51,685 --> 00:24:52,816
It's okay.I'm gonna help you now.

646
00:24:52,860 --> 00:24:54,035
This is Warren.

647
00:24:54,078 --> 00:24:55,515
I'm gonna need a stretcherand a med bag.

648
00:24:58,082 --> 00:25:00,911
Frankie, have you, uh -- haveyou had a surgery recently?

649
00:25:00,955 --> 00:25:02,826
Yeah.Am I bleeding?

650
00:25:02,870 --> 00:25:04,785
[ Whimpering ]

651
00:25:04,828 --> 00:25:07,744
Oh, man!My dad's gonna freak out!

652
00:25:10,660 --> 00:25:12,227
Hey, Hughes!We're not taking any --

653
00:25:12,270 --> 00:25:14,577
No, I know you're not takingany non-COVID cases right now,

654
00:25:14,621 --> 00:25:16,361
but you are taking this teenagerwith full thickness burns

655
00:25:16,405 --> 00:25:17,928
from head to toefrom a car explosion.

656
00:25:17,972 --> 00:25:18,886
I intubated himon the scene.

657
00:25:18,929 --> 00:25:20,452
He's hypotensiveand tachycardic,

658
00:25:20,496 --> 00:25:21,845
and you are the best,so you are taking him,

659
00:25:21,889 --> 00:25:23,020
because if you send us away,he dies

660
00:25:23,064 --> 00:25:24,805
and that makes youa murderer.

661
00:25:24,848 --> 00:25:25,588
Okay.Okay.

662
00:25:25,632 --> 00:25:27,416
Okay, trauma one.

663
00:25:27,459 --> 00:25:28,983
You were rightto bring him here.Yeah, I know that.

664
00:25:29,026 --> 00:25:30,593
Oh, uh, the next kidthat comes in, Billie,

665
00:25:30,637 --> 00:25:32,682
make sure no one calls them"he" or "she," okay?

666
00:25:32,726 --> 00:25:35,076
Wait, there's more?Yeah, don't murder any ofthe burned teenagers, Dr. Hunt!

667
00:25:35,119 --> 00:25:36,338
[ Groans ]

668
00:25:36,381 --> 00:25:37,513
Let's go.

669
00:25:41,256 --> 00:25:43,171
I hate teenagers.

670
00:25:43,214 --> 00:25:45,695
I hated teenagers evenwhen I was a teenager.

671
00:25:45,739 --> 00:25:48,176
'Cause they're so stupid?'Cause they're so stupid.

672
00:25:48,219 --> 00:25:49,960
Yeah, well, their brainsaren't fully formed yet,

673
00:25:50,004 --> 00:25:51,396
so it's not entirelytheir fault.

674
00:25:51,440 --> 00:25:53,616
It's like hating a puppyfor being cute.

675
00:25:53,660 --> 00:25:56,358
You know, they can't helpwhat they are, so...

676
00:25:56,401 --> 00:25:59,404
I hate that they're gonnamiss prom and graduation.

677
00:25:59,448 --> 00:26:01,102
High school sucks enoughwithout a pandemic

678
00:26:01,145 --> 00:26:02,625
to take away all the partsthat don't suck.

679
00:26:02,669 --> 00:26:03,495
Oh, yeah.

680
00:26:04,932 --> 00:26:06,934
Hey, Vic.Huh?

681
00:26:06,977 --> 00:26:08,805
Whatever happenedto hot doctor lover?

682
00:26:08,849 --> 00:26:11,155
Oh, just doctor,not lover.

683
00:26:11,199 --> 00:26:12,330
Still hot, though.

684
00:26:12,374 --> 00:26:14,202
Yeah.Yeah.

685
00:26:14,245 --> 00:26:16,334
Oh, wait, who did you seeon that app?

686
00:26:18,162 --> 00:26:19,642
Wha-- Travis?

687
00:26:19,686 --> 00:26:21,209
I'm gonna disinfectthe front.

688
00:26:22,645 --> 00:26:25,779
[ Crying ] I'm not justsome dumb kid, I swear.

689
00:26:25,822 --> 00:26:27,302
I was almost valedictorian,

690
00:26:27,345 --> 00:26:29,521
if I hadn't missed so muchschool for my health stuff.

691
00:26:29,565 --> 00:26:31,785
I hadn't even left the housesince we went into lockdown.

692
00:26:31,828 --> 00:26:34,265
I just wantedto see my friends.Frankie. Frankie.

693
00:26:34,309 --> 00:26:36,267
I have a couple of kidsabout your age,

694
00:26:36,311 --> 00:26:37,573
and if one of themwas hurt,

695
00:26:37,617 --> 00:26:39,706
even if it was becausethey did something stupid,

696
00:26:39,749 --> 00:26:41,751
all I would want is for themto get better.

697
00:26:41,795 --> 00:26:42,839
Everyone makes mistakes.

698
00:26:42,883 --> 00:26:44,624
[ Gasping ] Okay.

699
00:26:44,667 --> 00:26:46,190
Even valedictorians.

700
00:26:50,368 --> 00:26:51,979
Andy: Captain, we're done mopping up.

701
00:26:52,022 --> 00:26:53,763
We've cold-trailed the entire perimeter.

702
00:26:53,807 --> 00:26:55,635
Maya: Good work, Lieutenant. Let's pack it up.

703
00:26:55,678 --> 00:26:56,810
Vic: Leaving Grey-Sloan.

704
00:26:56,853 --> 00:26:57,767
We still doing Friday Night Lights?

705
00:26:57,811 --> 00:26:58,899
Affirmative. See you there.

706
00:26:58,942 --> 00:27:00,640
Sasha's sexy,funny, and smart,

707
00:27:00,683 --> 00:27:02,424
in additionto being great with Pru.

708
00:27:02,467 --> 00:27:04,774
I'm alone, she's alone.

709
00:27:04,818 --> 00:27:06,994
Having a quarantine buddy that'salso good at changing diapers,

710
00:27:07,037 --> 00:27:08,952
man, it's --it's a win-win.

711
00:27:08,996 --> 00:27:10,867
[ Laughs ]You laugh again,I'm gonna hit you.

712
00:27:10,911 --> 00:27:13,261
You know that.It's just usually I'm the onein this friendship

713
00:27:13,304 --> 00:27:15,219
making terriblerelationship decisions.

714
00:27:15,263 --> 00:27:17,004
It's fun beingon the other side.

715
00:27:17,047 --> 00:27:19,267
So, what,I-I shoulddo it?

716
00:27:19,310 --> 00:27:20,877
[ Chuckling ] I don't know, man.Do you love her?

717
00:27:20,921 --> 00:27:22,270
Love her?[ Chuckles ]

718
00:27:22,313 --> 00:27:23,663
We've only been datingsix weeks.

719
00:27:23,706 --> 00:27:25,839
I'm not talkingabout Sasha.

720
00:27:25,882 --> 00:27:28,450
[ Radio chatter ]

721
00:27:28,493 --> 00:27:30,191
Trying not to.

722
00:27:30,234 --> 00:27:32,367
You know what to do.Do I?

723
00:27:32,410 --> 00:27:33,716
[ Laughs ]

724
00:27:33,760 --> 00:27:35,675
All that laughing,it hurts my feelings, man.

725
00:27:35,718 --> 00:27:37,415
[ Laughing ] Seriously.

726
00:27:37,459 --> 00:27:39,243
I'm laughing,but I'm hurting on the inside.

727
00:27:39,287 --> 00:27:41,637
[ Siren chirps ]Man: Alright, 19,

728
00:27:41,681 --> 00:27:43,639
let's bring some joy to the people.

729
00:27:43,683 --> 00:27:48,557
♪ It feels like there'sno more fight in you ♪

730
00:27:48,600 --> 00:27:50,515
[ Horn blares ]

731
00:27:50,559 --> 00:27:55,738
♪ But I see the daylightbreaking through ♪

732
00:27:55,782 --> 00:27:57,784
♪ Yeah

733
00:27:57,827 --> 00:28:02,092
♪ When there's no more strengthto carry on ♪

734
00:28:02,136 --> 00:28:04,616
[ Siren wails ]

735
00:28:04,660 --> 00:28:10,013
♪ I know the stormwill soon be gone ♪

736
00:28:10,057 --> 00:28:16,933
♪ And someday we'll beon the other side ♪

737
00:28:16,977 --> 00:28:20,023
♪ It won't be long

738
00:28:20,067 --> 00:28:23,766
♪ It won't be long

739
00:28:23,810 --> 00:28:29,729
♪ Change will come, yeah

740
00:28:29,772 --> 00:28:33,776
♪ I know that it won't be long

741
00:28:33,820 --> 00:28:37,432
♪ Yeah, yeah

742
00:28:37,475 --> 00:28:40,783
♪ Yeah, yeah, yeah ♪ A change is gonna come,come, come ♪

743
00:28:40,827 --> 00:28:44,352
♪ Yeah

744
00:28:44,395 --> 00:28:47,790
♪ Yeah, yeah, yeah ♪ A change is gonna come,come, come ♪

745
00:28:47,834 --> 00:28:50,880
♪ Yeah

746
00:28:50,924 --> 00:28:54,144
♪ A change is gonna come

747
00:28:54,188 --> 00:28:56,146
[ Chuckles softly ]

748
00:28:56,190 --> 00:28:59,062
He said something else --your dad.

749
00:28:59,106 --> 00:29:01,543
I guess I didn't thinkto mention it before

750
00:29:01,586 --> 00:29:04,764
because I was so worried aboutremembering the other thing.

751
00:29:04,807 --> 00:29:09,856
He said he handpicked us all --all of us at 19.

752
00:29:09,899 --> 00:29:13,468
And he said that[Chuckles]

753
00:29:13,511 --> 00:29:15,165
even though we weren'tall the best recruits

754
00:29:15,209 --> 00:29:18,081
that he saw somethingin all of us

755
00:29:18,125 --> 00:29:19,996
that he knew would workas a family.

756
00:29:20,040 --> 00:29:26,742
♪♪

757
00:29:29,963 --> 00:29:34,271
I got my first periodthe day before my 12th birthday.

758
00:29:34,315 --> 00:29:38,885
I thoughtI had pooped myself.

759
00:29:38,928 --> 00:29:43,019
Ah, no one told me whatto expect or when to expect it.

760
00:29:43,063 --> 00:29:44,412
I just woke up one day,

761
00:29:44,455 --> 00:29:46,414
and there wasthis dark brown stuff

762
00:29:46,457 --> 00:29:48,416
all over the sheetsand in my underwear.

763
00:29:48,459 --> 00:29:51,854
I was mortified.

764
00:29:51,898 --> 00:29:53,943
I balled up all the beddingand all my clothes

765
00:29:53,987 --> 00:29:55,902
and shoved themin the washing machine

766
00:29:55,945 --> 00:29:57,860
and poured so muchdetergent in there

767
00:29:57,904 --> 00:30:01,559
that the machine jammedand overflowed with suds.

768
00:30:03,344 --> 00:30:07,391
Papi came home from a shiftthat morning and yelled so loud.

769
00:30:09,959 --> 00:30:11,874
[ Exhales sharply ]

770
00:30:11,918 --> 00:30:14,007
But then when he realizedwhat happened, he said,

771
00:30:14,050 --> 00:30:17,271
"M'ija, you stay here.

772
00:30:17,314 --> 00:30:20,143
I'm going to the store.

773
00:30:20,187 --> 00:30:22,145
I'll clean this upwhen I get back."

774
00:30:24,278 --> 00:30:25,453
Ugh.

775
00:30:25,496 --> 00:30:28,282
He came back with[Chuckles]

776
00:30:28,325 --> 00:30:32,721
13 different brandsand sizes of pads.

777
00:30:32,764 --> 00:30:35,245
And then he sat me down

778
00:30:35,289 --> 00:30:38,335
and explained what washappening to my body.

779
00:30:40,903 --> 00:30:45,908
He didn't judge meor act disgusted.

780
00:30:45,952 --> 00:30:48,171
But he cried.

781
00:30:48,215 --> 00:30:52,393
He cried throughthe entire thing.

782
00:30:52,436 --> 00:30:54,482
I always rememberedthose tears

783
00:30:54,525 --> 00:30:56,701
streamingdown his cheeks.

784
00:30:56,745 --> 00:30:59,356
And all this time,I thought he was just sad

785
00:30:59,400 --> 00:31:01,881
that his little girlwas growing up.

786
00:31:01,924 --> 00:31:04,274
Until just now.[ Scoffs softly ]

787
00:31:04,318 --> 00:31:08,539
I realized he was crying

788
00:31:08,583 --> 00:31:11,934
because he knew my motherwas out there somewhere,

789
00:31:11,978 --> 00:31:15,503
choosingnot to be my mother.

790
00:31:21,683 --> 00:31:25,556
He came to get me.[ Sniffles ]

791
00:31:25,600 --> 00:31:28,385
When 9/11 happened.

792
00:31:28,429 --> 00:31:30,953
I guess you wereabout 12.

793
00:31:30,997 --> 00:31:34,957
He came to New Yorkto help firefighters.

794
00:31:35,001 --> 00:31:37,568
He showed up on my cousin'sdoorstep one night

795
00:31:37,612 --> 00:31:40,441
covered in white ash,demanding to see me.

796
00:31:42,617 --> 00:31:46,621
He got on his knees, sobbedand begged me to come home.

797
00:31:46,664 --> 00:31:49,624
He said he wouldtake all the blame,

798
00:31:49,667 --> 00:31:52,192
that he just wanted youto have your mother.

799
00:31:54,846 --> 00:31:57,284
I went to New York.I went to go get him.

800
00:31:57,327 --> 00:31:59,677
We --We came home together.

801
00:31:59,721 --> 00:32:02,985
♪♪

802
00:32:03,029 --> 00:32:04,900
I'm sorry.

803
00:32:04,944 --> 00:32:09,035
♪♪

804
00:32:09,078 --> 00:32:11,863
I'm -- I'm sorryI was not a good mother.

805
00:32:11,907 --> 00:32:13,213
I'm sorry I couldn't.

806
00:32:13,256 --> 00:32:15,955
I'm -- I'm sorryI caused you so much pain.

807
00:32:15,998 --> 00:32:19,567
Please tell Tía Sandrato call me.

808
00:32:19,610 --> 00:32:22,700
She sent me birthday cardsevery year of my life.

809
00:32:22,744 --> 00:32:26,661
My dad didn't give them to me,but she tried.

810
00:32:26,704 --> 00:32:28,402
Which you never did.

811
00:32:32,841 --> 00:32:34,190
[ Door slams ]

812
00:32:41,763 --> 00:32:43,069
[ Brakes squeak ]

813
00:32:43,112 --> 00:32:45,680
Sullivan,you are so done!

814
00:32:45,723 --> 00:32:48,161
You better pray the departmentbrings your junkie ass back,

815
00:32:48,204 --> 00:32:49,162
because you are s--Fowler.

816
00:32:49,205 --> 00:32:50,902
We train convicts.

817
00:32:50,946 --> 00:32:52,339
We use them as free labor,

818
00:32:52,382 --> 00:32:54,297
and then when they get out,we don't give them a job.

819
00:32:54,341 --> 00:32:55,690
You think that's right?I think it is what it is!

820
00:32:55,733 --> 00:32:57,083
And I take the truckdown the hill

821
00:32:57,126 --> 00:32:58,127
and I helpput out a wildfire!

822
00:32:58,171 --> 00:32:59,563
You think that's wrong?!

823
00:32:59,607 --> 00:33:01,304
Man, right or wrongis not the point.

824
00:33:01,348 --> 00:33:02,740
I disagree!The point is it gets you fired!

825
00:33:02,784 --> 00:33:04,177
You disagree?

826
00:33:04,220 --> 00:33:05,961
I'm saying right or wrong isthe point.

827
00:33:06,005 --> 00:33:08,311
It's always the point.

828
00:33:08,355 --> 00:33:10,270
[ Scoffs ]

829
00:33:10,313 --> 00:33:12,359
So I'm goodwith being fired.

830
00:33:12,402 --> 00:33:14,056
[ Bag thuds ]

831
00:33:14,100 --> 00:33:19,235
♪♪

832
00:33:19,279 --> 00:33:24,501
♪♪

833
00:33:24,545 --> 00:33:26,416
[ Shower running ]

834
00:33:26,460 --> 00:33:27,896
Well, I guess Miller and Iaren't friends anymore.

835
00:33:27,939 --> 00:33:29,463
I'm naked!

836
00:33:29,506 --> 00:33:31,421
In three weeks, the entire worldturned upside down.

837
00:33:31,465 --> 00:33:32,596
Miller kicked me out,

838
00:33:32,640 --> 00:33:34,207
and then two days later,a pandemic hit.

839
00:33:34,250 --> 00:33:35,338
My parents aren't working

840
00:33:35,382 --> 00:33:36,818
for the first timein my entire life.

841
00:33:36,861 --> 00:33:38,820
We're about to memorializeour captain on a video chat.

842
00:33:38,863 --> 00:33:41,083
And you saw something crazyon a gay dating app,

843
00:33:41,127 --> 00:33:43,651
and you won't even gossipwith me about what it is.

844
00:33:43,694 --> 00:33:45,131
Okay, I needlike one thing --

845
00:33:45,174 --> 00:33:47,002
one thing in my lifeto be normal right now,

846
00:33:47,046 --> 00:33:49,091
and if it's not you, I don'tknow what the hell it is.

847
00:33:51,267 --> 00:33:53,226
It was my dad.

848
00:33:53,269 --> 00:33:55,184
I was swipingfor gay sex,

849
00:33:55,228 --> 00:33:58,144
and I saw a picture of my dadwith his shirt off,

850
00:33:58,187 --> 00:34:00,146
wearing only chinosand a belt.No.

851
00:34:00,189 --> 00:34:05,238
And his profile said...

852
00:34:05,281 --> 00:34:06,761
"Let mebe your daddy."

853
00:34:11,896 --> 00:34:13,854
Are you sure it was him?I gave him the belt.

854
00:34:13,898 --> 00:34:15,769
You g-- Oh, God! Oh!

855
00:34:15,813 --> 00:34:17,075
It's fine.[ Laughs ]

856
00:34:17,119 --> 00:34:18,207
Okay, you know what?Oh, God!

857
00:34:18,251 --> 00:34:19,468
No, alright, it's fine.Stop!

858
00:34:19,513 --> 00:34:20,470
No, it's fine.No, no, it's fine.

859
00:34:20,514 --> 00:34:21,515
You know what?You're into men.

860
00:34:21,557 --> 00:34:22,863
Great. Awesome.Live your life.

861
00:34:22,907 --> 00:34:26,041
But don't stay marriedto my mom.What?

862
00:34:26,084 --> 00:34:28,130
Yeah.Yeah.

863
00:34:28,173 --> 00:34:30,305
Sure. Yeah. That.

864
00:34:30,350 --> 00:34:34,397
And the lifetime of shameand internalized homophobia

865
00:34:34,441 --> 00:34:36,225
that he inflicted on you,right?

866
00:34:38,793 --> 00:34:39,923
There's also that.

867
00:34:39,968 --> 00:34:41,839
Yeah.

868
00:34:41,883 --> 00:34:43,754
[ Laughs ]

869
00:34:47,367 --> 00:34:48,977
Move in with me.

870
00:34:49,019 --> 00:34:52,240
Not temporarily.Just move in with me.

871
00:34:52,285 --> 00:34:54,417
And let's be the one normalthing in each other's lives.

872
00:34:54,461 --> 00:34:55,679
Yeah?Yeah.

873
00:34:55,723 --> 00:34:56,680
Yeah?!Yeah.

874
00:34:56,724 --> 00:34:57,942
Yeah!Oh, I love you! Yes!

875
00:34:57,986 --> 00:34:59,770
Oh! No, no, Vic!

876
00:34:59,814 --> 00:35:02,686
Oh, you're naked, too!Ohhh, let me be your daddy.

877
00:35:02,730 --> 00:35:03,948
No! What?!Yeah.

878
00:35:03,992 --> 00:35:05,950
Ohh!Ohh!

879
00:35:05,994 --> 00:35:08,953
[ The Rescues' "If We Make ItThrough the Night" plays ]

880
00:35:08,997 --> 00:35:16,831
♪♪

881
00:35:16,874 --> 00:35:20,400
Captain Herrera was the onlyfather figure I had

882
00:35:20,443 --> 00:35:22,967
for any real amountof time.

883
00:35:23,011 --> 00:35:26,884
You know I asked him for advicebefore I proposed to Andy?

884
00:35:26,928 --> 00:35:30,453
I thought he didn't know.I didn't tell him who.

885
00:35:30,497 --> 00:35:34,414
I just said, "There's this girl,and I love her.

886
00:35:34,457 --> 00:35:36,198
What do I do?"

887
00:35:36,242 --> 00:35:40,811
And he said, "Son, if youthink this girl loves you

888
00:35:40,855 --> 00:35:42,944
and you canmake her happy,

889
00:35:42,987 --> 00:35:46,469
then do what your hearttells you."

890
00:35:46,513 --> 00:35:49,690
Point is, my heart is stupid,so don't listen to me.

891
00:35:49,733 --> 00:35:51,474
If you think you and Sashamoving in together

892
00:35:51,518 --> 00:35:54,521
is a good idea,then I'm sure it is.

893
00:35:54,564 --> 00:35:57,263
Oh, hey, Miller, uh,I'm moving in with Travis.

894
00:35:57,306 --> 00:35:59,482
So I will comeand get my crap tomorrow.

895
00:35:59,526 --> 00:36:01,571
Sorry for taking so long.

896
00:36:01,615 --> 00:36:06,185
♪ How close we cameto sayin' goodbye ♪

897
00:36:06,228 --> 00:36:07,795
Just do it.[ Laughs ]

898
00:36:07,838 --> 00:36:09,318
Do it.

899
00:36:09,362 --> 00:36:11,059
I'm sorry.It's fine.

900
00:36:11,102 --> 00:36:12,234
That was just too...

901
00:36:12,278 --> 00:36:14,497
It's fine.I need --

902
00:36:14,541 --> 00:36:16,586
[ Sighs ]

903
00:36:16,630 --> 00:36:19,067
[ Laughs ]

904
00:36:19,110 --> 00:36:21,461
♪ I will die tryin'

905
00:36:21,504 --> 00:36:23,898
I know whatI have to do now.

906
00:36:23,941 --> 00:36:29,382
♪ If we make itthrough the night ♪

907
00:36:32,211 --> 00:36:33,124
Sullivan.Hey.

908
00:36:33,168 --> 00:36:34,604
Hey.

909
00:36:34,648 --> 00:36:36,040
Thanks forthe assist today.

910
00:36:36,084 --> 00:36:41,481
Yeah, um, I know I'm notpart of 19 anymore,

911
00:36:41,524 --> 00:36:44,440
but I wantedto be here for Andy.

912
00:36:44,484 --> 00:36:45,746
If that's okay with you.

913
00:36:49,010 --> 00:36:52,143
I hate what you did, and I hatethat you did it on my watch.

914
00:36:52,187 --> 00:36:54,233
I hate that you putour 19 family at risk

915
00:36:54,276 --> 00:36:55,582
and the PRT in jeopardy.

916
00:36:55,625 --> 00:36:56,887
And I especially hate

917
00:36:56,931 --> 00:36:59,063
that you may neverbe a firefighter again,

918
00:36:59,107 --> 00:37:01,327
because you area good firefighter

919
00:37:01,370 --> 00:37:03,329
and the Departmentneeds you.

920
00:37:03,372 --> 00:37:06,375
I respected you as a mentor,and you let me down.

921
00:37:08,986 --> 00:37:10,684
I let myself down.

922
00:37:12,816 --> 00:37:15,689
And I'm sorry.

923
00:37:15,732 --> 00:37:16,994
For all of it.

924
00:37:19,954 --> 00:37:21,129
Then we're good.

925
00:37:27,266 --> 00:37:28,528
[ Knock on door ]

926
00:37:28,571 --> 00:37:29,746
Come in.

927
00:37:33,097 --> 00:37:35,317
[ Sighs ]

928
00:37:35,361 --> 00:37:37,798
You look sharp.

929
00:37:37,841 --> 00:37:40,757
Thanks...Dad.

930
00:37:40,801 --> 00:37:42,063
[ Both laugh ]

931
00:37:42,106 --> 00:37:43,194
I'm sorry.

932
00:37:43,238 --> 00:37:44,979
Wow!

933
00:37:45,022 --> 00:37:47,242
Gibson made me do it.

934
00:37:47,286 --> 00:37:48,635
That's not cool.

935
00:37:51,290 --> 00:37:54,249
[ Sniffles, sighs ]

936
00:37:54,293 --> 00:37:57,121
You ready?

937
00:37:57,165 --> 00:37:59,036
Yeah.

938
00:37:59,080 --> 00:38:00,560
Yeah. I am.

939
00:38:04,738 --> 00:38:06,783
[ Sighs ]

940
00:38:06,827 --> 00:38:09,003
[ Leah Nobel's"Last One To Know" plays ]

941
00:38:09,046 --> 00:38:14,269
♪ Don't hide from me

942
00:38:14,313 --> 00:38:17,533
♪ I wanna be the oneyou run to ♪

943
00:38:17,577 --> 00:38:20,319
♪ Try and disappear

944
00:38:22,451 --> 00:38:25,411
♪ But I'm the onewho really sees you ♪

945
00:38:25,454 --> 00:38:29,415
♪ Watch you up on the fence

946
00:38:29,458 --> 00:38:32,418
♪ When you coming down?

947
00:38:32,461 --> 00:38:37,423
If you're watching this,my dad was probably your hero.

948
00:38:37,466 --> 00:38:40,382
He was mine.

949
00:38:40,426 --> 00:38:43,603
He was a great firefighter

950
00:38:43,646 --> 00:38:46,693
but an even better Captain.

951
00:38:46,736 --> 00:38:49,870
He brought the best out of everyone

952
00:38:49,913 --> 00:38:52,655
by demanding nothing less.

953
00:38:52,699 --> 00:38:56,355
He was a natural leader,

954
00:38:56,398 --> 00:38:59,096
as anyone who's ever worked with him knows.

955
00:38:59,140 --> 00:39:03,797
He built great firefighters,future Captains.

956
00:39:05,755 --> 00:39:08,367
Maybe even future Chiefs.

957
00:39:08,410 --> 00:39:11,848
But beyond that, he wasthe best father he could be,

958
00:39:11,892 --> 00:39:16,375
and that wasn't easy to do,especially on his own.

959
00:39:16,418 --> 00:39:20,770
My dad was faced withsome pretty terrible choices

960
00:39:20,814 --> 00:39:22,816
when I was a kid.

961
00:39:22,859 --> 00:39:25,949
But he did what he thought was best for me at the time.

962
00:39:25,993 --> 00:39:28,343
Every time.

963
00:39:28,387 --> 00:39:32,913
He chose to protect me above all else.

964
00:39:32,956 --> 00:39:38,701
And while he may have made mistakes...

965
00:39:38,745 --> 00:39:41,400
I have no doubt he'd make them all again

966
00:39:41,443 --> 00:39:43,010
if he thought it was best for me.

967
00:39:43,053 --> 00:39:45,142
It wasn't easy growing up without my mom

968
00:39:45,186 --> 00:39:47,580
and without siblings,

969
00:39:47,623 --> 00:39:51,235
but what I've come to realizeis my dad did his best

970
00:39:51,279 --> 00:39:52,976
to give me family.

971
00:39:53,020 --> 00:39:55,588
He created a home at Station 19.

972
00:39:55,631 --> 00:39:58,808
And everyone under his roofwas his kid.

973
00:39:58,852 --> 00:40:00,897
[ Laughs ]

974
00:40:00,941 --> 00:40:02,943
So he may have spent years

975
00:40:02,986 --> 00:40:05,641
protecting me from painand burying his own,

976
00:40:05,685 --> 00:40:10,646
but he did his best to give methe gift of a group of people

977
00:40:10,690 --> 00:40:15,477
who I feel closer to thanany blood brother or sister.

978
00:40:15,521 --> 00:40:18,698
He did his best.

979
00:40:18,741 --> 00:40:21,352
He did his best by me.

980
00:40:21,396 --> 00:40:23,311
He loved me.

981
00:40:23,354 --> 00:40:25,313
He stayed.

982
00:40:25,356 --> 00:40:28,142
He stayed with meevery minute he could

983
00:40:28,185 --> 00:40:32,233
until he had to leave meto save me one last time.

984
00:40:32,276 --> 00:40:34,975
♪ When you coming down?

985
00:40:37,107 --> 00:40:40,197
♪ When you coming down?

986
00:40:40,241 --> 00:40:42,896
Oh, my God.I didn't believe you.

987
00:40:42,939 --> 00:40:44,245
I told youyou were crazy.

988
00:40:44,288 --> 00:40:46,900
Well, in fairness to you,I was acting crazy.

989
00:40:46,943 --> 00:40:49,598
You okay?

990
00:40:49,642 --> 00:40:52,079
Yes and no.

991
00:40:52,122 --> 00:40:56,736
I guess...knowing the truthis better than wondering.

992
00:40:56,779 --> 00:41:00,174
But again, I'm -- I'm sorryI wasn't here for you.

993
00:41:00,217 --> 00:41:01,610
No, no.

994
00:41:03,482 --> 00:41:06,049
I took morphinewhen I woke up.

995
00:41:06,093 --> 00:41:10,576
I needed it.But now I'm afraid.

996
00:41:10,619 --> 00:41:14,101
I'm afraid it's gonna make mecrave more of it.

997
00:41:14,144 --> 00:41:16,582
I'm afraid I won't be ableto control it.

998
00:41:16,625 --> 00:41:19,193
I need to focuson my recovery.

999
00:41:19,236 --> 00:41:22,675
I spoke to Dr. Shepherd,and she suggested I, uh...

1000
00:41:22,718 --> 00:41:24,503
take some space.

1001
00:41:26,592 --> 00:41:28,158
From -- From me?

1002
00:41:28,202 --> 00:41:30,552
It's just 90 days,

1003
00:41:30,596 --> 00:41:32,380
just to get tothe meetings, okay,

1004
00:41:32,423 --> 00:41:35,818
just to work the stepsand get some solid recovery.

1005
00:41:35,862 --> 00:41:38,995
You're not supposed to makeany big life changes

1006
00:41:39,039 --> 00:41:40,301
when you'rein early sobriety.

1007
00:41:40,344 --> 00:41:43,043
I knew that,and I-I was barely sober.

1008
00:41:43,086 --> 00:41:45,567
And you -- you wereabout to lose your dad.

1009
00:41:45,611 --> 00:41:48,004
We had no businessgetting married.

1010
00:41:49,832 --> 00:41:52,139
So -- So, you regret it?

1011
00:41:52,182 --> 00:41:54,358
[ Chuckles ] No!

1012
00:41:54,402 --> 00:41:57,971
No. And I never will.

1013
00:41:58,014 --> 00:42:01,888
But if I want to stay clean,we need some time apart.

1014
00:42:06,632 --> 00:42:08,372
90 days.

1015
00:42:08,416 --> 00:42:09,809
Yeah.Totally --

1016
00:42:09,852 --> 00:42:11,550
Totally separated.

1017
00:42:11,593 --> 00:42:14,857
Separated but together,if I want to stay clean.

1018
00:42:14,901 --> 00:42:17,207
And do you?I do.

1019
00:42:17,251 --> 00:42:21,124
I want to live a long,long life

1020
00:42:21,168 --> 00:42:23,170
and love youevery minute of it.

1021
00:42:26,913 --> 00:42:30,917
♪ I can't bethe last one to know ♪

1022
00:42:30,960 --> 00:42:34,485
♪ I can't be the last one

1023
00:42:34,529 --> 00:42:37,837
♪ The distance runs deep

1024
00:42:37,880 --> 00:42:40,622
I love you, Dad.

1025
00:42:40,666 --> 00:42:43,451
We all do.

1026
00:42:43,494 --> 00:42:47,629
And if there's one thingI wish I could tell you,

1027
00:42:47,673 --> 00:42:51,590
it's that I am grateful for you,

1028
00:42:51,633 --> 00:42:55,985
because you did your jobso well.

1029
00:42:58,640 --> 00:43:03,036
♪ And I can't bethe last one to know ♪

1030
00:43:03,079 --> 00:43:06,779
♪ I can't be the last one

1031
00:43:11,087 --> 00:43:13,568
[ Bell tolling ]

1032
00:43:13,612 --> 00:43:16,789
♪♪

1033
00:43:16,832 --> 00:43:20,270
♪♪

1034
00:43:20,314 --> 00:43:24,579
♪ When you coming down?

1035
00:43:31,281 --> 00:43:39,638
♪♪

1036
00:43:39,681 --> 00:43:47,776
♪♪

1037
00:43:47,820 --> 00:43:56,219
♪♪