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♪ Hey, yah, oh, hey, yah ♪

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♪ Hey, yah, oh, hey, yah ♪

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♪ Bring it on ♪

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♪ Hard time come ♪

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♪ That was nothing now ♪

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♪ Ooh, how you like it now? ♪

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♪ Bring it on ♪

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♪ Yeah‐ah‐ah‐ah‐ah ♪

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♪ Ahhh‐ahh‐ahh‐ahh ♪

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♪ Bad days, rat race ♪

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♪ Mud in the face days,
scream and shout ♪

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♪ Trying to take you out ♪

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♪ Oh, I can make it louder
than thunder ♪

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♪ When you go down,
who you come to? ♪

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♪ Bring it on ♪

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♪ Hard time come ♪

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♪ That was nothing now ♪

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♪ Ooh, how you like it now? ♪

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♪ Bring it on ♪

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♪ Yeah‐ah‐ah‐ah‐ah ♪

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♪ Ahhh‐ahh‐ahh ♪

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♪ Hey, yah, oh, hey, yah ♪

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♪ Hey, yah, one more time ♪

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♪ Bring it on ♪

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[ Doors slam ]

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Maya: I know it's been
a long night, team,

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and we have a long shift
ahead of us,

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but I want you all
to know that ‐‐
Diane.

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Jack.
Don't worry.

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I got a rapid test
this morning,

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so I'm clean
as a whistle.

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Uh, what are y‐‐
What is she ‐‐

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I asked her to come.

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There's been a death,
and you are all grieving,

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so I asked her
to come.

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I'm sorr‐‐ You me‐‐
[ Stammers ]

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You talking about
George Floyd?
Dean: You brought in
a therapist

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to help us process the death
of George Floyd?

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I did.

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I feel
powerless to help,

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and this felt like
something I could do.

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Diane: There are not
many fire captains

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who would treat a moment
of national crisis

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like an internal tragedy,
and your captain is.

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I respect it,

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so I'm honored to be here
to help however I can.

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I don't need you
to talk about Mr. Floyd.

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I'm not gonna make you
talk to me at all.

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This isn't mandatory.

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I'm just here
if you need me.

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[ Door opens ]

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♪♪

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[ Doors close ]

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♪♪

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♪♪

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[ Breathing shakily ]

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♪♪

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[ Breathes deeply ]

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♪♪

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[ Ringing ]

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Carina: You're bold,
and you're trying.

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Right or wrong,
you tried something today.

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You tried something
to help.

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Thank you.

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I love you.

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[ Cellphone beeps ]

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How do you do it?
I mean, how do you ‐‐

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I‐I‐I know you have to be
as shaken up as I am,

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so how do you ‐‐

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How do I do my job?
Well, yeah.

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You fought a fire
this morning.

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How did you do it?

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I pushed my pain aside
and did what had to be done.

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Same.

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I saw what happened to
Dean Miller.

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He's suing
the police department,

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and he's right
to do it.

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But?

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[ Clears throat ]

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But, uh ‐‐ uh, it ‐‐
it makes me uncomfortable.

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Because he's
a firefighter

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and we're supposed to shut up
and look pretty?

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No,
because when the police

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made me lie down on the street
like an animal

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during
a routine traffic stop ‐‐

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You didn't sue.

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I didn't do
much of anything at all.

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I did yell, you know,
whi‐‐ which was...

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[ Sirens wailing ]

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♪♪

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I feel like
a hypocrite.

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A hypocrite?
Yeah.
I have two kids.

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I have a new son
since we last spoke.

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Congratulations.
Thanks.

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You get any sleep?
Well, he's 18, so, you know...

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Oh.

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While I'm not losing sleep
because of him ‐‐

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You're losing sleep
over him.

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Yeah.

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Anyway,
m‐my wife and I, we ‐‐

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we gave "the talk"

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and explained
that young Black men

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don't get to behave
any old way they want

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when dealing
with the police.

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We told them to do whatever
it took to get home safe.

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But when I had a run‐in
with the police myself,

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I ‐‐ I‐I yelled
at that officer

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as he
got into his car.

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I mean, if my boys had yelled
at a cop like that, I ‐‐

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You'd be upset
with them?

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Well, hell, yes,
I'd be upset!

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I'd...[ Sighs ]

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But I'd also
be proud.

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U‐‐ Because they'd
be right.

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You know,
I was right.

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Miller was right.

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But y‐you can't
do that.

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You can't yell at a cop
because, you know, w‐‐

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because they've got a gun,
you know?

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They're given authority.

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They have the power t‐‐
[ Sighs ]

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D‐Do you have kids?

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Three teenagers.

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Oh, wow. Okay, so, you get
just how frustrating

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and infuriating it is
to pour every ounce

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of energy
and brain power you have

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into them to ‐‐
to try and mold them

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into confident
young men ‐‐

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to make them
honestly believe

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that they can
accomplish anything,

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to ‐‐ to work so hard
to get them to s‐stand tall

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and feel good
in their own skin ‐‐

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only to then
have to tell them that

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because of the color
of that skin,

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they have to shrink

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when in the presence
of a police officer.

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Do you tell them that?

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Do you tell them
to shrink?

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No.

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No, I ‐‐ I don't tell them
to shrink.

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I ‐‐

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[Sighs]

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I tell them to stand
with dignity,

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and I tell them
to de‐escalate.

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I‐I tell them that in any
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their job
is to de‐escalate.

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But it should be
the cop's job.

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You're right.
It should.

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[ Clears throat ]

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So, let me just make sure
I have this straight.

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You're mad at yourself
that you didn't do more

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after that cop
treated you that way,

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and you're mad at yourself
that you didn't do less

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after that cop
treated you that way.

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Because Miller's
doing more,

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and because you want your boys
to do less.

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Look...

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I'm exhausted, you know?

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[ Stammers ]

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I'm exhausted by navigating
a ‐‐ a w‐‐ a world

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that sees me and ‐‐
and my kids as a threat.

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I mean,
it's ‐‐ it's this ‐‐

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it's this constant
nagging worry

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that ‐‐
that never goes away.

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And i‐if I do manage to forget
and just ‐‐

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you know,
just exist...

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♪♪

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...a comment or a look

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or the news that a man
has been killed in the street

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reminds me
that I have to be careful.

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And ‐‐ And it steals all of
my mental and emotional energy

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that I should be giving
to my wife

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and my kids
and my health.

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Is something going on
with your health?

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♪♪

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Being Black in America is
a life‐threatening condition.

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Other than that...

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♪♪

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Seattle protests continued late
into the evening last night

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with police presence
on the scene.

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Should we go?

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Can we?

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I mean,
after shift.

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No, still ‐‐
can we?
Oh, you mean ‐‐

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Because we're FD.

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I mean,
is that an official policy?

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Do they have to say anything?
We know.

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Well,
it's a free country, so...

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In theory.

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But the Department's
a public entity.

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And the protests
are considered anti‐police.
[ Laughs ]

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'Cause asking
for our right to live

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is inherently
anti‐police,

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and nobody seems to...

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realize
that's the problem.

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[ Sighs ]

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[ Telephone rings ]

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Any takers?

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Just one, so far.

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And you.
What?

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Sit.
No, I'm not ‐‐

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You're what? You're ‐‐ You're ‐‐
You're not grieving?

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You had
a happy little firehouse

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where everyone
was best friends

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and racial disparity
was not a hot topic.

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And now?
Everything has changed.

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Everything and nothing.

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I know fire.

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I mean, I'm the person
that studies them for fun.

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But this fire ‐‐

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This fire
is beneath our feet.

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It's built into
every foundation ‐‐

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our history,
language, n‐news coverage.

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It's everywhere.
I mean, we vent fires

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to let out
the hot smoke and gasses

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so that we can contain
the fire,

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but I don't see
how we can contain this,

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let alone
put it out.

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And growing up,
we were taught about

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Black history
and the Civil Rights movement.

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We were taught to believe
that they had beat it.

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And I think,
on some level,

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that belief
was still inside of me,

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because I didn't listen to Dean,
and I didn't listen

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to the mothers
of those kidnapped girls,

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and I am so embarrassed
saying that to you.

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Well, you were taught that
in school...

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and probably also
at home.

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And that teaching,

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it's the coal
that keeps the fire hot.

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When I was a child

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and I learned about
the Native American genocide,

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I pictured
one small village ‐‐

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one small village of men
with feathers in their hair

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who gave
the white people turkey

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and then got mad
that they wouldn't leave.

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Now,
I pictured it because

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those were the literal pictures
in my history books.

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And even though
I knew

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that my people
had been stolen from their homes

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and brought here
chained up on ships,

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somehow,
I believed that textbook.

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I was 35 years old
when I learned that in 1492,

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Columbus sailed
the ocean blue,

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and in the wake
of that,

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millions upon millions
of people

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who had been living here
for 15,000 years

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were extinguished.

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And the ones who survived
were fighting every day

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against a culture

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that still wants to pretend
they don't exist.

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We learn
when we learn.

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And the shame
we feel

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at having taken so long
to learn,

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well, that can be useful
as long as we use it well.

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00:10:10,360 --> 00:10:13,696
Once we know better,
we have to do better.

259
00:10:18,493 --> 00:10:21,746
When I was 13,
I ran cross country and track,

260
00:10:21,746 --> 00:10:24,666
and during the off‐season,
my dad would train...

261
00:10:24,666 --> 00:10:27,210
[ All panting ]
...a group of us girls
who ran both.

262
00:10:27,210 --> 00:10:28,503
And he would
push us too hard,

263
00:10:28,503 --> 00:10:30,421
and when
I didn't hit a drill

264
00:10:30,421 --> 00:10:31,589
the way
he wanted me to...
[ Yells indistinctly ]

265
00:10:31,589 --> 00:10:33,675
...he'd make me do it
over and over and over

266
00:10:33,675 --> 00:10:35,677
until I would collapse
on the ground.

267
00:10:35,677 --> 00:10:37,387
And my dad
would leave me there,

268
00:10:37,387 --> 00:10:38,888
and one by one,

269
00:10:38,888 --> 00:10:42,308
my team members
would lie down next to me.

270
00:10:42,308 --> 00:10:45,562
Face to the concrete,
eyes on me, silent.

271
00:10:45,562 --> 00:10:49,774
Giving me space,
but...

272
00:10:49,774 --> 00:10:51,526
also making sure
I wasn't alone.

273
00:10:51,526 --> 00:10:53,153
And my instinct
is that

274
00:10:53,153 --> 00:10:54,612
that is
what I have to do

275
00:10:54,612 --> 00:10:56,906
for the Black members
of my team ‐‐

276
00:10:56,906 --> 00:10:58,324
to quietly show up

277
00:10:58,324 --> 00:11:00,910
and let them know
that I support them.

278
00:11:00,910 --> 00:11:04,247
But I think
that instinct is wrong,

279
00:11:04,247 --> 00:11:06,249
because when my friends and I
were 13,

280
00:11:06,249 --> 00:11:07,959
we didn't have
the capacity

281
00:11:07,959 --> 00:11:10,712
to stand up against
an abusive power.

282
00:11:10,712 --> 00:11:12,589
And now I do.

283
00:11:12,589 --> 00:11:15,800
I ‐‐ I have the power
to stand up

284
00:11:15,800 --> 00:11:18,344
and say
when something is wrong.

285
00:11:18,344 --> 00:11:20,471
I mean,
I have the power

286
00:11:20,471 --> 00:11:22,390
to call out injustices
when I see them.

287
00:11:22,390 --> 00:11:24,767
I have...

288
00:11:24,767 --> 00:11:28,354
the power to make sure
that everyone can breathe.

289
00:11:28,354 --> 00:11:32,775
♪♪

290
00:11:32,775 --> 00:11:35,486
[ Sighs ]

291
00:11:35,486 --> 00:11:38,573
[ Footsteps approaching ]

292
00:11:38,573 --> 00:11:41,326
Hey.
Hey.

293
00:11:41,326 --> 00:11:43,536
The protests
have really grown.

294
00:11:43,536 --> 00:11:44,996
Yeah, I saw.

295
00:11:44,996 --> 00:11:46,247
[ Inhales deeply ]

296
00:11:47,582 --> 00:11:49,500
What happened to you?
You get into a bar fight?

297
00:11:49,500 --> 00:11:51,628
[ Laughs ]

298
00:11:51,628 --> 00:11:55,256
Yeah, with an SCBA.

299
00:11:56,841 --> 00:11:58,968
You okay?
Nope.

300
00:11:58,968 --> 00:12:00,720
You gonna talk
to Diane?

301
00:12:00,720 --> 00:12:02,305
I doubt it.

302
00:12:02,305 --> 00:12:04,307
[ Clears throat ]

303
00:12:04,307 --> 00:12:05,808
Yep.

304
00:12:05,808 --> 00:12:07,268
♪♪

305
00:12:07,268 --> 00:12:10,104
[ Refrigerator door opens ]

306
00:12:15,193 --> 00:12:17,445
[ Indistinct talking on TV ]

307
00:12:17,445 --> 00:12:19,864
God,
look at that.

308
00:12:19,864 --> 00:12:21,366
It's just getting

309
00:12:21,366 --> 00:12:22,533
bigger
and bigger, hmm?

310
00:12:22,533 --> 00:12:24,327
Mm‐hmm.
It's all over
the world.

311
00:12:24,327 --> 00:12:26,829
Almost makes you...

312
00:12:26,829 --> 00:12:28,331
hopeful?

313
00:12:28,331 --> 00:12:29,749
Take this.
[ Laughs ]

314
00:12:29,749 --> 00:12:31,668
Turn to channel 17.

315
00:12:31,668 --> 00:12:33,753
And let me get that.

316
00:12:33,753 --> 00:12:35,880
What?
So you don't
throw it across the room.

317
00:12:35,880 --> 00:12:37,548
Dixon:
...the news in Minneapolis.

318
00:12:37,548 --> 00:12:39,634
We stand in support
of our communities,

319
00:12:39,634 --> 00:12:40,969
no matter their color.

320
00:12:40,969 --> 00:12:42,929
Oh, God.
Give me that coffee cup back.

321
00:12:42,929 --> 00:12:44,305
This little play‐act

322
00:12:44,305 --> 00:12:46,057
has been on loop
for half an hour now,

323
00:12:46,057 --> 00:12:47,475
and these stations
are eating it up.

324
00:12:47,475 --> 00:12:50,311
Like he's some shining example
of PD valor.

325
00:12:50,311 --> 00:12:52,522
Oh, God, I just threw up
in my mouth a little bit,

326
00:12:52,522 --> 00:12:55,400
I think.
Well, get ready
to throw up some more.

327
00:12:55,400 --> 00:12:59,070
As far as any question about
where this department stands

328
00:12:59,070 --> 00:13:01,322
on the issue of Black Lives...

329
00:13:01,322 --> 00:13:02,657
[ Camera shutters clicking ]

330
00:13:02,657 --> 00:13:03,908
I know this little earthworm
is not gon‐‐

331
00:13:03,908 --> 00:13:05,243
Mm.

332
00:13:05,243 --> 00:13:07,537
Oh. What?!
Yeah.

333
00:13:07,537 --> 00:13:09,414
Oh, come on.
That.

334
00:13:09,414 --> 00:13:11,291
That is why
every time I wonder

335
00:13:11,291 --> 00:13:13,126
whether to continue
with the lawsuit,

336
00:13:13,126 --> 00:13:15,545
whether it's too much...

337
00:13:15,545 --> 00:13:18,631
[ Sighs ]
...too little,
too fast, too slow.

338
00:13:18,631 --> 00:13:21,718
It's ‐‐ It's something,
at least.

339
00:13:21,718 --> 00:13:24,721
Some way
to fight against this ‐‐

340
00:13:24,721 --> 00:13:29,392
this performative, uh ‐‐
uh, hypocritical, destructive...

341
00:13:29,392 --> 00:13:30,685
Yeah.

342
00:13:30,685 --> 00:13:32,645
[ Sighs ]
Yeah.

343
00:13:40,570 --> 00:13:42,030
Travis.

344
00:13:42,030 --> 00:13:43,656
Diane.

345
00:13:43,656 --> 00:13:46,409
You know, the Department
pays me no matter what,

346
00:13:46,409 --> 00:13:48,411
but, uh, there's only

347
00:13:48,411 --> 00:13:50,621
so many crossword puzzles
I can do, so...

348
00:13:50,621 --> 00:13:51,998
[ Laughs ]

349
00:13:51,998 --> 00:13:54,417
You want to talk?
Oh, no.

350
00:13:54,417 --> 00:13:56,294
I mean,
I ‐‐ I want to let

351
00:13:56,294 --> 00:13:57,795
the Black firefighters
go first.

352
00:13:57,795 --> 00:14:01,674
O‐‐ Do you see a line
outside this door?

353
00:14:03,217 --> 00:14:06,012
I‐I know
the past couple months

354
00:14:06,012 --> 00:14:07,805
can't have been easy
for you, either.

355
00:14:07,805 --> 00:14:09,223
Hate crimes
are hate crimes,

356
00:14:09,223 --> 00:14:10,558
no matter the race.

357
00:14:15,688 --> 00:14:18,107
My mom got, uh ‐‐

358
00:14:18,107 --> 00:14:19,484
Well, she was spit on
at the grocery store...

359
00:14:19,484 --> 00:14:20,777
Mm.

360
00:14:20,777 --> 00:14:23,154
...the same day that
George Floyd...

361
00:14:23,154 --> 00:14:25,740
My, uh ‐‐
my mom was leaving,

362
00:14:25,740 --> 00:14:30,828
and a crazy maskless woman
was like...

363
00:14:30,828 --> 00:14:32,580
"If this Kung Flu
is real,

364
00:14:32,580 --> 00:14:35,541
it's because of people
like her."

365
00:14:35,541 --> 00:14:37,710
The woman both
didn't believe COVID was real

366
00:14:37,710 --> 00:14:39,670
and was blaming my mom
for it.

367
00:14:39,670 --> 00:14:44,759
♪♪

368
00:14:44,759 --> 00:14:46,219
[ Whimpers ]

369
00:14:46,219 --> 00:14:48,554
When my mom
told me,

370
00:14:48,554 --> 00:14:51,808
it actually felt like
my organs were melting.
[ Sobs ]

371
00:14:51,808 --> 00:14:53,726
I was so hot with rage,
you know,

372
00:14:53,726 --> 00:14:55,728
remembering the times
when I was a kid,

373
00:14:55,728 --> 00:14:58,773
and, you know,
people would say stuff to us.

374
00:14:58,773 --> 00:15:01,609
And then,
we would just go home.

375
00:15:01,609 --> 00:15:04,654
Never to
be discussed again.

376
00:15:04,654 --> 00:15:07,115
And I ‐‐ And I didn't say
anything to anyone here about it

377
00:15:07,115 --> 00:15:09,742
because, you know,
it didn't feel appropriate.

378
00:15:09,742 --> 00:15:12,703
This giant, massive thing
was happening ‐‐

379
00:15:12,703 --> 00:15:13,996
a hate crime.

380
00:15:13,996 --> 00:15:17,416
[ Whimpering ]

381
00:15:17,416 --> 00:15:20,378
[ Sobbing ]

382
00:15:20,378 --> 00:15:23,297
An atrocity so much more brutal
and egregious.

383
00:15:23,297 --> 00:15:26,175
You know, other people
were hurting so much more.

384
00:15:26,175 --> 00:15:27,552
I'm sorry.

385
00:15:27,552 --> 00:15:29,303
I don't know why
I'm talking to you about this.

386
00:15:29,303 --> 00:15:31,097
I don't know why
I'm doing that.

387
00:15:31,097 --> 00:15:32,557
Because I'm
a Black woman,

388
00:15:32,557 --> 00:15:34,267
and my racist stuff
is "bigger"?

389
00:15:34,267 --> 00:15:35,685
Something like that.

390
00:15:35,685 --> 00:15:37,478
That doesn't work.

391
00:15:37,478 --> 00:15:39,021
It doesn't not work.

392
00:15:40,773 --> 00:15:44,193
I know
that since COVID,

393
00:15:44,193 --> 00:15:46,112
hate crimes against
Asian Americans

394
00:15:46,112 --> 00:15:49,115
have spiked
like crazy.

395
00:15:49,115 --> 00:15:51,701
And yet, no one is talking
about it ‐‐

396
00:15:51,701 --> 00:15:53,161
no one but us.

397
00:15:53,161 --> 00:15:54,579
Not the media.

398
00:15:54,579 --> 00:15:57,582
No the ‐‐
[ Scoffs ]

399
00:15:57,582 --> 00:16:00,334
I mean,
grandmas and grandpas ‐‐

400
00:16:00,334 --> 00:16:02,170
halmoni and haraboji.

401
00:16:02,170 --> 00:16:04,213
People being shoved
into walls

402
00:16:04,213 --> 00:16:06,215
and off
subway platforms.

403
00:16:06,215 --> 00:16:08,885
You have
Filipina nurses

404
00:16:08,885 --> 00:16:10,136
who say goodbye
to their families

405
00:16:10,136 --> 00:16:12,138
and their own country
to come here

406
00:16:12,138 --> 00:16:13,890
to work the front lines
of a pandemic

407
00:16:13,890 --> 00:16:15,141
being attacked
in the streets.

408
00:16:15,141 --> 00:16:17,143
A 2‐year‐old
and a 6‐year‐old

409
00:16:17,143 --> 00:16:19,187
stabbed at
a big‐box store.

410
00:16:19,187 --> 00:16:21,606
I mean, who stabs
a 2‐year‐old?

411
00:16:21,606 --> 00:16:25,193
And why is that
not news?

412
00:16:25,193 --> 00:16:28,362
Why are we so...

413
00:16:28,362 --> 00:16:29,697
invisible?

414
00:16:29,697 --> 00:16:31,616
I don't know.

415
00:16:31,616 --> 00:16:33,784
I ‐‐ [ Sighs ]

416
00:16:33,784 --> 00:16:34,785
I don't know.

417
00:16:34,785 --> 00:16:36,704
I don't know either!

418
00:16:38,414 --> 00:16:41,667
But how can we
even make a fuss

419
00:16:41,667 --> 00:16:46,172
when this is all it is
relative to how horrifically

420
00:16:46,172 --> 00:16:47,882
this country treats
Black people?

421
00:16:47,882 --> 00:16:50,676
I mean,
I watched that whole video,

422
00:16:50,676 --> 00:16:54,180
and in addition to the
absolute horror that I felt ‐‐

423
00:16:54,180 --> 00:16:58,351
and feel ‐‐
I also thought...

424
00:16:59,894 --> 00:17:04,607
..."What do we have
to even complain about?"

425
00:17:04,607 --> 00:17:09,320
Travis,
it's all bad.

426
00:17:09,320 --> 00:17:11,030
I know you're trying
to be generous,

427
00:17:11,030 --> 00:17:14,575
but it is all bad.

428
00:17:14,575 --> 00:17:18,329
There are no winners
in the Oppression Olympics.

429
00:17:18,329 --> 00:17:19,747
Okay?

430
00:17:19,747 --> 00:17:22,250
And it's gaslighting
if anyone tells you

431
00:17:22,250 --> 00:17:24,126
or if
you tell yourself...

432
00:17:24,126 --> 00:17:25,962
[ Sobbing ]
...to be okay
with the brutalities

433
00:17:25,962 --> 00:17:27,755
being inflicted
on your community

434
00:17:27,755 --> 00:17:30,007
because worse things
are happening to another.

435
00:17:30,007 --> 00:17:32,093
♪♪

436
00:17:41,727 --> 00:17:44,397
[ Sighs ]

437
00:17:47,316 --> 00:17:48,776
She's just
trying to help.

438
00:17:48,776 --> 00:17:50,236
Okay.

439
00:17:52,613 --> 00:17:54,073
Robert ‐‐

440
00:17:54,073 --> 00:17:55,992
Look,
I'm not gonna do it, okay?

441
00:17:55,992 --> 00:17:57,743
I'm not
gonna just sit there

442
00:17:57,743 --> 00:17:59,245
and ‐‐ and perform
my pain...

443
00:17:59,245 --> 00:18:00,746
It's not ‐‐

444
00:18:00,746 --> 00:18:02,373
...so that Bishop
can feel better, alright?

445
00:18:02,373 --> 00:18:03,416
That's not ‐‐ [ Sighs ]
I'm not gonna do it.

446
00:18:03,416 --> 00:18:06,002
Andy,
I just need a minute.

447
00:18:06,002 --> 00:18:07,295
[ Buckle clinks ]
Okay.

448
00:18:09,297 --> 00:18:10,548
I need a minute.

449
00:18:10,548 --> 00:18:12,425
Okay. Okay.

450
00:18:19,015 --> 00:18:22,101
[ Door opens ]
[ Sighs ]

451
00:18:22,101 --> 00:18:23,603
You know,
it's always bothered me

452
00:18:23,603 --> 00:18:27,064
when men would suddenly
see the world differently

453
00:18:27,064 --> 00:18:28,149
after they had
a daughter.

454
00:18:28,149 --> 00:18:29,442
Like,
I always wondered

455
00:18:29,442 --> 00:18:31,110
why it took
them having a daughter

456
00:18:31,110 --> 00:18:33,029
in order
to open their eyes.

457
00:18:33,029 --> 00:18:35,573
But I guess
that's how it feels for me now.

458
00:18:35,573 --> 00:18:36,949
I'm that guy.
[ Exhales sharply ]

459
00:18:37,992 --> 00:18:41,078
The world changed
for me

460
00:18:41,078 --> 00:18:44,081
because I fell in love
with a Black man,

461
00:18:44,081 --> 00:18:46,459
and now I see
what he sees.

462
00:18:46,459 --> 00:18:49,962
You know, I ‐‐ I worry
for him every day.

463
00:18:49,962 --> 00:18:51,756
I‐I've taken on
the fear

464
00:18:51,756 --> 00:18:53,799
that he doesn't
allow himself to feel.

465
00:18:53,799 --> 00:18:56,177
I ‐‐ You know,
I've always seen it

466
00:18:56,177 --> 00:18:57,219
and felt it
growing up.

467
00:18:57,219 --> 00:18:58,804
I saw my dad
go through it.

468
00:18:58,804 --> 00:19:01,265
People would call him
awful names,

469
00:19:01,265 --> 00:19:03,893
and he would ‐‐
he would just walk by,

470
00:19:03,893 --> 00:19:05,478
hold his head
up high.

471
00:19:05,478 --> 00:19:08,189
A‐As a kid, people would look at
my last name,

472
00:19:08,189 --> 00:19:10,524
and they would ask me,
"Where are you really from?"

473
00:19:10,524 --> 00:19:12,276
[ Scoffs ]

474
00:19:12,276 --> 00:19:14,445
I even had teachers
who would look really surprised

475
00:19:14,445 --> 00:19:16,489
once they realized
that I was smart.

476
00:19:16,489 --> 00:19:17,907
But, you know,
mostly...

477
00:19:17,907 --> 00:19:19,450
[ Clicks tongue ]

478
00:19:19,450 --> 00:19:20,618
[ Scoffs ]

479
00:19:21,911 --> 00:19:23,913
It's okay to say it.
Mostly,
I got treated okay

480
00:19:23,913 --> 00:19:25,706
because my skin
is light.

481
00:19:25,706 --> 00:19:27,375
I pass for white.

482
00:19:27,375 --> 00:19:29,960
And you feel guilty
about that?

483
00:19:29,960 --> 00:19:31,253
[ Clicks tongue ]
I ‐‐

484
00:19:31,253 --> 00:19:32,797
You know...
[ Clears throat ]

485
00:19:32,797 --> 00:19:35,591
I swear to God,
I don't even know how I feel.

486
00:19:35,591 --> 00:19:36,801
Uh,
can we walk?

487
00:19:38,094 --> 00:19:41,389
This year has been
so much ‐‐ so much.

488
00:19:41,389 --> 00:19:43,641
It's been just one thing
after another a‐‐

489
00:19:43,641 --> 00:19:45,726
with no time
to recover.

490
00:19:45,726 --> 00:19:47,895
And that video?
[ Scoffs ]

491
00:19:47,895 --> 00:19:49,313
I feel ‐‐

492
00:19:49,313 --> 00:19:52,358
[ Stammers ]
I feel betrayed.

493
00:19:52,358 --> 00:19:55,194
I mean, j‐‐ I know
it's always been this way,

494
00:19:55,194 --> 00:19:57,947
but I needed
to love a Black man ‐‐

495
00:19:57,947 --> 00:19:59,907
I needed to be married
to a Black man ‐‐

496
00:19:59,907 --> 00:20:01,492
in order to see
the whole picture?

497
00:20:01,492 --> 00:20:04,453
Why? Why?
Where was my call for justice?

498
00:20:04,453 --> 00:20:05,955
Like, why didn't I
see this before?

499
00:20:05,955 --> 00:20:09,625
W‐‐ Why am I just
waking up now?

500
00:20:09,625 --> 00:20:11,836
A lot of people
are waking up now,

501
00:20:11,836 --> 00:20:14,839
and they're asking themselves
the same questions.

502
00:20:14,839 --> 00:20:16,841
And you ‐‐
you're the daughter

503
00:20:16,841 --> 00:20:18,926
of a fire captain.

504
00:20:18,926 --> 00:20:20,219
Police have been
a part of your life

505
00:20:20,219 --> 00:20:21,721
since you were
a little girl.

506
00:20:21,721 --> 00:20:23,973
Cops and firefighters
were your family.

507
00:20:26,225 --> 00:20:28,144
They would call me
Pruitita.

508
00:20:28,144 --> 00:20:29,812
It means
Little Pruitt.

509
00:20:29,812 --> 00:20:32,773
And there was this sort of
mental gymnastics going on

510
00:20:32,773 --> 00:20:35,943
where, a‐as I got older,
I thought I knew

511
00:20:35,943 --> 00:20:37,737
that police brutality
was rampant.

512
00:20:37,737 --> 00:20:39,196
But at the same time,

513
00:20:39,196 --> 00:20:40,865
I didn't count the cops
that I knew personally

514
00:20:40,865 --> 00:20:42,199
into that issue.

515
00:20:42,199 --> 00:20:43,868
You know,
it was double‐think.

516
00:20:43,868 --> 00:20:45,619
Like, I never stopped
and questioned

517
00:20:45,619 --> 00:20:48,080
why the good cops weren't
calling out the bad ones.

518
00:20:48,080 --> 00:20:51,876
You know, not a single one
of my dad's old police friends

519
00:20:51,876 --> 00:20:54,879
have stepped forward
to denounce the actions

520
00:20:54,879 --> 00:20:56,630
of the officers
that murdered George Floyd?

521
00:20:56,630 --> 00:20:59,925
Not a single one.

522
00:21:01,969 --> 00:21:04,930
It is my instinct
as a therapist to comfort you,

523
00:21:04,930 --> 00:21:07,475
but your comfort ‐‐

524
00:21:07,475 --> 00:21:09,477
and everyone else's
comfort ‐‐

525
00:21:09,477 --> 00:21:13,189
has been such a big part
of this problem

526
00:21:13,189 --> 00:21:14,273
for so long.

527
00:21:17,777 --> 00:21:20,196
[ Sighs ]

528
00:21:20,196 --> 00:21:23,824
[ Ringing ]

529
00:21:23,824 --> 00:21:25,743
Carina: You're beautiful,
and you're brave,

530
00:21:25,743 --> 00:21:28,704
and you are ‐‐
Okay, no,
just listen.

531
00:21:28,704 --> 00:21:30,539
I want
to tell everyone

532
00:21:30,539 --> 00:21:33,042
that I support them
attending the protests.

533
00:21:33,042 --> 00:21:34,335
I want to go.

534
00:21:34,335 --> 00:21:37,463
I don't want
to silently support anymore.

535
00:21:37,463 --> 00:21:39,548
I want to scream
in the streets.

536
00:21:39,548 --> 00:21:41,258
Wonderful.
I'll join you.

537
00:21:41,258 --> 00:21:43,135
You don't understand.

538
00:21:43,135 --> 00:21:46,722
It's ‐‐ Things are bad enough
right now between 19 and PD.

539
00:21:46,722 --> 00:21:48,974
The Department
won't like it.

540
00:21:48,974 --> 00:21:50,976
Okay,
but they cannot

541
00:21:50,976 --> 00:21:53,729
officially discipline you
for it, though, right?

542
00:21:53,729 --> 00:21:55,564
No, no.

543
00:21:55,564 --> 00:21:56,774
But [sighs]

544
00:21:56,774 --> 00:21:59,276
I'm on a track,

545
00:21:59,276 --> 00:22:02,613
and if
I support this publicly ‐‐

546
00:22:02,613 --> 00:22:04,824
which everything in me
wants to do ‐‐

547
00:22:04,824 --> 00:22:06,617
it'll take me
off that track.

548
00:22:06,617 --> 00:22:09,703
Because people are setting
fires to police stations.

549
00:22:09,703 --> 00:22:13,040
Yes, and because firefighters
work with the police, okay?

550
00:22:13,040 --> 00:22:15,334
They're our brothers, too,

551
00:22:15,334 --> 00:22:16,794
and there are
some bad apples, bu‐‐

552
00:22:16,794 --> 00:22:18,879
Okay, they keep saying that
on the news.

553
00:22:18,879 --> 00:22:20,798
The "one bad apple,"
"one bad apple."

554
00:22:20,798 --> 00:22:22,132
And I didn't understand
what it meant,

555
00:22:22,132 --> 00:22:23,592
so I looked it up,

556
00:22:23,592 --> 00:22:25,928
and one bad apple
ruins the whole barrel.

557
00:22:25,928 --> 00:22:27,429
That's the saying.

558
00:22:27,429 --> 00:22:29,682
So, after we all saw
the horrific video,

559
00:22:29,682 --> 00:22:31,559
why aren't
all the brothers ‐‐

560
00:22:31,559 --> 00:22:33,227
why aren't
all the friends ‐‐

561
00:22:33,227 --> 00:22:35,312
why isn't
every member of the police force

562
00:22:35,312 --> 00:22:37,523
in the streets
demanding systemic change?

563
00:22:37,523 --> 00:22:39,400
Why?

564
00:22:39,400 --> 00:22:42,152
Because it'll take them
off of the track.

565
00:22:43,696 --> 00:22:46,448
[ Knock on door ]

566
00:22:46,448 --> 00:22:48,409
Can I ask you
a question?

567
00:22:48,409 --> 00:22:49,785
Of course.

568
00:22:49,785 --> 00:22:51,453
How do you
become a therapist?

569
00:22:52,830 --> 00:22:56,250
I'm sorry. I'm not, uh,
often taken off‐guard.

570
00:22:56,250 --> 00:22:59,295
Are you considering
a career change?

571
00:22:59,295 --> 00:23:00,796
Oh, no. No, no, no.
I mean, not now.

572
00:23:00,796 --> 00:23:02,506
I just ‐‐
It would be nice

573
00:23:02,506 --> 00:23:04,091
to have a back‐up plan
that's better than

574
00:23:04,091 --> 00:23:05,634
waiting tables
at my parents' restaurant

575
00:23:05,634 --> 00:23:07,511
in case I get injured
or...

576
00:23:07,511 --> 00:23:09,013
Or what?

577
00:23:10,306 --> 00:23:13,392
Or if
I give myself permission

578
00:23:13,392 --> 00:23:14,894
to throw a brick
at a police station

579
00:23:14,894 --> 00:23:16,562
and it gets me
kicked out of FD.

580
00:23:17,897 --> 00:23:19,398
It's, uh,
four years of undergrad

581
00:23:19,398 --> 00:23:21,025
plus two years
of grad school.

582
00:23:21,025 --> 00:23:22,484
I'm only like
eight credits shy

583
00:23:22,484 --> 00:23:24,194
of my undergrad degree,
so...

584
00:23:24,194 --> 00:23:25,613
In what?

585
00:23:25,613 --> 00:23:27,615
Uh, it'll be a
Bachelor of Fine Arts.

586
00:23:27,615 --> 00:23:29,366
A Bachelor
of ‐‐ of Fine Arts?

587
00:23:29,366 --> 00:23:30,659
Yeah,
I studied musical theater.

588
00:23:30,659 --> 00:23:32,119
Wow.

589
00:23:32,119 --> 00:23:33,954
What are the classes
when you get

590
00:23:33,954 --> 00:23:35,164
a Bachelor of Fine Arts
in musical theater?

591
00:23:35,164 --> 00:23:36,665
Well, let's see.

592
00:23:36,665 --> 00:23:38,667
Uh, there's voice
and speech,

593
00:23:38,667 --> 00:23:40,544
and acting,
singing, ballet,

594
00:23:40,544 --> 00:23:42,129
and also circus skills

595
00:23:42,129 --> 00:23:45,841
like walking a tightrope
or juggling.

596
00:23:45,841 --> 00:23:47,509
And they give you a degree
for that?

597
00:23:47,509 --> 00:23:49,595
Well, they would have,
but the theater burned down,

598
00:23:49,595 --> 00:23:51,263
and my favorite teacher
didn't make it out.

599
00:23:51,263 --> 00:23:52,932
And I did make it out,
but I couldn't go back.

600
00:23:52,932 --> 00:23:54,725
I couldn't finish,
so...

601
00:23:54,725 --> 00:23:56,393
So...?

602
00:23:58,312 --> 00:24:00,522
[ Sighs ] Uh, why are we
talking about this?

603
00:24:00,522 --> 00:24:02,608
I don't know,
but if I had to guess,

604
00:24:02,608 --> 00:24:05,110
I'd say it's because
you are desperate to talk

605
00:24:05,110 --> 00:24:06,779
and think about
literally anything

606
00:24:06,779 --> 00:24:08,405
besides that video.

607
00:24:08,405 --> 00:24:10,532
Can you think
of anything...

608
00:24:10,532 --> 00:24:12,201
No.

609
00:24:18,832 --> 00:24:20,501
[ Sighs ]

610
00:24:20,501 --> 00:24:22,336
I like
to fix things.

611
00:24:22,336 --> 00:24:24,213
I see a fire
and I put it out.

612
00:24:24,213 --> 00:24:27,299
But we have been having
this same fight for so long ‐‐

613
00:24:27,299 --> 00:24:29,134
for so long.

614
00:24:29,134 --> 00:24:30,594
I mean, my grandma used to
tell me about the sit‐ins

615
00:24:30,594 --> 00:24:32,638
and boycotts she used to do
in the '60s.

616
00:24:32,638 --> 00:24:34,223
And we're
how many moments

617
00:24:34,223 --> 00:24:36,308
and movements
and marches later,

618
00:24:36,308 --> 00:24:38,227
and what do we have
to show for it?

619
00:24:38,227 --> 00:24:40,437
And to see so many people
act like this is news ‐‐

620
00:24:40,437 --> 00:24:42,690
like this is just
some brand‐new information

621
00:24:42,690 --> 00:24:44,233
they're just now
waking up to.

622
00:24:44,233 --> 00:24:46,193
Do you know how many
white friends

623
00:24:46,193 --> 00:24:49,238
texted me or emailed me
just out of the blue?
[ Laughs ]

624
00:24:49,238 --> 00:24:50,864
Right? And everything
under this guise

625
00:24:50,864 --> 00:24:53,075
of just checking in
and just asking how I was doing.

626
00:24:53,075 --> 00:24:54,410
"How are you feeling?"
You know?

627
00:24:54,410 --> 00:24:57,246
I ‐‐ [Laughs]
I knew they meant well,

628
00:24:57,246 --> 00:25:01,041
but I also knew
what was behind it ‐‐ guilt.

629
00:25:01,041 --> 00:25:03,293
So, I ‐‐ Pbht.
I don't know, how am I feeling?

630
00:25:03,293 --> 00:25:05,254
How are you feeling?
'Cause that ‐‐ Like ‐‐
[ Laughing ]

631
00:25:05,254 --> 00:25:06,839
[ Both laugh ]

632
00:25:06,839 --> 00:25:08,424
'Cause as much
as I couldn't fix this problem,

633
00:25:08,424 --> 00:25:09,925
at least
I knew it was there.

634
00:25:09,925 --> 00:25:11,677
And for a better reason
than I was just

635
00:25:11,677 --> 00:25:13,053
stuck inside my house
this time

636
00:25:13,053 --> 00:25:15,347
and I couldn't
look away.

637
00:25:15,347 --> 00:25:17,266
Yeah.

638
00:25:17,266 --> 00:25:20,811
And the way they're
talking about him already.

639
00:25:20,811 --> 00:25:23,188
Yeah.
T‐T‐The spin
already afoot

640
00:25:23,188 --> 00:25:25,190
by usual suspects
in the media

641
00:25:25,190 --> 00:25:28,652
trying to vilify him
rather than the murder of him.

642
00:25:28,652 --> 00:25:30,195
You kn‐‐
You know what's almost

643
00:25:30,195 --> 00:25:31,447
equally as enraging
to me, too?

644
00:25:31,447 --> 00:25:34,324
It's the people patting
themselves on the back

645
00:25:34,324 --> 00:25:35,868
trying to
humanize him.

646
00:25:35,868 --> 00:25:37,828
It's like, you're trying
to humanize a person.

647
00:25:37,828 --> 00:25:39,204
[ Exhales sharply ]

648
00:25:39,204 --> 00:25:41,874
Do you really
have to look for proof

649
00:25:41,874 --> 00:25:43,292
that we're people,
too?

650
00:25:43,292 --> 00:25:44,376
[ Scoffs ]
Really?

651
00:25:44,376 --> 00:25:45,794
We should care
more about him

652
00:25:45,794 --> 00:25:47,379
because he was a ‐‐
a good father

653
00:25:47,379 --> 00:25:48,881
or a loving brother

654
00:25:48,881 --> 00:25:50,299
or a high‐school athlete
or he's fun at a party?

655
00:25:50,299 --> 00:25:52,051
No, we ‐‐ we should
care about him

656
00:25:52,051 --> 00:25:53,218
because he was
a person.

657
00:25:55,304 --> 00:25:57,056
[ Voice breaking ]
George Floyd shouldn't have been

658
00:25:57,056 --> 00:26:00,059
treated this way
because he's a person.

659
00:26:00,059 --> 00:26:02,478
A cop...

660
00:26:04,396 --> 00:26:06,607
...should not have had his knee
on his neck

661
00:26:06,607 --> 00:26:09,193
until the last gasp of life
was choked out of him,

662
00:26:09,193 --> 00:26:11,028
because he is
a person.

663
00:26:11,028 --> 00:26:13,781
[ Sirens wailing in distance ]

664
00:26:13,781 --> 00:26:16,700
[ Screams ]

665
00:26:16,700 --> 00:26:18,911
[ Glass shatters ]

666
00:26:18,911 --> 00:26:20,996
[ Sirens continue ]

667
00:26:20,996 --> 00:26:25,334
♪♪

668
00:26:25,334 --> 00:26:26,960
[ Scoffs ]

669
00:26:26,960 --> 00:26:29,963
So, do you think I could
get into grad school, or...?

670
00:26:29,963 --> 00:26:32,716
You really gonna throw
that brick?

671
00:26:32,716 --> 00:26:35,260
[ Sirens wailing ]

672
00:26:35,260 --> 00:26:37,554
[ Glass shatters ]

673
00:26:37,554 --> 00:26:43,227
♪♪

674
00:26:43,227 --> 00:26:48,941
♪♪

675
00:26:48,941 --> 00:26:51,401
I just want
a back‐up plan.

676
00:26:51,401 --> 00:26:53,112
♪♪

677
00:26:58,742 --> 00:27:00,410
[ Knock on door ]

678
00:27:01,703 --> 00:27:03,038
Diane:
♪ Little ditty ♪

679
00:27:03,038 --> 00:27:05,624
♪ About Jack
and Diane ♪

680
00:27:05,624 --> 00:27:07,084
I'm sorry.

681
00:27:07,084 --> 00:27:09,253
I'm sure I'm not the one
you're here to talk to.

682
00:27:09,253 --> 00:27:11,547
I'm here to talk
to anyone who needs it.

683
00:27:11,547 --> 00:27:13,966
I'm afraid to talk
to anyone right now.

684
00:27:13,966 --> 00:27:15,467
Not just you ‐‐
t‐to anyone.

685
00:27:15,467 --> 00:27:17,469
I'm afraid
to talk to my best friend.

686
00:27:17,469 --> 00:27:19,012
Ah, Miller.

687
00:27:20,347 --> 00:27:22,766
I'm afraid I'm gonna get
every word wrong,

688
00:27:22,766 --> 00:27:24,434
or even one word.

689
00:27:24,434 --> 00:27:26,019
Yeah, I know
I'm not a racist.

690
00:27:26,019 --> 00:27:27,604
Ohh.
I‐I know that.

691
00:27:27,604 --> 00:27:31,024
You do realize that
"I'm not racist" is kind of

692
00:27:31,024 --> 00:27:34,111
the ‐‐ the club slogan
of racists?

693
00:27:34,111 --> 00:27:36,238
And that's because
we live in a culture

694
00:27:36,238 --> 00:27:38,031
built on
white supremacy,

695
00:27:38,031 --> 00:27:40,117
so the racism
is baked in.

696
00:27:40,117 --> 00:27:42,202
And we can't begin
to undo it

697
00:27:42,202 --> 00:27:43,287
until we name it
and own it.

698
00:27:43,287 --> 00:27:45,038
Okay, see,
this is exactly my point.

699
00:27:45,038 --> 00:27:47,291
You know, I'm damned if I do,
and I'm damned if I don't.

700
00:27:47,291 --> 00:27:49,751
Cops take a knee,
join the protests,

701
00:27:49,751 --> 00:27:51,420
they're called hypocrites.

702
00:27:51,420 --> 00:27:53,213
And Dixon?
He is a hypocrite.

703
00:27:53,213 --> 00:27:55,215
He is a racist.

704
00:27:55,215 --> 00:27:57,676
But it can't be that
across the board.

705
00:27:59,386 --> 00:28:02,306
Jack, you come to see me
twice a month,

706
00:28:02,306 --> 00:28:05,767
so I have to assume
that you like me, right?

707
00:28:05,767 --> 00:28:08,061
You like
that I give you tough love

708
00:28:08,061 --> 00:28:10,147
and tell it like it is
and don't pull punches?

709
00:28:11,440 --> 00:28:13,942
And you came in here today
looking for some clarity.

710
00:28:13,942 --> 00:28:15,527
So,
here it is.

711
00:28:15,527 --> 00:28:17,779
I know what you mean

712
00:28:17,779 --> 00:28:19,364
when you say
you aren't racist,

713
00:28:19,364 --> 00:28:20,574
and I believe

714
00:28:20,574 --> 00:28:24,119
that you do not have hatred
in your heart.

715
00:28:24,119 --> 00:28:27,497
But you also
aren't damned.

716
00:28:27,497 --> 00:28:29,082
Not even
in the least bit.

717
00:28:29,082 --> 00:28:32,544
You're blessed
as hell.

718
00:28:32,544 --> 00:28:34,713
I know you grew up
on the streets in the system,

719
00:28:34,713 --> 00:28:37,299
and I'm not diminishing
your hardship,

720
00:28:37,299 --> 00:28:39,176
but you are ‐‐
[ Indistinct shouting ]

721
00:28:39,176 --> 00:28:40,636
Yeah, I'm privileged
because I'm white.

722
00:28:40,636 --> 00:28:42,137
I get it.

723
00:28:42,137 --> 00:28:45,766
When I was a kid ‐‐
when I was squatting ‐‐

724
00:28:45,766 --> 00:28:48,310
after that last
foster home,

725
00:28:48,310 --> 00:28:51,146
there were a few of us
who would hunker down

726
00:28:51,146 --> 00:28:53,523
to make a place
for ourselves.

727
00:28:53,523 --> 00:28:54,733
[ Sirens wailing ]
You know,
to stay out of the system.

728
00:28:54,733 --> 00:28:57,110
Eventually,
the cops would find us,

729
00:28:57,110 --> 00:28:58,695
and we'd run.

730
00:28:58,695 --> 00:29:01,031
And it was scary.

731
00:29:01,031 --> 00:29:03,116
But when
I was being chased,

732
00:29:03,116 --> 00:29:05,661
not once
did I think that,

733
00:29:05,661 --> 00:29:10,582
"If he catches me,
he might kill me."

734
00:29:10,582 --> 00:29:12,167
♪♪

735
00:29:12,167 --> 00:29:14,211
I never
feared for my life.

736
00:29:14,211 --> 00:29:15,837
♪♪

737
00:29:15,837 --> 00:29:20,008
But I know
some of my friends did.

738
00:29:20,008 --> 00:29:22,427
I know
I'm privileged, Diane.

739
00:29:24,388 --> 00:29:26,765
I watched
what those cops did to Miller,

740
00:29:26,765 --> 00:29:28,725
I watched that video,

741
00:29:28,725 --> 00:29:31,728
and I want
to blow up the world.

742
00:29:31,728 --> 00:29:33,772
And?

743
00:29:33,772 --> 00:29:35,899
And...

744
00:29:35,899 --> 00:29:38,276
we're firefighters.

745
00:29:38,276 --> 00:29:41,613
We need the cops,
and they need us.

746
00:29:41,613 --> 00:29:43,448
And we can't all of a sudden
overnight decide

747
00:29:43,448 --> 00:29:45,200
that the whole institution
is evil.

748
00:29:45,200 --> 00:29:48,120
Some good guys
stayed silent,

749
00:29:48,120 --> 00:29:50,664
and that
makes them bad.

750
00:29:50,664 --> 00:29:54,918
Except, they're not
actually all bad.

751
00:29:54,918 --> 00:29:57,379
They're individuals.

752
00:29:57,379 --> 00:29:59,423
And I feel like
I'm not allowed to say that.

753
00:29:59,423 --> 00:30:04,219
I'm afraid
to say anything.

754
00:30:04,219 --> 00:30:05,053
Mm.

755
00:30:06,096 --> 00:30:07,431
[ Inhales deeply ]

756
00:30:07,431 --> 00:30:10,517
I was
a firefighter, too.

757
00:30:10,517 --> 00:30:13,395
I have
cop buddies, too.

758
00:30:13,395 --> 00:30:17,190
Our cop buddies
are not the point.

759
00:30:21,111 --> 00:30:23,780
Do you know
what the 13th Amendment did?

760
00:30:25,198 --> 00:30:27,075
Abolished slavery.

761
00:30:27,075 --> 00:30:29,453
Except as a punishment
for a crime.

762
00:30:29,453 --> 00:30:31,121
Yeah,
but that was like ‐‐

763
00:30:31,121 --> 00:30:32,456
That's still the law.

764
00:30:32,456 --> 00:30:35,959
It is still legal
to enslave Americans

765
00:30:35,959 --> 00:30:38,086
as a punishment
for a crime.

766
00:30:38,086 --> 00:30:40,172
And do you know
the statistics

767
00:30:40,172 --> 00:30:42,340
of incarcerated Black folks
in America?

768
00:30:42,340 --> 00:30:44,342
34%.

769
00:30:44,342 --> 00:30:46,928
We are 34%
of the prison population,

770
00:30:46,928 --> 00:30:50,515
but we only make up 13%
of this country's population.

771
00:30:50,515 --> 00:30:52,350
That seem right
to you?

772
00:30:52,350 --> 00:30:54,144
And you're thinking,

773
00:30:54,144 --> 00:30:56,938
"Well, that's because
more Black people are poor,

774
00:30:56,938 --> 00:30:58,648
so they have to resort
to crime.

775
00:30:58,648 --> 00:31:01,068
So they
get arrested more.

776
00:31:01,068 --> 00:31:03,904
Sucks for them, but, hey, you do
the crime, you do the time."

777
00:31:03,904 --> 00:31:06,573
But how many crimes
did you commit, Jack,

778
00:31:06,573 --> 00:31:08,617
when you were out there
on the streets?

779
00:31:09,785 --> 00:31:13,246
Did you, uh, steal to eat?
Did you run from police?

780
00:31:13,246 --> 00:31:15,207
Did you get drunk sometimes and
make a mess with your friends?

781
00:31:15,207 --> 00:31:17,000
Yeah,
all of that.

782
00:31:17,000 --> 00:31:18,418
But you never
went to prison.

783
00:31:18,418 --> 00:31:19,920
Never went to jail.

784
00:31:19,920 --> 00:31:22,422
Never had a gun
pointed at you.

785
00:31:22,422 --> 00:31:24,883
Never have a knee
put on your neck.

786
00:31:24,883 --> 00:31:28,095
When you make mistakes,
you get to learn from them.

787
00:31:28,095 --> 00:31:31,223
When people who look like me
make any kind of mistake,

788
00:31:31,223 --> 00:31:34,059
we go to prison...
or worse.

789
00:31:34,059 --> 00:31:37,813
And way too often,
no mistake is needed.

790
00:31:37,813 --> 00:31:40,273
We can laugh too loud
and they'll arrest us.

791
00:31:40,273 --> 00:31:41,775
We can put our hands
in the air,

792
00:31:41,775 --> 00:31:42,859
and they'll shoot us.

793
00:31:42,859 --> 00:31:44,653
It's not in the past.

794
00:31:44,653 --> 00:31:46,446
It's now.
It's still.

795
00:31:46,446 --> 00:31:48,698
♪♪

796
00:31:48,698 --> 00:31:51,993
And I know you don't have
hatred in your heart, Jack.

797
00:31:51,993 --> 00:31:53,995
But that's not enough
anymore.

798
00:31:53,995 --> 00:31:55,956
You have to
dig deeper.

799
00:31:55,956 --> 00:31:58,083
When you're
too uncomfortable to talk

800
00:31:58,083 --> 00:31:59,960
and you don't know
what to say?

801
00:31:59,960 --> 00:32:02,045
That's okay.

802
00:32:02,045 --> 00:32:04,589
Listen instead.

803
00:32:04,589 --> 00:32:12,180
♪♪

804
00:32:13,265 --> 00:32:15,809
[ Sighs ]

805
00:32:17,644 --> 00:32:19,813
I know.

806
00:32:19,813 --> 00:32:22,607
You want me
to talk to her.

807
00:32:22,607 --> 00:32:28,155
No, I want you to do
whatever you need to do.

808
00:32:36,872 --> 00:32:39,583
[ Footsteps retreat ]

809
00:32:46,047 --> 00:32:48,592
[ Knock on door ]

810
00:32:50,177 --> 00:32:52,554
Hey, there.
Yeah?

811
00:32:52,554 --> 00:32:53,722
Is it alright
if we come in?

812
00:32:53,722 --> 00:32:55,682
You guys okay?

813
00:32:55,682 --> 00:32:57,100
You need medical attention
or anything?

814
00:32:57,100 --> 00:32:58,560
Oh, no.
I was just hoping

815
00:32:58,560 --> 00:33:01,021
someone could show my boys
around the station.

816
00:33:01,021 --> 00:33:02,856
Can we
slide down the pole?

817
00:33:02,856 --> 00:33:05,525
Sorry, but the station tours
are cancelled because of COVID.

818
00:33:05,525 --> 00:33:06,651
I'm sorry.
Aww!

819
00:33:06,651 --> 00:33:08,695
Can we go now?

820
00:33:08,695 --> 00:33:12,949
Hey, guys, um ‐‐
just, um, wait for me

821
00:33:12,949 --> 00:33:14,618
out there on the bench
for me, okay?
Ugh, fine.

822
00:33:14,618 --> 00:33:16,203
I'll be right out.

823
00:33:16,203 --> 00:33:19,206
Uh, look, u‐‐ sir,
I'm ‐‐ I'm sorry, but I...

824
00:33:22,667 --> 00:33:24,252
My kids
saw the video.

825
00:33:25,587 --> 00:33:26,963
They watched it.

826
00:33:26,963 --> 00:33:28,798
I didn't tell them
that they could,

827
00:33:28,798 --> 00:33:30,425
but it's all over
social media.

828
00:33:30,425 --> 00:33:33,386
And before I even
got home from work,

829
00:33:33,386 --> 00:33:35,180
they had watched it.

830
00:33:35,180 --> 00:33:39,476
My 11‐year‐old slept with
his comfort blanket last night.

831
00:33:39,476 --> 00:33:42,479
He dug it out of storage
and he hid it under his pillow.

832
00:33:42,479 --> 00:33:44,522
He thought
I didn't see it.

833
00:33:44,522 --> 00:33:47,943
He hasn't slept with that
since he was 8 years old.

834
00:33:47,943 --> 00:33:50,445
They don't understand,

835
00:33:50,445 --> 00:33:52,948
and I cannot find
any honest words

836
00:33:52,948 --> 00:33:54,491
to explain it
to them.

837
00:33:54,491 --> 00:33:58,245
But I saw your station
on the news,

838
00:33:58,245 --> 00:34:00,455
and I knew that there were
Black firefighters here.

839
00:34:00,455 --> 00:34:03,291
And I thought
that my boys should see

840
00:34:03,291 --> 00:34:06,461
good people in uniform ‐‐
people that look like them.

841
00:34:06,461 --> 00:34:09,506
So...please.

842
00:34:13,009 --> 00:34:14,552
Stand back, sir.
Please.

843
00:34:26,690 --> 00:34:28,275
You all have to sanitize,
alright?

844
00:34:28,275 --> 00:34:30,235
Come on.
Let's go.

845
00:34:30,235 --> 00:34:31,820
Hey, guys, come on!
Come on, boys.

846
00:34:31,820 --> 00:34:32,737
Here you guys go.

847
00:34:39,869 --> 00:34:41,329
[ Sniffles ]

848
00:34:43,498 --> 00:34:45,500
[ Breathes deeply ]

849
00:34:45,500 --> 00:34:47,127
[ Sniffles ]

850
00:34:49,504 --> 00:34:52,716
[ Sniffles ]

851
00:34:52,716 --> 00:34:55,468
Uh ‐‐ Uh...

852
00:34:55,468 --> 00:34:58,054
[ Sighs, sniffles ]

853
00:34:58,054 --> 00:35:01,433
[ Crying, sniffling ]

854
00:35:01,433 --> 00:35:03,768
[ Breathing deeply ]

855
00:35:05,145 --> 00:35:08,898
[ Sighs ]

856
00:35:11,985 --> 00:35:13,445
[ Breathes unsteadily ]

857
00:35:17,866 --> 00:35:20,160
Thanks.

858
00:35:21,620 --> 00:35:23,455
[ Sniffles ]

859
00:35:23,455 --> 00:35:24,748
[ Breathes deeply ]

860
00:35:24,748 --> 00:35:26,875
[ Rubs hands ]

861
00:35:26,875 --> 00:35:29,002
[ Inhales deeply ]

862
00:35:32,922 --> 00:35:34,090
[ Door closes ]

863
00:35:34,090 --> 00:35:35,216
[ Exhales sharply ]

864
00:35:37,302 --> 00:35:39,304
[ Inhales deeply ]

865
00:35:39,304 --> 00:35:42,307
♪♪

866
00:35:42,307 --> 00:35:45,226
See that?
[ Laughing ] Whoa!

867
00:35:45,226 --> 00:35:47,187
This is Station 19.
Oh, this thing is huge!

868
00:35:47,187 --> 00:35:49,272
Awesome.
Whoa, it's so ‐‐

869
00:35:49,272 --> 00:35:50,857
Firefighter, baby!
Perfect, yeah.

870
00:35:50,857 --> 00:35:52,525
Does it look good on me?
Of course it does, yeah!

871
00:35:52,525 --> 00:35:54,069
I'm wearing
a firefighter helmet!
Whoa!

872
00:35:54,069 --> 00:35:55,612
Unh!

873
00:35:55,612 --> 00:35:57,405
Yeah, man!

874
00:35:57,405 --> 00:35:59,240
Hey! Hi!
Hi!

875
00:35:59,240 --> 00:36:00,617
Oh, hey!

876
00:36:00,617 --> 00:36:02,035
Bye!
Bye!
Say thank you.

877
00:36:02,035 --> 00:36:03,328
Sullivan: Come on.
Thank you!

878
00:36:16,174 --> 00:36:18,426
[ Mutters indistinctly ]

879
00:36:21,596 --> 00:36:23,890
[ Sighs ]

880
00:36:28,603 --> 00:36:32,232
This one
was different.

881
00:36:32,232 --> 00:36:33,441
This wasn't
just another video

882
00:36:33,441 --> 00:36:36,695
of an innocent Black man
being shot by police.

883
00:36:36,695 --> 00:36:39,948
This wasn't an officer
making a split‐second decision

884
00:36:39,948 --> 00:36:43,910
that resulted in another
Black man losing his life.

885
00:36:43,910 --> 00:36:47,664
This wasn't fight‐or‐flight
or panic‐induced impulse

886
00:36:47,664 --> 00:36:50,250
or unconscious bias
or unnecessary escalation.

887
00:36:50,250 --> 00:36:53,461
This was the murder
of an unarmed, defenseless,

888
00:36:53,461 --> 00:36:55,130
compliant Black man

889
00:36:55,130 --> 00:36:57,882
in the middle of the street
in broad daylight.

890
00:36:57,882 --> 00:36:59,634
Right in front
of our eyes ‐‐

891
00:36:59,634 --> 00:37:01,678
all of our eyes.

892
00:37:01,678 --> 00:37:03,513
And, you know, white people
are finally realizing

893
00:37:03,513 --> 00:37:07,016
that we aren't hysterical
or beating a dead horse.

894
00:37:08,685 --> 00:37:10,729
They saw that white woman
in Central Park

895
00:37:10,729 --> 00:37:14,149
casually use a racist
police system as a weapon,

896
00:37:14,149 --> 00:37:17,152
and they're starting
to understand

897
00:37:17,152 --> 00:37:21,531
that all of it renders us
Black people terrorized.

898
00:37:21,531 --> 00:37:23,032
Hunted.

899
00:37:23,032 --> 00:37:27,537
Exhausted by
everyday life.

900
00:37:30,623 --> 00:37:32,959
And, you know,
I'm tired.

901
00:37:32,959 --> 00:37:35,545
I'm ‐‐ And I'm mad,
and I'm sad.

902
00:37:35,545 --> 00:37:39,424
And I'm tired for having to
explain why I'm mad and sad.

903
00:37:41,009 --> 00:37:44,304
I'm mad because
I have to take a magic pause

904
00:37:44,304 --> 00:37:47,974
every time I'm being tracked
by eyeballs in a store.

905
00:37:47,974 --> 00:37:51,394
Or when people who are
in life‐threatening danger

906
00:37:51,394 --> 00:37:54,606
choose to take their chances
by themselves

907
00:37:54,606 --> 00:37:57,984
rather than being rescued
by a Black firefighter.

908
00:37:57,984 --> 00:38:00,403
[ Scoffs ]

909
00:38:05,617 --> 00:38:08,119
But, you know,
mostly, I'm scared.

910
00:38:08,119 --> 00:38:10,205
I'm scared.

911
00:38:12,081 --> 00:38:14,793
Because no matter
how tired I am,

912
00:38:14,793 --> 00:38:17,670
how mad I get,
how sad I get,

913
00:38:17,670 --> 00:38:22,175
there's nothing I can say
to change their minds.

914
00:38:22,175 --> 00:38:23,676
There's nothing
I can do

915
00:38:23,676 --> 00:38:28,097
that will make them see me
as a hardworking professional.

916
00:38:28,097 --> 00:38:30,141
A loving husband.

917
00:38:30,141 --> 00:38:34,145
Or just a man.

918
00:38:34,145 --> 00:38:37,106
There's nothing that prevents
something like this

919
00:38:37,106 --> 00:38:38,691
from happening
to me.

920
00:38:38,691 --> 00:38:40,860
Nothing.

921
00:38:40,860 --> 00:38:43,905
I'm scared because
I am eight minutes away

922
00:38:43,905 --> 00:38:47,617
from being another
George Floyd.

923
00:38:47,617 --> 00:38:50,620
♪♪

924
00:38:50,620 --> 00:38:53,164
[ Sighs ]

925
00:38:54,457 --> 00:38:56,626
We're a quiet bunch tonight.
[ Chuckles ]

926
00:38:56,626 --> 00:38:59,254
Look, I'm just ‐‐
I'm just glad to see your faces.

927
00:38:59,254 --> 00:39:01,464
You know,
know you're good and safe.

928
00:39:01,464 --> 00:39:03,842
Are you sure
we can't go to the protest?

929
00:39:03,842 --> 00:39:05,677
A bunch
of my friends are going.

930
00:39:05,677 --> 00:39:07,679
They're all masked
and everything.

931
00:39:07,679 --> 00:39:09,264
I'll follow your lead,
Ben.

932
00:39:09,264 --> 00:39:12,392
Another Black Trans woman
was killed today.

933
00:39:12,392 --> 00:39:15,061
Tuck ‐‐
I want to march, Aunt Roz.

934
00:39:15,061 --> 00:39:17,188
I want to march for you
and for myself.

935
00:39:17,188 --> 00:39:18,565
I want to march.

936
00:39:18,565 --> 00:39:21,943
W‐W‐Why won't you
let us march?

937
00:39:24,904 --> 00:39:25,947
Travis: You sure?
Hey.

938
00:39:25,947 --> 00:39:27,282
It'll be great.

939
00:39:27,282 --> 00:39:29,200
I was thinking tomorrow
after shift,

940
00:39:29,200 --> 00:39:30,702
Captain Bishop
has given the all‐clear

941
00:39:30,702 --> 00:39:32,579
for us
to go to a protest.

942
00:39:32,579 --> 00:39:34,914
Us?

943
00:39:34,914 --> 00:39:37,542
I'd like to go,
if you'll have me.

944
00:39:37,542 --> 00:39:39,085
Uh ‐‐

945
00:39:40,920 --> 00:39:42,797
Cool. [ Laughs ]
Vic: Yeah.

946
00:39:42,797 --> 00:39:44,549
Um, but if anybody
comes at us with weapons,

947
00:39:44,549 --> 00:39:47,844
it is your job to put your body
between us and them.

948
00:39:47,844 --> 00:39:49,846
Got it.
Yeah,
he's not kidding.

949
00:39:49,846 --> 00:39:51,055
I'm not kidding.

950
00:39:51,055 --> 00:39:53,057
I kinda figured,
yeah.

951
00:39:53,057 --> 00:39:55,435
Okay. [ Laughs ]

952
00:39:57,103 --> 00:39:59,480
[ Sighs ]

953
00:40:06,863 --> 00:40:09,741
[ Chuckles ]

954
00:40:11,701 --> 00:40:13,703
I was so desperate
for a promotion

955
00:40:13,703 --> 00:40:17,624
that I was gonna try and stop
Miller's lawsuit,

956
00:40:17,624 --> 00:40:20,627
which is the best shot we have
at anything changing.

957
00:40:20,627 --> 00:40:22,629
Robert...

958
00:40:22,629 --> 00:40:26,633
This demotion
has been humbling.

959
00:40:26,633 --> 00:40:28,092
It's been humbling,

960
00:40:28,092 --> 00:40:31,888
and I've had
so many dark thoughts.

961
00:40:31,888 --> 00:40:36,726
Sometimes,
I doubt my own...

962
00:40:36,726 --> 00:40:39,479
my own goodness.

963
00:40:39,479 --> 00:40:43,900
No one is just good.

964
00:40:43,900 --> 00:40:46,903
We ‐‐ We make mistakes,
and we learn from them,

965
00:40:46,903 --> 00:40:48,154
and we do better
next time.

966
00:40:48,154 --> 00:40:49,697
That's how
goodness works.

967
00:40:49,697 --> 00:40:52,951
It's not
about purity.

968
00:40:52,951 --> 00:40:56,579
It's about ‐‐
It's about growth.

969
00:40:56,579 --> 00:41:06,589
♪♪

970
00:41:06,589 --> 00:41:09,175
♪♪

971
00:41:09,175 --> 00:41:11,177
[ Laughter, chatter ]
[ Sighs ]

972
00:41:11,177 --> 00:41:12,553
Let's get into the car
real quick.
I ‐‐

973
00:41:12,553 --> 00:41:13,972
19.

974
00:41:13,972 --> 00:41:15,974
Hopefully this goes
without saying,

975
00:41:15,974 --> 00:41:18,726
but although you have the right
to peacefully protest

976
00:41:18,726 --> 00:41:20,770
and my
wholehearted support,

977
00:41:20,770 --> 00:41:24,524
I trust that you will not engage
in any activity or action

978
00:41:24,524 --> 00:41:27,819
that will bring discredit
to you, 19, or the SFD.

979
00:41:27,819 --> 00:41:29,821
♪♪

980
00:41:29,821 --> 00:41:31,572
19.

981
00:41:31,572 --> 00:41:33,491
19.
19.
19.
19.

982
00:41:33,491 --> 00:41:38,121
♪ That people do when
they have known true pain ♪

983
00:41:38,121 --> 00:41:40,832
[ Indistinct conversations ]
♪ What choice was he given? ♪

984
00:41:40,832 --> 00:41:42,834
♪ In this world
that we're livin' ♪

985
00:41:42,834 --> 00:41:44,293
All:
No justice, no peace!

986
00:41:44,293 --> 00:41:46,379
♪ When I see you ♪

987
00:41:46,379 --> 00:41:48,589
♪ I see love ♪

988
00:41:48,589 --> 00:41:51,217
♪ I see America ♪

989
00:41:51,217 --> 00:41:53,177
No justice, no peace!
No justice, no peace!

990
00:41:53,177 --> 00:41:55,722
♪ I feel your pain ♪

991
00:41:55,722 --> 00:41:57,557
♪ I share your blood ♪

992
00:41:57,557 --> 00:41:59,350
♪ And I see America ♪

993
00:41:59,350 --> 00:42:01,269
No justice, no peace!

994
00:42:01,269 --> 00:42:02,812
No justice, no peace!

995
00:42:02,812 --> 00:42:04,355
♪ I see you ♪

996
00:42:04,355 --> 00:42:05,690
♪ When I see you ♪

997
00:42:05,690 --> 00:42:06,983
♪ I see love ♪

998
00:42:06,983 --> 00:42:08,317
♪ I see love ♪

999
00:42:08,317 --> 00:42:10,153
♪ I see America ♪
No justice, no peace!

1000
00:42:10,153 --> 00:42:12,155
No justice, no peace!

1001
00:42:22,999 --> 00:42:32,967
♪♪

1002
00:42:32,967 --> 00:42:42,977
♪♪

1003
00:42:42,977 --> 00:42:47,774
♪♪